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pseudo artistry

Blood that screams mixes with tears of fears,
Over your hypocrisy and useless years.
Fresh cuts don't matter - your attentions yet wane.
It's just too easy to shut down, I could end this pain.

But, escape artists aren't artists at all.

When life ends the real journey begins, the journey to be
Above imperfection and glorified weakness everyone sees.
Life trickles into the drain of the sink, wash it and pretend
The veil is burning off,but there is only so much fire can mend

Besides, escape artists aren't artists at all.


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Pledge of love and loyalty

This pledge that l,Ntando, make today serves
as my guideline that I shall follow
happily, ungrudgingly and tirelessly
for the sake of our love life.
Indeed l am well aware of the fact that
the beauty of this pledge does not only lie
in word alone but in action as well.

For that reason in every season
I shall show steadfast commitment
to the implementation of this pledge
with a great deal of astuteness.
I therefore commit myself to be your
devoted and delivering husband for
all the years l shall live with you
on this earth.

I shall treat you with the love and care
you deserve as my wife.
Indeed l shall treat you with
the distinction and dignity
that is befitting of the queen of my heart.
That body, that bone, that breath
shall be my mine to treasure,
for sure;
a dearness to promote and protect
for dear life…and love!
I shall stand by and with you in all the
situations of our life.
If the situation demands that we sail,
sail we shall together.
If the situation demands that we
climb,
climb we shall together.

I know very well what l am getting into:
I am getting into a marriage that is
overflowing with blessings.
This marriage- with our mutual
commitment-
will stand the test of time.
I know very well what I am getting into:
I am getting into a relationship that
brims over with a transforming power
of love.

This marriage-with our
mutual commitment –
will transform naivety into maturity
troubles into challenges
pretence into practice
pride into progress
bachelorship into companionship.
I pledge to be your steward and partner
for all times.

I shall value the consultations
and decisions that we make as
husband and wife.
As head of the family I shall do nothing

 

to derail our love train for anything else
least of all for personal and selfish reasons.
Now and forever

I am your lawful and loving husband…
This pledge that l, Nothando, make today serves
as my guideline that I shall follow
happily, ungrudgingly and tirelessly
for the sake of our love life.
Indeed I am well aware of the fact that
the beauty of this pledge does not only
lie in pronouncements but in practice
as well.

For this reason every season
I shall demonstrate untiring love
and loyalty to you;
a love and a loyalty that is a living
embodiment of our marriage vows.
I therefore commit myself to be your
honouring, supportive and loving wife
for all the years l shall live with you.
I shall treat you with the love and care
that you deserve as my husband.
Indeed I shall treat you with
the dignity and nobility that is befitting
of the king of my heart.
On my mind it is always fresh
that I am the flesh of your flesh.
Green or grown

I am the bone of your bone.
I know very well what I am getting into:
I am getting into a relationship that
elevates me into a kingdom of wifehood.
I shall endevour to put my family first
with all the rights, obligations
and privileges that come with wifehood.
I shall endevour to wipe off and ward off
loneliness and lostness from our relationship,
seeking nothing but your companionship;
banking on your stewardship,
sinking together any hardship.
Since you are mine
I shall not do anything else to undermine
our relationship for personal
or egotistical
reasons.
Now and forever
I am your lawful and loving wife…


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I'm Your King

A burst of white light gamma rays, overbearing a flash of brilliance burns through to my soul everything is like hell the world starts to melt in the blink of an eye just the cold blackness of night I don't care if I am not again what I once was, for at this moment I am greater now than ever before I took the path between teetering, tight roping walking right up to my right divined in my unholy state I thought I told you I am your king still you sit there, hesitating I know you hate me what does that mean? I hate just about everything still I'm chosen I did not wish before now bow down to me refuse me no more for I shall always be your demon until you accept me as your King. I don't even know you though you say we used to be best of friends, you and me the day you ditched me I remember now exactly how it played out back when we were just tiny things even back then I still was King you thought me stupid just a ruse I would laugh inside, you see? not one of you single, mean people ever even knew me in a world, mostly seen to me that is why only I can be your true King and bring forth a new source of light everlasting. As two worlds collide slowly aligned one wrapped in shadows one bathed in white evils swirling in the clouds above I'll always be the king you love to hate or despise as in your blood I thought I told you, I am the one I am the way, the way out shall be shown breathe in my spirit as it carries you away breathe in my faith it shall carry your empty space and deposit you gently on a cloud just enough higher than you've ever dreamed of for I am king now, and your in my hell your in my imagination, I'll just never tell you'll feel as though dreaming, you'll feel now if you try and see you were always found the most shared in the light cast upon me the last bright star in heaven. Denounce my name, if you may One year later, still not afraid A black sheep, a darkened spade That's just life, I'm not right I'm in the wrong, follow along Like a piper, I'll pitch a song Mesmerized, the weak wills sing I thought he told you, he's still our king.


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Hymn One

As the title says, this is a hymn sort of thing, though I haven't been able to think up a 
title that I'm really happy with yet.


The LORD, enthroned in Heav’n above,
Has shown his grace and perfect love.
While I was still to sin a slave,
Jesus raised me from the grave,
For at the cross, as Jesus died
A child of wrath was made alive!

And when I did my sins confess,
Christ clothed me with His righteousness.
God did not just the sinner spare,
But called him son and made him heir,
For at the cross, that great exchange,
What Christ had earned, a wretch has gained.

I cannot claim myself to save,
For all my sin was all I gave.
Yet Jesus took this foul donation
And by His blood bought my salvation,
For at the cross, I daren’t forget,
Jesus cleared my unpaid debt.

God removing my disgrace,
Made my heart His dwelling place.
Sealed by Holy Guarantee,
I am dead, Christ lives through me.
For at the cross the curtain tore,
From the heavens to the floor.


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Dreams

If only I can believe in myself
I know I can learn to love this life of mine
Still, I want to know the real me
To meet the one inside of me

If I close my eyes and dream
Maybe I can see it
To know and feel it
But I know

Dreams are still a dream
Although it is far away
I believe it can be reached
For just by dreaming like this
I am a step closer to it

If only I can believe in myself
I know I can learn to love the people around me
Still, I want to know that special someone
To meet the one that is meant for me

If I close my eyes and dream
Maybe I can see it
To know and feel it
But I know

Dreams are still a dream
Although it is far away
I believe it can be reached
For just by dreaming like this
I am a step closer to it


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I'm Still Loving You

To feel the rush, of your sweet touch
Your excitement, I beg to clutch
I'll no longer cry, I'm still that guy 
Stars in the sky, we're feeling high

To create, with such flair
Made my heart, reappear

I wanted in. but got pushed right out
Love you girl, without a doubt
My passion burns, for your heart
Looking for, a brand new start

The mud has dried, I can take a stride
My lonely bride, I swallow my pride
My time is yours, your time is mine
The sun will shine, and we'll be fine

We would create, with such style
Made our dance, all worth while

I wanted in, but got pushed right out
Love you girl, without a doubt
My passion burns, for your heart
Looking for, a brand new start

Come worship me, and all I give
Without you girl, I cannot live
You're stop and go, a ferris wheel
Let's get close, and make this real


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Apologize Me

Heart aches a great deal.
Feeling the guilt' real.
Pouring through my eyes is tears;
Unable to put in words my fears.
Though am the partial wrong doer'
I wouldn't like to justify as it is over.

And to you i sing this apology song,
As i cannot forget you for a second long,
For the mistake i committed,  knowing,
Just avoiding your advices from following.
 
Frightened, that the love you bestowed would cease,
I plead you to apologize me and bestow your love in ease.
Punish me with word or hand.
Never ever band me from experiencing your love,
As you are my second mother,
And my heart gives  no place to another.
Apologize me!


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Gotta Let Their Soul Cry

 Raped and Molestated in childhood, 
   Abused and Misused in pre-adulthood,
     Alone and confused they stood; feeling
       like tainted goods.

 Let their soul cry, maybe then; they can
  regain their pride. 

 They gotta let their soul cry

 Their darkest secret's they lock  away
   within, this is why their flesh constantly
    feast off sin; and everything in life has a
     beginning, but never render an ending.

 Let their soul cry, Crying is the only way to
  gain their piece of mind.
   
One might ask," Why"? Then , I will reply,"
  They need to see at least one day filled with
     promise rather than pain and see the sun
        without having rain.
     
 They gotta let their soul cry, before their sin
  cause their flesh to die.


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Fighting Temptation

This guilt I feel consumes me 
I want to let it out 
But I'm terrorfied of the consequences... 
I gave into temptation 
And now I pay the price... 
I'm so sorry for what I've done 
I pray that this isn't the end 
I pray that you can forgive me 
And we can still have our happily ever after... 
One single thought runs through my head 
Over and over again... 
I know what I need to do 
To finally get peace of mind 
But once again I'm consumed with fear... 
Fear of what you'll think 
Fear of what you'll do - what this will mean 
I messed up! That's all there is to it! 
And all I can say is 
I'm so deeply, deeply sorry! 
God was testing me 
And I failed horribly! 
Now I'm living in regret 
I'm completely stuck! 
Show me where to go from here 
Tell me what I'm suppose to do now... 
How do I make this right? 
I'm sorry! I'm so sorry! I'm so deeply sorry! 
For this incredibly stupid thing I've done 
Now I'm at your mercy... 
I can only hope and pray 
That you can forgive me 
Please stay here with me, 
Please dont run away 


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UninvitedInfection

Never said yes
And no chance to say no
Both inebriated
So you thought that was the chance for you to go

No violence from what I remember
I woke up in the midst
Too messed up to say a word
Or know the order of events

I dont even know the face
I only thought it was you
And you say it was him, too
My self feels so displaced

Should've paid attention to the signs 
But was too naive
Invite me somewhere unfamiliar
And use the tricks up your sleeve

Just to get off
You shatter the outlook of a young girl
Just to get off 
You put a curtain over my world

Due to your ill wishes and your sickness
I was too dumb to speak
Too embarrassed, too ashamed
I thought it was defeat

After one realization came another
Eventually, nothing is at it seems
While growing up you're given lessons
With age wisdom gets more keen

I can forgive but won't forget
I've also gained through your deception
I've learned not to lose all hope through this
Uninvited infection


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God Forgives

Have you ever felt hopeless?
Thinking there's no one to care.
Is there someone in your past?
At whose memory you stare.

Don't take the hide off yourself
Or think perhaps your not decent.
For mistakes you have made
Even if they've been most recent.

For we spend our entire lives
Wrestling with thorns in our flesh.
For the good seed and bad
Are two that never will mesh.

And you can love other people
Though one day they've hurt you.
Like we hurt God each day
In things we've said or failed to do.

We all face temptations daily
Of one stripe or another.
God was tempted but sinned not
Nor tempts he any other.

Though we try hard as we may
To live a committed life above sin;
While in this earthly body
We're inclined to mess up again.


Written for a special friend, Shirlene


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Why Must It Be

Can I let you go? Will you be okay? Where you're headed now...to a better place Listen to my words of forgiveness relieving this pain I'd give anything to have you back again To hold you once more in my arms, one more day of happiness you now dwell within my heart Your innocent smile is forever a distant memory, and the times that we share are precious treasures that I spend reliving The Shadow of Death Took you in just one breath Why must it be? I cry behind this closed door, searching desperately for an answer, yet all I feel is an emptiness inside... despair haunts me forevermore Why did you have to go? Why did you have to leave? Why does this have to hurt? Cancer robbed thy life from thee... Why must it be? Fly away Angel Child of Mine Trod thy broken paths, roam away, fly and be free... Why must it be?


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apologies

if i die before the day
heal the hurt that i have laid
on fragile flesh and innocent minds
that by chance became my shade

if i sleep eternal nights
save a prayer for the sick
sheltered in the poison ivy
by my hands now in contempt


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A Silent Prayer




                                      Born in sin, 
                                innocent some say,
               Silent the night, as it creeps on into day.
                        A Silent plea for forgiveness,
                         a silent sin, a sin of silence, 
                                      silent friend

…                             Souls silently praying, 
                           In silence,  a silent prayer is
                                            Saying.
                                           Save me…

                            In silence I cry, Silently I die….
                                      Pray for silence, 
                                   Silently pray twice
                                      A silent prayer

                                             Saying,
                                           Save me….


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In My Eyes

Find a way to me. A way you will find. See the colors, In my eyes. Drain the grey, And the black. Bring the color, In my eyes. See flashing of blue, Flashes of green, Flashes of brown. If you search for me, Search for my eyes, There I will be found. See the rainbow inside. To think I went insane. You weren't mine. That's what would keep me sane. Dreams and flashbacks come into view. Thinking of what could we've been, Thinking of the pictures of you, Thinking of what we had, I knew I was doomed. See flashing of blue, Flashes of green, Flashes of brown. If you search for me, Search for my eyes, There I will be found. Much of darkness is in my eyes. Haven't you noticed I've been down? Showed my all the lies, Do you know in my tears, I drown? See flashing of blue, Flashes of green, Flashes of brown. If you search for me, Search for my eyes, There I will be found. See flashing of blue, Flashes of green, Flashes of brown. If you search for me, Search for my eyes, There I will be found. There I will wait, There I will cry, There I will relate, There I will die. ~ORIGINAL~ <3 Evalina Elena Eshiii E>


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Everything You Can Imagine

"Everything You Can Imagine"

There's a part of me that wants to do as it pleases 
And a part of me that don't make sense
There's a part of me that calls out to Jesus
And a part of me that rides the fence...

There's a part of me that walks the edge in the night
And a part of me that I don't know
There's a part of me that want's to give up the 'fight'
And there's a part of me that won't let go...

'Cause I've been lied to...Spit on...
Pushed down...Hit on...
I've been Cussed at...Cheated...
Used and Mistreated...
Everything you can imagine....
But I wouldn't let go...

Nothing but The Blood could set me free
So I called out to Jesus...here's what He said to me:

There's a part of me that lives inside of you
And a part of me that won't let you hide
There's a part of me that always sees you through
And a part of me with arms open wide...
There's a part of me that lived the pain you feel 
A a part of me that died for you
There's a part of me with power that's real
And a part of me that makes that 'old life' new...

Nothing but My Blood can rescue you
So call on My Name...I know what you're going through

'Cause I was lied to...Spit on...
Pushed down...Hit on...
I was Cussed at...Cheated...
Used and Mistreated...
I've been through everything you can't imagine...
But I wouldn't let go...
Because I loved you...
I wouldn't let go...


~by deborah burch©
3/31/2012


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Understanding VS Acceptance

Don't try to reside within my head
Transforming me to be like Joe or Sam.
Merely try to be a friend instead
Accepting me, like God, the way I am.

For you can't crawl into my skin
Or experience first hand, my pain.
Unless you've walked where I've been
You shouldn't hold me in disdain.

Thoughts I have, How can you know?
Unless opting with you to share.
When through unrest I chose to go
I didn't leave our friendship there.

Realizing that I fit not into your mold
And allowing no clutter in my head. 
For God, gave individually, a lot to hold
Don't try to transform me, accept instead.

In others, seek good, and it you'll find
Judge not on looks, faith or creed.
For in my intellect there hangs a sign
My thoughts are for friends, it reads.















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Everyday Regrets

        Every Everyday I feel the same old mistakes brushing up my leg and heading 
striaght for my heart. Trying make me sting... stupid memories, I can't shake them away 
and they just make me feel everyday regrets. I knew you were leaving, I could feel it 
inside. Yet it seemed like life just kept moving on... it never let me stop for a minute 
to see how you were doing and I blame myself for not saying good bye. Sometimes I cry 
when I think about you... sometimes I wonder why I didn't just go see you. One more 
mistake and my heart keeps on aching. I'm not ready for this but even so it kills me. 
Everyday regrets about the times i'll never forget and the things I never got to say. I 
know your looking down on me trying to console me but in my mind everything went wrong 
and I wasn't even there... you just passed right along and I couldn't even hold your 
hand. I wanted to be there... I had grown up a lot since this ever ending roller coaster 
ride and just as I was getting off the dizziness still hadn't worn off. You were taking 
away in the middle of the night... I wasn't even there and that makes me sad. I didn't 
hear you voice... I didn't show any remorse and it hurts me deep inside that I will never 
see your heart beat again or see you talk to me like you used to do. Everyday Regrets and 
I keep on blaming myself in a story that just won't ever end and will continue until I 
see your face again. I won't forget, I will remember... I disappointed you and that's all 
I can say for now goodbye is hardly the words I ever wanted to say. But now your gone and 
i'm living with everyday regrets.


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RAIN

Ripe with dishonesty, and rampant with pain
Hoping the hurt here, will be washed with the rain

The drops seem to thicken, and fall from my face
Like tears no one sees, from times I can't place

Memories of moments, better off in the past
And moments of joy, that never do last

I worship the moisture, as it cleans me inside
And the rain falls harder, so you can't tell I've cried


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Saturday Grace

I lie in chances
Cotton white 
Relaxed in your fragrance
A scent 
No rose could pleasure

After me 
Laughter chases 
With open arms
It looks 
To embrace me 

It’s always bad news that saves the day
The sadness that dawn’s upon your Saturday face
A sadder day’s grace

These songs are written
To never be spoken of 
Whispers 
Lie hidden
Above the trenches we’ve dug 

Just like yesterdays disappear
I feel my departure 
Is so very near
Secrets trespass 
To only remain out in the open, clear 

It’s always bad news that saves the day
The sadness that dawn’s upon your Saturday face
A sadder day’s grace  


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YOUR CHOICE

What is it that GOD deals to us, from The Heavens and The Stars?, 
The choices that we make in life, will bring us near or far.
He has given us these two things, they are Life and Free Will too,
as what you choose to do with them, is merely up to You.
You may choose to do the Wrong Thing, leading to The Darkest Night,
Or turn and walk the other way onto The Path of Light.
The Bible says " God Loves Us All " no matter what we do,
All that He is waiting on, is just a call from you!!!!
To tell him you've been going, down a steep and beaten path,
And would he please just show you, Somehow, A way to just get back!!
Now you're Starting Over, and as well you see "  The Light " ,
Your Hope and Faith, God gives you Wings, Now Start A Brand New Life!!


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Pray For Me

I'm here coming to the Lord for the things
 
That I have done for the sins that I made 

And done I am getting on my knees for yah
 
Lord tell yah to pray for me sometime I
 
Feel lost trying to make it to the top I

Tell yah lord come pray for me.

Sometimes I can't sleep telling myself

What life got to do with me

Tell yah lord come pray for me

My moms always tell me to get 

Some sleep but 

I'm always dreaming about 

people dieing on me 

I wouldn't know what to 

Do if someone I loved die

On Me 

Telling yah lord come pray for me

My life would crumble in front of me 

I wouldn't be able to complete the 

Goals set our for me

I'll be praying to the Lord like 

Why she died on me

Telling yah Lord to pray for me


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I Still Remember

I scratch my head and too often wonder
And while gazing hinder I see disarray.
I recall those times of my err and blunder
times void of Jesus to brighten my day.

As I posed the question did any care?
The obvious answer I was unable to see.
Until life became more than I could bear
I found Jesus was patiently waiting on me.

I realized that countless agonized for me
Through prayer straight to God's throne.
But from blinded eyes I'd refused to see
Attempting to do things on my very own.

But during a crisis I became spirit broken
For my body was now stricken with cancer.
I surrendered life entire, not just a token
I accepted Jesus Christ as the living answer.














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Forgive Me (Sorry)

Forgive me
I don't know what I do
The things that hurt you
Forgotten who are you

I just want to make you happy
I want to see that smile
I have not intended to make you hurt
When I realised it all this while

Forgive me
I don't know what I do
Never try to hurt to you
Almost forgetting who are you

The flowers that bloom your heart
It had fades away
It is because of me
I took all your heart away

Don't want us to be apart
I tried again
I promised not to fail
I promised to finally understand

Forgive me, my dear
I don't know what I do
I never want to hurt you
I don't forget who are you

Forgive me..


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Heard It

I was in clique

We had everything we wanted and was lovin it

But then one night I got really sick

And death I barely missed

So I said to myself I’ve had enough of this

I decided to quit

But then I thought about who was the leader of my clique

It was the devil and he wasn’t havin it

So he had his people watchin me closely

‘Cause he already knew who I was about to go see

I went to church and the spirits followed me in

The only thing I want is be freed from this life of sin

So they started trippin and grabbin, kickin and stabbin

Fillin my head with voices wantin me to make the wrong choices

But I don’t wanna go back

So I got down on my knees 

And started beggin Lord please

Don’t let me go back to where I was

When I was drinkin and lookin for a quick buzz

I felt you when I was on the corner sellin drugs

When I was pimpin and low-ridin with the thugs

But I changed all for you because

There’s now a difference between where I am and where I was

So the word got back to who I thought was the boss

He said “get her back, no matter what the cost”

But little did he know the old me was lost 

And the only place you’ll find  it is on the old rugged cross

So the “boss” is now in a total mess

Hatin every minute that I was getting blessed

And then it happened…

I died

What’s goin on? I wasn’t ready to leave

But I gotta remember every thing works out for those who believe

It was really quiet as I stepped up on the platform

And as I lifted my head the person standin there was the Lord

With Jesus at His right and the Holy Spirit on His left

Let me just be real and say I was a nervous wreck

The judgment didn’t take longer than a minute

They had reached a verdict

GUILTY…

A big smile went across my face when I heard it

He said “Well done my good and faithful servant”


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You Live My Testimony

My love is strong.
I use you though the many things you've done wrong.
The road was long but the past is gone and now you have a new song.
A new page to flip;
A new chapter to write;
A new part on this big script.
Satan may try to tempt you as tainted but don't you listen to his games because 
your life
will be my testimony too.
And now the new words you'll speak and the lives you'll renew will bring glory to 
me and
my son who was slew.
Though I warn you, in this new page your company will be few
People may not get you but they'll run later coming to you with their issues
They'll see how you've overcame and then you'll tell 'em bout me and your life will 
then
be shown my testimony. . . 
                                                     You live my testimony.


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True Love

As my mind began to corrode.
I never knew what price I owed.
You went to the underworld,
and I followed you to Hell.
My soul was strong enough to break away,
and you tried to fight off the devil in vain.

I found those chains melting away
And I heard you calling my name.
I wanted to leave you behind.
I wanted to watch you suffer.
I found my conscience and I hatefully helped you.
You smiled at me even through all of your pain,
And my thoughts of anger floated away.

I realized that I still loved you.


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A Deer Hunter's Prayer

I am at once pleased and saddened that I have taken your life,oh great creature 
of the forest.

I am pleased because I have invested many years honing my woods lore and 
shooting skills for this final result.

I am saddened because I have killed one of God's most beautiful creatures for 
uncertain reasons.

I don't need your flesh to sustain my family nor your hide to clothe them.  

I question myself constantly because I seem to focus an inordinate amount of 
time day-dreaming about forthcoming hunts and re-enacting old hunts in my 
head.

I question why I am obsessed with checking and re-checking my hunting 
equipment as the fall days shorten.

I question why I expose myself to the abuse of the natural elements--drenching 
rain, freezing snow and biting winds, waiting for you to materialize.

I especially question this hidden force of ancient origins that drives me to take 
your life.

I am satisfied that I have not killed just for the sake of killing--that there is 
something deeper, more spiritural at stake.  Perhaps I'm attempting to capture a 
modicum of your nobility, your sheer beauty and ability to live free, for myself.

Regardless of the answers to these probing questions and as I kneel next to 
your lifeless body, I do ask for your forgiveness and promise that your mortal 
remains will not be wasted and that the cherished memories of this hunt will 
remain with me for the balance of my life.


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This Aint Real

Your face, 
Made a fake smile, (you said)
I love you,
I need you,
I want you just for a while,
You told me,
That I made you smile,
All the things you said to me,
Are just words now,
How can we love,
When you love me for yourself,
(This Aint Love)

Chorus: 2x
What are we doin,
If this love ain't real,
What is this feeling,
That I feel,

I'm broken in emotion,
I'm broken in love, (you said)
I need you,
I want you
You're the only one,
I'm thinkin of, (so tell me)
How can we love, 
When there's always someone else,
(This Aint Love)

Chorus 2x
Bridge:
How can we love,
When there's always someone else,
How can we make up,
When you only love me for yourself,

verse #3:
You got me imprisoned, 
Inside your heart,
When kissed
I felt, Like we,
Would never be apart,
chorus 2x

 


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The United Nations

Did you get my
Number yet?


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Dawn

Trying to hold our love together
'Seems I'm doing all the talking
She only stares and listens
Is she thinking about walking

'Been three long hours since midnight
And we're still so far apart
Oh I wonder which will break first
Dawn...or my heart

I watch her gaze fall away
To her bags on the hallway floor
Her eyes make their way past memories
To our bedroom door

Is it staying or leaving fears
What are those tears for
Oh I wonder which will break first
Dawn...or my heart

Dawn means everything to me
She's all that ever matters
Starts my day with sunshine
Makes the nights so much better

Now I'm begging her ......please
Don't leave me in the dark
Oh, I wonder which will break first
Dawn...or my heart



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Solipsist

Let the Deicide commence.

You're a voyeur at best!
Your vampiric heart is beating out of your chest!
And you have slayed the ones whom would love you for anything less
Ready to consume the final fragments of innocence,
And for you there is no forgiveness,
On your knees pleading, screaming to a tyrant in the skies;
The father of lies.

I will never be enslaved in your superiority
The people agree: jaded of your false dichotomies.
Know: I will be whomever nature intends to be
Apollo and I will share our dreams,
and you will be forced to see
your failure!

I know who you are...
Readily the first to present your scars
Chained by some despot or mental czar
An emotional homunculus in your mind, behind bars
Reluctant to escape - even when proven fake
Your demented mind - depths no one will penetrate!
 
...And you see me suffering
Not caring of any casualties
Just as long you recieve your safeguard of sympathy
So very wary of the masses and their Anarchy; Liberious ways

Solipsist - Is there no one you can see?
Even if she was presented burning?
Solipsist - Is there no one you can believe?
Even if Sophia was screaming?
Solipsist - Know you have killed and abused me
Imprisoned in your own  personal reality 




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DISTURBED CREATURE- Am I

A poem wrote by me, based on Person who is a deserving icon but still struggling hard with his career life and addressed as disturbed creature.

DISTURBED CREATURE--> Am I ??       BY Mrs.Madhavi Suyog Pagare

Am I so insane, Am I so mad,
Dramatic mood of mine is so die hard.
Destroyed my peace, Shattering my dreams,
People call me as disturbed creature.
As like mounting the pain, attenuating the drain!!

Digesting my feelings lying inside me,
Strangely nobody cared, call me sick.
Teasing me lavishly and my heart is pricked,
Hurted me like hell when addressed me as stupid.
As like showering rain, missing on the lane!!

Time lapse in journey of life,
Can hamper anybody on its path.
When I see innate reflex of mine,
I always use to brightly shine.
Though possessing every job attributes of mine,
I never thought the authorities will ditch and hamper my career line.
Falsely acting bloody swine, making my image as fade as wine.
As like affecting harmonious divine, my soul was, as is transparently pristine!!

Destroying me and testing my patience, Never wanna give up.
Transformed deviations, wanna rightly screw up.
I wanna raise up, I wanna shake up.
I wanna wake up, Tranquilize my mind.
Unzip the professional life compressed by the culprits.
Wanna explore myself, driving the motivated heights of journey.
Lastly waiting for the optimistic opportunity.
Cuffing the suspect ,I wanna rejoice by my pattern of life!! 

with Suyog Pagare


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Antigone

I am the face of misery
My life, a dissonance of autumn and spring,
The years are written in the same
Lugubrious, nostalgic grey
How can it be the author to blame?
I cannot scream this all away…
Burn nor Bleed this all away…
To Death I am Ordained

Lacuna ever growing
With Velvet sheets of life flowing
Aeons apart of my "royalty"
Under the mask the cannot see...
Can you dispel this tragedy:
Antigone - Epiphany failing

If it must be…
Then just kill me,
(Antigone) sing me out of reality;
I wear this dissonant crown of shame
(Antigone) Of a kingdom's disdain
I hate to be this way... normalcy's bane
(Antigone) Here comes the edict, to blame
The sordid child of Thebes,
This is me,
Antigone

No words of hope
No words of hate
Do I have Lenore to send to me:
The sordid child of Thebes
Caught In the longest nightmare
life - the slowest way to die

I know this is my life 
But I'm not under control
under the mask the will see
Just Another Human

If it must be…
Then just kill me,
(Antigone) sing me out of reality;
I wear this dissonant crown of shame
(Antigone) Of a kingdom's disdain
I hate to be this way... normalcy's bane
(Antigone) Here comes the edict, to blame
The sordid child of Thebes,
This is me,
Antigone

If it must be…
Then just kill me,
(Antigone) sing me out of reality;
I wear this dissonant crown of shame
(Antigone) Of a kingdom's disdain
I hate to be this way... normalcy's bane
(Antigone) Here comes the edict, to blame
The sordid child of Thebes,
This is me,
Antigone

Can you dispel my life; this tragedy?
Can you control the storm in my mind?
I'm asking you: can you rid me
Of The Curse of Antigone?


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How Could I Not

I cry Jesus...and you're there
Lord...nobody cares...
For me....the way that you do

When peace floods my soul
Like I've never known
How could I Not....love you

On the turbulent sea
There's millions like me
Searching...like I used to do

You said....if I cared
Then your way I'd share
And How could I not....love you

How could I turn away
How could I never say
Thank you..for all that you've done

For laying your life down
Turning my life around
For God giving his only Son

For taking my place
And amazing grace
For healing my heart through and through

For.....forgiving my sins
And being my friend
How could I not.....love you




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To My Foster Parents With Love

I came into your lives a lost and lonely child,
Full of anger and resentment,
Overwhelmed with fear and confusion.
Yet you took me into your home, your lives, and your hearts.
From the very beginning you tried to make me feel welcome and wanted.
Though I fought you each step of the way you never gave up on me.
Instead you patiently and lovingly took me under your wings,
protecting, guiding and shaping me.
Showing me love and understanding.
Giving freely and openly the praise and affection I so desperately needed.
All the while expecting nothing in return.

As days turned into years you were still there
Making me feel safe and secure,
treating me with respect and fairness,
pushing me to be the best I could be.
And still, there I was fighting you.
Oh, the pain and heartaches you endured at my hands.
Yet there you stood, firm and unwavering.
Never walking away, never giving up.
Always loving me no matter what the cost.

All these years later as I look at my own children
I realize just what you saw and still see when you look at me.
Your Daughter!

I love you.


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The Final Confessions I

These are my confessions
Secrets of my mind
Everything that mattered
Truth I can not hide

Nothing but a shadow
Distant memory
What I was, What I am
What I’m supposed to be

Forgive me, God, forgive me
For being so unkind
Impatient…ungrateful
Cynical and blind

To those who thought they knew me
And those who never did
To those who hear my songs 
In the places where they live

I offer my confessions
Honest to the core
Offer my confessions
There won’t be anymore

No more…


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Push Up

i could sit here. day in and day out
thinking of the most proper way
to let the ink in the pen spill out
but as of late im feeling prehistoric 
so much weight on my shoulders 
and i dont know where to go
resuscitate my soul
look back up and head to the goal

so much evil around. i feel like the devils workin double shifts just to bring me down.
on the road to redemption
you can take a seat up in the front section
just so you can feel the emotions
in this electric notion

i've done a lot of things that hide the halo
let it all collaborate when i medicate 
now look at me, mind workin like plato
formulate a new path to take so i can
maneuver through all the mistakes 
we all know we cant change what we've already made
but we can change the next thing we create
startin to sound like a serenity prayer
5 steps till im thirty
and the twenty four before i was never a player
found out when the lights came back on im strictly a lover
its the strongest drink for your soul, when its thirsty
so careful how much you intake or be left hungover
even worse be the one she ran over

i dont mean to come off like im too deep
but the obstacles made there way through just to scrape through
and leave me suffocating
just for me to re-invent a new way to breathe, re-decorating

is your life so complicated 
you rather wet up your pillows and revoke from the life you live
just think of your kids mourning 
theyll never see that pretty face in the morning any more
cheer your self up
you got a lot to live for
your a gem and im that friend
trynna appraise the value 
that you dont see inside of you


just another day for him
goin about
searchin wonderin what his purpose is
running in circles 
till he found a way through all the turbulence





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A Confession to Tell

I have a confession to tell
and I don't know where to start.
It is something I have hidden
for many years.
Something I wouldn't let myself have.
I've had many fears about this.
Fear you would reject me.
Fear of disappointing you,
of hurting you in some way.
I denied this for so long,
it became the norm.
I tortured my soul over it,
for so many years.
I want you both to know
how much I love you
and I would never do anything
to intentionally hurt you.
You both gave me so much
even when we didn't have much.
You both did a great job raising me
and I think I turned out okay.
You taught me good life lessons,
a hard work ethic, honesty, and loyalty.
Up until now, I have led my life
the way I did for fear
you would disapprove of me and
that would be too much for me to bear.
I then realized, I wasn't truly happy.
I wasn't being me.
During this time, I met someone,
who made me very happy.
They saw the real me hiding inside
and loved me for it.
I now know true happiness.
I have debated and contemplated
in my mind of how to tell you both.
It is something I could
never imagine doing before.
I didn't know how to tell you
no matter how much I wanted to.
I want you to know
that you did nothing wrong.
I love you both very much.
Please don't think any less of me
because of this, but...
Mom, Dad, I'm gay.


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Welcome 2013

Well we are already a couple of months in so i just wanted to say welcome. 
this will be a new journey for the both of us, so i hope it will be awesome. 
I will try to write more than usual this year, I promise. :)
What would help tho if you readers would send me topics and stuff to help me write about things cuz my mind goes way faster than my fingers and i cant think of just one thing. lol. so thank you readers. plz comment and tell me your thoughts.


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Right Now

In the exact moment that I am right now
I stand in a sea of vulnerability;
susceptible to the effects of causes around me
and since I am fully aware, 
I own my surroundings
I am one with sounds and vibrations
resonating from the earth;
I am that pulse of the drum beat 
thats been thrashing 
inside me since birth

Right now, I am exactly as I am
deeply flawed and misjudged
used, victimized and persecuted
Right now I am you in the absolute

Right now, I am exactly as I am
balanced, whole and complete
attracting abundance and certainty  
Right now I am peace - still you
 
Right now, I am exactly as I am
You


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It's Not Over

Don’t say it’s all over (cause it’s not)
“Sorry” won’t cover it…so don’t go on your knees and pray for my forgiveness 
Oh baby…don’t listen to the commotion…I’m done taking cover (it’s all for naught)
I’m plummeting in slow motion…into the remorseful pit…I’m plummeting in my nightmare’s abyss

I want to carry you through the night… 
I’m swimming in the ocean of my tears… 
My sodden wings lost its ability of flight…
You've been swimming in your distress for years… 

Shut up! Don’t say it...
Don’t even think of it (don’t even ponder it)
Hey! Don’t say it’s all over…though we’re breaking bit by bit 
‘Cause there’s more treasure to discover 

I want to remind you to fight the good fight…
My misery pools are brewing inside of my head…
I’m backing away from the light & exploring the night… 
You’re giving in to sleep and I’m wide awake on my bed 

Shut up! Don’t say it...
Don’t even think of it (don’t even ponder it)
Hey! Don’t say it’s all over…though we’re breaking bit by bit 
‘Cause there’s more treasure to discover 

Please don’t tell me…oh, don’t tell me…darling!
You’re giving up today… (I beg you to stay, despite your inner pain) 
I’m scared I might erupt – it could be quite startling!
Someday, things will change for the better… (Don’t turn the wrong lane)
I’m waiting for that day to arrive – perhaps it will wash away our dismay…

I promise you a tranquil reality 
I want to stray with you tonight 
I still have hope that He’ll set us free
I was wondering if you could stay the night
Maybe the Lord could grant us 
Pure, incredible delight 

Shut up! Don’t say it...
Don’t even think of it (don’t even ponder it)
Hey! Don’t say it’s all over…though we've plunged into our own pit 
‘Cause there’s more treasure to gather…


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Living Without

I tried to write about love but I haven’t felt it. 
I tried to write about the sea but I’ve never seen it. 
Then I tried to write about the air, but I have never breathed it. 
I tried to write about magic but I never believed it.
I couldn’t write about god, all I have ever done is sinned.
And when I tried to write about life I found, 
I have never really lived.


Details | I do not know? | |

My Wishes are Simple





My Wishes are Simple


My wishes are simple,
my desires few,

to gaze upon an ocean,
and marvel at a solitary drop of dew.



My wishes are simple,
my dreams not too grand,

to feel the waves teasing my tired feet,
with no footprints left in the cool, wet sand.



My wishes are simple,
my thoughts serenely gentle, calm,

my heart resting beneath a swaying palm,

healing my being, caressed by nature's soothing balm.





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How Alone Am I

How Alone Am I
How Sad Am I 
You never Know
I never Show

You Smile WIth A Shine
I Smile with Wine
Your Enthralling Eyes
Defines My Style

Missing you is my life
Yes I live, but I strife
Finding you beneath the stars
Misng You my life chars.


Details | Ballad | |

Isolation

How can I tell you?
I can't stay with you.

Neither I can give up on you.
Fear of losing you is losing me.
It feels like slow death every night.

But we are just stuck in our spaces!
Unable to connect from two feet distance.


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FOR YOU MY LOVE IS TRUE

Girl, It hasn't been easy
I've made some mistakes
But when I hold your hand
I know it's not too late
Sometimes I've hurt you
Wiped tears from your eyes
But when I see them sparkle
I know we will get by
So many promises I made 
All the things I said I'd do
Fallen short on all but one
And girl that was loving you
Yeah, for all the missteps
And the lack of follow through
You've never had to question
For you my love is true
For you my love is true 

Date: 9-30-14


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MUSIC - HAIKU

Play The Radio Get Up And Dance All Night Long Music Heals The Soul


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Wrong Decisions

Sometimes we make wrong decisions,
And then in attempting it's hiding.
A web we weave with much precision,
With no thought of daily abiding;

But once traversing that slippery slope,
And we've cast God's spirit into recess.
He doesn't give up but renders hope,
And forgiveness for days lived in excess.

We can't justify a decision that's bad,
By cloning a second in its likeness.
Masking it, to our stature won't add,
Nor diminish the need for forgiveness. 














Details | Didactic | |

GOD DOESN'T REPLACE CHOICE WITH FREEDOM

God doesn't replace choice with freedom,
excluding me from that Heavenly kingdom;
if I disobeyed...I'd forever lose this soul to woes!
For my own sake, which one am I going to choose?


I lived youth selfishly...denying that He existed,
and He sought me when it was almost wasted; 
bells rang to atone me with their never-ending song,
the organ played its sweet music to carry me along.


God doesn't replace choice with freedom;
I either immerse myself in the life-giving waters
and allow the forgiveness of all committed sins,
or simply die without ever learning wisdom.


Details | Rhyme | |

What The

Being afraid of me is your cage
Nobody expected my rage

With my actions so unclear
The meanings are not here

I've only to regain again
What is lost now and then

Not to be more unclear
I hope to meet again dear

This I trust must not last
Or we could be a thing of the past

Come away and pull me home
I never really meant to roam

Still your my one true hope in life
Being more than this loving strife 

Being afraid of me is your cage
Nobody could expect my rage


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-------------------------The Soul I Sold------------


If I seem down forgive me Frowns I carry around live in me When I break you see right through me GIVE BACK THE SOUL I SOLD... The hurt I’ve learned brews in me GIVE BACK THE SOUL I SOLD... Your words so true renew me If only you'd re-design me Take time rewind refine me Recreate the mold without lies I’ve told... GIVE BACK THE SOUL I SOLD... The hurt I’ve learned brews in me GIVE BACK THE SOUL I SOLD....


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Man with sorrow

A risky side
A twisted mind 
He's a man with sorrow 
He's a man on his own
I know your secrets
I see you losing control

I want you back
Oh I want you back home
*Chorus*:
To kill your sore
To purify your soul 
But not a glimmer of hope
And not a glimmer of joy
 

You walk with a frozen heart
Making it hard for me 
To leave you alone 
 
Your nonsensical twist
Makes me shiver inside 
 
The more mysterious he gets
The more attractive it gets 
 
Chorus:
But not a glimmer of hope
Not a glimmer of joy 
(2x) 
 
Your fatal deadly thoughts
Make me scream for more
 
I can never show, how much my love
For you was strong 
But you're the one I blame
 
I'm craving on saving you
So I can slay you on my own
 
I try to forget,
But I find myself with regrets 
 
You looked at me and said it straight
With no circles to spin
Baby turning the page,
Will lead us nowhere...
 
But not a glimmer of hope 
Nor a glimmer of joy 
I know your secrets 
I see losing control 
You're the one I blame
You're the one I crave.

**please feel free to correct and comment! :) ** MS-


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It Takes Two to Tango

I admit what I did was wrong
And for six months I tried to hold out and be strong
But your sister’s advances were persistent
She just didn’t want to leave me alone

She would grope me in the basement
And kiss me in the corridor
She’d feel me in the kitchen
And whisper she can do me better as long as I didn’t tell a soul

She would touch me in the basement just behind the storage wall
Then she would stroke me in the boiler room and have herself a ball
Your sister was promiscuous and didn’t care to stop
All she wanted was to steel me from you so she climbed up on top

In her mind she was older
And tried to justify her lustful actions as being right
And even though she too had a boy friend
Her jealousy ran deep because it was me she wanted to keep

Her imagination had convinced me too 
That you were sleeping between the sheets
She planted this view in the back of my mind of John and you
I didn’t know and couldn’t discern what was right

She didn’t want a condom
She made that very clear
All she wanted was my seed
So she rode me like a bull to breed

From the stroking and petting
To the hugging and tonguing
She would bend over easy 
But wouldn’t swallow a drop

A thought comes to mind 
Why do I post this on line
Because this is only part of the story
To simply hurt you the way you did me

They say karma has a kick
That is fine with me 
I have a temper with an onion to peel
I hold back no more as the truth shall set me free

From our actions to our deeds
My desires as a writer run deep
In Buddhism they say to reflect and let go and be saved 
or give your pain to Jesus and everything will be ok

I have triggered a beast of suppressed anger by remembering
I have danced through fire the door way of lust
I sacrificed my heart and created a hole in my soul
But I could not save a love that meant the most to me



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Many Questions, One Answer

The bills, the pain, the drama, the rain
The storm grows larger and floods your brain 
With thoughts that begin to drive you insane
 Like, if I trust God will it all go away?
What am I missing? Empathy? Faith?
What will happen if I stay on this pace?
Am I one of those people that God can replace?
If I don’t change now is it hell I face?
Could we all be afraid of meeting our fate?
All these years trying to find someone to relate..
Is it true you can fall victim of a time and a place?
If I pray hard enough can I erase [pause]
The anger, the envy, resentment and hate ?
or at 25 years old could I be too late?
To try and change my life to get a new slate
And chills cover my arms and my heart begins to race
All of a sudden I can’t hear any rain
Laughter replaces the fear that remained 
and God lets us know it will all be ok
Forgive those around you and thank God for each day
Think with your heart and in Gods you will stay.


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Louder Then Words

paper hearts can never foil 
the obvious from happening 
you speak of despair 
like you come 
from a place of happiness 
you fuel me 
like the water liquor burns 
we move 
like the fire of hearts 
young and torn 

after all you're left for dead
you better off coming off your meds
the sweetest thing you said to me
is actions speak louder than words

i'm no longer yours to forgive or forget 
living like cliches 
the secret is to forgive and forget
counting down the days 
the minutes you mark 
i'll be here when the hours are dark 
roaming like children 
screaming of riddles in the park
easy like noah never parked his ark 
gritty like paper hearts 
we never fold 
the sweetest thing i was ever told 
"actions speak louder then words" 

after all you're left for dead
you better off coming off your meds
the sweetest thing you said to me
is actions speak louder than words

i'm no longer yours 
to forgive & forget
i'm no longer yours 
to live with regret


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He's The New Life That's Living In Me

Today I'm so happy I got reason to shout! Cause Jesus has opened my eyes to see. I want to praise His holy name, And tell the whole world about, This new life that's living in me. A new life is living in me. The things of my past, I no longer need. Each day, He makes brighter, My loads, He makes lighter, He's the new life that's living in me. My tomorrows, I'll face, And not be afraid, I've a friend that now walks beside me. My strength He renews, By this new life I choose. Yes, He's the new life now living in me.


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Life's Book

"Just forgive and live" Is what I always say Why weight yourself down,with those past burdens everyday? It will possibly ease your mind,and cleanse your troubled heart Making you then realize,you should have done this from the start Holding grudges causes anger,and your anger then turns to rage Like a repetitive word in a book, that you read on every page "Now just let it all go!" change the words written in that book Then every time you turn the page,life gives you a fresh new look
1-25-12


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Sabbath Morning Rap sequence 1

Learn not too late to halt the hate,
Bound to be ground in the dust of disgust
We're pierced and fierce, fulla rings and things
We're blued and tatooed and God is booed.

Crude dudes are misconstrued
with actions vulgar,vile and lewd.
We're found down ground in sound,
totally tatooed in terrible taste,
in a mindless race for the loudest base.

Hate to dis your myth but God exists,
'Tis a truth deduced by the less obtuse,
You understand He did become man
For His love of us all because of the fall.

He suffered and died being crucified,
He pulled His people from the pains of hell
and rose from the dead He's alive and well,
I tell you no lie He's got no rival,
It's right there written in the holy Bible.

He arose to heaven so to send the Spirit
to His brothers and sisters who wished to hear it,
He said I leave you my Love I leave you my all
but you gotta say yes to heed my call.

Don't follow the world that ain't the place,
You want to be with Me when you finish this race,
Orphans you're not  you have been taught,
I will help you find Me if I'm sought.
                  
                       Amen


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UNFOLD

The pain of change as it unfolds
Is oft a tale that stays untold
What is seen is a whole creature
not deep holes in the feature
nor concrete soles that makes his feet hurt

It all begins with a soft kiss
He is walking with a false bliss
Only following in paw prints
But the nature of mom's lips
Is to rob him of all innocence

Trapped in warm spindles of fear
A wrapped life form kindles in here
Four years bound to shingles of moss
Time to leave this life of sloths
Break free like that of a moth
and Rise again like Christ on the cross


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FOREVER WE ARE ONE

If we don't let go the past
the future will not come so easy,
so many time we go wrong
many time we are right
yet we are not perfect 
need to forgive others
that hurt us,thou heart may remember forever
heart may not want to give chances any more any longer
we need to move on without the past
we maybe taller than a tree yet we cant see the future
it is covered by the cloud
the future is many distance away
hard to believe,hard to see
everyday we try harder
everyday it goes longer
a plant today can be a beautiful flower tomorrow so dont up-root it
forgive and let go the past by-gun is by-gun,
give love a second chance
        !!!!let go the past-let come a new day!!!!!


Details | Lyric | |

all these things that nobody wants

staring at the night sky
as i lie awake
They don't know 
what i've been through

All these things 
that i must do
They don't know 
what i've been through

over my head 
in wanted guilt
the streets 
give away my filth
still living off the charity 
of an opened hand

I really thought you knew
I sat there and told you 
the sky's were blue
Whispered unto you 
what you undrew

if innocence were to perish
and in this form of life 
I became a bit too weary
like coffee I'm available 
only when I'm unwarm 
I still miss you dearly

staring at the night sky
as i lie awake
they don't know 
what i've been through

All these things 
That i must do
They don't know 
what i been through

"if life were a vending machine i'd check out with a card"


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Tea Time

Love in your bones, perfection, divine, a wandering heart pure is thine?
A moment in time, immaculate, sensual, alive, we align.
A mass of vibrating energy combines.
Lost here, safe there, warm dear?
Our love melts crippling fear.
There is no divide. No moon owns this colorful tide.
So now we jump! 
Inside my manic depressive ride.
Will I? can I? Abide? to society now, I have a bride?
Shirtless, shoeless, beard is long, happy am I.
Fear not, even King Kong.
Wife at home, smoking tea and high.
Jesus Christ! I sigh. sigh. sigh..
You pinned my soul, my thoughts and I..... 
Dreamed to die.
My, my, my.
Your cold hard shell.
I loved you then and wished you well.
A living breathing tree did fell.
Is it cold in this, your damp black cell?
Silence.....
Now. 
For this happy fat sow.
Expectations melted, I chose, I allow.
By camp fire I love. I warm, with stars above.
Tea in hand, lying back, to know someday I will love.
I toke on tea, enjoying my smoke. I love it here, so real. 
Remote.
For me, for me, I toast, I joke, this bloke owns nothing.
Sorry. I lied. Frothing. I do own something this lovely green smoke.
You strive for things, material and plastic, a waste of energy, I think, a joke.
Funny you see? means nothing to me, like you I wrote.
Happiness is. So very near, its here, shockingly clear.
Your mind, your head, to freely choose.
Before your old and dead, dead, dead.
















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The Moment of Atonement

My Dear World,
I owe you an apology;

Forgive me
for I have distorted thee:
lying passionately,
I failed to accept you
by chimera deceptional
I wanted to surmount you
believing myself
to be exceptional.

Forgive me My World
my bitterness,
narcissism
and selfishness;
for a fool I was
since the truth 
was consciously unknown to me
thus calamitious the discovery would be.

Please forgive me
all the souls my ambition eradicated,
all the feelings my sharp tongue destroyed,
all the emotions my cold heart repudiated,
for how much all those deeds I enjoyed.

I was then infected;
the infection seemed incurable
as I wanted it to be -
or wasn't I aware how diseased I was?

My Dear World,
I owe you an apology;

Forgive me
my blindness
to the beauty of life;

With myself in centre
I would not look around
for distorted was my perception
by a deceitful projection
of perfect me in faulty universe.



My Dear World,

Thank you
for
instant recovery of my senses,
the wisdom you blessed me with,
the pain myself was redefined through.

Yester year
I reached the deepest depth
slowly losing my pride -
my psyche was nearing death
in plight I could hardly abide -
I understood a mere human I am.

Now I laugh
enjoying my life
every day forsooth
heartily 
and with ruth.



Thank you
My Dear World
Please, forgive me.


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For You And Me

It  was  for you and me ,
That Jesus left His throne,
Bore the scourge and agony,
Shivered His flesh and bone,

It was for you and me,
He took the awry tour,
Towards the dreaded Calvary,
Summed His tortured  hours,

It was for you and me,
That Jesus bore the cross,
Paid the greatest penalty,
That death supposed be ours,

It was for you and me,
He wailed the gloomiest cry,
It was for you and me,
Jesus was nailed to die,

Oh, that you and I may see,
Our wickedness beyond measure,
Jesus to set us free,
In our stead bore the torture,

His love mysterious great,
Knocks  the door of all men's heart,
His mighty power recreates,
Renews our lives whole to restart,

It was for you and me,
When on the third day death sufficed,
The savior left His grave,
Victorious he arised,

He rose back to His throne,
Sitting by His Father's side,
Prepare! He's coming soon,
Today is to decide,


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I give you me

I give you me

The green grass all around me
Seems so velvet soft this morning
As two wagtails whistle tunefully
As we sit amidst the Roses
Your blue eyes look so gentle
 And send your magic essence right into me.

My mystic, magic maiden
How you smile just like an angel
As the sadness in your eyes it whispers to me
That you have suffered cruelly
And because I love you truly
I know that I must treat you tenderly.

I’ll do my best, to make you happy
I’ll give you joy, I’ll give you me
I’ll give you all I have 
so very joyfully
I‘ll give you me….All of yours I be..

I’ll love you magic maiden
Till the day we be no more
You have my heart, so treat it very gently
We’ll face our lives together
Through fine and stormy weather
You’ll always have my love
I give you me.

Sept 6 2006.    


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Lost love but I want u back

Lost love, I lost love you lost love and were both hurting. Let's just be like forget it and give up. But no I will life u and I the best I can. I lost u but I love you more then anything in this world. I'm not over you. You changed my life and I gave up on us i love you still I hope u see this and see how much u many to me. I love you and our lost love.


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Sing a Song Poem

Looking back on the memory of
The dance we shared beneath the stars alone
How could I have ever known
The way it all would end
The way it all would go

Please forgive me – I know not what I do
Please forgive me – every word I say is true
Please forgive me – I can’t stop loving you

He put that bottle to his head and pulled the trigger
He finally drank away my memory
I found him face down in the pillow
With a note that said I’ll love you till I die

Please forgive me – I know not what I do
Please forgive me – every word I say is true
Please forgive me – I can’t stop loving you

I’m glad I didn’t know 
The way it all would end
The way it all would go

•	Verse 1 & 5 Garth Brooks – The Dance
•	Verse 2 & 4 Bryan Adams – Please forgive me
•	Verse 3 Brad Paisley – Whiskey Lullaby



** For Tracie ~*~ Indigo Dreamweavers Contest 
Sing a Song Poem


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Love To The Music

The music pumps the groove,
The music makes me move,
The music lights my heart,
The music bangs so hard,

The music makes me dance,
The music brings romance,
The music crowds the place,
And the music relates,

Chorus:
The music makes me wanna dance,
All night long,
The music makes me wanna dance,
And feel this song,
The music makes me wanna love you,
All night long,
(We can love)
To The Music

The music lights my soul,
The music takes control,
The music makes you love,
The music is a drug,
The rhythm of us being in love,

Chorus 2x


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Who Are We

Who Are We
By Nate Spears


Who are we to cast stones?
As if we're perfect
No one’s perfect
But we all are worth it

Everyone's been wrong
At some point of life
Am I right?
So stop condemning
And start rebuilding

This is the vulture like mentality of the world
Casting stones at others 
As if we’ve never been wrong 
Lord behold somebody casts a stone at you
Then all hell will break loose!


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Rainbow Africa

VERSE 1

Everybody in the streets is dancing to Africa music,
Everybody smiling, laughing.  Live their dream because they choose it.
Come on people, celebrate.  Celebrate our Nation.
Let's all be equals now.  No more emancipation.

CHORUS
Come on Africa, Rainbow Children,
You're Africa's life-blood pumping.
Africa Rainbow Children,
Mama Africa always jumping.

VERSE 2

Reach out and help your brothers.
Takew care of fathers and mothers.
Dry the tears on others' cheeks,
Give love to all who seek it.

CHORUS

VERSE 3

Come on Africa, show your joy
to the world's girls and boys.
Mama Africa, spread your love.
Give thanks to God above.

CHORUS x 4


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life now

the life that you have now 
is the one you will cry over when you are removed from it 
it happens that many lives are taken 
away from the now and when we lived 
the can’t grow fast enough is bicycle hard to catch up to 
crispy in leaves, and, bare under the bark


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Be the Inspiration

Your mind races when you hear that song
The sun glasses go on 
And the volume goes up
Your foot hits the peddle while imagination races for a medal

Maybe its the melody
Or the singer who makes you feel like a winner
Perhaps the words motivate your inner desire
Which pushes you to let lose sets you on fire

Each of us has a trigger
And we want to be that super hero
The kind that everyone looks up to
But to be the inspiration

You gotta be willing to let go of the illusion
To be that speed racer and come up on top
Look in that rear view mirror 
Ask yourself so why you in such a rush

But then your ego says a…. man it ain’t no big deal everything’s cool 
Your heads bobbing to the beat your hair is flying in the wind
Ya got this view of how everything should be 
But deep in your belly ya got this fear and ya shrug it off like everything’s ok

So you continue on your merry way day after day
Then one day maybe five years later you here that voice again
Suddenly all those emotions come rushing back
But this time you say ok I’m ready to listen

And the message is clear so you change the direction
You start to become the inspiration
People start to praise you for your actions
Then one day you meet this young man whom is stuck in his pride

You offer him guidance you tell him the message
He looks up at you and tears fill his eyes
He just kneels down sobbing from all the hurt
You say it’s ok because “Love is the answer”

Ron Flatow © 2007


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Unforgotten

I've captured you from death's snare,
While others were unaware
No more worrying,
You are unforgotten

You are alive
Others deny it 
Well, I know...
You are unforgotten
In my memory
You are unforgotten 	


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Last page, End of story, close the book and don?t look back

As I purge my mind of all the memories bits and pieces that still infuriate me
I remember being on the phone with her in our last conversation
and in the background I could hear what her new boy friend was saying
Threatening to leave and reminding her about the things I?d done  

Then you claimed I had not changed 
You said I was still very angry
I said under the circumstances how would you feel
If the only love you knew was being decided upon a moments notice

No more chasing
No more memories 
No more wishing you?d come back
No more you, no more me
Last page, End of story, close the book and don?t look back

Then suddenly another memory a psychic gave your mom advice  
She said you were going to have to choose between two lovers
But that moment in time had no rhyme and we just laughed it off 
But as I reminded her of that time I could hear fear through a fateful sigh 

then suddenly everything in my mind began to flicker
Like a candle blowing in the wind
My mind my soul prepared to let go
Like an addiction that feeds off the regret

No more chasing
No more memories 
No more wishing you?d come back
No more you, no more me
Last page, End of story, close the book and don?t look back

Another reel of my memory plays
Like sitting in a dark room with a tv on and remote in hand 
Skipping through the channels
And watching each clip

She said I have to call you back 
but I already knew what the answer would be
It was in her voice when that moment became a reality.
She buckled under pressure and I was out of the picture
 
No more chasing
No more memories 
No more wishing you?d come back
No more you, no more me
Last page, End of story, close the book and don?t look back

Our break up was resentful
Unfortunately it was all based on a lie
And for six years she hated me
However she never really knew the truth why

And as one last image begins to float away like a balloon
I see the engagement ring and the party
I see what could have been, should?ve been but is not going to happen
I see you on face book with two kids and an illegitimate husband 

No more chasing
No more memories 
No more wishing you?d come back
No more you, no more me
Last page, End of story, close the book and don?t look back


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Forgive and Forget

As the sunset fades
I’ve lost the light of day
I can’t take the pain
Feels like my struggles were all in vain 

I trusted you
I saw your words as true
You said that you care
But in the end
You were never there 

I’ve carried these burdens
For far too long
I’ve carried you
While singing this song
I put my faith in you
I guess it was too good to be true 
Now I’ll say goodbye 
Please don’t ask me why 

My back is bleeding
My soul is screaming
I’ve lost my faith in you
My back is bleeding
My soul is screaming
I’ve lost my faith in you
You’ve lied about the truth
Get the hell away from me
I’ve opened my eyes
And this is what I see
I swear I’ll never quit
You’re just so full of sh**! 

I’ve carried these burdens
For far too long
I’ve carried you
While singing this song
I put my faith in you
I guess it was too good to be true 
Now I’ll say goodbye 
Please don’t ask me why

I guess I should thank your disguise
Cause now I can see past the lies
What a friend you were
When you were never there
I’ve finally saw the light
I’ve finally won the fight 
In the end it’s Christ that’s true
So now it’s time to go on
Without you
Forget you! 

I trusted you
I saw your words as true
You said that you care
But in the end
You were never there

I’ve carried these burdens
For far too long
I’ve carried you
While singing this song
I put my faith in you
I guess it was too good to be true 
Now I’ll say goodbye 
Please don’t ask me why

No matter what you’ve done
Through all the wrong
I forgive you
Cause I’m holding on to what’s true
Just don’t expect things to stay the same
I’m done with these games
It’s time for me to forgive and forget
I refuse to live in regret 

I’ve carried these burdens
For far too long
I’ve carried you
While singing this song
I put my faith in you
I guess it was too good to be true 
Now I’ll say goodbye 
Please don’t ask me why


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Can You Be Mine

She's marking my direction,
It's her that I see,
And there's nothing I can say or do,
She's struting down the street,
With fire in her feet,
And I'm thinking I should make a move,

No steps I heard,
She glides like a bird,
And her eyes sparked a perfect blue,
Her voice blew like the trees,
I fell to my knees,
As she said how do you do,

(chorus): 2x
I said, can you be mine,
Can you be mine,
I said, Can you be mine,
Love me forever and more,

Her eyes opened wide,
As though she was surprised,
She didn't know what to say,
She grabbed a pen and wrote down her number,
Before I asked her for her name,
She said her name was Lisa,
I said so nice to meet ya,
This girl, was playin heard to get,

I said I know you've been hurt in the past,
But you won't be hurt this time,
Her hair was so soft and beautiful,
So I told her not to pay a dime,

(Chorus): 3x

(Bridge)
Talking:
(I love the way you movin ya body, baby)
(I got so excited, baby)
(That's the way, you got me, you got me)


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Redemption

If I pass through Gethsemane
To writhe in cold, dark agony,
If Fear's hounds track me through the night
Till like a wounded fawn in fright
I thrash through forests, strange, unknown,
That seem so far away from home,
Would love in me grow weak and die?
Would stones of hatred be piled high
To mark the plot, engraved by Shame,
"'T was here that love at last was slain!"
Would my heart lie entombed, content,
Or would the stones by Love be rent,
And Love o'er Hate triumphant pour
Because the sting of death Christ bore?

Or if my love were crucified,
Rejected, left to bleed and die,
If Sorrow pierced my fainting heart
With ev'ry bitter, burning dart,
I pray that love would stand the test;
That while my soul Grief did molest,
I would not stoop to hate the foe,
But yield to pain that Love might flow.
Would Love in me refuse to die
And live again though crucified?
Oh, that the seed felled by Hate's cry
Through suffering would multiply
And rise to reap the greater store
Because my Love your sorrows bore.


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A Tangled Curse

Sightless visions of this world
Collapsing reason, the rising scared
Disillusion breaking bonds
The gravity of this collective song

The undeterred replacing truth
Teach detachment to the youth
Complexity and blinding games
Reattaching trauma’s shame

Cold perception blaming loss
Upon reflections in the frost
Banished hearts creating schemes
Against ourselves; this broken theme

The self-receptive caught within
The fear of self within their skin
It’s in this place we choose our worth
While people fight upon the earth

The gravity that passes by
We’re falling down, or into the sky
No more places left to hide
We forgive the past, or our future dies

This illusion breaking fast
We fight against the spells we cast
Between the earth and universe
We must dissolve this tangled curse


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Answer Me [Part 1]

Whats supposed to be the order
of things that just happen,
Is it supposed to have a flow
or is it supposed to be random,
The phantoms, I can hear 'em,
Man its too hard
I cant bear 'em,
Memories too vivid
man I wish I could tear 'em.

The pain I can resist
but its the fear I cant handle,
The mistakes that I made
is now flashin' on every channel,
No lights, I need a dazzle,
My freakin' mind
is irrational
As hard as I try
my life turns into a battle

I fight every moment of
my life, Im going crazy,
The whole world's in a riot
and they freakin' blame me,
The devil's tryin' to claim me,
The angels tryin'
to tame me
I try to be the light
But crap; My worries chain me

The pain in my shoulder grows
it compromises the burden,
I fall on my knees, I pray
I wish I could hear him,
But I hear nothing;
It's just a cold wave of silence
I wish I could pull the trigger
And end this freakin' violence.

I was bad God
Now Im scared
Please listen to me
Please God
Please answer my prayer

Do you feel the
Pain that I feel
Why the silence
Answer me
Do you hear me
Cryin' out loud
Are you listening
Answer me

____________________
My original work contains lots of profanity, tried to abide by the rules......
check out part 2 for the end of this song


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The Hardest Thing

Last night we had a quarrel
We went to bed so mad
Each had to get up early
The morning was quite sad
I never meant to say that
I know you didn’t, too
With hopes to reconcile
Just know that I love you

Yeah darling…
It couldn’t be more true

That’s why 
Leaving you
Is the hardest thing to do

Each morning when we go to work
A piece of me, it goes with you
I cannot wait to get back home
To do those things we do

That’s why 
Leaving you
Is the hardest thing to do

I hope tonight we’re civil
We listen and we learn
Together, we’ll get past this
Each others trust, we’ll earn
So, then we can retire
To the bedroom that we share
Lie within each others arms
And show how much we care

Yeah darling…
It couldn’t be more true

That’s why 
Leaving you
Is the hardest thing to do

Each morning when we go to work
A piece of me, it goes with you
I cannot wait to get back home
To do those things we do

That’s why 
Leaving you
Is the hardest thing to do

And when my work’s over
I will come back to you


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Why my heart ponder

Why my heart ponder?
I, your offender..
What I gave?
Dark love in a cave...

I promised you a thousand lands
Didn't give enough sands...
Changing me and my love,
Hiding behind the black scarf..

Hiding me I couldn't speak,
Feared losing in a streak.
This was my only reason
But turned my passing season..

Now I rattle,

As a foolish cattle
Leaving your land and cheese,
Yet to find me some peace...


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as if u knew

Sadly 
We’re slowly
Slipping away
And I caught you
Sleeping 
On my words
They’re coming
To get me
This caravan 
Of wants 

I caught you 
Sleeping 
On my 
Words
You didn’t think that I could be so Sweet!
Your love 
Is going to 
Bring me 
To my feet
You didn’t think that I could be so Sweet!

Sadly
We’re slowly
Slipping away
Soon you’ll 
Get tired of me 
And I’ll have to
Write you away
They’re coming 
To get me soon

I caught you 
Sleeping 
On my 
Words
You didn’t think that I could be so Sweet!
Your love 
Is going to 
Bring me 
To my feet
You didn’t think that I could be so Sweet!

My days so awry
Don’t always 
Bloom!
Soon they’ll 
Come and get 
Me dear
I love it 
That you fear
What you 
Can’t see 
When it’s clear

"like pillow cases and dark roses"


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My Heart Says Yes

I cannot disguise my smile as you walk in.
I cannot hide this happiness inside.
I should be angry, but I can't stop thinkin'
You're comin' back to me...

The tears have already fallen.
My spirit was already broke.
My heart laid in pieces shattered,
and then you went and spoke.

How could I say no, when my heart says yes,
how could I say no, when my heart says yes,
oh how my heart says yes, yes, yes

We fed the flame too fast and got burned,
If we take it slow it could be steady,
Lessons I have learned but I'm ready
You're comin' back to me.

One more chance, I'm givin' you one more try.
One more dance, I'm givin' you one more try.
My heart says yes,
How could I say no, when my heart says yes.


~06-23-2014~


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A Thousand Degrees

Awaken frozen years of fright
The light that died within the night
The last of all you want to be
In eyes that no longer want to see

The turning of your sins to truth
Experience that handed proof
That falling down will make you rise
The mirror burning through your lies

Awaken shivering months of pain
The same old story; same old games
The fear that sunk into your heart
In hate you thought could not depart

Through every hurt that cracks your throne
There’s a silent story to decode
Now understand; ignite your mind
Now light the way and step outside

Awaken screaming days of loss
The counting down of every cost
The breaking child becoming ice
In eyes that suffer a thousand lives

Awaken this moment of return
Though the pain will briefly burn
Step through your shadow and become
The shining light without the sun


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The Poetry of Shadows

Silence and a stone
A mirror all alone
Shadows on my breath
Stillness seeking life within my death

Vengeance bends my will
The mirror crying still
The shadows hold my hand
Darkness conjures up an evil plan

Attack or break again
Either way’s the same
With horror on my tongue
The shadows claim all I can become

Silence breaking out
The mirror cracked by doubt
A shadow swallows me
The light is gone and I no longer see

Darkness plays a song
My truth now used for wrong
The past becomes today
The backwards child longs to now betray

The silence in his tone
As my screams are turned to snow
Belie his buried schemes
In which the world is lost in his disease

Forgiveness for my tears
Was spent on darkest fears
Now I’m turned to stone
By the shadow-self that represents my soul


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Lost

Lost feeling all this oppression, I know the Devils right behind me... I can feel him breathing down my neck. Running away from sin following God's voice keep him in my heart turning depression to rejoice.  I feel I'm losing control so i get down on my knees and pray for my soul, I still dont know all the things i have to do or where i gotta go counting on Christ to lead me. he will always guide me, instead of running and hiding i'll stand firm right beside him. I got alot to say with God speaking thru me, im an example and im glad he chose me. He lived and died on a tree arose three days later and in heaven hes residing, abiding listening to his will sanding on his path and thats where im gonna chill, Let me be real take a second to explain how im feeling and not dealing with the devils games he tries playing. I left him behind cuz i ran him over just the other day yea i like it that way.

When im Lost feeling all this depression, I know Jesus will lead me in the right direction... Count on him the bible gives you the instructions, he will take your fear away he aint playing now.. 

When im Lost feeling all this depression, I know Jesus will lead me in the right direction... Count on him the bible gives you the instructions, he will take your fear away he aint playing now.. 

I have a God who sent his son and took the stripes, he Paid the price for my life, a price he didnt have to pay but he loved us so much he couldnt let us die... Jesus you took the weighgt and you put it on yourself, theres no greater love then to lay down your life for your friends. and you did it for me even though im undeserving and I wanna thank you so much. Everytime I fall you open my eyes and show me where I went wrong, you have forgiven me and I have another chance to teach the things you taght me. Lord I am your vessel please use me to your will help me to do the things for which im called let me hear you voice through the Holy Spirit Lord, reach down and touch me.

When im Lost feeling all this depression, I know Jesus will lead me in the right direction... Count on him the bible gives you the instructions, he will take your fear away he aint playing now.. 

When im Lost feeling all this depression, I know Jesus will lead me in the right direction... Count on him the bible gives you the instructions, he will take your fear away he aint playing now..


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Escape

This is my escape 
I'm breaking free
This is my confession
I'm running away
Away from the past 
Away from the pain
I'm letting go 
'Cause I'm tired
Tired of this pain.
So,
This is my escape 
I'm breaking free 
This is my confession 
'Cause I'm running out 
Out of time 
So let me go!
'Cause I'm taking off now
I'm flying away
Away from the past 
Away from the pain
'Cause I've had enough
Enough of this tragedy.
So,
This is my escape 
I'm breaking free
This is my confession
No more to be afraid
No heartbreak
'Cause I no longer will take this pain!
Away from the past 
Away from the pain
So,
This is my escape
I'm breaking free
This is my confession 
I will no longer let you bind me!


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All About Her

I dont know much about her
but I heard she wasnt that talkative
She didnt like being alive
She was numb to all the pain she had to go through

I heard she didnt like anything that was green
She ate roman noodles everynight for supper
She always wore flannels and bellbottoms
Sometimes i seen her wear dresses and fancy tops
But lately shes been wearing band shirts

She wears converse shoes and uses an army bag for school
I know that she dosent like to communicate through talking... only through her peoms
or sometimes even her songs.

I see her drawing and painting all the time
She draws famous people
She would like to be famous and not so unknown
When she tries to speak to anyone they always walk away and leave her alone

When she gets home she goes upstairs to play her bass guitar
She hates chocolate cake but loves chocolate
Her family left her behind because she cant forget her past

Sometimes when shes alone she contemplates the meaning behind her life
Her favorite color is gray because her life is black and white
Everything she says is false according to the world

She is not so innocent
I understand that she dreams about the perfect life
When she opens her eyes they are pitch black

She is someone that is fake
She acts nothing like she should
She is very grungy and unclean

She knows of no safety
and of no time
Her life is smashed into pieces by the giant sun

She will always be a ghost
She knows of no god
She crawls around in the world of death
She remains forgotten


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THE REPOSITORY

The book, "Rilke's Book Of Hours" 
motivated me to breath glory
To not waste and have regret
experience now the repository
So when it's all said and done
and I look back on every day
I know I went the second mile
this is what I can say..

I was a guy not afraid to fall
a man who took every chance
Who lived life and had a ball
head over heels in sweet romance
I never once blinked at risk
looked every person in the eye
Accomplished all my bucket list
always told the truth I never lied
Gave speeches that moved crowds
proudly swam against the flow
In elevators I sang out loud
to hoarding wealth I said no
I gave generously to the poor
relational living brought intimacy
Then again I gave a little bit more
no fear of heights in what I could be
I took time to smell the rose
never worried but lived joyfully
Didn't procrastinate, quickly chose
forgave others because I was free

Authentic living I was a genuine friend
Never doubted God beginning to end!

Sponsor: Mystic Rose
Contest Name: No One Lives His Life 
Date: 4-23-14


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Paper-Thin Paintings

Breaking through the darkest night, suffering no more
My dreams are of a deeper place, everything adored
Everything alive, now there’s no such thing as death
Eternity accounted for within a single breath

Walking through an open door, leaving thoughts behind
I drift beyond the maddening love I couldn’t find
Nothing is forgotten, but I can forgive it all
So much truth ahead of me, even if I fall

Flying through the brightest sky, absorbing every sight
Reflections made of paper-thin paintings of the night
A thousand words for every scene, changing them to day
The poetry I leave behind will always keep me safe

Shifting through to higher realms, its beauty washing clean
The ways in which I never could hold my self-esteem
Perspective of the infinite through knowledge I have found
I trust this deeper wisdom to translate all sight and sound

Awakening the visions that have always pulled me near
Rebirth to every corpse of truth in a world dying from fear
An energy envelopes us that asks for our hearts
Discovering that there is more to us was way back at the start


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Storm In The Wind

(Oh Girl),
You're like the storm and the wind, 
Tearin up the city and breaking the 
trees, 
Whenever I'm around you girl, 
I get weak, 
You're breaking my heart, 
And tearing up me, 
(Chorus) 
Breaking my heart, 
Breaking my heart,  (Tearing up me)
(Ooh girl)
I know we will make it, 
Even though the wind is blowing 
careless at me, 
I can't do this without you girl, 
I'll get weak, 
Stop breaking my heart, 
Bringing me to my knees,
(Chorus) 2x 
Even though the love hurricane is 
blowing careless at me, 
I can't do this without you girl, 
I'm too weak, 
You breaking my heart, 
You're the storm of the week. 


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Think What I Think

Somedays I wish I didnt
Think what I think,
These patterns of thought,
Have me in the sink,
Then bring me to the top,
To put me back in my seat

Somedays I wish I didnt
Believe what I believe,
So I could,
Give into my passion to please,
Dive into my sinful desires,
and have control of my destiny

Everyday, I come to realize at night
With my eyes wide,
That my flesh I dont have to Fight,
Because Christ runs my life,
And he takes the boulders off my shoulders,
I am the gun and he is the holder,
I am the clay and he is the molder,
And his grace is sweeter every moment I grow older


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Counterpole

My rhymes are timeless while this time is lifeless
why is life this kind less, reminds me that this
mind is spineless ready to tip and quit, as
my lies become mindless and get swollen shut
and Stuck up inside my sinus
Drivin in my prime but with no optimus
Victim to the flip-side of the Midas
Running through my blood like a virus
The sun makes my skin mundane
rubbin on ben gay but get arthritis
touch spermicide and converts to hepatitis
I hit the plus sign but it just musters up a minus
I'm seen sucking my thumb like the peanut's Linus
I run and duck when I hear the sirens cause
I abducted the president's Nike air pumps
now air force one is trying to find us
I'm at my desk obsessin about success but
This whole time its been right behind us


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Weep and a Moan

Watching the sequence of sound coming out of your mouth...
But the screaming is too loud.
I can speak,
But my brain doesn't want to.

I closed the door.
Silence called for me.
Should I cry or should I run after her?

What have I done to you?
but love you uncontrollably.

Shes then left speechless.
It looks like shes out of breath,
but really I broke her.

She was fragile.
So innocent.

Run, Just run.
A gun raised..
up to her mouth.
And a taint on her heart.


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In Another Light

The best thing you can do about a suicide is understanding it.

The boy opens the door and walks by his mom
his mom says "how was school"
He doesnt respond 
he walks silently to his room
His mom turns away in sadness
"its dinner time Kurt" she yells up the stairs.
He walks slowly down the steps
Hiding something in his hand as he puts it in his pocket
His mother is setting the table
Putting meat on his plate 
He sits down unto the seat
not touching his food
"is there something wrong with it?" his mom asks
He doesnt look at her
"talk to me. why have you been ignoring me" she repeats.
He gets up off the chair and walks outside
Walking into the woods as his mom runs out
"get back here where are you going"

Every living thing dies alone." he writes in white on a tree in there back yard
He throws the rope over the toughest branch
He steps up unto a little chair
Tying the rope around his neck
The chair falls

His mom worries in panic
She cant find him anywhere
She waits up all night

The Next Morning"

She walks out to the garden
Looking up at a tree
She sees the fallen chair from behind a tall bush
She runs
Picking up the chair
Seeing the thing she never thought would have happened
She falls to her knees
A tear falls from her cheek
Not understanding 
Reading the words on the tree
Every living thing dies alone"
She wonders
Thinking
Crying

She untangles him from the tree and holds him
Talks gentle to him
Something she hasnt done in a while
Now grasping the meaning behind what he has done

The best thing you can do about a suicide is understanding the meaning behind it.


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Let Me Be There With You

Let Me be there with you
Let Me hold your hand
For I can help you through to the promised land

Let Me be there with you
Let Me be your Guiding Light
For I can take away the hurt, the pain, and the fright

Let Me be there with you
Let Me be your sword and shield
For I can fight all your battles, if to Me you would yield

Let Me be there with you
Le Me be your Everything
For I, God, died for you
But now I live again - To only be there with you
Be there for you
To save you
From dangers none could tell
Death, Destruction
An Eternity in Hell

Save you so that you
Would enjoy an eternity in Heaven
In Harmony with Me

If only you'd let Me be there with you
Accept Me
I'll Accept you
Take you in as you are
If you'd let Me be there with you


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EASTER IS COMING

I can love you like a butterfly
be so soft as a gentle breeze
cause I'm not threatened by a tone
or criticism's contagious disease
I grieve for you like an orphan
a child scared and oh so afraid
You lash out into the darkness
my tongue will remain stayed

Long ago you saw the beauty
your spirit carried on wings
Loved to ponder life's essence
sought peace above all things
But difficulty arose one day
remember your fateful choice
To be blinded by circumstance 
sadly lose your lover's voice

Now with words you seek to hurt
but that sword has no effect on me
Because once I was the blind man
that blindness took me to Calvary
Between you and me hung Jesus
On my cross I finally saw the light
I'm forgiven.. Easter is coming
I now can love instead of fight!

*Dedicated to all the crazy uncles at the family reunion.

About the Poem: Thoughts from the recently forgiven thief on a cross about the other thief on a cross (still blinded by his sin), as they hung dying with Jesus between them.  When you've been truly forgiven, criticisms can never again harm you, so let it go!  
THE BUTTERFLY SET FREE NEVER AGAIN LONGS FOR THE COCOON! 

Just a thought that might be useful here in the Soup..

4-20-14


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Oh Walker's Will and Lander's Way

Oh walker’s will and lander’s way…
Did not we grow in love’s dismay?
while wandering by the garden path
that led us to “the grapes of Wrath”
but also by the Lake of Tow ....and woe
still... on we wandered … did farther go
to where the wake of Willing’s way
slammed us like the tides…to our final days
against the side of Trivial’s Pass
no easy going, unto the last

So Now! Away my love!... turn now away!
The sky is dark... tis end of day

no more to walk hand and hand
no circle to be broken 
no promise in sands
of time...ticking time ...that has now stopped
the boom has struck... love's hammer dropped

Let us land …in this peaceful place
in this subjective joy… in an objective space

we journeyed long unto the bend
of bow and break...relent and lend
but even we must greet our circle's end


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Early Morning Rain

The early morning rain hides the tears in my eyes With an emptiness in my heart, I'm remembering your lies I'm a long way from home, but the distance doesn't ease this aching in my heart and wind blowing through the trees. Travelling down this rocky road, I'm tired and alone. How I wish my broken heart could find its way back home. Bright is the sun and dark is the night, but I'm stuck in the middle, and, oh, nothing feels right. With everything to lose and nothing to gain, my tears fall to the ground, like the early morning rain. Oh, the sun never shines in the early morning rain. In the morning sun, he wakes with another girl, not me. The dawn's light shines on them, but clouds dim my rocky seas. If he would welcome me home, I'd forgive, let go of this pain. So I'll start the long journey home in the early morning rain. Lord, help me find my way through the early morning rain. By Rhonda Johnson-Saunders, April 12, 2012 for Write me a Lightfoot Poem (Francine Roberts) * Gordon Lightfoot song, "Early Morning Rain"


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Love and Let Go

It’s a freedom of choices that we as people hold dare. Emotions are what make us who we are.
Perfection is rear, a non existing dream.  It is what it is. Or is that all it could be?
Sometimes that’s all that matters.
Just do your best.
Happiness isn’t easy though can be pleasing if we can accept it.
Have no regrets, forgive them, holding on to the little bit of sunshine left after the storm clouds, does count. 
You would want the full sunrise; feeling the warmth inside.  
Be able to Push on no matter how painful, the next battle may take all you have left; fight because it not free. 
Continue to be thankful.
Concentrate on healing, your heart will thank you.
Love takes us at times leading us to less understanding situation and so many questions…and sometimes, if you have to and it’s just to much to bear, let go. 


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LIFE

Two hearts beat, now beating faster; beating until they're one 
Two souls breathe, now breathing deeper; breathing until they're done 
Two lovers see forever, and forever is where they run 
One child comes home tomorrow for life has just begun 

Even when the rainbow's glowing, the skies can seem so gray 
Even when the wind's not blowing, the tides can turn your way 
And when the water's raging, beneath skies that seem so blue 
It's just your body aging, and it has nothing to do with you 

So now when our God comes calling, I'll hold your hand and stroke your hair 
Yes, as snowflakes start falling, I will look for you everywhere 
And Mother, as you start flying, remember as you rise above 
Marlene, you are not dying, but finding everlasting love 

One child goes home tomorrow to embrace the Father and the Son 
One child who knows no sorrow, for life has just begun


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What If Tomorrow Never Comes

I recall now the days when forever seemed but a short time The visits to the hospital, brought sad images to your mind She lay on a bed, cords all around her, no hair upon her head The cancer drove us crazy with worry tears and fright She was only a baby, I didn't get the chance to say goodbye Farewell until we meet again where you'll be waiting... waiting for tomorrow to come again. What if tomorrow never comes? How will I face the rising sun, when the moon is the only thing I can see? I need her here with me... The only loss I've ever known The only time that I've experienced this kind of sorrow... So what if tomorrow never comes? What if tomorrow never comes. And now I lie here thinking it through, memories flash through my head, memories of you Moments of a bittersweet time Reminiscing the days when you were mine The days when you were alive The tears come back to my eyes I feel the need to cry but nothing slides out I need to scream and shout, My emotions pour out as one, silently So what if tomorrow never comes? Reality in death is so hard to accept, I need my tomorrow to come... What if it never does? What if tomorrow never comes? How will I face the rising sun, when the moon is the only thing I can see? I need her here with me... The only loss I've ever known The only time that I've experienced this kind of sorrow... So what if tomorrow never comes? What if tomorrow never comes. Will tomorrow ever come? I just want to be awake when the moon becomes the sun I'm waiting here for you, in the darkness of the night. I wait still for you, forever the images will haunt my mind Tomorrow will come I'll soon be alright Tomorrow will come... Tomorrow has come... I can now see the sun.


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A Night of Forgiveness

The lyrics of our conscience
United in our wars
The golden words are spilling
When our truth has been ignored

The dark ignites our passions
And death will grant us life
Where fallen statues crumble
The earth reclaims our lies

A future heading backwards
Can strangle every dream
But this inner conflict saves us
As we remember why we breathe

Silent is the city
That screaming voices carve
And enlightened is the child
That hears much more when it gets dark

Our fears have lead to glory
All darkness turned to light
And everything that broke us
Has our sympathy tonight


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My First Love

(My First love), 
(The way I feel), 
(Inside), 
(How do I), 
Begin, 
The way I felt, Within, 
I could never hide, 
So I told you girl, 
The way you, changed my world, 
oh girl, The way you looked at me, 
As though, I madeYour day, 
(Girl I could forget), 
The love We made, 

Felt, so good,
To me,
How could this be,
A girl just like me,
Who knows, the things,
I need,
(How could this be)
(A girl just like me)
Chorus:
My First Love, (Love)x4 

My first kiss,
I came across, a bliss,
How could I forget,
How it made me feel, girl

I'm still, in love,
With you,
In the back of my mind,
Everytime,
Chorus 4x






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And Thats MY Only Fear

What comes with your smile
You Smile to define my style
You cry, here comes your tear
Only thing I do fear.

I love and yes I do care
Want me? And I am there
Longing you, such a creature
Yeah I know will never mature.

Riding on my pacing steed 
Relishing you, moving on speed
Closing my eyes, you are there
And thats my only fear.


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Wound of Love

Today, alone, and near despair,
My heart nigh crushed by this world's cares,
I stumbled, blinded by hot tears,
Through bitter valleys, dark with fear,
My tortured mind the while was wrung
By memories of this I'd done.
Or said, or thought in careless haste,
Of days and years all gone to waste.
An arrow, sharp, burned in my breast;
I strove to thrust it from my chest.
To stone it clung like Arthur's sword
Relinquished only to its lord,

I thought not how my life to spare:
If God would only hear my prayer
And grant me absolution, free.
If He would simply hear my plea.
I sought and found the empty room
I'd shared with Christ; a faint perfume
Still lingered. Strange it seemed, and yet,
Through all the years, did I forget
The Presence and the peace found here?
Earth has no equal anywhere.
The room was dark with curtains drawn;
There was no fire to keep it warm.

My weary vision came to rest
Upon a heap of metal pressed
Into a corner, dark and dank;
When comprehended, my heart sank.
The terror of the truth revealed!
A holy horror 'round me pealed;
Each tone tolled forth a truth sublime
To prove me guilty of my crime.
Beneath the dust of days gone by
In rags and rust I'd let it lie,
My Christian armor. Now I faced
The verdict at the judgment place.

The burning in my heart increased;
The yearning would not find release
Till as I looked into the eyes
Of Him my soul so long defied,
Awaiting sentence, just reward,
I met the mercy of my Lord.
The arrow burning in my heart--
From God's own quiver came its art;
'T was evidence most dear, divine,
That I am His and He is mine.
Not earth , not hell, nor Heav'n above
Could separate me from such love.

I'd never known a wound so kind,
And love like His I could not find
Along the byways I had trod:
It's in the Kingdom of our God.
There all are warriors, bold and brave;
There all must give just as He gave.
I knelt, His knight, with armor on,
The tears were mended, rust was gone.
"I ask one favor as I go
To serve Thee, Lord; Thy love to show:
Ah, never from my breast, I pray,
Take this Thy would of love away.

Based on Ephesians 6:10-18


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Stay

She said baby I have to go,
I said girl you don't need to go,
Because baby I want you to stay,
'Til the sun rise,
'Til the end of the night,

I said baby I'm feelin you,
And I'm fallin in love with you,
Which is somethin I never thought I would do,
But, I did today,
So girl, Why don't you stay,

Chorus:2x
Why don't you stay, 4x
'Til the sun rise,
'Til the end of the night,

She said baby I have to leave,
I said girl I don't want you to leave,
My darling please stay with me,
'Til the night end,
Then come back again,

Because baby we have a chance,
For us to have a great romance,
So, girl take my hand and dance,
You don't have to go,
Baby don't go,
Chorus: 3x

'Til the sun rise,
'Til the end of the night,


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Sophia

Innocent dove of the flame What we cannot see but what we rely on If only there was you and I Enchanted forever without hope we shall be So come rescue me in the dark of the night Only you can save me For only you can show me the light I always knew you would be there to guide me evermore a spirited angel eternally beautiful always beside me I pray to you Can't you see I'm suffering Fly over me and grant me With your presence Your everlasting grace A hope I can keep sacred Sophia I can see you in the dim light my immaculate guide throughout this eternal night Sophia I can see you shining through the dark Changing my ravenheart Sophia my dear This life without you is what I fear Sophia I can see you in the dim light my immaculate guide throughout this eternal night Sophia I can see you shining through the dark Changing my ravenheart Sophia my dear this life without you is what I fear Remember the days when I was so weak Quick to turn with no allegiance I could pledge So easily I could break Using a dream to washout the nightmares Why didn't I turn to you Come enter my roof Once my soul beckons the most Give me a gnosis so grand I find safety in the truth And of the knowledge you bring And the wisdom you are In another life I called you sophia Sophia I can see you in the dim light my immaculate guide throughout this eternal night Sophia I can see you shining through the dark Changing my ravenheart Sophia my dear This life without you is what I fear Sophia I can see you in the dim light my immaculate guide throughout this eternal night Sophia I can see you shining through the dark Changing my ravenheart Sophia my dear this life without you is what I fear Safeguard to know Wherever my heart goes As long as I'm with you I know this is true For whatever our souls know Till we grow old If we truly find it right, sacred, and just Truth will always follow Sophia I can see you in the dim light my immaculate guide throughout this eternal night Sophia I can see you shining through the dark Changing my ravenheart Sophia my dear This life without you is what I fear Sophia I can see you in the dim light my immaculate guide throughout this eternal night Sophia I can see you shining through the dark Changing my ravenheart Sophia my dear this life without you is what I fear


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Love Yourself First (Edited Version)

(Verse 1)
Calling to you from out of time
Just wanted to say
So sorry for the younger days
All of the mistreatments

(Verse 2)
Things I did without disgrace
Knowing now I was so wrong
Learning to understand many mistakes
A beating heart without trust

(Hook)
Before insecurities rap around tight
Become friends with yourself
Love yourself first

Before a first impression shows your epic life
Become friends with yourself
Love yourself first

Before confidence disappears into a shadowy night
Become friends with yourself
Love yourself first

(Verse 3
Tenderly your heart to me 
Carelessly I set you free
Anger and guilt followed me
My heart has been swimming frantically

(Verse 4)
When love comes to stay
Just like a tool it too has a rule
Before dreams slip away
So many times asking why

(Hook)
Before insecurities rap around tight
Become friends with yourself
Love yourself first

Before a first impression shows your epic life
Become friends with yourself
Love yourself first

Before confidence disappears into a shadowy night
Become friends with yourself
Love yourself first
Love yourself
Love yourself
Love yourself first


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A Frozen World

Breaths of fleeting laughter
Violently commence
But hopeless hereafter
I wade through this pretence

A smile that hides their scheming
A shadow with a rope
As they embrace me coldly
Their darkness binds my hope

All that’s left of courage
Can’t overcome their lies
As their silent words will haunt me
Closer if I tried

Boldness left unsheltered
My heart spilled on the streets
This icy world consuming
Whatever’s left in my defeat

But breaths of silent laughter
Now open up my eyes
Their fears did not consume me
And I can see beyond their lies

Somehow I am smiling
And suddenly I’m free
The sun delivers wisdom
And the fearful now retreat


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Upon this Christmas Day

He sleeps there in a stable
The babe born to the world
Both mother, father watch with care

Though swaddled in a cloth
He is born, yet, to be king
With but just rags for Him to wear

This special morning
The sun now shines bright
From stars there in the Heavens
To the rise of morning light
The world now is much brighter
As angels, too, now play
There’s hope and happiness to share
Upon this Christmas Day

For within the early morning
Angels brought the sky a voice
Calling forth those who wish to hear

Along then, came all others
Knowing truth within their hearts
That all now have nothing to fear

This special morning
The sun now shines bright
From stars there in the Heavens
To the rise of morning light
The world now is much brighter
As angels, too, now play
There’s hope and happiness to share
Upon this Christmas Day

Go forth and tell all others
Who had no chance to hear
The news of hope and of the joy

Let them know the Gift of God
That comes to save us all
His son sent as this little boy

This special morning
The sun now shines bright
From stars there in the Heavens
To the rise of morning light
The world now is much brighter
As angels, too, now play
There’s hope and happiness to share
Upon this Christmas Day


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Hidden Soul

                                         







      

                                                 Hidden Soul

                               I am a forever more, so deep I stay. 
                               I'm imperishable, quiet at the heart of form.
                               I fear what is no more to be feared.
                               I'm unseen and can rise with the wind.
                               When my body is strip of my worn clothes
                               and pierce to the depths of the heart,
                               reality remains, I am a forever more.
                               I'm man's greatest wealth drench in blood
                               but can't be wet.
                                             I'm the hidden soul.
                                                          
                                                        By
                                                  Jay JOHNSON


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Say Something

There's a mouth wide open,
coming out? Those words unspoken;
There's something that needs to be said,
nothing that should be read.
 
Trying my best with you to talk,
but it seems that all I can do is walk;
I feel like I have something to say,
but it's already now a new day.
 
The wind blows through my hair,
realizing I'm zoned out in stare;
I'm thinking of what to say to you,
if there is something to say or do.
 
The words that I need to say are true,
but I don't want my words to bother you;
I'm not trying to be such a pain,
or tempt to make you go insane.
 
I'm being real by what's in my heart,
and hoping that what I say doesn't tear us apart;
I just really had something to say,
something that shouldn't be waited on another day


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Where Melancholy Mingles

I suppose
there’s always good reason
to cry
sadness never has a tough time making friends
ominously,
this dark acquaintance often approaches 
lending water for eyes
to cry

I suppose
there's never better time than now 
to moan
grunting and moaning are long lost relatives
miserably, 
feeding off each other 
dragging stragglers along for the ride
to moan 


I suppose
anxiety needs a moment in the sun 
to worry
flipping, tossing, in a cerebral ceremony
fidgety
anxiously twitching 
as everyone quickly moves
to worry

I suppose 
there's no harm in a little dishonesty
to lie
while thieves join the party
deceptively
a terrible tandem 
of dirty deeds and tendencies
to lie

I suppose
everyone has the ability  
to struggle 
with adversity, where melancholy mingles
blatantly
crying, grunting, and moaning
anxiety moves in permanently
to struggle

 
and I suppose,
there's a heavy dose of negativity 
to digest 
mixed with stress
continually
it may lead to one hell of a 
nasty mess
to ingest
 
©  2011  ~JSLambert Esquire


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Jesus evidence of things not seen

By faith we can kiss the feet that wore the shoes                   							 							  that the latches we are unworthy to loose                                                                                  		  							 leave our burdens with thanksgiving sweetly cry    															                                                                                                                                            ~By faith we can reach up to the nail scarred hands   														  that led the blind man out of town in the way                                                                                                                    keep looking up to the eyes that wipe away all tears 												                                                                                                   ~By faith receiving His love with and without fears                                                            										it is written love Him He will lead in the most excellent way                                        									 living to die dying to live it is by His strength we stand    											    			 ~By faith we can lean upon Jesus' bosom                                                                      										with listening ears hearing the heart beat of God															the small voice saying the Love of God shall never die  										                                	   	 ~By faith waiting for the horses they fly	 														Lord Jesus the one leadeth with staff and rod                                                                             									 the fruitful bow that forever blossom's                                                            								  			 ~By faith as Jesus heals the blind man looking at His face                                            										 the blind man looking around saw every man clearly 														 Love is of God we must not from their lovely faces hide 														~By love our brothers and sisters we have seen so dearly 														the brother we have seen on the street stumbling by												          		 the knowledge of His saving grace for whom Our saviour died 													 ~By grace of the Lord Jesus in the morrows by and by  														 be that pure and perfect lovely Bride 																 "Who is my mother, or brethren." Jesus said we can By Faith


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Death Meets Love

I got trapped in the dark 
the cancer creeps closer towards my heart 
I cant stand the pain that starts

they put a needle in me 
my heart stops beating 
I cant hear my thoughts or what im feeling

everything seems cluttered 
I stand here in a daze 
but your face starts to fade

I start to loose my feeling 
my hands are numb and my toes wont budge
my brain stops working 
little flakes peel off my heart

my heart turns gray 
I cant wait to fly away
in the light I shall go 

somewhere else but my home
where pain meets pleasure and death meets love


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Too Late For Us To See

We were friends but I just 
Could not see the truth
Wasn't looking for
Any kind of true love in my youth
Looking back at all those times
You were there for me
Having so much fun that 
I just couldn’t see
Your eyes looking back at me
Mmm it’s not that long, long ago, that I 

Was not the man you needed 
Me to be
My heart was yours forever
But I couldn’t see
Love’s a work of art 
That needs to be given free
I hope it’s not too late 
Too late for us to see

I see I want I need were my old ways
I understand why you left me standing there
I thought life was one big party each day
It hit so hard all I could do was stare.. at
Your eyes looking back at me
Mmm it’s not that long, long ago, that I

Was not the man you needed 
Me to be
My heart was yours forever
But I couldn’t see
Love’s a work of art 
That needs to be given free
I hope it’s not too late 
Too late for us to see

I miss your touch
To me it means so much
Please forgive me
Oooo we have to listen to our hearts
Lets make a brand, brand new start
We have to make it so

I’m now the man you need 
Me to be
My heart’s been yours forever
I know you can see
Our love’s a work of art 
Let’s set, set it free
I know it’s not too late 
Too late for us to see
I know it’s not too late 
Too late for us to see


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Please Wake from this Nighmare

Note: This is a duet...it is based off a story I'm writing with LAURA! :D
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V1 person1 Can you hear me… Please open your eyes, look at me I wish to hear your voice again, I don’t want to see you like this…anymore Please, darling, please open your eyes… [chorus] (both) What's happened to you... Where have you gone This must all be a dream I'm stuck in a nightmare And I want it all to end What's happened to you Where have you gone Please wake from this nightmare (after first time through the chorus change 'this' to your for rest of chorus) V2(person 2) I'm sorry... Can you hear me I'm sorry, I never meant to hurt you This is all my fault I'm sorry Please wake again [corus] (both) V3 (person 1) Hang in there, Don't leave me alone I need you Please don't leave me I love you (person 2 (still V3)) I'm sorry, please stay with us Please, I'm sorry (both) Don't leave us here alone... (person 1) I Love you (I'm sorry! (person 2)) [chorus] [instrumental break] V4(person 2) My dear friend Please don't leave Wake up... Wake up from your dream! (person 1) Darling, I love you please stay here, don't leave m I need you (both) Wake up from this nightmare you're trapped inside Find you're way through the maze [instrumental break again] V5 (one) What's happened to you (the other) Where have you gone (first one again) Wake up from your dream (the other) Escape this nightmare of yours... [chorus] (both) What's happened to you Where have you gone? Please come back to us...


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The Escapist's Plea

When you can longer run away from yourself
When you thought there were no more tears to cry
When you just want to die
Living like this consumed by the façade of a million lies
So many years, so many days
Waking up to people who no longer care you're there
You ask how can this be, one short organic vitality
Wasted with living; the slowest way to die

The shadows of shame weigh you down 
Until you drown, filled with only their hate
All you can turns grey, and all you ever loved fades
The agony is all you know, thank you pain
A self-sadist Is all you have become, j
ust how they showed you, craving so much more
Just to hide up all of the misery
But under cloth it still bleeds

This is the Escapist's Plea
For the one who fall to their knees in misery
Trying to stay sane but fall under September's rain
Dying from the invisible disease, only you can see
Stigmatized by their sadistic need
Only if I could just fly away
...Fly Away


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Praise God

If it's not one thing then it's another.
I'm either fighting with my dad or hearing screams from my mother.
My girlfriend doesn't trust me. I can't pay for therapy.
I can't do this all alone. I get down on my knees.
I ask the lord for forgiveness, right before I begin.
Although he is a forgiving God, how could he look upon sin?
Prayer is so simple even a child can start.
It's not all imagination, your faith must come from the heart.
It's all so real, the thrill you feel, the chill that's going through you.
You no longer fear it, the holy spirit starts showing and glowing, it's true.
Who knew that you, that tough guy? The one that wouldn't believe?
Then why are you always calling out for him when your unable to achieve?
He's always there to help us. Stand out and give it a try.
The Closer you get to God you'll see this isn't a lie.
Thank you, Jesus! Praise Jesus! Halliugha! Oh Lord!
I can never lose a battle using you as a sword!
Life here is too short, yesterday is already gone.
Knowing where you'll spend eternity will help keep you moving on.
Praise God!


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Let the Dawn Break In

I wait for the moment
The night to fall
Look up the sky
Stars galore
Nightingales  call
Its time to sing
Forget all your pain
Wash away your sins
 
The moon feels alone
As the whole city sleeps
Out there somewhere 
A  lonely soul weeps
 
Forget all your pain
Its time to sing
Let new love come through the door
Through the tears of joy
Let the dawn break in


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Missing

Walking around the graveyard
Untaggling his hands from the pocket in his jacket
its clear in his head that he's screaming for something
that something is missing within his heart

Taking off his hat as he sits it on her grave
Pulling out a piece of paper
The death certificate that her name was signed on
a tear falling from his cheek 
he reaches down to pick up the flower he laid there before

crumples at his touch
sitting down the piece of paper
he asked her
how can i love?
when the one i want is not here?

tears fall from his eyes unto the paper 
he lights a candle
sits it by her tombstone

He lays down beside her
listening to the wind
hoping to hear her voice
something he longed for
something that he was missing

he falls asleep
holding the stem of the rose that crumpled before
The pedals fly away with the wind
and the flame of the candle burns out
the rain starts to fall

He lays with his eyes closed
He goes back in time
The rose pedals fall back unto the stem
The paper flies back into his pocket

He walks back into town
Back into the house he was at before
Back at her funeral
to the hospital they were at
When they found out she had cancer
To the church where they got married
To the time when he asked her to marry him
Finally to the place where they met

There story replays again in his mind
he lays cold on the ground beside her
The wind dies down
and the candle starts burning again


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Little Moccasin { Edited }

<                                    on the trail 
                                      he took a wife
                                      comanche made 
                                      and full of life
                                      two breeds 
                                      different nations
                                      outlasted  
                                      family  love's
                                      segregation

                                      little moccasin and blue moon
                                      for their love did not come unglued
                                      little moccasin and blue moon
                                      for their love was so brand new

                                      high above  canyon ridge
                                      little moccasin calls her name
                                      without his blue moon
                                      love would never be the same
                                      so he dances the ring of fire
                                      mounts his horse
                                      and returns
                                      for his ones desire

                                      little moccasin and blue moon
                                      for their love did not come unglued
                                      little moccasin and blue moon
                                      for their love was so brand new

                                      little moccasin's leap of faith
                                      blue moon stride for stride
                                      echoes linger canyons ridge
                                      we'll  always's be husband and bride
                                      Navajo and Comanche
                                      they said it couldn't be done
                                      under one God and one indian nation
                                      hunting grounds now they can finally begun

                                      little moccasin and blue moon
                                      for their love did not come unglued
                                      little moccasin and blue moon
                                      for their love was so brand new




This Poem Was Based 
On The Song
Running Bear  
Debs Contest G.L. All
                                      


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Blood-Drenched Paper

Wordless and pitiful, this fool can’t deny
The emptiness hollowed out deep in my mind
Nothing will redeem these broken thoughts
And nothingness is all I have, I’m so damn lost

I can’t remember how to sleep anymore
I can not recall the taste of oxygen or law
Only the blood that was spilled from my mouth
As I choked upon the words that threw me down

How am I still living without my heart?
How is it that I can stand when I fell apart?
Truth is that I am gone, deep in the dirt
A place where I can not think; where I’m safe from hurt

I can’t recall a way to speak anything
That does not remind me of every single thing
The dry blood across my skin will not be washed away
And whatever else I try to hide has stained all I say

Collapsing into a mess upon the kitchen floor
Fearing to even walk out of my bedroom door
The sun burns away every place I can cry
And the moon delivers another thousand lies

How can I ever hope to breathe and sleep again
When every single breath I take turns dreams into pain?
The stains of blood are punishment for all that I said
And nothingness has carved your face deep within my head

Wordless and pitiful, the things I will write
The deepening eternity of every lonely night
The broken thoughts accompany a song that always plays
I’ve lost you forever, but this music will remain


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Beyond What's Seen

You do not know what I see
I see you crying next to me
I see your pain, I see your tears
Through your laughs, and through the years
Past your mask I see your face
You are hiding in this place
Trust in me, I won't let you fall
You don't have to hide at all

Open up what's in your heart
That is the place I will start
Open up your eyes and see
All that's left is you and me
In the end you'll see the light
Come on, I don't want to fight
Together we will make it through
Come on. Now, It's me and you

Now you can start to feel
How much this love is true and real 
behind your eyes you keep your pain
It's all locked up in your brain
Come on. Now, just let it out
It's okay to scream and shout
I will help you through and through
I will always be with you


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My Savior

Savior of mine
I call out to you
Save me from myself
and all I believe that is true.
For my heart is aching inside
and I know not what to do.

Take me by the hand
Guide me to a far away land.
Allow me to escape myself once and for all.

I know not what my future brings
I know not where this path leads
However I do know,
that my heart bleeds 

Savior of mine
Stop this aching pain
Free my soul
from its evil reign.

For life without you,
is lived only in vain.

Savior of mine
I give myself to you
Broken and scared
For this is all that I can do.

For with you
nothing of myself
will remain
From this point on
I can only gain.

Thank you for saving me
This unworthy soul is now set free.


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Reluctant Transformation

I'm turning into a werewolf
It's freakin' me out, can't ya see?
My vision of nicety
don't include spicity
of locks gone electrically frazzled.

My soul still feels staid and moral
but if people take note of me
in this state they won't rate
my belongity
the way I think
they think
it should be.


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EYE Don't See -Part 2-

My eyes
Refuse to see tragedy
My eyes
Marinate in dread…unable to embrace ecstasy 

And I’m left in my solitude…
My eye’s sagging…from endless mourning  
And I’m close to my demise… 
Only to find myself disappear…
When will peace draw near?

You don’t see 
What damage you’ve done
Just let me be
Leave me alone…hand me a gun

I yearn for unspoiled glory
To make me feel perfect once more
I yearn for flawless serenity
To make me feel no regret…don’t ignore
My calls…don’t hang up on me

You don’t see 
What damage you’ve done
Just hear my plea
Listen to my excruciating cries…
Listen to the truth, not the malicious lies  
Our journey has just begun   

And I’m left in my solitude…
Do you hear me weeping?
And I’m close to my demise…
Only to find myself disappear…
When will peace draw near?

Eye can’t handle the stress
Let me release my horrendous distress
Eye can see you making that same mistake
At least MY life isn’t at stake

And I’m left in my solitude…
My eye’s weeping…do You feel my lament
And I’m close to my demise…
Only to find myself disappear…Stepped on like cement
I’m aching with discontent… I abhor this torment    
When will peace scrub off my fear?

I can’t believe my eyes
Your guiltiness flows into me…
I can’t believe I fell for your lies
Your heartless action rape my mind…you don’t see
What my EYES see…

You’ll never see 
How much pressure you put me under
Unchain me from this chamber
And watch me flee…

When will you be set free?


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sacrifice a priceless question

SACRIFICE; PRICELESS QUESTION
A little story from a little friend about a little thing
That makes the little world a different from the taught mighty ocean
Always smile beside me each morning i sat to reason
Mostly he always bring the little insignificant story
To my reasoning ear as i plan to break too quick
In this little world i know
My father told me one day a story
When i hate my little sister so much
That i had to sell her gold,
Her priceless life for some foolish pleasure of hate
There my sister termed me hell
But in her rage my father rather speaks a story to us through her
A bird hatched a golden child
The future saviour for the world of the sky
each moment of her life
She had lived and gathered all the flying feather
To guard their golden future of the air world
Although her faith made her believe that through this golden child
A golden sky world will be built
The child destiny is even made to be seen in all the sky world
Unknown to her, the child must die
That has become the golden price, a golden save
The golden actualization of a glorious destiny
One golden morning, the golden cock goldenly announced
The golden death of the golden child
All fair feathers never understood the sound
But the heir mother knew the message
The world is doomed, she shouted
Our world is doomed
We have to fight for the glory and honour of our world
Our future is no hope and our end is now
We need to save our golden future
But to all the sky host feathers
No enemy or attack was seen around the corner
There the glory of the golden child lifted him up to be executed
The golden price, a golden heir, for a golden future
There the voice of the mother speaks in terrible oar
Yes, this is what i said, here the golden child
But inside my belly
There are so much gold that can change the world you see
Taking the golden child
And taking the golden world
Which stands better than the eagle?
Please, take all the gold in me
And spare the life of the golden child
Let him live for our world to live
There my father hissed a deep smile in anger
With a confused expression written all over his face he concluded
Gold is not life
But life is gold
Never sell gold because you will not know
When you are selling life.


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The Lucidity of Time

Witness the veil of lucid time
Asleep to awake, again to find
The moment always slipped away
The vanishing act of this present place

The word devoted to unwind
The threads of despair that intend to bind
The ways we now want to forgive
To the lack of a voice in how we lived

This moment offering reprieve
Upon realisation that what’s perceived
Is pain from pages burnt at last
As we fear the future will return to ash

The void within what we disturbed
The passing of anger never left unheard
The deepest loneliness we struck
More incentive to burn before we read the book

But witness the veil of lucid time
Asleep and awake, as we dream our lives
Between the past and future’s route
This moment exists if it is for truth


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IT SHOULD HAVE BEEN ME

"It Should Have Been Me"

      James Williams









Peter:  How could I let this ever be

To deny you at your feet

and then turn around and walk away

When I was the one

Who stood on your name

And When I was asked, " do I know you?"

Three times I denied you the same

It should have been me

On that day 

taken away with thee Lord 

It should have been me

It should have been me

On that cross

Dying for the cost 

I know Lord It should have been me.



Judas:  Lord I betrayed thee

at the drop of a dime

I placed a kiss on your face

With deception in my mind

Lord Why did I betray you

For 30 pieces of silver

And to know that you still love me

My life I don't deserve

It should have been me

On that day 

taken away with thee Lord 

It should have been me

It should have been me

On that cross

Dying for the cost 

I know Lord It should have been me.



ME:    Father please forgive my sins

For the pain has set in

You have shown your love to me

Over and over again

I don't deserve your mercy 

I don't deserve your grace

I don't deserve the sacrifice that you made

It should have been me

On that day 

taken away with thee Lord 

It should have been me

It should have been me

On that cross

Dying for the cost 

I know Lord It should have been me.



It was you who and died on Calvary

to save and set my spirit free

Upon that cross you hung for me

And Lord

It should have been me.





"The Simple Words"


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Lamentation

Another song from the set made in middle school
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My life craves the soul And I’m all alone You stay—then off you go And I can’t hold on You will never know me For what I am [oh no] Can we forget? Can this just end? If we don’t believe How can we mend? Your face haunts my memory And I can’t move on Cuz here without you I feel…so numb Left out in the cold For you will never love me Was I too much [to mend]? But how can you see? How can you know [what I meant to you]? Could this be the end of the road Left to sleep alone? -Ooooooooh- Can we forget? Can this just end? If we don’t believe— Can I forget? Will my life end? If you don’t exist Why do I pretend?


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Landslides of Roses -song-

We often like singing, to landslides of roses, and no one cares. 
This worlds almost over, so hard to stay sober, when you're not there.

 For time will tell your fortunes fail, when you breathe my name, so call on those who care for you, as your fear hides your shame. The clouds will calm, the angry rain, as I take all the blame!

This world that we live in, is taken not given, when we don't share.
 So trust in your loved ones, to hold and protect you, when I'm not there. 

For faith in love is bittersweet, when you have no shame. So close your eyes and raise your voice, call out my name. Just hold me now, believe in me, I'll take all your pain! 

Cause I love you my precious one, I hold you in my heart. So run with me so far away, we'll build a new start. Just hold me now, believe in me, forever we'll be! 

Cause we often like singing, to landslides of roses, and no one cares. And as we grow older, this world may seem colder, but I'll still be there. 


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How I Long For--

My dreams are falling apart
In Your hands, I pray (for joy), "Take heart!"
You are the stars - searing my 
Soul is kneeling to the ground
Trace my future and take wing
Towards the pathway...You find peace
You are an angel in my--

Heart is bleeding soundlessly
Above land...I mourn so sweet
I am the clouds - carrying a 
Gallon of grief...release me!
Place me in fields of love and
Forgive me and lift me up
You are the heavens to my--

Heart is beating profoundly
Without Your heart's joyous song
You are the sun - nourishing 
My lambs are grazing around,
Roving in fields of splendor,
Enlightening the darkness
You are an apple to my--

Eye is grieving...losing sight
Of Your glory...I feel lost
You are the lake - sparkling with
Delight and Luck! Bring us home!
Grow like a morning glory
In the autumn time, You thrive
You are valuable to my--

Eye is twinkling...praying for 
Insight...yearning for Your sight
You are the hills - guiding my
Mind is longing for your mirth--
Restoring peace to my verse,
Sprouting forth grace and freedom
You are the train tracks, bearing--

My train of thought...making my
Steel spirit connect with Yours
You are the valley - between
The mountains guarding us all,
Building strength to fragile bones,
Welcoming a stream of hope
You are my map - lending me

YOUR helping hand I would take
Now, I could take Your challenge
You are like a maze filled with
Mysteries conceal the truth;
I fight with all of my might
And I BEG for Your mercy
To mend my once blissful dreams!

How I long for Your mercy...


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FAITH KEEPS US APART

It seems the path Iam on  is changing everyday
the road uncertain just an endless shapeless gray
some would say it would all be clearer if I took up there religion
even with the doubt Iam not scared enough for that decision

I see the faith you placed in one of the many saviors
I lame excuse for the centuries of mad behavior
Iam sure your prophets where the very best of man
but your church and bibles where never in the plan

so every race has a version of there own
stories stolen from the gods of the past spoken out like it was always known
not one of these faiths is open and understanding
they keep others down and your soul churches are demanding

then you history holds no science no enlightenment
dogmatic foolishness written before free government
and every soul that is afraid to die or to ashamed to live
if you stop thinking then heaven is what they give

even now the human mind is found wanting
but reality is intelligence is hard work and life is daunting
if only the concept of good will and love
we understood without some sign from above

if you need the ancient fiction to ease your pain
I respect you and to all other men you should do the same
your saviors were righteous there’s know doubt
in there time they worship but no church was there twist whets its about

there have been many Christ’s since the beginning of man 
the Mayans and Muslim have had tales since they ruled by the roman
dry king ghandi and many more sacrifice there life so others could be free
in my mind that’s what Jesus is what he is supposed to be

even know there some man of great worth he has no money no powerful church
he’s  giving of himself and and loving the lost I dare you to search 
and see the truth were in this together and this is paradise
we are the only keepers of our fate we must realize

I can no longer people pay to pray and talk down to others who dont believe what you say
but Christ himself did not hang with the saved he knew the hopeless so he could see them ok
but times have changed were not ruled by religious empires mad with slavery
we fought for those rights not with one mans good with collective human bravery

a new age is upon us and the true test is coming not one of prophecy
the makers of worlds the stars the cycle of suns chaos of the galaxy
I hope soon we see are only time is now there is no second chance
are race needs to come together  and make a united stance
if faith keeps us apart do we even have the heart



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I Don't Apologize

If you can give me minutes, who's gonna give me hours?
If you can give me diamonds, who's gonna give me flowers?
We've got the memories, one by one they drown when you're away.
Who's going to help me through the hurting if you won't promise to stay?

Head lights, tail lights, one comes and one goes.
Now the truth comes out and everyone knows.
I don't apologize but I'm sorry it has come to this.
Now you know that someone else gives me a goodnight kiss.

If you can give me security, your arms would be good enough.
If you can promise me forever, I would embrace your love.
I never gave all of me away, the ability to be hurt remains
Your eyes have captured my soul, I would surrender my pains.

Head lights, tail lights, one comes and one goes.
Now the truth comes out and everyone knows.
If you turn around you would see I never told you lies.
I protected my heart from falling, and I don't apologize.

If you want me completely, you need to make things right.
You need to surrender to me and in my bed spend the night.
I can't change unless I know you won't break me in two.
Just know my love as you cry, that baby I would change for you.

Head lights, tail lights, I'm on the run from my heart again.
Memories are pouring after the storm as the rain of remember when.
If you listen to my heart, you will hear as a piece of me dies.
I protected my heart from falling again, and I don't apologize.

~06-29-2014~


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Your Highness

Executing the realm of beauty,
puncturing your torturess soul
while the sinister truth exemplifies purity,
the kind you lost along the way.
You can't see that longing,
you can't comprehend that willingness-
the deepest form of revenge-
success.
And with the success,
all that surpasses is the crooked
unreliable action,
a pretense definition that karma is mandatory.
It moves me how such a belief holds,
totalitarian regime.
Your highness,
I'll bow to you once more,
one more adieu
and passing by.
But after not one
but two steps away,
you are no longer existent-
like the leaves evaporated by the snagging wind-
wrapping its arms around the oak's leaves-
sucking out the poison of the leaves,
as they drop one
by one.
Farewell,
one final time.


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I Come To Be

This is how I came to be,
Born into sin and iniquity.
The fall of man, the sin of the earth,
Yet Jesus gives me new birth.

This is how I come to be,
Bitter and angry when someone hurts me.
The love I once felt turns to hate.
I fall into addiction to escape.

This is how I come to be,
Overcome with shame, on my knees.
Guilt and condemnation overwhelm my soul
But God says, “I will restore and make you whole.”

This is where I come to be,
Once again, down on my knees.
Bowing before a gracious God,
So thankful, amazed and awed.

This is where I dream to be,
Where streets of gold are all I see.
My life here on earth is done,
And Jesus shines brighter than the sun.


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Revived in the Rain

The lightning in my mind
To pierce through the night
And now I can not hide
The truth has come to light

The failure of a man
The child had to demand
Collapsed in glowing rain
Conducting every shame

The walls have crumbled down
Revealing what I found
Before I looked away
Truth empowered by the day

The night could never last
As long as I could ask
What have I now betrayed?
When will I be okay?

There was nowhere I could turn
Nothing left to yearn
No way could I try
But now it burns my eyes

The lightning in this storm
Unveiling every form
Silhouette of what is gone
Breaking into dawn

And everything is known
Beyond the dark below
The rain reveals the flow
And the fallen start to grow

The lightning through my heart
Reviving one more start
Awake and now at peace
The light has pulled me to my feet


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Baruch Aish the Blessed fire

God is clean with consuming fire  					                                  As gold pours off dross purifies 									         Decision's valley now the hour					  	                                 when He comes with fire in His eyes                                                                               ~                       -                                                                                                                           Baruch Aish the Blessed fire -refrain                                                                                                          ~      Rains burning away sin as tin 				   						        The bush the flame does not devour									        Will be your enemy or friend 										  Radiant blaze thorny flower	                                                                              ~  -~        refrain 														     Giving us heat the burning heart	   									 Hearth's hand to warm our cold bones								     Separating us from the dark										       lamp for our feet avoiding stones                                                                      ~ -refrain  															 To see by night with your candle light                                                                        Your blessed fire or ire with might                                                                                the sun rising over hill like lighting                                                           		   Baruch Aish the Blessed fire 														


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Consecrated Grounds

Clinging on to silence
When there’s nothing to behold
In the mirror of this earthly
Visage growing old

Beneath what now just lingers
In this quieting despair
There lies an open graveyard
Begging for your care

The flowers here are wilting
All the children turn away
And in that I am haunted
There is no such thing as play

My voice sings of confusion
When I ask for your embrace
Instead I speak of lacking
And why it’s you that I should blame

Now alone beside the mirror
This old man is close to truth
And as he fades into the nightmares
He recalls what stole his youth

Stalking through the darkness
A passenger of pain
“It is I that haunts this graveyard”
And then he spoke his name

Awake and overflowing
With the senses I thought gone
The old man in the mirror
Is now a child with a song


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jolene's reply

DOLLY, DOLLY, DOLLY, DOLLY
Please don't beg, am not taking away your man
I won't take him away just because I can
Why will I when am in love with someone else.
I know the feeling that you feel
I was there too, and I still am.
The only man I loved has gone away
And you see, am still waiting for him.
With my honey dew eyes and way with words
I still could not keep the man I love
DOLLY, DOLLY, DOLLY, DOLLY
 Please stop crying, he is not worth it.
What am I to do, if he calls my name in his sleep?
I want none of him or anyone else.
Can't you see the pain in my eyes too?
If I don't cry, does not mean I don't.
Your happiness does not depend on me
Nor with him if he does not care.
Don't be a fool, listen to me Dolly
I don't care a bit about him


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Seventeen

I remember your smiling face
Staring down at me
It all just seemed pillows and promises
But soon the comfort fades out
And we’re left with hidden pictures
And misguided hearts

But now, I’ve stared at the memory long enough
That I can feel your hand wrap around mine
And this time, we won’t let go

It’s been so long since seventeen
We’ve gone so far, fearing never to find our way back
School hallways and car backseats linger in my heart
In just a moment, with just another smile you took me back
To seventeen

Now, I’ve stared at the memory long enough
That I can feel your hand wrap around mine
And this time, we won’t let go

Sitting on the edge of the bed
Spiraling toward the edge of my mind
I hear the door close behind you
Still, I sit here, wondering what this means
Somehow I know
Somehow I know, you’ll be back again someday
So I’ll just sit here and let you find your way back to me

I’ve stared at the memory long enough
That I can feel your hand wrap around mine
And this time, we won’t let go

This time, we’ll be walking hand-in-hand


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Never Forget the Trash

Tiptoeing through word pockets	
Seems childishly delightful.
I litter kisses on your cheek
and hop into giddiness.
Nuzzling warmth into skin,
Smiling and saying nothing,
Patiently diluting the imminent explosion.

But the heart is not the head
And I want to tell you everything.

There is too much for
Simple sugary glee 
And I am desperate to share each sun burnt phrase,
Over and over again
So that we can peel away 
Non functioning syllables
Useless falsities and shy giggles of sweetness.

Let us dig and dig and dig until  
A painfully scribbled page appears
With nonsensical verses that 
Stab and scar and swell
And we un-crumple everything
Remove forgetfulness from the trash
And make it beautiful. 


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Off The Tracks

Written March 19, 2013


Along the fine black print
Has left me wondering why
They've been making it so hard
For a poor old man to die

I know what I done
Even God would shun
From the tales I've told
Of the bodies turned cold

The world has turned
Yet the butter still churns
Along the Alabama coast
Where I used to boast

Its been a few years now
Since the car stopped running
A loose train off the tracks
Lord I should have seen it coming

They know I've learned my lesson
But hell won't let me out
'Cause heaven won't take me in
Such a wicked world's chagrin


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GAMES TO THE HEART

TELLING SOMEONE YOU LOVE THEM,
AND NOT MEANING A WORD OF IT,
TELLING THEM YOU WANT TO BE,
WITH THEM FOREVER AND HAVE,
A FAMILY WITH THEM,
WHEN YOU REALLY WANT SOMEONE ELSE,
YOU JUST LEAD THEM ON TO BELIEVE,
THAT THEY ARE YOUR DREAM COME TRUE,
BUT YET YOU CAN'T SHOW THEM IN ANYWAY,
AND MAKE THEM BELIEVE CAUSE OF YOUR ACTIONS!

SO, SEARCH YOUR HEART, MIND, AND SOUL,
AND FIGURE OUT WHAT IT IS YOU REALLY WANT,
IN YOUR LIFE AND FOR YOUR LIFE,
BECAUSE NO ONE CAN MAKE YOU HAPPY, 
IF YOU AREN'T HAPPY YOURSELF.
BY THE LOOKS OF THINGS,
YOU ARE NOT HAPPY BY NO MEANS,
AND YOU KEEP HURTING THOSE WHO,
CARE THE MOST FOR YOU.

SO, WHEN YOU ARE READY TO SLOW DOWN,
AND ENJOY THE PLEASURES OF LIFE,
YOU KNOW YOU CAN LOOK FOR ME TO BE THERE,
YOUR ONE TRUE FRIEND WHO HAS CARED,
FOR YOU FROM THE START,
EVEN THROUGH ALL OF YOUR GAMES TO MY HEART,
I HAVE NEVER TURNED MY BACK ON YOU,
LIKE MOST PEOPLE WOULD HAVE,
WHICH SHOULD SHOW YOU, 
I TRULY LOVE YOU FROM MY HEART!


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LOVE LETTER

Dedication to unconditional love and soul 
salvation

I AM the ONE who loves thee
The ONE who cared enough to die for thee

I AM HE who redeemed thee
The ONE who rose from the dead to comfort thee

I AM the ONE who will always be with thee
The ONE who will never forsake thee

I AM HE who is integrity
The ONE who imparts truth in thee

I AM HE who was sent to save thee
The ONE who bore all your infirmities

I AM HE who will come back for thee
Just be a soul who truly loves ME


                    YESHUA


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Being alive is joyful

Who has never felt grief
When a small gesture would have helped
but it has ,unknowingly, been with held?
How many people have the imagination
to guess what's in your mind,
And to embrace you rather than push you away?
No-one,No-one.No-one knows.
No-one knows these numbers.
No-one knows these names.
No-one knows how many feel diffident,
Nor how many feel shame.

Being alive is joyful!
Being alive is pain!
Being alive is all we have,
We'll never be alive again.

I look into your eyes today
I sense your shame and woe.
I look into your eyes just now
And tell you that I know,

Being alive is lonely.
Being alive is good.
Being alive is pain indeed
For flesh is not like wood.


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Blind Love

I hold you close to me like a new born child and give you all 
the tender care and love you desever

But there is just one thing I don't 
approve of you push me alway show me your cold side and 
not your nice gently side

You say you maybe love me because your still in love with an 
old lover friend and you don't know when you
will fall out

I'm comfused what sould I do I'm learning to love you and I 
don't wan't to lose

But your glad I'm in your life becasue I make you forget 
about her and you know how I'm feeling about everything 

And you can feel it and see it in my eyes you wan't both but 
you know it anit wright so you just keep me near and her far 
because your still in love 

But you wan't me what sould I do drop up everything and 
move on and just forget about use trying to be as one or 
stay in this unfear relationship and keep carrying on

My body wan't you but my heart also to but my brain know 
this is not a good way to live my life and I'm playing myself 
for less

I'm comfused what sould I do I'm learning to love you and I 
can't lose

This love I'm in must be called blind beacause I can't move 
my toes I fell
in too deep and I can't even find the hole I fell into druged 
and willy off  an overdose 

I'm confused what sould I do I'm learning to love 
you and I don't wan't to lose 

I'm confused and I don't know what to do I'm learning to 
love you and I don't wan't to lose


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Reliance

Lord why is it that,
When I am behind foreign lines
I cling to you as if Im  running out of time
Meditating on your words
as is if it was the only antidote to my curse
And even though the unknown land is uneasy
and my earthly sense of security may no longer exist
It is your voice which becomes the softest kiss
and your releaving words become an addiction I can not resist
So when waves of anxious worries try to persist
I must use my 5 senses, to feel your presence,
Because,
The fear of losing sight of you and not being focused
Is so horrific
I do not grit my teeth and clinch my fist
Instead I get on my knees and to you I submit


I see kids dying to be seen
Saying daddy "watch me!", Constantly
There are,
 People making a declaration
with their clothes or  beliefs
Screaming out of desperation
"I am here, look at me!"
We all crave this attention
 It why we make big scenes
But there is this realization
That we were made to seek
A constant confirmation
We're alive and been seen
The only complication
That allows us to sink
Is the clear distraction
when we start to think
That our peers accept-ion
Is all that we we need
Cant you see,
This goes back to Adam and Eve
We were built with a longing
 To Have a strong Identity
And be in the center of the ring
Having the splendor of the king
Christ offers us those things
And he is more than willing
But we keep declining, though
He waits for us, in his quiet place
He shows his many faces in so many different places
He paces out outside of our door way
As we race through our days
thats why we forget  to communicate
But When We simply pray 
And contimplate his words
We take the negative 
and turn it into a positive verse
A plain reminder we need to put him first


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All the way

When I got saved
Jesus saved me all the way
when He came into my heart
that fine day
The Holy spirit 
came in my soul to stay
when Jesus saved me 
he saved me all the way

I can stand right on my feet
and shout out loud
I don't care if its in front of a sinner crowd
I'm excited in my soul
and excited is how I'll stay
when Jesus saved me 
He saved me all the way



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Port of Call

Port of Call


Barefoot on a talcum beach,

alone, not lonely,

with the breath of the ocean a caressing balm,
soothing pained memories away,
to the swaying of a solitary palm.


Barefoot on a talcum beach,

alone, not lonely,

feeling the brushing away of all past turmoil,
on a quest for solace, ever so hard to find,
yet comforted by the crashing of the waves,
as the tide cleanses all pain,
and leaves despair far, far behind.


Barefoot on a talcum beach,

alone, not lonely,

drenched in a sea-breeze of mist,
that hushes the ache of bygone moons,
tasting the salty tang on my lips,
as the burnished sun,
over the distant horizon,
swoons,

and dips.


Barefoot on a talcum beach,

alone, not lonely,

searching, ever searching,
for a slice of solitude,
as memory bids a final adieu,
reaching under the sea so vast,
and seeking comfort in the depths,
while embracing,
the tomorrows to come,
wishing that they be true.


Barefoot on a talcum beach,

alone, not lonely,

seeing my truths drown,
as they slip beneath the turquoise waters,

feeling my heart ablaze,
with a passion that rarely falters.


Barefoot on a talcum beach,

alone, not lonely,

yet knowing that I am home at long last,
wishing the waves would wash away,
the defences that once stood,
like an impregnable wall.


Barefoot on a talcum beach,

alone, not lonely,

I have found, at long last,

my final port of call.


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Answered Prayer

Rising up like sweet essence
From this earthen clay pot
Into the Silver Bowl
Of this Silver Bowl, the Almighty inhales the insides
Before giving this final decision
And the decision?
Mercy.
Not guilty.
Life eternal.


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Small Town Big People

I look in the mirror and see the years gone
I can look beyond the glass out the window
To the yards of my childhood
I can smell the flowers and feel the grass ‘neath my feet. 
I can hear the music blasting on the radio
Mama callin’ me for supper.  


I yearn to go back to that danged town
I fought to get away and never look back,
I never wanted to live there again. 
I guess there’s a piece of me
There in that little town. 

The town is small and so are the events
You’re everyone’s business 
You can get a break and can’t get away
You don’t even have a say
You go to and from and people protest
And those same people will still put you to the test


I yearn to go back to that danged town
I fought to get away and never look back,
I never wanted to live there again. 
I guess there’s a piece of me
There in that little town. 

I made it to the big town K.C, 
Got myself a husband and a son and a place to live
Settled in and made a life, got a career
I swear I’ll never return to my best friend
Comfortable where I stand, 
Happy where I am 


I yearn to go back to that danged town
I fought to get away and never look back,
I never wanted to live there again. 
I guess there’s a piece of me
There in that little town. 

Well times are hard,
And people are ruthless in this cut throat time
Jobs are scarce and bills run high
You never know what you’ll hear at night
The people are small in this big town
Yeah people are small in this big town


I yearn to go back to that danged town
I fought to get away and never look back,
I never wanted to live there again. 
I guess there’s a piece of me
There in that little town. 

I guess the town is small
Just good ol’ boys and girls havin’ fun
Small place, small town, small world
People may talk and people may watch
But the biggest thing in that small town
Are the people after all. 


I yearn to go back to that danged town
I fought to get away and never look back,
I never wanted to live there again. 
I guess there’s a piece of me
There in that little town. 

-Heather Birdwell 9/22/2009



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Overcome

Cast into hatred by all I’d seen
I blinded myself to escape disease
Then numbness commanded this lost machine
And all that was left was what could have been

Searching for gold I could not decide
Why to be when what’s left is a frightened lie
This paradox threw me beneath the sky
And above holy ground I then realised

Born into silence I witnessed hate
Overcome by the violence to then sedate
Emotions examined to then relate
To recapture the moments we witness fate

Writing; redeeming to improve sight
To examine my fears will give birth to flight
The past turns to future, and overnight
My wings have expanded to gather light

Cast into beauty by all I know
With a vision connected to every soul
And a memory that proves that we can all grow
And that beyond every fear our spirit flows


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Daddy Now Please Pray With Me

Daddy now, please pray with me,
for today I'm sailing stormy seas.
I know you say you're but a man,
who tries to live the Master's plan.

I'm weathering gray storms, except a few,
 and the turmoil would drown me, if not for you.
The wind is so strong, the waves are so high,
Tattered sails against the sky!

And I recall you telling me, 
of Jesus Christ,  Who calmed the seas.
And yes, small faith can the mountains move,
and how He died His love to prove.

So Daddy now, please pray with me,
to God's sweet Son, Who dwells in me.
For I am daughter of a man,
and weak at times and cannot stand
against these tides of shifting sands.

You say, "He's still upon His throne",
and with our prayers, I'm not alone!
And God is good and loves me still,
He will offer strength to swim these swells.

Oh Daddy now, please pray with me,
Some choices I made were not of Thee.
At times I've wandered and gone astray,
I feel somehow I've lost my way.

Tell me again my right hand he still holds, 
and how in heaven the streets are gold, and
once we're there no one is old because now 
Jesus holds my soul!

Daddy now please pray with me like when I 
was a child of three beside my bed on bended knees. 

And perhaps somehow these words I write, may move 
another to change their lives, for Jesus loves me this
I know and his blood has washed me white as snow. 

And when you've said "In Jesus Name" I feel brand 
new and not the same, so daddy now please pray with me
though I am grown and no longer three. 

He'll lift me up on wings of love and forgive me
of all the wrong's I'v done! Then I can drop my anchor
deep and mend white sails on peaceful seas!


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Blow and Wound

The traumas remain yet
by our picture married
by done if I keeping
stone me remanding
from the soul,
and am remember it 
and unless
a safer brief so envoys
revive my days ago missing
overflows are deleting it
by ranking, not more
unused myself to you
my words lacking of creep
reclaiming always
it remains!
you're a breaker simply
done not alike a fly eagle
you're a breaker, thou simply
keepit up---thank a lot
and reduce the strange stay
to you, of my heart
and gain it 
as refer to esteem
as resort of windily pleasant
thou help it mean arise.


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Living Proof Of A Miracle

Living Proof Of A Miracle
	
God makes it happen…

	In 2005, I was insecurely denied…my dreams broken and heart shattered 
as the devil tried to work beneath overtime.  The doctor walked in and said, “I’m 
sorry but you have cancer.”  The thoughts in my mind left my body bruised and 
battered.
	In 2008, my condition went from moderate to severe.  I had to make a 
change; I decided to get saved.  My God then forgave…but the thoughts in my mind 
had me askin’, “Why is life worth livin?”  So I continued back down the road of 
insecurities and sinnin’…
	When 2009 came, the surgeon walked in, again, put his head down and 
looked back up at me…I just kept thinking, “What could it be?”  He said, “Sweetie, 
I’m sorry!”  Your cancer is going full blown and it can’t be healed.”  I let the tears fall 
as God caught them saying, “I know you know I’m real!”  “So turn to me and I’ll set 
you free, but I couldn’t turn yet cause’ I was so stuck on me.
	So here I was in 2010, stuck with an illness, loss of a job, sleepless and 
fearful nights, and sickly sobs…sometimes it takes a disaster to come into your 
home, trying to break down your state of mind and get into your soul.  This 
darkness that surrounded me, was feeling much too cold.
	So, I prayed for a new direction, and they sat and prayed with me…On 
August. 11, 2010 the surgeon walked in with tears in his eyes and said, “Honey, 
you’re free…I gave my life to him.  God has healed my cancer and he can heal you 
just the same.  No matter what the situation, just be sure to have full faith.

	For I am, living proof of a miracle…



By: Aleasha A. Martin


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For Bob Dylan

Ramblin' Bob Dylan Blues
(For Bob Dylan)



Why does the sun dry up so many scattered tears

slipping down the coarse cheek of a million hushed fears

where no one is scalded though the searing fog clears

while prayers are mutely spoken even as the end nears

We shatter and scrape on demented knees

Blindly begging for mercy as it silently flees

Searching listlessly for salvation drowned in the breeze

That spits at the soft rose suffocated by a wheeze


I know now what I need never have known

Of hope that was trampled before it had flown

Into a wasted sky filled with hate that could drown

The giggling of the crowd and the crying of the clown


A hope so fragile that its wings were of brittle glass

Ripping the veneer off the sewers of class

Twisting the fabric of the weighed and costed mass

Who numbly waited hoping that it too may pass


For when shards of that hope in all hearts scurries away

To a darkness where crowded night is emptied off the heaving tray

'Tis then when sewn eyes shall behold that doleful day

When all shall tear at each other while on demented knees we still shall pray


For a lifting of the veil of that wilful deceit

That's wrapped up in a flag swollen with conceit

While the limbs splinter in the claw of a winner's defeat

Yet still the drums roll for the ill-fated souls chose never to retreat


From that drenched battle-ground where blood flows through a sieve

And love's lost song plaintively begs for a reprieve

From eternal loss which into raw emotion does cleave

Only to slip through the fingers and like grains of sand, leave.


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Run Away

Call the sickness out from under you,
Tell the people what is really true.
Know the pain that you all might feel,
But see the comfort in the truth revealed.

Run away, baby, run away.
Tell the world another day.
Run away, darling, run away.
Take a chance at another day.

Call the pain out from inside you,
Tell it all that you’re strong too.
Don’t let the sorrow come over you,
When you know that they’re with you too.

Run away, baby, run away.
Get away from this awful place.
Run away, darling, run away.
In the chance you’ll miss the pain.

Call the strength that dwells in you,
Tell it that, its time for truth.
Bring out your love that helps you through,
It’s time for you to be happy too.

Run away baby, run away.
Its easier if you leave this place.
Run away, darling, run away.
Lose yourself by it all again.

Call the lies out from that part of you,
Time for everyone to hear the truth.
Don’t let the fear control you,
When you know what you need to do.

Run away, baby, don’t run away.
It’s harder now if you stay.
But don’t run away...


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Indian burial ground

The Indian rounds the corner of the room
Seeing the sadness through the eyes of a girl
There are a lot of things about this world that we don't know 
the truth behind humanity the heartbeat of ones last breathe
or the pain one suffers mentally 

I don't even know if people can see the truth
Or if they shut themselves out of the real and into the fake
We all know the fakness of what a human can put off
We all know the sickness one stores inside their skull
Can we all see what's going on? this day I see some that are still blind
 some that are so blind they can not imagine! 

The things one can do
The things one may hide

A life filled with questioning
A life full of hate and despair 
A life of several lies
A life with no reason of existing

A series of depression
A time of regret
A worry of fear 

A fear of ourselves 

An unwritten book with no pen to write with

Voice of reason


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Euphorianah

The sapphire-dust sun of what-were dreams
Swallow the scene, setting In the forsaken east
All I see, all I know fades into the reaper's monotone grey 
Death come near me, by my only choice 
My wintry desperation subdued, clings to they silent voice
The dusk reveals my truest nature before her blank argentine eyes
Life; the darkest of all tragedies, Romances' malady
Let me feel your breath in this frozen air
Your pulse shorter than ever
Despair's void grows inside me
Without, you I will live no longer

Forever with me you will stay
The darkness caressing means as I lay by thy grave 
Hatred no longer exits
Come back to me
Euphorianah

My Angel, why did you fly so far away
My Angel, let just one feather stay
My Angel has flown away

The winterwinds' tears fall on me
With whispers of you, someone I once knew
No matter in a dream or reality
Sweet tranquillity, stay with me
Calming the fears within
But the pain remains

The silvemoon's fears shine on you
Thine eyes search for mine
Oh how they shine, so deathly blue
If sacrifice needs a price
The dagger shows-
Heaven is calling us tonight

Forever with me you will stay
The darkness caressing means as I lay by thy grave 
Hatred no longer exits
Come back to me
Euphorianah

My Angel, why did you fly so far away
My Angel, let just one feather stay
My Angel has flown away

Covered in shadowy illusions 
Shall we dance?
Death will be lie dominion
You are my only queen
Euphorianah

Forever with me you will stay
The darkness caressing means as I lay by thy grave 
Hatred no longer exits
Come back to me
Euphorianah

My Angel, why did you fly so far away
My Angel, let just one feather stay
My Angel has flown away

Just let me die
If I cannot see
Euphorianah 
This night 


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How could you

She sits there wondering
waiting
If you'll ever see
She's tired of waiting
crying
How could you let this be?


Locked in the system
a victim of reality
Lost to the unknown world
She sits there
Trapped in her fantasy


She stares out the window
Missing your heartbeat
Longing for your arms
But you won't ever see
You've left her to live here
die here
Drowning in a wordless sea


So many people
around her
but she can't ever tell
She's walking alone now
always
just a hollow shell


They tell her to listen
Move on
With her twisted life
She can't find a reason
a value
nothing but the blade of a knife

It's not the answer
she knows this
but the pain is just too much
You left her to bleed here
lie here
when she only craved your touch

Up in the air she raises
the blade oh so high
So many people
she's leaving
without a single goodbye

Plastic as a doll's toy
her smile was
But you couldn't see
That all she ever wanted
just you
but you had to leave

She sits there wondering
waiting
If you'll ever see
She grew tired of waiting
of crying
How could you let this be?


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lonely walls


Big red heart,
Lonely walls.
Locked air spaced.

Seeing eye vision.
Memory’s gone.

Bright white light.
Forgotten all insight.


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for Gary Moore

for gary moore...

...ain't nothing but the blues

talkin' sweltering licks

screaming through flaming hues

reaching deep, deep into that wandering soul

of devilish chords on those walkways of paris

strutting and strumming, never taking a mere stroll

so though your time here and now may be up 

and though your moments here and now may be through

forgive me for borrowing your words again

cos' we still got the blues for you...


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I Don't Want to Bleed

I Don't Want To Bleed

Written by D.W. Breidenthal (J. W. Earnings)

I don't wanna leave without you
I don't wanna lose my head...
I don't wanna bleed without you...
I want you to burn away my dread.... 

I can feel eyes on me...
And I'm reminded of past poverty
I start to bleed and heart pumps rapidly with anxiety

I can see you through the glass
I know our love will never last...
I can see you by my side in the reflection of the water
I can still sense your presence and you reflect my shameful past
That I would rather drop off at a nearby trash bin...but you are running too fast

And yet you still won't let go of our past sorrows and thoughtless decisions
I thought you had the balls to fulfill our desirable missions
I still see you in my dreams...
in my midnight visions

Our love was my drug and my heroin...but you gave in (to your heart's desire)
I was addicted to your blissful love...I was drunk off of the love Potion
'Cause you were my plastic admiration

I can see you in my dreams... sometimes it makes me feel so damn upset
'cause
I don't want to breath without you
I don't want to face my fear
I don't live ANYMORE
I don't want to leave you behind...I just don't wanna bleed again

I know our love was a temporary satisfaction..
I can see you by my side...every where I go. I have a feeling you are  not over me yet
I can still sense your presence and you reflect my wrong actions
I've committed in the past...but you ought to forgive me and give me one more chance


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MELLOW NOON

days of benign stealth
lawns, gardens, orchards drink to my health
the road's been unkind
well it's gone, it's flowed on behind

let me recline in this boon
mellow noon
the bell might ring
spiteful and soon

days of serene sloth
cirri bind the sky in strips of clean cloth
and they barely support its weight of light
and i circle my core like a moth

tell me whose darned flitting hand
lit this little burner just below my head
that it moves higher up with each sandbag shed
and i never knew how far my land spread

now i long for something to make
now i ache for something to wield
earthbound and sunbaked
like a worker in the field


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Let Love Reign Master

When hurt and disappointment come,
When all I worked for seems undone,
Keep bitterness from creeping in.
Keep heart and soul above the din
Of all loud passion clamors for;
Vengeance belongs still to the Lord.

 Help me repay evil with good,
 Injustice with true brotherhood,
 Indifference with keen desire
To keep my heart an altar fire
Where coals of love burn bright and strong,
A love that lives in spite of wrong.

When cutting words at me are hurled
And lips of those I love are curled
Into a sneer of proud disdain;
When evil tongues are spears of pain,
Lord, I would yield to Your control:
Let love reign master in my soul.


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The Greatest Song

Name of song artist: George Harrison   -   Song Title: "Isn't It A Pity."

Poem below:

The greatest song of all time
shows how all people are blind
we either can't see the forest thru the trees
or we simply don't care about anyone's needs

The greatest day we will find
is when we unfold the love in our mind
when we cure violence of all kind
we can peacefully learn to unwind

What greater deed can there be
when all people can finally see
the words sung in such a great song
It's a pity, you don't sing along


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Blonde 'beauty'

no pun no pun no pun
well he says that i have won
does he see my hair in the sun?
it defines who really has won

it's him it's him it's him
he's getting over the stretch i can't swim
and as the lights are getting dim
my hair sullenly needs a trim

He smiles he smiles he smiles
and stares at me all the while
but as i fall down to the tile
it becomes my hardest trial

i cry i cry i cry
because i know i've told a lie
and my life has passed me by
when i caught myself in his eye

I run i run i run
because he thinks that i have won
this hair so blonde in the sun
reflects the fact that i am done


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The World is Ugly

More delliquit than a flower
Stranded on an island of thieves 
Rising up from the ashes of the 
burning trees

The constant smell of burning flesh
We laid down to rest

The crisp feel of the leaves
Bark burning at a raging speed
But our eyes are to blind to see

What I feel is no less 
That would be your guess



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I'd Do Anything: Taking Risks For You

You're strong and you deserve 
All praise...
For you brightened up my days
And I can't imagine you abandoning me... 
I can see our friendship last for a lifetime 
 
I'd do anything...for you
I'd sacrifice my life...for you
I could hike Mount Everest...for you
I'd give you all that you desire 
I'd walk into the fire...
for you...don't deny it - it's true
I'd walk on hot coals...for you
I'd do the impossible...for you
It's true...
I'm positively sure that 
I love you...
I'd give up my life...for you
You still don't have a clue,
Do you?

You were there for me
In my times of trouble and stress
You were meant to be 
My sincere friend...soaking in my distress... 
Bottling up our progress
Somehow I'll prove to you 
That you're a virtuous, unselfish friend to have 
You make my heart thump with buoyancy 
You have no clue how fortunate you make me feel 
Every time you're hanging out with me...
You tell me that I look handsome -
You have no clue how that makes me feel 
Every time you encourage me...
Every time you remind me of how I look,
It makes me beam with contentment...
naturally 


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Into Many Lifetimes

In this lifetime the bond is blood
But these wounds go back eons
We hurt at something seemingly small
But the game of pain 
Has a Great Fall of Fame
Into many lifetimes

Whether we choose to see what is
Our reality is this moment
Or taste disastrous recipes of loathing
The gift of the present is to forgive
As He forgave us
Into many lifetimes

If your promise was to show me pain
I felt the deep pangs of that sadness
And accept what is 
Let’s leave judgment at the doormat
Love requires integrity
Into many lifetimes

I choose forgiveness
For no person is innocent
Like water under the bridge
But when I stare at the water
It doesn’t seem to move
Into many lifetimes

To truly forgive is to allow Being
Release brings evaporation of rooted ego 
Forgiveness is the only way
The Truth and the Life
Created with cobblestones of love 
Into many lifetimes

I forgive myself for my shortcomings
I release my fears and disappointments
This lopsided backpack of pain is too heavy
I forgot I could put it down! 
As I walk the next path
Into many lifetimes


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A time when you could eat the sun

The trees are made of feathers and sticks
The sun is made of golden cheese
The moon was made of whipped cream
A place where the water was made out of blue Kool- Aid
The grass was made of gummy green strings
There was no houses and no place to hide
A place where a boy ate the sun
A place where the Moon swalloed up the world
A tragedy that melted and turned to liquid
No one could swim in the sea
No one could tan underneath the branches
A world where time stood still and the hours were long
A place where humans never existed

"Please Try to Go Beyond Earth Hour"
Treat earth like something you imagined when you were a kid a place where these things happened and you could be safe. Pick up your trash and clean up your yard! after all this is your world too :)!


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Thirteen Forevers

I thought forever was not enough time
We weren't supposed to see the end of the line
It just can't be over when a years gone by, just thirteen times

Much damage was done, yes this is true
you had me arrested and I did stuff to you
We can leave that behind now love will carry us through

They all bet against us but what will we say
We won't have a good answer if we just quit today
When our children come ask us why we threw love away

We clearly could part now to no ones surprise
Walk away from each other with no long goodbyes
Or could go all in and risk roll the dice
Betting we're better together as forever glides by thirteen times


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Confessional

A world now standing still
In awe of what was killed
Frozen in the wake
Of every lost mistake

Nowhere to begin
For every broken thing
Silence strangles thought
In shock of what I caught

A darkness shining through
Replaying every truth
Alone beyond repair
Repayments I can’t spare

And all in my defence
I proclaim innocence
Perhaps there was a time
But not for my greatest crimes

The pain has turned to ice
My shame shrouded by night
The stars will shape her face
The hearts that I betrayed

Averting all denial
This humble crying child
Desires to atone
Until the dark is overthrown


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One Step Ahead

Dream deferred
Tears unheard
Unseen
Silently
Forever looking at stars
Dreaming of ours
Futures unknown
Forever one step ahead
To our ten steps slow
Promises to never look back
To let the past be just that
Supressing memories
Even those of a happy me
Happier than the one in the mirror some days
Sick of your ways
And your empty words
Of futures unknown
Forever one step ahead
To our ten steps slow
Promising to never look back
To let the past be just that
And I'm thinking of leaving you there
To satisfy the stranger in the mirror
To satisfy me
And my future unknown
Forever one step ahead
To my ten steps slow
I promise to never look back
To never repeat the bad
But to smile instead
At where I've been
And to stare at the clouds
To wish on stars
Letting go of ours
And focusing on mine
Dreams defined
My future still unknown
Only one step ahead
To my two steps slow
I'm catching up, not looking back
Keeping the past as just that
Learning to smile at possibilities
And me.


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I'm Sorry Pt 1

I’m sorry for everything I did
For everything I didn’t say
Girl I love you 
And I never meant for it to turn this way
I wanna be with you
And I need to apologize
I’ll do it again
Say I’m sorry over a thousand times
I knew I hurt you
Once I heard you cry and seen your tears
Then I seen it 
Everything I worked hard for jus disappear 
I want it back, I want
All your love and all your trust
I will do everything 
I jus will never give up
I’m so sorry
I will go to the bottom of the ocean
Travel to the farthest star
Jus to hear you say
That you still love me girl
And to hear that
You still want to be in my world
Baby, please stay
Please don’t turn around
Give me a chance to say
How it all went down….


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Empty Teardrops On My Fingertips

There is only you and me were universal speak our minds until they become controversial the current administration couldn't build a tent that's why I should run for president I would represent you all as I hate you, equally no justification just in my way, literally the broken egg shells I walk on for you to cringe your nails and do as you do Mary wasn't quite contrary on this particular conspicuous evening it seems she's overdressed for the occasion wearing nothing but a green wreath over places What's the difference between me and you? I have power beyond imagination and control of my dreams you misunderstand the smallest of things and then blame me for your state of denial I'm in a state of comfortness but must move forward in order to progress otherwise I am just oppressed or overly blessed, and won't digress.


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Cross of Calvary

Christ is my Savior,
In Him I take my stand.
Death shall not change my behavior,
For eternal life is pierced in His Hand.

Through the valley of deadly shadows,
I shall carry His Sword in my sheath
His compassion dwells inside my window,
His Word of Truth breathes deep beneath.

In his blood lives the Spirit of Salvation,
From His Heart streams the most divine love.
I rejoice in the covenant for forgiveness above damnation,
It is the only way I could reach Heaven above.

And even though my cross makes me weep and weary,
With lashes to my heart making life heavier.
I will hold fast, for in the Cross of Calvary,
Christ became my Savior.


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Your Love


    You
Covered 
     My 
Darkness
    With
The light 
      Of 
Your love


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Than him

I'm weaker than you
It's always been true
you don't need me, cause i'll be the end of you

I don't mean to be useless, I don't mean to be sad
but things come along, and they're always so bad
that i latch onto you, you make me feel loved
with you i am something, when i'm touched, when i'm hugged
and i know that sometimes i make you mad

but I promise to be better, i know I'm a fool
but every time I look at you, I've jumped into a pool
of water that drowns my lungs out, 
I can't breathe when I see your eyes
I want to scream, i wanna shout
I wanna be your prize

But i'm weaker than you, I'm only a fool
just a fool who does nothing but write
useless, uncaring, so selfish and vain
he leads me back into the light


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Endangered Hearts

Raging black waters
Deadly upon us
Cliffside now crumbling
I’m helplessly tumbling

Forethought depression
Forgot aggression
I still remember
The chill of december

An ocean forever
Darkness the weather
Dead stars are burning
My heart once more turning

The life in me yearning
An instinct returning
Death is a lifetime
Alone without sunshine

Raging upon us
Deadly black waters
But love forged from danger
Keeps hatred a stranger


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Rebels Prayer


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The Phone Call

Hello darlin' I know It's late
I hope I didn't wake you
But I'm aching and I can't wait
I want to let you know I still love you

Every time I try to tell you
The words come out all wrong
So I'm calling to tell you
You've been gone to long

I know this is a bad time
But darlin' I don't want nobody knew
I know you said I wasn't worth a dime
But darlin' I still need you

So if you think there's a chance
Could you call me tomorrow
I thought we'd share a little romance
To rid us of our sorrow

Well darlin' I'll hang up now
I hope you still love me
'Cause darlin' I need you now
Oh how can I make you see

Well thanks for listening
Let me know what to do
I'll be here waiting
Goodbye darlin', I love you


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a hesitant dawn

An unusual brand of happiness,
The release of lettting go.
A rush of realization,
Maybe finally you know.
A glimpse of something better,
Came shining through his eyes.
Accepting this fresh exhilaration,
Whilest praying against lies.
Distinguishing between sincerity
and that familiar self-destruction
Gets harder with every heart-break
and each eventual obstruction.


Details | Ballad | |

song

it seems like only yesterday
you'd pick me up and carry me
and now i'm stuck wondering if you've moved on

I hate the way you stare at me
those brown eyes still and caressing
making me fall in love just one more time

I hate it, 
it's cruel
you stole my heart
and played me like a fool
and all I really want is to have it back



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for those who choose to stay

all that i want for you is our peace
all that i want for you is our peace
hands are tied and young
can't you see?

Where will we go when there is no journey to embark
People only exist as shadows alone in the dark
you can pray and i'll do what i can to get by
Maybe one of us will see another day

Have you ever just taken a breath and enjoyed yourself
I'm beginning to see, who is winning in me
The lenin and fees, a ginuine breeze 
He continually believes in the falling of leaves

all that I want for you is our peace 
all that I want for you is our peace
Hands are tied and young 
Can you see?

two fingers apart, a crescent down the center
at times we admire the pleasantries of a mentor
I'm out on my heels, it seems i only stand for splentors
People are warmest when the sun fails in the winter

Candles dim, yet we continue to carry them
It takes mass production to handle film
soldiers and platoons channel the wind
in the end we were merely only men

all that i want for is our peace
all that i want for is our peace


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The Dance

Swaying. I'm dreaming. Sinking. I'm dying. Freefalling. Angels sing a beautiful melody. Hallelujia, oh hallelujia. The light shines on me, enchanting. It's holy, it's holy. I'm spinning, my dress all around, and he's twirling me, my hair falling down. Now as he pulls me close, I see his kind face, I know I am secure, I know I am safe. My best friend Jesus, I smile at him. Oh, dancing with Jesus... I am alive again. My heart is pounding deep within my chest. Dancing with in my eyes ceases to exist. I am not alone. Blinded no longer is the truth hidden inside. And we're swaying. The angels singing. Hallelujia, oh hallelujia. I'm spinning, my dress all around, and he's twirling me, my hair falling down. Now as he pulls me close, I see his kind face, I know I am secure, I know I am safe. My best friend Jesus, I smile at him. Oh, dancing with Jesus... I am alive again. On golden streets we dance to the harp, he's holding me close. Silver is the moon, blue are the stars. I fall awestruck to my knees, swimming through splashing amber seas of innocence. The steps of the dance, guided by his gentle hand. I am at rest, I am at peace, folded in the glory of my coming. The spitting fire engulfing me. I'm spinning, my dress all around, and he's twirling me, my hair falling down. Now as he pulls me close, I see his kind face, I know I am secure, I know I am safe. My best friend Jesus, I smile at him. Oh, dancing with Jesus... I am alive again. I'm spinning, my dress all around, and he's twirling me, my hair falling down. Now as he pulls me close, I see his kind face, I know I am secure, I know I am safe. My best friend Jesus, I smile at him. Oh, dancing with Jesus... I am alive again. I'm dancing with Jesus... In Heaven with Jesus... I am alive again. I am alive again...


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Baby Girl

Baby Girl By: Brandon Lucas 

You are the sunshine of my life baby girl
and you deserve the moon and stars
and everything in this world.
You know I''ll be right by your side
whenever you call.
You know I''ll be there to pick you up
whenever you fall.
I know I haven''t always been there
whenever you needed me.
And I know I''ve done a few bad things
that you should have never seen,
but I swear to you child
that things are gonna change.
So don''t be ashamed of me
because I love you.
Well time goes by and it seems my friend,
that things aren''t what they should have been.
I know I''ve messed up time after time,
but things are gonna be just fine Baby Girl.
Now that I''ve told you how I feel,
just know my love for you is real
and your always in my heart until the day death do us part.
Baby girl... I love you.


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Put Your Mind Away

Woke up this morning my first try;
Only yesterday things felt hard.
Now won't you tell me all of the things,
As strange as they may be;
That put your mind so far away.

Sounds filter in and out,
But my focus remains so strong.
So off with you, those with words of doubt, 
That speak so many wrongs.

Now won't you tell me all of the things,
As strange as they may be;
I'll listen and I'll believe.
Stay as long as I can; help is on the way.
All you have to do is take my hand and put your mind away.

Safe here in my security,
From the demons of the land.
They scratch so desperately at my door;
Their nails never wearing thin.
But they won't be here for long, leaving once you begin.

Now won't you tell me all of the things,
As strange as they may be;
I'll listen and I'll believe;
Stay as long as you can; hope is underway.
All you have to do is understand and put your mind away.


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I'm Sorry

I'm sorry I was never the perfect daughter, the perfect sister, the perfect wife, the perfect mother, the perfect girlfriend, the perfect friend.
I tried my hardest to be what you wanted me to be but it was never enough.
I failed as a wife and a mother for letting things get so out of control when they did. 
There's too many problems in my life, I'm full of baggage like some may say. 
But I'm living my life one day at a time. 
It may not be the life I want but I'm trying my hardest and making up for the past.
I've said my apoligizes.
I've made my mistakes.
I've burned the bridges and lit a candle.
I'm striving for that perfect life that seize to exist. 
I know there's some one out there for me who can take me as I am. 
But how long is it going to take?
It's been a year and I'm sorry but I've failed on finding a new daddy for my childern
A daddy they deserved. 
A daddy that wouldn't do the things the last one did. 
I'm sorry I've failed again maybe next year my childern and I will find THE ONE.
If he exist.
I just have to stop looking for him and let him find me.


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Cost

Kisses felt:
Moments lost. 
Priceless moments
Always cost.
Peace and love:
Childhood wishes.
Friends forever,
Like butterfly kisses,
Never last
More than a day,
Then they all
Fade away.
Dreams, like shoes,
Become too small
To fit our lives
When potential calls.
Kisses felt:
Moments lost.
Priceless moments
Always cost.
Is the price
Worth the pain?
Or worth the strength
We eventually gain?
Of course it is.
Just persevere.
Don't ever stop dreaming.
Don't live in fear.


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For My Father

Snowflakes fell on city streets
Silent descent from the sky
A soul's new journey to the earth
Sounds of a newborn's cries
 
Angels gathered in heaven
As the soul made its way
Their tears from separation
The joy in a mother's pain
 
The sunrise shown with graceful intent
And snowflakes melt away
A first gaze in his daughter's eyes
The father silently cries
 
Waves of time crashed the beach
Riptides of love and pain
Perfection of life's complexities
Drown melodies of lullabies
 
Waters recede, life goes on
Revealing our path of stepping stones
Letting go of pain, we lighten our load
Let's walk together again
 
I love you, Father
You see -- The sun's up again
Holding onto love, we have hope and faith
For I am your daughter
Ruth Grace


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You Take Me Higher

Will I say: “I made a difference”? 
Will I say: that I stood out? 
Will I say: “I gave it my all, beyond the shadow of a doubt”? 
When it is my time that comes, and when the end is near 
Will I accept the outcome? 
Will I have any fear? 
I’ve made so many mistakes 
My judgment’s not been right 
I’ve burned so many bridges 
But still, I see a light! 

It seems like every time I want to close the door, there you are, you hold the key, 
and I don’t know what for 

You take me higher 
You are the one 
I know you hold the key 
You take me higher 
You are the one 
What am I supposed to be? 

I am here 
You are there 
I am here 
You are there 

You take me higher 
You are the one 
I know you hold the key 
You take me higher 
You are the one 
What am I supposed to be? 

Will I say: “I made a difference”? 
Will I say: that I stood out? 
Will I say: “I gave it my all, beyond the shadow of a doubt”? 
When it is my time that comes, and when the end is near 
Will I accept the outcome? 
Will I have any fear? 
I’ve made so many mistakes 
My judgment’s not been right 
I’ve burned so many bridges 
But still, I see a light! 

You take me higher 
You are the one 
I know you hold the key 
You take me higher 
You are the one 
What am I supposed to be?


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You Can't Come Back

You send me letters
Send me roses
Send me tears
I do not know why
You think love will appear

It doesnt happen
Doesn't show up
Doesn't care
Love is a fickle thing
That will leave you bare

Don't send me letters
Don't send me roses
Don't send me tears
I haven't opened your gifts
For many years

You left me scarred
And broken
You also left me here
You are the reason 
Why love is my fear

You think I'll take you back
And love you
You think I'll care?
Your love is a burden
A burden I won't bare

Don't send me letters
Don't send me roses
Don't send me tears
I haven't thought of you
For many years


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Road Of No Return

Well here I am again,
on this broken road today
Searchin' to find,
my lost highway
Last night I broke her heart,
in the pouring rain
But now it's me,
who feels the pain

I looked through my windshield,
saw a sign through the pane
Said hello friend,
welcome to memory lane
So I parked my car,
beside a deep dark river
Walked across a bridge
that just won't burn

Saw an image of her crying,
with a broken heart
As I walked down a path,
through a cold graveyard
Thought I saw her across the valley,
but she was just to far
That's when I Felt a tear on my cheek,
so I returned to my car

I looked at her picture,
hanging from the mirror
She had the sweetest little smile,
and long flowing hair
And as my fingers traced her image,
down ran another tear
So I turned my car around,
for I needed her here

Today I was lost,
on this road of no return
My mind full of memories,
oh someday I'll learn
Now I Need to hold her,
and beg for forgiveness
For this road of no return,
has filled me up with sadness

Last night I broke her heart,
but It was me who got burned
And now the sun's going down,
on this road of no return
It was all selfishness,
and now it's her touch I yearn
Cause today I left many tears,
on this road of no return


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the hand that wrote it

On my saddened days
I’m hoping 
That angels might shine
They’ve done 
everything you can do 
To a person in my shoes 
I’m still breathing
Made it home to tell my mother
She can rest her thoughts
this evening
Sunny days 
Appeal to the circumstances 
In my wretched strengths 
Living life’s 
a variable of extenuating odds 
I’m at twenty three percent 
Relaxing in the palms 
of several ghost
Trying to figure my wife
Theses hard times
Which means the most?
If I call for help 
Will anyone respond
I see individuals tattooed 
Declaring gods son
If I can do what I do 
Then who am I
Because of the people 
I was brought to 
I shed tears from my left eye
If angels don’t smile 
Am I doomed to trials
Of lowered eye brows 

Romulus 
and if the seas summon tomorrow
I will again ponder your trust 
for seasons shall follow

He was known as Romulus
And the seas shall swallow tomorrow
The hand of Romulus
And Caesar shall follow


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A Fading Reminder

Waking up with my face on the floor
I get up and step on something
My bass makes a buzzing sound
The low pitch of the strings 
An eery feeling Screaming through my head

I realize this isnt my room
Its covered in a blue haze
Everything is dark, scary
I scream but i cant hear myself

I remember the night before
when everyone was sitting around the table
laughing, cheering, happy

I turn the knob and open the door
I step out into cold sand
The sky is gray 

Walking into a world i havent seen before
Dead animals hanging on trees
There are no cars 
No one is around
I turn back and look at my door

Just a room in the middle of nowhere
Standing alone 
Ive had the feeling before

A light appears 
i walk towards it
i walk throught the lights

it takes me to the past
when everything was okay
where no one judged you 
where you werent alone
when everything had meaning

... When i existed
just a fading reminder of who i used to be.








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On this road again, wasting time.

                                                                                                       
So good to see you once again. 
We could sit and talk about it
Forever.
Or continue on with the journey 
Down this road of entity. 
It’s a long way 
Before we get there.
Many bridges we will ravage,
Before we come home. 
We’ll signify on the way,
There is so much ahead of us
I don‘t want to miss. 

Look at those meager souls
Out there in the distance, 
Bedeviled. 
They seem so vacant. 
Can’t they discern?
Through his eyes they will see tranquility.
To conceive a path on the way.
A passage to convey with immunity
On their way home.
Everyone will want to see.
Surely this, they will miss.

As i turn from the distance
To see you beside me,
My focus seized by a reflection.
The shine of deity 
within your eyes.
Darkness has receded,
Skies filled luminous red and purple. 
The end of the road is sublime,
Over those gates peer into ecstasy.
Hope to identify her facade.
Cant wait to meet him.
My own sea of rebuttal 
Needs to be set in place.

Drifted soul in the shadows
Squint toward divinity.
This road is far too long
To be stricken with reason.
He doesn’t believe you can’t see.
Surely this, you will miss.


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Every Time You Come Back

I try to believe
things will change.
How do I know
it won't be the same?
I listen closely to my heart,
but I can't even 
begin to start
to understand
what I feel,
what it's saying...
if it's real.
Somebody tell me,
should I look above?
I'm wishing on a star
for his love.
He needs my forgiveness,
but that's asking a lot.
For in my heart
he left a broken spot.


Details | Light Poetry | |

Story Of My Life

While I'm looking at him
I see you in the corner of my eye
When my thoughts are racing for him
You're in the back of my mind
My friends are speaking for me 
Telling me I like him
Maybe secretly I like you
But who am I to argue with them
Oh here we go again...'Cause I'm
Saying something
And meaning something else
Trying to hide the truth
And only hiding myself
Laughing at times
When maybe I should cry
Being in love with you
And dating some other guy
This is the…
Story of my life
My hand held tightly in his 
But I’m remembering yours
He kisses me slowly
And the memories pour
Of your finger stroking my face
Your breath against my ear
Speaking only with our eyes
In a language only we could hear
Now life feels so austere…’Cause I’m
Saying something
And meaning something else
Trying to hide the truth
And only hiding myself
Giving up at times
When maybe I should try
Being in love with you
And dating some other guy
Story of my life
Right now life
Is messed up from before and after
But if life
Is a story I want you in every chapter
‘Cause I’m
Saying something
And meaning something else
Trying to hide the truth
And only hiding myself
Laughing at times
When maybe I should cry
Being in love with you
And dating some other guy
Story of my life
Yeah you’re the story of my life


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the fire

(vrs 1)
dont touch the fire
the fools always said
dont make the mistakes
you'll only end up dead

(vrs 2)
dont touch the coals
they only can burn
so i waited in line
till id have my turn

(chorus)
you never know until you try
so dont be the one to survive
you either live or you die
and end up feeding us the lie

(vrs 3)
ive felt the burns
in degrees never known
ive got countless scars
that will never be shown

(vrs 4)
the fire burns deeper
to scald not to kill
so we're left only to touch
and believe in the thrill

(chorus)
you never know until you try
so dont be the one to survive
you either live or you die
and end up feeding us the lie


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A boy and a girl

I remember the day I first saw her face on the school bus such an uneasy place
we both were shy it took months just to talk soon enough we would always walk
from the stop to her house were I d stand uneasy the sweat would pool in my right hand
One night late after school she came to my house I tried to be cool 
she asked if I would like to go out of course I did but I was nervous anxious filled with doubt

we spent a whole summer just hanging out some times I got so nervous I wanted to shout
I recall how she first placed her hand in mine I was sweating so bad I was losing my mind
the touch of her fingers in my sweaty palm gave comfort unknown and a relieving calm
I realize now she was just as scared but she seemed so calm ready and aware

she became my very best friend but even I knew the summer would end
before the fall came an took her away we spent time with each other everyday
a few weeks before school started again we went to the park are spot back then 
she looked in my eyes for ever it seemed I was confused and young I almost screamed
then she leaned towards me with the sweetest touch she said shed miss me very much
and then it happen her lips searched and found mine out in that moment it removed all doubt
an innocent peek between dearest of friends learning how such things have there ends
after school started that year she moved away I have not seen her since that day

Forever she holds a piece of my heart the innocents we shared was ours from the start
even tho Ive grown a lot since then that young love is for thick and thru thin
we never took not a thing from one another we held each other up learned from one another
I wonder if she thinks of me I think of her and lonely nights I hope she lives happily
youth is something you cannot keep I miss those days on the grass we would sleep 

somewhere inside the shy little boy waits for the day he might see that girl once again
the soul that taught me how to love and to be loved how to end and how to begin
I know ill never see her again I know its only memories something lost to the past 
if I would have known it would end that way and be over so quick so dam fast
I would have told her more of the true me maybe then Id feel whole at last
sweet first love I hope you find a life of love and find your faith in the god above
she will always been in my heart and mind and for now we must leave us behind


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THINE TRUE SELF

THE BEAUTY YOU SEE IN MY EYES IS,
SADNESS FROM ALL THE PAIN I'VE SUFFERED IN MY LIFE.
MY RAGE IS MY SCARS, FROM ALL THE DAMAGED HEART ACHES,
I'VE EVER FELT.
WHILE YOU SEE ME SMILING OR LAUGHING ON THE OUTSIDE,
MY TEARS ARE CRYING OUT SILENTLY.
ALL ALONE, AND UNLOVED,
AND BARON OF A FAMILY;
AN ORPHANED AND ABANDONED AS A CHILD,
NOW A GROWN WOMEN.
I TRIED TO TURN MY BACK ON MYSELF AS WELL,
ONLY TO BE BROUGHT DOWN TO MY KNEES SCREAMING,
WITH ALL MY OVERWHELMING EMOTIONS RUNNING WILDLY,
INSIDE OF ME.
WISHING OTHERS WOULD UNDERSTAND HOW GRATEFUL THEY
SHOULD BE TO HAVE FAMILIES THAT REALLY LOVE AND CARE FOR THEM;
INSTEAD OF COMPLAINING AND GROANING.
THINKING TO MYSELF,
IF ONLY MY FAMILY SHOWED ME THAT
THEY LOVED ME THAT AS MUCH AS
I LOVE THEM.
INSTEAD REALITY SETS IN AND REMINDS ME ON
HOW CRUEL THIS WORLD HAS BEEN TO ME.
I FINALLY DECIDED TO START ANEW,
AND THIS NEW BEGINNING HAD ITS UPS AND DOWNS;
AND LIFE LESSONS THAT NEEDED TO BE LEARNED.
ACKNOWLEDGE AND APPLIED.
LEAVING ME WITH THE DREAM AND HOPE,
THAT ONE DAY SOON I WOULD FIND MY KINDRED SPIRIT,
OR HE WOULD FIND ME TO LOVE ME IN THE LOVING WAY,
THAT WE BOTH NEED AND DESERVE.


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The Noblest Career

James 3: 12 and Proverbs 15:1 have been paraphrased here in the following 
poem. You are invited, dear reader, to kindly read those Bible verses before or 
after reading this poem.

Teaching might be the noblest career;
But it has its dangers, in its rear.

Saint James warned us about this great trend,
That we might not fall before and bend

To worship some regretful mistake.
“How can the same source of water take

Pure sweet water and make it bitter? ”
In slanders every single letter

Causes the fire of hatred to grow;
But a kind answer frees and lets go!

For teaching is the noblest career;
But it has its danger, in its rear.


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The Book of You

I see you, more than you understand
Your heart, your soul, its like the perfect book

Your heart it beats and yet you do not live
Why do you resign yourself to such a fate,
A fate, an attempt at life that is such a waste

I know in your heart you wish things where different
Wish the past had not happened, 
Wished that your heart did not ache so much

This wish is futile, to wish your heart away is to hide
Do not hide from what enriches your life
You will forever remember this
Learn from these pages in your book 

Yet that crippling pain is likely the purest emotion you have felt
I am here staring into you, reading you

I see your soul for what it is,
It is struggling to restore your shattered heart
Your greatest weakness is your fear

You fear for what can be, for the next pain
So many times you have been shattered
Many times broken and defeated

But you must learn to fight back
Learning that pain is only the beginning is the only way

Without this I doubt your heart or your soul will survive
Survive the apocalypse of your life, fate has not ended it
This is after all just the beginning of your future

I beg you to continue your life,
I yearn to read into your heart, mind and soul more

Please forgive my selfishness but I need you to continue
The waste of your heart is too much
The waste of a soul like yours is a shame

I will pass you the string for which to sew your heart
I will pass you each piece, each shard of your soul
Allow yourself time to heal,
The process is only as slow as you make it

Demand your heart to listen to your mind
Falling back into the pit of despair is truly mad
If you allow yourself to fall within its inky depths
Then forever will its dark tentacles enwrap your heart

You have felt the pain now, felt it keenly
Do not fall into vengeance, it is seductive, it is sweet
But it is a short reprieve from the darkness

Take heart, the good die young is what we're told
The better die last.
The best live eternal in their love, for true love is eternal
That love will forever last in another’s hear.

Do not give in to pain,
Do not give in to hate,
Give in to your recovery.


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second-hand lives

Ask for help
I’m right here now
Hold your breath
Wither on
No place to run to 
No place to go
This place 
Your home

Ask for help
I’m right here now
Take your step
I won’t hold you down
Hoard your breath
Wither on
This place 
Is your home

Beneath the moon
We hid till noon
Deeply felt
I’m outside of you
Grace your path
It’s all we have 
Where wonders fade
We will go 

Your air
Is built 
Of broken
Breaths
Your ground
Is soft 
No place 
To step

No bridges
Spare 
No thoughts
Too rare
When 
No memories 
Flare 

You asked for help 
I’m right here now
Hoard your breath
I won’t hold you down
Wither on 
This place 
Is your home


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Running back To You

Verse : Suddenly i came  to realize that living without you  was the  biggest  
mistake i  made/ and that all the  memories i  had of you seemed to quickly  fade  
away/ i  tossed  and  turned  couldn't  sleep through nights/ Just  kept  thinking 
about the  fussing  and  fights/ To  get  back to ill do whatever it takes/ baby i'm  
running  back  to  you/

Chorus : Baby i  can set you free/ only if you  come back  to  me / baby can't  you 
see our love is  true/ can't  you see i'm  running  back to you/

Verse2: All the  memories of  us  keeps piling up in  my head/ Can't  stop thinking 
about  you and what we used to do/ i try to  hide it  but it just keeps coming out/ 
Don't want to pretend as if  we never  existed/ don't want  to  go on  without  the  
thought of you  being  in my  life/ Just  want  to show you  i  forgive  you/ show  you 
that  i truly love  you/

Chorus : 2x


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Rapture

Oh day of promised rapture from final resting place,

The first desire of heart to see my Savior’s face!


The beckoning of trumpet will pierce the Eastern skies,

I yearn so much to greet him and behold him with mine eyes!


Shall I awake in dew clad morn or velvet star-lit night,

Anticipating robe and crown and wings of silver bright!


Enduring grace, sweet love divine did span thou earth’s creation,

Great Son of God who lived to die for sinners soul salvation!


I long to hold thy nail scarred hand and kiss your thorn pricked brow,

Though birthed in sin he snatched me from Hell’s fiery bowel!


Twas stately mansions glistening in heaven’s glory gleam,

Their beauty was astounding as nought I’d ever seen.


The prophets were conversing of ancient days of old,

While children laughed and played on shining streets of gold.


A reunion day is coming dear loved ones and missed friends,

Where we’ll always be together and time shall never end!


Nor tear did dim an eye, and daily cares were gone,

Thousands gathered there to join in angels’ song!


Hallelujah to the Highest, holy praises we did sing,

To lift our voices as one to Christ, The Mighty King!


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Perfect Brutal Lesson

To a broken anniversary
Of a love lost long ago
Filled with goose bumps and the memory
Of a soul I can't let go.

I wish I could remove the distance
That set both our poles apart
If I held a more delicate stance
I could have cradled your heart.

Despite my best intentions for us
The storm still swallowed me whole
Delicate plans were causing me fuss
I failed to honor my role.

No shame of our moment together
Though time has lessened the thrill
Our laughter will echo forever
Such gratitude fills me still.

If an instant of sorrow passed by
Without my loving embrace
Arrogance failed my perceptive eye
Complacency trumping grace.

Now I swim an ocean of regret
Without an island in sight
My mind traces back that silhouette
We shared within our delight.

Within this flesh I know I've been blessed
Nothing can tear you from me
Locked deep inside without a protest
With me indefinitely.


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Pain

Pain is all I can feel
In my heart
In my soul
In me

Pain is such a hurtful thing
I wish I was free
To be happy
To live

But all now that had been left behind
I was falling to pieces again and again
The world became my enemy
And Pain is what i will always gain

To live
To Be
What I want to Be
But There's Pain In me


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And Still

We’ve fallen in this place before.
I know you’ve heard me cryin'.
We torture our young hearts sometimes.
You know there’s no denyin'.

Let’s leave everything behind us
and take one step forward together.
If we follow the path of destruction we’ve made,
we’ll never find something that’s better.

There’ve been times it was best when we said nothin' at all
because every word came out so wrong.
But we can’t take it back, so just take my hand
and we’ll find out where we belong.

I won’t tell you it’s gonna be easy
but I know it will all be worthwhile.
If it’s enough for you, then it’s enough for me
just to wake up to your smile.

If you don’t know, there’s a girl that’s inside me
who’s been waitin' to be romanced.
So I’ll be right here when you know that you’re ready.
It’s about time we danced.

So if it’s up to me, I’ve already decided.
There’s too much that we’ve gotten through.
All those slammed doors, all that walkin' away
and still I come back to you.


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Never hit rock bottom

You hurt me so bad I don't know what to do
It's like flying a million miles above, high on love
then jumping without a parachute
But again and again you break my fall
Then it's like the pain never happened at all

You let me down and I go falling
But through the tears, your name, i'm still calling
In front of me, our times together flash
And I just know i'm going to crash
But then you hold me near and erase all the fears
What was wrong, i'd already forgotten
And again I realize, i'll never hit rock bottom

baby, this love is so unpredictable
With a mix of pain and pleasure, it's unbelievable
You love me, you don't, you'll break my heart, you won't
So many thoughts run through my head
But you leave me with just one when I lay down each night for bead
No matter what we'll never hit rock bottom

Honey, together we belong
This love has got to be strong
Cause no matter how we fight
We are in eachother's arms by the end of the night

Without you I wouldn't know what to do
I know we'll make it through
When at the end of each day of pain
There is still happiness to be found
When my life has turned upside down
And my world is shadowed and dark
You light the way and mend my heart

So I still believe
That we'll spend this life together, you and me
Cause the assurance i've still gotten
That when I fall you'll never let me hit rock bottom.....


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It hurts inside 
when you decide
I've lied.
Everything goes wrong
I've ached to long
I'm strong.
but I'll tell you dear
I need you here
Right near.
All this pain inside
All this pain outside
Too much pain inside
All my pain I hide



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Some Things Left Unsaid

A woman of strength,
patience and hope.
Lord knows you've had to sacrifice.
I wonder how you cope.
You fill yourself with faith,
compassion and love.
When it's all too much to handle,
do you need to look above?
In Him do you find 
the courage to go on,
when the times get too rough
and the days feel too long?
So many things you carry
on your shoulders, in your heart.
So much of you will be with me,
though miles and miles apart.
I've taken things for granted,
without a second thought.
Looking at the past,
there are many battles we have fought.
Through struggles and accomplishments,
you've been there by my side.
Just know that I am here for you.
In me, you can confide.
It's hard to stay so positive,
when the world starts to crumble.
I'll be there to pick you up,
if ever you should stumble.
I appreciate and love you
more than you may see.
If it wasn't for you, mother,
I wouldn't be me.


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THE RELUCTANT REPENTER

Say your prayers and sit up straight,
Get into that confessional box to wipe clean your slate.
Make sure you get all those wicked sins off your chest,
The lord will only welcome those who are wholesome and blessed.

In pitch black silence you sit, your final thoughts to gather
Before being shocked into repentant mode with a blast of “in the name of the 
father..”
“How long has it been?” the priest enquires, he must know you will lie?
You take the first figure that pops into your head then you divide, not multiply!

Those awful sins that lay heavy on your heart,
From your reluctant mouth they slowly depart.
You tell of bouts of swearing and theft from mammys purse,
And stealing a bag of crisps from your sister, now what could be worse?

“That’s is all father” are 4 short words you triumphantly announce,
The priest mumbles some mystic latin verse then a Hail Mary to pronounce.
Finally your chore is done and you are asked to go in peace,
You gleefully skip out of the box and celebrate release!


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Liken Marriage to an Egg


The egg may be cracked
But, yes it can be fixed
With bit of bond and wax
And a few more little tricks

It’s only lost a bit of white
Not any of its yoke
The union yet still intact
Not too much really broke

With a bit more love and care
Some time to heal and mend
The crack can be set whole again
Made perfect in the end


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Gated Minds

Ever ending walls, are these walls ever ending? Slowely spinning world, will it ever stop spinning? Life is a passage, but is it really pre written? If god is "like wise" does it make him a victim? 
We all give and take, so does it mean its a mistake,
That the reason we are here is only by fate?
My mind may alter my inner emotions,but by keepin it locked means its never even open.
So I must not accept this world or its fate, for my mind is my own, and for gods, its his gate..


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symphony from tomorrow

Like a story told
You’re nowhere near my love
An adventure in a rodeo
I can see No further
Than the sun sets before me

And I’m all yours 
Just broken in particles
And you can’t be 
More than I wished you were

Yellow lines
Caution lights
Nights
I wished 
You weren’t so far away

Vacancy
The shadows that shelter me
And when I’m all yours
I can only ask for more

And as we be 
You should be used to me
And now you know
I’m no better
Than I was before

And this can’t be
I’m used to you holding on
And I’m all yours
Like yesterdays fall apart


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Big Sister

If her pain serves to please you
She is all out of words
If her joy won’t amuse you
Her trust will be reserved
She’s begun to realise
That she’s not all at fault
Deep beneath those hate-filled words
She sees your true revolt

Oh such verbal skill you have
Howls harsh reality
As deep beneath the silence
Screams your veracity
Buried ashes of someone
Who hasn’t even wilted
She’s still alive, so don’t give up
Connections are just jilted

Wade through the stupidity
of your churlish stubborn ways
That negative energy
To get you through the days
Rummage for responses
Slave labour you can keep
Contagious as those bitter words
Adrenaline pumps deep

Pull in those reigns that haunt you
Take off your amour now
Bite your nails down to the quick
This hurt you should allow
Be sorry, please recognise
All those wasted chances
Now they’re gone, and it’s too late
All-in wicked glances
Comments shoot straight to the bone
Leave scars the blades so sharp
Immune to those words she’s known
Leave pin pricks in her heart

To peel away in the heat
Leave her raw and exposed
Naked, pour out empty threats
Words are super imposed
Skin etches out the journey
Grows each autumn and spring
Overbearing bitterness 
Twisted comments brewing
You will not admit but some days you miss her
Your partner in crime, your big sister


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COLOUR

Black or white can you tell
Is it so important the colour of my shell
Its whats inside a person that really counts
For in my mind i have no doubts

Wars for many years started on such a day
Why must we judge one another in this way
All said and done we are all the same
Does it really matter from where we came

My blood is red the same as yours
Why don,t people think of this before
They say and do such nasty things
And the only thing this really brings

Is more hatred that will go on for generations
Is this what we really want as a nation?
Black or white bare this in mind
It does not take a lot to be kind


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Pilgrim's Flight

Declared plainly by those that know not thee
of whom this present world was not worthy
Their cries still being heard how long Oh, Lord
They were were slain with the sword
of stones of hangings Of Crosses and Stakes
Brazen Bulls and Iron Beds they where baked
racks and wheels screws and vices
iron maidens and all other evil devices
Lit candles lighting the gardens of cruel kings
Tortures and Torments but they still sing
unto blood shed men of valor showing God's Love
consistent of lion's and lamb's eagle's and dove's
Courage and strength to put tens of thousands to flight
instead suffering servant's showing mercy like Christ
Surely they have won the battle not lost
for they follow the One counting the cost
What manner of death Glorifying God
Loving the brethren when they would not
as Valiant as they can be
the world to come they seek
Overcoming this world for another
for the Love of God and brother
- Based on the Word of God ,Fox's book of martyrs, Tortures and Torments of the Christian Martyrs'', itself a photographic copy of an earlier, rare folio published by William Brendon & Son in 1904. - and HE WHO WOULD VALIANT BE Who Would True Valor See the Words: John Bun­yan, Pil­grim’s Prog­ress, 1684; mo­di­fied by Per­cy Dear­mer in The Eng­lish Hymn­al (Lon­don: Ox­ford Un­i­ver­si­ty Press, 1906


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My Greatest Sin

It took away your youth
And everything I believed in
My greatest sin
For I have failed
The truth has been nailed
The mark of the failure

Living is getting hard
My soul is getting scared
Save me
All I ask for is...
Forgiveness
Forgiveness
Forgiveness

It took away your youth
And everything I believed in
My greatest sin
For I have failed
The truth has been nailed
The mark of the failure

Erase this from my soul
Everything I have stole
Every last one
All I ask for is...
Redemption
Redemption
Redemption

I must delay
My souls decay
I must obey
Without delay

For I have failed
The truth has been nailed
The mark of the failure

My greatest sin


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My Surrender

Make me go to sleep 
Make me close my eyes 

As I take some time 
I surrender my habits 
Bless the lender 
of my worn fabrics 
Just once more 
a peaceful day, what a delight 
A soothing melody 
buries the night 

Make me go to sleep 
Make me close my eyes 

Does it feel like prison? 
For I cannot remove you from my thoughts 
If you will listen 
Your kindness burns my scars 
Like crystals of salt 
As I lay ill sipping this pure life 
I only ask 
How much more can you endure my wife? 

Make me go to sleep 
Make me close my eyes 

If you can bring me to my knees 
I am yours 
If not 
I remain a lost soul at another door 
I live life ugly, give me death 
I laugh at strangers 
In one final gasp
I am Your Saddened Angel 

Make me go to sleep 
Make me close my eyes

"Sunday wine & rewrites"


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Modern Day Psalm

I throw myself across the bed,
I can't get the thoughts out of my head.
"Why didn't You answer my prayer?
I wonder, God, if You are even there?"
 
Through my tears and sobs, I cry,
"Why God? I don't understand why?"
In my rebellion, I plan and scheme
To go back to those things from which You have redeemed.
 
But You know my heart and You know my mind.
You send me just the right words at just the right time.
You speak to my heart through godly friends;
Stern and true - their words my broken heart mend.
 
I cry out to You, and You always hear.
Even when I am drowning in my own fear.
You rescue me with Your outstretched arm.
And keep me sheltered - safe from harm.
 
God, I know You have Your reasons why,
Things happen that sometimes make us cry,
If I go through these trials only to write,
Then to help one person, it is worth the fight.
 
Don't ever let me forget, O God, Who You are.
You reach out to catch me, no matter how far.
I will love and praise You until my last breath.
And know I will be in Your arms, even in death! 


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STILLER WATERS

Memories of troubled, sunless days
have passed over my solitary place,
and with much expectancy, I predict lasting peace
with stiller waters for a calmer heart full of awerness;
tomorrow will not fail me, I will know a good rest
never before experienced...not spoiled by uneasiness!    


Happy events weren't anticipated with sorrow,
unhallowed and fearful they wrestled within,
but my lack of understanding made me bitterly weep!
O refreshing river never stop flowing, giving
your stiller waters to a repenting soul being
purified, forgiven, changed, uplifted, and loved by all. 


Lively are the lilies in that sunny field on the peaceful outskirts 
of town, unbosoming their loveliness without uncanniness or impurity,
and their splendor is reflected in these stiller waters; 
take some of them and put them into a tall vase,
or bring them to an altar to redeem your grace:
expose your guilts and pray...belief is the source of felicity! 


Not repugnant anymore, but thankful and singing with a mellow tone,
hearing the melodious organ so accordant and melliflous...
a godless lifetime is not worth living with thoughts so spurious!
Rebellion was a mere whim whose memory I will have no recollection
with stiller waters soothing me and mending my once-righteous ways...
only my merciful Lord can restore my faithfulness, and not let me wander alone!


Copyright 2010 by Andrew Crisci

Inspired by the poem, " The Lord Almighty" written by Constance, 
The Rambling Poet for the contest, " I am sending you a gift of poetry, 
dear heart."


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Thanksgiving

I thank you Lord for what I am,
for all that I may someday be.
But most of all I thank you for,
a Son who gave His life for me.


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No Room!

There wasn't room at the inn,
For Mary and Joseph to stay.
So our Lord Jesus was born,
And in the animal manger He lay.

The world made no room,
For our Savior to be.
Even though He was coming,
To save you and me.

In this fast paced world,
Going from here and there;
We've crowded up our lives,
Like we no longer care!

Is there no room for Jesus,
In the fast paced life you're living?
Shouldn't we make room for Him,
Because it's our sin He's forgiving?

Now slow down and examine,
Your whole life situation.
Make more room for Jesus,
Because He is your salvation!

Look back at that night,
So silent and still.
Will you make more room,
So your heart He can fill?


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Low Man Is Due

A low man is due...
My eyes seek reality,
My fingers feel for faith.
Touch clean with a dirty hand,
I touch the clean to the waste.
I fall cause I let go,
The net below has rot away.
And I cry to the alleyway,
Confess all to the rain.
But I lie straight to the mirror,
The one I've broken to match my face.
The fire is so warm,
But nowhere safe from the storm.
And I can't bear to see,
What I've let me be.
So wicked and worn.
So as I write to you,
Of what is done and to do.
Maybe you'll understand,
I won't cry for this man.
Cause low man is due.
So low the sky is all I see,
All I want from you is forgive me.
My eyes seek reality,
And my fingers seek my veins.
There's a dog at your back step,
He must come in from the rain.
But you bring that poor dog in from the rain,
Though he just wants right back out again.
So my fingers feel for faith,
And my eyes seek reality.
So as I write to you,
Of what is done and to do.
Maybe you'll understand,
I won't cry for this man.
Cause low man is due.


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Endless

She ran towards the tears,
No escape; no doors to open,
Pouring down the elements;
Red is the colour of screams.

Laid by the bed of roses
Silently created the sound,
Abandonment rose fast;
Her screams fill the empty chest.

Afraid to show the hurt,
In there the mountains grow;
She writhed in ashes; dust,
Ever so cold,
When the sun shines.


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Putting A Face

I see you through my eyes
Yet you seem like a ghost in my heart
The delicate butterflies
Anticipating to depart
Some say it is foolish
Others say it is impossible
But my love will only flourish
What I feel is irreplaceable

Despite what ever
It will not be forever
Just temporary
Putting a face on
That is beneficiary
Until I'm not alone
Any longer
I will become stronger

It is worth the pain
Worth the hard miles
And when the rain washes away
This strange profile
You will finally see
The best of me
Time will slow
And you will know

I love you
Always had
Always will
Through snow and cold
Through pain and sorrow
Yesterday, today and even tomorrow


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in fields of grey

Like a wild flower in the rain
Sometimes you get desensitized
By the company you keep 
And you forget to be a genuine person

Just like the arms you lie within
Your body cannot do without a warm touch
Driblets, a breeze, triplets
It was all a spring time hush

Like a wild flower
I saw you making hail in the rain
And I won’t carry through my days 
Without you by my side


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Broken Song

No words 

,I know , 

Would fulfill this part ;

How hard it is 

To lose 

, or keep , 

A heart . 

 

How dangerous , my kid , 

To cross the mad highway of life 

Without a hand 

Of a real , caring friend 

 

And how does it worth it ; 

To go on fare with such a life of shed 

If we let go the dreams we love 

And just hanged with the gains we can get 

 

That is how no words , 

No roads , 

No dreams …

Would, now , keep on the look of how does it seems 

As there is no more chance ,

As there is no farther you ,

And knowing no shame in ware and love ; 

I merely wanted your heart to know . 


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once longing love

This time your eyes don't seem to bare the familiar strength
you been staying away from me you've gone to every length
i did every thing i could to lend a helping hand
now your broken and its hard to under stand
this was no ones plan love makes harsh demands

even though i can see your heart is truly broke
when i tried to hold you i was just a joke
now things are changed nothing like before
i have become something so much more
a ache still nags deep within my core a life left in ashes spread upon the floor

i wonder where you ll go who you ll see
i wonder if the only thing you think about is me
the empty hole of things left unsaid
a wall of noise stands strong in my head
some how this feel like I'm dead but I'm watching in you go instead

how many times could i try to be the one you needed but i know it was the ego i feed ed
a callous soul without any notion of truth hope or devotion
farewell my once longing love


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I'm Sorry

I’m sorry I didn’t cry when you lost your dad
I’m sorry that I always made you mad
I’m sorry that I couldn’t hold you tight
And tell you that I love you with all my might
I’m sorry that I always called you names 
Sorry I was mean and caused you pain
Saying bad things that I regret
I hope that one day you will forgive.

I’m sorry that I didn’t see your hurt
I’m sorry I was once a stupid girl
I’m sorry that I didn’t love and respect
Turning our marriage into a wreck
Please forgive me for being wrong
And all those nights I cried all night long
I knew that you really cared for me
I was just blind and I couldn’t see.

I’m sorry that your life has been so hard
Tryin’ your best but not gettin’ very far
Life’s punching you from left and right
You just want to quit and give up the fight
And I know that you’re still hurting inside
You married again so you wouldn’t have to cry
With your heart still broken from before
You try to hide that you’re still unsure.

I’m sorry that your brother took the easy way out
I’m sorry you couldn’t help him when he was in doubt
I’m sorry that your life has been so cruel
Nothing but an ugly joke to you
And so from time to time I continue to pray
I hope that you’ll call on HIM someday
So you’ll be filled with His grace and love
And be protected from the Lord God above.

And now that your left here all alone
Empty inside tryin’ to fill the hole
Goin’ down the wrong path and through the wrong door
Your soul’s left empty and you’re wanting more
Thinking to yourself will things ever change
Wondering why God had made you this way
Cause you’re not livin’ your just here
Goin’ through the motions of life in fear.

And so you try to keep movin’ on
Survivin’ and tryin’ to keep yourself strong
But you rely on others to hold you up
And you keep on passin your sufferin’ cup
“Why does it have to be this way
Why can’t I have peace and live happily”
Let me tell you this to your lost soul
Surrender to God and then you will know.


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forever never

You know how you made me feel/ my heart felt like it was torn out of my 
body/ I felt so stiff and lifeless as I heard those words that fell upon my ears/ 
how could you say that to me/ I thought that i had died/

No, no, no,/ i dont wanna hear you say those words/ I want us to be forever/ tell 
me what went wrong with our love/ why must you walk away from us/ forever/

I just cant take it/ i cant eat or sleep at night/ all I do is just keep thinking 
about all the memories we share/ why must you throw that away/dont you want 
to make this work/ cant you see that you're killing me/ open up your heart and 
tell me the truth/ I want it all if you want me to let go of you, of us/ and no 
matter how much it hurts/ I will go through th pain to let us end/


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The Top

Honesty
Can't you see
I lied again
Against your whim
Following I keep on following
As you lead the way
My lowest friend
How we meet again

Oh yeah
Oh no
Oh yeah
Oh no

It's the top see baby
Surely you're not all alone
Safe baby
The place that you call your home
Front seat baby
Maybe I'm lost
I don't trust a thought 
And i think to much oh come on
Come on come on say maybe
Come on  come on see baby
Come on come on say maybe
Yeah baby come on

I betrayed
You and me
I messed up again
Lost another good friend
Stop pushing I can't stop pushing
Down on all your walls
Till your broken again
To severe to mend

Oh yeah...etc

It's the top see baby...etc

Trusting me 
You're naive
Where do i begin
Starting from the end
Selfishly I keep on running and
Don't forget my name
I'm sorry again
All the words I spent

(I am still working on it)


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The Prayer

Be fear of The Day

The Day of Eternal Destruction
The Day of Mankind Elimination
The Day of Ending
The Day of Everything

God blessed us, God helped us!

Our life is being shorten
We beg for your forgiveness
The time is getting faster
We don't want it to end now

God helped us, God forgive us!

We beg upon our knees
We beg upon Your mercy
Oh, my prayers shouted
Pleaded, begging for another chance

The Day Of Judgement
We fear

Please, hear Our cries!
We want to continue Our lives!

O God Of Almighty!


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Fading away

I am fading away
From this world

I am slipping away
From everything

I am going away
From the lie I hold

I am fading away
From the truth I was told

Seek me from this nightmare
A hole in my heart is too much for me too bear
The lies you gave me are the things you do not dare
While I am suffering, thinking life is not fair
I can't take it
I can't hold on
I can't endure the pain
I can't do this again

I am fading away, fading away, slipping away now


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I'm A Freak

I am a freak

I am a freak

I am always a freak

Now, and again, I'm always here
And I know I am to be blamed
I don't deny that you will hate me one day
When that time comes
It will never be the same again

Just hope you accept me for who I am
Just hope you will understand

I am a freak

I am a freak

I am always and always be a freak


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Midnight Lily

When we are all alone
when we don’t know where to go
we need to overcome
the feet that trample us to the ground
 
Some will persist to stay
others will fall for everything
if they don’t stand for anything
 
if you live for me
I’ll always live
and if u die for me
I’ll live everyday for you
 
Midnight lily; you are trampled underneath
as they watch and stare
waiting for a passion something to let you live
come and see what you have
come and see what you have is me
 
if you hold on now more will come
…they promise you
but if you always hold on
love can be true
leaf turns to leaf
live it when you can
 
We all fall into grief
 not all the same
lets be strong and rise again
show them whom you are
mortal
 
if you live for me
I’ll always live
and if u die for me
I’ll live everyday for you
 
Midnight lily; you are trampled underneath
as they watch and stare
waiting for a passion something to let you live
come and see what you have
come and see what you have is me
 
if you live for me
I’ll always live
and if u die for me
I’ll live everyday for you
 
Midnight lily; you are trampled underneath
as they watch and stare
waiting for a passion something to let you live
come and see what you have
come and see what you have is me
 
it seems to get harder
everyday
but happy can’t be happy
without sorrow


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Front Porch Stepp

I'm sitting on my front porch stepp
Me my brew my dog named Shepp
Watching all the lovely people driving by 

Some even stop just to talk to me
Others drive by thinking I don't see
Some on the phone just like they're at home
All of them so scared to be alone

I'm sitting on my front porch step
Me my brew my dog named Shepp
Watching all the lovely people driving by 

If I had my way I'd just 
Make them smile
Just to make them happy each, and every mile
Just to make their journey seem, worth their while

I'm sitting on my front porch step
Me my brew my dog named Shepp
Watching all the lovely people driving by 
People driving by


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I TOOK MY TRUST BACK

I GIVE YOU MY HEART BUT YOU STOOP ALL ON IT. I TRUSTIED IN BELIEVIED IN YOU .
YOU TELL ME ONE THING BUT DO ANOTHER.YOU SAY YOU LOVE ME BUT 
LOVE DONT HATE. I PUT THE WORLD IN YOUR HANDS BUT YOU COULDNT HANDLE IT. 
HOW COULD  I TRUST YOU WITH MY LIFE. ITS LIKE THAT SNAKE IN GARDEN OF ADAM 
AND EVE ALWAYS TELLING A LIE. TRUSTIED YOU TELL YOU MY PASS LIFE BUT YOU 
TOLD THE WORLD BUT ME.LIES BAD MOUTHING ME BUT I GAVE YOU TRUST.IM TRYING 
TO FIGURE IT OUT WAS IT LUST OR TRUST.ITS TIME FOR ME TO STAND UP TAKE MY 
TRUST FROM YOU SO I WOULDNT BE HURT BY YOU OR NO ONE ELSE. TO THOSE WHO 
GAVE YOUR TRUST TO A PERSON ITS TIME GET YOUR TRUST BACK. LETS STAND UP 
THE THING THAT TRYING TO HURT BRING YOU  DOWN ONLY WANT TO SEE YOU 
FROWN.WHEN YOU GET THAT TRUST MAKE THEM WORK HARD FOR IT. NEVER BE SO 
EASY LET EVERYTHING SHOT THRU THE BREEZE .DONT LET THEM GET THAT GO PASS. IF YOU 
LOVE ME WHY HURT ME.WHY YOU CANT LIFT ME UP BUT ITS MY FAULT FOR GIVEN YOU 
MY TRUST AND MY HEART.I WANT MY TRUST BACK YOU NEVER SEE MY TRUST AGAIN. 
SO LONG TO PAIN AND STRESS I GOT MY TRUST BACK AND MY HEART TO.


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Am I a Flower?

I'm hoping for Heaven's promises, 
as I cross my fingers 
and cry out to 
the One who made me. 
The One who'd never deny me, 
Even though I say I'm sorry 
over and over again 
for the way I behave. 
Will I always be a bad girl, 
pouting in the corner 
as I'm put in time out? 
Will I ever be completely pure? 
Let me shed some more skin, 
as I nail it to the wood. 
My flesh is my prison, 
it keeps me hungry and naked, 
in a dark place where there is no sunlight 
I need sunlight to grow, 
for I am just a flower, 
not a bad little girl, right? 
Are flowers imperfect? 
I don't know. I need to stomp on this cute little monkey, 
stomp on it 
until it's black and blue, 
before it grows bigger than me, 
and no longer cute, 
but massive, and ready 
to terrorize 
my sweet and blessed world. 
My mind 
can be crude, creepy, and crooked.
my worst enemy.
ready to destroy 
all that is righteous. 
I can't wash this dirt off my skin, 
oh how I long to be a child again. 
Hold me as if I am. 
I am a broken little doll, 
will you mend the pieces? 
I light a candle for you, 
for me, 
for our future. 
I love you so much. 
Let me escape in your arms, 
I need you here with me, 
I'm gonna bury my bones 
into our bed of bliss
forever.
Remind me I belong to you, 
that I'm your baby. 
Let's pray for the snow 
that we will never see. 
I can at least dream that we will. 
For the One that made me 
says He can make me white as snow, 
He can wash my sins away. 
Dear Friend, do not let me go. 
I'm lost in the wilderness, 
I run to the man I love....
I call out to my friends, 
I curse myself 
but only You have the way out 
of these dark woods 
with all its ferocious animals. 
Help me 
find the way out. 
Give me shelter.... 





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Young Gun

Verse 1

So young
One gun
How dumb
I'm stunned
He's done

My son
My son

Verse 2

His choice
My voice
Spirit hoist
Skin so moist
Such a boast

My son
My son

Verse 3

Died in vain
This drives me insane
Such hidias pain
Listenening to the rain
For what has it gained

My son
My son




Tribute To A Co-Worker
Who Lost The Battle
In A Gunfight With Police


So Long Hollywood { 55 yrs old }


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Rain Drops

Tear drops falling from the sky
Each one has a sad story to tell
Who will listen?
And who will wipe them off their windsheild?
Tear drops everywhere
Ending their lives on the streets
Why do people find their sounds so peaceful?
Each tear drop is a musical note
Playing its own little, sad song
For the people willing to listen


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I HAVE ASKED HIM TO RESTORE MY HOLINESS

Heart, seek joy
for my lost soul
that has forgotten to pray...
who can run from God's eyes
when they roam as eagles do?
Skies will seem very lwide... 
letting hope flee on breeze.


Stars, don't leave
this bright August sky
until serenity is mine
and peace dwells inside.
I have sought Him
on nights of desperation...
shedding many tears of regret
that suffocated my breath:
He listened to every prayer
and restore my holiness!


Why would fear conquer me,
if His presence is felt everywhere?
Why would emptiness
overcome me and allow misery
to distort the faith that flows
into my veins and not let me live?
I have asked Him
to restore my holiness
with the trembling voice
of a repentant man.



 

 


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I found the power to turn beauty to a pig.

As we sit at the edge of the bridge
Do you expect me to jump?
I found the power to turn beauty to a pig
and my methods are out of control.

I only pushed you away cause I love you.
I only hope to satisfy your smile.
In a world with endless possibility .
Is it possible to make this worthwhile?

Maybe I fight because I'm used to playing the victim.
Either way what kind of savage am I?
I'll put this switchblade through my  neck.
If I knew it could keep you from crying.

I Love feeling sad does that make you sick?
I find love in being sad haven't you noticed.
I love feeling sad does that make you feel sick?
Now step away.


I only pushed you away cause I love you.
I only hope to satisfy your smile.
In a world with endless possibility.
Is it possible to make this worthwhile?

The dawning of the last day was a massacre.
Is there nothing I can do to make this right?
I eight balled the neglected.
and I wonder why she hates my eyes.
No blood loss nothing left to lose.


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Forgiven

I've been gone so long this time,
so long I realize that no one's the same.

They've changed so fast that I,
have no view to remind me of their names.

All that was said and done,
leaving scars on everyone and not a weapon in hand,

I plead for all the good times when everything was just fine.
Now it's hard to understand.

Please just help me.
Please bring back the memories.

My heart is getting so numb for everyone.
I hate to let go.

Please just let me be forgiven.


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Find Our Own Way

Was once on a road of drugs and lust
Dry as a bone and covered in dust
Then one day I’m so happy to say
Jesus Christ came by my way
Took my hand and walked with me
Telling of how a man should be
The words he said I understood
In my 9’ x 5’ neighborhood
The walls grew with my mind
Searching hard so I could find
Sought to find the path of peace
So my own insanity could cease
Now I live up inside the flower
Beauty of love and all its power
Being all I could ever dream to be
Simple, kind, loving, honest and free
Offer your soul to the Lord above
If you want to glow with his love
And if you don’t that too is ok
Each of us must find our own way


-----------------------------------
During the course of the journey
that is known as our life we will
be given the true chance of choice
at least once. The closer we stay
to road the less chance we have
of getting lost, I know this for it
was once my life. We all at one
time or another make mistakes
and it is imperative that we use
those moments to learn and then
to teach, to me that is a Poets gift.


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One Day

We've been through
Roughening waves,
But we sat and never threw
Ourselves out of furious rave.

One day my heart
Will be glad that
We haven't yet fallen apart
And are not as sad as before.

Our time was like a boat...
No matter where we went,
Our time was well spent,
Even while we continuously float.

One day you'll be as happy
As you were in that rural place.
We'll together repair our broken vase.
You and I were inseparable friends...

So I wished it didn't end.
Our bond has been fragile
For quite some while.
I've been thinking of ridding it...

Though I know
I'll resolve it all somehow.
So I hope you will accept the flora
I shall give to you one day...


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Curse

This curse inside me
It can't go away
I was given this when I was born
I have been bearing it till today

This curse inside me
May be difficult to trust
My weirdness and the darkness
Only left questions to be asked

This curse inside me
It makes people suffer
It make others freaked and bleed
It is unlike any other

This curse inside me
Haunts everyone's mind
It tries to break them apart
To destroy of what Life had design

This curse inside me
It controlled me inside
Unable to manipulate it
My cursed secret I can't hide

This curse
Is the roots of all darkness
When I screamed in fear
Brings my world only in emptiness

What a curse to bear
Too much pain 
I am bleeding inside myself
With this unhealed Curse

This curse
It listened to my heart
My desire
It is dark

This is a curse
It is scary
It made me mad
Loose my mind
Loose my control
Only left me
To be upset

My curse
My destiny is this curse
A curse i have to bear
Till my desire
Is fulfilled

This is a curse
A scream and pain
In my head
It never stops
It made me cry

My tears longing for survival
My life is sacrifice with this path
I have to take
This task I have to take

Cry for controlled
I asked God!
Can't take it!
Can't bear it!
Others can suffer too because
Of this curse
Of this undesirable curse!
I need mercy!
i need time!
I can't hide anymore!
It cause betrayal!
It caused nothing else but Pain
Unwanted pain!
My heart wants normality!
But..

Hear my cry
I love this curse
A way to suvive
Accepted by my birth



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Come Meet Mary

Eyes turned sharply,
as she walked inside,
looking so timid,
she was about to cry.
Short leather skirt,
stacked heels of red,
one lady got up,
and this is what she said.
Welcome my child,
we've been waiting for you,
follow me,
we'll sit on the front pew.
Where are you from,
sure hope you like this town,
you could have heard a pin drop, 
no one was making a sound.
Then the minister,
walked down the aisle,
put his hand on the shoulder,
of this poor lost child.
He turned to the people,
that he saw every week,
as he wiped a tear,
from his rosy red cheek.
Come meet Mary,
she comes from downtown,
I met her at a shelter,
still no one made a sound.
He gave  Mary a robe,
and handed her a mike,
and told them get ready,
this, you're going to like.
The voice of an Angel,
no music at all,
a glow all around her,
that everyone saw.
She found a new family,
actually, a new way of life,
and every Sunday,
she sings to her Savior , and smiles.



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The Transgressor

Clouds of an Occult day Words of a Darkmaster Chill My Mind Freeze my Eyes Hidden Forever I'll be; Shadow walk You will Never see me It's time to anew I'll Lose you I cannot forget The Blood I cannot-- Forgive you Locked in my cell I'm never far I'll Never Bleed For you Again Loosing Vitality Mistakes cannot be Fixed Forever you and I will Drown Sacred Words Of you Do not Render Complete Obsolete Cords of Vile you wrap around the flowers how east it must be I wasn't Born this Way you Made me this Way Locked in my cell I'm never far I'll Never Bleed For you Again Loosing Vitality Mistakes cannot be Fixed Forever you and I will Drown Sacred Words Of you Do not Render Complete Obsolete Sacred Words Of you Do not Render Complete Obsolete Sacred Words Of you Do not Render Complete Obsolete


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Love I have for you my Mother - Inlaw

You have been a Mother
I have never had
The Mother who cares
The Mother who shares

I know at times we
Don't see eye to eye
But to live by your side
I walk with pride

You showed me love
Even from above
I can't speak the words
So I should go unheard

But to write for you
That's what I will do
To prove the love
I have for you

I am deeply sorry
If I have hurt you
I hope and pray
We don't stay this way

So we can be a family
The one I long for 
The one I'm scared of 
The one from above

Please understand
Where you stand
As a Mother so grand
I'm sorry for the past

You are one who cares
How can I say the words
To cover the hurt?


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FADING LIGHT

                                           

Fading light off in the distance.  Shine your light down on my soul,
 help me to see in life, what it is I have been missing
free me from this dark depressing hole.
I remember a time  when we were close and my soul was at peace,
 Now,  I feel like I am far away from your reach.  
I lost everything I owned,  Including  what I meant to me...
The light that once shined in,  suddenly went dim! 
I got caught up in a fog,  forgot who I am and where I was  supposed to be              
I ignored temptation,  walked away from Satan, but some how he still got in,
Plagued by nightmares & voices,  depression and poor choices, 
I was lured to a dark place disguised as my home.
I’m looking for a place called heaven, trying to get in on my own,
I’m asking your forgiveness and to let your light be shown...

David Bear
May 2006


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Gone, Just Like Yesterday

Today I saw her face, in the bathhroom mirror
She had the sadest face, with a lonely tear
I reached to touch her, but she faded away
Her image gone, just like yesterday
I moved to my dresser, not thinking clear
When her face appeared, in the dresser mirror
A tear rolled off my cheek, as I searched for something to say
As again she was gone, just like yesterday

I thought I was dreaming, so I just got dressed
Then I went to the kitchen, for my morning breakfast
Poured some cereal, for I had to leave by ten
When there in the milk, I saw her face again
I tried to speak, with a lump in my throat
But nothing came out, so I just grabbed my coat
I Picked up the bowl, set in the drain
When again she was gone, just like yesterday

I walked to my car, tears running down my face
Wondering why, she keeps haunting me this way
When there she was, in the rear view mirror
I yelled out I love you, and miss you my dear
And that I was sorry, that I drank that night
Just wish you'd forgive me, for the accident
That's when she whisperd I love you, and said it's ok
Then she was gone,  just like yesterday



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My Prayer

(My first poem)

Lying in bed last night, trying to pray. 
But the words won’t come, God seems so far away. 
So the next morning, to my knees I fall. 
Face to the floor, “Oh God!” I call. 

The weight of my sin and guilt are too much to bear. 
I cry out to God, “Are You there, do You even care?” 
He says, “Yes, my child, and those burdens are not yours to bear. 
I have been here all along, waiting for you to see, 
That all You had to do was give everything to me.” 

“But I don’t know how to let go!”, I cried. 
He replied, “But my sweet child, this is why I died. 
To take all of the sin, shame and guilt away. 
You need only seek me and pray.” 

“Then help me Lord, I don’t know what to do”, I plea. 
He says, “Give everything you are to me. 
Stop worrying about everyone around you, and please Me. 
If you do this, you will have life more abundantly. 
I gave My life for You, so that you could have a joyous life, 
And not live everyday in constant strife.” 

So with complete abandon, Lord, I give myself to You, 
My habits, my addictions, and my rebellion too. 
My worries, my guilt, my shame, please remove. 
Pull me out of this pit and let me move, 
Closer to You and Your cleansing blood. 
Let it wash over me like a crimson flood. 

As I let go of all of the guilt and sin, 
Let Your Holy Spirit dwell within. 
Wash me clean from head to toe. 
And every day, let me know, 
That I am never alone, You are always there. 

Waiting each day, for me to share, 
This life You have given me with everyone I meet. 
Your love, mercy and unfailing love will never cease. 
Thank you for Your grace that covers me, 
And let me serve You eternally. 

Amen 


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What She Deals With

How I wish I could be like you.
You deal with my pain and your own without a care in the world.
Always with a smile on your face, you bring radiance to my day.
No matter what you say, I'll always love you.
Your secret's safe with me but lets start this day all over again.


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'' just to find you "

Meet me by the river
you remember the place
walking on the levy, there's a trail to that pecular space
I'll wait till sunrise 
if I have to or walk in darkness
just to find you
yeah, searching among the crowd
just to find you


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Flesh And Nails

Through tortured pain you showed your love
With outstretched arms from above
You granted forgiveness through your word
For every sinner your cry was heard

Three nails held you on the cross for me
Where a sinners life was supposed to be
Your blood did run through heavens tears
As you begged forgiveness to save me here

Those were my nails that saved my soul
Those were my thorns that made me whole
Those were my tears in your eyes
That was my cross where they heard your cries
You took the place that was meant for me
Through flesh and nails you set me free

Through your words my heart has grown
As I wait for you to lead me home
I give you my love for all you gave
And give you my soul for the life you saved

Those were my nails that saved my soul
Those were my thorns that made me whole
Those were my tears in your eyes
That was my cross where they heard your cries
You took the place that was meant for me
Through flesh and nails you set me free


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To Father: A Revision

Some days
I can’t get up in the morning
can’t force my eyes to open
or persuade my muscles to work.
Some days
I can’t get up in the morning
until you sit on the side
of my stark, white-comforter-covered bed
and jokingly ask me if I’m up.
Some days
I can’t get up in the morning
until my one finger sticks up
and I admit that, yes,
I am, in fact, up.
Some days
I can’t even get up in the morning
until you physically
haul my butt out of bed
landing with a thump and a laugh
on the floor.

You 
have
such a light
to you.
And that light has made
that rough and perilous journey
from my
childhood idealistic fantasies
to my
sometimes harsh, teen-years-enhances “realities”
in one
shining 
piece.
And I have admiration for
your tenacity
I have admiration for
you perseverance
I have admiration for
your never 
letting me 
go.
For through these past for years
I have proven to be
something more
than anyone ever thought
I was going
to be.
And by my side you have stuck
through it all
an admirable quality
to say the least
and to say the most
one that makes me love you
even more
than oh-so-very-much.

Some days
I can’t get up in the morning
without having the sound
of your voice
to give me an incentive
to start the day.
Because
those Some days
are the days
when you are one of the
very few
only things
that I know will be there for me
that I know I can look forward to
no matter what.

And,
simply put:
I love you
no matter what.


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After The Rain

(Verse-1)
Last night I slept in the car
You said we weren't sleeping together
That this time I pushed you to far
And that we might not last forever

(Verse-2)
Honey, I know you still hold my love
Even though I put you through pain
'Cause honey when push comes to shove
Everything clears, after the rain

(Chorus)
After the rain
I promise, you won't feel blue
After the rain
I promise, I'll always be true
Honey, Let's start over new 
after the rain

(Verse-3)
You say you hate me when I get this way
Well honey I know I can get out of hand
But I promise it all ends today
'Cause Being with you is my only plan

(Verse-4)
If you'd just give me one more chance
I promise that i'm gonna change
'Cause honey when push comes to shove
Everything clears, after the rain

(Chorus)
After the rain
I promise, you won't feel blue
After the rain
I promise, I'll always be true
Honey, let's start over new
After the rain


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Guidance and Salvation

.



I lived my life the best I could.

Yet she still hates me and she should.

But if I could be with her, I would.

I need guidance, to know if my future is good.

Tell me, should I continue to write?

What is the purpose of my fight?

Help me make sense.

This one is for the audience.

Say I didn't waste my life.

Say we didn't have broken hearts.

Say we lived happy lives.

Say I know what  to do with my life.

I lived my life because I care.

Yet she still makes my life a nightmare.

But if I had the chance to leave her, I'd just sit and stare.

I need salvation, the chance to breathe in air.

Tell me, should I continue to write?

What is the purpose of my fight?

Give me guidance.

Help me make sense.

This one is for the audience.

Say I lived carelessly.

Say I could peacefully dream.

Say I didn't feel like I'm dead.

Say I didn't kick Jesus out of my soul.

Tell me, should I continue to write?

What is the purpose of my fight?

Give me guidance.

Help me make sense.

This one is for the audience.

Say we loved our children.

Say we loved each other.

Say things could have been different.

Say there is still hope.

Say our lives were'nt such a mess.

Say we can peacfully rest.


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Life As You Take It

Life comes as the way you take it
all the promises you make with it
all the love that is gone
all that you give with it
all the stupid things that you have done
it is never about how things could have been
everything happens for a reason
it is all about moving on
all of the chances that you will take with it
all of the hearts that you will break with it
karma will take you with it
is all about what you make of it
you will make it through


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Blood - Brothers

I Hear Drum-Beats Across The Land… Can You Hear It?
All Our Homes Are Handed Down by The Highest Spirit
Long-Ago, The Native Peoples of The Land
Knew… The Earth and Us – Go Hand in Hand

I Hear Hoof-Beats Across The Land… Can You Hear It?
Its Not The Buffalo or Antelope – Who Grew To Fear It
Its Battles of Braves and Soldiers – Both Grim Reapers
Can’t Forget… We ‘Are’ Our Brother’s Keeper…

         Blood – Brothers
… We Are Blood-Bound To Love
         Blood – Brothers
We Are Blood – Brothers Of
All Sons and Daughters of Mankind
The Great Spirit Binds…
      … Blood – Brothers

I Heard Hate – Beat Down The Land… Did You Hear It?
Pollution and Persecution… Its Time To Cure It
End Our Journey On The Trail of Tears
With Broken Arrows and Rivers – Running Clear

I Hear Heartbeats Across The Land… Can You Hear It?
If You Turn and Face The Wind… You Are Near It
It Pounds Deeper Than The Skin, Or A Flood
It Echoes To All …  Its In Our Blood !

        Blood – Brothers
… We Are Blood – Bound To Love
        Blood – Brothers
We Are Blood – Brothers Of
All Sons and Daughters Of Mankind
The Great Spirit Binds…
      … Blood – Brothers

              * * * * *
The Eagle Flies On The Breath Of Life
         And So Do You
May The Blue Sky And Your Clear Eye
         See Many More Moons

Keepers Of The Earth… Guard This Turf
        And Each Other
For Every Human Birth… Has Worth
         As A Blood – Brother

For Those Killed and Blood Spilled
         The Ground Cries
Soaks The Dust… And Curses Us
         When A Brother Dies…

          Blood – Brother …


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Your Actions

Your actions you make all have consequences
But see you act before you think and don't use any of your senses.
You try to act cool as if everything is all right,
But when you go into your room you cry all night.

You try to make things back right even though it's gonna be hard,
But like they said you should of thought from the start.
Now you really feel bad because you know you was wrong,
But it seems like that friend you could of had is really gone.

You know no one is perfect everybody has sin 
But you can't deal with the fact that it's happening again.
You're going back the way you just came from 
You've been trying to hide but you never can run.

Somehow it comes back hunting you day after day,
And for some reason no matter where you go trouble is always in the way.
So all you know now is to think before you act,
Because depending on what you do determines what comes back.


Details | I do not know? | |

Sometime i Judge YOU

"Sometime i Judge YOU" 

what would i do 
if i knew the real you 

would i spit 
on  dirty hidden you 


could i forgive 
all your ugly big sins 

is it even my place 
to through it all in your face

you, the hole
you. the thief 
you, the one wHO put your hands on me 

so what, what 
you think you got the best of me 
SO IT SEAMS

so what ,what 
must i wait 

is this the plan 
to see you  BURN 
in HELL

i don't want to wail~ 



aka:lyricvixen


Details | Free verse | |

Don't tell me

It's not like I didn't try, 
It's not that I don't care,
But when I look your way,
It's hard not to stare,

The only job you have,
Is filling up my heart,
And when you quit on me,
My body can't start,

You tried to warn me,
But I didn't listen,
I should of known,
That something was missing,

In my head it worked,
But it didn't translate,
Just don't tell me,
That this was fate.



Details | Rhyme | |

How Beautiful Is Our God

How beautiful is our God... 
And I shall praise him greatly!
His presence has blessed me 
and filled my life completely,

In Mt. Zion, he's to be praised... 
in the beauty of his holiness.
He's more than worthy of praise,
 in his glory and righteousness.

The joy of the earth...  
and beautiful is the situation...
To all of mankind... He's extended 
mercy and salvation.

He is known in high places as a
 God of refuge and shelter.
I will shout of his praise...
 there's no reason to whisper.
 
He is our God, and forever 
and ever, he shall reign.
He's is worthy of all praise... 
that is due to his name!

He shall lead and guide me
 from birth until death.
And his praise shall continually 
be on my breath.

Thanks be to God for 
everything he has done!
And  thanks to him 
for sending Jesus... HIS son!

He gives everlasting water 
that never shall run dry.
It is no secret how much
 he loves you and I!

By Jim Pemberton
Read Psalm 48: 1-4



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And When You Get to Heaven, Don't Wait Up

Just one more day to be saint
One more high and a new complaint
One more day to know my life is over

One more day to relive to this moment
Just one more hour while my mind is absent
One more day to redefine sober

She sings to me it’s my decision
Altar to my vision
Breathe and sigh over you
Breathe and say

From dust to blood
No one wants to live forever
From blood to dust
Eternity is now or never

Just a day to refine my nervous
Wondering how they’ll forgive my lovers
One more day to die and then it’s over

Another year and I’ll be a servant
Singing hymns and hating others
Woke up and I won’t lie sober

She’s seen through my kind 
And I know a later time 
We could see another you
Still I sing

From dust to blood
No one wants to live forever
From blood to dust
Eternity is now or never

Just today I began to suffer
Wondering why I ever bothered
Sleeping with the guilt, I know it’s over

One more year and I’d be a saint
Procrastinated son to pain
Hang around till the hangover is sober

He saw through me and mine 
I’ve never known a better time
That’s that to you and you 
Leave the soul 

From dust to blood
No one wants to live forever
From blood to dust
Eternity is now or never


Details | Ballad | |

A Hard Mix Between Heaven and Hell

There is a place where few have been
No beginning and no end
A place where I am prepared to go
They say you reap what you sow
I have done my share of very bad things
I flew home to piss on my ex-wife\'s grave
Drinking, smoking, lots of lust and sin has helped me come out of my shell
I am experiencing a hard mix between Heaven and Hell
Practicing Witch Craft one step away from a human sacrifice
I could feel the blood in my veins turn to ice
My life has been a twist and turn affair, never a straight line
If I were to ask you are you dark or do you shine
Nobody is holier than thou, so stop the fake front
Come clean with the bad things you have done
Do a gut check and you will be able to tell
How potent  is your shot will be of Heaven and Hell
There is chess board in everyone\'s life and we are all pawns
Just which side is your bread buttered on
Do gooders, most are sinners behind closed doors
Money is the root of all evil, yet churches ask people to give more
A percentage of your income to make the preachers rich
They have no interest in you, yet you are one dollar away from sleeping in a ditch
Sinners openly display their intentions in life
Wife cheats on husband because husband cheats on wife
Go ahead and pray for forgiveness for all your daily sins, another trip to the well
Here, the bar is open, here's your hard mix of Heaven and Hell
Catholic Priests molesting alter boys, they will definitely face the heat
Is there forgiveness for them to reach their Heavenly retreat
Where do you fit in with the grand master scheme of things, no one can tell
Everyone will be able to place their order for their shot of Heaven and Hell


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Challenging the Mirror

Deepening my answers
Another challenger awakes
To reveal to me my shadows
To then witness my mistakes

Always I had listened
In close proximity
To self-inflicted violence
To the end of harmony

Casting shadows in the sunlight
I was trapped within the walls
Where a child then controlled me
Until the buildings grew too tall

My darkness took this moment
Of self-deceiving fear
To climb above my reason
And to whisper in my ear

“All shadows are connected”
He showed me this is true
“And whatever you’ve inflicted
Is the dead reflection of your youth”

I woke up then to realise
Several centuries had passed
And all within five years
The walls had gone at last

Deepening this vision
The challenger draws breath
Now walking through the mirror
My shadow exerts the pain that’s left


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If It Hadn't Been For Jesus

VI.	On a cross the pain was so great.  I didn’t feel the nails, but I believe it’s true.  If 
it hadn’t been for Jesus, oh where would I be?  My soul would be lost if He hadn’t died  for 
me.

CH.	If it hadn’t been for Jesus, oh, where would I be?  On Calvary, is where He died 
just for me.  I don’t know why but He took my place, If it hadn’t been for Jesus and God’s 
amazing grace.

VII.	Amazing grace, how sweet the sound!  That saved a wretch like me!  I once was 
lost but now I’m found.  If it hadn’t been for Jesus, who set me free.


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Recalling Existence

Reason regrets residual rights
After all things are undone
Stuck in a hole of ancient plight
Even beneath the sleepless sun

What is a war when we have won
Just to recall displaced dead truths?
What is the cost when chaos comes
When such empty loss is all it proves?

Killing what comes while children cry
Commanding the shadows of our lie
Dividing the vision that we’re one
The fragments misplaced; the mirror’s gone

Reason recalls revealing rays
The light was there beyond the night
All that we need is within the day
The truth in our cycle granting sight

Endless examining of the end
The powerful spiral of all pain
Victims of self this chaos rends
Collecting the fragments that remain

Nothing is dead while I still breathe
Breathing alone I’m on my knees
Before the love in all I see
Behind the pain that will deceive

Nothing is lost, I’m not alone
Everything gone has come and shown
That every regret has now atoned
For the universe is and I have grown


Details | Lyric | |

Broken

Dear God, I am broken inside,
As far from Your face, I hide.
The weight of my shame and sin,
Devastate me – without and within.

I repent and turn back to You,
You reconcile and make me new.
But I am only human and full of sin,
And I fall back again and again.

O God, I am broken again,
And I know I must make amends, 
To the ones I have hurt and been unjust,
But they are full of rejection and mistrust.

I hold on to who You are,
Your love reaches near or far.
I make amends and leave the rest to You,
Your love and grace will see me through.

God, I am broken, as life takes its toll.
The weight of this world overwhelms my soul.
There are days I feel I can’t go on,
And maybe I wish that I could be gone.

Then You send me reminders of who You are,
Through Your Word and friends, near and far.
You tell me that one day, I will see you in heaven,
And never again, will I be broken.


Details | Rhyme | |

Inauguration

You greeted death at the door
The insurance will not cover this
The flowers, petals, a raging storm
Faint at distance

Splinters from the steel in which you lay
Unchangeable lies weave a tattered song
Die here a while, wish I could stay
Too long

A day of grieving in our grasp
As long as we have time to waste
Indifferent faces have stared their last
Face

Man in a box is a martyr
Man in your home is a dog
Pulling strings till you stagger
Open your eyes and unravel 
At the dawn

Ashes to ashes, heart to heart
A hymn for posterity
Empathetic strangers are a work of art
In my apathy

Person you're trying to call isn't here
You have knocked me off the receiver
Tears recognized failing faith won't appear
I'm a believer

10,000 days in isolation
Breathe in the spores to stay survive
Do not take the time to necessitate
Never alive 

Man in a box is a martyr
Man in your home is a dog
Pulling strings till you stagger
Open your eyes and unravel 
At the wronged


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I Began Weeping August 27, 1968

I wept my  way to salvation
Having faith, but few words to say.
I envisioned Heaven in great jubilation
O'er one lost lamb which had been astray.

from Christ, restoration from cancer
And sudden relief from a tormented soul.
As last resort, I trusted Christ for my answer
He changed my life to chaste and whole.

This transformation I didn't understand
Nor fathomed I then, what to expect. 
But in accepting Jesus' outstretched hand
I, henceforth, became one of His elect.

Consequently, since, a weeper I've been
In an instant my hopeless heart changed.
From an existing heart hardened by sin
I found alternatively, a heart rearranged.

Lord if allowed to speak like others do
Without weeping and feeling shame.
I'd tell any who listen what I owe you
And how my life has never been the same. 



I'm reminded this  very moment, that Jesus cares,
and that i needn't be concerned o'er what others see.
That pride causes feelings of shame, over my tears,
and tears are a language that God understands, reserved for me.
























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Freely Forgive - Song

As the Lord has forgiven you,
So must you also forgive.
For without forgiveness,
There’s no life left to live.
Enternity’s lost;
No hope of great joy.
Forgiveness is the key;
God’s blessings to enjoy.

Chorus 
Freely forgive
‘cause you are forgiven.
It’s another gift—
From your Father in heaven.
For this gift you must ask;
Don’t ever delay.
Freely forgive—
For there’s no other way.

When you are tempted,
To repay evil, not good;
To freely forgive—
You’ve not understood.
Lack of forgiveness
Leads to a dead-end.
For the gift of forgiveness,
On your Father depend.

Forgiveness is a blessing
Of pardon and grace.
From the character of God;
His love to embrace.
He will enable—
Forgiveness to find.
When the pain and hurt
Has been so unkind.

Maureen LeFanue (Music score written for this song)
Featured in my book No. 3, "Poetry To Touch the Heart & Soul"
Copyright 2011 Maureen LeFanue


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Why Not Peace

 Why can’t this world just find the  peace and learn to live as one
Why do we have to hurt and hurt for things that only evils done
Look in to the eyes of a child and see what they can see
Why can’t we live in a world where all people are set free
The beauty of a summers day with the smell of flowers near
But we live in a world of hate that’s full of lies and fear
Look at a bird so high in flight with the wind beneath
It’s wings, there’s got to be a way for us to embrace all
Earthly things. we were not put in this world to kill each other off
I wonder how much blood will shed before this fighting stops
Humans that is what we are black yellow red or white
 so what is the Reason for wars that radge all through the day and night
We all were kids not long ago so look into your heart
 would you  Want a child of yours to die in a world all torn apart.	
I believe in a world of  silence , where we all can live in peace and one
Day when the killings done this will all be just a dream.
So look up to the heavens as you lay down your head tonight
And pray for a world that was meant to be of laughter , love and light.


Details | Lyric | |

It's Easter

Woke up this morning, in my home all alone
Set up your picture, in the hall by the phone
I glanced at the kids faces, hanging there on the wall
Dropped to my knees and prayed, there in the hall

I looked out in the yard, through the kitchen window
Saw white and yellow tulips, blooming beside our broken home
And there on the table, set the empty Easter baskets
Oh! Now my heart is filled, with all of my regrets

Today the sun is shining down, on the yard so bright 
The grass is all new, looking so fresh and green
Oh! darling It's Easter, It's Easter
Last night you packed and left, after our terrible fight
Oh! but darling, you have to know 
That those words, I didn't mean
Darling It's Easter, It's Easter

Now I'm standing here knee deep, in this bed of  flowers
As my eyes start to drop tears, down like April showers
Oh! darling I can't bare, being alone on this Easter day
My God  please open your eyes, and turn around today

I know now, that I've been taking you for granted
But if you come back, I promise I'll be the man you wanted 
For this is to be, one of the happiest days of the year
But darling you left because of me, and now I shed these tears

Today the sun is shinig down, on the yard so bright 
The grass is all new, looking so fresh and green
Oh! darling It's Easter, It's Easter
Last night you packed and left, after our terrible fight
Oh! But darling, you have to know 
That those words, I didn't mean
Darling It's Easter, It's Easter


Details | Ballad | |

Aquarian Dream II- Leaving Kali Yuga

A glimpse in your gilded eyes Tells me all inside your lieing mind How can you Stand without a spine How can you speak without a will Failed to announce the pain Will they realize the illusion Is it all to late? The lies that are so common Have put up a delusion Infront Of the people's mind So deep away from the dark Will we come when father is coming For us, is it all to late? Soft little messenger I dare you to spread the word About our dying world All come far and near Listen to what we have been waiting to hear The walls have broken down The gates have been breached The Keep stormed in Praise and sing They have killed our king Our conformity is on it's last day All Black Skies have been tainted with grey Our flags are now just tinder The palace has all been burned to cinders Our Empire has fell Praise and sing They have killed our king I see the light of a dawning Age Let a new era begin An Aquarian dream a day where we are all free Inside our minds; our hidden refuge But there's no need to hide perfection Concordia shall be our queen Justice, independence, liberty are our only virtues free to be whoever our heart let's us be Go to the tower, strike the bell Soft little messenger And tell of Victory All come far and near Listen to what we have been waiting to hear The walls have broken down The gates have been breached The Keep stormed in Praise and sing They have killed our king Our conformity is on it's last day All Black Skies have been tainted with grey Our flags are now just tinder The palace has all been burned to cinders Our Empire has fell Praise and sing They have killed our king All come far and near Listen to what we have been waiting to hear The walls have broken down The gates have been breached The Keep stormed in Praise and sing They have killed our king Our conformity is on it's last day All Black Skies have been tainetd with grey Our flags are now just tinder The palace has all been burned to cinders Our Empire has fell Praise and sing They have killed our king


Details | Lyric | |

Are You There

 Are you there? It's been a while.
 My world seem to be diminishing, HELP !
My head is in a fog and all I can do is reach for you.
 Somehow I can not come back to reality, am I refusing to?
 I think I saw you,  Did you help me out of bed this morning,
 or was that just my routine?

I want to hide. I want to not be seen , heard , or found.
 Why do I feel so much dispare, why is my heart aching?
I have no reason, not that I know,
Where are you, have you given up on me ?
 I am broken and only you can mend me.
My pride has taken hold of me, Not only have I lost sight of you I have lost myself.

 Come back...... Come back now........................
I need you , You were all the hope I ever had........


There you are , Now here I am. Take me , wash me ,mold me , heal me , Love 
me,
 Thank you for never forsaking me.
 


Details | Rhyme | |

Oh What A Fool Am I

Oh what a fool am I
when I alway's thought you'd
be right by my side

Oh what a fool am I
to have looked into
those baby blue eyes

Oh what a fool am I
to think that there was or 
could be any other guy

Oh what a fool am I
in believing you could stop
the hurt and pain caused deep down inside

Oh what a fool am I
to stand here and think that one day
I would walk down the isle as your bride

Oh what a fool am I
that I won't one day
tell you one last goodbye

Oh what a fool am I
to stand here and just
look and watch the big blue sky

Oh what a fool am I
for wiping these tears
running down my eyes

Oh what a fool am I
blowing you one last kiss
and letting out a big sigh

Oh what a fool am I
For chosing to be
Oh what a fool am I



Little Diddly LOL








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My Dearest Friend

Down by the pond use to be my favorite walk.
It was where me and the Lord would always have our talk.
On days when I thought the day would never end, I 
would go for a walk with my dearest friend.

Alway's a comfort, my troubles would fade away.
He would turn my darkest into the brightest day.
But then somehow those days came to a sudden end
and it feels like I've lost my best friend.

I know he's still waiting on my return and if I know him
his arms are open with concern. I don't know how I
let myself drift astray, away from my dearest friend who
has been there every day.  I feel so low for putting him
aside when his life he gave for me, yes, the day He died.

I know he forgives me because he loves me so
much and with that in mind I'm getting back in touch.
In touch with my friend who with him there is no end.
An everlasting love is He, and so much more!
He's the one true friend who's to precious to ignore.


Details | Ballad | |

Rising from the Ashes.

I'm sitting here in this room
these four walls are closing in.
All i do is sit and think
about the things that might have been.
What could I've done,
what should I've done
to change the ending to this story?
what could i do,
what i should do
so this pain does not destroy?
i fall. 
I pray.
I beg forgiveness.
I stand. 
I rise. 
I feel God's presence.
I'm cleansed.
I'm free.
I am a new creation.
All these feelings rising inside, 
love, trust, happiness, pure elation.
The old me burns away,
the new me rises out.
Each and every step ordained by God Himself without a doubt.
He made me in His image of this I'm sure,
and I make a declaration today,
with a heart that's true and pure.
To do God's will and praise His name in everything I do,
and because of His love I will never be the same,
nor would I want to.
To continue on the path that i was following would be foolish and unwise,
so here i go one foot in front of the other,
and from these ashes I will rise.


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Dad's Cold Heart

You had to make this
heart of mine angry
before you die.

You left me bitter
this tired, cold heart
of mine.

I once loved you
but you turned me away.
The words you send leave
me discouraged.
At one time, I felt you
was my only friend.

How can you turn a
daughter away when
she loves you so much
even when it rains
everything is beautiful
because of your soul.

I am tired and weak.
I suffer every night.
Can I not be perfect?
You try to bring me
down and this heart
is turning black.
One day when you are
put to rest in the grave
will I shed a tear?
Of course I will and
the sun will still shine
because I always loved
you.


Details | Lyric | |

a bothers love

As I sat by my window crying,
With a broken heart torn in two caused by people lieing,
Thats when My Big Brother Dru,
Said Hey let me give some advice to you...

Young girl don't cry...
Let me wipe those tear out of your eyes...

Ooo....Ooo.....Ooo...

Then spread your wings and fly....
Soar like and eagel in the sky,
Darling sister...don't cry...don't cry.......

Younge girl don't hide...
Within yourself...
Dwelling on what everyone else has to say,
Belive me your Candle will shine....
Shine brightly when all else fades away....

So Jane, Young girl, My friend,
I understand that this world we live in can be hard,
Putting on expextations,
Limiting our Prasing to the Lord,
And so much more....

Young girl I understand
But trust me take a chance...
I'm reaching out my hand....
Beliving some day you will stand tall
As your candle shines lights the way...
Don't be afraid.....

Young girl when people try to bring you down,
Reach within yourself when no one else is around
To lend you a hand...
But when they try to break you in two,
Just remeber to warn them your brother is bigdru....
And thats when I hope you realize thats when
Jesus Carried me and you.....

Yes it's when Jesus carried me and you so 
 young girl don't cry.....
Don't cry.....


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october's pretence

October’s Pretence. 
Rain, nature is greening, but it’s a false spring; December will 
pale the land into submission. Do not write poetry till February, 
when almond trees blossom and strew petals about in protest
 thinking winter takes the season of its sinister drama too far.
Last winter snow fell, a wonder land; people said they had not 
seen snow for forty seven years. The stream is xanthous I think 
of China’s main river where dolphins, not seen for years, swim 
in cloudy water.  What can’t be seen cannot be caught by man.
Dawn, on the track a boar, sniffed the air and grunted; a hairy, 
pig in need of a pair of glasses. I moved and it disappeared into
 the brushwood.  On nature walks I used to take a camera, but
wild animals hate having their photo taken and avoided my 
intrusive lens I was left with taking photos of trees, weeds and 
evergreen bushes. My lazy dreaminess has paid off I have had 
a good life no one ever expected anything glorious of me, and 
left me in peace. If you look for me I will be on a bus trying to 
find the fabulous castle; I once saw when I could see the future.       


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A Heart Betrayed

I set my heart within trusted hand.
Go forth to set my mark upon the land.
Trusted one protect this tender object with great care.
How, without this, can one any longer fare.
Now neglecting your precious cargo to hold another, allowing the heart to fall 
     and be destroyed.
Crippled by selfish act, weakened mind and body now by only spirit,
     are buoyed.
Downward spiral deep into darkness, great despair, now do I pray for an end      
     to this cycle, no more for light.
Risen from these depths by unseen helping hand, new appreciation gained,         
     strengthened, ahead now an upward fight.
Renewed life, family depending upon me, I am driven.
Afflictions by thy hand, all are forgiven.


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Scarred Hearts

I sit and I think of you, eyes welling with tears
As I flood with thoughts of you I feel remorse

You don't understand, never will
It’s not your scars I see, but your heart,
Your radiant soul and that eternal glow of your flesh

I cry not over you but for you, for the loss
You lost your belief in yourself so long ago

You believe that you are a scarred entity 
This isn't true, you are beauty incarnate
It’s not your flesh but your mind and heart

I see those wounds of yours, though
They're always present in your mind

You can’t understand my gaze
My belief in your beauty and grace
You never will allow me to love you

I watch, I wait and I am glad I see your happiness
I know I have now lost my chance to be the one,
The one that holds your heart in his hands, 
Protected from all pain and anguish

But I take heart, you are in my life once more
In my words and in my thoughts... Happy once again.
I hope and I pray never to lose you again
To have lost you from my life would be a crime

I hope you never read this, 
or if you do that you cannot believe it’s you I write about
I believe this would hurt you more to read

One day, maybe you will let me hold you again…


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To See You, to Hear You

Do you think I could have a light
I know it's been a long time
Do you see in me what you saw before
or have my eyes become those of a stranger
I'm not here to complicate things
I didn't come to see those tears in your eyes
To see your face
To hear your voice
To know that you still think of me is enough
You look good
Your eyes look less haunted than before
even after all of these years
I can't breathe standing this close to you
even now if you kiss me I will fall to my knees
I see in you all of the things I loved before
I'm not here to complicate things 
I didn't come here for you to see these tears in my eyes
To touch your face
To hear your voice
To feel that you still think of me is enough
We both have lives now
we both have people we love
my man is good and he loves me completely
you have a woman that loves you and had given you her all
we can't hurt them as we did before
So we will share a few cigarettes
and talk about the weather
leaving everything else unsaid
but i will go away happy
just to see your face
to hear your voice
to know that you still think of me is enough


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Samson

My man grows a black afro like Samson, I understand him.
I grow dark braids like Rapunzel,
It’s my symbol of strength in this jungle,
On paper I dream...
Grew up a fiend for the words making my pen bleed,
Drip on paper like water to a seed, I need room to breathe.
Everyday I escape, shadow box my demons but ya'll can’t see um, 
Spar with imaginary reality, It bothers me.
I see, 
Ten times ten men and I’m trying to get in?
Coming around the mountain from the fountain of truth,
I speak knowledge for the youth with an old souls roots.
I break loose…I am the one in the chamber on Russian Roulette,
I bring the most unexpected danger, could be life, could be death.
You attract your destruction, so my wisdom is not a threat.
Zig Zag Zig,
It’s a higher intelligence, an’t traveled the world but I’ve seen all its elements.
Been everywhere through my third eye, The Mind.
Don’t look for God in the sky, but inside.


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Castle Walls

Castle Walls

Who would harbor the devils
if I could put them out of him
and what makes any of us think
that we are better than them
live another day
another day my friend
and know that those who truly believe
repent and turn away from sin
for if we want to build God's kingdom on earth
we must realize his Kingdom within
so that on the day of resurrection
we will be allowed to live as gods again
for the Lord will choose and the chosen
are his wife, his church, and his children
these will heal the sick and raise the dead
according to the will of the Father
and who knows what else was said
live your life as a book of life
lest your name be found in the book of the dead


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THE RESURRECTION OF CHRIST FROM THE DEAD

Easter has a profound significance...
the resurrection of Christ from the dead,
and after Lent, there's no abstinence or penance;
sacrificed, as prophesied was the Pascal Lamb!
Lord, take all my sins away...
with true meekness I pray! 


Easter begins at sunrise
and the faithful sing with triumphant voices,
to glorify the unblemished
Lamb of God so hallowed and reigning!
Lord, take all my sins away...
with true meekness I pray! 


Christ, the worthy Lamb, was slain
and now He has risen from Hell,
paying with His shed blood our iniquities in full...
and whoever follows Him will be greatly rewarded! 
Lord, take all my sins away...
with true meekness I pray!


There stands, on His Heavenly throne, 
the Word revealed to us on the day of resurrection...
not scourged and crucified on the hill of Calvary,
but raised and glorified by the Father of eternity!
With true meekness I pray,...
Lord, take all my sins away!


He died for our sake, and love was His gift,
and as divine as He was, He even endured thirst;
let's dwell in His holy temple that man's malevolence
can't ever tear down or menace with vindictiveness!
Lord, take all my sins away...
with true meekness I pray!


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7 days to love you

time stands still when i'm with you
i share with you my dreams and all my love
count my blessings and thank the lord above
will you always be there with soft eyes and long hair

chorus it's not fair with only seven days to be loving you

love your silky soft skin laying naked on the beach beside you.
let the waves crash down all around us
we'll watch the sunset above our heads
hold you in my arms until the day turns black to night

chorus it's not fair with only seven days to be loving you

we will be together as one you see
complete the love in my heart don't want us to part
wake up to you beside me because your my best friend
start over again open up you eyes sort out the lies

chorus it's not fair with only seven days to be loving you

the truth is you finish my sentences and you light up my life
what a beautiful sight you are you give me the answers
i question this place and i question it's meaning
kiss you goodbye the only girl to make me cry this is the end
i send you my love miss the smell of your hair
feeling empty inside a piece of me as died


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O Thank You, O Thank You, My Dear Lord

How uplifting it is
To live, with you, in peace

How grateful I am
To be lifted, from my shame

O God, I come to worship you
Today, I promise to be true

With my offering, unto you, I bring
Of thanks and praises, I long to sing 

Though, unworthy of your great blessings
I pray forgive me, for I’ve done evil things

Chorus:

O thank you, O thank you, my dear Lord
You spared me from your Angel’s sword

Amen


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Revelations

Why does it take the unexpected for me to feel connected?
Gods the architect, He designed it, I reflect it. 
Flip the coin of life and death,
One side Emotion the other intellect, 
Human trial and error, then progress.
It’s a domino affect.
We grow, 
Some are silent, others shine like Ultraviolet. 
I am sunlight and purple pain,
Wrist bound by misery’s chains.
I see,
We all stereotype it’s the truth,
We got deep roots and bad habits 
woven into the souls fabric,
It’s hard to manage, everyday’s a challenge.
I got to find balance.
Destroy system taught, polluted Thoughts,
Cut out the worlds poison, and burn the wound with Salt. 
Were all cut from the same Cloth.

My Truth:
Ignorance is not an Excuse.


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I'm Forgiven

VI.	You are Lord of all lords.  You are King of all kings.  His mercy and His grace, His 
love is all I need to say.

CH.	I’m forgiven.  I’m His child.  I’ve walked every mile.  I’ve taken up the cross no 
matter what it’s cost.  I’ll never be ashamed of the Lord.

VII.	My burdens are heavy with every trial.  But God provides a way and He blesses 
me ‘cause…


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Goodbye

Goodbye sweet baby
I'm sorry for what I have
to do
But I'm not thinking of
myself
Instead I'm thinking of 
you

This is so hard for me
I want you to know
But I feel it's best if I
let you go

God what am I to do
I keep telling myself I
have no choice
I know I have to see this
through

Dear God I hope you will
forgive me
I don't know what else to
do
So please take care of this
beautiful baby
For this is my only plea


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Lonely Eyes

I shed a lonely tear for you today
Because you are the child
The child with the lonely eyes
I bet you thought no one was looking
I was
I bet you thought no one cared
I do
I fought the monsters under the bed
Because you are the child
The child with the lonely eyes
I bet you thought no one was fighting
I was
I bet you thought everyone walked away
I didn’t
I had a lovely dream today
For the child with the lonely eyes
That you knew that your fight 
was never alone
I was with you all the time


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Peace of Mind

VI.	When I read the Bible, for the first time in my life.  His word spoke to me and I 
found peace of mind.  I got down on my knees and asked Him in my heart.  It was a new 
way to start when I found peace of mind.

CH.	I found peace of mind, when I found Jesus.  It was like a shining light that shined 
down into me.  I started living right everyday and every night, I found peace of mind, when I 
found Jesus.

VII.	I went to church on that Sunday, and sat down in the pew, to hear the preacher 
preach about the words that Jesus said.  And it all came back to me, when I never believed.  
I found peace of mind, when I found Jesus.

Bridge	I talk a new talk, and I walk a new walk.  I help the ones less fortunate than me.  
Lord help me understand, I give all to You, I found peace of mind, when I found Jesus.


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Too Late

It started on a Friday night
Everything was going alright
Then I heard the two things I always feared
Then I heard the two thing I knew Id hear
Thats when I started to drink
No one cared that I was on the brink
Then I downed as many as I could
I can't remember how many and dont know if I would

I'm Sorry 
I messed up
And Its too late
Its too late

It happened, we all know it did
It happened and nothing could prevent it
What can I say, what can I do
I know that I've done more than just hurt you
I let my whole life drift away
Just for one night but I woke up the next day
I know I broke away from my partner in dance
But please may I have one more chance

I'm Sorry
I messed up
And its too late
It too late

I know I can't  take back the things that I've done
But I hope that you know that you are still the only one


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Sunrise

Erotic ecstasy in sensual bliss.
A thousand emotions delivered by a kiss.
You made me feel you, though my heart tried to object.
Your soul spoke to mine and you were the subject.
The core of my heart must now be replaced.
Sentenced to a life, partially erased.
But my mind still swears the knowledge
of where my heart stands.
It is in your hands.
You are the biggest wall to ever stand before me.
I cannot knock you down, for I have no more strength.
I have tried and tried again 
but you have conquered my every wind.
Your cruelty ate my love.
Tell me, how did it taste?
So as I stand in your path now
look me in my face.
Fall into my eyes and drift into your weakness.
For our connection is stronger than words.
we need not figure out the rest.
We are the same as we are meant to be as one.
You believe that you will win
but the moon cannot beat the sun.
Throughout creation, time and time again.
We shall float away together, and neither shall win.
You cannot tell me that you do not care
for I know better.
You will not disappear for my soul will not be scattered.
You broke me once as you attacked by surprise.
But I am now ready, for the sun to set there must be sunrise.
So please will you finally give in too 
and watch it with me?
For my sun is not the same without you.


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Weakness'

I told the Lord,
my weaknesses were too m any.
Again I added,
my strengths were too few.
But this, to Him,
was no great revelation.
For I'd merely told Him something
that He foreknew.

The Lord, told me,
to search the scriptures daily.
That for my life,
a road map they would be.
Within my heart,
He saw not my weakness.
Then through my faith in Him,
He qualified me.
























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You Weren't There..

Though you may be sad loosing a loved one..
You weren't there When God lost his only son..

You may think you have many a debtor...
You weren't there when Jesus was betrayed with thirty pieces of silver...

Though you may be weary and laden with despair..
You didn't witness when they tormented him and didn't care...

Although you may be in agony and immense pain..
You weren't there when the Lamb was fatally slain.

You may think that you cannot carry on and life is grim..
You weren't there when they mocked and spit on him..

Although you may have too many worries at hand..
Look down, you weren't there when they put nails in CHRIST'S bleeding hands.

Although you think you have been badly scorned...
You weren't there when they forced on his head, a crown of thorns..

Though you may feel that everything in your life is going wayside.
You weren't there to feel the sword that pierced HIS bleeding side.

Though you may think that you really don't want to live.
Christ loved us enough to die on the cross, and he will forgive.


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Dead in the Past

Everything shines in my hands
The warmest touch glows with demand
I wanted you, I needed your touch
But embers burn, and it’s all just too much

Drifting sails departing my world
Unbearable, but there’s no return
The slowest loss caught in my dreams
Departing love to wake into screams

The lonely dead writhing through life
He hurts in love and never decides
He wanted you, he needed you
The fires start, you will suffer too

The spiral sings of fates that have past
The pain comes home and burns him at last
The sails of love frozen in death
His melting dreams awake his regret

Falling through the end of the world
To let it go and never be scared
Everything comes back at last
The truth of why I am reliving the past


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Someday

 Somewhere I have you in my arms.
  Sometimes I can feel you in the wind.
 Maybe someday I will see you again.
  Until that day comes I'll be here.
 Now is the time to tell you that I am sorry,
  for the days that I didnt get to spend with you.
 Please forgive me and know that my heart is true.
  Know that forever it will be just you and me.
 I wish I would have said so much more.
  Wish I would have been there from before.
 Wish I knew what could ease your mothers pain.
   We would laugh and we would sing to the song 
  the good lord has sang to us,and take us to the
   land where you await.
 Maybe someday I will see you again,until that day 
   comes I'll be here.
 She walks across through the room to the window and stares
  at the cold dark night that lays outside.
 She wants him to return to her arms.
  Please know sweet Dylan that I feel the same way.
 Maybe someday,someday.


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MOSES

MOSES HAD SIN.
GOD HAD TO COVER HIM.
BUT WERE ALREADY COVERED BY CHRIST HOLY BLOOD.
THAT BRINGS US INTO ,THE PRESENCE  OF GOD.
JUST LIKE MOSES DID.
BUT THROUGH CHRIST HOLY BLOOD.
THROUGH CHRIST HOLY BLOOD.

WE CAN COME INTO HIS HOLY PRESENCE.
JUST LIKE MOSES DID.
JUST LIKE MOSES DID.
GOD HAD TO COVER MOSES.
HE COULD NOT  LOOK ON SIN.
WE"RE ALREADY COVERED .
BY CHRIST HOLY BLOOD.


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FRIENDSHIP

FRIENDSHIP IS LIKE S LOCKEY YOU CARRY IT AROUND YOUR NECK IT EVERY GET 
LOST OR STOLEN FROM YOU.

FRIENDSHIP IS HAVING EACH OTHER HEART IN A SAFE PLACE AND EVER FORGET 
WERE YOU PUT IT.

FRIENDSHIP IS A SCAPBOOK THATS FILL WITH MEMORIES AND LAUGHS.

FRIENDSHIP IS A FLOWER THAT BLOSSOM INTO NEW BEGINS.

FRIENDSHIP IS NO ONE GET LEFT BEHIND WE ALWAYS STAY TOGTHER.

FRIENDSHIP IS LIKE A HUG WE GIVE THEM EVERYDAY JUST TO SHOW HOW MUCH OUR 
FRIENDSHIP REALLY MEANT TO US.

FRIENDSHIP IS LIKE A LETTER WHEN WE TAKE TIME TO WRITE OUR THROUGHTS AND 
IDEAS OF HOW A FRIENDSHIP ARE SO SPECIAL BETWEEN  TWO PEOPLES THAT ARE 
SO CLOSE.




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COMBAT ANGER

One with a reason for their anger
Another whom is guilty
Humblness is replaced by immature excuses
Skeletons are pulled from the closet to even score
Apologies avoided
Honor is scored
Words strike like stray bullets
Sorry, seen as a omition of failure
Lashing continue
An apology never given
Fight forgotten until the next time
Theres no solution to anger drawn before apologies
This is called combat anger


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OVER COLOR DESERT

From the coiffe broken of light
or dead tie-the marines
by machine pip-out target upper	
by the road — 
through demolish the tools that		
throve mats up for peace
it took the leash by the saw
the gloss of the desert thy help
in confront, any astir enemy
watchful been fielding — 
the gloss that regrets
of course a soul matter,
the hero-the weapon 
in avail words of freedom
carry it clearly over the esteem
by gloss of the desert
Or peace insures the earth.


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Untitled 1

Lord,
To thee I give thanks
for such a grand day.
For the little things of life
You always send my way.

For even the trials and sorrow
that have helped me be strong.
For the joy of just knowing
that to You I belong.

For the love that I feel
toward my fellow man.
For forgiveness of my sin
as only You Lord, can.

Mistakes surely I'll make
perhaps this day through.
But the victory can be mine
just by trusting in You.






















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Me

I'm not afraid of the devil you made
Because you made me the devil
I must confess, something's grown in my chest
It hasn't made me a rebel
Make my hell into something you can sell
But something no one can ever love
You cannot sedate all the things you hate
Though you may have blinded some

Me, a name I call myself
But not my real name
Just a disease you've passed onto me
To stay the same

You are afraid of the reasons you stayed
Because you stayed for the fear
Be glad you can choose which limb you lose
Whenever life isn't quite so dear
If you suggest we die like the rest
I'll leave you here to rot alone
But if you force me to carry misery
I'll come to find all my life is gone

Me, a name I call myself
But not my real name
Just a disease you've passed onto me
To stay the same

I wish I was an only son
Death is my sister, my brother is a gun
I wish I was an only son
Your name is one
To me, it's none

Me, a name I call myself
But not my real name
Just a disease you've passed onto me
To stay the same

Just a disease
Just a disease
Just a disease
To play the game


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Everything Will Be Alright

I met you here, and I met you there
I keep seeing you in my mind, my dreams, everywhere
All the moments we've had to remember in the past
Please don't tell me this has to be our last
You smile made me feel like I was the one for you
We've had a child, and then came a few years later, now we have two
Will we wake up?
Will we make up?
If the worst tends to be chosen between us both
Please keep in mind the children should matter the most
My family is here to support my decision to be made
But our love for our children should never fade
I'll always remember you, just please hear me out
But my children now, is what it's all about...


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Prove Me Wrong

We've been with eachother for a long time
But sometimes I ask myself if you're still mine
From then until now, things have changed
Even the smiles and the glances we've exchanged
Are we still in love, or are we slowly falling apart?
All we can depend on is eachother and our hearts
We don't talk or listen to eachother's stories
The signs we gave off that only you and I could see
How are we going to end this supposed to be love song?
The thoughts I have I just can't take, please just prove me wrong
You lay in bed silenced like a new born baby
And all I ask is for my heart to save me
You seem so distant from me all the time
And still I'll ask, are you even still mine?
This is supposed to be our very first love story
But all we end up saying is, that we're sorry
Please help me, that's all I pray for
To bring us back to the way we were once before
Still you lay there hiding while my mind is debating
Still you don't ever respond, even while I'm slowly fading....


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Misery Vampire

Oh! That you would stop idolizing yourself!
Wake up and stop shouting..
Misery Vampire.
Sorry is not good enough for you anymore.
If I didn’t have to say it every moment
It would sound sincere!
You only feed off my own remorse
Because you have none of your own.
I fear your ugly stubbornness
Lurking in the shadows of my weakest moments.

Suck me dry you merciless bat!
Stalking me night and day.
Kindness a lure so perfected by you.
Oh! That I could meet a real vampire
To put me out of my misery!
A husk of worn out apologies
A skeleton in your graveyard of guilt
If you could see past your own leathered face
You’d realize your feeding off already dead prey!
A pile of dust and bones
A slave to your vampiric hold.

No mortal can break
Your selfless image of righteous justification
Burying all those around you
With your depressing puncture wounds.
Woe, that you don’t awake
And see how dead we already are by you.
Lying in your pity coffin -
Drinking lifeless blood.
Sit out there and sulk at your own creation
Misery Vampire.
I refuse to feed you anymore.


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GLORY GOD

GLORY TO GOD FOR THE BLOOD OF JESUS.
SHED FOR US ON THE CROSS OF CALVERY.
GLORY TO GOD FOR THE BLOOD OF JESUS.
SHED FOR US ON THE CROSS OF CALVERY.

GLORY TO GOD FOR THE BLOOD OF JESUS.
SHED FOR US BY THE DEVINE SON OF GOD.
GLORY TO GOD FOR THE BLOOD OF JESUS.
SHED FOR US BY THE DEVINE SON OF GOD.

GLORY TO GOD FOR THE BLOOD OF JESUS.
SHED FOR US IN LOVE OF FATHER AND SON.
GLORY TO GOD FOR THE BLOOD OF JESUS.
SHED FOR US IN LOVE OF FATHER AND SON.


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THE GOOD AMONG US

The good among us
will survive us;
the great examples
of warmth and good will...
tomorrow will
inspire others!

Too often we've heard
of meannes, of injustice
and of selfishness;
who's  to blame?

Those unjust acts
can't force us to hide
compassion and goodness;
every person who lives and dies
shouldn't suppress them
for the fear of judgment,
because the good among us
is based on love and kindness!

The good among us
is one of the blessings
that God has given us lovingly and freely; 
a most precious gift of everlasting beauty! 

The good among us
is our guidance...
in a life that can't escape death;
the good among us
is that lighthouse which shines...
when a dark night arrives!
 


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More & More Questions

My patience is getting shorter
I can't hold this in any longer
I can't find the answer
So much built up pressure
Why, do I keep this all inside?
Why, can't I push this all aside?
I feel like my time is ending
My life is what I'm defending
Why, can't it just be over?
Am I going to have this pain forever?
Is this what I get for being who I am?
It feels like my life is soon to be damned
If you gave me one grant in my life
I would have to hide that long deadly knife
Hurt, pain, always in my mind
Life and love is hard for me to find
It seems like I sit alone
When everyone else is above sitting on their throne
When will everyone accept me for who I am?
When will they allow me to become my own man?
When would I be able to stop running away?
It's just hard cause it catches up with me every day
Where will my life end up in a couple of years?
Will I be able to withstand all my fears?
Hopefully some day I'll find out
And see what my life is really all about...


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Harlequin

She's a mirror to the outside world
Prostetic porcelain girl
She appears as a rag doll torn
An honest case
Still born
Tried so hard to make the show
To condemn it all to hell
I guess I will never know
How to diminish the spell

Shrouded in the lucid dream
I will number the dead
You can never escape the clutches 
Of my fragile Harlequin

Her mouth is a caddle for genocide
Hidden in this stitch
Laced in a smiling frown for me
Advertise innocence
How could it end like this
With all these fingerprints

Shrouded in the lucid dream
I will number the dead
You can never escape the clutches 
Of my fragile Harlequin

Feeling daunted
I lay defeated
For everyone to see

Shrouded in the lucid dream
I will number the dead
You can never escape the clutches 
Of my fragile Harlequin

Take your
Take your
Lobotomy
I know better than to be
I know I'm the last to leave
My shattered Harlequin


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Inside

As I sit here I wonder about her
She seems so dark and mysterious, but I'm not for sure
A lot of things that I don't understand
If you just talked to me I'm sure I can
But don't hide away from me or yourself
If you need me I'm here to help
All you have to do is ask me
Because you pain won't let you feel free
You sit in the room locking fear inside
But when I try talking to you, I get pushed aside
Why do you constantly do this to me?
Am I your boyfriend, at least I'm supposed to be
Act like you care and get back up on your feet
All this anger inside, it can be beat
But don't throw us away, please don't
I'm not leaving, I just won't....


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Can Never Be Matched

The Grace that He bestows,
the love that He is...
The Wisdom that He shares,
the understanding that He gives...
The Comfort that He brings,
the friend that He is...

           Can never, no never be matched!

The Light that He sheds,
the way that He leads...
The Mercy that He has,
the pain that He bore...
The Price that He paid,
the blood that He shed...

           Can never, no never be matched!

The Works that He doth,
the miracles that He peforms...
The Touch of His hand,
the power in His blood...
The Choice that He made,
the prayers that He hears...

           Can never, no never be matched!

The joy that He gives,
the happiness within...
The Shelter that He becomes,
the war that He won...
The Place that He prepares,
the home that we have...

            Can never, no never be matched!


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USE ME INDEFINITELY,LORD

This heavy heart of wanderer rode
on the unremitting winds of sin...
riding on waves that only lulled
my many unsurmountable fears
and with no wings to hold me up,
I couldn't notice I was drifting past hope;
the distant sun brilliantly shone,
unable to reach those dark places within...

Use me indefinitely,Lord...
and make that bond stronger,
which was lost when I was younger;
use me indefinitely,Lord...
to amend the unkept promises 
and the false will to live...
but looking to others for advice,
it all added up to wordly lies!

Why haven't I yet been blessed... 
to share my blessings with others,
and be shielded from my enemies
with that invincible sword called,"Faith.";
why haven't I given up all the earthly joys...
to look up and cleanse me of all ugliness?  

Use me indefinitely,Lord...
to never go back to those alluring ways:
to appease human behavior and bypass
a peaceful and long life ;
use me indefinetely,Lord...
at least,there is one left
to be redemeed by remorse and guilt,
and proclaim you shamelessly!


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If I Lied

Momma 
She doesn’t want to hear from me no more 
I'm tired, she cried 
Pointed me in a direction 
But I see that door
Would it be selfish on my part 
To grip her palms and ask for more? 
Though it's not on her chest 
She simply hopes that her customers tip the best 
If I said she hated me 
I wonder would she put these lips to rest 
In this post digital life 
I got an email from a past friend 
Point the icon to reply 
Started to type but I had no words to send 
Like a small whisper it said love won't last 
As if to hold my head I didn't bother to ask 
Rub the hurt 
To keep her above the dirt 

She tried 
She held on with what she could 
Until she died 
I said I'd never shed a tear 
But I lied 
I took her hand and cried 

Before you leave this story alone 
Maybe there's something you could do 
To piece together the worry at home 
In moments that it really counted
I guess I just would not listen 
At times when I should have softened
My heart did nothing but stiffen 
I guess that's just the way life is 
Think about what you love and lost
What was once yours was always his 
I never saw her but once 
But she never forgot 
To send me peace on my birthday 
Sometimes I wonder 
Did she lose me in her worst ways 
Then again 
There isn’t much I can say 

She tried 
She held on the best she could 
Until she died 
I said I'd never shed a tear
But I lied 
I took her hand and cried
 
With a little help from you 
We put together withered ends of a string 
In better hope that one day, one of us 
Would suffer once more to hear the other sing 
Sometimes fantasies are life 
But most of the time 
You just want to find intimacy with your wife 
I'm not trying to make amends 
But it's all over when it ends 
So love your child
Make your everyday float above his smiles 
I couldn't sympathize for your illness 
For every person maintains their own struggle 
So wipe away your tears 
Let us not become absorbed by the puddle
Keep doing what you do 
no one can stop you from pursuing it but you 
The consequences, the awards 
I'll happily push my cart 
Further down the morgue 
So close your eyes 
If I were to take my last breath 
I'd still wish you the best 

She tried 
She held on with what she could 
Until she died 
I said I'd never shed a tear 
But I lied 
I took her hand and cried


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Battle In Me

Always looking back was the attack. 
Lack of strength in Jesus, 
Trying to find things that could please us.
Not enough to keep me going and have the Holy Spirit flowing.
Breaking through was what I had to do!
Years of emotional punishment, and disgrace were shown all over my face.
There was an empty space, 
That was the place, I held on to, not knowing what to do…
Crying, and Crying, 
For God to start prying those doors of my heart,
That for so long,
Were closed just for me to do wrong!
Seven years of so many tears…
And yet with God’s fear!
One day it became clear
My eyes in astonishment, quivering with chills feeling the tingling hit me from 
head to toe
My heart pounding so hard that it hurt, in the eagerness of rejoicing
Wanting to move forward but something held me tight
In all that thought of being held down
Yearning for more
Fading, feeling once again crashing
To that same darkness that overcame me at first...
When can I push?
The doors of my heart are in battle
Is it me or is it he?
I don't want him no more
God come heal me!
Take this emotional power that has me bound. 
I rebuke you Satan get out of my head, for the power of God wants to enter the 
doors of my heart. 
No more turning back
I want to see the Glory
And the glory will never be in you Satan,
IT’S IN GOD!!!


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Gettin On With My Life

 You broke my heart now we're apart. i want to get on with
my life. It's been so long since we got along it's got to get
better in time.
 You broke my heart now we're apart and you're having
fun putting me down, you think i'm a clown but i'm not.
 You're threw putting me down.  I'm gonna rise above it 
all i got what it takes no matter what. I'm getting on with
my life and movin on i'm glad you are gone.


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Great Events And Bulrushes

Twas not a twinge that caused my shout,
Nor feats that among bulrushes lay.
Nor dread that brought reshape about,
Nor was it visualized my peg out day.

But by the Holy Spirit I was undressed,
Left meandering, 'mongst cattails standing.
My thoughts,which God, forthwith assessed,
Swallowing sin, leaving ticker pounding.

Beyond my facade, emerged an inward glow,
The magnitude of which caused me to squirm.
From wetted eyes tears began to flow,
I was now God's man, not Satan's worm.

















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Brother Waldo

I can't recall each word you said
when you visited me on that day.
I do recall the love you shared
That helped me on my way.

On an old half torn envelope
salvation's plan you drew.
Thirty years now have passed
possess this still, it's true. 

A memento of a time gone by
of a Savior I'd just claimed.
Of a Godly man showing concern
Brother Waldo he was named.

I had accepted Christ, just days before
Reinforcement was now my need.
I still thank God, that you came by
and for my soul did intercede.

The cancer that my body had
a life filled with sin and shame.
By God's own hand had been removed
now I'm praising His holy name.

Fully aware of it being my last chance
in God's work I now aspire
For God had finally struck the match
God, had set my fields on fire.




























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Condition Overview

This world is sugar coated, so sweet and easy on the eyes.
Thier is enough want, lust and greed for anyone in need.

It sells the things that have no meaning, 
no worth, no sense at all.

One can do what one wnats, when one wants and how one wants.
No one will stop progress when you do as they do.

It tells one what one wants to hear,
 but never what one needs.

Those therein do not think, do not do, do not have the truth at all.
They think they  know it all; just ' do your best' and you'll fit in.

It sells a lie but not the truth,
and wonders why men die.

We are not exempt, we once were as they; we are no better than them today.
We all are sinners, no one is good.

Jesus commands us " Repent and Belive "
His Gospel we hear, who can Believe?


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I Can Reach For Him

No more simplicity, nothing more to see,
all I wanted, has no meaning,
I no longer, want to search, for things that I can see,
I no longer, have desire, to be what I want to be,
All that's needed, now is Jesus, I've no worry, for He's here,
He's very, very near, in my heart I know H'es here.

 Chorus: I can lean upon His word, never doubt His faithful hand;
        Reaching for me always, I can reach for Him.

I don't have an empty void, nothing now to fill,
I have a wondrous God, a saviour and a friend.
He's everything I need, He's everything I want,
Longing now for His embrace, nothing less but so much more.
So much to tell, so much to say, so much to share;
what's in my heart, Jesus saves, He really saves!

  Chorus: I can lean upon His word, never doubt His faithful hand;
         reaching for me always, I can reach for Him.

What do I offer you?, but Christ and His love,
Christ and His power, salvation and faith;
Trust in Him fully, you'll never regret.
Change will be given, you'll know just where it's from,
no man can tell you, no expressions to use,
no vocabulary to find, the words come from The Lord.

  chorus: I can lean upon His word, never doubt His faithful hand,
         reaching for me always, I can reach for Him.


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my sister, my friend

may I use the hem of my garment to wipe away your tears?
may I stand close beside you while you nervously face your fears?
may I place my head on your shoulder when the test results come in?
will you let me comfort you my sister, my friend?

when your man walks out and leaves you and you think you're all alone
will It be me you cry to, when the anger gnaws at your bones?
when your children are in trouble and you're in your despair
can we kneel down beside each other together in prayer?

you can take my hands and squeeze them when the birthing pains get strong
will you allow me to love you whether you're right or you're wrong?
when the pressures of life overwhelm you and make you feel beaten down
can I give you a hug and the words of my God  to help turn the situation around?

though we may disagree and argue, we should set that aside
turn around and forgive each other and let go of our prides
may we be there for each other until the very end
may we love each other like Jesus my sister, my friend


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God's Love

I see His footprints in the sand,
Which time, for me, has not erased.
I see those nail scars in His hands,
In His death for me He was abased.

Upon His head, a crown of thorns,
They laid stripes across His back.
As He stood at the cross forlorn,
In His love for me there was no lack.

Even Peter had denied Him thrice,
But in dying for all mankind's sin.
Jesus was paying the ultimate price,
That mankind could be born again.







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For the Holidays

A simple decision
I came to accept at a younger age than known
I don’t remember my earlier birthdays
But since it fell in place
September, November, December
Then it’s a depressional season alone
If it were up to me, when I reached seven
I would have been heavenly gone
And you ask me
Will I be coming home for the holidays?
Holidays, they come, they go
For smiles and snow, a New York warmth
I’d trade with any convict doing death row
You punish me, but it seems to be
Something more than mischief
A flaw in your parental morals 
Let’s graph the hope held in each poor child 
You and I 
We have-nots were claimed as plurals 
Life long friends 
How much more can we endure pal
Do you no longer ask
If I’ll be home for the holidays
This is for your birthday, each passing Christmas
The wars in which you continue to enlist us 
The days you missed us 
The casualties whom bit the dust 
The individuals whom pissed on trust 
For those entitled to this imperishable crush
Will you be home for the holidays?


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Friendship Beads

Red, yellow, green and blue, blue blue-
Red, yellow, green and blue 
Red, yellow, green and blue, blue blue-
Red, yellow, green and blue  (Chorus)

Red is for the blood Christ shed
Yellow for power He rose from the dead
Green is for new life instead
Of feeling blue, Heaven's ahead-

Red, yellow, green and blue, blue blue-
Red, yellow, green and blue 
Red, yellow, green and blue, blue blue-
Red, yellow, green and blue  (Chorus)


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A DEEPER DIMENSION THAN WORDS

I was like a helpless child
incapable of giving love...
needing a gentle mother by his side
to care for his needs!
I was left alone and forgotten by all...
and feeling so miserible,
I clung to my faith and waited;
no, I didn't search for shallow things!

Everybody thought I had everything,
walked right by  me and didn't see my agony; 
nobody realized I needed company,
and I felt like a bird with a broken wing! 

But unexpected miracles still happen today...
even in this age of greed and infidelity, 
because unselfish love like kindness 
has a deeper meaning than words!

You've given up your freedom
and changed this look of boredom;
you've opened up your loving arms...
forgetting my habits and my faults!

I have a new song to sing so joyfully...
to tell everyone you had compassion for me;  
I have another reason to be grateful...  
to give all of myself tenderly,  
because unconditional love like kindness
has a deeper dimension than words!


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Scared? Why should I be?

 After I heard” You are the light of the world”

It kept me up all night and had my soul stirred

Got people asking me about what I learned

To them I’m acting strange because my life’s turned

They say “ Who are you and what have you done with our  friend”

I say “I am your friend who’s found a love that’ll never end”

They say “ Be for real and stop all the nonsense. You’re not our friend because our friend didn’t have a guilty conscience”

I say “ Whatever  man believe what you wanna believe

Because my new found faith was hard for them to conceive

Then of my friends asked “Aaron why are you so happy. I want that too, Do you think you can show  me?”

I said” Ok, this is what I did. I fell to my knees.

I bowed my head, closed my eyes, and begged the Lord please.”

Then my friend asked” And how will that help me”

I said” It gives you a peace that makes you feel free”

Then my friend said “ This little phase ain’t gonna cut it in the streets”

I said” This ain’t a phase, it’s a condition, and I have it severely. And I don’t care because the streets has nothing to offer me”

My friend says “ Ok, I feel you and I wanna feel it too

But I have one more thing to ask you. Aren’t you scared?”

I looked at him, smiled, then said” Scared? Why should I be?”


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In A Lyric


Spilled 
between 
the lines of 

a
lyric, 
it almost 

slipped
from my
thought, yet, I

found the way to reflect

it, 
and must 
have been the 

art
of my
guiltless brain

that 
alas, 
I refrained…

from anomalous wine!





 


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God's Love

Beat, broken, defeated,
Those are just a few ways I could be described.
Saved, redeemed, protected,
Those are the reasons I am alive.
I am just a simple sinner
Who has been battered and bruised.
I have fallen short often,
Used others and been used,
But God looked at me
And saw potential in my flaws.
Although I still mess up,
God continues to see what He saw.
On days when I see no reason,
He is my reason for living life.
When I feel stuck and can't find it,
God is my love and my light.
For each time I mess up,
God's love for me seems to grow.
His love, grace and mercy
Measure more than I could ever know.
I am just a simple sinner
Who has been battered and bruised.
I still fall short often,
But God's love continues.


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God Forgets

Washed in the blood
Of the crucified one
Sins are forgiven all you have done
And when you recall all the things you regret
Oh, Just remember
God Forgets

No matter the problem 
Be they big or small
Give them to Jesus
He paid for them all

And when you recall all the things you regret
Oh, Just remember
God Forgets

Into the sea, all your transgressions 
From his memory
Yet you may fret
Cause, they might remember
I might remember
We might remember
They might remember 
Oh just remember that God!

God forgets!


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It Hurts

It hurts you know 
when the man that
you love walks out
your life.
It hurts you know
to look back at the past
times that you've shared
that never last.
It hurts you know 
to began to think about laughter you had
times were you cried 
behind the things he hides.
It hurts you know 
to give your heart to a man
when all he has to offer 
is a baby in one hand.
It hurts you know
to think what had been
could of been
should of been
is nothing more then
memories out the door.
It hurts you know
I once had a love 
that I once ADORED
to where no man
could ever mean so much
in till the day I felt his genlt touch.
It hurts you know 
that the guy that once put you first
will now put you last
because of Situations
that gave him his satisfaction
to be seduced and arouse.
It hurts you know
that the man that I grew to love
has a baby an plans
that don't involve me!
It hurts you know
for someone who really understands
but wants to be Selfish and not give a damn
It hurts you know
cause I'm suppose to be 
that person who understands
but because of these consequences I must face
I don't want to but have to cause at the end of the day
he is still my MAN!!!  


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The Pearl

A clam lay on the shore
So tired, where it couldn't fight anymore,
It held her infant with the energy that's left
Eventhough it meant its own death,

Its infant was so pure and delicate,
For it carried treasures deep within
Awaiting to be exposed to the whole world
For they were treasures few have

As the clam tried to fight again,
It cracked open and its infant grew strong,
Beholding the divine treasure it obtained,
Ready to reveal its powers it engulfed
Yet, tears of sadness erupted from within,
For it just lost her mother that held it for many year,

The pearl was so calm and sensitive,
With pureness of the heart and soul,
It was filled with friendship and love,
Tender, kindness, and helps a lot

As it met its keepers it displayed its enchantments,
Amazing the eyes all around,
It showed how sweet it was 
As it played its lovely tunes of admiration

The pearl represents the treasures I behold, 
Where some are so valuable I can not mention,
I am so kind and friendly,
So sensitive and cheerful, as I forgive a lot,
For I am always there for a friend,
Always excited to discover something new,
To try something new too....


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Bad Girl

I live to break the rules
I dance to see how fools
Break each others mind
Don't know what's left behind

Well I'm sorry
This is not supposed to be
A typical story
Of how you loved me

Because I'm a bad girl
I live to stay on top
I speak what's on my mind
Don't care who's on my back
Watch me I'm a bad girl

Maybe you won't get it right
So don't be shy to ask
I've taken off my mask
This is my real sight

Well I'm so sorry
Cause this is what I'm supposed to be
My typical story
of how I turned. . . 

Into a bad, bad girl
I live to stay on top
I speak what's on my mind
Don't care who's on my back
Watch me i'm a bad girl

Please forgive me 
For not being innocent enough
To look sweet cause I'm tough
So don't teach me what to do
This is what I've got to say
I am built this way

So just watch this bad girl . . .


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for friends

how could i have done this to you 
all of you who
would follow
me to the end of the earth and tomorrow
and tomorrow
and...
i must thank you, show
that i now know
how much you mean to me
and you never let me be
not when i was alone
body, mind and soul
not when i threw
you away, you knew
that i still needed you. 
and still do. 
and i miss you too.
i know how much you would
miss me should
i leave this life
what strife
i would cause
if i forever paused
these relationships
these friendships
memories of lipstick
parties that last
into the night, fast
fights and long
wrongs
all forgotten. 
we were rotten
but the best
of friends, open to any test
love runs thick
and some bonds stick
for a lifetime.
you are my lifeline
when i’m drowning you are my raft
and i have 
to remember
how good every member 
is
to me and i seem thankless
to deceive 
and leave.
i’ve had enough
and though this may be tough
i’m committed 
my resignation has been submitted
to the land of suicide
no longer will i ride
this tide that brings
me nowhere. so this rings
true 
for me, for you too
and i do
cherish what you’ve said
as i lie in bed
those words roll in my head
giving me the hope
that i can
i can
i can
cope.


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Preaching On The Corner

 
Here I stand on this corner, with my bible in hand.
   Trying to share Gods word as best I can.
Seems no one’s interested, they don’t want to know.
   Do they know about salvation, or where they’ll go.
If I could only get them to stop, maybe look my way.
   I just want to share with them what the Lord has to say.
Well Lord shall I try another corner or will it be the same.
   Sometimes it makes me wonder why Jesus even came.
 Would He die upon that cross if He could see us today?
   Or would He throw His hands up and simply walk away?
He’s given us a gift but we mock it with shame.
   Why the looks of contempt when you mention His name.
People think you’re weird when you say you love our Lord, and Savior.
   Think you’re some kind of a nut, with a mental behavior.
But you know what I don’t really care what they say.
   Cause I’m going to get out there and preach and pray just any old way.
I’m gonna tell them about Jesus, maybe I can plant that seed.
   Hand them a bible, for it’s the water for that seed, John 3:16 is the verse they 
need to read. 
                   


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slience

For so long you were lost but now your found
The thanks I get is you bringing me down
lying face down in your blood screaming silently you weep
it's your body repenting for the secrects you keep


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UNFORGIVEN

NOT A DAY GOES BY THAT I DON'T THINK ABOUT
 THE MISTAKES THAT I MADE

NOW I'M LOCKED AWAY 
AND IT'S FOR THE FOOLISH GAME I PLAYED

I APOLOGIZE FOR NOT BEING THERE 
IN THE WAY I KNOW I SHOULD

EVEN THOUGH I KNOW I MESSED UP
 I PRAY THAT YOU UNDERSTOOD

I KNOW MY MISTAKES ARE UNFORGIVEN 
AND ONLY I AM TO BLAME

I KNOW THERE'S NO NEED FOR SORRY 
BECAUSE SORRY WON'T ERASE THE PAIN

UNFORGIVEN TO MYSELF
AND UNFORGIVEN WITHIN MY HEART

UNFORGIVEN IN MY WAYS
BECAUSE I FAILED TO DO MY PART

A PART OF MY PRIDE HAS DIED
EVEN THOUGH I'LL KEEP ON LIVING

WHETHER YOU FORGIVE ME OR NOT
TO MYSELF I'M UNFORGIVEN


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Jesus is the Way

Jesus is the Way-
The Truth and the Life-
No one comes to God, the Father
Except through Jesus Christ, His Son


                   to be continued...


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He Promised Me

He promised me love and life with eternity.

He promised me salvation and sinless freedom full and complete.

He promised me peace and patience with enduring guidance.

He promised me joy unspeakable and comfort so true.

He promised me unfailing friendship and a friend I can holf too.


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The Truth, I Will Never Forget


O yes, O yes, the truth’s shining bright
In my darkness, it is my guiding light
I will never forget, for you set me free 
You gave, unselfishly, yourself, for me

When you died, that day, on the cross
True, I finally live, and my soul, not lost
So great and wondrous, to live, again 
With your holy spirit, I feel love, not pain

And, who am I really, to deny you now?
After you’ve eased, my grief and sorrow
And, you comforted me, with your pain 
With your holy spirit, I will not be in vain

Chorus:
 
Alleluia, O, alleluia, for this life, I regain
Alleluia, O, alleluia, unto thy Holy Name

Amen 


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River Pain

I know it’s out there in a place where I haven’t
looked before. We’re both running away in 
a land that has no name. I want to escape this 
insanity that knows me by name, leave all 
my pain in the dust. Maybe the wind will whisk
it away to an honest land. Let’s meet at the river
and clean our souls together. Let the water
trickle down with our fears, dry away our embedded
tears. We’ll carry the rainbow on our backs and
name our honest land. 


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Sun Shines

The sun shines
On the 
Wicked 
And righteous
The rain falls
On the
Just and 
The unjust

For His mercies are brand new
Every morning for me and you
So to the hills we should lift up our eyes
When we wake to another sunrise

While we
Were sinning
Against Him
Jesus died for us
And if you
Are sinning
Against Him
He's faithful and just

To forgive you of every sin
And cleanse you from all unrighteousness
If you turn from whatever is wrong
And  with godly sorrow confess... your need

For His mercies... are brand new
Every morning for me and you
So to the hills we should lift up our eyes
When we wake to another sunrise 


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The Shadow

I saw the shadow cry on the wave of the sea.
It bled tears of golden bronze.
It voiced drowning gulls into the sunset.
When asked why, he looked to the sky
he turned and said the world that
you see is enough to make me cry..


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The Rumors

I hear them talking
And I see them looking
When they pass by they wave and smile
But when I approach they are in denial
Rumors by people that don’t have a life
And might want mine
Rumors that are stupid
Especially the one about the baby
Yea that one was really funny
These people must not know me
Because I can’t get pregnant
After my summer incident I became sterile
They can talk and look all they want
Rumors don’t run me
And they definitely don’t bother me
I laugh at most of them
And the rest get thrown in the trash
These ignorant people can believe whateva they want
Because me and God know the truth
Like I said before
I hear them talking
And I see them looking
But all they can do is talk and look
Won’t step up to the plate
And say it to my face
These rumors that make me snap
But it’s good to know that I’m thought about a lot
My family is even spreading rumors too
But what can I do about it
I just smile and laugh at it
Knowing that people will put forth
So much effort to make me miserable
These rumors will never end
So I continue to laugh at them


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I'm Sorry

Apologies are 
Commonly phrased 
Cliche afterthoughts 
Of inadequate responses
And inferior substitutes 
For thinking ere speaking, 
Which right no wrongs, 
Created by those 
Desiring to feel better, 
To feel released 
From the guilt of things 
They have said or done 
That hurt others, 
Which are unjustifiable ends 
Through any means; 
Apologies are 
Socially acceptable 
Acknowledgements 
Without true penance 
And useless excuses 
On blemished scapegoats 
Deferred by those 
Expressing regretful sacrifices 
Given in their defense 
For others' pardons, 
Which neither take away  
The things said or done 
Nor heal or cover 
The sting and dull ache 
That the wounded 
Feel and remember 
Deep within.  

Inspired by Ginny Dempsey


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Time to give in

 Time to give in... 

I've watched You as the years have passed... 

 So much has changed... Some things never last... 

But there is a light that you'll one day know... 
 And suddenly Your'e no longer lost...... And You know where to go. 

And You'll lift Your chin high, .... And stand on your feet..... 

You'll let some things go... And others You'll keep. 

And in the end We all will see.... 
            .... We're all one in the same... 

And to forgive makes us free. 

And we've known for so long, ... 
          .... And we've grown and we've changed.... 

We've climbed and fallen... Struggled and fought... 
          ...... Found so many things..... And others we've lost. 

Still,  I won't deny existence of the past... 
         ... Or that the obstacles sometimes get harder to conquer... 
Become a dead weight on our backs... 

But He's knocked on Your door.... 
         .....Oh,  You know he'll knock again.... 

It just gets worse and worse........ 
               ......... Till You finally give in.... 

                                      MKF 2001 
  
 


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SMALL HEART

Small heart,
don't stop getting bigger...
beat gladly under my care;
small heart,
you have never been
without kindness...
even when you felt sad
and were set apart!

Small heart,
be still good and kind...
even if some may not like:
the equality you share in your glow,
and the sincerity you show
in each beat!

Small heart,
don't keep me from grieving;
small heart,
listen to the helpless children
who are stripped of their innocence:
to be able of changing
the lustful hearts 
that need forgiving...
while they are punished
for their lewdness! 

Small heart,keep on giving,
and if you suffer...don't say anything;
forget your sorrow and worries for a short while:
even you deserve to be happy,
to stand still and idle away...
to revive your numb senses and really feel alive!


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The Dark Side

My life is nothing like a song or a fairy tale that never goes wrong. I try my hardest 
but my strength is growing weak. The weaker I am sometimes explains the hurt 
and anger I feel. I don't want to go on, this can't be life? The anger takes over my 
soul and body and as a result leaves my ora hot and bloody. Hot from all the 
anger and despair. Bloody from all the cuts and wounds of many. While my heart 
is cold and unwilling to let anyone enter I look for some healing from the right 
direction. Healing which can cleanse my soul of all this hate, the hate which I 
sometimes want forever. The uncontrollable emotions my be crazy and 
surprising to many but with every breathe I hear a answer. That peaceful answer 
which I need and yearn for but my mistakes I must learn from. A lesson that will 
lead me to a healthy and happy place. That place doesn't allow weakness, hate, 
or anger. My life's battles are not with those that try to hold me down for life's 
foolish treasures. To each his own but my life is my treasure.  

"Do not be quickly provoked in your spirit, for anger resides in the lap of fools" 
Ecc. 7:9


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Friend Please Stay

With a pain in my heart,
I guess we never know
How much someone means,
Till we let them go,
When they’re no longer there
To hear our plea,
For help when our eyes 
They cannot see

When we’re in our 
Dark corner
And no lights about,
They were there when
A whisper was not needed
But a shout
To wake us up from
Our sleepy slumber,
The times they helped you, 
You cannot number,

You realise now
You hurt them quite bad
They deny it and when 
They see you, 
pretend they’re glad
But deep down you remember
They’re the one
Who told you secrets when the friendship 
Begun 

And that despite what they say
You do know them well
When they’re hurt or annoyed
Is when you can tell,
That sorry is just not good enough
For them to hear but its too tough,

Because the pain you created 
has caused a stain,
You realise you pray 
for the friendship to remain
Because as I said it’s not till they’re gone
That you realise they were there all along
They helped pull you out the pit when others looked away
I miss you so bad…I want you to please stay….


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A PLAYBOY LIKE ME

I didn't recognize your need,
and it only showed once
in those beautiful eyes of yours;
I was attracted to others
in ways I can't describe...
others less sincere than you for a good time,
not  listening to the words you were saying...
ignoring all your passion when you smiled;
was there an honesty I didn't see,
or a fantasy you have been resisting?

I used everybody for my crazy urges
and staring at my empty hands...
I'm so sorry to have lived up to this lie,
is there any quick way
I can cleanse them
and forget where I've been
or what I have done when
 I stepped out of the line;
is there another way for me 
to end this sad goodbye?


I made you wonder
and wait forever,
rising your fever even more...
when I spoke with my sexy voice 
and prouded myself of my affairs;
I laughed with carelessness,
considering none of your emotions...
taking away your only choice!
   
Now,don't ask me if I should stay
or what price I'm going to pay;
you can't change a playboy like me...
please look for somebody you can easily subdue,  
who can give you his sincere love and be true! 


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Make Me Whole, Once More


O God, may you not abandon me
In your precious name, I beg thee

My race, I really wanted to pursue
But yet, here I am, I disgraced you

O God, lift me, from all my shame
I know, no one but me, is to blame

From you, I have fallen once again
Forgive me, I ask, release my pain

O God, punish me, that, I may see
The eternal light, that’ll set me free

Give me strength, for life, to spend
Make me whole, once more. Amen!




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Bottle On The Bar

(Verse-1)
Woke up this morning,
A sidewalk for my bed.
Inside my brain was ringing,
From this bottle in my hand.
Everybody says I’m worthless.
No hope for me at all.
Just fill up my hand,
With that bottle on the bar.

(Verse-2)
No coat, still drunk and cold.
No family no friends to hold.
They say I’d sell my soul,
For a bottle in my hand.
They all tell me I’m worthless.
There's no hope for me at all.
Just fill up my hand,
With that bottle on the bar.

(Chorus)
Lord, please send me an Angel.
One to show me the way.
Let her take this devil from my hand.
And put this bottle on the bar.
Lord I never ask for much,
But I need your special touch.
Please send to me an Angel.
To help take this devil from my hand.

(Verse-3)
Now, each day I walk through that front gate.
My Angel's waiting for me.
She never asks where I’ve been.
Or why I’m gone all day.
She shows how much she trusts me.
And that keeps me hanging on.
So I thank the Lord above.
For my Angel he sent to me.

(Ending Chorus)
Lord, thank you for my Angel.
The one you sent my way.
She cleansed my soul and held my hand.
And placed that bottle on the bar.
Lord, I send to you my loving touch.
For my Angel I love so much.
She is my sweetest Angel.
Who helped rid this devil... from my hand.


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Its ok

  You opened the door, on my scared young heart, the moment you walked into 
the room

  And your eyes seemed to penetrate, and you eyes seemed to say, "its ok-ok to 
be attracted to me"

  So i sat very still and looked around the room, waiting to make up my mind

  And i sat in the spot of 3 and 1/2 months, comfy and tormented, confused by 
inner shock

  And at the right moment, on the right day, i was about to confess undying love, i 
tried and i tried but the words wouldn't come

  But your eyes seemed to penetrate and your eyes seemed to say "its ok-ok to 
love me"

  So love i did, with all my heart, and somewhere in you i found the missing and 
the missed part of me

  And i cried when you left me oh it hurt so bad, through tears in my eyes i missed 
the message in yours

  Now i see you, sometimes alone sometimes with friends, and it is then i 
remember being 19

  It is then i remember what innocence and ignorance feels like and i miss it

  And i read your eyes- they feed me a changing message- first i read...

  "i'm sorry i hurt you, i'm sorry i brought you into this lifestyle, its ok to hate me"

  And then i see...

  "i think so you everyday, i need you in my life, i'm so sorry i hurt you, its ok to 
miss me"

  I close my eyes, to shake confusion, when they open you are gone, but where 
you ever really there

  And then i wonder, why do i care, why since the beginning have i looked for 
permission in your eyes, why didn't i look in my own

  In the mirror, out the window, at the sky, or even in my own soul,- my soul has 
the answers

  My problem...only you have the questions


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IF I HAD ONE DREAM

I wish I could talk to you
tell you how I feel
that will never happend 
you don't understand anything I say.
We started out friends, looked up to you,
admired you in how strong you were,
always there for me, no matter where I was
you'd find me, hold me , tell me everything will be o.k.
Without you, I felt so empty,
dreaming of the day that you'd ask me to be
your wife, live in a big house, a white picket fence
children we could call our own, a home.
This relationship has turned into a living hell.
I don't know any more why I'm here or even alive
a dream came true, that dream ended way to soon,
that night you pushed me that minute the sickness began
I'm not going to dwell on the past
I don't know how to forgive you,
you can't seem to recognize how wrong you are
no appology, just more justifications to cover your lies.
My heart has torn to the point of no return 
My God Mike I Love you so much
why does it have to be this way?
If I had one wish It would be
I'd be enough for you, make your life complete
realize were soulmates, Love Unconditionally
Before it's to late!!


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Starting Over Again

Whatever happened to the time we used to spend
Whatever happened to my long and faithful friend
And not matter how my heart will seem to mend
I'm tired of starting all over and over again
Whatever happened to the love that we were in 
Whatever happened to the dreams that we'd begin
And no matter how my life will seem to mend
I'm tired of starting all over and over again	(Chorus)

I see the signs of yesterday yet I won't assume
Because I know what that will make of me and you
But I see the same old patterns every week and weekend
There's not a change so I have a hard time believin'
Yet I don't want to judge the future looking at our past
But if I can't depend on you then how can we ever last
I just can't deal with going through the same old thing
And your actions speak so loud you've left me wondering 

(Chorus)

If you're dedicated to me give me more of your time
Than you give to any other, let them know that you're mine
If you're committed to me, be faithful, kind and true
And remember you said you love me the way I love you
So history won't repeat itself you'll do whatever it takes
By always saying what you mean, doing all that you say
To make us work, keep our dreams, here's one last chance
For you to put your love in action and give a little romance

(Bridge)

Cause every man will proclaim his unfailing love
But what girl can find a faithful man she can trust
She just can't deal with going through the same old thing
And your actions speak so loud you've left her wondering 

Whatever happened to the time we used to spend
Whatever happened to my long and faithful friend
And not matter how my heart will seem to mend
I'm tired of starting all over and over again
Whatever happened to the love that we were in 
Whatever happened to the dreams that we'd begin
And no matter how my life will seem to mend
I'm tired of starting all over and over again	(Chorus)


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Echoes Of Sin

I hear…
The rose whispering
My heart is yearning for redemption 
Of soul, I am undeserving one


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THE HEART THAT LOVES FORGIVES

You have heard friends 
criticize someone for showing
little regret...
for the wrong done
without  thought!
Will they ever know...
how much hurt
there is yet?

Oh,but the heart that love forgives...
everyone...everything quickly;
oh,but the heart that loves forgives...
because it can forget so suddenly! 

We have left alone memories
of days,of times gone by us...
and like the loss  of someone:
they are too painful to be remembered;
can we learn how to be 
more compassionate and wise?
The kinder we are,
the better we become,
 but allowing the grudge to linger 
and not showing  forgiveness 
or, at least, trying to make real changes..
can be so unfair!  


Oh,but the heart that loves forgives...
everyone everything quickly;
oh,but the heart that love forgives...
because it can forget so suddenly!


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Care your keys

If you want to walk don’t look at the sky,
If you fell over you will get only cry,
If you want to walk look down and straight,
If your distance is clear you can run or fly.

If you want to talk, don’t look here and there,
If you miss to match sights nobody will care,
If you will look at the face you feel emotions,
Conversation is rude if feelings aren’t fare.

If you want to lock a house, close all entrances,
If you want to stop relations clear all tenses,
If you want to lock a car, care your keys,
If someone has tracing keys no cares for fences.

If you want to shock someone get a surprise,
If you want to kick someone show how you wise,
If someone is hiding crime he is dangerous,
He shall teach you a lesson when he has a rise.

If you want to choke something use strong hands,
If you want to chock something don’t use bands,
If you want to check anything don’t use blanks,
If you want to joke someone write words on sands.


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Some Day

Some Day;
       I will see Your blessed face
              because You have this race.

Some Day;
       I will bask in the light of Your Glory
              for I'll need no more the sun.

Some Day;
   I shall walk right beside You
             because You walk beside me.

Some Day;
   I shall never fail or sin
             because of Your mercy within.

Some Day;
   I will know no pain or fear
          because Your always near.

Some Day;
   sorrow I shall no longer know
              for the joy You have bestowed.

Some Day;
       That Day will be!


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Forgiveness

Shards of glass in a fatal wound,
No more worries - I'm leaving soon.
You're the poison, and you're the knife, 
You're the demon that saved my life,
Angel-devil, and not the less,
A heartbreaker, but still the best. 
A denial, a myth, a wraith, 
Well-known stranger who stole my faith.

I know you're afraid that all alone
You'll make your way through lands of endless rains.
In front of you is only the unknown
Behind your back is just this hollow pain...

Sleeping pills, bittersweet champagne -
I am watching my empty brain
Drowning quickly in alcohol...
But won't drown my longing soul.
In this strife I'm a knight, but scared,
And I'm feeling... oh well, enough!
Now I'll stop... no one f---ing cares.
You have never believed in...

In my devotion.

But I'm not afraid that all alone
I'll make my way through lands of endless rains.
In front of me is only the unknown
Behind my back is just this hollow pain...

But with arms broken I'll fight, 
By my forgiveness
My broken heart is revived - 
I'm alive!

And I'm not afraid that all alone
I'll make my way through lands of endless rains.
In front of me is only the unknown
Behind my back is just this hollow pain...


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forgive me

the words that i've said
the things that i've done
then i just laid
out in the sun
how could you just let me out that door
when did you not love me anymore
so i'll ask again
when did this friend come in
Why? but i felt it on the inside
but it just wanted to hide
my minds disire
burning like a fire
dont bring me in on this pain
NO come let me out of the rain
Why?did you have to hurt me inside
why did i have to hide 
why did this pain
but it's driving me insane i love theeso forgive me.


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Why?

Why?...

Why do you say you love me, just to bring me tears? 
Why do you hit me so hard, just to find pleasure in my fears?
Why do you act so stubborn, but with your friends you're cool?
Why do you treat me bad at home, but change when we're at school?
Why?
Why would you kiss my lips, if they're feeding me posion?
Why would you hold my hand, when you don't even give a damn?
Why would you let me trust you, and you knew you did me wrong?
Why wouldn't you tell me the secrets you've kept for so long?
Why?
Why can't you treat me better, like the way I treat you?
Why cant you love me like before, the way I still love you?
Why can't we be normal, the love we used to have?
Why can't we go back to that, to what everyone else still has?
Why?
Why is it you act like that, like you don't even care?
Why is it you're always right, even though you know its unfair?
Why is it you always have a reason, a reason you weren't there?
Why is it you were gone, when I needed you to care?

Why?


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WISHING TO HAVE LOVED LIFE MORE

Wishing you came back to life and smiled...
as my warm tears need someone
to share them with...without end;
words that are spoken truthfully
can remind us that we are given
only one chance to love madly,
knowing that life is too fragile...
to vanish into dust and rubble!

Wishing for joys that are as endless
as the boundaries of this Universe,
never losing strength and faith...
enduring hardships and facing reality;
you have loved me longer than anybody,
and yet I haven't given you enough!

Torn apart by regret,rather than sorrow;
helpless like a wounded sparrow...
unable to open up and start living again
the wonderful life that was in me then!

Wishing to have only listened
to that inner voice...always ignored;
wishing to have brought tenderness...
to those sad eyes seeking forgiveness!

Wishing to have loved life more,
and to have believed in myself
with true grit and confidence...
to achieve what nobody has done before!


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OLD FRIEND

HEY OLD FRIEND
LEAVE ME BE
DONT COME AROUND ONCE MORE
DONT STOP TO BOTHER ME
TRYNNA GET ME TO QUESTION MY FAITH
QUESTION MYSELF
LET GO OF MY SAINITY
OMIT MY HEALTH
OLD FRIEND
YOUR TRYIN,
AND PUTIN UP A GOOD FIGHT
YOUR COLD OLD FRIEND
YOU AINT RIGHT
I MEAN YOU TRY SO HARD
AND I JUST KEEP THINKING.....
YOU KNOW I KEEP THINKING ABOUT THE PAST
BACK WHEN LIFE WAS FADING, FALLING, EXPENDING,
FAST
NOT ANYMORE
WHAT DO YOU NEED,
OLD FRIEND
I TOLD YOU LAST TIME THAT IT WAS THE END
WHAT COULD YOU POSSIBLY NEED WITH MY LIFE
EXCEPT TO BRING PAIN,
EXCEPT TO BRING STRIFE
WHAT OLD FRIEND....
TELL ME
BECAUSE FRUSTRATION HAS RISEN
DONT LEAVE YOUR THOUGHTS
AWAY,
HIDDEN
TELL ME
OLD FRIEND
WHAT DO YOU NEED
TELL ME OLD FRIEND
WELL SAID OLD FRIEND
REMEMBER ME
SO I CAN BE
YOU...
AGAIN


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BECAUSE FORGIVENESS...

You certainly feel no guilt
for your uncontrolled emotions
showing a need for resistance,
a sign of a certain insistence;
oh,you are untrustworthy and restless
disregarding all of the consequences
and unable to pull out of this mess,
but you can prevent all that!

Let me tend to your need today,
and I won't compromise my fidelity
over a foolish urge of mine:
let me rise to the challenge
and give you another chance to change,
because forgiveness
is the true voice of a selfless heart;
because forgiveness
wipes off all resentment
with a joyful smile...

Tomorrow seems a long way off
and when it comes, it won't plead;
it'll sweep you aside:
erasing your frantic laugh,
to make you regret all that you missed,
all that you didn't give...

I have kept my loyalty;
now,give up your vanity...


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A Sequel In Time

I found out so I'm told
that not everyone can be so bold
But I am and so what

Can't care now or so I know
lost that will long ago
days fell all around

months went by and killed the flame
never bleed quite the same
blood as thin as water, blood as thin as water

somewhere then was the key
there was you and then came me
can't bleed out forever don't you know

caught beneath a landslide 
not down here a place to hide
better to hide away, better to hide away

you left town and so did I
walked too far to see you cry
wasn't watching anyway

so blame me and be done with it
can't say much so sick of (this)
just take me all away

guess you can't but that's okay
didn't mean it anyway
I forget so much, I forget so much

Drink it in and think awhile
How far is it to the Nile
rather be there than here

someplaces linger on
even when things are done
I know you like a child

Wonder where we went wrong
didn't think it would take so long
but here we are now

caught between the light of day
wishing you could stay
with me, oh baby with me

sorry for all those nasty things
only tried to make us kings
the world is never kind

imagine us atop the world
never knew we were bold
but my dear, but my dear it's never been done

I knew the little girl inside
made her eyes open wide
you took the boy out of me

we grew up and became us
happened then we broke our trust
just natural among all things

can't give up though we're apart
find somewhere to restart
living is just a game to play

you moved on and so did I
never stop to wonder why
but in my dreams, in my dreams it's not so

you held back and drew me here
kept close warm and near
I wish it were so

Hold on to that dream
and it can one day be
the one we were waiting for, the one we were waiting for

but some may live and who should die
don't forget to wonder why
because I never stopped, I never stopped

Tomorrow's here and you are there
we found our place everywhere
and so we are you and I


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Withering Hearts

Withering Hearts

My heart cries out 
the pain is too much to bare
It can not hold back
shattering into a thousand pieces
The sword pirece my soul
Ripping it to shreads
Soundless tears
streaming from my eyes
for there is no voice
that can express my anguish
I hold inside
is ready to come out
you are gone from me
out of reach forever
but not gone forever
my chances to express
my love to a child
that I brought into this world
have not disappeared into oblivon
into the cold and dark cave
I feel right now
my dreams are of us
now blown away like dust
I hold tightly to the memories
for that you have not left me
I am now a shadow to you
I am now a shadow to myself
I miss you so deeply
I get depressed just thinking about this forced to exist
day by day
all the time wishing
to hold you
to love you
I can do more
I have changed
see that oh why
I would love to lie with you
be a friend
be somebody
Just one more time
I just sit here in the cold grave forever. 


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Scar

I had this beautiful smile, which 
You took away on a summer day 
Where you snatched 

And enslaved it in your arms
If I had, with me, that day my scythe
I could have killed you; no doubts

Today I see the wound, healed
But, the shadows of silent anger, pain 
And torture, still there

Linger like the way you broke 
My innocence on a grassy field
Perhaps, I was too fragile

Or, perhaps you were too strong for me
Thou I forgave you before you could even 
Breathe your last, but my smile 

Will never be the same again
I didn’t want it to happen, neither God
It was just you, the beast
Hungry for my flesh; thence, I was ten


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on this day

To some people February 14th is just another day.
 For me this is a day to take time and say... I love you.
 Stop, and think what we've been through and how much are love as grew.
 Yes, we fight, 
And I’ve lied,
  But never forget for you I would die.
 Everyday I see your beautiful, smiling face,
  And there are moments that I stair and you take my breath away, and leave me 
with nothing to say,
 On this special day,
 I ask myself how it is possible to love a person so much.
 My heart has been permanently touched.
 All the tears and pain seem to go away.
 The pieces of my heart that were chiseled away, you make them ok.
 Once there was a deep dark hole nobody could touch,
 Until you came and filled it with all you’re love.
 On this special day I want you to know,
 I love you,
 More than I could write down, tell, explain or even try to show,
 In this life or the next.
 I’ve done things I regret,
 And they hurt you inside and made you cry,
 But let those things die,
 Not you and I. 
 I want to be with you the rest of my life,
 Until the day I say good-bye.
 So on this Valentines Day I want to say, 
 I love you and will always be with you.                                    


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And To Thee, I Pray


O Jesus, my Lord, and today, here I am
Seeking mercy, only, in your holy name
Please, hear me, O hear me, when I call
And to thee, I pray, lift me, from my fall

O Jesus, my Lord, my spirits unyielding
To the Father, mediate all my pleadings
In my sufferings and pains, comfort me
Embrace me, once again, I will be free

Tell me…O tell me, that, I am not alone
Lead me…O lead me, so, I’ll be home 

Amen
 


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Regrets

Regrets

Regrets hit hard
And run deep
Regrets will make
The tears from you eyes
Forever seep
Regrets are made
To remind you that
Into your past
You will always have to peek
When all you really want
Is to put them all to sleep
You want them to settle
Yet all around your head they creep
Regrets can plague you
And haunt you non stop
Taking away your sanity
Drop by irrational drop
Regrets play off your fears
Cause way too many tears
The time you go through it
All the wasted years
You let go by
You scream
But no one hears
You cry
But whose there to even try
To start understanding
The emotions you are going through
The only one who
Truly sees this is you
Regrets are never saying
What should’ve been said
To him and for that it’s the remembering
That you dread
Then saying to much
Regrets are losing
That certain special someones touch
A flood or rush
Of never ending unhappiness of such
Reminders of better times
Regrets are the first thing
You think of upon waking
You go through your day faking
About being okay
Regrets are the last thing 
You think about before slumber
Leaves you feeling somber
Regrets yes I have many
Regrets have taken control
Thank God for my family and friends
Thank hold on, catch my fall and pull me back
Regrets cause me to lack
The self confidence, the skills needed
To on my own find my way back
Hopefully some day soon
I will no longer be in this gloom
Then I could put them to rest
And move on, forgive myself
For my past for which
I can longer change, it’s already written
My time would be better spent
With having no regrets
That would be a miracle
Which would be heaven sent


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Trust

I wont wonder why
fro the truth isn't shy.
Your truth is made of love
falling on the wings of doves;
and the light that You share
shows that You care.

You're going all the way with me I know You'll ever be!

As fsr as I can see, 
it's bigger than the sea.
Your love, it is so great,
It seems bigger than the light.
But, in the light Your glorified, 
I am no longer horrified.

You are my way, my keeper; in thee I will stay!


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MARILYN

Marilyn,
don't displease your only friend;
yust for once take my advice:
your next step is simply wrong...
Marilyn,
your way isn't right to choose!

Marilyn,
please don't go now;
you will never know:
how much pain
and misery
you can leave me;
your farewell kiss
will be your only memory!

Marilyn, think it over...
don't give anything over...
this seems a sacrifice you never did;
hide no secret, I'll understand!

Marilyn, I have been the first
to take hold of your empty hand;
can you give me up so fast?
Yesterday you said you never would!
Marilyn,
don't hope
to find another man, 
who will appreciate
you as much as I always do...
it can be so hard for you!


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I'm Sorry

I’m sorry, my words didn’t come out right
I’m sorry, I didn’t mean to ruin your night
My mind is panicked
My heart is frantically beating
I just have this fear that soon you’ll be leaving me
I need to learn to choose my words with caution
because my tones never turn out 
the way they’re meant to sound
All of what I said,
was just me kidding around
I didn’t want you to worry
and I’m grateful that you care
Just accept my most sincere apology
and believe me when I say I’m sorry


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"Dream Call"

Fortunately I feel sense of 
dream,Which knocked think door
of beautiful natural world.

I feel dream like a rainbow 
scattering happiness between 
me and divine world and think
silence of dream is the small 
drop of the tears of eyes and 
which makes oceans of think.

He who likes my dream receives
best,he who dislike lost most


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played with fire

i realize it was really hard for me to see,
how could i've been so blind,
you was slowly killin me,
you played with fire,
end up hurting me,
theres no mercy,
especially coming from me

and if i do forgive
i will never forget
its something you have to live with
boy you will regret
u had your fun while it last,
now youre my past
youre a cheater and a liar,
you made urself look like an as(s)

let me tell you,im no bodies fool
but love made me blind 
i was a fool for you
now it seems, the tables have turned
so horribly you looking
i see you've learned

you loved that one
she didnt love you back
now you knocking on my door
sayin "plz take me back"

ah, you realize
you was a fool
messin up somethin
with one night or two
three,four,
stop knocking at my door,
when in fact,
step on back,
theres no comin back

i thought you was the one
the one i can trust
but i was wrong
you was a bust

you couldve been the one
my lover, my king
building an empire
just you and me

now its too bad,
it ended so sad,
didnt realize what you had,
you so gone, im glad

im better without you
unstressful
im free
you played with fire
end up hurting me
im the one and only
u had a good thing
now you cant have me

fadeout:
n-e-more....


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Foreshadowed

To that which comply with the broken bones
damaged by lonesome nights and sad good byes
for their mark lyes upon its victim definite as stone
in the end they are left alone, caught between lust and lies
eager to slip away but desperate to remain still
brought up by lost emotions and vanished by truth
held close as a reminder
but be binded by will
to lay upon a single thought
but ponder it twice as more
in between the logics and questions you get caught
tearing your mind in two directions over the time makes it sore
to beleive in a dream that only exists in your mind
for others this thought is hard to find
subjected to rules and left open to mistakes
promised tomorrow but forgotten today
you lie alone wondering,
thinking, 
who set out the path then, that you now follow today