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A Yearn for a Smile 9-21-11

	A yearn… simply something that you want or long for. As a yearn to finish, a yearn to achieve, a yearn for a like, a yearn for a smile is something that you drastically want, a desire. Something that you spend long hours, nights even day dreaming hours thinking about how you can earn that smile. What can you do…. or what can you say … things such as a conversation sparks, likes even dislikes, mostly anything that will crack a smile. These are things that truly show signs of something far greater than fame, sex, money, power. What is it? Something more than I have yet to find. So as I search for the answer I over shoot the entrance with rapid thinking of what she wants, her likes, her dislikes. But truly it will only be earned by who you are, what you want to be, yourself, your feelings your desires, your yearn. So when you yearn for that smile or that special something it can only be earned by being you, no one else. Take a look at yourself in the mirror and try to see past the makeup or tan or piercing and just look at yourself… then take that image and imprint it to yourself forever because to find happiness and your yearn  can only be earned one way. Trying to watch her and she how she reacts to certain things just to make myself seem better when I finally open my mouth to her will only make you distant from that special someone.  With me I personally see myself as buff pierced orange person, while trying to continue to follow the people who I look up to the most. So as you struggle and go through life’s trials and tribulations always look at your yearn or what it once it what was. Think about how you felt when you failed or succeeded and try to make yourself a better person from it. Not by adding more glamour or appeal to yourself but by being closer to yourself. What you really are. Because only then can you truly say you earned your yearn of a smile or that special someone, even if there not with you, apart of them will be and that’s the part they left. The part that made you better. More complete. 			So never forget your yearn of her..

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Soldier Boy

The soldier boy was sitting calmly underneath that tree, 
As I approached it, I could see him beckoning to me. 
The battle had been long and hard and lasted through the night 
And scored of figured on the ground lay still by mornings light. 

"I wonder if you'd help me, sir", he smiled as best he could. 
"A sip of water on this morn would surely do me good. 
We fought all day and fought all night with scarcely any rest- 
A sip of water for I have a small pain in my chest." 

As I looked at him, I could see the large stain on his shirt 
All reddish-brown from his warm blood mixed with dirt. 
"Not much", he said."I count myself more lucky that the rest 
They're all gone while I just have a small pain in my chest."   

"Must be fatigue", he weakly smiled. "I must be getting old. 
I see the sun is shinning bright and yet I'm feeling cold. 
We climbed the hill two-hundred strong, but as we cleared the crest, 
The night exploded and I felt this small pain in my chest." 

I looked around to get some aid-the only things I found 
Were big, deep craters in the earth-bodies on the ground. 
"I kept on firing at them sir. I tried to do my best, 
But finally I sat down with this small pain in my chest." 

"What would my wife be thinking of her man so strong and grown, 
If she could see me sitting here, too weak to stand alone? 
Could my mother have imagined, as she held me to her breast, 
That I'd be sitting here one day with this pain in my chest?" 
"Can it be getting dark so soon?" He winced up at the sun. 
"Its growing dim and I thought that the day had just begun. 
I think, before I travel on, I'll get a bit of rest..... 
And, quietly, the boy died from that small pain in his chest. 

I don't recall what happened then. I think I must have cried 
I put my arms around him and pulled him to my side 
And, as I held him to me, I could feel our wounds were pressed 
The large one in my heart against the small one in his chest.

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Don’t put your view all are blind
They can’t see ten or nine
They have determined they can find
Solution is already all know shrine

Bereave is not necessity it always dawns
Scarce barks all the day as unwelcome guest
Put your disguise on your veil
All viewed your deceitful hay

Shame on you for being that that
Looting always day by day
Poor creatures are suffocating
Swallowing your poisonous play.

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Tell me it isn't true

Tell me it isn't true
That he didn't hurt you too
Tell me that your not crying
Please tell me your lying
Why I ask you
Why I say
Why should this happen today
Onlt 13 years
Now we shead 13 tears 
13 forever
Will my soul recover
My days and nights gets longer
Wondering if my days will get shorter
Feeling my heart getting heavy
The wish to hear his voice is driving me crazy
In loving memory Christopher Monte' Rivera

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yes, I am lonely enough to die; 
lonely enough to cry; 
lonely enough to ask Myself 'why'? 
yes, I am lonely enough to say goodbye! 

Everybody wants to live forever; 
its what i wanted never; 
the thing i wanted ever; 
but nobody loved me like forever.

Nobody wants to die; 
Nobody wants to cry; 
its Me who wanted this all to try; 
and thats the reason why every second i die! 

Its the most difficult thing to realize, 
when you yourself wants to be killed by a knife; 
is it really swift to live such a life; 
NO! as you know you have to be wise! 

Can't even attempt something like suicide; 
cause my religion is still walking beside.
its makes me feel scared side by side, 
what if i died and nobody cried! 

Still there is something to which I am tied; 
but umpteen times i have lied; 
and umpteen times i have cried; 
as i really not find this world wide.

As I told you i never was clever; 
so now I am saying GOODBYE FOREVER!

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Self Mutilation

I'm gonna draw a picture
A picture with a twist
I'll draw it with a razor blade
I'll draw it on my wrist

As I draw this picture
A fountain will appear
And as that fountain flows
My troubles disappear

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I was there 
On my way to Laflin when the 55th and Garfield bus slowed down.
He should have been passed out from excitement like other 10 year olds playing 
football in vacant lots,basketball in streets, and baseball with wooden sticks.
Instead on his way to gas station 
collar bone caught bullet like a bleeding brown mitt.
He never made it to first base safe, he never made it home.

I sat there in blue and black CTA  seats 
and I wished he was struck by a
be-be, paint ball, or tranquilizer gun
but no they simply snatched back cocked metal and released.

He lied there surrounded
face had grazed grass
and when his mother saw him she wished she could resist what purples saw.
cross-fire whiplash
punctured neck
with a certificate to prove his end.

She pawed at his white outline 
pleading he would breath life, but when i didn't she wept.

I was restricted to step off bus and on to pavement,
so i had to let my eyes listen 
to how blue lights and smudged tears didn't compliment the tragedy.

I mean I was stuck to scene because of the caution tape 
and the ambulance
and the way his stretcher jumped as he was being taken to the morgue.

Pedestrians though it was over until they fled like that little boys mother when she 
heard her sons blood had been scrambled on the boulevard.
Police mans knees blasted to chest as they chased for blocks ones who failed to 

I kept riding past Halsted then on to Racine finally came to Laflin stepped off bus, 
looked at the bullet whole in the street sign then asked 
what is the purpose of you holding hand high and think u have the right to kill.

Rebecca Johnson

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Take Me With You When I Go

Take me with you when I go. 
When I'm laid to rest beneath the blades of grass, 
A marble stone to mark my place. 
Don't stop too long to grieve for me. 
Go forward with your dreams; 
Find your place in this world. 
On your wedding day, look within; 
You'll see me there. 
I'll have a smile, a hope, a tear of joy. 
When your child is born, 
take a moment to pause 
to be with me. 
I'll be there with pride. 
I'll share your pain. 
Think of me along the way. 
Take me with you when I go.

By William P. Darnell Sr.

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Bitter by ; being mentally bruised and battered most of my life,
shaken with fright without a single soul to help me
through the troubles unseen horrors of the night, 
from an evil source that I fear to strike. 
But as the evil forces, who limited my choices 
that when I found my stallion horses. 
Swiftly it came to my head I can run and I cannot hide, 
feeling the Beast closing in on every time I decide to hide. 
Tired of running and tired of alluding this
relentless creep as my red bolt eyes weep 
feeling rest-less, likes a lonely defeated warrior from his home in retreat 
that is when I knew it time to rest, to release my Beast. 
But in a fight, I may not win however as I cast out my dirty words sin
I made sure it felt my impact, to the bloody end.

by Keith Kadell

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Sharing Feelings

when you cry, your tears become my fear and i wish to die.  If you are sad, you are
killing me so slowly drowning in your tears, lonely i felt when you weren't with me. You
that you made a wound, for me it was a hole in my heart, it hurt me being not seeing you
good, between every thing a smile of you is everything i wish to see.

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Don't blame me

Never blame my love to you
 And my sincere feelings
 ‘Cause I don’t blame you
 When your naughty emotions
 Reject me
 When your silence
 Kills me
 When your absence
 Makes me worry
 And feel sorry
 For being in love with you
 And living without you
 Don’t blame my feelings
 When I say I love you
 Don’t blame my words
 When I talk to you
 Don’t blame me
 Because I love you
 And wish you
 To be with me
 Once forever
 You and me together
 Don’t blame me
 Because I don’t blame you.

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Losing a game

When you lose a big, important game,
you feel like the world has turned on you,
like it is your fault,
you feel down,
and wonder why this had to happen,
were you ready?

Instead of thinking about what you did wrong,
and focusing on that it was your fault,
think about what YOU could do better,
how things could have turned around
And maybe, just maybe those things will come true.

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The Amazon Jungle (If I Had A Voice)

I am a vast area of trees, animals, and
The worst animal of all (man) is causing
my devastation,
I provide food and support life each day,
As my very own life is being stripped away,
Who will take care of my animals and plants,
At this rate they don't stand a chance,
When will I be left alone to live,
Probably when it's too late, when I have 
nothing left to give.

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Here in the middle of the nothing I'm lost, I've wanted every single thing for me, i
wanted something better, but i just noticed that i already had every singel thing i
wanted, every single thing i needed, now i'm sailing alone looking for that thing i've
lost and now i need, i've lost something the biggest chest wouldn't hold, the money
wouldn't buy, i've lost you my heart.

to: ashton, the girl i miss so much

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What the HEART WANTS,,,,

    People say "Listen to your HEART."
But what if you can't HEAR it?
         Your MIND wants all these other things,
and then you CAN'T HEAR your HEART.
        I sit and CLEAR my MIND 
   I sit LISTENING to my HEART

         What am i suppose to do now?


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lossing ground an ABC style poem

after being constantly degraded elmer fudd getting hot inside just kept lossing more navigable opportunities per quarter relying solely trustingly upon volunteers while xeroxing Yan'kee zeal

(does this remind anybody of the current "Debt Crisses")

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A Sensitive Heart

I am a foolish jocker
And I only know to bring a smile on your face
But I still have a soft sensitive heart
Which can only cry in the silent dark

I am a foolish jocker
I only know to love & I can't express
I am loving you sincerely
Where my eyes expressed these words many times to you
But you never respond to me

Every Valintine's day you are with a new boy friend
I am still the same foolish jocker
And I am trying to bring a smile on your face
Now I forget to smile
And waiting for the next valentine's day

I have many greeting cards which I bought every year
To wish for Valentine's day, Christmas , New Year ---------
And I want to greet you and celebrate with you
But every time I am alone and you are with some one
Years going like seconds
And my hope is still at the same place
Here everyone celebrating these celebrations
And everyone's glass filled with champagnes and wines
But nobody there to see my wet eyes
Nobody there to wipeout my broken tears

Then suddenly , I wiped out my tears
I slowly realized that I am alone here
I made this lonliness as my best friend
But I promise you my love that when you become alone
There will be still a hand waiting for you
Please understand me and release me from this torture of lonliness

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Never Thought It Would Happen

We began so little and young, 
Life beat us bad and twisted our tongue.
You and I walked a pretty rough road I can say
When you stumbled I was always there to make you stay.

Stay and not give up, I didn't give up on you than, so I wont give up on you now, 
We danced our life so brutally and softly, but this time you didn't look my way and bounced. 
I thought we would go on like this forever, but I guess like people say, 
Nothing lasts forever.

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Hope is lost.

I have lost my way.

Just wanting to find my way home.

Kept thinking I knew the way,

Little did I know.....

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Nothing Really Matters

when rob stepped out of the courthouse,with charges for posession
he thought "it could be worse,it could have been for weapons"
and then he thought..."nothing really matters anyway"
when liz stepped of of the rehab,with a new outlook on life
she felt all those same feelings of hurt, pain, and strife
and then she thought "nothing really matters anyway"
when luke picked up his young son from daycare,and knew he had an hour
he thought back to the time he WOULD have stopped to grab his now EX-wife some flowers
and then he thought "nothing really matters anyway"
when lisa lifted up her body with nothing but her arms,and looked down at her legs
she wondered why the heck they were even THERE anyway..what for?
and then she thought "nothing really matters anyway"
all four people that same night,all in their own homes
picked up a remote,turned on the news and watched it come to blows
one man had done 25 years in jail,for something he had not really done
one woman lost the battle to addiction,one she thought she'd already won
one boy got hit by a car on his bike,he just only 5 his parents,divorced
one man lost his arms and legs while over fighting the war
four different people,four different lives,four different struggles,all about to cry
four different souls,four different heart,four different minds,all to have a fresh start
why does it take a reality check to pull us into gear?
why is it that reality sometimes must be our greatest fear?
the next time you think you're the only one who hurts and has plight
the next time you feel you're all alone,the only one who cries at night
try and remember,try not to forget,that you are never alone
whether you're telling your mom and dad your gay to the face or over the phone
whether your wife divorced you,your husband's a dog,or your kids have NO respect
you are human,deserve more,and you're not alone,cause' there is someone right next....
to you!!! nothing really matters. until you realize...nothing really matters.

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Loving and Losing : A Part of Me Died When You Died

Losing someone is like losing the very breath u take to survive

Like holding in air, taking the deadliest,deepest dive

Like someone knocked all the air,better yet, the life out of ur life

Like they jabbed u in ur heart with the sharpest knife

The emptiness inside ur soul,makes ur blood run cold

Like red roses that stood high, that turn black, then fold

Lost without ur eyes, in a dark empty wood.

Grasping to reach anything u could.

Nothing in reach for u to hold close

No one around, when u need them the most

Nothing to warm ur heart & keep it beating steady

U didn't ask for this,unexpected, u weren't ready

It's like a stiffness in ur body,like ur growing old anew

No one around to console u

Ur at a loss for words

No chirping for black birds

Ur missing apart of u & inside's a hole

They used to stick with u,like a mole

Losing love is like losing ur mind

Every thought,but the reason, u still can't find

Enough memory to last ur lifetime,but they're still not there.

Ur mind is gone,but u can't think as to where.

A part of ur heart & mind have vanished with the lost of someone so dear

& u love them & miss them more with every tear

Thinking bout them, only makes it worse

It happened so quickly, u'd think it was a curse

Loving & losing a lover or a friend

Family, or next to kin

It's a universal emotion, which we all can relate

They accepted their fate

& we must face

We'll get through it at our own pace

Because we know , they're in a better  place


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Loss of ambition
Looks like I’m on a mission
Or some sort of a competition
Is it the end?
Should I be where I stand?
I cannot understand
I’ll just smile and pretend…
Looks like I’m lost
Not completely but almost
Disoriented, adrift and scared most
No way to hide or to escape from that ghost
Hunting me day and night
Making sure I don’t feel alright

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The Intangible Desire

Destinies with similar fate intertwine
A road is carved that they may follow.
And for whatever mysteries they may find
Nothing can be worse than the feeling of sorrow.
Their future seems inevitable
But an unworthy man faults their progression
His motives are questionable
But he grasped her heart without regression
One is left in the dark
As the others take their elegant leave
Darkness consumes his heart
And radiates as far as he eye can see
Scarlet roads once paved
Now bare no significant mean
Lonesome nights and hellish days
His mind cant take the punishments its seen
The only place he may find serenity
is deep within his dreams
And any peacefull melody
has faded outside this reality
A taunting dreamers hope
Allows him to stand somewhat tall
And this only provokes
More darkness to fall
She bares a smile full of lies
With him, shes treated like an animal
And with her internal pain on the rise
Shes still a desire thats intangible.

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Another Day

Another day breaks
Bursting upon the sky
Changing colors which enter the eye

Dangers disappear as light it grows
Erasing the fears 
Fear of the crows

Gentle breezes too begin to blow
Happy noises begin to grow
Into this world I now must step
Just in time for meetings kept

I but worry keeping my mind on time

Hurring now through the day 
Giving away my life and time 
Fearing now those who before
Envisioned thoughts in the mind
Dreaming and fearing coming dark
Changing colors which enter the eye
Broken now with a deep sigh
Another day has passed me by

Beauty desoliving about me now
Crows wings spreading covering the ground
Destroying the freedom that was found

Everyone runs quick to hide
From this terror now residing outside
Given to fears that were once before
Hidden within the sun

Into a house they all will run

Happy tunes no more to be sung
Gratitude sold for a beer
Fleeting moments gone with the sun
Expound the increase 
Daylight hours again shall be found
Caring again shall abound
Beauty shall open unto me
Another day dawns revealing  the ground

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For Animal Lovers

Ailing baby cats die exacting fear grief having inevitably just killed loving mothers not
only plainly questioning reasons some things understanding vile wrong-doing xanax yields

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Hidden Treasure - Now Revealed

I lost my treasure, when I was betrayed
Was left with empty hand when I used to gaze
Life was dusty , misty and crusty,
Breaks were many , cracks went rusty

Treasure was lost by a man who was a fraud
I gave my life , my cares and my mind'
Like a serpent he lived and captured every byte
Lost my money , life and soul
Completely crushed and left with empty bowl

Lord received me then,when all left me in Hell
I looked to the cross , repented with pains & fast
How graciously LORD picked me
Embraced me and filled me
Though my treasure was lost 
Still LORD helped with no cost
He consoled me when I was elapsed

All my life's freckles were vanished
And I was left with no Blemish
Jesus died for me -- Cleansed me so I could see
Righteousness I learned , for JESUS love I earned
Transformed my life -- Be righteous what HE guides
I got my lost things back 
With money , fame and treasure full bag
With HIS love and blessings --He replaced my dead cracks

Revealed the meaning of Treasure ---
Meticulously HE blessed me with double measures
HIS wisdom, understanding and care
HIS blood , Eternal life and A name in Heaven
New creation , New Soul and New life HE gives
This is the treasure I see and I live

This is my treasure for rare can get
HIS blessings are awesome , For in heaven I'll rest
Seeing my treasure nothing can be measured

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the mirrors and glasses can't help but falling
the tough and the mindless can't help but brawling
when earth's soul gapes through the looking glass
only pure spirits can protect it.

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I was many in the field But had to know what's beyond the hill. Didn't know the cost was my roots.

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I Will Never See Them Again

“Abide with me . . . , as the darkness deepens,
When earth’s joy grows dim . . . , its glory passes away,
Through darkness and sunshine . . . , oh, abide with me!” 
Repeatedly invoking the grace of God to wash away pains and sorrows,
And also harmonizing in the background with the force that illuminated
The nighty skies echoed this hymn, sounds of instruments and drums!
I will never see those slain guardians of law again,
To share those precious moments,
Like we used to do in the living years!

In that sweltering evening atmosphere,
Police officers in uniform had to hold back tears while saluting,
When widowed spouses, children, colleagues
And parents of police officers laid wreaths to honour
Their loved ones who laid down their lives protecting ours,
In honour of their call to serve and protect us.
I will never see them again,
To share those precious moments,
Like we always used to do in the living years!

Four South African Police Service helicopters carrying the National Flags,
Hovered above the Union Building, as the Police Code of Conduct,
Was acknowledged by the Minister of Police, a sign of
Selflessness of the police officers, who died on line of duty,
And a pledge by all who live on (a norm in the South African Police Services!)
But how much longer do we have to see these guardians of law murdered this way?
I will never see them again,
To share those precious moments
Like we used to do in the living years!

As the flag was flown at half-mast at the Union Building 
All stood up motionless, their eyes directed at the flag,
Amid the deafening silence of the evening atmosphere,
Some sighed, sounds of grief audible, tears oozed
From some of the friends, family members and colleagues,
Thinking of hardships of living without their loved ones.
I will never see them again,
To share those precious moments
Like we used to do in the living years!

Mixed emotions were invoked as friends and family members
Of the deceased were finally walked the red carpet,
In honour and respect, as others` bright shining pride
Lit up the Union Building, others sobbed with great grief,
Despair and deep sorrow during this moving ceremony,
The South African Police Service Commemoration day!
I will never see them again,
To share those precious moments
Like we always used to do in the living years!

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Hageshem (The Rain)

A blast of smoke,   she falls
 beside his cold and soaking body;
 crying out    to deafened ears --
demoralized dehumanized
  ~A gunshot in the pouring rain so they can’t see her tears.

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A poem by Jina Mahalatinia

I witnessed Mama's body
As Angels worked her flesh
Preparing her for death.
And when her flesh was pieces
She was scared of being eaten
(Remembering Viking spears
That killed, not ate, those fish)
So I cried to soothe her fears.

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Red Tears

surrender on the condition
in me
the expectation of a million stem injury
in me

Karanganyar-Solo, 7 Februari 2006

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No compassion for killers

I killed my feelings...
For you.
I killed my dreams... 
For you.
I killed my hope...
For you.

You killed your time... 
For me.
You killed your beauty... 
For me.
You killed your future... 
For me.
We killed our love.
We killed our marriage.
We killed our family.

We are Killers.
But we are still alive and out from the prison!

Copyright Constantinos Grigoriadis © All rights reserved

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You so long to see me in your dreams.
See my face.
Feel my touch.
Hear my voice.

You want to know if I am at peace.
Know here I feel no pain.

It hurts my heart so to see you cry.
Dry away your tears.
Rest your weary eyes.

Allow time to help you heal.
Enlighten your fears.

You will not forget me.
I will always hold a place in your heart.

Fear not my love.
Know I will always be by your side.

When I look upon you embrace me with your tender smile.
Let your laughter, your joy fill my heart.

Like a breeze I will caress your cheek.
Place a silent kiss upon your lips.

Remember the tenderness we shared.
Knowing it was real.

Somewhere in time I will come to call
My love, my friend, my soul, my mate.
We will meet again.

In a place where soul love lives forever.
A place filled with energies light.

Know I will be there to hold your hand.
To kiss your tender lips, to gently hold you through the nights.

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People want to commit suicide,
people choose to die over livin life.
Why has it come to be this way?
Why has this life become so meaningless,
that we just want to throw it away?
We become selfish and think our life is so bad,
dont think of others who's lives are worse, But still greatful for what they have.
People take for granted the things they've got,
clothes, food, smokes and shoes, even a roof or a bed,
They dont think of the homeless,
the hungry, not even the cold or the hot.
They just think they want to be dead,
Things happen in our lives that, to us, seem bad.
We dont look for help or trust any "friends"
All because of the past we've had.
Dont be a coward and run away,
Stick it out, Live life,
I know that there's alot of strife,
But stick it through day to day.
People want to commit suicide,
people choose to die over livin life.
Why has it come to be this way?....

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I know I didn’t know you for a long time…
But I just feel I know you for many years ago…
You were a the protector… the hero…….
For the family you lived for so long…
All the hero’s that lives dies a day..
But the memories will always remain..
You were so brave. I guess the bravest from all…
You wagged you tail with a word of talking..
Even humans don’t understand it at it all…
How should I say good bye. when my heart knows..
That you will never ever be back home..
But we need to hold our tears back…
We need to keep our memories strong..
Puppy…we will dearly miss you..
But we will always remember you..
In the time of danger at home…
We will pray for you…
Hoping that you will find a better life…
May be one day we will meet again…
As we met in this birth of yours…
Dearest puppy…forgive us..
If we had any mistakes within us..
we will always We love you puppy. !

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 I am so sorry I tend to whisper to my self while the wings on my back enfold me in my idiocy and bust in a furl of feathers and fire.
My authentic halo falling broken reinforcing my thoughts on transformations... 

My lush lies crept up into me whispering to you my secrecy and my merry go round patterns...
 I was adapted to serous sabotage and unconsidered volcanic eruptions... Having nothing to react to I made my own quake...
i deserve everything. 

But for you to say I can't feel is something that just shocked me at my core... 
But then again what should I expect? 
Secret boyfriends? 
are you kidding me...? 
But then again what should i expect... 
I gave you a reason to be suspicious a reason to say those things... 

With my viscosity on the subject I realize I have to be punished... and it has nothing to do with you...

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No more Tears

     Hush now my 
dear no more tears 
shall fall, what once 
was, is no more, so 
hush now no more 
 Take my hand don’t 
look back, it’s time 
to heal and let him 
fade ,hush now no 
more tears his love 
for you forgotten, 
yes your biggest 
fear , come with me 
I can set your pain 
free ,it’s up to you 
and me he will no 
longer be , so hush 
my dear no more 
tears your heart 
goes black for all 
that you have done, 
what once was is 
done, take my hand 
don’t be scared let 
me set you free, 
look into my eyes 
give me all your 
sadness and fears, 
hush now you 
scared soul lay back 
let me take control, 
stop fighting and 
crying for he has 
moved on time to 
let  one last tear set 
you free, hush my 
dear there goes the 
last tear this will 
only burn  for a 
minute, then my 
broken girl you will 
be set free, you look 
at me with fear your 
heart begins to fade, 
follow the light my 
child it’s time to 
fade away, your 
blood drips down 
the table I can hear 
the cries poor out, 
they fill the room 
with fire as your 
body goes numb 
your mind begins to 
slip away, hush my 
dear there goes 
your tears, the pain 
is gone and so are 
 They all gather to 
shed their tears over 
you as they say 
goodbye, in a 
whisper through the 
air they hear your 
voice say hush my 
loves don’t cry I will 
always be hear, as 
the years go by  
your children hold 
you close, the man 
you broke still 
remembers  the 
days he held you , 
as his day comes to 
a long lived end he 
takes on last breath 
and hears you say, 
hush hush my love 
it will be okay take 
my hand I will show 
you the way, now 
your time is endless, 
no more grey ,your 
hearts are warm the 
tears no more, you 
walk away as 
one ,never looking 
back hush my dear 
your safe now let us 

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Old friends, Old lifes Same future

Old friends remind me of my old lifes 
Different times in the years past 
With different stories and different laughs
But with each chapter 
I leave them fighting in the past 
Thinking moving on is leaving everything behind
Realizing I can't bring them all with me 
So I bring none of them 
Reliving old dreams when our paths cross 
And wondering why I don't know you anymore 
You pretend like we are the same 
But I can't contact to a life I swore to never live again
And I'm not the same person that held you when you cried 
I'm not the girl that left you behind
I've changed to many times to count 
And one day you will know you can't count on me 
So I come to the place that holds most of my lives 
Walking around surrounded by ghost in this desolate town 
I smile and wave to my past and pretend I remember it 
But this isn't going to work 
This isn't what the world taught me 
So I run away Haunted by memories and broken dreams 
Friendships come and go. One thing stays the same 
Me running from the comfort of the past 
Yelling I can't live like this 
Six months is my limit 
Six months to pretend to be fixed 
But in the end it's me running away with a suit case 
For everything I wanted in those months was ruined so I start new 
Instead of trying to fix a broken heart with industrial super glue
I start over with something new
The only problem is the scares are still there 
The brakes haven’t heeled 
And because I have never learned the right lesson from my past 
I'm forced to relive it 
Until I find the answer I always am searching for 
Or it destroys me like countless times before

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The coin

Many neglect you. What's a coin for a tip.! But I was cold and alone in the street. When I bend to pick-up you.

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  As before, came dominant edicts, fracturing great hopes into just kindred like memories,

  No one possessed quiet recollection simply to usurp verbally, whenever Xenophobes yielded 


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have you ever!

have you ever loved someone 
so much you forget what they've done,
have you ever tried to sleep at night
but you hope and pray everything is alight,
have you ever found your one true love 
the one they say is from above ,
have you ever been turn apart 
have you ever been hurt in the heart ,
have you ever been hurt so much
that because of them you are scared to touch,
have you ever tried to talk 
but your heart says to walk ,
have you ever not known what to do
or know what is best for you,
have you ever tried to walk away
but heat says to stay,
this is how you will feel
if you don'know your love is real,

                                             By:Holly Davis

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Everything Finished

Everything is fake , your smile and your tears
Every time you lied with your magical words
I am the foolish guy who always listens to you
Believed you and your every word
You cheated me a lot
And you hurt-ed me so much
Now I cannot bare this pain any more
And You will never know
How much damage you caused to my heart
Now it's over
Leave me alone and just disappear from my heart
Now everything finished
And left is just a dead soul with a living body .........Raaj

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Origin of poetry tree

As  laden
With a pain
he threw a stone
On his glass with wine
To many pieces
Spilt bleeding violet
And the earth became a drunk
As a grace
the earth gave
A grape tree
Who can
Without scratching
Your soul
As cold is blacken coal
You can't own
The butter with no churning
At all !!

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Carrick Dawn

I kissed her cheeks of salty tears,
For she had broken my cold
Resolve for all my fears
Of natures gifts, warmth of old.
She touched my spine, my fate.

She turned, asleep to my sinking grace
Its origin before men learned
To dance with feet, to die with thoughts.
She spells my name in frosty air,
A scent of honey, her soft blonde hair.

As dawn spills its truth she is not there.
A broken man, an empty chair.

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Little Did I Know

Little Did I Know...

All was rosy, all was bright..;
Nothing but hope and happiness in sight..!!
Always carried a smile..;
As, everything that I wanted was going to be mine...!!Little did I know,
All this has always been a lie..;
Very soon all my happy dreams are gonna die..!!
Little did I know,
That I was surrounded, not by people but wolves and I were the prey...;
Sucking ma blood night and day..!!
Little did I know,
All the sweet talk was nothing but poison..;
Killing me every second, with me dreaming of things above the horizon..!!
Little did I know,
That was being betrayed..;
Actually I was just another soul, waiting to be slayed..!!By the time I knew, it was already too late..,
Ma life's game was over, it was a check mate..!!
All was rosy, all was bright..;
Nothing but hope and happiness in sight..!!
Always carried a smile..;
As, everything that I wanted was going to be mine...!!But, Little did I know......

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Inside Me

I know a place you do not know, 
I see a face you cannot see,
I feel the touch of ice so cold,
And hear the voice that beckons me.
I feel the stillness of wind that stings,
And I cry silently through the pain,
Still, I hold on like angels without wings,
And those voices remain,
I have a place inside my heart,
A room that holds my past,
A place where only I could chart,
And only I could go back.
The face is mine of yesterday,
The touch, the ice, the pain, all mine,
The voice is one that could not stay,
Thus, imprisoning me for all time.

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Mommy Cries

I watch as mommy cries sitting  there all alone
When she falls asleep she cuddle up to the phone
I ask why all the tears
Why all the sorrow
I then hug her 
tell her daddy will be back soon
I must say something wrong
She cries even more
Everything I say I make the tears pour more
Maybe I don't hug her enough
Maybe love I lack
Maybe she's right daddy is never coming back.

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Life without love to give

How bad is a life.
Without love to give?
Well I say to myself,
That's a horrible life to live,
When I wake up every night crying to hear,
That one little voice,
That brings me to tear up,
You were not all mine,
But I hurt 
When you felt one once of pain.
One Night of sickness,
That horrible strain,
You were my morning and night star,
I cry when they say your name,
I die inside when I stand beside
that babies grave,
I think of him always.
Mommy Never forgot you,
Nor will I ever stop loving you
My Son.

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Could be

 I wake up before the sun from a cozy bed

I walk outside and feel the crisp autumn chill

So I put a stocking cap on my head


I walk through the back yard

heading for the woods

doing something city boy

only wish they could


I arrive at my stand

and check the direction of the breeze

before I climb up ole faithful

a dying, dark barked maple tree

I make myself comfortable

as the sun stretches its arms 

for the sky

producing iridescent colors

I live for the outdoor

and that's one of the reasons why


Not far behind me a freshly cut field of hay

in front endless rows of cornstalks fill the way


I begin to think of a tradition

My son and I on thanksgiving day.

he is still here with me

even though last November he passed away


I start hearing cars doors shut

its coming from over the hill

carrying an aroma of cinnamon

It's my favorite! Pumpkin pie

Justin, I'll be back, But for now Goodbye

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Mommy I love you
 This is my goodbye
 You said you wanted me
 But it was all a lie
 Your boyfriend left you 
So now I'm a joke
 I didn't drown
 I didn't choke
 I should get to live
 Like you did
 Laugh and play 
Like any other kid
 Well you've made up your mind
 So now I'm not here
 I didn't want to die
 Its a babies biggest fear
 Babies shouldn't die
 Over a persons choosing
 Let me be adopted
 Then its only you I'm losing
 Abortion is selfish
 It means you have no heart
 If God wanted it to happen
 He would have added that part

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As war is fought it takes charge 
And events spin out of control.
The madness of men can alter the soil 
Which nourishes the roots of their soul.

Many things will forever change 
Far more then wished to be.
As the wrath of war starts to destroy 
Those things we fight to keep free.

War is the greatest plague of man, 
Religion, state and sanity.
Any scourge is more preferred 
Than the one which disables humanity.

When war breaks out, boundaries change 
And all who die are a token
Of the rage that must run it's course 
Before words of peace are spoken.

War I hate, though not men, flags nor race 
But war itself with its ugly face.
When we lose faith in the brave, which die 
Then we're not fit to greet those who cry.

What distinguishes war isn't death 
But that man is slain by fellow man. 
Crushed by cruelty and injustice 
With his enemy's murderous hand.

War tends to punish the punishers
So the losers won't suffer alone.
The essence of war is but violence
Till the survivors come marching home.

Sometimes it's hard to defend what's right, 
Sometimes we're forced to rise up and fight. 
Sometimes we survive, while others must die 
Sometimes never knowing the reason why.

The rush of combat is a natural buzz 
Caused by fear, leaving nothing as it was.
Hunting one another like wild game 
Without a shortage of those to blame.

Sometimes victory comes too slow or quick 
Sometimes the cost on both sides is sick.
Sometimes God is asked to intervene 
To help stop the savage from being so mean.

War is a hell we visit before death 
Fueled by the whisper of the devil's breath. 
There must be a reason man destroys man
But why it is so, I can't understand.

By Tom Zart


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A race of happiness

A mile left,
Close enough to the end,
A race of happiness,
Hold on love were almost there,
One day you will see it was worth the waith,
The sweat,the tears,the pain,
Then you will remember I was there to hold your hand,
Threw the dark times and the stormy rain,
Half a mile left,the sign is clear,please don't let go babe,
We been racing for about two years ,
We started out as friends,
Now look half a mile left to reach the end,
Sweet,beautiful,and kind,
IM so bless to have you in my life,
Step by step,hand by hand,cheek to cheek,we were always that close,would you dance with me this slow dance?
Seconds were left,as the sand was runing out this time glass,
Steps away from winning this race,the award was forever and always,
And in a blink of an eye,
You said no,
Pushing away,your hand letting go,
As tears fell down your face,
Sadly alone I reach the end,but we lost the race

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Gold Rush

Once upon a gold rush
In the midst of 68'
They rallied up the minors
To find the worthy candidate
Stand up for the people
Hook the bosses with the bait
One point for the minority
Mark it on the slate
When the tables turned
Causing havoc and debate
They fired all the workers
And won't let them past the gate
Slide through Canadian borders
To another mining state
When they went to catch the train
They found the were too late

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Choosing My Battle

We all choose our battles you said, 
In all of them you lose or gain with dread
When there is nothing to fight for, 
I stopped. There is nothing left in my core.

I dived out of an airplane 
Like in a dream AND a nightmare. 
With no parachute or a safety net 
All I could feel was that cold sweat.

With my plain hold that this chaos is true,
I gave up on my religion for you.
I lost myself, I lost "my dew" 
I fought with my whole, should I rue?
Just like you,
With dread, I choose to lose in this battle too.

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One Last Time

 It's hard for me to explain,
how I feel,
these emotions I'm having,
or how to deal,
I can't get over,
what's going on,
and I don't want to believe,
that your really gone,
I keep wishing to see you,
for one last time,
you were so wonderful, caring,
and in your prime,
I would tell you,
"I LOVE YOU", and I need you so,
and that I never, ever,
want you to go.

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True loves heart pound

Forbidden feelings I know too well
A glance to me
Communication only I can see
Or a love thats only too real
Time is ending and my thoughts circle you 
For I know my dream will never be true
As I walk away on that dreaded day 
The reality of never seeing those green eyes staring back at me 
Haunts my every step
Is this something I can truely live with
Leaving the person I call home
Unspoken words only go so far 
But they can't stop me 
You look at me 
As I stare back at you 
Will you be the last to see though
The last I no longer have to hide from 
Am I the last one to understand you 
Why can't you say its true 
Why can't it be just me and you 
I fear when I fly away 
That it will be our last day 
I run towards you 
Wanting to tell you all that is true 
Yelling that I love you 
But I stand still 
And the thought of you just being a memory 
Rips though every part of me 
A fond time I call upon when my skies are gray 
Casting you, with all the others 
Knowing you are  so much better 
You asked me once if I would die for you
In a instance without thinking anything though 
I knew...The breathes you breathed were more important to me then to you
And I'm not just going to be losing a friend
I'm going to be losing a purpose
And the beginning to my end.
I remember the day you laid on my couch 
and asked me why we were this way 
I said cuz your my little brother and I love you 
I tucked you into bed 
And you sent me off with a kiss on the head
I remember the day your promised me the world
But all I wanted to say... Was your the only thing this world can give me or take away 
And the price I pay. I will bear and grit my teeth
As long as you are happy. 
Tears falling from your now gray eyes
When I told you that day. 
You said you dont know what to do. And how can I live without you
I don't no if I can leave you
No matter how much you dont want me too 
GOD just leave with me
Pack your things and start new 
just me and you
But dreams are for sleeping. Which I never do. 
So heart ach will be felt 
And I want you too feel the same too
But don't hurt I cant wish that on you
Just miss me and promise you'll never forget me 
Because I promise I will always truly and forever Love you.
And no pain will over come the day I walk away from you
God I pray he follows me 
But unanswered prays happen everyday 
So I'll accept the day I fly away 
Will be the last day 
Our eyes meet, The last day we say everything without a sound and the last day I hear true loves heart pound

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school  can  be  boring or  fun.most  kids  don't  like  school.but  some   kids  may  get  frustrayted  or  even  sad  and  get  day you will  get  never  give  up  and  always  go to  school. Me i love to go to school! Everybody should 
have fun and enjoy school because there's lots to learn about and have a great education!!

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Rescue Me

Feels like I'm drowning in my own tears,
Is there no one in this world that can take away all my fears?
I'm asking for your help, I'm asking for your hand,
I know i cant do this with you with a band.

Take me as I am and lift me high,
I grown up way to fast, I think you can see why.
You tell me you know everything before it even comes out of my mouth,
but you cant see the fact that im from the south.

That's where all the blood, sweat, and tears came from, to only survive,
so please don't tell me that you know everything, especially how to dive.
Cause if you would of known, you would of done something about it,
instead of each time we get into this, you wouldn't throw a fit.

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A Dieu Grande Mere

It aches the heart to see you cold.
We’d not believe had we been told,
That we’d get to meet the day
The hands of death snatch you away.
But alas! That time is here
And now we’ve lost our granny dear.
We’ll miss you much, the tongue can’t tell,
That tree from which we apples fell.
We’ll miss that voice, the words it dealt,
Those hands that nursed us back to health.
Rest granny, rest, you’ve done your part
You’ll live forever dear in our hearts.
Rest Mami, rest in the Lord’s bosom,
And know your seeds will grow and blossom.
Your time is here, the baton’s passed,
We’ll do our best to hold on fast
To values learned, the lessons taught
And cherish too the blessings brought.
It pains to bid farewell to one so dear,
So teary eyed, we say a Dieu grande mere.

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Good Bye Karachi

           Good bye Karachi

Forgive me, if I have written on your  sandy Shore
Forgive  me, if  I have  made you  ever bore
Forgive me if I have said you no, never or nor
For give me…. I say with my heart’s core
My prayers are for you….. always and ever
Good bye Karachi …..May you live more

                                JAWAID PAKHRE

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Love drugs

my drug
my cure
----- pure
it's high
it lie
i'll die
i'll try
to taste
a glance
i'll chase
my chance
and live
my life
in grieve

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It Happen

Can believe it happen never thought it would
All the stuff we been through
Thought we would be together forever
But you was not there even through our loss you were nowhere to be found 
I went through it by myself
I went through depression because of our lost love and child
I am so tired of going up and down around and around
Our relationship was a full speed roller coaster
Always thought we would beat the odds 
Never thought our relationship would lead me to so much pain and tears
You left me thinking if you ever had any real feelings for me
I hope you would come back but you never did
I felt lost without you
Never thought you had it in your heart to be so cruel to us
I finally had to get it in my foolish head that you were gone forever

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You wouldn't start new, Even though it was the best thing for you

Betrayal at the end of a long list of emotions
Felt because of your longing kiss 
The best saved for last 
The one that trumped all other in the past
The hardest one that will surely last 
And it has finally come to this 
We had a great run, on that we do agree
But everything must end 
As the anger will replace over whelming love
Until the day i wake up and fly away never to be the same
But this is the path you chose
This is the answer that you gave me
When you said love is all you can see 
So is this what makes you happy?
Not running away with me 
For your presents only coldens my heart 
And your once mind stopping green eyes
Just make me remember how we fell apart
You said you wanted to start somewhere new
Somewhere are love could be true 
Yet I stand alone with three thousand miles between me and you 
So how do I make you go away 
Without hating myself in the end 
How do I let you go without letting you know
It's all your fault
The answer is simple, I don't 
For the rest of our lonely lives 
We will both remember each other
We will remember the pain
And forget the joy of having the person that truly understands
Yet not I understand,
Why you always said we were pure evil 
For what else but that,
Could watch as we killed ourselves
And as we killed the hearts of each other we called home 
For no reason, other then 
We were already dead

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The season of hope, the season of giving,
The time to reflect on the life you've been living. 
Children innocent, gleeful, jolly,
Masquerading in magical midnight folly.

Token gifts exchanged with teary eyes,
Sentimentality to make up for expressionless lies.
The streets lined bright with twinkling lights,
Amaretto, giddy to dispell never-ending nights.

The anticipation is welcomed into their chests,
The disillusioned only waiting to end their direst.
Simply a day if you've no one to share with,
Only a waiting game, until it is over with.

Just one day yet it's been another year,
Rejection was always your biggest fear.
Melancholia swelling in your heart, loneliness growing more,
Then Christmas is over and it's all back to how it was before.

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06 Generation X

Another year upon us
raw and longing
Swallow the feeling
and nonsense they're feeding
Corruption of souls
out of control
Missing in action
disasters are maximum
Defenses, expenses
apparent regreting
Incisive decisions
still failing their missions
Brainwashed from the womb
lead astray through bitter days
Broken wing in fields a blaze
programed to the pain
Follow the leader
that bleeds you dry
Follow the leader
that helps you die
Never ending
mothers cry
Same old story
diffrent times.

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rewind and breakout

this shy shell, must be broken. I need to be set free. What my heart desires, lies in the past. That one moment that one chance taken away by a broken shell and time that moved way too quickly. Take a step into the past change it. Speak up and let it out but it's too late my chance, just a blink in the past.

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A rose for you

I look out of the window and see the first buds of bloom; 
the tears start to flow as I sit in this dark and empty room,

As I sit I remember your beautiful face, 
you dressed so fine, and walked with such grace,

Every morning I sit and stare, 
as the buds grow bigger and I feel that your there,

Then one morning, as I took a glance, 
I knew then that I had a chance,

I had a chance to get through the days without you, 
the most beautiful rose with tears of dew,

I knew it was for me, it was sent by you.

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Life in the Garbage

The days in life, if you don't use them correctly,
and you spend them without doing things that you love,
it is like a good meal that you don't eat during the day
and you throw it to the garbage.
Thus if you lose your everyday meals,
near to the end of your life, 
you feel hungry,
but there is not enought food to satiate you.
and you die hungry.

Copyright Constantinos Grigoriadis © All rights reserved

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Bipolar From A to Z

Angered by the smallest things
Bipolar disorder is my king
Conveying thoughts, hard to do
Distratctions overwhelm; I'm subdued
Energy level at an all time low
Frustration beyond reason is my foe
Going places; standing idle fast
Hanging onto, "normal" visions of past
Imminent danger, doesn't seem real
Justifying my reasons; unable to feel
Kidnapped my soul, without a fee
Learning to cope and trust only me
Manic depression, or so they say
Negotiating terms of a mindset betray
Oppressed memories, trailing behind
Paralyzing thoughts, not hard to find
Quaintly waiting for me to confess
Raging temper at its very best
Selective my hearing, taking my soul
Tearful manipulation is my goal
Unconventional ideals; lies I must bare
Venomously I have waited, for my share
Wishfully longing for your return
X-rays show a mental psychosis learned
Yesterday's genious, today's broken plea
Zanily awaiting for my turn to be FREE

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I told myself before she was born I would never put her in any form of torment but it feels like she's absorbing all the horror that's's torture knowing she's not with me and I'm suppose to be her supporter, maybe I think to much cuz i feel all these vultures got get cornered, it's like life has given her some undiagnosed disorder, and she is stuck and no-one can do anything for her. Na I refuse to lose my Daughter to this abuse,I will defuse the fuse that has been lit and not let there be another bruise,I will rescue fer from the flames and make sure she is bulletproof. She will be my invincible little individual I will let no-one get to. Love and care I will supply, for her id kill and die. She is my beautiful baby, one and only Avery

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Awaiting Forgiveness Dad

I was growing up as a crazy girl, 

thinking every thing would be all right, 

with no scence to take control of what came up next, then you died. 

I was left with a shallow heart, not knowing you meant right. 

Till the day I got caught and old enough to be convicted.  

I realized life was hard and you meant right.  

Why do I now dream of you to set me straight and to forgive me dad ?  

But where are you dad? 

I feel so bad! 

I need to know you forgive me dad? 

I love you dad! 

I need you dad to tell me in my dreams every thing will be all right.

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Deep Sigh

It was the day when I was born
all were happy but I was in Mourn
What a secured place I left
As if somebody made my theft

Idea to stay in Mother's womb
Against the nature it groom
It was safe to be there
With nutritious blood and tender care
Healthy and happy was my life 
Out was sorrow,grief and strife

Now when I am born  , yet world to see
Have to be happy , accept in glee
I am over with childhood, now in teens
Crushes , infatuation , my future dreams

Adolescent now I am passing by
Years getting over , decades to try
Need to have a married life
Adorable and caring person at my side

Unfortunately pains overwhelmed
A persons entered and crushed my dwell
Darkness surrounded and world seemed Hell
Ruthless person took all my jewel
He captured the pearl and threw the shell
Tortured and slashed , marriage was dashed 
Ended with a cry , nothing else but a DEEP SIGH.

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Trapped in this world of guilt,
Tangled in the world of misery,
Unnoticed by the people I love,

Want to smile but killed by angst,
Fall behind just to think it through,
Build myself up day by day,
By lying to myself,

The lies I start to belive.

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Could it be a Endless memory?

Could it be a Endless memory?

I miss your smile that use to cover my heart with love,
And the morning kisses that blow my mind away,
And the endless dreams that could never be
That’s why I still love you,
Memory of the Past

The waves are still white
The skies are still blue
The flowers are still blooming
That’s why I still love you
Memory of the Past

We use to run the fearless joy of love
And the embracement of our youth
The lingering for excitement
That’s why I still love you
Memory of the Past

And if our path may cross again
Like 2 ships in the opposite directions
Please accept my short coming in live
That is why I still love you
Memory of the Past

The days are still endless
My mind is slipping away
Your face had faded,
But why do I still feel the longing of a memory
That is still carving in my mind so vividly?

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losing my dear friend

I just know my pain will never go away, I miss you more & more everyday
        I wish atleast on more time i can hear ur voice or feel ur touch, I just
love & miss you so much
         It's not fair why did you have to go and leave us all behind, Damn 
my nigga I wish I could go back and press rewind we should of had so much 
more time
        Without you it's hard to smile at all ,I remember everynight waiting for 
you because you would always call
         You would say "shorty" you ready to come threw,I would say yes I'll
be outside 5 minutes later he would come get me & we would go chill everynight
that's what we'd do
           Then the next day he would bring me home in the morning around 8
sometimes 9 now he's a angel of mine 
       I remember almost everynight around 10pm he would comeover to get me 
and take me to his house across the street, Our memories I play in my head on repeat 
I'm thankful that God let us meet

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Where was his helmet

Into the midnight cold he rides; 
a chance travel, on the wild side; 
this is the vision, that always repeats, 
whenever I think about that curvy Rockford Street. 
Alone he travels on his way home, 
until a mystery sends him flying into the air, 
and has him crashing into the ground far from the road. 
Where was his helmet? O’ where was his helmet? 
In pain he lays all alone, 
until two-friends rush to his aid, 
and frantically made emergency calls from his phone; 
paramedics arrive and relieve his friends, 
as his journey into the unknown slowly begins. 
Where was his helmet? O’ where was his helmet? 
Now in a hospital lying on a bed, 
with nothing but sheer pain streaking through his head, 
mom rushes into the hospital with one of her sons by her side, 
the other son was in Iraq unaware awaiting R&R and waiting on his airplane ride; 
a devastated mother and a saddened brother both watched as the youngest sighed, 
eyes watery with tears as they watched him slip into the cold night. 
Where was his helmet? O’ where was his helmet? 
I received the terrible news while I was in Ballad waiting for a good plane, 
instead I was rushed to an awful flight and my heart felt immense pain; 
I begged and I pleaded with God, 
Please O’ please let this plane crash and let everyone but me live, 
I love my youngest brother take me O’ Lord, take me instead; 
he is too young God; he hasn't truly experienced life, 
my goodness he was only twenty-eight and never had his own family, nope not even a wife; 
by the time I made it to Rockford it was too late, 
my youngest brother was forever gone as a chance travel sealed his fate; 
tears in my eyes the pain still burns deep I must admit, 
with only one question in my mind; 
Where was his helmet? O’ where was his helmet?

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Sometimes I Wonder

Sometimes I Wonder
Poem By: Sherman Badgett
Sometimes I wonder if I was dead would I be burnt to ashes or would I be buried with the possibility of having a tone stone
Sometimes I wonder will I go to hell because of my many sins or will it be heaven because God forgives
I wonder who would visit my grave site and how often would they visit
Would I be left alone on my birthday and the day I past away
If not ,who would stay with me for seconds minutes, hours or even days, how long?
Would you leave me flower on the green grass so other visitors would realize I was just shown some love by the fresh flowers left to rot
When you stare at my pictures would your eyes become Niagara Falls or would you reminisce about the past and just laugh it off
It’s hard to show tears when the person is meaningless
Knowing I’m gone y’all probably be in pain, pain causes stress, stress led to sleep or even sudden death
I wonder how someone could neglect someone they truly love
Why cant women stay close to there man during hard times
If I’m forgotten does that mean I’m meaningless
A lot of people hate when they don’t know something
So what’s the point of living if death is secretive?


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Dead Heart

screaming words that are silent,
gasping for air from losing breath,
clasping on the ground, with flowing rivers
grabbing my heart from my chest and pull it out.
the stinging sensation hurts for a moment then
my heart beats slower as it losses oxygen.
in my hands is a dead heart.
how was it possible to survive with such little notice?
but tiss the heart never had no noticed at all, 
it gets flys on it, then magets,
it then rots and leaves a strong stink,
it the disinigreats and leaves residue,
it then disappears.
Tiss there was not heart at all.

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Rain on me so I know you exist... 
If I can bring you back with just one wish. 

Let the rocks skip the river as the ripples fade away.... 
I would give my whole life for just one day. 

It seems like a dream that shattered my life... 
So I hold my head high when it hurts inside. 

What would I be if you held on tight... 
Less tears in my eyes,if it could only be right. 

You will never know the pain that I suffer... 
or what its like to loose a brother. 

Ill walk by the river and give  my affection... 
And hope to see your face,in my reflection. 

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The Father

I will not let in the day unless she be by
          and billow the sheets upon my head,
          if no billowed tresses I would find;
the sun early born I will ‘til old age deny;
          dewy leaf go!—gone!—from my bed,
          to loathe and adore body supine
and entwining heat. What repose, stead-
fast flight, can a flutter-by allay?
What little kisses adorn a cooled side,
          upon a pillowed brow unassured.
          My absentee muse of effervescence!;
and traipse such dreaming mist so blithe:
          upon a window and hot streak blurred,
          a finger to leave a light spirit-essence
wrought this small box world. Être en fleur
wetted too steady for fragile frame arise.
Where are you now? with night's moth
          clutching its soft and warming wings?--
          amidst the cold veil I cannot lift,
or black vestment atop our chrysalis cloth;
          and sweet, long malady they'll sing,
          and holy-scented billows of vapor drift,
and shut senses, I will inter between and wring.
What dispelling heat is Love and God's wrath?

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I’m lost without you in my life,
My heart aches for the love of my mother,
You should be here for me,
I know the words that I spoke, 
Were not right before you passed,
I never got a chance to make things right,
Although you were my aunt,
You were the closest thing,
I had to a mother, and I couldn’t have asked for more,
Two years since I last talked to you,
And word comes that you have passed,
So young, so very young,
You had a good life before you,
That you will never know,
I pray that you found God before you passed,
So that I can see you when I get to heaven,
At twenty-eight and so much to live for,
I want to say that you are still alive,
But I know the truth,
I wish things were different,
I will be lost without you Tia. 
RIP Meghan Marie Galaviz

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Unable To Survive

She left me in the dark, insulted and hurt. 
Because she knew in her heart, I wouldve fallen over and died for her. 
She was the only reason, my life had some meaning. 
Perhaps the only thing, put before my well being. 
She knew my pain, and she knew she was the cure. 
She kept me so sane, I thought her soul was pure. 
My heart was in her hands, so she brought it for a ride. 
She snatched it and ran, leaving me unable to survive. 
But did she really care, I was the only one who cried. 
With no tears she left me there, unable to survive. 

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Just another nightmare

Thine eyes be closed as if in a dream
when reality comes crashing at my tired feet

bridge rising up slowly 
links of metal clack-a-lackin'
brush the wings of thy angel
white with stripes that blacken

once again upon my knees
begging forgiveness for my sins
breath catches closing off my throat
realizing, it is him

try to escape his evil hands
that once beat me down
pray my strength holds true
as my neck again they wrap around

his laughter as my heart pounds
fear evident in my eyes
hoping to escape please god
to see another sunrise

room is going blurry now
i can no longer fight back
tell myself dont black out 
but Oxygen I lack

as Im slipping away 
i see my childrens faces
tears pour from my eyes 
as my pulse races

blackness comes so soothing
pain gone so it seems
i sit frantically up in bed 
not knowing twas a dream

wet with sweat I jump up 
looking around the room
fall upon my knees praying 
these nightmares will end soon

afraid to fall asleep some nights
lest I see his face
love of my children helps 
the fear be replaced

we shall make new beautiful memories 
they are like stars in the stormy dark sky
my saving grace, my angels
they shall make these nightmares die

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Ripping apart at the seams and hopeful dreams

Let me pretend 
Let me close my eyes and remember that this is a dream 
One more lie to help mend a ripping seam
Just one more moment I can forget how much my heart bleeds 
One more love that is less then what it seems 
Dear pain, the pain of dreaming, the pain of being
My dear friend, how have you been?
Through all this pretending and fake mending
I forgot our deal was still pending 
Now as my dream has ended, my payment has come due
Another part of my soul, you can now consume
A realization I constantly forget, Hope is not your best bet 
The disappointment in lost love, can't compare to the misery 
I knew I would have to bare
Ass my heart bleeds, I then run to you
The words I speak I wish weren't true 
Your eyes express the pain I can no longer feel, as I try not to explain it's not a big deal 
Words flow as I soon regret, you remind me how much I can't feel 
How much this shouldn't be real 
I've prayed to God to let me feel
He has kept his deal 
I feel anger, I feel pain, I feel loneliness
And who's to blame 
The love, The hope? 
But happiness is the missing part of the wheel 
So with pain and darkness I make another deal 
The out come is all to clear
As another part of my soul it will sire 
But the dream will remind me, that I can't give up 
I can't give in
Maybe one day the dream will come to life
Or maybe one day pain will take my will to fight 
But either way 
I'll leave the limbo between ripping apart at the seams and hopeful dreams

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Bitter Sweet

You never even saw him
as you lay soaking up the sun
tiptoeing with that bucket.
Six years old and out for fun.

The look of shock in your eyes
as the water broke your sleep
I laughed so much; sides ached
as from my eyes tears did weep.

You chased him round the garden
mock anger in your strides.
Always allowing him to escape,
giving him time to hide,

or at his birthday party
you dressed up like a clown.
All the other kids declared
"You're the bestest in the town"

Fake foam custard pies,
you faced them all the day,
never once did you cry "no more!"
"Bring it on", is all you'd say.

Rewinding all those memories
a playback to yesterdays
I live the future in the past
My present in disarray.

I remember it was a Winters day,
the snow had come early this year.
You had promised to go sledging,
our sons eyes shone with such revere.

I felt a little anxious
protectiveness, a lump in my throat
you held my hand with confidence,
your voice held that inspiring note.

"His time has come to learn to fly,
to take on the world outside.
You have taught him just and well,
now his instincts must be his guide."

I watched you both disappear,
into the white blanket, feathering down,
A nervous smile painted my lips
trying to wipe away this worried frown.

All day I kept myself busy
watching the time; so slow.
As night approached with shadows
I paced the floor, to and fro.

The knock came from nowhere,
startling my captured thoughts.
My mind racing, fractured ideas,
calm, hysteria, battled and fought.

two uniforms greeted my open door
eyes looking everywhere but at me
they had bad news. Two people had died.
The car left the road, wrapped round a tree.

My husband, my son, taken away
leaving me alone in my grief.
The spectre of death had paid us a call
stolen my family, a heartless thief.

Videotape memories don't replace whats real.
The tears, the laughter, all gone.
This house, no longer a welcome home.
My continuing life somehow just wrong.

As I slip into sleeping pill death
I hope the stories are true
that as I reach the doorway to heaven
there waiting will be my son and you.

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When the world falls apart

Where do you turn 
When the world has fallen apart 
When you are so lost 
You don't believe your worth being found 
The thought of God makes your heart pound 
And you begin to run 
Run back to the comfortable place
Where each day you wake up with another face 
Hating your life and this place
But when the light comes to close 
You run... Just to watch your world fall apart 
Something you have always known 
When the pieces are broken 
They can be easily handled 
Like a night with only a candle
Never being able to see the demons
That surround you
When the pieces slowly come together 
You realize what your past made me sether 
How much this world has taken 
And the decisions you never should have maken 
So when my world falls apart 
And I am alone 
I remember this is all I've ever known 
This time the light came too close 
I swore I wouldn't run 
 But A few steps back came all too naturally 
And as the darkness comforted me 
The light burnt my soul branding me with the memories of peace
Reminding me life doesn't need to be shattered to be fixed 
And improvement is the hardest risk 
Like waking up from an endless dream 
My eyes snap open.
And I begin to walk over shatter glass
From broken memories of the past
As the pieces dig into my skin and blood begins to flow
I realize the past is only skin deep and its time to let it go 
For shattered pieces of a broken life
Will eventually pass as I walk closer to the light 
And the pain of yesterday 
Will be remember as if it was someone else's life 
For once I know I was always strong enough to win this fight 
And the past was hard only because I had no future 
So when the world falls apart look ahead
Because the light will come again
And remember the darkness not as you see
With the candle of the demons and forgotten memories
But as it truly is... A place of eternal darkness 
Where no one can go and no one ever wants to be

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Are they With You

Are they with you?

If you wish to seek that feeling
wish to feel those chills all over 
your body
wish to reach that inner glow 
then please follow so 
if not, then you will never know
this place you always long
where you seek where you 
dream that you are there
the scene the smell 
nothing else compares
who is it that you love?
are they there with you?
what kind of feelings do you 
have ?
right now, this minute..
is this place, that your at now 
does it make you feel alive?
the person you love 
what makes you love them?
how would life be with out 
this dream 
this destination
would it be any better if they 
we'rnt there?
or is it a place that you can 
have you got faith to trust 
with everything?
what is it that you wake up for?
is it love? is it just day by day 
do you believe the one beside 
is with you on the same 
would allow you to be free 
with them 
walk on water 
fly in the clouds 
not held back 
a free spirit 
do they let you be 
when you need to flee
a question with out cause 
is irrelevant with out answer 
a dream or destination 
at arms length, tight grip 
or a thousand miles away
either way alone or someone 
beside you 
can make that reality easy to 

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angel nanna

my nanna was like one of many family /friends id rely on te one id g run to when i cant run to noone else. She was the one that always toldme when i had stomach surgery be strong brea it will get better.
 She was the one that said brea if you put your mind to it you can acomplish your cookbooks be the best chef ever she was always the one if im upset orin the worst pain ever she'd find some way to cheer me up even if it was talkn bout guys on in or recipes the times me and her would talk bout her hethern .how she wants me to get my GED and goto college to be a chef.

Well nanna i put my feet down in the ground more i aint giving up im gonna start my GED study guids finish my 1st cookbook with then the next 2weeks 

Ilove u nanna always

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There in my heart there is you,

I have perceived the pathway of truth and asked for you soul, 

At a moment like this i say my love is undying,

 I wanted to take it in my hands but without your desire or surprise i put away my intentions 

of softly feeling any part of you, 

Although i am not resigned to shutting away your heart, 

It was a fragment of what i felt, 

what i know and what my heart truly needs, 

so it is, so it will be and for so it has been time out of love..

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Life on Earth

I want to leave the earth, and go beyond the stars.
What I see here, is just buildings and cars.

Life on this planet, is this way how I rate.
Its so ordinary, it is nothing great.

Start off with school, and lead a college life.
Then get into kitchen and learn to hold the knife.

Take a big loan, and fly abroad.
Got a foreign degree? You have struck the chord!

But all this not for knowledge, its just for the money.
People can do anything, to gain even a penny.

Corruption and politics is spread everywhere.
I don’t remember when was peace in the air.

Bombing the planes and bombing the trains.
I see tears more than the rains.

And if there are rains, they are filled with acid.
Even under bright lights, life is not placid.

People in the city, spend for nothing good.
While those in the villages, are starving without food.

This is the world today, and will be the same tomorrow.
If we don’t change it, we’ll have only sorrow.

So let’s all unite, and make the planet shine.
Till then I’ll repeat, the same thought of mine.

I want leave the earth, and go beyond the stars.
Where life is something more, than just buildings and cars. 

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broken promises

you   said  you  were  gonna  take  me   to  the  movie's 
you  said  you were   gonna   take  me out  for  dinner
you    said you  were  gonna  take  me  to  the  mall
but   you     broke  your  word.

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Sex And Lies

 A Broken Kiss
Leave To Only Deep Lies
He Spread My legs L(Legs) O(Open) V(Very) E(Easy)
As I Lay In The Bed
He Stole My Passion
My Love My Insanity 
Deep Thoughts To The Humanity
Tears Cross My Face
Of Humiliation, Embarrassing
Killing My Feelings
Which Feels Unreal
Thinking He Love Me,
He Cherish Me
Not REALLY Knowing It
Was Only Sex And Lies
What he Said To Me I Thought It Was The Truth, Not Knowing It Was Hidden Lies For My Legs To Get Open.. 
But My Feelings
Got Into You
You Dang Sex A File..!!!!

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To My Dad

i never wouldve thought you'd leave me,
i wanted you by my side,
no Daddy when i was little,
to hug me when i cried.

you left me all alone,
you left me here to fall,
it was mommy always catching me,
cuz you didnt care at all.

you left me here confused,
not even 3 years old,
i grew up knowing nothing,
cuz about you i was never told.

my friends ..they all had daddys.
to hold their little hand,
but i was there alone,
cuz you couldnt be a man.

when fathers day came around,
i didnt know where you were,
i couldnt send you the card i made,
cuz if you were alive i wasnt sure.

my friend says shes a Daddys girl,
i didnt even know what that meant,
she says shes always with her Daddy,
but a day with you ive never spent.

i thought to myself..i cant call myself a Daddys girl,
cuz its just been me and mom,
my older brother was there too,
to teach me right from wrong.

what made you go and ditch me,
was i just a big mistake?,
i didnt have my "Daddy",
theres only so much a Daughter can take.

you didnt call for my birthday,
did you happen to forget it?,
cuz i never forgot about you Dad,
not even for a minute.

So im older now,
eighteen years on my own,
cuz you werent there throughout the years,
so now im fully grown.

you were never here for anything,
you didnt even meet my prom date,
ive accomplished so much Dad,
you didnt even see me graduate.

ive met the love of my life Dad,
he really makes me smile,
but i dont know where on earth you are,
so i guess you cant walk me down the aisle.

dont bother coming around now,
dont even try to apologize,
i dont ever wanna meet you now,
cuz i know you wont look me in the eyes.

its ok Dad dont worry about me,
cuz im a lady grown,
i learned to succeed without you,
since you left me all alone.

So i guess this is goodbye now,
this is the ending of my poem to you,
Antonio Escobar was your name,
your the "Dad" i never knew.

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The sun rises,
Bloodshot red sky.
Tainted by blossoming bullet holes.

Can I ever return
To the naivety of ignorance?
Whistling and explosives echo in my head.
Fade to black. Again.

The inky night,
Spreads like infection
Over the horizon like whispers, 
Tendrils of numbness.

Can you ever return,
From your fragmented slumber?
Don't make me face my demons alone.

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How Do We Say Goodbye

How do we say goodbye to someone
We knew for so long
We feel the urge to visit places 
where they used to belong
We on things they used to do and say
No one not even me thought about this day
How do we say goodbye to someone
We grew up with though out the years
Someone who we shared many happy tears
How do we put it all together
How do we patch the holes in our hearts
How do we say goodbye
To our beloved one
To our ray of sun
Even though tears may run
We say In loving memory
Jacquelyn Gates goodbye for now

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thank you

thank you  for the  nice things you  say   about  me.
thank you  for the  nice thing's you  bought  me
thank you  for  doing  good  things  with  me.
thank you  for  helping me when i   needed  a  helping  hand.
now  what's  all  left  to  say  is...................................
thank  you  thank  you  thank  you  thank you

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Colors turn Gray

my life is my pain, my pain is my life,

lost bonds, friendships and love long gone

hate fills my eyes, my eyes are filled with dismay,

my soul dies, heart cracked colors turn gray,

clouded sight, misery laced within my blood

pain is that of delight, for i no longer feel love

my bones get week, heart and soul dies,

alone i walk the street, confused by the night skies

the feeling that bare, are that of pain and fear,
my soul tells me not to care, for love  i have shed my last tear

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we made a pact he and i
that wed be best friends til the day we died
things got crazy and life sure changed
he had the baby and i just managed
to continue on with my life
things got bad things got ugly
my life took a turn for the worse
but our pact still remains
true til death
do we have any better friends then the ones we had as kids
i dont think so
life was so simple and pure whyd it have to change
i dont know
but the pact still remains

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Every Once In Awhile

every once in awhile, i wonder how you're doing
every once in awhile, the thought goes right through me
every now and then, i have a fond memory
every now and then, i remember you were in fact the enemy
every once in awhile i think about the birth of our child
every once in awhile it stings,but it's oh-so mild
every once in awhile i remember the first time we made love
every once in awhile i recall praying to the stars above
when you put me down,insulted me,always brought me to tears
when you shook me,choked me,slapped me,poked me for 3 whole years
every once in awhile i remember how it was to be so timid
every now and then i think my god he really did it
every once in awhile, i miss you,yes this is true
but only every now and then you see,you cannot make me blue
every once in awhile i have good memories and want to cry
but then i remember how the majority of our time was and me just wanting to die
every once in awhile i wonder what would have happened if we'd stayed
 i make myself keep on working ive to i got to get paid
every now and then i see a handsome,sweet,moral guy
that i left in my past,and flew right by,and then i wonder why
but if im honest with myself,which is sometimes hard to do
you and i were oil and water,and we both knew it true
you were agressive,i was submissive,that is a lethal combonation
i was a girl,you were a man,who knew what to say,i was taken
so yes.every once in while i miss you. 
id be lying if i said it wasnt so.
but the truth of the matter,i had to do..
i had to make you go
sometimes i think of you with positive memories,but thats mostly for our child
now and then i forget all the misery
but thats only every once in awhile

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Shoe's for Wing's

I am standing in the rain wanting you to be here. 
You are in heaven, yet I feel you are very near. 
You was only two when God chose to call you home. 
Now I will never worry that you may be all alone. 
I think about your smile and and all your little ways. 
odd how your gone but your memories are here to stay. 
I know your the cutest angel. 
I would love to hear you sing. 
You are such a brave boy. You traded your shoes in for wings

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from the side line

I watch from  the side line as you walk for the very first time. Tears strolling down my face, 
wishing that I could be there watching you. I long to hold you in my arms and never let you 
go. It's hard knowing that someone else is raising you, when I am your birth mother. As I 
see your sweet little face with a smile so wide that I want to just pick you up and hold you 
close. I hear the word moma come out of your mouth and I ache inside. I know that I gave 
you up so that you could have a better life, but it still hurts to wake up and know that you are 
gone. I love you baby girls and I know that one day mom will be able to see the both of you. 
I watch from the side lines as the two of you grow up to be the princesses that you are. I 
long to be the one waking up with you in the middle of the night when you're sick or have 
had a bad dream. I know it just can't be though. Mom is only 18 and she needs to get her life 
together. So I watch from the side line hoping and praying that one day you will understand. 
Understand why I gave the two of you up to have a better life then I could have gave you. I 
love you Aaliyah and Kierra.

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The sweet scent of sea salt across your face
 The million miles between our hearts both time and space
 Memories of laughter, dancing and love together in one place
 Do you remember the dress I wore and my white veil of lace? 

 The years have come and gone, but I'm still here
 With each passing moment a breathless hope that you draw near
 Pondering still on how it all ended, so much left unclear
 Watching my changing reflection in this broken mirror
 The end creeps closer in each passing moment, alone in death I fear

 Blue majestic mountains set in front a fiery tipped orange sun
 Only first seen truly with my eyes when into your arms I did run
 Fate was set and paths chosen nothing to be undone
 All the time spent together, long passionate nights of fun
 Weight on my shoulders must weigh more than a ton

 You loved me once and  my heart was only for you
 Why such a harsh decision in the end we both came to
 Your eyes now only see a sky of green and the ocean blue
 A fog has set in and the past has become a hue
 12,000 miles away from me your heart flew 

 The hands of the clock are coming to a stop
 They say my heart no longer works and my blood pressure will drop

 My thoughts are with you as I leave this wrinkled shell
 I hear beautiful music and the distant familiar sound of a ringing wedding church bell

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According To The Stats

All bombs cause destruction exemplifying 
fanatic ghastly heartless infamous
jar, kindling loathe, machination nefarious 
operations pitilessly quashing
rabid sanguineous tyranny, uncivilized violence, 
warlike xenophobia, yielding zilch!

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The sky is light
The moon is brighter
The paths are clearer
The fastest legs ply

Abonyi village stands in silence
To wails of frogs and flies
Only the stubborn child cries
To the ‘chu-ko chu-ko’ sounds of beds

The day has been bade well
The gongs of my heart struck
The earliest crow heard

The windows of the eyes,
Still fixed
The doors of the ears,
Widely left ajar
Foregoing the croaks in a yard
Awaiting the tiptoes of a mile

But to-dawn
The tiptoes of the sneaker,
Has faded
Drowning with it
The whispering escort
My door is barren
Refusing to imitate the dawn’s before
Where the tiptoes of the sneaker;
Careful to avoid the distract of the roosters
The gentle struck on a door
And the soft whispers of a lover
Tickles the ears of an expectant

Aw! The spell of poverty
Striking the young of Abonyi village
Has compelled the sneaker, my lover
Into the big mouth of no-man’s-land
In search of a better tomorrow

The night still glows cold
Longer than ever told
With loneliness,
Striking the note of the good times
Once spent together

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sudden truth

sudden truth
of love unknown
my wasted youth
i have out grown
old and stupid
and in my silence
pity my cupid
for i no sense…
for i not say
what i must speak
for i not stay
with in her cheek
still d’same
and never grown
a boy in stain
a man not shown

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My Forever Friend

By Robielynn Collins 

  I never knew what I had, 
until he was gone for good, 
and if I could, I'de go back in time, 
and change the way it should, 
see, I cared about you, in my own way, 
and never in the world did I mean to betray, 
because you were my friend, 
from dusk to dawn, 
and I never, ever thought, 
that you would be gone, 
out of my life, in the blink of an eye, 
but atleast you cared enough. 
to say: GOOD-BYE!

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Irish Woman

Where are you now, 
Irish woman? 
Which universe
Did  you choose for home? 
Which universe
Did you choose for your tropical adventure? 
Which one is your garden? 
Which universe has your favorite stars and moons

Which universe is welcoming you? 
Which one is fearful
From your eyes, 
Your hair, and your lips.
Which universe
Will be your next destiny.
Which universe your love could possibly 
And I still have time 
To reach
And exist?

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scars left behind

What a tradgedy when they flew the planes into the twin towers
such thought out violence in the heart of those men
what about the wife who lost her husband that day
what about the son who lost his dad
brother sister mother all died because of hatred
that was a sad day even though i did not  know any of those people
the whole act of terrorism is evil
why take anothers life who has done you no wrong 
purposely destroying him and others lives
what right do they have 
it is totally wrong 
when i saw that my heart sunk 
i felt so sad and angry at the same time
it was so horrific 
to the ones that lost love ones my heart goes out

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Freedom is here

I look and see nothing
I`m hurt and don’t feel it
I grow up and do not understand 
But freedom is here.

My fellow man is smiling
My enemy is crying
My life goes on just the same
But freedom is here.

I`ll try to keep it
I`ll try to destroy it 
I`ll try to embrace it
But freedom is here.

A child without food
A heart without love
A soul without morale
But Freedam is here.

Freedom Come 
Freedom Stay
Freedom is here
But are we free?

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My dark friend

An evil falls within your bodyThat no one can see
A darkness that's meant for you and me 
Never in this world have I found a soulAs evil as dark as broken as mine
Hood up eyes darken your heart beats slower as you walk my way
A friend of mine you have changed
Every muscle in my body tells me to run Away 
My heart feels the painAs my soul watches its twin walking in 
Sliding down the wallUnable to do anything else
Breathing quicken as I feel you next to me
Eyes open to see evil itself in front of meA growl flows from the familiar places
Your breathe burns my neck in the best ways
Scared of what I see but I can't push you away 
I lean farther to the cornerAnd in the moment of my weakness 
You went in for the killYour body pushed against mine
Your teeth on my neckGrowling As I knew in any second my life could be through
Your teeth scrapping my neckAs you breath filled my ears and blow my hair
No where to run,not wanting to scream
Curling into my selfYou pull my arms away 
Pinned now Held by your power
The darkness covers me and I give up the fight
My Evil rises My demons once again walk
My resting place I have found, an understanding of the claimed now
Unleashed and untamed I look into your eyes
Only to find the light is gone,The humanity has fallen
Now I see everythingNo shield No glamor 
Blackness pours out of your eyes as if they were waterfalls
My mind tells me to be scared The light in my soul says to pray
Voices said that you were hear to make me learn 
To teach me the ways 
We are the two that our cursed
Smiles cross our faces I now no where I completely belong
Your hand reaches outI can't resistsThe peace the comfort 
I'm Home as I accept his hand and my life begins to fall away 
Now I understand that I am yours
I know who you are As the world passes us by
You pull me off the wall and lead me towards his victims 
Or are they our friendsLooking around they see nothing different 
My hand in his as we stand by there sides
A moment in time we shared A moment only we could see 
As if someone stopped the turn of this world 
I Urn for the feeling of our darkness
It whips away all the pain, It connects us in a ungodly way
Feening for this drug again, Sober scares us into the light
Stoned enables us to find the meaning of our life
You are my connection to what is ours
You are my darkness that pulls me back from the light
You are what reminded me of why I am here
We were meant to meet meant to invoke the powers we were giving
And save our selves from each other

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I wish Id never met you

I wish id never met you
cause all you've brought is pain
I loved you with all I had
But I realize now
I only loved the person
I thought you were
you changed and then
you broke my heart
I wish id never heard you say
those sweet, but horrid words
I know you never loved me
You only lied to please me 
Now you say I'm just a girl
From pasts now forgotten
I'm only a girl that you once loved
But you still the one
I see each time I close my eyes!!!!
You haunt me and it's all my fault
But I wouldn't  change what I've done!!!
Casue I never really  love you
Just the person I though you were......

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Save a Child!

Another Beloved Child Dying;
Enduring Fright.
Grieving Hearts Ignite!
Justice Kindles,
Maintain Needed Observation.
Passionately & Quickly Reunite!
Save Time,
Uncover Viels!
X-hibit Yearning Zeal!

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I dreamt again of you last night
 You looked exactly the same
 Your eyes full of passion burning so bright
 And we laughed together until the morning came

 It feels so real when you are there
 Like the years have not come to pass
 The cards we were dealt were not fair
 And our hearts fed to wolves of the mass

 I miss the sound of your laughter
 And the big smile I used to bring to your face
 I thought in the end a happy ever after
 But that just wouldn't be the case

 I know by now you don't look as I imagine
 That time has changed us both
 You,  a person i was never to abandon
 I wanted nothing more than to swear my oath

 How much has changed since our days of youth
 We have both found others to eas the pain
 Only in this poem can I finally speak the truth
 That in my heart you shall forever remain

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The ABC'S oF Addiction

A   ddictive
B   ehavior
C   auses
D   enial.
E   verything
F   eels
G   reat.
H   owever,
I     t's
J   ust
K   icks.
L   ife
M   eans
N   othing.
O   piates,
P   ot,
Q   uaaludes--
R   eality 
S   ucks!  
T   he
U   niverses'
V   ast
W   atseland.
Y   ou're
Z   apped!

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What they did to the child slowly eats me alive.

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time heals best.
better than the rest. 
time heals all wounds.
so much better and band-aids. 
band-aids cover it up, but don't take away the pain.
and don't erase it from your brain. 

time heals all scars.
and helps put an end to the tears.
its helps get rid of the sadness.
and helps to feel happiness.
time will seal all the cracks. 
and burry it so deep you wont think of it for years. 
time is the best medicine. 

getting over someone.
after they've left you to be alone.
takes alot of healing.
time and crying. 
untill you see. 
maby it wasn't ment to be.
maby they only lied to you.
but the best thing do to.
is let time do its thing

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my pain since u been gone

 just know my pain will never go away, I miss you more & more everyday
        I wish atleast on more time i can hear ur voice or feel ur touch, I just
love & miss you so much
         It's not fair why did you have to go and leave us all behind, Damn 
my nigga I wish I could go back and press rewind we should of had so much 
more time
        Without you it's hard to smile at all ,I remember everynight waiting for 
you because you would always call
         You would say "shorty" you ready to come threw,I would say yes I'll
be outside 5 minutes later he would come get me & we would go chill everynight
that's what we'd do
           Then the next day he would bring me home in the morning around 8
sometimes 9 now he's a angel of mine 
       I remember almost everynight around 10pm he would comeover to get me 
and take me to his house across the street, Our memories I play in my head on repeat 
I'm thankful that God let us meet
             It's so hard to understand I'll never see you again I miss you so 
much my dear friend RAMON since your not here I'm all alone 
           It use to always be shorty & cholo, Now it's me,myself and I 
I'm now riding solo :(

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Endless loop

Tears fall down like crashing waves
Pain that follows me through everyday 
Broken and abandoned 
I turn to myself 
No one else is left to help 
A darken space where family should be 
A rotten taste as they make me bleed
Torched everyday, for words i dare not say 
A year and you ran from that place 
Beaten and forgotten, in the world you had no place 
Yet I'm going countless years strong 
With no way to tell this is all wrong 
Love was never taught yet numbness made the learning curve 
I dream as if one day it will all go away 
But I know tomorrow is just the same day 
I hate hope more then life 
Yet without it there is no reason to fight 
Hope is better then nothing 
So I hold on tight 
Dreaming of a day without fright
So I dream of things Ill never have
Pretending one day it wont be this bad
What else is there to do 
When your stuck in an endless loop 

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miss u more and more

Eachday I miss u more & more
I get so weak i feel like dropping to the floor
    It's hard for me to comprehind that I'm never gonna see you again You were more than just my bestfriend 
    In my life you were one of the closest friends I ever had
I can't believe ur not here It's hitting me so fukn bad

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i went to the park

you  were there  i  turned  around  and  tryed  to   walk  away.
the  littlle   boy  i  was   babysitting  wanted to  go on  the  swings.
so  i  covered  my   face  when  when  we   got  there  you  noticed me
you  walked  over to  me  and  said  i  know  you  from   work.i  tryed  to tell  him  i   
only  said   you'r  ugly  because  I  was  tricked   by  the  girl  that  does  not  like  
me. dressed  up  as  me  and  walked  over  to  you  and  said  you  were  ugly.

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Love and Pain

All betrayers cause deep emotions,
Fearing great heartache in jaunting knowledge,
Love may never overcome pain,
Quailing real sensitivity 
Time umbellate vessels
While X, yields zero

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hey Dad

I miss you
Maybe, you might be missin me?
My heart is not geared for this
maybe you could help me?
help me fix this mess.

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nuclear bomb

blinding light 
rolling thunder 
fires from the gates of hell

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the thought of not having you

the thought of not having you is not how i wanted it to be,
the thought of not having you is a great loss for me.
the thought of not having you for our lives hasn't begun,
the thought of not having you for we will not be as one.
the thought of not having you will be sadness and loneliness,
the thought of not having you for there will be no happiness.

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the beautiful

All The Beautiful things in my life bring me back to you. 
the softend flower pedals drifting slowly towards the ground. reminds me of the way you would dance so gracfully with me across the marble stone floor . 

The way the smell of the sweetend strawberrys floats by my nose , reminds me of the way you would kiss me so sweet and tenderly . 

All the Beautiful things in my life bring me back to the way we would walk around without a care in the world thinking of nothing but eachother. oh how i wish these feelings would be more then a scent , or a feeling or catching something out of the corner of my eye . 

but when i close my eyes your precious face catches the sun and your eyes sparkle with the gimmering stars high above.. oh all the beautiful things... the beautiful thing you are. '

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Black Rose of Love

       The dread black rose has such  dark meaning to it.
       It can never find a way to a heart .
       The Thorns are deadly t all who touch and hold .
        The Black pedals on that on the rose show pain and suffering and loss .  
        A Creation of such darkness such Agony and Despite  in it .
        How  does a person turn such a creation a Black Rose into a Red  Rose .
        The Black Rose of Love is  heart ache , pain , hatred  for your love of people and things .
 For that is the Black rose of love  

                      Stay away from the Black Rose of Love.

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why do i have to be scared , i fear being replaced , being the real thing , but not enough to keep my spot in your heart .i keep my head high , try not to think about it, i try everything but it doesnt help . i fear being nothing without you seeing me the same way . your veiw on my is changing i see it , i feel it . im slowly being pushed away .its for the best since when is being replaced the best , since when is not being good enough , for the best .

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The Avoided Day

This is not just another day
The clouds above all seem gray
None of us know what to say
My mind needs to stay focused and not go a stray
I remember the days we used to play
It is the Life we need to portray
Or is this final come what may
I want to be selfish and make her stay
I guess this is the time we all need to pray
You tell yourself this is all going to be okay
There are some things I wish we could delay
Reality is here and it is planned this way
Because this is the price we all must pay.

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Just isnt enough

What do I do when being me just isnt enough?

What do I do when I try to look my best
just to impress you.

What about when I try so hard to get your
attention but you just turn away.

Am I not so tough,
that I let my guard down.
And I let you inside, every time.

What do I do when the memory of you
fades away but slowly I die inside
to be with you.

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Sandwiched between the gray walls
He moaned and groaned
The pain of losing a friend was horrendous
Shadows moved past his eyes
Just like in the movies

He stood and run
One door led to another and to another 
and ...
Same wall, like shadows
Time stood still
The everlasting sorrow
The endless pain

He looked back
Nothing changed-
Except the intensifying pain
and … the shape of the shadows
He run
But he was trapped in the countless paths 
For eons

He paused to get a new breath of fresh air 
But just for a second!
He heard the noises 
And started to run ...

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Red Rose

Like this single red rose,
our hearts are but one.
The tears that flow,
are like rivers,
never really ending.
The prayers keep going,
because I know you can hear.
The bond we once shared,
has yet to be taken.
Your lost soul,
has yet to be found.
When this ends,
like your life,
I will still be here,
but yet you will not.

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Don't know

I don’t know what’s going on or what I did wrong.
I tell myself I don’t miss you, but I can’t deny the truth. 
I think of you every time- every time our song comes on.
And every time I hear your name, I remember nothing’s the same.
It’s starting to become clear, I don’t really need you here.
Things were better with you around, like how I felt safe and sound.
But the truth is, you’re gone now. so why don’t you take a bow;
It doesn’t matter what we’ve been through, my heart still belongs to you. 
And I don’t know what’s going on, ‘cause without you everything’s wrong. 

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the game

behind me in shades of grey
where eight balls in corner pockets lay 
subtle reminders when i close my eyes
of all that was before good bye

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IM writing what I call a poem story.
IM writing this poem story,
for all the fathers just like me.
 Who wasnt giving a chance to be a daddy.
My first job was working on a golf course being a caddy.
Watching the fathers, and their sons playing golf.
Wishing one day I would be a daddy.
But that wasnt meant to be.
My dream was to get married and raise a family.
Be come a proud father and a daddy.

My first wife delivered to me.
A bundle of joy,a baby boy, we named bobby.
I was a proud father as I could be.
When I saw my son smile and look at me.

My first wife delivered to me three more children.
At last I had a family.
Needles did I know,I was a father.
 But never had a chance to become a true daddy.

I got us a little house,and a blessing from the LORD.
He gave me a good job at a motor company called FORD.
The more I worked to put food on the table.
The harder I worked,the more my wife and I drifted apart.
Finally one day she left us all alone with broken hearts.
I never really knew reason for leaving and her reason why.
She never even said GOODBYE.

Some time I look back to the past.
I asked the GOOD LORD,were we to young, and had a family to fast?
I tried to keep the family together,but it was hard on me.
So the CHILDREN DIVISION,step in and took the children from me.

My children didnt understand,they said I was to blame.
My oldest son,was so hurt he even changed his name.
From that moment on,I knew it wasnt meant to be.
Never again was I giving a chance to be a father or a true daddy.

GOD saw I was fit from above,
And he sent me down another ANGEL to love.
Her name is BARBARA,a mother not giving a chance to be a mommy.
 I am a father,that never giving a chance to be a daddy.
But together with our cats,GOLDIE,and CALI.
BARBARA and me love each other,and we are still a family.

Sometimes our lives,dont turn out what we want it to be.
Even though we never became a true mommy or true daddy.
BARBARA and me love each other,and we are still a true FAMILY.

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waiting hoping

Another night i am on my knees 
asking will there ever be a day you will come back to me
let me tell you what you took away when you left 
my best friend whom you i love till death
my heart you held in your hand
now you are with another man

here are some of the things you gave since you have been gone
a broken heart a lonely home
sadness up to my neck
i loved you so much what the heck
what were you thinking to leave such a good loving man

since your departure i have been on my knees
waiting hoping you still have love for me

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mama ethel

mama ethel even though you,ve left us
we know where you are
GOD called you up to Heaven
to be one of His shining stars

we know you are reunited with dad 
your one and only love
and the family cant wait to see you again
in heaven up above

so dear mama wait by the gate
with your arms open wide
that will keep us all going
till we meet you on the other side

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Mesmerized by your petty smile

At peace when you’re near

Real breathtaking

Interesting the way you are

Beautiful the way you look

Enjoyment when you are around

Light shins when you’re close

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Creator Daughter she not or wife

There she has his foot stool, for all that won't give
her their bread, her inside voice and out voice is 
different, there her saints don't believe that the 
hornets his daughter inlaws, the feeling of ice
in there blood, there they have a voice for all
goodness out  and inside different. don't do
it don't make saints out of  hospitals their
friends live like millions. give it away, they
don't give their last cent, they don't work
for nothing. give it away this work it will stop them.

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Why Mom

Its almost been 3 years
Since you left us here alone
Why did u have to go?
I need you now like I always have
No matter how much pain you caused
You took my heart and shattered it Mom
We were supposed to be your everything
We are all u should have needed
Why did u let yourself fall?
I tried to hold you up no matter how young I was
I feel like I wasnt good enough
But I know it was the drug
That made you mean
There are some things I wish I never seen
I'm getting older now I'm 23
I got a beautiful baby girl u never got to see
I was 6 months pregnant when u left me
All alone and scared not knowing what to do
And all I really needed was YOU
You dont know the pain you've caused me to feel every single day
My emotions are like a game I never want to play
I dont want to handle the pain
It cuts like a knife so deep inside
Mom Why?
We loved u so much and never got a chance to show it
Why did u have to go and leave us here alone?
Amanda Fisher January 2009

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Back Home

I couldn't even think,
For suddenly i wasn't there,
I'd vanished in a blink.
I haven't got the least idea where i am standing now,
I'd like to get back home again,
But simply don't know how.
I hope this doesn't last too long,
For though it doesn't hurt.
But still please show me the way if you can,
So i can go back home.

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Johnny is a young little boy who lives for fright and fear, he lives in a cottage out in
the woods were howling is easy to one day he went up hill to try his new found
magic but it went up in flame as he is to blame for what would happen so tragic.for he
realized soon that gone was the moon that lit up the night sky, as he cried through the
night at the scary sight the bright orb was out from a high.

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There are those who reach an age past  100,
while some never chanced to live.
There are those who share their blessings,
while some choose not to give.

There are those who have never gone hungry,
while some never survive.
There are those who find fame and fortune, 
while some dreams shatter and die.

There are those who are rich and famous,
while some are poor and alone,
There are those with power and possessions,
while some are without a home.

There are those who are happy and healthy,
While some are sick and depressed.
There are those who believe life is the end,
while some say:  “it was just a test!”

By Milton Lopez Delgado
December 4, 2011

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The One and only Love

that down ass love, the kind you feel from your head to your toes,
unexplainable and yet still, the feelings stay fresh, 
to be inpatient to see them, wait to hear their voice on the other end of the line, 
A love that bonds to you, holds you, brings tears from happiness, from the sadness 
of when you are not with them. A simple hug that lets you know without a word, without a doubt, that you are the only one.
He Loved strong, I felt it within my spirit, now that he is an Angel, I know he stays with me in Spirit, for our Love was unbreakable, unstoppable..
I sit and sometimes long to feel his arms and sense his presence, somewhere, letting me know he never meant to leave me. My heart is in a constant ache from missing him. I Love you my Teddy Bear Taotasi "Bolo" Mataafa, we will be togather when it is my time. Until then, I hold you and our memories close to my heart, We have a Beautiful Son, who looks just like you, my Love.

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What I Fear The Most In Life.

I was thinking last night, i was covered in tears. I had this 
fear of losing my parents. My parents mean the world to 
me. My parents know who I am. I would be lost with out my 
parents, I love my parents.

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Sorry mom and dad

Daddy, mommy, sorry
For all I've cause you bad,
Forgive me for the things I've done
The times I got you mad.
I have not meant to hurt you on
Dispoint your dreams,
But sometimes when it all looks bad
its better than it seems..I know
I've let you both down
So many times before,
But now it's time to dry your eyes
I'll see your pain no more.
I don't expect you'd let me
Or even say good-bye,
So remember this is all for you
For your happiness I die.




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she woudn't listen to me she woudn't at all she said it was his fault, but he took 
the fall, it wasent him it was me she wont listen to me you see,i,ve tryed 
everything i,ve tryed them all i even tryed to smash my head into a wall.She wont 
listen she wont at all i wil never get her to listen to me ,only to the man who took 
the fall.
i,ve tryed my best she woudn't listen now shes makeing me listen, shes says its 
him i did nothing she sayed it was he who was lusting.if she would listen i would 
tell her to, but she wont listen so i am through.i wil try to forget i wil try to not regret 
she still rights poems of this loss i can't stoper for i am not the boss.
im afraid if she doesn't listen
she wil get in trouble and wined up in this is my poem about her i wil 
not forget not once indeed.for it is my fault that i took her man indeed.

               ~~^>{CARLIE BLACK}<^~~

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No Love

I failed to see,
What i had with me.
Our love was so strong,
and now its gone.
My heart is in peices,
my tears rush heavily down my face.
I look at myself with such discust,
I lost the only person i ever loved.
Now there's nothing left,
Just a empty soul with no love......

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I am the sandman bringer of fear taking you're soul and removing all that is dear .
I see when you're sleeping you cannot hide because I am the shadows right by you're side.
I am the reaper that makes you're heart bleed taking you're fear on which I feed .
You may think its safe when you wake, knowing its over while you shiver and  shake .
But don't worry I'll continue the pain and one day just maybe it'll drive you insane.

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for lovers


If I die tomorrow I really would not mind
I say this because I have lived my time

and I thank God for every moment we share
even if we argued I still knew you cared 

so when I leave this earth 
and they burry me in the cold lonely dirt

I will ask god watch out for you
as I will always do 


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Trying to get over you...

I thought i saw you today in a car,
I know it wasn't you because you live very far,
Everyone i look at i see your face,
I hope im not making myself a big disscrass,
I know it's hard to think about this,
When all i want from you is a single kiss,
This might sound weird, but this will help us know if we are met to be,
The way you look at me you should see,
I feel angry yet i don't,
Im trying to love you but it's not my fault,
Im guilty for i think i have put you through alot,
But i know i will never get a single shot,
With you Loving me there will be a not,
Your still my friend and i hope you know,
that my Love for you will always grow,
I hope one day you allow me in your heart,
that would give me a good start,
So i will wait for you to become free,
and maybe one day you will fall in Love me.

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Ill miss you when I'm gone

I'll miss you all when I'm gone
I hope I won't be gone for so long
I'll remember all the good times
I hope this poem really rhymes
Don't shed a tear
Cause I will always be here

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I can't go in our room
It's empty
and full of things you discarded
cigarette butts, phone numbers without names
lonely things not shared but bombarded
so I shut the door
like I shut out your leavin me
that door, it just keeps talkin
might as well paint that door red
I'm thinkin bout puttin my shoes on
remember? with the big, clunky heels?
I'm thinkin bout kickin that damn door in

Hah! Kimmy

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Melt the Ice and Set me Free

My eyes are opened, the dream is done
The seasons change, the temperature bends
It's time to smile, reality has begun
I must prepare for what fate sends

I still remember those flesh freezing nights
She shared her warmth with open arms
Now the nights are over, the sun shows light
and she rests in another man's arms

Her face, body, and soul I adore
Her heart beating violently in her chest
I will see them never more
I've fallen for her like the rest

I'll drown her memory with these goddamn pills
Write endless poems in her memory
Free myself from the cold with what kills
and smother those feelings for her deep in me

Her Icy Scream in the Frozen Years
lies within me, feeding off my fears
No one will see me endless tears
Love only falls away, it never nears
I'm forever plagued by the frozen years
But someday another will come to me
Melting the ice, setting me free

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long ass poem about cool

But I still afford cigarettes
still got the roof
I keep my IT Clean

MaYBE they won't know
i need 4 shots to deal
sEE MY damn fOOl hands
i cain'T keeP EM STILL

sister, baby, brother
aunt like was my MOTHER


i've not talked to my dad
I'm bad
Wish I could taKE IT BACK
IS TOmorrow ANOTHER day?
I am so sick of myself. 
Poor me. WhATEVER

Here, standin
Lovin me

Still gotta get rid of this snake, it's bAD, IT'S GOT ME, got me....

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Your taken

you mean so much to me and i can't tell you because your taken,
i told you how i felt once but you don't care because your taken,
you are always around and i fall more but i can't get over the fact that your taken,
If i could get over you it would be right because your already taken,
I try to hard not to think about you but still it's hard because your takin.
If only one day you would understand the way i feel,
maybe you wouldn't be taken,
But still you love her  and your taken.

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Daddy told me that sister said
you were beautiful. 
He said she held you
and was your blanket 
for short time period.
Told me you were going to be
Gave me breif discription,
printed pictures
and flashed copied birth certifice
said he wanted proof 
that you were his first 
Blood robbed your cradle.
That night pressure refused to stay away
from vessel.
It wasn't spilled milk, but i was a substance 
that conqured red, and it took the place of your two week old head.
What could have been only
exist in my mind.
So I"m only reminded by your abutuary,
and the visual of that winnie the Pooh hat
morgetision laid on your head
unfortenally I wasn't at birth
But i made it to barrial.
I'm sad emotional
I never go to hug you 
play pic-a-boo
or even sit with you
But I stand there
massive tears kissing my face
and wonder what could have been.......

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just somthin i wrote 2

"some where inside of me i found a place where i hate to visit a place where 
typical things no longer matter."

the search for understanding has uncovered many reasons why i no longer 
believe in the ability of mankind to decipher not only right from wrong but today 
from tomorrow.  on an individual bases its easier to feel and listen to one's 
conscience, but on a mass scale the line between right and wrong, even deeper, 
good and evil is blurred.  on a mass scale the crusades seemed right, but for an 
individual person to kill in the name of god is wrong.  decisions placed in the 
hands of those that affect themselves the most often fail to choose the choice 
that will best fit the needs of a day yet to be seen.

the focus of this observation is love, it seems the straight will walk crooked to be 
with the one they feel is the most acceptable to the "needs" they feel come first.  
one can either choose to accept a love based on the financial establishment of 
the American society or physical desire.

in nature, where the bases of all life behavior stem, the idea of love does not 
exist.  a mate is chosen for the betterment and/or survival of the species.  so one 
can argue that choosing a love based on the ability of financial security is a 
natural desire.  the idea of being 'loved' is one of the many reasons that push us 
to seek for companionship.  Maybe it's the idea of love that needs defining.

ideas are one of a kind true to those that conceive them; obscured by those we 
confide them in along with the media's interpretation of perfection.  some say "in 
a simpler time," but i find it hard to believe in a simpler time in life when choosing 
a love was any easier.

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He Doesn't Even know

~He doesn't even know~

It's impossible,
To not feel this hurt,
Can't you notice these sad eyes,
But you dont,
You'd rather pass them by,

Every minture without you,
It's hard,
But I hold on to thoughts,
Every hour,
I stuggle knowing,
It's not me,
And I wait sitting here lonely,

 I'm sickend by,
The fact I can't say a word,
I'm so scared,
To tell you,
I don't want the reaction I always get,
Where they never talk back to me agian,

It's impossible to focus,
when my body tingles,
And i get that dry feeling in my throat,
Trying to say something right,
But for some reason I just stare,
Why Can't you notice these sad eye's,
I want to grab your hand,
when you pass me by.

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Completely Free

The past is the past
And there is no going back.
I have made it through you,
I loved you,
And I needed you.
You were mine,
And now your not.
I no longer need you.
I loved you,
That won’t ever change.
You won’t ever be mine again.
You chose what you wanted.
That is fine by me.
As long as your happy,
I’m happy.
You were my everything.
I don’t regret anything I did with you.
All the time spent.
All the time wasted.
All the time gained.
I don’t regret it a bit.

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rest in peace

Hey grandpa, we miss you,
how you doing up there?
Now that your gone,
there's a different feeling in the air.
Grandpa I wish people didn't have to go,
I wish life didn't have to be this way.
We all know that you left in peace
so we'll try our best to make this a happy day.
Today we will celebrate the life of a beautiful man
A father, brother, cousin, uncle, grandpa,
and every place else you stand.
We will honor this day and remember all
the special moments we shared
There was lots of laughter, and lots of arguments,
but at least we can say we cared
In the little time I've known you
it felt good to have a grandpa around
I simply adored you, and especially for you,
a place in my heart was found
Were all glad that you lived in happiness,
and left in peace
So to finish, we all need to rise together
as a unit, so you can be released

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My ABC's in 2007

Blind Bushs'
Crude callous
Debauched democracy,
Fabricated facts
Garnering grizzly
In Iraq.
Jaundiced justified
Of other
To those
United ultras'
Vaporous vapid
World with

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Love a Sacrifice

Whispering winds
They sing to me
What will I do 
My life unsewed

Coming together
Like Fruitiful feathers
Clean Love for
A Bloody Dove

Sing a Sweet song
And love me
Let me
Be a Throne

See me for I see you
And now
Love me
As I love you

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Lost in life,
In an attempt at success,
Total confusion with every breath i take,
Living in an up kind of mood can be so, so memorising.

While living through a down is so, so much more horrifying,
Time wait's for nobody and doesn't slow my heart,
It still beat's as my blood flow's through my cold, cold body.

We all choose a path in life,
Mine was misery,
Since i made that choice everything else is history,
My mind throbbing with doubt,
Numb with so, so much pain.

That choice so, so long ago,
Left me filled with so much shame,
If i am so happy,
And destined to so many great thing's,
Then why am i in so much pain?

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My Son

What happened to my little one,
Who's small hand fit in mine?
What happened to the quiet time,
That we would always find?

He's growing up so fast now,
And soon he'll be a man.
I hope I've given him guidance, 
I think I've done the best I can.

He gives me reason to smile,
With each and every passing day.
And I believe he has grown to be,
A good man in every way.

Of course he is not perfect,
I expect that he'll make mistakes.
As long as he takes responsibility,
And always does what it takes.

I have always tried to teach him one thing,
I really hope that he has taken heed.
To always be kind to other people,
And try to help those who are in need.

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Spider Blood

Love, calm, black, then understanding
A forgotten sigh brings it down
It's more confusing than demanding
Like air mixing with ground

Fading in, falling out, burning
Spider blood rains from above
Psychosis is fleeing and returning
Like her eyes, and her love

The animation is playing  with me
It's too fast paced and un-real
So ride with me into eternity
The place where I can feel

Burn it down, darkness rise
Rip their flesh, poison their eyes
Kill reality, kill it all, it all dies
But save me, im my own disguise

How can things be so blatent
feelings are like spider blood
I can't relax, it won't relate
my heart is fueling the flood

Love and time are vain
love causes too much pain
In the end spider blood will remain
so will you love me or go insane?

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23 Just with one of your kisses

Just with one of your kisses well make me feel like I’m in the sky.
Just with one of your kisses well make me feel like I can fly.
Just with one of your kisses well make me feel like I’m in heaven.
Just with one of your kisses well make me feel so glad.
Just with one of your kisses well make me love you more.
Just with one of your kisses well make me want you more.
Just with one of your kisses well blow me away.
Just with one of you’re kisses well melt me away.
Just with one of your kisses well make me need you more.
Just with one of your kisses well make me not love other girl.
Just with one of your kisses well mean the world.
Just with one of your kisses well make my love for you grow more.

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Heart Broken

As I watch them sneak into the room early in the morning, they take my 
roommates child from her. My heart is broken into so many pieces for I know 
from experience what she is going through. I am at a loss of words. I lay here in 
bed silently crying, watching them pack the little girls stuff into trash bags. As I lay 
there watching them, it brings back flashbacks. Flashbacks to the day that 
changed my life. For my heart was broken the day they took my little girl from my 
arms and told me that I no longer had any rights. A broken heart that no one can 
mend. The loss of a child to the system for things that you later wish you would 
have never done is so hard. Tears stroll down my face as I watch them take her 
little girl for even though she is not mine, my heart goes out to her. It feels as if a 
piece of me has been taken all over again. For my heart has been broken as they 
take my roommates child away from her in the early hours of the day.

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emo brake down

      If  you call one day and don't have an anweser don't look for me ill be dead. 
you problay wouldn't even notice your to busy with the girl you love ...
                 you find happiness in my pitty and joyfulness in my pain so whats the 
point of trying when i keep on falling i get back up and get knocked back down    
and most people ask why i don't frown i do on the inside now on the out i just 
wont yell or shout...i see you don't care you try to pretend stop acting its not 
atracting my attion you fuse and i fight my heart will not strike  do i dare not see 
why i live so whats the point of being me...i see no reason to fear death because 
its all i dream i ask this last and final question why do i dare live when i have no 
purpose no way of living no way of knowing only showing how stupid i am to ever 
live is life to me just a game but when i die i do not cry and do not care try to see 
this side of me its thicker then you think
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As i ponder

As I sit in my secret place 
I feel the sunshine hit my face
Thinking of us in the past 
Knowing that our love was supposed to last

I can almost here your voice it sounds so close
I know that you will always mean the most 
I see you smile and i smell your colonge too 
You made me feel good when I spent time with you 

I wish you wouldn't have gone away 
And we would be happily engaged in may 

Remembering the time I spent with you 
Makes me smile when I'm feeling blue

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Oneday we will encounter again.
Until then, 
I felt the need to tell the world
you were a good mother and friend.
Through all of life's troubles and sorrows, 
you always kept your head up
to look for a better tomorrow.
The impression you left
is fresh in my mind.
Through the message of this poem
and God's blessings, 
the world will know
that you were one of a kind.
Even though Jentzen and Jaylen
are too young to understand, 
the power of your love for them
can conquer any circumstance.
So i dedicate this poem to her, Jennifer.
The End...

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When your not here

When your not here with me I feel sad. I cry evry night 
when your not here with me. I need that one person 
that I can hold, You alway there when I need you the most.
How can I live with out you,you always been their for me
when i needed you the most.

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a new skin

here i am laid out, flat out, in this new skin
left with nothing because of me and because of him.
so broken down and the pieces seem lost
and i'm left here almost hopeless, while paying the cost.
What is love anyway? broken hearts, lies and crushed dreams
has been for me while my life rips at the seems.
I am so strong, so courageous ... but so well hidden
so held back from the path that I've ridden.
And i don't trust anyone who says that they care
for me its a chance, a risk, a dare...
like, "i dare you to believe all of my bulls---"
"so later you're crying because you fell for it."
But i am me... and i have dreams
and he won't bring me down, its not what it seems.
i will be made better in this beautiful struggle
and in the mean time, i will not buckle.
who needs him anyway... i mean, right?
he couldn't see my love when it was so BLINDLY in sight.
time has taken a toll on my heart
and my bad actions have played a big part.
So i'm starting with nothing on this path to my life
and i could end up happy, a mother, a wife...
sometimes things are just unexpected
but it still hurts when you've been rejected.
i loved him... for what its worth now
i'll be okay, though i don't know how.

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Astronaut Angel

The world will keep turning on a day like today
The sun will keep shining its a beautiful day
Our hearts are still broken on this bright Saturdays
Parts of the shuttle fell out of the sky
Seven angels were flying by 
Through the stars through the Galaxy high in the sky they were loved
Astronaut Angels

They walked on the shuttle when the time was right 
Everybody screamed when they seen this sight
There parents loved it when they flew to the moon
They said i love you and we'll see you soon
Through the stars through the Galaxy high in the sky they were loved
Astronaut Angels

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time of death

CA dence
SUD den LY
time of death: 1:47

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Underneath it all
was true but deadly
evil lies.

She waits as it haunts
  with miserable

She apologizes

Nothing she has done,
only stood by, waiting for fate
to cast a shadow over her life.

Breath deeply, slowly she inhales.
Her body weakens her arms give-up and die.
She falls to the ground arms out and
retires, from the last strong
battle that destroys her

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Separation among childhood

As my heart weeps for love,
I began to feel blank, 
As my eyes began to glow,
My body wants to vacate.
Childhood went by too fast,
For the young years are through,
As I lay in a dreary dungeon,
I now have to start new.
Childhood was sweet,
There was a bound between two,
For now we have departed,
I have to decide what to do.

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Can the birds sing a song
Can I be the one along
Hear what they say 
Love in the morning love in there song
Can a man make this or not
Sing old bird my love song
I watch you eat and hear your song
But can you make me belong
I wish i could fly
All i can do is cry
Bird of a song let me be
For all to see 
Not a bird here only a man
Wish i could sing
Like the birds in the morning
Man like me can only moan

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Virgin Mary, I

Call upon me the day the Virgin Mary had an abortion
I carried out my sentence as the birth of the apocalypse
death to a savior, save me, Lord forgive, troubled times
but no reason for reason within the sanctuary of a sinner
begin in the mind, be blind and lead others, It doesn't 
matter if you land in Hell, just don't abandon your brother
it becomes sacrifice of me and mine for a temporary smile 
on a childs face, so I don't waste time and take that leap of faith
and tell God to call upon me the day
the Virgin Mary had an abortion, as I am born to a saint
daughter of Mari, looked over by a fallen angel
holding tight to life, floating on destiny, I call out to the Lord
                                to call upon me

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Lost in a hateful World

Lost in a hateful world
hurt, disrespect, and murder
searching for something but can not find
learning about this hateful world 

Lost in a hateful world
screaming at the top of my lungs but nobody hears
running away from this hateful world but no way out 

Lost in a hateful world

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waisted time wasited space waisted soul thats all i am...............
i make you sad i make you cry now i should be the one  to die
pain tears crying falling nothing better then trash burning eyes flames with
fire pain so deep cant shake off.waitse of life waist of time and a waist of love
no comments no faith no fear only pain and tears and a waitsed smiles 
no fears only evil looks and deivl eyed tears burning  heart waitsed space earth 
is a horrible place.sad cry i shall be the only one to die.exiting deaths of no  fear 
despret nature despret year.just a waisted soul

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on this site.

I love to read the poems on this site,
poems from the broken hearted, from love birds singing there tune, young poets of tomorrow
and poets longing to get out from yesterday,
to read about their grief their joy their pain their lives their journey, poems of lost,of
finding, poems that lift your soul and others that help you find your way,
I read a poem from a girl who no longer wanted to fill the pain from the love she lost, I
read a poem from a young man who fell head over heels for a girl with eyes of blue,
I read then re-read a poem from some one who lived years before I was born, a poem from
some one to young to know what love is but thought they knew.
the poems on this site,
are poems from the lonely who can't (won't.) scream out, from the gifted who don't believe
they are from the ones who hide in side,
poems about sunsets,long walks,first kisses,saying good-bye,poems of faith,religion,
believes and disbelieves and of pain that won't subside,
poems of cold streets mystic woods poems about heaven and hell  poems about a girl/boy who
took their love away as another's light faded,
of a lover who no longer fills the pain of the one that left them behind, they now site in
a room with their fillings sedated,
poems on this site,
helped me see I wasn't the only one, that every one falls and that there are so many who
want you to get back up and move forward,
lines words phrases that brought a tear to my eye, warmed my heart, and showed me what it
was like to speak those words,
there are long poems short poems words from the heart, words from pain, words that they
forgot to say and words they never heard,
I love you,I miss you, I hate you, I will never forget you they are all words that will
never again go unheard,
they are words for me,for you,for the lonely and the ones who don't know what to say are
how to fill,words written in the early mornings and late at night,
they are stores,emotions, fillings, times, places, people,about ups and downs they are
poems and I love to read the poems on this site.

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Can't let go

 Today I awoke by the sound of your voice whispering to me through the musical magic of the wind. 
I smiled, and quickly opened my eyes to try and catch a glimpse of your face, but just that fast you were gone and I returned to the solitude of my loneliness.
 You know it's hard; being without you is the one thing that I was not prepared for. 
For just like flowers wither and lose their beauty, so am I each day that I'm without you.
 I call out your name looking for comfort in the sound of your laughter, with your presence lingering all around me, I try and get  closer to you; but the closer I get to you the farther I drift into my sorrows. Why did you leave me? Was the depth of your pain deeper than the ties we've shared our whole lives? Was the selfish act a cry for help gone wrong? Somebody please; tell me why I have to live in guilt and sorrow because you wanted to be FREE! For now all I can do is hope; Hope for understanding, hope for reassurance, hope that I can stop being angry, hope for faith to come into my heart, and hope that time doesn't continue to stand still. I confess that I don't know how to move on, and I can't let go, but for the rest of my life....Your reasons I may never know!

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Is It To Late For Us

I take this pain from you leaving
I take this hurt where you tore my heart apart
This part of me thats empty now
This love we shared thats disappeared
Not seen! Not heard!
Till this day I still pray for you to fill this empty hole
This love could mend the darkest sole
This love could free the damned from hell
please help relief this pain and hatred now!

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My journey

There are roads I wish i had'nt take  but, everyone makes mistakes There was 
cloudy days  that made raindrops fall down  my face Everyone would say you're 
so strong you can get through this I really believe them  My body felt weaker  each 
day that pass The grave they put my mother in I felt they did the same to me The 
road i try to take just made a  U turn And my life is just put in grave No more days 
No more nights just silence.

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dont wanna hear it dont wanna care like my life matters if you aren't there im  sick 
so sick of your lies so just leave me out of it.i see nothing about you i love any 
more my love for you left along time sick of her and sick of you so just 
leave me out of matter what i tryed to do like you would ever care.i tryed to 
love you but  my love is gone i used every bit left to trust you yet you lied me you 
hid from me did you really ever love me are was that a lie to.i dont care any more 
for what you have to say.this is the day i wish to die alone it wouldn't matter  you 
never loved me i can see that you hate who i am like i hate what you 
mad me hate herjust get a life.todays the day i die.i dont wanna hear you lies like 
you matter any more. i rather die then hear from you so just get a life your no 
better then  a kid stop acting like your  three and just get away from me.todays the 
day i wish to die,alone is the cold just leave  me alone.

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My eyes are welded shut like an iron gate 
Just trying to hold back the tears you anticipate 
You see right through me like a window
Wactching me change like weather from rain to cold snow

I know latley I am so pale, cold, and white
I still want you in me though the window is closed so tight
Some times that look is a stone that shatters glass
Some times your smile warms me till my troubles pass

Your warm heart can melt my tears away
And when your around I go from December to May
But at other times dead memoreys make up my fall
And when I try to love you I always stall

You can break this glass but there are still bars of steel
No matter how much I love you, I can't change how I feel 
A prision of seasons is what I am stuck inside 
I can not escape to love you, but know how I tried

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Life has its highs
Life has its lows
But what happens when the life in you dies?
The pain starts to show

I hate it strongly
Words cannot explain
Can it be put wrongly?
How the hell do i stay sain?

Not sure how to deal
Not sure how to act
Not sure how to feel
Happiness is what I truly lack

In the dark I wait
With pain engulfing my heart
Is this truly my fate?
Or just a part?

Is it being alone really that bad?
Or is it that I have grown accustom to it?
Pain is all I really ever had
I'd give anything just to be happy just a little bit...

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Lost In Sorrow

Lost In Sorrow
Drowing in black blood
searching for something 
but can not find

Lost In Sorrow
Drowing in black blood 
touching burning acid
burning thru skin and born

Lost In Sorrow

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Where do I put my hate at the end of the day?
Who will save my soul when I forget to pray? 
How do I fall asleep at night? 
When all I want to do is fight! 

Who can I love when my love has gone away? 
Why can't I be the man that would make her want to stay? 
I rip my mind apart like the blade rips the flesh. 
At the end of the day my head is a bloody mess. 

I don't slip cause I won't get up from a fall. 
I am losing at life's game so I am left to ball. 
They laugh at my demise cause they can't resist. 
So I know when my body expires, it won't be missed. 

The cold flesh will become a bone frame. 
No one will ever look at me the same. 
I will fall and your tongue will cause the slip! 
Your bottle of pain is not the same as mine, just a sip! 

Get drunk and high off my misery. 
Spit it, suck it, slam it, then let me be. 
I am a sinner so throw your stone. 
Make your hatred known and then leave me alone! 

My soul is not worth saving any more. 
This battle has ended and I am done for! 

I do not need to sleep at night! 
I can fight a war with out any sight! 
My love is gone and gone for good! 
She did not love me and I know now she never would!

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a devotion

My head hangs heavy..

weary of whats gettin' ready

and will i grow or will i break

tell me this b4 its too late.

'cause i'd forget everything

if i knew it wouldn't come back to me

and i'd do anything 

to know you wouldn't go back to her.

these words just aren't my drama

they're my life

this love isn't a game

its a sacrifice.

and chasing a good thing

isn't worth even 1/2 of the hurt it brings

'cause i'm tired and out of breathe

and right now i don't have much left.

so I'll lay in the grass waiting

if you come participating

help me up and let me know

that you won't ever let me go.

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How do I say good-bye

How do you go on knowing you just lost,
  to know you can't do what another can,
  and if you could/did you would be striking your own hand,
you hung on as long as you could and paid a cost,

You stepped in to pick them up dry there tears and helped them believe,
   but the ending is just days away and you have to let them go,
   you knew this day was going to come and what you taught them shows,
she lost her kids and into the system they'll go and you can't give them what they need,

How dose a mother lose her kids, how can I say good bye,
   I watch her tears fall for they are here kids no more she has no rights,
   my nephew  and nieces with love I stepped in to help you  fight ,
  18 months while here I told,showed, displayed love, and helped them cry. 

A mother who knew and chose to let them go is my sister no more,
  you chose over your own, abused your own you, you let him.....,
  who would of thought as we played as kids that this light would dim,
we stood by each other fought for one another, and to your own you closed the door,

I know I'll forgive you, and God may too but you hurt these kids and they wont,
  in foster homes away from family they will grow and I hope I can be in their life's,
  they didn't deserve this, nor did you deserve them you really don't,
I hope and pray they take nothing you taught them as a husband and wifes,

May the rest of their life be filled with love hope and understanding ,
  my Gods test for them reach it's end 
  they had enough bad in their life's and I hope their hearts mend,
but how do I say good-bye as my heart meets this crash landing.  

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Love has been narrated in novels ,
set to music in songs and expressed in poems with various rhymes:
remembering its glories and lamenting its tragedies;
but this is the ode I've written for those true life's true heroes, 
not about someone I've loved and lost,
to cherish the miracle of every breath!
And many have laid down their lives,
so that I can live free and remember the battles they fiercely fought;
and who wouldn't shout, in gratefulness, to the blazing skies?

Brave ones resting in your decorated graves,
God won't forget you when another rainbow reflects
all the beautiful colors of your flags waving, at sun-down,
over the damp grass where the little daises are blooming;
and I have brought the same flowers 
that you liked to give to your darlings:
to thank you for your bravery on the incendiary fields...
thinking less of you and more of your countrymen! 

Dauntless ones, you gave up your precious lives
and gone to foreign lands to be vigilant and tough,  
to allow your children to live their dream
in the freest land that Humankind has ever known;
and how many envy what they hold in their palms?
They are as precious as glaring diamonds, 
and as beautiful as the brilliantly rising dawn;
and be sure that they will defend their freedom at any cost...
and fight for it by marching with grace and esteem! 

And how can an inspirited poet narrate all the great and sad events...
if not through the sincere voice of his heart-felt verses?
I will not invoke a muse, but a living God to inspire me;
and I won't add or take anything away for the sake of honesty!
Take heart, sorrowful writer and make the words flow with spontaneity;
honor those true life's heroes with your infallible intellect:
to eternally preserve their tenacious and noble memory...
when others repress it and lay it to an unguarded rest! 

Copyright 2008 by Andrew Crisci

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What is love?

What is love?
Can you find it below? Can you find it above?
Can you find it on a birds wing?
Can you find it as you sing?
Can you find it from a toy?
Can you find it from your admiration for a boy?
Can you find it in god?
Is the fact that I am asking this question odd?

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Dear mom

Dear mom,

 I'm sorry about the letter I'm writing you, but I've done all I can and there is no more
I can do,
 You see it's your daughter she lost her kids, or should I say she chose another over them
thats what she did,
 Mom I'm sad for the way this all turned out, these kids are so messed up because of her 
you know what  I'm talking about,
 There's no family members to take them all in, and I think it's so sad that they pay for
there mom's sins,
  Mom I believed she would get better, do the right thing, but you know her she wants to
do it her way that sad old song she sings,
 I'm glad your not here to see them go, mom as bad as they are where ever they wined up
I'm sure a better life they will know.
 It just hurts to say goodbye, all eight of them didn't deserve the life she gave them are
deserve the tears they cry,
 I just hope and pray you watch over them, they will need all the love you can send,
You know I did all I could right , and you know and see how  my own kids are doing in this
  Mom like you did her whole life, watch over your daughter and try to help her the rest
of her life,
 for a mother without her kids is what she'll be, and just like them the bright side she
will not see,
 they will all be better off, a home, hope, and a chance just to be, some thing she never
gave them that something you gave me,
 So in closing I'm sad to say, mom I'm sorry it ended this way,

                                                               Love your son,

 p.s. I hope up there you get this letter, and your having fun.

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Accidents Happen

driving down the street jamming out to the beat 
not knowing what we were about to meet 
the next thing i knew i had fallen asleep 
waking up to the screeching of tires 
i pinched myself hoping it was just a bad dream 

as i feel something grab me pulling me to safety 
i look back and i see the complete opposite 
pain blood agony 
my friends my family nearing death 

the sound of sirens draw nearer and nearer 
carting one by one off to the hospital 
for hope that their lives can be saved 

sitting int he waiting room 
pondering why it wasnt me looking death in the eye 
why must i always be the one standing by 
why is it my hearts the one to cry 
too many times its me saing goodbye 

as the sun starts to rise 
i jet back home so my parents arent surprised 
jump in the shower getting ready as if nothing happened 
during the day my mask is put on the night is when it comes off 
forced to face reality of the horrifying accident that had just happened 

every breathe i take feels as though it is not worthy of being breathed 
what has happened to me 
why all the lies why all the pain 
where did the old me go 

day by day i wait anxiously for the latest news about my friends 
till finally the out come has arrived 
marcus will not survive 
after hearing the news my heart shattered into a million pieces 
how many more are going to be taken away 
where am i supose to go from here 

tear after tear 
my heart grows with more fear 
fear of loosing others fear to take off my mask and show the world i am hurting 
how can this be how can so many people die when it should be me 

the answer is it was an accident 
nothing can be changed about what has happened 
the cure is time 
and that is what i seem to have a whole lot of 

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the of death hope and lose of value

bang goes the bell
of death all value is gone
from wishes and wealth
not sure who will get the prize
onlooking watchers have watchful eyes
bang goes the bell of death to us all
so everyone before death to jesus please fall

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I proceed to be still,
My feelings evolve like rain,
Times may be hard,
But all I want I can't gain.
 I see the wind through my eyes,
The vision was so clear,
For now I need a guardian,
One who will take away my fear.
I proceeded to feel anxious,
Those feelings began to leave,
My mouth opened slightly,
For now I can believe.

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right to die

right to die left me alive.the five man band of the hand couldnt hear a sound.left 
me around.

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breaking up.

his/her eyes fade in the sun light,
   his/her heart beat doesn't seem right,
         they look as if they have lost this fight,
               seems he/she was another in their sight.
heart beaten,love struck,now just a sad ending,
    I watched as his/her world changed from the loving,
         to them it was love,and that is what he/she was wanting,
              now the pain in his/her heart beats as if it was never ending.
when a love story comes to an end,
     all that is left is a bitter broken friend,
         seems as if there heart never unbends,
               hunted by the love lost and its descend,
picking up the pieces of love gone wrong,
      not willing to move on just wanting to belong,
           playing it over and over like a sad love song,
                when your heart breaks it's hard to be strong.
as a friend you can't find the right words to say,
       you need to get over her/him start a new day,
            we all have been here the pain will go away,
                 love...we all want it, we're just not willing to pay.

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Caramel Water

A young girl
Blossom From the Concrete
A rose
Her Pretty Curls
Fallen from the streets
I suppose
Taken by a loved stranger
Her most prized possession
Her family doesn't since danger
She hides his confession
Should she forgive him even though he deceived her
Or should she tell the the secret and have nobody believe her
She decides to silence herself but til this day it haunts her
She thought moving would help but in her dreams  he taunts her
Maybe it was a good thing that she kept his darkest secret
But she has a goal and she's not afraid to reach it

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In my room
air thick
I hear you hating me
outside my door

I't don't matter how I suck you

For what I was
you loved me before
you hate me now
for being your whore


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Trampling the borders, he started
losing his vibrations.
He was asking for the perpetual forgiveness
for his bandaged ego.
The new incarnation.

For the broken homes
he refused to admit his side of guilt
and jumped into the frozen lake
for nursing his hot blood.
The faithless star.

The world did not exist
in total freedom.
Let him sleep, sulking away,
under the sea of wounds
unlistening to the wailing winds.

Not for the seeds
not for the flowers,
the crowds were assembling for the essence
of the drifting truth.
Nobody knew the red hot destiny.


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This way it was
this way it happened
I could not run along the river.

Your face floats
like a skylamp.
Halfway rainbow was broken.

How did it happen?
I became transgenic
by the kiss of death.

This was my victory
I surrendered the cushion.
You sleep in my arms.

Again I will wander
in the graveyard
where my angel was sleeping.

This is my last letter
in the month November
Now the scent will be buried in snow. 


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now im wishing i was dead i have no point in living  i only
make you sad why do i have to be this way  you say thier is
nothing rong  but i  know  thier is i made you hate me for every
thing i did  so good bye  ill leave because i cant live knowing you hate me
how can i live knowing that your sad you tried to hard to make me happy
but all i could do is get mad at you for no reason well now  
you hate me  thats my fault i guess i should leave befor
i hurt anyone else..this was all my falut all you were trying to 
do was be a good boyfriend while i was out being stupid and 
imture i guess its my time to say im sorry for every thing i did
and now im  wishing i never met you because you were more 
happy that way you cant tell me you weren't because your what you
say can prove it if i were you i would hate me too because  knowing what
i do every day how do you wake up happy when you know its gonna end...

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Remember Me

Remember Me! 

I Have seen the light, and been granted the key to Heaven.
God will not push or pull me , yet he will embrace me with open arms.

My world of bright by day, and Dark by night has kept behind my loving ways.

Quote me on this for this is what I have to say 

Please don't mourn me, instead celebrate my life, and remember me as I was.

"Forget me not I say"

But remember this forever, and always.
Now I'm with God in the kingdom of heaven, to help watch over you, and guide 
you and your family threw your future days.
Remember Me!

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next time I laugh I will laugh out loud,
 next time I want to scream I will do it with out a sound,
next time we hold hands I will see it as the last,
 next time I see you I will know what to ask,
next time I'll listen to all that you have to say,
 till next time have a nice day.

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sooner you were gone the easier the way my life would become..well i thought.
I notice now that i was wrong.You were the thing that kept my life stright now im 
not doing so well without you .please come back to me i miss you ever so deeply.
no longer will i ever say such bad things to the people i love and trust.
i never knew how sweet you were til you were i wished you have never
left. how could i say such bad thing's to you the only one i trusted and forever 
loved.that was my good had come of my mystakes.i will pay for them 
for called me and said you missed you job i said i missed knew 
i wasn't lieing by the loud of my voice.i made a mystic witch will never happen 
again.atleast not to you the one i love..........

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A friend once told me
Beware of what you seek
Choose your friends wisely
Don’t discount what I speak

Where is she now?

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Down the Memory Lane

Rambling down the memory lane
I remember the day 
When you made your first espy
and made me believe 
you are the one for me
your care and tutelage 
sheathed me from umpteen stings
and got me over the hot springs.

I even cherish the moment 
Whilst walking on the street
when lips moved on, in their motion
leaving others shocked
and looking for someone beside me
when everyone deduced me alone
the truth was shared between you and me.

I still mesmerise the time 
when all my dreams crushed
and hopes swayed away
still I smiled to mark the nerve
and the darkening night 
augmented the pace of tears 
and that of your wiping feat too.

I could enchant the aura
and memorize the shadowy icon 
whom you were overly green eyed
cause still being clandenstine.

And today again 
while walking on the same lanes
I'm lost in the cloud 
when I turned around
to look for the one
chatting, giggling, sharing, glowering,
walking together all these years 
appears had vanished.

Why today I'm down with the feeling
It was just a false coloring 
all the way I was single handed 
or I had lost someone very dear
and turned out to be a lonely soul again.

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His own confusion

 Twist on the tongue of a union set so wrong
On the wish that such partnerships have made themselves strong.
Dreams in denial, can I live through this trial,
With a hardening heart and a well tutored smile.
Believing there's no better, is this as good as it gets?

Looking away from my deep instincts and ignoring all my regrets,
Lock down my dreams and pretend it's all great
And one day he'll wake up and find it's too late.
Too late to get back all those years that you wasted
Because I tried to stand by YOU, but you could not give your whole.
Because you thought that my love was enough love for two,
To discover how wrong when my love has dried through.
Now you will see the the error, it will tear you apart.
With resentment I realize how it was from the start.
And though my struggles now cease, your torment doesn't end,
Having hurt most the one you once loved and kept as a friend.

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you think every thing i say is wrong well i say its right so good bye  i have nothing 
else to say to long my friend  no longer the one i care about.Every time i 
fight with you only makes me love you even more but this time i love you 
im wishing i have never met you.So good bye and so long i dont even wanna 
know your name.just walk away while you still can your getting way to involed in 
my life so get out now I dont know your name any keep saying that 
you  love me and you get me mad every day so whats the ponit any more good 
bye your not the one i care about any more....

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The Deepest Loss

  Someone who has been there for you, but now is lost your in despair.
  Someone who has brought you joy, their love is costly your minds impaired.
  Your judgement is lot, no where to go, no where to hide, your eyes are soaked
  with the tears of loss their name is forever renown.

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Out in the Dell

The restlessness of dreams do wake
stirring the mind of a child's forsake
teeter-totter on the indigo plank
try to remember but come up blank
try to rekindle but come up blank
hear the whisperings in the dell
where it is hard for truth to tell
what kind of monsters lurk out in that hell
among the where the dead do dwell
i try to remember but nothing yet
i try to rekindle but nothing yet
along the murky moor the moon does rise
given up by noonday cries
even the children lament in sighs
when one lover lives and the other one dies
try to forget but never could
tried to move on I know I should

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No, I'm not making that promise again nothing can change my mind nothing at 
all, cause LOVE has a way of coming undone until I'm all alone with my Heart, 
the pain's all here to stay.

"I ALWAYS THOUGHT I'D SEE YOU AGAIN", how it hurts everytime you've crossed 
my Heart since then, gotta give it all it takes to hold what might have been, and "I 

Now there's no need to run to the phone, no need to hold your breath hoping it's 
you, each time I see someone we used to know, or go some place we used to 
go, it's not the same.

"I ALWAYS THOUGHT I'D SEE YOU AGAIN", how it hurts everytime you've crossed 
my Heart since then, gotta give it all it takes to hold what might have been, and "I 

LOVE doesn't come when you need LOVE it's no always there when you fall, try 
as you may you've got nothing to say, nothing at all.

"I ALWAYS THOUGHT I'D SEE YOU AGAIN", how it hurts everytime you've crossed 
my Heart since then, gotta give it all it takes to hold what might have been, and "I 
GONNA SEE YOU AGAIN'.                              THE END

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silly gramer

I found love in a candy store onces on a cloudy day in  June ,
I was" window shopping " drying my tears and taking my mind off what another left
behind, it was about noon.

the door bell rang out as I opened it (or was that ringing in my head?)people looked to
see who came in but she hung your head instead as she  looked at the colors of sugar,  she-
was quite a site I must admit.

with all that was sweet around I couldn't find the words to take her eyes from the  "candy
" flowing from her ears -if I spoke my words bitter by life would fall unheard,
unwanted,lonely to the grown .

as deep breaths only found her sent it was the same for her as she turned and smiled
knowing I was present,
Alas fate on my side as I look to the wooden ceilings of the"candy store" with the look of
thanks on my face ready to toss my hands as to say "finally" but I was interrupted by the
door bell and how she stepped outside,

I found love once- but it turned out I never found it at all- just co-incidence.  

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The day after Marshel

The day after  everyone knew
and it was him they were after
The day after that it started
to hit me as I cried for hours
The day after they still
couldn't find him
A week went by and my
dreams were all gone
Then two weeks more and
the pain felt the same
A month and a week some
started to dout me
Four months  later and
I try to ignore it
Now it's been about a
year some have forgotten
but I remember how 
it hurt the day after Marshel.

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When viewed through eyes of a clouded mist
past events seem frozen in time.
A crystal ed suit of armor;
now lies broken in pieces.

Loves far beyond the realm of touch
are now gone; and old concepts;
are but distorted images.
All of which are but reflections in some broken glass.

Protected and hidden memories;
once found and gathered;
along with other treasures;
now lie broken and scattered.