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Details | Free verse | |

Paranoid love

Tell me that this fear is just paranoia in my mind, 
we're not straining, we're not struggling, 
we're not sinking, we're just fine. 
I'm not perfect my dearest, but damn have I tried, 
and I'll try harder but I know I'll have the same results every time. 
Do you want me all the ways that I am? 
With all the struggles and the tears and the clinging to your hand. 
I fear your getting further and Im left on the shore to stand, 
watching you in the distance with a bullet in my hand. 
Tell me all this worry, its just clutter in my mind, 
tell me not to worry that we're doing just fine. 
Cause Im scared to run you off and I feel Im falling deep. 
And Im so frightened of these thoughts that its getting hard to sleep.
All I know is that the heart wants what it desires, 
because of you the match inside has turned into a fire. 
And I feel the broken glass thats sticking from my skin, 
Wondering if you'll remove the pain or push it back in. 
My hearts frantic wondering if you feel the same, 
pleading and begging for more than just a saying, 
but to feel and to see that im not alone, 
with being in this love thats overwhelming. 
Once I told you that we didnt have a spark, 
but you were lighting up and I was sitting in the dark. 
And this fire, this blaze its wrapped in desire. 
Im terrified to lose you, I think I might die or, 
maybe disappear from all the pieces falling out, 
im going crazy but when i open my mouth, nothing comes out, 
and I cant explain to you why I just need to hold you close, 
why every time you leave Im scared to let you go, 
why these tears are building up behind my eyes, 
all I know is that the heart wants what it desires 
and it desires to be your wife. 
So tell me in my panic, that your words are true, 
tell my my dearest what I mean to you, 
tell me that this paranoia is all within my mind 
we're not struggling, we're not sinking tell me we're just fine


Details | Free verse | |

Unshed Tears

Slice me with your tongue,
Razor blade wounds,
To suck out all my poisens,
Sweet lonely lullaby,
Accusing eyes of sadism,
Picture perfect prodegy, 
My Deadly Sin,
A bitter taste of arson,
Burning in my vital organ,
Your the pyre that burns away my mortality,
A sip of tea made from Lilly of the Valley,
A shadow of Death stalking,
With odd angel like wings,
A Numbing kiss like Drowning in Morphine,
My Oblivion,
Sweet arms to rest in till my vision no longer holds,
Eyes neither like Hell nor Heaven,
Cocain Addiction,
That Drip of Drugs into your system,
Intoxicated blood stream,
I'd rather not dream,
And instead get lost within - Your paralysing,
Your Paralysing, Brain lapse,
Your moving too fast,
Stay slow and dreamy,
Dancing silhoutte,
Like a burning forest fire,
Pain throughout my veins,
Ravishing and Beautiful,
A voice torn from my throat,
Dying joyfully,
With my last sight of you. . .


Details | Free verse | |

I Will Be Strong

Today, I lie in the stillness of the night
Listening for you breathing
The silence hard to bear,
Without you here beside me
The emptiness, the loneliness 
Is more than I can endure
I am but an empty shell,
Living, yet not alive,
It was you and you alone
That made me whole
But, tomorrow is another day
And although my future now is unclear,
Second by second
Minute by minute
Hour by hour
The memories we shared
Will make me stronger.


Details | Dizain | |

Prolonged Exposure

I’ve covered the mirrors in our house
With colored sheets, while choking on grief
Black, blue, and green, to my bewildered spouse
Who has wondered what has become of me
And why suddenly I’ve begun mourning

He thinks that I’m a reflection of him
So he doesn’t notice the wounds within
The marring of my spirit’s complexion
Permanent, from his reoccurring sins
That have shaped me into his perfection

My face is clear so you would never guess
That person staring back isn’t me
Mirrors can’t show underlying distress
Only the lie he wants others to see
Not the despair slowly growing, steeping

Don’t look bewildered at my draping sheets
If you look, the nude is there, underneath
Reflecting the lie that it has become
Prolonged exposure to fisting complete
Now mourning the death of someone it loved


5/8-5/9/12
For "Your Birthday Suit" Contest


Details | Lyric | |

Surrender

Sitting in this empty room
Looking at broken pictures of me and you
A broken life together
I always thought we’d make it forever

What has become of me?
I never ever thought I would be
One of those who were beaten down
One of those who didn’t make a sound

Silent when you pushed me around
Silent when you covered my mouth
Silent when you raised your hand
Silent when you gave your commands

But something deep within my soul
Tells me to rise up and take control
Take a hold of my lost self again
Knowing if I don’t this might be the very end

You will not break me down this way
You will not darken my coming days
I am stronger now you see
And I will never let you kill the beautiful soul inside me

I am someone who has a voice
I am a woman who can make my own choice
I don’t need permission to be free
Or to discover the real woman inside me

Discovering the strength and power within
To let the bright shining sun shine in
To let my heart feel free and bold
To let my soul escape your choking hold

I’ve come to realize just a few things
That my life is worth more than two gold rings
Sometimes it has to be that way
For me to take ME back and then for me to say…

I am a beautiful woman inside
I will never ever run away and hide
I will rise to the very top
I won’t quit and I won’t stop

There is nothing that I can’t do
There is nothing left for me and you
So now I surrender and just let go
I am special this I know…..


Details | Quatrain | |

Average Age 19

Once again, the powers that must
In rise again in what we trust
An overseas conflict, another war
Just what in the hell are we fighting for

Families are asking, Korea has just passed
Generations again reft, how long will it last
A country in need, to rebuild again
Flags at half mast, in wind and rain strain

Once again into war, sent by the Washington Post
To send back reports to hit home the most
Military observers were the first to be sent in
Another chapter of man entering existing sin

I'm witnessing our ariel power, Lam Son 719
US planners determine their incursion, saying all will be fine
Along the Mekong River, we'll carpet bomb their supply trail
Tons of munitions and napalm, this spread surely cannot fail

Many sorties are being flown, for the wounded and the dead
Whilst Nixon and his cronies, aren't thinking with their heads
The news of losses has reached me, nineteen have been killed
Eleven missing, fifty nine wounded, more American blood spilled

Seven fixed wing aircraft, more sons in action loss
Whilst back at home more protests, fading the dyeing's gloss
To to this job that I do, I was never prepared for this
To witness such bloody scenes, and ignore that life is bliss

How can I write about a soldier, whose name I'll never know
Killed at nineteen years old, his family he'll never see grow
Or even explain to his parents, when carried from the AH-1
His body bullet riddled and limp, when lifted it bloodily run

I never went back to the theatre, called the Vietnam War
Having witnessed the wanton killing, what were we fighting for
This colonial conflict that started, us on the side of France
So many came back as strangers, many to live in trance





James Fraser's entry into the contest " WORLD OF WAR: VIETNAM "



Details | Couplet | |

Breathes of Souls

The night grows heavy as the bells do toll,
And tears will fall, all will behold.

As deep in Gods earth is laid to rest half a soul
Once entwined and beautifully blessed.

Now those left behind will cry out with envy,
For the peace of ages the lost holds so clearly.

Those hearts left behind will cry out with the cold
As bittersweet memories circle of old.

Emblazoned images circle of walks once walked,
As the other half now goes with God to talk.

Hearts do tremble with sadness that once knew love,
As time stretches, a lonely run begun.

Time will carry forth until the other flies free
Dispatched by deaths angel to soar with the breeze.

Then those dispatched by deaths’ grim thoughts will unite
Together to find peace at last.

As the breathes of two souls will heal and hold fast,
And love will again hold them close, at last.


Details | Fibonacci | |

Betrayal Of The Soul

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A
Young
Mother
Rocks baby
Singing  happy song
Love in its purity bonding
Daddy slips into the arms of another woman


Details | Rhyme | |

holokauston Page 1 of 2

Around that table, picture the scene
Self appointed leaders if you know what I mean
What were the topics on the Agenda that day
The Jewish race is about to pay

Who gave the right for this decision that's made
Who has the right to cleanse and degrade
To decide who lived, to decide who dies
Another chapter, I still wonder why

They came in the day they came in the night
Women and children pulled out of sight
Herded aboard like cattle and sheep
Many a family awoke from their sleep

Dazed and confused as they are taken away
Where will they be at the end of the day
From their warm houses and their warm beds
What must be going through their heads

As they travel through days and through the night
Up ahead, they see lots of lights
They depart the trucks and board the train
Their faces scared under the strain

Asking questions from family and others
Generations, sisters and brothers
Why are we here, where are we going
Windowless carriages with no way of knowing

We come to a stop, soldiers aplenty
Towers and wire, topped with sentries
What can this place be they have taken us to
As we head to large gates as they shuffle us through

Families separated, herded in file
Women and children, not one did smile
Taken to rooms where our heads were shaved
Is this the way humans behaved

Clothes discarded, as we enter the shower
No signs of water no signs of power
Doors slammed as we are all crammed in
History will recall this evil of sins

As we stand in the dark, chanting Jewish faith
Can hear the voices can't see the face
Noises above, do the showers start
The event has begun that tells us Humans apart

Questions and sighs, as walled vents show daylight
Some thing is falling then their slammed tight
A strange aroma starts to fill the air
As all around are screams of despair

Twenty minutes have passed and the quietness is rife
Two thousand people, two thousand lives
Pellets called HCN, or Hydrogen Cyanide
Contribute to this Genocide


http://www.thehighlanderspoems.com/war-2.php


Details | Rhyme | |

holokauston Page 2 of 2

After the quiet we all have to go
Dragged and carted by the Sonderkommando
To be dumped in pits covered by lime
A race to dispose by it's Human slime

Auschwitz, Buchenwald & Dachau slaughtered
Many a son, many a daughter
Experiments on children women and men
Some aged 90, many under 10

In 45, their end was near, how many alive would reappear
As Russians, British and US troops
Chased the Hun to their German roots
Each camp reached showed it's sordid past
Where millions of me, were massively gassed

In Auschwitz, to this present day
Birds don't fly, no animals play
The reminder is all for there to see
Those terrible days what happened to me

It's 1948, our Nation is born
From histories past, populations torn
To all who survived I wish you well
And our new born world, called Israel 


http://www.thehighlanderspoems.com/war-2.php


Details | Couplet | |

Marriage Bed

I am fearful and full of dread,
As I lay here on our marriage bed,

We have had yet another fight, 
And as yet it is our end of night.

He says he wants to show me he only cares,
But it is not love I feel as I lay there.

I say "No I am to sore and in pain."
He moves forward anyways as my tears fall down like rain.

I beg and plead and say "Please no more"
But that is not what for me he has in store.

I give up as my claims fall on deaf ears,
I just lay there in my  pool of tears.

I know he knows what he is doing,
That this is not my choosing.

What once was an expression and an act of our love making,
Has now become something that he thinks is his right in just taking.

The days that I used to crave and hunger for his touch,
Have now turned to an act I must endure as such.

Even though he knows this is wrong and our fight has really has no end,
He believes that in this and this alone our love will transcend.

As he is holding me there on that bed,
Another world is where I go in my head.

He is my husband and I am his wife,
I can't believe this has become our life!

I lay there numb of spirit and mind,
Waiting and waiting for the end of time.

I think of all the ways that I can make him pay,
But in the end as usual I stay!!!

This is not the life I bargained for,
There in this life has to be more.

Why with this one man is it hard for me to walk away?
With any other man I would not stay!

Now the time has come that I can take no more,
Though the time has not come to settle the score.

He begs and pleads for me to stay,
He can't bare for our love to go away!

I still love him and I know that is sick,
But we cannot help who our hearts pick!

I can however leave him alone,
I  won't write nor will I phone.

His days of cruel treatment and torture so vile,
Are long over, there will be no trial!

I have become judge, jury and executioner in this relationship!
You can bet there will no second trips!

Time to move on and to heal,
I cannot and will not give him an appeal.

A new life is what I am forever bound,
A new love is what I found.

He does not get all of me,
For now he is fine to let me be.

Will I ever be able to love again with all my heart?
Who knows, but now is the time to start.


Details | I do not know? | |

Was It Worth It?

What happens now?
Was everything worth it?
The angry words that have been said
That comes from you being mislead
Was it worth all the sacrifices, like giving up your dreams?
And all you were trying to do was make the other succeed
Was it worth all the bumps and bruises that you would hide or lie about?
And the whole time you are filling with doubt
Was it worth your children seeing you crying
Tell them everything is fine, but all you're doing is lying
All these things seem to happen overnight,
Never seeming to have the ending light.
There are no easy answers and no hope, you feel cursed
You hope he sees the damage and  he goes back to putting your feelings first
You hope you can have the trust and honest back
along with the laughter and tenderness he is starting to lack
You hope the best friend you had in one another would return
And there are no traps or hidden agendas new to learn
You hope to talk about the dreams you both wanted at one time
Now you hate to even think about tommorow
Hope was the one thing that was never borrowed
But hope is the thing that has left and betrayed you
You feel broken, beat down, nothing but black and blue
All this and you wonder why, Was it worth it?


Details | I do not know? | |

The Train

(This is a fictional poem but this really does happen to people.)

I sit here crying because I'm in a lot of pain.
My life was destroyed yesterday when my wife was killed by a train.
She thought she would beat the train but she was wrong.
Now I'm in misery because the woman who I loved is gone.

The train tore her car to pieces and killed her instantly.
I don't want to live anymore because of this agony.
When people try to beat trains, some of them die.
If you see a train coming, beating it is something you shouldn't try.


Details | Dramatic Verse (Verse Drama) | |

DOMESTIC ABUSE

the children are crying
again there's trouble in the house
their mother's in the corner all bloodied
and cowering like a mouse
the father, the husband
who calls himself the king
seems to only dispense verbal abuse
and violent beatings
the police have been called 
but she won't have him arrested
she thinks her faith, beliefs 
and vows are being tested
her friends can't understand why 
she won't just get away
her family is praying that
he won't kill her some day
 
domestic abuse seems to be on the up-rise
yet society always seems to be shocked and surprised
you'll hear people say, "they seem like a very nice couple"
but behind those closed doors there's nothing but violent struggles
the children are always looking neat on their way to school
they seem very shy and the mother acts somewhat cool
but inside that house no one really has a clue
of the level of domestic violence and abuse


Details | Rhyme | |

A living hell My Agoraphobia

My Agoraphobia.
In 1983 you came back  into my life.
Bringing me nothing, but trouble and strife.
You kept me a prisoner in my own home.
When all I longed for, Was to go out alone.
You caused me pain, you made cry,
I felt so ill, I thought I would die.
From doctor, to doctor, from pillar to post.
Where o where, is the cure I wanted the most?
Where exactly does the answer lie?
Eventually I found it, in a doctor called Di.
She gave me the will to carry on and fight.
I fought so hard, with all of  my might.
The shops in the village seemed so very far away.
If only I could go out, just for one single day.
I tried and tried, the tears, the pain,
It was a battle lose or gain,
I gave it everything, yes everything I had.
It wasn’t easy, in fact, it was very bad.
In 1990, after 7 long years,
A lot of heartache, many, many tears,
I was starting to win the battle of getting out the door,
With each day, I was doing more and more,
But there was still so many things that I couldn’t do alone.
Still so many jobs, that had to be done on the phone.
I could now walk to the shops, there and back,
 get the groceries, take them home, and unpack,
But I still couldn’t get a bus into town on my own,
only if I had someone to go with, borrowed, on loan.
It took several more years, of heartbreak and pain,
Before I could finally travel alone again.
May 2nd  2000, I jumped on a bus and popped into town,
It was just like my world had been turned upside down.
HERE WAS I FREE AT LAST,
Finally free to forget the past.
So I decided to do something I had never done before. 
I started at college part time, each day I couldn’t wait to get out of the door,
To catch my bus, to feel like I had finally rejoined the human race.
Living life at a hectic pace.
Going to college at the age of 53,
Really did do wanders for me.
The computer course was harder than I thought it would be, 
but others in the class helped me.
Our tutor was really nice,
Always ready with good advice.
Now I really feel I have turned my life completely around,
With this new freedom I have found.
With a lot of help, from my husband and son,
The battle is over, finally won.
So its goodbye agoraphobia you belong in the past,
Never again will you get me in your grasp.

This is a true poem of my own battle with Agoraphobia, That robbed me of a lot of my life, 


Details | Couplet | |

A Prayer for my Wife

                           A Prayer for my Wife


Now I’ll tell you all the details if I can keep from sheddin’ a tear
Last night when it got late and really quiet around here 

I got down on my knees, crossed my heart and began to pray
And in the darkness between me and God, here’s what I had to say

I love her so much Lord and I just don’t know what I’d do
I’m afraid that she won’t make it, that’s why I’m coming to you

Here with my heart open, at your mercy down on my knees
I’m begging’ you with every heartbeat, Oh Lord hear my pleas

I don’t know what your plans are or what you have in store
And I know I don’t deserve her and that she deserves much more

And don’t misunderstand Lord, I don’t assume any obligation
For your bounty in our life has exceeded all our expectations

But please allow her to live and me to be a part of that life
And I swear I’ll make this beautiful woman proud to be my wife

And if it’s not in your plans Lord then I pray that you take me instead
Cause’ I can’t live without my love, I’d be better off dead

And no excuses for my past Lord, but I’ll do better than I’ve done
I ask you only this, my lord, in the name of your Son.

I wiped my tears as I said my amen’s and prepared myself to stand
Stepped up next to your bed and began to caress your pretty hand

I stared off into space as all the memories came flooding in
Reliving each and every moment, over and over again

And as the first rays of sunshine, streamed in past the curtain
I felt an overwhelming peace calm my mind and ease the hurtin’

I felt compelled to kiss you so I pressed my lips to your face
And it seemed the room was filled in the beauty of God’s living grace

And you slowly opened your eyes and smiled for me to see
And I knew the Lord my God had given my sweet wife back to me


Details | Limerick | |

Cheaper To Keep Her (Divorce Club)

(Haiku)- * Motive, infidelity messing with the Queen Bee's Honey*

Queen Bee sits on throne,
Bumble and drone bees as one
Sample flowers dew

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(Limerick) - *Admission of guilt leads to compensation*

Indeed this is how the story unfolds,
Pete said, "It's a poor rat with only one hole"...
Love had taught a sad lesson;
Divorce court was now in session,
Judge rules favor, Pete's pockets full of holes...

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(Couplet) - *Take vows seriously payback often belongs to Spouse - Queen Bee*

Love said, "Pete too late you've opened your peepers"....
"Man, you should know it was cheaper to please her"!






Submitted for P.D.'s Divorce Club Contest (Haiku-Limerick-Couplet)


Details | Elegy | |

The Lament For an Angel

All in one faded-black day (but let None forget) In my arms, her body lay (my life was the price to pay) A tragedy, through the lack of humanly shame (do they know pain) My darkly colleen has to suffer no more (Robert nor do you) Let me die (please hear my haunted cries) If I can not see Sophie tonight (live on with my grey) I'm just a mess of despairing words And broken nerves Another mourning, afflicted sight (through decay, love can remain) Solace, sympathy are just more lies She is all I need Until you decide she is just another sadist's toy My Angel, why did you have to fly so far away My Angel, just let one feather stay My Angel has flown away My Angel, why did you have to fly so far away My Angel, just let one feather stay My Angel has flown away (My body is amortal, die I may, Together, our hearts will forever stay)


Details | Senryu | |

My Cheating Husband (written for Rauls contest)

My cheating husband
Our love betrayed and broke
I must travel on


Details | Rhyme | |

A Kiss So Sweet

My life was gently moving on
Grief abating, resolve growing strong
Until his kiss, within a dream
Ripped away the seams
Holding back the pain deep in my core,
Tears fell once more.....


Details | Rhyme | |

The Happy Dress

It’s a mother-in-law’s right, her prerogative 
To ‘drop in’ on her son almost any time,
But a mother-in-law should always be prepared
For almost anything she may find.

So, Mother Cready dropped in unannounced;
But as she approached her son’s front door,
Suddenly it opened.  “Ta Da!  Do you like my happy dress?”
His young wife stood there in her ‘all in all’…nothing more.

“Oh, my word!” Mother Cready exclaimed with surprise.
“Why are you naked?  Are you insane?”
Just as surprised, the young wife pulled her inside.
“Please, Mother Cready…if you’ll just let me explain.

You see, when Mac has had a rough day,
When he’s been under a lot of stress,
Sometimes I meet him at the door
With a smile and a kiss in my happy dress.

It always relaxes him and makes him happy,
Then he makes me very happy too.
It works for Mac and me, Mother Cready;
Maybe it would work for you.”

“We’re too old for such.” scoffed Mother Cready.
“Perhaps if we were young like the two of you.”
But, on her way home, she decided
She was definitely going to try it too.

So, she bathed and put on some nice perfume,
Fixed her make-up and her hair.
She was thinking some very sexy thoughts,
But she had to hurry…no time to spare.

She heard her husband’s car in the driveway;
And as he approached their front door,
She threw it open.  “Ta Da! Do you like my happy dress?"
She stood there in her ‘all in all’…nothing more.

She saw a little grimace cross his face,
But that was not the worst.
Then he said, “I appreciate your happy dress, my dear;
But maybe you should have ironed it first.”

ALTERNATE LAST VERSE

“Well…your ‘happy dress’ could use some ironing;
But my birthday suit could use some starch.”
He kissed her. “Bet you and I can work it out.”;
And off to bed they marched.


Details | Rhyme | |

Her Sense of Humor

A slight hint of consternation was in her voice,
“Why did you tell those people I’m deaf and dumb?”
“I never said you were deaf, my Dear.”
She laughed, but I kinda felt like a bum.

Hell.  It was just a joke.

One evening, she asked, “Will you love me if I get chubby?”
I responded, “Of course I still love you.
It would take much more than pounds and cellulite
To make me fall out of love…it’s true.”

Hell.  It was just a joke.

“Would you remarry if I die before you?” she asked.
I said, “No…probably not…I’ve been spoiled by you.”
“But you’ve been a great husband. I think you should.”
“Whatever happens, happens is the best I can do.”

“If you remarried, would you play golf with your new wife?
And would you let her use my clubs?” she demanded.  
I calmly smiled and said, “Your clubs are safe.
You see, my Dear…she’s left handed.”

Hell.  It was just a joke.

Then, she whined and whined about her butt.
I responded, “Want to knock some inches off that ass?
It may sound strange, but I heard it works….
Rinse all your panties in Slim Fast.”

Hell. It was just a joke.


The next day, I readied for work, took ‘undies’ from my drawer.
They were engulfed in a fog of white, why I didn’t know.
So, I asked, “Honey! Why did you put talcum powder on my shorts?”
She slyly smiled, “That’s not talcum powder.  That’s Miracle Gro.”

Hell.  It was just a joke....I guess.

So, what is my wife’s most endearing feature?
Her sense of humor.... there’s no doubt.
Always a smile where angst or anger might have been,
A smile I never want to be without.



Details | Free verse | |

Mutual Spirits

I climb through dense brambles to hide.
Light flickers to find me,
I don’t feel safe here, and run on.

I’m in a dark house and move back and back through the rooms.
I hear him asking someone if they had seen me.
I curl up tighter into my hidden place under old clothes.

I feel him closer.
I don’t see him.
I run again and find a disconnected darkness.

As I cover myself with leaves,
It all begins to fade, 
The darkness, the details, the uneasiness;

I awake, and sit up clearing the cobwebs of the dream out of my sleep.
I reach out for my husband.
He raises to his elbow and touches me.

His sleepy voice says, “Oh good, you’re here — 
I’ve been chasing after you,
And no one would tell me where you were.”


Details | Lyric | |

Viagra and Beer

Too much Viagra and beer.
Too much Viagra and beer.
My wife was out of town,
I hit every club around.
Each time I'd hope to find
A horny woman here.

Country Bob's was the last club that was open.
Near blind drunk and horny, but I was still hopin'.
A pretty woman gave me a glance,
Smiled and said, "Nice pants.
Honey, I'm ridin' if you're ropin'."

A few hours later, I was in a Helluva mess
She's still ridin' hard and screamin', "God, this is the best!"
I was dizzy and light-headed. I had pains in my chest,
But she wouldn't stop long enough to call EMS.

When I came to, I was home in my own bed,
Next to my lovely wife; and this is what she said:
"I picked you up at Country Bob's, my dear;
And there's gonna be some changes around here.

You were fantastic last night;
So, I only think its right
If I supplement your diet 
With Viagra and beer."

Viagra and beer. Viagra and beer.
She treats me like a king,
Says I make her body sing;
So, I'm happy on my diet of Viagra and beer.

Yes, I'm happy on my diet of Viagra and beer.


Submitted by: Buzz O'Words
Written: 3/3/14


Details | Rondeau Redouble | |

Goodbye Johnny Walker

Goodbye Johnny Walker
Joanna Davis


I swear I’m in a nightmare
I know it’s some bad dream
this craving for the deadly juice
is nothing new it seems
Our life is one long quarrel, 
a battle no one can win
Am I paying a kind of penance,
for some past life of sin?
I won’t put up with this forever
the smell or wavering gait,
If I stay with you much longer,
I’ll surely be tempting my fate
A soul that’s soaked with liquor,
with breath to ignite a match
But your handsome looks so deceiving
I naively believed you a catch!
You’ll promise it’s the last time,
say you’re done… that it’s the end!
But in me you see a nagging wife,
while in the bottle - a comforting friend
Tell me exactly how, I can win,
or compete with something so pure?
What kind of psychological jargon,
would even up the score?
This demon is so elusive,
someone, somewhere, please advise me
What spirits will finally convince you
to seek your desired sobriety!



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BEWARE

*****BEWARE ~ reads the file***** Love struck mothers in denial while the Pedophile robs the innocent child Lay


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Wasteland of Shame

Bound by blame, broken by blight,
Scarred by a stolen satire,
nuzzling necrophiliacs within the night.

Tangled in torment, tied untamed,
blemished by the blasphemy,
of never speaking your name.

Shackled in sin, shredded sovereignty,
dealing death’s doses,
murdering you and me.

Cuffed with candor, calling our crimes,
to an impetuous enslavement,
tortured through time.

Set me free, to flee this fool’s game,
where we're always left wandering,
in this wasteland of shame.


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A Can of Peaches

She was a kleptomaniac,
His wife of thirty years.
The risks she took for stuff of little value
Had all but driven him to tears.

She had such low regard for the risk;
Always said, “If I’m caught, I’ll pay.”
“But what if they’re not satisfied?” he’d ask.
She just smiled and said, “That’ll be the day.”

When first they met, he thought her just young and wild;
And, after all, it really did no one any harm.
It was fun to watch her be so sneaky,
Kind of a sexy part of her appealing charm.

The stuff she stole was so petty,
But she seemed to have such fun.
After all, it wasn’t for the stuff she stole,
But for the thrill of what she’d done.

As time had passed, he had finally realized
It was a sickness, not just a game to play.
She’d steal something almost everywhere she went,
And she went somewhere almost every day.

So, it had gotten old and tiresome, completely out of hand.
His pleas of “Get some help.” she would ignore;
Tho’ she might have thought better of it
If she had known what was in store.

While grocery shopping, she tried to steal a can of peaches.
They caught her, called the cops, sent her off to jail.
She called her embarrassed and disgusted husband, 
Who resentfully made arrangements for her bail.

When her court date came, he went along;
And when her case came up, he was by her side.
As the judge reviewed her charges, it seemed to him
That the judge’s patience was being sorely tried.

“Madam" the judge said angrily, "…a single can of peaches?
It’s obvious you have no desperate financial need.
You are wasting my court’s time with such farce.
So, Madam...how do you plead?"

She feigned regret. She bowed her head.
Surely such a ploy might change his attitude.
“Guilty, your Honor.  I am so sorry.”
He growled, “Save your platitudes.”

Then he asked, “How many peaches were in the can?”
“Your Honor, I believe that there were ten."
“Madam, I intend to teach you a lesson this day.
You’ll think twice before you steal again.

You’ll serve three days in county jail for each peach in that can.”
Her husband saw his chance.  He said, “Your Honor, if you please,
Before you pass her final sentence, you should know….
She also stole a can of peas!"


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Unease

It’s the way your eyes light up when you see her,
How a smile blooms on your face.
It’s the way you look at her (when you think I’m not looking),
And how she holds your gaze. 
It’s the way you talk to her,
How you always sound like you’re high,
And the way you hug her tighter,
When it’s time to say good-bye.
It’s the way you refuse to tell me
Anything that she said,
And the way your eyes look distant 
When we’re together later in bed.
It’s the way you take your ring off,
And “forget” to put it back on,
And the way my heart is squeezing,
Knowing you’ll soon be gone.

 

6/28/12

For Paula’s “Unease” contest


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America Is Being DESTROYED From Within

 

As sin and perversion often become integrated… So many lives and families are being “disintegrated.” Many are being driven by sin’s temptation force… It’s no wonder much of this country is way “off course.” The morality and values that once made a great nation. Are evaporating…. Leading to a “spiritual separation.” Love, honor, and respect of God… Is often a “thing of the past.” Anything of God seems to be disappearing FAST! God is our only hope! And him alone! Only he can bring healing to our broken homes! He’s the answer to this wounded nation, that bleeds! It’s only God that can meet all of our needs! He’s our provider… The great: “I am!” Won’t you reach out to him? And give him your hand? Why not give him a chance? And allow him in? A brand new life for you… Is waiting to begin! May we allow God’s holiness and love to reach down into our hearts… Asking; “Lord please forgive our sins!” Is a good place to start! By Jim Pemberton


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What the Bartender Heard

Please pass me a double with 100-proof zing
No, I’ve no money, but I’ll pay with this ring

Yes, it’s a diamond yet it lost its luster
I found him with her; my mind did fluster

So I tossed the harlot out of our house
And called him a thoughtless cheating louse

I’ll need more booze if you want to hear more
There are some trespasses you can’t ignore

Shot him in the kneecap, crippled that lout
So now there’ll be no more running about

Hey, that ring’s two carats, worth a refill
I’ll take another shot of this swill

I tossed him the cell to call 9-1-1
My goose is cooked; the law will soon come

Fill one more to go ‘fore I hit the road
And thanks for allowing me to reload



*Entry for Natalie’s “Confessions to a Bartender” contest


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Full Circle

Just out of college, we would yearn for a touch
Sleeping together cuddled on the couch
Those were the days!
Of pre-wedding bouquets
Now I am told to go sleep alone on the couch


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Ties that Bind..

The chains that bind me are soft as silk, 
Gossamer to the touch, so thin you wouldn’t think they could hurt...
They seem no more than mere bangles, 
Jewelled manacles adorning throat and wrists and ankles
They don’t grate on my skin, barely fray the edges of my nerves
Most of the time I don’t even realise they are there 
You must be so proud of yourself my love; 
You were the weaver of these restraints, 
The arbiter of this subtle asphyxiation
You ensnared me with ropes of words, with sweet nothings 
And declarations of impassioned love, 
Spoken in the name of God, the Merciful, the Ever Watchful 
If only I possessed even a fragment of such omnipotence – 
I would not be here now, tangled in this soft silver stranglehold, 
In these necklaces and girdles and garters of a lover’s laws
When was the moment where you stopped being gentle 
And became, instead, a gentle-eyed tyrant? 
I must have blinked and missed it, or been blinded by your beguiling smile 
Anyway it does not matter now, because here I am, 
Dying a slow perfumed death in your ghostly arms, 
Reduced to a bewildered puppet on the ends of your serrated steel strings 
The secrets of my being stuffed deep down inside of my soul, 
Where you cannot find them – where only God can see
Because you seem to have lost sight of what I am baby 
And only God will be the one to show you the real, wild and untamed me
The person I am supposed to be... 
 


Details | Senryu | |

A Christmas Story - Leg Display

a sexy leg lamp
perched in the window lit up
his eyes, her anger



12/29/11


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Like A Broken Teacup

Sitting on the shelf like a broken teacup
I go on despite these difficult moments
I run into myself with Irish green eyes and permanent tear stained cheeks
I've endured the immensity of agony
I’ve turned down all those so-called hot lovers sulking in this harsh yellow land
I wrestle with the ongoing struggles of this evil world 

No…nobody can go backwards
You see, you and I were never meant to be
So...don't tell me your hurt is my fault
I’ve assessed these holes in my life-have you assessed yours?

It was a lifetime ago…forever gone in all that I was 
In a curious way I’ve known the debris of myself ...
I’m more damaged than I care to admit

Here I am…pathetically sitting in the rubble of where my heart lives
A thin-skinned loner- a re-cycled me of who I used to be 
I can't waver yet again, to take another chance at love
I've known too much time away from it all
So evident in the moment of my blinding conscience
Pondering the un-gentleness of things
That should have been beautiful...but were not

And so, I pick up the pieces of my broken soul
From a broken love that was never meant to be
I'm in for a new change of lifestyle - a new change of heart 
A release of all those emotions that were tearing me down 
The old life I knew, I threw away with the teacup 
I got a new life, a new cup, and I'm forgetting you and the past





            

   

                  


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Dear Lord, Is She the One?

Many beautiful women in this café
I scan their painted faces, seeking a way

To approach each of them and ask my question
Are you the spark of my husband’s obsession?

Late at night, your perfume wafts from his pillow
I lie awake as my suspicions billow

Are you the reason I’m lying there alone?
He stays out so late now, never even phones

The ebony-haired woman with dark brown eyes
Is she the one behind his excuses, lies?

Or perhaps the redhead’s bright, engaging smile
Has led my man astray with her carefree wiles

A mother of four, my body can’t compare
To those who are blessed with such sensual flair

For more than a decade I satisfied him
But now my mind’s absorbed by prospects so grim

We’re Catholic and divorce is prohibited
But no longer is desire exhibited

By the one who stood by my side every day
Raising our family in God’s intended way

Is she the one, that striking blonde in the corner
Who’s transformed my mate into a foreigner?

Perhaps it’s better if I don’t learn the truth
And forego the tactics of acting a sleuth

I pick up my purse, pay the bill, reach the door
But can’t help looking around the room once more

Before walking across the street to our church
To light a candle, on a wooden pew perch

And pray for answers to these questions inside
Seeking direction from my spiritual Guide


Details | I do not know? | |

Life Without Him

A woman cannot control her heart,
Who she loves can tear her apart,
without a clue of what he does,
when he's a rebel without a cause.

I've roped myself a hurricane, 
His heart the only thing I've tamed,
And off to prison once again,
My crying heart goes off with him.

The pain I feel as he goes away,
Will bide with me throughout my days,
My nights in lonely solitude,
As I pray to the Lord I'll make it through.


Details | Ballad | |

Starcrossed Tragedy

A Silent Night's Hunt for a Tigress so blunt, Left the Fiend dancing with my Thisbe's Cloack But where was She? Her Drenching blood is all I can see The Night of Sanguine, The Night of Rapture, Tonight was meant to be All Behold This Tragedy ran by Dark Energy, My Lost Lover's Plea A seed of what is to come, In this starcrossed Tragedy, For I can not live without you, My Pyramus, All I need, My reason to Breathe One sight of me bleeding away from reality, started this tragedy and with me It shall Grow The Pain wasn't enough for me, To Live on with me Love without consequence, The Damned Saint, The Angelic Demon The Darkness of the Sea, Carries away with me, In this Starcrossed Tragedy A Star traveling across the moonless Night Sky, In the mid-summer of Verona, Fell from her glorious light, I have lost my guide, My need for Life Every balcony I'll climb for you, Just to Caress you once more But now it is too Late, My Juilet Let the Poison Fill me My Body dyed In silence, Dipped in Paralysis, Forging the Will of God, Feigning the Clutches of Death, My Romeo I prithee to you, See past The Illusion, Caught in the Webs of Love's delusion A Dagger reached my heart once To see you martyr for our love A Dagger reached my heart twice The Pain wasn't enough for me, To Live on with me Love without consequence, The Damned Saint, The Angelic Demon The Darkness of the Sea, Carries away with me, In this Starcrossed Tragedy Once the Morning Retired from her weeping The sun shined into her eyes, then his Lifeless, their dream will live on Every Petal will be Avenged The Pain wasn't enough for me, To Live on with me Love without consequence, The Damned Saint, The Angelic Demon The Darkness of the Sea, Carries away with me, In this Starcrossed Tragedy


Details | Blank verse | |

Biting my Tongue Again

My tongue
has no more blood; 
no tissue to slide through my teeth.

I have bitten my tongue
so long
my message deflates beneath.


©  2011  ~JSLambert Esquire


Details | Free verse | |

Forever Rider

Bleached bones of a fallen beast, Casting a shadow that points To the east, A cowboy rides out With a noose round his neck, Travelling north on a Perilous trek. The noose is a reminder That his life is not his, Not that he needs it To tell him the truth, He's atoning for sins Committed by him And the noose is just there For some proof. His horse pointing northwards, His spurs jab its flanks, It jumps on a journey It knows not to where, He has been advised If he gets where he must That he must handle all things With great care. Long weeks follow days, He ne'er stops for food, He feels neither hunger, Nor thirst or fatigue, His Horse is the same, Feeling neither hunger or pain, Though they travel on league After league. He stops on the brow Of a mountainous peak, To gain the bearings He felt he had lost. His eyes sweep the plains He travels in vain, Without ever revealing The cost. His life had been shortened For the most part by death, He had suffered For what he had done, His actions alone Had been the sole cause Of the loss of his wife And his son. And so for his torment He had been given a task, That he knew he must Always repeat, There was no respite And no task to be done And his journey would be Never complete. And so he rides on O'er the endless red plain, Destined as ever to Be all alone, And maybe one day His skull will be seen By another as abandoned Bleached bone....


Details | Dizain | |

When The Torch Came In June

When The Torch Came In June--In Memory of my husband: 
            Robert A. (Bobby) Burch--Died 6/22/1996

O' June...June...I can't believe how fast time
Has gone. It seems like only yesterday
I held him close...kissed...his lips on mine.
It's been sixteen years since he went away...
That HOT, JUNE, DAY--the Olympic Torch came
Through town. Everone there--needing him too...
He sat down beside me--his face--I knew
When he said, "I don't feel well"--that glazed stare.
Everyone always asked him what to do!
Twice...he came back to assist his own care...

EMS, Doctors, nurses--all were there!
But, still, it was not enough to save him.
Two minutes from the ER--WASN'T FAIR!
'Prayed in the ER as they worked on him...
The people: loved ones, community, friends,
Were everywhere--pacing...standing...crying...
But I kept praying--"Don't let him be dying!"
Finally, they 'called it'...then let me go in...
I kissed him-- goodbye-- but felt they were lying--
Then told our son...he'd not see, DAD--again.

O' June...June...your mem'ry serves quite well...
Wish it'd been me...and he, this story tell.

deborah burch©
5/26/2012

Dizain
Entry for contest: "If I Had A Broken Heart"...


Details | Couplet | |

Valentine Romance

Valentines day is always something special to me, I explained. 
So I planned a romantic evening and got ready for my campaign.
The children were at a sleepover with their favorite friends they adore.
So I met my hubby as he came in, accidentally tripping and making him hit the door.
Thank God his head is hard as he hit that, the nearby TV, but very little more.
I made Cherries Jubilee as a snack while he sat there with an ice pack to his head. 
But before I knew it, I’d knocked it over and almost burned down the house instead.
When he finally put the fire extinguisher away…
I got up and got some of the kids’ apple tarts I had made. 
He bit in deep and burned his mouth, declaring he wasn’t hungry and the pain would fade.
Next he decided to go upstairs, but I had put rose petals down everywhere in spades.
And yes you probably guessed it… he slipped and ended up needing a little aide.
At this he decided to take an aspirin and lay down upon the couch. OH  HHWell…
But I knew the rest needed to happen above, to totally create this romantic spell…
I had to get him to the candles and bubble bath, where my romantic dreams still dwelled. 
So I got out some scarves and danced toward him, tying up his hands before he fell.
He never knew what hit him as he was lassoed and gently bounced up the stairs.
I guess I wouldn’t have had to tie his feet… a few words would have done as well.
But you know me when I get going, my mind tends to lose a few brain cells…
He was flustered, exhausted and bruised when he got there, but he’s made of the right stuff.
Though as I took off the scarves, he flopped on the bed pulling the covers over his head kind of rough.
He said he loved me, but living with me could be kind of tough.
He said it was better to leave it to him, for the romantic endeavors and such.
He said he had reservations and play tickets in his shirt pocket for later on that night.
But what he needed now was some aspirin and a few moments of quiet respite. 
So with a sigh he started snoring, and my romantic dreams were momentarily crushed.
I dearly love the man you know. But, do you think maybe I tried too much?


Details | Free verse | |

Could You Hear Me?

Ignorant questions you asked
While requesting in return intelligent answers

A pillow of tears I cried 
But only for awhile

Yet instead my heart was beating like a hammer beats a nail
And I was slowly decreasing like a paper being filed

Into shelter I would hide
Behind doors I cried
Over the  phone I denied
And  inside I died

As if hanging up in my face weren't enough
You left me no choice, but to fall asleep with your 
Thoughtless and careless words

The constant need to be in control of everything and everyone 
I closed my eyes to hold back those tears
Those tears that were trying so desperately to break through

But steadily they came running down my face
Like I was pouring water down a drain

But did you hear me
That language that I spoke

I was talking out loud to all the distant ears
I begged you to lower your voice
But you were to busy screaming at me to hear

You see I constantly found myself apologizing to you
Not believing that I had a right to my own opinion
And that I had a right to be loved and respected

I cursed at times, You kept me mad
And then most days you left me sad
But could you hear me
Could you take my point of view for once
After all that was said and done

My heart was aching and my soul was breaking
A little attention, Like a baby crying out for its mother
Is all I asked of you

Only to hear you speak your truth of belief
And then hang up in my face with a gasp of relief
As if my voice was killing you

When I defended myself , I never knew what I would face
Never knew how you'd react, But I was acting on faith
So I took that leap of faith, I didn't know what else to do
But thank God I found the courage to stand up to you

You made it seem like we were in some game
And half time conversations is all you could spare

Yet like a mother in the midst of labor
I bared all the pain, You couldn't bare

But I had to speak out 
My silence had to be broken

Words shattered at that moment
Shock encountered ones face
Something that never happened before

I would not pretend, That all was well
But you weren't listening to me, I was talking to myself

When I poured out my heart to you sincerely
You belittled me, cursed me, degraded and ignored me
Picked and devoured me like I was poultry

You took me through so much misery
You see this lonely faucet, Only runs so deep
But I found the strength to break free, finally

I wanted to be friends but I remember too clearly 
Just how it was in the past, When you couldn't hear me



Details | Diamante | |

Transformation

Love Sensuous, Intense Committing, Caring, Doting Courtship, Marriage, Responsibilities, Kids Shouting, Fighting, Door-Slamming Nasty, Intense Hate


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His Gentleness

He gently creeps into her room
to rest tenderly near her side
 while thoughts of melancholy zoom
 in  of his once vibrant bride
she's been there for him
so many, many years
he sniffles~and tries to hide 
the sorrow and the tears
she has been injured and hurt
but has lost the fight
she will not make it through the night
she will be in paradise by tomorrow's day
he reaches to sniff her best skirt
holds it tight~ it smells of her perfume
he drags over to the vanity to spray
her familiar scent around the room
he cradles her head within his arm
then musters an adoring smile as he whispers in her ear, 
"Time travels fast, and I will see you in a while, my dear"
He provides her warmth by stroking her hair
he wants to capture this image of her there
he wants this moment painted on the wall
so that he can always,always recall
how peaceful she seemed while adrift somewhere.

Copyright McCuen 2009


Details | Free verse | |

Plastic Gestures

The trash has been removed by wind and truck, by hands much smaller and, hearts much larger than his. The twinkling lights no longer shine on the tree or in my eyes. Scourer of malls, hunter of treasures magpie to the crownless king, reveling in his “just” deserts? The cold, meaningless, plastic gesture of his disregard lay under the barren Xmas tree, barren, as his love for me. His treasurers piled high, exquisitely dripping with each memorized desire, truffles melting on his thoughtless tongue, scrapbook memories litter the pointless horizon. Soon, he would attempt to hurl three decades of subservient gestures out, out like the small flame of love left, in the empty space which was my heart.


Details | Free verse | |

I Have The Evil of You

I have the evil of you
Caught in my hands, entangled
Like the arabesques of Eden's vines
Just like paradise, but why should shame remain
Singeing like immolation of Peter's Inferno
These reddish-purple chains convolute myself
as the grapples shoot out from the clouds
both below, above me
The self-lovelust propelling 
You did this - these plagues
You drag me down - to your cage
Cadaver Vampire - I am your slave



Details | Rhyme royal | |

Silence In Solitude

Merry go round of emotions, hurt and confused..
Anger mixed with sadness, broken and abused.
 
Heart tormented by the past, chained to the present.
Soul slipping away, through the fingers of resentment.
 
Doubt and hope, twisted up with agony..
Grasping and clinging, to the faith that sustains me.
 
Feelings of loneliness and despair, I want a clean slate.
Wondering every minute, of the hour, what holds my fate.
 
Battered ego, from your poison dipped words..
Eyes wide shut, love is blind, can't move onward.
 
Blaming myself, life teeters on a delicate balance.
Until, I cannot cry anymore but, in the dead of silence.


Details | Ballad | |

Without You

If I was granted just one wish
A wish that might come true
I’d wish with all my heart and soul
For yesterday and you
If only I could turn back time
I’d go back to the start
If only you could hold me 
While I slowly fall apart
Questions left unanswered
So many words unsaid
Letters that I wrote will now 
Forever go unread
Why you went I’ll never know...or 
Why you had to die...or
Why you had to leave me
Why you never said goodbye
Looking to my future
All I see is pain and sorrow
Without you I’m shattered
Without you there’s no tomorrow
Without you I’m so alone
I don’t know where I’m bound
Without you I’m lost…
Without you I can’t be found
However dark the nights
I’m told the sun will rise again…but
How can I see sunshine
When my world’s so full of pain
Please don’t leave me here alone
Please kiss away my fears
Lee, I need you with me
Please come home and dry my tears
Hold me hun, just one more time
The way I used to know
I need to feel you here
I’m just not ready to let go
I miss your face..your smile..your touch
I miss your many charms
Days are long ..my nights are cold
Not being in your arms
But ...what I miss the most is when
I look at you and see
The love I know you're feeling
When you’re looking back at me
I know I must be strong now
For this mountain I must climb
But how do I survive without
The love of my life time
You wasn’t just my husband
But my friend and lover too
And no one in this world 
Will ever take the place of you..


For Lee...the love of my life..
I will miss you forever

Your wife...Bree x












Details | Free verse | |

The Hardest Thing

Last night we had a quarrel
We went to bed so mad
Each had to get up early
The morning was quite sad
I never meant to say that
I know you didn’t, too
With hopes to reconcile
Just know that I love you

Yeah darling…
It couldn’t be more true

That’s why 
Leaving you
Is the hardest thing to do

Each morning when we go to work
A piece of me, it goes with you
I cannot wait to get back home
To do those things we do

That’s why 
Leaving you
Is the hardest thing to do

I hope tonight we’re civil
We listen and we learn
Together, we’ll get past this
Each others trust, we’ll earn
So, then we can retire
To the bedroom that we share
Lie within each others arms
And show how much we care

Yeah darling…
It couldn’t be more true

That’s why 
Leaving you
Is the hardest thing to do

Each morning when we go to work
A piece of me, it goes with you
I cannot wait to get back home
To do those things we do

That’s why 
Leaving you
Is the hardest thing to do

And when my work’s over
I will come back to you


Details | I do not know? | |

It's Time

It's time.

The two times before
Were tests
To see if she could
Identify the moment
When she should leave.

It's time.

The words
Buzzed in her head
Over and over
As she tucked the last items
In the bag she had prepard.
A bag similar to the one
An expectant mother would have ready,
But she would never
Need that particular bag,
He made sure of that.

It's time.

It was 10am,
He had been gone
The better part of three hours.
The longest three hours of her life.
She waited patiently,
Just in case he came home
For some forgotten tool or document.

It's time.

She slipped out the back door
And scaled two neighbours' fences
Before entering the street.
With her hat pulled down low
She made her way to the bus station.
It was time to leave town.

It's time.

She bought a ticket to California,
Los Angeles to be specific.
She would become a lost angel
In the city of angels.

It's time.

As she waited for the bus,
She heard a car shrieking
To a stop outside.
She shrank into her seat,
But it was for nought,
As cruel hands
Pulled her from her seat.

It's time.

First came a slap,
Then another,
And by the time the ticket agent
Came out to pull him away from her
He was punching her.

It's time.

He shrugged off the agent
And ran to her,
But by that time 
She had pulled out
Her grandpappy's Smith & Wesson,
And with shaking hands
She lodged a bullet
In his heart.

It's time.

The gun was a present 
From her momma,
And from the day she got it
She practiced on old toys
Behind the abandoned toy factory.
She practice until it was time.
Today, the time came
And it tuly was time.

It's time
For her abusive husband to die.


Details | I do not know? | |

When I want you to hold me

When all things have
fallen into place
disease stops spreading
bringing fear to the human race
children fall hush like the sound
of angels wings, a 
soft hush,
this is when I will call to you,
the time for you my love
to hold me.


Details | ABC | |

Novelty

A new face to trace
Covet then embrace
Beloved thy trance
Diminishing glance

Flirtatious on air
Erroneous flair
Gelid, weary streak
Innovations weak

Heroic on flight
Justly proving right
Losing glossy tone
Keenly you dethrone

Mustering the nerve
Obey and observe
Novelty invades
Promises betrayed

Romantically loose 
Questions the abuse
Shine and gloss aloof
Unwoven with proof

Tarnished we believe
Vanished we deceive
Xerox of our life
Wasted upon strife

Zapping 
Yesteryear


Details | Free verse | |

The Ex

Your words sear me like hot metal on my flesh
You brand me with your requests and empty promises
You just can’t or refuse to see
You can’t stomach looking in the mirror
For fear of what you just might find
To have to point the finger at yourself
To lay the blame on yourself
I try to tell you but it falls on deaf ears
The thought of putting your selfishness aside
At the sake of someone you say you love
You are blind to your self-centerness
For you are the sun and everything else are just planets
As long as you benefit in some form or fashion
To heck with anything else
You’re so quick to pass judgment 
So quick to point out past mistakes
Just to get the spotlight off of you
So you don’t have to see yourself for who you really are
This is nothing but a masquerade
And your bravado is so pitiful
You think you show courage, bravery, strength?
Your true colors are spite, deceit, bitterness
Your words are nothing but false hopes
Because your actions are what holds the real you
I don’t know what to believe anymore
You want to make this all about you, the “victim”
But you never once question, never once consider
How I came to this point, that it must be only me
God forbid you could’ve done something different
No you did everything you thought you could
So that you can sleep better at night
If someone has to be the bad guy
Rather it be me than you right?
So quick to throw up all my faults and failures
But too selfish to even entertain the idea
That maybe, just maybe this was you too
Nope, I am the way I am because of me
I am the one who chose to walk away
I am the one not thinking of everyone else
No for once I am thinking of me
And it kills you that I am not putting you first
That I am not taking care of you
That I am not taking care of everything
That you have to stand up for once
And do it all on your own
So it’s resentment you hold toward me
Because I am not there to make everything easy
That you actually have to try, to make an effort
For once I am not doing it all, putting in the most
How nice it is for you to have to figure it all out
To watch you fumble, like a lost and scared child
Because that is what you are, a child
You have caused this hollowness in my chest
You have turned me into the Tin Man
You have pushed me away, no one else to blame
After being took advantage of, used and abused
Someone can only handle it so long



Details | Couplet | |

Wigging Me Out

Early one morning my Hubby was sleepily shuffling around and about.
Dawn was almost breaking and we were becoming late no doubt.
Toiletries were a waiting, as he shuffled near the morning throne.
Opening the lid, you’ll never guess what exited as a rocket blown.
EEEWWW …Poor little thing… Oh Who, you will never guess…
Out popped a little tree frog jumping at mach 2 in his quest…
Yes, he was wet and doing his very best as he stuck to the vanity. 
For who can say how long he’d been trapped in there, you see?
It puzzled me to wonder… How he’d got to the second floor?
Poor little guy… I doubt he could have withstood very much more.
Now here we were to scare him… Yes, another time, I confide…  
We had to get him past 3 dogs awaiting for food and to go outside.
It wouldn’t have been so bad if 3 squirrels weren’t watching from the tree.
None might have been so eager, if they’d known he came from our potty.
My jammied hubby ran for the mulch pile where sticks and leaves abound…
As I entertained the squirrels and doggies with tempting morsels all around.

Now I can’t say it was traumatic to save a little wayward froggy…
But I won’t be opening that lid without a light, especially, if I am groggy.
And I’ll move back out of range as I lift the lid… I thank you all the same.
And next time I won’t forget to clean the toilet in a timely way, to my shame.
And I won’t ask my hubby to wash his hands 10 times daily… come next May.
Now I know you may not believe me… but I'll take an oath on this… I say.


Details | Rhyme | |

A Veiled Black Lace Hat

Clare's hands were clasped upon her lap,
upon her crown, a veiled black lace hat.
A shattered calm she wore;
that took on strength
self-steadied after several drinks

If one dared look closer, to penetrate -
then one would see through the black veil's lace,
and reveal a woman, blank of face,
that long ago had left this place.

Clasped hands 
on which shine a
diamond ring
lustre lost, 
as do those things
that shine, then dull.
A lover's token 
which she pushed and pulled.

Parades of people floated past
condolences said and sent
as people slowly came and went.

Clare remained
with hands still clasped upon her lap
diamond dully staring back.

All had gone, as had he,
as Clare fell to her knees
face pale and pasty white
searching for that brilliant light
that never came. 

Clare stumbled out into the night
guided by vodka and
lace veiled sight

alone again; Clare cried insane
until a large sum of money came
as did twice before
when on her finger
shone a diamond ring -
lustre lost - as do those things
that shine, then dull
that push, then pull

In her closet, near the back
waits a favorite
veiled black lace hat


Details | Acrostic | |

Choices

A bond is tied, a new liaison is made
N ovel experiences are satisfying, but the price is paid
G one are the days, when the dinner was just laid.
E very moment is work, and stress is high
L onely labor at toil, she lets out many a sigh
I help out not at all, and she can’t understand why?
N ow I know I am a fool and inconsiderate alike. 
E ach has own choices, unfortunately ours are unlike. 


Details | Free verse | |

Persecution

Imitation is sincere,
Flattery in every line,
DH inspires passion.

Words read so similar, 
Anger ignites in me,
DH pestered to frustration. 

I create havoc, slinging venom 
Like tossing candy in a parade,
DH pays the price for my sin.


Details | Free verse | |

The Other

A seismic change has come over me these last few days, 
Ever since I fell in love with a pure and generous heart 
And ever since I pledged myself to become worthy, 
Not only of his love – but God’s 
I have found myself turning my back on the past, 
Averting my gaze from the sins I used to commit, 
From the poisons and indecent beauties that tempt
Nowadays I seek to push aside the bottle of wine 
I turn my head away when a handsome man walks by 
Or at most sneak a fleeting glimpse…
Because for me now there is only one man 
My future husband 
Or so I would like to have myself believe – 
But at odd moments, I find that I tend to lapse 
And my thoughts stray across the desert sands to you 
Reclining in your murky den of iniquity, 
All entrancing liquid eyes and serrated sensibilities 
And sometimes, despite the stab of guilt, 
I find myself wishing I was there with you…
In your arms for one last night 
One last fling with the old devils of drink and death metal 
But then, thank goodness, I always manage to catch myself
To jerk at the reins, at the self imposed bit in my mouth, 
Until my jaws are flecked with bloody foam – 
And I turn my back on your face of demonic beauty 
And raise my eyes to the heavens, to distract myself, 
Perhaps, from the tempting darkness of your soul – 
A darkness that is mirrored in my own
And that I do my best to ignore…
For the sake of my future husband and for God, 
Who try their divine best not to blame me – 
Though heaven knows I still find sin much easier than virtue
And my heart still bears a black veneer
And throbs to the beat of a death metal drum


Details | Ballad | |

I'll Never Get Over You

If only I had seen it coming 
But I never knew
The day before you left me
I had one more day with you
If only I could turn back time
And bring back yesterday
If only I could tell you
All the things I need to say
If only I could hold you close
And kiss you just once more
If only I could see you smile 
As you walk through that door
Walking down this lonely road
Lost, alone and sad
Holding onto memories and dreams 
That we once had
I need you here to guide me 
For I know I’ll lose my way
Without you I’ll crumble 
Without you I’m not ok
I still don’t understand the reason 
Why you had to leave
I don’t know how to deal with this
I don’t know how to grieve
Looking in the mirror
I still see you in my eyes
And always I will love you
Because true love never dies
Everything I feel inside
Gets stronger everyday
The love that’s in my heart for you
Will never fade away
Everything we shared
And all the memories made together
Will live within my heart and soul
They'll stay with me forever
As long as there is night and day
As long as skies are blue
As long as stars still shine so bright 
I’ll never get over you...



By Raina Hutchins


Details | Quintain (English) | |

Just Give Me A Break

You say you’re too tired to help me,
Or you have too many things to do,
I’m drowning in exhaustion, can’t you see,
I just need a little extra help from you,
To give me a break and pull me through;

I understand you didn’t sleep last night,
And the grass is getting out of control,
But everything doesn’t have to be a fight,
Everyday isn’t about reaching a goal,
We do have time to take a stroll…


Details | Epic | |

i am

i am not weak 
just because im not a man 
i have seen men beg 
and plead
i have seen them on their knees 
i have seen them act like boys 
and fight when they freed
i am a woman 
with unspeakable needs
i have suffered enough 
for youre obsinities
i am back with avengence 
hear me roar 

hold on ... didnt i tell u this before


Details | Free verse | |

Fired Up

Fired Up

Suddenly slow, then frozen up…My heart began to pound.
My computer means so much to me. It’s my touch to the outside world.
Then my knight came in the door… determined my dragon to slay. 
And let me tell you… as dragons go… he can slay anything.

Dragon fire can be hot, but this one was immensely worse.
Nothing at all seemed to work. This dragon was really strong.
Shield after shield fell from my knights’ grip… 
But thank God… he never, ever gave up.

Night after night he fought with might and studied his foe with thought.
Each night he scanned every road… for where a lair could be stowed.
His sword swung with might nightly… erasing him from the land. 
But still the dragon was able to come back breathing fire upon all at hand.

He knew how to open every back door. He was cleverer than any I had seen.
But steady as a rock my knight and prince… continued to protect my way of life.
Finally, one day, with four new shields and with Excalibur by his side…
The dragon's spawn was slayed one last time,  then a miraculous silence remained…

My knight had sacrificed so much time and sleep… that I truly cried.
This dragon was from a far away land where more dragons are made with pride.
But my dear knight is willing to wait by my side… His shield and sword nearby.
Thank you I say with hugs and kisses… For my knight in shining armor, my life… 


Details | Free verse | |

Untitled....

Would if I told you, You'd never see me again
Would if I told you, My life was about to end

Would if I told you,  My final plea goodbye
There would be no more interruptions, no more discussions 
And no more lies

Would if I told you, There's no way to live without you
Would if I told you, I never meant to overcrowd you

Would if I could hold you and make your troubles go away
Would if we could make love, Each and everyday

Would if I could sing you a beautiful love song
Would if we could just talk, And not argue who's right or wrong

Would if I wrote you, A passionate love letter
Would if I could snap my fingers, And make everything go better

Would if I was able, To massage your inner thoughts
Would you stop pretending you were perfect and had no faults

Would if I forgot , About you completely
Would if I forgave, All the ways you deceived me

Would if I made the effort , To change my attitude
Would if I told you, Your whole attire needs to improve

Would if we made a pact, To forget about the past
Can you tell me how long you honestly think that will last

Would if we tried hard , To make things work
Could we let go of the pain, All the suffering and the hurt

Would if I just walked out of your life
Would you ever acknowledge you even had a wife

Would if I decided, To take that drink with you
Take a sip right out the bottle, But what will it prove

Would if we started all over again
Would you be willing to try, For the sake of our kid
What would be the cost of a new beginning 
Would all the pain be lost, Along with good memories

Is it really worth the price, Trying to find each other
To discover what we lost, Should have never be uncovered

Maybe it's time to wash away our tears
And remember all the golden moments 
You and I shared.








Details | Lyric | |

Burned

It’s six pm
Dinner’s in the oven
Table set for two
One of us, here waiting
But that is nothing new
We agreed to have this evening
You got held up there again
Don’t like the way this’ going
Is this coming to an end

Smoke is rising to the ceiling
It’s now seeping out the doors
Both dinner and I are burning
We can’t take this anymore
The fire in the oven
Is the same that’s in my heart
Too bad you won’t be home tonight
To see we’ve come apart

Damn my waiting and your lies
I really don’t know what to say
Hopefully when you see the house
You’ll know that I too burned away
Because… I always get burned this way

It’s six fifteen
The dinner’s still burning
Smoke fills the air
I’m ready to run
Cause it seems you don’t care
Supposed to be here at five
It’s now six fifteen
Not a word or a call
Not a text or anything

Damn my waiting and your lies
I really don’t know what to say
Hopefully when you see the house
You’ll know that I too burned away
Because… I always get burned this way

Smoke is rising to the ceiling
It’s now seeping out the doors
Both dinner and I are burning
We can’t take this anymore
The fire in the oven
Is the same that’s in my heart
Too bad you won’t be home tonight
To see we’ve come apart


Details | Rhyme | |

Our QT Savior

In the cold of the morn with a crisp cloudy day…
A flat tire assailed a young girl, as she went on her way.
Young and full of life but definitely overwhelmed…
She was late for work and her husband had just nearly died.
She sat in her car, sniffling, worrying, and crying some wails.
She’d never changed a tire, a young husband always there.
But hurt he’d become, and in the hospital now remained…
It was up to her, suddenly alone, to make things right again.
She fretfully tried AAA but the wrong number was wrung…
Till Old Granny Goodness appeared with hope, and some fun.
She quickly got her out of the car, and found everything there.
Explaining what to do, Granny decided to entertain with flair.
Together they’d use a spare tire to fix that rickety old car.
They figured out the jack and successfully lifted the car.
But lug nuts are hard and need strength to unleash…
So granny fussed and she bug-tussled but never gave up
Till the young girl laughing, knew what she must do herself… 
Grabbing deep into her courage, she ran into the QT for help.
Sure enough, a worker volunteered to help that sweet young thing out.
And the lug nuts came off lickety-split with laughter on top.
The young man was gracious, and ever so kind and…
Yes, he finished the job with his best smile and in record time
And of course he helped put everything away, too, you can bet…
He even helped Old Granny Goodness up off the ground where she sat.
Then with a salute and fare thee well, he went back inside…
While Old Granny Goodness, and the girl put air in the tires.
By now the girl was the lead in the work as she smiled and laughed…
She was empowered; you know… there’s nothing wrong with that.
Yes, the world was saved as all found their way home, with a wink, at last.
Yes, with gratitude, a hug, and a smile… many a way can be found again.

Contest:Write me a Happy Poem 10-31-2011 CSEastman


Details | Rhyme | |

Perfection

I'm the perfect example of what not to do
I'm the perfect depiction of words untrue.
I've perfected the art of being contemptuous.
I've perfected the notion of how to obsess. 

I'm the perfect wife in every sense of the word,
I'm the perfect partner who’s loud and absurd.
I’ve mastered the art of lies and deceitfulness.
I’ve mastered the skills of emotional distress.

I’m the perfect mate, if instability is sought.
I’m the perfect spouse; leaving you distraught. 
I’ve conquered your insecurities, and your trust.
I’ve conquered your inability to state the unjust. 

I’m the perfect paradigm of how to regress.
I’m the perfect instance of turmoil finesse.
I’ve flawlessly sneered, as we both lay awake.
I’ve perfected the notion; this love’s a mistake. 


Details | Rhyme | |

Falling

Trickling down, my soul passed.
Like a raging beast, declining fast.
Decreasing power, this empty core.
Descending desire; lust nevermore.

Draining ambition, mislaid beyond.
Seeping distrust, this violent bond.
Cradling youth; as yesterday’s past.
Spiraling downward; falling so fast.

Sketching our love; tracing our ties.
Shackled in pain; festering in lies. 
Plunging below, coming up for air,
Sinking in stench; suddenly aware.

Plummeting quickly; hearts untwine.
A failing romance; yours and mine.
Dropping below the depth of mind,
Tumbling hastily – hatred we find.

Reducing strength; ambition dives.
Fondling the ideal, our lives will thrive.
Exhausting demands; love we’ve cast.
Hitting rock bottom; lost within the past.


Details | Rondeau | |

Unraveling

(this actually a rondolet, a shortened form of rondeau)

Unraveling 
Stitches from our wedding quilt
Unraveling
Your so-called “business traveling"
Anniversary streamers of guilt
25 years - the life we built
Unraveling


12/1/11
Received 1st place


Details | Rhyme | |

Damage Control

Abuse, misuse, and mistreat the object of your affection.
In the name of a game – hearts bound in another direction.
Not seen or keen to a face, instead this article to discard. 
Senseless pain to gain, leaving our hearts forever scarred.	

Heed naught, to being caught, watching you writhe in pain.
Cruelty told, does unfold – standing alone in a bloody rain.
Showering down, bleeding abound – I turn in your direction.
But you’re gone, amidst the dawn, a broken down reflection.

A man once proud, who always vowed to love me till the end.
Now merely a face, for me to retrace, this broken heart I mend.
To face the facts and brutal attacks is more than I can bear.
To admit my faults, and emotional assault, do I even dare?

Can a monster repent, a life they’ve spent or will they always be – 
An abusive mass, first in their class for you see that ogre is me.  
I stand alone, without a home because you were always my force.
A recluse I must be, to discover the old me, or end this in divorce.


Details | Rhyme | |

Failure

I feel like I'm not worth your timescreamine.
I'm trying but you don't see that.
Perfect I'm not, nor will I ever be.
Even though things are going south, 
you still make my heart go pitter-pat.

I'm sorry I'm so hard to love.
Things shouldn't have to be this 
hard.
Let's go back to the good old days.
Remember when it was like a greeting 
card?

You yell, and I hold my breath,
I scream, and you walk away.
Will this be another argument,
Or will this be like every other day?


Details | Free verse | |

Little Red

Full Moon Brimming 
On A Hungry Wolf
Fire still burning 
Words are not enough

Red Riding Hood,
You stopped me where i stood.
The basket you held, looked so good,
I enticed...And you fell... 

In the woods... safe and sound
We could not believe what we had found
Me in denim... and you it lace

We understood, each other so very well
Full moon brimming over with light
Gazing into the eyes of the other

The twin to me, I did see, in You.
Be careful with my heart, my love.

My running shoes are unlaced for now,
So lean back and enjoy the ride.
Embrace all the laughter, our lives allow.

rlm


Details | ABC | |

do I? (by kimmy holmes, my daughter)

you are
so in love
in love 
with me

i wonder
do  you know
i'm not the same
no not

look at what
you done 
you done did to me
made me too happy

i'm so happy 
i cain't do the same
i feel bad
make everyone mad

but i can't
I won't 
cuz I don't have to
do I?


Details | Tail-rhyme | |

A Charade


A man's lying words had betrayed
his happy marriage a charade
so many words unspoken

With her smile, his wife's love had fade
a once faithful husband had strayed
a bond had been broken


April 17, 2012 
for Tail Rhyme Time (Black Eyed Susan) 


Details | ABC | |

ME(by kimmy holmes, my daughter)

yOU KnoW YOU're PRETTY
YoUR SAFE fROM ME
yOU WATCH THE nEWS
iT KEEPS yOU fREE

yOUR'E sO MUCH     better
THAN i COULD hOPE TO BE
i MAKES ME quiet
Not so mucH ME

I think i MIIGHT BE MAD
you tell me I might be sad
scREW Y oU MY LoVE
I am ready
 
TO BE GLAd


Details | Free verse | |

The Stench of You

I smell regret!
I smell it on your clothes
and in your hair,
on your hands
and in every stitch, 
every fiber,
every twist and turn in the path of your goddamned
chugga-chugga-choo-choo'ing
train of thought,
and it is especially noticeable in the carpet,
but then again,
that could just be the milk I spilled
when I caught a big fat whiff of the aforementioned regret...


Details | Free verse | |

The Human Seasons: Elements At War and Peace, Part III

                                                                  3.

Wrapped close, in implacable, bitter embrace,
The winter grips the land and holds it immobile,
The cat upon its mouse.

Stripped bare and glazed with stony ice
Ashudder beneath a slatecloud sky
That drops its snow in a hush of crowding dimness,
A white leaden mantle
Is lain over empty fields, piling 'round the trunks of skeletal trees
Standing soberly and waving their bony branches in the frozen air
The twilight days light a world now comatose,
Drawn in against the cold and huddled like 
Some invalid giant shorn of all his strength,
Lying stretched half slain across the firmament
Gazing into nothing with a distant blank stare
As scattered carrion birds wheel against a wan canvas,
Waiting.

Those two in their little house circle 'round as well,
Moving without purpose through the events of their lives
As the cold outside seeps into the rooms
Invading their thoughts
To make them tremble
Shaken in the blindness of their desperation,
And though the fire blazes orange-warm in the hearth,
Defending this inside space from the day's deep gloom,
Autumnal sorrows have collected in the silence
And worn their hearts weary with cares,
And thus the spirit's wounds have festered and widened,
Filling with the poison of despair.

Soft sparks the glow of the fire makes in his tired eyes,
Reflecting wild fears that her love is lost;
They dance in his mind, stabbing with a pain
That knows no cure.

Long the time he just looks at her,
This life that chose to be with him always,
And he sees that
Whatever
The hurt that came between,
He cannot bear that she leave him 
Condemned to go on without her,
Alone.

Her thoughts for him are much the same,
Though she says it not.
Yet when at last he reaches out across the table
And takes her hand in his,
She looks up, and for one long moment
They two become the lone human pair
In all of space and time,
And in one another's moist crystalline gaze
They read a deep sweet tale 
In a language without words.

          Something melts,
                                       And something breaks

In that moment when she gently folds 
Her delicate fingers over his,
Looking down again with a schoolgirl smile
Spreading irresistable over her face.

Outside, in the blackness of the star-shot night,
Ice cracks
And waters run clear beneath the snow.


Details | Rhyme | |

Guess Who's Coming To Dinner

The morning paper’s everywhere, and breakfast dishes are here and there
Her feet up in the easy chair, the old man in his underwear
The phone starts ringing loud and clear, so hubby quickly disappears
When he returns, she sees a frown,…, He calmly says,  “Guess who’s in town?”
“The corporate boss, not far away….I have asked them here for lunch today!”
“A little lunch would be no trouble. He’s with his wife…her name is Mable”

“You did what???? she screams.  (Even the neighbors hear!) 
 “Oh my dear!  Company’s coming, and they are near?”
“Help me quick. Get off your rear!!”  And he replies…”Whatever you say, dear”

She frets and stews and carries on….her hubby simply mutters
She runs around the messy room and stashes all the clutter
She’s acting like a headless chicken, her partner in a quandary
He watches as she runs around, hiding dirty laundry
Oh dear, they’ll need some lunch to nibble, whatever could she fix?
She finds some tuna, cheese and crackers, a bag of party mix

Running to the bedroom, she’s gasping raves and rants
“You’ve got to get your shirt on!…For Pete’s sake, dear!   Find your pants!”
“Heaven’s, we must hurry!    We’ve got to make the bed!”
"Whatever you say, dear" he grumbles, and shakes his bewildered head
She discards her frumpy nightgown, powders her frantic frown
She quickly brushes hair, a dab of lipstick too
Tosses sloppy slippers, dons her pretty shoes

A knocking on the door, she pastes a cheery smile
Her unexpected company has come to stay awhile!
Breathing deep, she goes to greet them “So good of you to call!”
“What’s that.....a bother?” “ Now don’t be silly, you aren’t bothering us at all!”

She shoots a glance, a daggered lance, into her husband’s mug
He has no clue,  ignores what brews…a deep, dark hole he's dug 
For again, it seems he’s lost his head…and says
….”Stay the night, it's quite all right, we have an extra bed!!”

She smiles with dread,  “Whatever you say, dear,” she said.........
                   
    (but …tomorrow he’ll be DEAD!!!)

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Details | Chant Royal | |

Raven's Goodnight

She sits up waiting, 
But for what;
Another midnight beating?
She hears a car door
And steps coming closer.
With keys in the lock,
The door flies open.
"What are you still doing here?
I told you to get out!"
And his fist came down,
Hard on her mouth.
What had she done wrong?
Why did he do this;
These terrible things,
Causing her so much pain?
She stands up,
Wiping the blood from her lip
And he slams her back
Down to the floor.
She lies there,
Hoping everything will just disappear.
He walks down the hallway;
The only thing she hears now,
Is the gunshot.
She runs down the hallway
And into the bedroom,
Only to find her husband,
Dead in his doom.
With the blood still coming
From the hole in his head,
She steps over him
And climbs into bed.
"Goodnight,"
She says,
For the first
And last time.


Kaci Jo Atteberry
Among The Dead Poetry Contest


Details | I do not know? | |

Bruises

The devil used you
to lure him away,now
what are you going to
tell people with your 
face bruised that way.

She told you she 
would catch you with
him one day,I wonder
if the bruises on your 
face was worth the pay.

For six long years
he has walked with
God,but your wink and 
your smile caught his 
lustful eye.

I pray if you don't know
Jesus in the freepardon 
of sin,that you will fall on 
your face and ask for
forgiveness of your sin.


Details | Rhyme | |

Hearts Can Lie

Hearts can lie, although I know this seems quite vast,
I was once young and vibrant, but forever never last.
"I do" is taken for granted, unlike in the years of past,
matrimony was forever, not today’s divorces in mass.

Through lies of the heart, love lays jagged and broken, 
the truth of the matter goes noticeably unspoken.
Bitter stabs leave blood stained floors as a token, 
forcing the despised beast alive and fully woken.

Abusive, foul shards of hope pierce thy still heart, 
content in our misery, we find comfort in the art.
Sculpting disparity, shaping cruelty from the start,
denying the inevitable that two should now depart.

Words and fists work together destroying the unity
falling apart only furthers the impunity,
broken hearts seeking another opportunity
to rid themselves of the impending immunity.

Draped in a cloak of violent despair ever so appealing,
imprisoning mistrust, our troubled lives now revealing,
a turmoil of wickedness, our evil words keep stealing, 
ones laughter, ones joy and any depth of true feeling.


Details | Free verse | |

A moment in catagorical time

It's a cool  mesure of life blood low
keeping the venous vacant return and arterial alert
               compressive but maniacal
down   deep fried effervesence continued a bliss
smooth blow horn alive high frequency antedote
fever pitch a b--i-- t==...c,,,h  mellow deed digestive
cornerstone just picked, not canned cloud
billows apiece with networks intact
sublime charged unpatterened--to gut cord
noose cadence couffiures---who needs to look
when you can heartfeel the resonance trueblue
mild like casket breaths mishapen to formless 
'guises compact summer stated summer not
he--ightened proseless panarama to stiffle
the mistermasters time corrided but indelibly
remembered and "coited to us"---like
creature interruptus. Follow the ill laid scheme
and bottleneck every word line graph to a sinomeasure
rhyme myth only time will tell tribute
pour the mind from the soul fill the void with the
gush of private reserve subvintage--but held
crime captive via socioprocastination of free, non taxable
no interest due, no penalty for "early withdrawal" 
purely personal, single minded, "brand H-one
owner single sibiling thought jester cannibal
yum yum eat'em up eat'em up.


Details | Couplet | |

Why So Painful?

I stand, utterly hollow and alone.
 Staring and wondering if he'll phone.

Why is it he has this hold over me?
 Why can't he just leave me be?

One minute, I think I'm over him, 
 then all those thoughts and feelings begin.

The biggest part of me knows we can't be together, 
 but then I remember, we vowed it was to last forever.

I think of the name calling, and him being so vile.
 Then here comes the happy memories followed by bile.

My throat burns, from the bile and from the pain.
 A lump, stuck there as the tears fall like summer rain.

How does one get over the hurt and betrayal?
 He's nothing at all like his first portrayal. 

I thought he was loving, kind, and an honorable man.
 Was his facade all part of some cruel, sinister plan?

How can you ever put your heart out there again?
 I can not begin to tell you how heart wrenching its been. 

I feel sorry for him, that he has to put me down.
 Its the only way he can make himself feel renown.

I just wonder when the pain will start to subside.
 I truly don't know how much longer I can stay on this ride. 

One part of me still loves him, for I am still his wife.
 The other part, can not keep putting myself through the strife.

A husband and wife are expected to go through dissension.
 Love shouldn't have to be this hard though, its too much tension.

How do you say good-bye to a man you love and equally hate?
 I never thought I would feel the love I have for him abate. 

I fear a divorce is in order, as I do not feel he will ever change.
 Its not like for the last two years we haven't been estranged. 

I wish I could say that I want to wish him all the best.
 But I don't since he's left this ragged, raw hole in my chest.

I know that's not the ladylike way to be.
 However, you have no idea what he's done to me.

I once tried to see the best in people, and love fierce.
 Well, with his coldness, my heart did he pierce. 

I can only hope to one day, heal my broken heart.
 He should be ashamed, for tearing my faith in love apart. 

But I forgive him for all that he has ever done.
 You see, it is I who will be the bigger and better one.

I only hope I can one day try my hand again at love.
 And I hope its him that I will no longer be thinking of


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I'VE CHANGED

You ignore my birthday,
Our anniversary too.
Most holidays just pass right by,
Without a word from you.

You don't say "Happy Birthday",
"I love you, you're the best",
Or wish me "Merry Christmas",
As you would a friend or guest.

Forget about a valentine,
From me you've had a ton,
And though I've told you many times,
From you I've not had one.

You hate to spend a penny,
If it'snot something for you.
You feel your money's wasted,
All my "gifts" are shared with you.

You wonder why I'm not the girl,
You married years ago.
I'm sadder and much wiser now,
You reap whate'er you sow.

                                       Judy Ball


Inspired by Russel Sivey's relatioship contest


Details | Free verse | |

heard

 Sounds to me I'm deaf
Cant hear the murmur any more

 A thousand sounds a day I know
Only I can not hear it if they show

 The gaining of quiet stance
Bitter sweet the silence

 I could just not hear you anymore
I understand you sounds to my core

 Found myself straining to listen
Only to hear a blank shot angrily hasten

 When we come to sound out loud 
This is when I can face this crowd 

 Till then---

Sounds to me I'm deaf
Cant hear the murmur any more




Details | Rhyme | |

Once Upon a Time

Its done, its over, I have no more left to give, 
you've taken every breath that made me want to live. 
I am no longer myself, 
just some image you take down from your shelf, 
whenever you want to play the part 
of a loving husband with a caring heart.
 I should have know all this from the start, 
then right now my world wouldn't be falling apart. 
My heart wouldn't feel so much pain, 
and I'd know whether I should listen to my brain, 
or try to make this work for our daughters sake.
 But life with you is no longer a piece of cake. 
The words you say cut to the core, and sting like a knife, 
is this how a man should be treating his wife? 
You think because your the financial provider, 
I am supposed to cower to you like a cornered spider. 
My soul doesnt bend that way, 
my heart will not allow me to stay, 
in a place where I can not see the sun, 
and my own will cannot be done. 
Its ok with you, you dont really want us here, 
it'd be better off if we were to just disappear, 
and get out of your hair, 
we're not welcomed anywhere,
where you or your family reside, 
it's just best we step aside. 
We'll find our own way, never letting anyone get to close, 
because once upon a time the man I loved hurt me the most. 


Details | I do not know? | |

The Other Woman

My muddied, motherly eyes I turned away
When he looked at her in that lustful way
Drowning my voice as my tongue I silenced
She was my shield against his violence
I had so devalued her existence
That from me he got no resistance
When on her tight lips his kisses landed
To her, the fault I scornfully handed
When timidly upon his lap she sat
I knew his manhood was eager to chat
I saw the smutty sneaky little snake
Her innocence he was ready to take
When I chose to ignore his erection
I packed away parental protection
She was the prey I threw into his cage
She could absorb his penetrating rage
I knew fear was his aphrodisiac
With her tears she begged for him to attack
Excited, his entrance was really vicious
To him, her agony was delicious
He filled her with soul stealing suffocating shame
The devil’s spawn, she was the one I blamed
When he drifted, he slithered into her bed
Dreaming of the day, when she would drop dead
She was the other woman, my rival
I had no regard for her survival
When his heavy fist fractured her fresh face, 
I was glad she was there to take my place
Into her spirit I twisted the knife
Taking from her everything but her life
In his wrath I left her alone to drown 
Abdicating my maternal crown


Details | Free verse | |

Legal Tender of Getting Old

Legal Tender of Getting Old 

If tears were coins I'd be a rich man… 
If sadness was time I'd live forever… 
If I only knew what to do to make it better… 
I would do it in a heartbeat. 


But, no answers are easy when feelings crash around you… 
And the Sun does not shine in the heavens above… 
if only I could see…if only I could find a way…if only I knew… 
How do you say goodbye when there is no love? 


To only be me myself alone … again… 
decisions are frightening and shaky to behold… 
But change is needed for me to stay sane… 
all the while we continue to grow old. 



RLM 
'05


Details | I do not know? | |

Going Fast

Caught with glances past
Holding memories going fast
Faces lost pasts caught
I am sorry but I have no memory 
Of any times with you

As good as you look
Your only a odd felt hook
And what we had is now only you
As I open a new book
You would be some thing new

Yes I remember
But theres nothing that I feel
Here to remind me, nothing now here to do
I have nothing but pains for the memory
Your not even a fact or a smell
So untill you are actually bold
I will count you as cold
Some where in a dream I can't hold


Details | Rhyme | |

Cover Me

Whilst I wither, as you wear me down,
There’ll come a day I will sport no frown.
I’ll dance for life; the trumpets will sound,
You’ll see in death that I’m still around.

Whilst you whistle, and sing this tune,
I’ll rise again, your hatred did not ruin,
the life in me, that did expire too soon,
blood you spilled, shadows the moon.

Crimson shades devour a precious time,
two hearts in synch within a lovers rhyme.
Casting adornment we continued to climb,
a wretched torn cord of blood and grime.

Whilst you wander, in search of your way,
I’ve battled and struggled, alone I stay.
The darkness it dwells, teasing its prey,
taunting my strength, this darkness I obey.

I kneel before him; he’s gained my trust,
this dark, blackened heart tis’ near a bust.
When this darkness to you seems unjust,
please cover me with love before I turn to dust.


Details | Rhyme | |

Make A Stand

It's not her,
But it's them,
For now, she can't do anything.
Just patience & keep things hidden.


still so many unresolved issues,
to others & to herself.
She needs to take the risk,
a giant step, to conquer, to cease.

Because it's not running away,
But protecting people who stayed.
she's not against everyone,
Not hiding, just in need of healing.

It wasn't just about her, after all.
But about everything that made her fall.
So they should understand,
that soon enough, it's her time to make a Stand.


Details | Rhyme | |

617 Squadron " The Flight Home "

Brave men brought together
To fly the bombers
To hamper the power
 
Enlistment their will 
To serve the free
All humble men 
As history will see
 
Hearts shaking
On this white knuckle ride
Hero's them all
Side by side
 
Outbound flights
Planes lost
Their families and friends
Count the cost
 
Target reached
Heavy flak
How many of them
Will make it back
 
They turn for home
Chased by the Hun
Machine guns ripping
Flesh so young
 
Wounded they slump
Bullet ridden
Bloodied bodies
Sodden
 
The coast of England up ahead
Welcomes the live
And will remember the dead
 
Distant engines
The airfield hears
Crippled planes
Grow near and near
 
Families gather as they fly over
Did their loved ones
Pass the cliffs of Dover
 
Ambulance, tenders
Race to the scene
Pieces of man
Their life no longer a dream
 
Carried in care 
Blanketed shroud
Dads and sons
Did their country proud
 
The airmen who walked out
Turned and looked to the sky
This mission by men
As they wonder why
 
Pain and suffering 
For the right to be free
As the future has thanked
As we look back and see.
 
 
Dedicated to all who served, to allow us to write and read.
We can fire our words, but they will never make us bleed.


http://www.thehighlanderspoems.com/war-2.php


Details | Rhyme | |

Bloody Ties

I steal, what I feel, make no mistake –
I charm, without alarm, to covet what I take.
I hide what’s inside, to abide what’s at stake.
I lie, and will deny, any wrongdoings I make.

You use and abuse your way through this life.
You cheat and defeat those plagued with strife.
You fail, and impale, those closest to your heart.
You wallow in the shallow, shredding ties apart.

We fret over the net, which safety has vanished.
We wail at the stale courtship now banished.
We hurt as we flirt our disaster, daily we plummet.
We trek through the wreck reaching death’s summit.

They say we’re astray, and our minds are broken.
They wonder, why blunder, a mirage of unspoken.
They chatter about clatter, with prejudice abound.
They sneer and they leer, that together we astound.

I’ll take the bane, and disdain and try to explain.
I’ll take the lies, masked in disguise and abstain.
I’ll take the tears, through the years and constrain.
For I made my bed, built of crimson nails and black lead,
and forever in my heart will you remain.


Details | Rhyme | |

Through The Gap

Through the gap between the closed drapes
A maid peers in a daze
An ashtray upon the table
Held her undiffused gaze

Clearly there was bright red lipstick
Circles upon some butts
A golden earring lies close by
Lying cheat drives her nuts

The fog lifted revealing all 
Airline ticket back home
A scoundrel, cheater, liar, creep
In the night he does roam

A teardrop fell upon the floor
As the click opened lock  
He slept peacefully this last night
Gun shots silenced by the clock

Last chapter typed upon white sheets
The typewriter now still
Headlines plastered across front page
Lovers in motel were killed

Sponsor: Craig Cornish
Contest: Chopped III
Form used: Poulter's Measure, Syllable count 8,6,8,6 with the rhyme on the six..Some lines might be slightly off..


Details | I do not know? | |

The Life She Has Always Wanted

There’s a girl, sitting at the back of the bar.
Waiting for a glimpse of the life that she’s always wanted.
She’s not looking for a fairy tale or gold.
Just a little work, and some love not from the usual mold.
He walks in with promises, ending in heartbreak and tears.
She drowns him out slowly, with new dreams and a few beers.
The girl sitting at the back of the bar.
Waiting for a glimpse of the life she’s always wanted.
Two years have passed, not much has changed.
She still comes each week to sit at her corner table.
Some work, many dreams, and a few beers become her label.
The women all judge her inside their private mind.
Small town men buy her a drink, wink and smile, but aren’t her kind.
The girl sitting at the back of the bar.
Waiting for a glimpse of the life she has always wanted.
She has big dreams of life, love, and the woman that she wants to be.
I sit across the bar, wishing she’d look just once more to me.
I turned my back, messed up not long ago.
She told me that she loved me, but she had to go.
I failed to show her my love, I’d hurt her badly.
Breaking her heart blindly, while loving her madly.
That girl sitting at the back of the bar.
Waiting for a glimpse of the life that she has always wanted.
Pulling the ring from my pocket, my jaw stubbornly clenching.
I push through the crowded room, and voice my intention.
Dear Beth, I will love you forever. I’m down on my knees!
Just give me one last chance, and marry me please.
That was two years ago yesterday.
And still my love grows more every day.
For the girl sitting at the back of the bar.
Waiting for a glimpse of the life she has always wanted.
As I nod and thank the bar tender, and add to his tips.
I pick up two drinks, turn to the back of the bar, a smile on my lips.
Cause there is my girl, sitting at the back of the bar.
Living the dreams of the life that she’s always wanted.

                                                                                       Summer Gratias


Details | I do not know? | |

When a house isnt a home

out of the car, and up the walk,
i go to the door and unlock the 
lock

loud voices through the  door
empties my heart  a little more

they yell about money, they 
yell about love
they yell about who goes down 
below or up above

she calls him crazy, he says 
"just maby"
he tells her he wants to go
she starts to cry and say she 
didnt know

then she starts to beg for 
forgivness
she wants to start over
but nobody really wants to 
relive this


i pull out the key and realize
now,
how things have to be 

this is when my house isnt a 
home to me                  





Details | I do not know? | |

None Better Than You

sensually sliding, rhythmically pounding
erotically echoing our hearts
senses stretching, raw passion mounding
impassioned lovers playing their parts

our bodies moving in perfect time
our hearts melting together in the heat
sinew and limbs twisted rhymes
each striving to make the other complete.

Laying together in each other's embrace
panting breathy kisses shared
this feeling we could not replace
our hearts and souls bared

rlm '09


Details | Ballad | |

Josette, Drive the Faerie out of me

She's Lost--I'm the one left to blame Forsaken by my potent manipulating game I've killed the one, My starcrossed heart Desires ...But not By My hands I Try To Follow her ghost But the fog and mist are too strong My eyes are rendered useless "You're Never going to Find Josette" The netherworld Spirits sang I Won't lose Heart I Will Win this Fight For My Sacred Josette's Right to Life This is what happens when The Devil's Adovocate Falls for Jesus's Greatest Bride This is what happens When The life of the disease Loves the cure it desperately hates Drives you mad But Wasn't I already? Josette, I'm begging you To Drive the Faerie out of Me


Details | Free verse | |

Our Last Embrace -Off To Heavens Gate

                                                             *¸.•'´¯)


You, my beloved wanting to deny the inevitable
Your body wearing down- thin, haggard and pale
Your face looking weary- lined with battle scars of living life
Each of us waiting to exhale
Tired of running in place
I knew in my soul you were losing the game, forfeiting the fight
You, weary of hustling the race
That dreaded  ‘C’  word lying on lips
afraid to be spoken- dreading to be heard 
Hiding fears with well worn smiles
Feeling scared...feeling unprepared
Struggling to walk those last few miles
Forced into losing you by something unseen…
Both of us riding the storm on wild stallions
to battle something so obscene
A ticking time bomb took up residence in your gut
An eviction notice was sent...
to this uninvited occupant

Then you were gone...
Me standing there looking down at your face
as you lie in your peaceful resting place
lined with satin, laced with tears
I have loved you for so many years
Missing your warm embrace 
Missing seeing your face
Anger, fear, tears - all packed inside
my love for you will always abide
There you go my love…
Blissfully off to Heaven’s gate...
where I'll meet you - waiting lovingly there for me

                                                                 *¸.•'´¯)


by anne p murray


Details | I do not know? | |

My fragile heart that beats for you..

Who will hold me in their arms and tell me things will be alright 
who Will stroke my hair at night and whisper tender feelings twice
Who will know just what to say to help me make it through the day
Who will kiss me on my lips and feel me melt right into his
Who will touch me in that way that sends me floating to the stars
To never hold you in my arms or kiss your tender lips again 
I feel it’s hard to bear 
I want so much to hold you close I don't think I can cope
My heart was whole when I was with you, it fluttered like a bird in flight
It soared up high and through the night
My love I was amazed by you and everything you made me feel
To never have this love again sends panic to my head, 
I know I have to muddle through another desperate day
And all around are memories of times we shared and happy days
How can I forget all this and get myself through my day...
                
The answer is I won’t forget and really I don't want to,
But I will learn to hold these thoughts inside a special place,
I will have to try to learn to try to cope with life alone
To be strong, and stronger still, 
Until my heart can once again be brave enough to walk alone.
But for now I need to say my love my heart is broke in two
And you, you hold it in your hands to hold for ever more...
So when I’m feeling life’s too hard and my head’s all in a whirl
I’ll remember all the words youve said and dream your arms around me 
The arms that sheltered me from harm will forever hold me safe 
And time will heal my broken heart, but for now I feel it so,
Like searing heat that cuts in two my fragile heart that beats for you


Details | I do not know? | |

what can I say?

What can I say to heal this break
in skin tender hearts that ache
I love you gently? or forgive a fool?
what can I say to drown this pool
of raging water without a dam
words are waisted in your hand
what can I say to turn again
back to where we first begin
side to side quivering souls
lost in dreams of how it will go
what can I say, it's all been said
heal this tear cross our bed
sorry? forgive me? I confess?
What can I say to feel your caress


Details | Quatrain | |

Never

You will never meet him
Never embrace
Never have a meaningful conversation
Never lovingly kiss his face

You will never touch him
Never tangle your fingers in his hair
Never realize his dreams
Or exchange a loving stare

And because he rejected you
You've reshaped him as something you could despise
And brought a vendetta upon his family
Waging a war of bitter, empty lies

And yet, he is so much more 
Than your limited mentality could create
The jagged, pathetic lines of jealousy
Put limitations in their place

Yet, you desire what you call a monster
You have lost at your own game
And he will never forgive you
Never hear you speak his name

You hold him hostage to your dreams
Try to rob him of happiness and wealth
Disgust him with your obsessions
But the biggest victim you've created is yourself


Details | I do not know? | |

Death

Pain shows no stain. 
The only stain that is there, 
Is one of his blood.

It all started a sad day in
July. 
He saved my life.

Now, I'm nothing but a simple
Hunter. It's not animals I hunt,
but People...

I knew that there was a bounty,
somewhere there always is. I put
that all aside to speak to him.

I thanked him and turned to leave,
He pleaded with me to give my name,
Fear spiked my thoughts.

Slowly I whispered my name to him.
He asked if he could see me again.
What could it hurt? Whom could it hurt?

Me 

I saw him that day
my hunting had stalled.
I saw no fear in living

Should have known that it couldn't be
The man was a trick.
A terrifying trick.

He attacked me when my guard was down.
His knife sliced deep into my arm.
My own knife held steady in his leg.  

Pain filled my thoughts. 
He attacked again,
leaving a long cut across my back.

I lost the first battle to him,
but I refuse to loose
the war!


When I awoke, I was tied down, 
Chains surrounded my wrists.
I was seething.

Once I began to rattle the chains,
He heard me and pulled a knife.
The cut dragged across my stomach.

Blood dripped from it.
I screamed.
He shushed me, trying not alerting anyone.

I wouldn't have it,
I pushed at my chains, snarling like an 
animal.  

There was a dull thudding noise from the main hall.
He moved towards the noise.
I pulled my wrists free from the chains.

Blood coated my hands.
I moved towards him.
He saw my reflection in a mirror.

He turned to me,
but that's what I wanted him to do.
I launched myself at him.

The knife found its home,
right in his throat.
He simply gurgled before falling.

His body shook slightly, but soon was still.
I threw down the knife and called in my 
Kill.

He saved my life,
He hunted me, 
I was his undoing.

I am Death.
It beats in me.
Watch for me.

I might be coming after you next...


Details | Alliteration | |

Sullen Sylvia

Sullen Sylvia sadly 
Departed deeply devestated by 
Her husband's heartless 
Departure for a deadly damsel


Details | Rhyme | |

Setting up House

I met a woman, fell in love
She was a gift from above
Soon she became my spouse
We gathered things and set up house.

Some things were new without a flaw
Some were hand me downs from Ma and Paw
For some we saved nickels in a can
Some were bought on the installment plan.

Children came – a total of four
Two boys – two girls- no need for more
We managed to provide room and board
Did the best we could afford.

We moved around from house to house
On an adventure – me and my spouse
Gathering things to which we would cling
But we rarely got rid of anything.

Tables, chairs, couches, and beds
Cabinets and shelves taller than our heads
Mugs, pictures, and bells we did collect
Mementoes and heirlooms on which to reflect.

A man gathers a lot in over fifty years
And remembers many of them with tears
Many a thing still fills my house
But it’s not a home without my spouse.

She has a room in a retirement home
Care is provided and she cannot roam
I dreamed one day we would be old timers
But I never figured on Alzheimer’s.

Now I have a house full of stuff
Too many things - more than enough
The time has come to downsize
To an apartment in the high rise.

My children came one by one
Went through my stuff until they were done
One takes this and another takes that
And managed to do so without a spat.

Giving things away is a lonely task
My irritability I cannot mask
Gathering things with my spouse
Was more fun than cleaning out house.



Details | Senryu | |

In The Dog House

The Dog House
Caught, he lied to her;
His ebullient smile said all,
On the couch he sleeps.


Details | Free verse | |

Black Hearted Wife

I love to know that you suffer
words cannot be retrieved
once spoken
damage irreversable
bowed heads and heavy tears 
son hiding in closets behind coats
husband
gone

and you wonder
why his steps are slow as he leaves
and he is silent around you
and you wonder why he left you alone
in your house

speak your words to the dark
to the dust
to the cold kettle
to his favorite mug
find his sweater in the basement
find his music in the garage

you will have no satisfaction of inflicting pain
your power defused momentarily
until you catch another one

and yet this husband will haunt you
his voice will sound in your dreams


Details | Free verse | |

Bittersweet Serenity

Having flown with you.
  Having watched you wither.
    Beauty remains,
      But the most beautiful has blown away.
    Memories remain.
      Mementoes remain.
        Hate the remains of my life without you.
Mistakenly 
  You have taken me
    To the open, angry earth.
  You have left me to claw my casket.
    Scraping,
      Scratching,
        Spastically striving...
          To escape,
            To survive.
              I’m alive!
Withered,
  Wired,
    Watch the whimsical poet.
Flying,
  Frying,
    The bastard with the bowl.
I had five days to choose the chosen.
  Five days to direct the destiny of the predestined.
    Five days done gone by...
Loved no one.
  Felt so low.
    Felt I was going nowhere...
      There was nowhere to go.
    Felt I knew no friends...
       There were no friends to know.
Solitary.
  I have succumbed to seclusion.
Beat down.
  Feeling the dry ground.
    Fearing the melodic sound:
      My desperate breathing.
        My own heart beating.
But my fears could not imagine the depth of lonliness.


Details | Quatrain | |

THE ANGRY MAN

Dumb as a sack of hammers,
He thinks he knows it all.
He knows enough to get him by,
But blames you if he falls.

He's careful but not confident.
He's never known a day,
When he was happy or content.
He never learned to play.

He blames all that upon his wife.
Lord knows she isn't perfect;
But he blames her for everything,
And says she is defect.

If things go wrong as things will do,
He blames her for it all.
He knows he didn't cause it,
So she must take the fall.

He complains most every day,
'Bout this, that or the other.
Life in general he can't take,
Seems breathing is a bother.

He blames her for their lot in life.
'Thout her he'd be rich.
It's all her fault, he knows it is,
She's such a stupid bitch.

For years she's lived with naught but strife.
Not one good word he's spoken.
What would he do without his wife,
Without his little token?

He knows he really needs her.
'Thout her he'd be alone.
No one else would hang around,
And listen to him moan.

He needs her there for company,
To play his little game.
Without her he'd be all alone,
And then who would he blame?

                                   Judy Ball




Some people wouldn't be happy if you peed in their cornflakes.



Details | Dramatic monologue | |

Ease my Pain

Ease my Pain I don’t know where it started, I only know it’s raw and deep. It’s set hard inside my soul, It’s there for my spirit to keep. I’m shattered and broken, On the floor of my life. The pain hurts in a place with no name. My world is drowning in strife. Yet here you are just watching me weep, Not knowing how to react. I would give anything if you’d ease my pain, And give me my happiness back. The sadness I endure is because of you, Never caring how I feel. My tears go unnoticed, and the ache is my own, I never signed on for this deal. I only want you to ease my pain, Give to me your strength and shoulders, To help me bear the burdens I carry, I want to be free of when I’m older. Please hear me cry and my screaming soul, That only wants your devotion. I still love you beyond all reason, My tears could fill up an ocean. Now I’ll wait for you to come, To be by my side and see, If you don’t come soon I’ll be gone, And you’ll have everything but me. Please Come Ease my Pain


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Hush Baby

Sh, sh, close your eyes,
silent night broken by your painful cries.
Your heart is broken, I can tell;
it's okay, for mine is as well.
Don't ever wonder why or how,
just know mommy's with the angel's now.
The blood is nothing, mommy just fell,
there's something years from now I have to tell.
Mommy doesn't want you to be sad,
she'd want you happy, so please be glad.
She was a wonderful person, I'm sure you kow,
twenty is much too young to go.
You're also to young, only five,
I'm glad that at least you're alive.
C'mon baby, daddy's here,
we're all alone now, I fear.


Details | Free verse | |

SPam and Craig

"Proper Pam im-promiscuity carries a
tepid torch against the blank footlights
of a dimlit digital marital marquee---last on the 
billing of a car-null double featurette like
a black and white bijou plotless rerun
hand cranked by an arthritic arm;
pit pursuant of
quicksand lust with a gray gaze monotony
able to hitchhike from a plavce point left
only undetermined,
I've seen more action from a shoe sticky floor
or a large hole in an uncomfortable seat cushion,
not to "juxtapare"  mind me but what a
chronofile,   if briefcases  couldspeak and not the
numbers from the credit card diction-ary of child
desires---stratfied pleasures far from TILT
lean calmly on majestic inconsequentials--like
ships passing in the night.
a blue ribbon in a cud chewing contest


Details | Couplet | |

Our Love took flight

OUR LOVE TOOK FLIGHT
Written by: Catherine Reinke

Poems of others
I’ve read to you
of my love lost,
heartbreak and sorrow.

But to you
neglected, rejected
outstanding  and true,
this poem will 
not wait another tomorrow.

My  head and heart
were turned  from you,
our love steadfast, 
yet I was blue. 

My heart split in two.
One for he
And one for you.

In our bed
confused our heads
Is our love dead?

Who am I this aging soul,
lost in torment hells death door?

Graveyards simmer.
My life gets dimmer.
No more shimmer,
aged and thinner.

Sexless sinner.
Shut up!
Headache shouts
no more bed
nor sex to couch.
Ugly, ragged
haggard too
can not stand the sight of you.

Married bliss lost indeed, 
looking for a younger steed.
So are you… don’t deny,
Younger she, has caught your eye.

Once together we were wed.
Want no other in our bed.

On this day all has changed.
Wanting not you,
nor the same.

Hate you replaced 
love this night.
All our years of love
took flight.

Can not even converse blindly
Foul language curse and slimly.
You bitch from Hell,
 can’t stand your yell.

All from now 
from grace you fell
this I tell your soul to sell

Money maker made you from I.
Can not find our love, I sigh.

Dollars big green and tall
Dollars spent  in shopping malls.
So small feel I 
from love with held.
Once too many times I fell.

Fell from heaven to 
earth below.
Fell from love to hate now flow.

Alone not I, loveless whore.
spending money, legs closed door.

Heart warmth  not tender, 
frozen no hopeful  mender.
Send me, send me
Forgetful alcohol bender.

Drink me stupid 
cold and frigid.
Do not touch me
sorry so candid.

But you destroy 
all gentle in me.
Mean and spiteful,
bitch all three. 

Once a beauty prize for thee
until this garage wreck made me.

Throw me in trash belong.
Let me end my sad, sad song.
Life has passed me by this time,
another life make not of  slime.

Believe not then, this future dream. 
That love is other than it seams.
Needy, hungry passion pair
devils delight watch and stare.

Not at first you took your bite. 
So slowly steady, 
our love  took flight.
Out of sight.
Our weak love night.
No more love
Can I fight.


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Callous eyes

Callous 

Every tiny things matter in a young world, 
and then with callous eyes, he is used to pick
days and nights as they pass him, as they pass beyond.

Sometimes he panics, fears that she’ll go away 
and he won’t feel any ache, just be watching her
moving away, erasing; looking at the place
where she has been seen last; with covert anger.

A tiny butterfly flies, in and out, in and… 
the patch of rain raises smells, smells of musty dusk.
The callous eyes follow the hands clutching heart 
where past is blending in pains and agonies.  
=© 2009 - All Rights Reserved Kushal Poddar


Details | Free verse | |

The Other

I am afraid of these hallucinations 
the yarns, gurgles and names you drown-
sometimes let slip between chews of toast
Alas, your mouth is clever, it swallows what slithered out
revised replies squeezed out through teeth
concealed by gulps of coffee and dismissive laughs. 
I can see them on the sea-floor
the water is too clear 
I search for her anti-matter 
Under your tongue, nails and answers
her intersections and backdrops you scaled
where have you hidden her? 
I am capable of such self-torture
holding her picture, zoomed 
pixelated, extreme close up
in a coiling rope of curiosity
no greater hell than comparison
her folds and crevices and mine
did you notice that mole? 
picturing two tangling and unravelling silhouettes. 
familiar touch on an alien skin
I am worried that I will never find out
just betraying signs of distraction
a touch too brief, a reply too elusive
a truth too decisive.
No, don’t muddy the water
let it remain borderline
let me remain too
in the end, everything turns to poems
to dust, rust and oblivion.


Details | Quatrain | |

The Sordid Affair

There's money___then there's love
Looking back at him __desiring 
Brief encounters above
Husband's comments deriding

So handsome fire__home ice
Guilt, shame, remorse____desire
One last glimpse maybe twice
Marriage but children__can't transpire

Inner turmoil__wishing
Should I walk away now
Turn turn around running
We'll say the wedding's vow


Details | Epic | |

A Proposal

Your on one knee I take a breath Its hard to breathe I know whats coming The little black velvet box And your pose says it all I love you You love me But I'm promised to another And you know him quite well Your brother I love him He loves me I'm in love with him As he is with me As I am with you But me and your brother Our love is...promised Our promise is old and true Our promise won't be broken So I avoid your question And walk away You fallow me As we walk To our secret place


Details | Elegy | |

Marie III--Is the Coffin Too Deep

So frigid was her immaculate body Her last second in screams is all I can see Love's revenge was my guilt With you I'd rather let you die with Bound hands Without you, Marie, like the psychopath's dream Death is all that I can see; All that could redeem Did anyone ask Did anyone recall The sweet taste of the poison The swift slash of the knife he penetration of the lead The pain of her decaying heart I can hear it's bellowing cries But why can't you, Marie, Hear my paranoid eulogies Is the coffin too deep? Was it so hard to solve Was it so hard to see That I strangled her so easily My nails piercing her comely skin Blood dripping like the pomegranate I crushed with the shovel I shattered her shins The knife to slight her wrists Didn't you see I did it all The only witness Couldn't say Is the coffin too deep? The pain of her decaying hear tI can hear it's bellowing cries But why can't you, Marie, Hear my paranoid eulogies Is the coffin too deep? Marie I cant stay Earth is to cruel when your coffin is to deep Forever in death and in death alone The pain of her decaying heart I can hear it's bellowing cries But why can't you, Marie, Hear my paranoid eulogies Is the coffin too deep?


Details | Light Poetry | |

Loves Burden

Loves Burden

So strong of body, muscle defying steel
so Stoic of nature, head defying, what the heart might feel

So focused, the path, so well defined
so measured the steps, the ladders he's climbed

She smiled at him, the sun falling on ice
she held him in her arms, a heart skipped twice, thrice

She spoke to him, of mice and men
she changed the course, the best laid plans, of women

What could have been, maybe, maybe still can
what options remain, emprisoned in her plan

He often ponders, what might have been
he struggles with what if's, opportunities unseen

He sinks to lows, never thought of when
he was strong of will, he never needed to pretend

How did a life, go so far astray
how can the cost come due, each and every day

How far off course, how far from home
how can this love burden, one who is so alone.

(Stoic)


Details | Free verse | |

Fear

Wide eyes
Panic
lips hovering right below a scream
hair pulled into a fist
mouth covered
panicked eyes
wide
heart rattling
fear


Details | Rhyme | |

9/11, 2001 " Page 2 of 2 "

Intelligence first, Retribution next
Clinical response the worlds text
Which free country is next in line
To be hit by this cowardly crime.
 
New York Cities patriots, suffer further pain
As Fire Officers and Police are slain
They indeed are part of this attack
So many of them never came back
Honourable dads, cousins and wife's
Mourn their lost ones, who lost their lives.
 
The World will remember
This September deathly sound
When iconic giants crashed to the ground
Hero's in the air, and on Manhattan Earth
Proved to us all, whats humans are worth.

In respect to the decent people who perished on that September day.


Details | Free verse | |

Preach

Preach to the full moon soldier
It's all you've got left as the nights grow colder

Mother has child that father denies
Leaves when his baby lets out those first cries
Excuses flying, lies sailing; words without care
Feelings are complicated so share you don't dare
Lips that smile hold some bruises and a cut
Hands that have done the damage slam the door shut
You watch him out the window glass
Retreating figure gone at last

Preach to the full moon soldier
It's all you've got left as the nights grow colder

Things get harder, mothers fired
Baby is toddler and much too tired
Money is in short supply
If only father would just comply 
To help raise his growing kid
Instead he ran and lost his bid
A single tear stains the cheek
Of a mother's soul who's much too weak

Preach to the full moon soldier 
It's all you've got left as the nights grow colder

Mothers dead, everything's blown
Toddler is small child left alone
Father drunk, stumbling back
Custody left to this piece of slack
Days are long and too far gone
Nights are worse, he's never done
Talking his beer scented words speaking
He says to his child be kind, PREACHING

Preach to the full moon soldier 
It's all you've got left as the nights grow colder

Small child has developed
Distinguished individual moving up
Swearing to the sky blue
They will be nothing like you
Father in jail thief from the night
Cell lit dimly with pal moonlight
A smile to the grown child
A tear from the man of the wild

Preach to the full moon soldier
It's all you've got left as the nights grow colder


Details | Burlesque | |

Comfort, Southern Style

Below the Mason-Dixon line,
Where that is I am unsure...
There is one damn good
Southern tradition,
That I bet you know of...
I'm sure it does still endure...

Simple as Southern Comfort,
And cream soda...
My God, it is so smooth....
Goes down like a city whore,
Like my cousin, Twice removed...

You'll fly, you'll fly,
You won't know why,
And couldn't care
much less....
You'll even laugh
at hubby dear,
That jerk that's such a mess!

So, mix it up,
And knock it down,
Your day can
but improve....
And maybe if you're
really lucky,
Your husband,
the trash-man will
remove.

for u-know-who.


Details | Quatrain | |

DAMN

                                                         DAMN

I`m damned if I do,
And damned if I don`t,
In questions of will,
And questions of won`t.

Each time I try,
To converse with him,
He misunderstands,
And patience wears thin.

Although I agree,
With his views on most things,
He questions my feelings,
Because I don`t bring,

A host of these matters,
To discuss and debate,
To the table with him,
And sit and relate,

Deep matters of course,
On religion and such,
Political views,
And the law over much,

Because I`m so tired,
Of listening to him,
As he groans and bemoans,
How the future looks grim.

I want to talk,
About happier things,
That don`t cause you worry,
Things that don`t bring,

All manner of problems,
To weigh on your mind,
So your life becomes burdoned,
And time just a grind;

So now I avoid him,
As most others do,
And he can`t understand,
Why his friends are so few,

And even his wife,
Takes her leave to go hide,
Because he`s so tiresome,
She needs to confide,

In someone more easy,
On her poor strained nerves;
No boyfriend or lover,
Just someone who serves,

A someone to lean on,
Just one true friend,
In whom to confide,
When her patience wears thin.

                                        Judy Ball

Some things that aren`t happy are important and need to be discussed but a steady diet of it morning, noon and night is a bit over much.
It starts to weigh on a person`s mind and they need a break from it.
Especially if you talk about it even during dinneer. 
That knots the stomach and you can`t eat let alone digest your food.
A little light conversation is necessary too.



Details | Lyric | |

Blood of a liar, mark of a thief

You took it all
(I held my breath)
You screamed my name
(as you fell to your death)
The crowed gathered round
but I stood tall
with your body laying so broken
you've never looked so small

The rain started pouring down
(oh how I smiled)
There were sirens in the distance
(only a half a mile)
Down below the screaming sounds
I can't hear a thing
everyone's gaze is upon me
waiting for the once caged bird to sing

(Liar)
You promised me everything
did your words mean nothing
were they empty
lifeless without a theme
(Thief)
You took hold of my heart
shredded my soul, raped my mind
did it mean anything
was I even worth it
ir just another part to your scheme

The rain washes away the evidence
(the blood, sweat, and tears)
But rain can't wash away everythng
(no, not everything)
not the pain suffered through the years

Your words were so sweet
who was I to judge
I fell for your parlor tricks
over the edge with one small nudge
Such a beautiful disguise you wore
silly little me
I fell into your web of lies
far too young to ever see

(Liar)
You promised me everything
did your words mean nothing
were they empty
lifeless without a theme
(Thief)
You took hold of my heart
shredded my soul, raped my mind
did it mean anything
was I even worth it
ir just another part to your scheme

You could have been mine
(does it hurt now, hush, be quiet now)
You sold your soul for a good time
(does it hurt now, hush, don't speak now)
Did you think I'd never know?
(does it hurt now, does it hurt now)
Now you must reap the crop you've sewn

(Liar)
You promised me everything
did your words mean nothing
were they empty
lifeless without a theme
(Thief)
You took hold of my heart
shredded my soul, raped my mind
did it mean anything
was I even worth it
ir just another part to your scheme

(Liar)
You had such a pretty little plan
(Thief)
Carried out by such a careless little man


Details | I do not know? | |

Pride and prejudice

Huddled inside his feathery frame, basking in his mellowing warmth, behind the horizon the sun rose and dawn came, and the dove awoke with fright and alarm. She had to fly for none must know, that her heart's with the raven. And she flew leaving her heart behind, only to wear a mask among her own kind. She played along as they tweeted with voices loud, their diction coated with malice and disdain.. She could do nothing but to their every word bow, while her tender heart bled and pained. Tangled in their rusted chain, she waited till the first star spawned. Bidding goodbye with a smile that she feigned, she wound the clock to the time before morn. As the sun crept to the other side, the dove lost herself in his love so wide. With their body and soul now entwined, they made love, when everything was so beautiful and fine.


Details | I do not know? | |

Pulling the legs off Ants

The trouble with small minded, self-centred bigots, is the inability to see the truth of the wider 
universe, the one that doesn’t revolve around their pathetic little selves

To be so afraid of the reality of the world that they have to hide behind the so called “power” of 
their bitter words and twisted minds

to live a life in constant fear of the unknown, fear of other cultures, sexual preferences, hell even 
poetry is scary for the small minded as they don’t understand it, so it must be feared and hated, 
just like the blacks are hated, the gays are hated, and the “towel heads” are hated, and anyone 
with a different point of view are hated

The inability to understand that others see the world in a much more beautiful light and can see 
the truth in other people’s feelings and views

The world is full of beautiful people, all willing to share and enjoy others views, cultures and 
generosity of soul

what terrible shallow lives to lead, that the beauty of other minds has to be shackled for them to 
enjoy their feeble little selves, how great a victory, to trap such beautiful souls merely to satisfy 
their own selfish needs, to feel pride in watching one more shining beacon of beauty extinguished, 
leaving the world darker, bringing it ever closer to their dark little twisted minds

It just reminds me of the nasty little spoilt child pulling the legs off an ant for the fun of it

For all the sweet souls trapped in a prison of hatred and fear
Written for a female friend who survived twenty five years of this kind of marriage


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9/11, 2001 " Page 1 of 2 "

9/11, 2001
Tuesday morning when it all began
Four Jet Airliners 
Hi-jacked at will
To fly their mission
To kill, blood spill
 
Target chosen
New York City
No questions asked
No pity
 
Internal flight
Laid-en with fuel
Turned off course
To the Hi-jackers rule
Islamist, al-Qaeda is the name they claim
What honest faith
Would want this fame
To take these lives on this September day
It's not what religion should portray
 
Nineteen jackers, whats on their minds
To do their deed on their own mankind
No scriptures, books of the olden day
Would let any brother, be slain this way
What battle would be, without seeing your killers eyes
This nineteen, the world despise
 
Our modern world on camera caught
Jet Airliners flying the next so fraught
North Tower hit by flight 11
Then the South by flight 175
All aboard the planes, would not survive
Many compatriots would also die.
To this day i wonder why?
 
CNN and TV crew's 
Capture, man's cruelty to man
It makes you spew
The cowards that commandeered these planes
Are not religious, plainly insane
 
To be on the ground and look above
Two Manhattan giants
New Yorkers grew to love
Taken down by evil beings
They can't believe what they are seeing

Two explosions in just under an hour
Office life is about to shower
Paper and life fall to the ground
Silenced grief makes no sound
To New York City, that never sleeps
In a state of mourning that will presently weep
 
We hear on the news, Washington's been hit
The Pentagon, yea that's it
One of the four, also has it's say
On this dark September day

In Pennsylvania
The fourth still in flight
Passengers on board
Try with all their might
Overcome the scum 
Who hi-jacked their plane
The next hour would never be the same
 
Somerset County is where she fell
These brave civilians,
As calls will tell
To try and claim the plane that's theirs
So suppress those infidel curs>


Details | ABC | |

Baby???

Baby, it's rainin
I've gone out 
and put myself 
in the rain
what do you think
think of this thunder
you scared?
not me
I put it around my neck
put it where it should be
but I would really
I would really like it
If you would come
and
and just get me
ok, I'm scared and hungry
mostly scared
come get me
Baby???


Details | Free verse | |

MoonBee's Madrigal

Oh... Oh... Come Into The Moon Light …
        And Dance With Me Tonight
I’ve Pink Champagne, Lit FirePlace Flame 
        And The Stars Are Twinkling Bright
I’ve Put On Your Favorite Dinner and Rose Dress
        For Your Delight
Ooooh, Come Into The Moon Light …
        And Dance With Me Tonight

Heeeey, Honey, What Happened To The Lights?
        You Paid The Bill … Alright?
Bring Me A Beer and That Remote Here
        The Cowboys Play Tonight !
Why’s The Table Set… We Got Guests?
         Is That Dress A Little Tight? ……
              * *///// # # ////\\
I Don’t Know Sam… She Just Picked A Fight !
Hauled-Off and Hit Me… With All… Her… MoonBee…  M i g h t  !


Details | I do not know? | |

how can i drive if i can't keep my eyes off the sky

Soul surrender, each reach opaque, gathered incomplete gain; all willingly given for millisecond sight of sky as was eons ago, day guide towards monolith riseth ten thousand kilometers.  Crowned temple as arches multiply and vie for attention by exhale ever so slightly to glorify manifestation of timid illusion, glue to stone seat stare blank blue hue blink.  Envision outside Smith’s grocery store, poisonous pack concealed in cellophane wrap pounded upon palm to situate tobacco properly.  Corner clarity bare witness stretched weathered skin fallen upon weary bones, a dusty duet walk, pull trigger in longing serenity lapse moments as weak, draped in silence.  Half hunched over little time prior to cruel muse grip.  Left of man lurches ahead in front, near dry woman cuts right.  Woman cries out, “the car is over here,” in crackling strained voice.  Shout carries in breeze to hearing aid.  Man halts, confusion infection injects sense, fifteen yards distance but reluctantly switches direction to join other shortly.  He speaks.  “I knew that,” quip in deep toned disbelief by woman who vocalizes doubt.  “No you didn’t, not to mention you’ve been doing that a lot lately.”  Adjacent to one another couple takes gravel path to vehicle, twenty-two car crash inevitable seconds later.  
Life is but a dream.  When you die, you wake.  Stay asleep, eternity creep close, potential outcome grows to singular eventuality.  Law obsolete, physics but self, capability extends hallucinations, and being hinder significant beauty wither.  
When stop, smile.


Details | Free verse | |

You Laughed

Laughter should be sweet.
A joyful moment to share.
Now I hear you laughter,
and it's a sign of what was to come.

I thought that we would finally be,
our passion had come,
thought we had our moment,
our touch had begun.

Gently yet so passionate,
it seemed the perfect time,
whisper to you let's go,
so much more to do.

You laughed when I proposed this,
didn't even care,
didn't see my heart break,
or how our love found it's first tear.

This was the beginning of the end,
showing nothing was there.
The first reminder of many,
you just didn't care.

I fell asleep next to you,
felt so rejected,
just wanted to feel your touch,
instead I had to feel my own.

It should have been more,
there should have been a way,
I just wanted to be held by you,
accepted once again.

Every night became a chore,
a reminder of what we were,
our marriage was a lie now,
a shell and nothing more.

I tried to find an answer,
you just ignored me,
it was just a simple request,
yet I was left wanting.

As days turned into months,
I no longer felt obliged,
nothing kept me faithful,
I had no need for you.

I strayed into my own world,
sleeping all alone,
finding my own solace,
a new world to call my own.

If you would have listened to me,
laughter would have been our joy,
instead we're both heartbroken,
and it started with a laugh.


Details | Free verse | |

Going or Gone

The fiery passion once in you
Now but smoldering ash.
The words you say seem so forced.
Have I already become excess baggage?
What have I done to cool you down so quickly?
I know that I'm not perfect.
I never claimed to be.
Am I really as awful as you tell your friends?
I'm the target of all your cruel remarks.
Is that all I am to you now?
Once we shared a marriage few have ever seen,
Now it's a comedy where only you can laugh.
If you could hear my thoughts,
I know you would explode.
I can already hear the hurtful words
Coming from your lips.
I pretend I don't know why things have changed.
You tell me how lucky I am,
You could do so much better than me.
I wish I could see how much longer this will last.
One way or the other time is running out.


Details | Quatrain | |

Achilles Abides

Watching mundane seconds tick away
Linked together they form passing years
This flimsy chain around my neck does not betray
Nor can my stinging eyes squeeze back the tears

Dreams begin to float out of my reach
Tormented by what makes me so distressed
Losing many of my hopes I feel besieged
Yet still reflecting on the way my life is blessed

The silence puzzles me and pierces with its thunder
The foundation bucks the shaking of its core
What God has joined together no man puts asunder
The waves are beating hard upon our shores

Weary eyes look towards damp clouds and search for light
Desperate to feel some warmth deep within my bones
Will its brilliant glow supplant the bluish night
Giving a sneak peek into the great unknown

Chasing those rainbows now seems like wasted time
The pot of gold was a seductive ruse of lead
Perhaps we were just lonely partners in crime
Caught up in reveries we thought surely lied ahead

Waiting for the stars to fall into my hands
To turn this to profound from the surreal
Nobody but the stars can understand
That I’ll fall victim to my poor Achilles heel


Details | I do not know? | |

Princess

The Princess in her tower tall
With oaken door and granite wall
Sat sobbing at the window high
“Will someone save me” she did sigh
“Fear not young maid,“ a voice did shout
“For I am here, to get you out;
I have a cunning plan, so sly
To free you from your tower high
I’ll dress as does a man who’s poor
Then knock upon the outer door
And when the guard doth then unlock
I’ll beat his head in with this rock”
“Kind Prince” she said from up above
“You’re someone, I could truly love
But your attempt will be in vain
To rescue me you’ll need a crane
Although your planning may seem sound
I weigh three hundred and twenty pounds” 
The prince then pondered hard and long
And wondered where he’d gone so wrong
He yearned to be a Royal hubby
But not to one who’s quite so chubby.


 © John W Fenn   03-12-2008


Details | Rhyme | |

Cyber Cheater

Cyber Cheater 

You are my cheating heart.
Passing me by from the start.

I feel desolate and broken in two.
Scarred for life, my heart hangs askew…

What have I done for you to leave?
I thought you loved me I wanted to believe..

I drift into hopelessness, feeling empty inside.
I take on my life in a dismal stride…

Longing, seeking; where do I stand?
Wondering and walking in the mind’s wasteland.

Do you still want me or that someone other?
The one that steals love, that one the shyster?

My heart was owned once upon a history..
Completely, absolute, in sublime stupidity.


Details | Dodoitsu | |

Empty Wishes

Sink full of broken dishes
Have you back fills my wishes
To again be my Mrs.
Mug of fish swishes


Details | Limerick | |

Needle in the Hay

I get up at the break of day
Determined to have my way
But I’m just a man
Married men understand
That’s like finding a needle in hay

She starts out all happy and gay
But I know that soon something I say
Will make her turn moody
Do you think I’ll get booty
That’s like finding a needle in hay

If I treat her just right, I may
If not she will simply say nay
Finding words that are right
Before bedtime tonight
That’s like finding a needle in hay

Guys, you all know what they say
Where there’s a will there’s a way
Am I willing – you bet
But my chance I regret
That’s like finding a needle in hay

Mdailey	3/7/12




Details | Rhyme | |

Forget Me Not

I cried a tear
Or two today
While I packed
Your things away
I carefully placed 
Each piece in a box
As not to break
Forget me nots
Pictures we took
Memories we made
Side by side
Together they laid
I stood there for
A minute or two
Gently whispered
"I love you"
Then I placed the lid
On the box
As I promised
To forget you not


Details | I do not know? | |

Becoming Of The Banshee

There was a beautiful girl
Who had the whole world at her feet
But then she did meet
The man of her dreams
He was as kind and gentle as he seemed

Very soon they were married
The couple beamed
They were so happy
She called his family her own
That's how close they had grown
Man and wife bought a house
They soon called home

But fate, as it is known
Has ways of rearing its ugly head
And it seems that these two
Were due their share
Of bad luck

The husband was struck down
With a terrible illness
And soon he was dead
As she sat by his bed
The girl was filled with dread
Her husband was gone but
There was so much left unsaid

As the girl wept
Something inside her crept
And suddenly she let out an inhumane howl
A noise that most people would call fowl

The nurse who looked after her husband scowled in disapproval
And sent for immediate removal
The girl soon died of a broken heart
But that wasn't the end
It was just the start

She loved his family with all her heart
So after she died
She would cry and wail
Without fail
For any member who passed away
And she is still with that family to this very day
For she was the very first banshee



Details | Light Poetry | |

Howdy, Partner!

Howdy, Partner,
Y'all seem cool!!
Hey, Bar-Keep...
Where is my stool?

I'm here to drink,
The joys of life,
I finally left,
My cheatin' wife

A round for the house!!
Another after that!!
This is where,
I'll hang my hat!!

The be-itch is gone,
She done run away!
And for me,
It's Liberation Day!

Who left who,
I'm not too sure,
All I know is,
I'm done with that whore!


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Civilized Man

She used to blame herself.
Perhaps it was her fault anyway.
She swims in the lies his lips tell
Forced by obligations, to hide her pain.

She spends her nights missing him
Knowing he is far from lonely.
Wrapped in these bitter emotions
That are snuffing out her dignity.

Before now, she never would have strayed.
She was once loyal and happy to serve
But now he refused to love, honor and obey
and she finally struck up the nerve.

She smiled back at the lonely stranger
She recognized her own grief in his eyes.
He came in on them but she felt no danger
She scoffed “Are you really surprised?”

“Countless nights you left me here
While you received yours from her
I gave you the best of my years
Yet you never cared if I got hurt.”

“I’ve known about you and her for months
I had blamed myself until I knew for sure
You made your feelings for me quite blunt
So I found him for me and you may have her.”

His heart shattered into pieces inside him
As he realized that this woman was everything.
He panicked at a future that looked lonesome and grim
He fell to his knees and swore “Never again!”

But she turned eyes on him with no pity
And through them he could plainly see
The pain he had caused by his selfish greed.
Turned her compassion unforgiving.

He blinked as she locked him out of a home
He had spent so much time sneaking away from
And through their open window, he heard her moan
“How far the civilized man has come.”


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No Color or Relgion, Ever Stopped a Bullet from a Gun

I heard on the news
Another two are lost
That makes 206
Is there, a whatever the cost
 
We are there to assist
A country so reft
Inner fighting
To help the rest of the left
 
Guerrilla warfare
Tactically strong
Thousands of miles
Where we don't belong
 
The people we vote in
Would they go in their place
To show their people
Dying is no disgrace
 
I will never allow
My children to fight
A war so improper
A conflict not right
 
To show our presence
As we parade their land
A remote explosion
Blown up on demand
 
How can we serve
A regime so unfair
They can starve their women
Because he can't have her there
 
To fight for their freedom
As they fight themselves
The decision should be made
To save ourselves
 
The Russians failed
So now we try
Coalition troops
In daily die
 
The modern wars
Will always be run
No color or religion
Ever stopped a bullet from a gun



http://www.thehighlanderspoems.com/war.php


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Teardrops of War and Pain

Teardrops dropping,
My heart nearly stopping,
When you left me standing here,
You said "Goodbye, my sweet dear."

I asked for you to stay,
If not for another year, then perhaps one more day.
You looked me in the eyes,
And said "This may be our last goodbyes."

You kissed me with tenderness,
As if this may be our last, final kiss.
Ours lips parting,
The situation hardening.

As I said "I love you so,
I don't want you to go",
Pulled up a sandy, monstrous truck,
Alerted to shoot, but not at a duck.

I saw such pain in your eyes,
When we told one another of our love, and then goodbye's.

I'll never forget what happened that day;
I can't sleep at night, so I walk to the bay.
The bay is so full of our love,
The one thing that accompanies me is a dove.

I cry teardrops of war and pain,
To only know of what I lost, but will never again gain.
I hope for you to come back home,
Until I find out that I have to find a silent, cement dome.

Everyday and every night,
The pain is too much to bear to eat even a bite,
As I sit here at the eating table,
I'll admit, I don't think, anytime soon, I'll be stable.

The pain is too much to take,
I'm dying of this terrible heart ache.

I cry so many teardrops of war and pain,
That I think I'll never, again be sane.


Details | Rhyme | |

Coming Back From Afghanistan

Coming Back From Afghanistan

He's rushing back,
running to make it there 
as fast as he can.

Little does he know his 
relationship is in no mans land,
his wife's be screwing 
everything she can
since he went to Afghanistan.

She's been racking up as much debt
as she was able to 
fuel her craving for attention
what the hell, gone is her husband.

Poor guy little does he know, he's running
to the slaughter this former desert lamb.

Life might have been 
easier in Afghanistan!


Details | Dramatic monologue | |

I Told You Last Night

I told you last night
The words I said were cold
I told you I didn’t love you
Won’t be with you when you’re old

I won’t be there when your first is born
It won’t be mine; I know you’re torn

I won’t be there when you fall in love
It won’t be with me...this is so tough
I won’t be there when you get home
I’ll be somewhere else...hope you’re not alone

I won’t be there when you decide what to do
I won’t make your decision now it’s all up to you

I won’t be there to help you with what you need
You’ll figure it out you won’t need me
You won’t be there when I cry
Because I won’t tell you....I will just lie

You won’t be there when I need a kiss
Because I am changing from Mrs. to Miss

You won’t be there if my heart breaks again
I’ll just have to tell a friend
You won’t be there when I rise or fall
Because you can’t reach me can’t even call

Yet it breaks me...I feel relieved....let you go I can finally be me


Details | Free verse | |

his memories

walking beside me

his hand in mine

he  touches my soul

again and again

longing to be held

I reach out to him

his memories remain




Details | I do not know? | |

Not Forever

I know that you’re gone now, Hun
But there’s something I have to 
Get off my chest;
Your memories are scattered throughout my house
And many nights now, I’ve sat with no rest.
Our family hold strong as you have left
And my heart still beats in time with yoursw.

I know you left without a fuss
Glad to be gone
Of the pain 
Trying to live,
Laying there, struggling with no gain.

Now is goodbye, but it’s not forever.
We will see each other again
And laugh and smile over our
Treasured Memories.


Details | Free verse | |

It's Nothing

It's Nothing
       by Amy Swanson   12/2008


Lost in my thoughts
     you ask me
            what's wrong

    (I hate that question)

I smile and say "It's nothing"
     but really it's something...

                The sum of far too many nothings
                      that sometimes knock
                               on my spirit's door.

Totality of all the
    grandly glaring
         loudly unsaid things


            that build the wall

             (we hide behind)

            that is between us.


Memories of hurt
   that you don't even see
       or maybe you refuse to see.

Memories of hurt
   I've tried to erase
       but like a stubborn stain
           they will not go away

So many things 
that should be said
between you and I...

but never are.

A simple question
  is precursor
    to
           loneliness
              emptiness
                   misunderstanding

And so...
    when you ask,
           I know just what to say.


It's nothing.


Time has taught
     that telling you
            my fears
                 my worries

only cause an angry hurt between us.

And so...
     I simply leave it
                  unstated.

It's nothing.

But there are times
when all these things
come crashing into me

         (so strong)

like waves descending violently
upon some far away, sandy shore

Why won't you see?
     Why do you refuse to see?


But 
in time
the pain subsides,
retreating to the furthest 
corners of my mind, my soul
waiting for the time
when they will 
surface yet 
again.


Never mind me.

     Everything is fine.

         I'm just lost in my thoughts...

               Really.


It's nothing.


Details | Ballad | |

Freddy The Fly Takes a Bride

Freddy the Fly,
Now back from the moon,
Noticed on his calendar,
That it was now June...

The wedding month,
thought our dear Freddy,
But a fly has a short life,
So then, before I'm dead,
I gotta' find a fly-wife!!

So Freddy flew
all abouts the world
Searching for,
the perfect fly-girl

Finally he was rewarded,
When Nicole Fly he did meet,
He got so excited,
He stepped on her fly-feet

But the attraction seemed mutual,
Like a fly to horse manure,
But when they did converse,
They both were very sure,

Freddy proposed his 
fly matrimonial hope,
Nicole said yes, let's
go elope....

But a wise Freddy the fly,
Did look her in the eye,
He knew she'd someday
regret,
Such a simple way to beget,

So he told her of his plan,
For the biggest fly-wedding
in all the land,

The solemn day came real quick,
A Sunday wedding, they did pick
And as it did unfold,
This story I was told,
He'd waited for her hand to hold,
To place on her fly-hand the ring gold,

Dressed in his little fly-tux,
Fly guests tried to hold their yucks,
And Nicole, in her fly gown,
Flew about, then up, then down,

To land on the fly-alter,
Not for a fly minute did she falter,
Said, "Yes, Fly Priest, I do!!...
And if's all the same to you.....
Would you get off my fly wedding cake,
It took so long for the fly-baker to make"

And Freddy's anxious to leave at once,
On a fly honeymoon, for sure,
But, alas, I almost forgot-
No "moon" in the honeymoon- no more!

For Freddy had eatten the romantic moon,
It tasted like sh_t, and it did ruin,
The moonlight for kissing was there no more,
So to fly-sleep they went,
and soon began to fly-snore.....

Now a Freddy Fly's snore is an event to behold,
At least as a fly-story, we've been told
Nicole , she couldn't sleep
As Freddy fly-snored deep,
She flew off and let the fly groom,
Wake up next fly-day to fly-gloom!


Details | Ballad | |

Marie II-- Troubled Tides

Wake up with a dream on your eyes left with the hearts that bid you Goodbye Shadow Dreamer-- Poisoned Lover Venom seeps through the Way The Way you held on to Me There's a Thorn in your Heart I left it there so the dreams and your pain shall unfold Inside you and all of your Lithium Lovers You're my lover, My Dear The Greatest Enemy I had to Contend pretending with "I Love You" but I know you Hate me till Hell's End Is it in Vain? You Sleep with the hate How can you dodge the fate? You let the Dagger dance on your Tongue You are my beloved Enemy Marie


Details | Free verse | |

Compeyson

We were perfect together
Inseparable
Night and day
Two blackened petals of the amaranth
Wizened, rotted, but eternal

A white angel, a waxwork skeleton
Gliding up the road
Towards the wedding knell
And by the altar 
Before the eyes of God
A letter, with your scrawled apology across it.

Rushing to the phone now
Dialling your number with spinster’s fingers
I cry
Don’t leave me

“The number you are calling no longer exists”

Then I remember
You faded long ago
The dress has yellowed
The clocks have stopped
The feast has rotted

I’m talking to myself.


Details | Free verse | |

Longest summer of my life

Its been too long;
I NEED to feel your arms around me,
Your fingers tagled with mine,
My lips on yours,
Your hand in my hair.
I dont ever want to leave
Your cherished embrace;
Im so happy and complete
When Im with you
I feel so alive;
You make me forget everything
But you
For a few precious hours.
I miss those nights
I want them back
I miss you so much.


Details | Acrostic | |

Marriage, True Love

M ind games 
A bandonment by you 
R eap what you sow 
R age against you
I nsane fighting
A nger like you've never seen
G irlfriends on the side
E rratic behavior


T ormented on a daily basis
R ighteous Indignation
U nfaithful too many times to count
E ndless tears streaming down my face

L ies so eccentric only a fool would buy it
O bstinate are we both
V ile names you call me
E vil is what you are


Details | Couplet | |

Friends And Lovers, Lies And Alibis

His friendship was the one I held dear.
He said he was the one I never had to fear.

The two years we were together before we were wed,
Were not so bad, truth be said.

Then one day out of the blue,
He was no longer the man I knew!

Our nights and days of wedded bliss,
Soon turned into hatred and a distained abyss.

His anger and cruel, nasty rage
Kept me wrapped in a fearful cage.

Each day and night kept me wrapped tight.
Fear of anything done or said, would soon end in a fight!

Too many stories and ruses,
To cover the many black eyes and numerous bruises.

I grew tired of telling so many lies,
To cover for all your abuses and give you your alibis.

I will no longer cover for you!
I am tired of being black and blue!

So many nights of terror and confusion.
Once what was love is now just an illusion.

So many many sins and uncare
Will never be forgotten! How unfair!

Now that love and friendship is lost. 
It went from me at a great cost.

After numerous times of him landing in jail,
I have decided it is time for me to bail!

An act, I know, that just seems so unfair,
but right now I just don't care.

My sanity was at stake.
So for it how could I forsake?

Now a new love has entered my life.
Eradicating all that angst and strife.

Each day is precious and new, 
There are still days that I am oh so blue.

Who knows where this new love will go?
Who's to say? I do not know.

For now, will take it one day at a time.
Who knew in a friend a lover I would find.





Details | Couplet | |

What Is Wrong With Me?

There is something wrong about me.
I know there is, it just has to be.

Why else would I be tortured so?
Why else would I be so low?

My children were ripped from arms,
For  fear I would do them some terrible harm.

Married not once, not twice, can we say three?
All  were not terribly nice men to me.

First husband was a mean drunk,
I left him soon after as we were sunk.

My second husband was a cheat,
And the third thought I was his to beat.

I know God really truly exists,
I am just far down on his list.

I have grown oh so weary
Of my life just being dreary.

I, for once, want to know I matter.
Am tired of being torn to tatter.

It just seems that I am always full of woe.
Will my troubles ever really go?

Will I ever be loved, really?
Will I be loved as I have loved so freely?


Details | Rhyme | |

Commitment

These are my letters to you   O Beloved
how else can I make you see
these are all I have to send you
when you aren't here with me
 
I want to wrap my arms around you
lay your head unto my breast
capture all your falling tears
and in my heart to take your rest
 
Want to share all my emotions
right down to the smallest thought
retire with you when there is night
daily rise with the sun our lot
 
All the things I want to tell you
if I could these words make speech
but if you can't understand me
they'll not your heart to able reach
 
I want to hear your voice again
for it is pleasant to my ears
within its sound is music
always soothing to all my fears
 
I think this is the kind of life
what we call God would want for you
but nothing like this can reach your heart
unless you also want it too
 
You can close your heart and walk away
but I hope you'll see and not forget
that to share your life in every way
a devotion you could not regret
 
 
COPYRIGHT © 2012 C. Michael Miller
via Duboff Law Group LLC


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Affliction

Just when I think I'm over you, 
 you call and say "Baby, I need you in my life."
My chest tightens and I start to panic, 
 you say things that make me want to stay your wife.

It's not fair that you can do this to me, 
 you push me away, then try to pull me back.
Things are good with us for a while, 
 then you show me the conscience that you lack.

We seem to go right back to you being malevolent, 
 cussing me out, false accusations, and calling me names.
Causing me heartache, and toying with my emotions, 
 the way you're feigning, you should be ashamed.

You say "Remember our times.", 
 however I don't think of what you mean.
I "remember" when you cheated, lied, and stole.
 I "remember" that all wasn't serene.

My heart can not take all the sorrow
 you continuously put it through.
Those three magic words of "I love you", 
 doesn't erase all the misery my soul accrued. 

I'm not a book that you can can take down, 
 and use, then put away whenever you please.
I won't tell you it's okay to treat me this way, 
 so your bruised ego can be appeased. 

Learn to treasure me for what I am, 
 a loving person who has feelings.
Because every time you play these games, 
 it's a piece of my spirit you are stealing.


Details | Couplet | |

I Finally See

Why must you put me through this agony and pain?
Your attempts for reconciliation are all in vain.

Why should I stay married to you?
All you did was make me black and blue.

Why keep telling your lies so vile?
Do you think that we will swallow your bile?

Maybe your mother certainly will,
But I will not swallow that bitter pill.

I have finally lost our bet,
For you see I wish we had never met.

You are nothing more to me,
The light I do now finally see.

I do not want that way of life.
In my heart I am no longer your wife.

Even though our union is still legal,
I leave you with grace and regal.

I want an easy and quick divorce,
However I am afraid that is not our course.

What ever will be shall be.
From you, all I want is to be free.






Details | Couplet | |

motivation for women

Her man was not worth crying for.
She never shed a tear.
She showed him just how tough she was,
and she showed him she didn't care.
He was nothing but deceiving,
He was taking and receiving, 
He was leaving her promises embedded in gold, 
And she had believed all the lies he told.
He was nothing but a baby,
With his jealousy and rage,
He revealed to her his true colors of a violent tendency. 
He wanted a mother for a wife,
She tried her best to impress.
His feelings of frustration did occur,
When his violence was unleashed upon her,
He put his last toe out of the line,
And that’s when she knew, everything would be fine,
As she finally threw him out of her life…


Details | Free verse | |

Alone

--------------------------------------------------------------------------------
 
Through the night
lying beside him,
watching him sleep.
Suddenly aware-
my breaths match his.
Who is this man-
I don't know.
Not the man I fell 
in love with years ago.
But who am I now?
no great beauty to bestow
nor the girl once 
on skid row.
Yet how much better 
is my life?
Serving my master
under his spell,
where do I stand-
not far from hell.
Longing to get away
yet terrified.
I'd never make it on my own.
So here I stay
Through the night-
lying beside him,
watching him sleep;
alone. 


Details | Free verse | |

The Hardest Question

Why?

Thats the hardest question.

When is easier. It was after.

After the baby, cacooned safely

inside of me. After she died. 

 

Why?

Again its too hard.

Who is easier. It was him.

He who promised to love me,

for better and for worse.

 

Why? 

That question's too difficult

Where is easier. In our room.

Our room with the cot in the 

corner. It was for her.

 

Why? 

Is still don't know.

What is easier. It was a knife.

A knife which slit, cut and stabbed

at my throat and stomach.


Why?

I can't remember! 

How is easier. With a casual

indifference. The anger had 

dissapeared.

 

Why?

Because of me. Because I killed

our baby girl. Not born, never born.

The pills had taken her. 

Like he took me.


Details | Lyric | |

To Have and To Hold

To have and to hold
Your Love's grown cold
In sickness and in health
'Cuz there was never any wealth
Why do we even try
Why do we even try

All it is is heart break
Only a momentary Love shake
Faking every cuddle and kiss
Missing the things we didnt want to miss
Too young, too old
That's the age old fold
Our lives going down in a spin
Is this where we were meant to begin

To have and to hold
Your Love's grown cold
In sickness and in health"
'Cuz there was never any wealth
Why do we even try
Why do we even try

Cant help someone who doesnt want help
Cant cure someone who doesnt want to be cured
Cant revive someone who doesnt want to live

Your life is alone, your life is alone, your life is alone, your life is alone, your life is 
alone

You are empty

To have and [NOT] to hold
Your Loves grown cold
In sickness[ALWAYS] and in health
'Cuz there was never any wealth
[GOD] Why do we even try
Why do we even try[GOD]


Details | Ballade | |

Under His Reign

You left, just up and disappeared
You move away when I tried to get near
You wore the dark glasses all the while
You never once flashed me a smile
I wondered what color were your eyes
Was all you told me a bunch of lies
Then yesterday I read the paper and got the news
You were arrested for the murder of your husband, your eyes were black and blue
Maybe you tried to tell me, but I didn't listen
You never smiled from the teeth you were missing
I read where you said he will never beat me again, no more pain
I am no longer under his reign
I go to visit you as my tears stream down
You tell me for what I did I now reign myself with a thorny crown
I went through one broke arm, he promised he would never hurt me again
The following week a concussion, he promised it would end
He said as he punched me in the nose, that I must be trained
I am his wife and under his reign
Last night there was a revolt, no more, I am not his property to claim
Where he is going, he will not reign


Details | Free verse | |

Metamorphosis

Illuminating purity
Radiating a luminous shine
Capturing the hearts
Of spectators
Leaving delicate imprints behind

Tainted love
Darkens the light
Histrionic superiority
Suffocates the rebuttal
Injustice reigns so arrogantly
Defiantly removing my security

Mirror reflecting 
Secret sins from the past
No clemency
No compassion
Just eternal damnation
In your kingdom

Though pieces of my soul 
Are dying every waking hour
Here I remain
Imprisoned in Stockholm 
Worshipping my captor

Erased from existence
Reminiscence only a tribute
To a dream that died long ago
Roaming the cemetery
To find myself again
Suicidal blindness
Living for a fairytale
That is dead 
Metamorphosis in Sweden
Means I am no more



©  2008 Courtney Dyer


Details | Rhyme | |

Blood on Emeralds

The blood of Emeralds
In Northern Ireland's streets
Where sides detest
Victims they seek
 
Religious divide
Neighbours slain
For the life of me
What to gain
 
These troubled times
Historic sores
Deep rooted pasts
Now to the fore
 
IRA
UDA
Many guns came out to play
Both sides fell, as they murderously slay
During the week, even Sundays
 
The Belfast agreement of 1998
This Land of Emeralds, in peaceful state
Neighbours safe to talk again
Never allow the blood, on the Emeralds stain

" Dedicated to all Ireland - The Emerald Isle "


Details | Free verse | |

Box Without a Key

Box Without a Key


You scuttle in darkness, avoiding
the light of everyday living.
Fed by your mistress, the needle,
and I am unforgiving.

Could not battle her 
siren call, could not send her away.
Only times you were happy
was when she came out to play.

Worked with you, 
helped you find light,
but you preferred the
hidden darkness of night.

When the last bone was broken,
the last word said,
I rode the freedom bus
and pretended you are dead.

Hope is a cancer
eating me from inside out,
filling my mind with ideas,
trying to erase my doubt.

For now I keep you locked away
in a box with no key,
praying in the darkness
that one day I may set you free.


Details | Free verse | |

Hammer

Fists smashed my bones
Words gouged my heart

Never saw a hammer
hard as a word?

Hard as a hammer on my soul

Bones broke
They healed crooked

but they healed

Heart just withered up
and turned to ashes

Refuses to beat, wants
to be scattered on the sea

like the ashes of some
mariner of oldy times

Shot me
in my ankle, the one

that aches today like
fire I can’t put out

Biggest, meanest weapon
he held on me

the word, goodbye


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Daily Dose

Daily dose of nothing
On the TV screen
I feel the sickness rise inside of me
With each passing image I see

Show after show
About nothing at all
Other people's problems
Nowhere to go

Dr. Phil will fix your marriage
Maury will find your baby's daddy
Here's your fifteen minutes of fame
Put on your makeup and get ready

Your problems are now no longer your own
You've opened up your doors of shame
Now the whole world knows


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Cruel

My life is your love
It is like my oxygen
I cannot exist without it
Sweet words from you
Fill me with bliss for days
Euphoria consumes me
When you shower me
With all of your love
But, there are times when
I cannot reach you
Your mind is so far away 
Where are you?

Sometimes you display
Such a cold demeanor
Your reception towards
Me so chilly and
I am baffled as to why
But, what I dread the
Most is when your
Coldness esculates 
Into a paranoid rage
You become a different person
I don't know who you are
I have never met you before
You are a total stranger to me

This stranger crucifies me
With his acidic words
Void of any discretion
He will not censor himself
He is heartless and cruel
When I look into his eyes
I see evil staring back at me
It is like I have come face
To face with the devil

I want to rescue my love
But, I cannot break down
The mighty fortress he has
Built around himself
Though I fight viligently
For his soul I cannot save him
Only he can fight this battle
He must face the demons that
Have been haunting him to
Finally be free to love me
Without his wrath or cruelty




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Let Me Down

when I needed a shoulder to cry on,
you were never there,
when I needed someone to confide in,
you never really cared,
when I'd given up on living,
you left me there to bleed,
when I told you I was worthless,
you just smiled and agreed,
when I was standing on the edge,
you helped me take the leap,
when I was locked inside my head,
you threw away the key,
you were always there behind me,
pushing me closer to the edge,
you were always there beside me,
knocking me over the ledge,
nothing seemed to go right,
you made it all my fault,
when I finally pulled myself up-right,
you tried to make me fall,
when I finally opened my eyes,
and saw the true man you were,
you told me that I'm nothing,
and this is what I deserved,
nothing good has come from you,
the scars are all that remains,
of the girl that you once held in check,
the girl you caused so much pain.


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They way things should really be

Don't look at me like that
cos yes'day you call'd me fat

Don't you call me hun 
after what you jus' done

Don't you talk soft to me now
when I got blood dripping from my brow

I don't want to hear no 'pologies
When I'M the one on MY knees.

When YOU are down on your knees lookin up at ME
And I can feel the sun shining as I close the door behind me
then things will be the way things should really be.
 




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OK Men!!!!!!!

Let me get this straight
May you men can help me out
I got divorced 11 years ago
For drugs and abuse was about

I'm 11 years clean
Not proud of my stupid past
My ex calls me outta the blue
Wants me to confess what HE remembers last

I tell him I don't remember
Some of the stupid stuff I might have done
Humbly admit to what I know
Thinking his heart I again have won

He says Pot is ok for him
But Crank affected my brain
I tell him I can't remember
Now he's calling my insane

After this much time
His accusations are totally untrue
I can admit to doing drugs to stay married
But he's lost in pot brain blues

I must admit to swinging
While he worked on graveyard
And I'm watching over six kids
This is a little hard

I must admit to destroying him
For in the end of abuse is only divorce
What did he expect?
A nice easy course.

If I admit to all of this
11 years later, he'll take me back
I think I'd rather do drugs again
Then to go down that same track


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10 Cent Dance

sorta' like the 20's
this stupid dance I had
married to a foolish, cheating woman
me, the cuckhold, oh so sad

now I dance no more
on the danceroom floor
now I'm up there on the stage,
with my music to engage

your ears, maybe your feet,
moving to the beat
and I am protected well
from another dance in h_ll


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Only Twenty Minutes...

Twenty minutes spent with her,
Is twenty not with me,
I’m sure upon the surface,
Some might call it jealousy.
However I would beg to say,
Your time is yours to spend,
Just realize I am not a fool,
Twenty minutes is more than “friends”.
Talk of divorce, distant stares,
A wall within the bed,
Sneaking here, avoiding there,
Look where twenty minutes led.
You’ve had your time to bond with her,
Mystic it must be,
After several twenty minutes,
You’re ready to be free.
At first my heart was aching,
My esteem was all but crushed,
Then I came to realize,
It didn’t matter much.
What really am I loosing?
That’s not already gone,
When making love, I must admit,
Twenty minutes, isn’t very long.


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So Called Love

You were the  man that was once my dream,
But now with you all I want to do is scream.

Today, in the mail, yet again I received your letter.
You asked how I was and was I better?

You pleaded and begged for yet another chance.
You said you were a changed man and are tired of this dance.

When did you begin to see, 
That your so called love was exacting its toll on me?

Was it the first night that your so called love
Hit me in the face like a boxing glove?

Was it the day you did not come home?
For the woods called your name and there you said you had to roam?

Was it the first time after taking yet another beating,
You forced yourself on me and said it was to prove I was not cheating?

You ask for forgiveness and want to still be my friend.
All I want is for this nightmare to end!!!

I now see that to you this is not love but an obsession,
To you I am not your wife but  only your posession.

I no longer wish to receive your emotional and physical pain, 
I want a normal life, I want to be sane.

I am putting an end to me being your wife.
I want out of our marriage, I want a new life.

Our friendship is gone and for that I do mourn,
But you I now see were never torn.

To you it is your God-given right
To take what you want with force and might.

Oh, I do believe that once you are free,
That you will change for a month or maybe three.

I no longer want your love or our marriage.
This relationship has become something that I truly disparage.

Forget I exist, please forget about me,
In the past it was easy for you to let me be.

I am so very tired of you doing me wrong,
For my self respect I will be strong.

I hope the divorce papers give you the clue,
That I no longer need nor am in love with you!


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Nightmare - Dedicated to My Husband

I am running from a iniquitous force
Feeling his fiery breath on my neck
I am so tired of trying to escape from it
I am so tired of being trapped in this gloomy abyss
Chained to his endless interrogations
Where no answer I can ever give will satisfy his fury
Twisting every word that parts my lips
Transforming my syntax from what I mean to convey
Into an interpretation all of his own creation

Cold and callous
An unforgiving heart lies inside him
For there is a record of every sin 
That I have ever committed against him
And no punishment he ever gives me
Will erase them in his mind
All of my past transgressions become ammunition 
That will be used against me whenever he sees fit
As a diabolical method to destroy me
Inadvertently by my own hand

Plans of vengeance consume his thoughts
For he is the mastermind
With his own type of justice
He does not dispense his chastisement
In an equitable manner
The Biblical eye for an eye
Is just the beginning of his wrath
For he cannot sojourn there
The intensity and duration of my penance
Is completely at his discretion
And even though I paid my penalty today
That does not mean that he will not be ready
To inflict more torment on me tomorrow
For the same crime for which 
I have already received punishment

 


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A Lady And A Girl


A fair lady wandered from 
the scent-less garden, leaving it with a weary 
heart; she took her breathe and left. The garden 
was cool of her and stayed fresh all day, but 
when she grew tired, she found not the rhythm
of which she might have been able to give.

A fair lady wandered from 
the scent-less garden, leaving it with a weary
heart; she took her breathe and left. Wherever, 
she looked for fun, ‘cos it moves her, yet 
the garden has no idea, how and when 
and where she should dwell.

In a place, somewhere in her mind, 
where her love got lost,
a girl chanced upon her, with a story
to tell: “In the olden days, Queen sneaked 
away, at night 
to swim the sea of fire. She fell in
 
And got tangled. Now, 
the prize 
which her King asked 
to set her free, 
from guilt, was a simple vow that she should always 
sharpen-- the King’s sword, whenever she went out”.


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The Labyrinth

Swallowing 
My timidity 
With a long 
Shot of puff 

Amidst a sea of Jasmines
Sitting on wooden vases 

Rippling
The smile 
I hardly wear 
With warm 

Swaying lips-- so tender
Yet, as I dragged myself 

To outlast 
The whims 
Of doubts--
Inside me

My mate came, with question 
Marked on her face, in protest 


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Deadly Love

Loving you is deadly
Caustic words from your lips
Are like poison dripping in my veins
Like the venom of a black widow
Traveling through my arteries
To my already wounded heart
Causing pieces of it to die slowly
Cutting off my oxygen
Causing my body to contort
Sending me into violent convulsions
Then when I am on the brink of 
My catastrophic demise
Your omnipotent touch
Heals my ailing body 
With just a tender kiss 
I become ensorcelled by you
While for a spell I will be dancing
With delight under the crescent moon
With child-like garden fairies giggling
At my blissful semblance
My mind escapes with you to a
Whimsical dreamland
Where I feel sheltered from perniciousness
Meanwhile tension bubbles under the surface
The volcano no longer in its dormant phase
Fiery hot lava explodes from the top
Once again I must succumb to this choleric catalyst
That I cannot tame because 
This monstrosity is devouring me


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One-Sided Love Of Parental Marriage

Lend me your lips, that I may kiss you.
Lend me your eyes, that I may see you.
Lend me your ears, that I may hear you.
Lend me your hands, that I may hold you.
Lend me your feet that I may walk with you.
Lend me your heart, that I may feel you.
Lend me yourself, that I may know you.

Pass not like wind, without touching anything!

You have my lips, but you never kiss me.
You have my eyes, but you don’t see me.
You have my ears, but you don’t hear me.
You have my hands, but you don’t hold me.
You have my feet, but you walk not with me.
You have my heart, but you don’t feel me.
You have me, but you don’t really know me.


Ok, just tell me one thing, where is the paper!?

 


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Evil - Dedicated to my husband

Hate motivates you
You know no other way
Twisted manipulation 
Always looking for an angle
Rage stimulated by darkness
Your need for vengence
Takes precedence
Over your love for me
Living to destroy
At any price
Destruction drives you
Breathing life 
Into your black soul
Giving you the energy 
To wreck havoc
On anyone who crosses your path


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Perverts

(This is a fictional poem)

My landlord and his brother watched while my wife and I had sex.
When I found out about it, I damn nearly broke their necks.
They hid a camera in the bedroom and another one in the shower.
I beat the crap out of them and they started to cower.

I was shocked and very upset because of what they saw.
I grabbed my cellphone and I called the law.
What they did was disgusting and it really did hurt.
It gave me great pleasure when they locked up those perverts.


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Something Too Many Of Us Have Suffered

It's like an epidemic,
There's no immunity,
Could happen to you,
Sure happened to me...

You find, out of the blue,
Of your marriage, old or new,
You are the only one married,
Your spouse's devotion seems 
to have varied,
The lump in your throat,
when you found out,
Didn't leave a doubt,
And the throbbing lump
in your heart,
Made your wish from life,
to depart...
It's as if it were but yesterday,
The pain etched in so, that way...
I ran out of tears,
Ran out of hope,
Ran out of beers,
'Fridge full of fears...
How many years,
Have I wasted while
her leers,
Were directed at other men,
From her spider's den??...

And worse than that,
you know,
Her abuse of you did show,
In front of your kids,
Cutting you down before their eyes,
With all her tricks and filthy lies

Emasculated, ground to dust,
Like a nail encased in rust,
No self-respect did she leave
For me to ever achieve

Well I left and that was why,
I left all that I had, to cry
She kept the house,
the cars, the money,
But believe me, my honey...
She kept my children too
And I was forever blue...

The most poignant moment
of my life....
As I packed to leave my wife,
My youngest son, then seven
Crying and begging to heaven
For me not to go...
My heart, already shattered,
now bled,
There was no out for me,
At least that I could see,
I took my few things and left,
But my heart was the real sad theft,
My crying child I still hear implore,
For me, the hurt, to endure,
Don't go off in the night...
My child was filled with fright.

I am so sad to relate this, it is true. TB


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Illegal alien

He tried to get her a green card but he failed.
He married her so she could stay in America and now he's in jail.
He did what he did because her uncle gave him five grand.
That amount of cash was something that he could not withstand.
When he was thrown in jail, she was returned to Mexico.
If someone asks you to marry an illegal alien for money, you'd better say no.


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Give life a chance

(This is a fictional poem)

You're standing on this ledge and you're threatening to jump.
You lost your six figure salary job and now you live in a dump.
But we all have to face bad breaks in life.
If you jump, you'll hurt your children and your wife.
You're hurting and you don't want to live anymore.
But you have a family who loves you and that alone is worth living for.
Give life a chance, I'm sure things will get better for you.
If you jump, it will hurt me too.
What happened to you was bad.
But now you're coming back in the building and I'm glad.


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Alone, Hope Cold as a Stone

She went to bed alone,
Not what she would prefer,
But there was only one
for her,
She longed for things that were

But her love had crossed
the threshold into
another life,
She was labelled widow,
To her she was still his wife

Death cuts deep,
Severs hearts entwined
in timeless love
And yet, you know,
somewhere above,
He is still with you,
More than ever, it appears to me
Cause love is more powerful
than death,
And though you can not see
His physical presence before your eyes
You can sense his company 


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Time Alone

Physical pleasure, what is it?
Can you describe it?
It’s been so long,
So few and far between.
I cannot help but think
That I will lose it,
But how can one so lose
What’s never been?

How time has slipped
Its fingers in between us.
The cursed, wretched fingers
Disturbing lives
How does it justify
Its very purpose,
To separate the husbands
From the wives?
 


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Kind of Like Sylvia: Part 2



Success divided them
Opening up doors 
That should have remained closed
The temptress walked right in
Made herself at home
And conquered what was not hers 
Leaving Sylvia feeling betrayed and alone
Another man leaving her life
She was never given the opportunity to know
What security from a man feels like
She was always left to make it on her own
Never having anyone to count on
Never having someone to give 
Her unconditional love and security


Then her tragic end
While her unsuspecting children
Lay in their beds
Peacefully sleeping
Unaware of the doom to come
She placed her head in a gas stove
Suffocating from the toxic fumes
Though her physical deprivation of oxygen
Made her body violently contort
Maybe her demise was
The only way she knew to
Release the pain in her soul
That was haunting her always
Like a shadow
Following her 
Until she sought to end
Her life's journey
That constantly betrayed her


Though many believe that
The soul who commits such a dreadful act
Will be punished for all eternity
In a darker place then they ever knew on earth
I wonder if there is 
Such a price to pay
Why cannot payment be demanded
From the ones who were 
Figuratively gripping her by the throat
Leaving her feeling 
That there was no other way out
Leaving her to face each day
Bitterly alone


Sylvia's life and mine
Are intertwined in so many ways
Though my Father is very much alive
It seems like his death came long ago
Because we are strangers
My relationship with him
Has profoundly affected 
How I view men at present
And probably until the day 
My life ends
Like Sylvia, my husband and I
Share a bond through our poetry
Our intellectual conversations
Stimulate our minds and strengthen our bond
But, then infidelity, abuse and betrayals
Ended the magic between us
Leaving our relationship dormant
Temporary bliss is all I have been given
Though I am grateful for 
The chance to experience it at all
My life is empty
Without the security that a man brings
When you can trust him with everything
That you possess
Your innermost secrets
Your dreams
And even your very soul
For this security escaped
Sylvia and I both
This void bonds us
Even beyond the realm of death
Because pain is never-ending