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Shadows In My Mind

Darkness brings the shadows
Of places I have been
Memories loom in corners
Rattling in the wind
Sometimes whispers haunt me
Never letting go
Race across the star shine
Answers left unknown
Reaching blindly through the night
Someone to hold close
Only to find vapors
Drifting down like tears
Shadows never listen
'Till the morning light
Then I'll follow sunrise
Far into my mind

Then I'll follow sunrise

                          Far into my mind




02/09/13
© All Rights Reserved


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No dark shadows block what dreams may come...

.                               
                                      
                                        When I feel alone and sad
                                               lying on my bed
                                            I hold on to my pillow
                                                I close my eyes
                                                  I think of you
                                                     You are
                                        My Star, My Sun, My moon
                                               shining up my sky
                                           No dark shadows block
                                           what dreams may come
                                                    You are 
                                              all I ever wanted
                                          You take away my blue.
                                         When I feel alone and sad
                                        I dream away,Feeling myself
                                            Sleeping close to you
                                           You caress my cheeks
                                                You kiss my lips
                                       You whisper,"Love you true"
                                              You brush my tears
                                              My doubts and fears
                                                      You are
                                          My Star,My Sun,My moon
                                                shining up my sky
                                           No dark shadows block
                                          what dreams may come
                                                     You are
                                               all I ever wanted
                                          You take away my blue.
  



               Inspired by(http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=uJRLi73uGBE)
                           







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Fear of death

The fear of death

When I was a young man, a great fear of dying
Did bother my mind all the while
I’d dream I did murder, I’d dream I got murdered
Till one day I forgot how to smile
The dread of old age would torture me daily
And I was so scared of the dark
The joy of my life it just kind of faded
And often the terror was stark

Then one day I had me, this wonderful dream
This dream saw me lying there dead
But I was still there, looking down from the ceiling
All peaceful with no sign of dread
I learned from that day that death is the kind one
When the fear of him does dissipate
Then death will come out like a beautiful mother
As she rides on the breeze of ones fate

Now always , I live in the true hand of faith
For life always knows what is best
So I will relax as I’m held in her bosom
As she takes me away for a rest
The story goes on, and it will do forever
Cause life, well it never can die
I’m part of the trees, And I ride on the breeze
For I am that wholeness, am I.

5 July 2013 @ 1107hrs.


















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Black Rain

~BLACK RAIN~

Another rainy stormy night,
nothing will ever feel the same.
Thunder makes me fear with fright,
Theirs no way to call your name.
To be alone is no delight,
here I am alone with shame.
It runs trough me like day and night,
lonesome here for playing my game.
I wish you where here to hold me real tight.
Forgive me for I am  the only one to blame.

A darken rainy stormy night!
Here I whither away in the BLACK RAIN!
In that selfish moment I did not realize,
all I was doing was causing myself pain.
You took and shook me with a big surprise!
And, showed me that my cheating had nothing to gain.
With you in distance I lose my self,
sitting all alone in the BLACK RAIN.

BLACK RAIN, BLACK RAIN!
Please stop the pain, its my love I want to gain.

Tears from me you wouldn't take.
It was my fault to take the fall.
It does not mean my love to you was fake.
Without you I feel real small.
The hurt runs deep~Deeper than a lake!
The hurt runs high~Higher than the tallest wall!
The hurt is heavy~something you can't shake!
The hurt is like a mystery~you can't solve at all! 
BLACK RAIN!

How these cloud posses my days,
I have no one to blame
If I knew exactly what to say,
I would not be feeling all this pain.
BLACK RAIN,
is here to stay!
I have lost what took long to gain.

BLACK RAIN, BLACK RAIN,
please go away!
I want my lover to come back my way.

  ~SKAT POETRY~
     Oct-1996

inspired by:  Rain Rain Go Away.... :)


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Moments In Time

The sweetest sounds of burning trees
A gentle stroking in the breeze
The calm has lasted past the storm
Cloudy visions, Satan’s roar
Too many sights have passed my way
A time found only in the haze
The softest screams are running bare
My aching bones creak as I stare

You walk a distance towards me
The fall’s eternal, can’t you see?
I’m a memory in your heart
I whisper to you in the dark

The battle’s started at the end
No one is coming to repent
The sinners grab their wine from prey
No judgment calling here to stay
The sport is reckless to be told
The one is laughing at his souls
It falters nowhere to be sure
The power grows forevermore
Like a spirit in the wind
I have no say in where you’ve been 
But cross the line to come to me
And pay the price for ecstasy

You walk a distance towards me
The fall’s eternal, can’t you see?
I’m a memory in your heart
I whisper to you in the dark. 


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From The Glowing Embers

You glow deeply like a warm summer's night,
while I shine brightly as the sun -
opposite puzzle pieces of dark and light,
complementary pieces that fit just right,
causing time itself to come undone.

Through thick and thin,
virtue and sin,
you could be poor, you could be rich,
you ease the edge, you ease the itch.

I will love you more than power and money,
breathe in the essence you emote,
taste your mysterious honey,
sweet and golden down my throat.

When you're right, when you're wrong,
this is all part of our love song.
You satiate my appetite,
leaving just enough room
for me to sip up your tears,
sip up your remaining gloom,
until we have conquered our fears,
and there is nothing left but light.

When the temperature turns colder,
as we become frail and older,
from out of the glowing embers
of our Autumn, late September,
there will appear a most precious gem,
causing me to reminisce all over again
about that long-ago fateful spring,
when we began our passionate fling.

And after all these years, I still sing:


"You glow deeply like a warm summer's night,
while I shine brightly as the sun -
opposite puzzle pieces of dark and light,
complementary pieces that fit just right,
causing time itself to come undone."









December 26th, 2011


Entered into David Williams' "Romance" contest
Name: Chri.stop.her
Form: Rhyme (mixed)


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Doubt

Get thee behind me, Doubt
There are dreams I belong to, don’t touch me yet again
Your vice has me in this schizophrenic turmoil 
Don’t play with me, please, I cant surrender 
The serpent coil of your dark moves tighten 
Excruciating loss of naïve hopes
Scattered like phantoms on a lifeless night
The fever of a beginning, already parched
I stand frozen tonight
Fingertips hush an unspoken lie
Scared, my arms around my future, I hug
Shivering from memories of a past gone wrong
I look his way, 
Would he find his way around my madness?
Would he stay?...


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From The Peircing Of An Arrow To The Cold Hearted Fate Of love

her life is on the tip of his tongue
the sparkle leaves her eyes
an arrow to his chest
drawing her to her death
a feather falling from the sky
the death of an angel
her wings turn blood red
like the color of the red sea
the sword drawn out of the ground
by her own hands
what he could not do himself
she has done for him
He falls unto to his knees
the arrow she had put into his chest
the greatest of betrayals
She asked for her death wish
Holding the ring in her palm
He looks into her eyes
watching the love she had left for him disappear
Falling into despair
Her face hitting the ground
Blood surrounded her body
He watched as she died
He couldn't move from the love that had pierced his chest


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NO LIGHT WITHOUT YOU

I remember when you were only a name
I remember the first day we met
I remember how I made you laugh
So many moments I'll never forget

Do you remember that autumn day walk
Do you remember when I held your hand
Do you remember how we kissed
The day I became your man

You were air, I breathed you in
You were music to my beating heart
You were the best dream I ever had
Then I woke up and we were apart

Now I close my eyes night and day
I'd trade the world for one more dream
Girl, I look for you in every 
crowd
This reality is so unkind and mean

Since you've been gone I can't sleep
The thought of dreaming is a fantasy
The sun's high but it's midnight
There's no light without you for me

No light without you
Night memories make me blue
No light without you
No dreams will be coming true
No light without you 
No light without you for me

Date: 7-6-14


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Shades of Darkness

Shades of Darkness
touch my soul
I can feel it
devouring me whole
leave me be
let me drown
I'm the one
who let you down
do not expect
my loving devotion
do not believe
my apologies to you
for naught is right
with myself
and I must leave now
and carry my Shades of Darkness, too


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Ragdoll

Heartbeat slows,
Limbs grow cold,
Memory recalling constant turmoil. 

Memories recanted,
Moments fade to blackness.
This is it. 
Time to release these demons. 

Red lines decorate your paper skin, 
No one knows the secrets within.
You’re so delicate. 
Fragile design, 
Hypocrites delight. 

Stitch up your seams, 
Don’t let them see you bleed. 
Wretched and torn, 
You’re hollow. 

Maybe when you’re gone, 
They’ll understand. 
Hindsight is always clear when measuring the aftermath. 

They didn't know you anyway, 
You know they never cared. 
Released from your endless despair.


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dysfunctional

It’s my life not expecting you to understand it
A man who when he was a boy his mother abandoned
Alienated like I arrived from another planet
While you were with your family joking, laughing and eating a peanut butter sandwich
I was moved from foster families and children’s homes
Surrounded by people but feeling alone
 Everything I go through is some kind of building zone
Treated differently because I’m not wanted or loved by my dad, sister mum or brother
Feel like everyone trying to get to know me is working undercover
So the first thing I do is run for cover
Opposites attract I’m cold inside does that make me summer’s lover?
Being uncomfortable makes me comfortable
I feel safe being vulnerable
I’ll be the first to say I’m dysfunctional
Am I supposed to lie and say everything all great and wonderful?
Should I already understand and know it all?
You belittle me but I’m still growing tall
You wanted me to catch but you didn’t even throw the ball
An insomniac and I know Money can buy a bed but not sleep
But how much would a meaningful hug cost me?
I could wish and pray to the sky
But that’s just not me
Anytime love got me
It seems that Luck lost me
So I Push away the people I want to stay by my side
The ones who are worth your tears won’t make you cry
I could do 99 good deeds for you
But you would count the mistakes I make in life
So I don’t even try no more
I don’t cry no more
Love no one trust no one, **** them all
If you want to walk out my life. Here let me hold the door


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The Downward Spiral (with a nod to NIN)

She sees herself suddenly as a small girl
bare feet on the cold black and white tile
little toes curled
sees the white porcelain tub and
how pretty the light blue water was
so deep it almost came to her chin
as she climbed in

For hours she'd play with her dime store sailboat
loving it though it would hardly float
always taking on water
listing, never level
her wet skinny back hunched over
shoulder blades like primordial wings
every few minutes she'd have to shake the thing

Trying desperately not to break the spell
of pretend
and when
it was time to let the water out
she'd always stay to watch the water drain
weighing the emotional pain
both fascinated and horrified,
as the suction intensified,
by the force of the water
the unstoppable slaughter
waiting for the inevitable rotation
to begin
the dizzying spin

Slowly at first growing faster and faster
a miniature cyclonic water disaster

The dime store boat of course on its side
circling faster in the relentless tide

Then the drain would give a horrible belch
much satisfied with itself.

As she grew the tub got smaller
with shallower water
less and less room
for pretend to bloom.

Years later, dime store sailboat long forgotten,
life having been mostly rotten
working with the most cynical of cynics
ER nurses bitter that it's more like a clinic
runny noses and coughs that folks thought were urgent
working hard to save those who were truly emergent

Hearing from them the phrase: "circling the drain"
memories suddenly flooding the brain
almost able to feel herself as that young girl
watching the sailboat beginning to swirl

Feeling the blood drain, face going pale
she sees vividly the boat with its bright red sail
yellow hull and blue plastic deck
fine hairs rising on the back of her neck

She realizes now the fatigue of age
is from fighting the pull with defiant rage

The closer you get, the faster you spin
and soon the dark whirlpool draws you in

With a knowledge that seems to be purely primal
she now understands the downward spiral

And she knows that she will not put up a fight
she'd rather go silently in the dark of the night

And the dime store boat comes to rest on its side
so it's all come full circle at the end of the ride.

SADNESS
©Danielle White


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Dead End Road

Been walking this road, with  two dead ends
Your memory keeps returning, again and again
The moon doesn't glow and the stars don't shine
And as I search for your face, I keep falling behind

I looked at my watch, seems it stopped yesterday
So I take a deep breath, and continue on my way
I stare at the darkness, and see nothing but black
As I listen for sounds, A chill crawls up my back

I've worn a hole in my shoe, a week ago today
My eyes are so tired, but  there's no where to lay
It's so dark and lonely, as I try to keep pace
For this dead end road, has taken your place

My mind starts to worry, if you'll ever return
As the dark turns to gray, your arms I still yearn
I realize were through, as I rest for awhile
For I no longer can search, or walk one more mile

I've worn a hole in my shoe, a week ago today
My eyes are so tired, but  there's no where to lay
It's so dark and lonely, as I try to keep pace
For this dead end road, has taken your place


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Put a bullet in my brain

Put a bullet in my brain
as the rain sweeps her out of my arms
and places her into another's.
Put a bullet in my brain
for I don't want to see love slip away
please end my suffering,
for I don't want to dare see her in the arms of another man.

I fear the tear that slips away from my soul
and touches the ground with a splash
as she is washed away by the lashed memories of the rain,
please, someone put a bullet in my brain.

I can't bear to see her with another man
laying in his arms
as he charishes her beauty
just like I did to her.
As she smiles and laughs at his jokes
my heart would not bare the sorrow and pain
that would tare my heart apart into pieces of tainted love.
Please tell the rain to stop,
as the pain grows when rain comes down,
please someone end my suffering,
put a bullet in my brain
and stop the rain
that washes away every memory of her.

Stop saying you miss me
and just kiss me
for I can't take the pain
of the rain that takes you away.
Kiss me and stop saying you miss me
for those are useless words to me.
Love is where it's at, so show me.
Don't go with him, he'll treat you wrong.
Love and laugh with me till the break of dawn
as we yawn the long night away.

Kiss me and don't say you miss me.
For if you go away from me,
I couldn't bare to take a tear and waste it away.
Tears, sweet tears crying for you,
doesn't that mean anything to you?
I ask you, stop the rain,
stop the pain and put that bullet in my brain.

Let the red blood flow from my temples.
Let the plow dig my grave,
for I can't bare to see you with another
in his arms, him kissing you, where I kissed you.
I can't take it, I have to make it,
make that pain go away.
Prayer didn't help, God turned a blind eye
when I came up and said why!
Put that bullet in my dome
and when I lay in the coffin, looking at the roof of the church
you come and kiss me, and then you can really say
that you'll miss me.


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Special

To capture the attention everyone else gets but you
You do whatever you can to get it
Even if its bad
You continue to do it
To get the attention you never had
And the attention you will never get
You want the perfect body and soul that everyone else has
You want to feel important... special
So you seek for a better
Much higher thing
What you need
You dont quite know
But you decide that
You will do whatever it takes to make you happy
And sometimes
That means..
suicide
Sometimes it means
Shooting someone
Because the hole inside your heart needs filled
And thats the only thing you ever had
The only thing you see
The only thing that someone gave to you
The thing that got everyone talking about you
The thing that got everyone to even look at you
So if you decide to kill someone
You kill yourself afterwards
Because you felt lonely again
You felt that no one was watching you
That no one even cared 
Then you think about all the things that 
Bugged you
And you pull the trigger
Then theres no more you
Next time someone sees you
You will be on the news
Where now you are special
And important


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Dawn

Trying to hold our love together
'Seems I'm doing all the talking
She only stares and listens
Is she thinking about walking

'Been three long hours since midnight
And we're still so far apart
Oh I wonder which will break first
Dawn...or my heart

I watch her gaze fall away
To her bags on the hallway floor
Her eyes make their way past memories
To our bedroom door

Is it staying or leaving fears
What are those tears for
Oh I wonder which will break first
Dawn...or my heart

Dawn means everything to me
She's all that ever matters
Starts my day with sunshine
Makes the nights so much better

Now I'm begging her ......please
Don't leave me in the dark
Oh, I wonder which will break first
Dawn...or my heart



PROTECTED BY COPYRIGHT LAW



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Solipsist

Let the Deicide commence.

You're a voyeur at best!
Your vampiric heart is beating out of your chest!
And you have slayed the ones whom would love you for anything less
Ready to consume the final fragments of innocence,
And for you there is no forgiveness,
On your knees pleading, screaming to a tyrant in the skies;
The father of lies.

I will never be enslaved in your superiority
The people agree: jaded of your false dichotomies.
Know: I will be whomever nature intends to be
Apollo and I will share our dreams,
and you will be forced to see
your failure!

I know who you are...
Readily the first to present your scars
Chained by some despot or mental czar
An emotional homunculus in your mind, behind bars
Reluctant to escape - even when proven fake
Your demented mind - depths no one will penetrate!
 
...And you see me suffering
Not caring of any casualties
Just as long you recieve your safeguard of sympathy
So very wary of the masses and their Anarchy; Liberious ways

Solipsist - Is there no one you can see?
Even if she was presented burning?
Solipsist - Is there no one you can believe?
Even if Sophia was screaming?
Solipsist - Know you have killed and abused me
Imprisoned in your own  personal reality 




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Kingdom Lost

In summertime, the ivy climbs,
and hides the castle wall.
The king dreams of late,
that the sea is so great,
and yet - his boat is so small.
As swift as a fox and
dark as a raven on wing,
seven hundred soldiers march  
into the valley of the king.
Long overdue, a battle ensues
flanking the powers that be.
Children cry, and good men die, 
the monarch is now on his knee…
Soon the horsemen alone 
try to maintain the throne.
But the long way around
is the shortest way home.
The evening is filled
with chaos and smoke,
and the kingdom is 
stunned by it all…
Soon the sun will go down,
and in spite of his crown, 
the king will undoubtedly fall…
His rival’s strength
was mistaken,
by a king overtaken,
his life is now but a pawn.
His authority lifted,
the power has shifted –
an era of glory is gone…
 
 
Copyright © 2013
 


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Santa's Seeing Red

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Santa’s Seeing Red

Late one evening up at the pole
Santa was watching TV
He shook his head as he started for bed
After seeing how people could be
All night long he tossed and turned
I guess he just couldn’t let go
He saw a sleigh and watched burn
As it sat there in the snow
When he woke He realize 
That Christmas was actually dead
He couldn’t sleep with those sugarplums 
Dancing inside his head, Now it’s said
      Santa’s seeing red

That next morning, Santa was warming
His hands by a fireside
Someone had set the toyshop a flame
But there was no one,  to blame in site
The elves then noticed the deer were gone
Someone must have let them go
But they never seemed to take noticed 
There were no tracks left in the snow
That same day they had a feast 
But not a single word was said
About were all the meat came from
That was stuffed inside the bread, with Christmas dead
      Santa’s seeing red

After dinner Santa stood up
And laid off all of his crew
He said the world was so screwed up
There was nothing He could do
He said that people hearts were colder
Much colder than the Arctic’s air
They're filled with greed, and blind to the needs 
Of poor people everywhere, 
So Father Christmas will be no more
For the little girls and little boys
They can say goodbye to all of those treats 
And all those fricken' toys,  Because instead
     Santa’s seeing red

So when the twenty-fifth rolls by
You can treat it like another day
Santa’s found a new hometown
And a different game to play
He now sits back upon a beach
With women and booze he likes
Forgetting about frozen toes
And all of those silent nights 
So don’t you pout and you better watch out
For that lump of coal instead
You did your part now add to your cart
All the things that I’ve just said, and where it’s lead
     To Santa’s seeing red

Some say that giving is more blessed
And better than to receive
Santa will put you to the test
And see what you believe
So pass a man who’s homeless
Without reaching for a little doe
For what you do might follow you 
No matter where you go
Now you’re sitting on Christmas eve
Just thinking about what I’ve said
You’ll all miss your shiny gifts
But not the people without bread,  so stay bed
         Cause Santa’s seeing red
                        
So don’t look at the poor folks
Just look the other way
And Christ won’t be the only one
That’s missing on Christmas day, 
Just drink until you’re merry
And feast until you’re full
He knows that you’ve been naughty
Cause he’s not gullible 
So when you see him on the street
It’s a sight that you should dread
Cause he knows all your sins
And they're stored inside his head or so it’s said
         Santa’s seeing red


Now it’s time to anti up 
And dig into your stash
If you want him to stay quiet
Better cough up a little cash
And I think that you’ll remember
Christmas time every year
It’s time to give to Santa
Or live in constant fear
So you had better be real nice
And kick in a little bread
And you’ll better not think it twice
Or your reputation will be dead, like I said
Santa’s seeing red











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Black and White

You’ve maddened me to the core 
You singed me with your ferocious fire
We’re opposites… we’ll never integrate  
We can’t blend with each other…
Your love and I’m hate 
We’re contrary to each other…

So don’t even think about 
Getting us back together 
Because without a doubt, 
We don’t click with each other…

So let us go our own way…

Everything’s black and white
You love to torture me with your deceptive devices 
We’re playing this chess match – let’s fight!
Tonight, you’re going to pay the prices
You’re going to be deleted from my mind…

I’m not the one that should pay the price
You act as if you’re an angel from heaven
But, you’re a fiend…a devil from hell...who needs your advice?
Could someone unchain me from this prison?

So let us prepare for that day…

Fear and bewilderment build inside of our minds
Taking over us…we’re wasting valuable time
Terror and wrath injects into our veins…time starts to unwind 
I’m regaining my glory…this moment feels so sublime  

You think you’re innocent?
I can sense your guilt…bleeding through you
Do you live to feed me anguish? 
Don’t deny it…you crafty demon…no wonder I feel blue

Let’s get ready for battle…
I’ll watch you decay…
IT’S PAY BACK TIME . . .
Taste my fury and my agony 

Everything’s black and white
You love to torture me with your deceptive devices 
We’re playing this chess match – let’s fight!
Tonight, you’re going to pay the prices
You’re going to be defeated…

I scream before nightfall
I close my eyes to kiss my demise
I want to disappear 
Scratch away my desolation
Wipe away my tears…
Spewing out of my eyes…like a waterfall
Tonight, there will be dismay
There will be suffering 
After sundown…
Failure and glory will expose like stars in the midnight sky
Who will earn the crown? 
No one knows in silent wars – who can reveal the light in goodbye
  
Why are we black and white?
Are you too afraid to know the reason why? 

Everything’s black and white
You love to torture me with your deceptive devices 
We’re playing this chess match – let’s fight!
Tonight, you’re going to pay the prices
You’re going to suffer alone…


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Nyx - Ode


Strophe:

The shadows know the scent of cloves,
as Nyx devolves from sleep's crossroad,
the night-owls croak to domes above,
her ode the stars turns to abode.

Her firmness strings the scene's stillness,
her laughter waves in hung ether,
small hours' submit her thoughts' steepness,
advancing 'mid green heather.

The night birds watch - with eyes of amber
night wraiths descend from stardome flare,
upon a sky-drome meander
that ghostly travelers time-share.
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Antistrophe:

Brilliant's the moon in ventured glory,
above shapes lays and daunting wraiths,
her eminence surpassed souls' faith,
to hark the travelers' lone story.

And kind advanced to lands of blooms,
as night conveyed upon each breath,
she confers grand the kiss of death,
with fates to weave on lethal looms.
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Epode:

On darkened growth she shines dismal,
In Stygian reign she rules - abysmal,
enchanted souls shall dwell in void,
with Acheron's old paths destroyed.
-----
© G.V. 10-03-2012, All Rights Reserved
Nyx = Night


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Lacerated Wings

They are bound to the Earth like trees
Suffocating under the weight of an icy grave 
Reaching to be free, but only their limbs are seen
Hoping that one day someone will see:
They can't escape with lacerated wings

The ocean surrounds me, covering everything
Nothing will be clearly seen; confusion overwhelming
No-one can save you, you're on your own, left to die
Manipulating every bleeding heart you can find
I can't escape with lacerated wings.

Swarms of nets, waves of screams 
Entangle: your captive illusions and dreams
The mask has be seared - The truth now they see
The Liar - Vampiric Fiend; lowly thief
And now they know you can't escape with Lacerated Wings

There's reasons for your rejections:
Your Heavy heart's transferred oppression
The scars are too deep to pass the trials
But you can find peace in your cage of empty spirals
You Cannot Escape With Lacerated Wings


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Never Fight Alone

I got mad. Didn't know how to use my energy. So I made this song on the piano. I want to sing it with my brother when he's better. I hope he does get better soon. 
Dedicated to David. Just been so angry lately. And so sad. . .

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Verse I: (David) I was alone What can I say? I was lost Couldn't pray I was trapped In their games I regret it Everyday Verse II: (Laura) I was jaded By my sin Never sweated Anything Couldn't sleep Couldn't dream I was scared Of everything Chorus: (David) Within me lies a battle A war I just can't fight alone Can you hear me now? Will you hear me out? Before I lose the struggle I'm begging for some help right now We need to take a stand I need to be a man Laura: Your heart is in my hand Both: (You) I will not fight alone Verse IV: (David) I'm losing faith Can't find the way Can't erase The things I say I see the world Instant pain! If I'm anything I'm insane Verse V: (Laura) Don't talk that way! Just look at me! You are stronger Then I'll ever be! I pulled you in I pushed you free I was foolish Please come back to me Chorus: (David) Within me lies a battle A war I just can't fight alone Can you hear me now? Will you hear me out? Before I lose the struggle I'm begging for some help right now We need to take a stand I need to be a man Laura: Your heart is in my hand Both: (You) I will not fight alone Within me lies a battle A war I just can't fight alone Can you hear me now? Will you hear me out? Before I lose the struggle I'm begging for some help right now We need to take a stand I need to be a man Laura: Your heart is in my hand We'll never fight alone Never Fight Alone


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Glisten in the Moonlight

Your glorious emerald eyes 
Glisten in the moonlight 
Glisten in the moonlight 
Delight dances in the water
I watch it joyfully
You are set free from the cage...
You're like a dove soaring in the sky
You are the rain...
drizzling down in ecstasy 
A hint of ecstasy is shown in your reflection...
When you caress me... I'm relieved... 
From the stress that forced me in chains
I knew we'd be on the brighter side of tomorrow 
We're glistening in the moonlight 
I knew we'd become candles in the heavens above us
We're glistening in the moonlight
For a moment, I felt your presence...your radiant with sympathy 
I saw at first glance the dark side of you
Tonight, we'll be together and fly through the horizon 
We'll watch the sunset say its last goodbye...
We'll wave a greeting at the moon! 
We glisten in the moonlight...
What if I was as handsome as the lion...
Roaring with pride and pure courage
What if we were glistening in the moonlight?
Would it bring health to our bones tonight?
Would it make our heart rejoice and overflow with delight?
Would we be able to survive this horrifying plight?
Would we be shimmering like a candlelight?
We're glistening in the moonlight... (6)
Ohh...yeah...ooh yeah...ooh yeahh...
We reach to the stars and hope we can trace a shooting star
I feel the coolness run down my fingers...
We're glistening in the moonlight
You're the dandelions in the fields
You're the gorgeous view that I marvel at everyday
When you kiss me, I live my dreams
We glisten in the moonlight
In a quick moment, I sense a feeling of endless renewal 
I roam inside of your illuminating maze 
Glow on... sunshine... 
Glow on...sunshine...
Glisten in the moonlight...
Listen to the truth and rub it in
You are ravishing like the sunset
But you're ascending while I'm descending
I feel extremely guilty
I wish I could glisten with you in the moonlight
You're glistening in the moonlight (6) 
Ohhh yeahh... oohhh yeahh... ohh yeahh
You're glistening in the moonlight (4)
We go our own way
I wish we can glisten like the moon
Glisten like the sun 
There's a dream concealed inside of me...
Reveal your light and pour it upon me
You glisten in the appealing moonlight
While I'm subsiding... you're fulfilling your dreams
Of gliding across the horizon 
You're independence... keeps on scorching with satisfaction
While I'm below you... 
Your emerald green eyes
Stared me down like a hawk...
Your emerald eyes
Gaze down at me genuinely...
I wish we could flee together in reality...
That could be a possibility
To glisten in the moonlight in glee
We were glistening in the moonlight (3)
But that was only a dream...
I'll pray that it turns into a reality
We were glistening in the moonlight 
Now, I've misplaced my delight...
Will I ever experience such a brilliant night?


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Harmonica


The ghosts come stern to foreshadow
their routes westward to Atlantic,
nautilus trust to sea mantic,
- and ocean deities endow.

Their ancestors were apt sailors,
to serve an equal cause for years,
on compassed routes - funeral tears,
sabled wives shed to sea bailors.

The blue engagement is a spell,
that haunts the island men since birth;
whom sea engulfs is an owing dearth,
to morose depths of mournful well.

The sailors stand on the stern deck,
as dusk turns colors to dark gray,
with a harmonica's sad play,
the long tear shadows and stares beck.

© G.V. 07-18-2012, All Rights Reserved


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The Night Walk.

                                                                                   **A WINNING POEM**


That night, my heart pleaded i should
Wait over and pass the night at grand pa's 
Old inn.
Enormous was my concern to reach home 
And see Constance La France.... the rambling poet.
About "create your own form, may be?"
I embraced the night and darkness mingled 
With my eyes;

Yonder are night workers,
Here and there they wander,
Seaching for who to plunder,
Oh! what a mighty wonder.
Look at that  supermarket,
And a man with a mask,
Gun and matchet,
He most be a burglar,
Oh! i must be undercover,
Or else i step into danger,
For the night is in dark anger.

"Ahh! ahhh!! ahhhh!!!" the cry of a victim,
Something must have wrought a cry,
Who will be the rescue?
For me, this night walk must linger.
Look at the police, having me as an 
Accomplice, they need my identity and money,
Yet yonder is the victim crying....

Look over there! drug users
Assembling in dark corners,
Swaying like feathers,
In the midst of their daily rituals,
That is never beneficial,
Oh! blind earth leading to an open death.
Group upon groups, stationed in their post,
Looking so malicious, looking so vicious, 
Brandishing weapons, ready for the slaughter,
Gun shoots clatter as a group fight starter.
Charles melody has seen wonder
And endless palaver.

Knives mingled with flesh, blood and bone,
Men eager and bold,
Heads bounce like ball,
Suddenly, calmness......
Gba! gba!! gba!!! another trigger's verdict?
Lord when will these pass over?
For i am likening to salt in water,
Never to calm and ponder,
The night walk seemed not to be over. 

For the night is in dark anger....


BY CHARLES MELODY (Lightening Ink)                  **14TH PLACE IN
 CONSTANCE LA FRANCE CONTEST,
 WITH THE THEME; "DEEP, DARK AND DRAMATIC".
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The form of this poem is called,"stream of consciousness." 
i formed it so because the thought kept coming
 like a stream or river of consciousness in my mind,
i was conscious of the dangers i knew, especially in my Little
African village and the war that covered it.
For "Constance La France, the Rambling poet's contest.


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Deep Hangover

Even as I sit here in pain-high as a kite,
I can't help but think of this madness which is my life,
I've endured more psychological trauma than the average individual,
and if you look deep into my eyes I'm sure you will see some residuals

This shit ain't cool and I'm no fool, I'm just trying to get by,
constantly asking God for help as I gaze up at the sky,
sometimes I can't help but wonder why he made me this guy,
there must be a purpose for all of this and I have no shame when I get high

I stay fly, all the time-trying to ease my mind because this shitty situation is just a moment in time. I'm going to stay positive, I know it's real and I know it won't make my problems disappear but at least I have a smile on my face and no more tears as I move forward year after year..


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Giving In To The Gray

Overwhelmed with fear I whispered into the rain
Disarming defenses, Giving in to the gray 
Tearing down all of my shelter within my hollowed decay
While this echoing silence gave every tear drop a name
They begin filling the voids with mundane hopes for a change
Heaven will save me from this hell and blue skies will reign
Lazily lay in green grass watching clouds drift away
It's all but a deflated dream now that the colors have changed
My thoughts have become restless noise of uncertainties rearranged
Damning all of my emotions, lies decorated with grace
Now I stand with a hardened heart in the sobering autumn rain 
I'm disarmed and defenseless, Giving in to the gray


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The nightmare of reality

Can’t help but dream of the fear
The fear that brings a tear
Entering the gates of hell
Seeing how far I fell 

From the bottom of the skies I cry
I’m encaged in this dark cell
From the top of my lungs I scream
I’ve reached the pits of hell

Waking in this nightmare of forever
Sitting with this hopeless endeavor
Paying for every second of my sin
Regretting the fact that I’ll never win 

From the bottom of the skies I cry
I’m encaged in this dark cell
From the top of my lungs I scream
I’ve reached the pits of hell

Sitting alone
in the flames
Reflecting on everything
That caused this pain
Lived a life of lies
Mocking the truth of the wise
Instead of chasing the only way to succeed
I chose to live in my selfish greed 

How did I look into the wonder of the night
And not choose to give God my life
I refused to live with faith
Instead I chose to spit in God’s face

From the bottom of the skies I cry
I’m encaged in this dark cell
From the top of my lungs I scream
I’ve reached the pits of hell


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Push Up

i could sit here. day in and day out
thinking of the most proper way
to let the ink in the pen spill out
but as of late im feeling prehistoric 
so much weight on my shoulders 
and i dont know where to go
resuscitate my soul
look back up and head to the goal

so much evil around. i feel like the devils workin double shifts just to bring me down.
on the road to redemption
you can take a seat up in the front section
just so you can feel the emotions
in this electric notion

i've done a lot of things that hide the halo
let it all collaborate when i medicate 
now look at me, mind workin like plato
formulate a new path to take so i can
maneuver through all the mistakes 
we all know we cant change what we've already made
but we can change the next thing we create
startin to sound like a serenity prayer
5 steps till im thirty
and the twenty four before i was never a player
found out when the lights came back on im strictly a lover
its the strongest drink for your soul, when its thirsty
so careful how much you intake or be left hungover
even worse be the one she ran over

i dont mean to come off like im too deep
but the obstacles made there way through just to scrape through
and leave me suffocating
just for me to re-invent a new way to breathe, re-decorating

is your life so complicated 
you rather wet up your pillows and revoke from the life you live
just think of your kids mourning 
theyll never see that pretty face in the morning any more
cheer your self up
you got a lot to live for
your a gem and im that friend
trynna appraise the value 
that you dont see inside of you


just another day for him
goin about
searchin wonderin what his purpose is
running in circles 
till he found a way through all the turbulence





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The Things You Wish You Could Erase

Sitting on the edge of the bridge
Holding unto that bottle of beer
The same beer that he drank 
The night he killed those people
Flashback in his brain
Gripping unto the bottle
nearly breaking it
hes sitting behind the wheel
Picks up the beer bottle 
Takes another sip
He sees the car
But gently closes his eyes
The women slams on her breaks
Her son in the back seat
The cars crash
Her car rolls down the hill
His car slamming into 
The side of bridge gates
The gates holding him steady
He gently steps out of his car
Seeing the smoke 
A gray car laying in the river
Below the bridge hes standing on
He runs down there 
Running through the water
the top of the car barely noticable
He helps the young women out
Not knowing about the little boy
In the back seat
She yells
"my son... my son"
She points to the vehicle
She takes her last breathe
Lays there helplessly
The man drags the little boy out of the car
A scratch on his forhead
Not breathing at all
The man cries
Trying to wake the kid up
Knowing they are both up in heaven
He vanishes
Several years later
He sits on the bridge
Holding the bottle
Has a child of his own
A wife of his own
Waiting at home for him
His son an hour before 
Wanted to walk to the bridge
With him
But the man just said no
The young boy just stayed home
His father never came back
They found him 
Floating in the same river
The women and her son were in

~Dedicated to Tommy~


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To young to die

Too young to die


They take a boy, too young to shave
Who has never lived his life
While his mates are chasing girls
They fill his life with strife
They send him off to a brand new war
Over some damned fools Ideal
I don’t understand their wars
And I guess I never will


The folk who like to run the show
Or most of them at least
Have never even been to war
They’ve never felt the beast
As he rips right into one’ intestines
That hollow hole of fear!
Each leader should be sent to war
Then the picture might grow clear


Then when they send young boys to war
They’ll see the whole damned show
The weight of endless terror
 And then maybe they’ll know
What it’s like as a fine young man
To be sent out there to die
He might then know, how a mother feels
When she’s lost her little guy.

1 August 2013 @ 1443hrs.


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Memories Beyond The Door

Talking to him was like a high
Then I'd crash and burn with a cry
I'd eat you, breathe, and sleep
But the darkened memory of you I keep
The memory of you is seared in my mind
And peace I cannot find
Even now, after all this time
The burden of it is mine
It was a dangerous rush
And for a while, I'd dare to touch
And yet I kept coming back
Because I thought it was something I lack
My love for him was raw, real,
And unlike anything I thought I could feel
I was addicted and out of control
Couldn't get out, even when I wanted to fold
Going at high velocity, no surprise I fell when it ended, so abruptly
Like a broken bone it's mending, but will never be the same
The pain will go too, Till all I have left...
Is the memory of you

3-21-13


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Right Now

In the exact moment that I am right now
I stand in a sea of vulnerability;
susceptible to the effects of causes around me
and since I am fully aware, 
I own my surroundings
I am one with sounds and vibrations
resonating from the earth;
I am that pulse of the drum beat 
thats been thrashing 
inside me since birth

Right now, I am exactly as I am
deeply flawed and misjudged
used, victimized and persecuted
Right now I am you in the absolute

Right now, I am exactly as I am
balanced, whole and complete
attracting abundance and certainty  
Right now I am peace - still you
 
Right now, I am exactly as I am
You


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Words of Life

Drowning in the pool of anguish…oh…oh…
I’m venturing into the forest…and I want to hear the words seep out 
Release these aching sorrows…I worry my soul’s drying out…
like a drought…
Drain out the fluids from my heart
It’s gouging me…bruising me to the core…

**chorus** 
Embrace the light…embrace the midnight sky…
You fall in my arms – you die so warm
Shed me more sun to lift up my spirits
From the…underground…and release me – I’m breathless
I’m drowning in doubt…ooh… oh… 


Remember me…I’m falling…into my swirling fate…hanging on the roots 
Strangling my heart…distorting in my veins… I’m bleeding so softly – cut out the wood…
Splintering me…I’m shattering… and I’m falling in the abyss
Bring me more radiance from my candle light
Warp me up in bliss…don’t let the midnight sky…don’t take away my delight
From the…ocean…and save me—save me…oh… oh…  I’m failing 

*chorus*

I’m drowning in regret…ooh..oh…
Hit the bull’s eye in my heart…embrace the light
And don’t leave me hanging in the abyss…hand me a kite!
Save me before I fall apart…shut out the night
And don’t let the dusk escape us…

I must confess…
I must confess…
I hate to see you abandon the light…
But I’m not the one to save you from the night
Ooh…ohh…

*Chorus* 

Splintering lies fill your heart 
I want to kiss it goodbye…
But you’ve mastered it like a piece of art
I want to kiss the abyss and die…
Dry… I wanna touch the sky with my whole soul
But I’m failing and the end of time has taken its toll
Tainted sorrow…swims around me…I dwell where the waters depart
But the anguish still swarms in my heart…
I’m failing…my heart stops beating
And my desires are fleeting
From my grasp
And the monsters laugh at me…as I fall… 

*chorus*

Embrace the midnight sky…catch me…catch me…
As I fall in death’s arms…I die so cold
And your heart is made of gold

Untangle the darkness & take away the nightmares 
Answer our prayers & block out the night 
Erase the heartaches & wipe away our tears
Unravel Your words of life & delight


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Silver Ships

Written May 31, 2013


The sun does rise
Over silver ships sailing in the sky
Rain on down on our parade
In a concrete jungle
The kids come out to play
Masked by this dreadful masquerade

A cosmic dance where stars collide
The kids and parents run to hide
Shelter from the enemy above
Who light up the sky with lightning bugs

The land is dark and the sky is black
Mothers pray the birds will not come back
Be it by barren land or vicious sea
Lord just hear our plea

The sun does rise
Over silver ships sailing in the sky
Rain on down on our parade
In a concrete jungle
The kids come out to play
Masked by this dreadful masquerade


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It's Not Over

Don’t say it’s all over (cause it’s not)
“Sorry” won’t cover it…so don’t go on your knees and pray for my forgiveness 
Oh baby…don’t listen to the commotion…I’m done taking cover (it’s all for naught)
I’m plummeting in slow motion…into the remorseful pit…I’m plummeting in my nightmare’s abyss

I want to carry you through the night… 
I’m swimming in the ocean of my tears… 
My sodden wings lost its ability of flight…
You've been swimming in your distress for years… 

Shut up! Don’t say it...
Don’t even think of it (don’t even ponder it)
Hey! Don’t say it’s all over…though we’re breaking bit by bit 
‘Cause there’s more treasure to discover 

I want to remind you to fight the good fight…
My misery pools are brewing inside of my head…
I’m backing away from the light & exploring the night… 
You’re giving in to sleep and I’m wide awake on my bed 

Shut up! Don’t say it...
Don’t even think of it (don’t even ponder it)
Hey! Don’t say it’s all over…though we’re breaking bit by bit 
‘Cause there’s more treasure to discover 

Please don’t tell me…oh, don’t tell me…darling!
You’re giving up today… (I beg you to stay, despite your inner pain) 
I’m scared I might erupt – it could be quite startling!
Someday, things will change for the better… (Don’t turn the wrong lane)
I’m waiting for that day to arrive – perhaps it will wash away our dismay…

I promise you a tranquil reality 
I want to stray with you tonight 
I still have hope that He’ll set us free
I was wondering if you could stay the night
Maybe the Lord could grant us 
Pure, incredible delight 

Shut up! Don’t say it...
Don’t even think of it (don’t even ponder it)
Hey! Don’t say it’s all over…though we've plunged into our own pit 
‘Cause there’s more treasure to gather…


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Fake Friend

I'm feeling sick from your two faced hypocrisy
When you say one thing and then you're doing another
Cold whispers behind my back you talk about me
Then you act like my best friend with no apology

Why do you beak these friendship rules
And why am I left a suffering fool
I'm left with thoughts of violence and then I'm feeling weak and passive
I'm now a massive walking talking contradiction
And I'm left believing the facts and fiction

It's all because of your backstabbing dealings 
I want to know your game and why I'm the victim of your play
I will not be left the loser of this game
I intend to stay strong and take my prize
As I will face you full on and cut you down to size

This may be hit and miss
But I will expose your cowardice
As you look into my eyes and see that I'm miffed 
And so sick of your ficticious recitals
Now you will realise for you to have kept two facing me was fatal

So answer to me fake friend your front is now broken
And you feel you're struggling to breathe
But now I've lost my use for sensitivity
Remember who crossed the line
I have one fast thought of does it matter at all
Then it all comes back that it's you who broke the rules

Now you've been confronted and your colour fades to grey
You feel your time ticking by as tomorrow turns into today
This was my revenge on you fake friend
My fake friend revenge!


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Living Without

I tried to write about love but I haven’t felt it. 
I tried to write about the sea but I’ve never seen it. 
Then I tried to write about the air, but I have never breathed it. 
I tried to write about magic but I never believed it.
I couldn’t write about god, all I have ever done is sinned.
And when I tried to write about life I found, 
I have never really lived.


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Pricked

Your  love pricks me like a rose each thorn grows but no one knows Your so full of 
it as it shows so carry on now go on, go. I'm fed up with the phony and  i'm 
through with the tears, you couldn't pay me all your money to make up for those 
years. Someone help me I feel faint how could I think he was such a saint and 
worst of all I let me fall into a spiral down below. A magic called love carried 
by the dove of someone I use to know.


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Death by Beauty

A smile moves across her lips
She gazes at her crime
A scar across her flesh and soul
To haunt her for all time
She’ll waste away for all she cares
Never stops to use her brain
Doesn’t care about the ones who are close
All she cares about is pain

She wants to be what the others expect of her
Doesn’t care about the self-respect for her
A rose can’t be a forget-me-not
Can’t she see what all she has got
Already?

Never to go back again
She feels the world is at an end
She will never show her grief
Although she’ll cry in empty streetS

She’d sooner live like a desolate mole
Living in fear in an empty hole
Screaming silent wails alone
Content to live in her mental home

A final tear falls from her eye
It hits the ground, it’s followed by
A beautiful body, mutated by hate
A kind word could have stopped it, but it is too late
One two many bricks in the wall in her mind
Molding her demise because her heart was blind
This self conscious being could never have won
For she was destroyed by the beautiful ones

She wouldn’t fight back, wouldn’t respect herself
In the end, she managed only to wreck herself
A rose can’t be a forget-me-not
Little did she know, she had all she had sought
Already


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Nature's Sigh

The Black butterfly waves away her adorations
All she seeks is seclusion, subsuming slave to mortification
The Dear Air is all she can breath, captive of imaginary dreams
The Beacon resonates, but the hope isolates
The Wasteland's silky fingers caressing the virgin's face

So she is now, the covet of the damned
Programmed to every victim's pain
Carrying the weight of every sorrow
Drowning in wrongs she does not know
But paradise is at loss; she must go

Nature sighs after the bite
All my hopes fading
Don't look at me with those sorrowful eyes
How do you know exactly what I'm feeling?
I'm just the ghost flower passing by
And you can hear nature's sigh


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Save Me

Save Me
By: IzaDonna

Look in the mirror
Do you recognize her
Do you see the coldness in her eyes
Do you see where the darkness lies
Hidden secrets of the past
To late, the spells been cast
And as the stars arise
My own self will be my demise

Chorus:
So you think you can save me
Finally set my retched soul free
Be my ultimate savior
You thinking ur doing me a favor
But just let me alone
My fate is only my own

I get u try and u care
But thru it all u weren't there
I cant move on from my past
The agony I feel will always last
The knife is in way to deep
So let me shut my eyes and sleep
Cause u can't fix whats already broken
The pain I feel is better left unspoken

Chorus

So as the darkness creeps in
I feel I'm paying for my sins
No way to escape
My soul is yours to take
Just let me bleed these tears
Just let me lay here
Looking up at the sky
I ask God why

Chorus

Cause you can't fix what isn't broken
The pain is better left unspoken


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in the shadow of doubt

in the shadow of doubt I lurk
in the shadow of doubt I stir
in the shadow of doubts my thoughts reside
Phantoms of possibilities revive in the night
Wild wonderings make my soul sprint in fright
The self conceals itself and takes flight
the mind untamed and free
free to reflect, free to settle
And I stand apart from it
For in the shadow of doubt
Is when my mind is unbound nourished by the doubt


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ETERNAL SUMMER

Eyes so dark
I feel your pain
Nightmares unending
Driving you insane
Feeling so blue
You think you could die
But now in my arms
Look in my eyes
The flowers and streams
That's me and you
Feel eternal summer
Forever love is true
The peace you see
Now you will feel
These are your times
This happiness is real

Date: 11-8-14


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Beyond the Frontier

Where am I? Why is it dark?
This isn’t what I had in mind when I left the park…
Why isn’t the wind whispering…the songbirds singing?
All I remember is a telephone ringing…
A scream and a crash and a pain in my side…
Is this what happens after one’s died?
I don’t feel like myself, I feel wild and free,
Yet I’m cold and alone, 'stead of filled with glee.

My whole life I’ve studied, and pondered, and prayed,
Trying to fathom what would happen this day
But now that it’s here, I’m beginning to fear
Maybe the afterlife’s not what it appears…
It’s certainly not what I’ve been told by my preacher
Or my parents or brother or best friend or teacher…
Is it a bad thing, or is it good?
Maybe it’s just not quite understood...

While I was on Earth, I just couldn’t wait
To meet good St. Peter at the heavenly gate
And ask him a question or query or two
“What was my purpose?” “What good did I do?”
“What’s it all for?” “How does it all flow?”
“Can I have one more body, one more try, one more go?”
But where is the angel? Where is the gate? And
If this is Hell, then where is Ol’ Satan?
Am I a lost soul? Am I forgotten?
Am I to be left here until I am rotten?

Lo and behold! what, now, can this be?
Is this a wonderful spiritual epiphany?
Is this the magical feeling all souls receive
When they leave Earth? Oh! was I that naïve?
How could I have not seen the realism?
Why was I consumed in man-made idealism?
This is more wondrous than all I was taught
Oh, all the times I argued and fought
With others, ‘bout how their views were asinine
Now I see, theirs were just as wrong as mine!
Little I thought was actually correct!
How, why, did I let others petty beliefs infect
My untouched, my pure, my virgin mind?
I regret all the hours I self-tortured to find
That compared to what I see now, I was empty and blind…

Wait - - What is this that I see?
What is this gateway that is revealed unto me?

Now a door is opened to my immortal soul
I am expected now to enter my life’s final goal…
I am scared, intimidated, but still I am glad…
For the truth I have just seen is anything but bad.
This is the end of my journey, I’ve nothing to fear,
For now I am going Beyond the Frontier.


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City Living

I look into the night sky
As the darkness surrounds my every thought
For I cannot help but sigh
I could not find the star I had sought

The heavens so dark and dull
Nothing for the eye to see
It used to be so shiny and full
Of stars that seemed to flea

This bleakness the night has become
Has taken away the true beauty of the night
It has left my emotions numb
There is not one star in sight

Sometimes I can see the moon
Shine brightly over the city 
As if it's singing a sad tune
Stemmed from sympathy and pity

The emptiness inside this place I call home
A city so cold a black
Has me feeling so alone
I am a one man wolf pack. 


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White Paper

I wrote my life
On this ever so white paper
I wrote my life
With these ever so dark words
And I’m starting to wonder deep inside
Are my words getting through
Oh God, are my words getting through to you 

It’s always one sin
After another
My life is one sin
After another
I’m starting to wonder
If your words are just goin through
Such deaf ears

I wrote my life
On this ever so white paper
I wrote my life
With these ever so dark words
And I’m starting to wonder deep inside
Are my words getting through
Oh God, are my words getting through to you

Why can’t I open my eyes
Why can’t I look past these lies
It’s not about me
Or having a girl in my life
Such sexual sin
Grabs a hold of me
When will I let go
Why can’t I let it go

I wrote my life
On this ever so white paper
I wrote my life
With these ever so dark words
And I’m starting to wonder deep inside
Are my words getting through
Oh God, are my words getting through to you

Oh God, I need you in my life
I need you to fill in this empty whole inside
Give me a desire for your word
Give me a taste of your beauty 
Let my life into your hands
Because it’s not my will, but yours 

I wrote my life
On this ever so white paper
I wrote my life
With these ever so dark words
And I’m starting to wonder deep inside
Are my words getting through
Oh God, are my words getting through to you 


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Dark Lullaby

Go to sleep little child;
Close your eyes and shut them tight,
For we do not know if day will break
And be swallowed up by night.

But for now, worry not, my dear;
The dark's not as bad as it seems.
Though darkness looms over the future,
You can still escape into your dreams.

Lie still my darling baby;
Breathe calmly and breathe slow
Enjoy the quiet of the tranquil night
And the moon's hypnotic glow.

Worry not about the closet
Or the things under your bed;
Escape into Dreamland, my dear,
Safe from all the things you dread.

And if tomorrow fails in coming,
At least you will not be here;
Fly away my child, to the Land of Dreams...

Or be consumed by your fears.


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Dear Lover

Written September 8, 2013


Hey dear lover
Can you make me a believer in another
We both know that it's killing us this way
'Cause the ends of the earth still move
And the falling leaves dance in circles
All around you
Cutting holes in the paper
On which I write this letter
Saying, "I really hope that this gets better"
For the sake of involved
Before this binding resolution gets resolved

But I don't mind chasing thunder
Through the darkest nights
But if I never find the light
Then I just might lose my sight, over you
But what's the use
You've only caused me more and more abuse
That's why I write this letter
Saying, "why'd I ever think that it'd get better"


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Along The Way

I say goodbye
To this chapter in my life
Im sure you will get the answers
When im gone
So when the day comes
The sun will not touch my face
Theres mistakes
The path is long
Look at my face
The stories it could tell 
The ones that wont erase
Tell the ones that cared enough 
That i finally left this place
So play the song
Its something to remind you
When im gone


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Mustang man

Don't know where this one came from. or how it came about. but I love singing it with guitar and Harp. Must have came from the craziness, that was me a few years back....Peter.


Mustang Man.

He's standing in the moonlight
That crazy Mustang man.
'Ain't never seen no sunshine
Since the day it all began.
His eyes are as black as ebony 
They gleam like the fires of Hell
As they pierce into the depths of me
They can see my fears so well
That Mustang man.
That mustang man.

He was born one night on the bayou
And that night was liquid black.
As a long black snake enshrouded him
And old Satan stroked his back.. 
And the Ghouls from Hell all welcomed him
Those fiends from Hades side..
And the stench of evil ruled the land 
And virtue groaned and died
That Mustang man
 That Mustang man.

Mustang man don't mess with me
Go take your loathsome ways
Remove thy taint of misery
Vacate this space today.
Don't hide within my shadow self
As you shake me with despair.
As you dance within my nightmare dreams
It seems you're every where
You Mustang man 
You Mustang man.


Socrares 1990.


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Broken Glass

Do you hear the horn of the train? 
And the pitter patter of rain?
Listen close do you hear a sound?
Only silence, will she be found?

Who is fragile, who is of strength
How can one know another’s length?
Blind to the mask which hides her tears
Binding her to demons and fears
A fake light remains as she falls
Even while her broken heart stalls
Darkness commences in her soul
Blood loss spirals out of control
What an alluring crimson paint
Overworked artist starts to faint 

Do you hear the horn of the train? 
And the pitter patter of rain?
Listen close do you hear a sound?
Only silence, will she be found?

Why do some dance falsely with death? 
Unable to force their last breath
Her unspoken words of pureness
Soaked deeply in her loneliness
The jagged line of her escape
Leaves the unsuspecting agape
Drawn up on the median vein 
Just a few more moments of pain
Eyes flutter and seconds pass
Then gently falls the broken glass

Do you hear the horn of the train? 
And the pitter patter of rain?
Listen close do you hear a sound?
Only silence, will she be found?
Then gently falls the broken glass






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Here Is Gone

Ever thought of something so much
That when you wake up it just automatically
Crawls into your brain cells
Shoots them with laser beams
Until they explode 
And that’s the only thing you have left to think of
Because everything else is fried
Ever wish you could go back and change that night
Wish that you wouldn’t have left her side
That you would have just listened to your heart 
Instead of your gut
Instead of that little voice that echoes
In the back of your head
Ever wished that you wouldn’t be reading this poem
That everything could be like your dreams
Like a family who gets along
Like having a famous relative
Dreaming that you had a better life
More money to spend
More bass guitars to buy
Less drama
Then you find this special someone
Who you can really relate to
And you never want to let them go
But somehow they slip through your fingers
Then your life crumbles 
Falling down like the rain in a thunderstorm
Wishing you could change everything
But you just start over
And try to move on
And somehow end up at the beginning all over again



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PERIOD OF THE DARK AGES


IT’S THE PERIOD OF THE DARK AGES WITH STREETS WITHOUT FACES 
BOOKS WITHOUT PRINTINGS AND PRINTS WITHOUT PAGES 
IMPRISONED WITHOUT CAGES AND PAID THE PRICE WITHOUT WAGES
IT’S THE PERIOD OF THE DARK

SO LET ME TAKE THE STAGE AND LET MY WORDS BE ENRAGED 
THAT BABYLON, STAGGER ON ONE FOOT, IS TRIPPING
ON ITS OWN IMMORALITY, PRACTICALLY EVIL
KILLING ITS OWN PEOPLE, MAKING THEM THINK 
AS IF, THEY WERE NOT EQUAL. THIS IS NO SEQUEL 
AS ACID RAIN KILLS THE NATURAL TERRAIN 
CAUSING SANITY TO GO DOWN THE DRAIN 
MENTAL PAIN TRAINING THE BRAIN TO WITH STAIN 
THIS OPEN BOOK PHILOSOPHY, CONSCIOUSLY AND MENTALLY 
BEING A MINORITY TO LIFE. L. I. F. E.: 
LIVING IN FEAR ETERNALLY
I HOPE YOU ARE HEARING ME
SOON BREATHING WILL BE AN ACCESSORY OR A COMMODITY 
PAID FINANCIALLY BEING DEATH TO THE ECONOMY

THE TRUTH IS NOW BEING TELEVISED
AS THE IGNORANT TURNING WISE
CHILDREN ARE TELLING PARENTS THEIR DEMISE
 PEOPLE DON’T REALIZE 
WHAT THEY’RE WORTH OR OTHERWISE
OR HAS MAN’S EGO, GONE MAMMOTH SIZE?
FIND THE LOGICAL TIES:
THAT THE DEF COULD ALWAYS HEAR 
WHAT THE BLIND CAN ENVISION
READING PAGES WITHOUT PRINTING 
LIKE RELIGION:
THE BLIND TEACHING THE BLIND IN HOPE THEY WILL SEE
BUT THIS DOES NOT GO DOWN LOGICALLY 
BECAUSE WE LIVE IN TIMES OF DEMONSTRATION 
BUT NOTHING IS PERFORMED 
IN TIMES OF RECREATION BUT WE’VE NEVER REFORMED 
IN TIMES OF INFORMATION BUT WE ARE NEVER INFORMED
THAT THESE ARE THE LAST STAGES 
WHERE OUR MINDS ARE PRISON CAGES 
AND DEATH’S RAGE IS ARE PAID IN WAGES
THAT IS WHY I SAY:


IT’S THE PERIOD OF THE DARK AGES WITH STREETS WITHOUT FACES 
BOOKS WITHOUT PRINTINGS AND PRINTS WITHOUT PAGES 
IMPRISONED WITHOUT CAGES AND PAID THE PRICE WITHOUT WAGES
IT’S THE PERIOD OF THE TRUE DARK AGES
 


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What I would Give

          What I would give to see those shining emerald eyes looking at me once more
	                                       To see your young face 	
                                   To see your perfect crooked smile once more

                                 What I would give to have one last hug
                                 To spend just a couple minutes with you
                                    To go back and change the dark past

                                 What I would give to have one more laugh
                                To have one more beautiful memory with you
	
                  What I would give to say goodbye to your pale, magnificent self	


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Yellow Moon

She watched as the earth fell asleep

Waited for the yellow moon

soft kisses of unfaithful wind..

Images..Images on her head

Nostalgic memory of a forgotten love

Flashes of things she tried to forget..

Her eyes caught the reflection of the moon

locked inside the rain on her cheek..

She was standing alone..

Her grieving heart sought

solace from the moon

She petitioned the stars

Where is he this very night?

Cruel..oh so cruel..

Beneath the silence of the sky

she bowed her head and cried..


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In the Eyes of the Beholder

For he/she who knows, has seen,
Beyond the vision of faux beams
Radiant, candid as the beauty keen
In the eyes of beholder's dreams

‘Beauty' conceived physical
Shows signs of mortality
Inner beauty seems biblical
Survives the soul of eternity

For the mother's exposed breasts
To feed her breast-feeding child
For when Blessed Teresa smiled at the rest
Thousand restless hearts she beguiled

For when an ugly charmed a charmer
Love beheld the eyes of heart
Hath the beast not turned warmer
Lore of beauty and the beast would fall apart

For the perceptions differ
Of thee and me
I may defy, thou may prefer
The essence of beauty


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Man with sorrow

A risky side
A twisted mind 
He's a man with sorrow 
He's a man on his own
I know your secrets
I see you losing control

I want you back
Oh I want you back home
*Chorus*:
To kill your sore
To purify your soul 
But not a glimmer of hope
And not a glimmer of joy
 

You walk with a frozen heart
Making it hard for me 
To leave you alone 
 
Your nonsensical twist
Makes me shiver inside 
 
The more mysterious he gets
The more attractive it gets 
 
Chorus:
But not a glimmer of hope
Not a glimmer of joy 
(2x) 
 
Your fatal deadly thoughts
Make me scream for more
 
I can never show, how much my love
For you was strong 
But you're the one I blame
 
I'm craving on saving you
So I can slay you on my own
 
I try to forget,
But I find myself with regrets 
 
You looked at me and said it straight
With no circles to spin
Baby turning the page,
Will lead us nowhere...
 
But not a glimmer of hope 
Nor a glimmer of joy 
I know your secrets 
I see losing control 
You're the one I blame
You're the one I crave.

**please feel free to correct and comment! :) ** MS-


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The Death of All Things

The Death of All Things...

I fall victim to my own devices
Paid the price for self indulgence
I see the dark side of the shadow because the light isn’t on my side 
I’ve been to the top of the mountain
Seen things far below that no man should see
Where angels fear to tread

The fading hope and loss of belief battle me
Complacency has become my only friend
I am void of feeling in this state of resignation
I’m facing fears and I’m surrounded by my own reflections
Demons I have never overcome
Return again to haunt me 

I have seen, the death of all things
From the inside looking out, 
From the outside looking in, 
The death of all things, one final curtain call before the fall…


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Albert The Alligator, Florida University Mascot Story

A green sweaty swampy land
Maybe no place for a man
But it is a home to many creatures
Such as our friend's the alligators

Now not so long ago,
In their steamy mysterious habitat
There was a fog so dim it almost made it black
and it had large limb's that hung low on the trees 
And each slim blade of grass went an inch above your knees

All gators that lived here
seemed to be very ornary and mean 
And it was considered ordinary
To attack their peers With bone crushing teeth

One could ask,
Why are they so mad?
But it's not their fault
It's just the way they were taught how to act
Ever since their speckled eggs hatched
And learned how to make their jaws snap
 
However, not all gators were like this
There was one who was filled with happiness
He wore a blue hat and a bright orange shirt
Everyone reluctantly called him Albert

Because Albert happened to be completely different
All the other gators kept him at an arm's distance
They called him names and spat in his face
But his joy just never seemed to fade

See Albert had a huge dream
His dream was to be with the humans
As they yelled and screamed
For the local school's winning football team

Out of nothing but sheer excitement,
Albert shared this with the others
But they all laughed even his brothers

So Albert decided right then
to not care about what anyone said
And to pursue his only dream
No matter how long or tough it may be

The next day Albert left that dreary swamp
On mission to prove the nay-sayers wrong
And when he left that dim fog grew so dark
You could not see or hear a big dog's bark

So he made his way to the nearby school
Where he saw not no one, not a single soul
Every building was empty
From the top to bottom floor
The all of a sudden, Albert heard a thundering roar
"Romp!, Stomp!, Chomp!, Welcome to the Swamp!"

He rushed to the football stadium
Where he was met with open arms
He finally felt accepted, safe from abuse and harm
So with his new friends, he rose up in exultation
His life was anew, he was the love of Swamp Nation


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I dance with my tomorrows

There are things so long forgotten
and things I never will
turning inward, not to see them
though they echo in me still
and the face that I am known by
the eyes that tell the lies
walks the road of broken sorrows
as my future slowly dies

Still, I dance with my tomorrows
while the music can be heard
Even though I know it's useless
for I never knew the words

And the one that watches sadly
bows her head in silent grief
for she's heard the story often
knows that death is but a thief
walking in the shadows left by
each dream I left behind
She follows my steps closely
never seeing, always blind

Still, I dance with my tomorrows
while the music can be heard
Even though I know it's useless
for I never knew the words



For the contest "Sing to me"
From the song "A Whiter shade of Pale"


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Regaining power

Regaining Power.

He walks a lonely road, with his head there in the clouds
And he doesn’t even notice passing strangers
He’s been here ‘bout a thousand years forever all alone
And he’s always looking out for passing danger.

Invisible sometimes he feels, so he tries to seek the glory
As the child calls out in panic “I am here
They have taken all my power so my blossom will not flower
And all around I’ve built a wall of fear

But it’s his pain it is his game
As he prowls around his cage
He lives in vain, is he insane?
And fear ignites his rage.

The truth be plain, the lions mane is what he must acquire
The little boy he must regain his power
And tell the world “I’m here, I’m here” and feed the burning fire
It would take this much to open up his flower.


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Fear

Written June 25, 2012


Dim the lights
No one knows
Silhouetted indisposed

Can you hear
Children's fears
The darkness will be here

By the time
You can see
The light that buries me

You will know
All that's glitters
Is not gold

Walk the path
Satan's wrath
Will enter through the back

Door is closed
Think you know
Why the Lord has brought is here

Are you telling me lies
Through your eyes
On and on I'll tell you're wrong
Until the day is done


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Introduction

hello my friend, stranger walk by,
borrow a moment, spare me your lie,
through pen of the narrow and mist of an eye,
below absolute zero, someone will die;
sentence to rambler, apple hereby,
flute of the meadow, mandrake will cry,
in front of the riddler second might try,
get out of here mortal,
exit near by-e.

angry as he strike out his pen,
get out of here demon, get out of this den,
in thousands of years how long has it been,
when scriptures wear sandals;
on meadow you land, many bear seasons,
stakes shall bend, lantern still burning,
your letter is send.


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Life as an Addict





                                        

                                     Life as an Addict


                         Life as an addict, life as an addict
                       Life as an addict is like running into
                            A reinforce cinderblock wall
                                    Losses after losses 
                                           Virtually
                     Ending in a jail cell or luxurious casket
                      Day after day the addiction keeps at it
                                           Eventually 
                                Opening doors to the soul
                          Stepping inside leading you down
                               A wicked and dark passage
                                           Ultimately
                                     Leaving you naked
                                  Clinching your wounds
                                      Shattering dreams
                                      Low self – esteem
                                    Thoughts in captivity
                                          Life of misery
                         Life as an addict limited imagination
                                 Waste of God’s creation
                                          But forgiven
                                      Evil, dark passage 
                                  Reinforce walls, jail cell
                                Lost soul, luxurious casket 
                            Life as an addict, life as an addict
                                        Life as an addict.


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you dont understand

Hes inlove with his sadness
Being alone helps him think
He can hear his thoughts clearly
Hes getting to the point where
He loves being the center
Of attention
Being depressed helps his sickness
This goes on
And on
And on
Looking at life in a different way
You cannot see what he sees
Love isnt pure
Its evil spelt backwards
As is devil spelt
Backwards is lived
He has his hyper days
Three days of hyper
Three days of depressed
Three days of death
No days of life
This goes on
And on
And on
Sitting all alone in his room
Writing this story your reading
Can you see?
What he sees?
Or do you not understand sadness
Enough to grasps
What hes trying to say to you


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The last journey

The Last Journey.

I’m going home my song is over
The actor rests his time has come
I’m going to cross that mystic river
 And gaze upon that clear bright Sun.

Well I can hear the whisper calling
And telling me “your time has come”
The image dies the mask is falling
No more the many, there’s just the one.

As energy is dissipating
All worldly cares they wilt to nil
There’s no more wrath, there’s no more hating
There is no thing just a space so still 

I say goodbye to all who knew me
But do not grieve for me when I’m gone
I’ll rest in peace my friends but someday
I’ll come again to sing my song.


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Warped and Twisted

WARPED AND TWISTED

HARSH WORDS, VIOLENT BLOWS
HIDDEN SECRECTS THAT NO ONE KNOWS
EYES ARE OPEN, HANDS ARE FISTED
DEEP INSIDE I’M WARPED
I AM TWISTED

SO MANY TRICKS, SO MANY LIES
TOO MANY WHENS, TOO MANY WHYS
NOBODY IS SPECIAL, NOBODY IS GIFTED
JUST WARPED AND TWISTED

SLEEPING WHILE AWAKE
CHOKING ON MY DREAMS
LISTENING LOUDLY TO
A SILENT SCREAM

CALL ON MY MIND
THE NUMBER IS UNLISTED
LOST IN SOMEONE SO
WARPED, SO TWISTED

DOWN ON MY KNEES
ALIVE BUT DEAD
LOOK AT THE INVISIBLE BLOOD
I HAVE SHED




I’M NOT DEAD
MY MIND JUST HAS DRIFTED
DO NOT EXPECT TOO MUCH
TOO MUCH FROM ME
FOR I AM WARPED AND TWISTED

BURNT OUT, WASTED
TODAY, IS YESTERDAY’S TOMORROW
THE SUN DIED OUT, THE ASHES SIFTED
YET I AM STILL HERE
WARPED AND TWISTED



















(c)GDC2014


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Meet Me At The Gates

Standing across from damien
whom had been his lover for yea
He takes his heart out of his chest
And places it in Damiens hands
Kurt says "this heart belongs to you"
He askes Damien "do you want it?"
Damien places Kurts heart in his hands
"i dont"
Kurt throws it to the ground and stomps on it
Looking down at his crumpled heart a tear 
Falls from his cheek
He starts walking away
He falls to his knees
Like suffocating
Damien runs over to him
But is blocked by a black mist
Damien stands there whispering
"Kurt come back"
Kurt stands up and places his heart
Into Damiens pocket
As Kurt turns and walks away
The sky opens up
And kurt rises to the clouds
A few years later Damien joins him up at the gates


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Soul Of A Man

The Soul Of A Man
By Nate Spears

When a man lies to a woman
He kills her soul
Accompanied by the credibility of himself
At the end of the day what’s left?
Distrust and guilt
In which relationships aren’t built
Killing her spirit forever
Crushing the matrimony given
By the creator of life
Your wife
Your for better
Your for worst
Your for good
Making the soul of the man
A horrible reflection of terrible
Forever
Your for better
Your for good
Your for worst
Your for gone.


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Father

Looking through his old pictures
Him as a child
His dad was at an early age
He wishes for more then just an image
Closing his eyes
Trying to picture his dad
Where is his dad now?
Wishing to see beyond the face
A tear falls unto the picture
Running down unto his lap
He longs for more then 
just a word upon a letter
His dad has written him
Longing for his fathers existence
For the relationship he wished he had
He awaits for the next letter
He never receives
Falling upon his knees
Tears Crawling down his face
Wanting to know his father better



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Sin And Poetry

As the night sets in, it's as black as it's ever been.
My soul is in ruin, and my heart is like a back pack carrying a load of sin.

In the closet my skeletons scream, and constantly torment me.
The rage in my blood stream causes me to blaspheme religiously!
I am doomed because I'm so consumed by that very rage;
Engulfs me like burning fire, wraps me like barbed wire that causes a rampage!

The malice in my heart craves the blood from a helpless foe.
I feel I'm being ripped apart like some dark work of Edgar Allen Poe!

So many sins to atone for, and I get on my knees to repent.
Again with my face on the floor, I pray I receive a love that's heaven sent.
The evil is eating me alive from the inside out.
I can't survive when I feel like I'm fighting a 12 round bout!

My greed has come between me and my family.
I just wanted to succeed, but I admit I did it selfishly!

I seduced Lisa knowing she was married to another man, I just didn't care.
As Lisa fell in love, I became her number one fan, and then I ended our love affair!
My conscience wouldn't let me continue on the path of destruction.
I think of the consequence of losing you and laugh because now I'm unable to function.

I now see literally that it is better to lose an eye than your soul.
As I write my sin and poetry, I cry knowing my heart is as black as coal!   


My new form written strictly for Constance's contest "Create your own form maybe" ? is called Stanlets because it consists of couplets and stanzas that rhyme and is a dark subject.
Jimmy Anderson


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Membranophones of Death


Through omens they received the sign,
defenders' skull bones did appear,
bare-white to burn upon the shrine,
death nested in their souls and fear.

Above the skulls were lit tall flames,
brigades of demons came to border,
they knew that Hell's dark legions' fame,
precedes the advent of manslaughter.

Thus brave the knights defend the castle,
behind the lines lords' horses snort,
the steel blades blood-clot in battle,
while women and children depart.

Membranophones of death hassle,
The demons' force invades the castle.

© G. V. 12-15-2012, All Rights Reserved


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Midnight Lamb

 should be tired, but I'm not
It's cold outside, but i'm hot
My mind wanders, and it stalls
As I stare at these blue blue walls
It's dark in here, but too bright
I wish my day was my night
I feel safe, but I'm under attack
As if my old demons want me back
I shouldn't be here, but I am
I should be fighting, but I'm a lamb
To the slaughter I will soon go
And no one, save myself, will know.


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In Utero

I ****ing hate myself and want to die.
In Utero, I deem inspiration,
but not sarcasm or imitation.
My anguish is authentic and a cry
for help, but why would people waste their time?
Not like their so-called justification
for concern is any indication
that they care enough to bawl, weep and cry.
Nobody will even care when I’m gone,
much less the violated deity.
For that, I am ungrateful and alone.
I scorned her body with a written piece.
A conclusion which should have been forgone.
Forgone like death, which should put me at ease.


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The Fire

Like all things that appear innocent, fire is in the pit of all.
Like a the clear sky before the rain fall, Like a rainbow after the storm
Our love was pure but the fire raged inside. 
Was it just lust or were we  in love
no one could of save both of us, Indestructible is what we thought we were but our weaknesses got the best. As we burned and burned with out the might to stop the  death that was awaiting us. 
What we thought to be happy was actually the manic of our affair. The memories will remain until we have the strength to detain, detain ourselves from each other, We may not have the strength to destroy what made us but we can stop this torture that we create
… Glass shatters just as our hearts when we walked away, when we walked away from all we thought was Important all we fought for. The fight was long and hard but even we couldn't save each other it was destine we were bound to be destroyed 
Like a fire when everything burns to the ground,When all is thought to be lost
we have to find hope without the weight of our destruction haunting us 
like a wild fire out control that exactly how we were 
it was our fate for our candle to burn out 
to burn the memories that might remain to burn all that attaches us to one another  like a fire we had to move on and still have hope that one day even with out each other we would be happy just maybe we could happy without each other one day, and just like a fire we were no more we had to burn before we created death and let others mourn..


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The darkness in my head

I'm lookin' for myself this way 
And I will never turn away 
I'm waiting for the chance.

I see the light in dark tunnel 
I know I can destroy this hell 
I hope I can do this. 

The darkness in my head 
I'll never be allright 
And for my way widespread 
I should come into fight 
I'm livin' in a lie 
I've never been ahead 
And now I wanna fight 
the darkness in my head 
Ideas in my mind... 

You know 
How you're presented at this show 
If you don't change your way today 
Tomorrow be the same 
But now

The darkness in my head 
I'll never be allright 
And for my way widespread 
I should come into fight 
I'm livin' in a lie 
I've never been ahead 
And now I wanna fight 
the darkness in my head 
Ideas in my mind.

There will be light at the end of the tunnel one day...


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Dark rider

Dark Rider.

Dark Rider he’s a coming
All the people running scared
Panic streaked across their frightened faces
With his mask of blackest horror 
He loudly screams at them
His manner cold, he has no lovely graces

He made a deal with Satan
A thousand years ago
He was given immortality
He's crazy don't you know?
The Fiends of Hell all ride with him
With snakes wrapped round them too
He'll hunt you down no matter what you do.

He comes to torture people
He's a beast without a soul
As he travels through the wastelands
With his horde of Hades Ghouls
He has no heart, he has no soul
He only has the power
To trample hearts, so folk will never flower

Dark rider he’s a coming 
Folk all running scared
With no one knowing where he's going to be
They're running round in circles 
They are, oh yes indeed
He keeps folk captive, never sets them free.

Dec 10 2003


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The Eyes On The Wall

Written April 29, 2013


What do you do
When you see through
All of the pictures that you keep on the wall
All of the people that will come to the ball

Be the light in my basement
You came in when the day went
When the moon pierced the sky
And the night wondered why
You lit up from my fright
Be the bright of my light, tonight

Give birth to my form, we mourn
That you got out of town
But you're still hanging around
To suffer just like the rest
Of us who shoot up in jest
You'll go a-holding your chest

In the mirror of a window pane
I can see their pain
Your heartache has made mine real
How do we continue to steal
From the ones without meal
Breathe fire into the steel

Confirm my reality
My invisibility
Has become surreal to me
So I litter the walls with lights
In hopes that I might
See the sun rise tonight

Moloch preys on the young
And on those who have won
Into the mystic we might
Die from losing our sight
From flaring into the sun
Staring down the barreling gun

I thought I knew them before
All the eyes on the wall
Follow without hesitation
Like faces at a train station
That keep whistling by
Not one wonders why

The world has been torn apart
Before the kids could start
To piece it back together
Could a puzzle get better
Should we re-imagine this earth
Or should we not weigh its worth

What do you do
When you're through
Counting the cattle as they go by the door
Keeping a carpet that's so thick on the floor


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Sad Excuses

Kill it all away
Like they havent hurt you before
You give them a new begining
But they keep using the same old Excuses
Everytime you ask them something about that subject
They dont reply
Or they give you that sad excuse
Arent you tired of it yet?
Or are you still going to play the same old games
That excuse kept inviting you in
You kept using it 
hanging on to the excuse
Just to say they will change
But have they?
You cant see it
You havent noticed
You are still blind from there first excuse
Still letting them hurt you
Do they have an excuse for that too?


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A Gray Christmas

The little boy sits by the christmas tree 
Full of light and color
Trying to figure out what all the colors are
He puts his little hands on the ornaments
Trying to see what they are
Feeling them
He steps back and falls over a present
He feels around the box trying to open it
Only seeing alittle 

Mean while on the phone..

his mom is talking to the doctor

"do you think he will be able to see by christmas?" she says
The doctor replies "theres no guarentees, he is 67 % blind, when we did the test with him, he described the color blue as a dark black, and a yellow as a light gray, your son only sees in black and white and im not sure if we can fix that. but we will do our best"

A breathe escapes from her lips as she turns and looks at her son
The doctor explains "his surgery is set for Dec. 7th. be here around 8 am and we will see what we can do, im trully sorry"
He hangs up.

Back in the living room

The boy stands up and walks over to his mom
"mom, have you seen the christmas lights?" he says

She replies "yes sweety i have."

He hugs her leg and says "are they black and white?"

She answers "no sweety" she points to a light bulb on the tree

"this one is blue" she smiles

He grabs the light bulb and repeats "this one is blue" and giggles

She lays him down in his bed as he quickly falls asleep

She sits down on the chair and thinks
"to me. because my son cannot see the beautiful lights and feel the joys of christmas, everything is gray for me. nothing will fill my empty heart"


There are no smiles, when everything is gray, when you cant see the colors of a bright day




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Inside the Membrane

The pain I feel inside 
Can be derived from my dad pride
I sit alone at night
There is this emptiness that is
The squandering of time
pondering what life will be like
Who knew that twenty-one
Would be More bumps and lumps than fun
I want to dump this chump
Standing in front of the mirror
Waiting till its clearer
This Brings a sobering effect
Over thinking each step
It is like I'm playing freeze tag
With these mundane demons
And They always keep me in check
Because I cant see them
I have been contained and constrained
I complain of chest pains
Till my veins pop off like champagne
Bruce Banner's a freight train
Going insane in the membrane

So should I smoke weed then
To cope with this moping season
Cause my yoke is heavy
and dope seems dope for lots of reasons
Even though I do know
What the verse says in Ephesians
"Do not get drunk on wine...
Instead be filled with the spirit"
This is my one beacon
That's give me hope when I hear it
Its a choice for heathens
Like me, to write our own lyrics
Since death has been beaten
And no longer need to fear it
His love is infinite


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Rebel

Now is the time
Where I let go a part of me.
The one who got away from the world 
Never let anyone in
For fear didn't let me bond.
There was pain
It lingered in bittersweet happiness
Emerging in unlikely moments.
Tears.
Doubt.
Hopelessness.
No way out.
But, I held on and mingled with it.
Defying it's underlying desires.
It would dance on my emotions.
Holding on.
Then, I let go.
Setting it free.
Depression don't follow me anymore
For I'm a rebel in the darkness.


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A Rainy Day in November

It’s a rainy day in November
The sun I can’t remember
It’s dark when I rise
    And to no surprise
        It’s dark when the work day ends.

It was a rainy day in November
The year I can’t remember
She packed her stuff
    And left in a huff
        As our marriage came to an end.

All my days are rainy Novembers
No more fire in the embers
Twelve months a year
    My sky never clears
        Happiness, I can only pretend.

It’s a rainy day in November
I wrote a letter that I’ll never send her
I did her wrong
    Now I sing this song
        With a refrain that never ends.

It’s a rainy day in November…


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BEAUTIFUL MISTAKE

Lets hike through broken lanes, till life make sense
Lets fence fear, give that insane pain a blockage
Till life make sense

Lets page our broken pieces of thoughts and hope
Let climb valleys and hills of sin
Till life make sense

Hold me tight, lets crash those ends that break us to ashes

Walk with me, parade the sour cloudy waves
Till life make sense

Lets throw stones to talks untill they sink
Lets dance till our sweat forms a sea
Till life make sense

Together we can drift, and swim through the sharks
Wrap you in my skin, hold till we start to float
We'll ride though the smoke
Untill life make sense

Lets float till we describe a dream
Freedom can only mean you and me

The world fires at you, roast you bad within
Paint you in black , till you drown in black wine
You dance and wine in pain, closes your heart, embracing the devils wheels within
You steam , role yourself as own enemy, then throw yourself in the bin
You watch as my heart scatter and shrink within
Say that am too good for sting
But I won't just let you fade, you're my beautiful mistake
I'l dive on your skin
Tilt pain, sun-kiss your soul, breath away drama and doubt
Till we fly in flashes

I 'll wear your heart, breaks locks, till love saves us

We'll run the light till we find the truth
I'll breath you, humour you till we find us

I'll stir chances on you , dance with hues
Till I seclude you completely from blues

Babe you're the force behind these traits
You track my mysteries and remind me what life is supposed to be
You're the pioneer of my dreams, the slasher of my big pride

You patron my moods, you're the twin of my smile


Your love is a massive crowd that cheer my heart
Your hand is the sun that catches and warms my soul

You paint all corrodes that threatens my future
You cement my dreams, the stars seems so near

You dish away nonsense, critics are cage as slaves

You're my ultimate king
You're my platinum win

You make me mingle with my spirits
Tatter dark till there's a healing

Meeting you was a mistake
Loving you is a cheeful beautiful mistake

21/12/2013 liz leppy


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Living Nightmares

Vivid memories surround
As the darkness draws near
A weak, wounded man
Consumed by all fear

This man cannot breathe
His heart races on
This past he must face
Until the clock reaches dawn

The remorse and regret 
He never thought he'd feel
Is risen from these thoughts 
Cuts that won't heal

Drowning in his own sorrow
Has become a routine
For he cannot escape this nightmare
Because of tragedies unforeseen 

This hell he must endure
Until he finally awakens
To the bright light of day 
His soul completely shaken

These dreams he can no longer take
Tell the story of his being
This happens every night
There's no way to stop the bleeding


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Dear my heart

Where is your home, my heart?
Why are you silent?
We went through many things.
We were living life.
We lost the last that we have gotten
But still there is no end.

You are confused, my heart.
I feel it.
There are so many roads which
Lie before but only God
Does know which one will lead to
Paradise, and which one straight to hell.

Where is your home, my heart?
I’d love to know where to go.
Who is for us?
Who will protect us?
Who will help to find the way?

We forgave so many people, heart.
So many things we left undone.
We split into the pieces our vision.
The life that is unclear we gave up.

You are not broken, heart.
You are not tired.
I feel you beat still in my chest
But why all the time are you so silent?
Why are you so afraid?


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Frozen

Ice rains down from the heavens tonight,
Frozen tears cut through the air.
Smooth solid sheets of glass, I lost sight,
Were you even really there?
Shattering like spiderwebs, beneath me broken,
Rage, the storm, badly batters, 
The pounding of the pain has spoken,
Crystal clear the heart cracks, it shatters.

Where has the light gone, everything is blue.
I search for answers, I search the truth for you.
Don't freeze me out, let me in, warm my soul.,
The ice is beating me down, taking its tortured toll.
These aching fingers can no longer hold its grip.
From you now, I fumble, like a feather falling, I slip.

Tears rain down from heaven tonight.
Frozen memories in the air.
Shattered mirrors of glass, I have no sight,
You were never really there.
Red eyed crying, my heart bleeds until empty,
Cold, the ice, beyond repair.
There is the death of the light within me.
I invited you in, frozen tears are never fair.


There is no way to survive this frozen fight.
Death rains down from heaven tonight


07-17-2014


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Why my heart ponder

Why my heart ponder?
I, your offender..
What I gave?
Dark love in a cave...

I promised you a thousand lands
Didn't give enough sands...
Changing me and my love,
Hiding behind the black scarf..

Hiding me I couldn't speak,
Feared losing in a streak.
This was my only reason
But turned my passing season..

Now I rattle,

As a foolish cattle
Leaving your land and cheese,
Yet to find me some peace...


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our love

our love has come and gone
just like the freshly played melody of our song
though i cannot lie
i will sigh
to you i will say a final goodbye
our love has faded away
like a breeze on a hot summers day
our love has gone out of fashion
and its time to move on
because our love has come and gone
like the faded memory of our song
and with a sigh
to you i say a final good bye


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FASTEN YOUR SEATBELTS, IT'S GOING TO BE A BUMPY NIGHT

The journey of life ends at some holy land.
The roads are so awfully dark and too blur.
The night do seem so long as never to end
And that dreamed daylight appears too far.

Still we tread the stony steep roads of life
On wild desire-car that bears us, our dreams.
Edges of the road slice our hopes like knife
But courage holds us against scary screams.

After the fall of dark night, daylight appears.
Behold there, where waits dreamland of Light.
O Solitary Traveler! Forsake your frosty fears,
Fasten seatbelts It’s going to be a bumpy night.


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Did you even know

In School they misused "adhd"
"Stop acting like you have adhd"
"I'm so hyper today, I think I have adhd"

And I felt the pain, like someone had hit my in the stomach, every single time. But what could I do? 

Adhd is not only hyperactivity 
Adhd is not only being detracted easily 
Adhd is not only high arousal
Adhd isn't my choice, did you know?

I would have begged them to stop, but I was ashamed of being different in such a way that I had problems understanding it myself

I tried to hide it. "Why do you take those pills" they ask. I have a problem with signals in my brain. It's psychical, I tell them. They understand because psychical things are so much easier to understand




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Deirdre

 
Don’t you know Deirdre’s gone? Don’t you know Deirdre’s gone? I can sence her embrace that feels like Tragedy A heart to have, slipped beneath the waves The dark pulse now beckons us closer How many days will this passion bleed away? We will be the ones left to blame Beware we’ve become their prey They say you’re addicted to your pain A lifeless cold barren soul left to die in the rain A whisper too close to the edge A call from the dark Brings out a saving spark An Exodus from her Pain Her Life Spent breathing in Shame A Shadow Call breaks the Silence Am I the one to blame? Don't you know Deirdre's gone? Don't you know Deirdre never said wrong? Don't you know Deirdre's gone? “My Decadence was just for you Though you’d never care what I’ve been through Enter the world were empathy is clandestine A world created by you, just for me What’s Lying in my heart is why You want to through the stone” I call your name towards nightfall’s reign But they take you so far away A dark angel so divine Cursed by Eden’s heart I will avenge every tear An Exodus from her Pain Her Life Spent breathing in Shame A Shadow Call breaks the Silence Am I the one to blame? Don't you know Deirdre's gone? Don't you know Deirdre never said wrong? Don't you know Deirdre's gone? Don’t you know Deirdre’s gone? Don’t you know Deirdre’s gone?


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Dreamer's Disease

Written August 5, 2011


Why don't these constellations follow me
Smash-up mercy disease
When you go outside to find the light
In the middle of a cold dark night
Is when I'll ask if all your dreams are dying out

You only got one dance left to rid this dreamer's disease
Hey you over there
Do you give up more than you give
All my friends keep breaking down in two
Is there really any reason to live
When you can only get as much as you give

Davey lives at the end of the sea
So sink on down and look him up for me
And when the curtain's falling
Morning's calling
Won't wake up you got the dreamer's disease
Won't wake up you only get what you give


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Grave Yard

Your eyes shut tight
Hearing a sound
Your heartbeat races
You can feel the little pieces 
Bleeding through
The hairs on your arms
Stand up
Closing your eye lids shut
Keeping them from opening
Reaching your hand over
To turn on the light
Once you do
You open your eyes
And nothing is there
Your heat beat dies down
And your back to feeling alone

Walking to the graveyard 
Going there as you
And leaving there as someone else
You can feel them all around you
Grasping unto you
And never letting go
Places parellel
You know its something paranormal

You decide not to stay
You feel yourself start to fade away
pretty soon everything
will be back where it belongs

The ghost grabbed unto your depression
And it slowly killed you
From the inside out
Now you are in the graveyard


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Do Not Delay

Remember that day
Your memory set to replay
Remember that day
When your life was astray

Tattered curtains in the wind
A path you soon rescind
Echoes of silence in the halls
Shadows dance upon the walls
Her door off its frame
Search, call her name
Terror brings you to your knees
Your gut twisting with unease

Remember that day
Your memory set to replay
Remember that day
When your life was astray

Screams burn outside
The attack worldwide
Determined to find her
Afraid of what may occur
Heart breaks at the thought
When nearby a gun is shot
Running wild in the night
Praying it’ll be alright

Remember that day
Your memory set to replay
Remember that day
When your life was astray

Words still engraved
Your soul enslaved
Memories on your mind
Apocalypse of mankind
Her love you dearly miss
The unforgettable last kiss
Feeling her last breath
As she welcomed death

Remember that day
Your memory set to replay
Remember that day
When your life was astray
Remember that day 
When she faded away
When you were unable to say
What your heart wish to convey


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End It

End It
By: IzaDonna

My demons crouch real low
Seeping out of me real slow
The pain protectively covered
Darkening memories like no other
But I hide behind a smile
This life not seeming worth while
The blade I have is ready to go
Life already being at an all time low
So bring on the darkness
i no longer have a purpose

Chorus
I push you away to protect you
My sickness n pain being nothing new
So save yourself from my sorrow
Cause I won't live to see tomorrow
You deserve someone better
So let me be and go find her

Loneliness is my own choice
Feeling so lost with no voice
So I let each day slip by
Everyday just wanting to die
What have I become
Where did all this pain come from
Being left alone is my desire
The spark going out in my fire
My days I feel are at an end
Too far gone to possibly mend

Chorus

So bring on the darkness
I've lost my purpose


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Thank you

Thank you for a good lesson,
For the times when you left me alone,
For all my sleepless nights in your house,
For the love that wasn't true,
For the smiles that never warmed me up,
For the looks that never made me stay,
For the realizing that there was nothing
To fight for.

Thank you for your promises that
You have broken in time,
For the words that were ugly,
For the comments that did hurt,
For your screamings, putting me
To work for never saying me
This simple “Thank you!”
Because I thank you.


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I Know -Poem about Depression-

I can see through you
I can tell your past was blue
And I hope you still don't feel the same
It's the silent killer to blame

I know you've had those days
Where it seemed that life was a maze
And it was so hard to talk to anyone
The attention they payed to you was none

I understand the pain you've felt
You wanted to tie your neck with a belt
They'd get angry when you'd vent
So then you were back in your depression tent

Nobody but you and me understand
But you and I have a plan
No more faking your smiles
And to a happy future, you'd go many miles

Trust me, it has an end
And it will end with a friend
And it will not end with a grave
Come on, you are brave

We'll beat this together
No matter how stormy the weather
And no matter how fast the winds will blow
I know.


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Off The Grid

                                    I am hiding
                           I don't want to be found
                                Can you hear me
                            I am no longer around

                                    I am hiding
                           I don't want to be there
                                 Can you find me
                             I am right over here

                                    I'm in hiding
                             No need for the world
                                   No pretending
                          No more s--t will be hurled

                               You came to find me                           
                             But I'm no longer there
                                 I don't want you
                                 I no longer care

                              You came to find me
                                I have gone away
                               Quit your stalking
                            Your rules I won't obey

                            Don't come to find me
                             I have given up hope
                               Stop your hunting
                           My only friend's this rope


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my rain fairy

My rain fairy came riding on a dark cloud,
White hot flash in tow, rollin thunder clapping loud,
My rain fairy brought blinding rain down every dale,
My rain fairy brought a force 10 gale,
My rain fairy brought a lot of love,
She`s got an iron fist in a velvet glove,
I saw Drops of rain catching the suns glow, 
The day my rain fairy came riding rainbow.
My rain fairy makes me take a bow, 
Makes my future happen now,
My rain fairy won’t let me sail,
My rain fairy brought a bushel of hail,
The rain fairy touches my life in every way,
Making it worthwhile more than words can say,
My rain fairy walks faster than I can run,
I gotta meet her before she hides behind the sun,
I said to her one day,
How I long to be with you my dear, cant you feel my pain,
Can’t you be with me and douse it with your rain, 
But then,
My rain fairy brought a lot of love,
She`s got an iron fist in a velvet glove,
Now she’s gone and I don’t know why, she’s left me here staring at the sky, thinking of the day,
My rain fairy came riding on a dark cloud,
White hot flash in tow, Rollin thunder clapping loud


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Writing On Walls

Listen, Listen, Listen -
Open up your eyes and ears
See the starlight, watch it, feel it as it
Glistens, Glistens, Glistens -
Reflecting coldly off the teeth between the gears.

Run, Run, Run -
Come and see what's going down
Watch the people, hear 'em, fear 'em with their
Guns, Guns, Guns -
No time left for us to fool around.

     These things we're doing can't be right
     These deeds done in the dark of night
     We'd better stop and answer the calls
      From the Other Side, stop writing on their walls.

Look, Look, Look -
Read the things we're posting up there
Know the meanings, seek 'em, find 'em in those
Books, Books, Books -
That is, if you really do care.

Getting, Getting, Getting
Ask yourself what you really want
Taste the bitter, weigh it, say it while you're
Fretting, Fretting, Fretting
Over all the things of which you're not so sure.

     These things we're doing can't be right
     These deeds committed in the dark of night
     We'd better stop and answer the calls
     From the Other Side, stop writing on their walls.

     These things we're saying can't be true
     These things we're writing can't be what we want to do
     We'd better stop and listen to the calls
     From the people on the Other Side, and read the writing on the walls.


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unnecessary chains

driving home
another late shift 
work long hours just 
to make dues
when the money I received 
gets paid back to you. 
lurking in the shadows
a man that has no soul
looking for ways to make
them like him more
his face is fresh I speak the truth
but justice isn't there...
all he cares is bonuses they set for him 
to slayer. 
corruptness lies where there is debt
and in our debt lies chains
the ones who say we're free are lame to think
its not a game. 
a joke, lies go up in smoke
as he goes home, with his bonus, alone.
wishing his dick was a little bigger. 
wishing the white girl loved him as much as she loves
the man he took away. 
Unnecessary Chains. 
Unnecessary Chains. 
his fresh robotic face
a disgust to the human race.


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Sinful Saint

Yeah I walk around life waitng for death/ 
I live in constant despair looking to be blessed/ 
Lies over truth around here always seem to infect/ 
The more sin I get in life the more saintly I seems less/ 
Im trapped in same dark place ;looking for a lighter quest 
I try and live a life full of goodness still trapped in badness I am yet to confess/
 I try and hold onto what seems like something but theres nothing really but family left/
 I know I am not he best, nor am I like the rest/ 
I know I can master checkers but still downed in chess/. 
I got to clean up my act because my life is a mess/ 

I patiently sit back while I ponder life for death and I wait/ 
I might as well look for something simple because I never find nothing great/ 
I struggle to stay under love and over my own hate/ 
I try and be real with others when to my own self I stay fake/ 
I feel life obstacles jolt my ambition like a chain that never breaks/ 
I want less more in life yet as a daily sinner I continue to both physically and mentally take/
 I try and change my dark ways but still struggle at the fact that it might be too late/
 I usaully catch myself complaining when infact I should be thankful for whats on my plate/
 I usually hang onto the past and get scared of the future when I should worry about today/
 I going to be that better man for my child because that sinner no longer in my heart I aint/
 Sometimes in life we all struggle until we strive, but until then Im trapped between a young lost SINFUL SAINT........


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Bruises

Bruises
By: IzaDonna

Surrounded by darkness
Emotions hidden away
Bruises disguised with smiles
Never would think it
That my past still haunts me
The scars still completely cover me
I hide them so you can't see
I'm really not at all okay

Chorus
The bottles eases the pain
The dust numbs the ache
Can I ever just forgive?
Instead up building up this hate
I just want to find peace
I want my smile to be real
But its hard to do so
When I can no longer seem to feel

Frightening dreams keep me awake
Forever replaying in my mind
Life seems to be so much longer
This winding road so much harder
Can I just get a release
Beat these inner demons and be free
Or do I have to be forever cursed
With the ghosts of the past

Chorus

I look up at the stars
And close my eyes tight
Its time for last good-byes
Its time to end this tonight
I take one last chug
And fall to the ground
Take one last gasp
And then no longer make a sound

Chorus

I'm finally okay


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The Price

Shivering in silence
Fading in disgrace
I can not name this feeling
But I can recall this place

A kingdom in my nightmares
A vision as I wake
A broken, crying infant
On the throne of my mistakes

I stand outside his city
On the verge of stepping through
The portcullis then closes
Because I’ve denied the truth

Quietly I listen
For the price that must be paid
If I ever wish to enter
I must find something to trade

My sanity seems willing
So I release it into night
Again the vision’s singing
Burning through the light

This time I am crying
Deep within the walls
And in this empty kingdom
A child mourns within his walls

Shivering in silence
Sat upon my throne
With sanity now traded
I am left to fade alone


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The Dark Half


The Dark Half…

Demons trapped inside of me
Released for the world to see
Awakened from their life-long slumber
At last they’ve been set free
My inner rage is the fire that fuels me
My anger seethes from every pore
No longer caged, my desire will rule me
A bloodlust to even the score

I am only half the monster being a man has made me
The other half is like a forgotten dream
Half the monster being a man has made me
The dark half that you now see…

I feel a rage like I’ve never felt before
To inflict pain in a way that cannot be forgotten
Years of suffering over, ended once and for all
Laid to rest with the bodies of those I’ll leave for dead
Call my name and in my own grave you’ll find me
Spark to flame I will rise as you are falling
I can’t explain, not in words but in violent actions
Uncontrolled, exacting vengeance while slowly killing myself

I am only half the monster that being a man has made me
The other half is a forgotten dream
Half the monster being a man has made me
The dark half that you now see…

…In a reflection of the world around me,
I have become all that I have seen,
At times, that which I most despise…
The dark half that lives in me.


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Maze

I would do anything for an honest song
Without the noise and fractal moments to chain me
I would spiral in motes that reach every truth’s edge
Weave around the lurking lies drowning all tenderness

I am paused, in my life around beauty that cant breathe
From searing minds, a million cracks on every one of my nights
I walk a bit further away each time, shrugging off minds
Not knowing if this life can hold on to me any longer

I see fabrics of every thought, entwined in gossamer hopes
Swinging in winds of eternal changes; wishes on rapids
Too hard to resist, the churn all too familiar and too painful
Storm-dancing into some reality’s sodden pages

Damp, like faces whose tears never wore their sorrow
I clench and unclench in knots of every ancient lore

Turn to me Truth, look at me; I am your goddess
Your future ahead, the move that you wouldn’t dare as yet
Take me in your arms; I would warm your icy lips
Rip your tarnished soul and birth you yet another time…


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Infinity

Cannot be defined,
cannot be contained,
never even seen it,
will make you go insane.

always unknown,
keeping my eyes wide open,
quicker than the slowest liquid,
steeper than the smallest mountain.

deeper than dished pizza,
bigger than beaches on Ibiza,
can't even believe it,
always deceived by it,

thicker than mocha,
tastier than hot cocoa,
tried to touch it,
can't put a smudge on it.

tried to hear it,
its already gong,
star dust in the unparalleled wind,
like an old cherished song.

time for the next puzzle,
everything falling to pieces,
gone like strobes in the dark night,
ready for a new lease of light.


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EYE Don't See -Part 3-

My eyes
Witness your departure
My eyes
Are dripping with hopelessness…
My eyes start to blur…
Melancholy put me under pressure…
Is there a cure to my disease? 

You don’t see
The shards of hope that once brought us back together
Just let me search for safety
I’m strong enough to realize that I’m no longer
The weakest prey out there…

And I’m left in my solitude…
Do you hear me whimpering like a distraught puppy left on the train tracks?

I’m close to my demise…save me and take me home

Nourish me…and be my beloved friend

Will this friendship last forever?

Hopefully it has no end

Will this cheerful moment help us get along with each other?

Because of you…I feel the need to run 
I keep an eye on you – I worry that you’ll hurt yourself again
Because of you…My freedom is nearly gone
I don’t wanna be caught off guard again
Because of you…EYE can’t picture a solution for our vexing dilemma 
Because of you…eye can’t focus on my long-term goal 

And I’m left in my solitude…
Do you sense that I’m giving in to failure? 
And I’m close to my demise…
Only to find myself disappear…I can’t endure 
The hardships that you place upon me…
Could you boost up my confidence to overcome 
My atrocious anxiety? 

I’m just waiting for some sun
To keep me in good hands…
To strengthen me with perseverance …
I’m just waiting until His son
Leads the world outtah Egypt and reveals to us…
His radiance…His dazzling Kingdom – 
Vibrant with glee

Your undying sympathy dawns upon us
I’m overflowing with indescribable joy  
You’re a candle in the night…
We meet eye to eye…
What a sight…what a precious sight


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I'm On my own

My Life Sucks
Author Dana Redricks
September 15, 2014

Everything I have does not
Belong to me.
The moment I become attached 
To it gets taken away the people
I love, to material things.
I have learned not to get attached 
To nothing because nothing belongs
To me.
I am an orphan living in this world.
I am wanted by none, and what I’ve 
Done cannot be undone.
I’m on my own, and wishing I had a
Clone then I wouldn’t be so all alone.
How did my life start off so wrong?
It’s dark and dreary and empty, and void.
This song of solitude I try to allude,
But it hurts me, and I beg to be free.
If I wasn’t scared of dying; I would
Take the road less traveled, and take
That risk anyway, but I think I’ll take the 
Road less traveled.


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Alchemy of Betrayals

They gotta have it, the crave bites hard
The reach of squalid power, mottled decadence 
Raucous minds, the graveyard of illicit victories
Lives bargained on the dark side of promises
Trusts betrayed, turning cartwheels on honesty
Walk confused, too frozen to face realities
Minds stoned on long cherished hopes
All get bartered on wiles wrapped tight
The colors of betrayals drip red and sleepless
Careless ashes in an unsuspecting hearth
The turmoil it wreaks is all too rabid
As innocent lives get compromised over and over…


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Don't Give Up On Me When I'm Out

I set my eyes to this future of thine,
And I’ve always seen that one day it would be mine,
But all that it is running into a wall cryin’,
And all for lust, lying in suicide, dyin’,

And right here, right now, I have it all,
You’d never roll the dice, and see it cast me to fall,
But it was a destined run, I’ve always needed to crawl,
Into my own dark lair,
With all this smoke that just stares,
And the pipes that don’t break,
Injecting all I can take,
Infecting myself with hate,
And never really seeing everything I had at stake.

I’m laying there lifeless looking into your eyes,
And telling you I trust you, even through all the lies.
I’ve been alone for so long, but now I have you.
I’ll share with you my deepest secrets, and never adieu.
You look so friendly, but I’m filled with fear,
I think I’m paralyzed, dying, because I’m stuck right here.
Would you please check my pulse, and make sure I’m alright,
Because I love you, and I can’t die here tonight.
And then I realize you were just smoke, and I shed a tear,
Because you were my only friend, but you were never really here.
And now I know I’m going mad, and having delusions,
“I can’t breathe,” “I’m going to die,” are my only conclusions.

And right here, right now, I have it all,
You’d never roll the dice, and see it cast me to fall,
But it was a destined run, I’ve always needed to crawl,
Into my own dark lair,
With all this smoke that just stares,
And the pipes that don’t break,
Injecting all I can take,
Infecting myself with hate,
And never really seeing everything I had at stake.
But for Heavens’ sake,
Please, don’t give up on me,

People cared at one point, but that’s come and passed,
And since then, I’ve gone farther and farther into this crash,
But right now, I only care, because I’ve run out,
Tomorrow, I’ll have more, and nothing to b***h about.

But I’m not dead yet, and I wish I could stop,
But I want to keep going ‘til I die or get caught,
There’s nothing to live for, so why should I care,
That everything’s dark, and I can’t feel the air,
And there’s wetness running down my chest,
And I’m convulsing, reaching for somebody’s vest.
That’s all I remember of that dark lair,
But then, I awoke in the government’s care,
Still, no family, friends, or dealers who care.
Still couldn't learn my lesson there.


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Heavy Conflict Don't bother Me

I fast boy, this aint no foot race
What you playing?
What, you think you got a game ginni in your game pack
Well, I paint Black
And stain them in Pain on rare occasions
Occassionaly coming up in death throes
Dead body is my stomping ground on this beat
My melody be blasting bastards, knocking em backwards
the Force of theses 5 Felonies be unappropriate behaviors
And if you ever seen me in Airstrik...es, 
Well, when you seem me you'll be very quiet
And if you thought it was adequate
my accurrecy so precise you can't phantom the damn damage
You know Im real skilled, and the satisfaction of it leaves me upset still
It was Mercy from God for me to carry this pain cause it suits me like it is a deep love
If Seashell's is ever in Hell then I'll be busting a knucklehead if he wants to act a badass
This aint a brag, no we never come in a boast boy,in my conduct I be, I promise you honorable,I standup as I stand for a higher standard
and when i get mad i act bad, When im in a heavy conflict
jaxattacks are my chosen tactics,
And nowhere in my eyes does she see me ever being a leader or getting the best of a ***** when she on my badside
My Blood cleansed that land, I faced the devil slanging quarters and halves in every which direction like my creation changed due to evolution thru the fact that i was moving too ****ing fast man, But i grew out of it like I went from panic to romantic attacks
From the battles with the devil and demons and nets set , and tribulations and Mania and Im still maniac, Still A disciple of Ninjitsu, my senses still keen, iM SINGLE till i get my possessions back, the love in my heart concealed, its so hard to hide my love I feel so many sharp p[ains,Love Felt feel these steel bars they are a million you would have to go thru to hope to find one, a connection u never dectected the quality of,im 10 times 99topics liike im a balla up talking in manner never heard of, be the bang that yo body been starving for, rt


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In the Dark of the Night

In the Dark of the Night
It really doesn't matter
How much snow is on the ground
Or how deep the frost has penetrated
Earth's sacred and hallowed ground.

Moonlight plays with shadow
Moonlight listens to the wind
Sunlight hides with daylight
Waiting patiently for the next day to begin.

The temperature dips well below the mark
Of when waters can run clear and flow
The rivers have become a silent force
Beneath their smooth fascia of ice and snow.

Trees loom above the horizon
Their silhouettes like wooden lace
Their patterns created from the heavens above
No branch seems out of place.

In the Dark of the Night
Heartbeats feel strong
You can feel their pulsating rhythms
Breathing and Silence go hand in hand
Proof of an existence and a reason.

(December 28,  2010 Wausau, Wisconsin)

(c) Copyright 2010 by Christine A Kysely, All Rights Reserved, except the right to 
forward and to share with friends - with credit --which is held to be a good idea and 
thus encouraged.

 


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Otherside

Two paths I cant choose
shoes racked, knee caps on the pews
Hands clasped we ask for a few
Key At Bats just to come through
Cause its the fact that we don't have a clue
about what is right or true
white or blue, its misconstrued
This world's view, so tried and true
Loves the lies that its spews 
Recite spite just to argue
On the news flea bites ensue
To make you believe what you should be like
tattoos,  earrings, abuse subdued's your hearing
cant move the muse that's sneering 
the proof is mute but blaring
This route of blues is wearing
my cold shoulders are veering
my soul's holstered and fearing
These sold soldiers are tearing, us apart
We need a spark, light this dark
torque the wrench and raise the bar
scorch the bench and make a mark
 were told were quenched, when were starved
excuse my french, but our shit's
stench does not come from our arse
These sand sharks that stand on shore
can't answer The question marks,
Were all the bark with no roar
Morality's at ground floor
trying to eat pork With salad forks
Just like mister Macklemore
this hits right at you're apples core


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Bones

Written February 25, 2013


She carried her bones down the old dirt road
And buried herself down in Ohio
Between the reels and the stacks of the railroad tracks
How did we know she would never turn back
Now our heads hung low we're regretting that


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Unknowingly

At dawn,
Like the early sun rays
Embracing the 
Dew drop,
I too, kept her
In my strong arms;
Later, she melted away,
Unknowingly.

At midday,
Like ripe green leaves
Kissing the 
Tree’s trunk,
I too, held her 
On my own shoulders;
Later, she withered away
Unknowingly

At twilight,
Like roaring sea waves 
Nurturing the 
Sand shore,
I too, rowed her 
Dream boat towards
Later, she wrecked down 
Unknowingly.

At midnight,
Like glittering moonlight
Shattered in, 
I too, poured shades 
Later, she vanished far
Unknowingly.


BY WILLIAMSJI MAVELI
williamsji@yahoo.com
www.williamsji.com
www.williamsgeorge.com
www.moonmakers.com


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Meaningful Screw You's

I'm done with this I've had enough of this/
Slushy trip since Hell Paso son just quit
This empty pursuit
Of letting the past keep livin' through you/
Go ahead and equip the damn truth
It is that simple to choose
What state of the neighbor of the temple you use
But you're just so adamant to worship/
Every preliminary negative
Which is why you have sentiment for those sedatives
Want evidence man your head has been/
Set on making your *****Titanic as
You steer into a gigantic crash/
Without any ****ing idea what effect thy absence has/
On the kids and on me too/
My heart feels ripped the honest truth/
To see you empty as your holes in the wall
You're like a ghost to us all/
Pale as the Seroquil pills you down/
I want to help but under the meds what you feel gets drowned/
I have the inauspicious fear you'll end up just like Tommy
That's why I pray every night/ I can't lose you Robbie


You have no idea 
What it's like
To watch you die
Every day
Every night
All the time
You can't even see that I am
Here with you
By your side
But as much
As I try
You deny
That I fight
For your life then I scream that
To me your life's meaningful (good riddance) 
But I'm 'bout this close to sayin' **** you (you idiot)
To me your life's meaningful (good riddance)
But I'm 'bout this close to sayin' **** you (you idiot)


Why can't you just forget the past
Take some time to look at the bigger picture and not be back in a flash
We're Kruger (pronounced close to sounding like Kroger)/ the fear you helped restore gives me bags
And I'm beyond tired of takin' attacks from your last-
Ing grudge for my darker days/
I love you but I wish to part our ways/
There's only so much my heart can take
In terms of holes and you immerse me in 'em the Spartan way/
It's not our choice we're physically far away/
And yes half the reason is me that our spark gave way/
But this time it's your fault that our world is shaking
You shut me out because the ears of another girl were waiting/
It seems that even for Britney your concern's decaying
It's ****ed up/ 'cause you never acknowledged how much I changed/
'Cause of our rapport me and my fam are pretty much estranged
**** these games you love to play/ 'tween now and then nothin's changed
Good luck not lovin' me as much as pain


You have no idea 
What it's like
To watch you die
Every day
Every night
All the time
You can't even see that I am
Here with you
By your side
But as much
As I try
You deny
That I fight
For your life then I scream that
To me your life's meaningful (good riddance) 
But I'm 'bout this close to sayin' **** you (you idiot)
To me your life's meaningful (good riddance)
But I'm 'bout this close to sayin' **** you (you idiot)


For a year it's been suicide with clues to find solutions I/
Don't think you're usin' my heartful l advice/ damn dude have I
Not been full of time so you could find/ reasons for you to not be blue and live/
But everytime I cope a sit and let you vent/ you walk off and do the opposite/
Talk about exhausted *****try listenin' to all your promises
And problems it's/ a shame how it's all turned out
I'm so burnt out/
I'll be the last to say this won't work out/
If you take your anger out on me again like I'm a dating spot/
Speakin' of those feelings that you refrain from not (knot)-
Icing was it honesty/ or rants of despar (as in spar) ity exasperated by deprav (as in im"prov") ity/
Or is there a real fervor (as in carni"vore") for me
If so then why you ignor (same as above) ing me/
For a Vai's you say you are not strong enough to close
Go **** yourself with a rubber hose
I don't care where the **** it goes/
I was there when no one was and this' the thanks I get
Never was I a dick to you so why'd you wank me *****/
My tears have turned into repressed anger/
For you a brother to me now a depressed stranger
That I have to put up longer than my dress' hanger


You have no idea 
What it's like
To watch you die
Every day
Every night
All the time
You can't even see that I am
Here with you
By your side
But as much
As I try
You deny
That I fight
For your life then I scream that
To me your life's meaningful (good riddance) 
But I'm 'bout this close to sayin' **** you (you idiot)
To me your life's meaningful (good riddance)
But I'm 'bout this close to sayin' **** you (you idiot)


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The Coma

She’s trance-trapped in her own body
With sealed lip yelling for help
Wondering how she got to the dark side
She just felt so boring in there

Her spirit has been un-snugged to an unknown
There she lay ‘deadless’, yes ‘deadless’!
Like a witty wood in the mercies of its creator.
Suddenly, she saw sparks of light with her eyes wild shut

But she knew that what she thought she saw must have been a goof
Or perhaps flashes from blizzards reverie imaginary
Probably as a result of an overdosed procaine-
Well, she prayed it remained a thought.

But what if it wasn’t, what if she was walked through the light?
And she gave up without any brutal effort from her mired state?
But the reflection of what would be of her; her fat bank account; and husband
Or her kins and kindred spirits made her subconsciousness flutter with a silent sound

But when maddening sensation hits her numbness
Feeling the frozen fresh breeze caressing her skin, she mused.
If the claws of heaven had caught her (she wished)
Or was she readied to be autopsied?


She thought of how her tanned skin would be mutilated-
A forgotten feast for some hungry maggots to devour…
It dawned on her, that she must break mute and squirt an SOS sound
A breath, a hiss, or a moan, anything!

Again, she yells, but it was squingy.
She felt like succumbing to the deafness of her mute noise
With open arms, she’d welcome her ensnared delirium, a panic from a dream-
As she still can’t feel anything and herself…

She’s trance-trapped in her own body
With sealed lip yelling for help
Wondering how she got to the dark side
It just felt so boring in there

PS: the light walked through her.


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Morning meditation

Morning meditation

The Corellas come, they’re flying over
Making such a raucous din
They sound just like they own the planet
As the morning does begin
I close my eyes and take a journey
To the world where dreamers go 
And feel within that deep, deep feeling
That meditators only know.

The sky outside is like black velvet
Clouds they hide the morning sky
As the white birds fly on over
I let the morning just slip by
Morning is the time for looking
At the space that I call me
It’s a really lovely journey
To this space I love to be.

Soon the busy day will be here
All the folk will gather round
I will tell them of my journey
And the solace there I’ve found
They’ll just laugh and think I’m crazy
Many people often do
But right now, I’m meditating
When morning comes, it’s what I do.

17 November 2013 @ 0524hrs.


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The 4th Branch

The voice of racism preaching the 
gospel is devilish a fake church 
called the Prophet Muhammad a 
terrorist forgetting God is not 
religion but a spiritual bond and 
Jesus is the most quoted profit in 
the Koran they bombed innocent 
people trying to murder sudaam 
when you gave him those chemical 
weapons to go to war with Iran this 
is the information that they hold 
back from Peter Jennings cuz 
condalisa rice is just the New Age 
Sally Hemings I break it down with 
critical language and spiritual 
anguish the Judas to hang with the 
guilt of betraing Christ you 
murdered his religion and painted 
and white translated in 
psychologically tainted philosophy 
the conservative political right wing 
ideology glued together sloppily the 
blasphemy of a nation got my bakk 
to the wall cuz I'm facing 
assassination Guantanamo Bay 
federal incarceration how could this 
be the land of the free home of the 
brave indigenous Holocaust and the 
home of the slaves corporate 
America dancing offbeat to the 
rhythm you really think this country 
never sponsored terrorism human 
rights violations we continue the 
saga El Salvador in the contras of 
Nicaragua and on top of that you 
still want to take me to prison just 
cause I won't trade Humanity for 
patriotism? ,immortal


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Light my bridge

T. Hunt
Verse/intro: I remember you showed me that path,
When you paved the road for existence. 
 ~Showed me all the cracked doors, broken escapes, and then the darkness.
I can barely remember the look in your eyes my demise I realized “deaths” upon us.
~So show me the way to ignite this fight let destiny control us.~ Inferno on fire like human desire it burns we perspire and it forgets us. So where does this lead I can’t see I can’t breathe I can’t speak I can’t eat I can’t….think.
Chorus: ~This fire in our lives just burns and burns I’ve seen the light and now this hurts. And through the night the devil lurks so light my bridge like fireworks and catch me in the middle…..~”ALL alone”
Verse 2 I’m searching for the black door “that’s unknown remembering the times when they closed. |~Forget about the painted rose the times I let my heart get cold. This is real. ~Stuck in the middle of life helplessly buried alive. This bridge is breaking my pride so somebody turn on a light. ~The darkness is flowing inside it’s almost if I was..To dive. Running and running while blind is like walking right out of your life.

Chorus:~ This fire in our lives just burns and burns I’ve seen the light and now this hurts.
And through the night the devil lurks so light my bridge like fireworks and catch me in the middle…..~”ALL alone”
~Alone __{reapeat 4x’s}___________
The  lights turned on this bridge is long.

Side bar:P
I=speak
“=influence{pause}
Tempo at 4/4 time 
~=tempo change
All original
No copywrite nessasary.


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Is it real

What is this world we thou live in?
What is this life we are thou livin?
One soul is dying with every verse
The values of life are now submersed

Nothing to look up to, nobody cares
As the richer get richer on their own shares
This glorious absence of ****en respect
Has lost its meaning, what’s there to expect?

People in terror others object
Others are there to exist and be checked
Hate, Greed, Abuse is all happening now
Watch as all life is cut with a plough

Is there any hope for a better tomorrow?
Or are we entrenched in our own sorrow?
Perhaps there is a crevice of light
A beacon of hope for all that is right  


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Old Friend

OLD FRIEND

Familiar friend, your simmering glow
I welcome you whole and heartedly know
When day is night and ebb is flow
I trust in you, our love will grow

When dawn is dusk, then sun is moon
Your welcome face, the dullness soon
Neither red nor blue, no rays of light
Just shades of gray my dreams tonight

No princess to rescue
No tales of lore
Just spiraling down
And spiraling more

No faces or places or loves I’ve known
I dream of nothing and nothing alone

Together we cry, forever we moan
The pain my companion, together we’ve grown
Morning looms my bliss shall end
I’ll miss my companion; I’ll miss my old friend


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FIND ME A PLACE

Find me a place
Yee from the palace
Find me a place
Fith glittering solace
My feet are swollen
My lips are broken
My hair ha withered
Find me place 
I lay my soul
Find me a place
Yee from the palace.


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The Rebel

Dank, cold, unperturbed indifference,
Untouchable, yet touching all,
Unresolved in meaning,
Still creating each and every fall,
Every whim and leaning.

Touché pas! A cry of weary hate,
And will not accept a helping hand,
‘Till death! Brazen adverse in face of fate,
And alone in piteous stand…

Lone wolf we cry, thy fate is nigh,
Yet stands he still resisting,
That love should die, that only tie,
In error still persisting…


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The Pain of One-Sided Love

Every thing you felt with me was fake
Every little thing you said to me 
That made me feel whole.. was fake
I never felt so stupid to believe in something
For once in my life I realized no matter what
I will never be thought of, loved or cared for
By anyone but myself.. not in the way I want you to.
Nothing when we were together was real was it?
No matter if it was just two days, I felt a lot
You washed me under the rug like I never happened
Like I never made a mark on you, so what now..
Will you always ignore me and be this way to me forever?
You know it hurts that even a simple person like you
Can ask me to read their poem but not read mine.
I gave you compliment after compliment just to see you smile
Because My feelings for you were 100 percent real 
The only reason I let you walk away was because
If you love someone so much and they seem happy else where
You let them go find that happiness no MATTER how much it seems
To hurt you, scar you and bruise you over and over again
Some day that pain wont come through a poem
It will come from a rope that hangs me from the stairs.


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EYE Don't See -Part 1-

My eyes
Pour forth feelings
That I’ve felt in the past
They make my heart ache…
Take it all away…
Oh my God…
They’re making me sink in dismay

When will they break away?
When will they give me a break?

And I’m left in my solitude…
Do you hear me weeping?
And I’m close to my demise…
Only to find myself disappear…
When will peace draw near?

Eye don’t see
A happy ending in this scene 

My eyes
Journeys into the unknown
Who knows what will happen…
They’re like hidden treasure…
They’re buried far below…

And I’m left in my solitude…
My eye’s weeping…
And I’m close to my demise…
Only to find myself disappear…
When will peace draw near? 

Oh my God…
They’re driving me insane
When will they see my reflection?
When will they heal the infection?

Eye don’t feel
Raindrops of hope and relief 
All I feel…is grief…
Eye sense no peace…

And I’m left in my solitude…
My eye’s sagging…from endless mourning  
And I’m close to my demise… 
Only to find myself disappear…
When will peace draw near?

Does He hear
My supplications?
Does He sense 
My fear?

My eyes
Conceals the tears that dare to spew out
I feel trapped and lost without a doubt…
They erase my delight…
They seek my hurt…
Oh my God…
They’re casting me away into the perilous sea

And I’m left in my solitude…
My eye’s weeping…
And I’m close to my demise…
Only to find myself disappear…
When will peace throw out my fear?

Eye don’t see
A ship in sight…to save me from my demise
My lifeless body...
Drifts away in the wild ocean...
Without a sound...
Without emotion...

Eye don’t see
A rope to hold on to…
My hope for peace
Has drowned…


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Oh Yohanes

Oh Yohannes
I must be honest
I’ve got a jones for you
And when I saw you, 
I remember the sun reflecting
rays of light on your skin 
so bronze, so peaceful, so simple

I wanted to tell you all my secret
desires and temptations
and kiss you and hold you close
and when I realized I was dreaming
and that this feeling was a hoax
I began to be led astray 
by sexual desires and thoughts of foul play

but in the meantime
I have fun with the fantasy of imagining  you beside me
I stay up countless nights thinking
about how we could defy gravity
and how we could somehow reverse all the laws of sanity
and just do something crazy
I can’t make it stop
I must be crazy

And when my eyes closed...
I wanted to fall in your arms and tell you about all the fantasies that were created in honor of you

And tell you how your eyes seem to remind me that it’s okay to be beautiful

Oh Yohannes
I must be honest 
Your deeply rooted stare 
will long remain a part of my fire
and my insanely human desire to make love 


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Words

Words sting farther than you know
They stay alive long after you go
I built myself up to the person I wanted to be
But it all shattered with what you couldn’t see
I fade into the faces of a busy crowd
And dream of the words I want to say out loud
Words that release my anxious thoughts
Words from the heart that cannot be bought
Simple words like, “I love you”
That ring deep and true
Words that open me up and bare my soul
Words that weigh so heavy they take a toll
Words like, “everything’s not okay”
And, “I think I need some time to get away”
I want so much to get away from my doubt
To escape this numbing and loveless drought
I need to find the right words to say
Words that can free me of this pain
I need to find the words I want to say
Words that balance honesty and refrain
These words are burning a hole in my heart
And all of my weaknesses are coming out
They fly fiercely across the pages of my mind
As I begin to see my insecurities unwind
They rage war to rise up and show what’s true
Threatening the lives they belong to
Fear rises as I let go and just let be
Breathing out the words that set me free


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To Be

All along it hasn't been enough

being as myself.

I wanna be the ocean 

so that I never feel empty.

 

Never again, incomplete.

While listening to the sound 

of the deep that surrounds me.

 

A sign of relief 

that adapts to the sea.

For all the fallen dreams

seeking clarity inside of me.

 

I wanna be the ocean.


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My heart is dead

You didn't listen to my heart
When it was whispering to you.
When it was screaming out,
You were indifferent and cold
Just like you never cared,
Just like you couldn't love.

A special drama
Sparkling day and night,
Now we are gon' drowning
Because my heart is dead.


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EYE Don't See -Part 2-

My eyes
Refuse to see tragedy
My eyes
Marinate in dread…unable to embrace ecstasy 

And I’m left in my solitude…
My eye’s sagging…from endless mourning  
And I’m close to my demise… 
Only to find myself disappear…
When will peace draw near?

You don’t see 
What damage you’ve done
Just let me be
Leave me alone…hand me a gun

I yearn for unspoiled glory
To make me feel perfect once more
I yearn for flawless serenity
To make me feel no regret…don’t ignore
My calls…don’t hang up on me

You don’t see 
What damage you’ve done
Just hear my plea
Listen to my excruciating cries…
Listen to the truth, not the malicious lies  
Our journey has just begun   

And I’m left in my solitude…
Do you hear me weeping?
And I’m close to my demise…
Only to find myself disappear…
When will peace draw near?

Eye can’t handle the stress
Let me release my horrendous distress
Eye can see you making that same mistake
At least MY life isn’t at stake

And I’m left in my solitude…
My eye’s weeping…do You feel my lament
And I’m close to my demise…
Only to find myself disappear…Stepped on like cement
I’m aching with discontent… I abhor this torment    
When will peace scrub off my fear?

I can’t believe my eyes
Your guiltiness flows into me…
I can’t believe I fell for your lies
Your heartless action rape my mind…you don’t see
What my EYES see…

You’ll never see 
How much pressure you put me under
Unchain me from this chamber
And watch me flee…

When will you be set free?


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Miserere - God have mercy on me

 
Night after night,
the hassock in my room,
the only safe haven
against the bale anguish of times
reminding me of happiness gone by...
Worn from kneeling,
furrowed from wepping and sighing,
the purple velvet still carries traces
of time impressed with the Lord´s prayers...
Above, a crucifix in the wrath of God
reminds me of my insignificance...
My feeble and quiverving hands
are joined together,
convulsively around a rosary,
Hopelessly rising towards Thee
begging your -
Miserere, Domine!


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Remember

Remember when...

you were allowed to say what. Was on your mind?
When we were able to think of something better for ourselves?
When you could turn to a friend for help?
Do you remember when the world was cleaner?

Remember...

when you fell out of the second floor and broke your arm?
When your parents weren't around to tell you they care and love you?
How you were perfect to them?
Like how you were able to call yourself clean, smart, and honest?

Feels like forever huh?
Since you were able to talk to yourself without people thinking your crazy

Do you remember?


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Unnamed

Plugs you into my world
Turns my eyes 
Looking into my skull
Staring at my brain
Hoping to see what comes next
Takes my heart and rips it out
Dying alittle more
Shoots my gut 
And places my brain where my gut once lived
Takes my fingers and pushes them into my hand
So i just have nubs
Takes my head and crushes it
Little peices falling
Bleeding unto the ground
Dying alittle more
The unnamed feeling
Comes alive
Then it takes me away
Taking the chill off my life


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The Journey of Consciousness

Dreams lost in lack of sense
A lack of knowing where it went
Into the maelstrom; loss of sight
Machinery that stole your light

Fumbling through quiet noise
Mimicry evading choice
Everything within your grasp
When you don’t see beyond your clasp

Stubborn nightmares leaking through
The water rising lets you choose
Standing tall when you can’t sit
Your prison granting this privilege

Conscious reason comes to aid
Escaping from this shallow grave
The first revival, so alone
The sun revealing the dark unknown

Many paths, all are one
Soon to shape the dark beyond
And through the journey you will find
You were guided by your own designs

Experience is breathing through
Sharing truth to let us choose
A wakeful state to gain insight
Accept that pain can strengthen light


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An Unmet Expectation

“Expectation is the root of  all heartache”
Those fine words that were once read
Now every vital syllable is felt
Before them I was misled
With false yearning I was fed
I voluntarily injected myself with anticipation and adoration 
And sadly I failed to infuse you with the same potion
All this lead to an empty commotion 
An inner hidden turmoil of some sort
And like a shattered plate my heart fell to the ground
Living in a mirage of high expectancy and wishful thinking
Yet this hope has been misplaced
It took an epiphany to shatter my nerves and alert my senses 
That Fraud of an appeal was the stem to my heartache 
A moment of awareness mixed with the residue of regret
Denial the first step of any anguish
Molding my image of you that you have now tarnished 
Looking for some sort of justification
Like a patriot for his fallen nation
Denial Denial Denial
It rings and sings in my ear
Like a gong struck with intensity
It rang and vibrated through my ear majestically
Now my mind to you it fakes a false conspiracy 
To justify such actions I can stay hours pondering upon
Yet one day the truth will hit me
So tonight I choose to rid myself of it all
Before I crumble and fall
Tonight I rid myself of it and u…
I rid myself of it all…


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Numb

If only u saw what I could see
Then you could understand how ugly I really am
You would get why im not so beautiful

Once upon a time
I was alive
Breathing and feeling

Emit a nopu echo
Evila saw I
Gnileef dna. gnihtaerb

I saw the beast
Love didn't exist anymore
I believe that a girl can be a god
And a man can be the devil

Tsaeb eht. was I
eromyna tsixe tndid evol.
Dog a en nac lrig a taht. Eveileb.
Lived. Eht. Eb nac Nam a dna.

Words can be so expensive
They sometimes cost you your own life
Thoughts can make a fortune
If you just knew how to express them

Evisnepxe os eb nac sdrow 
Efil nwo ruoy uoy tsoc semitemos. Yeht
Enutrof. A ekam nac sthgouht
Meth sserpxe ot woh wenk tsuj uoy fi

There are clues in here do you think you can figure them out? 
There in the backwards sentances. Have fun and comment











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Kurt

i am kurt daniel everdean 
I am 21 years old
I've been playing the bass guitar
Since I was 11
i weight 145 pounds
i have blondish brown hair
and blue eyes

If I could say one thing about me that I like... Its that I never gave up.


things started when i lost my father
i was 10 years old
my mother started going to her room everytime she got home
she would come out with her eyes all red... Shes been crying
until i accidently walked in on her doing drugs
i now believe it was the drugs that caused the redness
me and my brother would fight everynight
when i bought my first bass
he slammed it against the floor
and told me since i think my lifes crap
then i shouldnt have anything that makes me happy
My mom became a street whore
She would dress in a golden gown and wear ugly make up
We would never see her 
unless she needed money to get condoms for her "men"

the things between me and my brother got worse
I was arguing with him over a text he sent my mom
And he got into an accident and died that night

Things just never got better
I created a band called the nocturnal
And the reason you haven't heard of us yet
Is because were an underground punk band in Seattle
we haven't gotten far yet
Just underground party's and bars

My mom ended up running away with her "boyfriend"
After my brother died she blamed me
And told me to leave and said she won't come around me
Until I brought him back

Since then I've gotten a job and was able to pay rent on
My moms old apartment
Hoping shed come back clean and sober
As for me
I've cleaned up. but suicide is still an option

I haven't found god yet and I don't want to
If there was a god why did he give me this ****ed up life
Ya you'll say Kurt?... You made the desicions for your life
I knolw I did. But he was the one who let it actually happen

I've been writing since I was 11
Lyrics and poems
Drawings and paintings
bass guitar and vocals

My life isn't over
But it's sure close to it

Its sad to think that what you thought was fake... Is a true story


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The Darkness

     Oh through adversity we find our way home, feeling safe in the knowledge that we are alone once again, free to feel, to breath, in any manner we choose. But as the blanket of security slowly falls to the floor, we become pulled back into the abyss of our memories. There is no force that can keep our thoughts from returning to yesterday, it bring sorrow and pain to the weary ones that have no will to resist it.
     Oh how the sounds of regrets ring though out eternity as they haunt our every waking moments, the inescapable truth, the feeling of loneliness building to its full tuition. The sorrow rains down upon our feelings of discontent as we slumber about our dreary day avoiding any vision that would remind us of the truth within. We can only wait for the night to descend down, giving us a brief moment when we can escape into the darkness once again, for only the fool has no past to change, and no future to regret.
     Oh what a day it will be when time no longer matters, no past, no future to remind us of the pain we have inside, it will be gone forever. Only fear stands in our way from this beautiful release, only the future can save us from what was. Now is not the time for regrets, the past is fading from view, We see the darkness coming an unwelcome friend, but none the less one that will release us from the bounds of this torture, from the pain of our past, an end to the sorrow of life, an end to the pain of regret. 


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Bleed for Me

Bleed for Me…

I speak in anger
Spewing rage with each new breath
The fire burns within me; exacting fight
And I know the duel is to the death

No right or wrong
I wreak my vengeance
I stand alone, strength without numbers
A leader not a follower;
Understand this…

I will take all that I need 
Even as I sit and watch you bleed
Bleed; bleed for me
Bleed for my amusement
Because you are in the way of what I need, bleed

I look your way
Eyes burning through your every move
I watch your steps
Are you watching out for yourself?
All I can say is that you had better tread lightly
Because in my world, you are not standing on solid ground
It’s time to meet the maker
The payment long overdue is now being collected…

I will take all that I need even as I sit and watch you bleed
Bleed, Bleed, but not for me
But for all of the lines you have crossed without reason


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DREAM ON

“Dream On”

Hm, my heart as it slips out of my reach
Like the waves of the sea, flowing passed the palm of my hand
Do you know what I mean? You’re eyes are as blue and playful as the sunlit, gorgeous beach
You caught my pair of eyes…I’m so mesmerized beyond reason and logic… you understand
Dream on, genuine angel of angelic joy and thanksgiving – fight the good fight 
Fight with your perpetual might…for you are my sun-drenched sight…guiding me – you were the apple to my eye…now, you’re my emerald compass, leading me to my haven

Dream on, it’s your dream to dream on day and night

Take wing from on high (don’t let your High Spirits dry)
You’re beyond compare – I can’t deny
I’ve loved you forever it seems
You have the same essence as my miraculous dreams
Dream on, dear sunlight from the moon
Soon, you’ll be by my side and you’ll relieve the gloom…from my heart…I hear your graceful tune

Dream on, it’s your passion to dream on day and night

Ooh, yeah – I adore your amber eyes…
I can’t wait to earn your priceless love back
I really love to fall in love with you – no lies
I beseech of your approval, my angelic dove…I won’t let you be that last magazine in the magazine rack
This illegal, untamed nature within me…you crossed my mind…
You pounded to the rhythm of my heart…I held your hand in mine and no one was left behind…
There’s more gold to find
In your eyes…I was never…sincerely…blind

Dream on, it’s your dazzling, flawless, and lovely nature to dream on day and night

Take wing from on high (don’t let your High Spirits dry)
You’re beyond compare – I can’t deny
I’ve loved you forever it seems
You have the same essence as my miraculous dreams
Dream on, dear sunlight from the moon
Soon, you’ll be by my side and you’ll relieve the gloom…from my heart…I hear your graceful tune

Dream on, it’s about time you dream on day and night

I was young and foolish once upon a time
You and I have astonishing alienated ambition – we’re on the same bus
You kept me going and I zoomed on like a racecar…I dreamed on…though I’m left with a scar, so shattered, yet so sublime
So far, I’ve been thinking very highly of you…you’re dead, but never truly gone in my heart…ooooh….baby – don’t fuss
I’m all ears for you…oh baby, don’t cry
I was there for you…oh darling, never wave goodbye 
I’m always by your side
Like a handsome husband and a beautiful bride
Let’s hold hands and wish for the best in our future journeys in the lifetime 
Blissful dreaming was never a curse nor is it against the rules, so let us have fun this time

Dream on, you were always meant to dream on day and night

Take wing from on high (don’t let your High Spirits dry)
You’re beyond compare – I can’t deny
I’ve loved you forever it seems
You have the same essence as my miraculous dreams
Dream on, dear sunlight from the moon
Soon, you’ll be by my side and you’ll relieve the gloom…from my heart…I hear your graceful tune

Dream on, dream on, I know you felt like an ugly duckling, abandoned…alone; but, nevertheless, dream on day and night

I danced the night away with a merry spirit in mind and soul
I fell in love so easily…but I kept on dreaming on…seeing her beauty shimmer anew like diamonds in the dark cave
I looked at you in a light-year moment…I caught a glimpse of your shine, contrary to mine; yet, you released the bad energy and tension from my skull
I got out of breath the moment my eyes met your own…we exchange smiles of everlasting fantasies…can you help me be brave?

Dream on, you were always meant to dream on day and night

Take wing from on high (don’t let your High Spirits dry)
You’re beyond compare – I can’t deny
I’ve loved you forever it seems
You have the same essence as my miraculous dreams
Dream on, dear sunlight from the moon
Soon, you’ll be by my side and you’ll relieve the gloom…from my heart…I hear your graceful tune

Dream on, genuine angel of angelic joy and thanksgiving – fight the good fight 

Fight with your perpetual might…for you are my sun-drenched sight…guiding me – you were the apple to my eye…now, you’re my emerald compass, leading me to my haven
I’m happy-go-lucky and I take wing from on high…hand in hand, we’ll fly high like a kid’s kite, caught in the wind of pleasure-wild plight
With you by my side, I feel mighty happy… we help each other through out the night… I would never neglect you as long as you fly with me tonight

Dream on, it’s your right to dream on day and night


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Outcry of a broken heart

Even my mind not stilled by silence
my thoughts outraged with hurt and hate
as Im dumbfounded with confusion
leaving the cause to no debate,
I cannot tell you what is wrong
to tell you means I'd have to trust,
and my heart no longer feels willing,
beating only cause it must.

I feel a dead man live my life
I see his cold abandoned heart,
I hear his agonising cries
as he is torn more apart,
knowing no peace, no rest I find
having no comfort, stuck in a bind
a vagabond, alone in his life
Ive been cut off, betrayal was the knife.

awaiting death, and still much worse
my whole life upon this earth
seems like a scheme to take my worth
and bring me to nothing,
such is my curse
and i fear the effects
may never reverse
and make believe that I am cursed.
the way I feel too great for words
too great to bear such constant hurt
my soul depressed and left prostrate
before God to help, I hope it works. . .


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Fool's Desire

I can hear your voice, I can feel your touch.
Behind me is the harsh strike of perfection.
I can make your choice, I can endure so much.
In front of me you slip and you stumble.
I can see you dance, I can be locked in your embrace.
Far away from us lies a dress for the occasion.
We fell for each other at the first chance, this silence is all that's in place.
All I know is how to be humble.
Locked away in your embrace, locked away in your embrace.
We're in a dead masquerade.
Never to stay away.
Thoughts of suicide always holds it's sway.
We're in a dark Wonderland.
Always cursed to have blood on our hands.
The missing roles in this play we will never understand.
Our burning fire is a Fool's Desire.
You can live my life, can't you feel my tears?
Inside of me lust is corrupting.
I can go back to the knife, I can't face my fears.
Outside I'm a social outcast.
Can you sense my pain? I'm losing your embrace.
In your heart I can see that you're trusting.
With the demons slain, your love is all that's left for me to chase.
All I know is fear of my next breath being your last.
Locked away in your embrace, locked away in your embrace.
We're in a dead masquerade.
Never to stay away.
Thoughts of suicide always holds it's sway.
We're in a dark Wonderland.
Always cursed to have blood on our hands.
The missing roles in this play we will never understand.
Our burning fire is a Fool's Desire.
YOU ARE THE SHADOW I FOLLOW!
THE FINAL PLIGHT OF DEATH!
I'M YOUR BLACK VIGILANTE MASKED WITH SORROW!
THIS LATEST TESTAMENT IS SURVIVAL'S LAST BREATH!
Locked away in your embrace, locked away in your embrace.
We're in a dead masquerade.
Never to stay away.
Thoughts of suicide always holds it's sway.
We're in a dark Wonderland.
Always cursed to have blood on our hands.
The missing roles in this play we will never understand.
Our burning fire is a Fool's Desire.


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Torment

Torment...

I lie awake at night and I can’t fall asleep
Recounting every single detail
Of my life that’s passed and surely can’t be lived again
Mistakes I’ve made and never learned from
I stare in darkness at the pictures on the wall
Waiting for their stories to unfold before me
But I don’t see a thing, nor to hear a sound
Only the gears in my mind that keep turning

I watch the clock each night and track the time
As it changes and nothing within me moves
Dreamless again the ceiling always looks the same
And death, in my mind can’t be much worse
I need to change the way that I see the world
Or turning my back should I walk away
Too many people in life that I simply cannot face
With motives of self and no one else’s needs

I find again that the night is not a friend
But a wolf in sheepskin, staring, lurking
Waiting for the moment when it may pounce and feed
On every weakness that lives and breathes in me
Heart and soul and in every breath I take
I feel the torment tearing through me
And I can’t free myself from the awful truths
As I am lying here waiting for the death of me…


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Sun Rise

You, us, I
It's all a lie
I just want to take your soul
and have you mentally die

There will come a day 
when you think I'm all yours
that's when your life will have
constant down pours.

For I'm a girl who wears a mask
deep down inside I'm filled with Malice
I promise to bring you down under
make you choke on your own smoke
as I smile looking into your eyes.

Make you feel as if you're a blunder
make you wish you'd never
want to see another sun rise.


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Asymmetrical


The boots moved slowly,
Crunching sun-baked clay.
A hazy wind down alleyways,
It moves with moans 
Then whistles softly,
Quickly gone.

A child stands in a doorway
Pulling something from his robe.
He keys in certain numbers, 
Only doing as he's told.

He waits, then hears a bomb
As it explodes.
A helmet lands and bounces
Near his feet.
He shrugs. then merges with a
crowded street.


Gene Bourne
06-03-14








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Bridge

1 am in the morning 
No noises fill the air
Sitting on the bridge
He thinks
Remembering everything
He has ever done
The street lights 
Glowing from a distance
He stands up 
Climbs over the side
Of the bridge
Stands there 
He breathes in
His last memory
stuck in his head
He lifts one foot
And jumps
his body hits the river
Water drowning his lungs
What he felt at that moment
No one could understand
Sinking to the bottom of the river
The man tied a concrete block
To his back
His eyes wide open
The last thing he saw was water
The last memory he had
Was of his daughter
Living life like this is sad
But if you have no help
Who do you turn to?



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Deprived Pride

Pride
of this i wont be deprived
I know this is going to break me
but just let me be
no better then the next person 
that im sitting here judging
she only 15 
and yeah she got a son
but here i sit
throwin' a rebellious fit
tryin' to hurt everyone around me
but little do I know
I did this on my own
but you see
I got this thing called Pride
and of this im refuisng to be deprived


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Crosses

We all suffer at the hands of another
wish we could see it's not our fault
but our mother's.
Praying to the wall
it'll make you feel  better
I won't stand for that bullshit
won't even pray for a brother.
For there's no such thing as a God 
but sorrow and hate
We,us humans, **** one another
to incriminate
our fears and losses.
we're our own devils in disguise
wearing upside down crosses.


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You cant out run me like i out run you

Always trying to out stage each other
Trying to be better at something then someone else
Trying to have a better story then them
Quite pathetic
I can tell you a truthful story about my life
You can tell me a fake story about yours
Just so yours is more dramatic than mine
You will never change
Still trying to impress me with all your lies
And when I realized
Thinking that we actually had something
I thought I lost you somewhere
But you were never really there at all


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Shedding Regret

I found this poem at last tucked in one of my journal entries...I guess it was supposed to be a song, but I can no longer remember the tune...ah well... it was written a few years ago and it kept repeating in my head. So here it eeeessssss...... :-P Jan. 4, 2008

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I cry for help there's no reply
I know that I'm alone once more
I hope, I wait, I pray, I cry
kneeling to the bloodstained floor

The blood I shed for your dark fate
Is nothing that can be repaid
For the love you gave so true...so pure
That now seems nothing anymore

I long to hear your steady breathing
My head pressed against your chest
To hear your heart slowly beating
Never hesitating to rest

(those days are gone...)


The blood I shed for your dark fate
Is nothing that can be repaid
For the love you gave so true...so pure
That now seems nothing anymore

Now I wait in this dark room
Hoping you will come to free me
Hearing whispers in the gloom
Cold breath brushing right behind me

(can it be you?)

The tears I shed for your dark fate
Is nothing that can be repaid 
For the love you gave so true...so pure
That now seems nothing anymore






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Off The Tracks

Written March 19, 2013


Along the fine black print
Has left me wondering why
They've been making it so hard
For a poor old man to die

I know what I done
Even God would shun
From the tales I've told
Of the bodies turned cold

The world has turned
Yet the butter still churns
Along the Alabama coast
Where I used to boast

Its been a few years now
Since the car stopped running
A loose train off the tracks
Lord I should have seen it coming

They know I've learned my lesson
But hell won't let me out
'Cause heaven won't take me in
Such a wicked world's chagrin


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Hey Bartender

Written 2010


Flashing lights and sounds roll by
Hear the sound of muffled sighs
Sullen words cannot express
Just confess, and lift it off your chest
Told the priest would hear your cries
If you don't feed him blatent lies

Oh he's your only friend 
But he don't want to hear your sins
He's off doing his own thing
But it's far from priestly things
Oh he wont look in your direction
Let alone show you affection
Even when he hears your plea,
"Hey bartender please!"
Gone are all your hopes and dreams
All you ever sought to be
Heard from all across the room
Are many empty pleas,
"Oh won't you pity me?"

You can close your eyes and count to 10
Again and again
But he wont come back to help his fellow men
He was your only friend, but he left you all alone
To wallow in your sin
He failed to listen to your prayer
Now your lost in dark dispair

You can hide behind your cries
But he'll see into your eyes
Until the time you leave his bar
And wobble to your car


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Diedre II

Don thoust not know Deidre’s eode Don thoust not know Deidre’s eode I cunnan sense her embrace that felans gelic Tragedy A Heart to hath, slipped beneoðan waw The dark pulse nou beckons us closer How many daegs will this passion bledan way We will beon the ans left to blame Bewarian we hath be-came their prey They say thou hast ben addicted to thy pain A life-leas cold barren soul left to die in the rain A whisper to close to the edge A ceallian fram the dark Bringan ut a saving sparke An exodus fram her pain Her life spent braeð in shame A Shadow ceallian brecans the silence Eom I the an to blame Don thoust not know Deidre’s eode Don thoust not know Deirdre naefre said wrong Don thoust not know Deidre’s eode “My decadence wesan just for thee Though thou never hast cared of what I hath been through Enter the world hwaer empathy is clandestine A world created by thee, just for me Hwaet is lecgan in my heart Is why thou wants to through the stan” I call thy name towards nightfall’s reign But they take thou so feorr way A dark engel so devin Cursed by Eden’s Heart I will avenge every tear An exodus fram her pain Her life spent braeð in shame A Shadow ceallian brecans the silence Eom I the an to blame Don thoust not know Deidre’s eode Don thoust not know Deirdre naefre said wrong Don thoust not know Deidre’s eode Don thoust not know Deidre’s eode Don thoust not know Deidre’s eode


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From the heart of society

Theres a girl 
she pours out her heart 
gives him everything
changes her hair goes to get 
fat sucked out of her cause no 
one tells her that she really is 
beautiful she goes home to see him in bed
kissing another girl, then get up and smack her around
people ask where she got her brusies and why she hides her face
but behinde that mask hideing her scars is a girl fearing for her life 
scared to go home to that man that just might give her more scars.
Theres a guy 
who takes care of his brother
comes home and covers his brothers ears 
while his mommy and daddy make him fear
fear for his life his mom brings home different guys 
every night, daddy is never home but when he is 
they fear for  there life that just maybe that might be the last day 
the last breath they live to take
Next day he comes home and sees mommy on the floor bleedin 
his little brother tied to the bed stabed in he chest 
he tries to run but trips and falls
three week later the found him floating down the river..
These are the  people we ignore every day 
the ones that cry out for help
 the ones that need us the most..
The ones that are pimped out and dont see there beauty
 the ones that hide the scars that the one they love put on there face
This is our world and society today


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Mankind's Enigma

'Hardy har', laughs the god,
Rushing judgement from afar.
"Only right, is right by me.'
Kills the damned to watch them bleed.

Virtues ruptured; marked abides,
Do make them fight for homicide.
For life is nil until the doom
But death by own shan't make him swoon.

"Your blasted brother to fire he'll go,
For plowing in your heart so slow,
Though blessed thee, your place now safe-
Alas he was slaughtered, cleansing his slate!

But the one, the last of the cycle,
Must pay the dues of his murdering rivals.
His only death is to break the mirror
And hell he'll go for that desire."

Now they smile, the sinners do,
As they look down on the payer's due;
"A heart so warm and soft like dough,
Brother, so sad you must stay below.
If only you had damned before
You were the last, the ultimate cure."


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Bullets

Walking into the graveyard
Sitting on the bench
Lights a cigarette
Looks at the gun 
He has been hiding
In his jacket
Thinking to himself
He calls his girlfriend
And tells her everything
She doesnt do anything to stop him
He continues walking around in the graveyard
Remember his mom
How she wasnt there for him
How everything was his fault
She loved her students more than him
He gets upset
Daylight reaches the cemetary
He walks to his home
Walking inside
Seeing his mom
Starring at her face
He shoots her
He walks down to the school
Telling them his kids were there
He was there to check on them
They let him inside
20 little children in a classroom
He took his gun
And shot them
Then leaving the room and shooting 
7 faculty members
Everything is silent
The other classrooms are locked
He stands in the middle of the hallway
Falling to his knees
Crying
Figuring out what he just done
He comtenplates
If he should shoot himself or not
With one pull of the trigger
He kills himself
The media eats this story up
Publicly veiwing everything
Telling people
They talk about it for days
the type of attention he needed
See the problem now?
you can thank the media

20 little angels now rest with god for christmas
7 adults stand by there sides
God rewarding each of them for there good deeds
The shooter reunitues with his own demons 

I am very sorry to the families who had lost these children
My peom is very blunt
And in my own words


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Relics

 I don't mind if you climb inside 
 This stump I left behind 
 This lump of rot whose body parts 
 Broke free of dotted lines 

 Pluck a tooth, score a limb
 Scrawl a note or two 
 In this lair of desert air 
 There's room for both of you

 Odds and ends amidst the mud 
 Insinuate a face
 A thin disguise free of love
 Cheeks the wind erased

 An alibi for skin and hair 
 Where only dust resides 
 Crumbled like an arid lie 
 Free of human fear 

 So grab some stringy gristle 
 A brittle part will do 
 Or a compact mass of bone and grass
 With the mellow scent of dew 

 I don't mind if you grin or pout 
 If you're whole or if you're broken 
 Despite my rugged gutter mouth 
 My door is always open

 Written by © Raven Drake


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William Hughes

http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=QTPIJW_nVCY

I pity him, a young black teen
Trying to be a man with no self-esteem
He examines his life but still can't get it right
His history and past still affecting him at night

He dreams dreams where he relives the past
When he was talked about for not being very fast
A fat boy, dedicated to his love
Rejected affection is what he dreams of

His attempts at sports earned him a bad place
In which he was called a disgrace to his race
And sadly he had a very weak heart
Falling for every girl in hopes to brighten up his dark

Empty, alone, he searched for his essence
Something he could use to embrace in his darkness
The job was open but no one would commit
No one would help to pull him out of this abyss

A quiet boy, what they call honest and sweet
Mistreated, deleted, and beat to his knees
Closed eyes he listens to the laughter
It shaped him, molded him, just like beaten batter

He's now 17 and has an intriguing mind
He knows what to fix but doesn't know how to bind
To seal the torn edges of his soul
To direct the path in which his emotions go

He's no longer bullied but his mind is on self-destruct
Never felt the love of a pretty girls touch
Somethings still wrong but he doesn't know what
What's repelling them, is he not enough

He opens his eyes looking through a wet mist
A single tear falls and he clenches his fist
He sits up listening to his hearts drum
And at last the next day has finally begun


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depressing love story

you took me by the hand, you guided me through this world. this dark and sinister world.
you said you truly loved me I ate up all your filthy lies. you turned my tears to smiles of gold, even said you loved me
then to quickly you left me in the dark so tell me, why do I still love you why do I still want you after all your lies your hateful deceiving lies. you stupid idiot why do i still love you why do i still want you. you won`t 
wanna be here once i`m done with you. you sick and twisted idiot i hate you i hate you with a vengeance get 
away from me i`m filled with malice to the bone i`m filled hatred lust to destroy you your destroying angel the 
one that you created will destroy you i`m not your marionette anymore no no, my stony cold black heart is 
crumbling away too fast for me i need some love now i need some real love. i can`t seem to leave this 
depressing love story. why do i still love you why do i still want you i guess i`m just a stupid girl living a 
depressing love story stupid girl living a depressing love story depressing love story.


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Forty Six and Two is Descending

Orienting 
A time of pain
Lost in your mind
Playing games
The will of hers
Is strong like his
Soothing like furs
The weakest wills
Without domination
Or scepters gaze
No one will beat sin
Or get past this phase

The few have seen it
The few do know
Majority fails
While shadows glow

Walking the path
Is older now
Then gliding through it
Past Satan’s bow
No one can tell you
What lies past the way
So take back the two 
And conquer those who stay

Though few have seen it
Not many do know
That when majority fails
Our shadows will glow

Pick up the ashes
Retrieve lost tears
Stand up beside us
Let go of your fears
No more wandering
Alone in ourselves
Take back what was once yours
From a life you once dwelled


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Spark

Letters scrawled for broken brains
The charge of the heart won't spark it
So move it
feel it
So kill it
feed it

Repetition creates disaster
Reposition and spark the flower
Repetition creates disaster
Resolution follows after

Closer now to the urge
Sinking and flying do resurge
Brainwaves ate the purge
Don't forget
Don't submerge

Resolution from the plaster
Repetition creates disaster
Reposition and spark the flower
Repetition kills them after


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The Only One

THE ONLY ONE

THE PRINT IS BOLD AND THE THOUGHTS I LONG TO SHARE
CAN SHATTER OUR FAR REACHING FOUNDATION
EVERYTHING IS COMING BACK AT ME
AND I’M TRYING HARD TO FIND SOME RELATION TO THIS                
  MOMENT IN MY LIFE
WHY NOW DO YOU COME TO PASS ?
CHOOSE NOW TO WAGE YOUR WAR
AM I JUST ANOTHER OF LIFE’S VICTIMS
THAT HAPPENED TO HAVE THE MARK UPON MY DOOR?

ONCE THE SECOND SON, NOW THE ONLY ONE
THE DARKENED HAND REACHES OUT TO PULL ME THROUGH
ONCE THE SECOND SON, NOW THE ONLY ONE
AND THERE IS ONLY ONE THING I CAN DO…..
 FOLLOW YOU THROUGH TO THE OTHER SIDE

OUT OF THE LIGHT LEFT IN MY WORLD
AND INTO THE DARK THAT IS YOUR LIGHT
WHERE ONCE I COULD SEE
NOW I AM BLIND TO PURPOSE AND REASON
AND THE BLEAKNESS OF YOUR PROMISE
FINALLY ENGULFS ME AND TRAPS ME IN…..
IN WHAT SEEMS LIKE DOOM FOREVER
THERE IS NO BLUE BEHIND THE GRAY
NO DISTANT HOPE OR PENANCE LEFT TO PRAY
THAT IN THIS LIFE I MIGHT BE SAVED

ONCE THE SECOND SON, NOW THE ONLY ONE
THE DARKENED HAND REACHES OUT TO PULL ME THROUGH
ONCE THE SECOND SON, NOW THE ONLY ONE
WITH ONLY ONE THING LEFT TO DO, FOLLOW YOU THROUGH
 TO THE OTHER SIDE…..THE DARK SIDE
OF MY IMAGINATION 


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Imprisoned

Why is it so dark in this cold room
Everything I feel is taking me to such a horrible doom
Will I ever make or mend this horror inside
Or will I always be known as the one who lied

The pain is so rapidly accelerating
Again and Again this guilt is inflating
These thoughts are overwhelming!
I desperately need to escape this feeling

Why is it so dark in this cold room
Everything I feel is taking me to such a horrible doom
Will I ever make or mend this horror inside
Or will I always be known as the one who lied

Forever bounded by this relentless cage
When will I be able to turn this page
Forgiveness I can never win
I will always be imprisoned by this sin within

Forever this internal hell torments me
It’s driving me deeper into insanity 
Why am I such a sinful man
Will I ever escape the darkness of who I am

I need to find just one escape from this place
Can’t live with this never ending disgrace
The disappointing looks forever haunt me
I need a Savior that can free me
Can you please come and find me

Why is it so dark in this cold room
Everything I feel is taking me to such a horrible doom
Will I ever make or mend this horror inside
Or will I always be known as the one who lied

Forever bounded by this relentless cage
When will I be able to turn this page
Forgiveness I can never win
I will always be imprisoned by this sin within

I always ask myself why
How could I let this time pass by
Please God save me from this hell
I now realize just how far I’ve fell

Why is it so dark in this cold room
Everything I feel is taking me to such a horrible doom
Will I ever make or mend this horror inside
Or will I always be known as the one who lied


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Black Widow

1 through the door
2 through your heart
3 through your head
4 colors in my eyes
Red, red, red

1 clash
2 rings
3 words
4 sirens
Shrieks of red, red, red

1 bed of white
2 saviors
3 men at my side
4 grievers
Tears of red, red, red

1 room of rock
2 rings around my wrist
3 eyes in my head
4 days before forever
Stains of red, red, red

1 room
2 sides
3 on one
4 on the other
Crying out red, red, red

1 decision
2 stabs of pain in my side
3 cries
4 smiles
The judge says red, red, red

1 boy
2 people
3 arguments
4 solutions
Mine was red, red, red


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So This Is The Way Storms Work

You whispered. 
And ragged butterflies bled into the earth, 
Grasshoppers cut through clouds, 
And in mounds, roses grinned their jagged teeth
Quietly tucked in satin. 


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Pure

My cigarette smoke fills my lungs
with lust and anger
making me feel more like a stranger

If only I could put it out like a
blazing fire
In return I'll be pure
for that's my heart's desire.


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The Dark Side Of You

she starts with lightning, blinding light then comes her roaring thunder might search for shelter to hide under then more rolling roaring thunder (bridge) she is the storm in human form, in human form she is the storm she pours like rain, the pouring rain she is the sleet and snow and pain so cold so cold, so damp so damp turgid, frigid vicious vamp (chorus) I can’t get through the dark side of you I can’t get through to you she is the storm in human form I can’t get through the dark side of you I can’t get through to you she is the storm that blacks my sky frozen chest no breath for good bye can’t think, can’t feel can’t find reason there is no refuge from her changing season (chorus) she is the storm in human form, in human form she is the storm I can’t get through the dark side of you I can’t get through to you she is the storm in human form I can’t get through the dark side of you I can’t get through to you (repeat chorus) I can't get through can't get through can't get through I can't I can't I...
written by Warner Baxter One Knight Stand Productions all rights reserved


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Breaking down

I’m breaking down.

What does one do, oh lordy, if I knew
It’s breaking my poor mind, I’m telling you
My nerves on edge, I grit my teeth
What does it take to find relief
It breaks my heart apart, it really do

Tears and angry words flow all around
Those bad vibrations, making so much sound
The anger starts, oh where’s my heart?
It’s ripping my poor life apart
Oh, lord what makes these crazy feelings start

There’s yelling, screaming  everywhere
It’s killing me, don’t know one care?
And that old crazy farm is waiting there.

If I should cure myself I surely would
Who really knows, it maybe that I could
I’ve read the books, or most of them
By Gurus, shrinks and wise old men
Hey, maybe I’m just crazy, I don’t know.


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Demolition Lovers

"This time we will show them all how much we mean"

Walking into the school
Short blonde hair
Stunning blue eyes
Wearing make up on his face
The paint on his face
Is a skilled drawing of a skull
As he passes
Everyone starres
He keeps walking foreward
Not looking at them

She enters through the other end of the hallway
Long blonde hair
Deep brown eyes
Also wearing makeup on her face
A skilled drawing of a smaller skull
All the girls she passes
Starre at her
Wondering what kind of girl would 
Wear makeup like that

The Boy and the girl
Meet in the middle of the hallway
They hold eachothers hands
And continue down the hallway

Seeing them from behind
You read on his backpack
"I gave you my bullets..."
And on her bag you can see
"And i gave you my love"
They walk out of the school together
All the teachers starring
All the students watching there every move
They walk straight out to his car
A black Mustaine 1998
Before they get to the bridge 
He ties there hands together

They drive 10 miles
To a bridge
Theres a hill
A bridge
And a river
Hes going 90 mph
She clinches his hand
He looks at her with a smile on his face
She looks back at him pale as a ghost
The car jumps over the bridge into the river
The lovers dying on empact
Forever tied together by
The rope he tied earlier

Like a bed of roses
Theres alot of reasons
Why we are laying here
As we are falling down into
The pool of blood
I see your eyes
I mean this when I say forever.


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Bird in Distress

There is no reason why i shouldn’t do it, i thought 
come what may and what may not. 
The grass is always greener on the other side 
I wanted to explore , to go against the tide. 
The game was on and the score ticked on, 
seemed it was just the beginning of the dawn. 
never knew the boundaries,no fear,no limit, 
never tried so hard, never seen the summit. 
just wanted to hover around,just wanted to glide.
just to ease my mind and come down the slide, 
I thought i knew it all, seen it all, 
but for that something behind the dark wall.
came so close as I always do 
deja vu again, nothing new. 
never dared to jump across the wall 
I ain't crazy, i knew i would fall 
so i turned to fly back, back to base, 
but before i knew,got caught in a haze, 
didn't panic ,played by the rules, 
kept my cool, went on with the cruise. 
I flew on ,but the haze got thicker, 
now i had to act, do it quicker. 
I veered and swerved, tried to nose-dive 
then it all happened, it trapped me naive 
lightning started striking, started striking twice 
venturing into forbidden territory ,I had to pay the price. 
caged in fright in the steel machine 
so freaked and scared,i've never been. 
extreme g-force froze my brain 
deep inside,i felt my blood drain. 
voices ,a thousand wailing voices 
screaming and whispering all the noises 
disillusioned and petrified ,i tried to scream 
my memory failed and i began to dream 
woke up with a start in a different scene 
pondering in the dark, nothing to be seen
I struggled inside my hollow self 
couldn't breathe ,couldn't cry for help 
but i thought i cried, someone came along 
i tried to run away, but it was too long 
dark forces came all around 
haunted my soul ,the banshee sound 
i fell into the valley of death 
the dark knight there cometh 
to drown me inside the quicksand of hell,
this time for me tolls the bell. 
sliding inside that black hole, 
i didnt want to let go of my soul. 
I took a look at the black sky 
the last time before i die 
my memory faded and then i drowned.
stranger to the mystery around 
i floated around in the maze of time 
in an age of evil and endless crime 
then came that flash of light
my guardian angel on my flight
i opened my eyes, got back my senses 
saved myself from all the wicked trenches
"planet earth calling" that familiar voice 
home sweet home,bring back all my joys.
vow unto death i took, never again to fly 
the vow that would be the biggest lie.


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For my ex

I tossed, restless in the dark deaf night.
The cool crisp sheets; soiled in sweat.
Your voice cut short the spiral…“Would you like me to hold your hand”, you asked.
I was that who you touched; distressed and manic, and you gave me sleep.


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please don't take from me

should i make it there to save you
would you still feel the same
live my life by the moments
pleasured in the rain
but with in these memories 
i choose to stay

if i gave into you 
where would that leave me
tomorrow evening
i'm just a drifter 
living the night by shame

death is a writers angst
the older you get 
the less you care 
to be monitored by it

happy new year, baby
this here is my last song
may god bless you 
and keep you strong

if i told you fortune sleeps
where we lay
would you change your mind 
darling
lie with me and my prayers

life is running vastly on its way
feels i'm like we're dying everday
death warrants me forbidden
living lost in tatters unforgiven

kiss me lonely and goodbye
this world may not end 
but you and i 
we're finished baby
you see i got this fever 
running through me 
not color efficient 
but you're paleness 
feeds my suspicion 
so bye bye pretty girl
you're not the only woman 
in this world 


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The Fisherman

Written January 17, 2011


Sit down in an empty room
No one makes a sound
Unless I ring the alarm and sound all the sirens
The angel of darkness swoons to reel in its catch
If he leads, then I'll follow suit
Preacher preach to me now, while I'm being lifted off of the ground

Rhetoric can't raise the dead
So pull me back before he reels me in with steady hands and fills my mind with lead
I'll leave my best regards to all of those who tried to snap his line in attempts to reel me back
But friends are only friends

You can throw me in an ambulance but as soon as you close the doors
I'll be gone into the weight of my regrets
Following the angel of death into the darkest depths
Until I see the light of all that's left

But at what point do I cross the line in the sand?
How do I know that this could just be the roll of the tide whispering in my ear?
Oh how it digs into my mind
Torn between which side of brightness I will find

Split between the bony hand of disconnect and the flabby flesh of past regret
There I remain waiting for a miracle, looking for a sign
Or am I too far for miracles, am I too blind for signs?
Oh have I let the artist down?


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We Are Forever

Am I asleep, lost in my slumber?
Or am awake and you're just not here?
Sometimes I weep, waiting for our final number.
The pain that you might take has become my latest fear.
Tears creep in my eyes.
Signs of weakness?
I don't believe a single word of it.
Come to the ball, wearing your favorite dress.
Dazzle them all, under the duress.
Come to the ball, clad in leather.
Dazzle them all, no ink and one feather.
Come to the ball.
A harlot's caress, We Are Forever.
I'd be lying if I told you I was perfect, but the truth is forsaken.
So let's all be direct.
You and I were never mistaken.
What does it matter if realities are correct?
Our love is still shaken, and my posture still remains to be erect.
Pale as the surrounding fog, still as a heartbroken corpse, I mourn for time we've taken.
Tearful wishes, I will cry.
You will leave.
I refuse to believe this.
Come to the ball, wearing your favorite dress.
Dazzle them all, under the duress.
Come to the ball, clad in leather.
Dazzle them all, no ink and one feather.
Come to the ball.
A harlot's caress, We Are Forever.
Whoa-ah-oh. Oh-ah-oh.
Whoa-ah-oh. Oh-ah-oh.
TEARS, THEY BREAK THROUGH!
YOU WERE MY WEAKNESS!
HOW CAN YOU BELIEVE A SINGLE WORD OF THIS?
Come to the ball, wearing your favorite dress.
Dazzle them all, under the duress.
Come to the ball, clad in leather.
Dazzle them all, no ink and one feather.
Come to the ball.
A harlot's caress, We Are Forever.


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Suicide

As the days turned into weeks, the weeks into months and months into years I wondered half-heartedly how so much time could pass me by. My life was a matter of simply getting through each moment. Existing but never living.

The days dragged on. Growing bleaker and bleaker with each passing moment. And, oh the nights how dark and lonely they always proved to be. Sheer exhaustion but never rest. Sleep was as foreign to me as the life I had one day known. The best I could have hoped for was to have collapsed into a heap.

The tears, how they streamed shamelessly down my cheeks. In the dark corner I sat trying to avoid the world. All alone. The pain unbearable. I couldn’t breathe. Only gasp between my sobs. Never-ending sadness moving in on me. Closing in until hysteria would come and take its place.

The pills. Oh, they helped for awhile. Eased the pain a little in the beginning but that didn’t last. So more doctors, more pills. Start taking this one and quit taking that. Stronger doses always called for though they never helped. Frustration added to the pain. Desperation finally took over.

Tonight’s the night. All alone. Making plans. Leaving notes. Will they forgive me? Will it matter if they don’t? Freedom on the other side of a bottle. A hot bath. A handful of these and another of those. It’s just a matter of time now. The tub is so relaxing. Growing sleepy. Now is the time. I have to let go. Eternity calls my name. No more pain. I am free.


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Powerless

Powerless (Dark Clichés)


In a rage, in disarray, I can't help but feel this pain
I start the page again, stray the path again, on the road I go insane
Hide from myself, hide from everybody else as well
I hear the voices telling me that I must turn and walk away
Face the truth in the mirror, face the reflection of your fear
The mirror black, and all of life's dark clichés intact
I am powerless to fight

Caught in the undertow, like an anchor pulling down
I am stuck in the mire, and I'm tired of the endless struggle to meet each need
Conflicting interests and I'm alone to resolve the conflict
Find solutions to problems, the roots of which reach further than I am able
Demons rise to face me, eye to eye I am no match
How little I will fight if they want me

I've reached a point in my life where uncertainty rules the day
One moment to the next, I am here, I am there, really nowhere 
In between the right and left, the right and wrong
I don't fit in or belong in this state of fallen grace
Face the truth in the mirror, face the reflection of your fear
The mirror black, and all of life's dark clichés intact
I am powerless to fight....


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These Salty Waves Pt 1

What am I supposed to think? What am I supposed to say? All these lies you bottled up come sweeping, crashing with the tides. My footing's gone, the ocean real, but how am I supposed to feel? And here I am, a drowning mess, a loveless lie, I do protest. And here I am a drowning mess. So all those things you said to me? Where they just lies out of pity? So all those things you said to me? Or am I lost in salty waves? Yes I know my future's grave. Or am I lost in salty waves?And now the panic in my head, when I should be tucked up in your bed, reels and reels right here instead.I'm going down, a sinking ship, funny what name drips off my lips. It is not God, or Angles plenty, or even that I'm just damn ready To let go of the hell and the lies. I'm wishing for your gentle eyes. Or at least the way they always seemed, but perhaps that's just this salty dream. I have no clue what I'm to do! A drowning hopeless mess, for you-- think it's cute, and oh so funny, but here's the bitter truth now honey. I'm going down. There is no help. I can't be saved by God himself. I put my life, my whole world of trust, and you've thrown it away for lust. Well what the hell's a girl to do? I'm just so entranced by you!


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Drowning

Do you ever feel as though you're drowning?
Caught in a riptide of emotions?

Do you ever lose sight of which way is up?
Spinning wildly out of control?

Do you ever feel as though you're the only one alive?
Or like you're a ghost among the living?

Do you ever cause pain to those you love when you're trying to help?
Like a fire that grew to large?

Well, I do.
I know how these emotions feel.
I wish I was the only one who ever had to feel this way


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Alchemical Summoner

An alchemist in history’s tome
My past a tale of creating my own
My energy spent on the pain
I conjured forth from living in shame

A creature came, riddled with hate
The sun would burn his delicate face
I summoned him from darkest depths
A symbol of the loss that I kept

He stared at me, all smiles and rage
Creeping through the shadows at day
At night we spoke in whispered tones
The death I sought had invaded my home

The world I feared no longer held weight
When compared to this monster’s hate
He speaks his mind and I come undone
His twisted plans could bury the sun

He knew so well, the pain that I’d seen
He multiplied each loss ‘til I screamed
But still I learned, and I was in charge
Despite his tricks and these alchemical scars

Now here I am, standing in love
For all his hate, he still holds me up
In quiet pause I learned his name
In knowing truth, our demons are tamed


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You Loving Me

Your words are still so vivid,
Constantly ringing in my mind.
It’s so clear and innocent and never twisted,
They remain as clear as you spoke them that first time.
How you spoke it had such flavour,
I was left in awe as you were speaking to me.
Thought I would be alone on life’s wheel ever spinning,
With the blinders off you have shown me to see.
No I have no questions,
I am happy to greet this brand new smile.
With all you have giving me I will put on a pedestal,
There will be no heartache left to file.

I guess I couldn’t believe,
That it was you loving me.
With that heart so kind and true.
The usual silence around me is now gone,
These nights now don’t seem so long.
Knowing that forever I have you.
For the first time there is no pain,
I am finally free of the dark cool rain.
Remembering you words, each day our love renewed.

My life again now feels replenished,
The strain of yesterday feels far behind.
No more fear of a life unfinished,
I can comfortably move forward without the feeling of a loss of time.
I could never refrain you for the way you have been loving me,
For all we have done together is completely true.
Your name is on my heart and will always be calling,
Darling I will always be in love with you too.


I guess I couldn’t believe,
That it was you loving me.
With that heart so kind and true.
The usual silence around me is now gone,
These nights now don’t seem so long.
Knowing that forever I have you.
For the first time there is no pain,
I am finally free of the dark cool rain.
Remembering you words, each day our love renewed.


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Missing Her

There is a sweeping beam of light
that is turning in my mind
this hologram of life
is now so very far behind
on flat black walls of conscience
the beam goes slowly round
the lighthouse is in operation
but no keeper can be found.

There is an empty frozen ocean
my mind solidified
emotion and aggression
now so far, far, far behind
over waves of frozen fear
the beam goes slowly round
The lighthouse still in operation
still no keeper can be found.

This
This is Depression
Depression has finally found me
Depression
a letter of goodbye,

She's gone.



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Lyrics by Marco BING, written for the song 'Depression'


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Let me break

Make me forget about this,
How beautifully I was falling,
Convince me it was my mistake,
There was always no one to rely on,
And no one to fight for.

Look into my eyes again,
Speak your lies, and
Die in it.

Make me forget your face,
Your standing there with no move,
Make me forget about you,
The poor illusion,
The wall that doesn't speak,
The life without breath.
Let me break.

Don't ask me to explain.
In darkness I do stand again but
This is my zone, my home.
This is my strength.

Let me break.
Let me forget about you.


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Cup Of Trembling

Written April 24, 2013


Beside me, the weeds are overgrown
Against my house, my home
Those streets I used to roam
As a child young and free
Oh how the time has flown
From here and there in history
There lies a time that comforts me

Words and letters overused
All the paths I have perused
On the journey for the key
Of happiness towards which this leads
Or so I used to think
Before the system found
What it aimed to find
Beneath the shutters and blinds, of my mind

Do you know the way
That man will follow knelt to pray
Of the lamb and jars of clay
The man who makes us wait and stay
For what feels eternity
The ocean sprays its misty breeze
On everyone who stops to see
The light and dark caressing me
O'er purple mountain majesty

Come and rest your head with me
Come tell us of your tragedy
And when you'll send my way a sign
And how you'll get the blind to see
Oh cup of trembling will you be
The judging wave come over me
Or will you wait and part the sea
When I'm prepared to see

Tell me all that you may know
From the melting of the snow
Bares nature's bosom in the glow
Of the moon, and the sun
Does it matter who has won
No matter where the river runs
The dark of night will always come


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Dreaming In My Reality

Breathing so hard
Mind racing fast
Where the hell am I?
That's all I can ask
Unfamiliar faces
Way too familiar pain
Same ass picture
In an unfamiliar frame
My vision is blurry
But, Temporarily becomes clear 
No matter the clarity
Im still drowning in fear
Lack of understanding
Searching for a clue
Wait, this is a dream
So what should I do
I control this scene
That's at least thats what i thought
I pushed and I shoved
I yelled as I fought
He's trying to keep me
He wont let me escape
My eyes wont open
Its as if they were sealed with tape
I feel like I'm in a episode of a twisted "Criminal Minds"
I see whats happening
At the the same time I'm still blind
I find myself somewhere different every single time
O lord please wake me up 
Now your seriously playing with my mind.
Now they are laughing at me as if this dream was all real
Whats this misleading concept
Whats the freakin deal?
Sweat now soaking my pillow
My eyes somehow unlatched
Looking around in a dark room
Felt like I was just in a crash
I must get up and walk this dream away
It felt so real as if my reality contained this dismay
Cold water against my skin and a prayer on the side
That's only thing that would rid my dangerous illusions
No longer did i want to fight.
Why these reoccurring dreams?
What is my reality trying to say?
Until i figure out this puzzle 
All I can do is pray

Kioshi Love <3



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Around Town

Written August 10, 2013


My darling
Where have you been tonight
She said I've been around town
I've been around town all night
Shooting craps with the girls
Where the women wear pearls that glisten so bright in your eyes
At that casino with the fountain as high as the sky

I guess you came home with penniless pockets
You say tonight wasn't your night
But that story holds as much water
As an ark made of paper
The ocean falls right through the floor
The ark floored by a screen door

Cause I've seen you out by that old familiar highway
The one where I picked you up
In that van we spent our first night
But that promise you made me you haven't kept
To settle down and don't go around town tonight
'Round town tonight, 'round town tonight

But you just couldn't stay away
From where the red light shines so bright
So you could feel high as that fountain
Higher than a mountain tonight
But I'm here patiently waiting
For my darling to come home tonight


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Chalk Outlines

Chalk Outlines
By Kevin Robey
August 1, 2013

[verse 1]
My heart is on fire
Devoured by flames
My mind is too tired
To recall the names

All the things I never said
Everything I ever did
Comes back to this bed
And the time that you hid

The ice melting in my veins
That are made of glass
The fire burning my name
And my soul in the past

I can’t feel your heart
Running out of time
Signs when they start
Telling stories of crime

[chorus]
I’ll tell you one thing that you never knew
Chalk outlines in this crime scene were true
Here lay all that was left of the man I could never be
Was it was justice or mercy that cast me back to the sea?

[verse 2]
Every lash I ever laid on you
Playing on repeat in my head
The damage done is visibly true
Along with blood that I have shed

Ready again the shining knife
Retreat to somber melodies
Hope the blade can save my life
I can even hear you judging me

Can’t you see my honesty?
I DON’T WANT TO BE SAVED
Please burn every part of me
Pour my ashes into the grave

A soul of the damned 
I’ll be ok
A body in demand
For one final day

[Chorus]
I’ll tell you one thing that you never knew
Chalk outlines in this crime scene were true
Here lay all that was left of the man I could never be
Was it was justice or mercy that cast me back to the sea?


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ssssssssss

The depths of her awareness of love and all things dangerous was as deep as a bottomless pit. Knowing that venom from a man such as he would surely be her demise,she  took her chances,"Surely this one is the very one to save my war torn soul!" He's too sweet to poison her!! Too gentle to squeeze the life out of her!! His love is real she told herself,over and over again until at last he drained her dry. Oh how she cried when he told her goodbye! He didn't bother to lie...in the grass and play dead.He slithered on down the road to find another lover to sink his hatred and betrayal into.....


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Midnight Confessions - a collaboration with Honcho Mars

Once upon a time, everything was black and white
Oh darling angel - I didn't know we were gonna take flight

V.1:
Shadowed silence vibrates melancholy
As the darkening clouds spiral overhead
Open spaces, breathing air of mystery
bloody ink of terror break in...doused in dread
I must confess
Under tons of stress
Hiding this love
Like a thief in the night
Robbing the house of love
My plunder is your heart
To keep in a jar
My jar of hearts
I cried a river
In my heart, in my heart
Deliver…oh deliver
Me from temptation that’s been deceiving me from the start

Ch.:
I’m nothing to you…it’s like solving a mystery without a clue!
Living this lie…refusing my cries
Frozen inside and feeling kind of numb
I feel dumb…well, it’s a bummer…
Wiping away the pain 
Wiping away the tears
I ran because of fear
But I must spill the secrets
(I am here
Here I wait)x3
Here I stand…
I hope you understand…
I hope you can see…
I hope for you to see
To see what happens
When love is given
A second chance to bloom
In my heart
I slept for way too many hours
It empowers me – the thought of reaching out to you
Numb without you motivating me…
So, there’s no point of taking cover


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Injured Pigeon

I shiver from the cold
while  my blood boils hot
I feel as if I'm an injured pigeon
looking for food in an empty
parking lot

Lost in the abyss that I call home
this feeling is what's comfortable
all that I've ever known.

I turn to wood as I call you up
on the phone
I get no where, only a lost signal
which reminds me that I'll forever be alone.


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fantasy

It annoys me
Thinking
Crying
I hate you
I don't like that gift
Take it back
You know what he wants
But you don't know I i want
You spend all your money on him
And spend only ten bucks on me
I gave up on Christmas
Because Santa wasn't real
We look up to him like a god
And that I don't accept
I don't believe in religion
Or in creations of Disney
I do not believe that Santa will show up
I don't believe god will show up
All these stories told by mankind
Are fake.
That's the end of Christmas
How about we live in real life
Instead of living in a fantasy


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Dark Shadow Island

I'm living in the boat on the ocean
No sun. No cigarettes
Tomorrow I will find you, my heart feels it
You know, you were the only one who I really loved in this dying world

Take my hand, let's break this town
My love, my love, my **** love
My heart was in my mouth
I want him. I am so sure

Don't hide from me, honey
Don't hide from the dark past
'Cause she is on the another side
She's waiting for you, baby

I said "Everything is going to be alright"
You said "It sounds like a lullaby from my mouth"
I was repeating it thousand times
But that dark past shadow ruined you

Take my hand, let's break this town
My love, my love, my **** love
My heart was in my mouth
I want him. I am so sure

I want him
I want him
I want him


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A blank page is stronger than many words

I wonder if a blank page can be
A nice submitted poem
Let the reader see what he wants
Then your poem could mean a million things


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Undone

Undone
By Kevin Robey
February 24, 2014

Light 
It shouts
Poisons me and fills me with self-doubt

Take
Them back
Oil fields that tarred my feathers black

Night
It comes
Filters me and leaves my thoughts undone

Peace
It breaks
Erases me and leaves me wide awake

[chorus]
Can you give me a reason?
Just give me a chance to say
What gets me through the day
Forget the past, forget the past

Dreams
They stay
Where I die again and float away

Sun
It bursts
Reaching through my curtains like a curse

Hope
Will dawn
Polaroids of places dreams are drawn

Faith
Will blind
‘Till night returns again to claim my mind

[chorus]
Can you give me a reason?
Just give me a chance to write
What gets me through the night
Forget the past, forget the past...

[Io Echo: "Stalemate", "Forget Me Not"]


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Feelings

Love isn’t something to achieve,
It’s between two people only.
I’ve been staring at you all this time,
why can’t you get a clue?

All the actions you’ve done to me,
All the things that you said to me.
Do you know how I feel at all?
It’s been killing me inside.

What do you have to say about 
your deep dark eyes,
What do you know about my feelings?
I know you all this time, 
but I don’t know how you feel.
Can’t you tell me now today?

Love is something to drive crazy about.
It’s something for you to
tell me now.
I’m tired of waiting 
for you to tell me that you love me?

What do you have to say about 
your deep dark eyes,
What do you know about my feelings?
I know you all this time, 
but I don’t know how you feel.
Can’t you tell me now today?

All i wanna know is,
your very own feelings.
Is it that hard 
for you to tell me?


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Split

There once lived a Prince who wandered for love. He searched a long time and thought it would never become. But 
then one day he met a Princess. A fair young lady in pretty yellow dress. He was excited, enthralled with this 
wonderful discovery. As she was engulfed with this wonderful feeling. They both cared for eachother very much. It 
didn't take long, but it only took one touch. And he took her hand in an awful twist of fate, as everything in her life 
changed. Even her mental state. The sky was beautiful. The sun was even more bright. Everything was more vivid in 
the moonlight. But little did she know that this would soon ruin her pretty life. It would cut her to bits, a sharp sweet 
knife. A short time passed and the lovers became more interested in eachother. But then one day a mistress from 
the dear Princes past came around and ruined things fast. She had broken his heart and stepped on his feelings. Like 
they were nothing and there was no meaning. He had been torn by this dark temptress a million times to many. But 
feelings he knew he couldn't promise that there wasn't still any. He was split between the two. As everthing began to 
turn blue. A Fair Princess with a caring heart? Or a dark Mistress who's demeanor is to rip him apart? The Princess 
sits in silence. Not a word to be spoken. This has changed everything and left her so broken. Now she cries alone 
waiting for the words she knows are coming, words that she hates. As she looks into the future thinking about what 
will become of this awful fate...


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self harm

ive been quiet to long i need to be vocal
need a magic telescope i can see hope thru
while i remain drug free and teetotal
a blade is sumthin i need to be close to

self harmin since bein a teenager
ill never let my dreams fade
people stare at my scarres like there lookin at there favourite screensaver
put my heart in every lyric on each page

i know its as bad as my moms drinkin and brothers drug taking
but when you go home you have a hug watin
i never expected no one to luv me
sumtimes i wish sumone would hug me

they say home is where the heart is
alone is where the dark is
if i had a better childhood would i be able to trust more openly
would i speak my mind without first puttin it in a book of poetry

would i push more hopfully
look for love more vocally
more ups and downs than a light switch
why should i be tight lipped

ive been searchin and not findin
workin and still climbin
i dont need an advocate
this is real talk call me the white fabolous

im cleanin out my closet
like my idol eminem
paintin a paicture u should screen it out and watch it
ill share my views before i give my pen 2 them

they will try and paint me as the bad guy
but aint seen the world thru my eyes
2 months after my dad died
my best friend commited suicide

6 months ago was the last time i self harmed
and it seems like a life time
instead of usin a blade i pick up a pen
and follow my dream of bein a rapper so i write rhymes

behind every dark cloud theres a silver linin
you have to have the will 2 find it
lifes short u need a passion or dream to fill the time in
2 get to the top it may take a while
be strong and dont let anyone break your smile


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I'm Your Son

little child
come out and play
Ill be your master
innocent little boy
My little son
I rape with my eyes
On your flesh i will eat

"you raped me"
I feel dirty
"I screamed"
No one heard me
"You hit me"
I'm not a liar
"My God"
Why your own child?

It's Alright

You yelled and screamed at me
Told mom you didn't touch me there
She sat there watching
You've messed with my brain
You have stolen my life
Remember i'm your son

"you raped me"
I feel dirty
"I screamed"
No one heard me
"You hit me"
I'm not a liar
"My God"
Why your own child?

I didn't touch you there
Mommy said she didn't care
That's why she stopped at starred
I'm not the liar son 
You are

YOU RAPED ME
IT HURT AS A CHILD
I SCREAMED
NO ONE HEARD ME
MY GOD
I'M NOT A LIAR!



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3:17AM - From a few years ago

F*** this idle mind, it never rests
silence delivers all of me
Delusion has set in, he’s at his best
Question the truth of reality

Hate rises above it all
Out of shadows comes sanity
Gathers up his toll in wasted souls
(Their vanity)
He is the Father of  Darkness
(Serenity)
Eager for them to meet their fate and fall
(Give them to me)

Alone again, as I lay my head
Snapshots of my life with you
Memories that he says will fade 
Cry to him to bring the end
Tears on lashes turn to lead 

He grants one wish
Eyes won‘t open, no mistake
Prison door without the key
Lifeless, he carries me
Has he granted my eternity

Leave behind disgrace
Chose my path, the only option  
Owe to him this final breath 
In his hands my soul placed
Debt is paid, now I rest


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Luciferia II-- The Damned

Run away Run Away No matter how Far You will never escape my dark hands of faith Wicked and Damned you are my Sin Darling Don't you Tremble when I embrace you The cold and Dark may fill every marrow But at least there were here For You Tell Me how they So Loved You Tell Me All of your fears When the world is done and all their trust will render Undone I will always be with you And Now We cease to Exist Luciferia I can see your Misery Just follow me and believe Me We are The Damned Outcasts of this Natural World We are The Damned Hold on I'll show you what you're waiting for We Are The Damned Join Our Dark Reality When you know the choice the Wind Will come right through And you will See what you're really meant to Be Draining into the Night Shivering With the Smallest of Frights I am the Ghost In Your Dreams I watch You Through the Window Yes that is your name Written In Blood Are You Scared? Are You Suffering? The Dark fate is what was Meant to Be This is what happens when you Brake Us with Words Destroy us with sights Twists are minds Set our will On Fire I can see your Misery Just follow me and believe Me We are The Damned Outcasts of this Natural World We are The Damned Hold on I'll show you what you're waiting for We Are The Damned Join Our Dark Reality When you know the choice the Wind Will come right through And you will See what you're really meant to Be I can see your Misery Just follow me and believe Me We are The Damned Outcasts of this Natural World We are The Damned Hold on I'll show you what you're waiting for We Are The Damned Join Our Dark Reality When you know the choice the Wind Will come right through And you will See what you're really meant to Be


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Hell Spikes

Dont leave me here in this hell, I have been there for you, please dont fforget 
my sacrifice, my blood spilt the black wine flows. Please stay here by my 
side never to die.

Death is all I see the beauty in black; fires rage the hell spikes puncture my 
flesh I did this for you. Hold my hand and I will never bow. Hold me close and 
I'll survive hells fires.

Pain is all around yet you are not there. Abandoned thrown out into a 
unforgiving society as it burns hold my hand and I will give you this world. 
Throw me away and I will watch this world burn.

Death is all I see the beauty in black; fires rage the hell spikes puncture my 
flesh I did this for you. Hold my hand and I will never bow I'll durvive hells 
fires

Your beauty of the stars, your radience of the sun your black hair flows like 
the night killing the light. Your porcelin skin as white as snow your eyes 
speak in a different light. When you hold me its as if time stops I never want 
to go I never to leave this feeling must be eternal until the end of time.


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Silence

Frozen . Senseless . Numb .
in the nothingness 
that surrounds me ,
no heart could beat ,
no voice be heard , 
no song be sung ,
a million miles from here it occurred .
i have seen the place of beauty ,
have lived in those days ,
i have seen the voices change,
everything changed .

Its cold to remember,
the chilly december,
when feelings froze in time ,
Its hard to find ,
them back inside ,
and come back like a shining dime.

People change ,world moves,
life becomes a memory ,
time flies , people rise ,
I find myself in a similar quandary.

There's million thoughts running ,
through my head right now,
but this sheet just lie there blank,
somehow.

So i lay here ,
Frozen , Senseless , Numb,
with no fear of Death,
the pain that held my heart ,
for too long,
was starting to fade away ,
and now ,
of all those curses they whispered,
silence-- silence is what i heard.


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NOW

BY STREET CRIES

VIDEOS GOING VIRAL OF COPS BRUTALLY BEATING DOWN CITIZENS ON BLOCKS
THIS MADNESS HAS TO STOP

THE MASSES BEING TREATED LIKE PLASTIC PROPS 
BROKEN LEGS AND FATAL SHOTS GUILTY OR NOT

CEMETERY TEARS FORM MOMS AND POPS 
CAUSED BY BOYS IN BLUE WITH NINE MILLI GLOCKS

NIGHT STICKS IN RIOT GEAR THAT ATTACK QUICK
SMACK YOU IN THE FACE AND SLAM YOU ON RED BRICKS

LEAVING YOUR BODY LIFELESS LIKE A DEAD FISH
THIS IS ABSURD AND PREPOSTEROUS

IF WE DONT THEN WHOS GOING TO STOP THIS 
FACEBOOK INSTAGRAM VIDEO CAM 
SHOWING THE LOVE OF UNCLE SAM 

CRIES IN THE STREET GOT US WATCHING THE PROGRAM
MY DESIRE TO TEACH GOT ME SEEKING THE TRUTH MAN 
WHY SOCIETY PRODUCES 

A MODERN DAY BULLETPROOF GANG THATS RUTHLESS


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Titaniumb

Don’t you feel it, pounding in my chest? 
I’m trying my best to pass this difficult test
Life is hard, I know; I’ve been chained to my solitary, deserted pit and I’ve been feeling awfully numb for so long

Are you still left behind? 
Thanks for being so kind…I’m so sorry for being crazy in love and blind…
I bit into the apple of good and evil
Now, tell me, honey – am I your angel or devil?

Take flight, mesmerizing dove! Reach to your heavenly haven
You’re not as dark and bitter as a raven…
You are forgiven and you abide in the illuminated night
You are never forgotten in this mind of mine…you’re my sundrenched sight
This titanium heart of mine beats for you alone…

My steel heartbeats sound like a drums in the middle of the night
I will stand tall and bold like a knight…I will the good fight
Where art thou? Where art thou, my darling angel of dazzling light?
Have you tasted the love I have tucked in my…heart of titanium?
Now, tell me, honey before I get off track– am I your angel or devil?
You were my friend, courageous and strong
Determination seeps through my mind
I sweat a river…don’t cry a river for me…I wrote this song
For you alone…thank the Lord of Accord I’m not blind

Take flight, mesmerizing dove! Reach to your heavenly haven
You’re not as dark and bitter as a raven…
You are forgiven and you abide in the illuminated night
You are never forgotten in this mind of mine…you’re my sundrenched sight
This titanium heart of mine beats for you alone…

I’m afraid I might lose control…
The evil blood cells are crawling in my veins of pure vitality 
YOU USED ME AS A USELESS TOOL
You’re driving me into a lane of insanity… kissing my sweet fatality 
You’re not as dark and bitter as a raven…
You are never forgotten in this mind of mine…you’re my sundrenched sight
Take flight, mesmerizing dove! Reach to your heavenly haven
You are forgiven and you abide in the illuminated night

Take flight, mesmerizing dove! Reach to your heavenly haven
You’re not as dark and bitter as a raven…
You are forgiven and you abide in the illuminated night
You are never forgotten in this mind of mine…you’re my sundrenched sight
This titanium heart of mine beats for you alone…

Are you still left behind? There’s more future in store
I bit into the apple of good and evil…I am wicked and week…now, I’m acting like a pill
Thanks for being so kind…I’m so sorry for acting like an attention whore
Now, tell me, honey before I get off track– am I your angel or devil?
You were my friend, courageous and strong
Determination seeps through my mind
I sweat a river…don’t cry a river for me…I wrote this song
For you alone…thank the Lord of Accord I’m not blind

Take flight, mesmerizing dove! Reach to your heavenly haven
You’re not as dark and bitter as a raven…
You are forgiven and you abide in the illuminated night
You are never forgotten in this mind of mine…you’re my sundrenched sight
This titanium heart of mine beats for you alone…

Are you still left behind? 
Thanks for being so kind…
I bit into the apple of good and evil
Now, tell me, honey – am I your angel or devil?
I committed the sin…
I blame it on the temptation from deep within
I don’t feel good in my own skin
Where art thou? Where have you been?
I was as tough as titanium…and I’m weak as the victim,
Getting targeted by the predator…oh no, here we go again…

Take flight, mesmerizing dove! Reach to your heavenly haven
You’re not as dark and bitter as a raven…
You are forgiven and you abide in the illuminated night
You are never forgotten in this mind of mine…you’re my sundrenched sight
This titanium heart of mine beats for you alone…

Don’t you feel it, pounding in my chest? 
I’m trying my best to pass this difficult test
Life is hard, I know; I’ve been chained to my solitary, deserted pit and I’ve been feeling awfully numb for so long
Screaming at the top of my lungs… please, please help me and I’ll give you the rest
Of the rare love that I have tucked in my…heart of steel and titanium…but where do I belong? I don‘t know the difference between right and wrong
Don’t you feel it, pounding in my chest? 
I’m trying my best to pass this difficult test
Life is hard, I know; I’ve been chained to my solitary, deserted pit and I’ve been feeling awfully numb for so long

Now, I’m feeling awfully numb
Well, I kept trying
Though I was frankly dying
I’m sick of your lying
Dry your tears – stop that crying 

Don’t you feel it, pounding in my chest? 
I’m trying my best to pass this difficult test
Life is hard, I know; I’ve been chained to my solitary, deserted pit and I’ve been feeling awfully numb for so long


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THE PRIMORDIALS

As the evening sun dipped in the blood-red horizon,
A gust of Silence came, whispered and then hushed
The warm air that was hastily passing the dungeon
Of thick scrub where the quivering grasses blushed.

The last flickering of Sun vanished and it was time.
Darkened, It was time for hunting and to be hunted.
The primordial cycle of hunt began in a raw chime
Of survival for the fittest. All hunt now enchanted.

Night here is so horrifying, even the Breeze dares
To sound its airy hum. Predators roam everywhere.
From the high branches, dark caves, dark soil-crater
And thick bushes, the primordial Eye of Death stares.

The Primordial creatures trample, fly, glide, clutch
With their teeth, claws, peaks soaked in the blood.
Creatures perish, new creatures emerge here in such
A world of Hunters, Hunted. All wander like cloud.


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The Insane Lane

You healed me…you saved me with a kind, kind heart of sympathy
With well-spoken words (and you deleted the history of my endless rage)
Of empathetic wisdom and positivity…erasing the negativity and rehearsing accord in my mind of past grief and poverty
My tension releases like a billion birds (out of his ribcage)

You dragged me down with bad news…
You had everything to lose…
I had so little to win for…
But, you made me have this bruise
In my heart…you hit me to the core…
With cheerfulness and affection 
In my young, hopeless, genuine heart,
You are my illuminated night – show me some direction!
I was that dim light bulb from the start

Catch me before I fall
To tell you the truth, I have tried to stand tall
And give it my all…just answer my call
My heart is pounding in appall

Pound to the rhythm of my heart x8

Oh, I am going insane
Anxiety and curiosity brewing in my brain

Going insane…
Driving in another dark lane
You were loved
In the bottom of my heart
You were in chains in my heart
I tried to smile bright tonight
I wish you were gone in my life
I tried so hard…to take wing in the light
I wish you the best in life…
I pray for peace to murder the strife

You’re my – 
You’re my sunrise
You are – 
You are the one I prize
I am – 
I am the sunset in your eyes
I am – 
I am the nightfall before your eyes…
I unveil my beauty and I memorize
Every word you utter…
Your words – as smooth as butter 

Catch me before I fall
To tell you the truth, I have tried to stand tall
And give it my all…just answer my call
My heart is pounding in appall

Pound to the rhythm of my heart x8

Oh, I am going insane
Anxiety and curiosity brewing in my brain

And now I’m…
Now I’m…
I can’t say it…
I’m chained to this pit…
Of shame…
Without a name…

Going insane…
Driving in another dark lane
You were loved
In the bottom of my heart
You were in chains in my heart
I tried to smile bright tonight
I wish you were gone in my life
I tried so hard…to take wing in the light
I wish you the best in life…
I pray for peace to murder the strife

I’ve lost the race, 
I haven’t passed the test
But I’ll keep trying (trying)
Though, I’m frankly dying x3 (flying)
I’ll make it up to you, radiant friend of mine
Wipe off the grime from my face…this anger and envy becomes serpentine
To my heart…to my young, once-innocent heart

Pound to the rhythm of my heart x4
I tried to keep pace with the rhythm of my heart
Pound to the rhythm of my heart x4
I’m rolling in the deathcart…into the abyss, I go…take heart, foes that drag me down to the ground heartlessly… vicious night hunts me down like I’m its next prey…I pray x3 my life won’t transform into strife…blooming blasphemy in my young, anguish-whelmed heart 

Catch me before I fall
To tell you the truth, I have tried to stand tall
And give it my all…just answer my call
My heart is pounding in appall

Pound to the rhythm of my heart x8

Oh, I am going insane
Anxiety and curiosity brewing in my brain

And now I’m…
Now I’m…
I can’t say it…
I’m chained to this pit…
Of shame…
Without a name…

Going insane…
Driving in another dark lane
You were loved
In the bottom of my heart
You were in chains in my heart
I tried to smile bright tonight
I wish you were gone in my life
I tried so hard…to take wing in the light
I wish you the best in life…though it slits you like a jagged knife
I tried to search for you with all of my remaining might
I pray for peace to murder the strife…to end this miserable, chaotic life
Death isn’t in this grand land of ours 

Close the corridors of your blue eyes
Tell the truth and sift out the lies
I was black and lonely,
But, now I’m white and carrying with me the attitude of gratitude
I’m wearing an upside down frown of sunlit glee
In my heart…you hit me to the core…
But, you made me have this bruise
I had so much to win for…
You had nothing to lose…
You uplifted me with your good news

Your priceless words gave me ecstatic happiness
Your helping hands brought me out of the abysssssss
I was gravity-bound in the chambers of my mind…I was once numb…and she spit me out like tasteless, gross gum
Can’t help, but wish for God’s kingdom to come x4
You dug deep into my soul of anguish and cheer - thank you kindly for your empathetic words of wisdom


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Self Perspective

Self perspective? NO!! My perspective is based on Christ’s perspective Call me a Christian because by His will He justified me from all my depravity Yes at His Son’s expense I got saved, He implanted the seed of faith so now I believe Self-perspective is now futile because He tells me to put the focus on Him instead of me…. So what I feel, want and desire is garbage compared to what The LORD has in stock for me It’s awesome knowing the God of creation who saves men in His perfect will And knowing that the devil only comes to destroy, steal and kill Knowing that the author and giver of all life came so I can have life and not just have it but have it more abundantly… So with this feeble brain and these feeble lips I will lift up my feeble hands and say The LORD is so HOLY, HOLY, HOLY With reference to the middle verse of the scripture; Psalm 118:8; I will put confidence in The LORD, I will not rely on self or any other man Having known that everything we have or see all belongs to Him, everything is a work of His perfect hand So doing what my peers are doing or what I see on TV or what I hear on the radio is all foolishness Because He says I shouldn’t conform to this world but rather be transformed by the renewing of the mind so I can live a life of Godliness…. My life through Christ’s eyes is amazing Can you imagine a world without lights, imagine total darkness. Now can you imagine a world without Christ, Who is the way the Truth and the Life. The true Light Knowing that He’s in me in the dark I’ll shine bright and the dark cannot comprehend it I don’t know why but I know it is by Grace through repentance and believing that my sins are forgiven So what am I ought to do with this life that I’ve been given, other than to say Holy Holy Holy is the Messiah who was raised, is to make sure the great commission is carried out even So when you ask me what happened to the old me, I say he’s dead and buried away And I suggest you take the Word of God seriously because your body, my body this earthly life is nothing but a phase it is passing away I know it’s true because in my life I’ve seen change, those who believe in Christ are new creatures and He does not just end there He wiped and cleansed and shifted my world view so I can refrain from sin and when I sin, I repent. Then I’m right with Him Then He sees me through the Son not SELF-PERSPECTIVE….


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requiem


(vrs 1)
with fingertips and tears that froze
you saw my fall from grace,
a crying shame.
and watched me go black to blue
go black to blue then burst to gold.

so confused and starved of love
youre shattered and broke
dancing on my grave with my skeletal bones,
you've never found what you seek,
walking backstreets alone.

(chorus)
you know that i am lost
you know ill never wake
you know that i am dark and deep
you know that i am fast asleep
and you cant accept im gone.

(vrs 2)
the worlds turned its back to forget
one soul thats left
you are the only ehart that knows
the one that died
still lives inside
still lives and cries for one.

and when it comes down to the truth
i was just a dying fool
who could not feel or breath
but survived off poisoned memories that never really happened.

(chorus)
you know that i am lost
you know ill never wake
you know that i am dark and deep
you know that i am fast asleep
and you cant accept im gone.

(vrs 3)
hallucinate
see me through the smoke
and tho im dead i still can love.
im deep inside your cigarette
you'll take me in
tho im a mess
tho ive layed down to rest.

(vrs 4)
dark and deep
i am fast asleep
i am fast asleep
you know that ive found peace.


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French Boy

Gimme money, im angry honey
And don't say to my dad. Gimme more money
It's so dark and cold outside
I don't even care

The queen is dead
Listening to The Smiths
Let's take a night flight
'Cause my papi sucks

A golden taste of the life
We wanted to be the sky
Please take me where the gangsters band together
'Cause deep in my heart im a gangsta too

I'm a persian princess
And you are one of those handsome and crazy french boys
My mind is so messy
'Cause you mean the world to me

A golden taste of the life
We wanted to be the sky
Please take me where the gangsters band together
'Cause deep in my heart im a gangsta too

Sad girls
Lonely hearts club
I don't want to feel lonely, sweetheart
Oh your golden hair and ocean eyes

A golden taste of the life
We wanted to be the sky
Please take me where the gangsters band together
'Cause deep in my heart im a gangsta too


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Check Your Heart for Monsters

There's no need to hide
when it's dark outside,
for the real monsters
dwell within you.
Night or Light,
Fight or Flight,
he cannot be escaped.
There is no solace in
the rays of light,
no sanctuary in the moon
or stars.
Cold or Hot,
Ready or Not,
the Beast will always find you.


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Devil's Temptress

the devil is always at the door more and more to even the score saving spirit’s the angels dream selling souls the demons scream Satan laughing while he schemes (chorus) image dressed in sexy satin sent from Hell to rob for Satan alluring, scheming, teasing, tempting steals your soul as you lie empty devil’s temptress she’s your Mistress angels fight for our spirits to restore demons rage battle now and evermore an endless plight against evil extreme when Jesus comes he’ll reign supreme Satan laughing while he schemes (chorus) saving spirit’s the angels dream selling souls the demons scream when Jesus comes he’ll reign supreme And finish the fight over evil extreme


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IN THE NAME OF ETERNAL LOVE

IN THE NAME OF ETERNAL LOVE

Since you have left, my one and only,
the sun became perfectly cold.
Its golden heart,
completely forgotten, lies in the golden cradle:
Oh, Lord, the sun is so cold,
it wrapped itself around my heart,
like a vampire's golden claw.
Its cold fingers of gold
are ripping off parts of my heart
and throwing its bloody food at death's feet.
I am looking for the shadow to save me,
the same shadow
in which you used to read my poems,
whose verses were so touching and yearning,
so perfectly life-like and human
when your soft voice sent them on their way to people's hearts.
If I knew that I'd touch the sky with my verses
and revive you
to warm my cold heart,
and the entire cold world around me,
I would agree at once to brand my verses with my own blood.
But the sun is still so cold
and shining like gold:
cold and deadly blinding;

They say that the night,
the dark night,
is the right place for dying,
but you know, my one and only,
that this is not true,
because you left me when the sun shone at its brightest,
and when the golden stream murmured across the white heavenly fields
gilding our verses.
Oh, Lord, death in a golden dress must be so noble,
when it takes the soul to meet the angels.
You know, my one and only,
that our verses
that joined us with an unbreakable brace of love and immortal memories,
these dear and painfully lively verses are my only link to you now.
While solitude whips me, I voice myself in our verses
into the sky,
to approach you
so closely as to hear your voice
when you read our verses to angels.
While the present haunts me to the past,
I am chasing my spirit towards the golden cradle
to become a blood brother to the newborn verse,
because my end is near;

They say that the night,
the dark night,
is the right place for dying,
but my place is on the golden hearse,
right next to the golden cradle,
right next to the newborn verse,
when the sun is at its warmest and brightest,
when the sun's golden hearts is lively ticking in fiery breasts –
so that death may await me in the golden cradle,
like you, my one and only,
so that we may sow our verses
along white heavenly fields:
because it cannot be any other way,
it should not be any other way
in the name of eternal love.

©Walter William Safar
 
  






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just having fun

bills and more bills same old story
just another busy day
i missed the bus and i got no money 
well not enough to catch the train
if i leave now i will be late i might get off with a verbal warning
but who cares now the sun is out time to play no bitter dawning

i used to think every one would give a dam
id see the dark cloulds moving accross the sun
hussel and hurry of the city as the day ends without leaving me in tears
and as the dark clouds move across the sun 
im kicking back in the park just having fun


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my Jacob

You’re my dark angel from dreams. 
You’re the shadow out of my nightmare.
You’re dark prince in my night.
You’re the dark eyes I picture.
You’re the beautiful image I see.
You’re the voice in my head. 
You’re the face I dream about.
You’re the breath, I breathe.

Your kiss makes me want you more and more.
Your eyes make me hypnotized.
Your touch is electric spark, makes me alive again. 
Your voice makes me fall more in love with you. 

       I see the truth,
            You love me for who I am
       You’re beautiful, 
           I see your true beauty. 
                 I love you always
                  My Jacob.


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Again

Again dark gray clouds are moving in over me
She turned away saying let me be
Again she has my heart playing with my brain
As loneliness has my tears falling like the rain

Again my days all feel like it's Monday
Painful memories left over from yesterday
Again my arms are hanging limp by my side
As the dark gray sky blocks the sunshine

Again she has the blues playing with my mind
And all of my dreams aren't treating me very kind
Again I can see her running up around the bend
As I watch her reaching out for someone else again

Again her lovely face is blurring my eyes
Her reflecting image telling so many lies
Again I want to forgive her and just hold her today
And make these gray rainy days just go away

Again I'm wearing these dark sunglasses
A new disguise for every day that passes
Again loneliness is showing what I'm trying to hide
Oh again she's having her way with my pride

Again she has the blues playing with my mind
And all of my dreams aren't treating me very kind
Again I can see her running up around the bend
As I watch her reaching out for someone else again

Again I can see her running just up around the bend
As I watch her reaching out for someone else again


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Why Did You Leave Your Memories Behind

I've been trying to erase, for a long long time
All these happy memories, I have of you
But every time I think, that I'm finally over you
When my frown, has turned upside down
I close my eyes, and again you're right there on my mind
Oh! why, why did you leave your memories behind

I keep trying to move on, I keep trying to forget you
But every road I walk, every path I take
Leads my mind, right back to you
Oh! it's so hard to go on, without you around
For every dark alley, every dark highway
You seem to be right there, on my mind to stay

Now If memories were like raindrops, falling from the sky
I believe the sun, woul have dried them all away
And If teardrops, were like morning dew drops, when I cry
The winds would have dried them, from my face
But each waking hour, you're right there on my  mind
Oh! why, why did you leave your memories behind 

Today, I still see you walking away, into the sun
I still hear those words, you said, through your tears
Guess I'll never be alone, guess my happy days are done
I know you'll never return, guess my life has been run
"Cause when I close my eyes, you're right there on my mind
Oh! why, why did you leave your memories behind


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A Little Child

Tonight a little child lays in her bed and cries
Her little fingers, clinging to her favorite teddy bear
Her blanket soak and  wet, where she lies
For she was alone one more night, with her tears

Her mommy's left, for another night on the town
As she lays alone, in the darkness and her tears
Inside her tiny chest, she hears a little sound
As the dark quiet room, brings out her little fears

A little child left alone, a baby
Two little arms reaching out, to be held
Another Angel lays crying, for her mommy
As her whimper turns her tone, into a wale

As the lonely dark night, turns into day
Her restless soul catches up, to the man
He takes her little hand and leads her away
For her journey in life, has been ran

Her innocence all gone, scars left on her skin
Her face now blue, veins broken and torn
She was just a little Angel, that could never win
For she was pushed aside, since the day she was born

A little child left alone, a baby
Two little arms reaching out, to be held
Another Angel lays crying, for her mommy
As her whimper turns her tone, into a wale


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Am I a Flower?

I'm hoping for Heaven's promises, 
as I cross my fingers 
and cry out to 
the One who made me. 
The One who'd never deny me, 
Even though I say I'm sorry 
over and over again 
for the way I behave. 
Will I always be a bad girl, 
pouting in the corner 
as I'm put in time out? 
Will I ever be completely pure? 
Let me shed some more skin, 
as I nail it to the wood. 
My flesh is my prison, 
it keeps me hungry and naked, 
in a dark place where there is no sunlight 
I need sunlight to grow, 
for I am just a flower, 
not a bad little girl, right? 
Are flowers imperfect? 
I don't know. I need to stomp on this cute little monkey, 
stomp on it 
until it's black and blue, 
before it grows bigger than me, 
and no longer cute, 
but massive, and ready 
to terrorize 
my sweet and blessed world. 
My mind 
can be crude, creepy, and crooked.
my worst enemy.
ready to destroy 
all that is righteous. 
I can't wash this dirt off my skin, 
oh how I long to be a child again. 
Hold me as if I am. 
I am a broken little doll, 
will you mend the pieces? 
I light a candle for you, 
for me, 
for our future. 
I love you so much. 
Let me escape in your arms, 
I need you here with me, 
I'm gonna bury my bones 
into our bed of bliss
forever.
Remind me I belong to you, 
that I'm your baby. 
Let's pray for the snow 
that we will never see. 
I can at least dream that we will. 
For the One that made me 
says He can make me white as snow, 
He can wash my sins away. 
Dear Friend, do not let me go. 
I'm lost in the wilderness, 
I run to the man I love....
I call out to my friends, 
I curse myself 
but only You have the way out 
of these dark woods 
with all its ferocious animals. 
Help me 
find the way out. 
Give me shelter.... 





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Fading Light

Faded light in my hand growing dim can't pretend, 
As the light slips away, in the dark here I stay.
And I know that you're here, in the dark it's not clear,
But I feel what you feel, your emotions reveal.
How i am what you crave, your desires can't save.
All around, all around, in your grasp I'm not found.

Looking through shattered glass at nothingness,
Locked inside an empty room there's nowhere to hide.
Fading light...

Laying limp on the ground, as your body surrounds.
Then I see in your eyes, the glow of despise.
Pull me close hold me tight, in my mind it's not right,
To my heart, to my heart, you know I can't part.

Looking through shattered glass at nothingness,
Locked inside an empty room there's nowhere to hide.
Fading light...

Here I sit in this place, let the darkness erase.
Cause me pain, show me hate, laying here in this state.
In this dark the absence of light, love with flicker if you ignite.
Here I lay on my own, turn off the lights and welcome you home.

Looking through shattered glass at nothingness,
Locked inside an empty room there's nowhere to hide.
Fading light...
Fading light...


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Please Stay

Creeping gently into sight, warm touch from the distant light.
So far away you have been from this distance.
My presence I send.
So full of good with an evil heart, one day to tear us apart.
When you see it too you'll turn these grey skies blue.
So I'll stay, my presence with you, just for the day.

Come take this pain away from this sky so grey.
I'm screaming to you, please listen to what I say.
Flat top clouds in the sky, tell me your alibi.
What reason for this dark emptiness can you say?
Please go away.

Disappearing out of sight, cool breath felt from the winds might.
Farther away you have yet to go and the distance clings.
You pass so slow.
You're so lost without my presence there, into emptiness I stare.
When you feel it too you'll do what you have to.
So I might, know I care for you, stay for the night.

Come take this pain away from this sky so dark.
I'm screaming for you, please listen to what I say.
Vast black sky so distant, your sparks have left their mark.
What reason for this dark loveliness can you say?
Please go away.

Lost without you, you're lost without me and I need you here with me.
Wash this night away and bring back the skies that cry for a warm touch from the 
distant light.


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Silent Wars - Free My Soul from Captivity

Babe, I believed in you… Honey, I listened to you… I want you… I want you back home… Don’t fight with me… Don’t abuse me Don’t do it…don’t walk away…
Let me free my soul from captivity Let me go! Let me go! Set me free and leave me be! I am the luckiest person in the world to be with you through thick and thin But we will always have our ups and downs, but who cares – I love you always and forever from deep within *chorus* Don’t start another World War with your silent wars… Our friendship bond is getting weaker…I must find a cure To this heartache and help me, for heaven’s sake! I’m breaking by the seams Repair my broken dreams Repair my broken dreams Repair my shattered dreams Repair my shattered dreams We’re on each other’s team Do you still have low self-esteem? Don’t you feel like giving up sometimes?
Don’t do it…don’t shoot me down with your frowns I’m nearby if you need me…you’re not alone, so stop wearing those distressful, blue gowns Don’t do it…I’m by your side – don’t hurt yourself I need you…I want you badly…I’m always there for you To stop you from harming yourself… Your hurting others, making them feel that they’re all alone Consider me and how I’d feel if you died… Let me free my soul from captivity Let me go! Let me go! Set me free and leave me be! I am the luckiest person in the world to be with you through thick and thin But we will always have our ups and downs, but who cares – I love you always and forever from deep within
*chorus* Don’t start another World War with your silent wars… Our friendship bond is getting weaker…I must find a cure To this heartache and help me, for heaven’s sake! I’m breaking by the seams Repair my broken dreams Repair my broken dreams Repair my shattered dreams Repair my shattered dreams We’re on each other’s team Do you still have low self-esteem? Don’t you feel like giving up sometimes? Let’s not fight those silent wars… I adore you still – I want to erase your fears Let’s not fight those silent wars… Wipe away those tears…let me wipe away those tears What am I living for? I’m living for you and everyone else Why am I crying? I’m crying ‘cause I’m blue…left cold & rotten on the shelf Let me free my soul from captivity Let me go! Let me go! Set me free and leave me be! I am the luckiest person in the world to be with you through thick and thin But we will always have our ups and downs, but who cares – I love you always and forever from deep within *chorus* Don’t start another World War with your silent wars… Our friendship bond is getting weaker…I must find a cure To this heartache and help me, for heaven’s sake! I’m breaking by the seams Repair my broken dreams Repair my broken dreams Repair my shattered dreams Repair my shattered dreams We’re on each other’s team Do you still have low self-esteem? Don’t you feel like giving up sometimes?
I fought these silent wars forever it seems The silence kills me to the core – repair my broken dreams I’ve wasted my time away You’re the cruel night, murdering the delightful day Fight back those tears Fight off those fears
I’ll be bold and free if you’d let m-my soul be set free f-from captivity Let me go! Let me go! Set me free and leave me be! Get me out of here… I am the luckiest person in the world to be with you through thick and thin But we will always have our ups and downs, but who cares – I love you always and forever from deep within – we’re together again without fear You make my heart jump with joy and cheer…our love is wonderful, flawless and sincere! I don’t wanna end up over there – alone in the streets – I’d rather be with you for many-a-year! ~


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The Day The Angels Came

I see her image sitting over there, all alone
Streaming tears running down her cheeks, on her face
Her soft little whimpering voice, a babies tone
I remember when she said c'mon daddy, let's have a race
It was her first time that she played, in the yard outside
I still recall her great big smile, on her tiny face
And the tears that ran down her cheek, when she cried
Because she tore her brand new dress, with the pink lace

She always was my little Angel, my only child
But I still cry when I remember, how mommy died giving birth
But those pains somehow went away, when my baby smiled
Oh how it was so cute that day, she caught a fish
It was only three inches long, but to her it was just something sticky
And how she loved taking flowers, to her Mommy's grave
She always made me smile and laugh, when she said daddy
Mommy's stone needs some paint, that it's old and gray

Oh! I still recall that dark sad day, when the Angels came
And how they took my baby girl, along home with them
Oh how the stars did shine that night, up in the sky
And how the day was dark, when we buried her
Now all I have are memories, of her smiling face
In the photograph hanging on the wall, and beside my bed
Oh how my tears did fall that day, the Angels came
And when they took my baby girl, home with them

My heart did break that dreadful day, by a truck
As she ran out to get her ball, into the street
And when I picked her up she hugged my neck, where she was struck
I held her so tight to me, rapped in a sheet
She said daddy it'll be o.k., as I wiped blood from her feet
She said mommy says we'll be waiting, with God in heaven
I'll never forget how my heart was broke, there in the street
That day I lost my pride and joy, to some drunken men

Oh! I still recall that dark sad day, when the Angels came
And how they took my baby girl, along home with them
Oh how the stars did shine that night, up in the sky
And how the day was dark, when we buried her
Now all I have are memories, of her smiling face
In the photograph hanging on the wall, and beside my bed
Oh how my tears did fall that day, the Angels came
And when they took my baby girl, home with them

Oh! I still recall that dark sad day, when the Angels came
And how they took my baby girl, along home with them
Oh how my tears did fall that day, the Angels came
And when they took my baby girl, home with them

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This Is a sad song, Not a true story


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FADING LIGHT

                                           

Fading light off in the distance.  Shine your light down on my soul,
 help me to see in life, what it is I have been missing
free me from this dark depressing hole.
I remember a time  when we were close and my soul was at peace,
 Now,  I feel like I am far away from your reach.  
I lost everything I owned,  Including  what I meant to me...
The light that once shined in,  suddenly went dim! 
I got caught up in a fog,  forgot who I am and where I was  supposed to be              
I ignored temptation,  walked away from Satan, but some how he still got in,
Plagued by nightmares & voices,  depression and poor choices, 
I was lured to a dark place disguised as my home.
I’m looking for a place called heaven, trying to get in on my own,
I’m asking your forgiveness and to let your light be shown...

David Bear
May 2006


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Sky

Milky blue light drenching particle specks lightened by contrasting swoops of foggy spectacle
Further surpassed by mass internal affairs given off to sight after years of waiting for enlightenment
To be distanced and held secret for generations of life
Sinister confusion in count and account but simple in glance and embrace
Held by eye represented as such as well surrounding darkness in human sight
Beauty to the few common sight to all but neglected magnitude nonetheless
To be embraced in movement across the dark blue in irreverence to the rest and its lack of movement
But left in perfect motion on rare occurrence given to heart and patience and luck
Set in life and represented as such to guide cycle and light in the human contrast
Never-ending to the short-lived life, but soon to close for the life of the heartbeat of the world
But until time comes to retract readjust and begin again, the dark eye along with its surrounding,
beauty must gaze at the last half of the day in awe and in silence with the world being the hourglass and the telescope in which gaze is possible. 
Until closure is inevitable once more.


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In My Life - We Both Lack Sunshine

I will love you if you would step out of the abyss with 
me
I’m fearless to say that I used to bleed out remorse
Before I met you…of course
I used to cry myself asleep because I felt so alone
Before I met you, I was on my own

V.6: What’s baby blue with glee? – The sky!
We welcome the sun to shine upon you and I 
I spot you, dancing freely – I don’t want to lose you just 
because we were pushing each other’s buttons and 
devouring strife
I see you in the corner of my eye
You are strong to stay strong when you met eye to 
eye with your struggles in life
I need you to let go of guilt and fly

*chorus* I never have the strength and the energy to say that you saved me from the death’s snare But, I must tell you someday, so that you’re aware That you are someone special in my heart – I can’t conceal the truth of what I feel for you deep inside In my life, in my life, I’m still stuck in the solitary cave In my life, in my life, I thought I wasn’t at all brave I was caved in by the cravings of my heart The darkness once ripped me apart But, you repaired me and I recovered pretty fast So, please listen up! I must tell you about my good and bad past Fear doesn’t exist here Get a grip on the rope of hope All anxieties are gone We dream on like daydreamers, awaiting another great, delight-illuminated dawn
I’ll love you until my life is no more I’ll love you, even if you have strayed into the darkness I love you from the bottom of the ocean to the heavens above I’ll love you – I won’t get over you and you’re my love at first sight – you were and still are a dazzling, surreal sight – you kiss me and I’m overwhelmed with passionate bliss I will love you if you would step out of the abyss with me I will love you if you can be so kind and participate with me as I step out of the abyss - you're down? Wipe away that frown and embrace sunlit glee! Be happy!


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THE BATS.

Dark dark the jocund space with downy flesh
Black bannered hideous gloomier than rest
Under the low hanging tattered rugged sky
Float clouds dark tortured low lit as night.

A shoal of bats deep as rust
Tight footed damp smeared descend
Over the houses streets and creeks
Invading the dark deep dungeons in heaps.

The dungeon of my brain creeks and racks
While the shoal of obnoxious foxes descend
Each one fighting and probing deeper headed
Sucking last drainage of my refelled blood.

The fury of my blood has made them blind
In bunches they grope shriek and prowl
Blinded nerve rotten hindered to crawl.

Tired and thick with banging their heads
Against rafters spokes nails and knives
Hopelessly will hang themselves over cobwebs
Dimly constrained lured dumb and defied.

There they will hang like hope forlorn
Pitted from the depth drums will be sounded
The likes & days of noisier time will sanction
The shades of escape then will be outbounded
Hands of doom will climb to clutch their forms
And squeeze their brains along bloody hawthorn.


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Lingering Today

I sit in this dark room and empty the soul I call mine 
Into the void we call time
The void slowly sips it down, burning like hard liquor
Then hammers it down quicker and quicker
The cursed soul begins to burn and time now seems sicker

Until bursting into flames like a fine whicker
Burning bright through the black of night
His feelings lie, except in his weary eyes
Where no one looks, no one pries
Simply by disguising cries with laughs, by hiding behind broken smiles

If he wishes tomorrow won’t come, it always does fast
And when he wants tomorrow to last it will pass
Reminded of yesterday by the pain lingering today
Diminished to ashes and flashes of pictures burnt in
Seeing doesn’t mean your not blind

Because we all search for the thing we can’t find 
So bind my hands, unstitch my lips 
Take the last sips of curses 
Because I’m done with these dark verses 
Ash to ash, Dust to dust blown away in the silent hush


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Sooner or Later

Pain is burying me deep inside
I just want to find a deep dark place where I can just go and hide
I'm sick of this place, and I'm sick of the life I have
Why does everyone walk all over me, when my heart is all that I have?
Some reason I keep falling in these deep dark holes of pain
While I'm down here, still screaming in vain
I sit here getting hurt and abused in every which way
It seems like I'm nothing to anyone, each and every day
Is this how my life is always going to be?
Is there a day where someone will notice and actually see?
Can't take this anymore, I'm just about to break
I seriously don't know how much more of this I can take
When will I know when my pain and suffering will ever end?
When will I know when I'll have enough strength to mend?
Sooner or later I will conquer all of you out there
And to all who suffer like me, the stories I will share...


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Dark Angel

I dont know who you are
But in the silence of the night
You take my heart
Now I sleep just to see you
Just to touch you
But even in my dreams
You are far away
And I know I cant stay
 
 chorus:
I dont know your name
(but i know who you are)
I dont know where you are from
(but I know I belong where ever you are)
I dont know what you want 
(but Im willing to give it freely)

I pray endlessly for the night
I pray for the dark blanket
That shelters me from the world
And brings me closer to you
Where I, once again, fall
And you catch me
I may not know your name 
But I know who you are

(chorus)

At night I see your pain
I see you cold and alone
I want to take it away
But there's nothing I can do
I am always too far from you
And every step I take
To bring myself closer
Pushes me further away

(chorus)

I wait for the night
To envelope me
I wait for my dreams
For they bring you to me
If this is the only way
That I can have you
I dont want to...
I dont want to wake up

(chorus)

You are my life
You are my future
You are my Love
You are ...
My Dark Angel


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Around & about

Down and out i go
up and over you push me 
to build a better soul

Left to right from left
Here you are just looking 
so deep within my self

Some teach you the sky is gray 
Some teach you that the sun is dark 
Some teach you that happiness 
is a girl in a party dress, party dress

Around and about we go
There we are just walking 
Through the town of love

Silent thoughts we speak
In my eyes you see
it just the two of us

Some teach you that the sky is gray
Some teach you that the sun is dark 
some teach you that happiness 
Is a girl in a party dress


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Drowning

Wondering what I am, convincing myself I'm not crazy.
Looking for the remainder of personality, looking to find the reason I am me.
I don't know what I was before,  I think that I have closed the doors.
Trying to find what  I've left behind, searching myself, purging myself for the truth 
that is mine.   Why is this barrier still rising above me?  Starting to get where I 
can't see.    It's so dark in my soul, I'm smothering in it.
Dragged down by opinions, I'm trying to stay away from the dark dominions. 
Always night, searching for light.   Looking for the one who is right.
But I'm drowning.


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The Turning

A child casting his spells
He needs to win, he needs me to quell
The self-control that must now resist
The need for her, the need to exist

A world of lust breaking my mind
My heart would die to follow design
The scars alone could chart this abyss
But now alone, defining why to exist

A room of self reflecting my pain
To stand alone and resist all their games
Although it’s said this can not be truth
This sense of self is defining the proof

A universe within my dreams
Connecting life and counting the seeds
Reflecting stars reminding my soul
The seeds I count will be more able to grow

The shadows calling my name
The more I see, the more that it pains
The universe lighting my eyes
The more I see, the more that I find

And so I dream between dark and light
The answers come and patience ignites
The narrow path waiting for truth
The dark exists, this light is the proof


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Dark Run

 I hold all that is dear.Waiting while the world sleeps.
  I for one will not take,all I can not give.
 You believe in a dark destiny,waiting for man to become one.
  I for one will not stand here and wait for the end to bleed me.
 Today I found myself,baring a shame.We saw myself laying fallen decayed.
  Fed on fear they blame it on us.I cant take it,while we pay for it.
 You believe that I know that I fall alone.
   Lonely but not alone
    Dying far from our homes.
   Lonely but we're not alone.
    Why are we dying far from our homes.
 I for one will not believe all that I see or am told or written to.
   You believe that man can be kind,that God can be kind,so where are they hiding.
 I believe that if we want to become holy.We must bleed or not to bleed to be 
lonely.
  Lonely but not alone.
   Dying far from our homes.
  You believe that I know that you're cornered into a dark destiny,I awake from me.
    I saw you dancing there a top of our own graves without a care.
  People are just watching while we fade away.Why are we alone and so afraid?
    I fall from you
     Let me feel and hold you.
    I want you to bleed from me.
      I want to feel holy.
  Lonely but not alone
    Dying far from our home
  Lonely but we're not alone 
   Why are we dying far from our homes?


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Counting into Dreams

Gently my thoughts find their places
Through the drums and past dark spaces
An over-thought of panicked races
I close my eyes and count their paces

Alleviations, inner changes
Congregating me in stages
Deprivation of my rages
I count their signs and see the sages

Lighting me with every wisdom
The universe becomes decision
And through my flowing I see visions
The dark and light seek out collision

Every dream that I can measure
Becomes a claim of evil pleasure
But every dream that I can treasure
Cleanses darkness through true weather

Into breaths of deeper meaning
There comes a place that I’m believing
Reaching into further dreaming
The love that fills me knows no deceiving
Even counting back, I’m never leaving


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Eternity in a Riddle

So this dark redeems me
All the pain burns my hatred away
And as the sun becomes nothing
So does my sight turn to dust and decay

For the lust I’ve been wanting
For the wanting that lusts for my life
I proclaim my deception
For deception to pull you inside

Eternity in a riddle
The paradoxes that plague every noise
Too alive for the lessons
But far too dead to believe there’s a choice

And ever realising
That the world can not take what I am
For if I was to end this
I would awake with the strength of the damned

So this dark redeems me
All the silence you hold will be mine
And as the moon becomes nothing
So do my crimes eclipse the horror I find


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DURING THE DARKEST HOURS

I used to live in a world so sad and so lonely

Never had anyone to hold me when life turns ugly

I am aware of how life could be so cold and dreary

But that was all before I found you again my baby

 

You have been with me in the darkest of hours

Have kept me safe and dry through the storms and showers

Have turned my dark days to good ones scented with flowers

Have filled me with happiness and appreciation for life's wonders

 

And now honey as I pass through another dark phase

All I have to do baby is think about your lovely face

You make me feel strong and safe in your sweet embrace

Assures me that everything will be fine in your own loving ways

 

Baby you are my strength an inspiration to fight and live on

You made me feel sure that the battle for life can be won

You chased away the doubts and fears and now baby they are gone

 I know I will get to spend life with the  woman I want to call my own


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Dark Water


In the deep dark water’s
I stand cold and alone..
Broken wing
I stand sad and alone..
Blinded by the night
Like a lost child I can
Not see from all my
Fears of
The deep darken water’s
Cold and alone
I held my arms out for
Comfort but like a 
Wounded bird
I stand alone in the deep
Dark water
Broken wings
Standing alone as if I
Was a child
Lost in the deep dark cold
Water..
Blinded by the night
Blinded by my fears..
Fears of the darken water
Broken wings..
I held my arms out for
Comfort
But like a lost child I
Stand alone..
With all my fears..


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Smile

If you smile 
and I smile 
Ain't seen happy days
In a long while 
If as a dark child 
I smile 
I guess dark days
Been delayed for a while 
But don't fuss 
Get out trust 
If you put in trust 
Swallow dust if you must 
Wash the dirt from my face 
Keep a sacred rag just in case 
When the clock stops 
And as a friend 
A stranger knocks 
If from the sky 
Hail falls 
Crush the things 
That so desperately need to crawl 
Smile 
I leave this world 
Graciously
So don't look back
Hopelessly 
Just as the storm turns
One side of the world mourns 
But if you smile
And I smile 
I don’t know
ain’t seen happy days 
In a long while


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"IN YOUR DARK EYES" (vlf)

"IN YOUR DARK EYES" (vlf)

IN your dark eyes 
i could find forever
and in your eyes
i could be there
just to love you
and in you i could
stay ~ just to be 
in love with you~


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Abhorrence...

The eye of justice
is upon you...

your shipwrecked soul...

given up by you yourself...

we pass sentence on you...
and all of the likes of you...

excuse my lack of forgiveness...

I refuse to stand between you
and this judgement 
your destruction...

these dark shadows 
within dark shadows...

...this discontent...

...I cast this cold eye
on you...

even in your death...
I am without forgiveness

I can be compassionate
and loving...but for this
my soul will not relent...

I yearn the children...the souls 
...the souls you stole...

...this destruction your 
eternal regret...


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Shadow

You're a lie,
You're an end of my novel that's missing,
You're a sculpture
That's carved by my hands out of ice,
You're a portrait,
Drawn perfectly, still not existing,
You're a myth,
An illusion, but idealized.

From the height of your now shattered sky
You look down at what's left of me,
But you're scared behind your disguise,
Figured out is your mystery.

I'm a statue that just seems broken,
I'm the truth that's still unspoken,
I'm an arrow of love... What's love? - You've never known...
I'm your fear, so deeply hidden,
I'm the myth you don't believe in,
And you never will - you cannot understand a word.

I'm a rose
That, however, just seems to be wilting,
I'm spring -
When my time comes, I die and revive.
I'll come back...
Not to you, for you'll never be missing me,
Still I love you,
My hero who wasn't alive. 

From the height of your dark shattered sky
I fall down... you don't even see.
Like my tears, I'm invisible now,
Figured out is my destiny.

I am me - no more your shadow,
No more your twin soul, so shallow,
No more your mirror, or your pillow, or your shield. 
I'm your fear, so deeply hidden,
I'm the myth you don't believe in,
And you never will - you cannot understand a word.

From the height of your dark shattered sky
I fall down... you don't even see.
Like my tears, I'm invisible now,
Figured out is my destiny.

I'm a statue that just seems broken,
I'm the truth that's still unspoken,
I'm an arrow of love... What's love? - You've never known...
I'm your fear, so deeply hidden,
I'm the myth you don't believe in,
And you never will - you cannot understand a word.

I am me - no more your shadow,
No more your twin soul, so shallow,
No more your mirror, or your pillow, or your shield. 
I'm your fear, so deeply hidden,
I'm the myth you don't believe in,
And you never will - you cannot understand a word.