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Details | Rhyme | |

No More Sweets

Censored licorice lips, Chocolate jealousy dips In candy coated control. Sugar sprinkles melt, Cotton candy welt, Empty like a doughnut hole. Confused little candy cane, Wrapped in red, white and pain, A Christmas tree limb she stole. Left out and unwrapped, used, Feeling tasteless and confused, Kaleidescope pieces in a glass bowl. Smothering the flame of my personality, Tossed to the side, no more sweets for me. 11-18-2014


Details | Free verse | |

Soul mates solace

When my final shadows cling on desperately
Where I fight formidable battles
to merely hold the light
I send you loving vibrations
and soul sustenance
Deep from the cathedral
of one heart to another
where today no choirs sing
nor symphonies play
Yet it is here where we meet
in spiritual solace
here to surrender 
and exchange inestimable treasures
recollecting memories 
like unopened letters
Galaxies are stretched
over chronicles of shared history
Nebula birthing stars
will be exposed
in forth-coming conversations
bringing short-lived fulfillment to you
Hungry to feast
now will be the time
to approve your blood art vision
and with my own haunting surrender
as dappled shades ink stain your chest
I will reside with you and share, mesmerised 
pens - by branding
as this will be your written reams to me
your artist's pallet or brushed canvas
no need for words
and yet creating
mysterious magical moments
Bitter-sweet the music
that dances taut guitar strings
but now blood approved
please go kick your heel up
return to your laughter
and ride on the breeze
for not all are lost
change not
for I am with you always
to love, listen and comfort as one
with you in me and I in you
as masterpiece


Details | Marsiya | |

I'm my Daddy Made Over

Dedicated to my Dad Jerry W. Niday 3/20/1952 - 6/18/2013


I am who I am because of him
He’s the reason for my son’s name
He gave me my courage & my strength
To stand tall even when standing wasn’t easy
Stand for the ones who can’t
To think and fend for myself
I’m my Daddy made over

Taught me to fight back 
To never back down
How to pick myself back up
When I’ve been knocked down
Fight for what I believe
I’m my Daddy made over

He gave me my stubbornness 
Gave me my pride
Gave me my temper
Taught me not to take crap
To speak my mind no matter who
Work for what I want
I’m my Daddy made over

How to keep my emotions in check
How to handle large amounts of pain
When in trouble he always had my back
He knew how my mind worked better than anyone
I got it from him
I’m my Daddy made over

Even though he’s gone
I’ll stand and continue on 
I may stumble I may fall 
May even get hurt along the way
But I’ll pick myself back up
I’ll dust myself off and stand tall
I’m honored and proud to say
I’m my Daddy made over


Sabrina Niday Hansel



Details | Elegy | |

I Need Your Help Daddy

I’m tired
I’m Physically and Emotionally tired
I don’t want to be the strong one anymore
I can’t this time
I don’t know what to do Daddy
I need your help down here

I can’t get back in control of my emotions 
I’m having a hard time dealing with your absence
I’m having a hard time standing by myself
I need your help Daddy

I’m broken and lost without you Daddy
I need your will to want to carry on
I need your strength to over come this
I need your strength to stay standing
Your courage to fight back again
I need your help 

Please Daddy I’m at a loss
How am I suppose to do this
I need your guidance 
I need you to guide me back
To whom I was before
I need your help Daddy
I need your help







Details | Free verse | |

Dementia

He was always so happy
strong and bold.
He'd give you the shirt off of his back.
Tough.
Independent.
He had a rough life
growing up through the depression,
but like he always does,
he got through it.
He has two boys, of whom he is so proud.
Moved from Regina, to Victoria.
He had the best life anyone his age could have wanted.
But ever since his wife died, 
he has not been the same.
Sad
Lonely
Empty.
But like he has always done,
he got through it.
Mind slipping, 
just a little forgetful.
That's how it always starts out...
But like always, he powered through it, 
until now...
He is not the same person that I used to know.
He been sentenced to the prison in his own mind.
Possessed by the thoughts of his dogs ashes.
He likes to play the blame game,
but we know he doesn't remember that it was him.
He wakes up in the night
shaking with pain, 
tears streaming down his face.
There is nothing we can do,
Oh well...
Two more tylenol.
Hold on to hope
for as long as you can,
It's only a matter of time now.
He gets vocal, a very loud tone.
He'll block you in your room
and make false accusations
But we know that it's the pain induced monster in him.
Tick tock, tick tock...
You can't handle the stress anymore
you have to leave.
Just hope for the best, 
maybe it will get better.
Surprise, it doesn't.
Your denial is foolish, everyone knows 
what happens next.
Sedation
Medication
Anger
Hurt
All results of
dementia


Details | Free verse | |

Bill


R.I.P. William Dale Eubanks
d. July 1, 2012, aged 68 yrs., Tennessee Ridge, Tennessee

Death came as no surprise
the first Sunday in July;
it claimed you, on a ridge in Tennessee,
with kin who took you in and waited with you
through the last hard days.
You kept what fears you had well hid,
did not betray with loud complaint
the fate you could not but know awaited.
A smile, a joke, a hug – exotic meals –
And genuine interest greeted all you met.
And you were, certainly, never boring
but well-traveled and smart
beyond the telling.
We’ll miss your wit, your bright demeanor,
and will remember all you freely gave ---
and what you took from us
with your passing.


Details | Romanticism | |

Miss You Most

My heart cries out for your tender touch,
It goes with out saying I miss you so much.
Haven't seen you so long it's killing me,
Where ever you are I want to be.
I think of you each passing minute,
My life seems empty without you in it.
Wish you were here to hold you close,
You might miss me but I miss you most.


Details | Salaam | |

Yeh khaalipan


Jab Meri Bechaini Mit Jayegi
Jab Mere Dilko Sukoon Mil Jayega
Yeh Khaalipan Mit Jayega

Do Pal Ki Chandni Ke Liye
Aj Bhi Zinda Hoon Main
Meri Khaamoshi Ke Ageh Aasmaan Bhi Khatam Ho Jayega

Kehne Ke Liye Toh Roz Marta Hoon Main
Thoda Aur Marne Ke Liye
Yeh Deewana Kal Phir Ayega


Details | Rhyme | |

Put a bullet in my brain

Put a bullet in my brain
as the rain sweeps her out of my arms
and places her into another's.
Put a bullet in my brain
for I don't want to see love slip away
please end my suffering,
for I don't want to dare see her in the arms of another man.

I fear the tear that slips away from my soul
and touches the ground with a splash
as she is washed away by the lashed memories of the rain,
please, someone put a bullet in my brain.

I can't bear to see her with another man
laying in his arms
as he charishes her beauty
just like I did to her.
As she smiles and laughs at his jokes
my heart would not bare the sorrow and pain
that would tare my heart apart into pieces of tainted love.
Please tell the rain to stop,
as the pain grows when rain comes down,
please someone end my suffering,
put a bullet in my brain
and stop the rain
that washes away every memory of her.

Stop saying you miss me
and just kiss me
for I can't take the pain
of the rain that takes you away.
Kiss me and stop saying you miss me
for those are useless words to me.
Love is where it's at, so show me.
Don't go with him, he'll treat you wrong.
Love and laugh with me till the break of dawn
as we yawn the long night away.

Kiss me and don't say you miss me.
For if you go away from me,
I couldn't bare to take a tear and waste it away.
Tears, sweet tears crying for you,
doesn't that mean anything to you?
I ask you, stop the rain,
stop the pain and put that bullet in my brain.

Let the red blood flow from my temples.
Let the plow dig my grave,
for I can't bare to see you with another
in his arms, him kissing you, where I kissed you.
I can't take it, I have to make it,
make that pain go away.
Prayer didn't help, God turned a blind eye
when I came up and said why!
Put that bullet in my dome
and when I lay in the coffin, looking at the roof of the church
you come and kiss me, and then you can really say
that you'll miss me.


Details | Epic | |

We Lost More Than a Dad

We lost more than just a Dad that day
We lost half of how we came to be
We lost we four girls first love
We lost our Best Friend

We lost more than just a Dad that day
Our Mom lost her Soul Mate, Her other half 
Our children lost their Papaw
We lost our family’s foundation 
We lost the glue that held us together

We lost more than just a Dad that day
We lost the Strongest man we ever knew 
We lost the man we looked up too
We lost we four girls Teacher of many things

We lost more than just a Dad that day
We four girls lost our Hero
We lost some of our Light
We lost part of our Heart
We lost part of our Soul

We lost more than just a Dad that day
We lost some of our Courage
We lost some of our Strength
We lost some of our will to fight back
We lost some of our will to carry on
We four girls lost more than a Dad
We lost more than just a Dad that day


Details | Elegy | |

A TEAR FOR DADDY

written 22nd Oct 2013



Even after sixteen years
 still I cry your daughters tears
Every year on this day, will always be sad
 known only as the date, God took my dad

    1st June 1954- 22nd Oct 1997
    
         Allan Thomas Holmes


Details | ABC | |

A Shady Tree

I know its the summer time because of how naturally 
Your beauty compliments the caress of a summer breeze
As I watch the world from beneath a shady tree
I take in the delightful comfort of everything I see
But in the same breath I am holding up my hands
Lord will you please give me back the things I no longer have
They are even more a part of me now that they are gone 
As the sun falls below where the horizon is still holding on
Somewhere between the falling light and a star lit night
Is a dream that last forever and will never say goodbye
As the wind gently blows through the brush and shakes the leaves
It begins to hum a melody that I want to sing
At that very moment I smile for all the joy I have
Its so uplifting for me to see melancholy dance
Soon the morning sun will rise and capture my eyes
As I watch the hand of God paint a brand new sky
With every stroke of color I swallow all my pride
And I find a new place to dream of endless times
If I should ever get to the place I left my broken heart
Only then will I believe this brand new day will start
Again Im reminded of why my heart beats so restlessly
Only the speed of thought and my soul beneath this tree


Details | Couplet | |

Goodbye Granddad

Gravity pulls my tears into pools.
Im sinking in sorrow -emotional fuels. 

Just turn back the time, I just want a moment. 
To say goodbye once, to cherish and own it. 

I loved my granddad - a man more than great.
Paired with my Granny as the perfect mate. 

A montage of memories that rush my soul.
My eyes fill with tears, I'm losing control. 

Just keep it together, it's what he would want. 
They all say the same, but I stand in front. 

Happiness swells, yet sadness prevails.
Like Christ on the cross, with hands full of nails. 

Life has a reason, and death isn't treason.
-It's moving on up.. A lifetime's a season. 

I look to the sky and say my goodbye.
The time won't turn back, I gave it a try. 

I close my eyes and imagine this-
Paradise in a place full of bliss. 

World peace in a piece of the world.
Without loss and bombs never hurled. 

Snow that falls that doesn't freeze.
Sun that shines that doesn't cease. 

A land where "The forever" is real.
A scene where the sick always heal.

Life with infinite love, like gusts in the wind.
Two little doves, with eternities to spend. 

God has a plan, fool-proof to the core. 
Now Granddad's with him, a reward of much more. 

-Yours Truly


Details | Romanticism | |

A Flower's Funeral

A sweet flower's funeral
displayed in the cold months
of snowy weather and bone chilling shivers.
A sweet flower burned away, dried up;
buried six feet under.

Oh, my sweet flower,
how you once bloomed with no remorse,
like a madman blooming with beauty
and a glorious halo over your head
shinned with such power and blinding glory.

Oh my sweet flower how you have gone now,
resting in peace in the land of paradise.
Oh, my heart it is weak when I see your face,
of once beautiful smiles and warm embraces.
I can hear your crying out to be free.

Snowing and bone chilling cold ripes at my soul
and feelings of sorrow rage through my blood,
boiling my hatred to the world, for losing your
sweet and ever glorious beauty.

What I would give away, if I could be with you
one last night, one last night together
to hold you in my arms, to smell your sweet perfume
that brings back sweet memories of you and I.
What I would do to be with you,
such romance travels through my heart in the highways
of my veins in my body, love is all throughout me,
and my heart breaks when pictures of you start to collect dust.

My love for you, my sweet flower,
is still ingering through the air,
as I travel and look upon a tombstone
which shows your beautiful name.

Come to me my dear flower,
when spring comes,
come to me my dear, sweet flower.
And bloom once again,
twice as large as last year,
and ten times more beautiful then last year.
Come to me in the first months of spring
in my dreams, so I could sit and talk with you.
I miss you already,
and my heart crys,
my eyes flood with tears of sorrow.
I miss our love we shared.
Long walks,
cosy talks,
warm cuddling embraces
and beautiful displayed in a picture frame.
Now I hear the tapping of raindrops on my window pane.
That is all that keeps me company,
that and the rose you gave to me
and a picture of you and me.
Love is endless, even when blue eyed Death comes to visit
and play a game of chess with us,
we all play our game, my love.
I shall go tonight
in my sleepy slumber
and dream of you in the times of our height in our love for each other.
My lost love, you are gone, resting in paradise,
but never forgotten my sweet flower.

-10/6/2013-


Details | Light Poetry | |

When I grow old

I will grow old
I tremble in the cold
None to care
I have nothing to fear...

But my love is alive
Though I strive
Beautiful roses to pluck
Yet I am stuck..

I grow old with wrinkle
Yet I will kinker
You will always remain in my mind
This is how you will find...


Details | Romanticism | |

Can you feel me

Feel me standing there
on the draw bridge
that stands stubburn and erect
over the rushing waters blown by the wind
back and forth.
I listened to the crows
posted on gargoils designed
of eightenth century Gothic architecture
singing their death songs,
when the sun is setting in the far.

The voices of women passing
startle me with a feeling of sorrow
I can't breathe, I am dying.
Feel me, can you feel me rot away?
Slowly but surely rot away
as time passes with ease,
and taxi cabs take smiling, intoxicated faces
to wayward cafes, oh how they screech to a halting stop
and wave to me to get in.

"No thank you, I'd rather walk." I say to the smiling faces
highly intoxicated with the thought of the birds and the bees
rattling around in their empty minds.
Then they drive off, into the city lights and turn a darkened corner.
I look at the rushing water
and feel myself rot away
slowly but surely rot away.

Can you feel me?
Can you hear me?
Can you see me?
Feel my heart thump with slow paces
that manage to keep up with fast melodies.
Of songs that play in your mind
only the ones that make you sigh
and think those one days in Spring time
as you walked over the draw bridge
and paid no mind to the water underneth.
I hear no more talk of you and me, I hear no more talk
of the good old times we all shared.
Time has passed, as I take my last breathe
and hold my chest and shead a tear.
Feel me, can you?
If you can, put your hand to my weak heart 
and feel it thump away with every second wasted
on useless items.
Now, see me a man of one time greatness
reflect his life with a reflection in the water below.
How I sigh and cry and breath heavely,
as I feel myself rot away.

The voices of woman pass me by.
Tomorrow is a new day,
for the smiling faces in taxi cabs will go home
and soak their raging hangovers with cool, wet rags.
As I still stand on the draw bridge singing with the crows,
feeling myself rot away.

Can you feel me without you, rotting away?
I surely can feel myself rot.
Such a heavy word, "rot"
So vulgare, yet a great description of me,
without you.

I pull out a shawl you once wore and I kiss it.
As the wind gusts and the sun rises and my shadow
comes to meet me, the wind shall take my last memory
of you away.
And I shall weep no more.
Then what will I do? Shall I walk the streets
and think of you.
Yes you, still rambling all throughout my head
like a lose screw.
Can you feel me? Feel me rot away
feel me think about you, and all your works.
Can you feel me?


Details | Rhyme | |

the love we had seemed so far away

i look to stars and wishes flew through space never to be heard again
fun to friends hearts do meld and break facing until time ends
this loop that plays and beats that syncopate become but a gem
pleasure a chest opened in surprise feeling no need to defend
galaxies away lonely planets  please keep me in mind
 distance could grow something fond or lost between the lines
gps my love you can see  its still where I  left it behind
thoughts fade away with life love lives forever in my rhyme

Im sorry, I wanted more,with  all this space between
disconnected and I still look to that day
we talked on the phone, our separate homes
the love we had seemed so far away

without air i couldnt breathe squeezed until I'm passing by
no water flow my skin would dry and I return to the sky
sunny days would blacken out, attracting need for desperate lies
to make up for the beauty lost from death slowly closing my eyes
that fire once sparking motion snuffed in huffs slipping away
dwifting I sway shaky grounds where once I sat easily and stay
upon my feet I still float drowning out all thoughts that stray
Tho these ends can come swift its worse to miss and hear you say

Im sorry, I wanted more,with  all this space between
disconnected and I still look to that day
we talked on the phone, our separate homes
the love we had seemed so far away

down the road,flying free, I ride the wave and hope for your return
through several seas and cloudy peaks, storms of sand, I will not turn
helpless to fate and future events, nothing prevents something to learn
  sights may not sore, nothing much looking more, isn't my concern
I hope the best and happyness is true to bless you, not just in dreams
we can meet when we sleep discussing life while sleeping seems
thanks for trying Im not exactly dying, banes of  sentient beings
real enough moving on is rough, i'll love you forever, writting my means


Details | Lyric | |

Same Ol' Song

Girl, I'm gonna miss you when you're gone,
Everything right done went so wrong,
I guess it's over now, so...so long,
and it's time to be movin' on,

Yes, I'm gonna miss you when you're gone,
I'm really sorry things went wrong,
I wasn't where my heart belonged,
I quess it's over..now..I'll be movin' on,

We all hear the same ol' song,
Boose 'n' beer and things go wrong,
I held her near where you belonged,
Oh my dear!...I done did you wrong!

And I'm gonna miss you when you're gone,
I wasn't where my heart belonged,
Everything right done went so wrong,
and I'm gonna miss you when you're gone,
Yea, I'm gonna miss you when you're gone.


Details | Rhyme | |

Dialogue of Souls


Best of friends, for countless years,
we had the best of times.
Now as my eyes are filled with tears,
your soul to Heaven climbs.
The path we take, not always clear,
I feel so lost without you here.
Your last words, prophetic now,
“I’ll be home soon”- you knew somehow.
You left me here, I’m so alone,
but I dreamed Heaven had a phone.
We talked all night, you fell asleep,
I held the line to hear you breathe…  

 

   Copyright © 2013


Details | Ode | |

All I Want is to be With You

All I want is to be with you.
Time beats on, but I miss you no less.
Sadness hits me hard, I want nothing but you.
Life here is so dark, you are my only light.
Forced apart, tearing me apart.
All I want is to be with you.
No smile shows while you're gone.
Only sad eyes and cold stares.
All I want is to be with you.
This life I'm living, so bleak.
In my mind, all I see is you face.
I hear only your voice, feel only your touch.
And I search for your scent.
All I want is to be with you.
Time beats on, but I miss you no less.


Details | Free verse | |

Don't Try It

A single kiss from thy lovely lips,
so sweet and so divine,
yet I taste posion upon your tongue.

Your beauty so glorious,
like a blooming rose so beautiful,
yet, why do mine eyes go blind
in the sight that you walk along with another?

Yes you, walk with another,
arm under arm,
lips touching lips in romantic kisses,
it makes my blood boil,
for mine lips are dry.

For mine eyes have seen your glory,
yet no one here listens to my story.
You are evil, yes you are,
don't try to deny,
Listen to a man of experience,
you might as well save some expense.

I write of our long romantic walks
we took together, under the shade of olive trees,
how we went apple picking in autumn time,
and made love in the foyer.

Nomore of that sweet and passionate love,
nomore silent kisses in the night,
when the wind blows hard against the branches,
that tape violently on my windowpane. 
Nomore somber tears shed, when you got sick,
and nomore warm embraces when you shed tears of betrayal.

Betrayal now is a game played by a fool,
such as I,
to think I'd have a happy life with you?
Huh, only a fool would think such a thing,
but now I sit, looking at the foyer,
where we once made sweet, passionate love,
nomore will that foyer be filled with exotic pleasure.
Nomore will you be filled with smiles and exotic pleasure.
I've done my job, as a good man shall do,
now pack your things and get of my stage,
the spotlight yawns for anew,
and the audience grows tired and restless of you.

Now I live life anew,
you too shall see life in new eyes,
walking hand and hand with the blond, blue eyed devil
you call your own.
Shall he take one kiss from your lips,
and die of the posion he tastes on your tongue,
shall he go blind, when he sees your true, black beauty?
He will see the ugly soul, covered up by white rags,
and cheap makeup,
and then he will come to me,
and shake my hand in condolence
and say, "You were right!"

Now you are all alone,
looking for another, as you did many times before,
Now you are alone, walking an open road,
spying on another,
fear of being alone.
Now, you see when you play games with a good man's emotions,
don't try it,
because a good man is not meant to be toyed with.


Details | Lyric | |

Chasing A Dream

To what end can I chase a dream
You know it would seem 
To be insane…………
Never knowing what's real but still feeling the pain

I can reach for the flowers in bloom 
But they're all consumed
The fires' to deep - I just wish I could sleep

I look to the moon for answers but she just smiles
I don't have a clue - I've got too many miles

To what end can I chase a dream 
You know it would seem 
To be insane…………
Never knowing what's real but still feeling the pain

I cry out in the night - but the echo hurts me
It breaks me down into broken dreams
I run for the door but its no longer open - to me
I cover my eyes...... but still I can see

To what end can I chase a dream 
You know it would seem 
To be insane…………
Never knowing what's real but still feeling the pain

©2013C.L.Baker


Details | Blank verse | |

I miss you

I miss you more than I could ever properly stress... You were a great friend, a true proper friend that anyone would be lucky to have known and luckier still to call their friend. I cherish the many times we shared together in laughter and fun. I think of you often and wish to go back to those simpler days, when things didn't get complicated or even hard. But as I write these words and remember you I wish for only your forgiveness. I let you down and I so very sorry. If I could have been a better person. A better friend then maybe now we'd still be able to share the laughter, the happiness, the pain, and the sadness within our lives. But as it is I abandoned you and lost a truly precious gift. If not for my selfishness perhaps you still might smile in the most dire of times...
with an aching heart 
and heavy head 
I ask for your forgiveness 
as I lay you down to rest
Perhaps if I were better,
If I had been a good true friend
Then you would have felt so alone in the end

My dear Alleria... I miss you every day
With an aching heart I now finally say
Goodbye sweet friend...it has been a year
I must go, and leave you once more.
But this time I leave you in the hands of God
He will care for you and guide you

With as much love as I possess...
Farewell...

I will always, miss you.

---
In Loving memory:
Alleria
June 07, 1993-August 20. 2012


Details | Ballad | |

Praying For The Day

I pray for the day,
That my sweet child comes home,
To my loving arms,
So, I can love and hold them tightly,
Each and everyday of their lives,
To be there for them and guide them,
As they learn to grow,
Into a wonderful adult,
That I know they will become,
For they have such a wonderful heart,
And as people will see them grow each year,
Learning along their way,
Having their own imagination,
To shine and guide them,
To be a very unique person of their own,
But they are already very different,
In many different ways,
By their looks and their loving heart,
And of course being very smart,
Their beauty will shine,
In many different ways,
Both inside and out,
And I pray for the day,
They will come home,
To stop these painful, loving tears.


Details | Imagism | |

our shadows

Cloudy weather elimination are our shadows


Details | Lyric | |

Over The Bridge

It is here I am safe
It is here that I know
but over the bridge 
Is where I must go

The bridge that gives passage
over quick muddy water
though why I say that
I don't know why I bother

over the bridge 
is a tall oak tree
and standing beneath it
is someone waving at me

crossing the bridge 
I see a man standing there
with paint splatered pants
and a head of white hair

looking closer I see 
exactly who's there
I see it's my papa
and I can't help but stare

I run right toward him 
and give him a hug
I ask how he got here
his response is a shrug

it's then I remember 
the fact that he'd died
it's then I remember
the tears that i'd cried

I ask how it felt
when he had died
he then looks at me 
and he promptly replied

he calmed all my fears
about what lies boyond
then he looks up 
because the suns almost gone

he says I must go
before the sun sets
but I don't want to leave
I'm not quite ready yet

he gives me a hug 
before I go
then tells me I can't share
the things I now know

I give a quick nod 
looking up at the sky
I don't understand
but I don't have time to ask why

turning around 
I try not to cry
I just cross the bridge 
when the sun leaves the sky

I turn back to look
one last time at the tree
but my papa is gone
as was meant to be



 


Details | Lyric | |

How Alone Am I

How Alone Am I
How Sad Am I 
You never Know
I never Show

You Smile WIth A Shine
I Smile with Wine
Your Enthralling Eyes
Defines My Style

Missing you is my life
Yes I live, but I strife
Finding you beneath the stars
Misng You my life chars.


Details | Ballad | |

Isolation

How can I tell you?
I can't stay with you.

Neither I can give up on you.
Fear of losing you is losing me.
It feels like slow death every night.

But we are just stuck in our spaces!
Unable to connect from two feet distance.


Details | Elegy | |

Gypsy

I find it strange coming home 
and not seeing you this evening
I know I shall never see your eyes again
but I shall always feel their gaze
anytime thoughts of you come to my mind
I can still hear your pitiful moan
the first day I kept you in the kennel
Forgive me for not realizing 
that a spirit like yours
was not meant to be caged
After you were set free
how different and alive you looked
jumping around in the yard
with  those precise energetic leaps
So goodbye my little Gypsy
I shall never see you again
but you will always dwell
in that secret spot in my heart
Thank you for the beauty
you brought into my life



November 4, 2013


Details | Romanticism | |

To Be Apart

Her smile always greets me
As I close my eyes each night
The love in her voice is comforting
With passion, she's burning so bright

A sparkle in her eyes
And a fire in her heart
Let's spend together our lives
Couldn't stand To Be Apart

To Be Apart would destroy me 
Reduce me to the tears
Without her right beside me
All throughout the years

I don't know what I'd do
If I ever had to restart
And oh how much I'd lose
If we were To Be Apart

The most beautiful girl I'd ever seen
With every desirable too
She was everything to me
When we're apart, oh what will I do?


Details | Rhyme | |

Get out of my Heart

I lay, dripping, soaked within a dark sweat,
seeing and hearing your soft voice abet.
I want to run, to leave this merciless realm,
but you pull me closer, without a choice at helm.
Get out of my dreams.

I miss you, but I hate you, every last memory.
You taunt my every being, you’re all that I see.
I see you in the crowds, or when I’m all alone.
You’re here and there, on your heartless throne.
Why couldn’t you stay?
Get out of my life.

I hear your laughter and see your beautiful smile.
Once so beautiful, now helping others with guile.
You’re now decayed, withering into shallow dust.
I loved you so much, and never again will I trust.
Get out of my head.

Tears I weep, when others aren’t around to see –
I remember the days, the months and years I bleed.
I try to forget, and to hate you and your choices.
But all I can hear are these damn forgiving voices.
Maybe I am what you proclaim me to be.
Was I really that monster, that demon you see?
I hate what I love and love what I hate.
I try to erase our past, and to claim it our fate.
But I can’t let go, you’re all that I hear and see.
I wished you could have loved, that loathsome “me”.
Get out of my heart.


Details | Free verse | |

Missing You

Can't you see it
Flashing in the night?
Can't you feel it?
You're taking away its light.
Can't you see it
Fading out of sight?
That's my heart, lost and lonely,
And it's missing you tonight.


Details | Rhyme | |

Paper Thin

Your paper-thin porcelain skin,
I know how to get right under it.
For kicks is why I do it now.
You tell me to love but I never knew how.
Our feet hitting pavement,
We spent the day in sunny California with sun kissed skin.
I’m learning to forget and how to fade scars,
And you let me let myself down so hard.

Your paper-thin porcelain skin,
I know how to get right under it.
And now I just do it for smiles,
We’ll never see flower girls stumbling down aisles.
I’d lose my head just before that chance,
But if you want we can still have a first dance.
Cause I think I say things that I don’t mean,
Once upon a time you meant the world to me.

Your paper-thin porcelain skin,
I know how to get right under it.
But I’m trying to refrain,
To make this not all end up in vain.
Maybe I can learn to love like some people do,
And you can learn to love yourself a little too.
Or it is in all fairness to let this go?
I guess we can try but then we’ll never know. 


Details | Romanticism | |

Goodbye my Summer Love

Though the midnight summer rains
as we sit together under the geraniums,
hanging low and at full bloom,
we hold hands and talk of old times;
times that were kind to us and our youth.
As summer storms light up the night skies
We kiss the storm away, as it rolls through the grey skies
and the lighting cracks the clouds in half,
riping a hole in the universe, as we kiss the night away.

We sit throughtout nightlong summer dreams
and talk, and we hear the storms roll into the golden hills
of summer meadows filled with roses and a field full of daisies.
Love rests in time to see us grow old together,
and love strengthens its walls and pulls us closer together.
We shall go now, as day turns to night,
into our chamber of love and sleep the night away, together.
Hold us close to each other, as I rest my head on you sweet bossom,
and you nurture me to life of talks of love and beauty.

Nature whispers and sings us songs,
as we kiss and go for walks through the countryside
looking at the golden hills soaked in the rolling storms
that summer offers every year, upon a silver platter.
Sooth me, my love as I tell you of the sorrow I have witnessed.
Embrace me with your curiousity and tell me of the beauty in
the secrets of life and its hidden messangers
that hold secret letters from Devils that send temptations
to destroy something that we share, that is so beautiful and true.
Tell me that life will be okay, and my love is still true and with you.
Tell me my sweet and beautiful love, tell me if everything will be alright.

Love has seen us come and go, through the narrowed and sprinkled streets,
as we move through life fused at hands and eyes blind, not noticing the possiblities of death at any moment stalking us with knives jabbing at our backsides.
We are blind, for we see each other and only each other.
As we live life eyes a blazed looking at the sun, we do not notice the obvious between us.
Caring from me, at my time of need I never noticed the betrayal of our love.
My heart sees, but I deny the obvious and see what I hear.

As I see the knife drive deep in my heart,
you with a suitcase in hand,
I stand on my front steps and I watch the summer storms
come back over the golden hills to say, "hello"
Love is the same everytime, like a summer storm;
beautiful to watch, but when it leaves, it is depressing to say, "goodbye"
Now I sit, as the geraniums dry up and die
and the wrinkles at my eyes make me blind,
I see love walk past my house and mock me with lone kisses.


Details | I do not know? | |

Can't Be Friends

Before, while, and after I said goodbye
I couldn't help but sit there and cry.
I cried on and off for 7 hours and slept one
Woke up and cried again, I still wasn't even done.

Two more hours…wake up again.
Every so often a tear falls in the open.
I literally feel an aching pain in my chest
Thinking of how I lost you, wanting to forget.

I'm feeling sick and I still haven't ate.
I want you…my thoughts aren't straight.
Mane, almost every tweet...is about you
And almost every thought…is about who?

Someone who could have been playing me
Or showing me where my desires could lead.
I wanted to tell you everything, I wanted to say more,
There wasn't enough time and now my broken heart's feeling so sore.

I just wanna be alone and listen to this depressing song,
I can't get you out of my head... it hurts. Is that wrong?
I understand that I may be foolish wasting my time hurting over you.
But in all honesty my dear, I really wanted us to be something too. 


Details | ABC | |

Swept By Sight

Over and across the moon
In this lonely night,
I stare at the castellation
Which glitters your face.
But because I miss you
The wind whirls out your name
Then eventually it feels like rain in my heart.
As the clouds draw near
Deep down within, my river turns to a sea.
With tears in my eyes,
I look away.
Because I refuse to let the storm determine my destiny
Because it's your hurricane that I fear the most.


Details | Lyric | |

How Do I Love You So

In this wretched and dark place,
it's the only world I can show my face.
Ashamed of my love,
A past full of disgrace.
And yet all I want is to see your face.
But it's something I've longed to
erase.
Why do I love you so? 
These crazy feelings they need to go.
You have my heart racing like i need to show,
my love for you but I just really don't know 
how I love you so.
It's been a long wild trip,
but this I must rip.
And thats you from my heart
Yea that'd be a better start.
But here comes that thing again 
you make me want to sing and then
You see right through me
do you know what you do to me
All these things I've done you see
Fueling my insanity.
Make me want to fall apart,
Spill knowledge from this broken heart.
All I ever wanted was to be set free,
Can you really not see all of what you've done to me?


Details | Rhyme | |

The last Letter

The hardest thing I had to do?
The day I said goodbye to you.
We sat there and our words were few
Yet in that moment I just knew,
This is our last goodbye.
You didn't cry it's not your style
And you and I each wore a smile
But both were thinking all the while
You'll soon be there on high.

I never thought my love could grow
But being there it was just so.
We'd sit and let our love just flow,
Then came the day I had to go
We said our last goodbye.
Now daddy what you did not see
Is how my heart broke inwardly?
Those gentle words must comfort me
You'll soon be there on high.

09.05.2014


Details | Rhyme | |

The Chase

I remember when the chase began 
So many years ago.
I saw you turn, so terrified
You had just met your foe. 

Deep in your eyes I saw the fear,
The why, the when, what for?
Wondering when death would come,
Knocking at your door.

Then with resolve you looked at him
Ready for the fight ,
Your fear had turned to anger
You fought with all your might.

The battle lasted many years,
The wounds, they took their toll.
One night while you were sleeping,
The angels took your soul.

Now we who still are breathing
Remember how you fought,
And even though you could not win,
The precious moments that you bought.

Brenda Meier-Hans
October 2012
3rd place Contest: One Sad Poem 


Details | Acrostic | |

Rest InPeace Regan

Rest in peace my charming friend; lo your body is now asleep but you spirit remains with us always. With our constant lively action, everything seems much more still without you here, but we shall remember and cherish you as you were-fun loving and full of life. You lit up the world around you just a little bit more with your perky attitude and bright smile.
Evening twinkles a little bit brighter with a newly gained star. A special one-of-a-kind treasure with your light of burning passion smiling down upon us as you await our arrival
Softly we hum to your memory; as we blissfully play back in our minds all the times we had with you.
Time was cruel, taking you at early twenty-one years, but we took what we could-what we were given and made the best of everything we had. Cherishing every moment and enjoying you and your hilarious antics

Invaluable you were to everyone who met you and knew you. You were an amazing person and wonderful friend who always stood by everyone’s side and helped those who needed it. Knowing how full of life you always were, it’s hard to believe that you are now parted from this life. I still see you with that glorious smile upon your face filling your eyes with a deviously mischievous twinkle…
Never did I imagine I’d be having to say my final farewell so soon; the way you were burns in my mind as I whisper my love and goodbyes to you one last time...

P
E
A
C
E

Rest in sweet peace my dear friend; never will you ever be forgotten- Forever engrained in our minds your legacy will continue one for years to come…
Early morning reality strikes its cold, hard chord as sudden sadness as despair finally sinks in… you have been removed from this broken world where we mourn your loss; the pain hitting each person deeper than the one previous
Goodbye my adventurous dream, the spark of memories hold together the shattering pieces of my cracked heart that sorrow threatens to crush in the grips of its mighty claws tightly surrounding my aching, bleeding heart…
Angels rejoice as they gather you in hugs and welcome your coming, leading you to your place beside our lord, residing with him as you patiently await the rest of us to join you
Nostalgically I smile and watch as you fade into my dreams; I will never forget you my friend, remember me as we wait to see each other once more…

----
R.I.P
Regan Steel; friend, brother, and more...
October 28, 1991- July 15, 2013


Details | Free verse | |

Skin Deep

Achilles' heel 
You’re another day older
The world’s much colder
She…

It’s not your fault
They were taken 
Don’t blame yourself 
for God’s mistake
Is…

Her beauty reflects your own
Her life reflects your future
Chasing rabbits will get you there faster
Loss of faith will bring you there faster
Watching…

The ball drops
It’s clever to see
What happens to us
And here we are
Waiting…

Yes, 
Take the evil out of this
You’re stronger
She’s stronger and always,
Loving…


Details | Rhyme | |

Who Or What Can Fill Life's Empty Void

Who are what can fill your life’s “empty void?”
In spite of the many things
 that you have “enjoyed.”

Drugs… Sex…  Money…  Are you concerned?
Has your life been one that’s
 taken “the wrong turn?”

There’s many choices to make.  
I’m fooling you not!
But there’s a godly principle
 that must be taught!

The void we have.  Only the presence
 of God can fulfill!
Bringing you true love, 
is God’s purpose and will!

Won’t you take a moment
 with the king of kings?
And allow him to take control of everything?

Jesus will never disappointed you!  
Not now or ever!
He wants to be your friend! 
 Today and forever!

The God of this world and universe, 
wants to come in!
A Brand new way of living…  
Is waiting to BEGIN!


By Jim Pemberton


Details | Lyric | |

Why my heart ponder

Why my heart ponder?
I, your offender..
What I gave?
Dark love in a cave...

I promised you a thousand lands
Didn't give enough sands...
Changing me and my love,
Hiding behind the black scarf..

Hiding me I couldn't speak,
Feared losing in a streak.
This was my only reason
But turned my passing season..

Now I rattle,

As a foolish cattle
Leaving your land and cheese,
Yet to find me some peace...


Details | Free verse | |

To a love ill never let go of, sorry

you whispered sweet doubts into my ears
but i was so blind to acknowledge the fears
ill never regret how i felt for you 
but you seem so far gone, i don't know what to do

i only did what i thought was right
but i guess i lost all fear and extinguished the light

Bay, i wish i never left 
but its to late to take it back

Bay, i wish i had some sort of sign
to know your OK

i have this horrible habit of making a mess of things
you might think it funny
but i jump when the phone rings

i hope you dont blame me for what happened 
but then again it must have been my fault
im sorry

i guess all those times i apologized were in advance
for the heartbreak that i probably brought down upon you
bay, im sorry, im sorry, im sorry if you ever read this
you'll finally understand the way i still feel about you 

nobody ever said it was easy 
but nobody ever said i would fall this hard

i miss you 

im sorry
im sorry 
im sorry 
im sorry
im sorry

please bay, im sorry 
please bay 



Details | Rhyme | |

If I die before I wake

As I die he will be with me,
I fell in love he had the key,
And always knelt on one knee.

My last thoughts are of him, 
As the lights go dim,
Life circling on a rim.

All at once we are apart,
The taste is so tart,
It all hits me in the heart.

You are left to live,
My heart your captive,
There is nothing to forgive.

My cheeks blush so shy,
With a tear in my eye,
As I start to die.

Fear not for I am well,
As many up here can tell,
It is not quite hell.

As I look from above,
kissing the forehead of my love,
I wonder what he dreams of.

I look at him so fondly,
his lips curve so grandly,
as he sleeps so soundly.

I'm like a hummingbird fluttering over his bed,
I wish to be with him but I am dead,
My life over and has fled.

I fear for my love for he is kind,
Strong handsome and well lined,
But now I leave him way behind.

Finding love is like a quiz,
Never knowing what it is,
He needs love from a heart as strong as his.


Details | Monorhyme | |

How much I miss you

I miss you like the night’s sky misses sunshine
How long shall I have to wait to make you mine?

I miss you like a poor drunkard misses wine
How long shall I have to wait to make you mine?

I miss you like a hungry guy wants to dine
How long shall I have to wait to make you mine?

I miss you like a poem’s missing last line
How long shall I have to wait to make you mine?


Details | I do not know? | |

Moving On - E

Taking a step 
out of the apartment today
remembered the times, that you could do the same
stayed up for hours till the morning
sitting on the bed, sobbing and mourning

A year ago you were here
and you were smiling
But it looks like those times are flying

Cause I'm trying to move on
so this is the last time i'll say: 
I miss you more than I could ever
I wish we could all stay alive, forever
But that's not the case, so starting today
I'm moving on.

As I walked in the room
The silence cut through me
Reminding me that it is true
I will never see you
But now I have to see
That it's the end of you, not me

So this is the last time i'll say: 
I miss you more than I could ever
I wish we could all stay alive, forever
But that's not the case, so starting today
I'm moving on.


Details | Prose Poetry | |

I Hope You Know I'll Always Love You

I am what you call a hopeless 
romantic,
But im also a lost lovers cause, my 
heart belongs to another
Yet in my head a love triangle starts 
to form, the girl I love doesn’t love 
me
She holds the heart to another and 
mine caged to the floor,
She isn’t afraid to fight for what she 
wants, not even when it comes to 
leaving another man torn
Trust me she’s happy, as that boy 
holds her heart ever so close
Seeing what I shouldn’t I smile as I 
wear my blind fold,
Blind to everything around, lifeless 
staring into air
My train of thought running so fast, 
the second I stop you’ll hear a crash
Derailing my hope, for ever finding a 
love so pure & rare
Wishing I could hold the hand of the 
lover who stole my flame,
Wish I could change the last days in 
which we parted ways,
Realizing now that we can never be 
the same
Finally saying it out loud as tears run 
down my face
You stole my happiness, as I walked 
away that day
But it’s because as of what you said 
I guessed I changed,
Now every relationship has just be 
the same,
No one can seem to bring back that 
flame,
Because a love likes ours comes 
once in a lifetime
Well at least it does to me,
But I mean you’re happy with who 
your with 
I mean I only wrote this as I heard 
exchanging “I love you” flow from 
each of your lips.


Details | Lyric | |

Dard

"Badi Tassalli Se Toda Tha Tumne hamara Dil.
Hum Aaj Bhi Mohabbat Nahi Kar Paaye."


Details | Romanticism | |

Nothing I Can Do

There's this one girl I love I'm really missing
Hour by hour, and every second too
Remembering nights of lakeside kissing
But There's Nothing I Can Do

She was everything to me
A cool winter's breeze...
A warm summer's shore...
But oh how the time really flew
When she'd come knocking on my door
Now there's Nothing I Can Do

And while the days continue drifting past
My love for her still lasts
So I'll send it everyday to my love, just for you
Because there's really nothing more
There's nothing else
There's Nothing I Can Do


Details | Free verse | |

Das Ein Mannlein


Das Ein Männlein

The silent echo reflects through the lodge,
Ein Männlein Steht im Wlade ganz Still und Stum…
Repeating itself in the young boys head.
He is not yet a man, but stands proud enough to be,
Coming back here to relieve himself of his past.
Crying out as he reaches the splintering and tilted door.
The memories of the cold, the blistering cold overpower him.
He spends time collecting himself as the moon moves across the sky.

He had been here with his family-
Says the toppled dining room table.
He also wasn’t the only child in the lodge-
Says the curled up paper dolls in the fireplace.
There was music- Ein Männlein Steht im Wlade ganz Still und Stumm…
Echoes the toppled ivory-keyed piano in the corner.
There was a war, as the Russian Graffiti on the wall complains.
The crashed bomber-plane with the seat full of bones assures that fact.

He came back to the rotting lodge in the forest
Back to the overgrown pile of shambles to find something
As he digs he picks objects out of the rubble, a boar’s head, jewelry, dog-tags,
And finally the thing he seemed to have been searching for.
A baby’s bathtub, with a scrolled handle, stares at him through the dust.
What happened to the other child?
She still has all of her baby teeth in her sweet little baby head.
She’s been sitting in that bathtub ever since that horrible night.
When she was boiled to death by hungry war criminals. 


Details | Haiku | |

Hurt

I don't understand why,
Why my best friend, doesn't wanna be friends anymore.
Caleb I know I may have hurt you,
I know I may have made you laugh, I did, and I made you smile,
I love talking to you, but for some reason you don't wanna talk to me,
I am wondering why.
Caleb, I miss you like hell, and I am going through hell not being able to,
To talk to you, to hear your voice, all I have are pictures, and a picture,
A picture in a frame. 
CAZ it is killing me inside being away from my best friend,
My one and only true best friend,
The only friend that has been by my side, through thick and thin,
Has been there for me when my great-grandpa died, when me and Josh broke up,
When my life didn't mean anything, the one who saved me from killing myself,
The one who talked to me everyday just to make me smile, and have a good day.
Now you are killing me by not talking to me!! Did you forget about me??
Did you forget I was there for you too?? That we were here for each other, 
That we made the promise to always be here for each other??
I miss you a lot, and I just want you to come back home Caleb Allen Zummak.


Details | Free verse | |

breathe, suffocate


velvet tears slip down my cheek.

a gentle cry.

and the wet drops seep in the corners of my mouth

until

my lungs are full of my own salty, crystalline tears,

bringing buoyancy to boats that sail inside my veins.

as a rule, I try not to cry.

if a single tear is shed, who is to say that another will not follow?

compelling the rest to join

until I’ve immersed myself in the sea I’ve incepted,

and soon

all I see are the opalescent peaks of water colliding with my skin.


Details | Epic | |

Your always loved

Today is the one year anniversary
since you have left us
you are always loved
and we miss you very much
I can't believe you are gone
it is like a nightmare
and I can't wake up
I wait by the phone
just waiting for you to call
but I realize you are not calling
I miss you grandma.


Details | I do not know? | |

Please Come Back

I'm sorry for all the horrible things I have said,
I'm sorry for all the bad things I have done,
I'm glad to havve you as my best friend again,
I was sad, depressed, and desperate to hear you voice, and,
Talk to you again.

Oh Caleb, I cannot tell you,
How happy I was, happy to finally,
Talk to you after months,
You will always be my best friend no matter what,
You know that I will always be here for you,
I miss you a lot, why oh why must you live,
So far away?

Why do you live in Illinois,
Why did you leave me,
Why did you go away and not come back?
Caleb, please come back real soon, we all miss you,
But I miss you the most.
You are my best friend,
And I am here to stay.

I will never let you down,
Never put you down,
Never will I forget about you,
I will never hate you,
It is impossible,
It is impossible, because you picked,
Me up when I was down, you
Were always there for me, and you still are,
You never let me down, and you never called me names,
You Never let me be sad, and it was amazing,
To have such a good friend around,
So why, why did you move away?

I know it was for your protection,
I know you had to get out of that horrible place,
That horrible dark place,
Oh how bad I wanted to beat them for beating you,
You did not deserve that, and I hate that image,
Noone deserves to be treated that way; I don't care,
Who they are.

Caleb thank you for being my friend again,
And forgiving me, and for always being here for me,
May I ask one little favor of you?
PLEASE COME BACK??????????
Always~N~Forever,
Briana Lynn Palmer
06-17-12
Dedicated To: CAZ


Details | ABC | |

Sometimes I Like To Pretend Things Never Came To A End

Sometimes I like to pretend, things never came to a end. But over time, our love became a crime. I didn't know what we had, would ever end so bad. But then I knew things weren't right, when we started to fight. Now I walk down memory lane all the time, the pain is worst then committing a crime. We only caused eachother pain, but we were eachothers maine. I thought things would be alright, but I cried alot that night. I don't want things to change, without you my life is strange. You said you wanted me so much it started to hurt that you couldn't wait, now im just another person you hate. When you said you didn't care, I knew the person I loved was no longer there. You aren't the same, the new you is lame. We both fell, now it's hell. You use to always be here for me, like family. But now your nowhere in sight, things aren't right. Empty is all that I can feel, I still can't believe this is real. I didn't mean to let you get away, I didn't know what to say. Am i with the right guy, or am i telling myself a lie. I was afraid to loose what we had, but to you that choice was bad.


Details | Haiku | |

Empty Seat

I now eat alone. You’ve been gone so long, so why is your place still set?


Details | Free verse | |

Chair of Death

On a cool afternoon for tea,
She sat in that chair,
Humming for our silence;
Her bones quivering the instrumentals
Within the ruffles of the skin.
When her tune came to an end,
She took time to turn our way.
Not because she felt obliged 
That she had all the time in the world,
But because her youth had shredded
To make her nothing but one
Who hoped for time.
For the painstaking moments passed
And we locked eyes.
She fought her raging wrinkles to smile
And nod my way.

Perhaps she tried too hard
To say a decent goodbye.

One would think he keeps it
Because he has to.
We'd sit on the floor first
Before we touch that chair.
For it encases you, 
Tightens its weight upon you
And hums so sweetly between the ear and soul,
The sounds of a sour, unsaid farewell.


Details | Free verse | |

Fading

I die a little bit
When I think of you
How my heart bleeds inside
If only you knew

Jasmine sits on my table
The flowers you picked for me
They're wilting away just like you
And your place in my memory


Details | Burlesque | |

I'm Blinded By The Truth

I have eyes to see,
but they only wish
to see you.

I'm blinded by the
truth, that I can't 
adjust to life without 
you.

My vision is cloudy,
I'm in a state of despair 
now that you're no longer
there.

Tell me what do I do, 
when my eyes are 
stamped with your
image... 

And I can't focus on 
anything else, when 
they only wish to see 
you.

Written by: Poet Shi


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I wish she were dead

I wish she were dead

If she were dead
May be then i could have
Had enjoyed her lie by me
As deep nights surround us.

If she were dead
May be all she stood for
Would be immortalized
On cold stony floors.

If she were dead
May be the fantasies would cease 
That supersede reality
But love never dies
That's what they said.
Humbly i bow, facing the end, 
As I've found, painfully, what life really meant.

A fate all men face
The inevitable end to the rat race
we see, we feel, we fear
What lies beneath our apathetic face.

Hoping against all odds
That beyond the doors of our faults
Redemption, forgiveness, paradise, 
Await us, our self-pitying lies.

In truth the summer dies.
Monsoon's rains and winter's skies
All hail the endless cycle
The toil of years gone by. Our demise, 
Unquestionable obedience to Thy will.

Would she regret it?
Would she pray for one more chance?
I swear by my death bed
i'd pray for one more dance.
One more time to stare into her eyes,
One more sight, one more love driven crime.

I wish she were dead
May be then i could live for
Another future, faded within our closed, 
Hidden destines.

I wish i was dead.
In another life i'd choose
Another path i'd fall in to.
Another choice, i'd fold in two.
No, i know..
Given my breath once more
Without a second glance over my shoulder,
in a promiscuous heart beat
I'd choose this this life once more.


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Too Close Am I

I shattered my own heart,
Wrecking balls, tumbling decisions,
It fell upon me too late,
Forever and now I will lose what I held so dear,

But I held it out at arms length,
I let it fall, the uncurling my fingers,
Sinking into an emotional seat that engulfs me,
I so desperately buried the threat,

Happy once, I have not forgotten,
The taste of joy upon my lips still,
How could one ever forget the ecstasy that is happiness,
For we all seek it within the nil,

Berserk and rampant in my head,
A beast set loose upon my mental state,
So silent am I, my comfort so walks away,
So silent I can hear the screams echo within the blank,

Damp and dark are my thoughts of late,
Cramped tight inside, no prison break,
Hoping to find my way,
Before fear swallows me in regret,
And I become lost in my own wake.


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13 texts

“[DELETED] [1:26 AM] i know you’re sleeping and your dreams are probably prettier than my company but i miss you.”
"[DELETED] [1:34 AM] when i close my eyes i just see you how can you sleep, do you see me too?"

"[DELETED] [1:56 AM] i wish i could sleep without you, being awake is a nightmare."

"[DELETED] [2:06 AM] if only i could drown in these blankets, my skin is cold without your touch. "

"[DELETED] [2:27 AM] i have taken a few pills now, your voice is getting louder."

"[DELETED] [2:45 AM] god, my chest is heavy."

"[DELETED] [2:47 AM] the burning in my throat from the shots of vodka i have downed still hurt less than the agony of wanting you. "

"[DELETED] [3:01 AM] please wake up, i need you. "

"[DELETED] [3:51 AM] my hands are shaking, i remember how they used to shake when i kissed you."

"[DELETED] [4:24 AM] are you awake?"

"[DELETED] [4:33 AM] i miss tripping over my words when we spoke and your feet when we danced, but now i am only tripping over myself trying to find where i belong without you."

"[DELETED] [5:12 AM] my vision is getting dizzy but you are still clear in my mind."

"[DELETED] [6:02 AM] remember me?”

— thirteen texts maybe i should’ve sent to you


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EYE Don't See -Part 2-

My eyes
Refuse to see tragedy
My eyes
Marinate in dread…unable to embrace ecstasy 

And I’m left in my solitude…
My eye’s sagging…from endless mourning  
And I’m close to my demise… 
Only to find myself disappear…
When will peace draw near?

You don’t see 
What damage you’ve done
Just let me be
Leave me alone…hand me a gun

I yearn for unspoiled glory
To make me feel perfect once more
I yearn for flawless serenity
To make me feel no regret…don’t ignore
My calls…don’t hang up on me

You don’t see 
What damage you’ve done
Just hear my plea
Listen to my excruciating cries…
Listen to the truth, not the malicious lies  
Our journey has just begun   

And I’m left in my solitude…
Do you hear me weeping?
And I’m close to my demise…
Only to find myself disappear…
When will peace draw near?

Eye can’t handle the stress
Let me release my horrendous distress
Eye can see you making that same mistake
At least MY life isn’t at stake

And I’m left in my solitude…
My eye’s weeping…do You feel my lament
And I’m close to my demise…
Only to find myself disappear…Stepped on like cement
I’m aching with discontent… I abhor this torment    
When will peace scrub off my fear?

I can’t believe my eyes
Your guiltiness flows into me…
I can’t believe I fell for your lies
Your heartless action rape my mind…you don’t see
What my EYES see…

You’ll never see 
How much pressure you put me under
Unchain me from this chamber
And watch me flee…

When will you be set free?


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Coldly Alone

It's when the night gets cold
I miss you the most
With no ones there to cover or care
It's when the night gets cold
My thoughts flood my brain
Your image takes such a strong hold
I have no control
It's when the night gets cold
I ache for you the most
Wanting to be so close
But no one near to see nor hear
It's when the night gets cold
I miss you the most


Details | ABC | |

I Can't Believe It's Really Over This Time

I really hate this feeling, sometimes I wish I could stop breathing. I don't wanna try, just leave me here to die. You were the thing that made my life living for, but your no longer mine anymore. I feel so much pain, sometimes I believe I'm going insane. I'm missing what we had, although it was bad. I'm always walking down memory lane, why can't you see my pain? I know people change, &&' things get strange. I guess I gotta face it, she's my new replacment. I can't believe it's really over this time, I feel as if i have commited a crime. I live in a world of sorrow, so I don't ever worry about tomorrow. I didn't even have time to cry, because i had already said bye. I feel like I'm digging a deeper whole, so I'm hoping Jesus will take control. I'm sorry for my dumb mistake, but baby now I'm wide awake.


Details | Free verse | |

Snail Paced

Lost, empty, dead inside— All typical words of irrational despair Cradled lust Wandering in a foreign land, Dazed and disoriented Crushed and soured in youthful wisdom I wish I had hung on longer… Daisies in the sunlight Him, behind her The most beautifully shaped smile I have ever seen So glad it was all captured in that one photograph Snails crawl down the pavement Trust loses its glamour I am desperate to crawl away from the slime of deception The very slime that I leave behind… Evil overtakes the weak-minded The strong look on, glad it is not them Gargoyles grin in happy anguish Sin is pride There is no room to be the devil’s advocate I cannot be singled out of the sorry crowd anymore I cannot even gather enough thought to write My wings are so wounded, I cannot even bare to think of the possibility of flying So worried, so sad, words largely overlooked So many layers and so many ideas overlooked, Always thought of, but never written down Never coming to light Your dimples make me cry… I am so exhausted I wish to sleep forever My fingers are sore, my pencil is purple I feel like time is losing its meaning It is losing its power among the majority of maggots The wristwatch is pinching me And the hands on the sad clock with Roman Numerals have stopped Maybe the battery has died Mine has not, and yet I am not moving very fast There is no progress here It has been more than five years now Since the day I looked into those green suns of eyes Too long for my liking I would rather feel the darkness, be the darkness But instead I am gray, boring and dull The fact that not one truly cares Does not bother me as much as the smile The smile so far away Alice in Wonderland Caught in a cold, wishing myself better I overwhelm myself to faerie dust Welcome dreams…welcome rest


Details | Free verse | |

Memories Made

The coldest white had fell
Surrounding all the feet of those behind
The day turned into hours
Just in the mind
Did the gift appear in night?
Or were dreams reality?
Did it come from karma’s hands?
It drifts from sanity

The trek towards that happy place
You’ve been there many times
Something was different now
It held a horrible surprise
The box wasn’t full of life and sound
The ashes of memories made were here
Taking longer to twist the knife
Left remains of a child now in tears

Standing still you couldn’t breath
Excuses flying in your mind
Trying to figure out the scene
Hoping there’s time
You look up to see
Expectant eyes for the last time
You wish you could keep
But it’s the saddest of a smile 


Details | ABC | |

Feeling Down

I'm feeling down, &&' I'm already on the ground. I cant get any lower, my patience is getting slower. I've already hit the floor, &&' I'm becoming sore. I'm not sure where I went wrong, but now I dont belong. I'm like the unknown, all alone. This feeling is unbarable, the pain is unbelievable. I'm ready to walk out the door, I can't take no more. This is why I don't trust, I always get pushed in the dust. Now I got to cover my eyes, &&' ignore all your lies. I've been left in the rain, I've felt the pain. I knew things were wrong, but I stayed along. Now I'm here all alone, waiting for the sound of my phone. I wouldn't wish for my worst enemy to feel this way, that's what I have to say. I didn't really have a choice, now I'm missing the sound of your voice. I made mistakes that wont fade, not even with a blade. My heart isn't bullet proof, &&' that's the truth.


Details | Free verse | |

Beloved Friend I Have Fallen

An angel, cradles me, in her motherly arms
I have fallen, I am venerable 
I told myself, I would not do this, no more
I have failed to keep my promise, to you
I have not stayed true
Tears flowing, as I smile, just, for you!
Remembering the times, when you cupped my face, in your hands
Your blue eyes, gazing into mine
Telling me with sincerity
‘I am the sunshine, that lights up your world, each day that dawns’
My heart aches, it rains with love, having fond memories of us
Wash me clean, being human, is challenging me!
Emotional bondage, creating blocks
I need to move on, you are dead and buried
Your time here, over
My heart struggling, accepting this reality
“Forgive me”
I pray to be free!
“I Love you, my beloved, friend”


Details | I do not know? | |

Within Me


Within Me

Flowing through the rivulets of my everyday thoughts,
memories of you surface, gasping for air, breathing in,
permeating, absorbed by the pores of my ageing skin.

Famished, greedily gulping mouthfuls of fractured life,
awash in distant yesteryear, when your feathery kisses,
banished the vacuum, dispelling my anguish and strife.

You are eternally carved, and embroidered into my soul,
I wash ashore, smashing against the boulders of the now,
seeking solace, begging for absolution with my empty bowl.

The book of fate is sealed shut, the tea-leaves have been read,
nothing remains within me, the burden of smiling has been shed.

Now I am stranded, between dreams and the empty years ahead,
searching for forgiveness, in the miles I have yet to wearily tread.



Details | Free verse | |

Where Are You When I Need You

Don’t pretend to understand me
When your frustration and anger, comes first
Don’t pretend to nod and listen
When all you hear, is what you want
You treat me as if I am a brainless idiot!
Blaming me because I don’t agree with you
Because I won’t let you control me
I am a big girl living an independent life
So, don’t pretend to know how I feel
When you only believe the lies you convince yourself, I am

Don’t say you love me, when your ego takes precedence over my feelings
Dreaming of what you want us to be
Dreaming of me, from a far
Leaving me alone, to problem solve, on my own
I do this to show I care
To show you I am responsible
All I want is for us to be on the same page, sharing our love again
Laughing, kissing
I need your love and attentiveness
I need to feel your nurturing warmth
Instead of taking it away from me
Knowing my vulnerabilities
Deliberately hurting me
You told me you were my knight in shining armour
Where are you, when I need you?


Details | Free verse | |

Sepia stained tears

Sunglass water pails
The cover up, never fails
Draining water from her 
Heartbroken pools
A screaming silence
Blocked behind her 
Tinted view
With a blink, rivers flow
She is lost and all alone
Who is there ?
When there is nobody else
Beside her.

She feels
As separated as her tears
As they are falling
Hope disappears
Collecting pain
Where the hazel pools drain
In her
Sunglass water pails..


Details | I do not know? | |

Parallel Lines

I am lost, and broken,

trapped alone,
in a foggy crevasse,

wedged between sanity | madness | anguish.


I lose, and break,

memories taunting,
my waking thoughts,

stripping me bare | naked | exposed.


I survive, barely breathing,

slipping deeper,
into nothingness,

feeling little | shattered | numb.

I am incomplete, without you,

broken and fatigued,

gnawed by emptiness | desolation | pain.


I persist, each breath futile,

crushed, yet alive,
comforted knowing only,

that you breathe | you live | and you love.




Details | I do not know? | |

Father

you are my father
my knight in shining armour
my protecter, my guard
my helper when its to hard

but now your not here
i feel so alone
i cant see or hear you
my heart turns to stone

i finally see you
holding and caring for another girl
my heart is breaking
i want you back in my world


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Widow's First Christmas

Turkey's done
dressin'  turned out  fine
gotta stop thinkin'
gonna loose my mind.

     Presents neath the tree
     that boy is one big smile.
     Ain't gonna start cryin
     hold on for awhile.

          God I miss you honey
          each and every day.
          Christimas time don't make no sense
          since you gone to stay.

               Sure miss you carvin'    
               that laughter filled with glee.
               Can't get no Christmas spirit
               when you ain't with me.

May the Lord bless you
keep you safe and sound
We just havin' Christmas
done here on the ground.
   
     Happy Birthday Jesus
     take care o' my ol' man
     and we'll be doin'  your party
     just the best we can.

          Merry Christmas darlin'
          where ever you may be ....
           "Whatcha got there boy?
            A present for me ......  "


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Missing You Already


Missing You Already

Your trip...
I know it will only be for three days
But without you here, I feel as though I'm in a daze

The day you were to leave I walked you out to the car
Knowing that you would be so far
I kissed you good-bye and quickly turned away
So that you would not see me cry

That first night you were gone,
I suddenly felt so all alone-wanting you to come home
I sat alone in our bedroom,
My heart dropped and I quickly felt gloom

I played a CD of Gloria Estefan
And cried so hard 'cause you were gone
Waiting in anticipation for your phone call
I thought I was going to climb the wall

Oh, baby! I miss you so much, and I long for your touch
As I lay here in our cozy bed all alone
I cry out: "please baby, please come home!"

Thinking of you arriving at the airport in Savannah,
I turned on the tv only to find myself watching that
Silly dumb show "Hannah Montana"

I then went to bed and cried myself to sleep
I cried once more, "please come home babe, because I cannot stand to weep"
I found myself lying on your pillow
And happy to know that you're my perfect fellow

I prayed to God that night for you to have a safe flight
'Cause baby I will always love you no matter 
If it's morning, noon or night


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I Gave You Right Back

I remember when you gave yourself to me,
But I gave you right back.
Because I couldn’t stop hurting you,
And I hated doing that.
I can’t be selfish as I wanna be,
and much as I need your touch.
I can’t have that follow me.
Enough just might be enough.

But love comes all the way back around,
I didn’t know you then and I don’t know you now.

Hearts beat,
Trust me,
I asked mine to stop beating aloud.
Tears are dreams,
That have to flee,
Cause they’d been cast out. 
And smiles speak,
Yours talks to me,
But I replied with a frown.
Cause I can’t keep this up,
Enough is now enough.
Don’t look for me I’m gone now.


Details | I do not know? | |

2 Years

2 Years 

It’s been two years now daddy
Since you left me here alone
I still lie awake and wonder
If you’ll ever come back home

Then I remember that you can’t make it
For different reasons than I wish
The next time I see you dear father
Will be when I come home to you

I still miss you more than ever
I never thought I’d make it this long
Without you guiding me and encouraging me
With everything I do
You have never judged me for anything
No matter what I have done

You have always been my hero dad
For that I regret never saying
I am thankful for the time we had
But am greedy for the time we don’t

I will never get over losing you
I will always wonder why
I will always lie awake and cry
And wonder often times why you had to die

I have asked God why he took you
Why didn’t he take me instead?
I always felt like he slipped up
And got the wrong one instead

I know there is a reason
You left me way too early
I do not think I will ever get it though
Nor, will I ever accept it

There are so many things 
I don’t understand
When I look at your picture
By my bedroom wall
You give me the answers
And the strength
To withstand it all

I love you daddy, and I miss you every day. We will meet again and you can hold me like
you always did when I was little. Only this time I will not wither out of your arms. 

Happy Birthday Dad!

R.I.P.   Larry Wagoner 12/19/1956 – 12/19/2006


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Faith Healer

The odor is intolerable
Like a foul beast clinging to the end 
I can barely subdue its subterfuge 
But here I am, 
I’m standing here of sound and mind
Waiting for the time that answers my own questions

Can it race with the fires of Orc?
Doubtful, but it can jog steadily can’t it?
The weather is awful, filled with sounds
Penetrating a document not written
It pains me to fight through the night
Not because it’s dark, but because I am just a shadow.

Lester drives but
Motional lasts forever
Still driving
Still crying
And slowly dying as time waves on
Like oceans that can’t be seen.

Nobody cares and everyone listens
Ironic, like a bible that holds lies and deception
Can its will be pierced?
Can freedom stay free?
Is it worth it to stay hooked when everyone around
Seeks liberty?


Details | Couplet | |

The Stinson

If I had to pick something, I suppose
Her perfume would be what I choose

But there are few
to make her more like you

The sight of her shirtless back
Keeps your memory off track

Her hand across my chest
Is enough to let me rest

But she is to naive
Because I let her believe

That just for tonight
Happiness was in sight

Her beauty is masked by a disguise 
One filled with my lies

But you’ve never woke up more alone
Than when her number isn’t in your phone


Details | I do not know? | |

Letters Of The Heart

Dear Claire,
I Miss you and need you. I can't wait much longer.
Its getting cold and dark. I'll come back tomorrow.
To stand by our tree. So we can run away and be free.
Yours Always,
Eric


Dear Eric,
I miss you so much. But my father is a riot.
Wont let me go no were. He's locked me in my room.   
But I'll escape. I'll come see you. So wait for me.
Yours Truly,
Claire


My Lovely Clarie,
I'll Wait! If it takes forever, I will wait!
And we will never have to part again!
You are my love. For now and For ever.
Yours Always,
Eric

The day passed and Eric waited. 
But there was no sign of Claire.
Eric bowed his head and slouched down.
"She said she would make it. 
Whats keeping her so long?"

Just then a voice broke out.
"Eric!"
Eric lifted his head and saw his Love.
He ran to her with arms open wide.

He caught her in an embrace
And she held on to him As if to dear life.


"You must leave." She whispered in his ear.
He looked at her puzzled.
"My father isn't far behind.
If you won't leave, He'll shoot you down."

Claire's tears slide down her face
Begging him to go.
Eric smiled painfully 
knowing it would only hurt her if he stayed

"I love you Claire. I always will.
From now to Forever.
Don't forget me. 
I Love you Claire."

3 MONTHS LATER

Dear Claire,
I heard your married now. I'm happy that you found love again.
I haven't forgot you. And I never will.
Congratulations and farewell.
Yours Always,
Eric

20 YEARS LATER

Eric walks outside and sees a girl
She smiled at him and waved.
Claire. She looked so young and pretty.
Like she always did.

"Hello Mr. Eric.
My name is Maya. You knew my mother Claire.
I came to tell you thank you." 
And she handed him a box.

The letters that he wrote and copies of her own
Tears filled his eyes.
As Maya went on by.
After 20 Years he finally got an answer.

After 20 years he finally got that Letter.


Details | ABC | |

mom

the things i do 
the things i think 
i just wish you could come home
i miss you so much 
i wish you were here 
why did this happen to you 
mom i just wish you could come home 
i hope you wont die 
i just want to go back in time and be a little girl again to just be in your arms again 
MOM i miss you 
i hope one day you will be home again 
but that wont happen
i 


Details | ABC | |

People

Some people will never learn,
Those who dont, cause concern.
They act like kids and it's all a game,
This is reality, Not something to play.
They dont care to see how it effects others,
Sex, drugs, and parties is all it is,
and all we can think is "Oh Brother!"
I dont understand how stupid people can be,
Just when you think it couldn't get any worse, There they go, Never cease to amaze me.
Because of this I may lose the one person I would hate to lose, Try again Please,
Even though we're only friends, I want to be selfish,
But even more, I want you to be happy.
I'm anti-social from time to time,
Time to think about the good things in life.
I hope that you could please remind me,
What is this piece of sh!t world coming to be?
I'm afraid if he goes, we'll lose touch,
and maybe the fact... I'll miss him too much.
Some people will never learn,
Those who dont, cause concern.
They act like kids and it's all a game,
This is reality, Not something to play.


Details | Classicism | |

Ramon

I miss you Ramon, I wana see u so I look
outside across the street, You were the most
realest big hearted person anyone could ever
meet, With u not around I feel incomplete I miss you
with every heart beat. I still think ur gonna call
so I always look at my phone without you I 
feel so all alone I miss you Ramon I wish u 
could come bak home.Honestly I dont know if
I will ever be okay all I know is it gets harder &
harder each day.No amount of time will heal I
know I'll be missing u still. Some people just dont
understand & i dont think they ever will


Details | Free verse | |

How Do I Let You Go

What will be
Will be!
I know of this, first hand
Your life was taken away
So abruptly!
I will 
Never forget
That day!
Till the day 
My body dies
And
I am with you, again!

“How was I to prepare myself?”
With 
That kind of 
Life changing, event!
You 
Didn't warn me 
You
Were permanently leaving!
I hope 
You know 
How much “I love you”
Know
You will never be forgotten!

I don’t know 
What 
Has got into me!
Consciously
I feel you
Inside me
I see images
Of your face 
So clearly!
Am I crazy 
To believe in this, my love?

“Are you still with me?”
“Is my imagination 
Playing cruel tricks
Running rampant
As
I talk with you
As if 
You were by my side, right now

In my heart and mind
Your face etched
Imprinted
Like a blue print
That never fades
Your foot prints 
Still remain, beside me
My heart beats
Eternally
Trying to make sense of everything!

Forgive me, my love
For being so strong in my feeling
For it has been a long time
Since I lost you, my friend
Something 
I haven’t
Quite
Got over!

My heart 
Having 
A mind of its own
Aching 
To be with you, still!
To see you
To smell you
To touch you
To taste you
One
Last time!

I want to say “Goodbye” 
Once and for all!
As 
We have
Brought out
The best and worst 
In each other
Rivers run deep
When it comes to you and me!

We have had our fair share of fights and arguments
Stubborn disagreements
All of them
Meaningless
Now
You cease to exist!

I miss your lingering touches
Your hand, stroking my face
Your big, blue eyes
Looking into mine
Your warm lips
Your rough, unshaven face 
The way you
Passionately
Kiss me
While
We make love, till dawn

I miss
All those nights
You kept me 
Safe and warm!
I miss
Your
Loving embrace
I miss
Your
Reassurance!
“Am I ever going to feel the same, with another?”
Just
As 
I felt
In your arms, my love?

How
Do I let you go?
How
Do I set myself, free?
I am ready
To love, again!
With 
‘Our eternal love’
Supporting
And 
Guiding me
Especially
In times, like these!


Details | Free verse | |

Alone

Suspended . . . tormented, in a mind so distant
I arrive at the said destination with a sigh. . .
What I expect is mortifying
What lies ahead still remains a meddlesome mystery
The air is thin—the water droplets seem. . . warm
But I feel a coldness when they hit my skin
The skin that only once touched your hand. . . . .
It is comforting when surrounded by shadow
To feel the soft embrace of long-yearned rain
It is dully consoling to know I am Alone. . .

Chemical reactions are made in instances
Each second of despair heightened by the electrical pulses
Going mad when the waters clash
And the feelings of comfort are gone yet again
The thoughts that used to hold me up
Have collapsed from under me
And Alone is felt in a new shade…darker than the shadow of comfort
The tears replace the rain. . .
Boiling the skin on my face to redden and shame
The burn provides little distraction to despair
Knowing the one I love will never be here. . .

Even now I envy those who can speak…
Who scoff and spit—and whine, groveling in grit
Those who can see and clearly feel their enemy
How they spiritually dispose of their peer
Through lack of understanding and jeer
I would much easier embrace my darkest enemy,
Than be with the one I love
I would much rather abuse myself
Than lay a finger on the precious one who wrongs me

Because you have abandoned all thought of me. . .
Through your life and innocence, 
You have harmed me—wronged me. . .
You were mistaken. . . .I can never understand you
Because I have never truly seen you
At times I can almost feel you. . .
But all I feel is pain
All I feel is the burning rain. . .

I envy those around you. . .
Like the madman straight out of prison
I even envy your opposers

In truth, I obsess over the thought 
Of Alone: 
The definition of “Without You” 

. . .

Without you here, 
I arrive at no destination
What lies ahead is only despair
The rain I feel . . . are tears—
Comforts that never last
And all that used to hold me up
Is merely a heart-broken collapse. . .

I never wished to cling onto your nonexistence. . .
Believe me—
All I ever wanted. . .
Was a thought
A.	. .chemical reaction if you will
A simple “I am here for you”. . .

Without you, Alone, I confess,
Sometimes one can only dream


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If Only

Oh how I miss you
Oh if words could only say
I'd run away to you and there with you I would stay.

Oh if only I could find you
I'd cross every mountain and sea
If it meant being with you I would find thee.

Oh if only I could touch you
Even just your hand
I'd surly melt away
for you are a holy man.

Oh if only I could be near you
Just to know you were close to me
I'd give up everything I had just to stand where you stand 
If I knew you were by me.

Oh how I wish I could hear the sound of your voice
For what comes forth from your lips is better then fine wine. 

Oh if only I could see your face
I'd run a thousand mile race
If only just to see your face.

Oh how much I miss you 
I would surly die if I could kiss you
I wish I could see you
Be near you, feel you, hear you
I want  to be with you
But I can not find you
However there is one thing I can do...I can miss you. 


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Lost Love

Why couldnt you be here?
I miss you so much 
Our times of laughter and smiles
Is it all over? Will I ever see you again?


Why couldnt you be here?
You were my eveything 
My love was taken and ripped in half
The day she sent you away

Why couldnt you be here?
She told me I couldnt see you 
Is the day the life faded from my eyes
Today I missed you even more than yesterday

Why couldnt you be here?
The tears that glide slowly down my cheek
I am begging for you babe 
Please just come and find me

I miss you babe!


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Pain

The girl i see,
is 16 years old,
look in her eyes,
and you'll see,
the pain in her eyes,
she needs someone,
to let her know,
that she's not alone,
because,
she feels like,
shes screaming for help,
but nobody can hear her,
the girl i see,
is me,
a girl who is in pain,
but fakes a smile,
everyday


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REGRETS

Regret oh how I regret all I have done to 
you
I regret not being able to tell you that I like 
you
I regret killing our friendship because I fell 
for you

Most of all I regret falling for you
Maybe if I did things differently we would 
still be friends
Or maybe we wouldn't be friends
I mean I don't know anymore

Yes its my fault because I am the one
Who stopped talking to you
But you are also to blame

With your smile and those sweet words 
you said to me
God, how i hate you but somehow, 
somehow i end up
liking you more then i did before
Its too late now as i see you have moved 
on

Oh how i regret ever leaving you......


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Bleeding Love

Bleeding Love
Curled in a ball
Not knowing what to do!
Knees against my chest
Cradling oneself

‘Soothing my soul’

Memories of you
Flooding my brain
Your words
Left as lingering whispers
Your smile
Imprinted, upon my mind's eye
High light of my day!
Electrifying my nervous system
Jump starting my heart
Punishing me
For loving you
‘Bleeding love’


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Miss you

Gloom resides deep with in;
Heavy as a thousand tons,
thick and black as street tar,
I miss you so much my son.


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Ill let her go

Quite honestly 
It's a tragedy 
That you and me 
Can never be

You see
What used to be
Pure ecstasy 
Changed drastically 
To misery

I so badly envy
The ability 
To live happily
Without you next to me

I can't believe
How easily
You abandoned me 
I guess It's a mystery

I wish you were here now, honestly 
holding you closely next to me
Then just maybe you could see
How much you truly mean to me

But apparently 
It's now clear to me
That you would rather be
With someone other than me

So now Ill let you go completely 
Forever in the past behind me
I wish things ended differently 
But I guess I don't get that luxury

Now it's time to end the sorrow
And look forward to tomorrow 
How am I supposed to do that thou?
When I already gave up long ago

I guess I'll just have to try
To live life without you close by
To go out and meet new people 
But I'm sure it'll just end up a sequel

Another broken heart with ripped stitches
All because Of heartless bitches

I don't know why I even try
When I know love is just a lie 
You see love gives off the best high
But the withdraws make you fucking cry

Well I'll just have to wait and see
What my future has in store for me
But one thing I know forsure is true
I will never again be with you.


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Miss You

my heart is aching,
my body's shaking,
a tear rolls down my face,
my heart starts to race.
you are not around,
to lift me off the ground.
my eyes are glowing red,
sad thoughts run through my head.
do you think of me,
cause thoughts of you won't let me be.
how I miss you so much,
your laugh,
your smile,
your touch.
it was just a kiss on the cheek,
that mad my knees feel weak.
I moved far away,
you still had to stay.
I want to see you again,
your smile,
your eyes,
your skin.
your voice is fading away,
the room is starting to sway.
my head is getting light,
I stand with all my might.
time seems to slow,
oh how I miss you so.


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An Untold Love


I never thought …
Love will penetrate
through a tiny fracture
in a closed shutter

She came into my life
She made living fine
She filled my heart
She touched my soul

That short peek
was the spark
for an untold Love

I was drowned …
in her blue eyes

I was charmed …
by her soft smile

I was filled …
with her magical vibes

She walked into my life
She filled my world with LOVE

With her around …
I was always fine

She filled my heart
She touched my soul
My heart on fire
My mind in peace

With her around …
I was always fine

But her sudden death
torn everything apart
all my dreams died
nothing left to hide

All came to my life
sorrows of an untold Love

I wish she knew
she was my true Love

So many moments
all went in vain
She vanished away
remained only pain

Where could I seek
to find her again

Time is so unkind
when she is not around

Forever in my heart
Forever in my soul
I will always Love her
I will always hold her

She will ever last
in my Love lament


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Messed Up Love

Burning up
Torn apart
“I have had enough!”
Jaded, by your words & thoughts
Deepest, darkest parts of my heart
Drowning in my own tears and sorrow
“What have you done to me?”
“I can’t function, any more!”
Messed up love!


Details | I do not know? | |

rista

                                                     RISTA
jo hai chahte wo karege hum
himat mile hume,jab yaad kare hum aap ko
mahsus hoga hume,sath ho mere
sabh dukh sah le hum milke
dur n ho ,dusro ki kosis par
nhi jaruri sath hona ek-dusre ke,
hum dur hoke bhi pas hoge
humara rista hai hi aisa,
dil se dil ka rista
na dikhe kisi ke dekhne par
hum bne sirf ek-dusre ke liye
chahe kitne bhi dur kar lo hume,
hum dur ho ke bhi pas hoge
jo hai aap chahte wo karege hum


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Almost Lovers

Almost Lovers
Now, loveless romantics
Loveless
With only sadness in our eyes
A fresh new hole 
In our hearts
Without each other
Being by each other’s side

I am trying not to think about you
Though images of you 
Still haunt me
Flooding, my mind
I hear the sound of your voice
Echo through the air
I see you ‘smile’
I can smell you, everywhere!

And when I watch the stars
Light up the sky at night
When I stroll the streets
Without you by my side
I watch lovers enjoy each other’s company
Reminiscing about ‘you’

Almost lover 
I still feel the beating of our two hearts
Becoming One
Even though you are gone
Goodbye, almost lover
Thank you for making my heart warm!


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Everything Remains The Same

Since the day you left 
I haven’t fixed the mirror, it fell with a clatter 
The day you slammed the door shut behind you  
The pieces laid strewed across the carpet in the hall 
The frame resting against the umbrella stand 
I’m scared if I pick up one of the pieces
And look into what remains 
I won’t recognise what I see
A mere glimmer of the girl before 
You left 

Since the day you left 
I haven’t cleared the dinner table 
The dinner plates are still there 
The candle in the middle of the table 
Has indeed burnt out
Wax has covered the linen cloth  
Your chair is still overturned 
And your napkin laid on the floor 
The microwave door is still open 
And the dishes remain in the sink 

Since the day you left 
I haven’t gone in the bedroom 
The bed is still unmade 
One of your drawers is still open 
Your clothes are still in the closet 
And the picture of us in the park 
Remains on my bedside table 


I want to keep everything the same 
For if you do eventually come back 
It will seem nothing has changed 
But that was last Tuesday 
And I don’t think you’re coming back 




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It Hurts DARJ

You know it hurts everyday to see you, I miss you and I die a little inside when I see you happy, like nothing can hurt you. But I know everything about you, and one thing did hurt you deeply, you know you try your hardest not to say your cold, or admit anything, and if your mama was here, she would so slap you, and stop acting like that. I know you miss her, hell we all miss her, and I have been here for you through thick and thin, and I will always be here for you no matter what DARJ, it's what best friends are for, and just know that I miss talking to you, hanging out with you, laughing and telling jokes with you, creating memories together. Hell it feels as if you are gone, but yet you live a street over and nine houses down going one way, and then it's the rest of my road a corner, and the end of your street you are the first one, in the lime green house. I MISS YOU DARJ!! You Are My Best Friend


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It's Cold In Here

It's cold in here.
Behind my eyes.
So cold that my teeth chatter.
Inside my lips.
It's cold in here.
Underneath my ribs.
Next to my heart.
Where it beats so slowly.
So slowly sometimes I'm afraid it might stop.
It's cold in here.
Where you used to be.
Somewhere in the empty spaces.
That I never knew I had.
Until you were gone.
It's cold in here.


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Into the Light

I held your hand in mine so tight
Late in March, that last night
Your sunken cheeks and sallow skin
So emaciated, frail and thin

I whispered softly in your ear
You could not speak, but you could hear
I told you of my love for you
So deeply intimate, so wholly true

I yearned with all my heart and soul
To make you well, to make you whole
It shreds my heart like shards of glass
That it was time for you to pass

Oh I will miss you when you’re gone
To other realms beyond the sun
You are my lover, husband, friend
I wish that this was not the end

Then as I kissed you one last time
My heart is yours and yours is mine
I held you close against my chest
So you could feel my beating breast

It’s then you took your final breath
I knew that you were close to death
And slowly your life just ebbed away
Oh please don’t go, oh please do stay

As you succumbed to death’s embrace
You left behind a lasting trace
Of your divine essence upon this earth
To a place of your rebirth

Perhaps you lingered far to long
Perhaps its better that you’ve gone
To meet you maker in his bright light
Where everything is good and right

At least with peace you did expire
And from life’s work, you do retire
So many people you inspired
And you will always be admired

I gave you all I had to give
It was not enough to make you live
I will miss you profoundly every day
And love you eternally in every way

I wish you peace, I wish you rest
To me you were the very best
And so my darling as I say goodbye
I’ll try my damndest not to cry
Remember dearest, I will love you forever
One day in time we will be together
Again!!


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Anguish

Without you I can't live dear 
I miss you and my heart is in fear 

The fear of awful loneliness 
Without you it’s all uneasiness

Every minute I miss you and cry 
In my heart the anguish is so high 

When we were together we never ever fret
Now, you see with my tears the room is all wet 

I see you often in my dreams 
I love your presence in all forms 

To ease myself I stared at the bud 
I felt your presence in the form of a bud 

Slowly the bud changed itself to a flower 
In front of me that I tend to bother 

Come, I want to see you in real 
I want to feel you in great deal 

My heart is weeping and calling you 
My soul is all the time searching you  

Listen to me 
Come to me 


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I Miss You

I miss the times we used to have
I miss the jokes 
I miss your laugh

I miss the way you'd call my name 
I miss the feelings
I miss the game

I miss the conversations that we shared
I miss our silence
I miss feeling glad

I miss the memories that were true
I miss the teasing
I miss those crazy things you'd do

I miss the things that you'd tell
I miss every bit
I miss knowing you so well

I miss the afternoons when i'd see you
I miss the playing
I miss those moments i broke through

I miss the silly nicknames you called me by
I miss your warmth
I miss your voice when you'd say "hi"

I miss the shivers you sent down my heart
I miss the deep talks
I miss not feeling apart

I miss the times you stared into my eyes
I miss your praises
I miss the ties

I miss everything you gave
I miss you alot
I miss feeling brave

I miss the way things used to be
I miss the old me
I just whish i could see

I miss our last goodbyes
I miss them the most
I miss that peaces that just dies

I miss holding you close
I miss feeling safe
I miss that plentiful dose

I miss you
I miss you so bad
I wont forget you, i just whish i wasnt sad

I miss the thing i'll never tell
I'll miss Loving you
I miss not burning in these depts of hell


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A Remembrance Of You

a broken soul hidden in an empty home
wanted to leave, but there was no where to go
a mother's heart broken into two
wanted to stop the pain, but there was nothing anyone could do
a cold presence haunting this dried up place
needed to leave, but it would not be the same

there will always be a remembrance of you
a presence in every room
each door locked with a key
and i'm sure you'll remember me
and our family will miss you so
it was heart broken to see you go
and I'll miss you so much 
in heart is where you'll be
I'll be coming, so we can meet
because there will always be a remembrance of you
your death will not remain true
its been forever since you past away
until I see you, I will have nothing to say
there will always be a remembrance of you 
and everyone will love you
I'll remain faithful and true
there will always be a remembrance of you
a presence in every room
each door locked with a key
and i'm sure you'll remember me
because I will remember you
there will always be a remembrance left in each and every room
a remembrance of you


a burnt down home holding dirt in place 
i'm glad the angels came
for she was in so much pain
without her in our lives it won't be the same
I know I learned my lesson
never did think a fire could bring so much aggression

there will always be a remembrance of you
a presence in every room
each door locked with a key
and i'm sure you'll remember me
and your family will miss you so
it was heart broken to see you go
and I'll miss you so much
in my heart is where you'll be
I'll be coming, so we can meet
because there will always be a remembrance of you
your death will not remain true
its been forever since you past away
until I see you, I will have nothing to say
there will always be a remembrance of you 
and everyone will love you
I'll remain faithful and true
there will always be a remembrance of you
a presence in every room
each door locked with a key
and i'm sure you'll remember me
because I will remember you
there will always be a remembrance left in each and every room
a remembrance of you


i'm begging you to forgive me so
even though the fire took its deadly tole
and I won't let my heart pass you by
you are the apple of my eye
a cold spot in my heart
the reason I was torn apart
the reason I have no soul

there will always be a remembrance of you
a presence in every room
each door locked with a key
and i'm sure you'll remember me


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I'll Miss You

I'll miss you at night,
and even through the day,
I'll miss you when I read a book,
and sometimes when I see a play,
I'll miss you whenever I can't think of what to say,
I'll miss you because you're sweet,
and always full of joy,
I'll miss the way you inspire me to write a funny poem,
I'll miss you when you're gone,
and not here anymore,
Most of all I'll miss you a lot,
and that's what this poem is for


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Missing You

Although you arn't to far away
I miss you more everyday
We always use to pick and fight
Now I miss you every night
Sometimes I think I'm forgetting you
I'm not what I'm gonna do
I hope you arn't forgetting me too
And I hope to see you again soon
Oh how I wish you could see
just how much you mean to me


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I Miss You Brother

I miss you Brother, We had the best times together,
Though you are many hours away,
I pray night and day to see you again,
I miss you Brother, Talking to you was something I cannot explain,
It was the Best Feeling like I was in Paradise or very close to it,
I can't wait to visit or see you again,
I miss you Brother, Please come visit again will you?,
The feelinga I feel is too great to explain in words,
Brother that was such an awesome weekend,
I miss you Brother, I never laughed so hard in my life,
Tears flow down my cheek thinking of seeing you again,
You are One Amazing Brother in the Lord Jesus Christ,
Please believe me when I say,
I miss you Brother.


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Why Did You Leave The Way You Did?

Here I am, heart exposed once again to tell you, 

that I miss you so much.

Its been forever it seems to be to me

that I have been out of touch.

 

Weve had our share of ups and downs

but thats all in the past.

And here I am exposed again.

Ive broke out of my cast.

 

Illusions in my head have held me down

for too long I must say.

I know that this is my final plea.

Make me feel okay.

 

My imagination wanders to years ago

when life was like a dream.

So many things have changed since then.

To you, what do I mean?

 

I know you live inside my heart.

I never let you leave.

The day that news ran into my ear.

There was no way for me to believe.

 

And then the day came when you met earth

and everything became real.

I watched you sleep eternally

and I didnt know how to feel.

 

I was numb and cold and so confused.

Why did you have to die?

Why did you give up on life?

Did you get your wings to fly?

 

I miss you still, it just dont stop.

It never goes away.

The sadness that you left behind

left me not okay.

 

You are more than just a memory.

You live inside my heart.

And every since you took your life

my life has fell apart.

 

I miss you still, after all these years

because you helped me learn to live.

How could you leave so selfishly?

What made you finally give?

 

I need to know to clear me up

cus now Im still a mess

and without you in my arms again,

it just makes me too stressed.

 



Details | Quatrain | |

miss you like the rain

I miss you like the rain
when sky is closed
to Texas summer’s 
dying rose

when flowers bloom
mistakenly
to find no mist 
upon there leaves

the earth that strains
and pulls apart
the dry and dusty 
cracking heart

of rivers winding 
memory
that brought the thirsty 
to there knee

the panting wolf
in desert heat
who sees a ghost 
he tries to meet

But moving forward 
disappears
the moving water
only tears

the corn and wheat
the cropper’s share
birds they feed 
in summer air

and dust that travels 
aimlessly
without the glue 
the earth to flee

in clouds that tear
the eyes and strain
I miss you like 
I miss the rain


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I MISS YOU

I miss you dear, i miss you dear
I miss you oh so much
I miss the sound of your footsteps
The soft feel of your touch

I miss your singing through the house
I miss your kisses too
I miss the smell of your sweet hair
I miss you through and through

I miss that smile that i love so
I miss you by my side
I miss those feelings that you had
And now you try to hide

I miss the walks we use to take
I miss the talking too
I use to lay and watch you sleep
But now i'm lonely too

I miss those days we were in love
We never were apart
But now i'm left with memories
And just a broken heart.


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I miss you

I miss you lots grandpa
You dont even know
I miss the way you smiled it even glowed
I miss the way we would always play
And how you would say
Kelli will you scratch my back today
I miss all the times you sang to me
It would always drive me crazy
But the one thing i really miss
Is the last time you gave me a kiss
You were in the hospital
I felt so bad, not only that i felt sad
Then you passed
After that my heart felt like shattered glass
I couldn't stand the pain
It ended up going to my brain
Well thats all i have to say
Eccept for "i wish you were here today" 
I miss you grandpa


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Breadcrumbs

I miss you a little
I miss you a lot,
Somewhere
In the middle
I lost my way
I went for a stroll
And never came back
I didn't mean to leave
I didn't mean to walk away;
It was just that I
Went a little too far
And I lost track
Of time and distance,
Didn't know how
To come back
Where back was;
By your side,
The light was dim
And the darkness
Swallowed my path,
The bread crumbs
Didn't last and I
Found myself
Hoping for a light
That never came;
I can only hope
The day comes
I find you again...


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Still Here.

It's not having loved and lost that hurts inside.
It's having lost the love I held with pride.
It's having lost my friend, my lover, my life.
It's having lost my future, our children, my life.

I cry from my eyes, my soul, and my heart.
I cry for lost time, God where do I start?
I am alone without you. These thoughts are all new.
One thing I never planned on was living my life minus you.

My dreams and my hopes..they died inside you.
I would give up this all for one second beside you.
Yet I know you are here..you are with me somehow.
Our love never died because I can feel it right now.

I will see you sometime...the day that I die.
And when I get to Heaven you can teach me to fly.
You can show me the stars, the moon, and the world...
Untill that day I will forever miss you my girl.

.......dedicated to the late Brandi Bowersock...... (I miss you honey!)


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A Letter To My Dear Avery

Not everyday, do I hear your name.
Not anymore, your little fingers, so I ever get to touch.
Without you, life hasn't ever been the same
And with that, I have miss you oh, so much.

But now as people have told me,
And that I have believed, 
You are in God's playground
Watching over me.

I miss you oh so dearly
Always remembering the memories we shared,
Even remembering how life used to be, 
When everything you did
Was when everybody still cared.

Now I am to end this with an
I just wish you have a very happy day,
And to watch Baby Caydan
Every step of the way.

Love,

Auntie Liz.


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To Whom It May Concern

To whom it may concern:

Someone once told me that in order to love yourself on the outside,

You have to love the inside first,

Easier said than done.

Since I know I’ve never done that-  and now- will never.

It’s not that I don’t love you all,

My constant failures- the disappointment I am to you- and seem to always be.

 

I’m sorry.

 

Those words don’t seem like they mean much, but I heartfully mean them.

 

What can I say papa? 

I made a mistake,

You’d think because I miss you so much, I’d do everything in my power to see you again one
day.

But papa- I’m not as strong as you were,

I couldn’t keep fighting- I gave up.

Papa please don’t hate me because I’m weak,

Please don’t be disappointed- and please, don’t forget me.

Because there has not been a day since you passed that I haven’t thought about you.

Wished I could tell you I love you- and that I miss you.

Sometimes I wish I had your guidance.

 

Remember when you tried to teach me how to tell time?

Or we’d sneak snacks before dinner?

Or the way you used to rub your face against mine and sting my face with your whiskers,

Oh papa, I can still hear your laugh!

Sometimes I would think about you hard enough, I would believe I could still hear your voice.

 

Why did you leave?

Why couldn’t dreams come true and you’d be here with us still?

Why couldn’t I come with you?

 

A part of my heart died when you did, I don’t think anyone could understand that now.

 

It’s been so long papa- why is it whenever I think of you, I still cry?

Why is this wrenching pain still there?

I miss you so much papa.

I miss being papa’s little girl,

I miss those painful whisker burns,

And sneaking those snacks,

I miss the man you were.

 

I loved you then, 

I love you still,

And I will love you until the end of my time.


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Much More (My Secret Sin)

And I don’t want to miss you much more
Now you know what I want to keep in touch for
Cause I don’t want to miss you much more
You kept me from searching for something we each adore
Another knight leaving the fight in rusted armor
Closed your eyes and said bad luck was a charmer
Evil through mans vein
Supply most of the poverty and pain
Caught a tear drop 
Asked “you know who” when the rain would stop
Plagued by unemployment
I do nothing for my own enjoyment
What if I was spoiled, would I write the same
Maybe I’m just a brat without a name
Couple of friends misplaced
Riding high, now their shame is lowercased
I’d say be mine 
But I can see, you’re doing just fine
Going solo, playing water polo
Tracking wet feet in the dojo
Speak in violence
Got a fistful to try it in silence
Searching for something more to adore
But I don’t want to miss you much more


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Little Brother

Remembering the past and wonderful years,
When you and I played games.
I was a model and you the photographer.
Oh! Why can’t those times come back? For me to make sure you know how wonderful I think you are.
For me to help you find the angel you have inside. 
My heart now cries out loud. Oh! Why can’t those memories erase or ease the pain of you being so far away…
I miss you deer brother.
I miss you deeply,
When I see the stars I think of you. 
When I see the first flowers of spring and contemplate the bright sun of summer with the falling leaves and the white white snow I think of you.
For in my heart you’ll always be the little brother I’m use to see.


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I miss you

I miss you when your away
I miss you every day

I miss you when your in Boston
I miss you when your in Austin

I miss you when your not here
I miss you my dear

I miss you when I dont her from you
When I don't hear  "I love you too"

So, baby
Maybe,
I wont miss you so
And we can be togehter, like we did a long, long time ago


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Losing Alzheimers

It's this feeling I carry in the back of my soul
always feeling it there though I don't often show
that your voice is my voice and I long for your eyes
to light up, set to twinkle, unburden my skies
I miss you as someone to never be missed
I miss you like words on unlistable lists
Too grand to call mountains, too young too call old
I miss you like summer to winter's unfold
It's this feeling I carry, kaleidoscope see
I carry you with me.  Do you carry me?
Through eyes with no twinkle and tongues with no words
do you hear me still? or has silence occurred?
I know you as someone I'll just always know
I know you regardless of words spoken, so
in this sad revelation I offer you still
that I feel you now with me and I always will.


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Never Be The Same

Can you hear me Grandma?
Oh I wish you can see;
Tell me, what is it like to be free? 
I cannot let you go Grandma,
I can't believe you're gone;
It's hard to forget,
But I just cannot move on;
I miss you very much Grandma, 
And I mean very so! What 
I want to tell you is the
thought that you
should know.
You had a big heart that
Never got small,
Whenever you got hurt, you always 
Stood tall. 
I miss you very much Grandma,
and whenever I hear your name,
I would have sighed,
and said you'd died,
and it would never be the same.



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Dear mom

Dear mom,
Ever since I came in this world 
You love me every single day
The memory of us will always be in my heart
I wish you would of stayed
Now were so far apart
I love you more than ever
I miss you so much
I want so bad to feel your touch
Why did you have to get sick?
I guess you were he's final pick
You and dad 
will always be in love
Now your in heaven so far above
Don't worry i will take care of him
He will be okay
He will  miss you so much
Even till today
mom all i ask
is when i'am scared 
just hold my hand
My time will come when we will meet
just make sure there is a open seat
I love you forever 
and you will always be in my heart
this is only the begging of a new start.
bye 
love always
your daughter


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the day

of all the days i could miss you did it have to be today
if i could just carry something that did not speak of you i'd throw
it down and leave it but alas that something happens to be within
me and of course on this day i have use of it 
maybe tomorrow i could lose it on a walk and just float away into 
a place where this piece of me that is you is no longer needed
but not today because fate has intervened and left me here to be
your toy yes destiny has a sick sense of humor playing with the time
i have and enjoying the sorrow you have exposed 
can you not see i have lost me in this trial am i to be found guilty simply
for what not being the coward you turned out to be am i to be judged by you 
and found lacking why my choice was wrong i should not have chose you 
but then again my chosen voice has not a mind or a will this part of me 
i wish to ripe out has become a weakness i no longer can control
it waits for you believes in you how can this be i am no longer myself i should
stop now and hope that in time you will forgive me this heart of mine 
you have been set free while i have just giving up maybe i am at fought maybe 
i am the reason or just maybe it is just that day i had to miss you on today


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Misery

My misery grows inside me
my sadness shows though I try to hide it
the happiness I once knew has gone out the door
now I lay in my utter misery crying on the floor

I miss you so much, words cannot describe
I miss knowing you the way I did
I miss not knowing what it feels like to cry

I wish you’d want me back soon
this misery is overwhelming
I wish you’d end the sadness that is dwelling within me now

you were the one light in my world of darkness
now you’ve extinguished the flame
and now all I feel in my heart is pain

I’ve tried not thinking about you
but I just can’t do it
I’ve tried to be happy, but it’s all a lie
because how can I be happy, when it’s all I can do not to cry?

Everything reminds me of you,
that one time blessing is now a curse,
because I miss you so much,
but will never have you back again
so everything just reminds me of that fact, and of how happy we used to be.
I just wish that I could see an end to my utter misery.
An end to the infinite sadness that is within me now.
I wish I could see an end to all of my pain, but without you, how?


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I love you Mother

Mothers smile will always shine,
In the pictures in my mind.
I've heard your laughter and shared your tears.
We walked together throughout the years.
Your silken hands upon my face.
Your tender heart and warm embrace.
Lifting me up when things were down.
My best friend without a doubt.

I will never forget the day.
Your savior called and took you away.
My heart so heavy my pain so great.
Such a loss.....no way to replace.
I miss you so much the hurt is so real.
I miss your scent and your feel.
I need you mother to hold my hand.
I need you mother, OH SO BAD.

Life can never be the same.
Without you mother, I fear the change.
Your strength and guidance put me straight.
Each day was a blessing.
So full of your grace.
I'll miss you forever my loving mother.
Can't wait for the day we get back together.


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Your Life

As I sit here today thinking about how much I miss you…
I wonder why things had to be this way…
I had dreams of how our life would be together…
I had a name for you…
I had so many plans for your life…
I thought everything was perfect…
I found out I was wrong…
Could it be that nobody wanted you?
Because they all made it seem as if they didn’t…
But no, I did…
I was the only one who wanted you…
All my plans have been put to rest…
My tears will never dry up…
Words cannot describe how much I am hurt
By these things that have transpired…
Your life has been ended…
Your never had a chance to live…
I just can’t seem to understand why…
Maybe it was best to be this way…
But I never wished for this…
I wanted to see you live your life…
See you take your first step…
See you at your first day of school…
I miss you although I didn’t really know you…
But in my heart I know who you would have been…
I know I could have taught you to be a good person…
And show you many things you could have known…
I wish it hadn’t have been this way…
I miss you in so many ways…
I will never be able to get over this…
Because your life was ended...
My Child...
I know it wasn't supposed to be this way...
But it is what happened and nothing was able to stop it...
And I pray that I can go on and have others like you...
I love you and I will never forget you...