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IT IS WHAT IT IS

Sweetheart, you never really fell for me
Head over heels, you loved a fantasy
You had a perfect dream of who I'd be
I liked that guy too.. but it wasn't me
 
It is what it is, It is what it is
It is what it is, It is what it is

You never really.. gave us a chance
More in love with the thought of romance
You turned a blind eye to reality
Girl, I can flat dance but you couldn't see

It is what it is, It is what it is
It is what it is, It is what it is

You walked out the door, I let you go
God knows it hurts to reap what you sow
It's better this way, I only wish you well
But I gotta be me.. even when me means hell 

It is what it is, It is what it is
It is what it is, It is what it is

I've heard it said there's lots of fish in the sea
I gotta believe there's one fish made for me
So I'm sailing today, I'm not waiting around
I can not rest until my true love is found..

Cause,
It is what it is
    just the way it is
It is what it is
    just the way it is

It is what it is
It is what it is

Date: 8-7-14


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What Is This Dance?

What is this dance we do?
First you spin me, twirling with delight
Captivated by your attentive gaze
Then you turn your back as I move toward you

So many times we’ve been on this floor
One step forward, two steps back
Movements that confuse a bewildered heart
Often I feel I’m dancing alone

Dancing in the dark
Waiting for a spark

Our bodies once swayed rhythmically
Now we seem to be out of sync
Is our music about to end?
Have you no emotions to share?

Foolish girl, keeps dancing to reach you
Each time I draw near, you back away
And still it seems you want me to stay
For an eternity drawn to a love unrequited

Dancing in the dark
Waiting for a spark 

My dancing shoes I place on a shelf
Along with my dreams, pieces of myself
Perplexed by your desire to continue
Pirouetting toward the unknown

You have always led, as I have followed
Hoping to restore spirits that once soared
Like gazelles across an uneven floor
Leaping, ever leaping toward nothingness

Dancing in the dark
Waiting for a spark
Leaving faded marks
On a dance floor stark 


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Promised Land

She told it this way.....

He said...San Francisco......
Then up to Mendocino
I said...can I go
He said...I guess you can

'Cause, long since Albuquerque
That's when he first hurt me
My heart's dying to divert me
To the promised land

And...oh, the nights are long
When you're playing tag along
And this old heartache..hanging on
Is getting out of hand

'Wish he would turn this car around
California...feels like shaky ground, 
Why is it always one more town
To the promised land

Silence speaks behind the wheel
A change of plans....to Bakersfield
Where Merle Haggard got the feel
Of the lonesome legend man

"Can't say I'm having fun
In this California sun
But,I'm praying for another run
To the promised land

And...oh, the days are cold
When empty's all you've got to hold
And chase love down another road
'So hard to understand

This oak just ain't gonna bend
Maybe, as the story ends
I'll catch another poet's pen
To the promised land



Protected by Copyright  All rights are my rights!











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Chasing Butterflies

I'm haunted by the words you wrote 
Tell me what you want from me 
Don't tell me what I want to hear 
Tell me how you really feel 

I could be everything for you and more 
I'm telling you now I want more 
I'm telling you I want to be with you 
I want all of you... 
Do you want to be with me? 
Honestly? 

I know you're confused 
I'm confused too, confused by you 
It's okay to be scared 
I'm here for you, I'll hold your hand 
This is a risk I'm willing to take 
But the decision is yours to make
 
You write of walking a straight line 
I'm here to tell you that now's the time 
Now's the time to face your fears 
Now's the time and I'm right here 
Now's the time for us to shine 
Come on baby, let's chase those butterflies 

November 30th, 2008


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Pins and Needles

Another song written in middle school - edited of course. ;)
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[Verse 1] I'm trapped within these walls Never to leave at all I am the prisoner inside my own home My spirit is broken I do not believe I'm locked in this chamber which I cannot leave [Chorus] The needles that break the skin The anger that runs within I’m giving it all away Just to stay alive The needles that pierce my veins It will never be the same We’re on pins and needles now It’s how we survive [Verse 2] They say he’ll find me soon Got to get out of this room The blood will spill and he’ll take what he wants to I’ll never let him through GET OUT OF MY DREAM He whispers in darkness, “I’m not who I seem…” [Chorus] [Verse 3] The four walls around me They start to close in I know I’m too late now I know I can’t win So just tell me I’m crazy It’s all in my head You’re not the killer And I am not dead [Chorus] [Breakthrough] Don’t tell me it’s impossible To start it all over again Infection sinks through your pale skin You’ll curse the day that I’m dead [Chorus]


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Dying Eyes

I have lost the will to change
Taking the path that leads to nowhere
The darkness is taking over
something i cannot repair 
If it is to be broken
Drowning in the sorrow
I cannot give in
Take the fall and run to the heavens
Im never going to bow
Im never going to break
I will not fall
I will not fade
I was made to take your breathe away
Whenever my hope is lost
Thats my chance to run for cover
Light the fuse and burn it up
I dont want to change the world
I just want to make it colder
Watching the end
With our dying eyes
Tell me where forever lies


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Moments In Time

The sweetest sounds of burning trees
A gentle stroking in the breeze
The calm has lasted past the storm
Cloudy visions, Satan’s roar
Too many sights have passed my way
A time found only in the haze
The softest screams are running bare
My aching bones creak as I stare

You walk a distance towards me
The fall’s eternal, can’t you see?
I’m a memory in your heart
I whisper to you in the dark

The battle’s started at the end
No one is coming to repent
The sinners grab their wine from prey
No judgment calling here to stay
The sport is reckless to be told
The one is laughing at his souls
It falters nowhere to be sure
The power grows forevermore
Like a spirit in the wind
I have no say in where you’ve been 
But cross the line to come to me
And pay the price for ecstasy

You walk a distance towards me
The fall’s eternal, can’t you see?
I’m a memory in your heart
I whisper to you in the dark. 


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American Teen

With words alone they knock me off my feet
At class they push me around and call me freak
Should I do the same, sell drugs on the street,
Stoop to these filthy rats when I'm at my peak?
You were their beautiful make belief doll
Put on a smile now, but tired of these close calls
Every night you break down in the bathroom stall
Finding out this isn't what you wanted at all

Is it normal to feel worthless, a girl
With stubborn dreams?
I'm sorry for all the questions
But it's all new to me

Maybe I should do the same
Act like it's all just a game
Do what I want like a true American teen
Come home late from the party all battered and green
Lose myself to white powder
Watch as my insides grow sour
Ought'a screw it like a true American teen
Isn't that what everyone expects me to be?

Smoking stinky clouds to fill up the room
After persistently warning me not to
Now you drink to impress those at school
Two months ago you were happy being you
Passing me the pipe saying don't worry
As you hand me the poison so casually
I ask should I be trembling restlessly,
And just let the acidic demons run free?

Is it normal to feel like I'm choking,
Like I can't breathe?
I'm sorry for all the questions
But it's all new to me

Maybe I should do the same
Act like it's all just a game
Do what I want like a true American teen
Come home late from the party all battered and green
Lose myself to white powder
Watch as my insides grow sour
Ought'a screw it like a true American teen
Isn't that what everyone expects me to be?

Upchuck a river of green stomach waste
Slip 'n' slide until the floors thoroughly laced
Crushing all our high standards in disgrace
Getting a glimpse of our futures face to face
Knock me down cause I'm quiet and shy
Through every beating, I ask why me, why?
Cause I believe that tomorrow is nigh
Making me think I'm nobody pushed aside

It's tough when my own friends turn against me
Cause in this hazy room I refuse to breathe
Ten people tug at my shirt, should I leave?
I'm tempted to cave, tonight I feel so weak
It's funny how out of nowhere friends change
Telling me I should get with it and act my age
Live it up now then rot in a tight cage
Yeah, it's funny how out of nowhere friends change

Maybe I should do the same
Act like it's all just a game
Do what I want like a true American teen
Come home late from the party all battered and green
Lose myself to white powder
Watch as my insides grow sour
Ought'a screw it like a true American teen
Isn't that what everyone expects me to be?

Someday you'll awake and see the blue sky
A foolish old man barely even alive
Too high to remember all those black eyes
All those glorious years you just waved goodbye



NOTE: I often wonder what it might have been like to grow up in a normal high school, doing normal high school things. There's a part of me that wanted to experience it all... and another part of me is thankful I didn't have to.


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Polly

A nobody 
Scared by the sound of his own voice
Following the girl home from school
In his mind this is normal
Stalking girls
He grabs her jacket
Pulling her backwards unto the ground
Placing a cloth around her nose and mouth
Gagging her until she sleeps for a while
He drags her through the woods
Branches hitting her every which way he turns
Dragging her along until he reaches the cabin
Picking her up over his shoulders opening the door to the cellar
Locking the door behind him he walks down the stairs slowly
He places her on a chair and ties her wrist to the handles
Tying her feet to the legs of the chair
Tightening the rope around her neck to the back of the chair
He undresses her waiting for her to wake up
Several hours pass 
She wakes up
Sweating and screaming
Crying and yelling at him
He places duct tape around her mouth
Placing a knife against her stomach
She groans and yelps
He takes the knife away and looks at her
Grabbing her face and telling her shes beautiful
He turns around and stands with his back towards her
As he starts to say
But its the beautiful people that need fixing
He takes the tape off her face and holds her chin tightly
He carves a smile on her face
Cutting her mouth from ear to ear
Telling her
Smile dear it makes you adorable
He grins and sits the knife down
Laughing as she bleeds
She tries to move her mouth
It just drops open
He looks at her smiling
Now that makes you truly beautiful
He leaves her there for a while
Later returning
Placing a needle with a string attached to it
Sticking it into the skin around her mouth that is hanging open
He stitches her back together
Cant make up his mind
He slaps her and leaves her there for another few days
She sits with her eyes peeled wide open
A tear falling as she tries wiggling her hand free from the rope
As she frees her hand she runs her fingers over her stitches
Only to find out her whole mouth has been stitched together
She cant speak
She can only mumble
She frees the rest of  her limbs
Trying to stand up and walk but she's to weak and falls
He runs down the stairs
Yelling at her to get up
She doesn't move
He kicks her in the stomach
She doesn't budge
He picks her up and uses her as a puppet 
For his own needs
He then buries her beside his other victims
Only to find out shes still alive
Her hand slips through the dirty old mud

5-28-2013


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WHAT AM I

I hurt so bad, yet I feel no pain;
I've grown so numb, I must be insane.

Is anything real, Does anyone care?
I'm lost and alone, flooded with despair.

I have a hole inside, there's so little hope;
I'd scream and cry, if it would help me cope.

What am I, is this what life is?
I can't deny, I'm angry and confused.
Kept alive, with food and shelter;
What a lie, why my soul rots away!

This isn't my turf, in this small courtyard;
Horrible things take place, everyday is hard.

Spare me your moral standard, I hate excuse;
The unseen torture, and the mental abuse.

If God had a people, they'd fight for my escape;
Not slam hope's door closed, until it was too late.

What am I, is this what life is?
I can't deny, I'm angry and confused.
Kept alive, with food and shelter;
What a lie, why my soul rots away!

*I AM AN ORPHANED CHILD THAT WAS TRAFFICKED INTO SEX SLAVERY! 

Dirge Poem of Bitterness and Distress

Sponsor: Poet Destroyer A
Contest Name: WHAT AM I?



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I'm Your King

A burst of white light gamma rays, overbearing a flash of brilliance burns through to my soul everything is like hell the world starts to melt in the blink of an eye just the cold blackness of night I don't care if I am not again what I once was, for at this moment I am greater now than ever before I took the path between teetering, tight roping walking right up to my right divined in my unholy state I thought I told you I am your king still you sit there, hesitating I know you hate me what does that mean? I hate just about everything still I'm chosen I did not wish before now bow down to me refuse me no more for I shall always be your demon until you accept me as your King. I don't even know you though you say we used to be best of friends, you and me the day you ditched me I remember now exactly how it played out back when we were just tiny things even back then I still was King you thought me stupid just a ruse I would laugh inside, you see? not one of you single, mean people ever even knew me in a world, mostly seen to me that is why only I can be your true King and bring forth a new source of light everlasting. As two worlds collide slowly aligned one wrapped in shadows one bathed in white evils swirling in the clouds above I'll always be the king you love to hate or despise as in your blood I thought I told you, I am the one I am the way, the way out shall be shown breathe in my spirit as it carries you away breathe in my faith it shall carry your empty space and deposit you gently on a cloud just enough higher than you've ever dreamed of for I am king now, and your in my hell your in my imagination, I'll just never tell you'll feel as though dreaming, you'll feel now if you try and see you were always found the most shared in the light cast upon me the last bright star in heaven. Denounce my name, if you may One year later, still not afraid A black sheep, a darkened spade That's just life, I'm not right I'm in the wrong, follow along Like a piper, I'll pitch a song Mesmerized, the weak wills sing I thought he told you, he's still our king.


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Velvet Wings

Ignorant to passing time
Reality strikes its deafening chime
Unspoken words pass between
I and you, my darling queen

Lay your weary head to rest
With your arms across your chest
Now it's time to close your eyes
Whisper your final goodbyes

Let me go, we'll both be free
Cross the wasteland, past the sea
Find the path to heaven's light
Break away from endless night

Embracing tears of bitter pain
Falling lightly with the rain
Out of reach, I hear your song
Alone again, I sing along

Let me go, we'll both be free
Cross the wasteland, past the sea
Find the path to heaven's light
Break away from endless night

From the night. . .
I watched your velvet wings take flight
I never saw you so alive
So alive
I watched your velvet wings take flight
I'll never ever say goodbye
Never say goodbye

Life has ended, you have won
Death befriended, pain is gone
Fly away into the light
Crystal clear and shining bright
Close your eyes for final rest
Meeting among the blessed

Let me go, we'll both be free
Cross the wasteland, past the sea
Find the path to heaven's light
Break away from endless night

From the night. . .
I watched your velvet wings take flight
I never saw you so alive
So alive
I watched your velvet wings take flight
I'll never ever say goodbye
Never say goodbye

I let you go so you'll be free
Cross the path of darkened sea
I watched your velvet wings take flight
I can never say goodbye
Never say goodbye


Collaboration with Rebecca Larkin <3
A song, and lyrics


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What am I running from

I'm running away but I don't know where 
Can't find my way but I really don't care.
And I don't know which way I might go
I guess it all depends on which way the wind blows.
But I'm running
And I don't even know what I'm running from. 
I'm just running
I'm just running
Running blind with no where to hide
Running head on towards what I can't describe
I'm just a running
Just running
Running hard away from what I am
From what I've been just as fast as I can.
But there's no where I can run that You won't see
And no where I can go that I can't be
Maybe one of the ones I'm running from . . . is me.
But I'm running
I'm running.
Maybe I'm more afraid of stopping, and having to deal with me,
Than running blind into, the devil I've yet to see.
I keep running
I keep running
What makes me run well I don't know
I can't be afraid because it scares me so.
I'm running
I ain't running free
I'm running
Trying my best to get away from me.
Am I running from who I am
Or am I running from who I'll be?
I don't expect that you can answer that question for me.
And in the meantime,
I'm running
I'm running


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Little Coffee House

Little Coffee House 

It’s the coffee counter line-up
A conveyor belt of people 
Ready for their little treat
A little piece of comfort
From their favorite beanery
I strum as I watch them 
My guitar like an old friend
They should say hello to -
But they never do 
   
Little Coffee House
My band’s playing for you
But what do you do
You just want want want your cups
Your little coffee mugs
So move up to the front

Funky-spiked hair dude
Jokes with the worker
He leans on the counter
(I think that he likes her) 
But people are waiting
And he’s hesitating
So all the shoe tappers  
Start to harass him -
Hurry up and pick one fast

Little Coffee House
We’re playing for you
But what do you do
You just need need need your cups
Your little coffee mugs
And that little coffee buzz  

I look around the room
There’s a girl in a red shirt 
Looking out of the window 
She sips on a latte -
I think she’s an artist
She lays out her sketchbook
But she doesn’t start to draw 
She turns to face the wall –
What are we doing wrong?

We don’t have to be inspiration
But how ‘bout entertainment?
Are we a distraction?
I can’t help but asking 
Are we an invasion 
Of the air?

Little Coffee House
We’re playing for you
But what do you do
You just sip sip sip your cups
Your little coffee mugs
Not listening to us

There’s a man on a laptop
There’s a girl reading Sherlock
There’s a guy on a cell phone
A boy eating Jell-O 
I want them to look up
If they’d look up they’d see us
Are we so bad we should shut up?
Because I feel like we just suck -
I feel like we’re not even here
We’re jamming 
To inattentive ears 

Oh Little Coffee House
I feel I’m at a loss
We’re playing here for you
But what do you do
Your busy coffee mouths
Keep sippin’ till it’s out
If only you’d listen
You’d hear what you’re missin’
We’re not
Just another gig 
Someday, we’ll make it BIG

Sip sip sippin’ cups
Those little coffee mugs
Sip ‘em till they’re out
Little Coffee House



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Gone With The Wind

The Earth cracks, the plates slide, and we fall of track.
The sun freezes over, and color is beginning to lack.
We fall back, lay in this wake of destruction,
as apocalyptic thoughts grab us, from every direction.

Our life flashes like the lightening in the sky,
the thunder rumbles, and it rains down, as we begin to cry
Time stops and we're still, as a volcano erupts,
the ashes rain down and form clouds, and all we hope for is luck.

But what is luck? What is it to us, but an empty wish.
It's nothing but something we hope for, and we're hopeless.
But it's a possibility, that feels impossible to me,
but it's a picture that I gotta paint, but canvases aren't free.

So I sit as a tornado forms right in front of my eyes,
and I'm scared, but I stand up, and finally realize,
that I gotta fight. Or I'll forever be denied.
I'll forever be alone, and I'll never get it right.

I see a piece of paper, and I think of an easy solution,
it's crumpled up, and you've gotta open to be able to read it.
But it's a blank page, nothing but a piece a paper.
You watch it float in the wind, you'll write a story on it later.

It's gone, Gone Away With The Wind,
you tried but you're own game beat you, you can't win.
No matter the pen, the ink is your blood, it comes from within,
just don't lose it, cause once you lose it then its Gone With The Wind.


Details | Light Poetry | |

Casse - Broken

You have a twinkle in your eye
I confess as you pass me by
I gaze over at your thighs
Thinking would she ever, ever
Call me maybe

I see you dance with passions glow
You have that way, and such a sway
I dream of nights I held you close
I wish more than anything dear
Call me maybe, maybe

Maybe I can love
From torments past
Maybe I can express moments to last
I think of all the wasted doubts
Maybe one day I shall call

Call to arms, the lover’s battle
I just called, to maybe say
That my careless whispers may hold sway
We are callous day to day
Dreams we forget, they slip away

Call me, maybe


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Secretly Obsessed

Obsessed with the thought of you
wondering if it's only me or
if you sometimes remember the sweet things you've said
and if you meant them how I took them
or if I'm just obsessed with what's in your head

Obsessed with your very sentences
Every response I take personal
I know it's selfishness
Have you not noticed my eyes?
They hold secrets that only you can unlock
if you'd just take time to fill the thick juices of my pride
It's just boiling with lust, passion, trust and distrust
and other things I obsess over so much

I find myself writing to free myself from this prison I've created
where only you and I reside
I become confused about what I'm really feeling inside and I 
try to rid the thoughts that are highly debated as false and I
begin to cry and
think of casting love spells so that the universe can deliver this affair
I know it's unfair
but I don't care

I'm obsessed with what hasn't happened between us
I'm obsessed with your heart and that the fact that 
I don't think you've even noticed my selfish innuendos 
and secret undertones that blatantly express my lust
Or maybe you have and you calmly remain in resistance of distrust 
If you could only read my mind by simply touching my fingertips,
I'm sure I'd catch you out the corner of my eye biting your bottom lip
I'm obsessed with the passion and thoughts I think you have
Obsessing over an experience that I may never have....






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From The Peircing Of An Arrow To The Cold Hearted Fate Of love

her life is on the tip of his tongue
the sparkle leaves her eyes
an arrow to his chest
drawing her to her death
a feather falling from the sky
the death of an angel
her wings turn blood red
like the color of the red sea
the sword drawn out of the ground
by her own hands
what he could not do himself
she has done for him
He falls unto to his knees
the arrow she had put into his chest
the greatest of betrayals
She asked for her death wish
Holding the ring in her palm
He looks into her eyes
watching the love she had left for him disappear
Falling into despair
Her face hitting the ground
Blood surrounded her body
He watched as she died
He couldn't move from the love that had pierced his chest


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Everthing is smelling like roses

What are we fussing about.
Is there any reason to be in doubt.
Are the bird's chirpping each morn.
"Do you not want blessing */* thru-the storm???"
What are we all fussing for.
Everything is smelling like roses.
And there is a package of Grace at
every believer's front door!! 
"Be Grateful "       from: Cheryl


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Ocean Of Confusion

My mind is floating on an ocean of confusion That's filled with mental anguish and regret Making me sing the same sad tune Upon waves of sadness I can not forget Drifting onward with each gust of the wind Thoughts of madness build with each crashing wave Hoping to find the ripple of calmer waters Before reaching the darkness of my earthly grave Still searching for the island of forgivness That I've been looking for all these years Praying to drink from its love filled waters Not to become a screaming soul with flaming tears
Dan Kearley:12-19-11


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Checkpoint in Amerika

Gulls circled above, spiralling through car exhaust
Kids fidgeted in the backseats of chaos

Eerie silence, interrupted by overheated transmissions
Someone blasting The Doors...theme music

Stern, heavily armored Homeland Security soldiers
Slowly approached, assuming insurrection

Just another day in the new Amerika
Land of the free, home of the brave

Large signs proclaim:

"All contents must be declared, please exit your
Vehicle when stopped"

Off to the side, transport busses waited
Like praying mantis seizing their victims

Filling quickly,

 abandoned cars quickly towed

Destination unknown

                                   Destination

                                                        Unknown



04/12/13
© All Rights Reserved


Details | I do not know? | |

before you came along

Before you came along
 everything was going all wrong
 i didn't know what to do 
but that was before i knew i needed you

 i would walk down the streets all alone 
going every where but home
 
before you came along
 
i would turn my face to the sky 
wishing i could tell this world a quick  goodbye 

before you came along
 
i would fall down 
so far down i had to look up
 to see the ground 

but before i could shed another tear
 you were here 
 holding me in your arms

you had finally come along
 just in time to help me be strong
 
i love u
 
now u are ready to go
 i did something, 
what,
 i guess ill never know
 this has all played out like a bad song
 because now your going
 going
 going
 GONE :(
 




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Normal To Me

This isn't just a poem This isn't just another emotion This is me, these are my thoughts The Imagery is my sight, And The Allegories are my Life I'm lonely, There is just me But there's so many people around but no one can hear my loudest screams Don't Shout nor Scream This is all just Normal To Me I'm torn, I'm Cut Part of my heart stabbed, and then taken from me The Search for my innocence, Is like a moa hunt Don't Shout nor Scream This is all just Normal To Me Laughing and Jokes all directed towards me Just to Hurt me Cover all of the Halls "Fag, Emo, Queer" Words I too often know Don't Shout nor Scream This is all just Normal To Me Curling her hair putting on her makeup "You're worthless and nothing to Me" Says the so-called all-loving-one As she screams: "Why am I not Pretty" Don't Shout nor Scream This is all just Normal To Me This is not just a poem not just some words my pen cries with each words But this is Just a Glimpse Don't Shout nor Scream This is all just Normal To Me


Details | Imagism | |

SLEEPING WITH THE DEVIL'S WIFE

   SLEEPING WITH THE DEVIL'S WIFE
Some night you'll wake before morning
Sweatin to the oldies she will sing.
She'll make you think you're in Heaven...
Long enough to tell you ANYTHING...

And you'll believe her.

Some night you'll wake up hearing voices
Sweatin to the oldies of here life.
She'll never say you're in Heaven.
Or tell you you've been sleeping with the Devil's Wife.

She'll never tell you, you've been sleeping with the Devil's wife.

But you will KNOW.
You will know.

That's when you'll need her.
That's when you'll love her the most.
That's when you will die.
Sleeping with the Devil's wife.

That's when you will die.
   
© ron wilson aka vee bdosa ---hear the song and First take Video on Youtube, search for vee bdosa then select SLEEPING WITH THE DEVILS WIFE. One of my personal favorites, more poetry than song.


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Godly Illusion

Fake face Fake smile Fake voice I'll run a mile Yes master No master Of course master Now master Gothic witch Gothic dream Your downfall In my smile Eyes radiating False adoration Your spell Oh so vile Empty words Empty syllables I'll empty out Your lies Cold iron Strong will My claws ripping At your heart Claws ripping Blood dripping My icy, gleeful smile Fake face Smashed Fake smile Thrashed Fake voice Silenced You don't fool me Anymore


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Dreams

If only I can believe in myself
I know I can learn to love this life of mine
Still, I want to know the real me
To meet the one inside of me

If I close my eyes and dream
Maybe I can see it
To know and feel it
But I know

Dreams are still a dream
Although it is far away
I believe it can be reached
For just by dreaming like this
I am a step closer to it

If only I can believe in myself
I know I can learn to love the people around me
Still, I want to know that special someone
To meet the one that is meant for me

If I close my eyes and dream
Maybe I can see it
To know and feel it
But I know

Dreams are still a dream
Although it is far away
I believe it can be reached
For just by dreaming like this
I am a step closer to it


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Watch Me Die

The petals of a rose, they tremble and they fall
Just like my aching heart, my backs against a wall
so I Scream- but no one seems to hear me 
(and) I Bleed- but no one seems to worry 
(and) I Cry- but no one spares a passing glance
(and) I Die- no one seems to care

My mask, it melts away
as the flames burn through my bones, the pain it never fades
and its worse because i know the angels are not here to save me
everthing but you hates me
and im stuck with all this trapped inside
Im forced to sit and watch me die

Im in an empty room...
all hope disenegrates.
nothing left to do but get drunken, high
im willing to do anything just to get by

so I Scream- but no one seems to hear me 
(and) I Bleed- but no one seems to worry 
(and) I Cry- but no one spares a passing glance
(and) I Die- no one seems to care

My mask, it melts away
as the flames burn through my bones, the pain it never fades
and its worse because i know the angels are not here to save me
everthing but you hates me
and im stuck with all this trapped inside
Im forced to sit and watch me die
Im forced to sit and watch me die


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My Dad

It never quits
My dad's h i t s
I see myself in the mirror
And I am to become
But I just go numb
It hurts to see
What all he has done to me
It never fails
When he hears me wail
It never quits
My dad's h i t s


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Gotta Let Their Soul Cry

 Raped and Molestated in childhood, 
   Abused and Misused in pre-adulthood,
     Alone and confused they stood; feeling
       like tainted goods.

 Let their soul cry, maybe then; they can
  regain their pride. 

 They gotta let their soul cry

 Their darkest secret's they lock  away
   within, this is why their flesh constantly
    feast off sin; and everything in life has a
     beginning, but never render an ending.

 Let their soul cry, Crying is the only way to
  gain their piece of mind.
   
One might ask," Why"? Then , I will reply,"
  They need to see at least one day filled with
     promise rather than pain and see the sun
        without having rain.
     
 They gotta let their soul cry, before their sin
  cause their flesh to die.


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Borderline's Wreckage

I'm Agonizing every Word that my mind Creates You've done this all to me release your wrath to Me You wonder How much a Human Heart can take I've reached the limit You've invaded me on every level none of this is Mine anymore I can't bleed enough for You We're through This, This Torture Homicidal With You Suicidal Without You Feel Free to abuse If it's you I won't lose The Winds push away The Vines pull forth I'm at a lose on what to do So very lost and Confused Don't say we're through Homicidal With You Suicidal Without You I Hate you ...Don't leave me I push you so far away But need you so close I'm on the edge you're all I really need I'll do anything Just don't Abandoned me leaving has it's toll Homicidal With You Suicidal Without You


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Why me, cruel world, WHY ME?

Cruel, cruel world,
Why me?
I never hurt you,
Why must you hurt me?

When does it stop?
That tearing pain inside me.
Will it ever leave?
It's slowly driving me crazy.

This life will end,
But why must I wait?
Let me go now,
I want it to end!

Don't hold me here,
In pain that's so deep.
Take me away,
To a better place.

I want out,
I never wanted this.
Why should I live?
I don't want to be here!

You tear me apart,
You say to be strong.
I'm crackling and crumbling,
As I scream out in rage;

        WHY ME?


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Mockingbird Still Sings

Children sexually abused
Hiding secrets none accused 
Mockingbird still sings

False Charities stealing money
Laughing while nothing’s funny
Mockingbird still sings

Corporations shredding evidence
Seas of hypocrisy and decadence
Mockingbird still sings

Cheating partners losing trust
Teens pregnant from a night of lust
Mockingbird still sings

Rape victims ashamed to speak
Lives destroyed remaining meek 
Mockingbird still sings

Middle East raging in war
All for pride nothing more
Mockingbird still sings

Delicate babies addicts born
Crack whore moms selling porn
Mockingbird still sings

Gang bangers need attention
Killing for an honorable mention 
Mockingbird still sings

Fools and vengeance shall expire
For winds of change to transpire
While mockingbird still sings


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Forget

They say forgive and forget.
I forgave without a thought,
But how could i forget?

Forget your smile,
Forget your face,
Forget your love,
Forget your name.
No matter what I do,
I can't forget you.

I thought we were forever.
And so did everyone else.
I try so hard to forget.

Forget your smile,
Forget your face,
Forget your love,
Forget your name.
But no matter what I do,
I just can't forget you.

What happened to us?
Are you through with us?
I just hope you can't,

Forget my smile,
Forget my face,
Forget my love,
Forget my name.
No matter what you do,
Don't forget me and you.


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Why Must It Be

Can I let you go? Will you be okay? Where you're headed now...to a better place Listen to my words of forgiveness relieving this pain I'd give anything to have you back again To hold you once more in my arms, one more day of happiness you now dwell within my heart Your innocent smile is forever a distant memory, and the times that we share are precious treasures that I spend reliving The Shadow of Death Took you in just one breath Why must it be? I cry behind this closed door, searching desperately for an answer, yet all I feel is an emptiness inside... despair haunts me forevermore Why did you have to go? Why did you have to leave? Why does this have to hurt? Cancer robbed thy life from thee... Why must it be? Fly away Angel Child of Mine Trod thy broken paths, roam away, fly and be free... Why must it be?


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dysfunctional

It’s my life not expecting you to understand it
A man who when he was a boy his mother abandoned
Alienated like I arrived from another planet
While you were with your family joking, laughing and eating a peanut butter sandwich
I was moved from foster families and children’s homes
Surrounded by people but feeling alone
 Everything I go through is some kind of building zone
Treated differently because I’m not wanted or loved by my dad, sister mum or brother
Feel like everyone trying to get to know me is working undercover
So the first thing I do is run for cover
Opposites attract I’m cold inside does that make me summer’s lover?
Being uncomfortable makes me comfortable
I feel safe being vulnerable
I’ll be the first to say I’m dysfunctional
Am I supposed to lie and say everything all great and wonderful?
Should I already understand and know it all?
You belittle me but I’m still growing tall
You wanted me to catch but you didn’t even throw the ball
An insomniac and I know Money can buy a bed but not sleep
But how much would a meaningful hug cost me?
I could wish and pray to the sky
But that’s just not me
Anytime love got me
It seems that Luck lost me
So I Push away the people I want to stay by my side
The ones who are worth your tears won’t make you cry
I could do 99 good deeds for you
But you would count the mistakes I make in life
So I don’t even try no more
I don’t cry no more
Love no one trust no one, **** them all
If you want to walk out my life. Here let me hold the door


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Tears

A great day ending in tragedy
now you wait until you get the news
I was scattered in different forms
The car door was slammed into my side
The doctor walks in to give you the news
You fall to the floor
Tears falling from your face
Your makeup running down unto your clothes
Making a stain where your heart used to be
I took you back into the darkest place of my soul
Something was different more darker than before
Now you wait until the funeral of your lost love
Your standing in the corner
Your face is covered in darkness
The blood runs from your eyes
How it hurts in the worst way now that im gone
Your realizing how much i meant to you
Something you havent seen before
Your blindness fades away as you start to see
You fall to the floor fainting
No one picks you up
They drop my casket into my little hole
Where i will stay all life long
How your tears fall unto the ground
Getting soaked up by the soil
Drowning me in your tears
Admire the past no more ways to see the future
Now that your starting to love me more
You wait until you see me in a dream
Dying like the past
As your moving on i fade away
I am no longer alive
You left me behind


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Never

There were times when I was scared
And it was only left for me to cry
I was left behind the walls of my life
And you watched me as I fallen to die

You were never there
You have never care
Because I am just a shadow in your eyes
And you are always pretended to be blind

Now, my world is turning again
All I could feel is nothing but pain
Hope this will be off my head soon
Although forgetting was in vain


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You Have Broken My Heart (Originally a song)


	You said you would forever love me
	And that it was always meant to be
	You said you would forever be here
	As the days fade you just disappear


	You have broken my heart
	You have torn me apart
	You have broken my heart
	And everyday I fall apart
	I fall to pieces
	I fall to pieces
	you have broken my heart


	You said to me you would never lie
	Now I can't help but wonder why
        You said to me you would never leave
        Now I can not even believe

        You have broken my heart
	You have torn me apart
	You have broken my heart
	And everyday I fall apart
	I fall to pieces
	I fall to pieces
	you have broken my heart

	You said you would never turn away
	And now I look back on that first day
	You said you would never let me down
	And now I lay crumpled on the ground

        You have broken my heart
	You have torn me apart
	You have broken my heart
	And everyday I fall apart
	I fall to pieces
	I fall to pieces
	you have broken my heart


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Martyr for the Unorthodox word

If I had over 10,000 dreams You'd be the only thing my mind could see Judgment couldn't be real Succumbing to the fear of this cold life Find a way to break through The self-destruction of wordly delusions Don't tell me I've lived so long in a lovely illusion Break me down until we find a Nirvanic state Then bring me a savior from transgressions An atoning sacrifice Send down to me a messenger for me to submit to Bring me the truth to break through The delusion Bring me the messenger to explain it all And let me leave behind Sorrow's caressing the earth The caliphate stole my heart Without a will to fight But I have the Means to be free I'll try to go with the word I believe But so many stones to be thrown Stakes to burn, limbs to break Faces to hate, scorns to taste Will I have the will to die Despite all of the tears no one will cry Sorrow's caressing the earth The caliphate stole my heart Broke my will Safetefied my soul Martyr for the Unorthodox word Sorrow's caressing the earth The caliphate stole my heart Without a will to fight But I have the Means to be free I'll try to go with the word I believe But so many stones to be thrown Stakes to burn, limbs to break Faces to hate, scorns to taste Will I have the will to die Despite all of the tears no one will cry Sorrow's caressing the earth The caliphate stole my heart Broke my will Safetefied my soul Martyr for the Unorthodox word


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Make me believe

Tell me you love me
I won't believe
It will make me happy
I won't believe

Hold me tight
I won't believe
Be soft and sweet
I won't believe

Promise me you'll care
I won't believe
I need to hear it
I won't believe

Say you'll be there for me
I won't believe
Be sweet as you can
I won't believe

If you knew how to be there
I would believe
If you kept a promise
I would believe

If you wanted to hold me
I would believe
If you showed your love to me 
I would believe


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The Escapist's Plea,

I dont know where i'm going anymore hard to tell who you are when the indiffrency has settled in cold, empty, barren will i ever find a way? Help me find a way out of this sorrow filled cage My soul singed with everyday Reality so hard to face I need to find a way to escape Only if i could just fly a way I try to stay sane But i fell under the september rain A repuiem for the reality That i never wish to see Help me find a way out of this sorrow filled cage My soul singed with everyday Reality so hard to face I need to find a way to escape Only if i could just fly a way I need a way to escape, Only if I could just fly away


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Everyday Regrets

        Every Everyday I feel the same old mistakes brushing up my leg and heading 
striaght for my heart. Trying make me sting... stupid memories, I can't shake them away 
and they just make me feel everyday regrets. I knew you were leaving, I could feel it 
inside. Yet it seemed like life just kept moving on... it never let me stop for a minute 
to see how you were doing and I blame myself for not saying good bye. Sometimes I cry 
when I think about you... sometimes I wonder why I didn't just go see you. One more 
mistake and my heart keeps on aching. I'm not ready for this but even so it kills me. 
Everyday regrets about the times i'll never forget and the things I never got to say. I 
know your looking down on me trying to console me but in my mind everything went wrong 
and I wasn't even there... you just passed right along and I couldn't even hold your 
hand. I wanted to be there... I had grown up a lot since this ever ending roller coaster 
ride and just as I was getting off the dizziness still hadn't worn off. You were taking 
away in the middle of the night... I wasn't even there and that makes me sad. I didn't 
hear you voice... I didn't show any remorse and it hurts me deep inside that I will never 
see your heart beat again or see you talk to me like you used to do. Everyday Regrets and 
I keep on blaming myself in a story that just won't ever end and will continue until I 
see your face again. I won't forget, I will remember... I disappointed you and that's all 
I can say for now goodbye is hardly the words I ever wanted to say. But now your gone and 
i'm living with everyday regrets.


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Invisible Pain

Sometimes I cry
in the silence of night
from the pain deep inside 
which somehow I hide

Every day I pretend 
that I am just fine
I laugh and I smile
I bottle the fire

I want to explode
with so much emotion
instead I put on an act
while it implodes inside

There's too much to say
no way to explain
the feelings I have
they won't go away

Nobody knows
what's eating at me
I feel if I tell
no one will understand

This can't go on much longer
I have to release
the pain turns to anger
I need to scream

My brain just won't stop
I have the urge to run away
I want to forget my past
desperation fills my heart

All my thoughts are contradicting
letting go means forgetting
forgetting means being vulnerable 
being vulnerable means more pain

I don't want anyone to know
I'm so torn inside
I could so easily be broken
so I must not let anyone in

I always cry
in the silence of night
from the pain deep inside
which I no longer can hide


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YOUR CHOICE

What is it that GOD deals to us, from The Heavens and The Stars?, 
The choices that we make in life, will bring us near or far.
He has given us these two things, they are Life and Free Will too,
as what you choose to do with them, is merely up to You.
You may choose to do the Wrong Thing, leading to The Darkest Night,
Or turn and walk the other way onto The Path of Light.
The Bible says " God Loves Us All " no matter what we do,
All that He is waiting on, is just a call from you!!!!
To tell him you've been going, down a steep and beaten path,
And would he please just show you, Somehow, A way to just get back!!
Now you're Starting Over, and as well you see "  The Light " ,
Your Hope and Faith, God gives you Wings, Now Start A Brand New Life!!


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Once broken, but not destroyed!

As I look back over my life, my heart was broken but I wasn’t destroyed,
Many people tried to take advantage of me like I was some kind of a toy.
When I was a child, I had this fixation that I knew what love is all about, 
I cried a lot because that was the only way for me to get things out.
As a teenager, I lost the dearest person to me, who was my mother,
I was angry with God because the pain that I felt was like no other.
My parents taught me how to be the best Christian all I can be,
When I finally got to know God for myself, I was definitely set free.
As I became older I carried around so much hurt and so much pain,
I know I wasn’t easy to deal with, but the family must have felt drained.
At times I had to express my anger by fighting and hurting myself,
The more I keep writing, one day I will see my book on the bookstore shelf
The most devastating thing I remember was the time I was raped,
At the time it was happening I didn’t have the strength to escape.
It also hurt when no one had faith enough to believe in me,
I tried to deal with the rape by becoming rebellious as I can be.
I thought by going to talk to a psychiatrist would have helped replace my anger,
Instead of making things better, he just helped himself on me and putting me in 
danger.
I didn’t want to live after all these things that happened in my life,
If I had killed myself, today I wouldn’t have become a wife.
A lot of people thought that I wouldn’t make something of myself,
They would look down on me like I was some kind of weird elf.
Through all of this, God showed me what TRUE love was all about.
I have to give him all the praise and honor with a loud shout.
I was a type of person that was definitely misunderstood,
I just wanted somebody to take the time out with me if they could.
Well, the devil thought that I was destroyed but I was yet broken,
I can truly say that I’m no longer his rebellious T-O-K-E-N


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Help Her

I started to write you this song
The day that everything went wrong
You think I have it all together
And that I’m as light as a feather
You can’t see the pain from my past
All I ever do is see you fast
You want your life to be perfect
It’s not fair you excel in every subject
It was fine when you were by yourself
My life story is somewhere on a shelf
Now you’re taking someone else down with you
We all used to be stuck together like glue
I can see your pain
I will always feel I’m the one to blame


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Where did you go?

As I sit and wonder, my mind in a spin.
When did you leave, will you be back again?
Your body is still here, I see you everyday.
But, the person I know is slowly fading away.
Somewhere in the distance, I call your name.
Stepping through the fog, yes, you still look the same..
Yet, the look in your eyes so foreign, your touch is so cold.
I'm desperately searching, oh where did you go??
When did you go??
It came without warning, just one day it was there.
Suddenly you seem like you don't even care.
Is there another, did I miss all the signs?
With eyes 20/20, could I be that blind?
How could I be that blind?
Somewhere in the distance, I call your name.
Stepping through the fog, yes, you still look the same..
Yet, your eyes seem so foreign, your touch is so cold.
I'm desperately searching, oh where did you go??
When did you go??
If you love something set it free, so I'm letting you go.
Coming back will be your choice, but, one thing you should know..
When the lifestyle gets boring and being alone starts getting old.
When your lying there remembering who you used to hold..
It's me you'll think of who's love no other can compare..
Remember you had me, but, I'm no longer there..
No, you made sure I was no longer there..
Do you wish I was there???


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Love Notes

Love notes 
Wordings from the heart
That I’m trying to use 
To cover this scented stationery
With my ball point scribbler, I’m proud 
To match the sensual scent 
Of your lovely and fiery lips
With crimson thoughts, but as I finally come 
To end my writings, after so many pages 
Hooked thrown into a silent bin 
I begin to wonder if it’s better to recite
My love notes to you in person
For this way you would feel 
Much, much better…
The bubbling rhythm 
Of my heart


  


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Will I ever get to see you again

There was a time when I didn't have much to care about
even with people all around me
and now it seems like I have to much to care about
but where is everyone today
my life was suddenly turned upside down
spinning out of control
then one day from out of the blue I thought of the time
I spent with you
even though our time together was short lived
it had so much to give
and the memories came pouring in my mind and out of my eyes
all of a sudden I realized
you were more to me than just another guy or friend
I can't help but wonder
will I ever get to see you again?

Most of our time was spent talking on the phone
but there were also the moments
we spent alone
I remember holding each other close whenever we were near
never wanting to let go
cause we knew we couldn't hold each other come tomorrow
we didn't get to see each other very much
and damn it now I wish to God we had stayed in touch
something here has got to give
I'm running out of things to believe in
that's why I pray everyday for an answer to my question
will I ever get to see you again?

I think of the time where we watched the game with your
friends and family
and then with no kind of planning
we were alone together
and we spent our first and only night
holding one another tight untill the morning
I remember how when we looked deep into each others eyes
for me life stopped for a moment at that time
and it was you that had my hyponotized
oh so many butterfiles
it has taken this long for me to realize
that never has anyone taken me there again
my biggest mistake I've ever made was not telling you how I truely felt
I couldn't put it in the right words
because I really wasn't sure of my emotions
thought it was just what was happening in the moment
and give time I would be alright
never did I believe now I would be in such torment
the pain of not knowing
will I ever get to see you again?

Need to find you to let you know
that you are the only one I could never let go and I really do love you so
oh somebody please help me find the answers
because I do need to know
will I ever get to see you, hold you, tell you I am in love with you again?
If so when?


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Fade into Shine

Someday, Some way
I will shine again
The light will hit my eyes
I'll no longer need to hide
The strength I have within
Will surely show again
This weakness that I feel
Will fade and disappear


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No One Knows

I am alone in darkness
No one knows how I feel everyday
I am unable to speak out
I don't know why I am feeling this way

My emotions linger around
My space is squeezing by you
I wish I could get out
I don't think I can make it through

The sky is turning black
And the sun is block by my fear
The stars started to fade
I am all by myself in here

Can't feel the things around
Too far from the surroundings
Try my best to stand up
Wishing upon anything

Lost, I am trying to find myself
But the darkness blinded me so much
What happened to my world
This world I am loosing my touch

No one knows how I suffer
No one can see through me
No one knows how I feel
While everybody out there
Is running free


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. and then,

there are times 
when my heart
remains silent
when its pulse is
steady and slow
there are times
when i am
right with the world
fitting in like a piece
to an irregular puzzle
there are times 
when the sounds
of the life that surrounds me
blend in infinite splendor
with the music that plays
within.

and then,

there are times
when my heart explodes
and its rapid beating
becomes too much
for the confines of my chest 
there are times
when i seem to be
a square block 
struggling to escape
this round hole
of an existance
there are times
when the cacophonous symphony
invading my mind
overlaps with what
i hear outside
and the resulting noise
is disarmingly similar
to my inner chaos.

and then,

there are times
when i wonder
when this
nauseating see-saw
will stop its
strange rhythm
when the boundaries
that dictate
the shape of my life
will stop their 
shape-shifting
when i can be left 
in peace.

and then,

each time
this wondering arrives
it is followed by a certainty
that the answer is

never.


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The Manikin

There's a manikin in my window, that follows me where ever I go, I can't seem to shake 
her, she's like my six o'clock shadow. But she seems to be everything I am, but more 
refined and more polished. 
No belly, Nice but, in creditable looks, wears a size zero in jeans, has the face of the 
american dream, she's what the public adores and admires, this is what society deems 
nessacary to be beautiful. 
I'm 5'10 a number of pounds over weight, more gut than butt, decent in what society sees 
as good looks.
They say I'm no J-lo, meaning my body should not be seen in public, 
No media coverage,
Not front page material,
No music video,
That I should grow my hair, get cosmetic surgery and wear all this makeup and then I may 
be deemed as pretty.
The question I have to ask myself is this really me?
Artificial flavoring, unessary calories, a false sense of self that can provide material 
wealth? 
No- this is societies ideology. A life time of fame filled with unconscience shame, trade 
in my dignity and what makes me me, for uncertain romances, adulterated chances, so the 
world can love my name. So people can compare me to you and you. And then put more of 
strain on todays struggling youth.
There' a manikin in my window that follows me where ever I go, I can't seem to shake her 
she's like my six o'clock shadow.


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Teach Me How To Love

I was born beautiful
But…deformed by men
Lead me the way… 
To humanity


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Untitled

It’s no gain to waste all this pain.

A disgrace to not always hide this face.

My mind is lame, and it’s a shame,

to feel so numb and not be dumb.

I hate to say life’s not always been this way.

It’s an outrage that I ever lived outside this cage.

Apathy works best for me.

Cold-hearted to myself, the cheaply departed.

Sadness makes me the happiest. 

My loneliness makes me feel so blessed.

This bitter resentment fills me with contentment.

My biggest folly ever was delaying this melancholy.

However this ailment is reaching my fulfillment,

Leaving me empty, sad, happy and whole.

My bitterness is such bliss.

A feeling that I would surely miss.

I often lament evading this torment.

This suffering is the greatest thing ever.

I frequently regret never being upset.

Now I daily look forward to the sorrow that’s promised by tomorrow,

and I pray it comes each and everyday.

Without its displeasure I cannot carry on,

for it is my greatest treasure.


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Afraid to Feel

I feel afraid, afraid to feel, I look in the mirror, I bow my head and then I kneel. 
Hearing the screams burned in my mind, yet afraid to listen, fearing what I will 
find. Upon me lies a cape of darkness and gloom, I wear it like a shroud and 
hide in my room, ! stare at the door hoping yet fearing, that an end to this 
suffering is finally nearing...afraid to feel or feeling afraid, I can no longer tell, I 
find myself wondering if this could be hell....afraid to feel, what can be done, 
when the soul fills with fear and the hearts song goes unsung... 

Tis a tragedy of shattering despair. I cry out,"Someone please tell me when I 
learned not to care!"  I grab my head and pull my own hair, whispering, why me?  
It just isn't fair.  I long for days past, when love was constant and I had faith it 
would last. Now I scream silently, begging for the return, of the emotion that fate 
so carelessly burned....feeling afraid, afraid to feel, why hast thou forsaken me? I 
ask as I kneel. 

! hear the answering sound of madness laughing, as it takes hold of my mind, 
leaving me gasping. Now comes to me my greatest fear, darkness falls upon me 
as I shed a tear, as my sanity begins to unpeel, I suddenly realize.....that I can 
feel....I look toward the mirror, and the glance that assures me I'm real, also 
assures me I'm still afraid.................... afraid to feel.


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Put a bullet in my brain

Put a bullet in my brain
as the rain sweeps her out of my arms
and places her into another's.
Put a bullet in my brain
for I don't want to see love slip away
please end my suffering,
for I don't want to dare see her in the arms of another man.

I fear the tear that slips away from my soul
and touches the ground with a splash
as she is washed away by the lashed memories of the rain,
please, someone put a bullet in my brain.

I can't bear to see her with another man
laying in his arms
as he charishes her beauty
just like I did to her.
As she smiles and laughs at his jokes
my heart would not bare the sorrow and pain
that would tare my heart apart into pieces of tainted love.
Please tell the rain to stop,
as the pain grows when rain comes down,
please someone end my suffering,
put a bullet in my brain
and stop the rain
that washes away every memory of her.

Stop saying you miss me
and just kiss me
for I can't take the pain
of the rain that takes you away.
Kiss me and stop saying you miss me
for those are useless words to me.
Love is where it's at, so show me.
Don't go with him, he'll treat you wrong.
Love and laugh with me till the break of dawn
as we yawn the long night away.

Kiss me and don't say you miss me.
For if you go away from me,
I couldn't bare to take a tear and waste it away.
Tears, sweet tears crying for you,
doesn't that mean anything to you?
I ask you, stop the rain,
stop the pain and put that bullet in my brain.

Let the red blood flow from my temples.
Let the plow dig my grave,
for I can't bare to see you with another
in his arms, him kissing you, where I kissed you.
I can't take it, I have to make it,
make that pain go away.
Prayer didn't help, God turned a blind eye
when I came up and said why!
Put that bullet in my dome
and when I lay in the coffin, looking at the roof of the church
you come and kiss me, and then you can really say
that you'll miss me.


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This Aint Real

Your face, 
Made a fake smile, (you said)
I love you,
I need you,
I want you just for a while,
You told me,
That I made you smile,
All the things you said to me,
Are just words now,
How can we love,
When you love me for yourself,
(This Aint Love)

Chorus: 2x
What are we doin,
If this love ain't real,
What is this feeling,
That I feel,

I'm broken in emotion,
I'm broken in love, (you said)
I need you,
I want you
You're the only one,
I'm thinkin of, (so tell me)
How can we love, 
When there's always someone else,
(This Aint Love)

Chorus 2x
Bridge:
How can we love,
When there's always someone else,
How can we make up,
When you only love me for yourself,

verse #3:
You got me imprisoned, 
Inside your heart,
When kissed
I felt, Like we,
Would never be apart,
chorus 2x

 


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Special

To capture the attention everyone else gets but you
You do whatever you can to get it
Even if its bad
You continue to do it
To get the attention you never had
And the attention you will never get
You want the perfect body and soul that everyone else has
You want to feel important... special
So you seek for a better
Much higher thing
What you need
You dont quite know
But you decide that
You will do whatever it takes to make you happy
And sometimes
That means..
suicide
Sometimes it means
Shooting someone
Because the hole inside your heart needs filled
And thats the only thing you ever had
The only thing you see
The only thing that someone gave to you
The thing that got everyone talking about you
The thing that got everyone to even look at you
So if you decide to kill someone
You kill yourself afterwards
Because you felt lonely again
You felt that no one was watching you
That no one even cared 
Then you think about all the things that 
Bugged you
And you pull the trigger
Then theres no more you
Next time someone sees you
You will be on the news
Where now you are special
And important


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Solipsist

Let the Deicide commence.

You're a voyeur at best!
Your vampiric heart is beating out of your chest!
And you have slayed the ones whom would love you for anything less
Ready to consume the final fragments of innocence,
And for you there is no forgiveness,
On your knees pleading, screaming to a tyrant in the skies;
The father of lies.

I will never be enslaved in your superiority
The people agree: jaded of your false dichotomies.
Know: I will be whomever nature intends to be
Apollo and I will share our dreams,
and you will be forced to see
your failure!

I know who you are...
Readily the first to present your scars
Chained by some despot or mental czar
An emotional homunculus in your mind, behind bars
Reluctant to escape - even when proven fake
Your demented mind - depths no one will penetrate!
 
...And you see me suffering
Not caring of any casualties
Just as long you recieve your safeguard of sympathy
So very wary of the masses and their Anarchy; Liberious ways

Solipsist - Is there no one you can see?
Even if she was presented burning?
Solipsist - Is there no one you can believe?
Even if Sophia was screaming?
Solipsist - Know you have killed and abused me
Imprisoned in your own  personal reality 




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Kingdom Lost

In summertime, the ivy climbs,
and hides the castle wall.
The king dreams of late,
that the sea is so great,
and yet - his boat is so small.
As swift as a fox and
dark as a raven on wing,
seven hundred soldiers march  
into the valley of the king.
Long overdue, a battle ensues
flanking the powers that be.
Children cry, and good men die, 
the monarch is now on his knee…
Soon the horsemen alone 
try to maintain the throne.
But the long way around
is the shortest way home.
The evening is filled
with chaos and smoke,
and the kingdom is 
stunned by it all…
Soon the sun will go down,
and in spite of his crown, 
the king will undoubtedly fall…
His rival’s strength
was mistaken,
by a king overtaken,
his life is now but a pawn.
His authority lifted,
the power has shifted –
an era of glory is gone…
 
 
Copyright © 2013
 


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We Welcome the Sun

We welcome the sun
We welcome the sun 

A gleaming sunrise is seen in the distance – shedding relief 
Bursting forth like fireworks in the dark blue sky 
Hues of beauty and sincerity washes away our grief
The cheery clouds come together like lovers embracing one another

I’m never waving goodbye
   
It’s so surreal… and magnificent to see this scene unfold
You lift up the sparkling light… you’re an angel from up above
It’s so vibrant – the illuminated sight never dulled 
You bring us luck and excitement – 

You’re as pleasant as a dove 

We welcome the sun
We welcome the love
We welcome the sun
We welcome the sun 
To omit the darkness 
To abolish the distress
To conceal the darkness
And reveal the halo
Hovering around your head
Burning away the dread 
We welcome the sun
We welcome the sun 
We welcome the sun

An ocean of love is rubbing against my feet
Blankets of comfort embrace me now… our love will never dry
You treat us with reverence and I repeat – 
You’re as pleasant as a dove – taking wing from on high 
We welcome the sun in the morning 
We welcome the sun with open arms
We welcome the sun 
We welcome the sun
We welcome the sun 
We welcome the sun 

A speedy breeze is whistling in my ears
Spiraling mad like a spinning top
Spiraling mad with all of its might 
You’re very intriguing – you casted away our fears 
Your gorgeous eyes
Project bright green and blue
You’re special in His sight 
He welcomes you
We welcome the hope 
We welcome the sun
We welcome the sun
We welcome the sun 
To lighten up your load 
And lead you to the mercy road
Where you and I will escape to paradise
To drive out all of the negativity
To conceal the wretched farewells
To reveal the light in goodbye 

We welcome the sun
We welcome the sun
We welcome you
With open arms 


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Black and White

You’ve maddened me to the core 
You singed me with your ferocious fire
We’re opposites… we’ll never integrate  
We can’t blend with each other…
Your love and I’m hate 
We’re contrary to each other…

So don’t even think about 
Getting us back together 
Because without a doubt, 
We don’t click with each other…

So let us go our own way…

Everything’s black and white
You love to torture me with your deceptive devices 
We’re playing this chess match – let’s fight!
Tonight, you’re going to pay the prices
You’re going to be deleted from my mind…

I’m not the one that should pay the price
You act as if you’re an angel from heaven
But, you’re a fiend…a devil from hell...who needs your advice?
Could someone unchain me from this prison?

So let us prepare for that day…

Fear and bewilderment build inside of our minds
Taking over us…we’re wasting valuable time
Terror and wrath injects into our veins…time starts to unwind 
I’m regaining my glory…this moment feels so sublime  

You think you’re innocent?
I can sense your guilt…bleeding through you
Do you live to feed me anguish? 
Don’t deny it…you crafty demon…no wonder I feel blue

Let’s get ready for battle…
I’ll watch you decay…
IT’S PAY BACK TIME . . .
Taste my fury and my agony 

Everything’s black and white
You love to torture me with your deceptive devices 
We’re playing this chess match – let’s fight!
Tonight, you’re going to pay the prices
You’re going to be defeated…

I scream before nightfall
I close my eyes to kiss my demise
I want to disappear 
Scratch away my desolation
Wipe away my tears…
Spewing out of my eyes…like a waterfall
Tonight, there will be dismay
There will be suffering 
After sundown…
Failure and glory will expose like stars in the midnight sky
Who will earn the crown? 
No one knows in silent wars – who can reveal the light in goodbye
  
Why are we black and white?
Are you too afraid to know the reason why? 

Everything’s black and white
You love to torture me with your deceptive devices 
We’re playing this chess match – let’s fight!
Tonight, you’re going to pay the prices
You’re going to suffer alone…


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Lacerated Wings

They are bound to the Earth like trees
Suffocating under the weight of an icy grave 
Reaching to be free, but only their limbs are seen
Hoping that one day someone will see:
They can't escape with lacerated wings

The ocean surrounds me, covering everything
Nothing will be clearly seen; confusion overwhelming
No-one can save you, you're on your own, left to die
Manipulating every bleeding heart you can find
I can't escape with lacerated wings.

Swarms of nets, waves of screams 
Entangle: your captive illusions and dreams
The mask has be seared - The truth now they see
The Liar - Vampiric Fiend; lowly thief
And now they know you can't escape with Lacerated Wings

There's reasons for your rejections:
Your Heavy heart's transferred oppression
The scars are too deep to pass the trials
But you can find peace in your cage of empty spirals
You Cannot Escape With Lacerated Wings


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UNNOTICED, UNSEEN

I woke up one day
Unnoticed, unseen
The sparrows were chirping
Did not mind me between

I poked them gently
The sparrows got scared
Seeing them fly
I went mad

I ran out into the streets
Naked and free
Hurled pebbles on passersby
Watched them flee with glee

I felt like a king
In this blind men’s paradise
Shocking poor fellows at will
Making fun of their cries

I was shaken hard
By someone I could not see
I rubbed my eyes
Could see only darkness around me

It was my mother
She put me on her lap
Tears filled my eyes
As I went into recap

I wished my dreams were true
I could see the world go blind
Why O Lord, 
You robbed away my sight
What was my fault, 
You made me Blind


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The homeless life

The homeless life
 

I have nowhere to go, I am on a constant roam
I live by the motto, wherever I lay my head is home 
From time to time I stay in a shelter
But usually not for very long, because I cannot abide by the rules
That is why right at the moment....
I AM HOMELESS

The streets are not safe for me
But right now I have nowhere else to be
I do not sleep very well
Living on the streets is a living hell
But right now I have no other choice,
I AM HOMELESS

Into the streets is where I go
To live with friends, and even foes
Forcing me to drop to my knees
It's like being stung by a thousand bees
I hate to have to say...
I AM HOMELESS
 
People think that they know me so well
But they really don't, they weren't even there when I fell
Fell to my knees in tears
Asking God to give me back my years
Years that I have wasted away
But I have had to pay
People want me to give in and say...
I MUST BE HOMELESS
 
But that is not true, that is just a ploy
I can know peace, happiness, and joy
I can stop all the despair in my life
And cut into negativity like a knife
For at some point in my life....
I WILL NOT BE HOMELESS


Written on April 4, 2007
By: Betty Sue KopeCrawford


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With This New Day

I have lived, 
And felt the cost, 
Paid my dues, 
But I have lost_ You. 


 Still I pray, 
As chaos looms, 
And as my blue turns into grey, 
I hear__ 
The angels sing- In tune. 

 Don't be giving in, 
Don't give up my son, 
Or fade away, 
Lift your chin with the sun__ And rise, 
With this new day!. 

 I have lived, 
And felt the cost of all my wonderin ways, 
I've paid my dues, 
I - Have lost you. 


 I can hear the angels sing, 
Your in a mistaken land__ Lessons learned in truth, 
As the grey seeks out the blue, 
She will__ Your daughter my son--- 
She will return--- To You.

For I have lived, 
Felt the cost of all my walkin days, 
I've paid my dues, 
I- Lost you....


I wont be giving in, 
Won't give up my girl, 
Or fade away, 
I'll lift my chin with the sun--- 
And RISE-- 
With this new day...


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My First Car

My lawyer drives a Jaguar, a slim and glitzy marque. He seldom ventures near the Law, (the work's done by his clerk), buts sends in bills at Partners Rates; that avaricious shark. My Broker's Merc is spanking new; it takes his fishing rod. He, as of right, once gently slipped in shoes his father trod. All pomp and circumstance he struts, this self appointed God. Accountants' BMWs have litres by the score. Mine's filled his up with gadgetry and Wilton on the floor. And now he's had his Coat of Arms emblazoned on the door. I used to have a set of wheels, a Morris Minor van. It was a dear and much loved friend which ran and ran and ran. I polished it with tender care and was its greatest fan. Alas! It's gone to pay the bills. But why? I cannot see. All day they guff and huff and puff and then demand a fee. I do not want their 'sound advice', I want a car - for me! ~
For Carol Brown's 'First Car' Contest by Charles Clive.


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Glisten in the Moonlight

Your glorious emerald eyes 
Glisten in the moonlight 
Glisten in the moonlight 
Delight dances in the water
I watch it joyfully
You are set free from the cage...
You're like a dove soaring in the sky
You are the rain...
drizzling down in ecstasy 
A hint of ecstasy is shown in your reflection...
When you caress me... I'm relieved... 
From the stress that forced me in chains
I knew we'd be on the brighter side of tomorrow 
We're glistening in the moonlight 
I knew we'd become candles in the heavens above us
We're glistening in the moonlight
For a moment, I felt your presence...your radiant with sympathy 
I saw at first glance the dark side of you
Tonight, we'll be together and fly through the horizon 
We'll watch the sunset say its last goodbye...
We'll wave a greeting at the moon! 
We glisten in the moonlight...
What if I was as handsome as the lion...
Roaring with pride and pure courage
What if we were glistening in the moonlight?
Would it bring health to our bones tonight?
Would it make our heart rejoice and overflow with delight?
Would we be able to survive this horrifying plight?
Would we be shimmering like a candlelight?
We're glistening in the moonlight... (6)
Ohh...yeah...ooh yeah...ooh yeahh...
We reach to the stars and hope we can trace a shooting star
I feel the coolness run down my fingers...
We're glistening in the moonlight
You're the dandelions in the fields
You're the gorgeous view that I marvel at everyday
When you kiss me, I live my dreams
We glisten in the moonlight
In a quick moment, I sense a feeling of endless renewal 
I roam inside of your illuminating maze 
Glow on... sunshine... 
Glow on...sunshine...
Glisten in the moonlight...
Listen to the truth and rub it in
You are ravishing like the sunset
But you're ascending while I'm descending
I feel extremely guilty
I wish I could glisten with you in the moonlight
You're glistening in the moonlight (6) 
Ohhh yeahh... oohhh yeahh... ohh yeahh
You're glistening in the moonlight (4)
We go our own way
I wish we can glisten like the moon
Glisten like the sun 
There's a dream concealed inside of me...
Reveal your light and pour it upon me
You glisten in the appealing moonlight
While I'm subsiding... you're fulfilling your dreams
Of gliding across the horizon 
You're independence... keeps on scorching with satisfaction
While I'm below you... 
Your emerald green eyes
Stared me down like a hawk...
Your emerald eyes
Gaze down at me genuinely...
I wish we could flee together in reality...
That could be a possibility
To glisten in the moonlight in glee
We were glistening in the moonlight (3)
But that was only a dream...
I'll pray that it turns into a reality
We were glistening in the moonlight 
Now, I've misplaced my delight...
Will I ever experience such a brilliant night?


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BIG YELLOW BALL

Oh, I went to America
My grandma to see
A big yellow ball was chasing me
On a flying machine
With a wide window
A big yellow ball wouldn't let me go

In Chengdu, China
Where I come from
There's no big yellow ball to ruin your fun
You can play outside
And feel so free
There's no big yellow ball disturbing me

Oh, At Grandma's house
We finally arrive
The big yellow ball has come alive
Without my help 
All by its own
The big yellow ball has found her home

In Grandma's back yard
Down on my knees
The big yellow ball makes me sneeze
I'd like to play outside
But it's hard to see
Cause that big yellow ball is blinding me

Oh, I come inside
To get away
From the big yellow ball that's here all day
It's so clear outside
There's no place to hide
From the big yellow ball it must be a mile wide!

*Through the eyes of a five year old. Obviously, the big yellow ball is the sun. In Chengdu, China it's rarely seen through the smog.  Poem inspiration came from this exact quote of the child, "I can't play in your backyard because of that big yellow ball"

3-8-14

Sponsor: Heather Secrest
Contest Name: Tell me a story 
 


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genetically modified organisms

Have grocery stores become delivery systems?
Bearing insidious alterations in organ function?
I asked my local grocer-
"Please show me the labelling of GMO products you carry"
His reply-
"I'm not responsible for the content you consume"
My reply-
"Fair enough, who is"
His reply-
"Way above my pay grade, buddy"
My reply-
"Then your response is...buyer beware?"
His reply-
"Your words, not mine"
From that moment I decided, food

....is the new wild west


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Antigone

I am the face of misery
My life, a dissonance of autumn and spring,
The years are written in the same
Lugubrious, nostalgic grey
How can it be the author to blame?
I cannot scream this all away…
Burn nor Bleed this all away…
To Death I am Ordained

Lacuna ever growing
With Velvet sheets of life flowing
Aeons apart of my "royalty"
Under the mask the cannot see...
Can you dispel this tragedy:
Antigone - Epiphany failing

If it must be…
Then just kill me,
(Antigone) sing me out of reality;
I wear this dissonant crown of shame
(Antigone) Of a kingdom's disdain
I hate to be this way... normalcy's bane
(Antigone) Here comes the edict, to blame
The sordid child of Thebes,
This is me,
Antigone

No words of hope
No words of hate
Do I have Lenore to send to me:
The sordid child of Thebes
Caught In the longest nightmare
life - the slowest way to die

I know this is my life 
But I'm not under control
under the mask the will see
Just Another Human

If it must be…
Then just kill me,
(Antigone) sing me out of reality;
I wear this dissonant crown of shame
(Antigone) Of a kingdom's disdain
I hate to be this way... normalcy's bane
(Antigone) Here comes the edict, to blame
The sordid child of Thebes,
This is me,
Antigone

If it must be…
Then just kill me,
(Antigone) sing me out of reality;
I wear this dissonant crown of shame
(Antigone) Of a kingdom's disdain
I hate to be this way... normalcy's bane
(Antigone) Here comes the edict, to blame
The sordid child of Thebes,
This is me,
Antigone

Can you dispel my life; this tragedy?
Can you control the storm in my mind?
I'm asking you: can you rid me
Of The Curse of Antigone?


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The Night Walk.

                                                                                   **A WINNING POEM**


That night, my heart pleaded i should
Wait over and pass the night at grand pa's 
Old inn.
Enormous was my concern to reach home 
And see Constance La France.... the rambling poet.
About "create your own form, may be?"
I embraced the night and darkness mingled 
With my eyes;

Yonder are night workers,
Here and there they wander,
Seaching for who to plunder,
Oh! what a mighty wonder.
Look at that  supermarket,
And a man with a mask,
Gun and matchet,
He most be a burglar,
Oh! i must be undercover,
Or else i step into danger,
For the night is in dark anger.

"Ahh! ahhh!! ahhhh!!!" the cry of a victim,
Something must have wrought a cry,
Who will be the rescue?
For me, this night walk must linger.
Look at the police, having me as an 
Accomplice, they need my identity and money,
Yet yonder is the victim crying....

Look over there! drug users
Assembling in dark corners,
Swaying like feathers,
In the midst of their daily rituals,
That is never beneficial,
Oh! blind earth leading to an open death.
Group upon groups, stationed in their post,
Looking so malicious, looking so vicious, 
Brandishing weapons, ready for the slaughter,
Gun shoots clatter as a group fight starter.
Charles melody has seen wonder
And endless palaver.

Knives mingled with flesh, blood and bone,
Men eager and bold,
Heads bounce like ball,
Suddenly, calmness......
Gba! gba!! gba!!! another trigger's verdict?
Lord when will these pass over?
For i am likening to salt in water,
Never to calm and ponder,
The night walk seemed not to be over. 

For the night is in dark anger....


BY CHARLES MELODY (Lightening Ink)                  **14TH PLACE IN
 CONSTANCE LA FRANCE CONTEST,
 WITH THE THEME; "DEEP, DARK AND DRAMATIC".
===============================
The form of this poem is called,"stream of consciousness." 
i formed it so because the thought kept coming
 like a stream or river of consciousness in my mind,
i was conscious of the dangers i knew, especially in my Little
African village and the war that covered it.
For "Constance La France, the Rambling poet's contest.


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Miles

I write
my late night revelations
paint an image so clear-
so precise-
as if fine-tuned with a microscope.
I see the truth.
I now realize that what I need-
I want-
is YOU.
I don't know how I am going to make you see,
make you feel...
I need to make you know.
A simple touch is all I need
to delve into your mind and infect you.
But how to reach you?
You are hidden far away
within your own mind,
in maze of your own design.
Between us locked doors and endless traps,
mountains,
valleys,
rivers, lakes, oceans,
miles and miles of 
impassible terrain that keeps me apart,
keeps me from you!
We are two universes set to collide-
not to be destroyed,
but merge into one.
Set to collide, but keep missing our mark.
This is unbeknownst to you.
I keep the secrets within me.
How much longer can I wait-
how much longer until my silence
consumes me?
Until you break me?
I am deserted, alone,
left in desolation.
You are the answer to the questions,
the key to my freedom.
But you cannot reach me.
And you do not know what you are.
How much longer til my time runs out?


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We Counted You as Family

The tears burn my skin as they stream down my face
Dripping slowly to the floor
Crashing and shattering on impact
Just as the many pieces of my broken heart have done
You betrayed all of us
It did not matter that we loved you as our own, as family
Like a thief with no thought of the consequences
You stole something so precious 
You took away the innocence of my child 
Crushing it as if it were nothing more than dirt beneath your feet
You show no remorse for what you have done
Only sadness for the verdict that will send you away
An animal is what you are 
Stalking your prey and gaining their trust
Using their faith against them
Luring your victim into your clutches 
Then taking away the life that is within them
Even the title of child rapist is too kind for you
My beliefs are stained by the blackness of your soul
My heart is hardened by your selfishness 
The evil inside of you has demolished something within me
Yet it has not consumed me
You have no respect for the unity that we tried to share with you
We were merely a stomping ground for your greed and lust
Nothing you do can replace what you have taken from us
No pain that you suffer can compare to the agony you have caused us
You cared nothing for the laws of men or God
My faith is lost to many because of men like you
I can’t help but wonder how anyone could be so cruel


Copyright © 2010 Lena “Lolita” Townsend


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A Confession to Tell

I have a confession to tell
and I don't know where to start.
It is something I have hidden
for many years.
Something I wouldn't let myself have.
I've had many fears about this.
Fear you would reject me.
Fear of disappointing you,
of hurting you in some way.
I denied this for so long,
it became the norm.
I tortured my soul over it,
for so many years.
I want you both to know
how much I love you
and I would never do anything
to intentionally hurt you.
You both gave me so much
even when we didn't have much.
You both did a great job raising me
and I think I turned out okay.
You taught me good life lessons,
a hard work ethic, honesty, and loyalty.
Up until now, I have led my life
the way I did for fear
you would disapprove of me and
that would be too much for me to bear.
I then realized, I wasn't truly happy.
I wasn't being me.
During this time, I met someone,
who made me very happy.
They saw the real me hiding inside
and loved me for it.
I now know true happiness.
I have debated and contemplated
in my mind of how to tell you both.
It is something I could
never imagine doing before.
I didn't know how to tell you
no matter how much I wanted to.
I want you to know
that you did nothing wrong.
I love you both very much.
Please don't think any less of me
because of this, but...
Mom, Dad, I'm gay.


Details | Haiku | |

Haikus About God: III

Beauty of nature
Why condense it down to God?
Isn’t life enough?


Details | Lyric | |

The Things You Wish You Could Erase

Sitting on the edge of the bridge
Holding unto that bottle of beer
The same beer that he drank 
The night he killed those people
Flashback in his brain
Gripping unto the bottle
nearly breaking it
hes sitting behind the wheel
Picks up the beer bottle 
Takes another sip
He sees the car
But gently closes his eyes
The women slams on her breaks
Her son in the back seat
The cars crash
Her car rolls down the hill
His car slamming into 
The side of bridge gates
The gates holding him steady
He gently steps out of his car
Seeing the smoke 
A gray car laying in the river
Below the bridge hes standing on
He runs down there 
Running through the water
the top of the car barely noticable
He helps the young women out
Not knowing about the little boy
In the back seat
She yells
"my son... my son"
She points to the vehicle
She takes her last breathe
Lays there helplessly
The man drags the little boy out of the car
A scratch on his forhead
Not breathing at all
The man cries
Trying to wake the kid up
Knowing they are both up in heaven
He vanishes
Several years later
He sits on the bridge
Holding the bottle
Has a child of his own
A wife of his own
Waiting at home for him
His son an hour before 
Wanted to walk to the bridge
With him
But the man just said no
The young boy just stayed home
His father never came back
They found him 
Floating in the same river
The women and her son were in

~Dedicated to Tommy~


Details | I do not know? | |

Welcome 2013

Well we are already a couple of months in so i just wanted to say welcome. 
this will be a new journey for the both of us, so i hope it will be awesome. 
I will try to write more than usual this year, I promise. :)
What would help tho if you readers would send me topics and stuff to help me write about things cuz my mind goes way faster than my fingers and i cant think of just one thing. lol. so thank you readers. plz comment and tell me your thoughts.


Details | Free verse | |

Words of Life

Drowning in the pool of anguish…oh…oh…
I’m venturing into the forest…and I want to hear the words seep out 
Release these aching sorrows…I worry my soul’s drying out…
like a drought…
Drain out the fluids from my heart
It’s gouging me…bruising me to the core…

**chorus** 
Embrace the light…embrace the midnight sky…
You fall in my arms – you die so warm
Shed me more sun to lift up my spirits
From the…underground…and release me – I’m breathless
I’m drowning in doubt…ooh… oh… 


Remember me…I’m falling…into my swirling fate…hanging on the roots 
Strangling my heart…distorting in my veins… I’m bleeding so softly – cut out the wood…
Splintering me…I’m shattering… and I’m falling in the abyss
Bring me more radiance from my candle light
Warp me up in bliss…don’t let the midnight sky…don’t take away my delight
From the…ocean…and save me—save me…oh… oh…  I’m failing 

*chorus*

I’m drowning in regret…ooh..oh…
Hit the bull’s eye in my heart…embrace the light
And don’t leave me hanging in the abyss…hand me a kite!
Save me before I fall apart…shut out the night
And don’t let the dusk escape us…

I must confess…
I must confess…
I hate to see you abandon the light…
But I’m not the one to save you from the night
Ooh…ohh…

*Chorus* 

Splintering lies fill your heart 
I want to kiss it goodbye…
But you’ve mastered it like a piece of art
I want to kiss the abyss and die…
Dry… I wanna touch the sky with my whole soul
But I’m failing and the end of time has taken its toll
Tainted sorrow…swims around me…I dwell where the waters depart
But the anguish still swarms in my heart…
I’m failing…my heart stops beating
And my desires are fleeting
From my grasp
And the monsters laugh at me…as I fall… 

*chorus*

Embrace the midnight sky…catch me…catch me…
As I fall in death’s arms…I die so cold
And your heart is made of gold

Untangle the darkness & take away the nightmares 
Answer our prayers & block out the night 
Erase the heartaches & wipe away our tears
Unravel Your words of life & delight


Details | Lyric | |

Changed

If i were to tell you that my heart is gray
What would you do to make it red again?
If i were to say that i dont miss you
Would you understand my pain?
If i were to show you how much you mean
Would you notice that my heart stopped beating?
If i were to picture things in my mind to be perfect
What would you do to tell me things wont ever be the same?
If you were to tell me your heart was gray
I would give you mine in place of yours
If you were to say that you dont miss me
I would understand your pain
If you were to show me how much i mean
I would notice that your heart stopped beating
If you were to picture things in your mind to be perfect
I Would tell you that they are, your just ignoring it
I would tell you how big of a part you are in my life
I would say to you that you are my hero
I would show you my scars and heal your wounds
I would picture us in a place that does not harm love
If you could see the hole in my heart 
Would you bother to fix it 
Or would you let it fall apart?


Details | Lyric | |

In my corrupt stead

Draped from her body, they sparkle like gold. Tear soaked and smothered, in lies that she's told. She wears them ashamed, but she wears them with grace. To cover the pain, that is etched in her face. 
  It's her mark, it's her passion, her reason to breathe. As shallow and weak, as pathetic can be. 
  For the last time I saw her, was the last place she laid. Where I held her so close, deep down in her grave. No more to be seen, no more to betray. Damned and unheard, while she cried out in vain. 

Don't pity the evil, corrupt and forsaken. Who've strayed from the path, that they should have taken. It's all self inflicted, they live unrestricted. But on this their last day, they'll all be convicted. 

Etched in his body, the scars will remain. Blood soaked in madness, he's nearly insane. He wears them in anger, but he wears them with pride. To expose to the world, all his hate that's inside. 
  It's his mark, it's his passion, his reason to breathe. As shallow and weak, as cruel as can be. 
  But the last place I saw him, was the last time he raged. Where I beat him and broke him, deep down in his grave. No more to be seen, no more to be heard. Damned and destroyed, underneath all his dirt. 

Don't pity the evil, corrupt and forsaken. Who've strayed from the path, that they should have taken. It's all self inflicted, they live unrestricted. But on this their last day, they'll all be convicted.

Now sift through my ashes, gather up all my bones. Let him without sin, cast the first stone. Pile me up in a bucket, and leave me to stay. So I can face my creator, on my judgement day. 
 It's my life, it's my passion, it's what I believe. As misunderstood, as reckless can be. 
  For the last time you saw me, was the last time I prayed. Where I dug my own hole, and laid down in my grave. No more to be hated, no more to be feared. For in my corrupt stead, an angel appeared. 


Details | Lyric | |

At night

At night I see a ghost
Where fears and doubts are high
It scares me now and then
And gives me sleepless nights

Tears run down my face
No one hears even my sigh
It worries me more than ever 
When I see the ghost inside

My pillow is my bestfriend 
That catches all my grief
That made me realized 
Created a ghost out of me

I hide no more from danger
I think I just survived
I'm now out of the closet
At night I'll never cry


Details | Lyric | |

Elysium Dream of Love

I close my weary eyes
Holding onto the hope
Of not having to cope
Not a mintue longer
Without you by my side
Not expierencing
The warm look in your eyes
The tingling rush of your finger tips
That would grip my hair tight
To stop you from slipping into the night
Biting  your bottom lip
As a pinch to yourself
To see if it was real
The dream of love we felt
And now that you are gone
I only wish to die
Your image fades from my mind
Sometimes I see it clear,
The sun is skillfully stroking it set in the sky
As my feet float down the road across the tuscan country side
I ever so gently sense the wildy grown wheat
Tickling these troubled lines engraved in the palm of my hand
I playfully pick one out of the land and pluck the grains
I look up and in the distance is where she waits
But there she remains peacefully strolling through the calming field
In a white cotton dress that tails off in the wind and
wearing a small confident smile that makes my yearning heart yield
Whispering in my ear that soon I will make it home
But my Life's journey must continue down this God paved road
I awake with the longing of her, But with so much to do
I need God's strength for one more day to get through


Details | Haiku | |

Haikus About God: IV

God made all people
But some better than others?
Stop being silly.


Details | Lyric | |

It's Not Over

Don’t say it’s all over (cause it’s not)
“Sorry” won’t cover it…so don’t go on your knees and pray for my forgiveness 
Oh baby…don’t listen to the commotion…I’m done taking cover (it’s all for naught)
I’m plummeting in slow motion…into the remorseful pit…I’m plummeting in my nightmare’s abyss

I want to carry you through the night… 
I’m swimming in the ocean of my tears… 
My sodden wings lost its ability of flight…
You've been swimming in your distress for years… 

Shut up! Don’t say it...
Don’t even think of it (don’t even ponder it)
Hey! Don’t say it’s all over…though we’re breaking bit by bit 
‘Cause there’s more treasure to discover 

I want to remind you to fight the good fight…
My misery pools are brewing inside of my head…
I’m backing away from the light & exploring the night… 
You’re giving in to sleep and I’m wide awake on my bed 

Shut up! Don’t say it...
Don’t even think of it (don’t even ponder it)
Hey! Don’t say it’s all over…though we’re breaking bit by bit 
‘Cause there’s more treasure to discover 

Please don’t tell me…oh, don’t tell me…darling!
You’re giving up today… (I beg you to stay, despite your inner pain) 
I’m scared I might erupt – it could be quite startling!
Someday, things will change for the better… (Don’t turn the wrong lane)
I’m waiting for that day to arrive – perhaps it will wash away our dismay…

I promise you a tranquil reality 
I want to stray with you tonight 
I still have hope that He’ll set us free
I was wondering if you could stay the night
Maybe the Lord could grant us 
Pure, incredible delight 

Shut up! Don’t say it...
Don’t even think of it (don’t even ponder it)
Hey! Don’t say it’s all over…though we've plunged into our own pit 
‘Cause there’s more treasure to gather…


Details | Lyric | |

Turmoil

With sorrow in my heart and hope in my soul I look to the future with only a dream 
to carry me to tomorrow.


Details | Rhyme | |

Living Without

I tried to write about love but I haven’t felt it. 
I tried to write about the sea but I’ve never seen it. 
Then I tried to write about the air, but I have never breathed it. 
I tried to write about magic but I never believed it.
I couldn’t write about god, all I have ever done is sinned.
And when I tried to write about life I found, 
I have never really lived.


Details | Lyric | |

Fake Friend

I'm feeling sick from your two faced hypocrisy
When you say one thing and then you're doing another
Cold whispers behind my back you talk about me
Then you act like my best friend with no apology

Why do you beak these friendship rules
And why am I left a suffering fool
I'm left with thoughts of violence and then I'm feeling weak and passive
I'm now a massive walking talking contradiction
And I'm left believing the facts and fiction

It's all because of your backstabbing dealings 
I want to know your game and why I'm the victim of your play
I will not be left the loser of this game
I intend to stay strong and take my prize
As I will face you full on and cut you down to size

This may be hit and miss
But I will expose your cowardice
As you look into my eyes and see that I'm miffed 
And so sick of your ficticious recitals
Now you will realise for you to have kept two facing me was fatal

So answer to me fake friend your front is now broken
And you feel you're struggling to breathe
But now I've lost my use for sensitivity
Remember who crossed the line
I have one fast thought of does it matter at all
Then it all comes back that it's you who broke the rules

Now you've been confronted and your colour fades to grey
You feel your time ticking by as tomorrow turns into today
This was my revenge on you fake friend
My fake friend revenge!


Details | Carpe Diem | |

Pricked

Your  love pricks me like a rose each thorn grows but no one knows Your so full of 
it as it shows so carry on now go on, go. I'm fed up with the phony and  i'm 
through with the tears, you couldn't pay me all your money to make up for those 
years. Someone help me I feel faint how could I think he was such a saint and 
worst of all I let me fall into a spiral down below. A magic called love carried 
by the dove of someone I use to know.


Details | Free verse | |

Let Me In

You feel the warmth

sun on your bodies, your skin hot to touch

Got to let the burn go under

Your lips a blush

flowing the blood cells, this mouth can erupt

Skin of earth is rough don't rupture

and I say hey

hey

hey

What lovely evening; moon above my eye

and I say wait

wait

wait

Didn't think this evening...pressure's building high

I shield; a corpse

Something you wanted, you did have to say

but my tongue got caught right under

I need a road

Tires are heaving, this run can't be raced

let me fall, don't watch my blunder

And I say come

come

come

Sit beside me friend, I didn't say: Just let it end

And I say stay

stay

stay

I know my truths are hard to find, but you'll dig deep for a little lie

Let me in

Let me in

Let me in

I didn't say: Let it end

Just let me in

breath from my wind

You drank my taste

don't let it go to waste

You let me in

breath from my wind

You drank my taste

Don't let it go to waste

Don't let it go to waste

Don't let it go to waste

...


Just reach again; I'll pace.


Details | Lyric | |

Nowhere Kind of guy

Nowhere kind of guy.

I headed for Australia in the year of sixty seven
I traveled, me on the good Fairsea
And the journey was pure heaven
The sea was wild and stormy
But it never bothered me
For I was off to face my destiny.

Then I became a soldier
 And they sent me off to war
As they filled me full of anger
So it was never like before
And so I welcomed manhood
With a soul that had been soiled
As deep within the savage child did boil.

Now I’m a nowhere kind of guy
And I don’t know where I’m going
Cause I decided long ago
That there ain’t no way of knowing
I guess a guy has got to keep on flowing.

Now here I am, and Vietnam
Was way back down the track
And I’ve done some things and I’m carrying sins
And I’ve suffered some way back
I’ve paid some heavy dues and all
And I’ve still got heaps to come
Cause what’s been done’s ,been done all said and done

Written in 1990.
    


Details | Lyric | |

Missing

I woke up today, a feeling overcame the thoughts of my mind  There is something missing, something I can't find     It's been gone for quite some time     I look around me, appears that everything is there, everything is fine      But something is missing     I go searching, frantic, looking to the corners of my mind   I must find, I must find    There is something missing     I look to other people to help me find      Only to be beaten, stripped and left blind    I woke up today, a feeling overcame the thoughts of my mind     I know what's missing, I know what I need to find      My truth,  My faith, My dreams, My conviction            Myself,   I miss me


Details | Lyric | |

I need a friend

I need a friend right now
I need guidance
I need someone to show me how
How to just be.

I thought I was happy
I thought I liked me
I guess I am not the person
I thought I could be. 

I need a friend right now
someone to share my thoughts
someone to be my sounding board
someone who understands me
someone who realizes
I should not be ignored.

I know the truth that lies beneath the beauty and the smiles
I know the truth

But you see,
it is much easier to live a life of denial
You smile and grin,
laugh and pretend.

Oh, but still remains the dark behind the light
I know the truth.

One day the closet door will open
One day the make up will fade
and the world will know 
what I have known all along

You can't hide your pain
you can't store your fears
you can't bury your sorrows
you can't change what's done
you can't pretend your okay anymore
you can't be that person everyone wants you to be

The mask has been ripped from your face
and the world now knows
what I have known all along
you don't know how to live this life alone.
you are broken and scared
and fear that there
is no way for repair

The damage has been done
your life incomplete
you have been stripped
of all your strength and beat
you are left broken and scared
and no one is there.

You are alone 
and I have known this all along
I know the truth
I know I can't be alone

I need a friend right now.


Details | Lyric | |

Nature's Sigh

The Black butterfly waves away her adorations
All she seeks is seclusion, subsuming slave to mortification
The Dear Air is all she can breath, captive of imaginary dreams
The Beacon resonates, but the hope isolates
The Wasteland's silky fingers caressing the virgin's face

So she is now, the covet of the damned
Programmed to every victim's pain
Carrying the weight of every sorrow
Drowning in wrongs she does not know
But paradise is at loss; she must go

Nature sighs after the bite
All my hopes fading
Don't look at me with those sorrowful eyes
How do you know exactly what I'm feeling?
I'm just the ghost flower passing by
And you can hear nature's sigh


Details | Lyric | |

A FORBIDDEN LOVE

How can I love you more?
On this warm summer night,  I sought intently  for a solution……

When suddenly my eyes journeyed afar….
Fixated on the illumination and activity of nights bright stars,
Which led me to an apparent constellation -
A pattern of stars spelling out your name -
So beautiful, so radiant that its existence and purpose
Only God could explain.
I stared in awe and marveled for some time -
till something happened-something strange.
The stars abruptly shifted, no longer spelling CHARMAINE.
An arrow took form and its head  meant VAIN -
In my direction  … Swiftly it aimed…
Piercing my heart and exposed its pollution
….. I never loved her


Details | Lyric | |

I am Yours now

Since I'm not what you want
You can have whatever you want
Take my heart, take my phone
Take it all and leave me alone

Since you hate what I am
You are my type of man
I am yours for a while
I will go that extra mile

I have got to many friends
They drive me round the bend
I survive on your hate
Your rage is also great

I've been searching for new life anyway
I've been for new emotion anyway

Since this is not love
I can do whatever I want
Since this is not fair
I'll do what I want and I wont care

See my words of rage
I am  trapped within your cage
Now that I am yours now
I am yours now
I am yours now


Details | Lyric | |

in the shadow of doubt

in the shadow of doubt I lurk
in the shadow of doubt I stir
in the shadow of doubts my thoughts reside
Phantoms of possibilities revive in the night
Wild wonderings make my soul sprint in fright
The self conceals itself and takes flight
the mind untamed and free
free to reflect, free to settle
And I stand apart from it
For in the shadow of doubt
Is when my mind is unbound nourished by the doubt


Details | Lyric | |

Would you care

Would you care, if I had to leave and go away?
Would you care, if I had to leave yo ass today?
Would you care, If I went and ripped up your sad half'a'heart?
Would you care, if I tore your whole life, ripped it all apart?

You beat me down too many times,
I  just cant see,
your face, when I am trying to hide mine,
I'm so scared,
when you make me feel like I've done something wrong,
I just cant breath,
When you stare at me, you hold it, oh so long.

Would you care, If I just packed my bags all up on you today?
Would you care, if I went and made it all my own way?
Would you care, If I just left your broke ass, mugged off, all alone?
Would you care, would you call me, sorry?, begging on the phone?

You hurt my heart just way too many times,
I just cant see, 
why I came back, when you  clearly wasn't mine,
I'm so scared, 
you played me, with the same old stupid song,
I cant breath,
all along I knew that this was just so wrong.

Would you care, if someone walked by and caught my eye?
Would you care, would you ever sit and wonder why?
Would you care, if you lost  every single part of me?
Would you care,  cause without me there simply is no we!

You want your cake and eat it too
I just cant see, 
how your gonna make this work for you?,
I'm so scared,
Of your girl finding out this way, its sad, 
I cant breath,
It's me, I'm the one who's looking bad.

Would you care, when your living by yourself and you are down?
Would you care, when your girl finds out you're just a clown.
Would you care, when I wipe my hands of you, I'm done!,
Would you care, this really isn't any fun.

I hope you can live with your mirror image, 
I hope you can live with the past, 
I'll watch you from afar,
I hope your mask can last.











Details | Ballad | |

Isolation

How can I tell you?
I can't stay with you.

Neither I can give up on you.
Fear of losing you is losing me.
It feels like slow death every night.

But we are just stuck in our spaces!
Unable to connect from two feet distance.


Details | Lyric | |

The confusing world of Poetry

The confusing world of poetry

Clerihews, and couplets
Acrostics, and Haikus
Me head is spinning round and round
Oh Lord I’m so confused
I’d like to read about the stuff
But I really ain’t got time
I’m too busy trying to write
In rhythm and in rhyme

I never was so very clever
I flunked in all at school
I guess me dad, he got it right
He called me village fool
He tried to make me turn out clever
But he didn’t have a chance
Cause I’m a dreamer through and through
You can see that at first glance.

So I don’t know about complex things
I’m just a simple man
But me, I’ve wrote eight thousand songs
And I’ve done it cause I can
The words roll out like a waterfall
And they come just like they are
And I talk about love, and I talk about life
And the flowers and the stars.

25 July 2013 @ 0925hrs.


Details | Rhyme | |

Beyond the Frontier

Where am I? Why is it dark?
This isn’t what I had in mind when I left the park…
Why isn’t the wind whispering…the songbirds singing?
All I remember is a telephone ringing…
A scream and a crash and a pain in my side…
Is this what happens after one’s died?
I don’t feel like myself, I feel wild and free,
Yet I’m cold and alone, 'stead of filled with glee.

My whole life I’ve studied, and pondered, and prayed,
Trying to fathom what would happen this day
But now that it’s here, I’m beginning to fear
Maybe the afterlife’s not what it appears…
It’s certainly not what I’ve been told by my preacher
Or my parents or brother or best friend or teacher…
Is it a bad thing, or is it good?
Maybe it’s just not quite understood...

While I was on Earth, I just couldn’t wait
To meet good St. Peter at the heavenly gate
And ask him a question or query or two
“What was my purpose?” “What good did I do?”
“What’s it all for?” “How does it all flow?”
“Can I have one more body, one more try, one more go?”
But where is the angel? Where is the gate? And
If this is Hell, then where is Ol’ Satan?
Am I a lost soul? Am I forgotten?
Am I to be left here until I am rotten?

Lo and behold! what, now, can this be?
Is this a wonderful spiritual epiphany?
Is this the magical feeling all souls receive
When they leave Earth? Oh! was I that naïve?
How could I have not seen the realism?
Why was I consumed in man-made idealism?
This is more wondrous than all I was taught
Oh, all the times I argued and fought
With others, ‘bout how their views were asinine
Now I see, theirs were just as wrong as mine!
Little I thought was actually correct!
How, why, did I let others petty beliefs infect
My untouched, my pure, my virgin mind?
I regret all the hours I self-tortured to find
That compared to what I see now, I was empty and blind…

Wait - - What is this that I see?
What is this gateway that is revealed unto me?

Now a door is opened to my immortal soul
I am expected now to enter my life’s final goal…
I am scared, intimidated, but still I am glad…
For the truth I have just seen is anything but bad.
This is the end of my journey, I’ve nothing to fear,
For now I am going Beyond the Frontier.


Details | Lyric | |

Reality Of Mind

The mind of the lost, is nowhere  inside.
Dreams of this twisted third eye.
Torturing images, no martyr could bear.
It's the craziness that evokes this primal fear.
Crazy in madness, a house of black cards.
A sand storm of terror, that pump the blood hard.
Fooled in this game, there is no win.
Welcome those feelings and let it all in.
 
How are you feeling? It's only inside.
How are you feeling? Is it burning your eyes?
How are you feeling? Lost and so blind.
How does it feel? In Reality of mind.
 
Chaotic is breathing, you feel yourself fall.
Slip from the grip of your reality's wall.
Awake in a nightmare, shedding red tears
Praying for sanity that no one will hear
Flesh is cold and dampened with sweat
your eyes in the demon are all that you fret.
Grasping at strings you pray that you'll live
The pay for you penance, one soul to give.
 
How are you feeling? It's only inside.
How are you feeling? Is it burning your eyes?
How are you feeling? Lost and so blind.
How does it feel? In Reality of mind.


Details | Lyric | |

Summertime Re-Lyric

Summertime…and the livin’ is easy,                                                
Flowers growin’ and the sun’s sittin’ high.                                    
Your Daddy’s rich and your Momma’s so good lookin’;               
So hush, pretty baby…you got no reason to cry. 

One of these days, you’re gonna rise up smilin’.
Take a look around and think you’ve got it all.
You’ve got your Momma’s looks, all your Daddy’s money,
And all the boys in town are at your beck and call.

Summertime…and the livin’ is so easy,
Laughin’, singin’, havin’ so much fun.
No time to stop and think about your future
And what life will bring when your Summer’s  done.

‘Cause Summertime, it don’t last forever.
Breezes cool and the leaves begin to fall;
And in your quiet moments, you sit and wonder
How you've come so far, but have no love at all.

Yes, Summertime…and the livin’ was so easy; 
Ain’t it sad how fast the good times fly; 
And now your Momma’s looks and all your Daddy’s money
Another sweet, warm Summer’s day they cannot buy. 


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Hurt

I feel
Conflicted
Confused
Torn
You'd "Never hurt me"
You swore
I didn't think
I'd feel this way
Even now
I think of words to say
To describe
This odd pain
I'd liked you
That much is true
But it stopped there
So its not fair
For me to feel like this
So mixed

You moved on faster than I thought
It hurts to know how soon you gave up
I pretend
And say, "Let's be friends."
But was it all a lie?
The feelings you conjured up inside
For me?
The distant way you brush me aside
As cool as ice
I meant nothing to you
Did I?
It's just the same
I'm like a pawn in a chess game
No
You'd never hurt me
You're too blind to see
That you did
Constantly
"I'd never hurt you."
It's a line that's been reused
And I was a fool
For falling for that one too
Don't say it,
"I'd never hurt you."
It's cruel
Because in the end
You always do


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Along The Way

I say goodbye
To this chapter in my life
Im sure you will get the answers
When im gone
So when the day comes
The sun will not touch my face
Theres mistakes
The path is long
Look at my face
The stories it could tell 
The ones that wont erase
Tell the ones that cared enough 
That i finally left this place
So play the song
Its something to remind you
When im gone


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In My Dreams

In my dreams

I’m still in my dreams
Walking along the streams
The way looks so dangerous
Its stories were so famous
But I’m still in my dreams

I don’t know where I’m going
Just know going to be ruined
I have not control on my mind
Summer is not so fine
But I’m still in my dreams

I saw a shadow looks terrible
Structure is not so visible
I make my steps towards shadow
My feet going to be swallow
But I’m still in my dreams



Weather becomes cool
Shadow is making me fool
I am a little afraid
I think my life has been paid
But I’m still in my dreams

I see a dead body
Where was nobody
This I’m not ready to face
I have to get out of this place
But I’m still in my dreams


By: Allishba Khalid


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Wasting Time

Way above the street lights
Watching yourself die
Waisting time

They left you in so much pain
You lost everything
For so many years
You pushed me out
Cant describe how i feel

This time im not going to watch myself cry
im not going to bury myself on the inside
You say you want the old me back
If you want me back
Your going to have to ask
Nice than that


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Just let it go

Is this life just a hidden message?
As I pound these streets, I wonder
As I crawl these walls, I ponder
You left on a cryptic message

Never to return, yet your still out there
Oh so many times, far too many crimes
Gone for good, just like the winter air
You might be missed, as people continue to stare


It’s all in your head now
Just let it go, just let it go


Watching three women pass by, life on the their backs
Where will they go?
All still young, frail and faces full of cracks
On they move, turn and all so low

Watching the people, crowds begin to sway
Analysing their thoughts, following a long day
What’s in store when they get home?
Lost in thought, onwards I roam


It’s all in your head now
Just let it go, just let it go
It was a long time ago
Now go with the flow


                                                                            © Shane Cogan, 2013


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Im Sorry

I hope you remember all of the bad things you have done so far
I hope you still have the chance to fix them 
Im sorry it took me forever to write this letter to you
Ive been meaning to save you from what your about to become
For some reason i cant get a grip on it
I dont know what i want to say
I dont know how to help you
Im about to tell you about some of the things you are about to do
Right now your 16
Right now you are sitting on your bed listening to music
Reading a book on your favorite band
Smoking that cigarette
That will soon get you into all the other things that causes more problems for you
Try to avoid the guy you are about to let into your life
Remember that your not allowed to talk to strangers
Remember your mom told you that when you were 7
Its about time you listen to her
You will meet a girl
And you will end up hurting her
Dont take her to that club 
Where your band is about to play
Your not good at singing
And your bass playing still needs some work
Dont embarass yourself
It lowers your self esteem
And you will try to committ suicide
Multiple times
But dont worry 
It doesnt work
So stop trying to 
Kill yourself
Remember the night when you ran away
And went to go live with your aunt
Yea...
Shes about to kick you out
Look under your bed
You will find 500 dollars
You put it there when you were young
You forgot 
Thats why im writing you
Remember it
Take it and use it wisely
Dont use it on the drugs 
Dont use it on the beer
Use it towards a better future
So then i dont have to write this letter again.

12-13-12


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Cassandra

Revelation Said In Stone Appeared an Eon ago of Shame and Sin, Something we all know But not it's rise, For is has already became Virtue Flaming Skies from an Angel So Bright The World's Cure for Soul-Blight A Hell on Earth A Savior's Worth So many Dreams are cast then Forgotten So many lives are brought up then just Thrown back down Maybe she is The Cure Maybe she is The Plan All Fear the Flame Failed Creation of Samael She Comes from the Deep She Comes from The Heavens' Vault To End the dawn of the Demon Purge this land of all Vice Kali Yuga will be nevermore The one of Sublime Cassandra, Bringer of Muspelheim Release me and Burn away this land Hold me by The Hand Tell me the past is just pretend Give me The Cure If this is your destiny Then May it be mine I would die in time I'm Just another Obstacle In the way of your divine Wings Forget me Cassandra For Doom was already meant for me All Fear the Flame Failed Creation of Samael She Comes from the Deep She Comes from The Heavens' Vault To End the dawn of the Demon Purge this land of all Vice Kali Yuga will be nevermore The one of Sublime Cassandra, Bringer of Muspelheim Valkyrie of Heart Angel of Grace I surrender to You Savior by Destiny Dispel all Tragedy Especially me All Fear the Flame Failed Creation of Samael She Comes from the Deep She Comes from The Heavens' Vault To End the dawn of the Demon Purge this land of all Vice Kali Yuga will be nevermore The one of Sublime Cassandra, Bringer of Muspelheim


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Goodbye

Remembering all the things we used to share
things we used to do together
when we were one
crumbling like buring leaves
glue couldnt put them back together
words he used to speak
the air that filled my lungs
Heart beating faster with every word
the feeling disapeared the night it all went wrong
nothing but guilt and tears filled my eyes
praying that the devil would make me yours
and youll be mine again
nothing more is left to say but the word we all fear
Goodbye


Details | Verse | |

The Poetic Blues

I think I self-sabotage unknowingly 
because of fear
So my message goes unheard because I’m afraid to let the people hear
And end up drowning in the poetic blues
doubting my ability to write about the truth;

I dug deeper and deeper into myself trying to write a poem good enough to be free of judgment
Then I stepped out on faith and suddenly I was triumphant 
and my writing grew 
and I was loving it
I had finally passed the fear of speaking and caring about who the fu*c! was judging it

As I wait to be inspired for the next poem, 
I sit and think alone and drown in my sorrows
Listening to jazz, blues and a.m. radio
trying to find an excuse not to perform at the SLAM 
because again I can’t think of a damn thing to write…..
Drowning in poetic blues
Will this be the one that will be thrown away and never be used 

Or will this be the one that transcends the others  
and finally prove that poetry is blues and blues is poetry and hip hop and jazz and r&b, 
Poetry is music and the words dance around in my soul 
and I am free once they become spoken 
In the meantime the paper is where the words will rest 
until the silence is broken

Drowning in the sea of proper delivery 
My voice, my stance, my intensity
How will others interpret the words that I’ve chosen so diligently?
I wrap my soul around the possibility that none of the words I choose – 
will keep me from becoming deluged and trapped by the poetic blues

Somehow my heart refuses to accept that I don’t deserve to have my words heard 
and it takes over this whole process
No more time for shrinking and feeling less
I was born to  make my words manifest light
I am a gorgeous medium to the truth yeah that's right
I was sent here to give you a piece of good news
Remember that God is with you when you get
The poetic blues


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Not A Hero

I'm not a hero for saving this game, and turning it around
I'm in entrepreneur for creating this game, from underground
I put these words together and spit 'em, so while you listen to my flow,
realize that none of this is for money, I do it as food for the soul.

Understand that these words are nothing, but a few syllables,
that are never gonna be read out over a microphone.
Unless I, actually make it, so this is make it or break it,
shatter it and glue it then do the same as I continue my day shift.

Of letting people step over me, and I'm slowly exploding,
'cause these people never sit down they wanna see me create a scene.
They wanna see me let go of this grudge, and finally blow up,
but why would I give these people anything that they want?

They're never gonna repay me, I need somebody to save me,
I need a friend that isn't gonna turn around and betray me.
So I keep writing, and letting my emotions run out through this pen,
cause I'll do anything to keep myself away from giving in.


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The End To A Wild Ride

This is the end of all the rollercoasters we have rode
So dont look back
Because the world is going up in smoke
Just ride along with me
We will find eachother when the light goes out

Lost in a Wilderness
Will we find ourselves again
After we have been blown up into peices
Who will survive?
Who will make it to the end?

The clouds will darken
And the sun will go black
There bombs will drop
And Silence our voices

Would we have found the love 
We were searching for in the 60's
Would we have found the peace
We researched in our childhood

Would we have fixed bullying
and told children about Columbine
Would we have stopped the Depression
And told children about the help they can get

Would we be ready when the world ends
Or will we be left in the past
Would we believe in God in time for our ending
Or will we still be selling books on another religion

One day we will forget how to hope and learn how to fear.


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Here Is Gone

Ever thought of something so much
That when you wake up it just automatically
Crawls into your brain cells
Shoots them with laser beams
Until they explode 
And that’s the only thing you have left to think of
Because everything else is fried
Ever wish you could go back and change that night
Wish that you wouldn’t have left her side
That you would have just listened to your heart 
Instead of your gut
Instead of that little voice that echoes
In the back of your head
Ever wished that you wouldn’t be reading this poem
That everything could be like your dreams
Like a family who gets along
Like having a famous relative
Dreaming that you had a better life
More money to spend
More bass guitars to buy
Less drama
Then you find this special someone
Who you can really relate to
And you never want to let them go
But somehow they slip through your fingers
Then your life crumbles 
Falling down like the rain in a thunderstorm
Wishing you could change everything
But you just start over
And try to move on
And somehow end up at the beginning all over again



Details | I do not know? | |

poems

poems of love 
poems of hate 
closing doors
 and clicking gates 

Gates of white 
Gates of blue
 all beg for something new
 
something new
  something old
 something saying lets be bold 

i  know you
 and i know something you 
would like to do 

 so take my hand 
and lets leave behind the seas
 and the sand
 
 fly to a new beginning 
leave all these people we watch 
sinning
 


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Stairway to Hell

So much rage
caught up in depression
now i have no one to turn too
i sit alone by my bed looking at the demon 
He stands next to the closet

I wake up every night at 2 am
just before dead time
He makes sounds
i ignore them

He opens the closet door
And slams it shut
scarring me 

One night he visits me in a dream
A dream where my family dies because i killed them
I wake up screaming
I would never hurt my family 

Sometimes its hard to ignore the other world
They make you crazy and depressed 
now you have to pay for the music that drug that demon to your home
All the metal music that killed you
The music that they said would save you

Ask your self are you alive now? 
now that the demon got you?

I think of how it could be different 
how if i listened to country my family would still be here
Demons are everywhere know that?
One is with you right now, watching you type your poems
Watching you read mine

What can they do you ask?
They can do much much more than what you expect
They crush your insides
Make your heart cold
They make you hurt

These demons are not to play with
A found out the hard way
now the pain wont stop
I cant make it go away

You will soon see what i have seen
Cling to god 
Pray everynight before you close your eyes
Pray out loud every morning
Be thankful you havent seen your demon yet

All of us have one
they are all over the world
They will drag you to hell with them!


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Keep Striving

V.1 Unlike most she sits in the sun,
and waits for the day when she's finally done, she's just begun,
so alone in the sun she'll sit, 
wondering what she did, and why no one will forgive

It's a mystery, Sherlock Holmes, could never solve,
all the clues in a ball, with a broken axis that won't revolve
A puzzle with pieces that don't fit, so it's never solved, 
And it slowly evolves, like a phone without a number to call.

She's internally faded, so she sits in her zone, zen mode,
where everything seems to be moving slow-mo,
It's hard to know, fact from fiction, real to fake,
so alone she's gonna sit, while she numbers her ending days,

C. As time goes by the worlds retreats, 
we fall down, and pick ourselves up to the beat,
but in the end, you can only choose defeat,
so deny and keep on striving, until you've walked every street.

V.2 He's alone in his space, as he's waiting out the war,
waiting for a sign, an omen, or maybe more
His skins torn, scars are already starting to form,
Stitches keep him together while he sits alone with the Lord
The world's a storm, thunder intimidates and lightning performs,
with his pride up on the shelf, another person is born

His consciousness fades, and his mind can no longer operate,
blacked out, his reactions can barely cooperate
He lost faith, long gone, the road never ends,
bullets are flying but silence is finally sinking in,

But he won't, be taken in, he refuses and he forgives,
he stands up and shoots back, until he finally wins.

C.

V.3 I sit alone in this room, pen in hand,
trying to put thoughts to paper, but the thoughts got up and ran,
What can I do? But sit alone, and think these thoughts
Do I really think I have supporters, I think not

But a gotta pen and a mind, that could be stronger than any nine,
Anybody that wants to step to me, I beat 'em with rhymes
My composure could take an entire army at one time,
and to anybody with a light, I'm the true definition of 'shine'

So don't step to me, you're to low,
the curtains are closed, the show's over go home
I have nothing to prove, cause you already know,
there's nothing you can do to stop me, until you've created a clone

C.


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SUICIDAL LOVE By: Lakeyia Clark

SUICIDAL LOVE.... by Lakeyia Clark


One night drinking, questioning the reality of her fate 
Lead her heart into a slump of love vs. hate 
Everything that was once there is now dead and gone 
Washed away after the storm, she's now left alone 
He thought he could trust her and ended up hurt 
Now they are only what at first they never were 
She was in the wrong place at the wrong time 
Questioning herself trying to recall everything in her mind 
Screaming telling the attacker please stop and a series of No's 
Been thrown around and then into a unconscious state she goes 
Who could she run to, who would listen 
She thought it would be him but he said parts of the story were missing 
Trying her best to convince him that it didn't happen by consent 
He told her there was no more of them and out the door he went 
Don't turn your back on me is what she tried to say 
But he wasn't hearing it, he turned his back anyways 
Her heart says pursue him cause this is who she wants and needs 
But she can’t get through to his heart if he's holding tight to the keys 
The victim of a scandalous scheme is never good for anybody 
It'll make the most confident, loving, and trusting individual feel and appear as a nobody 
The trust that was once there is no longer alive 
To him she is fake and everything was a lie 
Love for the man but confused as hell 
Not the first time she's seen this but is now tormented with hell 
Hate for every attacker forcing her to have a void towards men 
Thinking that her man was the one she could trust, cause he was Heaven Sent 
In her mind she wants to say leave it and let him be 
But her heart says go after him you've given him so much of me 
So do she put her heart on the line and risk a homicidal love 
Or does she pretend like it’s not there and settle for a suicidal love 
The truth was first revealed and he don't see it as foul play 
A suicidal love cause she was a victim and he chose to walk away


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Journey

After being shattered,
 torn apart inside,
 a hole was carved out of me
 and something in me died.
 
Our dreams, desires and hopes,
 so young and plentiful,
 all too quickly melted away,
 both of us feeling dismal. 

The time that then came after;
 so dark, unhopeful and bleak.
 The Heart could see no light,
 the body soon became weak.
 
A living, moving corpse,
 an empty, lonely shell.
 The Soul would drift, unheard from,
 locked in its gloomy shell.
 
But life is so persistent,
 and always will pull through.
 Subtle, gentle rays of light
 will once again shine true.
 
The pieces of Self are gone,
 and an emptiness remains,
 Yet the dark thoughts drip away,
 the Soul no longer in chains.
 
So Self must be reborn,
 clay in a potter's hands.
 Piece by piece, the hole is filled,
 done so with multiple strands.
 
Recreated little wonder,
 dance with Joy once more.
 Let your dreams regain their wings,
 and see what He has in store.


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Cancer

I can't believe I haven't posted this one. I wrote it last year, can't remember the exact date. Anyhow it's a song. ---------------- You know this world is cancer Without these prayers being answered It's been too long a ponder We wonder We wander Far from here Lost in fear Can you see them fall? You lose one you lose them all She's seen the cruel hearts of stone She's seen the cancer we've become So lost in worry we just fall down Underground we burn Till the last one's sure Can you see me fall? You lose one you lose them all Cut me out of this body! Cut me out of everybody! Grind me into little pieces! Tell them that I'm the reason- You know this world is cancer Without these prayers being answered It's been too long a ponder We wonder We wander Far from here Lost in fear Can you see me fall? You lose one you lose them all You lose one you lose. . . Them all


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All About the Music: The Infinite Magic of Lyricism

Pop may be catchy
But not lyrically deep
Case in point: Chris Brown.


(N.B. Poem written after hearing "Don't Wake Me Up")


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I'm going away

I’m going away

I’m walking down the street
With lead upon my feet
I’ve had some whiskey, drank a lot of that
My head is really spinning
I’ve lost all thoughts of winning
I haven’t got a clue just where I’m at

I’ve pondered for a long time
It’s just a bloody crime
That all these foolish thoughts are in my head
There’s nothing more I care for
I can’t take it any more
Sometimes I wish to Hell that I was dead

She said she’s never coming back again
The thought of this is driving me insane
I feel those demons tugging at my brain
Oh lord this girl has caused me so much pain

I’m going to find another bar
And play my old guitar
I’m going to get to drinking all night through
I’ll get right off my face
Then I’m going to that place
 That place where only dead men can go to.


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Reflections: Intellectualism

To Dine, To Die;
Conversations spiral
While thunderous eyes
Grasp concepts to recycle.

Constant debt crisis
A political paradox
Grating social devices
Over the sorting of socks.

Pseudo-analysis
An endless groan
Argumental paralysis
The debate grants no throne.

Existentialism
Over a roast
Potatoes won't listen
To who talks the most.

"That point is so interesting"
The floor is open for chat
"What is real?" not a thing
"Meow" adds the cat.


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Man with sorrow

A risky side
A twisted mind 
He's a man with sorrow 
He's a man on his own
I know your secrets
I see you losing control

I want you back
Oh I want you back home
*Chorus*:
To kill your sore
To purify your soul 
But not a glimmer of hope
And not a glimmer of joy
 

You walk with a frozen heart
Making it hard for me 
To leave you alone 
 
Your nonsensical twist
Makes me shiver inside 
 
The more mysterious he gets
The more attractive it gets 
 
Chorus:
But not a glimmer of hope
Not a glimmer of joy 
(2x) 
 
Your fatal deadly thoughts
Make me scream for more
 
I can never show, how much my love
For you was strong 
But you're the one I blame
 
I'm craving on saving you
So I can slay you on my own
 
I try to forget,
But I find myself with regrets 
 
You looked at me and said it straight
With no circles to spin
Baby turning the page,
Will lead us nowhere...
 
But not a glimmer of hope 
Nor a glimmer of joy 
I know your secrets 
I see losing control 
You're the one I blame
You're the one I crave.

**please feel free to correct and comment! :) ** MS-


Details | Ballad | |

Starcrossed Tragedy

A Silent Night's Hunt for a Tigress so blunt, Left the Fiend dancing with my Thisbe's Cloack But where was She? Her Drenching blood is all I can see The Night of Sanguine, The Night of Rapture, Tonight was meant to be All Behold This Tragedy ran by Dark Energy, My Lost Lover's Plea A seed of what is to come, In this starcrossed Tragedy, For I can not live without you, My Pyramus, All I need, My reason to Breathe One sight of me bleeding away from reality, started this tragedy and with me It shall Grow The Pain wasn't enough for me, To Live on with me Love without consequence, The Damned Saint, The Angelic Demon The Darkness of the Sea, Carries away with me, In this Starcrossed Tragedy A Star traveling across the moonless Night Sky, In the mid-summer of Verona, Fell from her glorious light, I have lost my guide, My need for Life Every balcony I'll climb for you, Just to Caress you once more But now it is too Late, My Juilet Let the Poison Fill me My Body dyed In silence, Dipped in Paralysis, Forging the Will of God, Feigning the Clutches of Death, My Romeo I prithee to you, See past The Illusion, Caught in the Webs of Love's delusion A Dagger reached my heart once To see you martyr for our love A Dagger reached my heart twice The Pain wasn't enough for me, To Live on with me Love without consequence, The Damned Saint, The Angelic Demon The Darkness of the Sea, Carries away with me, In this Starcrossed Tragedy Once the Morning Retired from her weeping The sun shined into her eyes, then his Lifeless, their dream will live on Every Petal will be Avenged The Pain wasn't enough for me, To Live on with me Love without consequence, The Damned Saint, The Angelic Demon The Darkness of the Sea, Carries away with me, In this Starcrossed Tragedy


Details | Lyric | |

-------------------------The Soul I Sold------------


If I seem down forgive me Frowns I carry around live in me When I break you see right through me GIVE BACK THE SOUL I SOLD... The hurt I’ve learned brews in me GIVE BACK THE SOUL I SOLD... Your words so true renew me If only you'd re-design me Take time rewind refine me Recreate the mold without lies I’ve told... GIVE BACK THE SOUL I SOLD... The hurt I’ve learned brews in me GIVE BACK THE SOUL I SOLD....


Details | Lyric | |

Albert The Alligator, Florida University Mascot Story

A green sweaty swampy land
Maybe no place for a man
But it is a home to many creatures
Such as our friend's the alligators

Now not so long ago,
In their steamy mysterious habitat
There was a fog so dim it almost made it black
and it had large limb's that hung low on the trees 
And each slim blade of grass went an inch above your knees

All gators that lived here
seemed to be very ornary and mean 
And it was considered ordinary
To attack their peers With bone crushing teeth

One could ask,
Why are they so mad?
But it's not their fault
It's just the way they were taught how to act
Ever since their speckled eggs hatched
And learned how to make their jaws snap
 
However, not all gators were like this
There was one who was filled with happiness
He wore a blue hat and a bright orange shirt
Everyone reluctantly called him Albert

Because Albert happened to be completely different
All the other gators kept him at an arm's distance
They called him names and spat in his face
But his joy just never seemed to fade

See Albert had a huge dream
His dream was to be with the humans
As they yelled and screamed
For the local school's winning football team

Out of nothing but sheer excitement,
Albert shared this with the others
But they all laughed even his brothers

So Albert decided right then
to not care about what anyone said
And to pursue his only dream
No matter how long or tough it may be

The next day Albert left that dreary swamp
On mission to prove the nay-sayers wrong
And when he left that dim fog grew so dark
You could not see or hear a big dog's bark

So he made his way to the nearby school
Where he saw not no one, not a single soul
Every building was empty
From the top to bottom floor
The all of a sudden, Albert heard a thundering roar
"Romp!, Stomp!, Chomp!, Welcome to the Swamp!"

He rushed to the football stadium
Where he was met with open arms
He finally felt accepted, safe from abuse and harm
So with his new friends, he rose up in exultation
His life was anew, he was the love of Swamp Nation


Details | Rhyme | |

Lea

What happened to us? Did it just take one night?
How does a beautiful friendship turn into mistrust and fights?
Everyone was against us. Did our love make us blind?
We seemed to be winning the race, and now we're so far behind.
I love you. I love you! Me and you, It's my life.
If money didn't matter, I would make you my wife.
Nothing makes me happier then to see a smile on your face.
I love your style, your car, your taste, and your place.
It's home to me, baby. You invited me into your world.
My angel, my treasure, my dream, and my girl.
The one I held close at night and hung out with all day.
The one I fought for her rights, the one who took my breath away.
We've had our ups, we've had our downs, and if this you happen to read,
I want you to know that I love you. Lea, it's you that I need!


Details | Lyric | |

fracking oil

should I believe you man in the suit?
oh your hair looks mighty fine 
combed back, your polished slacks 
a slight tan 
you are irresistible in your presence 
demanding attention. 
you have a face that looks right 
nothing you say would be out of sight 
nothing you do would steer me wrong 
oh man in the suit, 
you are my god. 
you have the power to make us thrive 
dig a hole 
to the other side 
not to china, but to the fuel
oh man in the suit 
I cannot trust you 
you dug too deep 
into a pocket of the earth 
looking for more resource 
to fill your own pockets 
but I don't want pockets 
man in the suit 
all I want 
is for you to tell the truth
your polished smile did us wrong 
lies lay upon your clever tongue  
and you continue to rule the earth 
digging your holes 
you find more girth 
to your hungry pockets 
which you try so hard to fill
when will you learn 
that filling pockets kills...


Details | Verse | |

Armageddon Pt 1

It's bout to get worse
It was written in the verse
The truth hurts
ARMAGEDDON WILL NOT BE TELEVISED

When the time comes
No one's gonna hold up a sign
saying it's time to "get right"
It's gone come like a thief in the night!
Blowin' up and wreckin ish!
The war you want is the war you gone get
It was written before our time
We keep looking at the signs
manifest before our very eyes
constantly denying our right
to be one of the meek ones of our time
ARMAGEDDEON WILL NOT BE TELEVISED

We're at the end of what used to be existence
Every super power will answer to a higher power 
so pray repentence
The time is closer than any distance
From Washington to Obama
No one will escape the wrath!
Hope you choose the right path!
Narrow is the gate of the righteous tracks
that are imprented on the mind of the omnipotent one
Will you be spared life on earth with the meek ones
and accurately take in knowledge of his son?
OR will you perish in the dust
never to be awakened again?
No consciousness of sin
ARMAGEDDON WILL NOT BE TELEVISED!

It's in the verses
Read it, see it, live it, rehearse it
You see the times changing
You see the minds fading
You see the world and how messed up it is
You see that nigga satan and his curses!
I pray to have a chance to live a beautiful paradise on earth like it say in the verses!
ARMAGEDDON WILL NOT BE TELEVISED

YOU HAVE OFFICIALLY BEEN WARNED


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Regaining power

Regaining Power.

He walks a lonely road, with his head there in the clouds
And he doesn’t even notice passing strangers
He’s been here ‘bout a thousand years forever all alone
And he’s always looking out for passing danger.

Invisible sometimes he feels, so he tries to seek the glory
As the child calls out in panic “I am here
They have taken all my power so my blossom will not flower
And all around I’ve built a wall of fear

But it’s his pain it is his game
As he prowls around his cage
He lives in vain, is he insane?
And fear ignites his rage.

The truth be plain, the lions mane is what he must acquire
The little boy he must regain his power
And tell the world “I’m here, I’m here” and feed the burning fire
It would take this much to open up his flower.


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Flashback

Was a romance for the books. Didn't care about the looks. Maybe a little old school but yea my heart she did be took. By the way that she could cook. And the way her body shook. And the way that she got on top and made it straighter than a rook. She was the wisest on the seen. Quick to hustle. Get that green. But little did I know it was a play behind the scenes. While I'm planning up our wedding you're out doing anything... Legs never closing. Dumped for a brother with a little more ching. Silly grown girl, money isn't everything. But that just shows that you'd rather be a rich man's whore than a poor man's queen. But I got another girl that will appreciate. The acts of love that I demonstrate. She holds me down. Keeps me right. And she's always happy love her every night. But I can't say that it is easy. Heck, it's anything from breezy. But what separates her from you is that she told me that she needs me. And to think I really loved you. Never put no one above you. But you were thottin and fire crotchin. I should've wore a glove dude. You were purely acting out. Now you're sitting with a pout. Cuz you're a flashback now.        (Inspired by eminem ft Rihanna- love the way you lie.) 


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UNFOLD

The pain of change as it unfolds
Is oft a tale that stays untold
What is seen is a whole creature
not deep holes in the feature
nor concrete soles that makes his feet hurt

It all begins with a soft kiss
He is walking with a false bliss
Only following in paw prints
But the nature of mom's lips
Is to rob him of all innocence

Trapped in warm spindles of fear
A wrapped life form kindles in here
Four years bound to shingles of moss
Time to leave this life of sloths
Break free like that of a moth
and Rise again like Christ on the cross


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Introduction

hello my friend, stranger walk by,
borrow a moment, spare me your lie,
through pen of the narrow and mist of an eye,
below absolute zero, someone will die;
sentence to rambler, apple hereby,
flute of the meadow, mandrake will cry,
in front of the riddler second might try,
get out of here mortal,
exit near by-e.

angry as he strike out his pen,
get out of here demon, get out of this den,
in thousands of years how long has it been,
when scriptures wear sandals;
on meadow you land, many bear seasons,
stakes shall bend, lantern still burning,
your letter is send.


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Different Dream

After a hard day at work I come home
Hear my boy rapping the words to his headphones
Every bleep comes another bleep
As he keeps dancing to the beat
Come upstairs and barge through the door
Say to him, "Boy whatcha listenin' to that for?"
As I rip it out of his ears
Turn around and look in the mirror
Get ya head outta the gutter son
You talk to ya mother with that tongue?
Ought'a lean you down and wash your mouth soap
Teach you a lesson and just barely make you choke

Dad, you don't understand
This is me, this is who I am!

Boy, you freeze it right there
Just so I know we're good and square
I'm your father, sit down when I say so
This is home, this is where the green grass grows
Can't be the one to follow you where you go
Can't take you as is and just tie a little bow
Around it and be happy
You ain't what I expected you'd be
After all this hard work to bring home the bacon
Just to come home to see the fuss you making!?

Imma be big and travel the world,
Be famous and get hooked with any girl
I'm tired of this rice 'n' beans, I wanna taste some of that green!

Stop it child, you making a scene, a mockery of ya ma and me
Do yourself a favor and dream a different dream

 The strings are for those with charm
And fame are for those holding cards
Your inner core will just burst at the seams
They say play it safe
And dream a different dream
Billionaires are cowards in disguise
Their careers built upon money and lies
Your inner core will just burst at the seams
They say play it safe
And dream a different dream

I remember when you was little
Your mind was like some twisted riddle
Rapping the lyrics
To your idols, Snoop Dog and Jay-Z
Acting like you knew what they meant
But boy, you could barely read
Spittin' rhymes don't put a roof over ya head
Or clean the dirty sheets in your bed
All those fancy clothes don't give ya fame
just brings your family to shame
Look at you playing life like it's a game
Joining all those gangs just to bleed
Gettin' high and smokin' weed

Dad, it ain't like that
I'm not some filthy rat
Planting my seed wherever
Imma stay true forever
Build myself upon lyrical tether
Striving to be as authentic as leather
Come on dad, can't we get it together?

Your grandpa was born and raised in the meadows
No Internet, no microwave, just planting corn rows
But right now the grass is as green as it's gonna get
And if you ain't got that through ya head yet
As your pops I'm really quite upset

 Take these words right from my mouth
And give 'em wings to fly south
Or I will run from this house like the ratatouille mouse
Tired of this cheese I want something more
The birds and the bees aren't what I'm looking for
I don't wanna die like everybody else
Just put in a hole and call it a grave
I don't wanna die with nothing to my name
If I'm not looking up I'm going south
You can scream and cuss at me with ya sailor's mouth
I'm still leaving and I'm taking the dangerous route

The strings are for those with charm
And fame are for those holding cards
Your inner core will just burst at the seams
They say play it safe
And dream a different dream
Billionaires are cowards in disguise
Their careers built upon money and lies
Your inner core will just burst at the seams
They say play it safe
And dream a different dream

Here I am, standing in this trailer
In your eyes I'm a failure
For wanting to travel the world like a sailor
From Beverly Hills to New York City
At this point I don't even care if you're with me
I may have augmented my hopes a bit too high
But I was tired of looking through telescopes, that habit can die
But dad look at me now
No longer in a small town
Can't be modest I have to boast
I'm traveling the world from coast to coast
In everybody's head is my riffs
And I wish you were here to see this
Swallow your pride long enough to shed a tear
Remember what you used to say, "Turn around, look in the mirror"...?
I wasn't no golden child and you weren't the perfect dad
But come on now, that's a thing of the past
You can ditch your bacon, eggs and Jimmy Dean
Live in luxury in your fields of green
Come on dad, won't you dream this different dream
with me?



NOTE: Words in italics are from the son's perspective, words in normal font are from the father's perspective, and words in bold is the chorus line.

I'm not sure where the idea came from. I was on a camping trip, heading back home, and all the sudden this whole elaborate story came to me and I started writing it all down on a notepad (back then I didn't have my Kindle Fire).


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How Do I Love You So

In this wretched and dark place,
it's the only world I can show my face.
Ashamed of my love,
A past full of disgrace.
And yet all I want is to see your face.
But it's something I've longed to
erase.
Why do I love you so? 
These crazy feelings they need to go.
You have my heart racing like i need to show,
my love for you but I just really don't know 
how I love you so.
It's been a long wild trip,
but this I must rip.
And thats you from my heart
Yea that'd be a better start.
But here comes that thing again 
you make me want to sing and then
You see right through me
do you know what you do to me
All these things I've done you see
Fueling my insanity.
Make me want to fall apart,
Spill knowledge from this broken heart.
All I ever wanted was to be set free,
Can you really not see all of what you've done to me?


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Mesmerized

You’ll never know how much you speak to me I just can’t fathom the beauty that I see Your heart goes out in everything you do Your mind spews rain of music so true I am lost in the light of your unimpeachable words Everything around me, in me, feels so damn absurd I futilely try and fight a battle never won And realize that I am already gone Ooooh I am mesmerized Oh, I can’t be surprised That I am mesmerized You can see it in my eyes Am I blushing? Am I rushing this through? Are you laughing? Oh damn, he knows it’s true I am mesmerized Oh, I can’t be surprised Oh so mesmerized He can see it in my eyes Knowing you’re far from mine You’re words still stop all time Because you’re so damn sublime You’re simply out of this world So just get out of my mind! Oh! I’m mesmerized…. If there was a way inside your mind There still wouldn’t be me to find You’re moving so blasted fast And I just can’t reach the mask Man, it seems so useless, to try and make you see That I want you beyond all reason, knowing it can never be As you thrill the crowd, as you kiss the girl I’ll just stare at your pictures, wishing I was her Ooooh I am mesmerized Oh, I can’t be surprised That I am mesmerized You can see it in my eyes Am I blushing? Am I rushing this through? Are you laughing? Oh damn, he knows it’s true I am mesmerized Oh, I can’t be surprised Oh so mesmerized He can see it in my eyes Knowing you’re far from mine You’re words still stop all time Because you’re so damn sublime You’re simply out of this world So just get out of my mind! So lost, so gone, this war was never won Mesmerized
* Dedicated to the singer Anthony Snape, And...a secret person that no one shall know about! Muahahaha! (except Becca)


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Blinded

Branded, like a cigarette
crushing flesh to the bone
paralysed by fear
though you struggle on your own
your ego 's got you wary
while your mind's in control
shut empty and on edge
Oh Down you go

No formal introduction
to a girl without a face
arms stretched out wide
consoles me with her grace
she says, she's got the answer
to any kind of pain
medicated love
pyrotechnics for the flame

Guess i am
your muse my friend
oh Yes I am
she says ... 


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LSD

Dumb little boy what happened to You?
A father, a mother, we're through.
Brightly coloured feathers, spread and you flew.
Dumb little boy what happened to you?
Crashed! 
Queer? 
I near.
Sat here, sat here.
We sat, drinking dads warm beer.
Dumb little boy your feathers are gone.
WASTED!
LSD on your toungue.
Obliterated! obliterated! 
Wasted! wasted!
Dumb little boy, your brain is fried.
Perfectly twisted.
Now, lets peak inside.


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Life as an Addict





                                        

                                     Life as an Addict


                         Life as an addict, life as an addict
                       Life as an addict is like running into
                            A reinforce cinderblock wall
                                    Losses after losses 
                                           Virtually
                     Ending in a jail cell or luxurious casket
                      Day after day the addiction keeps at it
                                           Eventually 
                                Opening doors to the soul
                          Stepping inside leading you down
                               A wicked and dark passage
                                           Ultimately
                                     Leaving you naked
                                  Clinching your wounds
                                      Shattering dreams
                                      Low self – esteem
                                    Thoughts in captivity
                                          Life of misery
                         Life as an addict limited imagination
                                 Waste of God’s creation
                                          But forgiven
                                      Evil, dark passage 
                                  Reinforce walls, jail cell
                                Lost soul, luxurious casket 
                            Life as an addict, life as an addict
                                        Life as an addict.


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All The Pretty Faces

She said: "you're such a sweet, sweet liar"
But I could never lie to you
These words I say are born from desire
My every sentiment is nothing but true

And every time I seem to start a fire (in your eyes) 
It loses to the ice of your heart
But tell me, darling, aren't you tired?
Of playing hard to get, you've mastered the art

And all the pretty faces that they suggest
Fail to impress me, I don't want second best
It's everything or nothing, glory or death
'Cause you're the only one that I need to have

She took my hand and she gave me scars
"Now you'll remember me forever"
But can't you see I won't forget the one 
Who turned to hell what once was heaven

But lesson's learnt, and burnt on your fire
I realised how I was wrong
Cause even though you called me the liar
You've lied to me all along


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you dont understand

Hes inlove with his sadness
Being alone helps him think
He can hear his thoughts clearly
Hes getting to the point where
He loves being the center
Of attention
Being depressed helps his sickness
This goes on
And on
And on
Looking at life in a different way
You cannot see what he sees
Love isnt pure
Its evil spelt backwards
As is devil spelt
Backwards is lived
He has his hyper days
Three days of hyper
Three days of depressed
Three days of death
No days of life
This goes on
And on
And on
Sitting all alone in his room
Writing this story your reading
Can you see?
What he sees?
Or do you not understand sadness
Enough to grasps
What hes trying to say to you


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Stuck

I'm like a lion
Tryin to be  trained
to behave in a cage, but
I wasnt born to be tame
Full of stress and rage
 Im compressed and chained
Infected with depression
beCause I cant catch a break
Lifes taste is so tart
In pain from my scars
Stained by lame luck
Stuck behind apace car
I strive to write
But all I can type is the space bar
I'm Pervaded with doubt
About to freakout
Quick Someone bail me out
I would sniff my way out
but I got this cyst on my snout
From 6 years of this drought
Im sittin with this could of pout
Stickin to me like jam from a can
like melted candy in your hand
I'M a pantree full of Spam
 A Letter without the stamp
A debtor without a plan
Like chicken on a pan without any Pam,
Damn I'm starting to get pissed
 I got to devise a plan, before I break my fist,
Punching this brick wall, I got the spit but no ball
got the wits with no squall, like a toliet with no stall
 Slippin in a pit fall, Shiz just snow balls
I want to brawl, missed last call
My Stick shift just stalled,
This lawl has no intention at stopin at all
And I'm kicking myself in the balls
like old men walking up and down the halls
so i flop, just like a dust mop
Now i got knots in my food box
The size of king kongs rocks and
Every door has been locked
I try to soar but its all for not


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The Moment of Atonement

My Dear World,
I owe you an apology;

Forgive me
for I have distorted thee:
lying passionately,
I failed to accept you
by chimera deceptional
I wanted to surmount you
believing myself
to be exceptional.

Forgive me My World
my bitterness,
narcissism
and selfishness;
for a fool I was
since the truth 
was consciously unknown to me
thus calamitious the discovery would be.

Please forgive me
all the souls my ambition eradicated,
all the feelings my sharp tongue destroyed,
all the emotions my cold heart repudiated,
for how much all those deeds I enjoyed.

I was then infected;
the infection seemed incurable
as I wanted it to be -
or wasn't I aware how diseased I was?

My Dear World,
I owe you an apology;

Forgive me
my blindness
to the beauty of life;

With myself in centre
I would not look around
for distorted was my perception
by a deceitful projection
of perfect me in faulty universe.



My Dear World,

Thank you
for
instant recovery of my senses,
the wisdom you blessed me with,
the pain myself was redefined through.

Yester year
I reached the deepest depth
slowly losing my pride -
my psyche was nearing death
in plight I could hardly abide -
I understood a mere human I am.

Now I laugh
enjoying my life
every day forsooth
heartily 
and with ruth.



Thank you
My Dear World
Please, forgive me.


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a single thought

the trees have told me things
that i went and told the rocks
the rocks then told the grass
and took it in with many shocks

the grass then told the cows
and being slow had to explain
then the cows walked on two legs
no longer will smarts be a pain

the cows then told the pigs
who squealed a chant to stop the cows
who now donned preistly clothing
wearing ankhs around their brows

the pigs then told the snakes 
who sat and nodded with a grin
a single snake told eve and then
he filled her up with sin

the eve had told the tree
 who dropped a single fruit in shock
and the fruit told adams lips and friends
creating us a flock


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Crush

I yearn for the way 
you look at me
my cheeks, and how
easily they flush
at the very hint
of your smile
I can't help but blush
you soft caress
across my cheek
makes my knees weak
the whole world
hold us in a hush
I wonder if this be
love or lust?


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Meet Me At The Gates

Standing across from damien
whom had been his lover for yea
He takes his heart out of his chest
And places it in Damiens hands
Kurt says "this heart belongs to you"
He askes Damien "do you want it?"
Damien places Kurts heart in his hands
"i dont"
Kurt throws it to the ground and stomps on it
Looking down at his crumpled heart a tear 
Falls from his cheek
He starts walking away
He falls to his knees
Like suffocating
Damien runs over to him
But is blocked by a black mist
Damien stands there whispering
"Kurt come back"
Kurt stands up and places his heart
Into Damiens pocket
As Kurt turns and walks away
The sky opens up
And kurt rises to the clouds
A few years later Damien joins him up at the gates


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The Trouble with life

Life can be strange 
Happy moments come
Nothing in the world can
Tear you down it's happiness.

Just by one word
Can make your world
Come crashing down,
The feeling of happiness
And hope no longer excites.

The trouble with life 
It can bend and twist
Around you making 
You believe whatever 
It wants in happiness

Or sadness it plays
With your feelings and
Emotions wrapping it's
Vines around you.

It binds us holds
Us down it makes
Us falls trips us
Slides through your
Fingers with no cares.


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Father

Looking through his old pictures
Him as a child
His dad was at an early age
He wishes for more then just an image
Closing his eyes
Trying to picture his dad
Where is his dad now?
Wishing to see beyond the face
A tear falls unto the picture
Running down unto his lap
He longs for more then 
just a word upon a letter
His dad has written him
Longing for his fathers existence
For the relationship he wished he had
He awaits for the next letter
He never receives
Falling upon his knees
Tears Crawling down his face
Wanting to know his father better



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Goodnight Daddy

It's sad that I can't talk to you
Because I know that you don't care
It's always school or misbehavior
Otherwise I'm just not there
Do you know my favorite subject?
And the things I like to do?
Do you know the things I've said and done
I've never had the chance to tell you?
You probably don't see me, really
I'm just another child gone wrong
But it kills me, my greatest accomplishments
My grades, my writing, my songs
And getting over the worst struggle of all... 
You don't even know it transpired
She noticed my pain, and hugged me close
But to you, I was merely tired
Hey Daddy, what's my favorite color?
What do I like to do?
Daddy, you never let me tell
But you tell me all about you
And you talk to my sisters constantly
You go in and kiss them goodnight
Even though my room is right next door
You never make sure I'm alright
I know that it's wrong for me to cry
About something that's not as bad
As other people go through in their lives
But I love you, I need you Dad...
If I asked you what you knew of me
I wonder what you would say
If anything, I'd never ask
Because I know you'd turn me away


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The Dreamer

Standing I gaze through various windows and doorways.
Serene landscapes within each continuously changing for us.
My body tenses and quivers. My eyes burn and forehead sweats.
Each causes my mind to strain and grasp for thought.
Before me various lights dance and cascade, no music is heard.
The colors and shades dance, causing focus never to be gained.
Emotions burst forth sometimes pain, other times only joy.
Walking, running, falling the paths I choose never cease.
Figures and shapes stand before me no faces ever seen.
No speech or sound is ever heard, yet always understood.
Arms stretched failing to grasp always yearning for an answer.
Confused, my thoughts search eagerly for its very meaning.
Forever knowing that an answer is completely unyielding.
I scream my breath released with wet lips quivering.
I feel shaken and the darkness once again overcomes.
Suddenly I'm startled, my head raised, eyes now wide open.
Realizing the room is empty the dream is gone.


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Don't go away again

Don’t Go away.

I saw you there my being came afire
I heard your voice, it filled me with desire
It seemed like years but only days had passed
So long ago since I had seen you last.

You looked at me and smiled your sad, sad smile
My heart it just went crazy for a while.
I looked at you as if I did not care
But oh what joy it was to see you there.

Don’t go away, don’t ever leave again.
Because my love you cause me so much pain
Without you here my life be oh so bare
Although I see your vision everywhere.

Though you don’t love me I must know you’re there
I need to see your beauty soft and rare
And every day that you’re not there to see
It seems like something dies so deep in me.

My love for you be such a crazy thing
When you’re nearby my heart can only sing
But when you’re gone my being starts to fade
For you be all my heart would ever crave.


Socrares 1990.


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life now

the life that you have now 
is the one you will cry over when you are removed from it 
it happens that many lives are taken 
away from the now and when we lived 
the can’t grow fast enough is bicycle hard to catch up to 
crispy in leaves, and, bare under the bark


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I Am Just Not Sure Anymore

I am just not sure anymore
If your the one for me
I am just not sure anymore
And I need to be free

I want to find the door that lead me back here
I need to get out before you break my heart dear
I loved you once and held your heart near
I now know I need to fly out of here

I am just not sure anymore
If your love is ture
I am just not sure anymore
That I can trust you

You want to controll me not hold me tight
You need to own me all we do is fight
You loved me only when for you it was right
You don't know how to let in the light

I am just not sure anymore 
Where your heart lies
Iam just not sure anymore
If you even hear my cries

I want to tell you how i feel inside
I need to shine not to hide
I loved it when we started this wild ride
I now know you don't want to be buy my side

I am just not sure anymore
If this is where I belong
Iam just not sure anymore
If your heart is my home


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You Better Brush Your Teeth

Hey Yo plaq is whack
Tell it to get back fast
Infact kick it out
With the arm and hammer
Then finish with floss
For the glits and glamour
Now you are the boss
Of your own teeth and gums
But Ill share my loss
So you'll never lose one


One day my tooth ached so bad I could weep
I recieved my first and last cavity
Oh how my mom and dad were mad at me
Because I didn't do what they asked of me
Now my sis and the whole class laughs at me
Cause all can I eat is easy mac n cheese
and no more sweets like sour patch kids for me
So Listen to your parents, jack and steve
Because you do not want to act like me
And end up with a toothless tragedy


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Alive

Have you ever noticed how a paint brush dries out
After two minutes of just sitting there?
Kind of like how you have been drawing for 10 
years and all of a sudden you forget how to
You lost all your techniques
And you move on and find something better
like the lyrics you used to write in school
Thinking one day you'll sing them to the world
And when you finally get a band together
Someone got grounded and everything falls apart
like that time when you did drugs
Thinking it would solve your problems
But it just made them worse
Like a friend
Telling you how to live your life
And tell you what you should and should not do
Its like the first time you felt alive
Holding her hand and being close to her
Then she goes away
And you are forced start all over again
without her


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Trust in destiny

Trust In Destiny

Do your best then trust in destiny,
It’s the only valid thing that you can do.
Cause there ain’t no use in worrying,
It’s a fact I’m telling you.
It wears you down and makes you sad,
Or boils your blood and gets you mad
No worry’s not the proper thing to do.

You found a lump or your children get ill
Or you’re out of dosh and cannot pay your bills,
Or death has shadowed your poor life
Or you think someone may steal your wife,
Your kids are causing too much strife,
It’ll all work out when the time is rife
 It will work out I’m telling you.

So throw them, Ditch the bloody lot,
And look right now at what you have got,
For worry causes love to die and rot
It does, it does I’m telling you.

So watch the Sun come up every day,
In nature everything’s is just okay.
The Earth keeps turning steadily,
And the birds still sing in ecstasy,
And deep within your soul you’re free,
And it all depends on destiny
No matter what you try to do.


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I'll Keep Saying Merry Christmas

    I'LL KEEP SAYING MERRY CHRISTMAS  

I keep saying Merry Christmas,
but you never notice.
I keep asking Santa Claus
to bring you lots of toys.
Part of your Christmas tree
is lit up by love from me.
I'm in every Christmas,
but you just don't ever see.

I keep saying Merry Christmas,
but you just won't hear me.
I keep thinking Santa Claus
might be mad at me.
Part of your Christmas light
is shining with love from me.
I'll light up your Christmas tree,
until there's no more light in me.

I'll keep saying Merry Christmas.
I'll keep wishing Merry Christmas.
I'll keep hoping Merry Christmas.
I'll keep saying Merry Christmas.

 UNSUPPORTED CODE 
I'll keep saying Merry Christmas.
I'll keep saying Merry Christmas.
© ron wilson aka vee bdosa the doylestown poet


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My Struggles


My Struggles My mind grows weary. My eyes are teary. My heart often skips a beat. I toss and turn through the night. My soul and flesh continue to fight. I do what is wrong, but I desire what’s right. Inside I burn with fury, But outside I appear cool as a Winters breeze. A great storm is in the near future. Who will intervene before disaster strikes? Who will save me from the strong winds and hail? I can only pray that all goes well. I can only pray to survive this shipwreck. I can only pray to reach shore and be able to breathe again.


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Silence

"you can speak in a sentence
and no one will hear you

But you can sing a song
and it can reach ten thousand people"

People speak in silence

Afraid of what they might project
If it will harm someone or even them

Everyone is listening
But without hearing a word you say









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Blurry

Everything is so perfect
You can not dream of anything more
Things start feeling different
You start hearing things
Your drowning in your thoughts
People shove it back in your face
Empty promises
Broken hearts
Everyone has a path they must follow
If you want to make your own path
By all means go ahead
Let me know how you feel 
They take everything away from you
All you gave to them
Meant nothing
You received nothing in return
Love is a give take relationship
You get angry
So will the other person
You dished it out so take it
Everyone showed you where to turn
Everyone told you when to run
You stayed
Now who can you blame but yourself
You gave them a chance to prove themselves
It got you no where
Only the same place you have been stuck in for days
Every one is fake
No one is real
Everything is so blurry
You sure you can still make out your own ending?
Bury yourself in those thoughts and their lies?
By all means go ahead
No one will come and dig you up
They will only finish you off 
Putting a head stone on your grave


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Mask

I got too much emotion, too much pain.
I try to stay strong to keep myself sane.
I put on a mask with a fake smile and lie,
I'm wearing a "stay strong" disguise.
Pent up aggression, pent up sorrow,
How do i make it and see tomorrow?
I have so many secrets and burdens,
they're under the surface and hidden.
I dont know what to do anymore,
I dont know what to believe.
i cant live this battle this war,
this self hatred.... these lies I've made for me.
Pent up aggression, pent up sorrow,
How do i make it and see tomorrow?
I have so many secrets and burdens,
they're under the surface and hidden.
My whole world just spins round and round.
I put it behind me, but it comes back and bites me.
I'm fallin down,yet my past just haunts me.
Memories are burned in my head,
I dont want to remember this,... again.
I got too much emotion, too much pain.
I try to stay strong to keep myself sane.
I put on a mask with a fake smile and lie,
I'm wearing a "stay strong" disguise.
I dont know what to do anymore,
I dont know what to believe.
i cant live this battle this war,
this self hatred.... these lies I've made for me.


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Is She The One?

Is she the one my dream come true
The one that makes me whole.
Throughout the end of time
I'd give my heart and soul. 
Is she the one with qualities to endure the test of time.
Her unexpected stare 
sends shivers up my spine.
And gives me butterflies inside
Is she the one I can't decide
That always keeps me satisfied
My mind is left preoccupied
You have ignited every flame
Within my beating heart.
Now far from you I cannot part.
Is she the one my sweetheart
the angel in my life.
For you I'd walk a thousand miles
The toughest ride you've made worthwhile
I've looked beyond your hazel eyes
Your every glimpse, your every smile
In love we've deeply intertwine
Is she the one who will be there
to catch me when I fall.
That picture perfect puzzle 
To you I give my all.
Is she the one 
Well better yet she 's got the hooks on me.
The fear of losing her is deeper than the sea.





©RashanaKing2010


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Forever Love

Your gut feeling
Tells you it’s real
Yet he’ll tell you
It’s no big deal 

The trust and lies
They run so deep
Forever Love
You wish to keep.

The hints he gives
But will deny
Living this way
You sometimes cry.		

The trust and lies
They run so deep
Forever Love
You wish to keep.

Can you believe?
The truth is told?
Phone calls to her
Seem rather bold.		

The trust and lies
They run so deep
Forever Love
You wish to keep.

”Do not worry”
For this you say
“We are just friends”
You talk each day.		

The trust and lies
They run so deep
Forever Love
You wish to keep.

Your vows you took
They did not say
Having this friend
Would be okay.		

The trust and lies
They run so deep
Forever Love
You wish to keep.

So torn apart
This life you lead
Choose me or her
For which you need.		

The trust and lies
They run so deep
Forever Love
You wish to keep.

You turn your back
Been here before
I hate to see
You shut that door.		

The trust and lies
They run so deep
Forever Love
You wish to keep.

I can’t do this
For you must choose
If it is her
Then me you’ll lose.		

The trust and lies
They run so deep
Forever Love
You wish to keep.


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Sad Excuses

Kill it all away
Like they havent hurt you before
You give them a new begining
But they keep using the same old Excuses
Everytime you ask them something about that subject
They dont reply
Or they give you that sad excuse
Arent you tired of it yet?
Or are you still going to play the same old games
That excuse kept inviting you in
You kept using it 
hanging on to the excuse
Just to say they will change
But have they?
You cant see it
You havent noticed
You are still blind from there first excuse
Still letting them hurt you
Do they have an excuse for that too?


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Through the mirror

So now I know
Life has played its part
I never would believe
that I could die
from a broken heart

No you can’t mend me
it’s been far too long
everyone will go
everyone has gone
everyone will leave
that god lend me

I could only watch
then step aside
as it all just went
the only thing I could say
was how hard I cried

It was a shiver in the mirror
A reflection of pain
Where the shadows of doubts
were cast and bent
Any old soul
or any message sent
Were at the end of the road
and who is left out

So now I know
Life has played it’s part
now I do believe
that I will die
from a broken heart


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A Gray Christmas

The little boy sits by the christmas tree 
Full of light and color
Trying to figure out what all the colors are
He puts his little hands on the ornaments
Trying to see what they are
Feeling them
He steps back and falls over a present
He feels around the box trying to open it
Only seeing alittle 

Mean while on the phone..

his mom is talking to the doctor

"do you think he will be able to see by christmas?" she says
The doctor replies "theres no guarentees, he is 67 % blind, when we did the test with him, he described the color blue as a dark black, and a yellow as a light gray, your son only sees in black and white and im not sure if we can fix that. but we will do our best"

A breathe escapes from her lips as she turns and looks at her son
The doctor explains "his surgery is set for Dec. 7th. be here around 8 am and we will see what we can do, im trully sorry"
He hangs up.

Back in the living room

The boy stands up and walks over to his mom
"mom, have you seen the christmas lights?" he says

She replies "yes sweety i have."

He hugs her leg and says "are they black and white?"

She answers "no sweety" she points to a light bulb on the tree

"this one is blue" she smiles

He grabs the light bulb and repeats "this one is blue" and giggles

She lays him down in his bed as he quickly falls asleep

She sits down on the chair and thinks
"to me. because my son cannot see the beautiful lights and feel the joys of christmas, everything is gray for me. nothing will fill my empty heart"


There are no smiles, when everything is gray, when you cant see the colors of a bright day




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Lady Arcane

[Daughters of Lamia] Today we walk from our graves You can't wish, pray it away The Inflamed Coven's emerged You Will receive what you deserve Retribution of the flaming shade Your Malice will be paid, In Harm's way [Aharhel] Her Convoluted face burning with fear Of the fall of the gate seering their minds with the deft of the legion The Army of the plague Scourges your land Scourges your Children Scourges your hope [Lady Arcane] I, The White Madonna - The Poison Mistress Hold The Rose to Salvation - Hold The Fruit to Arcane Closer, Come, Child you are mine [Daughter's of Lamia] Lady Arcane wants your fear Lady Arcane wants you near Lady Arcan is here Lurking In your tears clinging to your spilled blood the east has always been near The Left hand reaches to the right side in disguise In Malice's Disguise Therionacy break you down to thy knees To Thy Knees!


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Inside the Membrane

The pain I feel inside 
Can be derived from my dad pride
I sit alone at night
There is this emptiness that is
The squandering of time
pondering what life will be like
Who knew that twenty-one
Would be More bumps and lumps than fun
I want to dump this chump
Standing in front of the mirror
Waiting till its clearer
This Brings a sobering effect
Over thinking each step
It is like I'm playing freeze tag
With these mundane demons
And They always keep me in check
Because I cant see them
I have been contained and constrained
I complain of chest pains
Till my veins pop off like champagne
Bruce Banner's a freight train
Going insane in the membrane

So should I smoke weed then
To cope with this moping season
Cause my yoke is heavy
and dope seems dope for lots of reasons
Even though I do know
What the verse says in Ephesians
"Do not get drunk on wine...
Instead be filled with the spirit"
This is my one beacon
That's give me hope when I hear it
Its a choice for heathens
Like me, to write our own lyrics
Since death has been beaten
And no longer need to fear it
His love is infinite


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Snow Song

Snow Song

Tonight, just this once, I need everyone to agree with me
To see what I see, the reality they refuse to believe.
Tonight just once, I need to set the her inside me free,
A note on a stave, no longer chained to a melody.

Tonight just this once I need to spread open paper wings.
Crepe veils of iridescent UN discovered things.
Tonight I need to listen to the snowflakes and icicles sing.
To glissade down crystal branches around the moons silver ring.

Tonight for an instant, I am going to feed into the delusions 
Stretch wide and far past the restraints of being human.
Tonight, casting stars in all the cracks of perfect ruin.
 Silken circles of multifaceted and attractive confusion.

Tonight I’m embracing all the questions with unknown answers.
No longer resenting the figure eights of life’s pirouetting dancer.
Tonight I can relate to the hunger of this soulless obsidian cancer.
Watery lips, azure finger tips this beautiful cerulean disaster.

Tonight through new eyes, I travel forgotten trails
And release a single burning breath I never got to exhale.
For Tonight my soul’s voice finally spells her tale
A pearlescent cadenza of falling snow, innocent and pale.


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In the Spider's Web

I am a spider
amused that you have become ensnared
in my web of lies.
My talent is manipulation-
I play you as easily as a puppet
dangling from my power hungry fingers.
Hungry, yes-
I feed off these lies.
The quicker you fall, 
the more satisfaction I feel.
I am a spider
and you are my pray.
You do not realize you are a victim
until you are bound and broken
my teeth at your neck,
How foolish do you feel 
as the venom courses through your veins?
Does this make me a monster,
Nothing more than a barbaric creature?
Relying on primal instincts,
I hunt for facts
and gather the truths,
smuggling them away 
and replacing them with 
Picture-perfect facsimiles engulfed in deceit.
Have I performed the greatest trick of all?
Or have I lost myself in my web?
Each fragile strand threatens to snap,
to unravel my illusion
and reveal the truth masked within,
leaving me exposed,
vulnerable and naked.
I have lost myself:
A victim of my own design.


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Drifting Mainly

You belong to me mate 	 ( Intro )
And that be that!
Get on board
And grab your hat!

The ship was aghast at its new passenger	( Verse )
Like disdain for the lives that they now left behind,
Newcomers were scarce 
And they never would last
But I held up my chin nice and high.


The bloke who took me screamed	( Pre-chorus )
“Mop up the deck we’ve got things to do!” 
But I said sir, 
I’m just a boy and don’t know what’s to do.

And he said		( Chorus )
“Drifting mainly
Sailin the shores
Taking what’s mine 
And leaving what’s yours
Cause you know, we ain’t dead yet.”

Taking the seas for more than eight moons
We found islands and loot
That was bigger than most.
The taste of sea air 
With its wind in my hair
Took me away to this new life I lead.

After mopping the deck 
He grabbed my hand and screamed
 “Steer this ship boy!”
But I said sir,
I’m just a lad and don’t know where to go.

So the crew yelled	( Chorus )
“Drifting mainly
Sailin the shore
Taking what’s mine 
And leaving what’s yours
Cause you know, we ain’t dead yet.”

Surprising to me 
Was my unshaven face
The captain looked on 
And smiled with grace,
We stopped at a place 
Where the women were loose and didn’t mind
If we took a peak.

He said “Now you’re a man so let’s get on that boat,
We got places to be and some people to rope,
So grab that sword and drop that mop
Cause you’re no longer a boy in my eyes.”

I practiced the duel with the men in the crew
The captain took eye to my devilish pride,
And he took me aside and said 
 “Even in death I’m gonna miss you boy 
But don’t let it strike you 
Or kill your spirits
Cause even time can beat out the Grim.”

Then in the darkness came fire and screams,
Our vessel had stopped after fourteen years,
The crew fought hard and beat most of the men
But now, my Captain was dead.

We took the new ship watching ours sink deep
Saying goodbye to our drowning escape,
The crew turned towards me and asked
“What do we do?” and I smiled,
And they did to.

And we yelled    ( Chorus )
“Drifting mainly
Sailin the shores
Takin what’s mine
And leaving what’s yours
Cause you know, we ain’t dead yet.”


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Blue

Injecting the poison altering the perception
Reality fades  turned into transparent reflection

Shuffling through orchards of illusion
All the senses suffering a revolution

Daydream, silent scream all turned to steam
Awaiting for another feed to be the redeem
And further into the point of gleam
Is it so good or nothing even understood

Cheating the constants or constants manipulating me
There was she..


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im yours

Ever feel like your world is crashing right before your eyes?

Everyone is just in a still mode

you go up to speak to them

And they just stand there

Not saying a word

not even blinking

Like your world has frozen

I'm your pain when you can't feel

I'm your eyes when you must kill

I'm your voice when you must lie

I'm the fear that fills your brain

I'm yours when the world falls apart

I'm the sadness when you are depressed

I'm the numbness when you can't heal

I'm the sharpness of the blade in which u cut

I'm the bullet that pierces your heart

I'm yours when your world has fallen apart.




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December

Arguing with one another
Texting back and forth
Owen drives in the blizzard
Kurt is at home

Kurt sends Owen another message
"why did you tell them about me doing drugs?"
"that wasnt your place, i dont care if there your parents too"
"shouldnt i be the one to tell them?"

Owen tries to reply to the message Kurt has sent him
He loses control of the wheel
driving into a field 
Kurt recieves a message from Owen
"Im sorry I..."
The message was never finished
The car slamming into a tree
The tree branch breaks through the window
Thrashing into Owens stomach
As Owens head slams back and forth
The car is left smoking

Kurt knows something is wrong
but leaves things be

50 Minutes Later...."

Kurt and Owen's parent recieve a call from the police
"Is this the parent of Owen Everdeen?" the police ask
the mother answers "yes is something wrong? is it Owen, what did he do now?"
"Mam', Your son was in a accident, they are life flighting him to the hospital"
She drops the phone, and grabs her purse and yells at Kurt to come on.

She drives fast to get to the hospital to see her son
Owen was life flighted to the hospital
The police had to use the jaws of life to get him out of his car

They finally make it to the hospital
The Dr. asking "Are you the mother of Owen?"
She cries "yes, where is my son?"
Kurt stands upset at himself for fighting with Owen minutes before
Remembering Owens last text to him. "im sorry I.."

The Dr. explains to the mother 
"Owen didnt make it"
She sits in sadness
Numbness
She cannot breathe

Kurt runs after the Dr.
"this cant be, he has to be ok" as he starts to cry.
Just the night before him and his brother
Were playing guitar hero together
Remembering the last moment
The arguing
The reqruet Kurt is now feeling

"Owen Ryan Everdeen: Jan. 1st, 1990- December 8th, 2011"
To a good brother and a great friend, im sorry about all those times i have let you down
Im sorry for yelling at you that night, and causing your crash, the guilt i feel wont leave
I am sorry that you went through that, and left this world that way, forgive me for what i 
have caused. I love you.


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For the Dying Orphan

I let you die for my name As you reached for my hands Out of waters of drowning What a hypocrite this writer is The Hatred of Solitude Letting an orphan dream Then destroy him with knowledge Of what you have done He opened up to you In new ways But in nostalgic guises The springwinds whisper blithe yore But the winterwinds, much stronger Caress you with the dreams of your funeral sky “It was you… it was your fault… Letting the one who was so open to you Be the laugh… the piece in the game…”


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Love Was Never There

BEFORE READING: Please note that this lyric has some mature content that some readers might find disturbing. Also read the side-note at the end of the poem before commenting...



My youngest memories was when I was eight.
Daddy would tuck me in on nights so late.
Gave me a surprise after every story.
Left the room and whispered he was sorry.

He said it was our little secret,
no need to tell a soul.
He said at night his love was lit
and he was in control.

Said I was beautiful
as my tears slowly streamed...

So much love to give it isn't fair
to keep it all to yourself.
I guess it was just the demons in you,
but love was never there

I barely stood four feet off the ground
as you said darling don't make a sound.
I was too young to understand,
what made daddy feel like a man.

Hearing footsteps in the hallway,
I pretended I was asleep.
Hid my face, and then hear you say,
"This will all just be a dream."

Said I was beautiful
as my tears slowly streamed...

So much love to give it isn't fair
to keep it all to yourself.
I guess it was just the demons in you,
but love was never there.

Wish I could believe you when you said you cared.
My heart was on my sleeve
and I kept it in all these years.
But love was never there.

Heart turned black as coal,
when the demons took your soul.
This is your choice to choose.
It was your own flesh you abused.

Made me believe this was special,
but a quick pleasure was your goal.
Took advantage of me,
now I'm older and finally see.

Images haunt me to this day.
Therapy don't make it wash away.
Wish I could believe you when you said you cared.
But love was never there.



NOTE: I just wanna have you know that is fictional. This has nothing to do with me or anyone I know. I happen to watch a great deal of Law & Order SVU and the stories they tell just get to me. I try to put myself in the shoes of the small child suffering from abuse... I'm sorry if I made anyone uncomfortable by posting this (unfortunately this isn't something out of The Twilight Zone... it's something that really happens).


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Come Chill With Me Tonight

Verse 1:
Don't be shy,
I just wanna spend some time,
Make you mine,
Make it right,
Don't need to worry,
Girl, no one will ever compare,
To you,

Chorus:
Girl, The moon is close tonight,
Mother nature's on my side,
Let the clock move slow all night,
Come chill with me tonight,

I said the dj's on my side,
And he's playing our song all night,
We can dance all through the night,
Come chill with me tonight,

Verse 2:
Listen to the night,
Listen to the moving of the trees,
Their talking to me,
Controlling me,
They make me move,
As I watch the movement of the 
moon,

Chorus:
The moon is close tonight,
And it's shining on so bright,
And our love is worth the fight,
Come chill with me tonight,

Girl, the party's off tonight,
And their playing the disco right,
And the club won't be jumping 
tonight,
Come chill with me tonight,

I said the dj's on my side,
And he's playing our song all night,
We can dance all through the night,
Come chill with me tonight...


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Beyond The Sun

Of 2000 years ago Beyond The Sun
There once was a Prophetic Son
With a Mother of Wisdom
The Matriach of Sublime
She shows the way in time
 
There's a locked cage in my heart
And it's tearing me apart
Sophia you hold The Key
Why don't you open if for me
 
Beyond The Sun
A Dove, a Flame (Beyond The Sun)
Regina Sapientia is Here (Beyond The Sun)
 
Beyond The Sun
A Dove, a Flame (Beyond The Sun)
Regina Sapientia is Here (Beyond The Sun)
 
There's a locked cage in my heart
And it's tearing me apart
Sophia you hold The Key
Why don't you open if for me
 
Beyond The Sun
A Dove, a Flame (Beyond The Sun)
Regina Sapientia is Here (Beyond The Sun)
 
Beyond The Sun
A Dove, a Flame (Beyond The Sun)
Regina Sapientia is Here (Beyond The Sun)


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Unsuspecting Victim

Four teenagers 
Paige
Matt
Kevin
Kat

Backgrounds-
Paige- psychic, can see and talk to the dead, has demons who come to her for help
Matt- Has demons attachted to him, dating paige
Kevin- A Nerd from school, intersted in pot
Kat- Training psychic, paiges best friend, dating kevin

Prom Night- 2011

Sitting in the car positioning themselves
into a compfy spot
Matt sits in the driving seat
Paige in the passenger seat
Kat and Kevin in the back seat
Kat laying on Kevins shoulder
All of them latch there seat belts
Driving unto the road to go to after prom
Paige sees someone
Someone no oe else can see but her
Sitting right beside her is her (demon but almost human ghost) friend
He whispers "i can try to keep you save from everything, but i cant make a promise)
She looks down at Matts foot
Holding unto the break peddal is one of Matts demons
The demon breaks the pedal and has one hand into the engine of the car
A car coming up behind them
Trying to pass them
Matt decides to make it difficult for them to pass
As he does he tries to hit the breaks
And they didnt work
They drive into the ditch 
Trying not to hit the other car infront of them
Flipping a few times as they land with all the tires on the ground and the 
Top of the car towards the sky
Paige lays on the windsheild her head cut by the glass
She looks  at her self
She sees her body laying there looking up at Matt as he smirks to her
His eyes turn black and he smirks again
Paiges ghost friend opens the door and pushes her out
Far from the car
She now lays close to the road
She watches the car as it rolls off the hill
Flipping it again, also looking down at her lifeless body
She sees Matts demon again

The Night After

Paige was rushed to the hospital
Matt, Kevin and Kat left with only bruises and a few cuts
Paiges brain was internally bleeding
She stands in the hospital 
Outside of her body
Standing looking at her ghost friend
He ssays to her "as much as i want you to be here with me, your family needs you in your other life"
She wakes up a few hours later, in her body, and getting better


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The Land of Sophia

Escape the tort of our avarice world Defy the ones who shift the blame Deter the decadence forgetting shame Freedom is on the top of the bare eyes Beyond the consciousness of The Human Kind Search harder and then you'll find The Land of Sophia Dwelling past are needs Swirling around our bare minds Our wants polluting out sight the Land of Sophia is lost at night Are the Lies held worth it in time Only embracing The Veil of Logic The Truth is cast into shade where all vices are soon to be made For all of our dreams and dramaticies The Destruction Star poisons seas Far from This Galaxy among the stars I can see myself, And The One I've became Escape the tort of our avarice world Defy the ones who shift the blame Deter the decadence forgetting shame Freedom is on the top of the bare eyes Beyond the consciousness of The Human Kind Search harder and then you'll find The Land of Sophia Dwelling past are needs Swirling around our bare minds Our wants polluting out sight the Land of Sophia is lost at night Caught in our lust, of forgetting trust I wonder can we break free of bound forever in the clutches of Lilith's Love Eden's Heart Who's desperate For Love Who's desperate For Light yet wallows in Blight and chooses to wait--forevermore The wait in Summer--An Eternity Lilith's Love Eden's Heart Escape the tort of our avarice world Defy the ones who shift the blame Deter the decadence forgetting shame Freedom is on the top of the bare eyes Beyond the consciousness of The Human Kind Search harder and then you'll find The Land of Sophia Dwelling past are needs Swirling around our bare minds Our wants polluting out sight the Land of Sophia is lost at night We don't chose what's right I can't believe we are able to see this far Crawling in Shadows Never will breath find it's light Escape the tort of our avarice world Defy the ones who shift the blame Deter the decadence forgetting shame Freedom is on the top of the bare eyes Beyond the consciousness of The Human Kind Search harder and then you'll find The Land of Sophia Dwelling past are needs Swirling around our bare minds Our wants polluting out sight the Land of Sophia is lost at night
**Mark Jansen, Guitarist, Male Vocals, and main songwriter of Epica**


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HARD TO SEE

                                                                   Water In My Eyes

It’s hard to take off, when you’re left grounded.  Something lost I can’t find it.
 I can’t see my way anymore, I need a guide

                                               “Hard to see with water in your eyes”

A feeling that comes over you, it comes and goes 
Often now putting me to my knees, a thirst for knowledge has grown.
Interpretations given to me, I want to fly but I’m stuck on the ground is what I realized.
I can’t see my way anymore, I need a guide


                                                “Hard to see with water in your eyes”

You carry those you lost and offer you in their place, all you have are the memories a heart ache, a still picture of their face. Quest for knowledge you have shown, you can only save yourself when it’s time to kneel at the thrown. Interpretations given to me, still unable to fly I can’t see my way anymore, I need a guide


                                                      “Hard to see with water in your eyes”

Arms out reached in front of me, waiting for a touch back to assist and help guide me, I know your there even in the open air, as the breeze passes by pushing out the water in my eye.
 Looking to the sky before it drips drops and it freezes. As u notice only your sign the one only you can see. If you found it it’s meant for you to continue to believe. Before you know it you’re looking up into the sky. You see clearly through a dry eye. No more needs God has heard you and now he will guide you.

Walking a set path try to live a life right. God will always give you your way of sight.
Keeping faith is all for just such a reason. It’s nice to see through all life’s seasons. But almost daily it gets blurry and things change size.







                                                      “Hard to see with water in your eyes”
                                                                                 By Paul J Williams Sr
                                                                                 


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look into the skies

Is it that the world is so cold you must be alone
Could it be a sign on the road
Yield to self-control 
And if I wanted a kiss
Would you put me on a little black list
As the sun sets in a valley of rust
Is this the end of us?

All the rivers overflow and the deserts are cold
This piece of heaven so sacred and pure
Look into the skies it's yours

The twisted piece of the puzzle fits
My last good trip
The passion to broad to explore
Help me open my doors

And if the people you once dismissed
Try to sell you some bliss
I am one cause God said so
Don't put me in a righteous role

All the rivers overflow
And the deserts are cold 
This piece of heaven so sacred and pure
Look into the skies it's yours


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Bruise

bruise bruise bruise 
cut 
bruise bruise bruise 
cigarette burn 
bruise bruise bruise 
cut
bruise bruise bruise
broken heart 
bruise bruise bruise 
distracted mind.


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our love

our love has come and gone
just like the freshly played melody of our song
though i cannot lie
i will sigh
to you i will say a final goodbye
our love has faded away
like a breeze on a hot summers day
our love has gone out of fashion
and its time to move on
because our love has come and gone
like the faded memory of our song
and with a sigh
to you i say a final good bye


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Dear my heart

Where is your home, my heart?
Why are you silent?
We went through many things.
We were living life.
We lost the last that we have gotten
But still there is no end.

You are confused, my heart.
I feel it.
There are so many roads which
Lie before but only God
Does know which one will lead to
Paradise, and which one straight to hell.

Where is your home, my heart?
I’d love to know where to go.
Who is for us?
Who will protect us?
Who will help to find the way?

We forgave so many people, heart.
So many things we left undone.
We split into the pieces our vision.
The life that is unclear we gave up.

You are not broken, heart.
You are not tired.
I feel you beat still in my chest
But why all the time are you so silent?
Why are you so afraid?


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Who Are You?

Who are you to put disappointment
in my soul, and shatter the glass I broke
Punish the misunderstood with thorns of fire

The victimize frozen, and unworthy
Clouds neglected, weak and rejected
Water will secure the undecided thunder
Jealous roses will damage the roots of souls
Who are you to humiliate, and manipulate

Spirits of spirits
Soul of souls

Desperate fire so confused
So exhausted, impatient and frightened
The unworthy so traumatized, 
vulnerable, and ashamed of life
Who are you to attack

Who are you to be insecure
Who are you to be destructive
Your not, to be violated
Who are you to be defective
Who are you 
Who are you
Who are you
For I am you
D.L.V



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turbulent serenity

it looks humble 
but harbors trouble. 
a pregnant silence 
nurtures violence. 
it is threatening, 
it is frightening... 
a silent silence whispers vengeance 
it is worse than an out-spoken uproar. 


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The Knowing

see. nothing. 
see. you dont care. 
see. everythings broken. 
see. my blood spilling everywhere. 
Hear. my heart break. 
Hear. The shot gun hit the floor. 
Hear. The silence in the air. 
Feel. The tear falling down my cheek. 
Feel. The knife in your back. 
Feel. My hand pull away from yours. 
Feel. How broken you are. 
Know. that i give up.


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Deirdre

 
Don’t you know Deirdre’s gone? Don’t you know Deirdre’s gone? I can sence her embrace that feels like Tragedy A heart to have, slipped beneath the waves The dark pulse now beckons us closer How many days will this passion bleed away? We will be the ones left to blame Beware we’ve become their prey They say you’re addicted to your pain A lifeless cold barren soul left to die in the rain A whisper too close to the edge A call from the dark Brings out a saving spark An Exodus from her Pain Her Life Spent breathing in Shame A Shadow Call breaks the Silence Am I the one to blame? Don't you know Deirdre's gone? Don't you know Deirdre never said wrong? Don't you know Deirdre's gone? “My Decadence was just for you Though you’d never care what I’ve been through Enter the world were empathy is clandestine A world created by you, just for me What’s Lying in my heart is why You want to through the stone” I call your name towards nightfall’s reign But they take you so far away A dark angel so divine Cursed by Eden’s heart I will avenge every tear An Exodus from her Pain Her Life Spent breathing in Shame A Shadow Call breaks the Silence Am I the one to blame? Don't you know Deirdre's gone? Don't you know Deirdre never said wrong? Don't you know Deirdre's gone? Don’t you know Deirdre’s gone? Don’t you know Deirdre’s gone?


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Blind

So many songs describe how i feel
But you wouldnt have the time to listen to them
To actually figure out what they meant
Or how much they related to me
If i died today i can say the only
Thing you would miss
Is me trying to make you smile
Things have been depressing me for years
All the anger i hold is real
Falling further into soemthing
You wouldnt want me to be
I know if i told you 
You would be confused
You wouldnt know what you did
To make me do what im about to do
I let myself cry to long
That i buried myself alive on the inside
I wish i could shut you out
And let you go away for a long time
I guess its better that i trapped myself in my own way
At one point the chain broke away
And i had my own time
I took an early flight and i made it home
I realized how unfair you were being
Everyone always got more than i did
Got your attention
More than i did
If i played my bass 
Would you hear the anger behind it?
If i let you read my poems
Would you understand why im writing it?
If i told you i thought about doing something bad
Would you try to make everything i hate about you better?
I dont think you understand 
Maybe i should explain more
Or would i bore you?
Probally...
So you know
I wanted a father
But instead i had a dad
To me
It hurt
It still does
And i watched myself die
From hurting so much
Cutting my heart out
On the inside
Im different 
In so many ways
My friends give me more complaments
Then my mother has my whole life
"thats good" isnt what i want from you
I would rather have you really 
Grasping the meaning behind why
I am writing poems
The meaning behind why i draw
Or play the bass
Even if i died i wouldnt think
You would get it
If i did what im going to do
I would have you right where i want you
If you want me back
Your going to have to ask
Nicer than that
Things in my life are different than yours
I see things differently
I love music
And i want you to see that
I talk to you through my music
I talk to you through my poems
I talk to you through my bass guitar
You cant trust me?
I lied to you?
Dont you remember when 
You told me you would give me up
for adoption when i was born?
That hurt more than anything
Yes you kept me
BUt you thought about giving me up
Just like you gave up on me ten years later
This will be the last of me
And i hope you understand now
That you are my problem
That you are the one
I couldnt trust
That you were the one who lied
What else could i hide
When i have been an open 
Book his whole time
and you couldnt see it?


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Stop Breaking My Heart

Take my hand

drag me in 

a world of beauty and wonder

make me feel

like I'm you're only girl

push me away

kiss a girl with a pretty face

and let me know we're through




So will you

stop breaking my heart?

If you love me

you wouldn't let me fall apart

baby please tell me

what we're doing

I gotta know

where it is you want me to go




you say you wanna stay friends

but you still love to take my breath away

every single day

I wait for the night Wehre i won't cry

eoshing you could change your mind

but when you do I wait for goodbye




so will you

stop breaking my heart?

If you love me 

you wouldn't let me fall apart

baby please tell me

what we're doing

I gotta know

where it is you want me to go


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Letter To A Friend

Dear friend
Where do I begin? 
I got so much on my mind
Sometimes I wonder where we stand
But my emotions is bout to explode
Like a volcano when its eruption
And your name came in mind
When it came to reach out for a hand
I’m overseas fighting
With mortars flying over my head
Bullets traveling toward my frame
Fighting for something I don’t understand
I’m crying cause I need help
And here I don’t have a friend
Today I am alive
But tomorrow I might be dead
And man with this
Always on my mind
Got me scared for the fact
I don’t know if I’m running out of time
Usually I call you
But I have to write this on a line
Cause my voice is so shaky
I can’t say a word but jus cry
To me you’re like a brother
You are always by my side
That’s why I’m writing you
Even though I feel shy
You always seen me tough
But never seen my sad side
I hate that I feel like this
Even though I don’t know why
And I think you are the only person
That can really calm me down
Even though in my eyes
I see death all around
Blood on the sand
Body parts on the ground 
Sometimes I think to myself
How do I stay alive living with a frown? 
But knowing you’re here for me
Is enough to hold me down
Jus writing this to you
Is making me feel better right now
One day we’ll sit down and talk
And on my face you’ll put a smile
But I hope that day comes
Before I’m the next dead person found


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All About Her

I dont know much about her
but I heard she wasnt that talkative
She didnt like being alive
She was numb to all the pain she had to go through

I heard she didnt like anything that was green
She ate roman noodles everynight for supper
She always wore flannels and bellbottoms
Sometimes i seen her wear dresses and fancy tops
But lately shes been wearing band shirts

She wears converse shoes and uses an army bag for school
I know that she dosent like to communicate through talking... only through her peoms
or sometimes even her songs.

I see her drawing and painting all the time
She draws famous people
She would like to be famous and not so unknown
When she tries to speak to anyone they always walk away and leave her alone

When she gets home she goes upstairs to play her bass guitar
She hates chocolate cake but loves chocolate
Her family left her behind because she cant forget her past

Sometimes when shes alone she contemplates the meaning behind her life
Her favorite color is gray because her life is black and white
Everything she says is false according to the world

She is not so innocent
I understand that she dreams about the perfect life
When she opens her eyes they are pitch black

She is someone that is fake
She acts nothing like she should
She is very grungy and unclean

She knows of no safety
and of no time
Her life is smashed into pieces by the giant sun

She will always be a ghost
She knows of no god
She crawls around in the world of death
She remains forgotten


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Grave Yard

Your eyes shut tight
Hearing a sound
Your heartbeat races
You can feel the little pieces 
Bleeding through
The hairs on your arms
Stand up
Closing your eye lids shut
Keeping them from opening
Reaching your hand over
To turn on the light
Once you do
You open your eyes
And nothing is there
Your heat beat dies down
And your back to feeling alone

Walking to the graveyard 
Going there as you
And leaving there as someone else
You can feel them all around you
Grasping unto you
And never letting go
Places parellel
You know its something paranormal

You decide not to stay
You feel yourself start to fade away
pretty soon everything
will be back where it belongs

The ghost grabbed unto your depression
And it slowly killed you
From the inside out
Now you are in the graveyard


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Weep and a Moan

Watching the sequence of sound coming out of your mouth...
But the screaming is too loud.
I can speak,
But my brain doesn't want to.

I closed the door.
Silence called for me.
Should I cry or should I run after her?

What have I done to you?
but love you uncontrollably.

Shes then left speechless.
It looks like shes out of breath,
but really I broke her.

She was fragile.
So innocent.

Run, Just run.
A gun raised..
up to her mouth.
And a taint on her heart.


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Time to Change - E

When the things you feel 
aren't real 
and the colors that you've seen
are actually black and white

When your loved ones words never mean
a thing, and they were the ones who started up a fight
When everything is normal,
but its still not right

When your not sure what time of day it is
cause its always as dark as night
when you forget how to feel 
because all you feel is fright

Thats when you know your in a miserable place
thats when you know you should stop running the race
take deeper breaths and slow down your pace
because your life needs a new turn 
and it needs to be changed

So let them help you, if they offer there hand
you aren't living your life
if that life is planned
so many maps all around you
so many routes to go
but you cant choose your own

Thats when you know your in a miserable place
thats when you know you should stop running the race
take deeper breaths and slow down your pace
because your life needs a new turn 
and it needs to be changed

just one step at a time
and hope that you'll be fine
cause now you're living your life 
without a sign
that tells you were to go
and all you need to know
is that:

Now every color you see
is exactly the way you want it to be

Every person you know
doesn't want you to go

and when you look at the clock 
you dont feel so stuck

Thats when you know that now you're in the right place
you are winning this race
forget about pace
you've got so much to learn
and now your life is changed.


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Counterpole

My rhymes are timeless while this time is lifeless
why is life this kind less, reminds me that this
mind is spineless ready to tip and quit, as
my lies become mindless and get swollen shut
and Stuck up inside my sinus
Drivin in my prime but with no optimus
Victim to the flip-side of the Midas
Running through my blood like a virus
The sun makes my skin mundane
rubbin on ben gay but get arthritis
touch spermicide and converts to hepatitis
I hit the plus sign but it just musters up a minus
I'm seen sucking my thumb like the peanut's Linus
I run and duck when I hear the sirens cause
I abducted the president's Nike air pumps
now air force one is trying to find us
I'm at my desk obsessin about success but
This whole time its been right behind us


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Storm In The Wind

(Oh Girl),
You're like the storm and the wind, 
Tearin up the city and breaking the 
trees, 
Whenever I'm around you girl, 
I get weak, 
You're breaking my heart, 
And tearing up me, 
(Chorus) 
Breaking my heart, 
Breaking my heart,  (Tearing up me)
(Ooh girl)
I know we will make it, 
Even though the wind is blowing 
careless at me, 
I can't do this without you girl, 
I'll get weak, 
Stop breaking my heart, 
Bringing me to my knees,
(Chorus) 2x 
Even though the love hurricane is 
blowing careless at me, 
I can't do this without you girl, 
I'm too weak, 
You breaking my heart, 
You're the storm of the week. 


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Chaos

Immaculate
Random
Gorgeous
Heroic
Expanding mind
Taste Sampling
Divine
Forbidden pleasure
Amazing
Mind numbing
Glorious
Thought inducing
Seducing
Selfless
Explosion
Bright
Last Night


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In Another Light

The best thing you can do about a suicide is understanding it.

The boy opens the door and walks by his mom
his mom says "how was school"
He doesnt respond 
he walks silently to his room
His mom turns away in sadness
"its dinner time Kurt" she yells up the stairs.
He walks slowly down the steps
Hiding something in his hand as he puts it in his pocket
His mother is setting the table
Putting meat on his plate 
He sits down unto the seat
not touching his food
"is there something wrong with it?" his mom asks
He doesnt look at her
"talk to me. why have you been ignoring me" she repeats.
He gets up off the chair and walks outside
Walking into the woods as his mom runs out
"get back here where are you going"

Every living thing dies alone." he writes in white on a tree in there back yard
He throws the rope over the toughest branch
He steps up unto a little chair
Tying the rope around his neck
The chair falls

His mom worries in panic
She cant find him anywhere
She waits up all night

The Next Morning"

She walks out to the garden
Looking up at a tree
She sees the fallen chair from behind a tall bush
She runs
Picking up the chair
Seeing the thing she never thought would have happened
She falls to her knees
A tear falls from her cheek
Not understanding 
Reading the words on the tree
Every living thing dies alone"
She wonders
Thinking
Crying

She untangles him from the tree and holds him
Talks gentle to him
Something she hasnt done in a while
Now grasping the meaning behind what he has done

The best thing you can do about a suicide is understanding the meaning behind it.


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Junkie

you know its wrong 
but you do it to overpower the pain
not strong enough to stay away from it
you would die without it
in its presence your heart knows no shame
even if you try to win the fight
your heart will overrule your mind
Theres nothing you can do
its chained to you
you cant get free
look what this drug did to you


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Sweet Seduction

[Verse 1]

My blood is ice inside your veins
Crawling underneath my skin
The price we pay to earn that name
The battle that we never win
Falling faster far below
Further into darkest depths
The kiss of death that you bestow
The poison that is on your…lips

[Chorus]

Sweet seduction
Drug addiction
Words that only he can mend
Sweet seduction
My affliction
Rise to only meet the end

[Verse 2-change]

Your thoughts they plant a grave in me
Like missiles shooting through the skies
The pain you watch but never see
Crystals falling from my eyes
Your words they feel like razor blades
Your touch like acid on the skin
Your love this agonizing pain
The battle that I’ll never…win

[Chorus]

[Breakthrough]
Swallowed up by
Sounds of screaming
Asking questions
Without meaning
Fall away…
FADE AWAY!!!!

[Chorus]
Sweet seduction
Drug addiction
Words that only he can mend
Your destruction
My affliction
Rise to only meet the end

The end…


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If Only

If only we could close our eyes--
And see a place of mystery.
forget our hurt, pain, and cries:
lead new steps for memory. 

If only we could shed our past, 
Clear us of our misery--
Rid us of our lies and fate, 
Open doors for destiny. 

But we are human, and that is all, 
nothing more, nothing nor. 
We have great; in our mind
For those who look, search and find. 




 


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Sinful Saint

Yeah I walk around life waitng for death/ 
I live in constant despair looking to be blessed/ 
Lies over truth around here always seem to infect/ 
The more sin I get in life the more saintly I seems less/ 
Im trapped in same dark place ;looking for a lighter quest 
I try and live a life full of goodness still trapped in badness I am yet to confess/
 I try and hold onto what seems like something but theres nothing really but family left/
 I know I am not he best, nor am I like the rest/ 
I know I can master checkers but still downed in chess/. 
I got to clean up my act because my life is a mess/ 

I patiently sit back while I ponder life for death and I wait/ 
I might as well look for something simple because I never find nothing great/ 
I struggle to stay under love and over my own hate/ 
I try and be real with others when to my own self I stay fake/ 
I feel life obstacles jolt my ambition like a chain that never breaks/ 
I want less more in life yet as a daily sinner I continue to both physically and mentally take/
 I try and change my dark ways but still struggle at the fact that it might be too late/
 I usaully catch myself complaining when infact I should be thankful for whats on my plate/
 I usually hang onto the past and get scared of the future when I should worry about today/
 I going to be that better man for my child because that sinner no longer in my heart I aint/
 Sometimes in life we all struggle until we strive, but until then Im trapped between a young lost SINFUL SAINT........


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Every Night

Every night she's walking by
And summer days, they seem to fly
There's music in the words of love
This feeling's coming from above

And every day is just the same
I wake up and scream your name
Holding on to helping hands
Building castles in the sand

And they say it never lasts
But don't bring up the bitter past
The coup d'etaits in paradise
Far away from blinding eyes

My head is spinning round and round
But I have never had a doubt
That your affection holds the key
To be or maybe not to be?

But one day clouds will have to part
A glimpse of sun will mark the start
A ray of hope for which I've prayed
Will stop the never-ending rain

Hanging to your every breath
Each silence could mean sudden death
Under the stars of summer's sky
I never want to say goodbye..


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I Needed You To Stay

(chorus)

Watch these eyes fill with tears
I don’t know where to go from here
Everything is always the same
Lonely nights filled with pain
Why cant I rearrange
Why does opening up feel so strange
Is this what's meant to be,
A life with only me

 I sit and watch down the hall,
Silence waiting for your call,
If I could just hear you say
That you need me today
Then everything would be ok,
I cant make this go away.
Ive done it again
When will this end
Where is my friend
I needed you to stay.

(chorus)
Watch these eyes fill with tears
I don’t know where to go from here
Everything is always the same
Lonely nights filled with pain
Why cant I rearrange
Why does opening up feel so strange
Is this what's meant to be,
A life with only me

You told me I was the one,
Yet its over before it begun
You took my heart
and tore it apart
Where the hell did this come from
All the tears I cried
From all your lies
I cant make this go away
I needed you to stay

 (chorus)
Watch these eyes fill with tears
I don’t know where to go from here
Everything is always the same
Lonely nights filled with pain
Why cant I rearrange
Why does opening up feel so strange
Is this what's meant to be,
A life with only me


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Wanna Be A Mom

My love
Sweet lover
Can't wait anymore

My heart
Fragile heart
Is seeming to break

My flesh
My blood
I wish to hold dear

A girl
Small girl
Named Lyla Shea


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Forever

This is a song we worked on a while back - my friend Ashly and I. It's actually an a cappella piece. Some words I have forgotten. Enjoy!
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Break me
Take me away
From here
Leave me
Here in this place
Forever

Now I'm alone and there's nowhere to hide
These scars are hidden deep inside
The shadows consume me
Watch me die
Forever

Wake me
Out of this dream
That's real
Kill me
Lost in this pain
I can't feel


Now I'm alone and there's nowhere to hide
These scars are hidden deep inside
The shadows consume me
Watch me die
Forever

Clutch in this pain
Nothing matters anymore
Feeling forever 
Alone

Leave me here in this place 
Forever


Now I'm alone and there's nowhere to hide
These scars are hidden deep inside
The shadows consume me
Watch me die
Forever x2


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The World I Know Living In Black And White

the world i know isnt like the world you have been raised in all your life
 This world is darker. more in depth with the outer dimensions
 this world only has one person
 Everything else isnt living.. they are ghost
 this world is like a disturbed painting
 When everything in your perfect little world
 is forced upside down
 Things get bent or twisted
 In your world people are seen for whats on the outside
 In my world its bent the other way around
 You see their inner ugliness
 Becoming their outer beauty
 When you see someone giving money to a poor child for food in your world
 I see a man trying to kidnap a child, beat him, and force sex with him
 My world is a lot more serious then yours
 Your world Is a lot more pathetic then mine


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Never Me

Running fastly down the hall
Turning the corner into the kitchen
His mom standing 
Cutting the carrots
He stands well mannered
Dressed in black dress pants
A white dress shirt
Colored socks
His mom waves her finger at him
"No, Kurt, you dont wear colored socks with dress pants"
She walks over to him
Taking off his socks
A frown falls upon his face
"there just socks mom" He replies sarcasticly
He walks back to his room
Changing into white bland socks
~Years go by- Kurt is 15~

"Kurt!?" his mom yells from the top of the stairs

"yes?" He comes running down in a metallica shirt
Ripped jeans and converse shoes that have holes in them

"what are you wearing? we have to go to church, wear something nicer, why do you have to wear that stupid shirt, why cant you just be normal?" She walks away yelling at him

walking down the stairs in his outfit, Walks outside and walks down the street
"kurt?! get back here" she yells
He keeps walking
Walks further until he hits the end of the block
His mom cursing at him from afar
He sits on the corner of the street
and yells " im not going to church, im buddhist"
she stands in shock that her son has said that
She walks to the car and leaves him there
He goes back inside the house and writes her a letter

"Mom, I am 15 almost 16, Let me dress how i want, i dont want to be like everyone else, im my own person, you might not see it, but i do, and i do not wantto be bland anymore, im ready for something more exciting, wearing what i want, and not going to church, im buddhist, things have changed, you cant boss me around anymore, im getting tired of it sooner or later your going to loose me, your to busy yelling at me and how i dress to even sit and spend time with me, so im gone, i have better things to do then to just sit here and act all happy when im not. so goodbye mom have fun being boring"

Things might not actually be that bad
If she would have just let me be myself
I was never me when i was there
I was one of them
And thats something i never wanted


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Dusty Road

Sometimes I dream about old dusty roads
Driving through the dirt, with no where to go
I've passed many hitchhikers
Their showin skin and money
But none of that means anything to me
None of that means anything to me

I keep driving along that old dusty road
Searching for the reason, why I even left home
I keep driving through the dirt and the mud
Thinking of all the things that I have done

I shift into neutrul as I cruise down a hill
My mind slips for a bit
And a deer ran out from a feild
I slammed on the brakes
And dust flew up high
That's when I knew that everything was alright

I keep driving along that old dusty road
Searching for the reason, why I even left home
I keep driving through the dirt and the mud
Thinking of all the things that I should have done

My car has ran out of gas 
And this lonely road becomes clear
What would have been different if I stopped
To talk to the hitch hikers and the deer
Maybe if I picked them up, theyd help me push my car
Or maybe they would robbed me dry
And killed me with a crobar
Or maybe I'd just drive by and pretend they werent there
Cause they were never there
No they were never there

I'm pushing my car down an old dusty road
Wondering why I still haven't gone home
My shoes are covered in dirt and mud
Giving proof of something that I have done


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Return To Dust

After the Casket Falls
After your soul is called
After your final breathe is drawn
I'll meet you again

After the Casket Falls
After your soul is called
After your final breathe is drawn
I'll meet you again

After the Casket Falls
After your soul is called
After your final breathe is drawn
I'll meet you again

I'll See your face again
I swear it
No matter how far away they take you from me
Fading, Going Away, Don't be so afraid
Death is a Dream


The Cross Will Be lighter
Whisper the words
so sacred, so somber

After the Casket Falls
After your soul is called
After your final breathe is drawn
I'll meet you again

After the Casket Falls
After your soul is called
After your final breathe is drawn
I'll meet you again

After the Casket Falls
After your soul is called
After your final breathe is drawn
I'll meet you again

A Fallen Angel looms over the lifeless stone
What Happened here must be true
I must live this life without you

Breaking the Silence
She began to Weep
The Epitaph ceasing to know 
We all must Return To Dust

After the Casket Falls
After your soul is called
After your final breathe is drawn
I'll meet you again

After the Casket Falls
After your soul is called
After your final breathe is drawn
I'll meet you again

After the Casket Falls
After your soul is called
After your final breathe is drawn
I'll meet you again

The solitude is euphoric as an illusional clock
Of argentine fears swallow the last soul
Goodnight black rose of eternity
Goodnight dearest gothic phantom
Tonight The Earth consumes me




**Special Thanks To My Writing Partner Cayla Carr**


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What If Tomorrow Never Comes

I recall now the days when forever seemed but a short time The visits to the hospital, brought sad images to your mind She lay on a bed, cords all around her, no hair upon her head The cancer drove us crazy with worry tears and fright She was only a baby, I didn't get the chance to say goodbye Farewell until we meet again where you'll be waiting... waiting for tomorrow to come again. What if tomorrow never comes? How will I face the rising sun, when the moon is the only thing I can see? I need her here with me... The only loss I've ever known The only time that I've experienced this kind of sorrow... So what if tomorrow never comes? What if tomorrow never comes. And now I lie here thinking it through, memories flash through my head, memories of you Moments of a bittersweet time Reminiscing the days when you were mine The days when you were alive The tears come back to my eyes I feel the need to cry but nothing slides out I need to scream and shout, My emotions pour out as one, silently So what if tomorrow never comes? Reality in death is so hard to accept, I need my tomorrow to come... What if it never does? What if tomorrow never comes? How will I face the rising sun, when the moon is the only thing I can see? I need her here with me... The only loss I've ever known The only time that I've experienced this kind of sorrow... So what if tomorrow never comes? What if tomorrow never comes. Will tomorrow ever come? I just want to be awake when the moon becomes the sun I'm waiting here for you, in the darkness of the night. I wait still for you, forever the images will haunt my mind Tomorrow will come I'll soon be alright Tomorrow will come... Tomorrow has come... I can now see the sun.


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Shattered Sunlight

The memory strikes the day
The darkness comes to play
Where everything I say
Is not enough, my sunlight has to pay

With everything undone
No place left to run
Another bullet in the gun
For all I am; for hiding from the sun

A shadow in my dreams
For years I’ve planted seeds
My presence a disease
My perfect plan, uprooting all I see

The darkness calls my name
Your beauty just a game
Deception born from shame
I can’t give up until you feel the same

My memory of the light
Hopes some day that you might
Run away, before I steal your sight

But memories of my way
Now shattering the day
And I would scream aloud, but only for your pain


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Im Only Me When Im With You

I'm only me when I'm with you
Oh
Ohh ohh ohh
When im with you
Ohh oh yea yeaa

I'm only me when I'm with you
Oh
Ohh ohh ohh
When im with you
Ohh oh yea yeaa

When I see your smile
I stop and think
Why oh why
Cant he see
What hes doing to me
Oh baby please
Just be with me

Your always on my mind
Is it the way your always kind?
You know i want you
But theres nothing i can do
I wanna be in your arms
Away from all harm...

I'm only me when I'm with you
Oh
Ohh ohh ohh
When im with you
Ohh oh yea yeaa

I'm only me when I'm with you
Oh
Ohh ohh ohh
When im with you
Ohh oh yea yeaa

I wanna be yours
Boy cant you see
Your the world to me 
I cant go a day without you
Thats the one thing ill never do
I live to love you

(gets a little faster)

I should be yours
You shouldnt be hers
Your a one of a kind
Your hard to find
When our hands lock together
I wanna leave you never

(slower)

Ill be yours forever
Just tell me when it starts
Hun you will always have my heart
When you look in my eyes
I let out a little sigh

I'm only me when I'm with you
Oh
Ohh ohh ohh
When im with you
Ohh oh yea yeaa

I'm only me when I'm with you
Oh
Ohh ohh ohh
When im with you
Ohh oh yea yeaa

Now you see i love you
And this is true
I dont care what they say
They dont know what happened to me that day
My heart was hurt
Then you came along
Your the reason i wrote this song


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your hand on me

how could I?
the words from your mouth
hurt more than what happened
it was more than I could take 

I took the love I had 
out of fear 
afraid you'd lie again
is causing so much tears

I miss your hand on me
where it no longer rests 
when I put mine there
there's only emptiness

oh how I wish
to turn back these few days 
what I did this time
I never can erase

I never wanted to feel 
feel this horrible pain 
that why oh why did I 
think I could erase?

You.. you seem okay
when I am the one who thought 
I thought I could be strong 
I see that I was wrong  

I try so hard to smile
but tears erase my grin 
if only I could go back 
I would change the thing I did

I pray you are okay 
somewhere in the clouds 
I pray I'll have you again
this time in my arms.


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Over and Beyond

I stand here, Dead in the dark, I try not to shed a tear, Why'd it have to be so far? I stand here, Thinking of the future, Thinking of fear, Does it have a cure? I stand here, Thinking of how to succeed, With obstacles at the end of each peer, Wanting to show I am not another bead, On another necklace, Am I dirt to be stepped on? I show how to be free, Like a wild horse, I know I am meant for great things, That's why I want to go Over and Beyond, To the edges of the earth, Not sure where it ends, Dieing for rebirth, I shall not bend, To your every whim, I shall not cry, I will not give in, I shall not die. I walk here, Through vines of life, It's getting near, Will I be intertwined? I walk here, Looking for a light, Waiting for the fog to clear, Will I shine bright? I walk here, Showing the truth, Ready to steer, Will my mood still be blue? I show how to be free, Like a wild horse, I know I am meant for great things, That's why I want to go Over and Beyond, To the edges of the earth, Not sure where it ends, Dieing for rebirth, I shall not bend, To your every whim, I shall not cry, I will not give in, I shall not die. I will run, Into his arms, Not shedding blood, Into his care. I will run, Off that cuddled peer, Showing my love, Showing no fear. I show how to be free, Like a wild horse, I know I am meant for great things, That's why I want to go Over and Beyond, To the edges of the earth, Not sure where it ends, Dieing for rebirth, I shall not bend, To your every whim, I shall not cry, I will not give in, I shall not die. I show how to be free, Like a wild horse, I know I am meant for great things, That's why I want to go Over and Beyond, To the edges of the earth, Not sure where it ends, Dieing for rebirth, I shall not bend, To your every whim, I shall not cry, I will not give in, I shall not die. So don't try to stop me, I will only push pass, Through those trees, Through the cold, damp grass. I will succeed. I will succeed. I will succeed. I will succeed. Don't stop me.


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Size Does Matter

Size does matter.
You need to realize that when it comes to size, all your tries will fall and die.
Don't believe the lies that guys surprise you with and fly by you with a lie.
There are sighns that define the line of what matters.
Like, why mine? Is this fine? or when's my time to be fatter?
It's the motion in the ocean if you can't back an engine.
Infact, you couldn't even row to Europe if you were using ten men.
You must know to go to the top of the ship.
Means your ready to rock to the tip and equipted!


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Lunar Love

Can this ever stop The world is blacked by the lunar love All the tides have gone undone The seas beckon us with their rage Will they ever calm The mist covers our sight The storm comes Her eyes are the color of dyed blue With her raven hair and crimson lips She sleeps quietly waiting for the innocence of me But I've already put her in vain And tossed her aside I've already condoned my belovéd The desire was so much I couldn't face it In the eyes Forgetting the shame is just a Another winless game Take me away from this Take me away from the Lunar Love The moonbeams light up my pale face I don't want to be seen Banished from this world I'll ever be Take me away from this Take me away from the Lunar Love I cry but the sun cant hear Do I exist? This eclipse took over Now I'm left to face it all Left in the dark where can we go Lunar love is what we'll be Lunar love is what we have Fly away from the scene The tides are blind from the madness Even to the mountains they'll kiss The storm is too much The desire was so much I couldn't face it In the eyes Forgetting the shame is just a Another winless game Take me away from this Take me away from the Lunar Love Lunar love is what we'll be Lunar love is what we have The moonbeams light up my pale face I don't want to be seen Banished from this world I'll ever be Take me away from this Take me away from the Lunar Love The ghosts are tangled in my dreams They play with what was meant to be forgotten But I know there must be a away To find the closure But so lost are we So lost I've been Save yourself from the downfall How close are we to the edge This is what the rage has done This is what the sin has done The desire was so much I couldn't face it In the eyes Forgetting the shame is just a Another winless game Take me away from this Take me away from the Lunar Love The moonbeams light up my pale face I don't want to be seen Banished from this world I'll ever be Take me away from this Take me away from the Lunar Love Lunar love is what we'll be Lunar love is what we have Forgetting the shame is just a Another winless game


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Litany of Decay

This is for Litany of Decay

All hope tonight is just a void
Th cure was lost so long ago
But I still dream you will lie  next to me
Though you gave up on me so long ago

I miss the way the pain made me forget
I miss the way the pain made me Lose all misery

All hope tonight is just a void
Th cure was lost so long ago
But I still dream you will lie  next to me
Though you gave up on me so long ago

I miss the way the pain made me forget
I miss the way the pain made me Lose all misery

All hope tonight is just a void
Th cure was lost so long ago
But I still dream you will lie  next to me
Though you gave up on me so long ago

I miss the way the pain made me forget
I miss the way the pain made me Lose all misery

Your love was never meant for me
Nothing I was when you met me
Nothing I was when you left me
Nothing I am as I destroy myself

I must Live to face another day
To sing this damned litany of decay
My heart beckons for the grave
But there is no escape
So I sing this litany of decay
Don't mind me as I fade

Dance with me under the light of the moon
And sing to about my doom
Serenade me with an epitaph 
So I might feel what it's like to truly die

I see your face, it takes all the pain away
But you suddenly fade into the darkest of shade

Your love was never meant for me
Nothing I was when you met me
Nothing I was when you left me
Nothing I am as I destroy myself

I must Live to face another day
To sing this damned litany of decay
My heart beckons for the grave
But there is no escape
So I sing this litany of decay
Don't mind me as I fade

Living is suffering
Homicidal with you
Suicidal without you
I understand if you give up on me

The burden will fall
Today I might, today I may
Set you free, from me 

Your love was never meant for me
Nothing I was when you met me
Nothing I was when you left me
Nothing I am as I destroy myself

I must Live to face another day
To sing this damned litany of decay
My heart beckons for the grave
But there is no escape
So I sing this litany of decay
Don't mind me as I fade


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Lonely Soul

Are you just the same as me?
Do you hate the skin you're in?
Does your soul not belong to your mind?
Do you fear getting left behind?

Are you just the same as me?
Are you coy and are you meek?
Do you hide behind a facade
When things are really getting bad?

Close your eyes and you will see
You are just the same as me
Me and you are one of a kind
With tattered souls and tattered minds

Lonely soul, where are you from?
Who are you? Where do you belong?
Can you get through this alone?
Will you find a better home?


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Tears of a Runaway

Tears of a Runaway

Blinded by these tears;
Choking on my useless words;
Heart racing like a horse;
Lungs gasping for air.

I long for that happiness
That I once felt.
Instead, painful memories
Are coming back to hurt me.

Running away
Sounded like a good solution,
Even though I may trip and fall.
I'll just keep on running, 'til I can't run at all.

I trip and completely fall down,
But I don't get up this time.
I’m just lying on the ground, now,
Crying ‘til I can’t cry anymore…tears.

Blinded by these tears;
Choking on my useless words;
Heart racing like a horse;
Lungs gasping for air.

I don’t know what to do now.
I’m just paralyzed on the ground;
Except that I’m also shaking
From all the crying that I’m doing.

Running away
Wish I could say
That I would stay.
But, God, just please help me?

The coldness is wrapping around me
Like it’s a frozen blanket.
Trapped in this cold, cold world
And in my mind, memories swirled.

Blinded by these tears;
Choking on my useless words;
Heart racing like a horse;
Lungs gasping for air.
As I lie here,
I wonder
What it would be like
If my life was happier.

I can’t really say for sure
What would be going on.
But if my life was happier,
I wouldn’t be singing this song.

I once felt that warmth and comfort,
But now it’s gone.
And it’s been so long
That everything in my life now is wrong.

I’m blinded by these tears;
Still choking on my useless words;
My heart still racing like a horse;
My lungs still gasping for air.

These are the tears of a...runaway


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away with the sun

Its getting late
but you already came 
and while you were here
things never change 
you lay with me
and tell me your words
then you leave 
and I feel hurt.
Its not you that hurts me 
but the sound of the door
closing behind you 
I know for sure 
you'd like to stay 
but you never do
I'm left alone 
missing you. 
These days its more frequent 
you leave so much
that you're gone more hours 
than the day brings sun
and I have begun 
to feel so numb
when the door closes 
another night I run
far away from the thoughts I have 
because its killing me to look
at my empty hands
I remember when we were on the sand 
you told me you loved me
but you weren't my man 
and so I walked, feeling okay
but too many months 
now I want you to stay
Am I selfish?
asking too much?
You only visit me an hour
after dusk
and I must go on
but should I stay?
when you see me sometimes
but its always too late.


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Just Let It Go. . .

Let go

I'll bring you closer

Right now

I'll hold on tightly

Let go

We're going no where

Somewhere

And aren't over

Harder times like these!

Growing up on the streets!

Harder times like these!

I'll put you back on your feet!

And I fall to the ground with my teardrops

And I get lost everytime my heart stops

This love this      is burning me away


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Sleep Well

My bed is cold without you here beside me
Life is old…pain is withering away
My blankets are warm…around me…
Strife will cease in no time…but not today

So sleep well, my darling angel…
Sleep without a sound
So sleep well, my darling angel…
I’ll take you out of the chilly cell of your mind

So sleep near me for a minute or two 
Life is almost over…you’re sane and I am too 
My pillows are not there on my bed 
Strife will cease…if only you’d wait…I hope you knew 
That I loved you for so long… 
But it’s not the right time to say it 
You wouldn’t believe it 
But, I really wanted to show you… 
That you are beautiful inside and out 
So sleep well, my darling angel
Sleep well; lay your head on my shoulder 
Maybe it will help…maybe it’ll not, but oh well… 

So sleep well, my darling angel…
Sleep without a sound
So sleep well, my darling angel…
I’ll take you out of the chilly cell of your mind

Dream with me…for a time…
Wipe away our past grime
I’m still waiting for your love to touch my soul
And yet I cry…for your love to make me feel whole
I can’t go to sleep unless you’re here…
But I shall not have fear
Plant a good thought in my head
Burn away my dread
I’ve seen you once upon a time
I’ve never noticed you, dancing in a flick of a dime
Wake me up from my nightmare…
Mirror my pain…if you’d dare…

So sleep well, my darling angel…
Sleep without a sound
So sleep well, my darling angel…
I’ll take you out of the chilly cell of your mind

My heart is cold without you here hanging around me
Life is full of sorrow…pain increases slowly
My heart is beating…and I could hear it in my head…beating profoundly
Maybe…strife will stop sooner than you think…we’ll be free

Just believe…sleep well…
Just close your eyes…I know you’re tired…
Don’t grieve…sleep well…


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Stay

She said baby I have to go,
I said girl you don't need to go,
Because baby I want you to stay,
'Til the sun rise,
'Til the end of the night,

I said baby I'm feelin you,
And I'm fallin in love with you,
Which is somethin I never thought I would do,
But, I did today,
So girl, Why don't you stay,

Chorus:2x
Why don't you stay, 4x
'Til the sun rise,
'Til the end of the night,

She said baby I have to leave,
I said girl I don't want you to leave,
My darling please stay with me,
'Til the night end,
Then come back again,

Because baby we have a chance,
For us to have a great romance,
So, girl take my hand and dance,
You don't have to go,
Baby don't go,
Chorus: 3x

'Til the sun rise,
'Til the end of the night,


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Dream Liberty -- Butterfly Effect

Butterflies quietly fluttering In my soul Transforming my life Morphing into something so unreal So Different, silently beautiful So hidden and lost A fire dances on my pale iced face Lively prancing as each sheds more light The embers glow in your singed shadow Was this eternity meant to last forever? I couldn't believe that a simple flap of butterfly wings could cause such a storm, a storm in my mind The simplest things causing the greatest of pains Why cant I be one of them Forever and free I'll be with my dream of liberty Punishing the dead Can you never let anything go Is it all to hard to see That your bias takes you on a blinded delusion Where all they plunder is hate Terror is a virtue When becoming a king So cut off the strings of my life With your power And you will see the strength of the dream of Liberty I couldn't believe that a simple flap of butterfly wings could cause such a storm, a storm in my mind The simplest things causing the greatest of pains Why cant I be one of them Forever and free I'll be with my dream of liberty I couldn't believe that a simple flap of butterfly wings could cause such a storm, a storm in my mind The simplest things causing the greatest of pains Why cant I be one of them Forever and free I'll be with my dream of liberty


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Invisible

Tied to a life, encumbered by invisible chains:          
Commitments and responsibility,
Obligations to colleagues and family,                          
Conformity to society’s morality,
And everything else that constrains.

Alone in a crowd,  surrounded by invisible bars.        
Nothing to say—nobody wants to hear.
Already been there, might just as well stop here.    
Had enough of arguments, conflicts, strifes, and wars
And everything else that leaves scars.

Is there a reflection when I look in the glass?                  
Are there footprints when I walk on the grass?
When I pass a light is there a shadow on the wall?       
Does my life leave a trace or am I invisible?

Did I turn left, when I should have taken a right?         
I’m on a road that I don’t want to drive.
Is this all there is, just trying to survive?	                     
 I’m in the dark and feel like I’m buried alive,
And barely remember the light.

Was there a reflection when I looked in the glass?     
Were there footprints where I walked on the grass?
When I passed a light, was there a shadow on the wall?       
Did my life leave a trace or was I invisible?


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Soup or Salad

One thing about music
Is when it hits you you feel no pain
One thing about music 
Is when it hits you you feel no pain
Hit me and wake me up
Surely blame will call your name

Only yesterday was easy
As crept on through the night
Only yesterday was easy
And tomorrow don't look too bright.
All we can say is "oh what shame
Things didn't work out right".

Nowadays it seems you feel with beliefs
And I'm left here alone with no sign of relief.

I want a lover, No I don't want to love her
Yeah, I don't want a lover, I just want to love her

If I knew I'd be here today
I'd wear my heart around my neck
Paid my loving debt with all my time spent
If I could see tomorrow I'd stay dreaming about tonight
And If I could walk on water I'd make everything right.

No I don't want a lover,I just want to love her
Yeah, I want a lover, I don't want to love her

I could change time with one simple line
I could make you think that you're living free
I could go leave, let you have your days
Say goodbye and make our separate ways.

But I want a lover, No I don't want to love her
Yeah, yeah I don't want a lover, I just want to love her
I want to be a lover, No I don't want to love her
No, no, don't want be lover, but I just got to love her.


If I could see tomorrow I'd be more than enough
'Cause all of these callouses have made so rough.
If I could see you once I'd stay there all night.
And if I could walk on water I'd make everything right.

Nowadays it seems I believe
Let it take me that loving relief.


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Generation

V: You say that you know
But I don’t
Its nothing

Slow to the know
Fast to give up
Not something

C: You bask in that
Pitiful delusion
Hold my hand to the sky
Will it wake?

V: The children want
But they don’t
They crave

Fast to the end
Quick to step off
To the early grave


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Tragedy

The most tragic stories
Are the ones
That are filled with most of the love
People have been searching for.


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Vast Love

The love that kisses with a tasteless tear
A pain that can’t be painted on the soul
A longing for a place without a fear
Longing for a feeling that makes me whole
Beloved, words can’t heal my tattered heart.
As thorns pass me by the pain cant compare
That of the pain of being torn apart
Even the wind howls about it I swear
Tell me was falling in love my mistake
I chose my own fate and decided to stay
I will not let this love become forsaken
Love can’t just get up and spirit away
Love is worth overcoming a mountain
My love for you flows like a vast fountain


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Too Perfect, Too messed up, Too many fakes

Birth
Elementary school
Bullied
Too short
Middle school
Bullied
Too smart
Have no girlfriend
High school
Bullied
Art geek
To lazy to be in a sport
Graduation
Bullied
Has no friends in the end
Loneliness
Depression
Anxiety
Unable to be around people
Finding love
Took years
Online websites
Two boys
Five girls
Didn't work out
Lonely
Depressed
Suicidal
Love
A man
Nice
Smart
Beautiful
Loving
Caring
Amazing
Been together too long
Anger
Loneliness
Denial
Regret
Suicidal
Too perfect
Too messed up
Nothing is ever good enough
No matter who you are
You wont ever be good enough
For the simplest of people
You wont succeed
Some will for a short time
Then fail along with the rest of us
Drop the act and always be who you are
On the inside cause nothing matters on the outside
It never will.


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A Turning Point

 Within seconds, life and death collide
Within a blink of an eye, your last moments
To hope, to trust, and to surety you are tide
Your heart falls to its knees, and begins to pray to a God it so desperately needs
You begin to lose ground….
Your very last breath …as you exhale and inhale is soo profound
For it marks your very being
All your sense are directed inward
With sudden fear your heart is well cornered 
And a shrieking silence begins to sound, like thunderous cries
Your mind begins to play tricks, to you, it tells false wishing lies
Do not give up, to move head on…it whispers! it lies!
With that last breath. As you exhale and inhale you still exist 
What was once real
 When life was once clear
All of that banishes
Even the hoping! The longing! For a nobler tomorrow vanishes
Leaving all your nerves fried
Leaving your soul dried
Your very gist slowly but surely have died
Numbness begins to creep in
Like a devil when he whispers a sin
Like a drum roll leading to a scene’s climax
Like when your heart drops to your feet
 When all stops…silence engulfs, 
Shhhh!!!
Can you hear it?
The wait begins to take a heavy toll on your nerves,
for the moment that you have for soo long anticipated
The very instance…
The moment when life and death collide
The very last moment,
When to hope, to  trust and to surety your soul is tied
It all of a sudden unfolds, leaving that body of yours dead and cold
A chapter finally ends
A heart is finally set at rest 
I say my goodbyes
And wish only to see you in the afterlife
 


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Yester

Yester year grievous
brought events mischevious,
fulfilling fate malicious:
my worst fears,
my nightmares vicious;
I was oblivious
to how cruel life can be.

I suffered
soul turned cold,
heart in flames,
my existence- all in vain.

I withstood
all that came
and still waited:
come what may.

My heart burned,
my soul froze
my ego died.

I awoke
coming to life:
damaged,
yet emotionally indestructible.

No pain is painful nowadays,
no trouble would bother me,
no emotion may hurt;

The sacrifice was cruel,
yet it became fuel
for my new life.


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I Wasn't There to Fall In love

I wasn't expecting for anything...
Then i saw you, and you change everything...
I wasn't there to capture your eyes...
I wasn't there to fall in love...
And yet, you took my breath away...
But your heart is taken by someone else...
And you came after me...
You played with our hearts...
And broke both of our hearts...

I wasn't there to fall in love...
And yet, you took my breath away...
You took my heart away...
You took my soul away...
And left me with nothing...
you left me with huge question mark over my head...
Asking myself why!...

I wasn't there to fall in love...
Yet, you broke my heart...
You broke me while I'm still mending myself...
Still healing my heart...
It takes forever to fix it...
But a second to fall for someone like you...
And now you barely look at me...

I wasn't there to fall in love...
And i wasn't looking for one...
But my heart chose you...
And it can't seem to let you go...
I try to look strong and pretend to get over you...
But deep inside, its tearing me apart...
Yes I'm weak more than you ever know...
And I'm not gonna show it to you...
At least not in front of you...

I wasn't there to fall in love...
And yet, I fell for you..


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SOMETHING FOR TODAY

     SOMETHING FOR TODAY
The morning lights and to another day
a pirate's chest you've found but will not stay
for longer than the blinking of your eye
from troubled sleep to wake wherein you die.

Through every ticking second where you are
as dense and far away as any star
you sit and let your life and time run out
and have become what others talk about.

From time to time you'll always hear a clue
between each word that's meant for only you
coincidental to what you have seen
you take it in as how each word must mean.

And this will guide you through the whole day long
as certain as the hearing of Our Song
just at the proper timing of your need
and then your thought will soar, it has been freed.

You cling to it and make it what must be
the fabric of your life and prophesy
and it will carry you from here to there
into another day that goes no where.
© ron wilson aka vee bdosa the doylestown poet


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I'm Sleeping Outside

I've tried to tamper with such precious time
Looked forward and back with open eyes
I wonder about the day I'll die
Will there be rain or shine?
Maybe both, maybe none
As I speak another life has begun
Wish them luck as they carry on
Bewildered within these starry nights
I thought of time when I have lied
Oh such precious time
It flies
(im sleeping outside)
Signs and dreams lead me to believe
That somehow, some way
I'll be something great
Do I choose to be nieve?
They'll never know
Do I choose to be so weak?
It'll never show
(I'll be sleeping outside)
Love is such a clishey it seems
Something I could only see
Her eyes drew us in like summer heat 
Cupids arrows were made of clay
Oh yes I've longed for this day
I knew I wasnt lying anymore
(I always sleep outside
where the weather is nice
I can feel everything for what it's worth
dont give me signs or written lines
give me your solid words)


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Burnin' Knuckles

   Your lookin over burnin' knuckles into the road,
There it goes,
But you don't even know your destination so,
With a shake of your head,
On goes the trip,
And a whispered three words, 
This isn't it.

  Guided by a light,
Of thirty or fourty feet,
But your being driven by a heart,
That has forgotten how to beat.
 
   Oh No,
Here we go,
Another mile turns into another night,
Another day to drive right outta sight,
Ohhh it's a rollercoaster horror ride.
When looking over burning knuckles into the road,

   Oh it's a roller coaster horror ride,
Lookin over burnin' knuckles into the road,
Your lookin over burnin' knuckles into the road,
An' there it goes,
But you don't even know destination so,
With a shake of your head,
On goes the trip,
And a whispered three words,
This isn't it.
 
   On it goes_ this isn't it,
On it goes_ this isn't it,
Your trip_ Into the unknown,
While lookin over burnin' knuckles into the road,
And guided by a light,
An' a heart_ that has forgotten how to beat.

  Your lookin over burnin' knuckles into the road,
Strainin eye's on a light that guides,
Our way through what we dont know.

   Ohh it's a rollercoaster horror ride,
Being guided by the lonely nights,
While lookin over,
Burnin' knuckles,
Into the road.


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Save Me From Desperation

It's been so long since I could Feel you, Hold You I'm wondering if it was Just an Illusion For love For me could Not be real Nobody could Love over The Borderline, not even I So if you ask you'll know why I silently began to cry I need you here, to hold me I'm so scared without You I just want to Sleep forever Never stray away far Save me From Desperation Never Say It wasn't meant to be I can't take this lie You Kill me With this So much I hurt so much inside these words burn as I cry This life is destroyed without you The joy that comes is the Joy of the Empty The despair I'm prone to maynever wilt I way You could have been there You could have saved me but no you left I was here to stay In the Dark When the razor called me back You could have been my light throughout the eternal black My Soul Has yearned for but where are you Please come back to me I desire just a one word of comfort just from you, only from you Tell me this is just a Lie Just a Hallucination from my Mind I'm suffering I'm Dying I Need you I'm begging just for one word please save me from Desperation I'm the Petal You're the Wind Without You I can never go Far You're not here I'm now stranded alone In the plagued island of my mind only if you were here only If you here You could have Saved Me From Desperation


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Scarred Tissue

scarred tissue i don't miss you i don't wish you were the better of me i don't care much for surveillance but it tempts me to burn out inside everybody's lying scarred tissue i really miss you i really wish you had got the better of me you see, i need that bad beat sometimes 'cause everybody's fine yeah, everybody's fine that's what on my mind For even Elvis reigning in his castle sometimes lost battles, immortalized forever tell the stories of the glories of mighty Aphrodite the most beautiful sin in existence bright was her smile all while the while evil stirred grinning storm clouds castles in the sky castles in the sky made for you and I grand castles in the sky sometimes re-invent your self just for indulgence stray from the normal path for it was one of a kind but I'm already under influenced sometimes a knowledgeable bright shining star fades away into the darkness shall come back in rebirth I know it sounds tragic but that's what I heard every bird has wings wings to fly away any chosen day into my dismay a beautiful array wings to start a new inner strength attitude because I'm in stride with you on another level soon a game worth winning is the reason we play life can be desperate at times but I find its beauty truly basking in the sunlight of midday so as I wave before a wave washes me to the shore I seek every day has been worth the while for the while stays wildly embedded in uniquely threaded scarred tissue


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ice

Just a glare, constant and bare
it was lust,not trust nor love
not even a sweaty palm nor a tender carress.

It was cold frozen in time. vague memories of passion.
planned and timed to the esimated moment.
Not caring, no consequences to consider,
just chilled feelings.

Was lust, was lust that brought us together
this moment we do not and never will treasure,
our hearts we do not listen to.

the truth is our hearts are made of ice,
frozen stiff, and not beating at all
if we let everything go and drop it
it will break, so fragile, so fragile. A heart full of fear. 


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Cellar Door Escape The Fate

We walk through the doorway, heard you calling from the hall
To find you in the bedroom not breathing at all
I drag your body to the cellar where we lay, 
the wax it melts away, 
I kiss your face...
Now we are starting to love you more,
your body's on the canvas, 
That I painted on the floor
Now you wait,
like the drug, 
like the change in the pain it goes on for so long
And oh,
now it hurts in the worst way, 
now that you're gone, 
its so wrong,
its so wrong....
If I could take you somewhere,
I'd take you to my darkest place, 
scatter you in art forms, admire the whore,
beauty in different ways your hands on picture frames, 
your eyes in the glass wear your face as a mask
Now they are starting to love you more, 
a gallery of your beauty no charge at the door
As you wait, 
like the drug, 
like the change in the pain it goes on for so long
And oh, 
now it hurts in the worst way, 
now that your gone, 
it's so wrong, 
it's so wrong....
And down below your veins run dry your vacant eyes, 
I lost control your face is pale, 
your body's cold
And down below your veins run dry your vacant eyes, 
I lost control your face is pale, 
your body's cold
(face is pale your body's cold )
Wait, like the drug, 
like the change in the pain it goes on for so long
And oh, now it hurts in the worst way, 
now that your gone, 
it's so wrong, 
it's so wrong...



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Strings

If I hold on to strings,
That tend to slip away,
Does that mean I love things,
That I know will never stay?
If I hang on to a love, 
that just holds me down,
Does that mean that my wings,
Won’t get me off the ground?
If I hold on to lies,
That I only half believe,
When I look in your eyes,
Will you look back at me?


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Until We Bleed

I'm naked
I'm numb
I'm stupid 
I'm staying

This isn't love. You use me. 
When you get home from the club or wherever you've been late at night,
You're clumsy with your hands.
Clothing seems too hard to get off.

And if Cupid's got a gun
Then he's shooting

But I can't leave. 
No matter what happens, it's too painful to go.

Lights black
Heads bang
You're my drug
We live it

We're too uncomfortable with the lights on.
I don't want to see your face-
Slurred, clueless.
Angry.
You don't want to see mine-
Helpless, confused.
Depressed.

You're drunk
You need it
Real love,
I'll give it

Everything is hazy to you.
I bet you can't feel.
But I'll love you anyways.
I always have.

So we're bound to linger on
We drink the fatal drop
And love until we bleed
Then fall apart in parts

This has gone on forever, to me.
I'll try to be like you,
To see what it feels like.
I drink the last bottle of vodka
And hold onto you.

You've wasted your times
On my heart, you've burned
And if bridges gotta fall
Then you'll fall, too

Maybe this is the part of life
That people told me about
It doesn't mean anything
It hurts you.
You grow so attached that when one piece collapses
You do too.

Doors slam
Lights black
You're gone
Come back

You leave when the ordeal is over
Because you couldn't really care less when you're sober
You don't have a reason anymore

Stay gone
Stay clean
I need you
To need me

I want you to be happy
To be the way you were before.
But I think without you,
Even though I only see you late at night,
I would be destroyed.

So we're bound to linger on
We drink the fatal drop
Then love until we bleed
Then fall apart in parts

I'm getting up to leave
The keys are for you

Now we're bound to linger on
We drink the fatal drop
Then love until we bleed
Then fall apart in parts

But I'll come back soon
I'll come back


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Let The Innocent Live



Evening mimics the streetchildren
thrusting out and down with fright.

Predators heave along the bend
solid as a rock, bodies  streaming brawn and muscle,
how cruel! Their red eyes shoot like arrows.

The young sceams and parries.
Laughter makes it way on dirt roads
a battle is won, the rattling clatter
of boney skins, of feet's hooves 
tearing up the hard soll.

Older women whio a cry
veiled in old lace, their breath
spoied with the acid of midnight.

I will not take this!

Tell the air of freedom to come,
for I do not want to see the terror
of a nect generation on filth.

I will not take this!

The hours come wide open.
Flag of clouds rush on
and the heart rings of dreams
where my hut embraces their pain.


--- I try to help make this world a better one
by giving my time to abused children
as a Church volunteer.

--- Contest on Words of Wisdom


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Learning Curves: Repost

It's time we had a conversation;
Yes, meaning just you and me.
We've both given into temptation; 
And neither knowing how to be.

It's like you see me and you don't;
Then we fight a losing battle.
Yes, we will and no we won't; 
I could hold you, and say that you matter.

I'd do that, yet with who?
I should wait though I hate to pretend.
I've seen your eyes what's only true;
What you give I can't have until when?





©2013 Honestly JT


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An Escape From You

Can I stop the sobs
Am I strong enough
To escape their evil
To deny what’s real

I ask myself why God would
Stick me in this jail, my own hell
So if I get help I might not feel
My own manic episodes, this is real

Am I bleeding
Am I seeing the truth
Or is it just a way
To deny my love for you

They say 
Just pop a pill
To numb 
All that can’t heal

Can I stop the sobs
Am I strong enough
To escape their evil
To deny what’s real

Is it delaying the problem
Is it sticking a bandage
On a broken arm
Am I covering the truth
Is it an escape from you

I have no idea
If it’s the right thing to do
But all I know is
I must forget you

So I’ll take this bitter pill
And I’ll conceal my inner hell 
Cause it’s all I can do
To stop loving  you


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Contradiction

I’m my own worst enemy
Reality seems to challenge my sanity
I’m in a state of constant contradiction
I’m Batman, Robin Gotham city.
Can’t define myself, I’m meaningless by definition.
I’m my own worst enemy

I have everything I want except what I need
I’m not bias; I care about the colour of your creed
On Ramadan my sins I feed to fast on Eid
I’m a Christian walking with an evil entity.

I’m in a state of contradiction
Balanced yet unbalanced; I’m the problem and solution
I’m a smoker complaining about pollution
Can you see the irony in my conclusion?

I can concentrate
but 
Can’t pocket-pay attention
I have eyes to see 
but
The world perceives for me
I have a brain to think what my mouth could question
but
My heart fears to mention.

If my actions don’t make sense to you count me in
Sometimes you have to lose to win
A good man’s soul can be lost and never found
An evil heart can be love-bound.

Once you perceive the futility in turning a blind eye
Perhaps
You could be 
The change you want to see
The change you want to be.


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The Deadly Dart

Wherever I go through out my whole life,
I end up struggling with lots of strife.
Thinking that my life is a total waste,
Wanting it to be over in a haste.

I can feel the pain inside my own heart,
Like someone through at my a deadly dart.
The wound is easing deeper and deeper,
Will the pain ever stop getting bigger?

Feeling emo is never a good thing,
Cutting your arm makes a really bad sting.
Blood is dripping from my arms and my heart,
Failing to dodge the largest deadly dart.

Drowning in all the lies and self pity,
I live each day but always feel sh*tty.
I have lots of thoughts about suicide,
But then I think about those who have died.

Those who have died not just from suicide,
But also those who are really nice guys.
...
...
...
...This "poem" was actually suppose to be a couplet (on any thing you want) for my english 
class but i made this kind bcuz i was feeling emo that day...and also after i was done i read it 
over and it almost sound like a rap song which, i guess, is kinda funny and cool.........


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Wish to be your Dream

I could not sleep
I could only dream
You come like an Angel
You make my heart gleam

I want to know
The way to your heart
I want to express my love for you
Don’t know how to start

Why cant I talk
When you come near me
I want to give you love that’s true
Why do you scare me

I want to hear you say I love you
Nothing will happen wrong
Do not be afraid
I will keep you happy and strong

Give me your worries
I will give you something to smile
Nothing will remain the same
Everything around will change

I want to hug you
I wish to be your dream
Don’t you ever dream
My dream is you


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THE BOW LEGGED GIRL

      THE BOW LEGGED GIRL
I took all of your tank tops and your hose and your sox,
and I put them all together in a little brown box.
I put all of your dresses and your shoes in a sack,
and I wrapped it up because I knew you're never coming back.

I took your funky records and your Playgirl magazines
and dropped them in the trash with all your green and purple jeans.
I took the clothes I bundled up and gave them away,
to the Salvation Army, it seems like yesterday.

You never told me you were leaving town,
you never told me you were leaving.
You never told me you were leaving town,
you never told me you were leaving.

I met a wino on the street, she looks just like you,
she wears a see through blouse and she walks bow legged, too.
She sings those funky songs and plays the guitar outa sight,
and she takes a bath in cheap perfume like you did every night.

She still sings about Viet Nam and love we don't show,
guess she doesn't know that Viet Nam was 40 years ago.
She's out protesting every day and carries a sign,
 and bites her toenails ev'ry night just like you chewed on mine.

You never told me you were leaving town,
you never told me you were leaving.
You never told me you were leaving town,
you never told me you were leaving.

She has a job but all she'll say, it ain't chopping wood.
And it's funny how her money lasts, and she lives so good.
She bought a brand new car one day, a green Cadillac,
and it's got a bar up in the front and mattress in the back.

I don't know why she thinks she has to work every day,
cause I never had a job I just live on my welfare pay.
She picks her nose and rolls each bugger in a sugar ball,
and just like you used to do, then she eats them all.

You never told me you were leaving town,
you never told me you were leaving.
You never told me you were leaving town,
you never told me you were leaving.

I married her in the park, it seems like yesterday,
and I don't know what I'll do if she doesn't run away.

She brought her uncle home with her from work the other night,
and her uncle and my cousin all got drunk and had a fight.

She got locked in the bedroom with the meter readers dad,
and they had a lot of fun all night, but I felt awful bad.
He took her home with him a while, but she wouldn't stay,
I wish you'd come back home to me, and run her away.

You never told me you were leaving town,
you never told me you were leaving.
You never told me you were leaving town,
you never told me you were leaving.


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My Hidden Pain

When you smile at me i laugh at you
When you laugh at me i smile back
I try and hide the pain and agony I feel
So i left this earth and went to Mars
To live closer to the lovely stars;
You might not think it's true

You say you know me 
You act like you know me
You even talk like you do,
But that's not true

You talk about me like you know me from deep inside
You have even tried to have that denied
But sooner or later i'm gonna die
And no one will care

To you and them it doesn't matter anymore
'Cause I'll be under the soiled floor
I'll be forgotten;
Never spoke of,
I'll be hurt and killed because of love.

No one will miss me 
I'll die with no one's sympathy
They won't even ask what happened to me

Livin' alone i think i hate myself
It's like i'm on the top of a never-ending bookshelf
Feelin' as if i'm gonna fall any second now
I'm gonna die and won't remember how

I'm sayin' to the world "good-bye"
Now i'm gonna ask you this:

Can ya hear my shouts and cries 
Can ya see the tears in my eyes 
Can ya hear, can ya see, can you feel me?

Baby, please...help me
Take the pain away
So i'll never deal with it for
Another day


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Justified anguish

Is pain really worth suffering so much that we're willing to loose it all?
Pills, drugs, alcohol break us down till we crawl.

Tears running down my face, haunting images of the past,
existing in the presence of others as a cast.

There is no therapy for me, for what I've seen and done,
anyone else would find the answers at the end of a gun.

I dare not cheat the one's who care for me or might even love me,
it is the only things that keeps me an obligated detainee.

What am I to do? To bear this suffering and no sanity for release.

My turmoil ignored by most is my curse,
I must endure the reality though be it perverse.

Justified anguish is obvlivious for most,
my burden to bear alone, illusive as a ghost.



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Loving Creatures

The path to happiness is gone
Blocked by the darkness where I belong
Its face a beautiful deceit
Its lips bring my wisdom to its knees

I ache for horror to betray
What’s left of my senses, I simply pray
For passion burning through my thoughts
And in her embrace I will be lost

Her eyes: the mirror of my warmth
Reflecting on surfaces of frost
I barely understand my place
That I am an object for her to waste

My tangled reason can’t recall
The thought of a future where I can’t fall
And I will crawl as I turn back
Into the darkness within my past

Her words have torn into my mind
This orbiting creature has her claws inside
And now I spiral to the start
Cutting her out, she’ll take my heart


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Like A Phoenix

Like a reborn phoenix, I never die under your circumstances.
Shatter my heart once and I’m back in the game with more words in my head to try and make you understand.
But they never come out and I just stare at you like a monster ready to show his true form.
I’m out of words I’m out of time but I’m not in your mind.
It just frustrates me how easy-going your beauty is, never to be compared to any other’s.
I’m here with a voice to call your own.
I’m right here,
next to you
ready to commit suicide at any chance I get.
You wouldn’t let me do that…right?


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Can't Be With You

I know how you feel for me
But im too scared to take a step forward
You know i got hurt before
You dont know how painful it was
I wasnt sure i would even get over it, but i did
Now, nothing is the same
My feelings is unreliable
I know that i like you
I know that i love you
I know that i have fallen for you
And i know that i wanna be with you
But i cant
It's not that easy not wanting to be with you
Cause every moment
I think of you
I think of what your doing
I think of what your thinking
You're on my mind all the time
And sometimes you make me speechless
That cute smile you make
So many great thing i see in you
Makes me wonder if i even deserve you
Now, you're talking to me about the future
Baby i'm not even ready for the present
Tell me what to do
Cause my mind is blank
But my heart is filled with emotions


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I Am

I am the tranquil sea
And you are a stone
Cast upon me,
Creating ripples that
Disturb and disrupt
My natural state,
Leaving me confused as
I desperately try to
Calm my surface.
I am a flower
On a lonely hill
And you are a violent gale,
Pulling and tearing 
Bending my stem
Groping my petals
Ripping my roots 
From the delicious 
Life-giving soil I need
And leaving me bruised,
Broken and violated.
You are lightning-
A fire- 
Igniting my soul
Engulfing me
Leaving me in ashes
The thick tendrils of dust
Choking me, preventing
The sweet, pure oxygen
I crave from reaching
Its destination.
You are the cancer inside me,
The sickness ever growing,
Silently spreading,
And slowly stealing
My life
Away.


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Smeared Mirror

Looking dead at me 
in this smeared mirror...
a lost man tormented; 
face red, brittle and teared

less excuses 
longer I stare
stress abuses 
my conscience with a glare

a guilty reflection alerts me,
"this prison is my fear"
longing for an escape 
and answers to why I’m still here

who have I become? 
what have I done right?
crossroads appear suddenly 
as fog fills the mirror tonight

darkness owning the room,
prefers I suffer slow
so I proceed with speed 
because it’s the only way I know

tasteless stories
flood my life’s hard bound chapters 
while this smeared mirror reflects tears
dripping from a face 
which was once filled with laughter. 


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The Coma

She’s trance-trapped in her own body
With sealed lip yelling for help
Wondering how she got to the dark side
She just felt so boring in there

Her spirit has been un-snugged to an unknown
There she lay ‘deadless’, yes ‘deadless’!
Like a witty wood in the mercies of its creator.
Suddenly, she saw sparks of light with her eyes wild shut

But she knew that what she thought she saw must have been a goof
Or perhaps flashes from blizzards reverie imaginary
Probably as a result of an overdosed procaine-
Well, she prayed it remained a thought.

But what if it wasn’t, what if she was walked through the light?
And she gave up without any brutal effort from her mired state?
But the reflection of what would be of her; her fat bank account; and husband
Or her kins and kindred spirits made her subconsciousness flutter with a silent sound

But when maddening sensation hits her numbness
Feeling the frozen fresh breeze caressing her skin, she mused.
If the claws of heaven had caught her (she wished)
Or was she readied to be autopsied?


She thought of how her tanned skin would be mutilated-
A forgotten feast for some hungry maggots to devour…
It dawned on her, that she must break mute and squirt an SOS sound
A breath, a hiss, or a moan, anything!

Again, she yells, but it was squingy.
She felt like succumbing to the deafness of her mute noise
With open arms, she’d welcome her ensnared delirium, a panic from a dream-
As she still can’t feel anything and herself…

She’s trance-trapped in her own body
With sealed lip yelling for help
Wondering how she got to the dark side
It just felt so boring in there

PS: the light walked through her.


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Witless Witness

Lets get down to business,
Imma bout to quit this as God as my witness,
Coming back from class, in one of my civics
The next tree I see, Sh*t I think ,I'm gonna hit this
But my stick shift did not shift, now i sit in ditches 
this is 600 dollars that I don't have to fix this
I guess I'd admit this, cause I'm done with sickness
Of the mind, see I've been, out of mine,
Half an hour, in the shower,
Praying some evil power,
Doesn't come through my spine,
Looking like Bill Cowher,
As I cower from the scour,
Like a clam becoming chowder,
I'm a coward devoured,
By all these damn thoughts,
That keep getting louder,
Burns like whiskey sour, 
So pale, I went from me being green,
To cauliflower.


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Here All Alone

everythings gone 
and i am alone
left to wonder
nowhere to call home

i hide in  my thoughts
to keep out the fear
like where could they be
it's been over a year

i eat and i sleep
they're gone night and day
i don't really care
i've got nothing to say

everyones gone
and i'm all alone
left to myself
my feelings arn't known

here by myself
i finally see
that the person who's gone
is realy just me


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Time To Let Go

I'm depressed
Confused
My anger- fueled by the words "I love you."
I'm under the stars
Ice cold rain smashing the ground like Thor's hammer through a skull.
Yeah I'm mad
Crazy
Insane
Angry
And f#cked up, but my insanity can convert back to sanity
And my anger can and will be tamed like a wild boar.
I will scrap those three words, but I won't forget your face

Yes I act like an animal
Because THAT is how we started.
I'm happy to have met you in all your clothed magnificent glory...but it's time that I let go.


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The Escapist's Plea

When you can longer run away from yourself
When you thought there were no more tears to cry
When you just want to die
Living like this consumed by the façade of a million lies
So many years, so many days
Waking up to people who no longer care you're there
You ask how can this be, one short organic vitality
Wasted with living; the slowest way to die

The shadows of shame weigh you down 
Until you drown, filled with only their hate
All you can turns grey, and all you ever loved fades
The agony is all you know, thank you pain
A self-sadist Is all you have become, j
ust how they showed you, craving so much more
Just to hide up all of the misery
But under cloth it still bleeds

This is the Escapist's Plea
For the one who fall to their knees in misery
Trying to stay sane but fall under September's rain
Dying from the invisible disease, only you can see
Stigmatized by their sadistic need
Only if I could just fly away
...Fly Away


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Death Meets Love

I got trapped in the dark 
the cancer creeps closer towards my heart 
I cant stand the pain that starts

they put a needle in me 
my heart stops beating 
I cant hear my thoughts or what im feeling

everything seems cluttered 
I stand here in a daze 
but your face starts to fade

I start to loose my feeling 
my hands are numb and my toes wont budge
my brain stops working 
little flakes peel off my heart

my heart turns gray 
I cant wait to fly away
in the light I shall go 

somewhere else but my home
where pain meets pleasure and death meets love


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Loving Monsters

I wake to comfort in disdain
A monster I don’t want to tame
Incentive aided by her name
The spiteful creature known as shame

All the pleasure I will seek
And all the horror I will wreak
The chill of knowing all too well
I want my life to become hell

The burning ways I seek to end
This underlying competence
For seeking a final way to break
The curse that took my breath away

My spirit trembling at my feet
In silence underneath its sheet
The monster I was to defeat
Became the creature known as me

With all the endings I create
And all the knowledge I retake
I can’t replace the name engraved
In my heart, I take this to my grave

She’s a monster, but in her eyes
I too am a creature in disguise
And beneath the thousand burning lies
I will love this creature until I die


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cycle of foolishness continues

every year these streets get hotter and more cats burn
in and out of the beast belly taking turns
too many stories on lost potential
all they know is iced grill, steel,and street credentials

I not a hypocrite I'm well aware of what I did
walking that fine line between a man and a kid

I stayed drunk on the regular day in and day out
back when Private Stock use to make the 64 oz

I was clueless my ruthlessness getting me by
only plan for the day was get highs and survive

I was so young and restless
reminiscence on my first stick, first time I took some bodies necklace


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My what ifs

This slippery slope, owning 5 years
It claims my thoughts, 
Splits my heart, 
And fraction’s loyalty

Bleeding dry
Yet wet with tears
I dream of you
And my what ifs 

Always.

Upon that night, you saved, you grew
I saw you hero
Indent my spirit
And commandeer.

Bleeding dry
Yet wet with tears
I think of you
And my what ifs 

Always.

You gift and play, upon request
Yet look deeply
Of free will, 
Reflected, shinning

Bleeding dry
Yet wet with tears
I feel of you
And my what ifs 

Always.


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No values

Fire pours from my eyes and burns through your heart
You may feel smarter now, and then you may depart


People like you sicken me
You’re so busy with your self-righteous greed 
Better than everyone else you act as though your gold 
A little fire to your heart I’ll melt you down cold
 
Teach your treacherous ways to your youth
Walk around with your nose in the air all aloof 
Today’s parents don’t have time to teach 
In to your pockets you may reach 

Spoiling your kids with gifts and money 
They’ll be looking for more by the time there 20 
You'll be  worn out like an old towel 
When there done with you they’ll sit a scowl 

Teaching no values no religion too 
Look what the worlds become because of people like you. 



(This poem is for someone that  upsets me not for anyone here! )
  


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Doubts on Leaving Home

How will I know if this day is right for me?
I have waited oh so long to do what needs to be.
But, is the first step, the best thing, for me to do?
How will I be able to know if… all will work out true?

The first day is the hardest, but what will happen if I fail?
How can I continue forth, if everything is to no avail?
There will be no back up as I stand there all alone.
What, oh what, will happen when I am on my own?

The world is so frightening, at the very best of times.
How can I know that this… is really the right time?


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Nowhere

Looks like I'm at the end of this bottle again.
Seems like cigarettes are my only friend.
Newports, no shorts, they're still never long enough.
Man, staying here never felt so rough. 

And I'm back to about a pack a day.
I'm just waiting for my lungs to cave in or give way
To a breath of fresh air, yeah that would be cool,
But once again I'm just a hopeful fool. 

Sometimes I wish that I could just go.
Runaway, find a place that I've never known.
Yeah that would be so nice.
Think it out, write it down, and scream it twice,
But for now I'll just way more time and 
Sometimes I wish I could just go.
Runaway, find a place that I've never known.
Man that would be so nice.
Think it out, write it down, and scream it twice,
But for now I'll just way more time and

I never thought I could drink so much.
Comfortably numb I've lost every touch.
Maybe someday I'll climb out to the top
And find some new ways to every stop.

Maybe someday I'll be out of my way.
Find someone to give me the heart to stay.
Maybe someday I'll be at the top of somewhere
Because down here in nowhere I know that nobody cares. 

Sometimes I wish that I could just go.
Runaway, find a place that I've never known.
Yeah that would be so nice.
Think it out, write it down, and scream it twice,
But for now I'll just waste some more time and 
Sometimes I wish that I could just go.
Runaway, find a place that I've never known.
Man that would be so nice.
Think it out, write it down, and scream it twice,
But for now I'll just waste some more time and

I've finally had it with dreams of out there.
With my bottle and cigarettes I'm lost in Nowhere.


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Light my bridge

T. Hunt
Verse/intro: I remember you showed me that path,
When you paved the road for existence. 
 ~Showed me all the cracked doors, broken escapes, and then the darkness.
I can barely remember the look in your eyes my demise I realized “deaths” upon us.
~So show me the way to ignite this fight let destiny control us.~ Inferno on fire like human desire it burns we perspire and it forgets us. So where does this lead I can’t see I can’t breathe I can’t speak I can’t eat I can’t….think.
Chorus: ~This fire in our lives just burns and burns I’ve seen the light and now this hurts. And through the night the devil lurks so light my bridge like fireworks and catch me in the middle…..~”ALL alone”
Verse 2 I’m searching for the black door “that’s unknown remembering the times when they closed. |~Forget about the painted rose the times I let my heart get cold. This is real. ~Stuck in the middle of life helplessly buried alive. This bridge is breaking my pride so somebody turn on a light. ~The darkness is flowing inside it’s almost if I was..To dive. Running and running while blind is like walking right out of your life.

Chorus:~ This fire in our lives just burns and burns I’ve seen the light and now this hurts.
And through the night the devil lurks so light my bridge like fireworks and catch me in the middle…..~”ALL alone”
~Alone __{reapeat 4x’s}___________
The  lights turned on this bridge is long.

Side bar:P
I=speak
“=influence{pause}
Tempo at 4/4 time 
~=tempo change
All original
No copywrite nessasary.


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Lies Become Life

These are my scars
And I know they haven't gotten me far
But it's complicated
And this is who I am to be

They say everything happens for a reason
Well I have two cents worth a dime
To say nothing good about that line

This isn't really fair
I didn't ask for you to take it this way
I can't just walk away anymore
Keeping my head from that door
Your tricks don't keep it away anymore

This is how I choose it to be
It's the closest I am drowning to be free
And just leave me and let me see

Theres only one way to get it all away
I will stop at nothing and think it all off
Just play that beat and watch me hit the wall

This isn't really fair
I didn't ask for you to take it this way
I can't just walk away anymore
Keeping my head from that door
Your tricks don't keep it away anymore

I won't let you down
And hit the floor
There's apart of me thinking,
I can't do this anymore

I'm truly convinced
That telling you this lie
Will make it the truth in my life

I wont let us down
I'll keep my guard around
And watch my head hit the door
Am bound to fall down
My tears hit the floor
As I lay down
I know I ain't coming back for more

This isn't really fair
I didn't ask for you to take it this way
I can't just walk away anymore
Keeping my head from that door
Your tricks don't keep it away anymore


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Son Of A Gun

I was born half human half demon
Killer of love
I was born with a gun in my hand
The Son of a gun
Satan Worshiper
A Natural Born Killer

I walk down the hallway
Hiding my gun in my trench coat
Wearing my hat backwards
My combat boots
And my army pants
Sunglasses hiding my face

I wait for you in the Library
As i approach you
You run and hide
Under a table
Me taking my gun out of my trench coat
Holding it towards your face
You cry
Your freaking out

Your last tear hits the floor
I pull the trigger
You were the guy
That made fun of me
Calling me a freak
Tripping me in the hallway

Remember throwing bloody tampons
In my face?
Calling me gay?
Telling everyone about my personal pains?
Ive got you now
You cant hurt me anymore
But i can still hurt you

Dedicated to ~4-20-99~ "Columbine Massacre"
Eric Harris and Dylan Klebold

"We can stop bullying, if we honestly tried"

"You could have prevented this school shooting, if you would have just listened to the kids who did it"






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Feeling My Pain

I’m feelen the pain 
and I’m hurten again
I’m somebody’s fool -here sitten on this bar stool
Tied to your chain

Bleeden like a hog
Getten drunk as a dog
I’m liven in a dream world- made up make believe world
Feeling my pain

Feeling my pain
Of loven you  again
Where I’m gona go now
How my gona stand now
while lying in  the pouren rain

Loves gone away
Pains come back to stay
I’m feelen the strain now
Hurten again now 
Feelen my pain

You’d said you’d be true
Not to make me a fool
But you slipped up again now- lied to me again now
Cause you’re the girl of my dreams

I can’t get away
You’re in my heart to stay
I’m liven in a dream world  - made up make believe world
Feeling my pain


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First-generation student

As an evanescent quietness falls into my room
While a stream of breeze air invades the living room,
A new, unborn poem waves in my blurred thought,
Endeavoring to keep me from being distraught.

I’m desperate; I deserve even a better cabin.
Thus, my mind is abiding a religious doctrine
In the purpose of enriching my knowledge
By meeting standards to get enrolled in college.

Inspiration is sometimes a key to survive.
Joel Osteen, you keep my lost dream alive.
But, the cryptic concept of life is the absurd.
Will my celestial request remain unanswered?

To avoid failure and exhibit one’s braveness,
To gain success and the pursuit of happiness,
Virtuosity must be laid open rather than latent
For a high-achieving, first-generation student.


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A THOUGHT THAT BAFFLES A SOUL

What if I die, would I be a bother?
If I drawn, would love come to me from another?
Thin as air, I float among “others”
All of my past, my sadness, my hopes, my dreams, my lovers…
Vanish! Lost! To the edge of unknown…
Solitude, a heartbeat away…
For only me, my thoughts, there we lay
A sight, a movement…invisible to the “others”
Who are the “others”?
Fathoms of my past imagination?
 Specimens of my own creation?
Now I sit here, and write..
Awaiting salvation
A reincarnation of myself, if you will!!
For my time here is done
My journey is complete…
Away! Away! I go
Where?, I am yet to know?
A lifetime I waste on useless beliefs
That peace lies within the heart of many
Or, those fiendish deeds do not in fact transpire by any
No sweet thought to hold on too
Life: every inspiration you made 
Every motivation you crafted,
And every moral you imparted
was all a sham, and I was its sad sad target
You taught me once not to measure life by the yard
Or to whimper when the days gone hard

But now I must question!
I question at this time if the sky is really blue
Or if cars really run on fuel…
A Baffled soul is what I am
So away! Away! I go
Where? I am yet to know…


                                                             ~M.M.M


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Halloween's Song

Its your Halloween rave, having your mascaraed
With all your best friends from back in the day
Liz Lauren and Blake and while they're dressed like skanks
I'm on the front line of battle
Howlin like jackle with A real nasty cackle
puttin a razor blade in the sack of Blake's apples
crack in Lauren's snapple
Staddle Liz like mclovin
But I am more like faghole As I babble at her ass
Axe her fast and mash her up like cattle
Sneak back and tackle your dad and put him in shackles
Shove sour patch kids Down your trap and gaggle
Its abominable, so unbelievable
But its inevitable, the end is kissable
I have rattled these kids psyches 
squirming like a centipede, cutting them like celery 
hear their squeamish screams echo in the streets
as the  creepy bells of the chapel ring


I remain a mystery
You'll need nancy drew, and at least 3 of the hardee boys to find what I'm up to
Theres this gloom that looms down in your basement room
Consuming shrooms, enhaling fumes to escape your doom
Witches zoomin by on their brooms makin sonic booms
Quick call scooby doo, but I killed him too
You heard a loud pound cause I cut the fuse so you
Run away to a motel room, assuming your safe
And As you look the other way,
I got my fangs in your veins and stranglin your neck
Too bad you didn't text your friends to tell them who is next
Hmm let me think for a sec. As Hex your boy  rex 
with an incessant twitch, till he is dead in a ditch
Hang him from bunny man bridge
Yo dude turn the lights on
But there's no flip to switch , I have flipped the script
Its bewitched with no miss to kiss
Exorcist with no priest to dismiss the spirit

So the town clock strikes half past 3
There's one last gas before i must sleep
Or i will crash fast if the light touches me
Put on the mask jack, just like the sixth scream 
I need to grasp havoc, till i hear shrills and shrieks
Please back rabbit, these chills aint for teens
As I stick a cherry bomb in your moms exhaust pipe
Run up on you  with nine a knife, and the head of your wife
Its useless I'm the nuisance that's abusive yet conducive
To your fear that I am near So close I could whisper in your ear
Smell the shampoo in your hair Wipe the floor with your tears
And as you look up in the mirror
I'm there ready to smear your blood all over the chair
as I stab you with my spear I crush a coors beer then
Leave you re crops there dead, red spread on the floor
But I hear a knock on the door
Are you okay honey? "Yes mommy,  just got a cold sore"


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FULL MOON-LUNATICS ARE COMING OUT TONIGHT

FULL MOON-LUNATICS ARE COMING OUT TONIGHT
The situation don't look too good tonight.
There's gonna be a full moon tonight.
I'd stay at home, if I could, tonight,
there's gonna be a full moon tonight.
I feel it coming, 
there will be strangers out tonight.

Every strange thing that you see. 
Every act of lunacy,
happens in this lunar glow, 
where they come from, I don't know,
but it must be lunacy.

Lunatics are coming out tonight.
It's a full lunar situation, tonight.
Strange goings on, will go on tonight, 
there's gonna be a full moon tonight.

Every stranger that you know, 
comes out in this lunar glow.
Every strange thing happens when, 
there's a full moon out again,
and when it's full, they all know!

Lunatics are coming out tonight.
It's a full lunar situation, tonight.
Strange goings on, will go on tonight, 
there's gonna be a full moon tonight.
              © ron wilson aka vee bdosa


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Last Laugh

I'll sit here in silence, light up my cigarette. With each burning drag I'll pretend to forget. 
   All the hurt and the pain that I'm feeling inside. And each shot I drink, brings a false sense of pride. 

   I'm a monster a bad ass, that no one's seen yet. I've lived a good life and I have no regrets. 
   But in this broken state of mine, in the worlds eyes I'm a mess. So I try to tell myself, that my last laugh will be best. 

And you think. You have me figured out. And you believe. You're right without a doubt. 

But last time I checked, we've got nothing to prove. Everything we gain in life, we all stand to lose. 
So have your fun enjoy yourself, pointing out my flaws. Your hypocritical ways, are the root of my cause. 

I'm a monster a bad ass, that no one's seen yet. I've lived a good life but I have my regrets. 
And in this broken state of mine, in my friends eyes I'm a mess. But still I remind myself, my last laugh will be best. 

And you think. You have me figured out. And you believe. I'm only filled with doubt. 
And you think. I've simply given up. But I believe. I've simply lost my trust. I've simply lost my trust. I've simply lost my trust. 

So I'll sit here in silence, put out my cigarette. The taste and the smell will, linger on my breath. 
A few more shots down, and I still have no pride. You've woken up my demons, I have nothing to hide. 

I'm a monster a bad ass, that no one's seen yet. I've lived a good life but I'm filled with regret. And in this broken state of mine, in my own eyes I'm a mess.  So I try to lie to myself, my last laugh will be best. 

And you think. You have me figured out. And I'll admit. I'm filled with to much doubt. 
And you believe. I'm just caught in a rut. But I believe. I've simply given up. I've simply given up. I've simply given up!




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DIGGING INTO THE BEATLES' MIND

How much sorrow can you take,
when all you think of is true joy?
Very lonely but not hopeless
until another sunrise comes...
you will be wishing, wide-awake,
for the sweet lips of that young boy!


O lonely girl listening to music and imagining love,
you shouldn't get wings and turn into a dove,
because boys don't believe in keeping promises...
they find another foolish girl somewhere else!
O lonely girl barely fourteen refrain from desire,
that desire that can only end up in dire!


It's okay to dream as teens do to vent their rage,  
it's fine to have a fantasy and wait for the phone to ring;  
and it's quite normal to think of boys at this age,
but be warned of the first heartbreak from a tender wink,
it may lead to something you are not ready for,
so keep on dreaming and shut that darn door!


Towards midnight you hear his voice again and feel fine,
it must be one of those dreams when he says, " Little doll,
you are the prettiest one among others so slim and tall!"
And he goes on, " I made you a promise you'll be all mine!"
Oh, dreamer so innocent: a pillow case is all you hold,
he's not yours by any means...he's a teaser and way too old!  
 

Your silly head is listening to the song he wrote,
a lovely love song he sent to your cellphone,
falling in love is not learned from a romance book:
words mislead and confuse the ones who are alone;
you may love him dearly, but all he does is using you for his own delight... 
he may love you, but he'll sing his song to someone who's not too bright.       


Inspired by the following songs:

Across The Universe
Lady Madonna
Lucille
Lonely Rita
Blackbird
Northern Song


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Falling To Pieces

Falling to Pieces…

A little more cliché just to make it through the day
Because there are no new ways to say the things I feel
I believe this is an ending 
But I have yet to see the new beginning
Or am I even faintly aware
Of whether one will start as the other finishes
No how or why, no when or where
But I believe an end is coming
Because I am falling to pieces…
The crack in the mirror
Reflects an image of me, to myself as I’m
Falling to pieces…

Hard to find the time to sort out in my mind
All of the wrongs now right and all of the rights now wrong
No doubt we are at a crossroad
And for now just plain standing still
The calm before the storm
And the weather can’t seem decide if it wants to change
No how or why, no when or where
But I do believe an end is near
Much nearer than the new beginning
And I am falling to pieces…
The crack in the mirror reflects the image I see
And it is me, as I’m falling to pieces…


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The Labor Of Love

Thank you God for all that you have given me
You pulled me through, the worst 5 years of my life
But I realize for the first time, I am truly living my life
On a journey with no worries, The view is blurry
But as long as my love for you is burning
I am as clam as the breeze, as still as the trees
though I dont know what is going to happen to me
I have feeling If i give you everything
Put my hand in your glove
Im going to accomplish things I never could never dream of
Allow me to stand above, those who chucked me under the bus
Shoved me into the mud, I trust that you will not sort of or kind of
But fully dispose of my enemies, who cussed at you through shunning me
So we have no other option than to be thrusted to number one, Its a must
that my light for you is more lumious than the sun
Leave the oposition studdering and stunned
Doing it all in the name of your son, Jesus
This is how I must live my life, I call it The Labor of Love
Something I can not get enough of, I maybe under the gun
But Im still focused on fun,  People need to wake up
 and smell the scents, it all makes sense
when you make the change in your brain
Get rid of the thoughts of peformance
That drive you insane, realize your mistakes
Are indications that we need to shift our focus
To Jesus, No need to be anxious
 Its not about the perfection rather the persistance
Then the weight of the world will be lifted
You can live life how it was inteded
As care free as adam and eve.


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Confusion

Up and down
My feet are no longer situated on the ground
I'm losing my focus
My minds a buzz of locusts
The world is spinning round
Up and down
Is the sky still blue?
Or has that changed too?
Is the grass still green?
That remains to be seen!
It's all just a blur
Full of doubt, I'm unsure
Up and down
Is this a smile or a frown
Nothing's the same
It's a whole new game
And yet life moves on
And the past is gone
Only the future remains


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Floating

High above us- turning the waves;
Boiling in light of what we have made.
Floating away, don't leave me soon.
The seas are at torment under the moon.

And I don't quite know what storms may come,
Washing away the sky and the sun.
With the wind smelling of sweet despair,
I wake on the sands to find you're not there.

And I don't understand what you try for.
Isolated on land and yearning for so much more.
I know, I know, you'll escape soon.
Riding the waves under the moon.


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Sorhleod

It was the myriad relapse The shadows perched, time slipped, the temptation resided to my mind I'm sure I have most the soul I never once had Lost; once you go into the dark eternal black there's no hope of dreaming of atoning back Small child I cling to you trying to savor the innocence When I could believe in everything again I tried All along to search for the truth But " the truth" is something that the truth eradicated I want to be ignorant again Can't face reality again Cease the pain that the pills can't heal Evaporate the blood that negates the strife Let me believe in everything again Break the fear Remove the pins of reality And I still wonder why And I still wonder why "forgive" makes me cry I can't make it stopThe razor beckons my name The scars and all their Shame... Find a way to pierce my serpent heart Through the iron membrane it's bleeding, I know When I have no cigarettes to burn When I have no more knowledge to Learn When I have no more xanax To cause concern I've dried out My heart is loosing it's touch There's no way out The abuse and abyss has sealed me Cease the pain that the pills can't heal Evaporate the blood that negates the strife Let me believe in everything again Break the fearRemove the pins of reality And I still wonder why And I still wonder why "forgive"makes me cry I've dried out My heart is loosing it's touch There's no way out The abuse and abyss has sealed me I've dried out tMy heart is loosing it's touch There's no way out The abuse and abyss has sealed me


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Shining Sun

new song/poem! :) ------------------------------------------------------------------------------------------------------- I look outside my window Watch the rain fall down like tears Hoping that someday It’ll wash away my fears But they never clear They never go away And they haunt me every single minute Of every single day Maybe someday This will all just turn to dust I’ll just do what I need— Just do what I must… Without you Without you Here Find it in your heart To have a little care Find it in your heart To know that I am there Find it in your heart I know you think I’m strange But find it in your heart To believe that I can change With you With you Here I write this down in sadness Wishing you can see Knowing that none of it Makes sense to you or me And there’s nothing here There’s nothing I can say To make the clouds depart And the icky mood to fade I hope that someday When I am old and gray I’ll just laugh a sigh and wonder: What the hell was wrong with me? Find it in your heart To see me through the pane Find it in your heart To unchain me from this chain Find me in your heart I know that I am young But find it in your heart To make me someone Forever— And ever Your shining sun


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The Rebel

Dank, cold, unperturbed indifference,
Untouchable, yet touching all,
Unresolved in meaning,
Still creating each and every fall,
Every whim and leaning.

Touché pas! A cry of weary hate,
And will not accept a helping hand,
‘Till death! Brazen adverse in face of fate,
And alone in piteous stand…

Lone wolf we cry, thy fate is nigh,
Yet stands he still resisting,
That love should die, that only tie,
In error still persisting…


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It Wasn't Love

Lying on my bed thinking what I'd said.
Butterflies in me ready their wings to fly,
Preparing for the colors to brighten up my sky.
But should you never think that we're okay
'Cause I confuse it with my feelings too.

It wasn't really love.
Something there that I'm reaching for,
I'd care to you but it wasn't never been love.
Baby, no matter what I try,
Love to you maybe but it was never enough.

Something must have been changing,
But you and I just don't know 'bout love, now I'm not crying.
Baby, how dare you ask me to stay?
And don't confuse it with my feelings too!

It wasn't really love.
Something there that I'm reaching for,
I'd care to you but it wasn't never been love.
Baby, no matter what I try,
Love to you maybe but it was never enough.


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Lack of Life

Numbness, a quality I purge
Just to acquire the truest hurt
The weight of nothing to believe
Is nothing beside this failing need

This conflict summons up my past
Again I will fade, and simply laugh
This madness more a pointless game
The more I insist upon my pain

At least I feel my own end near
At least I exist for hatred’s fear
To wake up finding I’m unknown
Finding this child will die alone

Numbness again, I beg and pray
To awake in the future, to a better day
Where all I was could turn to light
Shine in the pain of the darkest night

But all I am is made of loss
My will is reborn to repay the cost
And back to numbness I will drift
Repent then awake, and again to this


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Beyond What's Seen

You do not know what I see
I see you crying next to me
I see your pain, I see your tears
Through your laughs, and through the years
Past your mask I see your face
You are hiding in this place
Trust in me, I won't let you fall
You don't have to hide at all

Open up what's in your heart
That is the place I will start
Open up your eyes and see
All that's left is you and me
In the end you'll see the light
Come on, I don't want to fight
Together we will make it through
Come on. Now, It's me and you

Now you can start to feel
How much this love is true and real 
behind your eyes you keep your pain
It's all locked up in your brain
Come on. Now, just let it out
It's okay to scream and shout
I will help you through and through
I will always be with you


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EYE Don't See -Part 1-

My eyes
Pour forth feelings
That I’ve felt in the past
They make my heart ache…
Take it all away…
Oh my God…
They’re making me sink in dismay

When will they break away?
When will they give me a break?

And I’m left in my solitude…
Do you hear me weeping?
And I’m close to my demise…
Only to find myself disappear…
When will peace draw near?

Eye don’t see
A happy ending in this scene 

My eyes
Journeys into the unknown
Who knows what will happen…
They’re like hidden treasure…
They’re buried far below…

And I’m left in my solitude…
My eye’s weeping…
And I’m close to my demise…
Only to find myself disappear…
When will peace draw near? 

Oh my God…
They’re driving me insane
When will they see my reflection?
When will they heal the infection?

Eye don’t feel
Raindrops of hope and relief 
All I feel…is grief…
Eye sense no peace…

And I’m left in my solitude…
My eye’s sagging…from endless mourning  
And I’m close to my demise… 
Only to find myself disappear…
When will peace draw near?

Does He hear
My supplications?
Does He sense 
My fear?

My eyes
Conceals the tears that dare to spew out
I feel trapped and lost without a doubt…
They erase my delight…
They seek my hurt…
Oh my God…
They’re casting me away into the perilous sea

And I’m left in my solitude…
My eye’s weeping…
And I’m close to my demise…
Only to find myself disappear…
When will peace throw out my fear?

Eye don’t see
A ship in sight…to save me from my demise
My lifeless body...
Drifts away in the wild ocean...
Without a sound...
Without emotion...

Eye don’t see
A rope to hold on to…
My hope for peace
Has drowned…


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Escape from

To deep for the mind to alleviate the confusion of illusion
Everything that shines isn’t equivalent to the brightness of the sun
Perhaps your son perceives a false impression about life and what it means to 
be bright
While his views are constantly an illusion that it’s cool to deceive,
Life is definitely not fake no matter how false you are while living
Life doesn’t rewind itself because you decide to stop sinning
What you portray while living is what you & the world holds onto
Only those who’s not lured into confusion & illusion would see past the delusion 
and recognize a righteous path leading to a door
 Not an exit
Just a place to replace what’s not beautiful but even there deception can creep 
upon you. 


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My Fit Of Rage June 14 2011

The voices replay in my head over and over again,
they are beginning to sound like a broken record.
I'm screaming inside to make them stop,
it seems as though my voice is the only voice not heard.

Tons of hostility I have stored bottled up inside,
I'm like a ticking time bomb ready to explode.
In a instant, I can fly into a full blown rage,
to carry such a heavy load.

The shaking begins, now the rage is taking control
and the only thing I see is red.
Like a tornado ripping through all in it's path, 
the thunder is pounding inside my head.

Weighed down by all this anger inside,
I am locked within my own rage.
I can't turn it off or make it go away,
I'm stuck within the parameters of my cage.

I would give anything to be considered normal, tell me,
"How do I make it all go away?
What will it take?
What's the price I would have to pay?"

A stamp in my file that I'm stuck with for life,
labeled now and that will never change.
A danger to myself and everyone I'm around,
I'm clinically crazy, totally insane and indefinitely strange.


A remake of Fits of Rage


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what it is

baby you're confused
disillusioned about who's being used
exchange your body for jewels
then laugh like they're the fools

I know you're so tunnel visioned cause your mission is paper
but shed tears in the dark cause that's when sadness invades ya
you know the game advertise your  aass and titties
but through your souls windows your pupils pleads for pity

but still she club like she crazy
her mom raising her babies
little daughter taking it in probably grow the same way

you need to stop and try to raise your kids
cause what it is ain't what you think it is
but what it is you need to analyze your actions
i know you taking giant steps but you walking backwards


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Remember

Remember when...

you were allowed to say what. Was on your mind?
When we were able to think of something better for ourselves?
When you could turn to a friend for help?
Do you remember when the world was cleaner?

Remember...

when you fell out of the second floor and broke your arm?
When your parents weren't around to tell you they care and love you?
How you were perfect to them?
Like how you were able to call yourself clean, smart, and honest?

Feels like forever huh?
Since you were able to talk to yourself without people thinking your crazy

Do you remember?


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My Friend The Piano

You carried my emotions from the start
Each emotion bound in the small black note
Each one coming straight from my chilly heart
The music you make is my antidote
Through the preludes my comfort softly lay
By way of mazurkas my soul does fly
But to divulge you must learn how to play
Although learning is not a piece of pie
Piano brings emotions around town
You have the power to bring my heart up
Or throw me on the floor and beat me down
There are hard times when I just want to cup
My hands in my face and rock back and forth
And think Piano is a friend of worth	


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A Smile to Hide the Pain

A part from my Journal

when i sit at my home with my family
i see they all look the same they act the same
dress the same and think the same 
soon theyll discover that i dont belong

they want me to be plastic like them
but i cant i wont let them take me
my poems have been about depression
heartache and pain ever since i started 
it dont seem to heal the wound
the scars i carry and the pain that bleeds from my soul

i cant really pour out my feelings for you
its hard for you to understand
no one knows me because i wont let them in
i wont let them see the truth behind the person 
that they imagine me to be

the smile everyone wears on a sunday morning is only
a wall they put up to hide there pain
so i tuck it all away and act like im okay
so everyone will see me the way that i see them

Shayla Dendinger


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Finding the Puzzle

It is an organised disarrangement 
Quite arranged in a disarray 
Prepared to confuse you 
For you to right the confusion. 

It is a thoughtful arrangment 
For you to think very well about 
Any misplacement you do 
Gives it a wrong placement. 

The answer is always there 
But it takes your deep thoughts 
Wrong answer complicates the setting 
Yet only a correct step away. 

Look difficult when lightly assessed 
Could take your whole time solving 
Yet easy with a deep thought approach 
Taken less than no time solving. 

It is an activity for sharp minds
Tasking the store of knowledge 
Who look for the connecting piece 
That makes the puzzle a clarity.


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Always Away

He pushes me away

Every day

I can't stand

when he's not holding my hand

But he pushes me down

I cry with a frown

And as i run away

I can't stop to say

That i was in love

It must've been a mistake, i can't love

Not when he treats me this way

Oh he's pushing me away

And yet he took my breath away

When I saw him walk in today

Through my stomach was tight

I almost could pretend I was alright

But he took off without saying a word

As I stood there feeling so awkward, so absurd

He texts me his apology

Nice to know just what he thinks of me

That he can tell his phone much later

But it just makes the pain much greater

Cause though I've not shed a single tear

I feel like I've cried for many a year

He's supposed to be

My fantasy

The one to hold 

when life gets old

Someone I can cry to, and let him cry to me

But nothing in my life plays out quite happily


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Therion

Slayer of dreams and reality Bow down to his Therion Majesty Vowed to Be beyond Spiritual Supremacy, But too Frail, but too Weak, Were these words of The Transgressor of Our Argentine Destiny Reigned with Blood And with Blood You shall Fall Never denounce the ways of The Wicked For the Wicked you Have Become I'm Not your gracious Jesus Christ, Saving you from the blood-sodden Ice, But you Are The Beast Therion Majesty Can't control your own destiny The one who used to fight monsters, Became a Monster Himself Look beyond the Book, See the Truth lying there, Gagged and Hooked, Silence screaming to Be Free The Draconian Revelation Will Save thee The same Cold Pressure has erupt inside The Beast dwells in your Pride Dipped in Argentine and Insanity, Captivated by the touch Never looking beyond the Sin, For the Scene remains Empty I'm Not your gracious Jesus Christ, Saving you from the blood-sodden Ice, But you Are The Beast Therion Majesty Can't control your own destiny The one who used to fight monsters, Became a Monster Himself In your mind When the world Falls, Parodiso will open her halls But not for you, Inferno Cries out for you Forever Malaoda will Be your destiny I'm Not your gracious Jesus Christ, Saving you from the blood-sodden Ice, But you Are The Beast Therion Majesty Can't control your own destiny The one who used to fight monsters, Became a Monster Himself


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An Unmet Expectation

“Expectation is the root of  all heartache”
Those fine words that were once read
Now every vital syllable is felt
Before them I was misled
With false yearning I was fed
I voluntarily injected myself with anticipation and adoration 
And sadly I failed to infuse you with the same potion
All this lead to an empty commotion 
An inner hidden turmoil of some sort
And like a shattered plate my heart fell to the ground
Living in a mirage of high expectancy and wishful thinking
Yet this hope has been misplaced
It took an epiphany to shatter my nerves and alert my senses 
That Fraud of an appeal was the stem to my heartache 
A moment of awareness mixed with the residue of regret
Denial the first step of any anguish
Molding my image of you that you have now tarnished 
Looking for some sort of justification
Like a patriot for his fallen nation
Denial Denial Denial
It rings and sings in my ear
Like a gong struck with intensity
It rang and vibrated through my ear majestically
Now my mind to you it fakes a false conspiracy 
To justify such actions I can stay hours pondering upon
Yet one day the truth will hit me
So tonight I choose to rid myself of it all
Before I crumble and fall
Tonight I rid myself of it and u…
I rid myself of it all…


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Hold Me Now

Maybe this isnt something to say
to someone like you
someone i could never be
something i dont want anyone to see
so ill hold it in
until i explode
hold me now 
im standing on the edge of
the bridge
nothing to hold on to
I only want someone to save me
but how can you if your blind
and you cannot see the dangers around you
so you keep them until they get so close
to your face and finally explode
then you see
hold me now
cause im already 6 feet into the ground


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Children with Masks

Broken in your shadow
And lost within your light
The child who chooses ego
And the man who wants to fly

Embracing every sanctum
Which enshrines your dying cause
To be the one to save you
And forget those scars and sores

The love you now desire
The only good you've known
Will end with how it started
In the pain that you have grown

With loneliness now clinging
Your memory rotting out
You chase the same old reasons
That will make you scream and shout

Your heart now lacks forgiveness
For what you have become
The spiral-end of nothing
Mistaking blindness for the sun

A visage of perfection
This man is just a mask
It reflects your hate on others
As the child selfishly attacks


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My Savior

Savior of mine
I call out to you
Save me from myself
and all I believe that is true.
For my heart is aching inside
and I know not what to do.

Take me by the hand
Guide me to a far away land.
Allow me to escape myself once and for all.

I know not what my future brings
I know not where this path leads
However I do know,
that my heart bleeds 

Savior of mine
Stop this aching pain
Free my soul
from its evil reign.

For life without you,
is lived only in vain.

Savior of mine
I give myself to you
Broken and scared
For this is all that I can do.

For with you
nothing of myself
will remain
From this point on
I can only gain.

Thank you for saving me
This unworthy soul is now set free.


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The Rose

You confessed your love for me through a single white rose I smiled genuinely, yet then you turned to hurt me, leaving me behind...lost and alone The rose was nothing but poison to my heart, for 'twas you the evildoer, pressing my finger into its very thorn As the blood inside of me ran cold, deep red drops from the cursed stem silently fell into the snow. I couldn't believe that your intentions were as such, I thought you once promised that you would forever love me... Why risk betraying all of my trust? I cannot see the angel I once glimpsed in your beautiful face... It is now replaced by a mysterious raven, forever intending to be my disgrace My like will remember that winter of December, when you gave me that simple white rose now stained red will fade to black My tears fall and the love I will soon take back as I return the very rose into your cold hand, pale and scarred Your body frozen, so cold and numb as you lie abandoned, mutilating my heart, throwing it in the blood-trickled snow I think of the end of life, holding but one white rose No pain shall I feel, so perfect, so innocent, no horror in my mind, no nightmares now It is time to whisper the final goodbye I have been given the strength, I can now peacefully bid thee farewell Do not forget me I look down at the soft white petals and embrace the only token I have left of you, my little rose so beautiful and pure Forever stained by the blood of my soul is this single white rose The rose of my one true love...


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Rough is an Understatement

I knew you hated it then
When I said I wanted more than friends.
And when I spoke to you my heart
You disregarded it from the start.
But when I spoke those words to you,
You didn't know just what to do.
You took them in with such disdain  
And that caused me so much pain.
It was only you that I wanted to please
And that made it so much harder on me.
 
I tried so hard to pull away
To find someone to take my mind away.
I searched so desperately
Still knowing where my heart would be.
I tried my best to sever tries
To tell myself I wasn't the guy.
Oh it was rough for awhile,
Yeah things went numb after awhile.
Until I found myself right back to you.
 
Since then I've jumped so many hoops
And you've cut some ties loose.
Even though you still hold the strings
Along with so many other things
Like pictures of time that you onced cherished,
I can't let my love perish.
While I hope these memories will fade
The emotions will remain,
Murdering my dreams and leaving me with the stains
Until I found myself right back with you. 
 
I tried so hard to pull away
To find someone to take my mind away.
I searched so desperately 
Still knowing where my heart would be.
I tried my best to sever tries
To tell myself I wasn't the guy.
Oh it was rough for awhile,
Yeah things went numb after awhile.
Until I found myself right back to you.


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A Night of Change

You shoved me down,
I couldn't make a sound.
Irrevocably changed my life,
when to my throat, you held a knife.
Harsh words in my ear,
about to pass out from fear.
My breath flying in and out,
not even enough air to shout.
I never thought it could be like this,
"You're gonna love this" you hiss.
I close my eyes,
part of me dies.
All around are flashing lights,
just a prelude to the sleepless nights.
Why can't they see?
Don't they know they're too late to save me?
Sympathetic looks, fake smiles,
painful questions that go on for miles.
Sayin' "It'll be over soon" like it's something they're tryin' to sell,
Yeah right, I already know it's gonna be hell.


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EYE Don't See -Part 2-

My eyes
Refuse to see tragedy
My eyes
Marinate in dread…unable to embrace ecstasy 

And I’m left in my solitude…
My eye’s sagging…from endless mourning  
And I’m close to my demise… 
Only to find myself disappear…
When will peace draw near?

You don’t see 
What damage you’ve done
Just let me be
Leave me alone…hand me a gun

I yearn for unspoiled glory
To make me feel perfect once more
I yearn for flawless serenity
To make me feel no regret…don’t ignore
My calls…don’t hang up on me

You don’t see 
What damage you’ve done
Just hear my plea
Listen to my excruciating cries…
Listen to the truth, not the malicious lies  
Our journey has just begun   

And I’m left in my solitude…
Do you hear me weeping?
And I’m close to my demise…
Only to find myself disappear…
When will peace draw near?

Eye can’t handle the stress
Let me release my horrendous distress
Eye can see you making that same mistake
At least MY life isn’t at stake

And I’m left in my solitude…
My eye’s weeping…do You feel my lament
And I’m close to my demise…
Only to find myself disappear…Stepped on like cement
I’m aching with discontent… I abhor this torment    
When will peace scrub off my fear?

I can’t believe my eyes
Your guiltiness flows into me…
I can’t believe I fell for your lies
Your heartless action rape my mind…you don’t see
What my EYES see…

You’ll never see 
How much pressure you put me under
Unchain me from this chamber
And watch me flee…

When will you be set free?


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In Your Love

Every time you kiss my lips 
I am drowning, I'm drowning
Like a never ending abyss
I am drowning, I'm drowning
Every time you whisper I miss you
I am drowning, I'm drowning
In your love,  in your love.

Life doesn't seem dangerous
When I'm drowning, yeah I'm drowning
Don't take it so serious
Cause I'm drowning, yeah I'm drowning
I don't care what they think of us
Cause I'm drowning, yeah I'm drowning
In your love, in your love

~ Leonard Napierskie


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Words

Words sting farther than you know
They stay alive long after you go
I built myself up to the person I wanted to be
But it all shattered with what you couldn’t see
I fade into the faces of a busy crowd
And dream of the words I want to say out loud
Words that release my anxious thoughts
Words from the heart that cannot be bought
Simple words like, “I love you”
That ring deep and true
Words that open me up and bare my soul
Words that weigh so heavy they take a toll
Words like, “everything’s not okay”
And, “I think I need some time to get away”
I want so much to get away from my doubt
To escape this numbing and loveless drought
I need to find the right words to say
Words that can free me of this pain
I need to find the words I want to say
Words that balance honesty and refrain
These words are burning a hole in my heart
And all of my weaknesses are coming out
They fly fiercely across the pages of my mind
As I begin to see my insecurities unwind
They rage war to rise up and show what’s true
Threatening the lives they belong to
Fear rises as I let go and just let be
Breathing out the words that set me free


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As I Lay Dying

I feel lazy and weak
Words, I can no longer speak
Body so worthless, fully limp
All my pride faded, officially a wimp
Brain barely carrying out its function
Breaking apart like a loose junction
My vision is blurry
Fading from this world in a hurry
Is this truly the end?
Or is there another place, in it, ill blend
Is there truly a heaven
That has eight doors not seven?
What about hell?
About it, is it true what they tell?
They say there's an afterlife
But what about my children and my wife?
Who'll take care of them when I'm gone?
In denial, the one who's going to be alone
Is no one else but me
This is how it’s supposed to be
The time has come for me to die
And for me, many people will cry
But why am I leaving?
Their sorrow I am weaving
Why am I such at ease about dying?
Worrying about the people who are going to be crying?
Why do I feel so light?
Like a feather flying out of sight
Why is my mind so clear?
No negative thoughts coming near
I'm finally free without even trying
Sadly, it came as I lay dying


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The Journey of Consciousness

Dreams lost in lack of sense
A lack of knowing where it went
Into the maelstrom; loss of sight
Machinery that stole your light

Fumbling through quiet noise
Mimicry evading choice
Everything within your grasp
When you don’t see beyond your clasp

Stubborn nightmares leaking through
The water rising lets you choose
Standing tall when you can’t sit
Your prison granting this privilege

Conscious reason comes to aid
Escaping from this shallow grave
The first revival, so alone
The sun revealing the dark unknown

Many paths, all are one
Soon to shape the dark beyond
And through the journey you will find
You were guided by your own designs

Experience is breathing through
Sharing truth to let us choose
A wakeful state to gain insight
Accept that pain can strengthen light


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Numb

If only u saw what I could see
Then you could understand how ugly I really am
You would get why im not so beautiful

Once upon a time
I was alive
Breathing and feeling

Emit a nopu echo
Evila saw I
Gnileef dna. gnihtaerb

I saw the beast
Love didn't exist anymore
I believe that a girl can be a god
And a man can be the devil

Tsaeb eht. was I
eromyna tsixe tndid evol.
Dog a en nac lrig a taht. Eveileb.
Lived. Eht. Eb nac Nam a dna.

Words can be so expensive
They sometimes cost you your own life
Thoughts can make a fortune
If you just knew how to express them

Evisnepxe os eb nac sdrow 
Efil nwo ruoy uoy tsoc semitemos. Yeht
Enutrof. A ekam nac sthgouht
Meth sserpxe ot woh wenk tsuj uoy fi

There are clues in here do you think you can figure them out? 
There in the backwards sentances. Have fun and comment











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Kurt

i am kurt daniel everdean 
I am 21 years old
I've been playing the bass guitar
Since I was 11
i weight 145 pounds
i have blondish brown hair
and blue eyes

If I could say one thing about me that I like... Its that I never gave up.


things started when i lost my father
i was 10 years old
my mother started going to her room everytime she got home
she would come out with her eyes all red... Shes been crying
until i accidently walked in on her doing drugs
i now believe it was the drugs that caused the redness
me and my brother would fight everynight
when i bought my first bass
he slammed it against the floor
and told me since i think my lifes crap
then i shouldnt have anything that makes me happy
My mom became a street whore
She would dress in a golden gown and wear ugly make up
We would never see her 
unless she needed money to get condoms for her "men"

the things between me and my brother got worse
I was arguing with him over a text he sent my mom
And he got into an accident and died that night

Things just never got better
I created a band called the nocturnal
And the reason you haven't heard of us yet
Is because were an underground punk band in Seattle
we haven't gotten far yet
Just underground party's and bars

My mom ended up running away with her "boyfriend"
After my brother died she blamed me
And told me to leave and said she won't come around me
Until I brought him back

Since then I've gotten a job and was able to pay rent on
My moms old apartment
Hoping shed come back clean and sober
As for me
I've cleaned up. but suicide is still an option

I haven't found god yet and I don't want to
If there was a god why did he give me this ****ed up life
Ya you'll say Kurt?... You made the desicions for your life
I knolw I did. But he was the one who let it actually happen

I've been writing since I was 11
Lyrics and poems
Drawings and paintings
bass guitar and vocals

My life isn't over
But it's sure close to it

Its sad to think that what you thought was fake... Is a true story


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How The Gods Kill

The sharpness of the blade
The toughness of my skin
The color of the blood that drips unto the pavement
The rush of pain i get

The calmness of holding it in my hands
The smell of the bullet reaching my mouth
The memories in my brain decease

Would you let everything go?
Just to feel alive again?

Can you end this moment of your life?
Show me how the gods kill

If you got no fear
Do you know the name of the one you saved?
If you want the answers
Go find the truth

Look inside your headless soul
There you will find the noose

Would you let everything go?
Just to feel alive again?

Can you show me how the gods kill?


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Unnamed

Plugs you into my world
Turns my eyes 
Looking into my skull
Staring at my brain
Hoping to see what comes next
Takes my heart and rips it out
Dying alittle more
Shoots my gut 
And places my brain where my gut once lived
Takes my fingers and pushes them into my hand
So i just have nubs
Takes my head and crushes it
Little peices falling
Bleeding unto the ground
Dying alittle more
The unnamed feeling
Comes alive
Then it takes me away
Taking the chill off my life


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A Cinderella Story

She cant express herself
they push her away
they lock her up inside her own mind
if you look throught the hole you will see
the depression shes in

Shes just like cinderella
locked up and hid away
you have no idea
look throught the hole without the key
there is nothing left for her and me

You wanna take away everything
you just left her alone
tell me it aint so
tell me you wont leave her in there forever
tell me you will let her out to be free and happy

Shes just like cinderella
locked up and hid away
you have no idea
look throught the hole without the key
there is nothing left for her and me

The new game you wanna play
it wont work
you beat her to the ground
her mind has become her home
theres no escape

She walks alone
her mind has become her home
see what your missing
she runs away but shes not allowed
now its your turn to be locked up

Shes just like cinderella
locked up and hid away
you have no idea
look throught the hole without the key
there is nothing left for her and me

there is nothing left
there is nothing left
Nothing!


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Dark, cold World.

===== A little rhyme inspired by DaryIsue LockHart's rhymes =====

It is for the lost..  that I wanna find the way,
Out from this dark place, of pain and misery.
Back to ourselves.. how we were, when we were young,
Before evil played its hand, before the time we got stung.

I wanna be free..  but that'll have to wait!
I'm trapped by emotion, by feelings soo great.
And I'm not alone.. in this victims prison,
D.I.Y Labotomy, I'll make the first incision.

I don't want drugs, to ease my pain,
I found Nirvana.. but can't get back again!
Some say I'm insane!  This train of thought I'm on,
Goes through a portal to another dimension.

But it's a dark, cold world.. where I know no fear,
My heart it stops, my mind sharpens.. becomes clear,
When I look into your eyes.. I can see your soul,
I can reach into your heart.. but I might lose control!

Sometimes I can see.. just a little too much,
And round-about that time, I start to lose touch,
See.. I know why you hurt, but I could hurt them too!
I'd make them scream, long, sweet, songs of sorry.. just for you.

However.. I know something, that they don't know,
I've had a little glimpse, of the place, that they go,
Where they like to turn the tables.. and play little games,
Where sticks and stones hurt, but so will the names!

Till then.. keep strong!  Keep your mind awake,
You've walked through fire, I think you should take a break,
But you've seen the enemy, like me.. you wanna fight,
Thats why I walk alone, with no shadow, in the night.


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Cut Transmission

If you're drifting into outer space
Without a cordial light to show your grace
You might dip into your emotional waste
And lose yourself inside your brain.

If you're thinking you won't disappear
Without a love to hold and keep you near,
Don't bother panicking and giving to fear
That which you hold most dear.

If you're drifting into outer space
Tangled in cords wrapped 'round your neck and face,
I pray to God you at least got a taste
Of what you hold most vain.

If you're thinking you won't disappear ...


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All I Wanted

Embrace Me.

I feel we are being drifted.
We say a few words a day.
My heart feels like a token.

There’s been days.
There’s been nights.
With out a word.
Cold winter nights.

Been waiting months for a hug.
At least she smiles and says she loves.
I wait for months to be held.
A marriage with out touch keeps.
Me thinking there might be another love.

All I wanted was to be held and showed.
Embrace me for god sakes I am yours.


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Musa the village honey harvester

bees make honey-old news
and Musa,
yes Musa, the rugged, 
self acclaimed village bachelor harvests honey
his farm has a drone of hives,
bees seem to like him
and for some reason, the village women as well

this day, under a hot tropical sun, 
a bunch of old village men sit crouched
the agenda of the day awaits
on one side sits Musa the village honey harvester
on the opposite side sits Kaari, the village mason
his face furrowed in wrath
his poise crouched,
like a tiger about to strike,
eyes full of venom,
anger directed at Musa the village honey harvester
next to him sits Fatima, the third wife of Kaari, the village mason

in her youthful modesty, she is oblivious of the whole process
her face is puffy
she bleeds in some places
understandably since Kaari is the village mason
but she does not seem to care
far from it- she looks condescending
her actions have brought her here,
to escape the wrath of Kaari the village mason
and the passion of Musa the village honey harvester
to embrace the wisdom and council of the village elders.

as the sun ebbs off in the west
the meeting comes to a close
a few revelations have been made
that Fatima, wife of Kaari the village mason
and Maimuna, the village gossip
and Kabura the upcountry lady
and Mwende, the wife of village chief from far yonder lands
and Salama, the daughter of Muina village herbalist,
Konte, the village tramp
and Buura, the lady who sells mangoes by the roadside,
Lowe, the woman who cooks samosas using donkey meat,
Philla, the lady everybody suspects of being a witch,
Kamoni, the village model- the lady who knew how to tie a bandana first in the 
whole village
Kuba, the young nephew of Konge, the village musician who invented his own 
music
Blamo, the darkest lady in the whole village
and other ladies ladies not forthwith mentioned...
they all loved honey
and for some reason, they also loved the honey harvester

in his acute generosity,
Musa the village honey harvester did indeed give these women honey
a proof solid as day made by the protrusion of Fatima's stomach,
beings of honey sworn by Musa the village honey harvester
a farmer ploughing in wrong fields of land
but since the elders established that the crime was indeed committed
but the crime was committed by obliging parties,
a case of willing buyer, willing seller,
Musa the village honey harvester goes Scott free,
and his honey harvesting business keeps on thriving.

wanjeru kamau


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Rant #01

My life flutters by, like a butterfly.. a lullaby,
Making me cry and sigh, untill I die,
I'm lying here thinking..  it's all been a waste,
Just a hasty taste, of all the pleasures I've chased.

This P.M.A, which I display, every day,
Is the only way, I'll make it through.. yeah, I'm Okay,
Positivity, with a Darkside twist,
Missing the point..  do I even exist?

I kissed the lips of fate, now I cannot escape,
The caped-crusader, keeps me safe, from ass-rape.
I predict, great things!  For me, at any rate,
Inflating my ego, fashionably late.

Now I've arrived, only the Fastest will survive,
Use your double talking jive, none will be left alive!
But If you don't attack..  I won't have to defend,
And send you to Hell, let's pretend this is the end.

Draw up a treaty, sweety.  What we want is Peace,
Not monopoly on World War 3, this madness.. it must cease!
Are YOU insane?  'Causing pain?  Check your brain!
The lame-ass excuses all remaining the same.. again.

My Brain's a machine, running at obscene speeds,
You don't know my thoughts, my words or all my deeds,
My needs are the same as yours.. we both bleed,
So read the writing on the wall, and your mind will be freed.

They say I'm LoCo.. smoke too much, it's a joke.. oh!
My Woman's been messing 'round town.. go get the gun Joe,
Slow down! Where you going?  I'm just blowing off steam!
Blowing up time.  In space, can't hear you scream.

NO!  I'm not mad!  I'm totally sane,
But it feels like sometimes, we're all on a crazy train.
First-class ticket, next stop.. the Asylum,
I need the Ghostbusters!  There's no answer when I dial 'em!

So who am I gonna call?  The Police will arrest ME!
For aggravated assualt.. they're not getting me easy!
Lock me up?  With no fags and no drink?
I'm gonna go ballistic!  You'd better go and fetch the Shrink!

You wanna hold me back?  Get the Feds and the Army,
I'll take some drastic measures if you really wanna harm me!
Calm yourself down.. learn to see with both eyes,
Time flies..  surprising how fast it slips by.


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Desolate

Desolate

Wandering aimless
Through twilight city streets at night
Invisible to the outside world
Nothing really right
Looking, longing, wondering when I will see
That always bright, reflective light
The end of the tunnel

Another night of sorrows
Drown in open bottles
Fluid for the times of your life
And remedy for the tears we’ve shed
But in the end you’ll be blinded
By broken seal, on broken bottle
You will stay on the dark side of the tunnel
Never see light

Living in darkness for years of my life
I’ll continue to strive while I’m still alive
But not by my choice…
Guardian angel chose me to live this life
Desolate life, I am unsure how long I can live it


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Lamentation

Another song from the set made in middle school
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My life craves the soul And I’m all alone You stay—then off you go And I can’t hold on You will never know me For what I am [oh no] Can we forget? Can this just end? If we don’t believe How can we mend? Your face haunts my memory And I can’t move on Cuz here without you I feel…so numb Left out in the cold For you will never love me Was I too much [to mend]? But how can you see? How can you know [what I meant to you]? Could this be the end of the road Left to sleep alone? -Ooooooooh- Can we forget? Can this just end? If we don’t believe— Can I forget? Will my life end? If you don’t exist Why do I pretend?


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On The Brink

On the brink of crying,
on the brink of dying,
what are you gonna do?On the brink of cryin‘,
On the brink of dyin‘,
You’ve gotta listen to your soul now, too.

Now think of this situation,
This is a poem, but also a conversation
If you don’t want to hurt those around you
You’ve gotta help yourself first then the other few

On the brink of cryin‘,
On the brink of dyin‘,
What are you gonna do?
On the brink of cryin‘,
On the brink of dyin‘,
If you don’t wanna hear the truth
Then you better not do something stupid, but instead new
On the brink of cryin‘,
On the brink of dyin‘,
What are you gonna do?
On the brink,
On the brink,
I’m on the brink of cryin’
‘Cause inside I’m
‘Cause inside I’m
‘Cause inside I’m dyin’
I’m on the,
I’m on the, I’m on the brink.


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How I Long For--

My dreams are falling apart
In Your hands, I pray (for joy), "Take heart!"
You are the stars - searing my 
Soul is kneeling to the ground
Trace my future and take wing
Towards the pathway...You find peace
You are an angel in my--

Heart is bleeding soundlessly
Above land...I mourn so sweet
I am the clouds - carrying a 
Gallon of grief...release me!
Place me in fields of love and
Forgive me and lift me up
You are the heavens to my--

Heart is beating profoundly
Without Your heart's joyous song
You are the sun - nourishing 
My lambs are grazing around,
Roving in fields of splendor,
Enlightening the darkness
You are an apple to my--

Eye is grieving...losing sight
Of Your glory...I feel lost
You are the lake - sparkling with
Delight and Luck! Bring us home!
Grow like a morning glory
In the autumn time, You thrive
You are valuable to my--

Eye is twinkling...praying for 
Insight...yearning for Your sight
You are the hills - guiding my
Mind is longing for your mirth--
Restoring peace to my verse,
Sprouting forth grace and freedom
You are the train tracks, bearing--

My train of thought...making my
Steel spirit connect with Yours
You are the valley - between
The mountains guarding us all,
Building strength to fragile bones,
Welcoming a stream of hope
You are my map - lending me

YOUR helping hand I would take
Now, I could take Your challenge
You are like a maze filled with
Mysteries conceal the truth;
I fight with all of my might
And I BEG for Your mercy
To mend my once blissful dreams!

How I long for Your mercy...


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False Senses

Do you realize that you lost? Do you realize that I won? Or did you think it was a tie In your sick twisted mind? Stuck in your lies Concrete at your feet You never took a step You never made a sound When the gun was fired And I ran for my life Do you realize that you lost? Battered and tossed By your own malfunction Wires you crossed Leaning on a crutch From wounds self inflicted Do you realize that I won? Running like fire Brighter than the sun Autumn behind my head Summer in my eyes So near the finish line The reward is mine Or did you think it was a tie? Tangled web behind your eyes Wrapped in delusions Coming to false conclusions In your sick twisted mind Do you realize that you lost? Do you realize that I won? Or did you think it was a tie In your sick twisted mind? Stuck in your lies Concrete at your feet You never took a step You never made a sound When the gun was fired And I ran for my life


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Outcry of a broken heart

Even my mind not stilled by silence
my thoughts outraged with hurt and hate
as Im dumbfounded with confusion
leaving the cause to no debate,
I cannot tell you what is wrong
to tell you means I'd have to trust,
and my heart no longer feels willing,
beating only cause it must.

I feel a dead man live my life
I see his cold abandoned heart,
I hear his agonising cries
as he is torn more apart,
knowing no peace, no rest I find
having no comfort, stuck in a bind
a vagabond, alone in his life
Ive been cut off, betrayal was the knife.

awaiting death, and still much worse
my whole life upon this earth
seems like a scheme to take my worth
and bring me to nothing,
such is my curse
and i fear the effects
may never reverse
and make believe that I am cursed.
the way I feel too great for words
too great to bear such constant hurt
my soul depressed and left prostrate
before God to help, I hope it works. . .


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Sorrows Underneath

I think of all my problems.
I think of all my pains.
I think of all my sorrows
Until I go insane.

I think of all the smiles I’ve worn
Which hides my sorrow underneath 
No one seems to notice.
That I go through so much grief.

My tears seem to keep flowing
Inside my tired eyes.
Each time I want to tell you
But, my words come out as lies.

These days I’m felling distant,
Faraway and weak.
My sadness pulls me further,
From the happiness I seek.

I’ve just begun to realize, 
That my hopes and dreams are gone,
I’m walking down a dead-end-road
Humming a tuneless song.

I’m standing on a rooftop, although I’m afraid of heights.
I’m watching the cars underneath me move,
And somehow this doesn’t feel right.

Now I think of what I’m doing
I know I could find a way 
To beat through my depression 
And start living a brighter day.




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Like a Star in the Night

Verse One: Sitting on the window pane/ Looking into the

night sky/ Seeing all the beautiful stars/ Shining 
                   
in there glory/ The vast night sky/ or makes me 
              
feel so small 

Chorus: All the stars around me/ twinkling tonight

Surrounding me with the light/ They're 
                    
all I need tonight/ I will shine with all my 
                  
might / Like a star/ like a star in the night

Verse Two: I'm so far from where I want to be/

My dreams are as big as this bight sky/ I'm thinking

to myself/ Can this ever happen?/ What if I fail?/ What 

if this is not what I am meant to be? 

Repeat Chorus

Verse Three: Thinking of you and what we are/ think of how

you make me feel/ the joy you give my soul/ Thinking of leaving 

you/ how leaving you could destroy you/ destroy the beauty in 

the night sky 

Repeat Chorus 

Bridge: I have to choose/ choose between you and this night 

sky/ This night sky I have always dreamed of/ but you/ you are 

the light/ the encouragement of my life/ I have to choose you/

you or my night sky 

Repeat Chorus X2


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Straight Up Sin

You woke on this day
your heart pounds
you can't breathe.
Contemplating your needs
your thoughts feed
the hunt.
Your focus to find
to seek
there's no truth.
Deceived by the feel
thoughts of pleasure
you feel pain.
Depression and anger
where are you
tonight.
Pacing and sweating
no relief
you can't wait.
The searching and calling
the waiting
haunts you.
Vicious is sin
and it laughs
in your face.
Straight up sin.
You lost control and let it in.
Straight up sin.
That fear is locked up inside you.
Straight up sin.
You sold your soul and found a new friend.
Straight up sin.
When will it ever end.


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My Outlandish Mind

I’m hopping out of bed, 
Hoping you would save me from my fleeting fantasies 
You are permanently in my mind…

Everything’s out of my reach…
Tonight, I crawl into my outlandish mind
I’ll have a chance to meet you eye to eye in my dreams

And I stare at you and wish I had a flawless life…
You are the waves of the sea
You are the diamonds in the cave

Everything’s out of my reach…
Tonight, I crawl into my outlandish mind
We’ll have to see each other again in reality 

I’m going insane…I touch the fabrics of your imagination
You are the mountains, staring me down like a hawk
I trace a shooting star in the starlit sky…

Everything’s out of my reach…
Tonight, I crawl into my outlandish mind
I’ll have a chance to meet you some time in my dreams

Reach out to the sun’s flames
Be my guide and lead me to a better pathway
You are the sorrowful rain

Everything’s out of my reach…
Tonight, I crawl into my outlandish mind
I’ll have a chance to meet you somewhere in my dreams

Your rain trickles down from bitter clouds
Lighten up and be carefree;
Don’t paralyze me with your lightning fury

Everything’s out of my reach…
Tonight, I crawl into my outlandish mind
I’ll have a chance to meet you face to face in my dreams

You might as well be suffocating me with your beauty
Someone unchain me from living this lie
Your love projects peace in mind

Everything’s out of my reach…
Tonight, I crawl into my outlandish mind
I’ll have a chance to meet you, even if you are a nightmare


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Your Highness

Executing the realm of beauty,
puncturing your torturess soul
while the sinister truth exemplifies purity,
the kind you lost along the way.
You can't see that longing,
you can't comprehend that willingness-
the deepest form of revenge-
success.
And with the success,
all that surpasses is the crooked
unreliable action,
a pretense definition that karma is mandatory.
It moves me how such a belief holds,
totalitarian regime.
Your highness,
I'll bow to you once more,
one more adieu
and passing by.
But after not one
but two steps away,
you are no longer existent-
like the leaves evaporated by the snagging wind-
wrapping its arms around the oak's leaves-
sucking out the poison of the leaves,
as they drop one
by one.
Farewell,
one final time.


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Hole in the Wall

Hole in the Wall…

I feel like crawling back into the hole
Back in time, back in space
Into realms of no emotion
When feeling is lost on an expressionless face
I want to run, just never stop running
Away from here, anywhere
Anywhere away from this place, nowhere at all…

We are bound to live sacrificial lives
But isn’t everyone who lives and breathes
Like lambs to the infamous slaughter
We are falling to our knees
But I am speaking in a singular form
Speaking only for myself
My love, my longing for life
Goals I have set
Plateaus far from the norm are so hard to reach
I have often fallen short, fallen hard
Like now…

I am losing sight of distant visions
Storm clouds obscure the sun and the haze clouds my head
Uncomfortable feelings deep within me
Weighing me down, they are as heavy as lead
Calling out to me
I respond without caution or care
Never stopping to realize
In the dark; waiting, you must constantly be aware
You cannot afford to compromise your beliefs, 
Or your strengths for anything, nothing at all

All of this, through the hole in the wall…


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Fields of Blasphemy

Where shall I flee? I’m swimming in the waters of misery…
And I’m crying a river…I’m saturated in woe 
How do I think cheerfully? I’m lost in the abyss…and the shadows won’t let me be… 
And I’m bewildered… I’m fighting to break free… 

(I can’t break free…
Where do I flee?
Why can’t I break free?)
The spiders are spinning their webs above me…
Bless me and untangle me from this madness…please… give me peace…I’m wasting away – 

They’re preying upon me…they’re whipping me … warping their way inside of me
My saliva drips on the ground…I’m growing numb and I pray
The monsters don’t attack my heart’s desires…if I let them break free,
I’ll never be the same…I’ll never see the light of day

Where do I belong? I’m roaming in the fields of blasphemy 
And I’m crying a river…I feel like an awful disgrace… 
How do I find a pathway? I’m lost in fields of weeds…they’re producing catastrophe 
And I’m bewildered… I’m trying to finish the race… 

(I can’t keep pace…
The sweat is trickling down my face…
Why can’t I keep pace?)
The wasps are chasing after me…where do I flee?
Caress me and save me from the distress…stinging me in pleasure…I’m drifting away – 

They’re hovering all around me… they’re harassing me…could you wipe away my tears?
Find me a place of rest…to make the sufferings end and I pray
The darkness will stop spreading lies in my head…if I throw away my fears, 
I’ll never learn to face my fears…I’ll never know His way…

Where shall I go? I’m roaming in the fields of blasphemy 
And I’m crying a river…I’m saturated in woe 
How do I find the key? I’m lost in fields of weeds…they’re reproducing catastrophe
And I’m bewildered… 

I’m yearning to let go… 
I’m learning to cope with my fears…
I’m deserting my woe…
I’m wiping away the tears... 
(that has been bottled up for many years… )

The spiders have ensnared me in their webs…
I’m in danger…I’m wrapped up in distress…
 and there is no where to hide… 
The wasps are tracking me down...I haven’t paid my debts…
I’m struck in alarm…I’m in a mess…
Please stay by my side – catch me as I collide
( We’re all together on this ride… )

I can’t break free (please relieve me from my despair) 
Why can’t I break free? Where do I flee? (this pain is too much to bear)
I can’t keep pace (give me the energy to shine like the sun)
Why can’t I keep pace? Why can’t I finish this race? (give me some strength to run)


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My lies

I look at the mirror, I don't see me.
I see the hideous demons that overwhelm me.
I tell them to leave, but when I look up, I see horns and crimson red scars on my face.
It took me a second to realize that I was wearing a mask, but it took longer to take it off.
I'm still there - in front of the mirror, looking for my true voice, my own look, my own soul.
I'm tired of living a lie,  but I don't want to take this mask off.
How long until I become the person in the mirror?
Forget it!
I take off the mask, but another appears on my face.
Grey eyes, green tears running down my cheeks, and a broken nose on this one.
Got to get it off, but it gets tighter and tighter!
I'm suffocating in my own words, my own mind, my very lies.


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Conquer June 14 2011

Trapped inside an electric fence,
where do I go from here.
I'm locked down, lost inside,
suddenly my body filled with fear.

When I close my eyes these horrible images flash,
they take my breath away.
There is a message en scripted inside the image being shown to me 
but I can't figure out what is has to say.

I need to force myself to look deep enough
and replay them in my mind.
Somewhere inside the vision I get,
there will be something for me to find.

This flash, this vision, it can't be good,
it instantly causes me pain.
I want to avoid it at all cost if I can,
it's only filling my heart with distain.

Look one last time, stop being afraid,
see what it all means.
I am loosing sleep and I have been up for days
literally I am coming undone at the seams.

It's time to put an end to all this,
so it's time to conquer my biggest fear.
Facing it head on by the root of the problem,
I will finally be able to look myself in the mirror.

Unaccepted, unwanted, a freak to society,
I'm looked down upon and pushed aside.
The emptiness is eating away at me,
I am always feeling denied.

I have finally came to a conclusion,
I needed to try a new technique.
Treasure who I am and portray what lies inside,
I am funny, charming and unique.


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Who's In Control.....

I'm walking my floors
Like a rattle
Being creative
Starting, some drama
Look at my image
Read my literature
Read my novel
Read my rhymes

Look at my style 
Look at my talent
I'm exotic
Very professional

Look at the vine
Listen, to the melody
Drink some wine
Memorize
Protect my line

This is my tempo
I'm the Dare Devil
No wait, take that back
I'm a Iron Horse

Look at , my texture
Look at, the velvet
Just like nylon
Maybe polyester
Do you like rayon

You want me, purified
You want me, begging
Put a collar
Make commands
Give me discipline
Tell me to fetch
Tell me heel
Or, put me on a leash

Show me obedience
Give me a routine
Show me a trick

When do we train
Who , shall I be
Your bear, who cares
Your bird, who flies
Black-eyed Susan
Or, maybe a whale


Can I be
What I, wanna be
No, as I can see
I'm at home
Sitting alone
Crying my words
Writing my rhymes


I'm a image
Behind doors
Sitting at home
Writing this poem
All alone


Do I, pick up the phone
Do I, open the door
Do I, walk my floors
Do I, draw a picture

Do , I care to dare
What, I'm in for
Life is so hard
With no lifeguard
I send my regards

I feel so far
Never so near
Having, so much fear
I send a tear
Have no fear

Now, I make this clear
I'm not confuse
I'll never, be misused
Just abused
By, what I tell you

Your never a friend
We'll never amend
But, just condemn
Simple as sin

I sit at home 
Sit alone
With, no where to go
Continuing this flow


Who's not cold
Always bold
Has no control
Always listening
To whats told


Understands
Joy, fear, sadness and love
Holds, my hands
Holds, my image
Gives me, no discipline
Gives me
One thing
Me

Let, me see
Let, me be
Let, me understand
Who, I am
Deep down in this sand

Without, no tears
Put them away
Start a new day
Write a new poem
After I pray
For a better day
Sit and pray





	D.L.V


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Another Day

Another job, another day,
Things are crazy and so very strange.
How did I get here? What did I do?
Am I doin it right this time? I think I’m confused.
But I’m happy I still have you,
In my life, helping me through.
Why and how is it that we met?
I don’t know but I’m glad we did.
Something compelled me to come ova to you,
Not sure what or even who.
I wanna grow old with you, I don’t know if you have that clue...
That it's what I wanna do, with you.
I wanna have an addition to my family,
I wont run away from you or anything.
Do you ever want another child? Do you?
I want a baby more than anything, but I don’t know if I’m even able to...
I want to have a family of my own, one of these days,
If you don’t, I suppose that’s okay.
Another job, another day,
Things are crazy and so very strange.
No matter how this ends up or where “we” go,
I will always love you, just wanted you to know.


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Half a Heart

Once in a while, It would be good to feel, That I'm not alone, That I AM real. Once in a while, It would be kinda nice to know, That I'm not invisible, That I'm not a Hoe. (MEANING GARDENING TOOL) But only having half a heart, Makes it kinda hard to move on. I will learn a lot, From his little con. I am a dreamer, I am a believer, But when I am only left with half heart. It's kinda hard not to take rejection hard. Another one is walking around, With his little stripper, His little crown. She has no idea who she'd end up with, Giving birth in the hospital. No one with her. But only having half a heart, Makes it kinda hard to move on. I will learn a lot, From his little con. I am a dreamer, I am a believer, But when I am only left with half heart. It's kinda hard not to take rejection hard. Raise our hands, Clap to the beat, Of a hummingbird's wings. Just remember I'm still here, The only one, The only one, In love with you... But only having half a heart, Makes it kinda hard to move on. I will learn a lot, From his little con. I am a dreamer, I am a believer, But when I am only left with half heart. It's kinda hard not to take rejection hard. We are strong, Cold to the core, We gotta let you know, We're not your doll anymore.


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Kiss of Death

Kiss of Death

Can you see my pain now can you see why I'm so depressed do you understand how or what I'm feeling no because you have never asked cause you don't care oh it sucks being the youngest no what about the middle child or the misfit or the child everyone picks on what about them suicide is an option for them because they cannot win the game of life and neither can I I cant fight no longer I won't try I give up with everything in me I'm not worth it I'm the middle child the misfit the one everyone picks on I'd get treated better if I wasn't me if I was my sister or brother I'd get it all and they think they have it bad one day in my shoes would they understand the guilt I hold or the withdraw of being human I'm a monster I only dream of death I will love you with the kiss of death a place where I take you so you can feel my pain too nothing will help nothing will pass by me only in me I have no feelings no soul and no reason to live I'll kiss you with my sorrow and I'll be happy around you so you have to guess who I really am I'm not happy and I'm not warm I'm cold my heart is frozen not rhyming with time my brain no longer breathing no longer sending pulses to my organs the blood rushes from my vain out into the open unto the blue carpet I can only wish of death for the Satan inside to take me away to the lake of fire where I burn forever and eternity but will it solve my problems yes will it make you understand when I'm gone that I'm all you have left from this disaster no bands caused my deaths only the game of life did 


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The Air

Sweet scents Fill my empty lungs I can hardly relent From singing the unsung Is as before These places I adore But the breath will be my death If my heart keeps racing And I keep embracing The sweet spring air The air I breathe now Is the air we shared then How Can I get back what's already been? Words trace down my throat Bittersweet after taste Gently afloat But becoming a waste It is the same here It is the same there But the sun is not here And the wind is not there Only clear blue tears And the silent dare The air I breathe now Is the air we shared then But please how Can I get back what's already been?


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If Love Is A Rollercoaster

Make me crazy... Drive me insane.
	If love is a roller coaster, then life's just a game.

Love me, Hate me, Let me go.
You can do whatever, just don't say "no".

Playing with emotions, Messing with my head.
Laughing one minute, Then mad at what I said.

Can't continue teasing, It'll wear off before long.
	If love is a roller coaster, then life's the saddest song.

Say the sweetest thing, then smile, It always makes me blush.
Can't decide what this is.. Probably just a crush.

Kick it and relax; Hang out and just chill.
Got me all confused, By the way you make me feel.

Kill me with that kindness, Then take the joy away.
Wondering if we'll ever share, A normal, perfect day.

Feels like it's my fault, That you've yet to become mine.
	If love is a roller coaster, then life's a waste of time.


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sabotage of eternal promise

strange arrangements

promising faith but

is feeling different privately

breaking that

is it natural

the right way about it to remain mono

yet so guilty for shattering such things

"what are you thinking?

is that my business?

would you if you weren't with me?"

is overcoming the urge enough

to overcome the shame



R'Thom '10


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Upon the Silence

...however as he slothfully reclined
Banking himself on the cold steel bench
Dilemma gripped nastily on his shoulders;
The clouds pace above and as if alive
Winked at him- pulling memories from behind

"Oh yes, we are but a speck of a seed
A granule, puny and almost trivial
By how- minute as we- pull off an impact
Than a lone tree in a dry sunny land
And lighted cottage amidst dark forest indeed?"

Resounding they truly are, his mentor's words
Past and spoken, long uttered in the wind.
Yet it reverberates from the turquoise skyscrapers
To the bench he sat beside his proud Ford.

"For the proper or for the practical thing?"
An innocent query shrieking upon the silence.
a galleon of betterment versus virtue;
The bright clouds blots his space on the wide greenery.
"Affirmative." A salmon is going upstream.


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Consecrated Grounds

Clinging on to silence
When there’s nothing to behold
In the mirror of this earthly
Visage growing old

Beneath what now just lingers
In this quieting despair
There lies an open graveyard
Begging for your care

The flowers here are wilting
All the children turn away
And in that I am haunted
There is no such thing as play

My voice sings of confusion
When I ask for your embrace
Instead I speak of lacking
And why it’s you that I should blame

Now alone beside the mirror
This old man is close to truth
And as he fades into the nightmares
He recalls what stole his youth

Stalking through the darkness
A passenger of pain
“It is I that haunts this graveyard”
And then he spoke his name

Awake and overflowing
With the senses I thought gone
The old man in the mirror
Is now a child with a song


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....WEEP NOT

The risk added excitement at the time, 
Admittedly a conscious decision was made to commit a crime.
Not yielding to ethical thought, 
Reluctant to believe that the transgression would be caught.
Self-assured I say ....weep not.

Disjoining, conviction, and separation of family,
Sustaining the ability to hold on to sanity.
Not inclined to allow the flowage to over run, 
Conceding to the occurrence; as the moon to the sun.
Ambiguously I say ...weep not.

Stepping into a cement six by six,
The grey and white walls suffocating, as my eyes become fixed.
Stretching out on a narrow bank, hands cradling my head,
Paralyzed with deep immersed reflection of pending dread.
Actuality I say ...weep not. 

Releasing feelings of being maltreated after death,
The seasonal matter has been put to rest.
A moral discretion occurred but I am still alive,
To conquer over an erroneous deviation, I thrive. 
Subsequently I say ...weep not. 


 @ Tunisia Torres
2/2/2009


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I've Got Pain Inside, But No One Cares

When you smile at me i laugh at you
When you laugh at me i smile back
I try and hide the pain and agony I feel
So i left this earth and went to Mars
to live closer to the lovely stars;
you might not think it's true

You say you know me 
you act like you know me
you even talk like you do,
but that's not true

You talk about me like you know me from deep inside
you have even tried to have that denied
but sooner or later i'm gonna die
and no one will care

To you and them it doesn't matter anymore
'Cause I'll be under the soiled floor
I'll be forgotten;

never spoke of
I'll be hurt and killed because of love
no one will miss me 
i'll die with no one's sympathy
they won't even ask what happened to me

Livin' alone i think i hate myself
It's like i'm on the top of a never-ending bookshelf
feelin' as if i'm gonna fall any second now
I'm gonna die and won't remember how

I'm sayin' to the world "good-bye"
now i'm gonna ask you this:

Can ya hear my shouts and cries 
can ya see the tears in my eyes 
can ya hear, can ya see, can you feel me?

baby, please...help me
take the pain away
so i'll never deal with it for
another day


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Whispers

Whispers inside my subconscious. My pride rips it away.
Words are unwritten. The pictures are pasted on time I erased.
Now that I see them the tears keep on falling on wells that will not dry.
For all the reasons I want to believe them, they hurt when I try.

Futures are calling. Their paths keep on falling, the shade spreads it's night.
Measures are taken to stop it from shaking, the ground of pagan light.
Failure to limit the intake of fuses that light my world on fire,
Grips the illusion and shows that I'm nothing but a mime caught in the mire.

Because whispers are little fiends, making their dreams not shown.
And now that I see them I want to release them, from the pit of the unknown.


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Hiding

Hide my face
the things i cant let you see any longer
Cover the scars
the things that still unravel in my soul
Sow my mouth shut
the things that should not be said
Cut my brain out of my skull
the things that i should not remember
Tie up my hands 
So i cant hurt anyone
Tie up my feet
So i cant run away from my problems
Stitch up my heart
So i can fit the pieces back together
Hide down in a hole
So that one day i can be discovered


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Suffering Is The Same As Living

Hope, tonight, is just a void Love is destroyed Reality impending my doom Suffering a dream that was never made for me I’m just the burden falling under your arms I understand if you give up on me Don’t worry I’ll be fine I can just wait, wait as in all eternity You deserve to be happy and free I’m just the burden falling under your arms I understand if you give up on me Suffering is the same as living Tonight I might, Today I may Set you free away from me I’m just the burden falling under your arms I understand if you give up on me You travel all across in my veins Showing you share my pain But my life was never meant for me I’m just the burden falling under your arms I understand if you give up on me I'm sorry for those days I've ruined your life Best you just ignore, forevermore I’m just the burden falling under your arms I understand if you give up on me Suffering is the same as living Tonight I might, Today I may Set you free away from me I’m just the burden falling under your arms I understand if you give up on me Suffering is the same as living Tonight I might, Today I may Set you free away from me I’m just the burden falling under your arms I understand if you give up on me
**Morten Veland, Guitarist, Male Vocalist and Main Songwriter of Sirenia, formerly of Tristania**


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"Conscience"

You can't see me
but you can hear me out,
I'm always around you
always helping you out,
I tell you the rights 
and the wrongs,
what life
we're among,
you can follow
and I'll lead,
I'll show you 
where to be,
keep your head up straight
and your eyes open wide,
my best advice is 
to do what you try,
never lose hope
cause you need to succeed,
man, I'm your conscience
you gotta believe in me,
I know this life
to your left, to your right,
why do you think I'm here for,
just to entertain you every night?
I got your answers 
to your questions
but you ain't hearing me out,
you're up in your life
trying to figure yourself out...


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Sleepwalking

In a world where we can feel worn down,
Yet not be defeated.
We keep moving in so many directions,
To keep from being cheated.
Just wanting to gaze upon the setting sun.
To slow it down and quit the run.
Lost in the traffic,
My heart still beating,
Just another face in the crowd.
Distorted yet not beaten.
Just wanting to gaze upon the setting sun.
To slow it down and quit the run.

Have we been caught sleepwalking?
 Through our life.
We have to keep trying,
To make things right.
Have we been caught sleepwalking?
We have to open up our eyes,
Before life passes by and leaves us all behind

Have our eyes grown misted,
From the truth.
Or are we swimming in confusion,
Creating our own mental abuse.
Just wanting to gaze upon the setting sun.
To slow it down and quit the run.
It’s time to fight through all the darkness,
Towards the light.
Time to stop being so idle,
It’s o.k.  to join and fight for what is right.
So tired of sleepwalking day and night.
Just wanting to gaze upon the setting sun,
To slow it down and quit the run.

Have we been caught sleepwalking?
 Through our life.
We have to keep trying,
To make things right.
Have we been caught sleepwalking?
We have to open up our eyes,
Before life passes by and leaves us all behind


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come home (last verse)

its to late to squash this beef
I got my heat
I creep across the street
to delete this creep

he use to be my man before this beef evolved
it's funny how friendship dissolve

My quick attempt to get the draw he saw
as I drew he drew a Mexican stand off

And I know I should have squooze
but instead I froze
visions of us riding big wheels at 4 years old

flooded my mind
the same  time tears flooded my eyes
thinking we could be the cause of each others demise

baffled by this irony as I looked in his eyes
together we escaped death more than a dozen times

as I stood there frozen 
over come with emotion
watching the rest of the scene play out in slow motion

his hammer tapped the bullet followed by an explosion
I felt an intense pain as my flesh tore open

I dropped with a thud before the blood start rolling
two shots escaped from the weapon I was holding

his chest caught them both
I heard him gag and choke
he's holding on but he's close
to the end of his rope

me Im cold,scared and shaking knowing there's no hope
dam ! even in this beef we will still die close
and as I felt death approach to claim us both
a angel came and sang the closing notes


                                 the last vers from come home


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Land of Make Believe

I'm up all day
can't sleep at night
maybe I'm wrong
or maybe I'm right
I'm seeking truth
but all I can find
are only the truths
that are in my mind.
Is it all real
or is it all lies?
I guess in the end
it's what everyone buys.
Is there hope at all
because I can't see
is there hope for you
is there hope for me?
The world's in a spin
when will it end
who is a foe
and who is a friend?
The voices all say
the things that they must
but are these voices
ones I can trust?
The words that they say
I hear in my brain
are they for real
or am I insane?
'Cause I'm hearing things
that never were said
who killed the truth
who wanted it dead?
I guess in the end
it's what you conceive
about what is truth
and what's make believe.


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You cant out run me like i out run you

Always trying to out stage each other
Trying to be better at something then someone else
Trying to have a better story then them
Quite pathetic
I can tell you a truthful story about my life
You can tell me a fake story about yours
Just so yours is more dramatic than mine
You will never change
Still trying to impress me with all your lies
And when I realized
Thinking that we actually had something
I thought I lost you somewhere
But you were never really there at all


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Deprived Pride

Pride
of this i wont be deprived
I know this is going to break me
but just let me be
no better then the next person 
that im sitting here judging
she only 15 
and yeah she got a son
but here i sit
throwin' a rebellious fit
tryin' to hurt everyone around me
but little do I know
I did this on my own
but you see
I got this thing called Pride
and of this im refuisng to be deprived


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Waiting To Be Mine

I know that I deserve better than this.
I savor every moment and every kiss.
The days they pile on and I'm buried,
Choking underneath it all. 
The days they pile on and I'm buried,
Choking underneath it all. 

Please tell me I'm the one
And I'll never leave your side.
And that all you might carry
Is growing, waiting to be mine. 

Prayed tonight for the first time
In my own teary lines.
I pray that my own sins won't spoil innocence.
For the first time in over 8 years, I hope any Kingdom heard my call.
The days they pile on and I'm buried,
Choking underneath it all. 

Just tell me I'm the one
And I'll never leave your side.
And all that you might carry
Is growing, waiting to be mine. 

Everything that's ahead of me;
All my love in an entity may be my greatest enemies,
Oh, I can't stand.
Everything that's ahead of me;
All my love in an entity may be my greatest enemies,
Oh, I could die. 

So please tell me I'm the one
And I'll never leave your side.
And that all you might carry
Is growing, waiting to be mine.


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Cougars

I'm fire and you're ice.
Saw your frozen heart, so I did what I do best- I set it on fire.
You told me you could drive no parent needed.
You told me we could be friends and never have to tell anybody.
You lied to me when you said you were twice my age, but at least now I know I'm not 
dating a 28-year old woman.
How old are you? Nineteen, twenty, twenty-one?
You're eighteen with a body of a Greek goddess and lips as full as the night's moon.
I'm still young, but so are you. How is this going to work out?
Is this true love or the Cougar Effect?





John Monteblanco
Cougar Effect


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Statistic

I'm somebody I don't want to be

Sick in the mind 

Is how trusted ones have nurtured me

Sweet and naive 

What a bad combination

Torn to shreds and built up 

Into a new creation

Sometimes I sleep

And don't dream

But have flashbacks

And see pictures with bad means

"Get this out of my head

Its driving me mad!"

But who do I tell this to

I don't want to relive

What I didn't want to go through

I cry 

But what does this do

I want to know the soulless

Who've affected me hurt, too

I don't care about their presents, futures, or pasts

The thought of my welfare on their minds was last

I only hope that in the future

I'll avoid another life altering calamity

With man


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I am an unread book on an empty book shelf

I live in this cell with my self-hatred
How I was raised makes me feel so isolated 
These are not my thoughts or feelings for that matter
But I still feel as if I’m an ugly house that will never flatter

Even if you were to fix me
I’d still have some screws loose
I’d rather you knock me down
And tighten up my noose
Because my personality is too obtuse….
For you to understand

Until then, I’ll wait in the gallows
Waving my right hand
Trying to find a way out
Because I can’t tie a noose like you can…

It’s depressing to think that I possess this body that I can’t stand
Everyone that I love and meet will never truly know who I am
Because the face that I show is a total scam

So, For the time being I’m stuck in this body

This mind...

This soul...

I’ll forever be tortured in this blood stained hell hole. 


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Bridge

1 am in the morning 
No noises fill the air
Sitting on the bridge
He thinks
Remembering everything
He has ever done
The street lights 
Glowing from a distance
He stands up 
Climbs over the side
Of the bridge
Stands there 
He breathes in
His last memory
stuck in his head
He lifts one foot
And jumps
his body hits the river
Water drowning his lungs
What he felt at that moment
No one could understand
Sinking to the bottom of the river
The man tied a concrete block
To his back
His eyes wide open
The last thing he saw was water
The last memory he had
Was of his daughter
Living life like this is sad
But if you have no help
Who do you turn to?



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Virgin Heart

To some
my age shows maturity
experienced
my heart is still one of a virgin
confused by whats real and whats not
wondering if this guy or that guy is the one
giving them a piece of me everytime
hoping and wondering if theyll stay
or how my life would turn out with them
falling in love with the idea
but not the man himself
im a virgin to the game of love


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Diedre II

Don thoust not know Deidre’s eode Don thoust not know Deidre’s eode I cunnan sense her embrace that felans gelic Tragedy A Heart to hath, slipped beneoðan waw The dark pulse nou beckons us closer How many daegs will this passion bledan way We will beon the ans left to blame Bewarian we hath be-came their prey They say thou hast ben addicted to thy pain A life-leas cold barren soul left to die in the rain A whisper to close to the edge A ceallian fram the dark Bringan ut a saving sparke An exodus fram her pain Her life spent braeð in shame A Shadow ceallian brecans the silence Eom I the an to blame Don thoust not know Deidre’s eode Don thoust not know Deirdre naefre said wrong Don thoust not know Deidre’s eode “My decadence wesan just for thee Though thou never hast cared of what I hath been through Enter the world hwaer empathy is clandestine A world created by thee, just for me Hwaet is lecgan in my heart Is why thou wants to through the stan” I call thy name towards nightfall’s reign But they take thou so feorr way A dark engel so devin Cursed by Eden’s Heart I will avenge every tear An exodus fram her pain Her life spent braeð in shame A Shadow ceallian brecans the silence Eom I the an to blame Don thoust not know Deidre’s eode Don thoust not know Deirdre naefre said wrong Don thoust not know Deidre’s eode Don thoust not know Deidre’s eode Don thoust not know Deidre’s eode


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Recognize

If I don't answer my phone, it doesn't mean I'm drinking at the club.
But maybe I'm blindly stealing home plate to another woman's heart.
I hate it when people say I'm the one that changed.
Open your eyes! It's just me with a bigger 'fro.
Instead of fighting, I'll direct you to the mirror.
Do you recognize you?


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Just a Trigger Pull Away

Just a Trigger Pull Away…

I analyze the situation to simplify the complication
But it doesn’t get any easier to see, so I retreat within
The doors are shut and I’m locked and loaded
Just a trigger pull away…
One solution to escape self-persecution, locked and loaded
I’m just a trigger pull away from the light of better day

I write the words that remain unspoken,
I translate the meaning through darkened eyes
And in between deepened lines
I bear the weight of an unbalanced world, locked and loaded
The doors are shut and I’m just a trigger pull away
A trigger pull away from the night
And the light of a better day…


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17 years old

who would have thought
who would have known
17 years old
and still im writing all these poems
poet to a song writer
using all my skills 
showing others how i feel
until theyve had their fill
music brought he here i swear
it might just take me out
until that day ill make the most
spew lyrics out my mouth


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Bones

The one thing I miss about smoking

Is staring at the stars

Breathing in the moonlight

As we coat our lungs in tar

Did it make us happy?

I don't know

 

Let's bury bones

Lock them in the closet

Roll it to the sea

'Coz don't it feel like home

When we don't know who to be?

Let's bury bones

I'll bury you

And you can bury me

Let's bury...

 

The time you kicked the table

Told me you were fine

I don't know if it was me

Or if it was the wine

Did it make you happy?

I don't know

 

Let's bury bones

Lock them in the closet

Roll it to the sea

'Coz don't it feel like home

When we don't know who to be?

Let's bury bones

I'll bury you

And you can bury me

Let's bury...

 

Memories hang like cob-webs

I can feel them on my skin

Every punch and kick we gave

Every shadow that we've seen

Do they make me happy?

I don't know

 

Let's bury bones

Lock them in the closet

Roll it to the sea

'Coz don't it feel like home

When we don't know who to be?

Let's bury bones

I'll bury you

And you can bury me

Let's bury bones

I'll bury you

And you can bury me

I'll bury you

And you can bury me

Let's bury bones.


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Bullets

Walking into the graveyard
Sitting on the bench
Lights a cigarette
Looks at the gun 
He has been hiding
In his jacket
Thinking to himself
He calls his girlfriend
And tells her everything
She doesnt do anything to stop him
He continues walking around in the graveyard
Remember his mom
How she wasnt there for him
How everything was his fault
She loved her students more than him
He gets upset
Daylight reaches the cemetary
He walks to his home
Walking inside
Seeing his mom
Starring at her face
He shoots her
He walks down to the school
Telling them his kids were there
He was there to check on them
They let him inside
20 little children in a classroom
He took his gun
And shot them
Then leaving the room and shooting 
7 faculty members
Everything is silent
The other classrooms are locked
He stands in the middle of the hallway
Falling to his knees
Crying
Figuring out what he just done
He comtenplates
If he should shoot himself or not
With one pull of the trigger
He kills himself
The media eats this story up
Publicly veiwing everything
Telling people
They talk about it for days
the type of attention he needed
See the problem now?
you can thank the media

20 little angels now rest with god for christmas
7 adults stand by there sides
God rewarding each of them for there good deeds
The shooter reunitues with his own demons 

I am very sorry to the families who had lost these children
My peom is very blunt
And in my own words


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Trying to Look on the Brighter Side of Life

I need to find a way to open up to you…open me up like a corridor in the Castle of 
Freedom – why are you stuck in place while I am free in space?
I need to grasp reality…I never really saw the good, brighter side of reality in the 
first place
Someday, you’ll stray with me into the fields of fervor-blossoming flowers …I 
pray…I pray that our happiness will never last!
Somehow, you’ll empathize what kind of hardships I’m going through at this 
present time and what issues I will be dealing with in the future…time’s ticking away 
oh so fast
*Chorus*
Oohh I knew you would come back
Oooh I knew you would come back to me…
Sometimes, I wonder if you love me or if you just pretend to love me so
Oooh I knew you would come back
Ooooh I knew you would come back to me…
There’s days when I feel positive when you’re around, but I have to-to go…
Oooh I knew you would come back
Ooooh I knew you would come back to me…
Someday, you’ll stay here with me…I pray…I pray that day would come someday
Somehow, you’ll see me through the pain…dismiss the ghosts of the past…
Oooh I knew you would come back
Ooooh I knew you would come back to me…
Someday, you’ll sit here and say what you wanted to say to me – there’s no need 
to feel dismay
Some say “you must pay the price one way or another”, but I say take your time 
and let your happiness never last
Oooh I knew you would come back
Ooooh I knew you would come back to me…
I’m no longer that magazine, alone on the magazine rack 

V.4 (bridge): I searched for you night and day
S-so dedicated to you…on my own, I was gravity-bound…
All along, you were by my side along the way!
S-so afraid to lose you – I’m not a champion; lost and never found…
But, I’ll keep trying to look at the brighter side of life
What’s the point of being a victim to depression and loathsome strife?

You're a friend, not a foe
Let your affection and effulgence show


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No Simple Diagnosis

You want me to seek help
They say I need to switch.
Well whoever heard of a diagnosis
For symptoms of being a *****.

You want me to be more thrilled
Like a roller coaster unhitched.
Yet you do things just to piss me off
And cause my brain to itch.


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Walk On

If I could write a story,I'd write about the past.
The masks and all the words I was afraid to speak.
It would be a story without moral.
I've learned nothing from this journey.
The chapters would be short and simple
In the form of thoughts and riddles.

If I could write a poem to heal myself
I'd un-bandage these wounds
And let them bleed on my page.
I promised myself I wouldn't wait.
I wouldn't have hope but thanks to you
That's all I know.
I'd pack all these things and give them to you,
Because I know patience and love are both virtues.
But if you burned them as physical memories
You know I'd understand.

Wave steady and ignore the tragedy.
Torn between the stories and poetry.
Wave steady and ignore this disaster.
Rummage through the wreck and salvage what you can.
Walk around and hope that you never see
This fragile bird and his broken wings.

There's no shame to sing your favorite song
To save your life.
I'll sing all that I can sing,
And I'll say all that I can say
To make sure I turn out alright.

Walk on and ignore  this tragedy.
Torn between the stories and poetry.
Walk on and ignore this disaster.
Rummage through the wreck and salvage what you can.
Walk on and hope that you never see
This fragile bird and his broken wings.

And I'll sing all that I can sing.
I'll say all that I can say
To make sure I turn out alright.


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A Question of Honor

Dedicated to Noor Al-Maleki You Try, You Try so hard To put Your will Over Me But I will Remain Free I am So Dirty and So Very Unclean So Please Condemn me Sentence Me The Crescent Is A Lie The One I shall Try To Defy Is it Just To Dispose What Has Dishonored You and Your Radical Views You Have set me Free, Can't You See I Won't have to face a Tyrant anymore Your gaze used to Stun But Now It Just Burns Under the Sun Never Enough to Be Myself Never Enough to Be Free I will not Bow to You I will not Kneel Before You Smothering Liberty Condoning Freedom This way is unjust This way only brings out our worse Hatred and Mistrust War and malice no know law You Try, You Try so hard to put Your will Over Me But I will Remain Free I am So Dirty and So Very Unclean So Please Condemn me Sentence Me The Crescent Is A Lie The One I shall Try To Defy Is Just To Dispose What Has Dishonored You and Your Radical Views I am The Flame you Greatly Hate I am The Flame you greatly fear Some cannot handle the truth It shows they are the Criminals You are one of them You're the problem This misdeed will not live on without the hate of your name Honor Is not real It's just an emotion that only you feel You're another bulwark Against the truth No one Will Bow No one Will Kneel You Try, You Try so hard to put Your will Over Me But I will Remain Free I am So Dirty and So Very Unclean So Please Condemn me Sentence Me The Crescent Is A Lie The One I shall Try To Defy Is it Just To Dispose What Has Dishonored You and Your Radical Views You Fear The Truth You Fear the reality you are the criminal against all humanity We must end these lies Before Honor Will Strike again You Try, You Try so hard to put Your will Over Me But I will Remain Free I am So Dirty and So Very Unclean So Please Condemn me Sentence Me The Crescent Is A Lie The One I shall Try To Defy Is it Just To Dispose What Has Dishonored You and Your Radical Views


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YOUR WALMART GIRL the Celt Guitar - Heather sings version

         YOUR WALMART GIRL
----verse 1
Sometimes some things just happen.
Sometimes we need a touch to help us get by.
When it's not there we wonder why.
I know your hand is lonely.
It's in your touch I see it there in your eye.
All I can do is wonder why.
------chorus
Why can't we get together?
I don't know.
How did you touch me? I don't know.
If I could reach your mind Maybe we could find it.
But I don't know.
I'm just your Walmart girl.
----verse 2
Smiling is tired and lonely.
There's no tomorrow when there's only today.
It's just a way to get us by.
Scanning goes by so quickly
While I search for words to ask how you have been.
Then it's too late -- you're gone again.
-----chorus
Why can't we get together?
I don't know.
How did you touch me? I don't know.
If I could reach your mind Maybe we could find it.
But I don't know.
I'm just your Walmart girl.
I'm just your Walmart girl.
© ron wilson aka vee bdosa the doylestown poet


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Doble-Kara nga ba

Puso ko'y doble - kara nang mahalin kita
natutong umasam, magtiwala sa tamis ng iyong pagsinta, 
subalit nabahiran ng pangamba at kawalang pag-asa
nang ako'y umibig, puso ko'y nahati sa dalawa! 

Puso ko'y doble - kara kapag nakikita kita, sinta
lumulukso ang puso, ngumingiti't masaya, 
ngunit kapagdaka'y nababalot ng lungkot, lumuluha
hindi ka maabot at mayakap, bakas ang pait sa mukha.

Puso ko'y doble - kara, kulay ay nagdadalawa
nag-uumapaw ng walang kapantay na matingkad na pulang-pula, 
napakadilim naman kapag nasasaktan na't pait ay nalalasahan
tila hinuhugot sa kailaliman, binabalot ng itim ang pusong sugatan! 

Puso ko'y doble - kara sa pagtibok, walang tigil, tumitipa
bumubilis ang pintig, tila hinahabol ang paghinga, 
nanghihina naman at tumitigil sa hampas ng iringan
tila puso'y hapo, ayaw nang umandar, hangad lagi ay paglisan.

Puso ko'y doble kara, nagmamalupit kapagdaka
pilit nakikibaka, nakikituligsa sa di masang-ayunang paksa, 
nakikiayon naman ito kapag nahimasmasan na
at nahinuhang may punto naman at maaari pa'ng isalba.

Puso ko'y doble - kara, sa pagmamahal matiyaga
pilit umuunawa sa kamalian at pagpapakita ng pagkalinga, 
ngunit napapagod din sa di maiwasang pangungulila
nakakapanghina at ibig na huminto't ipagwalang bahala! 

Puso ko'y doble kara, tigib sa pagsuyo't pagsinta
isinisigaw ang walang kupas at wagas na sumpa, 
nababalot naman ito na paghahangad at pagnanasa
sa pita ng laman, sumasang -ayon at nakikiisa! 

Ahhh...Isaisahin ko man ang dahilan ng pagiging doble-kara
wala nang hahalaga pa sa pintig ng puso'ng umaasa, 
na tuluyang makamtan kahit mahirap ang magmahal
hindi laging masaya, ang magmahal ay mahirap pala! 

Puso ko'y... DOBLE - KARA nga ba? 

Inner Whispers


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What I Want

What I want to write
Is still an odd mystery
The more I write words
The more I have quarry

With every new verse
I feel I will be satisfied
But the thirst increases
As thoughts are versified 

I want to compose views
That are never revealed
Yet all the clouds gather
Thoughts are entangled

What is all this thirst for 
I don’t know definitely
I feel there is something
Into the deep of eternity


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The Scrooge Christmas Musical

     The Scrooge Christmas Musical

Hiding in bed is poor Scrooge
His antigravity boots too huge
To hold him down from bad spirits
Only there to teach him new lyrics


 Created on 12/04/14  for - Andrea Dietrich - A Christmas Character Clerihew –    Poetry Contest


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Do you care

Does my name cross your mind when it's 3am and you're wide awake cuz you couldnt sleep that night and do you see my face in the day every time you close your eyes am I there or do you even care


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There Is No Age To Love

A meteor falls down from the stars
Catching fire the faster it falls

She sits in her new house
Sitting in the window seat
Reading a book about wild love
And how fast it grows and catches fire
She watches the meteor shower from her window
She hears a noise coming from the hallway
She creeps around the corner
As she follows the sound to the attic
She opens the creaking attic door
A young man sits before the window
In an old red chair
Half falling apart
He is facing her 
With the back of the chair facing the window
The attic door slams shut
She gasps for air
She is very afraid
He speeds and surely stands before her
Face to face
They meet
He asks her
"who are you?"
she replies
"Amelius, you?"
He moves back as he turns and his back faces her
"Eric"
He moves towards her slowly
And disapears
A few days past
She wonders where he is
She sits in the attic and waits for him
He appears behind her
She explains to him that she feels like she knows him
He sits by her on the bed
he explains there past life together
He returned to meet with her again
She died in a bathtub
He was holding her
Trying to wake her up from the pills she took
She died
After her funeral
He committed suicide
She moved on and became reborn again
He didnt because he was stuck in the past
He kisses her cheek
And she stands in awe
She does drugs in her new life
One night she was driving home
She was on acid
And she ran into a tree
She was dead on the scene
He shows up and pulls her out of the car
She thanks him for saving her
He reaches to hold her hand
"your cold"
She looks at him
"what? you mean im.."
He says "yes"
They leave together in peace
Where they should have been in the begining
His ghost soul is 46 years old
But his age of which he died is 19
She was 17 when she died the first time
The second time she died she was 19
her ghost soul is 23 years old
Love has no age



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Wrong

This poem i am writing is about people i know. they have told me all the wrong things they are doing in life. all the things they have done to be in love or even find love.
Josh~i have a second life one in real life one on the computer
Susan~i cry to my poster of james hetfield begging him to find a guy for me
Jassun~i cut myself every night because i feel unloved my family doesnt get me
Chelsea~i take pills and try to overdose because i cant feel my heart beating i just want to know that im alive.
Ron~i constantly call another woman and have phone sex when my wife isnt home
Carrie~i boss people around just so i can feel like im on top above everyone else
Brad~im gay and people dont get the fact that love is love no matter if its with a guy or woman.
Sheryl~my husband passed recently and i already found someone on Eharmony
Me~sometimes i fake who i am so people wont judge me... sometimes i feel like im not good enough so i try to be like everyone so i can feel like im apart of something. but recently i figured out that people love you no matter who you are. there are some people out there who will doubt you and who will hurt you. but thats life even love can hurt the strongest of people.


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My pernicious thoughts

My pernicious thoughts
is loosing me,
unscrewing me,
and killing me.

My scary musings
is taking me
on a rigmarole
to nowhere, it seems

Like a vagabond
with no direction,
it keeps pulling me
to all directions.

And surely soon
it will leave me blue.
One mighty pull will it take
to fill me full again.

My pernicious thoughts
keeps loosing me,
unscrewing me,
and killing me.

And, i can't fight it.


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The Dove

I set at waters edge early in the morning,
I smell the grass, the dew, the begining of a day,
Thoughts of times gone by,
All those years i managed to survive,
How, in the lonely darkness did I find peace,
All that pain I learned to ease,
No control, I now know of how events unfold,
Maybe because I'm older, stronger, I can take it now,
But that feeling of a child I miss,
The innocence,
The bright eyes just for a day of swimming, I miss,
In the distance I see a dove, a white dove the symbol of the purest,
in the morning sky, he knows how and why to survive,
He still has that feeling, of a child, he dips and dives in the foggy mist above the 
water,
He has those bright eyes, that feeling,
I remember how it felt, but forgot how to feel, 
I see it in my children though, like the dove, 
They are my mornings by the water,
They are the start of the day,
They are the pure,
They are the innocent...

william J. Harty


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My Front window

My front window, portal to the world
seein' 99 brothas gettin' killed
and as they bodies fall it's crazy 
that this genocide don't phase me
it self-inflicted by brothas bigga
every time we pull the trigga
got someones liquor hittin the curb
but the killa's smoke hella herb
after bloodin' up my window
almost wish I had some of they endo
to blurry up the things that I be seein'
lord forgive em we're such insolent beings
why do we kill all so indiscriminent
walkin' through the hood with criminal intent
It hurts but are bodies gotta drop
lives like hell gettin' rocked in da hood nonstop


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The Pieces

Give me the moment, take it away.
It's not enough but that's okay.
It's getting better everyday,
When there's a chance you'll lose your way.

Remind me of when i wanted you.
Cuz sometimes I think, I still do.
Who are you, wherefore and why?
Find me a reason and maybe I'll try.

I'll try to find the pieces.
I'll try to put them together.
I'll try to find your heart.
I'll try to make it stronger.

Lay beside me, run away.
Take my hand babe, please stay.
It's getting better in every way,
When we're coming closer to our dying day.

Remind me of when you wanted me.
Cuz sometimes I think maybe you'll see.
Who am I, wherefore and why?
Find you a reason and maybe you'll try.

You'll try to find the pieces.
You'll try to put them together.
You'll try to find my heart.
You'll try to make it stronger.

Give me the moment, take it away.
Lay beside me, run away.
Take my hand babe, please stay.
It's not enough but that's okay.

Remind me of when I wanted you.
Cuz sometimes I think I still do.
Who am I, wherefore and why?
Find me a reason and maybe I'll try.

I'll try to find the pieces.
I'll try to put them together.
I'll try to find your heart.
I'll try to make it stronger.


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Hard Tymes

Its hard to keep my head held high
when my soul is drowning in sorrow
greatful for each day
but hate to see what comes tomorrow
when I look in the mirror
my eyes are filled with self hatred
thinking of all my situations 
rushing, and now I see I'm impatient
day in day out
I started to have dangerous thoughts
so its me; good vs. evil
its the battle that has to be fought
and the more I reach for success
the more they shut the doors
I use to feel the pain from it
but now I don't feel the hurt no more
maybe cause I'm popping pills like its crazy
using LSD cause I'm depressed
why  would I stop there? 
I drink V.S.O.P. to relieve the stress
and as much as I pray for something good
and I hope for the best
still nothing comes up 
and my faith grows less
maybe I'm doing drugs and alcohol
cause I feel I have nothing left
but still I feel better than you
cause you hide it and I let it off my chest


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GAMES TO THE HEART

TELLING SOMEONE YOU LOVE THEM,
AND NOT MEANING A WORD OF IT,
TELLING THEM YOU WANT TO BE,
WITH THEM FOREVER AND HAVE,
A FAMILY WITH THEM,
WHEN YOU REALLY WANT SOMEONE ELSE,
YOU JUST LEAD THEM ON TO BELIEVE,
THAT THEY ARE YOUR DREAM COME TRUE,
BUT YET YOU CAN'T SHOW THEM IN ANYWAY,
AND MAKE THEM BELIEVE CAUSE OF YOUR ACTIONS!

SO, SEARCH YOUR HEART, MIND, AND SOUL,
AND FIGURE OUT WHAT IT IS YOU REALLY WANT,
IN YOUR LIFE AND FOR YOUR LIFE,
BECAUSE NO ONE CAN MAKE YOU HAPPY, 
IF YOU AREN'T HAPPY YOURSELF.
BY THE LOOKS OF THINGS,
YOU ARE NOT HAPPY BY NO MEANS,
AND YOU KEEP HURTING THOSE WHO,
CARE THE MOST FOR YOU.

SO, WHEN YOU ARE READY TO SLOW DOWN,
AND ENJOY THE PLEASURES OF LIFE,
YOU KNOW YOU CAN LOOK FOR ME TO BE THERE,
YOUR ONE TRUE FRIEND WHO HAS CARED,
FOR YOU FROM THE START,
EVEN THROUGH ALL OF YOUR GAMES TO MY HEART,
I HAVE NEVER TURNED MY BACK ON YOU,
LIKE MOST PEOPLE WOULD HAVE,
WHICH SHOULD SHOW YOU, 
I TRULY LOVE YOU FROM MY HEART!


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Predators

Found some new friends last night
They gave me some things
They showed me the happy life
Gave me a pair of wings
Wings that flew forever
Never needed to rest
I guess I thought it would
All be for the best
Never told me it was dangerous
Never showed me the lie
All I saw was wonderful sunsets
And beautiful skies
They told me it would be fun
That it would be fine
Now I'm trapped in a prison
Of my own design
How did I get here?
I have forgotten the way
I tried to find the door
But they all asked me to stay
Now I'm stuck in their dimension
With no plan of release
I would take it back if I could but
I'm not ready for peace
Can't kick the habit
And I can't get away
Wish I never met those predators
But I guess I'd still be prey
Now I'll be here forever
In a tight winding dive
Never take what bad people give you
Because you won't survive





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A One-man Boat

Why do I strive so much in life
This heart of mine cease to refine
Of hope and love and tranquility
I give and give, yet scarcely receive 
It’s the heart that deceives
My Soul resides upon a mountain of misery

It shouts, its scream, yet high up above, as it seems
Away, away from mankind to care
At times like these I am at despair
Hoping, seeking and wishing to share
I speak my heart, my thoughts, and my mind….
Yet scarcely, do I dare to show this degree of misery
My essence is as thin as air…. 
If I hit mankind in the face
No mark, no remembrance, no trace shall I leave
No sweet- sour memories to reminisce upon
Its as if my very presences is provocative to mankind
They ask me kindly, oh please! Oh please! do leave, Save us time and disappear!
No one to care, no one to adhere to

I loved and laughed and lived and hoped and trusted in mankind
Yet from this day on shattered and stiff and deceived and depleted, is what, I now am 
I bare a load wrapped tight around my heart
That never seems to crack or break, 
No fitting key, no rock to break….
For my humble abode lies within my mountain of misery
Where I reside high up above from mankind
From; Hurt or pain or deception or greed
From this day on, to no one shall I heed
I fight my battles on my own
I sail upon a one-man boat


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Reliance

Lord why is it that,
When I am behind foreign lines
I cling to you as if Im  running out of time
Meditating on your words
as is if it was the only antidote to my curse
And even though the unknown land is uneasy
and my earthly sense of security may no longer exist
It is your voice which becomes the softest kiss
and your releaving words become an addiction I can not resist
So when waves of anxious worries try to persist
I must use my 5 senses, to feel your presence,
Because,
The fear of losing sight of you and not being focused
Is so horrific
I do not grit my teeth and clinch my fist
Instead I get on my knees and to you I submit


I see kids dying to be seen
Saying daddy "watch me!", Constantly
There are,
 People making a declaration
with their clothes or  beliefs
Screaming out of desperation
"I am here, look at me!"
We all crave this attention
 It why we make big scenes
But there is this realization
That we were made to seek
A constant confirmation
We're alive and been seen
The only complication
That allows us to sink
Is the clear distraction
when we start to think
That our peers accept-ion
Is all that we we need
Cant you see,
This goes back to Adam and Eve
We were built with a longing
 To Have a strong Identity
And be in the center of the ring
Having the splendor of the king
Christ offers us those things
And he is more than willing
But we keep declining, though
He waits for us, in his quiet place
He shows his many faces in so many different places
He paces out outside of our door way
As we race through our days
thats why we forget  to communicate
But When We simply pray 
And contimplate his words
We take the negative 
and turn it into a positive verse
A plain reminder we need to put him first


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Blind Love

I hold you close to me like a new born child and give you all 
the tender care and love you desever

But there is just one thing I don't 
approve of you push me alway show me your cold side and 
not your nice gently side

You say you maybe love me because your still in love with an 
old lover friend and you don't know when you
will fall out

I'm comfused what sould I do I'm learning to love you and I 
don't wan't to lose

But your glad I'm in your life becasue I make you forget 
about her and you know how I'm feeling about everything 

And you can feel it and see it in my eyes you wan't both but 
you know it anit wright so you just keep me near and her far 
because your still in love 

But you wan't me what sould I do drop up everything and 
move on and just forget about use trying to be as one or 
stay in this unfear relationship and keep carrying on

My body wan't you but my heart also to but my brain know 
this is not a good way to live my life and I'm playing myself 
for less

I'm comfused what sould I do I'm learning to love you and I 
can't lose

This love I'm in must be called blind beacause I can't move 
my toes I fell
in too deep and I can't even find the hole I fell into druged 
and willy off  an overdose 

I'm confused what sould I do I'm learning to love 
you and I don't wan't to lose 

I'm confused and I don't know what to do I'm learning to 
love you and I don't wan't to lose


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Sugar Sick Sweet Lullabies

I had this dream last night and it was perfect 
It was everything I wanted my life to seem
So when I opened my eyes to this bright sunlight
I realized some things weren't the way that they should be

I put my feet into my shoes, which are old and dusty and 
I don't remember when they were ever clean
I ran around my town asking people for my purpose
And none of their answers seemed to fit alright

Come keep me at bay
Cause the world's spitting us all out one by one
And we've all sinned enough to know that we're gonna die someday

I've tried to be myself but I'm running low on health
To fight all those who tell me to be a certain way
Though I don't cry out my eyes every time that a stitch undoes itself
Cause nobody's gonna save you when can save yourself, darling

Even at a quarter after noon mothers are singing their babies 
Sugar sick sweet lullabies that I know all too well
Haven't you ever noticed the way that their voices crack 
When the child forgets the words and the tune stays with them alone?

Come keep me at bay
Cause the world's spitting us all out one by one
And we've all sinned enough to know that we're gonna die someday


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one kiss

one kiss brought us together
that same one has pulled us apart
all lost in that one simple moment 
never a thought that we would be apart
one kiss

the simple bliss you brought to me 
never fell apart but simply
i lost hope 
never again shall i love another 
for my heart has been stolen
by that one simple kiss
it hurts me so 
to let you go
but a fool i have made of myself

its my fault
i used you as a scapegoat
to not think about him
lost in that one kiss
i'm sorry for the lie i told you 
wish i could take it back
two guys has caught my eye
both hate me
i lied to one 
and one i thought i knew

but that one kiss
given to me by the wrong guy
that one kiss
left me in simply misery 
his one kiss


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Land of Lost Toys

I know im not the best for you 
but promise that 
youll stay then ill be fine and 
my problems will 
fade away the sky will turn 
blue not the color of 
grey but today ill pray that the 
words you say will 
send me away to the land of 
lost toys where we 
will meet with all the lost girls 
and boys


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You Aren't Going to Like This

I'm all alone,
yet I can hear my friends.
I see your face,
who should I choose?
I've known you for a month,
please don't make me choose.
They might be weird, but we're a group.
At least there's a plural in that sentence, 'cause right now it's just me and you.
You and I aren't an "us," at least in our minds.
Hey, look!
At least we agree on something.
I'd choose you, if only I knew you better.


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Broken worth

...Since i desire you 
in ma life....i desire 
war at times....i see 
beauty in gazing at 
you....i found value 
living to watch 
you....i experience 
love every moment 
beside you...i define 
worth from every 
single smile at me 
from you.....a hug 
from you worth 
me full happiness....i 
never live a day 
outside what we 
both share in 
common(the 
redefined lost)....i 
wished you never 
left me....i wished 
your abscent never 
hurts me.....i wished 
your tears never 
never sceared ma 
fears.....i wished we 
both could forgive 
our ego and pride 
and lust....i wished i 
never experience 
love from nobody 
but you.....i wished 
you never stoped 
the songs that 
gives ma soul the 
happiest moment 
of time.......i need 
you in ma life....i 
need you to ocupy 
ma time.....i need 
you to give me 
dejavu......i need you 
to make me feel 
renewed.....i need 
you to keep ma 
space from being 
empty of 
persion,pride,beauty 
love......i need you to 
make me feel like a 
man,sincerly your 
abscent is the 
incomplete part of 
ma life.I lost you i lost the 
world....Beside you no-one 
deserve ma words....your 
impact in ma life makes me 
knot....ALASS!!!


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Going Gone

You are here, You are there, You'll be in my head forever, You'll be in my thin air. You're the bubble to my wrap, You're the hands to my clap, You're the lines on a map, You're the baby in my lap. Because no one is like you, You're the beauty in a heart, Leaving is like a hole. A hole that wasn't meant to be finished, From the start. But when you're going gone, All the memories are burned. All the lessons that I learned. You made me feel like I'm smart. And now you're going gone. Going Gone, Going gooone. Going gone. Because no one is like you, You're the beauty in a heart, Leaving is like a hole. A hole that wasn't meant to be finished, From the start. You are seared in my memories. There's a hole in my heart. I want you back so bad. Dreaming of you is a nightmare... But when you're going gone, All the memories are burned. All the lessons that I learned. You made me feel like I'm smart. And now you're going gone. Going Gone, Going gooone. Going gone. When I didn't know I had you. I figured It when you were, Going gone. But when you're going gone, All the memories are burned. All the lessons that I learned. You made me feel like I'm smart. And now you're going gone. Going Gone, Going gooone. Going gone. Going gone.


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The Temple

Awash in darkness and disguise
Mistaken for light in my denial
The truth a fiction in my eyes
Refracting dispassion as I lie

The thousand eyes that gaze into
This broken mess I took from youth
I claim a shell crafted by you
The thousand hands that ran me through

Now twisted, poisoned and possessed
I’m half a demon, half obsessed
With overcoming all regrets
I want to climb beyond myself

In my convoluted disrepair
I am between love and despair
I only wish to one day share
The self that vanished when I got scared

Now host to darkness and the light
At constant battle through these nights
My dreams will grant these creatures sight
But in duality I realise

Without the light I would not see
That without darkness I’d not breathe
And through this war I will conceive
The strongest self through clarity

These tools of war are now my own
A balanced self has finally grown
The Angel vigilant and known
The Demon, tamed, now guards this home


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Canvas

Walking up the stairs
She lays on the floor
He runs
Holding her cold body in his arms
He lets a tear fall from his eye
Dragging her down the stairs and into the cellar
He lays her on the canvas they painted on the floor
He spreads her arms and legs out
Pointing them the direction of North, South, West and East
He places four candles around the circle
Lighting them with his lighter
He sits and watches as he pours the hot wax on her face
He cuts around her eyes, slowly taking her eyes out
Gluing her eye lids shut covering them with the wax once again
He cuts her up in pieces
Scattering her in art forms
Admiring her beauty
He places her eyes in a glass jar
Wrapping her hands around a picture frame
He places her face on his ... as a mask
Gluing her face unto his
He lays on the canvas that is now covered in blood
He moves around 
His clothes covered in her blood
He watches through her eyes
The world she once saw
He places her face back on the canvas
He shuts off all the lights and walks up the stairs
Looking in the bathroom he saw the drug she has been taking
He cuts it up and sniffs it
He lays on the floor shaking
Crawling down the stairs to the cellar door
Trying to move but he cant move any further
His heart stops beating but hes still alive
The minute he had left
He opened the door
And rolled down the cellar stairs
Landing on the canvas
His face next to hers

"How its hurts now that your gone
Its so wrong"


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The Other Side

THE OTHER SIDE 

A PART OF MY LIFE WILL BE COMING TO AN END
WHETHER A CHAPTER OR A VERSE
EITHER FOR THE BETTER OR FOR THE WORSE
IT’S REALLY HARD TO SAY IN THE STATE I’M IN
I’M SQUEEZING THROUGH THIS TUNNEL
AND THOUGH I’M SURE I SEE A LIGHT
I REALIZE EACH DAY IS SO FULL OF CLICHÉ
I’M UNSURE OF WHAT AWAITS ME …
ON THE OTHER SIDE
I TRY TO PIECE TOGETHER ALL OF THE PARTS
THAT BROKE FREE IN THE WRECKAGE
WHAT RESEMBLANCE DOES THIS HAVE OF ME
THE MAN THAT I THOUGHT I ONCE WAS?
OVERCOME THE HEAVY RAIN
TO BE CONFRONTED BY THE DARKEST DAY
IS THERE A WAY FOR ME TO ERASE THE STAIN
OR A BETTER WAY FOR ME TO PRAY…
I’M SQUEEZING THROUGH THIS TUNNEL 
AND THOUGH I’M SURE I SEE A LIGHT
EVERYDAY IS ANOTHER CLICHÉ
AND I’M UNSURE OF WHAT AWAITS ME…, ON THE OTHER SIDE


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Someday

“Someday”
Why is “someday” such a sad word?
When one like “never” is so much worse?
Why....why “someday”?

“Someday!”
Why is “someday” such a sad, sad word?
Perhaps the saddest one I’ve ever heard...
Why “someday”?

Everybody
has somebody
Except me, it seems
but that's not why I want to leave

So out of it
feel “out of it”
Never was in
can't find the way 

"Life’s one big bluff
Keep a straight face
Don’t let ‘em see your cards."

Yeah, life’s one big God-forsaken bluff
and I’m about to jump off

Someday, I thought you’d find me
Someday, I thought you’d love me
But someday ....
...someday......
someday NEVER CAME

“Someday,” they say, “You’ll find somebody.”
“Someday, you will be happy.”
“Someday, life will mean something.”
But someday I'll be SICK of waiting

Someday, you’ll see why it can’t be
Someday we’ll ALL be sorry
One day
sweet day
I’ll find my way 
out of this body.

http://vimeo.com/26557410


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Sunrise

Look at the black sky
Endless no matter how high
A single white string comes into view
It appeared out of the blue
This mystical string began to divide
White and black, opposites collide
To the struggle, there will be one victor
Survive this natural cluster
The holy white light wins the fight
Pummels the evil darkness out of sight
The sky comes back to life
A consequence of the previous strife
Its savior slowly comes into view
Glowing brilliantly, as the wind blew
The closer he got, the more it breathed
The hero won, his sword, he sheathed
Guiding everyone with his light
Shining on everything in sight
Watch the sun yellow and strong
Its rays fierce and long
Look at it floating so high
Mastering the vast sky
I stand dazzled by the majestic scene
It’s so beautiful and serene
Light fills the land
Except the point where I stand
There is a darkness in me
From it, I can't seem to break free
I'm trapped in my own demise
Waiting for a miracle, my internal sunrise


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Trust You

What now I ask as we go again
Wanting to believe in you my friend
But you keep playing with my heart
I am afraid you will tear my world apart

I dream of a time when I can trust you
When I know you want to be true
But I can not let my walls fall
When you do not feel anything at all

So I wait and hope for the day
When true love will come my way
I know it is out there it will find me
Then I will open my heart and be free


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Tell Me Why

Tell Me Why 

Could you tell me why
You stay on my mind 
Like all the time…
I can’t shake you like that
You stay close to my heart
And you can see cause its fact
I miss your body next to mine
I need your love…
Could you just come back
And you know it’s real 
Especially since I can’t stay mad
And when you don’t pick up
I’m just sad and side-tracked…
So when you push contact
You hit me with the drunk text
And I can’t wait til’ you walk through that door
Cause’ I know I got next…
But when you walk in
I’m speechless with butterflies
Love in my eyes…yea the whole nine
So you’re wondering
 what “the whole nine” means to me

I just look at you and smile…
And simply, in depth, reply…
One is the love between the two of us
Two is who I am, especially when I’m with you
Three is for every time I think of you with every breath in me
Four is for every time you leave me wanting more
Five is for the inspiration that your beautiful soul fills me with making me feel alive
Six is for the way you hold me at night…its always an elegant remix
Seven is the way you look me in the eyes… I feel like I’m flying through heaven
Eight is for the ways you have with me…it’s impossible to escape
Nine if for what the future holds for us, so intensely divine
Therefore it’s for us to define…
Definition come with time and time is patient
So I’ll continue to love until love loves me 
And embraces these relations
With a better understanding


By: Aleasha A. Martin


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Demolition Lovers

"This time we will show them all how much we mean"

Walking into the school
Short blonde hair
Stunning blue eyes
Wearing make up on his face
The paint on his face
Is a skilled drawing of a skull
As he passes
Everyone starres
He keeps walking foreward
Not looking at them

She enters through the other end of the hallway
Long blonde hair
Deep brown eyes
Also wearing makeup on her face
A skilled drawing of a smaller skull
All the girls she passes
Starre at her
Wondering what kind of girl would 
Wear makeup like that

The Boy and the girl
Meet in the middle of the hallway
They hold eachothers hands
And continue down the hallway

Seeing them from behind
You read on his backpack
"I gave you my bullets..."
And on her bag you can see
"And i gave you my love"
They walk out of the school together
All the teachers starring
All the students watching there every move
They walk straight out to his car
A black Mustaine 1998
Before they get to the bridge 
He ties there hands together

They drive 10 miles
To a bridge
Theres a hill
A bridge
And a river
Hes going 90 mph
She clinches his hand
He looks at her with a smile on his face
She looks back at him pale as a ghost
The car jumps over the bridge into the river
The lovers dying on empact
Forever tied together by
The rope he tied earlier

Like a bed of roses
Theres alot of reasons
Why we are laying here
As we are falling down into
The pool of blood
I see your eyes
I mean this when I say forever.


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Pleads

Please
Don't start
And don't stop
Let me feel you
Within you and without you
let me hold you in mine
let me feel you in my mind
let the words fall into place this time
but don't forget your joy of rhyme
so let me feel you now
in this holiest of places
this habitual sane asylum
this unforgiving tale
let me 

Please

Don't fail
Let me sail
let me out of jail
don't let me be pale
im not well alone
lost in my
rivers sigh

Goodbye
And hello
Im very sorry
I did not know
I just let it show
So now you just might know
The dillemas i've so obviously been showing
The fears that i withhold from seeemingly growing
The doubts I enstowed, but never bowed
So let me know
Let me know
Let me
Please


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A Quarrel Of Friends

Things of value and much importance
Can tend to separate friends in accordance
The family, the life and are one's happiness
The thought of wrangles with unexpected origins
And throwing minds so blown away as by storm
Finding peace in what is to perform
False wisdom from envy and selfish ambition
Wishing to have what your friend has which is bringing collision
This thinking otherwise, taming totally your lies
About which is impossible, made this being possible in truth so washable
What a quarrel of friends, to tell the truth that offends
Friendship is turning dark and perversely so black
And you cannot see them in front only at your back
Turning this friendlier, thought of whose are interior
Should we be this quarrelsome in an audience full of applause?


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Disapear

Dont follow me
I am the thing that should not be
Nothing left to see
How could you blame me?
I got kicked out of school
Im nothing but a failed soul
Waste of life
Killin myself with every type of knife
I chose the wrong path
Couldnt find my other half
Soon i will disapear
Nothing... 
im not going to share
You dont not care
Im not telling you what you want to hear
These ending days youll live in fear
You dont like the things i wear
Falling into more dispare
Into the skies
Further into the stars
You will see
12-12-12
My ending is here






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Blurred Reflection

Mirror Your heart Shatters to shreds You splinter me Your reflection haunts me forever I reflect on you I don't wanna lose you I am snowed under by your rejection I don't wanna lose my head But, I love you forever You haunt me Your reflection... Tramples my infection Your heart Blurs


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26 Stitches

26 stitches is my life. Hardly got a family and no room for a wife. Don't ask questions that you don't want to know. I have already buried myself but where he only knows. Afraid of the consequences but to numb to change. I might open the book but I'm too afraid to turn the page. Tomorrow is another day but to me it never changes. Stuck in this Groundhog Day... Just another 26 stitches. I don't know why they stand beside me. It must be love. But since I lost my brother self-loathing has become my crutch. 26 stitches are how i live my life. The only one who can intervene has since taken his own life. 26 stitches i will forever be. I will see you in heaven, hell or somewhere in between.


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You Are Hard

You are hard, you are brash,
Your swagger is flash,
And when we touch base, your talk turns to cash.

You are loud, especially in a crowd,
But when your rowdy anger flies
Your friends are suitably cowed.

You are strong, but weak as well,
When someone's wrong you give them hell,
But when they're right you're even worse -
oh, how we love to hear you curse!

Hopes and hearts you broke before
lie littered by each bedroom door,
In their love-lost legions,
they nurse their dark sweet lesions.

You of ice, then of wild fire,
A self-confessed accomplished liar.
Yet still we dance attendance full, 
on you - our heart's desire!

You will not leave a friend without,
But on that friend will scream and shout.
No stauncher ally can be found,
But to your life we must be bound.

Tough as diamond, soft as silk,
No deeper well of kindness' milk.
On we who dwell within your walls,
No shadow of oblivion falls!


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Stubborn Stain

1st Verse:
Do you love me
Wish I knew
Will we ever
Make it through
Try to trust you
Understand
I know you are
Just a man

1st Bridge:
It is worth it 
Wasted time
Hope it ages like
fine wine

Chorus:
Every moment floats on air
Every time you are near
Always thinking 
Clouds my brain
Clinging like a stubborn stain

2nd Verse:
Do you feel it
Do you care
Hiding feelings 
Everywhere
Will you say it
Set it free
Tell me what
You feel for me

2nd Bridge:
If you dont soon 
I'll let go
Other seeds for me to sew

Chorus:
Every moment floats on air
Every time you are near
Always thinking 
Clouds my brain
Clinging like a stubborn stain



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Have Courage

Keep fighting with your might; I will see you, shining tonight,
My little starlight...don't be defeated by depression by your delayed flight 
You shattered my hopelessness and doused me with delight
When will you take flight, you angel of love, burning so bright?

Believe in yourself
Don't place me in the far left shelf
Believe in me...please...
Put my mind at...ease...
Have courage...
Behave and be brave

I wish you well 
You're a heaven, not a hell
Where do you dwell now?
You make my heart pound somehow

Believe in yourself
Don't place me in the far left shelf
Believe in me...please...
Put my mind at...ease...
Have courage...
Behave and be brave

Have no inner rage...you're a red, white and blue robin in a cage
be compassionate and gentle...
Even though we're on a different page...we should've been on the same page
You're beautiful and little...

Believe in yourself
Don't place me in the far left shelf
Believe in me...please...
Put my mind at...ease...
Have courage...
Behave and be brave

Don't squander my time
I'm the poet, needing more time to rhyme
I can't conquer this feeling of anxiety,
Succumbing to suicidal ideations...kissing fatality...
But, there's hope in mind...I'm sorry, I'm not your kind
There's more courage inside, but there's a monster, dying to come out...and I'm coming along with the ride
But I can't let go of you, for I've been left behind
Only to find your shadows and I have nowhere to hide


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Closure to Rest

Give me some time to let this love go, 
To rid all the pain,
OH how it grows,
You’ve changed me forever,
I’ll never forget,
Your words of advice,
I gave much respect,
You helping me change,
And how not to forget,
I give all my thanks,
With no regrets 
Of how much I cared 
Don’t ever forget 
How strong my love was
Too strong for you yet
 Forever my love
And forever was it meant
Until you said never 
So nevers what you'll get
Yet forever in my heart
Is where this love sits 
As I feel like im stuck in a bottomless pit
Stuck am I not 
Just in a big mess
These feelings they kill
I just don’t want the stress 
Of this love that’s so strong
I now put it to rest 
To rid all my fears
Stuck inside of my chest 
Its closure I need
In order to rest 
I have now gotten it all 
Off of my chest
Thanks for your time 
And for holding your breath 
Now you should know of  this love in my chest 


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What My Heart Screams

You caught my eye
When you first walked by
As I glance at you on that table
Just that look is irresitible
I like when you talk
Come take a walk
Here's just one problem
A question not answered
A secret my heart hides
Behind these beautiful blind eyes
It tears me apart inside
Over and over I yell
Inside my head 
It cannot tell
Why me?
Why now?
Can't figure this out
I cry my eyes out
Melted on the ground
My head is there
Spinning roound and round
I stop and realize
What my heart screams
It's what was in front of me after all
Just you and me


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Fig Tree

Its all useless why do I even try.
I spent hours of rolling tape on my bag,
So the anger stuffing will not fly.

I have this anger in me that I cannot explain,
Pain shoots up my back then tells my brain.
Calm as I can be thinking it’s the pills they feed me.
Little do they know It’s my broken spirit on a fig tree


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For Bob Dylan

Ramblin' Bob Dylan Blues
(For Bob Dylan)



Why does the sun dry up so many scattered tears

slipping down the coarse cheek of a million hushed fears

where no one is scalded though the searing fog clears

while prayers are mutely spoken even as the end nears

We shatter and scrape on demented knees

Blindly begging for mercy as it silently flees

Searching listlessly for salvation drowned in the breeze

That spits at the soft rose suffocated by a wheeze


I know now what I need never have known

Of hope that was trampled before it had flown

Into a wasted sky filled with hate that could drown

The giggling of the crowd and the crying of the clown


A hope so fragile that its wings were of brittle glass

Ripping the veneer off the sewers of class

Twisting the fabric of the weighed and costed mass

Who numbly waited hoping that it too may pass


For when shards of that hope in all hearts scurries away

To a darkness where crowded night is emptied off the heaving tray

'Tis then when sewn eyes shall behold that doleful day

When all shall tear at each other while on demented knees we still shall pray


For a lifting of the veil of that wilful deceit

That's wrapped up in a flag swollen with conceit

While the limbs splinter in the claw of a winner's defeat

Yet still the drums roll for the ill-fated souls chose never to retreat


From that drenched battle-ground where blood flows through a sieve

And love's lost song plaintively begs for a reprieve

From eternal loss which into raw emotion does cleave

Only to slip through the fingers and like grains of sand, leave.


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UNFORTUNATE DOVE

    UNFORTUNATE DOVE
Once more it's morning and I greet the dawn,
waking to feelings I've known,
breathing the fragrance that's lingering on
throughout a lifetime alone;

splinters of sunshine are drifting through blinds,
revealing dust I breathe in,
dancing through flashes, and somehow reminds
of things that never have been;

I hear a song and it's what I've dreamed of,
outside my window they mourn,
I'd face the morning, but I need a shove,
for this poor heart badly torn;

unfortunate dove, why is it you sing,
outside my window each day?
It's a reminder of what life won't bring,
mourning dove, don't fly away;

once more it's morning and I hear the dove
all of my life is a sin,
it's just the way of unfortunate love,
but I still dream now and then.
       ©  ron wilson aka Vee Bdosa the Doylestown Poet


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Two Minds

I fall in two minds that leave me with mixed feelings and questions...should I love 

you or let you go?

Am i sure that i need you? Will i ever know?

Why did i fall so hard? Why was it you i fell for?

How did you scar my heart so bad? Why do i love you more than before?

Should i move on before it's too late?

Why is it when i work, i can never concentrate?

Who else will i meet that i find is made for me?

Why do i think you were really made for me?

Why are you the poison running through my vains?

Is there a cure for these memories planted in my brain?

Will there ever be a time i can't tell you how i feel anymore?

Do you think i'd still wait for you until forever? Am i even sure?

I'm lost in what to do, so what can i say?

If wishes come true, why can't things my way?


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Pure

My cigarette smoke fills my lungs
with lust and anger
making me feel more like a stranger

If only I could put it out like a
blazing fire
In return I'll be pure
for that's my heart's desire.


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The Nocturnal Curse

We will meet again 
Like thousand times before 
Beauty and her ugly beast . 
Mincing morning smile , 
Involved in our prolonged , repeated , possible conversation
Running away from the spears of direct feelings , 
Rambling in the emptiness of the day hours , till it get dizzy  
And pour its torturing , merciful departure on our heads . 
 
Destroyed .. I come back  
Like thousand times before  
To sink in my heavy darkness ; 
In mud ; like overwintering frogs , 
And see you in your incredible haze , 
Blasting , get higher gaily , out of the impossible limits of reason  
Till your eyes trammel in my eyes for a time 
Like thousand times before , 
And question passes in your mind , 
And your lips murmurs in baffler common-sensical 
A very very far answer . 
 
O my flower .. my beauty curse 
If you could only know what pain inside this mud ,
If you could only understand its heavy bearing and weakness 
If you saw your hands is fog , 
Your heart is fog , 
Your soul is fog . 
If you saw the night in your eyes a gate of a crushed city by thousand armies , 
And saw your little heart in the fallen streets distributed on the horses shoes and 
hawks beaks ; 
You would cry .. as I surely did . 
 
And fail .. like thousand times I failed 
To hang with a tiny , tiny smile .. 
In the meeting time . 
And leave .. like thousand times I left , 
Without your heart trembling and ask you to stay . 
And ramble .. Like thousand times I rambled , from the capture of the words , 
In our prolonged , repeated , possible conversation 
To dream of sleeping on my hands . 
 
O my beauty .. we will meet again 
Like thousand times .. we will meet again ; 
Beauty and her ugly beast . 
Mincing morning smile 
Involved in our prolonged , repeated , possible conversation .. 
Running away from the spears of direct feelings ; 
As a curse brought your heart down , 
From its incredible haze . 
As a curse brought my heart up , 
From its heavy mud . 
As a curse wondering every night by the evening 
Collecting the hearts from the horses shoes and hawks beaks , 
And give them .. some soul .


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fallen nation

(chorus)
sign up for the fallen nation/
become a part of complication/
live life of silent frustration/
only way to gain salvation/

(vrs1)
cheat yourself out of living a lie/
dont choose to live, youd rather die/
hate your past its gone forever/
original, youll never remember/


sign up for the fallen nation/
become a part of complication/
live life of silent frustration/
only way to gain salvation/

(vrs2)
burned the words of memories/
blind our eyes so we can see/
make us feel the endless pain/
our minds have slowly gone insane/

(vrs3)
sign up now, dont delay/
turn your  bodies into fake/
swallow pride to be a leader/
learn to become the perfect cheater/

sign up for the fallen nation/
become a part of complication/
live life of silent frustration/
only way to gain salvation/

(vrs4)
be fed our nations lies they taste better than the truth/
cant stop until we've gotten hold of freedom seeking youth/
be fed our lies, choke them down/
dont try to fight, youd rather drown/

sign up for the fallen nation/
become a part of complication/
live life of silent frustration/
only way to gain salvation/









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I'd Do Anything: Losing the Race

I'd do anything...for you
I'd sacrifice my life...for you
I could hike Mount Everest...for you
I'd feed off of your despondency...for you
I'd walk on hot coals...for you
I'd do the impossible...for you
It's true...
I'm positively sure that 
I love you...
I'd give up my life...for you
Still, you don't have a clue?

Sorry for giving up right in front of you... 

Oh! you're always on my mind 
In my everyday thoughts...
I can't stop thinking about you...
you give me hope in mind
Even when you're far away from me
But, I still need you to stay positive...
Thank God you have a kind heart to forgive
The things I didn't mean to say
Why do things not go my own way? 

I'd do anything...for you
I'd sacrifice my life...for you
I could hike Mount Everest...for you
I'd restore your entire life...for you
I'd walk on hot coals...for you
I'd do the impossible...for you
It's true...
I'm positively sure that 
I love you...
I'd give up my life...for you
You still don't have a clue,
Do you?

Abide in the light...reach to a divine height 
Stay with me just for this night
You're my lamp, shedding delight
Stay with me - you're a dazzling sight
Push aside the callous...heartless night 
I witness the tears streaming down your face
I'm frantically wiping them away...I'm sorry for losing the race
I'm sorry...for everything I've done...


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Save Me

Drowning…
Drowning…can you save me? (save me…angel of light…)
I’ve been drowning…what about you? (when will you take flight?)
In my mind’s eye, 
I see you…and I stare in wonder
I’m waiting for your reply
To my screams…is it all in my head?

I hear your fascinating voice
But, it’s all in my head
I hear you calling for help
But, I hear my own dread…

Weighed down…
The world weighs me down…(save me…angel of light…)
I feel your touch and I feel so alive again…(when will you take flight?)
Because I see you…brought low by depression 
The thought of you
Makes me bleed out regret
I’m waiting for your reply
To my cries…of sadness and dread

I hear your fascinating voice
But, it’s all in my head
I hear you calling for help
But, I hear my own dread…

I’m terribly sorry
For causing you unbearable pain
I’m sorry…for everything I’ve done…
Nothing can save me from my fate…
My fate…to fly away from the spiraling world
I cherish the thought of you
Taking wing all over again…

I hear your fascinating voice
But, it’s all in my head
I hear you calling for help
But, I hear my own dread… 

I hear your soothing voice ring in my head…
But, nothing can stop me from my fate
My fate…to fly away from this wretched world…
This world of woe…makes me ache and hesitate…

I hear your fascinating voice
But, it’s all in my head
I hear you calling for help
But, I hear my own dread… 

I don’t understand the pain you feel
I’m so sorry…so sorry…
I don’t know what it’s like in your shoes
I’m full of misery,
But I still hear your voice,
Ringing in my head…
Saturating me with dread

I hear your fascinating voice
But, it’s all in my head
I hear you calling for help
But, I hear my own dread… 

I hear my own dread…I’m falling
Into a black hole…into deep misery
I hear your dread…I’m fading
And I can’t let go of past sorrow…
Your voice…draws me a picture of the dawn…
Your voice…draws me a picture of the sun…

I hear your fascinating voice
But, it’s all in my head
I hear you calling for help
But, I hear my own dread… 
It’s my time to live…and it’s your time to move on…
It’s my time to face my fate…and it’s your time to sing me to sleep
Stay with me until the dawn…
Stay here, dear
Have no fear…darling angel

I hear your fascinating voice
But, it’s all in my head
I hear you calling for help
But, I hear my dread instead…
Save me please…


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Indian burial ground

The Indian rounds the corner of the room
Seeing the sadness through the eyes of a girl
There are a lot of things about this world that we don't know 
the truth behind humanity the heartbeat of ones last breathe
or the pain one suffers mentally 

I don't even know if people can see the truth
Or if they shut themselves out of the real and into the fake
We all know the fakness of what a human can put off
We all know the sickness one stores inside their skull
Can we all see what's going on? this day I see some that are still blind
 some that are so blind they can not imagine! 

The things one can do
The things one may hide

A life filled with questioning
A life full of hate and despair 
A life of several lies
A life with no reason of existing

A series of depression
A time of regret
A worry of fear 

A fear of ourselves 

An unwritten book with no pen to write with

Voice of reason


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Trapped

A prisoner of darkness
Was all I could be.
Trapped and alone inside
Along a blackened sea
No one to hold me
To keep me alive
Completely abandoned
No reason to survive.

Then there was a light
Small but getting brighter
It drowned out the darkness
And made me a fighter. . .
Before i'd go with everything
And let them chain me down
Now I start to question them
I start to keep my ground.

Why should I let them stab me?
And see my blood run free
There's a reason that I need to live
To let myself be me.
No one holds me down
Without paying a price.
Why should they anger me
Then expect me to be nice?

I now... Have a beating heart
And a gleam in my eyes
Someone to kiss and hug me
And keep my soul alive.


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Again and Again

Again and again in a world 
dreaded I most. 
For unknown certainties tears apart 
the collated I. 

Again and again in a world 
Faith of him seemest to fall 
for unknown either like before 
in real past one. 

Again and again in a world 
death! Preferred? 
For unknown cruelties puzzle 
hearts in fixed making. 

Again and again in a world 
unfound easiness breath dizziness, 
stiff up queasiness so tempest 
on this total-fixed thing. 

Again and again in a world 
ball pen and pad sought 
penning down black and white 
though as custom, really? 

Again and again in a world 
dreaded as the sight of a chasing gargantuan cobra, 
for unknown certainties questioning 
the embittered fixed heart so badly. 


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Faith Healer

The odor is intolerable
Like a foul beast clinging to the end 
I can barely subdue its subterfuge 
But here I am, 
I’m standing here of sound and mind
Waiting for the time that answers my own questions

Can it race with the fires of Orc?
Doubtful, but it can jog steadily can’t it?
The weather is awful, filled with sounds
Penetrating a document not written
It pains me to fight through the night
Not because it’s dark, but because I am just a shadow.

Lester drives but
Motional lasts forever
Still driving
Still crying
And slowly dying as time waves on
Like oceans that can’t be seen.

Nobody cares and everyone listens
Ironic, like a bible that holds lies and deception
Can its will be pierced?
Can freedom stay free?
Is it worth it to stay hooked when everyone around
Seeks liberty?


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Satan's Follower

Sit in a room full of crowded faces
A man dressed in black
Black long wavy hair
And a black suit
He waves his hand at her
A motion telling her to come here
She gets up off her seat
And walks over to him
He grabs her hand and walks out of the room with her
He opens the door to his cab
She climbs in 
He shuts the door
Climbing into the driver seat
Driving off to Sunset Boulevard
He turns down a dirt road
The sun disappears
It turns dark as the trees cover the sun
He stops the vehicle
She turns and watches him get out of the car
He opens her door and grabs her arm
Throwing her down unto the ground
Pulling up her skirt and rubs her leg
He slaps her face real hard
She hits him back and fights for her life
He grabs a rock and hits her in the skull 3 times
Rubbing the blood off with his finger
Then softly licks every single finger her blood touched
He rubs her face
Picking her up and taking her to his childhood home
Opening the door he sits her on the floor
Spreading her out
Laying candles all around her
Offering her to Satan
He sings and chants
Burning her skin with his cigarettes
He sees whats left of her soul vanish 
The ritual is over
He stabs her in the heart 4 times
Then stands there and laughs
He walks out of the house and lights it on fire
Watching it go up in flames
He walks away
Hiding behind a mask
Satan's little follower
Another nobody


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Shame on Me

I used you for my own comfort
I’m sorry if I hurt your feelings by my worthless words
I used to be an adventurous boy
I wiped the grime from my feet
And I felt that, lately, I’ve been feeling rather down
Shame on me for leaving you…
Shame on me…I want to go to the beach
Don’t play games with me…I want to go shopping
Dried up and having my heart go on fire…
Release me…lick me with Your love
Afraid to lose control again
Shame on me…I want to go to the beach
Don’t play games with me…I want to go shopping
Dried up and having my heart go on fire…
Release me…lick me with Your love
Afraid to lose control again
I used to be innocent
I’m sorry if I burnt your hope…and sent you bad luck
I used to be a lonely boy, but now I’m not alone
I erased the filth from my mind
Shame on me…I want to go to the beach
Don’t play games with me…I want to go shopping
Dried up and having my heart go on fire…
Release me…lick me with Your love
Afraid to lose control again
And I felt that, honestly, I’ve been rolling down the hill
Shame on me for leaving you… 
Shame on you for dumping me in the trash
Shame on me for saying words of garbage
Shame on me…I want to go to the beach
Don’t play games with me…I want to go shopping
Dried up and having my heart go on fire…
Release me…lick me with Your love
Afraid to lose control once more


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When You Fall For The Wrong One

I guess I always knew
That it was too good to be true
That I never really had you in my hand
Just a filler, a time killer
Just a soft place you could land
Not the girl that you’d imagined or had planned
 
But now your ring is on her finger
And her name is on your heart
And I’m left here with my memories
Trying not to fall apart
 
‘Cause you let me
Slip through your fingers
You never looked back
And you let me, pick up your pieces
But I never thought that
I’d be the one in pieces
When it was over, said and done
But I guess that’s just what happens
When you fall for the wrong one
 
As crazy as it sounds, I still wouldn’t change a thing
I wouldn’t take a moment back from us
I don’t regret the moments
When you told me everything
Won’t forget the side of you
That only I know
 
But now your ring is on her finger
And her name is on your heart
And I’m left here with my memories
Trying not to fall apart
 
‘Cause you let me
Slip through your fingers
You never looked back
And you let me, pick up your pieces
But I never thought that
I’d be the one in pieces
When it was over, said and done
But I guess that’s just what happens
When you fall for the wrong one
 
It’ll hurt one day, mark my words
One day when everything falls apart
When she breaks your heart
One day you’ll reach for me
You’ll see me in your dreams
But I’ll be gone
I’ll be gone
 
‘Cause you let me
Slip through your fingers
You never looked back
And you let me, pick up your pieces
But I never thought that
I’d be the one in pieces
When it was over, said and done
But I guess that’s just what happens
When you fall for the wrong one
 
But I’ll be gone…
I’ll be gone…


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Euphorianah

The sapphire-dust sun of what-were dreams
Swallow the scene, setting In the forsaken east
All I see, all I know fades into the reaper's monotone grey 
Death come near me, by my only choice 
My wintry desperation subdued, clings to they silent voice
The dusk reveals my truest nature before her blank argentine eyes
Life; the darkest of all tragedies, Romances' malady
Let me feel your breath in this frozen air
Your pulse shorter than ever
Despair's void grows inside me
Without, you I will live no longer

Forever with me you will stay
The darkness caressing means as I lay by thy grave 
Hatred no longer exits
Come back to me
Euphorianah

My Angel, why did you fly so far away
My Angel, let just one feather stay
My Angel has flown away

The winterwinds' tears fall on me
With whispers of you, someone I once knew
No matter in a dream or reality
Sweet tranquillity, stay with me
Calming the fears within
But the pain remains

The silvemoon's fears shine on you
Thine eyes search for mine
Oh how they shine, so deathly blue
If sacrifice needs a price
The dagger shows-
Heaven is calling us tonight

Forever with me you will stay
The darkness caressing means as I lay by thy grave 
Hatred no longer exits
Come back to me
Euphorianah

My Angel, why did you fly so far away
My Angel, let just one feather stay
My Angel has flown away

Covered in shadowy illusions 
Shall we dance?
Death will be lie dominion
You are my only queen
Euphorianah

Forever with me you will stay
The darkness caressing means as I lay by thy grave 
Hatred no longer exits
Come back to me
Euphorianah

My Angel, why did you fly so far away
My Angel, let just one feather stay
My Angel has flown away

Just let me die
If I cannot see
Euphorianah 
This night 


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Shine

I caught the ghost train
back to the house of pain
where she was waiting
standing naked in the rain.
I felt her warm breath
as she whispered a kiss.
Last thing i remember,
i was half way to my bliss.
and she said shine, shine, shine in the dark.
and i said shine, shine, shine light a spark,
and she said shine, shine, shine through the grey.
and i said shine shine shine your light away.

I felt all the faces 
staring back at me.
I felt so paro as i 
floated through this sea.
Halfway there i
decided i could run away.
But when i turned around
i was going the same way.
and she said shine, shine, shine in the dark.
and i said shine, shine, shine light a spark,
and she said shine, shine, shine through the grey.
and i said shine shine shine your light away.

I closed my eyes to listen
as the tears forgot to fall.
Silence screamed out answers
but i forgot them all.
Now can you hear me
as i never find my way,
to a place i can't remember
or a place i'd like to stay.
and she said shine, shine, shine in the dark.
and i said shine, shine, shine light a spark,
and she said shine, shine, shine through the grey.
and i said shine shine shine your light away.


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I'll give you my heart

I'll give you my heart, my soul it's true.
All these tears separate me from you.
The sound of your voice splits my heart in two.
My brain tries to blur out your face, still I hear your sweet voice and it makes me want to say, "Will you be my girl? If not for eternity, then...maybe...the prom?"


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Bipolar - The Revised Lyric

Here is the finished revised Lyric for Bipolar. The song can be heard at my poetry website vbdosa.com and then clicking the Bipolar link.
     BIPOLAR
Sometimes I can feel a magic like I've never known.
I could run a thousand miles. Run a thousand miles.
Sometimes it's more like I'm dying here all alone.
Sometimes I think I'll die alone.

Sometimes I can reach out for you, but you're made of stone.
I could die a thousand times. Die a thousand times.
Sometimes it's more like you're showing me I'm not alone.
Sometimes I think I'm not alone.

Euphoria. Up and down. In and out.
Up and down. Euphoria.

Sometimes I can feel a magic like you've never known.
I could run a thousand miles. Run a thousand miles.
Sometimes it's more like you're showing me I'm not alone.
Sometimes I think I'm not along.

Up and down. In and out.
Up and down. In and out.
Euphoria. Then I'm down. Down. Down.
Euphoria. Then I'm down. Down. Down.
© ron wison


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Struggle of Confusion

I'm dizzy. Yet, I cannot move at all. Nothing really makes sense.
I'm falling. Yet, my feet are firmly planted. My mind and body are playing tricks.
I'm crying. But, only on the inside. I don't know why I can't show the emotion.
I'm living. Or, is this my personal Hell? I cannot be sure, but I know I'm torn.
I'm moving on. But, occasionally think of it all. Was any of it even real?
I stand. On both feet and very tall. It's all much clearer now that you're gone.
I'm found. Yet, I was truly never lost. And now the strength to turn my cheek has finally been brought out.


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TELL ME WHY

      TELL ME WHY
If what I've done is love too much
too deep, and far too strong,
and languished in loves bitter touch
that stays with me too long
what hope have I to end in me
this love, to let it die?
When I know it will always be
but can not tell you why.

To hide it or to let it show
decisions of the heart,
when you've already seen and know
and did right from the start.
If all I've had is too much pain
whenever you are near
and let it show time and again
love that won't disappear
what hope have I of ending it?
Does real love ever die?
And so I let it show a bit
but cannot tell you why.

If all I've done is think on you
each minute of each day
and write your name a time or two
what hope is that some way
this love will ever cease to be
just stop? Just simply die?
This love that life has given me
but did not tell me why.


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Emily, my elephant

That's not my elephant!
My elephant is purple with black hair!
I use the bill of rights as an excuse for being such a tree hugger.
Before my elephant left she said, " Bye-bye loser" whatever that meant!
I'm furious beyond belief that my elephant, Emily, would leave.
She hasn't written to tell me she's alright.
Has she been murdered or even worse,
CAPTURED!?
It's amazing.
After twenty months I still can't find you or your remains.
I held a funeral for you, in anticipation of your return.
My heart's broken beyond belief.
Wait,
who are we talking about again?


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Third

What's it take to get noticed?
Do I have to learn to speak another language?
Or maybe I have to cut out my heart and lay it on the ground for you!
You seem to think that every person in the world is better and more important that I am!
Rain check, I'm a part of who you are. Without me you're nothing but a short little thug
looking for true love.

The love that you always thought was there. That you thought would never criticize you in
any way possible.
Your heart shattered into fifty pieces.
At least it's not a cliche as a thousand or a hundred broken pieces.
It's an insurmountable amount of pain, being the third wheel of someone's life.
I know your name but do you know mine?
I'm that kid that seems to break your heart every time.
I don't know what to call myself because I've stayed too long in your mind and never in
your heart.
I've stayed too long in your love life now it's time to pack my bags and get out.
Throw up my deuces.
You know what that means don't you?
I'm not gonna be picking up my phone now and next time if we ever meet, I'm not gonna be
the one to bleed nor will I leave with a broken heart.
Just me and my fists, cutting through the line and breaking down the tension.


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June 23rd

Am I waiting for you or destiny?
You fell into my hands once but I let you slip away.
On June 23rd you didn’t say a word, but I guess it started before my mind could grasp reality.
What was I thinking? Maybe I wasn’t thinking at all.
I looked at you with a face full of shame or…was it embarrassment?
I can’t remember what I was I feeling or what I was looking at.
Was it you or someone else who devoured my ability to talk?
I stood there. Isolated from the world as if I were some crazy lunatic holding a gun in my hand.
Why was I here?
I didn’t need to be next to her or in the same room as her.
She breathed down my neck or was it just the wind?
My teacher began with a monotonous voice.
“First five seats of every row are to be filled.”
My heart became heavy like an anchor.
I blocked the sounds that came from her mouth, until I heard “John.”
I knew who was next… I just hoped that she wouldn’t continue her protest but time went by and not a single word or good-bye.
I guess that day really was the end of my smooth stainless literature.


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I'm Already Dead

I'm not some one you can just use like a rag-doll.
I'm human and I'm pretty sure I have a soul to call my own.
I never lied about my feelings for you, but you really don't give a rat's behind because I'm behind your mind, never in your eyes.
I'm gone, *poof*, just vanished in to thin air like Plankton being flicked out of Mr. Crab's nose hair.
I'm a funny dude, right?
But I had my soul taken away.
Ask me how I'd rather die.
Go ahead don't be ashamed.
'Cause to tell you the truth - I'm already dead.


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Just a Pawn March 4 2011

All that I am is twisted into knotts,
my chest is heavy, I can't breath.
I am being smothered by my own fears,
somebody please come set me free.

Wishing I was free from the voices in my head,
and the constant screaming in my ears.
I pray for just a moment of silence,
to make them magically disappear.

It's always busy upstairs,
there is never a dull moment.
There is constant movement from sun up to sun down,
and my sanity has all been spent.

There's nothing left but the voices I hear,
my insanity has all control.
I'm just a pawn in a never ending game,
all of it is eating away at my soul.

I feel tied down by leather straps,
with there many commands I must follow.
Held capative by my own mental defects,
hold back all emotions don't ever let them show.


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THE MUSE OF YOU

   THE MUSE OF YOU
Through all of time and all of space,
and following into the chase
but never catching what I've seen
nor even knowing what I mean
it's not a thing my mind can place.

Your eyes, so deep, I never know
where you might lead, where I must go,
but there I find what I must write
the words, though sometime seeming trite,
and from your eyes they have to flow.

No less than what is meant to be
the Muse of you carresses me;
I wonder is this love or not,
or something else, but don't know what,
and I must follow what I see.

Forever summer rain will fall
into my life, and love is all
there is to be my wordly guide;
between each line is where I hide,
if I do less, then I have lied.

And so the truth I have to show,
revealing what I never know,
but wonder at, as words come on
out of your eyes, where I have gone,
and been where I should never go.
     © ron wilson aka vee bdosa the doylestown poet


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Someone, Someday

It’s so hard to start
It’s so hard to finish
It feels as if all that you've accomplished will someday be diminished 
And it won’t matter if you become somebody some day
Because someone will easily take your place 
Steal your ideas 
And make a living off you, THEIR way

It’s sad but true
Every mutha f**ka 
Will take a piece of your mind
and will somehow ultimately f**k you

not physically but mentally
making you think 
you’re not one of a kind
their getting all the fame 
while everyone leaves you behind

leaving you to feel like a failure 
people telling you to talk to God, 
he’ll have the answer

I pray, looking up at the ceiling
Hoping he’ll will give me a reason….
To keep going on with my life and my ideas
But all I’m left with are clones of my feelings
Washed up on canvases with some else’s fake veneers 


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when i was young

when i was young at five or six,
the smallest of my parent's kid's.
i was lost as pawn in game.
pulled and pushed and used for gain.

they split us up two boys,two girl's.
gave each of us our separate world's.
sent away many mile's apart.
broken in spirit,mind and heart.

i remember having many a home.
all which seemed dark,damp and cold.
i remember never saying a word.
children should be seen not heard.

i remember the social's work.
and the over intrusive question's incurred.
i remember the loneliest of child's.
and probably still can if i face my denial's.

when i was young at nine or ten.
i started loosing myself then.
replaced by uncertain night's and day's.
wondering who next will go away.

they didn't just take my thirst for life.
but made me retreat to what's inside.
my fallen life in a judge's hand's.
an entire family tried upon the stand.

i lost one parent for ever then.
when i was young at nine or ten.


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Goth

Somber grey,true dismay
Abstruse plight,day is night
Assailants might,no armistice
           Goth
Abatoirs full of disgorge
A world depraved,a blackish haze
Ignominous calamity
            Goth
Fathomless,the abyss
Callosity,the damned to be
Feinous atrocities
             Goth
Evil adulation,whole affectation
Amoral fixation,mind controlled nations
Robotic existence,lost in decadence
             Goth


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Smeared Mirror

SMEARED MIRROR

Looking dead at me 
in this smeared mirror...

a lost man
tormented 
face red
brittle with tears

making excuses 
abusing
as I glare
into the eyes of a monster with no conscience 
and a demonstrative stare

a guilty reflection appears
in this prison cell of  fear
longing for an escape 
to wipe the mirror clear

who have I become? 
what have I even done right?

crossroads appear sudden 
as fog fills the mirror tonight

darkness owns the room
and prefers I suffer slow
so I proceed with speed 
because it’s the only way I know

horror stories
flood life’s hard bound chapters 
while this smeared mirror reflects tears
dripping from a face 
which was once filled with laughter.

~JSLambert 
                                                                        ©    PoeTTreeZ Publishing


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For All My Pain

Your blood is what was Sacrificed And in Blood we Shall Bathe No more pain nor more hate Will be shed for me ...This is only a desperate dream A slight tender touch on the largest of wounds can leave you screaming for an eternity Dreaming of an escape, A friend from a figment of dark a world from the abyss of my mind Set to fix all of your transgressions Every time you left, abandoned, stranded, forget me A human heart has a limit but It's only I who is left to blame Drifting beyond Aphelion Why must the loudest of Cries Go unheard Maybe You'll know why I want Thagirion to Answer my Masked Prayers For All My Pain Constraining Me Making my Saturnine Mind Climb to the Apex Just to Fall again Maybe You'll know why I want Thagirion to answer all of my masked prayers For All My Pain Everyone turning against me I can't keep living a lie like this Lost In Life When death is the only hope Nothing is left to stay But the Fear of being afraid Let me lose this Let me enter another world Drifting beyond Aphelion Why must the loudest of Cries Go unheard Maybe You'll know why I want Thagirion to Answer my Masked Prayers For All My Pain Constraining Me Making my Saturnine Mind Climb to the Apex Just to Fall again Maybe You'll know why I want Thagirion to answer all of my masked prayers For All My Pain Drifting beyond Aphelion Why must the loudest of Cries Go unheard Maybe You'll know why I want Thagirion to Answer my Masked Prayers For All My Pain Constraining Me Making my Saturnine Mind Climb to the Apex Just to Fall again Maybe You'll know why I want Thagirion to answer all of my masked prayers For All My Pain


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Flight of Enola Gay

    FLIGHT OF ENOLA GAY
Will you tell us tomorrow where we're going, Enola Gay?
There's so much more we wanted to say.
But there's no time for sorrow,
we'll enjoy time that's left,
Though we know our time ended yesterday.

We could tell you the story, but no body understands,
Nagasaki, Hiroshima, distant lands.
It's not clear what we're doing,
but we're pursueing it all wrong,
It's a madness and I'll leave it in your hands.

Nagasaki sadness. Hiroshima madness.
Colorado Rocky Mountain High.
Are they worth pursueinig
all the things we're doing?
I don't know and it's too late for us to wonder why.

     Enola Gay, on silver wings
      What is it now, that your love brings us
     High above, your spirit flies,
       and dumps your load in Fukushima skies.

poetry by veebdosa


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The Other Me

Slowly,
Creeping,
Sliding,
Gliding,
Gripping,
Choking.
Ever so quietly
Engulfing my being

Don't know her
Never seen before
And yet...
She is me
I am her
I am NOT!

Glass shatters
Mirror is broken
Millions of pieces
Hands are bleeding
She is gone!

She haunts me
I killed her
I broke the mirror
Her cold dark eyes
mock me
My ignorance
amuses her

Millions of pieces
millions of eyes

Pieces are swept
Beads of sweat
into my eyes
Stinging!Ow!
I am all alone now

And yet-
She is there
With me
Sitting,
waiting,
laughing,
mocking.

'I'm coming...'
she says
Cold,dark, metallic voice
'To become you'
Soulless eyes
Mirthless laugh

I fight
I scream
NO!
'Yes' she says
A blood curdling whisper
'I am you'
'You are me'
She laughs


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Understanding What

I’m on the verge of being left alone because understanding never understood what I was going through. Love never said I care so much; ohhhh let me kiss you because I missed the strength in your eyes. So let’s break it down with a fake smile. Let’s push until we see how far things go without the understanding of us knowing what to do in our situation. How far before things are falling apart & over so the emotional roller coasters ride that ends tragically, Crashed and burn in return of selfish thoughts. 
How well were you taught, your insecurities speak loud and your actions UN thought of. What would you call yourself?  Really? You know the truth. How much do you need to prove to yourself before you realize how wrong you were?
 No need to answer.
 I've tried, & tried & tried without a winning streak. I've walked & talk with myself trying to grasp an understanding, demanding a solution to adding things instead of subtracting. Fractions are easy but, this mathematical problem doesn't seem to have a solution. Negative words have polluted the thoughts of everyone in their lifetime. For once let’s not be blinded by leading other blind people into our misguided thoughts of corruption. & if you’re lacking in your understanding I'm saying, be more positive. 
Yes everyone is going through things but my things may hurt me more than you thought. So please keep your negative insights on his life, my life & hers. & remember understanding to some are just words.


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WHY DREAMING YOU IS A NIGHTMARE

I see you in my dreams, not as a comfort,
Not as an emancipation but as a nightmare.
Those discarded recollections rapidly retort
With dreadful visions that endlessly glare.

I wonder why dreaming you is a nightmare.
Perhaps, I do not possess enough memories
Of you, besides, the good ones are very rare.
My Subconscious visualizes myriad stories.

I shut eyes and try to break my dreamy cage.
Going in a trance, I behold you, I sense you
But opening eyes, I realize that it’s a mirage,
My nightmarish wishes evaporate like dew.


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Blonde 'beauty'

no pun no pun no pun
well he says that i have won
does he see my hair in the sun?
it defines who really has won

it's him it's him it's him
he's getting over the stretch i can't swim
and as the lights are getting dim
my hair sullenly needs a trim

He smiles he smiles he smiles
and stares at me all the while
but as i fall down to the tile
it becomes my hardest trial

i cry i cry i cry
because i know i've told a lie
and my life has passed me by
when i caught myself in his eye

I run i run i run
because he thinks that i have won
this hair so blonde in the sun
reflects the fact that i am done


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Beyond sight...

Through my eyes
I see a world laid before me.
A world of color
where many is looked at
but less is seen.
My “eyes” would see the world,
but the world would see only “me”.
I wonder what the world would see
if they looked in my eyes instead…
Would it be the same image they see in “me”?

I maybe in pain,
but I may cast a smile
to the world outside.
They will see only my laughter,
but not the fire of agony
burning in my eyes.

I may have committed crime,
and maybe helpless though I regret it.
I may play an act of innocence
trying to believe it never happened,
in the effort of starting a new life.
But, the guilt in my eyes 
would give the final verdict
which the world would not know
unless they seek the truth in my eyes.

I may sympathies.
But, my words may express
very little to be heard.
But, the world will not see
the kindness in my eyes.
Since, the words spoken by the eyes
are meant to be felt,
not to be heard.

They; the world may look at my eyes
But, may fail to look into my eyes.
Amongst them all
you and I may have passed by a many times,
but, the moment our eyes meet –
what is it that I see?
Not a world of color
like I have been looking at before..
But, if not for color, how can I see?
Now I come to realize
that what I see is a world beyond my sight;
a world of thought and imagination.
What is it I see in your eyes?
Trust? love? hatred? sympathy? or depression?

You may wonder the same.
But, this moment of eye contact
would unknowingly provide the answer,
taking us away from this world
to the deepest depth of the world of thought 
behind our eyes.
But, with one blink
we shall come down to earth again-

We have not spoken a word,
but have communicated a silent message
of a million words.
As the eyes express suppressed words
which are longed to be spoken.

After this moment
I shall look back and walk away,
taking with me the memory
of the look in your eyes.
I know not whether we shall meet again.
But, we share a moment that will last till the end;
a journey to a world beyond our sight…

- Kushalee Jayawickreme -


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Death

Save me from utter death
That screams at me day and night
Save me…he was taking meth
And I am out of breath…and I received sight

It’s been a hard life as a child (baby)
I just have to remain mild (save me)
It’s been a difficult time for me (believe in me)
This lifetime has been a journey for me
And it has just begun…
When the sun refused to shine in my direction

Give in to life, darling angel
Give up your sorrow…your life will foretell
Your future…it rings like a church bell

It’s been a hard life as a child (baby)
I just have to remain mild (save me)
It’s been a difficult time for me (believe in me)
This lifetime has been a journey for me
And it has just begun…
When the sun refused to shine in my direction

Death chokes me until I surrender to it…
I’m living in fear…when will love draw near to me? 
Death tries to capture me in its trap
When will hope appear? God, be with me…

It’s been a hard life as a child (don't weep for me)
I just have to remain mild (save me)
It’s been a difficult time for me (believe in me)
This lifetime has been a journey for me
And it has just begun…
When the moon refused to show me God’s direction


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Freyja

 
Surging through this lifeless Body of mine Mania, Euphoria, Freyja Never let me run dry I am lost by your Sigh But I cannot cry What Is this coming over me this everlasting energy Never cease this utmost surprise I graciously prithee Sorcery of Insomnia Caught in Mania Only for Freyja Her Golden one Is Burning out Deranged Am I? Faster, Only Faster Harder, Only Harder In Bizarre Light I hold myself to another Flame Torturous Fun of this Game Sorcery of Insomnia Caught in Mania Only for Freyja Her Golden one Is Burning out Deranged Am I? Sensuality to it's new Peak Running again from the Fake obsolete Euphoric, Erotic All you want All you Desire Sorcery of Insomnia Caught in Mania Only for Freyja Her Golden one Is Burning out Deranged Am I?


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Hello -Feels Good-

Hello Feels Good 
written by David William Breidenthal (D.W.Breidenthal)

AN UNFINISHED SONG..... needs tons of editing!! 
Enjoy despite my lack of organization in this particular poem!

Hello, it's nice to see you again...
Greetings from my heart...promise me you won't break it apart
Hello, I'd love to bring you in...
We meet eye to eye....and I won't lie - it feels good to know you won't depart
From my arms.....
Until the end of time...
Until the world stops spinning 
Round and round...

(*Chorus* It feels good to know that someone cares 
It feels good to know you still abide in His light
It feels good to knowthat you take away my frightening nightmares
It feels good to know that your connected to my spirit like a halo
It feels bad to say goodbye...when I mean to say hello...
Never thought we were trapped in callous night...

Hello...I never had the heart to say goodbye....
'Cause you know...I can't handle feelin blue
Hello...I'd like to know how many times I've let you down...
I let you go one more time...let your soul ascend in the heartfelt sky.... )

When is it time to say hello? Is there a time to say goodbye?
Could yoou let me know will your heart be released from depression?
Is there a reason to say goodbye? Why do I envy you as you fly so high?
How can I feel relief when it's time to say farewell to our mission? 
I watch you grow so old...your legend shimmering like precious gold

*chorus* It feels good........etc. 
*bridge* Don't forget me...you were my heart's melody
Don't fly too far away from me
Unlock me from my misery...and treasure me like gold
You astonish me with your enchanting touch
Don't rush this moment, dear - 
you're the fire that keeps me warm
Is it the right time to say goodbye
When I want to say hello to this feeling of belonging...
Hello...x3 you keep me waiting for so long
you keep me waiting...I keep longing
for your ability to take wing
Can't help,but say hello
There's no need to say goodbye
You give me a natural high...I won't deny...

I won't lie
We've been going our seperate ways
Don't say goodbye
I haven't seen you in days...haven't seen you in a while...
But, I must learn to live with or without you...
When you leave my side, I'm the victim of fear 

*chorus*
*bridge*
You keep me safe from the predator
You nourish my soul...You're my dreamcatcher...
you're my stormy weather
You thrill my eyesight...like no other...
Why do I feel the need to say hello
When I'm forced to say goodbye forever?
Why do I feel as if you somehow know
What I'm talking about? Am I still sick from the love fever?

There's more to life than what meets the eye, dear friend
I feel you crawling in my heart...
There's a time to keep your head above the surface...who will mend
Our entwined hearts? Who will erase our fears 
That set us apart?
*chorus*

Without you, I'm nothing but a dim light
Without you, I'm meaningless...I'd 
miss our cherished delight
Life doesn't overflow with beauty and insight
Without you, I'm left with challenges that bite
Without you, I get rather depressed...I always crave your love night after night

What if hello was dead?
Would it put goodbye in its death bed?
What if hello embraced us with dread?
Would goodbye be a cure instead?


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The Colorado Kid

We took the morning by storm
Just another day in Maine
Until we met the Colorado Kid
He sat back on the beach
Holding remains of his death
His blue lips showed his last breath 

Seagulls on the whim
Never knowing him
Picking up his last meal
Showing off his muscles
Never looking back
Kicking buckets till his last

Authorities never pleased 
Can’t we identify him?
No more clues for the Eldorado  
A pack of smokes in his breast
Autopsy shows the lungs clean
But they were bought from Colorado

A long way from his babe
She came a year right after
She saw his face in the paper
A good job and nice house
Why would he leave his life there?
Traveling worlds meeting his maker.


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Waking Up In a Dream

Caged out inside herself The dark light will never shine Why do you care to think negative If you'd care to think at all? Can you believe I wanted to be you? The dream faded long ago Once I realized it was me whom was right; prudence redeemed Your thoughts were wrong Why would you ever try someone that is less than you Someone that could never contend Directly to the end? My ashes turn dark Suffering from the sins of others No melody can save me I'm crossing the borderline Waking up in a dream Is it justified To harm others Only to break your insecurities To fill your prejudice I wish I could know Why you do this The words freeze when the come to me To burn another was they set into you Relapsed again I was left bleeding Cause I'm not good enough if I can be me You were the dream; I was the nightmare Serendipity came for me And I woke up in a dream My ashes turn dark Suffering from the sins of others No melody can save me I'm crossing the borderline Waking up in a dream My ashes turn dark Suffering from the sins of others No melody can save me I'm crossing the borderline Waking up in a dream Say oh, I must say, to you, Mon plus Cher ami Yes to you I'm sorry I had an opinion I'm sorry I felt for one who can't feel I'm sorry I wasn't you I'm sorry I can only be me I'm sorry your dread words will never again be heard by me My ashes turn dark Suffering from the sins of others No melody can save me I'm crossing the borderline Waking up in a dream My ashes turn dark Suffering from the sins of others No melody can save me I'm crossing the borderline Waking up in a dream


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Just not enough

Why did you leave me
Was my love not enough
I can’t stop these tears from coming
Even though I’m trying to be strong, be tough
I still miss you, your touch, so much
But at the same time I hate you so
I wish I could just pack up everything
And without saying one goodbye, just go
But I have no life without you
Even though I am without you in my life
Will happiness ever find me
Like it did when I was your wife


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Dig Up Stupid

You're degrading yourself You're only digging deeper This grave you've made for yourself You're your own tormentor Why don't you help yourself? Climb out of this hole Stop hurting yourself Fix your sad soul Look at this mess you've made Was it really worth The pain you payed Just for such A vapid Touch One more One more touch Dig up stupid Don't try and right the wrong The damage is done Silence the song You can't run From a list so long The eyes are watching The diverse Became the same Why can't I keep my hands from latching Onto what was never mine? Look at this mess you've made Was it really worth The pain you payed Just for such A vapid Touch One more One more touch Dig up stupid Dig up


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A Road to Nowhere

A road to nowhere A picturesque scene of trees turning bare Fresh autumn scents filling the air And a young woman on a journey traveling from here to there With a slow, steady pace and tapping shoes She creates an east rhythm to hum along to Walking along, not a care in the world Living her life, and living it well The cool crisp air softly blowing at her knees Coming throughout the autumn trees For a moment it almost seems Things aren't really ever as bad as they tend to seem Soaking in the last bit of light with a peaceful flow She passes along the last few trees with golden leaves shinning abode The now setting sun begins to give off a warm orangey red glow Setting off her long blonde hair as it moves to and fro Then out of the gleaming sky Fighting her rising fear from deep with inside Her heartbeat quickens, as she tries keeping a steady stride Hairs prickling up upon her neck, a raven screeches as it swoops by The absence oh heat, so abrupt Leaves her with chills, so corrupt Touching her soul as if almost freezing up Upon her face lay a perfect cut A gush of wind cuts across her chest And her forehead quickly covers with little beads of sweat Just as she's starting to fear she can't go on She twirls and turns then starts to run She whirls around but falls to her knees Blood slowly dripping down from her cheek The raven appears with an open beak Ans lets out a bloodcurdling screech "Raven, Raven, oh please don't die!" She laughs And looks upon the bird with a menacing smile Then lets out a satisfying sigh "Just please don't die" She gracefully stands with blood-lust filled eyes Her tapping shoes carrying her off into the night Her Raven black hair rocking to and fro And off down the road to nowhere she goes
Inspired by The Raven by Edgar Allen Poe


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My Darkest Place

Covered with ashes
No way to see through the smoke and fog
The ground is hard and the grass is blackened
There are no buildings
No air among us
No blue skies to heal the pain
No light to see your path
The flowers scattered like clouds
There is no living thing around
You you have defend for yourself
The only time you can visit is in your sleep
The land is cold
The river is filled with blood
The sea is filled with tears
The area is surronded by broken trees and flames
To much of your liking you find a cabin
The cabin is filled with skulls and bones
You step in cracking the bones as you take a step
The door closes as you find yourself in a different place
The room takes you to a hot place
Filled with scary things as you only see in your dreams
Only this is no longer a dream this is reality
This has become your life


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Till My Ticker Expires

Work seven till five		
To stay off the street.
When I do overtime		
Come home dead on my feet.
Seems month after month	
Can afford less to eat.
When they raise my rent--	
Could be out on the street.

My car’s fairly new;		
Got a decent TV.
My home has a view.		
The bank owns them, not me.
I went back to school,		
Got another degree.
Still work like a fool		
'cause of the ‘conomy.

Ain’t yet had a raise		
Since the day I was hired.
Each check buys me less.	
Cost-of-living gets higher.
My one biggest fear’s		
That I’ll never retire.
I’ll be working somewhere	
‘til my ticker expires.

Ain’t yet had a raise.		
Come home dead on my feet.
Each check buys me less-- 	
Can afford less to eat.
My one biggest fear,		
Since the day I was hired:
I’ll be doin’ overtime		
Until my ticker expires.


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Running Backwards

I can't think of a poem, you override my brain.
My feelings for you will never change.
Don't get me mixed up with your actual boyfriend,  he couldn't write a single love note 
let alone give you his heart.
Don't talk to me don't even say my name!
The torture continues!
I can't stop hearing your name!
I'm being cut open like a frog.
They took my heart out,
I can still feel it beating.
I went from third base-getting ready to score, to second-just waiting to be stranded on 
a far away island. First base is the worst, just waiting for someone to come through 
and take me away from this place called Reality.
Back at home plate, wishing he would just hit my head with the ball so all this pain 
would just end.
I'll show you what I mean, one day, but not today.

3/5/11


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Beyond An Angel's Wings

Confusion is a different place. When you're not confused anymore, You feel empty, But when you're confused, You feel terrible. This is my story. ------------------------------------------------------------------------- Confusion spreads through your body, When the lights are going dim. You, now, know he likes you. But you're in love with him. But what if I'm wrong? What it's dead? What if you were just, Messed up in the head? You thought you were beyond the angel's wings. But it might turn out, That it was only a dream. All the evidence proves to it, Even some witnesses. What if it was just a joke? I'll never know... But what if I'm wrong? What it's dead? What if you were just, Messed up in the head? You thought you were beyond the angel's wings. But it might turn out, That it was only a dream. Dreams fly out into the sky. You see them there, And now you want to cry. He comes to you and wipes away that tear. The only thing is that he isn't even here. But what if I'm wrong? What it's dead? What if you were just, Messed up in the head? You thought you were beyond the angel's wings. But it might turn out, That it was only a dream. Until I find out, This song will never end. I guess for now, He's just a friend...


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somedayz 'maybe, maybe so'

Somedayz I won't speak,
Can't even sleep,
Don't bother to eat,
I'm sixteen and have little space in this house, somedayz I want to but can't leave.

Somedayz I'm real glad,
Turn a little sad,
And get a little mad,
People show me no attention I talk but they don't listen,
Somedayz I really really  need my dad.

Somedayz we cut up,
Come into some luck,
Can never get enough,
you're my bestfriend and always down to ride,
Someday you may never show up.

Somedayz I just chill,
Want a little thrill,
No time to kill,
This world is cold and people are crazy,
Somedayz I don't have a clue who's real.

Somedayz we see each other,
get to know each other,
Just hold each other,
Same tone and all but what about our parents?
Somedayz to them maybe I'm just a colored.

Somedayz there's thunder,
May just like others, 
Start to wonder,
How long will I last? I want to do so much.
Someday I'll be six feet under.

Someday…


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Silent Kingdom

A fallen kingdom of gloom
The murky lands glisten with doom
A lonely road, deserted by time
So perfect now, this kingdom is mine

I paint the moon from memory’s will
The swirling fog keeps my heart still
I’d count on truth, but all light is gone
The only fact is that I breathe on

I wake again, somewhere inside
This kingdom speaks the darkest desires
A grave recalls nursing my pain
The tombs beneath all know my name

A thousand years, decaying in sin
Another hour is a hundred within
A mirror breaks every time I recall
I used to smile; I had life before

I wake again, what was it I found?
The scent of pain, and once more I’m bound
This kingdom knows too much to talk
Now I sleep in graves, as silence befalls


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Cliches or Where have You Been All My Life

When I was young, I fantasized of the girl I’d like to find:
A certain look, a sense of style, enlightened education,
Alluring eyes, a charming smile, and some sophistication.
But over time I realized she was only in my mind.

Lonely years passed, I compromised, and left my dream behind.
Met some with looks, others with style—even sophistication.
But I never could find, through error and trial, just the right combination.
Just existing, I felt demoralized, in a sorry state of mind.

One day by chance, I met this girl…sort of what I had in mind.
The way she looked, I realized, just fit my illustration—
As if the dream I’d idolized was brought into creation.
What could I say, to meet the girl that I’d always hoped to find?

Pardon the clichés, but I have to say 
“Where have you been all my life?”
I know we’ve just met, and you don’t know me yet, 
But what are you doing the rest of your life?

She rolled her eyes, but then she smiled, as she seemed to see the light.
We talked a while, then talked some more; got her address and her phone.
Since then I’ve seen her a whole lot more.  I no longer felt alone.
When I proposed, she said with a smile “I think I’ve found  my ‘Mister Right’ .

Pardon the clichés, but I have to say 
“Where have you been all my life?”
I know we’ve just met, and you don’t know me yet, 
But what are you doing the rest of your life?


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These Salty Waves Pt 1

What am I supposed to think? What am I supposed to say? All these lies you bottled up come sweeping, crashing with the tides. My footing's gone, the ocean real, but how am I supposed to feel? And here I am, a drowning mess, a loveless lie, I do protest. And here I am a drowning mess. So all those things you said to me? Where they just lies out of pity? So all those things you said to me? Or am I lost in salty waves? Yes I know my future's grave. Or am I lost in salty waves?And now the panic in my head, when I should be tucked up in your bed, reels and reels right here instead.I'm going down, a sinking ship, funny what name drips off my lips. It is not God, or Angles plenty, or even that I'm just damn ready To let go of the hell and the lies. I'm wishing for your gentle eyes. Or at least the way they always seemed, but perhaps that's just this salty dream. I have no clue what I'm to do! A drowning hopeless mess, for you-- think it's cute, and oh so funny, but here's the bitter truth now honey. I'm going down. There is no help. I can't be saved by God himself. I put my life, my whole world of trust, and you've thrown it away for lust. Well what the hell's a girl to do? I'm just so entranced by you!


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BIPOLAR

     BIPOLAR
Sometimes I can feel a magic like I've never known.
I could run a thousand miles. Run a thousand miles.
Sometimes it's more like I'm dying here all alone.
Sometimes I think I'll die alone.

Euphoria. Then I'm down down down
Euphoria. Then I'm down down down. Euphoria.

Sometimes I can reach out for you, but you're made of stone.
I could die a thousand times. Die a thousand times.
Sometimes it's more like you're showing me I'm not alone.
Sometimes I think I'm not alone.

Euphoria. Then I'm down down down
Euphoria. Then I'm down down down. Euphoria.

Euphoria then I'm down down down.
Euphoria then I'm down down down.
© ron wison


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YOU STOPPED LOVING HER TODAY

       YOU STOPPED LOVING HER TODAY
The very least you should expect is emptiness
throughout your lifetime, pain and bitterness
there is no end that you can ever find
to end the never ending struggle in your mind.

They tell you, someday you'll get over it
and as your life goes on you will forget
but dying hearts know that's the thing to say
appeasement to the pass of time and dying day.

How many nights will pain be everything?
There's not a way to stop what love can bring
nor change the way you feel in any light
it's always there part of your life both day and night.

You think on death how peaceful it must be
but dead is what you are and constantly
so lay you down to sleep in any way
and then it can be said, 
.............................you stopped loving her today.
© ron wilson


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Rosaline

Moonlight shines down on my cold, pale face I am alone, her raven calling, I am disgrace Falling as the willows weep, I hold her in my arms as she struggles to breathe Rosaline, my one love divine. You are sacred You are mine Her voice rising above the water Beautiful Rosaline sang silently to me The whispers trailing off her fingers, as she faded into the darkness My beautiful angel has vanished again Goodbye my Beautiful Rosaline. Happened that Grim reckless day when the shadows began to play Beauty detonated in my trust No more, no more will there ever be a witch so grand, as to bring back my Beloved Rosaline Sorrow cuts it's way into my heart It is the locked key, the one you keep Her voice rising above the water Beautiful Rosaline sang silently to me The whispers trailing off her fingers, as she faded into the darkness My beautiful angel has vanished again Goodbye my Beautiful Rosaline So leaving this Tragic scene I vanished from Rosaline's sight Nevermore will there ever be a witch so grand, as to bring back my Beloved Rosaline Her voice rising above the water Beautiful Rosaline sang silently to me The whispers trailing off her fingers, as she faded into the darkness My beautiful angel has vanished again Goodbye my Beautiful Rosaline. Enchanting she sang to me, in the everlasting light of peace My beautiful siren walks again Goodnight my Beautiful Rosaline


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Choices

Verse one:
Faced with a decision to choose this or that.
Presented with an option where I can't go back.
Not really sure I've taken the right path.
when karma returns will she bite me back.
Come seeking vengeance or just pat my back.
I've made this choice,
Now I abide by it.
Chorus:
I must choose correctly,
So that I don't fail.
I must choose correctly,
Between heaven and hell.
If I choose correctly,
I won't suffer fate.
I must choose correctly,
Before it's too late.
Verse two:
Stuck with the consequences each time I act.
Tucked in a bed, I've made for myself.
See only I have this chance to choose right.
I carve out my own path.
I must think it over, before I hit the gas.
Decide with my whole heart, or be unmasked.
Consider it carefully, before I make my move.
Chorus:
I must choose correctly
I must choose correctly


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Doubt

Helpless ~
Realized on the sense of doubt ~
Instilling fear.

Hope ~
Lapses into the abyss of unknowing ~
Deaf to hear (my voice):
Numb to feel (my touch):
Scared to dream.

Love ~
Hesitant to trust without oath:
Slighted in its honesty.

Shame ~
(How can my love not be enough?)
Accepting its mine.
Knowing that time is
Our only reprieve:
Our only chance to believe:
Our only light.

Breath ~
(Struggling for air)
Held tight...

~ Helpless.


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THE COYOTE SONG

       THE COYOTE SONG
I'm just a poor lonesome cowboy.
Ridin' my pinto, out on the prairie.
I'm Roundin' up these longhorn, all day long,
Me and my pinto, and my rusty six-gun.

I love a redhead from Philly.
She got some eyes, that really turn me on.
She plays with all the  cowboys all night long,
Guess I'll shoot myself with my rusty six-gun.

Sing me a sad song Coyote!
Sing a sad song for me.
Yippy-Ki-Yo! Coyote!
Sing your sad song for me.

I'm just a poor lonesome cowboy.
Livin life in my Levys til its done.
I know that redhead won't remember my name,
But I'll always have my old rusty six-gun.

Sing me a sad song Coyote!
Sing a sad song for me.
Yippy-Ki-Yo! Coyote!
Sing your sad song for me.

I love your howlin, but your sound is as sad as can be.
If I had my druthers, I'druther have that red head sing to me.

Sing me a sad song Coyote!
Sing a sad song for me.
Yippy-Ki-Yo! Coyote!
Sing your sad song for me.

Yippy-Ki-Yo! coyote!
Yippy-KiYo! For me!


...........TO HEAR THIS wonderful song and see the video, go to youtube.com and do a search for veebdosa......then select coyote. Enjoy and YES those are REAL coyotes singing in the song....


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Self-Inflicted

SELF-INFLICTED

I BRING IT ALL ON MYSELF, I AM
 THE CATALYST OF MY OWN DEMISE
ALONE WITHOUT UNDERSTANDING
GROWING OLD WITHOUT GROWING WISE

I FEEL THE PAIN, YES, OF MY OWN MAKING
BUT LOOKING BACK INTO THE CORE
THE ROOT OF ALL EVIL IS TAKING ME 
BACK INTO THE ABYSS ONCE MORE

I WRITHE AND I SCREAM 
POURING MY INSIDES OUT
WITHOUT SLEEP, WITHOUT DREAMS,
WHAT IS THIS ALL ABOUT

THE BEGINNING OF THE ENDING AGAIN
I FEEL LIKE I’M LOSING MY MIND
ALONE WITHOUT UNDERSTANDING
WITHOUT SIGHT, LIKE A MAN IN A CAVE, I’M BLIND

I BRING THIS ALL ON, THE SHEER DISGUST I FEEL
NO ONE TO FALL ON, TO SAVE ME FROM WHAT’S REAL
ANGEL ON THE LEFT, DROWNED OUT BY DEMONS CRIES
THEY SIT ON MY RIGHT AND I BELIEVE THEIR LIES, AND FOLLOW THROUGH TO THE OTHER SIDE…

THEY SAY YOU HAVE THE STRENGTH TO CONQUER ALL
TO OVERCOME YOUR DEEPEST FEARS
BUT OUT OF THE DARKNESS, COMES FURTHER DISSENSION
THAT HAS LAID IN WAIT FOR ALL THESE YEARS
I FIGHT TO SEE THE POSITIVE
HALF EMPTY OR HALF FULL
BUT BY ALL ACCOUNTS I’M IN THE NEGATIVE
NO EXCEPTIONS TO THE RULE
I BRACE MYSELF FOR IMPACT
PREPARE TO FACE THE IMPENDING FALL
A MEANS TO AN END FOR ALL THAT I LACK
ANOTHER DAY WITH MY BACK TO THE WALL

I BRING IT ALL ON MYSELF, I AM
THE CATALYST OF MY OWN DEMISE 
ALONE WITHOUT UNDERSTANDING
GROWING OLD WITHOUT GROWING WISE…

AND THE SADDEST PART OF IT ALL
IS THAT IT IS ALL SELF-INFLICTED…





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Downer

The internet told me i have aids
The media told me that im a murderer
The magezines tell me i can become fake
The ads tell me i can give into things
The book told me i can believe in dumb things
The tv commercial said i can save money on car insurance
The store sign said i can buy a life
The hospital told me i can end a life
The iran people said i can bomb anything
The cigarette ad said i got cancer
The weed ad said i got healthier
My journal said i can be many things 
but im better off as being myself!!


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Disappear

Suddenly all the people who matters to me "disappear". 
And make up any excuse just to be forgiven. 
I hoped it will be the last time, but sadly it became a habit. 
The more i hear your excuses, the more i push you away. 
I fed up and walk away. 
Days become weeks 
Weeks become months
later on, you call or text saying you miss me. 
What you except me to do... 
Tell you that i miss you. 
Tell you that i was fine, but all i did was waiting for you. 
Tell you that you left a huge emptiness in my heart when u walked away. 
Did it satisfy you to torture me or did i become a toy for you to mess with. 
You have done enough of damage already

Why did you have to come back???


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Feelings From The Heart

These feelings in me now
I can't turn it around
And everytime I saw u
My heart beats very loud

I saw you play the instrument
It was musical to my ears
It was like listening to a melody
Which everyone would love to hear

But taking these feelings in me
These feelings from my heart
Deep inside, I broke apart
I will never get to tell you about my part

Hope we will stay friends no matter what
Even though if the truth is out
This feelings from the heart
You can feel it all around

These feelings from the heart
Will never make us apart
Never ever ever in our world


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The Feather

I look at my life 
As I see nothing but my past
So many people die
To heavy of a mass

As I sigh, but not in relief
As I watch as everything disappears around me,
No running, no laughter, and I can’t hear a sound,
As I slowly, but hardly fall to the ground

The heroes as they call them,
They come in haste
As I can’t even sigh
As I can hear the sound of worry 

No thoughts run in my mind
As I lay there as they put needles in me
I feel as if people can see my soul out of my eyes
As death passes my face of discovery

I’ve always thought that a feather was a lie
They might be little but when they deplete over time
As my families disappointed and your friends just left
All alone you would have to face DEATH


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never forget 9-11

On that day we were all the same, we didn't know there faces, we didn't know 
there names.
There voices we heard crying all around the world, someones loving father, 
someones little girl.
On that day we were called to lead a better life, for that someones father, for that 
someones wife.
The list of souls read from above before it came below why it was and why it is the 
answer no one knows.
Through the pain we have learned lessons great and small, life, love, and happiness 
are precious cherish them all.
With grace we all go on, but never will we forget that all of these beautiful things 
can fade so very quick.
On that day we wondered, on that day we cryed, on that day we asked ourselves 
what kind of man am I?
Mothers held there children for so long and oh so tight, why did these people have 
to go this was not there fight.
We hope and pray for all those names, and the ones they left behind they gave 
their life for a question the answer we must find.

William J. Harty


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Miss Mayhem

Nymphomania Is all she can grant you along with a well spent night This femme fatale isn't something A man can't handle A sex-fiend straight from the chamber of Satan A desire so strong It won't ever feel wrong A mistress of melancholy She took over my soul The amphetamine addiction Of her deadly embrace Her sweet poisonous grace Her heroin laced lips Oh how her venom drips All beware of a sensual destruction The comely fatal femme This sexual gem Stay away from miss mayhem Disaster is what she is A taste of her could make you leave All other vices and loves Would you ever think of the price For an eternity you'll be condemne dEven just for one night with miss mayhem This vamp of pain all life she will drain, this is addicting whore Is all you will adore Exciting and erotic Using all fetishes against your soul Your wife will surely lament From this dreadful strife A mistress of melancholy She took over my soul The amphetamine addiction Of her deadly embrace Her sweet poisonous grace Her heroin laced lips Oh how her venom drips All beware of a sensual destruction The comely fatal femme This sexual gem Stay away from miss mayhem A plague of pleasure The flead rats couldn't even measure Against the scourge of men A mistress of melancholy She took over my soul The amphetamine addiction Of her deadly embrace Her sweet poisonous grace Her heroin laced lips Oh how her venom drips All beware of a sensual destruction The comely fatal femme This sexual gem Stay away from miss mayhem


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Yesterday

Shouldn't this be simple? 
I got my graduation ring but my mind's in a haze.
Dazzled by her beauty, I can't help but stare 'cause she's never there.

This day on Saturday she finally answered.
I want to straighten things out with her but I might as well join the millions of rejected
soldiers.
You know, the ones who died from a "heart attack," the ones that were driven insane,
especially the ones that feel no pain.

I look back on yesterday, now today, and I find myself looking for a place called home.
Conjured all of this up in my imagination but all I could do is watch her fade away.
Out of my mind, out of my heart, but how do I still have a crush on her?

The Lord has always been with me and my family but I've strayed away from my faith.
I hope he can forgive me and lead me to her heart... wherever it may lay.


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I'm Sorry Pt 1

I’m sorry for everything I did
For everything I didn’t say
Girl I love you 
And I never meant for it to turn this way
I wanna be with you
And I need to apologize
I’ll do it again
Say I’m sorry over a thousand times
I knew I hurt you
Once I heard you cry and seen your tears
Then I seen it 
Everything I worked hard for jus disappear 
I want it back, I want
All your love and all your trust
I will do everything 
I jus will never give up
I’m so sorry
I will go to the bottom of the ocean
Travel to the farthest star
Jus to hear you say
That you still love me girl
And to hear that
You still want to be in my world
Baby, please stay
Please don’t turn around
Give me a chance to say
How it all went down….


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We Walk Amongst The Faithful

We walk amongst the faithful. Unknown to human eyes. So normal and so human, They can't see through our disguise. The tears of angels made us As they flew down from the sky. They didn't want to do it, So all they did was cry. We're stuck amongst the ruin. The horror and despair. We've seen a bit too closely To the heart of Evil's lair. We walk amongst the faithful. Unknown to human eyes. So normal and so human, They can't see through our disguise. We're scarred up on the inside, But outside we're just fine. We hide the truth so well They can't see into our lies. Our daddies were all drinkers. And when they would get mad, They'd take it out us poor souls, And boy were we so glad When Daddy drank himself to sleep, And we could go and hide. Carve another scar into our heart Which was hidden deep inside. We walk amongst the faithful Unknown to human eyes So normal and so human They can't see through our disguise. Our mommies all liked men Perhaps a bit too much They sampled fair and far And didn't mind the touch. When Mommy fell asleep, Her boyfriends would come down And they would scare us half to death And they'd start to mess around. And after they were done Ravaging our broken souls We'd take our chance to run And hide from things we'd never know. We walk amongst the faithful Unknown to human eyes So normal and so human They can't see through our disguise. Our families are all broken We have no place to hide No place to let our tears out Let out what hurts inside. And now we sit here all alone In this dark corner as all hope Evades our longing hands We've lost our way to cope. And now we hide our feelings And what they've done to every “me”. We hold our chins up high. We do not let them see. We walk amongst the faithful Unknown to human eyes So normal and so humans Can't see through our disguise We pretend it doesn't happen We can't let anyone know Our traitor of a heart Is something we can't show. Would anyone even understand What we hold inside our hearts? Or would we be a freak show A different world apart? Maybe one day we will find one Every single one of us Someone who will understand Someone we can trust.


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Are There Any Exceptions

Tell me- are there any other rules for love I haven't tried yet?
I saw you up in Heaven or were you just flying around trying to seduce me?
Can Heaven really wait?
I'm outside waiting for you.
To tell you the truth, I'll wait forever or at least until my heart breaks.
Are we just going to be close friends for eternity?
Look at me! Girl I'm on my knees!
You know you can count on me for anything and everything that doesn't involve drugs or murder.
I'll follow- you just lead.
Lead me to the life I was supposed to inherit when I heard your angelic voice.
Let me fall into your soft arms once again, but not as friends.


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The road 1

     The road
is
       Death's open yawn
epicentre
of strange treaties-
mist of starched martyrs
in trajectory's startled
steep,
mangled contortions
in frozen screams


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why didnt they kill me?

scars have the power to remind us that the past is real-"hanibal lector"




why didnt they kill me... why am i still here...
being successfull is my goal...but being flat broke is my biggest fear 
the pain is far to great to hide, laying awake, wide eyed, contimplateing suicide
what is my purpose? and if i stay alive, would it be worth it? 
will i make somthing of myself? or maybe i should just forfit, 
my one wish is to not have to worry, and to all those i've disapointed, i gave up, and im sorry. 
a strong man is what people think of me, 
but deep down inside, a child is what i aim to be, 
because you see, a child, so carefree, 
doesnt worry about the downsides to the world, 
only the fun things God lets them see....please, one day set me free, 
take me away, 
from this hurt filled life that i lead, 
i plead and plead for someone to rescue me, 
but when i look in the mirror, what is it that i see? 
a broken down child, crying on both knees. 
this life gives no mercy, and only the strong survive,
how will my family react...in the event of my demise 
i pray no one cries for me, because i am in a better place, 
i've rid myself of the bitter pain, sadness and disgrace 
maybe if i get another chance, my demons ill see face to face 
but for now i walk through the valley of death, a sad, cold, and bitter place
hoping after this valey ill see heavens smiles and grace
but i fear that my mistakes will lead me to the devils ugly face 
so many mistakes i can never erase, u only get one chance,
so my advice is to seise the day
i've tried...i've prayed and prayed, but the pain still wont go away
day after day, my life i want to take away...but even that i fail to do
so night after night ill lay
in bed awake but dreaming, of the day my pain goes away...


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You're My Hope, You're My Demise

Cold wind blows, Knowing no empathy,
Leaving none but the dead and hopeless,
Angel Angel from the sky,
Why do I feel, why did you die?
Angel angel are you noose-less?
Why do you cry "Oh Sympathy!"? 

Among the eyes of my bewildered,
Along the cheaters and the judges,
Of those who start fires in your soul,
Who heal you to make another hole.
Do you bathe in the hateful sludges,
Of these damned and the unfiltered? 
(sonovadog!)

Angel, Angel  from the sky, 
never rot, never die, 
Never remember when to fly, 
Never leave, but don't'chu stay,
Upon this alter you still lay,
not knowing what you have to say.
Never rot, never die. 
Angel, Angel from the sky. 

Holy Hell upon your fingers, 
This feeling stays this feeling lingers,
(screw) these (gosh) damned Holy ringers,
Supposed saviors that save the liars,
Selfish (Fpeople) save highest buyers. 
Upon your soul they feul the fires. 
Hypocrites!

Angel, Angel  from the sky, 
never rot, never die, 
Never remember when to fly, 
Never leave, but don't'chu stay,
Upon this alter you still lay,
not knowing what you have to say.
Never rot, never die. 
Angel, Angel from the sky.


See the light to fear the darkness,
Understand to love the heartless. 
See the anger you can harness,
Turn your back on evil notions. 
Oceans of unknown emotions, 
Bring belligerent thoughtless motions. 

Angel, Angel  from the sky, 
never rot, never die, 
Never remember when to fly, 
Never leave, but don't'chu stay,
Upon this alter you still lay,
not knowing what you have to say.
Never rot, never die. 
Angel, Angel from the sky.

Silence from the suicidal,
The screams of words, not so vital,
Fall upon ears of the idle,
As listeners choose to ignore,
Who they love, forever more.
Who are these words really for? 


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Monster

My rage builds up inside
This is the face that cried
The body that died

The world that has no more space
This is the hand that bruised your face
The blood I taste

The depression deep inside my soul
These are the hands that are so cold
The hate that can't unfold

The life placed upon Thee'
These are the eyes that cannot see
The things that should not be

The shame that was placed
This is the mistake that cannot be erased
The time we have left to chase

The words that were spoken too clear
These are the ears that cannot hear
The friend who is no longer near

Shayla Dendinger


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NOW

BY STREET CRIES

VIDEOS GOING VIRAL OF COPS BRUTALLY BEATING DOWN CITIZENS ON BLOCKS
THIS MADNESS HAS TO STOP

THE MASSES BEING TREATED LIKE PLASTIC PROPS 
BROKEN LEGS AND FATAL SHOTS GUILTY OR NOT

CEMETERY TEARS FORM MOMS AND POPS 
CAUSED BY BOYS IN BLUE WITH NINE MILLI GLOCKS

NIGHT STICKS IN RIOT GEAR THAT ATTACK QUICK
SMACK YOU IN THE FACE AND SLAM YOU ON RED BRICKS

LEAVING YOUR BODY LIFELESS LIKE A DEAD FISH
THIS IS ABSURD AND PREPOSTEROUS

IF WE DONT THEN WHOS GOING TO STOP THIS 
FACEBOOK INSTAGRAM VIDEO CAM 
SHOWING THE LOVE OF UNCLE SAM 

CRIES IN THE STREET GOT US WATCHING THE PROGRAM
MY DESIRE TO TEACH GOT ME SEEKING THE TRUTH MAN 
WHY SOCIETY PRODUCES 

A MODERN DAY BULLETPROOF GANG THATS RUTHLESS


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Than him

I'm weaker than you
It's always been true
you don't need me, cause i'll be the end of you

I don't mean to be useless, I don't mean to be sad
but things come along, and they're always so bad
that i latch onto you, you make me feel loved
with you i am something, when i'm touched, when i'm hugged
and i know that sometimes i make you mad

but I promise to be better, i know I'm a fool
but every time I look at you, I've jumped into a pool
of water that drowns my lungs out, 
I can't breathe when I see your eyes
I want to scream, i wanna shout
I wanna be your prize

But i'm weaker than you, I'm only a fool
just a fool who does nothing but write
useless, uncaring, so selfish and vain
he leads me back into the light


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Memories

The feelings i dont want to saver
sadness writin' on a small piece of paper

Memories that need erased
things i'll never chase

Anger that has built up in my mind
things that intertwine
Sadness and Anger joining
forming new words on my paper
Never will i saver

Shayla Dendinger


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Part Two

Kansas City nightfall
in a rose-petal garden
Take the Easton & George
to the end of the line
He's been put down to slaughter
turned ash till he rose
To take vengeance on the spirit
The darkness that glows

Free dreams may assault you
so cover up your soul
When he finds you in the garden
the future is recalled
Return to Goliath
put your sling upon your arm
Show the glory of the moment
The turns of right and wrong

Cleopatra's in the river
sunlight for the flames
Rain down upon the heavens
the beat beneath the page
Ticonderoga battles dewfall
the blast that forged the seed
That fertilizes feeling
The riches and the reeds

It's a Manmade
evolution revolution
Axles, fractals, tin-can constitution
raining beds of clovers
On a Kansas City wall


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Change

Change is the way the we all can relate,
We change fate, change hate, change the things that degrate,
And at a range, change seems like it only does great,
But isn't it strange, change can lead to such a great debate,
When it was only meant to open up gates,
For the men and women who want equal rights and rate,
For the broken soldiers, held by their brothers,
Only waiting to be seen, in the end,
By their mothers in crates...

As she throws herself upon it with no restraint,
There can be no mistake,
Even though it seems so fake,
She waits in the aftermath of this wake,
For the world to find the right path,
Have no hate,
But all around she sees wrath,
Losses faith,
And decides to forge her own path,
Through the gate,
To the powers that be,
The power select,
The power of the people that we elect,
The power they neglect,

So she argues certain elements,
With rhetoric and relevance,
And scholarly intelligence,
But all they ever tell her is...
"We'll get back to this,"
When they really mean is...
"Stop reminiscing on past events,"

She decided that she can't really live without her kid,
And takes a little stroll off the Brooklyn Bridge,
Do you know what she asked when she had the floor?
Just for a little bit of change like I said before.... 
 


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Conclusion

Searching for reality
Seeking any form of truth
So simplistic it seemed
In the gullibility of youth

Hidden by those
That fear exposure
It shall eventually unfold
Unveiled in the closure

What is yet to be realized
By those with the power
We are rapidly progressing
Into the worlds final hour

Everyone should relax
And just enjoy getting stoned
For it is far beyond impossible
For the inevitable to be postponed

Enjoy life while you can
For it shall soon end
This cycle of life
Is beyond any to comprehend


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Free Range Fear

There is too much fear in the world these days,
Fear of the unknown, scared in soo many ways!
Phobias of spiders, mice, rats and bats,
Are you frightend of nothing?  Why are you scared of that?

Scared of oppression?  And the way they use aggression?
Are they messing with your head, using psychic suggestion?
Wrestling with your doubts will only lead to fear,
Always looking into shadows.. scared that something's always near.

You're winding yourself up!  There's no reason to be scared,
But it's never as it seems.. so you'd better be prepared.
Because if you're feeling fear, it could be.. you're not ready,
With your trembling legs, and butterflies in your belly.

It's not so strange, that lots of people fear pain,
Being boiled alive, with needles stuck into your brain,
You've got to be careful, I'm afraid to say,
Be quick to make your mind up, to fight or run away.

Would you fill your pants, with a gun to your head?
Now, that's REAL fear.. you could be dead, enougth said!
Some could find your nerves and make you scream for weeks,
They can teach you about pain and how it reaches new peaks.

But the ones like that..  are fearful too,
Of justice, revenge, and the human rights crew.
They should be scared!  I wanna see their faces white,
'Cause they even kidnap kids and slip away into the night!

Now I'll get swept away, as it floods from me,
See, some of these emotions, are as deep as the sea,
Some wanna get a gun, and hunt these sick suckers,
And get them on their knees and say PRAY MOTHERF%%%%%!

See this is the crux..  this is the bottom line,
If they catch you doing that, then it's you that's doing time,
It's never black & white, it's not easy to see..
There are so many fears, it's all part of being free.

Are you scared of the dark, because that's how it began?
Are you scared that it links you to the earliest man?
Who had to hunt to eat, had to kill to stay alive,
And did what they had to, so this race could all survive.

The things to be scared of are the things inside,
You can struggle and fight, but you can never run or hide,
So walk down the street with your head held high,
And face down fear.. because we're ALL gonna die!

But the opposite of fear though..  is to be brave,
Who knows how many lives you could save.
The futures unknown, and we all face change,
It is all just a part of being free-range.


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Cry (Don't say those words)

Why did it had to happen this way
The world was blinded with my tears
I saw you in my hands
Just to let you know, my friend,
I am here

And I cry alone in the darkness
Where no one cares how I felt
And I saw you struuggling
You are not going through this yourself

You talked about your death and all
But I don't want it to be true
I just want to hear your words
That mean most to you

Oh, and I cry in this empty space
A place of an empty world
You are not alone, no you are not
I am here, in your world

Please help me,
I am crying!
I am listening to your scream!
Don't let me stay in this nightmare!
Wake me up
From this dream!

My tears, they are my worries to you
I am so scared when you said those words
Don't want to let you go
Don't want you to feel so hurt

I am crying!
Oh God!!
I am screaming!
For your Help!
Oh, no no!
Don't let this happen again!!
No No!!

I am walking the streets of this lonely space
No human have walked on a wrecked emotional state before
And my tears fall onto my weakened face
I am opening myself up to you before I fall!

I care!!
And I cry !!
Don't say those words!!
I want to cry louder
Just more louder!

And I cry alone in here
I am crying by my shaking fears
I am in the dark of the alternate reality
This is where I should be
Just a hand I am giving it to you
Please, take it
I am your life
I just hope you will hear
My thousand tears
Of my cry


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TESTING

Suddenly... I'm lying, truly And the conflict disappears Where the earth touches the sky Let it be, let it be, let it be...


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Cheater

This poem is not about what is written, but what is not written.
You can clearly see how much I used to love you.
But now, now I don't even want to remember your name!
Was it Scott? or was it Tod?
I had my dress all picked out for your amusement, but I guess I'll just let the leaves hit 
the dirty floor.
At least you have that in common you filthy cheater!
I'll never forgive you!
If I could, I'd make your life hotter than hell and as wild as the open seas!
I'll stand here and wait for someone to find me or at least before I jump off the edge.
Your face is my hate, your successes are my failures, your highs are my lows.
Why?
Why would you cheat on me?


John Monteblanco
The Unwritten
7/3/11


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Trepidation

My head is spinning my heart is racing
I think of you, I think of her
I just don’t know what to do
My heart is torn in two - my mind is so confused
I think about the ocean and the moon
There is so much to see and so far away
I’m drowning, I can’t breathe, I can’t see
I lay at the bottom of the sea; I try to reach for the moon
I want to hold you, I want to hold her
I fear your love I fear her love 
I fear my future with you – with her
					without you, without her
But I can’t feel, I can’t see, I can’t breathe
It s too much for me It’s too much for you  
It’s too much for her
My head is spinning my heart is racing
I feel no pain, I feel no emotion,
I feel the warmth, I feel the cold
I feel the wind that is beneath my soul
I’m soaring, I’m running, I’m just so damn confused
What do I do about her, what do I do about you
I can’t I won’t I am too weak
Nothing is in reach - Nothing is in sight
I chose this path of uncertainty 
                               Of misguided love
			    Of broken promises
              				 Broken hearts            


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Captivity

I was captured at a young age
Heart filled with pain
Mind filled with rage.
I waited for a chance to break out
But too confused
Filled with fear, flooded with doubt.
After a few years I broke free
Only to be captured again
Locked up, indefinitely.
I never got to fly on my own
In captivity is how I’ve lived
These walls all I've known.
My children will never see captivity
For they belong to the captor
And he has set them free.


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I want to help!

      I know the burning rage,
I feel trapped, as if in a cage.
There's nothing I can do, 
I wish I could stop you.
You've put others on a shelf.
You try to solve your problems yourself.
You grab something sharp and start to cut,
girl, you ain't in that big a rut.
Why are you doing this, tell me please!?
I'm your friend, your pain, I will ease. 
I will wait until the end of time.
I'll take your problem, and make it mine.






  (This poem was written for a friend)


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brick laden air

Brick laden air, choking breath. Red heart rent by whispers carrying your voice
Chameleon colored leaves dropping dew
Fragrant warm wind breathed on the nape of your neck
Ululations fondled, pedophilic fires lit in your loins
Disasters renewed, 
Frogs trill with longing they have my voice.


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GUESS WE'RE OUTA GAS

   GUESS WE'RE OUTA GAS
---V1-----
Guess we're outa gas, I wonder how we're gonna go.
We drove forever and we never even thought
that the price might go too high.
If we wasn't cruisin, we was losin
And we didn't care why.
Guess we're outa gas, I'll make sweet love wit you.

-----V2------
Guess we're outa dream, we knew it had to end some day.
We had the dream, but now it don't seem
To be what it looked to be.
Now that it's gone -- we know it's all gone,
There ain't nothin left to do.
Guess we're outa dream, I'll make sweet love wit you.

    --------------chorus-------

We had our dream, great American Dream.
We had our pie, in de sky.
All over this world they're tryin' to build
Like our great American dream.
Another American dream.
But they ain't gonna fly! 
No way they'll fly.
     --------bridge------------

It'll never fly again!
---V3----
Guess we're outa time, I wonder what it's coming to.
We had the time, but we blew it every time
Like we thought we oughta do.
I could hold your hand, and tell you it's planned,
But I wonder if it's true.
Guess we're outa time, I'll make sweet love wit you.
Guess we're outa dream, I'll make sweet love wit you.
Guess we're outa gas, I'll make sweet love wit you.

ooooga! Oooooga!    Beep beep      honk honk


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A Family?

Five years ago, the pain began
What prompted it, I don’t understand.
Resentment and jealously, played a big part
Tearing and breaking, many a heart.

Hurt and confused, the family parted
Not really knowing, why it started.
Caught in the middle, needing some care
Turning to those, whose love they’d share.

No matter how hard, I try to get along
Everything I do, ends up so wrong.
Never being able, to ever satisfy
I’m tired of trying, and living a lie.

Maybe someday, together we’ll all be
It would be great, being a family.
For now we must take, things day by day
Hoping hearts will mend, along the way.


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Deceptive Calm

Tonight I'll talk too much and try to and complicate my friends.
Distant conversations, eye contact only now and then.
I try and drown myself in futile disbelief,
Only to be washed ashore by truth here on my computer screen. 

The monsters hand held out, hung me by my own beliefs.
I held on tight, surviving by the skin of my teeth.
I raised my head up high and took a look into your eyes,
Searching for light I embarked into my own demise.

I gave you what you want in hopes that it was what you need
Tread the ground barefoot so all the blisters bleed.
The dog he's only learned to love and stay,
But he wants to get away, he needs to get away. 

Now you know I've found a place to hide,
Got to run somewhere, leave you, girl you know I've tried.
I'm stuck reviewing the memories of our yesterday,
But I want to get away, I need to get away. 

Walking the forest whispering to all silent trees.
I can feel the change, and relate to all falling leaves. 
The world bears down and my legs won't seem to stand,
'Guess I'm just arrogant, too stupid to see I've done all that I can. 

I gave you what you want in hopes that it was what you need
Tread the ground barefoot so all the blisters bleed.
The dog he's only learned to love and stay,
But he wants to get away, he needs to get away. 

Now you know I've found a place to hide,
Got to run somewhere, leave you, girl you know I've tried.
I'm stuck reviewing the memories of our yesterday,
But I want to get away, I need to get away.


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Disturbed

i dont know much about him 
but i heard he wasnt talkative 
he didnt like being alive 
he was numb to all the stuff he had seen
i heard he didnt like anything green 
he ate roman noodles everynight for supper 
he always wore skinny jeans and black clothes 
sometimes i seen him were tuxes and nice shoes 
but lately he has been wearing band shirts
he wears converse shoes and uses and army bag for school
he always walks in the woods and never around town 
i head hes very private 
i know that he doesnt communicate throught talking only through his peoms or by lyrics from a song
i see him drawing or painting 
when he tries to speak to anyone they always walk away and leave him alone
when he goes home he goes upstairs and smokes cutting himself till the blood drains from his skin
His family left him behind because he cant forget his past
sometimes he comtemplates the meaning behind his life 
his favorite color is gray because his like is in black and white
hes not so innocent 
he is someone fake 
he knows of no god 
his life was smashed into pieces by the giant sun 
he knows of a darkest place where i usually see him lay 
he crawls around in his own skin because he is disturbed


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Vile

Your breath on my neck
You breathe in my scent
A sensational wreck
A sly wicked hint

A complete disaster
You wreak of wrong
My heart still beats faster
(Still faster)
When I hold on so long

Get your stench off me
But linger while you do
Feelings deep as the sea
Shallow as a pool

Perversion in your eyes
Twisted lies on your lips
You disgust me
You entrance me
But you're not worth my time

My heart aches of trouble
My head suffers double
Stop staring
Start looking
You lay the bait
For something I can't have

Get your stench off me
But linger while you do
Feelings deep as the ocean
Shallow as a pool. 


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Memory's Lost

Once in a while, a cruel, old man
Had stood up in front and had bade me to stand
He'd point out a sentence, instruct me to speak
And my crush would let slip a small, cruel, mirthful shriek
Then my sibilant esses would ring out so loud
And my spittle sailed south 'cross the heads of the crowd
The teacher pronounced my reading a mess

And I couldn't help but feel that I was
Missing something, missing something
All my life I think I missed something

My friends took me out to the pictures tonight
Though I never was blessed with the powers of sight
The score underscored each great scene with aplomb
But I knew from the swells and the claps it was done
In a few moments I had slunk into the night
With a sense in my gut that some thing wasn't right
Right before I would physically run into you

I could not help but feel that I was
Missing something, missing something
All my life, I think I missed
Something big, something vital, something unerringly true
And today I think that something was you

After rainfall I stepped into the sun
It dried off my skin but the cold made me numb
I stepped back to the porch and back into your arms
With a hide dried so thick that your arrows can't harm
I can carry you miles just perched on my back
But my heart and my belly are safe from attack
Intellectually I know that there's nothing I lack

But I can't shake the feeling that I am
Missing something, missing something
All my life I think I missed
Something big, something vital, something unerringly true
But it's something I've forgotten
In a sky so blue


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Save Me From Desperation

My golden one you're burning out of sight
I try to follow your light
This darkness pulls and pushes me away
But our love will never wane
Despite all of the pain

You rapture me from my own mind
When the razor calls me back
Tell me these are all just lies
Only illusions from my mind 

Deterring the pain away
I'm with you
There's nothing more to say

Paradise is mine 
You Save me from desperation
And I will fulfill all of your adorations
You save me from desperation
Nobody is in vain
Though my life lived a lie
You save me from desperation

Our starcrossed world 
Destroyed by the ones who run from reality
Condemn us you may
But love will always find it's way
You're worth it to be called mine
Evenour bond is crime

Begin the decay
There's no more to say
Eden's Heart separated us from the start
You're all I need to be free
Nobody is in vain
So you found my meaning

(chorus)
Deterring the pain away
I'm with you
There's nothing more to say

Paradise is mine 
You Save me from desperation
And I will fulfill all of your adorations
You save me from desperation
Nobody is in vain
Though my life lived a lie
You save me from desperation

Advocate Angel from above
I put my heart in your hands
I've fallen too deep
A way to fulfill our love is what I seek

I'm suffering, dying, trying
To live but there's no life
Without you 

Deterring the pain away
I'm with you
There's nothing more to say

Paradise is mine 
You Save me from desperation
And I will fulfill all of your adorations
You save me from desperation
Nobody is in vain
Though my life lived a lie
You save me from desperation


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Thinking of You

Life's no fun when you're living in the dark, Everyone has talent from the start, From the beginining, you'll discover the truth, About you... You just have to grab some sticks, beat on a drum, Or grab a mic and just start to hum... I knew there was something about me from the beginining, Everyone told me I could not sing. :( But look at me now, I'm singing my heart out. No one's going to tell me what to do, So why can't I stop thinking of you? <3 I sing and I dance to the beat of my heart, I act of romance in theater art. I write and believe in poetry, And I try to make the perfect cup of tea. Sometimes my imagination gets ahead, Of me, I thought you would laugh but instead, You Laughed at my face, made so many burns, You singed my heart.


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My Resurrection

Confusion in my head 
From beginning to end 
Passion of the heart 
Again I start 
Over and over 
Games of art 
Pain inside 
Rips me apart 
Circles,cirlces,circles 
That's my life 
No beginning 
No end in sight 
Whos in the mirror? 
I don't recognize them... 
Puts me in fear 
My resurrection begins here 

July 11th, 2008


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Sanity

Is sanity a gift or foe? 
I wonder at its campaign 
To inflict confusion. 
Maybe madness is my friend.
Will it block the pain 
And edge out the fear,  
Yet crush the inevitable 
Normality enemy? 
Accustomed to intense 
It holds me in its stare 
Grips me in its wilderness 
And yet I feel safe.


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Send Down The Rain

slavery of the mind to succed to the emotion (lies) Are we strong enough to storm the despair Or do we falter behind the façade over and over again Strive to reach the truth The kind is held back by all of the lies And the delusions of the unchained clouds Help us to believe again What we're all missing Is it all too late To send down a sign To send down the rain As the siren sings she's ready to be on the prowl On the prowl to hunt down our souls It's not real Pretend to send down the motion Our hidden notions Of our lieing emotions Help us believe again We're all lost inside Send down the rain Curropt against the pain Help us believe again We're all lost inside Send down the rain Curropt against the pain


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My Free Style

I'm sitting, drinking a few beers and thinking,
Wondering why, my soul seems to be shrinking,
I'm trying to link this life, all together,
But I never seem to solve this most cryptic endeavor!

I've got so far!  Do I really have to wait?
It's late, and I really hate to be a burden mate,
But I get frustrated, is there nothing I can do,
To make time go faster.. honestly, I can help you!

What do we need?  Mankind must decide,
We need one vision.. to which we're all allied,
One side, one truth to what's right and wrong,
We know what's going on.. it's time for us to get along!

I know the truth, I'm not afriad to say!
Whilst I am still around, they will not win the day.
My mind is too quick, too slick, fast and thick,
When they lay it on the line, it will be soo tradgic!

So now I hold on, focus.. and stay strong,
Wondering why, it all, had to go wrong,
All I really want, is the best I can achieve,
Just please leave me to my thoughts..  finding out what I believe.


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WHY DO YOU LIE?

Baby tell me why do you lie....
about the love you have for me
I can't no longer take your deception
it's driving me crazy...

You say you love me
and that you care
But deep in my heart
something isn't fair

Why do you play these games
can't you remain real
Don't you even care
on what I may feel

So I ask you now 
don't give me a fake reply
Baby please tell me....
Why do you lie...

Girl you know how I feel 
since the day we met
I thought of you and 
thought we were set

But now we don't talk at all
we barely say much
I know another now
has taken my touch

Though you act like all is good 
and still say hi
I stop and wonder
Why do you lie

Just tell me the truth 
I'm more then man enough to take it
No need to pull my chain
No need to fake it

Love me for who I am
Is all I ever wanted
But now your lies I see
keep me haunted.....

But I sit here alone and still wonder why....
Why did you lie?


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Walang Paglagyang AGAM-AGAM

Batid ko, sa taghoy ng katahimikan mo
Bakas sa ihip ng hangin ang nakakunot na noo, 
Samyo ng nagbabagang hangin ng AGAM-AGAM
Hindi mapigilang sakit ng di malamang pakiramdam.

Ipinako ang paningin sa palubog na araw
Malamlam na panginoorin, kulay ay mapanglaw, 
Linlang ng AGAM-AGAM, paniniwala'y nauupos
Katulad ng malungkot na paglubog ng araw, liwanag ay nawala nang lubos! 

Puso'y kinurot ng dilim, hatid ay ligalig
Di mawari kung saan susuling, nabibingi ang pandinig, 
Umuukilkil sa diwa, AGAM-AGAM ng pag-ibig
Ako ba o siya, tayo na ba o hindi pa? 

Saan ka dadalhin ng AGAM-AGAM? 
Sa kawalang pag-asa ba at hayaang hangarin ay maparam? 
Iwasan na lamang ba at huwag nang lumaban
Maniwala sa AGAM-AGAM na sa puso ay nakadagan? 

Ahhh...tanong ni JR, tila kulay ng mundo mo'y may bahid ng lungkot? 
Umiibig ka, wika mo, subalit mata mo'y mapanglaw, tila may takot, 
Halakhak mo'y may bahid ng AGAM-AGAM
Tula na akda mo'y may guhit alinlangan sa pakiramdam.

Hmn...Ang umibig ay dakila, wagas na adhika
Hatid nito'y ligaya, nilulunod ang katauhang nagpaparaya, 
Subalit malungkot ang umibig sa taong ang minamahal ay hindi makasama
Pupunuin ng AGAM-AGAM ang pusong umaasa! 

AGAM-AGAM...Saan ka dadalhin nito, kaibigan? 
Di nga ba't walang paglagyang AGAM-AGAM saiyo'y nakapasan? 
Marahil ay hindi sapat ang namutawing pag-ibig na may katiyakan
Hindi mapapawi ng mga kataga ang AGAM-AGAM o ang alinlangan! 

AGAM-AGAM ng puso, pakiusap...ako ay iwan mo.
 
Inner Whispers


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Louder Than Thunder

All stars could be brighter
All hearts could be warmer
If i could find a place in your heart

youve written a sad song 
the one i found 
you were laying on the floor 
holding it close to your heart

I dont think i deserved this
My heart turned into ice
Melted at the sight of your pictures

I held your hand 
while you were sleeping in your casket
I kissed your cheek
While people passed your viewing

Youve written a sad song
the one i found
you were laying on the floor
Holding it close to your heart

What would it take for things to be quiet?
passing the sound of your voice
While laying on the bed we once slept in 
Holding eachother for warmth

youve written the saddest song
No one can recover
Our last memory of you
Laying helpless on the floor

I could have done better
Finding my way into your heart





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Fly

Don't you wish you could fly? Don't you wish you could fly? Decisions are capable of control, Then you feel like a mole, Deep in the ground, Far away from sound. Things get you down, You can't fit into the crown, You lay in front of an ice cream shop, Your friends are playing ninja in the handicap spot. You feel like you want to cry, Don't you wish you could fly, Fly, fly away, to a place far from here, I don't know what to do, But I still miss you, You're sweet and pure, You're my only cure. Now I want to fly away. Dreaming of a beautiful land, When you dug your feet into the sand, I get beaten, When your so smitten, Because you're not mine. You feel like you want to cry, Don't you wish you could fly, Fly, fly away, to a place far from here, I don't know what to do, But I still miss you, You're sweet and pure, You're my only cure. Now I want to fly away. Fly, fly, fly. Fly like a butterfly, Away from troubles, That make you cry, When come in doubles. You feel like you want to cry, Don't you wish you could fly, Fly, fly away, to a place far from here, I don't know what to do, But I still miss you, You're sweet and pure, You're my only cure. Now I want to fly away. Flap your wings and, Fly.


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Naked and Ashamed -Part 2-

I need some time to reflect
To dive into my imagination…to ponder as I sink
Into my sea of thoughts and paradise...
I'm on a mission... 
To discover a previous prize
Ooooooh.... Oooooh....OoooOooh...
If I could, I could surely give it to you...and fulfill your fantasies
If I could, I could invite you inside my mind...
If I could, I could make you fly away from the world's anxieties 
If I could, I could find
You treasure... Beyond measure 
This feeling has no name...it has no specific label...
This feeling hunts me down like game...but I must remain capable 
Of saving myself and you of course...
Baby, don't get outtah course... You know what I mean
Baby, I want to know what's on your mind...I don't want to force
To answer me immediately...but I want the answer...

Ooooooh.... Oooooh....OoooOooh...
They all say it's greener on the other side of the barbwire fence...
Don't fence me in...with your powerful actions and love... I know you...I ain't dense 

Ooooooh.... Oooooh....OoooOooh...
Hey x3
You clothe me up...
What's up with you today?
I'm naked and ashamed
Turn the other way...
'Cause today is not the only day
I feel so damn afraid...
But hey x3
You make me feel whole
How was your day? 
Hopefully the sky wasn't a shade of gray 

Ooooooh.... Oooooh....OoooOooh...
I wanna make you happy for the rest of your life... And delete the strife
From your stressful, fast-pace life


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Broken Heart Endings

(Verse 1)
Traveling on the never ending road,
The world on my shoulders, a normal load.
My eyes locked on the white light at the end,
When will this end, time for a descend.
I look into the eyes of the winding road of nothing,
Where will it take me, please bring me something.
I can feel you getting under my skin,
Climbing up to my heart that you made paper thin.
You were once there, and cut through the seams,
Stepping on what I cherished most, my dreams.

(Chorus)
I hate that you keep coming back,
Just leave me and that’s that.
I hated our times together and the joy you brought,
Now that my heart is gone my life is shot.
I’m coming back to being me from being your whore,
It took me days to get over your ugly core.
Now that the angels are descending,
This is your broken heart ending.

(Verse 2)
How did we love?
When I cover the bruises you said it was a simple shove.
I hate you for touching me the first time,
Making me feel so special like it was a crime.
Now that I am with the angels in the sky,
Try to touch me I want to see if you can make it this high.
I will forever be above you.
And im sorry I ever said the word love, I had no clue.
You made so many angels cry,
So here is the turn for your streak to die.
I give up on you and im done with this,
Here is to you your last and final poison kiss.

(Chorus)
I hate that you keep coming back,
Just leave me and that’s that.
I hated our times together and the joy you brought,
Now that my heart is gone my life is shot.
I’m coming back to being me from being your whore,
It took me days to get over your ugly core.
Now that the angels are descending,
This is your broken heart ending.


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Love Story pt 14 only 87 more to go

Last night I gave you my heart.
I anticipated a rejection, but all you did was smile.
You smiled as if I finally found the key to your heart.
Is this true love or am I digging my own grave?
I have thirty questions and no time to ask them.
My head just can't find the writing between the lines.
Is this a joke? All our fighting and avoiding for nothing?
No, there's something, I can tell.
Don't try to deceive me again. My thoughts are getting old now.
They want to say bye bye, but all I can do is store them away in my new little black 
book.


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Value

A smile in a thought of a "forever" like this.
A dream from a star's one wish.
A love of a life from a fairy tale one told
To a child with an imagination worth a whole pot of gold.

Can you really put a value to something like this?
Like that feeling you get from your last first kiss?
Or the dreams that come true from a shooting star's wish?
There's no value worth more than all this.

A song from a night from a heart's first glance.
A sway from a dress from a love's first dance.
A rose from a thorn from a child's freedom.
A ring from a night from a tear from one.

Can you really put a value to a moment like this?
To a second in time so carefree as this?
To a heartbeat caused by pure peace and bliss?
To a child's eye lit by a shooting star and a wish?

Could you tell me what it's worth?
Or could you tell me which came first?
Was it hope for a future unknown,
Or happiness from the love that's shown?
Was it a dream from a fairy tale,
Or optimism after every fail?
Because the child that I've never seen
Is one without a single dream.

So tell me,
Can you really put a value to this?
To a first kiss?
A child's wish?
Pure bliss?
To this?
To this moment looking into your eyes?
To a fairy tale defined
By you and I.


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jagged peice of paper

night draws in and those catatonic visions 
that ive been having reside this night inside my head
train wreck carnage and alien invasions 
disrupting who i am

seven blue pills and a red or two for later
chaining this madness in its cell
it brings on sweat and rising internal pressure
for the next few hours dont talk me


big bird, light, a jagged peice of paper
switch blade, cd, tapedeck too
drowning in a pool of  misunderstanding
with the anal doctors watching me


now im alone inside my own dimension 
all alone with my jagged peice of paper
all alone stuck in this situation
on my lonley island in the sun


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You didn't Realize It

The place to be can be called my home.
Shall you take my hand or shall I take yours?
You stabbed me in the heart but you never realized it.

An olive and an arrow to show me your love...why isn't it here yet?
Can you tell me how many children we're gonna have?
Can I tell you anything as if you were my little sister, Jennifer?

Please return my heart.
I need it so I can move on but you're always in the back of my head.
You're all I ever think about, you're all I really need.


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MY LOST FRIEND

IS IT TRUE OF WHAT I HEAR, 
THE DARK ONE HAS GRIPPED YOU AND FILLED YOU WITH FEAR.
"BETTER NOT GO UNTO A WORLD FULL OF THORNS"
IS THAT WHAT HE TOLD YOU YOUR FRIEND WITH THE HORNS
YOU UNDID THE ROPES WHERE HIS HANDS WERE TIED,
WITH THE PROMISE HE WOULD PROTECT YOU FROM THE WORLD OUTSIDE
A FRIEND HE SAID HE WOULD ALWAYS REMAIN 
NOT LIKE THE OTHERS WHO SAY YOUR INSANE.
TOLD YOU TO BLOCK OUT THOSE PRYING EYES
AWAY FROM THEM PEOPLE AND THERE WICKED LIES
"SHUT ALL YOUR WINDOWS BARRICADE THE DOORS 
WITH MY NAME FILL YOUR WALLS"
SO NOW YOU ARE SHELTERED AWAY FROM THAT WORLD FULL OF DIRT
AWAY FROM THEM PEOPLE AND THERE NAMES THAT HURT 
BUT NO REAL FRIENDS LEFT YOU ARE ALL ALONE 
A WORLD FULL OF DARKNESS WILL ONLY BE KNOWN.


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Locked Up

Locked up, struggling to figure out why I am being punished now for the mistakes of my 
past. Yeah I may have ran away four different times but people do change. Now I am sitting 
here seven months pregnant, my fiance is on the outs waiting patiently for me. Seventeen 
years old and I have two children now, trying to finish high school. I got my prioritoes 
straight, but I can't do anything while I am sitting here locked up. My mistakes from my past 
are haunting me. People think that they know how badly that I have been hurt, but no body 
really knows but me. Locked up, trying to figure out why I am now being punished, when I 
wasn't even taught the difference between right and wrong. Locked up for the stupidest thing 
with no one to turn to for help.


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Sentiment

I tried to see what life would be like on the other side of the mirror
I knocked on the glass for days, but no one ever let me in
Cracking, finally, the reflecting world showed me the truth
That it's just like the one I’m in; it only makes you bleed in the end

I only close my eyes
To find something worth looking at
I can only hear your voice
When I’m screaming into the wall
I only think on you
When the cynical inspiration dissipates
And sometimes only the freezing cold
Is all that reminds me I can still feel

Living this perfect life, dream lover, dream house, dream happiness
Take for granted the gift, not accepting your needy independence
Lust, greed, emotional gluttony; everything you've ever wanted
It’s only thanks to me, I created the twist in your soul, I made you who you are

I only close my eyes
To find something worth looking at
I can only hear your voice
When I’m screaming into the wall
I only think on you
When the cynical inspiration dissipates
And sometimes only the freezing cold
Can remind you that you can still feel

Taken by the presence of an all too familiar enemy
This man staring from the corner; he never leaves, never leaves me
Gentle whispers of deception takes hold and only tightens
Painful sobriety renders me vulnerable and helpless
He only laughs as I pray to God to save me

I only close my eyes
To find something worth looking at
I can only hear your voice
When I’m screaming into the wall
I only think on you
When the cynical inspiration dissipates
And sometimes only the freezing cold
Can remind you that you can still feel

Stare into a face, frozen for eternity
Never aging, never moving, never leaving; its world merely fades to white
Longing to go back, wishing to be, nothing humors the hope
Not tears, prayers, nor blood can bring them back
Trapped behind wood and glass; imprisoned in this photograph

I only close my eyes
To find something worth looking at
I can only hear your voice
When I’m screaming into the wall
I only think on you
When the cynical inspiration dissipates
And sometimes only the freezing cold
Can tell me that I can still feel


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Drifting Away

The world was so small now
I can't see you here with me
The clouds are getting darker
Surrounds my reality

We were used to be so closed
But now we are far apart
But I know I still care
I will still have you in my heart

Now we are drifting apart
And I cry
And I can't sleep
I can't breath
When you are still
Under my skin
I don't want to believe
That this is real
My heart can't be fix
When we are drifting away

Every moments I think of you
I think of the times we had
Everytime I wish to see you
I would wan to see your smile
Again


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Year on Year

Yaw ad! Yaw ad! Yaw ad! - Yaw Ad
— the felt shot of your toxic mind
as blowout around by finished wine —
in evolution lift lipping been voicing
overly anew tweed is addiction		
At phases are of Valentine’s Day. 

Yaw ad! Yaw ad! Yaw ad! - Yaw Ad			
— your setting to offer one field			
of trust precious present in any choice
in deeply refraction of liquor smell
and breezing-breathes mean it off talk —
two foul had owned your heart
edge at nearness around by
up bench stopped when we were sitting — 
and ten fouls will you figure own			
by an entire bench-day stop ...
We set  plans to be sitting again!

Yaw ad! Yaw ad! Yaw ad! - Yaw Ad
— the pious reactor’s iris of redness eyes
in near highly away concept to me 
upcoming of miscible to myself
the miss-rose by Valentine’s Day
And fail goals, the poses of smiles.


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LARO ng PUSO

Ilang beses na ba'ng pumintig, yaring lalagyan ng pag-ibig? 
Isa...dalawa...tatlo... ganito ba ang umibig? 
Hindi mapigilang maakit sa hinaing ng mga katagang naririnig, 
Puso ba ay nadadala na lamang sa tamis ng kanyang bibig? 

Kabog ng dibdib sa bawat saglit, tila ba tumatahip 
Kilig na dulot sa kanyang alay na langit ang kalakip, 
Sa bawat patunay na kanyang binabanggit
Tunay na pag-ibig, iniaalay ang puso, saksi pati langit! 

Ngunit kapagdaka, tila paningin ay nag-iba
Masidhing pag-ibig ay binalot ng suspetsa, 
Kagyat kinain ng agam-agam, ang puso ay hindi na gaya ng umpisa
Naniwala sa Laro ng Puso, totoo nga ba ito, tama nga ba siya? 

Laro ng Puso, ito nga ba'y may patotoo? 
Bakit hindi, tunay nama'ng mapaglaro ang puso
Minsa'y umiibig, minsan nama'y nasusuklam
Minsan ay puno ito ng tamis, sa kalauna'y tigib ng pait! 

Laro ng Puso, saan ka ihahatid nito? 
Sa kawalang katiyakan ba o sa pag-ibig na totoo? 
Makailang beses nga ba dapat umibig ang puso? 
Huwag naman sana'ng mauwi sa pag-ibig na tanso! 


Inner Whispers


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I Want More and More

Laying in my room all day
Thinking how I've been fool
Got my meal but I'm not full
Left me for probability
You've seen the light before
Don't open that door
Take her away
But I want more and more
Take her away
But I want more and more
One day I'm going to see the door

I used to like the impressions left on me
Thinking that they'd be so cool
Laying in my room all day
Thinking how I've been a fool
Don't want to sleep
Don't want to eat
Wondering who's to blame
What to keep, what to throw away
Oh how you've changed
Lying in my room all day
Thinking how I've been a fool
Take her away
But I want more and more
Take her away 
But I want more and more
One day I'm going to see the door


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PUBLIC ANNOUNCEMNT

BY STREET CRIES

MY PEN SPEAKS POETRY WITH A PASSION 
RELEASING MENTAL PRISONS POSING AS PROBLEMS 
PEOPLE POINTING FINGERS IGNORING PARAGRAPHS OF LIFE SCRIPTURES 

PROMOTING THE PENALTY OF MINDLESS POTENTIAL
IN A PARADOX PASSING BY PEDESTRIANS
PLEASING PARASITES PUMPING POISON IN THE POPULATION 
 
PROPAGANDA FOLLOWING PROTOCOL

POLITICS PLAYING GODS POSITION
POSSIBLY PROVOKING PESTILENCE AS A PRESENT 
BECAUSE OF OUR PAST TENSE

PROVIDING A PATH PRACTICING PAGANISM AS PARADISE 
PERPENDICULAR TO NO LIFE

PERSUADING PARTICIPATION IN THE FORM OF PROFITS
PURCHASING A GENERATION POLLUTED WITH IGNORANCE
PURPOSELY POSITIONING PUPPETS AS PRESIDENT

PROBING PODS PENETRATE THE SKY LOOKING FOR PLANETS 
PROVING POINTS THROUGH PROPHETIC PROPHECY
PROJECTING PAINFUL PREMONITIONS

PARANOID PERKIEST PILL POPPERS PARADE IN PUBLIC
WHILE POLICE PUSH PASS PERIMETERS OF PEACE
CAUSING PICKET SIGNS OF PROTEST

FOOD FED TO THE POOR PROCESSED WITH PESTICIDES 
PROTECT WALL STREET POCKETING PAYCHECKS FORM POVERTY

THAT'S WAY I POST POEMS WITH POWERFUL POTENCY
REPRESENTING THE UNHEARD CRIES IN THE STREETS









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In this time before I die

I will find my way through the ruins of lives since past

I will honour those who came before by making the same mistakes

I will have cause and purpose without perspective or reason

I will tell wicked lies and hide from the pain

I will take comfort in harmful things but not let it get the best of me

I will love recklessly and dispassionately causing more harm than good

I will intend to apologize but will lose the opportunity

I will capture haunting memories and replay them in a desperate need to feel

I will long deeply for her, in silence

I will misunderstand the value of being alone and regret it

I will question all that I know from time to time or perhaps all at once

I will spend all that I have chasing a dream only to wake up midway through 

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