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Details | Free verse | |

Dying Love

Those deep caramelized eyes hidden behind continuous cries Days, weeks, months sitting at his side holding his hand the one who held your heart the one who made you his bride Lost, deeply entranced in memories Nights laying by the fire Captivated by desire Those walks barefoot in the sand Oh those days were grand The soft slow kisses The day you became his Mrs. Making dreams come true All the I love you's I remember Forty years ago when we met sharing an umbrella so I wouldn't get wet You made me laugh and giggle .... at your jokes I brushed your hand and hair with little strokes remember When we got to my flat didn't want to go in You grabbed my hand and pulled me in That kiss was so sweet One we would forever repeat Where has the time gone It seems like only yesterday when we had our first date You were not like anyone I had ever met Such a gentleman, you were great All those late night talks cuddled on the couch That little twinkle in your eye You'll always be my guy I miss those times We'd sit on the porch drinking our tea I'd look at you you'd look at me We'd stare up at the night sky Wishing upon falling stars Picking one out making it ours I still hear our song I still wear your favorite scent I still long for your touch where has all the time went I know our time won't be long I must remain strong those tired baby blues wearily open gently squeezing my hand tears roll down you gaze lovingly at me Another place, another time again it will be we .................. fade to black


Details | Rhyme | |

Goodbye, My Child

Where cradled canyons sing
Of ebony wood in the forest
There lies a gurgling spring
Where cockcrows sing their chorus
To the melody of singsong birds
There I’ve concealed my sensuous words
Filled with befitted signs
The saccharine whiff of my designs

Come to me my mortal youth
To the wild realm of your truth
Where nymphs and gnomes abound
For the earth is filled with weeping
And only your tears be found

Where the fogs of night are fountains
Spills of glistened moon ignite
By distant silhouette mountains
We dance with passion of fight
Entwining ancient stance 
Mingling hand in hand we dance
Till the mountains smile on high
Near and far we spring
To pursue the realest of dreams
While the world cries at its seams
Anxious in trouble to cling

Come to me my mortal youth
To the wild realm of your truth
Where nymphs and gnomes abound
For the earth is filled with weeping
And only your tears be found

To where the ridges merry make 
From the beaks of wooden bright
In sparkly pools the ghouls awake
That scarce to stir our night
We watch for seekers down under
Muttering secrets in their soul
We bid them lucks of shivers
Dipping gently in
From reeds that hide a tear of a foal
Under the gentle rivers

Come to me my mortal youth
To the wild realm of your truth
Where nymphs and gnomes abound
For the earth is filled with weeping
And only your tears be found

Far away she shall ever churn
The taciturn eyed
She’ll listen no more to turn
To the working mills beside
Or the scrubbing of the barn
May peace weave in her song
She shall wave in the yarn
To a haven known as Belong  

Come to me my mortal youth
To the wild realm of your truth
Where nymphs and gnomes abound
For the earth is filled with weeping
And only your tears be found

For she comes, the mortal youth
To the wild realm of her truth
Where nymphs and gnomes abound
For the earth is filled with weeping
And only her tears be found


Details | Rhyme | |

Adieu

Adieu, Adieu my love and friend At the sea we two must part Your love will burn until the end In the beating of my heart. Shed not a tear in silence Not a tremble to your breath As your tears are flowing I die a mournful death. Under moon's soft silver blush And in the creeping of the dew In sober breeze, in nightly hush Let us bade one last Adieu. When morn had burst the harbors With a burning sigh we knew A final whisper, the final words: Adieu! Adieu! Adieu!
(Goodbyes are not forever. Goodbyes are not the end. They simply mean I'll miss you Until we meet again!)


Details | Lyric | |

Life's Love Story

Written for the contest
MORE SONG LYRICS

Have you ever seen, the sun setting down
Upon this red roofed town
And hear the sound of love begin
I have never found a more perfect place
Than, when I see your face
I simply fall in love again

Don't ask me which way the wind will blow
Or the tide will flow
Or even where, our love will go
I just know there could never be a place 
Where I can’t feel your warm embrace
With those lips I love to taste

Have you seen the mountains rising from the sea
That’s where I want to be 
With you eternally, in grace
We hear our tune, carried along the wind
Strummed on life’s violin
As a tear rolls down your face

Don’t ask me why the good times seem to fly
Or why some passion dies,
Or how lovers, can say Goodbye
All I know is when I leave this tropic heat
I am filled with the Latin beat
Until the next time on this street,  we meet



Details | Rhyme | |

Holding To The Heavy Heart

Bones hold the weight of a thousand lies,
Heart is heavily burdened by goodbyes.
When I said it was better this way, I lied.
Like a withered rose, petals crumbled and died.

Passion called the sunrise to set its star,
Unwelcomingly wasted as regrets usually are.
I cannot forgive my foolish heart for falling,
The future is empty, the fate of fortune is calling.

Doors shut and lock with every turn of the key,
On the other side of the handle you wait for me.
Seeing through stained glass, vision distorted.
Afflicted by this affair, this feeling must be aborted.

Twisted roots keep my feet from fleeing,
I close my eyes and it is your face I am seeing.
Trapped in the spinning lies of my loves desire,
Burned to all but ashes, I still feel a roaring fire.

Do I chance my flesh to embrace you once more?
I could not bring my hands from the handle of the door
Just once again, don’t close your eyes when you kiss me,
If I regret this in the morning, I want to hold your memory.

12-12-2014


Details | Sestina | |

Life Lesson

                                   
I love being young, getting to ride the roller coasters.
The sound, tick, tick, tick, tick-like a heartbeat racing to the top.
Then, surprised even when you know it’s coming, dropped into the abyss.
Something always pulls it down, like gravity.
It’s frustrating, riding something so close to being dead.
So far away but still so close, seating rows.

I hate being so close to, yet so far from the row.
She was in with me on this roller coaster.
Adrenaline rushed my body so fast almost leaving me dead.
The blood flowed so fast emphasizing the highs of the top.
But something keeps pulling me down, gravity.
Here I am again, back in the abyss.

In the ride, weeks of no communication, the beginning of the end, the abyss.
The scariest. My worst fear of my youth. Looking back at the rows,
I see her, with my own image, my heart sinks more. I hate you gravity.
But it’s the only thing that fuels the roller coaster.
Nothing makes me happier than bringing it back to the top.
Let’s hope this isn’t so abrupt, so fast, like the last one, leaving me dead.

How I hope so much, so much hope still not dead.
The heart, the love, the eternal abyss.
Strikes me back with enough momentum to reach the top.
Lines, love, flashing like an old film, with rows.
Showing me a movie, reminding me of, a roller coaster.
The movie explained that the only thing that keeps it going is gravity.

Thank you gravity.
My worries are gone and dead.
Just accept it, and love the roller coaster.
Appreciate the loneliness of the abyss.
The reason you’re here is for the ride, not the rows.
I just want to enjoy the youth and its happy tops.

This coaster, like love has its tops.
But something brings it down like gravity.
Distanced with rows,
Never seeing her again, thinking she’s dead.
But deeper and deeper coming out of the abyss.
The complicated life of the young, the love of roller coasters.

Get on the roller coaster, rise to the top.
Don't worry about the drop to the abyss, It’s because of gravity
That you’re not dead, and I don't care about the rows.


Details | Marsiya | |

I'm my Daddy Made Over

Dedicated to my Dad Jerry W. Niday 3/20/1952 - 6/18/2013


I am who I am because of him
He’s the reason for my son’s name
He gave me my courage & my strength
To stand tall even when standing wasn’t easy
Stand for the ones who can’t
To think and fend for myself
I’m my Daddy made over

Taught me to fight back 
To never back down
How to pick myself back up
When I’ve been knocked down
Fight for what I believe
I’m my Daddy made over

He gave me my stubbornness 
Gave me my pride
Gave me my temper
Taught me not to take crap
To speak my mind no matter who
Work for what I want
I’m my Daddy made over

How to keep my emotions in check
How to handle large amounts of pain
When in trouble he always had my back
He knew how my mind worked better than anyone
I got it from him
I’m my Daddy made over

Even though he’s gone
I’ll stand and continue on 
I may stumble I may fall 
May even get hurt along the way
But I’ll pick myself back up
I’ll dust myself off and stand tall
I’m honored and proud to say
I’m my Daddy made over


Sabrina Niday Hansel



Details | Free verse | |

Dedicated to the one I didn't write this for

And I love you
Like a dog’s first date
With a fire hydrant

No, that’s not right.

I worship you
As if you were a wine collection owned by Jesus
Minus the prerequisites

Better.

Wait, it’s you again, my yesterday.
Why are your eyes seducing my stanzas?

You linger in my mist
Equivalent to a bipolar lighthouse

Blinking rapidly for hope to notice your sadness
While your light bulb remains cracked

Go away!

Ok, back to it.

No longer do I need careless whispers.

I just want to hold your hand
Swinging life away from skeletons’ demeanor

Be my sun, as I rise
I’ll be your sun, as we set

Damn it, I smell your unwashed lyric again!

Why do your illiterate, colored eyes remain atop my mountain?!

I tossed your heart off my peak
That humidified night in June
When God’s tornado told me to stay away from your fallacy!

You’ve become a rejected stranger, stranger.

Sigh, ok, one last try.

You want me to be your diamond
On platinum band

But, I just want to be an “I miss you”, tomorrow.
I can ask no more than this. 

To be a chorus in your daily songs,
I request

ENOUGH!!!

You continue glazing my thoughts
Hang gliding your way through my handsome vernacular

You were an exclamation point
Turned into closure’s period

Now, my fortitude shall delete your dialect
With whimsical laughter compiled
From shattered dreams of old

…

An illuminated solstice
Waving goodbye 
To onyx, cotton puffs in my Ionosphere

Please
Return
Nevermore

My Angel, I’m sorry I drifted against my sea of distant memories.

Love does not frighten me.
But, it tries.

I can only be certain of today.

I will sacrifice my pride
To become a pauper in your royal presence
If it means our eyes can become a correlated breath

I implore,
Be my tomorrow
These stanzas were only ever gifted for you

Be my tomorrow
For I’ve dishonorably discharged my yesterdays

©Drake J. Eszes


Details | Elegy | |

I Need Your Help Daddy

I’m tired
I’m Physically and Emotionally tired
I don’t want to be the strong one anymore
I can’t this time
I don’t know what to do Daddy
I need your help down here

I can’t get back in control of my emotions 
I’m having a hard time dealing with your absence
I’m having a hard time standing by myself
I need your help Daddy

I’m broken and lost without you Daddy
I need your will to want to carry on
I need your strength to over come this
I need your strength to stay standing
Your courage to fight back again
I need your help 

Please Daddy I’m at a loss
How am I suppose to do this
I need your guidance 
I need you to guide me back
To whom I was before
I need your help Daddy
I need your help







Details | Sonnet | |

Last Sigh of Goodbye

"Last Sigh of Goodbye" charming candlelight lost radiant glaze emotions vanished into twilight dust broken pieces of heart swallowed in maze as passionate masquerade died in lust. fleeting embers of deceit bid adieu' one last sigh of goodbye stole life's faint breath a love letter spoke words of love untrue in painful fond farewell eyes closed in death. beyond dark grave lies loneliness and tears 'tis better to have loved and lost in life yet ultimate betrayal spirit sears impaling soul with wounds deep thrust of knife. painted finale' carved in canvas cries caressing love in bouquets of goodbyes. *For Harry Horsman's Goodbye Contest. *Nov. 15, 2012.


Details | Free verse | |

Moments In Time

The sweetest sounds of burning trees
A gentle stroking in the breeze
The calm has lasted past the storm
Cloudy visions, Satan’s roar
Too many sights have passed my way
A time found only in the haze
The softest screams are running bare
My aching bones creak as I stare

You walk a distance towards me
The fall’s eternal, can’t you see?
I’m a memory in your heart
I whisper to you in the dark

The battle’s started at the end
No one is coming to repent
The sinners grab their wine from prey
No judgment calling here to stay
The sport is reckless to be told
The one is laughing at his souls
It falters nowhere to be sure
The power grows forevermore
Like a spirit in the wind
I have no say in where you’ve been 
But cross the line to come to me
And pay the price for ecstasy

You walk a distance towards me
The fall’s eternal, can’t you see?
I’m a memory in your heart
I whisper to you in the dark. 


Details | Pantoum | |

Among The Stars

I see your sparkling eyes among the stars
Your voice calls out to me upon the breeze
Although it seems that it has been many years
I can remember like it was yesterday

Your voice calls out to me upon the breeze
A melody that somehow pricks my heart
I can remember it like it was yesterday
All those moments will not be lost in time

A melody that somehow pricks my heart
You were my joy I held you to my breast
All those moments will not be lost in time
Now you reside in the place where angels sing

You were a joy I held you to my breast
I watched you grow from a boy to a man
Now you reside in the place where angels sing
This world could not hold one as special as you

I watched you grow from a boy to a man
Although it seems it has been many years
This world could not hold one as special as you
I see your sparkling eyes among the stars



I have a friend who recently lost her son and I am
writing this poem from a female perspective.


Details | I do not know? | |

I've Scribbled This Song For You



I've Scribbled This Song For You...


I'm wasting my days,
my empty nights too,

I should have held on,
but I simply lost you,

now I stagger along,

wearing broken smiles,
in between hell and you,
there's a million miles,

yes, I should have kept,
you close to my skin,

soaking your warmth,
but you were laughing,

at my foolish grin...


now I'm all broken,
and torn apart,

but what the hell,
I was always late,
for the tolling of the bell,

and now...

now I stagger along,

wearing broken smiles,
in between hell and you,
there's a million miles,

so kiss me now like you once did,
I'm tired of being so carefully hid,


la laa laa la laa laa laa...


(repeat to fade)


:-)


Details | Free verse | |

Without You

Another emerald leaf
Tumbles

Her desolation
Eve of sinful revelation

Whisper’s entrails
Swaying flat on asphalt conundrums

Her dismissive solidarity
Holding of hands
Eyes, opposite

Kisses
Like desert nights under hollow rain

Drizzled animosity,
Tomorrow she’ll tell me she loves me
Without calling me, “baby”

Lover’s pacifier, unwashed

Winds of remembrance
Shut away in Pandora’s tossed box

For I, kneel
Towards angelic genesis
With diamond clarity

Embrace of cupid’s incipience

Where
I 
R    e      m       o       v           e
You

My voice ascends
Into constellation octaves

Now
Without
You

©Drake J. Eszes


Details | Rhyme | |

-----night train------ -reverse poem-

Adrift is smoke, that rises into the shape of a question mark...
Blurring the vacant night, with a ceremonial arc

Tomorrow, under a different sky, in a brand new way
I will wake up to a different sun, and to a wistful song of yesterday

'Though, I cannot find a star, through the drowning dredge of rain
Tonight the moon, left behind, wears a bitter frown of blame

Like a crying mother calling, with a voice of great devotion
A whistle's wailing sadness, resounds my own emotions

With tear-stained eyes, I witness the reflection
In view from where my heart once lived, a dismal day's rejection

I feel the rumble of the wheels, and a tumble of my heart
With a tremble, as the landscape is swallowed by the dark

The snake-like chain bends eastward into constellation courage
With strange misshapen shadows, streaking illuminated passage

Raindrops mimic my own heart, upon the window glass
Spilling over imprints of all the futile questions asked

I find my throat is swollen, and my will too worn to speak
Beside me, rudely flaunting, is a taunting, empty seat

Like a sickle for harvesting a lonely star…
Smoke sketches the sky with the shape of a question mark...




____________________________________________________________
Submitted for Craig Cornish's Contest
8/13/13


Details | Dramatic Verse (Verse Drama) | |

My Sweet Past Tone

Once you filled the room which hollow for a moment
Couples of days before new year eve we indirectly met
Hilarious to remember how we know and admire each other that day
Without knowing it won't last forever

One song... One song keep chanting me back to the memory of you
The song of blue sky collapse
Year goes by, first, second and more
Each of my story buried you without trace

Until today you seek me through the mailbox
Simple words as "happy birthday" and more words as "still think about you"
Surprised, touched, even mine still one more day to go
You missed the day, but you caught my yearn

Thousands words would I type to reply
But the fact my hands stoned
I missed you even more, sealed beyond these words
But don't know how to say nor expressed it through the blank page

Once you filled this hollow room
Once I ever loved you
But I found my better way... better life...
And decide not to look back

January 7, 2013
Dedicated to the person who ever dwell within the past of my sweet memory...

Author's Note:
If you want this poem to be perfect to be read, I suggest you to open this link; https://soundcloud.com/adhitiasofyan/blue-sky-collapse 
"Blue Sky Collapse - Adhitia Sofyan" and hear it along while you read this poem, this is my favorite song and I drown already :)


Details | Pantoum | |

His Warmth

I thank you always sun and moon, but is his warmth that makes me move
My hands stay lingered in his palm, and trace the lines to write a song
His eyes they whisper: you still do know, of how my love will always grow
And with four lips they form hello, for goodbye they'll never know
My hands stay lingered in his palm, and trace the lines to write a song;
For each line has read, " hold on " that's why fingers clench so strong
And with four lips they form hello, for goodbye they'll never know
I love you more than can be known, and hopefully we'll find that's shown
For each line has read," hold on " that's why fingers clench so strong
His eyes they whisper: you still do know, of how my love will always grow
I love you more than can be known, and hopefully we'll find that's shown
I thank you always sun and moon, but it's his warmth that makes me move...


Details | I do not know? | |

Hello and Goodbye

Hello friend, it's been awhile
since I've drowned in the beauty 
of your smile
your eyes
your laughing mystery. 

Hello friend, I've missed you
thought of you many times
things you said run through my mind
I dial your number and hang up
too scared to confront what you represent.

Hello friend, I've missed you
I know I've said it before
you meant so much to me,
still do
you'll never know the love I have for you
it just won't go away. 

Hello friend, I just want you to know,
when we ran into each other 
six weeks ago
my heart fell all over again.
You smiled at me, and said hello,
I knew it was all over then.

Friend, as much as it hurts me to say goodbye
I have to let you go.
As much as I still love you,
I know we'll never be.
Who would've thought three years ago, you'd mean 
so much to me. 

But goodbye friend, I think this is the end
to what we had.
It meant so much more to me than it did to you
the thought makes me sad.
Hello and goodbye friend,
I've missed you.


Details | Rhyme | |

Cheap Trick Turnabout

I want you to want me
                    .....you only want me when you get to decide

I need you to need me
                    .....you are independent and don't need anyone by your side

I love you to love me
                    .....you love me one day and not the next

I'm begging you to beg me
                    .....the concept of begging leaves you perplexed

              
                     **************************


You now want me
                   ..... I found someone new who wants to be with me all the time

You now need me
                   .....my needs are now fully met, I'm now blissfully sublime

You now love me
                   .....I found someone that loves me truly every day

You now beg me
                    .....a little too late is all I have to sadly say


Details | Couplet | |

The Wind

You are like the wind

Gently guiding me by while barefoot on a beach
No matter how far, I’m always within its reach

Pushing me through rough seas like a sail
With you mountains are nothing to scale

Like the wind comes great change
And all begins to rearrange

You force the snow to sting my face
Foot prints in the sand you erase

You slow me down
Mountains still all around

I wait for your storm to pass
With each half full glass

But behind every storm
Lies a sunrise to keep me warm

In that light I shall lay
Because long I have waited for this day


Details | Rhyme | |

No Proper Goodbye

 There was no closure of a proper goodbye. 
 I tried, but... 
 no reply. 

 Your body became limp and cold as 
 a corpse. 
 We froze alone 
 in different time warps. 

 My ambiguous stutters 
 wouldn't disappear. 
 They pinched as they burrowed 
 like earwigs in each ear. 

 My mouth opened slowly 
 to suck the words back in. 
 Then the dead revived 
 and embraced my skin. 

 My heart bloomed profusely 
 like first love's lilac. 
 With lips on lips 
 you took my words back. 



Details | Lyric | |

How Do You Say Goodbye

How do you say goodbye to someone you've loved
With whom you have shared your life
Is a goodbye enough or "I'll see you around"
After walking together through strife?

How do you say goodbye to a person who held
Such a great big space in your heart
Do you offer a hug, or a goodbye kiss
Or a wave of the arm as you part?

Who knew when you met and proceeded to walk
Down that road filled with places and things
That you'd find such a friend with the same cares as you
A relation unending it seemed

How do you say goodbye to that loved one or friend 
Do you pretend that all is okay
Would you hold back the words and let silence prevail
Even though you have things left to say?

Did you have the chance to say your goodbye 
To someone you thought was so true
Were you sad when you realized that you had to part
Or did it not bother you?

Was the goodbye you had a sudden thing
That came at you out of the blue?
Or was it a slow one - built up over time
Not hurting as much, cause you knew

What is it you do if their taken from you
You're unable to say your goodbye
You can hope in your heart that they knew how you felt
But now - only tears left to cry

Did you watch as the love started slipping away
Wondering how could this possibly be
After all the good times - all the trials we went through
Was I really unable to see?

One thing is for sure, new days come - old days go
And love will be lost and found
It's important to know that you gave it your best
No matter what life brings around

Now it's time to let go and move on with your life
After all - tomorrows do come
How you face it today is the healing for you
Goodbye is the right thing for some 


Details | Lyric | |

Only Because I Love You

Every night, before I close my eyes,
I have this aching in my ear.
Something else bothers me tonight,
Your title of wife is drawing near.

That's what your mother is or was,
And she still has a crush on me.
Just be sure you don't rush,
Know that you love him honestly.

I want you to know I loved you,
Though we didn't do right sometimes.
I could not stop thinking of you,
I think the choice you've made is right.

I could hate it again and again,
Yet out of love I'd let you go.
I believe that's the right decision,
Now I kiss goodbye with this poem.


Details | Rhyme | |

Chaff vs Wheat - Relief

a saraband

Your tirade comes, it doth commence,
a hundred miles away I sense
your raging, whiny voice so tense.
In restful tones, my evening sigh
doth thank these stars, you’re in L.A.
I shirk my duties ever nigh
and thoughts engage where'er they may.

As I recline, dark quickly falls
and in my dreams, I snub your calls.
Yet when I wake, receding walls
resound your dire return to home.
I sense both hearts long to be free.
Go claim L.A., just let me roam
these miles that winnow thee from me.



Details | Rhyme | |

I love you but

I love you but I need to let you go
You are poison to my heart and death to me soul
You fill me with promises of happy ever afters
In reality they're words of ever ending disasters
You say you love me and I'm your soul-mate
You told me when we met it was nothing but fate
You've proven yourself to be nothing more than a liar
My love for you is no longer a burning desire
I love you but I need to let you go
I feel all alone like a one man show
I've degraded myself putting up with your lies
How can I be in love when it's you I despise
You've stolen so much, mainly my heart
It's hard to walk away, it's hard to depart
I love you but I need to let you go
Our time has come to an end I want you to know
You've hurt me so many times and put me through hell
You keep saying you love me, but I can't tell
I've cried my last tear for you tonight
There's nothing you cam say that will ever make it right
Though I am broken and my heart may heal slow
I love you, but I need to let you go..


Details | Free verse | |

Witness and Behold the End

White Lilies,
Scattered on the ground,
Out of their element.
Witness,
Purity,
Deprived of its origin.
Behold,
Clarity no longer visible.
 
White Roses,
In the purest snow,
Frozen to the core.
Witness,
Loveliness,
Stripped away so rash.
Behold,
Beauty destroyed.

White flowers,
All around,
Trampled into dust.
Witness,
Wildness,
Stolen without knowledge.
Behold,
Endless death fighting to prevail.


Details | Rhyme | |

Elixir of My Soul

Did you know I loved you before we met?
Drowning within your beautiful eyes,
Do you now feel the painful regret?

Did you vow to love me, and just only me?
Draped within a veil of pure bliss,
Diving below the depths of impurity.

Did you softly whisper, that I was the one?
Drinking the elixir of my innocence,
Downing till there was all but none.

Did you believe we would be here forever?
Distance keeping us miles apart,
Doubting we see each other ever.

Did you think of me lately, and miss me?
Dreaming of the two of us together,
Doused with love in an emotional sea.

Did you always wish misery, forever?
Darkness as your guardian in life,
Dragging us to hell, on this evil endeavor.

Did you wish I meant more, and ask why?
Dusting yourself entirely free of us,
Desolation forever, as you wave goodbye.

For the last time……….


Details | Rhyme | |

The Wretched Prince

"The Wretched Prince"

You were my hope
And all my dreams,
But all of that has changed,
It seems

Because I treated 
You so bad,
Destroying everything
We had

And if I could
Just turn back time,
I'd claim you and,
I'd make you mine

I'd treat you
Like a Princess fair,
Hold you close,
And stroke your hair

A precious jewel
You would be,
Honored, Treasured,
Loved by me

I'd be your Prince,
Your Hero true,
And nothing
Would I keep from you

But this is not 
A Fairy Tale,
I missed the mark,
I lost the trail

Your "Prince" was just
A wretch, it seems,
Quite capable
Of killing dreams

A Hero?
No, I failed that too,
You got much less
Than you were due
I rack my brain,
I beat my breast,
Realizing that I failed the test

And I know this,
You played no part,
In the reckless murder
Of your heart

We had it all,
We were "that pair"
I ruined that,
It wasn't fair

I promised not 
To play that game,
But in the end,
I hold the blame

You were "the one"
I always said,
Then cruelly left
Our love for dead

Your faith in me
Was rare and just,
I finally ground 
It into dust

I crushed your faith,
And acted small,
And caused a bitter rain
To fall

I hurt you love,
And I regret,
The pain I caused,
You can't forget

And if I could 
Reset the clock,
Erase the pain,
The hurt, the shock



I'd do it now
I swear it's true,
Undo the harm
I did to you

But time moves forward
I am told,
It leaves me sad,
And feeling old

With words too little,
And too late,
I took your love,
And left you hate

These words I offer 
Unto you,
With hope you can 
Believe they're true

You were so strong,
Yet fragile too,
I tore a precious thing
From you

I pray that God
Will soon repair,
The heart
I was so quick to tear

I thank you for
The strength you shared,
The love you gave,
And how you cared

Your courage helped me
To go on,
When all of mine
Was dead and gone

All I left you
Was pain and strife,
And I'll regret that
All my life


Please know your tears
Don't fall alone,
I miss the place 
We once called home

This wretched "prince"
Will hobble on,
No longer part, 
Of your sweet song

A Princess,
I can never claim,
But I will not 
Forget your name,

My honor, blanketed by shame,
But I will not forget your name.


Details | Free verse | |

Delusion

Dreams they're all around me,

it's hard to tell  real life.

Monsters like in fairly tales,

my emotion turns to strife. 

The sun starts getting closer,

my skin it starts to burn. 

I look for somewhere to run

but don't know where to turn. 

 

He makes his way towards me majestic also wise,

it was hard for me to distinguish between what's loving and what's lies.

My heart it starts to flutter,

My body starts to fall-

I try to scream out for help 

but I don't know who to call.

 

Thus the journey's over,

now I'm on the ground.

Tears fall from my eyes-

my heart nowhere to be found.


Details | Free verse | |

Romance was not our Muse

Romance was not our muse, he types
Not writes his farewells before each morning -
A simple 'Till tomorrow' left by cooling sheets.

We started as lovers, before we were friends
Speaking in touches instead of thoughts
Every night he clouded our secrecy
With cigarette smoke, an ashtray beneath my bed, 
A counter of the days we were spent.

But a playful joke turned bittersweet, I slipped
My favourite glinting stud, a gift
In his pocket lining, finding instead a reminder
Of sin and silent lives, a ticket 
To home and back to reality.

In dawn’s light and an empty bed, I wrapped 
Bruised red lips around his fading cig, enjoying
The lingering taste of him and his ashy breath.

Romance was not our muse, I type
Not write my farewells before the morning -
A simple 'Good-bye' left by cooling sheets.


Details | Classicism | |

Mistakes

Oh what a mistake I have made,
Traveled so far to end up this way.
  Not in a million years would I have guessed,
That this idea was truly not one of my best.
  Never had  known things had changed so much,
We for sure had fallen so far out of touch.
  So many different do's , don't , and bewares,
Actually has left me absolutely  scared.
  What a fool I was to ever believe,
That she would ever be in love with me.
  At my age you would think I know better,
You can trust this will be remembered forever.
  Oh what a terrible mistake I have made,
Wanting all these memories to just fade away.
Tac


Details | I do not know? | |

Hugs

Teenage Girls clad in the latest fashions,
Do it whenever they meet,
Grown men aren't afraid to show some passion,
When their team's comeback is complete,
They can say hello, they can say goodbye,
And anything inbetween,
If you open your arms and crack a smile,
There is nothing that a hug cannot mean.


Details | Epic | |

We Lost More Than a Dad

We lost more than just a Dad that day
We lost half of how we came to be
We lost we four girls first love
We lost our Best Friend

We lost more than just a Dad that day
Our Mom lost her Soul Mate, Her other half 
Our children lost their Papaw
We lost our family’s foundation 
We lost the glue that held us together

We lost more than just a Dad that day
We lost the Strongest man we ever knew 
We lost the man we looked up too
We lost we four girls Teacher of many things

We lost more than just a Dad that day
We four girls lost our Hero
We lost some of our Light
We lost part of our Heart
We lost part of our Soul

We lost more than just a Dad that day
We lost some of our Courage
We lost some of our Strength
We lost some of our will to fight back
We lost some of our will to carry on
We four girls lost more than a Dad
We lost more than just a Dad that day


Details | Dramatic Verse (Verse Drama) | |

SO blind

   All this time I have always had my doubts,
Not the person led to believe is what I found out.
   To be deceived and lied to for oh so long,
Down deep I knew there was something wrong.
   Head over heels I had fallen in love ,
Always thought you were sent from above.
   How the knife is twisted into my side ,
So much pain I can do nothing but cry.
   These memories of what I thought was real,
I'm confused and I don't how how to feel.
    Is this really possible that I did not know,
Through all this time it never showed.
    Such an evil thing to do to a man ,
Especially the lies which he could not stand.
    How cruel and cold your heart must be ,
To carry on as you did never letting me see.
     Hard to accept all those moments  so dear ,
Realizing they are now my greatest fears .
     What was to be Joy and Happiness,
Replaced by the feelings of a loneliness.
   Never did I imagine this happening to me ,
Thinking that you and I were meant to be .
   It's a very hard thing for a man to accept ,
When he finds out that he's been tricked.
    Was it the money or the control you had ,
Maybe because you are really just that bad.
    Some day soon for this you will have to pay ,
For the sins against me and your evil ways.
    Goodbye to you  who ever you are ,
For in this heart you have left brutally scarred.
Tac.


Details | Dramatic Verse (Verse Drama) | |

Out Of My Mind

    Oh so well I know these feelings of despair ,
Theres something wrong and we shoud beware.
    Things are a changing  and folks just aren't the same ,
How quick they are to deny and to point the blame .
    Not a strong foundation built from deceit and lies ,
Sad a love is wasted as the tears well up in my eyes.
     My heart and soul have been broken and its taken its toll,
Will I ever recover from this is something I just do not know.
     Missing you and missing all the things you use to do ,
Theres something wrong with me being without you .
     Im out of my mind  going insane now it's all changed ,
Night after night its torement always the same .
     I feel the pain day after day its just this way ,
The emptiness and lonliness has come filled my days.
     Can't start over again or back to where I've been,
All I can do is go forward put my heart on the mend.
Tac


Details | Rhyme | |

Let Him Go

This poem I wrote. I call it " Let Him Go "

Sweetheart don't cry
Don't let him make you feel like your nothing
You do have family even though we are not close by
I know your heart is crushing
Don't harp on the past
Don't let him play with your head
You need to get over him fast
His feelings for you are dead
Over 2 years and you still don't have a ring
Your not the one he calls his wifey to be no more
Take a seat and listen up girl here is the thing
He's playing with your feelings and using you like a two dollar whore
I know you were smart once and can be again
He has you so brain washed it's not funny
I know hearing all this is a strain
Think of the example your setting for you little ones honey
Hold your head high and walk away from that loser mama's boy 
Show him that your the one that is too good for his sorry ass
Hell he's such a mama's boy you can find better pleasure in a toy
Your related to me so come on show your sass 
Let go of the past and look to a new future
Let go of the pain and the control freak
Say bye bye Looser
It will get easier one step at a time week by week......


Details | Munaajaat | |

Tell Me

I'm lost hurt and angry
Why did you take his life
I want, No I need to know
Tell me, Tell me why
I deserve to know

Haven't you done enough to him
What'd he ever do to you
He suffered his whole life
Suffered more than anyone deserved
Tell me, Tell me why you did it
I have a right to know

Why'd you let him born to them
Born to worthless parents
Parents who didn't care
They threw him away like garbage
Pawned him off on someone else
Tell me, Tell me why
Explain how you could do that

You gave him Polio
You let others treat him like disease
You took away the full use of his legs
You warped his hand and foot
Tell me, Explain to me why
I deserve to know

You let others think he was crazy
You let it go on for over year
You didn't stop it, Why
Tell me, Give me your reason
Answer me, Help me to understand

You go and make matters worse
You gave him Cancer
You didn't give him a chance to fight back
You just jerked him away from us
Tell me, Tell me how
How you could be so cruel

How can others not question you
When others do it, It's murder
But when it's by your hand
It's your will, Their fate
Tell me, What makes you so different
Your no better than the demons knocking at the door

You heard me beg and plead
You know I'm not afraid to die
I was willing to carry it all for him
I was willing to take my Daddy's place
You didn't even let me say Goodbye
Tell me, Tell me why I couldn't take his place
Answer me, you owe me that much



Sabrina Niday Hansel
~Niday40873~

(motif) Spiritual


Details | Lyric | |

Don't Cry

Please don't cry over my casket 
For I am not there 
Please don't cry at my grave 
My soul has been set free 
I know it's hard not to cry 
I've been down that road one to many times 

I have no more pain 
I have no more sickness 
And I would not change a thing 
As I walk threw the gates of Heaven 
Mom Dad our brothers and sisters 
Will welcome me with open arms 
Here I am free of that pain 

Don't blame yourself 
It was my time to go home 
This is where I'm supposed to be 
Don't dwell on things which you can not change 
I will always be in your heart 

I will always be watching over you 
When that day comes for you to come home
I will be there to welcome you 
With open arms
And walk you threw the gates of Heaven 
You will be greeted by our family & friends
Who came home before you 
Until that day I will be watching over you


Details | Ode | |

Love is a Sacrifice

You have my soul, but you have your fate Whatever your words, I’m willing to take You have my word; I’ll give you my breath It’s like a chain that would never be break You are my love with all my heart, I’ll fight for you with all my might. And in the way, you admire your goals, You hold my hands, but not so close. As you go to your chosen path, I’ll accept the fact that we will be apart. In the dark side, I leave behind Within my faith, that you’ll arise Please don’t look back, coz I’m fighting still I’m hurting so much! Don’t want to have you near I accept my fate for what it does, I’m bleeding so much, do you know for whom it was? You reach your goals, as you want to have, Would you remind the man that gave what he had? As you reach the stars, and be the one Be a sun that shines its own. After the rain, the rainbow comes, Like dark in the moon, when the light flash A glimpse from you at least a short For then I knew my pain is worth.


Details | Rhyme | |

Dear Michelle

You almost had me,
I wanted you,
The way you stuck to me like super glue,
I was feeling you,
But I knew,
I could never have you,
But, the way you looked at me,
The way my body pleads,
We can never be,
Because I’m too old,
And your only thirteen.


Details | Epitaph | |

Grandfather

Here lies the best Grandfather,
One who was very considerate.
Remembering him as a child,
I would sit on his lap.
He was a rare person indeed.
He was a colonel in the Army.
Also superlative of a gentelman.
Here lies the best grandfather,
May he rest in peace.


Details | Epitaph | |

Know I'm Always There

I didn’t choose to leave you 
For here I don’t belong
But Heaven is my home now
So please my love be strong

I know you cannot hear me
So I'm sending you this prayer
I need for you close your eyes
And feel that I'm still there

When no one’s there to hold you up
You don’t know what to do
When your legs will walk no more
I will carry you

When you stumble down and fall 
Take my hand and rise
For when you cannot find your way
I will be your eyes

Know that when you’re crying
I will wipe away your tears
When dreams are there to haunt you
I will fight away your fears

When loneliness surrounds you
And covers you with fear
Know I’m standing by your side
Know I'm always here

When you feel you can’t go on
When pain is just too real
Know I’ll never leave
Until your scars begin to heal

When dark descends upon you
And sleep no longer comes
I will lie beside you
Till you see the rising sun

I know you’ll keep me in your heart
Even though I'm gone
For time cannot erase our love
In you, it will live on...


Details | Blank verse | |

he is leaving home

                            
                  In great respect of the band I grew up listening to
                       as sure as Mom passed down Saturday Chores 
                      for I had been chosen to scrub bathroom floors `

                    Yet a familiar sound would bring me to keep scrubbing
                       The red album, The blue album , The White album 
                        Then .. Abbey Road , always remembering the sad look on
                  Ringo's face ,  something hard to understand underneath~
                       
                      I get it now, what you were saying all those years ago ,
                    the many sad lonely tears , secret tears , secret fears 
                    For Maxwell's Hammer was a real one . It wanted silence

                    Going back ..remembering when John Lennon died 
                      I was in Arkansas saddened with the world .
                      Then seeing his face saying " Drag isn't it " 
                      No .. this was not my hero in music and song .

                      he was a stand in hired William , he filled his shoes 
                      bringing diversity to create so much beautiful music from loss

                       One left standing , alone;; grief struck on back cover ~
                       The other identity hidden, tried to be part of ..coming together
                                                                                                                                                                        
                            his  world of secrets
                        He to suffers today , in fear , Faul~
                       
                        Too many years gone by .let us tell the Truth. Let us be free
                         The very sad long and winding Road ~
                         Let us Bury our real Paul. 

                         No more " Mystery tour "
                             No more fear 
                                Let him be in peace ~


           Inspired by " The Last Testament of George Harrison , Is Paul Dead ? "

                






Details | I do not know? | |

The First Goodbye

laying in your bed
watching you
get dressed
the permanent ring in the
back pocket
of your blue jeans
i’m missing you already


Details | Narrative | |

We Are There With You

You do not stand alone in your Battle
Your battle is our Battle
We may not be there in body
But we are there with you in Spirit

We are there in every beat of your Heart
In every whisper of the wind
In every thought and every touch
Every breath and every sound
We are there with you

You are wrapped in an Endless chain of Love
In every link we each send you a part of us
We send you some of our Strength
Some of our will to Fight
Some of our Courage
The most important of them all
We send you all of our Love

If you feel you need more
Just give that Endless chain a little tug
And we'll be there
Tug til you need us no more
Then we'll know you've gone Home
 


______________________________________________________________________
5/09/2014 Dedicated to my Aunt Nini, Wilma Thomas Gamble for Mother's Day. Sadly she lost her Battle w/ Stage 4 Pancreatic Cancer on 5/30/2014.


Details | Free verse | |

A seed of love planted in the soil of my heart

I sailed unaware into 
the ocean currents 
of her life:
and 

smitten, I 
desired to ride 

them with her;
somewhere 
along 
the ocean ways, a 

seed of love 

planted in the soil of
my heart had taken root 
and grew--only to perish 
like 

a young hope 

that's fleeting:
though I loved her, 
she 

still wounded
me 

like a careless 
knife. 

In spite of 
this and myself, 
I looked 

for encouragement
in her stare; 
and 

at the outlines 
of her graceful 
form 

I did wonder: 
she was 

indeed 

a Helen of Troy, a prize, 
on whose loveliness 
I 

so richly gorged! 

But never was 
a lonely man 
more wretched 
than 

I was, 

as she could 
not return my
affections  

with equal measure of feeling.  

I would be more
glad had she been 
unwedded to another,
and   

could easily be within 
my desirous 
and
jealous 

orbit! 

In time, I 
never 

saw 
her again;

and love, or the 
appearance of it--like 
an aborted 

fetus

flushed down the 
toilet--died 

with her parting 
as well!



Details | Sonnet | |

My Angel

Your love is like a fall’s crisp kiss
I can walk a thousand miles to get away from you
I can swim to the bottom of the ocean blue
I can fly a million feet up, way high in the air
I can pretend each day that I just don’t care
Yet I am sorry for the way I acted, the words I left unspoken
When I think of how we ended, my heart feels way too broken
Do you really feel this way, my presence do you not miss?
You made it clear your heart has no place for me anymore
I will move on and hope to find another to love like you
I will walk away, our memories in my heart I’ll store
Never allowing my mind to believe that it is true
For I loved, I lost. But as a friend I will never again tell
That you hold my heart forever, you are my Angel.




Details | Rhyme | |

Speech of Tears

Speech of Tears – Zamreen Zarook

Drops of tears from our purl conveys a lot,
Each an every shedding has a ballot,
By identifying the core, our hands should allot,
Because, some might be extremely as shallot.

Chipper and blissfulness gives you cool tears,
Whereas in console and divesting flow hot tears,
Fear and pains give drains of tears,
Nothing that can be patch with dollars.

Some deliveries are automatic,
While some productions are acoustic,
Another drain says I am really bombastic,
Tears are at last solely cubistic.

They convey the emotions,
People go in search for solutions,
They become happy when they are with the precautions,
Reactions again as the tears, it’s the real abbreviation.


Details | Alliteration | |

My Love

My love I can not find you anywhere, 
I feel like I lost my soul somewhere, 
because you are my soulmate, 
and us being apart can not be fate. 

You did not leave because you wanted to, 
It just was just something you had to do. 

I was not right, All I wanted to do was fight, 
and knowing you was the love of my life, 
yet I would not make you my wife. 

I know that's what you really wanted 
and now I am feeling haunted, 
by the things I should have done, 
and you being the only one 
I ever loved and will love forever, if it was'nt for me we will still be together. 
 
But you are gone 
and I can not go on, 
so I must say good-bye, I'm leaving myself to die.


Details | Rhyme | |

My Buddy

I miss you already, Buddy.
You’ve been the apple of my eye.
When I think of life without you,
It makes me cry. It makes me cry.

Oh, so many moments we've shared together,
From romping mischief and tummy rubs to those pesky fleas;
And nothing’s better than my puppy’s kiss;
You always try your very best to please.

You always curl up with me on the bed.
You always meet me at the door.
You run and jump and bark with such excitement.
Yes, Buddy, I know you couldn’t love me more.

And when all others fail me, Buddy,
My best friend is always there.
Through my very worst of times,
Your eyes and your attention said,  “I care”.

Five to seven years for every one of mine
Is so little time... it’s hardly fair.
It must be God’s way of saying,
“Love them now… and well.  
There’s precious little time to spare”.

But, if I should go before you, Buddy,
Love your new master without reserve;
And they will love you as you love them. 
It’s what a great pup like you deserves.  

I miss you already, Buddy.
You’ve been the apple of my eye. 


Details | Ballad | |

Kiss the Rain

Kiss the Rain 

By: Tyner Twine 

'A ballad I wrote based on the Piano Music By: Yiruma'.
Dedicated to the man I used to know

As I take a glimpse
On the endless sea
I felt the oceans
Between you and me

Our fates never crossed
Our love was lost
Through the tides and waves
Of our destiny 

The day you swore to be
Forever with me
Was also the day 
That you've left me be

To be by the side
Of another bride
And I am left with pain
As I kiss the rain

And so tonight,
I’ll cry to sleep
Hoping dearly that someday you 
Will come back to me

But dreams aren't true
I clearly knew, 
That today
I have just lost my most important ‘you.’

(Instrumental)

((You and I both knew we could never fight it, that we could never evade it, 
that we could change…But I know that amidst the smile you hide your pain…
the pain that I can’t ever share from now on…because I have lost you…
and you have lost me.))

As the waves grew
And we drift apart
Please meet my eyes
To say your goodbye

But you looked away
And left all the pain
Deep in my heart
As I kiss the rain

And so tonight, 
I cried to sleep
And hoped someday that you
Will come back to me

But dreams aren't true
I clearly knew,
That tonight,
There will be no love from ‘me and you’

So love, I’ll say goodbye,
And hide the tears to cry
Your fake smile will haunt me down
Until I die

For we have loved so true
And lost ‘me and you,’
Left with scars and clouds,
And tears from heaven

As I feel the rain,
Wash down all the pain,
Our dreams reached out 
And died in vain

Please stay by my side,
Hold me through the nights,
As we fight in vain,
As we kiss the rain.

Yet why am I alone in the rain?


Details | Elegy | |

IN MEMORY TO MY FATHER

written 23rd Oct 1997

So long I needed to visit
 but my heart didn't listen
Letting you know how much "I love you so"
 is now something, you will never ever know

Now that you are gone
 I know I waited to long
If I could just have that one more chance
 I would never treat it as just another glance

Now, you have become my biggest memory
 for you have gone, to a place I can not see
Knowing that we will never again touch
 makes me miss you, so very much

My children are still to young
 to wonder why pop hasn't rung
My heart is now empty
 for you, it always had plenty

I really do need to have you back
 you were the "only one, who saw me back
I know deep down inside
 you love me, more than words could describe

For it is only now, that I realise why you didn't want me around
 you knew how "painful it would have been, to watch you drown
But, as long as I am still alive
 you too, will continue to survive

For I will always be your darling little Denise
 who hopes, you forever rest in peace

                    ALLAN THOMAS HOLMES
                1st June 1954- 22nd Oct 1997


Details | Lyric | |

Forever Changed

June 18, 2013 our world was Forever Changed
We where over halfway home
When we got the call from our baby sister

Said we need to get back home
We need to come as fast as we can drive
Mom really needs us
Something’s wrong with Daddy
The whole way we drove 80
Hoping & Praying we’d make it in time

Our Family & Friends were weeping 
By the time we got to his side
We knew our Daddy had been taking
And our hearts they were breaking
We never got to say Goodbye
We each softly kissed that man
We four sisters climbed in his bed 
We laid down beside him 
And cried just like babies
For our world was Forever Changed 
 
 


Details | Free verse | |

Last Kiss

Open your eyes to the ever turning skies 
I want to here with me through the night 
My heart yearns into your soul 
Burning as if newly lit coal 
I bravely submerg the embers 
That the time I have can be spent with you 
And I remember each kiss every moment 
I was caught in your love that for just this day I remember 
So what happened was a chance for your love 
A time that I kept in a locket tied with a kiss 
 I wanted you to feel, to love, to slumber 
And to awake in my arms with that times kept bliss 
I lay silient in an umber


Details | Free verse | |

Sweet child of mine

The stars they used to bring tears to my eyes
Dark skies, I cried as I prayed for daylight
You were my fragment of pain
I became swallowed in memorys of darkness
That used to come and go so haunting, the loss of you
Still is killing me, for you were gone so suddenly..

My first child
My first love
Now all I have left
Are the stars above
Not to mention
The glow of the moon
That always reminds me
That you were taken too soon
Tears fall down my cheeks
When your name is spoken, that's when 
These demons become awoken
The heartbreak
The despair
Losing your child
Is too much to bear
Sleepless nights
Dreams full of terror
Seeing the pain in your eyes
Everytime you look in the mirror

I can look at the stars now
With hope, instead of pain
You my child, did not die in vain
You will live through me, glow bright star
Glow.. Glow for me
And for all of 
The mommys to see
Be my guidance, keep me from the ledge
To you child, this I pledge:

I see your glow and I can now smile
Though I might shed a tear every once and a while
Just because, I'm missing you
But I promise I will pull through

Thank you spirits
Thank you stars
For welcoming my child
With open arms
Keep him safe
Give him love
And let him know I am with him
Everytime I look above..


Details | Light Poetry | |

When I grow old

I will grow old
I tremble in the cold
None to care
I have nothing to fear...

But my love is alive
Though I strive
Beautiful roses to pluck
Yet I am stuck..

I grow old with wrinkle
Yet I will kinker
You will always remain in my mind
This is how you will find...


Details | Sonnet | |

Not Enough

To in love with him but playing his heart,
don't know what i want from love,don't know how to love with my heart.
don't know how to love with my heart,
i love with mind.


Afraid to love with my heart,
afraid of the consequence that might come with it.
Not enough to love him,not enough to love myself
not enough to love another soul,afraid to be hurt again
the love one that once loved me said he`ll never hurt the soul and heart that love so dearly.
to much in love with I'm that i was playing his heart.


Details | Narrative | |

In memory of Bob

In memory of Bob
A true story.

It was in spring of two thousand when I first saw Bob. I’d just started working at Perth Dental hospital, and in fact it was my first day there. I walked up to the front door of this building, but it wasn’t yet opened. So I turned around and went to sit in the bus shelter which was just outside the building. As I went to sit down I noted a dark skinned gentleman sitting there with a happy, benign look on his face. He was about five feet eight give or take a little, and he was rather a thickset man who looked like he’d done his fair share of hard work in his sixty years or more.

     There was something about this Gentleman that I could not quite put my finger on. He had a certain charisma about him; not the phony kind of charisma that one seen in the car salesman or the philanderer who messes with women’s heads, no, Bob had a kind of friendly smile for everyone that he met, and he seemed to draw people into him with his love, and gigantic heart. I knew as soon as I met him that Bob was most definitely for me.

      As Bob looked at me and smiled, the whole world seemed to open up. He said “Ow ya  going mate” in a loud ebullient manner, then we started to chat. Bob was like myself, a thinker, and straight away we started philosophizing about this, that, and the other, and it was like we had known each other forever. Then all of a sudden I found Bob talking about death, and the difference in the way the Maori people faced death, compared to the rather the silly way us white folk look at the subject with great fear in our hearts. Now this had always interested me, and  somehow it just seemed natural to talk to this Maori gentlemen on this subject, and we spoke about it till the doors opened and it was time to work.

      I don’t think anything happens just by chance, and I definitely have this feeling that Bob and I were meant to meet, and I really think this was a major destiny thing. I have found during the course of my life,  that as I am aging, I can feel something pushing me into a certain direction, and I always felt that Bob was part of all this; and I had much to learn from him. Although I have never believed in organized religion, and never followed one I have always felt deeply spiritual, and I have met many people who I learned from, and Bob was most definitely one of them with all his great wisdom and patience. As I came to know Bob, we had many dialogues together, on many subjects. Bob used to love music and could always have time to plonk away on his guitar. He used to come round to my place and we would play songs together, though both he and I were no Eric Clapton’s, I would bang around on my guitar and play the harp, while we would both take out turns at singing. We’d have a smoke or a beer or two, and we’d play songs all day long,  ahhh, I remember those days well, the memories are so strong.

     Bob was one hell of a man, I could tell that he had been a wild one in his youth,
But when I knew him in his sixties he was an icon of wisdom and virtue; he had a kind word for everyone, and gave all his time to anybody who needed him, always.
He used to hear me waffling on like an idiot, trying to make him like me [as I always did] but never once did he tell me how foolish I was, he would just smile knowingly at me. He used to stand there at the window for hours, just drinking in the trees, or the clouds in the sky, and yet he was so aware, I used to try to sneak up on him; it couldn’t be done. His awareness was incredible.

     Then one day Bob fell ill with terminal cancer, and he knew that he had very little time left on this Earth. He lay there sick for days in intolerable pain,  but you never heard one complaint from him, even when he only had days to live, he was still worrying about the welfare of others. When the day finally come for Bob to leave his shell; he was lying there in deep sleep, when all of a sudden he woke up, with a smile on his face. His children asked him ‘Dad, do you want some pain killers” Bob laughed, compassion written all over his face, and he said to them ‘Not one of you has a clue, have you’ and he died with a big smile on his face.

   His daughter got in touch with me, and told me about his death, and also told me that his last wish was to have me watch his soul leave his body. I felt very honored about this and went and sat with his body [as Maoris do]. I got the most peaceful feeling come to me [which I presume was his spirit leaving his body] as I watched his silent body, a Mari war stick and a beautiful rose lay across his chest. I still see it, and I feel blessed by it. He was my Maori warrior, and I adored the man.
 


Details | Prose | |

She

She's the flour in the middle of a fertile desert soil
She dreams of my dreams when i dream she dreams dreams that we dream
She's a speechless pole
She's a footstep away from my soul
She dreams of my goal
She's my African queen
Her womb carriers the nation's poetry
She takes me back to my dreams in chains
I make my own God she believes
She's one minute past jealousy
She's the speed of an angry poem in the dark
The black paint building an arch
The spirit of a mic resurrected by a dead poem
Speechless pole stronger than cone
She's my poem
She's my poetic lyrical port
I can see by the blushes right under my rhymes
She's so beautiful she makes you read her repetedly
She's my poem


Details | Romanticism | |

These Words To You

A warm tear in my eye
As I just wonder why
Why you had to leave me, fly away far
Now for you, alone, I wish to our star

There's so many love songs
I'll play them all, and think of you
I loved everything you were
Loved everything you do

Rise and shine on another day, with you away
All alone I am now, with nothing much to say
Your face is always in my mind
As I dream of the best I'll ever find

These Words To You, my love
I'll write them in a letter
And seal it with a kiss
In hopes that I'll feel better
To the one I miss

Girls that don't ask for much
Oh how they deserve it all
And as this love was such
She's leading to my fall

Her big beautiful eyes
A bold and loving brown
Still makes my heart fly
But still makes my lips frown

And that dirty golden hair
Always tied neatly back
So smooth and curly and long
Got my heart out of whack

These Words To You, my love
I'll write them in a letter
And seal it with a kiss
In hopes that I'll feel better
To the one I miss


Details | Romanticism | |

Can you feel me

Feel me standing there
on the draw bridge
that stands stubburn and erect
over the rushing waters blown by the wind
back and forth.
I listened to the crows
posted on gargoils designed
of eightenth century Gothic architecture
singing their death songs,
when the sun is setting in the far.

The voices of women passing
startle me with a feeling of sorrow
I can't breathe, I am dying.
Feel me, can you feel me rot away?
Slowly but surely rot away
as time passes with ease,
and taxi cabs take smiling, intoxicated faces
to wayward cafes, oh how they screech to a halting stop
and wave to me to get in.

"No thank you, I'd rather walk." I say to the smiling faces
highly intoxicated with the thought of the birds and the bees
rattling around in their empty minds.
Then they drive off, into the city lights and turn a darkened corner.
I look at the rushing water
and feel myself rot away
slowly but surely rot away.

Can you feel me?
Can you hear me?
Can you see me?
Feel my heart thump with slow paces
that manage to keep up with fast melodies.
Of songs that play in your mind
only the ones that make you sigh
and think those one days in Spring time
as you walked over the draw bridge
and paid no mind to the water underneth.
I hear no more talk of you and me, I hear no more talk
of the good old times we all shared.
Time has passed, as I take my last breathe
and hold my chest and shead a tear.
Feel me, can you?
If you can, put your hand to my weak heart 
and feel it thump away with every second wasted
on useless items.
Now, see me a man of one time greatness
reflect his life with a reflection in the water below.
How I sigh and cry and breath heavely,
as I feel myself rot away.

The voices of woman pass me by.
Tomorrow is a new day,
for the smiling faces in taxi cabs will go home
and soak their raging hangovers with cool, wet rags.
As I still stand on the draw bridge singing with the crows,
feeling myself rot away.

Can you feel me without you, rotting away?
I surely can feel myself rot.
Such a heavy word, "rot"
So vulgare, yet a great description of me,
without you.

I pull out a shawl you once wore and I kiss it.
As the wind gusts and the sun rises and my shadow
comes to meet me, the wind shall take my last memory
of you away.
And I shall weep no more.
Then what will I do? Shall I walk the streets
and think of you.
Yes you, still rambling all throughout my head
like a lose screw.
Can you feel me? Feel me rot away
feel me think about you, and all your works.
Can you feel me?


Details | Couplet | |

My Perfect 10

If I picked my Valentine
she'd be a perfect 10.
She'd have blonde hair with highlites
and answer where and when.

She'd be a little shorter,
yet tall enough to kiss.
Her reach a little longer
to torture us in bliss.

Her shape would be the bomb.
As sexy as they come.
With hair up for the moment
I'd meet her at the prom.

She'd talk a little faster
with words I'd say are smart.
Yet keep me to attention
in hugs up to my heart.

A smile just like a lion.
Her face a source of pride.
One to show my mother.
And then to make my bride.

My Valentine was perfect
as I lost her way back then.
How was I to know that she
would find her perfect 10.


Details | Dramatic monologue | |

Selfish Wish

Selfish wish

I kept without even thinking about how you felt. I'm greedy, selfish, crybaby, self harming and what more you put up with all of those things for so long. How come it took me so long to realize it? How come it hurt now that I've let you go and can never forgive what I've done?
I can't believe how much I'm missing you. But I could never tell you the truth, why? Because I am to prideful to egotistical to even admit that my heart is torn, that my mind goes blank whenever I think of you, that if I was ever asked myself if I missed you I would say "No, I hate him with all my heart" but in my heart I know I'm missing you to death. I'm doing this for my own selfish gain, even if it means hurting you in the end I'll do it if it meant saving you. I don't mind becoming the bad guy, being the person everyone hates if it meant making you smile. It been to long since I've last seen you I wonder if you smile, I wonder if you laugh, I wonder if you cry, I wonder if you even think of me while your with her. I guess it can't be helped, I brought this upon myself and I'll keep hurting you.
I know I'm going to run from you because every time I see you leaving I want to grab you and tell you never to leave me again. But I'm trying to save you, your smile, your laugh, and the happiness you gained with your own hard work. What am I saving you from? Myself of course.


Details | Dramatic monologue | |

Our True Friendship's Destiny

Sometimes, it's hard to understand, Why people always come and go; Sometimes, their sweet goodbyes are more painful, Especially if you love them so. Along this winding road of life, Sometimes we need to know, When goodbyes broke our heart and made us cry, Prove that in ourselves, we can always be true. Let not heartbreak be the end, Remember that in real friendship has no limit; As long as in our heart, good memories linger, In us, good friends will likely be here forever. Looking back the times when I met a friend, Who was so sweet, loving, faithful and true; Seemed as Jesus came personally in my life, To stay, take good care of me and love me so. You and I really need to know, That in friendship, two people both grow; Truly, good and loyal friends make us strong, They are always there to lean on. Don't ever forget these words, dear friend Only in prayer, God keeps us together; In this world, we do meet friends Some like us much, some are nice and some aren't, Most importantly, we grow and learn from them. Of all the things in this world, Bird's passage is by which meeting friends is most compared; A person whom we've felt the true friendship, In our heart he will forever remain, Although, you say goodbye or thank you to him, Still, friendship isn't the end. Note: A goodbye message to my dear best friend, Sally De Ocampo who left for U.S.. Her initials appear on each stanza. She requested this poem from me on her birthday.
First Place Contest: Friendship Judged: 6/9/13 Sponsor: My greatest poet, PD/Linda


Details | Free verse | |

Goodbye My Friend

Sometimes you must take a second look.
What you might've seen may have been written in a book.
The memories, the truths.
The starlight, the booth.
We took pictures of that day.
That day we were okay.
But today is anew.
Everything we've been through.
Thrown away like a wrapper.
Blown up like a sapper.
Every thing you've said a lie.
The lies flown into my very own eye.
One day I will, we will all die.
Don't cry.
Flourish the past.
Embrace the future.
The world keeps turning.
The sun keeps burning.
Whether you're there or not.
Look at what you've got.
Money is just a virtue.
That you should've knew.
What do you have when the world keeps turning?
What do you know when the sun keeps burning?
All gone. All gone.
Have you enjoyed your life?
Did you apologize to your wife?
Did you say I love you to your kids?
I mean god forbid.
Goodbye. Goodbye.
My friend goodbye.
It's been a nice trip.
I'm sorry you had to slip...Away..



Details | Romanticism | |

Goodnight my Fair Maiden

Goodnight my Fair Maiden,
I shall see you once again.
In the year of our Lord,
At the gloomy dawn of Mankind.
As the Red Sun reaches over the treeline,
Far in the East.
I shall see you again.

Don't fear our love,
For my love for you is eternal.
Too see this eternal love
I have for you,
It is hard to feel and very diffcult to see.

When you wake the next morning
and escape your long night of slumber
and your surrealist life,
being played in a cloud of imagination.
You'll soon come to reality 
and find me there.
Knocking upon your chamber door.

Come now!
Get dressed in your evening, silk dress.
and let us go dance under the stars,
till the moon falls to the West and the Sun rises in the East.
Oh, how you are a lovely dancer and how the twilight shines bright
along you shinny and silk laced hair.

And your hair my sweet and fair maiden,
oh, how I love to see it bounce with life
when you twirl and dance into my arms.

You are beautiful and I wish I couldn't leave you,
but as the day turns to night, I have to leave.
I wish I could take you on a long walk through the parks
and courtyards, and walk along the sprinkled streets of the cities filled with life.
Pick you a beautiful bouquet of roses from the gardens of beauty and give them to you
with surprise.

I love you so much
My love for you is indeed hard to tell to you,
but I can show you.
Tomorrow though, for tonight I must say...
Goodnight my Fair Maiden.
For tomorrow you'll be in my arms once again.

Goodnight my Fair Maiden
I shall leave you with a kiss that shall last a lifetime.


Details | Concrete | |

Negative Poles

 

					        I--      love
			                     	you	  still
				          but I 	    can see
		          That our paths		  have gone awry
		     Our parallels				   have turned to Ys
	 And I do not know					how to say goodbye
                                            and so I won’t.


 				       Oil and	    water
			         emul---		        sified
		       have come				   apart
	           like cur					       dled cream;
	      Fision							      has split
                                              the nucleus.

				     I only	              hope
			     our flight		         will stop
	   While you still seem		             a part of me;
       If our limit is      					       not infinity
   I at least								      will know where
to											                  reach
                                                 for you
			 .


Details | Romanticism | |

When I Look Into Her Eyes

Every time I'm feeling down, or feeling so blue
As if there's nothing I can do
My spirits always seem to rise
When I Look Into Her Eyes

I'm new at this, this game of love, but got no shame
Get excited when she calls my name
We're trying on love for the very first time
When I Look Into Her Eyes

Their beauty takes me to the depths of forever
Where we are so happy, and together
Oh how I'd love to just hold her tight, and never let go
Into Her Eyes, oh how they glow

Comforting and loving with passion to spare
Those two heavens with my world, I ache to share
I'm trying on a first love, a first love for size
When I Look Into Her Eyes

The fires of my love they're igniting 
And to our future her eyes are exciting
There's rose gardens and sunny skies
When I Look Into Her Eyes

Their love, with desire is burning
She's got my world upside down, and turning
Oh how the world stops, yet the time somehow flies
When I Look Into Her Eyes

But when I think about what will happen
I realize Into Her Eyes, how deep I am trapped in
Soon I will have to kiss her softly with the goodbyes
How long will I live without their beauty, how will I survive?


Details | Lyric | |

Rain Song

You played me like a violin
I can't believe I fell again
But clouds revealed the moon, and I was taken
Your eyes were closed
Your words were spare
You ran your fingers through my hair
But from your whispered breath, dark lies were spoken,
  
The moon betrayed me, .......a storm is waking.......
Have you betrayed me?........my world is shaking.......

Those empty words that still resound
pound in my head and I have found
Your love was like a tunnel going nowhere -
I crossed a bridge
And took a risk, 
I fell right in,
But couldn't swim 
The drowning rush surrounds me like a river

I dived right in it........I can't deny it
I would survive it........to cry a river

You came to me without a plan
I should have known that it would end
The echo of the thunder tried to warn me

A distant voice
Inside my head
A cloud appeared with laden air
And pulled me where the heart's a frozen ember

I see the lightning......  I am frightened
I hear the plunder....  a distant thunder

I hear it now, the pouring rain
It beats against the window pane
And now the chill just sends a quiver through me

Storms only come
When I'm alone
Torrential songs are drowning me 
A broken heart can't stop the rain from coming in

When vows were spoken,     a sun was shining.......
But I heard thunder, ....       and you denied it

And truth came pouring down upon my head



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Details | Rhyme | |

Dialogue of Souls


Best of friends, for countless years,
we had the best of times.
Now as my eyes are filled with tears,
your soul to Heaven climbs.
The path we take, not always clear,
I feel so lost without you here.
Your last words, prophetic now,
“I’ll be home soon”- you knew somehow.
You left me here, I’m so alone,
but I dreamed Heaven had a phone.
We talked all night, you fell asleep,
I held the line to hear you breathe…  

 

   Copyright © 2013


Details | Light Poetry | |

Last Dance

Goodbye soul-digger,the music is done
we've reached the heaven on it's peak
Wake up little darling, and rest on your feet
This is the last hour that we should've missed.


Goodbye to our last dance,
tomorrow is not  ours to hold.
Let's cherish each moment like its the end
Thank you for the memories that wouldn't fade.


Details | Rhyme | |

The Ghost I Knew

Can I catch you
Can you stay?
Forests at wood
There we play
A gentle hand 
That fixed the dress
Brushing tears back
Saving stress
I can not bare
The oaken wave
Only memories
Can I save
I miss your hair
And what it covered
More than a mind
God knows I loved her
The ghost I knew
She rests away
I can not catch you
You can not stay.


Details | ABC | |

Push Up

i could sit here. day in and day out
thinking of the most proper way
to let the ink in the pen spill out
but as of late im feeling prehistoric 
so much weight on my shoulders 
and i dont know where to go
resuscitate my soul
look back up and head to the goal

so much evil around. i feel like the devils workin double shifts just to bring me down.
on the road to redemption
you can take a seat up in the front section
just so you can feel the emotions
in this electric notion

i've done a lot of things that hide the halo
let it all collaborate when i medicate 
now look at me, mind workin like plato
formulate a new path to take so i can
maneuver through all the mistakes 
we all know we cant change what we've already made
but we can change the next thing we create
startin to sound like a serenity prayer
5 steps till im thirty
and the twenty four before i was never a player
found out when the lights came back on im strictly a lover
its the strongest drink for your soul, when its thirsty
so careful how much you intake or be left hungover
even worse be the one she ran over

i dont mean to come off like im too deep
but the obstacles made there way through just to scrape through
and leave me suffocating
just for me to re-invent a new way to breathe, re-decorating

is your life so complicated 
you rather wet up your pillows and revoke from the life you live
just think of your kids mourning 
theyll never see that pretty face in the morning any more
cheer your self up
you got a lot to live for
your a gem and im that friend
trynna appraise the value 
that you dont see inside of you


just another day for him
goin about
searchin wonderin what his purpose is
running in circles 
till he found a way through all the turbulence





Details | Rhyme | |

Regret

Regret

Regrets I have so many
But one that drags me down
Every time I think about it
My face takes on a frown.

It was the day I left my wife
Though why I do not know
All I know with certainty
Is that I hurt that lady so

I never will forgive myself
The remorse is hard to bear
And everywhere I try to go
The furies, they are there.

I know until my dying day
I never will forget
The day I left my wife behind
It fills me with regret.

8 August 2013 @ 1720hrs.




Details | Free verse | |

Whistle

Running, after more than you, can hold.
Taking, someone else’s love, and leaving.
Children are fearful of what they’re told.

Can’t you see I’m the one who’s freezing?
I was just a child with a trinket 
Never knowing that it’d be, more to me

When you were gone to, too far, from me.
Steady with your hands close to my heart
Never letting our world’s tear us apart

I know, your icicles 
I miss the beaches that we played on
You missed the child in your own eyes

Now you’re gone, 
But I’m still not here.
Why can’t you wake up 

I’m not ready
Please, just take your time, don’t leave now
I can’t fight this world alone.


Details | Acrostic | |

Adieu



And remember this departure is not final distant stars will light up my path again I will come back to you someday every step that takes me away from you ultimately will bring us even closer ============000============ Placement- 2nd (September 2013) Contest- Acrostic of 5 letter word (adieu) Sponsor- Andrea Dietrich © kash poet (kashinath karmakar) ============000============


Details | Rhyme | |

Your Special Day

(Dedicated to Danielle Bryant)

It's your special day
And I have so much to say.
Oh that time will let me,
There are thousands of things to make you see:

The happy times,
Lengthening with the clock's chimes;
The beautiful talks we exchanged,
Never believing there could be a change;

The midnight conversations,
Smiles on our faces our only compensation;
Our dreams and hopes,
The only reason we could cope.

Those moments we spent together
Are memories I'll cherish forever;
Memories I can look at and smile,
Knowing they are reasons to aim high.

Oh if I could do more than just words
And not pull memory chords!
It's your special day
And my own very special way
Of wishing a happy birthday
To a friend who just walked away.


Details | Romanticism | |

This One Girl

This One Girl,
Every night she greets me
In my arms she rests
No one else's around, we're free
Time's standing still, a sweet caress

This One Girl,
I've always loved the most
We've gone our separate ways
To two distant, far away coasts
To spend the rest of our days

This One Girl,
I'm not knowing if her face
I'll ever see again
Or if of her, I'll ever find another trace
But still all my love, her way, I'll send

This One Girl,
There's just something about her
A magic to her ways
Making my heart stir
She's got me in a daze


Details | Free verse | |

Gene and Gilda

Star crossed champions of mirth
Wild hair and wild eyes, both 
To the world they say with arms raised to the sky, 
"What a pity, for we dearly love to laugh!" 
Arm in arm, singing their favorite show tunes 
But in the voices of Donald Duck and Calamity Jane
Gallivanting through the city, doing the Charleston in the street 
These two have no interest or talent for growing up 
And made the world lighter because of it 

Willy Wonka in his purple jacket,
Holding the door for her with his cane,
Him with those dreamy eyes
Pale eyes that swim in her perpetual smile
A smile, a voice and a soul that lit up everything for miles 
She sits, glowing in the window, 
Like a princess in the white room, wearing her little barrette
But she isn't well at all 

And so she left this world, Roseannadanna did, one morning 
And the twinkle in his eye twinkled off into space 
With her dimples, impromptu cartwheels and spinning skirts  
Four years wasn't enough to fill up the laughing box 
The glass elevator is lonely looking down on the world 

Wait, wait, wait, BAM!
Would she want him sinking there in his spats? 
A wop, bam, boo! No, choose instead to keep that wicked grin 
Dance down the aisle of the plane, show that funny funny face 
Embrace each Saturday Night gone by 
To Gene and Gilda, geniuses of love and light hearts 
Pop the cork on the champagne and roller skate through this life!


~For Heather Ober's Famous Couples/Duos Poetry 
Contest


Details | Ballad | |

Loosing A Child

It hurts very much,
When the one's you love,
Are ripped from your very life,
It makes you feel as if,
You are not up to being,
The person you should be,
In this dreary everyday world,
That can be so cruel.
So, think about how your life,
Is running it's very course,
And what changes you need to make'
To better your life,
In order to see the happiness,
Of keeping the beautiful thing,
You have created,
And brought into this very world,
So, you can keep this child,
Close to you in your life,
And watch it grow,
To bond with them each and everyday,
So, the child will never grow up,
knowing someone else,
As Mom and Dad,
Pushing you away from their life,
Till the day,
You will be totally gone,
From their hearts and minds,
Which is the sign of disaster all the way,
For it will be the hurt of a lifetime.


Details | Romanticism | |

Good bye

Regrets & mistakes they're memories made..
Our bridge burned up in smoke...
Who would have known how bitter the end would taste...
With what was done...
It over shadows all the good times we shared...
I can't take back...
My heart is heavy...
Wish I could remove the pain...
Please don't forget me, I beg....
I'll find someone like you...
And give her all the things I wanted to give to you...
I wish you all the best....


Details | Carpe Diem | |

Pricked

Your  love pricks me like a rose each thorn grows but no one knows Your so full of 
it as it shows so carry on now go on, go. I'm fed up with the phony and  i'm 
through with the tears, you couldn't pay me all your money to make up for those 
years. Someone help me I feel faint how could I think he was such a saint and 
worst of all I let me fall into a spiral down below. A magic called love carried 
by the dove of someone I use to know.


Details | Free verse | |

A Shell of a POET

I am the shell of a POET, who's Soul now lives in Eternity
He left me with his past: his sorrows and agonizing Memories
I am ,but a dead man living in the shell of his conscience
Striving to be the light on a Starless Moonless, stroll to loneliness
Where the painful cries of silence, explode through-out my brain
Where the blinding shadows, web the skies, and life is "Forever Midnight
There is no Dawn, no Sunrise, no Sunsets, in the ebony sea of despair

 To be Continued; It took me 2 weeks to write this. it will take me a week
to Write part 2. I will try to write 2-3 comments a week, unless Phillip 
is here. I wait at the Gate of Heaven to meet YOU. ALWAYS and FOREVER
YOUR Liege...HG


Details | Verse | |

Philosophical Poetry Week: Transient Tuesday

I am a misprint,
Ink blot on love,
I remain a maybe
Longing for fact,
No speck of lint,
A hand in glove.
Thunder; a baby
Will only react

When you etch
Parallel clouds,
Whistling on cue
To a dead town.
Dream a sketch
Of silent crowds
Becoming you,
This boiling crown

Chews thought
Into flagellation.
Holes in the walls
To spy through,
Seeking a sort
Of bricked-up sun.
A heaven of halls,
All leaving you.


Details | Ballad | |

Love gone wrong

Glass shattered-
the bottles melting
that green-eyed feeling overcoming-
but the cause of it was you.
You're wandering eyes neglect me
while you pretend to look away
but I see right through those pretty brown eyes
and you definitely don't want to stay
I'm that safety net-
to a person who's my world
and while you
poke at my eyes
laugh at my fits
I know your real girl
and she's not the person you've been with
for a year now coming up
instead i'm just a distraction
trying to become better than you've had
but you can't even see that
I'm psycho- that's all there is to it
but remember when i'm gone
and realize my worth
that you were really nothing-
but a lesson gone wrong
a lesson that was supposed to relieve the grief
a lesson of love gone wrong


Details | Lyric | |

Bring The House Down

Well....you told me you loved me
With blue eyes of pure devotion
And my heart got caught up  
In that rich emotion

Now you put love down
Without any hesitation
Well....don't expect me
To give you a standing ovation

But you sure know oh oh 
How to bring the house down
If hurting me was in your lines
You did 'em up right when you bowed out

I thought I had an angel
Waiting in the wings
Then I saw a devil
Pull the curtain strings

Yeah you sure know oh oh
How to bring the house down

That academy award
You are holding now
You won him girl
Go ahead a take your bow

You've got actors
On your left and on your right
And you're center stage
In a sordid spotlight

And you sure know oh oh
How to bring the house down



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Details | Rhyme | |

I Want

I want to sing you
I want to write you
I want to watch you
And describe you

I would like to compose you
You, my ninth symphony
To put you on a stave
To play your melody

I want to sculpt you
Without engraving too much
Hardly anything to change
Some details to fix

I want to photograph you
Under different lights
To whip with the flash
All those artifices that are hiding you

I want to break your records
Go through your body's limits
Jump higher, run further
When man an athlete is one

I could go on with other arts
But none of them seem good enough to define you
So I'll go on in which my words are the finest
For you, I'll never stop writing


Details | Lyric | |

REALLY WANNA SAY HELLO GOODBYE -Song Lyrics

REALLY WANNA SAY HELLO (Goodbye)

Where did you go, you who just passed me by and left?
Are you doing fine, at a place without me by your side?
Hoping you'll come back, the times I've waited for you
I'll let it go now, I'll forget you now.

The beautiful times we had, they're all memories now
The tears I shed when I missed you like crazy
Hoping you'll come back, time stood still
I'll let you go and leave now, goodbye.

Couldn't you find it, the road that leads back to me? 
Should I wait a little while more, should I wait here a little longer?
Hoping you'll come back, I waited all this while
I'll let it go now, I'll end it for real.

My love for you that I held on so tightly, is slowly dissipating
The me that went crazy missing you, is gradually changing
Hoping you'll come back, time has stood stagnant
I should erase it all now, for real.

My love, it ends right here, this never-ending yearning 
Stuck in my throat, I couldn't say it
Those heartbreaking words of parting
All my beautiful memories of you, it's leaving me right now.

Like falling tears, my love is slowly dissipating
The me that went crazy missing you, is gradually changing
Hoping you'll come back, time stood stagnant
I should erase it now, for real.

Should erase it now?
I should forget you now, goodbye.. :(


Details | Free verse | |

Goodbye

We don’t have a future
We had a past
We don’t have a presence
Because our love did not last

We don’t have a tomorrow
We had a memory
We thought our love was forever
Because we shared so much together
But we lost our memories

We don’t have a hope
We had a prayer
We had a slim chance of moving forward
Because our love died many years before 
When we stopped loving 
When we stopped coping
When we stopped hoping


Details | Heroic Couplets | |

BRITZ'S GIRLFRIENDS PAST

BRITZ’S GIRLFRIENDS PAST…LAST EPISODE”


He is young, handsome and got all it takes
To get involved with him, girls get tied to the stakes
Early in his age he set it off with one in a relationship
The love was fierce; both were wolves and none the sheep
Quarrel today and settle today; the relationship seem not to last
Sincerity danced to the lime-light; someone will surely get hurt at last
He ignorantly made her jealous and she sought a pay-back
She left him for his best friend but later sought to come back
Marriage and family ties got deep in line; too late to get back
The first girlfriend in his past.

So heartbroken and sad; he refused to show concern
The latest girl was so pretty and that calls for concern
She was his childhood friend he shared kisses with
Another relationship in line; amidst tares he took out the best wheat
It all started off so well, he broke the heart of her cousin
They were too close; the girl was close to his cousin
Childhood friendship an advantage thought this one will last
Unfortunately, the happy relationship came to end so fast
They lost it all: love, compatibility, friendship and in themselves a taste
The second girlfriend in his past.

Tired of relationships, he dived into friends with benefits
It was so sweet an adventure; to every girl, he got a benefit
He became so free and there was no love seen to be found
Nothing to loose as its just sex and the girls were always around
Tasting all juicy like Solomon’s pear; Complications in line he got scared
Frightened out his shoes; friends with benefit? He was no longer prepared
In the midst of storm; just like Jonah , he remembered there is someone so dear
The safest adventure is a relationship with her and there will be nothing else to fear
Difficult as of the beginning but she later came to terms and vowed to always be there
The third girl; presently in his present…


																…Lordvip…
D' Poetic Beast
						























Details | Lyric | |

Dear Lover

Written September 8, 2013


Hey dear lover
Can you make me a believer in another
We both know that it's killing us this way
'Cause the ends of the earth still move
And the falling leaves dance in circles
All around you
Cutting holes in the paper
On which I write this letter
Saying, "I really hope that this gets better"
For the sake of involved
Before this binding resolution gets resolved

But I don't mind chasing thunder
Through the darkest nights
But if I never find the light
Then I just might lose my sight, over you
But what's the use
You've only caused me more and more abuse
That's why I write this letter
Saying, "why'd I ever think that it'd get better"


Details | Romanticism | |

To Be Apart

Her smile always greets me
As I close my eyes each night
The love in her voice is comforting
With passion, she's burning so bright

A sparkle in her eyes
And a fire in her heart
Let's spend together our lives
Couldn't stand To Be Apart

To Be Apart would destroy me 
Reduce me to the tears
Without her right beside me
All throughout the years

I don't know what I'd do
If I ever had to restart
And oh how much I'd lose
If we were To Be Apart

The most beautiful girl I'd ever seen
With every desirable too
She was everything to me
When we're apart, oh what will I do?


Details | Free verse | |

LOVE AND THE PRUDENT MIND

LOVE AND THE PRUDENT MIND

How can passion nab a prudent mind
Heartless and unrelenting sorrow
Passion which
Haunts across seas 
Crazes uncharted through widow making mountains

Shadows its prey
day by day from scent of soap to toothpaste caps
Sleepless nights in strangers beds—The vows once took cannot be shed

How can love annex a prudent mind
     Diligently plodding through piles of work 
Jump between the lines and ink
like a rapist scare
to catch the victim unaware

Heartless and relentless sorrow
Years refine the passion fire
      Body aches for vanished scorching touches
Heartless and relentless sorrow
Like a bird she fled the skies
But longs in secret for the midnight flight return


Details | Rhyme | |

Forty Lost

Time moves on,
and soon will tell,
when asked for whom
they ring the bell…
 Forty lived
…and forty lost,
you left before twilight.
When it’s half as much,
at twice the cost,
you’ll  bask
in perfect light…
We live in castles
…made of sand,
we come as a stranger,
but leave as a friend…
Remember now,
your last first kiss,
those times will be
profoundly missed…
Your smile indeed
could cast a spell.
You learned to
play a bad hand well…
With all our hopes
and dreams in tow,
we are old too quick,
and wise too slow.
Life’s an elaborate
complex dance...
Would you live again,
if you had the chance?
 
 Copyright © 2013


Details | I do not know? | |

The Traveller's Unclaimed Land

He says he loves me then he says he loves me not
He loves me today but by tomorrow I'm forgot 
He runs from my love but returns wanting more
I guess I'm to blame for letting the traveler explore, 
See travellers just wander and are never here to stay
They admire the scenery and enjoy the display 
They tour the land and ride the attractions
So memories become their only subtractions,
They search for an experience that is what they yearn
The condition once they leave is none of their concern!
So how can the land be devoted and true 
When travellers come and go out of the blue.
The present is now and where he's travelled to,
But the past he calls home so he must return soon
Most likely just a visit although time can only tell, 
But what he lusts is in this land and he knows it very well
He may call that place home but its this land that he seeks
Travellers on a mission never realize until they hit their peek
He continues to damage this land down to its core 
So what's left to offer when their is nothing left in store?
The resources were depleted and the land left bare
He comes and goes as he pleases it doesn't seem fair;
See this land has been abused time and time again
Seeds that were planted, were means to an end
But pleasure and satisfaction was always accomplished
Because this land provided where the homeland was disadvantaged!
But despite the history and despite the trust
Submit to his urges is something he must.
So this time around his departure is permanent 
Lack of faith and loyalty was the final determinant.
The damage he caused cannot be rendered,
So his visitation rights he has surrendered!
So leave this land I say and never look back
This is the path you chose I hope you can stay on track,
Cause travellers have memories of the lands they have stained
But the land only remembers the one that remained!


Details | Heroic Couplets | |

Closure

You and me we've met before
Without thinking we opened Love's door
Time stood still light illuminated dark
Heaven bequeathed an undeniable spark

A fiery reunion of the ages
Passion fueled the turning of the pages
Instant comfort still a mystery
Karmic mirrors about to make history

Bubbles surface in the cauldron of shame
Undoubted truth glows in the flame
Standing naked for me to see
Remarkably, you look just like me

Vulnerable to our scars,wounds and flaws
We are blinded by the unrealistic nature of laws
A long journey down the path of pain
When will our soul's peace ever be regained

Broken hearts over secrets and lies
You will never see through these eyes
Failed divine intervention for the selfish ego
Time is up Time to let go

Certain of unfinished karmic debt
Remains remorse for the goals set
Goodbye with honor and gratitude
Happiness and joy shall not allude


Details | Tanka | |

My Dearest

I held her cold hand
She silently slipped away 
I sank into tears
Her gift is on the table 
I wrapped it myself, today.


Details | Free verse | |

Why We Will Never Say Hello or Good-bye

Why We Will Never Say Hello or Good-bye
By Ingrid Showalter Swift 
Rake your fine fingers across my tender lips...
waiting with the hunger that years have made.
...Do you still hear me? 
I am off in a land of daisies and flowers, of many colors.
I walk down sandy paths of pale soft skin... that I imagine 
are yours 
The water-butter beneath my finger tips 
is your skin as well 
and I look out across a far away horizon and know 
you live there
breathing on, in unison with arms open to the sky 
You beam as the sun... I weep as the waves.
I ache and bend and cry out in labor pain 
There is no separation... but the heart still seems to seep 
with it. 
I can see your eyes 
and in my eyes still dark and far away 
...you drift quietly on a raft bobbing in a safe cove
The night still shifts to the wetted calm of us from time to time 
and I know the trees and dogs can feel us moving 
beneath the surface, like mermaids
Our tails are webbed jewels of gold and myrrh
Our fingers are intermingled... our cells combined...
Our torsos are sleek and clean 
We separate... dip and dive like porpoises...
They know... I know they know... and hear our ever calls 
and weep 
and bow 
and weep 
and dive for us 
in the still of twilight’s dancing diamonds
Why not? I cry... but know all too well the answers 
Because there are flowers on our paths
and children playing in the skin of the sand 
and we are one in our purpose 
and one in the words and one as they fly over head - wing to wing...
As autumn climbs the hill to winter...
we will be in the flickering light of fire side 
and the warmth of the soups that brew 
and are handed one to the other 
and we will ever be in the sawdust 
and in the creation of anything new
and in time as it flows back and forth with the tide
Nothing can ever sever us from the ants 
and the shells 
and the mail that arrives in the mail box 
Do you know that we are only a car ride away from forever?
Do you know that we are nothing more than one phone call apart?
...just seven numbers apart! 
and it will remain the distance of forever because we know 
how fine the sand feels between our toes 
how smooth the wind blows over our wet torsos and white sails 
and how water splashes into tiny beads of light at the bow
and how the tree grows 
and how the stone feels from the inside 
We will remain alone and surrounded by love 
...because grass is green
God! How I love you! 
Tell me again that you know... tell me... call me... tell me 
...that it is real... that you can hear me 
that I am the same as the child beneath your palm
loved ever, unconditionally
and you are proud of who I am and who I am becoming


Details | Rhyme | |

Bye for Now

My heart hurts to see my girls leave.
I feel a loss, though temporary, I still grieve.
I believe in and trust the Lord
for He has cut the umbilical cord.

My girls must with their own eyes see
if their dad will love them...finally.
He has broken their hearts too many times;
yet in their eyes, he can do no crimes.
They believe that this time is different;
hoping he’ll finally be a caring parent.
They have longed for a father’s love
the way we’re loved by God above.
They crave a dad’s love that’s unconditional;
no longer willing to accept love that is artificial.
They want to know that he’ll always be there;
to support them emotionally and always care.

I can only pray and ask God to touch their dad’s heart;
give them a father with a new beginning and fresh start.
I’m not angry that my daughters are gone
I just miss them, but God keeps me strong.
He has a plan for each of my girls’ life.
He won’t let their dad hurt them or cause them strife.
I believe God will bring my girls back home
because I love them and won’t let them roam.
Until they return, I will worry not;
I choose to let go and let God.


Details | I do not know? | |

From Then To Now

Hand in hand we walked 
together into Reception
Nothing could stop us and 
together we were three
James and I LARP-ed Doctor 
Who for fun
We talked and laughed for 
hours
Because no stress was in our 
way
Anna and I smiled and laughed
And jumped on our bouncy 
castle
With nothing dividing us.

Side by side we walked 
together into Year 6
Some stranger stopped them to 
talk and broken we were alone
James and I talked about 
Doctor Who for fun
And we talked and kissed for 
hours
But misunderstanding broke us 
up
Anna and I still smiled and 
laughed
And joked about our bouncy 
castle
But secondary school was going 
to divide us.

With no one there I walked 
alone into Year 7
And a stranger became my 
friend and together we were 
two
Violet and I both loved Doctor 
Who
And James found Dominic
So James and I talked for mere 
minutes
And school started pulling us 
apart
Anna and I still laughed and 
smiled
Still promising to be friends 
Never letting it divide us

Suffocating and drowning I 
walked into Year 9
Hating how I was and feeling 
alone
Katie and Chloe were so pretty
And Violet so funny and all 
were better than me
James and I hardly talked or 
saw each other
But we still made the most of 
our friendship
As we were like family, stress 
couldn’t break us apart
Anna and I laughed but I did 
not smile genuinely
Because the bouncy castle was 
long gone
And our schools were beginning 
to divide us

Dead yet breathing I stand 
right now
And I hate who am I and every 
single detail
Fights broke us up and pulled 
us apart
So I can feel Katie, Violet and 
Chloe
Falling further out my reach
James moved house to a place 
unknown
And blamed me for never 
talking to him
But really it was because of my 
ex who was a girl
It was for something beyond 
my control
Anna and I were still friends; 
only by a thread
As she did not know about me
And how school broke me apart

So this is me now; I’m all alone
No longer the smiling young girl 
of reception
The only person talking to me 
is me
And the voice in side my head
You see; they all left me and 
always will
So now the only call I answer
Is that of my blades
And the darkness
That is constantly
Pulling me
Down


Details | Prose Poetry | |

Without you

This morning when I woke up in an unfamiliar place, dark and empty.
There were no doors, no windows I was trapped.
No light, I could not see.
No air, I could not breathe.
I cried out for help, no one could hear me.
Alone and smothering as the rhythm of my heartbeat grew weak until there was no beat.
The glimpse of my soul once filled with vibrant life now fades away as dark as the place I find myself.
Wait this in not a room,
Wait this is not a place.
But, this is my world without you.
Dark, empty, alone and hurting.
I am alone in the dark
A shadow covers the beam that once lite up my life,
My heart is empty,
My dreams shattered,
This is my world without YOU!


Details | Couplet | |

WHERE FROZEN EMBERS STILL BURN

For twenty-one years our love was tied
The one person in whom I'd confide
God knows we had a beautiful ride
You were my bride

Traveled together, we saw the world
We dreamed on the stars all unfurled
Life was a dance we gave it a whirl
You were my girl

In early morning we'd listen to chimes
Back door open we'd love these times
We were a poem with perfect rhymes
You were my greatest lines

Everything now births a fresh memory
Begging God for peace to let it be
Slipped from earth you're finally free
Still always you and me

Life feels so crushingly cold.. It's stern
Separated now by this blizzard's churn
What's happened leaves a heart's yearn
Inside.. where frozen embers still burn

*Yesterday my sweet sister passed into eternity.  This poem is from her husband's 
perspective as he's shared stories.  (We drove 13 hours yesterday so please forgive 
unanswered soup mail)

Contest: Gail's "Where Frozen Embers Still Burn"
Date: 8-24-14



Details | Rhyme | |

Do You Feel Like Ending Everything


Perhaps you feel like your life is “spiraling down” It’s as if everything’s come “crashing to the ground” Is your lie filled with A lot of apprehension? Just living day by bay with a lot of tension? Maybe you’re at a “low point” and very “distraught.” In life’s circumstances… you feel trapped and caught. If you feel confused… Like you’re in a “trance…” God’s word says to TRUST HIM, in every circumstance! God’s here to pick you up,\ when you stumble! He’s always do it, And never grumble! If life’s dealt you a bad hand, don’t try name it! Jesus loves you so much! It’s hard to explain it! All of heaven invites you to Invite Jesus as your lord! An eternal life with him, can be your great reward! By Jim Pemberton


Details | Light Poetry | |

Going Home

Tightly braided
With tears of doubt
Fearing tomorrow
If Pete’s not about

To comfort her sorrows
Or tousle the hair
Of the children she bore him
Days past tense, days fair

Or will she stand
At the dock
Waving fondly goodbye
Knowing he’ll see her
Knowing she’ll cry

Then someday when children
Have families, are grown
She’ll meet Pete at the dock
And together go home


Details | Lyric | |

In Bloom

Written July 29, 2013


The wind blows the rainbows down
Turns your frown upside down
Then spins it back around

The sun hides the moon
Underneath its coat in bloom
The flowers came late this June

The rain in a teardrop
Falls like dew from a leaf
When she looks at me

See that look upon her face
Used to take her to the stars
Now she's headed back from Mars

Now that Venus loves her more
Wouldn't throw her to the floor
Like before


Details | Ballad | |

William part 1

I ask all to be open minded as I tell the story of my friend,  William .
There are so many prejudice in this World , from color to sex 

To me it has always been the soul , the person inside 
For one that is shallow will not experience life in true blessing 

William my friend was African American , he was fun and personality full of 'I am here "
William was Gay , William disowned , William called "A queer "

Well this is a lesson for all to know
God does not care what color , but the heart , what color it shows .

I had left my 1st Husband , with 2 children I had to support .
I was depressed , felt alone in the civilian World of a sort 

For when I got to Monterey bay , I was on a Military base 
Very shy and recluse , not leaving the perimeter of the land 
I opened such a big door when I left that abusive Man 

I had the tiniest apartment with 2 little rooms , probably 550 sq. feet I presume .
I will never for get the night He came to my door , William ," Girl, lets go dancing 
Let's go explore ! He called me 'The platinum Blonde "

We went out together and danced , he was amazing ! William energized any room . He Lit it Up ! 
For he had something inside his beautiful soul , no money could buy, nor silver or gold.

Well years went by in Monterey bay , I had fallen in love with a man , Lost so much time .

Time went by , after the man broke my heart ,I remember "where is William "
I missed something that lies  deep in my heart . The true Love and friendship of he I craved .

Now this story is long so go to  "William part 2  "be patient , be brave .


Details | Tanka | |

THE NIGHT WILL ALWAYS COME

Trees swaying at night
Dark…with stars shimmering bright
Silhouettes of you
I hear the music inside
It has stopped and you are gone


Details | ABC | |

In your memory

Thank you for the beautiful memory
you left on my mind
you are not dead
 but you are not here,

to me you are gone,
cos i cant feel you the way i used to,
everything you used to do are left untouched
the space you ocupied is empty,

our yesterday is fading away like the rainbow
so beautiful but so short,
how can i forget the endless yesterday?
when you are here with me.


in loving memory of my sister (you are not an angel but you did what an angel can do,you fly to heaven.)


Details | Rhyme | |

Are You Ready to Meet Jesus

Are You Ready to Meet Jesus? One day soon, there’ll be A meeting In the air! God’s people will gather, from everywhere! Jesus will return,, for you and me! He wants to take us all! For eternity! People will be there! Both young and old! Being with Jesus forever! On streets paved with gold! When he comes, no one knows! When he does, may we be ready to go! Live you life, as if He came right now! One day, before him, Every knee shall bow! May we live a Godly life, in everything! As we look forward to, the return of the king! By Jim Pemberton


Details | Ghazal | |

CLOSE HABIT

CLOSE HABIT (GHAZAL)

I sniffed a habit called close 
I cut my heart to see you close 

I kiss your hands and neck 
Each time I pull you close 

I kiss your cheeks and eyes 
For keeping your beauty close 

I kiss your pains and tears 
Each time your wound close 

I kiss your world with a seal 
Nobody jealous can get close 

I kiss your shadow and smell 
Now for worry gap you close 

I kiss your lingerie’s and rings
Behind each door you close 

I kiss your tongue and lips 
For every secret you disclose 

I kiss your divorce certificate 
Until I find someone close 

April 11, 2011 
by Mohlouoa Ntsasa


Details | Rhyme | |

Paper Thin

Your paper-thin porcelain skin,
I know how to get right under it.
For kicks is why I do it now.
You tell me to love but I never knew how.
Our feet hitting pavement,
We spent the day in sunny California with sun kissed skin.
I’m learning to forget and how to fade scars,
And you let me let myself down so hard.

Your paper-thin porcelain skin,
I know how to get right under it.
And now I just do it for smiles,
We’ll never see flower girls stumbling down aisles.
I’d lose my head just before that chance,
But if you want we can still have a first dance.
Cause I think I say things that I don’t mean,
Once upon a time you meant the world to me.

Your paper-thin porcelain skin,
I know how to get right under it.
But I’m trying to refrain,
To make this not all end up in vain.
Maybe I can learn to love like some people do,
And you can learn to love yourself a little too.
Or it is in all fairness to let this go?
I guess we can try but then we’ll never know. 


Details | Ballad | |

Her Face

Her Face was perfection, Still see it everywhere
The beauty in her eyes, Please forgive my stare
Though to confess my love, 
Oh no, I wouldn't dare...
So I'll just keep thinking of her, But it's just not fair

Her Face won't go away, So engrained in my mind
This girl was different, Unlike any other I'll ever find
Oh how the two of us, 
How our lives could've aligned...
So now, to everyone else, My heart is blind

But she'll never know,
Just what I would've done to be with her!
That I'd gladly travel through time and space
Just to appreciate her beauty,
And wake next to Her Face

Her Face comforts me, Holds me tight and dear
Takes me to another world, A new frontier
I'm dreaming where she loves me so much, 
That part is clear...
But as I awake, Just shed another tear

Her Face and her love, I won't ever forget
Lust for her will remain, Lips will get wet
I'll be reminded of her, 
At each days sunset...
And I'll remember everything, From the first day we met

But she'll never know,
Just what I would've done to be with her!
That I'd gladly travel through time and space
Just to appreciate her beauty,
And wake next to Her Face

Her Face is the sunshine, A universal light
With it's soul and it's passion, It was quite a sight
Oh how just to see her, 
Brought me such delight...
But here I am all alone now, Another late night

Her Face will surely lift someone up, With unconditional love
So what will come of me, Can I rise above?
Without Her Face, 
I'm unsure thereof...
Because see, out of my mind, to her, I'll never shove

And she'll never know,
Just what I would've done to be with her!
That I'd gladly travel through time and space
Just to appreciate her beauty,
And wake next to Her Face

Her Face, I see it every night, In my dreams
Where everything will all align, Oh how it seems
We're walking together... 
Hands together, Along the forests blue streams

Her Face ignited feelings, Things I've never before felt
Just got to play the hand, The cruel hand I was dealt
I will always have my writing, 
To continue to dwell...
On a lost love to whom one day, I would've knelt


Details | Free verse | |

Like the frightened Jackrabbit, I run away from Love

Jump up and down like a jackrabbit
running through meadows
running from what?
Could it be heartbreak,
a venemous snake that hides in the grass,
hiding with fangs ready to pierce the tender skin
upon the tight, bronze flesh of everyday life?
Goodbye, Goodbye, Goodbye now!
I need a vacation a long way away from the faceless smiles
and ignorance of young girls, who don't look at you,
who don't show you love and respect.
Goodbye, Goodbye, Goodbye now,
as jumping spiders hop everywhere, crawling eight legs around me
my soul black like carcoal, but my heart still beating
slower this time, not like the days before
and like the jackrabbit running from anything and everything,
I run to seek love and vanish away from the empty voids
that people call, their souls.
Recording a film with no tape,
talking to a woman you love, but not having the guts to tell her how you really feel
Jump my boy, like a jackrabbit, take my advice
tell her before she leaves
turns down the endless avenues of endless dark love
the trees grow taller, taller than you
and you sit there feeling away yourself die, missing out in life.
I cannot see you lose your love.
Say it, say it, Say it!!! Tell her! Tell her! Build the guts up!
Build up the courage, tell her how you feel. Take her by the hand and never say goodbye! Never say goodnight, stay with her till the flight comes in the morning
of the first rays of sun shine through your dorm room take her and love her!
Do not be like me, the jackrabbit! I see no happiness
Reading poetry it makes me sad,
to write of others falling in love and I never finding the one.
People tell me, you'll find yours, have hope
but I am a frightened little jackrabbit
who flees from sounds of deep emotions, not having courage to fall in love,
not building the guts up to tell her how I really feel.
She walks alone, I find my oppertunity and sing my love song
She smiles and moves on,
please tell me I cannot fight anymore.
All I have to say is Goodbye, Goodbye, Goodbye
I need a vacation
to go to some sandy beach on an island of love
and write and write and write, the same poetry that depresses me
but makes you all fall in love with words!
Fiction about love stories, please kiss me
Blue eyed death comes, plays a game of chess with me
I bet twenty, he bets my soul
Kiss me death, the only love I'll ever get,
besides my poet friends who kiss my ass
Listen to my heart, truely, I don't write of beauty
I write for the sorrow soul, the fleeing jackrabbit
running away from love.....


Details | Romanticism | |

Together Again

A girl whom he'd forgotten
At his door, showed up the other day
The one he'd always wanted
Just knew not what to say

The boy she longed to hold
She caught his eyes once again
Of her love, to him, she never told
But this time, all her love, she will send

Once in a lifetime, and not one time more
Fate takes hold, luck is lent
From out of the blue, a miracle occurs
Hearts reunite, Together Again

She greets him with a smile
A sparkle in her eyes
For his love, she'd run for miles
To try this thing called love, just one time

Gazing at her beauty, he feels her in heart
Remembering those nights, with her, in his dreams
And how he felt at this whole love's start
Where they'd be one forever, to him, oh how it seemed

Well this girl's name was Katie, and his Steve
And oh how tears were shed, by them both, when they were forced to leave
But in the past that was, so now he holds her hand
Two angels together, forever they'll stand

Once in a lifetime, and not one time more
Fate takes hold, luck is lent
From out of the blue, a miracle occurs
Hearts reunite, Together Again

An old couple now, a lifetime of love
They've conquered all, risen together, above
Together, all the years, oh how they've spent
And to each other, all their love they have sent

Feeling each others hearts beating every morning
Through all the decades, all the happy years
Steve's heart though, one of these days, stopped without warning
And Katie's wrinkled face, moistened with tears

How could Katie live now, without her beloved by her side
Knowing that beside her, his heart slowly died?
She dreams every night now, just as he did before, of heaven
Where they'll be Together Again

Once in a lifetime, and not one time more
Fate takes hold, luck is lent
From out of the blue, a miracle occurs
Hearts reunite, Together Again


Details | I do not know? | |

Can't Be Friends

Before, while, and after I said goodbye
I couldn't help but sit there and cry.
I cried on and off for 7 hours and slept one
Woke up and cried again, I still wasn't even done.

Two more hours…wake up again.
Every so often a tear falls in the open.
I literally feel an aching pain in my chest
Thinking of how I lost you, wanting to forget.

I'm feeling sick and I still haven't ate.
I want you…my thoughts aren't straight.
Mane, almost every tweet...is about you
And almost every thought…is about who?

Someone who could have been playing me
Or showing me where my desires could lead.
I wanted to tell you everything, I wanted to say more,
There wasn't enough time and now my broken heart's feeling so sore.

I just wanna be alone and listen to this depressing song,
I can't get you out of my head... it hurts. Is that wrong?
I understand that I may be foolish wasting my time hurting over you.
But in all honesty my dear, I really wanted us to be something too. 


Details | Free verse | |

I Wish

I wish that I wasn't venomous
That my lips weren't laced with poison
So that I could kiss you without feeling guilty
I wish that my love had value
Not the fools gold that you treated like treasure
So that you could live not like a peasant, but a king
I wish that I wasn't made of sweet cotton candy lies
That I could feed your soul instead of sending it on highs then sudden sugar crashes
So that I could hold you without worrying you'll starve
I wish I was pure
Not tainted by my mother's mistakes and a stranger's fingers
So that I could be the lover you deserve
I wish that the voices in my head were silent
That they didn't whisper the same things over and over
So that I could belong to you and not the darkness that hides in my past
I wish that you hadn't left me
That you still held me when I cried
So that I wasn't so alone
I wish


Details | Ballade | |

My Dearest Daughter

I want you to know my dear daughter
I thought of you every day
The thought you say your daughter hates me
The question asked is how can a baby hate

The answer is, a baby learns what it is taught
I never raised you to hate in any way
To disrespect or live such a troubled way

You've hurt me like no other has
In such a way it no longer bothers me
Although I think of you more then you'll know
I no longer care if I see you again

You were my dearest, my one and only
And the day I gave birth to you
Gave me bragging rights in all that you do
I showed I was proud,  you didn't understand

Much time has gone by
I hardly think of you any more
The day will come, you will need me again
That day will be, when it's much too late

I won't be the one who will be so hurt
You will find that you waited much to late
My time will have ended on this dear earth
I will be gone, spending my time in Heaven

I will watch over my dear granddaughter
I will guide, guard and protect her
From the evil that you teach her
That my dear daughter is a promise

I will take care of her, from above
I will teach her how to love, honor and respect
Things I did teach you, you weren't paying attention

I want you to know my dearest daughter
I loved you before you were born
And I loved you 'till my dying day

I now love you from above
But now you're on your own without my love
Just remember this my dear daughter
You took the love I had to give my granddaughter
From her life, she'll never know

You cheated her, from a part of life
She will find out, and pay you back
When that happens, remember this
It's the same, you did to me


Details | Rhyme | |

Fly away

Sitting here exchanging words
Lost like hungry - wingless birds
Hungry - lost like a homeless child
Running free and running wild
No matter which words we use
We know we both will lose

This is a war no one can win
we both turn the other chin
we both try another view
Try to find something new
But whatever we do or say
You know I can never stay

So I’ll fly away - fly way
I leave at night to find the day
Fly away fly away
You never thought I would stay
anyway

I always wanted to be the one
that fought the war and always won
When I am gone there is no war
Nothing to fight for any more
I hate the day so I’ll leave at night
To make my shadows shine on bright

You never saw the winds of change
Never heard our words grow strange
You never felt there was a war
or anything worth fighting for
So  wherever you will go from here
You will know that I’m not there


Details | I do not know? | |

Losing You

Crying over someone who's probably not even missing me.
My poor heart's steady crumbling like an eroded rock in the sea.
Walking around as if you haven't even crossed my mind
As soon as I get alone all this pain just reveals itself, unwinds.

I didn't think I'd lose you like this... I was unprepared.
Things like this? That's why attachment gives me such a scare.
You don't even know how much I'm hurting inside Edmond.
I'm crying again... haven't eaten... barely been sleeping.

So many ways for you to be taken from me, I didn't see this.
I'm so frustrated... I'm so sad... but not at all pissed.
My dad's reasonings are more than reasonable, I'll do as he says,
But I miss waking up to your voice... and those couple lettered texts.






I am so ...sad.


Details | Free verse | |

Goodbye Forever

…Said the Mind to the Heart, we do not work together to run this place all we do is argue and fight.  This place use to run so simple and sweet then you came out your cage to take a peak. 

“I know this is true”, you’d plea to the rest of us Body and Soul, like fools we did listen as you said we’d be whole.    Against all reason yes you won that debate that we ventured on out and yes it was great!!!  

We have not ever since the birth of our seed been as happy as this to see you beat so hard and so strong.  As you reached out and grew stronger forged within what seemed an everlasting flame.  We took that happiness and strength that it gave and made that Leap of Faith as they say.

Now what happened then, oh strong Heart of mine, you were so filled with joy that it made us blind.  You caused us to believe that Love conquers all that we didn’t see the rocks coming out of the falls.

We hit and kept falling all bloody and beat but you continued to believe we would land on our feet.  We listened once more, although I petitioned to stop yet your Love was so strong that it crushed all other thought.

We hit and we sank in the darkness of the abyss and it opened our eyes while it weakened your grip.  Shattered and weak from the blood that you lost I picked up your pieces and put them back in your box.

I mended your wounds and bandaged you up but a piece still was missing you wouldn’t give up.  The cliff that we hit so hard still has a piece of your beaten up heart.  You left it there as a beacon of light to find your way back when you’re ready for flight.

My dear fragile Heart I cannot allow it as you wouldn’t survive another fall down it.  So we have decided us Body and all to lock you away in the depths of our Soul.  Poor mislead, barely breathing, yet you insist that it is not over.  

You’re blinded by Love even in your poor state but I pray you keep it that way so it won’t turn to Hate.  This is why you are banished and locked back away until we do pass or if Love brings your piece that you left back.  

For that piece is the key to unlocking these binds but be sure we will fight it with logic not emotion.  So sleep dear Heart of mine as best as you can for you won’t bother anyone ever again…….

And neither they you.

Author 
-JS- 


Details | Free verse | |

But with the evil, came the good

All turned down to the worst
as the children lost innocence,
as the bums drank their last breath away,
as the man eating sharks finding their way,
to the over-crowded sandy beaches,
as the man turn to the woman
and gave her a slap across the face,
as the thef steals in the night,
as the coward goes behind his loved ones' backs,
as the oil lanterns spill over and burn the bridges
to salvation and paradise.
Something always happens to the good guy,
a knife in the back in the midst of dawn,
his woman leaving with another man,
he dying slowly of cancer,
or suffering from intoxication of the blood.
Poison. Poison, ravages his body,
oh, how could God let such things happen
to such a good man?
His life work, his social life, his nirvana
all destroied, burned away, turned to dust.

But with the evil, came the good.
Yes with time and time again
repeating itself in a circle of time,
across the crossed faces,
as blue eyed Death smiles
and as the girls grin,
Everything came into place,
Anyway with evil, came the good.
Indeed it had came right to his front doorstep.


Details | Tanka | |

Love's city limits

Love’s city limits

Hands still warm but letting go

Stars sparkle in tears

Glimmering eyes say goodbye

I should not have let you go

 

Michael F. Lewis

3/8/2013


Details | Free verse | |

If Only I could, I Will

If only I could tell the sun to stand still to stall the date of your going, I will; 
If only I could tell the wind to stop moving that not a thing shall be able to fly, I will; 
If only I could turn every deserted place a green pasture so you would be exploring no more, I will; 
If only I could make every insult to sound like a joke so that one won't be hurt but laugh, I will; 
If only I could turn my every thought into an immortal song that without trending you'd be inspired to sing, I will; 
If only I could literally show how much love I have for you by physically opening my heart, I will; 
  
I could only wish: IF ONLY – because it will never will. 

Yet, the most I can do is wish: 
That I can hold back my tears at the date of your going; 
That the wind shall be its fairest for you to have a safe flight; 
That the place you are heading is the greenest of the pastures anyone would hope to settle; 
That you will be spared of any kind of mockery and insult from a discriminating crowd; 
That you'll be free from stress, fatigue, and discomfort; 
That mine thoughts that you ignored maybe a line of your favourite song; 
That the heart of the one you will find to love shall have a love, so true, like this love I have for you; 

Finally, if I shall be lucky to reach my old age, I hope to have the same consciousness even in  my deathbed, that before giving up my ghost, I still can make a wish – a wish that you never had to go so that I would had spent a lifetime with you . .... ... 

Date & time of writing: 
January 7, 2012 
11:03am – 11:57am 


the sentiment of a lover when true love has to be compromised in paving way to a beloved's call of fortune


Details | Blank verse | |

Letting Go

Let me stow 
Or let me throw
Away our love 
That died a while ago.

Let me wallow 
Or let me know
That you can 
Free me from my woe.

Let me grow 
Or let me show
Why I may never 
Truly let you go.

Let me go 
Or let me know
That you will 
Always love me so.

Let me sow 
Or let me bestow
All of my hope for us 
To again be struck by cupid’s bow.


Details | Rhyme | |

Star

Dear star up in the sky
May i have one wish to buy
I'll give it all don't make me cry
Please oh please I want to try
Try to wish away these lies

The hurt the pain I'll sacrifice
What ever it takes I'll pay the price
To know the truth would be so nice

Please don't leave me out to dry
I'll beg I'll plead just hear me why
Why's my heart left to die

Really please look in my eye
Do not be shy

Star I need to know why
Why my heart was left to die
On that cold dark night he said good bye.

<3 Kalee Lynn


Details | Rhyme | |

Last Dance

The last time I saw you alive you hugged me tight and said my name as we danced. We only moved a few steps but it felt like the music played until the DJ said last call.  Little did I know you were teaching me the new step, the step of letting go.
Never had I felt the expression of dance embodying my nerves with love from head to toe.
I watched over you as you tossed and turned to find comfort with your discomfort... With your pain!
I wished I could have shouldered your pain, I wish I could have bottled lighting so you can once again feel the purity of rain.
What is a spot light that doesn't dim?
An ANGEL!
A angel whom memories run through me like a white wall receiving invitation from a projector and its film.
My thoughts are lost within its thoughts leaving me vegetated.
I ain't much for letting go! As much as I love your new position I hate it.
I need your voice, I need to feel your warmth, I need to see your eyes piercing me, I need it.... I need it!
Slowly moving left to right as I lead you backwards I felt your breath sigh.
I swallowed that breath being breathed; I got you I got you!
The world lost focus as God placed our moment in HD.
I'm dancing my last dance for the memory of you and me.


Details | Romanticism | |

I think I can be happy now

I think I can be happy now 
There's some one new
memories are fading
the ones that made me blue.
The ones of you telling me
we were through
ive since forgiven you.
its all in the past.
its the future im looking to
life goes by way too fast.
so enjoy the happy times, 
They just may be your last.


Details | Rhyme | |

Jesus Paid the Sacrifice

Jesus Paid The Sacrifice! Jesus sacrificed his life for you and me! So we can be with him for all eternity! His life for ours… a ransom was paid IN FULL, This is why I I love HIM so! Upon his head were placed the crown of thorns, Enduring so much shame and scorn. The blood from his body as it began to flow! The pain inside his body, Began to grow! The nails placed in his feet and hands, The pain he went through is hard to understand. His life for ours, is what he gave! His life for ours… Is what he did trade! By Jim Pemberton


Details | Free verse | |

Her Final Words

"No." She whispered before drowning into her sorrows.
Her life had been a simple happy one. 
There were no pains and no troubles.
Life was life and people were people.
Life was simple.
and life was all about tomorrows.
Life didn't know about sorrows.
Her sorrows.
Those same sorrows that she drowned in never existed. 
They were never there, but where?
First to be sad in the naive town of joy.
Sorrow became contagious and what was known as happiness no longer was there.
It was non-exististent. 
A meager thought 
and a blessed memory.
She tried and tried.
She failed and failed.
Life was no longer hers.
For Pain was her only possession.
Her curse.
She lived and she died.
Yet, her legacy was passed on.
Never was it gone.
"No." She whispered before drowning in her sorrows, 
"Save them."


Details | ABC | |

Someone Elses Life

I feel like I'm living someone elses life, a life in strife. I've been strong, but when will I belong. I feel so alone, but I'm doing ok on my own. I can't describe the pain, but I keep in mind every storm runs outa rain. I use to think our love was unbeatable, but really its unforgettable. Everyday I walk down memory lane, trying to ignore the pain. He crosses my mind everyday, when will all this go away. There's gotta be something more, my heart is becoming sore. My momma doesn't have to worry, because I'm not sorry. I know he made the mistake, and he's the reason I have this heartache. What we had, was bad. I shouldn't have let it go that far, your just another scar.


Details | Free verse | |

Santeria Love Potion Number 9

after all those sleepless nights
i figured it out.
I'm not sick without you
I don't even miss you.
a piece of our sex is stuck in my sinuses;
like a virus is.

i can't remember how it felt to be inside you,
but i can taste it when i spit.
Your sweat a carnal vinaigrette,
lips  like mandarin oranges swimming in rose-water.
Soufflé sighs and martini moans.
 pallet full, stomach empty. 

Your face is a white blur, no black, maybe  grey
no
all these are too colorful.
You're a shapeless cloud of vapor
Refracting headlights on winding lonesome  roads in my mind.
Perfume.
Au' du recklessness, 
an earthy mix of lavender and salamander slime.
lakewater and sublime sing-alongs.
santeria love potion number 9.


Details | Ballad | |

LET LOVE BACK

Baby I 'm thinking what I 've done 
That I 'd easily let you gone 
I never meant to let you down 
Now I 'm miserable and drown 

I wanna tell you I 'm sorry 
My life now is in misery 
I 'll try to make things out 
Lets back our love at south 


Baby I 'm not here if not for you 
Lets back the memories of us two 
This time I 'm talking too much 
'Coz i needed you that such 


I can be some hard to understand 
But please bear my promise and take my hand 
For the times that I cant be there 
I 've regretted it, please love hear 


For the times that I have nothing at all 
You we're there every time I fall 
I 'm afraid to continue this life 
Without you there's no tomorrow 's light 


My life now is not an easy round 
Hoping for our second time around 
Give me another chance for the feelings I have 
'Coz Its gonna be real love.


Details | I do not know? | |

REST IN PEACE MUM ANN BROWN 18 AUG 2011

MUM ...

WHERE DO I START? I DON'T THINK THERE IS WORDS , TO EXPLAIN HOW I AM 


FEELING ABOUT THE LOSS OF YOU... BUT I WILL USE ALL THE STRENGTH YOU HAVE 


GIVEN TO ME , SO I CAN GET THESE FINAL WORDS OUT THE GUILT , SADNESS AND 

REGRET  FROM NOT SEEING YOU LIKE I WANTED TO  SO ****ING MUCH ,

 THEN THE PAIN OF NOT HAVING  A CHANCE TO SAY "GOODBYE" TO THE MOST 

BEAUTIFUL MOTHER COULD WANT, AND YES MUM I'M TALKING ABOUT YOUTO HOLD 

YOUR HAND, TO SEE YOU SMILE , TO HEAR YOUR VOICE, WOULD MAKE MY LIFE MORE 

WORTHWHILE. YOU TAUGHT ME HOW TO LIVE, BUT YOU NEVER TAUGHT ME HOW TO 

LIVE WITHOUT YOU I MISS YOU SO SO MUCH MUM, BUT THE LOVE IN MY HEART FOR YOU , WILL MAKE SURE 

YOUR LIFE , LOVE , WARMTH AND TOUCH , WILL LIVE ON FOREVER , 

IN ME I KNOW THAT YOU CHANGED ME , JUST FROM YOUR 

PRESENCE...THATS'S HOW STRONG YOU WERE MUM I KNOW YOU HAVEN'T LEFT ME , 

FOR THE LOVE IN MY HEART REMAINS , YOU WILL NEVER HAVE TO SUFFER AND YOUR 

BODY WILL FEEL NO PAIN...... GOD TOOK YOUR HAND , AND MADE US PART , HE CLOSED 

YOUR EYES , AND BROKE MY HEART ....FOR ALL THE TIMES WE HAVE BEEN TOGETHER,

I WILL NEVER FORGET YOUR FACE.

THERE IS NO MOTHER ANYWHERE LIKE YOU,

NO ONE COULD TAKE YOUR PLACE.

IF ONLY I HAD KNOWN YOU WERE LEAVING,

I GUESS I EXPECTED YOU TO FOREVER LAST,

ALL OF THE DREAMS OF US IN THE FUTURE,

ARE NOW BUT MEMORIES OF THE PAST.

GOD TAPPED YOU ON THE SHOULDER,

HE WAS THE ONLY ONE WHO KNEW,

THAT YOU WERE GOING WITH HIM,

TO THE SKY SO BEAUTIFUL BLUE.

ALTHOUGH I MAY NEVER SEE YOU MUM,

ARJAY WILL BE BY YOUR SIDE,

HE'S GONNA HOLD YOUR HAND,

AND LEAD THE WAY,

FOR HE WILL BE YOUR GUIDE.....

I LOVE YOU MY MOTHER.....
DON'T TELL ME THAT YOU UNDERSTAND, 
DON'T TELL ME THAT YOU KNOW,
DON'T TELL ME THAT I WILL SURVIVE,
HOW I WILL SURELY GROW.
DON'T TELL ME THIS IS JUST A TEST,
THAT I AM TRULY BLESSED,
THAT I AM CHOSEN FOR THIS TASK,
APART FROM ALL THE REST.
DON'T COME AT ME WITH  ANSWERS THAT CAN ONLY COME FROM ME,
DON'T TELL ME HOW MY GRIEF WILL PASS,
THAT I WILL SOON BE FREE.
DON'T STAND IN PIOUS JUDGMENT OF THE BONDS I MUST UNTIE,
DON'T TELL ME HOW TO SUFFER,
DON'T TELL ME HOW TO CRY.
MY LIFE IS FILLED WITH SELFISHNESS,
MY PAIN IS ALL I SEE,
BUT I  NEED YOU,
I NEED YOU YOUR LOVE UNCONDITONALLY.
ACCEPCT ME IN MY UPS AND DOWNS,
I NEED SOMEONE TO SHARE,
JUST TO HOLD MY HAND AND LET ME CRY,
AND SAY, MY FRIEND I REALLY DO CARE
Mom you mean the world to me
It’s hard to live without you ,You were always by my side
Through thick and thin you helped me


Details | Rhyme | |

Their Final Farewell

Duty called once again for the warrior brave and true.
His loving family gathered about to wish him a sad adieu.
The somber skies cast a pall upon the poignant scene,
As they bid farewell to their hero, their United States Marine!

He held his parents and they whispered, "God go with you son.
We'll pray for your protection until your tour of duty is done.
Remember well the lessons in Sunday school that you were taught,
And that the Twenty-third Psalm will comfort you when you are distraught!"

He knelt holding Danny saying, "You're the man of the house now.
I love you, son!" and tenderly kissed him upon the brow.
To little Nan he said, "Keep that smile on your pretty face."
His eyes misted as he kissed her and held her in close embrace.

As his children clasped his legs he held his sweet wife near.
They promised eternal love vowing, "I'll always love you dear.
I'll hold you in my heart - I eagerly await a happier day!"
With a final kiss he grasped his duffel and slowly walked away.

'Twas to be his final battle and then he would at last retire,
To regale his children and grandchildren nigh a glowing fire.
Alas, 'twas not to be for on the field of strife he perished,
Sacrificing all for his nation and those he loved and cherished.

Robert L. Hinshaw, CMSgt, USAF, Retired
(c)  All Rights Reserved


Details | Lyric | |

TORN - Song Lyrics

TORN (song Lyrics)

A part of me wants to leave you alone
A part of me wants for you to come home
A part of me says I'm living a lie
And that I'm better off without you.

A part of me says to think it through
A part of me says I'm over you
A part of me wants to say goodbye
A part of me is asking why?

A part of me wants to leave
But a part of me wants to be here with you
And every time I think we're over and done
You do something to get me back loving you
And you got me just torn.

Torn in between the two
'Cause I really wanna be with you
But something's telling me
I should leave you alone
But I really want to be with you.

And you got me just torn in between the two
'Cause I really wanna be with you.

There were no issues when we started out
It was cool, it was everything that love's about
But something happened, plus I feel it's over now
'Cause I can't understand you now.
Now, I just can't understand you now.

A part of me says it's all my fault
A part of me says he ain't what you want
A part of me says to get my bags
A part of me says I can't do that.

A part of me wants to leave
But a part of me wants to be here with you
And every time I think that it's over and done
You make me fall back in love.

So many times I had my foot out the door
So many times I thought to give you a chance
Thought you'd be a better man
Now I'm sitting here and I'm so confused.

'Cause I keep fighting myself for you
I don't know how much more I can take
But I can't feel this way
You got me so torn...


Details | Dramatic monologue | |

Marrying Kind

I once told you I was not the marrying kind
Yet you opened me up
Like a large vast empty hole
And filled me to the brim with your love
Making me fall 
Making me believe
Making me whole once again
I kept telling you 
Trying to make you understand
That if I truly let you in
You couldn’t 
Shouldn’t
Leave me
I see it happening now
Im dressed in all white
And there you are
At the end in a tux
I guess I am the marrying kind
But only to you
Just then
You rip the beautiful seams of our story
Taking the floor out from under my feet
Making me stand on uncertainty 
You say you aren’t sure anymore
But that’s okay
Because I love you
And I know that’s enough
I can show you that what we have
Is real
Im not leaving you
I am here for you
Just remember 
That I am not the only one in this relationship
Who will really be left standing alone
When this all comes to a bitter end


Details | Rhyme | |

our love

our love has come and gone
just like the freshly played melody of our song
though i cannot lie
i will sigh
to you i will say a final goodbye
our love has faded away
like a breeze on a hot summers day
our love has gone out of fashion
and its time to move on
because our love has come and gone
like the faded memory of our song
and with a sigh
to you i say a final good bye


Details | Blank verse | |

Goodbye

From the day I met you,
I felt everything was new
waking up each morning with a smile
taking away the pain that I feel for a while......
but love seems not to be fair 
because you hurt me and give me a tear
how I wish I didn't met you
how I wish I never loved you
for loving you just means "Goodbye"
I must go on with my life
and forget the wound i have inside
for I know time will come that this pain will subside
saying goodbye would be the best I guess
setting you free is maybe your happiness
but always remember this........
though you hurt me so,
I'll still always love you 
but saying "Goodbye"would be the best thing to do.......


Details | Light Poetry | |

The end

I’m waiting for my life to end
But the end is so far
My life has become useless
For I can’t live with out her

I look around me
But all I see is loneliness
She just wipes me off her heart
Like if i never ever exist

when i,m depress I go driving
As fast as I can on the highway
Hoping I will die in an accident
And never have to hurt another day

The shadow of unhappiness
Has cover me like a blanket
Bringing me pain and misery
That will end only when I’m in a casket

But she will never know that day
When it ever my death do arrive
For she don’t even care
How hard it was for me to survive

How do I live again?
When there’s no life inside of me
How do I face the day?
Knowing she doesn’t love me

I don’t know to stop my tears?
When my heart is grieving
She knows it was going to kill me
But If didn’t stop her from leaving

Just to think that right now
others are enjoying her company
And sharing her smiles
It tearing out the heart in me

I’m writing a goodbye letter
Address to all who may concern
I could no longer live with out her
So I will go to hell and forever burn

The lights of the truck was blinding
My mind’s distracted with her memory
As the metals and glass inters my heart
And brings to end my sad life story

The crowd gathered to see what happen
Some hold the breathe and cried
As she is out clubbing with her friends
They find a lifeless bloody body inside


Details | Light Poetry | |

Cheating Hearts

Feeling like we are growing apart, broken trust is the process how it starts.
Adulteration I suddenly became, a substance that tends to contaminate.
I lessen in the value of your love, from me being unfaithful committing adultery.
You start to deprecate expressing the hate, your disapproval begins to belittle.
Me saying sorry holds no weight.
Abomination arousing your feelings of disgust leaves my head hung.
 Pulling triggers on a gun, decapitation from hurting your feelings.
I pray for forgiveness, I start to feel demented.
Love turns to mental illness; I diminish.
Do not walk away, please just listen when I told you I love you, I meant it.
If you can have mercy on me it will be a blessing. 
A disposition to forgive, I promise to never do it again.
I cannot lose you; you are my collagen the protein that feeds my bones.
If you could love me once, we shall overcome.
If you can look me in my eyes and tell me your love for me has died, I will regretfully stand a side.
My cheating heart slowly withers apart.
Love that was once pure and true has now became nonexistence, since the moment I betrayed you.
You started your modifications as your emotions start the process of changing.
I watch you turn into a mutant because of my cheating.
I know there is nothing I can say to comfort you.
Your heart is hurting just as much as mines do.
As I watch your heart tear apart, both of our heart beats stop.
Devitalize as we weaken the consistency of our relations.
 We both became a cheating heart descended inheriting emotional characteristics.
Our hearts dying slowly, while pretending to be living simply coexisting.


Details | Rhyme | |

If I die before I wake

As I die he will be with me,
I fell in love he had the key,
And always knelt on one knee.

My last thoughts are of him, 
As the lights go dim,
Life circling on a rim.

All at once we are apart,
The taste is so tart,
It all hits me in the heart.

You are left to live,
My heart your captive,
There is nothing to forgive.

My cheeks blush so shy,
With a tear in my eye,
As I start to die.

Fear not for I am well,
As many up here can tell,
It is not quite hell.

As I look from above,
kissing the forehead of my love,
I wonder what he dreams of.

I look at him so fondly,
his lips curve so grandly,
as he sleeps so soundly.

I'm like a hummingbird fluttering over his bed,
I wish to be with him but I am dead,
My life over and has fled.

I fear for my love for he is kind,
Strong handsome and well lined,
But now I leave him way behind.

Finding love is like a quiz,
Never knowing what it is,
He needs love from a heart as strong as his.


Details | Prose Poetry | |

I Hope You Know I'll Always Love You

I am what you call a hopeless 
romantic,
But im also a lost lovers cause, my 
heart belongs to another
Yet in my head a love triangle starts 
to form, the girl I love doesn’t love 
me
She holds the heart to another and 
mine caged to the floor,
She isn’t afraid to fight for what she 
wants, not even when it comes to 
leaving another man torn
Trust me she’s happy, as that boy 
holds her heart ever so close
Seeing what I shouldn’t I smile as I 
wear my blind fold,
Blind to everything around, lifeless 
staring into air
My train of thought running so fast, 
the second I stop you’ll hear a crash
Derailing my hope, for ever finding a 
love so pure & rare
Wishing I could hold the hand of the 
lover who stole my flame,
Wish I could change the last days in 
which we parted ways,
Realizing now that we can never be 
the same
Finally saying it out loud as tears run 
down my face
You stole my happiness, as I walked 
away that day
But it’s because as of what you said 
I guessed I changed,
Now every relationship has just be 
the same,
No one can seem to bring back that 
flame,
Because a love likes ours comes 
once in a lifetime
Well at least it does to me,
But I mean you’re happy with who 
your with 
I mean I only wrote this as I heard 
exchanging “I love you” flow from 
each of your lips.


Details | Couplet | |

GOODBYE

The leaves are crying 
Winter takes charge

The daylight is gone 
Quietness takes place

The church bell is ringing goodbye 
Angels are singing welcome

The time is getting high 
Check out what is left behind 

So quicker than thought 
Yet a life is gone 

Everyone will go this journey 
Time unknown to anyone is the reason for this goodbye in tears


Details | Dramatic Verse (Verse Drama) | |

Refrain

                  

They say you'll forget the old song,
That musical pledge to belong. 
But traces remain,
Its stunning refrain
Now weighs on the one left alone.

The vibrancy sparkling her eyes
Had vanished the day of goodbye.
The numbness of shock,
A mirror to mock,
Reflecting no image of why.

Months later, you cried in your sleep,
As time grants a final release.
To pause and recall
The bloom of it all,
Two flowers long fallen to seed.


Gene Bourne
03-16-14


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Details | Free verse | |

TICKLE MY FUNNY BONE

This is about my best girlfriend.
How she attracted men.
When we were in school, boys really doted on Sue.
She is about 5 ‘2.’
Black and beautiful
This poem is concerning one.
His name was Samuel.
While we were in the gym, he wanted Sue to be attentive.
She ignored him well with another male.
He came up the bleachers with a chair.
Said, “That’s my woman Israel.”
Israel gave him the eye.
He stopped and smiled.
Sue sat through it all.
Today she is alone.
Please laugh out-loud.
Because what tickles the funny bone is when you imagine the jokes that went on.
Israel asked, “Samuel why she with me?”
Samuel responded and stated, “She is a cheat.”
Israel came around, took the chair from Samuel, and both begin to court Susan.
The morale of it all is this does not tickle the funny bone.
_______________________________________________/
Note:
This creative write was a motivation drawn from Francine Roberts contest 
"Tickle My Funny Bone."  I wanted to thank her for this motivating writing tool with the flip side of her request.  This will not be entered.


Details | Acrostic | |

changing direction

Where do you go when there's nothing left of yourself to give to love someone who is always changing directions? Leaving you picking up the pieces over and over again. While you wait for them to give you all of their heart. Is it fair that every night you go to bed alone? Crying and Praying for them to be there with you. Holding you in their arms and hearing them say I love you and everything will be ok. I'm here to love and help you. Only to find out the next morning their gone again. leaving you think its time to change direction in your life that you deserve better.  While they never saw it coming to an end.  You did by putting your heart back together again for the last time and getting over them.  For the last time Your changing direction in your own life by taking back control of your heart .  Never letting them know they could have had the best of you. If they would have just realized you needed them to be there for you.


Details | Verse | |

OPEN LETTER TO 2013

I’m not gona say much!

You came and made yourself at ease
At a time when it was hard for me to release
Any emotion for the common creation

You came with joy and sorrow
And sometimes you made it hard for me to follow

Fighting was our tradition
We broke up then reconciled
You made me laugh and cry
In keeping that balance you shined

I hated you for a while, and then you showed mercy and consideration
So with devotion I dived in the darkness of your emotion. 

Ups and downs we went through
But at the end i embraced you 

You tried to seduce me with your mellow days
You got me i must confess!
It was easy for you anyway!

Here we are!
Time to say goodbye 
Time is running, the clock is ticking!
I have to let you go and welcome your fellow!

Dear 2014
Hope you feel the same way I do
So let’s walk together through this journey 
And let it be one of my best memories!

Happy new year everyone

 © J. AMY


Details | Romanticism | |

Nothing I Can Do

There's this one girl I love I'm really missing
Hour by hour, and every second too
Remembering nights of lakeside kissing
But There's Nothing I Can Do

She was everything to me
A cool winter's breeze...
A warm summer's shore...
But oh how the time really flew
When she'd come knocking on my door
Now there's Nothing I Can Do

And while the days continue drifting past
My love for her still lasts
So I'll send it everyday to my love, just for you
Because there's really nothing more
There's nothing else
There's Nothing I Can Do


Details | Lyric | |

Sad Love

Lawd, last night I heard you call my name 
And I knew I was dreaming just the same. 
Lawd, last night I heard you call my name 
And I knew I was dreaming just the same. 
Sometimes, I think I should have stayed. 

Just didn't know what you were thinkin' 
When you saw me walking out the door. 
Just didn't know what you were thinkin' 
When you saw me walking out the door. 
Well, I guess it don't matter anymore. 

I saw you sitting there by the railroad tracks. 
Didn't you have your face down in your hands? 
I saw you sitting there by the railroad tracks. 
Didn't you have your face down in your hands? 
It sure was a sad love that we had. 
 



Details | Quatrain | |

Never Compromising

Never Compromising


My heart has moved on and tears have been shed.
Patience spread thin, relationship is dead.
When I talk you don't respond, withdrawn!
Tears have been shed and my heart has moved on.

Love was not enough, so much for destiny!
Tough, walking on eggshells is misery!
This life together has gotten rough
So much for destiny, love was not enough!

Never compromising, always a fight
the times I get the urge to write!
Constantly struck over-analyzing!
Always a fight, never compromising

Mind is wandering, strangers to conquer,
to much time has already been squandered!
Suffering has passed, now prospering!
Strangers to conquer, mind is wandering!!





For Andrea Deitrich's "Swap Quatrain" contest!
Name withheld until contest is over!


Details | Rhyme | |

Last Goodbye

Pages of my life turn by
Pictures in my mind survive
Memories in my heart flow
The chapters with you are closed

Children all grown with children of their own
Houses from small to big to small were home
Living was filled with laughter and tears
Days passed so quickly into years

God Bless the day I first met you
With one look I always knew
You were the one I loved, you were made for me
Now I am left with our precious memories

Those days when bills went unpaid
But somehow we always managed to save
That old Chevy that had to last one more year
Our first home our first child erased all our fears

We had each other and we were strong
Together we thrived, life was our song
I stand by your grave with misty eyes
I close our book with my last goodbye.






Details | Free verse | |

Paper Pink

A nurtured love
So unconditional
Somewhere in my past
Our hearts intertwined
A vow was once announced
We'll never part and hearts will be around

As we became more than lovers
You've kissed away the tears
As you hold me in your arms
You kept me safe from harm
And love never stop then

Yet, I've heard you one day
You really have to leave;
And told me If I love you, I have to be assesed
Not to see you for a day
To know if I can handle

My love is eternal
I followed your request
Never said where you were going
Silence everywhere
Still I have endured to show you that I care

I was filled with fear a day after the test
You never did come back; the laughter' gone
How can I go on and live without your love
Too late for me to know that you're sick and died so humble

You never let me know
Didn't want to see me mourn
But I'm crying like a river
Am I supposed to live a life once more?

I have read your letter on a pink paper
"No love I have found that turned sadness into gay
You have walked into my life that is more than a prize
Apologies to end a happy-together
You were left with only stolen moments
Each day with you my love keeps getting stronger
But the end is near
I have to set you free".

Teach me the art
The art of letting go
To know the good in holding on
When I already knew
We can't get along no more


Details | I do not know? | |

We Said Goodbye a Thousand Times

We Said Goodbye a Thousand Times

Don’t be sad about my parting
Don’t feel like you never said goodbye
For you and I both know deep in our hearts
That We Said Goodbye a Thousand Times
And shared so much love and joy every day
 
Be happy that I am now at peace
Be joyful that I have lived a wonderful life
Be happy that we have shared so much together
 
And remember I am always with you in a thought and a sigh
Every day when you see the beauty in nature think of me
Every day when you see the colorful flowers think of me
Every day when you see a frisky animal prancing around think of me
Every day when you look into the eyes of someone you love think of me
 
And know beyond a doubt that I am with you in everything you do
And know beyond a doubt that I am with you in everything you say
And know beyond a doubt that I am with you in every quiet moment of your life
 
Don’t be sad about my parting
Don’t feel like you never said goodbye
For you and I both know deep in our hearts
That We Said Goodbye a Thousand Times
And shared so much love and joy every day


Details | Couplet | |

If I should wake

Every night I try to sleep I lie awake tired and weak I dread waking the next day with fear it will end the same way.Then when I can see your face my life stops flowing as a disgrace my life blossoms like a flower praying together another hour.I bid farewell to you my friend. For the poem this is the end


Details | Free verse | |

A wilted Rose

I am nothing but a rose
A red one, a yellow one or even a black one
Whichever color you do prefer
It makes me that which I have always been
Nothing but a rose
A rose, once in full bloom
Once full of love, filling everyone with laughs
A rose, now so withered
Withered at the way my gardener treated me
Having been attracted to a lilly
He left, for the great ocean
And made of me
A wilted rose
Still, I am nothing but a rose
I am what you see
Whichever colour you prefer
All frail and fragile
Waiting for the end of the day
When the night will fall on me
And closed will be my petals
Hopefully, in my new garden
I shall meet my old gardener
Hopefully, to my fragrance he shall be enamored
Hopefully, he shall tend me
To grow into a strong and blooming tree
A rose, nothing but a rose
Say, if you do blow across my way
Remember,
Remember of my fragility!


Details | Free verse | |

A Flame once burned

There’s just one heart where there once was two
It’s a story of love we write on a shore
A promise of love we softly whisper

I hear you breathing softly by my side
The way I feel and what you mean to me
You are my lover, my friend.

And when I stand beside you
I can feel the pride of my heart
And its you that I’m going to stay

And now you say you want to leave
I can’t believe what I have just heard
You walk by and I fall to pieces
The clouds are all disappeared
My heart now cries a river of tears

Goodbye for the love once we shared 
We leave a flame once burned.
Bitter sweet memories we left behind.


Cheryl Aldea
December 4, 2012


Details | Rhyme | |

EYE Don't See -Part 3-

My eyes
Witness your departure
My eyes
Are dripping with hopelessness…
My eyes start to blur…
Melancholy put me under pressure…
Is there a cure to my disease? 

You don’t see
The shards of hope that once brought us back together
Just let me search for safety
I’m strong enough to realize that I’m no longer
The weakest prey out there…

And I’m left in my solitude…
Do you hear me whimpering like a distraught puppy left on the train tracks?

I’m close to my demise…save me and take me home

Nourish me…and be my beloved friend

Will this friendship last forever?

Hopefully it has no end

Will this cheerful moment help us get along with each other?

Because of you…I feel the need to run 
I keep an eye on you – I worry that you’ll hurt yourself again
Because of you…My freedom is nearly gone
I don’t wanna be caught off guard again
Because of you…EYE can’t picture a solution for our vexing dilemma 
Because of you…eye can’t focus on my long-term goal 

And I’m left in my solitude…
Do you sense that I’m giving in to failure? 
And I’m close to my demise…
Only to find myself disappear…I can’t endure 
The hardships that you place upon me…
Could you boost up my confidence to overcome 
My atrocious anxiety? 

I’m just waiting for some sun
To keep me in good hands…
To strengthen me with perseverance …
I’m just waiting until His son
Leads the world outtah Egypt and reveals to us…
His radiance…His dazzling Kingdom – 
Vibrant with glee

Your undying sympathy dawns upon us
I’m overflowing with indescribable joy  
You’re a candle in the night…
We meet eye to eye…
What a sight…what a precious sight


Details | Free verse | |

Frankie's Rocket

Frankie stood outside in the heat
Waiting for the sky to fall at her feet
She wanted to go past where the earth and sky meet
Falling for the sky her heart skipped a beat
 
Get into a rocket to get some space
So many miles into that outer place
She went way out there
But I wanted in
Lost the girl of my dreams
to the stars she had within
I know she set herself free
I just thought you'd wait for me
 
Frankie had a plan to fly alone
Now in outer space she is my home
Light years out of my grasp
Never thought that kiss was our last
As the smoke did clear from the rocket that crashed

Frankie I'm counting these stars for you
Lost my count around a million and two
Why did you have to leave this place
My girl who's alive in outer space


Details | Burlesque | |

What is next

I have been looking for my dream car, 1971 Chevelle. Carrying out dreams and goals are not bad things at all. There is a positive on this. I have a very vivid mind and it goes to work from time to time. Thats a feeling. It is hard for Ek to remember things. How i Feel. Song. Everyone thinks people are there to help them but everyone is out for themselves not trying to help each other out. It is all a dream she would have done this and she would have done that but she did not reply. Where did the girls go was the questions asked by all the guys and then discussed by the girls as they drive off. You were drunk, rambling, and you ran them away. Pure 3-2718space240Dash Bravo. What is this you ask? You can put pure in front of anything and sell It.


Details | Free verse | |

An Emptiness Inside

~An Emptiness Inside~

Right now I'm sitting here
Staring into space
Feeling so all alone

As tears begin to fill my eyes
And I begin to cry
My heart suddenly feels an emptiness inside
That here lately I just cannot hide

If only you were here to hold me,
I'd feel so protected...
With you by my side

My world feels so sad and blue
Feeling as though I'm forever going to lose you
Our love I thought was forever true?

You told me just the other night
That I was only a simple friend
I then began to believe that our relationship
Was only just pretend

I've pleaded with you to help make
This relationship of ours last
Baby, I beg of you...
Let's not dwell on the past

I'm so sorry if I have hurt you
But never forget my love for you
Was always true

Baby, I pray that I can 
Mend your broken heart
But for now I will continue to look forward
Day by day
Pray continually...
That we never, ever drift apart


Details | Rhyme | |

Hopeless Crusade

A summoning I’m trying to forget.                                                                                     There’s too much left between the ashes                     
Life lingers far except with me                    	                         
My screams don’t seem to reach you                       

The warmth it surged right through my essence              
Mine is not the same as yours                               
I want to feel me, can’t you see me?                           
It’s never like it was before.                           

Your voice echoes through me                              
As I go through life this way                                  
I hope you’re not watching me                                                               
Fight this hopeless crusade.                                    

Smoke is drifting				                                                                                       It reminds me of the fog			        
Debris is lifting				        
It reminds me that you’re gone.		        

I remember the infirmary 			        
Giving their apologies			        
I’m crying from the outside			        
I’m locked in from the inside			        
I can’t break free			                                                                                           You’re not coming back to me		        

Your life is missing			        
And now I’m alone			        
I’m reminiscing 			        
My heart beats like a stone.		        

These clouds just never seem to part		        
There’s not enough time to shield my soul	        
It hurts just knowing your touch is gone	        
Why can’t it be just like before?


Details | I do not know? | |

Moving On

I’m starting over again,
Feeling alive instead of dead,
I’ve made mistakes, who hasn’t,
But giving you my heart was the biggest.

Times were tough but
We had it all, didn’t we honey,
But the day you threw me away like
I was garbage I closed the door to my heart.

I’ll never be that girl again,
So fragile, so weak, so afraid of
Love, I’m facing my demons and I’m
Wading through the past, trying to find myself.

My heart was wearing
Thin but now I’m stronger,
You’re nothing but a stranger now,
And I’m moving on from the days when you were mine.

And maybe one day
You’ll look back and realize
I was the best thing in your dirty,
Miserable life and the mistake was letting me go.

But maybe not, it’s really
No longer my concern, you’ve
Turned your back a long time ago,
Now it’s time for me to walk away, alone.

I wanted you to stay,
I was in love with you but
Sometimes the thing you want
Isn’t always the thing you need, I know now.

Just tell me one thing,
Tell me if I ever meant any
Thing to you at all, even just once,
Damn, there I go getting all weak again.

You left a hole inside me
But slowly he’s the one who’s
Filling it with all the love and kindness
One can possess in this condemned world.

So now there’s you and
Now there’s him and I, but
No matter what you’ll always be
The first Love who broke my heart in the worst way....


Details | Romanticism | |

Discovering Love

What is this? This way I feel?
I've never felt before
A desire for a love to heal
A heart so cold and sore

Out with the old
And in with the new
To my past love, I never told
But I'm happy at the chance to meet you

Discovering Love is pretty overwhelming
In my heart, so many feelings assembling
So much beauty in so many faces
Spread across the world, in a million different places

I want someone to hold dear by my side
Each and every night
To be there when I want to hide
And tell me everything's alright

Meet someone with their heart so open, their eyes so wide
Who reminds me of the one I lost
To pick up the pieces, while to my life revive
And breathe love's warm fires on a heart of frost

She's out there somewhere, thinking of me
As I am of her
Just a blank face in our minds
For which our hearts slowly burn

Discovering Love is pretty overwhelming
In my heart, so many feelings assembling
So much beauty in so many faces
Spread across the world, in a million different places

And my past love will do the same
Meet someone kind, and new
Know he'll grow to love her name
Just as I did, and still do

What will come of them, I'll wonder
Pray she finds happiness beyond compare
Under the sun, rain, and thunder
But to share these feelings with my new love, I wouldn't dare

Discovering Love is pretty overwhelming
In my heart, so many feelings assembling
So much beauty in so many faces
Spread across the world, in a million different places


Details | Lyric | |

You lied under your breath

When you said you didn’t love me anymore
I knew it wasn’t you speaking you were coerced 
everyone was intervening like they had done long before

its frozen in my mind I still hear everyone on the phone 
Pressuring you to say goodbye to me 
you were stolen from me and that’s how I will always view it
You were made to be afraid of what happened years ago

They wanted you to remember the first time around
They didn’t want you to have a second chance with me
They made you think it would happen all over again
they put fear into your heart and confusion into your mind

one day your wanting to be back in touch with me 
Especially after I reached out and confessed the truth
you even asked about the ring I once gave to ypu
and the next day your looking to run and hide
Because everyone again is trying to tell you what to do

back in 95 your new boyfriend threatened to leave
simply because you were suddenly talking me 
he was showing his true colors too by trying to control you
and your family gave you stress and forced you to say goodbye to me

I lost you to someone that didn’t even smile a spineless prick
who knows maybe you really did want a daddy figure 
someone who was going to tell you what to do
to manipulate and control you to dictate what you should do 

or maybe it is just as well that you didn’t choose me
though you tossed the engagement ring back into my memory
If you didn’t love me then why was the ring at the top of your mind 
Was there a chance that ring would've changed everything

It was supposed to bring me dedication
It was suppose to represent a heart felt love
I remember the day I gave it to you
I remember the expression on your face

I remember your beaming smile
I remember how you were grinning from ear to ear
I remember the kisses you gave to me
that ring was like magic 

the symbol of our love
it meant you were for me and I was for you
our hearts danced thinking of the possibilities
But that ring created an evil bliss

For a whole year you wore it true
A glittering diamond and begets too
Wiggling your fingers and dedicating your love
I didn't lie when I said I loved you

But I lost my sense of identity
I wanted marriage badly but I just wasn’t ready
I let everything slip away
From the salt of my tears and the wailing of my soul 

you were supposed to heal my heart
you were an angel that gave me comfort you were my one true love
But I went into a fog and couldn’t find my way home


Details | Lyric | |

Where I Sit

I am not going to think about it ,
Can't do much from where I sit.
    Wasn't me that couldn't agree,
We know who it's so easy to see.
    Won't say much to help you out,
It was your decision that's no doubt.
     You've done no wrong I can hear you say,
Always the same with you every single day.
      Telling me I am wrong and just no good,
I should have left you back when I could.
      Now I am stuck  so in love wit you,
And all you want is something new.
      The evil and wickedness that you  soe
Has touched just about everybody you kow.
      Living the lie and playing the deceit,
Preying on the kind and gentle those who are weak.
       The day will come when you will pay ,
For all those you hurt along your way.
        It's not always good to come out on top ,
Especially when you see it's only you that you've got.
        Live out your days alone , sick and afraid .
You just wouldn't listen to anything I'd say.
        I am sorry my dear but this you did on your own,
It's your turn to suffer and you can never come home.
        I'm not going to think about it,
Wouldn't do any good from where I sit.
TAC


Details | Acrostic | |

forever

Forever,
It seems to me,
Since you lay right here.
Forever, 
I thought we’d be,
Till you disappeared.

A lighthouse sunk to the sea,
In the dark of the night.
With no light to guide me to you,
Ill drift here,
Till I can set sail again,
or forever fall at the edge of your reef.


Details | I do not know? | |

Free

Closed eyes.
Deep breath.
Count to ten.
It's not the end.
A change. For the best.
I'm stronger.
I never needed you
I was just afraid.
I let the fear of being alone, Hold me down.


Details | Prose Poetry | |

RAIN DROP

over you am hurt too
this i can say
i love you anyway
hard to carry own
you did me wrong
my love can;t stop
my eyes or like
RAIN DROPS


Details | Rhyme | |

Her Eyes

The ghostly eye returns
My stomach forevermore churns
I could feel its sick visions swelter the atmosphere
I could feel me giving into my fears
Feeling the shift slowly rise
Tonight was the night I would look into her eyes
To find only. . .tears


Details | Rhyme | |

The Night So Still

In a drunken state I lay here in bed with my notebook and a piece of pen, 
no one in my house not even family nor a rat in the den, 
creating another craft from pen and ink to seek the justice that my artistic sense needs,
for my art is dependent on sorrow for there like a vulture it feeds,

My memories have become a rotten corpse being eaten slowly by my art, 
cursed for my past and sorrow can never be apart, 
with the winds howling outside the window, 
I could hear the silence of a lonely widow,

Waiting for the man that's never going to come back ,
probably having his corpse being dragged inside a sack, 
hope has found one of it's victims again, 
sucking life out of once gleeful women, 

Like the widow I lost a majestic bird once, 
remembering her radiant face with just a glance, 
at a withering sunflower above my shelf,
remembering her lying down at the concrete turning cold alone by herself,

Time is cruel when it is needed, 
and my heart's sturdiness has already been tested, 
the trials of losing a loved one are harsh,
to the point that I'm still stuck in this pitiful sorrowful marsh, 

Nothing can ease this pain of mine but father Time himself, 
petals begin to fall on top of my shelf, 
one by one they fell, 
with no soul inside to go to either heaven or hell,

My sweet withering sunflower why have you abandoned me?
I never thought leaving you for work had a fee! 
Slowly, slowly, you are fading away, 
And still Time will never stop and tomorrow will still be a new day.





Details | Rhyme | |

Strings

If I hold on to strings,
That tend to slip away,
Does that mean I love things,
That I know will never stay?
If I hang on to a love, 
that just holds me down,
Does that mean that my wings,
Won’t get me off the ground?
If I hold on to lies,
That I only half believe,
When I look in your eyes,
Will you look back at me?


Details | Couplet | |

How I Tried On Valentine's

How I tried on Valentine's
all over the many years.
I've lost all of my Valentine's
and most of them in tears.

How I tried on Valentine's
to find my merry mate.
Working through the ugly
and possible first-rate.

How I tried on Valentine's
Forgetting all my failures.
Moving to the next one
oblivious of the bailers.

How I tried on Valentine's
to settle for much less.
Hoping that the next one
Would change and reassess.

How I tried on Valentine's
to go the other way.
Hoping that they'd chase me
finding me as clay.

How I tried on Valentine's
to say what's on my mind.
Shouting out my arrogants
and baiting the wrong kind.

How I tried on Valentine's
to make a friend at first.
Only to be shunned again
by girls who want you worst.

How I tried on Valentine's
to wait for the right time.
Left to find my girl
on another's dime.

How I tried on Valentine's
to spin a small milk bottle.
Landing on a stranger
foreign without throttle.

How I tried on Valentine's
to meet up with a bore.
When all she kept on talking 'bout
was nothing and no more.

How I tried on Valentine's
coveting one man's wife.
Only to release her
sharing in man's strife.

How I tried on Valentine's
Loving her full body.
Finding that she had no mind
and wished she had a hobby.

How I tried on Valentine's
Waiting to make love.
Ending up with others
When push came into shove.

How I tried on Valentine's
Seeking out a hottie.
Making me a sickly boy
who's doctor now called naughty.

How I tried on Valentine's
Expecting an easy date.
Getting just the opposite
but figuring it too late.

How I tried on Valentine's
Jailbait in short skirts.
Quick to kiss what doesn't last
and limits to their flirts.

How I tried on Valentine's
making the first move.
Only to find I'm ignored
for others in her grove.

How I tried on Valentine's
forcing my own way.
Told by a cold shoulder
How I could not stay.

How I tried on Valentine's
two instead of one
Only to be shot down
and told that I am done.

How I tried on Valentine's
Perfect to a tee.
Wanting only to be seen
in a bar as fee.

How I tried on Valentine's
Cautious and carefree.
Never knew what she was thinking
or who was bird or bee.

How I tried on Valentine's
remembering what I've learned.
Speaking words of wisdom
and loves that have been spurned.


Details | Dramatic Verse (Verse Drama) | |

Never Say Goodbye

It was the day you left 
my world fell apart 
lets go back to the day 
before you walked away 
you was going off about something 
but I thought it was nothing 
I told you i never kissed her 
when will you ever learn 
That it was never my fault (never my fault) 
This isn't how i wanted it (its going wrong) 
All grownup but cant take a hit (living a lie) 
Loves not the only thing (hate is next) 
But i could never sing (caught in a lie) 
you never backed me up enough 
you though it was a bluff. 
I'm on this mountain, you and I. 
This was you last goodbye 
so now i'm sitting here 
thinking of suicide (suicide lies within darkness) 
Maybe I should die 
you love was just a lie 
now your gone like a suicide 
deep inside where nasty putrescence resides 
these razor blades are cold (like frostbite) 
Dead on the floor; 
So lifeless, so still, so sold 
I drink this whiskey 
Passing out again; 
why don't u miss me (you never loved me) 
you said that you loved me 
I wasted my time; 
cause you didn't as I see. 
Sudden noises wake me up 
i grab the whiskey and a cup 
what happened to that day at the mall 
i remember it all 
i no its not just in my head 
that day we first kissed 
i was nervous and missed 
yet your heart was calm (this whiskeys dry in my palm) 
everything blew up in my palm 
i just got back up 
that day in the rain 
i had everything to gain 
but instead of being cool 
i lost everything like a fool (I tripped over these stones) 
So hard and hollow 
My life is over 
but this time i'm really sober 
i grabbed the gun 
i put it to my head, oh what fun 
you ran through the door 
i through it to the floor 
i start freaking out 
what is this all about 
you said you was sorry 
and that you was a fool ( you looked just like a kid) 
I looked int you eyes 
i said never say goodbye 
you looked at me (the blood inside me poured) 
I saw that it shall be 
forever you and me 
That's when i never say goodbye!

Name: Patrick Nonnemacher (this is the story of me and my girlfriend)


Details | Free verse | |

A battered old saucepan

It may seem strange to write about a battered old saucepan
but this was no ordinary one 
it sprung a leak the other day
sadly without thinking
I threw it away
and now it's gone.

It had been in my family
before I was born
and it was used every day
it broke my heart after
to throw it away.

For all the delicious soups goulash and past
it had contained
the mouth watering delectable smells
from the kitchen
the shouts from my parents

''Come on now set the table dinners made''.

All the red hot broths and porridge we'd scoff
before school on a winters day
all the laughs tears and conversations around
the dinner table before it was was washed
and put away.

It was more than a simple saucepan
because it held a lot of family memories
now my parents sadly passed away
it was one of the last things to remind me
of how things used to be
and mow I have to buy a new one
and accept it's demise
like my family
it's gone forever.

Peter Dome.copyright.2012.


Details | Rhyme | |

The Road it Forks

In the breaking light of dawn,
in a photograph - we kiss.
It's to your inner light I'm drawn,
while cursing fate, and chances missed...
Wrapped in thought, and solitude, 
sweet lies trumped by bitter truth.
The road it forks,and one way taken,
now questions over dreams foresaken...
A puzzling gauntlet of how, when and why?
You were my favorite hello,
and my hardest goodbye...

Copyright © 2011
 


Details | Ballad | |

Invisible Chains

Longing for arms that once held me tight
Longing to make love to you - it once felt so right
Longing for something…I’m not quite sure
All I know is when you held me 
I felt so secure 

I wish I could close my eyes - start this life over 
Wake up in a new time and place
And start each day 
Smiling back at your beautiful face 
It’s your laughter I miss, your sweet gentle kiss…

Still I need to remember 
That day in September
When you said you never loved me
 Said you set my heart free

I think you will agree…
That the love that we shared 
Was but one sided
The love I felt for you
Was sadly misguided

I fooled myself, I wasn’t that smart
Thought I could be the one 
To unlock your heart

I thought I was living my dream 
Didn’t know I was living a lie
A lie I was too blinded to see
Until you said goodbye

Loving you was all that mattered
Now I’m left to pick up the pieces of my heart…
Now broken and battered 

The time has come to close this chapter 
I’m no longer your slave
You are no longer my captor
For you didn’t know what you had
I would have gone to the ends of the earth for you
Would have loved you forever 

So yes it is time 
Time to break these invisible chains 
Of a love
That was felt only by me
These invisible chains 
Of a love that was never meant to be 


Details | Rhyme | |

Mercy sought, justice sadly given

Mercy Sought, Justice Sadly Given!


The scent of your spirit announced your love nightly
  a whisper of sweetness with a hint of sexiness lightly
No visual needs to precede your comforting lovely gift
  just a kind word from you gently my heart uplifts

Those beautiful nights that gave we our precious all
  should have never led to such a blue and tragic fall
Lay the mistake upon my arrogance and stubborn pride
  I foolishly sought your breath taking beauty to hide!

Jealousy is a vicious and dark angel sent to take away
  love true and the sweetness of happiness the live long day!
I sought precious time to amend my silly and unhappy mistake
  as you sailed across forever high upon the "no forgiveness lake"!

Now I live in a dark pit filled with a lost and lovely dream
  as another enjoys your nights and makes your sexy love steam
Is there no reprieve from this unearthly hell I arrogantly made?
  from a stupid hand of romantic deceit I like a fool played?

As I seek a gentle mercy that I know I do not truly deserve 
  grant this one sweet mercy and your love I forever serve!
Send away my sincere and repentant request will doom my life
  As I seek love's forgiveness and your hand as my beautiful wife!


Rewritten from memory of a letter I onced sent to a fine beautiful
 lady just too damn good for the extremely wild young fool I once was!
Original composition was well over 30 years ago. 
Destroyed by a jealous lover many years later!! 
This offering is very close but sadly time's erosion has not allowed
 me to recreate it perfectly now. 
That brilliant lady rightly refused to forgive me my trespass!
As I look back I see her wisdom..... 

Robert L..


Details | Light Poetry | |

I Refuse To Be Comforted

I hear voices now and again
Of losses of a beloved dear wife
So false and true to believe in vain
I remember her scent and our life
O how this sorrowful news sharpens
I refuse to be comforted
Because she's no more
I want no condolence
Do not even come this near to share my grief
She will never come again
I am afraid to know what happened to her
I do not want to see what caused her departure
I am bitten and those snakes have run away
leaving with me only an angry wound
I have a reason to cry
I refuse to be comforted
I am worthy to follow
I do not belong here anymore
there is where everyone belongs
this heart is scratched and smashed with thorns
and electrified and thrilled with nails
I feel tightened to the ground where I belong
Until the soil swallows this being
This is easy and hard to live by
To enter and to leave my life
I refuse to be comforted
I hope no more
I will not believe if not for death alone


Details | I do not know? | |

Why me

Why me
Why me dear god 
Why the hell me!
I did all you asked 
I’ve even played the card 
Of a good girl, the one 
Everyone wanted me to be.
Why can’t you save me.
I’m hurting immensely 
And no one care not even slightly.
How could you allow me to fall 
So deep, so far into misery.
I’ve grown to hate myself so much so
I’m that demon within the angel 
That you see.
I’m crying out for help
And not once did you show me sympathy.
Like everyone else you pretend to care
My prayers are just words you refuse to here.
You watched the tears ran down my cheeks
And didn’t send an angel to watch over me.
I don’t want to be part of this world anymore
Just set me free….
Sleeping forever is where I are to be.

05/05/09


Details | Lyric | |

I Don't Owe You Anything

So many days
All passed in a blur
With all my thoughts
Focused all on her

It was no way to live
Trapped within the past
But now today
I can say at last

I'm sorry for
Everything I put you through
But you put me through things too

And I don't owe you anything
What's done is truly done
We hurt each other so many times
But it's time to run

Those days were nice
Back when you still cared
I really did
But I was really scared

It's been a year
Since you killed our hope
I suffered all these days
Tangled in your rope

I'm sorry for
Everything I put you through
But you were just as bad

And I don't owe you anything
What's done is truly done
We hurt each other so many times
But now it's time to run and

I spent a whole year trying
To sort out what you left
And now I've finally got it
You didn't leave me so bereft

You helped me find
The man beneath the boy
You helped me grow
And learn how to destroy

Apologies
Don't mean a thing anymore
You've already made your choice

So I don't owe you anything
I'm glad it's finally done
A year of atonement ends today
The time has finally run

Out, the sands of time caress
My face as clouds give way to rain
We're even now and now I can walk
Without my heart in pain


Details | Free verse | |

Our Goodbye

So long to countless long stem red roses, blue irises, star gazer lilies, lavender orchids and yellow tulips, and cleaning up petals days after they’re given…

Goodbye to months that added up to years at a time away in foreign countries at war, with moist eyes -worried for one another…

Our last sunset we saw together, do you remember it? No, I’m afraid I don’t either…. so sad we didn’t give that missed moment a fitting send off, one last goodbye kiss…

You can keep every “I love you”, “I miss you”, “Love Always,”, “Love Forever,” “I’m thinking of you” and “I’m so sorry…” I meant every one of them…

We moved too quickly and freely through many of the good times, figuring a period would come at some point where we’d pause to enjoy the sweet scent of a rose or two...

I hate to say goodbye to those nights –awww, we know each other so well…

And turn my back on those pet names we had for one another, I believe they’re call “terms of endearment”, I won’t say, those are ours to be lost forever…

How I will miss the laughs, the looks we shared, the way your head fit in my chest when I held you…

Those walks we took, untold number of correspondences, the songs we listened to, the plans we made, those didn’t quite fit in the boxes I packed…

I guess its farewell to being there for each other in old age –“…my bride of 53 years” …well, not quite…

Can we still give advice to youngsters on relationship longevity? I suppose we could, I guess there are still lessons to be taught from a point of failure, 

but you know…..

I still….
You know I’ll always….
What will I do….
Maybe we don’t…..
No, no time for that now, this brief moment we use to smell those roses; for quite soon our goodbye will be over

Written in Afghanistan -1 AUG 2013


Details | Free verse | |

THE UNREQUITED LOVE MONOLOGUES

YOU + ME = SYNTAX ERROR ???!!

 

 

Dec 15 2013 12:07 am

And once more I'll try to say goodbye 

To the feelings that long ago should have already died 

To the love I have hidden for quite a long time

To the cherished memories I have kept for so long in my mind 

To the words i so long to hear from you 

To the quiet hours when I felt terribly blue 

To the days I waited for you to be mine 

To the love which remained unrequited and blind 

 

01:37AM Dec 12 2013

I faked a smile and pretended to be happy 

Yet in his eyes I can feel his deep sympathy for me 

I hated it but I kept the show going

I kept smiling though inside I am breaking 

How could someone notice my fake happiness 

When I've managed to keep it to conceal my sadness 

Please don't make me realize what I'm truly feeling 

My fake smile has already fooled me into thinking... 

That I can manage to appear happy despite the pain... 

Of WAITING FOR YOUR LOVE IN VAIN. 

 

Dec 19 2013 2AM

I wonder if it's possible for you to love me too

I've kept my feelings subtle for you not to have a clue 

Then you decided to go far away 

Though I so much wanted for you to stay 

I never asked for you to stay of course

I am nobody in your life...makes me feel worse

But then my mind would sometimes wonder,"have there been a second that you've fallen for me too?"

If yes,when was it?I wish you could answer that too. 

It's stupid I know to suddenly fantasize about these things

As if it would make any difference 

You left without even saying goodbye

I wanted so much to ask you "why?" 

Then I realized that I do not have the right the ask you this

Because the truth is,in your world,I DON'T EVEN EXIST. =(


Details | ABC | |

Sometimes I Like To Pretend Things Never Came To A End

Sometimes I like to pretend, things never came to a end. But over time, our love became a crime. I didn't know what we had, would ever end so bad. But then I knew things weren't right, when we started to fight. Now I walk down memory lane all the time, the pain is worst then committing a crime. We only caused eachother pain, but we were eachothers maine. I thought things would be alright, but I cried alot that night. I don't want things to change, without you my life is strange. You said you wanted me so much it started to hurt that you couldn't wait, now im just another person you hate. When you said you didn't care, I knew the person I loved was no longer there. You aren't the same, the new you is lame. We both fell, now it's hell. You use to always be here for me, like family. But now your nowhere in sight, things aren't right. Empty is all that I can feel, I still can't believe this is real. I didn't mean to let you get away, I didn't know what to say. Am i with the right guy, or am i telling myself a lie. I was afraid to loose what we had, but to you that choice was bad.


Details | I do not know? | |

REST IN PEACE MUM ANN BROWN 18 AUG 2011

MUM ...

WHERE DO I START? I DON'T THINK THERE IS WORDS , TO EXPLAIN HOW I AM 


FEELING ABOUT THE LOSS OF YOU... BUT I WILL USE ALL THE STRENGTH YOU HAVE 


GIVEN TO ME , SO I CAN GET THESE FINAL WORDS OUT THE GUILT , SADNESS AND 

REGRET  FROM NOT SEEING YOU LIKE I WANTED TO  SO ****ING MUCH ,

 THEN THE PAIN OF NOT HAVING  A CHANCE TO SAY "GOODBYE" TO THE MOST 

BEAUTIFUL MOTHER COULD WANT, AND YES MUM I'M TALKING ABOUT YOUTO HOLD 

YOUR HAND, TO SEE YOU SMILE , TO HEAR YOUR VOICE, WOULD MAKE MY LIFE MORE 

WORTHWHILE. YOU TAUGHT ME HOW TO LIVE, BUT YOU NEVER TAUGHT ME HOW TO 

LIVE WITHOUT YOU I MISS YOU SO SO MUCH MUM, BUT THE LOVE IN MY HEART FOR YOU , WILL MAKE SURE 

YOUR LIFE , LOVE , WARMTH AND TOUCH , WILL LIVE ON FOREVER , 

IN ME I KNOW THAT YOU CHANGED ME , JUST FROM YOUR 

PRESENCE...THATS'S HOW STRONG YOU WERE MUM I KNOW YOU HAVEN'T LEFT ME , 

FOR THE LOVE IN MY HEART REMAINS , YOU WILL NEVER HAVE TO SUFFER AND YOUR 

BODY WILL FEEL NO PAIN...... GOD TOOK YOUR HAND , AND MADE US PART , HE CLOSED 

YOUR EYES , AND BROKE MY HEART ....FOR ALL THE TIMES WE HAVE BEEN TOGETHER,

I WILL NEVER FORGET YOUR FACE.

THERE IS NO MOTHER ANYWHERE LIKE YOU,

NO ONE COULD TAKE YOUR PLACE.

IF ONLY I HAD KNOWN YOU WERE LEAVING,

I GUESS I EXPECTED YOU TO FOREVER LAST,

ALL OF THE DREAMS OF US IN THE FUTURE,

ARE NOW BUT MEMORIES OF THE PAST.

GOD TAPPED YOU ON THE SHOULDER,

HE WAS THE ONLY ONE WHO KNEW,

THAT YOU WERE GOING WITH HIM,

TO THE SKY SO BEAUTIFUL BLUE.

ALTHOUGH I MAY NEVER SEE YOU MUM,

ARJAY WILL BE BY YOUR SIDE,

HE'S GONNA HOLD YOUR HAND,

AND LEAD THE WAY,

FOR HE WILL BE YOUR GUIDE.....

I LOVE YOU MY MOTHER.....
DON'T TELL ME THAT YOU UNDERSTAND, 
DON'T TELL ME THAT YOU KNOW,
DON'T TELL ME THAT I WILL SURVIVE,
HOW I WILL SURELY GROW.
DON'T TELL ME THIS IS JUST A TEST,
THAT I AM TRULY BLESSED,
THAT I AM CHOSEN FOR THIS TASK,
APART FROM ALL THE REST.
DON'T COME AT ME WITH  ANSWERS THAT CAN ONLY COME FROM ME,
DON'T TELL ME HOW MY GRIEF WILL PASS,
THAT I WILL SOON BE FREE.
DON'T STAND IN PIOUS JUDGMENT OF THE BONDS I MUST UNTIE,
DON'T TELL ME HOW TO SUFFER,
DON'T TELL ME HOW TO CRY.
MY LIFE IS FILLED WITH SELFISHNESS,
MY PAIN IS ALL I SEE,
BUT I  NEED YOU,
I NEED YOU YOUR LOVE UNCONDITONALLY.
ACCEPCT ME IN MY UPS AND DOWNS,
I NEED SOMEONE TO SHARE,
JUST TO HOLD MY HAND AND LET ME CRY,
AND SAY, MY FRIEND I REALLY DO CARE
Mom you mean the world to me
It’s hard to live without you ,You were always by my side
Through thick and thin you helped me


Details | I do not know? | |

Set You Free

You make me laugh,
You make cry,
You make my heart skip a beat,
Even though you don’t try,

I really can’t imagine,
Living my life without you,
Our little girl would be sad,
And I would be too,

You say you want out,
So I will set you free,
I feel I have no other choice,
It will be just her and me,

I’m sorry for all the hurt,
And also for the pain,
At one point we were happy,
I wish things had stayed the same,

I wish you all the best,
And a happy life too,
But just remember,
We will always love you.


Details | Free verse | |

I See You Everywhere

What do I say now? Where do I start?
Without you beside me, I'm falling apart
Thinking of you, know it isn't too smart
But I See You Everywhere, oh my poor heart

Love in her ways
She drifts slowly past me
A spring in her step
Oh she's moving too fastly
Upside down now
She turns my heart and soul
Reflecting in my mind
And in my heart, a hole
Every time she crosses my mind
I'm reminded of the pain
No chance to love her
She'll forget my name

So what do I say now? And where do I start?
Because without you beside me girl, I'm falling apart
Thinking of you, I know it isn't too smart
But I Still See You Everywhere, and oh my poor heart


Details | Prose Poetry | |

Time Was Not On Our Side

Here I am thinking again about how our life should of been

But it's to late cause you are gone the love we shared can't go on

Wishing we had more time before the clocks started to wined

Time has stopped since you went away I really wished you could of stayed

You have moved on far away but my love for you has never changed

When I die someday soon we will meet again pass the moon

Far away in an unclouded sky we will never say goodbye

As I look back on our life I realize time was not on our side.....


Details | Personification | |

my Royaume

I've never thought that i would feel this way,
But it finally happened somehow someday;
And i drowned in the deep oceans that looked at me.
I got dazzled by this smile everytime i see
These petals opening softly revealing wonderful pearls;
And everytime this breeze fonndles my skin, my heart twirls.
How i wish to stay forever in this acropolis of passion!
How i admire those two loyal guards fulfilling their mission!
Look at the heavens sparkling in those skies
Making it hell when it comes to goodbyes...
But some dreams are meant to never come true,
Like the one of falling asleep next to you
Because, as they say, the moon is not allowed to rise on the majestic wooden cross
But what a shame of this culture and what a terrible loss...
I had to accept to fall back on earth
A place where cruelty took birth!
Even though they broke my wings, i'll climb as high as i can get
To try and find the heavens that i would never forget.


Details | Lyric | |

Don't go away

I saw you there my being came alive
I heard your voice, it cut me like a knife.
It seemed like years but only days had passed
So long ago since I had seen you last..

You looked at me and smiled your sad, sad smile
My heart it just went crazy for a while.
I looked at you as if I did not care
But oh what joy it was to see you there.

Don’t go away, don’t ever leave again.
Because my love you cause me so much pain
Without you here my life be oh so bare
Although I see your vision everywhere.

Though you don’t love me I must know you’re there
I need to see your beauty soft and rare
And every day that you’re not there to see
It seems like something dies so deep within me.

My love for you be such a crazy thing
When you’re nearby my heart can only sing
But when you’re gone my being starts to fade
For you be all my heart would ever crave.


1990.


Details | Free verse | |

Hopes

I Just wanted to say you
good bye
But the moment says
hopes are high
May be you turn back
for my sigh
May be it wouldn't be easy
as I see
May be its hard for you
as for me
But the moment says
hopes are high
Don't let these hopes die


Details | Blank verse | |

Control

He is there
He is mine
He is caring
He is kind

He is arrogant 
He is rude
He is harsh
He is crude

These facts remain
And I am in distain
Because despite the fact that he thinks he reigns 
Over all of us
He knows what to say
And when to say it
And unfortunately 
I must admit
That I thought he was the best for me
Because admittedly
He would make me smile
Make me laugh
Hold me awhile
While I was obsessing 
Our relationship was regressing
Into something it shouldn’t be
And he wasn’t physically hurting me
But emotionally I was a wreck
Because he was like a roller coaster
Up and down side to side
And every day I nearly cried
And when I did it was so much worse
Because he knew it was his fault
And he would be proud of himself
When I would start hurting myself
Because to him it was a sign of control
He had more control over me than of his console
Where he played his stupid games that took up his time
He treated me as if I wasn’t worth a dime. 


Details | Blank verse | |

When heart breaks

Making me solitude, the fire of love suddenly ends,
After a sparkling light, it makes me blind in the dark land.
Don’t know why roads are asking ‘where is my home’,
Don’t know why fear is asking where my scream is gone.
	
Losing myself, I got the way to survive,
Only with a dead body, life forgets it’s revived.
 The creaking sound of heart now also reverberate in my tears,
The pain of destroying of dreams, I can’t bear………..

The beautiful garden of life, in a moment became dry,
 Now, it’s only my dead heart which only cries.
Life ………. It always shows me the way of success,
But whenever I start to walk it breaks my legs to suppress…

Now eyes also got fed up by shedding the fountain of tears,
Seeing anyone’s love now I only get scared.
Love only enjoy the smoke of my dying soul,
Like a cigarette it squeezes & dumped me in the sac of coal.

Roads are now my real home,
Tears are only my fellow, with whom I can roam.
My new best friend is the rain,
It hides my tear & suppresses my pain.

But with whom I dreamt to share my soul,
Don’t know why she told me ‘time to move & role’.
I salute her decision from my core of heart,
You say how I can oppose it to give her hurt.

I wish my lover always remain happy,
Always get the best place which she deserves,
I am, for her, only a cigarette,
That’s why I will end as smoke with a dead soul inside…!


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HELLO JOHNSON, MY NAME IS RUTHIE YOUR NIGHTLY NURSE

I see that you have been in a coma for two days and I hope you can hear me,Johnson, I'm going to check your vital every two hours just to see if there ant changes,Johnson,my name is ruthie your nightly nurse, and while I'm here with you I will see to it that you are giving the best care while you here,Johnson, I will clean your wounds and chang your bandages too and when I'm finished doing those thing I will comfort you,Johnson, my name is Ruthie your nightly nurse I'm going to check your vital every two hours just to see if there is any changed,with tears in her eyes, thses are her words, I going to sit right beside you,I'm going to write your wife and kids for you Johnson,I'm going to tell your wife how much you going to miss her and how she's going to miss you,I going to tell your kids that you love them and you wish that if it God will that you can be there to watch them grow-up,I'm going to hold your hand while you are here,Johnson, my name is Ruthie your nightly nurse ,I will be the person you will hear talking with you and I will be the last person to hold your hand, and I'll kiss you for your wife and kids and I'll tell them how good a soldier you was Johnson,I'm going to tell your parent that you are a brave soldier and that you love them very much,and I will also write and tell your conrade to always keep you in there heart,and Johnson when it's my time to go who will sit beside my bed? and hold my hand? and who is going to write my husband and kids and tell them how much I'm going to miss them and who is going to kiss me one last time???Johnson, my name is Ruthie, your nightly nurse It's time to unplug you from my machine, I can't check your vital anymore, I'm going to clean you and dress you in your dress blued and pin your awards upon your chest, and call for someone to bring your body out PVT Johnson will be miss. time of death 1400hrs. stay in a coma for five days....................this is dedicatedto Pvt johnson and his family and love ones......................SSG KIRT JACK


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Distant African Nights

Those Distant African Nights...


1.


The shadows swayed in your candlelit room,

a cool breeze teasing your bare back,


streaks of lightning forked in the Johannesburg night,

as my hands stroked your hair,

kissing your soft mouth,

holding you,

ever so tight.



2.


You whispered that you loved me,

and I kept silent,


the rain fell, 
shadows danced,
thunder rolled,

the breeze teased your naked back,

you whispered that you loved me,
as my lips found yours,

the rain washed over our tender nights,


lightning and candlelight,

etching poems on your burnished skin,


yet,

a fear gnawed at me,

deep within.



3.


We parted ways,
and you could never forgive me, you said,


now, after numberless thunderstorms,

the rain that falls,


echo the countless tears that I have shed.



4.


You are long gone,

far away,

happy, I pray,


yet the memories persist,

those precious moments shall never, 
ever,

like the Jo'burg rains,
trickle away,

and I wish you well,
for loving me as you did,

for it was I who was not worthy,


then,


and it is I who is not worthy,


now...



5.


You were always true,


it was I who always,

always,

refused to,


to give myself,


completely to you.






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Tangled Webs

Tangled webs, My soul hurts, I think I’d rather never have loved, than loved & lost instead, See, I’m depressed, I walk through Central Station giving pennies to the ‘Walking Dead’, I know that time flies, Like that toy plane we built up & let fly from the high rise, Mean guys are just the average, Prepared to savagely damage anything remotely romantic, I didn’t think I was one… You disagreed, The break up was a long one… I doubt that you’ll be missing me, Tangled Webs, My soul hurts, Sometimes I wish I’d never have loved, than loved & lost instead, Secrets & lies, I tried to stop the demise, of what began when I saw you cry, Now that’s all there seems to be, Raised voices or petty squabbles, just sitting in front of the TV, No drink or drug binging, Hanging out in clubs hinging, on drunk women Ambition & passion has been, Missing & lacking, But the vision of you packing up your bags is distracting, Tangled webs, My soul hurts, Mum’s wrong, I wish I’d never have loved than loved & lost instead, See, green grass grows & weeds die, You go from strength to strength; I’m straight from lie to lie, I try to cry, Can’t execute the liquid from my ducts I think I’m dead inside, Our wires criss-crossed, People look and say his loss, but this was, A Tangled web with only one fly that gets caught, So swallow me up & immerse me in guilt, It’s worse to have lost love ‘cos you know how heartbreak felt...


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No Permanent Home

Where do you live? Question skipped
Where do I go? "Just leave and go"!
Do you want me to follow? Please let me know
"No! Just stay right there and go back home".

Its almost a year when love was born
And I still want to know you more
I thought I've known you for so long
Forgot to ask your permanent home

You said you have a big family
And its a waste for me to see
If they find out our secrecy
Our relationship will then last easily

Afraid and never asked for more
Deep-inside the questions grew
Looking for a way that's sure
To meet your family and tell them our love's pure

Its our first year anniversary
When I followed you; you're unaware
In a dark-far away place
I've seen you entered the gate

I was able to get-in; a house so dim
With my ears I listened; my eyes tried to observe
Then I heard a baby crying; a man sounded-big
"Its too late in the evening. My wife lets have a sleep".

My heart jumped all over
I think I just got killed
A lover who made me stronger
Is now my life's destroyer

Where do I go?
Please let me know
Totally lost
No permanent home


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The Hardest Part

I'm very glad to hold your waist against mine;
smelling your perfume, and feeling your warmth.

Our heartbeats though, are becoming slower and colder;
you are moving out to another place, because of a better job;
I swear it, I'm really happy for you.

I just wish that God would somehow pause time a little bit,
to give us time to kiss, celebrate life, laugh, and play around
in the open fields.

I will miss your pancakes, smile, voice, sweet heart.......everything
about you.

The hardest part for me right now, is to tell you "goodbye"......


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Angry and Tense

You keep on saying that you want to come back, 
But am really scared and confused because your heart seems so black. 
They say red means danger, but I know black means death. 
Not taking that chance to make you take my last breath.
Your a great girl in some ways! Trust me I have to admit. 
But what I wanted most was your feelings,and I didn't feel that one bit. 

People come and goes, hearts beat and stop. 
I think the "I love you" word is just a bunch a crooop. 
Love is just a word use to captivate one's mind, 
But a true "I love you" I guarantee you will never find. 
Looks are deceiving, so are words put together, 
The first thing you wanted us to do was to be one forever.  
Sometimes i am sure of things, because I think before I act, 
Would u take a shot for me? "Yes". Now I don't know if that's a fact.
You have left me in a hole left for dead, 
I have stressed too much its time to take you out of my head. 
Sorry!It's over! Still sorry its over! 
I am tired of these trust issues. 
Tired of seeing our relationship imitating wet  tissues. 
Dry for a while but when wet fade away.
Now you have given me me a heart like ice in a frozen tray.

Never the less I will always respect you,
Please try not to let trouble neglect you, 
I will pray each day that angel protect you,
And if that day comes heaven accept you!


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The Crossing

I crossed the old bridge to watch your transparent words drift farther downstream
PD's contest: River Walk 8/25/14


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Georgia

I’m boarding Delta, and it is the end. 
The end of two cumulative months 
Of connection 
Hidden in professionalism. 
A connection too amazing
To admit openly.
 
I hold my breath during takeoff.
I always think I'm going to explode
In any given second.

During our time together you would tell 
Stories. 
Humorous ones, sad ones, uplifting ones. 
You liked boiled peanuts and baseball. 
Hated NASCAR. 
Had a sweet tooth. 

Your words melted in the warmth of your 
Deep blue eyes. 
To me, you were the only man who has 
Ever existed
With the talent of creating pure happiness
Within myself. And the beauty of your 
Spirit never failed me.
 
I munch on crackers in seat C. 
The woman next to me is chatty, so I look 
out the window
For refuge. She doesn’t see me cry.

You spoke of your daughter often. 
Bright, energetic, and beautiful. 
She looks just like you. 
Your daughter never knew me, yet I loved 
Her 
As my own. 

You spoke of your wife, a trying 
Relationship 
Rooted in young love. 
I have seen you cry from her words. 
She troubles me, but mostly 
Because I envy her. 

Why do they always come by with the 
Trash bag before I'm finished?

Perhaps in your personal life you are lazy.
A slob. Thoughtless. Insensitive. 
Impatient. Unfaithful. 
All the things that reasonably might chip 
Away at how much
I do adore you from afar. 
Yet I do not know if you are any of these.
Professional and moral constraint forbids 
Me. 
And even if you are, I realize 
I still live for your happiness,
Your smiles, 
Your humor, 
Your kindness. 

The landing gear lowers, and I'm back in 
New York. 
Almost as if it all never occurred. 
Yet I have loved you since. And I 
Will love you from now on. 

I may not have you, but you have me, 
Always and forever. 
And that is just as beautiful and sweet
As Georgia itself. 


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AT THE MIDDLE OF THE NIGHT

 AT THE MIDLE OF A NIGHT
I wake up to unusual ringtone
I rise to pick up my phone
One eyed half open,
I stretch out my hands down my pillow
I clean my throat ready to say “hallo”

 My right thumb on the screen to slide the green icon
But….there is no message or a missed call
Oh my God, I forgot that I never had you’re new number at all
Because you’re gone- my sweetie
So reluctantly, I have to go back to sleep


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and I will come

…and I will come.
When the first snow falls down/ 
when the fall gives its rights/ 
to the winter/
you know I will come/
for good or for bad/
I’ll board the train/
Passing by / stations/ and countries/
I promised/ and I remember/
You said “there’s no fortuitous meetings/

…and I will come.
When the first snow falls down/
When you’ll lose the trace/
When my firmest snickers/ wipe out/
I will/ I will come…
Unexpectedly/ knowing solely the door/
Just the road / for sure/
Before/ take you I’ll ask/
“are you ready to go?” / 
You are ready/ I know/
All the noise doesn’t matter/
I don’t haste/ will be later/

…I will come.
When it finally turns out/
That November is overthrown by December/
When the first snow falls down/
Will be clear/ that nobody is remembered/ 

And I will come…
Somewhere in chest/ between ribs/
You slashed me/ with thoughts/ 
I can feel it with lips/ crawling under my cloths/
Our world is alive/ our life/ we’re alike/
And I….

I will come.
When the first snow falls down/
When the death is changed into fate/
When the winter gives up/ 
To wait/ for spring/
to stay with shining sun/
I will come.


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Rest in peace, Mom

You weren't a saint but you were extremely close.
Out of all of the people on Earth, I've always loved you the most.
It will be very painful as they lower you into the ground.
Life will never be the same because you're no longer around.

You were a wonderful human being and a terrific mother too.
Your family and friends will always love you.
You were so sweet and kind that you should've been given a humanitarian award.
The people in Heaven are happy because you're there and so is the Lord.

You're in a better place and that makes your friends and family glad.
But as people see the tears rolling down my cheeks, they know that I'm so sad.
You were one fantastic lady, you were truly one of a kind.
Knowing that Heaven is your new home gives us peace of mind.

From time to time I wasn't the ideal son and that's something I regret.
You gave me life, love and happiness and that's something I'll never forget.
It hurts very much because you are deceased.
Everybody loves you Mom, may you rest in peace.


(Dedicated to Agnes Johnson who passed away March 6, 2013.)  (1948-2013)


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Paramour

His brown eyes
She still feels them looking at her
His smile
She still see them smiling at her

She still remember their first time together
She still recall his touch
and she fell in love

The world was perfect
the colors were alive and vibrant
She was in love

He was a beautiful stranger
A stranger that caught her untamed heart
She was so in love

She remember how he cared about her
She remember the sound of his heartbeat
or was it just a make believe?

She thought he was her hero
didn't he try to rescue her?
and she gladly ran to him.

She thought his arms are her castle
as her head rest on his chest
there is no sky she couldn't fly

but she never knew..
She wish she had
the shadow of someone she thought he'll never be..

She thought he was her Knight..
but she didn't see..
the same knight whose sword is meant to bring death to her heart..

to him, she was nothing but a Paramour..


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Lovelorn

A light amongst the Darkness;
or so I do recall...
An illuminating star burning cold;
with sorrow and all...

Maybe one day I'll have your heart,
The day our magicks won't burn apart.
And it'll just be you and me in this art.

I found solace in your radiant light,
Depression's Malice was far from bright.
How I adored you dear, -each night.

I tried to please you, I know I was cold,
You actually made me want to grow old.
My covenant broken and bathed in scold.

I didn't deserve Love; frozen in Black ice!
Expected to much now I bare sacrifice.
Revolve my emotions, take me suicide.

And now I shall never feel your kiss
never swim in your fruitful bliss...
Highly I doubt that someone will miss.

So here I die, in my own little tide,
Now you can be happy with me aside...


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It Happened

I hated myself.
I hate myself 
I am hating myself.
Torture.
Is what I do to myself at 2:33am when I'm thinking about how much of a waste I've become, am becoming and how I think, think about how no difference will be made if I was not here. Walking, talking, eating, breathing, living. 
Just take it all away - it turns me upside down, inside out when I can't stop those wheels from turning in my head; they never stop - like some unstoppable tape record playing in my head- over and over and over again.
I don't sleep to good.
Maybe it's the way I say your name at that present moment in time and my mind automatically swells with 
Nostalgia.
Or maybe it's the way I always think of your pretty big eyes that are the perfect shade of brown in the midst of my sorrows. 
We once shared those. 
But now they're just unequally balanced upon my shoulders, wreaking havoc in the last of the ruins that have been provided.
Oh look what I've gone and done.
I wanted to be alone not lonely. 
I hate myself for what I have done to myself
Sadness is what I have become,
Consumed me in a way that is not visible to the naked eye- so only I can see.
It hits me at any given time of day - it slams against the mental capacity I have for the self loathing I have assimilated throughout my tiresome life.
All the self regret and self deprecation that has surfed through my mind during those lonely nights I laid there motionless and bitter have finally come and took over. 
My mind, body and soul.
My troublesome inner demons taunt me. We are no longer shy acquaintances, we are the best of friends who spend each passing hour of the day together. 
I don't want to live this way. Nor do I want to die this way, I'm entitled to spend the days of my life as openly and freely as I please but I still have sinking feeling - this clawing sensation, drawing me back to my sadness. Like a heroin junkie high as a kite - I'm addicted. And I don't know how. I'm addicted to my sadness and there's no cure for that.
I have to go now.
I have to cease this sharp self afflicted pain,
With the only way I know best.
There is a saying that says,
Destroy Anything That Destroys You
So I did. 


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EYE Don't See -Part 2-

My eyes
Refuse to see tragedy
My eyes
Marinate in dread…unable to embrace ecstasy 

And I’m left in my solitude…
My eye’s sagging…from endless mourning  
And I’m close to my demise… 
Only to find myself disappear…
When will peace draw near?

You don’t see 
What damage you’ve done
Just let me be
Leave me alone…hand me a gun

I yearn for unspoiled glory
To make me feel perfect once more
I yearn for flawless serenity
To make me feel no regret…don’t ignore
My calls…don’t hang up on me

You don’t see 
What damage you’ve done
Just hear my plea
Listen to my excruciating cries…
Listen to the truth, not the malicious lies  
Our journey has just begun   

And I’m left in my solitude…
Do you hear me weeping?
And I’m close to my demise…
Only to find myself disappear…
When will peace draw near?

Eye can’t handle the stress
Let me release my horrendous distress
Eye can see you making that same mistake
At least MY life isn’t at stake

And I’m left in my solitude…
My eye’s weeping…do You feel my lament
And I’m close to my demise…
Only to find myself disappear…Stepped on like cement
I’m aching with discontent… I abhor this torment    
When will peace scrub off my fear?

I can’t believe my eyes
Your guiltiness flows into me…
I can’t believe I fell for your lies
Your heartless action rape my mind…you don’t see
What my EYES see…

You’ll never see 
How much pressure you put me under
Unchain me from this chamber
And watch me flee…

When will you be set free?


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My Heart

I gave you my heart,
whole and so loving,
but you tore it up,
then gave the pieces back.
But you kept one,
keeping me broken,
incomplete.


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A Dream of Love

A Dream of Love...


And now,the fruit of
A dream,I had buried.
Surprises me with life...

I worried,the dream might
Be embarrassed if ever
It came into being
Ashamed at its inabilities.
I hid it from prying fingers
Yet it surprises me,comes to life...

All I did was think about it often.
Often enough, I hoped
To save it from forgetfulness,
Age and a bad memory.
Yet it surprises me,comes to life...So soon....

I loved too much I guess.
Maybe God felt sympathy,
Gave me a gift.
This gift
Of love
I'd rather not be given.
I wish to snatch it from the heavens,
Wish to make it happen.
Yet it surprises me...so easy...

The fruit I'm given;
This Love.
I cannot savour.
But then I can't not accept it.
I really must have it.
Cause it is after all
My dream.My love.

Dream...Cause it will come to life...
Dream...And bring it to life.

  -Viraj Shah 

Posted for Contest Any Poem/Any form- for new poets of Soup.                                                               Posted on 26/11/2013


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Falling Back

From beginning to end there was love

this we know.

At a nights fall a dove flew,

she had to grow.

All that was built was falling and a return was long gone.

Time was of essence and no more words were needed,

Strange auras were afloat and all was lost.

Pain now fills one and regret fills another,

Soon truth will prevail and all will be at rest.

Untill it sheds some light one must forget,

One must forgive and see that no matter what 

There was love beginning to end.


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Walk Out the Door

To wait and to suffer is what I'll do no more.

The pain is starting to intensify so I'm walking out the door.

You left me alone in a self deepening hole.

I finally clawed my way out, I accomplished my goal.

I will always be here for you, but this part of me must go.

I refuse to just watch this side of me reach its all time low.

Unconditional love is what I'll always have for you,

But just please understand that this getaway is overdue.

Maybe in time you and I can create a flame once more,

But until that day comes, I must walk out the door.


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My Inamorata

Regretful I am; 
Anguish I am to you-
Wipe those tears away, 
Precious are they.

Adorn this pulchritudinous life, 
Smile like always.
You was held dear and the most cherished, 
Heart and soul I say will you be reminiscent.

Let me wander like I do, 
let go cause wonted I am;
In vagabondage I live, 
Go live your life in serenity.

Ne'er look back, 
No longer can i see you distressed;
Pain I am for you, 
Au revoir, my inamorata.

(For Judy)


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I Can't Believe It's Really Over This Time

I really hate this feeling, sometimes I wish I could stop breathing. I don't wanna try, just leave me here to die. You were the thing that made my life living for, but your no longer mine anymore. I feel so much pain, sometimes I believe I'm going insane. I'm missing what we had, although it was bad. I'm always walking down memory lane, why can't you see my pain? I know people change, &&' things get strange. I guess I gotta face it, she's my new replacment. I can't believe it's really over this time, I feel as if i have commited a crime. I live in a world of sorrow, so I don't ever worry about tomorrow. I didn't even have time to cry, because i had already said bye. I feel like I'm digging a deeper whole, so I'm hoping Jesus will take control. I'm sorry for my dumb mistake, but baby now I'm wide awake.


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Memories Made

The coldest white had fell
Surrounding all the feet of those behind
The day turned into hours
Just in the mind
Did the gift appear in night?
Or were dreams reality?
Did it come from karma’s hands?
It drifts from sanity

The trek towards that happy place
You’ve been there many times
Something was different now
It held a horrible surprise
The box wasn’t full of life and sound
The ashes of memories made were here
Taking longer to twist the knife
Left remains of a child now in tears

Standing still you couldn’t breath
Excuses flying in your mind
Trying to figure out the scene
Hoping there’s time
You look up to see
Expectant eyes for the last time
You wish you could keep
But it’s the saddest of a smile 


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The best thing I ever gave you was Jesus

The fall of man
Can be heard outside my window.
Miles away, 
Broken bones
Fractured smiles
Life’s a tidal wave with many trials.

Desolate islands dwell within
Until you allow Jesus to enter in.

Parasites,
Plagued you for quite sometime
Dulling your radiant, God given shine.

My loaner love,
The sun has set,
But, I know 
I won’t have to live in regret.

The day Jesus touched you
I saw with my own two eyes
for a moment, in time ,you were truly alive.
Your heart it thrived
You felt no need to strive.
Over flowing with desire
Dreaming about a better tomorrow.
Your touch became flesh
While History lingered in the air
I danced with an angel delightfully rare.

But, 

Suddenly, you turned away
The devils lie came back for its prey
The fight,
The battle,
It wore you out
You forgot what life was all about
And now you rest
In heavens arms
Safe and Whole
The Torment is gone.
For the very first time
The voids have been erased
Now you see God 
face to face.


By: Sabina Nicole
Dedicated: Louis James
The heart of an angel
I love you....I know I will see you again


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Thought It Was Right

 It's a funny thing  we have in this relationship we call love ,
I know this one thing for sure and  that it was not from above.
   Struggle as we may day after day week after week,
Doesn't seem to matter we can never reach what we seek.
    In my heart I know what  I have felt for most my life,
Forever it seems I have wanted you to be my loving wife.
    But there's always been this small wedge between  you and I,
You just were unable to stop yourself from telling me lies.
     Oh there were days that were so good and felt so right ,
It always changed before we had ever reached the night .
     A very sad thing to see hop[es and dreams fade away,
Nothing left but to remember those wonderful  days .
     Still I believe in relationships that are filled with love,
The ones that are truly made by the hands from above.
       So much will be lost  and will never be recovered ,
But  there will be so much  more gained with a new lover.
       A far cry from what I had dreamed my life would be,
Yet I will continue on in search of a love meant just for me.
Tac


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Damned in Oath


Romance surrounds us, 
Flowers blooming by our sides.
Echoing laughter being heard from below.

Dancing silhouettes,
In the flawless winds,
Discovering genuine peace.

Crows hovering above us,
As we say our loving vows to one another,
Looking to redeem our childhood memories.

Tick goes the clock,
As the mirror shatters,
I then say goodbye, to my one true love.




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Feeling Down

I'm feeling down, &&' I'm already on the ground. I cant get any lower, my patience is getting slower. I've already hit the floor, &&' I'm becoming sore. I'm not sure where I went wrong, but now I dont belong. I'm like the unknown, all alone. This feeling is unbarable, the pain is unbelievable. I'm ready to walk out the door, I can't take no more. This is why I don't trust, I always get pushed in the dust. Now I got to cover my eyes, &&' ignore all your lies. I've been left in the rain, I've felt the pain. I knew things were wrong, but I stayed along. Now I'm here all alone, waiting for the sound of my phone. I wouldn't wish for my worst enemy to feel this way, that's what I have to say. I didn't really have a choice, now I'm missing the sound of your voice. I made mistakes that wont fade, not even with a blade. My heart isn't bullet proof, &&' that's the truth.


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Rehab

 I'm in rehab
 Cuz I gotta get away from my drug
 It did me wrong 
 And took me down for way too long
 
 I loved it so much
 And still do
 But I gotta get away
 
 I was so addicted
 people could see my pain
 But I thought I was fine
 That everything would be all right
 
 My drug
 Abused me
 And used me
 And I just hoped it would change
 
 I thought you would protect me
 But you were the one that hurt me
 I thought you would keep me safe
 But you were the one killing me inside
 
 You should be illegal
 You made me lose my mind
 It's so hard to sleep
 When I know
 you're still walkin these streets
 
 Why did I take you for so long?
 Why did i think I was so strong? 
 To be able to take you
 It's messed up my life
 Cuz I wasted so much time on you
 
 Thats why your my drug
 I wanted you
 Even though you weren't good for me
 And I couldn't see it
 Cuz I was trapped
 In your love
 
 Now I need rehab
 To learn to live without you
 I need to learn to be happy again
 My body is callin for you
 My heart is screaming your name
 But you dont hear me
 Cuz I'm in rehab
 
 My body is shakin
 Cuz it's used to you
 I'm learning how to eat
 I'm learning how to sleep
 And just be myself 
 
 In rehab
 You learn to deal 
 With the pain
 And even though it hurts
 You see
 Youre not the only one in the rain
 
 So I know I can get through this
 Gotta pull myself up
 And kick this
 No more shots
 No more drugs
 Time to heal
 And finally be free

 You don't wanna lose my love
 But I don't wanna lose my life
 You're a bad habit
 That i need To break
 Please let me go
 Please stop trying
 I need to go


Details | Ballad | |

Along By The Shore

Together on the beach, laying with you
Holding your hand, gazing up at skies of blue
Though our time together is ending, oh how it flew
We both know girl, how our love was true

Young hearts together, without a care
The love in her eyes
The sand in her hair
Beauty like I've never seen before
We're loving each other, Along By The Shore

How will things be when we're apart
It's time to depart, tell you it's a new start
Lets lay here forever with you in my arms
I'm falling so hard, falling hard for your charms

Young hearts together, without a care
The love in her eyes
The sand in her hair
Beauty like I've never seen before
We're loving each other, Along By The Shore

Now I wonder if she can hear me
Hear my calls to her, my cries
Oh how I fell in love
With her blonde hair and brown eyes
And I remember those nights Along By The Shore


Details | Free verse | |

Goodbye

Heart is broken, prayers are unanswered. Everything around me is crashing down. 
You said i was special but now im nothing but a faded dead memory. I thought you 
were different, I thought you were my best friend, but you showed your true colors 
and they are dark and sketchy. You said you would die for me but now you are the 
one killing me. tiny pieces of my heart around your feet your kicking them around 
like tiny pebbles. To you its goodbye i used to think your favorite words were me 
and you forever baby i promise. But we all know empty promises never follow 
through. I learned my lesson. So goodbye forever. Two bitter tasting words to say 
to you. 


Details | Free verse | |

I'm Hell On Heels

It all happened in a flash. 
You came into my life, 
turned my world upside down,
then left me in the dark.
You put me through hell,
I fought to make it back up
to the surface of reality.
I had to survive on my own.
I had to fight the demons away.
I had to strive for life.
Now you're back,
asking for me to forgive you.
Ha!
I grew into a stronger woman,
since you did what you did, 
now I'm going to show you
what hell feels like, 
cause baby, well...
you're worthless,
you're a nobody to me,
you're a novelty painting 
in a run down dump.
You think that with your 
cute crooked smile you will
"win me over"
but not this time.
I have conquered
you're spell,
you're charm,
you're game.
Now I run this show
and well...
you're no longer good enough.
so farewell,
ta-ta for now,
hope you feel the pain you put me through.


Details | Free verse | |

Visible Breath

Autumn comes I stand watching the leaves..thinking
The breath leaves my body unseen
But as the mercury drops and as I ponder my place.
I notice all I think all I feel.
Right there on the window before me.
To others it's just a mist caused by cooling or heating or both.
A chilhood whimsical game"oh boy look it's cold"
To me that mist is all, your name , your face, Our time.
I want to wipe it away this physical aberation of all unseen in my heart.
I see it all the pain the love the heartache everything in a small whitish cloud on a simple window.
My hand reaches pauses  oh so this is what you look like.
Oh if it was so easy to be done.
The mist fades rapidly with every lonely wasted breath. Making an apperance oh so briefly.
What ever course I take to wipe away or to gently touch the mist.
Would this breath on the window which taunts me so relay back to my damaged soul see its gone you'll be ok now or see how it welcomes your touch?
welcome to the world for all to see.
Hidden by the sun most of the time.
My fingers glide through the vanishing mist, I flash back to your cheek beneath my fingers.
Goodbye my love, goodbye my pain, goodbye to the only proof I have left of you.
But at peace I am.
I know now what I did not before.
Your not invisable your their in my breath.
Kissing the crisp Autumn air with me.
And all I have to do is breath.
And my visible breath will show me all I feel is real as real as the mist on the window


Details | Haiku | |

Better left unsaid

As you drive on off
I think we know I'll miss you.
Better left unsaid.


Details | Rhyme | |

Gone

Gone

I touch your face with my sweaty palm,
I see the love but the feeling is gone.
You look through me, your smile so calm,
I remember that feeling, when your love was won.

I hate to feel this, but it’s no longer there.
What used to be happy now is no more the same.
I used to be faithful; I used to really care,
Now I don’t feel serious; my excuses are lame.

Maybe I’m tired of all the screaming and shouting,
I blame myself more than I blame you.
Maybe I’m sick of all the cussing and doubting,
I can’t stay this way; I know you feel it too.

It pains me to see you cry, to see you walk away,
But I’d rather hurt you now than lie forever.
Find someone else, there’s no use for you so stay,
I’m sorry for the hurt, but happiness you won’t find with me, never.


Details | Enclosed Rhyme | |

Melancholy

Those smiles bloomed, blossomed fawned
As tears now wander
Upon hearts squander
Love's grave has securely, purely, spawned 

We kissed aflutter and danced in shimmer
And my hands apprised
But now glanced disguised
For the shadows glare dolour and dimmer


Details | Free verse | |

PAINFUL GOODBYES

Cold body nestles itself in
A cozy warm blanket
Under the spell of a swaying moon
I lose myself in this empty room

Surrounded by darkness
Memories of you that once swoon
Slowly begin to fade
As the hollowness inside
Insists on keeping me awake

Distance so cold
Seeps into my bones as desolate tears
Have penned in my soul
Painful verses and prose

So much time has gone by
I search to find small
Glimpses of our lives entwined
I can no longer make out your face
But a part of me keeps searching to find you anyway

Come morning
I will curse my own life
For who says half dead
Is the same as being alive

So many times I try to wish you away but
For me, it's like you never left my side


Details | Free verse | |

Emotional Imbalance

My knees get weak-

As you whisper;

Sweet nothings in my ear.

 

I start to shiver

At the words delivered,

Our fate becoming clear.

 

You caress my skin, 

Leaving trails of kisses;

Every place you touch.

 

My breath deepens-

As your mouth meets mine.

The pleasure is getting to be too much.

 

Our passion is apparent.

Our kisses become rhythm.

Our love becomes a song.

 

I could never really fathom,

How these feelings could be;

So wrong.

 

Now I sit and think,

Of how it had to end.

Our closeness is slowly dying.

 

If I said that I could forget about you-

this feeling of being safe;

I know that I would be lying.

 

Every time I see you,

I want to press your body to mine;

I want to hold you tight.

 

I love you-

Even though I know that;

You can't be- 'Mr. Right'.

 

So the struggle continues;

I'll always love you-

Until the end. 

 

It kills me to know...

 that you can't think of me;

as nothing but a friend.


Details | Free verse | |

love hate love

i've been telling myself to stop
i've been trying hard to escape
i've been loving you all my life
but do you really care?

there's a  little piece of heaven, inside this hell with you
for only on those stolen moments 
i could say i own you. 
but it can't be like this forever
i can't always be a shock absorber.
i don't wanna feel empty again. 
everytime i come out of this little heaven..


i hate you.


Details | I do not know? | |

She

She

She smiled, gently,
her warmth infusing me,
with a serene stillness of time.

She settled, slowly,
in my waking thoughts,
a soothing balm of simple joy.

She remains, scribbled,
on the walls of my fractured heart,
memories of happiness that once breathed...



Details | Blank verse | |

Third Choice

Locked inside my breaking heart
is my dearest, most bitter desire.
A longing for your comforting arms,
your fingers entwined in my hair.
Those eyes of yours, my sorrow;
forever never gazing my way.
Please, I cannot bare the pain!
I stand surrounded by two valleys,
either choice simply the wrong one.
"I love you", my mocking secret,
teeth bared to tear my soul.
Better to forge a third choice,
to flee from your soft voice.
Remember me as I was before,
long after I have fled you,
the source of my sleepless nights.


Details | Free verse | |

Reflections of Love

I need to heal and fast,
I can feel the time running out, all too soon.
But can't push myself out of the agony,
The threads of pain pull me back like a puppet.
 
I seem wrong to be grieving now, odd one!
Everybody else is no longer black,
Me, haven’t seen the sunlight for long;
The mansion, its corridors, the rooms  now my world.
 
The wound in my heart is still too fresh,
It forbids me from a sunset on the beach,
It forbids me from running or skipping,
It forbids me from laughter and joy...
 
In denial: they say but it's not all true, I accept
I know he is dead, He is no more
But do I dump him in my past and move on?
The thought makes me hate myself!
 
He would want you to smile again, live further..
Strangers tell me his likes and wants, the know-it-alls.
I look straight ahead and avoid their prying eyes
It’s a losing battle, I know but let me lose in grace...
 
Visitors keep pouring in, with flowers and tears.
He was a man loved by many, the crowd proves it,
Everybody seems shocked and pale but not as lost as me
I glide along the windows, reliving the shadow of memories...
 
The moments were many, uncountable even,
It crushes my soul to think, they are all I have,
I see his fingerprints on the window panes,
I search for mine too, just beside him they lay...
 
The garden is being watered, but by a strange hand
The plants understand the master is now below them, 
He will never enjoy their colors or drive away moths
His ashes and scent scattered around the mango tree..
 
I smile at the garden then burst out laughing,
Before I know, warm tears run down my nose
But there still lingers a smile, wet with glistening tears
I am happy he lived, he lived full and more...


Details | Sonnet | |

Girl

Girl, just close those dreamy eyes
Get over here for your big surprise 
Release your inhibitions to me
The two us playing the marquee 

Girl, stop flashing those angel eyes
You're stirring up my devil deep inside
Come closer, I have a confession to make
You're beautiful and my heart you did take

Girl, You and me baby were never a miss
The moonlit talks, the everlasting kiss 
You are my glory, my meaning, my sun
Nights of pleasure, days of fun, we're one

Girl, don't you weep, don't say goodbye
Don't leave, we must give it another try


Details | Verse | |

If We Met Again

If we met again; 

would I know what to say?

How to act?

Who to be?

Would you fall in love again,

or walk all over me?

 

I wonder everyday;

would it be the same?

Could you ever smile 

and take away the blame?

 

Do you know my motives;

for the decisions that I made?

How I would cry every night

on the pillow where I laid.

 

Should I bring up the past

or let you go and live?

Do you know how it felt,

having nothing left to give?

 

Do you remember the notes 

of the song that you created?

All of the simple pleasures 

and the passion when we dated. 

 

Do you feel the anger,

from every fight that we had?

The fake facade and convincing,

that it was never really bad.

 

The promises and riddles,

the immaturity and fun.

The foolishness of thinking,

that you would be the one.

 

The sacrifices and endings.

The beginning feeling shy.

The last final moment,

when I whispered to you- goodbye.


Details | Free verse | |

The Journey

From time immemorial your story began
A hundred, a thousand, a million years and more
Your story past written a character just one
The tale of you bleeds into all

Each story unique while pieces the same
Today, tomorrow, millennia expended and gone
Your story continues passed first to no last
The tale of you bleeds into all

Through love and hate, laughter and death
Minutes and seconds grew to decades and days
The story being written you wrote each day
The tale of you bleeds into all

Memories endure through dream and remembrance
Yesterday is gone but tomorrow you live on
Your story yet written a character more than one
The tale of you bleeds into all

Your stories the fires shall never consume
A past, a future, a present goes on
The story you wrote lives forever in your love
The tale of you bleeds into all


Details | Free verse | |

Mists of Goodbye

Gray clouds gathering, distant eyes shrouded;
inner vellum lids cannot disguise
the fugitive from love you are.
Your cherished, throbbing body near,
Far, far away your misplaced mind;
Hesitant words reach out to you,
entangling in a torturous maze
where two hearts stumble in the mists.

August 20, 2014
Faye Lanham Gibson
Through the Mist Contest
Nette Onclaud, sponsor


Details | I do not know? | |

MLK - 1929 - 1968

MLK...
(January 15, 1929 – April 4, 1968)


they shot you down
all those years ago

but

your dream lives on
and always will

for though much has been
gained since you dreamed
your dream

there is much to fight for
and much more to struggle for

and much, much more
to fight for still

so
your dream resounds in
our hearts and we pledge 
this to you today
for though they shot you down
all those years ago on a memphis day
we shall overcome
this we do believe
deep in our hearts
that
we shall overcome
someday...


(for Dr. Martin Luther King Jr.)


Details | Free verse | |

Haunted

I was blinded, I was fooled.
I thought what we had was real...
Your sweet words of kindness swept me off my feet.
Your dark eyes that once gave me comfort, now are forever mocking me.
Your arms that wrapped around me, now wrap around my throat.
Your hands once so fragile, now are demonic as they clasp tighter and tighter.
Our eyes and bodies are locked together,
One gasping for breath...
The other praying for my death...
Darkness oozes from you mouth,
Slicing my skin, as my blood begins to pour.
Is this what you wanted?
For now, I lay unconcious...
And forever, will I haunt you.

Kallie Mason 
2013 


Details | Rhyme | |

Gazing At Cindered Skies -- Just Down the Road

Torturous curves bending vision,
Twisting to hide beyond today
What the prism of the future
Holds captive down the whispered way.
Lost to us Love's fledgling glory,
Gazing too long at cindered skies
Till the velvet flame of passion
Just guttered out in harsh good-byes.
Frail moths chasing bright illusions,
Our palpitant attempts denied. . .
Just down the road - to our mem'ry -
We'll lay a stone, "Here sweet love died."

May 7, 2014


Details | Light Poetry | |

Eternal Life

I have known her all my life
in my 20's I made her my wife
& with a blink the tears fall
as I hold her hand
I hear her tired heart, drum it's last beat
as the room lights up I knew the angels had come
my sweetheart of all my life was gone to heaven & left me behind
for I see you a thousand times my dear every time I close my eyes & 
I know when the time is right, I'll close my eyes
for the very last time & together again
my very best friend we'll hold eachother for eternal life..


Details | Free verse | |

Love Insanity

it is...

love too deep
so much of it we did keep
three years
of laugh and tears
shared intimate dreams 
owning each other in realms.

he turned his back last night
broke his cam 
and said goodbye. 

told him I love him many times 
losing him, I can't bear
he is being used, 
my weakness, 
my strength. 

we did our best 
I cried much, my heart in pain. 
but he decided to stop 
hope is gone 
he said, find another man.

must I if i love him much? 

LOVE INSANITY. 
WE FAILED, THEY WIN.

(inspired by the 'Black Butterflies)

Inner Whispers


Details | Romanticism | |

Locked In And Set

What happens when two are destined to drift 
Slowly forever apart?

They'll tell each other of crossing paths again
One day, that this is just a new start!

Time marches on though
While these two meet many others...

But to their first true love
They won't ever forget...

Because their hearts, for each other
Have been Locked In And Set


Details | Free verse | |

I'm Breaking up with you

For the smiles you brought, I am grateful,
The times we shared, I will never forget.
But the lies you spoke will haunt me,
And your cheating you should forever regret.

Unlike you, I know when time is up,
When to let go instead of lying.
So now it is time to bid you adieu,
For I am tired of trying. 


Details | Couplet | |

I Should Have Known

I couldn't have known it would come to this
that love would end with the sweep of a kiss
that tears would stain the dreams we shared
that mere fantasies would have us ensnared
and parting lips would forget real bliss,
but I should have known it would come to this.

I couldn't have known how my heart would break
how my life would be spent in the breaths you'd take
that empty arms would be emptier still
as words formed promises you'd never fill
and I'd be a fool for passion's sake,
but I should have known how my heart would break.

I couldn't have known you would say goodbye
that our love would be swallowed in a lie
that my soul would ache for desires we'd known
holding fast to the memories of love you'd shown
and that all I could do was sit and cry,
but I should have known you would say goodbye.


JMariah


Details | ABC | |

My mind and heart are at war

MY heart and mind are at war
My heart and my mind are at war,
Body and soul lost between the hate,
Confused and hurt not knowing what for,
They pull, twist and fight to escape,
The battle of pain sweat and tears,
Caught in the midst of heartache,
My soul breaks free and leaves behind its fears,
The pain is too much for my body to take,
I built a wall and smashed it to dust,
For another, but for what,
I lost my faith and lost her touch,
I am soulless standing here stuck,
My mind has won this war,
My heart damaged and broke,
Still not knowing what for,
I pray and i still hope,
That this war will end,
And mind and heart will coincide,
Hoping my soul and body will mend,
For the rest of me has already died
I am done with the pain of passion,
And done with the love of pain,
All i here is my hearts door's crashing,
For this is what makes a man go insane,
I felt her love i loved her touch,
I kissed her lips and she kissed my heart,
Now this feeling, i feel too much,
Now it’s time for my mind and heart to part,
I will see her eyes in the moon lit sky,
Her beauty in a sky of wonder,
I will shed one tear and let the pain die,
As i lay awake in a world of loveless slumber
The illusions of love corrupted my mind,
The confusion of passion clouded my eyes,
The death of my heart came soon this time,
So now i will love in a world of my demise,
You can’t feel this pain that i feel,
I am done trying and this time i am,
When i write i write what’s real,
So now can you see why my soul ran?
Can you stop and wonder,
How i made it so far, with so much pain,
Can you here my heart crack with thunder,
And can you see i live in a world of rain,
 I have sought love found it and lost i
I am tired of pain.  so tired my heart is exhausted
i am done now if she comes back then i am here,
if not like i said i have shed my one and only tear


Details | Free verse | |

It's Not Your Fault

The thing about life
is that
it can end in an instant

When the rope of the
harsh words
wraps tightly around your 

Neck squeezing tighter
and tighter
you just want to jump

To end it all to end all
the pain
and the hatred and words

It is not only the words
that push
you over the edge

It is too the fists and
the feet 
that slam into you

Over and over
without
a break with out letting up 

Making you break down and slide down
the wall
and cry and cry and cry

One phone call can 
save a
live, stopping that jump

Stopping the self hate
and
spreading the love

The love i have for 
you will 
never fade or die and i hope

will make you better
to sleep
and to be able to be 

Happy again to 
be happy
forever and always with me

just remember and know
that it's
NOT YOUR FAULT


Details | Free verse | |

Stars

And in an instance,
I realized that we were not only one in the present
but that we were one in the past

We have always been one

And that the same strings that attach stars in a constellation
attach us.


Details | Free verse | |

All That I'd Ever Want

All That I'd Ever Want
Would be to confess my love 
As I hold you gently, embracingly in my arms

And to appreciate your beauty
While falling every day, over and over
For your sweet loving charms


Details | I do not know? | |

Port of Call

Port of Call


Barefoot on a talcum beach,

alone, not lonely,

with the breath of the ocean a caressing balm,
soothing pained memories away,
to the swaying of a solitary palm.


Barefoot on a talcum beach,

alone, not lonely,

feeling the brushing away of all past turmoil,
on a quest for solace, ever so hard to find,
yet comforted by the crashing of the waves,
as the tide cleanses all pain,
and leaves despair far, far behind.


Barefoot on a talcum beach,

alone, not lonely,

drenched in a sea-breeze of mist,
that hushes the ache of bygone moons,
tasting the salty tang on my lips,
as the burnished sun,
over the distant horizon,
swoons,

and dips.


Barefoot on a talcum beach,

alone, not lonely,

searching, ever searching,
for a slice of solitude,
as memory bids a final adieu,
reaching under the sea so vast,
and seeking comfort in the depths,
while embracing,
the tomorrows to come,
wishing that they be true.


Barefoot on a talcum beach,

alone, not lonely,

seeing my truths drown,
as they slip beneath the turquoise waters,

feeling my heart ablaze,
with a passion that rarely falters.


Barefoot on a talcum beach,

alone, not lonely,

yet knowing that I am home at long last,
wishing the waves would wash away,
the defences that once stood,
like an impregnable wall.


Barefoot on a talcum beach,

alone, not lonely,

I have found, at long last,

my final port of call.


Details | ABC | |

Things go wrong

Love hurts and people change. Things go wrong and things get strange. But life goes on and you only life it once. Be strong cause things will get better over the months. I thought I was heartbroken, I thought you were my world. You fooled me though, made me think I was your only girl. But all along, you didnt care. Im not sure, your were even completely there. But now I've moved on, when I thought it was impossible. I had to be the bigger person in this breakup, I was responsible. I let it get to me, but I didnt let it ruin me completely. I didnt do anything about the hurt you caused me, I acted so sweetly. I let you walk all over me, I tried to ignore how you disrespected me. But when I ended things, the pain was easier to see.


Details | I do not know? | |

Saturday Rain in Johannesburg

Saturday Rain in Johannesburg…


…With sighs of torrential passion,
the heavens shower teardrops,

weeping with me,
as memories of you come cascading back,

skin on skin, ablaze,
moist kisses, fiery,
gentle whispers of undying love, murmured,

in another life, another time,

far removed from my present, a desolate state of despair,
wallowing in the grime.

…

The rain keeps falling,
each teardrop stinging my face,

tasting the salt on my lips,

I wonder, do you still remember the caresses of my fingertips,

between breathy confessions, and vows of eternal love,

before you left me, stranded on an island of solitude,

wounded as a wingless dove,

bereft of life,
stripped of all traces of fortitude


Details | Rhyme | |

The Last Time

This is the moment we must realize
That for us this is now the last time
Whatever we do now like we used to
It’s nothing short of a real crime
This was something that I never wanted
It’s something that I had never intended
I’d always pictured us with a good ending
But yet here we are, look how we ended
Though I really love you so much
And I’m wanting my life with you still
We taking two separate paths now
You will love him now, I know you will
We’re together this one last time
As two people who express all love and gratitude
Love so perfect and strong, after this moment
We can talk about you and him without attitude
This is the last time we get to think
That me and you are supposed to be together
That we’ll make a perfect family
And it’ll just be us two happy, forever
It’s the last time I’ll look oh so deep
Deep into those beautiful and hypnotizing eyes
To actually tell you how much I love you
And that it’s only with you that my heart lies
After this we can only remain intimate
In our memories, thoughts, or in our dreams
That’s a new mission for us to accomplish
Which may be easier for you than it seems
The last time is now, that we touch
As two people who are more than just friends
Now we have to take that good, pure, and true love
Mix it with the innocence, and see how it blends
No longer can I even let you see
That my love for you is just so strong
My emotions and love for you can’t be shown
Otherwise on my part, it’d be all wrong
This is the last time that I ask
For you to really consider taking me back
Before these next years go by and it’s
Only our true happiness we both lack
For the last time, thanks for everything
And all the lessons you helped me learn
You have the most amount of love and trust
From me that anyone could ever earn
For the last time you should know
I love you with all my heart, body, and soul
And that only you can complete me
You’re the other piece that makes me whole
Through all of life and eternity will you be
The Queen of my heart, and know that I’m
Never going to love again after this moment
You are it, baby this is the last time
 


Details | I do not know? | |

For Bob Dylan

Ramblin' Bob Dylan Blues
(For Bob Dylan)



Why does the sun dry up so many scattered tears

slipping down the coarse cheek of a million hushed fears

where no one is scalded though the searing fog clears

while prayers are mutely spoken even as the end nears

We shatter and scrape on demented knees

Blindly begging for mercy as it silently flees

Searching listlessly for salvation drowned in the breeze

That spits at the soft rose suffocated by a wheeze


I know now what I need never have known

Of hope that was trampled before it had flown

Into a wasted sky filled with hate that could drown

The giggling of the crowd and the crying of the clown


A hope so fragile that its wings were of brittle glass

Ripping the veneer off the sewers of class

Twisting the fabric of the weighed and costed mass

Who numbly waited hoping that it too may pass


For when shards of that hope in all hearts scurries away

To a darkness where crowded night is emptied off the heaving tray

'Tis then when sewn eyes shall behold that doleful day

When all shall tear at each other while on demented knees we still shall pray


For a lifting of the veil of that wilful deceit

That's wrapped up in a flag swollen with conceit

While the limbs splinter in the claw of a winner's defeat

Yet still the drums roll for the ill-fated souls chose never to retreat


From that drenched battle-ground where blood flows through a sieve

And love's lost song plaintively begs for a reprieve

From eternal loss which into raw emotion does cleave

Only to slip through the fingers and like grains of sand, leave.


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Experiences Freestyle

Love's a many joys and pains; A wild ride no matter how you take them reigns. In vain we try our best at evading the lanes, but you gonna get wet if you stay in the rain. And you can press reset once you reach that place where the hurt in your chest starts to fade and be replaced with the fact that the wackness can be faced; laughed and left, not mad, no regrets. See it might take a little second, trust I've been there before. Disappointed in the person you gave too much credit. You aint a fool for gettin fooled, that's what foul folks do, but you a fool if you aint wise enough you debt it. See it's hard out here slim pickings on the regular; Fallin for charisma lookin past character. But when it's all said and done, better aim my style. I'll let karma do it's thing and laugh last. "Ha-haaaa"
Hit the gas!


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This is Goodbye

Somebody told me that you’re happy
That you’re moving right along
That you’re planning for the future
But I think they’ve got it wrong.
You’ve got everyone thinking
That you’re smitten and in love
They think you’ve gotten really lucky
Have everything that you’ve dreamed of…

But I know better, don’t I?
I can see it in your eyes
I see your halfhearted smiles,
I could spot them for miles
And I can sense the subtle lies
I know you better than the rest do
But I can’t save you, I can’t rescue -
You from your own disguise
So I guess this is goodbye now
Goodbye now
Good…bye

I heard she’s fond of metal’s sharpness
That she’s carving both your ways
But she’s cut more than herself
She cut you and everyone else
Who cared about you at one time
And you just let her do it
Let her twist her grips inside
So I guess you’re guilty too
You can’t hide the ugly truth
So I guess this is goodbye

So tell your lies

But I know better, don’t I?
I can see it in your eyes
I see your halfhearted smiles,
I could spot them for miles
And I can sense the subtle lies
I know you better than the rest do
But I can’t save you, I can’t rescue -
You from your own disguise
So I guess this is goodbye now

I guess this is goodbye now
Good…bye


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Good Bye

Good bye


Today I Have to Say Goodbye
It Is Very Hard to Do
The Memories Will Haunt Me..
Memories...Of Me and You

Your Smile Could Make My Head Spin
Your Sadness Make Me Cry
The Happiness You Felt
Put Me on a Natural High

Remember, Please, Forever
It Is All I Had to Give
Love from You Gave Me Reason 
To Even Want to Live


And Now I Know It's over
But There's Something You Should Know...
I Shall Love You, Always
Even When I'm Old


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Late Blooming

You come from that place where Queen Anne’s lace
and milk thistle grow thick on the creek bank
behind the house.
Black-eyed Susans, opened to the sky,
sway strong and tall in the wind.
A dogwood blooms;
in remembrance of friends gone.

And the dust gathers
heavy over that forgotten place.
My heart closed up like a daylily
at moonrise.
And I, a late blooming rose,
far into an Indian summer.

You left; then I—
left and shook the dust not just from feet,
but hair, skin, bones.
It collected deep inside, though.
As you did.

We never said goodbye.

© stephanie pepper, 2013


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Vexing High

I’m caught in the midst of a dream I reside –
tumbling lovers tempting romance with pride.
Twisting and thrusting, to and fro with hate –
stumbling over a beautiful destiny and fate.

Creeping and crawling through shards of hope –
resisting the tension on a loveless, tight rope.
Shuddering in solitude, and mentally numb –
oblivious to the breakdown of who I’ve become.

Teasing and taunting, the years of lost time –
mocking their innocence with words and rhyme.
Insulting their integrity, of wrong over right –
disregarding true feelings, absconding the night.

Searching the wreckage, down high and up low –
for bits of true love and familiar pieces I know.
Vexing in torment, and accepting thy defeat –
of an unspeakable romantic tale of deceit.


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Blue and Black roses.

kiss midnight goodbye and watch its dark petals float away on the night breeze,.kiss 
midnight goodbye and bask in the rays of the morning sun.,render the past gone and wash 
in the dew of your dawn. Kiss midnight goodbye and with it the queen of the stars and her 
banquet ...,I kiss midnight goodbye and embrace my new beginning because in your eyes i 
see the map of my world.. I watch everything come to ease in a stare,the other side of 
darkness,painless and no less beautiful. A wordless understanding but an understanding 
none the less.,comforting;But not of my lamentations but of my subconsious need..a 
seemingly ever present presence..the pen of my thoughts.


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Which Road of Life Will You Take


Do you want joy and satisfaction that you “haven’t got?” The peace and joy you want, can’t be bought… Are you looking for fulfillment in your daily activities? Have you “pushed” the envelope, with your liberties? There’s a road of “good intentions.” It’s wide and easy to find. But there’s another road… Which God has in mind! This narrow road, to many, may seem strange indeed! It’s only on this road, where you’ll find an answer to your need This road leads to a life that’s everlasting. There’s a question, which God is asking! Are you ready to take the road that leads to heaven’s gate? Will this be your choice? Before it’s too late? Jesus stands at your heart’s door knocking… The choice is yours! On which road, will you do your walking? Please take the narrow road! It can be difficult to travel… You should do this! Before life begins to unravel! Jesus! The prince of Peace... Rules the earth and heavens above! Won’t you enter his haven of rest, and abundance of love? He is here waiting for you. So loving, patient and kind… Only in him… Will you find satisfaction and joy every time! By Jim Pemberton


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Tragic Love

I’ve never felt like this before,
I’ve never loved a man.
I’ve never felt completely safe
Just by holding someone’s hand.

I can’t believe we lasted so long,
What do you have there?
I can’t believe you’re on your knee
So this is how much you care.

I love you so my dear,
Enough to say yes.
I love you to the ends of the earth.
So much, I’ll even wear this dress.

Why are we fighting like this?
Won't you please sleep next to me?
Why don’t you come home on time?
I’m too scared to face reality.

How did this happen?
I can’t believe I was so stupid.
How could I not have seen?
I though it had been the work of Cupid.

Now my heart is shattered.
While your heart is just fine.
Now I'm all alone again,
Knowing you were never mine.

I’ll never fall in love again.
You’ve destroyed me.
I’ll never trust another man.
Seeing as you’re left with ALL our money.

I must thank you though.
You’ve taught me a lesson I hold quite dear.
Never fall in love.
And never believe the words that you hear.


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Not The Same

I know what we used to have was really beautiful,
We trusted and believed in each other and were so truthful.
Than something happened, something very bad,
I'd rather get pissed off or angry, but this time it mad me sad. 

My mind is clouded and I can't think strait anymore,
I don't know what's going on with me but it hurts me to the core. 
I know that this is just another depression poem for you,
But if this is the only way I can talk to you than I'll say what's true. 

You meant so much to me, I would of traded the heavens for you,
But now I don't know what to do anymore, I feel like my heart got the flu. 
Its really not easy writing this right now cause the blood fills my eyes and its a blur,
My hands shaking like I never felt them shake before. 

Remembering your skin rub against mine makes me even more sad,
Cause now I know that I wont ever be this mad.
I cried for you and I prayed for you, but you still and went and done me wrong,
I don't know if that was a sign from you to make me tough or strong. 

Well I can tell you this though, this feeling will stay, 
Cause I don't know what it meant to you, but to me it was my last day.
So, I am sorry for writing this, but this is what I have to claim,
And not ever forget that this will never be the same.


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Footprints

saying goodbye to you
every time
is like being in a snowstorm
and watching my only companion 
walk away through the whiteness
fading away through 
pale distance
until the only evidence
you ever existed
are footprints
already
gone


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Girl With The White Blouse

Get out of my head,
Please get out of it while I rest in my bed, 
I don't need anyone right now, 
Your presence I can't allow, 

We've already said our goodbyes,
I coated my happy one with layers of lies, 
Just to let you be free, 
Cause you deserve the most perfect guy out there and be happy, 

I can't destroy these memories of you, 
Your face I could still see clearly from my memory's point of view,
This is unfair and sad,
I think my mind's getting crazy over you again and it's getting bad,

To me you still wear that fancy white blouse,
Having that glare that emulates secrecy for which you pretend you don't need a spouse,
But with that same glare I saw someone I could love,
And I think getting over you is the hardest testament I've received from above.


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Where Feelings Hide

This love for you has slowly died down
My mind learned to hide, but it’s always found
This love for you has slowly gone astray
My mind turned to follow, but then walked away
Through an open water deeply locked

I lay lifeless on this water floor
Hoping and wishing for something more
The lights they flicker and shadows bend
My nights get sicker as we near the end
Rain drops splatter and ripple on the liquid moon
The melting sky calls upon me tonight
I know responsibilities will be here soon
This will change who I am, so that’s alright

Once when I was young I used to dream the moon stole the ocean floor
And that everything on Earth sank into it’s own dying core
This choice is for the new life almost here
And there’s been thousands of days in this year
So I think I’ll head for the horizon and tread to the shore
Needing to flee the sea and focus on me and nothing more

So I offer these numb feelings to the swaying tide
Ocean forever hide me where feelings can hide
Wherever it is that feelings hide
I don’t care how, just take me to that same core
These feelings, now I can’t feel them anymore
And they’re left behind with nothing but words


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Ouroboros

A pit filled with snakes
And a loaded gun
I jump in to escape
My burning tongue
These lips leaking fire
My eyes so cold
I dread to imagine
The hate I’d mould
But still you persist
And I refuse to speak
There’s pain running down
My tear-soaked cheeks

And I’m so alone
Around you

The bullets aren’t hitting
A single snake
Injecting their poison
In to my veins
But still I evade
A single glance
In to your eyes
I refuse your hands
As I spit and strike
With all my rage
Into myself
With these vicious snakes

Because I am alone
Without you


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Surprising hugg

I got out off the cab to say goodby
uncertain of the surprise waiting me byy
she jumped on me and tightly she hugged
like spider she was and i felt like a bug
 
her fragrance was mild and yet it was firm
tht maroon coat warm and body beneath stubborn
weather was cold but my breath so hot
her arms across my back were holding me on
 
that grip was so tite it was hard for me to breath
that moment was so emotional my heart forgot to beat
she was so close to me as she could ever be
for those 10 seconds my whole world was at freez
 
that time was precious i couldnot let her go
we were onto each other like body and sole
her hairs brushed against my lips tickling my nose
making me laugh and all the sadness was gone
 
i love you she said breathing the same air
her lips touching my cheek she said take care
i love you too and a kiss my lips guided to her ear
i wished to look in her eyes and see if there were tears
 
i stood there watching her as she walked away
leaving me behind i felt my sole was about to decay
she didn,t looked back it made me so sad
but till now it was the best hugg i ever had


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Walking Away

I was walking down the street one day
when his eyes suddenly caught my way.

My heart started to pound so fast
but, I've always known our love won't last.

I remembered the times he held me tight
and promised me everything would be all right.

I can see the sadness in his eyes
Remembering the day we said our good byes.

As he looked at me, tears fell to the ground
but, when I looked up he wasn't around.

As much as I wanted for him to stay
I then realized that I must walk away.





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you make demons sigh

First draw 
Proved me wrong.
Girl you are strong
No doubt about that
I am too though.
Don't you ever forget it
We are different strengths. 
Girl please. You're losing it.
What is so hard to understand.
I sped up.
Now you slow down. 
Because? Because what? 
We both need it. 
Equal balance.
To progress.
In devastation.
Always failing cause we start up again from where we last left off. 
Gushing over a couple kids with me someday 
tying the knot moving out to Texas 
so you can be with your ma and see your siblings grow up. 
Planning our future in a tornados hollow center. 
In the wake of destruction. 
Just cause our chaos has run out of steam. 
Its only the eye of the storm.
And we always get our second wind is coming.
Inevitable unless we try to change once 
but nah I guess we masochistically desire our dependent mutilation. 
baby we don't have a story. 
We are the book of Revelations.
Obedient plot with a deep tragedy.
Foreshadowing's nothing without an ending.
But no not us. 
Fall asleep and wake up 
at the starting line in our crazy, luke warm, loopy maelstrom.
Like the progress we made the day before never happened. 
And hell neither one of us is gonna say anything about it 
cause we're not schizophrenic. 
But I don't know about you..
But I wouldn't call you crazy. Too risky. 

I'll just assume the power went out before I got to save. Yep.
Eh. No worries 
go get giggly with your girlfriends 
clown around routinely
fill your room to the brim with smoke. 
And I'll go get popular in a rowdy crowd 
cause I'm an expert at chaotic mischief 
when I've spent my day shutting my liver down.

And then its you and me 
making plans to get married tonight 
and we had an awesome tale going.
We liked reciting it 
cause we were so numb and high we didn't realize we plagiarized. 
Romeo and Juliet right down to the parts 
where they hardly knew each other. 
Mistaking lust for love. 
Charming talkers. 
And killing ourselves at last.
Its a shame that it took one of em seeing the other dead 
to realize there's a time to play and a time to be serious. 
Keep reading. Wait. Con. I. Think I'm. Feeling somethi-- 
And we always seemed to blackout before we could write a fin.
Coulda been a best selling book.
You Alcoholic author man .

Wait. Hey. Amb. Do you remember. 
what. we were saying last. night. 
Did we say something about.. Uh. Nevermind. 
I'm hungover and out of it.

--Man I must forget alot. 
Cause everytime I'm in a pit 
I look at your picture in my wallet for solace.
But. Hold up. you're the one who put me in!
Its cause now I feel struggle I feel resistance 
Something I never felt before
Its like that little worm has some rhythm in its heart. 
Seeing something I normally didn't
Holding in its last breath. 
To swim to the top of the bottle. 
Through the liquor. 

Like wait a second. 
I looked at you and really felt love.
And I want a life with you. More.
This warmth? Woah
Never leave. I'll dig upwards.
Through hells ceiling.
Brake my wrists unremittingly.
Until I reach the surface.
And then I'll make my claws grow back round and soft. 
So I can hold your hand.
And my teeth I'll file down. 
To fit back in my mouth and scrub off all the blood. 
So I could give you a kiss. 

You can make a demon gentle.
And this monsters wrath will deplete 

And my eyes for the first time join my lips in a smile.
as I kiss your forehead to sleep.

As this caterpillar finally builds his cocoon. 
it looks like two humans interlocked.
Arms and legs crossed. 
Like a force to be reckoned with. 
Unstoppable together as one. 
You are my woman. 
And I Will always love you. 
Cause you're my girl. 
You're my one.

The truth of the matter though is that
you are a double wicked candle.
fuse not far from the igniting sight
i did you wrong, turned my eye, and blank for a second 
but you said nah this is eternity now
This is all I know
How did I do this to myself all over again.  
But its not. 
no matter what I said u grew quiet And learned to do the same. 
Ashamed. but I never jumped the edge
Believe me. I felt fine with being wanted that's it.
Never had them. never did. 
It was you. You beat me. 
You got this you win. 
I didn't lose anything but you.
I just hope you know. 
Its all good. Let that be the ending.
For all I care now.
Its over.
Tragedy fulfilled. 
Fin.


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Disconnection

I'm…
so tired of my heart 
breaking

I'm …
so tired of my hands 
shaking

I'm so tired of my mind
racing

I'm through pacifying 
my disconnection

Do I only love you for who you used to be?
When you said you'd wait for all eternity?
Did you drink away every memory of me?
How am I not everything you’ll ever need?!

I've had to sit down and write this 
to tell you the words i can't speak
When I'm around you now i feel weak
I'm drowning in my disconnection

Where did he go??
You are not the soul I used to know
Where did your memories go?!

Why has the meaning disappeared…
So suddenly
Now I realize I should too

You act like you remember nothing 
I can tell that’s what I mean to you
After all I’ve done for you
All I want is to be emotionless too

In the end I guess it’s what I love the most about you…..
Your disconnection.

[©2012 SLS, this soon to be a new song for It Is Rife With Ambiguity]
www.sorrylittlesharky.com


Details | I do not know? | |

the last farwell

i won't say goodbye because goodbye makes me sad.But i will say farwell and be happy for 
what we had .so many days so many nights stayin -up together Me thinking  to myself i hope 
this last forever .We really never could hide our emotions,Our love was too deep ,like the 
deepest ocean.i just hope and pray that i find love ,Like the love we had ...... sent from 
above .Ill try not to forget .I'll try not to dweell,As i walk away and say farwell


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Soothing Tear

Rippled down the cheek of a timely whimper
Gracefully tending to her blackened eyes
I cried from a tear once last simper
In the darkened entail of solemn cries

I wandered down her trembled complexion
Forever longed her crimson kiss
One last taste of my sensual affection
Hoping our meeting will be time's lasting bliss


Details | I do not know? | |

The Last Time

I swear it's the last time I sit here
Staring at the ceiling, remembering,
No reason why, you just left,
I blinked and you were gone.

I pack my things and get ready,
You shot your arrow, struck the final blow,
You always had to be right,
Even when you were wrong.

I don't know what I expected,
But I know it wasn't this, without a last kiss,
You were on your way,
Didn't even look back.

So many questions unanswered,
You left my mind to spin, my faith to wear thin,
I crumbled to the cold ground
And a flood came from my eyes.

I screamed at you to come back,
Though in my heart, I knew we'd fallen apart,
We'd never be the same,
No matter how we tried.

Do you remember at all?
The lucky ones, when all we had was fun, 
Do you remember anything at all?
Walking in the pouring rain and laughing.

The look in your eyes,
Did I misread, you told me never to bleed
My wrist out again, and I
Promised but I'm sorry.

All those times ago,
Did they mean nothing? to me they were everything,
But maybe that was my mistake,
Maybe I loved being with you too much.

You told me to let go but tell me how,
How do I let go of it all? we were so quick to fall,
In and out of Love, is this the end,
Is this where I too have to walk away?

I never wanted the end
To end up like this, without one last kiss,
I wonder if you still think about me,
But I guess it doesn't matter anymore....


Details | ABC | |

How I Feel Now

Tears may fall, but I won't cry.
You can ask, but I won't say why.
And although it hurts, I won't let it show.
I still want you so, but no one will know.
I may think of you, but not say your name.
Even though I'm so lonely, to you it's all the same.
I will miss you so much, but you won't know at all.
And I'll write down the words, but not say them aloud.
There's so much inside me, but I'll never try.
My heart is broken, but I can't say goodbye...


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Just the Beginning

Its the beginning of a new life. 
I don't think what you said was right. 
I don't think what you did is correct.
It's the beginning of a new life. 

So many lies, 
I'm done,
So many times, 
Im done, 
You cant go back in time and undo the damage that is done. 

Its the beginning of a new life 
I dont think what you said was right 
Its the start of a new life. 
My heart has died 
My soul is crushed 
The tears won't stop but 
Im done with the bull*****
Im done 
Im done
Im... 
Its the beginning of a new life 
I don't think what you said was right 
I don't think what you did was correct 
Its the beginning of a new life. 
So Imma let go Then stop the tears 
Then say "Fair well" "Goodbye, My lover


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Off

A tear falls down my face
He looks at me and wipes it away
Grabs my hand 
And we begin to walk
The rain is falling
And the thunder burst
I feel so alone
Even tho he guides me along the way
His leather jacket covering me
Like it did every day
But today is not like it was before
the love I once felt doesn’t exist any more
The rain is cold and I begin to shake
The water covers my entire face
We see the end
Of the rode and us
But the rain continues
While I take the leather jacket off


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These Salty Waves Pt 1

What am I supposed to think? What am I supposed to say? All these lies you bottled up come sweeping, crashing with the tides. My footing's gone, the ocean real, but how am I supposed to feel? And here I am, a drowning mess, a loveless lie, I do protest. And here I am a drowning mess. So all those things you said to me? Where they just lies out of pity? So all those things you said to me? Or am I lost in salty waves? Yes I know my future's grave. Or am I lost in salty waves?And now the panic in my head, when I should be tucked up in your bed, reels and reels right here instead.I'm going down, a sinking ship, funny what name drips off my lips. It is not God, or Angles plenty, or even that I'm just damn ready To let go of the hell and the lies. I'm wishing for your gentle eyes. Or at least the way they always seemed, but perhaps that's just this salty dream. I have no clue what I'm to do! A drowning hopeless mess, for you-- think it's cute, and oh so funny, but here's the bitter truth now honey. I'm going down. There is no help. I can't be saved by God himself. I put my life, my whole world of trust, and you've thrown it away for lust. Well what the hell's a girl to do? I'm just so entranced by you!


Details | I do not know? | |

Character

Your character deceives me
Always misleads me
One minute I’m your friend
The next minute I’m your foe
The thought of you
Makes my liver quiver
My heart shivers.
You were my confidant
Now I’m your adversary
We had a good friendship
Now you’re not even worth, being an associate
I wanna say goodbye…but I can’t
I’ll never forget you
The gleeful person you were
And the impudent creature you have become.
08/15/05


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memory of a once was

Such fractured lines in all our stars
finding ways to stay a little more sane
we pull the covers over our faces and drown out all the pain

Nothing stays the same and like the tides of the ocean
come and go I'll have to say goodbye again and again
I never thought I'd see those ghosts drowning out all your words 
and pulling you under to the places that darken the heart

I look for your face in the parting crowd and just like that your gone 
No parting words just the memory of a once was 
every thought every breath is a tiring escapade 
trying to figure out what I did wrong
maybe I loved you too much or never enough

And I'm writing this letter 
to send out to sea
only hoping someday someone will read our story
and hear my voice narrating all the memories in a once was


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leavin you behind

im goin on with my life
and leavin you behind
i love you still
but i will not go crawling back
you gave me alot of love
but also heartache and sorrow
maybe itll b better tomorrow
you hurt me bad
and it used to make me sad
and then it changed
i got mad
youll always be my first love
you used to be really special
and finally im goin on with my life without you
and leavin you behind


Details | Free verse | |

Sometimes, I'm just angry

There are no other words to say this so I’ll say it frankly
I hate you
For being there at an imperfect time
And suddenly leaving when I needed you most
When I was about to leave and
You said you still wanted me there, so I didn’t 
For using me as a trampoline from one girl to another
Because when you were with me
I held you close and tight
Still you found a way to unchain yourself
And you ran as fast as you could and you never came back
You hurt me in so many ways
I was affected deeply in places I thought was unreachable
When I let you in, I thought you planned to stay
Until that fateful 27th
When you cowardly walked away from us
With no valid explanation, no sturdy proposition
Left without a single honest apology
Expecting me to be strong and to move on as I should
But how can I move on when you ended it with a lie
Until now I’m haunted by the later stories they told me
That other girl you tried so desperately to hide
You’d think I would never uncover the truth
But, I’m not like that
Letting things go so easily and letting lies just pass
I hate you
For your lies that penetrated me deeply
From the lies you said about having feelings for me
To your lies about leaving because you’re not ready
How can an honest man
Who truly is, without question, in love with a woman
Just, without point, walk away from her?
That’s not you, you know
You’re far from honest and you’re even farther from being a man
I just wish I could turn back the clock
And slap my own self that moment I was falling for you
Because right now, I hate you that much
Hating you so much, but missing you more than I can ever feel


Details | Haiku | |

Prolongation

Every call I get
I ignore, praying its you
Please make this come true


Details | Dramatic Verse (Verse Drama) | |

I'm Sorry Jack

The sound of confusion
In my ears
The obvious conclusion
In my tears
I leave you now
And forever more
I hate myself
For closing the door
The inevitable ending
Turns the bend
Goodbye my love, my best friend


Details | Free verse | |

Bravo

That smirk that kills me
That bravo! That instills me
The blunt truth you were able to see
That I cherished you 
But you kept quiet, 
and I felt like a fool
The fool who cared
And you friend, The White Colonial Hollow Man that didn't care
Pardon me for calling you hollow
I know you’ve been hurt, struck by the need to prioritize
Shift and allocate and customize
What comes first in your life
But it still hurts that the timing was not right
That luck was not by my side
But who am I kidding
Neither luck nor time could have made this right
If your heart was not by my side
You sail upon a different tide
And I am still stuck by the shore
Looking for a grain of hope
Hope that you might turn around and sail to the coast
But do tell me, how come I was struck 

How come I favoured and noticed 
and you so fervourless? 
How can you so bluntly tell me I shouldn’t? 
How come I saw and you couldn’t
The frustration that you have ignited
Is strongly enticing, tranquilizing
I gathered some courage and uttered “I care”
Yet such feelings, along with many candidates, you couldn’t share
Made me beat myself up, for my astounding luck!
“throw it all behind you", you said
without thinking twice or even considering how I felt
it hurts to be rejected 
but you know what stings the most,
what kills the most, what harms the most
what makes me ache,
the thought that caused the pain,
was not that you didn’t care
but it was when you saw my care to be a bore
a bore that only became a load
so I fell in to utter, shrieking silence
“don’t give awkwardness space”, he said
it wasn’t awkwardness that needed space
but a wounded pride to be mended
so fly along the course of life
live your days, and so will i
too bad our stars were not aligned
I am done caring.
For what it is to my gain, if I cherish in vain
For it is better to be slapped by the Truth
than kissed by a Lie
so fly along the course of life
and live your days, and so will I
Goodbye.


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The Darkness at Noon

Summertime sang its chorus
Echoed through my brain
Springtime promised hope
Sending rain to clear the pain
I walked into the solstice
Prayed solace for my soul
Sacrificing my heart, your crucible
To purify the gold
I searched out the light, 
I stared into the sun
Its rays scarred my eyes
I couldn't read your runes
Loneliness consumed me 
In the darkness at noon






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There are times

There are times when i just want to hold you and times that i want to be with you.
There are times when i just want to kiss you and times when i just want to caress you.
I wish we can be forevermore,
But all I see is an open door.
I wish we can be together till the end of time, and i wish you can be forever mine.
One day we will meet again, but for now, all i can say is, Goodbye my friend!
-jfernandez671


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Pretty Girl

Hello pretty girl its been such a long time. 
Since I've seen your lovely face and the pleasure stil is all mine. 
Often I have wondered rain and thunder on the coldest nights. 
I see you in my slumber whispers mumbled from an older life. 
I miss your pretty face there was a time my heart belonged to you.  
The hardest challenge ive ever faced a place that split my heart in 2 
Acceptance Is the answer and forever I will need you more. 
This love is like a cancer eating slowly at my weeping core. 
This pain I learned to hide it well buried in my broken soul. 
My love for you will never die my heart is like a open door.


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How Do I Let You Go

What will be
Will be!
I know of this, first hand
Your life was taken away
So abruptly!
I will 
Never forget
That day!
Till the day 
My body dies
And
I am with you, again!

“How was I to prepare myself?”
With 
That kind of 
Life changing, event!
You 
Didn't warn me 
You
Were permanently leaving!
I hope 
You know 
How much “I love you”
Know
You will never be forgotten!

I don’t know 
What 
Has got into me!
Consciously
I feel you
Inside me
I see images
Of your face 
So clearly!
Am I crazy 
To believe in this, my love?

“Are you still with me?”
“Is my imagination 
Playing cruel tricks
Running rampant
As
I talk with you
As if 
You were by my side, right now

In my heart and mind
Your face etched
Imprinted
Like a blue print
That never fades
Your foot prints 
Still remain, beside me
My heart beats
Eternally
Trying to make sense of everything!

Forgive me, my love
For being so strong in my feeling
For it has been a long time
Since I lost you, my friend
Something 
I haven’t
Quite
Got over!

My heart 
Having 
A mind of its own
Aching 
To be with you, still!
To see you
To smell you
To touch you
To taste you
One
Last time!

I want to say “Goodbye” 
Once and for all!
As 
We have
Brought out
The best and worst 
In each other
Rivers run deep
When it comes to you and me!

We have had our fair share of fights and arguments
Stubborn disagreements
All of them
Meaningless
Now
You cease to exist!

I miss your lingering touches
Your hand, stroking my face
Your big, blue eyes
Looking into mine
Your warm lips
Your rough, unshaven face 
The way you
Passionately
Kiss me
While
We make love, till dawn

I miss
All those nights
You kept me 
Safe and warm!
I miss
Your
Loving embrace
I miss
Your
Reassurance!
“Am I ever going to feel the same, with another?”
Just
As 
I felt
In your arms, my love?

How
Do I let you go?
How
Do I set myself, free?
I am ready
To love, again!
With 
‘Our eternal love’
Supporting
And 
Guiding me
Especially
In times, like these!


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Puppy Love

When I first saw your picture, my little ball of fluff; I loved you. He handed over the cash and I sold you my heart. You came to me without papers but it didn't matter -- you sealed the certificate with several loving licks. Each stroke made the happiness in my chest tick.

You were my baby and I'll always love you.

Knew I couldn't have kids and I wanted my first son to be Bentley; that's why it was first love when you met me. Bought you clothes and toys and the best munchies. Had to spoil my little man like it's supposed to be.

Whenever I'd get in fights you'd kiss away my tears. My friends missed my calls but my dog took away my fears. I'll miss my buddy; he was a girl's best friend. The closest thing an infertile young lady could get in the end.

I'll miss you.


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Hello Goodbye

Hello Goodbye in a flash of a light
How could I love u so much
And want to let go
Hello Goodbye, we had a hell of a fight
How could I want u so much
And want to let u go
 
I can't explain it, you had me, and willing to let me go
And even though we are both grown
You tell me to leave u alone
And the next minute, asking me what went wrong
I am tired of these games, I really need  a change
 
I see what u are looking for 
But you believe it's not me
If that is how u feel
Who am I to disagree
 
You make love to me
Then we into it again
You say we just friends
Then this friendship is over with
I can do bad by myself
And plus, there really isn't anything left
 
How could we go from 
Hello Goodbye in a flash of a light


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Suspicion

Flames lick the burning passions of my distrust,
as I gaze at the deep nothingness in your eyes.
Your cold icy stare smolders in the empty recesses of my soul.
I see your hatred, ablaze with desire, a cheap tawdry trick
aimed to once again draw me into your realm of your darkness.
I feel your cloying breath upon my face -
kisses dripping with an icy resolve
luring me, taunting me, haunting me.
My skepticism lingers, as cold fingers of doubt grip and choke -
clutching at my trembling, rapidly beating heart.
Your cruel game is passionate and intense,
filled with the indifference of a first lover.
My own suspicions were astutely intact,
for my disbelief rang true.
The flames that fueled the intensity of you -
now crumble like white hoar frost in the winds
of an unwelcoming fate.


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Coal Seeds

I buried my heart today
I stood beside the mound of earth
I'd tirelessly dug away
I don't think I dug deep enough
So I dig a deeper grave

So there my heart will lie
Motionless, consumed with hurt
Loaded with the tears I'd cried
Now suppressed with fresh-dug dirt
Not even worth a last goodbye

How deep it lays, can't be measured
Compacted into Earth's tenebrous core
To suffocate beneath the pressure
Perhaps becoming useful once more
Coals will be diamonds, my heart will be precious


4th March 2013


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Giving up

This time I have to end it,
I'm sorry for never understanding.
Or maybe I did I just don't get it,
And now you're leaving is half-expected.
I hope you'll be happy
Like we were.
And you remember me
Even though this goodbye hurts.
I wish we could live
In the good moments again.
And even though it's goodbye for now
I hope this isn't the end.


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Withering Flower

This day is dying fast,
I'm afraid this would be the last.
Seeing her slowly fading away,
In her case she beautifully lay.

Tears hiding beneath the rain,
Fast pulses in my vein.
Frozen from this deep sorrow,
I wish that I'd skip to tomorrow.

Utter silence follows after grief,
My heart now is as fragile as a leaf.
She took my heart with her where she lay
And in sorrow I see her for the last time Today.

No type of bliss can carry me
From this torment that Death's given me with glee.
Once my lively beautiful flower,
Now withering in her final hour.


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Low Down

Do you love me
Do you think I am smart
Do you appreciate me
Do you look at me, what do you see

When you hit me does it hurt you
When you call me stupid does it emasculate you
When I comfort you Am I beneath you
When you look at me what do you see

It hurts when you hit me
It enrages me when you call me stupid
It empowers me to know I comfort you
Look at me now what do you see

I don't love you
I am above you intellectually
I am calculating, cunning
Look at me, my back is the last you'll see.

The Love of your life
The small contributions you made
The small man that you are
The minutiae of nothing

I walk tall, with a soulful stride
You walk fast trying to catch me
I am the winner
You're a survivor

I am no longer broken
I am no longer weak
I am a woman
Then I drop a coin in your cup


Details | I do not know? | |

Your heart

what does your heart say?
can you hear it?
feel it?
when you push it aside do you feel regret?
longing?
or do you feel nothing?


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Never really here

How do I say farewell
to somebody who wasn't ever really here
Oh his body laid around on the couch
and occasionally tried to touch my mouth 
But the man was never here
How do I say goodbye 
deep inside my heart
When his presence never existed 
as love does when it starts
Saying it's better to be friends
when a true friend, I wouldn’t want as him
Not a truth found within his soul 
or that passed over his teeth
A weight has been lifted
knowing he's out of my house
Out of my life
for I don't need his lies
Threatening me not to return 
Oh, how I sighed with pressure released
I found he wasn't the kind of man I need
An understatement indeed
Where was his honor, he knew not the word 
Integrity he had never heard
He knew the meaning of the word lie
but couldn't admit even one
Infidelity, no one would want him for his mind or body
So he gorged on attention
from every female source
I wasn’t enough to end that course
Never meeting, but always communication
constantly trying to draw some woman in 
To this web of deception, I hardly understand
He had me here waiting, with flowers in hand 
Looking back, I was just needing a man to love
and to be somebody’s number one
But found out soon, it was never me he loved
Oh, he'll keep trying his games on others 
But I'm content, to sit alone and write 
For words are my true lover
I've never been married, except to my books 
But it wasn't for my lack of looks 
Humble scribbler I must be, having a heart to be broken 
but tis only my soul that must shine 
Forget about warm embraces, I find them but a trap
Its enough to romanticize a touch 
and dream of passions long ago 
Just writing them down, make them seem to not want to go
That can sustain me 
for another 40 years 
or maybe a year or so! 


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I Still Love You

I still love you
Buried six foot under
Life no more
Risking my heart
Everything, I have ever known!
Letting you go
Eighteen years of panache and tears
‘Loyalty’ because 

‘I Still Love You’

At a cross roads
Changes of initiation
Giving in, risking all
Trading this pain in
Making my heart whole
Know by saying goodbye
And, letting you go
Know, for an eternity

‘I Still Love You’


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True Reality

Why is it
I am always wrong?
Something
I have always done?
Why is it
I am 
Never good enough
In your eyes
In challenging times?

How many times
Do I have to say
“I love You?”
What will it take
To convince
That mind 
And 
Heart 
Of yours?

What can I say
That will ease 
This jealousy
And 
Resentment
You feel towards me
When drinking 
Too much booze
Killing what brain cells
Are left
In that stubborn 
Head of yours!

How long 
Will it take
For you 
To believe in me?
For I know
I am a fool 
Staying here, with you!
Feeling desperate
Lost and lonely
Dreams squashed
Emotionally drained
When ‘we’ need to pull together
In union ship
To make 
This bond strong
Between us!

'Uniting as One’'

'Love Conquering All'

“Well!”
“So, I am told!”

I love you more
Than this
Arguing and fighting!
But 
You refuse to understand
The love I have for you

My head 
Tells me to stay with you
But
My heart knows
I cannot!
For
I have asked you 
To be kind to me
I have asked
You to open up 

Your anger and rage
Continues growing
Out of control
Taking over
Like
Dr. Jekyll and Mr. Hyde 
Burning bridges
Being ruthless
Always
Out for the kill!

I need to break away!
I need to clear my head!
I need to experience
Love and longevity
True togetherness
With 
The one’s I love!
My heart needs to experience
‘Healthy Love’
My heart deserves the best!
You now
Belong in my past
I am no longer the person
You once knew me, to be

Your insecurities
Your inner demons 
Far bigger
Than any of the love
You choose to acknowledge 
Or 
Feel from me!

You can believe this 
To be true
If nothing else!

“Love thy self”

Share
Without personal gain
Being 
Your Primary Motive!
Know Love 
Be Love, in Action!

Be honest
Have empathy now
As
I cut these cords
Of emotional bondage
That 
Bind us together 
True Love 
No longer 
Our foundation!

I stand on my own
Knowing
I have learnt the lessons
You have come to teach
I now know
What love isn't!
“I thank you”
For showing me this!

My illusions of love
Blinding me
Colouring my experiences
Revealing
Only what 
'I Wanted Us To Be'
Not
‘True Reality’


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Fixing Regrets

Days are flying by so fast
But there is something in my past
Regretting I will never know
How our love was meant to grow
Blooming into something great
I kick myself--- It's much too late
To repair the brokenness 
From the lack of openness
That was supplied on the way
Of turning my back everyday
On problems you tried to repair
But I did not want to hear
Compromise with good solutions
Leaving you with bad contusions
Of my selfishness and greed
I left in your hour of need
Calling my name--- begging me
To step back and really see
There is something here worth saving
But my soul was only craving
A world of freedom far from here
Just leaving you standing there
With a sad and painful look
Now I wish that I could book
A time machine and travel back
To a place and time to smack
Some sense in my foolish head
So I don't live with this dread
Taking you inside my arms
Fixing the things I did wrong


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Paalam, LIRIKA

dinig ko
melodya galing sa puso mo
hinagpis ng pagkatalo
sumuko'ng pag-ibig
naparam, nakipaglaro.

pilit dininig, 
pinakinggan awit ng iyong tinig
malamyos, malungkot
mapagmalaki, mapagbiro.

umasa ako
puso mo'y marinig
melodya ng aking tinig
ngunit bingi ang iyong pandinig
inakala mo, puso ko'y di na ikaw ang awit.

di yata't kailangan
idikta, iukit
lirika nitong pag-ibig? 

huli na.

melodya ng iba
akap-akap na ng iyong alaala
papaano pa maririnig, mababasa
lirika nitong pagsinta? 

tititigan pa ba kita sa mata? 

kung ang kislap nito'y banaag na
melodya ng bago mo'ng sinta
at nakipagniig na
sa dinatnan mo'ng musika
sa bayan na inulila.

paalam na...
ulan.
lirika ng puso
akin nang kalilimutan
magpaparaya sa melodya
na umakit, nagpasigla
sa awit ng iyong pangungulila! 


Inner Whispers


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The Stained Glass Window

Staring at the end of the hallway
The stained glass windowed is etched into my mind, woah.
Just another place to remind me
What we had is gone, long gone.

This was the house that got us through those moments
of insecurity and self hate.
You told me you would always love me, no matter what.
I realize now you didn't mean it, you didn't mean it at all.
You told me you loved me, what a lie.

You were the one. Mr. Right. Mr. Wrong.
Our relationship took a wrong turn, but I could get it back on track.
I always could.
Except this time. It was all too much.

Staring at the end of the hallway,
and that stained glass window that was etched into my mind is there no more.
Beside the fragmented pieces lays a stone.
The stone that shattered that window, and my heart along with it.

I loved you. I really did. I was ready to marry you.
You had other plans. That didn't involve me.
Now that stained glass window is gone.
I'm gone.


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This isn't Goodnight

I’ll be sure to make this loud and clear
I don’t need any confusion on your part
It’ll be hard for me to be so confused
When I know what I need to do
I’m not calling to say goodnight boy
I’m calling to say goodbye
A final kiss goodbye
Before I bury our love
In the graveyard of my heart
You left me breathless for far too long
I’d like to start breathing again
It’s awfully difficult to breathe
When you’ve got your cupid’s chokehold on my neck
You drain the love from my eyes
You suck the blood from my veins
You bleach the color from my world
And that’s where I draw the line
This isn’t goodnight, sweetheart
This is goodbye
And not just goodbye for now
But goodbye forever
I promise you I won’t write
I’ll make sure not to call
I want you to die of anticipation
And of a pathetically broken heart


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Seeded Pain

This is far more greater a pain that was ever needed ,
The damage done long ago when it was seeded.
    This hurt you planted deep within me ,
Has grown to a  size that just shouldnt be .
     Disrespect and neglect it means nothing to you,
For it is something you just will always do.
     Love doesn't hurt like this it never  could ,
The words mean nothing to you but they should .
    Compassion and understanding is what love takes ,
If you want to live a love without heartbreaks.
    Talking and listening go hand in hand ,
To love in this life as a woman and a man.
     Im so devistated by the events of these days ,
Not able to to get you to ever  change your ways.
     How can I convince you that it is all a mistake,
And the pain and hurt  I can no longer take .
     Makes me never  wanting to awaken again,
No matter  even if it's  Gods  greatest sins .
TAC 


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I COULD BE RICH

"I Could Be Rich"
 By: Andrew Stroud

 Life is full of challenges, 
 And struggles along the way, 
 some days are filled with sunshine, 
 while others are cold and gray....

 I happen to live in both at once,
 The best and the worst,
 Because while I have the best friends I could ask for,
 My love life is forever cursed.

 Women say they hate "players",
 So I stay loyal and do not cheat,
 But then they still break up with me,
 Because they say that I'm too sweet.

 But isn't that what women complain about, 
 that they can't find one good guy?
 And they still go back to the jerks, 
 while the good guys wonder why.

 All of this confuses me, 
 but one thing is very clear, 
 I could be filthy rich, 
 if I could make losing women my career.


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Old Heart

My Heart Is in Retirement 
I Gave it Too Much Pain 
The Hurt Has Made it Old 
And it Refuses to Love Again 
 
If My Heart Can't Be Persuaded 
To Give Love Another Try 
Then I May as Well Give up 
And Tell You this Is Goodbye 
 
Heart and Mind Are Different 
And Do Not Always Agree 
They Leave Me in Confusion 
But the Heart Does Hold the Key 
 
So I Don't Know What to Do 
But I Have to Make this Stop 
My Mind Says I Do Need Love 
But My Heart Says I Do Not 
 
 
Connie Moore 
1 2 93 


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Until

Come love, we must journey home...
bid farewell to yesterday's dead sun.
For storm clouds have gathered to slice the moon;
and we must go, before these arid sands 
of misfit time cease to flow.
~
And we cannot add another hour,
for seconds break not only the day,
but steals the ease of my spirit....and
I have no more gooselike tears to feed the jester;
because this is so love...we must part.
~
Walk close; let our footsteps fall as one, 
leaving primrose stained impressions...
as a legacy of our passing, 
like un-framed wisps of art.
~
Come, we'll trace the moon back to the stars,
where abandoned hearts, never to be forgotten,
breathes the breath of the Beloved.
There we'll rest and lie sweetly 
until trust stirs the heart again.
~
Alas, we'll return one day... another time...
another space beneath a blue moon's dawning; 
never look back with eyes of regret...
there's no need to say good-bye.

~Niky’s Ink


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Holier than Thou

Demon possession is seen through spiritual eyes
The clarity of it so transparent you see it with your eyes closed
To be told you have them is like a dreaded disease
The mere knowledge of it transforms you
Questions pour in yearning for answers
I am confused
But I pray with you?…… I pray for you
How do you see the evil in me?
My prayers do not suffice to your standards?
Am I raising my voice to the wrong god?
Am I praying wrong? 
Show me the path oh ye of righteousness
Are you the chosen one?
Your abilities to spot the not amazes me
Your purity petrifies me
Knowledge of truth is embedded in your bones
The depth of your understanding surpasses all
Please do not dare lift your eyes towards me
For fear you might be disgusted and go blind
I wonder
Do the others see the evil in me? 
Am I stumbling them?
Am I making their pathway to righteousness narrow?
I am confused
I pray with you……I pray for you
I am trying to be near you
All you see is demons in me
It is painful to hear you say that
I am scared to pray
What if…
What if i….
I will gather the strength to look at you
To see your holiness
I am looking but… but….
I have heard of you before… Legion?


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Oh ,Lynn, My Love - to the tune of Danny Boy

Oh, Lynn, my love, the end is lowly calling me
From wake to sleep, the ebbing of my life
Our summer's gone and all your flowers are lying
But I must go and leave you, loving wife

Come to me, when all your gardens thriving
Or when our land is slushed with fallen snow
Yes I'll be here, whenever you come driving
I'll wait for you, my love, a long time yet to go

And if you come, when all your plants are dying
And they are still, as still, I, so may be
If you will, simply, come to the place I'm lying
And plant, a little flower there for me

I will hear, though soft you dig above me
And all my dreams will only be of thee
If you will come and whisper, you really love me
I'll restfully sleep in peace, until you come to me


Details | Free verse | |

Clawing, Scratching, Screaming

Clawing, scratching, screaming
A heart's endless scheming
Can you hear me? No!
Can you feel me? No more!
Do you see the pain drip from my eyes to the floor?
Remember my taste?
Oh what a waste.
I can't un-remember anymore.
Look to my hands, see their desire;
Choking out words to quell their fire.
Nails dig in and drag
Breaking a cracker's crack!
You never looked in only looked back.
Jump, dance, run, fall
I will some lifetime from now
Smash this wall.
Never again but that's not true.
I'll live this, the longest death
Every time I think of you.


Details | Quatrain | |

Fallowed Heart

If truly One heart we share
Upon this curse, we'd never stare
From songs of Love, I've long shied
Now wick stings the wax, we hold dear

If truly One heart we share
Why does your pulse beats, when mine pause ?
Colds of the north pulls me with force
Yet gravity bullies this cause

If truly One heart we share
These doubts should never have lived
Your tender smile, my heart long grieved
Cloaked lies were the truth we believed

If truly One heart we share
Why does  'western Sun' fuel this fear
When roses grows on forlorn graves
Lillies defied strained thoroughfare

If truly One heart we share
kindling kiss, miles shouldn't deny
To this poem, flaming Ink feigns dry
Yet shallow end seems so near

If truly One heart we share
Fallowed acres shall thrive someday
In destined paths, and arms that care
'ever I've wished I belong here

 


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Remains of the Fire

Embers extinguished
Spiritual fire remains
Wind catches the remnants
Never to be fully brought back
Allow thyself to prosper
Or thou shall never be free


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Moving On

I've been knocked to the ground, I'm as low as can be
The thoughts that run through my mind are why oh why, and woe is me
It seems I've been here before, and I can see clearer
The reasons are the same and the heartache comes nearer
Though I'm broken and hurt and as sad as can be
The only way to feel better is to create a new me
So this time I must build a thicker wall,
And pick up the pieces of my broken heart
The past is the past, and I can't let it follow
Though I still feel the pain, I can't go on in sorrow
I wish I had been enough, that I was worth more effort,
But now I know, I can't chase air forever
I wish I could say I don't care anymore,
But the truth is my darling, that's why it hurts more.
But it's obvious from all of the struggles we've had
As hard as I try, this will just end up sad. 
I wish you the best, really I do
And there will always be a place in my heart reserved for you
I will smile and laugh and rise above,
And then one day I hope, I can again find love.
So Lord give me strength as I go through this trial,
I am ready to accept things and be no longer in denial.
Thank you my dear, for times I can't forget
And for that time in my life, you really were the best.
People will love you, then hurt you and leave,
But the test is how we endure and grieve.
My path is uncertain, and it scares me to death,
But I will move forward and try to live with each breath.
Remember me please, when you think of the past,
And I will try to remember, that some good things, just aren't meant to last


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Avalanche Of Love

  God is calling my name as he knows soon 
I'll be on my own, Searching for who I am
and where I belong.

I'm not as scared as I once was as I know
I have the support of my family and friends.

I belive my avalanche of love will help me 
get by since I cant fly by myself.

Let it be known my house will not be full
of tears as of today, only a month away.

I'll become a stray waiting for someone
to take me under there wing and
love me once again.


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Rained Filled Clouds

Rain filled clouds are what follow me now ,
No sunshine for me these days and smiles are not aloud.
My sight is blurry now and can't listen to what you say,
It was you who has caused this and why I am feeling this way.
Hold on tightly now It has been the ride of my life ,
But somehow it slipped away like a thief in the night .
How did I not see it so plainly writen on the wall,
Never in a million years did I expect to lose it all.
But here I am standing with my back  turned away,
For I can not face the sadness you brought me this day.
Why has this happened to me and just what will I do,
Shell of a man in a life that was suppose to be spent with you.
It's over now and it's all becuase of you 
I just cant see  theres anything you can do .
 Blinded by the love  for you never a  reason to doubt,
So quickly I learned howI will be going without.
 The warmth of a love you brought to me ,
 Now I will live without what was meant to be .
You were always a a part of the world I've grown to know,
Now that your gone the sadnees in my face will forever show.
These cloudy days bring me nothing but pain,
My life forever will be only me standing in the rain.
TAC


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BROKEN

Broken 
He was a man of my dreams,
At my senior year
He smiles that made me laugh
He teaches until I master each lessons
He touches my hair
And then he shrugged
I fell in love.
But  he disappeared,
All of a sudden.
I cried.
I begged.
I waited.
He never came back.
 
I had this guy
While I was with number one
He was with in my parameter
Stealing each moment,
Like a thief under my shadow
Looking
Observing
And loving…
I was broken
He collected me.
I broke his heart
Thrice
He broke mine
Once.
He left me
I was dumped.
I still have this agony
And angst of revenge
But what can I do
He left.
He gave up.
He can’t live with me.
I am notorious
sadist
I wasn't the person
Worth loving.
I work
Worked
And working
Out of my stress filled
Fast phased life
I received a call
A guy from the past
Has been looking for me for years now..
He finally found me.
He insists to go out that night.
It was dark and raining
But I went with him.
It was one of the best nights I had
To be with someone else
When I already belong to another man
Why not
I don’t have a ring yet
I went home 2:00 am
Happy and inspired
For the new spice that knocks into my door
I opened it
Just to find out
He went back to his country day after our meeting.
It was the 3rd time
I was broken.
Again.


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MAY OF '75

It All Started May 2, 1975
The Day This Man 
Took This Woman
To Be His Lawfully Wedded Wife
 
They Saw Their Share Of Struggles,Grief, Hardships,and Strife
But Hand In Hand
They Faced The World
Together
This Man And His Wife
 
The Cards Were Stacked Against Them
An Uphill Battle It Often Seemed
They Did Not Have A Fairytale
But In The End
Love Would Prevail
Between This Woman And This Man
 
Thirty Years They Shared Together
For Richer Or For Poorer
In Sickness And In Health
In Good Times And In Bad
Before This Man Would Pass Away
Right In Front Of His Wife
 
How Would This Woman Go On
Not Knowing What To Do
How To Make A Single Cup Of Coffee
Or Just One Plate Of Food
How Could She Bare Waking Up To An Empty Room 
 
She Grieved Tirelessly
She Often Questioned Why
Why She Had Been Left Behind
This Woman Who For Thirty Years
Had Been This Man's Wife
 
She Had To Find Her Strength Within
And Her Will To Go On
She Had To Comfort Her Children
And Learn To Lean On God
 
Although She Never Stopped Loving This Man
Eventually
She Would Find Peace
Though It Was Not Easy
She Learned To Live Life Without Him
Though It Was Never Part Of The Plan
On That Day In Early May of 1975
When These Two Were Wed
This Man And His Wife
 
Sometimes Things Will Happen
Even Though We Did Not Plan
Things We Can Not Fathom
Things We Will Never Understand
 
The Time Came
Two Short Years Later
When The Doctors Came
And Told This Woman
We Are Sorry
It Is CANCER
 
Now The Children
Of This Man And His Wife
Would Have To Find Their Own Answers
With No Parents Their To Guide Them
Give Them Comfort
Or Advice
They Would Be Left With Their Own Questions
Of How...
And WHY...
 
In Loving Memory of My Mom and Dad- Tiffany Abbott


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The Funeral of their Father

We all sit quietly as more and more sorrow fills the air

 So many people here but I barely notice that they’re there

I hold on tight to all three of you as people come and go

But what we are all feeling the world will never know

As I hold you close your tears fall like a heavy summer shower

If I could take your pain away I would I just don’t have that power

I’m so sorry for your loss and I just don’t know what to say

These are the phrases that we all have heard since that fateful day

You chose to leave your children and not be there for them at all

Now I must be strong for them and always catch them when they fall

The pews are filled with family, friends and some I never got to know

Sadly I wish this were over and the time would come for them to go

The pastor speaks to all of us and tells us you are in a better place now

We have almost made it through today even though I’m not sure how

Everyone has said their speeches and the music has started playing

People stop and talk to us but I can’t understand what they are saying

The time has come to take you boys up to say your final goodbyes

I hold your hands and pull you close and wipe the tears from your eyes

Matthew reaches out and says “I love you dad goodbye for now”

Tommy holds me close and says “I can’t do it I don’t know how”

Little Johnny clings to me and says “mommy please don’t make me”

I turn and walk back to our seats and cover his eyes so he can’t see

Making it through this day has taken every ounce of strength that I had

Watching my boys spend most of the day saying goodbye to their dad

There are still so many people here I just wish that they would leave

When their gone and we’re alone then my children and I can grieve

I’m sure they have many questions they will want to ask me 

I’ll try to answer all of them but we’ll just have to wait and see

All I know is it’s time to go and take care of my own

Please for now just honor us and let us be alone.









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Suicide Is Not the Answer


Lately, I have noticed a very disturbing trend.
Many people wish for their life to end!

There are many circumstances
that bring this about.
Many feel "trapped in," and think
"there's no way out!"

I admit,...  I have been very
discouraging thoughts.
Sometimes, wondering, if I was dealt
"the wrong lot."

But just when I feel alone
and trapped within.
I think about Jesus! He's always
been my friend!

I've called to him more than a time or two...
When I didn't know
"what I was going to d."

When, to him, I cried out and pleaded...
He's given to me the hope
and direction I needed!

I recommend this same Jesus
to your life today!
Whatever your problem...
He has made a way!

An abundant assurance
Is what Jesusbrings!
He is an awesome God!
And can take care of everything!

Your problems are never too big
or small for him to take control.
He can bring healing to you!
And make your body whole!

He is what's needed! In this lost
and dying generation!
Won't you accept his mercy
and salvation???

By Jim Pemberton   2012





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A-Heart-Broken

Tears of blood is dripping down form my eyes.
My heart feels like a stampede of horse has just
ran over it a hundred times.
It feels so lifeless and weak.
We used to be one.
Now we are none.
Our love was strong.
We can fall off a plane and never hit rock 
bottom. 
A boat can sink, but we would not drown. 
I cannot figure out what I did wrong. 
I feel like a lyric of a love song.
This feeling inside of me,
is this how the rest of my life would be.
I feel so abused.
I feel so used.
I feel like someone just threw hot acid all 
over my body.
Though my love for you will never change,
I know that you hear has been rearranged.
I am still crying because I 
accepted being heart broken
by the one and only that mistaken.
My eyes are now ‘awaken.’


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The 4 Boyfriends

Once there was this girl
Who have 4 boyfriends?’
She thinks it was just for fun
But it would soon come to an end

She love the 4th boyfriend
More than all the rest
So she gives him gifts
And treat him the best

She also love the 3rd boyfriend
Showing him off to her friends
But she has fear that one day
Their relationship will end

She also love the 2nd boyfriend
He’s always considerate and kind
When ever she face a situation
He would help her every time

The 1st boyfriend gives her everything
To make her very happy
But she never did love him
Although he lover her deeply

But one day the girl got sick
She got cancer in her bones
Now she has 4 boyfriends
But when she dies she I’ll be alone

So she ask the 4th boyfriend
Of all I love you mostly
Now that I’m dying will you follow?
Me and keep me company

No way; said the 4th boyfriend
And without a word he walk away
His answer felt a sharp knife
Went in her heart that day

She turns and asks the 3rd boyfriend
You know I have love you plenty
Will you follow and stay with me
When they bury me in the cemetery

No way; said the 3rd boyfriend
I will marry some one else
Life is to short 
And he leaves her crying tears

She then ask the 2nd boyfriend
If I need help you have always cared
When I die please come and stay with me
Because I will be very scared

Sorry I can’t help you this time
I have my own life to save
The best I can do for you
Is to walk you to the grave

His answer struck her by surprise
And she feels so very low
When she heard a voice said
I will follow you where ever you go

It was her 1st boyfriend
Looking sad standing by the door
Then she says she’s so sorry
For not loving him before

Then she close her eyes 
And died with out any fear
Knowing the one who truly loves her
He will always be there

When some one loves you
Please don’t push them away
Because true love will 
Always be needed one day


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3:17AM - From a few years ago

F*** this idle mind, it never rests
silence delivers all of me
Delusion has set in, he’s at his best
Question the truth of reality

Hate rises above it all
Out of shadows comes sanity
Gathers up his toll in wasted souls
(Their vanity)
He is the Father of  Darkness
(Serenity)
Eager for them to meet their fate and fall
(Give them to me)

Alone again, as I lay my head
Snapshots of my life with you
Memories that he says will fade 
Cry to him to bring the end
Tears on lashes turn to lead 

He grants one wish
Eyes won‘t open, no mistake
Prison door without the key
Lifeless, he carries me
Has he granted my eternity

Leave behind disgrace
Chose my path, the only option  
Owe to him this final breath 
In his hands my soul placed
Debt is paid, now I rest


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Angel Speak

An Angel was set to me today
To speak the words I could not say
Deep in my heart I knew the truth
And the mask you wore has come unglued

Walk me past that hidden road
The one I chose has no remorse
I will run, I’m free from the lies
And my heart is now beating back to life

Your voice is speaking inside my head
Telling me every word you said
Those words made smiles but now I see
They were never true and now killing me

There is a stale emptiness, a darkness inside
Where I stay quiet from the feelings I hide
Tears start to fall without any sound
into a cemetery where the love’s buried down

So take me Angel away with you
In heaven’s arms there is always truth


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Moved on

I look back,
I see the love you had for me.
Slowly realizing it was an act.
My love was real,
at least it was in the beginning.
Now that I'm moving on,
you can't handle it.
I've made a change.
A change to better myself.
Now you can suffer all you want,
or you can move on like I did.
Lets part our ways 
and act like civilized people. 

What else is there to do?


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The Void

I gave you my heart.

I expected tender love and care,

But when I asked it back from you,

I knew it wasn't there.

 

For it had fled to another;

To someone that I don't even know.

We used to be so close,

But the distance started to grow.

 

I knew that once I heard of him-

Our spark would go away.

Then I started to think that it wasn't there to stay.

 

It simmered for a while-

Your love had filled a hole.

You and I both know;

That shouldn’t have been our goal.

 

Your heart is kept by vow,

You’re as lonely as you can be.

I tried to make you mine-

But you aren’t the one for me.


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A Story

A story
Of love
Begins with an end
Deception
Lies
Even words…
Cannot mend
What’s done
Is done
You can no longer
Look back


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Sire Moon

He's bringing out his pencil
Clearing up his mind seeking freedom
Throwing all devastating thoughts
To describe all the pictures of sedum

I see it in different 
Colors, forms, in blues
Brightest after shining Sun
In orbits around space, it moves

Mesmerizing its beauty
Orange, White & Red
A Lunar lost in Heaven
Or hiding as Crescent

Between the Sun & Earth
Charming with its tricks
Aligned into shadows
Forming its Eclipse

Illuminates the world like a star
With irresistible gravitation
A one of a kind yet bizarre
Stalking you in rotation

Sire Moon you're a sign of the love, people seek
Sire Moon in your light, lovers lay down to speak
Sire Moon, you made us sometimes go cry
Sire Moon, you've witnessed lots of goodbyes
Like a breeze blowing my mind, Sire Moon
Mystique, rare type of monsoon
Come closer, never let go Sire Moon
I'll keep watching over, as you come & go
Go on, play my best tune Sire Moon
You're the reason, I‘ve wrote this poem


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Pulse of my Heart

Darkened were the nights
Oh were they cold
You had left me
Such a very long time ago
I cannot forget
The way you caressed my flesh
So tender, so loving
Alas! It is missed
The way we would sway
Barely licked by the flames of the bonfire
I could have stayed like that forever
Oh dear traveler where have you gone?
I know you warned you would leave
But yet my heart swelled with hope
What a retched thing now
For now I am broke
Your honey voice broke down my soul
You never gathered up the pieces
Now they lay cold
On the floor where you left them
Oh so many nights ago
I still look on the horizon
Praying for a glimpse of your face
On certain nights
I can feel your warmth
As if you were there
I fall to my knees
Whisper my pleads
Maybe you can hear
No matter the time that passes
I cannot forget the man
He revived my soul
Pulse of my heart
Stole my trust
Alas! For the traveler took so much more……..
I will wait for him forever on the moor.


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I

I want to cry but tears wont come to my eyes
I want to scream but no one hears me
I have fought hard but with nothing coming from my trys
I can't go on I want to break free

I cant hold on anymore to love that is not returned
I need to move on and find someone
I have done been burned
I know your love is gone


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Very Soon I'll Be WITH JESUS



Very Soon, I’ll Be With Jesus! I know my life on earth shall one day end… This body will turn back into dust again. I hope that in my life’s remaining days… I’ll be careful to give God glory and praise! I hope that with the opportunities given… I’ll walk in the joy of my sins being forgiven! I’m thankful that Jesus has shown to me… How much he really cares and loves me! If not for Jesus… Where I would be? He offered his body as a sacrifice for me! Because of what he’s done, I’m living today! He’ll be with me! Till the end of the way! When my life closes, and a new life begins… I’ll be with my savior, lord and friend! Thank you Jesus! As a new day starts! You’ve brought love and joy to my heart! By Jim Pemberton


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Be Gone

Fade to black and disappear. 
I don’t give a **** just get out of here.
I am tired of your mess and all of your drama; damn I am even sick of your mama!
This is the day that you need to leave and do it quickly.
Abracadabra, hocus-pocus, watch me make you disappear.  
You go away, scat be gone, get on away from here and leave me alone. 
 Just leave no more texting or calling from my cell phone to the house phone, no more begging, no more lying.
Just go, just leave.  This scene is over,  the act is done the credits have rolled so now just  be gone!
No more stalking my house and being creepy, no more of you, no of your lies pack your grocery bag of clothes and slide.
Slide right out of here, out my house, out my life just be gone why must I say it twice? 
Be gone!


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Puppy Love

A cute Couple
The missing piece 
Of the puzzle 
It was you and me
Souls as unity
Who always use to cuddle
snuggle up in the cold nights
And listen to each others troubled past life
We both could imagine being in our life's
Until the day we both die
But love is blind, Tunnel vision
On a one way mission
But our two tickets two our destination were missing
The destinations was love town
Our kids would make us so proud 
But that wasn't meant to be
Everything happens for a reason you see
There a season you going through
There's a reason why hasn't yet come to you
Now under the pressure
Of our toxic relationship became so venomous
I gave you my mothers necklace
while you threw it to ground you broke its chain
The circle trust can not be re gained
Ripped up my love letters
Because you were seeing some many other fellas
be-hide my back you got me jealous
I flipped, you know i went reckless
All i could see was the red mist
But i would never strike you with my fist's!
No matter what anyone thinks
Sometimes I think you say things
Just so you can get a reaction out of me
So you can get me to say “i love you baby”
But you don't need do that
I tell you “i love you” not enough and i know that
I got trust issues but your not helping through that
Telling me you with another guy ain’t healthy
This relationship has become overwhelming 
Now i reread your texts
To see if you left any subliminal messages
In the hope we get back together
Because I remember the good times better
Than the worst but 
I picked the phone up, I got your number up
But I’m too scared to ring you up
I don't want to buckle first
Maybe it was puppy love
But love still hurts.


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Bleeding Love

Bleeding Love
Curled in a ball
Not knowing what to do!
Knees against my chest
Cradling oneself

‘Soothing my soul’

Memories of you
Flooding my brain
Your words
Left as lingering whispers
Your smile
Imprinted, upon my mind's eye
High light of my day!
Electrifying my nervous system
Jump starting my heart
Punishing me
For loving you
‘Bleeding love’


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The moon and his love

The nights no longer hold a light,
No more moon to shine so bright,
 I pulled him to close and then let go,
Now in this misery he will not glow.

It splits my heart to see him break,
It’s not the feeling I want to take,
But complexities mess up all we made,
And now for me his light will fade.

For always I will remember him,
In glory as I will in sin,
Another time another place,
When I can see him face to face.

I know that he will hate me so,
Because I chose to let him go,
But I hope he will remember me,
As the girl to whom the moon could see.


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Retired

Head bent face down
In dressing gown
He left his house,
A little mouse.
Tuesday was the garbage day,
At home he'd wander
At home he'd stay.
His aging wife chose different ends
Why stay at home,
Go out with friends                                                                                                            The man recalled his days of fame,
Now nothing more than days of shame.
He watched the cothers count the hours,
They talked the past of long lost powers.
Once he dealt with stocks and cash,
Now he dumped the household trash.
She'd be home by eight tonight,
As dusk would fall they'd always fight.
Yet soon for both the pain would end,
His old war gun his greatest friend.


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Raging

You were a lesson to be learned 
And I was the one who got burned,
I guess when it's the end it's the f******g end.

So I hope you choke on the words you screamed
Out, cursing my name when I didn't let you go
'Cause it turns out my Love was wasted on you.

I'm trying not to hate but it's so damn hard
When everything we had meant nothing to you
But it was everything to me.

My eyes burn from all the tears that leak out
From time to time, my heart breaks just a little
When I remember how you walked away.

Some day I'll find someone better,
Someone who knows what they have and
Doesn't take advantage of my Love like you did.

Someone who won't try to use me,
Who will Love me for who I am and doesn't
Talk behind my back about things that aren't even true.

Maybe it wasn't meant to be, maybe I was 
Kidding myself, wanting to believe you Loved me,
But whatever it was, I hope you know, you're dead to me now.

Revenge is the sweetest dish ever concocted,
And maybe it's not right but it sure feels
Damn amazing, more than you made me feel. 

So this is the last time I go through this,
It's time to live my life without your ghost
Haunting me all the time, without the memories.

I'm better off without you, it's true,
Even if you were all I ever wanted, thought I needed,
It wouldn't have worked, no matter how we tried.

Don't say you Loved me, you wouldn't
Have walked away so damn easily if you had,
Wouldn't have left me with all this anger and pain.

Sad thing is though, I know when I wake up in the morning
And fall asleep at night, your sleeping image in the morning sun
Will come to mind, arms wrapped tight around me.

And I can't seem to shake this sadness,
Although my dreams aren't filled with you anymore,
But sometimes I swear I can still feel you, here, holding me, and I cry.

I remember how you would whisper
Sweet and low in my ear, that you loved me,
You'd never let me go, you'd always be here, but those were lies.

As I lied to you about letting you go if asked,
But then you countered with another lie, that you'd
Never ask, but here we are, in this chasm of dark goodbyes.

You turned your back when I needed you most,
You couldn't even act like a man when you left, just
Gave me a message saying it was over and went back to her.

I think that was the worst, that you ended it so
Suddenly, so easily, and went crawling back to the girl
You broke up with for me, but I suppose that's how it goes...


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Moiety

It truly is quite a conundrum
and day and night, I ponder it.
In my hands I hold the lifeless
rag-doll remnants of our friendship
and still, I can not bury it.
I long to fly freely forward
but some force holds me still.
The problem lies within, I espy.
While all else is sound and whole,
there is a small, jagged hollow
from which a vital piece was taken.
You have a moiety of my heart,
not given to you intentionally,
but so it is, nonetheless.
Please, I beg you, return it,
so I may flee this desolate land.
Bring back the moiety of my heart
that leaves me waiting and incomplete.


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Watch me Flee

Fires burning bright
Screams shatter the night
Could not put up enough fight
So your loved ones died
Hidden from your sight
Flames flicker
With memories oh so bitter
I see your eyes
Looking so sweet
At that my heart skips a beat
Stopping softly I gives up
Wish I had your hand in mine
Give me strength to fight
Maybe then I would not have died 
On that dark, quiet night
Shatter my soul
Watch me flee
Cannot take another breath
Before a scream escapes my lips
Chocking desperately
On this life
Your smile is why I even fight
So much control
You have over me
On my fears
You seem to feed
See my tears
Hear me whisper
I will wait
For you forever
Dying words
On my lips
‘I loved you from that very first kiss’



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Ode To Thee

I cannot say forget me
For that will never fly
Impossibilities
like birds without wings
Take my soul from your eyes

I cannot say forgive me
For I am not sure of my sin
I take your fair heart with a fare start and balance it on the wind.

the breath that is left 
inside my heaving chest
 is meant for the exultation of you.

And all that i am in spirit, on land 
is spent in the loving of you.
For love as it is, as rare and as cleansed 
is not a forlorn sensation.

 I cannot say this is the only way,
 but the direction I've paved is without the pace I know.
And the love that exists refuses to relent, like the falling snow.


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Amicitia Funere

The music was somber and slow,
an old, out of tune pipe organ.
The lights were dim, and flickered,
the air heavy against my lungs.
My slow steps are silent, muffled
by the tear stained, worn out carpet.
It was just the two of us there,
standing on either side of the room.
Your eyes remain downcast, angry,
while mine burn stinging red.
We sit down, a suitable distance,
and fear speaking the first word,
for once we begin, it's the end.

"We are gathered here today", at last,
and so you stand, hands cradled
around a well worn box of memories.
I watch you stride to the front
and place the box in the coffin.
You stand back, still looking away,
and then it's my turn, at last.
My box is falling apart, duct taped,
and stuffed to nearly overflowing.
Gently, down beside yours, it lies,
and then we're nearly through.
The lagging music continues to play,
and as my heart begins to break,
we both leave the darkened room.
And that was the funeral of our 
friendship.


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Broken

Why does it hurt so bad
It's starting to make me mad
Why does he have so much control
When that's not even his role

I ended up giving him my heart 
Even did just from the start
I don't see me getting the same
To think I wanted his last name

It's time to move on from this man
But I don't know if I can
I want to follow how I feel
But if it goes wrong I don't know if I can heal


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You said goodbye

Sad and lonely,

Emptiness and pain,

Without you in my life.

My tears fall like rain

I'm feeling so sad,

The pain that I feel,

Sharp, and piercing,

It cuts like a knife.

I cry every night.

The pain is so deep.

The longing I feel.

It makes me weep.

There's an emptiness,

In my broken heart,

I knew that I'd loved you,

Right from the start. 

It makes me so sad,

You don't feel the same.

The raindrops they fall, 

keeping pace with my tears,

My mind it races;

It  gives in to my fears.

I gave it my all,

But you couldn't see,

We were made for each other,

We were destined to be.

My heart is breaking,

You don't love me,

You wont even try.

You said it was over.

And you told me goodbye.






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Blue Sky

Blue sky,
we thought everything was fine
but in truth,
nothing was.
It was a story,
a small story that will never return.
Breaking your world slowly
into tiny pieces.
Can't seem to see tomorrow 
through this black haze.
Helpless
crumbling
as the days go by.
Ripped apart by the hand of love
with nothing left to do but look.
Blue sky.
(May 31st, 2012)


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Caged Agony

She was caged in his mystery.
Just a glimpse into his soul;
And she saw the anger flow freely.

A father’s blood tainted
And with it came sorrow;
And with it came unspeakable torment.

There was not a person,
That felt the pain,
Its symptoms were distinctively his. 

Whispers like the wind urged him to be happy;
As though condolences could take away the grief;
Each face was featureless, each apology was a fake.

She found him alone and broken.
Within him she saw helplessness;
It was masqueraded by a need to remain strong.

On his shoulders was the World,
The weight of which was becoming too much,
Knees bent from the pressure.

He looked at her and their bereavement was matched;
Both cold from the tears,
Both were searching for their escaped faith.

A child was taken at her word,
Lost amongst the other realms;
She had felt empty.
 
Her sobs at night were heard by none,
Ridiculed by her traumatizing decision-
He saw her standing outcast.  

Their inward screams had echoed outward;
Only they could hear each other’s cries.
Drawn together in unity, a relationship formed. 

They were never perfect for each other,
But their voids were filled. 
They were very much alike, and yet so different.

They treated one another with disrespect.
It turned their love into rage;
This was followed by resentment.

Hands unclasped as their families pulled them apart,
Tears rolled from her eyes and his desperate struggle ensued;
He vowed to someday get her back.

He found himself anguished once more, as did she. 
For who would hold her now?
How would he fall asleep?

They would move on as all lost lovers do,
But no other love could be the same.
No lesson as great as the one that they had experienced; together. 



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Summer in Anchorage

Realizing
I'll never have another
like you,
I simmer in the sound
of new age music
and read old love letters
as if they were lyrics. 

I hum, then start to sing
those clichéd poems you wrote for me
behind the celtic violin—
all those forced and obvious rhymes
strike me
in a different way than before.

You really did love me
and I really did light up your life
like the sun, as you said.
But if only you knew
that the sun always sets in the west
like me, when I left for Alaska—
for a lonely 
one room apartment
in Anchorage.

The sun stays for days 
in the summer, here
but I'm still cold.


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You're

You're hopeless 
You're worthless 
You're not for me 
I thought I was in love 
But it turned out to be 
A fake 
A lie 
And, 
I realize I was never in love 
I pretended to be


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Runway

I fell in love with an angel 
With glissading beauty 
With her heavenly love position
She did something to me
Bringing light to life
Being there for it all
My happiest moment
My saddest day
Even when we took our great fall
My angel has spread her wings
Beginning a new flight
With all her beauty
She will brighten another life
If you ever need me
Forget all my lies
Just give me a shout
I’ll be on the runway
Standing by


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This Is The end

This is the end
I saw the look on your face it was one of dismay.
I seen that you seen I knew this relationship was over.
No more happiness,no more joy.
All gone with these last words.
This is the end.
Goodbye is a hard word , it's over is just a tail
So long can't make amends.
This is the end.
Get a taxi.Or take a bus.
Just go anyway you want.
Close the door just don't damage it.
As it hits you in the end, you'll be gone.
So now I can say. THIS Is The END!


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A Sinner I am Not

Closing my eyes
Feeling the moment
Listening
No thoughts distracting me
Surrendering
Setting my heart free
Reviewing, learning, growing
Releasing the blame and guilt, I harbour
Releasing the things, I once thought I could change
Recognising good or bad
Right or wrong 
A sinner I am not!
My mistakes, my greatest blessings
Living my life
Being human


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Almost Lovers

Almost Lovers
Now, loveless romantics
Loveless
With only sadness in our eyes
A fresh new hole 
In our hearts
Without each other
Being by each other’s side

I am trying not to think about you
Though images of you 
Still haunt me
Flooding, my mind
I hear the sound of your voice
Echo through the air
I see you ‘smile’
I can smell you, everywhere!

And when I watch the stars
Light up the sky at night
When I stroll the streets
Without you by my side
I watch lovers enjoy each other’s company
Reminiscing about ‘you’

Almost lover 
I still feel the beating of our two hearts
Becoming One
Even though you are gone
Goodbye, almost lover
Thank you for making my heart warm!


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the love and lost quartet - part three - over the years

hey danny, do you remember...

...dueling 'blind melon' acoustics
on your living room floor?
...falling asleep all afternoon
on the hammock, couch or floor?

...hanging out with yoko ono
at the lennon art show?
...painting murals in the school halls
they're still there, you know?

...our first-year anniversary
returning to the fall?
...driving your dad's car
in our underwear and your bra?

...spending spring break together
while your parents were at an out-of-town event?
...how we spent that entire week
in your bed, clothes scattered and bodies spent?

...night driving up to michigan
to help a friend in need?
...melanie was heartbroken
by eric's evil deed?

...graduation summer and how
we worked till we were sore?
...you for college ambitions
and i for something more?

...seven years later
returning to those muddy banks?
...me getting down on bended knee
ring extended and giving thanks?

...you smiled and listened
even crying as i spoke?
...my worst fearing coming true,
my voice finally broke?

...how ironic our love started
with a "yes", we watched it grow?
...how you broke my heart
with antonymous "no"?

...every little moment
of those past seven years?
...how it all went so well
but managed to end up in tears?

...how you held me so softly
laying in my arms that night?
...your way of apologizing
trying to make things right?

...i told you to keep the ring
as a token of our love in vain?
...you put it next to your heart
hanging from a golden chain?

...i stood next to you
at the terminal of your flight?
...i said "see you later"
and you said... "goodbye"?


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Quick Sand

Stuck in quick sand
No one around to throw a rope
My feet under me
I'm able to feel the ground
Fighting to get out, it hurts
Fearing to fight for survival
Watching him walk away
Crying like a little girl
My heart screaming after him
Yet, my mouth is closed shut
Unable to make a sound
Chains shakled to my feet
My hands stretched out, zombie
Ready to hold him
My face begins to feel the sand
Sand turning blood red from the fight within
Eyes blood shot
From the salty tears streaming down my face
A battle of the gods
Don't leave, stay
Leave, but leave me whole
Door slams shut
Cloud of dust as he rides off into the sunset...


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My Forever Friend

By Robielynn Collins 


  I never knew what I had, 
until he was gone for good, 
and if I could, I'de go back in time, 
and change the way it should, 
see, I cared about you, in my own way, 
and never in the world did I mean to betray, 
because you were my friend, 
from dusk to dawn, 
and I never, ever thought, 
that you would be gone, 
out of my life, in the blink of an eye, 
but atleast you cared enough. 
to say: GOOD-BYE!


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Million Stories

One million stories told
Reaching beyond self
Trying to seek
The infinite possibility of chance is given room
Sacrifice I may never embrass
Still I reach out
I claim and  grasp this thing called love


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old chair

There is beauty in this beacon of the sun.
she lingers along the wind,
through the window.
Casting no shadow upon my bed.

Old crooked door and noisy hinges.
Still cold,morning dew till noon.
Drops a few on the front stone
below the cottonwood.

Lovely chair painted white. 
A long time ago.
Chipped and rusted. 
Blue underneath where it was once new. 

I sat for a lifetime in that chair the day you died
I cried on the flowers that you would plant
every spring.
I felt lost and angry,I'm sorry that I ripped  them up.
I`ll plant them again next chance I get.
They will always be there.
Like the slamming of the screen door.
He smiles at me on the way

to the bus stop.
Runs his hands across the tall grass.
I hoped the bitterness would pass.
But it just isn't the same here without you.

He gets out of bed around ten sees me there in the old chair.
We sit and talk about you.
I just want to write this for you.
Beautiful sunlight. 

We still love you. 


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stay with me

I want you to stay with me
I want you to remain close
But if you want to get away from me
Then I will let you go

Only stay if I’m the one you love
Be with me if I’m the one you want to be with
Don’t stay with me just because
Do it because I’m who you love and you don’t want us to be an opportunity missed

Don’t stay with me for fear of being alone
You will find another man
But don’t break-up with me one the phone
That’s not something I could understand

I think this is just the start
You think we’ve ran our course
We both have different hearts
You need to be faithful to yours

I won’t beg you to stay with me
I can’t make you love me
I hope you’ll spend another day with me
And show me you want me in the way you hug me

If you leave 
I’ll move on
We’ll both need time to grieve
But a fresh start we’ll both get a new one 

I won’t beg you to stay with me
I won’t force you to go
It takes 100% from 2 people to make a relationship
That’s something you should know

I won’t call if you go
I won’t beg you to come back
Only stay with me 
because you want to, is all I ask 


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lie

I'm not gonna lie 
but it's hard to deny 
the way I feel about you 
I'm not gonna lie 
but it's hard not to cry 
knowing you don't love me too 
I'm not gonna lie 
but it's hard to try 
to pretend I have no feelings for you 
I'm not gonna lie 
but it's hard to say goodbye 
knowing you don't have a clue 
I'm not gonna lie 
but it's hard to rely 
on your emotions when they play about on you 
I'm not gonna lie 
but i really did try 
to make your love for me true 
I'm not gonna lie 
but it's time for me to fly 
and live my life without you 


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Your Silhouette Caresses

setting suns steal earth's life-light  . . .
gentle rays of night - moon, stars -
reprieve raw rhythms leaving  
soundless footprints impressing
the rich fabric of the dark  

though you walk away tonight
your silhouette caresses . . .

November 7, 2014
Faye Lanham Gibson
SILHOUETTE OF A HEPTAGONET contest
Nette Onclaud, sponsor


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A Moment

Morning comes over the roof.
Beams of energy traveling the annals of time
A relentless journey to rest upon my face.
Subtle at first, like the sly fox in pursuit of the hen
Heat builds that burns the dew of a new day
Flowers stretch out their pastel arms
Picking atoms like pollen that stimulates the pistil
Refreshed, shaking off nights cool grasp
I am new, reborn, never to be heard or seen again
Like a child gleefully sliding down the snowy mountain
A grain has slipped thru its lustful form
Looking up, showered in kin
Reunited with deceased ancestors, death is accepted
Hark, in the distance where the sky meets earth
The soft glow of love breaks!


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MOMENTS

I wish I could write the prints of the moments
The beautiful times we spent in comments
Our nights meant nothing to the exalted pleasure
For your words were lights' flood without measure.

The simple talks we never had hard to share
The mere moments where your little sparks a big care
The life in your seemingly angered love
And your sleep in the tranquility of a dove.

The time we sat and sang together
And the rhythm of your voice that fine- tuned  better
The melodies we both came to hate
And the song that hunt down our hearty state.

These moments liquidly shut in 
The clouds are gathered in me and now 'tis the rain
I want to dream and yet not in a sleep
A chance to favourably dreamily peep.

The moments we held hands and cried
Like a wedding disgraced by the absence of a bride
For a change of heart and etching a refresh
Old to new and we began afresh.

Shout this moment, I plead you tell
Proud victors  and sure with a yell
I know this is sure a true moment, so true
It is good better best to be two.










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Hello

Hello,
Your voice crashed my silence like a gunshot on a Sunday morning
And hello was all you said
For now, now I am dead inside
Dead over a lake that was lucky to grace your toes
Dead as your warm hands floats over my cheeks 
And a kiss that is tattooed in on the back of my hand
So I see it always just like the lyrics your favorite bands
So what is it that you seek?
You were once my the light guiding my path
And now you’re hidden by an unseen wrath

& through these lines & rhymes where is your reply
	And don’t 
	Don’t you start to cry
Because now , now I start to question why?
And as that tear sinks lower on your face, This memory becomes something I can’t erase
It begins to cut my soul, like a knife with no place to go
I feel it twist and turn as it hacks its way through words I used to say
Words like 
“We can be something great”
	“We will make this last”
But what is left of “we”
Please I beg, as the tear drops to ground with such a sound
A sound that pounds against my chest like a hammer to a nail

Help me see what is left
But we didn’t last
And I’m still dead from the past 
So hello,
But I must go 


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Your eyes across my soul

Its time to face the truth croons the singer on the radio and I die
Curling up in to a ball pulling my hair out and screaming
Because I know this to be true
I will be there again when it snows and snows
I will be there again if you call
I will be there again if you whisper out my name
In the eyes of my memories you're beautiful
In the breaths I stole with my camera you're beautiful
Across these lips that will never touch yours again you're beautiful

I thought I heard you call out my name tonight 
But I knew you weren't home
In the cold under the city lights beneath the blanket of night
What if it was you I think now as I linger
But you weren't home
And still... 
I wish I had turned around
To see you standing there in the gently falling snow
But I thought you weren't home

I have lost sleep tonight and I may never sleep again I fear
Because I don't know what to do
I don't know where to turn, where to go
So that I may, I might, 
Dream of your smile and your eyes across my soul
You're so beautiful, 

I let slip this pen from my fingers
Staining these last few lines I know it to be true
And I don't really care about that now
I will never be with you I know, I know... 

And this is the truth I must learn to face


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Cloud of Darkness

Dug in a hole with no way out

Searching for the light but still trapped with darkness

Troubled and confused with no one to reach out to

All I have is my little faith that is left

To cry and pray for forgiveness

A heart broken and yet alone

Where to go from here when all you have is yourself

The book closed where they are on the outside looking in

You are challenged and become weak and give up your will

Soon to realize its to late to trace back those tracks

To be endeared with the advice to wake up to reality

There may be no backbone to the solution but I have my heart and my will to do my best

To grasp as hard as possible to reach my faith and to never let go

To tighten my insecurities and make them hard to grab and conquer


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this is for you

i really love you
I seriously do
I don't want to leave
But you've got to believe
I don't belong here
Please do not fear
Everywhere you go
Just feel the soft wind blow
the love flow through your veins
Relieve all your aches and pains
just listen to the whispers
you will hear my voice...
I will always love you...
It will hurt really bad
perhaps make you terribly sad
just listen to your heart
and you will realize
It was only best
For me to die
Then you'll know I'll be safe
no more hurt
Just in peace


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How Could You Not Have Died

How could you not have died, my dear?
I've lived at least a thousand lives
Waiting for precious, velvet tears
To soak into this skin of mine

To soak into this skin of mine, 
To seep into these veins i hide,
Waiting for these velvet tears 
To, out of my blind sight, subside

How could you have survived, my dear?
My bones will rot before you find
My only known accomplice, fear,
Has long past seen the broad daylight

It's long past seen the broad daylight,
And stays in touch with you at night,
My only known accomplice, fear, 
Has been exposed to much too bright

How are you still alive, my dear?
You said you'd kill to steal my heart,
The homicidal factor's clear,
My chest in shreds, my bruises dark

This chest's in shreds, these bruises dark,
Your once soft voice, a grueling bark,
Inevitably, this body grows stark,
Signaling this spirit's embark...

The second you tell me, my dear,
How could you not have died?


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A Softer Place To Fall

We have shared so many things
laughter tears and pain
Loneliness and lots of love
even kissing in the rain

Having dinner at the Bistro
at a table just for two
Sipping our margaritas thinking
I was falling in love with you

Your gentle hand in mine
made us both forget the past
don't know the reason why
it just wasn't made to last

Both of us had lost someone
maybe it was just too soon
To be raptured by the moonlight
even though it made us swoon

I know the tears will flow
it will be a sad good bye
Both will go our separate ways
Knowing that we really tried

Guess we weren't ready
to make this our final call
Perhaps we were both just looking
for the softest place fall


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End of Love

By impulse I'm here. 

Fantasizing of the creature in front of me brims the edge of my mind.

Slow to touch, fingers tremble like the knees of a new born deer.

The impact of your powerful scent turns my stomach into a cage of 
butterflies. 

Releasing my deeper affection onto the lips of my favorite guy. How 
intriguing to comfort the warmth resting between us. 

 Distance seems to be between the eyes yet we touch noses. We don't have 
the same vision. Yet we're still holding...   

On to what we imagined was there. Like Saying goodbye to that summer 
affair. 
Turning our backs on what we thought would last forever.


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Forcefully Apart

Torn apart dramatically, by this udder disbelief of fate
Unsatisfied I must daringly admit, for we may not date.
Must I say that I could snap, starting a fun filled fight fest
I might have to give up, this sacrifice might be for the best.

This solemn cry for the one, that I really truly love most
That feeling of losing our wings, the wings now a ghost.
First were the wings of love, now they take you away
I see the nappers of my love, but please keep me at bay.

Their keeping you hostage, me stepping on egg shells
Them not to explode, forgetting the timed ringing bells.
Time anxiously runs out, you have to forget about me
There isn't anything you can do, so just let it peacefully be.

Having a dream of us, then it turning to a Nightmare 
Nappers taking you my angel, this is only for me to bear.
Am I not to be my own person, but to be the one they want
Every day goes by when I think, pestering me they taunt.

The forgetful times, of the great memories that we made
Why must we forget what's happy, or why must it fade.
These memories we share, are the greatest ones by far
Memories that are happy, us as a whole yes we are.

Forcefully apart from each other, it might have to be so
You being in tears my love, makes me want to do in the foe.
Possibly the last words to my angel, I will always love you
No matter what when or where, it will always be true.


Details | I do not know? | |

Big Bang

They ask me, “did she hurt you?” and all I can force myself to say is that she didn’t mean to. 
That hearts are mending in different ways and if I am not the way then that is not her fault. 
She follows a star much farther then mine but they shine just as bright. 
I once bought her a flower and told her that she shines so bright
 it would feed off her light but the flower died because my words
 are only fiction spilling off my tongue.
 And I didn’t mean to lie to her when I said that I would go to the moon and back,
 but I can’t afford a spaceship and she wouldn’t wait for me to come back.
 She was chasing that next pay check when I was just checking the weather
 to see if I could walk into the park with her hand.
 She was walking on the pavement in her summer dress and I,
 with my battered sweater and used jeans with a broken smile across my face
 walking aimlessly in the forrest. Or was time not by my side, when I told her
 that my heart was a falling star with her name on it and she was not ready
 to have that star falling into her space.
 When I tell you that she didn’t mean to,
 I mean to say that her heart wasn’t my matching puzzle piece.
 Her future is not in mine but I still tell her that she is the most beautiful
 creature I’ve seen until I see another one that passes me by.
 I don’t move with purpose, I don’t walk with swift feet to find anything,
 but to love and explore all I can. I didn’t lie when I told her she was the sun
 to my flower; She’s just not the big bang that made my star.


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Learn to Hate

 Now You Say You Love Me,
 but I Fear it Is Too Late.
 All the Pain You Put Me Through
 Has Taught Me How to Hate.
 
 I Hate the Way I Felt, 
 the Day You Said Good Bye
 and I Hate the Way the Tears
 Kept Getting in My Eyes.
 
 I Hate the Days I Lost,
 Crying over You
 and I Learned to Hate Myself
 Because I Loved  You Too.
 
 Yes, I Have to Blame Myself
 but I Understand Somehow,
 If You Didn't Love Me Then,
 How Is it You Love Me Now?
 
 Connie Moore
 2/9/97


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Loveless Dreams Lead To This Darkness I'm becoming

The one who wanted a Love from his dreams
Went to deep in the fight for the right to be King
As he rose so high to the castle in the sky
To his surprise The Lord was not inside
Only a sickness that estinguished his flame
And took the Dream he had
Right out of his name
The Nighttime Daydreamer
Was taken by a plague
As he could no longer
Find his peace in the day
They all watched him fade
As his Love disappeared
Becoming The Darkness
That he had beaten through the years
He just sat helplessly
And watched his heart break
to mask his growing pain
He followed the white snake
Right back into the Garden Of Eden
But there was no Eve
For The Darkness had decieved him
Right into a deadly temptaion
He had no escape
There was only one way in
To succumb to The Darkness
Which he ultimatly became
that was how The Dreamer Of Nighttime died in name
For he could dream no more
He was now a monster he called Darkness
The night his Love walked out the door.


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Climax

Lovely moments
Dazzling moonlight
Graceful tones
Cherish our love notes
Sweet melody
Sorrowful tears
Bomb my world
Awkward rumors turn
Lovingly unnoticed
Dimmed glow
Demanding tones
Destroyed the love
We had created here
One last kiss
I wouldn’t miss
One last hug
You’re my world
You’ve thrown me out
I shall die an unwanted girl
Leaving this life
Nothing left to say
Nothing left to do
Let it be this way
I will always love you


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If Wishes Were Horses

I say goodbye a lot—not in an “I’ll see you later” or “until next time” sort of way—but in a “goodbye for good” and “never speak to you again” sort of way. I’ve always been all right with it, accepted it, and embraced it, even. You know, people come and go; they serve their purpose and even though sometimes it’s worth it, they go away. I’m guilty of it myself. Just leave. Get out. Go. Don’t stay. I’ve said goodbye so many times to so many people in so many ways, but you posed a problem that my brain, mind, soul, body can’t escape. I just want to be back inside your arms, your bed, your life, your heart, you. Instead, I ran off, 9 thousand miles away to wake up as you go to bed, to play in a giant sandbox. I do not want to stay here; June cannot come quickly enough. March, April, May—three more months of this living in your tomorrow, you in my yesterday. I miss you. I fear you. I long for you with intensity as deep, as overwhelming, as powerful and dominating as the sky’s infinity. I love you. I want you. I yearn for you in every single way; the tears I’ve bled for you are insurmountable. I wish for Home; I wish for the West. Even greater than my desperation for friends, family, familiar faces, familiar places, is my ache to have you near; if wishes were horses, and if horses had wings, I’d have one to take me there.


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That Dream I Had Of You

All I wished for was a dream.
I kissed you goodbye in that dream.
I seen you in the dream.

All I wanted was to see what you truly seem.
I was there beside you.
I was there with you.

All I wished for was in a dream.
I recognized you in that dream.
I knew you in the dream. 

All I wanted was to be there for me.
I was there near you.
I was sitting with you.

All I wished for was a dream.
I kissed you goodbye in that dream.
I seen your silent farewell in my dream.

All I wanted was to set myself free.
I was there next to you.
I was close to you.

All I wished for was my dream.
I realized you and me may never be as that dream.
I learned you could still be there for me.


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chris

brother
the things that ive became
i guess i spoke to early and belived i was the blame
brother
if you could only see what i am today
this world has ****ed with us 
and torn us worlds away
cut us limb by limb and throw our hearts away
you buried a secert 
that cant be harmed by lies
brother 
can you hear my cries
im so silent so hollow so fraguile 
i might as well be a glass
pesamistic 
i look at you sooo full
now i know the truth you where
empty just like me
brother 
can you hear me know
my belife and beliving
my love that keeps me sane
i know you drilled this in my brain
but all that's left is feel is pain
is love in vain?


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Sinking

Slowly, slowly we’re slipping away.
We’re losing sight of who we are together, 
of what we can be.
We’re losing each other.
No matter how hard we try, it doesn’t stop. 
This ship we’ve built up for so long is sinking to the bottom of a deep and dark, cold abyss. 
The truth is, we’ve been in this sinking ship for a long time.
We keep hoping that all the holes can be patched and they eventually do get just that, patched. 
A little cover over all the pain and depressions in our small ship.
But the patches don’t last, 
no, 
soon they fall off and deteriorate as if the problem was never resolved.
Before we know it, 
we start becoming submerged in the icy water of what is the end.
And there’s no way to stop it.
We can’t pretend like the demise of us isn’t knocking at our door. 
We can’t act like everything is okay, 
put on a brave face, and smile.
No, we can’t because everything isn’t okay and the demise is indeed standing at our door. 
Love isn’t enough anymore to keep this ship afloat. 
We try and try and try and we constantly fail and fail and fail.
It doesn’t matter how much we want this to work out,
how much we want for us to succeed.
We can’t push something that doesn’t exist anymore.
Do we even know how to be together anymore?
How to act around each other?
Do we even care if it ends?
You say, “We both have to overcome our fears for this to work out.” 
Yet, everyday it’s a constant marathon of trials and tribulations on our relationship.
Everyday it’s the same thing, 
it’s never different. 
In reality, we’ve grown apart and we’re trying to fit together fragments of what was.
Those last couple of weeks that we were together did destroy what was, 
what could've been, 
and what could be now.
So we’re slowly, slowly sinking.


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Acquiesce

I walked away, leaving behind the ruin
and destruction of what we were.
I left you behind without second thought,
for my eyes were fixed only forward.
Seeking myself, lost in the darkness,
a quest I had to take alone.
You're an empty hollow in my heart
but the hollow is not to be my focus.
Climbing the mountain of my sorrows,
gaining strength, recovering lost pieces
until one day, I will reach the top,
and I can look back, see it all.
And then I'll tell you what I saw,
and then maybe we'll understand.


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The Scholar

There in little tidings packed in ribbon,
among the oleander I set beside my notes,
she sung no as well as no can be said,
or sung, with wording I can never reproduce.
The parcel with its ribbon, an honest thing,
undoubtedly, did not know itself and its
long words, but me
am all creation from cell to symbol
obstructed by its very gaze, held a hand
I do not own, nor wish I did and said no,
sweetly as perfume haunts the fleeting scent of more.
No; no bell to toll, no Faerie land awaits,
the eglantine is paper thin and folded
in a page beside the oleander.
The tales, all Chaucer, Joyce, Dorsey,
Keats, swim with the shelved shore of mind for comfort
until, like all good eventuals
I am with her no, a bottomless no,
sent with ribbon and retracted lips.
Everything I feel can be summed up in words.


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She is a Writer

to write is what
makes her feel better 
she lives in a 
thick sheet of paper 
wording the thoughts
 to maneuver
she remembers such things 
like what you wore 
and perhaps hides it
within a metaphor 
and the words you once 
whispered in her ear 
she would jot them down 
in a paper she could tear


Details | Lyric | |

Back At The Start

Hey boy, with those sapphire eyes
drowning me deep with those pristine lies
those perfect hands that carve out my heart
I want to be done with you
I want to say goodbye to you
but with one look in those eyes of yours
I'm back at the start

The dance isn't over
The music just changed on us
twisting us a different way
you hate it when I lead
try to take control of me

Those sapphire eyes
you think I'm putty in your hands
your pristine lies 
you think your such a big man
that mask you where is not a great disguise
cause I just found out that 
your just like other guys

I want to say goodbye to you
I want to be done with you
but you won't let me go
you take me by the hand
pull me to your chest and
say

"I never meant to lie, 
never meant to lead,
I just want you mine baby..."

I want to say goodbye
I want to be done
but with those sapphire eyes 
and those perfect hands that carve out my heart
I'm right back at
the start


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Final Goodbye

Fast fleeing the world from whence i came,
the only thing i regret is that of my name,
My Final Goodbye will not be so easy,
As to just float away on the first chance i get,
I love you to much to ever leave,
to let you fall, feel pain, or scream,
For that is something that my love can do,
I will catch you when you are falling,
I will wipe your tears when you cry,
So finally i will take my own advice,
When i say "Est Solaris Oth Mithas", 
"My Honor is My Life".


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As In the Days of Noah


As In the Days of Noah… As in the days of Noah, there was wickedness in the land!. So shall it be in the days of the coming of the son of man! There were many forms of ungodliness that were enjoyed! Until the day of the flood... Then it was all destroyed! Imagine building an ark that took one hundred and twenty years! The labor it took! Throughout the blood, sweat and tears! The people laughed, and thought Noah was “out of his mind.” But soon, the wrath of God, is what they would find! God gave them a chance to repent, but no one would. So he had Noah and his family made an ark out of wood. Noah warned them all, consequences there would be! And warned them of where they’d be spending eternity! Then, the rains came and poured like never before! The people got scared! They couldn’t take anymore! They cried and shouted, “Noah” “please let us in!” “We didn’t believe you, when you told us of our sin!” The door on the ark was shut! God’s judgment came down! Other than Noah’s family, there was no one else around! America’s days of wickedness will be coming to an end! Very soon, God’s judgment will certainly begin! Will you mock the men of God? Who preach God’s word? Or will you live as if, his truth, you never heard? As in the days of Noah, so shall it be at Christ’ return! Will you join him in heaven? Or stay on this earth to burn? By Jim Pemberton


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Jilted

I knew a girl named ______
I saw her every day
I told her that I loved her
and now she runs away

I guess I didn’t love her
we won’t be getting hitched
for how could I have been in love 
with such a silly _______?


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Her Pain

llooking up to the sky
 tears falling from her face
 never thought she would cry
 for someone who is such a discrase 
as she softly crys
 she learns to hate you 
and all of your lies are nothing new
 she knows you are gone 
she cant take it anymore 
what your doing is wrong 
she falls to the floor 
shes crying more than ever
 she feels like shes bleeding
 remember when you said never 
you were always missleading
 days turn to nights
 minuts turn to hours 
she started loosing sight 
of what you once called ours
 now she is broken
 and your the cause of her pain
 with all these words unspoken
 what could you possibly gain
 do you feel like a winner?
 do you feel like you won fist place?
 your just a siner
 it was never a race


Details | Free verse | |

dumpster diving

I threw out all of you
smashed all the CD's
trashed every sweatshirt that smelled of you
ripped up diary pages of admiration
letters and pictures burnt
only ashes that can't say 'I love you' anymore
and then you wanted me back
but I'm not going dumpster diving


Details | Light Poetry | |

remember

I remember holding you 
while we lie in bed awake 
and I would hug you so close 
just to feel every breathe that you take 

and I remember you telling me 
that you don't want me to cry 
and I promise you that I wont 
but deep down you knows I lie 

and I remember you telling me 
that I have to be strong inside 
and I remember the moment 
that you close your eyes and died 

and I remember when they carry you 
standing in the rain soaking wet 
as I fumbled with a lighter 
trying to light a cigarette 

and I remember the flowers 
as they cover you in the ground 
every one wishing me well 
but I couldn't hear a sound 

I remember her parents standing there 
and the grieve on your face 
for so many years they disowned you 
for loving a man of a different race 

and I remember reaching out a hand 
trying to find something to say 
and I remember they look at me 
and without a word walk away 

I remember the first time we meet 
down by the Staten island mall 
when you got a flat tire 
and didn't know who to call 

and I remember our first date 
and asking you to be my wife 
and i remember taking you to Trinidad 
to show my parents the woman to share my life 

and I remember you dancing 
to steel pan and calypso 
drinking coconut water 
sucking sugar cane and ripe mangoes 

and when you got sick 
and what the doctor said to me 
I remember our fairly tales 
turns to a horror story 

you made me swear 
to be strong and carry on 
now I'm so weak 
so weak since you been gone 

I remember every moment 
every moment spend with you 
the only thing I don't remember 
is how to live without you 

I cant live without you 
so I wont even try 
I will stay by your grave 
until the day I die 

god you take my woman 
the only one I ever love 
and you got so many angels 
you didn't need another one above


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The Thin Line


I hate how you're always on my mind
Invading every thought.
You're in everything I do,
You are everywhere I go. 

Can't play the radio
Every song about us
They sing about love-
The happiness, the pain. 

I hate how I remember exactly how your day goes
The time you wake and shower
Your work, your path
Every hour. 

I hate that I can picture every detail of your space
The place we'd sit to laugh and talk
The smells, the sounds I can't erase 

I hate the memory of your touch
The feeling of your bed
Your smell your taste
The love we’d make.

The hammock, that tree
A gentle evening breeze.
So close together,
My favorite place to be. 

I hate the words you said to me
"You are my one, my baby,
God, please never leave me"
How I felt so loved by you each and every day
With words and music 
A funny line
You always found a way. 

The house we dreamed of 
By a quiet lake
Two dogs, a porch
Together we would wake. 

I hate it all
Every minute every day,
I hate how with ease you walked away. 
I hate the days I miss you, the days I cry.
But I love you still tho you said goodbye.


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Saying Goodbye- Maybe For A Second

I never thought that 
I would be saying goodbye to you
But I’m tired of not being loved
I’m tired of my feelings not meaning anything
I need a man who’s going to care for me
I need a man who’s going to love me for me
I need a man who’s not going to just have sex with me
I loved you and to be honest I still do 
But do you love me is the question
If you love me…
And not second guessing your love for me 
Then maybe we can work something out 
I would love that 
Let me know if you love me
I don’t want to say goodbye forever


Details | Free verse | |

Washed up

Washed up on the beach

Sand wet against my face

Grit covering my soaked gown

Tasting the salt in my airways

Trying to pull my body up

From the sludge left by the tide

My arms weak from swimming out to sea

Sudden realization that the ocean spat me out

Gathering my resources

I slowly scramble to my knees then feet

You watched me walk away

Into the heavy drink

Flitting your eyes

As if to say "goodbye"

But no word you uttered

Looking morose but yet relieved

Only your cold stare

To send me a farewell

Tears you never shed

When I plunged within the angry surf

No glances back as you lingered by the driftwood

Satisfaction in your poisonous pride

Oh yes, let me go

Cleanse me water of deep

The promises made not kept

If you saw a stranger

Being carried out by moons light

Your nature to rescue a wretch

Ah, but me

Not you to swim after me

Leave me in Neptune's lair

Without any thought of joining

Not even a tear for me

Succumbed to the beckoning

The dark waters caress over me

As rays of crystals gleam

The sunrise illuminated the bottom

Translucent spotlights on me

Out of body and fragmented mind

When the hands of the forever star

Made my abyss no more

They left me on the coast

Where I could now breath

Shrouded by angelic arms

All that you left

A cigarette on the bank

Without a match

Guess you thought

I wouldn't come back
 


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Goodbye

Sometimes saying goodbye is hard, but I think it’s about time me to do it.
A year and 3 months, was it just a waste of time? I hope not.
When we first started talking everything was so good, the best relationship I’ve 
ever had.
Now I wish it could go back to the way it was, when I can see something in his 
eyes.
Goodbye? Is it about that time?
I hope not, because I love him.
Maybe he wants to say goodbye, and if he wants to he needs to let me know.
Goodbye after a year and 3 months?
Maybe it is about that time.
So goodbye my love!!!


Details | ABC | |

Morgue

                                                                                      October 5th, 2014

I walk into this morgue
After a long lasting stroke.
The room is a little small for a hospital,
A little big for this heart
And still, it all feels so logical. 

Dead bodies all over the place
Lined up inside cold refrigerators. 
They are past, long time lost
You are the present 
But with no future to rent

Your body is still warm 
But I need to put you in that damn drawer!
In small pieces I was torn
Just lying on dead cold floor.
You will not see me cry,
Grieving stage has past long time ago
I was dancing with the dead alone 
Maintaining the status quo in that zone

After cutting you off, opening you up
It seems like no one can interrupt. 
Digging into your guts, inside out
Just to find out
That this autopsy is so painful
For a body that is still alive 
So is the love
(That we never had)
What is it to you? -  You are already dead

Walking out of that morgue
With another stroke,
Throwing away that surgical mask
Seeking for a life I was afraid to ask


Details | Free verse | |

Is This Goodbye Forever?

Is this goodbye forever?
Soon you’ll set off on your new endeavor
And I will be here
Sitting and waiting
For the day you’ll come home
But don’t worry about me baby
Ill be fine.

I try to tell myself that this is good for you
And I know it is
But I feel left out
Pushed to the side
I can’t help but feel this way

The days are long
The nights drag on
One day
Then two
I don’t see you

I remain faithful
As I hope you do
I create my calendar
Solemnly around you
Waiting for the day
You will want to be with me
No one else 
Just me

Don’t worry
I see your efforts
Sometimes I just don’t feel them
Yet I know
If this is meant to be
Indeed it will

So I will rest 
Upon that thought
Upon your beauty
And your word

So if this is goodbye forever
It is now me
Who shall set off on her new endeavor.


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It's Time

    

               Today was a day to end all days, who would of guessed it would end up 
this way?
                     I've got to say goodbye to the love of my life.
        Our love was in the past, it was not strong enough to last.

        It's time to say goodbye and have one last cry for the love I'm about to leave 
behind.

        I was hoping you'd change your mind, and realize that you were blind that 
there's love waiting for me.
                                     But it's not and now I see.
                                 
        It's time to say goodbye and have one last cry for the love I'm about to leave 
behind.

       Baby we've been through alot of good and bad, I'm sorry but I'm sick of being 
sad.
       You've obviously found someone new, and this is just something I have to do.

       It's time to say goodbye and have one last cry for the love I'm about to leave 
behind.
                                    It's time,
                                    It's time,
                                    It's time for me to fly. Farewell, goodbye.



Details | I do not know? | |

The Last Piece

I hear the defened shattering sound
    of the last piece of my heart
All the tiny pieces will never be found
    gone is my hope of true love
His words just seemed so real to me
    and his touch so warm and protective
I was really in love this time don't you see?
    
    now the only thing I can feel
Is my tears rolling down my cheek
    I stare deep into the unknown
My body is so fragile and weak.

    each beat of my heart
Brings slow agonly unbound
    thump thump thump thump
Comes pain to my heart unbound
    each breath I breath
Feels as though poison enters my soul.
    the time has come the time has come
The time has come for love to take its toll
    my life I want to end

Today I slowly die in my memories
    memories of good and bad
Tonight I reach death for a peaceful moment
    as my eyes flutter and my thoughts stop
Tomorrow my death starts all over again
    my aching head spinning like a top
Many times my heart has broken
    many times there is still one big enough piece left
Each time I give it as my loves token
    but now the pieces are too small
Only slivers in my soul
    my soul is imprisoned by a wall
I don't think I can pull through this time

    my stomach is in a knot
My lungs are compressed
    this time I have not fought
My body quivers
    and I cannot stand
My skin turns pale
    amongst my tears there is no land
It's apathy's fault I do not cry
    I am hurt so bad I feel no pain
He's gone he's gone
    I stand alone in the rain
The rain drops will be my tears
    The evenings gloom will describe how I feel

How can I find the end to this poem
    when what I feel would take a lifetime to describe
Short and long the lines go on
    only glimpsing at what I feel tonight

Of all the times why now
    when all else has gone wrong.
I trusted you, I opened up to you
    you knew my hearts story
My trials and my torubles
    you say your sorry
But did you reallly care?
   
    never more will I see your face
Feel your touch and hear your words
    goodbye stranger of my shattered heart
Goodbye goodbye forever goodbye.


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It's So Hard To Say Goodbye

It's so hard to say goodbye, and yet
I still cry.  And remember the day I 
had to say that big word "BYE".

You know it doesn't seem like saying
goodbye is a hard thing to do.   But
trust me when you have to say it 
for the last time and to the one you
really care for to.  It's the hardest 
thing you'll ever have to do.

You know it's easy to say goodbye when 
you know they're coming back.  But when 
you say it and there's no turning back.
Then it's hard to stay on track.

It's the most painful thing to do.
And it's so hard to make it through.
Because you can't believe that's what
everything came to.

So the next time you say goodbye will
it be forever or will it be for the last
time?


Details | Ballad | |

NO SUCH THING AS GOODBYE

You didn't pass on 
You didn't die 
No such thing as goodbye 

Bittersweet somethings 
Bittersweet nothings 

One day soon 
You and I 
Running to the moon 
Past the blue sky 

Bittersweet somethings 
Bittersweet nothings 

I saw you yesterday 
and today 
for in my heart... 
you did stay 

How will you go? 
Such escapes, 
you cannot know 

No such thing as goodbye 
You didn't pass on 
You didn't die 
Bittersweet battle won 

We will meet soon... 
In the other world, 
or the next 
Somethings... 
Bittersweet 

Such lives inextricably linked 
I belong to you, 
as you belong to me 
This is how it is meant to be... 
You know it too


Details | I do not know? | |

suicide note

you were the only one that kept me from killing my self , the only reason I even 
stayed here in hell . in the end you’re the reason I sit here in the dark writing this 
poem with the cold gun laying in reach . as soon as I am done saying these last 
few things I need to say . I’ll pick it up, say I love you one last time though you 
wont hear it and pull the trigger . finally saying goodbye to this world . I’ll leave you 
knowing that I loved you with all my heart, body and soul . don’t worry though, you 
released me . I wont feel any more pain . the only pain I’ll feel wont last too long . 
not nearly as long as the pain that I would feel if I was to stay alive . they say the 
greatest pain of all is a broken heart . guess I wont have to find out for too 
long .so this is my goodbye ….


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Memories Of Yesterday

I don’t know what came over me. 
Can’t seem to understand what I’m feeling right now.
You came to me so unexpectedly 
and have let myself fall for your charms.  
No, what I’m feeling isn’t love. 
It’s a feeling of confusion.

What happened between us was beautiful.  
No, I don’t regret what happened, 
and I wished that it would have been 
easier to be around you.  
There are times when I just want to 
look at your face and feel your 
warm embrace in a cold cold night.  
Oh how I ache for you every night, 
wishing that you were mine.  

So, I’ve decided to say goodbye to yesterday, 
because I know that you’ll never be mine 
and I can never be yours, because we both
know that our hearts already have been claimed.  
All I have now is just Memories of Yesterday 
for the rest of my life.

I will let go first, because I know that you won’t.  
This is for the best and I know that even 
though it hurts now, it’ll save us both from
more heart aches.
I know you have more dreams in life and 
I’d like you to fulfill it and I don’t want to 
be in your way.  I know you’ll find the one 
that you’ll love truly, and hope that she’ll 
do the same.
I wish you happiness and joy in hopes 
that you’ll pursue what you want in life.

So, I'll make this goodbye easier for you.
It's going to be hard to resist you when I see you
everyday.  And if you see me, and I ignore you, please 
don't think that I don't care anymore.  I'm doing this
because, I don't want to long for your kisses and warm embrace.
I have to learn not to miss you everyday and I can't pretend 
that it'll be easy to forget you.
I know that when you leave in April, you will forget me, and
move on with your life, and I wouldn’t expect anything in return.
This is my closure for both of us, and I will not look back at
what we had, because they are just memories from the past.


Details | I do not know? | |

how do you say goodbye

how do u say goodbye to someone u just only met , someone that u just getting 
to know 
how do u say  goodbye to the person that u say u care so much about, the 
person that ur surpose to be with and share a life with
how do u say goodbye to someone thas on ur mind every waken moment, 
someone who's the last thing on ur mind when u fall asleep and the first thing on 
it when u wake 
how so u say goodbye when u've found that one person that makes ur heart melt 
everytime u hear their voice 
how do u say goodbye to someone u couldn't picture ur life without 
how do u say goodbye to someone that u have more than an physical attraction 
to, someone who's there for u
how do u say goodbye?


Details | Free verse | |

Saying Goodbye For Now

A visit to the graveyard will bring
you sadness of,
saying goodbye to a love one or friend,

Today I went to say goodbye to my
dear brother who I
truly loved so.

He was a friend I could always count on,
for so many years, he had such warmth
around him and through his heart.

He was my hero and idol, who I really
looked up to, many times growing up,
he gave me his last dime.

So many times he brought me smiles
with his humor, that he carried
to my soul.

Darrell I want you to know how much
I truly love you and will miss
you so much.

Saying goodbye for now my friend and
dear brother, just wait a little longer
I will be up there to see you and mom once again.

wrote 7-26-08   In Memory of my brother Darrel Leaming Born 9-14-37  Died 6-25-08


Details | I do not know? | |

Goodbye to Love

In her heart love still blooms
like the petals of a flower
their love ended to soon.

In his heart he could not see
his eyes - they were blind,
oh, how true her heart beats.

Love still grows
the feeling she knows
a broken heart to mend with time.
His love was her power.

Now its over
the end has come
this - is what he told her.

She said goodbye 
tried not to cry
she knew her love was to strong
where did it go wrong?

He found someone new
it made her blue
with love so true
she knew she didn't belong.

He's found happiness with another
thought not of her
soon he'll discover
the love he lost
the path she crossed
he's gotten over
said goodbye for the last time
her love was blind.

Soon she'll find
that love, true love
never will end
and a broken heart will then mend.


Details | I do not know? | |

broken

At times I find myself lost and trapped within a daze,  confused, stuck, and idly 
consumed in lost days.  

Dwelling on the past while sitting idly gasped, peering around I'm blinded but 
can hear the masses laugh.   

So I smile to myself, take a breath, and exhale, my vision becomes more clear 
and my heart less frail.

I'm on a mission to succeed, who knows where I'll be, but I swear I'll  scale this 
whole mountain inevitably. 

There will be no more closing my eyes and dreaming of you,  I'm sick to my 
stomach already queasy from the view.  

Goodbye to the love we made and the promises you broke,  goodbye to the ones 
I returned which I now revoke. 

Goodbye to that person i though that I knew,  goodbye to that person that I 
thought was you.