Angry hiss of my heart
scamper away now!
afore her poison comes along
acidic heels clicking rapidly
upon wooden floor
of little divits
from past tirades
she comes, please hide
her name is Melisss
the angry part of myself
plowing through my mind
wind whips as she appears
she is as loved as she is feared
a beautiful mess of explosive rage
from lips comes sarcastic venom
howling surrounds as her approach comes
is it her or the wind
one shall never know
Bitter by ; being mentally bruised and battered most of my life,
shaken with fright without a single soul to help me
through the troubles unseen horrors of the night,
from an evil source that I fear to strike.
But as the evil forces, who limited my choices
that when I found my stallion horses.
Swiftly it came to my head I can run and I cannot hide,
feeling the Beast closing in on every time I decide to hide.
Tired of running and tired of alluding this
relentless creep as my red bolt eyes weep
feeling rest-less, likes a lonely defeated warrior from his home in retreat
that is when I knew it time to rest, to release my Beast.
But in a fight, I may not win however as I cast out my dirty words sin
I made sure it felt my impact, to the bloody end.
by Keith Relf
im livin in a world, where all eyes on me.
trying to curve my own route.
but route 66 keeps finding its way to me.
ive been plenty sick, in all the events layed before me.
even when i reflect to my lowest points
i dont regret any of the choices
That I’ve deployed in my era
A lot of it by error, but hey
We live in hell conditions and there ain’t no air condition
Or any guidelines when life throws you in the sidelines
But when hindsight twenty twenty hits
You’ll begin to understand life’s a bunch of equations and you in the mix of it
An you’ll have to think twice, before running into a situation and becoming the best of it
it’s what got me here, it’s what got us here
Ran with my thoughts blazing up to her place and
Guess what happened next
She opened up heaven’s gate
And just before late I slipped out
I’m a Grown ass man
Doin his thing, waitin to blow up like an old land mine
In doin what he drools over
But time after time
Something decides to creep up and cover the light
Lost my way
Then I revoked to ever know, I ever thought that way
But in the in between time, that in the mean time
Spent a lot of time
Gettin pissed off just to medicate and lift off
Don’t need Don Perion to sip off
Already had my way with the bottle
Even thought to get back with the trouble and rejoin the hustle
That’s just what happens to a man who really knows his old ways
Whos tired of making ends meet and ponders getting back to the streets.
Memory sets in and he remembers an O.G. saying
No matter how tall your pockets stand when you ball
Eventually times gonna make you fall
And I as I pull myself together
I don’t wanna end up like the twin towers rubble
I mean no offence to nine eleven but at that time I probably could have used a reverend
But all that’s irrelevant now
because i live with a different perspective now
there you go you made it to the end :-) comment if you like, constructive criticism wanted as well.
Its bad enough that everyday I walk down memory lane, &&' It really puts me in alot of pain. I've been doing the best that I can, but I am who I am. I'm getting tired of everyones exspectations, people always pulling me in different directions. Even when I'm falling down, people still push me on the ground. I'm gonna keep trying, no more lying. No more games, done mentioning names. Being two-faced isn't cool, it just makes you look like a fool. I'm never looking back, that life was wack. I'm done trying to make everyone happy, when they treat me so crappy. I may not have alot of friends, in the end, but atleast I don't have to pretend. I'm gonna be true, with or without you. You'll see, I'm done letting people get to me.
Pain pain go away,
You little b!tch you cannot stay.
I want you gone, Far from me
F*ck off now, and leave me be.
sick of doctors, sick of stress,
Sick n' tired of takin meds.
I want to know what's wrong with me,
A want to be "normal", cant you see?
It wont happen this I know,
With my bloodline,.... it goes to show....
I feel like I'm living someone elses life, a life in strife. I've been strong, but when will I belong. I feel so alone, but I'm doing ok on my own. I can't describe the pain, but I keep in mind every storm runs outa rain. I use to think our love was unbeatable, but really its unforgettable. Everyday I walk down memory lane, trying to ignore the pain. He crosses my mind everyday, when will all this go away. There's gotta be something more, my heart is becoming sore. My momma doesn't have to worry, because I'm not sorry. I know he made the mistake, and he's the reason I have this heartache. What we had, was bad. I shouldn't have let it go that far, your just another scar.
Evil scourge of the earth so full of waste,
plotter of mankind's fast downward pace.
Breaker of peace and stiffler of song,
with wicked power and purpose upon,
the action of men in opposing always,
God's Holy word with shadows of grey.
Tempter of hearts, making men move;
in ways of hate to shed innocent blood.
Your hostile world in opposition to truth,
wreaks ruin and misery with little reproof.
Destruction of mankind is your design,
without relief or recourse to find.
The father of lies, you lustfully move,
denying the truth, falsehood to prove.
Taking advantage with all evil means,
Winning the battle without effort, it seems.
Sin, as a virtue, you proudly proclaim,
with beauty and pleasure and promise of fame.
With multitudes in your will, you conspire,
to consign, even God's people to the fire.
Seducing millions in false religion's glow,
with deceit, corruption, and murder in tow.
Oh, evil personified, how far from God,
do you so slyly wield your harsh rod.
Disguising yourself as an angel of light,
bringing confusion with all of your might.
Make haste, lay waste, as is your want to do,
God has prepared a proper place for you.
Prov.8:36 "those that hate me, love death."
Why do you give me a hard look from your face?
that you don't like what you see?
that I'm from a different race?
Why can't we see eye to eye?
why do I disgust you,
like you don't wanna be near me
would you please tell me?
tell me why you hate me?
Do you hate me because of the color of my skin?
like I'm a disease?
you don't think I have desires?
that I have needs?
We aren't from the same race,
but by soul,
we live in the same world.
You may think I'm nothing,
just push me into the mud,
knowing we both have the same colored blood.
You can't judge me by my appearance,
or by my race,
or even the color on my face.
Say what you want to say,
you can't judge me,
for I didn't choose to be born this way.
Sometimes I like to pretend, things never came to a end. But over time, our love became a crime. I didn't know what we had, would ever end so bad. But then I knew things weren't right, when we started to fight. Now I walk down memory lane all the time, the pain is worst then committing a crime. We only caused eachother pain, but we were eachothers maine. I thought things would be alright, but I cried alot that night. I don't want things to change, without you my life is strange. You said you wanted me so much it started to hurt that you couldn't wait, now im just another person you hate. When you said you didn't care, I knew the person I loved was no longer there. You aren't the same, the new you is lame. We both fell, now it's hell. You use to always be here for me, like family. But now your nowhere in sight, things aren't right. Empty is all that I can feel, I still can't believe this is real. I didn't mean to let you get away, I didn't know what to say. Am i with the right guy, or am i telling myself a lie. I was afraid to loose what we had, but to you that choice was bad.
The things you say
you don't remember
you are evil ...
I can't believe what I've given up
I hate you
I gave up MY LIFE for you
God I Hate you
Think we"ll make it????
God . I Hate....
People want to commit suicide,
people choose to die over livin life.
Why has it come to be this way?
Why has this life become so meaningless,
that we just want to throw it away?
We become selfish and think our life is so bad,
dont think of others who's lives are worse, But still greatful for what they have.
People take for granted the things they've got,
clothes, food, smokes and shoes, even a roof or a bed,
They dont think of the homeless,
the hungry, not even the cold or the hot.
They just think they want to be dead,
Things happen in our lives that, to us, seem bad.
We dont look for help or trust any "friends"
All because of the past we've had.
Dont be a coward and run away,
Stick it out, Live life,
I know that there's alot of strife,
But stick it through day to day.
People want to commit suicide,
people choose to die over livin life.
Why has it come to be this way?....
THIS LIFE ISNT CUT OUT FOR ME I FEEL MOST TIMES THE WORLD IS AGAINST ME MY MOTHERS PREAGANCY THEN BIRTH CAME ME LAST BUT SWEET STRAIGHT IN TO REALITY,
I STRUGGLE ALL THROUGH MY LIFE HOPING THAT ILL ONE DAY BE SOME ONE'S WIFE BUT REALITY CUT ME LIKE A KNIFE SO DEEP THAT I FIGHT AN FIGHT JUST TO SURVIVE AN STAY ALIVE I WAS USE,ABUSE,REFUSE AN LEFT CONFUSE BY MEN, FRIEND AND ALL THOSE THAT COME IN,
I AM A SURVIVOR I AM A FIGHTER IM JUST LIKE A LIGHTER WHEN YOU CLICK ME IM ON FIRE ILL NEVER RETIRE ILL ALWAYS REQUIRE SEX,LOVE AND HATE AS MY DESIRE ILL SET MY MIND TO SEEK FOR WHAT I CAN FIND AN IN THIS TIME ILL COMMIT NO CRIME CAUSE ITS A SIGN FOR ME TO NOT FALL OFF THE LINE I AM SO DEVINE MY WEAKNESS IS DEFINE AS BEING STUPID SOMETIMES I THINK IM SHOT BY A CUPID I FALL IN LOVE SO EASILY SOMETIMES MY JUDGEMENT CONFUSES ME IM TRYING TO BE SOMEBODY IN THIS SOCIETY,
MY CHEMISTRY GETS THE BEST OF ME MY SEXUALITY SOMETIMES STRAYS MY DESTINY IM DESTINED TO BE SOMEBODY SUCCESFULLY AN SWEET AN NEVER LET THE ENEMIES DEFEAT AN IN MY MIND IM ALWAYS ON REPEAT TO ALWAYS COMPLETE AN FULFILL THAT EMPTY SEAT LOVE,HATE AND SEX IM GUESSING WHATS NEXT.
Love hurts and people change. Things go wrong and things get strange. But life goes on and you only life it once. Be strong cause things will get better over the months. I thought I was heartbroken, I thought you were my world. You fooled me though, made me think I was your only girl. But all along, you didnt care. Im not sure, your were even completely there. But now I've moved on, when I thought it was impossible. I had to be the bigger person in this breakup, I was responsible. I let it get to me, but I didnt let it ruin me completely. I didnt do anything about the hurt you caused me, I acted so sweetly. I let you walk all over me, I tried to ignore how you disrespected me. But when I ended things, the pain was easier to see.
i hate your silence..when u don't speak a word..
even when u don't express in your moves..
believe me. i do hate that in you..
i try to figure..
what you are trying to say..
when you don't show any movements..
we have gone a distance..
heart is failing to fill..
the love that was pouring within..
what could have been the fault..
in the darkest night i wonder..
no answer was given..
your heart is getting colder..
in the place you gave me warmth..
what happening i whisper..
i am trying to gather..
all the leftover reasons..
to find a valid reason..
of our love that's faded........
tears and whispers..
for the love that's withed..
like a flower in the desert..!!!!!!!!
I am prejudice i hate people of different color
I hate the thought of white
I hate the thought of brown
I hate the thought of black
fall into my grasps and be prejudice too
it is easy to do
when someone does not look or has the same color of you
why not hate someone that is different but still a person
even though you know not his or her character or personality
i think it is wise to despise
it is cool to be cruel
follow my path and let us hate together
i give no opportunity to people to see their true self
i love not the differences that makes people special
i only know hate how lonely and sad and full of hate i am
I am prejudice and i am no man
FOR THE RECORD I AM NOT PREJUDICE I WRITE THIS POEM AS WHAT PREJUDICE WOULD SAY IF IT COULD SPEAK IT DOES SPEAK ONLY HATE
Paper rain falling dark gray sky
Many tears falling disaster on the rise
Many eyes searching for the love lost
From the hate that fell from the sky
So much life gone so hard for those
Who had to survive
Searching for answers for what could
Have gone wrong
Trying to stay strong as they try to explain
To the young at heart how one day
Hate came to devastate and take
The peace bring a storm of pain
And lost love to never be found
On sacred grounds we mourn and pray
For those we lost on a September day
Who is to say we build from old to new
So few knew those lost but on that day
The world held hands to pray
For the fate of those we lost from hate
Now we wont ever forget the date
The world stud still and came together
Hand in hand together we stand
To remember that warm September
Flowers will lay words will be said
Tears will fall memories relived
The world will hold hands once again
To pray for peace and love for those who remain
When I wake up,
what I feel is hatred.
I don't know it's hatred for what,
But perhaps I will someday.
I don't know it's hatred for what.
How life is? Or what life is?I don't.
But should we really hate life,
Because of what it is?
Should we really hate life because of how it is?
Life was created to challenges and if
They weren't there,I don't think the life metamorphosis,
Would be what it was meant to be.
What it is today.
Complete with no mistake.
A life full of love,
Brought from heaven above,
Calling to each and every heart,
Doubt and truth spread worlds apart,
Even hate is swept away,
Fear and evil cannot stay,
Gather together the good and the right,
Heal the weak so they can take flight,
Isolate from the jealous mind,
Joyfully follow the caring and kind,
Kill the wrong and terrible thought,
Live for everything that love has brought,
Managing life and able to lead,
Never forgetting what others may need,
Open the heart to everyone,
Pray for things that must be done,
Question those who hold a grudge,
Remember to forgive instead of judge,
Show the way for those who are lost,
Teach them of hate and what it can cost,
Understand the hope and faith to give,
Victory to those who believe and live,
Wrongs erased for family and friend,
XO's to symbolize the love to lend,
Year after year keep the peace the same,
Zero time for war or blame.
The day I have to watch what I say
Is the day I wake up to see that I lost myself
Ask me why I want to run away As your screaming at me everyday
Ask me why I can't stand my life
When every time I stand up you push me from behind
Tell me the world is at my feet and you will always be there
When I look around and see my family crying to my face and scheming when I walk away
Tell me to fix my life when my life is locked so far away from me I can't even see myself in the mirror
Now ask yourself why isn't she happy
We promise the world when she leaves
Only to dangle her dreams out of reach
Why do my words mean so much to you
When the world can see that you aren't true
But behind close doors you don't have a clue
You told me if I was lost you would find me
But when tears stream from my face and I tell you
Daddy, I don't know what I am doing
Daddy, help me through Daddy please I really need you
A stone face looks at me and says You've been lost for years
I'm sure you will pull through
My hate has been mistake for strength
And your hate and my hate
Broke a soul I can never remake
You tell me emotion are for the weak
We beat them down till they are on full retreat
I lived a life of feelings and friends
And that was when I was at my weakest
So you pulled me back in
But daddy can I tell you have you ever cried yourself asleep
Because your words cut to deep.
Have you ever been so happy that you promised yourself nothing could take that away
Just to see a knife to your throat by the person that swore to protect you
Imagines of the past rip through my future
As every step becomes cold and calculated
Disappointment is easier to handle then success
And pain is more acceptable then love
Now keep wondering why I can't fix my life
When the only things I can count on happening
Is everything in this world that would bring down the strongest person
Tell me to move forward and remember you kept me down so long I forgot how to walk
And then explain to my friends why I Flinch away from everyone’s hands
So how can I be better dad, when you taught me to run and hide?
I wish I could fix myself I've even prayed that one day everything would be ok
But if you and your life for me taught me anything
It's don't hope and don't dream It's better to just pretend
And wait until this life ends
Torment at its finest, found me here tonight.
My love for her has blossomed, yet hers has found no light.
So many stars I have wished upon, less drops of water in the sea.
Tonight it looks like rain, so again a storm will awaken me.
I have studied all her subtleties, and how she looks my way.
I wish to know not her true feelings, for all I will find is pain.
the one put me in misery...
for the love that i gave so dearly...
my heart broke into Pisces..
when i was taken to prison...
was my love mistaken..
you used me..
it was always given but not taken..
you are a receiver but not a giver...
the pictures of our lovely past...
runs trough my head so often...
its so heard for me..
to hate you even today...
i am trying to gather
all your bad reasons...
to hate you all over again...
but there is something within me...
i wish i can start loving you all over again...
i wish i can kiss you so tenderly once again...
i know you will not see me.. you will not come near me..
yet dearest Ashanthi..
with all your bad reasons...
of ruing my life to send me to prison...
i forgive you for all your stupid mistakes... and just want to say...
i love you always!!
Letting go never makes it easier,
And with hope confusion only builds
I opened my heart and I'm too terrified to let it close
My walls took so long to fall
My mind tells me to rebuild and start new
A impenetrable wall must be made, just to not let this world put me in my grave
But my heart loved and was free
Love you found me just to remind me of everything I will never be?
The words circle in my head, It's just not there anymore
I felt my soul as it tore
God, haven't I lost enough?
Hasn't this world taught me not to trust for too long
The feeling of knowing it'll never be the same won't be shaken
How could I be so blind, to think I could change your mind
But when my world falls down, I swear I'll run
Yet I stand still like my heart is holding a load gun
I swore I would never let you go, But like a childhood dream
I thought if I wanted it, then it would be
All I wanted was for you to love me
The fairy tails I read, lied to me, They swore that love was all you would need
The darkness rolled into my happy land
As I realize I really did loose my man
And I hold on to the hope that I hate like it'll save me from my desolate fate
Just let this be, and we will see
But with all my pain and all my loss I feel my love drift away
And like countless times before everyone leaves and they don't know why
My tears consume me, and I hate myself for believing in love
My anger kept me alive, and you stripped that away so I knew that you were the one that would stay
So now I am left in no man's land
Not knowing to let go, But praying and begging you will come save me
I can't make you love me again, But as you walked away
I realize that there wasn't a single day I thought you wouldn't be with me
I thought I knew heart break I thought I could handle pain
But through this I see, That I was a broken me
You put me together, you raised me higher then I've ever been
And the fall from there has been my worse
I know I'm a shell of me, because you showed me how to be free
So if hope dies, Even through my relentless tries
I will never love again, I can't take proving my father right, I can't take this pain
It took true happiness to understand true pain
And if I make it through this still sane
I'll never do this to myself again, For this is the worlds biggest sin, To watch someone walk away that was the only one you let in
You lie, so Liar is your name
A Liar, you are like a thief, it’s all the same
I hate Liars; that means I hate you
You don’t care because lying is what you do
How dare you lie to me?
As if I’m someone less then wifey
So I’m dating a Liar, because why?!
All lying does is make me cry
But you don’t care, I know you don’t
Say that you are a Liar, you can’t, you won’t
You’re a disease that festers on my heart
A Liar, A Thief, A Storm, breaking me apart
You part your lips to tell stories
But can’t even ask about my worries
Liars deserve to rot in the ground
Lies are thorns that keep you bond
I hate you, You are a liar
An epidemic, spreading like wild fire
So tell me what can a liar gain
Tell me, Happiness, Joy, Guilt, Pain
Ur lies, they are torture to a soul
You are your lies, so ugly, so distant, so cold
You say it’s the last time
Last time, This time, Tomorrow SAME LINE
You tell lies, So the truth you bend
Liars don’t understand, that lies brings happiness to an end
I was learning, how
not to catch you.
Called the cloud
hugging a hillside.
Can you climb on the road ?
No , it said, I want to play with the moon.
this was becoming,
An epiphany ? No it was a crying
theme, discovery of the self.
When the tremors came,
you were flung like a doll,
opening the earth
one breath long.
Swallows were eyeing the sky.
The hollow tree
traps the light and sends out
the blue pupils of yellow eyes.
I am still counting the limbs
under the boulders.
The landmass was moving asking names.
The big vulture was watching
the end of the feast,
A bomb hidden in turban will
kill a saint. You say I should
call for the girls.
Why don’t you wear the skullcap
to cover the beautiful mind
which will not kiss the fire ?
You look cute,
but scream like a beast,
your sweet voice is in mute,
and your smile has deceased.
No longer in love,
afraid to be crushed again,
feelings in the mud,
countdown to ten,
to a nervous breakdown.
cut yourself to reduce pain,
but still feel the depression,
your tears are like rain,
your heart is full of regret.
Can no longer relate,
shattered the world of love that you've created,
only concentrate on hate,
on those who abused you.
A bloody rose looks harmless,
but it's filled with cruelty,
expect the unexpected,
from deadly beauty.