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Forever In My Heart

Sometimes I look around me
and I see an empty space
where you might be playing
a sweet smile on your face
You might be calling out to me
asking me to play
and I would be there with you
and you would fill my day

At bedtime when I read to you
before I tucked you in
I would open up my arms
and you would climb right in
I would kiss your baby cheek
and tell you "you're my love"
then I would hold you close to me
and thank the Lord above...

But when I look around again
there's just an empty space
no toys scattered on the floor
no shinning little face
I'll never hear you call my name
or watch you as you grow
but you will always be with me
no matter where I go

I know there is a heaven
and I know that you are there
and you have a better life
than I could give you here
until I take my final breath
I will always pray
that through God's most precious gift
I'll be with you someday

Then I will take you in my arms
and hold you close to me
your laughter will ring in my ears
your smiling face I'll see
we will be together
my precious baby boy
and then the only tears I'll cry
will be ones of joy

I hope that you can hear me
I have so much to say
but I never had the chance
since you left me that day
for now I want to tell you
that I love you so
and I'm so very sorry
that you had to go

If you could have stayed with me
my dream would have come true
and I know I would have done
anything for you
and even though you went away
and we must be apart
I know you will always live
forever in my heart


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Pins and Needles

Another song written in middle school - edited of course. ;)
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[Verse 1] I'm trapped within these walls Never to leave at all I am the prisoner inside my own home My spirit is broken I do not believe I'm locked in this chamber which I cannot leave [Chorus] The needles that break the skin The anger that runs within I’m giving it all away Just to stay alive The needles that pierce my veins It will never be the same We’re on pins and needles now It’s how we survive [Verse 2] They say he’ll find me soon Got to get out of this room The blood will spill and he’ll take what he wants to I’ll never let him through GET OUT OF MY DREAM He whispers in darkness, “I’m not who I seem…” [Chorus] [Verse 3] The four walls around me They start to close in I know I’m too late now I know I can’t win So just tell me I’m crazy It’s all in my head You’re not the killer And I am not dead [Chorus] [Breakthrough] Don’t tell me it’s impossible To start it all over again Infection sinks through your pale skin You’ll curse the day that I’m dead [Chorus]


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Memories Of Grandma

I am reminded of... the days I would watch her work 
in her flower garden for hours at a time
I am reminded of... the days she would take me by my
hand and say come along help grandma
I am reminded of... me carrying my little bucket along
to help her water all  of her flowers
I am reminded of... The smiles that would cover grandma's 
face when new flowers would be blooming
I am reminded of... sitting on the bench with her and watching 
the butterflies fluttering amongst the flowers
I am reminded of... The birds singing their happy songs as they 
flew around the flower garden
I am reminded of... the wind drifting by us and the fragrance of
the flowers floating all around us
I am reminded of...our walks back from the flower garden and 
our talks along the path back to her house
I am reminded of...how much I miss her everytime I smell these 
beautiful flowers that still grow in her flower garden

In Loving Memory of my Grandmother
Helen Lyvine (Fosnaught) Myers

Entry: 5th Poem on the Soup for P.D.'s contest
12th Place winner


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Moments In Time

The sweetest sounds of burning trees
A gentle stroking in the breeze
The calm has lasted past the storm
Cloudy visions, Satan’s roar
Too many sights have passed my way
A time found only in the haze
The softest screams are running bare
My aching bones creak as I stare

You walk a distance towards me
The fall’s eternal, can’t you see?
I’m a memory in your heart
I whisper to you in the dark

The battle’s started at the end
No one is coming to repent
The sinners grab their wine from prey
No judgment calling here to stay
The sport is reckless to be told
The one is laughing at his souls
It falters nowhere to be sure
The power grows forevermore
Like a spirit in the wind
I have no say in where you’ve been 
But cross the line to come to me
And pay the price for ecstasy

You walk a distance towards me
The fall’s eternal, can’t you see?
I’m a memory in your heart
I whisper to you in the dark. 


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I've Scribbled This Song For You



I've Scribbled This Song For You...


I'm wasting my days,
my empty nights too,

I should have held on,
but I simply lost you,

now I stagger along,

wearing broken smiles,
in between hell and you,
there's a million miles,

yes, I should have kept,
you close to my skin,

soaking your warmth,
but you were laughing,

at my foolish grin...


now I'm all broken,
and torn apart,

but what the hell,
I was always late,
for the tolling of the bell,

and now...

now I stagger along,

wearing broken smiles,
in between hell and you,
there's a million miles,

so kiss me now like you once did,
I'm tired of being so carefully hid,


la laa laa la laa laa laa...


(repeat to fade)


:-)


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Why must I Die inside?

Why must I die inside?
I am crushed inside from past experiences that I have not let go of.
I have tried to erase all the things that are holding me back.
I have tried not to remember how many times I was raped and torn apart inside.
I cannot remember when I have really and truly laughed and felt it inside.
I am pressed down with so many issues and hurt from family and friends.
I have tried to live my life with humility and honestly and Love.
I reach out to people with sincere compassion.
I want to live
Why must I die inside?


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Velvet Wings

Ignorant to passing time
Reality strikes its deafening chime
Unspoken words pass between
I and you, my darling queen

Lay your weary head to rest
With your arms across your chest
Now it's time to close your eyes
Whisper your final goodbyes

Let me go, we'll both be free
Cross the wasteland, past the sea
Find the path to heaven's light
Break away from endless night

Embracing tears of bitter pain
Falling lightly with the rain
Out of reach, I hear your song
Alone again, I sing along

Let me go, we'll both be free
Cross the wasteland, past the sea
Find the path to heaven's light
Break away from endless night

From the night. . .
I watched your velvet wings take flight
I never saw you so alive
So alive
I watched your velvet wings take flight
I'll never ever say goodbye
Never say goodbye

Life has ended, you have won
Death befriended, pain is gone
Fly away into the light
Crystal clear and shining bright
Close your eyes for final rest
Meeting among the blessed

Let me go, we'll both be free
Cross the wasteland, past the sea
Find the path to heaven's light
Break away from endless night

From the night. . .
I watched your velvet wings take flight
I never saw you so alive
So alive
I watched your velvet wings take flight
I'll never ever say goodbye
Never say goodbye

I let you go so you'll be free
Cross the path of darkened sea
I watched your velvet wings take flight
I can never say goodbye
Never say goodbye


Collaboration with Rebecca Larkin <3
A song, and lyrics


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Inside Job

Building castles in the air,
Gold and diamonds everywhere;
You were the brightest stars in your own skies

In empty space you built your dreams
Behind  computer screens
You rode in long expensive cars
 Drank in all the trendy bars
As all the while you lied and bet
Against the ones who'd hoped to get
Some small piece of our communal pie;
They bought your homes and with them bought the lie.

     It was all an inside job
     Pulled by a faceless mob
     Of bankers, lawyers and their ilk.
     It was all an inside job
     By a thoughtless, greedy mob
     Of men who rob the poor to sleep on silk.

Smoking candles, fallen flowers
Foreclosed homes and broken hours -
This is the aftermath of what you've done,
Games ill played and  ill begun.

And the rich keep getting richer
Though they've painted us the picture
Of what happenswhen you set the weasels free.
They've no concern for you or me
Or the discrepancies we see;
Should be enough for us that they should always be.
No one's punished ,no one pays,
And they remain, complacent in their ways.

     It was all an inside job
     Staged by the untouched mob
     Of bankers, lawyers and their ilk.
     It was all an inside job
     Perpetrated by the mob
     Of men who rob the poor to sleep on silk.

And now this evil season
Has descended without reason
And the sheep will stand and wait
To receive their unearned fate.

I hope you're proud, you sleep at night
While masses live by candlelight
May your riches find you lone and cold
When you at last are frail and old
And no one mourns your passing days
And none thought loyal will stay
To watch with you all through the coming gloom
That pushes you, now helpless, to your tomb.

Castle building in the air
Gold and diamonds everywhere;
The brightest stars will dim away
Replaced by others, other days.

     And so it goes, the inside job
     Brought off by the blacksuited mob
     The bankers, lawyers and their ilk.
     The framers of the inside job
     That heartless, faithless, grasping mob
     Will one day drown, beneath a sea of silk.


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I MISS WHAT USED TO BE

I feel like it's just not the same
Everything's changed but the name
That something sad got into my Soup

I've seen so many good friends go
Others have come that I don't know

I miss what you used be

I've ask, but the answers don't come
Not knowing what's next makes me glum
I'm wondering is it time to say good-bye

So many memories from in the past
All I once knew, yeah.. it didn't last

I miss what used to be
Yeah, I miss what used to be

And now theses ads, completely insane
Fall on my page like a pouring rain
Just want to enjoy my bowl of Soup
Read your work, have you read me

I miss what you used be

The years here have come and gone
Lots of poets, but something's wrong
One thing I never thought I'd say.. so long

So many memories from in the past
All I once knew, yeah.. it didn't last

I miss what used to be
Yeah, I miss what used to be

I miss what used to be
I miss what used to be

I miss what used to be
Yeah, I miss what used to be

*Written as a tribute to the old guard that have felt many changes here at the 
Soup

Date: 7-19-14


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Obituary Poem

I saw you cry yourself to sleep last night,
I watched as you struggled to start your day.
I asked the Lord to make your grief load light,
And give you help along the way.

Forgive me for not staying longer,
But I really had to go.
The Lord called me, I could not linger,
Sorry, but it was time to go home.

Remember what you will of me, 
No matter what, just know I cared.
Whether friend or family,
Remember all that we have shared.

Now I’ve made heaven my home,
You knew that’s where I’d be.
I am not at all on my own,
And my soul is at peace.

I know its hard at the beginning 
But I also know you’ll make it through.
I hope it helps your heart to know I’ll be waiting,
In paradise for you.


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Rehab

So much I wanted to say. So much I wanted to shout.
It was like being trapped behind bars without a way
to get out.
My mind going wild with all these questions of why.
The only way to escape was to fall asleep or to cry.
What did I do so bad that made me have to pay?
My friends, my dreams, and my life was swepped away.
I know I can do it! I try and I try.
Nothing seems to get better. I sometimes wish
I would Die.
Starved for attention. I wanna talk to the world.
I just miss being loved. Miss the warmth of a girl.
Snickers and stairs is what my life has become.
I'm treated like I'm a kid, like I'm sick, or I'm dumb.
One day to the next. Life becomes work just to be alive.
I thank god for my blessings. I thank god I survived.
I finally see some improvement. More hope tickles
my brain.
It was worth all the time, all the tears, all the pain.
I awake with a smile and new hope to move on.
I did it! I did it! All those hard times are gone!


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Normal To Me

This isn't just a poem This isn't just another emotion This is me, these are my thoughts The Imagery is my sight, And The Allegories are my Life I'm lonely, There is just me But there's so many people around but no one can hear my loudest screams Don't Shout nor Scream This is all just Normal To Me I'm torn, I'm Cut Part of my heart stabbed, and then taken from me The Search for my innocence, Is like a moa hunt Don't Shout nor Scream This is all just Normal To Me Laughing and Jokes all directed towards me Just to Hurt me Cover all of the Halls "Fag, Emo, Queer" Words I too often know Don't Shout nor Scream This is all just Normal To Me Curling her hair putting on her makeup "You're worthless and nothing to Me" Says the so-called all-loving-one As she screams: "Why am I not Pretty" Don't Shout nor Scream This is all just Normal To Me This is not just a poem not just some words my pen cries with each words But this is Just a Glimpse Don't Shout nor Scream This is all just Normal To Me


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Godly Illusion

Fake face Fake smile Fake voice I'll run a mile Yes master No master Of course master Now master Gothic witch Gothic dream Your downfall In my smile Eyes radiating False adoration Your spell Oh so vile Empty words Empty syllables I'll empty out Your lies Cold iron Strong will My claws ripping At your heart Claws ripping Blood dripping My icy, gleeful smile Fake face Smashed Fake smile Thrashed Fake voice Silenced You don't fool me Anymore


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For All Eternity

As daylight dawns my eyes close
On another sleepless night
So cold and all alone without
Your arms to hold me tight
I look out through the glass
And watch the sunrise in the sky
And still I find no answers
As again I’m asking why
My nights they seem so endless
Then I face another day
So full of pain and loneliness
Since God took you away
People say that time will heal
That I’ll get over you
That one day I will laugh again
That I’ll find someone new
I only wish they’d understand
Why that will never be
I’ll never love another
For you were my destiny
And though I've tried to carry on
My fears I cannot hide
I just can’t face this world alone
Without you by my side
The tablet bottles empty now
And on our I lay
I put my hands together
Then I close my eyes and pray
Please God will you send back down
My Angel from above
Then he will gently take my hand
And lead me back to love
He’ll guide the way to Heaven
Where together we will be
Two Angel's who are blessed with love
For all eternity...



By Raina Hutchins


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Remember you

I open my eyes
to another day
as the sun climbs
I fade away
im carried to a place where i feel no pain
carried to a time before you went away

I still feel you close, feel you here
in this life we chose its all so clear
when I remember you, remember you

I close my eyes
from another day
as the moon blinds
I fade away
im carried to a place where i feel no pain
carried to a time before you went away

I still feel you close, feel you here
in this life we chose its all so clear
when I remember you, remember you

 


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Voices

They are all in my head, all day and all night
I hear them talking, telling me something's not right
They come from all directions, my ears never rest
recalling words from the ones I thought I knew best

My family my friends, those closet to me, telling
me things I refuse to see.
They've been buried within so long and so deep
like angry little children refusing to sleep

Some yell loudly, some whisper soft
they speak of the times and the dreams that were lost
and all these times I've refuse to hear, from people
and places I held so dear.

I've been so let down, my pride has been shattered
My heart has been broken, as if I didn't matter
It's a harsh lesson these voices within
makes me realize I've only one true friend
Thank you lord for opening my eyes, to people
that hurt me and tell me lies.
God's comfort and love will pull me through
from all the bad things these voices do.


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Buried at Sea.

I watch the ocean waves from underneath it all.
Deep down.
It's getting harder to breathe.
This water makes its way into my lungs.
You're suffocating me.
Asphyxiation.
Just leave me here, you haven't changed at all.
You fall apart, every time you start.
Just start realizing you can't replace the hole that you put in my heart.
One last breath to say goodbye.
I'll tell myself a final lie.
"I'll make it out alive."
The only thing that can feel this hole is the water that buries me at sea.
It'll feel the void, complete me.
Will I ever feel my limbs again? 
Is this the end of my suffering? 
I don't feel like waking up.
I can't wake up.
I can't see the sunrise anymore.
I have sunken to the ocean floor.


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Under the Eclipse: For Amanda Todd

October speaks of death, I hope now she can rest,
And lay the soaring bird on down.
Underneath her clothes, only herself she loathed.
We've seen this done before. 

Together they manifest their cause, ripping with their claws,
Tearing flesh and bone.
From the shame inside swelling at her sides,
She broke herself on stones. 

And the monsters say "There's on her to blame,
With many heads we only think the same".
When no words of solace leave our lips,
I can tell you the world will end like this,
Under the Eclipse. 

All around they slayed and left where she laid
To bleed out all her wrongs.
And now that she's gone, over with and done,
Her memories all they play. 

She can show you how people lose their sanity.
She can show you how the world has lost humanity.
Those who turned their eyes, this has only you to blame.
To console yourself you say "Oh what a shame".
I can tell you how the world will end like this,
Under the Eclipse,
Under the Eclipse.

Wool across my eyes,
Shields me from this life.
Every single thread
Coating what they said.

Every drop of rain
Lights a candle in
Memory of the one
Who burned for others fun. 

She can show you how people lose their sanity.
She can show you how the world has lost humanity.
Those who turned their eyes, this has only you to blame.
To console yourself you say "Oh what a shame".
I can tell you how the world will end like this,
Under the Eclipse,
Under the Eclipse.

Where is the sun?
Where is the sun?


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Gotta Let Their Soul Cry

 Raped and Molestated in childhood, 
   Abused and Misused in pre-adulthood,
     Alone and confused they stood; feeling
       like tainted goods.

 Let their soul cry, maybe then; they can
  regain their pride. 

 They gotta let their soul cry

 Their darkest secret's they lock  away
   within, this is why their flesh constantly
    feast off sin; and everything in life has a
     beginning, but never render an ending.

 Let their soul cry, Crying is the only way to
  gain their piece of mind.
   
One might ask," Why"? Then , I will reply,"
  They need to see at least one day filled with
     promise rather than pain and see the sun
        without having rain.
     
 They gotta let their soul cry, before their sin
  cause their flesh to die.


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Something You Left Behind

I found something of yours you left behind:
Something I did not expect to find.
The sudden surge of memories
Shocked me so hard I couldn't breathe—
It almost knocked me to my knees.
My whole world came undone. 

I found something of yours you left behind:
Something that you wore when you were mine.
You wore it with your wedding gown,
Like a tiara or a crown.
It turned my world all upside down.
You always were “the one”.

I found something of yours you left behind:
Something that my love for you enshrined.
I found it hidden from the light,
That thing you used to wear at night.
That came down when I held you tight,
Back when we were one.

I found something of yours you left behind,
Something that I never wished to find—
'Cause there's no going back, you see,
To times when you were here with me.
You left a painful void in me;
But still life must go on.

I think of what you left behind
And then it came to me:
The saddest thing you left behind
Turned out to be me.

(Chorus )
I thought I'd gotten over you;
But I was wrong, you see.
You don't get over love that's true,
Nor what was meant to be.


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Dont Wanna Live Without You

When things are going wrong
And your screaming in my ear
Telling me its over
Im begging you please take me back
Thats all i need 
Thats all I really ever wanted 
Please take me back
Dont turn me away
Dont put me through this unbearable pain
Cause it tears out my heart and puts it to shame
Turning me into ome kind of lonley monster
I dont wanna live with out you
Id rather die at your side
Its to unbearable to let you go
TO feel this pain
To go on living in this world full of rain
So please take me back 
Dont turn me away
This pain is to unbearable to live with
It tears out my heart and puts it to shame
Turning me into a monster


I cant live without you


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Borderline's Wreckage

I'm Agonizing every Word that my mind Creates You've done this all to me release your wrath to Me You wonder How much a Human Heart can take I've reached the limit You've invaded me on every level none of this is Mine anymore I can't bleed enough for You We're through This, This Torture Homicidal With You Suicidal Without You Feel Free to abuse If it's you I won't lose The Winds push away The Vines pull forth I'm at a lose on what to do So very lost and Confused Don't say we're through Homicidal With You Suicidal Without You I Hate you ...Don't leave me I push you so far away But need you so close I'm on the edge you're all I really need I'll do anything Just don't Abandoned me leaving has it's toll Homicidal With You Suicidal Without You


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Why me, cruel world, WHY ME?

Cruel, cruel world,
Why me?
I never hurt you,
Why must you hurt me?

When does it stop?
That tearing pain inside me.
Will it ever leave?
It's slowly driving me crazy.

This life will end,
But why must I wait?
Let me go now,
I want it to end!

Don't hold me here,
In pain that's so deep.
Take me away,
To a better place.

I want out,
I never wanted this.
Why should I live?
I don't want to be here!

You tear me apart,
You say to be strong.
I'm crackling and crumbling,
As I scream out in rage;

        WHY ME?


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I'll Be Missing You (A Tribute To My Brother)

Verse 1:

Seems like yesterday we was hanging out
Running round; playing tag in the house
Till you hurt me and I would shout
Zach I gotta let this out my mouth cause
Life ain’t always what it seems to be
It hurts cause I can’t see you visually
Now that you’re gone, I feel like dying 
I don’t even see the point in trying
In the future, it’s my only dream
That you open up the gates for me
I ask God sometimes
Why did he take my friend
Why did Zach’s life have to end
When it’s real, I find it hard to deal
With all the everyday pain I feel
I will never forget that time
When I heard what happened on 4.0.9

Chorus:

Every step I take, every move I make
Every single day, every time I pray
I’ll be missing you
Thinking of the day, when you went away
What a life to take, what a bond to break
I’ll be missing you

Verse 2:

It’s hard to bear with you not around
I know you in heaven smiling down
Watching me like you always did
Ever since I was a little kid
Till the day we meet again
In my heart is where you stay till then
Writing songs; writing poems and doing things like crying
Are only half of what gets me by
Memories give me the strength I need to proceed
Through this thing called grief
I go to God for all support
Cause he’s one I know I lean on
God broke this bond
I promise to the one
That will keep it going strong
I will never forget that time
When I heard what happened on 4.0.9

(Chorus:)


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this love this hate

This love 
This hate
is something we cant create
it makes us live
it helps us die
thats something that cant be denied
it makes us heal
it helps us feel 
it can even make men kneel
even though we are not the same
we can all be driven insane
by this love 
this hate inside my head
that makes the world wish it dead
so put all things away
rest your heads for this love this hate will fade away 
only when the world ends.


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Why Must It Be

Can I let you go? Will you be okay? Where you're headed now...to a better place Listen to my words of forgiveness relieving this pain I'd give anything to have you back again To hold you once more in my arms, one more day of happiness you now dwell within my heart Your innocent smile is forever a distant memory, and the times that we share are precious treasures that I spend reliving The Shadow of Death Took you in just one breath Why must it be? I cry behind this closed door, searching desperately for an answer, yet all I feel is an emptiness inside... despair haunts me forevermore Why did you have to go? Why did you have to leave? Why does this have to hurt? Cancer robbed thy life from thee... Why must it be? Fly away Angel Child of Mine Trod thy broken paths, roam away, fly and be free... Why must it be?


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Violet

In London, away in a terrace
Half-hidden with elm trees and grime,
Lived young Violet, in her parents' house,
Left alone for near all of the time,

As her mother had no patience to teach her
And her father was working all day,
Violet read to herself through her childhood
Forgetting her seclusion in play,

Any friends she made as a young woman
Would laugh at her stitches and cloth,
For they knew that Violet was quite useless
And so showed their neat needlework off,

Poor Violet kept trying her best, but
Each time everyone ran her down,
She retreated back into her mind's warmth
Far away from that cold-blooded town,

Then one night, as the raindrops were piercing
Through the rueful, restricting twilight,
Violet threw on her Sunday attire and
Did at once in the darkness delight,

So she ran through the alleys and gardens,
Dancing down the pitch-black London streets,
Her beautiful dress flew about her
As she skipped past the other deceits,

Violet's stories swam round in her memory
As she flew through the night and the stars,
And she bathed thoroughly and with relish
Until Violet was cleansed of her scars,

Now her heart was open and happy,
So she laughed and fluttered her tail,
Carelessly gliding free through the water
And onwards to the ocean did sail.

As the weary sun rose on the next day
Her friends could be seen on the pier,
Dabbing at their dry eyes with their hankies,
Voices straining trying to sound sincere,

"It has hurt us so indescribably,
That because of her poorly-sewn hems,
Violet felt she was inferior to us
And has drowned herself in the Thames."

Violet's parents had not yet noticed
The absence of their only daughter,
And they would understand even less
How she came to be dead underwater,

But Violet was now free to prosper,
To swim and to dance and to glide,
And with angels and mermaids to play with,
She would always in her dreams reside.


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A Childs Prayer - God We Need To Talk

Tonight as my baby girl started to pray
She said God it's 8 O'Clock, 
And God We need to talk.
She said daddy help me pray, 
And daddy bow your head,
As we knelt beside her bed. 
she said God can you hear me?
Mommy always said you'd hear me,
If I would learn to pray, 
And that you would show me the way.

Well God I don't understand. 
Why you took my mommy away.
Daddy always says i'll understand, 
When I grow up some day.
She said God, you need your son. 
Well I need my mommy to,
And I know that my daddy, 
Would be happier with mommy. 
Cause daddy talks to her, 
And mommy's not even there.

God can you please,
Give my mommy wings, 
So she can come to see us.
She always kept our house clean, 
And God I know, 
She keeps your house clean to.
And God I miss mommy's big hugs, 
Daddy says your son gives hugs to.
So I know if my mommy had wings, 
She could hug me and daddy.

Well God I want to thank you,
For being there to listen, 
And God think about what I said.
And tell mommy that I love her, 
And God I love you to.
Oh just one more thing God, 
Help my daddy stop crying.
Thank you God, Amen, 
Then she turned to me and said,
Goodnight daddy, I love you.

I was still on my knees, 
Beside my little girls bed, 
With tears running from my eyes.
I gave my baby a goodnight kiss, 
And said sweet dreams baby girl.
Then I went to my room, 
And kissed my wife's picture, 
And with tears in my eyes,
I knelt down to pray, 
I said God, We need to talk.


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Love went away

It hurt so much to let you go
It hurt me more then you could ever know
When it has to do with me you never really care
But I love you, Daddy, and I'll always be there

Even when my heart is torn
Even when when it's pricked by the love thorn
Even when we say our good-byes
Even when I listen to your lies

Your little girl is fully grown
Your little girl was so alone
So where were you dad
How could you make your little girl so sad

Even when I begged for you to answer my call
Even when you made me feel so small
Even when  I cried
Even when you were stuck in your pride

I always did my best
And even then you never were impressed
I never felt right, I never felt okay
Our love just went away




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Tears

A great day ending in tragedy
now you wait until you get the news
I was scattered in different forms
The car door was slammed into my side
The doctor walks in to give you the news
You fall to the floor
Tears falling from your face
Your makeup running down unto your clothes
Making a stain where your heart used to be
I took you back into the darkest place of my soul
Something was different more darker than before
Now you wait until the funeral of your lost love
Your standing in the corner
Your face is covered in darkness
The blood runs from your eyes
How it hurts in the worst way now that im gone
Your realizing how much i meant to you
Something you havent seen before
Your blindness fades away as you start to see
You fall to the floor fainting
No one picks you up
They drop my casket into my little hole
Where i will stay all life long
How your tears fall unto the ground
Getting soaked up by the soil
Drowning me in your tears
Admire the past no more ways to see the future
Now that your starting to love me more
You wait until you see me in a dream
Dying like the past
As your moving on i fade away
I am no longer alive
You left me behind


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October

there is an intense 
ageless quality to an 
autumnal day in October 
that embraces the past, and all 
its wistful tenderness 
the present and its disturbing sameness 
and the future, with its unknown quantity 
of joy and sadness 


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Martyr for the Unorthodox word

If I had over 10,000 dreams You'd be the only thing my mind could see Judgment couldn't be real Succumbing to the fear of this cold life Find a way to break through The self-destruction of wordly delusions Don't tell me I've lived so long in a lovely illusion Break me down until we find a Nirvanic state Then bring me a savior from transgressions An atoning sacrifice Send down to me a messenger for me to submit to Bring me the truth to break through The delusion Bring me the messenger to explain it all And let me leave behind Sorrow's caressing the earth The caliphate stole my heart Without a will to fight But I have the Means to be free I'll try to go with the word I believe But so many stones to be thrown Stakes to burn, limbs to break Faces to hate, scorns to taste Will I have the will to die Despite all of the tears no one will cry Sorrow's caressing the earth The caliphate stole my heart Broke my will Safetefied my soul Martyr for the Unorthodox word Sorrow's caressing the earth The caliphate stole my heart Without a will to fight But I have the Means to be free I'll try to go with the word I believe But so many stones to be thrown Stakes to burn, limbs to break Faces to hate, scorns to taste Will I have the will to die Despite all of the tears no one will cry Sorrow's caressing the earth The caliphate stole my heart Broke my will Safetefied my soul Martyr for the Unorthodox word


Details | I do not know? | |

Lost Love

As I sit here I wonder why, Why, My Lost Love Why couldn't it have worked Why My Love We each knew our Love for each other But knew what the consequences would have been So we went our separate ways Knowing full well, We'd never Be totally Satisfied Again Until We could be together Why Lost Love, Why Is there some meaning to this Madness I sit and Cry for You, My Love Knowing why I stayed in this situation, Does nothing to ease my pain I Miss You, My Lost Love You have forever been in my thoughts Love If there Is A God In Heaven, Surely, He'll Give Us Another Try My Love I try so hard to be strong, To show no signs of distress Yet, he knows something is wrong, Senses a change in me He's trying so hard, To make right the unjustly wrongs Lost Love Yet my thoughts and fantasies remain Around our times in each others embrace I only wish I could have told you again in person But I'm sure You already know There'll Never Be Another My Love, My Lost Love Is there supposed to be a grieving period I don't know, I only know I hurt, A deep Soul Hurting Like a part of me has died Love, Lost Love


Details | Lyric | |

hate is not the word for it

I eyes popped out of my head when I saw you with that girl
Boy, was I highly upset and you told me I was your world
I believed you and everything else that you told me
But I was blind but God, he helped me see
I hate you I hate you make me so sick
You lied to me saying that I was your only chick
You want to know something I'm tried of your mess
I got to get away from you and get this off my chest
But its alright and it is all good
I'm happy you did it before I would
After all them minutes, you wasted my time
It is all right you was sour like a lemon lime
That is all I have to say my work here is done
Piece out don't call me call the other one.


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I Found Out Today

I found out today you had never been true
You were with someone else when I was seeing you.
You took my love, my heart, my trust
And all it meant to you was lust.

I found out today that you gave her a ring
While talking with me about the same thing
And pledged your vows and made her your wife
And swore to stay with her the rest of your life.

Was it just a race?  Was it just a game?
Did either of us matter or were we just the same?
Did you really care which one of us said yes first?
Here I thought when you left me you had done your worst.

I found out today the ink was not yet dry
On the decree from your previous lie.
I was just one of many, a face in your crowd
Being duped by you does not make me proud.

I found out today I will get over you
I will hold my head high, I will get through
You have made me a skeptic, you have opened my eyes
I will not so easily fall for men's lies.

One day if I chance to see you on the street
If our paths should cross, if our eyes should meet
I'll forget the deceptions, the lies you would say
I'll remember the truth that I found out today.




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Honoring Sacrifice

For country, they chose to honor a call,
Now the piercing sound of a rifle's report.
An echoing trumpet, sadly says it all.
Let us hero our young as a last resort.

No image portrays our freedom's cost,
Like that of a flag draped casket.
A mental souvenir of war, un-tossed,
On display from memory's basket.

It serves to remind of a hero's place,
Should we treat it as a mere statistic.
For each had a home, name and face,
Harboring dreams that were realistic.

They abnegated those dreams for a chore,
Accepting that vitality might be tried.
Death isn't made a contrivance of war,
But a mental souvenir from those who died.


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Time

Through time alone 
A broken heart will heal.
It seems time always changes 
How we feel.
Although we think the pain 
Will never end.
The Lord above will help[
Our hearts to mend.
But time is such
As man cannot control.
And through the years
It lets our hearts grow cold.
But the memories of their lives
We'll cherish still.
Knowing that they
Were God the fathers will.




















Details | Ballad | |

Leave the Ninety-nine

We must leave the ninety-nine
To go search and find
The one lost sheep
Wand'ring far behind
We must leave the ninety-nine
To go search and find
The one lost sheep-
Left behind  (Chorus)

Just suppose one of you has a hundred sheep
Then loses one of them and begins to weep
Would you not leave the ninety and nine
And go after the one on your heart and mind
And when it's found you would hold it closer
And carry it home upon your shoulders
Then call all your neighbors and gather all your friends
Celebrating your sheep that's back in the fold again

[Bridge]
Likewise there's more rejoicing
In Heaven up above
Over one lost soul who will repent
Than for the ninety-nine
Who are already found
To be righteous and so obedient  (So..)

(Chorus)

Now suppose one of you has ten silver coins
But then loses one of them from your collection
Would you not light the house and sweep the floors
Searching very carefully for what is yours 
Would you not put away the other precious nine 
And look in every corner until the lost one you'd find
Then call all your neighbors and gather all your friends
Celebrating you have your coin in your hand again

[Bridge]

(Chorus)

[Bridge2]
But don't forsake the congregation
And now's the time for visitation
To lead the lost ones to salvation
With God's angels in celebration

(Chorus)


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The Gift

I never had the chance to look into your eyes,
I guess you felt so much pain that you tried to hide,
All this love I was to give, it hurt my heart you lived,
For just a little while, The Gift, my only child,
Wish I could take back every thought that was against you,
Felt like it was my fault, I was stressin, I had issues,
The tissue, keep it comin, My tears they steady runnin,
This aint no normal something, through loss Im steady hummin.
mmmh, mmmh, mmmh,
mmmh, mmmh, mmmh,
I only see you when I look at photographs,
You came with much pain so we never had some laughs,
I was trying to get ready for you, so I could be a better woman,
But instead my heart grew heavy because, my gift, took his lil' lovin,
I know you are not alone, so many have gone on,
But mommas strong, and daddies gone...
To you this is my song....


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Tragedy

On April 26th I was born,
In a world more than a hundreds years scorn, No healin' up
They sho' was pealin' up, casted the line and they realin' up,
Pullin me round on a string puppeteerin' us,
Didn't know how to discuss the way that I felt in my mind,
Isolating thoughts of much steer my wheel from time to time,
I thought about the shine only  making in worse,
College things, engagement ring Im throwin' in the dirt,
Miseducated young miss in this game, I write, rap, produce, and sang,
Not just for fame, but for talent I was given, tellin my life as it comes,
Wondering why we all is stealin, killin, thizzin, robbin, theivin,
But inside Im greivin, wonderin when a change gone come, 
When Imma be leavin? I been in chains for so long,
All the soldiers that went to war, they aint come back home, they aint come back 
home.


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In My Song

                                                                  Page 
                                                            Of untold love 
                                                      Aged, but will not die
                                               For I will pen you in my song


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Afraid to Feel

I feel afraid, afraid to feel, I look in the mirror, I bow my head and then I kneel. 
Hearing the screams burned in my mind, yet afraid to listen, fearing what I will 
find. Upon me lies a cape of darkness and gloom, I wear it like a shroud and 
hide in my room, ! stare at the door hoping yet fearing, that an end to this 
suffering is finally nearing...afraid to feel or feeling afraid, I can no longer tell, I 
find myself wondering if this could be hell....afraid to feel, what can be done, 
when the soul fills with fear and the hearts song goes unsung... 

Tis a tragedy of shattering despair. I cry out,"Someone please tell me when I 
learned not to care!"  I grab my head and pull my own hair, whispering, why me?  
It just isn't fair.  I long for days past, when love was constant and I had faith it 
would last. Now I scream silently, begging for the return, of the emotion that fate 
so carelessly burned....feeling afraid, afraid to feel, why hast thou forsaken me? I 
ask as I kneel. 

! hear the answering sound of madness laughing, as it takes hold of my mind, 
leaving me gasping. Now comes to me my greatest fear, darkness falls upon me 
as I shed a tear, as my sanity begins to unpeel, I suddenly realize.....that I can 
feel....I look toward the mirror, and the glance that assures me I'm real, also 
assures me I'm still afraid.................... afraid to feel.


Details | Rhyme | |

Put a bullet in my brain

Put a bullet in my brain
as the rain sweeps her out of my arms
and places her into another's.
Put a bullet in my brain
for I don't want to see love slip away
please end my suffering,
for I don't want to dare see her in the arms of another man.

I fear the tear that slips away from my soul
and touches the ground with a splash
as she is washed away by the lashed memories of the rain,
please, someone put a bullet in my brain.

I can't bear to see her with another man
laying in his arms
as he charishes her beauty
just like I did to her.
As she smiles and laughs at his jokes
my heart would not bare the sorrow and pain
that would tare my heart apart into pieces of tainted love.
Please tell the rain to stop,
as the pain grows when rain comes down,
please someone end my suffering,
put a bullet in my brain
and stop the rain
that washes away every memory of her.

Stop saying you miss me
and just kiss me
for I can't take the pain
of the rain that takes you away.
Kiss me and stop saying you miss me
for those are useless words to me.
Love is where it's at, so show me.
Don't go with him, he'll treat you wrong.
Love and laugh with me till the break of dawn
as we yawn the long night away.

Kiss me and don't say you miss me.
For if you go away from me,
I couldn't bare to take a tear and waste it away.
Tears, sweet tears crying for you,
doesn't that mean anything to you?
I ask you, stop the rain,
stop the pain and put that bullet in my brain.

Let the red blood flow from my temples.
Let the plow dig my grave,
for I can't bare to see you with another
in his arms, him kissing you, where I kissed you.
I can't take it, I have to make it,
make that pain go away.
Prayer didn't help, God turned a blind eye
when I came up and said why!
Put that bullet in my dome
and when I lay in the coffin, looking at the roof of the church
you come and kiss me, and then you can really say
that you'll miss me.


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I Hate You Cancer

Dedicated to my Dad who lost his short battle w/ Colon Cancer on June 18,2013

I hate you Cancer
Your vile evil and cruel
You don't care who you hurt
I'll never forget that day
I'll always hate you for it

Your heartless Cancer
You took someone important from me
Someone important from others too
Took people who didn't belong to you
I hate you for it

You disgust me Cancer
You had no right to take him from me
He mattered more than my very own life
I hate you for taking my Daddy
I hate you for taking others too

I hate you with a passion Cancer
You took part of my heart with him
You took part of my soul that day too
I hate you for it
I hate you I hate you I hate you

I hate you with every fiber of my being 
Go back to Hell where you belong
I hate you, others hate you
Your not welcome or wanted here Cancer

I hate you more than his doctor's
I hate you more than God
I hope I get to witness that day
Witness the day you fall
And you will fall Cancer

You're gonna lose the battle one day Cancer
I'm gonna laugh and dance around your grave
You'll finally get what you deserve 
And you'll never be able to take another soul


Sabrina Niday Hansel


______________________________________________________________________
Placed 8th in Poet Destroyer A's  2013 "PINKTOBER" Contest

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Don't Cry

Please don't cry over my casket 
For I am not there 
Please don't cry at my grave 
My soul has been set free 
I know it's hard not to cry 
I've been down that road one to many times 

I have no more pain 
I have no more sickness 
And I would not change a thing 
As I walk threw the gates of Heaven 
Mom Dad our brothers and sisters 
Will welcome me with open arms 
Here I am free of that pain 

Don't blame yourself 
It was my time to go home 
This is where I'm supposed to be 
Don't dwell on things which you can not change 
I will always be in your heart 

I will always be watching over you 
When that day comes for you to come home
I will be there to welcome you 
With open arms
And walk you threw the gates of Heaven 
You will be greeted by our family & friends
Who came home before you 
Until that day I will be watching over you


Details | Haiku | |

The Internet: Return

A void of Facebook
Creativity dies here...
Procrastination!


Details | Lyric | |

This Aint Real

Your face, 
Made a fake smile, (you said)
I love you,
I need you,
I want you just for a while,
You told me,
That I made you smile,
All the things you said to me,
Are just words now,
How can we love,
When you love me for yourself,
(This Aint Love)

Chorus: 2x
What are we doin,
If this love ain't real,
What is this feeling,
That I feel,

I'm broken in emotion,
I'm broken in love, (you said)
I need you,
I want you
You're the only one,
I'm thinkin of, (so tell me)
How can we love, 
When there's always someone else,
(This Aint Love)

Chorus 2x
Bridge:
How can we love,
When there's always someone else,
How can we make up,
When you only love me for yourself,

verse #3:
You got me imprisoned, 
Inside your heart,
When kissed
I felt, Like we,
Would never be apart,
chorus 2x

 


Details | Elegy | |

The Lament For an Angel

All in one faded-black day (but let None forget) In my arms, her body lay (my life was the price to pay) A tragedy, through the lack of humanly shame (do they know pain) My darkly colleen has to suffer no more (Robert nor do you) Let me die (please hear my haunted cries) If I can not see Sophie tonight (live on with my grey) I'm just a mess of despairing words And broken nerves Another mourning, afflicted sight (through decay, love can remain) Solace, sympathy are just more lies She is all I need Until you decide she is just another sadist's toy My Angel, why did you have to fly so far away My Angel, just let one feather stay My Angel has flown away My Angel, why did you have to fly so far away My Angel, just let one feather stay My Angel has flown away (My body is amortal, die I may, Together, our hearts will forever stay)


Details | Narrative | |

Thunder and Lighting

Love is prominent but lies are still troubling the arch in my back is still aching  thru my core/ To calm to peaceful Today not enough appreciation from you
You make me feel less important.
 How many more audition do I need to perform for you?
 Your Personality changes like the weather negative energy creates “Thunder and Lighting” 
   Your Ego is higher then the altitude in Denver 
You are the weather that changes everyday I never knew when its cold are warm 
Today I was prepared for a Sunny day / But  like the weather you change unpredictably have me puzzled just wondering Why?
 I was not prepared for your  precipitation/ you never allow me to grasp your feelings never appreciate my love  you was only  obsessed with yourself and not my heart.  When its cloudy or rainy outside my vision gets a little blur and  fuzzy when you are around.

Meteorologist Predicate Sunny and warm air with the chances of early morning cloudiness’


Details | Dramatic monologue | |

Once Upon A Dream

Once Upon A Dream


We dream of our life,ones we thought were intertwined 
by fate,by destiny,by our past.
Now on theses day we don't speak for 
we've forgotten what we shared.
What we lost split us apart for I fell into darkness 
as you fell into light.
We reached for each other but to far to meet.
As we both fell,we both forgot.
Now we can't reach,we can't speak,we can't breathe.
To ignorant to realize what happen and fell for
what took us away.Our dream 
our lives,and our reality.They were all childhood 
dreams now so ever
forgotten not even time can replace.
What it meant to see,no more screaming,
no more tears.Close you eyes as we 
hand and hand in our one minded dream.


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Solipsist

Let the Deicide commence.

You're a voyeur at best!
Your vampiric heart is beating out of your chest!
And you have slayed the ones whom would love you for anything less
Ready to consume the final fragments of innocence,
And for you there is no forgiveness,
On your knees pleading, screaming to a tyrant in the skies;
The father of lies.

I will never be enslaved in your superiority
The people agree: jaded of your false dichotomies.
Know: I will be whomever nature intends to be
Apollo and I will share our dreams,
and you will be forced to see
your failure!

I know who you are...
Readily the first to present your scars
Chained by some despot or mental czar
An emotional homunculus in your mind, behind bars
Reluctant to escape - even when proven fake
Your demented mind - depths no one will penetrate!
 
...And you see me suffering
Not caring of any casualties
Just as long you recieve your safeguard of sympathy
So very wary of the masses and their Anarchy; Liberious ways

Solipsist - Is there no one you can see?
Even if she was presented burning?
Solipsist - Is there no one you can believe?
Even if Sophia was screaming?
Solipsist - Know you have killed and abused me
Imprisoned in your own  personal reality 




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Broken home

Remax can sale you a home but can't sale you happiness. I never visit the state of Georgia but things do get a little peaches. See this what happens when you eat finger food and take out orders. I never receive your Southern Hospitality/ I couldn’t even receive a  plate of food you cook/ you can finally see now when I walk away out your life forever I don’t even have a single word for you. Only thing you will receive from me is this middle finger. You was taught at young age to go to School and learn in Class. But surely class can’t teach you “CLASS”!!

 A moment silent   things were so quiet and  complicate in the beginning I thought we could have reconnect /But just like the chips to connect four they don’t always stay in the same order. You had play a handful of games and this when the “Battleship” games has to end. Now I hope you feel the water rise from your sinking ship and allow your tears to fumble into your lap.


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The Yoke Of Frankenstein

I seek a place that leaves no trace
Of venomous blood and tainted heart
I seek a place that holds only grace
Of righteous hearts and caring thoughts
I seek a place that broods not on hate
But of a tranquilized soul and an intellectual eye
I seek a place that is haven to a guilt-filled heart
Let it not, Oh! Wretched Passionate heart!!
Let me not succumb to such ardency
Let me not, dear god! Yield in to such tyranny
To extract such murky ardor is all I ask
I dine with seething lassitude brought forth by such a task
Dear nature where has it gone, my obliged gratitude 
From you, I have averted a heart
That comes to you now seeking! Asking! Groveling! For pardon
Almighty nature, which once has soothed a brute within me
Please! Dear god! I beg thee do not forsake
I come to you humbly meekly seeking an unfeasible amnesty
For I drown in to the abyss of thirst of farfetched enlightenment
And only now I know“how dangerous is the acquirement of knowledge, and how 
much happier that man is who believes his native town to be the world, than he who 
aspires to become greater than his nature will allow.”

*Inspired by Frankenstein’s tormented conscious *


                                                                                                    ~M.M.M


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A Mothers Silent Cry

As I stood there in silence remembering the things that use to be.  I tried to erase 
the 
memories hoping this would set me free.  the pain it caused the sleepless 
nights I 
embraced and the endless tears on my face as I felt so much disgrace.
Time went by Day by Day Night by Night as I begin to lose sight, the strain on my 
mind 
with all the waisted time. I LISTENED FOR MY SCREAMS FROM ALL THE BAD 
DREAMS.
But I was not releived.
The emptiness as I wanted to die, and all I received was a mothers silent cry.



Details | Rhyme | |

Black and White

You’ve maddened me to the core 
You singed me with your ferocious fire
We’re opposites… we’ll never integrate  
We can’t blend with each other…
Your love and I’m hate 
We’re contrary to each other…

So don’t even think about 
Getting us back together 
Because without a doubt, 
We don’t click with each other…

So let us go our own way…

Everything’s black and white
You love to torture me with your deceptive devices 
We’re playing this chess match – let’s fight!
Tonight, you’re going to pay the prices
You’re going to be deleted from my mind…

I’m not the one that should pay the price
You act as if you’re an angel from heaven
But, you’re a fiend…a devil from hell...who needs your advice?
Could someone unchain me from this prison?

So let us prepare for that day…

Fear and bewilderment build inside of our minds
Taking over us…we’re wasting valuable time
Terror and wrath injects into our veins…time starts to unwind 
I’m regaining my glory…this moment feels so sublime  

You think you’re innocent?
I can sense your guilt…bleeding through you
Do you live to feed me anguish? 
Don’t deny it…you crafty demon…no wonder I feel blue

Let’s get ready for battle…
I’ll watch you decay…
IT’S PAY BACK TIME . . .
Taste my fury and my agony 

Everything’s black and white
You love to torture me with your deceptive devices 
We’re playing this chess match – let’s fight!
Tonight, you’re going to pay the prices
You’re going to be defeated…

I scream before nightfall
I close my eyes to kiss my demise
I want to disappear 
Scratch away my desolation
Wipe away my tears…
Spewing out of my eyes…like a waterfall
Tonight, there will be dismay
There will be suffering 
After sundown…
Failure and glory will expose like stars in the midnight sky
Who will earn the crown? 
No one knows in silent wars – who can reveal the light in goodbye
  
Why are we black and white?
Are you too afraid to know the reason why? 

Everything’s black and white
You love to torture me with your deceptive devices 
We’re playing this chess match – let’s fight!
Tonight, you’re going to pay the prices
You’re going to suffer alone…


Details | Narrative | |

The Final Confessions II

These were my confessions
(A message to God)
The light begins to fade
(It’s time to go)
Back into the shadows
(That hard black fog)
Where darkness has its way
(God rest your soul)

Nothing left to tell you
(It’s all been said)
No more songs to write
(This silent Fall)
Nothing left to offer 
(The well’s been bled)
From a shadow’s waning life
(Who lost it all)

Take my words and hold them
(Don’t be afraid)
Place them near your heart
(And heal your pain)
Shadow words will kiss you
(And heal your pain)
When your world turns dark
(Don’t’ be afraid)

And I kiss you
Kiss you
I kiss you in the dark……..


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Lacerated Wings

They are bound to the Earth like trees
Suffocating under the weight of an icy grave 
Reaching to be free, but only their limbs are seen
Hoping that one day someone will see:
They can't escape with lacerated wings

The ocean surrounds me, covering everything
Nothing will be clearly seen; confusion overwhelming
No-one can save you, you're on your own, left to die
Manipulating every bleeding heart you can find
I can't escape with lacerated wings.

Swarms of nets, waves of screams 
Entangle: your captive illusions and dreams
The mask has be seared - The truth now they see
The Liar - Vampiric Fiend; lowly thief
And now they know you can't escape with Lacerated Wings

There's reasons for your rejections:
Your Heavy heart's transferred oppression
The scars are too deep to pass the trials
But you can find peace in your cage of empty spirals
You Cannot Escape With Lacerated Wings


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UNNOTICED, UNSEEN

I woke up one day
Unnoticed, unseen
The sparrows were chirping
Did not mind me between

I poked them gently
The sparrows got scared
Seeing them fly
I went mad

I ran out into the streets
Naked and free
Hurled pebbles on passersby
Watched them flee with glee

I felt like a king
In this blind men’s paradise
Shocking poor fellows at will
Making fun of their cries

I was shaken hard
By someone I could not see
I rubbed my eyes
Could see only darkness around me

It was my mother
She put me on her lap
Tears filled my eyes
As I went into recap

I wished my dreams were true
I could see the world go blind
Why O Lord, 
You robbed away my sight
What was my fault, 
You made me Blind


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Forever Changed

June 18, 2013 our world was Forever Changed
We where over halfway home
When we got the call from our baby sister

Said we need to get back home
We need to come as fast as we can drive
Mom really needs us
Something’s wrong with Daddy
The whole way we drove 80
Hoping & Praying we’d make it in time

Our Family & Friends were weeping 
By the time we got to his side
We knew our Daddy had been taking
And our hearts they were breaking
We never got to say Goodbye
We each softly kissed that man
We four sisters climbed in his bed 
We laid down beside him 
And cried just like babies
For our world was Forever Changed 
 
 


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A Spiritual Break Down

It creeped upon me slow and increased day by day
Something was draining all my spiritual food
I could not pray without being interupted the words kept slipping away
I could not sing praises making melody in my heart
I was not focused on him
My hope was built on nothing
My Peace had been disturbed
My whole body begin to shake and become weak
Everything good I  was once taught was being drained straight out of my head
No zeal to serve him
My Joy had been stolen
My mind was infested with worldly things
My feet walked another way
My memories of the thorns on his  HEAD were completly dead
Thinkings of his hands and feet being pierced bothered me no more
My fear of him was invisible 
My concern for my SOUL vanished as if it were never there
How could I allow this terrible thing to happen to me in such a short time
Why did I not GUARD my SOUL? I had to  have been out of my MIND!

STAY FOCUSED


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Haikus About God: V

Omniscient guy
Yet he lets bad things happen
How can he exist?


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Glisten in the Moonlight

Your glorious emerald eyes 
Glisten in the moonlight 
Glisten in the moonlight 
Delight dances in the water
I watch it joyfully
You are set free from the cage...
You're like a dove soaring in the sky
You are the rain...
drizzling down in ecstasy 
A hint of ecstasy is shown in your reflection...
When you caress me... I'm relieved... 
From the stress that forced me in chains
I knew we'd be on the brighter side of tomorrow 
We're glistening in the moonlight 
I knew we'd become candles in the heavens above us
We're glistening in the moonlight
For a moment, I felt your presence...your radiant with sympathy 
I saw at first glance the dark side of you
Tonight, we'll be together and fly through the horizon 
We'll watch the sunset say its last goodbye...
We'll wave a greeting at the moon! 
We glisten in the moonlight...
What if I was as handsome as the lion...
Roaring with pride and pure courage
What if we were glistening in the moonlight?
Would it bring health to our bones tonight?
Would it make our heart rejoice and overflow with delight?
Would we be able to survive this horrifying plight?
Would we be shimmering like a candlelight?
We're glistening in the moonlight... (6)
Ohh...yeah...ooh yeah...ooh yeahh...
We reach to the stars and hope we can trace a shooting star
I feel the coolness run down my fingers...
We're glistening in the moonlight
You're the dandelions in the fields
You're the gorgeous view that I marvel at everyday
When you kiss me, I live my dreams
We glisten in the moonlight
In a quick moment, I sense a feeling of endless renewal 
I roam inside of your illuminating maze 
Glow on... sunshine... 
Glow on...sunshine...
Glisten in the moonlight...
Listen to the truth and rub it in
You are ravishing like the sunset
But you're ascending while I'm descending
I feel extremely guilty
I wish I could glisten with you in the moonlight
You're glistening in the moonlight (6) 
Ohhh yeahh... oohhh yeahh... ohh yeahh
You're glistening in the moonlight (4)
We go our own way
I wish we can glisten like the moon
Glisten like the sun 
There's a dream concealed inside of me...
Reveal your light and pour it upon me
You glisten in the appealing moonlight
While I'm subsiding... you're fulfilling your dreams
Of gliding across the horizon 
You're independence... keeps on scorching with satisfaction
While I'm below you... 
Your emerald green eyes
Stared me down like a hawk...
Your emerald eyes
Gaze down at me genuinely...
I wish we could flee together in reality...
That could be a possibility
To glisten in the moonlight in glee
We were glistening in the moonlight (3)
But that was only a dream...
I'll pray that it turns into a reality
We were glistening in the moonlight 
Now, I've misplaced my delight...
Will I ever experience such a brilliant night?


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You call me your brother

You call me your brother "but you want to kill me
You smile in my face and say we are brother's
You hunt me down we can't communicate.
You want to kill me in the streets every time we meet.
Why can't you reconize me if you call me your brother?
When you are ready to kill me I'm just another.
You show me love but it's not for real
Behind my back you are ready to kill.
Why can't you see who I really am? 
If you have a good heart why am I the mark?
You must over come this deadly thing.
When I look around at all the so call brother's you killed 
it makes me want to scream. 
Why call me brother if you want to kill me?
Wake up my brother and do the right thing
I am your brother and you should know all this killing has got to go.



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Antigone

I am the face of misery
My life, a dissonance of autumn and spring,
The years are written in the same
Lugubrious, nostalgic grey
How can it be the author to blame?
I cannot scream this all away…
Burn nor Bleed this all away…
To Death I am Ordained

Lacuna ever growing
With Velvet sheets of life flowing
Aeons apart of my "royalty"
Under the mask the cannot see...
Can you dispel this tragedy:
Antigone - Epiphany failing

If it must be…
Then just kill me,
(Antigone) sing me out of reality;
I wear this dissonant crown of shame
(Antigone) Of a kingdom's disdain
I hate to be this way... normalcy's bane
(Antigone) Here comes the edict, to blame
The sordid child of Thebes,
This is me,
Antigone

No words of hope
No words of hate
Do I have Lenore to send to me:
The sordid child of Thebes
Caught In the longest nightmare
life - the slowest way to die

I know this is my life 
But I'm not under control
under the mask the will see
Just Another Human

If it must be…
Then just kill me,
(Antigone) sing me out of reality;
I wear this dissonant crown of shame
(Antigone) Of a kingdom's disdain
I hate to be this way... normalcy's bane
(Antigone) Here comes the edict, to blame
The sordid child of Thebes,
This is me,
Antigone

If it must be…
Then just kill me,
(Antigone) sing me out of reality;
I wear this dissonant crown of shame
(Antigone) Of a kingdom's disdain
I hate to be this way... normalcy's bane
(Antigone) Here comes the edict, to blame
The sordid child of Thebes,
This is me,
Antigone

Can you dispel my life; this tragedy?
Can you control the storm in my mind?
I'm asking you: can you rid me
Of The Curse of Antigone?


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Autumn, Lit.Op.3

Oh summer sun’s dusk, the last of its kind!
Now season to tame the bloom that was wild,
Dyed leaves in the air and their rushing sound,
Go dance in the wind like flares in the ground,

This time it’s his time to wither and die,
This Tree that stood straight front my window by,
Those summers and springs while all looked up high,
It hinders my sight- see Venus in sky,

But now it’s his time to wither and die,
This tree that stood straight front my window by,
Now I am among that can cherish her,
Gone in my perspective- all the Tree’s blur,

I saw her meet the leafy winds of fall,
And through the cold her grace and beauty crawl,
This winter and fall we all looked up high,
At last so I see, I see her in sky!

But this spring had sprung along with its bloom,
The tokens of past are the guilt and gloom,
Rise in its remains front my window by,
Hence there I had gazed my loss as I cry,

“In the humid air as drenched earth below,
Down to his shade where there I was spared so,
And back the days where my peace was at stake,
The anger I shared- these all for my sake,”

For those where his deeds whom I had seen least,
They all were unveiled as now he’s deceased,
So here I see forth- winter! Oh its grief!
Dyed are in the air; last sun’s gloomy leaf,

Shame! Fool, I was fooled. Sweet lies in her hands,
Thus so I’m to look his corpse where this stands…
Front my window by. Radiates those good nights,
I send my rejects to all her invites!

-oOo-


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little feet

they run around the house
yet they do not utter a whisper...
they pit pat down the street with sweet grass on their mind
and never once complain of the hot concrete
they step on nails and tacks and thorns
yet never speak of the cuts and bruises
they come in all shapes
all sizes
and they all long for the soft sweet grass
that lay just around the bend
and the grass makes it all worth it


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Mommas Loving Hand On CD

Momma knows her girl ain't crazy,
Still hearing those wedding vows,
It never ceases to amaze me,
What she's going through even now,
While cryingly she goes on...sharing mommas loving hand,

She's cried a month of Sundays,
Felt the slamming door,
Hoping maybe someday,
Love is evermore,
In the rising and setting suns...of having a good man,

She's been tried by the Devil,
Felt the upperhand,
Been so dissheveled,
Trying to understand,
Now her life must go on...without that wedding band,

She's cried a month of Sundays,
For the man she knew before,
Hoping maybe someway,
Love is evermore,
Now her life must go on making new plans.

She's been walked on a bit,
And still has those crying fits,
O-O-O-O-Oh! Lord!
Even I can read her lips,
Now an ex-wife must be strong, trying to understand,
How her life must go on, without that wedding band,
She has mommas loving hand.

On CD from Nashville...502-290-7524  in no ans.. leave message..







She's been walked on a bit,
And still has those crying fits,
O-O-O-O-Oh! Lord!
Even I can read her lips!
How an ex-wife must be strong, trying to understand,
How her life must go on, without that wedding band,
She has mommas loving hand.



I wrote this when my sister was going through her divorce.  I have this one on a CD.


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A Heart Loves Forever

Some hearts fall in love when they're young
Some only fall in love in songs
But mine fell in love with yours forever
It fell in love forever

Mmmm…

You said you don’t love me anymore 
I get it, but there’s something I know for sure
My heart doesn't believe my mind
It needs to be near you
It’s been a long time

After hearing your words, I lost more than a day
Asking for grace, I prayed it’d be ok
I sit here, just looking above
What we had is what I’m thinking of…

Some hearts fall in love when they're young
Some only fall in love in songs
But mine fell in love with yours forever
It fell in love forever

Mmmm…

Some hearts keep love longer
My feelings for you only get stronger
All these years we’ve been side by side 
And it’s only now that I can see the light

Even as our love fades
I don’t agree that it makes it ok
Cause a heart loves on and on
It’s a love unbounded and strong
I can’t get past how I love you baby
I need to move on but I’m going crazy

Some hearts fall in love when they're young
Some only fall in love in songs
But mine fell in love with yours forever
It fell in love forever, mmmm.

I’ve been wishing and praying, for some luck
But now I can see that you’ve had enough

When a mind tells a heart, love is over
It can’t see the truth cause a heart loves forever

I promise you babe, I’ll love you forever. Mmmm…

My heart fell for yours forever


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Haikus About God: III

Beauty of nature
Why condense it down to God?
Isn’t life enough?


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Woman's Psalm

Forgive me, Father, 
for I don't understand 
what I do. 
I don't know how or why 
my mind and spirit 
gets so caught in this hook , 
over and over. 
I yearn for You to refresh me, 
and refill my inner man. 
I yearn for truth, for love, for beauty, 
smiles, laughter, sunlight...
a calm blue sea..
a garden of boastful flowers. 
I yearn for my purpose, my duty, 
the Divine Direction. 
I yearn for an angelic lover 
to lie down and live with me. 
I ache to have a tiny creature in my arms 
with those bright and heavenly eyes 
that stare at me thinking that the world is innocent. 
I cry to be set free, 
the spell broken, 
the demons cast out, 
the shackles unlocked. 
I mourn over the golden and pink clouds 
that have abandoned me. 
I weep for the Father 
to pull me out of this snake-infested cradle, 
for Him to sweetly sing a soft sonnet 
of consolation that rocks me to sleep, 
escorts me back home. 
I desire to write madly with explosion...the way a mad man would play the fiddle. 
At this moment, I surrender. 
I bow to Thee. 
I submit to Thee. 

Here we are again. 
Let's put it to bed. 
Let's watch it scorch in the bonfire. 
Let's bless it as we bury it. 
Pour the dirt on down..down...down....
deep down into the dirt. 
It's going to be a battle. 
It always is. 
This is a big one. 
Nothing too big for Thee, 
the drum of my heart. 
" My Sweet girl, 
come to me. 
Eat and drink. Suffer no more. 
You are my dear, 
forevermore."


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Welcome 2013

Well we are already a couple of months in so i just wanted to say welcome. 
this will be a new journey for the both of us, so i hope it will be awesome. 
I will try to write more than usual this year, I promise. :)
What would help tho if you readers would send me topics and stuff to help me write about things cuz my mind goes way faster than my fingers and i cant think of just one thing. lol. so thank you readers. plz comment and tell me your thoughts.


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To young to die

Too young to die


They take a boy, too young to shave
Who has never lived his life
While his mates are chasing girls
They fill his life with strife
They send him off to a brand new war
Over some damned fools Ideal
I don’t understand their wars
And I guess I never will


The folk who like to run the show
Or most of them at least
Have never even been to war
They’ve never felt the beast
As he rips right into one’ intestines
That hollow hole of fear!
Each leader should be sent to war
Then the picture might grow clear


Then when they send young boys to war
They’ll see the whole damned show
The weight of endless terror
 And then maybe they’ll know
What it’s like as a fine young man
To be sent out there to die
He might then know, how a mother feels
When she’s lost her little guy.

1 August 2013 @ 1443hrs.


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Draconian II

[The Puppeteer]
The storm I see you in
Caught in the race of Caïn
Held by the arms you cannot see--the conducter of Ennui 
-No stronger than the void you hold within-
It began with a hope, an obsession
Casted into, slavery of repugnant possessions 
Granted by, the Avaricious Lords, the ones we serve for
-They Told Us to pray, hope, away from despair, the despair caused by their immaculate Hands
Malice, envy, greed, was granted to me, The Feudal Dream, we want to be Them, just like him
-just how he solaces us, ambivalent hope, engendering knives to my throat 

[The Fall]
In this Valley of morning and weeping
Love lies bleeding, in desperate fear
With their talons, the hunt to rip out thy heart 
As each velvet petal falls apart
Her body chained in their bile and lies, covered with their red-spy
-sent just to check if our souls are in line, do not defy 
Her blood velvet and pure, drips away with innocence of the amber guardian 
The soil of plagues, beggars, and graves
Is know her home, the coven of solace
Though the seed has died--resurrection Is near passing through death's fear
One stronger than you--and thy funeral skies
She is alive--anew
But the vapors still remain
The Apocalypse is here, do we fear?
Just for the death of our sins
Elysia never Seemed so far away

[Our Damnation]
Solitary ruins, Fulfill their visions
We strayed far from the depths within 
We all lingered to his solace--lies
-you make the sign everyday, but lack toknow the name
We are just the toys, he pulls all of the strings
We are nothing in this burning world
of Decadence, and Failed Semblance

[Draconian] 
Draconian--Reach for the shadows within
Draconian--Break from the Fallen's son
Draconian--Their empirical lies, only die
Draconian--Reach the shadows within


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Words of Life

Drowning in the pool of anguish…oh…oh…
I’m venturing into the forest…and I want to hear the words seep out 
Release these aching sorrows…I worry my soul’s drying out…
like a drought…
Drain out the fluids from my heart
It’s gouging me…bruising me to the core…

**chorus** 
Embrace the light…embrace the midnight sky…
You fall in my arms – you die so warm
Shed me more sun to lift up my spirits
From the…underground…and release me – I’m breathless
I’m drowning in doubt…ooh… oh… 


Remember me…I’m falling…into my swirling fate…hanging on the roots 
Strangling my heart…distorting in my veins… I’m bleeding so softly – cut out the wood…
Splintering me…I’m shattering… and I’m falling in the abyss
Bring me more radiance from my candle light
Warp me up in bliss…don’t let the midnight sky…don’t take away my delight
From the…ocean…and save me—save me…oh… oh…  I’m failing 

*chorus*

I’m drowning in regret…ooh..oh…
Hit the bull’s eye in my heart…embrace the light
And don’t leave me hanging in the abyss…hand me a kite!
Save me before I fall apart…shut out the night
And don’t let the dusk escape us…

I must confess…
I must confess…
I hate to see you abandon the light…
But I’m not the one to save you from the night
Ooh…ohh…

*Chorus* 

Splintering lies fill your heart 
I want to kiss it goodbye…
But you’ve mastered it like a piece of art
I want to kiss the abyss and die…
Dry… I wanna touch the sky with my whole soul
But I’m failing and the end of time has taken its toll
Tainted sorrow…swims around me…I dwell where the waters depart
But the anguish still swarms in my heart…
I’m failing…my heart stops beating
And my desires are fleeting
From my grasp
And the monsters laugh at me…as I fall… 

*chorus*

Embrace the midnight sky…catch me…catch me…
As I fall in death’s arms…I die so cold
And your heart is made of gold

Untangle the darkness & take away the nightmares 
Answer our prayers & block out the night 
Erase the heartaches & wipe away our tears
Unravel Your words of life & delight


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It's Not Over

Don’t say it’s all over (cause it’s not)
“Sorry” won’t cover it…so don’t go on your knees and pray for my forgiveness 
Oh baby…don’t listen to the commotion…I’m done taking cover (it’s all for naught)
I’m plummeting in slow motion…into the remorseful pit…I’m plummeting in my nightmare’s abyss

I want to carry you through the night… 
I’m swimming in the ocean of my tears… 
My sodden wings lost its ability of flight…
You've been swimming in your distress for years… 

Shut up! Don’t say it...
Don’t even think of it (don’t even ponder it)
Hey! Don’t say it’s all over…though we’re breaking bit by bit 
‘Cause there’s more treasure to discover 

I want to remind you to fight the good fight…
My misery pools are brewing inside of my head…
I’m backing away from the light & exploring the night… 
You’re giving in to sleep and I’m wide awake on my bed 

Shut up! Don’t say it...
Don’t even think of it (don’t even ponder it)
Hey! Don’t say it’s all over…though we’re breaking bit by bit 
‘Cause there’s more treasure to discover 

Please don’t tell me…oh, don’t tell me…darling!
You’re giving up today… (I beg you to stay, despite your inner pain) 
I’m scared I might erupt – it could be quite startling!
Someday, things will change for the better… (Don’t turn the wrong lane)
I’m waiting for that day to arrive – perhaps it will wash away our dismay…

I promise you a tranquil reality 
I want to stray with you tonight 
I still have hope that He’ll set us free
I was wondering if you could stay the night
Maybe the Lord could grant us 
Pure, incredible delight 

Shut up! Don’t say it...
Don’t even think of it (don’t even ponder it)
Hey! Don’t say it’s all over…though we've plunged into our own pit 
‘Cause there’s more treasure to gather…


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'Little bird, what troubles thee'

Little bird, what ails thee
      is it the bread in your belly
little bird, what troubles thee
      is it the bread of misery

is it the bitterness in your heart, 
     or the offense you can't forgive
is it the anguish that sets you apart, 
     or the hurt that holds you captive 
 
is it the cancer of bitter love, 
     or the loss of deserved affection 
is it the cruel withdrawal of 
     his tenderness and compassion 

life is much too brief
      and youthful love's even briefer still,
your forestalled relief 
      keeps you from seeing His eternal will

what befalls you 
      is neither unshared nor a mystery
God sheds tears for you
      in the midst of your painful agony

little bird, what ails thee
      is it the bread in your belly
little bird, what troubles thee
      is it the bane of misery


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The Undisputed

The Undisputed



 I usually prevail when mostly other have doubts,

 as my hostel rival friends taunt, boo and shout,

 when they know my mind is focus on that title bout.

 I took the stubborn champ to the limit with a reserve

 of deadly impact of fresh crushing blows therefore

 had the ruthless undefeated champ dazed, shocked,

 and lay resting looking at my dancing toes as

 I exit to go ending the big show.


 2/15/11 by Keith K. Relf


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Haikus About God: IV

God made all people
But some better than others?
Stop being silly.


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Chasing A Dream

To what end can I chase a dream
You know it would seem 
To be insane…………
Never knowing what's real but still feeling the pain

I can reach for the flowers in bloom 
But they're all consumed
The fires' to deep - I just wish I could sleep

I look to the moon for answers but she just smiles
I don't have a clue - I've got too many miles

To what end can I chase a dream 
You know it would seem 
To be insane…………
Never knowing what's real but still feeling the pain

I cry out in the night - but the echo hurts me
It breaks me down into broken dreams
I run for the door but its no longer open - to me
I cover my eyes...... but still I can see

To what end can I chase a dream 
You know it would seem 
To be insane…………
Never knowing what's real but still feeling the pain

©2013C.L.Baker


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Haikus About God: VI

The body: sacred
We’re all made in God’s image
Hence... circumcision?


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TO PAPA -Through the eyes of his little girl

Through the eyes of this little girl, to her Papa, no one could compare
Always dashing in grey and navy suits with a white shrt and burgundy tie
How she'd stare in awe, wide-eyed; her little face turn upward in gaze
With a deep, stern voice he corrected, yet, with soft eyes, and warm hugs he consoled
The world demands so much from a man and sometimes he was not perfect
His bane was his good looks and a kind and honest heart
During his younger years he struggled, yet his love for his family stayed true
He was proud man in many ways and kept his promise to God and his wife
Througout the years of struggle, he never left his queen in thirty-five years

"Papa", one of God's creations by special design-fire and ice-compassionate and kind, 
Those who dared to cross him learned a lesson everytime
Through extraordinary battles, some won and others lost 
Each challenge imposed, he rose and met-a remarkable feat!

Then came one day, with his final battle raging, in some world beyond our eyes
His body racked and worn with pain, Papa was sent home to say good bye
My "Papa" stood tall one last time- and chose life with his Creator!


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The Revenant

Awake the child that ached for years
The frightened man, ashamed of fear
I hold too tightly to this place
The reverence that lead to waste

Silent virtue comes undone
The burning pain, and dying sun
I can’t recall what I did want
And all that’s left is dead and gone

Innocence was spent on pain
My mind was twisted; left insane
The heart that tried to rise above
Was left alone because it never could

Depth and silence masquerade
The embodiment of all I say
My shadow crawling closer now
As I begin to question how

The misery that took my breath
Refracts itself until my death
This mirror world that will not break
Reflects to me all of my mistakes

Awake the ice that I’ve become
This destiny has overrun
The fallen centuries that I’ve felt
And all the heartache I have dealt

The vision of a child is gone
The fearful man has come upon
The image of a dying world
What’s left behind – no longer held


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I need a friend

I need a friend right now
I need guidance
I need someone to show me how
How to just be.

I thought I was happy
I thought I liked me
I guess I am not the person
I thought I could be. 

I need a friend right now
someone to share my thoughts
someone to be my sounding board
someone who understands me
someone who realizes
I should not be ignored.

I know the truth that lies beneath the beauty and the smiles
I know the truth

But you see,
it is much easier to live a life of denial
You smile and grin,
laugh and pretend.

Oh, but still remains the dark behind the light
I know the truth.

One day the closet door will open
One day the make up will fade
and the world will know 
what I have known all along

You can't hide your pain
you can't store your fears
you can't bury your sorrows
you can't change what's done
you can't pretend your okay anymore
you can't be that person everyone wants you to be

The mask has been ripped from your face
and the world now knows
what I have known all along
you don't know how to live this life alone.
you are broken and scared
and fear that there
is no way for repair

The damage has been done
your life incomplete
you have been stripped
of all your strength and beat
you are left broken and scared
and no one is there.

You are alone 
and I have known this all along
I know the truth
I know I can't be alone

I need a friend right now.


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Nature's Sigh

The Black butterfly waves away her adorations
All she seeks is seclusion, subsuming slave to mortification
The Dear Air is all she can breath, captive of imaginary dreams
The Beacon resonates, but the hope isolates
The Wasteland's silky fingers caressing the virgin's face

So she is now, the covet of the damned
Programmed to every victim's pain
Carrying the weight of every sorrow
Drowning in wrongs she does not know
But paradise is at loss; she must go

Nature sighs after the bite
All my hopes fading
Don't look at me with those sorrowful eyes
How do you know exactly what I'm feeling?
I'm just the ghost flower passing by
And you can hear nature's sigh


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Miss You

If there was an angel
That could make you live again
If there was an angel 
That could make you whole again
If there was an angel
That could grant me my one wish
I’d wish for your life
I’d wish for your love

If there was a prayer
I could whisper to the wind
If there was a prayer
That God could send
If there was a prayer
I’d repeat it time and time again
I’d pray for my wife 
I’d pray for her life

If there was one thing
I could say again
If there was one thing
I could live again
If there was one thing
I could do again
I’d love you so hard
I’d tell you everyday

That I miss you


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Skin Deep

If I could dream
for anything
I would dream of Peace, Love
and Unity
for all Bloods & Crips
all gangs, are in need of a change
for you represent such ignorance
and scrutiny 
Difference in colors worn
Sides in which you were born
are truly all that divides
when the two opposing sides
collide
and it makes no sense
for we all Bleed
Blue turned Red
Blood Inside
And a future generation
is hard to provide
when death, is like your shadow
creepin' up by your side
and drive-by shootings happen
each late night, outside
where running seems the only option
to know
for no places to hide
no defense for your demise
for a difference in colors worn
and what side in which you were born
is truly all that divides
when these two sides collide
and it makes no sense to me
for we all Bleed
Blue turned Red
Blood Inside


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Deadman Wonderland

Now that you're becoming Undone It's time to have some fun In Deadman Wonderland Khoon Tu Kao Khoon Tu Kao Khoon Tu Kao The setting Red Sun of Kali Shows it's time for your life to Pay We are the Kind to be feared -your friends We look like anyone you see Thuggee--Death's Devotees Face our treachery Bhowanee we must please She needs more--we have found our mark, our mark Won't you be the one to save humanity? Can't you see this is Deadman Wonderland Khoon Tu Kao Khoon Tu Kao Khoon Tu Kao Sacrifice! For The Black-Skinned Queen Sacrifice! For Our Mother Kali Sacrifice! It's Not Enough Sacrifice! No Mercy! This is Deadman Wonderland Deadman Wonderland This is Deadman Wonderland Deadman Wonderland


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Isolation

How can I tell you?
I can't stay with you.

Neither I can give up on you.
Fear of losing you is losing me.
It feels like slow death every night.

But we are just stuck in our spaces!
Unable to connect from two feet distance.


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The Day Before You Came

Before you I knew only heartache
My life empty, and leading nowhere
Walking the path they call loneliness,
Until the day you told me you cared

But I was betrothed to another
And no matter how hard we tried
The bond between us grew stronger
The loved we shared couldn’t be denied

The day before you came
I knew heartache, tears and pain
Then your love shone on me, warm and bright
Although our love was wrong
It helped me to grow strong
To break through the darkness, into the light

Others told us we wouldn’t last
Years passed, and we proved them wrong
Nothing could pull us asunder
The love we had, was much too strong

The day before you came
I knew heartache, tears and pain
Then your love shone on me, warm and bright
Although our love was wrong,
It helped me to grow strong
To break through the darkness, into the light

Now you shine in heaven
My life’s filled with pain
The same as it was,
The day before you came

Now my life is empty without you
I’m learning to live through the pain
And I know that when my life is over
We’ll walk beside each other again

The day before you came
I knew heartache, tears and pain
Then your love shone on me, warm and bright
Although now you’re gone,
Your love light guides me on
To break through darkness, into the light.


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Piece of my Past

walking along the beach today,
i saw you,
you looked at me, then slowly 
walked away,
you had told me that you were 
different from the last,
but you turned out to be 
just a piece of my past,
you really know how to make 
me hurt,
was it love? 'cause im no expert,
i thought it was, at the time,
but now lookin back,
you were never mine.


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Bob, the Forgotten Valentine and Greedy Double Dater

My friends, this saga slowly unfurls
 a love story that went quickly awry,
 seems greedy Bob dated a pair of girls
 when with one, to the other he’d lie.
 
The homlier girl’s name was Edith
 who, nonetheless Bob was fond of,
 but, greedy Bob wanted to live out the “myth”
 and with sisters, he was sure to find love !
 
He began slyly asking about sister Kate
 for her beauty was equalled by few,
 she was young, and he believed her well worth the wait
 she had enough sex appeal for two !
 
Bob’s antics had him severely troubled
 because, he covered his tracks day and night,
 his love-making prowess had quickly doubled
 so his lovelife was going just right !
 
Well, finally Bob’s saga ended in terror
 because the girls both found out what he’d done,
 Bob had mixed their names up, in a passionate error
 and what transpired next, was not very fun !
 
One of the sisters had taken Bob’s life
 because he’d proven he couldn’t be “true”,
 and the lesson he learned, at the end of that knife
 taught, “you can’t have your Kate…..and Edith, too !


Details | Ballad | |

Cassandra

Revelation Said In Stone Appeared an Eon ago of Shame and Sin, Something we all know But not it's rise, For is has already became Virtue Flaming Skies from an Angel So Bright The World's Cure for Soul-Blight A Hell on Earth A Savior's Worth So many Dreams are cast then Forgotten So many lives are brought up then just Thrown back down Maybe she is The Cure Maybe she is The Plan All Fear the Flame Failed Creation of Samael She Comes from the Deep She Comes from The Heavens' Vault To End the dawn of the Demon Purge this land of all Vice Kali Yuga will be nevermore The one of Sublime Cassandra, Bringer of Muspelheim Release me and Burn away this land Hold me by The Hand Tell me the past is just pretend Give me The Cure If this is your destiny Then May it be mine I would die in time I'm Just another Obstacle In the way of your divine Wings Forget me Cassandra For Doom was already meant for me All Fear the Flame Failed Creation of Samael She Comes from the Deep She Comes from The Heavens' Vault To End the dawn of the Demon Purge this land of all Vice Kali Yuga will be nevermore The one of Sublime Cassandra, Bringer of Muspelheim Valkyrie of Heart Angel of Grace I surrender to You Savior by Destiny Dispel all Tragedy Especially me All Fear the Flame Failed Creation of Samael She Comes from the Deep She Comes from The Heavens' Vault To End the dawn of the Demon Purge this land of all Vice Kali Yuga will be nevermore The one of Sublime Cassandra, Bringer of Muspelheim


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To See Her Smile Again

It tears my heart to see my child
So lost, alone and sad
Shattered by her loss
And all the hopes and dreams they had
Knowing she pretends she’s strong
But deep inside she fears
Knowing when she’s all alone
She cries her silent tears
When I hear her laugh
I know it just a fake disguise
When I see her smile
I still see sadness in her eyes
She has no arms to hold her now 
No words of love to hear
No comfort from the love she lost
The man she held so dear
He made her life worth living
Two halves that made a whole
The only man she’ll ever love  
With all her heart and soul
There’s nothing that I wouldn't do  
To take away her pain
To see the girl she used to be
To see her smile again
If I could give him back to her
I’d take his place tomorrow
To see the light shine in her eyes
Instead of pain and sorrow
I know he watches over her
In hope one day he’ll see
The hurt, the pain, the tears she cries
Are just a memory...

For Bree 
xxxx


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I Can't Say It Without You

I was your never ending composer
We spent many a nights, and many an hour together
But now you’re lost inside
And I can’t find my way, again.

( chorus )
Cause I can’t say it without you		
It hurts to be without the feeling		
Never knowing when it will return		
But I know that you would stay with me	
If you came back, again some day		
But till then I’ll wait till you appear.	

I really miss the way you make me feel
People said we were meant to be together
Why’d you leave me so unexpectedly
I hope you come back soon.

( Chorus )

It’s been two months since I’ve written you
All I’ve got to show is crumpled bits of paper
The passion and creativity is now gone
So come back home so I can work it out.	


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The Friendly Neighbor

"Pleased to meet you",a friendly line
I guess you'll be my neighbor for a "little" while
Would you like to come in and have a tasty cup of tea
There is something I should show you 
Something you would not believe
Now strung on a rafter through my affinity
You were a fly caught in a web of 
maletecence when you fell asleep
Revolting from the stench of my malignity
Your barbed wire ripened flesh is only the beginning
Through my ablation of your anatomy
The bewildered expression on your face
shows the pain I thrive to see
Hung upside down,you are gutted pigotry
No one will ever know that it was ever me
Blood bubbles through your ears and gushes out your mouth
Your gargled scream no one will hear
To my binge I am devout
Terror stricken eyes and horror haunted soul
Your blood has bleached the floor since I plotted your demise
Through your fog glazed eyes I see your life deprived
Reflections of my beligerent smile confirms your last good-bye
Your necrology sealed through a macabrish mind
Pleased to meet you,it sure was fine!!!


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The Apple PASTURE

DONE



                             The Apple PASTURE

Oh how I long
To drift into the apple pasture.
Were once was and all well meet.
A pure and dear site.
Where silver reflection cover the still waters that holds the golden
grains of martilty and the grazing souls lie young amounce no stars.
Oh how I long
To drift into the apple pasture
Were wins smells of melon and the trees whisper spring corals in the mellow dark and best of light and time creeps into no tomorrow.



                                               Jay


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The Unhappy Moth

She chose a red scarf. The most red 
of them all.
Of a dark red, a sweet and thick red color,
just as wine.

She carved from the red scarf
from the middle
to the size of a Martini glass.

Then she carved one more glass,
and she kept carving 
till she fell asleep.

Yesterday
she saw her Beloved Moth 
flirting with a Younger Moth, 
carving together from a sweater
while she was getting busy,
carving in the shelves.

The Unhappy Moth drank lots of wine
woolen wine, 
last night.
She drank lots, too much
for a Moth.
The Unhappy Moth got drunk
and fell asleep
on the red scarf,
unhidden
with a heart filled with peace.

She was not afraid no more. 
Now she could be seen easily,
laying on the scarf
and easily crushed.

The Unhappy Moth was not 
afraid of death no more,
at least, now she knew 
how wonderful the red scarfs are
and that they taste
like red wine.


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Scarlet Moons and Indian Suns

Written August 29, 2013


She could have had my son
As we'd spell our names as one
On scattered ocean shores
Beneath that Indian sun

I loved my ma
And I loved her well
I loved my pa
And that musty smell

I hope to see them some day soon
I hope to see them smiling too
This Earth they left a bit too soon
Much thanks unto the scarlet moon

Some day well all be joined as one
Under scarlet moons and Indian suns

I love my family
How I miss this feeling
Of constant embrace
Awaiting at my feet

So come and pray for rain
To wash away our pain
Before the winter stains
What autumn left to drain

I hope to see them some day soon
I hope to see them smiling too
This Earth they left a bit too soon
Much thanks unto the scarlet moon

Some day well all be joined as one
Under scarlet moons and Indian suns


Details | I do not know? | |

I am...

I am a poet writing of my pain
I am a person living a life of shame
I am your daughter, hiding my depression
I am your sister, striving to make a great impression
I am your friend acting like I'm fine
I am a dreamer, wishing this life, wasn't mine
I am a girl who struggles with suicide
I am a teenager, pushing her tears aside







Side note: (Writing for other ladies out there, not so much myself, so don't worry about me)


Details | Lyric | |

''Treasure You''

Our connecting eyes,entwined soul.
This love is sacred.
My one true friend.
The very best dog until the end.
''Beejay''-to remember hours of play.
Frolic in tall grass,be still a long day.
Cast a shadow from the warmth of the sun.
To smell a summer breeze,in the heavens you shall run.


for the Animals On Your Mind Contest...
sponsored by..Ryan Jackson
written by...KaceyGreenlee
kaceymike29


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Goodbye My Brother

I've seen more than my share of death 
I’ve cheated death also
I thought I'd seen it all 
But I was wrong 

I learned from one of the best 
To control and hide my emotions 
That's one of the things I'm good at
But not tonight 

The first person I laid eyes on that night
When I went though those doors was Josh 
It broke my heart even more 
I knew right then it wasn't a dream 
Oh how I wish it was 

I latched hold of him
Not wanting to let him go 
Afraid I'd lose him too 
Even though we're not blood 
Your still my little brother 

How do I say goodbye
I can't I won't 
So I'm saying see you later for now
I will see you again one day

Even if I don't make it into the gates of Heaven 
I will see you when I stand in judgment 
You'll always hold a special place in my heart 
Love you always




Dedicated to the sudden loss of a close Family friend 
Jeremy Maggard  11/19/82 ~ 11/06/09


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Stairway to Hell

So much rage
caught up in depression
now i have no one to turn too
i sit alone by my bed looking at the demon 
He stands next to the closet

I wake up every night at 2 am
just before dead time
He makes sounds
i ignore them

He opens the closet door
And slams it shut
scarring me 

One night he visits me in a dream
A dream where my family dies because i killed them
I wake up screaming
I would never hurt my family 

Sometimes its hard to ignore the other world
They make you crazy and depressed 
now you have to pay for the music that drug that demon to your home
All the metal music that killed you
The music that they said would save you

Ask your self are you alive now? 
now that the demon got you?

I think of how it could be different 
how if i listened to country my family would still be here
Demons are everywhere know that?
One is with you right now, watching you type your poems
Watching you read mine

What can they do you ask?
They can do much much more than what you expect
They crush your insides
Make your heart cold
They make you hurt

These demons are not to play with
A found out the hard way
now the pain wont stop
I cant make it go away

You will soon see what i have seen
Cling to god 
Pray everynight before you close your eyes
Pray out loud every morning
Be thankful you havent seen your demon yet

All of us have one
they are all over the world
They will drag you to hell with them!


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Stalks Her Prey

The lioness stalks her prey
gazing presumptuously.
She is searching to unveil
an unfound weakness, but this
prey is very formidable and
a weakness he shows not.
The prey is aware of this stalk.
He takes care with each and
every move, but this lioness
is oh so patient. Decisively the
arduous hunt ends, a vulnerability,
the prey has weaken and
lost direction...no where to go.
The lioness looks and
turns away for the capture
she wants not.

Edward J Ebbs 


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Journey

After being shattered,
 torn apart inside,
 a hole was carved out of me
 and something in me died.
 
Our dreams, desires and hopes,
 so young and plentiful,
 all too quickly melted away,
 both of us feeling dismal. 

The time that then came after;
 so dark, unhopeful and bleak.
 The Heart could see no light,
 the body soon became weak.
 
A living, moving corpse,
 an empty, lonely shell.
 The Soul would drift, unheard from,
 locked in its gloomy shell.
 
But life is so persistent,
 and always will pull through.
 Subtle, gentle rays of light
 will once again shine true.
 
The pieces of Self are gone,
 and an emptiness remains,
 Yet the dark thoughts drip away,
 the Soul no longer in chains.
 
So Self must be reborn,
 clay in a potter's hands.
 Piece by piece, the hole is filled,
 done so with multiple strands.
 
Recreated little wonder,
 dance with Joy once more.
 Let your dreams regain their wings,
 and see what He has in store.


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Cancer

I can't believe I haven't posted this one. I wrote it last year, can't remember the exact date. Anyhow it's a song. ---------------- You know this world is cancer Without these prayers being answered It's been too long a ponder We wonder We wander Far from here Lost in fear Can you see them fall? You lose one you lose them all She's seen the cruel hearts of stone She's seen the cancer we've become So lost in worry we just fall down Underground we burn Till the last one's sure Can you see me fall? You lose one you lose them all Cut me out of this body! Cut me out of everybody! Grind me into little pieces! Tell them that I'm the reason- You know this world is cancer Without these prayers being answered It's been too long a ponder We wonder We wander Far from here Lost in fear Can you see me fall? You lose one you lose them all You lose one you lose. . . Them all


Details | Couplet | |

Spritual Gangster

You don’t want to miss this
But don’t be confused this aint Christmas
You’ve gotta get real my brotha and kiss this
I’m a spiritual criminal with lipstick

If you’re lucky you just might make my hit list
Coz I’m a murderer killing *****es ego’s with fake riffs
If you’re a moral criminal and do the minimal you can’t hit this
We must stand together my brother to beat this

Pleasure - pain, generosity - blame, loss - gain infamy and greed
It’s not hard don’t get angry and there’s no need to bleed
It’s just like John Lennon said when he said love is all you need
Stand with me my friend and let go of fear if you want to be freed 

I’ll mind punch you in the heart and give you a soul diss
Aint no big brotha gonna hold me and frisk this
You’re not lost or all alone coz my arrows fire straight and can’t miss
Things aint changed and love can still fix this

Pleasure pain, Generosity blame, loss gain infamy and greed
It’s not hard don’t get angry and there’s no need to bleed
It’s just like John Lennon said when he said love is all you need
Stand with me my friend and let go of fear if you want to be freed 
Love -love- love is all you need


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He Had a Life

A tear fell from her eye
a smile on her face
as she wrapped her baby up
holding him in place

"He's smart" they said
when they looked at his test
they said he'd go places
in his class he was best

tears fell from his eyes
though he tried to keep them in
his mother just lost a battle
they both had hoped she win

so young and on his own
he tried to make it through
a dark road lay before him
as he lost the life he knew

to poor to pay the bills
though he worked a job or two
they kicked him to the streets
there was nothing he could do

though much older now than then 
he still lives on the streets
he cannot afford a place 
he cannot afford to eat

yet you say he's a drunk
that's he's only got himself to blame
kid's see him on the street
and think oh that guy is lame

but this man has a story
that to believe you'd have to see
this man a life once
as well as a family


Details | Ballad | |

Starcrossed Tragedy

A Silent Night's Hunt for a Tigress so blunt, Left the Fiend dancing with my Thisbe's Cloack But where was She? Her Drenching blood is all I can see The Night of Sanguine, The Night of Rapture, Tonight was meant to be All Behold This Tragedy ran by Dark Energy, My Lost Lover's Plea A seed of what is to come, In this starcrossed Tragedy, For I can not live without you, My Pyramus, All I need, My reason to Breathe One sight of me bleeding away from reality, started this tragedy and with me It shall Grow The Pain wasn't enough for me, To Live on with me Love without consequence, The Damned Saint, The Angelic Demon The Darkness of the Sea, Carries away with me, In this Starcrossed Tragedy A Star traveling across the moonless Night Sky, In the mid-summer of Verona, Fell from her glorious light, I have lost my guide, My need for Life Every balcony I'll climb for you, Just to Caress you once more But now it is too Late, My Juilet Let the Poison Fill me My Body dyed In silence, Dipped in Paralysis, Forging the Will of God, Feigning the Clutches of Death, My Romeo I prithee to you, See past The Illusion, Caught in the Webs of Love's delusion A Dagger reached my heart once To see you martyr for our love A Dagger reached my heart twice The Pain wasn't enough for me, To Live on with me Love without consequence, The Damned Saint, The Angelic Demon The Darkness of the Sea, Carries away with me, In this Starcrossed Tragedy Once the Morning Retired from her weeping The sun shined into her eyes, then his Lifeless, their dream will live on Every Petal will be Avenged The Pain wasn't enough for me, To Live on with me Love without consequence, The Damned Saint, The Angelic Demon The Darkness of the Sea, Carries away with me, In this Starcrossed Tragedy


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One More Day

Daylight slips away
Another lonely night descends
The darkness that surrounds me
My one and only friend
At times I wonder who I am
Why I'm so alone
A world without the man I love
A world to me unknown
I thought I could survive the pain
I thought I could be strong
My fragile heart so broken
My fragile strength all gone
All my hopes are lost
My dreams are washed into the sea
There is no point to life 
Without the world of you and me
I put my hands together
Then on my knees I pray
"Please God give him back to me
Just for one more day
I need to hold him once again
Before I let him go
To say I love him one more time
I need for him to know"
I’d rather go through any pain  
Than what death puts you through
I’d rather sleep forever more 
Than wake up missing you..


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fracking oil

should I believe you man in the suit?
oh your hair looks mighty fine 
combed back, your polished slacks 
a slight tan 
you are irresistible in your presence 
demanding attention. 
you have a face that looks right 
nothing you say would be out of sight 
nothing you do would steer me wrong 
oh man in the suit, 
you are my god. 
you have the power to make us thrive 
dig a hole 
to the other side 
not to china, but to the fuel
oh man in the suit 
I cannot trust you 
you dug too deep 
into a pocket of the earth 
looking for more resource 
to fill your own pockets 
but I don't want pockets 
man in the suit 
all I want 
is for you to tell the truth
your polished smile did us wrong 
lies lay upon your clever tongue  
and you continue to rule the earth 
digging your holes 
you find more girth 
to your hungry pockets 
which you try so hard to fill
when will you learn 
that filling pockets kills...


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The Hunger Drug

I can't remember
when I ate 
my last meal
How many weeks ago was it?

I cannot recall

or even what it was 
that I had to eat
Turkey I think
on Thanksgiving

Yes, it was Turkey

A turkey 
that some 
generous person
donated 
to the food pantry
that they gave to me

Did 
that generous person know?
Do they know?
That it would be
my only meal

for days and weeks
on end

probably not

and so I wanted 
to write these words
to tell them
“Thank You”

that they made 
a difference 
in my life

that I 
and my children
did not 
have to go to bed
 hungry

three weeks ago
on Thanksgiving
and it was wonderful

I am trying to remember
what that 
felt like


© Christine A Kysely All Rights Reserved
(December 8th, 2011 Wausau, Wisconsin USA)


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I'm Nothing Without You

You were the reason for my smile
But it's been vacant for a while
You are the reason why I’m here
I’m nothing without you

You are the reason for my song
The tears I’m crying all night long
Where did you and I go wrong
I’m nothing without you

No one here to see my cry
When you tell me one more lie
No one here to watch me die
I’m nothing without you

Now I’m lonely, sad and free
Fading in your memory
Your arms are where I need to be
I’m nothing without you

No more sunshine; only rain
No more laughter; only pain
Forever lonely I’ll remain
I’m nothing without you

I know my broken heart won't mend
I know I’ve lost my love, my friend
I know my life has reached its end
I’m nothing without you


By Raina Hutchins




Details | Shape | |

Uncle Sam's Hokey Pokey -- shaped as his top hat

                                  


Uncle Sam's Hokey Pokey
                                 _______________________                                                
                                     l      l      l       l        l 
                                     ya' put your red flag in
                                                  ya'
                                      put your red flag out
                                                  ya'
                                       put your red flag in
                                               and ya'
                                       shake it all around.
                                       *           *          *
                                  ya' stop this hocus pocus
                              and we'll turn this thing around
                                end war's what it's all about!


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My first car-2

My first car

A great uncle of mine, those days, bought an used car,
Which  turned  out to be such a terrible sore,
Frantic, he pushed it up a hill, in front of all
And, sent  it down  to the river below in a free fall.
Not so  bad was the used one I first bought
Still it stretched  my nerves and finances so taut
Workshops at hand saved it from a similar fate
Till I sold it for a song without a second thought.



 4th Mar 12
S.Jagathsimhan Nair
For: Carol Brown’s  "My first car"contest


Details | Free verse | |

The Fear

The Aphotic rays reach higher
And shame, shade reigns over all
Lacuna, Apathy is all I feel as I fall into the ashed grave
I'm living, the slowest way to die
Elysia, rapture where are you now

What will I do when the flame is extinguished 
What will I do when I drown in ash
What will I do when they sing my name in funeral dirges 
How can this be all, one short organic vitality
Scares to die, but afraid of a new day

Scared to die, but so afraid of a new day
Will I Ressructe to Paradise, burn in Hell, or lay in Sheol
Is this a there is, one feather, to the dirge
My life so long - my suffering grows
Scared to die, but so afraid of a new day

In all of the ashes, a flame begins
Once again, here I am
Living, the slowest way to die


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Untitled #188 / STARDUST

“And STARDUST we will be again”


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Cryptic Love Notes

The shadows whispering
In the silence I now sing
Hold me to their flames
The only comfort in this lasting pain

The words that can’t convey
The screaming in this place
Are love notes for the void
The only home left as I’m destroyed

Darkness in the light
Glowing in the night
Eyes that hold me still
The gazing truth my heart just can not kill

Nothing else to say
It still won’t go away
A stranger in my dreams
I wake to find that I no longer breathe

A horror that remains
It just won’t be erased
The loss of all that’s true
Breaks me down, but I’m still lost in you

Far too much to share
My reflection isn’t there
Sanity is gone
Another life where I just don’t belong


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Stuck

I'm like a lion
Tryin to be  trained
to behave in a cage, but
I wasnt born to be tame
Full of stress and rage
 Im compressed and chained
Infected with depression
beCause I cant catch a break
Lifes taste is so tart
In pain from my scars
Stained by lame luck
Stuck behind apace car
I strive to write
But all I can type is the space bar
I'm Pervaded with doubt
About to freakout
Quick Someone bail me out
I would sniff my way out
but I got this cyst on my snout
From 6 years of this drought
Im sittin with this could of pout
Stickin to me like jam from a can
like melted candy in your hand
I'M a pantree full of Spam
 A Letter without the stamp
A debtor without a plan
Like chicken on a pan without any Pam,
Damn I'm starting to get pissed
 I got to devise a plan, before I break my fist,
Punching this brick wall, I got the spit but no ball
got the wits with no squall, like a toliet with no stall
 Slippin in a pit fall, Shiz just snow balls
I want to brawl, missed last call
My Stick shift just stalled,
This lawl has no intention at stopin at all
And I'm kicking myself in the balls
like old men walking up and down the halls
so i flop, just like a dust mop
Now i got knots in my food box
The size of king kongs rocks and
Every door has been locked
I try to soar but its all for not


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Only The Lonely


Painted in twilight grey, the stars dangle low
over a far valley where willows bend
in a lone shade, creating lines of a face
disappearing from hazy 

Upon stars, a wish holds this sigh
with yearning that you'll be here
to raise my eyes sunny as springtime
through your warmest afterglow.

Now I long for those days shimmering, 
when the pond was our ripple of love
and how the waves would tremble
while I held the arms that waxed the night.

You never said your heart grew frail
as we ruffled through leaves of byways
mimicking voices on the radio
till lonely tunes stab me, dying along with you.



Faces Of Loneliness Contest
To Karen, my girlfriend of 3 years;
I would have married you.


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Actor and Script

Out of life’s generosity giving opportunities 
And it depends on u
To perfectly grab or stupidly use them
This is the summary of “The Glimpse”script

It was a role..one of a kind 
Of a charming man with a new career
Charming..not only because of the looks
But of the tripple S as I call it,
Style, Spirit and Soul

He joined a new career that was of a dual play
By time he perfectly mingled with his job and new colleagues 
I believe all of his life in brief

Days and days passed by 
The movie is still in act
There was a motive on his mind
Reminding him of the challenge he has to face
And yet he will win
The motive pushing him for success he is yet to earn
And this motive was the script guiding him all through the lines
The script that was awesomely directed for him

Short time passed by all in a glimpse
And it turned out that the actor rocks in his double role
The script simply became what he adores now the most 
Even though he modified some lines in it
Performing others in an unexpected manner
That made all the cast impressed
By a talent that this man has buried inside

All in a glimpse
The month last movie was on pause
And the double role actor exposed it all
That he is tired of the dual role
So he decided to keep one and let go of the other
Which I thought in his life was of pleasure
And not a reason to bother

By time I realized that …
I was the script
The scenario that gave him the fame, the motive, the aim, 
and made his life sound perfectly operative
And the lines he modified in me are 
my thoughts which started to align for his own relief
My smile.. which was redrawn again for real
After it ws buried alive long time ago in me
My soul which came back to life
When it was wrapped in between his arms
My heart which started to beat on the melody of his sound..

The impressed cast was everyone around us
All were surprised of how a lucky charm
He became to me… so shortly!

The only true constant was the dual actor role 
Of being a new employee at work and…
Acting lover in my life
And unfortunately the second role is 
The one he decided to let go of 
Yet I am in doubt with my inner sound
Was it true or..
Just a hand written sentences on paper
whichwe were supposed to live and go through
And at the end.. they have no base of reality in life?

I wonder about that every nightAnd surprisingly, the cast and the script
Are wishing to find the answer in Part II of the Glimpse! If it shall exist


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Lost love but I want u back

Lost love, I lost love you lost love and were both hurting. Let's just be like forget it and give up. But no I will life u and I the best I can. I lost u but I love you more then anything in this world. I'm not over you. You changed my life and I gave up on us i love you still I hope u see this and see how much u many to me. I love you and our lost love.


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White As Sand


I reach for you when my soul  is dreary
when the choice between "one more time”
 and " not ever" leaves me 
screaming at  the edge of surrender,
white as pale sand , not knowing
what is "right" and what "could have become". 

You reach for me when the whitened zephyr
is one last breath – as the tenor 
of your voice pulls me from this 
empty existence. This haunting ghost
of  life’s chapters hisses , devoid of light
slain by a frosty cry dressed as goodbye.

But, should I stand within the realm  
of mercy that comes from letting go 
or the promise of your grains re-echoing
while brushed in your embrace ...
I choose the quite of my own power.



Sound Of Color Contest
11-26-13


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Grandma

Give me a hug
squeeze me tight
I want to hear your breath
next to mine
Tell me a story
so i can laugh,
tickle me till my voice
runs dry

Say goodbye
before you leave
I will miss you so, if you don't
Oh can't you see
I'm afraid you will just
go away without
a hello or a goodbye

I am showing you my love
can't you see
why are you 
turning yours away from me

I will tickle you 
and tell you stories
again and again
If you will say goodbye
Just one more time
to, me


Nov. 5, 2009


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Lament For a Lost Friend

O, dreamed of home—a bench to rest my feet,
a warm and feathered coat to keep out cold
O, dreamed of feast--spread with too much to eat.
Emanuel, why did I forget my way?

Oh, imaginary friend who talked to me
please, forgive me for ever doubting you.
I never dreamed I’d end up lost and all alone,
wondering whether there’d be someone for me to love.

Oh my friend
speak to me.
Save me from 
doubts and  fears.
Liven up
the endless quiet hours.
Walk along 
my lonely trail.
Help me 
on this endless search.

Is it something that I did
to bring the dark and cold onto me? 

Where did we go wrong?

Where did I go wrong?

Why did I forget my way?
Do you even hear my call?
Do you even hear my voice?
I can no longer hide behind my tears.

Emanuel, why did I ever lose my home?
Will I always wonder whether if there’ll be someone for me to love?
Your comfort always felt so warm and good to me
Where did I go wrong to be so lost and alone?


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Where Wild Violets Grow

Where Wild Violets Grow

Scribbling these verses,
caressing your bare back,
simple rhymes,
flowing from my fingertips.


Scribbling verses,
sprinkling odes to fragrant promises,
your smile lightens the burdens,
off my heavy heart.


Scribbling verses,
soaked in countless kisses,
the moonlight waltzing on your skin.


Scribbling verses,
feeling you,
your love never ceases to flow,


through the streams of my mind,
to a place of our own,
where wild violets grow



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A Memory to Treasure

Light emerged from a place not so far
A scene displayed beneath its roof’s tar…



“The sun entered through the window sill
Brightening the room as it filled in the still
A granddaughter sat on her grandfather’s bed
As he lay down on his back
His lips moved in unison
As his tongue played a tune…
Of his voice that was music to her ears…”



The clock ticked gently
Yet, time passed quickly…



“His granddaughter’s eyes gazed at him intently
As she listened to the one story she asked of him to say…
A story, young kids adore listening to…
Where Little Red Riding Hood hopped into the woods…
She always asked that story to be told…
No matter what was on hold…”



His granddaughter had her golden hair tied back,
As she sat quietly beside her grandfather’s hand 
His warm tune engulfed her with safety,
As she sat there: imagination on display…

One day, that special began to slip away
As his tune was never heard again…
And all that’s left in the granddaughter’s mind...
Is a memory to hold onto...
 A memory to treasure…
A memory of a young child with golden hair
Looking at her grandfather so intently 
Listening to Little Ridding Hood being played
By her grandfather’s warming tunes
While he was lying down: resting on his bed…


May you rest in peace LOVED ONE
I Love You Grandpa…


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One divided

Complete silence. A glance says it all. No words needed.
Its written all over your face.
The door is locked. The key is thrown away. 
A heart torn from its cavity. Devoured.
A cyclone of thoughts, Yet blank and empty.
You plead your case as if innocent. Keep telling yourself that.
A mask covers the pain.
Once a river, has now become a desert.
Once whole, Now divided by a fault.
On opposite sides of the canyon.
A distant war placed upon the home front.
A battle raging within. No surrender. Only sacrifice.
Once happy and full of life. Now sad and desolate. Deserted.
Left abandoned to be demolished with the vandalism of time.
The sands of the hour glass are running out, and so are we.


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Mask

I got too much emotion, too much pain.
I try to stay strong to keep myself sane.
I put on a mask with a fake smile and lie,
I'm wearing a "stay strong" disguise.
Pent up aggression, pent up sorrow,
How do i make it and see tomorrow?
I have so many secrets and burdens,
they're under the surface and hidden.
I dont know what to do anymore,
I dont know what to believe.
i cant live this battle this war,
this self hatred.... these lies I've made for me.
Pent up aggression, pent up sorrow,
How do i make it and see tomorrow?
I have so many secrets and burdens,
they're under the surface and hidden.
My whole world just spins round and round.
I put it behind me, but it comes back and bites me.
I'm fallin down,yet my past just haunts me.
Memories are burned in my head,
I dont want to remember this,... again.
I got too much emotion, too much pain.
I try to stay strong to keep myself sane.
I put on a mask with a fake smile and lie,
I'm wearing a "stay strong" disguise.
I dont know what to do anymore,
I dont know what to believe.
i cant live this battle this war,
this self hatred.... these lies I've made for me.


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EDEN

Morning sunrise
Perfect day in Eden
I breathe in fresh air
A world where we're together
Until you came along
Life had no harmony
You are my song
A song I'll sing forever

Let's sing, let's sing it forever
Together
Yeah, Together!

I wanna say it, wanna shout it
Wanna know all about it
Everything you do
Keys to your clues
Know all your cues
Everything you do
Wanna know all about it
I wanna say it, wanna shout it

Unlocked door
Mysterious tree in Eden 
One bite and you'll know
Everything that's been hidden
Temptation so strong
To remove the unknowns
But will we know we were wrong
Why this fruit was forbidden

Still,
I wanna say it, wanna shout it
Wanna know all about it
Everything you do
Keys to your clues
Know all your cues
Everything you do
Wanna know all about it
I wanna say it, wanna shout it

Let's take a bite, it feels right together
Now Eden's gone
Eden's gone forever!

*When mystery dies.. Eden dies!

Sponsor: Poet Destroyer A
Contest Name: any poem #16 

3-31-14


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Guitarra, Express My Heart

Guitarra, I’m begging,express my heart Pick away all that’s ever ached Place these Spanish notes beautifully To the angel of her face Guitarra pleas, express this heart Bring to life our last Latin nights Dancing that flamenco from her charcoal eyes Reviving fiesta under most romantic moonlight Guitarra as now I gently play Fingers within running throughts through ebony of her hair “El espiritu de amor” is strumming along Bringing back the yesterdays to here Guitarra passion now is in the revival As the ghost of love tangos all around Milagros, I sense you near And in this instrument forever you are found


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Phantom

i don't wanna sit here 
in the garden, without you 
i don't want to be here 
falling apart, waiting for you 
cause i'm sick and tired 
of existing here, without you dear 
hanging onto nothing, hoping for something 

we're not adam and eve 
oh why can't you see 
how much i need you 
so hard to believe 
yet cannot conceive 
how much i love you 
i won't say sorry 
doesn't mean a damn thing 
cause you don't love me 
we can never be 

i'm not gonna stand here 
all evening, without a clue 
i'm not gonna be here 
sweetheart, bleeding just for you 
cause i'm sick and tired 
of burning here, without you dear 
hanging onto nothing, hoping for something 

we're not adam and eve 
oh why can't you see 
how much i need you 
so hard to believe 
yet cannot conceive 
how much i love you 
i won't say sorry 
doesn't mean a damn thing 
cause you don't love me 
we can never be 

you're not adam, 
more like the snake 
you're the phantom, 
that haunts me 
you can't be adam 
more like the snake 
you're the phantom, 
ripping my heart away 

we're not adam and eve 
oh why can't you see 
how much i need you 
so hard to believe 
yet cannot conceive 
how much i love you 
i won't say sorry 
doesn't mean a damn thing 
cause you don't love me 
we can never be


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Remember When

Remember when we could still stand
And gaze upon some virgin land
And appreciate the beauties of the Earth?
Remember when the flowers bloomed in May,
And how we lived, from day to day
When the little things still had intrinsic worth?
Remember when there were no fears out there beyond the fence?
Remember when we still had common sense?

But now it seems so far away
Though it happened only yesterday
The tremor's still a-shaking in my heart.
And now there's just a stoneage silence
Born of but a moment's violence
Standing sentry in a landscape torn apart.

     And the heat came down like a mountain falling in the sea
     And the sky lit up like a thousand suns
     Ten million souls cried in agony
     Hung in the air, then faded out as one.

Sorry, don't like to steal you sleep, my dears
Didn't mean to probe your deepest, darkest fears.
But I keep having this terrible dream, you see
You can't imagine how it makes me feel
And when I wake, draw close to me
And tell me, was it really real?

Remember when things didn't seem
So pointless and far gone extreme
And we could let the children play outside?
Remember when the Grand Alliance
Worked so hard for world compliance
And how they finally made us go and hide?
Remember when the world that was
Was still a place for having dreams 
How strange the thought of that now seems.

But now it seems so long ago
A million miles from what we know
The Final Crime committed now at last.
So now it's all a weary show
As on and on and on we go
Our living time is now - the Past's the Past.


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The Cloudiest Day

I didn't like losing you
And my tears cried the truth
With rain that came
On the cloudiest day
Like heaven was crying too



©2014 Honestly JT


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ooooh Marian

your sultry voice
your gentle laugh
those warm notes
welcome me in
how long has
this been goin' on

I've been around
and so have you
your soul touches
your fingers dance
gnarled with age
yet light on keys

across a wire
across the sky
clear across time
we say goodbye
how long has
this been goin' on

© Goode Guy 2013-08-21

eulogy for Marian McPartland 1918-03-20--2013-08-20


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For the Dying Orphan

I let you die for my name As you reached for my hands Out of waters of drowning What a hypocrite this writer is The Hatred of Solitude Letting an orphan dream Then destroy him with knowledge Of what you have done He opened up to you In new ways But in nostalgic guises The springwinds whisper blithe yore But the winterwinds, much stronger Caress you with the dreams of your funeral sky “It was you… it was your fault… Letting the one who was so open to you Be the laugh… the piece in the game…”


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Beyond The Sun

Of 2000 years ago Beyond The Sun
There once was a Prophetic Son
With a Mother of Wisdom
The Matriach of Sublime
She shows the way in time
 
There's a locked cage in my heart
And it's tearing me apart
Sophia you hold The Key
Why don't you open if for me
 
Beyond The Sun
A Dove, a Flame (Beyond The Sun)
Regina Sapientia is Here (Beyond The Sun)
 
Beyond The Sun
A Dove, a Flame (Beyond The Sun)
Regina Sapientia is Here (Beyond The Sun)
 
There's a locked cage in my heart
And it's tearing me apart
Sophia you hold The Key
Why don't you open if for me
 
Beyond The Sun
A Dove, a Flame (Beyond The Sun)
Regina Sapientia is Here (Beyond The Sun)
 
Beyond The Sun
A Dove, a Flame (Beyond The Sun)
Regina Sapientia is Here (Beyond The Sun)


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For Bruce Springsteen

for bruce springsteen...


it was a rain-swept monsoon day

way back then, so many moons away

when i felt the music strumming in my veins

setting me free like a runaway horse without any reins

you sang of simple truths, 

your verse spoke to people just like me

in my lonely, wasted, and desolately quiet night

as you screamed out tragic human wrongs, and of everyone's plight

'bobby jean' spoke to me

of that girl down the street

glimpses of whom, we as innocents would furtively meet

and 'the river' that flowed through my ever-barren heart

led me down further roads of thunder

when slowly i finally learnt that the hardest part was fighting on

and never to surrender

to the hard-luck dreams that were born to run

while i danced in the dark 

with memories vivid and stark

even as i whined like that dog who for forever lost his howling bark

and then a 'human touch' came along

and 'better days' seemed real, not just words in a song

and still you sang and swayed and spoke straight into my unseeing eyes

as gardens of secrets were opened, and as your fist punched the skies

in an anger that i too felt and in whose cauldron i too burned

as we saw murder get incorporated, while on its wobbly axis, our fragile world apathetically turned

and then suddenly i was told that i was all grown up

working on a highway of scattered ideals

and absolving myself by sprinkling some coins in a waiting cup

well, after all these years of walking along so many a thorny road

with an armour of your verse covering me, even as i hear them taunt me and even as they continue to goad

but now i can feel myself fading away, into the bleakness of this coming night

just like the ghost of that old tom joad...


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The Land of Sophia

Escape the tort of our avarice world Defy the ones who shift the blame Deter the decadence forgetting shame Freedom is on the top of the bare eyes Beyond the consciousness of The Human Kind Search harder and then you'll find The Land of Sophia Dwelling past are needs Swirling around our bare minds Our wants polluting out sight the Land of Sophia is lost at night Are the Lies held worth it in time Only embracing The Veil of Logic The Truth is cast into shade where all vices are soon to be made For all of our dreams and dramaticies The Destruction Star poisons seas Far from This Galaxy among the stars I can see myself, And The One I've became Escape the tort of our avarice world Defy the ones who shift the blame Deter the decadence forgetting shame Freedom is on the top of the bare eyes Beyond the consciousness of The Human Kind Search harder and then you'll find The Land of Sophia Dwelling past are needs Swirling around our bare minds Our wants polluting out sight the Land of Sophia is lost at night Caught in our lust, of forgetting trust I wonder can we break free of bound forever in the clutches of Lilith's Love Eden's Heart Who's desperate For Love Who's desperate For Light yet wallows in Blight and chooses to wait--forevermore The wait in Summer--An Eternity Lilith's Love Eden's Heart Escape the tort of our avarice world Defy the ones who shift the blame Deter the decadence forgetting shame Freedom is on the top of the bare eyes Beyond the consciousness of The Human Kind Search harder and then you'll find The Land of Sophia Dwelling past are needs Swirling around our bare minds Our wants polluting out sight the Land of Sophia is lost at night We don't chose what's right I can't believe we are able to see this far Crawling in Shadows Never will breath find it's light Escape the tort of our avarice world Defy the ones who shift the blame Deter the decadence forgetting shame Freedom is on the top of the bare eyes Beyond the consciousness of The Human Kind Search harder and then you'll find The Land of Sophia Dwelling past are needs Swirling around our bare minds Our wants polluting out sight the Land of Sophia is lost at night
**Mark Jansen, Guitarist, Male Vocals, and main songwriter of Epica**


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HARD TO SEE

                                                                   Water In My Eyes

It’s hard to take off, when you’re left grounded.  Something lost I can’t find it.
 I can’t see my way anymore, I need a guide

                                               “Hard to see with water in your eyes”

A feeling that comes over you, it comes and goes 
Often now putting me to my knees, a thirst for knowledge has grown.
Interpretations given to me, I want to fly but I’m stuck on the ground is what I realized.
I can’t see my way anymore, I need a guide


                                                “Hard to see with water in your eyes”

You carry those you lost and offer you in their place, all you have are the memories a heart ache, a still picture of their face. Quest for knowledge you have shown, you can only save yourself when it’s time to kneel at the thrown. Interpretations given to me, still unable to fly I can’t see my way anymore, I need a guide


                                                      “Hard to see with water in your eyes”

Arms out reached in front of me, waiting for a touch back to assist and help guide me, I know your there even in the open air, as the breeze passes by pushing out the water in my eye.
 Looking to the sky before it drips drops and it freezes. As u notice only your sign the one only you can see. If you found it it’s meant for you to continue to believe. Before you know it you’re looking up into the sky. You see clearly through a dry eye. No more needs God has heard you and now he will guide you.

Walking a set path try to live a life right. God will always give you your way of sight.
Keeping faith is all for just such a reason. It’s nice to see through all life’s seasons. But almost daily it gets blurry and things change size.







                                                      “Hard to see with water in your eyes”
                                                                                 By Paul J Williams Sr
                                                                                 


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Interlude for In The Pines

She came from the village
One day's ride from here.
Though I'd  only met her but the once,
She's stood in a corner of my memories
All down these many years.

She had that Fugitive look about her-
Eyes like a wary fox.
She would not add nor take from what she'd told me;
Her heart was full of locks.


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Roses & Thorns

im all alone and thats the way it should be
because no one was good enough to try and tame me
so sit back and relax and enjoy the fall
the truth really hurts you never loved me at all

you say you love me 
but i saw past your lies
and let me tell you somethin' baby 
i'm not fallin' for you this time

roses around my hand 
and thorns around my feet
who would have known 
you were wrapped around me

but you tore me to shreds 
and i thank God for that
because if you never hurt me 
i wouldnt ever get you back 

so here i go without you
somewhere you can never reach me
and you can rest assure
im not takin' you with me

to this happi place
that makes me numb
where revenge will get you
its so good to be home

because the roses left me bleedin'
maybe that was a sign
that you would turn on me
and walk straight out of my life

you say you love me 
but i saw past your lies
and let me tell you somethin' baby 
i'm not fallin' for you this time

there's no ring around my finger
and thats ok
because im unobtainable
and thats the way it should be


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Times Were Tough

I come from down in the valley, there, my father's house shines hard and bright in the darkness on the edge of town, like my memories calling so cold and alone troubled times had come to my hometown times were tough, love was not enough to feed us and keep us warm the greedy thieves that came around brought death to my hometown my father once told me, with every wish there comes a curse now, I understand what he meant you choose the chance you take still, at the end of every hard day, people find some reason to believe My hometown lays waiting for rebirth maybe everything that dies someday comes back By Rhonda Johnson-Saunders, March 5, 2012 for Sing a Song a Poem contest (Tracie~*~ Indigo Dreamweaver) Eighth Place *Bruce Springsteen lyrics I come from down in the valley - The River My father's house shines hard and bright - My Father's House In the darkness on the edge of town - In the Darkness on the Edge of Town Calling and calling so cold and alone - My Father's House Troubled times had come to my hometown - My Hometown Times were tough, love was not enough - When You're Alone The greedy thieves that came around brought death to my hometown - Death to My Hometown With every wish there comes a curse - With Every Wish You choose the chance you take - The Price You Pay Still at the end of every hard day, people find some reason to believe - Reason To Believe Maybe everything that dies someday comes back - Atlantic City


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Laws of the Dead

The law of emptiness takes form
Choosing a sight beset by storms
A town abandoned by its youth
Decaying resentment for any truth

I walk recounting every deed
Tracing my steps beyond the trees
A child hiding underground
Trying to talk, but lacking sound

His presence pulling at my chords
Anger within as I relate the law
The silent child turns to walk
As lights flicker out, beneath the rock

Waking to water at my knees
Sadness to see my town besieged
All life is taken by this storm
The law of the lonely has taken form

Stricken by pain beyond my time
Holding the laws to calm my mind
Recounting how this could have been
The closer I look, the more I scream

The law of blame now taking form
Finding the cause of this deadly storm
The quiet child takes my hand
A breath of water for this dying man


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our love

our love has come and gone
just like the freshly played melody of our song
though i cannot lie
i will sigh
to you i will say a final goodbye
our love has faded away
like a breeze on a hot summers day
our love has gone out of fashion
and its time to move on
because our love has come and gone
like the faded memory of our song
and with a sigh
to you i say a final good bye


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Who Are You?

Who are you to put disappointment
in my soul, and shatter the glass I broke
Punish the misunderstood with thorns of fire

The victimize frozen, and unworthy
Clouds neglected, weak and rejected
Water will secure the undecided thunder
Jealous roses will damage the roots of souls
Who are you to humiliate, and manipulate

Spirits of spirits
Soul of souls

Desperate fire so confused
So exhausted, impatient and frightened
The unworthy so traumatized, 
vulnerable, and ashamed of life
Who are you to attack

Who are you to be insecure
Who are you to be destructive
Your not, to be violated
Who are you to be defective
Who are you 
Who are you
Who are you
For I am you
D.L.V



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A Thousand Degrees

Awaken frozen years of fright
The light that died within the night
The last of all you want to be
In eyes that no longer want to see

The turning of your sins to truth
Experience that handed proof
That falling down will make you rise
The mirror burning through your lies

Awaken shivering months of pain
The same old story; same old games
The fear that sunk into your heart
In hate you thought could not depart

Through every hurt that cracks your throne
There’s a silent story to decode
Now understand; ignite your mind
Now light the way and step outside

Awaken screaming days of loss
The counting down of every cost
The breaking child becoming ice
In eyes that suffer a thousand lives

Awaken this moment of return
Though the pain will briefly burn
Step through your shadow and become
The shining light without the sun


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Deirdre

 
Don’t you know Deirdre’s gone? Don’t you know Deirdre’s gone? I can sence her embrace that feels like Tragedy A heart to have, slipped beneath the waves The dark pulse now beckons us closer How many days will this passion bleed away? We will be the ones left to blame Beware we’ve become their prey They say you’re addicted to your pain A lifeless cold barren soul left to die in the rain A whisper too close to the edge A call from the dark Brings out a saving spark An Exodus from her Pain Her Life Spent breathing in Shame A Shadow Call breaks the Silence Am I the one to blame? Don't you know Deirdre's gone? Don't you know Deirdre never said wrong? Don't you know Deirdre's gone? “My Decadence was just for you Though you’d never care what I’ve been through Enter the world were empathy is clandestine A world created by you, just for me What’s Lying in my heart is why You want to through the stone” I call your name towards nightfall’s reign But they take you so far away A dark angel so divine Cursed by Eden’s heart I will avenge every tear An Exodus from her Pain Her Life Spent breathing in Shame A Shadow Call breaks the Silence Am I the one to blame? Don't you know Deirdre's gone? Don't you know Deirdre never said wrong? Don't you know Deirdre's gone? Don’t you know Deirdre’s gone? Don’t you know Deirdre’s gone?


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Have and Have Not

Born into poverty
Instead of heraldry
Disappointment struck me glum
Square peg in a round hole
Ends up on the dole*
Got no money and I want some

My nights of abandon
Were strictly rationed
Contraception isn't cheap
Then into these drab nights
No warmth and no lights
Fed up of counting sheep

You came and you stained 
the sheets and the bed frame
Your self indulgence left me sore
You left me white
and a terrible sight
But still I craved for more

But if I had money
You'd stick with me honey
You wouldn't leave me in this mess
But I'm just a pauper
Can't support a daughter
(Finances) stretch to a budgie at best

Well she cut her hair
and dated a millionaire
Splashing cash has such allure
But, he beats her senseless
Then buys her a new dress
She's not happy, but she's 'secure'

He has and I have not
I want what he's got
The irony is - I had it once
He went to Cambridge and Eton
He's got me down and beaten
He's left me feeling such a dunce

The moral then sonny
Is those who have money
Will always get the best of both worlds
So if your not rich
Then life's a b***h
So go find yourself a rich girl



*old fashioned term for social security payments in the UK. 
[This is actually a song rather than a poem, which I wrote almost 30 years ago - when I was full of angst and acne! Can't find or remember the music I wrote for it though - shame]


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I've Been Here Before

chorus

Well, the one I wanna see
Don't wanna see me
I've been here before...
I've been here before...

I guess I ask
For a little too much
I've been here before...
I've been here before...

Happiness, you're a stranger
You ain't no friend of mine
I know what I want, I can't have it
I guess I'll do some time

Some time without the one
The one I wanna see
I guess it's ended this way
She don't wanna be with me

repeat chorus

Loneliness is a hitchhiker
I picked up on the road
She told me to relax
That she had time to blow

Letdown was a friend of mine
I grew to know her well
She always asked if I was buying
'Cause she had goods to sell

repeat chorus

I could tell my girl it's right
But I'd know it's wrong
Conscience, you're a...jerk(profanity)
I guess I'll have to stand long

I'd stand forever through any kind of weather
If there was a chance
A chance that I'd get through
Through to you

repeat chorus

The one I want won't have me
She won't even call
I guess I wanted too much
I guess I wanted it all

Expecting too much is dangerous
Better watch your step
Because I'm telling you, my friend
Heartbreak never ends

repeat chorus


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Fate or Fiction

Is this fate or fiction....
the aesthetics of your love is a marvelous depiction
I am having a love seizure or is your love an affliction
Is this fate or fiction? 

It must fate, our paths have crossed our spirits soar just right 
you calm and sweet and never like to fight...
bring security and confidence in such a delightful way..
the expressions of your thoughts blows my mind away
Is the fate or fiction?

It takes courage to find out which one would be the exemption.. fate or fiction? 
when you have been hurt by an ex's restrictions
but the aesthetics of your love has become my addiction.
No Fiction this is Fate. 


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A Seething Woe

Minutes creep, Hours sweep
Sleepless nights
the shackles become too tight
Bounded by  you day and night
One,two,three…..
Here comes the Shattering foe , a seething woe
I don, as I walk a heavy load
A precise weight: Ten thousand yoke!
It holds for me a heavy score
For I “Fall upon the thorns of life I bleed’
Phantoms of my sleep
Countless and boundless they stretch upon a shrouded course
The burden of long past ordeals I carry, I bear
Like the very scarlet letter, I stand here, I wear
The hearts of many, with bare hands I tear
A fleeting goodness, a howling soul
Darkness engulfs….
 The past wounds of countless souls,
is what I! Me! The Misanthropic wore….



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My first love

when i first laid my eyes upon you,
you looked so tender and fair
with those deep amber eyes and soft brown hair
you looked like the queen of the nile
and when u spoke the angels sang
and i knew that i would love you until the earth no longer span

with legs so long and skin so soft
and when we kissed my heart was lost
and in every place i have ever been
no one even comes close to you my queen

so now i have said my piece
and im so glad your happy
glad your soul is so free
my love for u will always be 
ce la vie


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Dreamer's Disease

Written August 5, 2011


Why don't these constellations follow me
Smash-up mercy disease
When you go outside to find the light
In the middle of a cold dark night
Is when I'll ask if all your dreams are dying out

You only got one dance left to rid this dreamer's disease
Hey you over there
Do you give up more than you give
All my friends keep breaking down in two
Is there really any reason to live
When you can only get as much as you give

Davey lives at the end of the sea
So sink on down and look him up for me
And when the curtain's falling
Morning's calling
Won't wake up you got the dreamer's disease
Won't wake up you only get what you give


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The Poetry of Shadows

Silence and a stone
A mirror all alone
Shadows on my breath
Stillness seeking life within my death

Vengeance bends my will
The mirror crying still
The shadows hold my hand
Darkness conjures up an evil plan

Attack or break again
Either way’s the same
With horror on my tongue
The shadows claim all I can become

Silence breaking out
The mirror cracked by doubt
A shadow swallows me
The light is gone and I no longer see

Darkness plays a song
My truth now used for wrong
The past becomes today
The backwards child longs to now betray

The silence in his tone
As my screams are turned to snow
Belie his buried schemes
In which the world is lost in his disease

Forgiveness for my tears
Was spent on darkest fears
Now I’m turned to stone
By the shadow-self that represents my soul


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No Body In My Way...

Do you remember that day,
when I found you in my way,
and I asked you to play,
you said no way,
I want to stay ,
because I really need to pray,
so,no body in my way is going to play
every body say that im fantastic,
cause I like gymnastic,
but no body is romantic,
so, no body in my way is going to play


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the truman theory

Beauty tells the story 
Of days we were younger
Come join the famine
Lose someone
Beneath the sands
At the Tip of your toes
A touch of the gods
Join the war
And lose someone 

Bridges
They mend
The things that god 
Cannot touch
Rivers
They separate
The stenches
That man 
cannot rid of

Join the war 
Lose someone
Among the worst
mercenary’s 
Those of us
Who were careless
of wanted whispers
Join the war
And lose someone

Come join the war
Won’t you lose someone
Morning breaks 
Come join the war
The warming phase
Alarming as days
Join the war 
Lose someone

“The important part is the suffering, 
death is just the part that eventually 
happens.”


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All About Her

I dont know much about her
but I heard she wasnt that talkative
She didnt like being alive
She was numb to all the pain she had to go through

I heard she didnt like anything that was green
She ate roman noodles everynight for supper
She always wore flannels and bellbottoms
Sometimes i seen her wear dresses and fancy tops
But lately shes been wearing band shirts

She wears converse shoes and uses an army bag for school
I know that she dosent like to communicate through talking... only through her peoms
or sometimes even her songs.

I see her drawing and painting all the time
She draws famous people
She would like to be famous and not so unknown
When she tries to speak to anyone they always walk away and leave her alone

When she gets home she goes upstairs to play her bass guitar
She hates chocolate cake but loves chocolate
Her family left her behind because she cant forget her past

Sometimes when shes alone she contemplates the meaning behind her life
Her favorite color is gray because her life is black and white
Everything she says is false according to the world

She is not so innocent
I understand that she dreams about the perfect life
When she opens her eyes they are pitch black

She is someone that is fake
She acts nothing like she should
She is very grungy and unclean

She knows of no safety
and of no time
Her life is smashed into pieces by the giant sun

She will always be a ghost
She knows of no god
She crawls around in the world of death
She remains forgotten


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One True Love

Years ago, while I was at work
You approached, and gave me that look.
When our eyes met, on that first day
I glanced at you, and looked away.

My heart was pounding, oh so fast
I never felt this, will it last?
Papers I gave you, to fill out
I explained, what they were about.

A week went by, and you came back
For those papers, you had lost track.
I gave them to you, one more time
I even showed you, where to sign.

Then one night, we had met once more
At the club, you stood by the door.
We had a drink, and shared a dance
You sure had me, from your first glance.

In the morning, you came on by
“Please come with me, but don’t ask why”.
To the seawall, to watch the view
Spending all day, just me and you.

You treated me, just like a queen
Someone like you, I’ve never seen.
You gave your heart, I gave mine too
To each other, our love was true.

The time we spent, I hold so dear
Where this was going, wasn’t too clear.
I loved you more, each day we spent
I felt our love, was truly meant.

You were my first, and only love
Our fate was in, the man above.
I had to leave, after a year
One last kiss, but many a tear.

“I’ll come for you”, I heard you say
Please make it soon, for this I pray.
Years had passed by, no word from you
My heart was broke, what will I do?

I never heard, you didn’t come
I just settled, I heard from some.
I never loved, like I loved you
For what I felt, I knew was true.

I got your call, on one late night
“You’re in my heart, but out of sight.”
“I’ve wanted you, here in my life”
“I just found out, you’re someone’s wife.”

You had told me, you held my heart
I am with you, though we’re apart.
For we’re meant, to be together
Love like ours, will last forever.

Then one day, I felt something wrong
This eerie feeling, sure was strong.
I called your mom, and we both cried
When she told me, you had just died.

Stomach cancer, is what you had
Finding this out, I felt so sad.
The night you called, it was goodbye
You never said, you knew I’d cry.

I’ll always miss, the love we shared
Knowing how much, you really cared.
I must go on, and live my life
For I’m a mom, and someone’s wife.

In your life, when you find true love
Make sure to thank, the man above.
Someday we’ll meet, at heaven’s gate
I know that you, will always wait.


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Escape

This is my escape 
I'm breaking free
This is my confession
I'm running away
Away from the past 
Away from the pain
I'm letting go 
'Cause I'm tired
Tired of this pain.
So,
This is my escape 
I'm breaking free 
This is my confession 
'Cause I'm running out 
Out of time 
So let me go!
'Cause I'm taking off now
I'm flying away
Away from the past 
Away from the pain
'Cause I've had enough
Enough of this tragedy.
So,
This is my escape 
I'm breaking free
This is my confession
No more to be afraid
No heartbreak
'Cause I no longer will take this pain!
Away from the past 
Away from the pain
So,
This is my escape
I'm breaking free
This is my confession 
I will no longer let you bind me!


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Storm In The Wind

(Oh Girl),
You're like the storm and the wind, 
Tearin up the city and breaking the 
trees, 
Whenever I'm around you girl, 
I get weak, 
You're breaking my heart, 
And tearing up me, 
(Chorus) 
Breaking my heart, 
Breaking my heart,  (Tearing up me)
(Ooh girl)
I know we will make it, 
Even though the wind is blowing 
careless at me, 
I can't do this without you girl, 
I'll get weak, 
Stop breaking my heart, 
Bringing me to my knees,
(Chorus) 2x 
Even though the love hurricane is 
blowing careless at me, 
I can't do this without you girl, 
I'm too weak, 
You breaking my heart, 
You're the storm of the week. 


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The Eve Of Never New Years Eve Heartbreak

As the time winds down,
And the shots get more hectic,
My mind begins to scramble,
Now *****is getting skeptic,
At 5 I hear your voice,
I see your smile,
I feel your hate,
At 4 I feel Mary,
I feel Love,
But at it's fate,
At 3 I see you walking,
I see him walking,
I see the Eve,
At 2 I begin to set my mind up to believe,
At 1 all hope is lost and by then I can retrieve,
My thoughts and now I can fully receive,
The news but I ask why you had to deceive?
And now you have all of the eyes staring,
As your Infidelity begins to show,
And your conscious begins to scare,
Right around the same time that my heart stops to care,
And in the midst I'm left there,
In the air with no one to lend a comforting hand,
*****I got treated like a fan,
On the Eve of Never.....


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come home (second verse)

Wifey don't like the way I spend my time
I'm in the streets more than speed bumps and traffic signs

every time I dip she giving me lip
but to find these chips I got to grind like the Clipse

She's always crying she wants some quality time
she's always crying she wants me out of the grind

she sees me dyeing I probably will
a drop out with no marketable skill

so I place all my hopes and dreams 
on the c.r.e.a.m generating by what makes them fiend

now I rarely lay my head where I reside
hustle hard for my unborn seed and I

oops made the wrong move now I'm doing time
for selling slices of the devil's pie

now I make collect calls on the phone 
she tells me that she needs me It's hard to carry on
I tell her keep her head up stay strong 
but she don't want to raise this baby on her own

she cried this ain't the life that I deserve
It's hard, I'm tired from work, this baby working my nerves
and the stress brings the chest pains
now days I'm less sane
last night I could not sleep praying that death came

and I feel the heart in her tone
the pain it resonates and penetrates to the bone
I want to reach out to touch but it's just a telephone
she never in her life felt so alone


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3 Angels

I never got to touch your face
I hid a faded smile
my 3 Angels were placed
to comfort me a while
I never got to feel you grow
or become a rising star
I pray that you will never know
of this hidden scar

I never said the word hello
as I welcomed you to life
the only word I was allowed 
was the saddest word goodbye

I never got to see you grin
or hear you laugh out loud
I never got to tuck you in
or watch you sleep so sound

I never said the word hello
as I welcomed you to life
the only word I was allowed 
was the saddest word goodbye

just as the years go by
rain will come and go
but ill always hold you inside
i just wanted you to know

I never said the word hello
as I welcomed you to life
the only word I was allowed 
was the saddest word goodbye


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Weep and a Moan

Watching the sequence of sound coming out of your mouth...
But the screaming is too loud.
I can speak,
But my brain doesn't want to.

I closed the door.
Silence called for me.
Should I cry or should I run after her?

What have I done to you?
but love you uncontrollably.

Shes then left speechless.
It looks like shes out of breath,
but really I broke her.

She was fragile.
So innocent.

Run, Just run.
A gun raised..
up to her mouth.
And a taint on her heart.


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A Lost Language

Dancing under moonlight
Haunting through the day
Angels turn to darkness
When the sun does not remain

Invisible and hopeless
The tones in which we speak
Our language can’t describe it
And now our vision’s bleak

A thousand fall at daybreak
A thousand more at dusk
The silence will not comfort
This mirror caked in rust

Dangerous and frightened
All that’s left to see
People fight for nothing
People try to flee

Dancing through this wasteland
Haunting brighter skies
Reminders of our weakness
Reminders of our lies

Visibly we’re broken
But suddenly we speak
The gift of wisdom shines down
The brightness lets us breathe

Dancing into sunlight
Caught within the day
The angels recall caring
Because the darkness never stays


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Dard

"Badi Tassalli Se Toda Tha Tumne hamara Dil.
Hum Aaj Bhi Mohabbat Nahi Kar Paaye."


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Escape These Walls

You Build These Walls To Make a Home
For Yous Both To Live In
And The Day She Left She Dug a Hole..
How You Wished You Never Let Her.
Now You Stand In the Rain Because You finally Realise...

...She Was Your Shelter!

And All You Can Stand To think About
Is the Last Day...

..That You Felt her

But I'll Be Here For You
Because The Day I Built My Walls...

....He Left Me Too..

Months Pass On And You Wake To The Sun
And Oh God How You Wished You Felt It,
And Though The Rain Has Gone
You Still See The Hole She Left Up On Your Ceiling..

But I'll Be Here For You!
Because The Day I Built My Walls...

    


 He Left Me Too


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A Minute Too Short

Time is just a number that is part of fate

Time is a number that too few people value

 And it will continue to disentegrate

I will never forget that one day when i was so close yet so far away

The sound of a ring lead me to words that i never wanted to hear

Lies entered my ears and i fought back tears

With my mouth wide open with nothing to say

Time was my enemy, I had never felt so betrayed

And when i returned home, and lies became truth

I was a minute too short and time had ended the heartbeat of one of it's youth

Time is just a number that simply burns away

As days continue to pass, I will carry this burden to my grave

For being a minute too short on that one tragic day

When time ended so quickly as skies turned to grey

Time is just a number that we cannot waste


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Junkie

you know its wrong 
but you do it to overpower the pain
not strong enough to stay away from it
you would die without it
in its presence your heart knows no shame
even if you try to win the fight
your heart will overrule your mind
Theres nothing you can do
its chained to you
you cant get free
look what this drug did to you


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How Many Times

How many times does God forgive,
Again and again, please just live,
How many times, can you fall down,
Over and over, you’ll be found,
How many times will I just pray,
For all your pain to go away,

For you were once my dearest friend,
In my heart your presence ends.

How many days go quickly bye,
How many birds sing when they cry,
How many cherubs fight for you,
How many angels dance the blues,

How many demons tried to take,
How many stripes for our mistakes,
How many times could I confess,
I never loved you any less
I never loved you any less.


How many times does God forgive,
Again and again, please just live,
How many times, can you fall down
Over and over, you’ll be found’
how many times will I just pray,
for all your pain to go away,

For you were once my dearest friend,
In my heart your presence ends.


By: Sabina Nicole
Written: For DRS


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I Needed You To Stay

(chorus)

Watch these eyes fill with tears
I don’t know where to go from here
Everything is always the same
Lonely nights filled with pain
Why cant I rearrange
Why does opening up feel so strange
Is this what's meant to be,
A life with only me

 I sit and watch down the hall,
Silence waiting for your call,
If I could just hear you say
That you need me today
Then everything would be ok,
I cant make this go away.
Ive done it again
When will this end
Where is my friend
I needed you to stay.

(chorus)
Watch these eyes fill with tears
I don’t know where to go from here
Everything is always the same
Lonely nights filled with pain
Why cant I rearrange
Why does opening up feel so strange
Is this what's meant to be,
A life with only me

You told me I was the one,
Yet its over before it begun
You took my heart
and tore it apart
Where the hell did this come from
All the tears I cried
From all your lies
I cant make this go away
I needed you to stay

 (chorus)
Watch these eyes fill with tears
I don’t know where to go from here
Everything is always the same
Lonely nights filled with pain
Why cant I rearrange
Why does opening up feel so strange
Is this what's meant to be,
A life with only me


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THOUGH NOTHING CAN BRING BACK THE HOUR OF SPLENDOUR IN THE GRASS, OF GLORY IN THE FLOWER

Morning comes with downpour of dazzling dew
That sits on leaves of grass, petals of the flower
And with splendour and glory stains them anew.
Beauty of Eternal image shrinks into finite Hour.

The cruel ray of Sun quivers the grass, the leaves
And the dews suddenly vaporize and flutter away
Like the scattered flying bees of broken beehives.
The parting dew yields to dreary mechanical day.

Though nothing, nothing can bring back the hour
Of splendour in the grass, of glory in the flower
Yet tomorrow Dew will return with the downpour
Of splendours and glories of the heavenly power.	


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I AM ALONE

I am alone, you are alone,
Come across and started crying,
Coz, pains were alike,
Sedative to each other….

Smiling at you, amusing at you,
Leaving my soul with you,
Make sunrise from your nights,
Leaving my depth with you….

Loving you was a fate, 
Every time makes me pleased,
But! Why it happens?
Why you are so far…?

A few sorrows are filled,
A few are empty.
You too are miserable,
M too answerless….

My every expression queries you,
Do I really need you..?
Lesser is the lane, so is the heaven,
Is kismet brings us close….!!

Why you break me, my trust?
Is that hunger, relies on you..?
I found paradise on you,
Forsaking me alone, alone and alone….



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Forever

"FOREVER" was inspired by the pain and heartache people go through.

Dedicated to those who have grief in their life over a loved one, whether they are alive, deceased, sick or in pain.... They will be FOREVER with you in your heart....

Every time I see your face
I wanna feel your warm embrace.
I wanna hold you in my arms,
I'm gonna keep you in my heart... Forever.
Forever... you'll always be there.
I'll hold you close i'll hold you dear,
No matter where you are I know that you will always be here...
By my side, Forever....
By my side, No questions of why... Cuz you ALWAYS care.
Every time I see your face
I wanna feel your warm embrace.
I wanna hold you in my arms,
I'm gonna keep you in my heart.
You'll always be there by my side,
No Questions of why,
Cuz you always care... for me...
Forever...


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My Most Sincere Apology(I Wish God Would Have Taken Me Instead of You)

I'm breaking down again.
My patience has worn thin.
I can't promise you anything.
It kills me that I can no longer do anything for you.
I'm watching you descend.
You're so broken.
I'm sorry for letting you down.
I just wish I could replace some of the mistakes that I have made.
I want to give you the devotion I believe you deserved.
I wish I could show you your worth.
I bury my face in my hands.
This isn't how I had it all planned out.
But now I'm helpless in all of this and I feel like I have betrayed you.
God I hate myself for allowing you to fall face first.
I wish I could have done so much more.
I just wish God would grant me another chance.
One more opportunity.
I pray for clarity.
I don't understand the meaning in this tragedy.
I feel you slipping away in a dream that I can't escape.
I have made so many mistakes.
You're blameless.
I can't take this.
I feel the tears fall.
I wish God would have taken me instead of you.
If I could I'd give you my all just to bring you back.
But you're slipping through the cracks.
As much as I try there's absolutely nothing I can do.
I'm sorry. 
I wish I could look deep into your eyes and apoligize .
I'm sorry.
IF I could I'd give my life just to see you live another day.


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Oh Walker's Will and Lander's Way

Oh walker’s will and lander’s way…
Did not we grow in love’s dismay?
while wandering by the garden path
that led us to “the grapes of Wrath”
but also by the Lake of Tow ....and woe
still... on we wandered … did farther go
to where the wake of Willing’s way
slammed us like the tides…to our final days
against the side of Trivial’s Pass
no easy going, unto the last

So Now! Away my love!... turn now away!
The sky is dark... tis end of day

no more to walk hand and hand
no circle to be broken 
no promise in sands
of time...ticking time ...that has now stopped
the boom has struck... love's hammer dropped

Let us land …in this peaceful place
in this subjective joy… in an objective space

we journeyed long unto the bend
of bow and break...relent and lend
but even we must greet our circle's end


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Lovely were Those Days

I dream of lovely days,
The day I met you,
The chat we had, the love we shared
Jubilant were those ways.

The moment you called me up, 
Delicious was the tea,in my cup
Terrified were I, shocked and shiver,
Rattled with the waves of happy river.

We talked night and the day,
So much to talk, so new to know,
Sitting by the beach or the bay,
Cuddling by the chilling snow.


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EYE Don't See -Part 3-

My eyes
Witness your departure
My eyes
Are dripping with hopelessness…
My eyes start to blur…
Melancholy put me under pressure…
Is there a cure to my disease? 

You don’t see
The shards of hope that once brought us back together
Just let me search for safety
I’m strong enough to realize that I’m no longer
The weakest prey out there…

And I’m left in my solitude…
Do you hear me whimpering like a distraught puppy left on the train tracks?

I’m close to my demise…save me and take me home

Nourish me…and be my beloved friend

Will this friendship last forever?

Hopefully it has no end

Will this cheerful moment help us get along with each other?

Because of you…I feel the need to run 
I keep an eye on you – I worry that you’ll hurt yourself again
Because of you…My freedom is nearly gone
I don’t wanna be caught off guard again
Because of you…EYE can’t picture a solution for our vexing dilemma 
Because of you…eye can’t focus on my long-term goal 

And I’m left in my solitude…
Do you sense that I’m giving in to failure? 
And I’m close to my demise…
Only to find myself disappear…I can’t endure 
The hardships that you place upon me…
Could you boost up my confidence to overcome 
My atrocious anxiety? 

I’m just waiting for some sun
To keep me in good hands…
To strengthen me with perseverance …
I’m just waiting until His son
Leads the world outtah Egypt and reveals to us…
His radiance…His dazzling Kingdom – 
Vibrant with glee

Your undying sympathy dawns upon us
I’m overflowing with indescribable joy  
You’re a candle in the night…
We meet eye to eye…
What a sight…what a precious sight


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Burned

It’s six pm
Dinner’s in the oven
Table set for two
One of us, here waiting
But that is nothing new
We agreed to have this evening
You got held up there again
Don’t like the way this’ going
Is this coming to an end

Smoke is rising to the ceiling
It’s now seeping out the doors
Both dinner and I are burning
We can’t take this anymore
The fire in the oven
Is the same that’s in my heart
Too bad you won’t be home tonight
To see we’ve come apart

Damn my waiting and your lies
I really don’t know what to say
Hopefully when you see the house
You’ll know that I too burned away
Because… I always get burned this way

It’s six fifteen
The dinner’s still burning
Smoke fills the air
I’m ready to run
Cause it seems you don’t care
Supposed to be here at five
It’s now six fifteen
Not a word or a call
Not a text or anything

Damn my waiting and your lies
I really don’t know what to say
Hopefully when you see the house
You’ll know that I too burned away
Because… I always get burned this way

Smoke is rising to the ceiling
It’s now seeping out the doors
Both dinner and I are burning
We can’t take this anymore
The fire in the oven
Is the same that’s in my heart
Too bad you won’t be home tonight
To see we’ve come apart


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Return To Dust

After the Casket Falls
After your soul is called
After your final breathe is drawn
I'll meet you again

After the Casket Falls
After your soul is called
After your final breathe is drawn
I'll meet you again

After the Casket Falls
After your soul is called
After your final breathe is drawn
I'll meet you again

I'll See your face again
I swear it
No matter how far away they take you from me
Fading, Going Away, Don't be so afraid
Death is a Dream


The Cross Will Be lighter
Whisper the words
so sacred, so somber

After the Casket Falls
After your soul is called
After your final breathe is drawn
I'll meet you again

After the Casket Falls
After your soul is called
After your final breathe is drawn
I'll meet you again

After the Casket Falls
After your soul is called
After your final breathe is drawn
I'll meet you again

A Fallen Angel looms over the lifeless stone
What Happened here must be true
I must live this life without you

Breaking the Silence
She began to Weep
The Epitaph ceasing to know 
We all must Return To Dust

After the Casket Falls
After your soul is called
After your final breathe is drawn
I'll meet you again

After the Casket Falls
After your soul is called
After your final breathe is drawn
I'll meet you again

After the Casket Falls
After your soul is called
After your final breathe is drawn
I'll meet you again

The solitude is euphoric as an illusional clock
Of argentine fears swallow the last soul
Goodnight black rose of eternity
Goodnight dearest gothic phantom
Tonight The Earth consumes me




**Special Thanks To My Writing Partner Cayla Carr**


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LIFE

Two hearts beat, now beating faster; beating until they're one 
Two souls breathe, now breathing deeper; breathing until they're done 
Two lovers see forever, and forever is where they run 
One child comes home tomorrow for life has just begun 

Even when the rainbow's glowing, the skies can seem so gray 
Even when the wind's not blowing, the tides can turn your way 
And when the water's raging, beneath skies that seem so blue 
It's just your body aging, and it has nothing to do with you 

So now when our God comes calling, I'll hold your hand and stroke your hair 
Yes, as snowflakes start falling, I will look for you everywhere 
And Mother, as you start flying, remember as you rise above 
Marlene, you are not dying, but finding everlasting love 

One child goes home tomorrow to embrace the Father and the Son 
One child who knows no sorrow, for life has just begun


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Shattered Sunlight

The memory strikes the day
The darkness comes to play
Where everything I say
Is not enough, my sunlight has to pay

With everything undone
No place left to run
Another bullet in the gun
For all I am; for hiding from the sun

A shadow in my dreams
For years I’ve planted seeds
My presence a disease
My perfect plan, uprooting all I see

The darkness calls my name
Your beauty just a game
Deception born from shame
I can’t give up until you feel the same

My memory of the light
Hopes some day that you might
Run away, before I steal your sight

But memories of my way
Now shattering the day
And I would scream aloud, but only for your pain


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Warm and Lost

Warm and lost.
Oceans of selfish freedom.
See you, see me, 
longing for a bliss filled warm embrace.
I feel you as I float by.
Calm, safe, alone and free.
Are you my Island?
Letting go.
I move in to your flow,
a salty surge, a rush, a wave.
I wave, a smile.
I fall.
Love.
Be so brave.
Lovers soul is found.
Love is lost.
I crave, I crave that smile,
the wave that melts.
I swim. Angels and Gods guide a rebels mile.
Colourless sight, colourful night, into your arms I melt,
engulfed by pure white light.


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LOVES NOT COMING BACK

I didn't mean to hurt you
maybe you misunderstand
I treasure all the memories 
I was thrilled to be your man

We were torn asunder
by one heart drifting into two
Like smoke the magic faded
girl I didn't know what to do

I remember all those feelings
how I tried to get them back
I wanted you forever
cried so hard the night I packed

You had all my melodies 
but the harmony was long gone
As a couple we were used to be's
together we'd lost our song

I remember all those feelings
how I tried to get them back
I wanted you forever
cried so hard the night I packed

I wanted you forever
but love's not coming back

Date: 6-22-14


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What If Tomorrow Never Comes

I recall now the days when forever seemed but a short time The visits to the hospital, brought sad images to your mind She lay on a bed, cords all around her, no hair upon her head The cancer drove us crazy with worry tears and fright She was only a baby, I didn't get the chance to say goodbye Farewell until we meet again where you'll be waiting... waiting for tomorrow to come again. What if tomorrow never comes? How will I face the rising sun, when the moon is the only thing I can see? I need her here with me... The only loss I've ever known The only time that I've experienced this kind of sorrow... So what if tomorrow never comes? What if tomorrow never comes. And now I lie here thinking it through, memories flash through my head, memories of you Moments of a bittersweet time Reminiscing the days when you were mine The days when you were alive The tears come back to my eyes I feel the need to cry but nothing slides out I need to scream and shout, My emotions pour out as one, silently So what if tomorrow never comes? Reality in death is so hard to accept, I need my tomorrow to come... What if it never does? What if tomorrow never comes? How will I face the rising sun, when the moon is the only thing I can see? I need her here with me... The only loss I've ever known The only time that I've experienced this kind of sorrow... So what if tomorrow never comes? What if tomorrow never comes. Will tomorrow ever come? I just want to be awake when the moon becomes the sun I'm waiting here for you, in the darkness of the night. I wait still for you, forever the images will haunt my mind Tomorrow will come I'll soon be alright Tomorrow will come... Tomorrow has come... I can now see the sun.


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Thoughts of Rage

I've been pushed past the point where I'm willing to cry No longer having the energy to fly Always looking into the enemies eyes Rage enough to light up the sky Heart turning dark no love for the enemy Feelings gone replaced with a powerful energy Eyes illuminated with a black light, everything is grey to me Ready to eliminate any weapon that's thrown at me My rage has poured into the extreme Thoughts of the enemy unclean Deep breath, in out, focus while on a wall i lean Rethink on happy thoughts, trying to get rid of the sting Anger so hard to control Flames visible when my eyes are closed Tightening the bonds i try to keep my hold Defrosting my heart from ice cold


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In Silence

in silence I wait
in silence I break
in silence I seek

for your love,
in silence I weep
in silence I adored you
in silence I averted my heart from you 
in silence I come with a renowned adoration 
will you adhere to it 
Or, will you omit it

In silence my heart stood still
the thought of you comes against my will
Deny me not
Let the soul take flight
To what heights, to the gaze out of sight

For eternal love we crave
Our feeble hearts who shall save
For love had blinded the soul
And shunned all logic out the door
To utter what cant be said
Words left unspoken
Our hearts laid out like a token
On paper &ink
Came a gush of feelings unsaid

As i catch his gaze, 
Abashed I look down
Such a feeling to me
Are anew and so profound.
As my sound judgment takes flight

In silence my heart stood still
the thought of you comes against my will
in silence I averted my heart from you 
in silence I come with a renowned adoration
And also in silence,
 I renew my vows with my heart for you


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your hand on me

how could I?
the words from your mouth
hurt more than what happened
it was more than I could take 

I took the love I had 
out of fear 
afraid you'd lie again
is causing so much tears

I miss your hand on me
where it no longer rests 
when I put mine there
there's only emptiness

oh how I wish
to turn back these few days 
what I did this time
I never can erase

I never wanted to feel 
feel this horrible pain 
that why oh why did I 
think I could erase?

You.. you seem okay
when I am the one who thought 
I thought I could be strong 
I see that I was wrong  

I try so hard to smile
but tears erase my grin 
if only I could go back 
I would change the thing I did

I pray you are okay 
somewhere in the clouds 
I pray I'll have you again
this time in my arms.


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PRIMAL CONCLUSION

Enter the beast of manlihood
Living flesh fall to their prey
Taste the wine of mortal sons
Sacrificial blood of fates
Slaughtered nations desecrated
Now under the flag of hate
Dying for anothers cause
Seducing powers contemplate
Free to rape,free to kill
Free to conquer all at will
Impaled corpses piled high
and many more are doomed to die
Some rebel,some retreat
Falling to their masters feet
Extra flesh to feed his wrath
Smell the stench of carcass baths
Revieling plagues and atrophy
Planting rotted demon seed
Wars and chaos fill the earth
Burnt remains of all its worth
Bodies left to slugs and worms
Flies swarm in and take their turn
Decayed bones and tortured souls
With no remorse the bell does toll!!!


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Lunar Love

Can this ever stop The world is blacked by the lunar love All the tides have gone undone The seas beckon us with their rage Will they ever calm The mist covers our sight The storm comes Her eyes are the color of dyed blue With her raven hair and crimson lips She sleeps quietly waiting for the innocence of me But I've already put her in vain And tossed her aside I've already condoned my belovéd The desire was so much I couldn't face it In the eyes Forgetting the shame is just a Another winless game Take me away from this Take me away from the Lunar Love The moonbeams light up my pale face I don't want to be seen Banished from this world I'll ever be Take me away from this Take me away from the Lunar Love I cry but the sun cant hear Do I exist? This eclipse took over Now I'm left to face it all Left in the dark where can we go Lunar love is what we'll be Lunar love is what we have Fly away from the scene The tides are blind from the madness Even to the mountains they'll kiss The storm is too much The desire was so much I couldn't face it In the eyes Forgetting the shame is just a Another winless game Take me away from this Take me away from the Lunar Love Lunar love is what we'll be Lunar love is what we have The moonbeams light up my pale face I don't want to be seen Banished from this world I'll ever be Take me away from this Take me away from the Lunar Love The ghosts are tangled in my dreams They play with what was meant to be forgotten But I know there must be a away To find the closure But so lost are we So lost I've been Save yourself from the downfall How close are we to the edge This is what the rage has done This is what the sin has done The desire was so much I couldn't face it In the eyes Forgetting the shame is just a Another winless game Take me away from this Take me away from the Lunar Love The moonbeams light up my pale face I don't want to be seen Banished from this world I'll ever be Take me away from this Take me away from the Lunar Love Lunar love is what we'll be Lunar love is what we have Forgetting the shame is just a Another winless game


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Have A Letter Instead

Dear You,

When things get rough I always think of you. The ways you calm me are too many to list and the ways I miss you are too obvious to dismiss. You are always present in my thoughts like you are suppose to be with me even when I don’t want you with me. You, you have a way with words and I love the way they ease between my ears erasing my fears and finding an effortless path to my heart. You never stop amazing me. I wonder sometimes what would I do if I lost you. Devastation. Humiliation. Deprivation. Reckless Endangerment. I am finally settling on the thought that I may need you here. 
The first time we met I thought you were the most beautiful thing I had ever been allowed to see. I could barely focus as you took me completely by storm, you made my coldest places warm and for that I thank you daily. I remember looking you over trying not to make my stare obvious. Your skin was perfect, like it had been custom blended only for you, your voice tone was almost too low but I challenged myself to not miss a word, and I didn’t. The thing I noticed, that I love the most about you was the way you took extreme care with me, like from our first initial touch you somehow instinctively knew to go slow, move slower and announce each entry. I tried not to love you that day, but I walked away haven already made a copy of the key that unlocks my heart…and I gave you the original to make sure it would work. Now I wait for you to use it...and now I question sometimes if I should change the locks. Except when I see you, I only want to remove them for you so you only need to walk in, but I must watch you make that move on your own.
Sincerely,
Just love Me


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away with the sun

Its getting late
but you already came 
and while you were here
things never change 
you lay with me
and tell me your words
then you leave 
and I feel hurt.
Its not you that hurts me 
but the sound of the door
closing behind you 
I know for sure 
you'd like to stay 
but you never do
I'm left alone 
missing you. 
These days its more frequent 
you leave so much
that you're gone more hours 
than the day brings sun
and I have begun 
to feel so numb
when the door closes 
another night I run
far away from the thoughts I have 
because its killing me to look
at my empty hands
I remember when we were on the sand 
you told me you loved me
but you weren't my man 
and so I walked, feeling okay
but too many months 
now I want you to stay
Am I selfish?
asking too much?
You only visit me an hour
after dusk
and I must go on
but should I stay?
when you see me sometimes
but its always too late.


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Tears of a Runaway

Tears of a Runaway

Blinded by these tears;
Choking on my useless words;
Heart racing like a horse;
Lungs gasping for air.

I long for that happiness
That I once felt.
Instead, painful memories
Are coming back to hurt me.

Running away
Sounded like a good solution,
Even though I may trip and fall.
I'll just keep on running, 'til I can't run at all.

I trip and completely fall down,
But I don't get up this time.
I’m just lying on the ground, now,
Crying ‘til I can’t cry anymore…tears.

Blinded by these tears;
Choking on my useless words;
Heart racing like a horse;
Lungs gasping for air.

I don’t know what to do now.
I’m just paralyzed on the ground;
Except that I’m also shaking
From all the crying that I’m doing.

Running away
Wish I could say
That I would stay.
But, God, just please help me?

The coldness is wrapping around me
Like it’s a frozen blanket.
Trapped in this cold, cold world
And in my mind, memories swirled.

Blinded by these tears;
Choking on my useless words;
Heart racing like a horse;
Lungs gasping for air.
As I lie here,
I wonder
What it would be like
If my life was happier.

I can’t really say for sure
What would be going on.
But if my life was happier,
I wouldn’t be singing this song.

I once felt that warmth and comfort,
But now it’s gone.
And it’s been so long
That everything in my life now is wrong.

I’m blinded by these tears;
Still choking on my useless words;
My heart still racing like a horse;
My lungs still gasping for air.

These are the tears of a...runaway


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Last curtain call

Last curtain call..
 
 
We don't belong together, we never really did.
 
When I am around you I don't feel like the kid i once did.
  
I say this with a tear in my eye and a sigh in my heart but now is the time we must part.
 
I gave you the key to my heart and you just put yours away,
 
I sat there and waited for a love that was never meant to come my way.    
  
I love you deeply and that's why it hurts me so to say good bye to a lover but now i must 
stray,
 
So with this tear in my eye and the blood on the walls killing you was my last curtain call.
 
Deborah Olson


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Just Let It Go. . .

Let go

I'll bring you closer

Right now

I'll hold on tightly

Let go

We're going no where

Somewhere

And aren't over

Harder times like these!

Growing up on the streets!

Harder times like these!

I'll put you back on your feet!

And I fall to the ground with my teardrops

And I get lost everytime my heart stops

This love this      is burning me away


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Draconian I

[The Cypress Is In Bloom]
The cypress is in bloom
I see the evil, the efflorescence of decadent doom
Eloigning, with thy clandestines of the Dead September's reign
My belovéd Penelope, abscond from the coven so deep, the glades of misery
We must face her in the grove, for arcany, the path we must take
She's in my mind, vaporously,
Lauding with my, dangers and fears
Lie, with ephermelcy's broken truths
Leading me go Cypress, Marigold
Immortally, willows, forevermore
Forevermore

[To Question; To Know]
My argentine silence, your only condonicy 
Ends with such eath
The Mockingbird in me--died
Resting in one ounce, an abundance of shame
With an infinity of joy
Exiled, by the ones, who give all, names
My breath starves for only more
The façade, the veil, the austerity dims with Aquarianlore 
She falls to her knees, why for?
Celandine she will be
Celandine is she

[Bead]
The lair within, free from their causalities of their sins
Shadowy primroses begin to grow, the season will never end
In there I dream to be like you, violet blue, White Flower of Lisieux,
La Fleur Blanche du Lisieux,
So Celandine are you
Celandine are you

[Draconian]
Draconian--Reach for the shadows within
Draconian--Break from The Fallen's Sin
Draconian--Their Empirical lies, only die
Draconian--Reach The Shadows Within


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Aeonia part 1

AEONIA-
   AEONI-
      AEON-

Vestal purity, all men succumb- the Virgin whose eyes stare silver beams- crystallizing his very soul. He,  and all who gaze upon she.

   Aeonia writhes behind fallen lids, unable to awake. Betrayal of her psyche-. Silk whispers upon her sweat soaked skin. 1000 nights have come and gone as she still writhes,  unable to awaken.

   Her **** swallows the evil the world has delighted in - all betrayal, lies and sin.

Dripping from between her great legs are left the dregs of green heat,
jealous heat that slides down and puddles on the floor.

   The vacuousness of her ****  has left no good...
fear, hatred and rage are ****ed inside of her... pounded into her birthing, ever birthing animosities.

   Sludgy sperm of bastards evil- threaten to fertilize her eggs. Gray fetuses passing through her pose the question- "Why?"

   She dares not answer, for to open her mouth would invite flies to lay their maggot eggs upon her very tongue...
Still she cannot- dare not open her eyes...not yet.

   Screams! tortured hyena throes of Thorazine echo in her mind.
   Do Not Open Your Eyes!
   Aeonia- and her aeons!
   Ever lay bare and never to see, never to move.
   Aeonia! Why have the gods punished you? Fair one of the crystalline silver eyes?
    
   Time immemorial, leperous tongue dies piece by piece, inch by inch until nay but a smarted stub exists.
Who hears you anyways? No one to hear your cries whore!
   Whore of all women, shall we call you Eve?
   Cocks of man and gods and kings all rape your syphallic cave-
one by one.
   Whore! You are blamed! Oh Aeonia, for misbegotten deeds by every wife, woman and queen!
   Succubi, WITCH! A potion of cat claws and rat maws you brewed, from Adam to the last man standing, you are to be blamed! For his infidelity, his disease, his shame!
   
  


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Thought That I Needed

We were so young and we were so scared
We told each other that forever we’d care
Things were so simple no need to pretend
It was so easy we were the best of friends 
 
And then it happened 
Didn't see it coming 
I let you down when you needed me
I just got scared 
And in a moment of weakness 
I thought that I needed
I thought that I needed, to be free
Be free
 
You were much stronger, stronger than me
It’s been some time now that I’ve come to see
May take forever to again win your heart
I know it’s better when we’re not apart
 
And then it happened 
Didn't see it coming 
I let you down when you needed me 
I just got scared 
And in a moment of weakness  
I thought that I needed
Thought that I needed
To be free…
 
I pray there’s still hope
To let our love show
Got to make it right..
And make you love me…again
 
And then it happened
No longer saddened
You said you still wanted me 
Knew I was lost  
In a moment of weakness  
I thought that I needed
Yeah, I thought that's what I needed
But what I really needed
What I really needed
What I really needed
 
I could already see, in front of me
In front of me


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Where I Sit

I am not going to think about it ,
Can't do much from where I sit.
    Wasn't me that couldn't agree,
We know who it's so easy to see.
    Won't say much to help you out,
It was your decision that's no doubt.
     You've done no wrong I can hear you say,
Always the same with you every single day.
      Telling me I am wrong and just no good,
I should have left you back when I could.
      Now I am stuck  so in love wit you,
And all you want is something new.
      The evil and wickedness that you  soe
Has touched just about everybody you kow.
      Living the lie and playing the deceit,
Preying on the kind and gentle those who are weak.
       The day will come when you will pay ,
For all those you hurt along your way.
        It's not always good to come out on top ,
Especially when you see it's only you that you've got.
        Live out your days alone , sick and afraid .
You just wouldn't listen to anything I'd say.
        I am sorry my dear but this you did on your own,
It's your turn to suffer and you can never come home.
        I'm not going to think about it,
Wouldn't do any good from where I sit.
TAC


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Lydia's DaddY

...eyes puffy                       
      caked up with cry

Daddy ain't comin' home
       but 
         she don't know why...
 
grown folk sadness
         ripping inside her

       All she's known about lovin's 
               in the coffin beside her


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A Turning Point

 Within seconds, life and death collide
Within a blink of an eye, your last moments
To hope, to trust, and to surety you are tide
Your heart falls to its knees, and begins to pray to a God it so desperately needs
You begin to lose ground….
Your very last breath …as you exhale and inhale is soo profound
For it marks your very being
All your sense are directed inward
With sudden fear your heart is well cornered 
And a shrieking silence begins to sound, like thunderous cries
Your mind begins to play tricks, to you, it tells false wishing lies
Do not give up, to move head on…it whispers! it lies!
With that last breath. As you exhale and inhale you still exist 
What was once real
 When life was once clear
All of that banishes
Even the hoping! The longing! For a nobler tomorrow vanishes
Leaving all your nerves fried
Leaving your soul dried
Your very gist slowly but surely have died
Numbness begins to creep in
Like a devil when he whispers a sin
Like a drum roll leading to a scene’s climax
Like when your heart drops to your feet
 When all stops…silence engulfs, 
Shhhh!!!
Can you hear it?
The wait begins to take a heavy toll on your nerves,
for the moment that you have for soo long anticipated
The very instance…
The moment when life and death collide
The very last moment,
When to hope, to  trust and to surety your soul is tied
It all of a sudden unfolds, leaving that body of yours dead and cold
A chapter finally ends
A heart is finally set at rest 
I say my goodbyes
And wish only to see you in the afterlife
 


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Invisible Monsters

The shadows in my dream
Burning through the leaves
Shadows so disturbed
They break me from the good that I have shared

Scraping through the day
The darkness likes to play
Livelihood now gone
Leaving every place where I belonged

Tear me inside out
The shadow starts to shout
Betraying all I need
I pray for strength to lift me off my knees

Darkness in the air
Enveloping my care
Replacing all I say
With quiet paintings whispering this pain

Underneath these screams
My shadow and my dream
Both would claim my soul
But either way the world would eat me whole


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I Wasn't There to Fall In love

I wasn't expecting for anything...
Then i saw you, and you change everything...
I wasn't there to capture your eyes...
I wasn't there to fall in love...
And yet, you took my breath away...
But your heart is taken by someone else...
And you came after me...
You played with our hearts...
And broke both of our hearts...

I wasn't there to fall in love...
And yet, you took my breath away...
You took my heart away...
You took my soul away...
And left me with nothing...
you left me with huge question mark over my head...
Asking myself why!...

I wasn't there to fall in love...
Yet, you broke my heart...
You broke me while I'm still mending myself...
Still healing my heart...
It takes forever to fix it...
But a second to fall for someone like you...
And now you barely look at me...

I wasn't there to fall in love...
And i wasn't looking for one...
But my heart chose you...
And it can't seem to let you go...
I try to look strong and pretend to get over you...
But deep inside, its tearing me apart...
Yes I'm weak more than you ever know...
And I'm not gonna show it to you...
At least not in front of you...

I wasn't there to fall in love...
And yet, I fell for you..


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Yester

Yester year grievous
brought events mischevious,
fulfilling fate malicious:
my worst fears,
my nightmares vicious;
I was oblivious
to how cruel life can be.

I suffered
soul turned cold,
heart in flames,
my existence- all in vain.

I withstood
all that came
and still waited:
come what may.

My heart burned,
my soul froze
my ego died.

I awoke
coming to life:
damaged,
yet emotionally indestructible.

No pain is painful nowadays,
no trouble would bother me,
no emotion may hurt;

The sacrifice was cruel,
yet it became fuel
for my new life.


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Land Of Snows

I’m going up to the highest peak
Up to the roof of the world
To sit at Red Mountains steep
Kneel down and pray for my girl
 
 
 
This beautiful place of treasures
With religious murals upon the walls
The architecture uniquely clever
Like the figure of my senorita doll
And I cry
 
 
 
Oh’ Isabella do you hear me
Praying in the land of snows
Oh’ Cara bella can you see me
Come baby please take me home
 
 
 
It's awesome this palace of potala
The scenery so colourful and clear
As bright as my baby Isabella
White wings and rosary tears
 
 
Highest ancient palace in the world
Thousands of years old
Tibetan monastery
Frequent avalanches
Upon Mount Everest
And I cry
 
 
 
Oh’ Isabella do you hear me
Praying in the land of snows
Oh’ Cara bella can you see me
Come baby please take me home
 
 
There's a lot of exquisite tankga
Hanging legends from ancient time
Better do some chanting mantra
And see if these bells gonna chime

 
 
 
I can still hear the echo’s haunt her
Throughout the Himalaya's range
I can still see the merry blue waters
And a very vivid picture of my pain
And I sigh
 
 
 
Oh’ Isabella do you hear me
Praying in the land of snows
Oh’ Cara bella can you see me
She's come now to carry me home
 
 
 
 
© Copyright
K.C.Leake
6th November 2014
All Rights Reserved


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Memory

It is a wonder
How quickly 
you became
a memory
and how quickly
my heart resigned itself
And gave up hope
that you even
remember me.


Details | Ballad | |

Better Than Grace

how can we pretend that everything is okay
when the world is soon to turn to grey
I've took this life and its treasures in vane
when you'd easily trade with me any day

you're amazing better than grace
so amazing just can't turn the page
amazing can't find the strength
to gaze at your face and not look away
look what we've done, coming undone
slowly fading away, so amazing
better than grace

you say they gave you less than six months
never thought it could hurt this much
I'd give anything just to save you
oh what can i do, just say because

you're amazing better than grace
so amazing just can't turn the page
amazing can't find the strength
to gaze at your face and not look away
look what we've done, coming undone
slowly fading away, so amazing
better than grace

with every breath we take, just another test today
don't walk away before it's too late
we should all be ashamed of ourselves because

he's amazing better than grace
so amazing just can't turn the page
amazing can't find the strength
to gaze at your face and not look away
look what we've done, coming undone
slowly fading away, so amazing
better than grace


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Save Me From Desperation

It's been so long since I could Feel you, Hold You I'm wondering if it was Just an Illusion For love For me could Not be real Nobody could Love over The Borderline, not even I So if you ask you'll know why I silently began to cry I need you here, to hold me I'm so scared without You I just want to Sleep forever Never stray away far Save me From Desperation Never Say It wasn't meant to be I can't take this lie You Kill me With this So much I hurt so much inside these words burn as I cry This life is destroyed without you The joy that comes is the Joy of the Empty The despair I'm prone to maynever wilt I way You could have been there You could have saved me but no you left I was here to stay In the Dark When the razor called me back You could have been my light throughout the eternal black My Soul Has yearned for but where are you Please come back to me I desire just a one word of comfort just from you, only from you Tell me this is just a Lie Just a Hallucination from my Mind I'm suffering I'm Dying I Need you I'm begging just for one word please save me from Desperation I'm the Petal You're the Wind Without You I can never go Far You're not here I'm now stranded alone In the plagued island of my mind only if you were here only If you here You could have Saved Me From Desperation


Details | Ballad | |

Siren's Song

She’s alone under beach lights, she’s screaming at air
wishing someone would notice, could anyone hear,
feel the anguish, the loss, losing battle of one?
She’s at war with the world and she’s comming undone.
‘It’s all wrong,’ left her lips, ‘it’s alright,’ said the tides,
‘sometimes we all need a safe place to hide,
to wait inside shadows, return with new light
cause we change and we change till the patterns are right.’
‘But this pounding resounding inside of my head,
I fear is the only thing tangible left.
I can hear it and feel it consuming my head,
eats me up from the inside, lays nothing to rest.’
But the water just turned and it crashed upon rocks,
became angry, determined, climbed onto the dock,
said, ‘Listen to me, I am old and I am wise,
what reason have I to fill you with lies?
I’m a part of your body, a piece of your world,
have I not kept you living since you were a girl?’
But her feet kept on forward at a steady pace
“I’m sick and I'm tired, I'm leaving this place.
I can wait no longer for the turning of time.
I'm the only one left and I’ve been left behind.”
‘But they’re here! Someone’s coming! It won’t be long yet.”
but her mind was as certain as certain could get
and the rushing of water had drown out the sound
as the pounding inside became heavy and loud
and the water, though angry, then grew very still
whispered ‘There is nothing if nothing is fueling a will.
I cannot instill a desire to live, eventual peace is all I could give.’
So she sank and she sang all the air from her lungs,
she breathed in the waves awaited silence to come.
“As I have in you, you may now flow through me,”
and the tides changed again as they dragged her to sea.


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Nature Of History

In time, days, months to years

Is the failure of relationships
In January to July to December

And the shallow of rivers
In July, August to September

The destruction by earthquakes
In January, February to December

The reshuffle of accidents
In lakes, roads and in air

The manufacture of acids, guns, and robots
In laboratories, industries and employment areas

The color of rainbows
Blue, green, grey

The personality of people
Conceited, gloomy, temperamental

The training of soldiers, students, and also religions
In academy, schools and institutes

The birth of children
Over years and years all over the world

The truth of lies
In homes, schools up to work places


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All Along the Watchtower Re-Visited for 9-11

"There must be some kinda way to find out here"
Said the seeker to the stealer
"There's too much confusion
I'm struggling to be the reveal"

"Conglomerate men, they drink my wine
Politicians dig my earth
None will level on the line
Because none of them are worth it" hey

"There is reason to get excited"
The seeker, he kindly spoke
"There are many here among us
Who feel our governments a joke"

"Now you and I, we've lived through this
And this is not our fate
So let us not talk falsely now
The hour is getting late", hey

Hey

All along the watchtower
Liars kept the view
While all the women came and went
Barefoot servants too

Outside in the cold distance
The C.I.A. did growl
Two riders were approaching
And the wind began to howl, hey

All along the watchtower
All along the watchtower

All along the watchtower on that tragic September day
We need some investigation, for someones has to pay
Now you and I, we've lived through this, and this is not our fate
So let us not talk falsely now, before this generations to late

We will always remember, and remember who we lost that day
We need some investigation, for someone has to pay
All along the watchtower, a nation in mournful cries
We are not so blind, it's amazing what you can see when you close your eyes

All along the watchtower
All along the watchtower




James, we lost you in Kensington, England. The Star Spangled Banner will
live long in your past. I can't say the same for some of your American so
called country people. Thank you for allowing me to gracefully use . . . .
'All Along the Watchtower' it's blatantly obvious someone was not.

To all the lost in the 9/11 tragedy, my thoughts will always be with you.


 All Along The Watchtower by Jimi Hendrix, with some lyrics changed 




Details | Rhyme | |

Strings

If I hold on to strings,
That tend to slip away,
Does that mean I love things,
That I know will never stay?
If I hang on to a love, 
that just holds me down,
Does that mean that my wings,
Won’t get me off the ground?
If I hold on to lies,
That I only half believe,
When I look in your eyes,
Will you look back at me?


Details | I do not know? | |

Until We Bleed

I'm naked
I'm numb
I'm stupid 
I'm staying

This isn't love. You use me. 
When you get home from the club or wherever you've been late at night,
You're clumsy with your hands.
Clothing seems too hard to get off.

And if Cupid's got a gun
Then he's shooting

But I can't leave. 
No matter what happens, it's too painful to go.

Lights black
Heads bang
You're my drug
We live it

We're too uncomfortable with the lights on.
I don't want to see your face-
Slurred, clueless.
Angry.
You don't want to see mine-
Helpless, confused.
Depressed.

You're drunk
You need it
Real love,
I'll give it

Everything is hazy to you.
I bet you can't feel.
But I'll love you anyways.
I always have.

So we're bound to linger on
We drink the fatal drop
And love until we bleed
Then fall apart in parts

This has gone on forever, to me.
I'll try to be like you,
To see what it feels like.
I drink the last bottle of vodka
And hold onto you.

You've wasted your times
On my heart, you've burned
And if bridges gotta fall
Then you'll fall, too

Maybe this is the part of life
That people told me about
It doesn't mean anything
It hurts you.
You grow so attached that when one piece collapses
You do too.

Doors slam
Lights black
You're gone
Come back

You leave when the ordeal is over
Because you couldn't really care less when you're sober
You don't have a reason anymore

Stay gone
Stay clean
I need you
To need me

I want you to be happy
To be the way you were before.
But I think without you,
Even though I only see you late at night,
I would be destroyed.

So we're bound to linger on
We drink the fatal drop
Then love until we bleed
Then fall apart in parts

I'm getting up to leave
The keys are for you

Now we're bound to linger on
We drink the fatal drop
Then love until we bleed
Then fall apart in parts

But I'll come back soon
I'll come back


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A Period In Love, that's it!,

Flying high in the sky to get to another place.
Oh I found only a few traveling with me in that plane
There was a beauty sitting the other side
As I saw her I assumed the journey to be a joy ride
I went nearer to her 
And sat beside her
Amazing lady, she turned out to be 
Much more than I have expected her to be 
As I spoke with her, gleefully
She responded very happily 
I started to touch her body too
I felt like my dream have come true
Now both we started loving each other
Never missed a single second's bother
As if we were lovers of the past
As if we met after a long gap
End of the journey the flight landed
She then parted ways I was stranded
She moved on and moved away
Nothing to me did she say?


Details | Cowboy | |

NIGHTMARES & WHISKEY

In a room stark & white 
A nightmare he will ride tonight 
Twisted sheets in a rider's grip 
as he settles in for that fateful trip 
silently he screams & shouts 
This time there'll be no turn out 
The final clash of beast & man 
In the mind's arena plays out again 
Once was a time he was among the best 
Until that Brahma stepped on his chest 
Now he's locked in a ride he can't quit 
as his wife & his family at his bedside sit 
How he longs to be up & out of this bed 
Away from the demons in his head 
But you can't drown a nightmare in morphine 
And every night he rigs up again 

In a room stark & white 
She'll replay the ride tonight 
"Just one more ride & I'm done 
I've got to help raise our son" 
He'd said as he climbed in the chute 
and straddled that Brahma brute 
With a nod & a prayer, he marked out 
His last would be his best, no doubt 
Then, with a sudden twist & a flash of horn 
The cowboy from his seat was torn 
She watched him fall & struggle to rise 
Numb to the crowd's horrified cries 
Now she sits here each night without rest 
Cradling their baby boy close to her chest 
How she longs to have him hold her near 
Later, she reaches for the bottle to chase the fear 
But you can't drown a nightmare in whiskey 
And every night she rigs up again 

Under the arena's bright lights 
He'll dance with a nightmare tonight 
Wearing a greasepaint smile to hide the pain 
He plays out that fateful ride again 
One step out of rhythm & rhyme 
He'd lost the race against Brahma & time 
Word's haunt him still of a Cowboy's last request 
After that Brahma had stomped on his chest "Tell Katie I love her & I'm sorry for this" 
"If I'd listened to her, I'd not be in this mess" 
"You & the boys take care of her & my son" 
"I hear the chopper landing, guess this ride is done" 
How he wishes he could run that race once more 
The memory pushes him hard, it won't be ignored 
But you can't mask a nightmare with greasepaint 
And every night he rigs up again 

A wild Bullrider, loved one or clown 
no matter the poison the memory won't drown 
Nightmares, whiskey, greasepaint or morphine 
Can't kill the demons that ride through your dreams


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The Legend Lives

He was an enigma, a true one.
His followers see him as religious.
Few people say he was a philosopher.
Some say he was a prophet.
Many prefer to call him a soothsayer.
Yet, others call him a political analyst.

He was all these and many more.
He was not only a musician,
but one with a difference.
Stating his opinions in music form.
Proffering solutions with his songs.
Reaching out to everyone with his lyrics.

He was and still is a role model.
One of only a kind.
If only we had more of him.
If only they had listened to him.
Things would have been different.
But they didn't and things remained.

Fela for many is still what he was.
Eba mi eda is gone but he still lives,
very much in the lives of his admirers.



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Cellar Door Escape The Fate

We walk through the doorway, heard you calling from the hall
To find you in the bedroom not breathing at all
I drag your body to the cellar where we lay, 
the wax it melts away, 
I kiss your face...
Now we are starting to love you more,
your body's on the canvas, 
That I painted on the floor
Now you wait,
like the drug, 
like the change in the pain it goes on for so long
And oh,
now it hurts in the worst way, 
now that you're gone, 
its so wrong,
its so wrong....
If I could take you somewhere,
I'd take you to my darkest place, 
scatter you in art forms, admire the whore,
beauty in different ways your hands on picture frames, 
your eyes in the glass wear your face as a mask
Now they are starting to love you more, 
a gallery of your beauty no charge at the door
As you wait, 
like the drug, 
like the change in the pain it goes on for so long
And oh, 
now it hurts in the worst way, 
now that your gone, 
it's so wrong, 
it's so wrong....
And down below your veins run dry your vacant eyes, 
I lost control your face is pale, 
your body's cold
And down below your veins run dry your vacant eyes, 
I lost control your face is pale, 
your body's cold
(face is pale your body's cold )
Wait, like the drug, 
like the change in the pain it goes on for so long
And oh, now it hurts in the worst way, 
now that your gone, 
it's so wrong, 
it's so wrong...



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Broken Orbit

Never enough to give me life
Money, a future and a wife
Even the beauty of the world
Isn’t enough to save myself

Drifting and lonely ‘til the end
Honest reflection of this hell
Always I wanted to deny
That I could not save my shattered mind

Never connected to this earth
Always in pain for what it’s worth
Even your twisted little smile
Was too far a distance to redial

Bring me a reason and a soul
My mimicry needs to be made whole
I just can not do this on my own
A reason evades this broken drone

Just give me compassion and the right
To get through this horror, let me fight
Instead you will burden me with loss
Because I just can not meet your costs

Always once more, and once again
The world I reject will do the same
I can not do this all alone
But this is all I’ve ever known


Details | Couplet | |

The Deadly Dart

Wherever I go through out my whole life,
I end up struggling with lots of strife.
Thinking that my life is a total waste,
Wanting it to be over in a haste.

I can feel the pain inside my own heart,
Like someone through at my a deadly dart.
The wound is easing deeper and deeper,
Will the pain ever stop getting bigger?

Feeling emo is never a good thing,
Cutting your arm makes a really bad sting.
Blood is dripping from my arms and my heart,
Failing to dodge the largest deadly dart.

Drowning in all the lies and self pity,
I live each day but always feel sh*tty.
I have lots of thoughts about suicide,
But then I think about those who have died.

Those who have died not just from suicide,
But also those who are really nice guys.
...
...
...
...This "poem" was actually suppose to be a couplet (on any thing you want) for my english 
class but i made this kind bcuz i was feeling emo that day...and also after i was done i read it 
over and it almost sound like a rap song which, i guess, is kinda funny and cool.........


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Tell Me Where You're At

This one's for you, me, and all the stupid allegations against me.
I love you and I'd jump off a skyscraper for you.
Can you tell me why you're crying?
Is it my fault? If so, I'm sorry- just look at me again.
Look at me with those beautiful oceanic eyes once again.
I feel like I'm falling out of a fifth story window catching your tears as they fall.
I'll never let you escape my mind because if I do I'll be like Chicken Little screaming "the 
sky is falling."
No one knows what I truly am or who I stare at when I talk to my friends.
It's a lie- these dumb allegations labeled on my forehead.
I'm not an A+ student nor a crazy pyrotechnician.
I never laid a hand on that dumb girl and I certainly never killed a man.
Will you let me explain?
All I did was get a taste of fame, but I never blew you off  at least not for another girl.
Please...tell me where you're at.


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Stolen Light

Blurry dreams that can’t replace
The darkest nightmares of your face
Another dying word untold
Replaced by fear in hateful mould

The lustful way I burned my skin
Upon the alter of your sins
The gazing truth that pierced my heart
The way you smiled now torn apart

And everything you ever were
The cold pretence of loving care
A black widow beneath the sheets
My poisoned soul makes you complete

Your icy touch has broken me
Draining my vitality
All that’s left in love and hate
Are deadly dreams I can’t sedate

As I crawl through all your games
My shattered mirror shares my pain
And as I look into my mind
I see your darkness in my eyes


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Stranger in danger

There she was sitting all alone in the corner of this bar, crying into her drink and looking off as if she was lost…I sat down beside her, to hear her broken heart. 

She said the man she thought truly loved her, nearly took her life…she said the man she once thought loved her became a stranger in her life. 

She was a stranger in danger, I just wanted to protector her for the rest of my life…I said don’t you cry your pretty eyes, because I will be your knight! 

She was a stranger in danger, someone she use to love nearly took her life…the man that use to have her, lost and now she is the best thing in my life! 

Stranger in danger…now she is my wife…I will forever love her and cherish her for all times! Dry your eyes…because this stranger will never hurt you, but will always love you…no more, no more, no more…stranger in danger. 

The hurt is over, now wipe the tears from your eyes. Cry no more, no more…your loved, no more stranger in danger. Rest safely in the safety of my strong yet tender arms, your loved once more, once more. Stranger no more…you’re the love of my life.


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My Heart Belongs To You

Another night surrounds me 
In this God forsaken place
Deafened by the silence
As tears roll down my face

All we were together
I never dreamed I’d go
From being someone who you loved
To who you used to know

Voices ring inside my head
Desperate to be heard
Scream out in the darkness, but
I never hear a word

Wasting yet another day
Living in the past
I know I have no future
While I hide behind this mask

Staring at the telephone
Still waiting for your call
I’d rather have you hurting me
Than not have you at all

I only pray that someday soon
You will finally see
That while my heart belongs to you 
Yours still belongs to me...


By Raina Hutchins



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borrowing time

days turn nights all over again
the time we wake up is a life begin again
pursuing dreams; fulfilling greed
torturing our mind
coz all we are in here just borrowing time

lonely nights and broken dreams inside
faded faith and memories divide
we cried; we bleed from underneath
we laugh and love from deep within
coz all we are in here just borrowing time

no matter how strong you are
it's always fragile inside
no matter how fast you'd run
you're always one step's behind

days turn nights all over again
the time we wake up is a life begin again
pursuing dreams; fulfilling greed
torturing our mind
coz all we are in here just borrowing time


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A little Blue Dress

An evening on the shore
Where two people were made one
But became something more
The night of fun had begun
But there was more instore
A little blue dress had won
her smile had left mine floored
A sweet laugh that tied my tounge
Eyes that let my mind soar but
Before I could take a breath,
 my heart had plunged
deep into a sea of uncertanty
I was Wrapped up in a dream, 
Relations seemed to be something I had yet to feel in a while
A distance in between not emotions but miles
Years of built up blockades eroding at a rapid rate
Resesitating my ability to trust another mate
Her words that seemed strong as oak had me hanging on by a rope
Lured me in with a sweet false hope
So I poured my heart and her response was to choke
Pokin at the fact that Im the one who has to cope
Little did she know it was more than my heart that just broke
Now Ive lost it, trying to proccess these lies are making me naceous
Next time be more cautious my mother said, 
Its becoming a grind to deal with these losses again
And even though I feel as If I fell apart and landed flat on my face
God showed me I hit the ball out of the park and now were winning the race


Details | I do not know? | |

My Hidden Pain

When you smile at me i laugh at you
When you laugh at me i smile back
I try and hide the pain and agony I feel
So i left this earth and went to Mars
To live closer to the lovely stars;
You might not think it's true

You say you know me 
You act like you know me
You even talk like you do,
But that's not true

You talk about me like you know me from deep inside
You have even tried to have that denied
But sooner or later i'm gonna die
And no one will care

To you and them it doesn't matter anymore
'Cause I'll be under the soiled floor
I'll be forgotten;
Never spoke of,
I'll be hurt and killed because of love.

No one will miss me 
I'll die with no one's sympathy
They won't even ask what happened to me

Livin' alone i think i hate myself
It's like i'm on the top of a never-ending bookshelf
Feelin' as if i'm gonna fall any second now
I'm gonna die and won't remember how

I'm sayin' to the world "good-bye"
Now i'm gonna ask you this:

Can ya hear my shouts and cries 
Can ya see the tears in my eyes 
Can ya hear, can ya see, can you feel me?

Baby, please...help me
Take the pain away
So i'll never deal with it for
Another day


Details | Lyric | |

Too Late For Us To See

We were friends but I just 
Could not see the truth
Wasn't looking for
Any kind of true love in my youth
Looking back at all those times
You were there for me
Having so much fun that 
I just couldn’t see
Your eyes looking back at me
Mmm it’s not that long, long ago, that I 

Was not the man you needed 
Me to be
My heart was yours forever
But I couldn’t see
Love’s a work of art 
That needs to be given free
I hope it’s not too late 
Too late for us to see

I see I want I need were my old ways
I understand why you left me standing there
I thought life was one big party each day
It hit so hard all I could do was stare.. at
Your eyes looking back at me
Mmm it’s not that long, long ago, that I

Was not the man you needed 
Me to be
My heart was yours forever
But I couldn’t see
Love’s a work of art 
That needs to be given free
I hope it’s not too late 
Too late for us to see

I miss your touch
To me it means so much
Please forgive me
Oooo we have to listen to our hearts
Lets make a brand, brand new start
We have to make it so

I’m now the man you need 
Me to be
My heart’s been yours forever
I know you can see
Our love’s a work of art 
Let’s set, set it free
I know it’s not too late 
Too late for us to see
I know it’s not too late 
Too late for us to see


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Death Meets Love

I got trapped in the dark 
the cancer creeps closer towards my heart 
I cant stand the pain that starts

they put a needle in me 
my heart stops beating 
I cant hear my thoughts or what im feeling

everything seems cluttered 
I stand here in a daze 
but your face starts to fade

I start to loose my feeling 
my hands are numb and my toes wont budge
my brain stops working 
little flakes peel off my heart

my heart turns gray 
I cant wait to fly away
in the light I shall go 

somewhere else but my home
where pain meets pleasure and death meets love


Details | Rhyme | |

Redemption Song

I spent half my life buzzed
pulling stings with my cuz
day dreamed of being kings but our status never budged

mainly because we was rarely sober
drinking E&J with soda 
trying to sneak a toaster in the Ponderosa (local club)

I been in bar brawl where chairs are thrust and bottles busted
if cut with an adrenaline rush it makes the blood gush

it was all fun and games
till I lost my cousin Dwayne
clouds form over my life and under my eyes it rained

intoxicated for months, planning retaliation
listened to the Lord for once,searching for salvation

I quick drinking cold turkey, cant stomach the taste now
I trusted the  Lord and its working, I cant believe my lifestyle

I went from stereotypical thug life risking my freedom
to client representation, suit and tie meetings

went from nightmarish hell to heavenly dreamer
stop straddling the fence and landed  where the grass was really greener


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I Guess You'll Never Know

It always starts out so lovely,
Talking all the time - 
“Can’t wait to see you,
I’m so glad you’re mine.”

But time fades the colors,
And makes the petals fall.
What once was so exciting - 
Now seems a little dull.

And I know you’ve had your drama
From people in the past.
They didn’t see what they had in you -
Well, I could’ve fixed that.

I wouldn’t hurt you like she did,
I wouldn’t push you around.
I wouldn’t take you for granted,
I guess you’ll never know now.

I just want you to know this:
My intentions were pure.
And if I’d let myself love you -
It would’ve been for who you were.

I’m learning every fairy tale 
Won’t have a happy end.
‘Cause now I’m sitting here crying,
Missing my friend.

And now we’re looking at a goodbye
Because you just cant seem to see -
Just what you could’ve had
If you’d just picked me.

I wouldn’t hurt you like she did,
I wouldn’t push you around.
I wouldn’t take you for granted,
I guess you’ll never know now.


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BLUE

Blue calm, blue relaxed
Sea-blue, clear blue skies
Feeling blue, blues music
His blue eyes.

When did blue turn purple?
Feel bruised, hurt, sore
Purple of a whore's dress
Purple echoes of a slammed door.

Why did purple turn black?
Leaden, stifling black fear
Can anyone hear me?
Am I still here?

Now I stand on the edge
And I hear them call-
In the distance, blue voices
Growing loud as I fall.


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The End Time

Falling hard,the blackened skies
Admonishing flashes fill appalling eyes
Missile heads seducing death
innocence screaming as it dies
Accerbating emotions flow
Massive vengence they will show
Turbulent and scurrious are
the casualties of war
Leaders scoff and bitch their pleas
and politicians run for greed
Mothers cry while children bleed
The Reapers grasp is clawing
Apostasy the peoples way
Anarchy will come this day
Blinding chaos and dismay
The prophecies were written
       ARMEGEDDON
The beast has taken in its slaves
and the others are its prey
Tribulation scorns all nations
Clenching teeth in horror
Disease,famine,war and Death
On bloodstained clouds they ride this way
Plagues devour living flesh
Worldwide terror haunts this day
Soon the pain becomes abject
Slaughter now the beast instead
Rising from the burning coals
are the apparitions taunting
       ARMEGEDDON


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The Death of You

Wrote this back in middle school, sitting at the piano. 
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Save me I’m drowning,
Six feet below
Helplessly falling,
 Into the darkness we know

All the life begins to drain,
Wrists are painted red with shame
Die from what I’m dreaming of,
From the death of my love

Standing by your stone, 
Whispers bleed through
Standing here alone,
Thinking of you

All the life begins to drain,
Wrists are painted red with shame
Die from what I’m dreaming of,
From the death of my love

Take my life and take my hand!
Please! Just try and understand
All that I am going through,
From the death of you…



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The Escapist's Plea

When you can longer run away from yourself
When you thought there were no more tears to cry
When you just want to die
Living like this consumed by the façade of a million lies
So many years, so many days
Waking up to people who no longer care you're there
You ask how can this be, one short organic vitality
Wasted with living; the slowest way to die

The shadows of shame weigh you down 
Until you drown, filled with only their hate
All you can turns grey, and all you ever loved fades
The agony is all you know, thank you pain
A self-sadist Is all you have become, j
ust how they showed you, craving so much more
Just to hide up all of the misery
But under cloth it still bleeds

This is the Escapist's Plea
For the one who fall to their knees in misery
Trying to stay sane but fall under September's rain
Dying from the invisible disease, only you can see
Stigmatized by their sadistic need
Only if I could just fly away
...Fly Away


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Feeling My Pain

I’m feelen the pain 
and I’m hurten again
I’m somebody’s fool -here sitten on this bar stool
Tied to your chain

Bleeden like a hog
Getten drunk as a dog
I’m liven in a dream world- made up make believe world
Feeling my pain

Feeling my pain
Of loven you  again
Where I’m gona go now
How my gona stand now
while lying in  the pouren rain

Loves gone away
Pains come back to stay
I’m feelen the strain now
Hurten again now 
Feelen my pain

You’d said you’d be true
Not to make me a fool
But you slipped up again now- lied to me again now
Cause you’re the girl of my dreams

I can’t get away
You’re in my heart to stay
I’m liven in a dream world  - made up make believe world
Feeling my pain


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Burden of Hurt

The pain runs deep into
Affliction of the moon
In nightmares lead astray
That carry on into the day

And all I can pretend
That I am on the mend
When shame and hurt reveal
It’s only courage that can heal

The pain runs deeper still
An infection that could kill
And so I hold myself away
In loneliness I pray

And all my dreams are gone
As I spiral through the wrong
Where the only thing that’s true
Was the time I spent with you

My hurt claims every depth
It wants my every breath
My hurt leaves me unknown
It leaves me all alone

Yet the darkness of this place
Will still not ever turn my face
And though the pain will steal my mind
At least my soul can never die


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Last Laugh

I'll sit here in silence, light up my cigarette. With each burning drag I'll pretend to forget. 
   All the hurt and the pain that I'm feeling inside. And each shot I drink, brings a false sense of pride. 

   I'm a monster a bad ass, that no one's seen yet. I've lived a good life and I have no regrets. 
   But in this broken state of mine, in the worlds eyes I'm a mess. So I try to tell myself, that my last laugh will be best. 

And you think. You have me figured out. And you believe. You're right without a doubt. 

But last time I checked, we've got nothing to prove. Everything we gain in life, we all stand to lose. 
So have your fun enjoy yourself, pointing out my flaws. Your hypocritical ways, are the root of my cause. 

I'm a monster a bad ass, that no one's seen yet. I've lived a good life but I have my regrets. 
And in this broken state of mine, in my friends eyes I'm a mess. But still I remind myself, my last laugh will be best. 

And you think. You have me figured out. And you believe. I'm only filled with doubt. 
And you think. I've simply given up. But I believe. I've simply lost my trust. I've simply lost my trust. I've simply lost my trust. 

So I'll sit here in silence, put out my cigarette. The taste and the smell will, linger on my breath. 
A few more shots down, and I still have no pride. You've woken up my demons, I have nothing to hide. 

I'm a monster a bad ass, that no one's seen yet. I've lived a good life but I'm filled with regret. And in this broken state of mine, in my own eyes I'm a mess.  So I try to lie to myself, my last laugh will be best. 

And you think. You have me figured out. And I'll admit. I'm filled with to much doubt. 
And you believe. I'm just caught in a rut. But I believe. I've simply given up. I've simply given up. I've simply given up!




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Lack of Life

Numbness, a quality I purge
Just to acquire the truest hurt
The weight of nothing to believe
Is nothing beside this failing need

This conflict summons up my past
Again I will fade, and simply laugh
This madness more a pointless game
The more I insist upon my pain

At least I feel my own end near
At least I exist for hatred’s fear
To wake up finding I’m unknown
Finding this child will die alone

Numbness again, I beg and pray
To awake in the future, to a better day
Where all I was could turn to light
Shine in the pain of the darkest night

But all I am is made of loss
My will is reborn to repay the cost
And back to numbness I will drift
Repent then awake, and again to this


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My Monument Of You

I'll show you what's beneath my heart
dust off the fragments, the shattered pieces of
your monument that once was here.
I can never really lie, just hiding the truth
from anyone, it has always been there
it has always been here... always.

I am never me, always out of words
shut down... miss the night of having you
is missing forever.
I will never be, probably not meant to be
the one beside you.
change my fate, change the plans of destiny.
I am never me, whenever around
shut me down... miss the night of having you
I missed forever.

I'll show you what's written in these pages
your name's all over it, it's the only word
i know how to speak.
I'll let you in my art, you're the only thing
i know how to draw, for i feel, and it has 
always been since the very first day I saw you...
that my hands is an extension of yours
and so much more.

You never hear me, and never see
I scream to no one, your love is gone.
You'll never be and you'll never see
I cry to you, and you are gone.

I can't tell you, I can't be near you
my only place in this world, is beside you.
I am just hiding the truth from anyone.
But it has always been there... It has
always been here...
My monument of you.


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Day Owl

Cuz She’s just living for the weekends.
	Uhoh ohhhhhh
And then she’s waiting for spring break,
	Which you know will come and go.
And then she’s holding out till summer,
	Always arrives slow.
But summer freezes over, and on comes the snow.

Her schedule, it’s always filled,
And her calendar, no room for will.
	She only owns .285714 sections of her life.
Listen Jack, Now She’s such a dull boy
On weekdays when insomnia’s just a ploy.
	She’d rather sleep through .714285 sections of her life.

She’s a day owl, But never sleeps the night away.
Highest regard for life, Don’t let the pressures take that away.
She’s a day owl, But never sleeps the night away.
Em, spontaneity’s just as great a virtue, so don’t wait. Just come away.

And she’s agnostic, hates the thought of it:
Preachers with opinions to hand out.
	She thinks people ought to find some things on their own. 
And please Em, if there’s no afterlife, 
Speak briefly, can you like of your only life’s love?
	Oh, you’ll look to like if looking liking move
but it moves, and it moves. 

She’s a day owl, But never sleeps the night away.
Highest regard for life, Don’t let the pressures take that away.
She’s a day owl, But never sleeps the night away.
Em, spontaneity’s just as great a virtue, so don’t wait. Just come away.

Oh you stay awake when you should be asleep
Which brings you closer to the Big Sleep.
	That’s the only deadline that you really need to meet.
She puts her life out on hold
For homework and acts a bit too old.
	"Deadlines are things she’d pass though on the way to finishing."
Thankyou Peter Gabriel


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The Chase

It's the beginning
So far away
Yet tethered
Until forever has reached its end

A circle
Never ending
Ever lasting
Until you reach me at last

I can feel you
I can hear you
But I can't change my course

Gripping and ripping
The breath from my chest
Ragged and racing
Destined for facing
Eternal rest

The path has narrowed
The walls screaming in my ears
Forever harrowed
Blood running like tears

I can smell you
I can see you
But I can't change my course

It's the end
You're upon me
It's the end
There's nothing left
It's the end
There's no way out

You have sought me
You have caught me 
It's the end of my course


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Little Moccasin { Edited }

<                                    on the trail 
                                      he took a wife
                                      comanche made 
                                      and full of life
                                      two breeds 
                                      different nations
                                      outlasted  
                                      family  love's
                                      segregation

                                      little moccasin and blue moon
                                      for their love did not come unglued
                                      little moccasin and blue moon
                                      for their love was so brand new

                                      high above  canyon ridge
                                      little moccasin calls her name
                                      without his blue moon
                                      love would never be the same
                                      so he dances the ring of fire
                                      mounts his horse
                                      and returns
                                      for his ones desire

                                      little moccasin and blue moon
                                      for their love did not come unglued
                                      little moccasin and blue moon
                                      for their love was so brand new

                                      little moccasin's leap of faith
                                      blue moon stride for stride
                                      echoes linger canyons ridge
                                      we'll  always's be husband and bride
                                      Navajo and Comanche
                                      they said it couldn't be done
                                      under one God and one indian nation
                                      hunting grounds now they can finally begun

                                      little moccasin and blue moon
                                      for their love did not come unglued
                                      little moccasin and blue moon
                                      for their love was so brand new




This Poem Was Based 
On The Song
Running Bear  
Debs Contest G.L. All
                                      


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With Smoker's Hands

Through years of chuckles and vivid imagery,
They sit across from each other;
Inventing moment to moment another day,
Past transparent overlays.
Smoke encircles 
	new-found wrinkles,
In ends so filled with friendship.
Then one day the smoke stopped.
No more to circle overhead
Where French Fries and flea markets
Meant more than friends.
An empty room is filled more now
With sorrow than they could with laughs.
And through a vacant stare
A veteran of his craft
Demolishes his white canvas ~
		with smoker’s hands.


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Future State

Incursion,moribundant
Iniquity,a malediction
Too late for reflection
No use for apologies
The harm has been done
Animus emotions
No war is ever won
Abjective adversity
Asperity of atrophy
Aberration then infamy
A molevolent society
A dictators sick dream
Future state,our reality!!!


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If I Could

If I could write a song and keep you from leaving
I'd never write another line
If I could, I'd haunt your peaceful dreams
Forever taunt your fragile mind

Go on, leave me
I'll be just fine
Go on, leave me
There's always another Valentine

This bed that you once called home-
Its emptiness feels so divine
This heart that you once filled whole
Its emptiness, is mine

If I could see through your bleating 
I'd have never called you mine
If I could bring you all you're "needing"
The universe would be thine

Go on, leave me
I'll be just fine
Go on, leave me
There's always another Valentine

Loving thoughts, once dwelt on you
Have slowly morphed with time
Wrought with disdain, I can say:
I'm thankful I drew the line

If I could be all you wanted
I would be God
If I could be all you wanted
Who I am would be robbed

Go on, leave me
I'll be just fine
Go on, leave me
There's always another Valentine

Go on, leave me
I'll be just fine
Go on, leave me
I'll give praise that you aren't mine


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on the eve of war

i seen men
in doubt of brothers
women who crowd
their own mothers

don't cry your tears
they'll only fade
along with tomorrow
Live, I want to forever
this evenings war

I'm in love 
with your sin
Don't close my eyes
I've seen the end

I've seen men
who kept their brothers
I've seen women
who left their lovers 

don't cry your tears
i fear, they'll only fade
along with tomorrow
Live, I want to forever
this evenings war

"on the eve of war"


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Destined To Fail

I hate myself, I really truly do
Oh my friend! trust me it is true
For I'm the worst person alive
I no longer want to survive
No matter how hard I try
I always fall, I don't know why
Maybe I have disease and I'm sick
Or I'm just a screwed up prick
I really want someone to explain
Why is it that I feel so much pain?
Why can't I ever stand tall?
Continuously tripping, fall after fall
I'm limited to my painful prison
I struggle with my blurry vision
When and will I ever recover?
Or to this misery, there is no other?
No matter how many times I fly
I always fall on my back and die
Dying inside day after day
Fate, something I can't dismay
I wonder, how will I ever prevail
When I'm eternally destined to fail


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My Last Good Try (censored ska lyrics)

You said it was the last time
but I guess it wasn't the right time
and all I can do, say yes all that i do
is sit here and remember how i dreamed of you

but this won't be my last try
I'm just waiting until I die
but 'til then I'll remember, yes I can remember
what it was that you said that last December

Now will it be the same
or will it change
I don't think it will ever be the same
but I know we'll have to change

Change Change Change
take the time to rearrange
all the lives that we passed by
And don't sell out, don't give in
keep on fighting those same old fights again
And don't cry, no don't cry
when I don't give in and give it one more try

(Trombone and Sax breakdown)
 
You said it was the first time
the very first time
that you saw me and fell in love with me
but you lied, yes you (muck)ing lied
and that's when my heart laid down to die


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The Soul I Sold ---:2

If I seem down
forgive me

frowns I carry around
live in me

you may say,
ya' see right through me

your words untrue,
renew me

the hurt I’ve learned
brews in me

if only you could
re-design me

take time rewind,
refine me

recreate the mold, without lies I’ve told;
give back the soul I sold.

®~JSLambert


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Always Away

He pushes me away

Every day

I can't stand

when he's not holding my hand

But he pushes me down

I cry with a frown

And as i run away

I can't stop to say

That i was in love

It must've been a mistake, i can't love

Not when he treats me this way

Oh he's pushing me away

And yet he took my breath away

When I saw him walk in today

Through my stomach was tight

I almost could pretend I was alright

But he took off without saying a word

As I stood there feeling so awkward, so absurd

He texts me his apology

Nice to know just what he thinks of me

That he can tell his phone much later

But it just makes the pain much greater

Cause though I've not shed a single tear

I feel like I've cried for many a year

He's supposed to be

My fantasy

The one to hold 

when life gets old

Someone I can cry to, and let him cry to me

But nothing in my life plays out quite happily


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The Road Of Casualty

I fall into unknown reasons
I lay wanting,needing
Convolution,soul sucked dry
Aphasia,alone within
A battered shell,augmental decay
Life slowly passes away
Debilitated to my dismay
An accidental tragedy has
lost the lives of many
Contumaciosly
The musk from last nights indulgence
still lingers and it accuses me
I have debased the family tree
Through my lost cognizance
The pain others must breath
Censoring all relations
A dissaproval of my being
The air as thick as sulpher
A cyanosis of the soul
I'm left alive to face it all
Retribution paid in full!!!


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Jane

As she went walking down the lane
The flowers seemed to bloom and rise
And as she walked she murmured Jane
The little sister gone for days


The trees grew tall the grass grew thick
But none of Jane did they find quick
She’s lost forever some did cry
She’s gone to heaven to the sky


I soon will find her she replied
And every day she looked and cried
Though time went by with out a trace
She did not find the little face


The trees grew tall the grass grew thick
But none of Jane did they find quick
She’s lost forever some did cry
She’s gone to heaven to the sky


Week then month then year went by
She walked the lane ever high
Rain nor snow nor sleet did stop
The now grown women from her walk


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Amazing Grace Wash Over Me

A prayer for those who are in dispair along the Gulf Coast due to the BP Deepwater Horizon 
oil rig explosion. A prayer for those who waited and their loved ones did not return, Amazing 
Grace Wash Over Thee.



Amazing grace wash over me.
My tears are a river to the sea.
Lord above, we know you know,
the oil that is washing upon our coast.
Amazing grace wash over me,
and lift my soul up to Thee.
Lord above, hear my prayer,
for those who are in dispair.
Amazing grace wash over me.
I lift my hands to God you see.
My prayer for those who were hurt,
and those who will never return to earth.
Amazing grace wash over thee,
families were left in disbelief.
Empty hands, their loved ones gone,
Lord Jesus, guide them safely Home.
Amazing grace wash over me, 
the oil is filling up the sea, 
from Louisiana to Mississippi.
Animals are dying,
and people are crying.
Amazing grace wash over me.





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The Rose

You confessed your love for me through a single white rose I smiled genuinely, yet then you turned to hurt me, leaving me behind...lost and alone The rose was nothing but poison to my heart, for 'twas you the evildoer, pressing my finger into its very thorn As the blood inside of me ran cold, deep red drops from the cursed stem silently fell into the snow. I couldn't believe that your intentions were as such, I thought you once promised that you would forever love me... Why risk betraying all of my trust? I cannot see the angel I once glimpsed in your beautiful face... It is now replaced by a mysterious raven, forever intending to be my disgrace My like will remember that winter of December, when you gave me that simple white rose now stained red will fade to black My tears fall and the love I will soon take back as I return the very rose into your cold hand, pale and scarred Your body frozen, so cold and numb as you lie abandoned, mutilating my heart, throwing it in the blood-trickled snow I think of the end of life, holding but one white rose No pain shall I feel, so perfect, so innocent, no horror in my mind, no nightmares now It is time to whisper the final goodbye I have been given the strength, I can now peacefully bid thee farewell Do not forget me I look down at the soft white petals and embrace the only token I have left of you, my little rose so beautiful and pure Forever stained by the blood of my soul is this single white rose The rose of my one true love...


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In Your Love

Every time you kiss my lips 
I am drowning, I'm drowning
Like a never ending abyss
I am drowning, I'm drowning
Every time you whisper I miss you
I am drowning, I'm drowning
In your love,  in your love.

Life doesn't seem dangerous
When I'm drowning, yeah I'm drowning
Don't take it so serious
Cause I'm drowning, yeah I'm drowning
I don't care what they think of us
Cause I'm drowning, yeah I'm drowning
In your love, in your love

~ Leonard Napierskie


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EYE Don't See -Part 2-

My eyes
Refuse to see tragedy
My eyes
Marinate in dread…unable to embrace ecstasy 

And I’m left in my solitude…
My eye’s sagging…from endless mourning  
And I’m close to my demise… 
Only to find myself disappear…
When will peace draw near?

You don’t see 
What damage you’ve done
Just let me be
Leave me alone…hand me a gun

I yearn for unspoiled glory
To make me feel perfect once more
I yearn for flawless serenity
To make me feel no regret…don’t ignore
My calls…don’t hang up on me

You don’t see 
What damage you’ve done
Just hear my plea
Listen to my excruciating cries…
Listen to the truth, not the malicious lies  
Our journey has just begun   

And I’m left in my solitude…
Do you hear me weeping?
And I’m close to my demise…
Only to find myself disappear…
When will peace draw near?

Eye can’t handle the stress
Let me release my horrendous distress
Eye can see you making that same mistake
At least MY life isn’t at stake

And I’m left in my solitude…
My eye’s weeping…do You feel my lament
And I’m close to my demise…
Only to find myself disappear…Stepped on like cement
I’m aching with discontent… I abhor this torment    
When will peace scrub off my fear?

I can’t believe my eyes
Your guiltiness flows into me…
I can’t believe I fell for your lies
Your heartless action rape my mind…you don’t see
What my EYES see…

You’ll never see 
How much pressure you put me under
Unchain me from this chamber
And watch me flee…

When will you be set free?


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Therion

Slayer of dreams and reality Bow down to his Therion Majesty Vowed to Be beyond Spiritual Supremacy, But too Frail, but too Weak, Were these words of The Transgressor of Our Argentine Destiny Reigned with Blood And with Blood You shall Fall Never denounce the ways of The Wicked For the Wicked you Have Become I'm Not your gracious Jesus Christ, Saving you from the blood-sodden Ice, But you Are The Beast Therion Majesty Can't control your own destiny The one who used to fight monsters, Became a Monster Himself Look beyond the Book, See the Truth lying there, Gagged and Hooked, Silence screaming to Be Free The Draconian Revelation Will Save thee The same Cold Pressure has erupt inside The Beast dwells in your Pride Dipped in Argentine and Insanity, Captivated by the touch Never looking beyond the Sin, For the Scene remains Empty I'm Not your gracious Jesus Christ, Saving you from the blood-sodden Ice, But you Are The Beast Therion Majesty Can't control your own destiny The one who used to fight monsters, Became a Monster Himself In your mind When the world Falls, Parodiso will open her halls But not for you, Inferno Cries out for you Forever Malaoda will Be your destiny I'm Not your gracious Jesus Christ, Saving you from the blood-sodden Ice, But you Are The Beast Therion Majesty Can't control your own destiny The one who used to fight monsters, Became a Monster Himself


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Somewhere Past your Focus

Speckled black 
Against a shiny redness;
Once cleaved to old and tattered,
Inspiring me to cleave it to -
A new found insignificance.

An extension of what really matters
Hidden somewhere past your focus;
Underneath the wood and glue,
Such a little thing as this -
A faint memory of you.


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Up in Smoke

Grey slender  almost blue as embers
Pouncing in the greener yard~
Faithful   He was oh so graceful
Past a concrete curb to wander
	Into streaming metal garb ~ 
Where did he go,
Still no one knows
	But she believes she’s found him ~
A carbon-copy of a cat,
If you could just imagine that;
So sure that he is 
Smokey.


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My heart is dead

You didn't listen to my heart
When it was whispering to you.
When it was screaming out,
You were indifferent and cold
Just like you never cared,
Just like you couldn't love.

A special drama
Sparkling day and night,
Now we are gon' drowning
Because my heart is dead.


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Tribute to Zubby

.......ADIEU DEAR COUSIN ZUBBY.......
It Was With A Heavy Heart And Dazed Mind
That I Took The News Of The Road Mishap
That Took You To The Journey Of No Return.
I Tried To Cry For You That Day
But The Tears Refused To Come,
The Ducts Too Shocked To Respond.

You Left Us Not Of Your Own Desire To.
I Know You Fought Hard To Hold Unto Life,
Knowing You Still Have A Lot To Give.
You Left Us In Your Youthful Prime.
Your Dream, Unfulfilled Aspirations.

Why Do You Have To Leave Us This Soon?
Should We Ask GOD Why HE Took You Away?
Should We Blame Somebody For Your Demise?
I Guess Many Questions Yet No Answers.

The Day Things Only You Could Do Won't Be Done.
The Day We Won't Hear That Laughter Of Yours.
The Day We Would Seek You But Not Find You.

The Tears For You Will Surely Flow Someday.
The Tears For You Will Surely Flow That Day.

Good Night Dear Cousin Maxwell Azubuike Obiadinma.


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The Candle, the Clock and the Cold

Lost in this awakening
The waking of the end
In a vision of beginning
In the sight that I depend

And all the riddles save me
My suicidal self
The only truth inside this
In things I’ll make unheard

Like candles for the sleeper
Like dreams for the awake
I glide outside the window
In a place you will forsake

Forever up and counting
The time it takes to fall
To climb back into breathing
To know the pain in yours

Awake within this ending
The coldest place there is
Alone for every lesson
And lost with every kiss


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Death Cry

This is where they die
In the red painted house of fury
In the pauper's palace 
Where pandemonium is a delicacy

This is where they die
Swimming in the ochre fluid 
Fluid of their massacred brother
Just for the faith fought in bait

This is where we will die
For the faith we hold so dear
And for the faith we fought to keep


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Her Silent Soul

                                             It was the night of the night.
                                             A delightful evening mild
                                             in the stillness of death.
                                             Her silent soul,
                                             so gallantly nice.
                                             There wasn't a moon,
                                              not even glittering starlight.
                                             The trees whispered.
                                             The winds watered
                                             honey and free.
                                             A loving past at heart
                                             Peach sent memory,
                                             Her loving touch
                                              rising sweet.,
                                             near and far.
                                                    Her silent soul.


                                                            By
                                                    Jay Johnson


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On His Silence

Silent gratitude to the damp room i lay bent
Filtering my sobs with noise of the running faucet
Tears will forever be one with the waste water;
Till eternity shall it be hidden to the sight of my mother...


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Dark, cold World.

===== A little rhyme inspired by DaryIsue LockHart's rhymes =====

It is for the lost..  that I wanna find the way,
Out from this dark place, of pain and misery.
Back to ourselves.. how we were, when we were young,
Before evil played its hand, before the time we got stung.

I wanna be free..  but that'll have to wait!
I'm trapped by emotion, by feelings soo great.
And I'm not alone.. in this victims prison,
D.I.Y Labotomy, I'll make the first incision.

I don't want drugs, to ease my pain,
I found Nirvana.. but can't get back again!
Some say I'm insane!  This train of thought I'm on,
Goes through a portal to another dimension.

But it's a dark, cold world.. where I know no fear,
My heart it stops, my mind sharpens.. becomes clear,
When I look into your eyes.. I can see your soul,
I can reach into your heart.. but I might lose control!

Sometimes I can see.. just a little too much,
And round-about that time, I start to lose touch,
See.. I know why you hurt, but I could hurt them too!
I'd make them scream, long, sweet, songs of sorry.. just for you.

However.. I know something, that they don't know,
I've had a little glimpse, of the place, that they go,
Where they like to turn the tables.. and play little games,
Where sticks and stones hurt, but so will the names!

Till then.. keep strong!  Keep your mind awake,
You've walked through fire, I think you should take a break,
But you've seen the enemy, like me.. you wanna fight,
Thats why I walk alone, with no shadow, in the night.


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Alone

alone
i cant remember where Ive gone
where ive gone

I tried to forget
you tried to pretend
you loved me, alone, alone

alone
you left me fighting 
feeling the pain 
the shame

I tried to ignore
you ran out the door
one more mistake 
alone

and all at once
all the hurt all the pain
found me again
alone

I tried to forget
you tried to pretend
you loved me, alone, alone
I tried to ignore
you ran out the door
one more mistake 
alone



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Lamentation

Another song from the set made in middle school
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My life craves the soul And I’m all alone You stay—then off you go And I can’t hold on You will never know me For what I am [oh no] Can we forget? Can this just end? If we don’t believe How can we mend? Your face haunts my memory And I can’t move on Cuz here without you I feel…so numb Left out in the cold For you will never love me Was I too much [to mend]? But how can you see? How can you know [what I meant to you]? Could this be the end of the road Left to sleep alone? -Ooooooooh- Can we forget? Can this just end? If we don’t believe— Can I forget? Will my life end? If you don’t exist Why do I pretend?


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Alone in the Sky

A lonely star, up in the sky, that's all I see from the city tonight.
But then you came, and made it two, I couldn't believe I fell in love with you.
And when you left, I stood alone, a lonely star in the sky tonight.
I shine alone, I shine out bright, I am the truth in the sky tonight.
I need no help, I want no fight, I stand alone in the sky tonight.

It's been quite a week, this week it's been everything.
Up, down, turn around, take me off the ground.
I know who you are, but I am lost inside this part of you and me, who are we supposed to be.

La da da da, la da da di da da da da (x2)

Don't tell me you love me, Don't tell me you need me.
Don't tell me you miss me, it's fate babe, it's destiny.
Don't tell me I don't know why
It'll just make me cry (x3)
I can already see it all in your eyes.

La da da da, la da da di da da da da (x2)

I shine alone, I shine out bright, I am the truth in the sky tonight.
I need no help, I want no fight, I stand alone in the sky tonight.

La da da da, la da da di da da da da (x2)


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Today my heart aches

Today my heart aches
for my mum long gone
nineteen years have passed.
Tears fall silently,
my heart is broken,
not like a love gone wrong
but for that person
no one else can replace,
today my heart aches.


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On The Brink

On the brink of crying,
on the brink of dying,
what are you gonna do?On the brink of cryin‘,
On the brink of dyin‘,
You’ve gotta listen to your soul now, too.

Now think of this situation,
This is a poem, but also a conversation
If you don’t want to hurt those around you
You’ve gotta help yourself first then the other few

On the brink of cryin‘,
On the brink of dyin‘,
What are you gonna do?
On the brink of cryin‘,
On the brink of dyin‘,
If you don’t wanna hear the truth
Then you better not do something stupid, but instead new
On the brink of cryin‘,
On the brink of dyin‘,
What are you gonna do?
On the brink,
On the brink,
I’m on the brink of cryin’
‘Cause inside I’m
‘Cause inside I’m
‘Cause inside I’m dyin’
I’m on the,
I’m on the, I’m on the brink.


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In the Archives of My Mind

In the archives of my mind
Lie the thoughts that persevere
As brambles in the woods
Their briars bring a tear.

A cry for what has happened
What might have been but naught
For all the disappointments,
Mistakes, and "I forgot."

The pain comes rushing forth
Like a branding iron upon my skin
Burning with the memories
Of broken promises again.

So often have I heard
Of what I cannot do
That my small successes
Seem rare and very few.

There is no tomorrow
Only yesterdays and pain
Too much to be remembered 
And too little to be gained.


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Say Goodnight

Say goodnight my friend This loneliness is about to end One more for the road and then Goodnight, Goodnight I've given up on life Broken Glass, cuts like a knife Forever more I will adore Goodnight, Goodnight I dreamed of flying Angels Of Loves first epic glance And, now my love Has gone and put An end to our romance So say goodnight my Love I’ve got a date with the man above To apologize for my failure of Goodnight, Goodnight I dreamed flying Angels Of storybook romance Impassioned nights... Snowball fights And slow romantic dance So say Goodnight and pray It’s what you do, not what you say I hope you find your way and then Goodnight, Goodnight


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THE FAIR GIRL AND THE BLACK EGRET

In a river marsh, where pondweeds and cattails grew in warm clime,
the fair girl found a tall, black egret  
with whom she could have a chat; 
and was it the same one that her parents rescued from the wild?


Among bulrushes taller than she actually was,
the anxious girl told that bird one of her wishes:
to hop on his back and fly as the happiest butterfly,
and find her mom whom she remembered singing a lullaby.

" Take me to my mom!"  she begged the wading bird.
" Nobody ever takes me there to visit her" she exclaimed.
" She may be miles away from here...way past the blue ocean!" 
He replied with little confidence, lacking a sense of emotion.


The fair girl kept on begging, until the black egret finally nodded.
" Thank you, kind bird...now let's fly and depart from this marshland!"
So the two of them ventured into a cloudy sky expecting no rainfall...
not until they had gotten there safely and heard that sweet mother's call..  


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It is better to dare than hide

"Shall I hold back my hand
    from the rose,
        because of the thorn?"
But the carpet is red
    that bears the feet of them
        that have trodden down the grapes;
Laid before those
    who held not back from life
         because of death! ...
It is better to dare than hide!


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MY LIFE IS DRYING

How to survive without you?
How to stay alive without you?
It’s been years, the darker nights,
It’s been years, the longer days..!!

This heart is pleading,
Come back my life, it’s done!!
Tears entreating you back,
Bear my emotions, the scratch!!

Flash backs don’t leave my trail,
Animating prevalence down the lane,
What! Dream sets in around?
Vanished within a day round!!

The storms are going through heart,
Without you, neither I live nor die,
This heart is pleading,
Come back my life, it’s done!!

The shades of flower dried,
The story of life has shrunken,
The sounds which go through my ears,
Resembling your echoes of tears..!!

Why am I leaving without me?
Isn't this written on my fate?
It’s been years, the darker nights,
It’s been years, the longer days..!!


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Nathan's Song

*Nathan's Song

Nathan loved to be playin' baseball
Talk with his friends everytime they'd call
He would rather be doing for others---any day.
Nathan loved the lake in the Summer,
Skiing in winter--one slope or other.
He was full of life and had an easy goin' way.

Nathan loved to eat Mexican food,
Jelly beans, when he was in the mood.
He would rather wear his flip-flops than shoes--everyday.
Nathan loved dogs and playin' guitar,
All kinds of music--he was a star!
His heart was full of love and he showed it every way.

You were my joy...You were my joy...
You were my joy...You were my boy.

Nathan loved to laugh and be funny,
His impish grin was on the money:
He dressed up like a 'Sugar Daddy' at school that day.
Nathan loved his family and friends
Especially one girl---to the end...
And his death was full of life by what he gave away.

Though he's gone from our presence, he walks with Jesus hand in hand
And now, up in Heaven, Jesus says, "Well Done, Nathan...

You are my joy...You are my joy...
You are my joy...You are my boy."

by Deborah Burch

For: PD's contest of sorrows and make you cry poem

*Note: Nathan was a senior in high school 6 years ago, the son of my BFF. He was killed in a MVA; his girlfriend was driving, ran a stop sign and a tractor trailer truck hit them broadside on Nathan's side of the car. The other 3 in the car lived...as did the driver of the truck...he had just talked to his mom on the cell phone--which was never found...I wrote this as a song and sang it for them as my gift...It doesn't end there:
Nathan was an organ donor. Many lives have been saved because Nathan donated all he had left to give--the gift of life. This year his Mom will get to meet the recipients and they intern meet her...She, with the Red Cross, hold Blood Drives each year in Memory of Nathan: 'One Love Blood Drive'...This poem is dedicated to Nathan, and to the awareness that we can all save lives...
Donate blood...and be an organ donor...be someone's joy. love,deb


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A Thin Smile

I sat down to write a happy song
But the words won't come
And neither will the tears.


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It's Obvious

I was introduced into the vast illusions of life.
Some people call it love, others call it a knife.
Cutting your skin so you can bleed.
Each drop is a distraction from what you need.
You close your eyes and take the pain.
Then all your worries are temporarily in vain. 
No progress, no digress
Just that moment to believe that more is less.
Oh and you grieve from your hopelessness
You accept the fact that you have lost your happiness
You cry, You scream! Help is what you seek
No one hears though, we just ignore and call you a freak
All this segregation
All this quote on quote integration
The only thing it does is make the big seem bigger 
And the small seem smaller.
Belief is the only thing you keep
You grasp it so tightly and put it under your feet
Each step is a different view
You’re looking around for something new
Eyes stay open, Heart is listening
Your intentions are bright and glistening.
You want to change from mad
And achieve the beautiful emotion of simple glad  
Battle this depression, get away from this mess and
Find a whole new state of mind open for progression.
Your voice sounds desperate.
Your scars show desperate. 
You are desperate, and you’ve made a mess of it.
But it’s obvious to me,
That you can finally see
How to overcome the desperation
And use your failures as inspiration.
Yes, it’s obvious to me.


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lets just walk away.....for now, that is... the war is still on buddy.

ok.... let me cool down. lets use some logic
lets not make this truly manic
i dont want to fight
no, not tonight. 
lets save it for next week
if a war is what you seek
you know me too well, too much
you know that i have such
a fiery persona
that i burn like the Corona*
that no matter what, 
i can take what you say and make that
sound like your one of those jerks
yea, thats one of my many perks
that you tried to slam
and you say your a man
you are the little boy
that lost his best toy
and does not even know it
that i wont take your sht
and that your new girl wont either
maybe i should tell her what you said to me, she wont like you either
i could find her on facebook. i saw her page
she looks kinda young, you sure she's your age?
i dont know, im just so tired of all your sht
i really cant stand it
i cant stand you 
i thought this would never occure, but what should i do?
should i just take your sht and say it makes you a jerk all the more
i was fine until you called me a whore
then i got pissed
that you would say that to the girl you kissed
that you loved and lied to
i didnt do that to you
i said i did, to make you hurt like i do
but i did not, i loved you through n' through. 
you make a fool of me
so now what and see
what i will do  to you
the next time i see you
i will truly slam you, face to face
in this place
with in this space
im not ms.Friendly, i can make you cry
and no, i did not feed you a lie
but i wont get into that
you selfish little arse of a slimey rat
no, i wont
my respect for myself told me "dont, 
he does not deserve your time, leave it be"
so that is what i will do, until you slam me
then the storm will come
and you wont know, unlike some
so prepare yourself
cause i will make you try to disembowl yourself and put your spine on a shelf
oh wait, you dont even have one, never mind. 
i will just leave you behind
im a new woman now
so right now
i will be the bigger person and leave


(Corona is latin for "the sun")
hope this is the poem you recieve
on your deaht bed, tight before you die, you will know what you did
who your hurt and what you said.
Good Bye Ryan Dimaio. 
Good bye.


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Passion in D-Major

Passion in D-Major


Feeling, the sensuous brush-
strokes on a canvas,

swirling,

to a symphonic crescendo,

of our shared heartbeats,

fading between the notes,

feeling your soft body entwined 
with mine,

your form bathed in my infinite 
kisses,

our orchestral desire rising,

conducting a shared fusing of 
passion,

... the music echoing ...

over the precipice,

on the brink of dazzling rainbow 
hues,

lost in the void,
of an eternal instant,

plunging through the depths of 
rhyme,

pleading,
forever pleading,

for a prolonged,

bouquet of shared time.


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Come

Come sit right here
On my little ledge
Safely guarded from the storm
There's room for you and me

Come sit right here
Right by me
Don't worry, don't fret
There's nothing to fear

Come sit right here
No tears or fears
No hate or death
Just you, just me

Try as I might
They all take flight

(and leave me here alone)


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Message in a Bottle

I see you’re so alone and abandoned 
your head in your hands, I wonder: “why"? 
Your heart, it feels betrayed and broken 
And you don’t care if you live or die 

Yeah, you’ve searched deep inside every bottle 
And you never found any message there 
Yeah, your soul is in pain, and it drives you insane 
There’s no message in a bottle, you don’t care 
You’ve got to start taking care of yourself man 
You’ve been running away far too long 
Time to screw your head on straight; you know it’s not too late 
Get to moving before your soul is gone 

You’re a diamond 
Yeah you’re looking pretty rough 
You’re a lot of talk, but you don’t look very tough 
Maybe years ago you were, but you’ve outlived your glory daze 
Can you see through the bottle’s bottom? 
Or is there a blinding haze? 

Yeah, you’ve searched deep inside every bottle 
And you never found any message there 
Yeah, your soul is in pain, and it drives you insane 
There’s no message in a bottle, you don’t care 
You’ve got to start taking care of yourself man 
You’ve been running away far too long 
Time to screw your head on straight; you know it’s not too late 
Get to moving before your soul is gone 

You’re abandoned, on the street & all alone! 
You got a place to be, but you don’t like to call it home! 
You’re a diamond! 
Yeah, you think you’ll never die! 
Keep on looking inside that bottle, you’re gonna find out that’s a lie!


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(Forever And Ever) I'll Always Love You

My life began the day we met
The world, it looked brand new
Colors brighter, music sweeter
And all because of you.

You took a life of sadness
And you made it oh so sweet
But now your gone, and yet

I love you more with each passing day
Though God saw fit to take you away
When I think of our love. it still seems brand new
Forever and ever I'll always love you.

I still feel you close by my side
Though the pain's so deep it cuts like a knife.
When you went away my heart broke into little pieces
But I'll put those pieces back together because I know
Someday, we'll be together again
But until then.........

I'll love you more with each passing day
Though God saw fit to take you away
When I think of our love, it still seems brand new
Forever and ever I'll always love you.

Oh, when I think of our love
It still seems brand new
Forever and ever I'll always love you.







josette key         2009


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A Love that could not last

I loved you with all my heart and prayed to God that we would never be apart. But, I guess my prayer didn’t go through because now I’m left without you. With a single tear rolling out of my eye, I will never stop loving you. You were everything in the world to me and you will always be. I will never forget that you showed me how to love. When I thought all hope was lost you were there to listen to what I had to say. Now there’s nothing I can say or do to get you back to me because it’s all up to you. I just hope you make the right decision and come back to me. All I need now is a miracle so I can find a way back to your heart and make you mine once again and show you how much you meant to me. So I can fill this emptiness inside my heart that you took with you when you left. I knew everything about you and told you all my secrets and had so much trust in you that you would never do this to me but the nightmare has come true. And all I can do now is go back to my praying and hope this one will get through. Because there is never a day that passes by that I don’t think of you and all you’ve showed me, but now all I have left of you are the memories we’ve shared. You were always there for me with open arms, a smile on your face and those brown eyes of yours that I loved so much. That is all a memory now because you left me all alone in this crazy world of ours. Just always remember that I will still love you no matter what happens and it doesn’t matter how much you change because I will always love you.


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I wont forget

On the day I met you
you seemed to be
my perfect match
the man of my dreams
I was young and in love
yet so naive
I remember wat you said
to me that day
you wont hurt me
but you did just that
you took your promises back
that we will never part
yet you broke my heart
I still sing your favorite song
even though youre gone
I remember walks in the park
makin love in the dark
I wont forget the day 
you came into my life
and had me thinking someday
I will be your wife
but everything was a lie
so I had to say bye bye


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come home (last verse)

its to late to squash this beef
I got my heat
I creep across the street
to delete this creep

he use to be my man before this beef evolved
it's funny how friendship dissolve

My quick attempt to get the draw he saw
as I drew he drew a Mexican stand off

And I know I should have squooze
but instead I froze
visions of us riding big wheels at 4 years old

flooded my mind
the same  time tears flooded my eyes
thinking we could be the cause of each others demise

baffled by this irony as I looked in his eyes
together we escaped death more than a dozen times

as I stood there frozen 
over come with emotion
watching the rest of the scene play out in slow motion

his hammer tapped the bullet followed by an explosion
I felt an intense pain as my flesh tore open

I dropped with a thud before the blood start rolling
two shots escaped from the weapon I was holding

his chest caught them both
I heard him gag and choke
he's holding on but he's close
to the end of his rope

me Im cold,scared and shaking knowing there's no hope
dam ! even in this beef we will still die close
and as I felt death approach to claim us both
a angel came and sang the closing notes


                                 the last vers from come home


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Taboo

Unloving feeling makes death so appealing
To all who are willing
Usurping all of which is forbidden
The mass denial of what is right
A common sight of all those who are living
Ask now and you shall recieve
Remember nothing comes for free
We take for granted everything but
everything is not for us to swim in
Be rest assured the time will come
when everything will burn while Death is grinning
For all the things stumbled upon
For all the things which always were forbidden!!


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Crater

Hold me tight, like tonight was our last day.
If I could have imagined everything
Then I could just walk away.
If I could imagine anything,
Then everything would be my darkest dream.

And I, I can't close my eyes
And fall from your skies.
Now out here in space
I wonder what impact I can make.

And now that I've lost everything,
I rise, oh I rise, but it's too late.
And now that I've lost everything,
I fall, fall into myself.
Watch as I fall away.

Lay next to me so I can see all that you hide.
Without you here I lock myself away.
And no I won't, I won't give up this fight.
To get up and just walk away.
I can't lose everything.

And now that I've lost everything,
I rise, oh I rise, but it's too late.
And now that I've lost everything,
I fall, fall into myself.
And now out here in space,
I wonder what impact I can make.
Watch as I fall away,
Watch as I fall away.
Now out here in space
I wonder what impact I can make.
Now watch as I fall away.
Watch, watch everything, now as it falls away.


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Suffering Is The Same As Living

Hope, tonight, is just a void Love is destroyed Reality impending my doom Suffering a dream that was never made for me I’m just the burden falling under your arms I understand if you give up on me Don’t worry I’ll be fine I can just wait, wait as in all eternity You deserve to be happy and free I’m just the burden falling under your arms I understand if you give up on me Suffering is the same as living Tonight I might, Today I may Set you free away from me I’m just the burden falling under your arms I understand if you give up on me You travel all across in my veins Showing you share my pain But my life was never meant for me I’m just the burden falling under your arms I understand if you give up on me I'm sorry for those days I've ruined your life Best you just ignore, forevermore I’m just the burden falling under your arms I understand if you give up on me Suffering is the same as living Tonight I might, Today I may Set you free away from me I’m just the burden falling under your arms I understand if you give up on me Suffering is the same as living Tonight I might, Today I may Set you free away from me I’m just the burden falling under your arms I understand if you give up on me
**Morten Veland, Guitarist, Male Vocalist and Main Songwriter of Sirenia, formerly of Tristania**


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Was it you


1st Verse:

Walk on by me if you see me
Let me pass just let me go
All those things we had between us
Just the past now says so

In the moment it was real
At the time we could stand still
For a love we thought would last
Never forgotten by the past

Bridge:

The love we thought could never die
Has evaporated to blue sky

Chorus:

Saw you today
Couldn’t believe
Was it you standing there
Did my eyes deceive?
Never thought I would wonder
Always thought I knew
But now I don’t know
Is it true?
Was it you?

2nd Verse:

Turn around walk the other way
Strangers is what we are
Knew each other inside and out
Now just a distant star

Time and space, left it behind
Gave our hearts to another kind
Tweaking dreams not breaking seams
Changing faces Wiping slates clean


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Everlasting Moments

With the December snow falling lightly around us,
It graced our skin as we walked along lighted Christmas streets.
I remember seeing your breath as I held you close,
You and I together in the moment in the stillness of such a beautiful peace.
Who would have looked at us and guessed that this would be our last?
The last time together in a lover’s bliss.
My God how everything had happened so fast.
All I have left now is you to miss.
As I walk these streets now it’s just alone.
My tears hit the ground and are swallowed by the snow.
The house we had now has no chance to be a home.
Your so far away I’m left here just to roam.

So many everlasting moments we had are still here to serenade me.
My eyes misted there’s so much that I can’t believe.
There was much more to us then what was a use to be.
I love how you haunt my dreams when I’m sleeping.
How can all we had turn to dust and fall into just memories.
How I wish you were here with me.
Trapped in this sorrow will I never be free?

Then I thought I had seen you the other day.
In the kitchen with coffee quietly reading.
You had that beautiful smile on your face.
Yet I was unable to touch what I thought my eyes were seeing.
There are times when I smell your perfume in the air.
This is how I know you’re my angel still there to caress me.
I still leave you love letters on the pillow though you’re not there.
It’s so hard to stop a heart when it‘s use to its loving routine
I nearly broke when I looked in the mirror.
Just a shell of the happiness that now I can’t see.
Maybe someday I’ll understand a little more clearly.
All about why you were taken so quickly from me.

So many everlasting moments we had are still here to serenade me.
My eyes misted there’s so much that I can’t believe.
There was much more to us then what was a use to be.
I love how you haunt my dreams when I’m sleeping.
How can all we had turn to dust and fall into just memories.
How I wish you were here with me.
Trapped in this sorrow will I never be free.


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Baby Soldier (Ethnic Cleansing)

Someone tell me where we are

not all that close, not all that far

Marching feet and distant drums

but I can't see where they come from..

Baby Soldier with angry eyes

filling empty space with hate

for fat old men made fat on lies

it's not your fault..........it's just your fate

Baby soldier

Slaughter in the market place

You heard their cries, you saw their face

How then can you sleep at night?

How dare you say, "everything alright"

Baby soldiers with empty eyes

empty minds refilled with hate

for fat old men made fat on lies

while baby soldier licks the plate

Baby soldier

Dancing in a rain of fire

Just one more death for your empire

but baby soldier dies alone

his soul is gone his heart is stone

Baby soldier with empty eyes

filling empty space with hate

for fat old men made fat on lies

It's not your fault It's just your fate

Baby soldier

Baby soldier lay it down

the crops won't grow in blood soaked ground

but baby soldier cannot hear

above the sound of hate and fear

baby soldier with angry eyes

feeding on their hate and fear

while fat old men get fat on lies


everyone dies that's why you're here

Baby soldier

Someone tell me where we are

not all that close not all that far.


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After Life

1st VERSE:
Where would you go
if you could leave this place?
What would you see 
who would you meet
If you could leave
then come back to these streets

What words would you use
to describe where you’ve been?
From where you stood
could you see the world spin

Could you watch us walk around
Our feet stuck to the ground
Could you hear the words we said
When our hearts filled with dread
Thinking you’ve moved on
To sing another song
In another universe
Leaving behind a curse

CHORUS:
After death
After life
What we hope is Paradise
Just might be our memories
Left for everyone to see
All to know the truth
Every action has a purpose
Even if buried beneath the surface

Wishing you’d come back to me
I did what you asked
I set you free
Didn’t know you would fly
So far up in the sky


2nd VERSE:
If you came back
Claiming the spot you left
How would it feel
To take your seat
Where you belong
As you did all along

Which world would you choose
Or would you stay between
Stuck in a space
Unable to be seen

Could you see us over here
If you can is it clear
Could you feel our pain inside
When we found out you died
Thinking life would end
We lost another friend
To the opposite of life
Pain still cuts like a knife


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I Wanna Go Home ( Tomorrow )

Declarations of Independence
Shadows of rock on roll
I want to go home
I wanna go home
I want to go home
Tomorrow
 
 
Exchanging love letters 
and dirty looks
I love you
and History books
I want to go home
I wanna go home
I want to go home
Tomorrow
 
 
Sell your soul
Save my skin
Rock and roll
and violins
I want to go home
I wanna go home
I want to go home
Tomorrow
 
Tell me lies 
and take them back
Hide and seek
and fade to black
Show me yours
I'll show you mine
How are you?
I'm doing fine
I want to go home
I wanna go home
I want to go home
Tomorrow
 
 
I'm still here standing still
Take the hill
It's time to kill
I want to go home 
I wanna go -


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Diedre II

Don thoust not know Deidre’s eode Don thoust not know Deidre’s eode I cunnan sense her embrace that felans gelic Tragedy A Heart to hath, slipped beneoðan waw The dark pulse nou beckons us closer How many daegs will this passion bledan way We will beon the ans left to blame Bewarian we hath be-came their prey They say thou hast ben addicted to thy pain A life-leas cold barren soul left to die in the rain A whisper to close to the edge A ceallian fram the dark Bringan ut a saving sparke An exodus fram her pain Her life spent braeð in shame A Shadow ceallian brecans the silence Eom I the an to blame Don thoust not know Deidre’s eode Don thoust not know Deirdre naefre said wrong Don thoust not know Deidre’s eode “My decadence wesan just for thee Though thou never hast cared of what I hath been through Enter the world hwaer empathy is clandestine A world created by thee, just for me Hwaet is lecgan in my heart Is why thou wants to through the stan” I call thy name towards nightfall’s reign But they take thou so feorr way A dark engel so devin Cursed by Eden’s Heart I will avenge every tear An exodus fram her pain Her life spent braeð in shame A Shadow ceallian brecans the silence Eom I the an to blame Don thoust not know Deidre’s eode Don thoust not know Deirdre naefre said wrong Don thoust not know Deidre’s eode Don thoust not know Deidre’s eode Don thoust not know Deidre’s eode


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When Our Ships Sailed

Abandon ship; it's a lost cause
I'm the captain and
I lost control of our ships
Off track they roll

Grab a souvenir; make this quick
I can't; there's way too many to pick
I must go and run for the safety boats
But I can't leave without you though

These pictures and little notes
They all remind me of the time
The time when our ships had sailed
But this ship is now sinking

What did I hit?
What was in my way?
Why did I not see it coming?
Oh, the ships are sinking

It's safe to say there's no hope any more
And it's better if I leave and give up
I don't wanna waste you; I know I'm a bore
I'm tired of chasing you; you could never hear my roar

It was said and done
Said and done again
Said and done a thousand more times
I'm tired of waiting for our ships to sail again

Ironic how all this talk
All this whine
And all my squeaks
Still remind me of when our ships sailed


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Hush Now

Hush now the angel says
She is trying to show me her ways
she is coming to me here
In pure white she takes away your fear
no more troubles await you
with no more worries to go through
feeling just a peaceful bliss
blessed with an angels kiss
it is time for you to leave
hush now the angel says
she is trying to show you her ways
time to cross that iron gate
for it is your fate
she takes your hand across that line
everything will finally be just fine
no longer trapped inside your body
for the angel has come to set you free
hush now the angel says
she is trying to show you her ways
she brings no more tears
she takes your hand and you both disappear
hush now the angel says
you can now watch over your family in so many ways

by bettie l. avery for my mom Marge Ashton-Avery may you rest in peace now mom I love you mom


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WHY AM I HERE

 written 30th march 2001


I love with my soul
 but my soul is gone, so why do I love

My eyes are to see you's
 but you's aren't to be seen, so why do I need my eyes

My fingers are to feel you's
 but you's I can not feel, so I do not need my fingers

My arms are full of cuddles
 but there's no one to cuddle, so why have arms

My legs are to lead you's the way
 but I have no one to lead, so my legs have no use to me

My life is for only you's
 so without you's, why do I need this life


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Walk On

If I could write a story,I'd write about the past.
The masks and all the words I was afraid to speak.
It would be a story without moral.
I've learned nothing from this journey.
The chapters would be short and simple
In the form of thoughts and riddles.

If I could write a poem to heal myself
I'd un-bandage these wounds
And let them bleed on my page.
I promised myself I wouldn't wait.
I wouldn't have hope but thanks to you
That's all I know.
I'd pack all these things and give them to you,
Because I know patience and love are both virtues.
But if you burned them as physical memories
You know I'd understand.

Wave steady and ignore the tragedy.
Torn between the stories and poetry.
Wave steady and ignore this disaster.
Rummage through the wreck and salvage what you can.
Walk around and hope that you never see
This fragile bird and his broken wings.

There's no shame to sing your favorite song
To save your life.
I'll sing all that I can sing,
And I'll say all that I can say
To make sure I turn out alright.

Walk on and ignore  this tragedy.
Torn between the stories and poetry.
Walk on and ignore this disaster.
Rummage through the wreck and salvage what you can.
Walk on and hope that you never see
This fragile bird and his broken wings.

And I'll sing all that I can sing.
I'll say all that I can say
To make sure I turn out alright.


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Let Your Rains Fall Down

let your rains 
fall down
let your rains fall
let your tears run to the ocean
hold none of them tight within
let the earth send them far away
send them far away
far, far away
far away from here


© Christine A Kysely, All Rights Reserved
(November 10, 2011 Wausau, Wisconsin USA)


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Fallen Knight

Fealty in service of love
For what I had came from above
Shadows fled wherever I stepped
They smiled back at me, knowing the end

A kingdom pure; innocent in peace
Its fires bright, my sword always sheathed
But I was scared of losing her heart
The wars I’d seen could tear it apart

Shadows spoke of crumbling walls
The city’s strength was starting to fall
The rising moon whispered of fate
A darkness within began to awake

A kingdom I could never let die
Such beauty, I thought, could never be mine
I dreamt of loss, and had nightmares of doubt
When I awoke, the monster was out

My precious home, besieged and at war
I heard the screams of thousands or more
I rose at once, unsheathing my rage
Toward the heart I slaughtered and maimed

This kingdom I swore to protect
My queen was lost, and a monster was left
I thrust my sword through to its heart
The pain I dealt was only the start

The sun arose, burning my eyes
I dropped the sword, and began to realise
My love is lost, and the shadows were me
This monster killed his beautiful queen


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Missing you

Missing you 
As I always do
You left when you were so young
So many songs left unsung
So many smiles left unseen
And so many things in between
Now you watch form up above
And guide us with your special love
You’re our guardian angel now 
And we move on somehow
But we will never forget your face
Nor will anyone take your place
For your forever in our hearts
And nothing can tear that apart  


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What Lies Inside

Written February 26, 2012<\em>


Behind the curtains
The stage is awry
Behind the curtains
Love is unkind

Read between the lines
And you'll find that love
Was meant to leave you mine
If you follow blindly
You'll get thrown every time

Tears cried unsightly
Tears drowned under muffled sighs
Pain hidden in the sound
A silhouette of sirens
Shadowed by your lies

You know how I suffer
You've seen it slide through my hands
It treats me unkind
Sweet, sweet angel
Oh monstrosity of mine

Like light to the flies
Truths will flow from your eyes
And speak softly in my ear
Cause it's the last I'll ever hear
Then the curtains close in here

Behind the curtains
The stage is awry
Behind the curtains
Love is unkind


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Black Widow

1 through the door
2 through your heart
3 through your head
4 colors in my eyes
Red, red, red

1 clash
2 rings
3 words
4 sirens
Shrieks of red, red, red

1 bed of white
2 saviors
3 men at my side
4 grievers
Tears of red, red, red

1 room of rock
2 rings around my wrist
3 eyes in my head
4 days before forever
Stains of red, red, red

1 room
2 sides
3 on one
4 on the other
Crying out red, red, red

1 decision
2 stabs of pain in my side
3 cries
4 smiles
The judge says red, red, red

1 boy
2 people
3 arguments
4 solutions
Mine was red, red, red


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Could be

 I wake up before the sun from a cozy bed

I walk outside and feel the crisp autumn chill

So I put a stocking cap on my head

 

I walk through the back yard

heading for the woods

doing something city boy

only wish they could

 

I arrive at my stand

and check the direction of the breeze

before I climb up ole faithful

a dying, dark barked maple tree

I make myself comfortable

as the sun stretches its arms 

for the sky

producing iridescent colors

I live for the outdoor

and that's one of the reasons why

 

Not far behind me a freshly cut field of hay

in front endless rows of cornstalks fill the way

 

I begin to think of a tradition

My son and I on thanksgiving day.

he is still here with me

even though last November he passed away

 

I start hearing cars doors shut

its coming from over the hill

carrying an aroma of cinnamon

It's my favorite! Pumpkin pie

Justin, I'll be back, But for now Goodbye


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Loss of Identity

His accusing words make me feel like a small child

I cower and retreat as a dog scolded

My strong facade fades away

I have not earned the right to parade around as a proud peacock

Rather, I show my true face1a timid field mouse on constant guard of the hawk

I ask, where does my courage retreat to when his angry words appear?

Why do I lose my proud feathers?

What is the matter with me? Where does my strength go?

I hide behind false faces and media accepted icons

Truthfully, I am weak and a coward

I am angry I lack strength to hold my head high and proud

I am fearing rather than fearless, kneeling rather than towering

Empty and hollow, less than equal; second rate, the pretender and false; 

Untrue to myself-a liar and a fake

A disappointment to everyone I ever aspired to make proud, loser and follower


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Predators

Found some new friends last night
They gave me some things
They showed me the happy life
Gave me a pair of wings
Wings that flew forever
Never needed to rest
I guess I thought it would
All be for the best
Never told me it was dangerous
Never showed me the lie
All I saw was wonderful sunsets
And beautiful skies
They told me it would be fun
That it would be fine
Now I'm trapped in a prison
Of my own design
How did I get here?
I have forgotten the way
I tried to find the door
But they all asked me to stay
Now I'm stuck in their dimension
With no plan of release
I would take it back if I could but
I'm not ready for peace
Can't kick the habit
And I can't get away
Wish I never met those predators
But I guess I'd still be prey
Now I'll be here forever
In a tight winding dive
Never take what bad people give you
Because you won't survive





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A Question of Honor

Dedicated to Noor Al-Maleki You Try, You Try so hard To put Your will Over Me But I will Remain Free I am So Dirty and So Very Unclean So Please Condemn me Sentence Me The Crescent Is A Lie The One I shall Try To Defy Is it Just To Dispose What Has Dishonored You and Your Radical Views You Have set me Free, Can't You See I Won't have to face a Tyrant anymore Your gaze used to Stun But Now It Just Burns Under the Sun Never Enough to Be Myself Never Enough to Be Free I will not Bow to You I will not Kneel Before You Smothering Liberty Condoning Freedom This way is unjust This way only brings out our worse Hatred and Mistrust War and malice no know law You Try, You Try so hard to put Your will Over Me But I will Remain Free I am So Dirty and So Very Unclean So Please Condemn me Sentence Me The Crescent Is A Lie The One I shall Try To Defy Is Just To Dispose What Has Dishonored You and Your Radical Views I am The Flame you Greatly Hate I am The Flame you greatly fear Some cannot handle the truth It shows they are the Criminals You are one of them You're the problem This misdeed will not live on without the hate of your name Honor Is not real It's just an emotion that only you feel You're another bulwark Against the truth No one Will Bow No one Will Kneel You Try, You Try so hard to put Your will Over Me But I will Remain Free I am So Dirty and So Very Unclean So Please Condemn me Sentence Me The Crescent Is A Lie The One I shall Try To Defy Is it Just To Dispose What Has Dishonored You and Your Radical Views You Fear The Truth You Fear the reality you are the criminal against all humanity We must end these lies Before Honor Will Strike again You Try, You Try so hard to put Your will Over Me But I will Remain Free I am So Dirty and So Very Unclean So Please Condemn me Sentence Me The Crescent Is A Lie The One I shall Try To Defy Is it Just To Dispose What Has Dishonored You and Your Radical Views


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Nothing Matters

This poem's in the epiphany challenge, although it was not written with any challenge in mind. It was written July 23, 2013.


Felt a snowflake
melt in front of
universal mind.

Watched the day break
dusk defy your
summer dreams in kind.

Weathered heartthrob 
without sunrise,
everything’s okay.

Nothing matters
just keep moving,
night might turn to day.

Felt the earth shake
sky is falling,
someone's down below.

Watched the waves break
water's frothing,
I don't want to know.

Weathered heartthrob 
without sunrise,
everything’s okay.

Nothing matters
just keep moving,
night might turn to day.


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how do i get there

when you're forgotten
memories move too far from you
wishes run through tomorrow's well
widows search the depths for hell

she screams her tangerines
shouting out decimals 
ice-cream and scenes of before
watching movies and more

more and more  
you hang your head 
but I hope you never cry
or realize 
what you never had
this is what it feels like
to miss a lie

when you're forgotten
memories move too far from you
living with shadows here and there
hidden by splits in city walls 

holding on to me, 
myself and no one else
when your secrets expire
I hope you find your peace

more and more  
you hang your head
I hope you never cry
or realize 
what you never had
this is what it's like 
to miss a lie

drive the membranes of your passion
into sparrows singing sane
live within the burrows singing doubt
replaying syndromes next to tones
is it everything you thought it would be

"this reminds me of why i do not think of you" 


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At wit's end

My insomnia has worn me thin,
when I get out of bed I know not where to begin.

No purpose, no income, no motivation,
hence forth I am consumed by this damnation.

Ativan, Ambien to help cope,
where then is my self to hope?

Spontaneous anguish found in a drawer,
absorbing the pain from the past in horror.

There is but one person who gives me peace,
I can speak from what little I have left from my soul to her, 
as all my anguish seems to cease.

There is so much more that I want from her,
yet cherish the friendship, all my feelings transfer.

I feel lost in these long hours of darkness,
At wit's end, sipping bourbon, my misery becoming noxious.


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What a Pretty Flower

I found a flower on my desk, yet I know not whence it came. It brought such warmth unto my heart although it had no name. It's colours changed from tick to tock and I knew that I'd been had, 'cause when I tried to pick it up, it had turned to pitch black sand. With such a transformation, right before my very eyes, I knew that nameless flowers were full of nought but lies. This flower, it did have no stem and, therefore, had no thorn. Though harmless to the naked eye, Left me utterly, truly torn.


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A One-man Boat

Why do I strive so much in life
This heart of mine cease to refine
Of hope and love and tranquility
I give and give, yet scarcely receive 
It’s the heart that deceives
My Soul resides upon a mountain of misery

It shouts, its scream, yet high up above, as it seems
Away, away from mankind to care
At times like these I am at despair
Hoping, seeking and wishing to share
I speak my heart, my thoughts, and my mind….
Yet scarcely, do I dare to show this degree of misery
My essence is as thin as air…. 
If I hit mankind in the face
No mark, no remembrance, no trace shall I leave
No sweet- sour memories to reminisce upon
Its as if my very presences is provocative to mankind
They ask me kindly, oh please! Oh please! do leave, Save us time and disappear!
No one to care, no one to adhere to

I loved and laughed and lived and hoped and trusted in mankind
Yet from this day on shattered and stiff and deceived and depleted, is what, I now am 
I bare a load wrapped tight around my heart
That never seems to crack or break, 
No fitting key, no rock to break….
For my humble abode lies within my mountain of misery
Where I reside high up above from mankind
From; Hurt or pain or deception or greed
From this day on, to no one shall I heed
I fight my battles on my own
I sail upon a one-man boat


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Blind Love

I hold you close to me like a new born child and give you all 
the tender care and love you desever

But there is just one thing I don't 
approve of you push me alway show me your cold side and 
not your nice gently side

You say you maybe love me because your still in love with an 
old lover friend and you don't know when you
will fall out

I'm comfused what sould I do I'm learning to love you and I 
don't wan't to lose

But your glad I'm in your life becasue I make you forget 
about her and you know how I'm feeling about everything 

And you can feel it and see it in my eyes you wan't both but 
you know it anit wright so you just keep me near and her far 
because your still in love 

But you wan't me what sould I do drop up everything and 
move on and just forget about use trying to be as one or 
stay in this unfear relationship and keep carrying on

My body wan't you but my heart also to but my brain know 
this is not a good way to live my life and I'm playing myself 
for less

I'm comfused what sould I do I'm learning to love you and I 
can't lose

This love I'm in must be called blind beacause I can't move 
my toes I fell
in too deep and I can't even find the hole I fell into druged 
and willy off  an overdose 

I'm confused what sould I do I'm learning to love 
you and I don't wan't to lose 

I'm confused and I don't know what to do I'm learning to 
love you and I don't wan't to lose


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When I Traveled Not Alone

I’ve walked the narrow paths of life
Strewn thick with many forms of grief
And yet the pains I could forget
When I traveled not alone.

On and on, for years and years
We wandered in this vale of tears.
We shared the joys and sorrows too
When I traveled not alone.

Hand in hand, arm in arm
The miles to come, we thought not of
But talked together, laughed, and cried
When I traveled not alone.

The sun e’er shone and gentle wind
Blew softly, softly, always warm.
The storms that came, they quickly passed
When I traveled not alone.

But now the breeze is always cold
The thorns, they tear my bloodstained feet
For you faded from my side-
And now I travel all alone.


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Yesterday's Song

Yesterday I woke just like any other day
All the songs, that I need to play
My music had, all slipped away
Troubles come, he rode over me just for fun
Seemed to me that I should have run
So I'm not the smartest one
Far from me, is where my words must want to be
Away from home, they wander free

Now I call them back to me, no reply
It seems to me they don't even try
Looks like they've gone without goodbye
As if they want to make me cry, and they do
Though it's not their fault, I know it's true
They're just doing what it is they do
Here is my heart it breaks for you, have your way
To God above I now must pray
Stay my words, don't let them stray

Oh please don't let it end this way, but it will
I see my future life, race downhill
Believe it's meant to test my will
In prison now there is no thrill
Yesterday, started just like any other day


Written 22Jan'14 Steven Clark


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Broken worth

...Since i desire you 
in ma life....i desire 
war at times....i see 
beauty in gazing at 
you....i found value 
living to watch 
you....i experience 
love every moment 
beside you...i define 
worth from every 
single smile at me 
from you.....a hug 
from you worth 
me full happiness....i 
never live a day 
outside what we 
both share in 
common(the 
redefined lost)....i 
wished you never 
left me....i wished 
your abscent never 
hurts me.....i wished 
your tears never 
never sceared ma 
fears.....i wished we 
both could forgive 
our ego and pride 
and lust....i wished i 
never experience 
love from nobody 
but you.....i wished 
you never stoped 
the songs that 
gives ma soul the 
happiest moment 
of time.......i need 
you in ma life....i 
need you to ocupy 
ma time.....i need 
you to give me 
dejavu......i need you 
to make me feel 
renewed.....i need 
you to keep ma 
space from being 
empty of 
persion,pride,beauty 
love......i need you to 
make me feel like a 
man,sincerly your 
abscent is the 
incomplete part of 
ma life.I lost you i lost the 
world....Beside you no-one 
deserve ma words....your 
impact in ma life makes me 
knot....ALASS!!!


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Say goodbye

Start: I try to put myself in you shoes but I still can't understand, the reasons you handed me to justify your feelings for another man. No matter how hard I try I can't deny this lie. So I guess it's the best for us to say goodbye. End:


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Going Gone

You are here, You are there, You'll be in my head forever, You'll be in my thin air. You're the bubble to my wrap, You're the hands to my clap, You're the lines on a map, You're the baby in my lap. Because no one is like you, You're the beauty in a heart, Leaving is like a hole. A hole that wasn't meant to be finished, From the start. But when you're going gone, All the memories are burned. All the lessons that I learned. You made me feel like I'm smart. And now you're going gone. Going Gone, Going gooone. Going gone. Because no one is like you, You're the beauty in a heart, Leaving is like a hole. A hole that wasn't meant to be finished, From the start. You are seared in my memories. There's a hole in my heart. I want you back so bad. Dreaming of you is a nightmare... But when you're going gone, All the memories are burned. All the lessons that I learned. You made me feel like I'm smart. And now you're going gone. Going Gone, Going gooone. Going gone. When I didn't know I had you. I figured It when you were, Going gone. But when you're going gone, All the memories are burned. All the lessons that I learned. You made me feel like I'm smart. And now you're going gone. Going Gone, Going gooone. Going gone. Going gone.


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Mournful Clouds

Playful serpents of lightning
With twin tongues sparkling
Into the dark caves of clouds
In their hide’n seek marbling

Anger some heat they sending
Lo! All soft clouds thus forcing
To melt shy, rich’n cool hearts
Into the soul of earth a pouring

And like those gloomy lovers
Wander into greens’n bowers
Restless without their beloved
Shedding oceans of showers

O tearful clouds! Keep urging
Thy lost love, go quick pacing
Take the path of roaring rivers
At home she must be waiting

But let me any path  not search 
Let me lie’n a little more perch
With my preciously gifted tears
As last love token way of church


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Freak Show

Hello? Hello? Is anyone here? I am here for the “Freak Show”. Fine don't come out. If you can't see yourself in a mirror, Come here Come here. If you don't fit in, Come here Come here. If you're full of terror, Come here Come here. If your made of tin, Come here Come here. Cause it's time, it's time, for the Freak Show, To unleash their wild pack, To come out of a shack, To show your wild side, To show you won't bite. Cause it's time for the Freak Show, To come out from the dark, To do your freaky march, To come unrap, To lay down flat. It's time for the Freak Show. Down here we don't judge, We don't care if your fudge, If you have flames, Or even fangs, If your made of fur, or if you purr, Come down for the Freak Show. 30 seconds on the clock, Those hands go tik tok, It's almost time for halloween night, Get ready for a real fright! Cause it's time, it's time, for the Freak Show, To unleash their wild pack, To come out of a shack, To show your wild side, To show you won't bite. Cause it's time for the Freak Show, To come out from the dark, To do your freaky march, To come unrap, To lay down flat. It's time for the Freak Show. Just scare those kids, Into little bits, I'm sure they won't mind, It isn't a crime, Invite them inside, For a little surprise, You are supernatural, Or even bichemical. Cause it's time, it's time, for the Freak Show, To unleash their wild pack, To come out of a shack, To show your wild side, To show you won't bite. Cause it's time for the Freak Show, To come out from the dark, To do your freaky march, To come unrap, To lay down flat. It's time for the Freak Show. WELCOME HOME.


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Port of Call

Port of Call


Barefoot on a talcum beach,

alone, not lonely,

with the breath of the ocean a caressing balm,
soothing pained memories away,
to the swaying of a solitary palm.


Barefoot on a talcum beach,

alone, not lonely,

feeling the brushing away of all past turmoil,
on a quest for solace, ever so hard to find,
yet comforted by the crashing of the waves,
as the tide cleanses all pain,
and leaves despair far, far behind.


Barefoot on a talcum beach,

alone, not lonely,

drenched in a sea-breeze of mist,
that hushes the ache of bygone moons,
tasting the salty tang on my lips,
as the burnished sun,
over the distant horizon,
swoons,

and dips.


Barefoot on a talcum beach,

alone, not lonely,

searching, ever searching,
for a slice of solitude,
as memory bids a final adieu,
reaching under the sea so vast,
and seeking comfort in the depths,
while embracing,
the tomorrows to come,
wishing that they be true.


Barefoot on a talcum beach,

alone, not lonely,

seeing my truths drown,
as they slip beneath the turquoise waters,

feeling my heart ablaze,
with a passion that rarely falters.


Barefoot on a talcum beach,

alone, not lonely,

yet knowing that I am home at long last,
wishing the waves would wash away,
the defences that once stood,
like an impregnable wall.


Barefoot on a talcum beach,

alone, not lonely,

I have found, at long last,

my final port of call.


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no chance for good bye

Thinking of you in my stolen moments,
Alone here with nothing but time.
My heart still breaks knowing,
I never had a chance to say good-bye.
I know your looking down and smiling,
No longer the worry of being in pain.
You had more than a life’s time share of suffering,
You took it daily and never complained.

Now you’re an angel in heaven,
We all know that you have your wings.
Though we still feel the loss here without you,
In our hearts we can feel how yours now sings.

At times I still feel your presence still around me,
I believe you watching close now over us all.
You still have that power of bringing me up when I’m weak,
Somehow you still cushion me when I take a fall.
I know one day you will be there to greet me,
When my life turns and comes to an end.
In your life you taught other’s to see more clearly,
As now as in your life you were always more than just a friend.

Now you’re an angel in heaven,
We all know that you have your wings.
Though we still feel the loss here without you,
In our hearts we can feel how yours now sings.


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ASHLEY HAD A SMALL GOAT

Ashley Had a Small Goat
Oh, Ashley had a Small goat,
Small goat, Small goat,
Ashley had a Small goat,
And he had a coat of white

He followed her to school one day,
School one day, school one day,
He followed her to school one day,
And drank a some water.

 Oh, once he ate a spinach can, 
Spinach can, spinach can, 
once he ate a spinach can, 
Also a line of clothes.

The clothes can do no harm inside, 
Harm inside, harm inside, 
the clothes can do no harm inside, 
But oh! The spinach can!

 The can was filled with achemical,
chemical , chemical chemical,
The can was filled with a chemical,
Which the goat  thought was food

He rubbed against poor Ashley's chin,
Ashley's chin, Ashley's chin,
He rubbed against poor Ashley's chin,
His deep distress to ease.

 
There was a flash of girl and goat,
Girl and goat, girl and goat
There was a flash of girl and goat
And they were seen no more..

(Slowly)
Ashley's soul to Heaven went,
Heaven went, Heaven went,
Ashley's soul to Heaven went,
And Mr. Goat went there too.


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I Gave You Right Back

I remember when you gave yourself to me,
But I gave you right back.
Because I couldn’t stop hurting you,
And I hated doing that.
I can’t be selfish as I wanna be,
and much as I need your touch.
I can’t have that follow me.
Enough just might be enough.

But love comes all the way back around,
I didn’t know you then and I don’t know you now.

Hearts beat,
Trust me,
I asked mine to stop beating aloud.
Tears are dreams,
That have to flee,
Cause they’d been cast out. 
And smiles speak,
Yours talks to me,
But I replied with a frown.
Cause I can’t keep this up,
Enough is now enough.
Don’t look for me I’m gone now.


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Censorship In The Arts

Frozen and left for dead
 I can speak no words
 nor shake my head
 only the sky 
moves on
 above me
 
© Christine A Kysely All Rights Reserved
 (December 12th, 2011 Wausau, Wisconsin USA)
 


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Adrienne

Everytime I think about your face
I think about your pain
The pain I wish I could prevent
I can't see it, but I feel it every day
And everytime I hear your voice
My heart aches
Oh God, please help her! 
As she sits alone
A product of a broken home
She cries tears that I wish I could dry
She falls to her knees
Embedded in the floor 
I know I'm not there to hold you
My heart hurts 
I want to save you 
I'm sick of knowing that you are being devoured
By the enemies that want you to push up flowers
They're just cowards
I wish I were there 
What the Hell am I still doing here
God I can't believe what I'm hearing! 
Her tears and blood hit the floor
I don't want to believe this anymore
I look in the mirror and I have no one to blame but myself


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A Past Deceased

Letting winds lead you a way

from everything.

Leaving all that's left behind,

your moving forward now,

your moving forward from the end.


... & now your fragile hands are empty.

Now your love for dreams shall deplete

& shatter among the leave's,

away with winds that lead you a way from...


Letting winds lead you a way

from everything.

Leaving all that's left behind,

your moving forward now,

your moving forward from the end


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A FEW BAD PEOPLE

A few Bad People
Spoil joy with a gust of violent wind.
They haunt the world with the riddle
And exploit their dark swirling mind.

A few Bad People
Grind active souls with raw power,
Charm the world with unseen cable
And shrinks honesty with awful roar.

A few Bad People
Convert fertile terrain into barren.
Through a frozen wand of cripple
Spoil the remaining few Good men.


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Angel

Imagine a lovely garden, tea for two, and this story . . .
So I guess you were in the Delafield Park that morning-
Police report says around 12 a-something
Yeah, I’m sorry, I wish you woulda called, texted, anything.
I woulda been there-oh wait I was there-always have been there.
Which is why people are sayin’ you didn’t hit me up-
You went to the wrong people, those who didn’t care.
-You must-a been so damn scared
I’m glad you’re off the streets, not in a cell, or in pain-
Maybe we just insane, baby
That makes two of us, trust me, I get those thoughts too-
Not strong enough to make me actually carry it through-
Jus’ don’t wanna leave my family and those I love, people like you.
But hey, I know God has a plan, and I understand the stuff you had to handle
Now I got a guardian angel, and I have your picture in my room
Next to the cardboard painting of
“I’ll Be In The Sky…I’ll Be There…Oh, Alright…”
So weird, thinkin’ I lost my best friend, my brother
Now we can always see each other, how ‘bout that?
Please watch over your family and everyone you love, and those you don’t.
Watch over ‘Milla too.  I never got to meet her, but I bet she loved you.
Hey, I love you too, you know that, of course, but ya know…just wanted to letchya 
know…
And little Emma too-man, she’s a special girl, she really loves her brother and she’ll do 
great in this world.
Man, remember that one time, two times, three times, at the movies?
Aha-I know you do.  
All the crazy things we did and been through-
Well I’m-a wrap this up, I took these lyrics from my rap
And I’m turning ‘em into a poem for English so I can get a grade
-Do well, and go to college, I’ma live for you
I love you, Fella<3

Kara Adams Sunday, August 14, 2011.


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Someday

“Someday”
Why is “someday” such a sad word?
When one like “never” is so much worse?
Why....why “someday”?

“Someday!”
Why is “someday” such a sad, sad word?
Perhaps the saddest one I’ve ever heard...
Why “someday”?

Everybody
has somebody
Except me, it seems
but that's not why I want to leave

So out of it
feel “out of it”
Never was in
can't find the way 

"Life’s one big bluff
Keep a straight face
Don’t let ‘em see your cards."

Yeah, life’s one big God-forsaken bluff
and I’m about to jump off

Someday, I thought you’d find me
Someday, I thought you’d love me
But someday ....
...someday......
someday NEVER CAME

“Someday,” they say, “You’ll find somebody.”
“Someday, you will be happy.”
“Someday, life will mean something.”
But someday I'll be SICK of waiting

Someday, you’ll see why it can’t be
Someday we’ll ALL be sorry
One day
sweet day
I’ll find my way 
out of this body.

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This is Goodbye

Somebody told me that you’re happy
That you’re moving right along
That you’re planning for the future
But I think they’ve got it wrong.
You’ve got everyone thinking
That you’re smitten and in love
They think you’ve gotten really lucky
Have everything that you’ve dreamed of…

But I know better, don’t I?
I can see it in your eyes
I see your halfhearted smiles,
I could spot them for miles
And I can sense the subtle lies
I know you better than the rest do
But I can’t save you, I can’t rescue -
You from your own disguise
So I guess this is goodbye now
Goodbye now
Good…bye

I heard she’s fond of metal’s sharpness
That she’s carving both your ways
But she’s cut more than herself
She cut you and everyone else
Who cared about you at one time
And you just let her do it
Let her twist her grips inside
So I guess you’re guilty too
You can’t hide the ugly truth
So I guess this is goodbye

So tell your lies

But I know better, don’t I?
I can see it in your eyes
I see your halfhearted smiles,
I could spot them for miles
And I can sense the subtle lies
I know you better than the rest do
But I can’t save you, I can’t rescue -
You from your own disguise
So I guess this is goodbye now

I guess this is goodbye now
Good…bye


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26 Stitches

26 stitches is my life. Hardly got a family and no room for a wife. Don't ask questions that you don't want to know. I have already buried myself but where he only knows. Afraid of the consequences but to numb to change. I might open the book but I'm too afraid to turn the page. Tomorrow is another day but to me it never changes. Stuck in this Groundhog Day... Just another 26 stitches. I don't know why they stand beside me. It must be love. But since I lost my brother self-loathing has become my crutch. 26 stitches are how i live my life. The only one who can intervene has since taken his own life. 26 stitches i will forever be. I will see you in heaven, hell or somewhere in between.


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Thingking Of another Lie

You lay on the ground
and stare in outerspace
thinking of another lie
to tell (to) to my face
you say you want a wish
you say you want one wish
you say you want my love
yo words is jabberish
the nerves of you
to look up at the sky
ta think of anotha lie
to tell (to) to my face
the nerves of you
to get down on your knees
and close your eyes baby
to see just you and me
the nerves of you
to want to go and cheat
and want me just to stay
boy ya kno im gonna leave
the nerves of you
to think of anotha lie
think think of anotha lie
think think think of anotha lie
(the nerves of you)...


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Hello... Hello...

Hello, Hello
What are you doing there?
Hello, Hello
I'm looking at you here.
Hello, Hello
My knife is in my hand.
Hello, Hello
How long can you stand?

I crashed through the window
And sliced open your throat
I killed your damn goldfish
And sunk his damn boat
I killed your whole family
And killed your best lover
I whacked off your privates
So now you can't love her
I stabbed your cold eyes
And ate your damn toes
I ripped open your flesh
And stole your old bones
Your skull was so soft
I stabbed it clean through
Your bones are so weak
So weak and so you
You ran and you screamed
I ripped your tongue out
You crapped in your pants
You can no longer shout
I ripped out your hair
One hair at a time
I shaved skin off your head
So slick with red grime
I cut you over and over
Until you were a nice even red
The hot liquid burning
The sheets through the bed
You can't die and you'll watch this forever
The day that you died, over and over.

Goodbye, Goodbye
What are you doing there?
Goodbye, Goodbye
Are you alright my dear?
Goodbye, Goodbye
My job is done here.

Hello... Hello...


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For Bob Dylan

Ramblin' Bob Dylan Blues
(For Bob Dylan)



Why does the sun dry up so many scattered tears

slipping down the coarse cheek of a million hushed fears

where no one is scalded though the searing fog clears

while prayers are mutely spoken even as the end nears

We shatter and scrape on demented knees

Blindly begging for mercy as it silently flees

Searching listlessly for salvation drowned in the breeze

That spits at the soft rose suffocated by a wheeze


I know now what I need never have known

Of hope that was trampled before it had flown

Into a wasted sky filled with hate that could drown

The giggling of the crowd and the crying of the clown


A hope so fragile that its wings were of brittle glass

Ripping the veneer off the sewers of class

Twisting the fabric of the weighed and costed mass

Who numbly waited hoping that it too may pass


For when shards of that hope in all hearts scurries away

To a darkness where crowded night is emptied off the heaving tray

'Tis then when sewn eyes shall behold that doleful day

When all shall tear at each other while on demented knees we still shall pray


For a lifting of the veil of that wilful deceit

That's wrapped up in a flag swollen with conceit

While the limbs splinter in the claw of a winner's defeat

Yet still the drums roll for the ill-fated souls chose never to retreat


From that drenched battle-ground where blood flows through a sieve

And love's lost song plaintively begs for a reprieve

From eternal loss which into raw emotion does cleave

Only to slip through the fingers and like grains of sand, leave.


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See What You Saw and Ignore My Perverse Call

I was only sixteen for a moment 
Then seventeen for a second 
Who would have thought I couldn’t hold it
The kid who could do it all 
Who would have thought he would grow up and fall down
He never guessed that those speeding years would be the best
And remembered in tumbling tears
The old familiar faces are no longer around

So now I’m leaving on a journey 
Burning through the night 
Leaving some bloodstains to frame out the scars
That’ll jar our memories and blind the true life dreams
Now I’m feigning 
Killing myself by dreaming
I’m scheming on redeeming my former state
This time I won’t abate 
It’ll be straight over the broken glass
Another unspoken forsaken heart that I’m concentrated on breaking

Baby hip hop pop the top 
Ignition as result of the drop
Stop think and listen 
Silence listen 
Quiet please another tragic vision 
Lets mop up this which glistens 
I was christened as pure
Raised as evil
Lets seesaw
Lets silence your broken call
Appall them all
Why walk when I can’t crawl

The perfect fix in a simple magic trick
So damn smooth
Splendidly slick
Now for the trick 
Two simple props key to male my heart stop
Just a boy and a mirror 
And all his fear of what times brung
I’ll fix what I can’t admit
Lets silence the dreamer inside
Not to lie so if you would say goodbye 
Time to live or die
Three times thrice this won’t happen twice
I’ll look in the mirror see what I saw
Take the saw edges serrated 
Time to cut out the heart that never made it

Don’t you dare try to save it 
I’ll brave it out
Just whisper 
I can whisper like a shout 
I’m insurmountable
My dreams are unaccounted for 
Living life as a whore
I’ll give and give
Please won’t you take and take

I’ll drown in my personal fire water lake 
Condemn me for being real
Would you rather me be fake
Another choice for you to make


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Faith Healer

The odor is intolerable
Like a foul beast clinging to the end 
I can barely subdue its subterfuge 
But here I am, 
I’m standing here of sound and mind
Waiting for the time that answers my own questions

Can it race with the fires of Orc?
Doubtful, but it can jog steadily can’t it?
The weather is awful, filled with sounds
Penetrating a document not written
It pains me to fight through the night
Not because it’s dark, but because I am just a shadow.

Lester drives but
Motional lasts forever
Still driving
Still crying
And slowly dying as time waves on
Like oceans that can’t be seen.

Nobody cares and everyone listens
Ironic, like a bible that holds lies and deception
Can its will be pierced?
Can freedom stay free?
Is it worth it to stay hooked when everyone around
Seeks liberty?


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Struggle of Confusion

I'm dizzy. Yet, I cannot move at all. Nothing really makes sense.
I'm falling. Yet, my feet are firmly planted. My mind and body are playing tricks.
I'm crying. But, only on the inside. I don't know why I can't show the emotion.
I'm living. Or, is this my personal Hell? I cannot be sure, but I know I'm torn.
I'm moving on. But, occasionally think of it all. Was any of it even real?
I stand. On both feet and very tall. It's all much clearer now that you're gone.
I'm found. Yet, I was truly never lost. And now the strength to turn my cheek has finally been brought out.


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Signs

The telltale signs I'd seen
   So many, many times
And yet, somehow, 
   I always played the game

But now the game is over
   And loser that I am
The cards, they still remain
   My hand unplayed


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Abandoned Homestead

I gave you shelter from the storm,
When it was cold I kept you warm,
From blazing sun I shade your day,
Stopped the wind from blowing you away.

I gave you comfort in the night,
Watched over you while you lay sleeping,
Through my windows shone the moonlight,
Became the mulga perfumes keeping.

Now I'm not wanted any more,
Dust builds up around my door,
There are no footsteps on my floor,
I'm not wanted anymore.

I'm not wanted anymore,
No one can hear me crying,
No one comes here anymore,
I'm not wanted anymore.

Pots and pans hung from my wall,
I loved your paintings in my hall,
Departed souls I helped you mourn,
I watched your babies being born,
Now there's no children running 'round,
I miss the smell of quandong jam,
Please come back I am your home,
It hurts so much to be alone.

Now I'm not wanted any more,
Dust builds up around my door,
There are no footsteps on my floor,
I'm not wanted anymore.


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Last Day

Dear dad,

Today,
is the day
and I am afraid.
 
I will come to tell you.
I have found my someone.
So I'm asking, will you walk me through? 
Down the aisle
With my white gown.
Will you hand me over?
To this mean man.
So he can carry me away
possibly see you again someday?
Daddy?

I just wanted to let you know
As I sit on this white snow.
Writing to you.
That I am glad
You are my dad.

My heart has finally met it's match.
He's kind I tell you.
I am lucky to be with him, he's part of a special few.
But really I want to cry.
This man in all black is not mine.
Oh, why me?
That should not be dieing before my daddy!

Remember?
When I was a child.
We went for ice-cream.
We walked for a mile.
Just so I could sleep, a sweet dream.

And today
is the day
and I am afraid.
That death knocked on my door.
Took me away and married me.
Oh, how it's funny,
that you can still be free.
This is what he did daddy:

He reached out his hand,
and lied.
I lay out mine 
and I died.

So I just wanted to let you know,
That you were the best.
I am glad,
That you were my dad.

And today,
I die,
And say,
Bye, Bye.
 



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I Had This Feeling

I had this feeling
that nobody else could feel
and then I ask my girl
if what I was feeling was real.

She broke my heart
and then she tore it all apart.
So if my love wasn't made for you
then why'd you break it in two??

I had this feeling 
that I would die alone
and if it was ought to happen
it would happen at my home.

It would happen very slow
my heart would cry for you
then die for you
no one could ever love you
exactly how i do.

If you can feel my pain
then you should know its getting hard to explain
and my heart doesnt play no games
so im going insane.

I had this feeling.
I had this feeling
in my heart 
telling me to walk away
to a better a day.

I had this feeling 
that love would come my way
but it wouldn't be today.

I gave her my heart and she forced it away
on Valentines Day

I only had this feeling
because she left me with a pain
in my heart.

Im just sorry it had to be that way
over the past 60 days.


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When You Fall For The Wrong One

I guess I always knew
That it was too good to be true
That I never really had you in my hand
Just a filler, a time killer
Just a soft place you could land
Not the girl that you’d imagined or had planned
 
But now your ring is on her finger
And her name is on your heart
And I’m left here with my memories
Trying not to fall apart
 
‘Cause you let me
Slip through your fingers
You never looked back
And you let me, pick up your pieces
But I never thought that
I’d be the one in pieces
When it was over, said and done
But I guess that’s just what happens
When you fall for the wrong one
 
As crazy as it sounds, I still wouldn’t change a thing
I wouldn’t take a moment back from us
I don’t regret the moments
When you told me everything
Won’t forget the side of you
That only I know
 
But now your ring is on her finger
And her name is on your heart
And I’m left here with my memories
Trying not to fall apart
 
‘Cause you let me
Slip through your fingers
You never looked back
And you let me, pick up your pieces
But I never thought that
I’d be the one in pieces
When it was over, said and done
But I guess that’s just what happens
When you fall for the wrong one
 
It’ll hurt one day, mark my words
One day when everything falls apart
When she breaks your heart
One day you’ll reach for me
You’ll see me in your dreams
But I’ll be gone
I’ll be gone
 
‘Cause you let me
Slip through your fingers
You never looked back
And you let me, pick up your pieces
But I never thought that
I’d be the one in pieces
When it was over, said and done
But I guess that’s just what happens
When you fall for the wrong one
 
But I’ll be gone…
I’ll be gone…


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Emily, my elephant

That's not my elephant!
My elephant is purple with black hair!
I use the bill of rights as an excuse for being such a tree hugger.
Before my elephant left she said, " Bye-bye loser" whatever that meant!
I'm furious beyond belief that my elephant, Emily, would leave.
She hasn't written to tell me she's alright.
Has she been murdered or even worse,
CAPTURED!?
It's amazing.
After twenty months I still can't find you or your remains.
I held a funeral for you, in anticipation of your return.
My heart's broken beyond belief.
Wait,
who are we talking about again?


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Dear Seth

Dear Seth,
Still one more year to go because
you let things get to your head.
I know you’re trying to overcome this,
but this negativity I cannot bed.

And all the kings horses
And all the kings men
Couldn’t put your head
Back together again

If roses are red
And violets are blue
Exactly how sweet is the
Sugar I gave to you?

Dear Seth,
Things are getting rough again.
Time is going by so slow and
I’m only receiving more sad news.
It seems you’re clipping your own wings.
Your freedom you have sold.

But if Adam and Eve were meant to be
Why do I feel like Eve and you the snake?
You have fed me your poison, which
I am no longer tempted to take

If that mocking bird don’t sing
Then I’ll know I can’t change a thing
Hush baby now don’t you cry
Everything should be alright

Dear Seth,
The days are dragging by, but it
seems there is no reason for this.
There is no support left to hold.
Not even when I think how much of you I love and miss.

And all the kings horses
And all the kings men
Can never put my heart
Back together again

If roses are red
And violets are blue
Why has this sugar
Turned as bitter as you?

Dear Seth,
The day you are released from
these bars will never come.
You will always be trapped inside
for it seems now, two is lonelier than one.

But if Adam and Eve were meant to be,
With me Eve, why did you choose to be the snake?
You keep drinking the poison you find,
And the poison that you make

Not once have I heard that mocking bird sing
I know now what I did, didn’t change a thing
Hush now, don’t be so loud when you cry
Everything was supposed to be alright

Written May 29, 2009


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How could you

She sits there wondering
waiting
If you'll ever see
She's tired of waiting
crying
How could you let this be?


Locked in the system
a victim of reality
Lost to the unknown world
She sits there
Trapped in her fantasy


She stares out the window
Missing your heartbeat
Longing for your arms
But you won't ever see
You've left her to live here
die here
Drowning in a wordless sea


So many people
around her
but she can't ever tell
She's walking alone now
always
just a hollow shell


They tell her to listen
Move on
With her twisted life
She can't find a reason
a value
nothing but the blade of a knife

It's not the answer
she knows this
but the pain is just too much
You left her to bleed here
lie here
when she only craved your touch

Up in the air she raises
the blade oh so high
So many people
she's leaving
without a single goodbye

Plastic as a doll's toy
her smile was
But you couldn't see
That all she ever wanted
just you
but you had to leave

She sits there wondering
waiting
If you'll ever see
She grew tired of waiting
of crying
How could you let this be?


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There Has Been

There has been to many times that i cried
late at night because of lies
but now its time for me to spread my wings and fly.

Fly away to another day so I can live
then close my eyes so i can pray and relieve my sins.
Every child that is born will witness this
this horrible place in which we live no one will ever miss.

There has been to many times in which people died
with every breath there is another death.
We cry for God when there is nothing left
so when you cry dont cry out blood 
when your thinking of your dying love

There has been
There has been a start end.
So which one are you??
So everything i have said really is the truth.


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Gorgeous Nightmare

The sound of your voice echoes through my head like a broken record player. 
My mind is at the break of insanity. 
Why must you leave my poor soul cold,just like your heart? 
They locked you away because you fell in love with death, they wouldn't let you leave even though your dead inside. 
Your love with death was so sweet... Sometimes when your sad death would just kiss your arms to help your mind cope with the reality that you lost yourself and who you were was never going to return. 
I watched your memories bleed through your pale weak arms. 
I miss when we were just little kids, we'd sing to each other until the sun would rise.
They took you Away! They have taken you away you from me!!.... One night you came so close to escaping with death, but they wouldn't let that happen.
That night deaths place was taken by insanity.
Sissy...if your still in there ... I love you.
I sit outside the mad house where your soul remains, every night... All night long I sit by your window and sing sweet lullaby's.... I'm sure your in there dancing with insanity. 
I'm not leaving till they let your soul free from from that god forbidden place. 
But until then I'll keep on singing and you keep on dancing with your lover. Sometimes your broken memories whispers out your window to me "Isn't this a gorgeous nightmare?"


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MIRAGE IN ICY MIRROR

What mirage reflects on the icy mirror!
O, Homo Sapiens! What appears everyday
On the lying truth of this reflecting error
That riles the phony nutshell of intellect
Haunting with vague foggy mysterious ray
Over as if on intuitive microscopic insect.
Mirage it is indeed that conceals reality
And heaps lie to build an illusory city.

Mirror reflects but visible outer frailty
But further frailties veil on the other side
So that slight goodness appears mighty.
What mirage reflects on the icy mirror!
Like a lost sailor who turns ideal guide
By creating a shifty wreath of terror.
Mirage it is indeed that hinders sanity
And heaps lie to build an illusory city.


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Synthetic Love

Written May 1, 2013


Where does it end
Oh where's it end
With a synthetic loving man
Right where we began
Where it began

Love is such a simple thing
Why does it dangle on a string
Like slow spinning redemption
Waiting for the start of spring

The autumn harvest left me here
A new day breeds the new year
Romantics drop like leaves
From a tree so easily

Where's it end
Oh where's it end
With a synthetic loving man
Right where we began
Where it began


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Goth

Somber grey,true dismay
Abstruse plight,day is night
Assailants might,no armistice
           Goth
Abatoirs full of disgorge
A world depraved,a blackish haze
Ignominous calamity
            Goth
Fathomless,the abyss
Callosity,the damned to be
Feinous atrocities
             Goth
Evil adulation,whole affectation
Amoral fixation,mind controlled nations
Robotic existence,lost in decadence
             Goth


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ECLIPSE

The rays of Sun cannot reach this earthly surface
Since the sunshine is eclipsed and glows no more.
Some ominous obsession is haunting like menace.
Something is rotten at heart of earth, slightly sore.

Sin-drenched hearts, revengeful souls cannot feel
The sufferings of mankind, the sinking humanity
Nor their own downfall of that inner ethical zeal.
A dark shade covers, darkens their ethical sanity.

That luminescence of heart has eclipsed in dark
And emotion cannot fathom its diabolical depth.
In that core, now, some menacing monsters lurk
To eat up what illumines us with its serene breath.


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Havent You Caused Enough Damage

I feel like Darkness has come to get me
There’s nothing but pain in my life now
All I have left to give are the pieces of my heart
This is what you did to me

Haven’t you caused enough damage?
Haven’t you caused me enough pain?
All I want from you now is for you to leave me alone
Haven’t you caused enough damage?

It’s like I’m floating on dark clouds
That I’ll never see by
It’s all because of the pain I feel
It’s all that you have caused me

Haven’t you caused enough damage?
Haven’t you caused me enough pain?
All I want from you now is for you to leave me alone
Haven’t you caused enough damage?

Well I guess you’ve hurt me for the last time
But you don’t know when to quit
I guess I’ll have to teach you
What it’s like to get your heart broken


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For All My Pain

Your blood is what was Sacrificed And in Blood we Shall Bathe No more pain nor more hate Will be shed for me ...This is only a desperate dream A slight tender touch on the largest of wounds can leave you screaming for an eternity Dreaming of an escape, A friend from a figment of dark a world from the abyss of my mind Set to fix all of your transgressions Every time you left, abandoned, stranded, forget me A human heart has a limit but It's only I who is left to blame Drifting beyond Aphelion Why must the loudest of Cries Go unheard Maybe You'll know why I want Thagirion to Answer my Masked Prayers For All My Pain Constraining Me Making my Saturnine Mind Climb to the Apex Just to Fall again Maybe You'll know why I want Thagirion to answer all of my masked prayers For All My Pain Everyone turning against me I can't keep living a lie like this Lost In Life When death is the only hope Nothing is left to stay But the Fear of being afraid Let me lose this Let me enter another world Drifting beyond Aphelion Why must the loudest of Cries Go unheard Maybe You'll know why I want Thagirion to Answer my Masked Prayers For All My Pain Constraining Me Making my Saturnine Mind Climb to the Apex Just to Fall again Maybe You'll know why I want Thagirion to answer all of my masked prayers For All My Pain Drifting beyond Aphelion Why must the loudest of Cries Go unheard Maybe You'll know why I want Thagirion to Answer my Masked Prayers For All My Pain Constraining Me Making my Saturnine Mind Climb to the Apex Just to Fall again Maybe You'll know why I want Thagirion to answer all of my masked prayers For All My Pain


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Let's Party With the Wicked

The first big party of the year
Right after the pre-season game
A bunch of juniors and seniors take off
Driving around down the highway.
Pulling up to the designated house
Where the parents aren't at home
They don't know about the party
Their "honor student" has thrown.
Music is blasting from speakers all around
As people shove away couches to dance
Furniture's broken, but nobody cares
The party's a once-in-a-lifetime chance.
Things start to heat up
As guys bring in kegs of beer
Even freshmen took a drink, thinking,
"Total freedom; there are no parents here!"
Pretty soon, every thing's trashed,
And the people leave to go home
Late at night, right after that party,
People pull out onto the road.
Pandemonium wreaks havoc 
Twenty minutes after they leave
As all across the small town,
Cars begin to weave.
Cars crash like dominoes
In a simultaneous effect
Parents are in a panic
Wondering where their children have been left.
Bodies are splayed out all over the road
As metal tears and glass breaks
All of this, because of one little party
And because some students chose to drink.
Their best friends are in body bags
And their parents are engulfed in grief
And all because of that one party
And that stupid choice to drink.
Honor students now lay dead
Choir members in bags
Band players are gone forever
The other stories are just as bad.
Alcohol checks are administered
And even young ones are to blame
"It's not my fault, I was drugged!"
One sophmore dares to claim.
"It was just a little alcohol," they say,
As it rages through their system
"I didn't mean to kill anybody,
But now, I wish I were with them."
The nickname for this awful crash
And this tragic night
Truly lives up to its name:
"The Wicked has take flight."
Drinking and driving don't mix
And these students learned the hard way
It was just a little fun,
But their friends won't be back Monday.
Some say it wasn't their fault
And that everbody did it,
But really, everyone's to blame
For thinking, "Let's party with the Wicked."


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Hello old fame, old money goodbye

When will I get this back
is it far too late
I already stepped on the crack,
now I'm, far too off the map-

Sometimes I wish it were forever,
others, I ponder and regret
but it's a rotten apple, it's spoiled inside
but the outside hasn't been touched yet

Chorus
So hello immortality,
I've quite missed my best friend
you've been gone for too long now
and now it starts again

again when everything rising up
left everyone in despair,
I promise to reject that absence,
cause i'm coming back for good and again

Here I stand again now,
revolver glued to my hand,
society calls, and I repent
this music stays alive again

I wait for the day it's over
I wait for the day it's the end
But unaware, I abide the death
But my timeless meanings occur again

Chorus Repeat*


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The Ice Frozen Box, I Like To Call My Heart

            The Ice Frozen Box, I Like To Call My Heart
8/04/10
By: Sami LaRose


In times of evaporation, the heart fades away
Looking for a newer and brighter day.
He strolls alongside Park Avenue
Then he see’s something he would never expect.
A big bullet right through his cheats!
He falls to the floor and aches in pain
He did not expect to end it this way
But this is merely only the puncher wound to the heart.
The other was much deeper and darker, (and made him fall apart)
But this one stings just as bad.
No matter what they say,
She knew she shouldn’t of taken her heart out to play these silly games
So she takes her bleeding heart, ever
So carefully, and places it in a box for all of eternity.
It shall forever lie in the ice frozen box.
Keep her heart as cold as her soul
And whenever it hearts up from love,
The iron shackles around the chamber
Shall tighten up, and bring it down.
So you see it’s better to keep yourself
Isolated and depressed
Then alive and happy
Because only one of those ends badly.


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Christmas - It's Just Another Day For Me

Christmas...

It's just another day
Another day for me

I won't get any presents
I won't sit beside a lighted tree

It's just another day
Another day to try and survive


Another day to try and find food to eat
Another day to try and stay alive

It always seems to be just another day
Another day to try and do my best

Another day to hug my children
Another day to pray to God to help me rest


Christmas is just another day...
Just as previous years have come before

Another day to sit and wonder
Where I'll be, when I don't have a house anymore

It's just another day to think about
Where and when things went all wrong

To wonder if all of our elected politicians
Care to see what is really going on

I am just an average American
who has always been just fine

But without a job to go too
I've fallen below the poverty line


I don't want to be here
I don't want to lose everything I own

I want to be able to afford the Internet
I want to be able to have a phone

I want to be able to have a car to drive
I want to able to go to work

I want my children to be safe and warm
I want to have some money in my purse

I am sick and tired of all of my days
Being unproductive and the same

I am sick of sleeping hungry and cold
I am sick of not knowing where I am going to stay

I am sick of my life being on hold
I don't want to have to live this way

So Christmas is just another day...
Another day for me to see

All the things that I am missing
Another year my children won't have a tree

But another day to love my children
The bright spots in my life

Another day to go to church and pray
for those who are living just like me
Those who are still living
Daily with my strife.

 
(December 23,  2010 Wausau, Wisconsin) 

(c) Copyright 2010 by Christine A Kysely, All Rights Reserved,


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You Went Away

Another summer here alone
why you left me so cold chilled to the bone
it sinks in when i see you in stone

I walk around in a daze
forgetting the look on your face
nothing fills my heart but empty space
i showed you my darkest place

They tell me that i will be okay
but not today
I cry from the last words i heard you say

Living alone in this place
i think of you so i can escape
A place where i used to see you
Happy and breathing

but not anymore...

A place where you died in pain
It was a shame 
that you couldnt be saved

This day i will remember
because its the day that you went away


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In--

This itching
It’s like a drug withdrawal
From my body

And I fall
But I don’t do this intentionally
I do this because 
It’s what I do

No stepping of the ledge
Easily—
No willing sacrifice
Just me
Falling—
Because there is no where else 
To walk

This is me
This is who I am
This is what I do

Do not thank me for it
I do not want it

But don’t also think this 
Saddens me
Or inconveniences me 
In anyway

This is what I do
This is who I am
This is me

Think of me as a tool
A well-guided instrument
To a poorly thought-out 
Providence

This is it…

Or maybe 
Simply
That one you forgot 

You remember 
Now that I prod you

I’m the method—
You used to know


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prayers on mute

Some of us are built 
For harsh conditions
Suffrage held
Within a wicked vision
Reprimanded as a man
How can your father reprimand this hand
Discipline disciples 
in a cycle that would not turn in sand
Held in Carthage 
A piece of a Martian
Some say I’m soon to be departing
Pieces of gold in a bronze room
Shining through chivalry and doom
Sterile silvery praising a ring for the groom
All prized possessions of doubt now loom
Pushing the broom
On a straw bed 
Don’t u love this coon
You can be kind to the cruelest person
And at the end of the day 
They’re still cruel and worsened 
This worlds got to end
No sanctuary circles my morbid realms
I’m away from peace
And aware that it will never cease

Only time can stop me now 
Wishes sealed over a candle in a darkened hall
Head down I just might die on this wall
In this race I’ll survive somehow
Only time can stop me now 

I’m so scared 
Where are your prayers
I was so scared 
Why weren’t you there
I’m so scared 
should I have been spared


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takin my love 4 granted

Im feeling really sad
cus youre not actin right
you taking my love for granted
and that just aint right
I dont know 
if I should stay or leave
im so confuse
you hardly say you love me
so tell me wats goin on
whos that on the phone
I know you cheating every
other week
and have the nerve to say
you love me
(lately)
I been feeling so alone
I feel a prescence in my home
every room is a story
of you screwing on me
I love you with all my heart
but I gotta let you go
you have the nerve to be insecure
when youre the one being a ho...
tell me wats goin on
between you and the phone
I smell a foreign scent
in between the sheets
you been with another
beside being with me
"then move the hell on"...


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And my crime was being English

You faked friendship with me
And my crime was being English

You feigned interest in what I had to say
And my crime was being English

You sarcastically smiled at me
And my crime was being English


You omitted to give me information
And my crime was being English

You wrote notes behind my back
And my crime was being English


Your jealousies oozed from all of your pores
And my crime was being English

You stabbed the knives into my face
And my crime was being English

You tore my nation to shreds
And my crime was being English



You told me I would not be welcome
And my crime was being English

You pretended I wasn’t there
And my crime was being English

You left me standing lonely
And my crime was being English

Will you leave me alone to die
For my crime of being English? 


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Saying so Long

I can’t believe you took that step,
I didn’t think you would cross that line.
Now you’re the only one left,
Who will be the one left behind.
I can’t figure out why.

Now I can’t even reach out,
For now you’re too far gone.
When you gave back into temptation,
That’s when it all went wrong.
To an old friend now I must say so long.

No there’s nothing left to say,
In how you parted ways.
Then all the sudden you were gone,

Faded away into the night.
You gave up all your hope,
You gave up all your rights.

You left us with no choice, 
No you never cared to hear our voice.
Now we can’t go on with you in our life,
As you let us be your sacrifice.
I wonder when you lost your light.

No use in picking up the pieces,
Left scattered on the floor.
You lived through so many empty seasons,
What else were you looking for?
Trying to hide behind glass doors.

Then you got to the edge,
You didn’t even want to look down.
That’s when you just jumped right in,
To where you could now never be found.
We never did hear a sound.

When I think of you,
All I can think of is all you have missed.
I just can’t comprehend it.
If I could it would be such a granted wish.

Time has now passed by,
From where you are can you see how we’ve had to move on?
Now somewhere your dust in eternity.
When you should have just come along.
To an old friend I must say so long…


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Apophis

You say you know no saviour,
You say you know no God. 
But find your scripts and rosary,
You'll need them when I'm done. 

Seven armies couldn't stop me.
Seven horsemen couldn't budge
All that I have inside me,
And that I've become. 

Never underestimate your enemies
I've got my scars for all to see
And I'm not done yet.
Never underestimate your enemies
Or what I'll do for victory.
Shield your eyes so you don't see
That I'm not done yet. 

Happiness; I've done all I can.
Loneliness, let go of my hand.
I've got my scars for all to see
And I'm not done yet. 

Drink your holy water and cleanse inside,
I'm waiting until midnight.
I won't stop until I hold your heart.
I won't stop until own your soul. 

This evil plays such a pretty song,
You know the words now sing along.
Oh the notes they sound so sweet
In this dark, dark, dark symphony. 

Happiness; I've done all I can.
Loneliness, let go of my hand.
I've got my scars for all to see
And I'm not done yet.

Never underestimate your enemies
I've got my scars for all to see
And I'm not done yet.
Never underestimate your enemies
Or what I'll do for victory.
Shield your eyes so you don't see
That I'm not done yet


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A Road to Nowhere

A road to nowhere A picturesque scene of trees turning bare Fresh autumn scents filling the air And a young woman on a journey traveling from here to there With a slow, steady pace and tapping shoes She creates an east rhythm to hum along to Walking along, not a care in the world Living her life, and living it well The cool crisp air softly blowing at her knees Coming throughout the autumn trees For a moment it almost seems Things aren't really ever as bad as they tend to seem Soaking in the last bit of light with a peaceful flow She passes along the last few trees with golden leaves shinning abode The now setting sun begins to give off a warm orangey red glow Setting off her long blonde hair as it moves to and fro Then out of the gleaming sky Fighting her rising fear from deep with inside Her heartbeat quickens, as she tries keeping a steady stride Hairs prickling up upon her neck, a raven screeches as it swoops by The absence oh heat, so abrupt Leaves her with chills, so corrupt Touching her soul as if almost freezing up Upon her face lay a perfect cut A gush of wind cuts across her chest And her forehead quickly covers with little beads of sweat Just as she's starting to fear she can't go on She twirls and turns then starts to run She whirls around but falls to her knees Blood slowly dripping down from her cheek The raven appears with an open beak Ans lets out a bloodcurdling screech "Raven, Raven, oh please don't die!" She laughs And looks upon the bird with a menacing smile Then lets out a satisfying sigh "Just please don't die" She gracefully stands with blood-lust filled eyes Her tapping shoes carrying her off into the night Her Raven black hair rocking to and fro And off down the road to nowhere she goes
Inspired by The Raven by Edgar Allen Poe


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The World is Ugly

More delliquit than a flower
Stranded on an island of thieves 
Rising up from the ashes of the 
burning trees

The constant smell of burning flesh
We laid down to rest

The crisp feel of the leaves
Bark burning at a raging speed
But our eyes are to blind to see

What I feel is no less 
That would be your guess



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Come Back Daniel

Come back Daniel
You cannot go outside to play
Come Back, Daniel
I told you to do what I say!

Wake up Daniel
You have to get ready for school
Wake up, Daniel
You know you must follow the rules

Goodbye Daniel
Yes, mama folded your shirt!
Goodbye, Daniel
Drive straight back home after work...

(Come back Daniel
We never went outside to play
Come back, Daniel
There's so much I still had to say

Wake up Daniel
You've got to get out of this school
Wake up, Daniel
Somebody changed the damn rules

Goodbye Daniel
Mama still cries in your shirt
Goodbye, Daniel
Just thought I'd drop by after work)


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YOU STOPPED LOVING HER TODAY

       YOU STOPPED LOVING HER TODAY
The very least you should expect is emptiness
throughout your lifetime, pain and bitterness
there is no end that you can ever find
to end the never ending struggle in your mind.

They tell you, someday you'll get over it
and as your life goes on you will forget
but dying hearts know that's the thing to say
appeasement to the pass of time and dying day.

How many nights will pain be everything?
There's not a way to stop what love can bring
nor change the way you feel in any light
it's always there part of your life both day and night.

You think on death how peaceful it must be
but dead is what you are and constantly
so lay you down to sleep in any way
and then it can be said, 
.............................you stopped loving her today.
© ron wilson


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Juxtapose

I must be getting old,
beginning to hate the cold,
perhaps instinctively,subconsciously knowing
cold's connection to death,
I can hardly catch my breath,
smoking like a fiend
since I was fifteen,
knuckle enlarged and red,
the pounding in my head,
just wanting to take to my bed
but worried I might wake up dead,
sometimes I wake up confused, bemused
not knowing where I am
not recognizing the room
and feeling a sudden sense of doom
remembering the womb
and fearing the tomb...
one time I woke up and didn't
even know who I was:
complete amnesia for a few moments
some kind of mental seizure
my mind was blank as I wildly eyed the room
and tried and tried
to remember who-what-where,
a brief but horrific loss of my humanity,
a glimpse of pure insanity
heart gripping panic I won't soon forget
and yet...and yet
in my mind I am still young
while I try to reconcile the contrast between
that youth in my mind
with the passing of time
as I slowly slip my tongue
over the smooth gums
where once there were teeth
and the few I have left give me
nothing but grief
rotten and black
breaking in half
I spit out pieces that look like
they came from King Tut,
I keep my mouth shut
afraid to speak or smile
all the while
knowing the taste of death,
it's on my breath,
I grasp the depression that comes with age
and the impotence of elderly rage
and once again I see that child I once was,
blonde and tanned and running wild,
building castles on the beach,
skin hot and brown and hair sun-bleached,
my father carries me into the water,
gray haired man and tow-head daughter,
the surf is wild, churning 'round his legs
but his stride is true and brave
he lifts me me high above the waves
I hug his neck, he's in his prime
and now I wish I could turn back time
and stay there now and evermore
that endless summer at the shore
when I was five, or maybe four.


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Rosaline

Moonlight shines down on my cold, pale face I am alone, her raven calling, I am disgrace Falling as the willows weep, I hold her in my arms as she struggles to breathe Rosaline, my one love divine. You are sacred You are mine Her voice rising above the water Beautiful Rosaline sang silently to me The whispers trailing off her fingers, as she faded into the darkness My beautiful angel has vanished again Goodbye my Beautiful Rosaline. Happened that Grim reckless day when the shadows began to play Beauty detonated in my trust No more, no more will there ever be a witch so grand, as to bring back my Beloved Rosaline Sorrow cuts it's way into my heart It is the locked key, the one you keep Her voice rising above the water Beautiful Rosaline sang silently to me The whispers trailing off her fingers, as she faded into the darkness My beautiful angel has vanished again Goodbye my Beautiful Rosaline So leaving this Tragic scene I vanished from Rosaline's sight Nevermore will there ever be a witch so grand, as to bring back my Beloved Rosaline Her voice rising above the water Beautiful Rosaline sang silently to me The whispers trailing off her fingers, as she faded into the darkness My beautiful angel has vanished again Goodbye my Beautiful Rosaline. Enchanting she sang to me, in the everlasting light of peace My beautiful siren walks again Goodnight my Beautiful Rosaline


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Choices

Verse one:
Faced with a decision to choose this or that.
Presented with an option where I can't go back.
Not really sure I've taken the right path.
when karma returns will she bite me back.
Come seeking vengeance or just pat my back.
I've made this choice,
Now I abide by it.
Chorus:
I must choose correctly,
So that I don't fail.
I must choose correctly,
Between heaven and hell.
If I choose correctly,
I won't suffer fate.
I must choose correctly,
Before it's too late.
Verse two:
Stuck with the consequences each time I act.
Tucked in a bed, I've made for myself.
See only I have this chance to choose right.
I carve out my own path.
I must think it over, before I hit the gas.
Decide with my whole heart, or be unmasked.
Consider it carefully, before I make my move.
Chorus:
I must choose correctly
I must choose correctly


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Goodbye

Goodbye
It seems like I just met you
And yet it has been three years
It seems like I just started to fall in love with you
Two years have passed
It seems like we just got married 
And it has been a year and a half
But here I am 
Standing here 
As you break my heart
And walk away
I cannot keep begging you to stay
My heart does not work that way
And as much as I long for you 
I know I will be better off 
I wish it did not hurt so badly
I wish I could just be mad
However I cannot deny
That I will always love you 
And a part of me died the day 
You walked out that door
Without even saying 

~Goodbye~

By: Jean Shular


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you so fired

everywhere I go
people tellin me,
you with a diffrent lady
evey other week,
you say you love me
im the one you need,
but what you said
is not wat it seems to be...

you full of lies
you have tricks up ya sleeves
you get around
you sleepin with fleas
if birds flock together
then move on
I dont need you bringin
fleas to me

dont even try to testify
I caught you with my third eye
I have edvidence
I have proof of you
sleepin in my bed 
with more than two,
if you cant believe 
I caught you,
I can play the tape
the for you
and dont even lie
and say it wasnt you
boy im through with you

"you so fired"


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This is I

It was pointed out to me today that I am self absorbed
My words did not come
For I was stung
Realizing they were right


It was pointed out to me today that I am self centered
I looked at the floor
For I was stung
Realizing that they could see through me


It was pointed out to me today that I am self contained
I pulled at my hands
For I was stung
Realizing that they were exposing me


It was pointed out to me today that I have no concern for anyone but myself
I choked on my words and clenched my fists 
For I was stung
Realizing that they knew me too well


This is what I have become


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The Feather

I look at my life 
As I see nothing but my past
So many people die
To heavy of a mass

As I sigh, but not in relief
As I watch as everything disappears around me,
No running, no laughter, and I can’t hear a sound,
As I slowly, but hardly fall to the ground

The heroes as they call them,
They come in haste
As I can’t even sigh
As I can hear the sound of worry 

No thoughts run in my mind
As I lay there as they put needles in me
I feel as if people can see my soul out of my eyes
As death passes my face of discovery

I’ve always thought that a feather was a lie
They might be little but when they deplete over time
As my families disappointed and your friends just left
All alone you would have to face DEATH


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We Walk Amongst The Faithful

We walk amongst the faithful. Unknown to human eyes. So normal and so human, They can't see through our disguise. The tears of angels made us As they flew down from the sky. They didn't want to do it, So all they did was cry. We're stuck amongst the ruin. The horror and despair. We've seen a bit too closely To the heart of Evil's lair. We walk amongst the faithful. Unknown to human eyes. So normal and so human, They can't see through our disguise. We're scarred up on the inside, But outside we're just fine. We hide the truth so well They can't see into our lies. Our daddies were all drinkers. And when they would get mad, They'd take it out us poor souls, And boy were we so glad When Daddy drank himself to sleep, And we could go and hide. Carve another scar into our heart Which was hidden deep inside. We walk amongst the faithful Unknown to human eyes So normal and so human They can't see through our disguise. Our mommies all liked men Perhaps a bit too much They sampled fair and far And didn't mind the touch. When Mommy fell asleep, Her boyfriends would come down And they would scare us half to death And they'd start to mess around. And after they were done Ravaging our broken souls We'd take our chance to run And hide from things we'd never know. We walk amongst the faithful Unknown to human eyes So normal and so human They can't see through our disguise. Our families are all broken We have no place to hide No place to let our tears out Let out what hurts inside. And now we sit here all alone In this dark corner as all hope Evades our longing hands We've lost our way to cope. And now we hide our feelings And what they've done to every “me”. We hold our chins up high. We do not let them see. We walk amongst the faithful Unknown to human eyes So normal and so humans Can't see through our disguise We pretend it doesn't happen We can't let anyone know Our traitor of a heart Is something we can't show. Would anyone even understand What we hold inside our hearts? Or would we be a freak show A different world apart? Maybe one day we will find one Every single one of us Someone who will understand Someone we can trust.


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No More

No more kissing you insanely
Feeling passion blush across my body
The warmth of your hands to guide me
No more feeling your heart beat next to mine
The sweat of our bodies meeting, cling
Cling onto one another lost becoming one
No more, rhythmic lovemaking in our own time.
Lost in our own obtuse formation of tangling 
limbs
Struggling to please each others' fixation
Delighted and thrilled 
No more to you the man I love
No more love 


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The road 1

     The road
is
       Death's open yawn
epicentre
of strange treaties-
mist of starched martyrs
in trajectory's startled
steep,
mangled contortions
in frozen screams


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Brotherly Graves (by Vladimir Vysotsky)

BROTHERLY  GRAVES

On brotherly graves wooden crosses don’t stand,
No widows weep there, mourning,
On mass graves you see only flowers and
The fire, eternally burning.

The earth here ruffled with stony waves
When mortars were ripping the planet.
There is no personal fate in these graves – 
All fates merged in one under granite!

I see in the flame, that forever is lit,
A village burnt down to coals,
A tank that is flaming and there in it
I see burning soldiers’ souls!

On brotherly graves no widows weep,
And there they put no crosses …
But it doesn’t mean our grief isn’t deep
And we have forgotten the losses!

Translated by George Tokarev

©  GEORGE  TOKAREV  2003


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This Is The End.

I'm on the top of the highest building 
and you're still on the ground.
Looking down at you I always know 
there is a possibility of this crashing down.
I see down into your eyes, but are you even looking up at me?
I take one long deep breath, this could be my last. 
I scream at the top of my lungs!
Can you hear me now or
have you turned a deaf ear? 
I'm on the top of the highest building 
and it's grown crystal clear. 
I fall to my knees and it begins to rain.
Is this a sign of how things have changed? 
I guess things will never be the way they used to be.
I must realize that distance isn't the only thing that's grown between you and me. 
I'll never understand how you let this fall from your hands.
You had the whole wide world.
You let it slip right through the cracks. 
So I stand at the top of the highest building
and let the rain wash through my hair. 
I've realized something and that's everywhere 
that I now turn I know you won't be there. 
There is nothing that I can do, not a word I can say. 
I can't say that I didn't try, can't say a tear I did not cry. 
I must move forward, and leave the past behind. 
I won't let you in my life again.
This is the end.


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Change

Change is the way the we all can relate,
We change fate, change hate, change the things that degrate,
And at a range, change seems like it only does great,
But isn't it strange, change can lead to such a great debate,
When it was only meant to open up gates,
For the men and women who want equal rights and rate,
For the broken soldiers, held by their brothers,
Only waiting to be seen, in the end,
By their mothers in crates...

As she throws herself upon it with no restraint,
There can be no mistake,
Even though it seems so fake,
She waits in the aftermath of this wake,
For the world to find the right path,
Have no hate,
But all around she sees wrath,
Losses faith,
And decides to forge her own path,
Through the gate,
To the powers that be,
The power select,
The power of the people that we elect,
The power they neglect,

So she argues certain elements,
With rhetoric and relevance,
And scholarly intelligence,
But all they ever tell her is...
"We'll get back to this,"
When they really mean is...
"Stop reminiscing on past events,"

She decided that she can't really live without her kid,
And takes a little stroll off the Brooklyn Bridge,
Do you know what she asked when she had the floor?
Just for a little bit of change like I said before.... 
 


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Switch

Glide Slide Through the maze Fake For my sake To keep you distantly near Take This silent token Do not worry I am not broken I'm left with the sea green lake Tangled in my heart I am not sorry One Two Three Switch To keep you Close To keep you Far Hope That one day It will be the same But The two fold rope Tattered it lay Only playing the game Fear Taking over I beg please My dear Don't let it shatter Run Done For the sun I am the fool Who breaks the rules For a moment of fresh air Just to keep you close Just to keep you near So you can slip away


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Monster

My rage builds up inside
This is the face that cried
The body that died

The world that has no more space
This is the hand that bruised your face
The blood I taste

The depression deep inside my soul
These are the hands that are so cold
The hate that can't unfold

The life placed upon Thee'
These are the eyes that cannot see
The things that should not be

The shame that was placed
This is the mistake that cannot be erased
The time we have left to chase

The words that were spoken too clear
These are the ears that cannot hear
The friend who is no longer near

Shayla Dendinger


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Haunting

Every night I go to bed,
And you always end up inside my head,
I can't take a single breath,
With your figure beside my bed.

Now I can't sleep,
Your voice keeps kissing me,
And I can't dream,
With you beside me.

You're gone,
But you keep haunting me.
Everywhere I go,
You're right behind me.
You're driving me insane,
Because your voice is haunting my brain.

And I am bleeding.
All these signs,
I thought were leading,
Are just a bunch of,
Lies...

You take my breath away.
Boy.
But I am just shame to you.
Boy.
I can't take this anymore.
Boy.
My body has just hit the floor!

You're gone,
But you keep haunting me.
Everywhere I go,
You're right behind me.
You're driving me insane,
Because your voice is haunting my brain.

I can't take this,
Haunting.
It continues to,
Scare me.
I'm so scared I'm,
Crying.
And I don't want to take this,
Everything I wanted,
Is gone.

You're gone,
But you keep haunting me.
Everywhere I go,
You're right behind me.
You're driving me insane,
Because your voice is haunting my brain.

Dreams are dreamt.
I'm just not so content.
With myself anymore.
And this,
Haunting,
Has,
Killed me...


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Lost

I can not hope, I dare not dream
I should not speak, for I might scream
So full and yet so empty, this hole I have in my heart
Too weak to hold it together, so tired of falling apart
Memories of the sunshine and a time when I could smile
Was it really so much better then, or was I in denial?
Now I am numb-lost inside myself-and I can't see the light
Where is my will to keep going? Where is my strength to fight?
Never truly feeling at peace, no matter how hard I try
Never truly forgiving myself for letting my life pass me by
What's left to hold on to? I feel like I've already let go
How do I accept the loss of the me I used to know?


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In This Room Painted Black

We layed in that bed.
We told jokes and stories from when we were younger.
There in that room painted black.
We'd stay up all night long telling jokes and funny tid bits.
And laugh loud enough to wake the whole house.
We were inseperable, invincible to the world that surrounded us.
Because me and you were so locked tight.
You were my one and only friend, my confident.
The only person I could tell anything and everything to,
as I was to you.
I miss your impressions of other people.
I miss the way you'd laugh.
I miss the ditzy things you would say.
But thats all changed now.
Because you aren't here anymore.
There are no more jokes.
And no more stories from our past.
We don't stay up all night together like we used to,
and the laugher is just an echo in my sweet memories of us.
Us when we were inseperable, invincible to the world that surrounded us.
We aren't locked tight like we used to be.
I miss my one and only best friend, my confident.
The only person i could tell anything and everything to.
As I lay in this bed.
In this room painted black.


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Tears in Her Hair

She's  lying here
Against my cheek
My tears in her hair

Thank God for dreams 
So I can have
The things I can't 
have

I hold her hand
I can't see her face
I kiss her on her
head

Please let me sleep
And put my heart to ease
My tears in her
Hair
Thank God for dreams 
So I can have
The things I can't 
Have
Please let me be
So I can dream

My tears in her
Hair


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beautiful angel

must be on a cloud somewhere looking down on me you're frowning cause you see me struggling without you I'm not flying on the ground crying trying to live each day then I remember the song you used to sing to me and I know it would be okay beautiful angel let your dreams guide you you will always be forever even when you fall know i will catch you beautiful angel must be flying around somewhere looking for me but I won't be where I'm supposed to I am hiding so afraid to try being free then I remember the song you used to sing to me and I know you'll be there beautiful angel let your dreams guide you you will always be forever even when you fall know i will catch you beautiful angel I'm your beautiful you're my beautiful yeah yeah yeah we're beautiful angels


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Some Things Are Just Not Meant To Be

Some things are just not meant to be
just as the oceans meet from sea to sea
tides rising high and low
things always are as they will always be

Some things are just inevitable
like the Sun rising on the morrow
pushing away the solitary moon
basking in her sorrow

Just as the seasons change
Winter always turns to Spring
just as the morning birds do sing
life continues on

Life continues on 
nature stays her course
without any cares for the wishes
of any woman or any man

(May 10th, 2011 Wausau, Wisconsin)


(c) Copyright 2011 by Christine A Kysely, All Rights Reserved


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'The Cowboy On The Battlefield ... ' (Cowboy Poem # 12)

Young Cowboy On The Battlefield
Remembered His Mama’s Words
‘Just Make It Home, Son …’
Her Voice Echoed, As He Heard …

Rapid-Fire and Revolution
Missiles, Right and Left
Bomb-Blasts and Confusion
… and Silent Tears, He’s Wept

… Every Day, A Minefield
Every Night, A Raid
Every Moment, A Terror
Trying to Make Him Afraid …

Any Second, A Horror
Of A Buddy, Laid To Rest
Every New Tomorrow
Wondering, What’s Next ?

The Cowboy On The Battlefield
Vigilant and Brave
Stood Ramrod Tall and Terse …
Looking At Her Grave …

‘Just Make It Home, Son … ‘
… Echoed Thru His Brain
‘Just Make It Home, Son …’
… Echoed Thru The Rain

And Just Before She Was Laid To Rest
She Said, ‘Just Make It Home, Son …’
And With Those Last Words, She Blessed,
And Said, ‘I’ll Be Waiting, When You Come …’

                    * * * *

… Old Cowboy, On The Battlefield
Remembers His Mama’s Words
‘Just Make It Home, Son … 
… and We’ll Celebrate Our Return …


Of  Note:  In The Words Of A Lady Rocker,
Pat Benatar:   ‘Love Is A Battlefield’
(but I Say, 'Life Is A Battlefield'


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Broken Soul

Erika Raiken.
"Me Against Myself"
7/1/2011

Put your smile on your face kid, yea that's right, and forget about letting them know. Wipe your tears, pull that knife out your back. There you go. Play soldier, with your head held high, and smile like a champ. Now forget the pain and rip out, rip out your cursed bleeding heart.The heat of it. A thousand cindering tongues licking at your very soul. Corruption lurking in shadows, and yet there is no shade. Just shards that cut like razors in your chest. These are just the mistakes we make, coming from chances we shouldn't have taken. Is there any better way to say "Go To Hell" than E Tu Brute? And Caesar fell. This cataclysmic apocalypse, tearing the demons from your chest, and making them real. A century deep, yet sixteen years true. Sparkling
vision as the tears come. Wipe them now, don't let them see the pain that lurks inside of me, inside of you, inside of every broken soul this world can muster. And through all this drunken rage you find a peace three years deep. Now wake up, 
and remember those years are rotting in some gutter next to Edgar Allan Poe and his Raven. Nevermore! Put that smile on your face kid, and forget about letting them know how dead you are inside. Wipe your tears, and pull that knife with that glistening hollow-point smile, Forget the pain, and rip out the Cursed. Bleeding. Heart


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EVILS ARE RISING

I was walking beneath the dimness of a misty night
With a cheerful mind full of optimism, “all is well”.
Myriad noises were hovering in hectic riots of light
Yet one mild voice made my silent conscience swell.

I was passing by so hurriedly while I abruptly heard
A grave utterance of an infant unto another, saying,
“Really, people of this world have become so bad”.
I became astounded by a kid’s deep understanding.

Cynicality has left a mark even in softest of bosom.
I wonder why an innocent child would remark thus
Though it had not met with reality, harsh, gruesome.
Or was it already a victim, like each enslaved mass?

Perhaps his tiny eyes too observed the human-fiend
That devours the weaker ones with their sharp teeth.
Raw power is hovering around the afflicted mankind
And camouflaging, many Evils are rising underneath.


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When There's Nowhere Else to Go

You take a part of me;
Break down every part of my sanity.
Baby look at me, I'll split myself in two
For the future I see in you.

So you say you want go and experience the world
From the other side of the show.
I never thought it would be the best intention
To leave and seek out without my protection.
I'll stay within arms reach, you're more than welcome to leave with me.

Baby look, I'll split myself in two
For the vision of love I see in you.

I won't be silent this time; I'll tell you something you haven't heard,
No there'll be no loss of words.
You know and I know that everything I've told I've shown,
So take me now, grab a hold,
And please don't love me when there's nowhere else to go.

Honey your boys a fool for all he does to you.
And when you look at me you know it's true;
The vision of perfection that never left your sight,
Never left my eyes.
So there's just one thing left to do.

Baby look, I'll split myself in two
For everything I still see in you.

I won't be silent this time; I'll tell you something you haven't heard,
No there'll be no loss of words.
You know and I know that everything I've told I've shown,
So take me now, grab a hold,
And please don't love me when there's nowhere else to go.

I'll bleed myself dry
Just to give you one more try.
But before you go,
Promise not to love me when there's nowhere left go.


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Free Range Fear

There is too much fear in the world these days,
Fear of the unknown, scared in soo many ways!
Phobias of spiders, mice, rats and bats,
Are you frightend of nothing?  Why are you scared of that?

Scared of oppression?  And the way they use aggression?
Are they messing with your head, using psychic suggestion?
Wrestling with your doubts will only lead to fear,
Always looking into shadows.. scared that something's always near.

You're winding yourself up!  There's no reason to be scared,
But it's never as it seems.. so you'd better be prepared.
Because if you're feeling fear, it could be.. you're not ready,
With your trembling legs, and butterflies in your belly.

It's not so strange, that lots of people fear pain,
Being boiled alive, with needles stuck into your brain,
You've got to be careful, I'm afraid to say,
Be quick to make your mind up, to fight or run away.

Would you fill your pants, with a gun to your head?
Now, that's REAL fear.. you could be dead, enougth said!
Some could find your nerves and make you scream for weeks,
They can teach you about pain and how it reaches new peaks.

But the ones like that..  are fearful too,
Of justice, revenge, and the human rights crew.
They should be scared!  I wanna see their faces white,
'Cause they even kidnap kids and slip away into the night!

Now I'll get swept away, as it floods from me,
See, some of these emotions, are as deep as the sea,
Some wanna get a gun, and hunt these sick suckers,
And get them on their knees and say PRAY MOTHERF%%%%%!

See this is the crux..  this is the bottom line,
If they catch you doing that, then it's you that's doing time,
It's never black & white, it's not easy to see..
There are so many fears, it's all part of being free.

Are you scared of the dark, because that's how it began?
Are you scared that it links you to the earliest man?
Who had to hunt to eat, had to kill to stay alive,
And did what they had to, so this race could all survive.

The things to be scared of are the things inside,
You can struggle and fight, but you can never run or hide,
So walk down the street with your head held high,
And face down fear.. because we're ALL gonna die!

But the opposite of fear though..  is to be brave,
Who knows how many lives you could save.
The futures unknown, and we all face change,
It is all just a part of being free-range.


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Fading


Fading

There he stood at my door
Waiting for me to join him 
In the secret room
I really didn’t know
That it wasn’t for him that I was going
He was being paid 
For me to please one of his friends
Here I was six years old
&

Fading

My best friend and I 
We knew each others pain
Yet we never talked about it
An unspoken understanding
We both just wanted to forget about it
She was my rock and I was hers
She was my voice of reason
I brought her out of her shell
Now she is gone and I am

Fading

As more memories come crashing in
Like intruders in the night
They are capturing my thoughts 
Breaking my heart 
I feel like I am falling apart 
Out of control 
Voices in my head tell me to go 
But I don’t want to
Even though 
I am 

Fading

I still have a little fight in me
I refuse to let go
Maybe that is the strength my therapist 
Sees in me
Even though I feel so weak
Broken down and beaten
I can’t even sleep
As I am slowly 

Fading 

I try to smile 
I try to put on a happy face 
So the world won’t see
The sadness inside 
Yet this depression is getting hard to hide
I want to move on 
I want to find that happiness 
I once had a glimpse of
It is hard to see though
When I feel like I am 

Fading 

So here again I am flashing back
This time I was seven
I said I wouldn’t go to the room
I wanted to play with my rabbit instead
So my dad he walked over
Picked up my rabbit and 
Snapped his neck
Then told me I could play with him
Instead
I didn’t cry I knew better than that
My heart was broken all the same
And as I come back to the present
I start to cry
For a little girl I have hidden inside
Then the voices get louder 
As I start

Fading

I want so bad to pick up the phone 
And call my grandma 
Lord knows she was more like a mom to me
Then I remember 
She has passed on 
And although I really miss her 
I know she would want me to carry on
Continue on my journey
To find peace & serenity
I know she wouldn’t want me to give in
So I stand and fight 
Even though 
I feel like heck 
So sad and depressed 
I hate myself more than anyone else
So maybe that is why I feel like 
I am 

Fading





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Unwanted

When two people who once were lovers become strangers, there is nothing more heartbreaking.  For someone that you loved with all your heart and soul to now act completely cold.  To try your best to please them in everything you do.  Only to make you feel like your something used.  Just another ploy in the game. Just another person played in the game.  Why does life has to be so unfair, when all we ever wanted was for them to be there.  The one whom was once there to wipe away your tears. To kiss away all your fears.  Is now a stranger in what used to be your home.  To be at the point at which you would have just stayed alone....


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A Family?

Five years ago, the pain began
What prompted it, I don’t understand.
Resentment and jealously, played a big part
Tearing and breaking, many a heart.

Hurt and confused, the family parted
Not really knowing, why it started.
Caught in the middle, needing some care
Turning to those, whose love they’d share.

No matter how hard, I try to get along
Everything I do, ends up so wrong.
Never being able, to ever satisfy
I’m tired of trying, and living a lie.

Maybe someday, together we’ll all be
It would be great, being a family.
For now we must take, things day by day
Hoping hearts will mend, along the way.


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Empty Teardrops On My Fingertips

There is only you and me were universal speak our minds until they become controversial the current administration couldn't build a tent that's why I should run for president I would represent you all as I hate you, equally no justification just in my way, literally the broken egg shells I walk on for you to cringe your nails and do as you do Mary wasn't quite contrary on this particular conspicuous evening it seems she's overdressed for the occasion wearing nothing but a green wreath over places What's the difference between me and you? I have power beyond imagination and control of my dreams you misunderstand the smallest of things and then blame me for your state of denial I'm in a state of comfortness but must move forward in order to progress otherwise I am just oppressed or overly blessed, and won't digress.


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Animal Cruelty

Animal cruelty is an ongoing and sickening epidemic. I'll never understand how thoughts can 
creep into a human being's mind that would make them want to harm a defenseless pet. I 
wrote this poem after four teenagers went out of their way to cause pain and torture to a cat 
in my hometown. This poem is written from an animal's perspective somewhat. 

Defenseless.
Looking into your eyes as he's whipped and you show zero remorse.
Beating him with blunt and traumatic force.
You brutalize innocence with no intention to repent. 
Breaking his back as you show a lack of self-respect.
Confused by actions that cannot be forgiven.
My stomach sickens.
How can you live with acts you have committed?
A vulnerable object that had no chance to fight. 
Can you justify why you felt the need to end his life?
The hands of a murderer, you show no shame.
Your only means of actions to cause violence and pain.
You looked directly into his somber eyes as you broke his body.
Anger and resentment shown towards an unsophisticate form of life.
The color crimson covered your hands as you tore him apart.
Piece by piece.
Ripping him at the seams as you lessened yourself as a man.
Never will I be able to look into your eyes the same way again.
This is unforgivable, it's not permissable, it's unexplainable.
You are a poison to this earth.
You have fed your wretched soul on the weak and still regret evades your mind.
You corrupt, repulsive piece of work.
You'll run out of luck.
This charade won't last another moment.
You took someting full of life and just turned into a fragment.
What runs through your brain?
What fills your heart? 
How do you look your eyes into the mirror so unscathed?
How can you live with so much hate?
You ended a life without an ounce of morality holding you back!
You tortured your victim, forcing your hands on him until he cracked.

Lifelessness.
No signs of torment or guilt filling your eyes.
Your time will run out.
The hourglass spilling just like the blood of your victim.
Eternal condemnation awaits.
You will lose this game.
Tolerance of your actions is something no human will embrace.


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My Love For You

Since you have left my heart has cried
Since you have gone I have realized
that all my love was meant for you
and for me your love has been true
I have searched the sky through every cloud
Searched every city through every crowd
and still could not find your lost face
Hear your voice or feel your warm embrace
I have lost you and you are gone
but I still hope and will search on
Until I find my true love to be
I'll tread the waves of every sea
Crawl every inch of land on earth
Sacrifice all that I'm worth
Until we stand close side by side
There is no place I will reside
Until I find my love so true
I'll suffer on 'till I find you
Forever is my love for you!!!


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I'm Sorry

You used to call me by my nickname, now you don't call at all.
I know I made the first move, but it was the only move.
In my mind I told you I'd be back in three seconds...guess I counted wrong.
It's been three months since our fight, can you please just talk to me?
My life's gone through too many tunnels to count.
How did I break your heart, how am I to blame, why am I not ashamed?
You're one of a kind and yet you changed because of what I did?
I'm sorry for the trillionth time!
Just forgive me already!
My past doesn't want to come back, so stop trying to make me feel like a jerk.
I didn't dump you, it was all a little argument!
I miss you. The old you!
I'll never get to see her again!
Thanks a lot inner demons of John Monteblanco.


Details | I do not know? | |

WHY DO YOU LIE?

Baby tell me why do you lie....
about the love you have for me
I can't no longer take your deception
it's driving me crazy...

You say you love me
and that you care
But deep in my heart
something isn't fair

Why do you play these games
can't you remain real
Don't you even care
on what I may feel

So I ask you now 
don't give me a fake reply
Baby please tell me....
Why do you lie...

Girl you know how I feel 
since the day we met
I thought of you and 
thought we were set

But now we don't talk at all
we barely say much
I know another now
has taken my touch

Though you act like all is good 
and still say hi
I stop and wonder
Why do you lie

Just tell me the truth 
I'm more then man enough to take it
No need to pull my chain
No need to fake it

Love me for who I am
Is all I ever wanted
But now your lies I see
keep me haunted.....

But I sit here alone and still wonder why....
Why did you lie?


Details | Lyric | |

Good Nights Sleep for Us

One day there will be no shame,
for what is done is done, ever more.
the time spent thinking of the past can't be undone,
What is done is done.  

No thoughts or whispers,
can replace how we feel.
Sleep is the answer, 
to wake up to another place and time.

But we want to stay alive, no sleep
if we sleep
we forget one another.

To have you fade like a dream in the early morning
That would be a release and a horror.

Thinking of you
Sleeping in your bed
Healing the cancer that is me
Causes me to sleep

Only to wake up to another
Cold and bitter morning,
Reminding me how alone we are,
Why must we be alone.

Why must we sleep.



Details | Lyric | |

Goodbye

We're headin' out 
Our bags are packed
The dream is over and
The boxes are stacked
But I can't...forget...this place
I don't know how
How to let it go
I can't find a way
I can't go with the flow
All I know...is that I love...this place

The faces pass and memories fade
My whole life...turns to shade
All I know...is that I'll miss...this place

No more fun
Gotta buckle down
No more games
Gotta drop this crown
I hope I don't...forget...this place
Days in the sun and
Nights by the fire
I'll miss those times
With a burnin' desire
I'm gonna...miss...this place

The faces pass and memories fade
My whole life...turns to shade
All I know...is that I'll miss...this place

We're headin' out 
Our bags are packed
The dream is over and
The boxes are stacked
But I can't...forget...this place
I don't know how
How to let it go
I can't find a way
I can't go with the flow
All I know...is that I love...this place

The faces pass and memories fade
My whole life...turns to shade
All I know...is that I'll miss...this place
Goodbye...


Details | Lyric | |

Sentiment

I tried to see what life would be like on the other side of the mirror
I knocked on the glass for days, but no one ever let me in
Cracking, finally, the reflecting world showed me the truth
That it's just like the one I’m in; it only makes you bleed in the end

I only close my eyes
To find something worth looking at
I can only hear your voice
When I’m screaming into the wall
I only think on you
When the cynical inspiration dissipates
And sometimes only the freezing cold
Is all that reminds me I can still feel

Living this perfect life, dream lover, dream house, dream happiness
Take for granted the gift, not accepting your needy independence
Lust, greed, emotional gluttony; everything you've ever wanted
It’s only thanks to me, I created the twist in your soul, I made you who you are

I only close my eyes
To find something worth looking at
I can only hear your voice
When I’m screaming into the wall
I only think on you
When the cynical inspiration dissipates
And sometimes only the freezing cold
Can remind you that you can still feel

Taken by the presence of an all too familiar enemy
This man staring from the corner; he never leaves, never leaves me
Gentle whispers of deception takes hold and only tightens
Painful sobriety renders me vulnerable and helpless
He only laughs as I pray to God to save me

I only close my eyes
To find something worth looking at
I can only hear your voice
When I’m screaming into the wall
I only think on you
When the cynical inspiration dissipates
And sometimes only the freezing cold
Can remind you that you can still feel

Stare into a face, frozen for eternity
Never aging, never moving, never leaving; its world merely fades to white
Longing to go back, wishing to be, nothing humors the hope
Not tears, prayers, nor blood can bring them back
Trapped behind wood and glass; imprisoned in this photograph

I only close my eyes
To find something worth looking at
I can only hear your voice
When I’m screaming into the wall
I only think on you
When the cynical inspiration dissipates
And sometimes only the freezing cold
Can tell me that I can still feel


Details | Free verse | |

PROMISE BROKEN

I asked for wealth
And promised to use it  with purpose
But willingly did I break it on a day
Now I sit to justify my coarse
I did but not in its worse form, I said to me
I broke your heart 
After exchanging wealth for flirt
Your vigilant one has fallen
Your eyes are heavy
With such awesome strength
You let yourself flow
Yes, it drizzled their unto me
Then I was frightened
Later all was bright
This ordeal waken me
To all you have given me,when I asked
Courage, though I misused
Made me to let go of fear
An ill decision it was
But it was one I took with boldness
I sense maturity within me
To take a coarse with head up-high
Though I praise not the course
But to realize the presented values
I acknowledge
I have fallen but ain't staying down
I rise for a wise coarse
One that will not trade my wealth
Back into your hands I entrust my ways
Take charge

©Kofi Asokwa-Nkansah


Details | Lyric | |

So Dang Easy

Its so dang complicated,
to express how much I love you.
Im speechless, at a loss of words.
Yet when words arent spoken,
we committ the biggest sin.
Will you be my compass rose,
and be by my side till the end?
Yet, with you,
at a  loss of words again.
Is so dang easy,
that we fell in love this way.
Thinking about our future,
just makes me get this crazy crave.
Your everything to me.
A million reasons,
that i want you to see.
Because,
you make life so dang easy,
just by when your holding me.

I love you Dustin Shane


Details | Lyric | |

I Want More and More

Laying in my room all day
Thinking how I've been fool
Got my meal but I'm not full
Left me for probability
You've seen the light before
Don't open that door
Take her away
But I want more and more
Take her away
But I want more and more
One day I'm going to see the door

I used to like the impressions left on me
Thinking that they'd be so cool
Laying in my room all day
Thinking how I've been a fool
Don't want to sleep
Don't want to eat
Wondering who's to blame
What to keep, what to throw away
Oh how you've changed
Lying in my room all day
Thinking how I've been a fool
Take her away
But I want more and more
Take her away 
But I want more and more
One day I'm going to see the door


Details | Rhyme | |

Injured Pigeon

I shiver from the cold
while  my blood boils hot
I feel as if I'm an injured pigeon
looking for food in an empty
parking lot

Lost in the abyss that I call home
this feeling is what's comfortable
all that I've ever known.

I turn to wood as I call you up
on the phone
I get no where, only a lost signal
which reminds me that I'll forever be alone.


Details | Lyric | |

Set In Stone

He is a mystery,
he’s not what he wants to be.
He comes on, with his charm,
just in case.

She tries to slow him down,
to show him some solid ground.
Takes his hand, as he talks
she listens.

Set in stone,
is the ending
set in stone?

He is preoccupied,
divided and taking sides.
Insecure, and unsure,
laying the blame.

She’s seen his kind before,
they’ve shaken her to the core.
It is done, as she runs 
over the edge.

Set in stone,
Is the ending
Set in stone?

He writes his poetry,
escaping reality,
As she heals, he feels
they are broken.

All alone,
she left him
all alone.

Set in stone,
she left him
set in stone.

All alone,
is the ending
set in stone?


Details | Lyric | |

Death by Murder

In a cold dark alley where deep shadows move
And an owl, large eyes stares and woos
When the silence is broken by a primal scream
That pierces the soul and shatters your dream

Once more a silence and then a thud
Something falling into the mud
Another scream that rips through the air
A sound so searing, so raw and so bare

A silver moon gliding between the clouds
Illuminating all that the darkness shrouds
A river of crimson on pebbled walk
A flower head lying without a stalk

A deathly white hand from the mud reaches
And glazed dead eyes there so beseeches
A pain terror expression upon this face
No longer a part of the human race


Details | Lyric | |

Wasted Breath

Maybe it just got the best
Of everything I can't confess.
Little Things never put my mind to rest,
They just make it too tired to address.
All my confusions I must confess,
That I'm just too tired to address.
And these poems just pass the time
'Till these lines just get old and die.
So save me one more wasted breath
About how He's your ugliness.
Maybe then I'll set you free,
But who will share that sympathy.
One day it'll all just be memory.
Another chapter in this life,
Set in stone I'll write it right.
And these poems just pass the time
'Till the lines just get old and die.
Now save me one more wasted breath
And savor all that we have left.


Details | I do not know? | |

Abortion at seventeen

Abortion at seventeen 
=
The shades of black within you surface
before you lose consciousness on the 
sanitized bed of the hospital.
No friendly face is waiting outside.
Your age is seventeen… almost.
This is the age of the quick use and throw.
The shades of black make you take an oath, 
just before sleep, medicated sleep,  
that you won’t attach yourself to
anyone for long. You are cured
from romances, immune from love.

These are the words that belong to past, 
I urge to tell more to see if tears 
are going to make you less of a goddess 
which I think you actually are.
=© 2009 - All Rights Reserved Kushal Poddar 


Details | Lyric | |

Empty And Forgotten

I lay here,

Drowning inside of myself

Weighted so deeply with pain,

How can it be fair to say goodbye?

I cry for your help...

 

[chorus]

And this is how i feel,

I'm holding on to nothing as I fall through the ice

I am forever lost in this life

Left empty and forgotten

 

My life

Is burning my soul

How can it be fair to leave me alone...ooh

But you're already gone

I walk like the dead, through the street...

 

[chorus]

 

*whispered*

Who will end my suffering?

I'm left shivering alone in the dark

Abandoned by everyone

 

[chorus]

 

Now that your gone

I am forever alone

Left empty and...forgotten...


Details | Lyric | |

MYSTERY


I throw bottles in the sea
and they follow their destinies
for years and years.

Every day, religiously,
I come back.
I sit on the pier.
The big ships have gone.
The quiet sea predicts a storm.

Seven small waves caress my feet
Iemanjá smiles.
She is beautiful, our majesty of the sea.

Something touches me.
A bottle.
There's a message inside.
I don't know if I should open it.
I don't know if I should read it.
I don't know if I rip it up.
I don't know if I should break the bottle
or if I should take it home.

I hesitate
in ecstasy and emotion,
contentment and fear.
I shake. I freeze.

One second goes by.
One second is enough.
(Mystery we don't understand.)
(Mystery we can't translate.)

The universe streches
in front of me
and I can't see the miracle.

A wave breaks,
pulling the bottle in an undercurrent,
and before I can open its seal
_it is gone 
(there it goes once again)
toward the open sea.
It's there.
Impossible to be found.

Patricia Evans


Details | Lyric | |

Silence&The Intake Of Shattered Glass

You sit in silence. 
Not saying a word. 
But the voice of your actions can be heard. 
Your lips spread pestilence. 
I watch you from across the room. 
What do I do? 
What do I say? 
The poison has spread worse than any virus. 
Am i delirious? 
How can I be taken serious as the poison infiltrates my veins. 
It's 4 am and i'm still awake. 
I can't rest. 
I can't sleep. 
Can't you see that like a drug you destroy me from the inside out. 
Silence echoes across this entire place as i intake this shattered glass and fail to grasp 
anything but hopelessness.
You never had to say a word, your lips so infectious. 
I intake this shattered glass, burned memories from past photographs, and I'm still awake 
as we let time continue to pass. 
How could i expect you to save me when you can't even take care of yourself? 
You're on your knees drinking in your regrets. 
Silence echoes as we lock eyes for one last serenade from a distance.


Details | I do not know? | |

Standing on the edge

I'm on the edge,
About to fall,
I've got bruises on my arms,
From trying to hold on,
My body is slowly breaking down,
All by it's self,
If you can't count on yourself,
Who else can you count on then?
I'm on the edge,
About to fall,
I've got bruises on my arms,
From trying to hold on,
I'm so close to letting go,
How far can this stuff really go?
It's eating my insides,
Like no tomorrow,
Who's going to save me now?
I used to be able to trust people,
But everyone turned against me,
I used to give that boy my everything,
See where it got me?
I'm standing on the edge,
About to fall,
I've got bruises on my arms,
From trying to hold on,
...Someone, please catch me


Details | Lyric | |

Happy

Happy is a feeling that should be easy.
The world today has made that feeling
only a sweet memory.

I walk walk around seeing children play
remembering those innocent days.
I  am on the journey of life and
some days it is just impossible to bring
a smile to my face.

Happy is a feeling that should be easy.
The world today has made that feeling
only a sweet memory.

Today I learned a new swear word to add
to my vocabulary.
I get dressed to head out for the day and what
it may have for me that I do not know.
All I have is the hope in my heart to get me through 
The day.

Happy is a feeling that should be easy.
The world today has made that feeling
only a sweet memory.

I listen to all the things people have to say
but it all ends up as one big blur.
I sometimes just wish to sit alone and bask in the sunshine
but I do not have the time anymore.

Happy is a  feeling that should be easy 
The world today has made that feeling 
only a sweet memory.


Details | Ballad | |

Morbid Irony

While I lay here
Staring my fate
Square into obscurity
Left with nothing but promises
Of forgotten grandeur

Leaving behind epic depths
Of visions
Illusions
Confusions, beyond credibility

A string of events one could not forsee
Refusal to uphold unrealistic
And idealistic states of abstraction

Thus bringing us lucid and coherent
Understandings of the truth
Perhaps revealing consummate contentment
No more resentments
Of past discontentment
These vast extents of torments
Preventing  one from ascending
Into unending bliss
Where the unmerciful bind you
Overextending
Subdued


Details | Lyric | |

Part of Me

PART OF ME  ( PASSION )


NOWHERE LEFT TO GO 
 BUT TO RETURN HOME
SAFELY LOCKED AWAY
 FOR THE REMAINDER OF MY LIFE
AND IN MY PASSING WHAT PART OF ME REMAINS
WHAT PART OF ME WILL BE RETAINED
 OR DETAINED AT THE GATE 
AS I PASS INTO MY NEXT LIFE

AND TELL ME, WHO’S TO SAY
WHO IS TO SAY WHAT AWAITS EACH OF US
 ON THE OTHER SIDE

ETERNAL LIFE, ETERNAL NIGHT
 THE LIGHT OF DAY OR
 THE DEAD OF NIGHT
WHAT I SAW, WHAT YOU SEE
WHO IS TO SAY WHAT PART OF ME
 WILL BE LEFT BEHIND
OR AT LEAST TO CARRY ON…

MORTALITY WAS NOT FOR ME
IN ORDER TO TRAVEL BEYOND THE REALM
I’VE HAD TO STEP OUTSIDE MY SHELL
TO WALK UNHINDERED TO MY NEXT DESTINATION
I JOURNEY, TRAVELING
 BEYOND THE CENTER, EARTH
FAR REMOVED FROM MY BODY
 MY SPIRIT SOARS…

BUT WHAT PART OF ME REMAINS
MY SUFFERING COULD NOT HAVE BEEN IN VAIN
FOR THE LESSON WE ALL MUST LEARN
IS THE ONE ALONE I’LL DIE FOR

THE PART OF ME THAT SEES BEYOND BELIEF
THAT BELIEVES BEYOND WHAT I SEE
MY ALL CONSUMING PASSION


Details | Lyric | |

Killer

I still see you suffer in the wake of all dreams
That I have each time that I sleep
Tears still fall from the heart of steel that I once had
Its too late for me to offer you mine to give
And it still makes me weep
That it forced you against your will
To live.


Details | Lyric | |

Want to be a Child

With small children I want to play
In the sand and sticky black clay
Again a child I want to be and feel
Out of the world’s torturing night and day

Never I could realize how so long of my life
Passed in a woeful struggles and strife
The moments concentrated into the years
 And the time slipped away on sharp knife

I know the whole life will too slip away
Like a river flowing into the deep bay
All my desires, aspirations and hopes 
Will remain mixed in the sticky clay 


Details | I do not know? | |

Goodbye - an original song

Goodbye...
(an origional song)



oh my darling could it be?
could those words you sighed be true
is love something likened to disease
or the bruises on your knees
landing where no standing flew

{chorus 1}
and you're taking your time
hey honeyhoney, hey honeyhoney
were those words ever mine?
hey honeyhoney, hey honeyhoney.


can your feelings wash away?
like the bars of soap you make
taking shortcuts with no lye
cutting straight to the goodbye
to clean up your mistake

{chorus 2}
and you're taking your time
hey honeyhoney, hey honeyhoney
so i'm drawing the line
hey honeyhoney, i got you where you want me

{bridge 1}
sometimes i still find it strange
i never felt the climate change
til the waters i was swimming in froze up hard
then i had to choose
do i die, or leave a bruise?
but either way i go we end up scarred

the ice may still melt someday
and the stones i threw might sink
beyond the bottom of the lake, through clay
to a depth where they will stay
bruises only made of ink

{chorus 3}
so lets just take our time
hey honeyhoney hey honeyhoney
so we can leave this behind
hey honey honey, someday we'll find this funny

{bridge 2}
we always said that we were meant to be
but your fate made me hate it
now i think that it's true
and the ending too
was written in the stars

goodbye goodbye. goodbye.. goodbye...


Details | Lyric | |

LETTING GO

The mystery emotion that may always remain,
Is also the unjust feeling that brings so much pain.
The friendship that we thought that would last forever,
Will now threaten the life we had together.

The doubts in our mind, the fears in our head,
We set out of friendship and got pain instead.
So many obstacles stand in the way,
Shall we give up and leave, or shall we stay?

So many directions and different ways to go,
So many to blame and who’s to know.
How can the one you cared so much for,
Also be the one you can’t stand anymore?

When did our friendship became so unclear?
When did we start to hide in fear?
Losing each other would be so hard to take,
Could our hearts stand it, or would they just break?

But staying together isn’t just working out,
Is it just me, am I wrong to doubt?
Our friendship can only take so much we know,
Then its fragile bond seems to let go.

Shall we decide something we may hate?
Or shall we leave the rest up to fate?
So many questions, we don’t know what to do,
Some have answers, but are they true?

I wrote this hoping you could read it over,
Maybe when you’re done, we’ll be much closer.
You may find the answers that we both seek,
To the questions that leave our emotions weak.

Goodbye my friend, and please don’t sigh,
Cause deep in your heart, I know you won’t cry.


Details | Lyric | |

Cost

Kisses felt:
Moments lost. 
Priceless moments
Always cost.
Peace and love:
Childhood wishes.
Friends forever,
Like butterfly kisses,
Never last
More than a day,
Then they all
Fade away.
Dreams, like shoes,
Become too small
To fit our lives
When potential calls.
Kisses felt:
Moments lost.
Priceless moments
Always cost.
Is the price
Worth the pain?
Or worth the strength
We eventually gain?
Of course it is.
Just persevere.
Don't ever stop dreaming.
Don't live in fear.


Details | Lyric | |

Depressed Stream of Consciousness

Want to cut,
Can't.
Want to die,
Can't.
Not can't,
Won't.
Want to but won't.

Why?
They love me.
So what?
I love them.
You suffer...
I know.
Life sucks....
I really, really does...
Who knows,
Maybe death is better...
The dead know.
I bet they do,
They only way is to join them.
But I won't.
I have responsibilities.

"The woods are lovely dark and deep"
Now aren't they...
"But I have promises to keep"
So, so many...
"And miles to go before I sleep"
So many....
"And miles to go before I sleep"
Too many?


Details | Free verse | |

armor

will these desperate messages
go up in smoke
the ones you'll never read
until i finally explode
left at my defenses
this steel won't provide much protection
you're alone without your armor
and begging to skip the steps
"please get to the end for starters"

[chorus]
you don't want to face what can't be stopped
and its too hard to understand
why you're the prey i seem to caught
can't see the future soldier?
is your badge really made of honor
brought up righteously
with a lying knight as your father.

[vrs.2]
you stole your shield
i count that as a crime
can't hide from what's chasing
or predict the damage
im sorry but you've just run out of time

[chorus]

[vrs.3]
the clocks alarm is set
no point in trying
you should have seen my signs
and know id have no mercy left
because this war is one you won't forget


Details | Lyric | |

decision

Words that linger upon these lips The sealed faith that cannot be erased Traces of what was Remnants of what is The falsity in his eyes the single shout of a cry Wondering why oh why Did you choose to die The words that conspired to tell a lie The answers that form to leave her torn Unto this world she is born anew Trying her hardest not to live in spite No truth to be found Numbness consumes as her vision starts to blur Another day into the lies in which she creates A faded picture on the wall tells a story to us all Her dreams of them two no more His face caught between the fade and the fake Indecision on her mind Trying to decide Was it wrong or was it right The fear that enters her mind The regret that she wishes she never met His heart beat how bitter and sweet The comfort she felt knowing he was right there Torn away as if he was just a mistake Another lie inside her mind She wishes she can find another place to hide 10-20-09


Details | Chastushka | |

HURT

the hurt and the torment,
the words and the lies,
the truth and the honesty?
why oh why.

single looks,
explain you,
single wonders,
hurt me.


Details | Lyric | |

why leave

tell me why
I wanna know

Verse:
I keep memories of you lingerin
I recall the good and bad memories
this love I thought we had was so strong
but I guess I was wrong
I always thought you'll be by my side
but you up and left
im torn inside
why leave now
boy tell me why
I wanna know
plz tell me why

Chorus:
tell me why
I wanna know
tell me why
boy I wanna know
repeat2x:

Verse:
I recall you holdin me
makin love when its stormy
I wanna know
why you gotta leave
whenin fact
you told me you will never leave

Chorus:
tell me why
I wanna know
tell me why
boy I wanna know
repeat2x:

why you wanna leave
and break my heart
why you wanna
split us apart
im on the floor
cryin on my knees
askin why you
wanna leave

"why leave"

Chorus:
why leave
I wanna know
tell me why
boy I wanna know
repeat2x:

why leave
I wanna know
tell me why
I wanna know


Details | Lyric | |

Finishing This Play

Let's finish it and let's win
Everything we can still save.
Let me forget it and begin
Searching for a new enclave.

Let our eyes never meet
And our hands never touch.
Leave me alone, press „Delete”,
And don't say you love so much...

You didn't hurt me, don't worry!
Go away and don't return.
Such things happen, I'm sorry.
Go your own way and don't turn!

And when we'll finish this play
I'll wish you'd come back to me.
But then you'll be far away.
I'll learn that I can't be free...


Details | Lyric | |

I Finally Understand Why You Can't Go Home Again

The sun never shines here in south town
It’s only covered up
by a dust of regrets and letdowns
that i can never come clean of

the shadows dance in the alleyways
the darkness plays in the sun
the children all searching to find a way
for these shades of gray to be fun

we've been living on the wrong side of town
for way, way to long
we are lost when we wake up
still lost when we lay down
and i think it's time we find our way out

lately I’ve begun to notice
things haven’t changed at all
they are all the same
as they were when I was small

maybe my eyes have changed
maybe my life is stained
maybe I can’t understand
why the colors drain and the sun dims

maybe we've been living on the wrong side of town
for way, way to long
we are lost when we wake up
still lost when we lay down
and i think it's time we find our way out


Details | Lyric | |

Last Chance

This is my Last Chance for you. This is my Last Chance to get to you. This is my Last Chance to save you. This is my Last Chance to die. It started in a fire, Where you were trapped. I could only grab one thing, And I couldn't go back. So I grabbed you, In a blink of an eye. The house is fire, Now it's time to say bye. Oh Oh Oh, This is my Last Chance. If I don't take it I will lose you. Oh Oh Oh. This is my Last Chance to get you. I would get to go back. This is my Last Chance to get you. You're the strength that I lack.


Details | Lyric | |

A Fading Reminder

Waking up with my face on the floor
I get up and step on something
My bass makes a buzzing sound
The low pitch of the strings 
An eery feeling Screaming through my head

I realize this isnt my room
Its covered in a blue haze
Everything is dark, scary
I scream but i cant hear myself

I remember the night before
when everyone was sitting around the table
laughing, cheering, happy

I turn the knob and open the door
I step out into cold sand
The sky is gray 

Walking into a world i havent seen before
Dead animals hanging on trees
There are no cars 
No one is around
I turn back and look at my door

Just a room in the middle of nowhere
Standing alone 
Ive had the feeling before

A light appears 
i walk towards it
i walk throught the lights

it takes me to the past
when everything was okay
where no one judged you 
where you werent alone
when everything had meaning

... When i existed
just a fading reminder of who i used to be.








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situation

your commitment was a lie
from the start,
you played a big part
in breaking my heart
before I go
tell me your explanantion
why you put yourself
in this situation

I dont quite understand
why you loved me then
when we couldve
just stayed friends
you knew you wasnt
in love with me
yet you pursue to be my man...

boy you a rollin stone
you move from home to home
you breaking hearts
stringing women along
boy you so wrong...

you put ya self 
in this situation,
situation, situation,
you put ya self
in an arkward position,
arkward position, arkward position

you a rollin stone
you left my heart so alone
im in this situation
to where I cant move on
you turn diffrent directions
takin love for a game
I have a heart of stone
you got me thinkin 
men all the same


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Down Hearted

I know that there is something
you have on your mind.
why don't you tell me
exactly what's wrong?
I know that you suffer
pretend to be strong.
Crashing and burning
your wings fall apart.
Can't help but to notice
your eyes show the pain.
You wrestle with notions
that make you insane.
You stare at the curtains.
You stare at the floor.
So we look into nothing
that's shown from the door.
We ask cause we to
to help find a cure.
It's not a bother
just talk when you can.


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Pot Of Gold

This one is for Bailey... Oh, you know I hate to leave you helpless, But there's really nothing that I can do. Your parents say that I have done enough. I mean, just look at what I've gotten you into. Oh, I know just how to leave you breathless, And you know how to make me lose my mind. Right now, there's an army standing in between us, But, baby, you will always be mine. 'Til the sky comes crashing down from up above You know, I don't think this town is right for us. So, run, And run as fast as your feet will take you. Don't look back, don't let them catch you. I'll be on my way soon. I'm right behind you. So, go, And don't stop 'til your heart explodes. I promise you I'll find you down the road. I could never give up on my pot of gold. Just leave a map before you go. Oh, I don't think love is blind, but it's ironic. A sarcastic beast without a sense of time. All of my past loves have left me brokenhearted, But, oh, Cupid, this time, you've crossed the line. Oh, you gave me something I knew I couldn't keep, But, baby girl, you're so irresistible. I can't begin to express how happy it makes me To say that you were the legs to my table. And, now, you're gone, and I fell flat on my face. But, it's okay, cuz I'm the one that told you to run away, anyway. And I'm scared to death, but I know you'll be okay. You'll find a way... So, run, And run as fast as your feet will take you. Don't look back, don't let them catch you. I'll be on my way soon. I'm right behind you. So, go, And don't stop 'til your heart explodes. I promise you I'll find you down the road. I could never give up on my pot of gold. Just leave a map before you go. Oh, baby, don't you worry 'bout me. It hurts so bad, but I'm sure I'll be just fine. On the nights that I can't help but miss you, I think back to a time when you were all mine...


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There Is for Me

There is for me a brighter day
When all the tears I've wept this way
Shall be poured out before the throne
To claim at last my love, my own.

Years winding forth from wearied spools
Weave still earth's tapestry of rules
That I must cherish, dear as life,
An anchor on this sea of strife.

All that restrains me I hold near;
I kiss His rod, I call it dear.
If I should languish 'neath the weight.
His promise cannot come too late.

A weeping heart never grows cold
Through rained with sorrows manifold;
No tear is wasted to our God
Who with Christ's own enriched earth's sod.

There is for Christ and me a day
When all the tears we've wept this way
Shall be poured out before the throne
To claim at last our love, our own.


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I Just Wish You Were Here

I wish you were here
Back here with me
When minds were clear
I just wish you were here

Remember when fun was free?
When your locks had a key?
The key has turned to tears
I just wish you were here

I'm in paradise while you're in hell
Just exactly where I cannot tell
You don't leave me letters, only fear
I just wish you were here

You'd love it here, I know
It's a home instead of a cell
A place to forget hell
I just wish you were here

No more haze, no more pain
This is the place to get sane
Your life crawls on year by year
I just wish you were here

It's hard to tell it's wrong
You're never too far gone
Come back where it's clear
I just wish you were here


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Ecuador

Ecuador 

 I met a girl in Guayaquil it was night
We swam in the Pacific, the strand 
Was white and had upturned boats

I wanted to give her something, but
Had nothing of importance, gave her 
A bottle of after shave lotion

She gave me her address which I lost
And since the ship never came back 
She became a scented memory.   


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Play to Lose

My life was normal before you came along
Now that I'm with you it seems all wrong
They even told me that you would be bad news
What can I say, maybe I play to lose

You told me one thing but you meant another
Was that the last lie? Are you really sure?
My gut was right but now my heart is struck
I guess meeting you was just bad luck

Your family loves me and your baby doesn't care
You keep me on the outs, I don't think it's fair
Crawling back to ex's is your normal routine
I ask you how you are and you tell me where you've been

You treat me bad but I come back for more
Maybe I'm foolish, maybe you're a whore
It never mattered, your past is what I mean
I thought maybe you'd like the chance to start clean

Don't talk to me, don't even say a word
I've had enough of this, lies are all I've heard
Maybe someday you'll realize your err
When I'm living happy without a care


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Luciferia II-- The Damned

Run away Run Away No matter how Far You will never escape my dark hands of faith Wicked and Damned you are my Sin Darling Don't you Tremble when I embrace you The cold and Dark may fill every marrow But at least there were here For You Tell Me how they So Loved You Tell Me All of your fears When the world is done and all their trust will render Undone I will always be with you And Now We cease to Exist Luciferia I can see your Misery Just follow me and believe Me We are The Damned Outcasts of this Natural World We are The Damned Hold on I'll show you what you're waiting for We Are The Damned Join Our Dark Reality When you know the choice the Wind Will come right through And you will See what you're really meant to Be Draining into the Night Shivering With the Smallest of Frights I am the Ghost In Your Dreams I watch You Through the Window Yes that is your name Written In Blood Are You Scared? Are You Suffering? The Dark fate is what was Meant to Be This is what happens when you Brake Us with Words Destroy us with sights Twists are minds Set our will On Fire I can see your Misery Just follow me and believe Me We are The Damned Outcasts of this Natural World We are The Damned Hold on I'll show you what you're waiting for We Are The Damned Join Our Dark Reality When you know the choice the Wind Will come right through And you will See what you're really meant to Be I can see your Misery Just follow me and believe Me We are The Damned Outcasts of this Natural World We are The Damned Hold on I'll show you what you're waiting for We Are The Damned Join Our Dark Reality When you know the choice the Wind Will come right through And you will See what you're really meant to Be


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till death

(vrs 1)
robed in white
but it shouldve been black
lifes counting on this moment
cant take actions back
bound by a tie
we look at eachother
and know this is a lie.

(chorus)
theyll say till death do us part
but youd rather die with me now
so we can get it over with
and leave whats been broken to be fixed
till death leaves us no choice.

(vrs 2)
whats the point
when we're left to disappoint
if  we know we dont belong
then why cant we skip the vows
and leave our white lives
to be stained out by whats real
we'll break both ends of the deal.

(chorus)
theyll say till death do us part
but youd rather die with me now
so we can get it over with
and leave whats broken to be fixed
till death leaves us no choice.






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The Shore Awaits

My head is heavy
with loneliness
as i sail into the moon
watching my reflection
run in circles
over and over i see
the deepest part of me
become lit with enmity
and endless misery
for it's difficult to look forward
when you live in a memory
and it's hard to kill 
the voices that torture you
when those voices
come from your own mind
Why must I
hurt myself so?
hoping for a better tomorrow
when i make it
so it never shall be so?
I must find a way
to outsmart my sadness
to look past my own
imperfections
to let my feelings go
to let go of my fear
and to finally let go
of the thought of finding
a better world
So from this day forth
and this night that is to fall
I will set my sail forever
I will never stop moving forward
and i shall ride the lightning
and swim in the tsunami
because i can overcome 
any odds that i already have not faced
I will find the land and shores of bliss
just speaking of the thought
makes me taste the sands 
of times to come
follow me into the abyss
and i promise
the shore awaits


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Falling

~ Falling ~

I was a little girl with so many dreams
Even through the worst of times
I kept my chin up and let 
My dreams keep me alive 
I was okay 
Until my dreams got crushed
And my worst fear came true 

~ Falling ~

With no dreams to lean on 
As I started to go throw the changes 
I was a teenager 
With a huge chip on my shoulder
If you weren’t with me you were against me 
I had many friends 
Yet most of them were superficial 
I never let anyone get too close. 
I was too afraid of 
~ Falling ~

As the years went by I slowly came into my own
I became a woman 
With many scars hidden inside 
Yet it seemed like one word shined brightly on my head
SUCKER
As so many times I thought I had found that one 
Someone only to find out 
That they weren’t that person I wanted them to be 
They were only taking advantage of me 
I didn’t understand why 
I seemed to keep 

~ Falling ~

Finally I moved back closer to home
I found an apartment and made it my home
I was doing well on my own 
Then I met You
First we were friends 
For three years our friendship grew and grew 
Then we both admitted 
The feelings we had for one another were 
Way more than friends 
So we began to date 
Then a few short months later we moved in together
And before we knew it 
Our wedding was here 
I started to feel secure 
I was starting to get over my fear of 

~ Falling ~

Then boom the bomb dropped and I caught 
A glimpse of someone I never knew you to be 
While you never raised a hand at me 
You never did anything to hurt me physically 
It’s your words though 
That cut right through me 
And it became apparent that we were never meant to be
More than friends 
Looking back I can see so many signs 
That before I couldn’t see 
And if I had known then what I know now 
I would never have begged you to stay 
The first time you wanted to walk out that door. 
Now you are gone and here I am 
Moving on 
At first I didn’t think I could 
I thought my world was ending 
I couldn’t see that a new chapter in my life was just 
Beginning
And while I will always love you 
That love has changed 
It is not as deep anymore 
As I am 

~ Falling ~

Out of love with you

By: Jean Shular 


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You've Gone

You said "why don't you just get over it",
But it's really not that easy,
I feel incomplete without you here,
Wondering where we went wrong.

For once I was happier than ever,
I could feel the fireworks,
I felt the sparks and saw the color
In your cheeks when we kissed.

I heard warmth in your words,
Saw your eyes sparkle, 
How could you say it was a mistake,
It was all just a lie?

I've lost my way now,
Can't get back home,
No matter how far I travel
It's never far enough.

I'm running to the place,
The one you once called home,
And I can't stop from screaming your name,
But I know you won't be there.

I’m trying my hardest, really,
But I’m constantly being reminded,
It’s not fair but what can I do?
I swore that was the last time.

It’s not like you didn’t know
I loved you, you knew, the thing is,
I thought you felt this way too,
And now your story’s changed to suit you.

What were you so afraid of?
You promised me forever,
What made you change your mind?
I don’t understand.

I've lost my way now,
Can't get back home,
No matter how far I travel
It's never far enough.

I'm running to the place,
The one you once called home,
And I can't stop from screaming your name,
But I know you won't be there.

And all I can say is,
I tried, I tried to love you
But you didn’t want it,
You pulled away.

So why can’t I stay away?
You’re a drug, you left me
Breathless, defenseless,
Nowhere else to turn.

You said "just move on, 
I don’t know what you expect of me",
I was just a silly mistake to you,
A foolish girl who fell for lies.

I've lost my way now,
Can't get back home,
No matter how far I travel
It's never far enough.

I'm running to the place,
The one you once called home,
And I can't stop from screaming your name,
But I know you won't be there

Every minute I waste
Is another minute gone,
But I can’t stop myself,
You got under my skin.

Made a home inside my heart,
And tore my feelings apart,
I’ve become numb, I don’t
Know what to feel anymore.

It’s so frustrating, tiring to still
Stand here waiting, hoping
You’ll change your mind and see
I’ve always been here.

And maybe this is just
A repeat of everything,
Maybe I do deserve better,
But I never wanted better.

I've lost my way now,
Can't get back home,
No matter how far I travel
It's never far enough.

I'm running to the place,
The one you once called home,
And I can't stop from screaming your name,
But I know you won't be there....


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Chapter 27

Dear Ma I don't mean to write a letter and flee,
but it seems I got the Devil in me.
This average Joe tested my manhood and now
I have to teach him a lesson,
bullet wounds to his chest will leave him breathless
"I'll be out in a second."
Slipped on my jeans, tank top, t-shirt and jacket,
and my Nike's, gray gloc, I'm nervous but fact is.
When I see him won't stop from merkin' this bastard,
Send him to Jenah all shot curdled up in casket.
Before I leave I hit the kitchen
for breakfast I'm hungry,
a couple candy bars, drinks, some
wheat breat and turkey.
Some pocket money I hit the door in a hurry
I left a letter on the kitchen table when mom reads it
"Lord Have Mercy!"
I had the stash in my pack jumped in the Lac put my pack
in the back gave Chief dap put the,
match to my black relaxed and chatted casually,
"Chief I think he hussles right up the block, him we gonna have to see."
The Reaper he gonna have to meet,
this son of a b---h caught me in an alley
put a gat to me and took my cash from me.
Swung his fist and tap my cheek see I ain't have to bleed
I hope he with his boys I'll rat a tat his peeps "they all no match for me."
I think the Devil's after me, please calm down
laugh and breath
don't get overheated cause he can blast at you.
"Chief I see him on 22nd, right their with the all white Sean John
and my diamond cut necklace!"

-----------in the middle of the story, I shoot the person and his girlfriend not
knowing who his girlfriend is, and here comes the twist in this poetic story----------

This can't be happening to me, that's what you'd hear
if my eyes talked
I shot my COUSIN down on the sidewalk.
I didn't know that she was cool with this figure,
if I wouldn't have known that I wouldn't have fooled with the trigger.
I placed my cousin's neck in my palm
carressing her arm,
I looked to the left and surely there was her mom.
I'm sorry, I really am......
Devil says, "It doesn't matter cause for life now you're eternally damned
now give me your hand."

Fin


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Gone

You're gone.
There is nothing I can do.
You were the light 
in everyones eyes.
A bit of everyones
heart has disappeared.
You don't know how
much joy you
brought upon everyone.
That day,
was the worst day.
Not just for me,
for many others.
We did not suspect.
I wish we could
just go back in time.
I hope you know 
I miss you.
I truly do love you.
You will always have
a place in my heart.


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Crush and Crushed

In the beginining,
There was a girl.
She was on a rollar coaster.
She saw her crush.
He ignored her.
He thought she was annoying.
He thought she was petiful.
Little did he know,
She would die that day.
Here's her story.

---------------------------------------------------------------

Little, little girl,
No cares in the world.
Bruises on her face,
Crazy on her trace.

Little, little girl,
Little, little crush.
Little, little love,
Little, little to much.

Only on a rollar coaster,
Would she believe,
She was air.
Carelessness filled her head,
Little, little so much dread.
The boy she liked,
Walking around with so much might,
Little, little did he know that she would die.

Little, big circle coming up,
She was on bottom the cart on top.
Watching the cart fallin',
He didn't know she was calling,
His name.

Heaven reached to her,
But she kept herself on earth,
Until she could see him again.

Only on a rollar coaster,
Would she believe,
She was air.
Carelessness filled her head,
Little, little so much dread.
The boy she liked,
Walking around with so much might,
Little, little did he know that she would die.

Tell him, tell him how you feel,
Little did you know it would feel so real.
Now that she was dead he started thinkin',
Was she crazy or was she worth loving?

Only on a rollar coaster,
Would she believe,
She was air.
Carelessness filled her head,
Little, little so much dread.
The boy she liked,
Walking around with so much might,
Little, little did he know that she would die.

Now she's going to heaven,
So many things she hasn't done.
She sees the door and,
Remembers her amore.

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Later that night,
After he saw her die,
He commited suicide.
His parents found a note from him.
"I saw her die,
 I love her,
 I am going to be with her.
 I'm sorry"
He didn't go to heaven,
Neither did she,
They are both stuck in limbo,
At least they have each other.


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my child

you are
the only star on a cloudy night 
before its about to rain
the last calm wave coming in
before a hurricane
the brightest color in the sky 
when a rainbow's overhead 
the last tear in my eye
before I go to bed

you are 
the ray of sun that gives me hope
when showers plague the sky 
all the glowing little lights 
that we call fire flies 
the glistening of the winter snow 
on the coldest night 
you are my child 
and I am yours 
forever in the sky.


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Somebody Light a Fire

Since you’ve gone it’s gotten dark, my minds a swirling haze.
There ain’t no moon or rising sun to tell my night from days.
I walk around like I’m dead whispering your name.
Pretty soon I’m gonna freeze numb from all the pain.

Somebody build a fire 
Somebody fan a flame
Heat up this cold desire 
Quick-frozen in my brain
Melt me down and love me 
I’m about to go insane
Somebody light a fire 
Somebody fan a flame

The part of me that wants you back keeps chipping at the bone.
You’re like a demon in my head that’s turning me to stone.
And everyday I get colder. There’s granite in my eyes.
I’m afraid it won’t be much longer before you kill me with your lies. 

Somebody build a fire 
Somebody fan a flame
Heat up this cold desire 
Quick-frozen in my brain
Melt me down and love me 
I’m about to go insane
Somebody light a fire 
Somebody fan the flame

It’s crazy, but you’re in my blood, deep frozen in my veins.
Every time I inhale a breath it’s like breathing icy rain.
I’ve got to stop wanting you. You’re poison as cocaine.
I should run like hell the other way. This kind of love’s deranged.

God knows I should abstain…

Somebody build a fire 
Somebody fan a flame
Heat up this cold desire 
Quick-frozen in my brain
Melt me down and love me 
I’m about to go insane
Somebody light a fire 
Somebody fan a flame


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Eventually

eventually everything loses its touch
eventually everyone gets rid of their lust
and when you can no longer pretend
that everything eventually comes to an end

it'll all come down in a bad way
no one not even you can stop fate
so why bother why even try
because all of us will eventually die

im not stupid
im not going to believe their lies
im not naive 
and im not going to give in this time

trouble all of us will eventually meet
i guess you think a fool i must be
but the truth is so full of heat
the odds i guess no one can beat

im not stupid
im not going to believe their lies
im not naive 
and im not going to give in this time

and this pain fills me
wishing i could escape this destiny
but whats meant to happen will
i wonder how does that make you feel

the truth makes you so pail
slowly we're losing to this hell
in this life we're all going to fail
and we can't escape this jail

baby listen to me yell

im not stupid
im not going to believe their lies
im not naive 
and im not going to give in this time

eventually you will give up 
eventually your words will be left in the dust
eventually you will lose your shameful lust
while everything has already lost its touch




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Blood of a liar, mark of a thief

You took it all
(I held my breath)
You screamed my name
(as you fell to your death)
The crowed gathered round
but I stood tall
with your body laying so broken
you've never looked so small

The rain started pouring down
(oh how I smiled)
There were sirens in the distance
(only a half a mile)
Down below the screaming sounds
I can't hear a thing
everyone's gaze is upon me
waiting for the once caged bird to sing

(Liar)
You promised me everything
did your words mean nothing
were they empty
lifeless without a theme
(Thief)
You took hold of my heart
shredded my soul, raped my mind
did it mean anything
was I even worth it
ir just another part to your scheme

The rain washes away the evidence
(the blood, sweat, and tears)
But rain can't wash away everythng
(no, not everything)
not the pain suffered through the years

Your words were so sweet
who was I to judge
I fell for your parlor tricks
over the edge with one small nudge
Such a beautiful disguise you wore
silly little me
I fell into your web of lies
far too young to ever see

(Liar)
You promised me everything
did your words mean nothing
were they empty
lifeless without a theme
(Thief)
You took hold of my heart
shredded my soul, raped my mind
did it mean anything
was I even worth it
ir just another part to your scheme

You could have been mine
(does it hurt now, hush, be quiet now)
You sold your soul for a good time
(does it hurt now, hush, don't speak now)
Did you think I'd never know?
(does it hurt now, does it hurt now)
Now you must reap the crop you've sewn

(Liar)
You promised me everything
did your words mean nothing
were they empty
lifeless without a theme
(Thief)
You took hold of my heart
shredded my soul, raped my mind
did it mean anything
was I even worth it
ir just another part to your scheme

(Liar)
You had such a pretty little plan
(Thief)
Carried out by such a careless little man


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The letter

I've fallen today on the war field
with my gun and a picture of you 
these are my final words hear them loud
for i hear the angels singing in the clouds

your my everything,your my world
make sure to kiss our little girls
say goodbye to my mom and hug my dad
and don't forget the wonderful  life we've had

now i hear amazing grace coming closer to me
this note that i am writing is for your eyes to see
i hope someone will give to you this letter for me
because i will pass on today for the land of the free

i see the gates and i am about to go in
so these last few words is all i can do
my breathing is getting harder and its time for me to go
so baby i love you and I'll be watching you, maybe
not in person but in soul, tell our girls their mom loves them so

so whenever you are lonely,i will be there
and tell our little girls to keep up with there prayers
cause i will be listening all the way up here


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the fire

(vrs 1)
dont touch the fire
the fools always said
dont make the mistakes
you'll only end up dead

(vrs 2)
dont touch the coals
they only can burn
so i waited in line
till id have my turn

(chorus)
you never know until you try
so dont be the one to survive
you either live or you die
and end up feeding us the lie

(vrs 3)
ive felt the burns
in degrees never known
ive got countless scars
that will never be shown

(vrs 4)
the fire burns deeper
to scald not to kill
so we're left only to touch
and believe in the thrill

(chorus)
you never know until you try
so dont be the one to survive
you either live or you die
and end up feeding us the lie


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A boy and a girl

I remember the day I first saw her face on the school bus such an uneasy place
we both were shy it took months just to talk soon enough we would always walk
from the stop to her house were I d stand uneasy the sweat would pool in my right hand
One night late after school she came to my house I tried to be cool 
she asked if I would like to go out of course I did but I was nervous anxious filled with doubt

we spent a whole summer just hanging out some times I got so nervous I wanted to shout
I recall how she first placed her hand in mine I was sweating so bad I was losing my mind
the touch of her fingers in my sweaty palm gave comfort unknown and a relieving calm
I realize now she was just as scared but she seemed so calm ready and aware

she became my very best friend but even I knew the summer would end
before the fall came an took her away we spent time with each other everyday
a few weeks before school started again we went to the park are spot back then 
she looked in my eyes for ever it seemed I was confused and young I almost screamed
then she leaned towards me with the sweetest touch she said shed miss me very much
and then it happen her lips searched and found mine out in that moment it removed all doubt
an innocent peek between dearest of friends learning how such things have there ends
after school started that year she moved away I have not seen her since that day

Forever she holds a piece of my heart the innocents we shared was ours from the start
even tho Ive grown a lot since then that young love is for thick and thru thin
we never took not a thing from one another we held each other up learned from one another
I wonder if she thinks of me I think of her and lonely nights I hope she lives happily
youth is something you cannot keep I miss those days on the grass we would sleep 

somewhere inside the shy little boy waits for the day he might see that girl once again
the soul that taught me how to love and to be loved how to end and how to begin
I know ill never see her again I know its only memories something lost to the past 
if I would have known it would end that way and be over so quick so dam fast
I would have told her more of the true me maybe then Id feel whole at last
sweet first love I hope you find a life of love and find your faith in the god above
she will always been in my heart and mind and for now we must leave us behind


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Siren

I loved this girl from first sight
I was the darkness, she was my light...
She told me, "Hey babe, you're gonna be a star,
you're gonna make it big, you're gonna make it far!"...
I don't know what I've been told but
I aint gettin' younger, just growin' cold...
So I told my momma I'm gonna make money
She said, "Alright, just don't be late honey..."
Spent all my money to make it there
Didn't have no worries, didn't have a care...
So I tried it out, got kicked to the curb
How did she lie, how'd she have the nerve...
Never thought she would lie to me
But to get the truth I guess we gotta pay fees...
I asked her what she meant by far, she said
"Not all of us make it, some are fallin' stars..."
Woke up and turned to talk to her
She was my medicine, but there was no cure...
Never made it back, couldn't get my feet
Coulnd't find the rhythm, couldn't find the beat...
I met her again, I saw her cruisin'
She's flyin' high while I'm down here losin'...
I thought I could try and make it right
But I lost it all, I had no more fight...
I guess that's what I get for wantin' fun
My money's spent, my race is run...


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Pain

My eyes open to only shut again,
As for my heart gains speed,
Only to someday stop.
Tears come and tears go,
Waiting for the next down pour.
They say a heart grows,
Perhaps for the most pain possible
when It finally shatters…
Love and hate, passed through us all.
A life is born, while a new death arises.
Why be born into a world of pain?
You learn to grow numb and weak anyway..


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Fly

Thunder in the air
Rain every where
Stroms brewing in my heart 
Pulling me apart

I wait for the sun to shine
Lost in this place and time
Wondering where to begin
Now that the world has come to a end

Sleep clouds my thoughts
But memories not forgot
Lighting crashes in the sky
As my soul starts to fly


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Mr. Fraser's miss

As I ponder of the Poet…
mine lips cease,
while my pen is in motion
mine slip tares,
the pen digs
on its own accord
through the ripples
of mine slip…
yes,
the tears drip
‘pon mine slip,
and mine pen rips,
all trying to capture,
Mr. Fraser’s miss


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The Passing Of Time

The tick-tock of the clock is painful
All plain and logical
And I see our time has gotten stale
The passing of time is like the passing of years
like waiting for a faded love 
To spark back to life and vaporize those jaded tears you cry
And here comes the passing of time so step up your game
Dry those tears and destroy all fears
The light has come and night has gone
SO walk tall with your head held high
When in doubt turn it inside out and grind it down 
To a beautiful oblivion
To find faith in nothing 
So with the passing of time thats all out of rhyme 
It now seems we are all out of time


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The Book of You

I see you, more than you understand
Your heart, your soul, its like the perfect book

Your heart it beats and yet you do not live
Why do you resign yourself to such a fate,
A fate, an attempt at life that is such a waste

I know in your heart you wish things where different
Wish the past had not happened, 
Wished that your heart did not ache so much

This wish is futile, to wish your heart away is to hide
Do not hide from what enriches your life
You will forever remember this
Learn from these pages in your book 

Yet that crippling pain is likely the purest emotion you have felt
I am here staring into you, reading you

I see your soul for what it is,
It is struggling to restore your shattered heart
Your greatest weakness is your fear

You fear for what can be, for the next pain
So many times you have been shattered
Many times broken and defeated

But you must learn to fight back
Learning that pain is only the beginning is the only way

Without this I doubt your heart or your soul will survive
Survive the apocalypse of your life, fate has not ended it
This is after all just the beginning of your future

I beg you to continue your life,
I yearn to read into your heart, mind and soul more

Please forgive my selfishness but I need you to continue
The waste of your heart is too much
The waste of a soul like yours is a shame

I will pass you the string for which to sew your heart
I will pass you each piece, each shard of your soul
Allow yourself time to heal,
The process is only as slow as you make it

Demand your heart to listen to your mind
Falling back into the pit of despair is truly mad
If you allow yourself to fall within its inky depths
Then forever will its dark tentacles enwrap your heart

You have felt the pain now, felt it keenly
Do not fall into vengeance, it is seductive, it is sweet
But it is a short reprieve from the darkness

Take heart, the good die young is what we're told
The better die last.
The best live eternal in their love, for true love is eternal
That love will forever last in another’s hear.

Do not give in to pain,
Do not give in to hate,
Give in to your recovery.


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Alone

I hear sounds 
i see people passing by 
and cars flashing past 
the window 
I am alone 
But not entirely alone 
for in my mind i see 
wave upon wave of memories 
crowding the shore of my reality 


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Upper Wishing From my Soul

                                     
                  It not upon of mythic attention 
                  It nature availability at blowouts 
                  Thy moving forward  ...   
                  By! —You not finked of me. 

                  Flying out of your mind 
                  In raggery joint out by 
                  Stricken for malicious my heart 
                  As revengers it from my latter's needs. 

                  By some way your profanity 
                  That not expression of a goddess 
                  In my living overrun 
                  In higher's style common consent. 

                  Please! ...taking me out your fondness 
                  Put me away of your soul 
                  Let me fly over freedom 
                  Upper berthing wishes my soul. 

                               ~ Ciro C Toledo ~ 


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The Sixes and Sevens Veil

All of those words and emotions Are tired of lingering in my throat and Mind I want to caress them onto you But how can I? Anon. there might be a time in our days I want to tell you-- I'm worthless, Broken, Diedre, Torned, Discarded, Abuse The past shouldn't control the present but it lingers in my spirit The words need to come out The Darkness with Them What if the truth couldn't set me free, save me from this candled day Underneath the Grove lies something dark, haunted, and confused Hidden in Life aren't we all abused Why can't Eyes see what lies beyond The Sixes and Sevens Veil I can't discard the decay But I'm still entrouved by the past days why can't eyes see what lies beyond The Sixes and Sevens Veil Shrouded against our will too scared to show our bare Vulnerable Shadowself It was the ignorance's bliss that caught you The Knowledge creates a burden Too Difficult to Maintain or was it I? trying to be part of your soul The Decay of Your Heart Sadness can be cured by a few words Despair is a disease of the Knife The Eclipse stole the Sun's Sinlight Underneath the Grove lies something dark, haunted, and confused Hidden in Life aren't we all abused Why can't Eyes see what lies beyond The Sixes and Sevens Veil I can't discard the decay But I'm still entrouved by the past days why can't eyes see what lies beyond The Sixes and Sevens Veil You can to try to condemn the pain Inside But only I can feel the Decay of my heart I know the quill is better than the razor But only I can feel the Decay of my heart Remember your eyes are hazed by bias lies But only I can feel the Decay of my heart Underneath the Grove lies something dark, haunted, and confused Hidden in Life aren't we all abused Why can't Eyes see what lies beyond The Sixes and Sevens Veil I can't discard the decay But I'm still entrouved by the past days why can't eyes see what lies beyond The Sixes and Sevens Veil You can to try to condemn the pain Inside But only I can feel the Decay of my heart I know the quill is better than the razor But only I can feel the Decay of my heart Remember your eyes are hazed by bias lies But only I can feel the Decay of my heart


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Deteriorate

Cant build a thing
The chains holding me down
Have slowly rotted over time
I need a soul that carries on through the pain (when the walls start collapsing again)
Give me a heart the ceases to fail
Despite the infection within

Dont take for granted this world we live in
Nevermind the fragile dirt we all end in

Time has had its way with me
The trail ive walked down
Has Fastly Deteriorated
I need a soul that carries on through the pain (when the walls start collapsing again)
Give me a heart that ceases to fail
Despite what you will find in me

Dont take for granted this world we live in
Nevermind the fragile dirt we all end in


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Future, A Desolating Future(Part 2)

the sweet sun is bound to rest-
to melt is the tomorrow of the glaciers;
wither will be the daffodil, though at her best
to cry is the future of our laughters...


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lost sheep

into a comfortable slaughter
my shephard has left 
a wolf in disguise
to lead astray
his angelic daughters 
with the lord of the flies.

no one can hear the cries of the lost
purposely forgotten
we've been abandoned 
as targeted innocence
into the woods to be killed or bought

lost sheep
lost sheep
we can't see for ourself
or fend while our master is gone
left in a wilderness to be tested
while the survivors wait until dawn. 


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Lies Of A Loss

Going away,
I take one last look behind,
And you can't believe those winter days
Were nothing more than lies.

Knives in our backs,
Dying memories inside -
Maybe I've become so heartless,
Maybe free, or simply blind.

Dear, we are done,
Drink your tears of regret,
Find the answers by yourself, 
And make my side of our bed.

Swallow your last words,
Go on living in your shell.
In front of you is loneliness -
I've only cast my spell. 

Wounds will heal so soon,
But for years you'll be scarred.
You could never think you'd say this,
But you'll find our parting hard.

Shards of perished hope
Watch your recent dreams come by,
You'll feel lost and devastated,
You will hear this song and cry!

Everything that's left
Burns your blood and slits your wrists,
It's your silent suicide,
But I can feel no guilt for this.

No guilt for this!


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Dreaming

Star-studded visions in a different dream
I think I like this place
It's not yet clear as to why I'm here
Maybe I fell from grace

All I know is that the rain has stopped
My visions are now clear
I don't know why I fly so high
But I know I like it here

My mind is hazy but the fog has gone
It has been replaced by sun
All I care is if the weathers fair
And If this place is fun

My Shangri-La used to be so far away
Never thought that I'd arrive
Now that I'm hear I think it's quite clear
That I am now alive

I met a girl down the road from my dream
Star-studded visions come
I tried to speak but my voice was weak
And my mind was quite numb

She took my hand and led me to that place
The ocean beach in her dream
Before I could ask she began to bask
In the bright morning beams

She would not speak so I laid down to rest
Down on the golden sand
I knew my fate would end up being great
If I could just stay in this land

When I awoke I found myself back home
My dreams all faded away
I don't know when I'll go back again
But I'll be ready to play

I wonder about that girl inside my head
I hope we meet again
Maybe I'll return when this life gets stern
I guess I'll wait 'till then

Bye bye bye bye bye bye baby, bye bye bye bye bye bye
Bye bye bye bye bye bye baby, bye bye bye bye bye bye


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A swallowed Cry

A Swallowed Cry

                                  The dawn is smothered in haze as I
                               watch the sun wrap with wings of gold
                                        I swallow a swallowed cry.

                                 As I watch his soul melt within the clouds
                                 my memory lingers of our two intertwining
                                    hearts sharing silk kisses I swallow
                                               A swallowed cry.

                                Nature is laughing with sweet serenades
                                 as I listen with the anchor of my soul.

                                My heart is tangled inside, Still waters run
                                deep, As broken promises lies my paradise
                                 my friendship is for keeps, yet you should
                                       Know I swallow a swallowed cry.


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Swirling

Me needing to touch 
To feel 
To talk and to smell you 
I miss your kiss 
I miss your ways 
I think about all you 
Throughout my day 
Rambling through my mind 
I hate you but I want you to be mine 
Your cynical ways and coy demeanor 
Attitude to feel a theater 
Confidence you say you have 
I say arrogance you act like a Jackass 
Time feels motionless without you in it 
It hurts so deep that I get lost within 
My own self-pity 
Swirling around in my brain is only 
Thoughts of you and your tormenting ways.


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No Room

No room to breathe
No room to feel
No room to think
No one to care

My tears are all I have right now
My pain is all I see
No one understands anything about
The sadness that is in me

I’m trying to find a path
To find my space to be free
I’m looking for wisdom
Wisdom to get the hope I seek

I’m sitting in an empty room
Barred from an emotional heartbeat
The emptiness is like a blanket
Comforting, enclosing, and suffocating anything in me.

 
My strength and will are gone
No permission for hope, love, or feeling
The space, the emptiness that surrounds
Has now taken over, becoming me

No room to breathe
No room to feel
No room to think
And no one to care
My heart is broken.

09/07
A.B.


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YOU CAN'T TAKE IT WITH YOU

Take a trip with me
Out to the bloody sea
View sin and misery
Then dive right in and take a swim
Inside the den of iniquity
Experience your fears
And shed a couple tears
Get tortured by your peers
Play show and tell with the wishing well
While you burn in hell for a thousand years

When you set a goal
You will pay a toll
And fall into a hole
You scream and shout, but you can’t get out
And you start to doubt your immortal soul
The thoughts inside your brain
They cause internal pain
They leave a mental stain
The darkening skies and your blood-shot eyes
Make you realize that you’ve gone insane

Whether you are good or bad it doesn’t matter at all
You’ve just got to realize you’re headed for a fall
For all your greed and selfishness you’re in for a surprise
Enjoy it while you’re here---because you can’t take it with you


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Another Song: Inspired by M Carl Holman, By Ron Porter

Resigned to my isolation,
stuck in stasis sure as death
Weary of my solitude
and pained to not be by myself.

I went out to find the crowd
for comfort and, for company.
In each face I saw allowed,
reflections of the prison of me.

Sharp and cutting as a knife,
it did cleave to the bone
each was trapped in his own life.
Even together; all are alone.

I returned to my cell
full of dread and, distress.
Each man creates his own hell;
mine - my lingering loneliness.


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across the line my version

in this sandsea
of darkness
lieing with a pain across his cheast
pretending he is heartless
as a fire flashes from the sky
he was fragile
and frozen
when paranioa took away his friend
and now he is somehow more broken

he is the waiting for the end of his demise
holding onto all of his goodbyes
holding his fate across the line

slowly
breaking
lieing with a pain across her chest
she wakes with her craving
as the fire burns her eye
she was fragile
and frozen
when deaths grip took away her friend
and now shes somehow more broken

she is waiting for the end of her demise 
holding onto all of her goodbyes
holding death across the line

*this is a song by linkin park off the underground album but i did alter it somewhat i 
did not create the song only changed some of the lyrics*


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The Fine Print Always Ruins That Glint of Hope- Part 3

On the rainy days I wind gently through the streets
Trying desperately to greet every new person I should meet
My demeanor screams of defeat 
Just not the best person in this world to meet 
But if you have the time my voice shall chime in your ears
I’ll bring hope to your greatest fears
You will talk and I shall chalk my theories in to your mind
At the end of the day I stray to my favorite dinner 
Where the conversation gets finer
The waitress cracks a smile for every one liner I throw her 
I pay my check in order to get on my way
The waitress always tells me I hope you find a better day 
And I answer baby don’t you worry if I get through another winter 
Spring will come carried on the back of May 
Then things might start going my way

On long nights I fill up a lonely ash tray 
I tap my foot that’s all it ever took and I’m on my way
Documenting the event of each and every day 
Paying close attention to mention each and every piece 
Like greased-lightening my pondering’s are biting down to leave a scar
Not so straight like bars 
More like lines on a map we use to find our way in cars
Sorry folks I wish I could choke up a hoax 
But reality always pokes its ugly head out 
In all fairness what better thing to write about 

A sprinkle of doubt
A small amount of longing carefully measured out
Finally a dash of hope 
My personal recipe to cope with this thing we call life
Let us speak in generalities they come with much lower fees 
If you should look you shall find the devil seems inclined to hide in the details
And the fine print never fails to ruin our beloved fairytales  
            


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the one you trusted destroyed you the must.,.whats the point in hanging on?

 What’s the point in hanging on any longer?
When the boy who called u his baby his done?
When he is fed up with your crap and says u don’t care
What’s the point in hanging on?
When that boy you trusted everything with wants to destroy you
When that boy who used to whisper you’re my everything now declares you as nothing
What’s the point in hanging on?
When this boy who won’t look at you in the halls because its your fault?
Why shouldn’t you let go?
When everyone says that he’s speaking things of you?
Why shouldn’t you let go?
When your friend calls you and says honey I’m concerned
Why shouldn’t you let go?
When you read your emails that detail your journey with him?
How can you let go?
When you think about lying on his bed playing videogames
How can you let go?
When you remember him rubbing your back just so you get over your fight with your mom?
How can you let go?
When you consider everything he’s done for you
How can you let go
When you realize that he’s stuck it out the longest any other boy?
How can you let go?
When you find out about his new girlfriend
What are you to do?
When you hear her talking about him to a friend
What are you to do?
When you see them exchanging words in the hallway
How are you supposed to feel?
When he doesn’t answer texts
When he doesn’t respond to emails
When he talks bad about you to the world
When he can’t look you in the eye
When he says hey it’s your fault-
What’s the point in hanging on?
Because he’s taken so much with him
Your pride, your determination, your ambition, your heart, your soul, your laugh, and he’s 
taken your will to survive.
What’s the point in hanging on?
All he left you with was tears to cry and a heart to fill.
So what’s the point in hanging on?


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kiss,hugs, and tears

 U didnt whisper in my ear no u whispered to my heart.Not only did u kiss my lips but my soul right from the start.

The minute that u left a sickness took over my body.I stop beleiving everything real close to illuminati.

But I altered my attitude that altered out my life. I couldnt loose my future since I already lost my wife. 

I got back up on my feet and put my limits in the sky. People asked me if I could reached the I dont know was my reply.

 I found a way to smile and to stop being upset.Nothing improves memmories more than trying to forget.

I was doing better my mind was finely clear then I relapse nowhere u decide to reappear.

U brought life to all my nightmares illustrated all my fears. That loves start with a hug, grows with kisses ends with tears. 

I gave you everything I had I gave you good love and protection.U know that ur in love when a persons flaws look like perfection. 

Cant beleive u actually told me that u loved and didnt mean it. Cant beleive I was naive and dum to actually beleive it. 

I see once again and dont have words because Im scared. A broken heart will always heal but never be repaired.

Cant let go of people that u keep thinking about. Its me againts persuation and most likely Ill loose the bout. 

They say that no ones perfect but that everyone is great. u were already great became perfect what a trait. 

To learn means that u failed to fail means that u learned. Our love was just like hell and hell means that it burns. 

Still with all of that we facing off after the years. Fate is not quite as strange as it appears.

Sometimes we have to die ourselves to live for someone else. But with all the sacrificing u forget how to excell. 

God is a tought who makes the crooked all that straight. He has justification of our love that turn to hate.

Who knows when Ill get over u tomorrow or maybe never. But even though I love you say goodbye and leave forever.
 


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Gated Minds

Ever ending walls, are these walls ever ending? Slowely spinning world, will it ever stop spinning? Life is a passage, but is it really pre written? If god is "like wise" does it make him a victim? 
We all give and take, so does it mean its a mistake,
That the reason we are here is only by fate?
My mind may alter my inner emotions,but by keepin it locked means its never even open.
So I must not accept this world or its fate, for my mind is my own, and for gods, its his gate..


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The Deluge

The Deluge.

finally the deluge

skipping in rhythmic heartbeats
the softly sprinkling rain

hums and lulls and cajoles and comforts
the weary evening
 
glistening leaves
on beaming trees
 
blades of grass shimmer
like rough diamonds strewn about
 
and settling in my heart
is the softly lilting touch
of peace
of truth
 
of the rain clearing away
the debris of this passing day
 


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In Shock

In that mouth:  gravity hides.  Weaves
A brand new world.  Broken millstone
Wrapped round the ankles.  Tortures of 
A sepia vision.  Forever there – eyes
Glazed and the lullaby of sleep.

Radio waves creating distorted spectres
On the membrane.  She cooks feasts. A
Detour through lazy days and nonsensical
Drawings.  Harps play in funeral pyres,
Ashes relaying messaging to those across the sea.


Screaming manifestos uttered by the false prophets.
Echoes of former time – dusty skin, rabid and raw.
Eaten in carved dwellings with parched lips.
Falling from rocky deserts, broken hearts
Captured in purges.  Modern economy.

Nameless ghosts tickle this side of reality.
No, divinity.  Degenerating woman grips with
Painted fingers to the ledge that’s close to
Breaking.  Flesh petals await her in the
Abyss.  She smiles though, adores.  

And falls.


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Midnight Bar

Midnight again on a Friday
The same people come to forget
The woes of the week or maybe the month
Or a year, over peanuts and beer

And they're all talking in riddled tongues
Whispering their pains to the wall
Well, they all want to die to relax for awhile
To avoid another one of life's calls

There's a kid sitting in the booth next to me
He's choking down bourbon and coke
And he's not having fun, I don't think he's 21
But certainly old enough to smoke

He says "Man, life isn't how I planned it.
Wasting my time getting numb.
My girl's swelling up and I'm here draining my cup.
I'm disgusted with the man I've become."

Now Ryan's a man I can drink with
Though he's not a great man, you see
But he's good for a laugh or for an hour and a half
When I've got nowhere better to be

He's crying again into his drink
Sometimes I'm not sure if he's alright
Yet I can't really say that I'm not the same way
But still, it's a sorry sight

Haley's a woman I once loved
As much as I possibly could
But as things often do, we were split in two
But if I could go back, I would

I'm not really sure what she's thinking
As she takes down another shot
Is she content with how life has turned out,
Or do we share similar thoughts?

There goes Vincent talking again
With everyone who's looking down
He's been brightening lives and strengthening ties
He keeps this old bar around

He told me one day he was terrified
With the same nightmare every night
With a guilty young mind, this cheater would find
It's hard to make your conscience light

They all whisper quietly around this time
A desire of death fills the air
A lonely bar quivers at midnight
With the voices of those who don't care

They said, "Take me away from everything,
I can't bear to sit here another night.
But there's nowhere else that'll have me,
So I guess right here is alright."


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The Better View

I gave it all away for a moment 
I would have done it for a second 
Because the truth us held deep in the mind 
And so very rarely does it find its way to the tongue
Or release itself from blackened lungs
You must live to regret 
If you have done no such thing you have not lived 

She told me she hates my depression 
Asking what is my obsession 
And why is it something never mentioned 
Did I make you think 
Aw sweetie are my thoughts finally sinking in 
I’m looking down with a grin 
She longs to be up there with him 
She’s wondering was he forgiven for his sins
In her mind they all added up and he dissolved them and drank them down 

“God has he found happiness”
“I hope he still remembers the kiss of morning dew”
“Will”
“God damn you”
“Together we were just the few”
“Alone we are just me and you”
She is screaming hard into the sea and praying into the sun
I hate to tell her its useless to prey 
I’m not burning in hell I guess I played my little role pretty damn well
“He had such an abstract view”
“I bet in heaven there is laughter only because of you”
“God does he now sing to you as if some how in cue”

Sweety heaven is made of memories of us two
and it holds no resemblance to perfection 
Because perfection is an idea and affection
That I felt down there with you
Can you hear me floating outside your window I’m singing softly keep time with 
the pitter patter of rain on your shutters 
I came back to tell you imperfection was my obsession

In the sobering hours, I realize this is all just a reversal of roles
And maybe it was what I was thinking at the time 
But in that peaceful serenity of screams I went blind
And my tears fell like rain from the sky 
My voice swelled and crack in steady time 
In this instance I saw the light 
Far off in the distance at the end of the rail line
I wish I could conjure up a lie 
Like it was dust in my eye

But I’m too busy singing 
About an empty shore line 
A misplaced memory tossed into the sea
And all that I’ve hoped to have forgotten 
Has gotten itself incapsuled in a line
Of some depressing song that I’m inclined to keep singing 
But after the rains the black rose will emerge 
And purge from my heart every haunting memory
Because the power of the mind is worthless 
If it is not producing fiction to soothe the quiet addiction of the heart
I hope everyone will see that the suffering
Is universal and it’s a course for all of us to bare


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Simply Too

Choke down another cigarette
Just like the taste of your lips
Break down another bottle
Just to make you disappear

Shadows and imprints are all that remain
Of what used to be a future kept in the past

Change the channel
Blink passed the picture
Desolate soul, anguished heart
So, let's tease a little more

Shadows and imprints are all that remain
Of what used to be a future kept in the past

So much time wasted
So much love hated
So many lies displayed for truth
So sorry, so sorry

But shadows and imprints are all that remain
Of what you said was a future you kept in the past


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I Long For Yesterday

Yesterday all my troubles seemed so far away,
Now it looks as though they're here to stay.
I can't find light to brighten up my days,
I guess I'll just fall astray.
Suddenly I'm not all the man I used to be,
There's an evil shadow inside of me.
I can't seem to set all the problems free,
I guess my only option is turn back and flee.
Although I sit here and have this guilt,
I'm burning down the good I ever built.
The good times were an easy game to play,
I'm searching for a place to hide away.
I don't know why I have to run. 
I still can not say,
I've done everything wrong,
Now I long for yesterday.
Yesterday all my troubles seemed so far away,
Now it looks as though they're here stay.
Suddenly I'm not all the man I used to be,
There's an evil shadow inside of me.
The good times were an easy game to play,
I'm searching for a place to hide away.
I don't know why I have to run.  
I still can not say,
I've done everything wrong,
Now I long for yesterday.


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Control

I loved you. You were creeped out. I loved you. You were all I thought about. Dreams bring misery, To this little life. I will use trickery. I don't go down without a fight. I will survive without you. You don't control me anymore. I will survive without you. You're not for me to adore. The mess you made, Taking my life for granted, Leaving me in a barracade, You never knew how much you mented. I am in control. Foreign language brings nightmares, Because I would curse you, And you would figure out later, That I once loved you. Teardrops cover my doorstep. Remember how much you ment, I gave you my heart you kept. And you left me there when I wept. I will survive without you. You don't control me anymore. I will survive without you. You're not for me to adore. The mess you made, Taking my life for granted, Leaving me in a barracade, You never knew how much you mented. I am in control. You left me there, In the pouring rain. Bleeding without care, My feelings were drained. I left... I left... I left... The past behind. I will survive without you. You don't control me anymore. I will survive without you. You're not for me to adore. The mess you made, Taking my life for granted, Leaving me in a barracade, You never knew how much you mented. I am in control. You're not Mr. Man anymore. I took back my control. How does it feel being cold, To lose it???


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Harp

Written November 17, 2013


Fields of flowers
Rest around our heads
While photos of blood
Surround our beds
On pedestals we stand
Preaching to the world
Something foretold
By heretics in white
And neighbors in black
Who claim they already knew that

Rain beats down on my roof
To the tune of Duke Ellington
And to the Scat Man we dance
It's all we have left in this world
Penniless pockets 
Play the vagabond game
While the vultures in Eden
Circle the insane
Who hear the angels sing
Refrains and quatrains

Who can be a spokesman
For those who cannot speak
A preacher for the downtrodden
A dollar dropped at hand
For the bum on Main and Port
Traveling through strife
No child or wife
To dedicate his life
No hope to beat his drum
No harp for strings he's strung


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Seasonal Change (Angel of Sadness)

As my soul dwells in your past 
I kill for this moment to pass 
Al though I smile 
I find myself more and more suppressed 
As if, your casket was buried in my chest 

Yes, I breathe 
For I believe 
I am promised to leave 

And I hate the winter 
All the days of September 
I hate the center of a broad frost December 

And as the night expires 
My fright assumes your desires 
I feel I am not the child I used to be 
The privilege of this substance abuses me 
I hate to be the selfish man I have become 
But as if it were fate 
Sadness reigns past noon for some 

I hate the winter 
All the days of September 
I hate the center of a broad frost December


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Used

Used to look through child’s eyes
Used to stare at star ridden skies
Used to smile at silly sounds
Used to dream of the future’s bounds

Used to play in the thicket of my mind
Used to search for a place to hide
Used to act like story book heroes
Used to count from 100 back to zero

Used to hold my breath till my face was bright red
Used to believe all the words that everyone said
Used to want a big house and brand new car
Used to hope that I could someday set the bar

Used to use my imagination
Used to use that motivation
Now being used by my frustration
Of being used by my own generation

Used to... used to...
You know I used to...
Use it all without a thought
Used too... Used too...
We’re all being used too...
Bought and sold like an old iron pot
Used to... used to...
You know we all used to...
Dream our world would never rot
Used too... Used too...
It’s all being used too...
All our resources from bottom to top

Used to sit up all hours of the night
Used to believe that people were alright 
Used to think that we could still pull through
Used to think that everybody knew

Used to have faith in the ‘truth’
Used to see their words as proof
Used to hide these tears I’d cry
Used to hold my head up high

Used to think I had a grasp
Used to disguise myself with a plastic mask
Used to act like there was no problem
Used to hypocritically mock any and all of ‘em

Used to use their aspiration
Used to use their motivation
Now they use their investigation
To bind us to their administration

Used to... used to...
You know I used to...
Use it all without a thought
Used too... Used too...
We’re all being used too...
Bought and sold like an old iron pot
Used to... used to...
You know we all used to...
Dream our world would never rot
Used too... Used too...
It’s all being used too...
But when will this mass consumption ever stop?


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Your My Whiskey, Never Mild Those Wild Dead Women

  You Were My Whiskey; 
And never mild those wild dead women.
And doing all of that on sinking ships.
Each one was you, 
I drank one more.
Who knelt unseen and wild each kiss, 
I miss the most between, 
closed doors.
I cannot move, 
from deep inside your couch, 
I am some head, 
you hang your hat and both, we search for.
While on your knees, 
I think and then I think some more.
Each time I cough, 
your lips grow tighter, I grow sore.
Brown bags lay emptied, 
Wanting more of that cough syrup, over there.

I look at you, 
you look at me and we are both the same.
Eyes that glow
and each red slit a fire that melts us both inside.
Seated circles, fraught by flame, 
I touch your eye it does not move 
inside it's socket, now glazed shut.
Mercy me, and sweet that nun. 
Honey how She knew, 
and he rose up and simply walked away.
The habits bad and neither stay.
and whiskies better, as you empty every bottle.
And here we sit again alone, 
sharing wild forgotten kisses on the floor.



a.s. 

Is It Poetry 
 
 


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Big Sister

If her pain serves to please you
She is all out of words
If her joy won’t amuse you
Her trust will be reserved
She’s begun to realise
That she’s not all at fault
Deep beneath those hate-filled words
She sees your true revolt

Oh such verbal skill you have
Howls harsh reality
As deep beneath the silence
Screams your veracity
Buried ashes of someone
Who hasn’t even wilted
She’s still alive, so don’t give up
Connections are just jilted

Wade through the stupidity
of your churlish stubborn ways
That negative energy
To get you through the days
Rummage for responses
Slave labour you can keep
Contagious as those bitter words
Adrenaline pumps deep

Pull in those reigns that haunt you
Take off your amour now
Bite your nails down to the quick
This hurt you should allow
Be sorry, please recognise
All those wasted chances
Now they’re gone, and it’s too late
All-in wicked glances
Comments shoot straight to the bone
Leave scars the blades so sharp
Immune to those words she’s known
Leave pin pricks in her heart

To peel away in the heat
Leave her raw and exposed
Naked, pour out empty threats
Words are super imposed
Skin etches out the journey
Grows each autumn and spring
Overbearing bitterness 
Twisted comments brewing
You will not admit but some days you miss her
Your partner in crime, your big sister


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Wilting

I can feel my heart beat
I can feel my soul sob
I can feel my spirit sag
            I feel as if I am wilting
I can see the busy street
I can see the angry mob
I can see the packed bag
            I feel as if I am melting
How can it be over for us?
When I gave you all of my trust
I fell like you are a must
             I see that you are leaving
I am wilting away 
    no more life
I am wilting away
    no longer a wife


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Modern Day Psalm

I throw myself across the bed,
I can't get the thoughts out of my head.
"Why didn't You answer my prayer?
I wonder, God, if You are even there?"
 
Through my tears and sobs, I cry,
"Why God? I don't understand why?"
In my rebellion, I plan and scheme
To go back to those things from which You have redeemed.
 
But You know my heart and You know my mind.
You send me just the right words at just the right time.
You speak to my heart through godly friends;
Stern and true - their words my broken heart mend.
 
I cry out to You, and You always hear.
Even when I am drowning in my own fear.
You rescue me with Your outstretched arm.
And keep me sheltered - safe from harm.
 
God, I know You have Your reasons why,
Things happen that sometimes make us cry,
If I go through these trials only to write,
Then to help one person, it is worth the fight.
 
Don't ever let me forget, O God, Who You are.
You reach out to catch me, no matter how far.
I will love and praise You until my last breath.
And know I will be in Your arms, even in death! 


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Autumn

And this is how what dies ,dies 

And what passes , passes 

And what fades , fades under the layers of dust 

And you ask 

And I never answer 

And ants carry forests to the tiny tunnels 

And birds migrate to the fare shores 

And stormes hit the shores 

And sands drown an ancient village 

And locustes eat what is trying to survive the climatequakes

Do you feel bored of the sea noises 

Or the shameless clouds 

How fierce are the windows of the night 

And through its narrow panes , the nocturnal wind sneaks like a grayish song 

Shaking the sheets of bed with bitterness 

And cold is a scare on the noses 

Gets blue in the frozen delicate finger-tips 

And the trempling of the hearts 

And you ask 

And I got confused with the answer ,silent , 

And , silent , I melt in the roads .

 

Written & translated from arabic by Mido 


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THE DESTINY.

This is not a country for living souls
Recoiled the heart lives under the enshades
Of vampire ridden nature and all its pards
On beggarly sums amassed by the pauper
Of bleakness and cold hunger and mort
Here existing we burrowing like moles
In drenched country in termite eaten rocks.

Here are no events images or happenings
But over the same the generations waste
Cobwebbed on a bold spot their anger
In rimless cups in pale lipped liquors
Time eaten tales aimed at amusing
Lamenting on their irrecoverable loss
A loss which was never their gain
Forward they go groping in search of substitutes
In hotel rooms where empty pouches hang
Over the pegs of wealth work and pleasure
All have accepted with harried hands
Stiffening nature humbly no measure for measure
Their guts hanging loose from under their stomachs
While vultures of low airs peck their brains
Piece by piece removing the gilded frowzy matter
Leaving the skull festooned and vainly waste.

The ancient cults of sacrifices still existing
Among jeremiad rules of the gushed brain
Each fang beak or tentacle of spidery web
The venom just dents entwines with its embrace
No grief for marshalled loss no pent up for soul remained
The old conscience just sleeps in arms of lap dogs
And each hour becomes just sanctified and sane.

It is not for charter of the world do we create
Burning our brain and the light of our eyes
Each image in our mind creates
A corresponding image in the space
And each line of the verse entombs
In eternity a sightless gong
Which the poet can hear with his subtle mind
In the span of his wretched life and can find
Some solace when everything significant is betrayed
When the weed choked fields of this world can claim
Their foremost place on the altar of the poesy.





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Pointless

Dark and dreary.
Possible, but not likely.
Waiting for something that will not appear.
A glimour of hope fades like the setting sun.
Anger and hatred rises with despair.
Explodes with fury like dynamite.
The soul is covered like shuttered windows.
Bursting open from gusts of pain.
Hiding true emotions.
For knives in the back hurt.
Only violence can dull the suffering.
Hell, the world must feel like me.


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Only You

It was a sorrowful day as people from all around gathered in a building filled with dirge.
Dressed in their best black in recognition of you.
They came with memories, which they shared with a smile as the tears rolled down their
melancholy face.
As they told the stories it felt as though you were there smiling down amazed at what was
said.
You were a friend, a brother, a child and many more.
You touched so many hearts and made an impact on so many lives that you will never be
forgotten, by all who attended that sad, sad day.
It was only you who turned a smile upside down on all those people in that room.
And you will always be remembered by the way you lived your life and the wisdom you taught
to everyone who had meat you and seen you walk by.

To all the lost loved ones and to you Chris, who I will never forget. You will never be
forgotten.


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The Northerly Wind

The northerly wind brought the odd uncertainty
And the cold gust of unknown, forthcoming changes.
The only right way was very hazy and dusty;
I couldn’t find the suitable roads and bridges.

A winged thoroughbred appeared in the dark sky,
And snorted friendly nearby my tilted head.
I couldn’t mount it because its back was too high,
That horse was stunning though its snow-white wings bled.

The northerly wind blew off drapes at a window,
And an unborn child waved to me from the inside,
But the jealous mother buried it in a pillow.
I stood there lonely and dreamed to vanish or hide.

The air thickened for the black clouds and the dust,
I am sure my chances wait for me far away;
Just behind the horizon. I’ll find them – it’s a must.
The wind is to bring a more favorable day...


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response to the new and old

You write of loneliness
Anger 
And fear

You look of pain
And truth 
So clear

You claim for shaking 
Quaking 
Neutrality

And its ecstasy 
You claim 
Is the fearless one behind the pain

When I’ve seen
Through ties of woe
Its you who lacks
The fear

Truly possible you hide
Through paintings strewn through the tide
You put on shows
And masks
Some comedic
And others tragic
But still your stronger

Remove my sleeves
And truth be seen 
More like a zebra
Of red and white
I hate them
So they control
I love them 
Though they have no soul
And you 
The soulful love
The first 
The last 
The truly one
And you pretend 
That your unshown
But you know that
 confusion 
rarely walks alone

there’s me
you see
I love you 

But your loving eyes betray
My heavy feeling

You seem to stray
To others
Lovers
Haters
Scumbags 
This time a year
Like the last
That one who left you for a friend
You keep
You hide
From past reserves
You keep from me
And don’t let me show
My love
My soul


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Turn for the Worse

In the beginning
Things were so unreal
You were the ideal image
With monster sex appeal

You said you'd always be there
But what you've said is now a lie
Are you aware of the consequences
Your actions hold
Upon our bonded lives

A breaking of the chemistry
We took so long to build
Down playing this relationship
Into something never fulfilled

You were my four leaf clover
My lucky little charm
But
You've turned into a harlot
And caused nothing but harm

I'm at the bottom of this bottle
There may be some cause for alarm
Only finding comfort in
My friends Jack and Jim
Jettisoned into chaos
Where nobody can swim
Your selfishness is drowning me
You shouldn't have left on a whim


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Lost, Not Found

I saw you stand in the doorway
Never felt like this before
Said one word to me, "Stay."
As I got up for the door

You’re lost, not found
I don’t want you around
You love it more than me
Take it, leave me, go be free

Can’t leave you here
But I can’t stay long
Why should I listen, dear
When you’re always wrong

You’re lost, not found
I don’t want you around
You love it more than me
Take it, leave me, go be free

You tell me it’ll end soon enough
Then it doesn’t end at all
Baby, this decisions quiet tough
It’s a pretty hard call

You’re lost, not found
I don’t want you around
You love it more than me
Take it, leave me, go be free

I won’t follow you down, babe
Don’t think I will, I won’t
You lay a wake of destruction, babe
Never come back, just don’t


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Your love is gone

Your love is gone

You, told me  that  you love me forever
Oh girl, you promise me you never say goodbye
Why can't you stay
and why did you lie
Now our love, is it over

I still played the loved songs each and every day
to reminisce the time that you say
I love you
and i hope you stay with me my baby...

Your love is gone
i miss you girl so much
your love is gone
Oh baby your still the one
i am down on my knees each day
and pray
but your love is gone


So many memories we had in the past
But seasons ended and it didn't last
you have the change of heart
now girl were both apart...


Your love is gone
i miss you girl so much
your love is gone
Oh baby your still the one
i am down on my knees each day
and pray oh wohh wohh..

Your love is gone
i miss you girl so much
your love is gone
Oh baby your still the one
i am down on my knees each day
and pray
but your love is gone..

Bridge
i give you my all
with my heart, and soul
oh girl,you give me pain
now my tears begins to rain
why didn't you wear this ring...

Your love is gone
i miss you girl so much
your love is gone
Oh baby your still the one
i am down on my knees each day
and pray
i am down on my knees each day
and pray
but your love is gone
your love is gone
oh girl your love is gone











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words to my friend

 didn’t sleep but two winks last night, 
Because with you I did not want to fight

Our friendship had a very strange start, 
I never thought as close as we were, we’d ever part! 

Through all the good times we’ve had, 
I never would of dreamt things would have become this bad! 


Your friendship has meant the world to me, 
I hope one day it can be fixed, you see! 

I opened up my heart completely to you, 
Something I NEVER, EVER do! 

You’ve never done anything, have only been so nice, 
Lately, for some reason, I’ve been cold as ice! 

When tears ran down my face, like a water fall, 
All I had to do was pick up a phone and call! 

When you were down, I’d lend you my ear, 
If nothing else, just someone to hear! 

Someone to talk to something to share, 
With open arms, because we both care! 

We’ve had to many laughs, and smiles, 
It seems like we’ve gone on for many miles! 

Like two peas in a pod, we once were, 
What happened to us, is there even a cure!? 

We’ve been friends for nearly five years, 
Now our friendship has been broken, bringing us to tears! 

You’ve been there for me, and I you for so long, 
How could things have gone this wrong!? 

Most people would say, “Friends come and go”, 
I thought and still do, we had so much more to show 

We’ve been there for each other, through thick and thin, 
I never thought that the DEVIL, could possibly win! 

I must not be in my right mind, 
To have hurt my friend, who has been nothing but kind! 

I only want the best for you, within your life, 
I never meant to make you feel, like I’ve cut you with a knife! 

The almighty mouth it has cost, 
Now a “TRUE” friend, have I really lost


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Muse

Reaching out through the empty space
Of where you used to be
Oh, how I long for you to be here
So, I could finally be the one
Who gets to push you away

All the games that we play
Say the words we never mean
All the times you turned away
Never bothered with what it meant to me

So, I stare out this window
Trying to see what you see
The glaring sun reveals to me
It’s not what you see
It’s what you’re blind to

All the games that we play
Say the words we never mean
All the times you turned away
Never bothered with what it meant to me

I don’t want to be a memory
You think upon from time to time
I don’t want to be a random smile
Found on your face, no one understands
I want to be the scar
Itching every time you sweat

The best part of you
Is what I got to abuse
Everything stinks of you
Stains like a spot on my soul
But I don’t mind it at all
At least I got some kind of attention
I still got the best part of you
To judge and misuse
But this is the last time
You’ll ever be my muse

All the games that you played
Said the words you still never mean
This is the last time I’ll let you turn away
To be ignorant of what it means to me


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Peace No Pills

I feel like I need to cry but there are no tears left.
I guess I'm not as fearless
As I wanted to be,
As I wanted you to believe,
To see only the strength in me
And nothing else.
I've never felt
More or less
Helpless
For lack of better words.
I feel the need to scream,
Let out all the frustration in me,
But my voice won't come,
And I don't know what I've done
To deserve this
Helpless,
Uncontrollable feeling
Taking over me.
It's getting hard to breathe,
And the pills in the cabinet look better every time
I look at them. I,
Well, I honestly feel the need for them to help take this pain away,
To give me peace to face another day,
Some later date
In time,
But I'll be fine.
No pills required,
Despite the desire.
I'll survive.
I'll find my peace of mind,
My peace in my life.


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Unfortunate Son

I know I've hurt some people
Too many ways for me to tell
They send me tears and letters
I never meant to be in this hell

I walk a long and lonesome road
There's a million pounds on my back
I should've been successful and happy
But I ended up losing sight of the track

To my mother, I lied because I needed it
To my father, I never meant to be this way
To my siblings, I never meant to let you down
I only tried to live life and get by each day

It was all too good to be true
I always thought it would last
I guess I got what I deserved
I just wish it didn't go by so fast

I know I've hurt some people
Too many ways for me to tell
They send me tears and letters
I never meant to be in this hell


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I Remember the Rose

For most, a rose is romance.
A rose is the passion within -
The forgiving flower.
The tenderness that is, pure love.
But not to me.
A rose to me is sadness,
It’s essence and it’s scent,  
I recall a painful memory -
A lonely reminder of a woman,
I never got to meet.
It’s velvet beauty surrounded her,
So pale and still she lay
My grandma.
I recall my father’s face;
The first time I ever seen him cry.
On his knees by his mother -
At her coffin.
So when I smell a rose’s love,
In retrospect, I think I understand
The beauty and the essence it demands.
For it was the rose that I remember -
and I think about her quiet face,
My Nana, 
the gentle rose
The woman that brought my father
to his knees.


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Zigzag Hearts and Pent-up Dreams

Zigzag Hearts and Pent-up Dreams
 
No matter how perfect everything seemed
     I guess we had our faults
Sitting here, I'm almost crying
     And I can't seem to stop.
You made everything seem so right
     So perfectly fixing mistakes
Nothing felt wrong, it was all correct
     But you've made my heart break.
You said I was all you wanted
     And you were everything to me
And yet, you say we don't belong
     I guess there was something I didn't see.
And all at once, I'm alone
     A piece of me is gone
Once again, I made the classic mistake
     I did what I knew was wrong.
I opened myself up to you
     And make myself feel weak
I should have known better than to hold your hand
     Or let you dazzle me when you speak.
I suppose it was "just a crush"
     In your eyes, that's how it seemed
And now, I'm broken once again
     With a zigzag heart and pent-up dreams.


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Low Man Is Due

A low man is due...
My eyes seek reality,
My fingers feel for faith.
Touch clean with a dirty hand,
I touch the clean to the waste.
I fall cause I let go,
The net below has rot away.
And I cry to the alleyway,
Confess all to the rain.
But I lie straight to the mirror,
The one I've broken to match my face.
The fire is so warm,
But nowhere safe from the storm.
And I can't bear to see,
What I've let me be.
So wicked and worn.
So as I write to you,
Of what is done and to do.
Maybe you'll understand,
I won't cry for this man.
Cause low man is due.
So low the sky is all I see,
All I want from you is forgive me.
My eyes seek reality,
And my fingers seek my veins.
There's a dog at your back step,
He must come in from the rain.
But you bring that poor dog in from the rain,
Though he just wants right back out again.
So my fingers feel for faith,
And my eyes seek reality.
So as I write to you,
Of what is done and to do.
Maybe you'll understand,
I won't cry for this man.
Cause low man is due.


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the blues of ugly people

Ugly people
We living in a world with a hole in it
We living life ugly
But we make the world go round 

Would you think I was hopeless
If I led you astray with a song
Whom else are you willing to cope with
I’ve gone missing within your arms

The future
It won’t be here to grace your face
And tomorrow just won’t take you in
Don’t you love your poets
Writers from within your storm

Tenderly, I’ve grown so cold
That my days no longer keep me warm
Capsuled in a city of dreary moments
And I’m hearing there’s more a coming 

As indecent as a man who knows not to feel
Searching for a wagon wheel 
Up from midnight and on until
Why don’t you sing with me
See how much time we can kill 

We’re just ugly people
Living in a world with a hole in it 
Don’t you love this ugly person
I don’t do much at all 
Just doing my part, living life ugly
But I make the world go round

“It’s lovely isn’t it
Ugly people, 
We’re beautiful aren’t we”


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Within

Take me down from
Who you think I am
Pull me apart from
Everything you can
Send me to the world
You think I belong
Chain me down where
You want me to stay
Teach everyone else
To feel the same way

You need to feel me broken
You need to see hopelessness
But at the same token
There are things you’ll always miss

You can only take
What I let you
Things that you can’t force/make
Me until I decide I’m through
 
I’m learning to find within
Hope, perseverance, will
And this is where I begin
My love for them can outlast you still.

03/29/08
A.B.


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American soldier

heaven patiently watches
the American soldier
from beyond this life
as his  wife cries and his brave son waves goodbye
father holds his mother as she prays ( god  keep my son safe)
the American soldier
so far  from home
you will never march alone
so brave
trying not to be afraid
as he fights  for all the world's rights
the American soldier

the American soldier
may angels surround
you ever 
second of day
and night as we pray

heaven watches and the 
American soldier stands high
in God;s  grace
we ask God please protect  our American soldier
and keep in safety,s sight,
 shield our american soldier within  god;s greatest light
shield our american soldier
with god;s greatest light
shield our american soldier in god;s greatest light
shield our american soldier
with god;s greatest light
shield our american soldier
with god;s greatest light


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Song

Hook:
(One step left to complete your doom
Go through the door to complete my gain
Have you trapped in one of my mentality tombs
Turn around puttin' your pain in the fast lane
Metaphorically enough rain to drive a beautiful day insane
You and I will never think the same
You'll see when you press start on my game
The death you brought on yourself, I am not to blame)

___________________________________________________________________
The cars passing by faster than the bars
My mind is stuck like its been sitting in tar
Tryin to contemplate what to do
These hateful emotions are becoming true
Flowing out of my body devouring my soul
If the play's Insanity, My mind's the leading role
When you hear a sentence, I hear a lyric
Takes awhile for you to understand when you hear it
The monsters goblins hoblins and kings
Because kings are the most powerful fiends
Taking away all your strength to
Get through whatever you've gotten into
Driving me away from being sane
These illusions keep causing pain
Seeing all the ominous beings and demons
I wish i could stop seeing them, I gotta stop dreamin

(Hook)

The Disillusions of the nightmares
My demons just stand right there
Stinging my mind like a swarm of bees
Creatures are having their own fantasies
All I hear are the screams of the tormented
A normal person would ask if I'm demented
The pain, Body soaked in sorrow
Dead in the eyes of the world of tomorrow
I know I'm twisted, Don't make it a label
These rhymes turning happy? That's just a fable
When people talk about death, It leaves a silence
Because in their mind the hate and quiet leads to violence
I am not a nice person I'll slit your throat
Turn around throw you down a well feed you to a goat
If joy is what you're seeking
Run away, I'm not a human being

(Hook)

Like the ocean to the rock, The knife cuts the skin
Resurrection may happen a new life will begin
Maybe he'll hang himself chokin' on his blood
Rain tears the rope, body falls into mud
as the family attends the rough funeral
Everyone wonders why did you go?
No one could understand his mentality
Aunt Patty asks "How could he? He baffles me!"
People thought he had the strength for problems
But he was tormented by goons and goblins
Didn't have the power to push through the days
He thought of it in so many ways
He had 2 brothers one hood one good
Wishin' they could see the real him but no one could
Only if he ever just had a friend
No one knew about him until the very end

(Hook)


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3,000 Miles Separate Fate

There you were
Just a blur
In the spur
Of the moment

A spontaneous rush
Of flushed confusion
An overwhelming lasting impression

This brief encounter
Bringing two strangers
A precious and a joyous sensibility
That's all too serene to be fiction

Effervescent euphoria
Permeates its way through the senses
Infiltrating effortlessly

Why did you have to go
And get on that plane

Now you're never coming home


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Missing You

I sent a balloon
Into the sky,
I know that you
Are wondering why…

The balloon is free
To roam above,
Sending my sorrow
Along with my love…

The balloon flies up
While the bird sings,
Sending my mom
Her angel wings…

So when I get down
Feeling the gloom,
I look up to heaven
And send her a balloon.


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adjectives of me

lovely accomplishments
persuasive with my hand
wrote not only to the lonely soul
my time before the sand

as with a clue my life saw thin
the hour glass and sand
thus future independent clause
befalls this mortal man


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Mama Cries With Raindrops

I saw tears in my baby girls eyes today
I heard her whisper, mama can you hear me
She said mama, I really miss you and need you hear
She said can you see the flowers mama, here beneath this tree

And as I listened, I heard my baby girl say
Mama they're your favorite color, can you see them from above
And as I knelt down beside her, I said mama loves roses
I told her when it rains, it's mama sending her love

When mama's happy, mama cries with raindrops
Yes, mama cries with raindrops
So when the flowers bloom so big and bright
Always remember, mama cries with raindrops
Mama cries with raindrops

I saw a smile on my baby girls face today
Heard her whispering, mama it's been awhile 
She said mama, I planted some new flowers just for you
She said mama can you smell the flowers, beside this dirt pile

Just then raindrops started to fall
A soft white cloud moved in over the yard above
My baby girl turned to me with a big smile and said
Daddy look, mama's sending her love

When mama's happy, mama cries with raindrops
Yes, mama cries with raindrops
So when the flowers bloom so big and bright
Always remember, mama cries with raindrops
Mama cries with raindrops


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Another Saints gone home

We just got the news today
she will soon be going away
the doctors done all that they can do
but it's not over for her
she's just going home
she's faught her fight 
Her battles now are through

another saints gone home Hallelujah
another child of God reaches Her heavenly home
another saints gone home Hallelujah
Praise the Lord 
for now at last her victory is won

When the time has come for me to go away
I want my friends and family to see
that its not time to mourn
but to celebrate 
this life I've lived
 I pray they all may sing

another saints gone on hallelujah
another child of God reaches the Heavenly gates
another saints gone home hallelujah
Praise the Lord
Some day we'll see her in the heavely home.

By Treasa Jarvis 
Dedicated to the memory of my grandmother Beulah Campbell who was a great 
inspiration to me..


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once longing love

This time your eyes don't seem to bare the familiar strength
you been staying away from me you've gone to every length
i did every thing i could to lend a helping hand
now your broken and its hard to under stand
this was no ones plan love makes harsh demands

even though i can see your heart is truly broke
when i tried to hold you i was just a joke
now things are changed nothing like before
i have become something so much more
a ache still nags deep within my core a life left in ashes spread upon the floor

i wonder where you ll go who you ll see
i wonder if the only thing you think about is me
the empty hole of things left unsaid
a wall of noise stands strong in my head
some how this feel like I'm dead but I'm watching in you go instead

how many times could i try to be the one you needed but i know it was the ego i feed ed
a callous soul without any notion of truth hope or devotion
farewell my once longing love


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13,39(In Reference To The Fort Hood Shootings)

First off, this is a poem about my feelings about the tragic even that took place in Fort Hood, 
Texas yesterday afternoon. Prepare yourselves. I was very angry at the time i wrote this. 
hope you enjoy regardless. 

13 dead. 39 wounded.
who knew the acts of one man could be so gruesome?
i'll never know what thoughts traced your mind.
as you pulled the trigger and affected so many lives.
what were you thinking? 
ending lives without even blinking.
mass chaos.
last night i couldn't even sleep.
i can only imagine how you made those families feel.
you are a coward.
and that's putting it nicely
you make me sick to my stomach.
are you breathing in regret? 
do you feel any remorse yet? 
i bet you don't feel a thing.
because if you would have thought twice you would have stopped this from happening.
you would have stopped yourself.
i guess you can blame this on your mental health.
just like everyone else.
the world is evil but for you i have zero respect. 
you can't blame this on anything.
because you yourself pulled the trigger to the handguns that called for the innocence's ending
i bet you'll never lose a second of sleep. 
you are weak. 
no pity for a coward. 
i hope you get what you deserve.
can't wait for karma to take it's course. 
get on your knees and say a prayer.
i hope it goes unanswered.


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This Is Not Exactly Casper We're Talking About

one day We all must face
the ghosts of who we thought we were
back then, back when

we were younger, but we were stronger
We've grown weaker with our age
Souls worn down by passing days

Images of youthful eyes
flash across my dreaming mind

Innocence and openness
A state of grace i've grown to miss

Open doors all closing now
lights and shadows crashing down

Another breath has gone to dust
Another year has turned to rust

Let's find our place in dusk and dawn
Take heart in the loss that is who we are


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The Fine Print Always Ruins That Glint of Hope- Part 1

There are men that say united as we stand 
But I fail to see a united land 
They should have said dead on your feet 
So as my knees give out 
My mind races about 
And my hand strains to be compliant with my defiant thoughts
Back in school we’re taught happiness can only manage to be bought
Then I fought these teachings and saw how they could be leaching
Twelve years and tomorrow is another routine
I can’t grasp what their teachings mean but I’m leaning towards puppetry 
As of recent I find hints to what they may have meant
Lent up for interpretation but a life of lament seems to be the landing strip of the 
final descent

So I locked myself up in my room 
I said if this is how it’s going to be you can count me out 
Because I won’t be part of this doom  
Now a days I don’t find a difference between midnight and noon 
The clock strikes 12 at both 
No longer do I condemn tears I condone them I think they promote growth 
So as the days go on I pass the time by watching through my window
At the children playing peacefully down below on the street
Oh, how lucky they are with their lives so nice and neat
They think they’re invincible
They have yet to taste defeat
And I admire their innocence they have yet to be groomed 
Each day I watch for a while sometimes they make me smile
And even conjure up a laugh 
From the safety of my bed I see thestreet lights flicker 
And hear little Johnny bicker with mommy until finally “ten more minutes” she said


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The Top

Honesty
Can't you see
I lied again
Against your whim
Following I keep on following
As you lead the way
My lowest friend
How we meet again

Oh yeah
Oh no
Oh yeah
Oh no

It's the top see baby
Surely you're not all alone
Safe baby
The place that you call your home
Front seat baby
Maybe I'm lost
I don't trust a thought 
And i think to much oh come on
Come on come on say maybe
Come on  come on see baby
Come on come on say maybe
Yeah baby come on

I betrayed
You and me
I messed up again
Lost another good friend
Stop pushing I can't stop pushing
Down on all your walls
Till your broken again
To severe to mend

Oh yeah...etc

It's the top see baby...etc

Trusting me 
You're naive
Where do i begin
Starting from the end
Selfishly I keep on running and
Don't forget my name
I'm sorry again
All the words I spent

(I am still working on it)


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Johnny 's Song

He was born to sing upon his land
Now he's resting in God's Everlasting hands

Didn't matter who you were
That voice you'll remember for sure

A voice that could shed many a tear
Or make you just want to stand up and cheer

Oh how'll I miss this one hell of a man
Made me today of who I am

Across oceans far and wide
Johnny sang his songs with passionated pride

Now he soars amidst his eagle friends
High above the rockies bends

Oh Johnny this song's for you
As I sing about your eagle friends too




In Loving Memory 
       of 
John Denver  { 1943 -1997 }


Soar My Feathered Friend

  {  R.I.P. }


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Why Cannot I

The memories of past 
That was long ago lost
Crawl into the heart’s vacant
Like the biting serpents
An indescribable pain
They deposit in every vein

The horrible hissing they cause
Put a shivering pause
To all the joys and sorrows
As if looking into dark hollows
Their sharp tongues’ needles
Send torturing sparkles

Why can’t I go back
On to the lost track?
Is there anybody still standing
Or my heart is just pretending?
Can there be any space
For me in those heart in any case?


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No Greater Fool

How many times I've laughed at those
Who act like fools for love.
I scoffed, I sneered, I laughed out loud
I thought I was above.

How silly!  How illogical!
How stupid to get hurt.
And even worse these clueless dolts
Will give another chance. 

And then the fools refuse to see
What strangers realize.
They think their lover’s being true
While weaving sloppy lies.

Why can't they see the sad, sick truth
So clear to you and me?
We do not realize in our youth
We really want the lies.

The truth is ugly, the truth is dull.
With no romance or magic.
To look at life straight on like that
Is depressing, even tragic.

Once I believed in fairy tales
I believed his love was true.
A cynic smitten, it never fails
There was no greater fool.


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Lullaby for the Grieving

Lay your head down precious one
And dry your eyes right now
For dreams of happy endings
Will be coming anyhow

The rains will stop, that much we know
Though we may not know how
So walk ahead to dryer ground
Where my love will abound

Know that when you're all alone
I've never been more near
And when you think I'm gone from you
I'm holding you, my dear

The nights will pass before you know
The sun will rise once more
I'll be with you in the sunshine
And with you in the storm

In the sunshine, in the rain
Just look up to the sky
And wish you may and wish you might
And to you, I will fly

I'll never leave you, never go
Where you can't find me there
Just look inside your heart to find
The love we share


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forever never

You know how you made me feel/ my heart felt like it was torn out of my 
body/ I felt so stiff and lifeless as I heard those words that fell upon my ears/ 
how could you say that to me/ I thought that i had died/

No, no, no,/ i dont wanna hear you say those words/ I want us to be forever/ tell 
me what went wrong with our love/ why must you walk away from us/ forever/

I just cant take it/ i cant eat or sleep at night/ all I do is just keep thinking 
about all the memories we share/ why must you throw that away/dont you want 
to make this work/ cant you see that you're killing me/ open up your heart and 
tell me the truth/ I want it all if you want me to let go of you, of us/ and no 
matter how much it hurts/ I will go through th pain to let us end/


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Beach Blues

I came to the beach, for a little sunshine
I came to the beach, for a little sunshine
But you slunk through the shadows, and into my mind

I look out to sea, to try and find peace
I look out to sea, to try and find peace
But I’m still tethered to you, like a mutt on a leash

Memories of us, erupt like ‘bing’ hits
Memories of us, erupt like ‘bing’ hits
I want to forget, our beach wedding bliss

So I lie on my back, and stare up at the sky
So I lie on my back, and stare up at the sky
Detesting you, and your new Barbie wife

Knots of you form, inside of my stomach
Knots of you form, inside of my stomach
I try to undo them, but my fortitude plummets

I hope that in time, I’ll be able to swim
I hope that in time, I’ll be able to swim
And my memories of you, will pour from my limbs



***based on typical blues music, where the first line is repeated and the third line is a "holler"/answer (rhyme scheme AAB)



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Another Chance

I did what I had to do,

And maybe that was wrong..

So let me sing my heart,

Out with this song...

 

I know I made my mistakes,

Like everybody does.

I know I didn't apologize,

Is that the fuss.?

 

You weren't my puppet,

But I made you dance.

I know this is hard,

But do I get another chance.?

 

You showed me the way,

But I never gave it a glance.

Now I'm ready to pay..

Just give me another chance..

 

The world was tough, and Love too cheap;

And I had my promises to keep.

Oh Girl! I'm just about to weep,

Hoping for another chance to keep..

 

The journey was long, and the trouble neck-deep

I blew my plans, and I lost my sleep.

And now I'm defeated, buried deep.

With just a hope of another chance to keep...

 

                                                                                - The Manoj Arora...


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Mental Masochism

Welcome to the old you Hello, Hello, Despair so Crude, Dreams are gone Yet we still follow the old Path Where empathy kills And the Sympathy we find is another Lie You were born to deceive A puppet-master of emotion Back off this fixation while you have a chance Who Would Want To Be This Cold? Sorrow-- My Emotional High Who Would Want To Be This Cold? Better to be Frozen than Numb Who Would Want To Be This Cold? Exchange pleasure for pain It's all coming t you The facade of Joy falls again Violet Hearts crush easy Your Pain you don't Want this Your Sorrow, You Want This Back off this fixation while you have a chance Who Would Want To Be This Cold? Sorrow-- My Emotional High Who Would Want To Be This Cold? Better to be Frozen than Numb Who Would Want To Be This Cold? Back off this fixation while you have a chance Who Would Want To Be This Cold? Sorrow-- My Emotional High Who Would Want To Be This Cold? Better to be Frozen than Numb Who Would Want To Be This Cold?


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Just A Lie

There isn’t anything I’d do for you
There isn’t anything worth the time
It would take to make this better
So much less of a crime

Maybe once, or was it twice
Lies fell easily upon these ears
But no matter what you patter
Now I have only fear

Chorus
Why’d you have to whisper sorry?
Why’d you have to cry?
When I told you it was over
It wasn’t just a lie

And perhaps I was mistaken
Though why I do not know
Your eyes they carry lies
And your tears are just for show

Chorus x 2

Perhaps you should stop talking
It’s a sound I’ve heard before
Now it’s far too late to wait
To pick my heart up from the floor

And baby keep your apologies
You’ll need them later on
To be repeated when you’ve cheated
On the next girl that you con

So why’d you have to whisper sorry
Why’d you have to cry
When i said that it was over
It wasn’t just a lie

It wasn’t just a lie
When I said it was over
It wasn’t just a lie.


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OH, MARIANNA GRAZIA!

Oh, Marianna Grazia...
was my friendly neighbor,
a lovely lady in her eighties!
She became a widow when her
husband died of a brain tumor,
he was a sailor of many oceans;
how evident was the sadness
of Marianna Grazia!


She had a Grand Piano, made of cherry oak,
not covered with a speck of dust, and smiling
she played an improvisation with style; 
and it depended on her mood! The rays of sunlight
entered diagonally and rested on it, while
her feeble fingers played the same, harmonic melody;
and her hubby liked to hear those notes enthusiastically...
that's how I remember Marianna Grazia at her best!


Oh, Marianna Grazia...
went to church every Sunday,
and passing by my gate, she always said
hello, and asked how things were going! 
She gave every kid on the block candy
and flowers she grew in the back-yard;
oh, I miss how you hummed that song... 
oh, Marianna Grazia!


Today I walked by her house,
the Venetian blinds were closed at noon,
I was overtaken by a sudden gloom;
her youngest daughter approached me
and mutterred very grieving words,
" My mom has passed away in a tragic way,
she slipped and fell, and hit the cement;
she passed out as blood gushed from her forehead."  


Oh, Marianna Grazia...
never will I have another conversation
about her experience in Normandy, 
and the stories of a nurse during World War II,
were as inspirational as her vocation!
Oh, Marianna Grazia...
look down below and wave gracefully;
life is not as everlasting as that love given by you,
oh, Marianna Grazia!


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No ones to blame, that your soul is put to shame

I don't understand, how i'm blame to be the biggest sin the world can see. you're little tall tails, you try and make the people believe are all hopeless, just like the heart inside of you beats. i'm breathing like i always do, i'm not gonna miss a single breath over you. when you're the one, that's suppose to be here for me, even when death captures the life of me. sadly, you're mistaken, for the life you've overtaken. the life of a drugged out temptresses is not a life to lead, thats why you aren't my example of the future to me. i don't want to be the one that is always the one to plead, for money, for sex, for looks, oh you're something i've learned to not be from those certain books. you weren't there for me to write, when you were suppose to be, the introduction author about the life of me. the life of me, how interesting can that be? well, i must say, you helped me be able to write about a girl who has been terribly betrayed. where's my mother, the one whose suppose to be like none other? you gave me no one, but myself to look up too.


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Black and White Never Looked So Beautiful

I tickle the pages
As I turn trough the ages
And i find things i didn't want there

I find regrets and heartache
What more could it take
For me to understand that life isn't fair

I find old faded photos
of the places i've been
and the places i long to forget

But life isn't meant
To be like this
A photo album full of despair
but still all i can do is stare

I'd tear out the pages
And crumple them up
If i thought that it'd do any good

I've tried it before
But they always return
Torn and tattered but they are still there

I tire of old fade photos
Of the people i've met
And of the ones i just can't forget

But life isn't meant
To be like this
A photo album full of despair
It's meant to be closer
To bright colored photos
That leave a feeling of hope in the air
Instead of the dust thats now there...

And i know it's my fault
I'm the one who decided to look
And i know it's my fault
I'm the one who created this book
And i know it's my fault
i know it's all my fault...

but life isn't meant
to be like this
a photo album full of despair.


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Untitled #153 / My love will wait

“Don’t hesitate, ‘cause your love
won’t wait”
my love will wait


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Into the Light

I held your hand in mine so tight
Late in March, that last night
Your sunken cheeks and sallow skin
So emaciated, frail and thin

I whispered softly in your ear
You could not speak, but you could hear
I told you of my love for you
So deeply intimate, so wholly true

I yearned with all my heart and soul
To make you well, to make you whole
It shreds my heart like shards of glass
That it was time for you to pass

Oh I will miss you when you’re gone
To other realms beyond the sun
You are my lover, husband, friend
I wish that this was not the end

Then as I kissed you one last time
My heart is yours and yours is mine
I held you close against my chest
So you could feel my beating breast

It’s then you took your final breath
I knew that you were close to death
And slowly your life just ebbed away
Oh please don’t go, oh please do stay

As you succumbed to death’s embrace
You left behind a lasting trace
Of your divine essence upon this earth
To a place of your rebirth

Perhaps you lingered far to long
Perhaps its better that you’ve gone
To meet you maker in his bright light
Where everything is good and right

At least with peace you did expire
And from life’s work, you do retire
So many people you inspired
And you will always be admired

I gave you all I had to give
It was not enough to make you live
I will miss you profoundly every day
And love you eternally in every way

I wish you peace, I wish you rest
To me you were the very best
And so my darling as I say goodbye
I’ll try my damndest not to cry
Remember dearest, I will love you forever
One day in time we will be together
Again!!


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Black sand

When you find your early your already much to late all this time now you over compensate
A rush towards the front so we can crawl to the back always flinching from the timely attack
anticapation explodes towards the surface flooding out release its only purpose
Timely ruin erodes the  youthful heart corroding the edges lets it fall apart

age and wisdom go hand in hand the curse of life has only one demand
youth and vigor go hand in hand but at that point we dont even understand 
in the end we return to the land all these things we were crumbles away into black sand

A hard life takes a serious toll no one to help you madness takes control
lonely hearts lightens the soul to run the great race headlong towards the hole
some live life as a perfect dream while others mostly cry and sometimes scream
good deeds leave nothing to redeem we all lie in dirt or so it would seem

time and space go hand in hand we all must suffer there every command
pain and strife go hand in hand alone we fall and alone we must stand
in the end we pass to the land until we fade and crack turning into black sand

writing this down its quite hard to think today could be it id be gone in a blink
pondering the end leads to the brink no matter how high ones soar everything must sink
it seems to be a very grim notion no matter how hard you swim your consumed by the ocean
live like some mad commotion but time moves straight it knows no other motion

life and death go hand in hand no matter who you are you see others life’s are so grand
fools and liars walk hand in hand each of us all carry these life’s long brand
until the day we return to the land once particles of icy cold lifeless black sand

all of us are dieing only some know when cant control the future but we are were we’ve been
the endless void a thought Iam not akin ill go when I go and not until then 
perception is something you have to be in to see our lives stretch and then grow thin
So many hits we take in the chin but the harder I’m hit the wider I grin
because one thing is certain on your journey you’ll be hit over and over again

shame and guilt go hand in hand for all our troubles the end cannot be planned
love and loss go hand in hand we hold so tight by the thinnest strand
until we sleep in the bosom of the land when all of this returns to black sand


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A Little Child

Tonight a little child lays in her bed and cries
Her little fingers, clinging to her favorite teddy bear
Her blanket soak and  wet, where she lies
For she was alone one more night, with her tears

Her mommy's left, for another night on the town
As she lays alone, in the darkness and her tears
Inside her tiny chest, she hears a little sound
As the dark quiet room, brings out her little fears

A little child left alone, a baby
Two little arms reaching out, to be held
Another Angel lays crying, for her mommy
As her whimper turns her tone, into a wale

As the lonely dark night, turns into day
Her restless soul catches up, to the man
He takes her little hand and leads her away
For her journey in life, has been ran

Her innocence all gone, scars left on her skin
Her face now blue, veins broken and torn
She was just a little Angel, that could never win
For she was pushed aside, since the day she was born

A little child left alone, a baby
Two little arms reaching out, to be held
Another Angel lays crying, for her mommy
As her whimper turns her tone, into a wale


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Final Call

Stop
close your eyes
it's all been done
now pay the price
can't help it now
you've lost it all
hold your breath
it's final call

Don't need anybody
don't make a sound
just close your eyes
let it all crash down
won't hear anybody
never make a sound
when the blood hits the sink
and there's darkness all around

Do it now
that's what you hear
the voice in your head
is loud and clear
what happens next
is up to you
do you drop the blade
before life drops you

Stop
just close your eyes
it's all been done
you've paid the price
can't help it now
you've lost it all
no more breath
at this final call


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Telling Me About Regret

O Girl, 
They are telling me about regret. 

My spices that reek in my kitchen locker; 
My friends smell it in my shirt but never see it on my lips. 

The praying mark on my forehead is a lonely pigeon 
In the nest at the doors of my stupendous grotto, watching the sky .. 1
Wandering its strange sight in the daylight, 
In the blue dome, in the heavy clouds, 
In a mountain top hiding the horizon. 
A lonely pigeon in the nest at the doors of my stupendous grotto, 
Looks for once to the laurel darkness, 
Then flies to the tip of whiteness 
And vanishes in the horizon. 

O Girl, 
They are telling me about regret. 

The people in my small phone index are a rainy forest; 
Its branches with the wide leaves, at the morning, keeps us from rain; 
At noon is a shield from winds and being hunted; 
At night is a clamber for every passing suspicion. 

O Girl, 
They are telling me about regret. 

My formal white robe on my fixed arm is a new road 
By which I pass through, filled with hope at the head of every new year 
By the side of the road. Tents are already fixed 
With its Gypsy wandering and the hands are the stranger's destination 
Stigmatized; they derail the extreme loads on his back 
And roll the wine, time after time, in his mind, till he was covered by dusk. 2
At the morning he opens his eyes "THE END OF THE ROAD", 
And clears out his bags afraid "THERE ARE NO EXCUSES", 
In the medicine book "NO PRESCRIPTION .. NO CURE". 
And I always get back to the road, step on the emptiness, 
And from the shallow side of my broken arm, the robe goes down. 

O Girl, 
They are telling me about regret. 

My spices that reek in my kitchen locker. 
My friends smell it in my shirt but never see it on my lips. 
The bird that I once gifted you, came back -- 
His thin bones now at the eyes of guests is the dinner's destination. And the 
people at the door of my old grave are twaddling and telling me, unbored, about 
the exploits of regret .... 
Forewarning me from the departure 
And silence 
And hope, 
Without seeing the worms on my corpse as sheets -- 
Sheets of bitterness and pain. 


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Lover's Withdrawal

I write you, my handsome one. 
I can't kiss your lips. 
I can't send you a telegram. 
I can't call out your name. 
But I can write you...again...
again and again..
until your fire leaves my blood. 
Until I dance happily without you 
burning my brain.
Trembling hand, 
spirit on fire. 
I want to run away. 
I want to run in your arms. 
I can't get rid of this lump in my throat. 
The memory of you is strong 
and like a stain on my soul. 
Cook it up...your love ....
and shoot it into my vein...
grant me that heaven in my head. 
I sweat and ache. I need a fix. 
Hit me...come on...
do it...do it fast.
I know you miss me, 
no matter how much you deny me. 
I know that you cry inside for me, 
and you're torn 
in your little compartmental heart. 
Please...hold me. 
You don't have to be my one and only. 
You don't have to settle....
but just hold me 
one last night...


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My Surrender (angel of sadness)

Make me go to sleep 
Make me close my eyes 
As I take some time 
I surrender my habits 
Bless the lender of my worn fabrics 
Just once more a peaceful day, what a delight 
A soothing melody buries the night 
Make me go to sleep 
Make me close my eyes 
Does it feel like prison? 
Cause I cannot remove you from my thoughts 
If you will listen 
Your kindness burns my scars like crystals of salt 
As I lay ill sipping this pure life 
I only ask 
How much more can you endure my wife? 
Make me go to sleep 
Make me close my eyes 
If you can bring me to my knees 
I am yours 
If not 
I remain a lost soul at another’s door 
I live life ugly, give me death 
I laugh at strangers 
In one final gasp, I am Ur Saddened Angel 
Make me go to sleep 
Make me close my eyes 


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Rain Drops

Tear drops falling from the sky
Each one has a sad story to tell
Who will listen?
And who will wipe them off their windsheild?
Tear drops everywhere
Ending their lives on the streets
Why do people find their sounds so peaceful?
Each tear drop is a musical note
Playing its own little, sad song
For the people willing to listen


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Gates Of God's Decision

One Hour into school and im hearing news but not believing
what they say,it comes again
in the form of wicked sadness destroying seamen rank by rank
adn my tears fall inside like flanks,in my shaking head
I hold this in mind
and let truth behold all i might not see and death brings me closer to the seams
of life and im so afraid
im a coward of time and i've got so many cards I dealt 
but the ace is hidden by my side
and lastnight it was Sunday May 5th 2008
and somehow we they got there late
I just know it was'nt your time but we all will be fine 
you will be missed and we'll remember this time when we had to say goodbye
and our tears flow like new life
and at the drop of a hat,
a mother lost a daughter,father lost a girl,we lost an angel 
and God gained your grace students lost a hero,I know im way past my limit 
so why do I write still,but i know somehow i'll prove you're living in our brain
Mrs.Gates we miss you dearly as you glowed with day 
and will always be remembered not erased

 "This Poem/Song is dedicated to the Family,Friends,Students and staff who 
were touched by this Angel's Grace,R.I.P. Mrs.Gates"


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Young Gun

Verse 1

So young
One gun
How dumb
I'm stunned
He's done

My son
My son

Verse 2

His choice
My voice
Spirit hoist
Skin so moist
Such a boast

My son
My son

Verse 3

Died in vain
This drives me insane
Such hidias pain
Listenening to the rain
For what has it gained

My son
My son




Tribute To A Co-Worker
Who Lost The Battle
In A Gunfight With Police


So Long Hollywood { 55 yrs old }


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