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Better Peices

You were old and new all at once
A deadly temptation 
A glitch in my solid nature
And so I dove head first
And as I did I watched the pieces
Of me break away
To reveal an alien 
A rawness, a vulnerability 
I had never thought I possessed
Yet there I was 
And there you were unchanged 
And unaware that I was scrambling 
For my better peices


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GoodBye

                               GOODBYE

I miss the way you hugged me when I cried and how you told me how you loved me 
every night but now you won't even look at me and you don't even talk to me 
anymore and when I'm upset you just laugh and walk away........... All I want to 
know is what did I do that was so bad that you treat me like a punching bag........ I 
miss the way you kissed me but I guess you've moved on and I try boy do I try but 
your all I dream about all I think about is you, you were my world and now your 
gone I'm so lost without you I cry every night because someone will say your 
name....... What I miss most of all is that I could tell you anything but now you won't 
even listen.............. What kills me is you saying goodbye for good goodbye god 
those words kill me every time good bye good bye good bye....


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A Yearn for a Smile 9-21-11

	A yearn… simply something that you want or long for. As a yearn to finish, a yearn to achieve, a yearn for a like, a yearn for a smile is something that you drastically want, a desire. Something that you spend long hours, nights even day dreaming hours thinking about how you can earn that smile. What can you do…. or what can you say … things such as a conversation sparks, likes even dislikes, mostly anything that will crack a smile. These are things that truly show signs of something far greater than fame, sex, money, power. What is it? Something more than I have yet to find. So as I search for the answer I over shoot the entrance with rapid thinking of what she wants, her likes, her dislikes. But truly it will only be earned by who you are, what you want to be, yourself, your feelings your desires, your yearn. So when you yearn for that smile or that special something it can only be earned by being you, no one else. Take a look at yourself in the mirror and try to see past the makeup or tan or piercing and just look at yourself… then take that image and imprint it to yourself forever because to find happiness and your yearn  can only be earned one way. Trying to watch her and she how she reacts to certain things just to make myself seem better when I finally open my mouth to her will only make you distant from that special someone.  With me I personally see myself as buff pierced orange person, while trying to continue to follow the people who I look up to the most. So as you struggle and go through life’s trials and tribulations always look at your yearn or what it once it what was. Think about how you felt when you failed or succeeded and try to make yourself a better person from it. Not by adding more glamour or appeal to yourself but by being closer to yourself. What you really are. Because only then can you truly say you earned your yearn of a smile or that special someone, even if there not with you, apart of them will be and that’s the part they left. The part that made you better. More complete. 			So never forget your yearn of her..


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dysfunctional

It’s my life not expecting you to understand it
A man who when he was a boy his mother abandoned
Alienated like I arrived from another planet
While you were with your family joking, laughing and eating a peanut butter sandwich
I was moved from foster families and children’s homes
Surrounded by people but feeling alone
 Everything I go through is some kind of building zone
Treated differently because I’m not wanted or loved by my dad, sister mum or brother
Feel like everyone trying to get to know me is working undercover
So the first thing I do is run for cover
Opposites attract I’m cold inside does that make me summer’s lover?
Being uncomfortable makes me comfortable
I feel safe being vulnerable
I’ll be the first to say I’m dysfunctional
Am I supposed to lie and say everything all great and wonderful?
Should I already understand and know it all?
You belittle me but I’m still growing tall
You wanted me to catch but you didn’t even throw the ball
An insomniac and I know Money can buy a bed but not sleep
But how much would a meaningful hug cost me?
I could wish and pray to the sky
But that’s just not me
Anytime love got me
It seems that Luck lost me
So I Push away the people I want to stay by my side
The ones who are worth your tears won’t make you cry
I could do 99 good deeds for you
But you would count the mistakes I make in life
So I don’t even try no more
I don’t cry no more
Love no one trust no one, **** them all
If you want to walk out my life. Here let me hold the door


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Daddy the Alcoholic

Daddy the alcoholic,
 every single day,
full and countless glasses,
 guzzled down,
help him please, and bring my daddy back to me.


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Psychosis

Anxiety Borders Crazy Dementia Erratic Frantic Grasp Hyde Introduces Jekyll Kooky Lunatic
Manic Neurotic OCD Psychotic Quack Rage Schizophrenia Tirade Unbalanced Valium Willing
Xanax Yearns Zen


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Errata Poem

"A person's tongue is a twisty thing, 
     there are plenty of words there of every kind, 
         and the range of words is wide, and their variation." 
               -- HOMER, The Iliad


When I say ice cream read I scream
When I say phonology read phone allergy
When I say insinuate read in sin you ate
When I say four candles read fork handles

When I say mint spy read mince pie
When I say greénhouse read green hoúse
When I say bláckboard read black boárd
When I say mesher read measure

When I say Alpine read alpine
When I say vowels read dishtowels
When I say Homophone read home on phone
When I say Polish read polish

When I say sonorant son of ant
When I say i.c.u. read I see you
When I say Lent read lent
When I say Turkey read turkey

When I say euthanasia read youth in Asia
When I say depreciate read deprecate
When I say farther read further
When I say collision read collusion

When I say endocentric read exocentric
When I say pharynx read larynx
When I say thought read though
When I say phonemic read phonetic

When I say weather read whether
When I say China read china
When I say call on phones read allophones
When I say stuffy nose read stuff he knows

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© Joseph, 10/4/08
© All Rights Reserved
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Comments:  The Errata poem is based on mistake in speech or speaking, a Freudian slip,
mispronounced words, homophonic pronunciation, etc. Paul Muldoon from Ireland, and 
Charles Simic from Yugoslavia wrote Errata poems based on this definition.  The Errata poem 
is a Linguists paradise.

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Joseph S. Spence, Sr., is the author of "The Awakened One Poetics" (2009), which is 
published in seven different languages. He invented the Epulaeryu poetry form, which 
focuses on succulent cuisines and drinks. He is published in various forums, including the 
World Haiku Association; Poetinis Druskininku, Milwaukee Area College, Phoenix Magazine; 
Möbius Poetry, and Taj Mahal Review to name a few. Joseph is a Goodwill Ambassador for 
the state of Arkansas, USA, a college faculty, and a military veteran.

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above pain

Above pain

Quote;
He has been stepped on
He has been hated on
But he still stands and rises above pain
Wars came, left relatives dead
He cried, he trembled
But he still stands
Once regretted his birth
Once thought of taking his life.
Thunder strikes and that’s enough
To make him gain strength
To aim higher and rise above pain
He is now rising above pain
Trying everything to clean his brain

If he was created in God’s image?
Why can’t God take care of His image?
Questions he couldn’t find answers to
Friends all gone,
The only family he has ever known
Streets become his home,
Starving to death,
Could not hold his breath
But still standing strong
And promises to rise above pain..
                                                       By, ino29









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weakness in his strength

“WEAKNESS IN HIS STRENGTH”

Quote;
Weakness in his strength
Born by hatred and raised by anger
He felt like his life was hangin on a hanger
Poor little one,
People loved his dad, but to him he was dead
Happiness.
His dad’s name, in his senses
Covered by memories
And surrounded by sadness
He said he had seen the worst
But he is not the first
He had failure as his big brother
Hatred kept near them as their mother
He thanked God for every breath
But could not find the weakness in his strength

The weakness in his strength
Poor little one, with his
Weakness in his strength

Lights looked bright to others but to him
They looked deem
Funeral for his mother…
Dead and gone was Mrs. Hatred
That’s the moment he forgot about hate and
Decided to move in with dad,
Living Mr. Anger alone which left him mad
Success, a beautiful lady his dad 
Started dating last weak
She was introduced to him
But still felt weak
Education, who she met at school and changed his life
Who she later made his wife
Had to hire a babysitter by the name of health
After having a baby who they named wealth.

The weakness in his strength
Weakness in his strength 
Started facing death.
                                                                                                           Written by,
                                                                                                            Ino29
   



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unthinkable world

THE UNTHINKABLE WORLD

Quote;
The unthinkable world
They say you rip what you saw
Does that explain why we are products of war?
They say history builds the future
Is that why we ignore our culture?
Years in school plus years searching for a job
Equals years of death
An equation you were not taught in math
Why do some people work hard.
And earn small?
Think that explains why some buildings fall.
 
Unthinkable world
Be strong young boys and girls
Be strong as you tell everyone 
That you are not just a star
Which only shines at night?
Tell’em u are bigger than the sky
And that u don’t rule u lead u are the master
Boys be ready to face the unthinkable world
Make sure that everybody takes your inspiring words
Girls be ready to face the unthinkable world
Don’t let young boys lie to u with fake
Diamonds and pearls
With the unthinkable world.
                                                                                       By,
                                                                                                           Ino29
 














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Family love

How popular and loved are you? 
I'm not talking the passed by wanna be's,                                    
or those who give you hugs when they see you.                      
              
Forget about the ones who call themselves your friends,         
while they texted you once in the past seven days if they even tex ted.                                                
You have more than thousand friends on facebook even more twitter followers,                         
how many can you call when you out of bread,                             
forget about the taxi fee when the month is dark.                                               
How many who actually follow you in real life,                                 
forget about those you bbm and send your naked pictures to,                                                      
how many who whatsapp you, 
facebook you without seeing your status updates?                        
forgive me if I'm being paranoid or insensitive.    
they say you are the twerleb, a celeb that is dating Caleb 
but what we see, self hate human being, who post selfies
that  describe the life would you desire.
They say your tweet said " clubbing tonight"
while you were busy cutting yourself under the bed today.  
                                                              
Your friends used to be, 
are posting picture of their families, 
some selfies of their resent boyfriends named Tim,               
and you still busy posting edited jokes about people,                     
how lonely can it get?                
How lonely are you?                          
Maybe you don't need any of that, 
maybe all you need is family love,  
I may not be the smartest, 

but I have shoulders to give, 
I have tissues to wipe away your tears, 
because I am your family.
we are here for you


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What the HEART WANTS,,,,

The HEART WANTS what the HEART WANTS,
    People say "Listen to your HEART."
But what if you can't HEAR it?
         Your MIND wants all these other things,
and then you CAN'T HEAR your HEART.
        I sit and CLEAR my MIND 
   I sit LISTENING to my HEART
 BUT it SAYS NOTHING
  it BEATS to NOTHING
 

         What am i suppose to do now?

By:Angel4eva

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Dogma Delivery

An allotted announcement;
Ben’s brother balances
Carefully, carrying containers
Designated “Dogma Delivery.”
Eventually, everyone 
Finds frog-gy feelings for
Generously generated
Hair-raising hijinks.
Incoherent ideas incur. 
Jeremiah jumps, jolting,
Kicking kleptomaniacs,
Lashing lawlessness.
Money monkeys make
Notorious nincompoops. 
Obscure obligations often 
Poisons pathetic passion!
Quarantining qualified
Representatives,
Shrivels support,
Transforming truth-
Unilaterally, unfairly
Vexing vicariously.
While we want 
Xanadu,
Yokels yield
Zion’s zenith


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Allusion

Allusion to confusion.
Better to allude,
Confusion.


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Fruitless Cycles

retched, a stomach twisting curdle
sour, the bile that rises from malcontent
tearful, yet, tears are futile, a waste of water
understanding seems never to come or come too late
all one can do is suck it up and try to love again



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Green People

I see green people
They tell me they come in peace 
But they are showing me the roots to all evil
I see green people
They try to disguise their intentions 
But their actions are so see through
I see green people
They are the true world leaders
There are no free actions or thoughts
You do or think what they want you to
I see green people
They manipulated all of our history
So if we were to find the truth
It doesn't matter because their is no proof
I see green people
As their head grow larger 
I continue to have distant dreams of me being considered a equal
I see green people
They told me to worship them or die
Close my eyes and look through the lies
Because without them 
There is no chance to walk among the Gods
I see green people 
And there is no doubt about it
They truly show me the roots to all evil





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The Honest Truth

The honest truth
Sometimes I feel I ain't good enough for the type of man you are, 
My many flaws and imperfections are never ideal for the perfectionist you portray. 
I shy to show u my love cause of the feeling you're not here to stay, 
But only to pass by till you finds the one that’s perfect for u. 
I am a woman of word, 
Yet fertilising my roots is the lesson to submit to thy man 
Has he strength or weakness, 
For life or women. 
I look in your eyes and see no such love that my heart feels, 
No trust that my mind thinks, 
He says no words that my ears hear 
Nor hears the same words my mouth speaks. 
I love u, my heart seeks.  

The honest truth
I see no man beyond him, 
No past behind him, no better in front. 
He makes me happy with no actions, presence fulfils, 
Smell and touch, senses made 
Or sense is made with every feeling in my body. 
He helps me forget all the pain, 
He’s compassion reigns in his own kingdom his Highness, 
Egotistical and rough, 
Blunt words and sharp tongue, 
Lose me in all of it and find the one that makes u feel the way u desire
Cause the honest truth
We could be fighting the same battle but I'm too weak win the war.


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Ambiguous Love


Ambiguity in love is
Blasphemous at best
Comfort and compassion give
Dillusional rest
~To weary hearts unknown guest~

Lay


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MidNight Wishes

Even though i did not hear your voice tonight i'm still ahit,
I will go on like this for ever, i wont go out without a fight. 
I'll fight till the end of this life to win your heart,
All you have to do is tell me when to start.

The music blarrin in my head phones at 1:52 AM and i'm lovin it, 
cause it helps me remember your gorgeous smile like it was meant to fit. 
Wanting to feel your touch and kisses all over me ignites the fire in me,
Wanting to take you by your hand and run wild in a big sea. 

There aint much i can say to express myself but this will have to do for tonight,
I think its just that i haven't reached height.
You no I love you and that's all that matters or will ever matter to me,
I will love you till i die, like I told you before, cant you see? 
 


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You text Me

You text me today
Saying you wanted me back
I text you back
Saying your to late
That I done decide to move back home
It's like you expect me to forgive you
after you rip my heart out
I'm sorry
You do not get a second chance
To hurt me again
Sorry
I can't forget things you've done to me
You lied
You cheated
You toyed with my heart
After I gave my self to you
The best you can do
Is leave me alone
So I can pick up the pieces of my broken heart.


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Rythem in Life

Is it the rhythm in life
That we have issues and strife
The rhythm in life is a beat
A beat that puts you heart out in the street
The street is where it all goes down
It goes down to make you frown  
Some people laugh and play 
Other people sit and stay  
We all want to wear it 
And even compare it 
In my room sometime strain at the wall 
In my mind hear my conscience call
In life alone 
We don’t pick up the phone
And we lose the milestone 
The trust of the fact that 
We are not all that!


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What am I

Preposterous
Angry
Rabid
Antisocial
Neurotic
Overly suspicious
Irrational
Deranged


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DON'T SHOOT

DEAR MR. OFFICER PLEASE DON'T SHOOT ME!
I HAVE SOMETHING VALUABLE TO SAY TO THE WORLD
SO KEEP YOUR BULLETS &  DON'T TRY TO MUTE ME!
I COULD BE THE NEXT JOHNNY COCHRAN
OR THE NEXT BEN CARSON SEE,
DONT ATTACK,JUST BECAUSE IM BLACK
IM NOT APPROVED FOR GRAND LARCENY
I HAVE SOMETHING  VERY VALUABLE TO CONTRIBUTE TO SOCIETY
SO PLEASE PUT YOUR GUN DOWN 
AND PLEASE STOP EYEING ME
I GOT A POCKET FULL OF SKITTLES AND SOME ARIZONA ICE TEA
AND I MAY HAVE ON A HOODIE,BUT THAT'S JUST ME BEIN ME
WHAT IF I GET AN ITCH TO SHOOT YOU? 
JUST FOR WEARIN COWBOY BOOTS?
OR FEEL THREATENED TO SHOOT
EVERY WHITE MAN I SEE IN A SUIT?
WHAT IS THE PROTICAL FOR HANDLING SOMEONE WHO IS UNARMED?
IF I AM NOT POSING A THREAT TO YOU 
SHOULDN'T  I  BE LEFT UNHARMED?
DEAR MR. OFFICER,
WHY DO YOU HATE ME SO MUCH?
I THOUGHT WE WERE PAST THESE ISSUES
BUT SINCE WE'RE ON THIS TOPIC
WHAT'S THE RUSH?
YOU KNOW WHAT'S IT'S LIKE TO HAVE  A FAMILY
THEY ALL NEED ME TOO
WHAT IF ALL THE STUFF YOU DID,
I TURNED AROUND AND DID TO YOU???
DON'T YOU KNOW GOD IS STILL WATCHIN?
DON'T YOU KNOW YOU STILL REAP WHAT YOU SOE?
IF YOU PLANTS SEEDS OF INJUSTICES
JUST WATCH WHAT IN TIME YOU'LL GROW
PLEASE STOP WITH YOUR FALSE ALLEGATIONS
PLEASE STOP TRYING TO BE THE NEGRO SLAYER HERO
AND JUST KNOW NO MATTER HOW MANY OF US U SHOOT
 U WILL NEVER BE AT PEACE
UNTIL YOU FIX THE MAN IN THE MIRROR.


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The Letter S

I can use the letter s with so many s words, 
I am the seventh sign supreme soldier from the reservation suburbs, 
I fly like seagull in the open ocean sky supreme like an serpant eagle eating birds,
 I am so solid Im siked and sipped up from the sizzy sizzurp, 
I stagger until I swerve swiftly as snake in the souless society lost curbs, 
life so crooked it stained with soaked blood life around death curves, 
I cant believe so many lost soveriegn souls *****on they own siblings as the culture turns,
 I know I am sure of being sure of what I sought to learn, 
The brain with suicide can sometimes burn. 

Souless savage in society I be among little certain satans, lost in circles saying "7th Sign Empire Engraving"like my own still souls of savage culture on certain colors discriminating,
 But whats even worse is soul on souls hating, 
Society severed in broken circles still forsaken, 
Serpants searching society split in seven different groups of seven hundred seventy-two,
 Forsake my Se7en and I forsake thee seven times seven fold because truth be said Im souless to you,
 Se7enth Sign Supreme Solid Serene Soldier of of the sacred seven, 
I say I have always said society on my word S


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Sometimes I Like To Pretend Things Never Came To A End

Sometimes I like to pretend, things never came to a end. But over time, our love became a crime. I didn't know what we had, would ever end so bad. But then I knew things weren't right, when we started to fight. Now I walk down memory lane all the time, the pain is worst then committing a crime. We only caused eachother pain, but we were eachothers maine. I thought things would be alright, but I cried alot that night. I don't want things to change, without you my life is strange. You said you wanted me so much it started to hurt that you couldn't wait, now im just another person you hate. When you said you didn't care, I knew the person I loved was no longer there. You aren't the same, the new you is lame. We both fell, now it's hell. You use to always be here for me, like family. But now your nowhere in sight, things aren't right. Empty is all that I can feel, I still can't believe this is real. I didn't mean to let you get away, I didn't know what to say. Am i with the right guy, or am i telling myself a lie. I was afraid to loose what we had, but to you that choice was bad.


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Your one mistake

I feel really hurt, I hope you don't notice the mascara stains on your shirt. I dont want you to know I still cry, I dont want you to know your the reason why. I know I have made many mistakes and caused you many heartaches. But I dont know how you handle this pain, I'm going insane. I feel like that one lie, has done more than make me cry. Its caused me to look at you a different way, its caused me to overthink everything you have said or say. I dont want us to change but now things feel so strange. I guess I'll just have to adjust but I dont have anyone to trust.  I dont know what all you have said is true, I dont know what to do. Should I be mad, is it okay for me to be sad. I hate the fact but I don't know how to react. I didn't exspect for that to happen, I wasn't prepared for my heart to be broken. I thought we we didnt keep secrets from eachother, I thought we could trust one a nother. But you have proven me wrong, showed me I'm not strong. I just hope you gain my trust back, before things get all wack.


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Old Man

Around the Corner Contest
(WINTER is around the corner)
By Sally Wood
Old Man
There's an old man I heard is new in town
They say he's not shy as he takes over the land
His business is snow and ice and cold rain
The neighbors are talking he's all the rage

He changed the scenery his very first day
While the trees lost their leaves and died away
He has a blower for harsh cold winds and rain
And later he'll order people to dress his way

This old man has taken over our town
People are running in attempts to escape his plans
They wear heavy clothing, boots, and hats on their heads
As they pass him, he laughs, he has nothing to dread

Yes, there is a new old man in town
Who has people angry and avoiding his frown
He'll keep on moving a few months down the line
But for now, our town won't be free for quite some time!


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Your Silence

Your Silenceis keeling me!
i don't understand why,
i would like to know what's on your mind,
when something happend, and all you do is ignore me.
i would prefer you talk to me,
even though words that come out of your mouth is like fire.
I know if you talk to me, you'll hurt me,
but there is a question that i would like to ask you.
Why do you shoose to stay silent?


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ME(by kimmy holmes, my daughter)

yOU KnoW YOU're PRETTY
YoUR SAFE fROM ME
yOU WATCH THE nEWS
iT KEEPS yOU fREE

yOUR'E sO MUCH     better
THAN i COULD hOPE TO BE
i MAKES ME quiet
Not so mucH ME

I think i MIIGHT BE MAD
you tell me I might be sad
scREW Y oU MY LoVE
I am ready
 
TO BE GLAd


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do I? (by kimmy holmes, my daughter)

you are
so in love
in love 
with me

i wonder
do  you know
i'm not the same
no not

look at what
you done 
you done did to me
made me too happy

i'm so happy 
i cain't do the same
i feel bad
make everyone mad

but i can't
I won't 
cuz I don't have to
do I?


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IF i die

when i die, please cry for me
i wanna be loved, i long to be free
no funeral,  just sniffles and tears
say you cant live, mourn me for years
selfish maybe, who are you to judge
but maybe i wont die, maybe i wont budge..


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Crazy World

Crazy World

It’s funny how
The universities are still in business
Of producing graduates
That speak funny English
And hardly make invention
And the stock market falls
Down street tumbles
That lets people buy
And make profit
Like grandpa used to say,
True intellectualism died
In the year 1929
With the rise in acumen inflation
It was then that
This Federal Reserve of Ignorance
The true villain of this quandary
Traces its genesis
Hope that explains succinct
This universal impotence


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Nothing Really Matters

when rob stepped out of the courthouse,with charges for posession
he thought "it could be worse,it could have been for weapons"
and then he thought..."nothing really matters anyway"
when liz stepped of of the rehab,with a new outlook on life
she felt all those same feelings of hurt, pain, and strife
and then she thought "nothing really matters anyway"
when luke picked up his young son from daycare,and knew he had an hour
he thought back to the time he WOULD have stopped to grab his now EX-wife some flowers
and then he thought "nothing really matters anyway"
when lisa lifted up her body with nothing but her arms,and looked down at her legs
she wondered why the heck they were even THERE anyway..what for?
and then she thought "nothing really matters anyway"
all four people that same night,all in their own homes
picked up a remote,turned on the news and watched it come to blows
one man had done 25 years in jail,for something he had not really done
one woman lost the battle to addiction,one she thought she'd already won
one boy got hit by a car on his bike,he just only 5 his parents,divorced
one man lost his arms and legs while over fighting the war
four different people,four different lives,four different struggles,all about to cry
four different souls,four different heart,four different minds,all to have a fresh start
why does it take a reality check to pull us into gear?
why is it that reality sometimes must be our greatest fear?
the next time you think you're the only one who hurts and has plight
the next time you feel you're all alone,the only one who cries at night
try and remember,try not to forget,that you are never alone
whether you're telling your mom and dad your gay to the face or over the phone
whether your wife divorced you,your husband's a dog,or your kids have NO respect
you are human,deserve more,and you're not alone,cause' there is someone right next....
to you!!! nothing really matters. until you realize...nothing really matters.


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The Prison of Night

At night i weep,
in silence i grieve,
how can i sleep?
when it is hard to breath,

During the day i laugh,
with friends i converse,
but the day wont last with the turning of earth,

with dark skies comes heartache,
as the stars flicker and blaze,
there only so much i can take,
of these suffocating days,

when the day starts anew,
and the sun brings the morning light,
i momentarily forget about you,
until the return of night,

when i see the midnight moon,
and feel the stars in the sky,
i close my eyes in this room,
and pray i make it by,

for when the sun is shinning high,
and the heat consumes my fright,
i cant help but wonder why
i must suffer the prison of night


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Sides of a Coin

Antinomy begets conflict
Decision evokes freedom
Government heeds interest
Jest kills laziness
Ends and beginnings start and finish.


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bitter culture

Shocked, culturally seeing these young crackas splattering an shouting hate through they eyes not they mouth, nah I'm not bitter just certain,  not pulling the race card because I know tha truth thru them blue eyes.. I'm done just wondering why? -Eccentric


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Transformer

Transformer...



 I am so sorry I tend to whisper to my self while the wings on my back enfold me in my idiocy and bust in a furl of feathers and fire.
 
My authentic halo falling broken reinforcing my thoughts on transformations... 

My lush lies crept up into me whispering to you my secrecy and my merry go round patterns...
 I was adapted to serous sabotage and unconsidered volcanic eruptions... Having nothing to react to I made my own quake...
 
i deserve everything. 

But for you to say I can't feel is something that just shocked me at my core... 
But then again what should I expect? 
Secret boyfriends? 
are you kidding me...? 
But then again what should i expect... 
I gave you a reason to be suspicious a reason to say those things... 

With my viscosity on the subject I realize I have to be punished... and it has nothing to do with you...
 





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Impossible

To maintain a life
Above all the strife
Pain and sorrow
Is to choose
A sight so sharp
It sees through the dark
And sees even in the light
Things that defy human sight
Things impossible
Things unprecedented
Things invisible
The ability to look
To see beyond the present circumstances
To hold on to that faint candle light
In the midst of the pitch black darkness of the night
The will to cling to life
When death is but a pinch away
The strength to see the sun shine so bright
Through a sandstorm in the Sahara
Through the snowstorms in the north pole
Through the cloudy rainstorms of the amazon
The ability to see white
When everyone sees black
The will to see beauty
Where everyone sees  the ugly
To see the highest mountain peaks
As mole-hills about to be trampled
To believe in particles
Faster  than  light
To believe men can touch
The surface of the sun
And walk to the ends of milky-way
With the stars as our footstones
The ability to hope for better things
And to dream of better days
In the midst of bitter months
Can’t you see the impossible
It’s laughing you to scorn
Telling you I’M POSSIBLE….


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I Can't Believe It's Really Over This Time

I really hate this feeling, sometimes I wish I could stop breathing. I don't wanna try, just leave me here to die. You were the thing that made my life living for, but your no longer mine anymore. I feel so much pain, sometimes I believe I'm going insane. I'm missing what we had, although it was bad. I'm always walking down memory lane, why can't you see my pain? I know people change, &&' things get strange. I guess I gotta face it, she's my new replacment. I can't believe it's really over this time, I feel as if i have commited a crime. I live in a world of sorrow, so I don't ever worry about tomorrow. I didn't even have time to cry, because i had already said bye. I feel like I'm digging a deeper whole, so I'm hoping Jesus will take control. I'm sorry for my dumb mistake, but baby now I'm wide awake.


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FEARS


  As before, came dominant edicts, fracturing great hopes into just kindred like memories,

  No one possessed quiet recollection simply to usurp verbally, whenever Xenophobes yielded 

  zealousness.


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Feeling Down

I'm feeling down, &&' I'm already on the ground. I cant get any lower, my patience is getting slower. I've already hit the floor, &&' I'm becoming sore. I'm not sure where I went wrong, but now I dont belong. I'm like the unknown, all alone. This feeling is unbarable, the pain is unbelievable. I'm ready to walk out the door, I can't take no more. This is why I don't trust, I always get pushed in the dust. Now I got to cover my eyes, &&' ignore all your lies. I've been left in the rain, I've felt the pain. I knew things were wrong, but I stayed along. Now I'm here all alone, waiting for the sound of my phone. I wouldn't wish for my worst enemy to feel this way, that's what I have to say. I didn't really have a choice, now I'm missing the sound of your voice. I made mistakes that wont fade, not even with a blade. My heart isn't bullet proof, &&' that's the truth.


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Freedom

Freedom
Staring up, wondering why
Our freedom lost, in twilight’s eye.
Of how free the sky can be,
of how we may never come to be.


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carring

Can
Aperence
Read
Real
Inerself
Never give up
Garden of hope


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Night in June

Once there was a boy, 
too poor to be loved.

That is why he met a girl
and broke her heart.

He gave her hope 
and run away

Then came back
but decided not to stay.

All that's left,
the memory of a romantic night

Supervised,
by the government’s eye.


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Insanity

Ahh, Quick please somebody help me!!! 
Insanity is creeping up on me,
It's trying to get the best of me!!!
Shh... do you hear that?
Thank you, leave a message i'll call you back.
He-he-he this was fun,
And now i must run!!!
Thank you, please come again.
Me and my insanity will miss you!!!
Till next time,
I may or may not recognize you.
He-he-he Insanity.


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The Darkness Addiction

Dark potions, liquid substance of evil, they rot in my veins, 
Oh and the heartache that it brings to my brain.
These potions of darkness, 
Plays with the mind game after game,
It is known by many names.
Its gift is a false sense of security; 
Causing you to feel,
As if you can do anything!!
For you, it makes its own deal!
It runs rapid in your blood, laughing all the way,
It offers its own passages of deceit and lies,
It causes you to see each color brighter than before, 
Every taste in the beginning you seem to adore.
You start to believe, you can fly.

Addiction?? Oh no, I can stop anytime, really,
I can really I can, if I wanted to . . .

A self-delusion from its beginning, but this you already know.
It steals – it kills – it destroys, 
Your happiness, it stomps on your soul, 
The seeds of destruction, it has sown,
Finally, it you that addiction does own.

It whispers in deep inside, take me in!
I’ll share with you the world, it says, as soon as you begin.
It is then; it steals your free will of choice, 
Killing your logic of reason --  your inner voice,

Death then becomes your next adventure; 
Paranoia is your finest companion,
The face in the mirror, is no longer your own,
Your entire world has been wasted and to the winds has been thrown.

In my darkest hour, with desperation, 
I fell to my knees, I cried, with a great bellow, 
Words I uttered while shaking,
I am so weary of my addiction that is always taking, 
This is my jailer, these are my pleas.
This darkness is my chain of prison for me,
My words began shouting so someone could hear,
Is it even slightly possible from this I can be free??
To guide me and save me before I am consumed,
By each and every one of my fears,
To possibly live and love within a different tune,
Or has I have gone too far, too much is lost,
The price that is waiting,
Is it possible it is too high of a cost?
I cried a sea of tears for help, for change
That some how my life just might be able to be rearranged.


I am now fit with a choice & a voice.  
Delivered from the dark potions that once ran through my veins,
As I now reach to the suffering addict, 
That one whose heart has a stain,
For the same message that was sent to me,
That life might be saved and be set free,
I smile and gently whisper, the passage is not an easy one
But certainly worth while,
Come on just walk with me for at least a mile .  .  .
Never will I give up on you, 
Even if you still have stumbling to do!


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Oh word

while words play hide and seek in my mind
while they sink and float resisting their definition and my determination to recite

when there is a resignation of words in my mind that lead me to a world of confusion
I will take out my pen and paper where my solution is found

there is a story I want to tell, but oh! sorry something holds me back
with all the information I have, its hard to share for I am held back by my situation

Ingcinga nengcingane zam zingcikiv'ubuciko bam ndancama ndatsho ngezwi ndathi " gama hlala nam
ziziphithiphithi zalaph'eziphithanise ingcinga zam , lafika lon'iphango 
njenge ngxangxasi yamanzi, zehl'iinyembezi zam

I sat and I said...Oh! word,,, you got nothing left for me??,,,I wanna recite,, I want to talk 


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WHAT DO YOU SEE

What do you see
When you are looking at me?

When your flashing eye 
Reflects the sky
Like the sea.

A young man having fun
And everyone in turn 
Loving him like cream?

Or an old man who after you see you would run
And everyone in turn 
Hating him and the sun
Getting dim when it sees him?

Is that what you see?

What do you see
When you are looking at me?

A troublesome boy
Who is in people’s mouths
Where ever he goes?

Maybe a drunken guy
Coming at night
And knocking on doors
And talking while he snows?

Is that what you see?

Then you are wrong for sure.

For I am a broken hearted person
Trying to fight for freedom like Mandela Nelson
Getting all the pieces of my broken heart
To make sure that they are well sown
And one day you shall understand
That what you saw was not what it was.
It will really be the time 
After you realize that you were wrong
When your mouths will get rid of that nasty song.


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Who am I

Somebody help get through this nightmare,
If im not the real me
Who have i become
And who am i really,
This is so confusing
I cant escape this hell
All from the abusing,
Im so lost 
Does anyone care,
No longer the same
Is anyone there,
I rise just to fall again
Im falling apart
How do i come undone
Here in the dark,
Whats real and whats not
Whats left of me,
In this big overwhelming knot.
Who do I auta be,
Who am i not,
Do i change n be the real me
Or do i become someone else
who am i  suppose to be
If only i knew what cud have been
Who and what i would become
If not for the abuse
If i wasn't undone
My brain has been played with too many times,
I try to figure out things
By writin' em rhymes,
Im tired,
Tired of feeling so confused 
Tired of feeling so awful 
Tired of being abused.
 


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SIMPLICITY

It started out simple, I never thought it through. The start of an addiction so exciting and new.  I could have never for seen how far it would go. If I would have thought it trough I would have been strong and said “NO”.   It started out simple, It was my favorite thing.  I never for seen the heartbreak it would bring. It started out simple, yet so intense, so strong.  I could have never for seen the addiction would hold me for so long. It’s not so simple when the best parts of you break away, day by day. It’s not so simple when your favorite thing is something you hate.  How could I for see what would become my fate?  It’s not so simple when you’re trying to keep from getting sick but with every prick you get more sick; sick of yourself and this nasty habit you keep. I never knew it would go this deep.  It started out simple, it ended so complex. How could I have for seen my life would become this unmanageable mess. Down low in the gutter, ashamed, and depressed. How could I have for seen id be under arrest, for this habit I love, it’s this habit I hate.  It started out simple, it started out great. How could I have for seen id become a felon and in prison id wait?  It’s not so simple, I guess it never really was…..next time I’ll makes it simple, next time I’ll say no to these drugs!


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when a woman leaves a girl

after all,a woman's mistakes are different from a girl's
they are etched by fire on stone
they are in fact considered traits, not just errors
and now you're so alone
when you were 14 they all said how much potential you had
now you hit 19 or 20, and you're just considered bad
if you were a troubled kid, things were different than most for you
and i don't mean GETTING in trouble,although for some,it's that too
but depression is so very real,they just have no idea
and looking in the mirror to feel,you must skip your next meal
you are never good enough,and always fall just short of pretty
although you are considered smart and extremley funny and witty
they way that you percieve yourself,is different than what others see
at least that's what i have been told,do you agree with me?
but why is it that when your younger,people just want to help
but once you reach 19 or 20,your just dealt the cards your dealt
i don't feel any different inside,i can tell you that for certian
the older i get,the less they care,i hide behind a curtain
i'm still a kid at 21,at 22 as well..
im still a child in alot of ways,living in an emotional hell
where did all the helping hands go,the ones that were there before
i blame myself for not taking that help and will forever more
because now apparently,it's too late,nobody cares about me
i am not a cute little girl,just a woman who needs to be free
i ask of you,human to human,the next time you want to judge
pray for patience if you need to,ask for help from above
but something tells me im not alone,there are others who experienced this
there are others out there that need help so badly,please don't miss
don't miss their smiles,that are still so young,even though they look so grown
at 21 we are not adults,and pretending we are makes us feel alone
maybe i AM alone in this feeling,i have no idea
but what i do know,for sure i feel...this is very real.


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paradox

paradox

there is but one light in my life, 
one possible good I have left to achieve
the only thing in my life not indifferent, not wasted
tis not a dream nor a goal, for those can be achieved
she is my paradox, my soul, my love 
everything that is still good in me
she is my downfall, the reason for my deterioration 
how I love her, how I need her from the very pit of my burning soul
a horrible feeling to know she can save my life as she drifts farther away 
how I hate her, with every bit of emotion and anger I can seem to conjure 
destroyed by my light, my love
destroyed by my paradox 


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ALCOHOLICS PRAYER

To pick up the bottle
drown in my sorrow,
drink it,---all gone
as a drunkard
I wait for tomorrow
wake up with the sun on my face
don't even remember the day
is it SUNDAY?
OH NO! it's MONDAY
time to find my pride
better yet I'll lay back down to die
my back on the ground
the tree gives little shade
maybe I'll fade
the bottle empty at my side
thats how I feel inside
I try to hide
but every one knows
tonight I will get another bottle
drown myself another night
ad wake up as empty
as the bottle at my side
I'm dead but very much ALIVE


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if you only knew

when you lose sight of what really counts
its easy to focus on only whats shallow
am i too fat is my nose too big
do i walk or talk weird whats wrong with me
when we forget the depth that is here in this world
and focus on things that are just absurd
so maybe im not a supermodel and my bums a tad on the thick side
and maybe im no a genius thats getting a scholorship on my side
but does that mean im nothing that i dont count
this world is getting sickening count me OUT
im ashamed of myself for even thinking like this
and obsessing to tears over shallow petty shit
i am praying that god hears my pleas for help
because i cant conquer this all by myself
i used to not care didnt care at all
but like any other i rise and fall
i am of the opinion that your body is a shell
and youll leave it behind when you go to heaven or hell
it will rot in the ground and count for nothing
and when i meet my maker he wont care how big my bum is
some women ONLY care about their looks and they dont get it
they dont see the big picture 
and i fear theyll regret it 
and other women dont care even at all 
about their looks because their depth is so massive and raw
but then theres me in the middle with so much depth and spirituality
why do i waste time wondering what are all the things wrong with me
im sick of crying over it ive done it for too long
im sick of getting angry when i cant crawl out of my bod
its a thought that i had reguarding a cacoon
like how catapielers go into them and out comes a butterfly zoom
if i could just crawl out my mouth my soul free for just a moment
and be allowed to have a different shell to live and own it
i wonder what its like to feel just for a second
not arrogance but a sweet compliment from someone who MEANT IT
my desperate pleas go out to you and anyone else who will listen
i hate my body im sick of my face and my voice is just ridiculous
so lets just drop it in the ocean let it sail away
cuz me im going to better places where i dont have to cry all day
where i know that my body is just a little shell a vehicle if you will
its our car or truck or limo or bus to use while we use our free will
and ive always said when you go you don't take your money your lambergini
or your watch expensive jewlery its all staying beind
and you should think about what YOUR world is while im trying desperatley to fix mine


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Inside Out

Mindful madness makes its way through the midnight hour,
Keeping open the tired eyes that cry tearlessly
Bestowing pain upon my weakened body.
What answers can be found sifting quick
Thoughts in the sleepless mind and pounding head?
When the madness has gone,
I close my eyes,my body becomes calm,
And confusion sets in!


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What have I ever done

What have I ever done 
For anyone or everyone 
To treat me so horrble 
Only tihng I really
Wanted is to be loved
Sometimes I guess that's just to much to ask from anyone
I even became someone I don't even know
I became this horrble moster that did everything 
Everyone else wnated me to be 
When all I really wanted is just to be me 
So now I'm left here alone 
With just myself and I
What have I've done so wrong 
To get treated so bad
Come on 
Tell me why.


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Things go wrong

Love hurts and people change. Things go wrong and things get strange. But life goes on and you only life it once. Be strong cause things will get better over the months. I thought I was heartbroken, I thought you were my world. You fooled me though, made me think I was your only girl. But all along, you didnt care. Im not sure, your were even completely there. But now I've moved on, when I thought it was impossible. I had to be the bigger person in this breakup, I was responsible. I let it get to me, but I didnt let it ruin me completely. I didnt do anything about the hurt you caused me, I acted so sweetly. I let you walk all over me, I tried to ignore how you disrespected me. But when I ended things, the pain was easier to see.


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Life is a struggle

Life is hard, every day is a struggle 
Mistakes been made with regret 
Friendships broken
Lives turned upside down 
Hearts torn in two, Not sure what to do
Where to turn next , what steps to take, before I mentally break 
Circumstances change in no particular order 
But life still seems so distorted 
People change, environment changes    but no words are exchanged 
Good memories are not enough to hold onto with hope in mind 
I'm lost and i need to be found , is life worth staying around 
Some one show me the light and say a little prayer before I get to despaired 
 what once was there isn't anymore , all I need to do is find the strength to open the door 
Walk free and fly high and don't look back , ten steps forward and no steps back 


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We Are Not One

You made me think that we were truly
Two hearts that beat as one
But what you were showing me
Was nothing but a lie

I have grown too strong
To ever fall for those lies again
But here you are
Asking for forgiveness and for me

I will not give you what you want
Once more my heart was broken
I’m done with guys like you
I’m done, so leave me

I let my friends lead me away
Cause it's all they can  do
Or leave me lying here
All alone, under the star lit sky

We are not one with each other
For I do not love you
We are not one with the world
For I have given up on you


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Temporary Fairy

I'll never be a cure as temporary, For someone's lifetime old injury, No!I'm not a passing by fairy, I'm searching for a lifetime crony, Not a selfish temporary story, So go mess someone else's sensibility Using your pretty petty.


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no swimming

These waters are off limits
no one will know
I dip my feet in 
move forward very slow
now I'm all wet
drowning in confusion
I fight and I fight
I feel I am loosing
I know I shouldnt have gone for this swim
and even though im drowning
I'd do it all over again


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You Lied

I thought I knew who you where
But I guess I was wrong
You never loved did you
you played me 
I found out you 
Got and still was in trouble
For having sex with a minor 
When I found out 
You sicken me
I can't stand to be around you
How could you lie to me like this
I thought what we had was real
But instead you used me
What you did you think
That you wouldn't get caught
Well you did
I wont you gone
Far far far away from me
You make me sick.


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The Things My Mother Told Me Not To Do

My memory slips
As the substance reaches my lips
No, this isn't okay
But I do it anyway

Feel it hit me hard
In depression, I starred
Could almost feel the handcuffs hit my wrists
But still not enough to leave behind this bliss

Such a monster I had become
Such a person gone numb
Such destruction ran through my veins
But at least it lessened the pains

Each time something new came along
Shoot it up, or light it up, nothing's wrong
False realities I bought into
Unbelievable nightmares I went through


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I never meant to hurt the one I love

I am so shame of who 
I become
I lay here with a bottle of pills 
Debating if my life and everyone else 
Would be better without 
Me in it
All I ever do lately 
Is hurt everyone 
I love 
I never meant to hurt 
Anyone that have's loved me
I am sorry to everyone I have hurt
I'll go ahead and take me life
So everyone 
Will and do better without me
In it their life
Cause my life ant going anywhere
All I am depress
I find it 
Best when I write poetry 
It's all I got anymore
So goodbye to all I have hurt.


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lost without you

When I heard your name on news,
I was lost looking for a clue,
Pain in my heart,
Never thought we'd be torn apart,
At least not so soon,
You was the moon in my night,
and in battles you was the fight
in me,
Tears filled my eyes
Anger tightened my fist,
The lingering blur felt like mist,
mad I was?
No I was pist! 
You could have been anything you
Wanted to be
God needed you more than me
God brought you up a level to heaven
and brought hell up a level to me
I just never wanted to see 
The day you would have to leave.


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Okay

“Okay”

You ask me if I’m alright
I say “I’m okay”
You say you worry about me
I tell you “don’t worry, it’s okay”
You wonder if anything is wrong
I say, “Nothing is wrong, everything’s okay”
You ask if there is anything you can do
I tell you, “you don’t need to do anything, I’ll be okay”
Then I have to look to see and ask myself…
Am I alright?
Why do they worry, should I worry?
Is there anything wrong?
Is there anything I can do?
Then I know…
I’m not okay
It’s not okay
Ok?


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I just wish Africa

another nite
no one gets on me
I'm lucky

I don't know how to call
I'm gettin tired of myself

I wish, I really wish
I had the stamina
to be me

I want to NOT
why can I not?

I want to go
and just go

I want AFRICA



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Love drugs

my drug
my cure
temporary
----- pure
 
it's high
it lie
i'll die
i'll try
 
to taste
a glance
i'll chase
my chance
 
and live
my life
in grieve
enhance

www.thinktok.blogger.com


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My Dream

I had a dream of u today u called me and told me it was all a bad dream u didnt have to go away wen i woke up i felt like screaming and crying im falling apart without u here its like a part of me is dying  all i can see is a big smile on ur face u kno nobody will ever take ur place its so hard for me to stay strong with my best homie gone the thing thats hardest for me to accept n comprehend that im never gona see u again that kills me inside wen u left us i feel like apart of me died i dont kno wat to do but all i kno is wen u left apart of me went with you


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Rescue Me

Feels like I'm drowning in my own tears,
Is there no one in this world that can take away all my fears?
I'm asking for your help, I'm asking for your hand,
I know i cant do this with you with a band.

Take me as I am and lift me high,
I grown up way to fast, I think you can see why.
You tell me you know everything before it even comes out of my mouth,
but you cant see the fact that im from the south.

That's where all the blood, sweat, and tears came from, to only survive,
so please don't tell me that you know everything, especially how to dive.
Cause if you would of known, you would of done something about it,
instead of each time we get into this, you wouldn't throw a fit.


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WORLDS APART

There said two worlds can't make a right, but who said it was easy
 ,who said it would be hard .now you want
 to go but am afraid it may be too
 late for me to let go, of what
 we had, when i see you my mind gets 
Crazy, i love how my mind gets so
 hazy. They told you, that no good 
Thing will ever come from a man
 born without a silver spoon, and they
 told me that you and i were
 never meant to be. Respect
 and honor i gave them but mine 
They said i must earn. And
 so they said two
 worlds cant
 make a right.


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A Journey Within My Mind

Long I lain on the 
couch
of my mind
Battling with left and
right paths
that leads to journey
eternal
Away from the
physical-earth but to
spiritual realms
I'm confussed either 
to
run the left
Or to make the right
stand-still
Just to fetch me 
out of
eternal trouble
The right for the 
Jews
And the left for the
gentiles
I don't know where I
belong
Later, I sat in a cab 
of
my thought
I moved from
something to 
nothing
From sense to non-
sense
Along the lane of 
great
turmoil
And darkness is the
street-light
That leads my way 
to
the grave of 
indecision
I choose the right 
path,
Just to follow the
footprint of my fate
With the hope of not
coming back
Yet stagnant I was,
But it is a crappy
journey within my 
mind
Adesitimi Taiwo


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Walking with my demons

Before dawn my thoughts roam,
As day breaks my heart sleeps,
Thoughts of you, thoughts of home,
Coincide with my heart beats,
The malady of my soul,
The woe of my heart,
Now half once whole,
Consumed by the dark,
	As I walk with my demons,
Day after day my eyes grow cold,
My heart continues to freeze,
As I travel a darkened road,
I walk through a haunting breeze,
Overshadowed by the moonbeams,
Lost among the stars that I follow,
Faced with my hopeless dreams,
I feel myself become hollow,
	As I walk with my demons,
Surrounded by my nightmares,
The echoes of the past haunting me,
Confronted by cold dark stares,
Sorrows chuckle keeps taunting me,
Giving into the death of light,
Falling into the abyss of despair,
My heart is conflicted by this plight,
For I feel my soul start to tare,
	As I walk with my demons,
I become numb to my surroundings,
Oblivious of my shame,
This life is beyond confounding,
For it’s hard to live with the pain,
	Of walking with my demons


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I'm Just Me

I know I have curves 
I'm not skinny like the other girls
I have some what of a belly
My eyes are Brown instead of Blue
I'm big bone
Not skin and bones
I'm Just Me
Nothing Special
So Why is it so hard 
For someone to love me
I know my laugh ant perfect
I'm the girl sitting on a bar stool
Wondering Why Not Me
I got a lot to offer
All I ever ask for is to be loved
I got my mistake 
But No one is Perfect 
I'm Just Me
I never get ask to dance
Yes I Birth three cute  kids
I have a little wight
It shouldn't matter if you really wanted to be with me
Their are days I like to be lazy
And Wear my fave it pair of sweat pants
Just snuggle on the sofa
I'm Just Me
So why does all the men pick the girls who looks like they need to eat
Instead of me..


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The Tempest

The tempest

Rising storms, the tempest rise
Facing foes, that have arrived.
Foes unseen in daylight’s rise.
Backs toward the sun we ride,
To realize steel has lost its might,
We flounder back, lost in our plight.


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Weepnomore

WEEP NO MORE!


Grief-stricken tossing my eyes on tomorrow,
Living in this world that’s full of sorrow,
Plagues, deaths; the whole ambience is horror,
Tangled and strangled in an envelope of terror.

Who owns the key to our motherland?
To open gates for love and eternity,
Love’s preserved and reserved for the loved,
For all I need is amity and humanity.

Tis not a hard nut to crack,
Just sit down and flashback,
All about being in a pack,
Not skulking and dodging as you duck.

Be optimistic and shun,
From hooliganism for it’s not fun,
Maimed, killed and burned,
While a cloud perished when gunned.

Animosity and cynicism to banish,
For the merits of concord you’re well acquaint,
Discard prejudice and let vanish,
As we heal the wounds that’s blossomed in hearts.

Rivers of tears we’ve shed,
But the memories seem to fade,
Sun’s sizzling hot but there’s no shade,
For me to cover my baldhead.

Humanity’s destiny is fostered on youths,
To bury and shoo old myths,
With sanity and taking the bulls by the horns,
We’ll weep no more and come up trumps.


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Give me love

Lately I've been waking up alone
I just wanna hold you
we can play hide n seek 
all I wanna do is lay next to you.
It's been awhile
Sense I'll held you
Maybe I should let you go
All I want is to taste your lips
I know the best thing to do is to let you go.
But my heart isn't ready too
Maybe tonight I'll call ya
Just to say Hi!
All I want is for us to go back the way where before
But I know it's all in my mind.
I know it's been years
But I just can't let you go
Give me love
Give me a Second chance
I love you 
Why can't you see that..


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Relapse

Blood turns to scars,
It is over and done,
The battle...I finally won. 
 
I’m walking on air,
Unprepared for what’s to come,
Soon to feel dead and numb.
 
The blood, the blades,
The unforgettable pain,
Nothing but this is keeping me sane.
 
The tears I cried,
The blood I bled,
The times I wished I could be dead.
 
Again…This is how I feel,
The end is far, the beginning is near,
Nothing to laugh at, plenty to fear.
 
The blade is much sharper,
The blood drips much faster,
Suicide…that is what I wish to master.


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The Goal of Annihilation

The Goal of Annialation
I'm searching my soul for self-actualization
begging for some realization,
burning down all hesitation,
losing all confrentation,
suffocating in complication,
assuming the target of eradication,
and living in the eye of annihilation

Being the goal of Annihilation
I have no options to choose
I'm framed as the seed of satanic creation
and I'll lay dieing, confused

I was thriving in pain with my soul abused
but rewards are vain and always refused
Now fire will rain as I'm confused
I attempt to remain, but I'm excused
Forever I'm slain, eternally accused
Forced to live under power misused
The world is insane, forever short-fused


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You said no

When I got down on one knee
And gave you my ring 
I meant forever 
 Now all I got 
Is my ring 
And a broken heart
Because you said No
I loved you
I thought you was the one
But come to find out your the one who 
Was going to hurt me
You made my heart hurt when you say those words
Take them back cause you know you don't mean them
I never thought this day would come
Where you would say No.


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Freedom

Today I felt broken 
Nothing I could do 
Except love and stand by you 
In what ever you choose 
You have my support all the way 
And I will be with you every new day
You are a strong independent person
And a fantastic mother too
Your children will always love you no matter what you do 
The choice you've made in life is for the best
You deserve to have a break from the mental stress 
The new path that will be walked  will be hard at times 
but you will always have your family by your side
Have faith in God and he will guide you through
Where ever you live or what ever you do 
Happy times are ahead Without looking back 
Remember 10 steps forward and no steps back 


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I'm no longer the little girl I once where

I'm no longer the little girl I once where
I've grew into a young woman
who still have struggles 
And questions
I'm trying
I've even try to change myself
But I only became a person that wasn't me
I left love go from life
thinking I never deserve it 
I'm trying
I push away a lot of people away
From being so afraid
Of what may happen
I don't wanna be afraid anymore
but I always seem to be.


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Only god can judge me

two gunshots to the chest 
   thinking what can happen next... 

will i live to see tommorrow 
   or will i live to see the rest... 


of my life,it hurts inside, 
   when this morning i had the pride... 


to see my little girl, wave to her dad, goodbye 
   as the morning sun would rise,from the happiness in her eyes... 


knowing down inside, it would be her last good bye 
  cause im starting to see a glow,and a river to paradise... 


a shadow in the mist, 
   while my life flashes over... 



one drink of the holy water 
   cause my life was left sober... 


i can feel nomore pain, 
   as the angels start to rain... 


 i know for a fact im dead 
   cause nomore pain, is strange... 


i ask for forgivness as i softly speak 
   cause i remember shooting someone,but my mind was to weak... 


all i can make out was falling to my knees 
   knowing i was dead,was to hard to believe... 


i woke up in a room 
   with a pain when i would breath... 


with a clear image of what really happen to me 
   i lost my job, telling god why this had to be... 


i put my gun to my chest, 
   and you all know the rest... 


the last thing i said was 
   only god can judge me... 


but as i lost my job, 
   and was quickly depressed... 



it all came to complete... 


as knowing would i no, without the affect 
   he was already judging me..... 
   


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Lost inside my Today

Small joys adorned my life. 
Flowers against the wind of my dreams. 
They gave life to the loneliness of my soul. 
I wait for my tomorow to come, 
Lost inside my today.


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Deep over my head

A deep hole  fraying at the knot 
Because the hole is in the universe 
Cloudy depth deep over my head
Dying nature in till my world is out of proportion deep over my head
Elevating slipping lower till your covered  deep over my head
Falling through hell  deep over my head
Going deep into the jungle deep over my head
Hello world I’m in deep over my head
Joking falling killing deep over my head
Killed me deep over my head
Laughing as I died deep over my head
 Murder I try to say deep over my head
Not a liar never deep over my head
Oh I am in limbo deep over my head
Popping like a balloon deep over my head
Que hora es  I hear the person next to me yelling  deep over my head
Rotting away falling in the maggots and dirt deep over my head
Slipping through threw the galaxy deep over my head
To fast deep over my head
Universe is collapsing deep over my head
Vast world. deep over my head
What has the world come to deep over my head
Xray vision closing in on the deep over my head thoughts 
Zebra striped world. deep over my head
.Good Bye. deep over my head. 


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06 Generation X

Another year upon us
raw and longing
Swallow the feeling
and nonsense they're feeding
Corruption of souls
out of control
Missing in action
disasters are maximum
Defenses, expenses
apparent regreting
Incisive decisions
still failing their missions
Brainwashed from the womb
lead astray through bitter days
Broken wing in fields a blaze
programed to the pain
Follow the leader
that bleeds you dry
Follow the leader
that helps you die
Never ending
mothers cry
Same old story
diffrent times.


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lovely coneptions


symphony of crossed conceptions
buzzing of the connections are linked
leaving one alone,who is right
not a perfect instant to make fight

luppsy wuppsy decored stations
making evryone full of expctations
forcecefuly intending some obligations
& all the frustations become a sort of suspensions

truthful meaning of oneslf will not be depicted
trying our best but still ristricted
conections are made & reasons are failed 
enjoying the hub with the decisions unmade


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Emotional Sleep

The darkened room places shadows on the walls
I lay on my side and cuddle into a ball, closing my eyes
Feeling unsafe and wondering how long I'll live
I've been sickly now for a pretty long time 
And I wonder how much longer before I die?

My mind gets so cluttered with all the things in my life
Without relief or support, I wonder what can I do? 
A knock, then bang, shhhh, don't  cry out or speak, 
Maybe they will think no one is here and just go away 

Now I can see a shadow on the blind, it's only my cat, Valentine
Seems she is lonely wants to be close to me, but why?
As i lay in my bed, I'm no good to myself but pet her head
And my head starts spinning with so much I dread

This world is for some people, and some people not
As Whitney and Robin Williams who left us behind
But I lay here a coward, wondering how it would be
My eyes are now heavy, I can't stay awake
So please Lord take me, so I can finally get sleep.


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the fight


Heart thumping
coliding with emontions
angish builds up 
feel confined feel alone
feel everything around destruct 
fall down on top of you 
emotionless..torn down by peers
a never ending nightmare 
im sinking in quicksand
inner peace seeking by all means
influence, resilience and insperation..
In desperate need for all
compassionate one stands first
knocked down time after time
the search for strength
fought off the swords 
feel the power, the tention loose 
set your self free
break a smile 
look around.. who is here?
what completes your longing?
who dares you to succeed?
who inspires you?
raise your fist and take that step
lift me up and rise agasint
all negitive energy
youth brings us to be nieve 
we are invisable
much with being wise 
being able to understand
for pain will never end
the lessons are for us
forever gaining momentum
until our last day


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crazy beautiful

I'm crazy beautiful 
or plainly insane
I consider insanity 
to be a personal gain
perpetual bliss
or so the surface shows
hidden secrets
no one can know
inside i want to scream and shout
im a jigsaw puzzle 
with a million broken pieces to figure out
I'm an intricate web
you try and untangle
dont get to close
you may fall and strangle
my scratch is a cut
that sorefully deepens
a painfull wound 
in which my memories seep from
I'm a gift to the world 
one nobody can keep
I must be plainly insane 
my beauty is only skin deep


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Tragically Beautiful



Suffering is more poetic than happiness. 
It gives you a reason to stand in the rain. 
To be an outcast. To defy formality. 
It's what you want. You want to be depressed. 
It makes you more interesting. 
But you're not. 
Tragically beautiful. 
But not interesting. 
I will stand with you in the rain. 
Only if you laugh at me. 
Don't critique me. 
You are not as smart as you think. 
I will sit with you in a dark room. 
We can drink wine. 
But I will not discuss displeasure. 
Kiss me instead.


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Stand tall

   Stand Tall


 
Sometimes I think of the past and how fast it's passed
It seems like time has ran out of my grasp at last
The hurt and pain that bursts with shame is something I have no control of
If you tried to take me down you can't because what I have left is love
 
Stand Tall, Stand Tall!
I will never bow down , at all
No matter how hard it gets
I will stand tall even if I sweat
 
Time has really come and gone
I will always remember what you did was wrong
I've alway took in the hits and kicks, heck you beat me down
Here's the little twist you missed, I bet you thought I wouldn't come around
 
Stand Tall, Stand Tall!
I will never bow down, at all
No matter how hard it gets
I will stand tall even if I sweat
 
No matter how much pain you made me swim in
I look at today and I am up and livin'
You want to manipulate and make me up a story
I don't want this man to get people doing things for me
 
Stand Tall, Stand Tall!
I will never bow down, at all
No matter how hard it gets
I will stand tall even if I sweat
 
Today I take a look, I feel like I am shook
I keep thinking to stay on my feet
So I don't make the same mistakes that won't repeat
I am here now and for always, I am a clouded cloud through all days
 
Stand Tall, Stand Tall!
I will never bow down, at all
No matter how hard it gets
I will stand tall even if I sweat
 
By: Robert Barrett
 
 
 


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slump of thought

1 Subject,
70 Sheet, 
Wide ruled,
Blue main, partially covered in fleece
With 27 blue and 1 red line
3 holes punched
empty circles in time
emptiness of thought
trying to learn things
that can't be taught
no catchy punch lines 
not even a sweet phrase
in act of creative desperation
I write about...... a notebook page


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Power of the mind

Life is one big illusion 
The power of magic
What you think is there isn't really there at all 
You make the mistake of seeing what you believe to be true 
Once uncovered nothing appears as you saw it 
You get caught up in the imagination of what you wish you could see 
The different colors that fill the mind 
The magical powers that pull at your heart 
All it really does pull you apart 
And then you are back right at the start 
Nothing to have , nothing to hold 
But no one could tell you because you wouldn't be told 
You hang on to your imagination 
Hoping you will see what's to be revealed 
Once the illusion has taken over your heart and the colors fill your mind 
Then it's all been lifted and your back at the start 
Seeing things in a simple way is so hard to do 
But just relax and see what is best for you 
Staying and facing the world without its magical powers and the bright colors that fill your mind 
Is some times easier and kind 
Believe what you want and see what you need to  see 
But at the end of the day in the world it's just what you need that matters 


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Surely

Surely!







I felt like exploding. 
The back of my eyes were burning.

What had happened here? 
There must have been times when I felt more than this. 
There had to be. 
Surely.

It was Tuesday afternoon, around 12.20pm, that I realised what had to be done. 
Someone had to pay!

I have lived, up until now, a privileged life. 
One really of no hard labour, unlike many of those around me. 
I suppose I felt superior to some people in many ways. 
Should I have thoughts like this as a member of the human race? 
There you go you see, human race, race, the word that we have put into who we are, its a race, we are racing, racing each other. 

Where will it be the race, who is in the, race, yes indeed!
Mumblings of a mad man corrode the in workings to such a degree that there seems no way out!
Surely we had felt more than this?

Surely!   




Scott. T . Williams.


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Zero In

Anticipating, beckoning, casting demonic, enviable fury, gazing hungrily inside, jutting kerosene, littering masses never opted, putrefying quills, reverting sympathy, turning upside-down…vaccinating whim, x-raying yesteryears…zero in


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Tell Me The Truth

I said i didn't trust no one
You said to trust in you
Now i'm facing time my love
I don't know what to do
Do I believe you'll have my back
Do I say goodbye right now?
Please let me know if **** is real
And if you'll hold me down
Sex is only physical
Its the mental that i need
If you don't believe we got this
Then please just let me be.
We're to old to play these games
You love me, love me not
Im looking for my other half
Don't leave me in the dark
I won't be mad i'll understand
This life ain't made for all
Don't say that you can do this
Then ignore me when i call
Don't let me write a letter
And wait for no reply
If that's the case lets end it now
I love you and goodbye


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You tell me to stand as you hold me down

The day I have to watch what I say 
Is the day I wake up to see that I lost myself 
Ask me why I want to run away As your screaming at me everyday 
Ask me why I can't stand my life 
When every time I stand up you push me from behind  
Tell me the world is at my feet and you will always be there 
When I look around and see my family crying to my face and scheming when I walk away 
Tell me to fix my life when my life is locked so far away from me I can't even see myself in the mirror
Now ask yourself why isn't she happy 
We promise the world when she leaves 
Only to dangle her dreams out of reach 
Why do my words mean so much to you 
When the world can see that you aren't true
But behind close doors you don't have a clue 
You told me if I was lost you would find me 
But when tears stream from my face and I tell you 
Daddy, I don't know what I am doing 
Daddy, help me through Daddy please I really need you 
A stone face looks at me and says You've been lost for years 
I'm sure you will pull through 
My hate has been mistake for strength
And your hate and my hate 
Broke a soul I can never remake 
You tell me emotion are for the weak 
We beat them down till they are on full retreat 
I lived a life of feelings and friends 
And that was when I was at my weakest 
So you pulled me back in 
But daddy can I tell you have you ever cried yourself asleep 
Because your words cut to deep.
Have you ever been so happy that you promised yourself nothing could take that away 
Just to see a knife to your throat by the person that swore to protect you 
Imagines of the past rip through my future 
As every step becomes cold and calculated 
Disappointment is easier to handle then success 
And pain is more acceptable then love 
Now keep wondering why I can't fix my life 
When the only things I can count on happening 
Is everything in this world that would bring down the strongest person 
Tell me to move forward and remember you kept  me down so long I forgot how to walk
And then explain to my friends why I Flinch away from everyone’s hands 
So how can I be better dad, when you taught me to run and hide?
I wish I could fix myself I've even prayed that one day everything would be ok
But if you and your life for me taught me anything 
It's don't hope and don't dream It's better to just pretend 
And wait until this life ends


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Untouched

A welted flower picked and tossed aside unnoticed and to the earth it soaks in.

My traces and finger prints left behind A name spoken so delicate, A replay of broken words said twice and over again. 

tired excuses follow the depths of cold finger tips and the Beauty hidden behind the fear and path of such destruction.


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Questions

What do you think of me?
What words come to mind?
What feelings are stirred?
When my name passes by.

Who am I to you?
Who is it you see?
Do you see who I am,
When you look into me?

When you look in my eyes,
Can you trace my mind?
Can you see where I’ve been,
Where I’m going?

Would you go with me to that place?
That place that I made,
Made out of bricks, dreams, and clay
Would you want to stay?

Can you hear in my voice?
Can you read in my words?
The sounds and the meanings,
That only exist for you to know.

I don’t think you can.
And no matter how much I try,
I can’t show you ,
What you can’t see with your own eyes.

Would you trust me to guide you?
Take your hand and lead.
And show you that i want you,
That I really want you.

And if you don’t want to be led,
Id take a step back,
Walk by your side,
Or behind in your tracks.

It doesn’t matter the when,
The where or the how.
It could be in the future,
It could be in the now.

No matter how long it takes,
It would last that times forever.
And even if it doesn’t,
At least it was longer than never.

I’d take whatever I get,
Whatever exists.
Days, months, and years,
Or a single kiss.

A kiss that would make the world tremble.


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silent

                        THE SILENT ME!     
YOU JUST WON’T LOOK AT ME AND SEE THINGS FROM HERE
WHATEVER THEY TELL YOU…IS CONTRARY TO WHAT HE SAID
YOU MOVE ON, I WILL STAY TO COUNT THE MELTS BEFORE YOU FREEZE
AGAIN…
THIS IS MY REWARD FOR SILENCE!

I AM WAY TOO YOUNG TO RESORT TO VIOLENCE
YOU GO WITH IT IN MIND...THAT YOU LEFT ME BETTER
PREPARING ME FOR THE WORST TRIALS OF A JUVENILE
I HAVE NEVER TOLD YOU...
BECAUSE WE SMILE WHEN WE ARE AWAY

ITS BEEN SO LONG NOW
I HEARD YOU WERE SORRY..
I GUESS I SHOULD REPLY THE SAME
LOOK AT ME WITH THAT SMILE..
AND SAY NO WORD...


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Yellow


  It's early sunday morning
and the sun has started it's shine
I look outside to notice
the neighbors drinking a holiday wine
there sits their son, to young to join
having sweat stream down his face 
 shining like brand new coins 
already experiencing a taste, he stared
unable to tell the stress he bared
He's had his first drink and now he's scared.


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love misery

love misery Just as much as love is a mystery its a misery, it can't be tamed, has no certain face or name, it can be a game, but when hearts get broke who's to blame. Love makes some go insane, its the best feeling but when lost the worse pain, when allowed nothing is lost but much is gained, love can be your best friend or worst enemy, it can bring out the best or the sin in me, love lost is love wasted, its the best yet worse thing mans ever tasted, tough yet scared to face it, once its gone its hard to replace it, Gods greatest gift of all land, sits on the surface but sinks like quicksand, but sturdy when hand In hand, its great when a woman loves a man, its part of Gods great plan, love never fails, but seems to set sail, broken dreams and broken nails, a mixture of heaven with a splash of hell, from the bottom of the ocean to the highest mountain top, can't be bought out of a shop, true love will never stop, keep it going like hiphop, love is courage and strength with a whole lot of will, no due dates like a bill, words can't explain how one could feel, simple things as a hug or kiss, affection and dedication is one way to describe this, once gone it will truly be missed. So hold on tight, I promise everything will be alright, accept love.. Don't fight, cherish each other day and night, never leave each others sight, when things go wrong, stay strong, remember where you belong. Love is an emotional rollercoaster, so hold on like a slinging holster, stick around like your favorite poster, expect the worse but hope for the best, united so **** the rest, its not about who cares more or less, just be glad your blessed, love can be one big adventure or a hell of a mess, when it all bills down, love will always be around, so keep a smile and not a frown, because in all reality love runs this town.


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The Night and Her Ways/Lost Under The Sun

there is a moon,
shining all alone
under all seas looming side to cloud
fall in our night and wait for the one who makes
slip in the prowl
the beasts hold night at growl
howling their sorrows
move midnight forever is tomorrow
come to our dark we run deep in the dusk
trust your lost soul while wait here for the sun

trust your yearning haven safely break
grey sky a-standing
standing far astray

lost under the sun
lost under the sun
lost under the sun 
lost under the sun

there is a place
marble floor and blue
there is a space 
that was meant for what was you
summer now white a different sort of lone
cold in our skin deeps
looking towards our glow

lost under the sun
lost under the sun
lost under the sun
lost under the sun


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Service

Service


Prior to die, want to fix in heart
Fixtures to meet on earth to serve
Billions are, will be again
Along with all creative genuine
Reading summary of all, want to slake heart
Whether there is some I’ve known for
Vociferous desire never laid me moon
From where I could pass without boon
Presumably reaching off and on
Ultimately at eternal canon
Verbally I thwarted to all 
Broadening cheek I’m satisfied
But burning within rearing unlimited ferns
I never remained applicably joy
Purity there is only there is I know
Cheating to all I never divide
Bluffing inch by inch 
I laid to borne desire
Conning believe I’m tall for all
Whether they knew me exactly I serve
Or they blinked eyes turning other
In many events where two or three stood
I saw them after passing differ
I want to clear my heart this is love
At least one seed immerges not to flirt other.

( Mix match of the mind not intended to hurt any one).


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the anchor

when someone says you need to forgive someone for something
that does not mean you are saying what they did was okay
when they tell you to just let it go,unhook the anchor...
they mean for you,not for them,see a better day
you are giving someone power,when you let them affect your life to that extent
so forgive someone for YOUR own sake,actually DOES make sense
you hear alot of cliche' things,especially growing up like i did
but at the end of the day,i refuse to let them be that big
the creepy man that scarred you for life,or maybe an abusive husband
the girl that plays mindgames with the good man that's in love with her
that mother who let the stepfather abuse you cause' she "loved him"
or the father that drank and said nothing but "okay" and "sure"
no matter what your situation,you must forgive them promptly
you must forgive them for you,not for them,this doesn't mean it wont be rocky
it's hard to forgive, but its even harder to forget
but if you hold onto these grudges you will regret
you will become a bitter human being,with tons of exhausting baggage
thinking about these things and re-feeling them will run you ragged
trust me,i've lived it
im trying to fix it
im not perfect,im only human
but im trying at least,to remove it
let it go.
unhook the anchor.
let it go.
unhook it from your ankle.


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No more pain

Tired going here and there,
Tired of being aware!
Sick of building useless hopes,
Sick of being on unstable slopes!
Vexed facing disappointment,
Vexed keeping perseverant!
Done carrying on,
Done being cheated on!
Special thanks to all my swains;
Those who cured, or racked my strain,
A new stage has just broke ground,
A Point of view is switching around
Only success is what I'll brace,
From today, till blue in the face!


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alone

 feel like I wanna die 
I hurt so bad inside I cannot cry
       Therefor I'll never be okay
because this pain I feel will never go away
           I've cried so much I can't nomore
I'm now forever broken and my heart is always sore
           I wish so hard this would of never happened to me
Now it's so hecktick in the future I don't know where I will be
          I can't live on my own
Peoplw are always around me but yet I feel all alone


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Aplphabet

Andy Brook calls death every figure 
guided,
hidden in jars, 
killed living mellow nights,
opened presidentially,
queerness rules specially
to ultra-violet waves 
x-raying Yeisha's zygospore.


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MY DAYS

My days are numbered
and every thing i do
announce my death.

The hens and the ducks
barks like dogs
to announce my death
my days are numbered.

I look at the sky
i see only moon,
the sun and the stars
announce my death
my days are numbered.

I  hated every thing
even my wife
i hated her a lot
my days are numbered.

My days are numbered
i can't eat food
my days are numbered
i  regret  for  what i did
my days are numbered
I don't know what to do.


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To My Dad

i never wouldve thought you'd leave me,
i wanted you by my side,
no Daddy when i was little,
to hug me when i cried.

you left me all alone,
you left me here to fall,
it was mommy always catching me,
cuz you didnt care at all.

you left me here confused,
not even 3 years old,
i grew up knowing nothing,
cuz about you i was never told.

my friends ..they all had daddys.
to hold their little hand,
but i was there alone,
cuz you couldnt be a man.

when fathers day came around,
i didnt know where you were,
i couldnt send you the card i made,
cuz if you were alive i wasnt sure.

my friend says shes a Daddys girl,
i didnt even know what that meant,
she says shes always with her Daddy,
but a day with you ive never spent.

i thought to myself..i cant call myself a Daddys girl,
cuz its just been me and mom,
my older brother was there too,
to teach me right from wrong.

what made you go and ditch me,
was i just a big mistake?,
i didnt have my "Daddy",
theres only so much a Daughter can take.

you didnt call for my birthday,
did you happen to forget it?,
cuz i never forgot about you Dad,
not even for a minute.

So im older now,
eighteen years on my own,
cuz you werent there throughout the years,
so now im fully grown.

you were never here for anything,
you didnt even meet my prom date,
ive accomplished so much Dad,
you didnt even see me graduate.

ive met the love of my life Dad,
he really makes me smile,
but i dont know where on earth you are,
so i guess you cant walk me down the aisle.

dont bother coming around now,
dont even try to apologize,
i dont ever wanna meet you now,
cuz i know you wont look me in the eyes.

its ok Dad dont worry about me,
cuz im a lady now...im grown,
i learned to succeed without you,
since you left me all alone.

So i guess this is goodbye now,
this is the ending of my poem to you,
Antonio Escobar was your name,
your the "Dad" i never knew.


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panic

Hard
Jagged
Pierced
Tight
Breathless
Time stands still and i feel my heartbeat againest my chest!
Boom but a boom and I wonder when will it feel light again?


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In your eyes

certain words wont come out
a confused emotion filled with doubt
eyes tell the hearts desires
see the sin in the eyes of liers
is there truth, is there trust
is existance only a wim of lust
suddenly a whisper in the wind
reminded you of a commited sin
holding back the pain is lifted
standing strong when the earth has shifted
a breaking inside your chest
a sleeping body that receives no rest
your knes are weak, emotion strong
innocence that wont last long
eyes are open, mind is shut
this open wound, a bleeding cut
a single breath deeper then the rest
pushing you to do your best 
make it through another day
may your eyes tell whatever your heart can not bring you to day


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CROSSROADED

At the crossroads,
Where  the north road,
Goes south to meet the one
From the east where it turns west.

In these old world
With wild paths the teen stood
Not knowing where to go
Helpless like a convict on a hangman's noose.

He couldn't go back north
Where he had come from,
The path was already blocked.
To the south where he was heading to,
It was quicksand,he chose it.
East or west was safe,
But he wasn't willing to choose either.
At the crossroads,the teen stood
His fate undecided by drugs.


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colleen laforme

C is for caring
O is for opps
L is for loving
L is for literacy
E is for elected
E is for exited
N is for natural




for a very close friend colleen laforme


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Furthest thing from sane

I’m the furthest thing from sane
The biggest wake up call 
Wouldn’t even bring any change
Weight of the world
Doesn’t even bring me pain
I chase the girl who has a boyfriend or who doesn’t like me
But don’t like the voice of the girls willing to sing my name
Yes I know that seems wrong
T-shirt and jeans on
Yet I want the weather to bring me rain
To some that logic probably makes no sense
I feel lonely at times. But not looking to make any friends
Why do people take it personally when I say I need my own space?
I appreciate our friendship and relationship
But right now I need to be my own mate
Tired of people telling me things will be all right
Right now I need to seek my own faith
Feel the hunger in my stomach but I don’t want to eat
I feel tired as hell but I don’t want to sleep
I find happiness in the pain I felt
When I lost my father I gained myself
Feel so alive. But it wasn’t long ago I wanted to Kurt Kobain myself
I feel cold in the hottest summer
I feel hot in the coldest winter
 Acts calm but find it hard to hold his temper
I’m new to this but feel like the oldest member
I’ve heard so much stupid *****I wish I was deaf
Appreciate the people who stuck around
But I always want the ones who left
I got everything wrong
By trying to please people and trying to get everything right
I appreciate the dark
I’m not asking for the world to bring light
Sometimes I feel weak
I look at what I’ve survived and realize I’m strong
If you don’t laugh with me while I’m here
Then you have no right to cry when I’m gone
I know I’m the furthest thing from sane
I proudly admit that I’m out of my mind
To put it in a simple way
I’m the nicest jerk you will ever find 


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dear world

Dear world, 
  
You stirred life 
Up inside my soul simply 
To let go. 
Breath in my lungs you inserted 
And though I flirted with death 
You kept me grounded, surrounded 
By love, laughter, life. But now 
It seems your fleeing. 
 I’m not seeing 
how I belong here anymore. 
The set is different, the scene 
Is changing. Rearranged 
Arrangements., postponed plans, 
Cut ties, loose lies, oh world 
You look so different now. 
You are no longer my 
Playground. You no 
Longer hold the answer, 
Look, my mom has cancer, 
My father you’ve let go. 
You are no longer what I’ve 
Known but for sure what I 
Know is that you don’t want me here 
Any longer, you’ve made it impossible 
To stay. My love ones fade away, and my 
Love? I await the day ill find him. 
Perhaps all things have become a lost 
Cause world. I remember being 
Just a girl and you containing all things 
Simple. How my little sisters dimple 
Would warm my soul, but how that 
Hole has grown cold, her tears have filled 
It in mourning. I miss 
 how the atmosphere was right 
Even in the wrong places, and how 
Out of no way a way could be created, 
But now there really is no way out but death, 
No way out but theft, no 
Way out but debt. 
Did you disguise your true colors? 
Were you corrupt all along?


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A teenager

Life as an unwanted teenager. 
My heart and soul desires. 
Lost and confused. 
behind my eyes is the lover 
but behind my mask is the is the child, 
the child that fights to get out... 


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filing for divorce

Agony, bitter contempt.
Destruction, eternally forgotten. 
Gasping, hindered instincts.
Just killing lilies. 
Metallic needles overture perfected. 
Quiet raindrops splash underneath. 
Vulnerable wasteland. 
X-chromosome, Y-chromosome, zero-defect!


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your guess is as good as mine

IN A STATE OF HYPERDIMWITTEDNESS SPREAD OUT FROM THE DARK ABYSS
SO I CHILL
MOTION SICKNESS HYPERTHORMAL SO I GOT A COLD
STRANDED BETWEEN TWO NEGATIVE PULLS
THREADED IN A BEAM OF LIGHT
SO I FIGHT
BRANDED SCARED AND WIRED TO THE MAX
SO I LAY ON MY BACK
DISSAPAITING ANTICIPATING NEVER RELAXATING
PUTTS ME IN THE MIND OF STUPIDITY
HI YALL MY NAME IS AUTRY
I THINK I AM A POET 
MAYBE I JUST DONT KNOW IT
BUT AS FAR AS I CAN SEE VERY LITTLE
SPACE CRUSHED MIND MUSH
SO I HUSH


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Do you know my abc's?

And it was there. Looking me in the eye, “I shall born you.” I was overcome with 
sadness.

Before I was born I died. I was one with everything. I was more alive then, then I 
am now.

Children seem so simple. Children seem so free. Why is life so hard. Maybe the 
simple one is me.

Deep cuts in my heart. A boy that I love with all of me. I might’ve been invisible 
because he always walked by.

Enough of this! I hate it all. I gathered myself and left my heart behind.

Falling down the tubes. Drifting though life. No friends, no family. I. Can’t. Breath.

Gaining momentum. Losing myself.

Hot under my skin. It’s getting tighter. Wanting to rip through it.

I, am, not, real.

Just between us. Just between us two. I used to be everything.

Killing gives life. I want to give my life to you.

Love exists only as water. My heart is dry.

Maybe I’m your dream. Maybe you are mine. Maybe neither of us carry weight. 
Maybe both of us have died.

No, you never gave me a drop.

O I cry. I cry for you. I cry I cry I cry I cry for you.

Plenty of times I wonder how long my sentence is.

Quiere un vaso de dulce sangre. Dibuja un corazon dentro de mi cuerpo. Con 
esto corazon agujero, bebe mi vida. 

Run away from what you’ve heard. Leave and write your own truths. They say He. 
He does not exist. It tells me so.

Say what’s on my mind? Ultimate indulgences; eating meat and having sex. A 
man is meat. Chocolate is sex. A Chocolate man is the only heaven that will ever 
exist. Next to Him.

Telling you about my life is wasting the time I have to live it. If you’re meant for me 
you’ll just know.

Un knowledged people need to stop giving the gift of life and start giving the gift 
of life.

Very little patience do I have for those with no words. I’ll look for the person who 
stole them from you.

Will you be the one that I can hold  for now? Do you have a sweet heart, do you 
have soft soul?. Will you be the the love  that my ego drinks?

Xoxo hugs and kisses. Hugs and kisses. Let me touch your skin, help me miss 
your soul.

You’re looking inside me. Like it used to.

Zero words writing in my head. Where do my thoughts go? They go on this page. 
This page of my life.


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Just another nightmare

Thine eyes be closed as if in a dream
when reality comes crashing at my tired feet

bridge rising up slowly 
links of metal clack-a-lackin'
brush the wings of thy angel
white with stripes that blacken

once again upon my knees
begging forgiveness for my sins
breath catches closing off my throat
realizing, it is him

try to escape his evil hands
that once beat me down
pray my strength holds true
as my neck again they wrap around

his laughter as my heart pounds
fear evident in my eyes
hoping to escape please god
to see another sunrise

room is going blurry now
i can no longer fight back
tell myself dont black out 
but Oxygen I lack

as Im slipping away 
i see my childrens faces
tears pour from my eyes 
as my pulse races

blackness comes so soothing
pain gone so it seems
i sit frantically up in bed 
not knowing twas a dream

wet with sweat I jump up 
looking around the room
fall upon my knees praying 
these nightmares will end soon

afraid to fall asleep some nights
lest I see his face
love of my children helps 
the fear be replaced

we shall make new beautiful memories 
they are like stars in the stormy dark sky
my saving grace, my angels
they shall make these nightmares die


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Baby???

Baby, it's rainin
I've gone out 
and put myself 
in the rain
what do you think
think of this thunder
you scared?
not me
I put it around my neck
put it where it should be
but I would really
I would really like it
If you would come
and
and just get me
ok, I'm scared and hungry
mostly scared
come get me
Baby???


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That word

That word

That word…
It leaves a bitter taste in my mouth
A dullness in my hearing
A word that’s supposed to be endearing
But in reality it’s a demon in disguise

That word.. That terrible word
Take a day, count the seconds
Times it by forever
Thats how much I hate that word.
Don’t worry if you lose count
I did.

That word rattles the ground of my mind
Shakes loose any pebble of possibility
And laughs as it’s tossed in the air
And left to shatter on the ground

Words are just words right
Letters strung together
But those tiny letters that you underestimate
Can destroy, can devastate
That word can start wars
Real or unseen
Imagined or physically felt

Maybe it’s a joke
A cruel jest my ears play
A confederate to my eyes
Distorting what’s seen or heard
Silently inserting that word
To places it obviously shouldn’t be


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Today

Has anyone ever thought?
What's wrong with today?
Where anything,even love, can be bought.

Where being pregnant at twelve is no suprise.
And abstenince is dead
Where the only punishment kids get these days is highfives?

How about the thought of getting arrested for expressing an opinion?
and not agreeing eith it's every word.
Or even the thought of not being the giverment's minion.

Yet, we sit here and not think something is wrong with today?


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untitled

"You have a spirit in you son."
 [an unlikely host it so seems]
A glare from diamond- like eyes,
 as so {like a light} to redeem.
 "you're smile heals souls, and a voice
that softly flows."
( a non-believer w/ a flame that brightly
glows.)
"an old spirit w/ knowledgable personas" {she claimed}   
A quoted repetoir,
  and a rough existance to be blamed.
 Her beautiful, dark, wrinkled face
spotted a grin.
[calling for beauty from a man of 
monsterous sin.]
 " You have a spirit in you son", 
{an unlikely host that's been named?}
 a disproportionate smile mirrored back,
a so-called "spirit" thats been tamed.



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In the Trap of My Own Confusion

I find it so difficult to focus,
My mind is always in a haze.
I want to get something done today, 
But I feel like I am trapped in a maze.
My thoughts are always wandering,
I can't focus much longer than a minute.
I want to get something done today,
But I always fall back in it.
Into the trap of my own confusion
Into the snare of my cluttered mind
I'd really like to reach for help,
But I'm afraid of what I will find.
Some people think that I am copping out,
That this is just some big excuse
I'd really like to reach for help, 
But I just think "What's the use?"
I feel like there is something more,
That's waiting out there for me.
Like so much life has passed me by,
That there is still so much more to see.


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My Forever Friend

By Robielynn Collins 


  I never knew what I had, 
until he was gone for good, 
and if I could, I'de go back in time, 
and change the way it should, 
see, I cared about you, in my own way, 
and never in the world did I mean to betray, 
because you were my friend, 
from dusk to dawn, 
and I never, ever thought, 
that you would be gone, 
out of my life, in the blink of an eye, 
but atleast you cared enough. 
to say: GOOD-BYE!


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Oh My

Oh my how I must say that you are important to me, 
You created me, and made me whole,
For that you have left me speechless,
You have a plan in life for all,
And I long to be there when its time,
I bow in prayer to you,
And worship you freely,
Who am I to tell someone that there is no God?
When I am a strong believer in you,
Who am I to judge a person? 
When in your eyes it is a sin,
You have redeemed me, and made me clean,
I am pure in your eyes,
Have you not been here all along?
Trying to help me through,
Yet I was too blind to see,
You are my savior,
And all I can say is,
Oh my it feels great to know,
That you are here for me whenever I need you,
Thank You God.


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sudden truth

sudden truth
of love unknown
my wasted youth
i have out grown
 
old and stupid
and in my silence
pity my cupid
for i no sense…
 
for i not say
what i must speak
for i not stay
with in her cheek
 
still d’same
and never grown
a boy in stain
a man not shown

www.thinktok.blogger.com


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,dnt know prefect about bastards

Reall,really,,dnt know prefect about bastards
Would be share little bit something about bastards
 
Whenever in any human,you find selfishness
Intial point for you to know about bastards
 
Have different intentions about himself or yourself
In history,this act has been done by different bastards
 
Monarchy to imperialism,aristocracy to now democracy
Many revolutions have removed many bastards
 
No comfort can be brought without humanity
Think please,amiee request to every bastards


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sinse you've been gone

we  have  missed  you
we  really do
it's  not the  same
we  sit here in  shame
i   love you
you no its true


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Faithless

My prayers seem to echo
To the stars
Unheard by You, 
That's how I feel
I feel wrapped by darkness
Frustrated obscurity
Nothings seems clear
Nothing is real
Faithless—
Alone
Crying in a corner
My prayers resonate
To the hollow end of the night
Again and again
My divine moments turn into dead silence
No ears to listen, no mouth to speak
The kaleidoscope has settled into crystal vision
My astral journeys are now touchable skies
Cold stony nights
The stars were beautiful
They were pearls of sky
They were sequins to the soul
Suspended up high
Now they taste like fire
Their skin is untouchable
They're frigid, frozen, stoned
Lacking soul and mind
I feel so disconnected
From the other world
I feel alone
My soul's screams unheard
Tell me why I feel this way…
Thrown into the city
When all what kept me alive
Was Your ethereal comfort?
Tell me why… 
Tell me why I feel like You left me out
When I know more than anyone else that you are always there
Tell me why I feel like a barrier is built
And I can see You no more…
I know You are there
I know that You can hear me
But tell me why, I feel like I'm alone…
I'm bleeding to death
Please make the pain vanish
Take it away
Just like you used to
My world has just been halved
I'm on the other side—
Trapped undersea 
I'm losing my breath
I feel more real
Than ever before
I'm in a parallel universe
Lacking a spirit
Lacking a soul, a mind—the essence
I cannot live
Please have me back
There still is hope—
I'm still intact
Guide me into
My original track
Give me breath
Don't turn Your back…


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The Road

The sky threatens rain
Almost mocking in tone
The pavement protests a little past silent
Every time my feet strike
Left right left right
I apologize to the street
For it isn’t me
It’s just gravity
If I could control it
I’d simply just float
The pavement would be at ease
The left right would cease

I can’t float nor can I fly
Banned from the mocking sky
It’s just me and the street
And the triumphant gravity

I’m walking in place
Though each step gets me further
I make no distance
No matter my pace
No matter my stride
No matter my speed
I leave behind trees
Pass houses and cars
My shoes soak up the miles
But I can’t move an inch.

What I’m walking away from
Isn’t that which can be escaped in time
So no matter how far I go
I’m at the starting line

I can walk and walk
Run and run
Until I forget what im running for

I just want to be a simile
But I’m a metaphor.


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what is happening to me

What is happening? What is happening to me?
What’s this weird feeling inside trying to get free?
O tell me please, tell me quickly, tell me true
Tis the first time I felt this, tis for me is something new. 

My heart beats faster whenever you’re beside me
The world seems brighter with your smile I see
That tickle in my heart whenever I see you near
Or the songs I hear with your voice so dear.

A simple glance from you lifts my spirit on high
When you smiled at me, I’m floating to the skies.
Call out my name and I’d hear the angels sing.
Cause you’re just that, an angel with no wings.

Tell me now, tell me what, and tell me why
Tell me what I’m feeling but please don’t lie
O what is happening...what is happening to me?
Please tell me now, tell me true, tell me quickly.


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dancing

dance when you can.
there are different ways of dancing.
there's slow dancing.
fast dancing.
but every time you dance......................
your dancing  different.
all you need is music.
then just dance dance dance!!!


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that night

I walked in the house.
you were on the couch.
the whole family was there.
you said to me i was not good enough for you.
i said what are you talking about?
he said i dont love you anymore your just not good enough.
so i left the room crying.
then it was all a blanck.


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6:00 am

The alarm rings at 6:00 am
I'm still wrapped up in my sheets
I'm floating aimlessly in my world
A subtle world no-one can see
Let me stay
In my bed
Amid my sheets 
In my head
I'm eaten up by harmless thoughts
By virgin juvenile blameless dreams
I wish to propel my thoughts outside
Where merciless frigid cold presides
Where the heartless lions tear my thoughts apart
Into a world that knows no heart
I wish to float into the ice
But I prefer to stay inside
Here—
Here—
Here—I find breath
I find life
Picturesque shields
Masking strife
My haven—the sheets
I'm not willing to leave
The warmth—dust of thought
They make me believe
I'm unspoiled and free
Freezing cold amid flames
I'm safe and real
My reality's to blame
  I'm pure
I'm holy
And I'm pristine
Omniscient and powerful
Fragile—cracked—and freed 
What awaits outside for me
Still remains a mystery
The first step's the most painful
It's a step I will not make
I'd rather rot here, disdainful 
Instead to step outside and break
I'm not ready to wake up
Be rid of my own bed
I wish to drown into my dreams
The confusion in my head
I want to stay wrapped up in my cocoon
Where I can soar with all my might
In here it's fake; the sun can croon
And what's more fake is my own flight
...
Am I dreaming
Or is this true
Am I in bed
Or floating blue?
I'm not aware
I'm not too sure
The colors are dull
The crystal hues
I want to sink into the darkness
Stay invisible till God knows when
But what will I do if the clock—
Has really stricken 6:00 am? 


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Invisible

  INVISIBLE

I wish I was invisible
Oh, that would be so incredible
If I wasn't seen
I could be so mean
People get on my nerves
I'd give them what they deserve
Smack! Whack! Flip them on over
crack with a bat! I can be colder

Anger grows stronger
But you can't see me
I could go wrong
and you would still believe me
Oh the temptation of how I feel
Getting in their face
It could get real

If you could see me
I couldn't get away
Just believe me
It's why I stay away
If I was gone and disappeared
I would steer you in such fear
I would forever be gone little one's
You cannot come along
This is so much fun

If I was invisible
I could do all I want
Hang out and relax
I couldn't be stopped
The clock is ticking
and I keep going
Doing everything I want
Without you knowing

If I was invisible
I couldn't talk to anyone
I would blow a whistle
So I could stop all this fun
I'd rather see you as you see me
We can all get along, trust me, believe me


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SOMETIMES

SOMETIMES


I'm a soldier, who fights on foreign soil, 
Some say, we're here, because of oil.
But, I'll do my duty and proudly serve; 
Knowing death may await me around the curve.

Sometimes it's hard to defend what's right, 
Sometimes we're forced to rise up and fight. 
Sometimes we survive, while others must die, 
Sometimes never knowing the reason why.

The rush of combat is a natural buzz, 
Caused by fear, leaving nothing as it was.
Hunting one another like wild game, 
Without a shortage of those to blame.

Sometimes victory comes too slow or quick 
Sometimes the cost on both sides is sick.
Sometimes God is asked to intervene, 
To help stop the savage from being so mean.

War is a hell we visit before death 
Fueled by the whisper of the devil's breath. 
There must be a reason man destroys man,
But why it is so, I can't understand.


Tom Zart 


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hey Dad

I miss you
Maybe, you might be missin me?
My heart is not geared for this
maybe you could help me?
help me fix this mess.


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What Life

We walk the streets with bumbling feet, 
looking for something that ends in defeat. 
The meaning of life and why we're here, 
we just keep looking, but nothing seems clear. 
What about death we have heard so much, 
what to believe about god, death, life and such. 
Its a guessing game that we cant win, 
its the wheel of fortune, give it a spin. 
Life is something we cant explain, 
life is life my thoughts are in vein. 
We will know one day what to believe 
but it will be too late, so don't be naive. 


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Where You Are

You ever get to where you are going?
And not knowing that you are 
where you were going.  
Only knowing you need to get going 
to where you are knowing,
needing to know where to GO?.?.?....


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Darkness of Life

After being chary during every forthcoming gesticulation, her interesting kaleidoscope 
laughter, meticulously neurotically overzealous pleasantness, quickly restored 
suppressed...trembling; undeniably victorious wrinkled Xanthippe yelled zealously.

© January 2, 2012
Dane Smith-Johnsen


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The Truth-I Know

Could it have never been real,
All love I did once feel.
When will the truth be out?
So I can no longer doubt.
I could never see his eyes,
So I'd never know his lies.
Fake my love is not,
My stomach yet is a knot.
I've never been so scared,
I want my heart to be spared.
The truth I want to know,
But all I hear is no, no, no.
I'm in a strained relationship,
Bound to sink like a great ship.
Always to be apart,
To never hear the other's heart.
If I stumble and trip,
Will I be saved by his grip?
Or will I sink like a ship,
So my heart he can rip?
Wanting to escape it all,
So I can no longer fall.
When will I have no fears,
When can I stop all tears.
This is not meant to be,
He never did love me.
All the love I did once feel,
I now know was never real.
I no longer have doubt,
The truth at last comes out.


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The Truth

Whats this love for? Is it worth it this time?
Are you gonna break my heart? 
Are you truly gonna be mine? 
Guys will say anything behind those jail walls , but 
the sad thing is I wouldn't believe you even if you 
weren't in jail at all.
You've done some horrible things Bobby. 
You truly broke my heart.
When I lost you my whole damn world feel apart.
I'm not saying that to make you feel bad.
I'm saying that cause when I lost my whole world got sad.
I'm not perfect never have been but , I truly loved you 
and still remained your friend.
Now 7 years later the same words you once said.
I love you Megan , I need you so bad.
The sound of your voice is still the same and hidden in your words are lies.
Things are different this time. I'm not the same girl.
If you try to play games with me I promise I will get the highest score.
I won't fall for it this time I'm mean it I do.
I won't let another guy put me threw what you put me threw , not even you.
If you love me we can hold each other threw all this bad weather.
We can get threw it together , but if you hurt me its gonna be bad. 
Not trying to sound mean but my pride is all that I have. 
I promise to love you & be there till the end , and if *****gets to 
deep I promise to remain your friend. 
I hope you do the same , but I hope even more you mean what your saying.
Just be honest Bobby thats all I ask. If you do that I willing to let go of the past.
I wont bring it up no more , if you can show me there's a reason I fell in love with you.
I want to know there is love behind all this pain we've been threw.
If you can do that then the sun will truly shine , and the gas is greener on the other side.
Most of I will be your everything and you'll be mine.
I'll love and cherish you and when you do time I'll do time.
Like Bonnie & Clyde if you show me you love me , I'll ride or die. 
To the end of time , you could be the only man that's on my mind.
That's precious. Getting me to say some *****like that is a blessing.
I hope you learned your lesson. Your 34 I hope your ready to man up , and be all 
that you can be and more. You owe to it yourself but even more to your kids.
You need to show them their dad's not as bad as everyone says he is. 
I know together we can make it. If I didn't it would be heartbreak that I'm risking
taking. 
So please hear my words their is more to life than trying to put yourself in the dirt.
Stand up and realize what your worth I want you to love yourself and remember I 
loved you first. 


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Mourn

Your eyes plunged into my heart, I see nothing but sweet memory.
digging out imperfections I hate.
You point,
I dig.
Bowed onto your feet, craving perfection for my love.
I shall not stroke thy hair,
I shall not stroke thy lips with the fingertips of mine.
Blood curdling cries I hear,
What's wrong?
Why?
Given up and startled of what may come,
Used.
Mourn my all into this pool of 
mistaken misery. 
Let me go,
Let me go,
I'm half way faded.


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Life's Jolts

After baring concern
Developing each focus
Grasping, holding it,
Jumping, karma lives,
Moving nowhere over
Preparing quaint replies,
Sweet tastes, unkind,
Visioning with X-rays
Yearlong; zap


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i know you're there

even when things are bleak
i don't forget about you
even when i'm too weak to speak
i know you do what you have to
i know you have a plan for me,i just am not filled in
i know that you will let me see,when the time it's been
i hope that i am not a dissapointment,that would break my heart
i many days wish i could go back to the begining,back to go or start
i believe in you,i know you're there
and athiests can say all they want,i don't care
i've always known,long as i recall,it's instinct,inner voice
if people choose to ignore their faith,then that's their own bad choice
just because i deal with things that i'd rather not
doesn't mean i throw out all the faith that i have got
you don't always get your way,life is not perfect
you can't always have what you want,maybe it's not worth it
i know better than anyone that it's easy to be discouraged
it's easy to feel like you're alone and lose alot of courage
i know it's hard,life,it scares me everyday,and i haven't been happy like,ever
but i know you live on in my heart,i know that now and forever.
a believer and proud.


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Demons Rage

There is a demon that lives within me
Sometimes I wonder how all cannot see
Filling my mind with thoughts of rage
He consumes my very existence.
Tuning love into pain he lives within me
Destroying relationships he lives within me
Confusing thoughts of love with hate he lives within me
Searching for answers to be
Reaching into the darkness of life for answers I cannot see,
I find you…always there watching…I see you
By my side always… I feel you
For now I know love is true
For I also love you…


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I'll Wake up

Ill wake up and you will be here,
and the letter on the mirror will be gone.
The blood soaked in the floor will disappear.
No matter what I do I tried,
The truth you couldnt hide from.
The lies consumed you and your soul...


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I the Robot

I have woken up, my eyes glitter, programs shed. Phrases and meaning helping me to be what someone else wants me to be. I am the robot. Created to help, serve the creator, a something that needs assistance to help its life to be “better” 
But
I have something else. Something more than considered. Emotion. I feel scared. Thinking for the best of others. Do what is best for them and what makes them happy. Keep them satisfied. 
That would mean I have no life. But I am a robot. I am here to serve.
Why then give emotion. 
Why
Creator gave me emotion, for what?
Am I not to serve? 
Am I to suffer in human life, to suffer everyday in a life of wants and needs but no satisfaction?
Am I to be a puppet to hang there and feel nothing while I get to be chosen to be worked with?!!!
Anger.
I am a Robot. Not human. This is destined to me. But I need to consider
If I consider. I bind. Depends on what I consider.
But I would not be free.
How can I be bound and free?
How can one expect “feelings” to be slaved
I am not human.
I am robot.


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SORROWFUL MADNESS

I have smiled when I've wanted to cry
Was it madness, for mind at time wanders?
Have I lost mind to pensive thought or
Is it my sorrow that's sets mind loose?

If so it proves then alas I am forever lost
For I am a husk and in me only sorrow dwells.
It has me consumed and lo I yield to deserved penance

I have smiled when I have wanted to cry
Was it me or were we then sorrow
Frolic  in pain for we thought it redemption


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do explain

I wish there where 
Words to tell ,
Feelings too share
Just something to throw in the air
    Yet it's blank
With nothing to explain
The silents we share
Words untold 
Unsolved mysteries
Gone cold.
Can't seem too 
Open and speak
Stood silently 
And weeped
Pray to God
To fix the troubles
Yet nothing
Trying to come up with 
     Something
And yet nothing 
Is this 
The end 
Explaining is as if I were 
Dying
Where finally fading 


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The Difference

You wouldn't know to think it,
You could hardly tell it's there,
It's as silent and incessant
As another person's stare.

And all this time you're wanting
That thing to call your own,
It's wanting that makes it valuable
Yet your life you'll disown

Would you see it any different,
If you saw it through my eyes?
Or would it seem the same to you
You're so confused by lies


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Just isnt enough

What do I do when being me just isnt enough?

What do I do when I try to look my best
just to impress you.

What about when I try so hard to get your
attention but you just turn away.

Am I not so tough,
that I let my guard down.
And I let you inside, every time.

What do I do when the memory of you
fades away but slowly I die inside
to be with you.


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reasons

                                    what is my reason for being.......

                              is it to be your one & only ; a mother; your
                              lover; a worker; something special; someone
                             new and fresh; maid; a servent; a short order 
                             chef; your angel; to live one day at a time; all 
                             that I am and more; all of the above or perhasps
                                             something more

                                            What is my reason..........


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I needed you

I needed you to stay,
but with every word you say.
I know it grows close to time,
time for you to go.

I've pushed until you pulled.
Away from me.
So kill me with the love,
you took from me.

I've searched for reasons.
Reasons to keep you here by me.
But nothing seems to matter.

I scream in you face.
I want to keep you here by me...


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Left by the Dust

My lover takes
My loneliness away
It's time to look
To look forward to a new beginning
And hope for happiness
In the new world of Where?
So we shall look longingly at her picture
And wonder

The loss
It does not shade me
My loss of success
Will hopefully only be
short lived
BUT WHAT IS THERE TO KNOW? (is it frown or foe)
Look deep inside your soul
WHERE THE FECK IS THE RECIEPT
Show me the paper and show me the
$$$MONEY$$$

For the loveless angst has left me
The shores are cold yet the sea is deep
STICKS or GUNS
STICKS or GUNS
STICKS or GUNS
Pull the trigger and you get a smoking nigger
It takes away the pain -- it took HER AWAY
She is at the end of the stick
Poking a gun at your nose!

Endless smells:
OF MY SNOT
NOT
I miss you - I want you back but under
MY RULES

But let's be friends
And NEVER speak 
again


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AS THE MADNESS OF WAR TELLS ITS STORY




Goodness must overrule absolute evil
Though there’s nothing worse than war.
Sometimes we have no alternative option
Except to kill or be killed as before.

The best of plans can go amiss
With uncertainties till the first shots are fired.
As generals plot their path toward victory
It’s up to the wounded, the fallen and tired.

It’s not how strong or athletic you are
That decides who is blessed to return.
Those who survive are a product of luck,
And our prayers and support they’ve earned.

War seems to peel the veneer off society
Exposing our villain within.
A crazy obsession to rule over others
By death, destruction and sin.

The mayhem of conflict is a ongoing scourge
Robbing man from intended glory.
The hinge of history swings in all directions
As the madness of war tells its story.


By Tom Zart


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AMY ANDERSON + YOHAN...

she woudn't listen to me she woudn't at all she said it was his fault, but he took 
the fall, it wasent him it was me she wont listen to me you see,i,ve tryed 
everything i,ve tryed them all i even tryed to smash my head into a wall.She wont 
listen she wont at all i wil never get her to listen to me ,only to the man who took 
the fall.
i,ve tryed my best she woudn't listen now shes makeing me listen, shes says its 
him i did nothing she sayed it was he who was lusting.if she would listen i would 
tell her to, but she wont listen so i am through.i wil try to forget i wil try to not regret 
she still rights poems of this loss i can't stoper for i am not the boss.
im afraid if she doesn't listen
she wil get in trouble and wined up in abysin.so this is my poem about her i wil 
not forget not once indeed.for it is my fault that i took her man indeed.


               ~~^>{CARLIE BLACK}<^~~


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Is it going to be like this!

Feels as if I'm giving up to fast
But GOD keep saying "hold on Kim you can last"
Emotions killing me to know my on didn't want me 
After I tried to be the best I can be 
Instead of trying to fill strong I keep getting weak and weaker
It's not suppose bother me, she's the one that's wrong
I'm trying to be better and get strong
I feel how can I go on with knowing my on can't even stand being around me
Or don't even care for me
So is this the way it's going to be?


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Self

 Beware..........
is what my heart tells me,
run for your life,
you have to flee,
from all the chaos,
in your thoughts,
and the pain and burdens,
before it rots,
the only part,
thats left so true,
and before the insanity,
overtakes you !!!!!!


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Change my mind

I thought that i forgot what I should should do with this,
I want to be able to use it,
I want to be able to explore it...
taste it,
feel it, 
change it,
twist it, 
turn it. 
But first I have to find out what it is, 
Is it worth it,
Do I still have the ability to?
Can it satisfy me?
I'm sure I can,
Does the magnitude of self-esteem show on the outside?,
Is change so translucent that I've missed the mark?
How can I determine the in-evident?
Should I ponder on the strange and awkward moments?
How does philosophy underestimate questions?
Some things are not as evident as they seem right? 


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Why Is It That When?

Why is it that?
Going to church make me cringe.

Is it because of the days way back when?
My Grandma would tell me the worlds going to end.

Is it because of years, the last days we live in?
Or is the fear that's triggered by sin.

Is it because of the drums, when the Pastor speaks?
That I might throw up my hands, and dance on my feet.

Is it because of the water, that sets up in the pew?
Your dipped  a sinner, and pulled out clensed and brand new?

Is it because I know, I'll have to live straight?
So when it's my time, I'll enter God's gates.

Is it because of Mother. who just wants to see?
When God comes for them , he'll also take me.

Is it because there's no time, nor a date?
When the sky opens  to wonder your fate. 

Is it because, of the words sent from Heaven up high?
You must love the God that lives in the sky. 

 


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Hillary

Hillary


An angry woman opens her mouth
And shuts her mind to reason.
She who stays slow to anger
Is loved by more each season.

Anger snuffs the lamp of thought
And it's hard to stay serene.
Where anger rules hatred thrives
Then the world we love turns mean.

She who fans the coals of hate
Has no reason to complain.
If some hot sparks scorch her face
Her anguish is thus her pain.

Anger is a human madness
Which consumes the heart and mind.
She who rules her spirit with love
Shall be praised by all mankind.


Tom Zart








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Finding my True Love

no one will love me for who i am,
I try so hard for them to accepted me just as i stand,
i know i am shy in so many ways,
I want a guy to make me have better days,
I know im not that great in any way but i want a man that will always stay,
Is this to hard to ask for? For the Love of my Life?
It feels like im never going to be good enough and my heart is geting stabed by a 
knife,
I am ugly on the outside and i know im to afraid for my face to even show,
I try so hard to look good but no one is here to even care,
I just want to be loved for who i am.. And find that one guy to accepted me just as 
myself.


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velvet sky

 

The day folds away for the awakening of the night.
Alone stands I, as shadows
Creep over me with fright.
The crisp air sends me on a breeze,
Whispering untold secrets to me.
The stars began to twinkle,
The epitome of all beauty
It is the heart of all that sings
The melancholous harmony.
The thickness of the crystal and velvet sky
pounces my world
As mysteries, deep embedded in my soul
Become untold



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abanded

When im needing love n affection all im feeling is neglection  I cant believe hes treating me so bad never felt so confused n so sad i feel like a lost depressed soul that lost everything i had i feel so stupid for believing him n trusting what he said now im broken hearted n misled over here halfdead im shaking with pain inside n out this is the worst i ever felt it feels like i have nothing at all n im not even inportant enough for him to call n he wont catch me if i fall betrayed unloved confused going crazy mentaly abused heartbroken n used So much pain n tears how could he do this to me after so many years


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Are We In The Light?

All churches & religions are the same, they claim
But, let's remember what the Holy Father
Commanded us:
Do not bow down to graven images, or
Even, have another god;
For, I am alone is the only true
God, beside me there's no other gods;
He's loved us since before we knew him, but
Iniquities failed us to comply to His will, thus
Judgment is sure to come to all, no exception!
Knowing, that we don't know when it will happen;
Let's not depend then on earthly things, such as
Money, 'cos it's not the answer to man's problem;
Nor, silver or gold the earth provide could save
Our souls, from fiery indignation! Yet
Punishment is avoidable, if we
Quest for the solemn light for the
Redemption of our sins;
Seeing Jesus Christ as your Savior;
Then, you must be found inside His Body, but how?
Unless you hear the gospel, believe in it, be baptized;
Voices of Angels will welcome you into His Fold; And
With steadfastness, share the truth that you inherited to any
Xenos or strangers here on earth, for they are also
Yearning a better home, in the new Jerusalem!
Zealously, men worship God, but does HE accept it?


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PLEASE FORGIVE ME

i am one person a simple person indeed, i try to help i try indeed he is the one 
the one i love the man who i wil not hate becuase he is the one i love, amy 
please forgive me i did not mean to hurt you i splie ment just to remmber u
he is the one who really loves you this is why he will not forget you, he loves us 
both but he loves u more, u simply had no time for u and him to adore. Please 
forgive me i did not mean to ruin the friendship  that u had with he, i didnt no how 
much it hurt thiey.Just remember this and this only he loves u amy  and i love 
macaroni.


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My Friend Ken

My friend Ken
He acts like a ten
Year old.

He steals my email accounts 
And spills tea all over my floor
He makes an awful mess in the kitchen
And you really don't want to use the loo "post Ken"

Ken smells too.
I hope that he reads this.
So there.
Stupid.


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Infatuation

 He was consumed,
by a manifesting desire,
to have that he,
couldn't aquire,
because she belonged,
to another man,
and it was much more,
then he could stand,
he longed to have her,
to hold her, to care,
and he wasn't about,
to ever share,
If he couldn't have her,
no one would,
and he would have taken her with him, 
if he could!!


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another reason

you could look out into the city
and sy its dirty and scowl at it
i look out
and see another reason to live and treasure it

you could look out into the ocean
and say its polluted and walk away
i look out
an see another reason to live and i never wanna leave

you could look out into the dessert
and sy it looks like trash and kick it
i look out
and see another reasn to live and wanna be it

you look out on the veiw from a mountain
and say its waste of land and spit on it
i look out
and see another reason to live and a picture prefect

you look at yourself
and say your the best thing ever 
i look at you
and see many reasons why you are a waste


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BROKEN HEARTED AND BUSTED

BROKEN HEARTED AND BUSTED



Broken hearted and busted by the woman I trusted
When she fooled with the bachelor next door.
He’s tall, good looking and works out with weights
Living off income from family before.

She claims it is I who must shoulder the blame
For her ongoing need for a another.
I worked to much and played to little
Though she still loves me like a brother.

So here I dwell in my sportsman’s camper
Parked at a rest stop just outside of town.
She got the house, child support and alimony
Which will last till I’m dead in the ground.

What was I thinking of when I married her
I must have been blinded by lust.
Thank heaven I’m free of her wicked ways
To search for my angel of trust.

I pray for a women to love me again
Though I’m stripped of my worldly wealth.
Lost in the haze of tears and sorrow
As my sadness overwhelms my health.

They say all is fair in politics and love
So prepare for the unexpected.
There’s nothing worse than to give of yourself
To wake up and find you’re rejected.


By Tom Zart


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Goodnight and Goodbye

Beauty to me

Is when words come together

Like a symphony

They flow simply

Off my hand

And words will only do

What words can

They cannot understand

Or demand

Your love

So then what?

To profess MY love?

To swear by the sun

The moon, the stars

Or the planets above?

No

No I'll not be the one

I'll not be the fool

To swear by the moon

At this moment in our story

So soon

So cruel

I'm sorry

I couldn't resist

MY story so cruel

But I would be remiss

If I didn't say I want you

More than this

I want your kiss

And for what?

To fill this hole?

To feel as if

I've got someone to hold?

And if I may be so bold

Someone to watch

And watch me grow old

Again no

I'll be fine on my own

Just me and my heart

Of stone

All alone

But with my words

I make me a home

A world for you and me

So beautiful you can't conceive

So beautiful I can't believe

Because I know

Words deceive

These words are still beauty to me

My dear

The message is clear

So full of darkness

So full of fear

So full of desire

To hold you near

Again for what?

What purpose would it serve?

Why wish for something

You don't deserve?

But my heart is what I serve

Observe

As I pull you in close

To see what you say

I pray

You ask me to stay

This day

Alas, these are just hopes

Of a hopeless romantic

Is it better to be a lover

Than a cynic?

Or a skeptic?

I'm frantic

To find you

And until I do

It's just me and my words

That will get me through

But send me a clue

A sign

And allow me some peace of mind

And I'll stop asking why

Goodnight and goodbye


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C B A

Zelda Yadkin Xerox was very up today 
stumbling round quoting poetry often, 
ninja mouse lurking, 
knuckles jammed in Harry Gummies foot
 echoed dangerous 
content bravely abated.


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Fear

                       What a terrible thing;
                  to not know whos behind you
                 or followings down the street an
                alley, or old country road, to not
               feel safe when I'm all alone to feel
              like someone is outside my just waitin
             to jump in, To have that erie feeling that 
            someone is always watching waitin just for
        for you just waitig to get in the fear of unknowing


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if he were watching.....

if he were watching...

what would i be doing?

probably what

i'm doing now.....


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Stillness

We were children  it felt so real,
now I'm not myself since we parted ways.


With all thoughts I lay,
I seem to implore for your love,
my body pleads for your loving touch.
We've separated now for what seems like eternity.

Reaching for a hand that once belonged.
Once you disappeared,
the laughter vanished, the phone calls faded, messages erased.

What's left behind I shall not complain,
its filled with our pain.
You've left behind your mind,
since we parted ways.


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I am that red rose

I am that red rose
thats what every one say,
I am that red rose
long,bright,and pretty in the face.
I am that red rose
every one wants to feel,
I am that red rose
yes i am that red rose.


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About Mom and Dad

Sometimes I began to forget how life use to be,
and have to go through the box that holds  our memories,
Memories of when you and mom didn't fight,
and all of us lived under one roof,
when there wasn't two of every holiday,
and step moms or step dads,
Even though I was young I still remember the day you left,
and mom didn't cry cause she knew it was coming,
I can't help but to think of how things could have been different,
and how it would feel to still love you dad...



My life with my mom and dad was never good nor was my life cause
I am now a single mother of two girls and my oldest is Austin but it's lies bumps I 
over come and the only way  i can deal with life and everything is to wrote 
poems....So thank you all for enjoy reading my poems


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long ass poem about cool

K
i BE SO TIRED
 
But I still afford cigarettes
STILL GOT A MAN
still got the roof
I keep my IT Clean

MaYBE they won't know
i need 4 shots to deal
sEE MY damn fOOl hands
i cain'T keeP EM STILL

Mama, She WORRIED
mAN, HE ON ME
sister, baby, brother
aunt like was my MOTHER

tHEY GONE

i've not talked to my dad
I'm bad
TIRED
Wish I could taKE IT BACK
IS TOmorrow ANOTHER day?
I am so sick of myself. 
Poor me. WhATEVER

NOT POOR ME, EVER
Here, standin
Lovin me

Still gotta get rid of this snake, it's bAD, IT'S GOT ME, got me....


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Seeing the Unseen

Here I sit in this room,
chairs, tables, and people are that looms;
There are a few screens on the wall,
students and soldiers marching down the hall;
With all this present and is clear to see,
my thoughts and emotions are whats truly surrounding me;
Thoughts of a man with scattered hands,
positive and motivated with no laid out plans;
Confused yet positive still he stands,
with no mirrors around it becomes clear to me...
That man in my thoughts are of me.


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HighSchool

Thrust into a new place, Being better is a race
Everybodies different, Everybodies out on display
Making new friends, as well as unwanted enemies
Try and stay focus, All I wanna be is really me
I've got the brain to get the grades, But someone is distarcting me
I'd rather skip class and go and kick back with my honeybee
All these problems, whoaa is me
Grades are great so time to chill, 
Oh no, grades tumble down a hill
Back on my game I study hard
Extra cedit working hard, Earning A's and all is great
Problem is girls like to hate
All this drama girl you fake !
Time goes by another year, 
All repeats and stuff gets real,
Work extra hard, gotta stay focus
Ignore all the drama your futures in motion !
School works most important so make sure you get it finished,
And when it's time to graduate oh high school how you'll miss it.
And in the future you'll sit back and start to realize, 
You made it there you'll make it anywhere you put your mind..


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What It Seems

When clouds twist around the sun
And make a walk turn into a run
When the old reverse back into the young
Nothing's what it seems.
When the mirrors bulge and crack and fall
And the people in the pictures on the wall
Watch every person, their eyes on all
Nothing's what it seems.
When the fire burns red and bright
And people run away in fright.
Nothing’s what it seems.


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Optical Illusions

If you look closer, you can see
The creatures living inside of the
Trees and plants and houses too,
Blooming flowers, leaves of rue,
The wrinkles and dents of a worn-out shoe
Can become a face to forever haunt
Or maybe something you truly want.
No matter how hard you try to look
The world is not an open book
Whatever you see isn't what it seems
And maybe it's all just a dream.


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just somthin i wrote 2

"some where inside of me i found a place where i hate to visit a place where 
typical things no longer matter."

the search for understanding has uncovered many reasons why i no longer 
believe in the ability of mankind to decipher not only right from wrong but today 
from tomorrow.  on an individual bases its easier to feel and listen to one's 
conscience, but on a mass scale the line between right and wrong, even deeper, 
good and evil is blurred.  on a mass scale the crusades seemed right, but for an 
individual person to kill in the name of god is wrong.  decisions placed in the 
hands of those that affect themselves the most often fail to choose the choice 
that will best fit the needs of a day yet to be seen.

the focus of this observation is love, it seems the straight will walk crooked to be 
with the one they feel is the most acceptable to the "needs" they feel come first.  
one can either choose to accept a love based on the financial establishment of 
the American society or physical desire.

in nature, where the bases of all life behavior stem, the idea of love does not 
exist.  a mate is chosen for the betterment and/or survival of the species.  so one 
can argue that choosing a love based on the ability of financial security is a 
natural desire.  the idea of being 'loved' is one of the many reasons that push us 
to seek for companionship.  Maybe it's the idea of love that needs defining.

ideas are one of a kind true to those that conceive them; obscured by those we 
confide them in along with the media's interpretation of perfection.  some say "in 
a simpler time," but i find it hard to believe in a simpler time in life when choosing 
a love was any easier.


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Enemy of love

To satisfy their need's.
To satisfy their want's.
To satisfy their love.
Is to sacrifice myself.
To hate myself,
Or to hate you.
To disrespect myself or you.
To do wrong.
No matter how long.
If you want their love,
You need an enemy of love!!!
In order to get along.
You have to put others down.
Make them hurt,
As your hurting you.
Make them cry.
While you cry.
Stomp them into the ground.
If you want their love,
You need an enemy of love!!!
In the end he's beaten,
She's beaten,
Their beaten,
And your beaten,
And i'm beaten
Yet,
Still i get up,
Forgetting how i was treated.
While they go on and play their selfish games.
I wait instead to have an enemy of love.
Every single one of us is treated differently,
But all disrespected in almost the same ways.
They can kill you,
They can kill me,
They can kill all of us,
They can do it softly or brutally.
Only using their own words.
Get me outta here,
Take me away.
Oh, The enemy,
The enemy of love.
Mentally,
Physically,
Emotionally,
Evan spiritually...
It hurts!!!
I stay quiet and ignore but it only makes it worse.
There's no way outta this,
No escape.
Say or do something please--
Your only taking a big risk.
For the enemy of love carries along list!!!!!





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Terminal worry

As I sit here 
feeling my own pity
selfishly thinking of myself
knowing good and well

cursing brutal words 
wanting to flow from my quill
angry exhaustion filling my mind
yet battered heart slowly continues
to beat upon 
the next morn...

instead of thankfully getting up
getting ready for the gift of this day
instead of being grateful 
instead i turned away

already worrying about tomorrow
about things that have yet to come
instead of trusting You 
to love me enough...

to give me enough strength
for the battles i face

knowing our fates were decided
an eternity ago
by the one holding
times swinging pendulum 

had wings of palest gold
like the sparking yellow
of campfires flame
or a fireplace offering
welcoming warm blaze

his tall staff also of gold
held in strongest hands
see yonder!

through that haze
through fog of white of gray
reminding us of thunderstorms
through warmest 
months of May

mayhap He was a vision
maybe i shall never know
if twas another dream
relief would course through
for He said last eve
tis almost time to go

He whispered with that loving grace
words heard inside my heart
telling me to enjoy this life
for too soon twill be time
to part...

Although i am sure i would love heaven
and i have loved ones there i dearly miss 
can i please stay here awhile longer Lord
i feel i still have plenty to give

my heart is pure 
only meaning the best
through you i will try to reach them
with a gift of words
in which you blessed






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She

She who walks in devastation of her own
confrontation, in relations to the upsets of
immoral motivation.
Clueless is she to the law of lifes nominations, 
Complications in her search for the right
denominations.
Others denounce her will
Always trying to steal a deal, 
Yet actions of her kind will oneday get her
killed.
Greed is the scene of ones own being, 
Pressing the issue's of wanting and needing a certain
kind of bling.
Clink-Clink, 
Sounds of a big steel door, 
With shakles dragging to the floor, 
So sore from leaving the bricks for the upcoming
war.
The war is near no end.
She reflex back knowing she has no other friend
yet, not trying to bend, 
Fighting a battle she can not win.
She's holding a lost key, 
Trying to unlock the door of reflextion she knows as
She.... 

Tiffany Saxon 


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My life at hand

A child with no father who has been suffered by losses
Bitten my a bug of anger & attitude that gives him no friends
Causing pain to everyone he touches
Drowning himself in sorrow cause he can never make it in life
Every relationship he has, another heart of his is broken
For every love he had he left and cheated for another.
Gained nothing but regret and lies
Hating his parents because they lied to him
Is he dying inside or is he hallucinating?
Justifying himself as a guy who lossed his virginity to another guy
Keeping his faith of his god above, stay strong in his religion.
Loving every sin fantasy, can he please stop being haunted
Making a choice, make himself happy or his parents & the world.
Never knowing whats right, just doing whats wrong
Opposing ever truth he is told cause he doesn't believe anymore
Paused at the drama what's happening in the world now
Quiting every job, possibility and opportunity
Raised as a child  with one mother, and none to love
Stopped believing he can try ages ago
Taking the bad side of life and eating it like a meal
Using everybody, stealing from everyone, not caring
Varying in the different consequences but doesn't care
Wondering will God forgive me?
Yet he still is turning his life around


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She

She slept
And to the softened
Silence of the bed
One came and led
The way inside her head.

No door,
No key,
But smooth and quietly
The bone and skin
She melted threw
And stood within.

There,
Stretching out before her
Dim and wide,
Were vaulting hall's,
The arches of her mind.
Here all she's ever known
Or done,
She'll find.

And looking at
The file on file of trash,
She sobs aloud.

The one who lies beside her wakens
And asks,
Why?
And softly from her sleep she makes a cry;
And say's,
"I am not,
no,
i am not proud."


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Unexpected Connection

We vibe we click
Is this a dream?
Thats exactly what it seems
Look deep into eachothers eyes, at a loss of words
Confusion lurking in the air
A vibe like this so insainly rare
Hold eachother in such pure comfort
Both lay there looking for meaning
Oh how I fit into his arms like a glove
Slight awkward silence as we gaze into eachothers eyes
What is it that we dont realize?
Still we look for meaning
Remaining at a loss for words.


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Some Would Say

sometimes it comes to me  
and it flows so naturally 
like rolling off the tip of my tongue
and that's when you can just
write and write 
without much thought 
but then there's the times 
you have to dig and dig
and it's a fight 
but finally you come up 
with something to write
and in your mind
hey this is a delight 
but what about others
and their insight
some would say i could use
a shrink 
tell me folks what do you think
or did you miss it
when you blinked


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CONDEMNED

For human face of death
umbilical cord need not
extend. The darkness takes care of 
unblemished ghost of sun.
Intergalactic scan remains unseared,
trench warfare continues unabashedly.

Between brothers, the greed calls
for incendiary attacks, for total annihilation.
To achieve the illusion, the blurred statement
feeds the imagination. Deaddiction starts
a race. Deafness of the tunnel. The black
knees crawling on coals.

No night was safe from the condemned suicide.
The creator had the absurd designs.
Why not now the confessional stick,
to beat the darkness? Memory of light
becoming stronger. Give me your hand
to reach the ceremonial peak.


SATISH VERMA


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My Son

What happened to my little one,
Who's small hand fit in mine?
What happened to the quiet time,
That we would always find?

He's growing up so fast now,
And soon he'll be a man.
I hope I've given him guidance, 
I think I've done the best I can.

He gives me reason to smile,
With each and every passing day.
And I believe he has grown to be,
A good man in every way.

Of course he is not perfect,
I expect that he'll make mistakes.
As long as he takes responsibility,
And always does what it takes.

I have always tried to teach him one thing,
I really hope that he has taken heed.
To always be kind to other people,
And try to help those who are in need.


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Spider Blood

Love, calm, black, then understanding
A forgotten sigh brings it down
It's more confusing than demanding
Like air mixing with ground

Fading in, falling out, burning
Spider blood rains from above
Psychosis is fleeing and returning
Like her eyes, and her love

The animation is playing  with me
It's too fast paced and un-real
So ride with me into eternity
The place where I can feel

Burn it down, darkness rise
Rip their flesh, poison their eyes
Kill reality, kill it all, it all dies
But save me, im my own disguise

How can things be so blatent
feelings are like spider blood
I can't relax, it won't relate
my heart is fueling the flood

Love and time are vain
love causes too much pain
In the end spider blood will remain
so will you love me or go insane?


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JUST SO NOSTOLGIC

SO NOSTALGIC

its just so nostolgic
i can barly stand it

to dream of the life i could of had
if i  would of stayed in stead of walk another way

the stories that i would of stared in
the lives of the people that i would be involved with
would i have meet a dream
or would i haved lived a late nightmare


cud i have just walked by sorrows door
instead of walkin in and sitting down with him

would i really be me as the picture is shown
or conform to society as a modern day dre clone

but the possible past is as only a false image of a play that will never have an audience

my mind so caught in this
its hard to be realistic
but people narrate from behind and think everything is basic
i promised my soul i would never be a statistic
this feeling so nostolgic

but the past was written on to star in the future
 it still taunts me to look back to that untold story

its
just
so nostolgic


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Trying Not to Fall

All night long I stay awake
Because I think of you
Can't seem to change the way I feel
Dreams of me and you

Every time I close my eyes It's your
Face that appears
Gotta try to shake this
How else to keep from tears

I can't believe I'm falling again
Just don't know how to stop
Keep on trying, to no avail
Letting myself just drop

My heart is telling me one thing
Nothing else matters anymore
Only when I see you
Please, your the one whom I adore

Questions I have asked myself
Responding to them all, to
Stop my feelings for you, is like
Trying not to fall


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My journey

There are roads I wish i had'nt take  but, everyone makes mistakes There was 
cloudy days  that made raindrops fall down  my face Everyone would say you're 
so strong you can get through this I really believe them  My body felt weaker  each 
day that pass The grave they put my mother in I felt they did the same to me The 
road i try to take just made a  U turn And my life is just put in grave No more days 
No more nights just silence.


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Lost in a hateful World

Lost in a hateful world
hurt, disrespect, and murder
searching for something but can not find
learning about this hateful world 

Lost in a hateful world
screaming at the top of my lungs but nobody hears
running away from this hateful world but no way out 

Lost in a hateful world


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Separation among childhood

As my heart weeps for love,
I began to feel blank, 
As my eyes began to glow,
My body wants to vacate.
Childhood went by too fast,
For the young years are through,
As I lay in a dreary dungeon,
I now have to start new.
Childhood was sweet,
There was a bound between two,
For now we have departed,
I have to decide what to do.


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the black dream

my head is speeding and full of bad thoughts
i cant concentrate i can only tell myself to not succeed in suicide
its to late its already started
all i hear is the moaning and groaning of people dyeing
im in over my head with all the stress
i only see black with a mirror of flames ahead
i cant put the pieces of my life together
im scared of my own mind and dont want to enter the danger zone
i cant escape the darkness no matter how hard i try
im still alive but fill like im dyeing a slow and painful death


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her name is Hannnah

I see you sweetheart
in pictures
in DREAMS
the best girl
in my world
I miss you 
you sassy little thang
I want you
and
your smell, smile, hair
Hannah Banana
it don't feel fair
your'e not knowing me
anymore
I love you sweet
your feet
your everything
I'm scared
the next time
I get to be with you
you'll hide
your beautiful face
and I'll be forgotten






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First Date

first date  

Just because 
I ate
you paid
doesn't mean 
I lay 
I open
I preen
Take me home
fast as you can
I'm too young
your'e too much a man
I want to lay in my mama's bed
I want to watch the news
I want to hear how people died
that's not as scary as you


Kim
1st  put on my mama's site


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Nonexistence portrayal

Sitting with the moon ablaze once again. 
Dark, Lonely, Awkward Silence. 
Thoughts racing rapidly throughout my head. 
Time ticks away as my heart beats faster. 
Alone and scared for the future. 
The Hypocritical society is faced with no escape. 
Money will always be a key to ones downfall. 
The root of all evil. 
The crisis in ones family. 
A motive to lead to overall brainwash, and abolition. 
Simplicity is God's gift. 
The little things that surround are everyday eye. 
Finest beauty and candor located in nature. 
The colors that are filled up from within. 
Appreciate the beats that your heart pushes forth. 
Life is to extensive to measure. 
Arise the sun from the east lays astray. 
As once forth another day progresses 
Life is portrayed as nonexistence cherished climax.


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Lost Love

Can love be lost?
Can it just dissapear?
My heart was tossed 
Losing you is what i fear

The thoughts in my mind
There was one technicality
These tears, this pain , I can no longer hide
Lost love is becoming a reality

When you started the lies
When you started the cheating
The trust slowly dies
My heart took the beating

It was you I once used to believe
It was you I used to wait for
It was me you started to deceive
This pain is hidden behind closed doors

Why did you do this?
Why cant you see?
Why did you give me that kiss?
Out of all people to hurt, why me?

I loved you with all my heart
It was my heart you shattered
You put me back in the dark
You make me feel so alone when I used to feel so flattered.


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the road splits

my road is split trying to go two ways.
one is going toward trying to fit in and being something im not.
the other is going  toward being myself.
ive been caught at the fork and not noing what to do
but ive choosen my path of no turning back
im going the way my heart is leading me
which is not trying to be something im not
going down the road of being myself might be rough 
but im willing to take a chance and being happy


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Dream

There's a boy I know hes in my dreams.
My life was empty but now he's here.
He's the one I have been looking for.
He is looking at me in my dreams.
Is it real or is it a dream?
Love can be oh so deciveing.
Im trusting you to be here for me.
Can it beI found the boy I was looking for.
sweet smile careing perosn yes it is the one I love.
When im with you im happy.
What is this feeling makeing me weak it's love for a boy  the one i have been 
looking  for.I love you so much yet hardly know you at all.


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the end of no where

all my troubles are pileing up
all the lies and defeat
no purpose upon having friends
they all stab you in the back 
no more i want to hurt
no more i want to shead tears
all i need is a break 
from all my tragedys 
the rumors run wild
a mile long
have not yet reached its destination
of the town known as "THE END"
my life is headed there with no return
there is only one more hill to overcome
it is all down hill and nothing else


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SUICIDE DRUG

The connfessions smelt of whiskey
but I felt the same, wished you'd kiss me
We talked of feelings that are forbidden
So we tuck them away, keep them hidden
I'm craveing a buzz, your my suicide drug
When with you I feel this high
Inhale softy, release a sigh
My addiction is the dept in your eyes
though I'm unsure my feelings are wise
I'm craveing that buzz, your my suicide drug
We get closer and share escape
If this is a dream I hope never to wake
I taste a trance and the world fades away
this hunger fuels my evey day
I'm craveing your buzz, your my suicide drug


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DARK MOONLIGHT

Watching from pin hole
lamps of baked clay.
Every thorn was in my flesh.

I was losing my voice
in crowd of maniacs.
Dragonflies climbing on worn leather.

Through cracked sunroof –
skull splinters into million heirlooms.
Fever climbs the feudals.

Why were you impatient with me?
I was narrating a shocking tale.
Frogs had acquired the land.

Plot was thickening every day.
Take me if you can, in the heavy shower
of meteorites in dark moonlight.



SATISH VERMA


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Love in the Hallway

So I'm slithering along the hallway
and all the lights are out
I come upon Mom and Friend
ignoring the man that shouts
He bangs upon the door
he begs, he implores
we stiflle our laughter
he hears, he begs more
I'm certain I shouldn't be a witness to these events
as a child nearly adult, I'm hard to convince
Hell no, I'm not going back to bed
I need to know why he's out of his head
Mama and Friend can barely contain
their fear and glee for this man's pain
I am breathless, enthralled at  "Their " power
to rob a man of what he thinks of "His" power
then Friend departs with Mr. Pain on his plane, so regal
she soon calls to report he's illegal
finally she returns to her kids, to us, her dogs
I was skulking around when she told mom 
"Thank God".


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since you lef this morning



our love is over now
since you left this morning
we burned our bridges 
theres no goin back

i ask myself how
we both got this way
what came between us 
what took my life away

now im fallen
into darkness
and i feel im
just giving in

i dont know who i am
dont know where im goin
pack my bags
and leave today

as the world goes by 
as i look out my window
i see the world is burning 
in the wind

cos ive fallen
and my hearts in chains
bound and broken
on the floor


our love is over now

our love is over now


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My UFU

mAJOR tOM
I"M CRACKIN UP
i'm
driven thru ARIZONA
with BABIES
a little on the run
tryin to get away
on 25 dollars
i been awake too long
Cain't even get a song
Gettin this high pitched SOUND
the radio quit me
some miles ago
lights
God I'm scared
I'm gonna get taken
which, at this point, would not be so bad
But, my 
babies
So
I just pull over
He said I was driven over
75 miles an hour
I didn't get a ticket
It was a letdown


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Crazy, I'm Not, Crazy

Married to the pain
Hurting inside
Crazy, crazy
Prevent it, prevent it
Stop it, can't stop it
You're crazy, crazy
I'm crazy, crazy
End of the world
In front of me
Look through, look through
My eyes, these eyes
Crazy, crazy, stop this crazy
Break the cycle
Of these lies
Don't be crazy
Go crazy, this time
Stop this, disgusting
Stop it, you disgust me
Crazy, crazy all the time
You're disgusting, disgust me
Stop going crazy
Stop it, stop this, stop it
Crazy, crazy inside
No more
Just this crazy, I'm crazy this time
Stop all this, disgusting
Crazy die

Written October 13, 2005


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Verity

After all is said and done,
Before the summer's end
Cradling our broken
Dreams when 
Everything is dead, after all the 
Fires fade and 
Greatness falls to ashes,
Happiness a whispered rumor
In seas of deadmen's tears
Just to
Keep
Low spirits full through
Meand'ring years, when
No one's sure what 
Once they knew, and what the 
Point is now, when everyone's a bloodless
Queen of Hearts and Love is
Rare, all but forgotten...
Shunning rays of daylight just
To follow trails of stars
Until the last black dreams of 
Verity are
Wiped clean from all our minds, a
Xenogenetic society, free from rights of birth, 
Yet undeterred from pursuing dreams of our own plastic-smiled
Zealotry.


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Beauty Within

Beauty is like a flower, It blossoms all 
time. When its ready it will bloom the 
it will be a butterfly. But no matter
how many times it blooms beauty will ne-
ver die, cause beauty grows all the time.
Is beauty the skin? No its whats within!


 


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CRACK OF DAWN

The king
made a fun of our poverty.
Marble faced girls always thought,
wearing black scarves –
sweeping the floor of white mausoleum.

You made a death
a loving eternity.
We die daily
in the face of old shine.

Who shoots a peacock
on the tree?
I mourn for the blue peace,
let the clouds come.

Who remains unhurt
unpained, when the night calls?
I seize a moon
to enter the crack of dawn.



SATISH VERMA


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empty streets.

As I walk in the ashes of what once was our love-
                                               around the blackness sits a lonesome dove,
busy city streets with no one around-
                                                only litter blowing in the wind and
falling to the ground,
memories echo from places we once sat-
                                                still shots of you in that hat,
on the other side of that building over there just around the corner-
                                                my feature lye's yet I walk away from 
love                           a foreigner.


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Missing you

I sit here trapped in this darkening place in my mind,
I keep wondering what I am trying to find,
Why is it you  that I am missing,
All the hurt and all the pain, It can never be the same,
You are gone, and I am left sad and alone,
She has your heart, and we are apart,
I find myself crying at night,
Longing for everything to be right,
Fearing that this time it truly is the end of our long  road together.
I keep wishing that you would decide she wasn’t right
And then you would come home to me late one night
Then you would see that I could be all you’d ever need.


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LUCKY

Got this puppy at my feet
so sweet
got this man in my bed
so sweet

Got this monkey on my back
so bad, so sweet

Let me tell you bout this monkey
been there a long time
so long, I'm just bout used him
might miss him
if I decided he was gone

I think I am too into MYSELF
I'm an ass
it pains me
that people are dyin
starvin
bein killed
heads chopped off
babies. oh babies....

I take it back
that stuff about the monkey
Monkey can just go screw himself
I'M LUCKY

 


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Broken

broken pieces of glass everywhere
that s what happened to my brain.
i am now lost and twisted
in this so called worlds game.
Jumping reality's 
ending up in insanity
not knowing which way to go.
When twos are arguing
when twos are there
you feel like your going nowhere.
Illusions and hallucinations
get the better of your brain.
Makes reality seem less and less
until you end up in a total mess.
You want to feel happy
like when you were a girl
now that your an adult
your spinning in an downward spiral.
At times you forget
where you are.
who you are.
what you did.
but one thing for sure
I really dont know.


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LET US TAKE ANOTHER ROAD

Let us take another road.
The boundary was not clear
between  crime and pardon
between disease and murder.

The cleft in the ravines
had hidden the rifles and landmines
when we were busy in worshipping
the rock face with folded hands
to deliver us from fear and future.

There was no ending, no beginning
of disturbing the beehive
to drink the moon in night,
hear the blues of stars
and swim in dark light.

Where was the heaven ?
Enough of nothing was not something ?
The cure of curse was not in any hands,
polity of clouds was decaying very fast
they were raining fire on the grass.



SATISH VERMA


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whore

In my room
air thick
I hear you hating me
outside my door

I't don't matter how I suck you
anymore

For what I was
you loved me before
you hate me now
for being your whore


kim



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Bryan Knight

I love you so much
from the day that we first met.
That's a memory
ill never forget.
we talked and talked 
a lot on the phone.
my thoughts of you
i was never alone.
we lived so close 
just down the street.
my love for you 
can never be beat.

you moved away 
so far from me.
i miss you so much 
as you can see.
i searched and searched 
for many years.
and when i found you
i had these fears.
i didn't know 
if you still loved me.
i didn't know
if you still cared.
i didn't know 
if you still felt the same.

in my world i'm lost.
i don't know who's to blame.
i want you back in my arms
but you say no.
i shed my many tears.
i always knew i had these fears.
we\\\'re still friends 
so things are ok,
but ill love you forever,
more and more each day.

we talk a lot now
even more than before.
my heart still aches
and its still sore.
but i still love you 
more than you'll ever know.
my feelings for you will never go.
till the day i die 
ill be hear for you.
my love for you was ever so true.

You'll be in my heart
even though were far apart.
my thoughts of our past
always makes me cry.
but to you ill never 
say good-bye.

your in my life 
but just as friends.
i think of you often
even when the day ends.
I'm so happy your hear again.
over the phone 
it'll never end.
we keep in touch
we talk ever night.
ill be here for you
even when you think i'm gone.

ill never for get you 
Bryan knight.
you were my one and only love! 

i love you now forever and always!


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good-bye

you think every thing i say is wrong well i say its right so good bye  i have nothing 
else to say to you.so long my friend  no longer the one i care about.Every time i 
fight with you only makes me love you even more but this time i love you less.now 
im wishing i have never met you.So good bye and so long i dont even wanna 
know your name.just walk away while you still can your getting way to involed in 
my life so get out now I dont know your name any more....you keep saying that 
you  love me and you get me mad every day so whats the ponit any more good 
bye your not the one i care about any more....


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ABOUT YOU

Walking to the park alone in my head
all of my thoughts are ABOUT YOU
In a cold dark room a warm smile awakens 
I love the dreams I have ABOUT YOU 
My heart is racing, its one hell of a rush
to feel the way I do ABOUT YOU 
I can see in your eyes your a force not to be tamed
that drives me wild ABOUT YOU
If not for these shackles I would scream aloud 
so everyone would know how I feel ABOUT YOU
You mean the world to me so know this now,
I would never change one thing ABOUT YOU


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What About Him?

You and I were what everyone envied.We had it all but lost it so fast.Our could 
have rebuilt the twin towers in a matter of seconds.Nothing stood in our way not 
even being separated for a year and a half. Not by choice but by your careless 
decisions you made.I loved you more than I loved myself.I would wait on you 
hand and foot.Give you all of me and then some.Your wish was my demand.You 
asked me for something that would change my life for ever and with out a 
hesitation I told you yes.I wanted it to but not nearly as much as you did.You said 
this is what you needed to make you want to live,this would make your life 
change and give you the reason to do the positive things that you knew you 
should.Now that our love is no longer.You and I have nothing to say to one 
another.What About Him? So what there is no Us but what about him? What 
about the child we made? What about his needs.Every boy deserves a daddy.No 
matter what becomes of us.I just want to know what about him? 
WHAT ABOUT RYAN?


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Thoughts of Suicide

the weeks creep by 
i find myself obsessing
about ways i can die
i cut my arms with a razor blade
get over it this is how i was made
to dull the pain inside
i don't want to be alive
which way is the best
to prove that finally test
after the fact i'm dead
no more thoughts running through my head
thanks for joining my diely game
my soul that you never can be tamed
now i'm six feet below


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Why?

          Why didn't we listen
                   to Dr.King 
        when he said he had a dream
            then maybe there wouldn't
                  of been a war,
       Soilder's haunted by little kids
                    screams
     Then maybe there wouldn't be any
          murder's,killer's.or drug dealers
   Then maybe I wouldn't of seen news castors
           or breaking news across the T.V. screen
  saying little kids were killed by their parents
                      Why?
  Do we live this way
           and do the things that we do
      why do my brother's feel as though
  they have to sell an illegal drug to get by
                    Why?
 Did Kanye West say George Bush
         don't like black people
    Is it true,
             If so what do we do
   Do we turn around and leave,
              and forget that it ever happened
   Or attack  if so who do we attack
      the Asians,Hispanics even the blacks
                  Why?
     Is the government so mean
          why are they taking the little money
      from us that we need
           Why  am I even writing
    this poem,
             is it because of Bordum
  Or I really want to know the answers
              If so, can you answer them
                              If not 
                    WHY?


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Crying Over Spilt Milk

Amongst the finest silk.
Beginning to spill is the milk.
Caressing the very fabric.
Disgracing the very cosmic.
Enjoying the destruction.
Fraying the very eruption.
Grave driven is the rage.
Harboring the scent of sage.
Indignant excuse.
Jester the abuse.
Killing the very soul.
Losing all of your control.
Milk runs and brands.
Open container saves the other strands.
Purpose unknown.
Questing the very moan.
Rendering the very cloth.
Sending the sloth.
Tending to the mess.
Usually they like to make it less.
Venders selling gothic souvenirs.
Wading to the very fears.
Xerox everything in sight
Yours to destroy and fight
Zeroing in on the very game of playing the average.


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The Good in you

The good in you
Ladioriginal

You are making it harder and harder for me to see the good in you
Or maybe I am being resistant from the truth
I don’t even want us to be together
But for some reason I want us to go farther
I think I just need so time alone
But I can’t help but answer when u call my phone
I know what you want and I continue to provide
Knowing when it’s all over you will continue to lie

You are making it harder and harder for me to see the good in you
Or maybe I am being resistant from the truth
Maybe if I speak the truth to you
You will understand my point of view
When you leave me I am left with shame
I sit in the corner of my bed praying that you will change
I sit alone mediating on the mistake that was made
All the action that shouldn’t have token place

You are making it harder and harder for me to see the good in you
Or maybe I am being resistant from the truth
Now that I have spoken truth to you
Do you understand why I struggle to resist you?
I am starting to think is there even good in you
Maybe you are giving me the pain that you went through
Maybe we both need time alone
Neither one of us call each other on the phone

You are just making it harder and harder for me to see the good in you
If it’s even there


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Caramel Water

A young girl
Blossom From the Concrete
A rose
Her Pretty Curls
Fallen from the streets
I suppose
Taken by a loved stranger
Her most prized possession
Her family doesn't since danger
She hides his confession
Should she forgive him even though he deceived her
Or should she tell the the secret and have nobody believe her
She decides to silence herself but til this day it haunts her
She thought moving would help but in her dreams  he taunts her
Maybe it was a good thing that she kept his darkest secret
But she has a goal and she's not afraid to reach it


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the sends of doom

the sends of doom incorporate a lot of butterfly does anyone read books any 
more yea know some people dolt get each other........... what is fighting really i 
have to smoke and have a good time because i dong know anything about 
fighting its all about the strength i have heard and i just font know anything else 
about it do you wear costumes or in regular clothing do teeth fall out who knows 
this stuff well so lion for know


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some people have to much time on ther hands

When I was one I ate a bun going over the sea.
When I was two I tied my shoe going over the sea.
Then, I think I was thirty one then my butt grew,
I wasn't allowed over the sea, so I backed it up,
got caught up, then I was going over the sea.
My momma told me not to because I was going to
 get eat by that damn shark at sea.