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MY BRIGHT DAY

He said he loved 
And said he cared
On my darkest day
Said he'd be there
The clouds moved in
The sky grow black
Never said goodbye
He never came back
Rain turned to tears
And fears to dread
Hope seemed lost
Dreams were dead
Last gasp prayer
The sun rose again
You walked by me
With a friendly grin
Ten years passed
And I'm your wife
We have two kids 
And a wonderful life
Been through storms
You didn't walk away
On darkest nights
You're my bright day

12-13-14


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This Song is for my Mother

This song is for my mother
Let her hear me cry
I couldn’t bring myself to write it
‘Til this darkened day arrived
A song about old promises 
Made so long ago
Created and cremated
Ashes of the words I spoke

Long separated by the miles
Distanced from her golden smiles
Memory of a mother
Shared my dreams and really cared

Long separated by the miles
Distanced from her golden smiles
Mama…
I know I wasn’t there……

For you

Would have placed 
A magic carpet 
‘neath your weak and shaky legs

Would have raised
A strong west wind
Let you breathe with ease again

Would have bribed 
God’s venal angels
Come and soothe your endless pain

Would have vanquished
All the demons
And bring peace to you again

Be the child
I never knew
In a land
We won’t grow old

Be the light
I always loved
Warmed my dark 
And lonely soul

Be the girl
Playing games
In a world 
The sun won’t set

Be the laughter
Calms my heart
I never will forget
I won’t forget, won’t forget

This song is for my mother
Let her hear me cry
Couldn’t bring myself to write it
‘Til this darkened day arrived
Song about old promises 
Made so long ago
Created….cremated
Ashes of the words I spoke

I broke my promises, oh mama
Now you’ve gone away 
I’m broken
Drowning in the pain each day

I’m  drowning…drowning...drowning…drowning

This song is for my mother
Let her hear me…….



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IN RED'S SILENT FURY


Metallic city howls like a wounded animal scraped by nocturnal vigils of grandchildren and elders emaciated like tuberculosis lungs gasping from chug-chugs of tobacco soot... and the face of a night is hammered by ripped moans like plucked strings in motel rooms; pagan women opening limbs for a meal in silent fury. This is the other side of town... beggars peddling hope; factory shoulders ranting over shuffled cards and fired gin as wives’ blistered fingers clean rented pots, gibbering same monotone of hymn, “give us daily bread, daily bread”. Outside, the pier coughs off the commercial honks of weighed cargo reeked with labor’s perspiration, where pawnshops buzz with greed's snicker... the evening owl attempts winks under the grime of bloodied moon… it spits the larynx of tenants’ raged hoots wishing morsels of fresh sunset would pour some grace of life’s salve, before the shrill of red sets in... again.
Color of Sound Contest/ Monterey Sirak by nette onclaud


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TWO LOVES

Had two loves that lit my life
These two things made me new
I was sure you were the one
Then you left.. my muse left too

You were such sweet perfection
More tender than a butterfly
My mornings and my evenings
The only girl that made me cry

So surprised.. You said it was over
In a nightmare and can't wake up
I'm running on an empty tank
And there's no love to fill my cup

I've been a singer and song writer
Thought if you left I'd just sing blues
When you did I grabbed for my pen
But my muse had run off with you

Date: 11-1-14


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Raindrops

Raindrops
are like my thoughts
falling down into my mind
sending goose bumps down
my spine

Their cool aftermath
cleanses me of my thoughts
of fear and uncertainty 
about what tomorrows
pain may bring

They make me feel,
wet with creativity
drenched in my optimistic
illumination. glistening
raindrops, my thoughts
leave paths of pleasurable
distress, and hope of success
which road, less traveled
may be the best

Forget an umbrella
when these raindrops
arrive, I walk outside
arms open wide

Ready to Receive
whatever
the mind storm may bring
because raindrops are
as my thoughts, falling
down into my mind
sending shivers down
my spine

My brain, yearns
for the rain, to wash away
the pain, tomorrows worry
does bring
One special drop
could speed up life's clock
to the time
I can handle my own
and not dwell inside my controllers
home

For raindrops are,
like my thoughts
falling down into my mind
sending goose bumps
down my spine


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The beginning of the end

Ive been trying to fill this hole in my chest.
I promised I pleaded but you still left like all the rest.
So here I sit once again all alone.
You wont even shoot a text to my phone.
So this is where I fail to stay strong.
This life of mine starts to go wrong.
So I fried up the brass.
I apply heat to get this bubble in the glass.
I heat the rock and watch it melt down.
I'm all smiles in the happiness that Ive found.
Before I knew it im drawing out of the silver spoon.
One, two, blastoff soon ill be higher then the moon.
You get that little burn in the back of your throat.
Hang on cowboy cause you just hit some bomb dope. 
Then comes the ringing in your ears.
Just sit back and all your worries and fears will simply disappear.
Don't worry about the lights fading in and out.
That's the dope coursing threw your veins ya your high no doubt.
The color will leave your eyes.
Your body is engulfed in warmth and a million butterflies.
But now the demon has got you like a needle to thread.
Welcome to the struggle cause you got to keep the demon fed.
Now we've been up for nights and days.
Given up hope we surcome to her ways.
When she leaves you she leaves you feeling dead.
You cant silence the voices screaming inside your head.
Now you just look for the next high.
Cause without that demon you wanna die.
People will wonder where have you been.
Its no secret with those track marks up and down your skin.
Now you will know new lows.
Its a sad story but thats just how it goes.
Now your so alone and feel so close to death.
Just remember who did this her name is crystal meth.
Now if you could relive that day.
When your pal held out that needle tell what would you have to say.


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Sometimes Heartbroken

Sometimes Heartbroken

I know I still love you
After all that you’ve done
You tell me different lies
Than you told everyone

I try to deny
The pain that’s built up inside
Though, even when I smile
My heart starts to divide

Sometimes heartbroken
Now that I finally realize
The words that you’ve spoken
Were really all lies

Sometimes Heartbroken
I’m dying inside
And I can’t seem to get over you
No matter how hard I tried

Now every time I see you
I feel emptiness in my heart
But then I remember
How you deceived me from the start

Even then I had a feeling
That this may never last
But I can’t help thinking
About throwing away that past

Sometimes heartbroken
Now that I finally realize
The words that you’ve spoken
Were really all lies

Sometimes Heartbroken
I’m dying inside
And I can’t seem to get over you
No matter how hard I tried

So tell me why
You had to lie to me
You may have tricked everyone around you
But you were the one who just couldn’t see

Sometimes heartbroken
Now that I finally realize
The words that you’ve spoken
Were really all lies

Sometimes Heartbroken
I’m dying inside
And I can’t seem to get over you
No matter how hard I tried

Sometimes Heartbroken
As I look back on this
I find that I’m no longer broken
As these words pass my lips

Sometimes Heartbroken


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How Do You Make a Sick Heart Well?

Broken last night, 
 I woke up 
 Precious problem, 
 picking up 
 every part. 
I want to fix it.  
This  
I've tried to mend  
by shooting it into my vein, 
getting in and going, 
by another lover, 
carving the love into my skin, 
by sleeping away 
the black out.
Useless things are poison to the temple.
It’s either one cigarette after another, 
or lots of chocolate, 
the sad tale goes on and on. 
But the fragile heart is broken. 

What do I do?
They tell me to, 
Rely on Thee  
It's hard for me 
I can't see, 
Although I know  
and have been very close  before. 
I was expelled from Hell, thank God. 
Entered into the sunlight. 

While the whole world  
Is in agony. 
I'm feeling happy, 
my heart feels healed,
but this is a deception.... 
it is still broken. 
Just like a peculiar disease, 
there's no cure.

Fill it, 
and deal with all its cuts and bruises...
but then all you have are scars. .
My medicine for the bleeding within...
Is to await love to call me, 
and say that everything is ok. Not to despise my needs...

Inside, there is a little girl screaming. 
And some times...there's an old lady whispering 
that she is utterly tired, and can't bare it anymore. 

Do you shut the door on your heart? 
I can't seem to do it. 
It's too powerful and pure, 
this instrument that passionately pounds within me. 
All its pain... 
I have no control. 

Creatures 
Do you have a broken heart? 
Do you have a heart at all?  




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A Dead Word

A dying word echoes your life
The past will come; the future will die
Faith will fall, just as you need
If light would rise, you’d make it disease

In this word everything fades
What you like; what you distaste
The dark becomes your flavour of truth
And in this world, hope is removed

A lonely word so sure to bring
A haunting pain that makes monsters sing
Where nothing comes because nothing is
The purest hate will spread from your bliss

And since the day you held that dead word
So close to heart, it’s all you have shared
You circle through the life that is death
Through rape and spells you steal what’s left

And since the day you held on too close
You kill yourself in each living host
And now you see the world is so clear
You twisted love when love was your fear


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Despair Trigger

I'm thinking I have a disease
Despair has gripped me by my feet
Dragged me down to the cold floor
And used me until I couldn't take it anymore

I found a cure to eternal life
Slower and longer than a rusty knife
But it hits me just the same
Cauterized with a smoky flame

My throat is burning
Fingers turning
Over a lighter and a smoke
And my brow is soaked

How long til something finally breaks?
How long until it's more than I can take?
I'm too exhausted to even talk
I'm being worn down like the smoothest rock

I try to strike the match again
Burned my fingers and my smoky brain
A sudden fear comes back to me
Won't you come help me lose my memory?

It's getting easier
To fail to please her,
My addiction to despair
Is stronger than for air

I'm a victim of my own design
I am my own executioner
I'm a victim of my own design
I am my own worst enemy


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Born-Torn, Scorned and Scarred

Born-torn, scorned and scarred.
Baby's thrown like a bone, choked and charred.
Raised by a mother shackled to Meth,
Dismissed by a father, deserted and left.

Itching for a fix, Mom hunted a high.
Twisting white truth, entangled in lies.
Selling sob stories with emotional pleas,
She abandoned her kin with relative ease.

Time ticked by to the beat of a tear.
Hate accelerates with the fleeting year.
Shattered remnants marked her absent roll.
Mother’s hiatus fueled a bitter soul.

A lonesome heart thuds with empty space.
A drug dubbed “love” was never replaced.
Despite the embrace of another’s clutch,
The kid still cried for mother’s touch.

Born-torn, scorned and scarred.
Baby's thrown like a bone, choked and charred.
Raised by a mother shackled to Meth,
Dismissed by a father, deserted and left.


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Edge of Love

Bring on what awakens
It falls under what I’ll lose
And so it goes on sleeping
Under a queen I will refuse

Face what she calls perfect
It got there through her pain
And so it circles back to nothing
Where every face becomes the same

Calmness and reflection
It gets me high on life
But then I find where this is leading
When I become her darling knight

I’ll screw her just to prove it
I’ll throw away my mind
And when I find she’s non-existent
I’ll spread her poison through a rhyme

So lovely in completion
So pointless to deny
If self-hate did not believe me
I’d give it all another try


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While You Sleep

While you sleep I tell you all of the things I keep inside throughout day.
Now that you can hear but not listen I find them much easier to say.
My hopes, my dreams, my fears, and everything in between
Your subconscious hears so keen, or so it seems.
My tongue is soft; I speak so sweetly 
Knowing your reaction will never greet me.

Tonight will be different in what I want you to know.
It has everything to do with what I can’t help but show.
I hold no claim to any religion but you’ve given me a place for my faith.
Somewhere it will never stale or lose its lavish taste.
You’ve shown me something I can see, touch, and feel, 
And so before it I choose to kneel.

I know I don’t say it but I miss you every day.
Sitting, thinking of the perfect words to be my choice,
Yet when you call I can’t find any of the right words to say.
I’m just happy to finally hear your voice.
Even just a moment is enough to sooth my heavy heart;
Fearing the ends of conversations knowing we’ll have to part.

I’ll never be too far from you, always within arm’s reach,
And in your days of darkness I’ll be the light that you will seek.
I’ll never let you leave too far from me, I’ll stay close behind you in this world;
Secretly protecting what is mine, you will always be my girl.
I only want the best for you so the best of me I will employ.
Faithfully yours, I will always be your boy.

I close my eyes and kiss your soft sweet lips
And see the very best of you in loving bliss.
I see past the physical which makes you attractive
And focus on the things I can’t see in which I’m attracted.
Your thoughts I’d love to hear them all.
Of the things you speak disinterest never makes its call.

My day will come, I know someday I’ll be the only one.
And you I will pursue viciously,
Because I’ve given you the greatest gift I can give, to love unconditionally.
Yes our day will come, I know someday we’ll be as one.
And you I will pursue viciously,
Because I’ve given you the greatest gift I can give… to love unconditionally.


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Pins and Needles

Another song written in middle school - edited of course. ;)
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[Verse 1] I'm trapped within these walls Never to leave at all I am the prisoner inside my own home My spirit is broken I do not believe I'm locked in this chamber which I cannot leave [Chorus] The needles that break the skin The anger that runs within I’m giving it all away Just to stay alive The needles that pierce my veins It will never be the same We’re on pins and needles now It’s how we survive [Verse 2] They say he’ll find me soon Got to get out of this room The blood will spill and he’ll take what he wants to I’ll never let him through GET OUT OF MY DREAM He whispers in darkness, “I’m not who I seem…” [Chorus] [Verse 3] The four walls around me They start to close in I know I’m too late now I know I can’t win So just tell me I’m crazy It’s all in my head You’re not the killer And I am not dead [Chorus] [Breakthrough] Don’t tell me it’s impossible To start it all over again Infection sinks through your pale skin You’ll curse the day that I’m dead [Chorus]


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CANDLE 1st in Spanish then scroll down for english trans

VELA (CANDLE)First Spanish version, scroll down for English)
Yo ser‚ para ti.
Toda la vida que me queda la vivir‚ para ti
y cuando el tiempo haya terminado,
morir‚ por ti.
Dir‚ tu nombre
en cada vela que encienda, respirar‚ tu nombre.
Te susurrar‚,
cada oraci¢n que diga ser  siempre parte de ti.

Por toda la eternidad,
y as¡ ha sido y ser  siempre, 
y cuando deje este mundo,
aquello vendr  conmigo
en la luz de una vela.
Todo el mundo sigue girando, haciendo el d¡a y la noche,
y de la oscuridad a la luz,
ser s siempre parte de cada oraci¢n que yo diga.

Yo ser‚ para ti.
Como una fresca quebrada de la monta¤a que se desborda por ti
como una c lida brisa de verano
entre los  rboles para ti.
En el brillo de una vela,
todo lo que he sido o llegue a ser 
por toda la eternidad,
tu ser s parte de todo lo que yo haga siempre.
Yo ser‚ para ti.  

					
					Traducci¢n: Emilio J. Saavedra M.     CANDLE	
I will be for you.
All my life that is left, I will live for you,
and when time has run out,
I will die for you.
I will speak your name
in each candle that I light, I will breath your name.
I will whisper you,
every prayer I ever say will be part of you.

For eternity,
and forever it has been, and will always be,
and when I leave this world,
it will go with me.
In a candle light
all the world keeps on turning, making day and night,
and from dark to light,
you'll be part of every prayer that ever comes from me.

I will be for you.
Like a cool mountain spring that overflows for you
like a warm summer breeze 
through the trees for you.
In a candle glow,
everything I've ever been or will ever be
for eternity,
you'll be part of everything I ever do.
I will be for you.
© Ron Wilson aka Vee Bdosa the doylestown poet


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T.V.

Boxed in prize-fighter
Spinning punches for a sold-out crowd
Tubes and tubes

Run chain for miles, rust spots baring
Stark, empty Jews
Playing corn in a field, as
Nazi golems keep track of the moves.

A dusty field lying naked and bruised
Soaking a fever 
Like a garden patch, mid-Sundayafternoon.
A mindless hum and the funereal gloom

Turns black to life - avarice Mary; my wife
Has been sick Seven years - with undying green eyes
Her clock springs sprung, like the misshapen tide.


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Unanswered Poems

Don’t send me more 
Of your tragic poems
My dear 
Covered in blood
Of your monthly flood
Of tears

Don’t send me more 
Of your angry poems
My dear
Carved with the knife
Of your molten spite
And fears

I’m just a peddler 
With a cart
Bringing discount words
To hearts
Broken hearts across the land
Woman left without her man
Broken hearts throughout the world
Anguished boy and crying girl

Your poetry’s too heavy, dear
For me to read, for me to bear
Your poetry’s too heavy, dear
For me to get from here to there

Don’t send me more
Of your bitter poems
My sweet
Forged in the fire
Of your endless ire
And grief

Don’t send me more 
Of your hopeless poems
My sweet
Ripped from the womb
Of the lonely room
You keep

I’m just a peddler 
With a cart
Bringing discount words
To hearts
Broken hearts across the land
Woman left without her man
Broken hearts throughout the world
Anguished boy and crying girl

Your poetry’s too heavy, dear
For me to read, for me to bear
Your poetry’s too heavy, dear
For me to get from here to there

(You see that shadow on the road
Trudging ‘neath its heavy load
A heart weighed down by sands of time
And your poems only make him cry
And he won’t add them to the pile
So he can walk another mile)

(And he won’t add them
To the pile
So he can walk 
Another mile)

Too heavy, dear 
Too heavy, dear
For me to read 
For me to bear

(They make him sad
Make him cry
Beat him down
Deep inside)

Too heavy, dear
Too heavy, dear
For me to read
For me to bear

They make me sad
Make me cry
Feel as though 
I want to die

(And he won’t add them
To the pile
So he can walk 
Another mile)

Too heavy, dear
Too heavy, dear
For me to read
For me to bear

(A heart weighed down 
By sands of time
And your poems 
Only make him cry)

Too heavy, dear
Too heavy, dear
For me to read
For me to bear



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Never Told You

Tired of talking 
‘bout weather
Other trivial things

Tired of talking 
‘bout food
The price of tangerines

You may outlive
This aging man
Before I go
Please understand

Never told you how 
I love you 
When I held you
In the dark

Never told you how
I love you
I was never
Very smart

I never told you how
I love you
When I kissed your 
Baby face

Never told you how
I love you 
And I pray it’s 
Not too late

I would  tell you, 
“That’s what men do…manly men don’t say,  ‘I love you’”
That was my alibi
But what men do should be corrected
What men do can’t be accepted 
If it makes your woman cry

Tired of talking 
‘bout scandals
Rumors of the day

Tired of talking 
‘bout old mistakes
Who deserves the blame?

The Winter of our lives
Is drawing near
Let’s change it to Spring
From year to year

Now I’m telling you 
I love you
Though the words are coming late

I’m telling you
I love you
And it feels so good to say

I’ll love you in the morning         
Love you through the night
I will love you through the tears
And all the tragedies of life

I’ll stay with you forever
Love you every day
Love you,  love you, love you
It feels so good to say

Love you, love you, love you, baby

Feels so good to say…..

Love



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Polly

A nobody 
Scared by the sound of his own voice
Following the girl home from school
In his mind this is normal
Stalking girls
He grabs her jacket
Pulling her backwards unto the ground
Placing a cloth around her nose and mouth
Gagging her until she sleeps for a while
He drags her through the woods
Branches hitting her every which way he turns
Dragging her along until he reaches the cabin
Picking her up over his shoulders opening the door to the cellar
Locking the door behind him he walks down the stairs slowly
He places her on a chair and ties her wrist to the handles
Tying her feet to the legs of the chair
Tightening the rope around her neck to the back of the chair
He undresses her waiting for her to wake up
Several hours pass 
She wakes up
Sweating and screaming
Crying and yelling at him
He places duct tape around her mouth
Placing a knife against her stomach
She groans and yelps
He takes the knife away and looks at her
Grabbing her face and telling her shes beautiful
He turns around and stands with his back towards her
As he starts to say
But its the beautiful people that need fixing
He takes the tape off her face and holds her chin tightly
He carves a smile on her face
Cutting her mouth from ear to ear
Telling her
Smile dear it makes you adorable
He grins and sits the knife down
Laughing as she bleeds
She tries to move her mouth
It just drops open
He looks at her smiling
Now that makes you truly beautiful
He leaves her there for a while
Later returning
Placing a needle with a string attached to it
Sticking it into the skin around her mouth that is hanging open
He stitches her back together
Cant make up his mind
He slaps her and leaves her there for another few days
She sits with her eyes peeled wide open
A tear falling as she tries wiggling her hand free from the rope
As she frees her hand she runs her fingers over her stitches
Only to find out her whole mouth has been stitched together
She cant speak
She can only mumble
She frees the rest of  her limbs
Trying to stand up and walk but she's to weak and falls
He runs down the stairs
Yelling at her to get up
She doesn't move
He kicks her in the stomach
She doesn't budge
He picks her up and uses her as a puppet 
For his own needs
He then buries her beside his other victims
Only to find out shes still alive
Her hand slips through the dirty old mud

5-28-2013


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United Kingdom Of Whores

I welcome you to this magic kingdom
Drowned in endorphins and stale perfume
To hide the stench of sweat but not shame
You're free to leave but you won't be the same

So grab a drink, have one of my fags
So many girls in glamourous rags
Fight 'til the sunlight on sticky floors
Tomorrow morning they'll regret it, of course

Forget your morals, you won't need them now
It makes more sense to follow the crowd
That seems so happy and carefree
Intoxicated is the way to be

There's nothing here, just hate and lust
Values I live for get ground to dust
Purity killed by one night romance
Loyalty doesn't have any chance

If you're looking to lose yourself
Leave your soul and brain on the shelf
And find yourself washed up on the shores
Of the United Kingdom of Whores


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WHAT AM I

I hurt so bad, yet I feel no pain;
I've grown so numb, I must be insane.

Is anything real, Does anyone care?
I'm lost and alone, flooded with despair.

I have a hole inside, there's so little hope;
I'd scream and cry, if it would help me cope.

What am I, is this what life is?
I can't deny, I'm angry and confused.
Kept alive, with food and shelter;
What a lie, why my soul rots away!

This isn't my turf, in this small courtyard;
Horrible things take place, everyday is hard.

Spare me your moral standard, I hate excuse;
The unseen torture, and the mental abuse.

If God had a people, they'd fight for my escape;
Not slam hope's door closed, until it was too late.

What am I, is this what life is?
I can't deny, I'm angry and confused.
Kept alive, with food and shelter;
What a lie, why my soul rots away!

*I AM AN ORPHANED CHILD THAT WAS TRAFFICKED INTO SEX SLAVERY! 

Dirge Poem of Bitterness and Distress

Sponsor: Poet Destroyer A
Contest Name: WHAT AM I?



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Velvet Wings

Ignorant to passing time
Reality strikes its deafening chime
Unspoken words pass between
I and you, my darling queen

Lay your weary head to rest
With your arms across your chest
Now it's time to close your eyes
Whisper your final goodbyes

Let me go, we'll both be free
Cross the wasteland, past the sea
Find the path to heaven's light
Break away from endless night

Embracing tears of bitter pain
Falling lightly with the rain
Out of reach, I hear your song
Alone again, I sing along

Let me go, we'll both be free
Cross the wasteland, past the sea
Find the path to heaven's light
Break away from endless night

From the night. . .
I watched your velvet wings take flight
I never saw you so alive
So alive
I watched your velvet wings take flight
I'll never ever say goodbye
Never say goodbye

Life has ended, you have won
Death befriended, pain is gone
Fly away into the light
Crystal clear and shining bright
Close your eyes for final rest
Meeting among the blessed

Let me go, we'll both be free
Cross the wasteland, past the sea
Find the path to heaven's light
Break away from endless night

From the night. . .
I watched your velvet wings take flight
I never saw you so alive
So alive
I watched your velvet wings take flight
I'll never ever say goodbye
Never say goodbye

I let you go so you'll be free
Cross the path of darkened sea
I watched your velvet wings take flight
I can never say goodbye
Never say goodbye


Collaboration with Rebecca Larkin <3
A song, and lyrics


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I MISS WHAT USED TO BE

I feel like it's just not the same
Everything's changed but the name
That something sad got into my Soup

I've seen so many good friends go
Others have come that I don't know

I miss what you used be

I've ask, but the answers don't come
Not knowing what's next makes me glum
I'm wondering is it time to say good-bye

So many memories from in the past
All I once knew, yeah.. it didn't last

I miss what used to be
Yeah, I miss what used to be

And now theses ads, completely insane
Fall on my page like a pouring rain
Just want to enjoy my bowl of Soup
Read your work, have you read me

I miss what you used be

The years here have come and gone
Lots of poets, but something's wrong
One thing I never thought I'd say.. so long

So many memories from in the past
All I once knew, yeah.. it didn't last

I miss what used to be
Yeah, I miss what used to be

I miss what used to be
I miss what used to be

I miss what used to be
Yeah, I miss what used to be

*Written as a tribute to the old guard that have felt many changes here at the 
Soup

Date: 7-19-14


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NOT ENOUGH

Just another day
they often start the same
But without any warning
life can quickly go insane

Standing in front of a mirror
lights begin to blink
My son shouts "The house is on fire"
our lives are on the brink

In those next few moments
our house filled with dense smoke
Blinding the eyes from accumulated stuff 
life's true values fully awoke

Doesn't matter if you have little or a lot 
things eventually burn, rust, or rot
If your living to accumulate stuff
the more you have.. 
the more it's not enough

Standing on the street
firemen racing from everywhere
Looking intently at our house
you realize your home isn't there

Home is not brink and mortar
it's not the warehouse of stuff
Home is who you hold on to
when life seems oh so tough

Standing there together
the only possession in my hands
Is the one thing that really matters
My precious family's hands

Doesn't matter if you have little or a lot 
things eventually burn, rust, or rot
If your living to accumulate stuff
the more you have.. 
the more it's not enough

*The words of this poem came to me holding 
my family's hands and watching our house burn

Contest: Linda's #6 
Date: 6-5-14


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Scream, Gone

Stomp, stomp, stomp, Scream, scream, scream, Before the stomp, stomp, stomps, He, she, they screamed screamed, And screamed, at I, Scream at I which the thoughts, Of comeback come near, near, and nearer, Stomp, stomp, stomp, I hear the stomps, they come closer, And closer and closer, Stomp, stomp, stomp My heart beating faster, faster, faster! The room, spinning, spinning, spinning! Times going, gone, gone! Stomps coming closer, faster! The screams getting louder, louder! Stomp, scream, stomp! Nothings more worse than when you see the, He, she, they behind the stomping of the stomps, The screaming, of the screams, The fire, hell, saddened in the eyes, Is what hurts most, rather than the, Stomp, stomp, stomp, Or the, Scream, scream, scream.


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Checkpoint in Amerika

Gulls circled above, spiralling through car exhaust
Kids fidgeted in the backseats of chaos

Eerie silence, interrupted by overheated transmissions
Someone blasting The Doors...theme music

Stern, heavily armored Homeland Security soldiers
Slowly approached, assuming insurrection

Just another day in the new Amerika
Land of the free, home of the brave

Large signs proclaim:

"All contents must be declared, please exit your
Vehicle when stopped"

Off to the side, transport busses waited
Like praying mantis seizing their victims

Filling quickly,

 abandoned cars quickly towed

Destination unknown

                                   Destination

                                                        Unknown



04/12/13
© All Rights Reserved


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Surrender

Sitting in this empty room
Looking at broken pictures of me and you
A broken life together
I always thought we’d make it forever

What has become of me?
I never ever thought I would be
One of those who were beaten down
One of those who didn’t make a sound

Silent when you pushed me around
Silent when you covered my mouth
Silent when you raised your hand
Silent when you gave your commands

But something deep within my soul
Tells me to rise up and take control
Take a hold of my lost self again
Knowing if I don’t this might be the very end

You will not break me down this way
You will not darken my coming days
I am stronger now you see
And I will never let you kill the beautiful soul inside me

I am someone who has a voice
I am a woman who can make my own choice
I don’t need permission to be free
Or to discover the real woman inside me

Discovering the strength and power within
To let the bright shining sun shine in
To let my heart feel free and bold
To let my soul escape your choking hold

I’ve come to realize just a few things
That my life is worth more than two gold rings
Sometimes it has to be that way
For me to take ME back and then for me to say…

I am a beautiful woman inside
I will never ever run away and hide
I will rise to the very top
I won’t quit and I won’t stop

There is nothing that I can’t do
There is nothing left for me and you
So now I surrender and just let go
I am special this I know…..


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Goodbye

My life is torn between two worlds
Of now and used to be
But all I ever wanted 
Was the world of you and me
Memories of the only love 
That I have ever known
It’s hard to hold them in my heart
But hard to let them go
At times I wonder who I am
Where did I go wrong 
Why am I so lonely 
In a life I don’t belong
I know my heart will never heal
While feeling so much pain
I’ll never find the sunshine 
While I’m following the rain
Too late now for miracles
They wouldn’t change a thing
For someone else’s finger
Now wears your wedding ring
But though our song has ended
You still want us to dance
And though I’m still in love with you
My heart can't take the chance
Forever I will miss you
And forever I will cry, but
To find myself again
I know I have to say goodbye..

By Raina Hutchins


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Normal To Me

This isn't just a poem This isn't just another emotion This is me, these are my thoughts The Imagery is my sight, And The Allegories are my Life I'm lonely, There is just me But there's so many people around but no one can hear my loudest screams Don't Shout nor Scream This is all just Normal To Me I'm torn, I'm Cut Part of my heart stabbed, and then taken from me The Search for my innocence, Is like a moa hunt Don't Shout nor Scream This is all just Normal To Me Laughing and Jokes all directed towards me Just to Hurt me Cover all of the Halls "Fag, Emo, Queer" Words I too often know Don't Shout nor Scream This is all just Normal To Me Curling her hair putting on her makeup "You're worthless and nothing to Me" Says the so-called all-loving-one As she screams: "Why am I not Pretty" Don't Shout nor Scream This is all just Normal To Me This is not just a poem not just some words my pen cries with each words But this is Just a Glimpse Don't Shout nor Scream This is all just Normal To Me


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I WENT FOR A WALK TODAY

I went for a walk today
Hoping I wouldn't see you
Because I don't know what to say

I looked at every face in the crowd
Hoping it wasn't you
But that's not really true

Every laugh melted my heart
Echos of a past now broken apart
Seems everyone reminded me of you
A glimpse here and there of what we'd do

I remember how..
Your songs made me high
Being with you was always blue sky
I was crazy to ever say goodbye
Like a fool I chased a pretty lie

Now baby, time stands still
My songs have lost their thrill
I dance but it no longer rhymes
My mind is a captive of better times

I looked at every face in the crowd
Hoping it was you
Somehow I wish you knew

I wouldn't know what to say
Hoping I'd see you anyway
I went for a walk today

Contest: Linda's #8
Date: 6-15-14


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Waves Crash, Warm Sand

Waves crash, warm sand
Gold ring, your hand
I can't stay 
Away from you
But I know my place

You held my shaking body
Regret etched in your face
You know you’re not where you belong
But when you’re here
You belong to me
I can't make it go away
Not with the wine or the others
Or the lies I tell myself
About how I'm just lonely
And any man will do
Those words sound empty and hollow
I know what I want
And it's you
Cold white wine in crystal
While the fire crackles and glows
And my need for you grows
From the moment you leave my bed
The tension builds
Until I finally feel you inside me again
Caress your satin
Savor the taste of your kiss
Your breath against my thigh
Watching you
Watching me
You make me a little crazy

Waves crash, warm sand
Gold ring, your hand
I can't stay 
Away from you
But I know my place

There's a difference
Between feeling guilty and regret
Regret would be a knife in my soul
It's easier to let go
If the words of goodbye
Don't drop between us like heavy stones
Building an unscaleable wall
But we go back to reality
Who can say why
Life pulls two people together
I hate being trapped in this busy room
I don't need to turn around
To know you've walked in
I feel your eye's caress
That grabs me by the heart
And suddenly there's no air in this room
And I can't hear what anyone is saying
Over the pounding of my heart
And I can't see anything
But your smile
Even though it’s sweet torture to be near you
Even if I have to settle for feeling your eyes on me
Where I want your hands to be
Where I want your breath to be
Even though you make me feel a little crazy
Here I stay
I can't forget those nights
The sound of your guitar
I can't forget how you taste
And how you feel
Or the look on your face when you're inside
The look that makes my heart move
I don't know if it's beating harder
Or turning over
Or breaking
But it hurts
I know making love isn't a contract
I gave you my heart
It's not something you can give back
Caught in the moment like a rabbit in a snare
You lean over me and reach for the seashells we collected
In small paper cups
The touch of your hand blows me away
Your breath on my cheek blows me apart
I want to race away from you like a sandpiper from the waves
But I'll let the passion I feel for you
Crash like waves all over my body
As I sit here acting unaffected

Waves crash, warm sand
Gold ring, your hand
I can't stay 
Away from you
But I know my place


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SLEEPING WITH THE DEVIL'S WIFE

   SLEEPING WITH THE DEVIL'S WIFE
Some night you'll wake before morning
Sweatin to the oldies she will sing.
She'll make you think you're in Heaven...
Long enough to tell you ANYTHING...

And you'll believe her.

Some night you'll wake up hearing voices
Sweatin to the oldies of here life.
She'll never say you're in Heaven.
Or tell you you've been sleeping with the Devil's Wife.

She'll never tell you, you've been sleeping with the Devil's wife.

But you will KNOW.
You will know.

That's when you'll need her.
That's when you'll love her the most.
That's when you will die.
Sleeping with the Devil's wife.

That's when you will die.
   
© ron wilson aka vee bdosa ---hear the song and First take Video on Youtube, search for vee bdosa then select SLEEPING WITH THE DEVILS WIFE. One of my personal favorites, more poetry than song.


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Godly Illusion

Fake face Fake smile Fake voice I'll run a mile Yes master No master Of course master Now master Gothic witch Gothic dream Your downfall In my smile Eyes radiating False adoration Your spell Oh so vile Empty words Empty syllables I'll empty out Your lies Cold iron Strong will My claws ripping At your heart Claws ripping Blood dripping My icy, gleeful smile Fake face Smashed Fake smile Thrashed Fake voice Silenced You don't fool me Anymore


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For All Eternity

As daylight dawns my eyes close
On another sleepless night
So cold and all alone without
Your arms to hold me tight
I look out through the glass
And watch the sunrise in the sky
And still I find no answers
As again I’m asking why
My nights they seem so endless
Then I face another day
So full of pain and loneliness
Since God took you away
People say that time will heal
That I’ll get over you
That one day I will laugh again
That I’ll find someone new
I only wish they’d understand
Why that will never be
I’ll never love another
For you were my destiny
And though I've tried to carry on
My fears I cannot hide
I just can’t face this world alone
Without you by my side
The tablet bottles empty now
And on our I lay
I put my hands together
Then I close my eyes and pray
Please God will you send back down
My Angel from above
Then he will gently take my hand
And lead me back to love
He’ll guide the way to Heaven
Where together we will be
Two Angel's who are blessed with love
For all eternity...



By Raina Hutchins


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MY TRUTHS & THOUGHTS

we're living in an era of ignorance 
we lost our innocense
at fourteen your too young to vote but old enough for death sentences

these politcians are hypocrits
for the atrocities that they commit we face imprisonment

durring this pro American sentiment
how could we forget the scores of poor ignored
while we finance a war 

that bombs then rebuilds them
feed their children

while the ones back home
have to fend for their own

life is wonderul and miserable depends on the time frame
the birth of Almasi(my son) the death of Dwayne(my cousin)

I went bezerk it hurt clutching his blood soaked shirt
while he lay on the Earth leaking blood on the dirt
I cried to the sky please guide me father
at times this world is so dark I need night vision goggles

i lost friends to ignorance
bullets and jail stints
drug habbits and various patterns of bull ish 
I've navigating through dangerous
streets trying to claim us
beast trying to tame  us
friends turned to strangers
I have ducked heat from flammers
by mennacing strangers
thinking I will survive like gloria gaylor

its a small world but I got big plans
but it gets hard like trying to jog through quicksand
but I found GOD on both knees with cluthced hands 
but kept getting invitations from the Devil to dance

so i went below the surface
became more observant

hand shakes are fake they dont mean a thing
a smile can be a predator preparing his fangs

I severed ties with friends who's minds were stagnated
had king pin dreams but never quite made it

friendships were torn
and habbits were formed

and the ones who escaped crack
heroin snatched

and I engaged in acts that were so unGodly
only he can judge me punish me or pardon me

watching this world makes me shed eye water 
our sons get slaughtered  and denegrated ours daughters
its the sign of the times cant you see that people
first it rained airplanes then the mail was lethal

ghetto youths indisputes they spray A.K s
suburban kids throw pipebombs in school hallways
after so many years of feeding violence to youths
I guess those chickens came home to roost


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My Dad

It never quits
My dad's h i t s
I see myself in the mirror
And I am to become
But I just go numb
It hurts to see
What all he has done to me
It never fails
When he hears me wail
It never quits
My dad's h i t s


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Buried at Sea.

I watch the ocean waves from underneath it all.
Deep down.
It's getting harder to breathe.
This water makes its way into my lungs.
You're suffocating me.
Asphyxiation.
Just leave me here, you haven't changed at all.
You fall apart, every time you start.
Just start realizing you can't replace the hole that you put in my heart.
One last breath to say goodbye.
I'll tell myself a final lie.
"I'll make it out alive."
The only thing that can feel this hole is the water that buries me at sea.
It'll feel the void, complete me.
Will I ever feel my limbs again? 
Is this the end of my suffering? 
I don't feel like waking up.
I can't wake up.
I can't see the sunrise anymore.
I have sunken to the ocean floor.


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TAPESTRY

.........TAPESTRY
Out of time that's long forgotten, 
in a light that's yet unknown,
you could see me in the morning, 
I would be there, but alone,
weaving tapestries from fibers 
of someone who'd never guess,
she is part of dreams and vision,
and somebody's happiness.
    But she would know someone was there.
     I'd touch her now if I would dare.
      And she would know I'm always there.

There's a story and it's Celtic, 
"We must love all things, to see
how a raindrop loves the flower, 
but the flower loves a bee."
In the tapestry I'm weaving, 
I have told this story well,
and the dream she is a part of, 
is the other tale I tell.
    She knows someone has touched her mind.
     I'm always there for her to find.
      And she is always on my mind.

It's a love beyond a question, 
but a love that's out of place,
out of time and out of reason, 
but unable to erase.
In the tapestry I'm weaving ,
there's no differences to see,
she is rising from the ocean 
to a love God's meant to be.
...And she has known a love that's good.
.....Though it is never understood.
........But she'll remember love is good.
© ron wilson


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Under the Eclipse: For Amanda Todd

October speaks of death, I hope now she can rest,
And lay the soaring bird on down.
Underneath her clothes, only herself she loathed.
We've seen this done before. 

Together they manifest their cause, ripping with their claws,
Tearing flesh and bone.
From the shame inside swelling at her sides,
She broke herself on stones. 

And the monsters say "There's on her to blame,
With many heads we only think the same".
When no words of solace leave our lips,
I can tell you the world will end like this,
Under the Eclipse. 

All around they slayed and left where she laid
To bleed out all her wrongs.
And now that she's gone, over with and done,
Her memories all they play. 

She can show you how people lose their sanity.
She can show you how the world has lost humanity.
Those who turned their eyes, this has only you to blame.
To console yourself you say "Oh what a shame".
I can tell you how the world will end like this,
Under the Eclipse,
Under the Eclipse.

Wool across my eyes,
Shields me from this life.
Every single thread
Coating what they said.

Every drop of rain
Lights a candle in
Memory of the one
Who burned for others fun. 

She can show you how people lose their sanity.
She can show you how the world has lost humanity.
Those who turned their eyes, this has only you to blame.
To console yourself you say "Oh what a shame".
I can tell you how the world will end like this,
Under the Eclipse,
Under the Eclipse.

Where is the sun?
Where is the sun?


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Last Sunday

Rainy Sunday morning lying in bed
Stroking your hair, watching you sleep
My heart beating every beat for you
The way it used to


The train rumbles by waking you
Your sleepy eyes look up at me
I wrap my arms around you
The way I used to


Sitting having tea, enjoying the company
Talking about life and the rain
I can’t take my eyes off you
The way I used to


You lean against me, cuddling up tight
I hold you closely against me
Kindly, gently, comforting you
The way I used to


You lead me by the hand to your bedroom
We undress, kissing passionately, desperately
We hold on tightly and make love
The way we used to


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Borderline's Wreckage

I'm Agonizing every Word that my mind Creates You've done this all to me release your wrath to Me You wonder How much a Human Heart can take I've reached the limit You've invaded me on every level none of this is Mine anymore I can't bleed enough for You We're through This, This Torture Homicidal With You Suicidal Without You Feel Free to abuse If it's you I won't lose The Winds push away The Vines pull forth I'm at a lose on what to do So very lost and Confused Don't say we're through Homicidal With You Suicidal Without You I Hate you ...Don't leave me I push you so far away But need you so close I'm on the edge you're all I really need I'll do anything Just don't Abandoned me leaving has it's toll Homicidal With You Suicidal Without You


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All I'll Have Left

Lately I’ve been thinking about our love affair
And I’ve come to the conclusion we’re not getting anywhere
And, Darling, though I love you with all of my heart
I think the end is here and it’s time for us to part

Why is it so hard to say good-bye
Even though I know it has to be
It’s simply because I’m losing everything
And all that I’ll have left is me

When we first got together I was looking for a friend
But it turned into a love that I thought would never end
And now the time has come to go our separate ways
We danced to the piper’s music, but now it’s time to pay

Why is it so hard to say good-bye
Even though I know it has to be
It’s simply because I’ve given up my soul
And all that I’ll have left is me

I guess I always knew that it would have to be this way
But I was never looking forward to this day
Now as you turn to leave tears fall from my eyes
And all I want to do is crawl away and die

Why is it so hard to say good-bye
Even though I know it has to be
It’s simply because you’re taking all I am
And all that I’ll have left is me


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To the Sea

To The Sea 

Sea, 
I look to you 
For answers 
To the questions that swirl like your currents in my mind 
Are you as unfathomable as my heart? 
Do your swells exceed the passions rising within me? 
Does your churning and pounding match the rhythm of my pulse? 
Is your water as cold as the loneliness here? 
Does the salt you contain taste the same as my tears? 
Does your thunderous crashing on rocks at the shore 
Equal the tempest that rages in my soul? 
Do you harbor secrets in your depths as I do? 
Are you roiling below the surface with anticipation? 
Do you long for a visitor to break the horizon... 
As I long for my Love? 
Does the wail that rises from your hollow reefs 
Blend with the plaintive cry from my lips? 
Can the overture played on your delicate shells 
Drown out the sound of my siren song? 
Sea, I have loved you, Sea, I have known you... 
We feel the same, we sound the same 
We give the same, we take the same 
We are one 
And the same 
You and I, 
Your mournful soulmate 




© Copyright Donna Golden July 10, 1999


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Mockingbird Still Sings

Children sexually abused
Hiding secrets none accused 
Mockingbird still sings

False Charities stealing money
Laughing while nothing’s funny
Mockingbird still sings

Corporations shredding evidence
Seas of hypocrisy and decadence
Mockingbird still sings

Cheating partners losing trust
Teens pregnant from a night of lust
Mockingbird still sings

Rape victims ashamed to speak
Lives destroyed remaining meek 
Mockingbird still sings

Middle East raging in war
All for pride nothing more
Mockingbird still sings

Delicate babies addicts born
Crack whore moms selling porn
Mockingbird still sings

Gang bangers need attention
Killing for an honorable mention 
Mockingbird still sings

Fools and vengeance shall expire
For winds of change to transpire
While mockingbird still sings


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Why Must It Be

Can I let you go? Will you be okay? Where you're headed now...to a better place Listen to my words of forgiveness relieving this pain I'd give anything to have you back again To hold you once more in my arms, one more day of happiness you now dwell within my heart Your innocent smile is forever a distant memory, and the times that we share are precious treasures that I spend reliving The Shadow of Death Took you in just one breath Why must it be? I cry behind this closed door, searching desperately for an answer, yet all I feel is an emptiness inside... despair haunts me forevermore Why did you have to go? Why did you have to leave? Why does this have to hurt? Cancer robbed thy life from thee... Why must it be? Fly away Angel Child of Mine Trod thy broken paths, roam away, fly and be free... Why must it be?


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Violet

In London, away in a terrace
Half-hidden with elm trees and grime,
Lived young Violet, in her parents' house,
Left alone for near all of the time,

As her mother had no patience to teach her
And her father was working all day,
Violet read to herself through her childhood
Forgetting her seclusion in play,

Any friends she made as a young woman
Would laugh at her stitches and cloth,
For they knew that Violet was quite useless
And so showed their neat needlework off,

Poor Violet kept trying her best, but
Each time everyone ran her down,
She retreated back into her mind's warmth
Far away from that cold-blooded town,

Then one night, as the raindrops were piercing
Through the rueful, restricting twilight,
Violet threw on her Sunday attire and
Did at once in the darkness delight,

So she ran through the alleys and gardens,
Dancing down the pitch-black London streets,
Her beautiful dress flew about her
As she skipped past the other deceits,

Violet's stories swam round in her memory
As she flew through the night and the stars,
And she bathed thoroughly and with relish
Until Violet was cleansed of her scars,

Now her heart was open and happy,
So she laughed and fluttered her tail,
Carelessly gliding free through the water
And onwards to the ocean did sail.

As the weary sun rose on the next day
Her friends could be seen on the pier,
Dabbing at their dry eyes with their hankies,
Voices straining trying to sound sincere,

"It has hurt us so indescribably,
That because of her poorly-sewn hems,
Violet felt she was inferior to us
And has drowned herself in the Thames."

Violet's parents had not yet noticed
The absence of their only daughter,
And they would understand even less
How she came to be dead underwater,

But Violet was now free to prosper,
To swim and to dance and to glide,
And with angels and mermaids to play with,
She would always in her dreams reside.


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Never

There were times when I was scared
And it was only left for me to cry
I was left behind the walls of my life
And you watched me as I fallen to die

You were never there
You have never care
Because I am just a shadow in your eyes
And you are always pretended to be blind

Now, my world is turning again
All I could feel is nothing but pain
Hope this will be off my head soon
Although forgetting was in vain


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Everything You Can Imagine

"Everything You Can Imagine"

There's a part of me that wants to do as it pleases 
And a part of me that don't make sense
There's a part of me that calls out to Jesus
And a part of me that rides the fence...

There's a part of me that walks the edge in the night
And a part of me that I don't know
There's a part of me that want's to give up the 'fight'
And there's a part of me that won't let go...

'Cause I've been lied to...Spit on...
Pushed down...Hit on...
I've been Cussed at...Cheated...
Used and Mistreated...
Everything you can imagine....
But I wouldn't let go...

Nothing but The Blood could set me free
So I called out to Jesus...here's what He said to me:

There's a part of me that lives inside of you
And a part of me that won't let you hide
There's a part of me that always sees you through
And a part of me with arms open wide...
There's a part of me that lived the pain you feel 
A a part of me that died for you
There's a part of me with power that's real
And a part of me that makes that 'old life' new...

Nothing but My Blood can rescue you
So call on My Name...I know what you're going through

'Cause I was lied to...Spit on...
Pushed down...Hit on...
I was Cussed at...Cheated...
Used and Mistreated...
I've been through everything you can't imagine...
But I wouldn't let go...
Because I loved you...
I wouldn't let go...


~by deborah burch©
3/31/2012


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I AM Recovering

Hm, unchain me from my pit of poverty
My pit of impure pity and messed-up misery – let it go! Misery, let me go! You 
won’t let me light up with delight though
Ohhh, living this lie with or without you, you see?
Change me inside out, oh Lord…I can’t afford to pay up my debt, reducing me 
to tears of woe…you never loved me, you know?
I’m recovering from the love flu
I’m recovering from losing you
I’m recovering from the departure of us two
I’m recovering from this blasted rue

CHORUS:
I will squander my time now and forever
(Are you an evil, fallen angel?)
Until I meet you eye to eye again
Our departure came to soon…our future’s a blur
(sarcasm: Oh you must be a sweet, beautiful angel –)
Come on & get out of the lion’s den!
Release me…I need to let go…
Believe in me…reflect on me…
Release me…let me go with the flow
Let me grow and see…the light at the end of the tunnel
There’s other fish in the sea…

V.3:
Face the truth…you made me fall victim to your pain
Look through my pane…
Look through my pane of my past
You’re running so fast – let me keep pace, so we can beat this race together at 
last! 
I’m recovering from the love flu
I’m recovering from losing you
I AM recovering from the departure of us two
I AM recovering being reduced to the tears…oh wait, I’m no longer absorbing 
rue…I had no clue this would happen to me out of the blue…God knew what 
I’ve gone through and He found my other shoe that I lost…now, I’m placing my 
feet in His shoes, meaning I AM officially a part of His crew!!


~!@#$%^&*()_+=-)(*&^%$#@#@!~


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Sitting On the Dock With Rene

I left my home, it  wasn't  so gorgeous,
but I knew I could no longer stay
I had nothing to live for,
seemed like only sadness would come my way,
headed for any deep water bay,
sitten' on the edge of sadness,...
wasted by time.....time...

on the bay of grief and sadness
I sat and wondered aloud....
how can I feel so lonely....
even in the midst of a crowd?

sittin' on the dock of sadness bay
wearing my ......crow....crown.....

I was royal fodder for sorrow,
looked like just sh_t would be comin' to me
I wanted so much to hold him,
but somehow   fate would not let that be.....

so I'm sitten' on the fringe of cryin'....
every day.....ay, ay, ay, ay...

I'd whistle if I could...
and if it'd bring him to me
for just one more day...
but my throat is simply too.
clogged with tears
what can I say?

I sit on the riverbanks
of mighty river styx
the river I've longed to cross
so I could hold him once more...
but sadness has stranded me
here, on this lonely shore...

for Rene, my sister in sorrow,
among the millions of us in
the dark seas of grief....


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A Little Rhyme About Hypocrisy

So let me tell you somethin', Let me let you know how I feel. You can learn more from a plant than a god who isn't real. If you gotta burn somethin' then go and burn a church. 'Cause if you burn a book then it's murder in the first. Who are you to say that a thought must die? Who are you to say how I educate my mind? Just like in your holy writ, Metaphorically blind, Go destroy someone else who's unsaved and you're fine. You can preach out of your mouth, But then you act from your behind. You are all compared to sheep, and you don't even seem to mind. Careful what you wish for, because you never can tell. You know that there's a heaven, but really hope that there's a hell. Hope that there's a place where the suffering is real. Well let me ask you something. Let me know how you feel. If you all are right, who do you want to be there?


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Martyr for the Unorthodox word

If I had over 10,000 dreams You'd be the only thing my mind could see Judgment couldn't be real Succumbing to the fear of this cold life Find a way to break through The self-destruction of wordly delusions Don't tell me I've lived so long in a lovely illusion Break me down until we find a Nirvanic state Then bring me a savior from transgressions An atoning sacrifice Send down to me a messenger for me to submit to Bring me the truth to break through The delusion Bring me the messenger to explain it all And let me leave behind Sorrow's caressing the earth The caliphate stole my heart Without a will to fight But I have the Means to be free I'll try to go with the word I believe But so many stones to be thrown Stakes to burn, limbs to break Faces to hate, scorns to taste Will I have the will to die Despite all of the tears no one will cry Sorrow's caressing the earth The caliphate stole my heart Broke my will Safetefied my soul Martyr for the Unorthodox word Sorrow's caressing the earth The caliphate stole my heart Without a will to fight But I have the Means to be free I'll try to go with the word I believe But so many stones to be thrown Stakes to burn, limbs to break Faces to hate, scorns to taste Will I have the will to die Despite all of the tears no one will cry Sorrow's caressing the earth The caliphate stole my heart Broke my will Safetefied my soul Martyr for the Unorthodox word


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By you

Pictures on a shelf,
remind me now
of how i could of been.

Expectations start high.
Expectations end low.

Holding tight,
our heads are spinning.
But my love,
this is just the beginning.

I stand here
so unsubjected.
I stand here
so infected
by you.

I wish
I could speak more clearly.
I wish
by you,
I wouldn't shake
when near me.

By you
scared thoughts
inject me.

By you
my mind and words
aren't quite connecting.




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Lost Love

As I sit here I wonder why, Why, My Lost Love Why couldn't it have worked Why My Love We each knew our Love for each other But knew what the consequences would have been So we went our separate ways Knowing full well, We'd never Be totally Satisfied Again Until We could be together Why Lost Love, Why Is there some meaning to this Madness I sit and Cry for You, My Love Knowing why I stayed in this situation, Does nothing to ease my pain I Miss You, My Lost Love You have forever been in my thoughts Love If there Is A God In Heaven, Surely, He'll Give Us Another Try My Love I try so hard to be strong, To show no signs of distress Yet, he knows something is wrong, Senses a change in me He's trying so hard, To make right the unjustly wrongs Lost Love Yet my thoughts and fantasies remain Around our times in each others embrace I only wish I could have told you again in person But I'm sure You already know There'll Never Be Another My Love, My Lost Love Is there supposed to be a grieving period I don't know, I only know I hurt, A deep Soul Hurting Like a part of me has died Love, Lost Love


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Mrs. Brown You've Got A Lovely Jewel There!!

Mrs. Brown you've got a lovely jewel there,
Jewels like her are something rare...
She can't  disguise it,
Ruby's red eyes show "blues" in it,

Fred, you wanna add the refrain?
Don't worry about Herman & pals-
They're all hermit crabs now-a-days.


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Master of Strings

This puppet self-conflicted
Surreal to the end
I’m painting my own master
From the pain that I depend

This master so forgiving
Never one to speak
I am frightened of his laughter
And I depend because I’m weak

These strings eternal rapture
My strings are every pain
Unseen but granting vision
Yet never letting me relate

This puppet unbecoming
Whenever I have come undone
Unseen yet still regretting
That I have never had such fun

Master please implore me
Teach me how to stand
So I can divide this mirror
Between myself and why I’m damned

And all that’s left is silence
Between this mirror land
Where puppets are their masters
To deny the strings within their hands

Suddenly strings reach out
Right across this pain
Entangled within others
As the master starts his game


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Chance Happenings

It matters not the direction
When tempting winds may blow,
But be cognizant of this one fact
It's the devil that makes it so.

He'll tempt us with logical persuasion
And in abysmal thought we'll fret.
But worry will not solve one problem
Or take from us, our regret.

For each time we've been so enticed
Satan did so in his own due season.
And while we fail to see or understand
God has allowed these for a reason.


Written for a special friend, Shirlene





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Honoring Sacrifice

For country, they chose to honor a call,
Now the piercing sound of a rifle's report.
An echoing trumpet, sadly says it all.
Let us hero our young as a last resort.

No image portrays our freedom's cost,
Like that of a flag draped casket.
A mental souvenir of war, un-tossed,
On display from memory's basket.

It serves to remind of a hero's place,
Should we treat it as a mere statistic.
For each had a home, name and face,
Harboring dreams that were realistic.

They abnegated those dreams for a chore,
Accepting that vitality might be tried.
Death isn't made a contrivance of war,
But a mental souvenir from those who died.


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I Still Remember

I scratch my head and too often wonder
And while gazing hinder I see disarray.
I recall those times of my err and blunder
times void of Jesus to brighten my day.

As I posed the question did any care?
The obvious answer I was unable to see.
Until life became more than I could bear
I found Jesus was patiently waiting on me.

I realized that countless agonized for me
Through prayer straight to God's throne.
But from blinded eyes I'd refused to see
Attempting to do things on my very own.

But during a crisis I became spirit broken
For my body was now stricken with cancer.
I surrendered life entire, not just a token
I accepted Jesus Christ as the living answer.














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Life's Bottomless Pit

Bankrupt and broke life has given to me
Endless contradictions with windows I see
What a shame that it is to be in this bind
However the outcome I'm losing my mind...

Yesterdays care gave out almost there
While trailing once more, lifes relentless wear
Has taken me down again and again
Yet this time it's different, this time I give...

Watching and wishing I keep on missing
Something inside that will stop it's pissing
Life's pissing on me and letting me know
Get out of the way get out of the flow

I've fallin again and boy I fell hard
Fighting lifes ways justifies my scar's
Painful emotions have robbed me today
It procrastinated awhile and became enraged
  
What can I do when inside me I knew
There's somewhere I'd been adjusting my view
I am all the way down and feeling quite sick
Standing on the bottom of life's bottomless pit...


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.Alone.

you. are not. alone.
with cavernous ceilings closing in,
the impression of depression driving in the direction
of some unreachable goal of controlled insanity
– because always in control are you –
you harp on your uniqueness, your originality,
when in fact you are one of a many,
one of a group,
something you try so hard to deny
as the blood starts staining your hands
and drip, drops on this hallowed ground.
through the watery haze of your righteous tears
your gaze fails to fall on the footprints
of another and another, walking the floor,
their lifeblood draining just as yours.
all around you they sway, scepters
of tragedies pushed away and forgotten,
long forgotten,
as you blindly flail and try not to fall
off this lonely cliff of Last Resort where
you. are not. alone.
you search and you seek 
empathy, apathy, sympathy, any “-pathy”
to ease the pain of these lost, forgotten days,
and yet you miss these hands reaching out
wanting to hold you miss these words
said only to console you miss these eyes
meant to draw you in
and all you see in those eyes is a reflection
of something you’ve tried to deny
and you continue to balance
walking the  lines of chaos, trying not to spin
out, of, control
– because always in control are you –
you try to survive on the bread and bones
 of those come before, but blind you are
to the nature of your food, blind you are
to this world you stumble through
and blame endlessly, releasing you
from the responsibility you are being punished for, and
you. are not. alone.
so dive of your platform of solitary fears
dive into this river of comfortable tears
swim alongside these ghosts of years and years
of tragedies so like yours
let them carry you away from this
cliff of Last Resort and know that
you. are not. alone.


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Gemini Eyes In Sapphire Skies

(4 before start)
The sun descends as the
SWELLS RISE
Counting every coward as he passes by

You could take the place
Of the emerald lights
In the southern cities
Where the castles bloom
After a weathered trace
Of gold and two's

June bugs and fireflies
Are tearing up the autumn skies
"goodbye...GOODBYE!"

Kingdoms,
They all fall down
Where you're standing makes all the difference
(ALL THE DIFFERENCE NOW!)

Take my tongue and take my scarf
The STORM IS COMING IN!
Take my aim and take cover
This tempo is set for
SELF-DESTRUCTION


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Goodnight Moon by Shiveree

 I've told some of you about this  song- it  is fall incarnate, with a hint of danger
check it out, you will wind up seeking the C.D.....It is haunting!  Visually rich, 
musically beautiful...just ast Christy!!


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Let Me Go

You make me feel
So beautiful
When you're mine
You make me feel
So wonderful
When you're not lying
But I cant 
Stand to see your arm around her waist
And I cant
Stand to hear you calling out her name

Im begining to see
That you only want them
When you no longer have to chase me
And you only want me
When I belong to someone else

You tend to call me
When I dont want
Anything to do with you
You tend to call me
Late at night
When Im with someone new
But I cant
Stand the nights when you dont call me at all
And I cant 
Stand to hear that you were at her house all night long

Im begining to see
That you only want them 
When you no longer have to chase me
And you only want me 
When I belong to someone else

Why do you
Do this to me
Why cant you see
What this is doing to me
After I find out your lie
I lie in my bed and cry
And I wake up in the new morning
Only to geel the new break in my heart forming

Im begining to see 
That you only want them
When you no longer have to chase me
And you only want me
When I belong to someone else

Let me go
or hold on to me
Let me go
or just dont leave
Let me go


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Is It Sinister To Be So Seductive

Drink Down The Deepest, Darkest Reasons For Me To Stay...

I sin in shapes while the dozer beats us both down
By one or two, my thumb is fingering my cell phone
After 3 or 4 I've got your voice choking the airwaves

Baby the beat in my heart is much greater than the beating you've given me
So I'll charm on
I'll be the burden to your apple tree
Your appetite is not right
Anymore

The pitchers here are for drowning out equality
The lights are dim so we can all pretend that we are someone else
The songs are loud because the only way to shake you off
Is to beg them for a headache, and I'm...

...waking up (waking up)
With headaches and pieces lost from the night before
BUT WHAT THE HELL ARE FRIENDS FOR!?

Tap me out like a quarter in the slot machines
I've made a mess of your ragged little magazines
Trendy eyes are the spies for the latest scenes
And now my buttons are cut to look like pine trees
(it makes sense to me, it makes cents for me)

So write me off with your shoulder to the jukebox
I've been here once, not twice
And still I've got you figured out
The whore
On the dance floor
Waiting for the biggest score
DARLING!
WE'RE NOT THE IDLE KIND!
WE'RE NOT THE IDLE KIND!
(ANYMORE!!!!!!!!!!!)
DARLING!
WE'RE NOT THE IDLE KIND!
WE'RE NOT THE IDLE KIND!
(ANYMORE!!!!!!!!!!!)
DARLING!
WE'RE NOT THE IDLE KIND!
WE'RE NOT THE IDLE KIND!


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You Broke Me

You broke it
You broke it
You tore it right apart
You made me
Finally believe
That we'd never be apart

I cant stand
How you can just
Look at me th way you do
I cant stand
How you can just
Make me feel the way you do
Then turn away
Let me feel that I am to blame

You broke it
You broke it
You tore it right apart
You made me
Finally believe
That we'd never be apart

I cant stand 
How weak I feel
When you waltz right in
I cant stand 
How weak I feel
When you play me like a field
Then you say "Goodbye"
No matter how many times, I still wonder "Why"

You broke it 
You broke it
You tore it right apart
You made me 
Finally believe
That we'd never be apart

One of these days 
I'll wisen up
I wont forget about you
You wont forget about me
But I'll never forget
The pain that Loving you
Is causing me

You broke me
You broke me
You tore me right apart
You made me 
Finally believe 
That you'd never break my heart


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You Make Me Sick

Your touch kills
Your voice deafens
Your sight blinds
You make me sick!

People like you should be shot
Yeah, I've heard that before
Infact, I've heard it quite a lot
You can't claim me as yours
And after that escapade
Im done with you furthermore
Im not property
Im not a toy
I dont belong to you
Im not here for your "Joy"

So sickeningly sweet
You make me sick
So disgustingly fake
You make me sick
You think its all a game
You make me sick
Will you get bored
When its all played out

Another word, another nail
With all your lies
Your words have gone pale
Seeing through your eyes
I know now, its all a blur
Do you know what you're doing
Or is everything on a spur
Dont pretend to be human
It doesnt suit you
Nor or you beast or alien
You have no kind

So sickeningly sweet
You make me sick
So disgustingly fake
You make me sick
You think its all a game
You make me sick
Will you get bored 
When its all played out


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. and then,

there are times 
when my heart
remains silent
when its pulse is
steady and slow
there are times
when i am
right with the world
fitting in like a piece
to an irregular puzzle
there are times 
when the sounds
of the life that surrounds me
blend in infinite splendor
with the music that plays
within.

and then,

there are times
when my heart explodes
and its rapid beating
becomes too much
for the confines of my chest 
there are times
when i seem to be
a square block 
struggling to escape
this round hole
of an existance
there are times
when the cacophonous symphony
invading my mind
overlaps with what
i hear outside
and the resulting noise
is disarmingly similar
to my inner chaos.

and then,

there are times
when i wonder
when this
nauseating see-saw
will stop its
strange rhythm
when the boundaries
that dictate
the shape of my life
will stop their 
shape-shifting
when i can be left 
in peace.

and then,

each time
this wondering arrives
it is followed by a certainty
that the answer is

never.


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You Don't Notice

You don't notice how I feel
You just think everything is real
But my pain can't heal 
When you are just standing still

I am always hurt but you don't know
It is not like i want to show
If i told you, you will blow
So my emotions, you will never know

You don't notice how I cried
How i am so broken deep inside
You notice how I lied
But you don't notice why

You blamed me for everthing I do
You suffocated me for all I'd done for you
If this is what you are going to put me through
Then, I will just separate from you

There is a reason why I don't talk everyday
You are the one who made me this way
So today, i shall pray
That hoping your love won't be delay

You are not concerned of me
You just think you are always right
But when I know you are wrong
All you did was start a fight

You don't notice how i feel
You don't notice how I cried
You are immatured of what is real
And you just left me broken inside.


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Teach Me How To Love

I was born beautiful
But…deformed by men
Lead me the way… 
To humanity


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105

105
105
I just hit 105
Am I alive?
Am I alive?
Driving in rage at 105
Run away
Run away
Leave behind this day
105
105
I can’t escape going 105
A lonely heart
still falls apart
No matter how fast you go


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Untitled

It’s no gain to waste all this pain.

A disgrace to not always hide this face.

My mind is lame, and it’s a shame,

to feel so numb and not be dumb.

I hate to say life’s not always been this way.

It’s an outrage that I ever lived outside this cage.

Apathy works best for me.

Cold-hearted to myself, the cheaply departed.

Sadness makes me the happiest. 

My loneliness makes me feel so blessed.

This bitter resentment fills me with contentment.

My biggest folly ever was delaying this melancholy.

However this ailment is reaching my fulfillment,

Leaving me empty, sad, happy and whole.

My bitterness is such bliss.

A feeling that I would surely miss.

I often lament evading this torment.

This suffering is the greatest thing ever.

I frequently regret never being upset.

Now I daily look forward to the sorrow that’s promised by tomorrow,

and I pray it comes each and everyday.

Without its displeasure I cannot carry on,

for it is my greatest treasure.


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Afraid to Feel

I feel afraid, afraid to feel, I look in the mirror, I bow my head and then I kneel. 
Hearing the screams burned in my mind, yet afraid to listen, fearing what I will 
find. Upon me lies a cape of darkness and gloom, I wear it like a shroud and 
hide in my room, ! stare at the door hoping yet fearing, that an end to this 
suffering is finally nearing...afraid to feel or feeling afraid, I can no longer tell, I 
find myself wondering if this could be hell....afraid to feel, what can be done, 
when the soul fills with fear and the hearts song goes unsung... 

Tis a tragedy of shattering despair. I cry out,"Someone please tell me when I 
learned not to care!"  I grab my head and pull my own hair, whispering, why me?  
It just isn't fair.  I long for days past, when love was constant and I had faith it 
would last. Now I scream silently, begging for the return, of the emotion that fate 
so carelessly burned....feeling afraid, afraid to feel, why hast thou forsaken me? I 
ask as I kneel. 

! hear the answering sound of madness laughing, as it takes hold of my mind, 
leaving me gasping. Now comes to me my greatest fear, darkness falls upon me 
as I shed a tear, as my sanity begins to unpeel, I suddenly realize.....that I can 
feel....I look toward the mirror, and the glance that assures me I'm real, also 
assures me I'm still afraid.................... afraid to feel.


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Pictures

I burned the pictures
Every one of you and me
The love notes and teddy bears
Yes, I burned everything

I destroyed all the evidence
And all you left behind
But as I sleep, I'm haunted
By the pictures in my mind

Every 'I love you'
Every time we laughed
All the whispered words
It all comes rushing back

Drowning in the memories
Left unhealed by time
And resurrected nightly
By these pictures in my mind

My pillow, the only witness
Of tears that fall like rain
And silent sobs that echo
With guilt, fear and shame

Denial keeps me going
And refuses to see the signs
Believing all is well
With these pictures in my mind

The days pass so quickly
With never a thought of you 
But day slips into dusk
And with the darkness, there is always you

With every day's new dawning
I wake hoping to find
That with the next moon's rising
I'll be rid of these pictures in my mind

I hope, I wish, I pray
Somewhere, someplace, sometime
To finally find the flame
That burns these pictures in my mind


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Waiting To Forgive You

Curves, black, red and pale Every letter written on your school bag All the words go stale. Weren’t those written by our friends on the last day With the colourless markers of age They are all there, stuck in my head Like stunning words from a different language. But the leaves shed off The peaceful blue sky turned grey The even red turned rough Where is the hope, where is the ray? I still have the memories of you and me Our friendship that looked all so true I still have bells in the back of my head Believe it or not, I’m waiting to forgive you. Those classes in which we sat together You taught me hi-fives And raps of Eminem, I gather. Remember the drama with your ex-girlfriend? And the trust that you never had on me? And when she left you for a new boyfriend “Warned you long ago, didn’t I, really? I still have the memories of you and me Endlessly insulting her, until apart, we grew. I still remember the 12th of December, when you said “Who’re you?” But believe it or not, I’m still waiting to forgive you. You trusted me at the last You came to me, only when you needed. So here’s this poem as the blast. Remember how you changed your seats Was I really that awkward, you adamant? You had better friends, I understand, So why did you do the drama of being the best confidant. I still have the memories of you and me And for all we shared as best friends, I just rue. Betrayal and insult, is all I ever got. But still, yes still, I’m waiting to forgive you…
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I Hate You Cancer

Dedicated to my Dad who lost his short battle w/ Colon Cancer on June 18,2013

I hate you Cancer
Your vile evil and cruel
You don't care who you hurt
I'll never forget that day
I'll always hate you for it

Your heartless Cancer
You took someone important from me
Someone important from others too
Took people who didn't belong to you
I hate you for it

You disgust me Cancer
You had no right to take him from me
He mattered more than my very own life
I hate you for taking my Daddy
I hate you for taking others too

I hate you with a passion Cancer
You took part of my heart with him
You took part of my soul that day too
I hate you for it
I hate you I hate you I hate you

I hate you with every fiber of my being 
Go back to Hell where you belong
I hate you, others hate you
Your not welcome or wanted here Cancer

I hate you more than his doctor's
I hate you more than God
I hope I get to witness that day
Witness the day you fall
And you will fall Cancer

You're gonna lose the battle one day Cancer
I'm gonna laugh and dance around your grave
You'll finally get what you deserve 
And you'll never be able to take another soul


Sabrina Niday Hansel


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Don't Cry

Please don't cry over my casket 
For I am not there 
Please don't cry at my grave 
My soul has been set free 
I know it's hard not to cry 
I've been down that road one to many times 

I have no more pain 
I have no more sickness 
And I would not change a thing 
As I walk threw the gates of Heaven 
Mom Dad our brothers and sisters 
Will welcome me with open arms 
Here I am free of that pain 

Don't blame yourself 
It was my time to go home 
This is where I'm supposed to be 
Don't dwell on things which you can not change 
I will always be in your heart 

I will always be watching over you 
When that day comes for you to come home
I will be there to welcome you 
With open arms
And walk you threw the gates of Heaven 
You will be greeted by our family & friends
Who came home before you 
Until that day I will be watching over you


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The Sex Confessions

The Bed
Your Mouth
My Touch
Our Lips

It’s a fever
In the night
Forbidden

Forbidden

Desecrated and damned together
Desecrated and damned forever
One naked flesh, we’ll die together
One naked flesh, making love forever

The Flame
Your Cries
My Salt
Our Wounds

It’s a fever
In the night 
Forbidden

Forbidden

Desecrated and damned together
Desecrated and damned forever
One naked flesh, we’ll die together
One naked flesh, making love forever


The Earth
Your Rain
My Seed
Our Life

It’s a fever
In the night 
Forbidden

Forbidden. 

Desecrated and damned together
Desecrated and damned forever
One naked flesh, we’ll die together
One naked flesh, making love forever

Hell
Regrets
Confessions
Of Love

Your  Love
My Love
Our Love
Love

It’s a fever
In the night 
Forbidden

Forbidden. 

Desecrated and damned together
Desecrated and damned forever
One naked flesh, we’ll die together
One naked flesh, making love forever



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More Than Words...

Once again as my pen fails the page
In a humble but sincere effort
To honor my loving sage

As I ponder and attempt to deduce
In a low, soft chuckle, “more than words”
My rhetorical excuse

By function; words exact, color and define
And with Webster’s sword levied I chase
Definition of you into the sublime

Concept, newly born of insight and ash
Presents no attempt at justice
So its fate is sealed to trash

And alas, as a thousand times tense
I seek to corral feelings
By pen within paper fence

For moment’s sake, suppose these words I cannot cage
I humbly offer in place of love song
The feelings that surround this page


Details | Lyric | |

Overcoming Struggle

Overlook a lifetime past
Remember how it did not last
Life changes quickly before your eyes.
This so called reality surrounded by lies.
A sad thought it may seem
I do not want to open  my eyes to another dream.
Real reality set in.
Lets look forward and begin
I am in this game of life to win.
I will not give up and lose.
I will stand tall
even though I am battered and bruised.


Details | Elegy | |

The Lament For an Angel

All in one faded-black day (but let None forget) In my arms, her body lay (my life was the price to pay) A tragedy, through the lack of humanly shame (do they know pain) My darkly colleen has to suffer no more (Robert nor do you) Let me die (please hear my haunted cries) If I can not see Sophie tonight (live on with my grey) I'm just a mess of despairing words And broken nerves Another mourning, afflicted sight (through decay, love can remain) Solace, sympathy are just more lies She is all I need Until you decide she is just another sadist's toy My Angel, why did you have to fly so far away My Angel, just let one feather stay My Angel has flown away My Angel, why did you have to fly so far away My Angel, just let one feather stay My Angel has flown away (My body is amortal, die I may, Together, our hearts will forever stay)


Details | Lyric | |

Who am I

A tribute to Ramana Maharshi, a man who has inspired me for forty years. a greaty Indian saint he was.....Peter




Who Am I?

Sometimes I ask the question “who Am I?”
Am I just this tiny speck put here by trust?
Just a puppet in the hands of destiny
To be blown within the wind just merely dust.

Then sometimes I’m aware of who I am
As I stand beside a lake or waterfall
As the music of the morning melts into me
And deep within that ancient whisper calls.

Well I ask myself this question
“Will I ever find the way?”
Ramana told me what to do
Said “Do it now, today!”

Oh such a little question one may ask
Does the answer come and blow the mind away?
Will the truth arise to set the bird to freedom?
If one asks this thing each minute of the day.


Details | Lyric | |

I found a job

I found a job at last

Well, I worked hard for twenty year
For a greedy type of bloke
I pushed and pulled until me legs went weak
Then one day I felt this twinge
It ran right down me spine
So I went out, some doctors help to seek

Now I can’t sit, and I can’t walk
Can’t even wash me feet
So off I goes to see this medico
He looked me over knowingly
As if he understood!
Then said “You’re doing fine, now off you go”

So off I goes to get a job
I gave some boss a call
But when he saw the way it was for me
He said “I can’t give you a job!
You’re stuffed my boy, that’s all
Oh, don’t tell me about your misery”.

I tried for an insurance claim
They said “we know you’re kind!!
You say you’re hurt, but is this really true?
To get some money out of us
You’ll have to test our might
We deem you fit to get a job, we do”

Well now I’ve got myself a job
It’s a breeze, I must confess
I lie her licking postage stamps all day
When I said I couldn’t work
I forgot about me tongue
So now I’ve got a job, and it’s okay.


Written in 1990





Details | Ballad | |

London

She called herself London
On that day 
She fell from the sky
Child of apple blossoms
Dancing wildly
Into your mind

The snake that hung from her neck
Bites your hand
Expels you from Eden
Tears into the cool flesh
Of your madness
Posing as reason

London
Kisses you like a sweet lover
As though she really cares
Lets you 
Taste the passionate orchard
In her body’s secret lair

London
Wrestles with all your demons
Nothing quite compares
To the pain 
The indecent pleasure
In the waters that you share

Her name was London
Call her London

She called herself London
On that night
She prayed to the moon
Apollo’s lyre
Played darkly
In a portent 
Of your own doom

The hell she hides 
In her soul
Toxic drug you’ll never escape
You crave the milk of her touch
Her strange and dangerous ways

London
Kisses you like a sweet lover
As though she really cares
Lets you 
Taste the passionate orchard
In her body’s secret lair

London
Wrestles with all your demons
Nothing quite compares
To the pain 
The indecent pleasure
In the waters that you share  

Her name was London
Call her London

My baby, London
Call her London
My moon-girl, London 
Call her London

I love her, London
Call her London
Forever, London 

I call her London……


Details | Lyric | |

Solipsist

Let the Deicide commence.

You're a voyeur at best!
Your vampiric heart is beating out of your chest!
And you have slayed the ones whom would love you for anything less
Ready to consume the final fragments of innocence,
And for you there is no forgiveness,
On your knees pleading, screaming to a tyrant in the skies;
The father of lies.

I will never be enslaved in your superiority
The people agree: jaded of your false dichotomies.
Know: I will be whomever nature intends to be
Apollo and I will share our dreams,
and you will be forced to see
your failure!

I know who you are...
Readily the first to present your scars
Chained by some despot or mental czar
An emotional homunculus in your mind, behind bars
Reluctant to escape - even when proven fake
Your demented mind - depths no one will penetrate!
 
...And you see me suffering
Not caring of any casualties
Just as long you recieve your safeguard of sympathy
So very wary of the masses and their Anarchy; Liberious ways

Solipsist - Is there no one you can see?
Even if she was presented burning?
Solipsist - Is there no one you can believe?
Even if Sophia was screaming?
Solipsist - Know you have killed and abused me
Imprisoned in your own  personal reality 




Details | Lyric | |

It's My Party and I'll Drink if I Want To, Drink if I Want To -

Hello Jose my old friend
I've come to guzzle you again
500 guests before afternoon
I started sipping on you far too soon
My last SENTENCE I fear was slightly slurred
(Vision blurred)
Forgot to EEEET...my breakfast

They look with pity upon me
'Can't hold his liquor', they agree
Now I'm weaving when I try to walk
Senseless babble when I try to talk
Then I feel the NEEEED to flee to an old-oak-tree
(to heave and pee)
but cannot LOOOZE... my breakfast

Did not like his tone at all
Got myself into a brawl
I quickly put him in his rightful place
Broke his knuckles with my pretty face
Shoulda' had my OOOATS, but didn't, so alas!
(I kiss the grass)
and now my ASSSS... is breakfast

In the morning I awake
moaning with a bad headache
Bright-sun glaring through the window pane
I whine and whimper in my wretched pain
In the next room a TV-is-blaring
and screams in my pounding-ear
(No thank you dear)
just coffee PLEEEZE, I think I'll pass----on....BREAKFAST

Plunk-a-plunk-a-plunk-a....PLUNG

Parody of 'The Sounds of Silence' by Simon & Garfunkle
Title from: 'It's My Party' by Leslie Gore


Details | I do not know? | |

I'm Sorry For Being So Cold

My words may feel so cold,
Yet this feeling of falling and 
Then trying to be so loving
Eventually misleads me to 
Feeling like she or myself 
Is gradually shoving my feelings 
Through an invisible door.

It's all so not worth 
Letting this sorrow corner me in,
My mind is wondering if I'm truly fine with
Having no one special in my own current life.

My reasons for trying to 
Move onwards from there
Were nothing but idealized dreams
Turning into unpleasant realities. 

Who knew that a few days 
After those euphoric moments
I would be realizing that 
The strings of my heart were pulled
By desires so unnecessary for healing 
My own inner strife.

My words may have been so cold,
But it's only because this sorrow I go through
Will always continue beyond tomorrow.

You don't deserve being 
My eternal object of depression,
Yet you are also even taking it 
All too simply to be the object
Of my true love and affection.

My feelings from loving you 
Were absolutely true,
But I now see I was so wrong 
In believing in my own naïve thoughts.
So fleeting was the beautiful 
Rendering of my soul,
Except that no one knew then 
That it was only a game of pretend.

Wanting my first kiss returned, 
Yet again I guess first can mean the worst,
So I guess I'll find someone 
Who will become my second best.
After telling you I can't love you anymore, 
I now feel as if I can finally rest.

My words were only so cold,
Because something in the depths of my heart
Was calling out to be heard.

In the end though I have released myself
From the bittersweet feelings I gained from 
My voice and feelings that once were forsaken.
I'm sorry for being so cold.


Details | Free verse | |

Rope of Sand -or- Hsssss


follow /us/
follow /us/ 
lose your mind
leave your head   /behind/
get in line 
grab a hand
we're making it
you're making it   /now/
Rope of the dead 
Rope of sand

swallow  /this/
swallow  /this/
selling you soap
demanding demand
hope no hope
take no stand   
 …>/I said
   crawl instead
    said where you're led/

/now/ we're making it
     you're taking it
Rope of the dead
Rope of sand

 


Details | Lyric | |

The pen is mightier than the sword

The pen is mightier than the sword

What is it about some people?
Have they no minds of all
To me their puppets on a string
As they follow all the rules
Whether they make sense at all
That’s all beside the point
They believe all that their leaders say
When it comes to the simple joint!

Our leaders they have called the shots
On this and all that matters
They come to us on the TV set
And I hear their foolish chatter
Our premier with pigeon mind
Was heard to say one day
That cannabis is a killer drug
Or almost any way.

Now I have smoked for forty years
And not once have I ever
Suffered from this gentle weed
These leaders might be clever
Or think they are, through their position
But to me they’re simply fools
But they give me cause to laugh out loud
They’re so damned comical.

23 July 2013 @ 1133hrs.


Details | Lyric | |

Insomniac

    INSOMNIAC
Some nights 
My lady lies in heat
Sometimes she cries
sometimes she's indescreet.
Some nights
I stay awake all night
sometimes it's wrong
sometimes it's just not right.
Some nights
The dark under the bed
is all too real,
sometimes just in my head.
Some nights
The morning comes too soon
sometimes I sleep til half past ten
sometimes I sleep til noon.
© ron wilson aka vee bdosa the doylestown poet


Details | Ballad | |

When the Lavender Returns

As cold as ice
Wrapped round your brain
And darkness unfolds
You’re breathing in pain

It’s been freezing here   
In this Land of Shattered Dreams 
It’s been freezing here 
This corrupted winter stings 

It’s been freezing here  		
(Où est la Lavande?)
Your body can’t stay warm  	
(Où est la Lavande?)
 It’s been freezing here  		
(Où est la Lavande?)
This cruel and criminal storm  	
(Où est la Lavande?)

But don’t give up
Don’t despair
Taste the hope 
Floating through the air

When the lavender returns
It’ll warm your frozen bones
Vivid violet clothes
In their candy overtones

When the lavender returns
It’ll race across the land
Rebel flower grows
In the palm of your free hand

If you look out your window
The ground’s parched and bare
If you call for your lover
She’s no longer there
If you ponder your life
Well, it feels like a wreck
And your failures are scars
You can never forget

As leaves turn brown
Sky fades to grey
You’re feeling the drought
The end of the day

It’s been lonely here
In this World of Fallen Souls
It’s been lonely here
With nowhere left to go

But don’t give up
Don’t despair
Taste the hope 
Floating through the air 

When the lavender returns
It’ll warm your frozen bones
Vivid violet clothes
In their candy overtones 

When the lavender returns   	
(Où est la Lavande?)
It’ll race across the land 	         
(Où est la Lavande?)
Rebel flower grows  			
(Où est la Lavande?)
In the palm of your free hand   	
(Où est la Lavande?)

When the lavender returns    	
(Où est la Lavande?)
It’ll warm your frozen bones   	
(Où est la Lavande?)
Vivid violet clothes  			 
(Où est la Lavande?)
In their candy overtones  		 
(Où est la Lavande?)


Details | Rhyme | |

Black and White

You’ve maddened me to the core 
You singed me with your ferocious fire
We’re opposites… we’ll never integrate  
We can’t blend with each other…
Your love and I’m hate 
We’re contrary to each other…

So don’t even think about 
Getting us back together 
Because without a doubt, 
We don’t click with each other…

So let us go our own way…

Everything’s black and white
You love to torture me with your deceptive devices 
We’re playing this chess match – let’s fight!
Tonight, you’re going to pay the prices
You’re going to be deleted from my mind…

I’m not the one that should pay the price
You act as if you’re an angel from heaven
But, you’re a fiend…a devil from hell...who needs your advice?
Could someone unchain me from this prison?

So let us prepare for that day…

Fear and bewilderment build inside of our minds
Taking over us…we’re wasting valuable time
Terror and wrath injects into our veins…time starts to unwind 
I’m regaining my glory…this moment feels so sublime  

You think you’re innocent?
I can sense your guilt…bleeding through you
Do you live to feed me anguish? 
Don’t deny it…you crafty demon…no wonder I feel blue

Let’s get ready for battle…
I’ll watch you decay…
IT’S PAY BACK TIME . . .
Taste my fury and my agony 

Everything’s black and white
You love to torture me with your deceptive devices 
We’re playing this chess match – let’s fight!
Tonight, you’re going to pay the prices
You’re going to be defeated…

I scream before nightfall
I close my eyes to kiss my demise
I want to disappear 
Scratch away my desolation
Wipe away my tears…
Spewing out of my eyes…like a waterfall
Tonight, there will be dismay
There will be suffering 
After sundown…
Failure and glory will expose like stars in the midnight sky
Who will earn the crown? 
No one knows in silent wars – who can reveal the light in goodbye
  
Why are we black and white?
Are you too afraid to know the reason why? 

Everything’s black and white
You love to torture me with your deceptive devices 
We’re playing this chess match – let’s fight!
Tonight, you’re going to pay the prices
You’re going to suffer alone…


Details | Narrative | |

The Final Confessions II

These were my confessions
(A message to God)
The light begins to fade
(It’s time to go)
Back into the shadows
(That hard black fog)
Where darkness has its way
(God rest your soul)

Nothing left to tell you
(It’s all been said)
No more songs to write
(This silent Fall)
Nothing left to offer 
(The well’s been bled)
From a shadow’s waning life
(Who lost it all)

Take my words and hold them
(Don’t be afraid)
Place them near your heart
(And heal your pain)
Shadow words will kiss you
(And heal your pain)
When your world turns dark
(Don’t’ be afraid)

And I kiss you
Kiss you
I kiss you in the dark……..


Details | Lyric | |

Lacerated Wings

They are bound to the Earth like trees
Suffocating under the weight of an icy grave 
Reaching to be free, but only their limbs are seen
Hoping that one day someone will see:
They can't escape with lacerated wings

The ocean surrounds me, covering everything
Nothing will be clearly seen; confusion overwhelming
No-one can save you, you're on your own, left to die
Manipulating every bleeding heart you can find
I can't escape with lacerated wings.

Swarms of nets, waves of screams 
Entangle: your captive illusions and dreams
The mask has be seared - The truth now they see
The Liar - Vampiric Fiend; lowly thief
And now they know you can't escape with Lacerated Wings

There's reasons for your rejections:
Your Heavy heart's transferred oppression
The scars are too deep to pass the trials
But you can find peace in your cage of empty spirals
You Cannot Escape With Lacerated Wings


Details | Lyric | |

UNNOTICED, UNSEEN

I woke up one day
Unnoticed, unseen
The sparrows were chirping
Did not mind me between

I poked them gently
The sparrows got scared
Seeing them fly
I went mad

I ran out into the streets
Naked and free
Hurled pebbles on passersby
Watched them flee with glee

I felt like a king
In this blind men’s paradise
Shocking poor fellows at will
Making fun of their cries

I was shaken hard
By someone I could not see
I rubbed my eyes
Could see only darkness around me

It was my mother
She put me on her lap
Tears filled my eyes
As I went into recap

I wished my dreams were true
I could see the world go blind
Why O Lord, 
You robbed away my sight
What was my fault, 
You made me Blind


Details | Lyric | |

Forever Changed

June 18, 2013 our world was Forever Changed
We where over halfway home
When we got the call from our baby sister

Said we need to get back home
We need to come as fast as we can drive
Mom really needs us
Something’s wrong with Daddy
The whole way we drove 80
Hoping & Praying we’d make it in time

Our Family & Friends were weeping 
By the time we got to his side
We knew our Daddy had been taking
And our hearts they were breaking
We never got to say Goodbye
We each softly kissed that man
We four sisters climbed in his bed 
We laid down beside him 
And cried just like babies
For our world was Forever Changed 
 
 


Details | Lyric | |

YOU TOOK MY HOPE AWAY

Wake up every morning, 
knowing it will be the same;
Feel an endless longing, 
that your rage would be tamed.
Emotions in motion, 
but on the surface no one sees;
An ocean of explosion, 
how much I want to scream.

You took my hope away!  
You took my hope away!

Haunted in my thinking, 
that somehow I'm to blame;
I've lost all believing, 
inside I'm stained with shame.
Emotions in motion, 
but on the surface no one sees;
An ocean of explosion, 
how much I want to scream.

You took my hope away!
You took my hope away!

Beaten, bruised, and battered
I know that it's not okay
I'm paralyzed by incredible fear
so I let it go another day
In the morning hell shows it's fury
I'm falling into a bottomless pit
I'm begging God for mercy
For a true friend and advocate

I hope you hear my silent voice
because I'm fading in the a flame;
Powerless to seek out the help
I need a lifeline before I go insane
Emotions in motion, 
but on the surface no one sees;
An ocean of explosion, 
how much I want to scream..

You took my hope away!  
You took my hope away!

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Dirge Poem Of Anguish


Details | Ballad | |

Rose Hips Lady

Rose hips lady
Your field is ripe
Bury my torn body
In that rain-soaked night

Taste those sweet confessions
On your baby breath
Lift this wounded flag
Into your burning nest

Oh, yes, I will
I will

Rose hips lady
Your field is ripe
Bury my torn body
In that rain-soaked night

Tame the roaring tiger
Never lets you rest
Take my last reward 
From your moonlit breasts

Oh, yes, I will
I will

Daddy’s gone hunting 
He’s gone away
Daddy’s gone hunting
Won’t be back for days

Left you with a lover
Makes a shrine 
Of your skin

Left you with a lover
Takes you down
Roads of sin

Left you all alone 
Alone

And the knots cut deep
Through the musk and flesh
Of hot regret
And the love you need
It’s a shadow
Never lets you rest

You release the Beast
From a well that’s wet
You will confess
That the love you need
It’s a shadow
Never lets you rest

Rose hips lady
Aaaaaah......


Details | Ballad | |

The Miracle

Lift the wailing wood
Hammer the tortured nails
Place the ghostly steps
Below the battered rails

Invite those crazy strangers
Dressed in stranger clothes
Join the mighty miracle 
Ready to unfold

Building a stairway 
In the desert
Aimed toward the pure and honest sky
Building a stairway
In the desert
Going to rise for miles
And miles 

Leave this evil town
Where scorpions share your bed
Guilty snakes make a home
Deep inside your head

The bleeding sun
Burns your feet
Hangmen joke
Beggars weep

Buried bodies
Cry for help
Undertakers
Steal your wealth

Building a stairway 
In the desert
Aimed toward the pure and honest sky
Building a stairway
In the desert
Going to rise for miles
And miles 

We’re laughing and      					
We’re dancing				 	
In the desert				
Dancing in the desert			
Of our lives				

Can’t you see?
We’re dancing in the desert
Dancing in the desert 
Of our lives

Feel so free				
Dancing in the desert				
Dancing in the desert 			 		
Of our lives				

Free….so free
In the desert
Dancing in the desert
Of our lives

Lift the wailing wood
Hammer the tortured nails


Details | Ballad | |

Fireworks Hill

Let’s go climb
And move back time
To that mysterious hill
Where a boy first met his girl

Long before 
The cynics arrived
Before the laughter died
And God returned the day to night

Where dazzling fireworks
Rained sparkles
On our lives
Two strange birds
Came together
And opened up their eyes

Let’s go climb 
We’ll move back time

Fireworks Hill, Fireworks Hill
Far from my mind
Never forgotten
Fireworks Hill, Fireworks Hill
We became one there
So very often

And there are vivid colors 
Blasting through the sky
Dancing rainbows 
I really want to taste
There is weeping smoke
Painting all the stars
Burning graveyards 
For the human race

Let’s go climb
And move back time
To that mysterious hill
Where a boy first met his girl

We’ll race to the edge
Fulfill our pledge
It was written in blood
The heat of our love

Oh, jump, baby, jump
We’ll fly away together
Jump, baby, jump
Our bodies joined forever

Let’s go climb
And move back time 
To that mysterious hill
Where a boy first met his girl

Fireworks hill, fireworks hill
I see the sparkles in the air
Fireworks hill, fireworks hill
I smell the dazzle of your hair
Fireworks hill, Fireworks hill
We flew to Heaven over there

Let’s go climb
We’ll move back time
(Forever…with you)


Details | Lyric | |

The War Confessions

There’s a fury on the waves
A madness taking place
Fueled by the blood
Of weary wage slaves

And they taught us how to hate
In a hi tech kind of way 
Made us meat puppets 
For the wars they wage

In a playground, running round
In a playground, being clowns
Weren’t we once kids
Just kicking a ball?
Laughing ‘bout everything
Nothing at all

In a playground, ‘neath the sun
In a playground, having fun
Weren’t we once kids
Thought war is a game?
Fall over dead
And jump up again

(Hey, hey, what do you want to say?}

Don’t want to lose my legs
In defense of larceny
The banksters stealing billions 
From the national Treasury

Don’t want to take a bullet 
Left coughing up blood
For your right to a lap dance
At some faraway club

Don’t want to suck my meals
Through a thin feeding tube
On behalf of profiteers 
Dealing addicts their crude

Don’t want to wheeze harshly
Hooked to a machine
In the service of ingrates 
And all that’s obscene

Don’t want to suffer flashbacks
Those nightmarish screams
While billionaires lullaby 
To private jet dreams

Nobody’s tool, nobody’s fool.
NO!!!!

In a world so long ago
In a world we used to know
Weren’t we once kids?
Who sang funny songs
No thoughts of torture 
Phosphorous bombs

In a world so long ago
In a world we used to know
Weren’t we once kids?
Who rode on our bikes
Vampires scared us
Not nuclear strikes

(Hey, hey, what do you want to say?)

There’s a fury on the waves
A madness taking place
Fueled by the blood
Of weary wage slaves

There’s a world of growing horror
Where a playground stood before
And it ‘s time to stop
This lunatic war

There’s a world of growing horror
Where a playground stood before
And it’s time to stop 
This murderous war

There’s a world of growing horror
Where a playground stood before
And It’s time to  stop
This sickening war

There’s a world of growing horror
Where a playground stood before
And it’s time to stop 
This bloody awful war

Let’s bring back our playground 
Stop this war
Let’s restore our playground 
Stop this war…

Yes, it’s time 
(yes it’s time)

Time to STOP THIS WAR!






Details | Haiku | |

Haikus About God: V

Omniscient guy
Yet he lets bad things happen
How can he exist?


Details | Lyric | |

Lullaby love

All I hear 
All I see
Is not meant for me
All I want
All I know
Is I cannot let you go

Driving forward
Moving back
Only one thing that I lack
Hope is clinging 
Holding tight
I wish you were here tonight
Dry my eyes
Hide the pain
Overwhelming to contain

For all I hear 
All I see
Is not meant for me
All I want
All I know
Is I cannot let you go


Memories set
Heart is bound
Now all must be drowned
Keep your distance
When so near
No emotions can appear
Burning love
Hidden flame
Love is such an evil game

All I hear 
All I see
Is so perfect for me
All I want
All I know
Is how it’s meant to go


Details | Lyric | |

When It Comes to Faith

When it comes to faith, even pain is a pleasure
It is just about right in every one of its measures
Come please. Join me.
Let’s just say it’s some sort of leisure
Forget all that nonsense about it being 
“A Golden Treasure”
Clichéd exactly like the many notions of 
Happiness, peace, love, religion…
Have all our principles been systematically configured?
Come please. Join me.
For I have been alone in this constant endeavor 
Need some fresh air? Come…
 And we shall breathe in this lovely weather
Suffocation. Panorama of turning backs.
It needn’t even the slightest conjecture
Come. I insist though.
For they always say there’s this light somewhere
In between the darkness
I therefore mustn’t censure
Aren’t we after all in this together?

Walk down this path
I can so simply say it’s better
Realm of faith...
Peace forever...
Yeah I can hear you saying “Whatever”
Apathy how dare you sever
These souls from these futile bodies
Forever?
Come though. I still insist despite all that.
For when it comes to faith, even this pain is a pleasure.


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Antigone

I am the face of misery
My life, a dissonance of autumn and spring,
The years are written in the same
Lugubrious, nostalgic grey
How can it be the author to blame?
I cannot scream this all away…
Burn nor Bleed this all away…
To Death I am Ordained

Lacuna ever growing
With Velvet sheets of life flowing
Aeons apart of my "royalty"
Under the mask the cannot see...
Can you dispel this tragedy:
Antigone - Epiphany failing

If it must be…
Then just kill me,
(Antigone) sing me out of reality;
I wear this dissonant crown of shame
(Antigone) Of a kingdom's disdain
I hate to be this way... normalcy's bane
(Antigone) Here comes the edict, to blame
The sordid child of Thebes,
This is me,
Antigone

No words of hope
No words of hate
Do I have Lenore to send to me:
The sordid child of Thebes
Caught In the longest nightmare
life - the slowest way to die

I know this is my life 
But I'm not under control
under the mask the will see
Just Another Human

If it must be…
Then just kill me,
(Antigone) sing me out of reality;
I wear this dissonant crown of shame
(Antigone) Of a kingdom's disdain
I hate to be this way... normalcy's bane
(Antigone) Here comes the edict, to blame
The sordid child of Thebes,
This is me,
Antigone

If it must be…
Then just kill me,
(Antigone) sing me out of reality;
I wear this dissonant crown of shame
(Antigone) Of a kingdom's disdain
I hate to be this way... normalcy's bane
(Antigone) Here comes the edict, to blame
The sordid child of Thebes,
This is me,
Antigone

Can you dispel my life; this tragedy?
Can you control the storm in my mind?
I'm asking you: can you rid me
Of The Curse of Antigone?


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Viagra and Beer

Too much Viagra and beer.
Too much Viagra and beer.
My wife was out of town,
I hit every club around.
Each time I'd hope to find
A horny woman here.

Country Bob's was the last club that was open.
Near blind drunk and horny, but I was still hopin'.
A pretty woman gave me a glance,
Smiled and said, "Nice pants.
Honey, I'm ridin' if you're ropin'."

A few hours later, I was in a Helluva mess
She's still ridin' hard and screamin', "God, this is the best!"
I was dizzy and light-headed. I had pains in my chest,
But she wouldn't stop long enough to call EMS.

When I came to, I was home in my own bed,
Next to my lovely wife; and this is what she said:
"I picked you up at Country Bob's, my dear;
And there's gonna be some changes around here.

You were fantastic last night;
So, I only think its right
If I supplement your diet 
With Viagra and beer."

Viagra and beer. Viagra and beer.
She treats me like a king,
Says I make her body sing;
So, I'm happy on my diet of Viagra and beer.

Yes, I'm happy on my diet of Viagra and beer.


Submitted by: Buzz O'Words
Written: 3/3/14


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As the river flows

As the river flows

As the river flows
So surely to the sea
It’s power be a wondrous sight
As it roams the land so free
The path of no resistance
Is how she lives each day
I will learn from this old river
I need to live this way.

As the river flows
She takes all in her stride
Not dogged by expectations
Not held back by her pride
She flows into the ocean
She knows this be her home
She has no need to hurry
She’s just content to roam.

Oh, I’ll be like that river
That’s how I’ll live my life
All free from fear and worry
Until my time is rife
To join that mighty ocean
All filled with sweet devotion.

As the river flows
And things get in her way
She knows to never struggle
Just flows from day to day
And lets the power take her
To where she needs to go
Her softness melts all obstacles
Albeit, oh so slow.


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Pan and Satan

Pan and Satan.

One morning I was walking in my garden
When old Jupiter came up close to me.
And standing by his side stood fair Demeter
Who smiled at me so warm and tenderly.
She said “my son we’ve come to give our blessings
And we’ve a story we would like to tell.
Of how the great God Pan turned into Satan
And child I hope that you will listen well.

For Pan he was the god of natures beauty
And he wore no taint till Satan came along.
He’d play his pipes so gaily in the meadows
Though sometimes there was mischief in his song.

Then Satan said to pan “well I don’t give a damn
I’m going to steal your horns and make you me.
Then I’ll build a master plan and strike some fear in man
So always he will live in misery.
And that’s the way old Pan became young Satan
Yet still the old one dances deep within.
But if the two had never joined together
Then where would dwell the ugliness of sin.

1990


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Thank God I'm lazy

Thank God I’m lazy.

People playing worldly parts
Strong in mind but, weak in heart
Trapped yet told that they be free
Creating so much misery
It’s all so hazy.

Politicians playing games
Trying to make us all the same
Feeding us with empty dreams
Such nonsense well to me it seems
It’s all so crazy.

I want this and I want that
This it seems is where it’s at.
It’s gimme, gimme, gimme all the time.
Ambition seems to be the goal
And brainwashed folk don’t seem to know
That being nothing is not a crime.

To gain prestige big plans are made
Yet such a price it must be paid
To gain the earth yet lose ones soul
Could make one rich but never whole
Thank God I’m lazy.



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Tropical Getaway

Carpooling in the Monday traffic jam,             
Wondering what we are and who I am.
Since we’ve already raised a family,              
Is there anything left just for you and me?
Seems each day is just like the one before.           
Exactly what have we both been working for?
So many years lost from nine to five...              
Making ends meet, but barely feeling alive.

I wanna find us some tropical getaway--        
Somewhere lost where the locals play;
With fishing boats and mango trees,                 
And spicy scents carried on the breeze.
I wanna find us some island Shangri-La—      
A quiet spot with no hoopla...
Some place where it’s easy to hide,                   
That can’t be found in a tourist guide. 

I wanna find us some tropical paradise             
Where nights are warm and folks are nice,
And green birds sing exotic melodies                
While monkeys play high in coconut trees 
We could lounge in that tropical paradise,         
As bonfires spark like fireflies;
Watch lovers dance while steel drums play        
Calypso tunes from dusk till day. 

I wanna hold you close on an empty beach,
With a full moon just out of reach.
We could sneak behind a big sand dune
And celebrate another honeymoon.
Let’s forget about all the noisy mobs,               
Grown-up kids, and annoying jobs,
And swing in a hammock made for two—         
And snuggle close,  just me and you. 

(Chorus) 
Bamboo torches and starry skies       
Will be mirrored in your big brown eyes.
We’ll dance away each endless night,              
Lost in love, with no dawn in sight. 


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Ride the magic rainbow

Ride The Magic Rainbow

Let us ride a magic rainbow in our minds
And glimpse the God of light in starry dreams.
Let us leave our petty worries far behind
And go where nothing’s even like it seems.

Let us bath our frightened minds in cozy calm
And visit all the visions of our youth.
When we so snug were sheltered from all harm
For we have wandered far from realms of truth.

So take my hand let’s walk that mystic path
And through those golden gates we two will go.
Where ecstasy will cause our souls to laugh
As deep within our star of beauty glows.

Then freed at last our joy will shine so bright
Sweet mystery will gently take our hands.
And everything will seem so very right
And we’ll hear the whisper saying “understand”


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The Final Confessions I

These are my confessions
Secrets of my mind
Everything that mattered
Truth I can not hide

Nothing but a shadow
Distant memory
What I was, What I am
What I’m supposed to be

Forgive me, God, forgive me
For being so unkind
Impatient…ungrateful
Cynical and blind

To those who thought they knew me
And those who never did
To those who hear my songs 
In the places where they live

I offer my confessions
Honest to the core
Offer my confessions
There won’t be anymore

No more…


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Voice in the Night

How do I thank
The voice in the night?
Call of hope
After the world turned dark

How do I thank
The voice in the night?
Healing words
Made from
Angel heart

Oh, her chocolate whisper
Warm convincing breeze
Oh, her breathy laughter
In the shadow of my need 

Don’t you hear the voice?
Save  you from despair
Don’t you hear the voice?
Sent by ghosts who care

Don’t you hear the voice?
Rises like a prayer
Come to rescue you
From your earthly snare

How do I thank
The voice in the night?
Call of hope 
Kissed my tears away

How do I thank
The voice in the night?
Now I dance
To a magic serenade

Don’t you hear the voice?
Memories of home
Don’t you hear the voice?
Pretty as a poem

Don’t you hear the voice?
Vivifies your soul
Bathes you in a pool 
Love you’ve never known

How do I thank
The voice in the night?
Call of hope
After the world turned dark

Voice inside the darkness
Gets into my head
Lady caller,
Take me, take me
To your bed

Voice inside the darkness
Gets into my head
Lady caller
Raise me, raise me
From the dead

Voice inside the darkness
Gets into my head


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PAIN HAS NO CURE

So emotional
So passionate 
So eager
So willing  
Yet, that much more
So insecure
So fragile
So easily offended
So afflicted 
Henceforth, Eternally intolerable. 
So, I refuse.  NO MORE 2 endure...


All ye carnal minded.  Pain has no cure.


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Miles

I write
my late night revelations
paint an image so clear-
so precise-
as if fine-tuned with a microscope.
I see the truth.
I now realize that what I need-
I want-
is YOU.
I don't know how I am going to make you see,
make you feel...
I need to make you know.
A simple touch is all I need
to delve into your mind and infect you.
But how to reach you?
You are hidden far away
within your own mind,
in maze of your own design.
Between us locked doors and endless traps,
mountains,
valleys,
rivers, lakes, oceans,
miles and miles of 
impassible terrain that keeps me apart,
keeps me from you!
We are two universes set to collide-
not to be destroyed,
but merge into one.
Set to collide, but keep missing our mark.
This is unbeknownst to you.
I keep the secrets within me.
How much longer can I wait-
how much longer until my silence
consumes me?
Until you break me?
I am deserted, alone,
left in desolation.
You are the answer to the questions,
the key to my freedom.
But you cannot reach me.
And you do not know what you are.
How much longer til my time runs out?


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Haikus About God: III

Beauty of nature
Why condense it down to God?
Isn’t life enough?


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Draconian II

[The Puppeteer]
The storm I see you in
Caught in the race of Caïn
Held by the arms you cannot see--the conducter of Ennui 
-No stronger than the void you hold within-
It began with a hope, an obsession
Casted into, slavery of repugnant possessions 
Granted by, the Avaricious Lords, the ones we serve for
-They Told Us to pray, hope, away from despair, the despair caused by their immaculate Hands
Malice, envy, greed, was granted to me, The Feudal Dream, we want to be Them, just like him
-just how he solaces us, ambivalent hope, engendering knives to my throat 

[The Fall]
In this Valley of morning and weeping
Love lies bleeding, in desperate fear
With their talons, the hunt to rip out thy heart 
As each velvet petal falls apart
Her body chained in their bile and lies, covered with their red-spy
-sent just to check if our souls are in line, do not defy 
Her blood velvet and pure, drips away with innocence of the amber guardian 
The soil of plagues, beggars, and graves
Is know her home, the coven of solace
Though the seed has died--resurrection Is near passing through death's fear
One stronger than you--and thy funeral skies
She is alive--anew
But the vapors still remain
The Apocalypse is here, do we fear?
Just for the death of our sins
Elysia never Seemed so far away

[Our Damnation]
Solitary ruins, Fulfill their visions
We strayed far from the depths within 
We all lingered to his solace--lies
-you make the sign everyday, but lack toknow the name
We are just the toys, he pulls all of the strings
We are nothing in this burning world
of Decadence, and Failed Semblance

[Draconian] 
Draconian--Reach for the shadows within
Draconian--Break from the Fallen's son
Draconian--Their empirical lies, only die
Draconian--Reach the shadows within


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Envy

A day in the country

I went to the country
To see my Bro's Land
I saw he had worked hard
His land looked so grand
For a second this envy
It tapped on my soul
But then I looked deeper
Saw things as a whole!

I looked at his features
All the lines on his face
Not character lines
Those lines that add grace
Just sad saggy lines
From worry and stress
There was naught in his manner
That read happiness.

I’m a loser to his type
I have no ambition
I live for today
He lives for his mission
But I have a smile
And a generous heart
While he, how I see him
Is a grumpy old fart.

10 August 2013 @ 1700hrs


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Elysium Dream of Love

I close my weary eyes
Holding onto the hope
Of not having to cope
Not a mintue longer
Without you by my side
Not expierencing
The warm look in your eyes
The tingling rush of your finger tips
That would grip my hair tight
To stop you from slipping into the night
Biting  your bottom lip
As a pinch to yourself
To see if it was real
The dream of love we felt
And now that you are gone
I only wish to die
Your image fades from my mind
Sometimes I see it clear,
The sun is skillfully stroking it set in the sky
As my feet float down the road across the tuscan country side
I ever so gently sense the wildy grown wheat
Tickling these troubled lines engraved in the palm of my hand
I playfully pick one out of the land and pluck the grains
I look up and in the distance is where she waits
But there she remains peacefully strolling through the calming field
In a white cotton dress that tails off in the wind and
wearing a small confident smile that makes my yearning heart yield
Whispering in my ear that soon I will make it home
But my Life's journey must continue down this God paved road
I awake with the longing of her, But with so much to do
I need God's strength for one more day to get through


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In my corrupt stead

Draped from her body, they sparkle like gold. Tear soaked and smothered, in lies that she's told. She wears them ashamed, but she wears them with grace. To cover the pain, that is etched in her face. 
  It's her mark, it's her passion, her reason to breathe. As shallow and weak, as pathetic can be. 
  For the last time I saw her, was the last place she laid. Where I held her so close, deep down in her grave. No more to be seen, no more to betray. Damned and unheard, while she cried out in vain. 

Don't pity the evil, corrupt and forsaken. Who've strayed from the path, that they should have taken. It's all self inflicted, they live unrestricted. But on this their last day, they'll all be convicted. 

Etched in his body, the scars will remain. Blood soaked in madness, he's nearly insane. He wears them in anger, but he wears them with pride. To expose to the world, all his hate that's inside. 
  It's his mark, it's his passion, his reason to breathe. As shallow and weak, as cruel as can be. 
  But the last place I saw him, was the last time he raged. Where I beat him and broke him, deep down in his grave. No more to be seen, no more to be heard. Damned and destroyed, underneath all his dirt. 

Don't pity the evil, corrupt and forsaken. Who've strayed from the path, that they should have taken. It's all self inflicted, they live unrestricted. But on this their last day, they'll all be convicted.

Now sift through my ashes, gather up all my bones. Let him without sin, cast the first stone. Pile me up in a bucket, and leave me to stay. So I can face my creator, on my judgement day. 
 It's my life, it's my passion, it's what I believe. As misunderstood, as reckless can be. 
  For the last time you saw me, was the last time I prayed. Where I dug my own hole, and laid down in my grave. No more to be hated, no more to be feared. For in my corrupt stead, an angel appeared. 


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Haikus About God: IV

God made all people
But some better than others?
Stop being silly.


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It's Not Over

Don’t say it’s all over (cause it’s not)
“Sorry” won’t cover it…so don’t go on your knees and pray for my forgiveness 
Oh baby…don’t listen to the commotion…I’m done taking cover (it’s all for naught)
I’m plummeting in slow motion…into the remorseful pit…I’m plummeting in my nightmare’s abyss

I want to carry you through the night… 
I’m swimming in the ocean of my tears… 
My sodden wings lost its ability of flight…
You've been swimming in your distress for years… 

Shut up! Don’t say it...
Don’t even think of it (don’t even ponder it)
Hey! Don’t say it’s all over…though we’re breaking bit by bit 
‘Cause there’s more treasure to discover 

I want to remind you to fight the good fight…
My misery pools are brewing inside of my head…
I’m backing away from the light & exploring the night… 
You’re giving in to sleep and I’m wide awake on my bed 

Shut up! Don’t say it...
Don’t even think of it (don’t even ponder it)
Hey! Don’t say it’s all over…though we’re breaking bit by bit 
‘Cause there’s more treasure to discover 

Please don’t tell me…oh, don’t tell me…darling!
You’re giving up today… (I beg you to stay, despite your inner pain) 
I’m scared I might erupt – it could be quite startling!
Someday, things will change for the better… (Don’t turn the wrong lane)
I’m waiting for that day to arrive – perhaps it will wash away our dismay…

I promise you a tranquil reality 
I want to stray with you tonight 
I still have hope that He’ll set us free
I was wondering if you could stay the night
Maybe the Lord could grant us 
Pure, incredible delight 

Shut up! Don’t say it...
Don’t even think of it (don’t even ponder it)
Hey! Don’t say it’s all over…though we've plunged into our own pit 
‘Cause there’s more treasure to gather…


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Haikus About God: VI

The body: sacred
We’re all made in God’s image
Hence... circumcision?


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Zero

I was born pale and invisible
In a world
Sees everything 
Everything, everything….but me

Invisible to your touch
And doubt you’ll like me very much
Am I alive?
Was I ever me?

I’m a non-existent cipher
A pointless empty zero
Never added up to anything
A non-existent cipher
Pointless empty zero
Tell me….what does it all mean?

And now I think I want you
Ethereal body
Oblivious mask
And now I think I love you
Intelligent lips
Painted in black

But no need to look my way
Or give me the time of day

Can’t be with you 
In this world
Invisible man 
Never gets the girl

Oh, no...

I’ll find where you are
And watch from afar
You will be felt by me

I’ll find where you are
And watch from afar
You will be loved by me

Your 
Zero 
Tonight
Your 
Zero 
For life
Your zero
The day I die

Your zero….your zero

Zero


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Mushroom Hunting With Dad

When springtime comes, I'm always glad
To go mushroom hunting with my dad
Walking in the woods on a cool, spring day
Taking in the beauty of God's display

It's just like a treasure hunt to me
Searching for those gems amongst the leaves
What a thrill, when one I think I spy
But it's just a leaf, so I pass on by

Then at last, I spot a beauty
And by it's side, three little cuties
A pinch to the stems, then placed in my sack
I hope to fill it till there's no more slack

On through the woods we trek, Dad and me
Then stop in our tracks in disbelief
Under an apple tree stands a whole bunch
Enough for more than one supper and lunch

On some such hunts, we may find a lot
Other times, not one mushroom we'll spot 
No matter, we still enjoy the hike
Doing something together we like

These times with my Dad I'll always treasure
Nice memories I'll always remember
Just thinking of it makes me glad
Going mushroom hunting with my dad.


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SCARY MOMENTS

Pretty girl, a perfect home
I will never be alone 
but life's a bore

The American dream
it's not all it seems
not chasing anymore

I'm so restless inside
afraid I can't hide
a wondering heart

You touched my hand
and feelings began
love's spark

I can't be taken when I'm taken 
so I must say no
Upon further contemplation what if I'm really mistaken 
oh I need to know
I'm shaken and awakened, my defenses overtaken
I can't say no

You are a summer tease
know just how to please
dancing slow

Here in my embrace
inhibition erased
emotions grow

I can't be taken when I'm taken 
so I must say no
Upon further contemplation what if I'm really mistaken 
oh I need to know
I'm shaken and awakened, my defenses overtaken
I can't say no!

Oh, whoa..
like a baby in the water, like a lamb to the slaughter 
know it's death but here I go...

I can't be taken when I'm taken 
so I must say no
Upon further contemplation what if I'm really mistaken 
oh I need to know
I'm shaken and awakened, my defenses overtaken
I can't say no..
I can't say no..
oh, baby, I need you to say no..
Say No!

20 May 2014
For Shadow's Scary Moments Contest


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Unfinished

It's all the seasons,
All the seasons in my world;
Storming all around.

All these thoughts may fill my mind,
But my time is memories.

It might drive me crazy,
Fulfilling all those needs.
And all the seeds of "maybe"
Won't be planted with my greed. 

And you'll thank me one day.
Three birds, they told me so:
"Learn from the thorns in your side,
Roses always bloom too slow". 

And the room yells "Maybe"!
Surely I'd love to go.
But riding on the winds of maybe,
Surely I'll never know....


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Turn on your light

Turn On Your Light.

Turn on your light

Turn on your light
Light the velvet softness of your night
You might have felt that breath of sweetest power
In that silver moon
That paints the twilight hours
Have you ever felt that mystic pull
That takes you from the smallest flower 
To melt into the all.

I sometimes stand there staring at the sea
As each wave reaches out to destiny
To fade and then to come back
So another wave might form
To be destroyed
Then to be reborn….

Turn on your light
Pass no judgment, who’s to say what’s right?
 No need for this when light is shining bright
Have you felt such magic
Have you felt that pull
It’s something that must happen to each fool
He must learn how to melt into
The silence of the all.

The secrets they be wrote within your soul
Seek them out and let them make you whole
Each flower it must bloom then die
So know your precious I
Must be destroyed
To be reborn… 


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Living Without

I tried to write about love but I haven’t felt it. 
I tried to write about the sea but I’ve never seen it. 
Then I tried to write about the air, but I have never breathed it. 
I tried to write about magic but I never believed it.
I couldn’t write about god, all I have ever done is sinned.
And when I tried to write about life I found, 
I have never really lived.


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Fake Friend

I'm feeling sick from your two faced hypocrisy
When you say one thing and then you're doing another
Cold whispers behind my back you talk about me
Then you act like my best friend with no apology

Why do you beak these friendship rules
And why am I left a suffering fool
I'm left with thoughts of violence and then I'm feeling weak and passive
I'm now a massive walking talking contradiction
And I'm left believing the facts and fiction

It's all because of your backstabbing dealings 
I want to know your game and why I'm the victim of your play
I will not be left the loser of this game
I intend to stay strong and take my prize
As I will face you full on and cut you down to size

This may be hit and miss
But I will expose your cowardice
As you look into my eyes and see that I'm miffed 
And so sick of your ficticious recitals
Now you will realise for you to have kept two facing me was fatal

So answer to me fake friend your front is now broken
And you feel you're struggling to breathe
But now I've lost my use for sensitivity
Remember who crossed the line
I have one fast thought of does it matter at all
Then it all comes back that it's you who broke the rules

Now you've been confronted and your colour fades to grey
You feel your time ticking by as tomorrow turns into today
This was my revenge on you fake friend
My fake friend revenge!


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Ancient History

I went to the VA Hospital and was surprised to see
that most of the patients were old gray haired fools like me.
I asked: “Where are all of the wild young boys who went to the ‘Nam?”
I was told that they were now a small footnote in the annals of ancient history.
I asked: “How can that possibly be?”
I was told that history books are written by stern professors in college backrooms
and not by the wild young boys who actually survived the events of ancient history.


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Pricked

Your  love pricks me like a rose each thorn grows but no one knows Your so full of 
it as it shows so carry on now go on, go. I'm fed up with the phony and  i'm 
through with the tears, you couldn't pay me all your money to make up for those 
years. Someone help me I feel faint how could I think he was such a saint and 
worst of all I let me fall into a spiral down below. A magic called love carried 
by the dove of someone I use to know.


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Death by Beauty

A smile moves across her lips
She gazes at her crime
A scar across her flesh and soul
To haunt her for all time
She’ll waste away for all she cares
Never stops to use her brain
Doesn’t care about the ones who are close
All she cares about is pain

She wants to be what the others expect of her
Doesn’t care about the self-respect for her
A rose can’t be a forget-me-not
Can’t she see what all she has got
Already?

Never to go back again
She feels the world is at an end
She will never show her grief
Although she’ll cry in empty streetS

She’d sooner live like a desolate mole
Living in fear in an empty hole
Screaming silent wails alone
Content to live in her mental home

A final tear falls from her eye
It hits the ground, it’s followed by
A beautiful body, mutated by hate
A kind word could have stopped it, but it is too late
One two many bricks in the wall in her mind
Molding her demise because her heart was blind
This self conscious being could never have won
For she was destroyed by the beautiful ones

She wouldn’t fight back, wouldn’t respect herself
In the end, she managed only to wreck herself
A rose can’t be a forget-me-not
Little did she know, she had all she had sought
Already


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Nature's Sigh

The Black butterfly waves away her adorations
All she seeks is seclusion, subsuming slave to mortification
The Dear Air is all she can breath, captive of imaginary dreams
The Beacon resonates, but the hope isolates
The Wasteland's silky fingers caressing the virgin's face

So she is now, the covet of the damned
Programmed to every victim's pain
Carrying the weight of every sorrow
Drowning in wrongs she does not know
But paradise is at loss; she must go

Nature sighs after the bite
All my hopes fading
Don't look at me with those sorrowful eyes
How do you know exactly what I'm feeling?
I'm just the ghost flower passing by
And you can hear nature's sigh


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Save Me

Save Me
By: IzaDonna

Look in the mirror
Do you recognize her
Do you see the coldness in her eyes
Do you see where the darkness lies
Hidden secrets of the past
To late, the spells been cast
And as the stars arise
My own self will be my demise

Chorus:
So you think you can save me
Finally set my retched soul free
Be my ultimate savior
You thinking ur doing me a favor
But just let me alone
My fate is only my own

I get u try and u care
But thru it all u weren't there
I cant move on from my past
The agony I feel will always last
The knife is in way to deep
So let me shut my eyes and sleep
Cause u can't fix whats already broken
The pain I feel is better left unspoken

Chorus

So as the darkness creeps in
I feel I'm paying for my sins
No way to escape
My soul is yours to take
Just let me bleed these tears
Just let me lay here
Looking up at the sky
I ask God why

Chorus

Cause you can't fix what isn't broken
The pain is better left unspoken


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GAME OF BULL AND MAN


……….... On act two, my handkerchief dropped down on my weakening feet, escaping the wipe of tears from my sullen lids: by this time children too young to make their own milk burst into deafening cheers shouting for more blood… the matador in graceful sways of his cape derailed his prey again---a wounded bull pierced by stabs on the neck and shoulders: but this was not enough. Wincing in pain, the sword dug into its lungs as the shock in my throat creaked like dried sandpaper raking with the quivering thud of an exhausted animal roused into a public arena for a play, disturbed, confused… and the fiesta music played with such passion of slaughter until the stag rolled on the floor, crowned with spears on the head, and finally unto its heart. I could not breathe in the sound of victory swaggering women’s ruffled skirts and male hats flipping off on an aching sky. Before the dying beast was dragged back into its den and the bullfighter bowed to the echoing adulation of the crowd smelling of death and glory, I run out, dazed---finding solace from shelling some pesetas for a laced fan so delicate in the elegance of its design--- my cheeks wanting to catch a wisp of fresh air. The game of bull and man tasted sour on my pagan tongue. ……….. * my first bullfight experience in Madrid, Spain For Joe Flach’s Contest Contest by nette onclaud


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ETERNAL SUMMER

Eyes so dark
I feel your pain
Nightmares unending
Driving you insane
Feeling so blue
You think you could die
But now in my arms
Look in my eyes
The flowers and streams
That's me and you
Feel eternal summer
Forever love is true
The peace you see
Now you will feel
These are your times
This happiness is real

Date: 11-8-14


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Have I told you lately that I love you

Have I told you

Have I told you lately that I love you?
Have I told you just how much I care?
Have I ever told you?
when I am with you darling
The power of bliss and joy is everywhere

Have I told you how my heart is yearning?
To feel you here within my sweet embrace
Have I ever told you?
That whenever I am with you
I melt within your beauty and your grace

I look at you and feel such joy within me
You smile at me and everything feels grand
Have ever I told you 
When you are with me Darling
A feeling comes that I don’t understand

I know that there will never be another
Could fill my heart with love the way you do
My darling let me tell you
You’re all I ever live for
I love you with a love so pure and true.

Have I told you that each night when I am sleeping?
Your image haunts my dreams and gives me bliss
You make me feel so happy
Every moment I am with you
You mesmerize me, dear, I tell you this


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Deadman Wonderland

Now that you're becoming Undone It's time to have some fun In Deadman Wonderland Khoon Tu Kao Khoon Tu Kao Khoon Tu Kao The setting Red Sun of Kali Shows it's time for your life to Pay We are the Kind to be feared -your friends We look like anyone you see Thuggee--Death's Devotees Face our treachery Bhowanee we must please She needs more--we have found our mark, our mark Won't you be the one to save humanity? Can't you see this is Deadman Wonderland Khoon Tu Kao Khoon Tu Kao Khoon Tu Kao Sacrifice! For The Black-Skinned Queen Sacrifice! For Our Mother Kali Sacrifice! It's Not Enough Sacrifice! No Mercy! This is Deadman Wonderland Deadman Wonderland This is Deadman Wonderland Deadman Wonderland


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Leave me with my dreams

Leave me with my dreams.

Leave me with my dreams
Cause I’m a dreaming fellow
Leave me here a pondering
With mind all calm and mellow
Picturing a better world
Where evil is no more
Let me dream of the harmony
Of a world all free of war.

It might never happen
Sometimes it seems to me
That a tadpole has more chance
Of swimming in the deep blue sea
But let me dream about it
It makes my heart feel warm
Let me dream of a world at peace
And this it be the norm.

Leave me with my dreaming
Of peace and harmony
Where God will rest within each heart
And a perfect world will be
Where everywhere becomes a space
Of sweetest liberty.

Leave me with my dreams
Maybe they’ll seep into you
Then peace and harmony might reign
In everything you do
I guess that someone has to dream
For something to be born
So if more folk did get to dreaming
There might be a brand new dawn.


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I CAN'T BREATHE

Grandma's stealing bread
Just another day on the street
Children need to be fed
Obey the law and they won't eat
In the 'burbs it's just a show
Or something on late night news
For me it's life or death
And the odds are I'm gonna lose

Oh, I've been crying I can't breathe
Daily sirens drown out my shouts
This crisis didn't happen in a day
I'm in a hole with no way out

Do you sense that I'm not alone
There are millions just like me
Poverty's reach is still unknown 
A rising storm out on the sea
Prevention too long ignored
Expect the police to be a cure
Knock that sinner to the floor
Yeah he died but he was impure

Oh, I died crying I can't breathe
Daily sirens drowned out my shouts
This crisis didn't happen in a day
I was in a hole with no way out

12-11-14


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Summertime Re-Lyric

Summertime…and the livin’ is easy,                                                
Flowers growin’ and the sun’s sittin’ high.                                    
Your Daddy’s rich and your Momma’s so good lookin’;               
So hush, pretty baby…you got no reason to cry. 

One of these days, you’re gonna rise up smilin’.
Take a look around and think you’ve got it all.
You’ve got your Momma’s looks, all your Daddy’s money,
And all the boys in town are at your beck and call.

Summertime…and the livin’ is so easy,
Laughin’, singin’, havin’ so much fun.
No time to stop and think about your future
And what life will bring when your Summer’s  done.

‘Cause Summertime, it don’t last forever.
Breezes cool and the leaves begin to fall;
And in your quiet moments, you sit and wonder
How you've come so far, but have no love at all.

Yes, Summertime…and the livin’ was so easy; 
Ain’t it sad how fast the good times fly; 
And now your Momma’s looks and all your Daddy’s money
Another sweet, warm Summer’s day they cannot buy. 


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Roses

The Roses are dripping red
The violets are fading to gray
Tell me something to make me stay
Or just forget about me and walk away


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Reality Of Mind

The mind of the lost, is nowhere  inside.
Dreams of this twisted third eye.
Torturing images, no martyr could bear.
It's the craziness that evokes this primal fear.
Crazy in madness, a house of black cards.
A sand storm of terror, that pump the blood hard.
Fooled in this game, there is no win.
Welcome those feelings and let it all in.
 
How are you feeling? It's only inside.
How are you feeling? Is it burning your eyes?
How are you feeling? Lost and so blind.
How does it feel? In Reality of mind.
 
Chaotic is breathing, you feel yourself fall.
Slip from the grip of your reality's wall.
Awake in a nightmare, shedding red tears
Praying for sanity that no one will hear
Flesh is cold and dampened with sweat
your eyes in the demon are all that you fret.
Grasping at strings you pray that you'll live
The pay for you penance, one soul to give.
 
How are you feeling? It's only inside.
How are you feeling? Is it burning your eyes?
How are you feeling? Lost and so blind.
How does it feel? In Reality of mind.


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The loss of innocense

The loss of innocence.

Little folk come out to play
Alive and filled with joy.
Whilst evil folk with ugly minds
They seek out to destroy
Sweet innocence, with poison acts
To gratify their lust
They create from children’s innocence
An outcast without trust.

A happy world, all filled with joy
That’s how it’s meant to be
These kids should be like rivers
Alive and running free
Yet evil men destroy their souls
And teach them, life is bad
And as they reach maturity
Their live are so, so sad.

Butterflies don’t come no more
And birds no longer sing
There’s only fear within their souls
What joy then can life bring?
Sweet young children made to love
How can they suffer so?
I just don’t know!!!!

How can the world not care enough
To put a stop to this
I guess that some would shrug it off
And say ‘that’s how it is’
But in the end lord Karma comes
And the future looks real grim
Those children well may rule someday
With minds made cruel and dim.




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While You Are Still Mine

I’m living in a world of dreams
A world of fantasy
For all the love you gave
I know, was never meant for me

We lived such different lives
We live a thousand miles apart
But I can’t stop the love I feel
For you…deep in my heart

Everyday I wake and wish
I didn’t feel like this
Everyday I wake and wish
It wasn’t you I miss

Every night I go to sleep
And dream of you and I 
But when I face reality
I know I live a lie

I know I can’t hold onto you
I have to let you go
And knowing this, is hurting 
More than you will ever know

But while you are still mine
I will try to smile, not cry
And treasure every moment
Till it’s time to say goodbye..


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To See Her Smile Again

It tears my heart to see my child
So lost, alone and sad
Shattered by her loss
And all the hopes and dreams they had
Knowing she pretends she’s strong
But deep inside she fears
Knowing when she’s all alone
She cries her silent tears
When I hear her laugh
I know it just a fake disguise
When I see her smile
I still see sadness in her eyes
She has no arms to hold her now 
No words of love to hear
No comfort from the love she lost
The man she held so dear
He made her life worth living
Two halves that made a whole
The only man she’ll ever love  
With all her heart and soul
There’s nothing that I wouldn't do  
To take away her pain
To see the girl she used to be
To see her smile again
If I could give him back to her
I’d take his place tomorrow
To see the light shine in her eyes
Instead of pain and sorrow
I know he watches over her
In hope one day he’ll see
The hurt, the pain, the tears she cries
Are just a memory...

For Bree 
xxxx


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Mustang man

Don't know where this one came from. or how it came about. but I love singing it with guitar and Harp. Must have came from the craziness, that was me a few years back....Peter.


Mustang Man.

He's standing in the moonlight
That crazy Mustang man.
'Ain't never seen no sunshine
Since the day it all began.
His eyes are as black as ebony 
They gleam like the fires of Hell
As they pierce into the depths of me
They can see my fears so well
That Mustang man.
That mustang man.

He was born one night on the bayou
And that night was liquid black.
As a long black snake enshrouded him
And old Satan stroked his back.. 
And the Ghouls from Hell all welcomed him
Those fiends from Hades side..
And the stench of evil ruled the land 
And virtue groaned and died
That Mustang man
 That Mustang man.

Mustang man don't mess with me
Go take your loathsome ways
Remove thy taint of misery
Vacate this space today.
Don't hide within my shadow self
As you shake me with despair.
As you dance within my nightmare dreams
It seems you're every where
You Mustang man 
You Mustang man.


Socrares 1990.


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Christmas Blues

Christmas was never about God for me,
it was memories of warm laughter, rosy cheeked joys   	
for if God was the point, whose God would it be?

Xmas was about giving to your protégées.	
Long, long, lost wishes of long broken boy toys,
Christmas was never about God for me.

Winter’s height held the beauty of childhood set free
of hunting and wrapping and folks overjoyed	
for if it was God, we had three, whose God would it be?

This December wonder now past, gone you see,
gone with the cold, I’d not wish despair on July, this killjoy
for Christmas was never about God for me.

Once a year Xmas marks a sad crying spree
with nobody wanting to be home and little joy employed
for if God were the point, my son would be with me?

Perhaps, with grandchildren there be a jubilee
and this hollowed out husk of me will be destroyed
And Christmas will be about God for me
for it could be so, whose god will it be?


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Embracing Good-bye

I can't see for these tears have blinded by my eyes. 
I can't breathe cause these lungs are empty.
I feel like I have failed.
How could I have failed you so effortlessly? 
I was suppose to make your sunshine.
I was suppose to make you smile.
And now I can't even see.
I want to escape from being so ordinary.
I just want to stand up and scream.
Oh my God!!!
They said that we would never be.
When did you stop listening to me!?
Are you telling me that you listened, honestly!?
They're liars.
And now I am forsaken by a traitor. 
Liar.
Traitor.
So now there is no more you and me. 
I wanted to take you from this world.
Escape the hatred and betrayal.
I was meant to make you smile.
I was meant to take you from here.
I have failed you.
You have failed me.
You listened to them, honestly!?
We could have ran from this world that kept us apart.
Baby, I wish you would have never listened to a word that they said.
I take a moment to ponder about  things, I wish you would have gave me another chance.
I would have taken all the time in the world to prove them wrong. 
Your knife, my chest.
My blood, your dress.
Stitch it up!
I'll bite my lip and fake it!
Fake it!!
I'll say you never meant a thing, anything.
I gave you the world, and a diamong ring.
A solitaire.
You listened to them, when you should have listened to me. 
I can't see for the tears in my eyes.
Broken heart, deception, I'll stitch it up with a few more lies.
We could have been far from ordinary.
We could have had the world, but we have the contrary.
So now this is over, the world has me on my knees.
I'll bite my lip, i'll fake it, and say you didn't mean a thing.
Still so pretty, you're beauty illuminates this place.
I'll light a cigarette and watch this whole world burst into flames.


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ONLY MINE

Don't be confused, I'll tell ya what I see
The girl in your mirror, she's the girl for me
Your drowning in doubt, gonna help ya out
Not pushing ya down, just turning ya around
So you can clearly see, who I want to be
Your man.. Oh girl, I want ya alive and free
I love to see you on fire, my only desire
Forbidden says who, girl don't be so blue
Only thing we're destroying here is fear
So jump in baby, the water is so fine
Drown in my arms, be only mine, only mine

Be only mine..
Only mine!

Date: 9-11-14


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Blue Mountain

Climb high on Blue Mountain,
hug the dark rain clouds; 
they too will burst into tears 
that water concrete jungles 
and wash traces of negro blood 
from asphalt

Climb high on Blue Mountain 
and bawl your green eyes red 
Your womb is ancient, futile, 
never to shed another, 
another to choose this calamity

Climb high on Blue Mountain, 
close to the heavens 
but far away from creator
Where he is there’s jubilation
Cry tears red like Pharaoh’s plague, 
and when you alight 
retreat down your crooked way

What is it that jungle wished for, pounds of flesh?
Climb high on Blue Mountain 
and look out
You cried your green eyes shut 
but there are no changes; 
you were void of vision 
and concrete must be fed 
with blood and tears 
Climb high on Blue Mountain 
and look at your creation 


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I am...

I am a poet writing of my pain
I am a person living a life of shame
I am your daughter, hiding my depression
I am your sister, striving to make a great impression
I am your friend acting like I'm fine
I am a dreamer, wishing this life, wasn't mine
I am a girl who struggles with suicide
I am a teenager, pushing her tears aside







Side note: (Writing for other ladies out there, not so much myself, so don't worry about me)


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Your Betrayal

I wish that I' had ESP, I would have known right from the start
The things that I found out too late, that finally pulled us apart
What I found out too late, that I should have heard from you
There was another in your life and she had been there from the start
All the times that we'd been out since that night that we had met
I did not have a clue that there was someone else in your life
Finally, I found out for myself, that put a knife right in my heart
I found this woman's name was Anne and in fact, she was your wife

I felt that I could trust you then, I was so sure that I was right
You made me feel good about myself and made everything seem bright
You always knew what to say, the words you used were very nice
You had a way of doing things that always turned out right
We had rides out to the country, and went out to the County Fair
I felt that you had fallen for me,and that you really cared
Until the day came along when you caused me so much pain
A day that I never want to be repeated in my life again

If I could get back at you for all the pain that you have caused
I would be so happy that I could again start to enjoy my life
The way that I should have lived it, without all this pain and strife 
You could have saved me so much pain, if you had said you had a wife
Now I have found a way to erase the pain that you have caused
Because love found me and showed me how to love again once more
I can't wait now to start again in this new and exciting life.
A man has just proposed to me and asked me"will you be my wife?"

This proves to me there always is a way to turn things all around
That gives you back the will to live again and purpose in your life
When you've almost given up on life and things really get you down
You feel that there is no more fun in life for you that can be found
So everyday now, try to change the thoughts that you had before
Give yourself a chance to let love again come through your door
One day soon,someone you'll see will again bring love to your life
They will take you by the hand and ask you to be their wife.


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Always looking

Always looking.

Always looking outward
There’s chaos all around
Fighting, fighting everywhere
No solace can be found
Gossip and stern judgements
And all those global wars
There be no way of stopping this
It goes on forever more.

Always looking inside
At the Chaos there within
This might forbear that trumpet
That says ‘Let peace begin’
To see the war within you
Is the way to wisdoms door
Might bring you to the harmony
That’s sought forever more.

There be no good in searching
Not nowhere but in you
Might find the song of harmony
Might find out what be true
It’s there within your deepest soul
It’s the way to make one whole.

The trees, they weep in sorrow
The soil sings songs so sad
The wars are raging everywhere
The future’s looking bad
Cause each of us looks outside
Not seeing what’s within
It’s time to make those changes
Let harmony begin.

3 November 2013 @ 0656hrs.


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Goodbye My Brother

I've seen more than my share of death 
I’ve cheated death also
I thought I'd seen it all 
But I was wrong 

I learned from one of the best 
To control and hide my emotions 
That's one of the things I'm good at
But not tonight 

The first person I laid eyes on that night
When I went though those doors was Josh 
It broke my heart even more 
I knew right then it wasn't a dream 
Oh how I wish it was 

I latched hold of him
Not wanting to let him go 
Afraid I'd lose him too 
Even though we're not blood 
Your still my little brother 

How do I say goodbye
I can't I won't 
So I'm saying see you later for now
I will see you again one day

Even if I don't make it into the gates of Heaven 
I will see you when I stand in judgment 
You'll always hold a special place in my heart 
Love you always




Dedicated to the sudden loss of a close Family friend 
Jeremy Maggard  11/19/82 ~ 11/06/09


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Broken Glass

Do you hear the horn of the train? 
And the pitter patter of rain?
Listen close do you hear a sound?
Only silence, will she be found?

Who is fragile, who is of strength
How can one know another’s length?
Blind to the mask which hides her tears
Binding her to demons and fears
A fake light remains as she falls
Even while her broken heart stalls
Darkness commences in her soul
Blood loss spirals out of control
What an alluring crimson paint
Overworked artist starts to faint 

Do you hear the horn of the train? 
And the pitter patter of rain?
Listen close do you hear a sound?
Only silence, will she be found?

Why do some dance falsely with death? 
Unable to force their last breath
Her unspoken words of pureness
Soaked deeply in her loneliness
The jagged line of her escape
Leaves the unsuspecting agape
Drawn up on the median vein 
Just a few more moments of pain
Eyes flutter and seconds pass
Then gently falls the broken glass

Do you hear the horn of the train? 
And the pitter patter of rain?
Listen close do you hear a sound?
Only silence, will she be found?
Then gently falls the broken glass






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Here Is Gone

Ever thought of something so much
That when you wake up it just automatically
Crawls into your brain cells
Shoots them with laser beams
Until they explode 
And that’s the only thing you have left to think of
Because everything else is fried
Ever wish you could go back and change that night
Wish that you wouldn’t have left her side
That you would have just listened to your heart 
Instead of your gut
Instead of that little voice that echoes
In the back of your head
Ever wished that you wouldn’t be reading this poem
That everything could be like your dreams
Like a family who gets along
Like having a famous relative
Dreaming that you had a better life
More money to spend
More bass guitars to buy
Less drama
Then you find this special someone
Who you can really relate to
And you never want to let them go
But somehow they slip through your fingers
Then your life crumbles 
Falling down like the rain in a thunderstorm
Wishing you could change everything
But you just start over
And try to move on
And somehow end up at the beginning all over again



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I'M STILL LOOKING

He treated me as an object
Solely like a piece of meat
A human al la cart menu
From head down to my feet

Once sophisticated beauty
Not a trophy on his shelf
The things he made me do
Have left me hating myself

He played me for the fool
I was too confused to reject
Only friend is now loneliness
Lost all of my self respect

A thousand words to say
Not one ear have I found
My life, a castle in the sand
Soon it will all be drowned 

This pen is my last hope
So read between the line
A flowing river running dry
Need sun that doesn't blind

I'd give anything to know
That one could understand
The waves are closing in
I'm still looking for that man

Date: 11-26-14


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Understanding Of The End

The time is upon us, yea it is at hand, Things are not what they seem
Im not sure that i really understand
What do you want from me, Is it me?
What do i do, Do I need to take your hand?
Who are these adversaries and What is their plans?,
Am I an instrument, for the ultimate end
Or is it another lesson to be learned, That alone, I can not stand.
What do my dreams mean, are they signs from you?
Are they prophecy, are they the glue
to the pieces of my life, that lead me to you?


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The Pier

The pier was old, many stories untold,
its wood was weathered and gray and
eerily silent and stark, it stood deserted
in the dark. I put the car in park and
felt the sea-wind whip my hair as I strode,
feeling the rush of water under my toes,
footfalls drowned by waves crashing below,
braced against the wind at the end of the pier,
each memory so dear, the end so near,
the ocean's swells were huge and I felt
a stab of fear...

The ocean seemed infinite and I---
insignificant---as I waited for the magic
(in a life so tragic) that I knew would come:
the daily rise of the glorious sun, so strong,
filling my heart with song, the beauty of dawn.

The dark sky turned powder blue,
all the colors began to shift their hues,
my God, what a wondrous view,
the sea turning to quicksilver and steel,
the colors of the sky surreal---

I see the dolphins at play wondering
when I lost my way as they head out
to deeper waters, still waters, they say,
run deep, what we sow, we reap, the
memories we keep---

The beauty of the scene remains unspoken
as I leave the pier, heart broken.


©Danielle White


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The Nobodies

We are the nobodies
Unloved, un-hated, un-phased
Outcasts of the world of popularity.
Banished to the fringes of existence.
Finding joy- is a rarity- no solidarity
Always seen at a distance-
because we are the resistance

Nameless faceless and speechless-
When we speak the response is an echo
Bouncing around in a black hole
We can't hide from it so lets go
Into the darkness of our abandoned soul

Alone, lost, and shrouded by darkness
left to face the shadows of heaven
Lost in life- Our suffering is endless!
To each other we are brethren. 

We are numbed by pain
And blinded by shame
we are social life's bane
playing popularity's game

We are the nobodies...


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It's a crying shame

It’s a crying shame

In the midnight hour
I stroll along this shore
A silence comes on over me
I’ve felt this thing before
It’s a kind of joining up with God
Whatever that might be
In the midnight hour so all alone with me.

So early in the morning
Before the dark has gone
I stroll along these wetland trails
My heart all filled with song
I hear the birds who come alive
Sing their prayers for the day
In the early morn, the whole world seems okay

It’s a crying shame
That the silence has to go
Amidst the noise of the market place
What happens to that glow
That come when folk are not around
Oh, it’s a crying shame
It might be that it’s only me to blame.

I walk amidst the market place
With all the noise it makes
The gossip and the judgements come
It’s noise for it’s own sake
As I try to find the silence
Of the morning and the night
I am searching for that source of all delight.


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Starcrossed Tragedy

A Silent Night's Hunt for a Tigress so blunt, Left the Fiend dancing with my Thisbe's Cloack But where was She? Her Drenching blood is all I can see The Night of Sanguine, The Night of Rapture, Tonight was meant to be All Behold This Tragedy ran by Dark Energy, My Lost Lover's Plea A seed of what is to come, In this starcrossed Tragedy, For I can not live without you, My Pyramus, All I need, My reason to Breathe One sight of me bleeding away from reality, started this tragedy and with me It shall Grow The Pain wasn't enough for me, To Live on with me Love without consequence, The Damned Saint, The Angelic Demon The Darkness of the Sea, Carries away with me, In this Starcrossed Tragedy A Star traveling across the moonless Night Sky, In the mid-summer of Verona, Fell from her glorious light, I have lost my guide, My need for Life Every balcony I'll climb for you, Just to Caress you once more But now it is too Late, My Juilet Let the Poison Fill me My Body dyed In silence, Dipped in Paralysis, Forging the Will of God, Feigning the Clutches of Death, My Romeo I prithee to you, See past The Illusion, Caught in the Webs of Love's delusion A Dagger reached my heart once To see you martyr for our love A Dagger reached my heart twice The Pain wasn't enough for me, To Live on with me Love without consequence, The Damned Saint, The Angelic Demon The Darkness of the Sea, Carries away with me, In this Starcrossed Tragedy Once the Morning Retired from her weeping The sun shined into her eyes, then his Lifeless, their dream will live on Every Petal will be Avenged The Pain wasn't enough for me, To Live on with me Love without consequence, The Damned Saint, The Angelic Demon The Darkness of the Sea, Carries away with me, In this Starcrossed Tragedy


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Down In Memphis

This poem came about by a discussion at work describing a memphis burger and a classic one. I told someone they flowed together and they didn't believe me so I wrote this:

I went down to memphis
There was this, classic chick
With them hips, and red lipstick
A kiss so delicious that
I promised to this miss I would not dissapear
But I was dishonest, I thought I made it clear
That this situation between the two of us
Was not serious But she was delrious
Became so furious that
That month she had two periods
It only takes one to end my sentence
25 to life, Im not doin the time on that sentence
Doesn't matter if she gets me presents
Don't care if she gets madder that I am not present, 
yet she gets sadder cause she still feels my presence
It wont be pleasant, if she doesnt let me leave peacefully
So I packed my things in the middle of the night
Took off asap so she couldn't pick a fight
Flew right back to my little house on the right
Split so fast like Kim Kardash was my wife
Realized that I just dodged a couple of knifes
It seems whack, But I just had to run and hide
This commital thing isnt for me
I am brittle, I crack too easily
Got to be careful cause I need Room to wiggle cant be
Strangled or tied down, I know It'll come back around
Hurt triple the times when karma
Shoots me down from the sky
So for right now, sayonara, beddy bye
Nice to know ya, good night


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The Tide of the Maelstrom

From seas of green, to darkened woe
The winds do blow the grief
In Maelstrom's tide, to havens low
We waken death from sleep

Harkened to the evening star
The evil calls the foe
Into the tide of the Maelstrom
Into the deep below 

Dark haven, cruel Raven
Where shall you then depart?
The whole ship has sunken
Into the whirlpool's heart 

The moon will shine from up above 
Till darkness ends the light
The moaning mist of deadened love
The sad, lost wings of flight 

Demon waters drown the glee
Of all remaining hope 
The gift to hear, the gift to see
Left us long ago

Dark haven, cruel Raven
Where shall you then depart?
The whole ship has sunken 
Into the whirlpool's heart 

Dark haven, cruel Raven!
Where shall you fall tonight?
The whole world is shaken
In Maelstrom's sick delight 

6/17/13
-experimenting on this verse; 
trying to make a four part 
acapella...wish me luck!!


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FROZEN SOUVENIRS

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frozen with pain she woke to find daybreak
slumped on her crumpled bed again, laid back, cast 
aside from god knows what, an unbecoming haven.

at least, this time, this bed was hers and hers alone,
dimly broiled by smells of yesterday gone
stale, drooping limbs to vaguely unbecoming souvenirs.

no longer wrestling fires but lighting them,
hope drained from flesh that craved for expired lotion
crush-boned dreams mocked her unbecoming senses.

she backed off tears that asked how this all happened,
plunging into her heart’s junkyard searching for answers
from wounds buried in near burial of an unbecoming night…



copyright (c)



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For  P.D.'s "Collaborate with Me"


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Reflections: Intellectualism

To Dine, To Die;
Conversations spiral
While thunderous eyes
Grasp concepts to recycle.

Constant debt crisis
A political paradox
Grating social devices
Over the sorting of socks.

Pseudo-analysis
An endless groan
Argumental paralysis
The debate grants no throne.

Existentialism
Over a roast
Potatoes won't listen
To who talks the most.

"That point is so interesting"
The floor is open for chat
"What is real?" not a thing
"Meow" adds the cat.


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One More Day

Daylight slips away
Another lonely night descends
The darkness that surrounds me
My one and only friend
At times I wonder who I am
Why I'm so alone
A world without the man I love
A world to me unknown
I thought I could survive the pain
I thought I could be strong
My fragile heart so broken
My fragile strength all gone
All my hopes are lost
My dreams are washed into the sea
There is no point to life 
Without the world of you and me
I put my hands together
Then on my knees I pray
"Please God give him back to me
Just for one more day
I need to hold him once again
Before I let him go
To say I love him one more time
I need for him to know"
I’d rather go through any pain  
Than what death puts you through
I’d rather sleep forever more 
Than wake up missing you..


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I'm going away

I’m going away

I’m walking down the street
With lead upon my feet
I’ve had some whiskey, drank a lot of that
My head is really spinning
I’ve lost all thoughts of winning
I haven’t got a clue just where I’m at

I’ve pondered for a long time
It’s just a bloody crime
That all these foolish thoughts are in my head
There’s nothing more I care for
I can’t take it any more
Sometimes I wish to Hell that I was dead

She said she’s never coming back again
The thought of this is driving me insane
I feel those demons tugging at my brain
Oh lord this girl has caused me so much pain

I’m going to find another bar
And play my old guitar
I’m going to get to drinking all night through
I’ll get right off my face
Then I’m going to that place
 That place where only dead men can go to.


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I've been crying

I’ve been crying

I’ve been crying
I’ve been crying all night long
Feels like I’m drowning
You left me here, you’ve done me wrong
So I just sit hear crying 
My heart it plays a sad old song.

Oh Lord, it cuts me
I think my heart has broke in two
My soul is weeping
Because my darling I love you
And now you’re gone. You’re gone forever
And me, I don’t know what to do

Yes I’m crying for you baby
Oh yes my love I need you so
That’s why I’m asking come back darling
I’m slowly dying, don’t you know

Oh, how it hurts me
Gives me heartache, don’t you see
Now you’ve gone away forever
Just you and him, it crushes me
I know that you don’t love me
I’m just a passing memory

Yes I’m crying for you baby
Oh yes, I really love you so
I cannot live my life without you
It’s going to wipe me out I know

Folk they say that someday
I’ll forget you, they don’t know
How much my heart is aching
How I’ve lost that living glow
I don’t want to keep on living
Because I really love you so.


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Albert The Alligator, Florida University Mascot Story

A green sweaty swampy land
Maybe no place for a man
But it is a home to many creatures
Such as our friend's the alligators

Now not so long ago,
In their steamy mysterious habitat
There was a fog so dim it almost made it black
and it had large limb's that hung low on the trees 
And each slim blade of grass went an inch above your knees

All gators that lived here
seemed to be very ornary and mean 
And it was considered ordinary
To attack their peers With bone crushing teeth

One could ask,
Why are they so mad?
But it's not their fault
It's just the way they were taught how to act
Ever since their speckled eggs hatched
And learned how to make their jaws snap
 
However, not all gators were like this
There was one who was filled with happiness
He wore a blue hat and a bright orange shirt
Everyone reluctantly called him Albert

Because Albert happened to be completely different
All the other gators kept him at an arm's distance
They called him names and spat in his face
But his joy just never seemed to fade

See Albert had a huge dream
His dream was to be with the humans
As they yelled and screamed
For the local school's winning football team

Out of nothing but sheer excitement,
Albert shared this with the others
But they all laughed even his brothers

So Albert decided right then
to not care about what anyone said
And to pursue his only dream
No matter how long or tough it may be

The next day Albert left that dreary swamp
On mission to prove the nay-sayers wrong
And when he left that dim fog grew so dark
You could not see or hear a big dog's bark

So he made his way to the nearby school
Where he saw not no one, not a single soul
Every building was empty
From the top to bottom floor
The all of a sudden, Albert heard a thundering roar
"Romp!, Stomp!, Chomp!, Welcome to the Swamp!"

He rushed to the football stadium
Where he was met with open arms
He finally felt accepted, safe from abuse and harm
So with his new friends, he rose up in exultation
His life was anew, he was the love of Swamp Nation


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Unintelligible Communication - who/what/where/when/why/how?

How can you say the things
that make me want to scream?
How can you hear the words
that make me want to cry?

Why does my life
feel like a constant cliche
and why are you
content to care
about a creature who cares
about nothing at all?

i said i had lost my priorities
but i know i just finally
realized what they are:
"wallowing in self-imposed misery"
ranks first
and manipulation
and selfishness
come in a close second and third
if there is much difference
between them at all.

Can you tell
that i'm out of words?
all i can do
is scream and cry
sigh at life's inevitability
about the mess that is me
and i wish sometimes
that i could let go
float on the flow
of my tears and waters
that teem with my screams
swim
and actually get somewhere.

i try to return to the past
but my creative juices
have fled
watered down by time
and repetitive experiences
and this is new
but not so much so 
that there's anything more
to say
that hasn't already
been said.
i've related to you
the over-used lines
i seem to spill at these times
don't be surprised if
i am reduced
to repeating 4 words:
"what do i do?"
'cause that's all it comes down to.

i write because
it feels like something accurate
-- and that still effects deeply and intensely --
might come out
the next time
or the next time
when really
i read over my old poems
and realize
i've exhausted my supplies
of deep, intense effective poems
and all that's left
is just chicken scratch.

i
don't want to
am not able to
write anything more
all i can do
is lay my head
on the naked pillow
and hope that i won't rise
or if i do
i won't be me.

i can write the words
that make me want to cry
i can write the things
that make me want to scream
but how you can say and hear
i'll never know
'cause i've gone
far beyond the realm
where that is
a plausible
possible
option
but here i can retreat to 
and "fire at will
from behind my hideout
of faux-i-don't-care".
and as i write
i realize that that is the one thing
i can say
that is utterly true
because i am
sorry
and there's nothing i can do
to change that.


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Singing With A Fashion...

It's a left at the gas station where the body bags were being piled up.
Then an immediate right behind the home style cooking restaurant where the lady was shot.
Pass the abortion clinic on your right.
Continue past the abandoned psych ward to your left.

Then,
When you see the church the size of a mall,
My corner is across the street.

His words were such inspiration
Handed to me on a double-bladed tongue.
It brought the sense of what I was before I let myself be changed.
From left brain to the drug game
Those times were all stepping stones that buried me under the hole

The demons from my past keep sending me the love they have for me
These things, they relate to demons
They relate to my demons
They are my demons

I wish someone knew what I was saying
I wish someone wanted to watch the storm with me
I wish I was not the only one
(that's three, it's over)


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Regaining power

Regaining Power.

He walks a lonely road, with his head there in the clouds
And he doesn’t even notice passing strangers
He’s been here ‘bout a thousand years forever all alone
And he’s always looking out for passing danger.

Invisible sometimes he feels, so he tries to seek the glory
As the child calls out in panic “I am here
They have taken all my power so my blossom will not flower
And all around I’ve built a wall of fear

But it’s his pain it is his game
As he prowls around his cage
He lives in vain, is he insane?
And fear ignites his rage.

The truth be plain, the lions mane is what he must acquire
The little boy he must regain his power
And tell the world “I’m here, I’m here” and feed the burning fire
It would take this much to open up his flower.


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I'm Nothing Without You

You were the reason for my smile
But it's been vacant for a while
You are the reason why I’m here
I’m nothing without you

You are the reason for my song
The tears I’m crying all night long
Where did you and I go wrong
I’m nothing without you

No one here to see my cry
When you tell me one more lie
No one here to watch me die
I’m nothing without you

Now I’m lonely, sad and free
Fading in your memory
Your arms are where I need to be
I’m nothing without you

No more sunshine; only rain
No more laughter; only pain
Forever lonely I’ll remain
I’m nothing without you

I know my broken heart won't mend
I know I’ve lost my love, my friend
I know my life has reached its end
I’m nothing without you


By Raina Hutchins




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UNFOLD

The pain of change as it unfolds
Is oft a tale that stays untold
What is seen is a whole creature
not deep holes in the feature
nor concrete soles that makes his feet hurt

It all begins with a soft kiss
He is walking with a false bliss
Only following in paw prints
But the nature of mom's lips
Is to rob him of all innocence

Trapped in warm spindles of fear
A wrapped life form kindles in here
Four years bound to shingles of moss
Time to leave this life of sloths
Break free like that of a moth
and Rise again like Christ on the cross


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The Fear

The Aphotic rays reach higher
And shame, shade reigns over all
Lacuna, Apathy is all I feel as I fall into the ashed grave
I'm living, the slowest way to die
Elysia, rapture where are you now

What will I do when the flame is extinguished 
What will I do when I drown in ash
What will I do when they sing my name in funeral dirges 
How can this be all, one short organic vitality
Scares to die, but afraid of a new day

Scared to die, but so afraid of a new day
Will I Ressructe to Paradise, burn in Hell, or lay in Sheol
Is this a there is, one feather, to the dirge
My life so long - my suffering grows
Scared to die, but so afraid of a new day

In all of the ashes, a flame begins
Once again, here I am
Living, the slowest way to die


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Stuck

I'm like a lion
Tryin to be  trained
to behave in a cage, but
I wasnt born to be tame
Full of stress and rage
 Im compressed and chained
Infected with depression
beCause I cant catch a break
Lifes taste is so tart
In pain from my scars
Stained by lame luck
Stuck behind apace car
I strive to write
But all I can type is the space bar
I'm Pervaded with doubt
About to freakout
Quick Someone bail me out
I would sniff my way out
but I got this cyst on my snout
From 6 years of this drought
Im sittin with this could of pout
Stickin to me like jam from a can
like melted candy in your hand
I'M a pantree full of Spam
 A Letter without the stamp
A debtor without a plan
Like chicken on a pan without any Pam,
Damn I'm starting to get pissed
 I got to devise a plan, before I break my fist,
Punching this brick wall, I got the spit but no ball
got the wits with no squall, like a toliet with no stall
 Slippin in a pit fall, Shiz just snow balls
I want to brawl, missed last call
My Stick shift just stalled,
This lawl has no intention at stopin at all
And I'm kicking myself in the balls
like old men walking up and down the halls
so i flop, just like a dust mop
Now i got knots in my food box
The size of king kongs rocks and
Every door has been locked
I try to soar but its all for not


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COMMENTS

At first I was thrilled you took the time
To read my work and enjoy my rhyme

My highest hope was fully achieved
Someone connected or so I believed

Your words to me were all like miracles
But in reality I was another of your fools

Your comments once made me happy
Your comments once made me glad
Your comments then made me angry
And in the end they made me sad

I realize now you didn't read my work
You cut and pasted to simply gain a perk

Sold your soul for points without worth
You're the saddest creature on the earth

No one may tell you but everyone knows
Your naked motives are fully exposed

Your comments once made me happy
Your comments once made me glad
Your comments then made me angry
And in the end they made me sad

If all you ever have for me are ditto comments let me be
I really don't like being used with your cut and paste views

Yeah,
Your comments once made me happy
Your comments once made me glad
Your comments then made me angry
And in the end they made me sad

Contest: Jack's "Comments"
Date: 8-27-14
Poet: Lyric Man


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Noise

A thousand different voices, I don't know what they say 

Two songs playing at the same time, make this go away

The horrible sound of a Siren, are you sure you can't hear it to?

I really should be asleep now, But  what can I do?


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The next round-Step into the ring

 I hear the bells ring
 "ding ding"
Go ahead and take a swing
it don't mean a thing
'cause I've learned how to stand my own ground
I'm in the middle of the ring
gloves off
ready for the next round.
Don't be fooled into thinking
you can knock me down
'cause you don't know about the strength I've found.
I've been around
seen life
through eyes that saw the hard way
learned how to live it my way
say what I mean, mean what I say.
I pull no punches
trust my intuition and my hunches
so it's o.k take a swing
it don't mean a thing
your opinion is just that to me, doesn't mean jack to me.
I may be small
but I'm packed full of power
once a shy bud now I'm a full blown flower
so go ahead step in the ring
I hear the bells ring 
"ding ding"
go ahead and take a swing
let's see what you bring!


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On Dying

On Dying.

I was strolling in the sunshine
It was half past afternoon
And I even heard that new born baby cry.
As I carried on, I heard birdsong
That I’d missed my whole life long
Me mind had told me I was bound to die.

But the whisper in my heart said “cool
Look at the positives, you fool”
As he tried so hard to make me understand
That One must open up ones heart  
And see the whole, not just the parts?
It could be ones demise be kind of grand.

For positives have negatives
And negatives have positives
And life may choose to dance with you
With Death in fact enhancing you.

And then those trees did sparkle now
They seemed to glow and gleam somehow
And life seemed like a candy covered dream.
And now I know that every man
Is here to learn to understand
As still I wonder just what all this means.    


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Sin And Poetry

As the night sets in, it's as black as it's ever been.
My soul is in ruin, and my heart is like a back pack carrying a load of sin.

In the closet my skeletons scream, and constantly torment me.
The rage in my blood stream causes me to blaspheme religiously!
I am doomed because I'm so consumed by that very rage;
Engulfs me like burning fire, wraps me like barbed wire that causes a rampage!

The malice in my heart craves the blood from a helpless foe.
I feel I'm being ripped apart like some dark work of Edgar Allen Poe!

So many sins to atone for, and I get on my knees to repent.
Again with my face on the floor, I pray I receive a love that's heaven sent.
The evil is eating me alive from the inside out.
I can't survive when I feel like I'm fighting a 12 round bout!

My greed has come between me and my family.
I just wanted to succeed, but I admit I did it selfishly!

I seduced Lisa knowing she was married to another man, I just didn't care.
As Lisa fell in love, I became her number one fan, and then I ended our love affair!
My conscience wouldn't let me continue on the path of destruction.
I think of the consequence of losing you and laugh because now I'm unable to function.

I now see literally that it is better to lose an eye than your soul.
As I write my sin and poetry, I cry knowing my heart is as black as coal!   


My new form written strictly for Constance's contest "Create your own form maybe" ? is called Stanlets because it consists of couplets and stanzas that rhyme and is a dark subject.
Jimmy Anderson


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This Day In Age

I find it strange this day in age
Some beautiful ones are still teens
I've talked to older women, I'm afraid;
It's almost like I'm caught in between.

You see, other Adventist Christians,
They did consider it ignorant of me.
I didn't ask for this experience;
I don't wish to be in captivity.

Is it how I carry myself?
Well, maybe it's the male physique
Which might describe the way she felt
That time when her eyes were on me.

I picked the less of two evils;
Adulthood is not simple to me.
I will never be perfect for people;
Especially, when I'm twenty-three.



©2013 Honestly JT


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life now

the life that you have now 
is the one you will cry over when you are removed from it 
it happens that many lives are taken 
away from the now and when we lived 
the can’t grow fast enough is bicycle hard to catch up to 
crispy in leaves, and, bare under the bark


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My Struggles


My Struggles My mind grows weary. My eyes are teary. My heart often skips a beat. I toss and turn through the night. My soul and flesh continue to fight. I do what is wrong, but I desire what’s right. Inside I burn with fury, But outside I appear cool as a Winters breeze. A great storm is in the near future. Who will intervene before disaster strikes? Who will save me from the strong winds and hail? I can only pray that all goes well. I can only pray to survive this shipwreck. I can only pray to reach shore and be able to breathe again.


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Don't go away again

Don’t Go away.

I saw you there my being came afire
I heard your voice, it filled me with desire
It seemed like years but only days had passed
So long ago since I had seen you last.

You looked at me and smiled your sad, sad smile
My heart it just went crazy for a while.
I looked at you as if I did not care
But oh what joy it was to see you there.

Don’t go away, don’t ever leave again.
Because my love you cause me so much pain
Without you here my life be oh so bare
Although I see your vision everywhere.

Though you don’t love me I must know you’re there
I need to see your beauty soft and rare
And every day that you’re not there to see
It seems like something dies so deep in me.

My love for you be such a crazy thing
When you’re nearby my heart can only sing
But when you’re gone my being starts to fade
For you be all my heart would ever crave.


Socrares 1990.


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Forbidden

      FORBIDDEN
In thinking back into back then,
too many things won't fit,
the questions I once had are more
like they'll hang on a bit;

for love to even come along
to scarcely be a thought,
at this, the time I was secure
then suddenly, was not.

How could I fall so very hard
something I've never done,
when easy going is my style
take life as lots of fun?

I've heard of these things happening,
but not to me, no way!
I was the rock depended on
and lived it every day.

Then everything was new to me,
the old so quick died out,
and this old dog was changed into
things never thought about.

And if I broke the social norm,
it was because of this,
that part of me that didn't die
was what I'd never miss;

to put up front, and let it out,
in all my honesty,
to show exactly how I feel,
the me that's really me.

I showed you then in any way
and won't regret a thing,
my only hope is that some day
your thought of me might bring

some comfort to a troubled time
you might be going through;
remembering you have been loved
the way I have loved you.
© ron wilson aka vee bdosa the doylestown poet


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Trust in destiny

Trust In Destiny

Do your best then trust in destiny,
It’s the only valid thing that you can do.
Cause there ain’t no use in worrying,
It’s a fact I’m telling you.
It wears you down and makes you sad,
Or boils your blood and gets you mad
No worry’s not the proper thing to do.

You found a lump or your children get ill
Or you’re out of dosh and cannot pay your bills,
Or death has shadowed your poor life
Or you think someone may steal your wife,
Your kids are causing too much strife,
It’ll all work out when the time is rife
 It will work out I’m telling you.

So throw them, Ditch the bloody lot,
And look right now at what you have got,
For worry causes love to die and rot
It does, it does I’m telling you.

So watch the Sun come up every day,
In nature everything’s is just okay.
The Earth keeps turning steadily,
And the birds still sing in ecstasy,
And deep within your soul you’re free,
And it all depends on destiny
No matter what you try to do.


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Empty Mess

I feel alone tonight, empty as the bottles that lie around my bed
I feel cut through the flesh, what a mess...
I'm sinking down, without a fight
Drenched in despair, nothings really there

No drama queen, entrances allowed...

Swallowed in gloom, I lie in this room
Staring up, to the ceiling again
There's a yellow baloon, I know you'll be here soon
To pick up the peices again, Loyal friend
I know that you love me, even when I'm ugly

You're always the arms that hold me high...
You keep me from falling in, hold me when the world starts to spin
A loyal someone who I know I can always rely

Impossible as I abuse you, and God knows that I use you
You always come back for more

You don't approve of the way I live, but you still give and give
And you never ask for anything in return

So what if I'm a loner? And God knows I'm a stoner
You'd think by now I would learn

Your ways about affection, haunt my recollection
I only wish you'd see the sky the way I do

Open ended empty lies, so that baby cries and cries
When you're away I miss your smile

I don't know how you love me at all, after every time I fall and fall
I guess making love to a mess like me is just your style

As often as I think of you, and you don't even have a clue
You'd think when you're around I'd show it more

Appreciation has it's ways, or maybe it's just another phase
Too low a self esteem, to open that door

Dripping with lack of confidence, you could never try to convince
A pathetic thing like me, to change my heart

Silly as it may seem to them, I know deep down you're a gem
Skeptical of trust is just how, I exist

In a world that's hard to trust, filled with greed and empty lust
I wonder why you waste your time on me

All these petty worthless fights, all these foolish wrong and rights
In the end nothings ever really free

Self righteous people think they're right, honest to God they aren't worth the fight
You're better than the rest, don't you see?

Even through these hazy eyes, I can definitely realize
You're the one that's winning, honestly

So scoop me up and be on your way, I know you'll come again someday
Before I finish sinking slowly down... 
You'll come take this good for nothing fool, by the hand and bring me to my feet again

Save me from this vanity, bring me back from insanity

So lay me down and let you get to work, 
You come and numb all of this pain, The foolish things done in vain
Keep me from going all out bezerk

I'm an empty mess


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ALL I EVER NEEDED WAS YOU

I don't need the weather man
to know the wind has blown you by
I don't need a sad Lifetime tv show
to crush my spirit and make me cry
I don't need a brutal soldier's war
to be shot right through my heart
I don't need to be a medical doctor
to know it's killing me to be a part

I don't need an experienced fireman
to know your flame's forever gone
I don't need to be a righteous preacher
to know the things I did were wrong
I don't need to be a famous movie star
to have secrets exposed that I regret
I don't need to have a good memory
to know those things I can't forget

I don't need to be a rocket scientist 
to know you're never coming back
I don't need to be Mahatma Gundhi
To feel hunger that comes from lack
I don't need to be a fortune teller
to know my future is so lonely blue
I don't need another dang thing
all I ever needed was you..
all I ever needed was you!

Date: 7-27-14


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Last page, End of story, close the book and don?t look back

As I purge my mind of all the memories bits and pieces that still infuriate me
I remember being on the phone with her in our last conversation
and in the background I could hear what her new boy friend was saying
Threatening to leave and reminding her about the things I?d done  

Then you claimed I had not changed 
You said I was still very angry
I said under the circumstances how would you feel
If the only love you knew was being decided upon a moments notice

No more chasing
No more memories 
No more wishing you?d come back
No more you, no more me
Last page, End of story, close the book and don?t look back

Then suddenly another memory a psychic gave your mom advice  
She said you were going to have to choose between two lovers
But that moment in time had no rhyme and we just laughed it off 
But as I reminded her of that time I could hear fear through a fateful sigh 

then suddenly everything in my mind began to flicker
Like a candle blowing in the wind
My mind my soul prepared to let go
Like an addiction that feeds off the regret

No more chasing
No more memories 
No more wishing you?d come back
No more you, no more me
Last page, End of story, close the book and don?t look back

Another reel of my memory plays
Like sitting in a dark room with a tv on and remote in hand 
Skipping through the channels
And watching each clip

She said I have to call you back 
but I already knew what the answer would be
It was in her voice when that moment became a reality.
She buckled under pressure and I was out of the picture
 
No more chasing
No more memories 
No more wishing you?d come back
No more you, no more me
Last page, End of story, close the book and don?t look back

Our break up was resentful
Unfortunately it was all based on a lie
And for six years she hated me
However she never really knew the truth why

And as one last image begins to float away like a balloon
I see the engagement ring and the party
I see what could have been, should?ve been but is not going to happen
I see you on face book with two kids and an illegitimate husband 

No more chasing
No more memories 
No more wishing you?d come back
No more you, no more me
Last page, End of story, close the book and don?t look back


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Lady Arcane

[Daughters of Lamia] Today we walk from our graves You can't wish, pray it away The Inflamed Coven's emerged You Will receive what you deserve Retribution of the flaming shade Your Malice will be paid, In Harm's way [Aharhel] Her Convoluted face burning with fear Of the fall of the gate seering their minds with the deft of the legion The Army of the plague Scourges your land Scourges your Children Scourges your hope [Lady Arcane] I, The White Madonna - The Poison Mistress Hold The Rose to Salvation - Hold The Fruit to Arcane Closer, Come, Child you are mine [Daughter's of Lamia] Lady Arcane wants your fear Lady Arcane wants you near Lady Arcan is here Lurking In your tears clinging to your spilled blood the east has always been near The Left hand reaches to the right side in disguise In Malice's Disguise Therionacy break you down to thy knees To Thy Knees!


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Dark rider

Dark Rider.

Dark Rider he’s a coming
All the people running scared
Panic streaked across their frightened faces
With his mask of blackest horror 
He loudly screams at them
His manner cold, he has no lovely graces

He made a deal with Satan
A thousand years ago
He was given immortality
He's crazy don't you know?
The Fiends of Hell all ride with him
With snakes wrapped round them too
He'll hunt you down no matter what you do.

He comes to torture people
He's a beast without a soul
As he travels through the wastelands
With his horde of Hades Ghouls
He has no heart, he has no soul
He only has the power
To trample hearts, so folk will never flower

Dark rider he’s a coming 
Folk all running scared
With no one knowing where he's going to be
They're running round in circles 
They are, oh yes indeed
He keeps folk captive, never sets them free.

Dec 10 2003


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Remember When

Remember when we could still stand
And gaze upon some virgin land
And appreciate the beauties of the Earth?
Remember when the flowers bloomed in May,
And how we lived, from day to day
When the little things still had intrinsic worth?
Remember when there were no fears out there beyond the fence?
Remember when we still had common sense?

But now it seems so far away
Though it happened only yesterday
The tremor's still a-shaking in my heart.
And now there's just a stoneage silence
Born of but a moment's violence
Standing sentry in a landscape torn apart.

     And the heat came down like a mountain falling in the sea
     And the sky lit up like a thousand suns
     Ten million souls cried in agony
     Hung in the air, then faded out as one.

Sorry, don't like to steal you sleep, my dears
Didn't mean to probe your deepest, darkest fears.
But I keep having this terrible dream, you see
You can't imagine how it makes me feel
And when I wake, draw close to me
And tell me, was it really real?

Remember when things didn't seem
So pointless and far gone extreme
And we could let the children play outside?
Remember when the Grand Alliance
Worked so hard for world compliance
And how they finally made us go and hide?
Remember when the world that was
Was still a place for having dreams 
How strange the thought of that now seems.

But now it seems so long ago
A million miles from what we know
The Final Crime committed now at last.
So now it's all a weary show
As on and on and on we go
Our living time is now - the Past's the Past.


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For the Dying Orphan

I let you die for my name As you reached for my hands Out of waters of drowning What a hypocrite this writer is The Hatred of Solitude Letting an orphan dream Then destroy him with knowledge Of what you have done He opened up to you In new ways But in nostalgic guises The springwinds whisper blithe yore But the winterwinds, much stronger Caress you with the dreams of your funeral sky “It was you… it was your fault… Letting the one who was so open to you Be the laugh… the piece in the game…”


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Beyond The Sun

Of 2000 years ago Beyond The Sun
There once was a Prophetic Son
With a Mother of Wisdom
The Matriach of Sublime
She shows the way in time
 
There's a locked cage in my heart
And it's tearing me apart
Sophia you hold The Key
Why don't you open if for me
 
Beyond The Sun
A Dove, a Flame (Beyond The Sun)
Regina Sapientia is Here (Beyond The Sun)
 
Beyond The Sun
A Dove, a Flame (Beyond The Sun)
Regina Sapientia is Here (Beyond The Sun)
 
There's a locked cage in my heart
And it's tearing me apart
Sophia you hold The Key
Why don't you open if for me
 
Beyond The Sun
A Dove, a Flame (Beyond The Sun)
Regina Sapientia is Here (Beyond The Sun)
 
Beyond The Sun
A Dove, a Flame (Beyond The Sun)
Regina Sapientia is Here (Beyond The Sun)


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Pledge Not The Allegiance

It's the third verse,
I got the urge to purge
All the curt words I've splurged,
I've submerged in sin,
I'll go to church repent,
Then go curse again,
Lets reverse this trend
We nurse tolerance,
When it might offend,
If I white wash my fence,
So try to not get tense,
When I do not defend, 
Those who chose to be dense
And not use their two cents,
To show kids the reverence,
For the pledge of allegiance.


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The Land of Sophia

Escape the tort of our avarice world Defy the ones who shift the blame Deter the decadence forgetting shame Freedom is on the top of the bare eyes Beyond the consciousness of The Human Kind Search harder and then you'll find The Land of Sophia Dwelling past are needs Swirling around our bare minds Our wants polluting out sight the Land of Sophia is lost at night Are the Lies held worth it in time Only embracing The Veil of Logic The Truth is cast into shade where all vices are soon to be made For all of our dreams and dramaticies The Destruction Star poisons seas Far from This Galaxy among the stars I can see myself, And The One I've became Escape the tort of our avarice world Defy the ones who shift the blame Deter the decadence forgetting shame Freedom is on the top of the bare eyes Beyond the consciousness of The Human Kind Search harder and then you'll find The Land of Sophia Dwelling past are needs Swirling around our bare minds Our wants polluting out sight the Land of Sophia is lost at night Caught in our lust, of forgetting trust I wonder can we break free of bound forever in the clutches of Lilith's Love Eden's Heart Who's desperate For Love Who's desperate For Light yet wallows in Blight and chooses to wait--forevermore The wait in Summer--An Eternity Lilith's Love Eden's Heart Escape the tort of our avarice world Defy the ones who shift the blame Deter the decadence forgetting shame Freedom is on the top of the bare eyes Beyond the consciousness of The Human Kind Search harder and then you'll find The Land of Sophia Dwelling past are needs Swirling around our bare minds Our wants polluting out sight the Land of Sophia is lost at night We don't chose what's right I can't believe we are able to see this far Crawling in Shadows Never will breath find it's light Escape the tort of our avarice world Defy the ones who shift the blame Deter the decadence forgetting shame Freedom is on the top of the bare eyes Beyond the consciousness of The Human Kind Search harder and then you'll find The Land of Sophia Dwelling past are needs Swirling around our bare minds Our wants polluting out sight the Land of Sophia is lost at night
**Mark Jansen, Guitarist, Male Vocals, and main songwriter of Epica**


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SOUL MATE

              SOUL MATE
I came in the name of He who gave you breath.
As certain as the emptiness of time,
as hopeful as your life, and meaningless as death,
I came to stay.

No holy water, no exorcist's demand,
can quench your thirst; your need for all I am.
I fill your head with things not meant to understand,
I came to stay.

I breath your name, tormented you may seem,
and sleepless is your night, I fill your time.
I am the joy of life beyond your dying scream,
I came to stay.

I came in the name of He who gives you death.
I am the calm and blinding of the light.
Forever part of you, I am your very breath.
I came to stay.
...........© Ron Wilson


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For Bruce Springsteen

for bruce springsteen...


it was a rain-swept monsoon day

way back then, so many moons away

when i felt the music strumming in my veins

setting me free like a runaway horse without any reins

you sang of simple truths, 

your verse spoke to people just like me

in my lonely, wasted, and desolately quiet night

as you screamed out tragic human wrongs, and of everyone's plight

'bobby jean' spoke to me

of that girl down the street

glimpses of whom, we as innocents would furtively meet

and 'the river' that flowed through my ever-barren heart

led me down further roads of thunder

when slowly i finally learnt that the hardest part was fighting on

and never to surrender

to the hard-luck dreams that were born to run

while i danced in the dark 

with memories vivid and stark

even as i whined like that dog who for forever lost his howling bark

and then a 'human touch' came along

and 'better days' seemed real, not just words in a song

and still you sang and swayed and spoke straight into my unseeing eyes

as gardens of secrets were opened, and as your fist punched the skies

in an anger that i too felt and in whose cauldron i too burned

as we saw murder get incorporated, while on its wobbly axis, our fragile world apathetically turned

and then suddenly i was told that i was all grown up

working on a highway of scattered ideals

and absolving myself by sprinkling some coins in a waiting cup

well, after all these years of walking along so many a thorny road

with an armour of your verse covering me, even as i hear them taunt me and even as they continue to goad

but now i can feel myself fading away, into the bleakness of this coming night

just like the ghost of that old tom joad...


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Interlude for In The Pines

She came from the village
One day's ride from here.
Though I'd  only met her but the once,
She's stood in a corner of my memories
All down these many years.

She had that Fugitive look about her-
Eyes like a wary fox.
She would not add nor take from what she'd told me;
Her heart was full of locks.


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Times Were Tough

I come from down in the valley, there, my father's house shines hard and bright in the darkness on the edge of town, like my memories calling so cold and alone troubled times had come to my hometown times were tough, love was not enough to feed us and keep us warm the greedy thieves that came around brought death to my hometown my father once told me, with every wish there comes a curse now, I understand what he meant you choose the chance you take still, at the end of every hard day, people find some reason to believe My hometown lays waiting for rebirth maybe everything that dies someday comes back By Rhonda Johnson-Saunders, March 5, 2012 for Sing a Song a Poem contest (Tracie~*~ Indigo Dreamweaver) Eighth Place *Bruce Springsteen lyrics I come from down in the valley - The River My father's house shines hard and bright - My Father's House In the darkness on the edge of town - In the Darkness on the Edge of Town Calling and calling so cold and alone - My Father's House Troubled times had come to my hometown - My Hometown Times were tough, love was not enough - When You're Alone The greedy thieves that came around brought death to my hometown - Death to My Hometown With every wish there comes a curse - With Every Wish You choose the chance you take - The Price You Pay Still at the end of every hard day, people find some reason to believe - Reason To Believe Maybe everything that dies someday comes back - Atlantic City


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The Hardest Thing

Last night we had a quarrel
We went to bed so mad
Each had to get up early
The morning was quite sad
I never meant to say that
I know you didn’t, too
With hopes to reconcile
Just know that I love you

Yeah darling…
It couldn’t be more true

That’s why 
Leaving you
Is the hardest thing to do

Each morning when we go to work
A piece of me, it goes with you
I cannot wait to get back home
To do those things we do

That’s why 
Leaving you
Is the hardest thing to do

I hope tonight we’re civil
We listen and we learn
Together, we’ll get past this
Each others trust, we’ll earn
So, then we can retire
To the bedroom that we share
Lie within each others arms
And show how much we care

Yeah darling…
It couldn’t be more true

That’s why 
Leaving you
Is the hardest thing to do

Each morning when we go to work
A piece of me, it goes with you
I cannot wait to get back home
To do those things we do

That’s why 
Leaving you
Is the hardest thing to do

And when my work’s over
I will come back to you


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SOMETHING MORE

I read your note today
it spoke so very near to me
I write of ones I miss
and things that shouldn't be

I'm glad you got to go
but your words just broke my heart
No slippers for those pretty feet
a dilapidated world coming a part

There's something more to life
than living and dying
Created for something more than even
romancing and designing
relaxing and reclining..
there's something more

What does this say about us
when our future's treated so poor
Tears streaming down my cheeks 
we must live for something more

There's something more to life
than living and dying
Created for something more than even
romancing and designing
relaxing and reclining..
there's something more

We live to love!

Date: 6-1-14

 


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our love

our love has come and gone
just like the freshly played melody of our song
though i cannot lie
i will sigh
to you i will say a final goodbye
our love has faded away
like a breeze on a hot summers day
our love has gone out of fashion
and its time to move on
because our love has come and gone
like the faded memory of our song
and with a sigh
to you i say a final good bye


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Do Not Delay

Remember that day
Your memory set to replay
Remember that day
When your life was astray

Tattered curtains in the wind
A path you soon rescind
Echoes of silence in the halls
Shadows dance upon the walls
Her door off its frame
Search, call her name
Terror brings you to your knees
Your gut twisting with unease

Remember that day
Your memory set to replay
Remember that day
When your life was astray

Screams burn outside
The attack worldwide
Determined to find her
Afraid of what may occur
Heart breaks at the thought
When nearby a gun is shot
Running wild in the night
Praying it’ll be alright

Remember that day
Your memory set to replay
Remember that day
When your life was astray

Words still engraved
Your soul enslaved
Memories on your mind
Apocalypse of mankind
Her love you dearly miss
The unforgettable last kiss
Feeling her last breath
As she welcomed death

Remember that day
Your memory set to replay
Remember that day
When your life was astray
Remember that day 
When she faded away
When you were unable to say
What your heart wish to convey


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Have and Have Not

Born into poverty
Instead of heraldry
Disappointment struck me glum
Square peg in a round hole
Ends up on the dole*
Got no money and I want some

My nights of abandon
Were strictly rationed
Contraception isn't cheap
Then into these drab nights
No warmth and no lights
Fed up of counting sheep

You came and you stained 
the sheets and the bed frame
Your self indulgence left me sore
You left me white
and a terrible sight
But still I craved for more

But if I had money
You'd stick with me honey
You wouldn't leave me in this mess
But I'm just a pauper
Can't support a daughter
(Finances) stretch to a budgie at best

Well she cut her hair
and dated a millionaire
Splashing cash has such allure
But, he beats her senseless
Then buys her a new dress
She's not happy, but she's 'secure'

He has and I have not
I want what he's got
The irony is - I had it once
He went to Cambridge and Eton
He's got me down and beaten
He's left me feeling such a dunce

The moral then sonny
Is those who have money
Will always get the best of both worlds
So if your not rich
Then life's a b***h
So go find yourself a rich girl



*old fashioned term for social security payments in the UK. 
[This is actually a song rather than a poem, which I wrote almost 30 years ago - when I was full of angst and acne! Can't find or remember the music I wrote for it though - shame]


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Nothing Sucks Like Being Old

My thoughts frequently fixate on things,
Camouflaged with fog due to time's floe.
Prior to aging slithering in and causing,
Treasured gratifications of my life to go.

Age has had its way of changing things,
Not for my betterment I forthwith say.
While my mind remains at a willing stage,
Health issues prohibit transit to that day.

Life has been, in a way, a promissory note,
A time and date for all things to come due, 
My credit for song and dance is terminated,
Now, it's "pay the fiddler who played for you";

























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Deirdre

 
Don’t you know Deirdre’s gone? Don’t you know Deirdre’s gone? I can sence her embrace that feels like Tragedy A heart to have, slipped beneath the waves The dark pulse now beckons us closer How many days will this passion bleed away? We will be the ones left to blame Beware we’ve become their prey They say you’re addicted to your pain A lifeless cold barren soul left to die in the rain A whisper too close to the edge A call from the dark Brings out a saving spark An Exodus from her Pain Her Life Spent breathing in Shame A Shadow Call breaks the Silence Am I the one to blame? Don't you know Deirdre's gone? Don't you know Deirdre never said wrong? Don't you know Deirdre's gone? “My Decadence was just for you Though you’d never care what I’ve been through Enter the world were empathy is clandestine A world created by you, just for me What’s Lying in my heart is why You want to through the stone” I call your name towards nightfall’s reign But they take you so far away A dark angel so divine Cursed by Eden’s heart I will avenge every tear An Exodus from her Pain Her Life Spent breathing in Shame A Shadow Call breaks the Silence Am I the one to blame? Don't you know Deirdre's gone? Don't you know Deirdre never said wrong? Don't you know Deirdre's gone? Don’t you know Deirdre’s gone? Don’t you know Deirdre’s gone?


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Gone

She was like one taking to air on a wing,
Ensuing years cried out, show us your face.
As we languished behind feeling time's sting,
Zephyrs were carrying her from place to place.

The wind constantly whispered to us her name,
Periodically it seemed to appear as a gust.
And many years later our prayers answer came,
Because for her, in God, we'd placed our trust.


Shirlene was lost to us for many years.


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End It

End It
By: IzaDonna

My demons crouch real low
Seeping out of me real slow
The pain protectively covered
Darkening memories like no other
But I hide behind a smile
This life not seeming worth while
The blade I have is ready to go
Life already being at an all time low
So bring on the darkness
i no longer have a purpose

Chorus
I push you away to protect you
My sickness n pain being nothing new
So save yourself from my sorrow
Cause I won't live to see tomorrow
You deserve someone better
So let me be and go find her

Loneliness is my own choice
Feeling so lost with no voice
So I let each day slip by
Everyday just wanting to die
What have I become
Where did all this pain come from
Being left alone is my desire
The spark going out in my fire
My days I feel are at an end
Too far gone to possibly mend

Chorus

So bring on the darkness
I've lost my purpose


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I Want to Fall In Love Again

I want to fall in love again
I miss the feeling
I miss the joy
It was like being under the sun
and melting..
it was like being under the moon
and shining..
I want to love again
I look at lovers
and they seem so in love
but it's lonely to have someone
and feel nothing
I want to fall in love again
But...
my heart is scared
I could not feel it
It may be missing
It might have died a tragic death
the lies, the betrayals and the hurt
I don't think it could endure again
my heart is full of doubt
afraid to take step 
for I might fall down again,
be stepped upon, crashed and broken
I want to fall inlove again
but my heart is SCARED..


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Loves Dream

Do you ever think of us
And wonder what went wrong
Are you in anothers arms
But feel you don’t belong
Was I someone special
Am I ever on your mind
Am I in your memories still
Or was I left behind
We almost had it all
I thought we’d make it all the way
But someone else’s hold on you
Just wouldn’t let you stay
I was the other woman
Always waiting by the phone
The one who always had to hide
Who spent her nights alone
My time with you was not enough
But still I can’t forget
For you will always be the love
I never will regret
Sometimes I still cry
For wondering where we went so wrong
But still I have this dream of you and I
That keeps me strong
That we share one more precious day
The way we used to know
And when I hold you in my arms
I’ll never let you go
And if this never happens
If my dream does not come true
These words I’ve never spoken
I now want to say to you
You’ll always be the one thing in my life
That was so real
I loved you then, I love you now
And I know I always will.


By Raina Hutchins



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Writing On Walls

Listen, Listen, Listen -
Open up your eyes and ears
See the starlight, watch it, feel it as it
Glistens, Glistens, Glistens -
Reflecting coldly off the teeth between the gears.

Run, Run, Run -
Come and see what's going down
Watch the people, hear 'em, fear 'em with their
Guns, Guns, Guns -
No time left for us to fool around.

     These things we're doing can't be right
     These deeds done in the dark of night
     We'd better stop and answer the calls
      From the Other Side, stop writing on their walls.

Look, Look, Look -
Read the things we're posting up there
Know the meanings, seek 'em, find 'em in those
Books, Books, Books -
That is, if you really do care.

Getting, Getting, Getting
Ask yourself what you really want
Taste the bitter, weigh it, say it while you're
Fretting, Fretting, Fretting
Over all the things of which you're not so sure.

     These things we're doing can't be right
     These deeds committed in the dark of night
     We'd better stop and answer the calls
     From the Other Side, stop writing on their walls.

     These things we're saying can't be true
     These things we're writing can't be what we want to do
     We'd better stop and listen to the calls
     From the people on the Other Side, and read the writing on the walls.


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Mosh

Bodies smashing
Drums are crashing
Throw my arms out 
Thrust my body
Shove each other
Feel the anger

Let loose
Lose your shoes
Cry out your protest
Getting punched
Getting trampled
Feel the pain

Guitar wailing
Body sailing
Screaming people
Dancing madly 
On a natural high
Feel the adrenaline


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Counterpole

My rhymes are timeless while this time is lifeless
why is life this kind less, reminds me that this
mind is spineless ready to tip and quit, as
my lies become mindless and get swollen shut
and Stuck up inside my sinus
Drivin in my prime but with no optimus
Victim to the flip-side of the Midas
Running through my blood like a virus
The sun makes my skin mundane
rubbin on ben gay but get arthritis
touch spermicide and converts to hepatitis
I hit the plus sign but it just musters up a minus
I'm seen sucking my thumb like the peanut's Linus
I run and duck when I hear the sirens cause
I abducted the president's Nike air pumps
now air force one is trying to find us
I'm at my desk obsessin about success but
This whole time its been right behind us


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Think What I Think

Somedays I wish I didnt
Think what I think,
These patterns of thought,
Have me in the sink,
Then bring me to the top,
To put me back in my seat

Somedays I wish I didnt
Believe what I believe,
So I could,
Give into my passion to please,
Dive into my sinful desires,
and have control of my destiny

Everyday, I come to realize at night
With my eyes wide,
That my flesh I dont have to Fight,
Because Christ runs my life,
And he takes the boulders off my shoulders,
I am the gun and he is the holder,
I am the clay and he is the molder,
And his grace is sweeter every moment I grow older


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come home (second verse)

Wifey don't like the way I spend my time
I'm in the streets more than speed bumps and traffic signs

every time I dip she giving me lip
but to find these chips I got to grind like the Clipse

She's always crying she wants some quality time
she's always crying she wants me out of the grind

she sees me dyeing I probably will
a drop out with no marketable skill

so I place all my hopes and dreams 
on the c.r.e.a.m generating by what makes them fiend

now I rarely lay my head where I reside
hustle hard for my unborn seed and I

oops made the wrong move now I'm doing time
for selling slices of the devil's pie

now I make collect calls on the phone 
she tells me that she needs me It's hard to carry on
I tell her keep her head up stay strong 
but she don't want to raise this baby on her own

she cried this ain't the life that I deserve
It's hard, I'm tired from work, this baby working my nerves
and the stress brings the chest pains
now days I'm less sane
last night I could not sleep praying that death came

and I feel the heart in her tone
the pain it resonates and penetrates to the bone
I want to reach out to touch but it's just a telephone
she never in her life felt so alone


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Weep and a Moan

Watching the sequence of sound coming out of your mouth...
But the screaming is too loud.
I can speak,
But my brain doesn't want to.

I closed the door.
Silence called for me.
Should I cry or should I run after her?

What have I done to you?
but love you uncontrollably.

Shes then left speechless.
It looks like shes out of breath,
but really I broke her.

She was fragile.
So innocent.

Run, Just run.
A gun raised..
up to her mouth.
And a taint on her heart.


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Thoughts That Think

Was thinking long and hard about giving up writing.
Convinced myself that I'm a quitter and there's no sense in fighting
To keep the only thing that kept me far from the edge
But I can't pretend.
Pretend that it isn't my Fortress of Solitude 
That's honoured me with solemn servitude.
That it hasn't helped put me to rest, thought and mind,
By accepting the past on paper and keeping it close behind. 

I was thinking logically and analytically 
Because it seems to be the only thing I'm good at. 
Thinking about everything I've seen and everyone I've fought to keep,
They're all gone now, only to be found in memories. 
They say Poets and Artists are the architects of Heaven
And only they know it's the hardest when no one buys what they're selling. 
No one wants to listen and no one wants to see 
Because everyone's so sure of what you're supposed to be. 

But what are you supposed to do when you've dedicated your life to understanding?
When you can empathize with your brother, but your own sight you can't stand it. 
When you feel that there's a missing piece and so the wholes hurting.
Swim out long past the reef and any safety that you keep to do some soul searching.
Days and months fighting fears, love and tears, digging the hard soil.
Only to find that missing piece you desperately seek is hidden deep beneath. 
When you've found the straw that broke the Camels back
Only to find there's a million more underneath.

What are you supposed to do when you follow the chains
Long past the plains in hopes to break the link.
Kill the ties that bind and have held you for so long,
Only to find there is no ball, you were free all along.
And in your days of darkness with no life to sip or sup
All the hands around your back were never meant to keep you up
And all of those who have kept you down will fight to keep you dancing to their beat.
Any impenetrable man once stabbed in the heart, will crumble with defeat.


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Sweet Seduction

[Verse 1]

My blood is ice inside your veins
Crawling underneath my skin
The price we pay to earn that name
The battle that we never win
Falling faster far below
Further into darkest depths
The kiss of death that you bestow
The poison that is on your…lips

[Chorus]

Sweet seduction
Drug addiction
Words that only he can mend
Sweet seduction
My affliction
Rise to only meet the end

[Verse 2-change]

Your thoughts they plant a grave in me
Like missiles shooting through the skies
The pain you watch but never see
Crystals falling from my eyes
Your words they feel like razor blades
Your touch like acid on the skin
Your love this agonizing pain
The battle that I’ll never…win

[Chorus]

[Breakthrough]
Swallowed up by
Sounds of screaming
Asking questions
Without meaning
Fall away…
FADE AWAY!!!!

[Chorus]
Sweet seduction
Drug addiction
Words that only he can mend
Your destruction
My affliction
Rise to only meet the end

The end…


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Mouldy Inquiry

What suggestive simile has mould,
Its choice of residence could not be sweeter planned;
Such a perfect timed embrace,
Embedded in the papers flattering embroidery -
So fitting of analogy.
Growing down the wall each day,
A sickly, ill debauchery; 
but yet, it still amazes me.
How it painted such a life-like portrait,
How deliberate it seems to be.
So what of it’s reflective study
Should I now consider?
What of your depiction
Mould -
What are you trying to tell me?


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Every Time

Every time our eyes meet
I’m amazed at what I see
I understand what love is
When you're looking back at me

Every time I think of you
I cannot help but smile
With hope you’re mine forever more
And not just for a while

Every time you hold me
It's so hard to let you go
Being in your arms
The safest place I’ll ever know

Every time you touch me
I feel it deep inside
You light my flame within
You see the love I cannot hide

Every time I leave you 
There’s a pain inside so real
An empty space inside my heart
That only you can fill

Every time I doubt
Together we will be one day
I think of you and realize
Our love will find a way..


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Bruises

Bruises
By: IzaDonna

Surrounded by darkness
Emotions hidden away
Bruises disguised with smiles
Never would think it
That my past still haunts me
The scars still completely cover me
I hide them so you can't see
I'm really not at all okay

Chorus
The bottles eases the pain
The dust numbs the ache
Can I ever just forgive?
Instead up building up this hate
I just want to find peace
I want my smile to be real
But its hard to do so
When I can no longer seem to feel

Frightening dreams keep me awake
Forever replaying in my mind
Life seems to be so much longer
This winding road so much harder
Can I just get a release
Beat these inner demons and be free
Or do I have to be forever cursed
With the ghosts of the past

Chorus

I look up at the stars
And close my eyes tight
Its time for last good-byes
Its time to end this tonight
I take one last chug
And fall to the ground
Take one last gasp
And then no longer make a sound

Chorus

I'm finally okay


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EYE Don't See -Part 3-

My eyes
Witness your departure
My eyes
Are dripping with hopelessness…
My eyes start to blur…
Melancholy put me under pressure…
Is there a cure to my disease? 

You don’t see
The shards of hope that once brought us back together
Just let me search for safety
I’m strong enough to realize that I’m no longer
The weakest prey out there…

And I’m left in my solitude…
Do you hear me whimpering like a distraught puppy left on the train tracks?

I’m close to my demise…save me and take me home

Nourish me…and be my beloved friend

Will this friendship last forever?

Hopefully it has no end

Will this cheerful moment help us get along with each other?

Because of you…I feel the need to run 
I keep an eye on you – I worry that you’ll hurt yourself again
Because of you…My freedom is nearly gone
I don’t wanna be caught off guard again
Because of you…EYE can’t picture a solution for our vexing dilemma 
Because of you…eye can’t focus on my long-term goal 

And I’m left in my solitude…
Do you sense that I’m giving in to failure? 
And I’m close to my demise…
Only to find myself disappear…I can’t endure 
The hardships that you place upon me…
Could you boost up my confidence to overcome 
My atrocious anxiety? 

I’m just waiting for some sun
To keep me in good hands…
To strengthen me with perseverance …
I’m just waiting until His son
Leads the world outtah Egypt and reveals to us…
His radiance…His dazzling Kingdom – 
Vibrant with glee

Your undying sympathy dawns upon us
I’m overflowing with indescribable joy  
You’re a candle in the night…
We meet eye to eye…
What a sight…what a precious sight


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Early Morning Rain

The early morning rain hides the tears in my eyes With an emptiness in my heart, I'm remembering your lies I'm a long way from home, but the distance doesn't ease this aching in my heart and wind blowing through the trees. Travelling down this rocky road, I'm tired and alone. How I wish my broken heart could find its way back home. Bright is the sun and dark is the night, but I'm stuck in the middle, and, oh, nothing feels right. With everything to lose and nothing to gain, my tears fall to the ground, like the early morning rain. Oh, the sun never shines in the early morning rain. In the morning sun, he wakes with another girl, not me. The dawn's light shines on them, but clouds dim my rocky seas. If he would welcome me home, I'd forgive, let go of this pain. So I'll start the long journey home in the early morning rain. Lord, help me find my way through the early morning rain. By Rhonda Johnson-Saunders, April 12, 2012 for Write me a Lightfoot Poem (Francine Roberts) * Gordon Lightfoot song, "Early Morning Rain"


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The Dark Half


The Dark Half…

Demons trapped inside of me
Released for the world to see
Awakened from their life-long slumber
At last they’ve been set free
My inner rage is the fire that fuels me
My anger seethes from every pore
No longer caged, my desire will rule me
A bloodlust to even the score

I am only half the monster being a man has made me
The other half is like a forgotten dream
Half the monster being a man has made me
The dark half that you now see…

I feel a rage like I’ve never felt before
To inflict pain in a way that cannot be forgotten
Years of suffering over, ended once and for all
Laid to rest with the bodies of those I’ll leave for dead
Call my name and in my own grave you’ll find me
Spark to flame I will rise as you are falling
I can’t explain, not in words but in violent actions
Uncontrolled, exacting vengeance while slowly killing myself

I am only half the monster that being a man has made me
The other half is a forgotten dream
Half the monster being a man has made me
The dark half that you now see…

…In a reflection of the world around me,
I have become all that I have seen,
At times, that which I most despise…
The dark half that lives in me.


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Forever

This is a song we worked on a while back - my friend Ashly and I. It's actually an a cappella piece. Some words I have forgotten. Enjoy!
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Break me
Take me away
From here
Leave me
Here in this place
Forever

Now I'm alone and there's nowhere to hide
These scars are hidden deep inside
The shadows consume me
Watch me die
Forever

Wake me
Out of this dream
That's real
Kill me
Lost in this pain
I can't feel


Now I'm alone and there's nowhere to hide
These scars are hidden deep inside
The shadows consume me
Watch me die
Forever

Clutch in this pain
Nothing matters anymore
Feeling forever 
Alone

Leave me here in this place 
Forever


Now I'm alone and there's nowhere to hide
These scars are hidden deep inside
The shadows consume me
Watch me die
Forever x2


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Burned

It’s six pm
Dinner’s in the oven
Table set for two
One of us, here waiting
But that is nothing new
We agreed to have this evening
You got held up there again
Don’t like the way this’ going
Is this coming to an end

Smoke is rising to the ceiling
It’s now seeping out the doors
Both dinner and I are burning
We can’t take this anymore
The fire in the oven
Is the same that’s in my heart
Too bad you won’t be home tonight
To see we’ve come apart

Damn my waiting and your lies
I really don’t know what to say
Hopefully when you see the house
You’ll know that I too burned away
Because… I always get burned this way

It’s six fifteen
The dinner’s still burning
Smoke fills the air
I’m ready to run
Cause it seems you don’t care
Supposed to be here at five
It’s now six fifteen
Not a word or a call
Not a text or anything

Damn my waiting and your lies
I really don’t know what to say
Hopefully when you see the house
You’ll know that I too burned away
Because… I always get burned this way

Smoke is rising to the ceiling
It’s now seeping out the doors
Both dinner and I are burning
We can’t take this anymore
The fire in the oven
Is the same that’s in my heart
Too bad you won’t be home tonight
To see we’ve come apart


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Return To Dust

After the Casket Falls
After your soul is called
After your final breathe is drawn
I'll meet you again

After the Casket Falls
After your soul is called
After your final breathe is drawn
I'll meet you again

After the Casket Falls
After your soul is called
After your final breathe is drawn
I'll meet you again

I'll See your face again
I swear it
No matter how far away they take you from me
Fading, Going Away, Don't be so afraid
Death is a Dream


The Cross Will Be lighter
Whisper the words
so sacred, so somber

After the Casket Falls
After your soul is called
After your final breathe is drawn
I'll meet you again

After the Casket Falls
After your soul is called
After your final breathe is drawn
I'll meet you again

After the Casket Falls
After your soul is called
After your final breathe is drawn
I'll meet you again

A Fallen Angel looms over the lifeless stone
What Happened here must be true
I must live this life without you

Breaking the Silence
She began to Weep
The Epitaph ceasing to know 
We all must Return To Dust

After the Casket Falls
After your soul is called
After your final breathe is drawn
I'll meet you again

After the Casket Falls
After your soul is called
After your final breathe is drawn
I'll meet you again

After the Casket Falls
After your soul is called
After your final breathe is drawn
I'll meet you again

The solitude is euphoric as an illusional clock
Of argentine fears swallow the last soul
Goodnight black rose of eternity
Goodnight dearest gothic phantom
Tonight The Earth consumes me




**Special Thanks To My Writing Partner Cayla Carr**


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What If Tomorrow Never Comes

I recall now the days when forever seemed but a short time The visits to the hospital, brought sad images to your mind She lay on a bed, cords all around her, no hair upon her head The cancer drove us crazy with worry tears and fright She was only a baby, I didn't get the chance to say goodbye Farewell until we meet again where you'll be waiting... waiting for tomorrow to come again. What if tomorrow never comes? How will I face the rising sun, when the moon is the only thing I can see? I need her here with me... The only loss I've ever known The only time that I've experienced this kind of sorrow... So what if tomorrow never comes? What if tomorrow never comes. And now I lie here thinking it through, memories flash through my head, memories of you Moments of a bittersweet time Reminiscing the days when you were mine The days when you were alive The tears come back to my eyes I feel the need to cry but nothing slides out I need to scream and shout, My emotions pour out as one, silently So what if tomorrow never comes? Reality in death is so hard to accept, I need my tomorrow to come... What if it never does? What if tomorrow never comes? How will I face the rising sun, when the moon is the only thing I can see? I need her here with me... The only loss I've ever known The only time that I've experienced this kind of sorrow... So what if tomorrow never comes? What if tomorrow never comes. Will tomorrow ever come? I just want to be awake when the moon becomes the sun I'm waiting here for you, in the darkness of the night. I wait still for you, forever the images will haunt my mind Tomorrow will come I'll soon be alright Tomorrow will come... Tomorrow has come... I can now see the sun.


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Lunar Love

Can this ever stop The world is blacked by the lunar love All the tides have gone undone The seas beckon us with their rage Will they ever calm The mist covers our sight The storm comes Her eyes are the color of dyed blue With her raven hair and crimson lips She sleeps quietly waiting for the innocence of me But I've already put her in vain And tossed her aside I've already condoned my belovéd The desire was so much I couldn't face it In the eyes Forgetting the shame is just a Another winless game Take me away from this Take me away from the Lunar Love The moonbeams light up my pale face I don't want to be seen Banished from this world I'll ever be Take me away from this Take me away from the Lunar Love I cry but the sun cant hear Do I exist? This eclipse took over Now I'm left to face it all Left in the dark where can we go Lunar love is what we'll be Lunar love is what we have Fly away from the scene The tides are blind from the madness Even to the mountains they'll kiss The storm is too much The desire was so much I couldn't face it In the eyes Forgetting the shame is just a Another winless game Take me away from this Take me away from the Lunar Love Lunar love is what we'll be Lunar love is what we have The moonbeams light up my pale face I don't want to be seen Banished from this world I'll ever be Take me away from this Take me away from the Lunar Love The ghosts are tangled in my dreams They play with what was meant to be forgotten But I know there must be a away To find the closure But so lost are we So lost I've been Save yourself from the downfall How close are we to the edge This is what the rage has done This is what the sin has done The desire was so much I couldn't face it In the eyes Forgetting the shame is just a Another winless game Take me away from this Take me away from the Lunar Love The moonbeams light up my pale face I don't want to be seen Banished from this world I'll ever be Take me away from this Take me away from the Lunar Love Lunar love is what we'll be Lunar love is what we have Forgetting the shame is just a Another winless game


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Just Let It Go. . .

Let go

I'll bring you closer

Right now

I'll hold on tightly

Let go

We're going no where

Somewhere

And aren't over

Harder times like these!

Growing up on the streets!

Harder times like these!

I'll put you back on your feet!

And I fall to the ground with my teardrops

And I get lost everytime my heart stops

This love this      is burning me away


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Draconian I

[The Cypress Is In Bloom]
The cypress is in bloom
I see the evil, the efflorescence of decadent doom
Eloigning, with thy clandestines of the Dead September's reign
My belovéd Penelope, abscond from the coven so deep, the glades of misery
We must face her in the grove, for arcany, the path we must take
She's in my mind, vaporously,
Lauding with my, dangers and fears
Lie, with ephermelcy's broken truths
Leading me go Cypress, Marigold
Immortally, willows, forevermore
Forevermore

[To Question; To Know]
My argentine silence, your only condonicy 
Ends with such eath
The Mockingbird in me--died
Resting in one ounce, an abundance of shame
With an infinity of joy
Exiled, by the ones, who give all, names
My breath starves for only more
The façade, the veil, the austerity dims with Aquarianlore 
She falls to her knees, why for?
Celandine she will be
Celandine is she

[Bead]
The lair within, free from their causalities of their sins
Shadowy primroses begin to grow, the season will never end
In there I dream to be like you, violet blue, White Flower of Lisieux,
La Fleur Blanche du Lisieux,
So Celandine are you
Celandine are you

[Draconian]
Draconian--Reach for the shadows within
Draconian--Break from The Fallen's Sin
Draconian--Their Empirical lies, only die
Draconian--Reach The Shadows Within


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I'm All That's Keeping You Alive

Another a cappella song my friend and I made a long time ago...

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I wish I can save you
But I can't even save myself
You beg me for mercy but mercy's empty inside
I'm Stronger Again
And you're giving in
To all of this pain that I am inflicting upon you
I am...

The whispers in the night
The heart that's pounding in your head
The darkness over light
The monster underneath your bed
The death that waits for you
Lingering behind every door
I'm that voice deep inside
I'm all that's keeping you alive

I wish I can spare you
Your voice faded slowly, now you can't breathe 
You beg me for mercy 
But darling I am empty
The life's dying out
And you're crying out 
To stop all this pain that I am inflicting upon you
I am...

The whispers in the night
The heart that's pounding in your head
The darkness over light
The monster underneath your bed
The death that waits for you
Lingering behind every door
I'm that voice deep inside
I'm all that's keeping you alive

Please remember:
I Still Love You
This isn't me but
Someone else...

The whispers in the night
The heart that's pounding in your head
The darkness over light
The monster underneath your bed

The one who's there for you
The one who catches all your tears
I'm that voice deep inside
I'm all that's keeping you alive






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My TRUTHS AND THOUGHTS II

I strolled through my old stomping grounds
saw a childhood friend gave him a hug and a pound
over two beers we sat down

dam its been so long since we crossed paths
flashbacks they brought both tears and laughs
we poured beer on the grass
for our peers that passed

that's the way we show sorrow
teardrops from a bottle
it's so hard  to say goodbye  to yesterday but ironically for some
its even worse to face tomorrow

when it's filled  with hopelessness and dreams deferred
at times the line between good and bad became blurred

life moves in cycles I observe this truth
watching these young cats re-enact scenes from my youth

as the clash  with the system
and dare the world to dis them
until they go to prison 
or become homicide victims

i borrow some ears trying to insert something healthy
but I recognize that look.
its the same one I use to give the ones that  tried to tell me

I just wouldn't listen
now he's given me that same resistance
its a shame that ignorance

makes us flee from knowledge
wont accept WhATS harmless
content when we're acting moronic
or spewing garbage

isn't it ironic we crave money to save us
in actuality its the very thing that enslaves us
its like the streets are the new plantation
a generation lost produces lost generations

with lack of love and over abundance of anger
causes agents of death to leap from barrels once released from chambers
has the worl gone crazy
mother in the church screaming thats my baby lord take me

makes we wanna holler,kick or yell or something
cause they don't understand I'm simply trying to tell them something


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Aeonia part 1

AEONIA-
   AEONI-
      AEON-

Vestal purity, all men succumb- the Virgin whose eyes stare silver beams- crystallizing his very soul. He,  and all who gaze upon she.

   Aeonia writhes behind fallen lids, unable to awake. Betrayal of her psyche-. Silk whispers upon her sweat soaked skin. 1000 nights have come and gone as she still writhes,  unable to awaken.

   Her **** swallows the evil the world has delighted in - all betrayal, lies and sin.

Dripping from between her great legs are left the dregs of green heat,
jealous heat that slides down and puddles on the floor.

   The vacuousness of her ****  has left no good...
fear, hatred and rage are ****ed inside of her... pounded into her birthing, ever birthing animosities.

   Sludgy sperm of bastards evil- threaten to fertilize her eggs. Gray fetuses passing through her pose the question- "Why?"

   She dares not answer, for to open her mouth would invite flies to lay their maggot eggs upon her very tongue...
Still she cannot- dare not open her eyes...not yet.

   Screams! tortured hyena throes of Thorazine echo in her mind.
   Do Not Open Your Eyes!
   Aeonia- and her aeons!
   Ever lay bare and never to see, never to move.
   Aeonia! Why have the gods punished you? Fair one of the crystalline silver eyes?
    
   Time immemorial, leperous tongue dies piece by piece, inch by inch until nay but a smarted stub exists.
Who hears you anyways? No one to hear your cries whore!
   Whore of all women, shall we call you Eve?
   Cocks of man and gods and kings all rape your syphallic cave-
one by one.
   Whore! You are blamed! Oh Aeonia, for misbegotten deeds by every wife, woman and queen!
   Succubi, WITCH! A potion of cat claws and rat maws you brewed, from Adam to the last man standing, you are to be blamed! For his infidelity, his disease, his shame!
   
  


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Mercy Road

-Kind of an almost forgotten song in my files... written in middle school and edited in 9th or 10th grade- can't remember. First time writing a song for the guitar. It was brutal! xD -

There’s something sick inside these walls
I gotta get away from here!
These empty people lead me nowhere
I hope you hear me when I call
Cause I won’t waste another year
And you know no one else will care when
I’m gone

As the faces leave my mind
It’s only you that I will find
Until the traces are left for dead
All the heartache left behind
I’ll face this world alone
I’ll take the only path I know
Your heart was my abode
And now I take the Mercy Road

Mercy Road…Mercy Road…

So you left me for the world
When there was nothing left of me
And every day is getting harder
I hope you’re happy in this state
Cause I sure as hell am not
Before you leave and turn away
Watch me rot

As the faces leave my mind
It’s only you that I will find
Until the traces are left for dead
All the heartache left behind
I’ll face this world alone
I’ll take the only path I know
Your heart was my abode
And now I take the Mercy Road

Mercy Road…Mercy Road

Driving down the Mercy Road
It’s the only path I know
You’re gone, and now I hate this way
Cause now I drive it all alone


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Litany of Decay

This is for Litany of Decay

All hope tonight is just a void
Th cure was lost so long ago
But I still dream you will lie  next to me
Though you gave up on me so long ago

I miss the way the pain made me forget
I miss the way the pain made me Lose all misery

All hope tonight is just a void
Th cure was lost so long ago
But I still dream you will lie  next to me
Though you gave up on me so long ago

I miss the way the pain made me forget
I miss the way the pain made me Lose all misery

All hope tonight is just a void
Th cure was lost so long ago
But I still dream you will lie  next to me
Though you gave up on me so long ago

I miss the way the pain made me forget
I miss the way the pain made me Lose all misery

Your love was never meant for me
Nothing I was when you met me
Nothing I was when you left me
Nothing I am as I destroy myself

I must Live to face another day
To sing this damned litany of decay
My heart beckons for the grave
But there is no escape
So I sing this litany of decay
Don't mind me as I fade

Dance with me under the light of the moon
And sing to about my doom
Serenade me with an epitaph 
So I might feel what it's like to truly die

I see your face, it takes all the pain away
But you suddenly fade into the darkest of shade

Your love was never meant for me
Nothing I was when you met me
Nothing I was when you left me
Nothing I am as I destroy myself

I must Live to face another day
To sing this damned litany of decay
My heart beckons for the grave
But there is no escape
So I sing this litany of decay
Don't mind me as I fade

Living is suffering
Homicidal with you
Suicidal without you
I understand if you give up on me

The burden will fall
Today I might, today I may
Set you free, from me 

Your love was never meant for me
Nothing I was when you met me
Nothing I was when you left me
Nothing I am as I destroy myself

I must Live to face another day
To sing this damned litany of decay
My heart beckons for the grave
But there is no escape
So I sing this litany of decay
Don't mind me as I fade


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Toxic Logic

take my soul and crush it... like you do... every day... You've never looked so beautiful as your figure walks away the sad screech of my broken heart as it ceases to play you took me along for the ride of a lifetime, only to throw me away, every single day, and it is a crime, without reason or rhyme, to push me along with your toxic logic,  abandoning me again with an afflicted soul,  and my heart doesn't know that it is your toxic logic that twists me up inside brought on by your reign, and I can't recall my name Once again in my little hell, all by myself, my very essence betrayed, is there any more to tell? Lie after lie has fooled me, but now I'm done But I still love you, so my pain is far from done. You think that I'm inferior to children, that you can't talk to me, though I've been here since day one, why can't you see? that my existence is for you, and no one else,  and the sickest bit of it puts me in a rage... and i try to turn the page...  But I'm trapped in your toxic logic,  abandoning me again with an afflicted soul,  and my heart doesn't know that it is your toxic logic that's killing me inside brought on by your reign, overwhelmed by pain I see the world in black and white, no color left for me, I gaze across the room, and what do I see? I see yet another soul about to be ensnared, by this predator, but I simply don't care. I lost a part of me, and it used to let me love, But it has been snatched from me by this uncaring troll, and here I am, an empty vessel of defeat. I simply don't know, I truly have been beat. But as I retreat... from anger flows heat... Seared by your toxic logic, abandoning me again with an afflicted soul, and my heart doesn't know that it is your toxic logic that branded me inside brought on by your reign... damaged by pain... The last tether to you broke, I'm free at last. an empty part inside remains, holding me fast. I sink to my knees as the vacuum in my soul starts to shrink, loving you brought me to insanity's brink. I slowly raise my head... and gaze ahead... No longer captive to your toxic logic, that abandoned me with an empty soul, and my heart now knows that it was your toxic logic that tortured me inside under your maniacal reign... which gave me nothing but pain…


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Judgment day

Judgment day

In thinking about that dreadful day of judgment
I wonder if it’s really like they say
Will it come down like a jagged fork of lightning?
Destroying everything that’s in its way
Is judgment day the way they say?
Is judgment day the way they say?

When the stormy weather comes
Just watch the way the river runs
Flowing fast to reach the blessed sea
Trusting in its fate, its destiny
Is judgment day the way they say?
Is judgment day the way they say?

Is judgment day a piece of power play
To stop the flow of love within each day
Does the fire await in the end
Well even if it does
You can just relax, my friend.

This game belongs to you, it is your treasure
Get lost in it, eternity is here
When pain and pleasure melt, the one, the other
And everything it seems so very clear
Is judgment day the way they say?
Is judgment day the way they say?

Written in 1990.


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Into The Blue

A place where I can go to let down my hair
Become that of a still smooth sleeping bear
Gone with the wind is my worries and cares
Into beautiful eyes, where mine can stare

As each grain of sand slips through my hand
I recall each time that I held your hand
The way you made me feel like a man
This is the place where I can escape,
From Lifes binding plans 


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Invisible Monsters

The shadows in my dream
Burning through the leaves
Shadows so disturbed
They break me from the good that I have shared

Scraping through the day
The darkness likes to play
Livelihood now gone
Leaving every place where I belonged

Tear me inside out
The shadow starts to shout
Betraying all I need
I pray for strength to lift me off my knees

Darkness in the air
Enveloping my care
Replacing all I say
With quiet paintings whispering this pain

Underneath these screams
My shadow and my dream
Both would claim my soul
But either way the world would eat me whole


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Siren's Song

She’s alone under beach lights, she’s screaming at air
wishing someone would notice, could anyone hear,
feel the anguish, the loss, losing battle of one?
She’s at war with the world and she’s comming undone.
‘It’s all wrong,’ left her lips, ‘it’s alright,’ said the tides,
‘sometimes we all need a safe place to hide,
to wait inside shadows, return with new light
cause we change and we change till the patterns are right.’
‘But this pounding resounding inside of my head,
I fear is the only thing tangible left.
I can hear it and feel it consuming my head,
eats me up from the inside, lays nothing to rest.’
But the water just turned and it crashed upon rocks,
became angry, determined, climbed onto the dock,
said, ‘Listen to me, I am old and I am wise,
what reason have I to fill you with lies?
I’m a part of your body, a piece of your world,
have I not kept you living since you were a girl?’
But her feet kept on forward at a steady pace
“I’m sick and I'm tired, I'm leaving this place.
I can wait no longer for the turning of time.
I'm the only one left and I’ve been left behind.”
‘But they’re here! Someone’s coming! It won’t be long yet.”
but her mind was as certain as certain could get
and the rushing of water had drown out the sound
as the pounding inside became heavy and loud
and the water, though angry, then grew very still
whispered ‘There is nothing if nothing is fueling a will.
I cannot instill a desire to live, eventual peace is all I could give.’
So she sank and she sang all the air from her lungs,
she breathed in the waves awaited silence to come.
“As I have in you, you may now flow through me,”
and the tides changed again as they dragged her to sea.


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Love Yourself First (Edited Version)

(Verse 1)
Calling to you from out of time
Just wanted to say
So sorry for the younger days
All of the mistreatments

(Verse 2)
Things I did without disgrace
Knowing now I was so wrong
Learning to understand many mistakes
A beating heart without trust

(Hook)
Before insecurities rap around tight
Become friends with yourself
Love yourself first

Before a first impression shows your epic life
Become friends with yourself
Love yourself first

Before confidence disappears into a shadowy night
Become friends with yourself
Love yourself first

(Verse 3
Tenderly your heart to me 
Carelessly I set you free
Anger and guilt followed me
My heart has been swimming frantically

(Verse 4)
When love comes to stay
Just like a tool it too has a rule
Before dreams slip away
So many times asking why

(Hook)
Before insecurities rap around tight
Become friends with yourself
Love yourself first

Before a first impression shows your epic life
Become friends with yourself
Love yourself first

Before confidence disappears into a shadowy night
Become friends with yourself
Love yourself first
Love yourself
Love yourself
Love yourself first


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Save Me From Desperation

It's been so long since I could Feel you, Hold You I'm wondering if it was Just an Illusion For love For me could Not be real Nobody could Love over The Borderline, not even I So if you ask you'll know why I silently began to cry I need you here, to hold me I'm so scared without You I just want to Sleep forever Never stray away far Save me From Desperation Never Say It wasn't meant to be I can't take this lie You Kill me With this So much I hurt so much inside these words burn as I cry This life is destroyed without you The joy that comes is the Joy of the Empty The despair I'm prone to maynever wilt I way You could have been there You could have saved me but no you left I was here to stay In the Dark When the razor called me back You could have been my light throughout the eternal black My Soul Has yearned for but where are you Please come back to me I desire just a one word of comfort just from you, only from you Tell me this is just a Lie Just a Hallucination from my Mind I'm suffering I'm Dying I Need you I'm begging just for one word please save me from Desperation I'm the Petal You're the Wind Without You I can never go Far You're not here I'm now stranded alone In the plagued island of my mind only if you were here only If you here You could have Saved Me From Desperation


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NIGHTMARES & WHISKEY

In a room stark & white 
A nightmare he will ride tonight 
Twisted sheets in a rider's grip 
as he settles in for that fateful trip 
silently he screams & shouts 
This time there'll be no turn out 
The final clash of beast & man 
In the mind's arena plays out again 
Once was a time he was among the best 
Until that Brahma stepped on his chest 
Now he's locked in a ride he can't quit 
as his wife & his family at his bedside sit 
How he longs to be up & out of this bed 
Away from the demons in his head 
But you can't drown a nightmare in morphine 
And every night he rigs up again 

In a room stark & white 
She'll replay the ride tonight 
"Just one more ride & I'm done 
I've got to help raise our son" 
He'd said as he climbed in the chute 
and straddled that Brahma brute 
With a nod & a prayer, he marked out 
His last would be his best, no doubt 
Then, with a sudden twist & a flash of horn 
The cowboy from his seat was torn 
She watched him fall & struggle to rise 
Numb to the crowd's horrified cries 
Now she sits here each night without rest 
Cradling their baby boy close to her chest 
How she longs to have him hold her near 
Later, she reaches for the bottle to chase the fear 
But you can't drown a nightmare in whiskey 
And every night she rigs up again 

Under the arena's bright lights 
He'll dance with a nightmare tonight 
Wearing a greasepaint smile to hide the pain 
He plays out that fateful ride again 
One step out of rhythm & rhyme 
He'd lost the race against Brahma & time 
Word's haunt him still of a Cowboy's last request 
After that Brahma had stomped on his chest "Tell Katie I love her & I'm sorry for this" 
"If I'd listened to her, I'd not be in this mess" 
"You & the boys take care of her & my son" 
"I hear the chopper landing, guess this ride is done" 
How he wishes he could run that race once more 
The memory pushes him hard, it won't be ignored 
But you can't mask a nightmare with greasepaint 
And every night he rigs up again 

A wild Bullrider, loved one or clown 
no matter the poison the memory won't drown 
Nightmares, whiskey, greasepaint or morphine 
Can't kill the demons that ride through your dreams


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All Along the Watchtower Re-Visited for 9-11

"There must be some kinda way to find out here"
Said the seeker to the stealer
"There's too much confusion
I'm struggling to be the reveal"

"Conglomerate men, they drink my wine
Politicians dig my earth
None will level on the line
Because none of them are worth it" hey

"There is reason to get excited"
The seeker, he kindly spoke
"There are many here among us
Who feel our governments a joke"

"Now you and I, we've lived through this
And this is not our fate
So let us not talk falsely now
The hour is getting late", hey

Hey

All along the watchtower
Liars kept the view
While all the women came and went
Barefoot servants too

Outside in the cold distance
The C.I.A. did growl
Two riders were approaching
And the wind began to howl, hey

All along the watchtower
All along the watchtower

All along the watchtower on that tragic September day
We need some investigation, for someones has to pay
Now you and I, we've lived through this, and this is not our fate
So let us not talk falsely now, before this generations to late

We will always remember, and remember who we lost that day
We need some investigation, for someone has to pay
All along the watchtower, a nation in mournful cries
We are not so blind, it's amazing what you can see when you close your eyes

All along the watchtower
All along the watchtower




James, we lost you in Kensington, England. The Star Spangled Banner will
live long in your past. I can't say the same for some of your American so
called country people. Thank you for allowing me to gracefully use . . . .
'All Along the Watchtower' it's blatantly obvious someone was not.

To all the lost in the 9/11 tragedy, my thoughts will always be with you.


 All Along The Watchtower by Jimi Hendrix, with some lyrics changed 




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Strings

If I hold on to strings,
That tend to slip away,
Does that mean I love things,
That I know will never stay?
If I hang on to a love, 
that just holds me down,
Does that mean that my wings,
Won’t get me off the ground?
If I hold on to lies,
That I only half believe,
When I look in your eyes,
Will you look back at me?


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Until We Bleed

I'm naked
I'm numb
I'm stupid 
I'm staying

This isn't love. You use me. 
When you get home from the club or wherever you've been late at night,
You're clumsy with your hands.
Clothing seems too hard to get off.

And if Cupid's got a gun
Then he's shooting

But I can't leave. 
No matter what happens, it's too painful to go.

Lights black
Heads bang
You're my drug
We live it

We're too uncomfortable with the lights on.
I don't want to see your face-
Slurred, clueless.
Angry.
You don't want to see mine-
Helpless, confused.
Depressed.

You're drunk
You need it
Real love,
I'll give it

Everything is hazy to you.
I bet you can't feel.
But I'll love you anyways.
I always have.

So we're bound to linger on
We drink the fatal drop
And love until we bleed
Then fall apart in parts

This has gone on forever, to me.
I'll try to be like you,
To see what it feels like.
I drink the last bottle of vodka
And hold onto you.

You've wasted your times
On my heart, you've burned
And if bridges gotta fall
Then you'll fall, too

Maybe this is the part of life
That people told me about
It doesn't mean anything
It hurts you.
You grow so attached that when one piece collapses
You do too.

Doors slam
Lights black
You're gone
Come back

You leave when the ordeal is over
Because you couldn't really care less when you're sober
You don't have a reason anymore

Stay gone
Stay clean
I need you
To need me

I want you to be happy
To be the way you were before.
But I think without you,
Even though I only see you late at night,
I would be destroyed.

So we're bound to linger on
We drink the fatal drop
Then love until we bleed
Then fall apart in parts

I'm getting up to leave
The keys are for you

Now we're bound to linger on
We drink the fatal drop
Then love until we bleed
Then fall apart in parts

But I'll come back soon
I'll come back


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the unknown poem

Whether or not you fall on your own face
cannot erase what
you thought was the biggest waste
of all you've got
to now replace
and what you're without
is the love you made
with me

What you've chosen
to belong in
didn't bring back all your prose;
petals of flowers to line your doors
As anyone can see you've tripped the line
Surrender, lest you be decieved
by your design
Undo the anchor from yourself
and face the waves of your regressions


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An Escape From You

Can I stop the sobs
Am I strong enough
To escape their evil
To deny what’s real

I ask myself why God would
Stick me in this jail, my own hell
So if I get help I might not feel
My own manic episodes, this is real

Am I bleeding
Am I seeing the truth
Or is it just a way
To deny my love for you

They say 
Just pop a pill
To numb 
All that can’t heal

Can I stop the sobs
Am I strong enough
To escape their evil
To deny what’s real

Is it delaying the problem
Is it sticking a bandage
On a broken arm
Am I covering the truth
Is it an escape from you

I have no idea
If it’s the right thing to do
But all I know is
I must forget you

So I’ll take this bitter pill
And I’ll conceal my inner hell 
Cause it’s all I can do
To stop loving  you


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Your Stories

What trouble is it to you, I ask
To let me be inside myself -
To think     To wait
To concentrate
On my worries?

What cause to doubt do I create
By not telling you this one thing
That is mine..
It is mine
I assure you.

Why do you push to hear what you loathe to hear?
Where bursting thoughts fall on deaf ears?

What of my thoughts, I ask you please?
Do my thoughts not belong to me?

In tones I hesitate to call music
You elaborate my evil scheme
Before I even know it
You do
Assume.

I won’t reveal my tiny thought
To you who so covets it
What torture
Oh what punishment
For you.

Go ahead and wish it on me
You won’t get inside my head
Where you will twist
And turn
Your stories.


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Just thinking

Just thinking

I’m sitting, and I’m
thinking
About the way life
be
I have earned my
share of karma
I have caused some
misery
I fought a war in
Asia
And I’ve seen some
good folk die
And now at almost
sixty five
I watch life pass me
by.

It seems the worlds
gone crazy
Too much push with
nothing gained
With ambition always
winning
And causing so much
pain
With strokes, cancer
and heart attacks
Affecting more and
more
And every where one
looks, it seems
There’s another
bloody war.

You know, It’s just
ain’t right
All these burdens
caused by man
The world is going
crazy
Better stop it while
we can.

I’ve been poisoned
by my country
Such sweet democracy
Now my body breaks
on open
That’s just the way
things be
But it seems I’ve
suffered all in vain
Cause, those leaders
never learn
They’re leading us
straight into Hell
Where all of us will
burn.

January 2008.


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My Heart Belongs To You

Another night surrounds me 
In this God forsaken place
Deafened by the silence
As tears roll down my face

All we were together
I never dreamed I’d go
From being someone who you loved
To who you used to know

Voices ring inside my head
Desperate to be heard
Scream out in the darkness, but
I never hear a word

Wasting yet another day
Living in the past
I know I have no future
While I hide behind this mask

Staring at the telephone
Still waiting for your call
I’d rather have you hurting me
Than not have you at all

I only pray that someday soon
You will finally see
That while my heart belongs to you 
Yours still belongs to me...


By Raina Hutchins



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Stolen Light

Blurry dreams that can’t replace
The darkest nightmares of your face
Another dying word untold
Replaced by fear in hateful mould

The lustful way I burned my skin
Upon the alter of your sins
The gazing truth that pierced my heart
The way you smiled now torn apart

And everything you ever were
The cold pretence of loving care
A black widow beneath the sheets
My poisoned soul makes you complete

Your icy touch has broken me
Draining my vitality
All that’s left in love and hate
Are deadly dreams I can’t sedate

As I crawl through all your games
My shattered mirror shares my pain
And as I look into my mind
I see your darkness in my eyes


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No Superhero

I believe in love, 
Not in you

You've hurt a lot of people
That's something no superhero would do

Wimpy attempts prove one thing
You're desire for my love has no honesty

Did your time
Escaped your grind

Whatever is left behind
A toy maker can fix and polish to shine


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THE BOW LEGGED GIRL

      THE BOW LEGGED GIRL
I took all of your tank tops and your hose and your sox,
and I put them all together in a little brown box.
I put all of your dresses and your shoes in a sack,
and I wrapped it up because I knew you're never coming back.

I took your funky records and your Playgirl magazines
and dropped them in the trash with all your green and purple jeans.
I took the clothes I bundled up and gave them away,
to the Salvation Army, it seems like yesterday.

You never told me you were leaving town,
you never told me you were leaving.
You never told me you were leaving town,
you never told me you were leaving.

I met a wino on the street, she looks just like you,
she wears a see through blouse and she walks bow legged, too.
She sings those funky songs and plays the guitar outa sight,
and she takes a bath in cheap perfume like you did every night.

She still sings about Viet Nam and love we don't show,
guess she doesn't know that Viet Nam was 40 years ago.
She's out protesting every day and carries a sign,
 and bites her toenails ev'ry night just like you chewed on mine.

You never told me you were leaving town,
you never told me you were leaving.
You never told me you were leaving town,
you never told me you were leaving.

She has a job but all she'll say, it ain't chopping wood.
And it's funny how her money lasts, and she lives so good.
She bought a brand new car one day, a green Cadillac,
and it's got a bar up in the front and mattress in the back.

I don't know why she thinks she has to work every day,
cause I never had a job I just live on my welfare pay.
She picks her nose and rolls each bugger in a sugar ball,
and just like you used to do, then she eats them all.

You never told me you were leaving town,
you never told me you were leaving.
You never told me you were leaving town,
you never told me you were leaving.

I married her in the park, it seems like yesterday,
and I don't know what I'll do if she doesn't run away.

She brought her uncle home with her from work the other night,
and her uncle and my cousin all got drunk and had a fight.

She got locked in the bedroom with the meter readers dad,
and they had a lot of fun all night, but I felt awful bad.
He took her home with him a while, but she wouldn't stay,
I wish you'd come back home to me, and run her away.

You never told me you were leaving town,
you never told me you were leaving.
You never told me you were leaving town,
you never told me you were leaving.


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Dancing in my Dreams

Held you yesterday
All alone today
Whisper what I've learned
While the pages burned

Still smell you on me
Wondering what there still could be
Buried with a smile
Tears falling all the while

Take time dancing in my dreams
To what used to be
Take time dancing in my dreams
With just you and me

Take time dancing in my dreams
To what used to be... 
Just you and me

I'm half the man I used to be

Came to me one day
Said she could replace
Fun for just a while
Soon I couldn't smile

Want what used to be
Then she tells me she loves me
Stuck with half a grin
Half stuck in a downward spin

Sweet time dancing in my dreams
In my memory
Sweet time dancing in my dreams
So peacefully

Sweet time dancing in my dreams
In my memory...
So peacefully

I'm half the man I used to be

Waste time dancing in my dreams
In this darkest dawn
Waste time dancing in my dreams
Don't want to move on

Waste time dancing in my dreams
In this darkest dawn...
I can't move on

I'm half the man I used to be


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DEAD OF NIGHT

      MY DEAD OF NIGHT
I should tell you a lie, 
it's a bad dream you're living,
but reality is knowing what you are,
you could ride on the wind,
but it won't take you very far.

I would show you the light,
it's a black candle burning,
and the hottest part is knowing what you are,
you could run from the dark,
but you will never get too far.

I could sing you to sleep,
through your lifetime of dying,
but reality is knowing what you are,
you could cry through the night,
but it won't get you very far.

You're the page I turn.
The love I need.
As candles burn,
you're the life I read.

You're my dead of night,
my candle bright,
my only love,
my dead of night.
© ron wilson aka Vee Bdosa the Doylestown Poet


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Witless Witness

Lets get down to business,
Imma bout to quit this as God as my witness,
Coming back from class, in one of my civics
The next tree I see, Sh*t I think ,I'm gonna hit this
But my stick shift did not shift, now i sit in ditches 
this is 600 dollars that I don't have to fix this
I guess I'd admit this, cause I'm done with sickness
Of the mind, see I've been, out of mine,
Half an hour, in the shower,
Praying some evil power,
Doesn't come through my spine,
Looking like Bill Cowher,
As I cower from the scour,
Like a clam becoming chowder,
I'm a coward devoured,
By all these damn thoughts,
That keep getting louder,
Burns like whiskey sour, 
So pale, I went from me being green,
To cauliflower.


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Smeared Mirror

Looking dead at me 
in this smeared mirror...
a lost man tormented; 
face red, brittle and teared

less excuses 
longer I stare
stress abuses 
my conscience with a glare

a guilty reflection alerts me,
"this prison is my fear"
longing for an escape 
and answers to why I’m still here

who have I become? 
what have I done right?
crossroads appear suddenly 
as fog fills the mirror tonight

darkness owning the room,
prefers I suffer slow
so I proceed with speed 
because it’s the only way I know

tasteless stories
flood my life’s hard bound chapters 
while this smeared mirror reflects tears
dripping from a face 
which was once filled with laughter. 


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I Am Free

I have lived my life confused
not sure what I wanna do
I've made my share of mistakes
and I have paid

But now I'm in a better place
Within my heart and upon my face
I start each day with purpose
Not afraid

As children we are bred to fear
Do as we're told and shed no tear
But rarely does the punishment
Fit the crime

Now I am parental age
Within myself a war is waged
My innocence is running
Out of time

I am free
To be whoever I want to be
But can't you see
I just wanna be me


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Gonna Chase Those Blues Away, To the tune 'Shotgun Blues'

I got worries on my mind,
And the blues weigh down my soul,
I got worries on my mind,
And the blues weigh down my soul,
Gonna chase those blues away,
Try to make myself feel whole.


Gonna forget my troubles
And hold my head high
Shrug off my demons,
The Lord knows that I’ll try,
The blues is heavy,
And it’s weighing down my soul,
I'm gonna count all my blessings,
‘Til they overflow my bowl.


I got my friends,
I know love without end, 
My babe, he stands by me,
And on that I depend,
The blues is heavy,
And it’s weighing down my soul,
But when life feels harder, 
I know I’m still in control.


Well I tried lightnin' up
When the blues pulls me down
Tried lightning up
When the blues pulls me down
It’s hard to feel blue,
When good things are all around!


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Having Lived A Life Without Ever Living A Day

Your lips are moving, mine are too
With stories and tales from all those years ago
But the more you say, the worse I feel
Because I never lived

I never lived

Tales of a romance born when you were too young to know
Of experiments made when your chances were low
Of getting caught underneath the stairs
And now all I can do is stare

At the wall, plain and white and bare
Like my life prior to that dare
That I made when I was young and
Dumb enough to think I knew it all

You've lived it all
And I've never even left my room
But I'll fake it anyway
What good has the real story done anyway?

You ask me for a story of mine
I stutter and trip over a single line
"I had no friends, I raised myself."
Is the truth that I say

The truth that I say

And God, it just tears me up that my peers had such fun
Living it up, making mistakes when they were young
I never lived a day, never took a chance
And only now I take a glance

At the wall, crawling ivy taking it
Seeds of spirit growing to fit
Between the cracks
Weathered on the face by time

Nobody wanted to see me
But I tried so hard to shine
So bright they couldn't ignore me
Luck never shined on me

And still you talk
Talk about things I wish I'd lived
Lived to make my own mistakes
To seize my own day

And still you talk
Talk about things I'd love to see
See with my eyes to know I'm here
And seize my own day

So I could talk
Talk about how I messed up
Up the creek with a homemade paddle
To seize my own day

God, I wish I could talk
Talk about how I lived my days
Days spent making something perfect
But what good did dreams ever do for me anyway?


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Loving Creatures

The path to happiness is gone
Blocked by the darkness where I belong
Its face a beautiful deceit
Its lips bring my wisdom to its knees

I ache for horror to betray
What’s left of my senses, I simply pray
For passion burning through my thoughts
And in her embrace I will be lost

Her eyes: the mirror of my warmth
Reflecting on surfaces of frost
I barely understand my place
That I am an object for her to waste

My tangled reason can’t recall
The thought of a future where I can’t fall
And I will crawl as I turn back
Into the darkness within my past

Her words have torn into my mind
This orbiting creature has her claws inside
And now I spiral to the start
Cutting her out, she’ll take my heart


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Doubts on Leaving Home

How will I know if this day is right for me?
I have waited oh so long to do what needs to be.
But, is the first step, the best thing, for me to do?
How will I be able to know if… all will work out true?

The first day is the hardest, but what will happen if I fail?
How can I continue forth, if everything is to no avail?
There will be no back up as I stand there all alone.
What, oh what, will happen when I am on my own?

The world is so frightening, at the very best of times.
How can I know that this… is really the right time?


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My what ifs

This slippery slope, owning 5 years
It claims my thoughts, 
Splits my heart, 
And fraction’s loyalty

Bleeding dry
Yet wet with tears
I dream of you
And my what ifs 

Always.

Upon that night, you saved, you grew
I saw you hero
Indent my spirit
And commandeer.

Bleeding dry
Yet wet with tears
I think of you
And my what ifs 

Always.

You gift and play, upon request
Yet look deeply
Of free will, 
Reflected, shinning

Bleeding dry
Yet wet with tears
I feel of you
And my what ifs 

Always.


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Isolation

They Say it Takes a lot To Taste This
The Clarity of Isolation
But I Feel the Quality of Peace
Is Lost in my Frustration

Seasons Turn Into One
And I Can Not Break Until It's Done
But There's No Hope For me on The Outside

So I'll Stay Isolated


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Where Melancholy Mingles

I suppose
there’s always good reason
to cry
sadness never has a tough time making friends
ominously,
this dark acquaintance often approaches 
lending water for eyes
to cry

I suppose
there's never better time than now 
to moan
grunting and moaning are long lost relatives
miserably, 
feeding off each other 
dragging stragglers along for the ride
to moan 


I suppose
anxiety needs a moment in the sun 
to worry
flipping, tossing, in a cerebral ceremony
fidgety
anxiously twitching 
as everyone quickly moves
to worry

I suppose 
there's no harm in a little dishonesty
to lie
while thieves join the party
deceptively
a terrible tandem 
of dirty deeds and tendencies
to lie

I suppose
everyone has the ability  
to struggle 
with adversity, where melancholy mingles
blatantly
crying, grunting, and moaning
anxiety moves in permanently
to struggle

 
and I suppose,
there's a heavy dose of negativity 
to digest 
mixed with stress
continually
it may lead to one hell of a 
nasty mess
to ingest
 
©  2011  ~JSLambert Esquire


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Please Wake from this Nighmare

Note: This is a duet...it is based off a story I'm writing with LAURA! :D
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V1 person1 Can you hear me… Please open your eyes, look at me I wish to hear your voice again, I don’t want to see you like this…anymore Please, darling, please open your eyes… [chorus] (both) What's happened to you... Where have you gone This must all be a dream I'm stuck in a nightmare And I want it all to end What's happened to you Where have you gone Please wake from this nightmare (after first time through the chorus change 'this' to your for rest of chorus) V2(person 2) I'm sorry... Can you hear me I'm sorry, I never meant to hurt you This is all my fault I'm sorry Please wake again [corus] (both) V3 (person 1) Hang in there, Don't leave me alone I need you Please don't leave me I love you (person 2 (still V3)) I'm sorry, please stay with us Please, I'm sorry (both) Don't leave us here alone... (person 1) I Love you (I'm sorry! (person 2)) [chorus] [instrumental break] V4(person 2) My dear friend Please don't leave Wake up... Wake up from your dream! (person 1) Darling, I love you please stay here, don't leave m I need you (both) Wake up from this nightmare you're trapped inside Find you're way through the maze [instrumental break again] V5 (one) What's happened to you (the other) Where have you gone (first one again) Wake up from your dream (the other) Escape this nightmare of yours... [chorus] (both) What's happened to you Where have you gone? Please come back to us...


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Loving Monsters

I wake to comfort in disdain
A monster I don’t want to tame
Incentive aided by her name
The spiteful creature known as shame

All the pleasure I will seek
And all the horror I will wreak
The chill of knowing all too well
I want my life to become hell

The burning ways I seek to end
This underlying competence
For seeking a final way to break
The curse that took my breath away

My spirit trembling at my feet
In silence underneath its sheet
The monster I was to defeat
Became the creature known as me

With all the endings I create
And all the knowledge I retake
I can’t replace the name engraved
In my heart, I take this to my grave

She’s a monster, but in her eyes
I too am a creature in disguise
And beneath the thousand burning lies
I will love this creature until I die


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I Guess You'll Never Know

It always starts out so lovely,
Talking all the time - 
“Can’t wait to see you,
I’m so glad you’re mine.”

But time fades the colors,
And makes the petals fall.
What once was so exciting - 
Now seems a little dull.

And I know you’ve had your drama
From people in the past.
They didn’t see what they had in you -
Well, I could’ve fixed that.

I wouldn’t hurt you like she did,
I wouldn’t push you around.
I wouldn’t take you for granted,
I guess you’ll never know now.

I just want you to know this:
My intentions were pure.
And if I’d let myself love you -
It would’ve been for who you were.

I’m learning every fairy tale 
Won’t have a happy end.
‘Cause now I’m sitting here crying,
Missing my friend.

And now we’re looking at a goodbye
Because you just cant seem to see -
Just what you could’ve had
If you’d just picked me.

I wouldn’t hurt you like she did,
I wouldn’t push you around.
I wouldn’t take you for granted,
I guess you’ll never know now.


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Looking for Tomorrow: Lyrics and Song

You can hear here: http://www.muziboo.com/mdegenhardt/music/looking-for-tomorrow/

I can't believe...that it's all gone
Some people I know, they've wandered on
Some have stayed,
While some have gone
I don't even know
But I go
Forward
Looking for tomorrow
I'm looking for tomorrow

And in this time, when money's scarce
I can't decide which is worst
Whether I miss bills
Or miss my kids
I don't even know
But I go
Forward
Looking for tomorrow
I'm looking for tomorrow

I'm looking for tomorrow
We're all looking for tomorrow

Maybe tomorrow will see us through
Until then, what else can I do?

I'm looking for tomorrow
Yeah, working for tomorrow
We're all looking for tomorrow
Looking for tomorrow


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Nowhere

Looks like I'm at the end of this bottle again.
Seems like cigarettes are my only friend.
Newports, no shorts, they're still never long enough.
Man, staying here never felt so rough. 

And I'm back to about a pack a day.
I'm just waiting for my lungs to cave in or give way
To a breath of fresh air, yeah that would be cool,
But once again I'm just a hopeful fool. 

Sometimes I wish that I could just go.
Runaway, find a place that I've never known.
Yeah that would be so nice.
Think it out, write it down, and scream it twice,
But for now I'll just way more time and 
Sometimes I wish I could just go.
Runaway, find a place that I've never known.
Man that would be so nice.
Think it out, write it down, and scream it twice,
But for now I'll just way more time and

I never thought I could drink so much.
Comfortably numb I've lost every touch.
Maybe someday I'll climb out to the top
And find some new ways to every stop.

Maybe someday I'll be out of my way.
Find someone to give me the heart to stay.
Maybe someday I'll be at the top of somewhere
Because down here in nowhere I know that nobody cares. 

Sometimes I wish that I could just go.
Runaway, find a place that I've never known.
Yeah that would be so nice.
Think it out, write it down, and scream it twice,
But for now I'll just waste some more time and 
Sometimes I wish that I could just go.
Runaway, find a place that I've never known.
Man that would be so nice.
Think it out, write it down, and scream it twice,
But for now I'll just waste some more time and

I've finally had it with dreams of out there.
With my bottle and cigarettes I'm lost in Nowhere.


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cycle of foolishness continues

every year these streets get hotter and more cats burn
in and out of the beast belly taking turns
too many stories on lost potential
all they know is iced grill, steel,and street credentials

I not a hypocrite I'm well aware of what I did
walking that fine line between a man and a kid

I stayed drunk on the regular day in and day out
back when Private Stock use to make the 64 oz

I was clueless my ruthlessness getting me by
only plan for the day was get highs and survive

I was so young and restless
reminiscence on my first stick, first time I took some bodies necklace


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The Escapist's Plea

When you can longer run away from yourself
When you thought there were no more tears to cry
When you just want to die
Living like this consumed by the façade of a million lies
So many years, so many days
Waking up to people who no longer care you're there
You ask how can this be, one short organic vitality
Wasted with living; the slowest way to die

The shadows of shame weigh you down 
Until you drown, filled with only their hate
All you can turns grey, and all you ever loved fades
The agony is all you know, thank you pain
A self-sadist Is all you have become, j
ust how they showed you, craving so much more
Just to hide up all of the misery
But under cloth it still bleeds

This is the Escapist's Plea
For the one who fall to their knees in misery
Trying to stay sane but fall under September's rain
Dying from the invisible disease, only you can see
Stigmatized by their sadistic need
Only if I could just fly away
...Fly Away


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Don't go away

I saw you there my being came alive
I heard your voice, it cut me like a knife.
It seemed like years but only days had passed
So long ago since I had seen you last..

You looked at me and smiled your sad, sad smile
My heart it just went crazy for a while.
I looked at you as if I did not care
But oh what joy it was to see you there.

Don’t go away, don’t ever leave again.
Because my love you cause me so much pain
Without you here my life be oh so bare
Although I see your vision everywhere.

Though you don’t love me I must know you’re there
I need to see your beauty soft and rare
And every day that you’re not there to see
It seems like something dies so deep within me.

My love for you be such a crazy thing
When you’re nearby my heart can only sing
But when you’re gone my being starts to fade
For you be all my heart would ever crave.


1990.


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FULL MOON-LUNATICS ARE COMING OUT TONIGHT

FULL MOON-LUNATICS ARE COMING OUT TONIGHT
The situation don't look too good tonight.
There's gonna be a full moon tonight.
I'd stay at home, if I could, tonight,
there's gonna be a full moon tonight.
I feel it coming, 
there will be strangers out tonight.

Every strange thing that you see. 
Every act of lunacy,
happens in this lunar glow, 
where they come from, I don't know,
but it must be lunacy.

Lunatics are coming out tonight.
It's a full lunar situation, tonight.
Strange goings on, will go on tonight, 
there's gonna be a full moon tonight.

Every stranger that you know, 
comes out in this lunar glow.
Every strange thing happens when, 
there's a full moon out again,
and when it's full, they all know!

Lunatics are coming out tonight.
It's a full lunar situation, tonight.
Strange goings on, will go on tonight, 
there's gonna be a full moon tonight.
              © ron wilson aka vee bdosa


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Halloween's Song

Its your Halloween rave, having your mascaraed
With all your best friends from back in the day
Liz Lauren and Blake and while they're dressed like skanks
I'm on the front line of battle
Howlin like jackle with A real nasty cackle
puttin a razor blade in the sack of Blake's apples
crack in Lauren's snapple
Staddle Liz like mclovin
But I am more like faghole As I babble at her ass
Axe her fast and mash her up like cattle
Sneak back and tackle your dad and put him in shackles
Shove sour patch kids Down your trap and gaggle
Its abominable, so unbelievable
But its inevitable, the end is kissable
I have rattled these kids psyches 
squirming like a centipede, cutting them like celery 
hear their squeamish screams echo in the streets
as the  creepy bells of the chapel ring


I remain a mystery
You'll need nancy drew, and at least 3 of the hardee boys to find what I'm up to
Theres this gloom that looms down in your basement room
Consuming shrooms, enhaling fumes to escape your doom
Witches zoomin by on their brooms makin sonic booms
Quick call scooby doo, but I killed him too
You heard a loud pound cause I cut the fuse so you
Run away to a motel room, assuming your safe
And As you look the other way,
I got my fangs in your veins and stranglin your neck
Too bad you didn't text your friends to tell them who is next
Hmm let me think for a sec. As Hex your boy  rex 
with an incessant twitch, till he is dead in a ditch
Hang him from bunny man bridge
Yo dude turn the lights on
But there's no flip to switch , I have flipped the script
Its bewitched with no miss to kiss
Exorcist with no priest to dismiss the spirit

So the town clock strikes half past 3
There's one last gas before i must sleep
Or i will crash fast if the light touches me
Put on the mask jack, just like the sixth scream 
I need to grasp havoc, till i hear shrills and shrieks
Please back rabbit, these chills aint for teens
As I stick a cherry bomb in your moms exhaust pipe
Run up on you  with nine a knife, and the head of your wife
Its useless I'm the nuisance that's abusive yet conducive
To your fear that I am near So close I could whisper in your ear
Smell the shampoo in your hair Wipe the floor with your tears
And as you look up in the mirror
I'm there ready to smear your blood all over the chair
as I stab you with my spear I crush a coors beer then
Leave you re crops there dead, red spread on the floor
But I hear a knock on the door
Are you okay honey? "Yes mommy,  just got a cold sore"


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You Ain't Shot Rapids

     YOU AIN'T SHOT RAPIDS
I've got a dream, but it's only a daydream,
that we're out sailing the sea,
or climbing a mountain, or shooting some rapids,
but you're doing it with me.
Oh, how I wish you would see things my way,
and these things would all come to be,
cause you ain't climbed mountains, 
and you ain't shot rapids,
until you've done it with me.

Climb a mountaintop with me.
Come and sail with me on the sea.
You've got so many worlds to find,
if you do it with me.

I've got a dream, but it's only a daydream,
until you let it come true,
climbing that mountain, and shooting those rapids,
it'll be me and you.
Oh, how I wish you would see things my way,
and these things would all come to be,
cause you ain't climbed mountains,
and you ain't shot rapids,
until you've done it with me.
.......................©  ron wilson

Yeh a song, it is on Youtube just search for "veebdosa" and then select YOU AIN'T SHOT RAPIDS


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Stranger In My Own Skin

I feel the commotion
Of human emotion
The words that they all speak

A tale of constant stress
A tale of no rest
Of shadows haunting me

She became relieved
When someone else came
To take her thoughts away

I look behind me
And all around me
The shadow isn't mine
But a stalker's
A stalker of my own kind

Now I'm drowning in a sea
Of constant stress and doubt
I thought I had the cure
I though I made it out

I know that I can't win
When I'm a stranger in my own skin

My pulse now is pounding
The sound is surrounding
The blood rushes in me

My words come out quickly
The anxiety tricks me
Into guarding all I have

My mind will break
My body shakes
Why can't you leave me alone?

I want to cry
I'd even die 
To escape this constant fear
Can't you just leave me?
Just really leave me

Now I'm drowning in a sea
Of constant stress and doubt
I thought I had the cure
I thought I made it out

I know that I can't win
When I'm a stranger in my own skin

Life's not how it used to be
It's changing due to you
I'm gasping just to breathe
It's hell because of you

I want to fit in my own skin
Is that really such a sin?


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Beyond What's Seen

You do not know what I see
I see you crying next to me
I see your pain, I see your tears
Through your laughs, and through the years
Past your mask I see your face
You are hiding in this place
Trust in me, I won't let you fall
You don't have to hide at all

Open up what's in your heart
That is the place I will start
Open up your eyes and see
All that's left is you and me
In the end you'll see the light
Come on, I don't want to fight
Together we will make it through
Come on. Now, It's me and you

Now you can start to feel
How much this love is true and real 
behind your eyes you keep your pain
It's all locked up in your brain
Come on. Now, just let it out
It's okay to scream and shout
I will help you through and through
I will always be with you


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My Father Told Me, Son

Written March 29, 2013


mother. father. always you wrestle inside me

When I was 8 years old
I got a model train set for Christmas
Not a slingshot or BB gun
Instead of going around in circles
I moved it right off the tracks
How it crashed and burned

When I was 12 years old
My father told me "son,
Don't you lose my best rod and reel
Or bend the strings that I strung"
So I jumped in the ocean
Setting these wheels in motion

This could be such a simple song
But how we were wrong

When I hit the big 2-0
I found a delicate flower
In the old junkyard field
I thought I'd give it to momma
But when I brought home that flower
The petals fell off in the shower

Adam's tale ended tragic
And so does this song
When I breathed in the chemicals
And felt so alone
Such a precious regret that they own
That I never had friends in my own home

Life is a horror story
Without a plot twist
My life was a mystery
Where everyone did it
Now were stuck on the precipice
Without a third wish

This could be such a simple song
But how we were wrong


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I'll Be Waiting

Once I had a friend that I could connect with
No matter what
I turned to him

Until I realized that I was being used
Always took
But never gave

Came to him with my pain
But he always twisted
The conversation back to him

Now he weeps upon my shoulders
Do I care?
Guess I'll never really know

And at the center of it all
I know I always said
Come to me if
You've got a problem you can't fix

But I'm feeling real used
Everyone takes
But no one gives
But that's how it works

Friends for life
Such a fancy term
For a liar's game
Show me a friend for life

And I'll be waiting
For my day to arrive
When my dreams come alive
I'll be waiting for that day

Now I have a lover who can't trust me
The same way
That I trust her

She grasps onto the figments of a future
Where all she sees
Is what she owns

But really, I still love her no matter what
Even if she doesn't
Feel quite the same

A right blind fool, I give and give
And they take and take
And hell, that's just fine

And at the center of it all
I can feel the empty
Hole within my heart
Growing larger, I think I like it

I guess I must
I never put up a fight
Maybe I like the pain
Or maybe I really love them

Love for life
Such a noble term
For a liar's game
Show me a love for life

And I'll be waiting
For the day to arrive
When my dreams come alive
I'll be waiting for that day

Once I had a friend that I could connect with
No matter what
I turned to him

Now I have a lover who can't trust me
The same way
That I trust her

Once I had the dream, I had to chase it
And pray the ends justified the means

And now I will shut my eyes
Because I don't want to feel anything anymore


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The Labor Of Love

Thank you God for all that you have given me
You pulled me through, the worst 5 years of my life
But I realize for the first time, I am truly living my life
On a journey with no worries, The view is blurry
But as long as my love for you is burning
I am as clam as the breeze, as still as the trees
though I dont know what is going to happen to me
I have feeling If i give you everything
Put my hand in your glove
Im going to accomplish things I never could never dream of
Allow me to stand above, those who chucked me under the bus
Shoved me into the mud, I trust that you will not sort of or kind of
But fully dispose of my enemies, who cussed at you through shunning me
So we have no other option than to be thrusted to number one, Its a must
that my light for you is more lumious than the sun
Leave the oposition studdering and stunned
Doing it all in the name of your son, Jesus
This is how I must live my life, I call it The Labor of Love
Something I can not get enough of, I maybe under the gun
But Im still focused on fun,  People need to wake up
 and smell the scents, it all makes sense
when you make the change in your brain
Get rid of the thoughts of peformance
That drive you insane, realize your mistakes
Are indications that we need to shift our focus
To Jesus, No need to be anxious
 Its not about the perfection rather the persistance
Then the weight of the world will be lifted
You can live life how it was inteded
As care free as adam and eve.


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Can it

Why do I chase the atom?
when the universe has always been mine.
Can love evolve from red giant
into a galaxy?
Dust and stone
become skin and bone,
born; fall and rise again.


I love the black holes
of your eyes
for they radiate
much more light 
than they could ever take.
White hot coals made to rake
caked surface of my lungs.


How I long to see your breath
steam up the silence in my soul.
Droplets, turn into rapids
and rush my question away.
I tripped; stumbling
my spirit crumbling.
Hold; release those fingers.


Strength born of sugar
does not last, and it feeds fear
I need complex and organic
Can rotten become fresh?
Carry the inner babe
Cain and brother Abe.
Save: heal the tether.


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Only Words

I check the time; fifth time tonight.
I've just gotten used to holding you,
But mornings here and you'll be leaving soon.
The panic; the rush; wrecking over every touch.
Bent over on wounded knee,
You won't stop scratching until I bleed. 

Time after time, I hold you close,
I can't let you go, let you go
Without at least knowing if I go,
You'll forget about me.

You say it's right, but you can't hold me tight.
You say it's wrong, what you've felt all along.
So I'll build these walls.
All along these walls, I'll beat ceaselessly.
With only words to comfort me. 

Where are the pictures that you took of us?
Have you lost them all? 
Now only memories of what we were,
Or maybe what we weren't supposed to be.
You tell me nothings happening.
I sacrifice my happiness.
You tell me nothings happening.
I sacrifice my happiness,
Over and over and over
Until I'm low and empty.

Night after night, I hold you close,
Hoping you know, hoping you'll see;
All of my everything.
Remove the wool from your eyes.

You tell me nothings happening.
I sacrifice my happiness.
You tell me nothings happening.
I sacrifice my happiness,
Over and over and over
Until I'm low and empty.

You say it's right, but you can't hold me tight.
You say it's wrong, what you've felt all along.
So I crawl along these walls,
Beating my fists ceaselessly.
And I crawl along these walls.

I found the time for my mind,
For my help, for my sake,
But I'll break, over and over 
Over and over, until I'm low and empty.
Nothing left, nothing left.
With only words to comfort me.


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The Rebel

Dank, cold, unperturbed indifference,
Untouchable, yet touching all,
Unresolved in meaning,
Still creating each and every fall,
Every whim and leaning.

Touché pas! A cry of weary hate,
And will not accept a helping hand,
‘Till death! Brazen adverse in face of fate,
And alone in piteous stand…

Lone wolf we cry, thy fate is nigh,
Yet stands he still resisting,
That love should die, that only tie,
In error still persisting…


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EYE Don't See -Part 1-

My eyes
Pour forth feelings
That I’ve felt in the past
They make my heart ache…
Take it all away…
Oh my God…
They’re making me sink in dismay

When will they break away?
When will they give me a break?

And I’m left in my solitude…
Do you hear me weeping?
And I’m close to my demise…
Only to find myself disappear…
When will peace draw near?

Eye don’t see
A happy ending in this scene 

My eyes
Journeys into the unknown
Who knows what will happen…
They’re like hidden treasure…
They’re buried far below…

And I’m left in my solitude…
My eye’s weeping…
And I’m close to my demise…
Only to find myself disappear…
When will peace draw near? 

Oh my God…
They’re driving me insane
When will they see my reflection?
When will they heal the infection?

Eye don’t feel
Raindrops of hope and relief 
All I feel…is grief…
Eye sense no peace…

And I’m left in my solitude…
My eye’s sagging…from endless mourning  
And I’m close to my demise… 
Only to find myself disappear…
When will peace draw near?

Does He hear
My supplications?
Does He sense 
My fear?

My eyes
Conceals the tears that dare to spew out
I feel trapped and lost without a doubt…
They erase my delight…
They seek my hurt…
Oh my God…
They’re casting me away into the perilous sea

And I’m left in my solitude…
My eye’s weeping…
And I’m close to my demise…
Only to find myself disappear…
When will peace throw out my fear?

Eye don’t see
A ship in sight…to save me from my demise
My lifeless body...
Drifts away in the wild ocean...
Without a sound...
Without emotion...

Eye don’t see
A rope to hold on to…
My hope for peace
Has drowned…


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The Pain of One-Sided Love

Every thing you felt with me was fake
Every little thing you said to me 
That made me feel whole.. was fake
I never felt so stupid to believe in something
For once in my life I realized no matter what
I will never be thought of, loved or cared for
By anyone but myself.. not in the way I want you to.
Nothing when we were together was real was it?
No matter if it was just two days, I felt a lot
You washed me under the rug like I never happened
Like I never made a mark on you, so what now..
Will you always ignore me and be this way to me forever?
You know it hurts that even a simple person like you
Can ask me to read their poem but not read mine.
I gave you compliment after compliment just to see you smile
Because My feelings for you were 100 percent real 
The only reason I let you walk away was because
If you love someone so much and they seem happy else where
You let them go find that happiness no MATTER how much it seems
To hurt you, scar you and bruise you over and over again
Some day that pain wont come through a poem
It will come from a rope that hangs me from the stairs.


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Where You Are

I know you only now
Still I wonder if it’s true
That somewhere in my past
There was once a me and you
Every minute everyday
You're all that’s on my mind
For you're that someone special
I dreamed that I would find
With you I found my heaven
My hopes and all my dreams
When I look into your eyes
I know then what life means
I’d climb the highest mountain
I’d reach the furthest star
I’d swim the deepest sea
If I could be there where you are
But when I can’t be with you
All the time we are apart
Know that I will hold you close
Deep within my heart
Stay with me till morning
Hold me while I sleep
And when it's time for you to go
Dry the tears I weep
But when I’m in your arms again
When time is standing still
Know, I’ll never feel again
The way you make me feel.


By Raina Hutchins




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The Rose

You confessed your love for me through a single white rose I smiled genuinely, yet then you turned to hurt me, leaving me behind...lost and alone The rose was nothing but poison to my heart, for 'twas you the evildoer, pressing my finger into its very thorn As the blood inside of me ran cold, deep red drops from the cursed stem silently fell into the snow. I couldn't believe that your intentions were as such, I thought you once promised that you would forever love me... Why risk betraying all of my trust? I cannot see the angel I once glimpsed in your beautiful face... It is now replaced by a mysterious raven, forever intending to be my disgrace My like will remember that winter of December, when you gave me that simple white rose now stained red will fade to black My tears fall and the love I will soon take back as I return the very rose into your cold hand, pale and scarred Your body frozen, so cold and numb as you lie abandoned, mutilating my heart, throwing it in the blood-trickled snow I think of the end of life, holding but one white rose No pain shall I feel, so perfect, so innocent, no horror in my mind, no nightmares now It is time to whisper the final goodbye I have been given the strength, I can now peacefully bid thee farewell Do not forget me I look down at the soft white petals and embrace the only token I have left of you, my little rose so beautiful and pure Forever stained by the blood of my soul is this single white rose The rose of my one true love...


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Game of Starbucks

I am standing 
In a line scene
Cuz my body
Needs its caffeine 

And in front of me some dink
Orders a confusing drink
Now he’s changing ‘round his order
With our patients growing shorter

And a sword from
Someone’s pocket
Now sticks through the
Guy’s eye socket

Du du du du 
Du du du du
Du du du-du du-du du-du...


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pain inflicted beauty

Does it ever cause you pain?
To know you broke my heart,
Does it ever cause you pain?
To know you pulled it apart.

I could jump off a building,
And soar towards the ground.
To know you wouldn't miss me,
If my identity was found.

Did it


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WHO LOVES AMERICA

....WHO LOVES AMERICA? --- HAPPY FIRECRACKER DAY!
.......verse 1
Once upon a good time, not so very long ago
There was America, America the dream God used to know.
Where went America, that all the world loved so?
Once upon a time, not so very long ago?
Where went America, the one the world loved so?

......chorus
Who loves America the way she's meant to be?
Who still loves God's dream, from sea to shining sea? Shining sea?
Who loves America the world depended on?
Who loves America?
I can't believe she's gone.
God save America.

......Children Singing Bridge (Pledge of Allegiance)
I pledge allegiance to the flag
of the United States of America
and to the republic for which it stands
one nation, under God, indivisable
with liberty and justice for all

Repeat Chorus.
© ron wilson

The song, WHO LOVES AMERICA?,  plays by default on my poetry website, (still under construction in places,) AND you also hear the children reciting our PLEDGE OF ALLEGANCE the way it should be recited. Beautiful they did so great. It is at vbdosa.com that is all I need to type in my browser, should be the same for you. Mac users may not hear it the song.
vbdosa.com


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EYE Don't See -Part 2-

My eyes
Refuse to see tragedy
My eyes
Marinate in dread…unable to embrace ecstasy 

And I’m left in my solitude…
My eye’s sagging…from endless mourning  
And I’m close to my demise… 
Only to find myself disappear…
When will peace draw near?

You don’t see 
What damage you’ve done
Just let me be
Leave me alone…hand me a gun

I yearn for unspoiled glory
To make me feel perfect once more
I yearn for flawless serenity
To make me feel no regret…don’t ignore
My calls…don’t hang up on me

You don’t see 
What damage you’ve done
Just hear my plea
Listen to my excruciating cries…
Listen to the truth, not the malicious lies  
Our journey has just begun   

And I’m left in my solitude…
Do you hear me weeping?
And I’m close to my demise…
Only to find myself disappear…
When will peace draw near?

Eye can’t handle the stress
Let me release my horrendous distress
Eye can see you making that same mistake
At least MY life isn’t at stake

And I’m left in my solitude…
My eye’s weeping…do You feel my lament
And I’m close to my demise…
Only to find myself disappear…Stepped on like cement
I’m aching with discontent… I abhor this torment    
When will peace scrub off my fear?

I can’t believe my eyes
Your guiltiness flows into me…
I can’t believe I fell for your lies
Your heartless action rape my mind…you don’t see
What my EYES see…

You’ll never see 
How much pressure you put me under
Unchain me from this chamber
And watch me flee…

When will you be set free?


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Cryin'

You can listen to the song here: http://www.muziboo.com/mdegenhardt/music/cryin/

If you see me cry It means you’re too close Yet out of my world You’ve hurt me the most With a promise to love That never came true If you see me cry It’s because of you You can’t wipe these tears As they’ll never cease What I wished to happen It will never be You promised me rainbows There’s no color to see If you can’t love me back Then it’s cryin’ for me If you hear me cry I hope you hurt too It’s nothing you’ve done It’s what you won’t do I had hoped you would love me A dream not coming true If you hear me cry It’s because of you You can’t wipe these tears As they’ll never cease What I wished to happen It never will be You promised me rainbows There’s no color to see If you can’t love me back Then it’s cryin’ for me If tomorrow comes And you’re not here Then maybe I’ll stop These useless tears But for now you’re around It hurts me to see If you can’t love me back then it’s cryin’ for me


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Baby Please

Oh my darling, how I wish I knew your name.
I've called you many things and Loves' the only one to stay.
I've called you many times, now won't you come my way?

Oh child at night, you, you rattle through my bones.
But I wake up on cold mornings to find I'm all alone.
And I cried, "Baby please, I can't lose all that I need".

And I cried, "Baby please, I am only a man,
And I'm working, trying the best that I can".
I can't do this all alone, so I cried, yes I cried,
"Baby please, won't you please just come back home".

I knew all my tears would be in vein,
But cried on anyway, to try and wash away the pain.
I've called you many things, but "Goodbye" would only stain. 

Oh I cried, "Baby please, you'd be cold to walk away,
But surely we'd both freeze if you can't find the heart to stay.
So I cried, cried, cried, "I love you more than anything in this world,
Now you've go to, got to, got to be my girl".


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My Savior

Savior of mine
I call out to you
Save me from myself
and all I believe that is true.
For my heart is aching inside
and I know not what to do.

Take me by the hand
Guide me to a far away land.
Allow me to escape myself once and for all.

I know not what my future brings
I know not where this path leads
However I do know,
that my heart bleeds 

Savior of mine
Stop this aching pain
Free my soul
from its evil reign.

For life without you,
is lived only in vain.

Savior of mine
I give myself to you
Broken and scared
For this is all that I can do.

For with you
nothing of myself
will remain
From this point on
I can only gain.

Thank you for saving me
This unworthy soul is now set free.


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La Sibylle Blanche du Rhin

La Sibylle Blanche du Rhin La Msytique est la Specatatrice du Divine Elle Parle au mot que je ne comprends pas "Soilel vous deffinissez est mien Pourtant vous, vous laisser il saigner Comme un nouveau vin Triste - ons ne Saurant Jamais Triste - ons ne Verront Jamias" Parle a moi, si prestine La Mystique La Sibylle Blanche du Rhin La Specatatrice du Divine Ton Voix sefane dans Le Chanson entrain de Mourir


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These four walls (my version)

these four walls
they bring me  insanity
they tie me to the past 
i knew they would always bring 

when we met 
you kissed me on my cheek
caressed my hands 
now that's ended....
i sit in a corner as i dread what forever will bring

i suppose i'll just sit and watch the 
rain fall down 
gray clouds, like a thick cover,
they cover my wings.....

i am not the angel 
that you've seen in your dreams,
when you left....
you took my soul
you are no longer the song i sing.....

these four walls
come crashing down 
the secret they hold
must never be told to you....

must have been something shouting 
inside my head 
when the world comes tumbling
that's not what i said

you left me
here in the silence
i sit in the rain...
watching as these four walls crash again.




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Armageddon

I see the end is near
I see that my freedom is so close
I certainly hope it is
I sure could use a vacation from this

Worthless, cancerous carnival of
Freaks

Here in this hopeless ruined hole I call my town
The only way to fix it is to quickly flush it down
Any blessed day, any cursed time
Under the waves, I know it would be so damn sublime

They cry for their safety and
Cry for their drugs and they
Cry for their future and
Cry for their lawsuits and

Don't care for others as
Their lives are worthless like
All that the world can do is
Revolve around them in this

Worthless, cancerous carnival of
Freaks

Here in this hopeless ruined hole I call my town
The only way to fix it is to quickly flush it down
Any blessed day, any cursed time
Under the waves, drowning to death, won't it be sublime?

I pray something will fall from the heavens
And firmly implant itself beneath the waves
And the tidal waves pour in 
As everyone starts running

I hope the end is near
I hope Armageddon's coming soon
I certainly pray it is
I sure could use a vacation from this

Waste of time, wasting time

A festering sore on this country we live in
Here's an idea to keep you all interested

Hold your breath

God's gonna fix it all soon
God's gonna put it all back the way it should've been

Hold your breath

To death with your leaders and
Farewell to their clones
And all those false gangsters
Who have no way to survive

Hold your breath

Sink with your hobbies and
Sink with your pride
Sink with the junkies 
Who followed with their own will

Hold your breath

Sink with your dealers
With hidden agendas
Sink with these dysfunctional
Insecure failures

Hold your breath

Because I'm praying for rain
I'm praying for tidal waves
I want to see the waves rising
And crash down upon us

God, please flush it all away
Show what's underneath
The rushing brown waters
I want to see it all drown


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Fit of Rage

Fit of Rage…

Can’t control your conviction
Over the exact order of things
Won’t second guess your emotion
To sacrifice your needs
But then the line is strayed
Your uncharted course
Time after time you scream out
In a fit of rage…
Oh, Oh, Oh, in a fit of rage…

It all seems so simple
To see things the right way
If we’re open to compromise
And mean the things we say
And it seems ridiculous
That certain things must happen
I’ve had it up to here and I’ll scream out
In a fit of rage…
Oh, Oh, Oh, in a fit of rage…

…I try to talk myself into believing how things have to be
Attain the unattainable, constantly achieve
Pushing to be as one, unlike any other…
I’ve got to scream out, in a fit of rage

My eyes are deceiving me, a blind man in a cave
Feeling for an answer, eternal freedom for a slave
Years, I said years of sacrifice and self-inflicted pain
Now, before my eyes a lifetime
It is my hope all was not in vain…
Still time and again I’ll scream out
In a fit of rage…


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On His Silence

Silent gratitude to the damp room i lay bent
Filtering my sobs with noise of the running faucet
Tears will forever be one with the waste water;
Till eternity shall it be hidden to the sight of my mother...


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Scrubbed

Lying on a truthful table;
  Clinging like three-day-old food 
To pots, 
Still scrubbing,
Oh, still scrubbing
Off debris --
You are to me,
  A lie wrapped up in honesty.


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Ninth Inch

Liar
Oh yes
Oh yes, liar they'd call me
If they could see my thoughts

Broken dreams, they manifest
Desire to control the rest
Your little liar controls the way you move

Inches over the line
That separates sane from not
Inches over the line
That keeps you safe

Oh yes
Nothing's turning out the way I planned
Oh yes
The dreams that broke all manifest
Complete control is what I lust

Inches over the line
That was drawn to keep you safe
Inches over the line
That was drawn to keep it in

Nothing can stop me now
I doubt you'd want to anyway
Nothing can stop me now
And that's just the way you like it

Nothing can stop me now
I doubt you'd want to anyway
Nothing can stop me now
And that's just the way I like it


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Nobodys Friend

Nobody wants or needs me
Nobody hears or sees me
Nobody cares if I live or die
Nobody knows if I exist at all
For I am Nobody’s Friend

Nobody thinks about me
Nobody calls or contacts me
Nobody asks if I am alive or dead
Nobody believes that I exist at all
For I am Nobody’s Friend

Nobody listens to what I say
Nobody hears my thoughts
Nobody speaks ne’er a word
Nobody cares that I exist at all
For I am Nobody’s Friend

Nobody can hear the things I do
Nobody senses that I am hear
Nobody regards me as a threat
Nobody thinks that I exist at all
For I am Nobody’s Friend

Nobody will know until the end
Nobody can now see my face
Nobody even feels my presence
Nobody realizes I exist at all
For I am Nobody’s Friend

Nobody now sees me as I am
Nobody except he who made me
Nobody can stop me and my plan
Nobody but the Father and Son
For I am Nobody’s Friend

© Eugene Harvey


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Therion

Slayer of dreams and reality Bow down to his Therion Majesty Vowed to Be beyond Spiritual Supremacy, But too Frail, but too Weak, Were these words of The Transgressor of Our Argentine Destiny Reigned with Blood And with Blood You shall Fall Never denounce the ways of The Wicked For the Wicked you Have Become I'm Not your gracious Jesus Christ, Saving you from the blood-sodden Ice, But you Are The Beast Therion Majesty Can't control your own destiny The one who used to fight monsters, Became a Monster Himself Look beyond the Book, See the Truth lying there, Gagged and Hooked, Silence screaming to Be Free The Draconian Revelation Will Save thee The same Cold Pressure has erupt inside The Beast dwells in your Pride Dipped in Argentine and Insanity, Captivated by the touch Never looking beyond the Sin, For the Scene remains Empty I'm Not your gracious Jesus Christ, Saving you from the blood-sodden Ice, But you Are The Beast Therion Majesty Can't control your own destiny The one who used to fight monsters, Became a Monster Himself In your mind When the world Falls, Parodiso will open her halls But not for you, Inferno Cries out for you Forever Malaoda will Be your destiny I'm Not your gracious Jesus Christ, Saving you from the blood-sodden Ice, But you Are The Beast Therion Majesty Can't control your own destiny The one who used to fight monsters, Became a Monster Himself


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Fingerprints

I've built with sand.
I've made a life without a proper plan,
and you kicked before I hardened it.
How do I supply demand?

A ship unmanned.
This is the moment that I sank within.
It's when my life became your operand.
Your addition for a firing pin.

I caught my hand.
It was inching towards a perfect plan,
and everything I touched became broken,
for it wasn't my command.

You've played harvest,
in which my heart became the olive pit,
your unwanted seed, without great promise,
a flaw in the shell that houses it.

All of my emptiness,
began to cauterize my synapses,
while making room with lack of militance,
a jail for dreams in piled ashes.

But I exist.
It bled my soul out but I've made your list,
and I'm the victim of your ignorance,
the example for a catalyst.

I'm not to guess.
I've taken strides to curb incompetence,
and with this fire, I can't stop to test,
my life for all your fingerprints.


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Dark, cold World.

===== A little rhyme inspired by DaryIsue LockHart's rhymes =====

It is for the lost..  that I wanna find the way,
Out from this dark place, of pain and misery.
Back to ourselves.. how we were, when we were young,
Before evil played its hand, before the time we got stung.

I wanna be free..  but that'll have to wait!
I'm trapped by emotion, by feelings soo great.
And I'm not alone.. in this victims prison,
D.I.Y Labotomy, I'll make the first incision.

I don't want drugs, to ease my pain,
I found Nirvana.. but can't get back again!
Some say I'm insane!  This train of thought I'm on,
Goes through a portal to another dimension.

But it's a dark, cold world.. where I know no fear,
My heart it stops, my mind sharpens.. becomes clear,
When I look into your eyes.. I can see your soul,
I can reach into your heart.. but I might lose control!

Sometimes I can see.. just a little too much,
And round-about that time, I start to lose touch,
See.. I know why you hurt, but I could hurt them too!
I'd make them scream, long, sweet, songs of sorry.. just for you.

However.. I know something, that they don't know,
I've had a little glimpse, of the place, that they go,
Where they like to turn the tables.. and play little games,
Where sticks and stones hurt, but so will the names!

Till then.. keep strong!  Keep your mind awake,
You've walked through fire, I think you should take a break,
But you've seen the enemy, like me.. you wanna fight,
Thats why I walk alone, with no shadow, in the night.


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Lamentation

Another song from the set made in middle school
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My life craves the soul And I’m all alone You stay—then off you go And I can’t hold on You will never know me For what I am [oh no] Can we forget? Can this just end? If we don’t believe How can we mend? Your face haunts my memory And I can’t move on Cuz here without you I feel…so numb Left out in the cold For you will never love me Was I too much [to mend]? But how can you see? How can you know [what I meant to you]? Could this be the end of the road Left to sleep alone? -Ooooooooh- Can we forget? Can this just end? If we don’t believe— Can I forget? Will my life end? If you don’t exist Why do I pretend?


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Bleed for Me

Bleed for Me…

I speak in anger
Spewing rage with each new breath
The fire burns within me; exacting fight
And I know the duel is to the death

No right or wrong
I wreak my vengeance
I stand alone, strength without numbers
A leader not a follower;
Understand this…

I will take all that I need 
Even as I sit and watch you bleed
Bleed; bleed for me
Bleed for my amusement
Because you are in the way of what I need, bleed

I look your way
Eyes burning through your every move
I watch your steps
Are you watching out for yourself?
All I can say is that you had better tread lightly
Because in my world, you are not standing on solid ground
It’s time to meet the maker
The payment long overdue is now being collected…

I will take all that I need even as I sit and watch you bleed
Bleed, Bleed, but not for me
But for all of the lines you have crossed without reason


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And now we strangers

And now we strangers
Greet like the indifferent
As if the memory eclipsed
To create less than mediocre.

No cheek, no grin
No glimmer of familiar
Only our wall of remorse
Building our division.

Before the distortion
Engulfed our direction
Did we not see a friendship
To last out the years?

But our story concluded
And by my part a regret
Though not of the past 
But of futures not encountered


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False Senses

Do you realize that you lost? Do you realize that I won? Or did you think it was a tie In your sick twisted mind? Stuck in your lies Concrete at your feet You never took a step You never made a sound When the gun was fired And I ran for my life Do you realize that you lost? Battered and tossed By your own malfunction Wires you crossed Leaning on a crutch From wounds self inflicted Do you realize that I won? Running like fire Brighter than the sun Autumn behind my head Summer in my eyes So near the finish line The reward is mine Or did you think it was a tie? Tangled web behind your eyes Wrapped in delusions Coming to false conclusions In your sick twisted mind Do you realize that you lost? Do you realize that I won? Or did you think it was a tie In your sick twisted mind? Stuck in your lies Concrete at your feet You never took a step You never made a sound When the gun was fired And I ran for my life


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I'm So Afraid

I had control
I held it well
Upon my throne
You could never tell

That deep inside
My fate was sealed
I'm so afraid
Of the way I feel

Grasping for straws to help clear my mind
Look behind
The shadows of fear come and crawl behind
Stay away
I'm starting to crack and I...

The trigger's cold
My fingers are hot
My muscles twitch
As I await the shot

It never comes
It never will
I'm so afraid
Of the way I feel

Dance in the rain of machine gun fire
Dear God, it hurts
Holding onto what's left of my control
Set to burst
I'm begging for peace and I...

I walk along
The dusty tracks
The sun's hot rays
Are scorching my back

I'd sell my soul
I'd make a deal
I'm so afraid
Of the way I feel

Praying for a moment to catch my breath
Crash into me
The terror that comes with loss of control
All I feel
I wish I could die and I...


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The 60's - MY BOW LEGGED GIRL

 MY BOW LEGGED 60's GIRL
    Lyons, Kansas, 1969
I took all of your tank tops and your hose and your sox,
and I put them all together in a little brown box.
I put all of your dresses and your shoes in a sack,
and I wrapped it up because I knew you're never coming back.

I took your funky records and your Playgirl magazines
and dropped them in the trash with all your green and purple jeans.
I took the clothes I bundled up and gave them away,
to the Salvation Army, it seems like yesterday.

You never told me you were leaving town,
you never told me you were leaving.
You never told me you were leaving town,
you never told me you were leaving.

I met a wino on the street, she looks just like you,
she wears a see through blouse and she walks bow legged, too.
She sings those funky songs and plays the guitar outa sight,
and she takes a bath in cheap perfume like you did every night.

She still sings about Viet Nam and love we don't show,
guess she doesn't know that Viet Nam was 30 years ago.
She's out protesting every day and carries a sign,
 bites her toenails ev night just like you did mine.

You never told me you were leaving town,
you never told me you were leaving.
You never told me you were leaving town,
you never told me you were leaving.

She has a job but all she'll say, it ain't chopping wood.
And it's funny how her money lasts, and she lives so good.
She bought a brand new car one day, a pink Cadillac,
and it's got a bar up in front and mattress in the back.

I don't know why she thinks she has to work every day,
cause I never had a job I just live on my welfare pay.
She picks her nose and rolls each bugger in a sugar ball,
and just like you used to do, then she eats them all.

You never told me you were leaving town,
you never told me you were leaving.
You never told me you were leaving town,
you never told me you were leaving.

I married her in the park, it seems like yesterday,
and I don't know what I'll do if she doesn't run away.


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Outcry of a broken heart

Even my mind not stilled by silence
my thoughts outraged with hurt and hate
as Im dumbfounded with confusion
leaving the cause to no debate,
I cannot tell you what is wrong
to tell you means I'd have to trust,
and my heart no longer feels willing,
beating only cause it must.

I feel a dead man live my life
I see his cold abandoned heart,
I hear his agonising cries
as he is torn more apart,
knowing no peace, no rest I find
having no comfort, stuck in a bind
a vagabond, alone in his life
Ive been cut off, betrayal was the knife.

awaiting death, and still much worse
my whole life upon this earth
seems like a scheme to take my worth
and bring me to nothing,
such is my curse
and i fear the effects
may never reverse
and make believe that I am cursed.
the way I feel too great for words
too great to bear such constant hurt
my soul depressed and left prostrate
before God to help, I hope it works. . .


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You Are My Everything

Lately I've broken myself in
Feeling more comfortable
In my own skin
The places my feet
Have taken me
Lead to a complete turn around
Both directions seem so long
But I was in the wrong
I'm more than just aspiring
With you, with you tonight

I may run ahead
But I can't leave you behind
I just need a to get a view of life
And tell you what I find
You hate this place
I can see it in your face
You're just taking care
Of the fragile moments we've shared
Even with no words to speak
You are my everything
Even with nothing to keep
You are my everything
I'm more than just aspiring
So keep an open mind
With me tonight, with me tonight

I never put a patent on confidence
My arrogance leads me back to you
In this never ending race
And now with nothing left to lose
My words may sound cruel
With nothing left to prove
Keep looking ahead
With your eyes on the prize
I'll pay the price for 
The expenses you've occurred
Keep looking ahead
I'm not too far behind
To help you find truth
In all the lies
Carry the weight
When things become to heavy
Bring you up from your knees
When you're broken down and empty
Even with no words to speak
You are my everything
Even with nothing to keep
You are my everything
I'm more than just aspiring
So keep an open mind
With me tonight, with me tonight
Smile for me if you understand my happiness 
I'll care for you tonight, for you tonight


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Scarred Soul

She sits still... 
Can you feel the stares?
Her eyes cry tears-
They are the window to her soul.
Inside she is hurting...
The years have been unkind.
She has not come to open arms-But to fear and closed minds.
Fear that grips her every being...
And keeps her from herself.  
Spiraling down, she's out of control.
Will she ever stop?
She feels the stains upon her.
They are heavy and won't wipe away.
Holding her down and keeping her alone...
These stains have scarred her soul.


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Your Highness

Executing the realm of beauty,
puncturing your torturess soul
while the sinister truth exemplifies purity,
the kind you lost along the way.
You can't see that longing,
you can't comprehend that willingness-
the deepest form of revenge-
success.
And with the success,
all that surpasses is the crooked
unreliable action,
a pretense definition that karma is mandatory.
It moves me how such a belief holds,
totalitarian regime.
Your highness,
I'll bow to you once more,
one more adieu
and passing by.
But after not one
but two steps away,
you are no longer existent-
like the leaves evaporated by the snagging wind-
wrapping its arms around the oak's leaves-
sucking out the poison of the leaves,
as they drop one
by one.
Farewell,
one final time.


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A Thin Smile

I sat down to write a happy song
But the words won't come
And neither will the tears.


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For An African Princess

     FOR AN AFRICAN PRINCESS
Read my mind and you'll know where I am going.
I'm going to the end of all things for you.
I will find all the love your heart is needing
And I will bring it here for you.
Yes I will bring it here for you.

Read my mind and you'll know what I've been thinking.
I'm thinking there's more love than you ever knew.
I will find all the love for which you're searching
And I will bring it here for you.
Yes I will bring it here for you.

You told me you're older because of your tears.
You know I am younger than all of my years.
I only believe in what's meant to be.
And we were meant to be.

Read my mind and you'll know what I am doing.
I'm reaching for more love than you ever knew.
I will find all the love your heart is needing
And I will bring it here for you.
Yes I will bring it here for you.
I will bring it here for you.
      © ron wilson


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Consecrated Grounds

Clinging on to silence
When there’s nothing to behold
In the mirror of this earthly
Visage growing old

Beneath what now just lingers
In this quieting despair
There lies an open graveyard
Begging for your care

The flowers here are wilting
All the children turn away
And in that I am haunted
There is no such thing as play

My voice sings of confusion
When I ask for your embrace
Instead I speak of lacking
And why it’s you that I should blame

Now alone beside the mirror
This old man is close to truth
And as he fades into the nightmares
He recalls what stole his youth

Stalking through the darkness
A passenger of pain
“It is I that haunts this graveyard”
And then he spoke his name

Awake and overflowing
With the senses I thought gone
The old man in the mirror
Is now a child with a song


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(Forever And Ever) I'll Always Love You

My life began the day we met
The world, it looked brand new
Colors brighter, music sweeter
And all because of you.

You took a life of sadness
And you made it oh so sweet
But now your gone, and yet

I love you more with each passing day
Though God saw fit to take you away
When I think of our love. it still seems brand new
Forever and ever I'll always love you.

I still feel you close by my side
Though the pain's so deep it cuts like a knife.
When you went away my heart broke into little pieces
But I'll put those pieces back together because I know
Someday, we'll be together again
But until then.........

I'll love you more with each passing day
Though God saw fit to take you away
When I think of our love, it still seems brand new
Forever and ever I'll always love you.

Oh, when I think of our love
It still seems brand new
Forever and ever I'll always love you.







josette key         2009


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Sun Rise

You, us, I
It's all a lie
I just want to take your soul
and have you mentally die

There will come a day 
when you think I'm all yours
that's when your life will have
constant down pours.

For I'm a girl who wears a mask
deep down inside I'm filled with Malice
I promise to bring you down under
make you choke on your own smoke
as I smile looking into your eyes.

Make you feel as if you're a blunder
make you wish you'd never
want to see another sun rise.


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A MIRACLE OF STATISTIC

So you feel, like a miscarriage
a miracle of statistic, boxed away and sealed

Where love-lost is a permanent condition
Faith a contra-septive thats declining with permission

And you kneel, and you kneel

And you feel, all that you portray
is a poetic world-view, that turned to ash and blew away

Where only your acting pierces their hearts
and you'd rather die before playing your part

So you fall, like a martyr
Blinking through paradise, Tightrope above all

A broken of a deviant in the clothing of a fiend
Blackboards miscalculation, never to be cleaned

And you crawl and you crawl

And you fall, cold, on bleeding knees
searching the rejected, rotted and diseased

Returning empty and scraped down to the bone
finding angels, breaking down, whats left of what you own

So you crawl, through the living-dead
As a monster of humanity, who'll murder for the remedy

Collecting every beat of every heart
Of those, who made you, fall...

 apart.


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Till Date

stagnancy is something not new to me,
it's just have become overwhelming off late.
stale moments, motionless hours,
clinge to my identity as alter ego.



numbed emotions make even prayer incomplete,
stone heart mises nobody on earth.
cell bars' perpetual shadow make stripes on my body permanent
for fifteen years i have been standing at the same place



my world - squeazed into 7 by 4 ft rectangular room,
life has become a mere waiting station for death.



I till date believe I have not yet got accustomed to this place.


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Change

The air around me is charged
I can feel something coming and it's large
I've felt this once before and back then everything changed
The world became different, everything became so strange

It looks like it's going down again
What will change this time?

And now my fingers reek of nicotine
On my porch alone at age nineteen
You can't learn about pain until you try

To suffer it yourself, not to be taught
I flick the stick away after one big draw
Everything has changed and I'm waiting for this storm to strike

Keep waiting, keep watch
The pressure's going to keep growing
I can see the way everything's changed
Until it all explodes
I'll keep on watching


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Half a Heart

Once in a while, It would be good to feel, That I'm not alone, That I AM real. Once in a while, It would be kinda nice to know, That I'm not invisible, That I'm not a Hoe. (MEANING GARDENING TOOL) But only having half a heart, Makes it kinda hard to move on. I will learn a lot, From his little con. I am a dreamer, I am a believer, But when I am only left with half heart. It's kinda hard not to take rejection hard. Another one is walking around, With his little stripper, His little crown. She has no idea who she'd end up with, Giving birth in the hospital. No one with her. But only having half a heart, Makes it kinda hard to move on. I will learn a lot, From his little con. I am a dreamer, I am a believer, But when I am only left with half heart. It's kinda hard not to take rejection hard. Raise our hands, Clap to the beat, Of a hummingbird's wings. Just remember I'm still here, The only one, The only one, In love with you... But only having half a heart, Makes it kinda hard to move on. I will learn a lot, From his little con. I am a dreamer, I am a believer, But when I am only left with half heart. It's kinda hard not to take rejection hard. We are strong, Cold to the core, We gotta let you know, We're not your doll anymore.


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I am an unread book on an empty book shelf

I live in this cell with my self-hatred
How I was raised makes me feel so isolated 
These are not my thoughts or feelings for that matter
But I still feel as if I’m an ugly house that will never flatter

Even if you were to fix me
I’d still have some screws loose
I’d rather you knock me down
And tighten up my noose
Because my personality is too obtuse….
For you to understand

Until then, I’ll wait in the gallows
Waving my right hand
Trying to find a way out
Because I can’t tie a noose like you can…

It’s depressing to think that I possess this body that I can’t stand
Everyone that I love and meet will never truly know who I am
Because the face that I show is a total scam

So, For the time being I’m stuck in this body

This mind...

This soul...

I’ll forever be tortured in this blood stained hell hole. 


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Crater

Hold me tight, like tonight was our last day.
If I could have imagined everything
Then I could just walk away.
If I could imagine anything,
Then everything would be my darkest dream.

And I, I can't close my eyes
And fall from your skies.
Now out here in space
I wonder what impact I can make.

And now that I've lost everything,
I rise, oh I rise, but it's too late.
And now that I've lost everything,
I fall, fall into myself.
Watch as I fall away.

Lay next to me so I can see all that you hide.
Without you here I lock myself away.
And no I won't, I won't give up this fight.
To get up and just walk away.
I can't lose everything.

And now that I've lost everything,
I rise, oh I rise, but it's too late.
And now that I've lost everything,
I fall, fall into myself.
And now out here in space,
I wonder what impact I can make.
Watch as I fall away,
Watch as I fall away.
Now out here in space
I wonder what impact I can make.
Now watch as I fall away.
Watch, watch everything, now as it falls away.


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Waiting To Be Mine

I know that I deserve better than this.
I savor every moment and every kiss.
The days they pile on and I'm buried,
Choking underneath it all. 
The days they pile on and I'm buried,
Choking underneath it all. 

Please tell me I'm the one
And I'll never leave your side.
And that all you might carry
Is growing, waiting to be mine. 

Prayed tonight for the first time
In my own teary lines.
I pray that my own sins won't spoil innocence.
For the first time in over 8 years, I hope any Kingdom heard my call.
The days they pile on and I'm buried,
Choking underneath it all. 

Just tell me I'm the one
And I'll never leave your side.
And all that you might carry
Is growing, waiting to be mine. 

Everything that's ahead of me;
All my love in an entity may be my greatest enemies,
Oh, I can't stand.
Everything that's ahead of me;
All my love in an entity may be my greatest enemies,
Oh, I could die. 

So please tell me I'm the one
And I'll never leave your side.
And that all you might carry
Is growing, waiting to be mine.


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I've got the Ahmadinejad Blues

I've got the Ahmadinejad blues
I'm bored of tomahawks and even the cruise
I'm after something that's new
I got the Ahmadinejad blues
Nuclear atoms i'm gonna fuse
Full of fear, the UN, they always refuse
Oh, their sanctions of dont's and do's
I wanna new toy to abuse
Death'll be served on all the world's menus
I got the Ahmadinejad blues
I'm gonna turn the world to glue
Change it grey instead of blue
Melt your lover into you
Dis-formed hands three not two
Strip your skin off to leave just sinew

I want an atom bomb
That's why I made up this song
Free fuel, how can that be wrong?
Sharia law will rule the world before too long!
I got the Ahmadinejad blues

Goodnight West, Mourning East
Mushroom clouds rise like yeast
American's aren't the only nuclear beast
Don't forget only one kuntrys dropped t-H-e bomb
Those yankers that despise freedom!
They think they have some right to choose
Bring it on, they're bound to lose
I got the Ahmadinejad blues!

(Next verse is a re-working of Country Joe and the Fish's Vietnam song from Woodstock)

Well it's a 1,2,3 an OIL be damned if I know what we're fighting four?
Don't ask me, I don't give a damn, next stop is a war in Iran!
And it's 5,6,7 open up a can of hate
We'll shoot you if you demonstrate
Instilling a One Wold State
Whilst pretending to help liberate
Stealing the oil, more feasts on the riches plate!

I got the Ahmadinejad blues
I wanna nuke the Yanks and their friends the Jews
I got the Ahmadinejad blues! 
©John-Ovan.P.Hull


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Statistic

I'm somebody I don't want to be

Sick in the mind 

Is how trusted ones have nurtured me

Sweet and naive 

What a bad combination

Torn to shreds and built up 

Into a new creation

Sometimes I sleep

And don't dream

But have flashbacks

And see pictures with bad means

"Get this out of my head

Its driving me mad!"

But who do I tell this to

I don't want to relive

What I didn't want to go through

I cry 

But what does this do

I want to know the soulless

Who've affected me hurt, too

I don't care about their presents, futures, or pasts

The thought of my welfare on their minds was last

I only hope that in the future

I'll avoid another life altering calamity

With man


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Diedre II

Don thoust not know Deidre’s eode Don thoust not know Deidre’s eode I cunnan sense her embrace that felans gelic Tragedy A Heart to hath, slipped beneoðan waw The dark pulse nou beckons us closer How many daegs will this passion bledan way We will beon the ans left to blame Bewarian we hath be-came their prey They say thou hast ben addicted to thy pain A life-leas cold barren soul left to die in the rain A whisper to close to the edge A ceallian fram the dark Bringan ut a saving sparke An exodus fram her pain Her life spent braeð in shame A Shadow ceallian brecans the silence Eom I the an to blame Don thoust not know Deidre’s eode Don thoust not know Deirdre naefre said wrong Don thoust not know Deidre’s eode “My decadence wesan just for thee Though thou never hast cared of what I hath been through Enter the world hwaer empathy is clandestine A world created by thee, just for me Hwaet is lecgan in my heart Is why thou wants to through the stan” I call thy name towards nightfall’s reign But they take thou so feorr way A dark engel so devin Cursed by Eden’s Heart I will avenge every tear An exodus fram her pain Her life spent braeð in shame A Shadow ceallian brecans the silence Eom I the an to blame Don thoust not know Deidre’s eode Don thoust not know Deirdre naefre said wrong Don thoust not know Deidre’s eode Don thoust not know Deidre’s eode Don thoust not know Deidre’s eode


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Suffering Is The Same As Living

Hope, tonight, is just a void Love is destroyed Reality impending my doom Suffering a dream that was never made for me I’m just the burden falling under your arms I understand if you give up on me Don’t worry I’ll be fine I can just wait, wait as in all eternity You deserve to be happy and free I’m just the burden falling under your arms I understand if you give up on me Suffering is the same as living Tonight I might, Today I may Set you free away from me I’m just the burden falling under your arms I understand if you give up on me You travel all across in my veins Showing you share my pain But my life was never meant for me I’m just the burden falling under your arms I understand if you give up on me I'm sorry for those days I've ruined your life Best you just ignore, forevermore I’m just the burden falling under your arms I understand if you give up on me Suffering is the same as living Tonight I might, Today I may Set you free away from me I’m just the burden falling under your arms I understand if you give up on me Suffering is the same as living Tonight I might, Today I may Set you free away from me I’m just the burden falling under your arms I understand if you give up on me
**Morten Veland, Guitarist, Male Vocalist and Main Songwriter of Sirenia, formerly of Tristania**


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I DONT HAVE THE WORDS

I don't have the words
To say how I feel
And language won't do
To describe what is real
God give me a voice 
So that I can explain
I need a song, with 
A compelling refrain

Waiting.. For words that soar
Longing.. For so much more
Praying.. That God might see
Needing.. You to be with me

I need you
I need you
I need you
Need you!


12-19-14


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DEAR GOD (i been struggling)

Dear God I been struggling all my life
for the sins I committed I paid the price
learned to live with regrets and sacrifice 
da da da da da da da da da da da




I contain unspeakable secrets in the depths of my mind
my eyes have witness the wickedest sickness of mankind
In been conflicted at times
by my on mind confined
implicated in crime and briefly confined

Now I'm a family guy and there much more than worth it
but what if all the beef from my past comes to the surface

that's not what I sweat I got theLord to protect
if the strings get pulled on the devils marionettes
but in the event they approached with the intent of my death
I'd still send shots down the center like I'm dialing collect

always a peaceful cat except for my youth
when I swore that I wore a bullet proof gorilla suit
and in the heat of the streets deepest beefs I found
every shot that came would miss be by a country mile

until that one that came to erase the life of Dwayne
it murder portions of me and the rest if left in pain
in a since he's still here cause his blood flows through my veins
and my faith dictates I can see him again

all though the pain never lessens their are lessons in pain
for what does not kill me gives me strength to gain

Dear God I been struggling all my life
for the sins I committed I paid the price
learned to live with regret and sacrifice
da da da da da da da da da da da


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Loaded Gun

I’m just like a loaded gun,
Sitting here and waiting.
Have a look at my hands,
They’re not even shaking.
You try to bring me down,
You tried to hurt my family and friends first.
With all the decisions you can make in life,
That had to be your worst.
I would guess that you don’t understand,
The way that my mind works.
When you go after me rip my heart out fast,
When I go after yours just know it will hurt.
You better think about this for the future,
I’m not the one that you want to test.
It doesn’t matter to me if your guns are loaded,
I will lay them down to finally rest.

Yet before I can give you a second chance,
I want you to know I see your fear is now showing.
I can see so many beads of sweat,
My how your blood must be flowing.
You should know now by looking into my eyes,
Don’t you see how they are changing?
Can’t you realize it’s time to back off now?
It’s you future and present thoughts I’ve slowly been rearranging.

I’m just lie a loaded gun,
Sitting here and waiting.
Have a good look at my hands now,
Can’t you see that their not shaking.
So now you have the knowledge,
Of what wakes me up inside.
Now are you smart enough to walk away,
If not do I have to strip you of your pride.
Walk away why you still can,
All inside me is finished waiting.
Walk while I still give you a chance,
There so much of yours I could be breaking.



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Shedding Regret

I found this poem at last tucked in one of my journal entries...I guess it was supposed to be a song, but I can no longer remember the tune...ah well... it was written a few years ago and it kept repeating in my head. So here it eeeessssss...... :-P Jan. 4, 2008

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I cry for help there's no reply
I know that I'm alone once more
I hope, I wait, I pray, I cry
kneeling to the bloodstained floor

The blood I shed for your dark fate
Is nothing that can be repaid
For the love you gave so true...so pure
That now seems nothing anymore

I long to hear your steady breathing
My head pressed against your chest
To hear your heart slowly beating
Never hesitating to rest

(those days are gone...)


The blood I shed for your dark fate
Is nothing that can be repaid
For the love you gave so true...so pure
That now seems nothing anymore

Now I wait in this dark room
Hoping you will come to free me
Hearing whispers in the gloom
Cold breath brushing right behind me

(can it be you?)

The tears I shed for your dark fate
Is nothing that can be repaid 
For the love you gave so true...so pure
That now seems nothing anymore






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Hey Bartender

Written 2010


Flashing lights and sounds roll by
Hear the sound of muffled sighs
Sullen words cannot express
Just confess, and lift it off your chest
Told the priest would hear your cries
If you don't feed him blatent lies

Oh he's your only friend 
But he don't want to hear your sins
He's off doing his own thing
But it's far from priestly things
Oh he wont look in your direction
Let alone show you affection
Even when he hears your plea,
"Hey bartender please!"
Gone are all your hopes and dreams
All you ever sought to be
Heard from all across the room
Are many empty pleas,
"Oh won't you pity me?"

You can close your eyes and count to 10
Again and again
But he wont come back to help his fellow men
He was your only friend, but he left you all alone
To wallow in your sin
He failed to listen to your prayer
Now your lost in dark dispair

You can hide behind your cries
But he'll see into your eyes
Until the time you leave his bar
And wobble to your car


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Walk On

If I could write a story,I'd write about the past.
The masks and all the words I was afraid to speak.
It would be a story without moral.
I've learned nothing from this journey.
The chapters would be short and simple
In the form of thoughts and riddles.

If I could write a poem to heal myself
I'd un-bandage these wounds
And let them bleed on my page.
I promised myself I wouldn't wait.
I wouldn't have hope but thanks to you
That's all I know.
I'd pack all these things and give them to you,
Because I know patience and love are both virtues.
But if you burned them as physical memories
You know I'd understand.

Wave steady and ignore the tragedy.
Torn between the stories and poetry.
Wave steady and ignore this disaster.
Rummage through the wreck and salvage what you can.
Walk around and hope that you never see
This fragile bird and his broken wings.

There's no shame to sing your favorite song
To save your life.
I'll sing all that I can sing,
And I'll say all that I can say
To make sure I turn out alright.

Walk on and ignore  this tragedy.
Torn between the stories and poetry.
Walk on and ignore this disaster.
Rummage through the wreck and salvage what you can.
Walk on and hope that you never see
This fragile bird and his broken wings.

And I'll sing all that I can sing.
I'll say all that I can say
To make sure I turn out alright.


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I wave goodbye

Did I lose my friend 
Before I even met him?
Written words no more
Tell the tales of yesterday.
How I remember the true smiles
Arising from a playful typed wink,
A list of favoured, a lyrical message
Mixed with counsel and dreams
Of future fights and triumphs.

How is it so easy to destroy
A connection so luminous
With misjudged feelings?
Potential for greatness and longevity
Now smashed with no chance of repair.
Foolish in our beliefs 
That friendship would triumph.
We now know that impossible,
So reluctantly I wave goodbye.


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Hearts Death

I seal my scars with my Fear,
In my Heart I feel so Scared,
Fear my Death with every Breath,
I Feel my Pain within in my Breast,
In my Heart Death is MEET.


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A Question of Honor

Dedicated to Noor Al-Maleki You Try, You Try so hard To put Your will Over Me But I will Remain Free I am So Dirty and So Very Unclean So Please Condemn me Sentence Me The Crescent Is A Lie The One I shall Try To Defy Is it Just To Dispose What Has Dishonored You and Your Radical Views You Have set me Free, Can't You See I Won't have to face a Tyrant anymore Your gaze used to Stun But Now It Just Burns Under the Sun Never Enough to Be Myself Never Enough to Be Free I will not Bow to You I will not Kneel Before You Smothering Liberty Condoning Freedom This way is unjust This way only brings out our worse Hatred and Mistrust War and malice no know law You Try, You Try so hard to put Your will Over Me But I will Remain Free I am So Dirty and So Very Unclean So Please Condemn me Sentence Me The Crescent Is A Lie The One I shall Try To Defy Is Just To Dispose What Has Dishonored You and Your Radical Views I am The Flame you Greatly Hate I am The Flame you greatly fear Some cannot handle the truth It shows they are the Criminals You are one of them You're the problem This misdeed will not live on without the hate of your name Honor Is not real It's just an emotion that only you feel You're another bulwark Against the truth No one Will Bow No one Will Kneel You Try, You Try so hard to put Your will Over Me But I will Remain Free I am So Dirty and So Very Unclean So Please Condemn me Sentence Me The Crescent Is A Lie The One I shall Try To Defy Is it Just To Dispose What Has Dishonored You and Your Radical Views You Fear The Truth You Fear the reality you are the criminal against all humanity We must end these lies Before Honor Will Strike again You Try, You Try so hard to put Your will Over Me But I will Remain Free I am So Dirty and So Very Unclean So Please Condemn me Sentence Me The Crescent Is A Lie The One I shall Try To Defy Is it Just To Dispose What Has Dishonored You and Your Radical Views


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Silver Spoons -song-

We choose our scoops with our silver spoons. Try and deny that it's coming soon. 
   Don't fool yourself when you're giving up. Just sip your drink from the dirty cup. 
   And where the fiddler plays. Is where the woodland creature stays. And every single day. Comes and goes in blurs then fades. 
   Now everybody knows you, but you do not know yourself. Loved ones try to save you, from your lost journey toward hell. 
   And it's a shame. You've let yourself go this way. But everything will change. Someday. 

   Dressed in bells and whistles too. Force that smile pretend it's through. 
   But the tides will change with the shift of the moon. And a warm bright day will be fogged with gloom. 
   And where the children play. Will be destroyed and deemed unsafe. And 
everything turns gray. The price you pay for one mistake. 
   Now everybody loves you but you do not love yourself. The hurt and guilt you feel inside is the kind you'll never tell. 
   And it's a shame. You've let the world push you away. But everything will change. Someday. 

   You cannot destroy me but I can destroy myself! I don't want your sympathy I do not need your help. 
   Just kick me down spit in my face and tell me one more time! How much you simply hated me, back when you were mine. 

   So choose your scoops with your silver spoon. I'll deny being in love with you. 
   Don't pride yourself when I've given up. Just force me to sip from your poison cup. 
   And where the earthworm plays. Is where I'll find my peaceful grave. 
   And every single day. Life remains nothing has changed. 
   Now everybody misses you, but you feel right at home. This life has made you realize, you're better off alone. 
   And it's a shame. You let yourself go this way. Everything will change. Someday...
  


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Black Widow

1 through the door
2 through your heart
3 through your head
4 colors in my eyes
Red, red, red

1 clash
2 rings
3 words
4 sirens
Shrieks of red, red, red

1 bed of white
2 saviors
3 men at my side
4 grievers
Tears of red, red, red

1 room of rock
2 rings around my wrist
3 eyes in my head
4 days before forever
Stains of red, red, red

1 room
2 sides
3 on one
4 on the other
Crying out red, red, red

1 decision
2 stabs of pain in my side
3 cries
4 smiles
The judge says red, red, red

1 boy
2 people
3 arguments
4 solutions
Mine was red, red, red


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Esther Arbuthnott 1847 Her Ancient Photograph

          ESTHER ARBUTHNOT--1847 From Her Ancient Photograph
While the rain is falling gently on the roof it makes the sound,
of a time that's long forgotten, though it seems to hang around,
I can hear you breathing lightly from an Irish dream I've known,
it has come to Pennsylvania where you've found me here alone.

All the way from County Down, you were a dream I had to find,
though so long you were forgotten, you were always on my mind.
In your photograph your eyes are reaching out, perhaps for me,
I can feel you when I see you, but I never really see.

In your Book of Shadows, reading, is another person's sin,
but you open it to anyone who's wanting to come in.
There's a candle always burning in my window late at night,
and I'd love you in a moment, but that wouldn't make it right.

Can you hear the raindrops falling? County Down's so far away,
or perhaps it's just forgotten, like a dreary Irish day,
I can feel it when you're smiling, in the Heaven of your eyes,
love is gone and you've been dying, and it's then I realize,

you have found it all in Heaven, and it's such a part of you,
all the sad you had been living in this life will have to do.
it's an Irish kind of feeling, to be dying when you're dead,
and a lot of Irish whiskey only lightens up your head.
       © ron  wilson


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So This Is The Way Storms Work

You whispered. 
And ragged butterflies bled into the earth, 
Grasshoppers cut through clouds, 
And in mounds, roses grinned their jagged teeth
Quietly tucked in satin. 


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Turn away

v1-
every time you  turn away my heart it crumbles like a cake its unlike anything
loving you it hurts so damn bad it makes me feel so ****ing sad ,so ****ing sad
why cant you just be here with me it hurts me  just to even see ,to even see
you with another man thats not me cause id like to be the one you see ,the one you see
chorus-
cuz its a battle of the best a never ending ****ing test
and i cant give you up on you
this love is so ****ing crazy its makin me so ****ing hazey
but i wont give up on you 
v2-
and still you say you love me to but how can it be ****ing true
when all you want is everything and all I want is you
your smile stays within my heart when ever we're apart ,when ever we're apart
now at last i’ve found you come so fast arms around you now I’ve found a love to last
chorus-
but its a battle of the best a never ending ****ing test
and i cant give you up on you
this love is so ****ing crazy its makin me so ****ing hazey
but i wont give up on you 


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Sugar Sick Sweet Lullabies

I had this dream last night and it was perfect 
It was everything I wanted my life to seem
So when I opened my eyes to this bright sunlight
I realized some things weren't the way that they should be

I put my feet into my shoes, which are old and dusty and 
I don't remember when they were ever clean
I ran around my town asking people for my purpose
And none of their answers seemed to fit alright

Come keep me at bay
Cause the world's spitting us all out one by one
And we've all sinned enough to know that we're gonna die someday

I've tried to be myself but I'm running low on health
To fight all those who tell me to be a certain way
Though I don't cry out my eyes every time that a stitch undoes itself
Cause nobody's gonna save you when can save yourself, darling

Even at a quarter after noon mothers are singing their babies 
Sugar sick sweet lullabies that I know all too well
Haven't you ever noticed the way that their voices crack 
When the child forgets the words and the tune stays with them alone?

Come keep me at bay
Cause the world's spitting us all out one by one
And we've all sinned enough to know that we're gonna die someday


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Don't Let This End

End is where it just begins. It's where Alice fell, And her story began, When she fell in. The beginining is the end. I thought you were my friend. My bones aren't for you to bend. This party isn't the one for me to attend. But please, Don't let this end. I'm too secure, To go back again. Back to all, The torture in, My home, My house, My life. Don't let this end. Please don't send me back again. Love isn't all that fun, When you have to keep run, Running away from yourself, Running away from your life which is a living... Dreamers can't dream themselves. Dreams turn to nightmares. Love turns to hate. Hate doesn't turn into someone who cares. But please, Don't let this end. I'm too secure, To go back again. Back to all, The torture in, My home, My house, My life. Don't let this end. Please don't send me back again. You sent me back, To a place of dread, To a place that will get inside my head. Confusion is inside of me. And they won't even let me dream. But please, (But please) Don't let this end. (Don't let this end) I'm too secure, (Insecure) To go back again. (But please) Back to all, (But please) The torture in, (Don't let this end) My home, (Take me away) My house, (Take me away) My life. (Please take me away) Don't let this end. (Please don't) Please don't send me back again. (Don't let this end) Background singers, Dreamers, Believers, Hate.


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Port of Call

Port of Call


Barefoot on a talcum beach,

alone, not lonely,

with the breath of the ocean a caressing balm,
soothing pained memories away,
to the swaying of a solitary palm.


Barefoot on a talcum beach,

alone, not lonely,

feeling the brushing away of all past turmoil,
on a quest for solace, ever so hard to find,
yet comforted by the crashing of the waves,
as the tide cleanses all pain,
and leaves despair far, far behind.


Barefoot on a talcum beach,

alone, not lonely,

drenched in a sea-breeze of mist,
that hushes the ache of bygone moons,
tasting the salty tang on my lips,
as the burnished sun,
over the distant horizon,
swoons,

and dips.


Barefoot on a talcum beach,

alone, not lonely,

searching, ever searching,
for a slice of solitude,
as memory bids a final adieu,
reaching under the sea so vast,
and seeking comfort in the depths,
while embracing,
the tomorrows to come,
wishing that they be true.


Barefoot on a talcum beach,

alone, not lonely,

seeing my truths drown,
as they slip beneath the turquoise waters,

feeling my heart ablaze,
with a passion that rarely falters.


Barefoot on a talcum beach,

alone, not lonely,

yet knowing that I am home at long last,
wishing the waves would wash away,
the defences that once stood,
like an impregnable wall.


Barefoot on a talcum beach,

alone, not lonely,

I have found, at long last,

my final port of call.


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WHO LOVES AMERICA

....WHO LOVES AMERICA?
.......verse 1
Once upon a good time, not so very long ago
There was America, America the dream God used to know.
Where went America, that all the world loved so?
Once upon a time, not so very long ago?
Where went America, the one the world loved so?

......chorus
Who loves America the way she's meant to be?
Who still loves God's dream, from sea to shining sea? Shining sea?
Who loves America the world depended on?
Who loves America?
I can't believe she's gone.
God save America.

......Children Singing Bridge (Pledge of Allegiance)
I pledge allegiance to the flag
of the United States of America
and to the republic for which it stands
one nation, under God, indivisable
with liberty and justice for all

Repeat Chorus.


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Hidden

Sequel to "Fire Dancers"

A ghost at the window of my brain
Working me in the realm of wrong 
I wish I could cry out for someone’s mercy
But Satan’s dancer only sings Satan’s song
I bathe in the fire and purify in the mud
I’m destined for Heaven but Hell is where I belong


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forever and always I love you

everyday I wake to your face
your soft skin set in a smile
you make my heart pound 
and my pulse race
and I blame you

you make my knees weak 
when you smile that smile
when stare at me like 
I'm a rare Jewel
and I blame you

my fingers tremble as they reach 
your arms pull me in
it's cold outside 
I snuggle close to your warmth
my knees shake harder
I blame you

Next time.....
No music plays
It's quiet and I read
eyes swollen from the fight we had
and from the tears that fell out of my eyes
I blame you

I think
and think

and remember
the time we kissed
the time we danced 
the times there was no music and we still danced 
the times when I was scared of the thunder 
and you held me

I remember
what I want to forget is Goodbye
But I don't think I can say it
My heart burns when I dare to 

I want to feel your arms
wrap around me 
and your voice whispering in my ear
your lips on mine
I blame you 

that my heart is broken
that it swells when I think of you
that my legs still shake and quiver when 
I find you on the street

tears spill from my eyes
I pick up the phone, 
my fingers lingering over the buttons
i can't dial 
want to
can't....
I miss you

My heart can't take it....
more tears
my sobs breaking the quiet
sobs broken by the phone

it's you
you say you're sorry
I smile just at your voice
I've missed it
You sound like you've been crying

we were always alike that way
You say another thing
I wait, wanting to hear,
but scared

you say....

you remember
the time we kissed
the time we danced 
the times there was no music and we still danced 
the times when I was scared of the thunder 
and you held me

you've missed me
we both laugh sadly
I say that 
I've missed you

we smile, 
we imagine it 

I love you....

but I don't say it out loud...
at least, not yet.

but, I love you
forever and always

forever and always


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COCOON

       BUTTERFLY WINGS
I do appreciate your being here
But one day soon you know I'll disappear.
And when I fly,
I'll fly on butterfly wings.

I know you see someone you think is me.
But nothing's really what it seems to be,
and when I fly
I'll fly on butterfly wings.

Bright light.
Never ending white light.
All my life a sweet ride, on butterfly wings.
Highway.
Always going my way
I'll keep going my way, on butterfly wings.
Out there
I'll be going somewhere
and I'm going to get there, on butterfly wings
Bright light
never ending white light
all my life a sweet ride, on butterfly wings.

It's not that I don't care, you know I do.
And you can feel it, when I think of you,
and when I fly,
I'll fly on butterfly wings.

This is one of my personal favorite poems I have written that developed into a Song Lyric. It is on Youtube, as a video as well.


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Negative

I've been here before and I've never liked it
At the time it seemed to all crash down
I learned to look back and smile on those times
Where all I could ever do was frown

I've faced it all time and time again
Why can't I learn to avoid this fate?
My inner self screams to me now
"You fool, run now before it is too late."

And every time I let my heart take control
I die a little more
Every time I let my heart take control
Yes, I die a little more

And this twisted feeling
It takes me by my soul
And then this twisted feeling
It takes control

So tell me why we choose to return to addictions
When our last few hits nearly claimed our lives
Our hearts take the lead when we don't want it
No matter how hard our brains tried

Cross my heart, hope not to die
A path of ruin left in its wake
My inner self whispers to me now
"What else, what else can this poor wretch take?"

And every time I let my heart take control
I die a little more
Every time it takes control
Yes, I die a little more

And this empty feeling
Consumes my soul
And this empty feeling
Drives me deep in a hole

And I wait for light to shine
Stepping far out of line
And then this painful feeling
Takes me away


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Dried and Browned

Together they fall and plunder,
Piling on in weightless wonder. 
The leaves and trees are far from what I fathomed--
Dried and browned in mortal sarcasm. 

Cold in warmth and warmth in rain;
Washing away the frozen stains.
Barren soil bears a fruitless yield
Dried and browned in the snowy fields.


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Anthem of the Broken

A promise whispered so sweetly,Who could 
have ever known? Slowly, I let go of the past 
For you. Let go of everything and started anew. 
Unfortunately, our first kiss wasn't your last.

You took my hand and taught me how to be 
Human, but every promise you had ever spoken
Was a lie, so cleverly disguised. Now, I know the truth.
Forever, this will be the Anthem of the Broken.

I never thought you'd end  up playing this game.
Those walls I put up, they came down for only you.
I'm alone, you're gone. But I can't help to remember 
How it used to be. Remember the man I once knew.

You took my hand and taught me how to be 
Human, but every promise you had ever spoken
Was a lie, so cleverly disguised. Now, I know the truth.
Forever, this will be the Anthem of the Broken.

Forever, this will be,
This will be,
The anthem of the Broken.

Nothing can change the past, nothing will bring you back.
This heart's just been broken too many times before.
So many scars and so many stitches tell the story of who
I was. I only want to be able to walk away from this affair. 
 
You took my hand and taught me how to be 
Human, but every promise you had ever spoken
Was a lie, so cleverly disguised. Now, I know the truth.
Forever, this will be the Anthem of the Broken.

Forever, the anthem of the broken.

I watched you walk away, watched you move on like we 
Never happened. You never looked back, never gave me a chance
 Just kept walking, Didn't know What to think, 
Couldn't understand why I fell for your lies, why I agreed to this romance.

You took my hand and taught me how to be 
Human, but every promise you had ever spoken
Was a lie, so cleverly disguised. Now, I know the truth.
Forever, this will be the Anthem of the Broken.

Oh, Broken into tiny pieces, so small and delicate.
It hurts me more than you'll ever know to pick 
them up. tiny pieces of glass cut my hands as I work, 
Trying to repair my heart, why did I have to love you, dick?

Now I know the truth, Now I can see through your lies, Saw how 
Every promise you made was fake as soon as it was spoken.
Here I go, standing in a wasteland, watching you leave
And softly signing the anthem of the broken.


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ON THE CONTRARY

Your not Amerikikka's nightmare you are more like it's pipe dream they figure
your the poster child for the word nigger
call me a hater it don't make a difference
cause with they things you depict
that.s an accurate description

you could shine brilliant,you're extremely gifted
but your so @#$ dam scared to be different
you cosign things you don't even agree with
going along to get along but I know your secret

look at these modern day step and fetch
and they talk about is rep yo sect
or even worse homie what sect you rep




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Two and a Half

I still remember the days I spent protecting you
The days where all I wanted was to keep the grave from you
And to this very day, the memories won't go away
Shaped into your image and I still feel like a fool

Two and a half years have gone so quickly
Lived them for myself, no one else

Those days left terrible scars, I tried to change the world
Those days altered who we are, I tried to change the world

Now here today the scars have all faded away
A new adult formed from the cocoon of those better days
Two souls clung onto life, two souls embracing a knife
The sharp edge carved us to each other, now gone in separate ways

Two and a half years, so much has changed
We're not who we were, but that's just life

Those days I smile upon, when I tried to change the world
Those days I'd never relive, when I tried to change the world
Now that we've lived, we can try
To see better days


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Pleads

Please
Don't start
And don't stop
Let me feel you
Within you and without you
let me hold you in mine
let me feel you in my mind
let the words fall into place this time
but don't forget your joy of rhyme
so let me feel you now
in this holiest of places
this habitual sane asylum
this unforgiving tale
let me 

Please

Don't fail
Let me sail
let me out of jail
don't let me be pale
im not well alone
lost in my
rivers sigh

Goodbye
And hello
Im very sorry
I did not know
I just let it show
So now you just might know
The dillemas i've so obviously been showing
The fears that i withhold from seeemingly growing
The doubts I enstowed, but never bowed
So let me know
Let me know
Let me
Please


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The Hurt

I swallow in the sorrow
Gulping whole this soiled, bleaching pain
Carry a strained smile
Choked in my mid breath

It's almost never ending
It can almost be heard
The hurt is almost lost
Too lost for words

I bury this smile
Choked in my mid breath
As the hurt transcends beyond
Almost draining

Too draining for words


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Have Courage

Keep fighting with your might; I will see you, shining tonight,
My little starlight...don't be defeated by depression by your delayed flight 
You shattered my hopelessness and doused me with delight
When will you take flight, you angel of love, burning so bright?

Believe in yourself
Don't place me in the far left shelf
Believe in me...please...
Put my mind at...ease...
Have courage...
Behave and be brave

I wish you well 
You're a heaven, not a hell
Where do you dwell now?
You make my heart pound somehow

Believe in yourself
Don't place me in the far left shelf
Believe in me...please...
Put my mind at...ease...
Have courage...
Behave and be brave

Have no inner rage...you're a red, white and blue robin in a cage
be compassionate and gentle...
Even though we're on a different page...we should've been on the same page
You're beautiful and little...

Believe in yourself
Don't place me in the far left shelf
Believe in me...please...
Put my mind at...ease...
Have courage...
Behave and be brave

Don't squander my time
I'm the poet, needing more time to rhyme
I can't conquer this feeling of anxiety,
Succumbing to suicidal ideations...kissing fatality...
But, there's hope in mind...I'm sorry, I'm not your kind
There's more courage inside, but there's a monster, dying to come out...and I'm coming along with the ride
But I can't let go of you, for I've been left behind
Only to find your shadows and I have nowhere to hide


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God's Still Looking Out For You

    GOD'S STILL LOOKING OUTFOR YOU
He still holds the key to your living day to day,
He still feels the pain of your sorrow.
He still has the love we all need along the way,
and He knows we've got to face tomorrow.
He still dresses lilies, and blesses fields with clover,
over in the meadow, where you used to roam,
don't you know He's never forgotton one lily,
in that place you used to call home.

He still helps you struggle with the load you must bear,
He still dresses lilies and clover.
He's still with you even when you think He's not there,
and even when you're thinking it's over.

Everything's alright, God's still looking out for you.
He still dresses lilies, and He's looking out for you.
Everything's alright, God's still there in His Heaven.
God's still looking out for you.
© Ron Wilson aka Vee Bdosa the Doylestown Poet
Yes. a song as well, and the first Demo version with video can be viewed on youtube, search for veebdosa,then selece GOD'S STILL LOOKING OUT FOR YOU.


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Someday

“Someday”
Why is “someday” such a sad word?
When one like “never” is so much worse?
Why....why “someday”?

“Someday!”
Why is “someday” such a sad, sad word?
Perhaps the saddest one I’ve ever heard...
Why “someday”?

Everybody
has somebody
Except me, it seems
but that's not why I want to leave

So out of it
feel “out of it”
Never was in
can't find the way 

"Life’s one big bluff
Keep a straight face
Don’t let ‘em see your cards."

Yeah, life’s one big God-forsaken bluff
and I’m about to jump off

Someday, I thought you’d find me
Someday, I thought you’d love me
But someday ....
...someday......
someday NEVER CAME

“Someday,” they say, “You’ll find somebody.”
“Someday, you will be happy.”
“Someday, life will mean something.”
But someday I'll be SICK of waiting

Someday, you’ll see why it can’t be
Someday we’ll ALL be sorry
One day
sweet day
I’ll find my way 
out of this body.

http://vimeo.com/26557410


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Pure

My cigarette smoke fills my lungs
with lust and anger
making me feel more like a stranger

If only I could put it out like a
blazing fire
In return I'll be pure
for that's my heart's desire.


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This is Goodbye

Somebody told me that you’re happy
That you’re moving right along
That you’re planning for the future
But I think they’ve got it wrong.
You’ve got everyone thinking
That you’re smitten and in love
They think you’ve gotten really lucky
Have everything that you’ve dreamed of…

But I know better, don’t I?
I can see it in your eyes
I see your halfhearted smiles,
I could spot them for miles
And I can sense the subtle lies
I know you better than the rest do
But I can’t save you, I can’t rescue -
You from your own disguise
So I guess this is goodbye now
Goodbye now
Good…bye

I heard she’s fond of metal’s sharpness
That she’s carving both your ways
But she’s cut more than herself
She cut you and everyone else
Who cared about you at one time
And you just let her do it
Let her twist her grips inside
So I guess you’re guilty too
You can’t hide the ugly truth
So I guess this is goodbye

So tell your lies

But I know better, don’t I?
I can see it in your eyes
I see your halfhearted smiles,
I could spot them for miles
And I can sense the subtle lies
I know you better than the rest do
But I can’t save you, I can’t rescue -
You from your own disguise
So I guess this is goodbye now

I guess this is goodbye now
Good…bye


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Take Aim

Take Aim

I think she wants me, she doesnt want me
But, she means alot to me.
 its been six months since I have left you all
and you would tell me everything you saw in me
check it out, im slipping towards " what am i doing here?"
check it out, im staying for one more single year.

Its been six months since i have left you all
and you would tell me when those angles began to fall
and i take aim, and i take aim

I sit back as my tears look after me.
behind this film of past, my memorys degrate me
check it out, im slipping towards 'my life is not clear"
check it out, my mind blurs with each and every year.


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Small Town Big People

I look in the mirror and see the years gone
I can look beyond the glass out the window
To the yards of my childhood
I can smell the flowers and feel the grass ‘neath my feet. 
I can hear the music blasting on the radio
Mama callin’ me for supper.  


I yearn to go back to that danged town
I fought to get away and never look back,
I never wanted to live there again. 
I guess there’s a piece of me
There in that little town. 

The town is small and so are the events
You’re everyone’s business 
You can get a break and can’t get away
You don’t even have a say
You go to and from and people protest
And those same people will still put you to the test


I yearn to go back to that danged town
I fought to get away and never look back,
I never wanted to live there again. 
I guess there’s a piece of me
There in that little town. 

I made it to the big town K.C, 
Got myself a husband and a son and a place to live
Settled in and made a life, got a career
I swear I’ll never return to my best friend
Comfortable where I stand, 
Happy where I am 


I yearn to go back to that danged town
I fought to get away and never look back,
I never wanted to live there again. 
I guess there’s a piece of me
There in that little town. 

Well times are hard,
And people are ruthless in this cut throat time
Jobs are scarce and bills run high
You never know what you’ll hear at night
The people are small in this big town
Yeah people are small in this big town


I yearn to go back to that danged town
I fought to get away and never look back,
I never wanted to live there again. 
I guess there’s a piece of me
There in that little town. 

I guess the town is small
Just good ol’ boys and girls havin’ fun
Small place, small town, small world
People may talk and people may watch
But the biggest thing in that small town
Are the people after all. 


I yearn to go back to that danged town
I fought to get away and never look back,
I never wanted to live there again. 
I guess there’s a piece of me
There in that little town. 

-Heather Birdwell 9/22/2009



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Second victim

I bathe in you and your lies
Will I ever learn to let go 
Wake to your obvious 
Ignorance to my warmth.
Am I so cold to you, 
My friendship ugly?
How I waste my head 
Residing over your nothingness.
A second victim of your guilt - 
That which you made vocal
But evolves you did not feel anyway.
Do you even know what you tell:
Such parody and distortion.
Will you narrate your truth  
To bring about my freedom?


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fallen nation

(chorus)
sign up for the fallen nation/
become a part of complication/
live life of silent frustration/
only way to gain salvation/

(vrs1)
cheat yourself out of living a lie/
dont choose to live, youd rather die/
hate your past its gone forever/
original, youll never remember/


sign up for the fallen nation/
become a part of complication/
live life of silent frustration/
only way to gain salvation/

(vrs2)
burned the words of memories/
blind our eyes so we can see/
make us feel the endless pain/
our minds have slowly gone insane/

(vrs3)
sign up now, dont delay/
turn your  bodies into fake/
swallow pride to be a leader/
learn to become the perfect cheater/

sign up for the fallen nation/
become a part of complication/
live life of silent frustration/
only way to gain salvation/

(vrs4)
be fed our nations lies they taste better than the truth/
cant stop until we've gotten hold of freedom seeking youth/
be fed our lies, choke them down/
dont try to fight, youd rather drown/

sign up for the fallen nation/
become a part of complication/
live life of silent frustration/
only way to gain salvation/









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I'd Do Anything: Losing the Race

I'd do anything...for you
I'd sacrifice my life...for you
I could hike Mount Everest...for you
I'd feed off of your despondency...for you
I'd walk on hot coals...for you
I'd do the impossible...for you
It's true...
I'm positively sure that 
I love you...
I'd give up my life...for you
Still, you don't have a clue?

Sorry for giving up right in front of you... 

Oh! you're always on my mind 
In my everyday thoughts...
I can't stop thinking about you...
you give me hope in mind
Even when you're far away from me
But, I still need you to stay positive...
Thank God you have a kind heart to forgive
The things I didn't mean to say
Why do things not go my own way? 

I'd do anything...for you
I'd sacrifice my life...for you
I could hike Mount Everest...for you
I'd restore your entire life...for you
I'd walk on hot coals...for you
I'd do the impossible...for you
It's true...
I'm positively sure that 
I love you...
I'd give up my life...for you
You still don't have a clue,
Do you?

Abide in the light...reach to a divine height 
Stay with me just for this night
You're my lamp, shedding delight
Stay with me - you're a dazzling sight
Push aside the callous...heartless night 
I witness the tears streaming down your face
I'm frantically wiping them away...I'm sorry for losing the race
I'm sorry...for everything I've done...


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For Bob Dylan

Ramblin' Bob Dylan Blues
(For Bob Dylan)



Why does the sun dry up so many scattered tears

slipping down the coarse cheek of a million hushed fears

where no one is scalded though the searing fog clears

while prayers are mutely spoken even as the end nears

We shatter and scrape on demented knees

Blindly begging for mercy as it silently flees

Searching listlessly for salvation drowned in the breeze

That spits at the soft rose suffocated by a wheeze


I know now what I need never have known

Of hope that was trampled before it had flown

Into a wasted sky filled with hate that could drown

The giggling of the crowd and the crying of the clown


A hope so fragile that its wings were of brittle glass

Ripping the veneer off the sewers of class

Twisting the fabric of the weighed and costed mass

Who numbly waited hoping that it too may pass


For when shards of that hope in all hearts scurries away

To a darkness where crowded night is emptied off the heaving tray

'Tis then when sewn eyes shall behold that doleful day

When all shall tear at each other while on demented knees we still shall pray


For a lifting of the veil of that wilful deceit

That's wrapped up in a flag swollen with conceit

While the limbs splinter in the claw of a winner's defeat

Yet still the drums roll for the ill-fated souls chose never to retreat


From that drenched battle-ground where blood flows through a sieve

And love's lost song plaintively begs for a reprieve

From eternal loss which into raw emotion does cleave

Only to slip through the fingers and like grains of sand, leave.


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Spinster's Reveng

     SPINSTER'S REVENGE
The morning sunrise, red, aflame,
awoke to play the same old game,
outside some humming birds agree
the song will always be the same.

The morning paper goes unread,
for headlines while I'm still in bed,
the news is not so good to me,
not one reports I may be dead.

My Mother calls me on the phone,
she says I shouldn't live alone,
she knows a girl who'd love to be,
in love with me, and it's well known.

Ma says this girl's a lady poor,
but not a spinster at my door,
she'd wash and clean and cook and stuff
and stick by me when things got tough.

So I give in, give her a call,
ask her to marry me and all,
she says ok, I buy the ring,
and then I realize--it's spring.

Ma talks to her twice every day
to thank her for--what can I say--
saving me from oblivion,
into the misery I'm in.

Ma's been a spinster having kids,
too many years, that's how it is,
But like all Moms, she just can't stand
a son who's single to life's end.
© ron wilson aka vee bdosa the doylestown poet


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TIME FOR RESPITE

        TIME FOR RESPITE
Searching through summer; the time for respite;
hot from mid-morning turns warm through the night,
lazy you're feeling, but love doesn't care
if you're reflecting on what has been there.

Memories fade to the heat of the day,
there comes someone who is wanting to say
"How much I love you," and summer must wait
love does not care if it's if early or late.

These are the good times, the reason we dream.
These are the bad times, the reason we scream.
Searching through summer, the time for respite,
Love comes along and then summer feels right.
                    ©  ron wilson


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Trapped

A prisoner of darkness
Was all I could be.
Trapped and alone inside
Along a blackened sea
No one to hold me
To keep me alive
Completely abandoned
No reason to survive.

Then there was a light
Small but getting brighter
It drowned out the darkness
And made me a fighter. . .
Before i'd go with everything
And let them chain me down
Now I start to question them
I start to keep my ground.

Why should I let them stab me?
And see my blood run free
There's a reason that I need to live
To let myself be me.
No one holds me down
Without paying a price.
Why should they anger me
Then expect me to be nice?

I now... Have a beating heart
And a gleam in my eyes
Someone to kiss and hug me
And keep my soul alive.


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:How Can I Tell Her It's Over

How Can I Tell Her It’s Over 

How can I tell her it’s over
How can I tell her we’re through
How can I tell her the love is gone
And that now I’ve found someone new
I don’t want to see the hurt in her eyes
I don’t want to cause her more pain
But we’ve lost the spark we once had
And I don’t know how to explain

We’re just not the same two people
We were children when we met
With stars in our eyes we were married
And those years I’ll never regret 
But Life has a way of intruding
And the years rolled by in a blur
The children now had their own lives
She thought life was over for her

Refrain:
How can I tell her it’s over
How can I tell her we’re through
How can I tell her the love is gone
And that now I’ve found someone new

How do I erase the memories
Of the life that I once led
I thought we’d grow old together
But I’ve found someone else instead
 I’ve found a new love to cherish
Who makes me happy again
There’s just no use pretending
This life I just can’t maintain

Refrain:
How can I tell her it’s over
How can I tell her we’re through
How can I tell her the love is gone
And that now I’ve found someone new

How do I not break her heart
When I tell her I’ve found someone new
Copyright©2011 Beatrice Boyle
(All rights reserved)


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Save Me

Drowning…
Drowning…can you save me? (save me…angel of light…)
I’ve been drowning…what about you? (when will you take flight?)
In my mind’s eye, 
I see you…and I stare in wonder
I’m waiting for your reply
To my screams…is it all in my head?

I hear your fascinating voice
But, it’s all in my head
I hear you calling for help
But, I hear my own dread…

Weighed down…
The world weighs me down…(save me…angel of light…)
I feel your touch and I feel so alive again…(when will you take flight?)
Because I see you…brought low by depression 
The thought of you
Makes me bleed out regret
I’m waiting for your reply
To my cries…of sadness and dread

I hear your fascinating voice
But, it’s all in my head
I hear you calling for help
But, I hear my own dread…

I’m terribly sorry
For causing you unbearable pain
I’m sorry…for everything I’ve done…
Nothing can save me from my fate…
My fate…to fly away from the spiraling world
I cherish the thought of you
Taking wing all over again…

I hear your fascinating voice
But, it’s all in my head
I hear you calling for help
But, I hear my own dread… 

I hear your soothing voice ring in my head…
But, nothing can stop me from my fate
My fate…to fly away from this wretched world…
This world of woe…makes me ache and hesitate…

I hear your fascinating voice
But, it’s all in my head
I hear you calling for help
But, I hear my own dread… 

I don’t understand the pain you feel
I’m so sorry…so sorry…
I don’t know what it’s like in your shoes
I’m full of misery,
But I still hear your voice,
Ringing in my head…
Saturating me with dread

I hear your fascinating voice
But, it’s all in my head
I hear you calling for help
But, I hear my own dread… 

I hear my own dread…I’m falling
Into a black hole…into deep misery
I hear your dread…I’m fading
And I can’t let go of past sorrow…
Your voice…draws me a picture of the dawn…
Your voice…draws me a picture of the sun…

I hear your fascinating voice
But, it’s all in my head
I hear you calling for help
But, I hear my own dread… 
It’s my time to live…and it’s your time to move on…
It’s my time to face my fate…and it’s your time to sing me to sleep
Stay with me until the dawn…
Stay here, dear
Have no fear…darling angel

I hear your fascinating voice
But, it’s all in my head
I hear you calling for help
But, I hear my dread instead…
Save me please…


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Bipolar - The Revised Lyric

Here is the finished revised Lyric for Bipolar. The song can be heard at my poetry website vbdosa.com and then clicking the Bipolar link.
     BIPOLAR
Sometimes I can feel a magic like I've never known.
I could run a thousand miles. Run a thousand miles.
Sometimes it's more like I'm dying here all alone.
Sometimes I think I'll die alone.

Sometimes I can reach out for you, but you're made of stone.
I could die a thousand times. Die a thousand times.
Sometimes it's more like you're showing me I'm not alone.
Sometimes I think I'm not alone.

Euphoria. Up and down. In and out.
Up and down. Euphoria.

Sometimes I can feel a magic like you've never known.
I could run a thousand miles. Run a thousand miles.
Sometimes it's more like you're showing me I'm not alone.
Sometimes I think I'm not along.

Up and down. In and out.
Up and down. In and out.
Euphoria. Then I'm down. Down. Down.
Euphoria. Then I'm down. Down. Down.
© ron wison


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Euphorianah

The sapphire-dust sun of what-were dreams
Swallow the scene, setting In the forsaken east
All I see, all I know fades into the reaper's monotone grey 
Death come near me, by my only choice 
My wintry desperation subdued, clings to they silent voice
The dusk reveals my truest nature before her blank argentine eyes
Life; the darkest of all tragedies, Romances' malady
Let me feel your breath in this frozen air
Your pulse shorter than ever
Despair's void grows inside me
Without, you I will live no longer

Forever with me you will stay
The darkness caressing means as I lay by thy grave 
Hatred no longer exits
Come back to me
Euphorianah

My Angel, why did you fly so far away
My Angel, let just one feather stay
My Angel has flown away

The winterwinds' tears fall on me
With whispers of you, someone I once knew
No matter in a dream or reality
Sweet tranquillity, stay with me
Calming the fears within
But the pain remains

The silvemoon's fears shine on you
Thine eyes search for mine
Oh how they shine, so deathly blue
If sacrifice needs a price
The dagger shows-
Heaven is calling us tonight

Forever with me you will stay
The darkness caressing means as I lay by thy grave 
Hatred no longer exits
Come back to me
Euphorianah

My Angel, why did you fly so far away
My Angel, let just one feather stay
My Angel has flown away

Covered in shadowy illusions 
Shall we dance?
Death will be lie dominion
You are my only queen
Euphorianah

Forever with me you will stay
The darkness caressing means as I lay by thy grave 
Hatred no longer exits
Come back to me
Euphorianah

My Angel, why did you fly so far away
My Angel, let just one feather stay
My Angel has flown away

Just let me die
If I cannot see
Euphorianah 
This night 


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I beg to differ

You imply the cruel
Based on an outcome
You fear to admit to.
Disclosing only your version 
Of truth vs. fact. 
Lies for damage limitation
Lead to fabricated trust.
Your theory of friendship’s
Compassion and kindness
Now reads like a satire.
The thoughtless consequences
Of your fairytales.
So you assume too much
And I beg to differ.


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Slow To Heal

Visible defect Variation Soothing effect As my fingertips Run over this formation Through hills and dips Passing pain Now a conversation piece These wash away with the rain These One day will Cease Internal rips And tears Shadowed Stitched with care Only to be shredded Again Slow to heal If only it was let alone And you wouldn't hammer In the sin Full of chagrin Confidence blown I'd rather Show you my scars My skin shattered Then you discover my wounds Ruined Can't keep the seal So slow to heal


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for Gary Moore

for gary moore...

...ain't nothing but the blues

talkin' sweltering licks

screaming through flaming hues

reaching deep, deep into that wandering soul

of devilish chords on those walkways of paris

strutting and strumming, never taking a mere stroll

so though your time here and now may be up 

and though your moments here and now may be through

forgive me for borrowing your words again

cos' we still got the blues for you...


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Tongue Tied

I've been working on working this out,
finding ways now
just to open my mouth,
to repair and relay all the words I couldn’t say to you
and make you see that it’s not easy.

Before, I'd ground these teeth down to gum
fighting a battle logic says couldn’t be won
between tongue versus cheek, when it’s best not to speak
'cause nothing I said
could ever evenly come out in the end.

A mismatched jumble of words,
mass mumbled and certainly slurred
between emotion and alcohol, left biting my lips raw,
holding my breath and my tongue in case you saw

that every single word
I couldn’t let out or desert
are the ones in reality that never really need to be heard.


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Burning for the Better

The fire has gone out
But the red embers still burn.
Waiting for a letter,
A sheet, a simple memory.
Words like kerosene 
Burning for the better.

I really let myself go
Down the hole this time.
The footsteps back to you,
You count them every time.
Love didn't ruin me
It just made me much more interesting,
At least that's what I told myself.

I don't care what anyone thinks.
Don't remember anything I've said,
Only listen to what I'm saying.
Today's a new day,
But it was warmer yesterday. 

Love didn't ruin me;
The man behind the paper.
Words like Kerosene 
Burning for the better.
I'm still looking for my savior.


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Swallow You Alive

Nothing can save me from this whole that I've dug.
I'm blinded, I can't see the sun.
My vision has once again betrayed me.
You can't save, what you do not love.
So just give up.
It's indeed so much easier to run.
So just leave me here.
Because I've already left you and the mess that you have created.
You're nothing in these eyes.
Sick of your penetrating lies.
You twisted your knife.
Deep into my back. 
So cast aside what you've lost, because you can't bring me back.
Nothing can change the facts. 
It's about time you realize that. 
The damage is done. 
I've seperated myself from you.
You've turned your back on me so many times.
I always said that I'd give you my all, or die trying. 
Well stop now, i'm done lying.
Lying on the floor for you.
I'm just dying, dying to know. 
How does it feel to know that your dead in my eyes? 
I'm only human, and this will swallow you alive. 
This hole that I've dug deep inside.
Deep inside your heart. 
The whole wide world was always in the grasp of your hands. 
You let it go, how do it feel to be see through? 
Because now there is a hole in your heart where i used to be.
Can't you see, I left you long before you left me.


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Shine

I caught the ghost train
back to the house of pain
where she was waiting
standing naked in the rain.
I felt her warm breath
as she whispered a kiss.
Last thing i remember,
i was half way to my bliss.
and she said shine, shine, shine in the dark.
and i said shine, shine, shine light a spark,
and she said shine, shine, shine through the grey.
and i said shine shine shine your light away.

I felt all the faces 
staring back at me.
I felt so paro as i 
floated through this sea.
Halfway there i
decided i could run away.
But when i turned around
i was going the same way.
and she said shine, shine, shine in the dark.
and i said shine, shine, shine light a spark,
and she said shine, shine, shine through the grey.
and i said shine shine shine your light away.

I closed my eyes to listen
as the tears forgot to fall.
Silence screamed out answers
but i forgot them all.
Now can you hear me
as i never find my way,
to a place i can't remember
or a place i'd like to stay.
and she said shine, shine, shine in the dark.
and i said shine, shine, shine light a spark,
and she said shine, shine, shine through the grey.
and i said shine shine shine your light away.


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THE MUSE OF YOU

   THE MUSE OF YOU
Through all of time and all of space,
and following into the chase
but never catching what I've seen
nor even knowing what I mean
it's not a thing my mind can place.

Your eyes, so deep, I never know
where you might lead, where I must go,
but there I find what I must write
the words, though sometime seeming trite,
and from your eyes they have to flow.

No less than what is meant to be
the Muse of you carresses me;
I wonder is this love or not,
or something else, but don't know what,
and I must follow what I see.

Forever summer rain will fall
into my life, and love is all
there is to be my wordly guide;
between each line is where I hide,
if I do less, then I have lied.

And so the truth I have to show,
revealing what I never know,
but wonder at, as words come on
out of your eyes, where I have gone,
and been where I should never go.
     © ron wilson aka vee bdosa the doylestown poet


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VooDoo

Catch him up at night
Reading about Satans Journey
Painting his walls in black
Cut marks all down his back
Placing candles around the room
Using voodoo towards the bride and groom
Sticking the needle in her womb
Grabbing the shovel and digs a hole
Burying them one by one the dirt eating their souls
Next to each other under the sun
Using witchcraft just for fun
Never thought he'd be alone
Cuts your neck running chills throught your bones
His anger is the only thing that has shown
Driving him self into depression
When do you think he will learn his lesson


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Broken Hearted

I left behind an environment that I had finally stabilized
And nothing felt real until I said my goodbyes
I thought I left behind hurt but it stuck inside
And now I walk around with a pain that is mine
Constantly checking my phone to know that I’m not alone
But when I see nothing I know that I am
I never thought it would come down to this desperation
where everything I’ve said seems to be used against me
but the reason I speak is because its my plea all I want is for someone to acknowledge my broken heart


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JUST OUTSIDE OF PECOS

    JUST OUTSIDE OF PECOS
Down on my luck again--it's nuthin' new.
Just outside of Pecos, with a dream that's overdue.
But I got my entry fee, here in my boots, 
and I don't intend to lose.

All broken up again, it's nuthin' new.
Just outside of Pecos, with a busted rib, or two.
But I got my entry fee, here in my boots,
and I don't intend to lose.

There's a bronc, I know, waitin' here in Pecos,
wantin' to throw, every cowboy in Pecos,
I been throwed a time, or two.
It's the rodeo, takin' me to Pecos,
but you never know, this might be my last Pecos,
since I met you.

Wonder if that bronc ever could be rode?
Just outside of Pecos, and my feet are gettin' cold.
But I got my entry fee, here in my boots, and I don't intend to lose.
I'll ride that bronc, I know,
I'll ride that bronc, I know.
© ron wilson aka Vee Bdosa the Doylestown Poet


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For All My Pain

Your blood is what was Sacrificed And in Blood we Shall Bathe No more pain nor more hate Will be shed for me ...This is only a desperate dream A slight tender touch on the largest of wounds can leave you screaming for an eternity Dreaming of an escape, A friend from a figment of dark a world from the abyss of my mind Set to fix all of your transgressions Every time you left, abandoned, stranded, forget me A human heart has a limit but It's only I who is left to blame Drifting beyond Aphelion Why must the loudest of Cries Go unheard Maybe You'll know why I want Thagirion to Answer my Masked Prayers For All My Pain Constraining Me Making my Saturnine Mind Climb to the Apex Just to Fall again Maybe You'll know why I want Thagirion to answer all of my masked prayers For All My Pain Everyone turning against me I can't keep living a lie like this Lost In Life When death is the only hope Nothing is left to stay But the Fear of being afraid Let me lose this Let me enter another world Drifting beyond Aphelion Why must the loudest of Cries Go unheard Maybe You'll know why I want Thagirion to Answer my Masked Prayers For All My Pain Constraining Me Making my Saturnine Mind Climb to the Apex Just to Fall again Maybe You'll know why I want Thagirion to answer all of my masked prayers For All My Pain Drifting beyond Aphelion Why must the loudest of Cries Go unheard Maybe You'll know why I want Thagirion to Answer my Masked Prayers For All My Pain Constraining Me Making my Saturnine Mind Climb to the Apex Just to Fall again Maybe You'll know why I want Thagirion to answer all of my masked prayers For All My Pain


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Someone, Someday

It’s so hard to start
It’s so hard to finish
It feels as if all that you've accomplished will someday be diminished 
And it won’t matter if you become somebody some day
Because someone will easily take your place 
Steal your ideas 
And make a living off you, THEIR way

It’s sad but true
Every mutha f**ka 
Will take a piece of your mind
and will somehow ultimately f**k you

not physically but mentally
making you think 
you’re not one of a kind
their getting all the fame 
while everyone leaves you behind

leaving you to feel like a failure 
people telling you to talk to God, 
he’ll have the answer

I pray, looking up at the ceiling
Hoping he’ll will give me a reason….
To keep going on with my life and my ideas
But all I’m left with are clones of my feelings
Washed up on canvases with some else’s fake veneers 


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Oh, Have Mercy On My Soul

Oh, have mercy on my soul oooh...x3
Can you hear me x4

You are my cloud 7
You were my once a tranquil heaven
You lift me high above...
You make me high with your love...
Your undying love

Oh, have mercy on my soul oooh...x3
Can you hear me x4

When will I awaken from this 
Dream of reality?
Will I wake up to find you 
Out of my reach? 

Oh, have mercy on my soul oooh...x3
Can you hear me x4

Quit being irresistible...babe 
(xoxo) Pause the scene (xoxo)

Oh, have mercy on my soul oooh...x3
Can you hear me x4

You 
injected heroin 
In your system 
Your 
Adrenalin is
Boostin' up dramatically...but those bad blood cells will devour you...one day

Oh, have mercy on my soul oooh...x3
Can you hear me x4

I don't like you for the decisions you make
I don't like you for that... x3 I never meant to hurt you and all I do is watch you break

Oh, have mercy on my soul oooh...x3
Can you hear me x4

You 
Rejected me
Now you're with em
Your 
Addiction will
Kill you in no time - the time is tickin' away as you waste your time, hurting yourself in many ways; and it's a crime that you've committed...you're gonna pay someday 

Oh, have mercy on my soul oooh...x3
Can you hear me x4

I hate that I love you...
I hate that I knew you 
I hate how much I like you..
I hate how much you make me
Feel blue...

Oh, have mercy 
On my soul oooh...


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Apophis

You say you know no saviour,
You say you know no God. 
But find your scripts and rosary,
You'll need them when I'm done. 

Seven armies couldn't stop me.
Seven horsemen couldn't budge
All that I have inside me,
And that I've become. 

Never underestimate your enemies
I've got my scars for all to see
And I'm not done yet.
Never underestimate your enemies
Or what I'll do for victory.
Shield your eyes so you don't see
That I'm not done yet. 

Happiness; I've done all I can.
Loneliness, let go of my hand.
I've got my scars for all to see
And I'm not done yet. 

Drink your holy water and cleanse inside,
I'm waiting until midnight.
I won't stop until I hold your heart.
I won't stop until own your soul. 

This evil plays such a pretty song,
You know the words now sing along.
Oh the notes they sound so sweet
In this dark, dark, dark symphony. 

Happiness; I've done all I can.
Loneliness, let go of my hand.
I've got my scars for all to see
And I'm not done yet.

Never underestimate your enemies
I've got my scars for all to see
And I'm not done yet.
Never underestimate your enemies
Or what I'll do for victory.
Shield your eyes so you don't see
That I'm not done yet


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Waking Up In a Dream

Caged out inside herself The dark light will never shine Why do you care to think negative If you'd care to think at all? Can you believe I wanted to be you? The dream faded long ago Once I realized it was me whom was right; prudence redeemed Your thoughts were wrong Why would you ever try someone that is less than you Someone that could never contend Directly to the end? My ashes turn dark Suffering from the sins of others No melody can save me I'm crossing the borderline Waking up in a dream Is it justified To harm others Only to break your insecurities To fill your prejudice I wish I could know Why you do this The words freeze when the come to me To burn another was they set into you Relapsed again I was left bleeding Cause I'm not good enough if I can be me You were the dream; I was the nightmare Serendipity came for me And I woke up in a dream My ashes turn dark Suffering from the sins of others No melody can save me I'm crossing the borderline Waking up in a dream My ashes turn dark Suffering from the sins of others No melody can save me I'm crossing the borderline Waking up in a dream Say oh, I must say, to you, Mon plus Cher ami Yes to you I'm sorry I had an opinion I'm sorry I felt for one who can't feel I'm sorry I wasn't you I'm sorry I can only be me I'm sorry your dread words will never again be heard by me My ashes turn dark Suffering from the sins of others No melody can save me I'm crossing the borderline Waking up in a dream My ashes turn dark Suffering from the sins of others No melody can save me I'm crossing the borderline Waking up in a dream


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Dig Up Stupid

You're degrading yourself You're only digging deeper This grave you've made for yourself You're your own tormentor Why don't you help yourself? Climb out of this hole Stop hurting yourself Fix your sad soul Look at this mess you've made Was it really worth The pain you payed Just for such A vapid Touch One more One more touch Dig up stupid Don't try and right the wrong The damage is done Silence the song You can't run From a list so long The eyes are watching The diverse Became the same Why can't I keep my hands from latching Onto what was never mine? Look at this mess you've made Was it really worth The pain you payed Just for such A vapid Touch One more One more touch Dig up stupid Dig up


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the breakdown

for every step that he takes forward
he feels like he's losing
he's losing so much more 
standing up for what he believes is right
he plants both of his feet,
as he struggles to fight
he struggles from within as his lungs gasp for air 
he loves her
but she hardly realizes that he's there
so he's lead by her indecisiveness once again 
but she doesn't care 
and he breaks down
 yeah, she breaks down 
Open your eyes and stop believing these ignominous lies 
she's just the air the he continues to breathe
he's just the rumor that she wanted to believe 
he breaks down 
she breaks down 
they breakdown 
he sits there hiding all of his pain 
he puts on his disguise and lives life unchanged
but on the inside he breaks down 
his thoughts of constant losing 
her ways are so confusing and he hates the way she's using him 
so he breaks down 
Breakdown, 
her constant apprehension, 
it must be a given, 
because she hates the way she's living, 
so she breaks down, 
yeah, she breaks down


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And my crime was being English

You faked friendship with me
And my crime was being English

You feigned interest in what I had to say
And my crime was being English

You sarcastically smiled at me
And my crime was being English


You omitted to give me information
And my crime was being English

You wrote notes behind my back
And my crime was being English


Your jealousies oozed from all of your pores
And my crime was being English

You stabbed the knives into my face
And my crime was being English

You tore my nation to shreds
And my crime was being English



You told me I would not be welcome
And my crime was being English

You pretended I wasn’t there
And my crime was being English

You left me standing lonely
And my crime was being English

Will you leave me alone to die
For my crime of being English? 


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Words

The words march up your throat
like an army of the fiercest soldiers.
Each one pushing
and screaming,
ripping and tearing,
prying open your defiant jaw
with razor sharp blades.
Each blow forces it farther
until the words erupt
like molten lava,
burning and scarring
anything-
or anyone-
in its path.
The pain subsides.
The fear,
the anger,
the hate
has drained.
But pain cannot be destroyed,
only placated,
and pain is a disease
afflicting the world,
spread by the spoken word.
The battle may be won, yes,
but the war is far from over.


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Like Knives

I opened my hand to yours.
Greeted by knives.
The hidden agenda of a parasite
wanting to feast on the likes of me.
Infectious poison coming from your cold, blue lips. 
Lies masked by my attraction to your curvacious hips.
My mind taken in by trick after trick.
I pull you closer as the time passes.
Soon will come a time that you will pray to forget.
Your lies penetrate my flesh like knives.
Cold, steel insertion.
Your poison preys to infiltrate my veins to destroy the body.
Like knives your kiss, I'm swallowing your lies, your words slicing up my insides.
Time after time. 
You bury yourself and your wicked ways inside me.
Wishing to clog the arteries.
You've punctured my skin, I've allowed you in.
Inside my body.
You are making your way into every square inch of me.
You're the stones that have taken the place of my kidneys.
Like knives, you lacerate yourself into the depths of my appendix.
You're the black cloud covering my lungs.
Like knives you slither to sliver my liver piece by piece.
You're so captivating.
I digest you into my intestines.
Permanent damage. 
You have become every bit of the fluid that circulates through my body, my veins.
Like knives, with each stab, each puncture, each wound.
I have become every bit as responsible for what's about to happen as you.
Cuz you've carried these knives since you've come into my life.
Now it's time for me to end your time.
Become the sandman.
I've been strapped with a pistol since the beginning.
This isn't a fairy tale ending.
I bet now you wish you had brought more than a knife to a gunfight.


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Hello -Feels Good-

Hello Feels Good 
written by David William Breidenthal (D.W.Breidenthal)

AN UNFINISHED SONG..... needs tons of editing!! 
Enjoy despite my lack of organization in this particular poem!

Hello, it's nice to see you again...
Greetings from my heart...promise me you won't break it apart
Hello, I'd love to bring you in...
We meet eye to eye....and I won't lie - it feels good to know you won't depart
From my arms.....
Until the end of time...
Until the world stops spinning 
Round and round...

(*Chorus* It feels good to know that someone cares 
It feels good to know you still abide in His light
It feels good to knowthat you take away my frightening nightmares
It feels good to know that your connected to my spirit like a halo
It feels bad to say goodbye...when I mean to say hello...
Never thought we were trapped in callous night...

Hello...I never had the heart to say goodbye....
'Cause you know...I can't handle feelin blue
Hello...I'd like to know how many times I've let you down...
I let you go one more time...let your soul ascend in the heartfelt sky.... )

When is it time to say hello? Is there a time to say goodbye?
Could yoou let me know will your heart be released from depression?
Is there a reason to say goodbye? Why do I envy you as you fly so high?
How can I feel relief when it's time to say farewell to our mission? 
I watch you grow so old...your legend shimmering like precious gold

*chorus* It feels good........etc. 
*bridge* Don't forget me...you were my heart's melody
Don't fly too far away from me
Unlock me from my misery...and treasure me like gold
You astonish me with your enchanting touch
Don't rush this moment, dear - 
you're the fire that keeps me warm
Is it the right time to say goodbye
When I want to say hello to this feeling of belonging...
Hello...x3 you keep me waiting for so long
you keep me waiting...I keep longing
for your ability to take wing
Can't help,but say hello
There's no need to say goodbye
You give me a natural high...I won't deny...

I won't lie
We've been going our seperate ways
Don't say goodbye
I haven't seen you in days...haven't seen you in a while...
But, I must learn to live with or without you...
When you leave my side, I'm the victim of fear 

*chorus*
*bridge*
You keep me safe from the predator
You nourish my soul...You're my dreamcatcher...
you're my stormy weather
You thrill my eyesight...like no other...
Why do I feel the need to say hello
When I'm forced to say goodbye forever?
Why do I feel as if you somehow know
What I'm talking about? Am I still sick from the love fever?

There's more to life than what meets the eye, dear friend
I feel you crawling in my heart...
There's a time to keep your head above the surface...who will mend
Our entwined hearts? Who will erase our fears 
That set us apart?
*chorus*

Without you, I'm nothing but a dim light
Without you, I'm meaningless...I'd 
miss our cherished delight
Life doesn't overflow with beauty and insight
Without you, I'm left with challenges that bite
Without you, I get rather depressed...I always crave your love night after night

What if hello was dead?
Would it put goodbye in its death bed?
What if hello embraced us with dread?
Would goodbye be a cure instead?


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Till My Ticker Expires

Work seven till five		
To stay off the street.
When I do overtime		
Come home dead on my feet.
Seems month after month	
Can afford less to eat.
When they raise my rent--	
Could be out on the street.

My car’s fairly new;		
Got a decent TV.
My home has a view.		
The bank owns them, not me.
I went back to school,		
Got another degree.
Still work like a fool		
'cause of the ‘conomy.

Ain’t yet had a raise		
Since the day I was hired.
Each check buys me less.	
Cost-of-living gets higher.
My one biggest fear’s		
That I’ll never retire.
I’ll be working somewhere	
‘til my ticker expires.

Ain’t yet had a raise.		
Come home dead on my feet.
Each check buys me less-- 	
Can afford less to eat.
My one biggest fear,		
Since the day I was hired:
I’ll be doin’ overtime		
Until my ticker expires.


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Blast Away

Belittled every day
By the one who says she loves
Everything about my life
Constantly brought down

Several offer hands to save
Me from falling down, but I
Don't need to take hold, I can
Make it on my own and I

Wanna blast away
I wanna blast away

Haunted by the past
Emotions manifest
I'm in love with someone else
But I don't know I really am

Or is it something else? Maybe
It's not quite how it seems, maybe
In love with the idea, not quite
The idea manifested, but still I

Wanna blast away
I wanna blast away


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Freyja

 
Surging through this lifeless Body of mine Mania, Euphoria, Freyja Never let me run dry I am lost by your Sigh But I cannot cry What Is this coming over me this everlasting energy Never cease this utmost surprise I graciously prithee Sorcery of Insomnia Caught in Mania Only for Freyja Her Golden one Is Burning out Deranged Am I? Faster, Only Faster Harder, Only Harder In Bizarre Light I hold myself to another Flame Torturous Fun of this Game Sorcery of Insomnia Caught in Mania Only for Freyja Her Golden one Is Burning out Deranged Am I? Sensuality to it's new Peak Running again from the Fake obsolete Euphoric, Erotic All you want All you Desire Sorcery of Insomnia Caught in Mania Only for Freyja Her Golden one Is Burning out Deranged Am I?


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YOU STOPPED LOVING HER TODAY

       YOU STOPPED LOVING HER TODAY
The very least you should expect is emptiness
throughout your lifetime, pain and bitterness
there is no end that you can ever find
to end the never ending struggle in your mind.

They tell you, someday you'll get over it
and as your life goes on you will forget
but dying hearts know that's the thing to say
appeasement to the pass of time and dying day.

How many nights will pain be everything?
There's not a way to stop what love can bring
nor change the way you feel in any light
it's always there part of your life both day and night.

You think on death how peaceful it must be
but dead is what you are and constantly
so lay you down to sleep in any way
and then it can be said, 
.............................you stopped loving her today.
© ron wilson


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BIPOLAR

     BIPOLAR
Sometimes I can feel a magic like I've never known.
I could run a thousand miles. Run a thousand miles.
Sometimes it's more like I'm dying here all alone.
Sometimes I think I'll die alone.

Euphoria. Then I'm down down down
Euphoria. Then I'm down down down. Euphoria.

Sometimes I can reach out for you, but you're made of stone.
I could die a thousand times. Die a thousand times.
Sometimes it's more like you're showing me I'm not alone.
Sometimes I think I'm not alone.

Euphoria. Then I'm down down down
Euphoria. Then I'm down down down. Euphoria.

Euphoria then I'm down down down.
Euphoria then I'm down down down.
© ron wison


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Juxtapose

I must be getting old,
beginning to hate the cold,
perhaps instinctively,subconsciously knowing
cold's connection to death,
I can hardly catch my breath,
smoking like a fiend
since I was fifteen,
knuckle enlarged and red,
the pounding in my head,
just wanting to take to my bed
but worried I might wake up dead,
sometimes I wake up confused, bemused
not knowing where I am
not recognizing the room
and feeling a sudden sense of doom
remembering the womb
and fearing the tomb...
one time I woke up and didn't
even know who I was:
complete amnesia for a few moments
some kind of mental seizure
my mind was blank as I wildly eyed the room
and tried and tried
to remember who-what-where,
a brief but horrific loss of my humanity,
a glimpse of pure insanity
heart gripping panic I won't soon forget
and yet...and yet
in my mind I am still young
while I try to reconcile the contrast between
that youth in my mind
with the passing of time
as I slowly slip my tongue
over the smooth gums
where once there were teeth
and the few I have left give me
nothing but grief
rotten and black
breaking in half
I spit out pieces that look like
they came from King Tut,
I keep my mouth shut
afraid to speak or smile
all the while
knowing the taste of death,
it's on my breath,
I grasp the depression that comes with age
and the impotence of elderly rage
and once again I see that child I once was,
blonde and tanned and running wild,
building castles on the beach,
skin hot and brown and hair sun-bleached,
my father carries me into the water,
gray haired man and tow-head daughter,
the surf is wild, churning 'round his legs
but his stride is true and brave
he lifts me me high above the waves
I hug his neck, he's in his prime
and now I wish I could turn back time
and stay there now and evermore
that endless summer at the shore
when I was five, or maybe four.


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Shadow

At every meeting
behind every podium
	I stand
when I have the floor
	And times when I don't
I stutter before I speak
	Only slightly, for I have control
	No one sees the shadow that crosses my face
I swallow down the desire to speak the truth
	It isn't any of their business
I get to the business at hand
	Stifling my desire
It has ruined me
	Made me into what I am

At the end of every day
Behind my front door
	I bow down
I lay on the floor
	I drink
I drink to my loss
	I loose control
	And slip into the shadow
I smile and whisper the words
	"My name is Bill and I am an alcoholic"


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Rosaline

Moonlight shines down on my cold, pale face I am alone, her raven calling, I am disgrace Falling as the willows weep, I hold her in my arms as she struggles to breathe Rosaline, my one love divine. You are sacred You are mine Her voice rising above the water Beautiful Rosaline sang silently to me The whispers trailing off her fingers, as she faded into the darkness My beautiful angel has vanished again Goodbye my Beautiful Rosaline. Happened that Grim reckless day when the shadows began to play Beauty detonated in my trust No more, no more will there ever be a witch so grand, as to bring back my Beloved Rosaline Sorrow cuts it's way into my heart It is the locked key, the one you keep Her voice rising above the water Beautiful Rosaline sang silently to me The whispers trailing off her fingers, as she faded into the darkness My beautiful angel has vanished again Goodbye my Beautiful Rosaline So leaving this Tragic scene I vanished from Rosaline's sight Nevermore will there ever be a witch so grand, as to bring back my Beloved Rosaline Her voice rising above the water Beautiful Rosaline sang silently to me The whispers trailing off her fingers, as she faded into the darkness My beautiful angel has vanished again Goodbye my Beautiful Rosaline. Enchanting she sang to me, in the everlasting light of peace My beautiful siren walks again Goodnight my Beautiful Rosaline


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I Miss The Fairytales

Don't be my hero. I'll only walk farther into the flames and let you get burned, unaware that 
I could trip and stab myself with my own words. I'd tell you not to wait for me to come back 
and welcome solitude as my mistress. The battle is over, have I the right to find you again? I 
used to paint myself with the blood on my hands. Left only with the stain, I try to patch the 
wound that had already scarred. Will I be brave enough to step back off the edge and let 
faith take me by the hand, pulling me back from the unknown that I live to dive into? All I 
wanted was for the flames to consume me, with ashes in the laughing wind to remember me 
by. They were holograms and spotlights. I run to the only place I know you'll be; a silent 
request for one last dance, without a promise to stay 'till midnight.

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Eggshells

You say you will, but then you won’t Say you do and then you don’t I’m running around in circles all the time You tell me that you’re feeling low Saying maybe I should go Then the next minute you’re saying You feel fine It’s a catch twenty-two Whenever I’m with you I’m damned if I don’t And damned if I do I’m walking on eggshells When I am with you I can’t do right for doing wrong You make the days so very long It’s like I’m constantly trying To swim against the tide First a happy, then sad face A simple word said out of place Then suddenly it is 'pity poor me' time It’s a catch twenty-two Whenever I’m with you I’m damned if I don’t And damned if I do I’m walking on eggshells When I am with you It doesn’t matter what I say or do I’m always walking on eggshells When I am with you.


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Feelings From The Heart

These feelings in me now
I can't turn it around
And everytime I saw u
My heart beats very loud

I saw you play the instrument
It was musical to my ears
It was like listening to a melody
Which everyone would love to hear

But taking these feelings in me
These feelings from my heart
Deep inside, I broke apart
I will never get to tell you about my part

Hope we will stay friends no matter what
Even though if the truth is out
This feelings from the heart
You can feel it all around

These feelings from the heart
Will never make us apart
Never ever ever in our world


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The Struggle

Strain 
On my back
This burden
Will burst my veins
The strength to hold on
I lack
Can't shield the attack

I shake
Under the weight
Keep throwing the bricks
Until my soul is sick
Create my fate
Laugh when I cry
And dance when I die

Venom filled words
Burn through the porcelain
Stabbing the sword
Deeper in blood red skin
The hiss
Fills my ears
Hit
Miss
One more sear
More burning tears

Death will come
Victory for the meek
Can't help but succumb
To the power you seek

We stand tall
A power so great
You've become so small
No room for your hate
Our scars erased
By the one deserving
The highest place


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Row The Boat

Just row the boat,
Just row the boat,
Even if unknown why.
Just row the boat,
Just row the boat,
And man, you'll go high.

Just row the boat,
Just row the boat
Even if your hands give up.
Just row the boat,
Just row the boat,
Even if you've had enough.

Just row the boat,
Just row the boat,
Even if you're stalked by sharks.
Just row the boat,
Just row the boat,
No matter how grotesque bruise marks.

If you row the boat,
If you row the boat,
You may reach luck's open arms.
If you row the boat,
If you row the boat,
No more emptiness in your palms.

If you row the boat,
If you row the boat,
At least, you gained exercise.
If you row the boat,
If you row the boat,
The decision; remarkably wise.

If you row the boat,
If you row the boat,
Mistake; an antonym.
If you row the boat,
If you row the boat,
You may just reach Him


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This is I

It was pointed out to me today that I am self absorbed
My words did not come
For I was stung
Realizing they were right


It was pointed out to me today that I am self centered
I looked at the floor
For I was stung
Realizing that they could see through me


It was pointed out to me today that I am self contained
I pulled at my hands
For I was stung
Realizing that they were exposing me


It was pointed out to me today that I have no concern for anyone but myself
I choked on my words and clenched my fists 
For I was stung
Realizing that they knew me too well


This is what I have become


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In My Poet's Eye

IN MY POET'S EYE
I can't say, where you are tonight.
I can't say, our love would have turned out right.
I don't know, but I do know, 
you are still my love.

Every night I find I still reach for you.
Any time I pray, I still pray for you.
I don't know the reason, 
But I know you're still a part of me.

In my poet's eye, I still see you here.
In my poet's world, I still feel you near.
I don't know the reason, 
but I thought God meant this love to be.
I don't know the reason, 
but I thought God meant our love to be.

In my poet's mind, you are mine again.
In my poet's heart you are here again.
In my poet's eye, you'll always be my love.

In my poet's eye, you'll always be my love.
In my poet's eye, you are still my love.
.......© ron wilson
The video for this song on Youtube, search for "veebdosa"then select IN MY POETS EYE, either Vee Bdosa (aka Ron Wilson) singing or Emily Van Praag singing.


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YOUR TAJ MAHAL

     Your Taj Mahal
Too many times you hoisted anchor
there isn't time but you should thank her,
for being such a goober for so long.
You have made her life a Taj Mahal
there she swims in waist deep indigo,
she's reflected in the cesspools of your morning sun.

An ivory tusk is what you're after,
a monument to fun and laughter,
she shaves your neck out on the street for fun,
she's New Delhinese from head to toes,
but you brought her to the Poconos,
where your Taj Mahal outshines the morning sun.

You talk about the plight of Gandhi
most of the night and all day Sunday,
and tell your friends about the things she's done,
at her spinning wheel she worships you,
but she's leaving in a week or two,
if she told you now it wouldn't be much fun.

She'll board a ship that's hoisting anchor
and meet a poet or a banker,
avoiding caste from where she once belonged,
she'll remember you for making her
one more monument to how things were,
when your Taj Mahal was whiter than the sun.


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Mr Brown

Oh I ask you Mr Brown, tell me how long has it been now, since your lover went away?
It was a year and a day of your life.
Its been oh so quiet and the air is still for her love.

Only washed her hair yesterday 
And the sunlight came her way
The sensual glow of the sun on her skin
Made her a warm and loving person

The smell of sweet roses wafted round the room
I’m sure you wish you had created a baby in her womb
The tenderness and earthly power of her charms
Was like seeing, feeling, or even holding her palms.

Holy aura of your lover
Could n’er be filled by no other
She is the only one to make you laugh and cry
But the weight of your tears now are dry

Stunned into emotional shock
Hit by the advance of the clock
You remain in wait for your most special love
Is it hope that storm clouds bring doves?

Night passes and trees shed leaves
A pitiful sight of a man bereaved
His lover is still living but no one knows where
Why did she do it, do you think she even cared?

Oh I ask you Mr Brown, tell me how long has it been now, since your lover went away?
It was a year and a day of your life.
Its been oh so quiet and the air is still for her love.




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My version of you

I will not cry for you.
That who you were 
No longer exists.
Lingered thoughts
Only damage. 

Hold me

Back 

From moving forwards.

You were your own lie.
Time after time I believed 
We could see past the present
Return to what we built,
But now I know 
You weren’t, aren’t and 
Never will be  
My version of you.


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Miss Mayhem

Nymphomania Is all she can grant you along with a well spent night This femme fatale isn't something A man can't handle A sex-fiend straight from the chamber of Satan A desire so strong It won't ever feel wrong A mistress of melancholy She took over my soul The amphetamine addiction Of her deadly embrace Her sweet poisonous grace Her heroin laced lips Oh how her venom drips All beware of a sensual destruction The comely fatal femme This sexual gem Stay away from miss mayhem Disaster is what she is A taste of her could make you leave All other vices and loves Would you ever think of the price For an eternity you'll be condemne dEven just for one night with miss mayhem This vamp of pain all life she will drain, this is addicting whore Is all you will adore Exciting and erotic Using all fetishes against your soul Your wife will surely lament From this dreadful strife A mistress of melancholy She took over my soul The amphetamine addiction Of her deadly embrace Her sweet poisonous grace Her heroin laced lips Oh how her venom drips All beware of a sensual destruction The comely fatal femme This sexual gem Stay away from miss mayhem A plague of pleasure The flead rats couldn't even measure Against the scourge of men A mistress of melancholy She took over my soul The amphetamine addiction Of her deadly embrace Her sweet poisonous grace Her heroin laced lips Oh how her venom drips All beware of a sensual destruction The comely fatal femme This sexual gem Stay away from miss mayhem


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Sweet Intense

Of 
sweet
 intense 
and 
unchartered 
pleasure

Beyond 
your lips

Oh, 
the hidden 
treasure


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We Walk Amongst The Faithful

We walk amongst the faithful. Unknown to human eyes. So normal and so human, They can't see through our disguise. The tears of angels made us As they flew down from the sky. They didn't want to do it, So all they did was cry. We're stuck amongst the ruin. The horror and despair. We've seen a bit too closely To the heart of Evil's lair. We walk amongst the faithful. Unknown to human eyes. So normal and so human, They can't see through our disguise. We're scarred up on the inside, But outside we're just fine. We hide the truth so well They can't see into our lies. Our daddies were all drinkers. And when they would get mad, They'd take it out us poor souls, And boy were we so glad When Daddy drank himself to sleep, And we could go and hide. Carve another scar into our heart Which was hidden deep inside. We walk amongst the faithful Unknown to human eyes So normal and so human They can't see through our disguise. Our mommies all liked men Perhaps a bit too much They sampled fair and far And didn't mind the touch. When Mommy fell asleep, Her boyfriends would come down And they would scare us half to death And they'd start to mess around. And after they were done Ravaging our broken souls We'd take our chance to run And hide from things we'd never know. We walk amongst the faithful Unknown to human eyes So normal and so human They can't see through our disguise. Our families are all broken We have no place to hide No place to let our tears out Let out what hurts inside. And now we sit here all alone In this dark corner as all hope Evades our longing hands We've lost our way to cope. And now we hide our feelings And what they've done to every “me”. We hold our chins up high. We do not let them see. We walk amongst the faithful Unknown to human eyes So normal and so humans Can't see through our disguise We pretend it doesn't happen We can't let anyone know Our traitor of a heart Is something we can't show. Would anyone even understand What we hold inside our hearts? Or would we be a freak show A different world apart? Maybe one day we will find one Every single one of us Someone who will understand Someone we can trust.


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No Time

When I think it'll turn out fine
When I think God's on my side
Twisting in this humidity
Forcing down humility

So what now?
Where do I head?

Can it just be all said and done?

Everyday you wonder why 
I open just to say goodbye
Locking up my heart from you all
So that I can never fall

So what now?
Where do I head?

You know she ruined all I had won.

I bow down
Sold my soul to grief
Self-titled honor among thieves
Slice my sanity and

Bow down
Don't worry for me
Soon I will be free
They tell me to keep waiting 

And there's no time!
Her twisted crime
Left me to die
And crying "why?"

Symphony of screams from below
Writhing in a pulsing rainbow
Eternally knowing my life
And smiling when she did her strife

And what now?
Where do I head?

Time to know it's all said and done.

I know you only want to help me
Appreciated, but no please
I understand your question "why"
Because I'm itching for my last goodbye

And what now?
Where do I head?

I don't want you to know.

Don't want you to get your mind inside
Just one more time and I might die
Every time I try it out
I end up in a bloody shout

Oh, what now?
Where do I head?

And this place has nothing for me now.

Criminals and slovenly scum
Only thoughts of their's are their own
No one's left at all and I stand
Self-exiled to no man's land

Oh, what now?
Where do I head?

There's no time for regrets now.


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FRANK'SGIVING!

Hey, Pilgrims,
Let's dress-up
Dress-down the plumes
of the dancing Peacock
(If we'd allow)
but for the Ritual;

For Francsly speaking
in tongues of plata y oro,
Pound-for-bloody-pound
How much 'cide this buys?
A simply-uneasy angst to the quest,
Oh, how Corpulent "m.d.'s" -
Which dystrophy Indigene Water - Land - Identity muscle 
Manifest your Destiny! - Trophied.

Lots of time for sargeants,
for unhappy Cherokee rides on trails to tears      
Led from 50,000 years to Discovery? Indeed!
With no reservation 
'cept to enslave the Spirit,
And with tobacco & cotton gotten
from the corn colors of the Earth!

Are the Iroquois/Mohawk/Navajo/Cherokee/Hopi
Thankfully jeeping...?

Don You grisly-now...
Our meleagris gallopavo decapatito,
Strut and march like mute Mummera in the Charade!

                                                                            Cum Multis Aliis  


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Void

Hello. 
Don't you know?
Oh, we all know. We see, and seek. 
I inhale stinging sand. The meek wreak of this heat. 
all we have are palms full of time, ticking with rhyme. 
Hello. 
Don't you know?
This is me, in all my entirety.


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The depths of her awareness of love and all things dangerous was as deep as a bottomless pit. Knowing that venom from a man such as he would surely be her demise,she  took her chances,"Surely this one is the very one to save my war torn soul!" He's too sweet to poison her!! Too gentle to squeeze the life out of her!! His love is real she told herself,over and over again until at last he drained her dry. Oh how she cried when he told her goodbye! He didn't bother to lie...in the grass and play dead.He slithered on down the road to find another lover to sink his hatred and betrayal into.....


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Trigger Finger

I'm here to settle the score, teaching you the meaning, casualty of war.  I've got 
you dead in my sight.  My scope is always precise.  On the battlefield, you've 
given up all bargaining rights.  Don't look for divine intervention, your suffering is 
my bullets intention.  The only thing more conceited than you, is my trigger finger, 
for It never hears sympathy or pleas, with me the trigger always agrees.  There 
are no negotiations, just my guns willing anticipation of a trigger fingers 
agitation.  Next time we don't hesitate on pulling the trigger.


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Part Two

Kansas City nightfall
in a rose-petal garden
Take the Easton & George
to the end of the line
He's been put down to slaughter
turned ash till he rose
To take vengeance on the spirit
The darkness that glows

Free dreams may assault you
so cover up your soul
When he finds you in the garden
the future is recalled
Return to Goliath
put your sling upon your arm
Show the glory of the moment
The turns of right and wrong

Cleopatra's in the river
sunlight for the flames
Rain down upon the heavens
the beat beneath the page
Ticonderoga battles dewfall
the blast that forged the seed
That fertilizes feeling
The riches and the reeds

It's a Manmade
evolution revolution
Axles, fractals, tin-can constitution
raining beds of clovers
On a Kansas City wall


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Broken Soul

Erika Raiken.
"Me Against Myself"
7/1/2011

Put your smile on your face kid, yea that's right, and forget about letting them know. Wipe your tears, pull that knife out your back. There you go. Play soldier, with your head held high, and smile like a champ. Now forget the pain and rip out, rip out your cursed bleeding heart.The heat of it. A thousand cindering tongues licking at your very soul. Corruption lurking in shadows, and yet there is no shade. Just shards that cut like razors in your chest. These are just the mistakes we make, coming from chances we shouldn't have taken. Is there any better way to say "Go To Hell" than E Tu Brute? And Caesar fell. This cataclysmic apocalypse, tearing the demons from your chest, and making them real. A century deep, yet sixteen years true. Sparkling
vision as the tears come. Wipe them now, don't let them see the pain that lurks inside of me, inside of you, inside of every broken soul this world can muster. And through all this drunken rage you find a peace three years deep. Now wake up, 
and remember those years are rotting in some gutter next to Edgar Allan Poe and his Raven. Nevermore! Put that smile on your face kid, and forget about letting them know how dead you are inside. Wipe your tears, and pull that knife with that glistening hollow-point smile, Forget the pain, and rip out the Cursed. Bleeding. Heart


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Mercy Road

NEW SONG :D 7/3/12

There's something sick inside these walls
I gotta get away from here! 
These empty people lead me nowhere . . .
I hope you hear me when I call
Cause I won't waste another year! 
And you know no one else will care when
I'm gone - 

(Chorus)
As the faces leave my mind
It's only you that I will find
And till the traces are left for dead
All the heartache left behind
I'll face this world alone
I'll take the only path I know 
Your heart was my abode
And now I take the mercy road
Mercy road

(Guitar solo of pure awesome !hee hee!)

And now you leave me for the world
When there is nothing left of me!
And everyday is getting harder
I hope you're happy in this state
Cause I sure as hell am not!
Before you leave me and turn away
WATCH ME ROT

(Chorus)

Driving down mercy road
It's the only path I know
You're gone and now I hate this way
Cause now I drive it all alone . . .
 


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Remember This

“Hello, 
How are you doing so far?
Good to know yeah…”
You wanna know
What lies ahead? 
My heart bleeds…
“Hello? You hear me?”
She hung up the phone and then I walk away in utter humiliation and sadness, then I pick up a necklace and I still have hope in mind. God speaks through me with blessed words…
With such blessed words
The phone rings 
I answer
Okay then…
I got your attention…
we can break through
The chaos
The broken dreams 
Remember this: 
“I love you
And He’ll relieve you from the flu
Take care,
Bye”
And then I hung up and I regretted it ever since. I wanted to actually talk to Amy and she hung up on me. I went straight up the stairs and closed the bedroom door behind me…I think of better thoughts – God the most high saves me with His helping hand and lead me to a brilliant pathway. 
Please help me not to sway away
From this relieving reality…
God is there…everywhere I walk
Whenever I talk
Whenever I listen
Whenever I glisten with pride
I submit to Him like a bride
I sang some songs, referring to God
Oh my God,
I love you so…
Show me where Your wind blow…
Oh…oh…yeah…

Unlock my soul with a golden key
God’s the key…that opens the door for me…


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Around Town

Written August 10, 2013


My darling
Where have you been tonight
She said I've been around town
I've been around town all night
Shooting craps with the girls
Where the women wear pearls that glisten so bright in your eyes
At that casino with the fountain as high as the sky

I guess you came home with penniless pockets
You say tonight wasn't your night
But that story holds as much water
As an ark made of paper
The ocean falls right through the floor
The ark floored by a screen door

Cause I've seen you out by that old familiar highway
The one where I picked you up
In that van we spent our first night
But that promise you made me you haven't kept
To settle down and don't go around town tonight
'Round town tonight, 'round town tonight

But you just couldn't stay away
From where the red light shines so bright
So you could feel high as that fountain
Higher than a mountain tonight
But I'm here patiently waiting
For my darling to come home tonight


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Free Range Fear

There is too much fear in the world these days,
Fear of the unknown, scared in soo many ways!
Phobias of spiders, mice, rats and bats,
Are you frightend of nothing?  Why are you scared of that?

Scared of oppression?  And the way they use aggression?
Are they messing with your head, using psychic suggestion?
Wrestling with your doubts will only lead to fear,
Always looking into shadows.. scared that something's always near.

You're winding yourself up!  There's no reason to be scared,
But it's never as it seems.. so you'd better be prepared.
Because if you're feeling fear, it could be.. you're not ready,
With your trembling legs, and butterflies in your belly.

It's not so strange, that lots of people fear pain,
Being boiled alive, with needles stuck into your brain,
You've got to be careful, I'm afraid to say,
Be quick to make your mind up, to fight or run away.

Would you fill your pants, with a gun to your head?
Now, that's REAL fear.. you could be dead, enougth said!
Some could find your nerves and make you scream for weeks,
They can teach you about pain and how it reaches new peaks.

But the ones like that..  are fearful too,
Of justice, revenge, and the human rights crew.
They should be scared!  I wanna see their faces white,
'Cause they even kidnap kids and slip away into the night!

Now I'll get swept away, as it floods from me,
See, some of these emotions, are as deep as the sea,
Some wanna get a gun, and hunt these sick suckers,
And get them on their knees and say PRAY MOTHERF%%%%%!

See this is the crux..  this is the bottom line,
If they catch you doing that, then it's you that's doing time,
It's never black & white, it's not easy to see..
There are so many fears, it's all part of being free.

Are you scared of the dark, because that's how it began?
Are you scared that it links you to the earliest man?
Who had to hunt to eat, had to kill to stay alive,
And did what they had to, so this race could all survive.

The things to be scared of are the things inside,
You can struggle and fight, but you can never run or hide,
So walk down the street with your head held high,
And face down fear.. because we're ALL gonna die!

But the opposite of fear though..  is to be brave,
Who knows how many lives you could save.
The futures unknown, and we all face change,
It is all just a part of being free-range.


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Deceptive Calm

Tonight I'll talk too much and try to and complicate my friends.
Distant conversations, eye contact only now and then.
I try and drown myself in futile disbelief,
Only to be washed ashore by truth here on my computer screen. 

The monsters hand held out, hung me by my own beliefs.
I held on tight, surviving by the skin of my teeth.
I raised my head up high and took a look into your eyes,
Searching for light I embarked into my own demise.

I gave you what you want in hopes that it was what you need
Tread the ground barefoot so all the blisters bleed.
The dog he's only learned to love and stay,
But he wants to get away, he needs to get away. 

Now you know I've found a place to hide,
Got to run somewhere, leave you, girl you know I've tried.
I'm stuck reviewing the memories of our yesterday,
But I want to get away, I need to get away. 

Walking the forest whispering to all silent trees.
I can feel the change, and relate to all falling leaves. 
The world bears down and my legs won't seem to stand,
'Guess I'm just arrogant, too stupid to see I've done all that I can. 

I gave you what you want in hopes that it was what you need
Tread the ground barefoot so all the blisters bleed.
The dog he's only learned to love and stay,
But he wants to get away, he needs to get away. 

Now you know I've found a place to hide,
Got to run somewhere, leave you, girl you know I've tried.
I'm stuck reviewing the memories of our yesterday,
But I want to get away, I need to get away.


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Unwanted

When two people who once were lovers become strangers, there is nothing more heartbreaking.  For someone that you loved with all your heart and soul to now act completely cold.  To try your best to please them in everything you do.  Only to make you feel like your something used.  Just another ploy in the game. Just another person played in the game.  Why does life has to be so unfair, when all we ever wanted was for them to be there.  The one whom was once there to wipe away your tears. To kiss away all your fears.  Is now a stranger in what used to be your home.  To be at the point at which you would have just stayed alone....


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GUESS WE'RE OUTA GAS

   GUESS WE'RE OUTA GAS
---V1-----
Guess we're outa gas, I wonder how we're gonna go.
We drove forever and we never even thought
that the price might go too high.
If we wasn't cruisin, we was losin
And we didn't care why.
Guess we're outa gas, I'll make sweet love wit you.

-----V2------
Guess we're outa dream, we knew it had to end some day.
We had the dream, but now it don't seem
To be what it looked to be.
Now that it's gone -- we know it's all gone,
There ain't nothin left to do.
Guess we're outa dream, I'll make sweet love wit you.

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We had our dream, great American Dream.
We had our pie, in de sky.
All over this world they're tryin' to build
Like our great American dream.
Another American dream.
But they ain't gonna fly! 
No way they'll fly.
     --------bridge------------

It'll never fly again!
---V3----
Guess we're outa time, I wonder what it's coming to.
We had the time, but we blew it every time
Like we thought we oughta do.
I could hold your hand, and tell you it's planned,
But I wonder if it's true.
Guess we're outa time, I'll make sweet love wit you.
Guess we're outa dream, I'll make sweet love wit you.
Guess we're outa gas, I'll make sweet love wit you.

ooooga! Oooooga!    Beep beep      honk honk


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Send Down The Rain

slavery of the mind to succed to the emotion (lies) Are we strong enough to storm the despair Or do we falter behind the façade over and over again Strive to reach the truth The kind is held back by all of the lies And the delusions of the unchained clouds Help us to believe again What we're all missing Is it all too late To send down a sign To send down the rain As the siren sings she's ready to be on the prowl On the prowl to hunt down our souls It's not real Pretend to send down the motion Our hidden notions Of our lieing emotions Help us believe again We're all lost inside Send down the rain Curropt against the pain Help us believe again We're all lost inside Send down the rain Curropt against the pain


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Memory's Lost

Once in a while, a cruel, old man
Had stood up in front and had bade me to stand
He'd point out a sentence, instruct me to speak
And my crush would let slip a small, cruel, mirthful shriek
Then my sibilant esses would ring out so loud
And my spittle sailed south 'cross the heads of the crowd
The teacher pronounced my reading a mess

And I couldn't help but feel that I was
Missing something, missing something
All my life I think I missed something

My friends took me out to the pictures tonight
Though I never was blessed with the powers of sight
The score underscored each great scene with aplomb
But I knew from the swells and the claps it was done
In a few moments I had slunk into the night
With a sense in my gut that some thing wasn't right
Right before I would physically run into you

I could not help but feel that I was
Missing something, missing something
All my life, I think I missed
Something big, something vital, something unerringly true
And today I think that something was you

After rainfall I stepped into the sun
It dried off my skin but the cold made me numb
I stepped back to the porch and back into your arms
With a hide dried so thick that your arrows can't harm
I can carry you miles just perched on my back
But my heart and my belly are safe from attack
Intellectually I know that there's nothing I lack

But I can't shake the feeling that I am
Missing something, missing something
All my life I think I missed
Something big, something vital, something unerringly true
But it's something I've forgotten
In a sky so blue


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Vile

Your breath on my neck
You breathe in my scent
A sensational wreck
A sly wicked hint

A complete disaster
You wreak of wrong
My heart still beats faster
(Still faster)
When I hold on so long

Get your stench off me
But linger while you do
Feelings deep as the sea
Shallow as a pool

Perversion in your eyes
Twisted lies on your lips
You disgust me
You entrance me
But you're not worth my time

My heart aches of trouble
My head suffers double
Stop staring
Start looking
You lay the bait
For something I can't have

Get your stench off me
But linger while you do
Feelings deep as the ocean
Shallow as a pool. 


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Cry (Don't say those words)

Why did it had to happen this way
The world was blinded with my tears
I saw you in my hands
Just to let you know, my friend,
I am here

And I cry alone in the darkness
Where no one cares how I felt
And I saw you struuggling
You are not going through this yourself

You talked about your death and all
But I don't want it to be true
I just want to hear your words
That mean most to you

Oh, and I cry in this empty space
A place of an empty world
You are not alone, no you are not
I am here, in your world

Please help me,
I am crying!
I am listening to your scream!
Don't let me stay in this nightmare!
Wake me up
From this dream!

My tears, they are my worries to you
I am so scared when you said those words
Don't want to let you go
Don't want you to feel so hurt

I am crying!
Oh God!!
I am screaming!
For your Help!
Oh, no no!
Don't let this happen again!!
No No!!

I am walking the streets of this lonely space
No human have walked on a wrecked emotional state before
And my tears fall onto my weakened face
I am opening myself up to you before I fall!

I care!!
And I cry !!
Don't say those words!!
I want to cry louder
Just more louder!

And I cry alone in here
I am crying by my shaking fears
I am in the dark of the alternate reality
This is where I should be
Just a hand I am giving it to you
Please, take it
I am your life
I just hope you will hear
My thousand tears
Of my cry


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My parallel

How can i hate you? 
I don't know you. 
Yet you have my parallel 
And own my envy. 

Maybe if i knew you 
I could see what he sees 
Understand why 
The potential can't be recognized. 

Actualised. 

Developed. 

Expressed. 

How i ache with confusion. 
Yet i know he won't reflect. 
So i ask you one thing, 
Cherish him and know this: his is a light you are lucky to bask in.


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My Free Style

I'm sitting, drinking a few beers and thinking,
Wondering why, my soul seems to be shrinking,
I'm trying to link this life, all together,
But I never seem to solve this most cryptic endeavor!

I've got so far!  Do I really have to wait?
It's late, and I really hate to be a burden mate,
But I get frustrated, is there nothing I can do,
To make time go faster.. honestly, I can help you!

What do we need?  Mankind must decide,
We need one vision.. to which we're all allied,
One side, one truth to what's right and wrong,
We know what's going on.. it's time for us to get along!

I know the truth, I'm not afriad to say!
Whilst I am still around, they will not win the day.
My mind is too quick, too slick, fast and thick,
When they lay it on the line, it will be soo tradgic!

So now I hold on, focus.. and stay strong,
Wondering why, it all, had to go wrong,
All I really want, is the best I can achieve,
Just please leave me to my thoughts..  finding out what I believe.


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Sanity

Is sanity a gift or foe? 
I wonder at its campaign 
To inflict confusion. 
Maybe madness is my friend.
Will it block the pain 
And edge out the fear,  
Yet crush the inevitable 
Normality enemy? 
Accustomed to intense 
It holds me in its stare 
Grips me in its wilderness 
And yet I feel safe.


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Good Nights Sleep for Us

One day there will be no shame,
for what is done is done, ever more.
the time spent thinking of the past can't be undone,
What is done is done.  

No thoughts or whispers,
can replace how we feel.
Sleep is the answer, 
to wake up to another place and time.

But we want to stay alive, no sleep
if we sleep
we forget one another.

To have you fade like a dream in the early morning
That would be a release and a horror.

Thinking of you
Sleeping in your bed
Healing the cancer that is me
Causes me to sleep

Only to wake up to another
Cold and bitter morning,
Reminding me how alone we are,
Why must we be alone.

Why must we sleep.



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I prefer to chew

I am subject of your objections
your majesty
let us cloak ourselves
 in the moral fabric of religion
and make believe we're royalty
present an image to impress
a new age novelty
a dying breed of humanity
we knock at empathy's door 
beg entrance to the light
gained only from the price of
a thousand lost souls
in their luminescent flickerings
of goldfish in a bowl
a pisces paradise
invading parasite
beguile thy emerald isle
fornlorn the jagged shores
of Erinyes and Norn
feigning faint, a bulimic trick
how we stumble and trip through these doors of perception
by divine intention
a moral invention
you can swallow your god pill whole
but I still prefer to chew


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Finishing the Fight

Effort
The bane of a life
The slow way they beg me to die

This war
Has taken its toll
These pale deaths that I call my life

I can't
Continue to fight
Under the red fog I'm in

So today I fall
To finish the fight
That never would begin


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Sentiment

I tried to see what life would be like on the other side of the mirror
I knocked on the glass for days, but no one ever let me in
Cracking, finally, the reflecting world showed me the truth
That it's just like the one I’m in; it only makes you bleed in the end

I only close my eyes
To find something worth looking at
I can only hear your voice
When I’m screaming into the wall
I only think on you
When the cynical inspiration dissipates
And sometimes only the freezing cold
Is all that reminds me I can still feel

Living this perfect life, dream lover, dream house, dream happiness
Take for granted the gift, not accepting your needy independence
Lust, greed, emotional gluttony; everything you've ever wanted
It’s only thanks to me, I created the twist in your soul, I made you who you are

I only close my eyes
To find something worth looking at
I can only hear your voice
When I’m screaming into the wall
I only think on you
When the cynical inspiration dissipates
And sometimes only the freezing cold
Can remind you that you can still feel

Taken by the presence of an all too familiar enemy
This man staring from the corner; he never leaves, never leaves me
Gentle whispers of deception takes hold and only tightens
Painful sobriety renders me vulnerable and helpless
He only laughs as I pray to God to save me

I only close my eyes
To find something worth looking at
I can only hear your voice
When I’m screaming into the wall
I only think on you
When the cynical inspiration dissipates
And sometimes only the freezing cold
Can remind you that you can still feel

Stare into a face, frozen for eternity
Never aging, never moving, never leaving; its world merely fades to white
Longing to go back, wishing to be, nothing humors the hope
Not tears, prayers, nor blood can bring them back
Trapped behind wood and glass; imprisoned in this photograph

I only close my eyes
To find something worth looking at
I can only hear your voice
When I’m screaming into the wall
I only think on you
When the cynical inspiration dissipates
And sometimes only the freezing cold
Can tell me that I can still feel


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CRY

 CRY
Go on and have a cry, dear one,
it's only heaven's rain,
to see you through the times you know,
of greatest joy or greatest pain.

In every teardrop there is love,
to help your understanding why,
you feel this happiness or pain,
so go ahead and have your cry.
© ron wilson aka Vee Bdosa


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Hear Me Out

Bleeding…hand me a tourniquet 
Breathing…my heart’s bleeding out regret…
Whatever it sees fit

Save me please
Hear me out
Take my hand – (My heart’s at ease)
You know what I’m talking about
Save me please
Hear me as I call
Go to the Promise Land – (My heart’s at ease)
Hear me out – catch me before I fall

(chorus) Hear me out…hear my shouts
Without a doubt, I am ignored once more
But I feel you touch my hand
You’re by my side forever
Our fate is close at hand 
But we’re in good hands…
Do you understand? 

Bleeding…hand me a tourniquet 
Breathing heavily – my heart’s beating in regret…
It’s breaking bit by bit

Save me before I kiss death
Hear my voice…as it calls
You take my breath away – I must draw my last breath
Before I fall into the abyss…my spirit falls

(chorus) Hear me out…hear my shouts
Without a doubt, I am ignored once more
But I feel you touch my hand
You’re by my side forever
Our fate is close at hand 
But we’re in good hands…
Do you understand? 

Bleeding…hand me something to wipe off the grime
Breathing softly – my heart’s beating…is it my time?
Is it my time to die? 

Save me…I’m slowly shattering
Away…I’m so far away from my destination
Take my hand – my heart is no longer beating 
Take away my desolation…my frustration

Save me one last time
Fear not the darkness…that wraps around me 
Go to the Promise Land – time’s flipping like a dime
Hear me – save me from reality’s demise…

(chorus) Hear me out…hear my shouts
Without a doubt, I am ignored once more
But I feel you touch my hand
You’re by my side forever
Our fate is close at hand 
But we’re in good hands…

Don’t you understand?
You can’t save me…
I’ve fallen below your feet…


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Save Me From Desperation

My golden one you're burning out of sight
I try to follow your light
This darkness pulls and pushes me away
But our love will never wane
Despite all of the pain

You rapture me from my own mind
When the razor calls me back
Tell me these are all just lies
Only illusions from my mind 

Deterring the pain away
I'm with you
There's nothing more to say

Paradise is mine 
You Save me from desperation
And I will fulfill all of your adorations
You save me from desperation
Nobody is in vain
Though my life lived a lie
You save me from desperation

Our starcrossed world 
Destroyed by the ones who run from reality
Condemn us you may
But love will always find it's way
You're worth it to be called mine
Evenour bond is crime

Begin the decay
There's no more to say
Eden's Heart separated us from the start
You're all I need to be free
Nobody is in vain
So you found my meaning

(chorus)
Deterring the pain away
I'm with you
There's nothing more to say

Paradise is mine 
You Save me from desperation
And I will fulfill all of your adorations
You save me from desperation
Nobody is in vain
Though my life lived a lie
You save me from desperation

Advocate Angel from above
I put my heart in your hands
I've fallen too deep
A way to fulfill our love is what I seek

I'm suffering, dying, trying
To live but there's no life
Without you 

Deterring the pain away
I'm with you
There's nothing more to say

Paradise is mine 
You Save me from desperation
And I will fulfill all of your adorations
You save me from desperation
Nobody is in vain
Though my life lived a lie
You save me from desperation


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I Want More and More

Laying in my room all day
Thinking how I've been fool
Got my meal but I'm not full
Left me for probability
You've seen the light before
Don't open that door
Take her away
But I want more and more
Take her away
But I want more and more
One day I'm going to see the door

I used to like the impressions left on me
Thinking that they'd be so cool
Laying in my room all day
Thinking how I've been a fool
Don't want to sleep
Don't want to eat
Wondering who's to blame
What to keep, what to throw away
Oh how you've changed
Lying in my room all day
Thinking how I've been a fool
Take her away
But I want more and more
Take her away 
But I want more and more
One day I'm going to see the door


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In this time before I die

I will find my way through the ruins of lives since past

I will honour those who came before by making the same mistakes

I will have cause and purpose without perspective or reason

I will tell wicked lies and hide from the pain

I will take comfort in harmful things but not let it get the best of me

I will love recklessly and dispassionately causing more harm than good

I will intend to apologize but will lose the opportunity

I will capture haunting memories and replay them in a desperate need to feel

I will long deeply for her, in silence

I will misunderstand the value of being alone and regret it

I will question all that I know from time to time or perhaps all at once

I will spend all that I have chasing a dream only to wake up midway through 

I will with good intention do the very least that I can

I will wonder what it was all really for anyway

And yet, I will continue to search

For something

Other than

Myself


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Empathy Hostage

cry?
sometimes I just want to say

your life is yours to keep or throw away

When you want me to make up the rules

to a game I don't know how to play

Don't know what I'm supposed to do

to keep you safe from that thing called you

If everything you say is true

You're gonna do it anyway

Am I the only one that's gonna cry
when you finally get the guts to die

Do you just need someone to say goodbye

Or someone to talk ya down

I know you're hurting desperately

I know you're ready for eternity'

Does it help to know that you're hurting me

since I'm the only one around

Oh tell me that you feel better now,

that we can talk and work it out some how

Won't you tell me that you found a way

take a deep breath and see another day

Did you pick me out so I could be

The one who stands staring helplessly

the lucky lucky man who gets to see

Just how serious you are

Well I hope you know you're being cruel

to choose a poor empathetic fool

to watch you do that thing you're gonna do

You finally get to be the star

oh tell me that you feel better now

that we can talk and work it out some how

won't you tell me that you found a way

take a deep breath and live another day

will it be a razor blade or gun

perhaps a nice high dive would be more fun

The pills are painless when the day is done

since I'm the one who gets to feel

Go ahead and make it quick and clean

if not for me it would be sight unseen

God how I wish I had a time machine

to take you back when you were real

Oh tell me that you feel better now

that we can talk and work it out somehow

Oh won't you tell me that you found a way

Take a deep breath and breathe another day


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Used As An Experiment

Used As an Experiment

THE SILENCE IS BREAKING MEEEE….CAN’T YOU SEE?


V.1: Strong AS STEEL, wrapped up with silver, heartfelt ribbons
Give it to me – the rope of hope
You smoked me out like a cigarette…
Used like I’m an experiment…I mope…I mope…
I’ve been ruined a thousand times
Yet, I stayed strong – I never cried a tear

(pre-chorus)
You’re getting by – I’ll let you through and go ahead and commit your 
crimes!
I have no fear in my young heart…I don’t bottle up fear
And I ain’t gonna shed a tear for you 
I’ll keep searching for the light with or without you
(pre-chorus)
You’re getting by – I’ll let you through and go ahead and commit your 
crimes!
I have no fear in my young heart…I don’t bottle up fear
And I ain’t gonna shed a tear for you 
I’ll keep searching for the light with or without you

(chorus)
What am I supposed to do? 
Your hate internalized in me…
Don’t ask me to change – I sift out every single lie
Because I won’t stop believing in the Lord Most High
I burned in the dense flames, 
I churned…in the ocean of blames…
Remorse, calling me names

V.2: I bleed…you were my disease once upon a time
Visiting rehab in my head…
Addicted to you like a drug…
Abused and moved by you….
I don’t care about me anymore…
Disaster unfolds, trapped in your scorching RIBCAGE…
Restoring rage….you called me hideous names behind your breath
I’m like an absurd bird, longing to fly out of her cage
Now, I get you…I get your motives of abandoning me…. 
You neglected me…you stubborn, attention-seeker
You never listened to my acknowledging complements 

(pre-chorus)
You’re getting by – I’ll let you through and go ahead and commit your 
crimes!
I have no fear in my young heart…I don’t bottle up fear
And I ain’t gonna shed a tear for you 
I’ll keep searching for the light with or without you

(chorus)
What am I supposed to do? 
Your hate internalized in me…
Don’t ask me to change – I sift out every single lie
Because I won’t stop believing in the Lord Most High
I burned in the dense flames, 
I churned…in the ocean of blames…
Remorse, calling me names

V.3: You ditched me with heartless selfishness in your heart – you’re a 
devil! 
Your lips soaked up the poison in your heart…it cements
Deep inside of you…deep down inside…
Wait for me, so I can keep up with you…
I don’t care about me anymore…
Disaster unfolds, trapped in your RIBCAGE…
Restoring rage….burning wild like wild sage…
I’m like an absurd bird, longing to fly out of his cage
Don’t discard me – give your heart a break
Don’t hurt me – for Mount Heaven’s sake!

(pre-chorus)
 You’re getting by – I’ll let you through and go ahead and commit your 
crimes!
I have no fear in my young heart…I don’t bottle up fear
And I ain’t gonna shed a tear for you 
I’ll keep searching for the light with or without you

(chorus)
What am I supposed to do? 
Your hate internalized in me…
Don’t ask me to change – I sift out every single lie
Because I won’t stop believing in the Lord Most High
I burned in the dense flames, 
I churned…in the ocean of blames…
Remorse, calling me names

V.4: Loving you ain’t easy, that’s for shore…we never were a fine pair (you 
only lived for your own satisfactions)
Blameworthy – I seem to be these days
Get up from the ground and think better about your actions (For all I’ve 
stood for, you were never appreciative…I swam lonely in the pool of misery 
and despair)
Next time, leave the front door…
I’ve been wandering in the maze of bewilderment
Find your own way out of my labyrinth of lament
Dare to wonder where I’ve been?
In the cave of sin…caved in by sin…
Getting devoured in the lion’s den…

(pre-chorus)
 You’re getting by – I’ll let you through and go ahead and commit your 
crimes!
I have no fear in my young heart…I don’t bottle up fear
And I ain’t gonna shed a tear for you 
I’ll keep searching for the light with or without you

(chorus)
What am I supposed to do? 
Your hate internalized in me…
Don’t ask me to change – I sift out every single lie
Because I won’t stop believing in the Lord Most High
I burned in the dense flames, 
I churned…in the ocean of blames…
Remorse, calling me names

V.5: I don’t care anymore…
Disaster unfolds, trapped in your RIBCAGE…
Restoring rage…burning bright like a star with a tattooed scar
It feels so wrong to be in the dark, so far…so far…
Away from your charms…your warm, cuddly arms…
So far, I’ve been digging deep in your soul…
Anxiety banging at my skull…skull…
In my mind and heart again
Forget and forgive 
Feed the flames of uncertainty
You don’t deserve to die or live
Where shall I flee? Free me…

(pre-chorus)
 You’re getting by – I’ll let you through and go ahead and commit your 
crimes!
I have no fear in my young heart…I don’t bottle up fear
And I ain’t gonna shed a tear for you 
I’ll keep searching for the light with or without you
(pre-chorus)
 You’re getting by – I’ll let you through and go ahead and commit your 
crimes!
I have no fear in my young heart…I don’t bottle up fear
And I ain’t gonna shed a tear for you 
I’ll keep searching for the light with or without you

(chorus)
What am I supposed to do? 
Your hate internalized in me…
Don’t ask me to change – I sift out every single lie
Because I won’t stop believing in the Lord Most High
I burned in the dense flames, 
I churned…in the ocean of blames…
Remorse, calling me names

V.6: Yet, I stayed strong – I never cried a tear
I’ve been ruined a thousand times
Used like I’m an experiment…I mope…I mope…
You smoked me out like a cigarette…
Give it to me – the rope of hope
On my own, feeling like I don’t belong – wrapped up with blue, heartless 
ribbons


THE DISTRESS ABYSS IS SUCKING ME UP – RELEASE MEEEEE….


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Naked and Ashamed -Part 2-

I need some time to reflect
To dive into my imagination…to ponder as I sink
Into my sea of thoughts and paradise...
I'm on a mission... 
To discover a previous prize
Ooooooh.... Oooooh....OoooOooh...
If I could, I could surely give it to you...and fulfill your fantasies
If I could, I could invite you inside my mind...
If I could, I could make you fly away from the world's anxieties 
If I could, I could find
You treasure... Beyond measure 
This feeling has no name...it has no specific label...
This feeling hunts me down like game...but I must remain capable 
Of saving myself and you of course...
Baby, don't get outtah course... You know what I mean
Baby, I want to know what's on your mind...I don't want to force
To answer me immediately...but I want the answer...

Ooooooh.... Oooooh....OoooOooh...
They all say it's greener on the other side of the barbwire fence...
Don't fence me in...with your powerful actions and love... I know you...I ain't dense 

Ooooooh.... Oooooh....OoooOooh...
Hey x3
You clothe me up...
What's up with you today?
I'm naked and ashamed
Turn the other way...
'Cause today is not the only day
I feel so damn afraid...
But hey x3
You make me feel whole
How was your day? 
Hopefully the sky wasn't a shade of gray 

Ooooooh.... Oooooh....OoooOooh...
I wanna make you happy for the rest of your life... And delete the strife
From your stressful, fast-pace life


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Snow Clouds over a Volcano

Snowing
The wind around was blowing
Long after the shining sun would
Melt these days away

Again
The second round would begin
Pressure from the months before would
Bear heavily on me

Going
Little streams are flowing
Endless piles of snow vanished
In the blink of an eye

Quiet
Gone are all the riots
Gone is all the endless noise
From the crowd I used to know

Ending
The summer heat was rending
The endless gray clouds from the sky
To shine some light on me

Shining
No more silver linings
All that once was ensured
Is no longer that way

Sighing
Everyone is crying
Nothing's as it once was
And that terrifies us all

Alone
Look at how we've all grown
As snowflakes cast from our cloud
Into this volcano underneath


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00:04 - Falling Free

Fall, you fickle flower,
Live to love a love in vain.
Live to be the painted beauty
Left to bleed into the rain.

Wait upon a whisper,
Wring out words til they allude
To the love you hope he echoes,
To the love you can't conclude.

Make your heart your captor,
Be your own worst enemy.
Thrive on self-dealt torture,
Fickle flower, falling free.


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Playback know it all

The next step, you wouldn't decide
a playback know it all fall out
forget a side of comfort, I'll drink it straight
but can I breathe?

Nothing can complicate my compass
gothic golden statues so fake
maiden's dance free from soldiers
but why can't I breathe?

honestly we promised
if we keep comfort lost
a world of manic mayhem shatters
I'll always have the rain
It can suffocate my endless window stain

Jaded swirls of thicker soup
Loving falls deeper, free of running side
ways through my imaginary loop
a pool drowning baby float
a mess created heavenly breaths

Honestly we promised
If we keep comfort lost
a world of manic mayhem shatters
the running sound on window pain
a selfless child holding press release

Im gunna fall apart, impress second self
telling of truth sits alone on mantel shelf


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Wasted Breath

Maybe it just got the best
Of everything I can't confess.
Little Things never put my mind to rest,
They just make it too tired to address.
All my confusions I must confess,
That I'm just too tired to address.
And these poems just pass the time
'Till these lines just get old and die.
So save me one more wasted breath
About how He's your ugliness.
Maybe then I'll set you free,
But who will share that sympathy.
One day it'll all just be memory.
Another chapter in this life,
Set in stone I'll write it right.
And these poems just pass the time
'Till the lines just get old and die.
Now save me one more wasted breath
And savor all that we have left.


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Dean'o O'Daniel

A small dinosaur named Dean'o O'Daniel
was a special one,
who grew up near the Florida panhandle
and the only son
To his single mother Sam O'Daniel

See Dean'o had a love
to where he could escape and drift away
to another place
 and play a simple game of basketball

Schoolmates would just laugh
As he walked with a ball under his arm
to his every class
Saying "Dean'o's not a real dinosaur"
Especially when
They found out he was not a carnivore
So he did not hunt
and for all this little Dean'o was shunned

Dean'o had enough
He went out to a quiet place alone
and said to himself
"Why am I the only one who is small,
not eat any meat,
And always love to play some basketball?"
"I just want my dad
and feel normal and just fit in with all"

As he shed a tear
A deep soft voice appeared to him and said
" Dean'o dont you know,
That so many good times lie right ahead?
I know you feel low
and right now nothing really makes much sense
But I promise you
That all this hurt and confusion will end."

"And please tell me why,
You want to be normal or like the rest?"
Shocked, Dean'o replied,
" Because I simply have no confidence."
The deep voice then said
" You're short height gives you a feisty toughness,
no meat keeps you pure
and the love for basketball only means
you are passionate."


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In The Perfect's Shadow

I’m standing there, watching the Perfect perform.
Even with my hard work I feel like I’m stuck in reverse
The Perfect can do what I try to do, only better
She makes me feel like a simple street beggar.

So here I sit, waiting for my shot,
But when I get it, can I give it all I’ve got?
Wanting that spotlight to turn on me,
Waiting for my chance to finally be free.

All the dreams I once had have turned to smoke,
They fell away, proving to be a hoax as soon as I spoke.
When she songs, everyone listens whole I sit and wait
For my dreams to become real, to be fully awake.

So here I sit, waiting for my shot,
But when I get it, can I give it all I’ve got?
Wanting that spotlight to turn on me,
Waiting for my chance to finally be free.

The Perfect’s singing again and the choir claps
Can’t help myself in wishing that the stage would collapse.
Wanting her to fail, to lose, to finally admit her defeat.
Here’s to hoping my hate for her is discreet. 

So here I sit, waiting for my shot,
But when I get it, can I give it all I’ve got?
Wanting that spotlight to turn on me,
Waiting for my chance to finally be free.


My wings itch to be released. 
Wishing that the hot, angry beast
Would go and leave me alone
For I know that my thoughts are not condoned.

So here I sit, waiting for my shot,
But when I get it, can I give it all I’ve got?
Wanting that spotlight to turn on me,
Waiting for my chance to finally be free.

Why is it that when I try, it seems to explode
In my face? Why does she have to gloat?
Don’t they know that I’m trying?
I’ve been working so hard, I feel like I’m dieing.

So here I sit, waiting for my shot,
But when I get it, can I give it all I’ve got?
Wanting that spotlight to turn on me,
Waiting for my chance to finally be free.

Will I be able to show the talent I’ve been
Hiding? Will I be able to show my wings of velveteen?
An imposer of the real thing,
The trick’s now up, and the cut’s still sting.


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Melancholy

"Another Drink!", I screamed.
A fifth down and a fifth to go. 
This burning water quenches a dark thirst only I know.
Comfortably numb I sit and seem. 

And in this dream within a dream I sit a watch
As colors dissolve and memories fade in a blackened blotch. 
With my brow hung low in a bastards gleam;
Comfortably numb I sit and seem. 

God, how quickly everything can fade away.
Oh God, how easily I fall into the gray.
I close my eyes and form a crooked smile, life's easier this way.
Comfortably numb I sit and stay.


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I Won't Fall For You

I don't care what they say
I won't fall for you
For all the words that you say
And for all that you do

And I don't care what you say
I won't fall for you
For every day I remember
What you put me through

And I don't care how you feel
I won't fall for you
You had your chance then
Now you choose to pursue

And I don't care how I was
I won't fall for you
People change my dear
You should know that it's true

And I don't care if you beg
And I don't care if you coo
I can tell you this, honey
I won't fall for you


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Rainbow

If every single rainbow
had its own pot of gold
how much would we know
before we grew old?
All the decisions we make
and indecisions we have
Just plant a seed
and watch it flower
then tear it down
within the hour
Hope that all
has not been lost
Just give up
there’s too much cost
Empty words are promises made
Lies, the gifts they all gave


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Abortion at seventeen

Abortion at seventeen 
=
The shades of black within you surface
before you lose consciousness on the 
sanitized bed of the hospital.
No friendly face is waiting outside.
Your age is seventeen… almost.
This is the age of the quick use and throw.
The shades of black make you take an oath, 
just before sleep, medicated sleep,  
that you won’t attach yourself to
anyone for long. You are cured
from romances, immune from love.

These are the words that belong to past, 
I urge to tell more to see if tears 
are going to make you less of a goddess 
which I think you actually are.
=© 2009 - All Rights Reserved Kushal Poddar 


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Stare

You never touch
Just stare
One moment of sun
To melt me later
Do you smell my turmoil?
Your lips twist my minds tale
Your fingers strum hypnotic
Silence only wavered 
For verse and chorus
Now tightened to me and my blink
Which you did breath in
In that longest night
While under jack's guidance




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Marie III--Is the Coffin Too Deep

So frigid was her immaculate body Her last second in screams is all I can see Love's revenge was my guilt With you I'd rather let you die with Bound hands Without you, Marie, like the psychopath's dream Death is all that I can see; All that could redeem Did anyone ask Did anyone recall The sweet taste of the poison The swift slash of the knife he penetration of the lead The pain of her decaying heart I can hear it's bellowing cries But why can't you, Marie, Hear my paranoid eulogies Is the coffin too deep? Was it so hard to solve Was it so hard to see That I strangled her so easily My nails piercing her comely skin Blood dripping like the pomegranate I crushed with the shovel I shattered her shins The knife to slight her wrists Didn't you see I did it all The only witness Couldn't say Is the coffin too deep? The pain of her decaying hear tI can hear it's bellowing cries But why can't you, Marie, Hear my paranoid eulogies Is the coffin too deep? Marie I cant stay Earth is to cruel when your coffin is to deep Forever in death and in death alone The pain of her decaying heart I can hear it's bellowing cries But why can't you, Marie, Hear my paranoid eulogies Is the coffin too deep?


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Die With Passion

You need to come find me.
This, this game is done can't you see?
I can not hide from you any more.
I want to watch you suffer, suffer more.

This game is getting so old.
My heart has become so cold 
I do not love you any more.
I’m frozen to my core.

I don’t love you any more
Listen to me roar,
I hate you passionetly.
You’ve set my anger free.

I don’t even really care
If you’re no longer there
Lord you made me cry
I wish you would just die
‘Cause I don’t love you anymore

Come on out stop hiding
As you can see you’re not my King
Come on out and play
Today’s your dying day

I don’t love you anymore
My heart is what you tore
Lord you killed me
You ignored my dying plea.

I will never even care
If you’re no longer breathing air
I’ll be glad when you die
And you want to know why? 
‘Cause I don’t love you anymore

(now go) You are going to die 
(you) Didn’t even care that I
(go) Was used like trash, blown away
(die) It’s your time to pay

I don’t love you anymore
All the suffering that I bore
Your soul is coming with me
To Hell we’re going to flee

I don’t even really care
That you’re dead, I’m well aware
The time has come for this goodbye
To Hell will your soul fly
‘Cause I don’t love you anymore


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Silence&The Intake Of Shattered Glass

You sit in silence. 
Not saying a word. 
But the voice of your actions can be heard. 
Your lips spread pestilence. 
I watch you from across the room. 
What do I do? 
What do I say? 
The poison has spread worse than any virus. 
Am i delirious? 
How can I be taken serious as the poison infiltrates my veins. 
It's 4 am and i'm still awake. 
I can't rest. 
I can't sleep. 
Can't you see that like a drug you destroy me from the inside out. 
Silence echoes across this entire place as i intake this shattered glass and fail to grasp 
anything but hopelessness.
You never had to say a word, your lips so infectious. 
I intake this shattered glass, burned memories from past photographs, and I'm still awake 
as we let time continue to pass. 
How could i expect you to save me when you can't even take care of yourself? 
You're on your knees drinking in your regrets. 
Silence echoes as we lock eyes for one last serenade from a distance.


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My thoughts, On thoughts

My intentions are never to misguide you, nor to judge you.. My ambition is clearly to enlighten you, brighten you, hold the stars so close that it feels like they can ignite you...Spontaneous, never erroneous, like 4 leaf clover with a hint of some fairy dust....it surely must not be enough, because you stand as if empowerment was man? your eyes lack sincerity that can be scattered among the land, just so that it could be proven, but what is life breathing having anything to do with, your character, your inherited nature, your mind of a million thoughts untamed and ungrateful? bastards or his children, we all are forgiven. life is not a game there is a reason that its given. though you blind creatures can be easily deceived and tossed to the wolves where not a seed is less treated.. Equality is universal: not spiritual nor commercial, facts are like blood, once it leaves you it hurts you.. The soul is beyond minds read, we cannot fathom nor conceive. but our virtues are still, so for this time we shall believe.


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Bring me home again

How did I end up here.?
How did I lose my way?
Tossed in this sea of destruction,
I drift further and further each day.
Loneliness surrounds me,
As the waves keep crashing in.
How do I get back ?
Bring me home again
Lost in the tidal wave of confusion
Surrounded by torture and shame
I feel as if I drowning
Immortalized in pain
Imprisoned by my past
Held captive by my mate
Is this all there is to my life
My unquestionable inevitable fate?
There has to be more than this
There must be another way
I refuse to believe You created me
Just to endure this pain every day.
But where do I belong in this great big
Massive world ?
Show me my place let Your will be unfurled
Father, Let the tide turn
Bring me home again


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Spectacular Day

I heard a blue jay in the distance…
Soaring through the branches gracefully
I open up the curtains…ooh…
Forgive me if I drift away
I often wish I took flight like that bird…
You give me that smile that made my day
You made my day a spectacular one…
With some exceptions

Tempted to do wrong…
oh how I hate those countless deceptions
Writing a new song…
oh I hate those wild, countless temptations
Waiting to belong…
trying to make this cherry-top decision
Tempted to do something quite horrid
Wanting to do something productive for once
Weeping with regret and dread
You made my day a spectacular one…
With some exceptions

I heard a classical song not long ago
Forgive me if I say the wrong words
That breaks your heart
We’re both waiting to depart
From depression…ooh…
I’m persistently trying to grab a hold of myself
I’m feeling sore…my heart is bleeding out
You give me that look of suspicion
And I had to make a difficult decision
Was I to let you go?
Are you meant to stay by my side?
I feel free like birds out of the cage…
You made my day a spectacular one…
With some exceptions

Tempted to do wrong…
oh how I hate those countless deceptions
Writing a new song…
oh I hate those wild, countless temptations
Waiting to belong…
trying to make this cherry-top decision
Tempted to do something rather…shocking
Wanting to do something delightful for once
Weeping with happiness and lament
Sleeping without a sound…
Do I have to repent? 
I tried to sing a song, 
But my voice drowned…
In the ocean, 
I fall…
On the mountains, 
I call…
You made my day a spectacular one…
With some exceptions


Graze in your own maze…
In other words, mind your own business
You give me a death stare…an eccentric gaze
You made my day a spectacular one…
With some exceptions

Tempted to do wrong…
oh how I hate those cruel infections
Writing a new song…
oh I hate all that deceptive, dangerous directions 
Waiting to belong…
trying to make this cherry-top decision
Tempted to do something quite odd…
I’m about to 
Lose control…
You made my day a spectacular one…
With some exceptions

Wanting to do something productive for once
Trying to do something that will 
Kill those negative thoughts
I glance at the mirror and I fade away… 
(Ooh…oooh…ooh…)x2
I’m turning the wrong way…
Oh! Oh oh…oh oh…
It’s a spectacular day…
With some exceptions…


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Can't Save You

behind close doors you say
you just want him so far away
we've all tried to help you off the floor
to only fall weak to him once more
what kind of fool do you take me for

if i don't know the truth
then i can't save you
well i guess i'll let go
but babe i don't want to
i wish i could save you
wish i could hold your hand
but wishing gets us nowhere
might as well give in

screams are all you hear in your ears
but i guess it's better than your fears
because on one unfaithful day
he'll beat your dreams away

they are so many others
to make you feel better
but you see right through them
this was never your plan

if i don't know the truth
then i can't save you
well i guess i'll let go
but babe i don't want to
i wish i could save you
wish i could hold your hand
but wishing gets us nowhere
might as well give in

i'm not mad you choose him
i am more than loving
cause these tears are choking
but this is the life you've chosen

i know the truth
i can't save you
i'm gonna let go
never wanted to
i can't save you
feel his cold hands
around your neck
are you sorry yet


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OPIUM GIRL

OPIUM GIRL
                           (VERSE 1)
 Think what you want but please understand
 She's a desert flower drifting with the sand
 if you knew the reason she's making love with you
 You wouldn't want her to. Desert Girl.
 
                               (VERSE 2)
 Take what you want then leave her alone
 She's a desert flower every man has known
 If you knew the reason she's making love with you
 You wouldn't want her to.    Desert Girl.
 
                                  (CHORUS 1)
             She's just here looking for someone she's never known
              She'll take you with her so she won't sleep alone
            Out in the desert and she's had it all planned
             Puttin you to sleep with one touch of her hand.
 
                           (VERSE 3)
 Take what you want but please understand
 She's a desert flower drifting with the sand
 If you knew the reason she's making love with you
 You wouldn't want her to.    Desert Girl.
 
                         (CHORUS 2)
         She'll feed you opium and citrus juice all night
          She'll make you think everything is alright
           Then to the desert for the rest of her plan
            When she's done she'll bury you in the desert sand.
 
                      (Epilogue)

          If you knew the reason she's making love with you.
          You wouldn't want her to.    Desert Girl.


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Bleeding Addiction

I speak......the silence unmaking my words,

for here the shade of broken time does dwell.

I scream and fight to make cuts with these cords

that bind me closer than the ghosts to hell.


From Concrete illusions, soft Escape,

the edge of pain sharpening my Pleasure,

my joy Reality did shake,

Shattering......that glass glazed Measure,

my life-like dreams within its shape.


For what can make this place of joy, of deathly terror end?

The silky cuts, the bloody scrapes, the temp'ring torture bends

this sweet fulfilling agony...the sorrow of my soul,

does taunt my honor heedlessly, but tell me Not, I Know.


For only with this torture can my body freely breathe,

only this enticing pain can make my spirit free.

So tell me not that this is wrong for how can it not be?

this Loving Torment of my soul will Never let me be.


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Excuse my Words of Torture

V.1: 
I’m sick of hearing your lies – 
I pull away from the abyss
Rejecting departure at the process
Rue bounces out of my eyes – 
Trapped in my emotional mess
Deliver the introverted boy from his cruel solitude and shed him hope in mind
My heart is broken into two & you’re not a part of my crew…
I was held down by me, the grief-stricken tear-jerker and my tears made me 
blind
My rue never departed from me if you only knew…I loved you…
Now, I loathe your actions – I dislike you . . .
You’re not a part of His crew or my crew because you don’t know what I’ve 
been through, 
Being with you and all made me feel blue 

CHORUS:
I will squander my time now and forever
(Are you an evil, fallen angel?)
Until I meet you eye to eye again
Our departure came to soon…our future’s a blur
(sarcasm: Oh you must be a sweet, beautiful angel –)
Come on & get out of the lion’s den!
Release me…I need to let go…
Believe in me…reflect on me…
Release me…let me go with the flow
Let me grow and see…the light at the end of the tunnel
There’s other fish in the sea…

V.2:
Now, I loathe your actions – I dislike you . . .
You’re not a part of His crew or my crew because you don’t know what I’ve 
been through, 
Being with you and all made me feel blue 
I’m sorry…I apologize…
Excuse my horrid anger…
I’m acting so immature
Excuse my sadness… (how time flies…as my High Spirit dies)
Excuse my words of torture…
I’ll try to act mature
I’m insane – can’t you see the madness (in my eyes)?
I know it’s cruel to hate…
But, I feel so regret
You made me be in a sad state
I paid the price of your emotional debt
Can I have something in return?
Don’t let me burn . . .


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Depressed Stream of Consciousness

Want to cut,
Can't.
Want to die,
Can't.
Not can't,
Won't.
Want to but won't.

Why?
They love me.
So what?
I love them.
You suffer...
I know.
Life sucks....
I really, really does...
Who knows,
Maybe death is better...
The dead know.
I bet they do,
They only way is to join them.
But I won't.
I have responsibilities.

"The woods are lovely dark and deep"
Now aren't they...
"But I have promises to keep"
So, so many...
"And miles to go before I sleep"
So many....
"And miles to go before I sleep"
Too many?


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Dylan

A silver river down your face. You hang your heas in such disgrace. I've found you in this awful place. You've fallen from your spot of grace You've never cried in front of me, But now your weakness I do see. You cry and cry because of she, And all alone you want to be. I do refuse to leave your side. You are ashamned of how you've cried. You scream your wish that you had died, And here I come to be your guide. Never again will you walk alone. You now have love to call your own. You tried to cut rigt to the bone. You're caught tonight, tears on the phone. Let me hold you for this night. I will help you through this fight. Let us try with all our might. We'll sit here 'til you're alright. Now listen friend, and listen well. We'll walk together through this Hell. I promise you I'll never tell. Best friends forever, it ends well. Now you're in a happy place. I love that smile on your face. All of your pain we did erase. Live loving life, for it's no race.


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Heartless Fire

In my fervent heart,
You knew I treasured you
But you didn’t return those tender feelings
Just see the fumes arise from the consuming fire
Because my wicked desires wasted away into embers
I love you…I love you…These feelings are ever so new!
I LOVE YOU…I love you…These feelings are always true!
You knew I honestly adored you…oh yeah; I always did from the start
But you don’t consider those mild feelings—you wrecked those bits by bits
Ah! Now I’m crammed into the ascending fire, splintering me with the strokes of death
Because of my virtuous desires, I’m wasting away into the pit of corruption
I thought you were encompassed with my passionate kisses
But you wanted to chase after your callous blisses, now I’m faced with crises
I detest the thought of adoring you…but I have to admit—I love you!
I love you…I love you with all of my heart! Do you love me too?
I know the desires that I have constructed for you never occurred in your heart
I know in the bottom of my heart that you were only enticed by your sick pleasures
You’re dumping me into the raging fire and you’re a sneaky little liar
Because I ain’t lying like you do deceitfully to me—I’m in love and I can’t draw back my desire
You brought magnificence in my eyes, comforting angel
But I’m subsiding into the cavernous fire
Because I surrender to my legit desire
How could I free from the embrace that yanks on to me?
You brighten up my dreams and set me free from reality’s calamity
I love you…I love you…These feeling relieve me from the blue!
I LOVE YOU…I love you…I adore your every existence—do you get the clue?
You knew I kept this feeling inside for so long
Nevertheless, I feel that I belong
In your heart…In His heart…
In my heart…we’ll never depart!
You are my true endeavor
And I wanna win your heart forever!
You’ll always be loved because you’re above beautiful
But, you don’t believe this love will survive in this stranded palace
But I’ll attempt to win you with all of my might and I’ll defeat the malice
Our boundless love is like two fireflies floating in the midnight sky
But you disturbed our greetings and you didn’t even accept the feelings I felt for you
Why did you blow away our interweaved feelings of passion
And blew them away into the heartless fire?
My precious love, why did you diminish my eternal desire?
You knew I worshiped you
In my sensitive heart


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Lover's Anxiety

My man, 
my lover, 
where are you tonight? 
You live in my brain. 
You sleep in my heart. 
You rage in my body. 
I'm crying for you. 
I'm dying for you. 
I await my deliverance, 
as I pray for your revelation.


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April 10, 2011

"I never travel without my diary, 
One should always have something sensational to read . .  ."  
So, I like Oscar Wilde, 1891, write my thoughts
Journaling my ramblings, today's joyful deed.

“Face the wall” has a brand new meaning, today.
Unlike the childhood days of dancing clowns on wallpaper 
My wall is covered with shelves and CDs.
Fear no longer intrudes upon my thoughts.
Instead, file after file of creativity delights me.
Embedded on discs –

Triumphant, the wall, now, entertains. 
My computer, which is against the wall,
Takes me on a fantastic journey within myself.
I delve into my inner resources.
Write the words that paint my heart.
My soul dances to a happy song.

Around the world, people are awake.
In the dark of night I find friends.
No more scary faces in the shadows.
Safely, within the confines of my own walls,
Mind meets and shares commonalities.
Knowledge increases at my fingertips.

Uncovered walls exude your essence.
Within the boards live many memories.
Day after day, fulfilling dreams…you.
Now, sleeping peacefully, purring like a cat,
Resting up for the new day’s adventure.
Me, facing the wall of life, loving.

“Face the wall.” No longer means trouble.
Hallucinations no longer entertain.
Frightful imaginings no longer annoy. 
Joy, instead, lives in my head…with you.
We are one; two souls bound forever.
Together, we face the world and the wall.

© April 10, 2011
Dane Smith-Johnsen
Contest Name	The Diary


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Early April

The road comes to an end.
As I come around the bend, I see them.
Grouped and colorful, the hue of early April.
It was my cue to meet someone new.
Who was there that day?
What cars passed as I made my way?
Could anyone see our first embrace?
Such grace exceeds through my mind
Contoured, confound
For me this is pure phenomenon 
For you this is just another way to say
“Hey, you met someone new today”
But no, I hoard these memories with great passion 
Without a train of thought
I can remember what happened 
And oh, the smells
The smells tell the story 
A tale of a boy with no worries
Not a want in the world
Caught at the right time
 What he got:  Love for a lifetime. 


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The Night and Her Ways/Lost Under The Sun

there is a moon,
shining all alone
under all seas looming side to cloud
fall in our night and wait for the one who makes
slip in the prowl
the beasts hold night at growl
howling their sorrows
move midnight forever is tomorrow
come to our dark we run deep in the dusk
trust your lost soul while wait here for the sun

trust your yearning haven safely break
grey sky a-standing
standing far astray

lost under the sun
lost under the sun
lost under the sun 
lost under the sun

there is a place
marble floor and blue
there is a space 
that was meant for what was you
summer now white a different sort of lone
cold in our skin deeps
looking towards our glow

lost under the sun
lost under the sun
lost under the sun
lost under the sun


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Their weak hero

Softly softly not to smear
Your ego’s creation
Which kid gloves pat
Your yes men collective
Blind to their subdued hero
Nurture your conceit.
How you wear your crown
On your cowards brow
Pale yet blameless.
A little man in a big world
I never want to live in again.


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We spent most of our life in an abandoned train car

We spent most of our life in an abandoned train car
fashioned a bed out of cloth and some seats
there was no room for both so I took the floor beside you
but there were bugs in our pillow and beneath the sheets

We lived off old paychecks I lived off your love
still I insist that I owe loans for both
I gave mine so sparingly I thought I would rust
but steel does not oxidize nearly as much

You'd sit with your glasses on lost in your work
while I played the radio and painted a while
I painted you young and I hung it up after
you said: "turn down the radio, my head's a disaster"

This place feels constricting the walls are so cold
and for the first time I feel all my years old
you still sleep on hard seats, they are filled up with ghosts
and I'm still sleeping under you, we try hard not to touch

Theres a churning of metal, or maybe that's me
but at least the sound drowns out the silence that seems
to have moved as a tenant though I can't tell you when
but its much better company than I've ever been

I'd open my mouth and try to ask you these things
but all that occurs is the rustling of sheets
as I breathe out a sigh since I don't have to speak
your ears are a desert, my lips the red sea

One night you awoke me from two fitful rests
you must have moved in sleep, your breath mingled with mine
when you lifted your eyes I saw they were bright blue
it was a color well suited for you


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Dancing At A Picture Window

You are full up of moonlight
In all the right places
But now I like it best
When the sun shines on my face
It's not up to me
But when is fate going to intervene?
You spin out behind me
And what I saw I have unseen

Now I can't feel it when
My mobile cellular telephone will buzz
I dread when it's you and when it's not you
It's not like the way that it was

This sense of vague annoyance
Is really starting to get to me
A clue about the new you
Has yet to come
To me it's strange how when you change
All your old familiar friends seem new
It wasn't that you don't like me
Now it's that I don't like you

Now I can't feel you in
My mobile cellular life because
I am in a bow and I am moving
I don't know you like the way that it was

If I could move in slow motion
It would be a moving picture montage
As I pass your lit-up barred-up studio window
Hair wound tight but we feel the barrage

Sometimes I wish that I felt a thing
But you know I'm cold to the touch
Frosted over in terms of you
And what we want to hear so much

Sometimes I wish that I felt a thing
Sometimes I wish that I felt anything
But even now when I sing
It's not the way that it was


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For Joni Mitchell

for joni mitchell...

wistful strands slipping by

of grounded dreams

that i once believed would fly...

strewn around this emptiness

where once there soared,
dreams, not of riches

but of simple happiness...

'both sides now' you sang,
from within

and from a feeling of being without

you moved me so, i cried, i laughed

i wanted to run into the falling rain and shout...

'its life's illusions that i recall' your voice soared and dipped and with life breathed

as every one of those words you sang

tore into me, as my very core seethed...

not with bitterness or loss or with feelings even vaguely sad

your words seethed and burned through me

igniting memories of this life i've shared...

with those who aren't illusions

of those who've embraced me

each time i've slipped and taken yet another fall...

for like you...

'i really don't know life at all'


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Forevers dead

Love me forever.
Love me till dead.

All the lies that you told me,
the truth goes un said.

I gave you my whole heart,
its beating,
its beating beat red.

So don't tell me forever,
since your forevers been misled.


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Naked and Ashamed -Part 1-

Ooooooh.... Oooooh....OoooOooh...
Open up my pane and seep in my pain   
I weeped too long without you    
Open up my pane and let in some rain    
Shower down my face...so you won't see me blue     
 
Ooooooh.... Oooooh....OoooOooh...
I need some clothes to support me     
I need to embrace you to live my fantasy       
Ooooooh.... Oooooh....OoooOooh...
Turn away    
Don't look my way    
Don't look at me      
I'm not the sparkly sea       
As you can clearly see...        
I'm naked with shame        
There's no one to blame...       
but I...this humiliation remains the same      
 
But I must flee sooner than they think   
I need some time alone... To think... to ponder as I sink     
Into my sea of thoughts and paradise...     
I'm on a mission... To discover a previous prize      
Ooooooh.... Oooooh....OoooOooh...
If you blink, you'll miss the love scene in Romeo and Juliet   
That was made for us to see and experience for ourselves...      
Don't leave me on the shelves...     

Ooooooh.... Oooooh....OoooOooh...
Curiosity drives us to our feet...    
You make my heart beat      
In perfect rhythm... I appreciate your blessed benevolence (towards me)    
But I'll try to stay proper and discreet...     
I wish I could take a piece of your pure prudence (I want to watch you flee)     

Ooooooh.... Oooooh....OoooOooh...
Hey x3
You clothe me up...
What's up with you today?
I'm naked and ashamed
Turn the other way...
'Cause today is not the only day
I feel so damn afraid...
But hey x3
You make me feel whole
How was your day? 
Hopefully the sky wasn't a shade of gray


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JIM MORRISON -- DEATH OF A ROCK

    JIM MORRISON--DEATH OF A ROCK 
There's a man all alone and his name is well known
but he thinks all the world is a den
of the poor and the weak and the too dead to speak
for themselves, it's a game they can't win.

He's a little bit high and he'll be til we die
it's too bad that his heart is so black,
but he knows how to sing to a crowd and to bring
out the love that they've been holding back.

It's a game that he plays with your life and he stays
just as long as the music goes on,
and he'll make you to smile if it's only a while,
then he goes where the devil has gone.

All the girls that he's had think it's not all that bad
but the glitter's too much for their mind
so they leave him to sleep where no angel would keep
anyone for there's not one to find.

He could write every word of the songs we have heard
and he's led every daughter astray
to be part of his past and a love that won't last
and he lights every fire in his way..

Now he looks for the cause of the reason he was
as he died he's still misunderstood,
but the dream's been too dead for too long in his head,
and he rode out the storm as he should.


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Piano Product 70

Melodies of the mistrals,
Finger and the cuts,
Were fancy so fancy,
Keying the right notes.
Costumes of the dead,
Scrape and moan,
Against their lonely piano,
Singing and ringing their bells.
Seventy songs lay in a row,
Of choosing which to play,
The rhyme of the chime,
Of playing night to day.


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Confessional Tale from the Mouth of Redemption

My heart is beating from me
My brain's betraying me tonight
Images constantly flowing
I'll be hating you til the morning light

I'll waste tonight thinking of you
And him committing your sins

Tomorrow will be a brand new day

Two years ago, we met
Together under a selfish bet
"He doesn't love you, so come on with me"
I knew back then this would come to be

If someone cheats
To be with you
You can bet your ass
They'll cheat on you too

Something died today
I see its corpse lingering in the waves
It's the shell of us
Wrapped in a rotten casket of wasted trust

I fell asleep while
Waiting for you to come
Back from your journey
And you're still not here

You said he was just a friend
Someone to keep you company
And from getting torn down
From the rest of the crew

Tell me what you mean
By he's only just a friend
When you've swallowed something
That's sacred

No way to trust you
Nothing to say
To me, you're still in Europe
And I'm still here

No way to trust you
Nothing left to say
Because I'm pretty sure you're lying
When you say sorry

I guess an excuse is that you're still young
When we were your age, we were all pretty dumb
But even if I had a thought quite like that
You know I'd never act

You made me swear I'd stay loyal
And off you went, flying like you were royal
You swore to me you'd do the same
Well, now I'm feeling pretty lame

You stabbed me with the same knife
You were so afraid was going to kill you
And now I'm floating...

Home
I'm floating home again
Home
I'm floating home again

If you're really looking to atone
Well, it's time to swim
I'm back in this boring town again
Alone, and you're still swimming

Home
I'm floating home again
Home
I'm floating home again


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Behind the Wall

Welcome to my sanctum here
The only place I can call home
A place I love to retreat to
Whenever I need to feel alone

Allow me to share why I am here
And not by you at all times
I have grown weary of this world
And all of humanity's crimes

Watch, my friend, and you will see
My nightmare is reality
Locked inside this world, a cage
And all my cellmates cause me rage

Behind the wall
I am me
Behind the wall
And that's all I can be

Trust me when I say this now
I'm not to be trusted here
My mind's a shell of what once was
No longer turning are these gears

Solitude is my drug
And reality is when I crash
I feel their gaze upon my back
And feel them burning me to ash

No more will I fight this fight
Propelling me through endless night
I've got this far all on my own
And I'd sooner die alone

Behind the wall
I am me
Behind the wall
That's all I'll ever be

Behind this wall
Take me, creeping death!

Moon is shining strong
Finally growing restless now 
It seems it's all a game
One that can't be lost

Fear of moving on
Warmth inside the sweet embrace
That I now shall shun
No matter what the cost


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Hateleaf

Something has to change
A town brought to its knees
A burden that it never should've had to bear

Stoners, junkies
Dealers deep within it's system
Shame I have not known it any other way

Tell me why
We suffer 
At the hands of this leaf

They don't want it
They just need it
To live, to die, to know what it's like

Flaming at the ends of sanity
Burning out the passions of those who could be the brightest
Relaxed, they're all slaves to the green leaf

Dealers claimed my friend
Leaving me with little
I wish I could go back and save him from some pain

Tempted, reeling
From the contact, high within him
We all stared and our heads ached from the strain

It's not enough
To stand by
And watch the bodies rise

The leaf's bloody
The leaf's tainted
It burns, it lies, it tears us apart

Blazing deep within the public eye
It may sting a little but it's something we got used to
Relaxed, torn away

Why should it mean anything to me
If they just want to throw their lives away?

But I'll keep fighting
Until the leaves stop burning

Seas of lights on the horizon
Smoky haze corrupts us and tells us that we're nothing
Hateleaf tearing into our lives
If we relax, then we give up the fight


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Heartbreak -Version2

Can I stay asleep? When my eyes are closed I’m happy In my dreams Everything is perfect [Chorus] But that’s why they’re called dreams Because nothing is real And they always shatter into A thousand pieces And that’s the sting of Reality I want to go back to sleep I don’t like this feeling I’ve lost you already I hate it And my dreams have died [Chorus] [Refrain] This is Reality I hate it Reality It sucks [Chorus]


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Luciferia II-- The Damned

Run away Run Away No matter how Far You will never escape my dark hands of faith Wicked and Damned you are my Sin Darling Don't you Tremble when I embrace you The cold and Dark may fill every marrow But at least there were here For You Tell Me how they So Loved You Tell Me All of your fears When the world is done and all their trust will render Undone I will always be with you And Now We cease to Exist Luciferia I can see your Misery Just follow me and believe Me We are The Damned Outcasts of this Natural World We are The Damned Hold on I'll show you what you're waiting for We Are The Damned Join Our Dark Reality When you know the choice the Wind Will come right through And you will See what you're really meant to Be Draining into the Night Shivering With the Smallest of Frights I am the Ghost In Your Dreams I watch You Through the Window Yes that is your name Written In Blood Are You Scared? Are You Suffering? The Dark fate is what was Meant to Be This is what happens when you Brake Us with Words Destroy us with sights Twists are minds Set our will On Fire I can see your Misery Just follow me and believe Me We are The Damned Outcasts of this Natural World We are The Damned Hold on I'll show you what you're waiting for We Are The Damned Join Our Dark Reality When you know the choice the Wind Will come right through And you will See what you're really meant to Be I can see your Misery Just follow me and believe Me We are The Damned Outcasts of this Natural World We are The Damned Hold on I'll show you what you're waiting for We Are The Damned Join Our Dark Reality When you know the choice the Wind Will come right through And you will See what you're really meant to Be


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Eyes

Dream of a world, Where there is peace. No girls, That admit to defeat. You can walk on water, Not worrying of drowning. You can open your locker, And look around see no one frowning. I walk up to you. I study your face. I can see if your blue, Or feel out of place. I look into your eyes. Somehow I'm suprised, You haven't seen in yet. You haven't seen the best, Of me. It's a dream, Or a nightmare, For which you don't wake. I feel like a vampire, Getting stabbed with a stake. Why can't you look into my eyes, And see I love you? Dream of a world, Filled with war. See a dead girl, And be dead poor. A million things, Happen at once. You have to see, The best of me. I walk up to you. I study your face. I can see if your blue, Or feel out of place. I look into your eyes. Somehow I'm suprised, You haven't seen in yet. You haven't seen the best, Of me. It's a dream, Or a nightmare, For which you don't wake. I feel like a vampire, Getting stabbed with a stake. Why can't you look into my eyes, And see I love you? Think about love. Think about death. You'll see a dove, On your last breath. Wake me with a kiss, So, I can see your eyes, With such bliss, Before I die. Listen to my fairytale, Before I leave, Before I go to Yale. I walk up to you. I study your face. I can see if your blue, Or feel out of place. I look into your eyes. Somehow I'm suprised, You haven't seen in yet. You haven't seen the best, Of me. It's a dream, Or a nightmare, For which you don't wake. I feel like a vampire, Getting stabbed with a stake. Why can't you look into my eyes, And see I love you? I can see, You don't love me, But can you stop, The Dreams, The Nightmares? There's something inside of me, I can't hide from. It's my fate, But I'm too late. Dream of the possibilities, Of you and me. Look into my eyes. Think twice. What do you think? About me? Now.


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Why

I have wondered far to long
why do things  we know is wrong

Like when we see somebody cry
why  we don't stop and ask them why

Some one may need us today
we can't just turn and walk away

we have to stop and lend a hand
and try to help them understand

That life will not always be  fair
 let them know that we'll be there

and other things that bother me
things that we should never see

To hit a child without a cause
the parent just has to pause

and try to find some other way
to work their anger out that day

And some folks seem to be amused
to watch an animal being abused

Hearts will break and tears will fall
 Please let us try to  help them all






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You've Gone

You said "why don't you just get over it",
But it's really not that easy,
I feel incomplete without you here,
Wondering where we went wrong.

For once I was happier than ever,
I could feel the fireworks,
I felt the sparks and saw the color
In your cheeks when we kissed.

I heard warmth in your words,
Saw your eyes sparkle, 
How could you say it was a mistake,
It was all just a lie?

I've lost my way now,
Can't get back home,
No matter how far I travel
It's never far enough.

I'm running to the place,
The one you once called home,
And I can't stop from screaming your name,
But I know you won't be there.

I’m trying my hardest, really,
But I’m constantly being reminded,
It’s not fair but what can I do?
I swore that was the last time.

It’s not like you didn’t know
I loved you, you knew, the thing is,
I thought you felt this way too,
And now your story’s changed to suit you.

What were you so afraid of?
You promised me forever,
What made you change your mind?
I don’t understand.

I've lost my way now,
Can't get back home,
No matter how far I travel
It's never far enough.

I'm running to the place,
The one you once called home,
And I can't stop from screaming your name,
But I know you won't be there.

And all I can say is,
I tried, I tried to love you
But you didn’t want it,
You pulled away.

So why can’t I stay away?
You’re a drug, you left me
Breathless, defenseless,
Nowhere else to turn.

You said "just move on, 
I don’t know what you expect of me",
I was just a silly mistake to you,
A foolish girl who fell for lies.

I've lost my way now,
Can't get back home,
No matter how far I travel
It's never far enough.

I'm running to the place,
The one you once called home,
And I can't stop from screaming your name,
But I know you won't be there

Every minute I waste
Is another minute gone,
But I can’t stop myself,
You got under my skin.

Made a home inside my heart,
And tore my feelings apart,
I’ve become numb, I don’t
Know what to feel anymore.

It’s so frustrating, tiring to still
Stand here waiting, hoping
You’ll change your mind and see
I’ve always been here.

And maybe this is just
A repeat of everything,
Maybe I do deserve better,
But I never wanted better.

I've lost my way now,
Can't get back home,
No matter how far I travel
It's never far enough.

I'm running to the place,
The one you once called home,
And I can't stop from screaming your name,
But I know you won't be there....


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CHRISTMAS ON CHAMPS ELYSEES Monsieur L'Vampyre

........CHRISTMAS ON CHAMPS ELYSEES
This night of mass, I still recall
the thing we had--dare I suggest,
if it was love, how we did fall?
For just a while, our lives were blessed
........Now Christmas on Champs Elysees
.........is not the same, in any way.

The lights reflecting on the Seine
have lost a little of their glow
I still walk there, but only when
there's no one with me I should know;
........and never since have I gone to
.........that small cafe, where I met you.

'twould be too much for me to bear
I'd have to face reality
accepting you would not be there
and put to rest your memory
......but now each Christmas I can feel
......the warmth of you, it's almost real.

And so this night, so warm and mild
I'll not forget the love of you
but celebrate the Jesus child
the way we used to do.
......and light a Candle Christmas Eve
.......though you have died, I still believe.
© ron wilson


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Pleasure

Your pain is my pleasure
your soul is no treasure
I look at you and see no one.

You'll never be as bright as the sun,the moon or the stars
in my world you're as far away
as the planet mars.

You'll never be remembered 
as the boy with light blonde hair

You'll always be remembered
for the boy who wasn't there.


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Final Day

Put the blindfold on your eyes
as you try to hide from all of your fears
Shortcomings and bad luck
have you falling to your knees
as all you’ve ever hoped and dreamed
all you’ve ever loved and needed
has slowly fallen into the depths of what can never be 
Just curl up inside yourself
hidden from your loved ones’ view
The doors are locked inside
as you slowly harden against all the prying eyes
You just can’t force yourself to face
your crying eyes in the mirror anymore
The blurry image staring back at you
can’t drown away the feelings that you have
And no matter what pain you cause
it never hurts enough
It never keeps yourself at bay
And so you're stuck in the prison walls you built yourself
trapped within your own mind
And while you’ve more than served your time
there’s no escaping this
And as you fall unto the floor
as you can no longer take the pain anymore
and bash your fists into the ground
with tears of despair flowing down
you feel your final hope die away
and so you let yourself and soul slip away
making this your final day


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About Last Night - New Year's Eve Remorse

About last night...

I just wanted to write and tell you
That last night was a big mistake
I'd had way too much to drink
I was tired and it was getting late.

I wasn't thinking clearly
I wasn't thinking the way I normally do
I let my emotions get the best of me
I let you tell me things that were not true.
I was influenced by the moment
I did things that I now wish I didn't do.

When we first met last night
I could see clearly see what was on your mind.
I could see clearly read your twisted intent
I could easily read the lust that was in your eyes.

And it had nothing to do with 'Forevers"
'I do's', White Dresses or White Weddings
Long term commitments of any kind.
It all had to do with you pleasing yourself
Executing what was on your mind.

And so I let you woo me
I let you stay with me for a while
You had a sort of amusement
You had a captivating smile.

When we danced all night
I let you hold me close
I closed my eyes and pretended
That we were in love
I let myself be in a different place
I place where I was loved.

Last night's drinking led to dancing
And then dancing led to our first kiss
And then kisses led to other things
Things I engaged in
But now in hindsight
With some remiss.

And so I just wanted to tell you
If it had been in another time or place
I would never have given you the time of day
You never would have kissed my smiling face.

And so I feel that I need to tell you
On this first day of the first of the year
That I never ever want to see you again
In spite of last night's cheer.

You just happened to be there
When I needed someone to engage 
With a comforting smile
You were a mild amusement
You kept me company for a while.

And so that's about all I needed to tell you
About what happened late last night
I just wanted to write you a formal goodbye
And tell you what was on my mind
I thought that I would send it to you
And do what I thought was right.

*A Hypothetical Reflection on a New Year's Eve Tryst

(January 1,  2011 Wausau, Wisconsin)

(c) Copyright 2010 by Christine A Kysely, All Rights Reserved



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Crush and Crushed

In the beginining,
There was a girl.
She was on a rollar coaster.
She saw her crush.
He ignored her.
He thought she was annoying.
He thought she was petiful.
Little did he know,
She would die that day.
Here's her story.

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Little, little girl,
No cares in the world.
Bruises on her face,
Crazy on her trace.

Little, little girl,
Little, little crush.
Little, little love,
Little, little to much.

Only on a rollar coaster,
Would she believe,
She was air.
Carelessness filled her head,
Little, little so much dread.
The boy she liked,
Walking around with so much might,
Little, little did he know that she would die.

Little, big circle coming up,
She was on bottom the cart on top.
Watching the cart fallin',
He didn't know she was calling,
His name.

Heaven reached to her,
But she kept herself on earth,
Until she could see him again.

Only on a rollar coaster,
Would she believe,
She was air.
Carelessness filled her head,
Little, little so much dread.
The boy she liked,
Walking around with so much might,
Little, little did he know that she would die.

Tell him, tell him how you feel,
Little did you know it would feel so real.
Now that she was dead he started thinkin',
Was she crazy or was she worth loving?

Only on a rollar coaster,
Would she believe,
She was air.
Carelessness filled her head,
Little, little so much dread.
The boy she liked,
Walking around with so much might,
Little, little did he know that she would die.

Now she's going to heaven,
So many things she hasn't done.
She sees the door and,
Remembers her amore.

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Later that night,
After he saw her die,
He commited suicide.
His parents found a note from him.
"I saw her die,
 I love her,
 I am going to be with her.
 I'm sorry"
He didn't go to heaven,
Neither did she,
They are both stuck in limbo,
At least they have each other.


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New Years Poem...

As a new year is upon us, we gleam with such excite;

Many parties and celebrations will be going on,

I think the mailman lost my invites.

Looks like I'll celebrating alone this year;

and toasting to the occasion,

One drink for me, one for humanity,

For drinking I need no persuasion.

I'll count back from ten and watch the ball drop;

toast and give a shout,

What the hell, I'll have another;

And drink til the brandy runs out.

Celebrating a new year, ringing with bliss,

being alone doesn't have to spoil it;

I just hope tomorrow doesn't find me,

crouched over hugging the toilet.


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Stop Trying

I try to say 'I love you',
I try to show it.
Everytime I let you in,
You always seem to blow it.
Faithfulness is easy,
Being truthful is hard.
I had two choices, and you chose the wrong card.
Why don't we remain
To be "US" again?
Can't help but to cry,
When the love leaves your eyes.
You'd leave me if you could,
Which is something I've never understood.
Why do you stay with me
When I don't make you happy?
Just go away and leave me alone!
I deserve to be alone...
I'm the worst thing in your life.
The worst decision for your wife.
Just leave me now.
Stop making us suffer through this!
Please! Just hurry up and do it.


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Blood of a liar, mark of a thief

You took it all
(I held my breath)
You screamed my name
(as you fell to your death)
The crowed gathered round
but I stood tall
with your body laying so broken
you've never looked so small

The rain started pouring down
(oh how I smiled)
There were sirens in the distance
(only a half a mile)
Down below the screaming sounds
I can't hear a thing
everyone's gaze is upon me
waiting for the once caged bird to sing

(Liar)
You promised me everything
did your words mean nothing
were they empty
lifeless without a theme
(Thief)
You took hold of my heart
shredded my soul, raped my mind
did it mean anything
was I even worth it
ir just another part to your scheme

The rain washes away the evidence
(the blood, sweat, and tears)
But rain can't wash away everythng
(no, not everything)
not the pain suffered through the years

Your words were so sweet
who was I to judge
I fell for your parlor tricks
over the edge with one small nudge
Such a beautiful disguise you wore
silly little me
I fell into your web of lies
far too young to ever see

(Liar)
You promised me everything
did your words mean nothing
were they empty
lifeless without a theme
(Thief)
You took hold of my heart
shredded my soul, raped my mind
did it mean anything
was I even worth it
ir just another part to your scheme

You could have been mine
(does it hurt now, hush, be quiet now)
You sold your soul for a good time
(does it hurt now, hush, don't speak now)
Did you think I'd never know?
(does it hurt now, does it hurt now)
Now you must reap the crop you've sewn

(Liar)
You promised me everything
did your words mean nothing
were they empty
lifeless without a theme
(Thief)
You took hold of my heart
shredded my soul, raped my mind
did it mean anything
was I even worth it
ir just another part to your scheme

(Liar)
You had such a pretty little plan
(Thief)
Carried out by such a careless little man


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Wind

Piss and wind
Blow in the night
Flowing down stream

Piss and wind
As the wind blows, the piss flows
And a man is relieved


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BESTEST FRIEND

BESTEST FRIEND 
All I'll ever be is who I've been.
If I change a thing, it's only now and then.
There's still a little boy in me.
You can find him anytime you want to see.
He'll hold your hand, and he'll understand
the feeling you've been going through.
When you need a friend
He will be the bestest friend you ever knew.

All you'll ever know in knowing me.
Is someone who'll love you like love's meant to be.
I've seen the little girl in you,
I know she loves all the little things I do.
She could warm my heart, or tear it apart,
And she might do it with a grin.
But when I need a friend, 
she will be the bestest friend there's ever been.

Picture your life
walking down a country lane
Never caring where you will go.
Picture yourself
Walking with your bestest friend,
Always knowing you're not alone.

All I'll ever give is all you see.
If I changed too much, you could never find me.
I'm still the little boy I've been,
Not long ago, he still comes out now and then.
He will hold your hand, 
And he'll understand the feeling you can never show.
And when you need a friend,
He will be the bestest friend you'll ever know.

When you need a friend 
He will be the bestest friend you'll ever know.
© ron wilson aka vee bdosa


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Save Me

It’s hard to live
In this sea of distress
Sorrow comes
And pulls me under
Fighting for my
Very last breath
I’m struggling
Can you save me?
Way too late
I’m drowning
In the light
It’s time for
Me to leave
Goodbye
Goodbye
But if you came 
And pulled me out
Of this quicksand:
Depression
I might have lived
I might be here
Today.


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getting down with isis

isis parties
can be fun affairs
someone always gets drunk
and loses the head.


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CHIEF SEATTLE ADDRESS.

You asked me to 
Sell my land
How could I sell my land
It would be like
Selling my soul
Selling the skies above
Presences in the airs
Sparkle of the waters
Memories in dark woods
Green meadows and
Sounds of humming bees.

 Where sentry  stand guarding the mists
Ghostly reflections among the sandy shores
The sap that runs through pine needles
The blood that courses through my veins
The heats generated by the shaggy pony
And my brothers bear ,deer and the eagle soar.

The rivers are my brothers
They quench my thirst, they feed me
Show me kindness, live my life
Feel me heal me bathe me knead me.

The earth is my mother
She nourishes me flourishes me
Perfumes me with flowers
Feeds me with corn
Sings me lullabies
Feels me in her pain
Renews me clues me with mystery.

Do not force me to sell the elements
My mother earth my brother river
My sister wind the sap in my brain
Gods of my visions heaven Striven
All my spirits among the forest frames.


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Fourth

Swamped within my disbelief, alright
Tides have changed too quick for me to see
My socks are soaked and clinging to my skin
Next moment, they're threadbare and they're dry
Just can't predict

Another moment, another funeral
Under the knife, another removal
Push me into this black night and I'll fall into the morning light
Four years of running and I haven't moved at all
Now I'll finally trip and fall

Hooked into a machine to survive
Drip the sweet illusions in my dreams
I see the situation's getting worse
Even if I wanted to escape
I'd tear it out

From a user to an addict
The stoic world before me restricts
Stumbling in perfect night, just begging to see morning light
The light in the tunnel turned out to be a train
My running was in vain

Take the tubes out, they're not helping
It all still feels like it's a scalping
Shoot me into the abyss, it cannot be much worse than this
Push me over so I won't feel a thing
Like a glass of Novocaine


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the fire

(vrs 1)
dont touch the fire
the fools always said
dont make the mistakes
you'll only end up dead

(vrs 2)
dont touch the coals
they only can burn
so i waited in line
till id have my turn

(chorus)
you never know until you try
so dont be the one to survive
you either live or you die
and end up feeding us the lie

(vrs 3)
ive felt the burns
in degrees never known
ive got countless scars
that will never be shown

(vrs 4)
the fire burns deeper
to scald not to kill
so we're left only to touch
and believe in the thrill

(chorus)
you never know until you try
so dont be the one to survive
you either live or you die
and end up feeding us the lie


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Messiah

Every day you show me
The meaning of love
By driving another nail
Through the hand
That healed you

Covered in a thousand scars
Only the Father can see
But I expose them to the world
Nailed upon this tree
I whisper in your ear

Beg me…beg me...
Beg me, won’t you...?

Two for my hands
Another for my feet
Hang me up, so all can see
That I’m the only one
I’m the only one
Who will die for you
I’M THE ONLY ONE WHO
WILL DIE FOR YOU!!!

BEG ME, BEG ME, BEG ME!!
WON’T YOU?! WON’T YOU?!

You’re so busy searching for
new reasons to complain
You never stop to think of the pain
YOU NEVER THINK OF PAIN!!!
YOU NEVER THINK OF IT!!!
YOU NEVER!!

God, take me away from this
I can’t stand it any longer
TAKE THIS AWAY FROM ME!!
PLEASE, GOD JUST TAKE THIS AWAY!!

You desecrate my house
You curse my name
And spit in my face
You call me a liar
You persecute my family
And try to drive me away

So ungrateful
I’d like to leave you behind
So unfaithful
Despite deserving to burn
I’m bleeding to wash away your sin

You deserve to burn
But I know how ignorant you are
Yeah, I know how ignorant you are
I know, I know, I know
CAN’T YOU SEE?!
CAN’T YOU SEE?!
I DO THIS ALL FOR YOU?!
FOR YOU?! FOR YOU?!
ALL OF THIS!!
HOW DO YOU THANK ME?!
HOW DO YOU THANK ME?!

CRUCIFY HIM!!
HIT IT ONE MORE TIME!!
ONE MORE TIME!!

THE HAND THAT HEALED YOU!!


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Casting Stones?

You're not apart from others my friend
Nor have you been, by God, forsaken.
For in each past lay memories that rend
Leaving us depressed with psyche shaken.

God alone knows our past, no other man,
Though many may know some tiniest part.
In attempting to judge us because they can
They look past the goodness in our heart.

They fail to see that inner part not showing
The many things that God has always known.
Perhaps the price we pay is in our knowing
The disbursement for mistakes we've sown.

But in our hearts we must learn to forgive
Others, for the wrongs directed our way.
Then ourselves, for we've but one life to live
And aren't privy to life's moment or our day.

By God's design, the only perfect person,
died on the cross-

Written for a special friend, Shirlene









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Punk

We've gotta walk in their shoes
Before we judge (that's how the saying goes)
With all the judgin' we do,
That's a lot of miles of walkin'
We've gotta walk in their shoes
See that they can feel too
Realize that they can love

Just listen to them
Hear what they're sayin'
Figure that it could be true
Just listen to us
Understand what I'm sayin
You could get this wild too

Let's hear your thoughts,
We will listen
It don't matter to anyone else
Let's hear your thoughts
Get crazy with it
Anarchy is the way
Of our life

Us punks, we feel emotion
Both anger and chaos, it's true
But us punks, we know what it feels like
To love and to cry too
You see us as dangerous beasts
With a reckless, wild passion
You see us with our spiky hair and tattered clothes,
But punk ain't just a fashion


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Madness

Hurt, guilt, remorse
I've been through worse
live life fast, die faster
its all just a f#@kin disaster
i need a piece of serenity
i hear some have plenty
share yours and i will open doors that weren't`t
meant to be open
dementia has a funny price when you take a madman's advice
just give me a piece of you and i will turn your darkest skies blue


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The Insane Lane

You healed me…you saved me with a kind, kind heart of sympathy
With well-spoken words (and you deleted the history of my endless rage)
Of empathetic wisdom and positivity…erasing the negativity and rehearsing accord in my mind of past grief and poverty
My tension releases like a billion birds (out of his ribcage)

You dragged me down with bad news…
You had everything to lose…
I had so little to win for…
But, you made me have this bruise
In my heart…you hit me to the core…
With cheerfulness and affection 
In my young, hopeless, genuine heart,
You are my illuminated night – show me some direction!
I was that dim light bulb from the start

Catch me before I fall
To tell you the truth, I have tried to stand tall
And give it my all…just answer my call
My heart is pounding in appall

Pound to the rhythm of my heart x8

Oh, I am going insane
Anxiety and curiosity brewing in my brain

Going insane…
Driving in another dark lane
You were loved
In the bottom of my heart
You were in chains in my heart
I tried to smile bright tonight
I wish you were gone in my life
I tried so hard…to take wing in the light
I wish you the best in life…
I pray for peace to murder the strife

You’re my – 
You’re my sunrise
You are – 
You are the one I prize
I am – 
I am the sunset in your eyes
I am – 
I am the nightfall before your eyes…
I unveil my beauty and I memorize
Every word you utter…
Your words – as smooth as butter 

Catch me before I fall
To tell you the truth, I have tried to stand tall
And give it my all…just answer my call
My heart is pounding in appall

Pound to the rhythm of my heart x8

Oh, I am going insane
Anxiety and curiosity brewing in my brain

And now I’m…
Now I’m…
I can’t say it…
I’m chained to this pit…
Of shame…
Without a name…

Going insane…
Driving in another dark lane
You were loved
In the bottom of my heart
You were in chains in my heart
I tried to smile bright tonight
I wish you were gone in my life
I tried so hard…to take wing in the light
I wish you the best in life…
I pray for peace to murder the strife

I’ve lost the race, 
I haven’t passed the test
But I’ll keep trying (trying)
Though, I’m frankly dying x3 (flying)
I’ll make it up to you, radiant friend of mine
Wipe off the grime from my face…this anger and envy becomes serpentine
To my heart…to my young, once-innocent heart

Pound to the rhythm of my heart x4
I tried to keep pace with the rhythm of my heart
Pound to the rhythm of my heart x4
I’m rolling in the deathcart…into the abyss, I go…take heart, foes that drag me down to the ground heartlessly… vicious night hunts me down like I’m its next prey…I pray x3 my life won’t transform into strife…blooming blasphemy in my young, anguish-whelmed heart 

Catch me before I fall
To tell you the truth, I have tried to stand tall
And give it my all…just answer my call
My heart is pounding in appall

Pound to the rhythm of my heart x8

Oh, I am going insane
Anxiety and curiosity brewing in my brain

And now I’m…
Now I’m…
I can’t say it…
I’m chained to this pit…
Of shame…
Without a name…

Going insane…
Driving in another dark lane
You were loved
In the bottom of my heart
You were in chains in my heart
I tried to smile bright tonight
I wish you were gone in my life
I tried so hard…to take wing in the light
I wish you the best in life…though it slits you like a jagged knife
I tried to search for you with all of my remaining might
I pray for peace to murder the strife…to end this miserable, chaotic life
Death isn’t in this grand land of ours 

Close the corridors of your blue eyes
Tell the truth and sift out the lies
I was black and lonely,
But, now I’m white and carrying with me the attitude of gratitude
I’m wearing an upside down frown of sunlit glee
In my heart…you hit me to the core…
But, you made me have this bruise
I had so much to win for…
You had nothing to lose…
You uplifted me with your good news

Your priceless words gave me ecstatic happiness
Your helping hands brought me out of the abysssssss
I was gravity-bound in the chambers of my mind…I was once numb…and she spit me out like tasteless, gross gum
Can’t help, but wish for God’s kingdom to come x4
You dug deep into my soul of anguish and cheer - thank you kindly for your empathetic words of wisdom


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The Book of You

I see you, more than you understand
Your heart, your soul, its like the perfect book

Your heart it beats and yet you do not live
Why do you resign yourself to such a fate,
A fate, an attempt at life that is such a waste

I know in your heart you wish things where different
Wish the past had not happened, 
Wished that your heart did not ache so much

This wish is futile, to wish your heart away is to hide
Do not hide from what enriches your life
You will forever remember this
Learn from these pages in your book 

Yet that crippling pain is likely the purest emotion you have felt
I am here staring into you, reading you

I see your soul for what it is,
It is struggling to restore your shattered heart
Your greatest weakness is your fear

You fear for what can be, for the next pain
So many times you have been shattered
Many times broken and defeated

But you must learn to fight back
Learning that pain is only the beginning is the only way

Without this I doubt your heart or your soul will survive
Survive the apocalypse of your life, fate has not ended it
This is after all just the beginning of your future

I beg you to continue your life,
I yearn to read into your heart, mind and soul more

Please forgive my selfishness but I need you to continue
The waste of your heart is too much
The waste of a soul like yours is a shame

I will pass you the string for which to sew your heart
I will pass you each piece, each shard of your soul
Allow yourself time to heal,
The process is only as slow as you make it

Demand your heart to listen to your mind
Falling back into the pit of despair is truly mad
If you allow yourself to fall within its inky depths
Then forever will its dark tentacles enwrap your heart

You have felt the pain now, felt it keenly
Do not fall into vengeance, it is seductive, it is sweet
But it is a short reprieve from the darkness

Take heart, the good die young is what we're told
The better die last.
The best live eternal in their love, for true love is eternal
That love will forever last in another’s hear.

Do not give in to pain,
Do not give in to hate,
Give in to your recovery.


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Rape and Ruin

Bloodstained carpets
Bloodstained bed
Everything is oh so red
Dying dying dying dead
Everything is oh so red

Tears of blood
and tears of gold
everything is growing cold

Love on wings
of silver silk
trampled on the floor
whom is that knocking
death is at the door

Bloodstained carpets
Bloodstained bed
Everything is oh so red
Dying dying dying dead
Everything is oh...so...dead


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Magick Mirror

Cast out I blast out of a cage that once enslaved blast out towards an image worshiped Big myth, great idol its you I learn to admire in the trials, by fire that taught me how I should not be Now I'm lying in the entrails of the mystical lion swallowed up by the trend I believed was worth dying for, now I am no more; a lost scripture in this unfolding vicariously informed the show must go on everything on edge by the crash of a drone how did I find peace all on my own? no one can find it if they're searching too strong It invades you, somewhat saves you from the angst and rage of child's play adults playing war games in a dangerous way everybody staring blank, in loss of face.


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Leaving and De-leaving

    LEAVING AND DE-LEAVING
I am your deepest blinding light
someone you've scarcely met
I'm everything you've ever known,
but chosen to forget.

I am the Lord of Poconos,
I'm everything to lose,
the southwind is my resting place
we blow where I may choose.

I'll lead you on a treasure hunt,
a voyage through the mind,
to Treasure Islands never known
and never meant to find.

I am someone who'll never die,
the author of my fate,
part of each thought you'll ever know,
I'm love, and I am hate,

there is no end to what I do,
my mind is your domain,
I am your thought, each breath you take
I am your summer rain,

and drifting in an autumn wind,
each leaf is yours to hold,
and you will know I'm there as well,
not young, but never old.


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Please Come Back to Me

V.1: Please come back to me
One day you’ll see that I’m desperately trying to see our 
destiny
Our destiny is to a part of His crew…and we had no clue…
I’m trying to borrow a new frame of mind
Without a dash of shame…without a dash of shame
Screaming at the top of my lungs,
I’ve been lost in the bewilderment of my maze-like mind
Someday, you’ll stay here with me…I pray…I pray that day 
would come someday
Somehow, you’ll see me through the pain…dismiss the 
ghosts of the past…

*Chorus*
Oohh I knew you would come back
Oooh I knew you would come back to me…
Sometimes, I wonder if you love me or if you just pretend to 
love me so
Oooh I knew you would come back
Ooooh I knew you would come back to me…
There’s days when I feel positive when you’re around, but I 
have to-to go…
Oooh I knew you would come back
Ooooh I knew you would come back to me…
Someday, you’ll stay here with me…I pray…I pray that day 
would come someday
Somehow, you’ll see me through the pain…dismiss the 
ghosts of the past…
Oooh I knew you would come back
Ooooh I knew you would come back to me…
Someday, you’ll sit here and say what you wanted to say to 
me – there’s no need to feel dismay
Some say “you must pay the price one way or another”, but I 
say take your time and let your happiness never last
Oooh I knew you would come back
Ooooh I knew you would come back to me…
I’m no longer that magazine, alone on the magazine rack 

V.2: What is it like to be truly free?
I believe I’ve done things I shouldn’t have done, but it’s 
done and over with
For you’re a beloved story – in other words,
 My dream of reality – you are not a ridiculous myth


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Nero's Rome

Nero’s Rome


My life died when my love lied
Like a snake in the grass
And just like a Garden of Eden
She ate the fruit forbidden


It chewed me to the core
It left me wanting more


Everything’s too bright in a shell without a light
Like a heart of one-way glass
I saw myself when seeing you
You saw me, but others too

I was a vampire before your mirror
Night came, I became white and disappeared

Everywhere I went was ground zero
In a town I used to love, now hate
My songs like bombs burn and break
Biting, screaming, scratching Nero
I will be the anti-hero
My fiddle and I fornicate


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Future, A Desolating Future(Part 2)

the sweet sun is bound to rest-
to melt is the tomorrow of the glaciers;
wither will be the daffodil, though at her best
to cry is the future of our laughters...


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Get Lost From My World

Who do you think you are
Trying to mess around with me
Don't think too far
I know you won't let me free

Forget all your stupid words
It doesn't mean anything to me!
You think you had it all right
But it is the truth you can't see

I never thought you will be like this
Even though we know we are in the same roof
Brothers, that is who we are
But we act like fools

I am always the one to be blamed
I am always your target all the time
Trying to suffer my life
I know you would not care if I die!

Our parents scolded for our behaviour
But you stayed the same
You think I am the one who is wrong
While I am trying to change my ways!

Who are you to think I am a fool
I know you don't understand
Do you think I would like you to be here
And bring that pain again!

This is my world
Can't you see
Are you blind
That is so not me!

This is my world
Don't you care
Feel so tired
You are so not fair

I am not the one to be blamed!
I know that you still haven't learnt!
And I am the one who is trying to change!
So, get lost from my world!!

Get the hell out of my world!


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