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Chasing Butterflies

I'm haunted by the words you wrote 
Tell me what you want from me 
Don't tell me what I want to hear 
Tell me how you really feel 

I could be everything for you and more 
I'm telling you now I want more 
I'm telling you I want to be with you 
I want all of you... 
Do you want to be with me? 
Honestly? 

I know you're confused 
I'm confused too, confused by you 
It's okay to be scared 
I'm here for you, I'll hold your hand 
This is a risk I'm willing to take 
But the decision is yours to make
 
You write of walking a straight line 
I'm here to tell you that now's the time 
Now's the time to face your fears 
Now's the time and I'm right here 
Now's the time for us to shine 
Come on baby, let's chase those butterflies 

November 30th, 2008


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Fear of death

The fear of death

When I was a young man, a great fear of dying
Did bother my mind all the while
I’d dream I did murder, I’d dream I got murdered
Till one day I forgot how to smile
The dread of old age would torture me daily
And I was so scared of the dark
The joy of my life it just kind of faded
And often the terror was stark

Then one day I had me, this wonderful dream
This dream saw me lying there dead
But I was still there, looking down from the ceiling
All peaceful with no sign of dread
I learned from that day that death is the kind one
When the fear of him does dissipate
Then death will come out like a beautiful mother
As she rides on the breeze of ones fate

Now always , I live in the true hand of faith
For life always knows what is best
So I will relax as I’m held in her bosom
As she takes me away for a rest
The story goes on, and it will do forever
Cause life, well it never can die
I’m part of the trees, And I ride on the breeze
For I am that wholeness, am I.

5 July 2013 @ 1107hrs.


















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WE ALL DIE

My piety,my poetry ,my love
All are in vain
my music, my love ,my mind
All are running insane

My rhymes are all crooked
I can't write a perfect song
Looks like my life is worthless
my music, my poetry its all gone

Behold the paradox,
In these old rhymes 
living in a worthless life 
All these times 

The music's almost over
just need to turn out the light
I need just one leap
Need to show on last fight

I need to create something
something that makes you feel
the goal isn't to live forever
Its to create something that will


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I'm Your King

A burst of white light gamma rays, overbearing a flash of brilliance burns through to my soul everything is like hell the world starts to melt in the blink of an eye just the cold blackness of night I don't care if I am not again what I once was, for at this moment I am greater now than ever before I took the path between teetering, tight roping walking right up to my right divined in my unholy state I thought I told you I am your king still you sit there, hesitating I know you hate me what does that mean? I hate just about everything still I'm chosen I did not wish before now bow down to me refuse me no more for I shall always be your demon until you accept me as your King. I don't even know you though you say we used to be best of friends, you and me the day you ditched me I remember now exactly how it played out back when we were just tiny things even back then I still was King you thought me stupid just a ruse I would laugh inside, you see? not one of you single, mean people ever even knew me in a world, mostly seen to me that is why only I can be your true King and bring forth a new source of light everlasting. As two worlds collide slowly aligned one wrapped in shadows one bathed in white evils swirling in the clouds above I'll always be the king you love to hate or despise as in your blood I thought I told you, I am the one I am the way, the way out shall be shown breathe in my spirit as it carries you away breathe in my faith it shall carry your empty space and deposit you gently on a cloud just enough higher than you've ever dreamed of for I am king now, and your in my hell your in my imagination, I'll just never tell you'll feel as though dreaming, you'll feel now if you try and see you were always found the most shared in the light cast upon me the last bright star in heaven. Denounce my name, if you may One year later, still not afraid A black sheep, a darkened spade That's just life, I'm not right I'm in the wrong, follow along Like a piper, I'll pitch a song Mesmerized, the weak wills sing I thought he told you, he's still our king.


Details | Rhyme royal | |

Gone With The Wind

The Earth cracks, the plates slide, and we fall of track.
The sun freezes over, and color is beginning to lack.
We fall back, lay in this wake of destruction,
as apocalyptic thoughts grab us, from every direction.

Our life flashes like the lightening in the sky,
the thunder rumbles, and it rains down, as we begin to cry
Time stops and we're still, as a volcano erupts,
the ashes rain down and form clouds, and all we hope for is luck.

But what is luck? What is it to us, but an empty wish.
It's nothing but something we hope for, and we're hopeless.
But it's a possibility, that feels impossible to me,
but it's a picture that I gotta paint, but canvases aren't free.

So I sit as a tornado forms right in front of my eyes,
and I'm scared, but I stand up, and finally realize,
that I gotta fight. Or I'll forever be denied.
I'll forever be alone, and I'll never get it right.

I see a piece of paper, and I think of an easy solution,
it's crumpled up, and you've gotta open to be able to read it.
But it's a blank page, nothing but a piece a paper.
You watch it float in the wind, you'll write a story on it later.

It's gone, Gone Away With The Wind,
you tried but you're own game beat you, you can't win.
No matter the pen, the ink is your blood, it comes from within,
just don't lose it, cause once you lose it then its Gone With The Wind.


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HOLDING ONTO YOU

I'm holding on to you
Won't let you drift away
Never going to let you go
Not tomorrow, not today
When the undertow is strong
You feel weak, can't fight
I'll hold you in my arms
Next to you all the night
I'm holding on to you

Life may hit you with a storm
Find yourself on a raging sea
I'll be the lifeline that you need
And pull you into me.. Into me

I'm holding on to you
I'm your fortress, your rock
I cherish your every breath
Protecting you around the clock
I'm keeping all your secrets
I battle to conquer your fear
Never leave or forsake you
By my side I want you near
I'm holding on to you

Life may hit you with a storm
Find yourself on a raging sea
I'll be the lifeline that you need
And pull you into me.. Into me

I'm holding on to you girl
Please hold on to me
I'll be the lifeline that you need
And pull you into me.. Into me

*just a simple airport muse

Date: 7-16-14


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Is this who you are

walked away from the sun,
and into my life,
im sick and tired of all you put me through,
im sick and tired of your childish games,
and im tired of your foolish lies,
when you talk,
i bleed inside,
i hate your disgusting thoughts,
in you stupidity flows,
your the devil,
and me your victim of evil plans,
i hate you,
why cant you understand,
you put me through hell,
everytime i find happiness,
your the devil,
and me a poor soldier,
wrap all the papers,
and put it in a folder,
case closed!


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I MISS WHAT USED TO BE

I feel like it's just not the same
Everything's changed but the name
That something sad got into my Soup

I've seen so many good friends go
Others have come that I don't know

I miss what you used be

I've ask, but the answers don't come
Not knowing what's next makes me glum
I'm wondering is it time to say good-bye

So many memories from in the past
All I once knew, yeah.. it didn't last

I miss what used to be
Yeah, I miss what used to be

And now theses ads, completely insane
Fall on my page like a pouring rain
Just want to enjoy my bowl of Soup
Read your work, have you read me

I miss what you used be

The years here have come and gone
Lots of poets, but something's wrong
One thing I never thought I'd say.. so long

So many memories from in the past
All I once knew, yeah.. it didn't last

I miss what used to be
Yeah, I miss what used to be

I miss what used to be
I miss what used to be

I miss what used to be
Yeah, I miss what used to be

*Written as a tribute to the old guard that have felt many changes here at the 
Soup

Date: 7-19-14


Details | Lyric | |

Late at night


Watching me with those creepy eyes, i hear noises of a man who cries, 
you are back again to startle me, with your demonic hands you cradle me, 
ghouls from the past haunt my mind, only a night it takes to rewind, 
will this journey last a lifetime? , the aura of fear has me blind.

You were standing close to me as i slept, not yours but my heart which wept, 
i shuddered in fear as the nightmare woke me up, 
memoirs of my burnt house broke me up, 
had i not tried to escape? .....when i felt your breath on my nape.

So long since i have known you, strange i am to the familiar you, 
why is it me that you follow? ....with your eyes so hollow, 
i know not the reason why....i dare not question and cry, 
when you pulled me with such power....only the dead try. 

I called the psychic that day, with hair so gray, 
said he sees an evil ray, 
said he can't help me today, send me blessings so i live to see the sun rays, 
his exit led to more fear, wished to leave the place without a tear, 
hoped to live without you being near, 
this life...i won't share.

Before dusk you made me yours, 
you ordered me not to venture outdoors, 
i had not known my soul that night, i opened my eyes with all the might, 
your force so intense i couldn't fight, soon i lost all my sight, 
possessed i was, you killed me tonight, will never open my eyes to a day so bright, 
people look at me with so much fright, they know now what happens late at night.


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Normal To Me

This isn't just a poem This isn't just another emotion This is me, these are my thoughts The Imagery is my sight, And The Allegories are my Life I'm lonely, There is just me But there's so many people around but no one can hear my loudest screams Don't Shout nor Scream This is all just Normal To Me I'm torn, I'm Cut Part of my heart stabbed, and then taken from me The Search for my innocence, Is like a moa hunt Don't Shout nor Scream This is all just Normal To Me Laughing and Jokes all directed towards me Just to Hurt me Cover all of the Halls "Fag, Emo, Queer" Words I too often know Don't Shout nor Scream This is all just Normal To Me Curling her hair putting on her makeup "You're worthless and nothing to Me" Says the so-called all-loving-one As she screams: "Why am I not Pretty" Don't Shout nor Scream This is all just Normal To Me This is not just a poem not just some words my pen cries with each words But this is Just a Glimpse Don't Shout nor Scream This is all just Normal To Me


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Don't Fall

~Don’t Fall ~

Yet another restless night
Bad dreams every other hour
I turn on the light hoping 
It will calm me down 
Yet it takes me back in time
And there he stands
Like a shadow in the night 
Naked as can be 
Laughing an evil laugh
As he says to me
Mio Piccola Puttana
I can’t let him get to me
So please teardrops

~Don’t Fall~

I look into the mirror
I see that pasty skin
Paired with double chins
I think to myself starving won’t Even get the fat off
Fast enough
I feel so defeated yet still
I tell myself 
Teardrops

~Don’t Fall~

Looking for a way out
I feel like I am stuck inside my Past
Reliving every moment
One after another
It feels like it is happening all over Again
I feel the tears in my eyes so I say
Teardrops please

~Don’t Fall~

Now I can see him in the faces of Strangers
I feel so alone and out of place
I still force myself to get up each Day
Even though I want to hide 
It is such a struggle 
Day after day
And to add to the pain 
I have to make sure those
Tears 

~Don’t Fall~

If you touch me I might break
If you are hear to see me 
Please don’t hurt me 
That I wouldn’t be able to take
Know that I am like a dam ready To break
So if you were to hug me 
Hold my hand or touch me 
In any other comforting way
This dam may break 
And there won’t be any telling 
The tears 

~Don’t Fall~


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tired of me

am i all that you wanted
am i what you were askin for 
or am i just like last years christmas toys?
you're tired of me

i see a different side of you
after one problem we're though, we start over again
you're locked up and away from me
you go farther and farther away
you're tired of me

am i all that you wanted
am i what you were askin for
or am i just like last years christmas toys?
you're tired of me

you used to love me
now you doubt me
you used to trust me
now you fear me
you were just like me
now we're different. 
you dont understand me.  you dont even care!

am i all that you wanted 
am i what you were askin for 
or am i just like last years christmas toys?
you're tired of me

i see a different side or you
after one problem we're through.  we start over again
you're locked up and away from me
you go farther and farther away
you're tired of me

you're listenin to lies
and to my surprise. you believe the words they spit in your eyes.
what did i do, to get this from you?
you never even asked me if it was true!
why do you do this to me?

am i all that you wanted 
am i what you were askin for 
or am i just like last years christmas toys?
you're tired of me

i guess love doesnt live here anymore
im fallin and dont know what to do
im tired of the mess, but i dont wanna live without you!
what do you want me to do?
or is it true....
                         you're tired of me

you used to love me
now you doubt me
you used to trust me
now you fear me
you were just like me
now we're different
you dont understand me.  you dont even care!

am i all that you wanted
am i what you were askin for 
or am i just like last years christmas toys?
youre tired of me


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Fighting Temptation

This guilt I feel consumes me 
I want to let it out 
But I'm terrorfied of the consequences... 
I gave into temptation 
And now I pay the price... 
I'm so sorry for what I've done 
I pray that this isn't the end 
I pray that you can forgive me 
And we can still have our happily ever after... 
One single thought runs through my head 
Over and over again... 
I know what I need to do 
To finally get peace of mind 
But once again I'm consumed with fear... 
Fear of what you'll think 
Fear of what you'll do - what this will mean 
I messed up! That's all there is to it! 
And all I can say is 
I'm so deeply, deeply sorry! 
God was testing me 
And I failed horribly! 
Now I'm living in regret 
I'm completely stuck! 
Show me where to go from here 
Tell me what I'm suppose to do now... 
How do I make this right? 
I'm sorry! I'm so sorry! I'm so deeply sorry! 
For this incredibly stupid thing I've done 
Now I'm at your mercy... 
I can only hope and pray 
That you can forgive me 
Please stay here with me, 
Please dont run away 


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Borderline's Wreckage

I'm Agonizing every Word that my mind Creates You've done this all to me release your wrath to Me You wonder How much a Human Heart can take I've reached the limit You've invaded me on every level none of this is Mine anymore I can't bleed enough for You We're through This, This Torture Homicidal With You Suicidal Without You Feel Free to abuse If it's you I won't lose The Winds push away The Vines pull forth I'm at a lose on what to do So very lost and Confused Don't say we're through Homicidal With You Suicidal Without You I Hate you ...Don't leave me I push you so far away But need you so close I'm on the edge you're all I really need I'll do anything Just don't Abandoned me leaving has it's toll Homicidal With You Suicidal Without You


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Why Must It Be

Can I let you go? Will you be okay? Where you're headed now...to a better place Listen to my words of forgiveness relieving this pain I'd give anything to have you back again To hold you once more in my arms, one more day of happiness you now dwell within my heart Your innocent smile is forever a distant memory, and the times that we share are precious treasures that I spend reliving The Shadow of Death Took you in just one breath Why must it be? I cry behind this closed door, searching desperately for an answer, yet all I feel is an emptiness inside... despair haunts me forevermore Why did you have to go? Why did you have to leave? Why does this have to hurt? Cancer robbed thy life from thee... Why must it be? Fly away Angel Child of Mine Trod thy broken paths, roam away, fly and be free... Why must it be?


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This is about you

When you have downfall on your mind chaos is all a mind can find, its time to change all the things you had held so deep inside, they cause rage, your trapped in while your caught up in the cage of life an easy life with out strife, no more pain or struggle inside a bubble and you want to make it burst, but first things first you know the times that come will be the worst, because its change you want, and you will taunt the ones who set the curse. They say if you want to change a little then its your choice, but if you want to change a lot they must first hear your voice, loud enough for all to hear, listen and all of the problems soon disappear, just know that the world can be a  bleak one and people dont always listen so you cannot only speak once, so when the end is near you can look back at the goodtimes throughout all the years think about all the times and cheer, and thank god you lived this long and your still here. Be remembered  only for  the words you spoke, for you do not want to be invisioned inside a cloud of smoke, watch as they listen when you start to feel the choke on the thoughts about your life,a bad life,  a black life, envoloped in fear you were hoping that the man would hear, and maybe take a listen, to diamonds in your mind as you watch them glisten. finally move to a position, and  open your ears and let your mind be clear, and hear the wisdom spoken from the person on the otherside of the mirror, society sobriety with out a clue just sit and ponder at the deepest thoughts that are revealed in you...


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Tears

A great day ending in tragedy
now you wait until you get the news
I was scattered in different forms
The car door was slammed into my side
The doctor walks in to give you the news
You fall to the floor
Tears falling from your face
Your makeup running down unto your clothes
Making a stain where your heart used to be
I took you back into the darkest place of my soul
Something was different more darker than before
Now you wait until the funeral of your lost love
Your standing in the corner
Your face is covered in darkness
The blood runs from your eyes
How it hurts in the worst way now that im gone
Your realizing how much i meant to you
Something you havent seen before
Your blindness fades away as you start to see
You fall to the floor fainting
No one picks you up
They drop my casket into my little hole
Where i will stay all life long
How your tears fall unto the ground
Getting soaked up by the soil
Drowning me in your tears
Admire the past no more ways to see the future
Now that your starting to love me more
You wait until you see me in a dream
Dying like the past
As your moving on i fade away
I am no longer alive
You left me behind


Details | Ballad | |

Martyr for the Unorthodox word

If I had over 10,000 dreams You'd be the only thing my mind could see Judgment couldn't be real Succumbing to the fear of this cold life Find a way to break through The self-destruction of wordly delusions Don't tell me I've lived so long in a lovely illusion Break me down until we find a Nirvanic state Then bring me a savior from transgressions An atoning sacrifice Send down to me a messenger for me to submit to Bring me the truth to break through The delusion Bring me the messenger to explain it all And let me leave behind Sorrow's caressing the earth The caliphate stole my heart Without a will to fight But I have the Means to be free I'll try to go with the word I believe But so many stones to be thrown Stakes to burn, limbs to break Faces to hate, scorns to taste Will I have the will to die Despite all of the tears no one will cry Sorrow's caressing the earth The caliphate stole my heart Broke my will Safetefied my soul Martyr for the Unorthodox word Sorrow's caressing the earth The caliphate stole my heart Without a will to fight But I have the Means to be free I'll try to go with the word I believe But so many stones to be thrown Stakes to burn, limbs to break Faces to hate, scorns to taste Will I have the will to die Despite all of the tears no one will cry Sorrow's caressing the earth The caliphate stole my heart Broke my will Safetefied my soul Martyr for the Unorthodox word


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The Escapist's Plea,

I dont know where i'm going anymore hard to tell who you are when the indiffrency has settled in cold, empty, barren will i ever find a way? Help me find a way out of this sorrow filled cage My soul singed with everyday Reality so hard to face I need to find a way to escape Only if i could just fly a way I try to stay sane But i fell under the september rain A repuiem for the reality That i never wish to see Help me find a way out of this sorrow filled cage My soul singed with everyday Reality so hard to face I need to find a way to escape Only if i could just fly a way I need a way to escape, Only if I could just fly away


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Birthday warning!

A cold autumn morning, 
new rains have arrived 
today not so ordinary 
A little girls birthday goes by 

she had an accident 
she awoke in her bed wet 
today she is six, a present she did 
not expect 

A day without the jug cord 
would be her birthday wish 

Her hope is soon faded, 
for there her mother stood, 
A birthday beating just begun- 
her mothers' way 
of a little fun 

"you dirty little b!#@h"! 
I'm sick of washing your sheets 
this will fix you...and fix you good 
till you're black and blue 
...or till I'll make you bleed"! 

Happy Birthday to me... 
through aches and tears 
I am happy 
I survived to date six years 

alone in her closet 
she'd make this her car 
travel to far away happy lands 
go shopping for a star 

once she bet the jug cord 
she collected up the sheets 
took her mums' old coal shovel 
buried them under the house 
darkest corner beneath, 

her father gave her sixpence 
every time she was dry, 
or if she wet, he'd make her wetter 
he'd put her in a cold bath 

the little girl would trick him, 
moving the sheets about 
her mother would come in the room 
catch the little girl out 

the little girl did such things 
out of fear she lied 
the little girl was in a place 
she was trying to survive 

she adapted to her father 
she adapted to her mother 

though difficult it was 
it affected everything 
looking back the way she was 

she changed her life completely 
eradicated the fear 
her life gets better and better 
year after year 

her mum and dad to this day 
the little girl forgave 
she understands the way they were 
a woman she has grown 
forgiving to her grave 

she struggles on her birthday 
preferring to enjoy 
her spirit accepts what happened 
on that day the present 
she avoids 


Details | I do not know? | |

Nightmare

Standing alone in the night Dark all around Something doesn't seem quite right I hear a sound Like a werewolf howl Coming from all around And the noise of an owl Piercing red eyes appear Lightning strikes from the sky Death is seeming rather near And I don't want to die Am I dreaming? I hope I'm dreaming? Nightmare Confronting everything that I fear Nightmare The seeming reality of everything I see and hear Down into the ground I fall Deep into the dark Evil says my name, I hear it call The devil's made his mark I run, through the endless cave Stumbling through to find there's no way out Everything is what I've gave I've given up, all I want to do is scream and shout Nightmare! This is everything I fear Nightmare! I think the end is coming near I hope I'm dreaming I wish I was dreaming But I know this is my fate Lucifer, he can't wait To take my soul away There's nothing more I can do or say Nightmare! Losing everything I ever cared for Nightmare! Losing myself even more Nightmare! Nightmare! Nightmare! What I never want Nightmare! My mind is does haunt It don't care What I fear Cause with it, it grows I'm hating everything it knows I wish it wasn't real Everything I see and feel But it's true And just like a Nightmare!


Details | Rhyme | |

Put a bullet in my brain

Put a bullet in my brain
as the rain sweeps her out of my arms
and places her into another's.
Put a bullet in my brain
for I don't want to see love slip away
please end my suffering,
for I don't want to dare see her in the arms of another man.

I fear the tear that slips away from my soul
and touches the ground with a splash
as she is washed away by the lashed memories of the rain,
please, someone put a bullet in my brain.

I can't bear to see her with another man
laying in his arms
as he charishes her beauty
just like I did to her.
As she smiles and laughs at his jokes
my heart would not bare the sorrow and pain
that would tare my heart apart into pieces of tainted love.
Please tell the rain to stop,
as the pain grows when rain comes down,
please someone end my suffering,
put a bullet in my brain
and stop the rain
that washes away every memory of her.

Stop saying you miss me
and just kiss me
for I can't take the pain
of the rain that takes you away.
Kiss me and stop saying you miss me
for those are useless words to me.
Love is where it's at, so show me.
Don't go with him, he'll treat you wrong.
Love and laugh with me till the break of dawn
as we yawn the long night away.

Kiss me and don't say you miss me.
For if you go away from me,
I couldn't bare to take a tear and waste it away.
Tears, sweet tears crying for you,
doesn't that mean anything to you?
I ask you, stop the rain,
stop the pain and put that bullet in my brain.

Let the red blood flow from my temples.
Let the plow dig my grave,
for I can't bare to see you with another
in his arms, him kissing you, where I kissed you.
I can't take it, I have to make it,
make that pain go away.
Prayer didn't help, God turned a blind eye
when I came up and said why!
Put that bullet in my dome
and when I lay in the coffin, looking at the roof of the church
you come and kiss me, and then you can really say
that you'll miss me.


Details | Lyric | |

This Aint Real

Your face, 
Made a fake smile, (you said)
I love you,
I need you,
I want you just for a while,
You told me,
That I made you smile,
All the things you said to me,
Are just words now,
How can we love,
When you love me for yourself,
(This Aint Love)

Chorus: 2x
What are we doin,
If this love ain't real,
What is this feeling,
That I feel,

I'm broken in emotion,
I'm broken in love, (you said)
I need you,
I want you
You're the only one,
I'm thinkin of, (so tell me)
How can we love, 
When there's always someone else,
(This Aint Love)

Chorus 2x
Bridge:
How can we love,
When there's always someone else,
How can we make up,
When you only love me for yourself,

verse #3:
You got me imprisoned, 
Inside your heart,
When kissed
I felt, Like we,
Would never be apart,
chorus 2x

 


Details | Lyric | |

Overcoming Struggle

Overlook a lifetime past
Remember how it did not last
Life changes quickly before your eyes.
This so called reality surrounded by lies.
A sad thought it may seem
I do not want to open  my eyes to another dream.
Real reality set in.
Lets look forward and begin
I am in this game of life to win.
I will not give up and lose.
I will stand tall
even though I am battered and bruised.


Details | Elegy | |

The Lament For an Angel

All in one faded-black day (but let None forget) In my arms, her body lay (my life was the price to pay) A tragedy, through the lack of humanly shame (do they know pain) My darkly colleen has to suffer no more (Robert nor do you) Let me die (please hear my haunted cries) If I can not see Sophie tonight (live on with my grey) I'm just a mess of despairing words And broken nerves Another mourning, afflicted sight (through decay, love can remain) Solace, sympathy are just more lies She is all I need Until you decide she is just another sadist's toy My Angel, why did you have to fly so far away My Angel, just let one feather stay My Angel has flown away My Angel, why did you have to fly so far away My Angel, just let one feather stay My Angel has flown away (My body is amortal, die I may, Together, our hearts will forever stay)


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he is leaving home

                            
                  In great respect of the band I grew up listening to
                       as sure as Mom passed down Saturday Chores 
                      for I had been chosen to scrub bathroom floors `

                    Yet a familiar sound would bring me to keep scrubbing
                       The red album, The blue album , The White album 
                        Then .. Abbey Road , always remembering the sad look on
                  Ringo's face ,  something hard to understand underneath~
                       
                      I get it now, what you were saying all those years ago ,
                    the many sad lonely tears , secret tears , secret fears 
                    For Maxwell's Hammer was a real one . It wanted silence

                    Going back ..remembering when John Lennon died 
                      I was in Arkansas saddened with the world .
                      Then seeing his face saying " Drag isn't it " 
                      No .. this was not my hero in music and song .

                      he was a stand in hired William , he filled his shoes 
                      bringing diversity to create so much beautiful music from loss

                       One left standing , alone;; grief struck on back cover ~
                       The other identity hidden, tried to be part of ..coming together
                                                                                                                                                                        
                            his  world of secrets
                        He to suffers today , in fear , Faul~
                       
                        Too many years gone by .let us tell the Truth. Let us be free
                         The very sad long and winding Road ~
                         Let us Bury our real Paul. 

                         No more " Mystery tour "
                             No more fear 
                                Let him be in peace ~


           Inspired by " The Last Testament of George Harrison , Is Paul Dead ? "

                






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Solipsist

Let the Deicide commence.

You're a voyeur at best!
Your vampiric heart is beating out of your chest!
And you have slayed the ones whom would love you for anything less
Ready to consume the final fragments of innocence,
And for you there is no forgiveness,
On your knees pleading, screaming to a tyrant in the skies;
The father of lies.

I will never be enslaved in your superiority
The people agree: jaded of your false dichotomies.
Know: I will be whomever nature intends to be
Apollo and I will share our dreams,
and you will be forced to see
your failure!

I know who you are...
Readily the first to present your scars
Chained by some despot or mental czar
An emotional homunculus in your mind, behind bars
Reluctant to escape - even when proven fake
Your demented mind - depths no one will penetrate!
 
...And you see me suffering
Not caring of any casualties
Just as long you recieve your safeguard of sympathy
So very wary of the masses and their Anarchy; Liberious ways

Solipsist - Is there no one you can see?
Even if she was presented burning?
Solipsist - Is there no one you can believe?
Even if Sophia was screaming?
Solipsist - Know you have killed and abused me
Imprisoned in your own  personal reality 




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Kingdom Lost

In summertime, the ivy climbs,
and hides the castle wall.
The king dreams of late,
that the sea is so great,
and yet - his boat is so small.
As swift as a fox and
dark as a raven on wing,
seven hundred soldiers march  
into the valley of the king.
Long overdue, a battle ensues
flanking the powers that be.
Children cry, and good men die, 
the monarch is now on his knee…
Soon the horsemen alone 
try to maintain the throne.
But the long way around
is the shortest way home.
The evening is filled
with chaos and smoke,
and the kingdom is 
stunned by it all…
Soon the sun will go down,
and in spite of his crown, 
the king will undoubtedly fall…
His rival’s strength
was mistaken,
by a king overtaken,
his life is now but a pawn.
His authority lifted,
the power has shifted –
an era of glory is gone…
 
 
Copyright © 2013
 


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We Welcome the Sun

We welcome the sun
We welcome the sun 

A gleaming sunrise is seen in the distance – shedding relief 
Bursting forth like fireworks in the dark blue sky 
Hues of beauty and sincerity washes away our grief
The cheery clouds come together like lovers embracing one another

I’m never waving goodbye
   
It’s so surreal… and magnificent to see this scene unfold
You lift up the sparkling light… you’re an angel from up above
It’s so vibrant – the illuminated sight never dulled 
You bring us luck and excitement – 

You’re as pleasant as a dove 

We welcome the sun
We welcome the love
We welcome the sun
We welcome the sun 
To omit the darkness 
To abolish the distress
To conceal the darkness
And reveal the halo
Hovering around your head
Burning away the dread 
We welcome the sun
We welcome the sun 
We welcome the sun

An ocean of love is rubbing against my feet
Blankets of comfort embrace me now… our love will never dry
You treat us with reverence and I repeat – 
You’re as pleasant as a dove – taking wing from on high 
We welcome the sun in the morning 
We welcome the sun with open arms
We welcome the sun 
We welcome the sun
We welcome the sun 
We welcome the sun 

A speedy breeze is whistling in my ears
Spiraling mad like a spinning top
Spiraling mad with all of its might 
You’re very intriguing – you casted away our fears 
Your gorgeous eyes
Project bright green and blue
You’re special in His sight 
He welcomes you
We welcome the hope 
We welcome the sun
We welcome the sun
We welcome the sun 
To lighten up your load 
And lead you to the mercy road
Where you and I will escape to paradise
To drive out all of the negativity
To conceal the wretched farewells
To reveal the light in goodbye 

We welcome the sun
We welcome the sun
We welcome you
With open arms 


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Black and White

You’ve maddened me to the core 
You singed me with your ferocious fire
We’re opposites… we’ll never integrate  
We can’t blend with each other…
Your love and I’m hate 
We’re contrary to each other…

So don’t even think about 
Getting us back together 
Because without a doubt, 
We don’t click with each other…

So let us go our own way…

Everything’s black and white
You love to torture me with your deceptive devices 
We’re playing this chess match – let’s fight!
Tonight, you’re going to pay the prices
You’re going to be deleted from my mind…

I’m not the one that should pay the price
You act as if you’re an angel from heaven
But, you’re a fiend…a devil from hell...who needs your advice?
Could someone unchain me from this prison?

So let us prepare for that day…

Fear and bewilderment build inside of our minds
Taking over us…we’re wasting valuable time
Terror and wrath injects into our veins…time starts to unwind 
I’m regaining my glory…this moment feels so sublime  

You think you’re innocent?
I can sense your guilt…bleeding through you
Do you live to feed me anguish? 
Don’t deny it…you crafty demon…no wonder I feel blue

Let’s get ready for battle…
I’ll watch you decay…
IT’S PAY BACK TIME . . .
Taste my fury and my agony 

Everything’s black and white
You love to torture me with your deceptive devices 
We’re playing this chess match – let’s fight!
Tonight, you’re going to pay the prices
You’re going to be defeated…

I scream before nightfall
I close my eyes to kiss my demise
I want to disappear 
Scratch away my desolation
Wipe away my tears…
Spewing out of my eyes…like a waterfall
Tonight, there will be dismay
There will be suffering 
After sundown…
Failure and glory will expose like stars in the midnight sky
Who will earn the crown? 
No one knows in silent wars – who can reveal the light in goodbye
  
Why are we black and white?
Are you too afraid to know the reason why? 

Everything’s black and white
You love to torture me with your deceptive devices 
We’re playing this chess match – let’s fight!
Tonight, you’re going to pay the prices
You’re going to suffer alone…


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Lacerated Wings

They are bound to the Earth like trees
Suffocating under the weight of an icy grave 
Reaching to be free, but only their limbs are seen
Hoping that one day someone will see:
They can't escape with lacerated wings

The ocean surrounds me, covering everything
Nothing will be clearly seen; confusion overwhelming
No-one can save you, you're on your own, left to die
Manipulating every bleeding heart you can find
I can't escape with lacerated wings.

Swarms of nets, waves of screams 
Entangle: your captive illusions and dreams
The mask has be seared - The truth now they see
The Liar - Vampiric Fiend; lowly thief
And now they know you can't escape with Lacerated Wings

There's reasons for your rejections:
Your Heavy heart's transferred oppression
The scars are too deep to pass the trials
But you can find peace in your cage of empty spirals
You Cannot Escape With Lacerated Wings


Details | Light Poetry | |

You Alone

Look at you, you have found my heart
With love I stare into your eyes
With passion I devise
I can not part with you or can not stop the things I have started

So I raise my hands to embrace you and you alone

Look I walk by your side and I found my self crying
With your hands so soft with gentleness
With your smile so beautiful with carefulness
I do notice life with you without sighing

So I raise my hands to embrace you and you alone

Without a fear of losing you, you are in my visions
With beautiful roses by your side 
I love you more than twelve times
Without doubt I do love you, I care for you and you alone

So do not walk away 
Please lets talk about things anyway
With feelings of letting you go is make me ache in the heart
Do not stop believing my passion has fallen apart

So I raise my hands to embrace you and you alone

Look I want us to grow old with each other through years of journeys
With hope of sharing life of fulfillment that gives us memories
With this I hope to give all of my faith and I hope it is not to late
I Look into your eyes with such full life because you have been my life date

So I raise my hands to embrace you and you alone

And you alone

So I raise my hands to embrace you

you alone



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Forever Changed

June 18, 2013 our world was Forever Changed
We where over halfway home
When we got the call from our baby sister

Said we need to get back home
We need to come as fast as we can drive
Mom really needs us
Something’s wrong with Daddy
The whole way we drove 80
Hoping & Praying we’d make it in time

Our Family & Friends were weeping 
By the time we got to his side
We knew our Daddy had been taking
And our hearts they were breaking
We never got to say Goodbye
We each softly kissed that man
We four sisters climbed in his bed 
We laid down beside him 
And cried just like babies
For our world was Forever Changed 
 
 


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Glisten in the Moonlight

Your glorious emerald eyes 
Glisten in the moonlight 
Glisten in the moonlight 
Delight dances in the water
I watch it joyfully
You are set free from the cage...
You're like a dove soaring in the sky
You are the rain...
drizzling down in ecstasy 
A hint of ecstasy is shown in your reflection...
When you caress me... I'm relieved... 
From the stress that forced me in chains
I knew we'd be on the brighter side of tomorrow 
We're glistening in the moonlight 
I knew we'd become candles in the heavens above us
We're glistening in the moonlight
For a moment, I felt your presence...your radiant with sympathy 
I saw at first glance the dark side of you
Tonight, we'll be together and fly through the horizon 
We'll watch the sunset say its last goodbye...
We'll wave a greeting at the moon! 
We glisten in the moonlight...
What if I was as handsome as the lion...
Roaring with pride and pure courage
What if we were glistening in the moonlight?
Would it bring health to our bones tonight?
Would it make our heart rejoice and overflow with delight?
Would we be able to survive this horrifying plight?
Would we be shimmering like a candlelight?
We're glistening in the moonlight... (6)
Ohh...yeah...ooh yeah...ooh yeahh...
We reach to the stars and hope we can trace a shooting star
I feel the coolness run down my fingers...
We're glistening in the moonlight
You're the dandelions in the fields
You're the gorgeous view that I marvel at everyday
When you kiss me, I live my dreams
We glisten in the moonlight
In a quick moment, I sense a feeling of endless renewal 
I roam inside of your illuminating maze 
Glow on... sunshine... 
Glow on...sunshine...
Glisten in the moonlight...
Listen to the truth and rub it in
You are ravishing like the sunset
But you're ascending while I'm descending
I feel extremely guilty
I wish I could glisten with you in the moonlight
You're glistening in the moonlight (6) 
Ohhh yeahh... oohhh yeahh... ohh yeahh
You're glistening in the moonlight (4)
We go our own way
I wish we can glisten like the moon
Glisten like the sun 
There's a dream concealed inside of me...
Reveal your light and pour it upon me
You glisten in the appealing moonlight
While I'm subsiding... you're fulfilling your dreams
Of gliding across the horizon 
You're independence... keeps on scorching with satisfaction
While I'm below you... 
Your emerald green eyes
Stared me down like a hawk...
Your emerald eyes
Gaze down at me genuinely...
I wish we could flee together in reality...
That could be a possibility
To glisten in the moonlight in glee
We were glistening in the moonlight (3)
But that was only a dream...
I'll pray that it turns into a reality
We were glistening in the moonlight 
Now, I've misplaced my delight...
Will I ever experience such a brilliant night?


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I'm not perfect

I'm not perfect 
I'm far from it
I make mistakes and when i'm near defeat i give up and run from it 
Afraid to fall in love for fear of losing it 
My emotions are what i'm losing to
And myself is who i'm losing with
Afraid to get up,for fear i may fall
Fear i may fall so i dont get up
I'm stuck
Within myself
Too scared to defend myself 
Too proud to ask for help
So i melt
No one to blame but myself


Details | Lyric | |

Smoke in the distance

Smoke in the distance

I saw it in the distance
The air was filled with smoke
A bush fire, it was raging
Oh, lord this was no joke
For I was heading homeward
It was starting to look bad
For my house was up yonder
The fear it drove me mad.

I've seen so many fires
I know what they can do
I nearly lost my home before
It's bad, I'm telling you
The fear was getting stronger
My imaginations, wild
I felt my body trembling
As I panicked like a child.

The thick black smoke was rising
I drove the car like mad
My house might be on fire
Oh, it was looking bad.

As I reached my destination
My fears did melt to nil
I'll remember that grand feeling
I guess I always will
My house it was still standing
That fire had passed on through
Oh lord it felt so wonderful
I don't mind I'm telling you.

14 October 2013 @ 0755hrs.
Peter Duggan, for groove it contest in Country and Western mode
Sorry, the best I can do.


Details | Ballad | |

Antigone

I am the face of misery
My life, a dissonance of autumn and spring,
The years are written in the same
Lugubrious, nostalgic grey
How can it be the author to blame?
I cannot scream this all away…
Burn nor Bleed this all away…
To Death I am Ordained

Lacuna ever growing
With Velvet sheets of life flowing
Aeons apart of my "royalty"
Under the mask the cannot see...
Can you dispel this tragedy:
Antigone - Epiphany failing

If it must be…
Then just kill me,
(Antigone) sing me out of reality;
I wear this dissonant crown of shame
(Antigone) Of a kingdom's disdain
I hate to be this way... normalcy's bane
(Antigone) Here comes the edict, to blame
The sordid child of Thebes,
This is me,
Antigone

No words of hope
No words of hate
Do I have Lenore to send to me:
The sordid child of Thebes
Caught In the longest nightmare
life - the slowest way to die

I know this is my life 
But I'm not under control
under the mask the will see
Just Another Human

If it must be…
Then just kill me,
(Antigone) sing me out of reality;
I wear this dissonant crown of shame
(Antigone) Of a kingdom's disdain
I hate to be this way... normalcy's bane
(Antigone) Here comes the edict, to blame
The sordid child of Thebes,
This is me,
Antigone

If it must be…
Then just kill me,
(Antigone) sing me out of reality;
I wear this dissonant crown of shame
(Antigone) Of a kingdom's disdain
I hate to be this way... normalcy's bane
(Antigone) Here comes the edict, to blame
The sordid child of Thebes,
This is me,
Antigone

Can you dispel my life; this tragedy?
Can you control the storm in my mind?
I'm asking you: can you rid me
Of The Curse of Antigone?


Details | Haiku | |

Haikus About God: V

Omniscient guy
Yet he lets bad things happen
How can he exist?


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As the river flows

As the river flows

As the river flows
So surely to the sea
It’s power be a wondrous sight
As it roams the land so free
The path of no resistance
Is how she lives each day
I will learn from this old river
I need to live this way.

As the river flows
She takes all in her stride
Not dogged by expectations
Not held back by her pride
She flows into the ocean
She knows this be her home
She has no need to hurry
She’s just content to roam.

Oh, I’ll be like that river
That’s how I’ll live my life
All free from fear and worry
Until my time is rife
To join that mighty ocean
All filled with sweet devotion.

As the river flows
And things get in her way
She knows to never struggle
Just flows from day to day
And lets the power take her
To where she needs to go
Her softness melts all obstacles
Albeit, oh so slow.


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Ride the magic rainbow

Ride The Magic Rainbow

Let us ride a magic rainbow in our minds
And glimpse the God of light in starry dreams.
Let us leave our petty worries far behind
And go where nothing’s even like it seems.

Let us bath our frightened minds in cozy calm
And visit all the visions of our youth.
When we so snug were sheltered from all harm
For we have wandered far from realms of truth.

So take my hand let’s walk that mystic path
And through those golden gates we two will go.
Where ecstasy will cause our souls to laugh
As deep within our star of beauty glows.

Then freed at last our joy will shine so bright
Sweet mystery will gently take our hands.
And everything will seem so very right
And we’ll hear the whisper saying “understand”


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SUM OF ALL MY DOUBTS


I have watched the glory of the brightest star
but never came close enough to touch its fingers,
searched the realms that inhabit its womb
or even felt that wildly virginal lust, because

I think this personal résumé is gauged by the sum
of all my human inadequacies and lost challenges
against mythical idols, godly super-heroes of media,
that in a quest like a holy grail, I strive to find

myself in the me, writhing inside my very core
hiding as a porcelain doll, face unmoved.
Fuelled by relentless doubt, I have no name
which can define my worth as a child-woman,

an artist, a lover needing to taste the fire of life.
Moths nibble my pores, staining my old dress...
while the luminous star passes me by in a flash
as if to leave me naked again, infertile among weeds.

                       -------------

F.J. Thomas' I Spit Fire Contest


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A Tragedy at Midnight

And the clock strikes twelve
Her blood turns to ice
The crows are screaming
The child is sleeping
The fire licks her feet
As she silently prays
And the angels cry
And the corpses dance
And the lost souls
Are found at lasts
When the child wakes
To a ruin of ash
And sees the body
Of her mother
And the body
Of her father
And the body 
Of her sister
Picked clean by ghouls
As she drifts to join them
And then she stares
At her own dead body
Just laying there.


Details | ABC | |

Push Up

i could sit here. day in and day out
thinking of the most proper way
to let the ink in the pen spill out
but as of late im feeling prehistoric 
so much weight on my shoulders 
and i dont know where to go
resuscitate my soul
look back up and head to the goal

so much evil around. i feel like the devils workin double shifts just to bring me down.
on the road to redemption
you can take a seat up in the front section
just so you can feel the emotions
in this electric notion

i've done a lot of things that hide the halo
let it all collaborate when i medicate 
now look at me, mind workin like plato
formulate a new path to take so i can
maneuver through all the mistakes 
we all know we cant change what we've already made
but we can change the next thing we create
startin to sound like a serenity prayer
5 steps till im thirty
and the twenty four before i was never a player
found out when the lights came back on im strictly a lover
its the strongest drink for your soul, when its thirsty
so careful how much you intake or be left hungover
even worse be the one she ran over

i dont mean to come off like im too deep
but the obstacles made there way through just to scrape through
and leave me suffocating
just for me to re-invent a new way to breathe, re-decorating

is your life so complicated 
you rather wet up your pillows and revoke from the life you live
just think of your kids mourning 
theyll never see that pretty face in the morning any more
cheer your self up
you got a lot to live for
your a gem and im that friend
trynna appraise the value 
that you dont see inside of you


just another day for him
goin about
searchin wonderin what his purpose is
running in circles 
till he found a way through all the turbulence





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A Quest That Shall Be Pervailed

*A Quest That Shall Be Prevailed*

Vanity has been dehydrated and drained.
Sanity has been corrupted and stained.

I weep for a world that shall one day burn.
Our souls, I fear are lost, there is no turn.
It is realm adorned with filth and crime;
It is an era where we serve no time.

It is a realm where no rules apply,
It is a world were no love can survive,
Our hearts, I fear have crossed roads
We’ve carried and cradled burdens and loads.

Our fate, I fear is sealed, we shall forever perish,
And lose a country that we once so dearly cherished.

Here you stand..
Taking on
Colossal burden
Blazing passion
Blood sucking rage
All of which have resided
Have never lessened, have never subsided
And as the years go by…
Passion has became a mighty sore,
And seized the once tender loving core
Rage has become a sizzling, unyielding itch
To the very souls, I fear we are in need of a generous stitch
And you off all; Blazing Passion!
I fear shall show no compassion!
They all have tied you up and brought you down
All what they left is a broken heart, a pitiless frown

Let us not let the blazing passion conquer
Let us not let the blood sucking rage prosper
Let us not let the colossal burden prevail
Let us not bow!, let us not hail!                                                         
~M.M.M


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Stand on your own two feet

What will you do when you lose everything you own
How will you feel when you lose everything you once called home

Don't you know
They'll stab you through the heart
They'll bring you to your knees
They won't let you go
Until you lose your faith
So stand up to the ground
Don't let them bring you down
Put your faith in God
Don't let them bring you down

Are you prepared to lose your friends, your family
Are you willing to walk the streets alone
Do you have faith in God above
Do you know what it truly means to fall in love

So
Stand on your own two feet
Hold on to what is true
This world is a scary place
But God has blessed us with love we can't replace

Don't you know
They'll stab you through the heart
They'll bring you to your knees 
They won't let you go
Until you lose your faith
So stand up to the ground
Don't let them bring you down
Put your faith in God
Don't let them bring you down

When these troubles come
Please my friend
Don't give into the fear of death
When these troubles come
Please my friend
Hold on to your faith
Never lose what is true to you

So 
Stand on your own two feet
Hold on to what is true
This world is a scary place
But God has blessed us with love we can't replace

What will you do when you lose everything you own
How will you feel when you lose everything you once called home


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To young to die

Too young to die


They take a boy, too young to shave
Who has never lived his life
While his mates are chasing girls
They fill his life with strife
They send him off to a brand new war
Over some damned fools Ideal
I don’t understand their wars
And I guess I never will


The folk who like to run the show
Or most of them at least
Have never even been to war
They’ve never felt the beast
As he rips right into one’ intestines
That hollow hole of fear!
Each leader should be sent to war
Then the picture might grow clear


Then when they send young boys to war
They’ll see the whole damned show
The weight of endless terror
 And then maybe they’ll know
What it’s like as a fine young man
To be sent out there to die
He might then know, how a mother feels
When she’s lost her little guy.

1 August 2013 @ 1443hrs.


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Come As You Are

At one point in my life i was an artist
I used to paint and draw
Covering a piece of paper
In beautiful colors
And my art told a story
The sort of story you couldn't talk about
I used to go to school every day
Showing up late 
Wasn't something I'd do
But i dropped out
Leaving my education behind
I played the bass guitar
In a band called 
The Nocturnal
My fingers ran against that bass
Pure magic
The sound of the gods
Setting out to destroy the world
Pure Punk straight from Seattle
At one point i was clean
Sober and pure like a new born baby
Falling further into 
What you now call 
"disapointment"
Screwing up my veins
with every shot of herion
Killing my brain cells
With every joint i smoked
Clogging up my nose 
With every pill you could have known
I used to write lyrics
About my life
My childhood
I used to write journals
The ones you read in the book 
that was published of me
I got up on that stage every night
As i was
Nothing fake
Nothing glamourous
Only a few scars
One shot of heroin
Come as you are
The words only speak for 
Themselves


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Elysium Dream of Love

I close my weary eyes
Holding onto the hope
Of not having to cope
Not a mintue longer
Without you by my side
Not expierencing
The warm look in your eyes
The tingling rush of your finger tips
That would grip my hair tight
To stop you from slipping into the night
Biting  your bottom lip
As a pinch to yourself
To see if it was real
The dream of love we felt
And now that you are gone
I only wish to die
Your image fades from my mind
Sometimes I see it clear,
The sun is skillfully stroking it set in the sky
As my feet float down the road across the tuscan country side
I ever so gently sense the wildy grown wheat
Tickling these troubled lines engraved in the palm of my hand
I playfully pick one out of the land and pluck the grains
I look up and in the distance is where she waits
But there she remains peacefully strolling through the calming field
In a white cotton dress that tails off in the wind and
wearing a small confident smile that makes my yearning heart yield
Whispering in my ear that soon I will make it home
But my Life's journey must continue down this God paved road
I awake with the longing of her, But with so much to do
I need God's strength for one more day to get through


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The Undisputed

The Undisputed



 I usually prevail when mostly other have doubts,

 as my hostel rival friends taunt, boo and shout,

 when they know my mind is focus on that title bout.

 I took the stubborn champ to the limit with a reserve

 of deadly impact of fresh crushing blows therefore

 had the ruthless undefeated champ dazed, shocked,

 and lay resting looking at my dancing toes as

 I exit to go ending the big show.


 2/15/11 by Keith K. Relf


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Words of Life

Drowning in the pool of anguish…oh…oh…
I’m venturing into the forest…and I want to hear the words seep out 
Release these aching sorrows…I worry my soul’s drying out…
like a drought…
Drain out the fluids from my heart
It’s gouging me…bruising me to the core…

**chorus** 
Embrace the light…embrace the midnight sky…
You fall in my arms – you die so warm
Shed me more sun to lift up my spirits
From the…underground…and release me – I’m breathless
I’m drowning in doubt…ooh… oh… 


Remember me…I’m falling…into my swirling fate…hanging on the roots 
Strangling my heart…distorting in my veins… I’m bleeding so softly – cut out the wood…
Splintering me…I’m shattering… and I’m falling in the abyss
Bring me more radiance from my candle light
Warp me up in bliss…don’t let the midnight sky…don’t take away my delight
From the…ocean…and save me—save me…oh… oh…  I’m failing 

*chorus*

I’m drowning in regret…ooh..oh…
Hit the bull’s eye in my heart…embrace the light
And don’t leave me hanging in the abyss…hand me a kite!
Save me before I fall apart…shut out the night
And don’t let the dusk escape us…

I must confess…
I must confess…
I hate to see you abandon the light…
But I’m not the one to save you from the night
Ooh…ohh…

*Chorus* 

Splintering lies fill your heart 
I want to kiss it goodbye…
But you’ve mastered it like a piece of art
I want to kiss the abyss and die…
Dry… I wanna touch the sky with my whole soul
But I’m failing and the end of time has taken its toll
Tainted sorrow…swims around me…I dwell where the waters depart
But the anguish still swarms in my heart…
I’m failing…my heart stops beating
And my desires are fleeting
From my grasp
And the monsters laugh at me…as I fall… 

*chorus*

Embrace the midnight sky…catch me…catch me…
As I fall in death’s arms…I die so cold
And your heart is made of gold

Untangle the darkness & take away the nightmares 
Answer our prayers & block out the night 
Erase the heartaches & wipe away our tears
Unravel Your words of life & delight


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It's Not Over

Don’t say it’s all over (cause it’s not)
“Sorry” won’t cover it…so don’t go on your knees and pray for my forgiveness 
Oh baby…don’t listen to the commotion…I’m done taking cover (it’s all for naught)
I’m plummeting in slow motion…into the remorseful pit…I’m plummeting in my nightmare’s abyss

I want to carry you through the night… 
I’m swimming in the ocean of my tears… 
My sodden wings lost its ability of flight…
You've been swimming in your distress for years… 

Shut up! Don’t say it...
Don’t even think of it (don’t even ponder it)
Hey! Don’t say it’s all over…though we’re breaking bit by bit 
‘Cause there’s more treasure to discover 

I want to remind you to fight the good fight…
My misery pools are brewing inside of my head…
I’m backing away from the light & exploring the night… 
You’re giving in to sleep and I’m wide awake on my bed 

Shut up! Don’t say it...
Don’t even think of it (don’t even ponder it)
Hey! Don’t say it’s all over…though we’re breaking bit by bit 
‘Cause there’s more treasure to discover 

Please don’t tell me…oh, don’t tell me…darling!
You’re giving up today… (I beg you to stay, despite your inner pain) 
I’m scared I might erupt – it could be quite startling!
Someday, things will change for the better… (Don’t turn the wrong lane)
I’m waiting for that day to arrive – perhaps it will wash away our dismay…

I promise you a tranquil reality 
I want to stray with you tonight 
I still have hope that He’ll set us free
I was wondering if you could stay the night
Maybe the Lord could grant us 
Pure, incredible delight 

Shut up! Don’t say it...
Don’t even think of it (don’t even ponder it)
Hey! Don’t say it’s all over…though we've plunged into our own pit 
‘Cause there’s more treasure to gather…


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Draconian II

[The Puppeteer]
The storm I see you in
Caught in the race of Caïn
Held by the arms you cannot see--the conducter of Ennui 
-No stronger than the void you hold within-
It began with a hope, an obsession
Casted into, slavery of repugnant possessions 
Granted by, the Avaricious Lords, the ones we serve for
-They Told Us to pray, hope, away from despair, the despair caused by their immaculate Hands
Malice, envy, greed, was granted to me, The Feudal Dream, we want to be Them, just like him
-just how he solaces us, ambivalent hope, engendering knives to my throat 

[The Fall]
In this Valley of morning and weeping
Love lies bleeding, in desperate fear
With their talons, the hunt to rip out thy heart 
As each velvet petal falls apart
Her body chained in their bile and lies, covered with their red-spy
-sent just to check if our souls are in line, do not defy 
Her blood velvet and pure, drips away with innocence of the amber guardian 
The soil of plagues, beggars, and graves
Is know her home, the coven of solace
Though the seed has died--resurrection Is near passing through death's fear
One stronger than you--and thy funeral skies
She is alive--anew
But the vapors still remain
The Apocalypse is here, do we fear?
Just for the death of our sins
Elysia never Seemed so far away

[Our Damnation]
Solitary ruins, Fulfill their visions
We strayed far from the depths within 
We all lingered to his solace--lies
-you make the sign everyday, but lack toknow the name
We are just the toys, he pulls all of the strings
We are nothing in this burning world
of Decadence, and Failed Semblance

[Draconian] 
Draconian--Reach for the shadows within
Draconian--Break from the Fallen's son
Draconian--Their empirical lies, only die
Draconian--Reach the shadows within


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In my corrupt stead

Draped from her body, they sparkle like gold. Tear soaked and smothered, in lies that she's told. She wears them ashamed, but she wears them with grace. To cover the pain, that is etched in her face. 
  It's her mark, it's her passion, her reason to breathe. As shallow and weak, as pathetic can be. 
  For the last time I saw her, was the last place she laid. Where I held her so close, deep down in her grave. No more to be seen, no more to betray. Damned and unheard, while she cried out in vain. 

Don't pity the evil, corrupt and forsaken. Who've strayed from the path, that they should have taken. It's all self inflicted, they live unrestricted. But on this their last day, they'll all be convicted. 

Etched in his body, the scars will remain. Blood soaked in madness, he's nearly insane. He wears them in anger, but he wears them with pride. To expose to the world, all his hate that's inside. 
  It's his mark, it's his passion, his reason to breathe. As shallow and weak, as cruel as can be. 
  But the last place I saw him, was the last time he raged. Where I beat him and broke him, deep down in his grave. No more to be seen, no more to be heard. Damned and destroyed, underneath all his dirt. 

Don't pity the evil, corrupt and forsaken. Who've strayed from the path, that they should have taken. It's all self inflicted, they live unrestricted. But on this their last day, they'll all be convicted.

Now sift through my ashes, gather up all my bones. Let him without sin, cast the first stone. Pile me up in a bucket, and leave me to stay. So I can face my creator, on my judgement day. 
 It's my life, it's my passion, it's what I believe. As misunderstood, as reckless can be. 
  For the last time you saw me, was the last time I prayed. Where I dug my own hole, and laid down in my grave. No more to be hated, no more to be feared. For in my corrupt stead, an angel appeared. 


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Silver Ships

Written May 31, 2013


The sun does rise
Over silver ships sailing in the sky
Rain on down on our parade
In a concrete jungle
The kids come out to play
Masked by this dreadful masquerade

A cosmic dance where stars collide
The kids and parents run to hide
Shelter from the enemy above
Who light up the sky with lightning bugs

The land is dark and the sky is black
Mothers pray the birds will not come back
Be it by barren land or vicious sea
Lord just hear our plea

The sun does rise
Over silver ships sailing in the sky
Rain on down on our parade
In a concrete jungle
The kids come out to play
Masked by this dreadful masquerade


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Chasing A Dream

To what end can I chase a dream
You know it would seem 
To be insane…………
Never knowing what's real but still feeling the pain

I can reach for the flowers in bloom 
But they're all consumed
The fires' to deep - I just wish I could sleep

I look to the moon for answers but she just smiles
I don't have a clue - I've got too many miles

To what end can I chase a dream 
You know it would seem 
To be insane…………
Never knowing what's real but still feeling the pain

I cry out in the night - but the echo hurts me
It breaks me down into broken dreams
I run for the door but its no longer open - to me
I cover my eyes...... but still I can see

To what end can I chase a dream 
You know it would seem 
To be insane…………
Never knowing what's real but still feeling the pain

©2013C.L.Baker


Details | Haiku | |

Haikus About God: VI

The body: sacred
We’re all made in God’s image
Hence... circumcision?


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The Reluctant Graduate

It's Insanity 

I'm not ready
how could they think I was
I'm not ready for the world
to leave it all behind just cause

I'm not ready to move on
to tell all I love good bye
I'm not ready to graduate
will someone tell me why?

why does it have to end
especially so soon
I'm to young to be on my own
please tell me what to do

18 is not that old at all
to grow up and be an adult
to have a job and pay my bills
I know nothing of that stuff

please somebody help me
there has to be a way
school is all I've ever known
I won't be ready on graduation day


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SCARY 1

Try me, fool, and the semi gon' bang
I'm a big dog, I gotta' let my nuts hang
If I go to jail, best believe I'm bonding out
I always handle beef, that's what I'm all about
I'm not a punk, somebody lied--
I'm bustin' shots, let's get that fixed

Sleep on me, see me in ya' worst nightmares

I'm Hell-raiser, dead fresh in some Nike-Airs

Or in a monkey suit, totin' something with a banana clip

Leave you wet, like dry lips after applying Chap-stick

Ain't talking 'bout a blunt, but I rolled-up

I'm gon' wet these fools, hope they don't mold-up

When it go down, I go ape-shit, bananas

put coward to sleep, without the pajamas

Keep bustin' shots, like pimples on a maturing teen

I do my dirt, but leave the crime scene clean

Stay fresh, but they always call me grimy

They say I'm too gangsta', so they won't sign me

I put in work, man, I'm clockin' in overtime

Haters faces looking sour, like they suckin' on lime

You got beef, well guess what, that's all I eat

I stand my ground, you just sit in your seat

Can't let fools run me over, I'm not a roadkill

Leave you in the streets leakin', looking like an oil spill

You got a problem, I know how'tta' get that solved

Apply pressure, let's not get ya' family involved


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Beyond the Frontier

Where am I? Why is it dark?
This isn’t what I had in mind when I left the park…
Why isn’t the wind whispering…the songbirds singing?
All I remember is a telephone ringing…
A scream and a crash and a pain in my side…
Is this what happens after one’s died?
I don’t feel like myself, I feel wild and free,
Yet I’m cold and alone, 'stead of filled with glee.

My whole life I’ve studied, and pondered, and prayed,
Trying to fathom what would happen this day
But now that it’s here, I’m beginning to fear
Maybe the afterlife’s not what it appears…
It’s certainly not what I’ve been told by my preacher
Or my parents or brother or best friend or teacher…
Is it a bad thing, or is it good?
Maybe it’s just not quite understood...

While I was on Earth, I just couldn’t wait
To meet good St. Peter at the heavenly gate
And ask him a question or query or two
“What was my purpose?” “What good did I do?”
“What’s it all for?” “How does it all flow?”
“Can I have one more body, one more try, one more go?”
But where is the angel? Where is the gate? And
If this is Hell, then where is Ol’ Satan?
Am I a lost soul? Am I forgotten?
Am I to be left here until I am rotten?

Lo and behold! what, now, can this be?
Is this a wonderful spiritual epiphany?
Is this the magical feeling all souls receive
When they leave Earth? Oh! was I that naïve?
How could I have not seen the realism?
Why was I consumed in man-made idealism?
This is more wondrous than all I was taught
Oh, all the times I argued and fought
With others, ‘bout how their views were asinine
Now I see, theirs were just as wrong as mine!
Little I thought was actually correct!
How, why, did I let others petty beliefs infect
My untouched, my pure, my virgin mind?
I regret all the hours I self-tortured to find
That compared to what I see now, I was empty and blind…

Wait - - What is this that I see?
What is this gateway that is revealed unto me?

Now a door is opened to my immortal soul
I am expected now to enter my life’s final goal…
I am scared, intimidated, but still I am glad…
For the truth I have just seen is anything but bad.
This is the end of my journey, I’ve nothing to fear,
For now I am going Beyond the Frontier.


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Dark Lullaby

Go to sleep little child;
Close your eyes and shut them tight,
For we do not know if day will break
And be swallowed up by night.

But for now, worry not, my dear;
The dark's not as bad as it seems.
Though darkness looms over the future,
You can still escape into your dreams.

Lie still my darling baby;
Breathe calmly and breathe slow
Enjoy the quiet of the tranquil night
And the moon's hypnotic glow.

Worry not about the closet
Or the things under your bed;
Escape into Dreamland, my dear,
Safe from all the things you dread.

And if tomorrow fails in coming,
At least you will not be here;
Fly away my child, to the Land of Dreams...

Or be consumed by your fears.


Details | Ballad | |

Isolation

How can I tell you?
I can't stay with you.

Neither I can give up on you.
Fear of losing you is losing me.
It feels like slow death every night.

But we are just stuck in our spaces!
Unable to connect from two feet distance.


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Summertime Re-Lyric

Summertime…and the livin’ is easy,                                                
Flowers growin’ and the sun’s sittin’ high.                                    
Your Daddy’s rich and your Momma’s so good lookin’;               
So hush, pretty baby…you got no reason to cry. 

One of these days, you’re gonna rise up smilin’.
Take a look around and think you’ve got it all.
You’ve got your Momma’s looks, all your Daddy’s money,
And all the boys in town are at your beck and call.

Summertime…and the livin’ is so easy,
Laughin’, singin’, havin’ so much fun.
No time to stop and think about your future
And what life will bring when your Summer’s  done.

‘Cause Summertime, it don’t last forever.
Breezes cool and the leaves begin to fall;
And in your quiet moments, you sit and wonder
How you've come so far, but have no love at all.

Yes, Summertime…and the livin’ was so easy; 
Ain’t it sad how fast the good times fly; 
And now your Momma’s looks and all your Daddy’s money
Another sweet, warm Summer’s day they cannot buy. 


Details | Ballad | |

Deadman Wonderland

Now that you're becoming Undone It's time to have some fun In Deadman Wonderland Khoon Tu Kao Khoon Tu Kao Khoon Tu Kao The setting Red Sun of Kali Shows it's time for your life to Pay We are the Kind to be feared -your friends We look like anyone you see Thuggee--Death's Devotees Face our treachery Bhowanee we must please She needs more--we have found our mark, our mark Won't you be the one to save humanity? Can't you see this is Deadman Wonderland Khoon Tu Kao Khoon Tu Kao Khoon Tu Kao Sacrifice! For The Black-Skinned Queen Sacrifice! For Our Mother Kali Sacrifice! It's Not Enough Sacrifice! No Mercy! This is Deadman Wonderland Deadman Wonderland This is Deadman Wonderland Deadman Wonderland


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Wasting Time

Way above the street lights
Watching yourself die
Waisting time

They left you in so much pain
You lost everything
For so many years
You pushed me out
Cant describe how i feel

This time im not going to watch myself cry
im not going to bury myself on the inside
You say you want the old me back
If you want me back
Your going to have to ask
Nice than that


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The loss of innocense

The loss of innocence.

Little folk come out to play
Alive and filled with joy.
Whilst evil folk with ugly minds
They seek out to destroy
Sweet innocence, with poison acts
To gratify their lust
They create from children’s innocence
An outcast without trust.

A happy world, all filled with joy
That’s how it’s meant to be
These kids should be like rivers
Alive and running free
Yet evil men destroy their souls
And teach them, life is bad
And as they reach maturity
Their live are so, so sad.

Butterflies don’t come no more
And birds no longer sing
There’s only fear within their souls
What joy then can life bring?
Sweet young children made to love
How can they suffer so?
I just don’t know!!!!

How can the world not care enough
To put a stop to this
I guess that some would shrug it off
And say ‘that’s how it is’
But in the end lord Karma comes
And the future looks real grim
Those children well may rule someday
With minds made cruel and dim.




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Goodbye

Remembering all the things we used to share
things we used to do together
when we were one
crumbling like buring leaves
glue couldnt put them back together
words he used to speak
the air that filled my lungs
Heart beating faster with every word
the feeling disapeared the night it all went wrong
nothing but guilt and tears filled my eyes
praying that the devil would make me yours
and youll be mine again
nothing more is left to say but the word we all fear
Goodbye


Details | Ballad | |

Cassandra

Revelation Said In Stone Appeared an Eon ago of Shame and Sin, Something we all know But not it's rise, For is has already became Virtue Flaming Skies from an Angel So Bright The World's Cure for Soul-Blight A Hell on Earth A Savior's Worth So many Dreams are cast then Forgotten So many lives are brought up then just Thrown back down Maybe she is The Cure Maybe she is The Plan All Fear the Flame Failed Creation of Samael She Comes from the Deep She Comes from The Heavens' Vault To End the dawn of the Demon Purge this land of all Vice Kali Yuga will be nevermore The one of Sublime Cassandra, Bringer of Muspelheim Release me and Burn away this land Hold me by The Hand Tell me the past is just pretend Give me The Cure If this is your destiny Then May it be mine I would die in time I'm Just another Obstacle In the way of your divine Wings Forget me Cassandra For Doom was already meant for me All Fear the Flame Failed Creation of Samael She Comes from the Deep She Comes from The Heavens' Vault To End the dawn of the Demon Purge this land of all Vice Kali Yuga will be nevermore The one of Sublime Cassandra, Bringer of Muspelheim Valkyrie of Heart Angel of Grace I surrender to You Savior by Destiny Dispel all Tragedy Especially me All Fear the Flame Failed Creation of Samael She Comes from the Deep She Comes from The Heavens' Vault To End the dawn of the Demon Purge this land of all Vice Kali Yuga will be nevermore The one of Sublime Cassandra, Bringer of Muspelheim


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The Poetic Blues

I think I self-sabotage unknowingly 
because of fear
So my message goes unheard because I’m afraid to let the people hear
And end up drowning in the poetic blues
doubting my ability to write about the truth;

I dug deeper and deeper into myself trying to write a poem good enough to be free of judgment
Then I stepped out on faith and suddenly I was triumphant 
and my writing grew 
and I was loving it
I had finally passed the fear of speaking and caring about who the fu*c! was judging it

As I wait to be inspired for the next poem, 
I sit and think alone and drown in my sorrows
Listening to jazz, blues and a.m. radio
trying to find an excuse not to perform at the SLAM 
because again I can’t think of a damn thing to write…..
Drowning in poetic blues
Will this be the one that will be thrown away and never be used 

Or will this be the one that transcends the others  
and finally prove that poetry is blues and blues is poetry and hip hop and jazz and r&b, 
Poetry is music and the words dance around in my soul 
and I am free once they become spoken 
In the meantime the paper is where the words will rest 
until the silence is broken

Drowning in the sea of proper delivery 
My voice, my stance, my intensity
How will others interpret the words that I’ve chosen so diligently?
I wrap my soul around the possibility that none of the words I choose – 
will keep me from becoming deluged and trapped by the poetic blues

Somehow my heart refuses to accept that I don’t deserve to have my words heard 
and it takes over this whole process
No more time for shrinking and feeling less
I was born to  make my words manifest light
I am a gorgeous medium to the truth yeah that's right
I was sent here to give you a piece of good news
Remember that God is with you when you get
The poetic blues


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The End To A Wild Ride

This is the end of all the rollercoasters we have rode
So dont look back
Because the world is going up in smoke
Just ride along with me
We will find eachother when the light goes out

Lost in a Wilderness
Will we find ourselves again
After we have been blown up into peices
Who will survive?
Who will make it to the end?

The clouds will darken
And the sun will go black
There bombs will drop
And Silence our voices

Would we have found the love 
We were searching for in the 60's
Would we have found the peace
We researched in our childhood

Would we have fixed bullying
and told children about Columbine
Would we have stopped the Depression
And told children about the help they can get

Would we be ready when the world ends
Or will we be left in the past
Would we believe in God in time for our ending
Or will we still be selling books on another religion

One day we will forget how to hope and learn how to fear.


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Fear Not

Jesus is faithful to His own,
He sits upon the Throne.
It is to Him that we belong.

Keep your eyes focused on Jesus.
Only He can help us,
He is the one who can save us.

Jesus will not leave you alone,
Shine Your, light through the Word.
So, agape love might be shown.

It is Jesus that protects us,
Our rock and foundation.
There's no one like Jesus.

Fear not for the I Am with you.
Fear not be kind and true.
Fear not and let your light so, shine.
A witness to mankind. 

These are lyrics to a song placed on U-Tube but somewhat refraised...

Tune by Tom Blakely and Lyrics by Cinda M Carter


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Taking Over Me

In this desolate room,
I feel this endless gloom
Taking over me. . .
Taking over me. . . 
Making my bones rattle in shock
Making several crackling sounds . . .
The time is ticking fast
I need to taste hope again
This time,
I will not give up
Neither will I toil in grief
I’m seeking permanent relief
I keep spinnin’ around the place,
Searching for ways to beat this race
Just to see your face 
See your face

(chorus)

Sometimes, I wait here…on my own,
Yearning for some significance
Sometimes, I feel like my mind’s blown
Churning. . . twisting. . . contorting. . . 
In a wild whirlpool…
What happened to my existence?
Am I of any importance?
It must be gravity taking a toll on me
 Something’s missing possibly. . . 
It must be me pretending that I don’t see
The brighter side of things
But, the abyss is……
Taking over me. . .
Taking over me. . .
Swallowing me like a terrible tide ~ ~ ~

I feel this overwhelming tension
Taking over me. . .
Taking over me. . . 
I look up to you willingly
Something’s haunting me…
Something’s making me feel so
Disheartened 
Pardon me,
I need some space 
Excuse me for a moment or two…
Let me gain back my pure grace
Just to see your face
See your face

(chorus)

Sometimes, I wait here…on my own,
Yearning for some significance
Sometimes, I feel like my mind’s blown
Churning. . . twisting. . . contorting. . . 
In a wild whirlpool…
What happened to my existence?
I sense that there’s gonna be a storm at this very minute
It must be the thunder taking a toll on me
 Something’s tearing me apart,
Making me sink down…
To my lowest state of mind
It must be me pretending that I don’t see
The optimistic road ahead
But, the abyss is……
Taking over me. . .
Taking over me. . .
Swallowing me like a gigantic tide ~ ~ ~

Can you feel my anxiety
Taking over me?
Taking advantage of me?
Making me subside from the Pathway of Prosperity?
I feel like an Outcast 
That loneliness shaking me up
Is taking over me…
Taking over me…

(chorus)

Sometimes, I sleep here in solitude,
Wonderin’ if someone out there will save me
Save me…save me…set me free…
From this abominable dwelling place called Shame
Sometimes, I feel that everything’s out of my reach and I’m left to be
Taken over by my utter despair and catastrophe…
If I’m here alone with me,
I’ll find a way to flee…
Flee to safety… 

I’m shedding tears of frustration 
Please understand this pain that burns immensely 
Deep inside of me forever it seems
Inside of me...not mending my broken dreams
Taking over me…
Don’t underestimate it…
Or it will track you down someday…
It will prey upon you someday
Do you even notice me from afar?
Do you hear my plea?
My plea for your love 
To get me out of this desolate room
I’m overflowing with disdainful gloom. . . 

Rescue my heart from these tears…
These tears
.

.


.


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SCARY 2

Try me, fool, and the semi gon' bang
I'm a big dog, I gotta' let my nuts hang
If I go to jail, best believe I'm bonding out
I always handle beef, that's what I'm all about
I'm not a punk, somebody lied--
I'm bustin' shots, let's get that fixed

I keep it 100, like whole-numbers, no fraction

You're a toy, all looks but no action

So much beef, I can open up a diner

Catch me underground, call me a miner

I keep it real, you haters is processed

To the streets I'm a god, bow down, get blessed

I got rank, like a zebra, I got stripes

Diggin' in ya' chest, you know pressure bust pipes

Got heat, I'm like an Arab with no turban

Shots burn your chest, like drinking Burbon

I cock my tool as they approach, get ready

Make sure you're on point, and hold it steady

When they get near, that trigger get a pull

Give straight head shots, it's an unspoken rule

Shots rang out, like the bells of Notre-Dame

I was long gone, before the law even came


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The Unhappy Moth

She chose a red scarf. The most red 
of them all.
Of a dark red, a sweet and thick red color,
just as wine.

She carved from the red scarf
from the middle
to the size of a Martini glass.

Then she carved one more glass,
and she kept carving 
till she fell asleep.

Yesterday
she saw her Beloved Moth 
flirting with a Younger Moth, 
carving together from a sweater
while she was getting busy,
carving in the shelves.

The Unhappy Moth drank lots of wine
woolen wine, 
last night.
She drank lots, too much
for a Moth.
The Unhappy Moth got drunk
and fell asleep
on the red scarf,
unhidden
with a heart filled with peace.

She was not afraid no more. 
Now she could be seen easily,
laying on the scarf
and easily crushed.

The Unhappy Moth was not 
afraid of death no more,
at least, now she knew 
how wonderful the red scarfs are
and that they taste
like red wine.


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Starcrossed Tragedy

A Silent Night's Hunt for a Tigress so blunt, Left the Fiend dancing with my Thisbe's Cloack But where was She? Her Drenching blood is all I can see The Night of Sanguine, The Night of Rapture, Tonight was meant to be All Behold This Tragedy ran by Dark Energy, My Lost Lover's Plea A seed of what is to come, In this starcrossed Tragedy, For I can not live without you, My Pyramus, All I need, My reason to Breathe One sight of me bleeding away from reality, started this tragedy and with me It shall Grow The Pain wasn't enough for me, To Live on with me Love without consequence, The Damned Saint, The Angelic Demon The Darkness of the Sea, Carries away with me, In this Starcrossed Tragedy A Star traveling across the moonless Night Sky, In the mid-summer of Verona, Fell from her glorious light, I have lost my guide, My need for Life Every balcony I'll climb for you, Just to Caress you once more But now it is too Late, My Juilet Let the Poison Fill me My Body dyed In silence, Dipped in Paralysis, Forging the Will of God, Feigning the Clutches of Death, My Romeo I prithee to you, See past The Illusion, Caught in the Webs of Love's delusion A Dagger reached my heart once To see you martyr for our love A Dagger reached my heart twice The Pain wasn't enough for me, To Live on with me Love without consequence, The Damned Saint, The Angelic Demon The Darkness of the Sea, Carries away with me, In this Starcrossed Tragedy Once the Morning Retired from her weeping The sun shined into her eyes, then his Lifeless, their dream will live on Every Petal will be Avenged The Pain wasn't enough for me, To Live on with me Love without consequence, The Damned Saint, The Angelic Demon The Darkness of the Sea, Carries away with me, In this Starcrossed Tragedy


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Path of Life

You always wished you could do things right maybe you still do you always wished you would never stray upon the path of life You always tried to do things perfect but the secret, there is none that you can never go wrong upon the path of life Each step you take every move you make builds you closer to the end But then again there is none, There is no end upon the path of life
Oct. 15, 2009


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A Lily in the Sun

And time
like a lily 
drying in the sun.
The beautiful moments
fading into memories;
the beautiful colors
fading into grays.
And time,
slipping through our fingers
quaking on the surface
of the earth.
Quaking and trembling
because it is afraid.
You see,
time is ending.
Time is running out.
And when the universe 
extends her fragile hand 
and brushes away
the dust of our existence--
the fragments of our time,
no, our times--
seconds,
minutes,
hours,
days
gone into the wind
like the withered, 
falling petals
of a lily in the sun.


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Spritual Gangster

You don’t want to miss this
But don’t be confused this aint Christmas
You’ve gotta get real my brotha and kiss this
I’m a spiritual criminal with lipstick

If you’re lucky you just might make my hit list
Coz I’m a murderer killing *****es ego’s with fake riffs
If you’re a moral criminal and do the minimal you can’t hit this
We must stand together my brother to beat this

Pleasure - pain, generosity - blame, loss - gain infamy and greed
It’s not hard don’t get angry and there’s no need to bleed
It’s just like John Lennon said when he said love is all you need
Stand with me my friend and let go of fear if you want to be freed 

I’ll mind punch you in the heart and give you a soul diss
Aint no big brotha gonna hold me and frisk this
You’re not lost or all alone coz my arrows fire straight and can’t miss
Things aint changed and love can still fix this

Pleasure pain, Generosity blame, loss gain infamy and greed
It’s not hard don’t get angry and there’s no need to bleed
It’s just like John Lennon said when he said love is all you need
Stand with me my friend and let go of fear if you want to be freed 
Love -love- love is all you need


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The Death of All Things

The Death of All Things...

I fall victim to my own devices
Paid the price for self indulgence
I see the dark side of the shadow because the light isn’t on my side 
I’ve been to the top of the mountain
Seen things far below that no man should see
Where angels fear to tread

The fading hope and loss of belief battle me
Complacency has become my only friend
I am void of feeling in this state of resignation
I’m facing fears and I’m surrounded by my own reflections
Demons I have never overcome
Return again to haunt me 

I have seen, the death of all things
From the inside looking out, 
From the outside looking in, 
The death of all things, one final curtain call before the fall…


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Down In Memphis

This poem came about by a discussion at work describing a memphis burger and a classic one. I told someone they flowed together and they didn't believe me so I wrote this:

I went down to memphis
There was this, classic chick
With them hips, and red lipstick
A kiss so delicious that
I promised to this miss I would not dissapear
But I was dishonest, I thought I made it clear
That this situation between the two of us
Was not serious But she was delrious
Became so furious that
That month she had two periods
It only takes one to end my sentence
25 to life, Im not doin the time on that sentence
Doesn't matter if she gets me presents
Don't care if she gets madder that I am not present, 
yet she gets sadder cause she still feels my presence
It wont be pleasant, if she doesnt let me leave peacefully
So I packed my things in the middle of the night
Took off asap so she couldn't pick a fight
Flew right back to my little house on the right
Split so fast like Kim Kardash was my wife
Realized that I just dodged a couple of knifes
It seems whack, But I just had to run and hide
This commital thing isnt for me
I am brittle, I crack too easily
Got to be careful cause I need Room to wiggle cant be
Strangled or tied down, I know It'll come back around
Hurt triple the times when karma
Shoots me down from the sky
So for right now, sayonara, beddy bye
Nice to know ya, good night


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fracking oil

should I believe you man in the suit?
oh your hair looks mighty fine 
combed back, your polished slacks 
a slight tan 
you are irresistible in your presence 
demanding attention. 
you have a face that looks right 
nothing you say would be out of sight 
nothing you do would steer me wrong 
oh man in the suit, 
you are my god. 
you have the power to make us thrive 
dig a hole 
to the other side 
not to china, but to the fuel
oh man in the suit 
I cannot trust you 
you dug too deep 
into a pocket of the earth 
looking for more resource 
to fill your own pockets 
but I don't want pockets 
man in the suit 
all I want 
is for you to tell the truth
your polished smile did us wrong 
lies lay upon your clever tongue  
and you continue to rule the earth 
digging your holes 
you find more girth 
to your hungry pockets 
which you try so hard to fill
when will you learn 
that filling pockets kills...


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Regaining power

Regaining Power.

He walks a lonely road, with his head there in the clouds
And he doesn’t even notice passing strangers
He’s been here ‘bout a thousand years forever all alone
And he’s always looking out for passing danger.

Invisible sometimes he feels, so he tries to seek the glory
As the child calls out in panic “I am here
They have taken all my power so my blossom will not flower
And all around I’ve built a wall of fear

But it’s his pain it is his game
As he prowls around his cage
He lives in vain, is he insane?
And fear ignites his rage.

The truth be plain, the lions mane is what he must acquire
The little boy he must regain his power
And tell the world “I’m here, I’m here” and feed the burning fire
It would take this much to open up his flower.


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Fear

Written June 25, 2012


Dim the lights
No one knows
Silhouetted indisposed

Can you hear
Children's fears
The darkness will be here

By the time
You can see
The light that buries me

You will know
All that's glitters
Is not gold

Walk the path
Satan's wrath
Will enter through the back

Door is closed
Think you know
Why the Lord has brought is here

Are you telling me lies
Through your eyes
On and on I'll tell you're wrong
Until the day is done


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UNFOLD

The pain of change as it unfolds
Is oft a tale that stays untold
What is seen is a whole creature
not deep holes in the feature
nor concrete soles that makes his feet hurt

It all begins with a soft kiss
He is walking with a false bliss
Only following in paw prints
But the nature of mom's lips
Is to rob him of all innocence

Trapped in warm spindles of fear
A wrapped life form kindles in here
Four years bound to shingles of moss
Time to leave this life of sloths
Break free like that of a moth
and Rise again like Christ on the cross


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Armageddon Pt 1

It's bout to get worse
It was written in the verse
The truth hurts
ARMAGEDDON WILL NOT BE TELEVISED

When the time comes
No one's gonna hold up a sign
saying it's time to "get right"
It's gone come like a thief in the night!
Blowin' up and wreckin ish!
The war you want is the war you gone get
It was written before our time
We keep looking at the signs
manifest before our very eyes
constantly denying our right
to be one of the meek ones of our time
ARMAGEDDEON WILL NOT BE TELEVISED

We're at the end of what used to be existence
Every super power will answer to a higher power 
so pray repentence
The time is closer than any distance
From Washington to Obama
No one will escape the wrath!
Hope you choose the right path!
Narrow is the gate of the righteous tracks
that are imprented on the mind of the omnipotent one
Will you be spared life on earth with the meek ones
and accurately take in knowledge of his son?
OR will you perish in the dust
never to be awakened again?
No consciousness of sin
ARMAGEDDON WILL NOT BE TELEVISED!

It's in the verses
Read it, see it, live it, rehearse it
You see the times changing
You see the minds fading
You see the world and how messed up it is
You see that nigga satan and his curses!
I pray to have a chance to live a beautiful paradise on earth like it say in the verses!
ARMAGEDDON WILL NOT BE TELEVISED

YOU HAVE OFFICIALLY BEEN WARNED


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The Fear

The Aphotic rays reach higher
And shame, shade reigns over all
Lacuna, Apathy is all I feel as I fall into the ashed grave
I'm living, the slowest way to die
Elysia, rapture where are you now

What will I do when the flame is extinguished 
What will I do when I drown in ash
What will I do when they sing my name in funeral dirges 
How can this be all, one short organic vitality
Scares to die, but afraid of a new day

Scared to die, but so afraid of a new day
Will I Ressructe to Paradise, burn in Hell, or lay in Sheol
Is this a there is, one feather, to the dirge
My life so long - my suffering grows
Scared to die, but so afraid of a new day

In all of the ashes, a flame begins
Once again, here I am
Living, the slowest way to die


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I'll keep dancing forever

I’ll keep dancing forever

In this wonderful world that I’m in
Everything is a beautiful dance
I don’t know what’s coming before me
It’s a sweet game of wonderful chance
So many get caught in the fear game
As each day does crush them some more
But I’m on a wonderful journey
Though I know me not what’s in store

The end I can see in the future
But what is the future I ask
The past it has gone like the dust in the wind
So, can in the future, one bask??
So I say ‘who cares’ it’s all nothing
Just an old boat afloat on the sea 
As it waits to be broke by the ocean
And join in with eternity.

So it’s all a dance, to my thinking
The good parts, the bad parts as well
And me I don’t know where I’m going
Don’t believe in no Heaven, nor hell
One dances, no thought for the ending
And so it’s the same with my life
I’m going to get into the dancing
Through all of my love, joy and strife.

7 July 2013 @ 0712hrs


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Crown of Thorns

Crown of Thorns
A trace of thorns you are on my body, I am an eternal traveller, never stopping. You are the bitter predicament of my comfort, Traces of sensual pleasures - The mist of a veil is my constant reminder. You wound the stubble of my heartly thorns, I stand alone on the dusty conflagration Gazing towards an endless void, I am bridled with the burning pain of the thorns... My gaze tirelessly roves, Prickly are the thorns, With malediction entwined... I am drowning in a sweaty torrent, I am plunging into thorny depths, bloody and overworked from the struggle, I yield myself to the decision of fate.


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For You And Me

It  was  for you and me ,
That Jesus left His throne,
Bore the scourge and agony,
Shivered His flesh and bone,

It was for you and me,
He took the awry tour,
Towards the dreaded Calvary,
Summed His tortured  hours,

It was for you and me,
That Jesus bore the cross,
Paid the greatest penalty,
That death supposed be ours,

It was for you and me,
He wailed the gloomiest cry,
It was for you and me,
Jesus was nailed to die,

Oh, that you and I may see,
Our wickedness beyond measure,
Jesus to set us free,
In our stead bore the torture,

His love mysterious great,
Knocks  the door of all men's heart,
His mighty power recreates,
Renews our lives whole to restart,

It was for you and me,
When on the third day death sufficed,
The savior left His grave,
Victorious he arised,

He rose back to His throne,
Sitting by His Father's side,
Prepare! He's coming soon,
Today is to decide,


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Stuck

I'm like a lion
Tryin to be  trained
to behave in a cage, but
I wasnt born to be tame
Full of stress and rage
 Im compressed and chained
Infected with depression
beCause I cant catch a break
Lifes taste is so tart
In pain from my scars
Stained by lame luck
Stuck behind apace car
I strive to write
But all I can type is the space bar
I'm Pervaded with doubt
About to freakout
Quick Someone bail me out
I would sniff my way out
but I got this cyst on my snout
From 6 years of this drought
Im sittin with this could of pout
Stickin to me like jam from a can
like melted candy in your hand
I'M a pantree full of Spam
 A Letter without the stamp
A debtor without a plan
Like chicken on a pan without any Pam,
Damn I'm starting to get pissed
 I got to devise a plan, before I break my fist,
Punching this brick wall, I got the spit but no ball
got the wits with no squall, like a toliet with no stall
 Slippin in a pit fall, Shiz just snow balls
I want to brawl, missed last call
My Stick shift just stalled,
This lawl has no intention at stopin at all
And I'm kicking myself in the balls
like old men walking up and down the halls
so i flop, just like a dust mop
Now i got knots in my food box
The size of king kongs rocks and
Every door has been locked
I try to soar but its all for not


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Lost love but I want u back

Lost love, I lost love you lost love and were both hurting. Let's just be like forget it and give up. But no I will life u and I the best I can. I lost u but I love you more then anything in this world. I'm not over you. You changed my life and I gave up on us i love you still I hope u see this and see how much u many to me. I love you and our lost love.


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Over and Over Again

Over and Over Again…

Twisting and turning, the fire that’s burning
Keeps me writhing in pain
And all that I fear, is becoming so clear
Pouring like blood from a vein

Facing the truth, I can’t stop the abuse
I just don’t know where to turn
Do I bow down and hide, are the answers inside
To the questions and lessons unlearned

I rise and I fall and I’m waiting for the call
Or some sign that signals it’s the end…
Each and every day, there is something in the way
And it starts over and over again
Each and every day, I run out of things to say
But then it starts over and over again…

From the time I awake, in the mirror I face
All of the wrongs that I’ve never made right
When I lay down to sleep, I’m searching for peace
But I can’t make it through the night

I rise and I fall and I’m waiting for the call
Or some sign that signals it’s the end
How much more can I take, before I past the point and break
With no honor left to defend…

Each and every day, there is something in the way
And it starts over and over again
Each and every day, I run out of things to say
But then it starts over and over again…

The darkness inside me, now circles around me
Given life, it is freed from the cage
Every light now gone black, I can’t see front to back
Have I run out of room on the page…
Every light now gone black and I am under attack
For my life, this is a war I must wage…

I rise and I fall, and I’m waiting for the call
Or some sign that signals it’s the end
But each and every day, there is something in the way
And it starts over and over again
Each and every day, I run out of things to say, then it starts over and over again…


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On Dying

On Dying.

I was strolling in the sunshine
It was half past afternoon
And I even heard that new born baby cry.
As I carried on, I heard birdsong
That I’d missed my whole life long
Me mind had told me I was bound to die.

But the whisper in my heart said “cool
Look at the positives, you fool”
As he tried so hard to make me understand
That One must open up ones heart  
And see the whole, not just the parts?
It could be ones demise be kind of grand.

For positives have negatives
And negatives have positives
And life may choose to dance with you
With Death in fact enhancing you.

And then those trees did sparkle now
They seemed to glow and gleam somehow
And life seemed like a candy covered dream.
And now I know that every man
Is here to learn to understand
As still I wonder just what all this means.    


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Make the difference

As others smile u have frowned 
As others have cried u just broke down
u have no sorrow u have no pain are the lies we all tell today
As they scream
As they fight 
As they kick and hit
As they all hate 
u hide 
When all is lost when you see no hope 
All you see is the death or your fate
You have not yet discovered what you are destined here for 
but you have no desire at all to find out you my dear are in dought of your ability to scream and shout 
You have the will You have the power shout your thoughts from the highest of towers. You were put here to make a change how can you do that when you dont believe in fate when you have no desire you are able to use your pain use your sorrow and use your anger to make a difference yet you are becoming no different then what you now hate.


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Mortal Man

Mortal Man…

I’ve awakened all my demons
…And it suddenly appears
The death of all my dreams
And the re-birth of all of my fears
Times I know I’m not alone
Other times, like now I know I am 
Sinking down just like a stone
No strength for my last stand

See me…breaking down
See me…a mere mortal man

There’s certain sadness
That courses through my veins
A delicate and fine line
To manage all my pain
Some of it imagined, how much of it is real
The only gauge I have is the way that I now feel

See me…breaking down 
King without his crown
A mere mortal man
Whose life slipped through his hands

See me…breaking down
Blood spilled on the ground
A mere mortal man
This is not what he had planned

Our world a tainted paradise
In which everyone must live
Always for the chosen few
The rest of us must give
No reciprocation as good intent declines
Even outcast by our families
For those we did provide
Expendable, disposable…
Yes, each of us must die
But how many of us have truly lived
And not been forced to live a lie

See me…breaking down
Never a king that wore a crown
A mere mortal man
Whose life slipped through his hands

See me…breaking down
Blood spilled on the ground
A mere mortal man
And this is not what he had planned


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My Struggles


My Struggles My mind grows weary. My eyes are teary. My heart often skips a beat. I toss and turn through the night. My soul and flesh continue to fight. I do what is wrong, but I desire what’s right. Inside I burn with fury, But outside I appear cool as a Winters breeze. A great storm is in the near future. Who will intervene before disaster strikes? Who will save me from the strong winds and hail? I can only pray that all goes well. I can only pray to survive this shipwreck. I can only pray to reach shore and be able to breathe again.


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Trust in destiny

Trust In Destiny

Do your best then trust in destiny,
It’s the only valid thing that you can do.
Cause there ain’t no use in worrying,
It’s a fact I’m telling you.
It wears you down and makes you sad,
Or boils your blood and gets you mad
No worry’s not the proper thing to do.

You found a lump or your children get ill
Or you’re out of dosh and cannot pay your bills,
Or death has shadowed your poor life
Or you think someone may steal your wife,
Your kids are causing too much strife,
It’ll all work out when the time is rife
 It will work out I’m telling you.

So throw them, Ditch the bloody lot,
And look right now at what you have got,
For worry causes love to die and rot
It does, it does I’m telling you.

So watch the Sun come up every day,
In nature everything’s is just okay.
The Earth keeps turning steadily,
And the birds still sing in ecstasy,
And deep within your soul you’re free,
And it all depends on destiny
No matter what you try to do.


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Alive

Have you ever noticed how a paint brush dries out
After two minutes of just sitting there?
Kind of like how you have been drawing for 10 
years and all of a sudden you forget how to
You lost all your techniques
And you move on and find something better
like the lyrics you used to write in school
Thinking one day you'll sing them to the world
And when you finally get a band together
Someone got grounded and everything falls apart
like that time when you did drugs
Thinking it would solve your problems
But it just made them worse
Like a friend
Telling you how to live your life
And tell you what you should and should not do
Its like the first time you felt alive
Holding her hand and being close to her
Then she goes away
And you are forced start all over again
without her


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The Mirror

The mirror, the mirror, the mirror, the mirror
I love her eternally, but got dammit I fear her! Beautiful and stunning, 
I see this myself.
But the enemy is her self-perception when staring in the mirror.
Only when it fogs can you see the true you. 
Because only then are you blind to the scars 
and the blemishes and the pain that you've been through.
The mirror, a liar, a false representation of your intellect and mind. 
In the mirror you look for confidence, but beauty you'll never find.
The mirror, the mirror, the mirror, the mirror
I love her eternally, but got dammit I fear her!
And I feel her pain everytime she complains
About a transformation and a change,
Asking herself why is my body still the same? In the mirror.
You're reflection refuses to give you the love you deserve,
The nerve...now you feel inferior after believing every word.
The mirror, the mirror, the mirror, the mirror.
Tell you a thousand times how can I make it any clearer?
Take this, break the glass, it won't smash your dreams
Sweep away your insecurities 
You're beautiful to someone, beautiful to you, beautiful to me.


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A Dying Hymn

O my graveyard
How I do find it hard
That I must sleep with you

“Until we meet again”
How sweet that sounds, my friend
But we both know it isn’t true

O my own death
How I’ll cherish that last breath
When I’m waiting here for you

I know this life must end
And how sad this is, my friend
But there’s nothing we can do


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My Heart

I ran cross my heart today and realize how different I have become because it told me that maybe I’ve changed for the better and with the weather so off maybe I am.... 
Excuses
 Just a little set back that’s all, Maybe. Then Fear made a comment, “Don’t fall you may not get up.  I may just stop what you accomplished so far.” 
Life stated, “I can be hard and at times seem like I don’t care about you, well....I don’t. But you shouldn’t worry about fear.”  I’m scared fear could be my weakness. My Heart stated, “It’s a strain.”   I feel like I’m not focused and my heart still beats so strong, but for how long?  My Heart told me, “I’m holding on but can’t fight the tears alone….”

I snap back into reality, but reality bothers me.  
My thoughts wondered, taking wide long steps away from what I believe in.  I thought all my thoughts were positive.  I’m a little detached from the truth, only sometimes.  Don’t judge me.  I know that I’m stronger than I look, it took years of tears to become this way and has always, it’s never perfect.  That’s Life because we have to learn.  Don’t we?  Life is a teacher and what about my heart, I feel different.  
The truth... Lyrically… I’ve hurt people when I didn’t mean to and the tears still burn.  How much have I learned?  My apology is deep from My Heart what I feel is a part of who I am, and who I am, I don’t understand.

My heart knows the truth of me and this is my public apology to those who crossed my path and the hearts that I touched, negatively.  Not meaning to be such a burden.  The guilt is real, causing my heart to cry out in pain, bringing me to my knees.  Some people wish to be a part of another race, born in a particlar place, and simple enough FAME.  I wish I could be perfect and no it’s not an excuse.  

My heart speaks the truth about me but now I see Perfect… will never be me.


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Midnight Lamb

 should be tired, but I'm not
It's cold outside, but i'm hot
My mind wanders, and it stalls
As I stare at these blue blue walls
It's dark in here, but too bright
I wish my day was my night
I feel safe, but I'm under attack
As if my old demons want me back
I shouldn't be here, but I am
I should be fighting, but I'm a lamb
To the slaughter I will soon go
And no one, save myself, will know.


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Last Chance

I don’t have more friends than you do,
I’m trying to think this thing through,
One particular thought in my head, 
Some things are better not said.

All alone, in the way
Brighter than pinheads,
Darker than day…

Climb up and give me your hand,
I’ll arrange everything to be planned,
Show some respect, as you said,
Love is a rudderless bed.

Hark back to rainbows,
Last chance for sunsets,
Bring back tomorrow,
And leave this behind.

Hark back to brainstorms,
Last chance for road trips, 
Bring back tomorrow,
Let's take our last chance.

Last chance to show me your cards,
Can you tell me what is going around?
How many times have you bled?
Some things are better not said.

Last chance to save this,
Last chance to crave this,
It’s getting so lonely,
It’s been a long day,

Yes but there’s always,
The chance of a last chance,
It’s only the past tense
That gets in our way.


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Inside the Membrane

The pain I feel inside 
Can be derived from my dad pride
I sit alone at night
There is this emptiness that is
The squandering of time
pondering what life will be like
Who knew that twenty-one
Would be More bumps and lumps than fun
I want to dump this chump
Standing in front of the mirror
Waiting till its clearer
This Brings a sobering effect
Over thinking each step
It is like I'm playing freeze tag
With these mundane demons
And They always keep me in check
Because I cant see them
I have been contained and constrained
I complain of chest pains
Till my veins pop off like champagne
Bruce Banner's a freight train
Going insane in the membrane

So should I smoke weed then
To cope with this moping season
Cause my yoke is heavy
and dope seems dope for lots of reasons
Even though I do know
What the verse says in Ephesians
"Do not get drunk on wine...
Instead be filled with the spirit"
This is my one beacon
That's give me hope when I hear it
Its a choice for heathens
Like me, to write our own lyrics
Since death has been beaten
And no longer need to fear it
His love is infinite


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A Gray Christmas

The little boy sits by the christmas tree 
Full of light and color
Trying to figure out what all the colors are
He puts his little hands on the ornaments
Trying to see what they are
Feeling them
He steps back and falls over a present
He feels around the box trying to open it
Only seeing alittle 

Mean while on the phone..

his mom is talking to the doctor

"do you think he will be able to see by christmas?" she says
The doctor replies "theres no guarentees, he is 67 % blind, when we did the test with him, he described the color blue as a dark black, and a yellow as a light gray, your son only sees in black and white and im not sure if we can fix that. but we will do our best"

A breathe escapes from her lips as she turns and looks at her son
The doctor explains "his surgery is set for Dec. 7th. be here around 8 am and we will see what we can do, im trully sorry"
He hangs up.

Back in the living room

The boy stands up and walks over to his mom
"mom, have you seen the christmas lights?" he says

She replies "yes sweety i have."

He hugs her leg and says "are they black and white?"

She answers "no sweety" she points to a light bulb on the tree

"this one is blue" she smiles

He grabs the light bulb and repeats "this one is blue" and giggles

She lays him down in his bed as he quickly falls asleep

She sits down on the chair and thinks
"to me. because my son cannot see the beautiful lights and feel the joys of christmas, everything is gray for me. nothing will fill my empty heart"


There are no smiles, when everything is gray, when you cant see the colors of a bright day




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The State I'm In

You can feel your face burning
And your stomach is churning.
Your heart starts to quicken 
And the clock won’t stop tickin’.
This is the state you are in.

You begin to sweat
And your palms are all wet.
Your chest is too tight
And you realize its fright.
Well, I guess it’s time to fight.

From the trauma you are caused
When he stopped and paused,
Your mind will never mend
And your hair stands on end. 
What has he come to apprehend?

There’s breath on your neck
And your mind is a wreck.
You feel his hook
And now your life he has took.
I guess your name was in the book.


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Drifting Mainly

You belong to me mate 	 ( Intro )
And that be that!
Get on board
And grab your hat!

The ship was aghast at its new passenger	( Verse )
Like disdain for the lives that they now left behind,
Newcomers were scarce 
And they never would last
But I held up my chin nice and high.


The bloke who took me screamed	( Pre-chorus )
“Mop up the deck we’ve got things to do!” 
But I said sir, 
I’m just a boy and don’t know what’s to do.

And he said		( Chorus )
“Drifting mainly
Sailin the shores
Taking what’s mine 
And leaving what’s yours
Cause you know, we ain’t dead yet.”

Taking the seas for more than eight moons
We found islands and loot
That was bigger than most.
The taste of sea air 
With its wind in my hair
Took me away to this new life I lead.

After mopping the deck 
He grabbed my hand and screamed
 “Steer this ship boy!”
But I said sir,
I’m just a lad and don’t know where to go.

So the crew yelled	( Chorus )
“Drifting mainly
Sailin the shore
Taking what’s mine 
And leaving what’s yours
Cause you know, we ain’t dead yet.”

Surprising to me 
Was my unshaven face
The captain looked on 
And smiled with grace,
We stopped at a place 
Where the women were loose and didn’t mind
If we took a peak.

He said “Now you’re a man so let’s get on that boat,
We got places to be and some people to rope,
So grab that sword and drop that mop
Cause you’re no longer a boy in my eyes.”

I practiced the duel with the men in the crew
The captain took eye to my devilish pride,
And he took me aside and said 
 “Even in death I’m gonna miss you boy 
But don’t let it strike you 
Or kill your spirits
Cause even time can beat out the Grim.”

Then in the darkness came fire and screams,
Our vessel had stopped after fourteen years,
The crew fought hard and beat most of the men
But now, my Captain was dead.

We took the new ship watching ours sink deep
Saying goodbye to our drowning escape,
The crew turned towards me and asked
“What do we do?” and I smiled,
And they did to.

And we yelled    ( Chorus )
“Drifting mainly
Sailin the shores
Takin what’s mine
And leaving what’s yours
Cause you know, we ain’t dead yet.”


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December

Arguing with one another
Texting back and forth
Owen drives in the blizzard
Kurt is at home

Kurt sends Owen another message
"why did you tell them about me doing drugs?"
"that wasnt your place, i dont care if there your parents too"
"shouldnt i be the one to tell them?"

Owen tries to reply to the message Kurt has sent him
He loses control of the wheel
driving into a field 
Kurt recieves a message from Owen
"Im sorry I..."
The message was never finished
The car slamming into a tree
The tree branch breaks through the window
Thrashing into Owens stomach
As Owens head slams back and forth
The car is left smoking

Kurt knows something is wrong
but leaves things be

50 Minutes Later...."

Kurt and Owen's parent recieve a call from the police
"Is this the parent of Owen Everdeen?" the police ask
the mother answers "yes is something wrong? is it Owen, what did he do now?"
"Mam', Your son was in a accident, they are life flighting him to the hospital"
She drops the phone, and grabs her purse and yells at Kurt to come on.

She drives fast to get to the hospital to see her son
Owen was life flighted to the hospital
The police had to use the jaws of life to get him out of his car

They finally make it to the hospital
The Dr. asking "Are you the mother of Owen?"
She cries "yes, where is my son?"
Kurt stands upset at himself for fighting with Owen minutes before
Remembering Owens last text to him. "im sorry I.."

The Dr. explains to the mother 
"Owen didnt make it"
She sits in sadness
Numbness
She cannot breathe

Kurt runs after the Dr.
"this cant be, he has to be ok" as he starts to cry.
Just the night before him and his brother
Were playing guitar hero together
Remembering the last moment
The arguing
The reqruet Kurt is now feeling

"Owen Ryan Everdeen: Jan. 1st, 1990- December 8th, 2011"
To a good brother and a great friend, im sorry about all those times i have let you down
Im sorry for yelling at you that night, and causing your crash, the guilt i feel wont leave
I am sorry that you went through that, and left this world that way, forgive me for what i 
have caused. I love you.


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Redemption

If I pass through Gethsemane
To writhe in cold, dark agony,
If Fear's hounds track me through the night
Till like a wounded fawn in fright
I thrash through forests, strange, unknown,
That seem so far away from home,
Would love in me grow weak and die?
Would stones of hatred be piled high
To mark the plot, engraved by Shame,
"'T was here that love at last was slain!"
Would my heart lie entombed, content,
Or would the stones by Love be rent,
And Love o'er Hate triumphant pour
Because the sting of death Christ bore?

Or if my love were crucified,
Rejected, left to bleed and die,
If Sorrow pierced my fainting heart
With ev'ry bitter, burning dart,
I pray that love would stand the test;
That while my soul Grief did molest,
I would not stoop to hate the foe,
But yield to pain that Love might flow.
Would Love in me refuse to die
And live again though crucified?
Oh, that the seed felled by Hate's cry
Through suffering would multiply
And rise to reap the greater store
Because my Love your sorrows bore.


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In the Spider's Web

I am a spider
amused that you have become ensnared
in my web of lies.
My talent is manipulation-
I play you as easily as a puppet
dangling from my power hungry fingers.
Hungry, yes-
I feed off these lies.
The quicker you fall, 
the more satisfaction I feel.
I am a spider
and you are my pray.
You do not realize you are a victim
until you are bound and broken
my teeth at your neck,
How foolish do you feel 
as the venom courses through your veins?
Does this make me a monster,
Nothing more than a barbaric creature?
Relying on primal instincts,
I hunt for facts
and gather the truths,
smuggling them away 
and replacing them with 
Picture-perfect facsimiles engulfed in deceit.
Have I performed the greatest trick of all?
Or have I lost myself in my web?
Each fragile strand threatens to snap,
to unravel my illusion
and reveal the truth masked within,
leaving me exposed,
vulnerable and naked.
I have lost myself:
A victim of my own design.


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Lady Arcane

[Daughters of Lamia] Today we walk from our graves You can't wish, pray it away The Inflamed Coven's emerged You Will receive what you deserve Retribution of the flaming shade Your Malice will be paid, In Harm's way [Aharhel] Her Convoluted face burning with fear Of the fall of the gate seering their minds with the deft of the legion The Army of the plague Scourges your land Scourges your Children Scourges your hope [Lady Arcane] I, The White Madonna - The Poison Mistress Hold The Rose to Salvation - Hold The Fruit to Arcane Closer, Come, Child you are mine [Daughter's of Lamia] Lady Arcane wants your fear Lady Arcane wants you near Lady Arcan is here Lurking In your tears clinging to your spilled blood the east has always been near The Left hand reaches to the right side in disguise In Malice's Disguise Therionacy break you down to thy knees To Thy Knees!


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For the Dying Orphan

I let you die for my name As you reached for my hands Out of waters of drowning What a hypocrite this writer is The Hatred of Solitude Letting an orphan dream Then destroy him with knowledge Of what you have done He opened up to you In new ways But in nostalgic guises The springwinds whisper blithe yore But the winterwinds, much stronger Caress you with the dreams of your funeral sky “It was you… it was your fault… Letting the one who was so open to you Be the laugh… the piece in the game…”


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Together we belong

When I found my true path 
I remember the many wounds
That healed in my heart
And all because I found you.
And in my dream, I could dance
Upon white cotton clouds
In heaven's romance.
With you, no fear I know
Together we are where we belong.

Your love and warmth 
Help me get through the days
When heavy storms 
And rough trail threatens my faith
And I find that you've carried me all along
Until heaven becomes our home.


As I walked up my path
Found thorn filled, I found the truth,
That deepened the love in my heart
That brought me even closer to you.
And through the tears, in the sweet breeze
Of your loving embrace
I found grace.
With you, no fear I know
Together we are where we belong.

Your love and warmth
Helps me get through the days
When heavy storms
And rough trail threatens my faith
And I find that you've carried me all along
Until heaven becomes our home.

And in my dream, I could dance
Upon white cotton clouds
In heaven's romance.
With you, no fear I know
Together we are where we belong.
And through the tears, in the sweet breeze
Of your loving embrace
I found grace.
With you, no fear I know
Together we are where we belong.
With you, no fear I know
Together we are where we belong.
Together we are where we belong.

Lyrics to the waves of the Danube waltz by Ivanovici
Created by CarolineCecile
Feb. 23, 2011.


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Unsuspecting Victim

Four teenagers 
Paige
Matt
Kevin
Kat

Backgrounds-
Paige- psychic, can see and talk to the dead, has demons who come to her for help
Matt- Has demons attachted to him, dating paige
Kevin- A Nerd from school, intersted in pot
Kat- Training psychic, paiges best friend, dating kevin

Prom Night- 2011

Sitting in the car positioning themselves
into a compfy spot
Matt sits in the driving seat
Paige in the passenger seat
Kat and Kevin in the back seat
Kat laying on Kevins shoulder
All of them latch there seat belts
Driving unto the road to go to after prom
Paige sees someone
Someone no oe else can see but her
Sitting right beside her is her (demon but almost human ghost) friend
He whispers "i can try to keep you save from everything, but i cant make a promise)
She looks down at Matts foot
Holding unto the break peddal is one of Matts demons
The demon breaks the pedal and has one hand into the engine of the car
A car coming up behind them
Trying to pass them
Matt decides to make it difficult for them to pass
As he does he tries to hit the breaks
And they didnt work
They drive into the ditch 
Trying not to hit the other car infront of them
Flipping a few times as they land with all the tires on the ground and the 
Top of the car towards the sky
Paige lays on the windsheild her head cut by the glass
She looks  at her self
She sees her body laying there looking up at Matt as he smirks to her
His eyes turn black and he smirks again
Paiges ghost friend opens the door and pushes her out
Far from the car
She now lays close to the road
She watches the car as it rolls off the hill
Flipping it again, also looking down at her lifeless body
She sees Matts demon again

The Night After

Paige was rushed to the hospital
Matt, Kevin and Kat left with only bruises and a few cuts
Paiges brain was internally bleeding
She stands in the hospital 
Outside of her body
Standing looking at her ghost friend
He ssays to her "as much as i want you to be here with me, your family needs you in your other life"
She wakes up a few hours later, in her body, and getting better


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Noise

A thousand different voices, I don't know what they say 

Two songs playing at the same time, make this go away

The horrible sound of a Siren, are you sure you can't hear it to?

I really should be asleep now, But  what can I do?


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The Land of Sophia

Escape the tort of our avarice world Defy the ones who shift the blame Deter the decadence forgetting shame Freedom is on the top of the bare eyes Beyond the consciousness of The Human Kind Search harder and then you'll find The Land of Sophia Dwelling past are needs Swirling around our bare minds Our wants polluting out sight the Land of Sophia is lost at night Are the Lies held worth it in time Only embracing The Veil of Logic The Truth is cast into shade where all vices are soon to be made For all of our dreams and dramaticies The Destruction Star poisons seas Far from This Galaxy among the stars I can see myself, And The One I've became Escape the tort of our avarice world Defy the ones who shift the blame Deter the decadence forgetting shame Freedom is on the top of the bare eyes Beyond the consciousness of The Human Kind Search harder and then you'll find The Land of Sophia Dwelling past are needs Swirling around our bare minds Our wants polluting out sight the Land of Sophia is lost at night Caught in our lust, of forgetting trust I wonder can we break free of bound forever in the clutches of Lilith's Love Eden's Heart Who's desperate For Love Who's desperate For Light yet wallows in Blight and chooses to wait--forevermore The wait in Summer--An Eternity Lilith's Love Eden's Heart Escape the tort of our avarice world Defy the ones who shift the blame Deter the decadence forgetting shame Freedom is on the top of the bare eyes Beyond the consciousness of The Human Kind Search harder and then you'll find The Land of Sophia Dwelling past are needs Swirling around our bare minds Our wants polluting out sight the Land of Sophia is lost at night We don't chose what's right I can't believe we are able to see this far Crawling in Shadows Never will breath find it's light Escape the tort of our avarice world Defy the ones who shift the blame Deter the decadence forgetting shame Freedom is on the top of the bare eyes Beyond the consciousness of The Human Kind Search harder and then you'll find The Land of Sophia Dwelling past are needs Swirling around our bare minds Our wants polluting out sight the Land of Sophia is lost at night
**Mark Jansen, Guitarist, Male Vocals, and main songwriter of Epica**


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Bruise

bruise bruise bruise 
cut 
bruise bruise bruise 
cigarette burn 
bruise bruise bruise 
cut
bruise bruise bruise
broken heart 
bruise bruise bruise 
distracted mind.


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I Want to Fall In Love Again

I want to fall in love again
I miss the feeling
I miss the joy
It was like being under the sun
and melting..
it was like being under the moon
and shining..
I want to love again
I look at lovers
and they seem so in love
but it's lonely to have someone
and feel nothing
I want to fall in love again
But...
my heart is scared
I could not feel it
It may be missing
It might have died a tragic death
the lies, the betrayals and the hurt
I don't think it could endure again
my heart is full of doubt
afraid to take step 
for I might fall down again,
be stepped upon, crashed and broken
I want to fall inlove again
but my heart is SCARED..


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Dreamer's Disease

Written August 5, 2011


Why don't these constellations follow me
Smash-up mercy disease
When you go outside to find the light
In the middle of a cold dark night
Is when I'll ask if all your dreams are dying out

You only got one dance left to rid this dreamer's disease
Hey you over there
Do you give up more than you give
All my friends keep breaking down in two
Is there really any reason to live
When you can only get as much as you give

Davey lives at the end of the sea
So sink on down and look him up for me
And when the curtain's falling
Morning's calling
Won't wake up you got the dreamer's disease
Won't wake up you only get what you give


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Tonight

     Tonight,
  People are going out to be with friends
people are going out to be alone

     Tonight,
  Someone is going on their first date
someone is going on their last

    Tonight,
  Someone is going to have a baby
someone is going to make one

     Tonight,
  Someone will take their first drink
someone will take their last breath

     Tonight,
  One era will end
a new era will begin

     Tonight,
  I will go to sleep in one year
and wake up in a new one

Happy New Year!
December 31st, 2011


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God help the foolish

God help the foolish

Everywhere I go
The trees grow oh, so tall
The birds, they whistle cheerily
It’s all so wonderful
This world is filled with beauty
To feast the eyes upon
God help us all when all of this is gone.

Some folk worship money
They have no other view
Short sighted is the way they look
They never see what’s true
Destroying untold beauty
For the power of owning all
They are killing everything that’s beautiful

God help the foolish
They know not what they do
They bring down forests to the ground
God help those crazy few
Where will they get their oxygen
When all the trees are gone
God help them with their foolish carry on.

A world without the beauty
Of trees, and birds, and flowers
Would crush one’s soul so heavily
Why do they need this power?
Oh, what’s the good of money
If this is all there be?
This planet dies, as I watch helplessly.


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Blind

So many songs describe how i feel
But you wouldnt have the time to listen to them
To actually figure out what they meant
Or how much they related to me
If i died today i can say the only
Thing you would miss
Is me trying to make you smile
Things have been depressing me for years
All the anger i hold is real
Falling further into soemthing
You wouldnt want me to be
I know if i told you 
You would be confused
You wouldnt know what you did
To make me do what im about to do
I let myself cry to long
That i buried myself alive on the inside
I wish i could shut you out
And let you go away for a long time
I guess its better that i trapped myself in my own way
At one point the chain broke away
And i had my own time
I took an early flight and i made it home
I realized how unfair you were being
Everyone always got more than i did
Got your attention
More than i did
If i played my bass 
Would you hear the anger behind it?
If i let you read my poems
Would you understand why im writing it?
If i told you i thought about doing something bad
Would you try to make everything i hate about you better?
I dont think you understand 
Maybe i should explain more
Or would i bore you?
Probally...
So you know
I wanted a father
But instead i had a dad
To me
It hurt
It still does
And i watched myself die
From hurting so much
Cutting my heart out
On the inside
Im different 
In so many ways
My friends give me more complaments
Then my mother has my whole life
"thats good" isnt what i want from you
I would rather have you really 
Grasping the meaning behind why
I am writing poems
The meaning behind why i draw
Or play the bass
Even if i died i wouldnt think
You would get it
If i did what im going to do
I would have you right where i want you
If you want me back
Your going to have to ask
Nicer than that
Things in my life are different than yours
I see things differently
I love music
And i want you to see that
I talk to you through my music
I talk to you through my poems
I talk to you through my bass guitar
You cant trust me?
I lied to you?
Dont you remember when 
You told me you would give me up
for adoption when i was born?
That hurt more than anything
Yes you kept me
BUt you thought about giving me up
Just like you gave up on me ten years later
This will be the last of me
And i hope you understand now
That you are my problem
That you are the one
I couldnt trust
That you were the one who lied
What else could i hide
When i have been an open 
Book his whole time
and you couldnt see it?


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Lost

Lost feeling all this oppression, I know the Devils right behind me... I can feel him breathing down my neck. Running away from sin following God's voice keep him in my heart turning depression to rejoice.  I feel I'm losing control so i get down on my knees and pray for my soul, I still dont know all the things i have to do or where i gotta go counting on Christ to lead me. he will always guide me, instead of running and hiding i'll stand firm right beside him. I got alot to say with God speaking thru me, im an example and im glad he chose me. He lived and died on a tree arose three days later and in heaven hes residing, abiding listening to his will sanding on his path and thats where im gonna chill, Let me be real take a second to explain how im feeling and not dealing with the devils games he tries playing. I left him behind cuz i ran him over just the other day yea i like it that way.

When im Lost feeling all this depression, I know Jesus will lead me in the right direction... Count on him the bible gives you the instructions, he will take your fear away he aint playing now.. 

When im Lost feeling all this depression, I know Jesus will lead me in the right direction... Count on him the bible gives you the instructions, he will take your fear away he aint playing now.. 

I have a God who sent his son and took the stripes, he Paid the price for my life, a price he didnt have to pay but he loved us so much he couldnt let us die... Jesus you took the weighgt and you put it on yourself, theres no greater love then to lay down your life for your friends. and you did it for me even though im undeserving and I wanna thank you so much. Everytime I fall you open my eyes and show me where I went wrong, you have forgiven me and I have another chance to teach the things you taght me. Lord I am your vessel please use me to your will help me to do the things for which im called let me hear you voice through the Holy Spirit Lord, reach down and touch me.

When im Lost feeling all this depression, I know Jesus will lead me in the right direction... Count on him the bible gives you the instructions, he will take your fear away he aint playing now.. 

When im Lost feeling all this depression, I know Jesus will lead me in the right direction... Count on him the bible gives you the instructions, he will take your fear away he aint playing now..


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Deirdre

 
Don’t you know Deirdre’s gone? Don’t you know Deirdre’s gone? I can sence her embrace that feels like Tragedy A heart to have, slipped beneath the waves The dark pulse now beckons us closer How many days will this passion bleed away? We will be the ones left to blame Beware we’ve become their prey They say you’re addicted to your pain A lifeless cold barren soul left to die in the rain A whisper too close to the edge A call from the dark Brings out a saving spark An Exodus from her Pain Her Life Spent breathing in Shame A Shadow Call breaks the Silence Am I the one to blame? Don't you know Deirdre's gone? Don't you know Deirdre never said wrong? Don't you know Deirdre's gone? “My Decadence was just for you Though you’d never care what I’ve been through Enter the world were empathy is clandestine A world created by you, just for me What’s Lying in my heart is why You want to through the stone” I call your name towards nightfall’s reign But they take you so far away A dark angel so divine Cursed by Eden’s heart I will avenge every tear An Exodus from her Pain Her Life Spent breathing in Shame A Shadow Call breaks the Silence Am I the one to blame? Don't you know Deirdre's gone? Don't you know Deirdre never said wrong? Don't you know Deirdre's gone? Don’t you know Deirdre’s gone? Don’t you know Deirdre’s gone?


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Remember When

Remember when we could still stand
And gaze upon some virgin land
And appreciate the beauties of the Earth?
Remember when the flowers bloomed in May,
And how we lived, from day to day
When the little things still had intrinsic worth?
Remember when there were no fears out there beyond the fence?
Remember when we still had common sense?

But now it seems so far away
Though it happened only yesterday
The tremor's still a-shaking in my heart.
And now there's just a stoneage silence
Born of but a moment's violence
Standing sentry in a landscape torn apart.

     And the heat came down like a mountain falling in the sea
     And the sky lit up like a thousand suns
     Ten million souls cried in agony
     Hung in the air, then faded out as one.

Sorry, don't like to steal you sleep, my dears
Didn't mean to probe your deepest, darkest fears.
But I keep having this terrible dream, you see
You can't imagine how it makes me feel
And when I wake, draw close to me
And tell me, was it really real?

Remember when things didn't seem
So pointless and far gone extreme
And we could let the children play outside?
Remember when the Grand Alliance
Worked so hard for world compliance
And how they finally made us go and hide?
Remember when the world that was
Was still a place for having dreams 
How strange the thought of that now seems.

But now it seems so long ago
A million miles from what we know
The Final Crime committed now at last.
So now it's all a weary show
As on and on and on we go
Our living time is now - the Past's the Past.


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THE REPOSITORY

The book, "Rilke's Book Of Hours" 
motivated me to breath glory
To not waste and have regret
experience now the repository
So when it's all said and done
and I look back on every day
I know I went the second mile
this is what I can say..

I was a guy not afraid to fall
a man who took every chance
Who lived life and had a ball
head over heels in sweet romance
I never once blinked at risk
looked every person in the eye
Accomplished all my bucket list
always told the truth I never lied
Gave speeches that moved crowds
proudly swam against the flow
In elevators I sang out loud
to hoarding wealth I said no
I gave generously to the poor
relational living brought intimacy
Then again I gave a little bit more
no fear of heights in what I could be
I took time to smell the rose
never worried but lived joyfully
Didn't procrastinate, quickly chose
forgave others because I was free

Authentic living I was a genuine friend
Never doubted God beginning to end!

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Contest Name: No One Lives His Life 
Date: 4-23-14


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The Audacity of Love

lt can greet you as an equal
compliment you like a friend,

can produce a new beginning
or, assault you with an end.

lt can trick you into thinking
that what you believe in now, is true;

then, make you feel like an idiot
as lonliness swallows you.

Life wouldn't be much without it
t'wouldn't even be grace from above;

we all experience it in many forms
that's the audacity of love.

It can also bring you comfort
and can ease your worried mind,

soothe you when you're hurting
and teach you to be color blind;


soften even the hardest of hearts
and give the spirit of a dove,

kill hatred with a knowing glance
that's the audacity of love.


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daddy I'm a zombie

Daddy I'm a Zombie
I eat brains night and day
My flesh is falling off my bones
as it's turning gray 

Last night I was bitten
as I went out on my walk 
My tongue is feeling numb
it's strange that I can talk

Daddy I'm  a zombie
I'm part of the undead
daddy are you listening 
have you heard a word I've said?

Tonight I'm going out
to get someone to eat
I'll gather up some brains
to last until next week

daddy I'm a zombie 
but there's no need to fear
I may leave tonight
but I'll be back next year!


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Sir Teddy

Inching from the cradled arms, 
Careful not to wake the boy, 
The knight begins his watch
His sword and shield deployed. 

The defender of dreams, 
 And protector of the mind.
He shall show no mercy
For nightmares he may find. 

The battlefield in darkness, 
He waits at the gates of Hell,
For any beast emerge, 
Will hear the ringing knell. 

But morning shows its face,
And the gates below are closed.
The boy arises safe
With his teddy bear to hold. 


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Counterpole

My rhymes are timeless while this time is lifeless
why is life this kind less, reminds me that this
mind is spineless ready to tip and quit, as
my lies become mindless and get swollen shut
and Stuck up inside my sinus
Drivin in my prime but with no optimus
Victim to the flip-side of the Midas
Running through my blood like a virus
The sun makes my skin mundane
rubbin on ben gay but get arthritis
touch spermicide and converts to hepatitis
I hit the plus sign but it just musters up a minus
I'm seen sucking my thumb like the peanut's Linus
I run and duck when I hear the sirens cause
I abducted the president's Nike air pumps
now air force one is trying to find us
I'm at my desk obsessin about success but
This whole time its been right behind us


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Storm In The Wind

(Oh Girl),
You're like the storm and the wind, 
Tearin up the city and breaking the 
trees, 
Whenever I'm around you girl, 
I get weak, 
You're breaking my heart, 
And tearing up me, 
(Chorus) 
Breaking my heart, 
Breaking my heart,  (Tearing up me)
(Ooh girl)
I know we will make it, 
Even though the wind is blowing 
careless at me, 
I can't do this without you girl, 
I'll get weak, 
Stop breaking my heart, 
Bringing me to my knees,
(Chorus) 2x 
Even though the love hurricane is 
blowing careless at me, 
I can't do this without you girl, 
I'm too weak, 
You breaking my heart, 
You're the storm of the week. 


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who's future is it anyway

i see a future of darkening days
where children are treated as vermin to slay
adults possessions are held paramount
where only talk of money spill's from their mouth's.
i feel a destiny of communities broke
suspicion's are cast at the few kind words spoke
people of power prefer things this way
technology rises as intelligence fades.
those few left willing to speak for the weak
are told that their futures are futile and bleak.
the only thing worse than this future i say
is the fact that this future is really today.

i hear the rumbling's of a gathering storm
as the lightning strikes fear of a terrible new dawn
stars in the sky are dull in their light
for they feel the shame of watching earth's plight
as we all watch it come furious and fast
not one of us learning the lessons of past
so shelter yourself in money and gold
and hope that your god's will rekindle your souls
the devil is stirring in each of our hands
as we are the labour that works to his plans
and the worst thing of all that causes dismay
is the future i write of is really today

but fear not my friends for all are not foe's
suffering will fade as redemption comes close
the devils and demons that laugh loud and sneer
will turn on their heels and finally face fear
children of suffrage will rise with the sun
and learn nothing of pain for it shall finally be gone
the dawn of free love will exude once again
crash into the present like a white knighted ghost train
and if anyone tell's you to live life how they say
ask them who's future it is anyway


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Only Faith Remains

My little room - beloved walls
Are closing in upon me now;
Black midnight darkness settles in;
Around me soul winds rip and howl.

Yet, silence is beyond quiet,
Charges with mute voices sinister,
While Time stalks by on cleated feet
And minutes hours minister.

I am alone and all seems lost.
There is no sensing comfort here;
No soothing balm, sweet spoken words,
I feel no dove-like presence near.

Here faith walks naked in the night
Where famished need eats soul away.
There is no solace for my thoughts:
Hope is the garment of the day.

Just faith remains alone, child trust
Stripped bare of prideful ornament;
Vulnerable, yet she alone
Secures the promised settlement.

June 8, 2014


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Thoughts That Think

Was thinking long and hard about giving up writing.
Convinced myself that I'm a quitter and there's no sense in fighting
To keep the only thing that kept me far from the edge
But I can't pretend.
Pretend that it isn't my Fortress of Solitude 
That's honoured me with solemn servitude.
That it hasn't helped put me to rest, thought and mind,
By accepting the past on paper and keeping it close behind. 

I was thinking logically and analytically 
Because it seems to be the only thing I'm good at. 
Thinking about everything I've seen and everyone I've fought to keep,
They're all gone now, only to be found in memories. 
They say Poets and Artists are the architects of Heaven
And only they know it's the hardest when no one buys what they're selling. 
No one wants to listen and no one wants to see 
Because everyone's so sure of what you're supposed to be. 

But what are you supposed to do when you've dedicated your life to understanding?
When you can empathize with your brother, but your own sight you can't stand it. 
When you feel that there's a missing piece and so the wholes hurting.
Swim out long past the reef and any safety that you keep to do some soul searching.
Days and months fighting fears, love and tears, digging the hard soil.
Only to find that missing piece you desperately seek is hidden deep beneath. 
When you've found the straw that broke the Camels back
Only to find there's a million more underneath.

What are you supposed to do when you follow the chains
Long past the plains in hopes to break the link.
Kill the ties that bind and have held you for so long,
Only to find there is no ball, you were free all along.
And in your days of darkness with no life to sip or sup
All the hands around your back were never meant to keep you up
And all of those who have kept you down will fight to keep you dancing to their beat.
Any impenetrable man once stabbed in the heart, will crumble with defeat.


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In Another Light

The best thing you can do about a suicide is understanding it.

The boy opens the door and walks by his mom
his mom says "how was school"
He doesnt respond 
he walks silently to his room
His mom turns away in sadness
"its dinner time Kurt" she yells up the stairs.
He walks slowly down the steps
Hiding something in his hand as he puts it in his pocket
His mother is setting the table
Putting meat on his plate 
He sits down unto the seat
not touching his food
"is there something wrong with it?" his mom asks
He doesnt look at her
"talk to me. why have you been ignoring me" she repeats.
He gets up off the chair and walks outside
Walking into the woods as his mom runs out
"get back here where are you going"

Every living thing dies alone." he writes in white on a tree in there back yard
He throws the rope over the toughest branch
He steps up unto a little chair
Tying the rope around his neck
The chair falls

His mom worries in panic
She cant find him anywhere
She waits up all night

The Next Morning"

She walks out to the garden
Looking up at a tree
She sees the fallen chair from behind a tall bush
She runs
Picking up the chair
Seeing the thing she never thought would have happened
She falls to her knees
A tear falls from her cheek
Not understanding 
Reading the words on the tree
Every living thing dies alone"
She wonders
Thinking
Crying

She untangles him from the tree and holds him
Talks gentle to him
Something she hasnt done in a while
Now grasping the meaning behind what he has done

The best thing you can do about a suicide is understanding the meaning behind it.


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Think What I Think

Somedays I wish I didnt
Think what I think,
These patterns of thought,
Have me in the sink,
Then bring me to the top,
To put me back in my seat

Somedays I wish I didnt
Believe what I believe,
So I could,
Give into my passion to please,
Dive into my sinful desires,
and have control of my destiny

Everyday, I come to realize at night
With my eyes wide,
That my flesh I dont have to Fight,
Because Christ runs my life,
And he takes the boulders off my shoulders,
I am the gun and he is the holder,
I am the clay and he is the molder,
And his grace is sweeter every moment I grow older


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Waiting

Shadows lengthen, the landscape dims,
And all that was my rising sun
Is drifting out beyond the rim
Of life's elusive horizon.
So many times my footsore soul
Has traveled following that light,
Pursuing the ever moving goal
That sinks into a sea of night.
Seething waves leap in the blackness;
Their crashing drowns my feeble cry.
With hope deferred, Fear and Madness,
Hard on my heels, snap evil lies.
I cannot voyage on alone;
No craft can weather such a sea!
I wait. I face the dark unknown
Till God brings daybreak back to me.


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Words

Pushed as for across the line as he can go
feeling more and more disappointed in his self 
His mother doesn't let him be who he wants
He reads her his poem but she just laughs
Telling him he won't get anywhere
She was disappointed in what he has become
He writes a poem about real things
But people just take it as words
Words have no meaning to them
Have you read his new poem? 
Yea I didn't understand it
I wonder why he writes about sad stuff
Will he find god?
Nah there just words


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Sinful Saint

Yeah I walk around life waitng for death/ 
I live in constant despair looking to be blessed/ 
Lies over truth around here always seem to infect/ 
The more sin I get in life the more saintly I seems less/ 
Im trapped in same dark place ;looking for a lighter quest 
I try and live a life full of goodness still trapped in badness I am yet to confess/
 I try and hold onto what seems like something but theres nothing really but family left/
 I know I am not he best, nor am I like the rest/ 
I know I can master checkers but still downed in chess/. 
I got to clean up my act because my life is a mess/ 

I patiently sit back while I ponder life for death and I wait/ 
I might as well look for something simple because I never find nothing great/ 
I struggle to stay under love and over my own hate/ 
I try and be real with others when to my own self I stay fake/ 
I feel life obstacles jolt my ambition like a chain that never breaks/ 
I want less more in life yet as a daily sinner I continue to both physically and mentally take/
 I try and change my dark ways but still struggle at the fact that it might be too late/
 I usaully catch myself complaining when infact I should be thankful for whats on my plate/
 I usually hang onto the past and get scared of the future when I should worry about today/
 I going to be that better man for my child because that sinner no longer in my heart I aint/
 Sometimes in life we all struggle until we strive, but until then Im trapped between a young lost SINFUL SAINT........


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Junkie

you know its wrong 
but you do it to overpower the pain
not strong enough to stay away from it
you would die without it
in its presence your heart knows no shame
even if you try to win the fight
your heart will overrule your mind
Theres nothing you can do
its chained to you
you cant get free
look what this drug did to you


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Writing On Walls

Listen, Listen, Listen -
Open up your eyes and ears
See the starlight, watch it, feel it as it
Glistens, Glistens, Glistens -
Reflecting coldly off the teeth between the gears.

Run, Run, Run -
Come and see what's going down
Watch the people, hear 'em, fear 'em with their
Guns, Guns, Guns -
No time left for us to fool around.

     These things we're doing can't be right
     These deeds done in the dark of night
     We'd better stop and answer the calls
      From the Other Side, stop writing on their walls.

Look, Look, Look -
Read the things we're posting up there
Know the meanings, seek 'em, find 'em in those
Books, Books, Books -
That is, if you really do care.

Getting, Getting, Getting
Ask yourself what you really want
Taste the bitter, weigh it, say it while you're
Fretting, Fretting, Fretting
Over all the things of which you're not so sure.

     These things we're doing can't be right
     These deeds committed in the dark of night
     We'd better stop and answer the calls
     From the Other Side, stop writing on their walls.

     These things we're saying can't be true
     These things we're writing can't be what we want to do
     We'd better stop and listen to the calls
     From the people on the Other Side, and read the writing on the walls.


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My Dad Another 24th


Days go past us, as do winds of season,
But never the days and years
That get stuck in some ear and age,
That engulf us like mirages in a desert.

One such mirage in my life is of my Dad,
Always before me, waiting for me;
Yet I never reach in time to be near;
So near to me, yet so far away.

Never did he forsake me, in life,
Never for moment, never for a day;
Always beside me in my hours of need —
A dear friend, a true companion, a great dad.

He suggested the best books to me,
But never pushed them into my hands;
A mere suggestion about the inputs —
The next thing I know, I have my hands full.

He sang tunes soothing, melodious,
But never forced me to listen to any songs;
A mere suggestion about the notes —
My passion for music was born!

His acquaintances, colleagues, all friends;
Value of friends in life is priceless;
A friend is a cool morning breeze,
Surround life with friends, my list’s endless.

Never fear life’s rollercoaster ride;
No problem is without a solution:
Life is too short to fret and fear;
And so, I tried, yet fear engulfed me.

He came back into my life in many forms,
Beating death; guided me with many a face:
As friends, notes of music, verses from books —
He never left me and my life, my Dad.


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the clock is ticking

I awake and i see the sunrise just as you do. 
But at times i feel these clouds cover my mind. 
My desire fades and i long to sleep. 
Why won't you come and lay beside me? 
I feel like it's time to save someone. 
To save myself. 
Come. 
Place your hand in my hand. 
Wear your heart on your sleeve. 
I guarantee that i will guard it with my life. 
Can't you see that i'm here to serve my purpose?
 Born an bred an optimist. 
I became a chosen pessimist. 
I wandered down a broken path. 
Unbreak my heart. 
I'll show you something that will last. 
Forever. 
Take a breath. 
This is all that i have left. 
Broken promises have left me scarred. 
Tragedy has locked me behind these iron bars. 
Come set me free. 
Give me something to believe in and i'll show you a bleeding heart. 
Full of passion. 
My patience has worn thin. I've been abandoned. 
Lead astray. 
Now take my hand. 
Let's walk this way. 
You are the sun and you are the stars that wipe away the clouds. 
You are the drug that keeps me calm and sane. 
A light in this darkened world. 
The Hell i have created for myself. 
The trials and tribulations that have left me scathed. 
All the times i have been betrayed. 
Trust lost. 
I know you are not the same. 
Trust in me as i have trusted in you. 
I'll take your hand and no longer tremble in fear. 
I'm not asking for much. 
Just for a few moments to pick up the pieces. 
The clock is ticking. 
Distance has separated itself from me. 
As you draw near i have nothing to fear but fear itself. 
What is there to believe? 
Have faith. 
Find hope. 
Believe in something. 
Someone. 
Do something with the cards you have been dealt. 
Make a move. 
The only thing you have to lose is time. 
A restless soul. 
Sleepless nights have taken their toll. 
Break the cycle. 
This is our time to pursue the hopes and dreams you have held close. 
The hour glass is spilling. 
Look me in the eyes. 
This is our time to rise. 
You are a friendly face in the crowd. 
Hear my heart beat loud. 
You have repaired the damage. 
Let's take advantage of the time placed in front of us.


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The Precious One

Abort is not the key
It will have you feeling less
Nothing but pain and regrets
Abort is not the key
She or He is apart of you
Forget the other half
As they get older you will have the last laugh
Children bring nothing but blessings if you do right by them
Forget him
You will succeed
It's your body and your seed
Abort is not the key


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Lunar Love

Can this ever stop The world is blacked by the lunar love All the tides have gone undone The seas beckon us with their rage Will they ever calm The mist covers our sight The storm comes Her eyes are the color of dyed blue With her raven hair and crimson lips She sleeps quietly waiting for the innocence of me But I've already put her in vain And tossed her aside I've already condoned my belovéd The desire was so much I couldn't face it In the eyes Forgetting the shame is just a Another winless game Take me away from this Take me away from the Lunar Love The moonbeams light up my pale face I don't want to be seen Banished from this world I'll ever be Take me away from this Take me away from the Lunar Love I cry but the sun cant hear Do I exist? This eclipse took over Now I'm left to face it all Left in the dark where can we go Lunar love is what we'll be Lunar love is what we have Fly away from the scene The tides are blind from the madness Even to the mountains they'll kiss The storm is too much The desire was so much I couldn't face it In the eyes Forgetting the shame is just a Another winless game Take me away from this Take me away from the Lunar Love Lunar love is what we'll be Lunar love is what we have The moonbeams light up my pale face I don't want to be seen Banished from this world I'll ever be Take me away from this Take me away from the Lunar Love The ghosts are tangled in my dreams They play with what was meant to be forgotten But I know there must be a away To find the closure But so lost are we So lost I've been Save yourself from the downfall How close are we to the edge This is what the rage has done This is what the sin has done The desire was so much I couldn't face it In the eyes Forgetting the shame is just a Another winless game Take me away from this Take me away from the Lunar Love The moonbeams light up my pale face I don't want to be seen Banished from this world I'll ever be Take me away from this Take me away from the Lunar Love Lunar love is what we'll be Lunar love is what we have Forgetting the shame is just a Another winless game


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EYE Don't See -Part 3-

My eyes
Witness your departure
My eyes
Are dripping with hopelessness…
My eyes start to blur…
Melancholy put me under pressure…
Is there a cure to my disease? 

You don’t see
The shards of hope that once brought us back together
Just let me search for safety
I’m strong enough to realize that I’m no longer
The weakest prey out there…

And I’m left in my solitude…
Do you hear me whimpering like a distraught puppy left on the train tracks?

I’m close to my demise…save me and take me home

Nourish me…and be my beloved friend

Will this friendship last forever?

Hopefully it has no end

Will this cheerful moment help us get along with each other?

Because of you…I feel the need to run 
I keep an eye on you – I worry that you’ll hurt yourself again
Because of you…My freedom is nearly gone
I don’t wanna be caught off guard again
Because of you…EYE can’t picture a solution for our vexing dilemma 
Because of you…eye can’t focus on my long-term goal 

And I’m left in my solitude…
Do you sense that I’m giving in to failure? 
And I’m close to my demise…
Only to find myself disappear…I can’t endure 
The hardships that you place upon me…
Could you boost up my confidence to overcome 
My atrocious anxiety? 

I’m just waiting for some sun
To keep me in good hands…
To strengthen me with perseverance …
I’m just waiting until His son
Leads the world outtah Egypt and reveals to us…
His radiance…His dazzling Kingdom – 
Vibrant with glee

Your undying sympathy dawns upon us
I’m overflowing with indescribable joy  
You’re a candle in the night…
We meet eye to eye…
What a sight…what a precious sight


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Night Image

The hole in the wall is a portal.
and those stains on the ceiling are people.
At night there's a hum from the room next to yours,
and the sound gets louder as it gets to your door.

The moon is a spotlight that's shining on your bed.
It waits for the closet to shut out the dead.
As the faces on the pictures in your house are shifting,
the whereabouts of Fido are yours for the sifting.

You've heard it before, the night's strange noises.
The screaming of crickets as they're hushed from the voices.
They come from the shed of the house of your neighbor.
He's built it at night to cover up his dark labor.

He's seen you watching and he knows you are there.
That sweat from your brow has created a glare.
That unanswered call was the warning of danger.
But the call was from no one, a specter, a stranger.

That heat from the air is your house on fire.
It burns from events that have yet to transpire.
And now you are wondering what secrets we're keeping.
It's the ones that we'll whisper only when you're sleeping.


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Saddam

Saddam.


You have no place to run to 
Your game is over now
You have played an evil role indeed
But it’s over anyhow
They say your days are numbered
 And that judgment day is here
 What does it feel like, bold Saddam
To feel this ice cold fear? 

The world has deemed to get you 
Your disposal has been planned
As the fear of you it dissipates 
You have no more command
So many though have suffered 
And many too have died
And now the wheel keeps turning round
And death walks by your side

You’re just a man 
Oh cruel Saddam
You bleed and die just like the rest of us
And now Saddam 
Your soul is damned
It’s been strangled by that power for which you lust

For all that you have lusted for 
You threw away your Soul                                                                                          The Devil filled you deep within 
And you played an evil role.
Now the hordes are out to get you
And fear it dog’s your tread
Saddam, you’re damned you evil man
And soon you will be dead.


                                                 


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Return To Dust

After the Casket Falls
After your soul is called
After your final breathe is drawn
I'll meet you again

After the Casket Falls
After your soul is called
After your final breathe is drawn
I'll meet you again

After the Casket Falls
After your soul is called
After your final breathe is drawn
I'll meet you again

I'll See your face again
I swear it
No matter how far away they take you from me
Fading, Going Away, Don't be so afraid
Death is a Dream


The Cross Will Be lighter
Whisper the words
so sacred, so somber

After the Casket Falls
After your soul is called
After your final breathe is drawn
I'll meet you again

After the Casket Falls
After your soul is called
After your final breathe is drawn
I'll meet you again

After the Casket Falls
After your soul is called
After your final breathe is drawn
I'll meet you again

A Fallen Angel looms over the lifeless stone
What Happened here must be true
I must live this life without you

Breaking the Silence
She began to Weep
The Epitaph ceasing to know 
We all must Return To Dust

After the Casket Falls
After your soul is called
After your final breathe is drawn
I'll meet you again

After the Casket Falls
After your soul is called
After your final breathe is drawn
I'll meet you again

After the Casket Falls
After your soul is called
After your final breathe is drawn
I'll meet you again

The solitude is euphoric as an illusional clock
Of argentine fears swallow the last soul
Goodnight black rose of eternity
Goodnight dearest gothic phantom
Tonight The Earth consumes me




**Special Thanks To My Writing Partner Cayla Carr**


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Worlds Apart

Worlds Apart…

The words are in my head, but I don’t know what to say
And I don’t know where to start, we’re worlds apart…

So many years of love between us
So many days of joy we’ve shared
So many countless nights of passion
And now we feel the wear and tear
Can’t see through the wall between us
Can’t live through the endless fight
Can’t survive the pain or pressure
Close our eyes to the blinding light

The words are in my head, but still I don’t know what to say
And I don’t know where to start, because we’re worlds apart…

Seen through your eyes or through mine
I believe the picture looks the same
The truth is all wrapped up in lies
And neither of us can hide the shame
Not one of us better than the other
We both can read between the lines
With each day it grows much clearer
We both have seen the warning signs

The words are all within my head, but some things I just won’t say
And I don’t know where to start, we are worlds apart…

Another night of useless struggle 
As you now dream asleep at rest
And tomorrow come the morning
I will arise to another breath
And as another day of endless longing 
Begins to come alive in me
Still another part now weeping
Will fail to open its eyes and see

The words are all within my head, but I don’t know what to say
And I don’t know where to start, we are worlds apart…


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Dream Liberty -- Butterfly Effect

Butterflies quietly fluttering In my soul Transforming my life Morphing into something so unreal So Different, silently beautiful So hidden and lost A fire dances on my pale iced face Lively prancing as each sheds more light The embers glow in your singed shadow Was this eternity meant to last forever? I couldn't believe that a simple flap of butterfly wings could cause such a storm, a storm in my mind The simplest things causing the greatest of pains Why cant I be one of them Forever and free I'll be with my dream of liberty Punishing the dead Can you never let anything go Is it all to hard to see That your bias takes you on a blinded delusion Where all they plunder is hate Terror is a virtue When becoming a king So cut off the strings of my life With your power And you will see the strength of the dream of Liberty I couldn't believe that a simple flap of butterfly wings could cause such a storm, a storm in my mind The simplest things causing the greatest of pains Why cant I be one of them Forever and free I'll be with my dream of liberty I couldn't believe that a simple flap of butterfly wings could cause such a storm, a storm in my mind The simplest things causing the greatest of pains Why cant I be one of them Forever and free I'll be with my dream of liberty


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Not To Love

I'm so lost within my own words, I want to see a better path. 
The math doesn't add up to me to believe in dreams.  
The reality is, I'm upset because my heart has decided to do something different to accomplish and conquer love. 
When its only mear pieces of my former self left to fight.
My soul is at war
my body, 
a battlefield, violent.
I'm silent with these mixed emotions, confusing me, I'm hurting daily, my harsh intentions has failed me, I can't explain these foreign feelings left within me.
who do I turn to for answers of understanding when I'm a man, and fear is now my enemy for so long was my closest friend.  
I continue to feel lost because love doesn't love or care how I feel.  
It has taught me this in the past as laughter n tears follow in its wake. 
....and the pain...it numbed me.
Realize in the past, love was a mistake.
Not sure of things so what's the truth behind how quickly my feelings of love build.
What should I do?
Why me now? 
The situation is not clear....wait...there a tear and fear on my shoulder wearing its head, shaking. 
Love is here for the taken I'm a causality in this chemical love affair, causing wells in my eyes to fill.
All I wanted to do was to live n survive now I'm feeling like I'm lm loving to die.
So unexplained when I have been trained, not to love.


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All on Me

All on Me…

I can’t help but feel the strain
Of the weight of a world I created
Can’t mistake my inner faults and guilt
That I have fallen way too short
No serenade can I sing to you
And of that I am ashamed
No resolution and no compromise on the position I am in
No other answer to the question than to turn and look at me
Point the finger in my direction because in the end it is all on me…

Can I right the wrongs that I’ve done each day
Can two wrongs make a right of me
Can I face the failures of my past
Or of this day right here and now?
If the mirror reflects the shadow or the light
And if I’ll remain a part of the picture, we’ll see
I am short on definition
But long on words that paint the picture
Feeling like I can’t move from day to day…

I believe I must align my heart and mind as one
My body and soul right behind
They must follow suit, they must fall into line
It may be my last chance at life…and it is high time we stood to live!

No resolution and no compromise, I cannot sacrifice our needs
In the end it is all on me
No other answer to the question than to turn and look at me
Point the finger in my direction because in the end it is all on me…
I have to ask, for how long will you believe in this dream??
Because in the end, I want it all to fall on me…



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The Watcher

Why have you left us?
You used to care so much 
That you camped out 
On the moon,
Hoping to save us
From our inevitable conclusion.
We thought you couldn’t save us,
But that didn’t stop you.
Did you get tired 
Of putting the pieces back together
Just to watch them crash back down? 
You still had hope when
We abandoned it;
Now you abandoned us.
We are calling,
We are screaming,
We need you.
Can you hear us?
Lace up your boots
Fill your tank with oxygen
And take your place among the stars,
Your soul shining brighter 
than all of them.
You are the Watcher
And it’s up to you
To save us all.


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What If Tomorrow Never Comes

I recall now the days when forever seemed but a short time The visits to the hospital, brought sad images to your mind She lay on a bed, cords all around her, no hair upon her head The cancer drove us crazy with worry tears and fright She was only a baby, I didn't get the chance to say goodbye Farewell until we meet again where you'll be waiting... waiting for tomorrow to come again. What if tomorrow never comes? How will I face the rising sun, when the moon is the only thing I can see? I need her here with me... The only loss I've ever known The only time that I've experienced this kind of sorrow... So what if tomorrow never comes? What if tomorrow never comes. And now I lie here thinking it through, memories flash through my head, memories of you Moments of a bittersweet time Reminiscing the days when you were mine The days when you were alive The tears come back to my eyes I feel the need to cry but nothing slides out I need to scream and shout, My emotions pour out as one, silently So what if tomorrow never comes? Reality in death is so hard to accept, I need my tomorrow to come... What if it never does? What if tomorrow never comes? How will I face the rising sun, when the moon is the only thing I can see? I need her here with me... The only loss I've ever known The only time that I've experienced this kind of sorrow... So what if tomorrow never comes? What if tomorrow never comes. Will tomorrow ever come? I just want to be awake when the moon becomes the sun I'm waiting here for you, in the darkness of the night. I wait still for you, forever the images will haunt my mind Tomorrow will come I'll soon be alright Tomorrow will come... Tomorrow has come... I can now see the sun.


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your hand on me

how could I?
the words from your mouth
hurt more than what happened
it was more than I could take 

I took the love I had 
out of fear 
afraid you'd lie again
is causing so much tears

I miss your hand on me
where it no longer rests 
when I put mine there
there's only emptiness

oh how I wish
to turn back these few days 
what I did this time
I never can erase

I never wanted to feel 
feel this horrible pain 
that why oh why did I 
think I could erase?

You.. you seem okay
when I am the one who thought 
I thought I could be strong 
I see that I was wrong  

I try so hard to smile
but tears erase my grin 
if only I could go back 
I would change the thing I did

I pray you are okay 
somewhere in the clouds 
I pray I'll have you again
this time in my arms.


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Draconian I

[The Cypress Is In Bloom]
The cypress is in bloom
I see the evil, the efflorescence of decadent doom
Eloigning, with thy clandestines of the Dead September's reign
My belovéd Penelope, abscond from the coven so deep, the glades of misery
We must face her in the grove, for arcany, the path we must take
She's in my mind, vaporously,
Lauding with my, dangers and fears
Lie, with ephermelcy's broken truths
Leading me go Cypress, Marigold
Immortally, willows, forevermore
Forevermore

[To Question; To Know]
My argentine silence, your only condonicy 
Ends with such eath
The Mockingbird in me--died
Resting in one ounce, an abundance of shame
With an infinity of joy
Exiled, by the ones, who give all, names
My breath starves for only more
The façade, the veil, the austerity dims with Aquarianlore 
She falls to her knees, why for?
Celandine she will be
Celandine is she

[Bead]
The lair within, free from their causalities of their sins
Shadowy primroses begin to grow, the season will never end
In there I dream to be like you, violet blue, White Flower of Lisieux,
La Fleur Blanche du Lisieux,
So Celandine are you
Celandine are you

[Draconian]
Draconian--Reach for the shadows within
Draconian--Break from The Fallen's Sin
Draconian--Their Empirical lies, only die
Draconian--Reach The Shadows Within


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Save Me From Desperation

It's been so long since I could Feel you, Hold You I'm wondering if it was Just an Illusion For love For me could Not be real Nobody could Love over The Borderline, not even I So if you ask you'll know why I silently began to cry I need you here, to hold me I'm so scared without You I just want to Sleep forever Never stray away far Save me From Desperation Never Say It wasn't meant to be I can't take this lie You Kill me With this So much I hurt so much inside these words burn as I cry This life is destroyed without you The joy that comes is the Joy of the Empty The despair I'm prone to maynever wilt I way You could have been there You could have saved me but no you left I was here to stay In the Dark When the razor called me back You could have been my light throughout the eternal black My Soul Has yearned for but where are you Please come back to me I desire just a one word of comfort just from you, only from you Tell me this is just a Lie Just a Hallucination from my Mind I'm suffering I'm Dying I Need you I'm begging just for one word please save me from Desperation I'm the Petal You're the Wind Without You I can never go Far You're not here I'm now stranded alone In the plagued island of my mind only if you were here only If you here You could have Saved Me From Desperation


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I'm Sleeping Outside

I've tried to tamper with such precious time
Looked forward and back with open eyes
I wonder about the day I'll die
Will there be rain or shine?
Maybe both, maybe none
As I speak another life has begun
Wish them luck as they carry on
Bewildered within these starry nights
I thought of time when I have lied
Oh such precious time
It flies
(im sleeping outside)
Signs and dreams lead me to believe
That somehow, some way
I'll be something great
Do I choose to be nieve?
They'll never know
Do I choose to be so weak?
It'll never show
(I'll be sleeping outside)
Love is such a clishey it seems
Something I could only see
Her eyes drew us in like summer heat 
Cupids arrows were made of clay
Oh yes I've longed for this day
I knew I wasnt lying anymore
(I always sleep outside
where the weather is nice
I can feel everything for what it's worth
dont give me signs or written lines
give me your solid words)


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Thin Line

Thin Line 


You hate me when i am around you 
you hate me when i am away
if hating thrives you everyday
i am your energy and 
your medicine at your need
when you gossip for your play.

Poetry 5/18/12 by  Keith K. Relf


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Memory

It is a wonder
How quickly 
you became
a memory
and how quickly
my heart resigned itself
And gave up hope
that you even
remember me.


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A Turning Point

 Within seconds, life and death collide
Within a blink of an eye, your last moments
To hope, to trust, and to surety you are tide
Your heart falls to its knees, and begins to pray to a God it so desperately needs
You begin to lose ground….
Your very last breath …as you exhale and inhale is soo profound
For it marks your very being
All your sense are directed inward
With sudden fear your heart is well cornered 
And a shrieking silence begins to sound, like thunderous cries
Your mind begins to play tricks, to you, it tells false wishing lies
Do not give up, to move head on…it whispers! it lies!
With that last breath. As you exhale and inhale you still exist 
What was once real
 When life was once clear
All of that banishes
Even the hoping! The longing! For a nobler tomorrow vanishes
Leaving all your nerves fried
Leaving your soul dried
Your very gist slowly but surely have died
Numbness begins to creep in
Like a devil when he whispers a sin
Like a drum roll leading to a scene’s climax
Like when your heart drops to your feet
 When all stops…silence engulfs, 
Shhhh!!!
Can you hear it?
The wait begins to take a heavy toll on your nerves,
for the moment that you have for soo long anticipated
The very instance…
The moment when life and death collide
The very last moment,
When to hope, to  trust and to surety your soul is tied
It all of a sudden unfolds, leaving that body of yours dead and cold
A chapter finally ends
A heart is finally set at rest 
I say my goodbyes
And wish only to see you in the afterlife
 


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Litany of Decay

This is for Litany of Decay

All hope tonight is just a void
Th cure was lost so long ago
But I still dream you will lie  next to me
Though you gave up on me so long ago

I miss the way the pain made me forget
I miss the way the pain made me Lose all misery

All hope tonight is just a void
Th cure was lost so long ago
But I still dream you will lie  next to me
Though you gave up on me so long ago

I miss the way the pain made me forget
I miss the way the pain made me Lose all misery

All hope tonight is just a void
Th cure was lost so long ago
But I still dream you will lie  next to me
Though you gave up on me so long ago

I miss the way the pain made me forget
I miss the way the pain made me Lose all misery

Your love was never meant for me
Nothing I was when you met me
Nothing I was when you left me
Nothing I am as I destroy myself

I must Live to face another day
To sing this damned litany of decay
My heart beckons for the grave
But there is no escape
So I sing this litany of decay
Don't mind me as I fade

Dance with me under the light of the moon
And sing to about my doom
Serenade me with an epitaph 
So I might feel what it's like to truly die

I see your face, it takes all the pain away
But you suddenly fade into the darkest of shade

Your love was never meant for me
Nothing I was when you met me
Nothing I was when you left me
Nothing I am as I destroy myself

I must Live to face another day
To sing this damned litany of decay
My heart beckons for the grave
But there is no escape
So I sing this litany of decay
Don't mind me as I fade

Living is suffering
Homicidal with you
Suicidal without you
I understand if you give up on me

The burden will fall
Today I might, today I may
Set you free, from me 

Your love was never meant for me
Nothing I was when you met me
Nothing I was when you left me
Nothing I am as I destroy myself

I must Live to face another day
To sing this damned litany of decay
My heart beckons for the grave
But there is no escape
So I sing this litany of decay
Don't mind me as I fade


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Scarred Tissue

scarred tissue i don't miss you i don't wish you were the better of me i don't care much for surveillance but it tempts me to burn out inside everybody's lying scarred tissue i really miss you i really wish you had got the better of me you see, i need that bad beat sometimes 'cause everybody's fine yeah, everybody's fine that's what on my mind For even Elvis reigning in his castle sometimes lost battles, immortalized forever tell the stories of the glories of mighty Aphrodite the most beautiful sin in existence bright was her smile all while the while evil stirred grinning storm clouds castles in the sky castles in the sky made for you and I grand castles in the sky sometimes re-invent your self just for indulgence stray from the normal path for it was one of a kind but I'm already under influenced sometimes a knowledgeable bright shining star fades away into the darkness shall come back in rebirth I know it sounds tragic but that's what I heard every bird has wings wings to fly away any chosen day into my dismay a beautiful array wings to start a new inner strength attitude because I'm in stride with you on another level soon a game worth winning is the reason we play life can be desperate at times but I find its beauty truly basking in the sunlight of midday so as I wave before a wave washes me to the shore I seek every day has been worth the while for the while stays wildly embedded in uniquely threaded scarred tissue


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Until We Bleed

I'm naked
I'm numb
I'm stupid 
I'm staying

This isn't love. You use me. 
When you get home from the club or wherever you've been late at night,
You're clumsy with your hands.
Clothing seems too hard to get off.

And if Cupid's got a gun
Then he's shooting

But I can't leave. 
No matter what happens, it's too painful to go.

Lights black
Heads bang
You're my drug
We live it

We're too uncomfortable with the lights on.
I don't want to see your face-
Slurred, clueless.
Angry.
You don't want to see mine-
Helpless, confused.
Depressed.

You're drunk
You need it
Real love,
I'll give it

Everything is hazy to you.
I bet you can't feel.
But I'll love you anyways.
I always have.

So we're bound to linger on
We drink the fatal drop
And love until we bleed
Then fall apart in parts

This has gone on forever, to me.
I'll try to be like you,
To see what it feels like.
I drink the last bottle of vodka
And hold onto you.

You've wasted your times
On my heart, you've burned
And if bridges gotta fall
Then you'll fall, too

Maybe this is the part of life
That people told me about
It doesn't mean anything
It hurts you.
You grow so attached that when one piece collapses
You do too.

Doors slam
Lights black
You're gone
Come back

You leave when the ordeal is over
Because you couldn't really care less when you're sober
You don't have a reason anymore

Stay gone
Stay clean
I need you
To need me

I want you to be happy
To be the way you were before.
But I think without you,
Even though I only see you late at night,
I would be destroyed.

So we're bound to linger on
We drink the fatal drop
Then love until we bleed
Then fall apart in parts

I'm getting up to leave
The keys are for you

Now we're bound to linger on
We drink the fatal drop
Then love until we bleed
Then fall apart in parts

But I'll come back soon
I'll come back


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Burnin' Knuckles

   Your lookin over burnin' knuckles into the road,
There it goes,
But you don't even know your destination so,
With a shake of your head,
On goes the trip,
And a whispered three words, 
This isn't it.

  Guided by a light,
Of thirty or fourty feet,
But your being driven by a heart,
That has forgotten how to beat.
 
   Oh No,
Here we go,
Another mile turns into another night,
Another day to drive right outta sight,
Ohhh it's a rollercoaster horror ride.
When looking over burning knuckles into the road,

   Oh it's a roller coaster horror ride,
Lookin over burnin' knuckles into the road,
Your lookin over burnin' knuckles into the road,
An' there it goes,
But you don't even know destination so,
With a shake of your head,
On goes the trip,
And a whispered three words,
This isn't it.
 
   On it goes_ this isn't it,
On it goes_ this isn't it,
Your trip_ Into the unknown,
While lookin over burnin' knuckles into the road,
And guided by a light,
An' a heart_ that has forgotten how to beat.

  Your lookin over burnin' knuckles into the road,
Strainin eye's on a light that guides,
Our way through what we dont know.

   Ohh it's a rollercoaster horror ride,
Being guided by the lonely nights,
While lookin over,
Burnin' knuckles,
Into the road.


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AM NEVER GONNA CRY AGAIN

Am never paving way ever again to tears, Am standing tall to all these fears, I have trembled enough, Struggled enough, Am never looking back again, Nothing will take me back to that futon, I have worked harder to slide back, Embraced everything even their mock, I have leaped in pain for many years, My whole being brought down in tears, I never learnt how to cry, I was born in cry, Every day I have walked in trauma, Gripped by hurt to have tremors, All this have made me strong, And now you want I slow down, And all that for what? So that you can say I have a heart? Just forget it, Am not even gonna think about it, No, am not giving you a way, I chose to do things my way, It hurt I chose to stray, Follow you and later cry, I have been doing that all my life, Living in pieces just to have a life, I regret I chose to live a lie, Walking away from where I belong, Just to please you and them, I forgot me and you won, But did you ever think about my pain? The reality things will never be the same, Your mantra now am sure are just turmoil, To hug my dreams for I to fail, I met life only in black, When lucky grey is what I spotted, I see many colours when I look back, Those you kept only to your world, I lived in a world of anger, A territory that consumed all my power, I bedded in a world of disappointments, And woke up in a land of disillusionments, I hated everything without a reason, There was never a meaning in any season, This is the world you drove me to, And made sure there was nothing I could do, It’s never too late in life, That a lesson that punched my face, Believed me today I had a smile, Something I never thought of in my life, Now am more lessoned to face this world, Life has no mistakes and forever this I hold, A hundred times I will fall down, Bruises and cuts all over my face, Wipe the dust and start all over again, Positively the only way I know how to shine, So no matter the fears, No matter the years, I will never shed tears, I promise nothing will break me into tears. This is a motto I will take to my grave, I will clutch in this truth as long as I live, Many may try to type my heart out, Possess me and break me out, Think twice before you try to figure me out, Am better I know I can sing you out, Snags won’t ride me anymore into hiding, I will meet them all smiling, Cause I know where am heading, The road may break, Stagger me to break, I will fall and still shot, Be agitated out off my shirt, And still seek dreams with no limit, I say this evolving high and higher, Pursuing more shine from the sky.


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Collywobbles

My skin prickles, hair on my arm
flag-raised.
Quite peculiar, actually, someone
or something, is watching me.

I recalculate my senses, dusting off
pre-conceived notions of paranoia.

Across the room, a dull thud garners
my attention. Searching, I discover a
doorstop has simply tipped over, quite
impossible, I conjecture!

I pick it up and feel a distinct burning!
it's hot to the touch!

Dropping the fiery doorstop, I hear an 
otherwordly chuckle emanate from
somewhere above me, reloading my
sense of apprehension.

Not to be ill-prepared, I crouch in a 
defensive position, peering this way and
that, ready to defend who knows what.

 I turn to evacuate the premises,
and come face to face with a grinning
 disembodied head!

Punching my way through the 
phosphorous face,
 I escape!

Wakening
From
My
Dream



02/15/14
© All Rights Reserved



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7am

I woke up at 7am.
I thought I would see you there.
I must have made you mad,
but if that's the case,
I should remember it....
You must have never kissed me.
I live only for your touch
.
I live only for your kiss.
I used to pray for help
but in this case,
I am overwhelmed.
You must have never kissed me....


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Say Something

There's a mouth wide open,
coming out? Those words unspoken;
There's something that needs to be said,
nothing that should be read.
 
Trying my best with you to talk,
but it seems that all I can do is walk;
I feel like I have something to say,
but it's already now a new day.
 
The wind blows through my hair,
realizing I'm zoned out in stare;
I'm thinking of what to say to you,
if there is something to say or do.
 
The words that I need to say are true,
but I don't want my words to bother you;
I'm not trying to be such a pain,
or tempt to make you go insane.
 
I'm being real by what's in my heart,
and hoping that what I say doesn't tear us apart;
I just really had something to say,
something that shouldn't be waited on another day


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Beginning

Do you hear my words
Beating on your chest?
I'm right outside your door
Afraid to knock
Afraid to say
"Hello"
Wanting to be
Alone
With you in my arms.
So tell me
               Where
Do
        I
                            Begin?
How can I start to show you that I love you?
That I want you to be
A part of my life.
Tell me,
            Where does
Love
                              Begin?


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You lost

You lost!
You lose when the trigger pulled, slid to the floor (frozen grin)
And through the hole in the temple He revealed:
Even a couple of days, and you become happy
You could find your friends, your family, created
Drank half barrels of honey left in the astral
On a rainbow-arc, but you pulled the trigger!

Chorus:
And the dead tears for the dead cheeks
Now you endless trash
Tears for the dead are dead cheeks
And eternity swallowed your last strain.

You lost!
Muffled voice whispered that you are tired,
What a hopeless world completely got!
And the skull to pieces, but he died of boredom
For the fact that the stars were so close,
For the fact that he himself squeezed in a vice ...

On the canvas were only bloody smears!
Chorus.


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Doubts on Leaving Home

How will I know if this day is right for me?
I have waited oh so long to do what needs to be.
But, is the first step, the best thing, for me to do?
How will I be able to know if… all will work out true?

The first day is the hardest, but what will happen if I fail?
How can I continue forth, if everything is to no avail?
There will be no back up as I stand there all alone.
What, oh what, will happen when I am on my own?

The world is so frightening, at the very best of times.
How can I know that this… is really the right time?


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Were

Love come save me, love come save me
pick me up from this cold ground

but love wouldn't save me, til you forgave me
and now my heart is filled with sound
with sound, sound, sound

Hurt befalls me, it befalls me
and you're not awake to save me

But you tried, yes you tried
and now i'm happy, now i'm happy
then we cried, cried, cried

Never fear me, never fear me
I am your calm between the storm

and we laugh, yea laugh, we laugh
at the way things were


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FULL MOON-LUNATICS ARE COMING OUT TONIGHT

FULL MOON-LUNATICS ARE COMING OUT TONIGHT
The situation don't look too good tonight.
There's gonna be a full moon tonight.
I'd stay at home, if I could, tonight,
there's gonna be a full moon tonight.
I feel it coming, 
there will be strangers out tonight.

Every strange thing that you see. 
Every act of lunacy,
happens in this lunar glow, 
where they come from, I don't know,
but it must be lunacy.

Lunatics are coming out tonight.
It's a full lunar situation, tonight.
Strange goings on, will go on tonight, 
there's gonna be a full moon tonight.

Every stranger that you know, 
comes out in this lunar glow.
Every strange thing happens when, 
there's a full moon out again,
and when it's full, they all know!

Lunatics are coming out tonight.
It's a full lunar situation, tonight.
Strange goings on, will go on tonight, 
there's gonna be a full moon tonight.
              © ron wilson aka vee bdosa


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The Paper Samurai

I wrote this to an illustration I created of this character. Origami the Paper 
Samurai, was intended to mimic 'Flat Stanley' and show solidarity among children 
and parents against bullying. Perhaps if everyone showed support against this 
bad behavior, by token of wearing this small Samurai, Would-be bullies might 
reconsider their numbers.  



I am everywhere you go
And there is one thing you should know
When you need me, I will be there
That's no lie
I'll fight for you and me
And all that we can be
I am more, than just a Paper Samurai

Origami, Origami
I am all for you and you are all my army

When trouble comes to us
And Bullies cause a fuss
They will see the Samurai within our eye
They may push us, they may shove us
But they will never rise above us
May the last words that they hear, is our "BONSAI"

When, we are doing good
Helping others, like we should
There's no reason in the world, we should cry
The paper we will fold, and the story, will be told
I'm Origami, Your Paper Samurai 

Origami, Origami
I am all for you and you are all my army
                                        by Jerry T Curtis
                                        August 6, 2014






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Dinny, din, din

Dinny Din Din.

Look in to the devil with sweetness
 Or find me some guy without sin
In cool blooded passion
So bold in your fashion
Look through the hole in your dinny, din, din.

It takes but a scratch to the surface
To peer at the shape we’re all in
Just under that layer you’ll find there a slayer
Who fills your whole head with that dinny, din, din.

It’s a fix, it’s a fix we’re all in
Those fashions and such going by
You know we’re told all those whys
As we hear frightened cries
As we’re caught in the noise of our dinny, din, din.

We’re caught in life’s dreams sweet and sour
As everything’s moving within
With the force of our fright
Our bonds are made tight
As we’re locked in the cage of our dinny din, din
Dinny, din, din.


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Fear

I let fear hold me back from how I feel,
and everything I had inside is now out and real.
 
I can't believe I let stupidity take over,
I should've worked harder at being a lover.
 
I let him down in so many ways,
but I'm making sure each promise that I made stays.
 
I want to throw my fear away,
only as long as he'll be by my side to stay.
 
Promise are made to be kept,
not broken and swept.
 
I'm going to do what I can to make it work,
and I hope to be forgiven for all the hurt.
 
No more of the lies,
no more tries.
 
I'll start with him and me,
the pain is something that didn't need to be.
 
I'm sorry for everything I've done,
and I hope to put things back together as one.


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The Escapist's Plea

When you can longer run away from yourself
When you thought there were no more tears to cry
When you just want to die
Living like this consumed by the façade of a million lies
So many years, so many days
Waking up to people who no longer care you're there
You ask how can this be, one short organic vitality
Wasted with living; the slowest way to die

The shadows of shame weigh you down 
Until you drown, filled with only their hate
All you can turns grey, and all you ever loved fades
The agony is all you know, thank you pain
A self-sadist Is all you have become, j
ust how they showed you, craving so much more
Just to hide up all of the misery
But under cloth it still bleeds

This is the Escapist's Plea
For the one who fall to their knees in misery
Trying to stay sane but fall under September's rain
Dying from the invisible disease, only you can see
Stigmatized by their sadistic need
Only if I could just fly away
...Fly Away


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Missing

Walking around the graveyard
Untaggling his hands from the pocket in his jacket
its clear in his head that he's screaming for something
that something is missing within his heart

Taking off his hat as he sits it on her grave
Pulling out a piece of paper
The death certificate that her name was signed on
a tear falling from his cheek 
he reaches down to pick up the flower he laid there before

crumples at his touch
sitting down the piece of paper
he asked her
how can i love?
when the one i want is not here?

tears fall from his eyes unto the paper 
he lights a candle
sits it by her tombstone

He lays down beside her
listening to the wind
hoping to hear her voice
something he longed for
something that he was missing

he falls asleep
holding the stem of the rose that crumpled before
The pedals fly away with the wind
and the flame of the candle burns out
the rain starts to fall

He lays with his eyes closed
He goes back in time
The rose pedals fall back unto the stem
The paper flies back into his pocket

He walks back into town
Back into the house he was at before
Back at her funeral
to the hospital they were at
When they found out she had cancer
To the church where they got married
To the time when he asked her to marry him
Finally to the place where they met

There story replays again in his mind
he lays cold on the ground beside her
The wind dies down
and the candle starts burning again


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Words of Courage

I'm waiting for my moment
My moment to shine
One thats irreplaceable
And very hard to find
 
I'm doing my best
To smile to the world
I know that theres a reason
Why I'm a shy girl
 
I'm probably not special
In any kind of way
But I wont let that
Ruin my day
 
I'm gonna do best
No matter how hard it'll be
I'm not doing it for anyone
I'm just doing it for me
 
I had my moments
I had my days
But I won't let it get me down
No not today


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Sorhleod

It was the myriad relapse The shadows perched, time slipped, the temptation resided to my mind I'm sure I have most the soul I never once had Lost; once you go into the dark eternal black there's no hope of dreaming of atoning back Small child I cling to you trying to savor the innocence When I could believe in everything again I tried All along to search for the truth But " the truth" is something that the truth eradicated I want to be ignorant again Can't face reality again Cease the pain that the pills can't heal Evaporate the blood that negates the strife Let me believe in everything again Break the fear Remove the pins of reality And I still wonder why And I still wonder why "forgive" makes me cry I can't make it stopThe razor beckons my name The scars and all their Shame... Find a way to pierce my serpent heart Through the iron membrane it's bleeding, I know When I have no cigarettes to burn When I have no more knowledge to Learn When I have no more xanax To cause concern I've dried out My heart is loosing it's touch There's no way out The abuse and abyss has sealed me Cease the pain that the pills can't heal Evaporate the blood that negates the strife Let me believe in everything again Break the fearRemove the pins of reality And I still wonder why And I still wonder why "forgive"makes me cry I've dried out My heart is loosing it's touch There's no way out The abuse and abyss has sealed me I've dried out tMy heart is loosing it's touch There's no way out The abuse and abyss has sealed me


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Meaningful Screw You's

I'm done with this I've had enough of this/
Slushy trip since Hell Paso son just quit
This empty pursuit
Of letting the past keep livin' through you/
Go ahead and equip the damn truth
It is that simple to choose
What state of the neighbor of the temple you use
But you're just so adamant to worship/
Every preliminary negative
Which is why you have sentiment for those sedatives
Want evidence man your head has been/
Set on making your *****Titanic as
You steer into a gigantic crash/
Without any ****ing idea what effect thy absence has/
On the kids and on me too/
My heart feels ripped the honest truth/
To see you empty as your holes in the wall
You're like a ghost to us all/
Pale as the Seroquil pills you down/
I want to help but under the meds what you feel gets drowned/
I have the inauspicious fear you'll end up just like Tommy
That's why I pray every night/ I can't lose you Robbie


You have no idea 
What it's like
To watch you die
Every day
Every night
All the time
You can't even see that I am
Here with you
By your side
But as much
As I try
You deny
That I fight
For your life then I scream that
To me your life's meaningful (good riddance) 
But I'm 'bout this close to sayin' **** you (you idiot)
To me your life's meaningful (good riddance)
But I'm 'bout this close to sayin' **** you (you idiot)


Why can't you just forget the past
Take some time to look at the bigger picture and not be back in a flash
We're Kruger (pronounced close to sounding like Kroger)/ the fear you helped restore gives me bags
And I'm beyond tired of takin' attacks from your last-
Ing grudge for my darker days/
I love you but I wish to part our ways/
There's only so much my heart can take
In terms of holes and you immerse me in 'em the Spartan way/
It's not our choice we're physically far away/
And yes half the reason is me that our spark gave way/
But this time it's your fault that our world is shaking
You shut me out because the ears of another girl were waiting/
It seems that even for Britney your concern's decaying
It's ****ed up/ 'cause you never acknowledged how much I changed/
'Cause of our rapport me and my fam are pretty much estranged
**** these games you love to play/ 'tween now and then nothin's changed
Good luck not lovin' me as much as pain


You have no idea 
What it's like
To watch you die
Every day
Every night
All the time
You can't even see that I am
Here with you
By your side
But as much
As I try
You deny
That I fight
For your life then I scream that
To me your life's meaningful (good riddance) 
But I'm 'bout this close to sayin' **** you (you idiot)
To me your life's meaningful (good riddance)
But I'm 'bout this close to sayin' **** you (you idiot)


For a year it's been suicide with clues to find solutions I/
Don't think you're usin' my heartful l advice/ damn dude have I
Not been full of time so you could find/ reasons for you to not be blue and live/
But everytime I cope a sit and let you vent/ you walk off and do the opposite/
Talk about exhausted *****try listenin' to all your promises
And problems it's/ a shame how it's all turned out
I'm so burnt out/
I'll be the last to say this won't work out/
If you take your anger out on me again like I'm a dating spot/
Speakin' of those feelings that you refrain from not (knot)-
Icing was it honesty/ or rants of despar (as in spar) ity exasperated by deprav (as in im"prov") ity/
Or is there a real fervor (as in carni"vore") for me
If so then why you ignor (same as above) ing me/
For a Vai's you say you are not strong enough to close
Go **** yourself with a rubber hose
I don't care where the **** it goes/
I was there when no one was and this' the thanks I get
Never was I a dick to you so why'd you wank me *****/
My tears have turned into repressed anger/
For you a brother to me now a depressed stranger
That I have to put up longer than my dress' hanger


You have no idea 
What it's like
To watch you die
Every day
Every night
All the time
You can't even see that I am
Here with you
By your side
But as much
As I try
You deny
That I fight
For your life then I scream that
To me your life's meaningful (good riddance) 
But I'm 'bout this close to sayin' **** you (you idiot)
To me your life's meaningful (good riddance)
But I'm 'bout this close to sayin' **** you (you idiot)


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For a Little While

For a Little While…

A hammer, a chisel, and a tablet made of stone
All I’ll ever need when I find myself alone
It makes more sense that I would finally set you free
I’ve held you back for too long
Don’t tell me you can’t see
A world awaits you; take a step into the light
No one to hold your hand
But only for a little while…

I see a picture forming of you in my mind
A crystal clear depiction telling me that you’ll be fine
What of me you ask? 
What will become of me?
I’ll fade on the horizon just as you’ve realized you’re free
Perhaps we’ll meet again, if only for a little while
Nothing more than friends again
With nothing to reconcile;
If only for a little while…

A hammer, a chisel, and a tablet made of stone
All I’ll ever need to keep from being alone
I feel it deep inside, like the turning of a screw
I’m so wound up, uptight, and I don’t know what to do
I know the world awaits you
So take a step into the light
No one to hold your hand
But only for a little while…

The picture I see of you is forming in my mind
A crystal clear depiction
Telling me that you’ll be fine
What of me you ask? What will become of me?
I would fade on the horizon just as you’ve realized…you’re free
Even, if only for a little while…


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Waiting on our Demise

Sweet pleasure, sweet pain
Hourglass grain
Falling, falling one by one
Days pass, sun by sun
Will it rise? Or stay hidden?
Good riddance, I say
Do we deserve the light?
Perhaps too bright
Our minds a dimmer
Orange ball of shimmer
How we waste you away
This world of decay 



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The Chase

It's the beginning
So far away
Yet tethered
Until forever has reached its end

A circle
Never ending
Ever lasting
Until you reach me at last

I can feel you
I can hear you
But I can't change my course

Gripping and ripping
The breath from my chest
Ragged and racing
Destined for facing
Eternal rest

The path has narrowed
The walls screaming in my ears
Forever harrowed
Blood running like tears

I can smell you
I can see you
But I can't change my course

It's the end
You're upon me
It's the end
There's nothing left
It's the end
There's no way out

You have sought me
You have caught me 
It's the end of my course


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EYE Don't See -Part 4-

My heart is beating with upbeat delight 
You astound me…in every shape and form 
My spirit is dancing with unbreakable might
You surprise me…when you take my hand
And pull me outtah my jail-like dorm

And He dismisses me from my solitude…
My eyes are glistening with bliss… 
And I’m far from my demise… 
Only to find that there’s no need to feel helpless

Why do you spoil me rotten with your fatherly affection?

Just protect me from any harm 
Let me make my own decisions…
To see the results in the long run 

You prize me as if I’m cherished like your carefree child
You don’t understand – I’m TOO foolish and wild
I haven’t even reached to full maturity 
But how eye hope to see myself grow and be set free
From the world’s mayhem
Is there a solution to this problem?

And I’m left with no answer…
My eyes are eager to see…another bright day 
And the night is coming to haunt me… 
I find myself slowly disappearing from sight…
When will God give me a purpose to fight? 
When will He feed me His awesome might? 

Just support me…especially during my downfalls
Please answer my calls!

And I’m left to venture off into His path…

Eye can’t escape my terrible nightmares 
Consider my calls of acceptance…my grief weighs a ton
Let me pour forth my tears – 
Do me a favor and cast away my fears
Steer me away from disorder and confusion

Eye can see you’re making great progress
You’re heading towards a brighter, superb future…

My eyes 
No longer witness oblivion 
My eyes
Looks beyond the earthly pain…
bEyOnD the affliction 

I spot a rope in the distance. . . . . 

Push aside the waves…and let me
Grab it this instant!
God feeds me His love…and treats me
Like a newborn infant!

Eye see my Father with brand-new eyes  
I feel rare content
And I feel hardly any resentment

Eye 
cherish 
that 
REMARKABLE 
moment 


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Self Defense

                                                      The darkness of night,
                                                      may bring you some fright,
                                                      the sounds that you hear,
                                                      may enhance all your fear;

                                                      you'll hear a twig snap,
                                                      but you can't see the chap,
                                                      you'll hear the leaves crunch,
                                                      and you throw a wild punch ;

                                                      there is nothing at all around ,
                                                      just some natural sound,
                                                      but when there is no sight,
                                                      nothing at all seems right ;

                                                      now i see a man with a knife,
                                                      moving at me to take my life,
                                                      I stepped back and got my gun,
                                                      pulled the trigger and gave him one.


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Sarajevo Suicide - 1995

     SARAJEVO SUICIDE -1995
If only I'd the heart to be
the stronger of the two of we,
perchance I'd find you hiding here
and part of who is you and me.

But merciless, love gives no clue
from whence it comes, nor goes into;
the time of day it might appear,
then leave, the very same as you.

I have no mind for fickle thought
nor pain that loving you has brought
if worth my time, I'd hold life dear
though Sarajevo knows it not;

tomorrow's not another day
but in  tonight I cannot stay
so I have need to leave from here
from my own hand and my own way.
© ron wilson aka Vee Bdosa the Doylestown Poet


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Beyond What's Seen

You do not know what I see
I see you crying next to me
I see your pain, I see your tears
Through your laughs, and through the years
Past your mask I see your face
You are hiding in this place
Trust in me, I won't let you fall
You don't have to hide at all

Open up what's in your heart
That is the place I will start
Open up your eyes and see
All that's left is you and me
In the end you'll see the light
Come on, I don't want to fight
Together we will make it through
Come on. Now, It's me and you

Now you can start to feel
How much this love is true and real 
behind your eyes you keep your pain
It's all locked up in your brain
Come on. Now, just let it out
It's okay to scream and shout
I will help you through and through
I will always be with you


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Chancy thinks its soo fancy

Is it you ? is it me?
Stuck in a world of a fantasy 
Heart beats, unceasingly 
Is this what they call ecstasy?
 Some say “the heart wants ,what the heart wants”
Yet the fire is oh! So enticing! Tranquilizing!
I adore it! I fear it!
Chancy foot stands transfixed in front
The petrified foot it taunts 
As it takes one step back, 
Chancy stands there and laughs
Torn between the two…my heart weeps
What path to take? My heart! Guidance it seeks
The fear of falling
Holds me back
The want for love
Pushes me back
The shackles of scary bounds me tight
Chancy is there, never to give up with out a fight

 Arising a hurricane is what they doo
My poor feeble heart, knows not what to do
The heart is pure. It seeks it strives to find who proves to be true
The ultimate winner..is still unknown
For here my heart still stand in the sea of unknown
Cupid I beg you do guide me
And dare not strike me and leave me
With your arrows of blind love
Guidance is what I need 
Give me that and I shall heed
Leave me not in the dark of misery
Leave me not in the sea of mystery
But guide me to that ever shinning light
Scary or chancy
With what do I side?
Shall forever remain a secrecy….



                                                                ~M.M.M


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Baby Please

Oh my darling, how I wish I knew your name.
I've called you many things and Loves' the only one to stay.
I've called you many times, now won't you come my way?

Oh child at night, you, you rattle through my bones.
But I wake up on cold mornings to find I'm all alone.
And I cried, "Baby please, I can't lose all that I need".

And I cried, "Baby please, I am only a man,
And I'm working, trying the best that I can".
I can't do this all alone, so I cried, yes I cried,
"Baby please, won't you please just come back home".

I knew all my tears would be in vein,
But cried on anyway, to try and wash away the pain.
I've called you many things, but "Goodbye" would only stain. 

Oh I cried, "Baby please, you'd be cold to walk away,
But surely we'd both freeze if you can't find the heart to stay.
So I cried, cried, cried, "I love you more than anything in this world,
Now you've go to, got to, got to be my girl".


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My Savior

Savior of mine
I call out to you
Save me from myself
and all I believe that is true.
For my heart is aching inside
and I know not what to do.

Take me by the hand
Guide me to a far away land.
Allow me to escape myself once and for all.

I know not what my future brings
I know not where this path leads
However I do know,
that my heart bleeds 

Savior of mine
Stop this aching pain
Free my soul
from its evil reign.

For life without you,
is lived only in vain.

Savior of mine
I give myself to you
Broken and scared
For this is all that I can do.

For with you
nothing of myself
will remain
From this point on
I can only gain.

Thank you for saving me
This unworthy soul is now set free.


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In Your Love

Every time you kiss my lips 
I am drowning, I'm drowning
Like a never ending abyss
I am drowning, I'm drowning
Every time you whisper I miss you
I am drowning, I'm drowning
In your love,  in your love.

Life doesn't seem dangerous
When I'm drowning, yeah I'm drowning
Don't take it so serious
Cause I'm drowning, yeah I'm drowning
I don't care what they think of us
Cause I'm drowning, yeah I'm drowning
In your love, in your love

~ Leonard Napierskie


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EYE Don't See -Part 2-

My eyes
Refuse to see tragedy
My eyes
Marinate in dread…unable to embrace ecstasy 

And I’m left in my solitude…
My eye’s sagging…from endless mourning  
And I’m close to my demise… 
Only to find myself disappear…
When will peace draw near?

You don’t see 
What damage you’ve done
Just let me be
Leave me alone…hand me a gun

I yearn for unspoiled glory
To make me feel perfect once more
I yearn for flawless serenity
To make me feel no regret…don’t ignore
My calls…don’t hang up on me

You don’t see 
What damage you’ve done
Just hear my plea
Listen to my excruciating cries…
Listen to the truth, not the malicious lies  
Our journey has just begun   

And I’m left in my solitude…
Do you hear me weeping?
And I’m close to my demise…
Only to find myself disappear…
When will peace draw near?

Eye can’t handle the stress
Let me release my horrendous distress
Eye can see you making that same mistake
At least MY life isn’t at stake

And I’m left in my solitude…
My eye’s weeping…do You feel my lament
And I’m close to my demise…
Only to find myself disappear…Stepped on like cement
I’m aching with discontent… I abhor this torment    
When will peace scrub off my fear?

I can’t believe my eyes
Your guiltiness flows into me…
I can’t believe I fell for your lies
Your heartless action rape my mind…you don’t see
What my EYES see…

You’ll never see 
How much pressure you put me under
Unchain me from this chamber
And watch me flee…

When will you be set free?


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How The Gods Kill

The sharpness of the blade
The toughness of my skin
The color of the blood that drips unto the pavement
The rush of pain i get

The calmness of holding it in my hands
The smell of the bullet reaching my mouth
The memories in my brain decease

Would you let everything go?
Just to feel alive again?

Can you end this moment of your life?
Show me how the gods kill

If you got no fear
Do you know the name of the one you saved?
If you want the answers
Go find the truth

Look inside your headless soul
There you will find the noose

Would you let everything go?
Just to feel alive again?

Can you show me how the gods kill?


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Always Away

He pushes me away

Every day

I can't stand

when he's not holding my hand

But he pushes me down

I cry with a frown

And as i run away

I can't stop to say

That i was in love

It must've been a mistake, i can't love

Not when he treats me this way

Oh he's pushing me away

And yet he took my breath away

When I saw him walk in today

Through my stomach was tight

I almost could pretend I was alright

But he took off without saying a word

As I stood there feeling so awkward, so absurd

He texts me his apology

Nice to know just what he thinks of me

That he can tell his phone much later

But it just makes the pain much greater

Cause though I've not shed a single tear

I feel like I've cried for many a year

He's supposed to be

My fantasy

The one to hold 

when life gets old

Someone I can cry to, and let him cry to me

But nothing in my life plays out quite happily


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Hold Me Now

Maybe this isnt something to say
to someone like you
someone i could never be
something i dont want anyone to see
so ill hold it in
until i explode
hold me now 
im standing on the edge of
the bridge
nothing to hold on to
I only want someone to save me
but how can you if your blind
and you cannot see the dangers around you
so you keep them until they get so close
to your face and finally explode
then you see
hold me now
cause im already 6 feet into the ground


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Therion

Slayer of dreams and reality Bow down to his Therion Majesty Vowed to Be beyond Spiritual Supremacy, But too Frail, but too Weak, Were these words of The Transgressor of Our Argentine Destiny Reigned with Blood And with Blood You shall Fall Never denounce the ways of The Wicked For the Wicked you Have Become I'm Not your gracious Jesus Christ, Saving you from the blood-sodden Ice, But you Are The Beast Therion Majesty Can't control your own destiny The one who used to fight monsters, Became a Monster Himself Look beyond the Book, See the Truth lying there, Gagged and Hooked, Silence screaming to Be Free The Draconian Revelation Will Save thee The same Cold Pressure has erupt inside The Beast dwells in your Pride Dipped in Argentine and Insanity, Captivated by the touch Never looking beyond the Sin, For the Scene remains Empty I'm Not your gracious Jesus Christ, Saving you from the blood-sodden Ice, But you Are The Beast Therion Majesty Can't control your own destiny The one who used to fight monsters, Became a Monster Himself In your mind When the world Falls, Parodiso will open her halls But not for you, Inferno Cries out for you Forever Malaoda will Be your destiny I'm Not your gracious Jesus Christ, Saving you from the blood-sodden Ice, But you Are The Beast Therion Majesty Can't control your own destiny The one who used to fight monsters, Became a Monster Himself


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How I Long For--

My dreams are falling apart
In Your hands, I pray (for joy), "Take heart!"
You are the stars - searing my 
Soul is kneeling to the ground
Trace my future and take wing
Towards the pathway...You find peace
You are an angel in my--

Heart is bleeding soundlessly
Above land...I mourn so sweet
I am the clouds - carrying a 
Gallon of grief...release me!
Place me in fields of love and
Forgive me and lift me up
You are the heavens to my--

Heart is beating profoundly
Without Your heart's joyous song
You are the sun - nourishing 
My lambs are grazing around,
Roving in fields of splendor,
Enlightening the darkness
You are an apple to my--

Eye is grieving...losing sight
Of Your glory...I feel lost
You are the lake - sparkling with
Delight and Luck! Bring us home!
Grow like a morning glory
In the autumn time, You thrive
You are valuable to my--

Eye is twinkling...praying for 
Insight...yearning for Your sight
You are the hills - guiding my
Mind is longing for your mirth--
Restoring peace to my verse,
Sprouting forth grace and freedom
You are the train tracks, bearing--

My train of thought...making my
Steel spirit connect with Yours
You are the valley - between
The mountains guarding us all,
Building strength to fragile bones,
Welcoming a stream of hope
You are my map - lending me

YOUR helping hand I would take
Now, I could take Your challenge
You are like a maze filled with
Mysteries conceal the truth;
I fight with all of my might
And I BEG for Your mercy
To mend my once blissful dreams!

How I long for Your mercy...


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False Senses

Do you realize that you lost? Do you realize that I won? Or did you think it was a tie In your sick twisted mind? Stuck in your lies Concrete at your feet You never took a step You never made a sound When the gun was fired And I ran for my life Do you realize that you lost? Battered and tossed By your own malfunction Wires you crossed Leaning on a crutch From wounds self inflicted Do you realize that I won? Running like fire Brighter than the sun Autumn behind my head Summer in my eyes So near the finish line The reward is mine Or did you think it was a tie? Tangled web behind your eyes Wrapped in delusions Coming to false conclusions In your sick twisted mind Do you realize that you lost? Do you realize that I won? Or did you think it was a tie In your sick twisted mind? Stuck in your lies Concrete at your feet You never took a step You never made a sound When the gun was fired And I ran for my life


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I'm So Afraid

I had control
I held it well
Upon my throne
You could never tell

That deep inside
My fate was sealed
I'm so afraid
Of the way I feel

Grasping for straws to help clear my mind
Look behind
The shadows of fear come and crawl behind
Stay away
I'm starting to crack and I...

The trigger's cold
My fingers are hot
My muscles twitch
As I await the shot

It never comes
It never will
I'm so afraid
Of the way I feel

Dance in the rain of machine gun fire
Dear God, it hurts
Holding onto what's left of my control
Set to burst
I'm begging for peace and I...

I walk along
The dusty tracks
The sun's hot rays
Are scorching my back

I'd sell my soul
I'd make a deal
I'm so afraid
Of the way I feel

Praying for a moment to catch my breath
Crash into me
The terror that comes with loss of control
All I feel
I wish I could die and I...


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Fields of Blasphemy

Where shall I flee? I’m swimming in the waters of misery…
And I’m crying a river…I’m saturated in woe 
How do I think cheerfully? I’m lost in the abyss…and the shadows won’t let me be… 
And I’m bewildered… I’m fighting to break free… 

(I can’t break free…
Where do I flee?
Why can’t I break free?)
The spiders are spinning their webs above me…
Bless me and untangle me from this madness…please… give me peace…I’m wasting away – 

They’re preying upon me…they’re whipping me … warping their way inside of me
My saliva drips on the ground…I’m growing numb and I pray
The monsters don’t attack my heart’s desires…if I let them break free,
I’ll never be the same…I’ll never see the light of day

Where do I belong? I’m roaming in the fields of blasphemy 
And I’m crying a river…I feel like an awful disgrace… 
How do I find a pathway? I’m lost in fields of weeds…they’re producing catastrophe 
And I’m bewildered… I’m trying to finish the race… 

(I can’t keep pace…
The sweat is trickling down my face…
Why can’t I keep pace?)
The wasps are chasing after me…where do I flee?
Caress me and save me from the distress…stinging me in pleasure…I’m drifting away – 

They’re hovering all around me… they’re harassing me…could you wipe away my tears?
Find me a place of rest…to make the sufferings end and I pray
The darkness will stop spreading lies in my head…if I throw away my fears, 
I’ll never learn to face my fears…I’ll never know His way…

Where shall I go? I’m roaming in the fields of blasphemy 
And I’m crying a river…I’m saturated in woe 
How do I find the key? I’m lost in fields of weeds…they’re reproducing catastrophe
And I’m bewildered… 

I’m yearning to let go… 
I’m learning to cope with my fears…
I’m deserting my woe…
I’m wiping away the tears... 
(that has been bottled up for many years… )

The spiders have ensnared me in their webs…
I’m in danger…I’m wrapped up in distress…
 and there is no where to hide… 
The wasps are tracking me down...I haven’t paid my debts…
I’m struck in alarm…I’m in a mess…
Please stay by my side – catch me as I collide
( We’re all together on this ride… )

I can’t break free (please relieve me from my despair) 
Why can’t I break free? Where do I flee? (this pain is too much to bear)
I can’t keep pace (give me the energy to shine like the sun)
Why can’t I keep pace? Why can’t I finish this race? (give me some strength to run)


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Soar

Perched on the precipice
of the world,
Desperately trying to
Grow wings before the earth
Crumbles below.
 A misstep, a mistake
A single misspoken word
Will shatter the very foundation
Upon which i stand
And will cast me into 
The infernal abyss below.
Confined by the illusion
that turning back is not
An option, erasing my past
will sever the very fibers
Of my inner and outer selves,
I extend my arms and,
clawing the air,
I fall.
A leap of faith that sends me 
hurdling into the darkness below.
I close my eyes.
I dream. I hope.
I believe.
My motion slows.
I emerge from that pit 
Like a diver bursting through
The membrane between 
sea and sky.
I have found my wings
and I soar.


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One Voice

It only takes one voice to start a song With someone else there… to sing along And pretty soon, you may well see The entire world singing happily There is that one voice within us all It’s pride and fear that hides the call But, if just one would raise a voice Others would follow as a matter of choice So loud and strong, that one should sing Happiness to all, that person may bring By starting the world off… in that song Then everyone else will just sing along Do not be afraid of the changes you make Life can only improve by the choices we take And if the lyrics for that moment seem wrong Then quiet the voice and start a new song One person can change the whole world we know By deciding to stand to let their voice grow Do not back down when it’s your time to sing You’ll be so surprised by what your voice brings Within the air, all the voices you’ll hear Will be of the many that overcame fear Standing to sing, despite those who wait They’re the voices of those, who contribute to fate Do not be afraid of the changes you make Life can only improve by the choices we take And if the lyrics for that moment seem wrong Then quiet the voice and start a new song Be that one voice Sing from your heart Don’t hide in the shadows You can be now the start


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Congruity

 The forces of nature are being perverted, turning good into bad, and the bottom line, 
the key to it all is profit. 
 Primates choose co-existence within a group driven by forces of the first law of nature.
 When we engage in a symbiotic relationship, this law of nature is less burden sum on the 
individual. 
 Humans chiefly rely on our sense of sight; we take up with others who appear to be 
most like us, and lend ourselves to the saying that seeing is believing.  
 Fear is our prime motivating factor, and  advertising executives will tell you that fear 
sells.

 What we are witnessing is the perversion of our survival engine, making the money 
wheel go round.  We are made to fear everything by key design, and our survival instinct 
is telling us there is safety in numbers.  So we identify ourselves with a group, and 
instinctively try to fit in, by purchasing our reality of acceptance. 

                     Monkey see monkey do!
 She’s a nerd, He’s a skater,  They’re preps, I’m a goth.
 How can you tell them apart?  By the things they purchase.
 The purchasing of acceptance is also found in the sub culture as well.
 People who want to break away from being normal are victims of fear.
 The fear of being sell outs, like the Brady bunch family types who are part of a 
system that they despise. How can you tell them apart? By the things they purchase.
 What you see is what you get, and what we are getting is what we see.
 The purple hair, body piercing, and tattoos; are the same as, the Coach hand bags, spray tans, and botox injections. One monkey’s Marilyn Manson to another monkey’s Bach.


                      Form follows thought.
 Our survival engine is a universal constant force, and fear is the constant variable that shifts our transmission into drive. No one wants to grow old, living alone dressed in rags and eating cat food.
 Even the separatists who choose to be an island in this Sea of crap are fearful.  So 
there’s an on line computer game for that, or a chat room for that, or a hobby for that, 
or pets for that, or a pill for that, and of coarse there’s media entertainment for that.
 No matter this or that the key turns our survival engine on and fear shifts the 
transmission into drive, and together they keep the money wheels turning…and that's the bottom line.

I once heard someone say “thank god for Hardly Davidson cause it gives fat hairy 
beer belly slobs something to be a part of.” She was holding an imitation Louis 
Vuitton hand bag and on her way to the tanning salon when she said that


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It's Obvious

I was introduced into the vast illusions of life.
Some people call it love, others call it a knife.
Cutting your skin so you can bleed.
Each drop is a distraction from what you need.
You close your eyes and take the pain.
Then all your worries are temporarily in vain. 
No progress, no digress
Just that moment to believe that more is less.
Oh and you grieve from your hopelessness
You accept the fact that you have lost your happiness
You cry, You scream! Help is what you seek
No one hears though, we just ignore and call you a freak
All this segregation
All this quote on quote integration
The only thing it does is make the big seem bigger 
And the small seem smaller.
Belief is the only thing you keep
You grasp it so tightly and put it under your feet
Each step is a different view
You’re looking around for something new
Eyes stay open, Heart is listening
Your intentions are bright and glistening.
You want to change from mad
And achieve the beautiful emotion of simple glad  
Battle this depression, get away from this mess and
Find a whole new state of mind open for progression.
Your voice sounds desperate.
Your scars show desperate. 
You are desperate, and you’ve made a mess of it.
But it’s obvious to me,
That you can finally see
How to overcome the desperation
And use your failures as inspiration.
Yes, it’s obvious to me.


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Baruch Aish the Blessed fire

God is clean with consuming fire  					                                  As gold pours off dross purifies 									         Decision's valley now the hour					  	                                 when He comes with fire in His eyes                                                                               ~                       -                                                                                                                           Baruch Aish the Blessed fire -refrain                                                                                                          ~      Rains burning away sin as tin 				   						        The bush the flame does not devour									        Will be your enemy or friend 										  Radiant blaze thorny flower	                                                                              ~  -~        refrain 														     Giving us heat the burning heart	   									 Hearth's hand to warm our cold bones								     Separating us from the dark										       lamp for our feet avoiding stones                                                                      ~ -refrain  															 To see by night with your candle light                                                                        Your blessed fire or ire with might                                                                                the sun rising over hill like lighting                                                           		   Baruch Aish the Blessed fire 														


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Waiting To Be Mine

I know that I deserve better than this.
I savor every moment and every kiss.
The days they pile on and I'm buried,
Choking underneath it all. 
The days they pile on and I'm buried,
Choking underneath it all. 

Please tell me I'm the one
And I'll never leave your side.
And that all you might carry
Is growing, waiting to be mine. 

Prayed tonight for the first time
In my own teary lines.
I pray that my own sins won't spoil innocence.
For the first time in over 8 years, I hope any Kingdom heard my call.
The days they pile on and I'm buried,
Choking underneath it all. 

Just tell me I'm the one
And I'll never leave your side.
And all that you might carry
Is growing, waiting to be mine. 

Everything that's ahead of me;
All my love in an entity may be my greatest enemies,
Oh, I can't stand.
Everything that's ahead of me;
All my love in an entity may be my greatest enemies,
Oh, I could die. 

So please tell me I'm the one
And I'll never leave your side.
And that all you might carry
Is growing, waiting to be mine.


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Strange philosophy

i've always been so afraid of flying,
is it my fear of heights,is it my fear of falling?
it's a strange philosophy,
a troubled heart,a shooting star,life's a remedy
for who we are.
oftentimes my hope is fleeting,
so engrossed in so believing,
in who i am ,the calling,
it's a strange philosophy,
that up is down and down is up,
no doubt my truth is your lie,
but this is music,hear the heart.
it's a strange philosophy,
i live in you,you live in me,
you're trying hard to make it,
work it!
you lose your soul and hope it's worth it?
we trusted in whoever we believed,
Jesus died for my own fault,
i heard that all things pass away,
but love like this never fades away.
one last thing,
it is what it is,
a seriously strange philosophy,
all that and so much more.


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Suffering Is The Same As Living

Hope, tonight, is just a void Love is destroyed Reality impending my doom Suffering a dream that was never made for me I’m just the burden falling under your arms I understand if you give up on me Don’t worry I’ll be fine I can just wait, wait as in all eternity You deserve to be happy and free I’m just the burden falling under your arms I understand if you give up on me Suffering is the same as living Tonight I might, Today I may Set you free away from me I’m just the burden falling under your arms I understand if you give up on me You travel all across in my veins Showing you share my pain But my life was never meant for me I’m just the burden falling under your arms I understand if you give up on me I'm sorry for those days I've ruined your life Best you just ignore, forevermore I’m just the burden falling under your arms I understand if you give up on me Suffering is the same as living Tonight I might, Today I may Set you free away from me I’m just the burden falling under your arms I understand if you give up on me Suffering is the same as living Tonight I might, Today I may Set you free away from me I’m just the burden falling under your arms I understand if you give up on me
**Morten Veland, Guitarist, Male Vocalist and Main Songwriter of Sirenia, formerly of Tristania**


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Asymmetrical


The boots moved slowly,
Crunching sun-baked clay.
A hazy wind down alleyways,
It moves with moans 
Then whistles softly,
Quickly gone.

A child stands in a doorway
Pulling something from his robe.
He keys in certain numbers, 
Only doing as he's told.

He waits, then hears a bomb
As it explodes.
A helmet lands and bounces
Near his feet.
He shrugs. then merges with a
crowded street.


Gene Bourne
06-03-14








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Don't come on like a Guru

Don’t come on like a Guru
 
Don’t come on like a Guru
Like you know all of it
Don’t say, you know the answers
It will not help a bit
There might be some in foolishness
That want to follow you
Yet all In all, you be like us
You don’t know what be true.

You might have read a lot of books
But that don’t mean a thing
These words, my friend be borrowed
No wisdom do they bring
No book will make you holy
You have to seek it out
You have to understand yourself
To know what life’s about.
 
Guru’s, well there be so many of them
You might think you be filled with sacred gems
But in the end you’re lost
Just like the rest of us
The one who says he knows, you just can’t trust.

Don’t come on like a Guru
With your mind all filled with words
A lot of folk might listen
And then you will be heard
But in the end you’re fooling
Yourself and that be all
Don’t come on like a Guru
No, don’t you be a fool


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Wind up

Stuck in your box of ease
Fear holding you back from being free
Holding to comfort so you'll never fail
But this zone is starting to feel like a prison jail

So throw off the chains of easy
And mix up your routine
This life is all you'll live for
Make it somethin worth a mean
Stop being a wind up, just going through the day
Cause if your living a wind up, where will you wind up anyway

Live out your essence its too early to hit the sack 
Life of coziness harvests nothing but a lack
So this worlds got a few bumps, but how else will you learn
A new experience awaits your every turn

So throw off the chains of easy
And mix up your routine
This life is all you'll live for
Make it somethin worth a mean
Stop being a wind up, just going through the day
Cause if your living a wind up, where will you wind up anyway


Scars are memories in a new form 
Bruises are just knowledge being born 
Sure burns may hurt for alittle bit 
Chances are though youve learned from it


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the white house

the violet flowers 
were brightest at dusk
surrounded by an unkept yard 
they built their own landscape 
coming only once a year 
after months of ice 
they bloomed from the ground 
only at this house 
the windows smashed 
the white paint peeling 
but there wasn't an empty feeling. 
the house; abandoned, yet not forgotten
...and the violet flowers 
  were something to mask 
  the terrible things 
  of the house's past.


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America

A shout
Lost in the night
A scream
Never heard
A cry
For help, destroyed
A plea
To save a life
A pull
A shot of a gun
A pop
As it crashes through skull
A death
An innocent slain
Because
America
The beautiful
Turns their head away
From the suffering
The helpless, the poor
To anyone
A life lost
Because of ignorance.


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A One-man Boat

Why do I strive so much in life
This heart of mine cease to refine
Of hope and love and tranquility
I give and give, yet scarcely receive 
It’s the heart that deceives
My Soul resides upon a mountain of misery

It shouts, its scream, yet high up above, as it seems
Away, away from mankind to care
At times like these I am at despair
Hoping, seeking and wishing to share
I speak my heart, my thoughts, and my mind….
Yet scarcely, do I dare to show this degree of misery
My essence is as thin as air…. 
If I hit mankind in the face
No mark, no remembrance, no trace shall I leave
No sweet- sour memories to reminisce upon
Its as if my very presences is provocative to mankind
They ask me kindly, oh please! Oh please! do leave, Save us time and disappear!
No one to care, no one to adhere to

I loved and laughed and lived and hoped and trusted in mankind
Yet from this day on shattered and stiff and deceived and depleted, is what, I now am 
I bare a load wrapped tight around my heart
That never seems to crack or break, 
No fitting key, no rock to break….
For my humble abode lies within my mountain of misery
Where I reside high up above from mankind
From; Hurt or pain or deception or greed
From this day on, to no one shall I heed
I fight my battles on my own
I sail upon a one-man boat


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A Question of Honor

Dedicated to Noor Al-Maleki You Try, You Try so hard To put Your will Over Me But I will Remain Free I am So Dirty and So Very Unclean So Please Condemn me Sentence Me The Crescent Is A Lie The One I shall Try To Defy Is it Just To Dispose What Has Dishonored You and Your Radical Views You Have set me Free, Can't You See I Won't have to face a Tyrant anymore Your gaze used to Stun But Now It Just Burns Under the Sun Never Enough to Be Myself Never Enough to Be Free I will not Bow to You I will not Kneel Before You Smothering Liberty Condoning Freedom This way is unjust This way only brings out our worse Hatred and Mistrust War and malice no know law You Try, You Try so hard to put Your will Over Me But I will Remain Free I am So Dirty and So Very Unclean So Please Condemn me Sentence Me The Crescent Is A Lie The One I shall Try To Defy Is Just To Dispose What Has Dishonored You and Your Radical Views I am The Flame you Greatly Hate I am The Flame you greatly fear Some cannot handle the truth It shows they are the Criminals You are one of them You're the problem This misdeed will not live on without the hate of your name Honor Is not real It's just an emotion that only you feel You're another bulwark Against the truth No one Will Bow No one Will Kneel You Try, You Try so hard to put Your will Over Me But I will Remain Free I am So Dirty and So Very Unclean So Please Condemn me Sentence Me The Crescent Is A Lie The One I shall Try To Defy Is it Just To Dispose What Has Dishonored You and Your Radical Views You Fear The Truth You Fear the reality you are the criminal against all humanity We must end these lies Before Honor Will Strike again You Try, You Try so hard to put Your will Over Me But I will Remain Free I am So Dirty and So Very Unclean So Please Condemn me Sentence Me The Crescent Is A Lie The One I shall Try To Defy Is it Just To Dispose What Has Dishonored You and Your Radical Views


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Black Widow

1 through the door
2 through your heart
3 through your head
4 colors in my eyes
Red, red, red

1 clash
2 rings
3 words
4 sirens
Shrieks of red, red, red

1 bed of white
2 saviors
3 men at my side
4 grievers
Tears of red, red, red

1 room of rock
2 rings around my wrist
3 eyes in my head
4 days before forever
Stains of red, red, red

1 room
2 sides
3 on one
4 on the other
Crying out red, red, red

1 decision
2 stabs of pain in my side
3 cries
4 smiles
The judge says red, red, red

1 boy
2 people
3 arguments
4 solutions
Mine was red, red, red


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Sugar Sick Sweet Lullabies

I had this dream last night and it was perfect 
It was everything I wanted my life to seem
So when I opened my eyes to this bright sunlight
I realized some things weren't the way that they should be

I put my feet into my shoes, which are old and dusty and 
I don't remember when they were ever clean
I ran around my town asking people for my purpose
And none of their answers seemed to fit alright

Come keep me at bay
Cause the world's spitting us all out one by one
And we've all sinned enough to know that we're gonna die someday

I've tried to be myself but I'm running low on health
To fight all those who tell me to be a certain way
Though I don't cry out my eyes every time that a stitch undoes itself
Cause nobody's gonna save you when can save yourself, darling

Even at a quarter after noon mothers are singing their babies 
Sugar sick sweet lullabies that I know all too well
Haven't you ever noticed the way that their voices crack 
When the child forgets the words and the tune stays with them alone?

Come keep me at bay
Cause the world's spitting us all out one by one
And we've all sinned enough to know that we're gonna die someday


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Dried and Browned

Together they fall and plunder,
Piling on in weightless wonder. 
The leaves and trees are far from what I fathomed--
Dried and browned in mortal sarcasm. 

Cold in warmth and warmth in rain;
Washing away the frozen stains.
Barren soil bears a fruitless yield
Dried and browned in the snowy fields.


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Fear of Free falling

Pounding against the shore
My heart beats 
Filling up my face, my hands, my cheeks with heat
Tears begin to role.
Tumbling down, like fireballs. 
Passionate …igniting, reviving as it goes
Why oh why! Am I at despair?
Vulnerable! Exposed! My heart stripped bare
An open book for you to read
Yet shaken up with despair I feel
The thunder of doubt begins to creep
Never have I embarked on this before
Yet unknowingly, deep down I yearn! I crave for more
A sea of contemplation, an abyss of hazy expectations
Pounding against the shore my heart beats
Filling my face, my cheeks, my hands…
As you go, with heat
Rising me to utmost crest 
Elevating higher then Mount Everest
Loving you more all the way
But yet! I dare not undrape my sentiments
For you, like others might not cradle them
For fear of freefalling
Yet….i hear your heart shrieking out my name 
Half shocked, half heart, I am to blame.


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GIVE ME

I want to make sure I’m not falling on my face...
And I`m willing to go the distance
And I want to bring back good memories...
I want to make sure
You`re safe and you`re in a safe place

But GIVE ME some space
Sometimes, I wake up...feeling so distressed
But GIVE ME your sweet grace
And we'll beat the race...and this pain we share will not be addressed

I don't want to be unsure - am I the one losing the race?
And I'm chilling in this heavenly place
And I need to trade you my apologies…
I don’t want to waste your time
You’re absolutely safe…as long as you keep pace 


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Paranormal Reality

Loud
No noise
Empty room
So full
Crowded
Not a body around
Speaking loudly
So much silence
Pretty
Ugly visions
Solid ceiling
No roof
Uknown place
Family room
Secrets told
Closed Mminds
Long dark hair
Bald heads
Flashing lights
No electricity
Lots of whispers
No voices
Broken mirror
Right hand on left
Other side
Confusion
Concentration
Normal
Abnormal
Boy
Girl
Alive
DEAD


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Run Away

Call the sickness out from under you,
Tell the people what is really true.
Know the pain that you all might feel,
But see the comfort in the truth revealed.

Run away, baby, run away.
Tell the world another day.
Run away, darling, run away.
Take a chance at another day.

Call the pain out from inside you,
Tell it all that you’re strong too.
Don’t let the sorrow come over you,
When you know that they’re with you too.

Run away, baby, run away.
Get away from this awful place.
Run away, darling, run away.
In the chance you’ll miss the pain.

Call the strength that dwells in you,
Tell it that, its time for truth.
Bring out your love that helps you through,
It’s time for you to be happy too.

Run away baby, run away.
Its easier if you leave this place.
Run away, darling, run away.
Lose yourself by it all again.

Call the lies out from that part of you,
Time for everyone to hear the truth.
Don’t let the fear control you,
When you know what you need to do.

Run away, baby, don’t run away.
It’s harder now if you stay.
But don’t run away...


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On the Cusp of Something Greater

Back at home lazing like a bum
Like the doctor told me to do
A broken record sings its stilted tune
Never getting onto something new

Wonder what it's going to be like
When I'm back on my feet again
On the cusp of something greater now
And I feel like I could use a friend

Holding onto life
The way it used to be
Make it so I gotta let go
So won't you be a friend of mine?

Now she's heading to another place
So far away I couldn't hope to go
Do I take her with me when I've got
Nowhere to call my own?

On the cusp of something greater now
Some bigger than I've ever known
Life's not turning out the way I planned
And I'm scared I'm gonna be alone

Don't let me let this go
I'm not ready to advance
Baby, cling to me though I cannot see
How we're gonna make it out alive

I'm doping up with TV and games
To escape the grim reality
I wish I could get up and run
Somewhere that's nice and clear to see

I wanna stare out at the setting sun
Sinking down beneath the waves of trees
On the cusp of something greater now
It's a lie that I may believe

It's almost time to go
And never look on back
Won't you take my hand, baby it'd be grand
If you'd always stay a friend of mine


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Hit 'em Hard And hit 'em Fast for Star Craft II video game

The Tal-Dareem are fighting-mad;
They've realized they've just been had.
Expect soon Zealots and Stalkers,
Immortals and those "cliff walkers".
What matter's most: who's standing last,
So hit 'em hard and hit 'em fast.

Carriers and Voids will fill the sky,
And Dark Templars may be sneakin' by.
Double the turrets, add more bunkers--
Fill them with Marines and Marauders.
What matters most: who's standing last,
So hit 'em hard and hit 'em fast!

Jim's Raiders' troops will soon be back;
Get ready to counter-attack!
So train more Reapers for rear missions:
Sneak around back, take out their pylons.
Make sure we're the ones left standing last.
Just hit 'em hard and hit 'em fast.


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Starlight

Screaming,
Going insane,
Dreaming,
Stays in my brain.

It's raining,
And I can't make it stop.
I'm bleeding,
And i can't make it stop.

Starlight in the moonlights,
And you are in my sight,
And you won't go away.
Starlight in my dreams,
All the clues have no leads,
And the pain here to stay...

Now if I can just find him,
Everything would be clear,
All the pain will dim,
And he would be here.

The kisses would come true,
Please come out of my dreams,
The starlight won't be blue,
And I won't scream.

Starlight in the moonlights,
And you are in my sight,
And you won't go away.
Starlight in my dreams,
All the clues have no leads,
And the pain here to stay...

He is another dream,
But I will keep searching,
My Elijah come to me,
And you and I will see.


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Indian burial ground

The Indian rounds the corner of the room
Seeing the sadness through the eyes of a girl
There are a lot of things about this world that we don't know 
the truth behind humanity the heartbeat of ones last breathe
or the pain one suffers mentally 

I don't even know if people can see the truth
Or if they shut themselves out of the real and into the fake
We all know the fakness of what a human can put off
We all know the sickness one stores inside their skull
Can we all see what's going on? this day I see some that are still blind
 some that are so blind they can not imagine! 

The things one can do
The things one may hide

A life filled with questioning
A life full of hate and despair 
A life of several lies
A life with no reason of existing

A series of depression
A time of regret
A worry of fear 

A fear of ourselves 

An unwritten book with no pen to write with

Voice of reason


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Trapped

A prisoner of darkness
Was all I could be.
Trapped and alone inside
Along a blackened sea
No one to hold me
To keep me alive
Completely abandoned
No reason to survive.

Then there was a light
Small but getting brighter
It drowned out the darkness
And made me a fighter. . .
Before i'd go with everything
And let them chain me down
Now I start to question them
I start to keep my ground.

Why should I let them stab me?
And see my blood run free
There's a reason that I need to live
To let myself be me.
No one holds me down
Without paying a price.
Why should they anger me
Then expect me to be nice?

I now... Have a beating heart
And a gleam in my eyes
Someone to kiss and hug me
And keep my soul alive.


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America

Maybe your the land of the free
land of liberty and slavery
do what we want you to and dont throw a fit
suck it boy get over it

Land of liberty but can be arranged
still the land we call a cage
if you can make it away from the norm
just dont forget of the form

we want you!! x6

no one can heal our scars
better pray to the stripes and stars
put the rest in the past
say hello to the new low class

our soil is not complete
this land is guillotine
let out filth build up for all this time
fill yourself with american pride

we want you!! x6


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Creep

This whole thing is just a lie
I thought I'd be different if I tried
This boredom is just a state of mind
But at least it keeps me safe when I hide
Somewhere I could try to avoid this pain
But its still killing me just the same

I sit and wonder what my life could have been
My eyes begin to bleed as I find myself back here again
Now that I fear that this feeling is overcoming my only hope again
Now that I feel that this fear is only the calm before the storm begins

Lowering myself to lost
My thoughts have been wandering for days
Too tired to sleep 
So just try to stay awake
As I sit here and think 
That I am just a Creep
But am I all that I will ever be?

Shadows dance accross the room 
Leading me to a window down the hall 
A voice from deep inside me echoes
As if my thoughts are trapped within these walls
Now that my calm is lost it's warning time for the storm to begin
Now that my fear has cost me everything that I would hope to find love in again

I will undo -
Everything I am connected to
Watch it slip away
Fade away
With these tired eyes I will see it through
Shed this dead skin and find life in new
As You begin changing me 
Everything that I have made of me


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Euphorianah

The sapphire-dust sun of what-were dreams
Swallow the scene, setting In the forsaken east
All I see, all I know fades into the reaper's monotone grey 
Death come near me, by my only choice 
My wintry desperation subdued, clings to they silent voice
The dusk reveals my truest nature before her blank argentine eyes
Life; the darkest of all tragedies, Romances' malady
Let me feel your breath in this frozen air
Your pulse shorter than ever
Despair's void grows inside me
Without, you I will live no longer

Forever with me you will stay
The darkness caressing means as I lay by thy grave 
Hatred no longer exits
Come back to me
Euphorianah

My Angel, why did you fly so far away
My Angel, let just one feather stay
My Angel has flown away

The winterwinds' tears fall on me
With whispers of you, someone I once knew
No matter in a dream or reality
Sweet tranquillity, stay with me
Calming the fears within
But the pain remains

The silvemoon's fears shine on you
Thine eyes search for mine
Oh how they shine, so deathly blue
If sacrifice needs a price
The dagger shows-
Heaven is calling us tonight

Forever with me you will stay
The darkness caressing means as I lay by thy grave 
Hatred no longer exits
Come back to me
Euphorianah

My Angel, why did you fly so far away
My Angel, let just one feather stay
My Angel has flown away

Covered in shadowy illusions 
Shall we dance?
Death will be lie dominion
You are my only queen
Euphorianah

Forever with me you will stay
The darkness caressing means as I lay by thy grave 
Hatred no longer exits
Come back to me
Euphorianah

My Angel, why did you fly so far away
My Angel, let just one feather stay
My Angel has flown away

Just let me die
If I cannot see
Euphorianah 
This night 


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Letter From A Friend

Dear Friend
Why you wondering where we stand? 
Me and you are tighter
Then the ying yang we make with our hands
I know we’re far apart
But a call brings us back together
No matter the hour of the day
And no matter the type of weather forever
But I’m glad
You came to me first
Each time I read your letter
It hurts me even worse
Because I see us more than friends
We’re bothers in the Lord
So if you are hurting
Then I am hurting even more
You can always count on me
When your world is going wrong
I will never turn my back on you
Even if my back is against the wall
And I know it’s not easy to tell our moms
When it’s hard for us to stand
What do they know about military life? 
Or the struggle for a military man? 
Don’t be shy
Because there’s something we all do fear
If I had the chance to switch services
You know I’ll be right there
And I am not brave
I wanna be the friend you can lean on
you said I can calm you down
well I also wanna keep you Army strong
death isn’t nothing
but the devil getting to you
keep believing in God
he will give a path to make it through dude
jus so you know
I’m here I’m always around
you’ve been trained good
so take a step back and calm down
and when you come home
we’re going to party like when we was kids
and laugh at all the stupid things
we ever did
keep your head up
because this is where it has to end
yours truly P.S.
you’re my number one friend


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Shine

I caught the ghost train
back to the house of pain
where she was waiting
standing naked in the rain.
I felt her warm breath
as she whispered a kiss.
Last thing i remember,
i was half way to my bliss.
and she said shine, shine, shine in the dark.
and i said shine, shine, shine light a spark,
and she said shine, shine, shine through the grey.
and i said shine shine shine your light away.

I felt all the faces 
staring back at me.
I felt so paro as i 
floated through this sea.
Halfway there i
decided i could run away.
But when i turned around
i was going the same way.
and she said shine, shine, shine in the dark.
and i said shine, shine, shine light a spark,
and she said shine, shine, shine through the grey.
and i said shine shine shine your light away.

I closed my eyes to listen
as the tears forgot to fall.
Silence screamed out answers
but i forgot them all.
Now can you hear me
as i never find my way,
to a place i can't remember
or a place i'd like to stay.
and she said shine, shine, shine in the dark.
and i said shine, shine, shine light a spark,
and she said shine, shine, shine through the grey.
and i said shine shine shine your light away.


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It all comes back

Everything comes back

To all who’ve acted cold
Here’s a message loud and bold
Be careful what you do, it all comes back
What you be doing now
It will pay you back somehow
Somewhere further on along the track.

One does not need no books
Of old and dusty looks
To learn this truth, just take a look at life
All those bad moves you have made
Do they ever really fade
Be honest, don’t they cause your mind some strife?

It be wrote within your heart
To make good things a part
Of life, the value seems to be quite high
Yet do another wrong
The comebacks can be strong
You have to learn this truth before you die

When you’re young, you never learn
You might not feel concern
There be no time to feel those pangs of guilt
Yet the damage you have done
Like a flower in the sun
Might someday cause your heart to sadly wilt.


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Slow To Heal

Visible defect Variation Soothing effect As my fingertips Run over this formation Through hills and dips Passing pain Now a conversation piece These wash away with the rain These One day will Cease Internal rips And tears Shadowed Stitched with care Only to be shredded Again Slow to heal If only it was let alone And you wouldn't hammer In the sin Full of chagrin Confidence blown I'd rather Show you my scars My skin shattered Then you discover my wounds Ruined Can't keep the seal So slow to heal


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Man In The Mirror

That man, who is that?
He looks weird with that face, flat
Why does it feel like mine?
Why doesn't he look fine?
Is that a reflection of me?
Impossible, can't be!
To him, let me try to talk
Maybe even take a walk
This man I need to understand
Where's he from? What land?
I start to ask questions
To him, they sound like rejections
Yet, he never answered
He only felt flattered
After me he did repeat
All the questions, till I admit defeat
He looked at me with an evil smile
Stared at me for a while
I didn't know what action to take
This unpleasant feeling, I had to shake
I know I got to be strong
Must understand, no matter how long
I have to wait
Patience is a good trait
Maybe he'll fade away
And for sure I'm going to stay
All that didn't seem to matter
His image would never shatter
I try to find a place to hide
To him, my secrets I can't confide
Yet, he knows them all
Every detail, no matter how small
It creeps me out
I want to scream and shout
But people would think I'm insane
Even if I make my story plain
No one would believe me
For I'm the only one who can see
That man and his weird eyes
They’re colored with lies
Scanning every detail
Always without fail
I tried to read his emotions
My trials were met with demotions
Please stranger just leave
My misery, why can you not weave?
There he is, standing still
Chaining my free will
An image never getting clearer
That is the man in the mirror


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HOW CAN A BIRD THAT WAS BORN FOR JOY SIT IN A CAGE AND SING

The Cage is so dark and so misty, I can hardly breathe there.
The words that echo there are so melancholic and appalling,
The Voices can only whisper as if they are strangled by Fear.
How can a bird that was born for joy, sit in a cage and sing!

The constellations of night, the luminescence of rainforest,
The infinite azure sky, the crimson horizon, the cozy pond,
The ocean, the stony mountains, even the shady bird-nest,
Everything summons my Heart but still it cannot respond.

My Heart is a song bird that is imprisoned in an inner Cage.
How can a bird that was born for joy, sit in a cage and sing!
Let my Heart fly towards liberty, breaking bars of bondage
So that it can sing in a merry tune again by flapping its wing.


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WHY DREAMING YOU IS A NIGHTMARE

I see you in my dreams, not as a comfort,
Not as an emancipation but as a nightmare.
Those discarded recollections rapidly retort
With dreadful visions that endlessly glare.

I wonder why dreaming you is a nightmare.
Perhaps, I do not possess enough memories
Of you, besides, the good ones are very rare.
My Subconscious visualizes myriad stories.

I shut eyes and try to break my dreamy cage.
Going in a trance, I behold you, I sense you
But opening eyes, I realize that it’s a mirage,
My nightmarish wishes evaporate like dew.


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TONIGHT

Tonight

It seems we can talk for hours
And never find a solution
It’s so late, but I’m wide awake
Within my mind a revolution
In the middle with no way out
Only time tells the story
I am part of the cast, but can I last
Will I live to share the glory?

Tonight, the world ceases to turn
Tonight, I see how much I must learn
Tonight, I’m facing reality
Tonight, there’s nothing to set me free

It’s times like these I must survive
Make it through the night
Watch for the sun, it’s sure to come
To turn things around and make them right
The birds have started singing
A sign morning is on the way
I still need to dream
Or will I wake with a scream on the new day

Tonight, the world ceases to turn
Tonight, I see how much I must learn
Tonight, I’m facing reality
Tonight, there’s nothing to set me free

I’ve seen the top of the world
And it’s higher up than I’ve ever been
But I’ve been through the longest, darkest nights
Caught in a web of sin
Now I’m somewhere in between
I reach for the top but I’m pulled back down
I don’t believe some of the things I’ve seen
I don’t know if tomorrow will ever come around

For right now, I’m frightened
Someone show me how 
To fight off the pain
That runs through my brain tonight…


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The World's Gone Crazy

Seems as the day of end draws near
That humanity begins to fall apart
Bring about a prophecy
That you want to avoid but instead you start

The world's gone crazy and we all suffer
At the hands of the armed

Mentally screwed, armed to the teeth
The bodies fall upon your feet
It's like a virus that's slowly spreading
One that the sane are always dreading

That day, God was a man
Who was far too gone to understand
Took several lives into his hand and crushed them down
When will the tragedies end?

We suffer, all too scared to step outside lest we are killed
The world's gone crazy, that we all can see
We pray for the lives lost and pray ours don't go unfulfilled
The world's gone crazy, we don't want to see


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Bipolar - The Revised Lyric

Here is the finished revised Lyric for Bipolar. The song can be heard at my poetry website vbdosa.com and then clicking the Bipolar link.
     BIPOLAR
Sometimes I can feel a magic like I've never known.
I could run a thousand miles. Run a thousand miles.
Sometimes it's more like I'm dying here all alone.
Sometimes I think I'll die alone.

Sometimes I can reach out for you, but you're made of stone.
I could die a thousand times. Die a thousand times.
Sometimes it's more like you're showing me I'm not alone.
Sometimes I think I'm not alone.

Euphoria. Up and down. In and out.
Up and down. Euphoria.

Sometimes I can feel a magic like you've never known.
I could run a thousand miles. Run a thousand miles.
Sometimes it's more like you're showing me I'm not alone.
Sometimes I think I'm not along.

Up and down. In and out.
Up and down. In and out.
Euphoria. Then I'm down. Down. Down.
Euphoria. Then I'm down. Down. Down.
© ron wison


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For All My Pain

Your blood is what was Sacrificed And in Blood we Shall Bathe No more pain nor more hate Will be shed for me ...This is only a desperate dream A slight tender touch on the largest of wounds can leave you screaming for an eternity Dreaming of an escape, A friend from a figment of dark a world from the abyss of my mind Set to fix all of your transgressions Every time you left, abandoned, stranded, forget me A human heart has a limit but It's only I who is left to blame Drifting beyond Aphelion Why must the loudest of Cries Go unheard Maybe You'll know why I want Thagirion to Answer my Masked Prayers For All My Pain Constraining Me Making my Saturnine Mind Climb to the Apex Just to Fall again Maybe You'll know why I want Thagirion to answer all of my masked prayers For All My Pain Everyone turning against me I can't keep living a lie like this Lost In Life When death is the only hope Nothing is left to stay But the Fear of being afraid Let me lose this Let me enter another world Drifting beyond Aphelion Why must the loudest of Cries Go unheard Maybe You'll know why I want Thagirion to Answer my Masked Prayers For All My Pain Constraining Me Making my Saturnine Mind Climb to the Apex Just to Fall again Maybe You'll know why I want Thagirion to answer all of my masked prayers For All My Pain Drifting beyond Aphelion Why must the loudest of Cries Go unheard Maybe You'll know why I want Thagirion to Answer my Masked Prayers For All My Pain Constraining Me Making my Saturnine Mind Climb to the Apex Just to Fall again Maybe You'll know why I want Thagirion to answer all of my masked prayers For All My Pain


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Uncertain

Uncertain

Uncertain
of what i will attain
is the state am in.
I mean
I don't know how fast i will flow
in the snow of life
or fly high in the vast sky
of life,
because i fear to see clear,
because i fear to advance near.
Oh uncertain 
of what i will attain
is the state am in.


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Dig Up Stupid

You're degrading yourself You're only digging deeper This grave you've made for yourself You're your own tormentor Why don't you help yourself? Climb out of this hole Stop hurting yourself Fix your sad soul Look at this mess you've made Was it really worth The pain you payed Just for such A vapid Touch One more One more touch Dig up stupid Don't try and right the wrong The damage is done Silence the song You can't run From a list so long The eyes are watching The diverse Became the same Why can't I keep my hands from latching Onto what was never mine? Look at this mess you've made Was it really worth The pain you payed Just for such A vapid Touch One more One more touch Dig up stupid Dig up


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Waking Up In a Dream

Caged out inside herself The dark light will never shine Why do you care to think negative If you'd care to think at all? Can you believe I wanted to be you? The dream faded long ago Once I realized it was me whom was right; prudence redeemed Your thoughts were wrong Why would you ever try someone that is less than you Someone that could never contend Directly to the end? My ashes turn dark Suffering from the sins of others No melody can save me I'm crossing the borderline Waking up in a dream Is it justified To harm others Only to break your insecurities To fill your prejudice I wish I could know Why you do this The words freeze when the come to me To burn another was they set into you Relapsed again I was left bleeding Cause I'm not good enough if I can be me You were the dream; I was the nightmare Serendipity came for me And I woke up in a dream My ashes turn dark Suffering from the sins of others No melody can save me I'm crossing the borderline Waking up in a dream My ashes turn dark Suffering from the sins of others No melody can save me I'm crossing the borderline Waking up in a dream Say oh, I must say, to you, Mon plus Cher ami Yes to you I'm sorry I had an opinion I'm sorry I felt for one who can't feel I'm sorry I wasn't you I'm sorry I can only be me I'm sorry your dread words will never again be heard by me My ashes turn dark Suffering from the sins of others No melody can save me I'm crossing the borderline Waking up in a dream My ashes turn dark Suffering from the sins of others No melody can save me I'm crossing the borderline Waking up in a dream


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Powerless

Powerless (Dark Clichés)


In a rage, in disarray, I can't help but feel this pain
I start the page again, stray the path again, on the road I go insane
Hide from myself, hide from everybody else as well
I hear the voices telling me that I must turn and walk away
Face the truth in the mirror, face the reflection of your fear
The mirror black, and all of life's dark clichés intact
I am powerless to fight

Caught in the undertow, like an anchor pulling down
I am stuck in the mire, and I'm tired of the endless struggle to meet each need
Conflicting interests and I'm alone to resolve the conflict
Find solutions to problems, the roots of which reach further than I am able
Demons rise to face me, eye to eye I am no match
How little I will fight if they want me

I've reached a point in my life where uncertainty rules the day
One moment to the next, I am here, I am there, really nowhere 
In between the right and left, the right and wrong
I don't fit in or belong in this state of fallen grace
Face the truth in the mirror, face the reflection of your fear
The mirror black, and all of life's dark clichés intact
I am powerless to fight....


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A Road to Nowhere

A road to nowhere A picturesque scene of trees turning bare Fresh autumn scents filling the air And a young woman on a journey traveling from here to there With a slow, steady pace and tapping shoes She creates an east rhythm to hum along to Walking along, not a care in the world Living her life, and living it well The cool crisp air softly blowing at her knees Coming throughout the autumn trees For a moment it almost seems Things aren't really ever as bad as they tend to seem Soaking in the last bit of light with a peaceful flow She passes along the last few trees with golden leaves shinning abode The now setting sun begins to give off a warm orangey red glow Setting off her long blonde hair as it moves to and fro Then out of the gleaming sky Fighting her rising fear from deep with inside Her heartbeat quickens, as she tries keeping a steady stride Hairs prickling up upon her neck, a raven screeches as it swoops by The absence oh heat, so abrupt Leaves her with chills, so corrupt Touching her soul as if almost freezing up Upon her face lay a perfect cut A gush of wind cuts across her chest And her forehead quickly covers with little beads of sweat Just as she's starting to fear she can't go on She twirls and turns then starts to run She whirls around but falls to her knees Blood slowly dripping down from her cheek The raven appears with an open beak Ans lets out a bloodcurdling screech "Raven, Raven, oh please don't die!" She laughs And looks upon the bird with a menacing smile Then lets out a satisfying sigh "Just please don't die" She gracefully stands with blood-lust filled eyes Her tapping shoes carrying her off into the night Her Raven black hair rocking to and fro And off down the road to nowhere she goes
Inspired by The Raven by Edgar Allen Poe


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My Darkest Place

Covered with ashes
No way to see through the smoke and fog
The ground is hard and the grass is blackened
There are no buildings
No air among us
No blue skies to heal the pain
No light to see your path
The flowers scattered like clouds
There is no living thing around
You you have defend for yourself
The only time you can visit is in your sleep
The land is cold
The river is filled with blood
The sea is filled with tears
The area is surronded by broken trees and flames
To much of your liking you find a cabin
The cabin is filled with skulls and bones
You step in cracking the bones as you take a step
The door closes as you find yourself in a different place
The room takes you to a hot place
Filled with scary things as you only see in your dreams
Only this is no longer a dream this is reality
This has become your life


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Why Can't I

Why cant I just say these words?
Why cant I shout it out?
I've never been so afraid to say it, But I mean it so much that it hurts.
What's wrong with me? Whats happening?
This aint ever happened before.
So why cant i say what Im feeling?
Its so damn frustrating!
I dont know how, but I wanna say it out loud,
I guess im afraid
i'll scare him away,.... or he'll bust up in a laugh.
I know he cares for me, his heart is big,
But he may not feel the same about me as I do him.
But thats okay, until im old,
But right now i feel like im gonna explode.
Why cant I just say these words?
Why cant I shout it out?
I've never been so afraid to say it, But I mean it so much that it hurts.
I dont know how, but I wanna say it out loud,
I guess im afraid
i'll scare him away,
What's wrong with me? Whats happening?
This aint ever happened before.
So why cant i say what Im feeling?
Its so.. damn........ frustrating..... *sigh*


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Into Many Lifetimes

In this lifetime the bond is blood
But these wounds go back eons
We hurt at something seemingly small
But the game of pain 
Has a Great Fall of Fame
Into many lifetimes

Whether we choose to see what is
Our reality is this moment
Or taste disastrous recipes of loathing
The gift of the present is to forgive
As He forgave us
Into many lifetimes

If your promise was to show me pain
I felt the deep pangs of that sadness
And accept what is 
Let’s leave judgment at the doormat
Love requires integrity
Into many lifetimes

I choose forgiveness
For no person is innocent
Like water under the bridge
But when I stare at the water
It doesn’t seem to move
Into many lifetimes

To truly forgive is to allow Being
Release brings evaporation of rooted ego 
Forgiveness is the only way
The Truth and the Life
Created with cobblestones of love 
Into many lifetimes

I forgive myself for my shortcomings
I release my fears and disappointments
This lopsided backpack of pain is too heavy
I forgot I could put it down! 
As I walk the next path
Into many lifetimes


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Joy

Lingering whispers fester in her head,
Secrets and memories roll down her cheek.
She is aching to be heard,
Yet the pins
In her lips
Won't let
Her 
Speak.

One day she opens her window,
Warmth flooding her dead eyes;
Her skin aglow
And smile blooming,
"I'm finally 
Free!"
She
Cries.


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Beyond An Angel's Wings

Confusion is a different place. When you're not confused anymore, You feel empty, But when you're confused, You feel terrible. This is my story. ------------------------------------------------------------------------- Confusion spreads through your body, When the lights are going dim. You, now, know he likes you. But you're in love with him. But what if I'm wrong? What it's dead? What if you were just, Messed up in the head? You thought you were beyond the angel's wings. But it might turn out, That it was only a dream. All the evidence proves to it, Even some witnesses. What if it was just a joke? I'll never know... But what if I'm wrong? What it's dead? What if you were just, Messed up in the head? You thought you were beyond the angel's wings. But it might turn out, That it was only a dream. Dreams fly out into the sky. You see them there, And now you want to cry. He comes to you and wipes away that tear. The only thing is that he isn't even here. But what if I'm wrong? What it's dead? What if you were just, Messed up in the head? You thought you were beyond the angel's wings. But it might turn out, That it was only a dream. Until I find out, This song will never end. I guess for now, He's just a friend...


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These Salty Waves Pt 1

What am I supposed to think? What am I supposed to say? All these lies you bottled up come sweeping, crashing with the tides. My footing's gone, the ocean real, but how am I supposed to feel? And here I am, a drowning mess, a loveless lie, I do protest. And here I am a drowning mess. So all those things you said to me? Where they just lies out of pity? So all those things you said to me? Or am I lost in salty waves? Yes I know my future's grave. Or am I lost in salty waves?And now the panic in my head, when I should be tucked up in your bed, reels and reels right here instead.I'm going down, a sinking ship, funny what name drips off my lips. It is not God, or Angles plenty, or even that I'm just damn ready To let go of the hell and the lies. I'm wishing for your gentle eyes. Or at least the way they always seemed, but perhaps that's just this salty dream. I have no clue what I'm to do! A drowning hopeless mess, for you-- think it's cute, and oh so funny, but here's the bitter truth now honey. I'm going down. There is no help. I can't be saved by God himself. I put my life, my whole world of trust, and you've thrown it away for lust. Well what the hell's a girl to do? I'm just so entranced by you!


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The Struggle

Strain 
On my back
This burden
Will burst my veins
The strength to hold on
I lack
Can't shield the attack

I shake
Under the weight
Keep throwing the bricks
Until my soul is sick
Create my fate
Laugh when I cry
And dance when I die

Venom filled words
Burn through the porcelain
Stabbing the sword
Deeper in blood red skin
The hiss
Fills my ears
Hit
Miss
One more sear
More burning tears

Death will come
Victory for the meek
Can't help but succumb
To the power you seek

We stand tall
A power so great
You've become so small
No room for your hate
Our scars erased
By the one deserving
The highest place


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ill see you in hell

Let me leave this world of curses, 
  broken hearts and dreams
Let me run till i have no breath,
  and no pulse.
give me cold metal,
  push it to my head and pull the trigger.
Give me a blade that'll 
  slice my heart out so i can no longer feel love.
Give me a lighter that'll
  burn my skin 
   so that none look at me again.
Give me a needle 
  to stab myself over and over again.
Let me bleed till no blood is left in me

Don't try and stop me,
  you know it wont work,
your damage has been done.
Just leave me to my own will.
I'll see you in hell.


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why didnt they kill me?

scars have the power to remind us that the past is real-"hanibal lector"




why didnt they kill me... why am i still here...
being successfull is my goal...but being flat broke is my biggest fear 
the pain is far to great to hide, laying awake, wide eyed, contimplateing suicide
what is my purpose? and if i stay alive, would it be worth it? 
will i make somthing of myself? or maybe i should just forfit, 
my one wish is to not have to worry, and to all those i've disapointed, i gave up, and im sorry. 
a strong man is what people think of me, 
but deep down inside, a child is what i aim to be, 
because you see, a child, so carefree, 
doesnt worry about the downsides to the world, 
only the fun things God lets them see....please, one day set me free, 
take me away, 
from this hurt filled life that i lead, 
i plead and plead for someone to rescue me, 
but when i look in the mirror, what is it that i see? 
a broken down child, crying on both knees. 
this life gives no mercy, and only the strong survive,
how will my family react...in the event of my demise 
i pray no one cries for me, because i am in a better place, 
i've rid myself of the bitter pain, sadness and disgrace 
maybe if i get another chance, my demons ill see face to face 
but for now i walk through the valley of death, a sad, cold, and bitter place
hoping after this valey ill see heavens smiles and grace
but i fear that my mistakes will lead me to the devils ugly face 
so many mistakes i can never erase, u only get one chance,
so my advice is to seise the day
i've tried...i've prayed and prayed, but the pain still wont go away
day after day, my life i want to take away...but even that i fail to do
so night after night ill lay
in bed awake but dreaming, of the day my pain goes away...


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Hyper vigilant

this surface thin brittle
teased tinkling ice...

memories interwoven...
heavily draped wisely
entrapped...

delicately arranged...
fragile inner-childhood fear...

bemused...many triggers...
continuous happy tiny moments...
interrupted...by casual slaying dread...

trifle chilly moments...echos
to this very day...her spirit...hid 
under her bed...in her wardrobe...
the child hid to play...

her triggers aware alert intuitive...
she trusts her inner rescuer...

the source will sound the bell...

survival mode she does well...
wears her finest mask to hide
from hell...

this life she accepts...no longer
denies...she stokes her flames
deep inside...

her lover knows of her pain...
a pain this deep one cannot 
change...

...I will fight to send them back...
...to silence them...with my emotions
intact...

without this threat of demise...
happiness evades...and divides...

this life...I strive...this entered damage...this enigma...I carry
within my chore...

my conscience...my survival will
not allow me to ignore...

this truth...your failure...your fears
my fears...I have chosen to confront...
yet my fear chooses to elude... 

...for this mother daughter love
you gave me...I traded it all 
for truth...

...for I did not want the same...
...I did not want to ever become
like you...


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Haunting

Every night I go to bed,
And you always end up inside my head,
I can't take a single breath,
With your figure beside my bed.

Now I can't sleep,
Your voice keeps kissing me,
And I can't dream,
With you beside me.

You're gone,
But you keep haunting me.
Everywhere I go,
You're right behind me.
You're driving me insane,
Because your voice is haunting my brain.

And I am bleeding.
All these signs,
I thought were leading,
Are just a bunch of,
Lies...

You take my breath away.
Boy.
But I am just shame to you.
Boy.
I can't take this anymore.
Boy.
My body has just hit the floor!

You're gone,
But you keep haunting me.
Everywhere I go,
You're right behind me.
You're driving me insane,
Because your voice is haunting my brain.

I can't take this,
Haunting.
It continues to,
Scare me.
I'm so scared I'm,
Crying.
And I don't want to take this,
Everything I wanted,
Is gone.

You're gone,
But you keep haunting me.
Everywhere I go,
You're right behind me.
You're driving me insane,
Because your voice is haunting my brain.

Dreams are dreamt.
I'm just not so content.
With myself anymore.
And this,
Haunting,
Has,
Killed me...


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Miss Mayhem

Nymphomania Is all she can grant you along with a well spent night This femme fatale isn't something A man can't handle A sex-fiend straight from the chamber of Satan A desire so strong It won't ever feel wrong A mistress of melancholy She took over my soul The amphetamine addiction Of her deadly embrace Her sweet poisonous grace Her heroin laced lips Oh how her venom drips All beware of a sensual destruction The comely fatal femme This sexual gem Stay away from miss mayhem Disaster is what she is A taste of her could make you leave All other vices and loves Would you ever think of the price For an eternity you'll be condemne dEven just for one night with miss mayhem This vamp of pain all life she will drain, this is addicting whore Is all you will adore Exciting and erotic Using all fetishes against your soul Your wife will surely lament From this dreadful strife A mistress of melancholy She took over my soul The amphetamine addiction Of her deadly embrace Her sweet poisonous grace Her heroin laced lips Oh how her venom drips All beware of a sensual destruction The comely fatal femme This sexual gem Stay away from miss mayhem A plague of pleasure The flead rats couldn't even measure Against the scourge of men A mistress of melancholy She took over my soul The amphetamine addiction Of her deadly embrace Her sweet poisonous grace Her heroin laced lips Oh how her venom drips All beware of a sensual destruction The comely fatal femme This sexual gem Stay away from miss mayhem


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Dreaming In My Reality

Breathing so hard
Mind racing fast
Where the hell am I?
That's all I can ask
Unfamiliar faces
Way too familiar pain
Same ass picture
In an unfamiliar frame
My vision is blurry
But, Temporarily becomes clear 
No matter the clarity
Im still drowning in fear
Lack of understanding
Searching for a clue
Wait, this is a dream
So what should I do
I control this scene
That's at least thats what i thought
I pushed and I shoved
I yelled as I fought
He's trying to keep me
He wont let me escape
My eyes wont open
Its as if they were sealed with tape
I feel like I'm in a episode of a twisted "Criminal Minds"
I see whats happening
At the the same time I'm still blind
I find myself somewhere different every single time
O lord please wake me up 
Now your seriously playing with my mind.
Now they are laughing at me as if this dream was all real
Whats this misleading concept
Whats the freakin deal?
Sweat now soaking my pillow
My eyes somehow unlatched
Looking around in a dark room
Felt like I was just in a crash
I must get up and walk this dream away
It felt so real as if my reality contained this dismay
Cold water against my skin and a prayer on the side
That's only thing that would rid my dangerous illusions
No longer did i want to fight.
Why these reoccurring dreams?
What is my reality trying to say?
Until i figure out this puzzle 
All I can do is pray

Kioshi Love <3



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The Other Side

A two pedal flower
growing in a meadow
no one around to watch
the growth of such a wonderful thing

The infinite nature of outer space
A soul left to wander the great world
your first maybe last trip away from home

In the deepest part of my mind
sits the keeper of the world
In the mind of another
sits the darkness we all seek

A shadow which is always with us
We fall on our way to the light
getting further off track
and closer to the darkness

The secret of the womens face on the moon
what does she know that we dont?
the wilderness the other side of the world
i have left to see.

once again i will be one with nature
one with the angels
and one with freedom


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Trepidation

My head is spinning my heart is racing
I think of you, I think of her
I just don’t know what to do
My heart is torn in two - my mind is so confused
I think about the ocean and the moon
There is so much to see and so far away
I’m drowning, I can’t breathe, I can’t see
I lay at the bottom of the sea; I try to reach for the moon
I want to hold you, I want to hold her
I fear your love I fear her love 
I fear my future with you – with her
					without you, without her
But I can’t feel, I can’t see, I can’t breathe
It s too much for me It’s too much for you  
It’s too much for her
My head is spinning my heart is racing
I feel no pain, I feel no emotion,
I feel the warmth, I feel the cold
I feel the wind that is beneath my soul
I’m soaring, I’m running, I’m just so damn confused
What do I do about her, what do I do about you
I can’t I won’t I am too weak
Nothing is in reach - Nothing is in sight
I chose this path of uncertainty 
                               Of misguided love
			    Of broken promises
              				 Broken hearts            


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A New Path

This is my life
And I do not fear it
This is my path
And I am proud of it

The world has been cold these days
The life I lived before was killing my faith
But I know I have to move away
To live a path that I believed each day

The colours does not seem the same
My words turning colder each time I speak
Although my obstacles remained unchanged
But it is the answer I am supposed to seek

Great challenges ahead of me
And I do not fear anymore
This is my Life, my Battle
I am the captain of this War

Fate do not control me
Because I control Fate
It is not the World I am to Blame
But the decisions that I have to make

None shall come in my way
None shall possessed my strength
I am unique and strong
I am the only one who determines myself

My Fallen bears my weakness
My Heart bears my Faith
Each time the Dawn Breaks
A New path Lies Ahead

This is my life
I have No Fear of it at all
This is my destiny
The Path which Fate had given me
To where I Rise and Fall


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Got Glue to the Lungs

Murders in Utah, Using Glue in lungs by upstairs neighbors

is this the work of and over active mine (mind)
should i call the who?
or should i call the what?
bam-sham-a-dam
the is so fudged-up,  all the way up
and i don't won't to get messed up
but it seems someone, gotsa to go
and it look like its gotsa, to be me...

so long cruel world
you fudge-en suck
and i've got, the hell to go
where its said to be always hot
don't worry i will save you a nice
red hot spot.
with all the fans you will every need
the ones who will watch all the things
i thought up waiting to bring you to
your screaming singing knees...    

so here to me i gave more than i got
and i got very little for the world
but pain and misery  
but they took millions from me!    

so when you spend all your money
on the finer things

just pray
i' m not whispering in your ear  
some evil thing...

because i'll be, the first in line
to let the devil know
just how much it took
to send me here
to met
him in his fiery Paradise...
and beg he lend me his ear
so he will know of my woe..
and how i came to be  
murders up from here ...


Details | Rhyme | |

Free Range Fear

There is too much fear in the world these days,
Fear of the unknown, scared in soo many ways!
Phobias of spiders, mice, rats and bats,
Are you frightend of nothing?  Why are you scared of that?

Scared of oppression?  And the way they use aggression?
Are they messing with your head, using psychic suggestion?
Wrestling with your doubts will only lead to fear,
Always looking into shadows.. scared that something's always near.

You're winding yourself up!  There's no reason to be scared,
But it's never as it seems.. so you'd better be prepared.
Because if you're feeling fear, it could be.. you're not ready,
With your trembling legs, and butterflies in your belly.

It's not so strange, that lots of people fear pain,
Being boiled alive, with needles stuck into your brain,
You've got to be careful, I'm afraid to say,
Be quick to make your mind up, to fight or run away.

Would you fill your pants, with a gun to your head?
Now, that's REAL fear.. you could be dead, enougth said!
Some could find your nerves and make you scream for weeks,
They can teach you about pain and how it reaches new peaks.

But the ones like that..  are fearful too,
Of justice, revenge, and the human rights crew.
They should be scared!  I wanna see their faces white,
'Cause they even kidnap kids and slip away into the night!

Now I'll get swept away, as it floods from me,
See, some of these emotions, are as deep as the sea,
Some wanna get a gun, and hunt these sick suckers,
And get them on their knees and say PRAY MOTHERF%%%%%!

See this is the crux..  this is the bottom line,
If they catch you doing that, then it's you that's doing time,
It's never black & white, it's not easy to see..
There are so many fears, it's all part of being free.

Are you scared of the dark, because that's how it began?
Are you scared that it links you to the earliest man?
Who had to hunt to eat, had to kill to stay alive,
And did what they had to, so this race could all survive.

The things to be scared of are the things inside,
You can struggle and fight, but you can never run or hide,
So walk down the street with your head held high,
And face down fear.. because we're ALL gonna die!

But the opposite of fear though..  is to be brave,
Who knows how many lives you could save.
The futures unknown, and we all face change,
It is all just a part of being free-range.


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Memories

The feelings i dont want to saver
sadness writin' on a small piece of paper

Memories that need erased
things i'll never chase

Anger that has built up in my mind
things that intertwine
Sadness and Anger joining
forming new words on my paper
Never will i saver

Shayla Dendinger


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Unwanted

When two people who once were lovers become strangers, there is nothing more heartbreaking.  For someone that you loved with all your heart and soul to now act completely cold.  To try your best to please them in everything you do.  Only to make you feel like your something used.  Just another ploy in the game. Just another person played in the game.  Why does life has to be so unfair, when all we ever wanted was for them to be there.  The one whom was once there to wipe away your tears. To kiss away all your fears.  Is now a stranger in what used to be your home.  To be at the point at which you would have just stayed alone....


Details | Lyric | |

Inside and Out

I don't know how, I don't know why,
I keep thinking of this guy.
He's become glued inside my mind.
I try to win, but he seems so kind.
I try to fight but just rewind.
Losing my sense of what is right...

Inside and out
Inside and out

With your syringe you dry my eyes,
You do not like to see me cry.
Tear our my heart to keep it safe,
You don't want me to feel heart break.
Skin me down I wont react,
Torture me and don't hold back.
Nothing's fun until you attack...

Inside and out
Inside and out

In my mind I see this place,
A horrid image I can't erase.
Chain me up and hold me down.
You know soon I'll start to drown.
You know my heart like the back of your hand.
We can't go back as we try to pretend.
I follow you down into the night.
Here we are as I lose the fight...

Inside and out
Inside and out

I don't know why I hear you shout,
You're just in my mind, I need you out.
Let the time pass as the sands go by.
The grains in your eyes as you start to cry.
Our chances are slim it's 2 out of 10,
I need you out but you're going to win.
Nothing is left, it's time to give in...

Inside and out
Inside and out.


Details | Lyric | |

Save Me From Desperation

My golden one you're burning out of sight
I try to follow your light
This darkness pulls and pushes me away
But our love will never wane
Despite all of the pain

You rapture me from my own mind
When the razor calls me back
Tell me these are all just lies
Only illusions from my mind 

Deterring the pain away
I'm with you
There's nothing more to say

Paradise is mine 
You Save me from desperation
And I will fulfill all of your adorations
You save me from desperation
Nobody is in vain
Though my life lived a lie
You save me from desperation

Our starcrossed world 
Destroyed by the ones who run from reality
Condemn us you may
But love will always find it's way
You're worth it to be called mine
Evenour bond is crime

Begin the decay
There's no more to say
Eden's Heart separated us from the start
You're all I need to be free
Nobody is in vain
So you found my meaning

(chorus)
Deterring the pain away
I'm with you
There's nothing more to say

Paradise is mine 
You Save me from desperation
And I will fulfill all of your adorations
You save me from desperation
Nobody is in vain
Though my life lived a lie
You save me from desperation

Advocate Angel from above
I put my heart in your hands
I've fallen too deep
A way to fulfill our love is what I seek

I'm suffering, dying, trying
To live but there's no life
Without you 

Deterring the pain away
I'm with you
There's nothing more to say

Paradise is mine 
You Save me from desperation
And I will fulfill all of your adorations
You save me from desperation
Nobody is in vain
Though my life lived a lie
You save me from desperation


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Naked and Ashamed -Part 2-

I need some time to reflect
To dive into my imagination…to ponder as I sink
Into my sea of thoughts and paradise...
I'm on a mission... 
To discover a previous prize
Ooooooh.... Oooooh....OoooOooh...
If I could, I could surely give it to you...and fulfill your fantasies
If I could, I could invite you inside my mind...
If I could, I could make you fly away from the world's anxieties 
If I could, I could find
You treasure... Beyond measure 
This feeling has no name...it has no specific label...
This feeling hunts me down like game...but I must remain capable 
Of saving myself and you of course...
Baby, don't get outtah course... You know what I mean
Baby, I want to know what's on your mind...I don't want to force
To answer me immediately...but I want the answer...

Ooooooh.... Oooooh....OoooOooh...
They all say it's greener on the other side of the barbwire fence...
Don't fence me in...with your powerful actions and love... I know you...I ain't dense 

Ooooooh.... Oooooh....OoooOooh...
Hey x3
You clothe me up...
What's up with you today?
I'm naked and ashamed
Turn the other way...
'Cause today is not the only day
I feel so damn afraid...
But hey x3
You make me feel whole
How was your day? 
Hopefully the sky wasn't a shade of gray 

Ooooooh.... Oooooh....OoooOooh...
I wanna make you happy for the rest of your life... And delete the strife
From your stressful, fast-pace life


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My thoughts, On thoughts

My intentions are never to misguide you, nor to judge you.. My ambition is clearly to enlighten you, brighten you, hold the stars so close that it feels like they can ignite you...Spontaneous, never erroneous, like 4 leaf clover with a hint of some fairy dust....it surely must not be enough, because you stand as if empowerment was man? your eyes lack sincerity that can be scattered among the land, just so that it could be proven, but what is life breathing having anything to do with, your character, your inherited nature, your mind of a million thoughts untamed and ungrateful? bastards or his children, we all are forgiven. life is not a game there is a reason that its given. though you blind creatures can be easily deceived and tossed to the wolves where not a seed is less treated.. Equality is universal: not spiritual nor commercial, facts are like blood, once it leaves you it hurts you.. The soul is beyond minds read, we cannot fathom nor conceive. but our virtues are still, so for this time we shall believe.


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MY LOST FRIEND

IS IT TRUE OF WHAT I HEAR, 
THE DARK ONE HAS GRIPPED YOU AND FILLED YOU WITH FEAR.
"BETTER NOT GO UNTO A WORLD FULL OF THORNS"
IS THAT WHAT HE TOLD YOU YOUR FRIEND WITH THE HORNS
YOU UNDID THE ROPES WHERE HIS HANDS WERE TIED,
WITH THE PROMISE HE WOULD PROTECT YOU FROM THE WORLD OUTSIDE
A FRIEND HE SAID HE WOULD ALWAYS REMAIN 
NOT LIKE THE OTHERS WHO SAY YOUR INSANE.
TOLD YOU TO BLOCK OUT THOSE PRYING EYES
AWAY FROM THEM PEOPLE AND THERE WICKED LIES
"SHUT ALL YOUR WINDOWS BARRICADE THE DOORS 
WITH MY NAME FILL YOUR WALLS"
SO NOW YOU ARE SHELTERED AWAY FROM THAT WORLD FULL OF DIRT
AWAY FROM THEM PEOPLE AND THERE NAMES THAT HURT 
BUT NO REAL FRIENDS LEFT YOU ARE ALL ALONE 
A WORLD FULL OF DARKNESS WILL ONLY BE KNOWN.


Details | Elegy | |

Marie III--Is the Coffin Too Deep

So frigid was her immaculate body Her last second in screams is all I can see Love's revenge was my guilt With you I'd rather let you die with Bound hands Without you, Marie, like the psychopath's dream Death is all that I can see; All that could redeem Did anyone ask Did anyone recall The sweet taste of the poison The swift slash of the knife he penetration of the lead The pain of her decaying heart I can hear it's bellowing cries But why can't you, Marie, Hear my paranoid eulogies Is the coffin too deep? Was it so hard to solve Was it so hard to see That I strangled her so easily My nails piercing her comely skin Blood dripping like the pomegranate I crushed with the shovel I shattered her shins The knife to slight her wrists Didn't you see I did it all The only witness Couldn't say Is the coffin too deep? The pain of her decaying hear tI can hear it's bellowing cries But why can't you, Marie, Hear my paranoid eulogies Is the coffin too deep? Marie I cant stay Earth is to cruel when your coffin is to deep Forever in death and in death alone The pain of her decaying heart I can hear it's bellowing cries But why can't you, Marie, Hear my paranoid eulogies Is the coffin too deep?


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Love

I know when love settles on your face
Because you can’t hide it in your eyes.
You avert them from my penetrating gaze,
But I can recognize the deep sighs… 

So, don’t fear to smile at the sky,
The clouds will understand everything.
Like birds, you know you can hover high,
But mind the sun – sometimes too burning…

And I know when love leaves you, I know...
Due to your invisible tears,
I can hear your soul’s dark largo,
I know when despair appears.

So, don’t fear to look at the sky,
Let your tears melt into the rain,
Let your heart sob aloud, moan and cry,
Free yourself from the terrible pain.

And I know when you pine for your love,
When you can’t find a space for your thoughts,
You don’t hear the thunders above,
You’re indifferent to the heavenly shots.

But have only a look at the sky,
Take a peep at the timid sunbeams
Breaking through your longing which can’t die,
Drying your tears – the salty streams…


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Captivity

I was captured at a young age
Heart filled with pain
Mind filled with rage.
I waited for a chance to break out
But too confused
Filled with fear, flooded with doubt.
After a few years I broke free
Only to be captured again
Locked up, indefinitely.
I never got to fly on my own
In captivity is how I’ve lived
These walls all I've known.
My children will never see captivity
For they belong to the captor
And he has set them free.


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Spectacular Day

I heard a blue jay in the distance…
Soaring through the branches gracefully
I open up the curtains…ooh…
Forgive me if I drift away
I often wish I took flight like that bird…
You give me that smile that made my day
You made my day a spectacular one…
With some exceptions

Tempted to do wrong…
oh how I hate those countless deceptions
Writing a new song…
oh I hate those wild, countless temptations
Waiting to belong…
trying to make this cherry-top decision
Tempted to do something quite horrid
Wanting to do something productive for once
Weeping with regret and dread
You made my day a spectacular one…
With some exceptions

I heard a classical song not long ago
Forgive me if I say the wrong words
That breaks your heart
We’re both waiting to depart
From depression…ooh…
I’m persistently trying to grab a hold of myself
I’m feeling sore…my heart is bleeding out
You give me that look of suspicion
And I had to make a difficult decision
Was I to let you go?
Are you meant to stay by my side?
I feel free like birds out of the cage…
You made my day a spectacular one…
With some exceptions

Tempted to do wrong…
oh how I hate those countless deceptions
Writing a new song…
oh I hate those wild, countless temptations
Waiting to belong…
trying to make this cherry-top decision
Tempted to do something rather…shocking
Wanting to do something delightful for once
Weeping with happiness and lament
Sleeping without a sound…
Do I have to repent? 
I tried to sing a song, 
But my voice drowned…
In the ocean, 
I fall…
On the mountains, 
I call…
You made my day a spectacular one…
With some exceptions


Graze in your own maze…
In other words, mind your own business
You give me a death stare…an eccentric gaze
You made my day a spectacular one…
With some exceptions

Tempted to do wrong…
oh how I hate those cruel infections
Writing a new song…
oh I hate all that deceptive, dangerous directions 
Waiting to belong…
trying to make this cherry-top decision
Tempted to do something quite odd…
I’m about to 
Lose control…
You made my day a spectacular one…
With some exceptions

Wanting to do something productive for once
Trying to do something that will 
Kill those negative thoughts
I glance at the mirror and I fade away… 
(Ooh…oooh…ooh…)x2
I’m turning the wrong way…
Oh! Oh oh…oh oh…
It’s a spectacular day…
With some exceptions…


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tool

There's a shadow just behind me Shrouding every breath I take All I know and all I believed Are crumbling images that no longer comfort me I know the pieces fit But I watched them fall away I've been wallowing in my own confused And insecure delusions Staring down the hole again Put me someplace I don't want to be Seeing something I don't want to see Never want to see this place again I will only complicate you Trust in me and fall as well I want to feel the change consume me Feel it outside turning in We cannot see to reach an end Crippling our communications I was wrong this changes everything
songs used: Sober,46&2,push it,Schism,Flood / Band:Tool / All Lyrics Are Tool's Song Lyrics


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decision

Words that linger upon these lips The sealed faith that cannot be erased Traces of what was Remnants of what is The falsity in his eyes the single shout of a cry Wondering why oh why Did you choose to die The words that conspired to tell a lie The answers that form to leave her torn Unto this world she is born anew Trying her hardest not to live in spite No truth to be found Numbness consumes as her vision starts to blur Another day into the lies in which she creates A faded picture on the wall tells a story to us all Her dreams of them two no more His face caught between the fade and the fake Indecision on her mind Trying to decide Was it wrong or was it right The fear that enters her mind The regret that she wishes she never met His heart beat how bitter and sweet The comfort she felt knowing he was right there Torn away as if he was just a mistake Another lie inside her mind She wishes she can find another place to hide 10-20-09


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JIM MORRISON -- DEATH OF A ROCK

    JIM MORRISON--DEATH OF A ROCK 
There's a man all alone and his name is well known
but he thinks all the world is a den
of the poor and the weak and the too dead to speak
for themselves, it's a game they can't win.

He's a little bit high and he'll be til we die
it's too bad that his heart is so black,
but he knows how to sing to a crowd and to bring
out the love that they've been holding back.

It's a game that he plays with your life and he stays
just as long as the music goes on,
and he'll make you to smile if it's only a while,
then he goes where the devil has gone.

All the girls that he's had think it's not all that bad
but the glitter's too much for their mind
so they leave him to sleep where no angel would keep
anyone for there's not one to find.

He could write every word of the songs we have heard
and he's led every daughter astray
to be part of his past and a love that won't last
and he lights every fire in his way..

Now he looks for the cause of the reason he was
as he died he's still misunderstood,
but the dream's been too dead for too long in his head,
and he rode out the storm as he should.


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Falling

~ Falling ~

I was a little girl with so many dreams
Even through the worst of times
I kept my chin up and let 
My dreams keep me alive 
I was okay 
Until my dreams got crushed
And my worst fear came true 

~ Falling ~

With no dreams to lean on 
As I started to go throw the changes 
I was a teenager 
With a huge chip on my shoulder
If you weren’t with me you were against me 
I had many friends 
Yet most of them were superficial 
I never let anyone get too close. 
I was too afraid of 
~ Falling ~

As the years went by I slowly came into my own
I became a woman 
With many scars hidden inside 
Yet it seemed like one word shined brightly on my head
SUCKER
As so many times I thought I had found that one 
Someone only to find out 
That they weren’t that person I wanted them to be 
They were only taking advantage of me 
I didn’t understand why 
I seemed to keep 

~ Falling ~

Finally I moved back closer to home
I found an apartment and made it my home
I was doing well on my own 
Then I met You
First we were friends 
For three years our friendship grew and grew 
Then we both admitted 
The feelings we had for one another were 
Way more than friends 
So we began to date 
Then a few short months later we moved in together
And before we knew it 
Our wedding was here 
I started to feel secure 
I was starting to get over my fear of 

~ Falling ~

Then boom the bomb dropped and I caught 
A glimpse of someone I never knew you to be 
While you never raised a hand at me 
You never did anything to hurt me physically 
It’s your words though 
That cut right through me 
And it became apparent that we were never meant to be
More than friends 
Looking back I can see so many signs 
That before I couldn’t see 
And if I had known then what I know now 
I would never have begged you to stay 
The first time you wanted to walk out that door. 
Now you are gone and here I am 
Moving on 
At first I didn’t think I could 
I thought my world was ending 
I couldn’t see that a new chapter in my life was just 
Beginning
And while I will always love you 
That love has changed 
It is not as deep anymore 
As I am 

~ Falling ~

Out of love with you

By: Jean Shular 


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Luciferia II-- The Damned

Run away Run Away No matter how Far You will never escape my dark hands of faith Wicked and Damned you are my Sin Darling Don't you Tremble when I embrace you The cold and Dark may fill every marrow But at least there were here For You Tell Me how they So Loved You Tell Me All of your fears When the world is done and all their trust will render Undone I will always be with you And Now We cease to Exist Luciferia I can see your Misery Just follow me and believe Me We are The Damned Outcasts of this Natural World We are The Damned Hold on I'll show you what you're waiting for We Are The Damned Join Our Dark Reality When you know the choice the Wind Will come right through And you will See what you're really meant to Be Draining into the Night Shivering With the Smallest of Frights I am the Ghost In Your Dreams I watch You Through the Window Yes that is your name Written In Blood Are You Scared? Are You Suffering? The Dark fate is what was Meant to Be This is what happens when you Brake Us with Words Destroy us with sights Twists are minds Set our will On Fire I can see your Misery Just follow me and believe Me We are The Damned Outcasts of this Natural World We are The Damned Hold on I'll show you what you're waiting for We Are The Damned Join Our Dark Reality When you know the choice the Wind Will come right through And you will See what you're really meant to Be I can see your Misery Just follow me and believe Me We are The Damned Outcasts of this Natural World We are The Damned Hold on I'll show you what you're waiting for We Are The Damned Join Our Dark Reality When you know the choice the Wind Will come right through And you will See what you're really meant to Be


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Heartless Fire

In my fervent heart,
You knew I treasured you
But you didn’t return those tender feelings
Just see the fumes arise from the consuming fire
Because my wicked desires wasted away into embers
I love you…I love you…These feelings are ever so new!
I LOVE YOU…I love you…These feelings are always true!
You knew I honestly adored you…oh yeah; I always did from the start
But you don’t consider those mild feelings—you wrecked those bits by bits
Ah! Now I’m crammed into the ascending fire, splintering me with the strokes of death
Because of my virtuous desires, I’m wasting away into the pit of corruption
I thought you were encompassed with my passionate kisses
But you wanted to chase after your callous blisses, now I’m faced with crises
I detest the thought of adoring you…but I have to admit—I love you!
I love you…I love you with all of my heart! Do you love me too?
I know the desires that I have constructed for you never occurred in your heart
I know in the bottom of my heart that you were only enticed by your sick pleasures
You’re dumping me into the raging fire and you’re a sneaky little liar
Because I ain’t lying like you do deceitfully to me—I’m in love and I can’t draw back my desire
You brought magnificence in my eyes, comforting angel
But I’m subsiding into the cavernous fire
Because I surrender to my legit desire
How could I free from the embrace that yanks on to me?
You brighten up my dreams and set me free from reality’s calamity
I love you…I love you…These feeling relieve me from the blue!
I LOVE YOU…I love you…I adore your every existence—do you get the clue?
You knew I kept this feeling inside for so long
Nevertheless, I feel that I belong
In your heart…In His heart…
In my heart…we’ll never depart!
You are my true endeavor
And I wanna win your heart forever!
You’ll always be loved because you’re above beautiful
But, you don’t believe this love will survive in this stranded palace
But I’ll attempt to win you with all of my might and I’ll defeat the malice
Our boundless love is like two fireflies floating in the midnight sky
But you disturbed our greetings and you didn’t even accept the feelings I felt for you
Why did you blow away our interweaved feelings of passion
And blew them away into the heartless fire?
My precious love, why did you diminish my eternal desire?
You knew I worshiped you
In my sensitive heart


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Old Tapes and Half-Finished Songs

You have become an old cassette tape,
left on one side for far too long,
enduring the pain of silence
because it is familiar,
too afraid to cross to the other side.
Oh, but you have so much potential
and it slips away with each second of dead air.
Cast your fears aside and take my hand.
Let me show you the songs you could be singing.
Let me help you finish your song.
Together, our breath will become the ocean,
churning in our lungs,
our voice will become the wind,
rushing in our throats,
our heart will become the earth,
beating in our chest,
and our love will become the poem
we scream from the rooftops,
so the whole world knows,
that you have finally finished your song.


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The Darkside and My Devil

Rusted spiers
Splinted by liers,
Triers in sin
And all that is wrong
Mounted in untruth
Where they've been for so long

Dented hopes
Noosed with ropes,
They team with darkness
Writhes with ire
A most jaded wretchness

Our ghouls within
Away won't spin
Din of fear
Clear not the future
But danger to come
Fighting fast is the creature.


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Shooting Stars - part 3 of Cherry-top Bliss

Believe in me…reflect on me…let’s push away the worries that want to ruin 
our night spent together…God has two hearts to fix
I love it when you wrap yourself around me like my own personal, warm 
blanket on this moon-drenched night – you are so gorgeous…so vivacious!!~

You are illuminating nightfall like shooting stars,
Piercing me in the inside…leaving scars
The ghosts of the past come to haunt me tonight
Let’s fly high like a kite & let’s take fervor flight & let’s get through this plight 
together as a team – we’ll be alright

Shooting stars scorch the skies tonight
Neon lights light up in my heart…
My heart’s pounding with fright and delight
We’re wasting time and I’m freaking out…
Please…don’t let my young heart break apart
You are a beautiful diamond in the cave
Be strong, behave, and be brave…
You’re the luscious, dark chocolate that I crave

Pre-chorus:
I will squander my time now and forever
(Are you an evil, fallen angel?)
Until I meet you eye to eye again
Our departure came to soon…our future’s a blur
(sarcasm: Oh you must be a sweet, beautiful angel –)
Come on & get out of the lion’s den!
Release me…I need to let go…
Believe in me…reflect on me…
Release me…let me go with the flow
Let me grow and see…the light at the end of the tunnel
There’s other fish in the sea…

*Chorus* 
I need you to ascend from your debris – let’s dance the night away! We will 
arise from our ashes like a fervent, blazing phoenix
Tell me if I’m as handsome as the lion that’s graceful, strong and 
courageous…I know for a fact that you are dangerously magnificent and 
gloriously precious
Believe in me…reflect on me…let’s push away the worries that want to ruin 
our night spent together…God has two hearts to fix
I love it when you wrap yourself around me like my own personal, warm 
blanket on this moon-drenched night – you are so gorgeous…so mysterious…

You are illuminating nightfall like shooting stars,
Piercing me in the inside…leaving scars
The ghosts of the past come to haunt me tonight
Let’s fly high like a kite & let’s take fervor flight & let’s get through this plight 
together as a team – we’ll be alright

Beautiful nightmares haunt you and I – let’s pray that we’ll be set free from 
disparity and earn plenty of prosperity 
I’m running away from the demise of today…let’s pray that the remorse and 
misfortune fades away


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To Fine The Truth

As I stand on the hill of enlightenment,
My eyes showered with the sadness of humanity,
I see the pain cast down from that which has pointed himself,
He casts a power that is with approach,
Thou humanity fights with the fear of damnation,
The struggles with their souls are relentless, 
All the time he basks in the joy of the fear of the unknown,
He segregates man from women and children are absolute,
He strikes down all that oppose him with no mercy,
Using the mislead like puppets believing all the wile there just,
His superposition is unrevealing to humanity’s cries for help,
But as I fall to my knee’s perfused in my unending sorrow, 
I see a ray of light shining up from his darkness,
I can’t help but to wonder if this is just another one of his tricks.
But just then I feel a warm touch on my shoulder,
The relief that I am not alone any more is over whelming,
I turn to see there are so many who have seen the light,
We stand to say and to proclaim,
No more shall we bow down to you and your true darkness,
No more will humanity be fooled with your lies,
No more will your pain of segregation continual,
We are free and so shall we free others in time.
Leave us and return here no more.


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Titaniumb

Don’t you feel it, pounding in my chest? 
I’m trying my best to pass this difficult test
Life is hard, I know; I’ve been chained to my solitary, deserted pit and I’ve been feeling awfully numb for so long

Are you still left behind? 
Thanks for being so kind…I’m so sorry for being crazy in love and blind…
I bit into the apple of good and evil
Now, tell me, honey – am I your angel or devil?

Take flight, mesmerizing dove! Reach to your heavenly haven
You’re not as dark and bitter as a raven…
You are forgiven and you abide in the illuminated night
You are never forgotten in this mind of mine…you’re my sundrenched sight
This titanium heart of mine beats for you alone…

My steel heartbeats sound like a drums in the middle of the night
I will stand tall and bold like a knight…I will the good fight
Where art thou? Where art thou, my darling angel of dazzling light?
Have you tasted the love I have tucked in my…heart of titanium?
Now, tell me, honey before I get off track– am I your angel or devil?
You were my friend, courageous and strong
Determination seeps through my mind
I sweat a river…don’t cry a river for me…I wrote this song
For you alone…thank the Lord of Accord I’m not blind

Take flight, mesmerizing dove! Reach to your heavenly haven
You’re not as dark and bitter as a raven…
You are forgiven and you abide in the illuminated night
You are never forgotten in this mind of mine…you’re my sundrenched sight
This titanium heart of mine beats for you alone…

I’m afraid I might lose control…
The evil blood cells are crawling in my veins of pure vitality 
YOU USED ME AS A USELESS TOOL
You’re driving me into a lane of insanity… kissing my sweet fatality 
You’re not as dark and bitter as a raven…
You are never forgotten in this mind of mine…you’re my sundrenched sight
Take flight, mesmerizing dove! Reach to your heavenly haven
You are forgiven and you abide in the illuminated night

Take flight, mesmerizing dove! Reach to your heavenly haven
You’re not as dark and bitter as a raven…
You are forgiven and you abide in the illuminated night
You are never forgotten in this mind of mine…you’re my sundrenched sight
This titanium heart of mine beats for you alone…

Are you still left behind? There’s more future in store
I bit into the apple of good and evil…I am wicked and week…now, I’m acting like a pill
Thanks for being so kind…I’m so sorry for acting like an attention whore
Now, tell me, honey before I get off track– am I your angel or devil?
You were my friend, courageous and strong
Determination seeps through my mind
I sweat a river…don’t cry a river for me…I wrote this song
For you alone…thank the Lord of Accord I’m not blind

Take flight, mesmerizing dove! Reach to your heavenly haven
You’re not as dark and bitter as a raven…
You are forgiven and you abide in the illuminated night
You are never forgotten in this mind of mine…you’re my sundrenched sight
This titanium heart of mine beats for you alone…

Are you still left behind? 
Thanks for being so kind…
I bit into the apple of good and evil
Now, tell me, honey – am I your angel or devil?
I committed the sin…
I blame it on the temptation from deep within
I don’t feel good in my own skin
Where art thou? Where have you been?
I was as tough as titanium…and I’m weak as the victim,
Getting targeted by the predator…oh no, here we go again…

Take flight, mesmerizing dove! Reach to your heavenly haven
You’re not as dark and bitter as a raven…
You are forgiven and you abide in the illuminated night
You are never forgotten in this mind of mine…you’re my sundrenched sight
This titanium heart of mine beats for you alone…

Don’t you feel it, pounding in my chest? 
I’m trying my best to pass this difficult test
Life is hard, I know; I’ve been chained to my solitary, deserted pit and I’ve been feeling awfully numb for so long
Screaming at the top of my lungs… please, please help me and I’ll give you the rest
Of the rare love that I have tucked in my…heart of steel and titanium…but where do I belong? I don‘t know the difference between right and wrong
Don’t you feel it, pounding in my chest? 
I’m trying my best to pass this difficult test
Life is hard, I know; I’ve been chained to my solitary, deserted pit and I’ve been feeling awfully numb for so long

Now, I’m feeling awfully numb
Well, I kept trying
Though I was frankly dying
I’m sick of your lying
Dry your tears – stop that crying 

Don’t you feel it, pounding in my chest? 
I’m trying my best to pass this difficult test
Life is hard, I know; I’ve been chained to my solitary, deserted pit and I’ve been feeling awfully numb for so long


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Scared of Falling Part 2 of 2

You helped me see the beauty in me,
When I never saw myself.
You opened my eyes to this world that could be,
reality instead of a dream.
Though I'm afraid of falling for you,
too hard, too fast, I've been thrown for a loop.
You make my heart race and skip a beat,
I get so nervous... But thats just what ya do to me.
You saw me when no one else did,
You saw a girl that was genuine.
I dont know what else to say,
except that you take my breath away.
You helped me see the beauty in me,
When I never saw myself.
You opened my eyes to this world that could be,
reality instead of a dream.
Though I'm afraid of falling for you,
too hard, too fast, I've been thrown for a loop.
You saw me when no one else did,
You saw a girl that was genuine.
I dont know what else to say,
except that you take my breath away.


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Scared of Falling Part 1 of 2

I want you to kiss me, love me, and hold me tight,
I wanna be with you all day and all night.
You're my inspiration, my new obsession.
I cant explain, but you blow me away.
Im so scared of falling now,
I dont wanna break or be broken.
You're so amazing how?
You gotta life and I dont wanna bring you down.
You're so talented, a gentleman,
and i guess chivalry aint really dead.
You teach me something new each day,
There's something about you and i cant seem to stay away.
I want you to kiss me, love me, and hold me tight,
I wanna be with you all day and all night.
You're my inspiration, my new obsession.
I cant explain, but you blow me away.
Im so scared of falling now,
I dont wanna break or be broken.
You're so amazing how?
You gotta life and I dont wanna bring you down.


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BETTER

My life was so cold,
So abused, so alone,
Feeling empty, rejected, dejected,
Wanting not to exist.

So near, yet so far,
Blind and deaf,
My mind projects vivid memories,
My head producing loud voices.

Bold face, cowardly eyes,
Submissive body, rebellious mind,
Courageous soul, submissive heart,
Better I had been extinct.

Cruel world, cruel people,
Clear mind, corrupted heart,
Hateful but loving,
Better I had been extinct.

Thoughts of an uneducated mind,
Lacking wisdom or knowledge,
Better be thankful for what you have,
Better we have been alive.


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Blanket of fear

Stuck here, under this cloud
Never wanted anything more, 
then to make my family proud.. of me
now get away, get away from me
So sorry but this is how I feel
my bodies still, trapped under this blanket of fear
I fear, its unclear...nightmares are real
this is my reality... my reality

Go home.. my heart it tells me,
but my mind is lost
my head is full of many thoughts
and all I think about is you
and how you're better off... without me
I can't stand, I'm sinking down
I can't pull myself out of this hole...
I'm missing pieces they're  scattered somewhere, in the unknown
I'm not whole.. not whole

I'm sorry but this is how I feel
get away, just stay away from me
my bodies still, trapped under this blanket of fear
I fear, its unclear... nightmares are real
this is my reality... my reality
I'm sorry but this is how I feel... how I feel
its unclear, so unreal
this is my reality, this is how I feel


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an honest truth masked by lies

I've been living in these dry bones
and no one seems to care
I don't know what I'm doing here
but I'm pretty sure you're not there

I have seen every sunset
been hoping that you're resting there
I don't know where you're hiding
but I'm pretty sure it's not here

so I bit down on my tobacco
tried to forget about today
told myself tomorrow's coming
but I'm pretty sure it's already won

so I laid in my bed and looked at the ceiling
and I could feel the darkness creeping
and when my tears they stopped streaming
I'm pretty sure you weren't there

ashamed about what people would be thinking
grabbed myself a razorblade
but as that first cut was sinking
I'm pretty sure you weren't there

I don't know why you're a mystery
I don't know why I can't find you
but I am down here and I'm dying
and I'm pretty sure you aren't there

so what happens to us
when you're not around
do we turn to dust
or do we go down

cause I know my debt
and I know what I've paid
I'm pretty sure it's not enough
so what happens to us?


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Magick Mirror

Cast out I blast out of a cage that once enslaved blast out towards an image worshiped Big myth, great idol its you I learn to admire in the trials, by fire that taught me how I should not be Now I'm lying in the entrails of the mystical lion swallowed up by the trend I believed was worth dying for, now I am no more; a lost scripture in this unfolding vicariously informed the show must go on everything on edge by the crash of a drone how did I find peace all on my own? no one can find it if they're searching too strong It invades you, somewhat saves you from the angst and rage of child's play adults playing war games in a dangerous way everybody staring blank, in loss of face.


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Deteriorate

Cant build a thing
The chains holding me down
Have slowly rotted over time
I need a soul that carries on through the pain (when the walls start collapsing again)
Give me a heart the ceases to fail
Despite the infection within

Dont take for granted this world we live in
Nevermind the fragile dirt we all end in

Time has had its way with me
The trail ive walked down
Has Fastly Deteriorated
I need a soul that carries on through the pain (when the walls start collapsing again)
Give me a heart that ceases to fail
Despite what you will find in me

Dont take for granted this world we live in
Nevermind the fragile dirt we all end in


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Fear

It’s rooted deep down within
Runs within our adrenalin

For weather we have committed a crime or a sin
It’s still buried deep within

Some fear for the one they love
Others may fear the fear of love

Afraid of the nightmare or the darkest night
Sounds that fill you with chill or sound that make you fright

Dark Clouds fill within you with pain
While you walk through the rain of struggle ,without gain

For Fear can make you go Insane
At Times of Immorality casting chains

A singular emotion lingers all around us
Some need it others just weather with the rust

A few will rise in repulsion of pain
No Morals of truth or name

Simple for a Sound to be clear
But what if it if filled with fear?


---You can purchase my book of Poems "Temet Nosce"------Where you will find the rest of my
poems--

--- Mustafah Mun


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The Sixes and Sevens Veil

All of those words and emotions Are tired of lingering in my throat and Mind I want to caress them onto you But how can I? Anon. there might be a time in our days I want to tell you-- I'm worthless, Broken, Diedre, Torned, Discarded, Abuse The past shouldn't control the present but it lingers in my spirit The words need to come out The Darkness with Them What if the truth couldn't set me free, save me from this candled day Underneath the Grove lies something dark, haunted, and confused Hidden in Life aren't we all abused Why can't Eyes see what lies beyond The Sixes and Sevens Veil I can't discard the decay But I'm still entrouved by the past days why can't eyes see what lies beyond The Sixes and Sevens Veil Shrouded against our will too scared to show our bare Vulnerable Shadowself It was the ignorance's bliss that caught you The Knowledge creates a burden Too Difficult to Maintain or was it I? trying to be part of your soul The Decay of Your Heart Sadness can be cured by a few words Despair is a disease of the Knife The Eclipse stole the Sun's Sinlight Underneath the Grove lies something dark, haunted, and confused Hidden in Life aren't we all abused Why can't Eyes see what lies beyond The Sixes and Sevens Veil I can't discard the decay But I'm still entrouved by the past days why can't eyes see what lies beyond The Sixes and Sevens Veil You can to try to condemn the pain Inside But only I can feel the Decay of my heart I know the quill is better than the razor But only I can feel the Decay of my heart Remember your eyes are hazed by bias lies But only I can feel the Decay of my heart Underneath the Grove lies something dark, haunted, and confused Hidden in Life aren't we all abused Why can't Eyes see what lies beyond The Sixes and Sevens Veil I can't discard the decay But I'm still entrouved by the past days why can't eyes see what lies beyond The Sixes and Sevens Veil You can to try to condemn the pain Inside But only I can feel the Decay of my heart I know the quill is better than the razor But only I can feel the Decay of my heart Remember your eyes are hazed by bias lies But only I can feel the Decay of my heart


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Voices

i hear the voices in my head
they surrond my wooden bed
telling me i should be dead

I try to move but i cannot awake
the forces drive me into a foggy state
suddonly i feel so much hate

I finally got the courage to get up
I walk to the doorway 
I fall to the floor

I have no feet
they have taken them
I used my feet for running
i used my feet for going unto the path 
i shouldnt have stepped on

I look to find my arms
but i dont have any
I used my arms for picking up things
i used them for putting things into my mouth
That i shouldnt have eaten

i feel for my lips 
But they are gone
I used them to say things i shouldnt have said

I cannot see
My eyes have gone missing
I used my eyes to see what i
shouldnt have seen

the voice returns to my head
your better off dead
your a fool for what youve done
now you will rot in hell with no one

I float in mid air
everything turns dark
everything is smothered in fire
i cannot breath
my soul leaves my body and flies up to heaven
it is used to be given to a new baby being born on earth

the man in the fire tells me
that when bad spirits go to hell
they get reused but outs bodys stay here
in this bottomless pit
they are only reused to have another chance

when good souls go to heaven
they stay up there with god 
starting a new life
and ending an old one


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Autumn Day

I heard them shouting from the other room
I watched as the bitterness starts to bloom
and I can't wait to finally leave soon
the TV screen told it was my last day.

These tears that I've cried won't stop the rain
but it will open away all this hidden pain.
I've already been told to kill myself on the inside,
because its about conforming in and the outside.

And I still watch the ceiling crumbling.
I can't seem to walk without tumbling.
I already can't wait to leave soon.
Its already said on the news it's my last day.

I leave it myself to believe
the muse I love is out to retrieve.
My heart before its last beat
to save me bore their mission is complete.

Save me, save me.

I see you on the other side of the street.
Calling my name, wanting to meet
so I don't have to leave soon
you're the muse that saved me on this autumn day.


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Check Your Heart for Monsters

There's no need to hide
when it's dark outside,
for the real monsters
dwell within you.
Night or Light,
Fight or Flight,
he cannot be escaped.
There is no solace in
the rays of light,
no sanctuary in the moon
or stars.
Cold or Hot,
Ready or Not,
the Beast will always find you.


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For Our Freedom

Of gods and despots
making us walk the line
strait into oblivion we go.

The meat grinders blade we feel
and for their benefit there they feed
on the our flesh as if it were their own.

Salted and tenderized
they beat us into submission
and they pick us off like old crusty scabs.

We march in formation
strait in to their gun sites
for our freedom we go.


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And Nothing Else Matters

I never opened myself this way,
I try to hide my evil everyday.
All of this I can't just say,
My darkened bed is where I lay.
I lived my life without a care,
A place to hide please take me there.
My emotions paint the walls with darkened splatters,
And nothing else matters.

I want to run away never looking back,
Prove all the people wrong talking smack.
But I can't bare to witness this any longer.
Take me to a new home.
I can't find it to care,
A place to hide please take me there.
My emotions paint the walls with darkened splatters,
And nothing else matters.


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My Heart

I can't find the words to console you
the right lyrics to take over and control you
but theres nothing that we can do
the good times will come and the bad times will pass
We're running in a race and were going way to fast
I don't want to let you in for the fear that you may win
My heart...............

Oh when my camera takes a snapshot
smile with every miniscule amount of happiness that I've got
Feet in the sand, walking hand in hand
dancing to the band I don't want to go on because at the crack of dawn
you may break
my heart.........

As the rain bombards my hair
wetness everywhere shake it out its okay
you'll keep me dry if I stay but if I stay
the fear is near that I may give you
My heart...............


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Slipping Reality

What's happening to me? 
Am I slowly slipping away from reality? 
Have I really changed that much? 
Or is it supposed to be this way? 
Is my mom really right? 
Do you think I'll be okay? 
Am I really that bad? 
Should I put up a fight? 
Or is it all in my head? 
Take a look in the mirror 
What do you see? 
I see someone new... 
A different version of me... 
Tell me she's wrong 
Then sing me a song 
Say she's overreacting again 
And everything will be okay 
Am I slipping away? 
 
November 4th, 2008


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The American Legend

Soaring high, as the American's eagle pride higher now than ever before once more, elevated nearly every last peak how to mistreat the meek, weak unguided son why can't you offer unrequited love to everyone? oh, lord save me I cannot escape the agents that take hold of me, they surround me... So I levitate up and unbounded seems I've once again found it an escape, from an uneasy paradise This burst explosion A never ending love-peace energy welling up inside me like an underwater atom bomb forever and ever I shall go on accordingly unknown An art recession? let me make a correction this boy's a legend from birth on up banging hard breaking his way through the wall life can sometimes often throw up come crashing hard on the ground I wake knowing the feeling to lose everything except from what I learned from well known legends who made the wings I fly high on


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Gated Minds

Ever ending walls, are these walls ever ending? Slowely spinning world, will it ever stop spinning? Life is a passage, but is it really pre written? If god is "like wise" does it make him a victim? 
We all give and take, so does it mean its a mistake,
That the reason we are here is only by fate?
My mind may alter my inner emotions,but by keepin it locked means its never even open.
So I must not accept this world or its fate, for my mind is my own, and for gods, its his gate..


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I Long For Yesterday

Yesterday all my troubles seemed so far away,
Now it looks as though they're here to stay.
I can't find light to brighten up my days,
I guess I'll just fall astray.
Suddenly I'm not all the man I used to be,
There's an evil shadow inside of me.
I can't seem to set all the problems free,
I guess my only option is turn back and flee.
Although I sit here and have this guilt,
I'm burning down the good I ever built.
The good times were an easy game to play,
I'm searching for a place to hide away.
I don't know why I have to run. 
I still can not say,
I've done everything wrong,
Now I long for yesterday.
Yesterday all my troubles seemed so far away,
Now it looks as though they're here stay.
Suddenly I'm not all the man I used to be,
There's an evil shadow inside of me.
The good times were an easy game to play,
I'm searching for a place to hide away.
I don't know why I have to run.  
I still can not say,
I've done everything wrong,
Now I long for yesterday.


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Ally of Darkness

I'm dying I remember thinking that Still questioning it when i woke up crying Drenched in sweat It was a bad one tonight Those never fail to linger the longest The ones I can't fight Where I'm never the strongest Twenty-four, still the darkness scares me It's the ally of nightmares Helps them crawl back in Together, an unmistakable and inescapable pair Blankets, dragged over my head A blockade for enemies As if that could stop them They trample through it with impeccable ease Our fears they know At our desires they smirk Laughing at our blissful dreams While planning the ones they know will hurt Always about death Usually not my own Ones i care for and love In the end, leaving me completely and utterly alone This one, this one was different They know death is not my fear Instead they tortured him His eyes i watched beg...his screams i still hear Finding him was only a matter of time In my dreamland he always awaits I meet him there often So they used me as bait A heroic fool he was Chasing me into darkness They knew he'd come for me Not knowing, towards me, they're harmless I escaped their grasp Knowing already i was too late The life seeped from his eyes To them, this was his fate They forced me to watch Then allowed me to live Knowing the paid I would feel I would wish i was dead A lover in my dreams Couldn't wait to meet him there They felt my love for him Now he'll never escape my nightmares I can't let them have him again So fighting sleep I'll try I'll be stronger this time But it'll only fuel their fire How do you kill a nightmare Decidedly demons What other beings so evil Creep into your mind while you're dreaming If its a battle they want It's a battle i'll start They deserve to be punished Their evil has nothing over my vengeful heart My eyelids, oh so heavy Like the clouds that hold the rain Here come the shadows in the darkness Upon me they force their claim Grasping and clawing like fingers of a beast Climbing up over the bed Spilling over me, heavy liquid They've got me, they're inside my head.... I'm dying I remember thinking that Still questioning it when i woke up crying Drenched in sweat


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Song

Hook:
(One step left to complete your doom
Go through the door to complete my gain
Have you trapped in one of my mentality tombs
Turn around puttin' your pain in the fast lane
Metaphorically enough rain to drive a beautiful day insane
You and I will never think the same
You'll see when you press start on my game
The death you brought on yourself, I am not to blame)

___________________________________________________________________
The cars passing by faster than the bars
My mind is stuck like its been sitting in tar
Tryin to contemplate what to do
These hateful emotions are becoming true
Flowing out of my body devouring my soul
If the play's Insanity, My mind's the leading role
When you hear a sentence, I hear a lyric
Takes awhile for you to understand when you hear it
The monsters goblins hoblins and kings
Because kings are the most powerful fiends
Taking away all your strength to
Get through whatever you've gotten into
Driving me away from being sane
These illusions keep causing pain
Seeing all the ominous beings and demons
I wish i could stop seeing them, I gotta stop dreamin

(Hook)

The Disillusions of the nightmares
My demons just stand right there
Stinging my mind like a swarm of bees
Creatures are having their own fantasies
All I hear are the screams of the tormented
A normal person would ask if I'm demented
The pain, Body soaked in sorrow
Dead in the eyes of the world of tomorrow
I know I'm twisted, Don't make it a label
These rhymes turning happy? That's just a fable
When people talk about death, It leaves a silence
Because in their mind the hate and quiet leads to violence
I am not a nice person I'll slit your throat
Turn around throw you down a well feed you to a goat
If joy is what you're seeking
Run away, I'm not a human being

(Hook)

Like the ocean to the rock, The knife cuts the skin
Resurrection may happen a new life will begin
Maybe he'll hang himself chokin' on his blood
Rain tears the rope, body falls into mud
as the family attends the rough funeral
Everyone wonders why did you go?
No one could understand his mentality
Aunt Patty asks "How could he? He baffles me!"
People thought he had the strength for problems
But he was tormented by goons and goblins
Didn't have the power to push through the days
He thought of it in so many ways
He had 2 brothers one hood one good
Wishin' they could see the real him but no one could
Only if he ever just had a friend
No one knew about him until the very end

(Hook)


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Low Man Is Due

A low man is due...
My eyes seek reality,
My fingers feel for faith.
Touch clean with a dirty hand,
I touch the clean to the waste.
I fall cause I let go,
The net below has rot away.
And I cry to the alleyway,
Confess all to the rain.
But I lie straight to the mirror,
The one I've broken to match my face.
The fire is so warm,
But nowhere safe from the storm.
And I can't bear to see,
What I've let me be.
So wicked and worn.
So as I write to you,
Of what is done and to do.
Maybe you'll understand,
I won't cry for this man.
Cause low man is due.
So low the sky is all I see,
All I want from you is forgive me.
My eyes seek reality,
And my fingers seek my veins.
There's a dog at your back step,
He must come in from the rain.
But you bring that poor dog in from the rain,
Though he just wants right back out again.
So my fingers feel for faith,
And my eyes seek reality.
So as I write to you,
Of what is done and to do.
Maybe you'll understand,
I won't cry for this man.
Cause low man is due.


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Ejection

When I’m sitting by myself
My mind starts to really roam
Thinking of all the things
Going on back at home
And I’m stressed out
To the point of bail out
So much on my mind 
I jus wanna yell out
I tell myself to push the button
This is the point of it all
Ejection- ejection
Going higher before I fall
Parachute- parachute
I pull the cable but nothing
Thinking to myself
There should be something
Next the back up chute
For some relief 
Nothing even happened
I jus can’t believe
Falling to Earth
My life flashes before my eyes
Thinking to myself
Any second I could die
A 100 feet,50 feet
25 feet, now 5
Nothing can save me
Now this is jus my time
My fear of death 
Has caught up with me
Then my last thought was
Will anybody even remember me?


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conspiracy

come to join the fight?
come to stop the siege?
come to grab your country
from the dirt upon her knees?

time to learn the battlecry
it echos from my breast
shout it to the mountain tops
and fight your very best!

ut anarchy quod licentia
nos orir oriri ortus
keep it well in mind
or nay eternally in focus

ut anarchy quod licentia
nos orir oriri ortus
its the way the west was founded 
its the only ending for us


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Devil's Roar

Talking in the kitchen,
Family is sitting on the counter joking around,
One of us feels singled out,    
From the counter pulls he you off and your head meets the grout,

Suddenly you get up, start laughing, and the rest join. 
You become possessed and stab him in the back,
First can't tell what with but something with a point,
Suddenly we all become victims of attack,
You strike over and over until until he's on the floor,
You do an uncanny impersonation of the devil as you roar

Environment has changed and we're surrounded by strangers,
They had come to witness a comedy show but now they're in danger,
They all scatter and run for their lives,
Escaping into fake staircases, walls, a few run just running no where in strides,

Somehow I just stand there, watch it happen,
No fear in me that I may become part of this,
I tell myself I need this info for the therapist,
No fear that I may be at risk,
Witnessing a demonic demonstration,
You want loved ones to feel intimidation.

Then I woke up..
Glad my reality doesn't get me all choked up
Childhood memories can be brutal and somewhat faux
I'm learning more and more I have a hard time letting them go


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2014 Style Breakdown

Born in a neighborhood where crime is the law
Mom dragged me out before I had learned to talk
Out of the frying pan, into the flame
Into a new hood where it all was the same

Do children know when it's gone wrong?
You'd never catch me singing the other kid's pained song

1997 style breakdown
Everywhere you turned was a ghost town
We're handing over the reigns of this land
When nothing's left upon it but old sand

Staring out into the empty blue sky
I've got a thought and it's starting to terrify
Fourteen more days and I'll finally know
Am I a statistic or am I on my own?

Do adults know when it's gone wrong?
I've learned enough to write my own pained song

2014 styled breakdown
I'm feeling lost and don't think I can be found
I'm gripping onto what's left of my reigns
I'm not ready to hand over these sandy plains

My name is blank space for me to write
Whatever I want instead
If I'm not content with the man that I am
My skin I know I can shed

I'm bleeding again from what I've been put through
The light of the sun is hot
I'm sending another persona to be
The messenger who gets shot

Why am I writing all these names down?
Who's God am I pretending to be?
Is something growing somewhere safe in her self?
Have I brought something forward from me?

I'm sending to my prayers to whoever takes them
That all of this fear will end
I'm sick of not knowing what peace really means
My good will is starting to bend

Dream
Is this all a dream?
Oh, 2014
The worst that I've seen

Now, scream
Let me hear the scream
Erupting from me
As the light lost its gleam


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Till the End

Alone, so alone again
It all seems like a dream
Fight the urge again
To kill everything and scream
I'll lock myself away to be
The mistress of loneliness 
You don't seem to care for me
But maybe that's for the best

Friend

Take this heart of stone
Tell them to leave me alone
I'll always be there for you
And I know I'll see you through 
Till the end

Falling away again
My past at every wake
You'll never be the same again
This is getting so hard to take
Time is dying bit by bit
And I can't fight the test
It's just another throat to slit
But it'll be my best

Friend

Take this heart of stone
Tell them to leave me alone
I'll always be there for you
And I know I'll see you through 
Till the end

I'm fighting...the urges...
To tear them all to shreds
I will find...the courage
To make your suffering end

Friend 

Take this heart of stone
Tell them to leave me alone
I'll always be there for you
And I know I'll see you through 
Till the end

Break this heart of stone
Tell them to leave us alone
Your heart was always so true
And you know I'll love you
Till the end

I'll always love you 
Till the end


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Loss of Sensation

Remember that pact we never made
The one we signed in blood
Imagine the world was make-believe
And that every tear, a flood
I hope we never fade out of here
Because tomorrow won't come
For everyone the same as the next
You can quote me on that one

Sensation
Lost from everyone
Quenched like a thirst
Dictation
Of what can be felt
Predicted like weather
Scorched
Under the cold sun
And burnt till it’s gone
Vanishing
Like its going extinct
And gone before you blink

Bound to concrete and drowning
Make a miraculous escape
We will never be found in the depths?
Find ourselves with one hope
A feeble attempt to regain ourselves
Sacred was our lost pleasure
And infectious is the way it was felt
But it has a common cure

Sensation
Lost from everyone
Quenched like a thirst
Dictation
Of what can be felt
Predicted like weather
Scorched
Under the cold sun
And burnt till it’s gone
Vanishing
Like its going extinct
And gone before you blink


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Love Has It's Side Effects

I feel your hand touch mine, and suddenly I'm blind. I can't see where I'm going. I can taste you on my lips, and my heart sinks like a ship. And I don't know what I'm doing. So, I lay in my bed. I'm trying to get you out of my head, But I smell you on my pillow. All I can do is try and catch a glimpse of you, So, I'm staring out my window. Every time you walk away, I just wanna beg you to stay. Every single time I commit this sin, I fear I'll never see you again. And I see you in my dreams, whenever I fall asleep. Can't you see? This is what you do to me. I know it makes you weak every time I kiss your cheek. That's why I kiss you as much as I can. And I just wish you could see, how much you mean to me, But you will never understand. So, I try to explain how much pleasure and pain You cause me to feel. Sometimes, I wanna die, but when I look into your eyes, I know this is real. Every time you walk away, I just wanna beg you to stay. Every single time I commit this sin, I fear I'll never see you again. And I see you in my dreams, whenever I fall asleep. Can't you see? This is what you do to me. You've made me so weak, And I'm starting to think That I can't survive without you next to me. Oh, baby, I never thought I'd see This embodiment of ecstasy. Oh, darling, you've set me free. Oh, darling, you've set me free. Every single time I close my eyes, I'm begging to be by your side. You're the one that makes my heart skip a beat, and I'm kneeling at your feet. And you're the girl of my dreams, whenever I fall asleep. Can't you see? This is what you do to me.


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I HAVE ASKED HIM TO RESTORE MY HOLINESS

Heart, seek joy
for my lost soul
that has forgotten to pray...
who can run from God's eyes
when they roam as eagles do?
Skies will seem very lwide... 
letting hope flee on breeze.


Stars, don't leave
this bright August sky
until serenity is mine
and peace dwells inside.
I have sought Him
on nights of desperation...
shedding many tears of regret
that suffocated my breath:
He listened to every prayer
and restore my holiness!


Why would fear conquer me,
if His presence is felt everywhere?
Why would emptiness
overcome me and allow misery
to distort the faith that flows
into my veins and not let me live?
I have asked Him
to restore my holiness
with the trembling voice
of a repentant man.



 

 


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Choice

I live with the ghost of the promises we broke
And the fear of the pain and regret
I wonder at times if the words we once ryhmed
Are words I'm supposed to forget

You live with the pain of anger in vain
And fear that I'll give up or give in
I'm offering to make up for the pain
But you have to give me a chance again

Inside the confusion lies the answers you need
And until you make up your mind
The love of the past won't let you be free
And the love now is making you blind

Run away, walk away, turn around, stay
But do something that gives you a voice
Don't let others make decisions for you
That should be only your choice

So I wait, and you struggle inside of yourself
Knowing the truth of where your dreams lie
A heart in your hands and one on the shelf
Which will continue or die with goodbye?

So I live with the ghost of the promises we broke
And the fear of the pain and regret
But I remember those times when the words did rhyme
And I know I can never forget


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Unstable

Damage is done 
Blames all your own 
I lived for you only 
not that you cared 
not that you knew 

Like a smile from an angel 
Looking right through me 
What I’d give for your notice 
just a catch of your eye 

Hours turn to days, as minutes tick by 
Still you’re looking, looking right through 
All that I am is meant just for you 
How is it you cannot see me 
I’m right here, right in front of you 

It’s killing me 
But its killing you too 

Damage is done 
Blames all your own 
I lived for you only 
not that you cared 
not that you knew 

Hallowed out, I refuse to die alone 
Even the emptiness is gone 
Left on the edge 
just waiting for a push 

Running out of patience 
Breath comes heavy 
Still there is nothing 
Again you look right though me 
Why can’t you see 

It’s killing me 
But it’s killing you too 

Damage is done 
Blames all your own 
I lived for you only 
Not that you cared 
Not that you knew 

Can’t go on like this no longer 
Just existing in shadow 
Don’t walk through me again 
Don’t, don’t you dare 

Bun halo, burn 
I’m taking you down 
All we could have been 
You just wouldn’t see 
All the love for you, living in me 

Damage is done 
Blames all your own 
I lived for you only 
Not that you cared 
Not that you knew 



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Simply my heart

With a heavy heart and a nervous touch I write to you
With all the willpower I possess I continue this charade
I feel heavier with each heartbeat
Stronger and yet weaker,
Unable to process that which weakens me so

I know the inevitable approaches,
That constructed world I pray for
The one I hope and cry for
I know its ever-growing anguish seems almost too much

And then with a touch,
With but a word I am yours again,
Broken and happy
Just a flutter of your eye lashers makes my heart skip
Your breath like that of the world itself
Sending shivers through me, a cooling warmth
Adrenaline sets in and I care not

All I want is you, all I care for is our little world
Ignore all reality, basking in each other’s glory

And then before it can even begin to gather to climax
you vanish from me again,
The waves of fear and anguish set in
I am left as a crushed husk

It is as though I have you and yet will never have you
I fear it still, and yet I turn not away
I turn to you, embrace the inevitable pain
Basking in the euphoric glory when you are in my arms
The feel of your breath
The warmth of your skin
The tingle as I brush you gently
Drinking in all that you are, in total being

I come to accept this now. 
If you are ever mine then it will be a miracle
A joyous miracle, and yet still that shot in the dark
That dark that is banished with your eyes

I could fall into you, into lust, into ecstasy.
Into purest joy.
The light you bring into my life is more than I can take
And yet I want it all for myself, 
I want to bask in it always, until life has its last breath
I need not the sun, nor the moon, nor the stars.
I have the purest light of them all.
You.

And to you, my dearest heart
I cry one last tear,
Breathe one last breath
And then delve into you once more
If only to experience that which breaks me more each day.

Until you are mine, I will always be broken
You can make me whole, you alone
I wish for your happiness, but I am selfish
As I believe you would be happiest with me.


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Desperate Escape

I'm scared to walk alone
Down the bloody street of this warzone
Everyone slumps and groans
And fall into their death, all still alone

I can feel their pain
Suffering on their face is plain
There's a risk of rain
To wash away them all, and I'm still alone

My lover twists beneath the paranoia
All my friends cringe at the thought of annoyance
It's building, soon the bombs will start their seance
Til then I smile alone

Corpses in red tape
Victims of the desire of escape
Crowds with mouths agape
Stare and feel nothing, all so alone

Smoke's filling the air
Drugs and arson together help them bear
The pain but they don't care
Who all has to die, crying alone

My best friend and I sit with the fan going
Remembering brighter days with the wind blowing
With every day, the flow of dreams keeps slowing
Til we're left all alone

So scared to walk alone
Not afraid to die, but to be known
As the voice behind the phone
When I say I'm sick of being alone


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Mental Masochism

Welcome to the old you Hello, Hello, Despair so Crude, Dreams are gone Yet we still follow the old Path Where empathy kills And the Sympathy we find is another Lie You were born to deceive A puppet-master of emotion Back off this fixation while you have a chance Who Would Want To Be This Cold? Sorrow-- My Emotional High Who Would Want To Be This Cold? Better to be Frozen than Numb Who Would Want To Be This Cold? Exchange pleasure for pain It's all coming t you The facade of Joy falls again Violet Hearts crush easy Your Pain you don't Want this Your Sorrow, You Want This Back off this fixation while you have a chance Who Would Want To Be This Cold? Sorrow-- My Emotional High Who Would Want To Be This Cold? Better to be Frozen than Numb Who Would Want To Be This Cold? Back off this fixation while you have a chance Who Would Want To Be This Cold? Sorrow-- My Emotional High Who Would Want To Be This Cold? Better to be Frozen than Numb Who Would Want To Be This Cold?


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In My Life - FEAR Doesn't Exist Here

I was caved in by the cravings of my heart The darkness once ripped me apart But, you repaired me and I recovered pretty fast So, please listen up! I must tell you about my good and bad past Fear doesn’t exist here Get a grip on the rope of hope All anxieties are gone We dream on like daydreamers, awaiting another great, delight-illuminated dawn I’ll love you until my life is no more I’ll love you, even if you have strayed into the darkness I love you from the bottom of the ocean to the heavens above I’ll love you – I won’t get over you and you’re my love at first sight – you were and still are a dazzling, surreal sight – you kiss me and I’m overwhelmed with passionate bliss I will love you if you would step out of the abyss with me I’m fearless to say that I used to bleed out remorse Before I met you…of course I used to cry myself asleep because I felt so alone Before I met you, I was on my own
V.4 I loved you and you had no clue – that would be outtah the blue if I told you I can relate to you – I’ve placed my foot into your shoe I’ve been sick with the love flu too Your words – they stick to my brain like a cancer It’s driving me insane – my future’s a blur If only I can have her (in my life) In my life, in my life I had to face encounters that bruised me with endless strife This teenager’s crazy infatuation slits me with a knife – it’s painfully pleasurable to have the hotts for her – one day, she’ll be my wife! *chorus* I never had the man guts to say that you saved me from the death’s snare But, I must tell you someday, so that you’re aware That you are someone special in my heart – I can’t conceal the truth of what I feel for you deep inside
In my life, in my life, I’m still stuck in the solitary cave In my life, in my life, I thought I wasn’t at all brave I was caved in by the cravings of my heart The darkness once ripped me apart But, you repaired me and I recovered pretty fast So, please listen up! I must tell you about my good and bad past Fear doesn’t exist here Get a grip on the rope of hope


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Anguish

Without you I can't live dear 
I miss you and my heart is in fear 

The fear of awful loneliness 
Without you it’s all uneasiness

Every minute I miss you and cry 
In my heart the anguish is so high 

When we were together we never ever fret
Now, you see with my tears the room is all wet 

I see you often in my dreams 
I love your presence in all forms 

To ease myself I stared at the bud 
I felt your presence in the form of a bud 

Slowly the bud changed itself to a flower 
In front of me that I tend to bother 

Come, I want to see you in real 
I want to feel you in great deal 

My heart is weeping and calling you 
My soul is all the time searching you  

Listen to me 
Come to me 


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LOST

looking back i see i never stopped to think of me,i was wrapped up in what could have been and what never was. lost,and i want to succeed no rescue, i can not breath we belong to our own greed An evening of disease faith will never belong to me take a walk through the weeds in my heart. lost,and want to be found we belong to our pain and this pain. i hope you never breath.


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Is It You

You are my Hope You are My truth You are my Love You are the reason For me I can't do this Alone always be there for me and I'll promise to Live


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The Surface Seams

My faith in the mirror reversed
A fear in the lake of my soul
As the surface reflects my love
The depth of my pain will just not let go

The paradox pulls me down
The sun only shines after night
Am I certain I can be true
When it was darkness that gave me light?

Sinking deeper beneath the dreams
The mirror has swallowed me whole
Has the lake taken all I am?
Has the fear become my soul?

Transfixed by the deepest loss
The life by the lake has gone
There’s nothing left to believe
All thought has become so wrong

My memory replays the past
That day I was by the lake
Now I recall what I had done
I had reached down to touch my face

Like waking from evil dreams
I’m staring into the sky
I look over and see myself
Beside the lake where I thought I’d died


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Leaving

Lost in a world I try so hard to remember these days the days (of yore) we're together Lost in an open Place you know they're never coming back never coming back Alone now So Alone now we're Alone now Done and Gone I'm Alone You're leaving


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To Be Alive

(To be alive is one thing but to live is another) born into world where settlement rules out purpose for life. Which leads to the one percent controlling the world. Which leads to society being comfortable with the current conditions and obstacles  place in front of them. Which leads to no room for greater evolution. Which leads to turmoil amongst our culture and our community. Which leads to crime in America and manipulation of minds. Which leads to no hope for most.


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Only She Cries

What If I told You That I Loved you
would we care
would we die
 Chains surrounding Alice
Only She Cries
 
World Banished her
Love left her
all Alone
Melancholia presides over
 
Alice dies again
Will she ever reign
 
Will she ever see
what’s here to be
Only She Cries
 
She’s a ghost
Nobody to call Her name
Only She Cries
will she not live
whispers of her Raven mind
only control her
There’s no hope
Only she Cries
What If I told You That I Loved you
 
 
Empty Without a savoir
Will She ever be cured from this
will she breakaway
Gaia couldn’t be so cruel
Just to wail away—Let the Banshee Crie
Just wail away the pain
wail away the pain
 
Enter my heart and you’ll see
that Was the only thing you could ever need
Alice; only she cries
let it show
That love never dies
Through Euphoria
through melancholia
 
 
She’s a ghost
Nobody to call Her name
Only She Cries
will she not live
whispers of her Raven mind
only control her
There’s no hope
Only she Cries
What If I told You That I Loved you
 
 
She’s a ghost
Nobody to call Her name
Only She Cries
will she not live
whispers of her Raven mind
only control her
There’s no hope
Only she Cries
What If I told You That I Loved you
 
 
You didn’t know
how you could save her
Only if you could her
Alice dies
Only she cries


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Virginia

                  

He’s calling you home now
To see the friends you love 
From the mountains so wide 
It’s now the beginning of life 

So remove yourself from you
And let your soul live on 
Don’t worry bout me 
I’ll see you on the other side

Oh Virginia, we see your smile now
From the heavens above
To the lands far below
So please wipe your fear away
Everything’s gonna be ok
Oh Virginia, we see your smile 

So you move on away
From the mountain to the valley 
Finding his gentle hand 
Guiding you all the way home

Oh sweet, sweet beautiful you
The time is nearly here
I will find myself a path 
For you to one day be proud 

Oh Virginia, we see your smile now
From the heavens above
To the lands far below
So please wipe your fear away
Everything’s gonna be ok
Oh Virginia, we see your smile

Oh Virginia, we see your smile now
From the heavens above
To the lands far below
So please wipe your fear away
Everything’s gonna be ok
Oh Virginia, we see your smile


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Bipolar

     BIPOLAR
Sometimes I can feel a magic like I've never known.
I could run a thousand miles. Run a thousand miles.
Sometimes it's more like I'm dying here all alone.
Sometimes I think I'll die alone.

Euphoria. Then I'm down down down
Euphoria. Then I'm down down down. Euphoria.

Sometimes I can reach out for you, but you're made of stone.
I could die a thousand times. Die a thousand times.
Sometimes it's more like you're showing me I'm not alone.
Sometimes I think I'm not alone.

Euphoria. Then I'm down down down
Euphoria. Then I'm down down down. Euphoria.

Euphoria then I'm down down down.
Euphoria then I'm down down down.
     © ron wilson


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Dissociation

I see a better world that I can use Its far from you And inside me The reality is too much to handle anymore It's a place we all can love A place where all angels dwell Burnt in my mind everything you've done to me It saves me to go away It's my internal prison It's my only safe-haven I'm my mind there is a place That only I can control Your misery will haunt me no more As Long as I'm in my own reality You will be no more It's deep enough where you will never find But open enough to keep expanding I will not be stapled by your dominance anymore This is it i will take a stand A sky with death In it's smile Rolls across the night It seeks to know what is wrong And the thing is you I'm my mind there is a place That only I can control Your misery will haunt me no more As Long as I'm in my own reality You will be no more I'm my mind there is a place That only I can control Your misery will haunt me no more As Long as I'm in my own reality You will be no more I'm my mind there is a place That only I can control Your misery will haunt me no more As Long as I'm in my own reality You will be no more


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What a Lost Soul

Since I am Here The Veil grows Stronger but, You're not here for me I'm just-- Another Lost Soul you know, The people you find on the curbs on streets, During Rainy Days not going anywhere but Deeper into their own Disease but, It's not a disease, for they look for cures for diseases Here the patient cares not Only I could say something like that but since I'm here I just might as well sit on the curb on a rainy day and drown in a new-state-disease what A lost soul I am never enough could satisfy always more What a Lost Soul


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Cursed abscond

Disaffection            Contemptible 
Inaction 
Always disappointing 
 A life filled with abjection 

A bitterness following 
A black clouded – sadness – infliction 
Running in retrogress           run from her apathy 
False heartedness                               filled with antipathy 

Praying for death 
 in my godless ministry 

Suffering so ruthless 
Without any sympathy 
Without you I'm useless 

Opprobrious eyes           demand I abscond 
For she's a shell 
that is now loveless 
Now selfish 
 now dies 
Her hand is now gone 
In my hands now I cry. 


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Deep in Many Men

There's this lie that's fallen deeply
In the hearts of many men
This is why, only maybe,
I've hated her for her sins

Look at me, please darling please, 
It's your eyes so piercing
I love it though it's wrong I know
Can't you see?
You were always KILLING ME!

It's the things that may go bump in the night
It's the things that have come to take your life

There's a cry that's buried deeply
In the hearts of many men
It's the fear of dying alone
Being alone I fear no more


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Tumbling Collapse

When the mental walls
Come crashing down
You cannot help
But hear the sounds
Of the terrified screams
Above it all
Your existence was condemned to fall

Where will you be on your judgement day
Will you have gone all the way
Or will you have to pay
The ultimate price
Of a life filled with sin
Turn against Him
And you cannot win

As you stand at the gates
You're amazed
And you're shocked
To find out
That they are eternally locked

Now forced to spend eternity
Surrounded by the flame
In the end
Was it worth denying his name

So now's not the time
To regret all your decisions
After spending ten seconds
In your manifested prisons
With maddening and subliminal voices
Torturing your soul
Feeding off your fears and dreams
For It's sick and twisted goals
Attempting
To set your eyes astray
By making you say that He's in the way

Your mind is on fire
Confused by desire
Are you ready to conspire
And have all things go dire


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Reflection

My wounds that should heal by now still hurt with affliction.
Tears drops flow from my eyes like if they are in a mission to make a river.
I want to scream to the fours walls of my room but its like i don't have a voice.
I have created this intense desire to push the walls in my life that avoid me from being free.

Its like i have poison in my blood
Poison that seems its not lethal. 
If can release it and all evil inside of me with this depression.
Release without blood and just heal these wounds.

I want a hug. 
I want love
Someone to understand me but it seems like the Lord is the only one that stands by my side.
The only loyal one that never leaves me or betrays me in my moments of anguish.

Confused I am and in a war with my own self.
If its friendships or boyfriends that affects me one way or another.
It hurts my feelings.
They say i have is issues like if they don't.

One day i will be free from this destruction that want defeat me.
One day i will smile to those walls and peace will fill my soul.
Harmony will smile at me and true friendship will be my best friend.
Love will be my left hand and the Oh Mightily Lord in the right hand as my guide.


Details | I do not know? | |

Love ain' t a power strip

I look into your eyes
I see the fear 
he brought into your life
If u don't do something 
or if you do it wrong 
he raises his hand at you 
then fear for your life

I've seen this happen so many times 
One of these nights 
You should walk out and leave
Don't let that man 
Control you 

If that guy really loved you 
Why does he smack you around
What is with him always being in power
Love is love not a power strip

Don't let him hurt you 
Don't let him scare you done
Don't feel embraced about the marks
Don't think that he is winning 

One of those days raise your hand back
Don't get scared 
Cause girl I backing you up 
love is a special thing 
Don't get me wrong
But love ain't a power strip

He wants all the power 
He wants you too
He has to learn 
Your a good girl 
Not a play toy 

I see your fear 
when I look in to your eyes
I know he raises his hand 
all the time at you girl 

Don't be scared 
let him know you fight back 
Don't leave him win 
fear ain't love 
and love ain't' a power strip


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Aude Sapare: Drunk On Communion

He who claims to know no fear of death
Falls with the poisoned wine of lies
Upon his lips;
But he who may make this fear a friend
Shall grasp Eternity in the end.
His heart will open as his reason slips
As he feels upon his final breath
He dances as his spirit flies
And in that Space
Between the sea and sky
He sees the Beloveds' face
Eye to eye.

     Merge with the drops in the ocean of time,
     Drunk on communion with all things Divine.
     The Universe dances - how sweetly She sings!
     Through the manifest beauty in all living things
     The answer lies deep in the fruit of the vine,
     The lover finds love in the taste of his wine.

The stars shine in blackness
Whirling through infinite space
Casting their light 
On the unbounded dark;
We seek to stand firm, impressing our mark
On our lives swift and bright
Asking history to honor and to bless
Our efforts in this threshing-floor race.
We all are unbounded
United yet free,
The Beloved is with us
If we could but see.

     Step in the river and lose yourself there
     Dance 'round the fire without any care.
     The stars do their spiral dance over our heads
     We have all we want once desire is shed.
     For this is the answer, so simple and true:
     You live within me as I live within you.

To seek wealth and fame
Is to sail upon sand;
The thirst for possession 
Can never be quenched.
Ambition's a prison, your heart is entrenched
In small thoughts' concessions
You lose sight of the game.
Your freedom awaits you, just stretch forth your hand
The Beloved will embrace you
And win you to Truth;
Then dance with you, smiling
Eternal in youth.

                                        
                                         Aude Sapare
                                         Aude Sapare
                                         Aude Sapare

                               Om....Om....Om...Om...Om


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Lover Scorn

Love and fear fill all our hearts
Its what you do with it that matters
Love can bring you joy 
Love can bring you pain
Love can drive you completely insane
Fear will take over your mind
Memories of horrors you fear to find
But if you can get past this point 
I promise love will not disappoint
Like the first time you smoked a joint
The feeling will take over all that is you...
Making you forget all you went through
Love is not a toy,
It can bring pain or bring you joy
Don’t play with love, for this I warn
There is nothing in life worse
Then a lover scorn~


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Darkness Enclosing

Thrust into a nightmare
That will never let you go
So please don't try to run and hide
You know that I reside inside

Have you ever felt this vicious hate
Finding it difficult for you to eliminate
All these temporary states of rage
You've tried so desperately hard
To keep locked in their cage

These uncontrollable outbursts
Will only get worse
Is this making you feel
Like you're going to burst

Like a curse that extends
Beyond your wildest dreams
The extremely seductive
And supreme being

But now I fiend for the chances
Of hearing you scream
Is it possible for you
To understand what I mean

When I say that fear and malice
Have become your friends
Confirming your damnation
All the way up to the end

For me to administer
These sinister thoughts
In your brain
I drain the pain
From your veins
But to you it's the same

Now you claim that my game
Is what made you insane
But that's lame
Don't blame all your shame
On the things you became

Remember
I am just an illusion
That is created by using
All the effects of seclusion
In this so called delusion

I am taking you down without making a sound
This breakdown has been running you up into the ground

Your head's spinning faster and faster
As time seems to stand still
A subliminal mind trip
Refusing free will

My magic spell
Has got itself twisted around you
And you have no idea
What the hell you should do

So just sit back
And let yourself try to unwind
And find out how
I took control of your mind

Releasing the beast
Enraging the fire
I will not retire
Until you expire


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Follow me and Fly

Extend your arms apart like wings.
Let your body go like bird falling from its nest.
Let the air blow like its kissing you with desired love.
Make your Arms extend like if they are wings of a bird.

Like parachutes in mid air let your soul come out,
Let the colors of the rainbows bloom.
Let pain be kidnaped and pawn your affliction
Leave those two in slavery forever with no return.

Leave sadness in the locked cage of darkness.
Lock it and vanish the key for eternity.
Once you gotten rid of these put on your wings and be ready.
Fly with me towards happiness.

With your strong wings we fly with the wind.
Happiness will kiss our wounds
Pain becomes nothing, Fear doesn't exist
Flying forward and enjoying our heart with the heavens.


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Cause and Clarity

The fear in not knowing why
The fearful control your dreams
Where nothing will let it die
Controlled by your bitter needs

Various levels of evil rule
This politic has no name
Because if it was clear to you
We would exit this deadly game

So we bleed and we suffer hate
Poisoned without a home
With a fear that steals our fates
To resist is to die alone

This martyr will raise his voice
No matter what you will say
As long as I have a choice
And as long as I know my name

Every fear will rise to meet
The fearless speaking truth
Though the lost never want to see
I will not suffer your self-abuse


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The Dark Ones

Little shadows,
Evil hearts…

Watch all of you, fall apart!

Eyes so red,
This horrible pain that’s in your head –

It brings you down…
To, this place you call… hell.

[So now you’re going down
And,
I’ll tell you this
There’s no way out.]

Watch this now,
These heartless pricks –

But don’t be fooled,
For we have one more
And, there it is
Standing at that door.

All it can say to you now  is…

[You’re going down
There’s no way out
So give up now,
You’re full of doubt
You’re falling down]

Keep this thought
Were with you here,
Just hear me out,
We’ll help you dear.

For you cannot see,
Through these blind red eyes
That you are here,
You’re with us now –

Don’t hold it in,
Let it out
The truth is here…
You are, one of us.


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Shoot To Kill

Press me in
Turn me out
Fill me up with doubt
I’m a blank slate here
You can write it in clear
Who you think I am
What I’m all about
One word can tear my walls down
And one chance can turn my fate around
A moment can take you away
Take you to a better day

It’s all by chance
So I think I’ll roll the die
Pray I may advance
Cause I’m just getting by

Truth is I don’t know what I’m doing here
I’m not seeing anything clear
It all goes dark and I lose my sight
I know it’s time to stand and fight

Cause when all that mattered is lost
And the monsters steal your will
You’ve got to count the cost
And just shoot to kill


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The Time Is Now

Living in a fast paced world,
Vehicles jam the roads, hurriedly passing by.
People rushing to and fro,
They seem in such a hurry,
Taking no time to enjoy, no time to say hello,
Missing out on the important things of life.
So many diseases, pain and suffering,
So many tears, so much misery,
Death seems to be everywhere.
Look on the streets, look in the shelters,
People lost, alone, nowhere to go.
Crimes continue to scare many,
All we read and hear about day to day.
People scared to leave their homes,
Safety is no longer secure.
Teenagers with nothing to do,
Lost in life, lost in love.
For pleasures they turn to crime and drugs,
They talk of suicide and some follow through.
Children scared and alone,
Abuse and neglect fills their home.
Parents so involved with their own lives,
Striving to make a buck,
Striving to reach the top,
No longer take time to care.
People afraid to go to school
For fear a student will lose control.
Disasters both natural and man created,
Wars upon wars both near and far,
Destroying numerous lives, never ending.
People fearing the name of God,
Has now made it the golden rule:
Thou shalt not speak His name,
Thou shalt not kneel and pray,
Now we fear the consequence.
You ask why and He tells us so:
“My time is near, 
All these and much more will happen before I come.
Look to Me, come to Me.
I gave My life for thee that you may live.
Accept My gift of salvation.
Please believe in Me.
The time is now!”


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THE STORM

 

As I looked across the prairie and watched the growing storm.
   You could almost picture God's anger, and the strength of His mighty arm.
You could feel the tension building as the air becomes so electrified.
   The stillness in the air as I stand here with fear I could not hide.
From beautiful blue skies to total darkness in the twinkling of an eye.
   The raw and awesome power as he exhales yet another sigh.
From a whirlwind stirring up the loose debris along the canyon floor.
   To the torrential rain that fell in sheets as I stood behind closed doors.
You cannot grasp the power of God that He has at His command.
   Or the love He has to give to those if they truly understand.
He can still the winds with just a word or let destruction reign.
   We must follow in His path and not the ways of Cain.
The Lord Is my Shepherd are the words that soothe my very soul.
   And being received into Heaven is truly my ultimate goal.
After a storm has come and gone, the air is cleansed and pure.
    Like the cleansing of our soul if we accept our Savior as the cure.
Life is always full of storms as we journey down its path.
   Trust the Lord and fear the Lord and know the power of our Fathers mighty 
wrath.


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I Fear Again

I fear again. Now I’m worried 
Because my happiness is lasting.
I’m shaking with fear - I’m terrified.
Today I am happy and trusting.

I know, this state is not normal;
An attack has to come in a while.
The sweet happy day can be final,
The next hour may be a trial.

I must do something in self-defense.
Oh, yes! I should get myself ready.
I should build a high wall or a fence
To fight it off - nothing is steady...

I fear. I’m trusting less and less.
I’m worried again. I can’t stand it.
Oh! How to keep the happy whiles?
My sneaky enemy! Wait a minute!


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The Lighter Path

There are feathers in the forest
Attempting to ascend
But the breeze has been rejected
And the world can not commence

Alchemists by nature
Scientists by lore
But with this sight unending
It’s easier to crawl

I translate the deepest centre
I let the silence rage
I won’t believe your answers
When your fear burns the page

Poison to command it
Death to hide away
But in the truth I feel this
And I know I’ll find the way

The feathers know the meaning
That they will still ascend
And beyond their fear of rising
There’s a love that never ends


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Response to Vince Suzadail

"Oh Vince my dear"
Need not fear 
It's not that we don’t stand a chance
I just see the wicked in a glance
Yes there are wonderful likeable humans
I wish we could all be Truman’s
Never fear I do see my glass half full 
Perhaps I’m stubborn as a bull 
Please don’t think I’m always the black 
But let it be know where the luster may lack 
For my messages are not meant to hurt 
Only to help and sound an alert 
Humans have come a long way 
But some in my eyes need to pray! 


(A note to Vince in good will )


Details | I do not know? | |

So Kind to Me (Angel of Sadness)

Because you were so kind to me 
For you I’ll play this melody 
Strangle my thoughts with your sympathy 
These wishes I demanded you be 
As I reached for stars only I could see 
Now your voice seems so muffled and unclear 
How I selfishly made this choice in fear 
I’ve placed my want on things I do not need 
The sadness in my greed 
This stranger I have become 
But because you were so kind to me 
I admit these trials in just of guilt 
As your tears wash away my musk and filth 
You witness me self destruct without dying 
So disappointing to have a mission 
And not accomplish your dreams 
A peaceful gathering 
In an abundance of our scenes 
Because you were so kind to me 
For you only I’ll play this melody 
Only in time will I grow to apologize 
Who do I think I am 
Afraid that only in fear 
You look me in my eyes 
Now your pain has scared my knees 
A day in a life lived in ease 
Your every tear disguised as me 
Because you were so kind to me