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Maybe Tomorrow

Now I'm here, fighting my own demons.
Tell can you see them, with their eyes burning so red.
My hands are weak from breaking all the molds.
I've done everything that I'm told.
I didn't know that you were so afraid of heights.
And I'm so sorry but I think that I'm far to weak
To let you think I can help you down from your pedestal tonight.
I can't help you down tonight. 

I can't help but be angry. I just wish that you would save me.
Pushed the numbers down and watched them fade away.
I'm so small from down here; you're my biggest fear;
You grind my flesh and bones and feed it to all the needy kids.

I said tomorrow and today I'll be the same,
But I'll show you now that I know how I can really change.
And you might not like it. You say I'm so divisive,
I just think your indecisive, so I tell you the choices I think you should already know. 
And I'm so sorry, but I'm at the brink, I cannot think tonight.
I can't let you down tonight. 

Why can't I see that just maybe I'm in way over my head,
Why can't I see that just maybe I'm in way over my head.
I'm far to weak, I cannot think tonight.
Why can't you see that unfortunately your sinking just like lead,
Why can't you see that unfortunately your sinking just like lead.
And I'm so sorry but I don't think I can lift you up tonight,
Yeah your on your own tonight.


Details | I do not know? | |

death

oh awful you are
coming like a wail wind
pretending to be helpful
come and steal my love away


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Fighting Temptation

This guilt I feel consumes me 
I want to let it out 
But I'm terrorfied of the consequences... 
I gave into temptation 
And now I pay the price... 
I'm so sorry for what I've done 
I pray that this isn't the end 
I pray that you can forgive me 
And we can still have our happily ever after... 
One single thought runs through my head 
Over and over again... 
I know what I need to do 
To finally get peace of mind 
But once again I'm consumed with fear... 
Fear of what you'll think 
Fear of what you'll do - what this will mean 
I messed up! That's all there is to it! 
And all I can say is 
I'm so deeply, deeply sorry! 
God was testing me 
And I failed horribly! 
Now I'm living in regret 
I'm completely stuck! 
Show me where to go from here 
Tell me what I'm suppose to do now... 
How do I make this right? 
I'm sorry! I'm so sorry! I'm so deeply sorry! 
For this incredibly stupid thing I've done 
Now I'm at your mercy... 
I can only hope and pray 
That you can forgive me 
Please stay here with me, 
Please dont run away 


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Borderline's Wreckage

I'm Agonizing every Word that my mind Creates You've done this all to me release your wrath to Me You wonder How much a Human Heart can take I've reached the limit You've invaded me on every level none of this is Mine anymore I can't bleed enough for You We're through This, This Torture Homicidal With You Suicidal Without You Feel Free to abuse If it's you I won't lose The Winds push away The Vines pull forth I'm at a lose on what to do So very lost and Confused Don't say we're through Homicidal With You Suicidal Without You I Hate you ...Don't leave me I push you so far away But need you so close I'm on the edge you're all I really need I'll do anything Just don't Abandoned me leaving has it's toll Homicidal With You Suicidal Without You


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A Piece Of Lace

[Verse-1]
I watched you walk by yesterday, and yes again you turned and looked away
You never give me the time of day, and you're always looking sad and grey
A small piece of lace from your pink dress, is all that's left of you and me
Wish I could take back yesterday, when I went astray and set you free
I wish I could find the words to say, instead of making you look away
Oh! It's funny how a little piece of lace, makes me yearn for your embrace

[Verse-2]
I know that I still need your love, because my heart is always feeling blue
And I guess I'll never be the same, for playing around and being untrue
You gotta know this isn't what I wanted, cause now I'm always on my knees
But I can see how you like your freedom, of being with him and not with me
But baby a twist of fate's what tore us apart, and placed this look upon my face
Oh! it's still funny how a little piece of lace, makes me yearn for your embrace

[Chorus]
A piece of lace from your pink dress, keeps putting me down won't let me rest
And these cloudy skies are back today, holding my heart and soul at bay
I pray you come and take this lace, and wipe these tears from my face
Oh! It's funny how a little piece of lace, makes me yearn for your embrace

[Verse-3]
All those things that you used to do, is what made me fall in love with you
You gave me your all once upon a time, but like a fool I up and flew
And the things I went and said that day, made you fade and drift away
I never shoulda treated you that way, cause baby I need you here today
The sun keeps hiding behind the clouds, and all I do is sit and cry
And this piece of lace holds my heart at bay, I don't know...maybe it's a sign

[Chorus]
A piece of lace from your pink dress, keeps putting me down won't let me rest
And these cloudy skies are back today, holding my heart and soul at bay
I pray you come and take this lace, and wipe these tears from my face
Oh! It's funny how a little piece of lace, makes me yearn for your embrace

Oh! It's funny how a little piece of lace, makes me yearn for your embrace


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A Silent Prayer




                                      Born in sin, 
                                innocent some say,
               Silent the night, as it creeps on into day.
                        A Silent plea for forgiveness,
                         a silent sin, a sin of silence, 
                                      silent friend

…                             Souls silently praying, 
                           In silence,  a silent prayer is
                                            Saying.
                                           Save me…

                            In silence I cry, Silently I die….
                                      Pray for silence, 
                                   Silently pray twice
                                      A silent prayer

                                             Saying,
                                           Save me….


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Not So Perfect

Here she comes, walking with pride.
Her face is so vibrant, she looks so alive.
Nothing can stop her, no one dares to try.
Her entire life is corroded with deals, tricks, and lies. 
Her beauty is everything, her smile kills all 
It brings down the strongest men, makes the highest building fall.
But when she comes home,
The story does change.
Her life’s not so perfect,
The positions rearrange.
Her father's an alcoholic, and not very nice.
She has a brother who gave up on school, and can’t read or write 
Of all of her family, her mother is the worse. 
Sometimes she wonders if she'll survive this curse.
He mother yells,and tells her that she's no good.
She would give it all up, if only she could.
At the end of the night she goes into her room,
She begins to weep, and eventually cries herself to sleep.
She wakes up the next day,
Puts on a happy face,
And goes to school as if nothing happened the previous night,
Or that absolutely nothing is wrong with her life.
So now that you’ve seen what’s behind the closed door,
I hoped you’ve thought about this girl a little more.
With the utmost respect,
I present to you, the life of someone "perfect".


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Forgive Me (Sorry)

Forgive me
I don't know what I do
The things that hurt you
Forgotten who are you

I just want to make you happy
I want to see that smile
I have not intended to make you hurt
When I realised it all this while

Forgive me
I don't know what I do
Never try to hurt to you
Almost forgetting who are you

The flowers that bloom your heart
It had fades away
It is because of me
I took all your heart away

Don't want us to be apart
I tried again
I promised not to fail
I promised to finally understand

Forgive me, my dear
I don't know what I do
I never want to hurt you
I don't forget who are you

Forgive me..


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Generic Minds

generic minds listen to generic music
have generic thoughts that are unknowingly abusive
watch generic things talk about generic things
gee this generic *****is spreading like a disease
better get your flu shot 
thats what they said to me
a suicidal vaccine 
a subliminal killing spree
its contagious and the outrageous
thing about it is that the people are blind in an eye
that they didn't even know they had
it's sickening to watch these clueless civilians 
inside the looking glass
with nightmares of being free
without a key to their mind
for it is trapped in the frequency
in the illusion of time
bathed in our universe
killing all that refuse to see
those that admit to hypocracy
or see the message in hip hop
how cant you see
the message in the lyrics that
bring adolescents to their knees
from bullet wounds conflicting their flesh
contradicting that they're the best
but the songs keep telling them that they dont need no rest
that they dont wanna go home
that they should ride alone
with the gat as their only companion
and so the only path they choose is the one that they're told
until they grow old and hope turns to a window pane
inside a window pane, until all they feel is pain
they realize that the music itself is ashamed
so whats to look up to
when you cant even speak when you cant even walk because you look so bleak
your eyes are sunken from the tv you're infested with the dee zees
now its too late to turn around and live for your conscious
so when youre screaming oh please
close your eyes and bring your mind to life
open your eyes for the first time
and never wonder why
since the answer this entire time
has been inside
and you better find it before you die
you dont want your soul to be in a pool with all the others
a buncha brothers missing their mothers
but only seeing strangers
only feeling the haters
wishing they would have used their minds when they had them
and now its too late,
now it's time for another new born fate to grab them


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This Aint Real

Your face, 
Made a fake smile, (you said)
I love you,
I need you,
I want you just for a while,
You told me,
That I made you smile,
All the things you said to me,
Are just words now,
How can we love,
When you love me for yourself,
(This Aint Love)

Chorus: 2x
What are we doin,
If this love ain't real,
What is this feeling,
That I feel,

I'm broken in emotion,
I'm broken in love, (you said)
I need you,
I want you
You're the only one,
I'm thinkin of, (so tell me)
How can we love, 
When there's always someone else,
(This Aint Love)

Chorus 2x
Bridge:
How can we love,
When there's always someone else,
How can we make up,
When you only love me for yourself,

verse #3:
You got me imprisoned, 
Inside your heart,
When kissed
I felt, Like we,
Would never be apart,
chorus 2x

 


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I set a place for a KING and a Monster came home instead

His food was ready to be served without hesitating
His bath was drawn and his slippers laid out 
I went out of my way preparing for him all day
"BUT" when arrived to my "SUPRISE"
He came home as a Monster instead 
The gentleness I once knew was left on his job
He walked in the door threw things on the floor
"SLAMMED THE DOOR"
Looked at me strange as if he didn't know my name
ATE and went fast to SLEEP!
I was upset but I didn't complain
"BECAUSE" I had done all I could 
I had set a place for a KING and a Monster came home instead!


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Lacerated Wings

They are bound to the Earth like trees
Suffocating under the weight of an icy grave 
Reaching to be free, but only their limbs are seen
Hoping that one day someone will see:
They can't escape with lacerated wings

The ocean surrounds me, covering everything
Nothing will be clearly seen; confusion overwhelming
No-one can save you, you're on your own, left to die
Manipulating every bleeding heart you can find
I can't escape with lacerated wings.

Swarms of nets, waves of screams 
Entangle: your captive illusions and dreams
The mask has be seared - The truth now they see
The Liar - Vampiric Fiend; lowly thief
And now they know you can't escape with Lacerated Wings

There's reasons for your rejections:
Your Heavy heart's transferred oppression
The scars are too deep to pass the trials
But you can find peace in your cage of empty spirals
You Cannot Escape With Lacerated Wings


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The Final Confessions I

These are my confessions
Secrets of my mind
Everything that mattered
Truth I can not hide

Nothing but a shadow
Distant memory
What I was, What I am
What I’m supposed to be

Forgive me, God, forgive me
For being so unkind
Impatient…ungrateful
Cynical and blind

To those who thought they knew me
And those who never did
To those who hear my songs 
In the places where they live

I offer my confessions
Honest to the core
Offer my confessions
There won’t be anymore

No more…


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One For Excuses Song on CD

Darling, I didn't aim to let you down, or to leave you lonely,
I also have a frown, baby you're not the only,
I meant to hurry home, and didn't mean to take so long,
I didn't realize time had flown, please forgive me if I wrong,                           
          

Honey, I'm not one for excuses,
But I'm so sorry with regret,
And my heart sure feels so useless,
For what you're not over yet,

I did say I'd be right back, I even called you on the phone,
And my heart didn't cut me any slack, when I heard the busy tone,
Please accept my apology, honey, I haven't lied,
And if you still won't talk to me...well, at least I know I've tried,

And I'm not one for excuses,
But I'm so sorry with regret,
And my heart sure feels so useless,
For what you're not over yet,

Darling, I didn't aim to let you down, or to leave you lonely,
I also have a frown, baby you're not the only,
I meant to hurry home, and didn't mean to take so long,
I didn't realize time had flown, please forgive me if I'm wrong,

No, I'm not one for excuses,
but I'm so sorry with regret,
And my heart sure feels so useless,
For what you're not over yet,
Yes, my heart sure feels so useless,
For what you're not over yet.


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'This heart don't beat for you anymore'

It might look convincing 
But I just don’t feel it anymore
When people talk about it
I don’t feel it anymore
The rhythmic blows don’t hit home
The sounds are all spent
Just hollow, the refrain
It doesn’t mean a thing
I don’t think it ever did


The beating of your heart
Is not a conduit anymore
It’s like walking a labyrinth 
Wall to wall 
On a path to nowhere
'Cause this heart don’t beat,
This heart don’t beat,
This heart don’t beat for you anymore


You don’t need to feel it
‘Cause it’s written all o’er my face
It’s not like I planned it
It’s just the way things ended
Hearts can’t be dictated
I’m sorry if this hurts 
But I can’t play this role no more
I’m sorry if I’m breaking your heart


The beating of your heart
Is not a conduit anymore
It’s like walking a labyrinth 
From wall to wall 
On a path to nowhere
‘Cause this heart don’t beat,
This heart don’t beat,
This heart don’t beat for you anymore


Saying I don’t feel it
Boils down to conviction
The moving signs are everywhere
It’s clear like daylight
My heart refuses to beat for you

The beating of your heart
Is not a conduit anymore
It’s like walking a labyrinth 
From wall to wall 
On a path to nowhere
‘Cause this heart don’t beat,
This heart don’t beat,
This heart don’t beat for you anymore



*THIS TRAIN DON’T STOP THERE ANYMORE BY ELTON JOHN*
Contest: Dear John
Placed: 7th
© All Rights Reserved


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Radiant smile

I can remember that day…like it was just yesterday. The pain inside, was too much to 
bear. As they lowered you in the ground, my world came a crashing down. No more 
would I ever see your radiant smile. That day is still a blur…as I drank the night away. 
Hoping it was all just a dream? But, reality came around and my emotions broke me 
down…and it all came a crashing down. It took me by surprise as those tears filled my 
eyes. My drink became a salty river of tears…I can still hear the Reverends last words 
as he commended your body to the earth. I was around town feeling sorry for myself, 
my emotions were coming down…I could still he his words as he commended you to the 
earth, but my heart couldn’t let you go. As they held me back from jumping in your 
grave…the emotions started to fill my soul, I was around town feeling so sorry for 
myself. Try to drown my pain with whiskey and beer…but those emotions came a 
tumbling down. As my drink became a salty river of tears, no more…no more…would I 
ever hear your laughter, that seemed as though it could fill the ever after. Later that 
night as I lay down to sleep, I reached over to that empty spot where you use to be…I 
swear I could almost hear you say, “ Dry your tears, someday we will be back together 
as we laugh together in this life here after…so weep no more. I’ll see you on the other 
side.” As I closed my eyes, the pain began to subside…I knew one day soon I’d get to 
see your radiant smile and hear your laughter.


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Cancer

I can't believe I haven't posted this one. I wrote it last year, can't remember the exact date. Anyhow it's a song. ---------------- You know this world is cancer Without these prayers being answered It's been too long a ponder We wonder We wander Far from here Lost in fear Can you see them fall? You lose one you lose them all She's seen the cruel hearts of stone She's seen the cancer we've become So lost in worry we just fall down Underground we burn Till the last one's sure Can you see me fall? You lose one you lose them all Cut me out of this body! Cut me out of everybody! Grind me into little pieces! Tell them that I'm the reason- You know this world is cancer Without these prayers being answered It's been too long a ponder We wonder We wander Far from here Lost in fear Can you see me fall? You lose one you lose them all You lose one you lose. . . Them all


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-------------------------The Soul I Sold------------


If I seem down forgive me Frowns I carry around live in me When I break you see right through me GIVE BACK THE SOUL I SOLD... The hurt I’ve learned brews in me GIVE BACK THE SOUL I SOLD... Your words so true renew me If only you'd re-design me Take time rewind refine me Recreate the mold without lies I’ve told... GIVE BACK THE SOUL I SOLD... The hurt I’ve learned brews in me GIVE BACK THE SOUL I SOLD....


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FOREVER WE ARE ONE

If we don't let go the past
the future will not come so easy,
so many time we go wrong
many time we are right
yet we are not perfect 
need to forgive others
that hurt us,thou heart may remember forever
heart may not want to give chances any more any longer
we need to move on without the past
we maybe taller than a tree yet we cant see the future
it is covered by the cloud
the future is many distance away
hard to believe,hard to see
everyday we try harder
everyday it goes longer
a plant today can be a beautiful flower tomorrow so dont up-root it
forgive and let go the past by-gun is by-gun,
give love a second chance
        !!!!let go the past-let come a new day!!!!!


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Life as an Addict





                                        

                                     Life as an Addict


                         Life as an addict, life as an addict
                       Life as an addict is like running into
                            A reinforce cinderblock wall
                                    Losses after losses 
                                           Virtually
                     Ending in a jail cell or luxurious casket
                      Day after day the addiction keeps at it
                                           Eventually 
                                Opening doors to the soul
                          Stepping inside leading you down
                               A wicked and dark passage
                                           Ultimately
                                     Leaving you naked
                                  Clinching your wounds
                                      Shattering dreams
                                      Low self – esteem
                                    Thoughts in captivity
                                          Life of misery
                         Life as an addict limited imagination
                                 Waste of God’s creation
                                          But forgiven
                                      Evil, dark passage 
                                  Reinforce walls, jail cell
                                Lost soul, luxurious casket 
                            Life as an addict, life as an addict
                                        Life as an addict.


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Well I'm Sorry Baby

I'm here to tell you, if a man lay a hand on you, it's not love.
So don't you dare think it, it's time to move on and find you a new home. 
But if you  decide to take him back, expect for the worse.
Get ready for the apologizing and this is how it's gone go.
 
Well I'm sorry baby, it's not gonna happen again, 
he will say that he is going to change, 
so can we get back together again
 
Then he will do the same thing again if u take him back.
He will make you pay for doing that.
You may say to yourself that you love him.
But he don't love you too, so do what's best and let him loose.
You may not take my advice, your mother advice or your father advice.
So you are saying you rather fight,  but it is not really fighting when he is only hitting you
And leaving bruises all over you.
Then you will hear the same thing all over again
 
Well I'm sorry baby, it's not gonna happen again, 
he will say that he is going to change, 
so can we get back together again
 
Most likely you will take him back again
Because you do love him, but the sad thing about it, he does the same thing all over again
Your life is still full of hearthache and pain
He puts you in the hosoital this time
You still belive he hasn't commented a crime.  
Your family talks to you about it, and the police do too
You say you rather not file charges. and your family says he don't love you
But you still believes he do
So he shows up at the hospital and says the same thing again
 
Well I'm sorry baby, it's not gonna happen again, 
he will say that he is going to change, 
so can we get back together again
 
But again you take him back, at first he real  sweet and nice.
He takes you out to dinner, and tells you sweet things in you ear.
What he doesn't know you really don't want him near.  
Then down drops a tear, you ask him do he love you?
He just sits therer with starer.  
Then he says I do love you, more then life itself.  
He reaches over to kiss you.
You move back with fear.
He says come on we're going home dear.  
Then when yall reach the house, he hits you in the mouth.  
Sop then he knocks you to the floor.  
Then you say, "No More"
You get up and run to the closet, and pull out a gun. 
You point it at him. and told him to get back
You say that you are leaving, and your not coming back
He says you're not leaving, and charge you with force.  
Which we all know it wasn't, you will charged with murder one, and tell me what for
What did he ever do for you , but not love you 


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The Moment of Atonement

My Dear World,
I owe you an apology;

Forgive me
for I have distorted thee:
lying passionately,
I failed to accept you
by chimera deceptional
I wanted to surmount you
believing myself
to be exceptional.

Forgive me My World
my bitterness,
narcissism
and selfishness;
for a fool I was
since the truth 
was consciously unknown to me
thus calamitious the discovery would be.

Please forgive me
all the souls my ambition eradicated,
all the feelings my sharp tongue destroyed,
all the emotions my cold heart repudiated,
for how much all those deeds I enjoyed.

I was then infected;
the infection seemed incurable
as I wanted it to be -
or wasn't I aware how diseased I was?

My Dear World,
I owe you an apology;

Forgive me
my blindness
to the beauty of life;

With myself in centre
I would not look around
for distorted was my perception
by a deceitful projection
of perfect me in faulty universe.



My Dear World,

Thank you
for
instant recovery of my senses,
the wisdom you blessed me with,
the pain myself was redefined through.

Yester year
I reached the deepest depth
slowly losing my pride -
my psyche was nearing death
in plight I could hardly abide -
I understood a mere human I am.

Now I laugh
enjoying my life
every day forsooth
heartily 
and with ruth.



Thank you
My Dear World
Please, forgive me.


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Revised- Reflections On A Gift Of Watermelon Pickle...

That half grown chrysanthemums/
Stirring up like accuser's.
Life is compared with what two things ?
Which do you think is the richer more revealing comparison ?
Poets use many symbols/
Geese flying south can be a symbol,
Of that of approaching winter/
Heart's symbolize love,
In this brief expanse we call life,
One may want to cry out in a revolt ?
Other's simply take in a breathe of fresh air/
Ponder that many other's that don't even care ?
We all must become united in this great cause !
Not to use this concept loosely/
Yet to humbly ponder a thought,
What do you all think tells a more detailed story ?
The poem or the picture ?
Love can grow out of a billowing cry/
Perhaps a cut nor a mere stye in the eye ?
The seventies had embarked on this journey/
Not to mention that of Timothy Leary ?
This took us to a vast opened door !
To break on through to the other side/
Lest I emplore,
Still we have every bit of reason in which to grasp/
That lattice decor to that shine on the asp,
A sweet juice filled with fine honey nectar/
The future resources,
Allow the creative poet/
To begin to explore the valley of much more !
In gaining the proper word/
Fresh out of the Autumn air !


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How Do I Love You So

In this wretched and dark place,
it's the only world I can show my face.
Ashamed of my love,
A past full of disgrace.
And yet all I want is to see your face.
But it's something I've longed to
erase.
Why do I love you so? 
These crazy feelings they need to go.
You have my heart racing like i need to show,
my love for you but I just really don't know 
how I love you so.
It's been a long wild trip,
but this I must rip.
And thats you from my heart
Yea that'd be a better start.
But here comes that thing again 
you make me want to sing and then
You see right through me
do you know what you do to me
All these things I've done you see
Fueling my insanity.
Make me want to fall apart,
Spill knowledge from this broken heart.
All I ever wanted was to be set free,
Can you really not see all of what you've done to me?


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Phantom

i don't wanna sit here 
in the garden, without you 
i don't want to be here 
falling apart, waiting for you 
cause i'm sick and tired 
of existing here, without you dear 
hanging onto nothing, hoping for something 

we're not adam and eve 
oh why can't you see 
how much i need you 
so hard to believe 
yet cannot conceive 
how much i love you 
i won't say sorry 
doesn't mean a damn thing 
cause you don't love me 
we can never be 

i'm not gonna stand here 
all evening, without a clue 
i'm not gonna be here 
sweetheart, bleeding just for you 
cause i'm sick and tired 
of burning here, without you dear 
hanging onto nothing, hoping for something 

we're not adam and eve 
oh why can't you see 
how much i need you 
so hard to believe 
yet cannot conceive 
how much i love you 
i won't say sorry 
doesn't mean a damn thing 
cause you don't love me 
we can never be 

you're not adam, 
more like the snake 
you're the phantom, 
that haunts me 
you can't be adam 
more like the snake 
you're the phantom, 
ripping my heart away 

we're not adam and eve 
oh why can't you see 
how much i need you 
so hard to believe 
yet cannot conceive 
how much i love you 
i won't say sorry 
doesn't mean a damn thing 
cause you don't love me 
we can never be


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December

Arguing with one another
Texting back and forth
Owen drives in the blizzard
Kurt is at home

Kurt sends Owen another message
"why did you tell them about me doing drugs?"
"that wasnt your place, i dont care if there your parents too"
"shouldnt i be the one to tell them?"

Owen tries to reply to the message Kurt has sent him
He loses control of the wheel
driving into a field 
Kurt recieves a message from Owen
"Im sorry I..."
The message was never finished
The car slamming into a tree
The tree branch breaks through the window
Thrashing into Owens stomach
As Owens head slams back and forth
The car is left smoking

Kurt knows something is wrong
but leaves things be

50 Minutes Later...."

Kurt and Owen's parent recieve a call from the police
"Is this the parent of Owen Everdeen?" the police ask
the mother answers "yes is something wrong? is it Owen, what did he do now?"
"Mam', Your son was in a accident, they are life flighting him to the hospital"
She drops the phone, and grabs her purse and yells at Kurt to come on.

She drives fast to get to the hospital to see her son
Owen was life flighted to the hospital
The police had to use the jaws of life to get him out of his car

They finally make it to the hospital
The Dr. asking "Are you the mother of Owen?"
She cries "yes, where is my son?"
Kurt stands upset at himself for fighting with Owen minutes before
Remembering Owens last text to him. "im sorry I.."

The Dr. explains to the mother 
"Owen didnt make it"
She sits in sadness
Numbness
She cannot breathe

Kurt runs after the Dr.
"this cant be, he has to be ok" as he starts to cry.
Just the night before him and his brother
Were playing guitar hero together
Remembering the last moment
The arguing
The reqruet Kurt is now feeling

"Owen Ryan Everdeen: Jan. 1st, 1990- December 8th, 2011"
To a good brother and a great friend, im sorry about all those times i have let you down
Im sorry for yelling at you that night, and causing your crash, the guilt i feel wont leave
I am sorry that you went through that, and left this world that way, forgive me for what i 
have caused. I love you.


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For the Dying Orphan

I let you die for my name As you reached for my hands Out of waters of drowning What a hypocrite this writer is The Hatred of Solitude Letting an orphan dream Then destroy him with knowledge Of what you have done He opened up to you In new ways But in nostalgic guises The springwinds whisper blithe yore But the winterwinds, much stronger Caress you with the dreams of your funeral sky “It was you… it was your fault… Letting the one who was so open to you Be the laugh… the piece in the game…”


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I'm sorry I can't talk to you tonight

Let me orbit your eyes

Sunshine

Let me orbit those big brown eyes

Sunshine

Coz it's been a while

Since you've loved me sober

When the fizzy veins and warm bed sheets are over

 

And I'm sorry I can't talk to you tonight

Because finding words is proving quite a fight

As your words come tumbling though my phone

I can't seem to find the voice to say

I need you back home

I need you home

 

Let me rewind time

Darling

Let me rewind time

Darling

Because I never said goodbye

When you boarded the train

And left me here

In the never ending Cornish rain

 

And I'm sorry I can't talk to you tonight

Because finding words is proving quite a fight

As your words come tumbling though my phone

I can't seem to find the voice to say

I need you back home

I need you home

 

Let me live in your lungs

Sweetheart

Let me live in your lungs

Sweetheart

So you can feel me

Every time

You take the air inside

 

Hold me tight

And tell me

Honestly

Have you had enough of me?

Because I will love you

Eternally

 

And I'm sorry I can't talk to you tonight

Because finding words is proving quite a fight

As your words come tumbling though my phone

I can't seem to find the voice to say

I need you back home

I need you home


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Love Was Never There

BEFORE READING: Please note that this lyric has some mature content that some readers might find disturbing. Also read the side-note at the end of the poem before commenting...



My youngest memories was when I was eight.
Daddy would tuck me in on nights so late.
Gave me a surprise after every story.
Left the room and whispered he was sorry.

He said it was our little secret,
no need to tell a soul.
He said at night his love was lit
and he was in control.

Said I was beautiful
as my tears slowly streamed...

So much love to give it isn't fair
to keep it all to yourself.
I guess it was just the demons in you,
but love was never there

I barely stood four feet off the ground
as you said darling don't make a sound.
I was too young to understand,
what made daddy feel like a man.

Hearing footsteps in the hallway,
I pretended I was asleep.
Hid my face, and then hear you say,
"This will all just be a dream."

Said I was beautiful
as my tears slowly streamed...

So much love to give it isn't fair
to keep it all to yourself.
I guess it was just the demons in you,
but love was never there.

Wish I could believe you when you said you cared.
My heart was on my sleeve
and I kept it in all these years.
But love was never there.

Heart turned black as coal,
when the demons took your soul.
This is your choice to choose.
It was your own flesh you abused.

Made me believe this was special,
but a quick pleasure was your goal.
Took advantage of me,
now I'm older and finally see.

Images haunt me to this day.
Therapy don't make it wash away.
Wish I could believe you when you said you cared.
But love was never there.



NOTE: I just wanna have you know that is fictional. This has nothing to do with me or anyone I know. I happen to watch a great deal of Law & Order SVU and the stories they tell just get to me. I try to put myself in the shoes of the small child suffering from abuse... I'm sorry if I made anyone uncomfortable by posting this (unfortunately this isn't something out of The Twilight Zone... it's something that really happens).


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The Hardest Thing

Last night we had a quarrel
We went to bed so mad
Each had to get up early
The morning was quite sad
I never meant to say that
I know you didn’t, too
With hopes to reconcile
Just know that I love you

Yeah darling…
It couldn’t be more true

That’s why 
Leaving you
Is the hardest thing to do

Each morning when we go to work
A piece of me, it goes with you
I cannot wait to get back home
To do those things we do

That’s why 
Leaving you
Is the hardest thing to do

I hope tonight we’re civil
We listen and we learn
Together, we’ll get past this
Each others trust, we’ll earn
So, then we can retire
To the bedroom that we share
Lie within each others arms
And show how much we care

Yeah darling…
It couldn’t be more true

That’s why 
Leaving you
Is the hardest thing to do

Each morning when we go to work
A piece of me, it goes with you
I cannot wait to get back home
To do those things we do

That’s why 
Leaving you
Is the hardest thing to do

And when my work’s over
I will come back to you


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tHE gRAVE yARD Of LoVe






                                



                                         Long love day's has past.
                                 My mind felt with howling storms,
                                 grasping to hold on to vanishing love.
                                 Rape and abandon my weary soul
                                 transpires, poring with instant fires.
                                 Oh this dark secret love does thy life
                                 destroy.
                                 Like amorous birds of pray,
                                 Once ways, and known devoured
                                 Your beauty no more to befound
                                 nor shall the sound of your voice.
                                 Love to dust, love to ashes.
                                 Our love has now gone to a private place.
                                        The grave yard of love.


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I Needed You To Stay

(chorus)

Watch these eyes fill with tears
I don’t know where to go from here
Everything is always the same
Lonely nights filled with pain
Why cant I rearrange
Why does opening up feel so strange
Is this what's meant to be,
A life with only me

 I sit and watch down the hall,
Silence waiting for your call,
If I could just hear you say
That you need me today
Then everything would be ok,
I cant make this go away.
Ive done it again
When will this end
Where is my friend
I needed you to stay.

(chorus)
Watch these eyes fill with tears
I don’t know where to go from here
Everything is always the same
Lonely nights filled with pain
Why cant I rearrange
Why does opening up feel so strange
Is this what's meant to be,
A life with only me

You told me I was the one,
Yet its over before it begun
You took my heart
and tore it apart
Where the hell did this come from
All the tears I cried
From all your lies
I cant make this go away
I needed you to stay

 (chorus)
Watch these eyes fill with tears
I don’t know where to go from here
Everything is always the same
Lonely nights filled with pain
Why cant I rearrange
Why does opening up feel so strange
Is this what's meant to be,
A life with only me


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Our Last Path

Walking down our straight narrow path 
Hand in hand 
We enjoy our last seconds 
With no pressure no demand 
Our path's have always been dark 
We have both left our mark 
On the worlds pains and desires 
We both made mistakes 
Our sentence; To burn in hells fires 

Both we do not wish goodbye 
And we ask please don't cry 
You never saw our pain on the outside 
You could only see it in our eyes 
We are not leaving to run off and hide 
We are leaving to live, to fulfill our suicide 

Staring deep at each others eyes 
We know that this will be the last time our hearts die 
This is our last and final decision 
We are at the end of our path, where we first met 
That's something i hope we will never regret 
Let's take our last kiss; 
This cruel world we will never miss 
As a dying flower let's take our last breath 
To once again meet 
In our love and our death 

Beside each other do we lay 
Hand in hand 
Beneath the ground 
To lovers is what we will stay 
With love as our tombs sound


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Making Up for My Mistakes

Writing this cuz theres nothing left for me to do,
I hope you know im trying to make up for all of my mistakes,
Im trying to make up for all the promises i have broke.
Im sorry for ever trying to see if we would work,
Im trying to tell you that i will leave you be if you want me to,
But know their is nothing that i would ever put above you.
Im making up for all of my mistakes, 
Im trying to prove that im not the person you saw,
its never too late to show you the real me, the person you never knew.
I dont deserve to tell you i love you.
Ive done too much to you,
Im sorry for everything.
Im going to sing this song to you,
One last time,
And i hope you will understand.
Im making up for all of my mistakes,
Im trying to prove that im not the person you knew,
Its never too late for me to show you the real me, the person you never knew.
I know their is nothing that i can do to make you change your mind,
But i hope this song at least helps a little,
Im trying to make up for my mistakes,
Im trying to make up for all the promises i broke.
Im sorry for trying to see if we would ever work
I cant tell you i love you
I just hope you know,
That ill never put anything above you,
And im trying to make up for all my mistakes.


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My First Love

(My First love), 
(The way I feel), 
(Inside), 
(How do I), 
Begin, 
The way I felt, Within, 
I could never hide, 
So I told you girl, 
The way you, changed my world, 
oh girl, The way you looked at me, 
As though, I madeYour day, 
(Girl I could forget), 
The love We made, 

Felt, so good,
To me,
How could this be,
A girl just like me,
Who knows, the things,
I need,
(How could this be)
(A girl just like me)
Chorus:
My First Love, (Love)x4 

My first kiss,
I came across, a bliss,
How could I forget,
How it made me feel, girl

I'm still, in love,
With you,
In the back of my mind,
Everytime,
Chorus 4x






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Have A Letter Instead

Dear You,

When things get rough I always think of you. The ways you calm me are too many to list and the ways I miss you are too obvious to dismiss. You are always present in my thoughts like you are suppose to be with me even when I don’t want you with me. You, you have a way with words and I love the way they ease between my ears erasing my fears and finding an effortless path to my heart. You never stop amazing me. I wonder sometimes what would I do if I lost you. Devastation. Humiliation. Deprivation. Reckless Endangerment. I am finally settling on the thought that I may need you here. 
The first time we met I thought you were the most beautiful thing I had ever been allowed to see. I could barely focus as you took me completely by storm, you made my coldest places warm and for that I thank you daily. I remember looking you over trying not to make my stare obvious. Your skin was perfect, like it had been custom blended only for you, your voice tone was almost too low but I challenged myself to not miss a word, and I didn’t. The thing I noticed, that I love the most about you was the way you took extreme care with me, like from our first initial touch you somehow instinctively knew to go slow, move slower and announce each entry. I tried not to love you that day, but I walked away haven already made a copy of the key that unlocks my heart…and I gave you the original to make sure it would work. Now I wait for you to use it...and now I question sometimes if I should change the locks. Except when I see you, I only want to remove them for you so you only need to walk in, but I must watch you make that move on your own.
Sincerely,
Just love Me


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Incomplete

Through roaming hills, and blistering winds
my spirit lay somewhere between.
Oh someone point him out to me, 
I desire to hear my soul sing

For at first he left, I did not notice
my emotions to mangled in muck
but I feel my heart fall short
and my body just want to give up

I call to him through the wind in the night
but no reply is heard in the breeze.
I shout his name from dawn to dusk
But only a echo replies in the trees

Forgive me! I cry, I desire you now
that my heart is darken and numb.
For I gladly give up this emotionless feast
to live my life wondering the streets
forsaking the world and all of its treats
to live with my spirit as a bum


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Save Me From Desperation

It's been so long since I could Feel you, Hold You I'm wondering if it was Just an Illusion For love For me could Not be real Nobody could Love over The Borderline, not even I So if you ask you'll know why I silently began to cry I need you here, to hold me I'm so scared without You I just want to Sleep forever Never stray away far Save me From Desperation Never Say It wasn't meant to be I can't take this lie You Kill me With this So much I hurt so much inside these words burn as I cry This life is destroyed without you The joy that comes is the Joy of the Empty The despair I'm prone to maynever wilt I way You could have been there You could have saved me but no you left I was here to stay In the Dark When the razor called me back You could have been my light throughout the eternal black My Soul Has yearned for but where are you Please come back to me I desire just a one word of comfort just from you, only from you Tell me this is just a Lie Just a Hallucination from my Mind I'm suffering I'm Dying I Need you I'm begging just for one word please save me from Desperation I'm the Petal You're the Wind Without You I can never go Far You're not here I'm now stranded alone In the plagued island of my mind only if you were here only If you here You could have Saved Me From Desperation


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Until We Bleed

I'm naked
I'm numb
I'm stupid 
I'm staying

This isn't love. You use me. 
When you get home from the club or wherever you've been late at night,
You're clumsy with your hands.
Clothing seems too hard to get off.

And if Cupid's got a gun
Then he's shooting

But I can't leave. 
No matter what happens, it's too painful to go.

Lights black
Heads bang
You're my drug
We live it

We're too uncomfortable with the lights on.
I don't want to see your face-
Slurred, clueless.
Angry.
You don't want to see mine-
Helpless, confused.
Depressed.

You're drunk
You need it
Real love,
I'll give it

Everything is hazy to you.
I bet you can't feel.
But I'll love you anyways.
I always have.

So we're bound to linger on
We drink the fatal drop
And love until we bleed
Then fall apart in parts

This has gone on forever, to me.
I'll try to be like you,
To see what it feels like.
I drink the last bottle of vodka
And hold onto you.

You've wasted your times
On my heart, you've burned
And if bridges gotta fall
Then you'll fall, too

Maybe this is the part of life
That people told me about
It doesn't mean anything
It hurts you.
You grow so attached that when one piece collapses
You do too.

Doors slam
Lights black
You're gone
Come back

You leave when the ordeal is over
Because you couldn't really care less when you're sober
You don't have a reason anymore

Stay gone
Stay clean
I need you
To need me

I want you to be happy
To be the way you were before.
But I think without you,
Even though I only see you late at night,
I would be destroyed.

So we're bound to linger on
We drink the fatal drop
Then love until we bleed
Then fall apart in parts

I'm getting up to leave
The keys are for you

Now we're bound to linger on
We drink the fatal drop
Then love until we bleed
Then fall apart in parts

But I'll come back soon
I'll come back


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Where Melancholy Mingles

I suppose
there’s always good reason
to cry
sadness never has a tough time making friends
ominously,
this dark acquaintance often approaches 
lending water for eyes
to cry

I suppose
there's never better time than now 
to moan
grunting and moaning are long lost relatives
miserably, 
feeding off each other 
dragging stragglers along for the ride
to moan 


I suppose
anxiety needs a moment in the sun 
to worry
flipping, tossing, in a cerebral ceremony
fidgety
anxiously twitching 
as everyone quickly moves
to worry

I suppose 
there's no harm in a little dishonesty
to lie
while thieves join the party
deceptively
a terrible tandem 
of dirty deeds and tendencies
to lie

I suppose
everyone has the ability  
to struggle 
with adversity, where melancholy mingles
blatantly
crying, grunting, and moaning
anxiety moves in permanently
to struggle

 
and I suppose,
there's a heavy dose of negativity 
to digest 
mixed with stress
continually
it may lead to one hell of a 
nasty mess
to ingest
 
©  2011  ~JSLambert Esquire


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I Don't Owe You Anything

So many days
All passed in a blur
With all my thoughts
Focused all on her

It was no way to live
Trapped within the past
But now today
I can say at last

I'm sorry for
Everything I put you through
But you put me through things too

And I don't owe you anything
What's done is truly done
We hurt each other so many times
But it's time to run

Those days were nice
Back when you still cared
I really did
But I was really scared

It's been a year
Since you killed our hope
I suffered all these days
Tangled in your rope

I'm sorry for
Everything I put you through
But you were just as bad

And I don't owe you anything
What's done is truly done
We hurt each other so many times
But now it's time to run and

I spent a whole year trying
To sort out what you left
And now I've finally got it
You didn't leave me so bereft

You helped me find
The man beneath the boy
You helped me grow
And learn how to destroy

Apologies
Don't mean a thing anymore
You've already made your choice

So I don't owe you anything
I'm glad it's finally done
A year of atonement ends today
The time has finally run

Out, the sands of time caress
My face as clouds give way to rain
We're even now and now I can walk
Without my heart in pain


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cycle of foolishness continues

every year these streets get hotter and more cats burn
in and out of the beast belly taking turns
too many stories on lost potential
all they know is iced grill, steel,and street credentials

I not a hypocrite I'm well aware of what I did
walking that fine line between a man and a kid

I stayed drunk on the regular day in and day out
back when Private Stock use to make the 64 oz

I was clueless my ruthlessness getting me by
only plan for the day was get highs and survive

I was so young and restless
reminiscence on my first stick, first time I took some bodies necklace


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Praise God

If it's not one thing then it's another.
I'm either fighting with my dad or hearing screams from my mother.
My girlfriend doesn't trust me. I can't pay for therapy.
I can't do this all alone. I get down on my knees.
I ask the lord for forgiveness, right before I begin.
Although he is a forgiving God, how could he look upon sin?
Prayer is so simple even a child can start.
It's not all imagination, your faith must come from the heart.
It's all so real, the thrill you feel, the chill that's going through you.
You no longer fear it, the holy spirit starts showing and glowing, it's true.
Who knew that you, that tough guy? The one that wouldn't believe?
Then why are you always calling out for him when your unable to achieve?
He's always there to help us. Stand out and give it a try.
The Closer you get to God you'll see this isn't a lie.
Thank you, Jesus! Praise Jesus! Halliugha! Oh Lord!
I can never lose a battle using you as a sword!
Life here is too short, yesterday is already gone.
Knowing where you'll spend eternity will help keep you moving on.
Praise God!


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Death Meets Love

I got trapped in the dark 
the cancer creeps closer towards my heart 
I cant stand the pain that starts

they put a needle in me 
my heart stops beating 
I cant hear my thoughts or what im feeling

everything seems cluttered 
I stand here in a daze 
but your face starts to fade

I start to loose my feeling 
my hands are numb and my toes wont budge
my brain stops working 
little flakes peel off my heart

my heart turns gray 
I cant wait to fly away
in the light I shall go 

somewhere else but my home
where pain meets pleasure and death meets love


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Meaningful Screw You's

I'm done with this I've had enough of this/
Slushy trip since Hell Paso son just quit
This empty pursuit
Of letting the past keep livin' through you/
Go ahead and equip the damn truth
It is that simple to choose
What state of the neighbor of the temple you use
But you're just so adamant to worship/
Every preliminary negative
Which is why you have sentiment for those sedatives
Want evidence man your head has been/
Set on making your *****Titanic as
You steer into a gigantic crash/
Without any ****ing idea what effect thy absence has/
On the kids and on me too/
My heart feels ripped the honest truth/
To see you empty as your holes in the wall
You're like a ghost to us all/
Pale as the Seroquil pills you down/
I want to help but under the meds what you feel gets drowned/
I have the inauspicious fear you'll end up just like Tommy
That's why I pray every night/ I can't lose you Robbie


You have no idea 
What it's like
To watch you die
Every day
Every night
All the time
You can't even see that I am
Here with you
By your side
But as much
As I try
You deny
That I fight
For your life then I scream that
To me your life's meaningful (good riddance) 
But I'm 'bout this close to sayin' **** you (you idiot)
To me your life's meaningful (good riddance)
But I'm 'bout this close to sayin' **** you (you idiot)


Why can't you just forget the past
Take some time to look at the bigger picture and not be back in a flash
We're Kruger (pronounced close to sounding like Kroger)/ the fear you helped restore gives me bags
And I'm beyond tired of takin' attacks from your last-
Ing grudge for my darker days/
I love you but I wish to part our ways/
There's only so much my heart can take
In terms of holes and you immerse me in 'em the Spartan way/
It's not our choice we're physically far away/
And yes half the reason is me that our spark gave way/
But this time it's your fault that our world is shaking
You shut me out because the ears of another girl were waiting/
It seems that even for Britney your concern's decaying
It's ****ed up/ 'cause you never acknowledged how much I changed/
'Cause of our rapport me and my fam are pretty much estranged
**** these games you love to play/ 'tween now and then nothin's changed
Good luck not lovin' me as much as pain


You have no idea 
What it's like
To watch you die
Every day
Every night
All the time
You can't even see that I am
Here with you
By your side
But as much
As I try
You deny
That I fight
For your life then I scream that
To me your life's meaningful (good riddance) 
But I'm 'bout this close to sayin' **** you (you idiot)
To me your life's meaningful (good riddance)
But I'm 'bout this close to sayin' **** you (you idiot)


For a year it's been suicide with clues to find solutions I/
Don't think you're usin' my heartful l advice/ damn dude have I
Not been full of time so you could find/ reasons for you to not be blue and live/
But everytime I cope a sit and let you vent/ you walk off and do the opposite/
Talk about exhausted *****try listenin' to all your promises
And problems it's/ a shame how it's all turned out
I'm so burnt out/
I'll be the last to say this won't work out/
If you take your anger out on me again like I'm a dating spot/
Speakin' of those feelings that you refrain from not (knot)-
Icing was it honesty/ or rants of despar (as in spar) ity exasperated by deprav (as in im"prov") ity/
Or is there a real fervor (as in carni"vore") for me
If so then why you ignor (same as above) ing me/
For a Vai's you say you are not strong enough to close
Go **** yourself with a rubber hose
I don't care where the **** it goes/
I was there when no one was and this' the thanks I get
Never was I a dick to you so why'd you wank me *****/
My tears have turned into repressed anger/
For you a brother to me now a depressed stranger
That I have to put up longer than my dress' hanger


You have no idea 
What it's like
To watch you die
Every day
Every night
All the time
You can't even see that I am
Here with you
By your side
But as much
As I try
You deny
That I fight
For your life then I scream that
To me your life's meaningful (good riddance) 
But I'm 'bout this close to sayin' **** you (you idiot)
To me your life's meaningful (good riddance)
But I'm 'bout this close to sayin' **** you (you idiot)


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Halloween's Song

Its your Halloween rave, having your mascaraed
With all your best friends from back in the day
Liz Lauren and Blake and while they're dressed like skanks
I'm on the front line of battle
Howlin like jackle with A real nasty cackle
puttin a razor blade in the sack of Blake's apples
crack in Lauren's snapple
Staddle Liz like mclovin
But I am more like faghole As I babble at her ass
Axe her fast and mash her up like cattle
Sneak back and tackle your dad and put him in shackles
Shove sour patch kids Down your trap and gaggle
Its abominable, so unbelievable
But its inevitable, the end is kissable
I have rattled these kids psyches 
squirming like a centipede, cutting them like celery 
hear their squeamish screams echo in the streets
as the  creepy bells of the chapel ring


I remain a mystery
You'll need nancy drew, and at least 3 of the hardee boys to find what I'm up to
Theres this gloom that looms down in your basement room
Consuming shrooms, enhaling fumes to escape your doom
Witches zoomin by on their brooms makin sonic booms
Quick call scooby doo, but I killed him too
You heard a loud pound cause I cut the fuse so you
Run away to a motel room, assuming your safe
And As you look the other way,
I got my fangs in your veins and stranglin your neck
Too bad you didn't text your friends to tell them who is next
Hmm let me think for a sec. As Hex your boy  rex 
with an incessant twitch, till he is dead in a ditch
Hang him from bunny man bridge
Yo dude turn the lights on
But there's no flip to switch , I have flipped the script
Its bewitched with no miss to kiss
Exorcist with no priest to dismiss the spirit

So the town clock strikes half past 3
There's one last gas before i must sleep
Or i will crash fast if the light touches me
Put on the mask jack, just like the sixth scream 
I need to grasp havoc, till i hear shrills and shrieks
Please back rabbit, these chills aint for teens
As I stick a cherry bomb in your moms exhaust pipe
Run up on you  with nine a knife, and the head of your wife
Its useless I'm the nuisance that's abusive yet conducive
To your fear that I am near So close I could whisper in your ear
Smell the shampoo in your hair Wipe the floor with your tears
And as you look up in the mirror
I'm there ready to smear your blood all over the chair
as I stab you with my spear I crush a coors beer then
Leave you re crops there dead, red spread on the floor
But I hear a knock on the door
Are you okay honey? "Yes mommy,  just got a cold sore"


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The Road Of Casualty

I fall into unknown reasons
I lay wanting,needing
Convolution,soul sucked dry
Aphasia,alone within
A battered shell,augmental decay
Life slowly passes away
Debilitated to my dismay
An accidental tragedy has
lost the lives of many
Contumaciosly
The musk from last nights indulgence
still lingers and it accuses me
I have debased the family tree
Through my lost cognizance
The pain others must breath
Censoring all relations
A dissaproval of my being
The air as thick as sulpher
A cyanosis of the soul
I'm left alive to face it all
Retribution paid in full!!!


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Dark, cold World.

===== A little rhyme inspired by DaryIsue LockHart's rhymes =====

It is for the lost..  that I wanna find the way,
Out from this dark place, of pain and misery.
Back to ourselves.. how we were, when we were young,
Before evil played its hand, before the time we got stung.

I wanna be free..  but that'll have to wait!
I'm trapped by emotion, by feelings soo great.
And I'm not alone.. in this victims prison,
D.I.Y Labotomy, I'll make the first incision.

I don't want drugs, to ease my pain,
I found Nirvana.. but can't get back again!
Some say I'm insane!  This train of thought I'm on,
Goes through a portal to another dimension.

But it's a dark, cold world.. where I know no fear,
My heart it stops, my mind sharpens.. becomes clear,
When I look into your eyes.. I can see your soul,
I can reach into your heart.. but I might lose control!

Sometimes I can see.. just a little too much,
And round-about that time, I start to lose touch,
See.. I know why you hurt, but I could hurt them too!
I'd make them scream, long, sweet, songs of sorry.. just for you.

However.. I know something, that they don't know,
I've had a little glimpse, of the place, that they go,
Where they like to turn the tables.. and play little games,
Where sticks and stones hurt, but so will the names!

Till then.. keep strong!  Keep your mind awake,
You've walked through fire, I think you should take a break,
But you've seen the enemy, like me.. you wanna fight,
Thats why I walk alone, with no shadow, in the night.


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Alone

alone
i cant remember where Ive gone
where ive gone

I tried to forget
you tried to pretend
you loved me, alone, alone

alone
you left me fighting 
feeling the pain 
the shame

I tried to ignore
you ran out the door
one more mistake 
alone

and all at once
all the hurt all the pain
found me again
alone

I tried to forget
you tried to pretend
you loved me, alone, alone
I tried to ignore
you ran out the door
one more mistake 
alone



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EYE Don't See -Part 2-

My eyes
Refuse to see tragedy
My eyes
Marinate in dread…unable to embrace ecstasy 

And I’m left in my solitude…
My eye’s sagging…from endless mourning  
And I’m close to my demise… 
Only to find myself disappear…
When will peace draw near?

You don’t see 
What damage you’ve done
Just let me be
Leave me alone…hand me a gun

I yearn for unspoiled glory
To make me feel perfect once more
I yearn for flawless serenity
To make me feel no regret…don’t ignore
My calls…don’t hang up on me

You don’t see 
What damage you’ve done
Just hear my plea
Listen to my excruciating cries…
Listen to the truth, not the malicious lies  
Our journey has just begun   

And I’m left in my solitude…
Do you hear me weeping?
And I’m close to my demise…
Only to find myself disappear…
When will peace draw near?

Eye can’t handle the stress
Let me release my horrendous distress
Eye can see you making that same mistake
At least MY life isn’t at stake

And I’m left in my solitude…
My eye’s weeping…do You feel my lament
And I’m close to my demise…
Only to find myself disappear…Stepped on like cement
I’m aching with discontent… I abhor this torment    
When will peace scrub off my fear?

I can’t believe my eyes
Your guiltiness flows into me…
I can’t believe I fell for your lies
Your heartless action rape my mind…you don’t see
What my EYES see…

You’ll never see 
How much pressure you put me under
Unchain me from this chamber
And watch me flee…

When will you be set free?


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Painting

The paintbrush spreads us all over the canvas
a gallery of our beauty
my hands around picture frames
your face worn as a mask
the wax melts away all of our pain
the fireplace burns the wood 
little pieces fly threw the air
They end their journey
laying on the floor of the darkest place
one lands on the canvas i painted 
Burning it along with our lies
It curls up into little circles
eventually fading away
just like our pain


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Love's Wisdom

Love that is wise waits to unfurl,
The Grand Exchequer guarding pearls
That fools would fain throw before swine.
The fond endearments that are mine
Would be to you a parrot's song,
Words where the melody is wrong,
Unless your heart has ears to hear.

Love that is pure demands a cost
Else Paradise be freshly lost
And downward plunge toward the abyss.
There is no agony like this
When thirst can never quenched be
And torment knows no remedy;
When innocence has kissed the churl
And swine have gobbled up the pearls.


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FAITH KEEPS US APART

It seems the path Iam on  is changing everyday
the road uncertain just an endless shapeless gray
some would say it would all be clearer if I took up there religion
even with the doubt Iam not scared enough for that decision

I see the faith you placed in one of the many saviors
I lame excuse for the centuries of mad behavior
Iam sure your prophets where the very best of man
but your church and bibles where never in the plan

so every race has a version of there own
stories stolen from the gods of the past spoken out like it was always known
not one of these faiths is open and understanding
they keep others down and your soul churches are demanding

then you history holds no science no enlightenment
dogmatic foolishness written before free government
and every soul that is afraid to die or to ashamed to live
if you stop thinking then heaven is what they give

even now the human mind is found wanting
but reality is intelligence is hard work and life is daunting
if only the concept of good will and love
we understood without some sign from above

if you need the ancient fiction to ease your pain
I respect you and to all other men you should do the same
your saviors were righteous there’s know doubt
in there time they worship but no church was there twist whets its about

there have been many Christ’s since the beginning of man 
the Mayans and Muslim have had tales since they ruled by the roman
dry king ghandi and many more sacrifice there life so others could be free
in my mind that’s what Jesus is what he is supposed to be

even know there some man of great worth he has no money no powerful church
he’s  giving of himself and and loving the lost I dare you to search 
and see the truth were in this together and this is paradise
we are the only keepers of our fate we must realize

I can no longer people pay to pray and talk down to others who dont believe what you say
but Christ himself did not hang with the saved he knew the hopeless so he could see them ok
but times have changed were not ruled by religious empires mad with slavery
we fought for those rights not with one mans good with collective human bravery

a new age is upon us and the true test is coming not one of prophecy
the makers of worlds the stars the cycle of suns chaos of the galaxy
I hope soon we see are only time is now there is no second chance
are race needs to come together  and make a united stance
if faith keeps us apart do we even have the heart



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jolene's reply

DOLLY, DOLLY, DOLLY, DOLLY
Please don't beg, am not taking away your man
I won't take him away just because I can
Why will I when am in love with someone else.
I know the feeling that you feel
I was there too, and I still am.
The only man I loved has gone away
And you see, am still waiting for him.
With my honey dew eyes and way with words
I still could not keep the man I love
DOLLY, DOLLY, DOLLY, DOLLY
 Please stop crying, he is not worth it.
What am I to do, if he calls my name in his sleep?
I want none of him or anyone else.
Can't you see the pain in my eyes too?
If I don't cry, does not mean I don't.
Your happiness does not depend on me
Nor with him if he does not care.
Don't be a fool, listen to me Dolly
I don't care a bit about him


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My Crucifixion

My Crucifixion 

One of a few regrets, I face my mortality
Time spent in dissension, self imposed exile
I face my God, drop in prayer asking for reprieve
My penance; life, my sentence; life
In what else can I believe

Judge, jury, and executioner
Pontius Pilate at my crucifixion
I see things that most do not want to see
Blood on my hands
My own blood from my own crucifixion
Feeling things that most do not want to feel 

I’m facing demons, living nightmares 
As I am forced to look inside at the real me
Who I was, who I am, different yet the same
Fighting through the battles, torn and scarred
The only way to get over the shame

We all make mistakes, admitting it or not
I too was only created in an image
Falling short, falling hard, bottomless abyss
Truly sorry for the paths that I may have strayed
For the monsters I’ve created

Still I have become my judge, my jury, and my own 
executioner
Pontius Pilate at my crucifixion 
Seeing things that I don’t want to see
Judge, jury, and executioner
Pontius Pilate at my crucifixion
Feeling things that I don’t want to feel
Blood on my hands
My own blood from my own crucifixion
Believing things that I don’t want to believe,
And all in the name of repentance...

Bless me father for I have sinned,
With my first breath of life I became tied to you
With a never-ending need for forgiveness
Always sorry for the very way of the world

As if through death I could enact a change...


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Suffering Is The Same As Living

Hope, tonight, is just a void Love is destroyed Reality impending my doom Suffering a dream that was never made for me I’m just the burden falling under your arms I understand if you give up on me Don’t worry I’ll be fine I can just wait, wait as in all eternity You deserve to be happy and free I’m just the burden falling under your arms I understand if you give up on me Suffering is the same as living Tonight I might, Today I may Set you free away from me I’m just the burden falling under your arms I understand if you give up on me You travel all across in my veins Showing you share my pain But my life was never meant for me I’m just the burden falling under your arms I understand if you give up on me I'm sorry for those days I've ruined your life Best you just ignore, forevermore I’m just the burden falling under your arms I understand if you give up on me Suffering is the same as living Tonight I might, Today I may Set you free away from me I’m just the burden falling under your arms I understand if you give up on me Suffering is the same as living Tonight I might, Today I may Set you free away from me I’m just the burden falling under your arms I understand if you give up on me
**Morten Veland, Guitarist, Male Vocalist and Main Songwriter of Sirenia, formerly of Tristania**


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My Heart, I Give to You

I never wanted to say goodbye
Bit I never wanted you to see me cry
I was never really that strong

[chorus]
So now I give you my heart
'Cause it's always belonged to you
And I ask, 'Can we make this our new start?'
I will always be yours

I want to give us another try
I'm sorry I left you wondering why
I should have told you what was wrong

[chorus]

I take you now, by the hand
And I promise to try and let you understand
And together we shall carry on

[chorus]

With you I can withstand
Any, and all demands
And with you-by your side- I forever will stand

[chorus]
I will always be yours
always be yours


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Someday

“Someday”
Why is “someday” such a sad word?
When one like “never” is so much worse?
Why....why “someday”?

“Someday!”
Why is “someday” such a sad, sad word?
Perhaps the saddest one I’ve ever heard...
Why “someday”?

Everybody
has somebody
Except me, it seems
but that's not why I want to leave

So out of it
feel “out of it”
Never was in
can't find the way 

"Life’s one big bluff
Keep a straight face
Don’t let ‘em see your cards."

Yeah, life’s one big God-forsaken bluff
and I’m about to jump off

Someday, I thought you’d find me
Someday, I thought you’d love me
But someday ....
...someday......
someday NEVER CAME

“Someday,” they say, “You’ll find somebody.”
“Someday, you will be happy.”
“Someday, life will mean something.”
But someday I'll be SICK of waiting

Someday, you’ll see why it can’t be
Someday we’ll ALL be sorry
One day
sweet day
I’ll find my way 
out of this body.

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Bury Me Breathing

Bury me breathing.
With my heart still beating.
Dig a hole into the sand.
This was something I didn't plan.
Forgive me.
My time is done here.
This is my final good-bye.
I've written you a letter to explain myself.
My confession to you.
I want you to be able to understand why it's my time to go.
I'll always love you, that's something I want you to know.
Just bury me alive, I'm broken and tried.
There's nothing left for me.
I've given myself completely.
I found what I'd been searching for all along. 
My time has come and gone.
Just promise me that you'll stay strong.
I'm sorry that it had to end this way.
I'll never forget the day.
The first time we locked eyes.
I heard God whisper, "Love her." 
So I gave you my heart and my soul to keep. 
You kept it all along, so whenever you feel weak and feel like you can't press on.
Remember that I held you close to my heart all along.
Stay strong.
So just bury me breathing.
My time has come to leave.
Please don't grieve.
Just remember the precious memories we shared and that I always cared for you.
When you feel like falling allow the memories to be backbone that gets you through.

Don't cry.
Not a single tear.

The moment we shared are something I'll never forget.
I'll miss you surely.
But one day soon you'll again come faec to face with me.
And when that time comes forever will be in front of us and we can continue to grow 
together like I always swore to you.
I'll give you everything that you need.
So baby just breathe.
It's my time to leave.
MY heart still beats for you and it'll never stop.
I wish you could come with me, but it's not your time to leave.
You ahve so much ahead of you.
I just hope you'll always remember and dream of what we could be.
You were the one for me.
I'm sorry I have to leave so prematurely.
I'll you kiss you one last time as you bury me alive.
Good-bye my bride.


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I Will Die

I am falling off a mountain, Embracing the pain, I imagine I am with you, But then the memories came. All those times, You lift me up, Only to push me back down. All those things I did for you, All the pain that you caused, You were the one made me smile and frown. But I will die, In the thought of your arms, In the thought of your lips against mine, The more you told me that ain't gonna happen. I will die, To the beat of your heart, Your shining smile. Now I'm dead. Some say, Time will heal all wounds, And that love will come very soon. Those people can't face reality, I only just want to keep my sanity, Sanity. But I will die, In the thought of your arms, In the thought of your lips against mine, The more you told me that ain't gonna happen. I will die, To the beat of your heart, Your shining smile. Now I'm dead. Dreaming goes to nightmares, Love goes to darkness, The light shines bright, Down the tunnel, I see the gleaming light, But right now I just wanna die. But I will die, In the thought of your arms, In the thought of your lips against mine, The more you told me that ain't gonna happen. I will die, To the beat of your heart, Your shining smile. Now I'm dead. I just want you to know, That I'm so sorry. And I will die.


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Sorry

Down next to the river bend
You know you took my breath away
I’m glad you finally realized it
And tried to save the day

I drowned in your love
I’m sorry
What's done, it can’t be undone
I am sorry

Your breath replacing mine
Your air flowing through my lungs
And that pounding in my chest
We both know it’s because of you, baby

I’m sorry my sweet darling
I’m sorry caring father
Who never sees his son
I’m sorry late night drinker
Who chases when I run

And I drowned in your love
I’m sorry
What's done, it can’t be undone
I’m sorry

As I watch the scene from afar
I can tell you’re sorry
That you let it get this far
But you’re not sorry

I’m sorry
That our son will have no mother
I am sorry 
He never really had a father
I am sorry, so sorry
That I let it get this far

And I’m sorry
For the call my parents got
I am sorry
They lost their daughter
To another useless fight
With the man they never liked

I’m so sorry


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Let's Party With the Wicked

The first big party of the year
Right after the pre-season game
A bunch of juniors and seniors take off
Driving around down the highway.
Pulling up to the designated house
Where the parents aren't at home
They don't know about the party
Their "honor student" has thrown.
Music is blasting from speakers all around
As people shove away couches to dance
Furniture's broken, but nobody cares
The party's a once-in-a-lifetime chance.
Things start to heat up
As guys bring in kegs of beer
Even freshmen took a drink, thinking,
"Total freedom; there are no parents here!"
Pretty soon, every thing's trashed,
And the people leave to go home
Late at night, right after that party,
People pull out onto the road.
Pandemonium wreaks havoc 
Twenty minutes after they leave
As all across the small town,
Cars begin to weave.
Cars crash like dominoes
In a simultaneous effect
Parents are in a panic
Wondering where their children have been left.
Bodies are splayed out all over the road
As metal tears and glass breaks
All of this, because of one little party
And because some students chose to drink.
Their best friends are in body bags
And their parents are engulfed in grief
And all because of that one party
And that stupid choice to drink.
Honor students now lay dead
Choir members in bags
Band players are gone forever
The other stories are just as bad.
Alcohol checks are administered
And even young ones are to blame
"It's not my fault, I was drugged!"
One sophmore dares to claim.
"It was just a little alcohol," they say,
As it rages through their system
"I didn't mean to kill anybody,
But now, I wish I were with them."
The nickname for this awful crash
And this tragic night
Truly lives up to its name:
"The Wicked has take flight."
Drinking and driving don't mix
And these students learned the hard way
It was just a little fun,
But their friends won't be back Monday.
Some say it wasn't their fault
And that everbody did it,
But really, everyone's to blame
For thinking, "Let's party with the Wicked."


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Waking Up In a Dream

Caged out inside herself The dark light will never shine Why do you care to think negative If you'd care to think at all? Can you believe I wanted to be you? The dream faded long ago Once I realized it was me whom was right; prudence redeemed Your thoughts were wrong Why would you ever try someone that is less than you Someone that could never contend Directly to the end? My ashes turn dark Suffering from the sins of others No melody can save me I'm crossing the borderline Waking up in a dream Is it justified To harm others Only to break your insecurities To fill your prejudice I wish I could know Why you do this The words freeze when the come to me To burn another was they set into you Relapsed again I was left bleeding Cause I'm not good enough if I can be me You were the dream; I was the nightmare Serendipity came for me And I woke up in a dream My ashes turn dark Suffering from the sins of others No melody can save me I'm crossing the borderline Waking up in a dream My ashes turn dark Suffering from the sins of others No melody can save me I'm crossing the borderline Waking up in a dream Say oh, I must say, to you, Mon plus Cher ami Yes to you I'm sorry I had an opinion I'm sorry I felt for one who can't feel I'm sorry I wasn't you I'm sorry I can only be me I'm sorry your dread words will never again be heard by me My ashes turn dark Suffering from the sins of others No melody can save me I'm crossing the borderline Waking up in a dream My ashes turn dark Suffering from the sins of others No melody can save me I'm crossing the borderline Waking up in a dream


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Desire tags prt 1 lrics

Here we are, there we go
here i am, there you are
how can we be the cause of each others pain still
"Everytime i think about you i dont know its either im happy or sad
hoping not just to play you, but hey you try to do the same thing
im sorry if i seem weak or if i try too hard
my heart hurts to see an old friend when she looks at me with her head down
oh i dont know tomorrow i might go to jail
all in one night i jeapordized my freedom
cause im so hotheaded, hotblooded passion that pulls up, with your hair pulled back
then you let it fall down and then i get out this mess im in, you know i will, u know i will
i know with me everyday its something else,
im always trying to be good but i always end up doin bad things i know im mean to you in a bad way. i guess im not right in the head becuz all i see is a vision of a man when i lay down, except last night when i talked to you , you looked so worn out stressed out, why would you be with him when you could be with the man that u love still, its okay whatever you want its your choice, just please consider how much hangs in the balance, i dont even know if its talent, if im talented, or just sick of these lame conversations that people have with me, talking about all their troubles,but i have so many i cant even think straight
but i concentrate on the solution and i usually dont treat you with the love i feel becuz i dont love you if you dont love me, im sorry im a playa, im a crook, convict con-artist, tryin to find a way in your heart just so i can hurt him, i flip and turn words twist and bend the truth, make up *****just to send to u,  becuz im trying to break down the fortress of your heart, count my attempts add em up, cross another day out on my calender, there goes another month, cross another month off my calender, and we collide so different then what we use to be, use this use them but dont try to use me or put me in their group girl, no enemy can stop me, even when men set the net, let their own foot be caught, slip and slide away, not trying to be slick with, or run game on you, so dont try to run game on me,


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I'd Do Anything: Taking Risks For You

You're strong and you deserve 
All praise...
For you brightened up my days
And I can't imagine you abandoning me... 
I can see our friendship last for a lifetime 
 
I'd do anything...for you
I'd sacrifice my life...for you
I could hike Mount Everest...for you
I'd give you all that you desire 
I'd walk into the fire...
for you...don't deny it - it's true
I'd walk on hot coals...for you
I'd do the impossible...for you
It's true...
I'm positively sure that 
I love you...
I'd give up my life...for you
You still don't have a clue,
Do you?

You were there for me
In my times of trouble and stress
You were meant to be 
My sincere friend...soaking in my distress... 
Bottling up our progress
Somehow I'll prove to you 
That you're a virtuous, unselfish friend to have 
You make my heart thump with buoyancy 
You have no clue how fortunate you make me feel 
Every time you're hanging out with me...
You tell me that I look handsome -
You have no clue how that makes me feel 
Every time you encourage me...
Every time you remind me of how I look,
It makes me beam with contentment...
naturally 


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Dormant Angel

I know we can’t take it back 
all the things we said 

Everything we had
Everything we meant 

I told you I’d love you forever 
Isn’t that something
But im struggling here 
Wanting to let you go

You meant the world to me
You meant everything to me
Set my heart on fire
How I felt love for the first time
How you made me believe

Then you, 
You walked away
From everything we had
And I see how hard it was 
It was all planned out 
‘Just you and me’
now all we had is history 

If I could take it all back I would
Every last word
Everything that hurt 
I’m sorry for all the lies you made me believe
Its time for me to release 
And set my heart free

If you believe this is not the end
And all we’ll ever be is friends 
I’ll let you know one thing inside
This is not who I am
So sorry 
Goodbye

Now you held my hand
My world in your hands 
Is it really true
Is this the end
Im off and away
On my jet plane 
To see if you love me
And want me to stay 

Then you, 
You walked away
From everything we had
And I see how hard it was 
It was all planned out 
‘Just you and me’
Now all we had is history 

If I could take it all back I would
Every last word
Everything that hurt 
I’m sorry for all the lies you made me believe
Its time for me to release 
And set my heart free


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This is I

It was pointed out to me today that I am self absorbed
My words did not come
For I was stung
Realizing they were right


It was pointed out to me today that I am self centered
I looked at the floor
For I was stung
Realizing that they could see through me


It was pointed out to me today that I am self contained
I pulled at my hands
For I was stung
Realizing that they were exposing me


It was pointed out to me today that I have no concern for anyone but myself
I choked on my words and clenched my fists 
For I was stung
Realizing that they knew me too well


This is what I have become


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Just A Fool

I'm just a fool who writes words on a page
and dreams of singing on a stage
but to no avail
someday I'll set sail
and yet- he stares at me
like everything's a freakin' fantasy
and I am left with this aching in my heart
Cause I know I'll tear him apart
Why do you do this to me?
This isn't an everyday fantasy
Stop pretending we could've been together long
For you and I- we don't belong

Now I feel like I'm ranting to nobody
A whispering to an evergreen tree
that doesn't know my name
or from where I came
and yet- something peaceful stirs
among the 'pokies' and sticky burrs
happy memories that even now can make me smile
and let me hold on to him for awhile
Oh why do I have to be this way?
I should've moved on to a brighter day
I need to stop pretending my life is full of misery
I know you're stronger than me


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Rosaline

Moonlight shines down on my cold, pale face I am alone, her raven calling, I am disgrace Falling as the willows weep, I hold her in my arms as she struggles to breathe Rosaline, my one love divine. You are sacred You are mine Her voice rising above the water Beautiful Rosaline sang silently to me The whispers trailing off her fingers, as she faded into the darkness My beautiful angel has vanished again Goodbye my Beautiful Rosaline. Happened that Grim reckless day when the shadows began to play Beauty detonated in my trust No more, no more will there ever be a witch so grand, as to bring back my Beloved Rosaline Sorrow cuts it's way into my heart It is the locked key, the one you keep Her voice rising above the water Beautiful Rosaline sang silently to me The whispers trailing off her fingers, as she faded into the darkness My beautiful angel has vanished again Goodbye my Beautiful Rosaline So leaving this Tragic scene I vanished from Rosaline's sight Nevermore will there ever be a witch so grand, as to bring back my Beloved Rosaline Her voice rising above the water Beautiful Rosaline sang silently to me The whispers trailing off her fingers, as she faded into the darkness My beautiful angel has vanished again Goodbye my Beautiful Rosaline. Enchanting she sang to me, in the everlasting light of peace My beautiful siren walks again Goodnight my Beautiful Rosaline


Details | Light Poetry | |

Heart Beat

Sleepless and confused, my mind wonders around like a lost child,
all this gray and rain makes me think suicidal. 
Having to do the same stuff over and over again is pissing me off,
so i lay away to this sound of the beat i got playing so soft. 

My only escape is and every will be is this beat,
trust me it can put on a good show so have your self a seat. 
It will rock your world from the wonders it can do to you,
cause this sound is from the heart and soul and that is true.

Most people don't believe me that music can change a persons life,
it's only cause they have never experienced a good fight.
A fight for there own life, and the only thing that brought them back was music,
but they still refuse to admit that it's not magic.

So go put on a set of headphones and tell listen to a beat or two,
cause by the time you are done i will be asking you if it aint true.
So that's what i am about to go do is put on a set of headphones and listen through,
cause it's not what i can do but what the music can do to you.


Details | Free verse | |

Thoughtless

everywhere i go faces looking
people talking
people screaming

the sad faces
in the wrong places

nowhere to go

darkened rooms
horrible dreams

dead memories
still here to haunt me

if you move on 
the past stays 

a man in my dream
what really happened will be revealed

if i were to lie
i would be in shame
as any human would

after a while you stop thinking
and you just move forward
not knowing what the future holds

but knowing its not good

the horror they live in

the horror of war
the horror of the legends the people start
and the horror of being human


Details | Lyric | |

I'm Sorry Pt 1

I’m sorry for everything I did
For everything I didn’t say
Girl I love you 
And I never meant for it to turn this way
I wanna be with you
And I need to apologize
I’ll do it again
Say I’m sorry over a thousand times
I knew I hurt you
Once I heard you cry and seen your tears
Then I seen it 
Everything I worked hard for jus disappear 
I want it back, I want
All your love and all your trust
I will do everything 
I jus will never give up
I’m so sorry
I will go to the bottom of the ocean
Travel to the farthest star
Jus to hear you say
That you still love me girl
And to hear that
You still want to be in my world
Baby, please stay
Please don’t turn around
Give me a chance to say
How it all went down….


Details | Lyric | |

Disturbed

i dont know much about him 
but i heard he wasnt talkative 
he didnt like being alive 
he was numb to all the stuff he had seen
i heard he didnt like anything green 
he ate roman noodles everynight for supper 
he always wore skinny jeans and black clothes 
sometimes i seen him were tuxes and nice shoes 
but lately he has been wearing band shirts
he wears converse shoes and uses and army bag for school
he always walks in the woods and never around town 
i head hes very private 
i know that he doesnt communicate throught talking only through his peoms or by lyrics from a song
i see him drawing or painting 
when he tries to speak to anyone they always walk away and leave him alone
when he goes home he goes upstairs and smokes cutting himself till the blood drains from his skin
His family left him behind because he cant forget his past
sometimes he comtemplates the meaning behind his life 
his favorite color is gray because his like is in black and white
hes not so innocent 
he is someone fake 
he knows of no god 
his life was smashed into pieces by the giant sun 
he knows of a darkest place where i usually see him lay 
he crawls around in his own skin because he is disturbed


Details | ABC | |

Anthem (part one)

In a tunnel under earth, we were given a curse
In this world, we am called reverse
Eager to think and question
These things bring out nothing but aggression

We are one in all and all in one

Sent to the house of the street sweeper
Keep my thoughts from them, ill think deeper
In a subway we find the device
Must show the council word of advice

We are one in all and all in one


Details | Lyric | |

Mistakes

Take me to the horizon where I can see the sun,
Let it wash away my worries and erase what I have done.
The light is almost here, the night is almost through,
It doesn't matter if I make it out as long as I have you.

Lets go out and see the whole world tonight,
and maybe even pretend that everything's alright.
Maybe just for now we can live out all our dreams,
We can accept the fact that reality isn't what it seems.
But when it starts to set back in and there's nothing we can do,
All i can do is watch as it tears apart all thats left of me and you.

Take me to the horizon where I can see the sun,
Let it bring to life the problems that I can not out run.
The night has lasted forever but the morning's soon in view,
It doesn't matter if I make it out as long as I have you.

Finally the dawn, I can see it start to break,
It presents and opportunity I know that I must take.
I know that I must own up to all the things I've done.
And tell you that I'm sorry for each and every one.
But no matter what I do and no matter what I say,
I know that you, like the time, are slowly slipping away.

Take me to the horizon where I can see the sun,
Let it make clear to me that my battle can't be won.
Now I know no matter what there is nothing I can do.
I don't want to make it out tonight because I know I can't have you.




Details | Lyric | |

Teenage Nightmare

If I fall,let my body lay
It was easier just living with the 
pain
And the teardrops tell me what 
i feel
Lets me know,the feelings are 
real
I didn't think that it'd hurt this 
much if i said farewell
Cuz i dint see how much love u 
held

But I'm sorry if you didn't hold 
me tight enough to hear my 
silent cries. i'm sorry if you 
never Heard my words.

Even though the cuts said it all
scars on my wrist let you know
Well forgive me from my sins
I tried to correct myself
Now my broken soul and body 
will go

Far away from  this overflowing 
pond of tears


Details | Elegy | |

Marie III--Is the Coffin Too Deep

So frigid was her immaculate body Her last second in screams is all I can see Love's revenge was my guilt With you I'd rather let you die with Bound hands Without you, Marie, like the psychopath's dream Death is all that I can see; All that could redeem Did anyone ask Did anyone recall The sweet taste of the poison The swift slash of the knife he penetration of the lead The pain of her decaying heart I can hear it's bellowing cries But why can't you, Marie, Hear my paranoid eulogies Is the coffin too deep? Was it so hard to solve Was it so hard to see That I strangled her so easily My nails piercing her comely skin Blood dripping like the pomegranate I crushed with the shovel I shattered her shins The knife to slight her wrists Didn't you see I did it all The only witness Couldn't say Is the coffin too deep? The pain of her decaying hear tI can hear it's bellowing cries But why can't you, Marie, Hear my paranoid eulogies Is the coffin too deep? Marie I cant stay Earth is to cruel when your coffin is to deep Forever in death and in death alone The pain of her decaying heart I can hear it's bellowing cries But why can't you, Marie, Hear my paranoid eulogies Is the coffin too deep?


Details | Lyric | |

I'm Sorry

I'm sorry I was never the perfect daughter, the perfect sister, the perfect wife, the perfect mother, the perfect girlfriend, the perfect friend.
I tried my hardest to be what you wanted me to be but it was never enough.
I failed as a wife and a mother for letting things get so out of control when they did. 
There's too many problems in my life, I'm full of baggage like some may say. 
But I'm living my life one day at a time. 
It may not be the life I want but I'm trying my hardest and making up for the past.
I've said my apoligizes.
I've made my mistakes.
I've burned the bridges and lit a candle.
I'm striving for that perfect life that seize to exist. 
I know there's some one out there for me who can take me as I am. 
But how long is it going to take?
It's been a year and I'm sorry but I've failed on finding a new daddy for my childern
A daddy they deserved. 
A daddy that wouldn't do the things the last one did. 
I'm sorry I've failed again maybe next year my childern and I will find THE ONE.
If he exist.
I just have to stop looking for him and let him find me.


Details | Lyric | |

Than him

I'm weaker than you
It's always been true
you don't need me, cause i'll be the end of you

I don't mean to be useless, I don't mean to be sad
but things come along, and they're always so bad
that i latch onto you, you make me feel loved
with you i am something, when i'm touched, when i'm hugged
and i know that sometimes i make you mad

but I promise to be better, i know I'm a fool
but every time I look at you, I've jumped into a pool
of water that drowns my lungs out, 
I can't breathe when I see your eyes
I want to scream, i wanna shout
I wanna be your prize

But i'm weaker than you, I'm only a fool
just a fool who does nothing but write
useless, uncaring, so selfish and vain
he leads me back into the light


Details | Lyric | |

Can't Save You

behind close doors you say
you just want him so far away
we've all tried to help you off the floor
to only fall weak to him once more
what kind of fool do you take me for

if i don't know the truth
then i can't save you
well i guess i'll let go
but babe i don't want to
i wish i could save you
wish i could hold your hand
but wishing gets us nowhere
might as well give in

screams are all you hear in your ears
but i guess it's better than your fears
because on one unfaithful day
he'll beat your dreams away

they are so many others
to make you feel better
but you see right through them
this was never your plan

if i don't know the truth
then i can't save you
well i guess i'll let go
but babe i don't want to
i wish i could save you
wish i could hold your hand
but wishing gets us nowhere
might as well give in

i'm not mad you choose him
i am more than loving
cause these tears are choking
but this is the life you've chosen

i know the truth
i can't save you
i'm gonna let go
never wanted to
i can't save you
feel his cold hands
around your neck
are you sorry yet


Details | Lyric | |

Joyful thoughts of Christmas

The smell of Christmas fills my heart with joy.
Sorrow can fall down and kiss the ground.
My friend's some fifty miles away from her home.
The bright lights astonish me - it feels like my soul is lit.
As if I were the light that shone upon the night.
As if I had a chance to grasp my dreams and turn them into reality.
I'm a crazy fool thinking I could change myself and the patterns I leave behind.
Murderers follow my movements because I am not insane.
The police trace my calls trying to predict where I might strike next.
Serial killers bow down before me 'cause to them I am the owner of every human throat.
Be thankful for what you have because sooner or later you're going to be dead on the
kitchen floor begging for the turkey to be no more.

John Monteblanco 10/31/10


Details | Lyric | |

Last Chance

This is my Last Chance for you. This is my Last Chance to get to you. This is my Last Chance to save you. This is my Last Chance to die. It started in a fire, Where you were trapped. I could only grab one thing, And I couldn't go back. So I grabbed you, In a blink of an eye. The house is fire, Now it's time to say bye. Oh Oh Oh, This is my Last Chance. If I don't take it I will lose you. Oh Oh Oh. This is my Last Chance to get you. I would get to go back. This is my Last Chance to get you. You're the strength that I lack.


Details | ABC | |

Did i mention she's green?

Green girl
Green girl

She gathers leaves on a blue and green night
Her emerald eyes make me ignite

Dream catchers gather on her wall
She makes stars none shall fall

Green girl
Green girl

Light candles, red hair reminds me of autumn
Fire red forest she will come

Dream catchers gather on her wall
She makes stars none shall fall

Green girl
Green girl

Change like the seasons
For unknown reasons
Nothing left to give
Baby I would relive

Green girl
Green girl


Details | Lyric | |

You Take Me Higher

Will I say: “I made a difference”? 
Will I say: that I stood out? 
Will I say: “I gave it my all, beyond the shadow of a doubt”? 
When it is my time that comes, and when the end is near 
Will I accept the outcome? 
Will I have any fear? 
I’ve made so many mistakes 
My judgment’s not been right 
I’ve burned so many bridges 
But still, I see a light! 

It seems like every time I want to close the door, there you are, you hold the key, 
and I don’t know what for 

You take me higher 
You are the one 
I know you hold the key 
You take me higher 
You are the one 
What am I supposed to be? 

I am here 
You are there 
I am here 
You are there 

You take me higher 
You are the one 
I know you hold the key 
You take me higher 
You are the one 
What am I supposed to be? 

Will I say: “I made a difference”? 
Will I say: that I stood out? 
Will I say: “I gave it my all, beyond the shadow of a doubt”? 
When it is my time that comes, and when the end is near 
Will I accept the outcome? 
Will I have any fear? 
I’ve made so many mistakes 
My judgment’s not been right 
I’ve burned so many bridges 
But still, I see a light! 

You take me higher 
You are the one 
I know you hold the key 
You take me higher 
You are the one 
What am I supposed to be?


Details | Lyric | |

sorry

SORRY

I am so sorry time went so fast

I am so sorry those good times would come to past

I am so sorry I did not do more

Talk share more time together before

Time goes past so very fast

As fast as sand going through an hour glass

Don't wait until tomorrow comes

To say what needs to be said to love ones

Do not hold back on what you wish to say

Say it straight away say it today

I am sorry time went past so fast

I am sorry the good times were not to last


Details | Lyric | |

Prove

What to say
But walk away
What could I do?
But start to hate

Laugh now
Cry later
A style I well know
My laugh and smile
Is just an act
That hides the real show

Jealousy overcomes
What done is done?
I don’t believe
This the not end of you and me
Julie
I’ll continue fighting
Because I’m sorry
I will not forgive myself truly
For saying things I didn’t mean
Saying evil things
At someone I care for dearly

I don’t feel whole
I feel hollow
I don’t know why
But without her by my side

I wish I didn’t accuse
I wish I didn’t blown my fuse
Because I didn’t want to lose
I should have trusted her too
Instead of acting like a fool

What to say
But be the fool
And walk away
What could I do?


Details | Free verse | |

The Shore Awaits

My head is heavy
with loneliness
as i sail into the moon
watching my reflection
run in circles
over and over i see
the deepest part of me
become lit with enmity
and endless misery
for it's difficult to look forward
when you live in a memory
and it's hard to kill 
the voices that torture you
when those voices
come from your own mind
Why must I
hurt myself so?
hoping for a better tomorrow
when i make it
so it never shall be so?
I must find a way
to outsmart my sadness
to look past my own
imperfections
to let my feelings go
to let go of my fear
and to finally let go
of the thought of finding
a better world
So from this day forth
and this night that is to fall
I will set my sail forever
I will never stop moving forward
and i shall ride the lightning
and swim in the tsunami
because i can overcome 
any odds that i already have not faced
I will find the land and shores of bliss
just speaking of the thought
makes me taste the sands 
of times to come
follow me into the abyss
and i promise
the shore awaits


Details | Lyric | |

Eventually

eventually everything loses its touch
eventually everyone gets rid of their lust
and when you can no longer pretend
that everything eventually comes to an end

it'll all come down in a bad way
no one not even you can stop fate
so why bother why even try
because all of us will eventually die

im not stupid
im not going to believe their lies
im not naive 
and im not going to give in this time

trouble all of us will eventually meet
i guess you think a fool i must be
but the truth is so full of heat
the odds i guess no one can beat

im not stupid
im not going to believe their lies
im not naive 
and im not going to give in this time

and this pain fills me
wishing i could escape this destiny
but whats meant to happen will
i wonder how does that make you feel

the truth makes you so pail
slowly we're losing to this hell
in this life we're all going to fail
and we can't escape this jail

baby listen to me yell

im not stupid
im not going to believe their lies
im not naive 
and im not going to give in this time

eventually you will give up 
eventually your words will be left in the dust
eventually you will lose your shameful lust
while everything has already lost its touch




Details | Lyric | |

Crush and Crushed

In the beginining,
There was a girl.
She was on a rollar coaster.
She saw her crush.
He ignored her.
He thought she was annoying.
He thought she was petiful.
Little did he know,
She would die that day.
Here's her story.

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Little, little girl,
No cares in the world.
Bruises on her face,
Crazy on her trace.

Little, little girl,
Little, little crush.
Little, little love,
Little, little to much.

Only on a rollar coaster,
Would she believe,
She was air.
Carelessness filled her head,
Little, little so much dread.
The boy she liked,
Walking around with so much might,
Little, little did he know that she would die.

Little, big circle coming up,
She was on bottom the cart on top.
Watching the cart fallin',
He didn't know she was calling,
His name.

Heaven reached to her,
But she kept herself on earth,
Until she could see him again.

Only on a rollar coaster,
Would she believe,
She was air.
Carelessness filled her head,
Little, little so much dread.
The boy she liked,
Walking around with so much might,
Little, little did he know that she would die.

Tell him, tell him how you feel,
Little did you know it would feel so real.
Now that she was dead he started thinkin',
Was she crazy or was she worth loving?

Only on a rollar coaster,
Would she believe,
She was air.
Carelessness filled her head,
Little, little so much dread.
The boy she liked,
Walking around with so much might,
Little, little did he know that she would die.

Now she's going to heaven,
So many things she hasn't done.
She sees the door and,
Remembers her amore.

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Later that night,
After he saw her die,
He commited suicide.
His parents found a note from him.
"I saw her die,
 I love her,
 I am going to be with her.
 I'm sorry"
He didn't go to heaven,
Neither did she,
They are both stuck in limbo,
At least they have each other.


Details | Lyric | |

Alcoholic Dancer

O n an imaginary pedestle

before imaginary crowds

I'm astounded that it's taken me so long

to learn to take the hard knocks

and not to cry out loud

and not to make excuses for my songs

but I'm sorry if my sanity

won't fit the mold you made for me

and my manifold iniquities

have exceeded your ability to forgive

Just let me live until I die

let me laugh until I cry

let me stop and ask you "why?"

then interrupt you in the middle of your answer

just an alcoholic dancer 

stepping on your toes

I should learn to keep my mouth shut

I should learn keep the peace

I should learn to walk on water 

and make the tempest cease

I should learn to be more considerate

torwards a world that's trying to sleep

maintane diplomatic apathy 

with right wing fascist creeps

but I'm sorry if my psyche seems a little out of touch

and I'm sorry that I'm sorry that I apologize to much

just let me live until I die

let me laugh until I cry

let me stop and ask you "WHY?"

then interrupt you in the middle of your answer

just an alcoholic dancer 

stepping on your toes


Details | Lyric | |

Running back To You

Verse : Suddenly i came  to realize that living without you  was the  biggest  
mistake i  made/ and that all the  memories i  had of you seemed to quickly  fade  
away/ i  tossed  and  turned  couldn't  sleep through nights/ Just  kept  thinking 
about the  fussing  and  fights/ To  get  back to ill do whatever it takes/ baby i'm  
running  back  to  you/

Chorus : Baby i  can set you free/ only if you  come back  to  me / baby can't  you 
see our love is  true/ can't  you see i'm  running  back to you/

Verse2: All the  memories of  us  keeps piling up in  my head/ Can't  stop thinking 
about  you and what we used to do/ i try to  hide it  but it just keeps coming out/ 
Don't want to pretend as if  we never  existed/ don't want  to  go on  without  the  
thought of you  being  in my  life/ Just  want  to show you  i  forgive  you/ show  you 
that  i truly love  you/

Chorus : 2x


Details | Lyric | |

Falling

You're the one that said every thing will be okay.
You're the one that said nothing can go wrong.
You're the one that said nothing can befall me. 
But now I need you all I see is that you're gone.

And I'm falling, I'm falling
Back into my pit of darkest days. 
And I need you, I need you 
I see that now more than before.
Please come save me, come save me
I'm so sorry for my doubting ways.
And I'm falling, I'm falling
Back into your loving embrace.

You're the one that promised to walk always with me.
You're the one that promised to keep me standing tall.
You're the one that promised your footsteps will not fade.
But now I need you I don't see them there at all.


And I'm falling, I'm falling
Back into my pit of darkest days. 
And I need you, I need you 
I see that now more than before.
Please come save me, come save me
I'm so sorry for my doubting ways.
And I'm falling, I'm falling
Back into your loving embrace.

I'm the one who should know by now.
I'm the one who turns away.
I'm the one whose foosteps fade.
As you carry me through my darkest days.

You raise me up, raise me up
To stand eteranal at you're right hand.
And call to me, call to me
When I am lost and melancholy.
You bless me now, bless me now
With gifts and love beyond compare. 
You raise me up, raise me up
Beyond what the world could ever make me.


Details | Lyric | |

I'm Sorry Pt 2

Baby sit down
Let me tell you what happen
It seemed for that moment
Your boy was jus nappin
She came in the room
Cryin real hard
I told her to talk to me
Tell me how it start
Before she even said a word
We’re kissin on the counter
For the moment I imagine it was you
I was holdin in the shower
I never seen it comin 
And im sorry this I gotta tell you
She’s pregnant with my baby 
And its due in june
It was jus one time 
And I never did it again
But she sent me this letter
Still the words are in my head
 Now its off my chest 
Baby tell me what your thinkin
Tell me whats on your mind
Tell me how much of me you really hate
She has her guy
And I should be all alone
But baby please forgive me
Please done leave me and go
You are my only one
And I promise theres no other
Now thats all that I can say
And I promise there wont be another


Details | Ballad | |

And Nothing Else Matters

I never opened myself this way,
I try to hide my evil everyday.
All of this I can't just say,
My darkened bed is where I lay.
I lived my life without a care,
A place to hide please take me there.
My emotions paint the walls with darkened splatters,
And nothing else matters.

I want to run away never looking back,
Prove all the people wrong talking smack.
But I can't bare to witness this any longer.
Take me to a new home.
I can't find it to care,
A place to hide please take me there.
My emotions paint the walls with darkened splatters,
And nothing else matters.


Details | Lyric | |

Just Like an Addict

I have an itch
(Not for crack or coke)
To hit the road.
If you have it you feel it
If you don't,
You don't.
But an itch has to be scratched
(Unless it's chicken pox or poison ivy)
Before it drives you crazy.
It's too late to deny
Too late to change
Too much to ignore.
With blessings or curses
I'm leaving tomorrow.
If I disappear forever
I'm either happy or dead.
But I have to go now,
Before I scratch off my head.


Details | Rhyme | |

kiss,hugs, and tears

 U didnt whisper in my ear no u whispered to my heart.Not only did u kiss my lips but my soul right from the start.

The minute that u left a sickness took over my body.I stop beleiving everything real close to illuminati.

But I altered my attitude that altered out my life. I couldnt loose my future since I already lost my wife. 

I got back up on my feet and put my limits in the sky. People asked me if I could reached the I dont know was my reply.

 I found a way to smile and to stop being upset.Nothing improves memmories more than trying to forget.

I was doing better my mind was finely clear then I relapse nowhere u decide to reappear.

U brought life to all my nightmares illustrated all my fears. That loves start with a hug, grows with kisses ends with tears. 

I gave you everything I had I gave you good love and protection.U know that ur in love when a persons flaws look like perfection. 

Cant beleive u actually told me that u loved and didnt mean it. Cant beleive I was naive and dum to actually beleive it. 

I see once again and dont have words because Im scared. A broken heart will always heal but never be repaired.

Cant let go of people that u keep thinking about. Its me againts persuation and most likely Ill loose the bout. 

They say that no ones perfect but that everyone is great. u were already great became perfect what a trait. 

To learn means that u failed to fail means that u learned. Our love was just like hell and hell means that it burns. 

Still with all of that we facing off after the years. Fate is not quite as strange as it appears.

Sometimes we have to die ourselves to live for someone else. But with all the sacrificing u forget how to excell. 

God is a tought who makes the crooked all that straight. He has justification of our love that turn to hate.

Who knows when Ill get over u tomorrow or maybe never. But even though I love you say goodbye and leave forever.
 


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Control

I loved you. You were creeped out. I loved you. You were all I thought about. Dreams bring misery, To this little life. I will use trickery. I don't go down without a fight. I will survive without you. You don't control me anymore. I will survive without you. You're not for me to adore. The mess you made, Taking my life for granted, Leaving me in a barracade, You never knew how much you mented. I am in control. Foreign language brings nightmares, Because I would curse you, And you would figure out later, That I once loved you. Teardrops cover my doorstep. Remember how much you ment, I gave you my heart you kept. And you left me there when I wept. I will survive without you. You don't control me anymore. I will survive without you. You're not for me to adore. The mess you made, Taking my life for granted, Leaving me in a barracade, You never knew how much you mented. I am in control. You left me there, In the pouring rain. Bleeding without care, My feelings were drained. I left... I left... I left... The past behind. I will survive without you. You don't control me anymore. I will survive without you. You're not for me to adore. The mess you made, Taking my life for granted, Leaving me in a barracade, You never knew how much you mented. I am in control. You're not Mr. Man anymore. I took back my control. How does it feel being cold, To lose it???


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FALL


I lay down in my garden
waiting for the sunset
I was watching the gentle breeze
touching the gentle leaves

Summer was leaving
and it was a cold sunset

My thoughts were so far
I remembered a poem I had read
so beautiful and so wise
about leaves falling down,
and the necessary strength to fall
(There is power in letting go)

And it was fall
Leaves were becoming brown
soon they would be on the ground

Nature -- see the picture:
The cold sunset
the summer that was leaving
and the first leaf that suddenly had fallen

It made no noise
But in front of this vision
My soul ran away scared

I didn't look back
I didn't say a word
I knew there was power
I was there -- lying down
I myself had fallen!
But I could feel
what was to come

The leaf on the ground
decomposing
feeding the land
raising another tree

The poet was right
There is strengh and power in letting go

But it doesn't mean it doesn't hurt

I ran away
I ran away alarmed
I ran away from you,
refused to nourish you,
didn't accept to start it all over again
not so soon

I am not going to rot, love,
I will be burned by the first sunbeam
of tomorrow's morning

We are the metaphor
not nature, my dear

I changed destiny this time
I broke the circle and
You will stay hungry

I am sorry that you are going to pay
for the mysteries of life
while I lay down in my garden
in this begining of fall.

Patrícia Evans


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I Long For Yesterday

Yesterday all my troubles seemed so far away,
Now it looks as though they're here to stay.
I can't find light to brighten up my days,
I guess I'll just fall astray.
Suddenly I'm not all the man I used to be,
There's an evil shadow inside of me.
I can't seem to set all the problems free,
I guess my only option is turn back and flee.
Although I sit here and have this guilt,
I'm burning down the good I ever built.
The good times were an easy game to play,
I'm searching for a place to hide away.
I don't know why I have to run. 
I still can not say,
I've done everything wrong,
Now I long for yesterday.
Yesterday all my troubles seemed so far away,
Now it looks as though they're here stay.
Suddenly I'm not all the man I used to be,
There's an evil shadow inside of me.
The good times were an easy game to play,
I'm searching for a place to hide away.
I don't know why I have to run.  
I still can not say,
I've done everything wrong,
Now I long for yesterday.


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Used

Used to look through child’s eyes
Used to stare at star ridden skies
Used to smile at silly sounds
Used to dream of the future’s bounds

Used to play in the thicket of my mind
Used to search for a place to hide
Used to act like story book heroes
Used to count from 100 back to zero

Used to hold my breath till my face was bright red
Used to believe all the words that everyone said
Used to want a big house and brand new car
Used to hope that I could someday set the bar

Used to use my imagination
Used to use that motivation
Now being used by my frustration
Of being used by my own generation

Used to... used to...
You know I used to...
Use it all without a thought
Used too... Used too...
We’re all being used too...
Bought and sold like an old iron pot
Used to... used to...
You know we all used to...
Dream our world would never rot
Used too... Used too...
It’s all being used too...
All our resources from bottom to top

Used to sit up all hours of the night
Used to believe that people were alright 
Used to think that we could still pull through
Used to think that everybody knew

Used to have faith in the ‘truth’
Used to see their words as proof
Used to hide these tears I’d cry
Used to hold my head up high

Used to think I had a grasp
Used to disguise myself with a plastic mask
Used to act like there was no problem
Used to hypocritically mock any and all of ‘em

Used to use their aspiration
Used to use their motivation
Now they use their investigation
To bind us to their administration

Used to... used to...
You know I used to...
Use it all without a thought
Used too... Used too...
We’re all being used too...
Bought and sold like an old iron pot
Used to... used to...
You know we all used to...
Dream our world would never rot
Used too... Used too...
It’s all being used too...
But when will this mass consumption ever stop?


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5000 Miles [blue suitcase version]

I knew the day when I saw the sun shining through the rain
And I pulled my blue suitcase out of the closet
Searching for some sweet way to say good-bye to you and me

After such a long month of vague wanderings
I'm ready to bid farewell to this and that
Quietly, my heart starts to hurt a little bit more
But it's time for me to start my journey
I'm sure now that what I'm searching for isn't here...

"Take your time, but I can't wait anymore."

There's 5000 miles between me and my home
I hope the wind will answer me and lead the way 
Because this life is too precious to spend
Just trying not to disappoint you
I'm going to walk 5000 miles to find my place
Maybe when I'm there, I'll send you a postcard

I took your sentimental smiles and teary-eyed confession and silly good-byes
And packed them into my suitcase right next to my favorite dress
I'm trying to promise you that we'll never have this kind of pain again.

There are so many people at the train station
That it scares me just a little bit
I feel like laughing and taking a picture for you
These tiny memories will be my treasure
Like you and me, I think someday you'll remember and smile.

"Take your time, is what they say, but I can't wait anymore."

There's 5000 miles between me and precious person
I hope that person will answer me and take my hand
Because this life is too short for me just to
Spend all my time worrying about your happiness
I'm going to walk 5000 miles to find my person
Maybe I'll send you pictures from our photobooth.

I won't forget you and I won't forget me
Like that tender feeling I could never grasp.
I won't forget the appartment that faced the forest
Or the wish that led me here or the dusty pianio
Now we lay our feelings to rest and separate.

For that place I'm looking for, for that person I'm praying for
I'll walk 5000 miles, dragging my blue suitcase along
Even if no one understands and everyone hates me for it
There's only one wish I want granted, it's the song stuck in head
I can't stop until that place; hold that person...

There's 5000 miles between me and my destination
The tears that fell on the southbound train become
My promise that this is the last time my selfishness will hurt you
One step at a time, I'm singing the song that's stuck in my head
I'll make a photo album for you, maybe I'll even send it.

I believe that you will find what you're looking for.


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Im So Tired With Me Now(Make Myself Sick)

	

Current mood: distraught
Category: Life

If i could just project my voice into the ears of those i love
I would take the world into my words and let them hear what my heart sings
it sings of joy and the past time with them,oh so it longs and holds on to that year
but im afraid if i let go now would they feel my heart as it heals and as I
Drop to the floor

I wonder if i shouldve stopped my heart before it fails to bleed
if i died unsuspectively what would my life mean
well dear wonders of this world look at what Beauty Ive Become
Now Watch me Lay out on the street

Take my wings
I dont need them because Angels only kill themselves in dreams
Its just as if heaven was inside my Veins So
Let me bless You know let me Bless these grounds

Let me spill onto the pavement so cold and Shameless im lost
but none of my friends can see this,are they blinded by my Mask
in which i always wear but if i offend you im sorry i swear
Im sorry that im dead

Make this your only comfort to see me lying there in that box soundly asleep
dont even bother trying to wake me,dont call my name
cause my heart feels no remorse or shame for what happened to me
I told you all that i was sick,but did you bother to listen to me


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Low Man Is Due

A low man is due...
My eyes seek reality,
My fingers feel for faith.
Touch clean with a dirty hand,
I touch the clean to the waste.
I fall cause I let go,
The net below has rot away.
And I cry to the alleyway,
Confess all to the rain.
But I lie straight to the mirror,
The one I've broken to match my face.
The fire is so warm,
But nowhere safe from the storm.
And I can't bear to see,
What I've let me be.
So wicked and worn.
So as I write to you,
Of what is done and to do.
Maybe you'll understand,
I won't cry for this man.
Cause low man is due.
So low the sky is all I see,
All I want from you is forgive me.
My eyes seek reality,
And my fingers seek my veins.
There's a dog at your back step,
He must come in from the rain.
But you bring that poor dog in from the rain,
Though he just wants right back out again.
So my fingers feel for faith,
And my eyes seek reality.
So as I write to you,
Of what is done and to do.
Maybe you'll understand,
I won't cry for this man.
Cause low man is due.


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Your love is gone

Your love is gone

You, told me  that  you love me forever
Oh girl, you promise me you never say goodbye
Why can't you stay
and why did you lie
Now our love, is it over

I still played the loved songs each and every day
to reminisce the time that you say
I love you
and i hope you stay with me my baby...

Your love is gone
i miss you girl so much
your love is gone
Oh baby your still the one
i am down on my knees each day
and pray
but your love is gone


So many memories we had in the past
But seasons ended and it didn't last
you have the change of heart
now girl were both apart...


Your love is gone
i miss you girl so much
your love is gone
Oh baby your still the one
i am down on my knees each day
and pray oh wohh wohh..

Your love is gone
i miss you girl so much
your love is gone
Oh baby your still the one
i am down on my knees each day
and pray
but your love is gone..

Bridge
i give you my all
with my heart, and soul
oh girl,you give me pain
now my tears begins to rain
why didn't you wear this ring...

Your love is gone
i miss you girl so much
your love is gone
Oh baby your still the one
i am down on my knees each day
and pray
i am down on my knees each day
and pray
but your love is gone
your love is gone
oh girl your love is gone











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Oh! Virginia

Oh! Virginia
Tonight your image passed through my mind
Your long flowing hair your soft sweet smile
Brought me back to December in the pines

Oh! Virginia
your image always fades away with the wine
I still wonder how I can go on without you
And how I could have been so blind

Oh! Virginia
Your aroma still lingers in my mind
Now I have this piercing pain inside my heart
And last night I just set down and cried

Oh! Virginia
I wish you would just send me a sign
Cause my days are filled with flashes of you
Virginia I'm sorry that I crossed that line

Oh! Virginia
Tonight your image passed through my mind
Your long flowing hair your soft sweet smile
Brought me back to December in the pines


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Most Sincere Apologies

You were such a good dream.
But then you became a reality.
The reality became comfortless.
So I did the best I could.
Because I never wanted to break your heart.
But now you have broken mine.
I miss the smiles that I could attract from you.
And what about those conversations we had.
Your holding my feelings against me,
It's an unexpected act of you.
I did what I could to satisfy our cravings,
Apologies for not being able to test the water
Without breaking your heart.
Feb, 2008


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underneath

vrs 1
ill never know its raining
or get to see your face
cause ive been left alone here
taken to the deep
and im still drowning underneath.

wont throw me the line
at least ill understand
if you dont come again
leave me to die
ill find out all your reasons
if not now, explain some other time.

vrs 2
they say the view gets better as you get farther
i beg to differ
now im here forever
gone cause i was too much to keep
and im still drowning underneath



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I'm Sorry

I’m sorry I didn’t cry when you lost your dad
I’m sorry that I always made you mad
I’m sorry that I couldn’t hold you tight
And tell you that I love you with all my might
I’m sorry that I always called you names 
Sorry I was mean and caused you pain
Saying bad things that I regret
I hope that one day you will forgive.

I’m sorry that I didn’t see your hurt
I’m sorry I was once a stupid girl
I’m sorry that I didn’t love and respect
Turning our marriage into a wreck
Please forgive me for being wrong
And all those nights I cried all night long
I knew that you really cared for me
I was just blind and I couldn’t see.

I’m sorry that your life has been so hard
Tryin’ your best but not gettin’ very far
Life’s punching you from left and right
You just want to quit and give up the fight
And I know that you’re still hurting inside
You married again so you wouldn’t have to cry
With your heart still broken from before
You try to hide that you’re still unsure.

I’m sorry that your brother took the easy way out
I’m sorry you couldn’t help him when he was in doubt
I’m sorry that your life has been so cruel
Nothing but an ugly joke to you
And so from time to time I continue to pray
I hope that you’ll call on HIM someday
So you’ll be filled with His grace and love
And be protected from the Lord God above.

And now that your left here all alone
Empty inside tryin’ to fill the hole
Goin’ down the wrong path and through the wrong door
Your soul’s left empty and you’re wanting more
Thinking to yourself will things ever change
Wondering why God had made you this way
Cause you’re not livin’ your just here
Goin’ through the motions of life in fear.

And so you try to keep movin’ on
Survivin’ and tryin’ to keep yourself strong
But you rely on others to hold you up
And you keep on passin your sufferin’ cup
“Why does it have to be this way
Why can’t I have peace and live happily”
Let me tell you this to your lost soul
Surrender to God and then you will know.


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Straight-face

I'm not sorry I know who I am.
I'm not sorry I know that I can
Understand
What you are,
What I want,
What we need.
I'm not sorry.


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Forgiven

I've been gone so long this time,
so long I realize that no one's the same.

They've changed so fast that I,
have no view to remind me of their names.

All that was said and done,
leaving scars on everyone and not a weapon in hand,

I plead for all the good times when everything was just fine.
Now it's hard to understand.

Please just help me.
Please bring back the memories.

My heart is getting so numb for everyone.
I hate to let go.

Please just let me be forgiven.


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Agony

You took me home, I drink to much because of you my livers turn to dust
You got me high my lungs have quit for the last time.
And because of you my obsession grows more and more with each passing day.
I do it more to feel the high but it just won’t come back to me. 
I tried to walk but it’s so hard I just end up on my back staring into the sky.
You came to me to help me back onto to my feet.
And helped walk me back to the car even with my resistance you took me home.
I’m sick of the things you have said and done while leaving me high and dry.
I’m so messed up from what you've said and I’m on the brink of dieing out, of 
this place you call my home.
I’ve tried to make since of all the things you have said to me, But it is impossible 
to stay on track. Some people shouldn’t be alive. That’s how I feel.
Like I’m not needed in this life, even though it might hold something I should 
uncover,
I’ve never searched these things in mind that should be found, but yet apparently
unattainable to keep track, it’s almost impossible to grab a hold of the thing that 
are most vital to your life. 
When you are in a life where all you do is getting smashed and seared. And you 
try and try to help me up, but you took one move… You took the one wrong move...
You took me home. Because of you my life now sucks!
And it’s now whirling out of my control 
I feel I’m fading from this place that you have brought me to 
So take my away from here I need not to see your face in front of mine 
So get away... away from me!
Why is it when you call my name, I’m put in a state of misery
I’m am so perplexed, can’t see straight
I’ve tried to go and find my-self it's just so frustrating
I can’t take the fact that you entered my life at an age that I do not know
And I try to ask my-self what can I do to help me out of this awful state
Of misery.
Than you made an effort to help me up, but then I see a whole new being and it’s 
not you but somewhat else… I see… I see My-self!?!
I think I helped my soul from this death I think that I have come to my sixth 
senses and have turned my life around.
But you still make that one last go to start this all another time
You took me home with this agony
And I ask you one last time why did you make my life this living hell!?!


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I Loved You All Along

I don't want to live like this anymore
I can't lie to myself
I don't want to do this anymore
I can't decieve everyone else

I don't want to cry anymore
I have no tears to shed
I don't want to dwell on this anymore
Its too late for the words left unsaid

I don't want to miss you anymore
You are so far gone
I don't want to deny it anymore
I Loved You All Along


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I found the power to turn beauty to a pig.

As we sit at the edge of the bridge
Do you expect me to jump?
I found the power to turn beauty to a pig
and my methods are out of control.

I only pushed you away cause I love you.
I only hope to satisfy your smile.
In a world with endless possibility .
Is it possible to make this worthwhile?

Maybe I fight because I'm used to playing the victim.
Either way what kind of savage am I?
I'll put this switchblade through my  neck.
If I knew it could keep you from crying.

I Love feeling sad does that make you sick?
I find love in being sad haven't you noticed.
I love feeling sad does that make you feel sick?
Now step away.


I only pushed you away cause I love you.
I only hope to satisfy your smile.
In a world with endless possibility.
Is it possible to make this worthwhile?

The dawning of the last day was a massacre.
Is there nothing I can do to make this right?
I eight balled the neglected.
and I wonder why she hates my eyes.
No blood loss nothing left to lose.


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mother

i live like there is no tomorrow
only to find myself swallowed
i pray for for a world of peace
yet the world would rather cease

closing my eyes for the last time
i have decided to change my mind
about what is right or what is wrong
or what is poetry or just a song

silly old talk about a memory
then she walked out on me
if in it there was no truth 
why she vanish in a poof

no goodnight, i love love you
only dark skies with no blue
the stars do shine brightly
but no longer enough for me
neither are your stories


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No Regrets

I'm sorry for all the things I've done 
I wish you wouldn't turn and run... 
I'm sorry for all the things I've said 
I should have listened to the voice inside my head... 
I'm sorry if I ever made u feel like 
I wasn't listening to you 
Or if I ever did anything 
To cause a tear to fall from your eye... 
I'm sorry if I've hurt you, in any way 
I swear I didn't try! 
I'm sorry for all the confusion 
I brought into your life 
I should have known... 
Your heart already belongs to someone else 
But still I tried... 
I'm sorry for trying to push you 
Into something that deep down 
You didn't want... 
But the one thing I'm not sorry for 
Or regret for even a moment 
Is the time I spent with you... 
You have helped me become a stronger person 
And opened my heart,mind, and soul 
To something completely and wonderfully new... 

January 3rd, 2009


Details | I do not know? | |

LOVELORN LASS

In the canyon, deep and long,
The brook babbles Nature’s song
The silent, secluded valley profound
Is overflowing with that sound.

Yon the mountain, the meadows green,
With the pond of water still and serene
On the stilly full- moon night
The ripples reflect pallid light.

The black-bees are crooning,
The fireflies are shining,
An innocent, lonesome, lovelorn, lass,
Singing madrigals in the wilderness sobs!!  


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Mental Masochism

Welcome to the old you Hello, Hello, Despair so Crude, Dreams are gone Yet we still follow the old Path Where empathy kills And the Sympathy we find is another Lie You were born to deceive A puppet-master of emotion Back off this fixation while you have a chance Who Would Want To Be This Cold? Sorrow-- My Emotional High Who Would Want To Be This Cold? Better to be Frozen than Numb Who Would Want To Be This Cold? Exchange pleasure for pain It's all coming t you The facade of Joy falls again Violet Hearts crush easy Your Pain you don't Want this Your Sorrow, You Want This Back off this fixation while you have a chance Who Would Want To Be This Cold? Sorrow-- My Emotional High Who Would Want To Be This Cold? Better to be Frozen than Numb Who Would Want To Be This Cold? Back off this fixation while you have a chance Who Would Want To Be This Cold? Sorrow-- My Emotional High Who Would Want To Be This Cold? Better to be Frozen than Numb Who Would Want To Be This Cold?


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A Letter From Me to You

I'm writing this letter
to tell you that we're thru
I don't care about us
My love has faded for you

You have hurt me once
but you can't anymore
This is our last day
Then I'm out that door

You can take the car
you can have the house
Knowing from this day
You won't be my spouse

There's too much fighting
There's not enough love
When I married you 
what was I thinking of
 
Divorce will be simple
Papers will be mailed
Not knowing what went wrong
and how this marriage has failed

I'm sorry I told you this
in a form of a letter
But telling you in person
wouldn't make this any better

With this said and done
I must pack and go
No true love for us
This is what we now know


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I Don't Want You To Think

I don't want you to think that it's your fault
Because it's not
Things just didn't turn out the way I planned
I don't want you to think that you're a bad guy
Because you're not
Someone will be lucky to have you as their man

I don't want you to think I'm doing this to be mean
Because I'm not
I just don't want our relationship to be a lie
I don't want you to think I have no heart 
Because I do
You just don't know how hard this is, saying goodbye.


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A Remembrance Of You

a broken soul hidden in an empty home
wanted to leave, but there was no where to go
a mother's heart broken into two
wanted to stop the pain, but there was nothing anyone could do
a cold presence haunting this dried up place
needed to leave, but it would not be the same

there will always be a remembrance of you
a presence in every room
each door locked with a key
and i'm sure you'll remember me
and our family will miss you so
it was heart broken to see you go
and I'll miss you so much 
in heart is where you'll be
I'll be coming, so we can meet
because there will always be a remembrance of you
your death will not remain true
its been forever since you past away
until I see you, I will have nothing to say
there will always be a remembrance of you 
and everyone will love you
I'll remain faithful and true
there will always be a remembrance of you
a presence in every room
each door locked with a key
and i'm sure you'll remember me
because I will remember you
there will always be a remembrance left in each and every room
a remembrance of you


a burnt down home holding dirt in place 
i'm glad the angels came
for she was in so much pain
without her in our lives it won't be the same
I know I learned my lesson
never did think a fire could bring so much aggression

there will always be a remembrance of you
a presence in every room
each door locked with a key
and i'm sure you'll remember me
and your family will miss you so
it was heart broken to see you go
and I'll miss you so much
in my heart is where you'll be
I'll be coming, so we can meet
because there will always be a remembrance of you
your death will not remain true
its been forever since you past away
until I see you, I will have nothing to say
there will always be a remembrance of you 
and everyone will love you
I'll remain faithful and true
there will always be a remembrance of you
a presence in every room
each door locked with a key
and i'm sure you'll remember me
because I will remember you
there will always be a remembrance left in each and every room
a remembrance of you


i'm begging you to forgive me so
even though the fire took its deadly tole
and I won't let my heart pass you by
you are the apple of my eye
a cold spot in my heart
the reason I was torn apart
the reason I have no soul

there will always be a remembrance of you
a presence in every room
each door locked with a key
and i'm sure you'll remember me


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Take Me As I Am

I might not be perfect
I might not be smart
But what I have
comes from my heart

I do not cheat
I do not lie
What else do you
want from this guy

Take me as I am
That's all I ask from you
Take me as I am
no more begging, I'm thru

If you can't accept me
For what I have to give
being together
We can not live

Look into my eyes
And what do you see
That's Right,
a man that can make you happy

Take me as I am
That's all I ask from you
Take me as I am
no more begging, I'm thru



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Life As You Take It

Life comes as the way you take it
all the promises you make with it
all the love that is gone
all that you give with it
all the stupid things that you have done
it is never about how things could have been
everything happens for a reason
it is all about moving on
all of the chances that you will take with it
all of the hearts that you will break with it
karma will take you with it
is all about what you make of it
you will make it through


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Your Actions

Your actions you make all have consequences
But see you act before you think and don't use any of your senses.
You try to act cool as if everything is all right,
But when you go into your room you cry all night.

You try to make things back right even though it's gonna be hard,
But like they said you should of thought from the start.
Now you really feel bad because you know you was wrong,
But it seems like that friend you could of had is really gone.

You know no one is perfect everybody has sin 
But you can't deal with the fact that it's happening again.
You're going back the way you just came from 
You've been trying to hide but you never can run.

Somehow it comes back hunting you day after day,
And for some reason no matter where you go trouble is always in the way.
So all you know now is to think before you act,
Because depending on what you do determines what comes back.


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Don't tell me

It's not like I didn't try, 
It's not that I don't care,
But when I look your way,
It's hard not to stare,

The only job you have,
Is filling up my heart,
And when you quit on me,
My body can't start,

You tried to warn me,
But I didn't listen,
I should of known,
That something was missing,

In my head it worked,
But it didn't translate,
Just don't tell me,
That this was fate.



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Unexplained Girl

I wondered how my life would end up after all the 

drama that I caused, what was I suppose to be aware 

of. I never meant to hurt anybody. I never meant to 

put the people that I truly love in a situation like 

that. It was pointless, the things that I did. I 

don't regret it, it was a life lesson, one I could 

never contradict. Why pay mind to things that can 

break me. Why should I cry over people that end up 

hating me. Falling so deep..... For people that never 

loved me. Played mind games at the time, I just knew 

I'd be the talk of the hood/town, what ever you want 

to call it. People that I never slept with, Lord 

knows that I did nothing with but just because people 

knew my name, they'd believe every word he say. So 

now here I am writing poetry to explain, that indeed, 

I'm not a hoe just an unexplained girl. Why should I 

sit here and pay attention to most of these lies, 

when I can be doing something better with my own 

life.... Key word, my life. They swear they know me, 

they swear they hit but I only know who I actually 

been with. O wells, just because you know my name, 

doesn't mean, you actually know me. I think about it 

constantly and wonder where I'm headed. At one point 

of time, I thought I was headed to the grave after all 

he did was jump in my mother's face, what was I 

suppose to do sit and wait, wait for what I ask, so 

he can hit my mother, matter fact I wish he would but 

then again all this happen because I opened my legs. 

I should have waited, I should have been patient , I 

should have never did anything with my first love

(what's love anyways, a 4 letter word that means 

nothing), If I waited I guarantee that I wouldn't be 

this way. I'm not a hoe just an unexplained girl. You 

don't know my circumstances, you just don't know me 

and if you did, I bet it would be a whole different 

story. My past, my past, my past I wish I could turn 

back the hands of time, but then again I don't. I 

regret I'm not a virgin, I regret just for knowing 

the boys around the way, but I don't regret the 

things that happened to me. What more can I explain 

except getting jumped by 13 got damn men, matter fact 

little boys at that. You may think I'm wack just 

hearing these verses but at least I'm honest and 

letting my story be heard, I'm nothing more just an 

unexplained girl.


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So sorry

Sometimes, just like today,
I feel endless course of life,
I see your smiling face
And on the leaves that summer rime.
Sometimes, just like today,
Without alcohol I’m drunk.
You are the reason of all this.
The test of life we gonna flunk.
And when you will come to see me again,
I will maybe give you three kisses then.
So sorry to know you won’t open the door.
So sorry you don’t exist any more.
I have no more desire
Collecting millions of pieces,
This had to be one heart,
My heart your kiss that misses.
It will be good for you to know:
I made a funeral for love.
Now rest with peace, my dear,
Under the monument of dove.
And when you will come to see me again,
I will maybe give you three kisses then.
So sorry to know you won’t open the door.
So sorry you don’t exist any more.


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Letter To April

Hey babe.
How ya doing?
Is life treating you good?
Are you happy now?
I hope you are.
I hope everything is working out for you.
I hope you can find what you're looking for.
You know you can never go back.
You know you can't change what has already been done.
You have to look forward.
We have to look forward.
The past can not be undone.
We have to look forward.
No more pointless day dreaming.
No more thinking of "what if."
I only hope that you're happy with the decisions you've made.
I only hope that this is what you wanted.
Did it play out the way you wanted?
Did your life turn out the way you planned?
Did all your expectations get filled?
Was I holding you back?
I'm sorry if I was.
I thought you wanted more.
I thought you wanted better.
Better than what you grew up with.
Better than what we had.
Obviously better than what we had.
I'm sorry for everything.
Everything that added to nothing.
Obviously nothing is what I had to offer.
Good thing you didn't take it.
I love you.


Details | Ballade | |

all apologizes

I'M SORRY FOR WHAT I'VE DONE TO YOU
MY ONLY HOPE  IS THAT YOU CAN FORGIVE ME
I'D TRIED A THOUSAND TIMES BEFORE BUT YOU WASN'T HEARING ME OUT
PLEASE READ THIS AND LET ME KNOW
DO YOU FORGIVE ME OR NOT
I'M TRYING REAL HARD TO LET YOU SEE THE HEART OF ME
IT'S NOT WHITE,I'M NOT BLACK BUT I'M RIGHT AND MY HEART IS FLAT
AFTER ALL THIS TIME 
THE FAILURE IN ME BECAUSR A MISERY I CAN'T COMPETE
I DON'T HAVE NO BEEF WITH YOU 
I EAT MY PRIDE
THERE IS NOTHING TO GAIN ON MY SIDE OF THE DEAL
IT MEANS THE WORLD TO ME
IF YOU REPLY JUST ONCE SO I CAN KEEP MYSELF TOGETHER FOR ONE 
LAST HOUR
AN HOUR OF POWER
I'LL BE DAMNED IF I DIE WITHOUT LETTING YOU KNOW HOW I FEEL
SOCIETY IS SO MESSED UP AND SO AM I
I RECOVERED TO BECOME A BETTER PERSON
I'M NOT SHAQ OR T-MAC
BUT I GOT HUMILITY INSIDE OF ME SO I DON'T HAVE NO OTHER POWER TO 
FEEL
I MIGHT BE CLOSER TO URKEL
BUT AT THE END WE'RE THE SAME
I'M SORRY FOR THE MISUNDERSTANDING
BABY GIRL YOU SPIN MY HEAD AROUND LIKE A LOOP
THIS STRESS IS TOO MUCH TO HANDLE
I'D DEALT WITH IT DREADFULLY WELL


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Face to Face with Fear

Face to Face with Fear
The burning of flesh,
The smell of skin,
The fear of scars
from within.

A glance in the mirror,
A look on the face,
A tear from the eye,
when you feel out of place.

The pain and suffering,
one may go thru,
Wakin' up everyday
having people stare at you

Only time will tell
How it will heal
Taking off the bandages
not knowing what it will reveil


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A Thought While Thinking

I would just cop out and scream I'm sorry
For all I've done
Apologize for all the promises I broke
Be there to dry every tear you cried in the night
Tell you that everything was going to be al right
Despite
Whatever ragged path I guided you down
I thought I was full circle
But couldn't be when I wasn't even around
When you wanted my company
U had to love a brother when you took all that from me
And didn't think once about dumping me

Your heart was set with a combination
That only I could crack open 
By you my queen I was the chosen somebody
But I didn't know how to value this honor
No wonder why you and I couldn't get to the other side united

Something so deep and peaceful was offered, still I chose to fight it
I thought, but I learned you must know
I gave a sweet speech
But the honey is in when you show
That some one that they are the "One"
Truly and sincerely


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Compassion For Mary

Sad are these days for Mary
Your eyes are filled and teary  
The stories you tell of family pain 
It must make your life a total strain  
Trust one day it all will change 
I know sometimes life feels strange 
Your faith in God will help you understand 
He knows for he to, was once just a man
God only hands out a challenge, to those that are strong  
And I pray for your sake this sorrow won’t last to long
Live in shame NO more 
You’re not to blame anymore 
Hold you head up and face them all 
You’re a good person, so stand up tall 
Find a place to feel to be at peace 
And we will all pray for the deceased 



This poem is for the peace and healing for Mary Dunhart 
May her world become a peaceful place filled with love and grace?


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And When You Get to Heaven, Don't Wait Up

Just one more day to be saint
One more high and a new complaint
One more day to know my life is over

One more day to relive to this moment
Just one more hour while my mind is absent
One more day to redefine sober

She sings to me it’s my decision
Altar to my vision
Breathe and sigh over you
Breathe and say

From dust to blood
No one wants to live forever
From blood to dust
Eternity is now or never

Just a day to refine my nervous
Wondering how they’ll forgive my lovers
One more day to die and then it’s over

Another year and I’ll be a servant
Singing hymns and hating others
Woke up and I won’t lie sober

She’s seen through my kind 
And I know a later time 
We could see another you
Still I sing

From dust to blood
No one wants to live forever
From blood to dust
Eternity is now or never

Just today I began to suffer
Wondering why I ever bothered
Sleeping with the guilt, I know it’s over

One more year and I’d be a saint
Procrastinated son to pain
Hang around till the hangover is sober

He saw through me and mine 
I’ve never known a better time
That’s that to you and you 
Leave the soul 

From dust to blood
No one wants to live forever
From blood to dust
Eternity is now or never


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Untitled 1

They tell you the things that you should be 
Things that they think set you free
Let me tell you the things that I have seen 
Let me tell you some things that should not be
These things they're scars they burn inside
These scars they're things that I must hide
Rules, the things that you abide
Rules, are things they hide behind
You my friend are on the wrong side 
You my friend are trying to hide
You my friend are not alive
Are you my friend till the end
Of insanity
Are you mad at me cause I set you free
Then let me be
I'm sorry to say your on your own 
I'm sorry to say your all alone
Just be yourself and you will see
That they control your destiny



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Babydoll

Trying to escape from it all I detach from reality Knowing my spirit will be Safe Too much torment have I gone through To know that this story is truly mine Cut me off no matter how much I'll always find a way To fight and survive your kingdom I'm the only thing you desire I'm the only thing you hate I'm the only thing you need I'm you little Babydoll In my mind there is a haven Only I can enter, but everyone else is there Its there I will find a new tactic To keep on living in your torment On the way home I'll die a few times But just to know I really lived I'll have to find a new way to bleed If I want to escape I'll have to loose myself Cut me off no matter how much I'll always find a way To fight and survive your kingdom I'm the only thing you desire I'm the only thing you hate I'm the only thing you need I'm you little Babydoll Cut me off no matter how much I'll always find a way To fight and survive your kingdom I'm the only thing you desire I'm the only thing you hate I'm the only thing you need I'm you little Babydoll


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What will I Do

What will i do now that you ARE GONE? 
i feel so lost that all i do is sing sad songs.
What will happen now that your not with Me?
i guess I'll go on and live knowing there's no more you and me.

What shall i say as i fall for you?
Maybe that i lost my mind and that i will never love you?
What will they do if they was to find out?
Maybe go on without a care but that right there i doubt.


                                    _ Jessica  Harris


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How could you

-Verse 1-
My love was so true
I never would ever had hurted you
But you choose to hurt me
When you were where I really wanted to be
I just can't seem to figure out
Why would you want to do this to me
When I felt like my life was complete
Now my heart is feeling so empty
Until I can't even get up off my feet

-chorus-
How could you do the things that you do
When I told you how much I love you
How could you play me like such a fool
When I thought that you were my boo
I don't think things could ever be the same 
All because of you

-Verse 2-
I felt like we could start a family
Live life so sweet,good, and happy
But I was so blind and couldn't see
That you was all this time playing me
How could I be such a fool
To ever fall in love with you
Even after all that I been through 
I just can't believe that you would do this to me

chorus

-bridge-
I guess that good things don't always last
I'm trying so hard to let the pain go past
But it hurts so much down deep in my heart
I should have known you would do this from the start
But I let you get into my head
Now this is the result for giving you my love

-Chorus- 


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Our Love Test

I'm reminiscing baby, wishing you were mine
Afraid of all these feelings, waiting for a sign
My destiny my fate, it is all up to me
My head spins my heart aches, all I want is to feel free
Don't know if I'm waiting on a miracle, or the strength to carry on
But this love you say you feel, I fear by morning it will be gone
I don't want you... I need you, and mean every word I say
But I'm scared to look back one day, and see you walking away
Don't think I'm thinking twice, about my love for you
It's more than just a feeling, I love you I do
Forgive me for the times, that you doubted my love was true
And even for the times, I don't know what I did to you
I'm sorry that I hurt you, and keep on with no intention
The things we say the things we do, baby can you feel the tension?
You say you love me baby, and I hope it stays that way
When I cry your words come to my head, everything will be okay
I never thought I'd feel this way, you always enlighten my mood
The way we click the way we laugh, our love is crazy good
Please tell me that it's strong enough, to make forever last
Don't say it ain't worth fighting for, enough to front the past
These feelings drive me crazy, I'm burning up inside
I want to be yours baby, here's my heart please be my guide
I'm reminiscing baby, locked behind closed doors
This pain is just our love test, angels sent to make me yours!


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It's Time

Its time,
time to say its right,
right for us to fall apart
I can't give up the proof,
but I have to tell the truth.
Our life is not the same,
nor is it a name.
It's just a "no name" relationship,
that  you have to replace.

I can't say anything
about the whole thing.
What's there to say?
Besides giving up today,
or maybe forever?
Just tell me,
what do  you see?
Besides me.

Give it up.
Give it out.
Don't pout.
Now, It's time to say what's right,
By saying "Goodbye" to you.


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Too Late Come Early

Done wrote
A many a sad song
                               Never ever
Thought I'd be singing
                                      Those same sad tunes
Darling you swept me off my feet
                But I broke the handle
Of your broom
   There wasn't any cussing
              No fussing
                               Shooting stabbing
                 Or cutting
                     But like a fool
                                 I chose to go and break it up
                                   Thought I should
Swallow a half gallon of pride
         Said everything but didn't say enough
I then let the truth be raped by a lie
                   This didn't help the effort
                                              Still I wanted to make up
Baby......                          I know you was some kinda down
                  But there is no compound
              For a scar of trust
                                  On the face of love!!!
I found out
                      Just about when
I should've been getting lost in
The Sweetest Deepness Of she........


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Unbroken Pieces of My Heart

Verse 1:  I tried to  fix  the  pieces  of my  broken  heart/ Yet  over  the  years / 
Things  still fell apart/ Myfragile  heart can't  go on  without  you  in  my life/ 
Everything  that  was  wrong i  tried  to make  right/

Bridge : Now  our  love is  gone / Now  i  can't  go  on cause  all i  do is  cry/ 
I  cried/

Chorus: You  were  the  one  who  made  me  happy/ You  were  the one  who  
made  me  smile/ You were the  one  who  was  always there  for  me / There's  
no  need  to say  words  unspoken/ Because  my  heart was  already unbroken/

Verse 2: After  all the crying  things  still didn't  sem  to  matter  between you  and  
me / When  we  first  kissed  you  told  me that you  cared/ After  your  lies the  
truth came  out  throughout  the years/ All this  time  i  was good  to  you yet  you  
made  me  feel so  blue/ You said  you  would  change  yet  you remained  the  
same /

Bridge: 1x
Chorus : 3x


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Just Another Number

Locked away from society, living in a cell
twenty-two hours a day, this is my hell.
I need to be strong, and not shed a tear
wondering if love will survive, this is my fear.
My mind keeps struggling to keep itself sane 
but it's hard dealing with misery's pain 
So I remove myself from the present
don't dwell on the past, I pray for the future
and hope it comes fast.
Until it arrives and I am once again free 
I'll be just another number trying to be me.


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piss poor of a man

you a sorry piss poor of a man
you been around the block
you even slept with my friend

i dont see
why you cant get it right
you come in-late at night
we start to-fuss and fight
youre not actin right

you a sorry piss poor of a man
you been around the block
you even slept with my friend

im the kind -
who speaks her mind
boy you wasting my time
i think you should leave
cuz you keep hurting me

plz dont testify
dont wanna here no lies
you can not change my mind
you wasting your time

you a sorry piss poor of a man
you been around the block
you even slept with my friend
repeat2x:

i guess you cant 
get it right
you will never
get it right
all i asked of you
was to treat me right

breakdown:
you slept around
"back then"
you even slept
"with my friend"
youre trifflin
"to the end"
you and me
"never again"

you never payed a bill
never asked how i feel
you never payed attention
never take time to listen

you a sorry piss poor of a man
you been around the block
you even slept with my friend

you think
you got it like that
when in fact it's not like that
you need to step on back
listen to all these facts

you a sorry piss poor of a man
you been around the block
you even slept with my friend
"friend"
repeat2x:


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Peace Motion

Nagasaki and Hiroshima, power has a lesson,
A person is intelligent a lesson is a fashion.
Hitler was a ruler what did him right and wrong?
I can rule over the world he has main attraction.

German learn a lesson they smashed down a wall,
East and west come together to condemn his action.
Jews were burnt alive but they didn’t learn a lesson,
Is Israel learning something Palestine has a creation?

Japan has learnt a lesson he has economic power,
A sign of patriotism everyone knows that nation.
When two nations are fighting a power sells power
US army lost thousands Vietnam what has a lotion?

Iraq divided into two nations when Britain was ruler,
Iraqi dictator claimed a war to capture his portion.
But world condemn this action attacked on Baghdad,
Hong Kong is a part of China they have peace motion.


Details | Ballad | |

THE AGONY OF MY REGRET

We could have been the perfect pair,
love openly without a care;
secrets, not lies, made me more aware and sad!
You were already committed to someone else,
had kids and a handsome husband
within your reach;
the only missing link
was someone with crafted hands...
someone who could make you dream!

The agony of my regret 
is something I could never forget;
look at you:  you are happy,
and don't need me
to take you to the fartest star,
because you've everything...
and I have nothing!
The agony of my regret hurts in many ways,
and will follow me through my blue nights:
when I stare at the dimmest stars
too distant for me to be reached...
wishing it was you I touched!

We could have loved a lifetime, make
everything easy and wonderful...paint
our rainbows with beautiful colors;
lie beneath the most peaceful skies,
interweave ourselves in warm embraces
and forever dream in a meadow of daises!


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Make Believe

Verse 1:  I know that I made a lot of mistakes/ and it's too late/ to fix things/ and 
I'm trying to start a fresh anew/ but you keep telling me we're through/ and I'm 
telling you-u-u/ 

Chorus:  Why can't we just pretend/ so we can start over again/ like things never 
happened/ but no matter how hard I try for us to be/ it'll just be make believe/ it'll 
just be make believe/

Verse 2:  i can understand why/ you can't get over what I did/ and I know it hurts/ 
I'm putting salt all over your burns/ but I can't help what I feel inside/ I want you 
back In my life/ i know you still love me/ so don't tell me/ that this is just make 
believe-eve/

Chorus: 3x


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What would you do

What would you do?
If no one  was in love with you,
Tell me would you cry?
Or would you rather just die?
I’m asking you,
What would you do?
If all that you had
was just a single grain of sand,
Tell me would you try,
to build an empire.
Just to have her back again,
and love her till  the end.
I’m asking you,
What would you do?
If all that’s in your way
was a mountain of clay,
Then would you climb,
to the other side.
Just to see her pretty face
at the start of every day.
I’m asking you,
What would you do?
If she put her heart up for grabs
tell me would you be the man,
To take and hold it tight,
and guard it with your life.
So that you could say,
“I’ll be with you everyday.”
What would you do?
Yeah, what would you do?
If she whispered I love you,
would you yell I love you to.
Because I’ll tell you son,
Just what I should have done.
When she was still with me
I should have treat her like a queen,
But I didn’t know,
That girl could hurt me so.
For when I told her goodbye,
she simply walked out of my life,
And I miss that girl,
To me she meant the world.
Now I search night and day
for the love I threw away.
Lord I’m on my knees,
and I beg you please,
won’t you bring her back to me.


Details | Lyric | |

Own Deception


Feelings are misleading
Own deception- my foolish heart


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Vengeance

I don't know why I done it or why the young kid did
but when I looked him in the eyes I knew he lost his bid
too late to turn the pages back as he laid there on the ground
but kid or not he fired the shot that brought my brother down

Vengance two lives for one ain't no fun power with a gun
vengeance two young men died because a woman lied
won't see another son

Sitting here now it's judgment day the jury named the price
I've got to pay what I took away, society's price is life.
Sent away that date to await my fate my family cries unfair
behind the bars never again see stars I await the electric chair

vengeance killed a child in the night
vengeance can't chose wrong from right
vengeance took a gun and did some harm
vengeance took a child from Mama's arms

Been behind the walls waiting for my time to die.
Wish I could get another chance, could get another try
I never took drugs, stole a dime, or even messed with booze
but when vengeance comes and grabs a gun and takes a life you loose.

vengeance


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Baby

I had a dream of you, my precious baby
Of holding you tight, keeping you safe all night
You'd be my first, my miricale baby

Your tiny fingers, your little glowing eyes
A smile to shine as bright as the stars that light my night
My special baby

When you learn to crawl
Your first walk
The very first words i'd hear you utter

Your first birthday, and every holiday
Mommy, daddy, play with me
My darling baby

To feel you kick inside of me
Your first breath, your little heartbeat
A gift from God, taking place
The eagerness to see your smiling face

The joy it brings to sing you to sleep
The warmth egnited from the innocent love of a child
Watching you grow day by day
Lighting your world, leading your way
Everything you'd ever want, ever need
I'd gladly give my life for you, my baby

Every feeling i'd ever recieve
From loving you, my dear, I felt in one night's dream
But i'll never get to live the end
Because Your life in this world wasn't able to begin

All this said, I wish was only a dream
But honey, this was a reality corrupted by me
I never meant to hurt you, if only i'd known you were there
If only you knew how much I care

You'll forever stay in my dreams
I'm sorry, my beloved baby.....


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Too Late

It started on a Friday night
Everything was going alright
Then I heard the two things I always feared
Then I heard the two thing I knew Id hear
Thats when I started to drink
No one cared that I was on the brink
Then I downed as many as I could
I can't remember how many and dont know if I would

I'm Sorry 
I messed up
And Its too late
Its too late

It happened, we all know it did
It happened and nothing could prevent it
What can I say, what can I do
I know that I've done more than just hurt you
I let my whole life drift away
Just for one night but I woke up the next day
I know I broke away from my partner in dance
But please may I have one more chance

I'm Sorry
I messed up
And its too late
It too late

I know I can't  take back the things that I've done
But I hope that you know that you are still the only one


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CRYING


How will this end
What am I to do
Anyone can hear it clear
I’m the one to blame
Nothing ever changes in this life we call love
Everyday its gets harder to live
I just can’t seem to move
This time around

Crying in the dark, pitch black of the night, too much to see of the unseen

How many more deaths to fill
Till I die finally
To many guilt
Is this what they call fear
How many more nights of chasing
Through this phase I prayed to leave
I pray the day you go
Is this the last I’ll see of you
I hope so

Crying in the dark, pitch black of the night, too much to see of the unseen

I’m the coward who done you wrong
I’d deserved all the dirt of deeds
I’d learned I’m the dark of your day
Please stop hating me

Crying in the dark, pitch black of the night, too much to see of the unseen


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Love Is Only A Word

Look at the boy
the one with the cuts and red eyes
wishing things were how they use to be
memories are all he has
he holds on tight
trying to avoid reality

he use to have the girl
the girl he loved
she was everything
made him smile
opened up his heart
until that one day he'll never forget

he came back
to what he thought was his
but she had found someone new
she looked at him and let him go
at that moment he fell to his knees
his whole world crumbled before him

but he still holds on
praying everynight "maybe shell come back"
blaming himself for eveything
trying to hide all the suffering
he keeps his headphones on
his only escape

everyday someone asks him about the cuts
he shrugs finding some excuse
never saying whats really on his mind
when all he needs is her

his days are filled with her face
he sees her, but she turns away
he wants her, to touch her
but she only wants him to go away

He wishes she would come back
She Wishes they never met.


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After This

After this I'm Done for

And walkin away

After this Its over

So you might as well pray

After this ill miss you

Waitin to cry

After this youll miss me

Wonderin why

After this well move on

Countin the time

After this my last song

for saying goodbye

After this youll call me

Wantin to try

But after this im outta reach

Beyond the very sky


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COMBAT ANGER

One with a reason for their anger
Another whom is guilty
Humblness is replaced by immature excuses
Skeletons are pulled from the closet to even score
Apologies avoided
Honor is scored
Words strike like stray bullets
Sorry, seen as a omition of failure
Lashing continue
An apology never given
Fight forgotten until the next time
Theres no solution to anger drawn before apologies
This is called combat anger


Details | I do not know? | |

Everything Will Be Alright

I met you here, and I met you there
I keep seeing you in my mind, my dreams, everywhere
All the moments we've had to remember in the past
Please don't tell me this has to be our last
You smile made me feel like I was the one for you
We've had a child, and then came a few years later, now we have two
Will we wake up?
Will we make up?
If the worst tends to be chosen between us both
Please keep in mind the children should matter the most
My family is here to support my decision to be made
But our love for our children should never fade
I'll always remember you, just please hear me out
But my children now, is what it's all about...


Details | Free verse | |

Stardust

I held my head up high in
The cloud..
The stardust sprinkle in tune
Yet waves and dance to the
Old minstrel band
With broken strings, cords all
Out of tune..
But the minstrel band just pay
No never mind,
Just played on with broken strings,
Cords all out of tune..
Life reflections undefined, in 
Depth the soul lives on..
Silently the soul whispers with
Broken wings..
The stardust sprinkle in tune
Sustain each tear,
With broken strings, cords all
Out of tune..
Yet waves and dance to the old
Minstrel band,
With silver teardrops filling the
Soul,
From broken wings, soul silently
Whispers..


Details | I do not know? | |

Prove Me Wrong

We've been with eachother for a long time
But sometimes I ask myself if you're still mine
From then until now, things have changed
Even the smiles and the glances we've exchanged
Are we still in love, or are we slowly falling apart?
All we can depend on is eachother and our hearts
We don't talk or listen to eachother's stories
The signs we gave off that only you and I could see
How are we going to end this supposed to be love song?
The thoughts I have I just can't take, please just prove me wrong
You lay in bed silenced like a new born baby
And all I ask is for my heart to save me
You seem so distant from me all the time
And still I'll ask, are you even still mine?
This is supposed to be our very first love story
But all we end up saying is, that we're sorry
Please help me, that's all I pray for
To bring us back to the way we were once before
Still you lay there hiding while my mind is debating
Still you don't ever respond, even while I'm slowly fading....


Details | I do not know? | |

Why?

Why weren't you here for me?
Why weren't you here to help me become the man I want to be?
Why did you say those words that I had to hear?
Why did you, when you put me in even more fear?
Why didn't you help me when you heard me cry?
Would you even notice if I died?
Why did you tell me I just want the best for you?
Did you listen to yourself? Did you think things through?
Where were you as I've grown older?
Or are you still bitter, and getting colder?
I'll tell you that I used to think that I wish I did die
So I'm just gonna ask you one more time, WHY?


Details | I do not know? | |

TRAVESTY OF SANCTITY

Daughter, sister,
Wife, mother,
Adjectives of kinship
Are worthy of worship

Markers of purity,
Idols of sanctity,
Yet victims of atrocity!
Strange cozenage of sanctity!!


Details | I do not know? | |

Miss You Already (angel of sadness)

Dear life
I miss you already and I ain't gone
I miss you
And I'm standing on the otherside of a happy home
This is how it feels to be left out and alone
I miss life already and I ain't gone
Labeled good for nothing 
A perfect example of a blessed something
Concieved and left
Maybe I'm the definition of a crackbaby crying for meth
Stress was only a fraction of the pay
Now I search for peace and a soft bed to lay
A touch so gentle it's brutal
No hotwater, so I sip cold noodles
And I know we could never escape fate
It's three a.m. and it's too late to escape
RSVP written in blood
Make it through this weather 
In a pieced together sweater
See what your god does
And I could never want to curse you
Only the mother of an infant would know how to nurse you
So complicated
Can't really explain why I hesistated
A short intermission
Second chance to abort suspicion
Verdict remaining a courts decision
If you don't understand
Just know I could never be a better man
I did things better than the best I knew
Too much of a loser to recite cheers with a crew
My sentences now seem fatigued
I am here for you believed more in your misery
Yet even by my day dreams you seem less intrigued


Details | Ballad | |

IT HELPS BUILD HATE

It helps build hate,
instead of sharing in the guilt;
it helps build hate,
instead of doing what's right!

It helps build hate
when we're too far apart
from each other and deny emotions; 
our uncertain looks
don't show a smile of friendship...
to  remind us
of  these sad and distant hearts...
are not motivated by love and trust!

It helps build hate
when we don't want
to see each other...
like we never cared for one another,
never thought of loving words...
spoken with endless sweetness!

We find it hard
to make changes,
and go back to being where we were;
it's even more offensive
and completely wrong to stand before
God and lie...
to break the bonds
and not even cry! 


Details | Lyric | |

The Murmur of this Poem

I would like you to listen, attentively 
To the murmur of this poem, but
Ahh, it’s gone now, as if nothing happened 
‘Cos, honestly, it wasn’t today’s morn

But last night, yes last night, before sleep

A heart, so gentle and pure
Like of winter rose in pristine December sky  
I still remember, I think it was love
Ahh yes, the love you’d wish for---the murmur 

Of this poem, flattered to its unknown grave


Details | Lyric | |

Liar

Goodbye ma an' pa
Worst thing ya ever saw
Me dyin' on ya for bein' successful
Never meant to make your lives so stressful

I do what I do for you, baby
Or I do it for me, for money, maybe
Who knows now, babe
I don't
You told me to not get in trouble
I said I won't

Cursed myself for lyin' before I hit the floor
Never shoulda got into this money war
Didn't mean to lie to you, didn't think I was
It's alright though, babe, stupid is as stupid does

Brother, don't envy me
I'm the worst guy you ever seen
I was good to you, to the crew
We were the best through and through

Told ya I'd be back before 9
My blood fell an hour after then
Red as wine

Didn't mean to lie to you, didn't think I was
It's alright though brother, stupid is as stupid does
Steppin' outside into the fray
What a stupid mistake I made that day

Got a shot to the chest, one to the head
It hurt so bad, boy, I knew I was dead
Shoulda raised you right, never did
Tried to make you a happy kid

Told ya I'd be back for dinner
But sorry, boy, your daddys a sinner
Didn't mean to lie to you, didn't think I was
It's alright though boy, stupid is as stupid does

Heres the apology to myself before I go
We had some fun, it was a great show
Shoulda made the right decisions, I didn't
Said I'd make it through, I didn't

Didn't mean to lie to myself, thought I was the best
It's alright though, I can finally take a rest


Details | I do not know? | |

Welcome To Me

I'd rather be in hell 
than to exist in jail.
lost in my own 
mind.
swore I seen the devil in an empty glass
of hennesey.
completely lost 
i close my eyez.
revange at all cost
my life is Hell.



Details | Lyric | |

Our Love

I'd never known what love was 
I'd never had a clue 
I guess I'd never known because 
I hadn't yet met you. 
Our love was great 
As all love should be 
But now my love has turned to hate 
Because of what you've done to me. 
You tore me apart 
But even after all that you've put me through 
I'll admit that all the love in my broken heart 
is still waiting there for you.


Details | Lyric | |

The well of tears and despair

Blackness spirals, looming large
Threatening my very life
A whirlpool of inky black
The rages on in the night
Sucking at my spirit fast
Trying hard to pull me down
It wants to swallow me whole
To consume my very soul
A sound of a thousand wails
Spinning around in torment
Eminates from this black thing
A concophony of pain
I cannot hold myself long
On the edge of this abyss
My fingers are slick with red
Before long I’ll surely fall
To become a part of it
This dreaded apparition 
The well of tears and despair
Now trapped forever within 


Details | Lyric | |

I Close the Door

I leave the room. This time needs no memory.
It doesn’t matter now in the deep silence.
In a while my life will write a new story.
Now I try to keep myself at a distance.

Do I feel a sorrow or bitterness? 
Maybe. But I don’t regret my decision.
I allow myself a minute of weakness
For the past dreams and hopes of the lost woman...

I turn off lights, and close the door, and leave keys. 
I’m not curious about new residents.
I like the silence – no voices and faces.
I go away. No-one perceives my absence… 


Details | Lyric | |

Make it

Say let me make say let me make 
Born in the gutter on the block 
Contently watch 
Thugs running to the Connor thinking dang that stuff hot
As a youngster mine regularly set up plot 
I want what they got 
Came to the came 
Everybody was A didn’t give a care too their name
This be my dream 
Getting what I want by feeding crack fens
Say let me make it Say let me make me 
Momma don’t cry nah momma don’t cry
Look inside your house everything nice
Look at your ride you riding so tide
You don’t got to worry they can’t turn off your lights
Just go to bingo in listen to Smoky cause everything going to be alright
Say let me make say let me make 
Don’t nobody wants see little of me 
Going out making that big money
So they get ready to eliminate me 
I set up notations 
Someone on every block every location 
Listening end to ever conversation 
They wants take so I’m going have to shape
To show them life is real problems is not fake
So say goodbye goodnight your love your life
Say let me make say let me make 





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Details | Lyric | |

Where Do We Go From Here?

all the sad songs,
all the bad songs
songs that hurt,
and songs with tears
where do we go from here?

all the memories,
all the heart pains
memories that hurt,
and memories with tears,
where do we go from here?

i'm sorry i hurt you my dear,
i wonder,
is the light in your eyes still bright?
or has the light faded to darkness,
all our favorite songs are gone,
baby, where do we go from here?

now your leavings all i fear,
no more smiles, only tears,
i'm sorry, i hurt you my dear,
wish we could just start over.
oh baby, where do we go from here?


Details | Lyric | |

In A Lyric


Spilled 
between 
the lines of 

a
lyric, 
it almost 

slipped
from my
thought, yet, I

found the way to reflect

it, 
and must 
have been the 

art
of my
guiltless brain

that 
alas, 
I refrained…

from anomalous wine!





 


Details | I do not know? | |

One kiss

One kiss and i'll be your mistress forever. Captured inside a deep love spell that I 
can't break out of. With your kisses you control me, you know what your doing. Kiss me, 
tease me, please me and get me to crawl on my knees trapped in your commands. One kiss 
one touch, I feel like i'm falling maybe it's love. I hit the ground so fast from your 
dangerous kiss that the blood spilled and you just walked over me.


Details | Lyric | |

UNFORGIVEN

NOT A DAY GOES BY THAT I DON'T THINK ABOUT
 THE MISTAKES THAT I MADE

NOW I'M LOCKED AWAY 
AND IT'S FOR THE FOOLISH GAME I PLAYED

I APOLOGIZE FOR NOT BEING THERE 
IN THE WAY I KNOW I SHOULD

EVEN THOUGH I KNOW I MESSED UP
 I PRAY THAT YOU UNDERSTOOD

I KNOW MY MISTAKES ARE UNFORGIVEN 
AND ONLY I AM TO BLAME

I KNOW THERE'S NO NEED FOR SORRY 
BECAUSE SORRY WON'T ERASE THE PAIN

UNFORGIVEN TO MYSELF
AND UNFORGIVEN WITHIN MY HEART

UNFORGIVEN IN MY WAYS
BECAUSE I FAILED TO DO MY PART

A PART OF MY PRIDE HAS DIED
EVEN THOUGH I'LL KEEP ON LIVING

WHETHER YOU FORGIVE ME OR NOT
TO MYSELF I'M UNFORGIVEN


Details | Ballad | |

Love Can't Live

Can anybody really love?
Give themselves over completely
Have someone who really know them,
Who can hold them all night?

You see that sign there in the window,
Saying, ‘I heart you don’t let me go.’
Can someone really feel that much emotion,
About someone who’s just another person?

‘Cause I know people come and they go, 
Their nothing special. They’re just on the same road. 
They take their time or quickly pass by. 
But the sharper the look, the harder you ask yourself why. 

So, can anybody really feel love?
Can anybody really dig that deep?
‘Cause you’ll turn around in circles,
All looking for the same things.

And I’ve heard of loving God,
Loving family, and loving your friends.
But I just don’t think a person could ever get deep enough, 
To feel what their dreaming of. 

Love just doesn’t seem easy enough,
Seems like it should always shine through. 
Or is that just an optimists’ point of view,
‘Cause it don’t seem likely that it will happen for you.

Then why is love even a factor,
When no one seems to hold on to the truth. 
How can love even exist in this world,
After all I’ve been through. 

Caring is a beginning,
Helping out, it becomes a fact.
But nothing ever last for love to hold to, 
‘Cause truth is all love has.

And you can love your children, 
You can love your best friend. 
But to just love some person, 
It’s not a realistic end.

So, love can’t last, and if there’s truth in that. 
I don’t want to live in this world. 
‘Cause all these people who were trying. 
Now are crying, and I can’t live with that.


Details | Lyric | |

I Take Back

{V-1}
In the darkness of my mind
Where your image fades away
Your memories all I find
As my tears fall today

{V-2}
The note you left for me
Has sorrow in every line
Through black and white I see
You erased me from your mind

{Chorus}
I take back all those words
Those words that broke your heart
I take back those nights
Those nights you cried alone
I take back those words of pain
Those words that made us part

{V-3}
Today those flowers in the window
Are wilted and turning brown
Your picture on the mantel
Has me praying you'll turn around

{V-4}
When I see your red silk nightie
My tears start again
Oh darling I'm on my knees
and my minds on memory lane

{Chorus}
I take back all those words
Those words that broke your heart
I take back all those nights
Those nights you cried alone
I take back those words of pain
Those words that made us part


Details | Lyric | |

Tumbled

I consumed myself, day and night
In the reconstruction of her being,
‘Cos her beauty left out in the sun
And withers like flower; 
I thought I could help by doing so;
Imagine how hard to swallow 
Ones pride,
Just to provide her something,
Self-contentment, perhaps;
Alone, I stretched the day over 
The inconvenience of fleeting time;
Cheerfully, I made impossible possible
Yet in return, I ended up 
Wondering,
Why I slaved my body giving 
Her, the niceties she don’t deserve?
Now she sings with the angels, whilst
I bleed in loneliness;
Oh Father, forgive me, if 
I’ve fallen short......to thy expectation.



Details | Lyric | |

Friend Please Stay

With a pain in my heart,
I guess we never know
How much someone means,
Till we let them go,
When they’re no longer there
To hear our plea,
For help when our eyes 
They cannot see

When we’re in our 
Dark corner
And no lights about,
They were there when
A whisper was not needed
But a shout
To wake us up from
Our sleepy slumber,
The times they helped you, 
You cannot number,

You realise now
You hurt them quite bad
They deny it and when 
They see you, 
pretend they’re glad
But deep down you remember
They’re the one
Who told you secrets when the friendship 
Begun 

And that despite what they say
You do know them well
When they’re hurt or annoyed
Is when you can tell,
That sorry is just not good enough
For them to hear but its too tough,

Because the pain you created 
has caused a stain,
You realise you pray 
for the friendship to remain
Because as I said it’s not till they’re gone
That you realise they were there all along
They helped pull you out the pit when others looked away
I miss you so bad…I want you to please stay….


Details | Lyric | |

Make Me Whole, Once More


O God, may you not abandon me
In your precious name, I beg thee

My race, I really wanted to pursue
But yet, here I am, I disgraced you

O God, lift me, from all my shame
I know, no one but me, is to blame

From you, I have fallen once again
Forgive me, I ask, release my pain

O God, punish me, that, I may see
The eternal light, that’ll set me free

Give me strength, for life, to spend
Make me whole, once more. Amen!




Details | Narrative | |

I Wonder Why?

Many people die
with tear in their eye
with the thought of suicide in their mind
with one last cry
these innocent people die
I wonder why?
all these people being born
in the wrong places
and the wrong times
They grew up only knowing how to commit crimes
or how to sit in the streets asking for a couple of dimes
these people go home
only to be told
"you'll never mount to anything"
but they are only sixteen
this world can be so cold
so these people grow up doing the same thing
they did when they were sixteen
only this time they aren't as clean
they grew up only knowing how to be mean
one day they get tired of the crap
they look down and see the gun on their lap
they pick it up
and put it to their head
and with a sound of a BANG!
They become a person of the dead.


Details | Ballad | |

A PLAYBOY LIKE ME

I didn't recognize your need,
and it only showed once
in those beautiful eyes of yours;
I was attracted to others
in ways I can't describe...
others less sincere than you for a good time,
not  listening to the words you were saying...
ignoring all your passion when you smiled;
was there an honesty I didn't see,
or a fantasy you have been resisting?

I used everybody for my crazy urges
and staring at my empty hands...
I'm so sorry to have lived up to this lie,
is there any quick way
I can cleanse them
and forget where I've been
or what I have done when
 I stepped out of the line;
is there another way for me 
to end this sad goodbye?


I made you wonder
and wait forever,
rising your fever even more...
when I spoke with my sexy voice 
and prouded myself of my affairs;
I laughed with carelessness,
considering none of your emotions...
taking away your only choice!
   
Now,don't ask me if I should stay
or what price I'm going to pay;
you can't change a playboy like me...
please look for somebody you can easily subdue,  
who can give you his sincere love and be true! 


Details | I do not know? | |

Its ok

  You opened the door, on my scared young heart, the moment you walked into 
the room

  And your eyes seemed to penetrate, and you eyes seemed to say, "its ok-ok to 
be attracted to me"

  So i sat very still and looked around the room, waiting to make up my mind

  And i sat in the spot of 3 and 1/2 months, comfy and tormented, confused by 
inner shock

  And at the right moment, on the right day, i was about to confess undying love, i 
tried and i tried but the words wouldn't come

  But your eyes seemed to penetrate and your eyes seemed to say "its ok-ok to 
love me"

  So love i did, with all my heart, and somewhere in you i found the missing and 
the missed part of me

  And i cried when you left me oh it hurt so bad, through tears in my eyes i missed 
the message in yours

  Now i see you, sometimes alone sometimes with friends, and it is then i 
remember being 19

  It is then i remember what innocence and ignorance feels like and i miss it

  And i read your eyes- they feed me a changing message- first i read...

  "i'm sorry i hurt you, i'm sorry i brought you into this lifestyle, its ok to hate me"

  And then i see...

  "i think so you everyday, i need you in my life, i'm so sorry i hurt you, its ok to 
miss me"

  I close my eyes, to shake confusion, when they open you are gone, but where 
you ever really there

  And then i wonder, why do i care, why since the beginning have i looked for 
permission in your eyes, why didn't i look in my own

  In the mirror, out the window, at the sky, or even in my own soul,- my soul has 
the answers

  My problem...only you have the questions


Details | Lyric | |

Echoes Of Sin

I hear…
The rose whispering
My heart is yearning for redemption 
Of soul, I am undeserving one


Details | Lyric | |

Cold Soup

Blue time
Blue time 
dressed up 
in remember
Wrapped up
Rapt up
In robes 
of regret
Justice
Just ice
Frozen tears 
chipping 
and 
breaking
Another lost try to forget
Colors
Colors all
 pastel
And fading
Memories frozen 
in rime
Flowing 
past hell
evading
But still 
doing 
time


Details | Lyric | |

forgive me

the words that i've said
the things that i've done
then i just laid
out in the sun
how could you just let me out that door
when did you not love me anymore
so i'll ask again
when did this friend come in
Why? but i felt it on the inside
but it just wanted to hide
my minds disire
burning like a fire
dont bring me in on this pain
NO come let me out of the rain
Why?did you have to hurt me inside
why did i have to hide 
why did this pain
but it's driving me insane i love theeso forgive me.


Details | Lyric | |

Reminiscing about tomorrow

Ahh it burns,
look into my head
all of the urns
makes me wish i was dead

the pain and sorrow
that it makes me feel
i wonder if torromrrow
is all really real

and so all this pain
drives me to the brink
it makes me insane
also makes me think

if i were to die
would anyone care
or if i did just lie
would everyone stare

so someone just hit me
dead in my face
as if i would see
in your eyes my disgrace

bring out in my mind
theese thoughts in my head
cuse into this bind
i'm left out instead.


Details | Lyric | |

"Happy-happy songs"

happy-happy happy happy 
to see you today 
don't worry I always 
look this way 
with my finger up nose
here I've found gold 
look want to see
it so glittery 
this is my
happy-happy song
what get back 
I don't like that 
hey-hey you
I talken to you
get away 
oh-were was I 
today -YES 
my happy song
can't we just ...
hey- 
I told you not today 
get your own a shoe
It just for me 
it just not 
for you
it my 
happy-happy  song
It me 
I'm not crazy
I'm not gone 
Its happy-happy song
so you want a smell 
look for yourself
bugs-bugs all over me
bugs-bugs there always
free 
look in my hair 
take a peak 
you sing - i sing
happy-happy song 
we all sing 
can't we all 
just learn to be happy
with new !
happy-happy songs
are you happy
now !
I happy
your happy 
here move 
see
happy-happy...


Details | Lyric | |

My Final Goodbye

One last kiss, that's all I ask
But will you give, this simple task?
To leave is hard, and you don't care
But all you wanted was one last stare.
I wish we loved, the way we used to
all I wanted, was to stay with you.

So I guess that's it, I guess we're through
The love we had just wasn't true.
One last time to tell you why
But all I can do is say goodbye.

Another day to touch your face
Just one last kiss, one more taste.
I want to tell you, like before
If I could tell you, I need more.
But once again, you don't care
If only you knew, you are my air.

So I guess that's it, I guess we're through
The love we had, just wasn't true.
One last time to tell you why,
but all I can do is say good-bye.


Details | Lyric | |

Lost In Thoughts

Each day feels like a dream
As I'm lost in thoughts of you, 
My dream still won't end 
Because I can't accept were through.

You always made me happy
I loved to make you smile,
But still I'm lost in thoughts of you
My mind scattered in a pile.

Every moment spent with you
Is another memory to cherish,
It's so hard to believe 
Our love was so quick to perish.

Lost in thoughts of you 
As another day soon passes,
How will it be next year
When I'm alone between my classes?

I miss you more and more
As I regret all that I've done,
If only I could take it back
To avoid this awful shun.

The good times and the bad
All the times we had fought,
I still can't see me with out you
Still I'm lost in thought.

It gets harder each and every day
The more we grow apart,
The love we both had shared
More than music, it was art.

Finally I have realized
That I miss us even more,
Lost in thoughts of you
I must leave out the door. 

Still I don't understand
Our love was so true,
How could it disappear
In lonely thoughts of you?

More and more I dream
Of the day things will change,
Thoughts of you keep coming
I want the days to be the same.

I believe someday soon
My lost thoughts will become true,
And we will live together
I'll be your Tigger, you my Pooh.


Details | Lyric | |

I'm Sorry

I’m sorry, my words didn’t come out right
I’m sorry, I didn’t mean to ruin your night
My mind is panicked
My heart is frantically beating
I just have this fear that soon you’ll be leaving me
I need to learn to choose my words with caution
because my tones never turn out 
the way they’re meant to sound
All of what I said,
was just me kidding around
I didn’t want you to worry
and I’m grateful that you care
Just accept my most sincere apology
and believe me when I say I’m sorry


Details | Lyric | |

STEPS OF LIFE

Time has past, 
I have lived life.
I look back, It went to fast.
No time to slow down,
No time for regrets, 
No time for i'm sorry,
No time for change,
No time for tears,
For when the time comes,
It has left me all to soon.

I can't look back,
I can't do what needed to be done,
I can't undo what shouldn't be done.

Take a step,
One foot in front of the other.
Its that easy.
move on..move on... 
that's what they say.
Its true.
Its all we can do,
Hope for tomorrow.
So I do.

I will make time
I have no regrets
I have no tears,
When they come, let them come,
I will say sorry for now, 
I will change the now,
The past is the past
The now is the present
This is who I am
This is who I will be.

No more memories to hide behind
Just one foot in front of the other
To walk the road of life as we know it.


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Breakthrough to you

Ever feel like you're damned if you do
Damned if you don't
No matter what you do
It's never right
One day I'm ready to give up the fight
The next day not so much
From reality I fall
And I'm losing sight
I know how much I'm losing touch
Fantasy has come to play
It don't want to say goodbye or go away
I'm afraid it's here to stay
From these feeling I do not stray
They are here every damn day
All it would take from you is a phone call
Your voice to say
That you love me to
Or that you want me to stay away
I need to know one way or the other
I'm sorry I'm such a bother
Until then loneliness
Will be the price I pay
Why did we let our
Circumstances get the better of us
Somewhere along the path we'd lost our trust
And fate took over and got in the way
Why did I let people dictate
What exactly I would to you say
Why did we get caught up
In a game neither one of us
Really knew how to play
One there were no winners for
We both lost each other in the end
And our hearts were tore
Our pride needed to mend
We just needed to grow, come back and bend
Maybe though it really needs to be put to rest
Perhaps that what is best
Once and for all
But I know I'm not that strong
Loving you just can't be wrong
I hope and pray
Soon one day
Things between us will all end okay
For now though
All my love is always being sent your way
I'm sorry I still am in love with you
Maybe someday I'll get it together
But at this point that may just take forever
I no longer have any ideas on just what exactly to do
I keep the hope alive that maybe someday 
I'll break through to you


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OLD FRIEND

HEY OLD FRIEND
LEAVE ME BE
DONT COME AROUND ONCE MORE
DONT STOP TO BOTHER ME
TRYNNA GET ME TO QUESTION MY FAITH
QUESTION MYSELF
LET GO OF MY SAINITY
OMIT MY HEALTH
OLD FRIEND
YOUR TRYIN,
AND PUTIN UP A GOOD FIGHT
YOUR COLD OLD FRIEND
YOU AINT RIGHT
I MEAN YOU TRY SO HARD
AND I JUST KEEP THINKING.....
YOU KNOW I KEEP THINKING ABOUT THE PAST
BACK WHEN LIFE WAS FADING, FALLING, EXPENDING,
FAST
NOT ANYMORE
WHAT DO YOU NEED,
OLD FRIEND
I TOLD YOU LAST TIME THAT IT WAS THE END
WHAT COULD YOU POSSIBLY NEED WITH MY LIFE
EXCEPT TO BRING PAIN,
EXCEPT TO BRING STRIFE
WHAT OLD FRIEND....
TELL ME
BECAUSE FRUSTRATION HAS RISEN
DONT LEAVE YOUR THOUGHTS
AWAY,
HIDDEN
TELL ME
OLD FRIEND
WHAT DO YOU NEED
TELL ME OLD FRIEND
WELL SAID OLD FRIEND
REMEMBER ME
SO I CAN BE
YOU...
AGAIN


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i let you down

It won't be long, for the sadness to set in your eyes. I don’t have to see tears to know 
the things I’ve compromised. It won’t take long, for you tell me what I’ve done to you. 
I wish you wouldn’t, because I already know how much I hurt you.

I let you down. I let you fall between my fingers. I let you down. I know your sadness 
lingers. If everything went my way, I wouldn’t let you fall. I let you down, so far 
down, and I know it’s all my fault.

To run away, could only hurt you more. You know I loved you, but I’m not sure you do 
anymore. I cry for the pain I’ve brought you, every night when you’re asleep. I pray for 
you to wake, and maybe hear my weeps. Maybe you can understand, it never should have 
gone this far. But since it has, there’s no going back, I’ll still wish on every star. 

I let you down. I let you fall between my fingers. I let you down. I know your sadness 
lingers. If everything went my way, I wouldn’t let you fall. I let you down, so far 
down, and I know it’s all my fault.