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Details | Free verse | |

Moments In Time

The sweetest sounds of burning trees
A gentle stroking in the breeze
The calm has lasted past the storm
Cloudy visions, Satan’s roar
Too many sights have passed my way
A time found only in the haze
The softest screams are running bare
My aching bones creak as I stare

You walk a distance towards me
The fall’s eternal, can’t you see?
I’m a memory in your heart
I whisper to you in the dark

The battle’s started at the end
No one is coming to repent
The sinners grab their wine from prey
No judgment calling here to stay
The sport is reckless to be told
The one is laughing at his souls
It falters nowhere to be sure
The power grows forevermore
Like a spirit in the wind
I have no say in where you’ve been 
But cross the line to come to me
And pay the price for ecstasy

You walk a distance towards me
The fall’s eternal, can’t you see?
I’m a memory in your heart
I whisper to you in the dark. 


Details | Lyric | |

If We Only Believe

Why are we here on earth, 
because the Lord has something for us each to do.
He has not told us what it is,
but it is not to pine over lost love.
It is said he never gives us more then we can handle,
we just need to work at finding our way.
Life can not always be peaches and cream,
we must be ready to take the bad with the good.
Life will not always be what we expect it to be,
we must open our eyes that we may see.
A person should never feel they are not needed,
we need someone and someone needs us.
Though it may not be the person we want it to be,
someone is out there it may just be a matter of time.
To grieve over a lost love one is to be expected,
to go through life alone is not what anyone expects.
We need only to open our eyes and believe...
I am needed ...I am wanted ...by someone.
Someone is out there waiting for me,
a real live human Being...I just need to believe.

Entry: Retread What You've Said  And say it Better!
Contest Sponsor: Moses
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Details | Lyric | |

BOTH OF US GOT AWAY

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if ever i had two hours with you… or three, the vacancy of this quaint café and barren shores would be refilled with the pouring of pink- frosted air on our glass-window’s past; the multitude of disheveled suns ripping arms of surrender; raged midnights ending into carmine mornings; swallowed inches of stars turning into lyrics replayed. and what splendor to infect the whiteness or redness of seasons’ fingers wearing the pains and gains of many a porcelain days. then, to recall the sevens and nines of time’s scalpel cutting our names into crumpled paper: a departure of hearts traveling in different territories. we inched away, not because of lack for vows marked in deepest sands. but… by fate’s desire to cart you in a faraway land, while i.. i burned telephone lines hiding beneath the long distance of regrets… yearning for your comeback instead of stamped letters thousands of miles so removed from alleys where our arms used to walk, we side-tracked along with stooping songs that gently genuflected… if and when we meet again, two or three hours by time's grace, oh the fluttering of a thousand thoughts would not be enough to say you were the trunk that got away, and i was your last rose that lost its stem.
all rights reserved © ,,,,,,,,,,,,,,,,,,,,,,,,,,,,,,,,,,,,,,,,,,,,,,,,, love lost from long distance relationship For Frank Herrera's Contest By: nette onclaud


Details | Rhyme | |

MY TRUTHS & THOUGHTS

we're living in an era of ignorance 
we lost our innocense
at fourteen your too young to vote but old enough for death sentences

these politcians are hypocrits
for the atrocities that they commit we face imprisonment

durring this pro American sentiment
how could we forget the scores of poor ignored
while we finance a war 

that bombs then rebuilds them
feed their children

while the ones back home
have to fend for their own

life is wonderul and miserable depends on the time frame
the birth of Almasi(my son) the death of Dwayne(my cousin)

I went bezerk it hurt clutching his blood soaked shirt
while he lay on the Earth leaking blood on the dirt
I cried to the sky please guide me father
at times this world is so dark I need night vision goggles

i lost friends to ignorance
bullets and jail stints
drug habbits and various patterns of bull ish 
I've navigating through dangerous
streets trying to claim us
beast trying to tame  us
friends turned to strangers
I have ducked heat from flammers
by mennacing strangers
thinking I will survive like gloria gaylor

its a small world but I got big plans
but it gets hard like trying to jog through quicksand
but I found GOD on both knees with cluthced hands 
but kept getting invitations from the Devil to dance

so i went below the surface
became more observant

hand shakes are fake they dont mean a thing
a smile can be a predator preparing his fangs

I severed ties with friends who's minds were stagnated
had king pin dreams but never quite made it

friendships were torn
and habbits were formed

and the ones who escaped crack
heroin snatched

and I engaged in acts that were so unGodly
only he can judge me punish me or pardon me

watching this world makes me shed eye water 
our sons get slaughtered  and denegrated ours daughters
its the sign of the times cant you see that people
first it rained airplanes then the mail was lethal

ghetto youths indisputes they spray A.K s
suburban kids throw pipebombs in school hallways
after so many years of feeding violence to youths
I guess those chickens came home to roost


Details | Lyric | |

Teardrops in a stream

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                             When you were around
  
                      I used to laugh,Hope and dream

                             Now that you are gone

                          My Life has lost its Heart

                       My eyes have lost their gleam

                           Tears are all I have left

                           Teardrops in a stream.




Details | Lyric | |

Under the Eclipse: For Amanda Todd

October speaks of death, I hope now she can rest,
And lay the soaring bird on down.
Underneath her clothes, only herself she loathed.
We've seen this done before. 

Together they manifest their cause, ripping with their claws,
Tearing flesh and bone.
From the shame inside swelling at her sides,
She broke herself on stones. 

And the monsters say "There's on her to blame,
With many heads we only think the same".
When no words of solace leave our lips,
I can tell you the world will end like this,
Under the Eclipse. 

All around they slayed and left where she laid
To bleed out all her wrongs.
And now that she's gone, over with and done,
Her memories all they play. 

She can show you how people lose their sanity.
She can show you how the world has lost humanity.
Those who turned their eyes, this has only you to blame.
To console yourself you say "Oh what a shame".
I can tell you how the world will end like this,
Under the Eclipse,
Under the Eclipse.

Wool across my eyes,
Shields me from this life.
Every single thread
Coating what they said.

Every drop of rain
Lights a candle in
Memory of the one
Who burned for others fun. 

She can show you how people lose their sanity.
She can show you how the world has lost humanity.
Those who turned their eyes, this has only you to blame.
To console yourself you say "Oh what a shame".
I can tell you how the world will end like this,
Under the Eclipse,
Under the Eclipse.

Where is the sun?
Where is the sun?


Details | Lyric | |

Midnight Confessions part 3 - a collaboration with Honcho Mars

V.3:
I smell the odor of remorse and hatred in the atmosphere...
Leaving me with scraps of terrifying fear
Waking up in the morning
With you under my sheets
Should I count you amongst the numbers?
Do you stand apart from the rest?
I must confess
Under tons of stress
Hiding this love
Like a thief in the night
I cried a river
In my heart, in my heart
Deliver…oh deliver
Me from temptation that’s been deceiving me from the start
I cried a river
In my heart, in my heart
We’ll be with each other forever and ever
Together, we won’t depart

Ch.:
I’m nothing to you…you came out of the blue
Living this lie…refusing my cries
Frozen inside and feeling kind of numb
I feel dumb…well, it’s a bummer…
Wiping away the pain 
Wiping away the tears
I ran because of fear
But I must spill the secrets
(I am here
Here I wait)x3
Here I stand…
I hope you understand…
I hope you can see…
I hope for you to see
To see what happens
When love is given
A second chance to bloom
In my heart
I slept for way too many hours
It empowers me – the thought of reaching out to you
Numb without you motivating me…
Don’t worry – it’s not over…

You can see my heart, you can feel my heart, 
Beating to the rhythm of yours
I will pass the test...take your time - I don't mind
I loathe the thought of losing you from the start
I'm left alone, doing countless chores
Here without you, I'm terrified, speechless & awfully blind


Details | Lyric | |

What's the Difference?

What's the difference between day and night,
What the difference between darkness and sight
If you should ever turn your love away from me?

What's the difference between heaven and hell,
What's the difference between sickness and well
If you should ever turn your love away from me?

     I'll always need your love to help and guide me.
     I'll always need your love to keep me strong.
     I'll always need your love to keep the fire blazing in me.
     I'll always need your love to play the music for my songs.

     Oh never give your love to another's fleeting heart.
     Oh never let small differences drive us far apart.
     Oh never let your thoughts dwell upon our woes and sorrows
     Oh never let your heart forget there will always be tomorrow.

What's the difference between peace and strife,
What's the difference between wound and knife
If you should ever turn your love away from me?
What's the difference between gold and rust,
What's the difference between gems and dust
If you should ever turn your love away from me?

     But my soul tells me your love stands more solid than the rocks
     More lasting than the winds, immune to any shock
     It started from an ember, now it's risen to a flame
     No matter how we change, Dear, it burns on just the same,
     So I know your love's more constant than the blue within the sky,
     All mine to live and breathe within to the very day I die, the day I die.

So you'll always have your love there, a light for all my days
You'll always have your love there, a love that never strays.
Always there, to warm my heart, always there to take my part
Never lost to another's touch, never asking for too much
Never lost to another's word, my voice is all your heart has ever heard.

So what's the difference between light and dark,
What's the difference if I miss all my marks
Since you'll never turn your love away from me?
And what's the difference between Doubt and Sure
What's the difference between rich and poor
Since you'll never turn your love away from me?


Details | I do not know? | |

Lost Love

As I sit here I wonder why, Why, My Lost Love Why couldn't it have worked Why My Love We each knew our Love for each other But knew what the consequences would have been So we went our separate ways Knowing full well, We'd never Be totally Satisfied Again Until We could be together Why Lost Love, Why Is there some meaning to this Madness I sit and Cry for You, My Love Knowing why I stayed in this situation, Does nothing to ease my pain I Miss You, My Lost Love You have forever been in my thoughts Love If there Is A God In Heaven, Surely, He'll Give Us Another Try My Love I try so hard to be strong, To show no signs of distress Yet, he knows something is wrong, Senses a change in me He's trying so hard, To make right the unjustly wrongs Lost Love Yet my thoughts and fantasies remain Around our times in each others embrace I only wish I could have told you again in person But I'm sure You already know There'll Never Be Another My Love, My Lost Love Is there supposed to be a grieving period I don't know, I only know I hurt, A deep Soul Hurting Like a part of me has died Love, Lost Love


Details | Ballad | |

Leave the Ninety-nine

We must leave the ninety-nine
To go search and find
The one lost sheep
Wand'ring far behind
We must leave the ninety-nine
To go search and find
The one lost sheep-
Left behind  (Chorus)

Just suppose one of you has a hundred sheep
Then loses one of them and begins to weep
Would you not leave the ninety and nine
And go after the one on your heart and mind
And when it's found you would hold it closer
And carry it home upon your shoulders
Then call all your neighbors and gather all your friends
Celebrating your sheep that's back in the fold again

[Bridge]
Likewise there's more rejoicing
In Heaven up above
Over one lost soul who will repent
Than for the ninety-nine
Who are already found
To be righteous and so obedient  (So..)

(Chorus)

Now suppose one of you has ten silver coins
But then loses one of them from your collection
Would you not light the house and sweep the floors
Searching very carefully for what is yours 
Would you not put away the other precious nine 
And look in every corner until the lost one you'd find
Then call all your neighbors and gather all your friends
Celebrating you have your coin in your hand again

[Bridge]

(Chorus)

[Bridge2]
But don't forsake the congregation
And now's the time for visitation
To lead the lost ones to salvation
With God's angels in celebration

(Chorus)


Details | Rhyme | |

Put a bullet in my brain

Put a bullet in my brain
as the rain sweeps her out of my arms
and places her into another's.
Put a bullet in my brain
for I don't want to see love slip away
please end my suffering,
for I don't want to dare see her in the arms of another man.

I fear the tear that slips away from my soul
and touches the ground with a splash
as she is washed away by the lashed memories of the rain,
please, someone put a bullet in my brain.

I can't bear to see her with another man
laying in his arms
as he charishes her beauty
just like I did to her.
As she smiles and laughs at his jokes
my heart would not bare the sorrow and pain
that would tare my heart apart into pieces of tainted love.
Please tell the rain to stop,
as the pain grows when rain comes down,
please someone end my suffering,
put a bullet in my brain
and stop the rain
that washes away every memory of her.

Stop saying you miss me
and just kiss me
for I can't take the pain
of the rain that takes you away.
Kiss me and stop saying you miss me
for those are useless words to me.
Love is where it's at, so show me.
Don't go with him, he'll treat you wrong.
Love and laugh with me till the break of dawn
as we yawn the long night away.

Kiss me and don't say you miss me.
For if you go away from me,
I couldn't bare to take a tear and waste it away.
Tears, sweet tears crying for you,
doesn't that mean anything to you?
I ask you, stop the rain,
stop the pain and put that bullet in my brain.

Let the red blood flow from my temples.
Let the plow dig my grave,
for I can't bare to see you with another
in his arms, him kissing you, where I kissed you.
I can't take it, I have to make it,
make that pain go away.
Prayer didn't help, God turned a blind eye
when I came up and said why!
Put that bullet in my dome
and when I lay in the coffin, looking at the roof of the church
you come and kiss me, and then you can really say
that you'll miss me.


Details | Free verse | |

Generic Minds

generic minds listen to generic music
have generic thoughts that are unknowingly abusive
watch generic things talk about generic things
gee this generic *****is spreading like a disease
better get your flu shot 
thats what they said to me
a suicidal vaccine 
a subliminal killing spree
its contagious and the outrageous
thing about it is that the people are blind in an eye
that they didn't even know they had
it's sickening to watch these clueless civilians 
inside the looking glass
with nightmares of being free
without a key to their mind
for it is trapped in the frequency
in the illusion of time
bathed in our universe
killing all that refuse to see
those that admit to hypocracy
or see the message in hip hop
how cant you see
the message in the lyrics that
bring adolescents to their knees
from bullet wounds conflicting their flesh
contradicting that they're the best
but the songs keep telling them that they dont need no rest
that they dont wanna go home
that they should ride alone
with the gat as their only companion
and so the only path they choose is the one that they're told
until they grow old and hope turns to a window pane
inside a window pane, until all they feel is pain
they realize that the music itself is ashamed
so whats to look up to
when you cant even speak when you cant even walk because you look so bleak
your eyes are sunken from the tv you're infested with the dee zees
now its too late to turn around and live for your conscious
so when youre screaming oh please
close your eyes and bring your mind to life
open your eyes for the first time
and never wonder why
since the answer this entire time
has been inside
and you better find it before you die
you dont want your soul to be in a pool with all the others
a buncha brothers missing their mothers
but only seeing strangers
only feeling the haters
wishing they would have used their minds when they had them
and now its too late,
now it's time for another new born fate to grab them


Details | Haiku | |

The Internet: Return

A void of Facebook
Creativity dies here...
Procrastination!


Details | Narrative | |

Thunder and Lighting

Love is prominent but lies are still troubling the arch in my back is still aching  thru my core/ To calm to peaceful Today not enough appreciation from you
You make me feel less important.
 How many more audition do I need to perform for you?
 Your Personality changes like the weather negative energy creates “Thunder and Lighting” 
   Your Ego is higher then the altitude in Denver 
You are the weather that changes everyday I never knew when its cold are warm 
Today I was prepared for a Sunny day / But  like the weather you change unpredictably have me puzzled just wondering Why?
 I was not prepared for your  precipitation/ you never allow me to grasp your feelings never appreciate my love  you was only  obsessed with yourself and not my heart.  When its cloudy or rainy outside my vision gets a little blur and  fuzzy when you are around.

Meteorologist Predicate Sunny and warm air with the chances of early morning cloudiness’


Details | Lyric | |

Solipsist

Let the Deicide commence.

You're a voyeur at best!
Your vampiric heart is beating out of your chest!
And you have slayed the ones whom would love you for anything less
Ready to consume the final fragments of innocence,
And for you there is no forgiveness,
On your knees pleading, screaming to a tyrant in the skies;
The father of lies.

I will never be enslaved in your superiority
The people agree: jaded of your false dichotomies.
Know: I will be whomever nature intends to be
Apollo and I will share our dreams,
and you will be forced to see
your failure!

I know who you are...
Readily the first to present your scars
Chained by some despot or mental czar
An emotional homunculus in your mind, behind bars
Reluctant to escape - even when proven fake
Your demented mind - depths no one will penetrate!
 
...And you see me suffering
Not caring of any casualties
Just as long you recieve your safeguard of sympathy
So very wary of the masses and their Anarchy; Liberious ways

Solipsist - Is there no one you can see?
Even if she was presented burning?
Solipsist - Is there no one you can believe?
Even if Sophia was screaming?
Solipsist - Know you have killed and abused me
Imprisoned in your own  personal reality 




Details | Narrative | |

Broken home

Remax can sale you a home but can't sale you happiness. I never visit the state of Georgia but things do get a little peaches. See this what happens when you eat finger food and take out orders. I never receive your Southern Hospitality/ I couldn’t even receive a  plate of food you cook/ you can finally see now when I walk away out your life forever I don’t even have a single word for you. Only thing you will receive from me is this middle finger. You was taught at young age to go to School and learn in Class. But surely class can’t teach you “CLASS”!!

 A moment silent   things were so quiet and  complicate in the beginning I thought we could have reconnect /But just like the chips to connect four they don’t always stay in the same order. You had play a handful of games and this when the “Battleship” games has to end. Now I hope you feel the water rise from your sinking ship and allow your tears to fumble into your lap.


Details | Rhyme | |

Black and White

You’ve maddened me to the core 
You singed me with your ferocious fire
We’re opposites… we’ll never integrate  
We can’t blend with each other…
Your love and I’m hate 
We’re contrary to each other…

So don’t even think about 
Getting us back together 
Because without a doubt, 
We don’t click with each other…

So let us go our own way…

Everything’s black and white
You love to torture me with your deceptive devices 
We’re playing this chess match – let’s fight!
Tonight, you’re going to pay the prices
You’re going to be deleted from my mind…

I’m not the one that should pay the price
You act as if you’re an angel from heaven
But, you’re a fiend…a devil from hell...who needs your advice?
Could someone unchain me from this prison?

So let us prepare for that day…

Fear and bewilderment build inside of our minds
Taking over us…we’re wasting valuable time
Terror and wrath injects into our veins…time starts to unwind 
I’m regaining my glory…this moment feels so sublime  

You think you’re innocent?
I can sense your guilt…bleeding through you
Do you live to feed me anguish? 
Don’t deny it…you crafty demon…no wonder I feel blue

Let’s get ready for battle…
I’ll watch you decay…
IT’S PAY BACK TIME . . .
Taste my fury and my agony 

Everything’s black and white
You love to torture me with your deceptive devices 
We’re playing this chess match – let’s fight!
Tonight, you’re going to pay the prices
You’re going to be defeated…

I scream before nightfall
I close my eyes to kiss my demise
I want to disappear 
Scratch away my desolation
Wipe away my tears…
Spewing out of my eyes…like a waterfall
Tonight, there will be dismay
There will be suffering 
After sundown…
Failure and glory will expose like stars in the midnight sky
Who will earn the crown? 
No one knows in silent wars – who can reveal the light in goodbye
  
Why are we black and white?
Are you too afraid to know the reason why? 

Everything’s black and white
You love to torture me with your deceptive devices 
We’re playing this chess match – let’s fight!
Tonight, you’re going to pay the prices
You’re going to suffer alone…


Details | Rhyme | |

A sudden Reply To Love-Call And Response-Collab

A Sudden Reply to Love - Call and Response SUDDENLY... by: Germaine Pasley Just a kiss just a touch Just a little too much Keep my love keep my heart Keep my mind for a start Hold me close hold me tight Hold me through the night Love me now love me free Love me nice and see How my love can suddenly Take a chance and be There's a place there's a time There's a beauty in our rhyme When I'm low when I'm sad When I'm lost or feeling mad You give me hope give me bliss Give me one tender kiss And I'm lost and I'm found And I'm claimed all around Love me now love me free Love me nice and see How my love can suddenly Take a chance and be Take a chance and be Suddenly... REPLY TO LOVE... by: Dan Kearley I'll take your kiss With your sweet touch I could never get enough With all your love in your sweet heart Has filled my mind right from the start I'll hold you close, and tender tight With flaming passion all thru the night My love for you now will always be Believe in me, and you will see How our love will suddenly Take a chance and be... With me Any place or anytime Our rhymes beauty will intertwine When your sad or feeling low Or just lost with no where to go I'll give you hope with a tender kiss Filled with passion, and with bliss If your ever lost you will be found For my love for you knows no bounds My love for you now will always be Believe in me, and you will see How our love will suddenly Take a chance and be With me...
A call and response poem collaboration :))


Details | Lyric | |

Lacerated Wings

They are bound to the Earth like trees
Suffocating under the weight of an icy grave 
Reaching to be free, but only their limbs are seen
Hoping that one day someone will see:
They can't escape with lacerated wings

The ocean surrounds me, covering everything
Nothing will be clearly seen; confusion overwhelming
No-one can save you, you're on your own, left to die
Manipulating every bleeding heart you can find
I can't escape with lacerated wings.

Swarms of nets, waves of screams 
Entangle: your captive illusions and dreams
The mask has be seared - The truth now they see
The Liar - Vampiric Fiend; lowly thief
And now they know you can't escape with Lacerated Wings

There's reasons for your rejections:
Your Heavy heart's transferred oppression
The scars are too deep to pass the trials
But you can find peace in your cage of empty spirals
You Cannot Escape With Lacerated Wings


Details | Haiku | |

Haikus About God: V

Omniscient guy
Yet he lets bad things happen
How can he exist?


Details | Free verse | |

Glisten in the Moonlight

Your glorious emerald eyes 
Glisten in the moonlight 
Glisten in the moonlight 
Delight dances in the water
I watch it joyfully
You are set free from the cage...
You're like a dove soaring in the sky
You are the rain...
drizzling down in ecstasy 
A hint of ecstasy is shown in your reflection...
When you caress me... I'm relieved... 
From the stress that forced me in chains
I knew we'd be on the brighter side of tomorrow 
We're glistening in the moonlight 
I knew we'd become candles in the heavens above us
We're glistening in the moonlight
For a moment, I felt your presence...your radiant with sympathy 
I saw at first glance the dark side of you
Tonight, we'll be together and fly through the horizon 
We'll watch the sunset say its last goodbye...
We'll wave a greeting at the moon! 
We glisten in the moonlight...
What if I was as handsome as the lion...
Roaring with pride and pure courage
What if we were glistening in the moonlight?
Would it bring health to our bones tonight?
Would it make our heart rejoice and overflow with delight?
Would we be able to survive this horrifying plight?
Would we be shimmering like a candlelight?
We're glistening in the moonlight... (6)
Ohh...yeah...ooh yeah...ooh yeahh...
We reach to the stars and hope we can trace a shooting star
I feel the coolness run down my fingers...
We're glistening in the moonlight
You're the dandelions in the fields
You're the gorgeous view that I marvel at everyday
When you kiss me, I live my dreams
We glisten in the moonlight
In a quick moment, I sense a feeling of endless renewal 
I roam inside of your illuminating maze 
Glow on... sunshine... 
Glow on...sunshine...
Glisten in the moonlight...
Listen to the truth and rub it in
You are ravishing like the sunset
But you're ascending while I'm descending
I feel extremely guilty
I wish I could glisten with you in the moonlight
You're glistening in the moonlight (6) 
Ohhh yeahh... oohhh yeahh... ohh yeahh
You're glistening in the moonlight (4)
We go our own way
I wish we can glisten like the moon
Glisten like the sun 
There's a dream concealed inside of me...
Reveal your light and pour it upon me
You glisten in the appealing moonlight
While I'm subsiding... you're fulfilling your dreams
Of gliding across the horizon 
You're independence... keeps on scorching with satisfaction
While I'm below you... 
Your emerald green eyes
Stared me down like a hawk...
Your emerald eyes
Gaze down at me genuinely...
I wish we could flee together in reality...
That could be a possibility
To glisten in the moonlight in glee
We were glistening in the moonlight (3)
But that was only a dream...
I'll pray that it turns into a reality
We were glistening in the moonlight 
Now, I've misplaced my delight...
Will I ever experience such a brilliant night?


Details | Lyric | |

ABSENT


An anniversary picture reaches for my hand dusting his charm reflected from window’s ray, his smile buoyant as air more clear than any sun recalling how my instinct felt he was the only one. We promised to link our lifetime eternal, and yet, in a click of time, he fell drained by some incurable strain hazing his memory; forgetting the warm love that knitted our arms… I cringe; dear life ,sanctify us from harm I pray his eyes reaching out, though living in another realm and this varnished portrait I now hold with tears cannot fade, cannot erase his smile bursting my veins. Here, in a room with cinders as coffee tunes, my flesh, thin flesh grows hungry, a bit angry about his world unknown to him and me : a jungle tested by stillness or steel… he remembers nothing of moments brewed in simple joys and discoveries, our bodies once locked on subways and parks, tongues livid with laughter popping shrieks darting on tall trees,giggling, giggling. i freeze... My black coffee freezes at the damn thought of other human arms embracing tight, not alone. I cling to my beloved, wishing I could give half of my mind to fill a space of his dementia. i close the door gazing at him, chair-bound…
i am absent today.
Frank H., What Would I Have To Give... by nette onclaud


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No Good Morning Sunshine

I lie awake thinking of the agony of it all. 
A hold ripped into my heart. 
The pain of loss and what might have been. 
How can there be life without life.

My stomach rots with pain. 
Love lost because of honor before desire.
Oh God, what is to become of me now.

I fear not death! 
I have already died a death worse than death. 
In death the pain of life comes to it's end.

Then what is this death with pain. 
A death knowing there will be no,
Good Morning Sunshine...

Edward J Ebbs - Summer 2006


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Elven Musing

The magic of the moment lost in fog
Retains a sinful wishing of itself
To sit beside a busy little elf and ask an inane question for the joy

To watch a quick confusion raise a doubt
As ageless pointed ears twitch curl annoyed
What was it I was thinking of before
I turned and saw this figure at my door?

Just standing oh so tremble and demure
And then she smile and I was lost, asea
To wonder where or whether I could be
So far adrift and lost as lost could be

Although the elf is laughing. full of glee
All is not really lost. She married me.


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Push Up

i could sit here. day in and day out
thinking of the most proper way
to let the ink in the pen spill out
but as of late im feeling prehistoric 
so much weight on my shoulders 
and i dont know where to go
resuscitate my soul
look back up and head to the goal

so much evil around. i feel like the devils workin double shifts just to bring me down.
on the road to redemption
you can take a seat up in the front section
just so you can feel the emotions
in this electric notion

i've done a lot of things that hide the halo
let it all collaborate when i medicate 
now look at me, mind workin like plato
formulate a new path to take so i can
maneuver through all the mistakes 
we all know we cant change what we've already made
but we can change the next thing we create
startin to sound like a serenity prayer
5 steps till im thirty
and the twenty four before i was never a player
found out when the lights came back on im strictly a lover
its the strongest drink for your soul, when its thirsty
so careful how much you intake or be left hungover
even worse be the one she ran over

i dont mean to come off like im too deep
but the obstacles made there way through just to scrape through
and leave me suffocating
just for me to re-invent a new way to breathe, re-decorating

is your life so complicated 
you rather wet up your pillows and revoke from the life you live
just think of your kids mourning 
theyll never see that pretty face in the morning any more
cheer your self up
you got a lot to live for
your a gem and im that friend
trynna appraise the value 
that you dont see inside of you


just another day for him
goin about
searchin wonderin what his purpose is
running in circles 
till he found a way through all the turbulence





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Haikus About God: III

Beauty of nature
Why condense it down to God?
Isn’t life enough?


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Garden Rose

Written August 21, 2013


There's a girl in the garden
She's messing with your rose bed
Plucking weeds out from your head
And watering the seeds in your bed

But where will she wander
When the roses are dead
Will she come back for more
When they turn back to red

She can run all alone
Write this story in stone
On concrete slabs
Of skin and bone


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Words of Life

Drowning in the pool of anguish…oh…oh…
I’m venturing into the forest…and I want to hear the words seep out 
Release these aching sorrows…I worry my soul’s drying out…
like a drought…
Drain out the fluids from my heart
It’s gouging me…bruising me to the core…

**chorus** 
Embrace the light…embrace the midnight sky…
You fall in my arms – you die so warm
Shed me more sun to lift up my spirits
From the…underground…and release me – I’m breathless
I’m drowning in doubt…ooh… oh… 


Remember me…I’m falling…into my swirling fate…hanging on the roots 
Strangling my heart…distorting in my veins… I’m bleeding so softly – cut out the wood…
Splintering me…I’m shattering… and I’m falling in the abyss
Bring me more radiance from my candle light
Warp me up in bliss…don’t let the midnight sky…don’t take away my delight
From the…ocean…and save me—save me…oh… oh…  I’m failing 

*chorus*

I’m drowning in regret…ooh..oh…
Hit the bull’s eye in my heart…embrace the light
And don’t leave me hanging in the abyss…hand me a kite!
Save me before I fall apart…shut out the night
And don’t let the dusk escape us…

I must confess…
I must confess…
I hate to see you abandon the light…
But I’m not the one to save you from the night
Ooh…ohh…

*Chorus* 

Splintering lies fill your heart 
I want to kiss it goodbye…
But you’ve mastered it like a piece of art
I want to kiss the abyss and die…
Dry… I wanna touch the sky with my whole soul
But I’m failing and the end of time has taken its toll
Tainted sorrow…swims around me…I dwell where the waters depart
But the anguish still swarms in my heart…
I’m failing…my heart stops beating
And my desires are fleeting
From my grasp
And the monsters laugh at me…as I fall… 

*chorus*

Embrace the midnight sky…catch me…catch me…
As I fall in death’s arms…I die so cold
And your heart is made of gold

Untangle the darkness & take away the nightmares 
Answer our prayers & block out the night 
Erase the heartaches & wipe away our tears
Unravel Your words of life & delight


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Haikus About God: IV

God made all people
But some better than others?
Stop being silly.


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Parachute love

Parachute love once was my aberration

 and shift into abrogation/ fell for a  talebearer which only told lies annoyed my every thought

   “Abrogation Aberration Destination” 

still spinning like a Fishing Rod. Fell to deep to soon in this exploration

” Fluctuate in Separate Directions”

 My EX-Parachute lover  once was my Best Friend and now became my  inconstant friend/


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It's Not Over

Don’t say it’s all over (cause it’s not)
“Sorry” won’t cover it…so don’t go on your knees and pray for my forgiveness 
Oh baby…don’t listen to the commotion…I’m done taking cover (it’s all for naught)
I’m plummeting in slow motion…into the remorseful pit…I’m plummeting in my nightmare’s abyss

I want to carry you through the night… 
I’m swimming in the ocean of my tears… 
My sodden wings lost its ability of flight…
You've been swimming in your distress for years… 

Shut up! Don’t say it...
Don’t even think of it (don’t even ponder it)
Hey! Don’t say it’s all over…though we’re breaking bit by bit 
‘Cause there’s more treasure to discover 

I want to remind you to fight the good fight…
My misery pools are brewing inside of my head…
I’m backing away from the light & exploring the night… 
You’re giving in to sleep and I’m wide awake on my bed 

Shut up! Don’t say it...
Don’t even think of it (don’t even ponder it)
Hey! Don’t say it’s all over…though we’re breaking bit by bit 
‘Cause there’s more treasure to discover 

Please don’t tell me…oh, don’t tell me…darling!
You’re giving up today… (I beg you to stay, despite your inner pain) 
I’m scared I might erupt – it could be quite startling!
Someday, things will change for the better… (Don’t turn the wrong lane)
I’m waiting for that day to arrive – perhaps it will wash away our dismay…

I promise you a tranquil reality 
I want to stray with you tonight 
I still have hope that He’ll set us free
I was wondering if you could stay the night
Maybe the Lord could grant us 
Pure, incredible delight 

Shut up! Don’t say it...
Don’t even think of it (don’t even ponder it)
Hey! Don’t say it’s all over…though we've plunged into our own pit 
‘Cause there’s more treasure to gather…


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Haikus About God: VI

The body: sacred
We’re all made in God’s image
Hence... circumcision?


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Pricked

Your  love pricks me like a rose each thorn grows but no one knows Your so full of 
it as it shows so carry on now go on, go. I'm fed up with the phony and  i'm 
through with the tears, you couldn't pay me all your money to make up for those 
years. Someone help me I feel faint how could I think he was such a saint and 
worst of all I let me fall into a spiral down below. A magic called love carried 
by the dove of someone I use to know.


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Nature's Sigh

The Black butterfly waves away her adorations
All she seeks is seclusion, subsuming slave to mortification
The Dear Air is all she can breath, captive of imaginary dreams
The Beacon resonates, but the hope isolates
The Wasteland's silky fingers caressing the virgin's face

So she is now, the covet of the damned
Programmed to every victim's pain
Carrying the weight of every sorrow
Drowning in wrongs she does not know
But paradise is at loss; she must go

Nature sighs after the bite
All my hopes fading
Don't look at me with those sorrowful eyes
How do you know exactly what I'm feeling?
I'm just the ghost flower passing by
And you can hear nature's sigh


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Lost In Thought

Now who would of thought the thoughts that would truly get the mind lost in fragile thought?
 So much on our known life, 
about unknown death when we laugh at others but at ourselves we really cry, 
in our very own hidden truth lies, 
amongst our own poeple who we defy, 
until we fight, 
for wrongs for personal rights, 
**** the darkness is what make us appreciate the light, 
I dont talk the talk nor do I walk the walk because I walk my talk while I swagger and swerve im my talks through these walks,
 Life can get so messy with death that its time for those of us here to grab the broom so God can mop,
 I live life to the fullest with what little I have because I dont have a lot, 
I live life shitty sometimes like almost everyone else like it or not, 
Im not special Im so unique Im individual with word talent I know I got, 
I know what I dont have so its important more knowledge among me is sought, 
I can be wrong half the time but can still make it 100% right I was self-taught among a young soul that seems to be bought,
 I got a bad limp but dont get me wrong I can still gallup through darkness while I jog lost in the early morning fog waiting to be patiently found in the midnight lounge where I trot,
 Truly lost so easily in profound hard thoughts litterally running from the cops waiting to duck and dodge from open gunshots,
 Bodies and shells drop where caskets are made among a dying crop, 
I can still make a splatter where there was just but a tiny dot, 
I used to have merely nothing now atleast I can truly say I have a safe spot, 
I was found looking for truth in lies lost in thought....


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Lost Years







For those we've met in life we've had some say,
Not why God introduced them there.
But whether we'd embrace, or back away,
Or permit leaving, trusting God for their care.

Between this separation and re-entry,
Passed a span of time counted as "Lost Years".
Missing days enumerated to a quarter century,
Yet, for us, were ensconced with love and fears.

As we now glance hinder, as if into a pool,
We weigh, if those lost years we could reverse.
Would years be found the same or less cruel;
Perhaps those imperative years were to rehearse?

So, our dear sister in Christ, rue not lost years,
For we feel God has put aside our best for last.
And as for sadness, let us bottle mental tears,
While basking in the goodness that He has cast.



The sum of our experiences have made us who we are today,




























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Isolation

How can I tell you?
I can't stay with you.

Neither I can give up on you.
Fear of losing you is losing me.
It feels like slow death every night.

But we are just stuck in our spaces!
Unable to connect from two feet distance.


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Summertime Re-Lyric

Summertime…and the livin’ is easy,                                                
Flowers growin’ and the sun’s sittin’ high.                                    
Your Daddy’s rich and your Momma’s so good lookin’;               
So hush, pretty baby…you got no reason to cry. 

One of these days, you’re gonna rise up smilin’.
Take a look around and think you’ve got it all.
You’ve got your Momma’s looks, all your Daddy’s money,
And all the boys in town are at your beck and call.

Summertime…and the livin’ is so easy,
Laughin’, singin’, havin’ so much fun.
No time to stop and think about your future
And what life will bring when your Summer’s  done.

‘Cause Summertime, it don’t last forever.
Breezes cool and the leaves begin to fall;
And in your quiet moments, you sit and wonder
How you've come so far, but have no love at all.

Yes, Summertime…and the livin’ was so easy; 
Ain’t it sad how fast the good times fly; 
And now your Momma’s looks and all your Daddy’s money
Another sweet, warm Summer’s day they cannot buy. 


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Reality Of Mind

The mind of the lost, is nowhere  inside.
Dreams of this twisted third eye.
Torturing images, no martyr could bear.
It's the craziness that evokes this primal fear.
Crazy in madness, a house of black cards.
A sand storm of terror, that pump the blood hard.
Fooled in this game, there is no win.
Welcome those feelings and let it all in.
 
How are you feeling? It's only inside.
How are you feeling? Is it burning your eyes?
How are you feeling? Lost and so blind.
How does it feel? In Reality of mind.
 
Chaotic is breathing, you feel yourself fall.
Slip from the grip of your reality's wall.
Awake in a nightmare, shedding red tears
Praying for sanity that no one will hear
Flesh is cold and dampened with sweat
your eyes in the demon are all that you fret.
Grasping at strings you pray that you'll live
The pay for you penance, one soul to give.
 
How are you feeling? It's only inside.
How are you feeling? Is it burning your eyes?
How are you feeling? Lost and so blind.
How does it feel? In Reality of mind.


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Hurt

I feel
Conflicted
Confused
Torn
You'd "Never hurt me"
You swore
I didn't think
I'd feel this way
Even now
I think of words to say
To describe
This odd pain
I'd liked you
That much is true
But it stopped there
So its not fair
For me to feel like this
So mixed

You moved on faster than I thought
It hurts to know how soon you gave up
I pretend
And say, "Let's be friends."
But was it all a lie?
The feelings you conjured up inside
For me?
The distant way you brush me aside
As cool as ice
I meant nothing to you
Did I?
It's just the same
I'm like a pawn in a chess game
No
You'd never hurt me
You're too blind to see
That you did
Constantly
"I'd never hurt you."
It's a line that's been reused
And I was a fool
For falling for that one too
Don't say it,
"I'd never hurt you."
It's cruel
Because in the end
You always do


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Years Gone By

Looking back on fading photographs
Of years gone by
Since those days the world has changed
But not for you and I 
The years that you have given me
Such precious moments shared
And never have you lost the love for me
You once declared 
The house that we have made our own
The fires we walked through
Through ups and downs, through tears and fears
Our love remained so true
The road was never easy
But never did we stray
The mountains and the hills that we have climbed
To find our way
The lonely days and nights I stood by you
When you were gone
We sacrificed, believed in love
And always we stood strong
But if I ever lost your love
My world would cease to be
I need you by my side
For without you, there’d be no me...




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I Can't Say It Without You

I was your never ending composer
We spent many a nights, and many an hour together
But now you’re lost inside
And I can’t find my way, again.

( chorus )
Cause I can’t say it without you		
It hurts to be without the feeling		
Never knowing when it will return		
But I know that you would stay with me	
If you came back, again some day		
But till then I’ll wait till you appear.	

I really miss the way you make me feel
People said we were meant to be together
Why’d you leave me so unexpectedly
I hope you come back soon.

( Chorus )

It’s been two months since I’ve written you
All I’ve got to show is crumpled bits of paper
The passion and creativity is now gone
So come back home so I can work it out.	


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Suddenly

Just  a kiss just a touch
Just a little too much
Keep my love keep my heart
Keep my mind for a start
Hold me close hold me tight
Hold me through the night

Love me now love me free
Love me nice and see
How my love can suddenly
Take a chance and be

There's a place there's a time
There's a beauty in our rhyme
When I'm low when I'm sad
When I'm lost or feeling mad
You give me hope give me bliss
Give me one tender kiss
And I'm lost and I'm found
And I'm claimed all around 

Love me now love me free
Love me nice and see
How my love can suddenly
Take a chance and be

Take a chance and be
Suddenly...


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The Pleas Within My Hallelujahs

Lord, a storm is raging- in our mist
Our nation suffers- with its twists
I know you see these roots of evil, don’t you?
We spend our time- getting ahead 
We’ve lost sight- of the blood you shed
With hope we raise our voice with Hallelujahs
Hallelujah, Hallelujah
Hallelujah, Hallelujah

There are children hungry- in our streets
The population- ignores the weak
But you send your angels in their mist, now don’t you
There are murders committed -in our land
It’s time for us- to take a stand
Please hear our pleas in these broken Hallelujahs
Hallelujah, Hallelujah
Hallelujah, Hallelujah

Reparations needed- for wicked deeds
Twas with sinful lust- evil bare its seeds
We need cleansing from immorality, please won’t you?
As we bend our knees- and bow our heads
We lay our plight- at your feet instead
Our prayers not lost within our Hallelujahs
Hallelujah, Hallelujah
Hallelujah, Hallelujah

The signs that you -are coming soon
Have been preached for years- with sudden doom
But with loving hands you’ll save your children, won’t you.
You’ll pluck your flowers from the weeds
Salvation winning over sinful deeds
With our faith we raise our voices in Hallelujah  
Hallelujah, Hallelujah
Hallelujah, Hallelujah

With humbled heart and meek attitude
We come to you, with our gratitude
And raise our voice with joyful Hallelujahs
Salvation bought with your blood depleted
Victory was won with death defeated
Your brides await the bridegroom, Hallelujah!!
Hallelujah, Hallelujah
Hallelujah, Hallelujah

Written for a Members Contest to write a lyric to the tune of Leonard Cohen’s “Hallelujah”
I decided to keep the Hallelujah’s in place because I think we need to hear more “Hallelujahs” in our world today. 
*No infringement intended on Leonard Cohen’s original verses of “Hallelujah”.  


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The Wishful Love Song

There was the night that I lost my love
Then I blamed it all on me
I broke into tears
It’s felt like I’ve been lost for years

This is a wishful love song
But I feel lonely all night long
This is a wishful love song
And I’ll sing this all night long

I wish so much 
That I could give a girl my heart
I want to remember what it feels like
To give a girl my all

This is a wishful love song
But I feel lonely all night long
This is a wishful love song
And I’ll sing this all night long

Sometimes I wonder what I did wrong
And why I’m not that strong
I’m asking God what I can do
To find a girl that will make me new

This is a wishful love song
But I feel lonely all night long
This is a wishful love song
And I’ll sing this all night long

I know I can’t fall too fast
And have another broken aftermath 
But I want to fall in love
And show her God above

This is a wishful love song
But I feel lonely all night long
This is a wishful love song
And I’ll sing this all night long 


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I Never Knew

I let you get away with some things
But, as I saw you go, my heart began to forlorn
You were in the light with me, 
But we both stepped out of the light 
And the darkness swallowed us whole
We corrupted each other…and now I long to be in His light

I never knew your bad side
Until the day you’ve forgotten me
I never knew your good side
Until the day you’ve spoken to me

My hands trembled…
But they remained tough
My heart stumbled upon regret
And I told myself that that’s enough
Sometimes, you uplifted me 
But, other times, you pulled me down to your own level

I never knew your bad side
Until the day you’ve forgotten me
I never knew your good side
Until the day you’ve spoken to me

You made me drink in your dismay
Every time I talk to you, you wanted me to pass away…
Vanish away…like the wind, spiraling around the place
You played your mind games all over again
And I always played along…and somehow, I was drawn to you
And now, I feel guilty for giving in to you 

I never knew your bad side
Until the day you’ve forgotten me
I never knew your good side
Until the day you’ve spoken to me

I should put a stop to this nonsense…for it has been a magnet of strife
I bet you never considered me in the first place…we never met eye to eye 
I should just pretend that you were never in my life
I get upset and I hide my face…I wish I knew the reason why
There’s a boulder between us…and it’s unbreakable…
I feel that I’m invisible…Oh God – are we both instable?

 I never knew your bad side
Until the day you’ve forgotten me
I never knew your good side
Until the day you’ve spoken to me

When I sat next to you at the library,
I felt you were kind and pleasant
When I sat next to you during the rally, 
I felt you were listening to every word I uttered
I wanted to act decent
Around you…but I felt resentment  
Towards the days that led me to loneliness 

I never knew your bad side
Until the day you’ve forgotten me
I never knew your good side
Until the day you’ve spoken to me
I’ve looked around to find you, 
But I was too timid to go up to you
I’ve hopped over the fire and I never knew
That I was too late to say goodbye to you 
But, there’s always tomorrow 
To say my greetings to you


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Empty Tissue Box

04/10/2013

Cry me a river he said, tell me something *****, why are you here? Crying and tearing up, blowing my nose, I still can’t understand how I ended up with this dome. Listen, listen, I plead, why do you do this to me? Can’t speak or breathe anymore the way I used to. The pain you instilled in me has got me gone. That empty tissue box in the corner of our room, it’s about five of those empty boxes full of my tears. Every night with those crazy hands, every day with those looks of yours. Over sized makeup bag to work, over done makeup on my face, and over sized love in my heart that I cannot erase. Lost two kids on the behalf of you. Lost my faith while dealing with you. I cried, I bleed, I almost seen my death bed. That empty tissue box has all my love and tears. That empty tissue box has finally erased my fears.  R.I.P to the lover I never really knew till I lived with you and only then I knew what an empty tissue box looked like.


Details | ABC | |

In your memory

Thank you for the beautiful memory
you left on my mind
you are not dead
 but you are not here,

to me you are gone,
cos i cant feel you the way i used to,
everything you used to do are left untouched
the space you ocupied is empty,

our yesterday is fading away like the rainbow
so beautiful but so short,
how can i forget the endless yesterday?
when you are here with me.


in loving memory of my sister (you are not an angel but you did what an angel can do,you fly to heaven.)


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Cancer

I can't believe I haven't posted this one. I wrote it last year, can't remember the exact date. Anyhow it's a song. ---------------- You know this world is cancer Without these prayers being answered It's been too long a ponder We wonder We wander Far from here Lost in fear Can you see them fall? You lose one you lose them all She's seen the cruel hearts of stone She's seen the cancer we've become So lost in worry we just fall down Underground we burn Till the last one's sure Can you see me fall? You lose one you lose them all Cut me out of this body! Cut me out of everybody! Grind me into little pieces! Tell them that I'm the reason- You know this world is cancer Without these prayers being answered It's been too long a ponder We wonder We wander Far from here Lost in fear Can you see me fall? You lose one you lose them all You lose one you lose. . . Them all


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Forbidden Love

I wake up thinking off you from the time I open my eyes till the time I shut them,
You’ve taken over me, binding me with chains that I can’t break through,
I feel I’m in a dream that I can’t wake up from,
I long to let go of you, but that would only crush me.

I see you everywhere I go,
Like a shadow the thought of you follows me,
I crave to get closer to you yet I know that our love is forbidden,
I must wake up from this dream and declare my forbidden love, before I lose my 
mind completely.

 I see you pass by me every day,
The most beautiful visage I have ever seen,
Your looks alone make me wonder whether I’m in heaven,
Or you’re just an angel that lives among us.

The mere sight of you makes my darkest day seem like a lost memory,
Your scent makes me sway into slumber I don’t want to wake up from,
Your voice rings in my head like a mystical instrument trying to entrance me,
You make me want to live inception and never come out.

Trying to let go of you makes me desire you even more,
Forcing me to walk a path with a dead end,
I’ve lost my mind completely; I can’t live without you any longer,
I shall declare our forbidden love to the world.

I’ve finally woken up from this dream,
I’ve broken the chains that your love had bound me with,
I’m a free man with a voice to declare his forbidden love,
But shall you accept it my dear?

Drowning in a whirlpool of emotions,
With my warm tears and the sounds of my screams to accompany me,
I’ve fallen back into the dream, but this time you’re not with me,
For you’ve shattered me into pieces, piercing me with a blunt knife the day you took 
my love and turned it into a joke.


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Starcrossed Tragedy

A Silent Night's Hunt for a Tigress so blunt, Left the Fiend dancing with my Thisbe's Cloack But where was She? Her Drenching blood is all I can see The Night of Sanguine, The Night of Rapture, Tonight was meant to be All Behold This Tragedy ran by Dark Energy, My Lost Lover's Plea A seed of what is to come, In this starcrossed Tragedy, For I can not live without you, My Pyramus, All I need, My reason to Breathe One sight of me bleeding away from reality, started this tragedy and with me It shall Grow The Pain wasn't enough for me, To Live on with me Love without consequence, The Damned Saint, The Angelic Demon The Darkness of the Sea, Carries away with me, In this Starcrossed Tragedy A Star traveling across the moonless Night Sky, In the mid-summer of Verona, Fell from her glorious light, I have lost my guide, My need for Life Every balcony I'll climb for you, Just to Caress you once more But now it is too Late, My Juilet Let the Poison Fill me My Body dyed In silence, Dipped in Paralysis, Forging the Will of God, Feigning the Clutches of Death, My Romeo I prithee to you, See past The Illusion, Caught in the Webs of Love's delusion A Dagger reached my heart once To see you martyr for our love A Dagger reached my heart twice The Pain wasn't enough for me, To Live on with me Love without consequence, The Damned Saint, The Angelic Demon The Darkness of the Sea, Carries away with me, In this Starcrossed Tragedy Once the Morning Retired from her weeping The sun shined into her eyes, then his Lifeless, their dream will live on Every Petal will be Avenged The Pain wasn't enough for me, To Live on with me Love without consequence, The Damned Saint, The Angelic Demon The Darkness of the Sea, Carries away with me, In this Starcrossed Tragedy


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Regaining power

Regaining Power.

He walks a lonely road, with his head there in the clouds
And he doesn’t even notice passing strangers
He’s been here ‘bout a thousand years forever all alone
And he’s always looking out for passing danger.

Invisible sometimes he feels, so he tries to seek the glory
As the child calls out in panic “I am here
They have taken all my power so my blossom will not flower
And all around I’ve built a wall of fear

But it’s his pain it is his game
As he prowls around his cage
He lives in vain, is he insane?
And fear ignites his rage.

The truth be plain, the lions mane is what he must acquire
The little boy he must regain his power
And tell the world “I’m here, I’m here” and feed the burning fire
It would take this much to open up his flower.


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Love In All The Wrong Places

The words I Love You taken to lightly misused guilt cross the mind of many.
Truth of the matter is I believe that she is lost.  The many paths she had chosen. Somehow, something happened and time seem to have just jumped from one point to another as she blames the world for her misdeeds that lead to something in life she wasn't able to understand.  She talked about change though need to focus on changing her ways.
Blurred out the words I Love You so much she's out of touch of her own personal life an how she should feel.  She's struggling with an emotional bond.  What she does isn't right but she believes her speed is all natural and we can't question her beauty.  Only sometimes when her attitude makes her so ugly you can't stand her presence.  She wants sympathy from others.  Attention hungry.  Just having a pretty face doesn't get what you need out of life she knows she needs to improve her inner beauty.  Though she has all the wrong answers. She believes Back seat of cars answer the questions needed allowing men to touch her soul, and her boyfriend wasn't any different, closed doors.
Many men know her past better than she does, small town girl wanting to be in the real world.  Body worn damages taken toll a nasty attitude spread even her so call friends seem to make excuses for her past.  It's the same story shared by them and compared.
Damages made, it was too late to save her because she blames the world around her along with the people that loves her. Whats next? She been passed around already and daddy's little girl never have been so little or innocent, just bent.  Confused, no understanding of her own life and a child hangs in the balance, as she cries wondering whats wrong with her.  Her short term relationships always suffers situation gets worst.  Protection kept close because her bed tells stories of so call love encounters.
Whats next? Who will be the blame for relationships gone wrong?  So many excuses made and love never played its role. Just spoken words, meaningless.  Just like the thoughts that come to her mind.  Times tells it proven facts.  The ones that cares are pushed away, she loves the pain she feels inside.  Holding her umbrella that rains, yet she smiles. Rain boots wet inside, shell grow up one day just praying time doesn't catch her looking for love in all the wrong places.


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Eyes and Oceans

Whoever said 
open eyes betray emotion
never knew them
closed.

For, love is
an ocean 'til the rivers
feeding it give up the
ghost.

I stand huddled
at this puddle, puzzled,
foot nuzzling the
coast.

No ghost or
god of old pages boasted
could sing these hollow
notes.


Details | I do not know? | |

Lost love but I want u back

Lost love, I lost love you lost love and were both hurting. Let's just be like forget it and give up. But no I will life u and I the best I can. I lost u but I love you more then anything in this world. I'm not over you. You changed my life and I gave up on us i love you still I hope u see this and see how much u many to me. I love you and our lost love.


Details | I do not know? | |

Where Wild Violets Grow

Where Wild Violets Grow

Scribbling these verses,
caressing your bare back,
simple rhymes,
flowing from my fingertips.


Scribbling verses,
sprinkling odes to fragrant promises,
your smile lightens the burdens,
off my heavy heart.


Scribbling verses,
soaked in countless kisses,
the moonlight waltzing on your skin.


Scribbling verses,
feeling you,
your love never ceases to flow,


through the streams of my mind,
to a place of our own,
where wild violets grow



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celsius

Fallen snow will remind of me/ it is snowing ... 
Slowly as in the dream/ 
Boy word-beads/ with signs on his spine/ 
He kisses fine/ 
Your eyelids /

And it snows ... It snows /so slow/
It does/ and you're thinking of me/ 
'Coz it's warm/ it's better to stay in warmth/ 
Waiting for summer dim/ 
It is snowing/ slowly like in the dream/ 
Flakes/ go round/ playing the music theme/ 
You've been looking for rescue/ 
You searched in wine/ 
But it's in me/ 
all the rescues are mine/ 
It is snowing/ the snow is fluffy and white/ 
If you see darkness/ I'm deaf and blind/ 
there's the cast of time/ on the arm/ 
But I discern the light/ 
Dreams/ upon your eyelids tips/ 
Prepare you for winter drowse/ 
And it snows/ 

Fallen snow/ will remind of spring /
it will crumble and crackle in vain/ 
It will snow / fluffy /white/ and slow/ 
And you'll become whole/


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JUST BE

                          

                                            JUST BE


I have been through courts, I have been through divorce,
I have come up short, I have seen real support.

I have lost many friends, some of them to death,
But others were lost , to a lack of respect.

I have spent a lot of time alone, no one by my side,
The ones I have loved the most, are those that have died.

I have lost many lovers, I miss how they have held my hand,
They judged me as a man, not for who I am.

I am plagued by mental illness, some call me crazy,
Others just look at me and say I am fat and lazy.

I have been pushed around ever since I was a baby,
I used to cry alot, but lately I have been angry.

I am merely a man, I know I am nothing special,
But we are all special , our soul and our vessel.

Never forget that you will set yourself free,
And you will be able to be whatever you want to be.


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In the Spider's Web

I am a spider
amused that you have become ensnared
in my web of lies.
My talent is manipulation-
I play you as easily as a puppet
dangling from my power hungry fingers.
Hungry, yes-
I feed off these lies.
The quicker you fall, 
the more satisfaction I feel.
I am a spider
and you are my pray.
You do not realize you are a victim
until you are bound and broken
my teeth at your neck,
How foolish do you feel 
as the venom courses through your veins?
Does this make me a monster,
Nothing more than a barbaric creature?
Relying on primal instincts,
I hunt for facts
and gather the truths,
smuggling them away 
and replacing them with 
Picture-perfect facsimiles engulfed in deceit.
Have I performed the greatest trick of all?
Or have I lost myself in my web?
Each fragile strand threatens to snap,
to unravel my illusion
and reveal the truth masked within,
leaving me exposed,
vulnerable and naked.
I have lost myself:
A victim of my own design.


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Numb

I feel numb
                        To believe you liked me was dumb
I can't complain
                         I got what I deserved
I feel so unnerved
                         It's like a bad dream
Someone wake me up 
                          Please
I'm lost, 
                         Help me
Who can I trust?
                         I have to realize that life just sucks


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Drifting Mainly

You belong to me mate 	 ( Intro )
And that be that!
Get on board
And grab your hat!

The ship was aghast at its new passenger	( Verse )
Like disdain for the lives that they now left behind,
Newcomers were scarce 
And they never would last
But I held up my chin nice and high.


The bloke who took me screamed	( Pre-chorus )
“Mop up the deck we’ve got things to do!” 
But I said sir, 
I’m just a boy and don’t know what’s to do.

And he said		( Chorus )
“Drifting mainly
Sailin the shores
Taking what’s mine 
And leaving what’s yours
Cause you know, we ain’t dead yet.”

Taking the seas for more than eight moons
We found islands and loot
That was bigger than most.
The taste of sea air 
With its wind in my hair
Took me away to this new life I lead.

After mopping the deck 
He grabbed my hand and screamed
 “Steer this ship boy!”
But I said sir,
I’m just a lad and don’t know where to go.

So the crew yelled	( Chorus )
“Drifting mainly
Sailin the shore
Taking what’s mine 
And leaving what’s yours
Cause you know, we ain’t dead yet.”

Surprising to me 
Was my unshaven face
The captain looked on 
And smiled with grace,
We stopped at a place 
Where the women were loose and didn’t mind
If we took a peak.

He said “Now you’re a man so let’s get on that boat,
We got places to be and some people to rope,
So grab that sword and drop that mop
Cause you’re no longer a boy in my eyes.”

I practiced the duel with the men in the crew
The captain took eye to my devilish pride,
And he took me aside and said 
 “Even in death I’m gonna miss you boy 
But don’t let it strike you 
Or kill your spirits
Cause even time can beat out the Grim.”

Then in the darkness came fire and screams,
Our vessel had stopped after fourteen years,
The crew fought hard and beat most of the men
But now, my Captain was dead.

We took the new ship watching ours sink deep
Saying goodbye to our drowning escape,
The crew turned towards me and asked
“What do we do?” and I smiled,
And they did to.

And we yelled    ( Chorus )
“Drifting mainly
Sailin the shores
Takin what’s mine
And leaving what’s yours
Cause you know, we ain’t dead yet.”


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For Bruce Springsteen

for bruce springsteen...


it was a rain-swept monsoon day

way back then, so many moons away

when i felt the music strumming in my veins

setting me free like a runaway horse without any reins

you sang of simple truths, 

your verse spoke to people just like me

in my lonely, wasted, and desolately quiet night

as you screamed out tragic human wrongs, and of everyone's plight

'bobby jean' spoke to me

of that girl down the street

glimpses of whom, we as innocents would furtively meet

and 'the river' that flowed through my ever-barren heart

led me down further roads of thunder

when slowly i finally learnt that the hardest part was fighting on

and never to surrender

to the hard-luck dreams that were born to run

while i danced in the dark 

with memories vivid and stark

even as i whined like that dog who for forever lost his howling bark

and then a 'human touch' came along

and 'better days' seemed real, not just words in a song

and still you sang and swayed and spoke straight into my unseeing eyes

as gardens of secrets were opened, and as your fist punched the skies

in an anger that i too felt and in whose cauldron i too burned

as we saw murder get incorporated, while on its wobbly axis, our fragile world apathetically turned

and then suddenly i was told that i was all grown up

working on a highway of scattered ideals

and absolving myself by sprinkling some coins in a waiting cup

well, after all these years of walking along so many a thorny road

with an armour of your verse covering me, even as i hear them taunt me and even as they continue to goad

but now i can feel myself fading away, into the bleakness of this coming night

just like the ghost of that old tom joad...


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The Land of Sophia

Escape the tort of our avarice world Defy the ones who shift the blame Deter the decadence forgetting shame Freedom is on the top of the bare eyes Beyond the consciousness of The Human Kind Search harder and then you'll find The Land of Sophia Dwelling past are needs Swirling around our bare minds Our wants polluting out sight the Land of Sophia is lost at night Are the Lies held worth it in time Only embracing The Veil of Logic The Truth is cast into shade where all vices are soon to be made For all of our dreams and dramaticies The Destruction Star poisons seas Far from This Galaxy among the stars I can see myself, And The One I've became Escape the tort of our avarice world Defy the ones who shift the blame Deter the decadence forgetting shame Freedom is on the top of the bare eyes Beyond the consciousness of The Human Kind Search harder and then you'll find The Land of Sophia Dwelling past are needs Swirling around our bare minds Our wants polluting out sight the Land of Sophia is lost at night Caught in our lust, of forgetting trust I wonder can we break free of bound forever in the clutches of Lilith's Love Eden's Heart Who's desperate For Love Who's desperate For Light yet wallows in Blight and chooses to wait--forevermore The wait in Summer--An Eternity Lilith's Love Eden's Heart Escape the tort of our avarice world Defy the ones who shift the blame Deter the decadence forgetting shame Freedom is on the top of the bare eyes Beyond the consciousness of The Human Kind Search harder and then you'll find The Land of Sophia Dwelling past are needs Swirling around our bare minds Our wants polluting out sight the Land of Sophia is lost at night We don't chose what's right I can't believe we are able to see this far Crawling in Shadows Never will breath find it's light Escape the tort of our avarice world Defy the ones who shift the blame Deter the decadence forgetting shame Freedom is on the top of the bare eyes Beyond the consciousness of The Human Kind Search harder and then you'll find The Land of Sophia Dwelling past are needs Swirling around our bare minds Our wants polluting out sight the Land of Sophia is lost at night
**Mark Jansen, Guitarist, Male Vocals, and main songwriter of Epica**


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HARD TO SEE

                                                                   Water In My Eyes

It’s hard to take off, when you’re left grounded.  Something lost I can’t find it.
 I can’t see my way anymore, I need a guide

                                               “Hard to see with water in your eyes”

A feeling that comes over you, it comes and goes 
Often now putting me to my knees, a thirst for knowledge has grown.
Interpretations given to me, I want to fly but I’m stuck on the ground is what I realized.
I can’t see my way anymore, I need a guide


                                                “Hard to see with water in your eyes”

You carry those you lost and offer you in their place, all you have are the memories a heart ache, a still picture of their face. Quest for knowledge you have shown, you can only save yourself when it’s time to kneel at the thrown. Interpretations given to me, still unable to fly I can’t see my way anymore, I need a guide


                                                      “Hard to see with water in your eyes”

Arms out reached in front of me, waiting for a touch back to assist and help guide me, I know your there even in the open air, as the breeze passes by pushing out the water in my eye.
 Looking to the sky before it drips drops and it freezes. As u notice only your sign the one only you can see. If you found it it’s meant for you to continue to believe. Before you know it you’re looking up into the sky. You see clearly through a dry eye. No more needs God has heard you and now he will guide you.

Walking a set path try to live a life right. God will always give you your way of sight.
Keeping faith is all for just such a reason. It’s nice to see through all life’s seasons. But almost daily it gets blurry and things change size.







                                                      “Hard to see with water in your eyes”
                                                                                 By Paul J Williams Sr
                                                                                 


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Emmanuel

Emmanuel

When you were mine
The stars they shone so bright
I’d hold you close 
It was such sweet delight
To feel your heart
As it beat into my soul
You changed my life
And made me feel so whole

But now you’re gone
I cry so many tears
I'm like a baby
Because you are not here
Just like a river
That rushes to the sea
These tears they flow from me.

24 November 2013 @ 1545hrs.


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Why my heart ponder

Why my heart ponder?
I, your offender..
What I gave?
Dark love in a cave...

I promised you a thousand lands
Didn't give enough sands...
Changing me and my love,
Hiding behind the black scarf..

Hiding me I couldn't speak,
Feared losing in a streak.
This was my only reason
But turned my passing season..

Now I rattle,

As a foolish cattle
Leaving your land and cheese,
Yet to find me some peace...


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our love

our love has come and gone
just like the freshly played melody of our song
though i cannot lie
i will sigh
to you i will say a final goodbye
our love has faded away
like a breeze on a hot summers day
our love has gone out of fashion
and its time to move on
because our love has come and gone
like the faded memory of our song
and with a sigh
to you i say a final good bye


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Dear my heart

Where is your home, my heart?
Why are you silent?
We went through many things.
We were living life.
We lost the last that we have gotten
But still there is no end.

You are confused, my heart.
I feel it.
There are so many roads which
Lie before but only God
Does know which one will lead to
Paradise, and which one straight to hell.

Where is your home, my heart?
I’d love to know where to go.
Who is for us?
Who will protect us?
Who will help to find the way?

We forgave so many people, heart.
So many things we left undone.
We split into the pieces our vision.
The life that is unclear we gave up.

You are not broken, heart.
You are not tired.
I feel you beat still in my chest
But why all the time are you so silent?
Why are you so afraid?


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Dreamer's Disease

Written August 5, 2011


Why don't these constellations follow me
Smash-up mercy disease
When you go outside to find the light
In the middle of a cold dark night
Is when I'll ask if all your dreams are dying out

You only got one dance left to rid this dreamer's disease
Hey you over there
Do you give up more than you give
All my friends keep breaking down in two
Is there really any reason to live
When you can only get as much as you give

Davey lives at the end of the sea
So sink on down and look him up for me
And when the curtain's falling
Morning's calling
Won't wake up you got the dreamer's disease
Won't wake up you only get what you give


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A Sudden Reply to Love - Call and Response

SUDDENLY...
by: Germaine Pasley

Just a kiss just a touch
Just a little too much
Keep my love keep my heart
Keep my mind for a start
Hold me close hold me tight
Hold me through the night

Love me now love me free
Love me nice and see
How my love can suddenly
Take a chance and be

There's a place there's a time
There's a beauty in our rhyme
When I'm low when I'm sad
When I'm lost or feeling mad
You give me hope give me bliss
Give me one tender kiss
And I'm lost and I'm found
And I'm claimed all around 

Love me now love me free
Love me nice and see
How my love can suddenly
Take a chance and be

Take a chance and be
Suddenly...

REPLY TO LOVE...
by: Dan Kearley

I'll take your kiss 
With your sweet touch 
I could never get enough 
With all your love in your sweet heart 
Has filled my mind right from the start 

I'll hold you close, and tender tight 
With flaming passion all thru the night 
My love for you now will always be 
Believe in me, and you will see 
How our love will suddenly 
Take a chance and be... 
With me 

Any place or anytime 
Our rhymes beauty will intertwine 
When your sad or feeling low 
Or just lost with no where to go 
I give you hope with a tender kiss 
Filled with passion, and with bliss 
If your ever lost you will be found 
For my love for you it knows no bounds 
My love for you now will always be 
Believe in me, and you will see 
How our love will suddenly 
Take a chance and be 
With me...


A call and response poem collaboration :))


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Lost

Lost feeling all this oppression, I know the Devils right behind me... I can feel him breathing down my neck. Running away from sin following God's voice keep him in my heart turning depression to rejoice.  I feel I'm losing control so i get down on my knees and pray for my soul, I still dont know all the things i have to do or where i gotta go counting on Christ to lead me. he will always guide me, instead of running and hiding i'll stand firm right beside him. I got alot to say with God speaking thru me, im an example and im glad he chose me. He lived and died on a tree arose three days later and in heaven hes residing, abiding listening to his will sanding on his path and thats where im gonna chill, Let me be real take a second to explain how im feeling and not dealing with the devils games he tries playing. I left him behind cuz i ran him over just the other day yea i like it that way.

When im Lost feeling all this depression, I know Jesus will lead me in the right direction... Count on him the bible gives you the instructions, he will take your fear away he aint playing now.. 

When im Lost feeling all this depression, I know Jesus will lead me in the right direction... Count on him the bible gives you the instructions, he will take your fear away he aint playing now.. 

I have a God who sent his son and took the stripes, he Paid the price for my life, a price he didnt have to pay but he loved us so much he couldnt let us die... Jesus you took the weighgt and you put it on yourself, theres no greater love then to lay down your life for your friends. and you did it for me even though im undeserving and I wanna thank you so much. Everytime I fall you open my eyes and show me where I went wrong, you have forgiven me and I have another chance to teach the things you taght me. Lord I am your vessel please use me to your will help me to do the things for which im called let me hear you voice through the Holy Spirit Lord, reach down and touch me.

When im Lost feeling all this depression, I know Jesus will lead me in the right direction... Count on him the bible gives you the instructions, he will take your fear away he aint playing now.. 

When im Lost feeling all this depression, I know Jesus will lead me in the right direction... Count on him the bible gives you the instructions, he will take your fear away he aint playing now..


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End It

End It
By: IzaDonna

My demons crouch real low
Seeping out of me real slow
The pain protectively covered
Darkening memories like no other
But I hide behind a smile
This life not seeming worth while
The blade I have is ready to go
Life already being at an all time low
So bring on the darkness
i no longer have a purpose

Chorus
I push you away to protect you
My sickness n pain being nothing new
So save yourself from my sorrow
Cause I won't live to see tomorrow
You deserve someone better
So let me be and go find her

Loneliness is my own choice
Feeling so lost with no voice
So I let each day slip by
Everyday just wanting to die
What have I become
Where did all this pain come from
Being left alone is my desire
The spark going out in my fire
My days I feel are at an end
Too far gone to possibly mend

Chorus

So bring on the darkness
I've lost my purpose


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Love and hope

Love and hope
-Nikhil Chandwani
In the frosty of an ancient first light
That lazily lingers on;
Love, will give you hopes

In the middle of an intense storm
That trees you tattered and worn;
Love, will give you hopes

Even while your tears fall like rain
And your sour soul screams aloud
And you believe there’s not anything missing to gain
As you walk lost in a crowd…

Love, will give you hopes.

When your heart begins to break
And you think, “No more can I take,”
Love, will give you hopes..

When need outweighs your means
And you have not anything left but dreams;
Love, will give you hopes.

Even while your tears fall like rain
And your sour soul screams aloud
And you feel there’s not anything left to gain
As you walk lost in a crowd…

Love, will give you hopes


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life journey

On the ground, we wander around
Places near and far
Up in the air, the head’s despair
Of all thoughts inner bound
It’s plain to see, where we want to be
Visualized in our minds
Following the source, maintaining ones course
The path we truly believe


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Almost

Almost have I reached the sky
Almost did I catch the fly

Almost have I done it well
Almost gave I soul for sale

Almost was I ‘the best’
Almost was I not ‘the rest’

Almost have I lost my path
Almost was I in wrath

Almost did I use the knife
Almost have I lost my life

‘Almost’, why you persecute me?
‘Almost’, can I get rid of thee?


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My Answered Prayers

My life has never been easy.
I was once a lost soul. 
Until that one special day when
his angel wrapped her wings around me with 
a tight hold.
She flew me through sky and guided herself 
through the lives of others.
Other lost souls that is.... and slowly
made my sorrows disappear.
Relinquished my fears and 
replaced them with love. 
We flew like soaring doves.
Finally, we came to a stop. 
And it's all my sorrows that I forgot.
She whispered in my ear...
All the words I needed to hear. 
In that instance I began to cry,
not for me...
but for the other lost souls who needed that same ride.


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Dard

"Badi Tassalli Se Toda Tha Tumne hamara Dil.
Hum Aaj Bhi Mohabbat Nahi Kar Paaye."


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I walk the way


A snail's pace and diminished grace,
seeking escape from their embrace,
down with lost respect,
your foray,
keep me at bay,
erase dismay, 
before I turn gray,
I hope for a better day,
I walk the way

You say I may have lost it finally,
say I am disturbed unusually,
does it scare you to see,
your warnings and ideas I disagree,
say I need to let free,
is it my nature to stand like a tree?
When You cut my branches and flee,
your ignorance and fray,
your cocaine my dismay,
coat me all you may,
before I turn gray,
I hope for a better day,
I walk the way

Upsets you that I don't follow,
take your beating and feel hollow,
why don't i belong?
To your valleys of poison and tag along,
can't miss my bus half-long,
haven't I waited too long?
Your virtues and display,
of your vices go astray,
I no more pay,
to your lust for foray,
your direction a cliche`,
mock me all you may,
before I turn gray,
I hope for a better day,
I walk the way
                   
Do you cry,
when I defy?
Your limitations and prey,
on your brilliance you say,
cloud me all you may,
like a star I shine from far away,
blind me with your way,
like a tornado I blow you away,
ignore me you say?,
like the tides I wash you away,
ice me all you may,
like a volcano I will melt your bones away,
boot me all you may,
before I turn gray,
I hope for a better day,
I walk the way


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I AM ALONE

I am alone, you are alone,
Come across and started crying,
Coz, pains were alike,
Sedative to each other….

Smiling at you, amusing at you,
Leaving my soul with you,
Make sunrise from your nights,
Leaving my depth with you….

Loving you was a fate, 
Every time makes me pleased,
But! Why it happens?
Why you are so far…?

A few sorrows are filled,
A few are empty.
You too are miserable,
M too answerless….

My every expression queries you,
Do I really need you..?
Lesser is the lane, so is the heaven,
Is kismet brings us close….!!

Why you break me, my trust?
Is that hunger, relies on you..?
I found paradise on you,
Forsaking me alone, alone and alone….



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Awakening

I gave you no boundaries for all that I had...
I joined you in quest of your dreams
I unwisely allowed you to move in with me...
but you took everything to extremes
You left me not even one keepsake...
you had to exploit all it seems
So you finally reduced me to nonentity...
but you've lost too with your selfish scemes
I once possessed many luxurious things...
a home and a fancy sports car
My left hand proudly sported a bright diamond ring...
that shimmered like a twinkling star
I naively gave you a heart full of love...
you gave me an invisible scar
You're careless; you're thoughtless; you're selfish...
I hate it but can't change who you are
It's safe to say we've hit rock bottom...
and I for one don't like the views
You cannot get blood from a turnip, they say...
as you know we don't have much left to lose
Through thick and thin I have stood by you...
so I will say that I've paid my dues
But I never once received what I needed from you...
though I begged you, you simply refused
I'm appalled I allowed your careless discount...
for all I held important to me
At first I lost only possessions...
then you cost me my family
It's hard to believe I was so blinded by you...
that I honestly chose not to see
You were completely erasing all that I was...
the very essence of me
I'm at last weary of being a prisoner...
engulfed wholly by your sinister cell
So now quickly, before I'm completely dissolved...
by those ravenous waves you expel
I'll frantically climb Jacobs ladder...
to be free of this self imposed Hell
"Get thee behind me, Satan" ...
for I'm nolonger under your spell
I'm now going to wipe clean the canvas...
of this girls life you tried so hard to crush
and as Leonardo da Vinci has done...
I'll take in hand the artists brush
and with the palette of my bleeding heart...
from whence all my hopes and dreams gush
I'll repaint the masterpiece I was s'posed to be...
though sadly tis faint now my youthful blush.


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Bruises

Bruises
By: IzaDonna

Surrounded by darkness
Emotions hidden away
Bruises disguised with smiles
Never would think it
That my past still haunts me
The scars still completely cover me
I hide them so you can't see
I'm really not at all okay

Chorus
The bottles eases the pain
The dust numbs the ache
Can I ever just forgive?
Instead up building up this hate
I just want to find peace
I want my smile to be real
But its hard to do so
When I can no longer seem to feel

Frightening dreams keep me awake
Forever replaying in my mind
Life seems to be so much longer
This winding road so much harder
Can I just get a release
Beat these inner demons and be free
Or do I have to be forever cursed
With the ghosts of the past

Chorus

I look up at the stars
And close my eyes tight
Its time for last good-byes
Its time to end this tonight
I take one last chug
And fall to the ground
Take one last gasp
And then no longer make a sound

Chorus

I'm finally okay


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Lovely were Those Days

I dream of lovely days,
The day I met you,
The chat we had, the love we shared
Jubilant were those ways.

The moment you called me up, 
Delicious was the tea,in my cup
Terrified were I, shocked and shiver,
Rattled with the waves of happy river.

We talked night and the day,
So much to talk, so new to know,
Sitting by the beach or the bay,
Cuddling by the chilling snow.


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EYE Don't See -Part 3-

My eyes
Witness your departure
My eyes
Are dripping with hopelessness…
My eyes start to blur…
Melancholy put me under pressure…
Is there a cure to my disease? 

You don’t see
The shards of hope that once brought us back together
Just let me search for safety
I’m strong enough to realize that I’m no longer
The weakest prey out there…

And I’m left in my solitude…
Do you hear me whimpering like a distraught puppy left on the train tracks?

I’m close to my demise…save me and take me home

Nourish me…and be my beloved friend

Will this friendship last forever?

Hopefully it has no end

Will this cheerful moment help us get along with each other?

Because of you…I feel the need to run 
I keep an eye on you – I worry that you’ll hurt yourself again
Because of you…My freedom is nearly gone
I don’t wanna be caught off guard again
Because of you…EYE can’t picture a solution for our vexing dilemma 
Because of you…eye can’t focus on my long-term goal 

And I’m left in my solitude…
Do you sense that I’m giving in to failure? 
And I’m close to my demise…
Only to find myself disappear…I can’t endure 
The hardships that you place upon me…
Could you boost up my confidence to overcome 
My atrocious anxiety? 

I’m just waiting for some sun
To keep me in good hands…
To strengthen me with perseverance …
I’m just waiting until His son
Leads the world outtah Egypt and reveals to us…
His radiance…His dazzling Kingdom – 
Vibrant with glee

Your undying sympathy dawns upon us
I’m overflowing with indescribable joy  
You’re a candle in the night…
We meet eye to eye…
What a sight…what a precious sight


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Time's Up

I don’t know how to tell you
How I really fell
Too scared to hurt your feelings
To say it aint real

I’ve tried to say many times 
But you just won’t listen
To the truth that haunts me now
Not to say is a crime

You see

I’m fed up of falling for
Your sweet talk lines
I don’t want to be with you
I’ve shown you all the signs

Your time is up now
We just won’t work
Please don’t come back around
Not again

Time’s up

I’m sorry if it hurts you
But I can’t help it
This is how I truly feel
It’s time to be true

I don’t have love in my heart
When I look right at you
I just don’t feel the same way
I need a brand new start

You see 

I’m fed up of falling for
Your sweet talk lines
I don’t want to be with you
I’ve shown you all the signs

Your time is up now
We just won’t work
Please don’t come back around
Not again

Time’s up

You’re out of luck
I’ve had enough
I’m out of love
And this is tough

I’m fed up of falling for
Your sweet talk lines
I don’t want to be with you
I’ve shown you all the signs

Your time is up now
We just won’t work
Please don’t come back around
Not again

Time’s up
Time’s up
I said your
Time’s up


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Close Your Book

Close out your open book of love, life and the past. Go ahead laugh at your mistakes, you can’t change them.

The lessons are in the problems made, don't be enslaved by your pain, there’s nothing gained.

Forgive those who made it so hard to be forgiven, their living, moving on without looking back all smiles while you’re all tears.

Don’t be overcome by despair or grief, letting go is your relief of dreams, love and happiness, to pursue peace, to be satisfied with yourself. 
Learn to love yourself.
A mission made alone leave room for open thoughts and your tears are born free, cleansing the soul of impurities of the heart, where compassion starts to grow. Moving towards the sunshine that sets in the eyes.

Chapters read, pages turned of life, love, loneliness, lost hope of dreams, dreamt so pleasant.

Hell bent. Could never been heaven sent or thoughts heaven spent. Pain never the same three times past. It won’t last, healing is a process. In time a finer wine.  Bitter sweet.
What is the material of love made of?  Left overs when pain is manufactured.

What’s left?

A side road open by pain, a next chapter to be made. 
A lesson learn, when does a new life gets a turn? And when do we get to turn the pages of time to look back and close our eyes to dream of lost dreams of rainy days and happiness.
Chapters read seems endless, books of the past to be closed learning to deal with things, letting go. 

There will be a happy ending!


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Comin' soon....

Hard to tell the difference,
Between the truth and the lies these days.
The lines are all gone between the right and the wrong,
But I'm tellin' you, somebody got to pay!
Did you ever get the feelin',
Like they're cookin' up some kind of master plan?
The devil's in the details, in their tone of voice,
And I'm tellin' you, in their sleight of hand!

  Can't believe those nice guys been tellin' us lies,
  And callin' it the truth!
  We've gone too far to get back, to where we got off the track
  And we got lost in their view.
  But it won't be too long 'til the end of the song,,
  But will we ever change our tune?
  'Cause it's played and it's played, 
  Now it's startin' to fade all the colors in the room.
     And I say "Woah, Lord, I feel it comin' soon"
     And I say "Woah, yeah, I hope you're makin' me some room!"

Now they say we're fighting terror, 
Hell, that's a fight I'd like to see!
We'll stumble and fall, reduced to a crawl,
We'll be unable to proceed!
Sift through the pieces, for rhyme or for reason,
For some sense of it all.
It's there, I swear, in the madness we share,
But, you know, I never heard it fall.

  Can't believe those nice guys been spoon-feedin' us lies, 
  Coated in the truth!
  We've gone too far to get back, to where we got off the track,
  And we got lost in their view.
  But it won't be too long 'til the end of the song,
  But will we ever change our tune?
  'Cause it's played and it's played, 
  Now it's startin' to fade all the colors in the room.
     And I say "Woah, Lord, I feel it comin' soon"
     And I say "Woah, yeah, I hope you're makin' me some room!"


Hard to tell the difference between the truth and the lies these days.......


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Litany of Decay

This is for Litany of Decay

All hope tonight is just a void
Th cure was lost so long ago
But I still dream you will lie  next to me
Though you gave up on me so long ago

I miss the way the pain made me forget
I miss the way the pain made me Lose all misery

All hope tonight is just a void
Th cure was lost so long ago
But I still dream you will lie  next to me
Though you gave up on me so long ago

I miss the way the pain made me forget
I miss the way the pain made me Lose all misery

All hope tonight is just a void
Th cure was lost so long ago
But I still dream you will lie  next to me
Though you gave up on me so long ago

I miss the way the pain made me forget
I miss the way the pain made me Lose all misery

Your love was never meant for me
Nothing I was when you met me
Nothing I was when you left me
Nothing I am as I destroy myself

I must Live to face another day
To sing this damned litany of decay
My heart beckons for the grave
But there is no escape
So I sing this litany of decay
Don't mind me as I fade

Dance with me under the light of the moon
And sing to about my doom
Serenade me with an epitaph 
So I might feel what it's like to truly die

I see your face, it takes all the pain away
But you suddenly fade into the darkest of shade

Your love was never meant for me
Nothing I was when you met me
Nothing I was when you left me
Nothing I am as I destroy myself

I must Live to face another day
To sing this damned litany of decay
My heart beckons for the grave
But there is no escape
So I sing this litany of decay
Don't mind me as I fade

Living is suffering
Homicidal with you
Suicidal without you
I understand if you give up on me

The burden will fall
Today I might, today I may
Set you free, from me 

Your love was never meant for me
Nothing I was when you met me
Nothing I was when you left me
Nothing I am as I destroy myself

I must Live to face another day
To sing this damned litany of decay
My heart beckons for the grave
But there is no escape
So I sing this litany of decay
Don't mind me as I fade


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Lunar Love

Can this ever stop The world is blacked by the lunar love All the tides have gone undone The seas beckon us with their rage Will they ever calm The mist covers our sight The storm comes Her eyes are the color of dyed blue With her raven hair and crimson lips She sleeps quietly waiting for the innocence of me But I've already put her in vain And tossed her aside I've already condoned my belovéd The desire was so much I couldn't face it In the eyes Forgetting the shame is just a Another winless game Take me away from this Take me away from the Lunar Love The moonbeams light up my pale face I don't want to be seen Banished from this world I'll ever be Take me away from this Take me away from the Lunar Love I cry but the sun cant hear Do I exist? This eclipse took over Now I'm left to face it all Left in the dark where can we go Lunar love is what we'll be Lunar love is what we have Fly away from the scene The tides are blind from the madness Even to the mountains they'll kiss The storm is too much The desire was so much I couldn't face it In the eyes Forgetting the shame is just a Another winless game Take me away from this Take me away from the Lunar Love Lunar love is what we'll be Lunar love is what we have The moonbeams light up my pale face I don't want to be seen Banished from this world I'll ever be Take me away from this Take me away from the Lunar Love The ghosts are tangled in my dreams They play with what was meant to be forgotten But I know there must be a away To find the closure But so lost are we So lost I've been Save yourself from the downfall How close are we to the edge This is what the rage has done This is what the sin has done The desire was so much I couldn't face it In the eyes Forgetting the shame is just a Another winless game Take me away from this Take me away from the Lunar Love The moonbeams light up my pale face I don't want to be seen Banished from this world I'll ever be Take me away from this Take me away from the Lunar Love Lunar love is what we'll be Lunar love is what we have Forgetting the shame is just a Another winless game


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Stay

She said baby I have to go,
I said girl you don't need to go,
Because baby I want you to stay,
'Til the sun rise,
'Til the end of the night,

I said baby I'm feelin you,
And I'm fallin in love with you,
Which is somethin I never thought I would do,
But, I did today,
So girl, Why don't you stay,

Chorus:2x
Why don't you stay, 4x
'Til the sun rise,
'Til the end of the night,

She said baby I have to leave,
I said girl I don't want you to leave,
My darling please stay with me,
'Til the night end,
Then come back again,

Because baby we have a chance,
For us to have a great romance,
So, girl take my hand and dance,
You don't have to go,
Baby don't go,
Chorus: 3x

'Til the sun rise,
'Til the end of the night,


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To Lose One's Wings

Do you sit inside the crevice of your mind in reverie?
Do you wallow in the moonlit's gentle breeze?

Perhaps you smile to yourself.
Perhaps you even love to love existence,
In all its travesty.

Or do you, like me, wilt beneath the light,
And try as you might bend down upon the knee?

Oh, to not have to dream of grabbing the reigns of destiny with both hands.
Oh, to live above paralyzing doubt, soul shriveling grief,
Pain-gripping infatuation.
To fly, my friend.
To fly.

I once was much like you.
For Fate I never did pause until the final blow-
A snake striking in the darkness,
Till fall, I finally fell,
And dreams, they ceased to be.


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Where I Sit

I am not going to think about it ,
Can't do much from where I sit.
    Wasn't me that couldn't agree,
We know who it's so easy to see.
    Won't say much to help you out,
It was your decision that's no doubt.
     You've done no wrong I can hear you say,
Always the same with you every single day.
      Telling me I am wrong and just no good,
I should have left you back when I could.
      Now I am stuck  so in love wit you,
And all you want is something new.
      The evil and wickedness that you  soe
Has touched just about everybody you kow.
      Living the lie and playing the deceit,
Preying on the kind and gentle those who are weak.
       The day will come when you will pay ,
For all those you hurt along your way.
        It's not always good to come out on top ,
Especially when you see it's only you that you've got.
        Live out your days alone , sick and afraid .
You just wouldn't listen to anything I'd say.
        I am sorry my dear but this you did on your own,
It's your turn to suffer and you can never come home.
        I'm not going to think about it,
Wouldn't do any good from where I sit.
TAC


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You lied under your breath

When you said you didn’t love me anymore
I knew it wasn’t you speaking you were coerced 
everyone was intervening like they had done long before

its frozen in my mind I still hear everyone on the phone 
Pressuring you to say goodbye to me 
you were stolen from me and that’s how I will always view it
You were made to be afraid of what happened years ago

They wanted you to remember the first time around
They didn’t want you to have a second chance with me
They made you think it would happen all over again
they put fear into your heart and confusion into your mind

one day your wanting to be back in touch with me 
Especially after I reached out and confessed the truth
you even asked about the ring I once gave to ypu
and the next day your looking to run and hide
Because everyone again is trying to tell you what to do

back in 95 your new boyfriend threatened to leave
simply because you were suddenly talking me 
he was showing his true colors too by trying to control you
and your family gave you stress and forced you to say goodbye to me

I lost you to someone that didn’t even smile a spineless prick
who knows maybe you really did want a daddy figure 
someone who was going to tell you what to do
to manipulate and control you to dictate what you should do 

or maybe it is just as well that you didn’t choose me
though you tossed the engagement ring back into my memory
If you didn’t love me then why was the ring at the top of your mind 
Was there a chance that ring would've changed everything

It was supposed to bring me dedication
It was suppose to represent a heart felt love
I remember the day I gave it to you
I remember the expression on your face

I remember your beaming smile
I remember how you were grinning from ear to ear
I remember the kisses you gave to me
that ring was like magic 

the symbol of our love
it meant you were for me and I was for you
our hearts danced thinking of the possibilities
But that ring created an evil bliss

For a whole year you wore it true
A glittering diamond and begets too
Wiggling your fingers and dedicating your love
I didn't lie when I said I loved you

But I lost my sense of identity
I wanted marriage badly but I just wasn’t ready
I let everything slip away
From the salt of my tears and the wailing of my soul 

you were supposed to heal my heart
you were an angel that gave me comfort you were my one true love
But I went into a fog and couldn’t find my way home


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My TRUTHS AND THOUGHTS II

I strolled through my old stomping grounds
saw a childhood friend gave him a hug and a pound
over two beers we sat down

dam its been so long since we crossed paths
flashbacks they brought both tears and laughs
we poured beer on the grass
for our peers that passed

that's the way we show sorrow
teardrops from a bottle
it's so hard  to say goodbye  to yesterday but ironically for some
its even worse to face tomorrow

when it's filled  with hopelessness and dreams deferred
at times the line between good and bad became blurred

life moves in cycles I observe this truth
watching these young cats re-enact scenes from my youth

as the clash  with the system
and dare the world to dis them
until they go to prison 
or become homicide victims

i borrow some ears trying to insert something healthy
but I recognize that look.
its the same one I use to give the ones that  tried to tell me

I just wouldn't listen
now he's given me that same resistance
its a shame that ignorance

makes us flee from knowledge
wont accept WhATS harmless
content when we're acting moronic
or spewing garbage

isn't it ironic we crave money to save us
in actuality its the very thing that enslaves us
its like the streets are the new plantation
a generation lost produces lost generations

with lack of love and over abundance of anger
causes agents of death to leap from barrels once released from chambers
has the worl gone crazy
mother in the church screaming thats my baby lord take me

makes we wanna holler,kick or yell or something
cause they don't understand I'm simply trying to tell them something


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Sandpaper

By: Jeremy Aguire
Contest: Build Your Own Sand Contest
Date: 09/17/2013

I didn't measure up.
Within your plans, I wasn't enough.
My life was sloughed.
Back to the pencil and I'm rebuffed.
Now I've been scuffed.

These are imperfect stains,
They're complicated and they're erased.
You've scraped against my grain.
I was replaced just to imitate,
a chosen face.

You had to finish me,
covered in sawdust of apathy.
You've made a standard theme,
a clone life built up by makeshift beams,
your twisted dreams.

I am the centerpiece,
of your imperfect philosophies.
Humiliation cease!
Bring back my sanded identity,
my tendencies.

Please pry me off and toss.
I'm not that man that you thought I was.
Your sense of right is lost,
and there's other beams to look across,
another cause.


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Glimpse Of You

Behold my threshold
I saw a face, stunning, lovely 
An angel with eyes, diamond glittered
throwing a light in the dark 
Pretty was her face, and divine her smile.

Saw her passing through for a while
My world stopped and smiled,
I got to see her and it was my luck
A gesture glued my lips and I was wild
After she left I am stuck.

Her brown eyes had everlasting story,
Tears rolling down the cheeks made them shine
She looked fresh even she was sad
Her lovely picture made me mad.


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Not To Love

I'm so lost within my own words, I want to see a better path. 
The math doesn't add up to me to believe in dreams.  
The reality is, I'm upset because my heart has decided to do something different to accomplish and conquer love. 
When its only mear pieces of my former self left to fight.
My soul is at war
my body, 
a battlefield, violent.
I'm silent with these mixed emotions, confusing me, I'm hurting daily, my harsh intentions has failed me, I can't explain these foreign feelings left within me.
who do I turn to for answers of understanding when I'm a man, and fear is now my enemy for so long was my closest friend.  
I continue to feel lost because love doesn't love or care how I feel.  
It has taught me this in the past as laughter n tears follow in its wake. 
....and the pain...it numbed me.
Realize in the past, love was a mistake.
Not sure of things so what's the truth behind how quickly my feelings of love build.
What should I do?
Why me now? 
The situation is not clear....wait...there a tear and fear on my shoulder wearing its head, shaking. 
Love is here for the taken I'm a causality in this chemical love affair, causing wells in my eyes to fill.
All I wanted to do was to live n survive now I'm feeling like I'm lm loving to die.
So unexplained when I have been trained, not to love.


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I Wasn't There to Fall In love

I wasn't expecting for anything...
Then i saw you, and you change everything...
I wasn't there to capture your eyes...
I wasn't there to fall in love...
And yet, you took my breath away...
But your heart is taken by someone else...
And you came after me...
You played with our hearts...
And broke both of our hearts...

I wasn't there to fall in love...
And yet, you took my breath away...
You took my heart away...
You took my soul away...
And left me with nothing...
you left me with huge question mark over my head...
Asking myself why!...

I wasn't there to fall in love...
Yet, you broke my heart...
You broke me while I'm still mending myself...
Still healing my heart...
It takes forever to fix it...
But a second to fall for someone like you...
And now you barely look at me...

I wasn't there to fall in love...
And i wasn't looking for one...
But my heart chose you...
And it can't seem to let you go...
I try to look strong and pretend to get over you...
But deep inside, its tearing me apart...
Yes I'm weak more than you ever know...
And I'm not gonna show it to you...
At least not in front of you...

I wasn't there to fall in love...
And yet, I fell for you..


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Hope Through Life

I can't always tell you what I see,
Or what you'll have in this life.
But honey please believe me,
I'm striving to show you somehow. 

I'm begging Forever to hold you,
And I'm pleading time to stand still.
And if all the world needs to disappear,
Then all will be done by my will.

I've seen Heaven and Hell join forces.
I've wished on the stars in your eyes.
If ever I think that I've lost sight,
Well you're there to help guide back my mind.

And I can't fight the tears that keep coming
When I fall through the darkness in light.
And when I'm lost in lines and verses,
You know I'll find hope through life.

I can't always tell you tomorrow,
But there's a reason that I'm here tonight.
I'm not one for superstition; I keep looking for truth in this life,
But still I wish on the stars in your eyes.

And I can't fight the tears that keep coming
When I fall through the darkness in light.
And when I'm lost in lines and verses,
You know I'll find hope through life.
Yeah you know I'll find hope through life.
Yes I know that I'll find hope through life.


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On the outside looking in

There is a girl
With sparkling eyes
A peaceful disposition 
A brilliant mind
She is beautiful
Who is this girl?
No one knows
But I know
I also know her pain
I know her sadness, loneliness
How she is addicted to it
Wondering if she will ever be whole
I know her heavy heart
Waiting for the day it will feel again
I know her pensive mind
Exploding with silent screams wishing to break out
I know her guilty eyes, flooding with tears
I know this girl
Who is wishing for the day when the pain will subside
I know her
 Because her and I, are one


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Cellar Door Escape The Fate

We walk through the doorway, heard you calling from the hall
To find you in the bedroom not breathing at all
I drag your body to the cellar where we lay, 
the wax it melts away, 
I kiss your face...
Now we are starting to love you more,
your body's on the canvas, 
That I painted on the floor
Now you wait,
like the drug, 
like the change in the pain it goes on for so long
And oh,
now it hurts in the worst way, 
now that you're gone, 
its so wrong,
its so wrong....
If I could take you somewhere,
I'd take you to my darkest place, 
scatter you in art forms, admire the whore,
beauty in different ways your hands on picture frames, 
your eyes in the glass wear your face as a mask
Now they are starting to love you more, 
a gallery of your beauty no charge at the door
As you wait, 
like the drug, 
like the change in the pain it goes on for so long
And oh, 
now it hurts in the worst way, 
now that your gone, 
it's so wrong, 
it's so wrong....
And down below your veins run dry your vacant eyes, 
I lost control your face is pale, 
your body's cold
And down below your veins run dry your vacant eyes, 
I lost control your face is pale, 
your body's cold
(face is pale your body's cold )
Wait, like the drug, 
like the change in the pain it goes on for so long
And oh, now it hurts in the worst way, 
now that your gone, 
it's so wrong, 
it's so wrong...



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All Along the Watchtower Re-Visited for 9-11

"There must be some kinda way to find out here"
Said the seeker to the stealer
"There's too much confusion
I'm struggling to be the reveal"

"Conglomerate men, they drink my wine
Politicians dig my earth
None will level on the line
Because none of them are worth it" hey

"There is reason to get excited"
The seeker, he kindly spoke
"There are many here among us
Who feel our governments a joke"

"Now you and I, we've lived through this
And this is not our fate
So let us not talk falsely now
The hour is getting late", hey

Hey

All along the watchtower
Liars kept the view
While all the women came and went
Barefoot servants too

Outside in the cold distance
The C.I.A. did growl
Two riders were approaching
And the wind began to howl, hey

All along the watchtower
All along the watchtower

All along the watchtower on that tragic September day
We need some investigation, for someones has to pay
Now you and I, we've lived through this, and this is not our fate
So let us not talk falsely now, before this generations to late

We will always remember, and remember who we lost that day
We need some investigation, for someone has to pay
All along the watchtower, a nation in mournful cries
We are not so blind, it's amazing what you can see when you close your eyes

All along the watchtower
All along the watchtower




James, we lost you in Kensington, England. The Star Spangled Banner will
live long in your past. I can't say the same for some of your American so
called country people. Thank you for allowing me to gracefully use . . . .
'All Along the Watchtower' it's blatantly obvious someone was not.

To all the lost in the 9/11 tragedy, my thoughts will always be with you.


 All Along The Watchtower by Jimi Hendrix, with some lyrics changed 




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Angel

In the cold of December
Lost in my own world
I was talking to myself
Why does my love hurt
Thats when i heard you
Sobbing, I guess t'was pain
One look at your face then 
And I was in love again

I knew you had fallen
From heaven above,
You gave me no reason
Why was it so?
I held out my hand,You
Took it so gently,
I carried you home
I cared for you gladly

When the morning sunlight
Touched me across my face
I thought it was you
Comforting me,
Memories hit hard
Dont turn away please
Ive fought wit the lord
To keep you with me

Remember the first time
We made love,
I caressed your body
Your angelic skin,
I held you so gently
Your eyes lost in mine,
I held you so closely
My love lost in time

Light on the other side
Maybe much brighter
But no one can love you
As much as me,
Your innocent presence
Had me in wonders
Now your untold absence
Is killing me


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Lost it all

Love and Hate will congregate
but never collide inside
with all the hearts that are beating-
My swoon is leaving-
sanity deleting with one keystroke (on your piano....)
And I can't live without this-
the bliss that's inside- a kiss for humanity
such profanity in the way!
oh I don't want this to end. don't want this to- and I cant fight out
I can't find a way out- of my skin.
This is the one want to be in- forever or so ago.

Leave me out!!!!
I can't go back inside...back again.
in my place that I can't stand much long.

oh I can't find a way
I lost it all along the way
can you help me find the way
you lost it all the way back home
but that doesn't help your cause
hold your applause
and kill your mind....(and spend some time with me)

And...
Leave me out!!!!
I can't go back inside...back again.
in my place that I can't stand much long.
do you like me for me? can you tell me to see the light?
inside-inside-inside-inside-inside-INSIDE!!!

(Musical Break)

Leave me out!!!!
I can't go back inside...back again.
in my place that I can't stand much long.

'cause I lost it all...


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Can't Be With You

I know how you feel for me
But im too scared to take a step forward
You know i got hurt before
You dont know how painful it was
I wasnt sure i would even get over it, but i did
Now, nothing is the same
My feelings is unreliable
I know that i like you
I know that i love you
I know that i have fallen for you
And i know that i wanna be with you
But i cant
It's not that easy not wanting to be with you
Cause every moment
I think of you
I think of what your doing
I think of what your thinking
You're on my mind all the time
And sometimes you make me speechless
That cute smile you make
So many great thing i see in you
Makes me wonder if i even deserve you
Now, you're talking to me about the future
Baby i'm not even ready for the present
Tell me what to do
Cause my mind is blank
But my heart is filled with emotions


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World ain't a place to discover

Forgotten by my society, 
Me branded a monster, 
Forgotten by my destiny, 
Years back, a youngster.

Its not a dream, not even a tale, 
Firmly held onto the grassy ground, 
A day in my hand petrol in a purple bale, 
And I knew I would never be found.

Darkest period of the night, 
It was, with a group I thought right, 
Tip-toed into our teacher's home, 
We came to finalize, to set it ablaze.

Wails, yells, groans I heard, 
Trembling with fear I grew mad, 
Helter-skelter paced hard, ran hard, 
Nowhere to go, not even a yard.

Then came a furious crowd, 
Loud and rowdy, emotions sad, 
Unable to say, not even a word, 
Beaten, I was left for the dead.

Every now that seems lost, 
Never give up, no matter what cost, 
Every obstacle that seems high, 
Fold sleeves, give a second try, 
Everyday is a chance to do better, 
Take my advice, you youngster, 
For the world ain't a place to discove


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Nowhere

Looks like I'm at the end of this bottle again.
Seems like cigarettes are my only friend.
Newports, no shorts, they're still never long enough.
Man, staying here never felt so rough. 

And I'm back to about a pack a day.
I'm just waiting for my lungs to cave in or give way
To a breath of fresh air, yeah that would be cool,
But once again I'm just a hopeful fool. 

Sometimes I wish that I could just go.
Runaway, find a place that I've never known.
Yeah that would be so nice.
Think it out, write it down, and scream it twice,
But for now I'll just way more time and 
Sometimes I wish I could just go.
Runaway, find a place that I've never known.
Man that would be so nice.
Think it out, write it down, and scream it twice,
But for now I'll just way more time and

I never thought I could drink so much.
Comfortably numb I've lost every touch.
Maybe someday I'll climb out to the top
And find some new ways to every stop.

Maybe someday I'll be out of my way.
Find someone to give me the heart to stay.
Maybe someday I'll be at the top of somewhere
Because down here in nowhere I know that nobody cares. 

Sometimes I wish that I could just go.
Runaway, find a place that I've never known.
Yeah that would be so nice.
Think it out, write it down, and scream it twice,
But for now I'll just waste some more time and 
Sometimes I wish that I could just go.
Runaway, find a place that I've never known.
Man that would be so nice.
Think it out, write it down, and scream it twice,
But for now I'll just waste some more time and

I've finally had it with dreams of out there.
With my bottle and cigarettes I'm lost in Nowhere.


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EYE Don't See -Part 4-

My heart is beating with upbeat delight 
You astound me…in every shape and form 
My spirit is dancing with unbreakable might
You surprise me…when you take my hand
And pull me outtah my jail-like dorm

And He dismisses me from my solitude…
My eyes are glistening with bliss… 
And I’m far from my demise… 
Only to find that there’s no need to feel helpless

Why do you spoil me rotten with your fatherly affection?

Just protect me from any harm 
Let me make my own decisions…
To see the results in the long run 

You prize me as if I’m cherished like your carefree child
You don’t understand – I’m TOO foolish and wild
I haven’t even reached to full maturity 
But how eye hope to see myself grow and be set free
From the world’s mayhem
Is there a solution to this problem?

And I’m left with no answer…
My eyes are eager to see…another bright day 
And the night is coming to haunt me… 
I find myself slowly disappearing from sight…
When will God give me a purpose to fight? 
When will He feed me His awesome might? 

Just support me…especially during my downfalls
Please answer my calls!

And I’m left to venture off into His path…

Eye can’t escape my terrible nightmares 
Consider my calls of acceptance…my grief weighs a ton
Let me pour forth my tears – 
Do me a favor and cast away my fears
Steer me away from disorder and confusion

Eye can see you’re making great progress
You’re heading towards a brighter, superb future…

My eyes 
No longer witness oblivion 
My eyes
Looks beyond the earthly pain…
bEyOnD the affliction 

I spot a rope in the distance. . . . . 

Push aside the waves…and let me
Grab it this instant!
God feeds me His love…and treats me
Like a newborn infant!

Eye see my Father with brand-new eyes  
I feel rare content
And I feel hardly any resentment

Eye 
cherish 
that 
REMARKABLE 
moment 


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Somewhere I Belong

My last mistake
Was thinking I was the king
In a world where my thoughts
And words mean nothing

Stoked the flames
Of standard teenage lust
While the statue of my life
Began to rot and rust

Swept off my feet
By the knife to my throat
Slumped on the floor
Groaning out my lone note

Don't wanna lose
The last semblance of control in my life
Like I'm just a puppet
Just a slave to the strife

Hand me the reigns
To all my pain
So I can make it through the rain
I need to grasp onto what's left of my own life

Hand me the reigns
To all this pain
I can't see past the rain
I wanna go back home buried deep inside your arms
Somewhere I belong

Used the man
The needle clasped in my hand
Signified the end long ago
When I knew it was banned

A secret fix
I kept shooting it in
When I told everyone that
I wouldn't even begin

She saw the scars
I knew I shattered her trust
And every pillar that we built
Began to rust

Down on the floor
Bloodied and alone
And the fault is my own
Yes, the fault is my own

Hand me the reigns
To all my pain
So I can make it through the rain
I need to grasp onto what's left of my own life

Hand me the reigns
To all this pain
I can't see past the rain
I wanna go back home buried deep inside your arms
Somewhere I belong

Now, the needle breaks
Glass and metal strewn across the floor
I wish I'd quit before
I watched my lover walk right out the door

Will I make it right?
Will I atone for my sins that claimed my life?
I will find a way
I'll cleanse my soul today


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Never Be the Same

I wake up sittin' on my bed,
I have these thoughts runnin' through my head.
I just cant figure out a way,
of how I'm gonna get through this day.
Oh, come and take my breath away,
I'll never be the same,
I'm not ready for today,
But it's gonna happen... Anyway.
I dont know how to understand,
I dont know whats, happening..
I can't do this on my own... No.
I'm starting to feel like i'm all alone... all alone.
I wake up sittin' on my bed,
I have these thoughts runnin' through my head.
I just cant figure out a way,
of how I'm gonna get through this day.
I need some juice, I need a Jolt!
Or maybe get hit my a lightning bolt!
some things will never be the same.....
Oh, come and take my breath away,
I'll never be the same,
I'm not ready for today,
But it's gonna happen... Anyway.
But it's gonna happen.... Anyway.


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Last Laugh

I'll sit here in silence, light up my cigarette. With each burning drag I'll pretend to forget. 
   All the hurt and the pain that I'm feeling inside. And each shot I drink, brings a false sense of pride. 

   I'm a monster a bad ass, that no one's seen yet. I've lived a good life and I have no regrets. 
   But in this broken state of mine, in the worlds eyes I'm a mess. So I try to tell myself, that my last laugh will be best. 

And you think. You have me figured out. And you believe. You're right without a doubt. 

But last time I checked, we've got nothing to prove. Everything we gain in life, we all stand to lose. 
So have your fun enjoy yourself, pointing out my flaws. Your hypocritical ways, are the root of my cause. 

I'm a monster a bad ass, that no one's seen yet. I've lived a good life but I have my regrets. 
And in this broken state of mine, in my friends eyes I'm a mess. But still I remind myself, my last laugh will be best. 

And you think. You have me figured out. And you believe. I'm only filled with doubt. 
And you think. I've simply given up. But I believe. I've simply lost my trust. I've simply lost my trust. I've simply lost my trust. 

So I'll sit here in silence, put out my cigarette. The taste and the smell will, linger on my breath. 
A few more shots down, and I still have no pride. You've woken up my demons, I have nothing to hide. 

I'm a monster a bad ass, that no one's seen yet. I've lived a good life but I'm filled with regret. And in this broken state of mine, in my own eyes I'm a mess.  So I try to lie to myself, my last laugh will be best. 

And you think. You have me figured out. And I'll admit. I'm filled with to much doubt. 
And you believe. I'm just caught in a rut. But I believe. I've simply given up. I've simply given up. I've simply given up!




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Drum Beat

Boom boom tap.
Boom boom tap.
Boom boom tap.
Holy. Freaking. Crap.

Here come the snare drums,
With the bass drums,
And the cymbals,
The band follows.

I have a secret.
Everyone knows it.
And I don't know about,
If I can contain this shout.

And I don't know,
If I can take it anymore.

I got that drum beat.
Not just in my feet,
But in my heart.
But it's just too hard.
This girl's got her drum beat.
She can take the heat.
But when it comes to love,
She's... Down to drugs.
But not those kind where,
You can feel fear.
It's already there.

Tap tap tap.
Boom-de-tap-tap.
The marching band's coming.
You better start moving.

They don't stop.
All of them just stomp- stomp- stooooomp.


I got that drum beat.
Not just in my feet,
But in my heart.
But it's just too hard.
This girl's got her drum beat.
She can take the heat.
But when it comes to love,
She's... Down to drugs.
But not those kind where,
You can feel fear.
It's already there.

This song probably makes,
No sense.
But there's really no,
Deep meaning.

These are the facts...
Literally everyone goes,
Crap, crap, crap.

I got that drum beat.
Not just in my feet,
But in my heart.
But it's just too hard.
This girl's got her drum beat.
She can take the heat.
But when it comes to love,
She's... Down to drugs.
But not those kind where,
You can feel fear.
It's already there.

Zoom zoom zoom.
Zoom te zoom zoom.
My heart goes boom boom.
But you just see it through.
Like it's a clear,
Drum beat.


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The Rebel

Dank, cold, unperturbed indifference,
Untouchable, yet touching all,
Unresolved in meaning,
Still creating each and every fall,
Every whim and leaning.

Touché pas! A cry of weary hate,
And will not accept a helping hand,
‘Till death! Brazen adverse in face of fate,
And alone in piteous stand…

Lone wolf we cry, thy fate is nigh,
Yet stands he still resisting,
That love should die, that only tie,
In error still persisting…


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EYE Don't See -Part 1-

My eyes
Pour forth feelings
That I’ve felt in the past
They make my heart ache…
Take it all away…
Oh my God…
They’re making me sink in dismay

When will they break away?
When will they give me a break?

And I’m left in my solitude…
Do you hear me weeping?
And I’m close to my demise…
Only to find myself disappear…
When will peace draw near?

Eye don’t see
A happy ending in this scene 

My eyes
Journeys into the unknown
Who knows what will happen…
They’re like hidden treasure…
They’re buried far below…

And I’m left in my solitude…
My eye’s weeping…
And I’m close to my demise…
Only to find myself disappear…
When will peace draw near? 

Oh my God…
They’re driving me insane
When will they see my reflection?
When will they heal the infection?

Eye don’t feel
Raindrops of hope and relief 
All I feel…is grief…
Eye sense no peace…

And I’m left in my solitude…
My eye’s sagging…from endless mourning  
And I’m close to my demise… 
Only to find myself disappear…
When will peace draw near?

Does He hear
My supplications?
Does He sense 
My fear?

My eyes
Conceals the tears that dare to spew out
I feel trapped and lost without a doubt…
They erase my delight…
They seek my hurt…
Oh my God…
They’re casting me away into the perilous sea

And I’m left in my solitude…
My eye’s weeping…
And I’m close to my demise…
Only to find myself disappear…
When will peace throw out my fear?

Eye don’t see
A ship in sight…to save me from my demise
My lifeless body...
Drifts away in the wild ocean...
Without a sound...
Without emotion...

Eye don’t see
A rope to hold on to…
My hope for peace
Has drowned…


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The Glow of Soft Truths

the glow of soft truths
tucked between the folds of the heart

radiates through the coarse fabric of each fleeting day

transcending the hurdles that litter the way

extinguishing the trepidation and the unfounded fears away

beyond the very now with an eye firmly gazing towards the coming morrow

where genuine peace may be found while dispelling the nasty sting and the solitary sorrow

and when that moment is finally found

when peace and mirth is felt all around

the bliss may seem plentiful, and the being with simple joy may abound

without a word being spoken

without the din, the static of the endless drone

so infused with soothing music, yet hardly making a sound

for the truth of peace that lies in wait

just beyond the corner

is a truth that may never be sought

or bought

for that truth of peace must be ushered inside

until deep in the soul it will then quietly reside...


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i lost everything

i lost my mind
to a girl of a different kind
i lost my feelings
as soon as she left me
and i lost my heart
even if it is still beating 
and i lost my pride
when i knew she wasn't mine
and i lost
all i had
to a girl
man this is sad 
but i lost my mind
to the girl i thought she was mine
and i lost my life
when she broke my heart in time
and then this is were it ends
cause i lost my life
right on the battle line
i saved a lot
now almost lost my life
and she left me by the side
found another instead of me
while i m fighting this disease
i lost my life
to depression deep down inside
and i lost my feelings 
when she cries
 for i just lost everything
to some simple disease 
she didn't care for me
and she broke me piece by piece 
i just lost my life 
to a girl which was never mine
and to think i was alright
was just a big lie
for i lost my life
to a lie which killed me inside 


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Jane

As she went walking down the lane
The flowers seemed to bloom and rise
And as she walked she murmured Jane
The little sister gone for days


The trees grew tall the grass grew thick
But none of Jane did they find quick
She’s lost forever some did cry
She’s gone to heaven to the sky


I soon will find her she replied
And every day she looked and cried
Though time went by with out a trace
She did not find the little face


The trees grew tall the grass grew thick
But none of Jane did they find quick
She’s lost forever some did cry
She’s gone to heaven to the sky


Week then month then year went by
She walked the lane ever high
Rain nor snow nor sleet did stop
The now grown women from her walk


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Children with Masks

Broken in your shadow
And lost within your light
The child who chooses ego
And the man who wants to fly

Embracing every sanctum
Which enshrines your dying cause
To be the one to save you
And forget those scars and sores

The love you now desire
The only good you've known
Will end with how it started
In the pain that you have grown

With loneliness now clinging
Your memory rotting out
You chase the same old reasons
That will make you scream and shout

Your heart now lacks forgiveness
For what you have become
The spiral-end of nothing
Mistaking blindness for the sun

A visage of perfection
This man is just a mask
It reflects your hate on others
As the child selfishly attacks


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EYE Don't See -Part 2-

My eyes
Refuse to see tragedy
My eyes
Marinate in dread…unable to embrace ecstasy 

And I’m left in my solitude…
My eye’s sagging…from endless mourning  
And I’m close to my demise… 
Only to find myself disappear…
When will peace draw near?

You don’t see 
What damage you’ve done
Just let me be
Leave me alone…hand me a gun

I yearn for unspoiled glory
To make me feel perfect once more
I yearn for flawless serenity
To make me feel no regret…don’t ignore
My calls…don’t hang up on me

You don’t see 
What damage you’ve done
Just hear my plea
Listen to my excruciating cries…
Listen to the truth, not the malicious lies  
Our journey has just begun   

And I’m left in my solitude…
Do you hear me weeping?
And I’m close to my demise…
Only to find myself disappear…
When will peace draw near?

Eye can’t handle the stress
Let me release my horrendous distress
Eye can see you making that same mistake
At least MY life isn’t at stake

And I’m left in my solitude…
My eye’s weeping…do You feel my lament
And I’m close to my demise…
Only to find myself disappear…Stepped on like cement
I’m aching with discontent… I abhor this torment    
When will peace scrub off my fear?

I can’t believe my eyes
Your guiltiness flows into me…
I can’t believe I fell for your lies
Your heartless action rape my mind…you don’t see
What my EYES see…

You’ll never see 
How much pressure you put me under
Unchain me from this chamber
And watch me flee…

When will you be set free?


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The Monster Inside Of Me (The Count: The Musical)

DRACULA:
WHAT SHALL I DO? WHAT SHALL I SAY?
NOTHING WILL EVER BEE THE SAME.
NO MEANING LINES. NO SCRIPT INFRONT OF MY EYES.
WHAT IS THIS MEANING … OF LIFE?

THERE IS A SIDE THAT HAS NEVER BEEN SEEN
A SIDE OF ME , YOU’D NEVER WOULD DREAM
THERE IS A BEAST HIDING IN MY HEART
SO PROSPERTORIOUS, SO STRONG, SO DARK

THIS IS THE MONSTER INSIDE OF ME
THIS IS THE MATTER, THIS IS THE KEY
OPEN THE DOOR, AND YOU SHALL FIND
IM LOST IN THE DARKNESS, LOST THROUGHOUT TIME

NO MATTER HOW I LOOK AT YOU
WHAT I WILL SEE, WHAT I SHALL DO
THERE IS A CHOICE, THAT MUST BE MADE
THIS IS THE MOMENT, THIS IS THE DAY

MARISHKA:
OH, VLADISLAUS
YOU ARE THE SERPANT OF LIGHT

ALEERA:
THE TERROR OF SCREAMS

VERONA:
THE MASTER OF NIGHT

DRACULA:
THERE IS A BATTLE THAT I HAVE TO FIGHT
OPEN THE DOOR, AND YOU SHALL FIND
IM LOST IN THE DARKNESS, LOST IN THE NIGHT


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My heart is dead

You didn't listen to my heart
When it was whispering to you.
When it was screaming out,
You were indifferent and cold
Just like you never cared,
Just like you couldn't love.

A special drama
Sparkling day and night,
Now we are gon' drowning
Because my heart is dead.


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Deep Into The Night

Deep into the night my mind is at ease 
Yet my heart stays restless. 
I lay and I look up at the ceiling 
And I ponder what my heart may desire. 
With every beat and blood flow thru, 
It releases a heartbreak or maybe even 
two.

These memories I replay over and over,
Time after time,
It’s always something 
That makes me smile.
I loved them and lost them. 
NO! They lost me.
I have no regrets because
They helped me find me. 


Deep into the night my mind is at ease 
Yet my heart stays restless. 
I lay and I look up at the ceiling 
And I ponder what my heart may desire. 
With every beat and blood flow thru,
 It releases a heartbreak or maybe even 
two.

I walk to my window
And I stare out to the moon
I daydream and my dreams
Soon become a reality
If only for just a moment.
Time slows
As I fantasize.
I’m too old for the fairytales
But yet I still believe.
My heart believes dreams do come true.

Deep into the night my mind is at ease 
Yet my heart stays restless. 
I lay and I look up at the ceiling 
And I ponder what my heart may desire. 
With every beat and blood flow thru,
 It releases a heartbreak or maybe even 
two

My yesterdays formed my todays
And my todays
Will shape my tomorrows.
No regrets and no looking back. 
I pulled thru 
And am stronger than before.
More respect 
And self-love,
More picking myself up 
And more positivity,
More laughter
And more joy,
No more sorrow
And lots more happiness.
My goals are aimed
And I’m my only target.

Deep into the night my mind is at ease 
Yet my heart stays restless. 
I lay and I look up at the ceiling 
And I ponder what my heart may desire. 
With every beat and blood flow thru,
 It releases a heartbreak or maybe even 
two

Geared 
And ready
For whatever may come.
Heavily guarded,
Steel walls all up.
As I lay 
And look up at the ceiling
And I ponder what my heart may desire.
With every beat and blood flow thru,
It releases a heartbreak or maybe even 
two.
Deep into the night my mind is at ease 
Yet my heart stays restless.

Deep into the night my mind is at ease 
Yet my heart stays restless. 
I lay and I look up at the ceiling 
And I ponder what my heart may desire. 
With every beat and blood flow thru,
 It releases a heartbreak or maybe even 
two



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Outcry of a broken heart

Even my mind not stilled by silence
my thoughts outraged with hurt and hate
as Im dumbfounded with confusion
leaving the cause to no debate,
I cannot tell you what is wrong
to tell you means I'd have to trust,
and my heart no longer feels willing,
beating only cause it must.

I feel a dead man live my life
I see his cold abandoned heart,
I hear his agonising cries
as he is torn more apart,
knowing no peace, no rest I find
having no comfort, stuck in a bind
a vagabond, alone in his life
Ive been cut off, betrayal was the knife.

awaiting death, and still much worse
my whole life upon this earth
seems like a scheme to take my worth
and bring me to nothing,
such is my curse
and i fear the effects
may never reverse
and make believe that I am cursed.
the way I feel too great for words
too great to bear such constant hurt
my soul depressed and left prostrate
before God to help, I hope it works. . .


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Fields of Blasphemy

Where shall I flee? I’m swimming in the waters of misery…
And I’m crying a river…I’m saturated in woe 
How do I think cheerfully? I’m lost in the abyss…and the shadows won’t let me be… 
And I’m bewildered… I’m fighting to break free… 

(I can’t break free…
Where do I flee?
Why can’t I break free?)
The spiders are spinning their webs above me…
Bless me and untangle me from this madness…please… give me peace…I’m wasting away – 

They’re preying upon me…they’re whipping me … warping their way inside of me
My saliva drips on the ground…I’m growing numb and I pray
The monsters don’t attack my heart’s desires…if I let them break free,
I’ll never be the same…I’ll never see the light of day

Where do I belong? I’m roaming in the fields of blasphemy 
And I’m crying a river…I feel like an awful disgrace… 
How do I find a pathway? I’m lost in fields of weeds…they’re producing catastrophe 
And I’m bewildered… I’m trying to finish the race… 

(I can’t keep pace…
The sweat is trickling down my face…
Why can’t I keep pace?)
The wasps are chasing after me…where do I flee?
Caress me and save me from the distress…stinging me in pleasure…I’m drifting away – 

They’re hovering all around me… they’re harassing me…could you wipe away my tears?
Find me a place of rest…to make the sufferings end and I pray
The darkness will stop spreading lies in my head…if I throw away my fears, 
I’ll never learn to face my fears…I’ll never know His way…

Where shall I go? I’m roaming in the fields of blasphemy 
And I’m crying a river…I’m saturated in woe 
How do I find the key? I’m lost in fields of weeds…they’re reproducing catastrophe
And I’m bewildered… 

I’m yearning to let go… 
I’m learning to cope with my fears…
I’m deserting my woe…
I’m wiping away the tears... 
(that has been bottled up for many years… )

The spiders have ensnared me in their webs…
I’m in danger…I’m wrapped up in distress…
 and there is no where to hide… 
The wasps are tracking me down...I haven’t paid my debts…
I’m struck in alarm…I’m in a mess…
Please stay by my side – catch me as I collide
( We’re all together on this ride… )

I can’t break free (please relieve me from my despair) 
Why can’t I break free? Where do I flee? (this pain is too much to bear)
I can’t keep pace (give me the energy to shine like the sun)
Why can’t I keep pace? Why can’t I finish this race? (give me some strength to run)


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MY LIFE IS DRYING

How to survive without you?
How to stay alive without you?
It’s been years, the darker nights,
It’s been years, the longer days..!!

This heart is pleading,
Come back my life, it’s done!!
Tears entreating you back,
Bear my emotions, the scratch!!

Flash backs don’t leave my trail,
Animating prevalence down the lane,
What! Dream sets in around?
Vanished within a day round!!

The storms are going through heart,
Without you, neither I live nor die,
This heart is pleading,
Come back my life, it’s done!!

The shades of flower dried,
The story of life has shrunken,
The sounds which go through my ears,
Resembling your echoes of tears..!!

Why am I leaving without me?
Isn't this written on my fate?
It’s been years, the darker nights,
It’s been years, the longer days..!!


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Here's to the Kids

Here’s to the kids
Who go to bed with pain in their eyes
And sadness in their hearts

Here’s to the kids
Who wake up every morning
Wondering if it will be their last

Here’s to the kids
Who lived their last day on this earth,
Fighting an internal battle

Here’s to the kids
& here is to me.
-m.b.


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Passion in D-Major

Passion in D-Major


Feeling, the sensuous brush-
strokes on a canvas,

swirling,

to a symphonic crescendo,

of our shared heartbeats,

fading between the notes,

feeling your soft body entwined 
with mine,

your form bathed in my infinite 
kisses,

our orchestral desire rising,

conducting a shared fusing of 
passion,

... the music echoing ...

over the precipice,

on the brink of dazzling rainbow 
hues,

lost in the void,
of an eternal instant,

plunging through the depths of 
rhyme,

pleading,
forever pleading,

for a prolonged,

bouquet of shared time.


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Only You Can

When sins corrupt the mind, slowly devouring the candle of innocence...
The light of hope faints as the melting wax of immorality flows down to the heart...
Hardening the heart that once shunned evil...
The echo of its last beat sends shivers to the body,
Shivers that warn the body of this intruder,
This sin that wants to reach the soul...
In silence the body sits, waiting for the voice of deliverance....
But it never hears it...
The body weakens, the soul cries out in despair,
Shouting:"Do not give up, He will save you."
But the mind is ignorant and the heart is turned to stone...
If it listens a little longer...
The voice of deliverance does come though...
It becomes louder and clearer...
Then the mind starts to reconsider...
Only you can save yourself through the Father
Awake from your guilt and live the life you prayed to live
-----------------------------------
Written 10/06/2013
S. Nuno Pereira
nun3ca©


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Crater

Hold me tight, like tonight was our last day.
If I could have imagined everything
Then I could just walk away.
If I could imagine anything,
Then everything would be my darkest dream.

And I, I can't close my eyes
And fall from your skies.
Now out here in space
I wonder what impact I can make.

And now that I've lost everything,
I rise, oh I rise, but it's too late.
And now that I've lost everything,
I fall, fall into myself.
Watch as I fall away.

Lay next to me so I can see all that you hide.
Without you here I lock myself away.
And no I won't, I won't give up this fight.
To get up and just walk away.
I can't lose everything.

And now that I've lost everything,
I rise, oh I rise, but it's too late.
And now that I've lost everything,
I fall, fall into myself.
And now out here in space,
I wonder what impact I can make.
Watch as I fall away,
Watch as I fall away.
Now out here in space
I wonder what impact I can make.
Now watch as I fall away.
Watch, watch everything, now as it falls away.


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Another Sleepless Night

I want change, something new.  
Maybe to be able to just close my eyes and drift off with positive thoughts that I would be able to wake up to.

What must I question about myself?  
What type of changes to be made?

Am I just a lost soul on a cold path, taking strides walking barefooted on broken pieces of my heart trying to reach the end of something?  

It’s a long road.  So I just shrug and shake it off and continue my journey with dreams of flying away for a new beginning.  New types of songs to sing, then once again I realized I can’t fly with broken wings.  Tears followed with laughter.  I really hate not being perfect and if perfection comes in time, when can I have it?  
If it’s meant to be, will or can I be a Saint?
  
I’m over thinking this process. Lost hope just doesn’t carry the faith of my dreams.  I’m not a dreamer, I attempt to rely on reality based facts.  Like the vision in the mirror looking back at me. Same eyes and mouth, the image in the mirror thoughts are the same only in reverse, maybe positive on the other side. 

I’m not a dreamer. 
Others who dream, sleep.

I’m borrowing time like a bad loan, interest to high and it’s going to take a life time to clear this mess up and my energy is wasted on my guilt to build something that doesn’t exist.  My life as a contractor to destroy and rebuild has broken me down also.  

Where do I go? 
Yes I’m confused.  Searched for answers within myself and still have feelings of being lost.
So it’s another Sleepless night staring at the ceiling with these thoughts, and there are still just thoughts without answers. 


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Me and You

I cant stand the look in your eye 
the one you have for me 
it tastes so bitter 
but so so sweet


a tender kiss 
from an innocent touch
to the extreme
i'l be at your door 
waiting 
with heart bleeding news


(bridge) 
We'l sip our wine 
or gulp it down 
their both the same when its all on the line


standing in each others shoes 
neglecting one another
depending on the booze 
the hope that oneday love will forgive us 
we won't be a fool for long
that day we lost our trust


the aromas are so deceitful 
filling the room 
with all these people 
diamond and candy
are both the same 
when you come from a world 
where love is a game 


these two storied houses 
empty to the bone 
bitter and twisted families 
similar to our own 
arguments that fill the air we breathe
depleting oxygen as we speak  


(bridge)
We'l sip our wine 
or gulp it down 
their both the same when its all on the line


standing in each others shoes 
neglecting one another
depending on the booze 
the hope that someday love will forgive us 
and we won't be a fool for long
that day when we lost our trust


Now, take me back


take me back
take me back 
take me back 
(repeat 3 times) 


And we'l kiss and cuddle till 2am 
my chest on yours 
still feels the same 
this moment's ours 
we'l claim it back 
my heart beats stronger against yours 
say it, believe it, dream it, do it
Im yours, your mine 
we are together for the rest of time


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Lost Love

Your kisses will never amount
to any other kiss.
Your touch will never amount
to any other feelings.
Your breath-taking touch
and your sweet tender voluptuous kisses
was like paradise
and it's something that I'm missing.

Your smile, I envision it in my dreams
but it's no longer reality.

Your voice, I use to hear in my thoughts
but now everything is silent.

Your aroma was the smell of a delegate rose
but now it's somewhere hidden in the mist
and I can see you standing there
I can see you very clear
you're whispering something
that I cannot comprehend.
It seems like your saying
"Lost Love'
that's when images begin to fade,
voices begin to change,
baby we lost the faith,
you was suppose to be my foundation of trust.
I guess nothing remains the same.
Lost Love.


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Nothing Matters

This poem's in the epiphany challenge, although it was not written with any challenge in mind. It was written July 23, 2013.


Felt a snowflake
melt in front of
universal mind.

Watched the day break
dusk defy your
summer dreams in kind.

Weathered heartthrob 
without sunrise,
everything’s okay.

Nothing matters
just keep moving,
night might turn to day.

Felt the earth shake
sky is falling,
someone's down below.

Watched the waves break
water's frothing,
I don't want to know.

Weathered heartthrob 
without sunrise,
everything’s okay.

Nothing matters
just keep moving,
night might turn to day.


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Say goodbye

Start: I try to put myself in you shoes but I still can't understand, the reasons you handed me to justify your feelings for another man. No matter how hard I try I can't deny this lie. So I guess it's the best for us to say goodbye. End:


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Cloudless Skies

Cloudless Skies
By Kevin Robey
March 23, 2014

I've tried to live life the way they want me to
But I was falling behind, I was losing my mind

I've tried to show you the way I really am
But I'm so far out of line, now I'm just flying blind

I've tried to grab those sweaters by the thread
But I was losing my grip, I just fell off the edge

I've tried to hide all the blood I ever shed
But they stitched up my wounds, told me I should be dead

Is this the life I've been fighting for?
It doesn't seem that beautiful to me
Am I wrong to ask for something more?
Still chasing shreds of my sanity

I made a promise back when I was young
But I forgot who I was, I abandoned my way

I made a promise back when I was strong
But it wasn't enough, my foundation decayed 

I made some plans that I just gave away
But I thought I would die before I woke up today

I made some plans that never stood a chance 
But I had brighter eyes, bluer than cloudless skies

Where is the life I've been searching for?
All the things I ever thought it could be
Is there still time to find something more?
With open doors I'm still searching for a key

[listening to "ask yourself", by Foster the People]


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Broken worth

...Since i desire you 
in ma life....i desire 
war at times....i see 
beauty in gazing at 
you....i found value 
living to watch 
you....i experience 
love every moment 
beside you...i define 
worth from every 
single smile at me 
from you.....a hug 
from you worth 
me full happiness....i 
never live a day 
outside what we 
both share in 
common(the 
redefined lost)....i 
wished you never 
left me....i wished 
your abscent never 
hurts me.....i wished 
your tears never 
never sceared ma 
fears.....i wished we 
both could forgive 
our ego and pride 
and lust....i wished i 
never experience 
love from nobody 
but you.....i wished 
you never stoped 
the songs that 
gives ma soul the 
happiest moment 
of time.......i need 
you in ma life....i 
need you to ocupy 
ma time.....i need 
you to give me 
dejavu......i need you 
to make me feel 
renewed.....i need 
you to keep ma 
space from being 
empty of 
persion,pride,beauty 
love......i need you to 
make me feel like a 
man,sincerly your 
abscent is the 
incomplete part of 
ma life.I lost you i lost the 
world....Beside you no-one 
deserve ma words....your 
impact in ma life makes me 
knot....ALASS!!!


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one kiss

one kiss brought us together
that same one has pulled us apart
all lost in that one simple moment 
never a thought that we would be apart
one kiss

the simple bliss you brought to me 
never fell apart but simply
i lost hope 
never again shall i love another 
for my heart has been stolen
by that one simple kiss
it hurts me so 
to let you go
but a fool i have made of myself

its my fault
i used you as a scapegoat
to not think about him
lost in that one kiss
i'm sorry for the lie i told you 
wish i could take it back
two guys has caught my eye
both hate me
i lied to one 
and one i thought i knew

but that one kiss
given to me by the wrong guy
that one kiss
left me in simply misery 
his one kiss


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Port of Call

Port of Call


Barefoot on a talcum beach,

alone, not lonely,

with the breath of the ocean a caressing balm,
soothing pained memories away,
to the swaying of a solitary palm.


Barefoot on a talcum beach,

alone, not lonely,

feeling the brushing away of all past turmoil,
on a quest for solace, ever so hard to find,
yet comforted by the crashing of the waves,
as the tide cleanses all pain,
and leaves despair far, far behind.


Barefoot on a talcum beach,

alone, not lonely,

drenched in a sea-breeze of mist,
that hushes the ache of bygone moons,
tasting the salty tang on my lips,
as the burnished sun,
over the distant horizon,
swoons,

and dips.


Barefoot on a talcum beach,

alone, not lonely,

searching, ever searching,
for a slice of solitude,
as memory bids a final adieu,
reaching under the sea so vast,
and seeking comfort in the depths,
while embracing,
the tomorrows to come,
wishing that they be true.


Barefoot on a talcum beach,

alone, not lonely,

seeing my truths drown,
as they slip beneath the turquoise waters,

feeling my heart ablaze,
with a passion that rarely falters.


Barefoot on a talcum beach,

alone, not lonely,

yet knowing that I am home at long last,
wishing the waves would wash away,
the defences that once stood,
like an impregnable wall.


Barefoot on a talcum beach,

alone, not lonely,

I have found, at long last,

my final port of call.


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Christmas Jubilee

Christmas was always about God for me,
It was memories, inner fullness…Begotten-Boy.
Because God was the point, God’s Son died bravely.

Christmas was about giving pure heart’s bouquet.
Finding dreams, wishes, and bringing home joy,
Christmas was always about God for me.

Father’s gift held the secret of wisdom set free
Of hoping and caring and loving enjoyed.
It is about God, Calvary, and forgiveness, you see.

When December wonder is past, does Christ flee?
Flee from the soul, leaving one on self to rely, lost envoy -
Truth.  Christmas was always about God for me.

Once a year Christmas marks God’s gift sent for me.
By faithfully gluing my lost self to Jesus, I found joy.
Because God sacrificed His Son, I am set free.

I know that in heaven there was great jubilee.
When this hollowed out husk of me, by sin destroyed
Found Christmas to be about God and me.
I know it is so; my faith sets me free.
 
© July 29, 2010
Dane Smith-Johnsen


Written for the “Critcise ME, Take mY Verse & Turn it inside out Make YOUR own! Contest”  Sponsored by: 
Deborah Guzzi  POEM SELECTED: “Christmas Blues”, which she posted on July 19, 2010


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Falling deeper

Seems like free falling
But nothing left to land on
Distant voices calling
But there's nothing to hold on

Large social network some may envy
I can now tell you honestly
It's not about the quantity
I would rather choose to be lonely

So many options to confide
Family, buddies, acquaintances, friends
To be honest deep down inside
Not one feels and understands

Only one I've got nothing to hide
Gave my all without any defense
Who'll always be by my side
Past, present and future tense

Does no one know me anymore
When it's finally my turn to fall
Perhaps it's like that since before
Nobody expected me to break down and call

Hope and faith my only confidants
Falling deeper all alone
Just waiting without needs or wants
Fulfilling promises to atone

When promises and plans completed
The final checklist I'll  proceed on my own
If its all really been planned and decided
To start over again somewhere as an unknown


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I Gave You Right Back

I remember when you gave yourself to me,
But I gave you right back.
Because I couldn’t stop hurting you,
And I hated doing that.
I can’t be selfish as I wanna be,
and much as I need your touch.
I can’t have that follow me.
Enough just might be enough.

But love comes all the way back around,
I didn’t know you then and I don’t know you now.

Hearts beat,
Trust me,
I asked mine to stop beating aloud.
Tears are dreams,
That have to flee,
Cause they’d been cast out. 
And smiles speak,
Yours talks to me,
But I replied with a frown.
Cause I can’t keep this up,
Enough is now enough.
Don’t look for me I’m gone now.


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A Melancholic Blaze

The wolves race through the woods...
A melancholic night breathing...
The moon weeping its elegant light...
 As I drown in the lake of uncertainty...

A prodigious night...
Procreating melancholy...
A deceiver at command...
Portraying images of the divine...

The nature decaying to the bizarre setting...
As the wolves howl at the night’s mystical descend...
And as my heart cries a disheartening reverie...
The river turns venomous at the cheerless call...

The wolves pursue the divine call...
The eerie wind deceives their ears...
Far ahead I see a shadow of the pure...
But as I approach...the shadow is razed by the prevalent obscurity...

The winter birds seem to be early...
Nesting in the putrefied tree...
The venomous river appears frozen...
As a chilling breeze stings the heart...

A prodigious night...
Procreating melancholy...
A deceiver at command...
Portraying images of the divine...

The last few hopes seem to deaden...
As a cloud seems to darken the elegant moon...
And the heart craves for her warmth...
As the flowers anticipate the monsoon...

Why is it that her radiant shadows appear?
When illumination ceases to exist...
A bird rests on my shoulder...
And sings mantras of eternal hope...
An assurance of support... 
And guidance...as the melancholic night descends...

The wolves howl to the infinite sky...
...And the lamentation of a lost soul...
Overpowered by their howls...
As the melancholic fire burns on...

The lamentation of a lost soul...
Forever lost...

...And as I close my eyes...
The setting transforms to “heaven”
Where flowers are vivacious...
...And nature rejoicing the start of spring...
...As I lay in her arms...
The panorama vivid as ever...

A panorama...
That subsists within the broken heart...
And a last few dead branches...
The winter bird collects to complete its nest...

And now all is at rest...
Silence is what subsists eternally...
The lamentation of a torn heart
Ever so callous...

...As he putrefies eternally...
...In a Melancholic Blaze...


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Breathe at Ease

Through the frosted window I watch the snow fall,
Falling so heavily amongst the street lights.
Faintly I feel the slow beat of your heart,
Beside me you sleep peacefully from the cool of the night.
As we lay there the snow insulates everything around us even further,
Especially any and all other sounds that were left lurking around.
I lay awake with a mind shuffling through so many emotions,
Trying to grasp this comfort that I have found.

I just want to wake you to let you know,
I just want you to look in my eyes when I speak.
Look how we’ve kept each other warm from the outside cold,
Look how for once in my life I can breathe at ease.
No longer do I feel like such a lost soul,
My lungs like my heart so full.
Honey I can’t wait for you to see,
How I breathe with such ease.

So I lay there watching the snow grow deeper with time,
The silence surrounds us in a warm comfort never felt before.
Whispering in your ear how our love will never turn blind,
That we can be free and forever let our hearts soar.
Then as time moves on and we grow older,
I know that what’s in our hearts will never change.
It will never matter if what surrounds us keeps getting colder,
The warmth we share together now will always remain.
No it will never matter if what surrounds us keeps getting colder,
The way I breathe at ease when I’m with you will always stay the same.

I just want you to look in my eyes when I speak.
Look how we’ve kept each other warm from the outside cold,
Look how for once in my life I can breathe at ease.
No longer do I feel like such a lost soul,
My lungs like my heart so full.
Honey I can’t wait for you to see,
How I breathe with such ease.

Now I can relax and be lost in your arms,
Finally I can close my eyes.
My mind is at peace with all my thoughts of you,
Sleeping together in the glow of those street lights.
I just can’t wait till morning,
For you’re the first one that I’ll see.
I will tell you all about my thoughts last night as I lay beside you.
I will tell you that how when I’m with you I breathe now with such ease.


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Breaking down

I’m breaking down.

What does one do, oh lordy, if I knew
It’s breaking my poor mind, I’m telling you
My nerves on edge, I grit my teeth
What does it take to find relief
It breaks my heart apart, it really do

Tears and angry words flow all around
Those bad vibrations, making so much sound
The anger starts, oh where’s my heart?
It’s ripping my poor life apart
Oh, lord what makes these crazy feelings start

There’s yelling, screaming  everywhere
It’s killing me, don’t know one care?
And that old crazy farm is waiting there.

If I should cure myself I surely would
Who really knows, it maybe that I could
I’ve read the books, or most of them
By Gurus, shrinks and wise old men
Hey, maybe I’m just crazy, I don’t know.


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Going Postal

 
There is no place for me to go 
I'll spend my life right here I know, 
I lost my job then lost my dough 
Last night I lost my bride with adio'! 

I stayed the straight and narrow road, 
And carried, always, my own load. 
Missed not a day of work, I'm told, 
For twenty years. No pocket watch of gold? 

It tore my heart apart you see; 
They threw me out then tossed the key 
Without a nod to loyalty 
Or help me find a job at fifty-tjree.

So now I'm standin' over daddy's grave, 
Ten days from calm to ragin' full-blown rave; 
Hey daddy! I'm no good and I'm not brave 
But I'll be killin' souls your God can't save: 
I'm hopin for a score of fifty-three 
One soul for every year of wretched me. 

I do remember daddy tellin' me when I was young - 
"I'm proud my son of every single song I've ever sung, 
Because the wrongs I found in life to fire and ice were flung! 
The Good Book said to cling to IT so to IT I have clung - 
That Book was good to me young son and helped me climb each rung." 

An unsophisticated man from birth until you died, 
But damn it dad you took me to the brink of suicide; 
I grew to be not me but you and you died satisfied. 
But dad, life spent denying truth denied the Wolves outside. 

I took a look at your Good Book and found profound its way - 
Make sure you do to those who did to you and don't delay! 
Hey dad, I thought I'd share with you, I bought my gun today 
And it's a beaut you'd love to shoot and help me bag my prey; 
But in the grave you stay to serve your well deserved decay. 

I wish that I could do to you what I must do to them; 
For you put all the evil in me I can't seem to stem. 
My heart and body, now my blood, is turning pus and phlegm, 
But when they're dead then I'll have fed my sweet revenge its gem, 
So I can turn and kill myself and evil you did breed. 
You lit your pious Book up bright, why not your evil seed? 

 


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Swept into Dreams

Angels caught by the ocean
A distant dream for me to see
Where wild birds sway into motion
Where coming clouds encumber me

Visions of every answer
Droplets through the prison cell
The shackles burn like a cancer
As memories of the water fell

I am lost for no reason
Never more than I recall
This past now settles the seasons
As I become, the angels fall

No more sights to reveal me
Not much left to be declared
And war just waits for a treaty
Betray you all, because I’m scared

Blind death sending a letter
Strikes a nail into my heart
What will be for this murder
Will become when I depart

A lost bird guides me to oceans
Tears of loss recall the seas
And as angels flock to this notion
So suddenly, I’m swept into dreams


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A Sisters Love By PjWilliams jim and Jack Oslager

(POEM ENTRY)
                                 A SISTER'S LOVE

THERES A HELL I FEEL INSIDE, AS A LOST CHILD CRIED, I WAS HELPLESS TO SAVE HER LIFE
SHE WASNT READY TO BE TAKEN AWAY FROM ME LORD,SHE WASNT READY TO DIE
TEAR A HOLE IN THE SHY TONIGHT, LET THE ASHES OF RAIN,PUT OUT THE FIRES OF RAGE INSIDE
THIS I WILL FOREVER KNOW IS TRUE SISTER , I WILL ALWAYS REMEMBER YOU

FEELS LIKE FOREVER WHEN YOU JUST KEEP ON FALLIN, FEELS LIKE THERES NOTHING LEFT TO HOLD ON TO
FEELS LIKE FOREVER WHEN YOU JUST KEEP ON FALLIN
A SISTERS LOVE, NEVER GOES AWAY,FLY THROUGH THE SKIES OF YOUR DESTINY
A SISTERS LOVE, NEVER GOES AWAY,RESTING IN THE ARMS OF ETERNAL GRACE
I WISH I COULD WALK DOWN THE STREETS OF YESTERDAY, NOT A CARE IN THE WORLD,JUST HAPPY YO BE PART OF A FAMILY
BLACK CLOUDS ABOVE, AN ONCOMING STORM ARRIVES, IM FIGHTING TO SURVIVE, I MUST CARRY ON HER NAME NOW, AND FIND AN END TO THE HARD TIMES
FEELS LIKE FOREVER WHEN YOU JUST KEEP ON FALLIN, FEELS LIKE THERES NOTHING TO HOLD ON TO
FEELS LIKE FOREVER WHEN YOU JUST KEEP FALLIN
A SISTERS LOVE, NEVER GOES AWAY,FLY THROUGH THE SKIES OF YOUR DESTINY
A SISTERS LOVE,  NEVER GOES AWAY. RESTING IN THE ARMS OF ETERNAL GRACE
AS I LOOK UP AT THE SKY, WATCHING THE CLOUDS PASSING ME BY
I SEE AN ANGEL FLY,THERES A FEATHER FALLIN IN MY EYE,
THE SEEDS THAT WERE ONCES SOWN,WILL FOREVER GROW, YOUR SPIRIT LIVES ON, INSIDE YOUR CHLIDRENS MINDS, YOU ARE THE BEATING HEART OF THEIR HAPPINESS, CREATOR OF ALL OF THIER DREAMS IN LIFE
FEELS LIKE FOREVER WHEN YOU JUST KEEP ON FALLIN, FEELS LIKE THERES NOTHING LEFT TO HOLD ON TO
FEELS LIKE FOREVER WHEN YOU JUST KEEP FALLIN
A SISTERS LOVE, NEVER GOES AWAY, FLY THROUGH THE SKIES OF YOUR DESTINY
A SISTERS LOVE, NEVER GOES AWAY, RESTING IN THE ARMS OF ETERNAL GRACE
THERS A HEEL I FEEL INSIDE,AS A LOST CHILD CRIED, I WAS HELPLESS TO SAVE HER LIFE,SHE WASNT READY TO BE TAKEN AWAY FROM ME LORD,SHE WASNT READY TO DIE, TEAR A HOLE IN THE SKY TONIIGHT,LET THE ASHES OF RAIN, PUT OUT THE FIRE OF RAGE INSIDE
THIS I WILL FORVEVR KNOW IS TRUE SISTER, I WILL ALWAYS LOVE YOU.

RESPECTFULLY SUBMIITED & THANK YOU FOR TAKEN TIME TO READ AND CONTINUE A MEMORY

Written & Dedicated to Joy M Williams
Etched in Paper & Everlasting Marked PJW
Collaboration by Paul J Williams, jim Oslager, Jack Oslager
All Words Lyrics & Music  
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Faith Healer

The odor is intolerable
Like a foul beast clinging to the end 
I can barely subdue its subterfuge 
But here I am, 
I’m standing here of sound and mind
Waiting for the time that answers my own questions

Can it race with the fires of Orc?
Doubtful, but it can jog steadily can’t it?
The weather is awful, filled with sounds
Penetrating a document not written
It pains me to fight through the night
Not because it’s dark, but because I am just a shadow.

Lester drives but
Motional lasts forever
Still driving
Still crying
And slowly dying as time waves on
Like oceans that can’t be seen.

Nobody cares and everyone listens
Ironic, like a bible that holds lies and deception
Can its will be pierced?
Can freedom stay free?
Is it worth it to stay hooked when everyone around
Seeks liberty?


Details | Lyric | |

What Would I Take

White sandy shrores
a beautiful scene
yet here all alone
is not something i could have forseen

i'd need something for protection
i knife would probably do
with that i would be safer
and could take in the view

to know what i could eat
i would need a survival book
so that i would know exactly 
what's in that babbling brook

the final thing i'd bring
is something really small
it's not for my survival
doesn't really matter at all


the last thing i would bring 
is a little picture frame
something to remind me
that i am still the same


a picture of my family
is all i'd really need
it's for them i would survive
oh yes i would indeed


Details | Lyric | |

Lonely Soul

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 Dialog of 2 poets:
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1. Lonely Soul
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Between heaven and earth,

between summer and winter,

Lonely Soul rushed,

rustling her wings.

Up to the stars,

again downward

from eave to eave,

from window to window

and again, she is in flight.

The fires burn somewhere;

somewhere music and laughter,

someone’s joyful days

dazzling success and good luck.

Lonely Soul

has lost the way between the stars

in her long searches, all wet with tears.

Again, she hurries,

 there is neither a map nor way.

But she should SEARCH

and FIND, sometime!

Where?  Who?  And why?

She is my own soul,

which searches for my lost son.

                                   Dina Televitskaya 


        2. Sing, Wounded Soul!
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I cannot hold your cries,

 they slip through my fingers.

I cannot take away your pain,

it lies so far beyond my reach.

I cannot dig out your sorrow,

its roots are too deep.

I cannot chase away your fears,

they hide and creep out later.

I can only tell you, you are loved.

So, sing, wounded soul,

your tears do not fall into emptiness.


            James Dalton Byrd (American poet)
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3.Yes, I will sing again! 
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Yes, I will sing again! 

Thanks for your advice, O my Friend! 

A song is a fine thing,  

You’re right: it is not the end! 



Hear? I already sing 

about the kisses of a rain, 

about green-eyed Spring, 

which gives the lilacs hope again.



I sing about your kindness and 

About force of friendship,

About meeting with you, my Friend 

Sometime, on poetic ship.
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Dina Televitskaya





Details | Lyric | |

A Vision of the Despaired

…And the obscurity ever so profound…
Stuffing a new-born with apprehension…
Nebulous prophecies it recites…
As my prospect begins to diminish…

The ravens soaring high above…
As fatality becomes the conqueror…
And he dwells in the deep murk…
When the wolves discard the frail one…

…And the uncertain sky resides in doubt…
Listening to him recite infidel hymns…
Perplexed, Dejected, Adrift…
A lost essence ferrets for ecstasy…

And streaks of crimson materialize the sky…
…While the blood-scarlet sun accosts the profound ocean…
Such a panorama perceives the dim mind…
A vision of the despaired…

A bird discards the defective infant…
…And a cohort of malevolence at command…
 A serpent persecutes the lost soul…
Persecutes the one neglected…

A thorny, malicious and defiled path he walks…
The neglected one craving for her occurrence…
Warmth of affection radiating from her eyes…
Words of ignorance bleeding from her mouth…

Euphoric reminiscences dwell in the core of his essence…
Reminiscences of optimism and fictitious prophecies… 
Bitter, icy winter blows to his heart…
As past reminiscences venoms his essence to endless anguish…

Endlessly dedicating affectionate words to the one ever so beautiful…
Eyes of profound depth ever so consoling…
Emptiness fills his spirit with despair ever so immaculate…
The words of affection lost deep into oblivion…

The discarded young wrestles with the adversity of nature…
 …A neglected mortal resolute with lost aspirations…
 An eccentric observe runs through the feeble mortal
 “Aspiring for an enhanced panorama is for those with immense fortitude”

Once a magnificent vision existed deep within…and now
Absurdly bleeding eyes lamenting over inflexible words…
Magnificence of any vision thaws as aspiration unites with obscurity…
And defeat becomes a customary guest…

Ever so blindly dedicated words to the unyielding…
Lost in her profound eyes ignored the dismaying past…
A torn heart bears scars of the past and blunders only once…
Her torn essence barely affectionate ever again…

…And now the veracity ever so lucid…
…As I read her words of sorrow

An assurance I impart…
“Ignorant of the past I was blindly surrendering to the striking affection… 
Conscious I am now after breathing a false dream and plummeting into a 
profound distress…Confessions are no longer extant except that which you shall 
never discern.”  


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when i was young

when i was young at five or six,
the smallest of my parent's kid's.
i was lost as pawn in game.
pulled and pushed and used for gain.

they split us up two boys,two girl's.
gave each of us our separate world's.
sent away many mile's apart.
broken in spirit,mind and heart.

i remember having many a home.
all which seemed dark,damp and cold.
i remember never saying a word.
children should be seen not heard.

i remember the social's work.
and the over intrusive question's incurred.
i remember the loneliest of child's.
and probably still can if i face my denial's.

when i was young at nine or ten.
i started loosing myself then.
replaced by uncertain night's and day's.
wondering who next will go away.

they didn't just take my thirst for life.
but made me retreat to what's inside.
my fallen life in a judge's hand's.
an entire family tried upon the stand.

i lost one parent for ever then.
when i was young at nine or ten.


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ONCE IN A WHILE

It’s hard to find
From time to time
The strength to read between the lines
Of all the things you say
And what you do

It’s hard to be
What you want from me
It’s hard to swing from the highest tree
But I am climbing up the branches
Just for you

You never let me go, but never let me stay
My heart’s a wreck from the games you play
I’m torn apart by the things you hide
First I lost my way and then I lost my pride…

So look at me
And perhaps you’ll see
I’ve givin everything and still it isn’t me
Who brightens up your day
Or makes you smile

So I’ll walk away
It’s what I have to do
And when I’m gone, all I ask of you
Is try to think of me… 
Once in a while

…Jeff Bresee


Details | Lyric | |

Tomorrows News

I need to lay down and close my eyes,
So I can drift off into the night.
My mind it keeps racing,
Like mixed puzzles with pieces that don’t fit right.
This may be an admission of fear,
It doesn’t mean that I am a coward.
Yes there’s something here,
That feels so strange.
No I can’t find the answers,
With so much here rearranged.

Honey I know it’s hard.
When we feel broken down.
I don’t think we are that far apart.
We just need to look around.
There can always be a fresh new start.
It’s just there looking to be found.
Look how we would get lost in each other’s arms.
How we spoke so much without making a sound.

Had all these crazy dreams wrapped in my heart,
They all seemed to revolve around you.
I also know how things slip away and fall apart.
Was there anything left I could do?
I know the easy thing is if we both just walk away,
I see the streets littered with those blues.
Are we just statistics written on the next page?
I’m not sure if I want to read that news.
I just have to let you know.
If this is going to be our last day.
That some of the pieces to this mixed up puzzle,
Will always belong with you to forever stay.

Honey I know it’s hard.
When we feel broken down.
I don’t think we are that far apart.
We just need to look around.
There can always be a fresh new start.
It’s just there looking to be found.
Look how we would get lost in each other’s arms.
How we spoke so much without making a sound.





Details | Lyric | |

The Colorado Kid

We took the morning by storm
Just another day in Maine
Until we met the Colorado Kid
He sat back on the beach
Holding remains of his death
His blue lips showed his last breath 

Seagulls on the whim
Never knowing him
Picking up his last meal
Showing off his muscles
Never looking back
Kicking buckets till his last

Authorities never pleased 
Can’t we identify him?
No more clues for the Eldorado  
A pack of smokes in his breast
Autopsy shows the lungs clean
But they were bought from Colorado

A long way from his babe
She came a year right after
She saw his face in the paper
A good job and nice house
Why would he leave his life there?
Traveling worlds meeting his maker.


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Stuck

I'm sitting here with nothing to do 
but occupy my mind with strange, disturbing thoughts;
Oh such strange, disturbing thoughts.
It often happens that my thoughts overtake me and
I get lost in the mazes that they have wrought;
Have tunelled through my brain day by day.

There's a Mad Monkey in my head
Holding a remote control
he's taken over all my mind
Now he's after my broken soul.

Because I'm siiting here with nothing to do
but occupy my mind with strange, disturbing thoughts;
Yes, such strange, disturbing thoughts.
It often happens that my thoughts overtake me and
I get lost in the mazes that they have wrought,
have tunneled through my brain day by day.

There's a Mad Monkey in my head
holding a remote control.
He's taken over all my mind and
Now he's after my broken soul

And I'm STILL sitting here with nothing to do....



Details | Lyric | |

Midnight Confessions: FINALE: a collaboration with Honcho Mars

Here I stand…
I hope you understand…
I hope you can see…
I hope for you to see
To see what happens
When love is given
A second chance to bloom
In my heart
I slept for way too many hours
It empowers me – the thought of reaching out to you
Numb without you motivating me…
But, now it’s all over…

V.5/Bridge:
You always held a spot
Always left room
For that piece 
I held close
Letting fate take its course 
I must confess to you now
Here I am
Here I wait…here I wait…
I’m coming undone…I’m feelin’ like I’m too late
To save you this time
I hope you would arrive – I’m a lost lamb
In a hopeless state…
I won’t hesitate to sift away my horrid fate…fate…
Have I wasted your time?
I cried a river
In my heart, in my heart
Deliver…oh deliver
Me from fear – give me the strength to fight…
Let me fight with my might
I won’t drift away in the death cart
Our love was a precious work of art

Once upon a time, I loved you with all of my heart
Once upon a dream, tragedy's sting made us both depart


Details | Prose Poetry | |

These Salty Waves Pt 1

What am I supposed to think? What am I supposed to say? All these lies you bottled up come sweeping, crashing with the tides. My footing's gone, the ocean real, but how am I supposed to feel? And here I am, a drowning mess, a loveless lie, I do protest. And here I am a drowning mess. So all those things you said to me? Where they just lies out of pity? So all those things you said to me? Or am I lost in salty waves? Yes I know my future's grave. Or am I lost in salty waves?And now the panic in my head, when I should be tucked up in your bed, reels and reels right here instead.I'm going down, a sinking ship, funny what name drips off my lips. It is not God, or Angles plenty, or even that I'm just damn ready To let go of the hell and the lies. I'm wishing for your gentle eyes. Or at least the way they always seemed, but perhaps that's just this salty dream. I have no clue what I'm to do! A drowning hopeless mess, for you-- think it's cute, and oh so funny, but here's the bitter truth now honey. I'm going down. There is no help. I can't be saved by God himself. I put my life, my whole world of trust, and you've thrown it away for lust. Well what the hell's a girl to do? I'm just so entranced by you!


Details | Lyric | |

First Dance

Would you like to dance with me, and feel my arms around your waist?
Maybe our lips could brush together, to give each other a little taste.
Let us always remember this song as we the others around us far behind.
Now we can move amongst the stars above, no worries of space and time.

As I gaze into your eyes, I get lost in your stare.
Finding myself gasping for breath, I seem lost of air.
The warmth of your embrace makes me lightheaded on this night.
That smile which warms my heart, you are such a beautiful sight.
Here there is no deception, no pain, or reason to cry.
I wish you could see yourself looking through my eyes.

The first dance is almost over as the melody soon will end.
Yes this song may soon be over, as the first of many now begins.
Your gaze near keeps me steady as I drink in the smell of your perfume.
Drunk with so many emotions, my senses opened up like flowers in bloom.
No, more wishful thinking as you’re standing with me here.
I’ll always have this feeling; it will be with me all my years.
Let’s keep all the emotions overflowing, and hold them deep inside.
We can explore all the thoughts we have for each other, sharing this journey we call life.
A passion that won’t die, with this energy never to end.
A little message I had to let you know, one I knew I had to send.


Details | Lyric | |

How I Remain

Here, here I lay at the end,
There’s nothing left we can’t pretend.
I close the door the windows too,
There is no more, not a hint of you.
Erase my thoughts my feelings are gone,
I can’t hold on to an empty song.

Loneliness is creeping through the cracks in my window,
And I, I don’t know how I could be feeling like this when,
Well you know, I’m so in love with you,
I’m so in love with you.

Embrace this part of me and you’ll want to let me go,
Let me go.
Well I, I feel lower than I’ve ever been,
I’ve been pretty low,
Pretty, pretty damn low.

I, I feel worthless don’t you know,
I feel empty and so cold.
You know, you could hurt me so bad right now,
And you wouldn’t even know,
In fact I think you already have.

Where, where am I to go when I need to talk,
I got no one but my guitar.
What am I to do when I’m lost in thoughts of you,
When I’m needing to escape, escape this place,
This lonely place.

Loneliness is creeping through the cracks in my door,
You, you keep asking me, asking me for more,
I don’t have anymore.

I’m feeling lost, lost without,
Without doubt, you can’t ask, 
Ask what this is about,
I just regret,
No I didn’t say that.
I don’t regret I just gotta let it go,
Just gotta let it out
I don’t, I don’t, I don’t wanna let this feeling go.

I’m so in love with you,
But you’re slipping through
I’m so in love with you
Am I going to lose you, tonight?

Now I fall apart inside this darkness, darkness.
Now I fall apart inside your arms again, arms again.
As I drift away, what else is there for me to say.
I’m falling, apart.

I’m gone, I’m gone, I’m gone,
I’m gone, I’m gone, I’m gone,
I’m gone, I’m gone, I’m gone

I’m so in love with you, tonight.

Still after you’ve left, just laying in this bed.
This is, how I remain.
Oh how I remain.


Details | Lyric | |

I knew you would be mine

When I saw you waiting in that cafe
I knew you would be mine.
You were handsome, smiling,funny..you were specially designed.
You looked like men I’d only dreamed about in all those years before.
I’m so broke up,so broke up;you don’t love me anymore.

I saw you on the station as I came from out the train.
You wore an old green parka to protect you from the rain.
I wanted to be one with you,to make a Love entire;
But all I did was give you pain too bad be endured

You walked away so quickly,I could not see you long.
I wish I had a big guitar to draw you back with song.
I looked at where you disappeared;what love has loss revealed?
I wish I could just lay down on this floor and keep my face concealed.

Railway stations sadden me, for I know we’ll never meet .
I won’t cry more ,for tears are running almost to my feet.
I walk fast looking straight ahead past that entrance gate,
I pretend that you have missed your train,that work was running late/
I

I count from one and one up to a thousand and many more–
But I know for sure it's far too late; you have closed that heavy door.
You are hiding in a dungeon
You are covered with white steel
But I know you had a heart and you must surely feel.

I lost all my illusions, and then I lost some more.
I wish I could lay down and die,right here on this floor


Details | Blank verse | |

Send Down The Rain

slavery of the mind to succed to the emotion (lies) Are we strong enough to storm the despair Or do we falter behind the façade over and over again Strive to reach the truth The kind is held back by all of the lies And the delusions of the unchained clouds Help us to believe again What we're all missing Is it all too late To send down a sign To send down the rain As the siren sings she's ready to be on the prowl On the prowl to hunt down our souls It's not real Pretend to send down the motion Our hidden notions Of our lieing emotions Help us believe again We're all lost inside Send down the rain Curropt against the pain Help us believe again We're all lost inside Send down the rain Curropt against the pain


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Persona

Step into a world
Enshrouded by the fog
Of the truth you try to hide
Of the truth you pass as lies

Shades of your past
Try to take you in the blast
As they're digging out truth
Make you reach out for the truth

Strip away your facade of broken glass
The jagged diamond center of your true persona
Strip away the thick shell in which you hide

Till there's nothing left for you to hide
The truth within is now open wide
Now come along before you're lost within the tide

Crash, thunder booms
And the dark clouds, they loom
Overhead, they start to crack
Downpour and turn the sky to black

Boom, trigger pulled
But the future wasn't nulled
If you want to see inside
Buckle up, let's take a ride

Persona, to grant you the power
To rise and face the day
Conquer all that's in your way

Hear the thunder crack
As you pull the trigger back
If you want to be somebody else
You should learn to see yourself

'Cause do you really wanna live like that?
Acting like a fly if you're just a gnat?

Strip away your facade of broken glass
The jagged diamond center of your true persona
Strip away the thick shell in which you hide

'Cause there's so much more for you to see
The only person that you need to be
Is yourself and that is all that should ever be

'Cause there's no reason to live a big lie
Acting like a god when you're so scared to die

Strip away your facade of broken glass
The jagged diamond center of your true persona
Strip away the thick shell in which you hide

Till there's nothing left for you to hide
The truth within is now open wide
Now come along before you're lost within the tide


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My Love For You

Since you have left my heart has cried
Since you have gone I have realized
that all my love was meant for you
and for me your love has been true
I have searched the sky through every cloud
Searched every city through every crowd
and still could not find your lost face
Hear your voice or feel your warm embrace
I have lost you and you are gone
but I still hope and will search on
Until I find my true love to be
I'll tread the waves of every sea
Crawl every inch of land on earth
Sacrifice all that I'm worth
Until we stand close side by side
There is no place I will reside
Until I find my love so true
I'll suffer on 'till I find you
Forever is my love for you!!!


Details | Lyric | |

VISIONARY

VISIONARY

A VISIONARY IN THE DARKNESS
WHO CAN’T SEE A THING
LONGING FOR AN INTENSE LIGHT
AND THE JOY IT WOULD BRING
FROM THE PAST, LOST HORIZONS
ARE THEY LOST FOR GOOD
FOR ONE MORE CHANCE HE HOLDS ON
LONGER MAYBE THAN ANYONE COULD

IN MY MIND I SEE A WAY, A DAY
A TIME TO REJOICE
I SEE THE WEAK, A CHANCE TO SPEAK
ALL RAISING UP THEIR VOICES
IN MY MIND I SEE THE SURFACE
AND STRAIGHT THROUGH TO THE DEPTHS
I’M LOOKING FOR HEARTS BROKEN APART
ANYONE LONGING FOR A SAVING BREATH

A VISIONARY IN THE DARKNESS
A SHROUD CAST BY HIS SURROUNDS
LONGING FOR AN INTENSE LIGHT
AND A LOVE THAT HAS NO BOUNDS
A BELIEVER WHOSE FAITH IS HIS STRENGTH
THE ENDLESS REACHES OF HIS MIGHT
SURVIVING IN THE DARKNESS
IN A WORLD OF NEAR ENDLESS NIGHT



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FALLEN STANDARD

 FALLEN STANDARD
The passeth days goeth this fast 
The cometh days changeth this fast
Thou time of the seasons that sleep low
Thee changeth time, changeth behaviour
changeth man, give me back time.

The days of oldeth that standard 
Was peak, time changereth, man died
Younger, you changereth, seasons gives ways.
We forgotten what makes us shout at night
The village square lost significance 

Why thy squash? We uses square for churches
Oh, standard has fallen, Respect lost
Fallen standard, our locality grow with 
love, our fathers grow with respect.
Believe, unity, strength and power.
 
We have given Our Own, to have their 
Own, time take me back, where is respect
Let me have her.
African standard has fallen
We lost respect
African preferred the big market 
Were is your small once that 
Meet your needs?

African preferred the big towns
Were our village and our fathers
Grave grow grass
Africans were is you Respect 
My father told me about? 
Africans were is your strength?

The black colour of your nations
All are fallen, fallen to dust 
African call back your children
Call her back she is far very far
Time healer of pain take me back 
To build to a good standard.

African of the Atlantic
African of the equator
Africans of the desert 
Cultured me in your race, black 
Colour, strength of the empires

REASONS OF WRITING
African have given all traces of her race To have western life, forgotten were she Is from. So many Africans have.given up her colour that unit the race and decided to take the western life.

MESSAGE
1.	What unit the nations of Africans her colour (black colour)
2.	We should stop fighting one another we are of the same race.
3.	What we live our locality to big towns can be really be gotten within the locality. The Africans can unit without war
4.	That those in far lands (western world) should come home and build this empires.
5.	Have is very important in the race of Africans.  
 


Details | Tail-rhyme | |

TWENTY

 The things i think when i just sit and write. 
Some are so wrong but always feel right. 
 Its like my mind is a maze in a daze, but a phrases  will  appear, either words of happiness or words of fear.
 I just go with the flow as someone once said... LET THE GOOD TIMES ROLL... My mind is a park and i'm on a stroll. 
 Its funny how, when the dishes are finished, and with just 5 minutes you can write a poem and leave people in stitches.
 Although i keep in mind the essence of laugh cause how long are you interested if it is all bad .
 Because with bad comes good unless i'm misunderstood you learn from a lesson then turn it to good. 
 To look on the ground and find twenty bucks, someone's misfortune is somehow my luck.
Does that make it good luck or does that make it bad if i lost a twenty i no id be mad.
 So i pick it up flip it call it, then i stash the cash or should install in my wallet hit the store and ball it.
 later that night it all set in what if that was a twenty for his sons gift should i hit the streets just to see if i can find the person that lost TWENTY


Details | I do not know? | |

REMAINING

if i can get the time back
if i could take the love back
if can undo the results that we are facing

i just wonder what the outcome could be
 if there was never a you and me
if we never became something worth it
if we never lost out on what we wanted

you amuse me so
you belittle me so
ohh you hurt me though

no matter what i do
or no matter who im with 
its you its you
i want 
its you who just 
wont leave my heart

this world and its ways your heart
and its days
the pain and my feelings
this heart that wont do any healing
this voice that stutters 
because of the sound of you
your way this day 


ends sad away gray 
left with shame and a broken heart 
that may forever remain


Details | Lyric | |

You are always on my mind


Caught up in the substance 
of my mind, trapped and sealed 
in the safe of my heart. Tangled 
in the memories of my every 
thoughts, you are always on
my mind. I lie awaken I cannot 
sleep, my head is lost in disbelief. 
My lonely heart need you here, 
I'm lost and low without no fear 
and when this pain seems hard 
to bare. You're always on my mind


Details | Lyric | |

LOST IN YOUR LIES

You can't play the victim anymore, you've lost at your own game and you hurt me. I'm done with the excuses, I'm done living in your 
lie. you can't hide behind me, no one is fooled by you. YOU ALWAYS WERE AND WILL ALWAYS BE LOST IN YOUR LIES.


Details | Lyric | |

CAUGHT UP

Caught up in my own little world, love is so blinded
Wonder if it exists and has anyone truly find it, would they share it if it’s so rare?
My faith wants me to hold close, but lost images are ghost, what is it that I want the most.
To be close to heaven, will wings grow? 

 Fallen…

I’m light headed its effects has taken control like the intoxicating fumes from a red rose. What have I chosen, I can’t change your life, to dream your lost dreams without the compassion to survive.  Short of time the hour glass almost empty the beaches are full and plenty, as I walk the sands of time.

So am I blind, trying to find something lost in dreams?

Alone, still holding on to something, close knit to the drama of my life walking and fighting for something that’s not there or anything that cares about me and mines. My mind stuck on this poetic verse; if I held it in would it hurt worst?

I’m tried of the trying times , I wish hard times got tired running out of ideas to cause me misery , the river of tears cried are like clouds in my eyes, like love it’s not clear.

Keep talking I’ll just walk this way maybe to a better place that would engrave a permanent smile on my face, stone hinge, a saving grace dressed in lace and love is my worst enemy.  Pain just reminded me that I was caught up in my own little world, and my faith walked away leaving my shoulders strong.

Long strides of pride taken knowing somehow I will make it. Even though I’m caught up


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The Songs in Level 2

Jingle... jingle jingle,
jingle
The man is black,
jingle jingle
Black as coal,
jingle jingle,
The woman is white ,
jingle jingle,
The colour of our floor,
jingle jingle,
Holding their hands,
jingle jingle,
In symptoms of love,
jingle jingle,
Of defiance,
jingle jingle,

Jingle… jingle jingle,
jingle, 
We are children,
jingle jingle,
Of lost races,
jingle jingle,
Of lost continents,
jingle jingle,
Amorphous cultures,
jingle jingle,
Hybrid vernaculars,
jingle jingle,
Our mothers defied,
jingle jingle,
The ways of grandma,
jingle jingle,
Grandma cries,
jingle jingle,
Eeeeeh! Eh! Eh!
jingle jingle,
My children are lost,
In the 21st Century,
Aaaaaaaaaah!

©Muthoka Jacob, June 2012.

This poem is a cry over lost identities in the crave for modernity. Sorry in case it stings.


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I Finally Understand Why You Can't Go Home Again

The sun never shines here in south town
It’s only covered up
by a dust of regrets and letdowns
that i can never come clean of

the shadows dance in the alleyways
the darkness plays in the sun
the children all searching to find a way
for these shades of gray to be fun

we've been living on the wrong side of town
for way, way to long
we are lost when we wake up
still lost when we lay down
and i think it's time we find our way out

lately I’ve begun to notice
things haven’t changed at all
they are all the same
as they were when I was small

maybe my eyes have changed
maybe my life is stained
maybe I can’t understand
why the colors drain and the sun dims

maybe we've been living on the wrong side of town
for way, way to long
we are lost when we wake up
still lost when we lay down
and i think it's time we find our way out


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Find the Strength to Say Goodbye - I Was Once Insecure

Chorus: You are my saving grace You traced tranquility on my lips Behind closed doors, there are secrets to unfold Find your way out of your own maze You can’t save me this time Find the energy to run the extra mile Find the strength to say goodbye sooner or later Later for now…let me sway away…let me flutter away Think on me…think of me… Believe in me…reflect on me…
We all want love at some point in our silly lives… We all want the violence to cease… We all need peace right now…give me a piece of your peace, baby Find the strength to say goodbye I can’t say farewell…oh no, not yet…all I want to do is cry Don’t ask why I weep insecurely… So bitterly, I dig deep in my depression relentlessly Your love is so priceless – like a hidden diamond in the cave As a team, we can find the strength to say goodbye; However, we must be brave… I break out of my shell My comfort zone is fading away…oh well…
Chorus: You are my saving grace You traced tranquility on my lips Behind closed doors, there are secrets to unfold Find your way out of your own maze You can’t save me this time Find the energy to run the extra mile Find the strength to say goodbye sooner or later Later for now…let me sway away…let me flutter away Think on me…think of me… Believe in me…reflect on me…
I yawn non-stop As I awaken from my solitary cave… You’re sleeping beneath the surface – you are unique and brave You are beautiful and strong You are sharp and headstrong I want you to know that I love you so… I want you to reap what you sow… Reap what you sow, you know?


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Samantha Thornton

I really never could have dreamed or even pictured the day
That the lord would take you from me but he toke you away 
I deeply wish he would have toke me but instead he choose you
And now i'm lost out in this world not know what i should do
I lost a special part of me you are my heart and my soul
I seem to feel so incomplete because you made me feel whole
I never thought that at this moment i'd be having to cry
While thinking of you for a minute as i'm watching the sky
I see your face out in the darkness as i'm closing my eye's
And Sam it's hurting at this moment as i'm saying good bye
I hope you're listening to this words because they're not filled with lies
Yea you can see my deep emotion for the tears in my eye's
I never had a broken heart until that day i lost you
And on that very same day i lost a part of me to
Now while i'm still down on this earth i'm still going to do what i do
But keep a seat right beside you because i'm going to meet you there boo...........................


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Satisfaction of my eyes


Stimulant art of my eyes,
your image entices my sight.
Gloomily lost in your world,
a tranquil sight ever seen
in a girl. This physical lust in
you I feel, my eyes must be 
fulfilling it's own dreams.

Measured by my heavenly
desires, a satisfaction of
my depiction. Seduced by 
her eyes I'm lost and deeply
mesmerise by the visions of
your existence, a could be
taste of my perfection.

No resistance to controlling
my view, I can't take my eyes 
of you, touching you is all I see 
but holding you could be what
I need. Heaven has brought
you me, a satisfaction in you I 
feel.


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Pieces Of Fall

Bark mulch and oak leaves               Hear the call
scattered down and brown                  away
Dirt road's old farm house                 in a memory
shuttered and shut down

people who lived there                   It's not there
are lost in the rain                       and they
hunting and searching                       were not looking
what they can't regain

Standing in puddles                      It's not there
oak leaf blackened now                      and they
huddled and clinging                         just keep looking
to one remembered vow

Spring green and dancing                 It's not fair
Windsong wild days                         a pair
returning tomorrow                           of lost lovers
staying til Summer haze


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Can you tell Me

Can you tell me why I feel so upset?
Can you tell me that you have no regrets?
Can you tell me why I’m emotional,
Can you tell me anything at all?
Can you tell me what I’m doing wrong?
Why is the day taking so long?
I wanna know why I feel this way,
I wanna know why people cant change.
Why is there so much violence... why is there so much pain?
Why are we – So full of hate and grief?
What an end to a ****ty day, oh,
What an end to a ****ty day!
Can you tell me why I feel so confused?
Can you tell me why I knew it was too good to be true?
I don’t know what's goin on in my head,
let alone yours, now I’m feelin brain dead.
I want you to wanna talk to me,
I don’t care what about... just ANYTHING!
Can you tell me why I feel so upset?
Can you tell me that you have no regrets?
Can you tell me why I’m emotional,
Can you tell me anything at all?
Can you tell me what I’m doing it wrong?
Why is the day taking so long?


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If I Could Again

Remembering the sun those days
the smell of the sea
northwest breeze.
A thought flew thru me
hit me brought me back again
is that you?
I close my eyes 
stumble around the rocks
a memory saved of you I find.
Then another thought flows thru me
hits me while I'm here
must be you.
Time got lost inside my mind.
But thoughts of you I always find.
Open my eyes not here I cry.
Take me to the beach where seagulls fly.
I close my eyes to dream of you.
I close my eyes to dream I'll be with you.
I close my eyes to love on you.
I close my eyes to dream to be with you.
Those summer nights with friends at parties
we were young once
flying kites.
As the sun covered me
the ocean deep blue
I remember set you free.
Now I watch those good old times
in my head
favorite movie I hit rewind.
What I remember most with you
lieing there all night
with you feeling right.
Time got lost inside my mind.
Memories of you I always find.
I close my eyes just to have that time to dream of you.
At the beach where seagulls fly.
With you if I could again I would again with you.
I close my eyes just to dream of you.
In my dream I could again with you.
Oh yes with you all over again.
Twice a million times with you.
Its you with I would again.
If I could again oh yes,
I would with you again.


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Hard to Explain

I’ve lost family, my friends vanished, and love was disillusioned. I fail to remember when I lost myself that is why I carry on with my mouth taped, hands hammered down to this splintered chair, legs tide down like a criminal that I am, before I let you know what you don’t see and mislay you as well.


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You've Gone

You said "why don't you just get over it",
But it's really not that easy,
I feel incomplete without you here,
Wondering where we went wrong.

For once I was happier than ever,
I could feel the fireworks,
I felt the sparks and saw the color
In your cheeks when we kissed.

I heard warmth in your words,
Saw your eyes sparkle, 
How could you say it was a mistake,
It was all just a lie?

I've lost my way now,
Can't get back home,
No matter how far I travel
It's never far enough.

I'm running to the place,
The one you once called home,
And I can't stop from screaming your name,
But I know you won't be there.

I’m trying my hardest, really,
But I’m constantly being reminded,
It’s not fair but what can I do?
I swore that was the last time.

It’s not like you didn’t know
I loved you, you knew, the thing is,
I thought you felt this way too,
And now your story’s changed to suit you.

What were you so afraid of?
You promised me forever,
What made you change your mind?
I don’t understand.

I've lost my way now,
Can't get back home,
No matter how far I travel
It's never far enough.

I'm running to the place,
The one you once called home,
And I can't stop from screaming your name,
But I know you won't be there.

And all I can say is,
I tried, I tried to love you
But you didn’t want it,
You pulled away.

So why can’t I stay away?
You’re a drug, you left me
Breathless, defenseless,
Nowhere else to turn.

You said "just move on, 
I don’t know what you expect of me",
I was just a silly mistake to you,
A foolish girl who fell for lies.

I've lost my way now,
Can't get back home,
No matter how far I travel
It's never far enough.

I'm running to the place,
The one you once called home,
And I can't stop from screaming your name,
But I know you won't be there

Every minute I waste
Is another minute gone,
But I can’t stop myself,
You got under my skin.

Made a home inside my heart,
And tore my feelings apart,
I’ve become numb, I don’t
Know what to feel anymore.

It’s so frustrating, tiring to still
Stand here waiting, hoping
You’ll change your mind and see
I’ve always been here.

And maybe this is just
A repeat of everything,
Maybe I do deserve better,
But I never wanted better.

I've lost my way now,
Can't get back home,
No matter how far I travel
It's never far enough.

I'm running to the place,
The one you once called home,
And I can't stop from screaming your name,
But I know you won't be there....


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Butterlfy Stitches

My fingers are cold. 
My heart is broken. 
There is just some things that i was hoping i could say to you. 
Because now we're through. 
And there's nothing i can do. 
To get back to you. 
Because they've stolen you. 
And now, i lay here in tears. 
Without you near i've lost control of the weel and i'm lost on this long road. 
There was no more deciet. 
I followed your wishes. 
Only to be torn by you and heald together with butterfly stitches. 


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A Love That Was Lost

I have a shoebox filled with old photos
The way it used to be
Is now just a memory
I have to hide it from myself
Because I know
I’ll get lost in my imagination
When I wake up and you’re not there
I close my eyes again
When it all started 
I thought I have found my best friend
You were the love of my life
Now we have both moved on
You with your life
Me with mine
I wonder if you ever think of us
How it used to be
Instead you have her
And he has me
If we could do it all again
I think I’d rather keep you as a friend
When did we lose our connection?
How did our love burn out?
We were each other’s everything
Nothing could stop us
Now we don’t even speak
I can’t say I blame you
This love took a toll on both of us
Somehow we lost each other in this cold world.


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Lost Angeles

I was a soldier fallen from grace
Angels surround me saving my face 
Lonely and scattered struggling to find
A place I could trust to share my mind. 

I found the soup 
Then it found me 
We began a journey 
That set my heart free

A comment here, a contest winner
I could spill my words without feeling a sinner
A second home that took me away 
From any dirt that came my way. 

I found the soup 
Then it found me 
We began a love 
That set my heart free

As time rolled on 
I judged others writing
Loving the way 
I could feel people fighting 

To earn first place in the contests I ran
Made me feel useful
Body starting to mend 

The chemistry was right 
When I wrote through the night 
The soup saved me soul 
As a soldier I fight 

I was a soldier falling from grace
Then I met soup and I'm back in the race. 


Kristen bruni. June 19, 2014.


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Trust me

I was the one who brought you up
I was the one who wiped away your tears
Now,
I am lost being under
Because I am blinded by the feeling I fear

I had lost you in the end
And you were my one true friend
Why can't you see
I was trying to set you free
Free from everything
Please
Trust Me

Fallen inside
Broken within
Shattered helplessly
Crawling in between
Crippled into Bits
Heart left to bleed
The Happiness I seek
Fades away from me
Tears Falling
Hopes Ending
Escape From the wind
The dark flows in
Cried Inside
Screaming in my Mind
Screamed in the Light
Light that never shines
Opened Up my Eyes
See where I am Heading
In My life

I had given you everything
But you never see
I can set you free
I can make you happy
If you 
Just
Trust Me


Please


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it's All in My heAd

It's all in my head
It's all in my head
It's all in my head
It's all in my head

Well, my ceiling's my wall and my wall is too bright
I can't remember the plan and everyday is a fight
I'm tired of being sick, I'm sick of being down
I'm down on myself and I'm tired of this frown
I never asked to be myself, but I'm glad I am
And If the world can't take me then why give a damn?
I'd rather die young than live old and alone
I'd rather be myself than be another clone

I've lost what? My mind you say?
I don't see how, all I want is play
But I can't play anymore, I'm too far gone
It's dusk here when it should be dawn

Well I was a razor and love got cut
I guess I had it coming, it sucks, but
It doesn't make me sad, I guess it's kinda bad
I'd rather it be them than me, I'm talking 'bout sad
So I told them I'd stop it but I lie too well
And all I've thought about is why my heaven is hell
I won't lie again, this'll be the hardest test
And If I lie twice I think I'll follow the rest

I've lost what? My mind you say?
I don't see how, all I want is play
But I can't play anymore, I'm too far gone
It's dusk here when it should be dawn

So it's beginning, but it's over it seems
I don't even think, I just try to daydream
I want the dreams to stay forever
But for that I guess I'd have to be clever
I say I have plans but I plan on nothing
Being this easy is ok, but it's not something
I didn't do enough, I did what I could but
I'm doing what I want not doing what I should

I've lost what? My mind you say?
I don't see how, all I want is play
But I can't play anymore, I'm too far gone
It's dusk here when it should be dawn
So I think I'll think it over in my bed
And I'll try to remember that it's all in my head
It's all in my head
It's all in my head
It's all in my head
It's all in my head
 


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Wise Ones

So, its time to rise up, and wake up the wise ones
No one will want to see the lives lost
couldn’t see, couldn’t tell 
Lets take a break  and check out the run down
Dozzing off, nodding here, nodding left
couldn’t fake death if I even tried
Yeah, your blowing kisses tonight girl
Sitting on a secret, sitting on a secret that’s when you

Put me in a car and, drove if off a cliff then.
Told me it was because the way I whispered
I put you in a coma, with the words I had stuttered
Makes you think a lot about that long lost summer

Lay down, do you want to link our lockets?
Hold on to mine, I don’t want to lose it
Losing it, is like losing you
Friendship is my middle name
Did you know that?
Wander off, nodding here, 
couldn’t fake death if I even tried
Yeah, your blowing kisses tonight girl
Sitting on a secret, sitting on a secret that’s when you

Put me in a car and, drove if off a cliff then.
Told me it was because the way I whispered
I put you in a coma, with the words I had stuttered
Makes you think a lot about that long lost summer


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Purgatory

Locked in a room waiting upon inescapable doom.  I`ve lost my sanity here, no 
longer have anything to fear.  Made friends with the walls that keep me in 
isolation and caused me to go into desolation.  Lost all my reason and pride, all 
there is to do now is hide, and hope one day I leave this place called purgatory.


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The Bogs

      THE BOGS
You can here her faint voice in the brisk mornin breeze
sure she sings for her lover, down under the trees,
and all Ireland can hear every word she will sing,
when the bogs are dressed out in the colors of spring.

She will sing her heart out, every mornin at dawn
Allmighty, how she will sing, she will sing,
and her voice is a heart ache and brings a tear on
when she lost her lover, she lost every thing.

But the bogs have no mercy for a lass so alone
she sings every mornin each plea ever known,
and they'll never give up someone they might claim
if you go to far they will call out your name.

And she can sing, she can sing! 
I'll say she can sing!
Almighty, how she can sing!
And you will cry, you will cry.
When you hear her sing!
Almighty, how you will cry!


I am assuming many people will be able to read this in their minds, as they read line to line, in the traditional Irish voice as the poem was originally written, this being a translation. I will submit the original a little later...


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The Deluge

The Deluge.

finally the deluge

skipping in rhythmic heartbeats
the softly sprinkling rain

hums and lulls and cajoles and comforts
the weary evening
 
glistening leaves
on beaming trees
 
blades of grass shimmer
like rough diamonds strewn about
 
and settling in my heart
is the softly lilting touch
of peace
of truth
 
of the rain clearing away
the debris of this passing day
 


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Fantastic Flight - Chapter 4 - In the Long Run

*chorus*

The mountain winds are howling its stormy resentment
The snow glitters on the triumphant mountains…
I’ve tried to conceal these feelings of discontent
My eyes are spraying with tears of sorrow – weep no more, sad fountains
Don’t push me to the limits – I breathe in and out
I let go of my anxiety and trade it with prosperity– 
I’m one with the passionate, frozen desires in my heart 
I’m strong like Sampson in the bible – 
Let the light of day unfreeze my heart’s agony and avarice
I don’t want to believe in those silly allegories…
Am I your living sacrifice?
My heart is as cold as ice…I need to take His advice!
I have faced reality alone before
Is this real or is this a myth? There’s more land to explore!

~Last Verse~ 
Accidents happen – I keep saying that in my mind like a broken record
But, it ruefully discards it – I’m lost instead of found
I can’t afford losing you – you were my heart’s melodic tune and you made me taste accord!
I’m homeward bound…my mind’s spinnin’ round and round
Fantastic flight – be my target tonight and let me take wing and overcome this plight!
Let me take wing and let me unveil God’s light! Everything’s gonna be alright!
The past is behind me – bury it…don’t dig it up! Let it go for the time being and I want to your eyes, bliss-sprinkled behind those spectacular spectacles!
The past will not bring me down to ruins or in poverty – let me get down on my knees and pray – let me be for a while and I’ll be a believer of your wonder-filled miracles! 
Fantastic flight – you make me high like a child’s beloved kite 
Fantastic flight of dazzling delight – don’t let me drift away from the light of His truth…I’m reaching a divine height…I’m flying with all of my remaining might!
You’re hidden from the surface overhead…you’re way above me!
I’m not the sparkling sea as you can possibly see…you’re as elegant as can be! 

*BRIDGE* Take away the grief…trade me with everlasting relief
The sin course inside of me – it becomes serpentine…
Take me away to your dwelling place…you are beyond belief!
You’re as bittersweet and blissful as the finest of wine
I’m driving on another lane...
It’s the abyss that I have tried to avoid before
Don’t let me be driven insane…
You’re the one I’ve always wanted – let’s not wage war 
Let’s not wage war anymore!
The sin weighs me down like cruel gravity…
I feel the sense that I’m captivity-bound….I’m grounded for life…Help me!
Help me, please? I can’t handle feeling this pity!
I have a feeling things will eventually work out in the long run – I want you to be brave & free!


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LONELY

I walked a lonely path, with no one by my side,
Walking through puddles of tears that I have cried.

I try to move forward, but I am stuck in the past,
All by myself, and wishing love would last.

They say nothing is forever, but time marches on,
So I count my blessings with every waking dawn.

I have lost friends and lovers, I have lost alot in my life,
I pray to find happiness, each and ever night.

Should I keep going, should I stay focused,
Hard to keep moving, when everything seems hopeless.

I try to get some years back, I try to understand,
I try to be perfect, but I am just a man.

I try to keep my head up, but it is hard to stand,
I  try to do my best, I do what I can.

It is hard to stay happy, depression setting in,
My past is my problem, future getting grim.

I will wake up tomorrow to another lonely day,
I would be happy where I  am, if I could only stay.


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I'm Sorry

I’m sorry I didn’t cry when you lost your dad
I’m sorry that I always made you mad
I’m sorry that I couldn’t hold you tight
And tell you that I love you with all my might
I’m sorry that I always called you names 
Sorry I was mean and caused you pain
Saying bad things that I regret
I hope that one day you will forgive.

I’m sorry that I didn’t see your hurt
I’m sorry I was once a stupid girl
I’m sorry that I didn’t love and respect
Turning our marriage into a wreck
Please forgive me for being wrong
And all those nights I cried all night long
I knew that you really cared for me
I was just blind and I couldn’t see.

I’m sorry that your life has been so hard
Tryin’ your best but not gettin’ very far
Life’s punching you from left and right
You just want to quit and give up the fight
And I know that you’re still hurting inside
You married again so you wouldn’t have to cry
With your heart still broken from before
You try to hide that you’re still unsure.

I’m sorry that your brother took the easy way out
I’m sorry you couldn’t help him when he was in doubt
I’m sorry that your life has been so cruel
Nothing but an ugly joke to you
And so from time to time I continue to pray
I hope that you’ll call on HIM someday
So you’ll be filled with His grace and love
And be protected from the Lord God above.

And now that your left here all alone
Empty inside tryin’ to fill the hole
Goin’ down the wrong path and through the wrong door
Your soul’s left empty and you’re wanting more
Thinking to yourself will things ever change
Wondering why God had made you this way
Cause you’re not livin’ your just here
Goin’ through the motions of life in fear.

And so you try to keep movin’ on
Survivin’ and tryin’ to keep yourself strong
But you rely on others to hold you up
And you keep on passin your sufferin’ cup
“Why does it have to be this way
Why can’t I have peace and live happily”
Let me tell you this to your lost soul
Surrender to God and then you will know.


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A LOST PASSION ONLY EVOKED BY FELICITY

Yesterday we held so close, sharing tenderness
Heaven was our refuge from an earth deprived of sweetness; 
no gray and dark clouds in our sky so wide and blue... 
when we sailed from a sea which welcomed the smiles of two.


Looking out from my window, no desire is deeper than mine,
but wishes are dreams not easily obtained by being sorry...considering this reality;
and it might take forever to see one realized in present time,
but my faint hope is kept alive by remembering a lost passion only evoked by felicity.


Tender love of yesterday, will you quickly return to these lips?
I long to smell those roses and see the thousands butterfly, so shy,
circling around us as we kissed watching the foamy waves roll by...
making us dream of the many treasures in those sunken ships.


Sunlight refuses to come in on a sunny day, although my garden blooms...
so sadness is the mood I'm caught in, and unable to escape it, I seem to dread: 
imagining your revengeful phantom pacing the floor of these cold rooms;
and would you harm me for my unfaithfulness and rapture me in that world? 


I haven't loved anyone the way I loved you, but temptation was stronger than honesty,
and losing all that I desired to complete that wonderful dream stolen by error,
everything fell apart..making me feel worse than a soldier stricken with terror;
can I still feel the joy of each sensation through a lost passion only revoked by felicity?   


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My friend the enemy

My great escape has taken me captive the pleasure is lost replaced with regret
Lately my ego has been over active no small measure since i haven't lost it all yet
The risk is great the reward much better lately i tire and i don't feel i can endure
i tell my self your so damn clever Iam also a liar i only need just one cure

the back and forth the same situations same old tale it was only just a taste
the shame and all the accusations how Ive tried to fail and my existence is a waste
i understand the concept i know to play the game but presently I'm caught in the motion
preparing for the onset of the old familiar pain that unwanted torrent of emotion

If i succeed to come back down the weight lessens but the excuses are right at hand
always push my self around an ego bully sessions the things my darker side can demand
i see the obvious outcome i don't blink an eye i go until the motors seized
try to do a little less but then i wonder why at least this way one half of me is pleased

watch the world around me from distance place close at hand buried deep inside
once again it found me the beast is real persistent and he never gives to pride
my body a prison cell locking out the rain and light so it can devour the hole that's rotting
make the first incision a second wrapped in delight no other me no constant plotting

in the end i know it will be for not haven't learned lessons that were taught I'm the only 
person that i fought
i want to make it right gain a little ground and  some insight save a little strength for the last 
round of the fight
put it all aside seek out those who in which i could confide what could the other me do when 
it can no longer provide
starve out the traitor self serving dog offers no favor a greedy needy voice that keeps me 
awake my on self hater

this time i need to recover my mind is cracking and my sickly body always has the aches
don't want to suffer i know I'm found still lacking but i want to change for my own sake
when i leave behind this part of me instantly the years of hurt will just up and go away
it isn't so kind he will always be there whispers constantly put away color for the endless gray


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Pain

Have u ever been in pain

that it made ur mind insane

as i look around to see that every things the same

u look to blame

but all u see is yourself

ur bodys losing its health

and u lost ur wealth

everybody looks at u like ur stuck on stealth

u try to turn to the people that care

but in there eyes ur nathing but air

how could u bare

u think like this isnt fare

its like u lost ur flare

and u see urself in a glare

but by now u just dont care

so u stop and u start to swear

everybody just stops to stare

u say how do u think u can compare

u put my life in despair

everybody starts to think

a girl gave me a wink

my worlds starting to blink

i think i need a drink

im writing the song but im runing out of ink

my heads starting to shrink

i think im about to sink

its over now i think i reach the brink

my life is nothing but another link


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premonition

it makes me feel like dieing again
it pushes my thoughts aside
come on lets go for a ride
drown me in the water so deep
im dreaming please wake me from this sleep
out of time and out on my feet
  i had a premonition today
  saw my life flash and fade away
  theres not a word i could use to convey
  how i feel i think ive lost my way
crashing waves out back of my brain
i think ive lost my mind again
this is becoming a trend
down this road i twist and bend
to try and find you my friend
my broken heart i need you to mend
  i had a premonition today
  saw my life flash and fade away
  theres not a word i could use to convey
  how i feel i think ive lost my way
i bleed out but you see only scars
hear the screams echoing from afar
wide open space and all you see are bars
take my hand please show me the way
off this bed of nails in which i lay
take the edge off the pain of this day
  i had a premonition today
  saw my life flash and fade away
  theres not a word i could use to convey
  how i feel i think ive lost my way
i think i have something to say
im riddled with thoughts of dismay
set me free release me from this cage
  i had a premonition today
  saw my life flash then fade away
  theres not a word i could use to convey
  how i feel i think ive lost my way


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Sunday Carolina

My life’s apart 
My toes I’d touch 
But I could do 
Without the rush 

Midnight calls 
Again Liquor’s saved my day 
I see you not 
I guess I’ve lost my way 

Morning comes 
My coffee’s stale 
Let us 
Check the mail 
The door bell rings 
T-shirt with no jeans 

No class today 
Wide awake 
And I might not 
Last the wait 

This evenings cloud 
Have shaken my doubts 
I wonder 
If I’ll ever make it out 

Home from work 
Dreary eyes 
I lost my paintbrush 
In my shirt 

I’ve spoken soft 
Worded cloth 
But my quill 
Has written dry 
And to my dreams 
My days 
Might not say goodnight 

Lost my wave 
Astray in change 
There’s no tempo in this trap 
I am in dire need of a nap 

"Her songs after brunch"


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Final Call

Stop
close your eyes
it's all been done
now pay the price
can't help it now
you've lost it all
hold your breath
it's final call

Don't need anybody
don't make a sound
just close your eyes
let it all crash down
won't hear anybody
never make a sound
when the blood hits the sink
and there's darkness all around

Do it now
that's what you hear
the voice in your head
is loud and clear
what happens next
is up to you
do you drop the blade
before life drops you

Stop
just close your eyes
it's all been done
you've paid the price
can't help it now
you've lost it all
no more breath
at this final call


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I found the way

I admired power ,money and fame;
Hated everybody claimed me to blame
Wandered in hell without shame;
I lost all , I became lame.

When life decayed inch by inch;
I began to loathe everybody and each;
Strived to hide nobody could reach;
No matter if it was an enormous peach.

Fear of GOD peeped into my twilight;
I longed to heal gruesome path of fright;
pain of remorse kicking out of sight;
struggled to refresh heart pale white.

I was trapped in life  beyond serenity;
People saw me as I lost my sanity;
I dreamed to seek GOD the purity;
Stared patiently till I get vicinity.

In a silent night as  world came to cease;
under the starry dome I prayed for peace;
mingled with enticing fragrance in breeze;
Something overtook my soul ending unease.

I dragged up desire of living to a hoard;
forgetting how to weep or to be bored;
Grasped the beam of light me to award;
I found the way to eternal  almighty GOD.


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Gates Of God's Decision

One Hour into school and im hearing news but not believing
what they say,it comes again
in the form of wicked sadness destroying seamen rank by rank
adn my tears fall inside like flanks,in my shaking head
I hold this in mind
and let truth behold all i might not see and death brings me closer to the seams
of life and im so afraid
im a coward of time and i've got so many cards I dealt 
but the ace is hidden by my side
and lastnight it was Sunday May 5th 2008
and somehow we they got there late
I just know it was'nt your time but we all will be fine 
you will be missed and we'll remember this time when we had to say goodbye
and our tears flow like new life
and at the drop of a hat,
a mother lost a daughter,father lost a girl,we lost an angel 
and God gained your grace students lost a hero,I know im way past my limit 
so why do I write still,but i know somehow i'll prove you're living in our brain
Mrs.Gates we miss you dearly as you glowed with day 
and will always be remembered not erased

 "This Poem/Song is dedicated to the Family,Friends,Students and staff who 
were touched by this Angel's Grace,R.I.P. Mrs.Gates"


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lost

i am lost in the world
of lies and fear
i cant regain my self
from all these tears
they just find it natural
to fall magically
with all the pain around me
i dont understand why i am here
nothing to gain
all is lost
with the friends i had
and the love which gone
i dont feel my heart
for it hide in fear
oh breaking down
in to nothing but tears
we are made of dust
but i feel like dirty
i am guessing
dirty is worse
for no one get
how i feel and how i am hurt
the sadness inside me
kills me slowly
with pleasure and smiles
the pain eats me
like the darkness in my room
slowly eating all
i cant even see my escape door
for this is it
this is the end
i am lost in the world
with nothing
i am lost int the world
of lies and fear
and all i am in
is just in a bunch of tears


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Please Stay

Creeping gently into sight, warm touch from the distant light.
So far away you have been from this distance.
My presence I send.
So full of good with an evil heart, one day to tear us apart.
When you see it too you'll turn these grey skies blue.
So I'll stay, my presence with you, just for the day.

Come take this pain away from this sky so grey.
I'm screaming to you, please listen to what I say.
Flat top clouds in the sky, tell me your alibi.
What reason for this dark emptiness can you say?
Please go away.

Disappearing out of sight, cool breath felt from the winds might.
Farther away you have yet to go and the distance clings.
You pass so slow.
You're so lost without my presence there, into emptiness I stare.
When you feel it too you'll do what you have to.
So I might, know I care for you, stay for the night.

Come take this pain away from this sky so dark.
I'm screaming for you, please listen to what I say.
Vast black sky so distant, your sparks have left their mark.
What reason for this dark loveliness can you say?
Please go away.

Lost without you, you're lost without me and I need you here with me.
Wash this night away and bring back the skies that cry for a warm touch from the 
distant light.


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Why Loss

and I still don’t know why
you’ve done this to me
I’ve lost so much
and yet you insist
again and again and again
on making me lose more.

it was so much easier
believing you didn’t
love me
don’t still
love me
because then I don’t have to see 
that I might still
love you too.

and I’m afraid.
I’m afraid that I’ll live
in the land of emotionality
too long
for me to pull myself out
and I’m afraid for the state
of my mind
my dignity
my self-respect
if that line rings
and you give me
all I want to hear. 

and I still don’t know why
you’ve done this to me
I’ve lost so much
and yet you insist
again and again and again
on making me lose more.

if you understood 
the toll you take
what I’ve had to pay out
to pass your bridge
you wouldn’t ask silly questions
that only bring you and me
more grief
and more tears
than are probably warranted
for I knew you
I knew of you
so I can’t blame anyone 
but myself.

so

I still don’t know why
I’ve done this to me
I’ve lost so much
and yet I insist
again and again and again
on making me lose more.


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Get Out Of Here

I've been down this road that leads nowhere
Just trying to get home again
Oh I wish it was just around this way
But I don't think I'll find it today
No I don't think I'll get out of here
Never get out of here

Each step I take is cold all alone
But I always feel like I get nowhere at all
If only someone could help me ahead
But I've seen no one and no words are said
No I don't think I'll get out of here

But oh, I'll make my way
Then no, it may be quick to say
That all of this will be okay
My heart is lost and my mind moves fast
I don't know how long I can last

It's a long long time since I've seen anyone
Is it me that they don't want to see
Oh it must just be how they are
Still I wish they'd care after I've come so far
And I don't think I'll get out of here
No I'll never get away

Why am I here?
Have I something to fear?
Is the end near?
No, I don't think I'll get out of here

But oh, I'll make my way
Then no, it may be quick to say
That all of this will be okay
My heart is lost and my mind moves fast
I don't know how long I can last


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Notel Motel

NOTEL MOTEL




DON’T FEEL LOST IN YOUR DREAMS 
THROUGH THE SEA OF YOUR MEMORIES
‘COZE YOU’LL GET ANOTHER CHANCE
IT’S BEEN A LONG WAY HOME
NOW YOU REMEMBER
DARK SHADOWS JEALOUS LOVERS
TRICK TO GET YOU IN HELL
IT’S BEEN A LONG TIME COMING
REMEMBER THAT SPECIAL TIME



WHEN YOU COULD HAVE STAYED
IN A NOTELMOTEL SMILING BABY

WHEN YOU COULD HAVE STAYED 
IN A MOTELNOTEL SMILING BABY



DON’T FEEL LOST IN YOUR DREAMS 
THROUGH THE SEA OF YOUR MEMORIES
‘COZE YOU’LL GET ANOTHER CHANCE
IT’S BEEN A LONG WAY HOME
NOW YOU REMEMBER

YOUR LOVER YOUR LOVER





Jezabella Kipp


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The Train by: Randy Johnson & George Martin

Tonight I sit here feeling alone and blue, 
My heart filled with agony and pain.
My home, my life destroyed in the morning dew,
For I lost her, to a fast moving train.

She used to laugh when she'd tell me, 
Honey I did it, I beat another train again.
But today, that all ended in tears for me,
Cause I lost her, to a train in the rain.

It happened on those tracks in Tennessee, 
When her engine stalled and her car was dead.
A fast moving train, heading for Montgomery, 
Was coming, full steam ahead.

Morning had dawned, when the train collided with her car, 
The train engine smoking, as it tore it to shreds.
Now I'm living my life in misery, staring at the stars.
For the one that I loved now is dead.

Oh! the whistle was blowing,. 
The streets were echoing
But she was gone in an instant, 
Her car ripped to pieces.
My wifes life was taken, 
On the morning of Easter.
And when the train came to a stop that day, 
It was five and one half blocks away.

Now as I sit here alone, 
I feel I don't want to go on living.
For my wife, she taught me a lesson, 
And now I cling to her pillow in agony.

Off in the distance, I hear another train. 
As I wonder, if tonight I could be holding her hand.
Because now, my wife lives in heaven, 
And for Easter, I had bought a new wedding band.

Oh! the whistle was blowing, 
The streets were echoing.
But she was gone in an instant, 
Her car ripped to pieces.
My wifes life was taken, 
On the morning of Easter.
And when the train came to a stop that day, 
It was five and one half blocks away.

Oh, when the train came to a stop that day, 
It was five and one half blocks away.


Co Write: Randy Johnson & George Martin

by: Randy Johnson (aka: randyjohnson)
George Martin (pageorge61)


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My Love not meant to be.

My love for you I hold true
my feeling lost or confused
Not sure which one to hear
My thoughts so dark

My mind full of doubt
My heart covered my walls once more
For them to fall I must fall
Let all defenses fail

Let my heart protect it's self
To see my self looking at you 
Only confusion fills my mind

My heart and soul
They bleed pain
Confusion, Hate
I fear my self and my heart

My mind does not even know
What is possible
If I show the world my love

They'll turn in despair
My only hope no is to run

Run form those like you 
Of whom I Love
My heart is lost 

No help for me
Only pain
Confusion takes over
No more free will
Overprotected by my heart

What else to think 
But no love for me


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Slipping Into Darkness (from Scenes from Above)

Once again I'm here to testify
Beg your God to bless my life! 
Senior citizens point me out as the devils advocate
So extravagant, A prisoner of my own arrogance
Passed a black rose and saw Satan blush
Harrassed so he chose hating a passionate rush
Satisfaction of seeing angels and demons lust
A mixture of culture
Draining elixir, like a blood thirsty vulture
From the bottomless pitts they've cursed this structure 
And now I'm slipping into darkness
And I can't sleep
Pleasant dreams were promises
But I've fallen to deep
Now I'm just a lost soul slipping into darkness
Beat every factor but death
The secrets that time won't tell
The shadows and spirits that greed won't sell
Bless the date of my mothers final contraction
Eager thoughts of an innocents gurls erections
Knocked down the door
And told her to
"Close your eyes and spread your legs for your own protection"
You gone take this and with no objections
And if I ever find you
I won't bother to creep up behind you
Splice your tongue, make you remember my mom
Pass the memories around 
Let em know you took advantage of a defenseless woman 
And left her in the lost and found! 
And now i'm slippin into darkness
And I can't sleep, I've fallen so deep
That now I'm slipping into darkness


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Revenant of a Soul

I feel like a Revenant of my former self
I'm lost to all, lost to my heart and soul
And yet I linger on

Unwanted by heaven or hell
Left here to finish my business

But yet there is nothing for me here
I am bored with this existence
Its tediousness tires me

I'm weary of this world
I don't like what it does to me

It takes my heart and twists my will
I cannot control myself sometimes
I lose what I am and what I believe

I can't stop it, its inevitable
I believe I will continue forever like this...

Each feeling, each emotional dart
strikes true to my heart, yet, it is not there
It is no longer part of this semi-existence

Its traversed like my soul to a high plane
A plane where it can no longer be torn asunder.

I fight every day just to feel what I once wished I could not
I fight for my self control as I grow to hate this land more and more
I fight on for some sort of reason in life

I don't know why I fight, its all I have....


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A Child in War

As the dust burns my weary eyes
I push on and compromise 

Looking for a long lost dream 
Of swimming through the waters clean

Bombs echoing in the distance
Dead and gone in an instance

Praying to god for every breath
A candle lit for every death

It is here I sit all alone 
A heart that burns turns to stone

A concert of horror ringing clear
I run and hide all in fear

I steal and lie to survive 
Of my family I am the only life

Oh! Please set me free
My wish repeated instantly!

In my mind all is rage 
I feel locked up in a cage

When will this nightmare end?
A stray bull dog my only friend

During the nights we stay warm
We help each other through the storms

Our night lights, are burst from your guns
The politicians say we are the ones

The ones who kill day to day
For when I grow up they will pay

My train of thought, pains me now and then
When I know war is a means to an end

Sometimes I try to escape
But I was turned in for a stay

Slaving for the men of war
Sometimes a cook, sometimes a whore

Oh! Please set me free
My wish repeated instantly

I have to kill to get away
I can no longer bear the pain 

My knife slides across their throats
I’m caked in blood that coat’s

Before I could run I heard screaming
I continued my work while the tears were streaming

In a way I am glad I was caught
Now I can join that heavenly lot!

My hound of war was first feed to me
Then I was beat to subdue me!

Almost to the point of certain death
But they tortured my every breath

They kept me breathing for the rope.
They slung my body from the post

I choked and kicked all I could
While the others just watched from where the stood

Before I lost my failing senses 
I prayed to god just to end this

At that moment my prayers were sealed
A boy in the crowd revealed his steel

A rip of pain through the chest
The bullet entered and did its best

For a few days my body was displayed
For those under slavery to see who disobeyed 

After a few days my body was searched
Only a small diary was all the thieves could perch

Meaningless thoughts were rattled out of rhyme
A small short story of the life that was my time

Beckoning to those that are still at war
Freedom is a bullet wound for the soul to finally soar.

Oh! Please set me free
My wish repeated instantly.

That same boy who ended all this pain 
They ended him his efforts never vain






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Only Thirteen

The day it starts, leaving at 6 am
Walking to my car, everyday it begins
This windy morning, the rustling sound
I look and see a flyer appear on the ground

She was only thirteen,
Been missing a week
Brown hair and blue eyes
And freckled cheeks
Last seen on a night
When she went to the store
Last word was goodbye 
As she walked through the door

My heart in my mouth
She’s my daughter’s age
Gave feelings of sadness
A sense of rage
The thought of a baby
A lamb with the wolves
Sent shivers of fear,
Thoughts knowing, no good

She was only thirteen,
Been missing a week
Brown hair and blue eyes
And freckled cheeks
Last seen on a night
When she went to the store
Last word was goodbye 
As she walked through the door

My prayers for her family
And all of her friends
Good thoughts and kind wishes
Are all I can send
I’ll spend my day hoping
While doing daily tasks
That she will return safely
That is all that I ask

If there’s a Lord up in heaven
I believe, yes, there is
Then help this poor family
And grant me my wish
I pray that she’s fine now
Maybe just lost on the way
And hope she’s not taken
In a mere awful way

She was only thirteen,
Been missing a week
Brown hair and blue eyes
And freckled cheeks
Last seen on a night
When she went to the store
Last word was goodbye 
As she walked through the door

It’s been three whole months now
No sign of this girl
The parents’ only child
They lost their whole world
That poor missing girl
On the flyer on the ground
Just where did you go?
Why can’t you be found?


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Deceiving Light

Often we feel
joyfully, gladly
Something we have
received
But soon discover
gloomily
Our heart has been
deceived

An unknown loving
light
Appears in the
composed soul
Steals away the
bright
Smashing the world
whole

The days become
thirsty
The nights are all
restless
The thoughts be
empty
With the fruitless
clash

We wish for the hope
star
Gaping into the dark
night
A handicap stretches
afar
With broken, wounded
might


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Fantastic Flight - Chapter 3 - Treading on Hopeful Lane

(V.4 continued) There’s a joyful, wonderful future in store, despite this bittersweet sentiment
Brewing inside of me…these waves of emotions
Brew inside of me…ignore the ocean of commotions 
You’re my one and only awesome devotion
We can dance in this trance with the waves of majestic motion 
Radiant reveries swarm us like bees, hovering around the bee hive
Thank God that you and I are meant to be with each other – we are at ease and alive! 

*chorus*

The mountain winds are howling its stormy resentment
The snow glitters on the triumphant mountains…
I’ve tried to conceal these feelings of discontent
My eyes are spraying with tears of sorrow – weep no more, sad fountains
Don’t push me to the limits – I breathe in and out
I let go of my anxiety and trade it with prosperity– 
I’m one with the passionate, frozen desires in my heart 
I’m strong like Sampson in the bible – 
Let the light of day unfreeze my heart’s agony and avarice
I don’t want to believe in those silly allegories…
Am I your living sacrifice?
My heart is as cold as ice…I need to take His advice!
I have faced reality alone before
Is this real or is this a myth? There’s more land to explore!

(V.5) I know things aren’t black and white…
It won’t be for a while unfortunately
Until we make some rearrangements
Complete the act of change, 
Which is a challenging chore…what are you waiting for?
Make a chance that will change the world more and more!
Change is a challenging chore 
It’s hard to get out my comfort zone
I groan, for I’m left on my own…
Without you, the loneliness won’t leave me alone
The solitude grows colder…
I’m as dry and feeble as a bone 
The weeping of a thousand people 
Sounds like thousands of infants, 
Lament and discontent makes our heart 
Make grief-stricken, awful oaths
Serene Shores wash away the woeful afflictions 
That I’ve been through for many a year – 
Will you please forgive my disgraceful sins? Can you burn its evidence to the ground?
Those sins have been driving me insane . . . making me misery-bound!
And I’m still waiting for His healing rain   = - )
To erase the pangs of the past pains – I’m driving on a hopeful lane!


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I Lost My Love Today

I lost a major part of my life today
She was everything I ever could have wanted
Everything I could have possibly needed
And in one sad and fast swoop, she was taken from me

All because of one miserable drunk
Who got behind the wheel of his truck
When he was too intoxicated to drive
Her father was killed instantly

Her baby brother was unharmed,
Her mom was in a wheelchair for a few months
She died in the hospital a couple days later
I never got to say goodbye

I was so devastated of her passing
That I could not even go to her funeral
I should have been there,
Visited her in the hospital

When I had the chance
But I guess I was in so much shock
I could not stand to face her
I just wish she never had to say goodbye

Because we were both so in love
And now it all seems like nothing
Because I lost my love today
And somehow I have got to carry on


Details | I do not know? | |

Fleeting

If nothing good can last 
Then nothing can ever be so good again
We use to say “the day doesn’t end until the night ends
Well I’m caught in this perpetual darkness
With sleepless days and misunderstandings
And dreams that come with eyes wide awake
Take it for what you will take it all so well
Did you laugh when it fell
Like a crash within a flash you were gone

Take it for granted, take it for what you will
Will this medicine put me to sleep or will I weep
Loud cries and dying feelings lie within a broken heart a broken soul
Carved out with memories of you
All reincarnated within simple tears pooled on a lonely pillow as I lie alone

I couldn’t let go, every time I seen you I’m sure I started to glow
With a red so bright and hopes in eyes that wish only not to cry 
With tears failing to come replaced with burning eyes
I still remember, I still remember you
I live the events over and over again
Some have been through war 
Battles lost and won 
Laughs had, bad times filled with my bads
But few have lost it, few have lost the thing that means the most
Few have watched it blaze so bright, a testament, a guiding light
Now only a flicker of a candle with fleeting stray light
Off in the distance to make us remember

I’m crawling back there now, to a beautiful somewhere
I’ll wait there through winter’s bitter cold
And watch as the days grow old
I’ll live in a memory that won’t die
Never forget my old ties 
One day we’ll all be back again and relive days of old
As the tears fall each one matching a passing year
I’ll wait for a life time so I can say it one last time before I die
And hear it fall upon your ears
The candle will flicker and dim to a dull red
Hope that I heard what you said
And then awaken deaf ears 
Again it’s said I love you my dear


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All day long - Original by Rabindranath Tagore

All day long
I dance with the music of your song!

O my Ektara has only one string
It can’t bear the pain of songs that you sing!

All along
I have lost in this game of your song!

This string is tuned to make sound of the near
But you are playing your flute from up there!

Can everyone join that shore of your song
By the music to impress everyone?

All along
I have lost in this game of your song!


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misery

no chance to fight
i've lost all hope
fading dreams
all is misery
i've loved you
i've waited for you
no way to start
i've lost my heart
fading smiles 
all the pain
i've longed for
i've lived for you
no one to blame
i've sold my mind
fading faces
all the hate
i've dreamt of
i've did my part
no chance to fight
i've lost all hope
fading dreams
all is misery


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Forgotten

We have met nowhen and nowhere,
Everything has been forgotten,
Chips of love don't seem to touch us,
Our hearts are not too broken.
Pieces of love, small chips and droplets...
Everything has lost it's meaning...
All my words are in the air...
Is it too late to be forgiven?

A handful of pain
And my messages unanswered,
It's easier to pretend 
There is nothing about us.
Our love's being erased - 
I know, sometimes it happens...
Just ruins at our feet,
Our hearts are mistaken.

Make believe it all is clear,
Make believe it's all behind us,
Ruins, chips and drops of tears...
There is nothing able to part us.
I'm falling, love is holding me,
But I feel my arms are feeble.
I have lost the key, I know,
It's too late to be forgiven.

A handful of pain
And my messages unanswered,
It's easier to pretend 
There is nothing about us.
Our love's being erased - 
I know, sometimes it happens...
Just ruins at our feet,
Our hearts are mistaken.

Pieces of glass and pieces of porcelain...
Our love seemed to be eternal.
Time has stopped, we linger here,
It's the way we both have chosen.
We are staying in nowhere,
We are leaving here nowhen.
Our temple's walls have fallen,
Our temple has forgotten us...


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Whens it Gonna End?

Soliders overseas in Iraq
Many lost their freedom
Cause they lost their lives

Families over here in America 
Angry about that
No words to spreak to apoligize for that

Hey whens this gonna end
Whens enough blood gonna shed
Whats it gonna take to stop this war
Whens are troops comein back

Children here learning violence 
Takeing guns to school
Just for a little payback

Dads feelin guilty
Well he should
Bought more bullets just last wee
Now his son is lookin at 30 to life
Cause he took 13 kids life

Hey whens this gonna end
Whens enough blood gonna shed
Whats it gonna take to stop this war
Whens are troops comein back

News is always spillin bad things 
Thats all thats on anymore
Noone feels safe
Use to not always be like that
Hey whens this gonna end

Whens enough blood gonna shed
Whats it gonna take to stop this war
Whens are troops comein back

Hey America whens this gonna end
Whens enough blood gonna shed
Whats it gonna take to stop this war
We've been fightin at our own back door



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Sadness

Sadness

Gazing out without a doubt
Just looked out with no second thought
NO fear No pain Just lost in vain

Had no thoughts for the first time that made me smile
I just stood still and gazed out for a while
I clearly understood what was happening to me
Yet I wanted my mind to be completely free

I  never expected such things happening around
With no breath or sound
It still remained around
Mind Wandering in a bound
I wanted it yet profound
Not in a bound
Wandering Around

I seek and seek
Until I just closed my eyes and got lost 
Lost in very deep
In a thought so deep, didn’t realize I was in a sleep

It creeps over many a times,
Just pulls away all your energy
You hardly speak
You hardly talk
All you do is weep

But that is just another emotion 
Caused due to commotion
In the traffic of life
This is just another strife

Realizations turn to reality
Songs turn to sounds
No grey hounds
No long bounds

All the same, it not a shame
We remain plain,
Yet in vain
Insane



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You can find Distance in my book of poems "labyrinth
on---http://www.amazon.com/Labyrinth-Mustafah-Mun/dp/1409285251/ref=sr_1_1?ie=UTF8&s=books&qid=1252381235&sr=1-1


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The Revelation

From the middle of a dream,
 I woke to find
A light bulb burning in my mind
The answers were there that I’d been searching for
And I knew that tomorrow would be just fine
Tomorrow would be just fine

And now since I woke,
 I stare at the mirror
The revelation comes flashing back, 
But it’s foggy and not so clear
I try to do rewind and playback to find,
 the revelation, hidden in my mind  

There was a certain conversation,
 about saving my salvation
But the application,
 got lost in the translation of my mind 
Maybe I should try some meditation,
 to bring back the revelation
Because the restoration of my own salvation
is hanging on the line 
hmmmm- damn what was the revelation

Yes, my world is split in two
One on the left and one on the right
And I’m straddling both sides, like a 3-legged fool
Life and exaltation are what I’m tryin’ to fix
But the only thing I find,
The resurrection of the revelation, 
is taking it’s sweet time

There was a certain conversation,
 about saving my salvation
But the application,
 got lost in the translation of my mind 
Maybe I should try some meditation,
 to bring back the revelation
Because the restoration of my own salvation
is hanging on the line 
hmmmm- damn what was the revelation

Well, the duration of my day,
will not be spent in any exciting way
But instead in a quiet desperation,
of the subliminal exploration
In hope and anticipation, that through divine inspiration
I’ll receive instructions on how to remember,
The revelation 

There was a certain conversation,
About saving my salvation
I guess I’ll send an invitaion,
For another revelation
Cuz it’s my own salvation,
That’s hanging on the line
It’s hanging on the line


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Abscond

I’ll make my own decision to leave or stay
Pack my bags, leave the love, I’ll walk away
I can see your eyes fill with tears and your heart turn cold.

Got my mind on hold, I can see you weep
Then I heard you cry, wave your arms at me
It’s a lifelong pain when love turns away.

I won’t be coming back, you’re all alone
You’ve lost track, no one will know
No one will ever love me nearly as much as you.

Got a brand new heart, threw the old one out
Wore it with no regret, not a single pout
I lost your face in the memories of old.

Like a long lost hero in a fairy tale
Watched your fragile love break and your heart set sail
It’s a lifelong pain when love turns away.

I won’t be coming back, you’re all alone
You’ve lost track, no one will know
No one will ever miss me nearly as much as you.

If you can’t watch your back, love will hold you tight
You’ve lost track, no path in sight
No one will ever hate me nearly as much as you.


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yours truly

There’s no sense 
In me loving you now
For the most of many days
I’m right here with you

For the reason
That old men know not 
The difference in wrong and right
The courtesy of my songs 
Has been driven polite 
For days in this night I couldn’t sleep 
Subsequent to headaches too hard to keep
Up an down this avenue 
Sometimes it’s the wrong wishes  
That are constantly grabbing you
Selfishly I’m never tired
Weary, I grow unwired
I know you think I’m lost 
No where to go
So it appears I’m chasing ghost
And these days everything seems scandalous
Out for every penny
It appears we lost a few too many
But don’t turn your back on the boulevard
As children
Days at a time we used to play in the yard
But you got to make a living 
So a brother’s on the re-up 
For the national guard
And my luck in this time is past par
And these days 
Everybody seems to know my name
Here, still I’m barely standing
So I hit the scene like celebrity
And you could see my followers 
Gather the fallen pieces of me
And though the past years been 
Like a step child grounded to the attic
Simply hella dramatic
I guess we have to move past it 

No need in loving me now 
I’m nearly gone 
For the most of many days
You were right here  with me 


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What will I Do

What will i do now that you ARE GONE? 
i feel so lost that all i do is sing sad songs.
What will happen now that your not with Me?
i guess I'll go on and live knowing there's no more you and me.

What shall i say as i fall for you?
Maybe that i lost my mind and that i will never love you?
What will they do if they was to find out?
Maybe go on without a care but that right there i doubt.


                                    _ Jessica  Harris


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"Can't You See Me (I'm Falling)"

You can find me in the darkness
just storming deep down inside
it's a place you'll find me always
my only secret place to hide
you could see me smiling
but no I'm just ready to fall
you could see me laughing
like I'mm already having a ball
I know I seem so lonely
but I can't tell you wrong
if I had it my way just only
I wouldn't be hearing this sad song
(Chorus:
but can't you see me
catch me from the sky
I'm falling fast, face first
yet I don't know why
but can't you see me
catch me from the sky
I'm falling fast, face first
yet I don't know why...)
I wanna dream a dream
so tonight I'll dream forever
I wish life could just seem
as if you and me were together
so pick up the pieces
just think the thoughts
steal my heart
and try to get caught
cause I'm lost 
I'm lost without you
hear my calling
I'm reaching out for you
(Chorus:
but can't you see me
catch me from the sky
I'm falling fast, face first
yet I don't know why
but can't you see me
catch me from the sky
I'm falling fast, face first
yet I don't know why...)
You tried calling me 
on your cell phone
I don't know if I'll answer
cause maybe I'm not "home"
but don't take it
the wrong way
just try again
before you hear me say...
(Chorus:
but can't you see me
catch me from the sky
I'm falling fast, face first
yet I don't know why
but can't you see me
catch me from the sky
I'm falling fast, face first
yet I don't know why
but can't you see me
catch me from the sky
I'm falling fast, face first
yet I don't know why
but can't you see me
catch me from the sky
I'm falling fast, face first
yet I don't know why...)


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What a Lost Soul

Since I am Here The Veil grows Stronger but, You're not here for me I'm just-- Another Lost Soul you know, The people you find on the curbs on streets, During Rainy Days not going anywhere but Deeper into their own Disease but, It's not a disease, for they look for cures for diseases Here the patient cares not Only I could say something like that but since I'm here I just might as well sit on the curb on a rainy day and drown in a new-state-disease what A lost soul I am never enough could satisfy always more What a Lost Soul


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Dear Stranger

You ruined my life
I no longer have a mom
I no longer have two parents
I no longer have a friend for life
I no longer have someone to look up to 
You don't realize all the damage you caused
We lost the house,
I lost the only friends I had,
Your son doesn't even know you,
I've never seen dad cry so much,
I saw my entire family fall apart,
All because of you
You lied and stole from all of us
After all these years of pain, 
I thought you would learn
But I guess I was wrong
And now you try to come back in our lives
After all the pain you caused
After all the tears we cried
You expect us to forget what you did?
Just act like everything is fine?
I can't ever forgive you
And I can't just pretend my life's okay
I no longer have someone to look up to
I no longer have a friend for life
I no longer have two parents
I no longer have a mom
You ruined my life
And I hope you never forget that
Because I never will.


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It's up to you

Baby (x3) I know that you love me oh... oh 

But I(I) know that(that) you wont stop me. 

For, it's a proven fact 
That I'm going in. 

I would of stayed if, boy 
We were together. 
But it fell apart and we lost it(we lost it) 

And now you're telling me, 
Not to go- 
But I want to(I want to) 

Only you know 
How to go and stop me 
But I know that you wont. 

You had the power 
You had my voice 
But, because your gone 
This was my only choice. 

But, baby (x3) 
I know that you still love me. 

And I know in my heart 
I still love you too. 

But to you I must say, 
It woulda never worked this way. 
Because for eight months stright 
I was just, an internet girlfriend. 
And, my heart told me it'd hafta end. 

I could not deal with that pain, 
I thought I was losing you 
To something everyday. 

But baby (x3) 
I know that you love me. 
And if you don't want me to go 
I want you to stop me... 
Come stop me.


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illusion of the Soul



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Are you so into yourself,
that you can't see the truth?
So blinded by your own light,that the dark surrounds and comforts you.
Sadness fills my heart each day.
You are like a vulture that picks at my eyes and eats my decay.
My life seems to be slipping into an abyss.
And yet you fail to throw me a line so I can exist.
Thoughts of being your equal don't even run thur my mind.
You are so lost into you that Now I feel like I have lost m 


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Is everybody Lonley?

Is Everybody’s Lonely?

That’s what most of them say
But all of them are just lost astray
Some of them are 
Some of them aren’t

They look fine , but simply defy
That looks are deceptive and make them cry
Some say that they had enough 
Some said they cried enough

It is sad to have sorrow all around 
When there is a lot to be done and found
Nobody looses if they try
But they don’t that’s why they cry

Many just give reasons, as they are weak
Escaping the moment is all they seek
Sadness is like a poison , its taking over the whole world
But yet many have not lost hope that’s why we are yet around

My words are bitter and many will disagree
But this is the truth, and we have to become free
The choice is yours 
Nobody is Lonely

With Billions of us in this planet that’s not a possibility!




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You can find Distance in my book of poems "labyrinth
on---http://www.amazon.com/Labyrinth-Mustafah-Mun/dp/1409285251/ref=sr_1_1?ie=UTF8&s=books&qid=1252381235&sr=1-1


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A Feeling Of Suffocation

A feeling I have never felt
A feeling that makes the heart melt
Filled with guilt
In my heart, a change have been built
I am scared
My heart is pounding it's afraid
I don't know why
But I can't deny
Do I cry?
I'm seeing my past
How much would this feeling last?
Would forever start tonight?
Would my past be the only thing on my sight?
Hallucinations I see,
Torturing me
Like a bird in a cage and it wants to be free
But it can't change its destiny,
I pray going down on my knees
but I feel lost in the dark,
In a dark forest filled with crying trees,
Trees crying bloody tears.

I close my eyes trying to forget
But there's something in my life making me regret
Maybe it is my sins,
Whenever I remember this hidden feeling
The sorrow begins,
It's so much hurt and so much pain
It takes so much to regain
The lost pieces of my heart,
The pieces that continue the puzzle of confusion
The pieces that will make my life real but no illusion.

The pieces of my heart are filled with sadness
They trigger hate, jealousy, and madness
This sadness lies beneath the tears
But a smile won't let the sadness disappear
Because the tears of grief and the tears of fear
Need a strong spirit to make them clear.

Happiness lies beneath the truth,
The truth of life and living
The truth of love and giving
The truth of the real feelings deep down inside
The feelings that will never hide,
And if  feelings are hidden
These feelings my friend are forbidden,
They're the feelings of deep black lies
And that's when the happiness dies....




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Out of Time

Sitting here, I wonder, do you even know
That I am so much more than some place you HAVE to go?
I know that you say it’s not all about me
I may seem selfish, but I have to be
Every moment of each and every day
I face the chance of you going away
You’re  in my heart, you are part of my soul 
I feel like my emotions have taken control
I’m trying to hold on to each moment , in case it is the last
Regretting all the time we’ve wasted in the past
 It hurts my feelings when you can’t find time to fit me in
Seems like every time I turn around, its happening again
How did I get here? So desperate for just a minute
I need to get back to being fine with life without you in it
Sitting here, I wonder, will you look back and be sad?
Will you regret the missed opportunities and the love you could have had?
I am the one now who is feeling the sting
I tell you I love you, but it doesn’t mean a thing
Sitting here, I wonder, do I even know?
Should I keep holding on, or should I let you go?
Timing is everything, but time is only a dream
The more I try to get close to you, the farther away you seem.
We may not have time to play this game of hot and cold
All I have been asking for is to have you to hold
You can’t find the time, or the will, or the way
Not for me, not for us, now we’ve lost another day 
You know something that I won’t let myself see
You aren’t here now, maybe you never truly will be
I opened up to you and made myself yours to take
Now I feel this pain in my chest telling me it was a mistake
You keep drifting from me, maybe you’re letting me go
Maybe I already lost you and I’m just the last to know.
You may be trying to save me, but I’m feeling more at risk than ever before
Its time to face reality, I can’t run from it anymore.
Some fools never learn, so I find myself back here again.
Only a fool keeps playing a game they know they will never win.
Sitting here, I wonder, will you wish you hadn’t minded so much?
I was always asking to see you, longing to feel your touch.
Sitting here, I wonder, if you listen closely can you hear?
I’m whispering “don’t leave me”, as you disappear.
©Copyright 2011 Melissa L. Farrow


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Are You There

 Are you there? It's been a while.
 My world seem to be diminishing, HELP !
My head is in a fog and all I can do is reach for you.
 Somehow I can not come back to reality, am I refusing to?
 I think I saw you,  Did you help me out of bed this morning,
 or was that just my routine?

I want to hide. I want to not be seen , heard , or found.
 Why do I feel so much dispare, why is my heart aching?
I have no reason, not that I know,
Where are you, have you given up on me ?
 I am broken and only you can mend me.
My pride has taken hold of me, Not only have I lost sight of you I have lost myself.

 Come back...... Come back now........................
I need you , You were all the hope I ever had........


There you are , Now here I am. Take me , wash me ,mold me , heal me , Love 
me,
 Thank you for never forsaking me.
 


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CICERO

Cicero!The life and death of a wise man.The sage of our time.An epitome of truth 
and unparalleled hypertonic wisdom.A paradigm of a purist;a saintlike mortal.We 
remember you today and always.Adieu!
Cicero!Oh!Cruel death,wicked pangs of death!You were cut down before your 
prime ripe age by your enemies;envious of your progress and achievements 
pretending to be oblivious of your gospel truth.Oh!We lost a real gem!
Cicero!You are destined to live forever  if not for this mortal flesh of yours;always 
threathened by the unknown and closely followed at the heels by death.Ready to 
hark you down at your slightest wink.We shall celebrate you forever!
Cicero!Oh!Your pace from death was not fast and distant enough;death was 
much clever and faster.Cutting you down with a thunderous unwelcomed 
ovation.All to the surprise of your teeming wellwishers.We take solace in and will 
ever cherish your noble achievements.
Cicero!You are not meant for this age!Your thinking,reasoning and focus is far 
beyond those of your ertswhile competitors,detractors and enemies who had 
only marked you down for death.Hm!Seriously  envious of your person.We salute 
and adore your brevity at all times.
Cicero!Your memory keeps lingering in our minds;too short a life to forget 
forever.Everyday rolling by is like yesterday.We are constantly being struck daily 
like thunder especially now that we are dawned by the stack realities of your wise 
sayings and your swift existence.
Cicero!Your predictions of many years ago are like the day bright shiny stars,
stearing us at the faces;steaming the whole body system.Seriously waiting for 
interpretation for its unusual appearance.Saddening!Who is to give the correct 
interpretations?
Cicero!Oh!Pity you have the answer and solutions to our present problems and 
predicament.The golden spoon is lost in the deep oceans!You have played your 
path well; when you were least appreciated.Compatriots!Weep no more!The 
sage is gone and gone forever!Take heart! 


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A Story Of Downfall

And as he was walking down the path of life
He was overcome by darkness  and the blade of a knife,
The shadow that once followed behind him had become his very form,
And the heart that once beat inside him was torn,
He was driven by hate, yet longed for the love of another,
He wasn’t sane but deep under cover.
He knew what had happened  but chose to conceal it,
He knew  it would hurt him but chose not to feel it,
What had happened was a sudden change in direction,
He lost his meaning and followed his reflection,
Eventually his life was lost and he lived in a dream,
A dream of a life that was anything but  his own,
A dream that one day he wouldn’t be alone,
He never did explain his pain,
He didn’t have to,  we saw his life drain,
He once was a boy that loved to be living,
If he wasn’t playing he was giving,
Giving his love and giving a reason,
A reason to live and…
Well, isn’t that enough.
It must have been rough,
To live life so happy then suddenly fall,
To fall deep in a hole, and come out so small,
He had a life but wished he could leave it,
“Its just another dream, I don’t think I need it,”
Some people cried and some of them stared,
Some were destroyed  but all  were scared,
A lot of them said they weren’t prepared,
But how can you prepare for something so tragic,
Something beyond life and all of its magic,
How  do you plan for the loss of a friend,
The only plans you had were to be there to the end,
This boy was a time bomb, just waiting to blow,
What went through his mind, we wish we could know,
He wasn’t crazy, nor was he sane,
He simply had his own ways to deal with the pain,
He would smile at those who gave him the time,
And was always excited to write down a rhyme,
He loved through his heart, and was loved through his words,
He talked to himself and sang with the birds,
Everyone loved him that’s why no one knows,
“Why would he do this, there’s nothing that shows.”
The truth is he lived life to see its bitter end,
He lived through those years as his own best friend,
Now he is dreaming in a world far away,
Maybe he’ll return, maybe someday.


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Afterward Depression Of A Breakup

My hearts been blended again
you say 'im sorry'
but i cant even begin
im not ready to forgive

haunted by your face
drawn by the memories
forced away by your hate

we dont communicate
you want nothing to do with me
when once you said i meant everything

i loved everything about you
there was nothing i would change
when i was with you you were all i thought of
you were everything i ever wanted

but now,

i cant think of you, without breaking down
i cant hate you, without loving you
at night i cry, wishing to be with you
i hurt inside, knowing you are with someone else

you said you wouldnt know what to do without me
but ive been gone for awhile
and on your face is planted a smile

you said alot of things
i believed almost everything
but now i dont trust anything

from your lips came so much
but it was just lust
now all you do is disgust

so much was said
planted in my head
i think of you as i lie in my bed

how could i have been so stupid
how did you fool me so easily
all you did was deceive

i could call you a liar
and youd call me one right back
but who knows the lies from the facts

i wanted to hold on but nothing was there
i wanted to love someone who was already gone

how can you be with somone when theyve already disappeared
how can you linger in the past knowing that youd never last
how could he be with her when once he said i was all he wanted

we are forever faded
although im still jaded

i feel as though i cant go on
i feel alone and brought down

im so insecure of myself
i hate everything about me
the only time i was happy was when i was with you

you gave me confidence
you showed me reasons to live
but now im given in
since you are gone now i have none

endless cries drive me mad
im running out of reasons to be sad

finally ive lost all will to live
ive lost all my confidence and strength

the noose has been made
the rope hung in my dismay
now where does my future lay?


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Role Reversal

Role reversal, yeah dats what dis feels like,
what happened 2 those good ol days forget whos wrong or right 
ppl actually cared bout having an undastanding, 
but despite how da roles have changed like Monica Im still standing...
strong, firm on solid ground but question? 
If da roles are reversed whos gonna hold me down 
if Im lost how am I suppose 2 find her, am I actually seeing 20/20 
or am I blinded by dis worlds reflecting glare tru, 
life aint no crystal stare & I aint lookin 4 da sweet life 
just sum1 2 share my world wit, u haven't truly been kissed 
till u felt da emotion behind it, what we call tru love 
is actually timeless no motives behind it just takin it 1 day at a time, 
yeah da roles have definitely been reversed 
its like da good men & women have been cursed becuz 
even tho we carry immense light God still saw it fit 2 disable our sight 
when it came 2 da relationships we had no business in, 
I still seek what ppl back in da day were lookin 4, 
but where dey stopped da search I never lost my hunger for it


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CHASING BUTTONS

From his home-made wooden rocker my dad beckoned with his hand, 
as his wasting frame would not allow the dying man to stand 
and he handed me two buttons, that were worn and on a chain, 
then he whispered of their origins while grimacing with pain. 
 
“These two buttons were my father’s lad and from a prison shirt 
that dad wore because he’d beat a man who’d treated him like dirt. 
He was placed in solitary and that added to his shame, 
so to stay sane in that darkness … well he played this little game. 
 
“He would throw those two white buttons in the black void of that room 
and he’d search until he found them in his quest to beat the gloom. 
Yes he’d throw those two white buttons and they kept the poor man sane, 
till they finally released him and my dad came home again. 
 
“When I met your darling mother son I felt right from the start 
that this girl was something special and I knew deep in my heart 
that we’d marry and have family and son the dream came true, 
but it broke me when I lost her, after she gave birth to you. 
 
“Though I had you to remember her, I nearly lost my mind 
and I’d ask God in my darkened room why was life so unkind. 
But my dad came to the rescue and placed in my hand one day 
two white buttons and revealed to me a game he used to play. 
 
“Yes I’d throw those two white buttons in the black void of that room 
and I’d search until I found them in my quest to beat the gloom. 
Yes I’d throw those two white buttons and they somehow kept me sane 
till I found a little peace of mind and was your dad again. 
 
“Still we’ve shared a lot of years since then and son you’re now a man 
and I know you love your family and do the best you can. 
I do not have much to leave you just these worn out buttons lad 
and the knowledge that I loved you and was proud to be your dad.” 

Then his hand slumped off the rocker and dad’s spirit left that night 
and him lying there and free of pain was such a peaceful sight. 
Though at night I’d sit there in the dark, depressed and feeling blue, 
till I took to throwing buttons, just like my dad used to do.   
 
Yes I’d throw those two white buttons in the black void of that room 
and I’d search until I found them in my quest to beat the gloom. 
Yes I’d throw those two white buttons and they somehow kept me sane 
and I thanked my dad and grandpa for those buttons on that chain. 



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Let Me Live

What would I do if I didn't get to see your gray hair anymore?
Your old age magnifies me it sends a needle through my door. 

When I was young, I didn't think people could ever grow old it makes you see 
how your mind leaves you lost without wrongs.
Digging through the ground I see bones, stretched out bodies, and I say a prayer 
to Heaven let their souls be eternal.

I lost the destroyed dream.
Why must we wake?
Why do we fall?
We all suffer and death takes us all.
Death is like a fake doll
looking for pain.

I looked in the mirror and saw
time in a glass frame.
I am drifting away 
and those gray hairs are fading fast.
All of Dad's lost days and his new bitter years to come.
Half of a glass to go and his age will leave me alone.

So I asked God tonight let me sleep again don't take my life.
I like seeing the sunset
and morning.
I am sure things are pretty up there but I have loved ones to soothe me here.


I want to live!
Free as a bird.
Pretty as the world.
Flying through this place we call earth from the first day of my birth.

New wings for me, torn.
Not another lost wing gone.
All around me aged thorns.
Years ahead and I love this life
let me live please.


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Talking with H I M

 In the most gentle most Loving voice, HIS Words made my heart rejoice 
I HEAR YOUR HEART AND SOUL ARE FILLED WITH AGONY AND SORROW
Yes : from the beginning of time until the day after Eternitys’ tomorrow
THE BEGINNING OF TIME ? YOUR BIRTH ? : ETERNITY HAS NO TOMORROW

 If YOU only knew a LOVE so true Given and Received Entwining together as ONE
how blessed YOU would be  someone LOVED YOU like a Father LOVES HisSON
this is the kind of Everlasting Agape LOVE that GOD ALMIGHTY gives Everyone
AGAPE LOVE given to my life,my wife : My Dearest Only Most Beloved LENORE

 DO YOU REMEMBER THE DAY YOU MET ME :YOU SAID I LOVE YOU
YOU HAVE GIVEN ME THE MOST BEAUTIFUL WOMAN EVER CREATED
 I GIVE TO YOU MY HEART AND SOUL ALTHOUGH IT IS DEGRADED
ON OUR EVERLASTING DAY YOU TOOK AWAY MY LIFE, MY WIFE LENORE.
                                                   I HATE YOU !!!

What do YOU know about that : what did YOU say YOUR NAME was : THE 
CHRIST
JESUS ?? SON of GOD ? Why do YOU torment me haven’t I already paid the 
price ?
I lost my heartbeat , my breath, auburn hair that bought LIGHT to any SUNSET
GREEN EYES puts an Irish man to SHAME, JADE lost its luster to a LAUREATE
                                              I LOVE LENORE

FOR A MOMENT : A MOMENT OF ETERNITY A REFLECTION OF YOUR LIFE
A MAD MAN, SEES THE FUTURE AS HE THINKS IT SHOULD BE “ PERFECT “ 
COME WALK WITH ME , TALK TO ME, HOLD MY HAND ;
LET US GO HOME;SHARE OUR LOVE
YOUR LOVE  L E N O R E  ENTWINED WITH MINE FOR EVERMORE
                                    MY GOD I LOVE Y O U so MUCH

   INSPIRED by CARYL RAMSDALE’S; footnotes on HER Holiday Series POEMS
                                   DEDICATED to CARYL RAMSDALE 



 
 


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"Could Have Done It Right"

(Chorus:
I don't know what to think,
I don't know what to say,
it's just beating me down,
I wont get through this day,

I don't know what to do,
I don't know where to go,
the answer's far away,
will I ever get to know)

It hurts, but still I remain
been beat down, by this pain
silence seems so loud,
is someone calling my name?
I need to get around,
but I can't find my way
stuck up in this loser town,
hope to get out of it one day,
and reach that point of my dream,
where I can go on my way
but I'm stuck, I'm lost in this path
what the heck, I lost everything I've ever had
I'm searching high and low
it can't be that bad
damn, I don't know where to go
ain't it sad
I'm lost
I'm trying to find my way
at some cost
for searching every day
I'm only trying 
to get the best out of life
but just as soon as I do
hell blows over
and then it never goes right
I'm tired of going through the same thing
over and over
I don't think i can keep myself
from not being sober
(Chorus:
I don't know what to think,
I don't know what to say,
it's just beating me down,
I wont get through this day,

I don't know what to do,
I don't know where to go,
the answer's far away,
will I ever get to know)

Just when I thought
I had this all under control
I went out and got caught
it messed up my flow
I thought I was smarter
way back then
but times were harder
damn, I didn't know where to begin
I got lost 
in this dumb game of mine
I got caught
had to do 2 years of time
everyone around me
was letting go
I'm glad they did
otherwise I wouldn't have grown
so you can see 
this story of mine
was this how I am to be
no, I could have done it right
(Chorus:
I don't know what to think,
I don't know what to say,
it's just beating me down,
I wont get through this day,

I don't know what to do,
I don't know where to go,
the answer's far away,
will I ever get to know)


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Doubt

Doubt

I am late, quite late
Its dark, walking through a park
My eyes roll
My head turns
I am in doubt

With friends, partying
Get calls from home
Everyone is doubting

When in the air or while walking on the street
We still think to breathe
Is it the human creed?

We have lost hope completely
We pray yet lost in the fray
We are keen, to the extent that,
We believe the unseen.

Is this what we live for
Or is it what we feel
A state of metamorphosis
Or A burning inside we feel?

I always see in those eyes
Filling up the emptiness more
They are so sore
Yet filled with Lies

Still in Doubt??


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Unkept Secrets

                                  
                                    If fate's when first impressions love
                                  Then regret's yearning what never was
                                    At ease entranced my eyes retrieve
                                                Forgotten memories
                                      Told this tale countless times 
                                  I loved an angel who lost her mind
                             Choose one word which rhymes with fate
                             Relive my life and transcend its mistakes
                             Reclaim precious time, addiction wastes
                      Some angels charm, yet their misery is shared fate

                                         Past memories,I can't forget 
                                   To cherish the past without regret
                                               Until my last breath
                              An angel's death is my secret unkept

                     If wisdom's embraced, trying moments mature
                                Some more fortunate, won't endure
                                Search the cosmos, search inside
                                Is regret volition's reward?And why?

                              Some lost souls embrace addiction
    Save precious time , their unfurtunate fate is an intuitive prediction
                        Some have past lives they've barely survived
                           Is pain volition's reward, or human error?
                              Is regret finite? Will love last forever?

                                         Past memories I can't forget
                                   To cherish the past without regret
                                              Until my last breath 
                                  An angel's death is my secret unkept                                        


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Scarred Hearts

I sit and I think of you, eyes welling with tears
As I flood with thoughts of you I feel remorse

You don't understand, never will
It’s not your scars I see, but your heart,
Your radiant soul and that eternal glow of your flesh

I cry not over you but for you, for the loss
You lost your belief in yourself so long ago

You believe that you are a scarred entity 
This isn't true, you are beauty incarnate
It’s not your flesh but your mind and heart

I see those wounds of yours, though
They're always present in your mind

You can’t understand my gaze
My belief in your beauty and grace
You never will allow me to love you

I watch, I wait and I am glad I see your happiness
I know I have now lost my chance to be the one,
The one that holds your heart in his hands, 
Protected from all pain and anguish

But I take heart, you are in my life once more
In my words and in my thoughts... Happy once again.
I hope and I pray never to lose you again
To have lost you from my life would be a crime

I hope you never read this, 
or if you do that you cannot believe it’s you I write about
I believe this would hurt you more to read

One day, maybe you will let me hold you again…


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TO MY SOUL MATE

TO MY SOUL MATE

FROM NOW TO ETERNITY 

IF AT TIMES IT MAY SEEM LIKE I’M PUSHING YOU AWAY, 
WHEN EVERYTHING IS GOING WRONG YOU’RE THE ONE I NEED TO STAY

IT TOOK THIS TIME APART, FOR ME TO REALIZE WHAT I’M NOT
THIS TIME IT’S ABOUT US, THIS TIME YOU HAVE MY HEART

YOU TALK AND I WILL LISTEN, IT’S YOUR HEART I NEED TO HEAR
NO ONE HAS EVER TAKEN ME SO FAR, I CAN’T COMPARE

TIME IS NOT IMPORTANT NOW,  JUST THAT YOU ARE NEAR
FOR IF I EVER LOST YOU THIS WOULD BE MY GREATEST FEAR

YOU’RE THE FIRST AND GREATEST LOVE MY HEART HAS EVER KNOWN
SO WITH GREAT HONOR AND RESPECT 
I THANK YOU 
FOR THE LOVE YOU HAVE SHOWN

OH HOW IT IS SO EASY TO GET LOST WITH YOU IN LOVE
NO MATTER WHAT LIFE THROWS MY WAY, I CAN ALWAYS RISE ABOVE

YOU GIVE ME STRENGTH & HOPE IN EVERYTHING I DO
OH HOW BORING LIFE WOULD BE WITHOUT ME AND YOU

IF THERE EVER WAS A TIME FOR ME TO STEP UP TO THE PLATE
AND LET YOU KNOW I WAS WRONG, I MADE A BIG MISTAKE

PLEASE FORGIVE MY HUMAN SIDE; I LET YOU DOWN ITS PLAIN TO SEE
FOR THIS LESSON I HAVE LEARNED AND I HOPE YOU WILL AGREE
THIS LITTLE GIRL LOVES YOU SO MUCH
                 YOU WILL ALWAYS HAVE MY HEART


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Torn Again

I've left my heart 
Back there where no one can find it
I am so torn apart
I got hit and didn't see it
I have no identity
No one knows who I am
There's nothing left for me
I have nothing in my hands

I am tired and torn
I am the undead
Sometimes I wish I wasn't born
Still I have not lost my head
I am so uncool
Because I am me
I am no one's fool
Because I can see

I've hated you 
Only because you've hated me
You'll never do
Because you cannot see
What you don't know 
Wont hurt you
But it sure as Hell 
Can kill you

I am tired and torn
I am the undead
Sometimes I wish I wasn't born
Still I have not lost my head
My words are better off unspoken
Whats the sense of speaking if I am unheard
I take my time with all of my friends
Leaving them and myself unhurt

How can you know me
If you've never learned me?
How can you understand me
If you've never stood beneath me?
I am so different
I don't even recognize myself
Even though you are magnificent
I'd never put you on a shelf

I am tired and torn
I am the undead
Sometimes I wish I wasn't born
Still I have not lost my head
I am tired and torn
I am the undead
Sometimes I wish I wasn't born
Still I have not lost my head

Although I am all 
And everything you've ever needed
I am nothing at all
And the girl you never wanted
You've made me feel
Like I don't matter
You've made me feel
Like you don't care
You've made me feel 
Like I dont matter
You've made me feel 
Like you dont care


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In My Shoes

Put yourself in my shoes and see what I see
It’s not easy being me

At age 3, a defining me
Discovering I’m black, unlike my creator
5 and 6 a quick manipulator 
Close your eyes and try to imagine
The aggany
The hatred put before me
Hatred so deep, who needs a enemy
In My Shoes, take a look
Come walk the road I took
Age 9 – 10 is where it all began
I wonder if that was in the master’s plan
To be picked on by others older than you
Criticized by the ones you looked up to
Put yourself in my shoes and see what I see
It’s not easy being me

11 – 12 I’d become me
No changing that, the damage was permanently
Being smarter, but trying to fit in
Hurting myself, my future, playing pretend
14 – 15 now I’m grown
And I’d like to be left alone
So much has happened, most I don’t understand
Respect who and what I am, a Man
16 – 19 lost as a fool with his clothes on backwards
Just headed in the wrong direction
Having had the hardest of time
Fretful of anyone crossing that line
Put yourself in my shoes and see what I see
It’s not easy being me

20-23 I’ve gained love
I’ve lost love, but it’s still plain ole jus me
Nothing has changed very much, but I’ve grown emotionally
Step into this 9 ½ piece of rubber plastic	
I put around my toes, and see
In my shoes, it’s never easy being me
So talk what you know, and testify what you see
It has nor will it ever be, easy being me!


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My Choice

My world's falling apart
But I can't stop it
If it doesn't get better,
I might throw a fit.
I've lost my heart, 
And I'm losing my voice
But the funny thing is,
This was my choice.
I chose to be me
This evil person inside
And it's only getting worse
And I'm no longer mine.
I've changed so much
And I can't take it back
It's no use
This is the last.
I've lost my heart
And I'm losing my voice
But the funny thing is,
This was my choice.


















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Brunette Silhouette Cigarette

Small shaped puddle holes, Come tumbling over my feet.
Walking...scraping my hand, bleeding sweat.
Sun glowing darkness over brunette hair.

The vain made burning desires, tapping over keyboard notes.
This pain isn't the same, It is gone to cut a perpetual imagery.
Feeling that comforting embrace around five arms.

Stars stick to my eyes, making it hard to see thin blisters of pain.
While bleeding the love, Perhaps I had,
As the asphalt absorbs the love I lost that February.
I'm scared of daily sunrise, of what it might bring:
A lost memory, an outlines silhouette, a dark havoc,a song that fell out of my 
palms,
a sweet stare, a cold tear, a gasp for breath, a drop of blood...all compressed in 
an old-fashioned cigarette.This coffin will rule everything.

A sheer white dove hits the wall,
And the nearby twigs picked up a heart beat.
The electrical cords used as everyday materials:
Shoelaces and artificial belts, for over sized pants bough at a bargain store.

This song makes my heart stop for eternity.
It was short, but now it's late...It dried so quickly!
It belongs in the colorful recycle bins, we find in front of our homes.
Recycled for souls who need, dried, worn out, lonely broken hearts.

The restroom has suffered many maltreats.
It has seen many, images he wishes he never saw.
Maltreat, he calls it.
Maltreat in his walls.

Coming from sour dreams, from your room.
Scratches in the thoughts, in my chest.
On brunette head, you have seen many splatters you might regret.
You count the picture they drew of many tears, you might of wasted.
On those early months of a new depressing year.
Some few wilted roses you might see in my covered eyes,
With brunette hair...Silhouette feelings, and cigarette apparel.


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RED*TEARZ*I*CRY

Red tears I cry for you and I. Wish you could see why. I can feel the devil trying to 
take my soul. In side he could feel my heart is cold. I lost my one true love the one 
I'm always thinking of, so now there’s nothing to live for. I must turn to the dark side 
before my time is up. Please Ju Ju hear my cries, my love for you is so true this I 
can’t deny. Please come back to me or my soul will be lost in the depths of hell for all 
eternity. 


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Just A Touch of Heaven

A little girl late for school one day, running to catch her bus, 
Falls down and scrapes her knee and the tears start to run. 
Then out of no were a man come to aid, he says don't cry my darlin and angels 
lookin your way. 
And he take's her hand an he bends his knee to help the hurt she suffered and to 
take away her fears. 
She looks at him so innocent through eyes so clear and calm, 
Cause she see's a hero in his eyes and he smiles caused he's helped her get 
along. 

Take my hand and I'll guide you there, God's always watching he's always there. 
So when you feel that breeze on that one and only day, he's letting you know he's 
not that far away. 
Just A Touch of Heaven and it will be alright. God help's those in trouble even if it 
takes time. 
Don't loose faith or direction, let the love come from your heart and it will guide 
you to heaven and make you feel alright. 

A mother who's lost her child or a man who's lost his wife, there hurt is the but 
the heartache is miles apart. 
They both want answer's they don't understand, how he could cause this pain 
and how he can't see. 
And the only answer he can give them is always the same. 
I know I've hurt you but I've helped them ease there pain, it was cruel to let them 
suffer so the angels brought them to me. 
I will cure there pain and help you heal your hurt if only you would listen and take 
me at my word. 

So, just take my hand and I'll guide you there. 
I'm always's watching, I'm always's there. 
When you feel that breeze it's just my reassurance, it's to give you strength and 
added courage. 
Just A Touch of Heaven is all it will ever take, I'll always help those in trouble no 
matter what it take's. 
Never loose faith in who I am, never loose sight or direction. 

I'll always have room in my kingdom, heaven's a very big place, and my angel's 
are always looking to also come to your aid. 


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we as america

the new dawn had brought the start of a beautiful day then boom
in a split second it was all taken away by an attack on america in a very 
cowardly way.
many lifes lost they had no care for human life we as america we will fight
we will stand united as one with this attack on america we will be strong.
we pray for the lifes lost and their families left behind but we as america
we will not hide.
we will find the will and the strength to go on but osama bin laden you will
be found you will pay for your cowardly acts need i say more to that fact
and when that happens the sigh of relief now our loved ones can rest in peace.
and we as america we will be fine our loved ones will always be on our minds          
but i believe we will be ok in time.
they'd want us to go on and stand on our own two feet cause we as america
cannot be beat.


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With Your Hand To Guide

Father, I got a message the other day,
From a mother who knew me not,
Lost and whose heart was broken.
With your hand to guide, she sought me out.
Father, her heart aches with grief and sorrow,
Troubles continue to fill her heart.
She too lost a precious child.
You shared your love with me in all your glory
When I too lost my child and was filled with sorrow.
I humbly ask that you show her your love in all your glory.
Father, now I pray that your hand will guide me.
Let my mouth gently speak the words that she may hear,
To soothe her troubled heart
. Let my hands tenderly reach out
To give the feeling of comfort she may need.
Let my heart be open to her heart
So I may understand her sorrows.
I know her not, Lord,
But with your hand to guide,
Help us to become closer
Not only to you but also in friendship.


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Lost and Alone (My Secret Sin)

I decided to write a special dedication
Holding her in my arms was soothing as meditation
I met her as a freshman
Her eyed dyed with dryness
Palm to palm 
I squeezed tightly, just so we could get by stress
Watched you laugh as I pressed my thumbs 
Up against your chubby gums 
And even as you were pouting 
Your innocence stretched a smile
And as you lay across my chest 
I soon forgot the happiness I so longed for as a child
And now I miss you for miles
But if you could just find your way home
You wouldn’t be so lost and alone
If you could just find your way home
We wouldn’t be so lost and alone
I write so much better when it’s dim
Sorrow leaks from this romantic film
Into your eyes 
I’ll charm your lips and wipe away your tears
Smile whenever your whispers near my ears
And I wish I could take your pain away
I miss you even more and that’s a shame to say
I’m lonely and on the inside I’m dying
Sometimes I wonder if I should keep trying
In search for happiness
Maybe I’ll laugh for death
I turn up liquor
Hoping that it’ll absolve my problems quicker
Not much of an alcoholic
So I don’t exactly know what one would call it 
I’m lost and alone
But still wondering when you’ll find your way home


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Trap of the Maze

I don't know which way to turn or which way to go
The more I move the more I'm lost and I don't know
which door leads me out of this hellish maze
I try many doors and many turns and many different ways
but I end up deeper and deeper into it's trap
I'm so lost it wouldn't even help me if I had a map
I open a door and see her sittin' next to him,flirtin'
That's when my life really felt like someone closed the curtain
"Why do I feel this way?"I ask myself again and again
because I'm a lonely soul that needs the touch of her hand
to somehow rescue me from this state of mind
confused,hopeless,disappointed and halfway blind
I can not see clearly It is all a misty haze
but I am caught in the trap of this maze


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Fiona's Song

Slow my heart as autumn is coming
and I'm crossing the street just to meet you.
Your eyes never end in green and in glass, 
and the ring on your finger is heavy and new.
The sky is just the right contrast of colors
to frame you under the still burning leaves
I'm hoping you're humming my favorite song
while under your breath my lost harmony frees

Souls locked and leaning like the trees scolding winter
with our arms intertwined and immersed
in the rhythm of the gait of our bundled up feet
still finishing one another's thoughts unrehearsed
When does the artist become her lost song?
You're feeling dark and I now feel it too,
but we'll sort out the details in the still brilliant air
and leave the remains for the winter to sort through

Your voice will always be steady to me
and I know that I'll find you if lost
The winter is known for it's soulless kidnapping
while deep in anxiety we crackle with frost
So let's relish this moment of purity breathing
Let's wish like the sky isn't raining with leaves
For one more fine moment the sunshine is shining
and it's there for the taking for the one who believes...


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Paradox

Wordless stories recount every stacked up sight
Had to die just to find where they go tonight
Tumbling down just to bring every wrong to right
And when my feelings dry I will recall the light

Questions have added new flights of stairs
All my answers will run, circling way up there
I still can’t believe that nobody cares
I don’t think I can climb when there’s no love to share

Falling to sleep in the arms of pain
Darkness shelters my thoughts as I go insane
Seeping into my heart and inside my brain
The stairs melt away as I forget my name

Faces become desperate masks of death
Either kill or become or forget myself
There is no way to tell why I hold my breath
As self-hate intertwines with the love I felt

Out in the breeze where I lost her eyes
I crawl to a place where I pray I’ll die
But under the nothing I see inside
I remember the questions that I hoped I’d find

How did I climb when I lost my sight?
If I had died how could I love the night?
How can dead faces remind me of what’s right?
And when I give in why do I find the light?


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My robe

so much so I adore my robe
my openness it protects
my robe no one has it type in the whole of the globe
so soothing that I don't imagine it in the hole
my robe
my robe

imagine my robe is stolen as a whole
where in the world do i search for my stolen robe
who do I employ to investigate in the rob
my expression is not hyperbole
my robe 
my robe 

you are so dare to me
my robe


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So lost in your little world

a reflection says it all vainty is skin deep
tis an illusion in the head breaking into wasted dreams
so lost in your little world
botox drugs daddys credit card

what would you do if it was you
would you fake a smile in vein
like you always do

as i walk out on the street
pass through all the bubble heads 
they only crack a joke at someone elses pain
try to hail a cab but their screams are herd in vein

girls just hear these words, dont hide behind that smile
that short black dress doesnt work if your only out to hurt
are you were a porno star does you man sold death to kids
your so lost in your little world 
you wonder why we dont give a xxxx
what would you do if it was you
would you fake a smile in vein
like you always do

said, what would you do if it was you
would you fake a smile in vein
like you always do

then you wake up then its just a dream
as the water runs down your face
the person looking back 
dams the day they looked at you
as the night drips down your legs
and the drugs lay on your bed
youve awoken still in your little world
you little world thats filled with pain

what would you do if it was you
would you fake a smile in vein
like you always do

said what would you do if it was you
would you fake a smile in vein
like you always do


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Dandelions and Memories

Dandelions and memories
Lift in a drift, lost in the breeze.
Like fire ash when stiff winds blow,
Friendships fall outside the glow.

Squint to see what’s lit dimly,
A shooting star no one can see.
Feelings fade and pictures pass,
Lies and fights, games and laughs.

Childhood friends like worker bees
Weather common enemies.
Soon they’ll leave to find a queen,
And on the journey some will sting.

At anger’s cost lost everything.
Survivor bees don’t stop to sing,
Too busy buzzing, chasing dreams.
Thoughts erased like tape machines.

Dandelions and memories
Lift in a drift, lost in the breeze.
Like fire ash when stiff winds blow,
Friendships fall outside the glow.


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endless fall

I'm searching for some peace
In this seemingly souless mind
trying to figure out
if it will all end with just a little time

I was afraid to love you 
and now I've lost it all
such an empty feeling
such an endless fall

You know i've lost a lover 
you know I've lost a son
I've lost the best part of me
oh God what have I done

So give me the strength
please help me find a was
to get past this empty feeling 
to make it through another day.


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Crazy But It's True

I walked into the wasteland with no shoes upon my feet
And I vowed to reinvent myself for everyone I'd meet
I left behind Madonna with her fingers on the phone
As I wandered in the wilderness just hoping to atone
With my long lost companions by my side
My bad sense of humor and my last bit of pride

Well I met a bitter angel with a melancholy look
And I asked her to remember me in the pages of her book
She laughed and turned away just when I thought she might oblige
But she left me with her memories and a little slice of pie
Abused but unaffected, I'm reborn
To turn my back on Providence and my collar to the storm

I pulled my one-way ticket out
The one that you knew all about
And cashed it with just a passing glance
I waited for another sign
Some other way to pass the time
But only wasted one more second chance

I took the road less traveled with the whirlwind at my back
And the taste of misadventure covered all my crooked tracks
I met a dozen strangers with their backs against the wall
And their ears against the sidewalk just in case someone should call
Waiting for the headlights and the sound
Of the drawbridge getting higher and the kingdom coming down

So I looked in that direction when I thought no one would know
But I found myself in winter with my face beneath the snow
When I reached up for the surface I felt something start to give
And I grabbed the smoking embers of the way we used to live
With nothing between me and going home
And nothing left to do except to roll away the stone

It's crazy but it's true.

I stepped out of the darkness to find everybody home
And I waited for rebellion that I knew would never come
I felt the many traces of the road I left behind
So many different faces that I knew had once been mine
But every one was someone that they knew
The bitter and the righteous and the one I save for you

And so I stand before you now
A little lost, I don't know how
But all this madness is not lost on you
So you just smile and take me in
And pay the wages of my sin
And turn the page just like you always do

It's crazy but it's true.


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Climbing Awareness

Pollution corrupting sense
The sense of self I’d recommend
In this place I can’t be saved
Save me now, I’ve lost my faith

I’d bare it all to help mankind
But what I’ve seen would make you hide
In this world I can’t let go
With so much truth to stir my soul

Ignorance corrupting me
Me that’s not who I should be
Become more to sing aloud
Allow myself to walk through clouds

Flick through life if you think you must
The static screams for you to rush
Below pyramids of wealth
Forget the height of truer self

All this world corrupting love
Love that can’t begin to trust
In this place nobody’s heard
But I must speak even though I’m scared

Symbols lost between the lines
You say you see but prove you’re blind
Question what can make it so
I will not stop until we know


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the old oak

Verse 1 
There’s a house on a hill with an old oak at the side 
There’s a bridge down the way crossing a river that’s wide 
And the green hills roll forever, it’s a beautiful sight 
With a backdrop of mountains their tips covered white 

Verse 2 
There’s a house on a hill with an old oak at the side 
Where I carved out our names with a small pocket knife 
And the letters we etched in a timeless old tree 
Say that I’ll always love you long past eternity 

Chorus 
I’ll soon be with you angel, this body grows tired 
I’ll soon be with you angel for soon I’ll expire 
I’ll soon be with you angel never then will we part 
I’ll soon be with you angel be still my beating heart 

Verse 3 
There’s a house on a hill with an old oak at the side 
And a single headstone marks the place where you lie 
A chair by the side of your last resting place 
Which I sit in for hours and just stare into space 

Verse 4 
There’s a house on a hill with an old oak at the side 
Tended by a lost soul who hasn’t much time 
It won’t be long now and we’ll be one again 
There’s been so much pain since I lost you my friend 

Chorus 
I’ll soon be with you angel, this body grows tired 
I’ll soon be with you angel for soon I’ll expire 
I’ll soon be with you angel never then will we part 
I’ll soon be with you angel be still my beating heart


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If Ever (My Secret Sin)

If ever I should 
Race for Hell 
Swear on my grave with palms begging to be nailed
If ever I should 
Hope for the best, enter my home as a guest 
Mention I love you, and simply forget to think of you
If ever I should
Now why should I pray when I got arms to bare 
Alarms to scare, violence to share 
Live this life by a strict sense of principles
Wash the sins from my flesh and hope my past is rinseable 
Why am I so eager to constantly please 
Help those that lost their feet, back to their knees 
Give others both my hands, help them stand 
When selfishness is my main feature as a man 
And the truth is, I can't help but think of you
Grip your hands and whisper I love you 
Must we discuss how I lost your trust 
Look into a crystal ball
And vision a future that doesn't consist of the two of us
Gun in palms, rehearsing a common verse from Psalms 
No father figure, holding his daughter in arms
Place her on satin pillows, given a good night charm
In all hopes loves relaxes on her covers and keeps her warm
I surrender take me to his cross and nail me
Scream in blasphemy as these demons trail me 
Mistakes keep calling me back
Heartaches keep me falling on tracks
And I know my soul is shallow 
Forgive it being constantly in battle 


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My Heart Bleeds

The effort and time
Just to lose my mind
So blind that I cannot see
That all I am is loves’ lost tragedy
Time has not been on my side 
Makes me want to turn, run and hide
From all the tragedy my life has seen 
Makes my heart bleed 
From the hurt that feeds
Lead me to a new direction
Erase the old, make corrections

Living in tragedy 
What has this life made of me? 
Hard and cold, cold as stone 
Here I sit again alone 
Taking the pain and putting it away 
To shout it out some other day 
Love’s lost tragedy 
Made me see 
My heart bleeds 

So good together in each others company 
What led you to cheat on me? 
We were first-rate from the first date 
I thought you were my true mate
Now it’s ended 
My heart needs mended 
Blended, with sorrow and confusing lines 
Oh God show me a way to go, just a sign 

Living in tragedy 
What has this life made of me? 
Hard and cold, cold as stone 
Here I sit again alone 
Taking the pain and putting it away 
To shout it out some other day 
Love lost tragedy 
Made me see 
My heart bleeds 

The hurt might go away 
On my knees all I can do is look up and pray 
And say, that this won’t happen again today
Scorned, heart too torn, to be reborn 
Love again, not convinced 
I haven’t found love since

Living in tragedy 
What has this life made of me? 
Hard and cold, cold as stone 
Here I sit again alone 
Taking the pain and putting it away 
To shout it out some other day 
Love lost tragedy 
Made me see 
My heart bleeds 


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This World Of Today

This world of today is dangerous,
It's filled with hatred, hostility and sin
Children running around getting pregnant
And it's starting at age ten

Parents have lost control
And it's evident today
We are all lost for words
And there's nothing we can say

There is always some rapper
Rapping to some beats
Influencing crime, violence, and sex
Which is prevalent on the streets

Knives, guns and blades
Are everywhere you look
Think of how many lives
These useless weapons took

Then there's the drugs
The cocaine and the weed
Children are frying their brain cells
Instead of taking the lead

Not to mention the alcohol
That has everyone messed up
Its taking many lives
Coming as a suction cup

Children rising against their parents
And even against their peers
Domestic Violence surrounds us
And has been evident for years

Aren't you tired of society
And what it brings to civilization
Living in this obscene world
Is ruining the Earth's reputation

We all need to lend a hand
And get a good education
And if we do this
 then we will rise as a nation
 


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Relief

Here I sit 
In a fixed position
I once stood 
Held your hand 
And did all that I could 
All that you would allow
Yet some how
Still you managed 
To take a final bow
And though these days
May not look to receive me 
Tell me why
Your god seems not to love me 
In search for someone else 
To think better of me 
In my worst ways 
This letter scrubs my pain
Who’s there to love me 
In these latter days 
Of fallen reign 

Days don’t comfort 
These years they seldom hurt me
I’m lost within my burdened worth, see
Life just does not love me

Amongst this discussion
My panel be 
Realistically 
In this world 
With no family 
Each day that passes 
A new dawn to handle ease 
Touch this phantom, please 
The same given hand 
That once took 
A coward from his knees 
I was there for you
Why are you not here for me 
Visions 
Further than any one spectator seas
I am as withered as dry leaves 
On fallen eves
The weight on your shoulders 
Equals the tears amongst your sleeves 

Days don’t comfort 
These years they seldom hurt me
I’m lost within my burdened worth, see
Life just does not love me


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I Threw Then Away

Since you've been gone, I've been so sad 
The silence within these four walls is driving me mad 
No smell of burnt toast or overcooked eggs in the air 
Don't have to unclog the shower drain from your hair 
The blues reappeared when you left that day 
A year ago I threw them away 
Now it's been a month and not a word from you 
I am feeling better,I am now with your best friend Sue 
Never come back this way, we are cruisin' fine 
We have an understanding, I am not hers and she is not mine 
The blues have been evicted, they can no longer stay 
Once again, I threw them away 
What are you doing at my door with that smile 
You gave me a look with tears, like that of a lost child 
You are no longer needed here, get away from me 
Your love no longer has a way of blinding me 
I see you have your suitcase full of blues for me to play 
Neither them or you are invited to stay 
The neighbors call the police and report a domestic dispute 
The cops come and give me the boot 
I must go cool off at a friend's house for the night 
My house is cleaned out when I return in the daylight 
I lost in a game I was forced to play 
The blues seem to never quite go away


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Dark Water


In the deep dark water’s
I stand cold and alone..
Broken wing
I stand sad and alone..
Blinded by the night
Like a lost child I can
Not see from all my
Fears of
The deep darken water’s
Cold and alone
I held my arms out for
Comfort but like a 
Wounded bird
I stand alone in the deep
Dark water
Broken wings
Standing alone as if I
Was a child
Lost in the deep dark cold
Water..
Blinded by the night
Blinded by my fears..
Fears of the darken water
Broken wings..
I held my arms out for
Comfort
But like a lost child I
Stand alone..
With all my fears..


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Sky Shadows

 My soul is crying for your eyes.
  I got lost there when I first saw them.
 The pain inside of me,is haunting me,is hunting me.
  Because you are so very far away;but not in my mind.
 Sand it blows through my hands.
  Far it may go or stay whirling beside me.
 I love to wake in your darkest dreams.
  I'll chase away what may frighten you.
 Come we run, faster we may run,
  with piercing sky shadows.
 My soul is crying for you eyes.
  I got lost there when I first saw them.


Details | I do not know? | |

All That Is

Now that we're not together 
The days seem to last forever
I'll miss your laugh and your sweet touch 
And how I'll miss your smile so much
But I think what I'll really miss 
Is how I feel when you give me a kiss

Sometimes things are better left on the other side 
I guess it was just time for us to end this ride
All I know is what is true
And all that is, is that I love you

I know just how to whisper
And I know just how to cry
I know how to move faster
And I know just how to lie
I knew just how to leave you
But now I don't know why
Just doesn't feel right inside
But I have to make a try

Sometimes things are better left on the other side 
I guess it was just time for us to end this ride
All I know is what is true
And all that is, is that I love you

So much colder
Now that I don't have your shoulder
I feel as though I'll never get older
But I guess I'll try to become bolder
There is never a time to say
That I feel I've lost my way

Sometimes things are better left on the other side 
I guess it was just time for us to end this ride
All I know is what is true
And all that is, is that I love you

It's a long way to fall 
When you think you've lost it all
I know that I did hurt you
But I will not desert you
I'll love always and forever
I really hope you will remember
If we're apart or together
For you I will always be here

Sometimes things are better left on the other side 
I guess it was just time for us to end this ride
All I know is what is true
And all that is, is that I love you

There is never a time to change
Though I try to rearange
Without you life will have to go on
But it will feel so wrong
Don't worry for I know we will survive
With at least your friendship I will strive
To make things right and stay alive

Sometimes things are better left on the other side 
I guess it was just time for us to end this ride
All I know is what is true
And all that is, is that I love you

Please know it will take a while
For on my face to see a smile
But I know I will do it
My teeth I will grit
Just don't forget
If it is the last thing yet
You are still my best friend
And that's how it will be till the end

Sometimes things are better left on the other side 
I guess it was just time for us to end this ride
All I know is what is true
And all that is, is that I love you


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A Forgiven Life

Running through the mystery of where I should begin
Standing down and rising up, I never miss a thing
Running through the memory of where to be alone
The only thing I really need has died where I have grown

Coherent little rhythms that take up all my time
Making up for what I lost and straightening the lines
Coherent little gatherings of everything I am
The truth is that there are no words, the lines are made of sand

Oceans of ascended lies and reasons to despair
Far away but far too close, I’ve nothing pure to share
Oceans of forgotten pains that drown us all in blood
Threatening our ignorance and draining all our good

Impossible to let it go when everything has died
So now I seek to understand the rebirth of what’s inside
Impossible to see this thing when all I see is hate
So now I isolate myself and hope it’s not too late

Meditating on the world and where I should return
There’s life inside the birth of hope where everything was burned
Meditating on what comes and learning to forgive
I’ll no longer regret the things I lost but I’ll never forget to live


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The Rose

A seed fell out from the tomb
The flowers died, the seed should die too
But rising sun outlasts the night
As raindrops spill, as the seed learns to fight

A playful leaf, silhouette in the sky
The rose now born decides that it likes
But how to reach when trapped in this form?
And now the rose is lost in a storm

The sunlight draws the rose from its bed
The rose just stares, too lost in what’s said
More rain will come, more dark will rise
More light will come, then more rain to despise

Nothing now but whispers and time
The gentle wind, the lonely inside
The rose just waits to feel it belongs
As gentle winds begin with their songs

Complacent air, atonement for us
The rose has grown, the leaves it can touch
Now patient hope has finally come
And past the dead the rose feels the sun


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Merchant

Hold on to yourselves 
It’s going to be a long one

I forgive you but I do not
Remember me 
Or have you forgotten
I am the soul of Martha Carrier 
I am the cold amongst un-forgiven barriers
If life were as smooth as fairytales 
I’d lust with Arial

Young Goodman Brown
Trust is often dreamt upon
But never truly found
Marry me not
For Religion is often a foolish sound
I am the trust that never funds
The river that seas beyond and will never bond
I am the tissue that forever mends our scars visible
I am the light that shines only in hopes that my shadow may dim

I am, I am, Sam, I am not
Though my summers shall hoist the founding days
Oh I am 
I am an artist amongst poets severely recognized    
I am the misery, the matter that pours from within your eyes
I am the cake, the plate, 
The smile which your child exhibits on common days
I am the Shakespeare within in lyrics 
The only god to bring about tragedies to treasure 
With out the theatre in play

The hollow that sleeps not to wish nor weep upon tomorrow
I am the founder of nothing
The whereabouts of that slave in Sounder
Who found more than nothing
Will you remind me when my days have finally dissolved? 
Upon my graven lay I may receive but random applauds 

I am the love you lost 
The dove
Your lost savior 
Stricken upon a cross
Get over yourself world
My cape 
My suede 
My vengeance 
Receive my blade 
Farewell love 
All is well 


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innocents

Where has our childhood innocents gone?
Where is that innocent kiss?
I long to wander back,
to that wide-eyed state of mind.
The loneliness of being grown up,
is taking a tow.
How it tears apart my soul,
leaving my insides lost ...confused.
How im lost without you.
Can't we wander back in time?
If i could stop those evil hands, 
steal back my life.
I would run away, 
hide where time is still ... innocent.
Hide in fields and flowers.
The wind with summer days,
is where you would find me
Why can't I find myself?
How I hate this passing of time,
An inward struggle wrestles,
alienates me,
makes me empty,
makes me callous... bitter.
Who am I? 
What have I become?
All reason has left me,
flow out the window.
Broken, bruised, torn, 
bleeding on the floor now





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I Am Lost

What is going with my life
How can I fall with no limits below me
The world is full of ups and downs
That no one can ever be free

Thinking everything is alright in here
I trembled by seconds while watching others suffer
I helped them in anyway I can
Without my strength, where I had no power

I could pull myself back up 
And undo the things that are becoming worse
I wished I could go back in time
And listen to my family at first

Now we had fallen from nothing
A pit with a limitless bottom down below
We struggled together in this situation
But it is hard for me to follow

I am confused now, I am so lost
I want to break down at this time
I wished I could do something
But being so vulnerable, I am lost inside

We pulled ourselves together
And we could think of other ways
To get through all of this
Our problems, we could have erased

Still thinking, still needing help
I was just standing one side
The world just move as I think
The answer i can't seem to find

Knelt down onto my knees
Put my head high up
My hands holding tightly above
I prayed, wishing i could shout

I am lost in the middle of nowhere
I am lost, i am here by myself
I can't live without my strength
I am lost inside what it feels like hell

I am lost in my heart
I am lost and I am alone
I can't be free without my power
But I still had one thing
Hope


Details | Lyric | |

Im lost

Im lost I can't find my way. 
He says he loves me and he would do any thing for 
me, but he doesn't call or text.
 I have given him so many chances thinking he can change, 
but now i'm pretty sure he can't. 
I love him more than any thing in this world I tell him this 
but he still doesn't change.
 My friends say he's bad news. 
Deep down I believe them 
but I love him too much to believe tthat they're right.
 I'm lost and I don't know what to do. 
I'm confused.
 was giving him another chance a bad thing or can he really change I don't know 
any more.
 Some days I wish love came with a manual this way it would be easier to figure 
it out.
 I stoped telling my friends how I felt because I know they wouldn't understand 
they never would. 
Don't get me wrong I trust them with every thing
 it's just they don't understand how i feel about  this guy. 
I don't know what to do.
 If I tell him every thing I don't know how he would act.
 I don't want  this relationship to end. 
He knows how to cheer me up when I feel lower then dirt.
If only there was a map to show the path that i'm 
supossed to take right now
 I would do anything to fix this, 
but i'm lost and don't know how to.
 Is there some reason I feel this way? 
maybe it wasn't meant to be.
 I don't know.


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Sit alone

I sit alone to wonder why things are how they are
I sit alone with no ones shoulder to cry on
I sit alone with not even myself to rely on
I trust many yet never myself
I have lost so much over the years
because i give out my heart and soul to freely
so much so that I lost who I really was in the process
I long to be who I used to be
happy, not with how I looked, but who I was
and the people I loved were the ones I could trust
with everything
But see I had let them go
because I trusted in me not what I had
sometimes I break down from seeing how the years
have gone
funny you don't notice while they are flying by
but one day you suddenly stop and start to cry
and you wonder how you made it through without
the family and friends you once knew
and little ones have grown up in a blind of an eye
and you were hardly there to see it happening
once you realize that time is slipping away from you
you may feel like there's not much you can do
I did
but then for me, my family and friends welcomed me back
with open arms
and it's so good to be here with everyone again
had it not been for everyone being there for me
supporting me, and telling me how I could do this or that
I wouldn't be able to continue on looking for people
from my past who weigh heavily on my mind
they have been extremely hard to find
but I still try, and am starting to hold my head up high
and perhaps sooner than later I will not
sit alone to wonder any longer


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Forever Bound

Stranded on the road to nowhere
Somewhere between lost and found
Warmth hides its glory
Behind the rain falling down

Looking for the right direction
As I wander farther astray
Pain grips my soul
My heart begins to ache

I've searched every nook and cranny
No help could I find
My very being bleeding
Emotions turned to ice

Chained to the memories
Better left unspoken
I try to summon courage
And yet, bit by bit, I'm broken

Begging for understanding
Yearning what was lost
Trying to reconcile
My actions with the cost

Lonely and afraid
Salvation out of reach
Weary to the bone
As misery invades my peace

Time is the enemy
Love, a fairy tale
Mercy is only make believe
No such thing in Hell

Redeemption hides it's grace
Behind agony and shame
Of mistakes made in haste
And sorrow for what can't be changed

Forgiveness not forthcoming
Anger mars the path
Of love lost in foolishness
And locked, forever, in the past

Dead among the living
Since you walked out on me
Nightmares would be welcome
If only I could sleep

Surrounded by the memories
Of the love, once, we shared
Haunted by the laughter
That still echoes through the air

No where left to turn
No joy to be found
And, it seems, although your gone
To you... I'm forever bound


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Breakthrough to you

Ever feel like you're damned if you do
Damned if you don't
No matter what you do
It's never right
One day I'm ready to give up the fight
The next day not so much
From reality I fall
And I'm losing sight
I know how much I'm losing touch
Fantasy has come to play
It don't want to say goodbye or go away
I'm afraid it's here to stay
From these feeling I do not stray
They are here every damn day
All it would take from you is a phone call
Your voice to say
That you love me to
Or that you want me to stay away
I need to know one way or the other
I'm sorry I'm such a bother
Until then loneliness
Will be the price I pay
Why did we let our
Circumstances get the better of us
Somewhere along the path we'd lost our trust
And fate took over and got in the way
Why did I let people dictate
What exactly I would to you say
Why did we get caught up
In a game neither one of us
Really knew how to play
One there were no winners for
We both lost each other in the end
And our hearts were tore
Our pride needed to mend
We just needed to grow, come back and bend
Maybe though it really needs to be put to rest
Perhaps that what is best
Once and for all
But I know I'm not that strong
Loving you just can't be wrong
I hope and pray
Soon one day
Things between us will all end okay
For now though
All my love is always being sent your way
I'm sorry I still am in love with you
Maybe someday I'll get it together
But at this point that may just take forever
I no longer have any ideas on just what exactly to do
I keep the hope alive that maybe someday 
I'll break through to you


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My Heart Bleeds

The effort and time
Just to lose my mind
So blind that I cannot see
That all I am is loves’ lost tragedy
Time has not been on my side 
Makes me want to turn, run and hide
From all the tragedy my life has seen 
Makes my heart bleed 
From the hurt that feeds
Lead me to a new direction
Erase the old, make corrections

Living in tragedy 
What has this life made of me? 
Hard and cold, cold as stone 
Here I sit again alone 
Taking the pain and putting it away 
To shout it out some other day 
Love’s lost tragedy 
Made me see 
My heart bleeds 

So good together in each others company 
What led you to cheat on me? 
We were first-rate from the first date 
I thought you were my true mate
Now it’s ended 
My heart needs mended 
Blended, with sorrow and confusing lines 
Oh God show me a way to go, just a sign 

Living in tragedy 
What has this life made of me? 
Hard and cold, cold as stone 
Here I sit again alone 
Taking the pain and putting it away 
To shout it out some other day 
Love lost tragedy 
Made me see 
My heart bleeds 

The hurt might go away 
On my knees all I can do is look up and pray 
And Say, that this won’t happen again today
Scorned, heart too torn, to be reborn 
Love again, not convinced 
I haven’t found love since

Living in tragedy 
What has this life made of me? 
Hard and cold, cold as stone 
Here I sit again alone 
Taking the pain and putting it away 
To shout it out some other day 
Love's lost tragedy 
Made me see 
My heart bleeds 


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Lost In Thoughts

Each day feels like a dream
As I'm lost in thoughts of you, 
My dream still won't end 
Because I can't accept were through.

You always made me happy
I loved to make you smile,
But still I'm lost in thoughts of you
My mind scattered in a pile.

Every moment spent with you
Is another memory to cherish,
It's so hard to believe 
Our love was so quick to perish.

Lost in thoughts of you 
As another day soon passes,
How will it be next year
When I'm alone between my classes?

I miss you more and more
As I regret all that I've done,
If only I could take it back
To avoid this awful shun.

The good times and the bad
All the times we had fought,
I still can't see me with out you
Still I'm lost in thought.

It gets harder each and every day
The more we grow apart,
The love we both had shared
More than music, it was art.

Finally I have realized
That I miss us even more,
Lost in thoughts of you
I must leave out the door. 

Still I don't understand
Our love was so true,
How could it disappear
In lonely thoughts of you?

More and more I dream
Of the day things will change,
Thoughts of you keep coming
I want the days to be the same.

I believe someday soon
My lost thoughts will become true,
And we will live together
I'll be your Tigger, you my Pooh.


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IN REAL LIFE

Now,I only see you in my dreams,
but in real life I have lost you;
I shouldn't have been so afraid of you...
when  you needed somebody's
open hand to hold yours;
I held back, and let another  kiss your lips...
I let you slip through my fingers:
all I can feel is emptiness and remorse!

Now,I only see you in my dreams,
but in real life I have lost you;
I never realized how lucky I was;
it is a great pity not to have you...
I didn't find the right words
to explain this hidden feeling!
I have been hanging on to it
for a quite time,and never said
a word about it:  so many 
chances passed me by!
Now,I only see you in my dreams,
but in real life I have lost you...


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Lost Out

BOY: 
I lost her
Left her alone
Distant aches in my heart
I lost her
Can’t feel her anymore
Far away
I lost the love and touch
I lost out
I lost her


GIRL:
He lost me
He left me alone
I hurt and ache and long…
He lost me, though
His embrace is long gone
He feels so far away
He hurt me
He lost out
He let me slip away

BOY and GIRL: Lost out


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dreamer (little girl lost)

Depression is over rated, and I don’t prefer the things I have. So why are all the 
girls claiming to hurt, and cry out that they are sad. Did they touch the hand of 
death, feel love break away. Did they ever run away from sub ordinance, and cry 
angry tears each day? 

Dreamer, you’re a little girl lost. Dreamer, it’s safe to wipe away the frost. The 
cold that keeps your heart from loving, the pain that keeps the happiness from 
coming…dreamer, you don’t have to be lost anymore. 

Those who are hurting, they keep it to themselves. They cry into their pillows, 
then put their feelings on a shelf. Maybe write it in a journal, but never mutter the 
threats to another ear. They know that hurting and feeling isn’t accepted in places 
like here.

Dreamer, you’re a little girl lost. Dreamer, it’s safe to wipe away the frost. The 
cold that keeps your heart from loving, the pain that keeps the happiness from 
coming…dreamer, you don’t have to be lost anymore. 

I hear you crying in every tear that falls from my face. You don’t have to say a word 
or hurt yourself in other ways. I know you feel, and loved and lost, before the age 
of seventeen. Take time to remember some smile that came in the times that 
were between. There’s life, there’s love, there’s hope and happiness waiting 
beyond that door. Only leave when you know it’s right, and you know you cant take 
anymore.

Dreamer, you’re a little girl lost. Dreamer, it’s safe to wipe away the frost. The 
cold that keeps your heart from loving, the pain that keeps the happiness from 
coming…dreamer, you don’t have to be lost anymore.


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i need to know your breathing

Sit and listen to the children breathing, rise and fall, rise and fall. eyes are 
brimming, paint a tear streaked face now. Watch them fall, watch them fall. Go to 
school now, draw a pretty picture. Feel so small, feel so small. It’s too late, you’ve 
been waiting alone. Lost it all, lost it all. 

Little children, lie down now. Catch your breath for once. Wrap up within your 
selves. I need to see your chest rise and fall. I need to know you’re breathing. 

She fell down and you watched it happen.  Saw her crying, saw her crying. 
Cupped your face you nearly lost it all. Felt him dying, felt him dying. You don’t 
know the words that slip from your mouth. Are you lying, are you lying? Know the 
knife as it slips you your dose. Love the pain, love the pain. 

Little children, lie down now. Catch your breath for once. Wrap up within your 
selves. I need to see your chest rise and fall. I need to know you’re breathing. 

Rise and fall, rise and fall…rise and fall. I need to know you’re breathing, 
breathing, breathing…


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A Time

A love song comes down wailing
sinks a ship that should be sailing
and the clouds protest the bravest of the lost souls

who could tell you where to go
I would have liked to eventhough
I guess we are just lost about ourselves

Before and afterall
faster than a cannonball
we all fell down around

dusted off and there you go
loved you more even so
but guess we found out in the end

beneath the sky and under stars
love fell out and gave us scars
better off without don't you know

can't feel this or any pain
stumbled back and laughed again
bet you saw this coming, didn't you

bring it up and back some more
wonder what it's all for
keep this dream alive

Then someday wake up to this
someone new to hold and kiss
but her face looks just like yours

why some die and why some fall
never know but that's not all
need to find somewhere to hide

crouch down low to bury me
the right way out is hard to see
I'll get there with time

hold me back if you dare
just for once like you care
tell me no more of this true

talk to me and lead me wrong
promise you it won't take long
just go with me and find

no one else can hear you now
we'll find that out somehow
that forgotten piece of love

I hope you remember when
that love was there even then
it's here now so I'm told

So take the day and waste away
nothing left for me to say
just say goodbye to me one last time


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The Edge

Nothing lost when there’s nothing left to gain
Not when I’ve lost it all before
I keep on climbing just to see where I am
But I just don’t care anymore

I hope someday I will just fall off the edge
Perhaps I’ll feel something new
Gone past the days of jumping into my lies
Gone past the ways I fell for you

There’s nothing special in the path that I chose
When I was really pushed along
Everything good is just a place I like to hide
Everything true is just a dying song

Perhaps someday I will come around
In death or in a dream
Someday I hope I’ll learn to be real
Somewhere beneath the mountain’s stream


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Sleepless Road

I think my hope has lost its substance
So much words for nothing real
Just vibrant sounds and laughter
To deter the things I feel

I think my wit has lost its purpose
To contradict what they don’t see
But then again I have my riddles
To plant suggestions of disease

I know my questions don’t hold much reason
When every answer’s just the same
It’s in the eyes of the beholder
It’s in the hands of those that change

Too much watching left me stranded
Too much silence left me dead
But then this always was my purpose
The game of rebelling against my head

I think my love has lost incentive
My heart just wants to sleep
All the searching left it empty
It’s spent too long counting stray sheep

I know that I’ll go crazy
If I attempt to find some peace
And so I’ll slip into the ending
And one more death will bring release