If I forget you, would you remember me?
If I still love you, would you still love me?
If I fall when old, would you lift me up?
If I sleep, would you sleep by me?
If I run away, would you follow me?
But If I stay, would you stay with me?
If I see you, would you recognize me?
I know you would Not.
That is why, I wish I would whisper
And not hear myself.
I wish I could cry
not feel my tears
nor feel my fears.
Tonight, my final Farewell.
24 August 2014
Remember me (like this)…
A smile that made your heart
A word that made your
An embrace you only wanted
To be tighter
Please remember me…
Forget the frowns
Forget the pouts
Forget the downs
The angry bouts
Forget the times
I wasn’t there
Forgive me for that
Frigid stare and…
Remember me like this…
A hug whenever you
A back rub…
late at night
A place to go to
When you felt so low
A touch that felt
The provider for the family
Companion always there
Old friend and confidante
Cuddly Teddy bear
Gentle soul with good intentions
A moral man who could not lie
Humble man with no pretensions
A man you can’t forget, even if you try
A stubborn man…I’ll give you this
A simple man…tho’ a bit remiss
A man always ready
with a tender kiss
So when, (and if…) you reminisce
Please remember me
This morning when I woke up in an unfamiliar place, dark and empty.
There were no doors, no windows I was trapped.
No light, I could not see.
No air, I could not breathe.
I cried out for help, no one could hear me.
Alone and smothering as the rhythm of my heartbeat grew weak until there was no beat.
The glimpse of my soul once filled with vibrant life now fades away as dark as the place I find myself.
Wait this in not a room,
Wait this is not a place.
But, this is my world without you.
Dark, empty, alone and hurting.
I am alone in the dark
A shadow covers the beam that once lite up my life,
My heart is empty,
My dreams shattered,
This is my world without YOU!
You believe me to be an altruistic man as I smile with sneering reluctance.
You may think me gentle as I extend my hand in goodwill, but degraded am I as I wistfully watch my hand recoil from your filthy phalanges with its foul clutch.
You wave me off poised as I stand here in this field laden with perennial flowers as they stir aloft, but unbeknownst to you I berate you as you retreat afoot and go forth from my company into the night.
You deliver beautiful words in my image unto your friends, but I carry your name with seething indiscretion into the fire.
You entitle me as a "friend", but I explicitly fornicate your secrets as I spitefully scathe and scoff unto you.
You divulge your mysteries but I deprecate them and take exception to your standing as I plunge you within rueful nether worlds foreboding in treachery and wretchedness...
Why? For I have no pride unto you.
You place your life you into my palm and recite proverbs appealing for my heart unto yours, but guileful am I and in wicked glee do I carry unto the grave your beauty with its secrets.
You inscribe me as a "fiancée" into forever without recognising the falsifier whose witness bears mistaken.
You smile as your recite dreams aforementioned in times bygone, but I chastise you, and your children do I condemn into hell for their fondling fledgling and fornicated perversions.
You call me a "friend", but I am forever you
It’s that time of year when I think of you....
And all the strange things we used to do...
We were young and cast our fate to the wind...
Regardless of the message that we might send..
Out to the world , cause we didn’t care...
And that’s what brings me here to share....
You treated me just like a queen honey bee..
And I believed and worshiped thee...
We shared our ups and downs together...
In thick and thin and stormy weather...
What was mine was mine and yours was mine.....
And we never ever crossed that line !
I assumed it would always be just you and me...
As no one else appealed you see....
My friends said you will break my heart...
But I told them that, I was just too smart....
As I remembered , what I was taught....
That no one could control my thought...
And then it happened I lost my heart....
My bracelet, my watch and my college ring...
And then you did that awful thing...
You lied , you cheated , you had stolen my bling...
And that’s why now you aren’t around....
Plus no way... will you EVER.... be found....
Cause I live where the GATOR is king......
And...like no one steals my BLING !
Love can overwhelm so quickly
It can make you act silly
Only time spent will tell what is to be
I wanted love
That highest of human emotion
But a brother I was to you
Our friendship which I nurtured and grew so carefully
Scattered to the wind so quickly
It crumbled with a soul wrenching ferocity
That leaves my heart heavy
A heavy price for my greed I paid
I now brood in dark despair
Displaying my sorrow for all to see
The embarrassment of showing my hand
And the rejection of wanting more is too hard to bear
I want to fade away
And sleep for eternity
In the graveyard of actions
That brought nought but misery
I will always remember how I held you dear
I wanted more so I could always keep you near
It was more than anyone or you ever dared
I wish you well
My longed for
My forever I will yearn for friend
The seed that was planted
Gave life to a relationship
That matured too early
And is now no more
I wish for chances anew
But I know I will never want anything
But all of you
Always dear to me you will be
But I have no choice but
To set you and me free
From a friendship wrecked by me
A chill wind rustles through tree branches
Shaking the last of the dying, shriveled leaves,
Softly floating to the ground,
Contributing to the symphony of
Autumn’s farewell when walked upon..
Squirrels dart about foraging for fallen nuts.
Summer’s bright afternoon sun
Gives way to Autumn’s brooding light
Fading earlier each day in anticipation
Of season’s end and of the chill and
Darkness ahead, with the last leaf
Falling helplessly and inexorably
To the ground.
Spring and Summer’s delight
Fade into memory… as if a fairy tale…
To conjure up when in the midst
Of the clutch of Winter’s icy spell,
Watching our hopes and dreams
Lying crumpled and faded
Under Winters first snowfall.
Oh beautiful Autumn, I feel your pain
Your once glorious mantle of gold…
Your majestic leaves a virtual
Kaleidoscope of breathtaking hues,
Banished from our sight forever.
But like our youth…the memory
Will live in our hearts forever!
Copyright©2011 Beatrice Boyle
(All rights reserved)
For Carol Brown's contest - Leaves, Leaves, Leaves.
Why are we parted ?
without saying farewell
moved on and..
left each other..
tears ,sighs everywhere ..
half-broken hearted I'm
half-broken hearted you..may be ..
my days are passing by as quite as your lips
weary nights are all alone..
like a moon lives alone among throbbing stars..
you looked into my soul and one day you promised
that we'll be never apart ..
there was a spell -bound between you and me
we had to move on together ..forever
but Alas !! we broke all promises
you tore my heart ..
and set it on fire .
why are we parted now?
were we just decepting each-other ?
were our hearts lying my dear ?
Now I ask my heart ..
can I forget the moments ?
we shared together
laughed together ..
cried together ..
And I find my heart silent
it's just drowning in sorrow day by day
Ask your heart my dear ..
what it whispers to you ?
can you forget all those moments ?
we shared together ..
spent together ..
Can you forget my dear ?
can you forget "ME "my dear ?
just ask your heart !!
just ask your heart !!!
Touching to sea essence with their noses
Old men by the seashore
Sails up flags waving goodbye
Don Coto's Face brown and wrinkled
Smiles from ear to ear
Prepares for the voyage to gather bounty
From the land the sea to see
The coconut trees
Leaves rubbing against each other
Waiting for their daily drinks to arrive
The sun plays peekaboo
With the rolling clouds of white and blue
Man loading their Cargo
Their wives saddened
Josélito Negrita and Tony
Chasing down fiddlers
by the mangroves
Oblivious they are
Life is just fun and games
Atop the hill
The river flows endlessly
Mi madre Maria tomasa
Is at the river bed
Andre the fiery
She's beautiful, radiant black hair green eyes
Strong yet loving she was
I miss her my family mi familia
My people mi gente
My culture mi cultura
Mi India Borincana
With your music of love
Life and lore
I will never forget you
Dreams never die
Although years may pass
I'll shall return
Just like my
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A Camacho jr.
I vanish from the face
Of the world,
Into an oblivion,
Into the void
Of nothing beyond.
What if I don't
leave a word
or two, behind for you.
What if I go,
Cold and slow.
What if I draw
Before I know
That I'd immerse
lower than low.
What if the day
Songs of skies
allay and lull
me to sleep.
What if I cease to know
How the emerald
on that grass will glow,
How it feels to wake up
The leaf will stir.
The wind will take you far.
Joys of breathless delight
Would still rupture.
Countless days will pass.
That my toes do not
touch the grass.
Until a lonely star
On a dust-less night
my name, in your ear.
What am I supposed to think? What am I supposed to say? All these lies you bottled up come sweeping, crashing with the tides. My footing's gone, the ocean real, but how am I supposed to feel? And here I am, a drowning mess, a loveless lie, I do protest. And here I am a drowning mess. So all those things you said to me? Where they just lies out of pity? So all those things you said to me? Or am I lost in salty waves? Yes I know my future's grave. Or am I lost in salty waves?And now the panic in my head, when I should be tucked up in your bed, reels and reels right here instead.I'm going down, a sinking ship, funny what name drips off my lips. It is not God, or Angles plenty, or even that I'm just damn ready To let go of the hell and the lies. I'm wishing for your gentle eyes. Or at least the way they always seemed, but perhaps that's just this salty dream. I have no clue what I'm to do! A drowning hopeless mess, for you-- think it's cute, and oh so funny, but here's the bitter truth now honey. I'm going down. There is no help. I can't be saved by God himself. I put my life, my whole world of trust, and you've thrown it away for lust. Well what the hell's a girl to do? I'm just so entranced by you!
Where to begin " proclaim its not you " just me
You were all I wished you could be
Will that help - set you free?
Please don’t beg, please don’t plea..
There’s no point in asking once again “why”
And you know me " I won’t lie
Gently cutting the cord, severing the tie
Whilst gently whispering my final “good bye”
We’ll always have these moments, imprinted and set
Lest you are worried that maybe I might forget
So there’s no need to curse the day we met
I promise I leave with no thoughts of regret
We gave it all " put in a good try
A heavy heart " a sad sigh
So I say my final “good bye”
Keeping my head held up high
his name became fame
he spoke gave us hope
he laso knew
what we've go thur
he ran out gas
his words will last
We weren't like friends,
We were like sisters;
Bonded in such a way
That my heart ached when we fought.
You were always there,
In your own peculiar way.
You were always there,
Making light of my problems.
You were always there,
Taking my mind off of everything...
You were always there.
You were never there,
Letting me cry on your shoulder.
You were never there,
When I needed help.
You were never there,
To help me ease my pain...
You were never there.
Through all of my misery,
I miss you.
I miss my friend.
I miss my sister.
And we both made mistakes,
Because neither one of us was perfect;
But you made the ultimate mistake.
You doubted my loyalty,
You doubted our friendship,
You doubted me.
But it was you that you should have worried about.
You ruined us.
You still blamed me.
You still made me believe
That it was somehow
And I hate you for it.
But I hate myself even more;
Because even though I hate you,
And even though you aren't worth it,
I still miss you every second of every day.
I still wish that we could be friends again.
And I hate it;
Because even though I want to,
God I want to,
I can't let go.
I just can't...
PREFACE TO A JAMAICA FAREWELL
When I’m gone
remember me in tamarind season
reflecting the bitter
sweet of life we shared
to the ambers
and blues of Caribbean skies
Listen to the thunder
and hear my soul
In the searching winds of time
look for me in the ebb and flow
of the tides:
Frothing the shores
with salted memories.
I have a pain in my heart
It started this rainy day
Sitting on your old couch
Tucked my legs up real tight
As you sat on your leather chair
It felt familiar
Only this time you started to talk
Talking of times that weren’t good
And how there are more of these
Than times that were good
My eyes started to sting
I looked into my empty cup
Then I looked outside
At the grey skies overhead
Then at the TV that wasn’t on
I tried to look everywhere but you
It was true, there was more bad than good
But wasn’t that the case for most things?
You told me you still loved me
I said you were a liar
Love was something to fight for
You never did that at all
You were too busy chasing dreams
While I counted your footprints
So now I’m left clutching at my chest
While you’re counting fool’s gold.