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Details | Free verse | |

My weakness

        GOD

Wondrous of many blessings.
Smiling never a frown.
My prayers, Lord, are  suddenly being ignored.
I've taken a tumble of  fallen down
Lord, my life was plain and simple  
How did it come to this.
Lord, now I carry a  burden so deep
A torn up life not easy to fix
Hard to get my prayers before I sleep
Bleeding only internally!
Feeling very minutely!
God, have you deserted me, or is it me who deserted you?

God, my Lord, my savior, how could you abandon me?
Must I drown in my own sorrow.
Must I wake up like this today and tomorrow.
Why have you left me, or is it me who left you?

God, I need you like never before.
When I wake up,
When I head out the door.
Tormented in a mood ring of stock
Heavily my tears hit upon the floor.
God, do you not feel me, or is it me who no longer feel you?

God, what is your plan for me?
What things did I not see?
I asked for you to forgive me in my ways of sin.
Why do you let him provoke me?
Lord, I forbid for him to win.
Relieve me from his gutless pain.
God, do you not believe me, or is it me who no longer believe in you?

God, do you not hear my call
My pitiful excuses make me weak and small
In your eyes I no longer feel tall
I remain cursed in every single fall
Lord, only you can break this wall
Do you not see me on my knees
Must I beg and crawl?
I am at your mercy, crying out with grief
Open the path to the lighted hall
O' Lord, the day you judge me before your throne
Please tell me it was a lesson for me to stand up on my own
God for now I will end this talk
With the dignity to never look back
And ask if you were there on my endless journey of a relentless walk?

By:PD


Details | Free verse | |

Heavens' Doorway

One day there was an accident, and to heavens gate I was called.
As an angel sat down beside me, upon the bed I had been put upon.
Such a shining warmth ensued as it held me in its thrall.
A thought from God proclaimed, “What with your life have you done?”
Then all of life fled past me, but not as I did expect to see it done.
For all I saw and felt were things I hadn’t known I had done, and yet…
So much pain inflicted to each, with such little words and thoughts.
I never would have known such power, by one person, could be wrought.
I bowed my head in shame at the pain I knew I could not undo, yet…
Suddenly, I found myself forgiven. Yes, TRULY it was true!
Hallelujah became my amazed and impassioned cry before him, that night!
His warmth had never wavered, nor even his illustrious, wonderful light.
How could he forgive me, someone as wretched and lowly as I?
And yet, he did… and so he changed my life from then on out. 
But low and behold he wasn’t yet done with me, or so my story goes…
He sent me back to my home again… it in comparison brought me low.
But he said my work lay uncompleted, so now I must go back…
He said to stay clean and I would blossom… What do you think of that?
A veil he placed upon my eyes to remove me from the knowledge of all I’d known.
Then he sent me from his side, where I could not see him but knew he was.
Now, here I stand before you, a totally changed and humbled one.
Still, I have found I have sinned again… I know he must have known.
Perhaps some day, as I patiently wait… I’ll be allowed once more within his gate.
Only time will tell, as again I’ll feel every ones pain…
All I can say is: God Forgive Me… as I continue to wait…

(This Near Death experience really happened and changed my life.)


Details | Rhyme | |

The Hypocritical Christian

I am the hypocritical Christian.
I say I follow Christ,
But I'm still consumed by my demons.
I go to church on Sunday,
But I refuse to invite someone back.
I want to serve on mission,
But I'm too afraid to act.
They think I read The Bible,
But I just fall asleep in it.
They think I'm positivity and smiles,
But underneath I'm death and addictions.
They think I'm clean and pure,
But I'm broken and mistaken.
I say I'm not worthy of His love,
But Jesus will never let me be forsaken.
I pray long prayers,
But inside they're empty repetition.
It might look as if my faith is strong,
But my core is too easily shaken.
I say the things I'm supposed to say,
But don't follow His actions or obey.
I speak the truth the church wants to hear,
But deep inside on matters I don't know what to believe.
I walk in shame as if I'm not good enough
To be loved by God and saved through Christ,
But there is nothing I could ever do to earn His peace;
It's a free gift.
I accept;
Now forgiven, changed, and released.
Thank You God,
Thank You Jesus,
Thank You Holy Spirit!
In Jesus' Holy Name,
We pray,
Amen!


Details | Quatrain | |

Lonely Dreams

I never knew following dreams could be this lonely,
But up on the hill, looking back, thank God I'm not the old me.
If the tears will fall, let them be;
I believe this is God's plan, follow your dreams.


Details | Rhyme | |

A Soul Awakened

She is the muse to her own sorrow; She is the digger of her grave. She is the painter of her ocean view and every fatal wave. She is the shadow of her Father; She is the darkness in your sight. She is the night without the stars surrounding pale moonlight. She is the music with no words; She is sweet love without the reason. She is your dreamer with submission cold by warmth with every season. She is your pet with cold intentions; She is your baby scared and shaken. She is the bold and pure- the lost and found, She is a soul awakened.


Details | Heroic Couplets | |

Stronger Than She Thinks.....

She is a loving mother, 
 her pain is like no other.
Kids taken all at once away.
 A price too steep to have to pay.

Holds her head up high, 
 when all she wants to do is die.
She thinks her pain is masked, 
 but as you see, its no easy task.

She's strong and still fights, 
 even when they say she has no rights.
She dreams of seeing her kids, 
 trying hard to keep the pain hid.

She goes to court and really fights, 
 only to come home alone and cry at night.
Still, she continues this uphill battle.
 Her confidence, they constantly rattle.

Goes to work and tries to smile, 
 as her heart is breaking all the while.
Wish I was a much better sister, 
 who called and let her know I missed her.

I had my own tumultuous issues, 
 it was she who really needed the tissues.
I just had a crappy, low life man.
 By her side her family should stand.

Instead they all give her grief.
 Do they not see her pain will never be brief?
No, they all say they are sorry, but they're full of lies.
 Didn't they know it was her LIFE in demise?

A better sister, I'll try to be.
 Her back she never turned to me.
I hope she knows she's loved and cared for.
 Her smile I'd like to see more.

I know that's no easy task.
 But that I will still ask.
As they push her to the brink,
 She's stronger than she ever thinks.




A combined effort for Kristy.....


Details | Couplet | |

The Lovers Dance

It was their night they shone bright as they danced their sweet dance
Two lovers embraced in their world of romance.

They laughed and they cried as their eyes locked in stare
It was their world for this moment as if no one was there.

And their steps they so flawlessly glided in tune,
To a melody that touched everyone in that room.

Their passion brought envy to onlookers there,
Who secretly questioned their own love affair.

But as the night closed and came to an end
The lovers were blind to what lie round the bend.

The house and the cars and the jobs that went bad
The kids drove them crazy and their savings were drab.

So they fought to hold on to the things in their life,
That caused them so much of their pain and their strife.

They fought with each other like enemies do,
And dismissed in their life everything that was true.

So when sickness and hardships and troubles occurred,
Their vows to commit seemed truly absurd.

Their home and their kids would now take a backseat,
For their moral obligation they chose not to meet.


So I Ask …
What happened to that dance they danced so well?
With passion and truth everyone could tell.

What happened to their dance where they held so tight?
What happened to the wonder of their glorious night?

What happened to the words that charmed their ears?
With a passionate rhythm that brought them to tears.

What happened to those vows that poured from their heart?
The “I love you forever and till death do us part”.

For these aren’t just words we borrow for the day,
From another who tells us this is what we must say.

We say them cause it’s what we feel true in our heart,
It’s a God given blessing we commit from the start.

But these words are now lost as they fall on deaf ears,
Since the pain and the struggles they’ve created these years.

So the lesson here learned dear people of odd,
Is that love is so fragile but made strong with our God.

So stop fighting for power and money or need,
For all of this nonsense is only our greed.

Keep God in your life and he’ll walk you through,
When heartache and pain and losses ensue.

For why commit vows in the eyes of our God,
And not call on him when life gets too hard?

For the truth of our vows we are all meant to see,
is that marriage is not, made of two, but of three

If reading these words ring some truth in your heart,
Decide that today you will make a new start.

Go hug your spouse and say something kind
Don’t let the small stuff cloud up your mind.

We’re all just lost souls who are trying to cope
If  not there for each other then where is the hope?

You see, the anger, the fight
that in us abide, Is only the insecure child inside.

So rise up above all this fear and this pain,
And see all the beauty that there is to gain.

By trusting in God and his will for you
Together forever he’ll see you both through.

For life is too short for our miserly ways
cheap on our love hence dreading our days.

He made us to love in all that we do
To wake up each morning and start us a new.

So pray for your spouse, ask God to be kind
To the person you prayed in the beginning to find.

They’re still the same person you loved from the start
But life and it’s troubles have hardened their heart.

You vowed that you’d love them in sickness and health
Now is your chance to show God what you felt.

So rise up my friend, don’t say that you’re through
For what if your loving God gave up on you?


Details | Dramatic monologue | |

Goodbye Marybeth

Marybeth, my little sister, the baby of the family.
A wild blonde, just like her mom, 
She had to have her candy!
From weed to perks, triple two-ees and ludes
Marybeth and Judy were always stewed.
That was in high school, and a few years before
They both settled down like the girl next door.
A husband and children just like Karen and Kate
But mom never met them
She had them too late.
Spent time with her dad, she loved him to death,
He hated her husband, She was his Marybeth!
She shared all her secrets and turned him against
The man that she married - it didn't make sense.
Mare landed a job with the Kromberger clan
They loved her like family; maybe more than...
Her life was too short, her children too young
To lose their dear mother, God, what have You done?
She paid all her dues with the pain she endured
For the past seven years with no hope for a cure.
Being blind was another effect of the coma
And a few years went by before carcinoma 
Eating food from a cup was humbling for sure,
But Mare always kept some humor in store
Her wish when she left us, was for us not to cry
Remember the good times, and stop asking why.
Her time was her time and we'll all have our day
For leaving this life, for slipping away
Our guardian angels are right by our sides
They take our hand gently along with our Guides
And cross us to where we no longer need
The pain and the suffering to which we agreed.
There's always a reason, for the things of today
We can't see the big picture, Faith asks us to pray.
One fact is for sure, we all have a Life Purpose
It's always much deeper than what's seen on the surface
Marybeth's purpose included us all
I'm grateful for that, but what the heck was it for?
Someday I'll look back, probably next New Years Eve.
A year will have passed, I'll still not have grieved.
The hard part for me is the 'wanting' to leave.
Tired of living?  I just can't conceive.
Watch what you 'give,' you will surely receive
Exactly the same as your intention conceived.
It may have been wrapped in beautiful gold
Expecting more thanks than the newspaper-rolled.
Giving without expectations in mind
Is the secret of leaving this world behind.
Then we get to stay and see what makes us tick
We don't judge, we don't talk, just observe 
Don't get sick.
It's not personal.  Whew....
Love you Mare, See you there.


Details | Free verse | |

Untwisted

Sometimes the memories won’t fade 
         All the places we have seen
         All the prices we have paid 
The memories of the happy as well as the sad 
            The people we’ve lost
           The friends that we had 
Some memories just seem like a ghost 
I always lost everyone that I loved the most 
The wind would just carry them away 
             Along with my tears 
            And my ability to pray
    I wonder how far is heaven from here?
              How many more heartaches 
                 How many more tears 
              I wonder how far it is away
Because I have so many things that I wish to say 
To all the people that I loved and I lost 
             I’m not even tripping 
             My heart paid the cost 
The reaper rode the river in a bikers disguise 
I’ll never forget the fear in my mother’s eyes 
    As he drug her under and then let her go 
Through my four year old veins hate started to grow 
My eyes were blind my ears were deaf 
After that I forgot  
           There was anything left  
Karma is like poker for it is bound to luck 
When I was just a boy 
God through me under the truck 
Of all the things in life we feel 
   We are all bound to God’s will 
Passion is a doorway between love and hate 
    God is the dealer in the game of fate 
              Our place is not to question why 
                       For if we do our faith will die 
            The deeper we hate the deeper we love 
            I was gifted wisdom by the Lord above 
                    Every gift comes at a price 
A world of experience behind my advice 
     Every smile holds a lifetime of pain 
Nothing that happens should happen in vein 
                         It is our choice that which we do 
 Know in your heart these words are true 
The harder we fall the further we climb 
             No ones life is totally sublime 
Illusion after illusion will be offered to you 
                 But only the living word is true 
The living word that beats in your heart 
Will keep you safe as the world falls apart 
Through the pain of a boy watching his mother die 
It’s never to late to kiss the sky
A man of faith who could never give up 
Please come break my bread and share in my cup 
By the time our journey is through 
                      I’ll share all I am with you 
          Hopefully somewhere in my words you’ll see 
              ---Untwisted is truly the way to be---



Details | Rhyme | |

MY TRAIN OF THOUGHT NOW AT 36

we stimulate our minds for our intellect to grow
becoming more technical
remaining spiritually slow

so we face trials and tribulation
crisis and complications
praising God, while serving Satan
expecting love when spewing hatred

our faith is dissipating 
until its totally forsaken
for miracles we pray
yet and still we disobey

missed lessons
means blocked blessings

wrong paths are chosen 
cursed to glimpse the promised land but never enter like Moses

it's hard to humble ourselves cause we've got pride
so we find a hard head leaves a soft backside

when stressed i ride 
reclined, inside

sounds booming
trying hard to decipher the message in our music

Pac said keep your head up
Treach said guard your grill
Wu sang protect your neck
Cube said to kill at will

Eazy said easy does it
Run said hard times
Jigga ask can I live
but Big ready to die

50 cent said get rich ore die trying
K.R.S made stop the violence, and listen to my nine

these are questionable times
that leave young impressionable minds
hoping to find success pushing   dope on the grind

thinking all the pain would end if they became rich
but the harder they hustle the more pain and anguish
 
if we could understand the hustle
we would over stand the struggle
instead we constantly land back in trouble

on frivolous pursuits
searching for forbidden fruits
living lies until they collide with the moment of  truth

I been there and done that
played with fire and got burned as soon as my hand healed I'd run back

so young and misguided
mama said don’t do it I tried it
it's by God's grace I survived it

flash back to my youth I was so naive and timid
wondering  if that  path I walked on is the one the Lord intended
tired of getting beat by bullies so I learned to prevent it
but I found my self in front of the judge as a defendant

five times aquited of crimes that I committed
but the one time I was innocent is when I got convicted
justice may be blind, but she so vindictive
so I struggle with it
trying to make since out of the senseless


Details | Rhyme | |

I Long For Love

I long for love. Where could it be? 
"I'm standing here" You said to me.

Blinded I walked, I could not hear it. 
Each lover lost had weakened my spirit.

I know you're there, close by my side. 
But I look for love where love is denied.

"But I am here," you said to me. 
"I am your love. Please, look at me."

Lost hope at last, I fall to my knees. 
Where is this love that you promised me?

"I'm here," you said, "Here by your side. 
For you on the cross, I bled and I died."

"I know your pain and I know your loss, 
I knew it all that day on the cross."

"So I could share forever with you, 
I knew the shame. I bled for you."

"I knew you then and I know you now. 
I'll never forsake you, I wouldn't know how."

"Come to me now, let my love guide. 
Come to me now and be my bride."

"All the pain you feel, I'll wear for you. 
Whatever befalls, I'll go through too."

Oh Lord, it is you! I will be your bride. 
It's your love I need; please come inside.

How could I not see your love so true? 
My life is complete. I'm in love with you.


Details | Rhyme | |

The Pain and the Agony

The Pain and the Agony The Pain and the Agony Jesus felt that day; It tortured His being; Death held no delay. Even to take a breath The pain was so extreme; The sins of us all, Crushed him beam to beam. The cross of the Romans; Built to inflict much pain. The pain of our sin-bearer Was suffered for our gain. Because He truly loves us, He was prepared to die. Stricken on the cross, Few heard His agonizing cry! The cross was one of victory— Victory over death, When Christ gave up the Spirit; Breathed His last breath. Satan in his ignorance Thought he’d finally won; Didn’t know this was just the beginning; New life would be given God's only Son. The Pain and the Agony; Blood was shed for you and me. This ultimate sacrifice God gave to set us free; Freedom from the bondage Of sin that Satan brought, Upon a sinless Eden, To bring us sin's onslaught. Copyright © 2012 Maureen LeFanue Featured in Maureen's book entitled, Easter Poems www.maureenlefanue.com


Details | Pastoral | |

Pain vs my Goal

Lord grant me the power to achieve my goal in life
To have pain and turn it into something good
I have pain of being raped 
It was such a shock that this was happening to me in such rage of these people
I never thought it would happen to me 
I had heard about millions of people getting hurt like me
All these people who hurt little ones or anybody really should burn 
Where as us all should be set free
Ones that have tried to confront these people, just turned out to be ignored
I stand where I had prove of this horrible happening
I confront these two people 
I was investigated by this whole thing
I pray that I put these two people away
Even though I had confront them I guess I was chosen to have depression
The main thing is whatever happens
The lord is here to guide me, but not just me, all of you, the whole world!
These two people was put in prison for a long period of time
What they did was a crime
I know the Lord wants me to forgive them
It will take time but someday I will
I say to all of you, 
If this ever happens to you, have faith and turn to God!
I now am in college and trying to get a job
Working on my poetry
That helps me through my depression and writing my poetry, that is one way to 
speak to God 
My goal in life is to believe in God, and keep my faith in him


Details | Rhyme | |

My Kiss

by Walks In Shadows
(Motif: spiritual)

Let me kiss your face,
Oh beautiful child,
Before the crack of the whip,
Before a sponge touches your lip,
Before the betrayal you will sip,
Before your blood must drip,
Lord, can you feel this?
It’s my kiss.


Details | Heroic Couplets | |

The Bitterness

Lord Jesus, I have a prayer
and I want You to hear it.
I really need Your love
and I need the Holy Spirit.
There is really one thing
that You can do for me.
Help me go way back.	
Deep in my memory.
Help me remember the hurt
and help me remember the pain.
Help me remember how it felt
and help me remember from where it came.
Release me from these chains.
Help me crawl out of this hole.
Heal me Lord Jesus, 
from what the bitterness stole.
I lost so many years 
that I will always regret.
Take away the pain and hurt.
I want to forgive and forget.
I also ask You, oh Lord,
as You return what I lost.
Help me remember also
all the pain that I caused.
Is there anyone I hurt.
Someone I'm not even aware.
Help me remember them Lord.
I need to show them I care.
Let them know that I'm sorry
for everything that I've done.
Please God, I ask their forgiveness
in the name of Your Son.
If there's anyone I've hurt,
Jesus, please help me to understand
that I need to heal that hurt
that was done at my hand.
I ask to be forgiven Lord,
and I pray You help me forgive.
I want to turn the pain and hurt into love,
so I can finally live.
Bitterness creates an empty heart
and as you pray to the Father above,
say, "Jesus please take our empty hearts
and fill them up with Your love.


Details | Narrative | |

Let the Shepherd Lead

   

When I am lost and all alone,
   It’s then I turn to the Shepherd to guide me home.
When my heart gets bitter and full of doubt,
   I surrender my problems to Jesus, He seems to always work them out.
 I have been a victim of my own foolish pride,
    Not trusting in Jesus to be my guide.
Many times I have stumbled and many times I have fell,
    But that’s the good part of this story I tell.
For no matter how low in life we manage to sink,
    It’s Jesus who will always bring you back from the brink.
We are like sheep we all go astray,
    That is why we need our Shepherd to show us the way.
Jesus was the one who died for our sins so long ago,
     Redemption is ours if we ask don’t you know?
Without Jesus in our lives we would have no hope,
     And no chance for salvation or a reason to cope.
Imagine the pain He suffered that day,
     Picture it in your mind how He died such a tragic way.
Body racked with pain and longing for the death that seemed so slow,
     And being able to forgive those who did these things would have been hard for me,
don’t you know?
As I grow older in life there are things I tend to learn,
     Like the most valuable possessions you cannot buy you have to earn.
Love, respect, and friendship are a treasured gift,
     To have and to share will give you a blessed lift.
     


Details | Quatrain | |

Another Man's Pain

A small grave, and for it's weeds was bare
with only a handmade wooden cross.
Easy to see that a child rest there.
Poor unloved young soul was my first thought.

Well I read this cross, for this child of grief.
"John my young son so frail and fair
my joy, my love, my life I leave
to the arms of your mother and Lord's care."

The back read; "To doctors all my money I gave
I cannot buy even a simple stone
with a borrowed spade, I have dug your grave,
I carve this marker, and am now alone."

That wooden cross, seemed to rise
high above great marble markers.
Thoughts rush my mind as I realized
the pain this poor man's heart had harbored.

Never again his son he will see
knowing his child would rests under cold ground.
As unkempt as this grave seemed to be, 
with it's wooden cross and it’s weeds all around.

I pulled at those weeds with my bare hand
then my flowers I laid at the foot of that cross.
I prayed "Please God, help me understand" 
as I felt the pain of another man's loss.


Details | Personification | |

Can you hear me god

Sometimes I question my own faith and wonder if you are real,
can you really feel all the pain I feel.
I wonder, Can you hear me god?

Sometimes I cry myself to sleep,
do you know the reasons why I weep.
I wonder, Can you hear me God?

Sometimes I give up on myself,
is it because you forgot about me and chose to let me deal with myself.
I wonder, Can you hear me God?

Sometimes people hurt me , and sometimes I hurt others,
but it seems you let them be and it's my life you choose to bother.
I wonder, Can you hear me God?

Sometimes i feel like I'm your mistake,
is it because you judge me for all the mistakes that I make.
I wonder, Can you hear me God?

Sometimes I hate others and sometimes others hate me,
but it seems you don't see others,
and it's my life with troubles you smother.
I wonder, Can you hear me God?

Sometimes I hate you for taking my mother,
Sometimes I hate you even more for portraying my father.
I wonder, Can you hear me God?

Sometimes I think of my past,
and that's when I reliaze that nomatter what I'm feeling now,
it will never compare to the pain I was feeling back then.
It's times like this that I realize that's when you truelly chose to be my father,
to scold me, but hold me, to teach me but reach me.
To show me that my pain won't always last.

I believe this is true, at least that's the picture you drew,
yet I still wondwer, Can you hear me God?


Details | Rhyme | |

This poem is my own recovery from Valium O Little White Tablet

‘0 LITTLE WHITE TABLET’

O little white tablet, how I hate you,
I was only 21 years old, when introduced to you.
You looked so innocent, so white, so pure.
I was told you were the answer to everything,
(The cure)
No-one told me, when they introduced me to 
the rest of your family, the yellow and the blue.
The blue being five times stronger than you.
No-one told me of the dangers you held within.
Of all the pain I would have to go through, all the suffering.
No-one told me. YOU would rob me, of eighteen 
years of my life.
That I would be unable to function properly,
as a Mother and Wife.
No-one told me, I would get addicted to you.
Of all the pain and suffering, I would
have to go through.
To get you out of my system, alone took two years. 
Two more years of heartbreak, many, many tears.
Then to find out, I had Agoraphobia.
Several more years, destroyed by fear.
Which a lot of people, say is caused by you.
Not being able to go out, far or near.
Hurting all the ones, I loved so dear.
O little white tablet, how I hate you.
But in the end I was the winner Not you.

This poem refers to prescribed drugs


Details | Narrative | |

Just for Me

In the past I remember how things were so simple
When I was little my cheeks had such cute dimples
Looking back I remember how sweet I was as a child
When I think again my heart told me I was so wild
Yet, in time my simple choices was revealed as true as anyone
The reason I was the way I am today, I did things, to get done
Finishing lots of my undone ideas was so incredibly hard
So I figure my heart and choices should never hold in no bard
I never thought I would learn heart aches and pain
With such under statement I did things for no gain
I was a child who held true to what he has learned
But as we got older those kinda perspective would get me burned
When I made up my mind that people was not kind
I led myself in a confusion that I was blind
In the past I do recall that seeing is believing
So I was the one who stood their with friends leaving
Alone, I felt I did not belong, I cherish each person who knew me
I got older too see how the world works it stung me like a bee
The feeling of tingling ran through my vain
My view of the world and people who knew me was stained
Now I know they are out for their selves with no kind feelings
Life I know is just a joke because of who I hung out with seeing
Today as I look at the world it is in such shambles and astray
And rather fallow everyone I just walk away


Details | Acrostic | |

Who Are You

 How dare you take advantage of me like that ,
Leaving me stranded with no way to go forward or back.
   Using the friendship that we had led me to believe,
That there was trust and honor between you and me .
   How you layed me aside and left me for dead ,
You have caused these hateful thoughts inside my head.
   Never could I have done this to any man , 
I can see you have no concious so I know you can.
  There just one thing I really want to say  about this ,
It's been a long time since I have made a clinched fist .
  You have no idea how much hurt you have caused,
It won't be me you'll have to face That's up to God
   But you will regret mistaking this kindness for weakness girl,
Bad Karma will surely consume you this is my word.
   Yes you were able to catch me completely off gaurd ,
Never again because now I know who you are .
TAC


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Me, Myself, and I - (Part 1)

Hello Friends... I suffer from Severe Bi-Polar Disorder and this submission was inspired by 
actual events that occured during one of my especially critical manic episodes. Be sure and 
read Part 2 to complete the poem and leave your comments on the Part 2 submission. Thank 
you for allowing me to share my pain for pain shared is pain diminished 


Me, Myself, and I...


“There are things that concern us,”
		Consensed my “Selves” in earnest
““We” fear that “I” have succumbed to delusion”

“And after careful deliberation
		It is with much hesitation
That we choose to delineate upon this confusion”


“Fact is your intuition
		Is riddled with superstition
And your judgment leaves much to be desired”

“So you leave us no recourse
		Don’t push us to use force”
It is then that the “I” was summarily fired


I exclaimed “By whose authority?” Response, “Rule of majority”
“The “Myself” and the “Me,” (forthwith the “We”), are experts in our field”

“And with much technique and time
		And some forays into the sublime
The nature of your malady will be revealed”


“So to keep yourself from having a fit
		Step back and just calm down a bit”
“We,” they said, “certainly have this under control”

“We swear this won’t hurt at all”
		Then I felt my inhibitions fall
Still I said a prayer to God that He keep my soul


You know, fact is I do feel off axis
		As evidenced by such parapraxis
As this prose that I, (or is it “Us”), seek to pen

And with my mind feeling numb
		I finally chose to succumb
And allow the “Me” and the “Myself” to begin


And then came questions in a flurry
		Answer, answer and please do hurry
Not one moment of respite did they give

They pushed and they prodded
		With every “T” crossed and “I” dotted
My mind felt like it had gone through a sieve


And all this psycho-analysis
		Is causing my mind paralysis
The questions, can you stop with the questions please

“Yes, oh yes indeed
		I do believe we have what we need
To make an attempt to identify your unknown neuroses”


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Tell Me

I'm lost hurt and angry
Why did you take his life
I want, No I need to know
Tell me, Tell me why
I deserve to know

Haven't you done enough to him
What'd he ever do to you
He suffered his whole life
Suffered more than anyone deserved
Tell me, Tell me why you did it
I have a right to know

Why'd you let him born to them
Born to worthless parents
Parents who didn't care
They threw him away like garbage
Pawned him off on someone else
Tell me, Tell me why
Explain how you could do that

You gave him Polio
You let others treat him like disease
You took away the full use of his legs
You warped his hand and foot
Tell me, Explain to me why
I deserve to know

You let others think he was crazy
You let it go on for over year
You didn't stop it, Why
Tell me, Give me your reason
Answer me, Help me to understand

You go and make matters worse
You gave him Cancer
You didn't give him a chance to fight back
You just jerked him away from us
Tell me, Tell me how
How you could be so cruel

How can others not question you
When others do it, It's murder
But when it's by your hand
It's your will, Their fate
Tell me, What makes you so different
Your no better than the demons knocking at the door

You heard me beg and plead
You know I'm not afraid to die
I was willing to carry it all for him
I was willing to take my Daddy's place
You didn't even let me say Goodbye
Tell me, Tell me why I couldn't take his place
Answer me, you owe me that much



Sabrina Niday Hansel
~Niday40873~

(motif) Spiritual


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Me, Myself, and I - (Part 2)

Hello Friends... I suffer from Severe Bi-Polar Disorder and this submission was inspired by 
actual events that occured during one of my especially critical manic episodes. Be sure and 
read Part 1 first so as to get the true gist of the poem and leave your comments here on the 
Part 2 submission. Thank you for allowing me to share my pain for pain shared is pain 
diminished.


Me, Myself, and I... (continued)


“Your, (Or “Our”), symptoms seem to intermit
		And the fact that “You’re,” (“We’re”), a hypocrite
Tis no wonder we’re having such problems with diagnosis”

Then “I” had an idea so grand
		To dispense with this at my own hand
A self-inflicted coup de grace would be my prognosis


So while the “Me” and the “Myself” squabbled
		With courage newly cobbled
“I” spotted the dresser drawer and made my run

With fingers fiercely fumbling
		Whilst they continued grumbling
“I” produced from the depths of the drawer a shiny gun


And now my life, though ill-fated
		Was soon to be vindicated
This would affect us all equally the same

Would be no myself or me
		No you, him, us, or we
But an inclusive all would be to blame


It took me a moment to figure
		Out the safety on the trigger
Then “I,” (or “Us”), prepared to do the dirty deed

Then the barrel found my temple
		And as it settled into the dimple
A still small voice did my “selves” choose to heed


Hence a moment of clarity 
		Harkened me to posterity
And I thought what a legacy to leave behind

“Can’t we all find a way
		To save this miserable day
And avoid a broken body for someone to find”


And then deep within my soul
		I felt and heard a simple drum roll
And the differing sides of me just subsided

And with my mind now as one
		I worked to get this all undone
The whole business of this stuff I derided


And tis now true of fact
		That I survived this ordeal intact
And lived to raise my face unto the sky
 
And here now as it ends
		I find I’ve made good friends
With the “Me”, the “Myself,” and the “I”


Thank you for taking the time to share in my poetry. Please feel free to leave your thoughts 
or comments here on this page. 

J. Scott Burns...


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BABY

written 28th oct 2012

You were never seen by us, that privilege sadly was not for us 
  an extravagance we were overwhelmed by, the thought of your embrace  
The entire twelve weeks you were a joy to have known, even 'without' being seen 
 hearing about you're arrival, was a blessing at the time you were conceived
For life hadn't been easy and we had all asked God, we even plea'd 

We wait upon the day, you will finally meet us 
 having the honour to love and learn with you, saddly not for us
It brakes my heart as you part, you had already embeded love into my heart
 Just knowing we will now...forever be kept apart

God has other plans for your love that's so strong, blessing us from the start
 we continually pray, maybe he'll deside to let you stay around
But the intense pain of tears and loss, are constantly falling all around
 just let it be known, we all desperately wanted you to become part of us
 
We all will love you for eternity, you are now forever one of us,
 although it was only for a very slight second, it was better than never
You are from this day on, embedded into our hearts forever...
   the impact you have left 'unborn young one'' my beloved grandchild....
                                  "Angel" 2012


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The moon

The summer passed so fast
I thought you and I would never last
You told me our memories won’t be just a blast
Ever was I the one to doubt our past.

Clouds were soon hiding the sun
The difficult hadn’t even yet begun
I saw your shadow everywhere I went
I guess that’s just how much you meant.

But even in the darkest hour
The moon was there-a source of power
And each look made you feel so near
A dream to chase the presence of my fear…


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DISTURBED CREATURE- Am I

A poem wrote by me, based on Person who is a deserving icon but still struggling hard with his career life and addressed as disturbed creature.

DISTURBED CREATURE--> Am I ??       BY Mrs.Madhavi Suyog Pagare

Am I so insane, Am I so mad,
Dramatic mood of mine is so die hard.
Destroyed my peace, Shattering my dreams,
People call me as disturbed creature.
As like mounting the pain, attenuating the drain!!

Digesting my feelings lying inside me,
Strangely nobody cared, call me sick.
Teasing me lavishly and my heart is pricked,
Hurted me like hell when addressed me as stupid.
As like showering rain, missing on the lane!!

Time lapse in journey of life,
Can hamper anybody on its path.
When I see innate reflex of mine,
I always use to brightly shine.
Though possessing every job attributes of mine,
I never thought the authorities will ditch and hamper my career line.
Falsely acting bloody swine, making my image as fade as wine.
As like affecting harmonious divine, my soul was, as is transparently pristine!!

Destroying me and testing my patience, Never wanna give up.
Transformed deviations, wanna rightly screw up.
I wanna raise up, I wanna shake up.
I wanna wake up, Tranquilize my mind.
Unzip the professional life compressed by the culprits.
Wanna explore myself, driving the motivated heights of journey.
Lastly waiting for the optimistic opportunity.
Cuffing the suspect ,I wanna rejoice by my pattern of life!! 

with Suyog Pagare


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Home of the Slaves

Land of the free
Home of the slaves
The blood, sweat and tears of my ancestors resonate
Amongst the soil where they were slain
I’m hearing their struggle
I’m feeling their pain
I can’t imagine being forced to part from my family
All for massa’s gain
So I pay homage to those who promoted change

People like every slave who tried to escape
Nat Turner, Ms Carlotta, Harriet Tubman
And the safe houses who were in accord
And peg leg Joe with his song
Follow the drinking gourd.

People like, the disregarded - those thrown overboard
And who was dismissed and defamed
The ones who were stripped of their soul, their pride, their names

The list could go on  
The full will never be told
So I pay homage to others who were bold
Like John Brown, The Freedom Riders, Sojourner Truth
Ida B Wells, Phyllis Wheatley, Maya Angelou, 
Langston Hughes and Charles Drew

George Washington Carver, Ruby Bridges
Booker T Washington and Mary McCleod Bethune
Charles Houston, Ralph Bunche, Fredrick Douglass
WEB Dubois, Paul Robeson, Ralph Abernathy
Benjamin Banneker, Marcus Garvey and Crispus Attucks
Who’s death by the way
Symbolized the American lie
You cant declare the rights of all men
While the people of African decent rights get denied
But still we rise

Thanks to Dr Martin Luther King, Malcolm X, 
The Black Panthers, the Buffalo Soldiers and Tuskegee Airmen
None who were showed any love
Yeah it’s an uphill battle, 
But obviously greatness can be done.

We can rise above this stigma 
That blacks are lazy and daunting
That our worth is null and void 
And in essence minus nothing
And of all the names mentioned 
And the greatness of their successes
No one has been able to erase the evil transgressions of a racist mind
And once you have experienced just a taste of it
It changes your perception of time
The oppression beats like the drum on the chariot
Of when it was finally time to escape to freedom
It's mine


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Black and White

You’ve maddened me to the core 
You singed me with your ferocious fire
We’re opposites… we’ll never integrate  
We can’t blend with each other…
Your love and I’m hate 
We’re contrary to each other…

So don’t even think about 
Getting us back together 
Because without a doubt, 
We don’t click with each other…

So let us go our own way…

Everything’s black and white
You love to torture me with your deceptive devices 
We’re playing this chess match – let’s fight!
Tonight, you’re going to pay the prices
You’re going to be deleted from my mind…

I’m not the one that should pay the price
You act as if you’re an angel from heaven
But, you’re a fiend…a devil from hell...who needs your advice?
Could someone unchain me from this prison?

So let us prepare for that day…

Fear and bewilderment build inside of our minds
Taking over us…we’re wasting valuable time
Terror and wrath injects into our veins…time starts to unwind 
I’m regaining my glory…this moment feels so sublime  

You think you’re innocent?
I can sense your guilt…bleeding through you
Do you live to feed me anguish? 
Don’t deny it…you crafty demon…no wonder I feel blue

Let’s get ready for battle…
I’ll watch you decay…
IT’S PAY BACK TIME . . .
Taste my fury and my agony 

Everything’s black and white
You love to torture me with your deceptive devices 
We’re playing this chess match – let’s fight!
Tonight, you’re going to pay the prices
You’re going to be defeated…

I scream before nightfall
I close my eyes to kiss my demise
I want to disappear 
Scratch away my desolation
Wipe away my tears…
Spewing out of my eyes…like a waterfall
Tonight, there will be dismay
There will be suffering 
After sundown…
Failure and glory will expose like stars in the midnight sky
Who will earn the crown? 
No one knows in silent wars – who can reveal the light in goodbye
  
Why are we black and white?
Are you too afraid to know the reason why? 

Everything’s black and white
You love to torture me with your deceptive devices 
We’re playing this chess match – let’s fight!
Tonight, you’re going to pay the prices
You’re going to suffer alone…


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Solitude: To Yoda, An Ode

Green bark a prism creates,
Feel the pull of earth, you must.

Rotates, a slime of endless hates,
Can hold me not, this world’s crust.

Friendship’s ties, isolation Deflates,
Succumbs, my spaceship, to bitter rust.

Mist, my soul forever permeates,
Lift-off, booms the rocket’s thrust.

My spirit when light returns, elates,
Swamps swell, swallowed hope’s swirling dust.

Trapped, I am, until student from fate
Arrives to learn; Cloud City or bust.


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When

It was only supposed to last a little while. 
The pain I suffered was temporary. 
You promised you would fix it. 
Oh and fix me you did.

I hate you for what I have become.
Tired. Lazy unable to work. 
You created this monster of pain
Inside my head. 
It never goes away.

But you were the lucky soul. 
Your death was quick and painless.
Leaving behind those who mourn.
But I am not one of them. 
I wish you all that you deserve.

I have something now that I cannot change.
This damage to nerves, and numbness and pain.
My life has become a struggle. 
I compete with pain each day.
Sometimes I lose. Occasionally I win

It never leaves this pain you made. 
I wonder how many more.
You destroyed like me.
So powerful being a surgeon. 
To hold someone's life in your hands.

sickness, depression, anger


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Last Kiss

Open your eyes to the ever turning skies 
I want to here with me through the night 
My heart yearns into your soul 
Burning as if newly lit coal 
I bravely submerg the embers 
That the time I have can be spent with you 
And I remember each kiss every moment 
I was caught in your love that for just this day I remember 
So what happened was a chance for your love 
A time that I kept in a locket tied with a kiss 
 I wanted you to feel, to love, to slumber 
And to awake in my arms with that times kept bliss 
I lay silient in an umber


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I pray for mother

   I pray for mother 
 
	Mother!	
You could have stayed
Forever was my longing
Oh mother!
Does it really have to be you?
Mothers are too special to lose

You gave me life mother
You raised me into a man I am today
I will forever be grateful to you
Out of nothing, you gave me food
Out of nothing, you clothed me
Out of nothing, you sent me to school
Oh mother!
You were the best


In your shadow I had shade
You called me Father.
For I carried grandfather’s name
Now I understand how special I was to you
You felt grandfather in me
Who will ever call me that again?
I forbid my thoughts to go deep
For the deeper it goes, the deeper it hurts

I can still hear your voice mother
I can still see you in my dreams
You left without saying good-bye,
Were you mad at me mother?
Deep in my heart, you will always have a home
My sisters and brothers are heartbroken
They are all grown up 
But they still need you Mother

Do you still remember your grandchildren?
The youngest is not yet a year old
She will never see your beautiful smile mother
You could have waited
So she does something for you
Fetch water or call you grandmother	

We all miss you mother
It’s hard to know you are never coming back
One after another
We will join you mother
We are not afraid of death any more
For we have a place with you
God almighty will meet us someday
Then I will see you for myself again
We will talk and laugh
Just like we used too

Now you live in a far away land
We can’t change that, not even God almighty
I will teach my heart to live without you mother
Though it is hard
I will learn to miss you
I will learn to live without you
But I will never forget you
It’s the body I will never see


Your time is gone Mother
Now you live in a new world
There you will never grow old
There you will never die
I have peace in my heart
For I am reconciled by God’s mercy
My father in heaven comforted me
Now I know you are happy there
The pain I felt
The pain that tortured me
Will never torment me again
You departed with all my tears
With all my strength
With all my hope
And with all my faith
But God gave me a thousand reasons to smile
In am now back on track

Rest in peace dear mother,
It was the will of God
Who am I to question him?
I never did when you were given to me
And somehow I knew this day will come
Let his name be exalted
We meet again Mother
This I know.


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Strong Tears

Because tears are meant
To be a symbol of strength
Even in hard days.


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Glisten in the Moonlight

Your glorious emerald eyes 
Glisten in the moonlight 
Glisten in the moonlight 
Delight dances in the water
I watch it joyfully
You are set free from the cage...
You're like a dove soaring in the sky
You are the rain...
drizzling down in ecstasy 
A hint of ecstasy is shown in your reflection...
When you caress me... I'm relieved... 
From the stress that forced me in chains
I knew we'd be on the brighter side of tomorrow 
We're glistening in the moonlight 
I knew we'd become candles in the heavens above us
We're glistening in the moonlight
For a moment, I felt your presence...your radiant with sympathy 
I saw at first glance the dark side of you
Tonight, we'll be together and fly through the horizon 
We'll watch the sunset say its last goodbye...
We'll wave a greeting at the moon! 
We glisten in the moonlight...
What if I was as handsome as the lion...
Roaring with pride and pure courage
What if we were glistening in the moonlight?
Would it bring health to our bones tonight?
Would it make our heart rejoice and overflow with delight?
Would we be able to survive this horrifying plight?
Would we be shimmering like a candlelight?
We're glistening in the moonlight... (6)
Ohh...yeah...ooh yeah...ooh yeahh...
We reach to the stars and hope we can trace a shooting star
I feel the coolness run down my fingers...
We're glistening in the moonlight
You're the dandelions in the fields
You're the gorgeous view that I marvel at everyday
When you kiss me, I live my dreams
We glisten in the moonlight
In a quick moment, I sense a feeling of endless renewal 
I roam inside of your illuminating maze 
Glow on... sunshine... 
Glow on...sunshine...
Glisten in the moonlight...
Listen to the truth and rub it in
You are ravishing like the sunset
But you're ascending while I'm descending
I feel extremely guilty
I wish I could glisten with you in the moonlight
You're glistening in the moonlight (6) 
Ohhh yeahh... oohhh yeahh... ohh yeahh
You're glistening in the moonlight (4)
We go our own way
I wish we can glisten like the moon
Glisten like the sun 
There's a dream concealed inside of me...
Reveal your light and pour it upon me
You glisten in the appealing moonlight
While I'm subsiding... you're fulfilling your dreams
Of gliding across the horizon 
You're independence... keeps on scorching with satisfaction
While I'm below you... 
Your emerald green eyes
Stared me down like a hawk...
Your emerald eyes
Gaze down at me genuinely...
I wish we could flee together in reality...
That could be a possibility
To glisten in the moonlight in glee
We were glistening in the moonlight (3)
But that was only a dream...
I'll pray that it turns into a reality
We were glistening in the moonlight 
Now, I've misplaced my delight...
Will I ever experience such a brilliant night?


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When It Comes to Faith

When it comes to faith, even pain is a pleasure
It is just about right in every one of its measures
Come please. Join me.
Let’s just say it’s some sort of leisure
Forget all that nonsense about it being 
“A Golden Treasure”
Clichéd exactly like the many notions of 
Happiness, peace, love, religion…
Have all our principles been systematically configured?
Come please. Join me.
For I have been alone in this constant endeavor 
Need some fresh air? Come…
 And we shall breathe in this lovely weather
Suffocation. Panorama of turning backs.
It needn’t even the slightest conjecture
Come. I insist though.
For they always say there’s this light somewhere
In between the darkness
I therefore mustn’t censure
Aren’t we after all in this together?

Walk down this path
I can so simply say it’s better
Realm of faith...
Peace forever...
Yeah I can hear you saying “Whatever”
Apathy how dare you sever
These souls from these futile bodies
Forever?
Come though. I still insist despite all that.
For when it comes to faith, even this pain is a pleasure.


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just breathing

        When life takes hold of you no mercy given  
        Foreclosures popular , the new age to walk ..driven
        When your nerves are shattered 
        The home you live in seems scattered 

           Just breathe ~

       children don't understand why you can't give money on the daily 
       life feels cold and The bills are unbearable to open it seems
       When there is not enough food in the pantry for all
       you feel you are losing as you begin to fall , loose sight of dreams 

            Just breathe ~

     All these things are a test , every breath that counts.
     It's the faith,  and will to live , as anxiety mounts
     In your darkest hour just call on his power  
     with the help of God above , you will surmount.
        
           just breathe ~ just keep breathing

      "  Just another day in paradise Contest "


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My Story Telling Can You Trust Me

Gun fire all around, bombs going off in the distance
It was some of the angry mobs and resistance
Father was the king of SafeHaven a small kingdom
Like all other kingdoms it fell in random
Fire started in the castle
And along with it came a battle

It was a distance memory now because the child has now grew
Many things in this child that made memories stew
My name is Mastrey, a young orphan who was there that night
Mastrey saw her in the distance and her father and mother in his sight
Everyone was loud that night and made all the children hide
But that evening Mastrey saw her mother and father die

She ran into the bushes in such a fright
And evil doers were running around with flashlights
Mastrey remember it as he distracted them 
Her eyes was so confused with problems
Mastrey new that it was because of what just occurred
His feelings of what those people did was not awkward

The distraction worked, he went back to were she was
Hiding and very scared she was, he asked her, can you trust me just because?
Her answer that night depended on her lively hood
As Mastrey was their with his hand reaching out to her as he stood
Pulling her up from the ground he looked into her eyes that were SeaBlue
Mastrey had made a life long friend and love, She knew it was true

Next: My Story Telling,  Who is this Princess


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Thankfully

God, my ears are open
And I know what to do.
Please help me to make a decision
That finally leads to You.


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My Future Generation

I can act insane
But DO NOT 
Make me feel worthless

I belong in God’s family
He will bless my future generation

Don’t punish me for
Being myself –
Don’t envy my glee 

I can act like an
Adult, but I’d 
Prefer to have joy…

Not stress…
That piles upon us in our 
Everyday lives

Being childlike is

A rare beauty – 

No one prizes it…

No one came across it…

In this lifetime…

I can laugh all day
I can make you smile
If you’d accept my 
Childlike dreams of mine
Don’t treat me like a sick swine

Renew my young heart
Give me the ability 
To kill the old man…

I have my place in God’s family
He’ll be adored and glorified 
We’ll exchange prayers and hugs  
By my future generation

I beg of you – 
Don’t kill my childlike mentality
I’ll behave myself…
I’m positively sure that I’ll make you happy

I’ll still have pieces of a child in me

And pass it on to my future generation…


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The Rain and Wind

The wind blew events all over the place.
Intense emotions and it gave chase.
Lightning lighting to show us the sky.
People try to sleep and not cry.
Wisping by the wind keeps us awake.
The time trying to sleep the storms take.
Chills in everyone gives all shiver.
The clouds surrounded by moonlight is silver.
Heavenly prayers that the rain will stop.
The flood stopped a car the person in it was a cop.
People have seen such devastation.
The road that people made was week in creation.
Rivers near by was over flowing.
Trees that were there was not showing.
By the hour it claimed many.
My father woke up and did not see any.
Floating by was a boat.
Keeping people above water and a float.
My father kept a canoe.  
That some day we would use it, that he knew.
Time to paddle up and down the street.
The rain water kept getting on our seat.
It was so dark after the moon was behind the cloud.
Still the noise of thunder still covered the ears loud.
The smell of moist water never seem to go away.
My brothers seem to still sleep anyway.
My head was bobbing up and down.
I was so tired that I could not hear a sound.
The wind blew back and fourth.
It seems that my mom and dad paddle their worth.
Till all the people we saw with grace.
Help us out with embrace.
The time was so late at night.
Everyone was so sleepy and losing sight.
The fight with the weather was so hectic.
The feelings of energy was electric.
Losing to such natural disaster is hard to understand.
When people working hard to block the river with bags of sand.
With hard workers like my mom and dad.
They make things happen that is not bad.
Rough with weather they experience more than ever.
Leaders they are they are very clever.
From the night light of street lights to the morning glow.
The wind did not stop so.
Bringing in more clouds that ill.
The people who were still tired still had will.
The rush of water and waves blasting push the wall side.
Pushing and the force brought water inside.
The battle of our hour was getting long.
Backup people came to aid us was strong.
Rested they were to keep everyone with hope.
The people stopped the water with the strength of rope.
Heavy rain and loss of homes bring people together.
It is kind of sad that this was the only time to gather.
Chaos comes happiness how true.
This is why we are human that gives us a clue.
It is our nature to keep rain falling.
To know when it is time for our calling.
The winds bring such pain and sorrow.
That is why rain sometimes fallow.








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Physically and Mentally Abuse

I was born in a world of poverty and soiled life of a third world country
The way I lived till I was five years of age was walls of boundary
These walls had towers of guards that had no heart or care
If a child would try to climb the wall they lose their life I swear

Father had drank and threatened my mother with a knife
My father lost his job and wife and that was the hardship of life
He stopped my mother from taking off with me in her arm
Hoping that my father would ignore and left me be with no harm

When my father went off to drink one night and came home with rage
My brothers stood by my crib and took a beating that set up the next stage
My father had woken up to three scared children half starved and in pain
His final words as he walk away from the orphanage gate live life do not go insane

I was still a baby in the orphanage; the caretakers did not really care about the babies
They stole items and materials those wicked men and maternal evil ladies
They starved all the babies because it cost a lot to keep them alive
As a child of that age I could feel the sins and greed that gave out bad vibes

I was ignorant about what I drank and ate, as I see white maggots move in my bottle
As I see them move I thought about how they were playing and some were hostel
They ate each other to keep each other alive in a manner that took me by surprise
In the back round I hear others throwing things with sounds of painful cries

I got very strong at a young age I was able to start pulling myself up over the cage
My feelings were to see my brothers with strong lungs that I cried out of rage
My two brothers came to see me and sneak food into my crib
The caretaker would find the food in my hands as they grabbed it and hit me on my ribs

As painful as it was I kept eating the food with blood in my mouth as it was instinct
I sometimes laid in my crib dazed and confused with smell of death so distinct
With all my might I kept myself strong and climb the small wall
I finally was old enough to get out of the building and I could hear my brothers call

With tears of joy with short legs that ran as fast as my heart
I ran to my brothers arms and held their hands to have a new start
I grew stronger everyday but more things came into my life in a manner of dismay
If my brothers stay by my side I could smile and everyday their would be okay



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Haikus About God: III

Beauty of nature
Why condense it down to God?
Isn’t life enough?


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My Best Friend

My best friend
Is your best friend too!
He died for me;
He died for you!


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Catch My Fall

God, please heal this broken soul
And tell me where to go
Because I don't know where to go.
Into Your Arms,
I give my all
Because You're the Only One
Who can catch my fall.


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Words of Life

Drowning in the pool of anguish…oh…oh…
I’m venturing into the forest…and I want to hear the words seep out 
Release these aching sorrows…I worry my soul’s drying out…
like a drought…
Drain out the fluids from my heart
It’s gouging me…bruising me to the core…

**chorus** 
Embrace the light…embrace the midnight sky…
You fall in my arms – you die so warm
Shed me more sun to lift up my spirits
From the…underground…and release me – I’m breathless
I’m drowning in doubt…ooh… oh… 


Remember me…I’m falling…into my swirling fate…hanging on the roots 
Strangling my heart…distorting in my veins… I’m bleeding so softly – cut out the wood…
Splintering me…I’m shattering… and I’m falling in the abyss
Bring me more radiance from my candle light
Warp me up in bliss…don’t let the midnight sky…don’t take away my delight
From the…ocean…and save me—save me…oh… oh…  I’m failing 

*chorus*

I’m drowning in regret…ooh..oh…
Hit the bull’s eye in my heart…embrace the light
And don’t leave me hanging in the abyss…hand me a kite!
Save me before I fall apart…shut out the night
And don’t let the dusk escape us…

I must confess…
I must confess…
I hate to see you abandon the light…
But I’m not the one to save you from the night
Ooh…ohh…

*Chorus* 

Splintering lies fill your heart 
I want to kiss it goodbye…
But you’ve mastered it like a piece of art
I want to kiss the abyss and die…
Dry… I wanna touch the sky with my whole soul
But I’m failing and the end of time has taken its toll
Tainted sorrow…swims around me…I dwell where the waters depart
But the anguish still swarms in my heart…
I’m failing…my heart stops beating
And my desires are fleeting
From my grasp
And the monsters laugh at me…as I fall… 

*chorus*

Embrace the midnight sky…catch me…catch me…
As I fall in death’s arms…I die so cold
And your heart is made of gold

Untangle the darkness & take away the nightmares 
Answer our prayers & block out the night 
Erase the heartaches & wipe away our tears
Unravel Your words of life & delight


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You've got to love your life

You’ve got to love your life.

I’m drifting through my life
As I climb those rocky trails
The only place I want to be is now
The Spring comes, me just sitting here
As the grass grows by itself
I never did want too much, anyhow.

Can’t worry about your burdens
One has to travel on
The past can’t do no damage, it be gone
And the future, well there’s no one knows
No matter what they do
You cannot stop those hands from moving on.

You’ve got to love your life
That’s the only way to go
There ain’t no going back to what’s been done
Cause life was made for loving
The song you sing is yours
You’re a one off soul, you be the only one.

You have to live your story
No matter where it goes
No matter what the hard knocks you might gain
The road might lead to nowhere
Yet dance it anyhow
When life stand still, then it be lived in vain.


Details | I do not know? | |

'Give me drink, rest, and solitude'

Give me drink, rest, and solitude--
these are all the things I long for.
Give me as well your finest food
and I'll ask of you, lass, no more!

My bonnie lass, what's the matter--
why are you all sorry and alone?
Don't be sad because you're fatter
than most, lass, for love loves its own.

Sweet lass, I'll tell you a secret.
If I were a young lad again,
I'd pursue you without regret!
But as I am three-score and ten

years old, indeed, I can never
be the youthful lad you most need.
But your pain won't be for ever:
for your heart will refuse to bleed.




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Porn No More

I've watched the war from behind closed doors;
Eyes too glued to close.
And now knowing what's in store, there's porn no more.
God's love is the only hope we know.
We are forgiven because of the love that is Jesus.
We are saved because of the love that is Jesus.
We give our lives to the Father for we are His children and He loves us.
We are loved!
No matter what we've done, we are loved!
Confess and ask for forgiveness;
This is such a beautiful gift!
Thank You God!
Thank You Jesus!
You forgive me!
You save me!
You change me!
I am changed!
I am new!
I am renewed!
I am forgiven!
I am saved!
I am changed!
There's porn no more
For God's hope is in store!
There's porn no more
For God's love is the hope of the world!


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The Risk of Choice

It would be too easy to not believe
And not have faith in all He wants us to see.
But I don't want to risk my life being saved
Because of a choice I was refusing to make.


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Spirituals and Drums

My ancestors walking in the night
using oil lights and moonlight for guides
while being instructed to Wade in the Water
to camouflage their scents like disguise

The Sweet Chariot awaited 
so they could ride away
Harriet was a soldier
and it wasn't an option to be caught during the day
That's the same mentality Nat Turner had when he sang
Steal Away

They would follow the drinking gourd
so all were in accord to go north
The Gospel Train was coming
and at the end of the journey
was a fine reward
Freedom was coming
and it was a long time coming and
they walked until they heard freedom bells ringing
and I still hear their tired footsteps running

Thinking of My Darling Nelly Gray
Stolen from my arms a random September day
and eliminated our chances to run away together
No family ties, no love, no strength says the oppressor

Then I hear the drums beat in the darkness
giving me the hope of finally being free
Maybe I'll follow them this time on faith
on bended knee
There must be a place for me among the light
of this darkness
Among oppression, thieves, evil-doers
no thought on their conscience

Thank goodness for the safe houses that
supported our traveled distances
and for the conductors who bore witnesses
and may God have mercy on the souls who
were against this
and on those who chose to forget this sh@!

I still hear crying in quilts of safety 
because I know that the burden was heavy
to be at the mercy of nature and patrol men
catching run-away slaves for money
Some did it bare feet with freedom ahead of this
loved induced journey and they made it
So all that bull about how your life is hard
just stuff it in an envelope and save it



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Living Without

I tried to write about love but I haven’t felt it. 
I tried to write about the sea but I’ve never seen it. 
Then I tried to write about the air, but I have never breathed it. 
I tried to write about magic but I never believed it.
I couldn’t write about god, all I have ever done is sinned.
And when I tried to write about life I found, 
I have never really lived.


Details | Free verse | |

Where The Next Dollar Will Come From

I'm worried where the next dollar will come from.
Will she ever arrive?
Will she ever show up?
But why am I worrying?
Stop it!
It's all in God's Great Hands!
It's all under God's control!
It's all within His plans!
It's all His
And He will provide
Because He is our Father!
He loves us!
It's all His!
Trust Him!
I know it's difficult;
He will not lead you wrong.
He knows where you need to go.
He knows what you need to endure.
It's all His plan.
It's all in His Hands!
Lay down your life;
Give the control.
He is in control!
Thank You Father!
Trust Him!
It will all be okay!
Trust Him!
Thank You God!
Thank You Jesus!
Thank You Holy Spirit!
I love You always!
I trust You always!
I trust You!
I trust You!
Yes, yes I do!
I trust You!
I love You!
Amen!


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Someone Felt Like Giving Up

Someone Felt Like Giving Up! I know someone who wanted to give up. Things in life began to “trip him up.” After much thought and contemplation. He really offered no real explanation. He felt like his life was at a “dead end road.” He said he couldn’t continue with a heavy load. No matter how many different things he tried. He was not happy… Nor satisfied! He began to share a piece of his mind… He was ready to leave everything behind. The choices that he had sometime ago… Began to “wear” at his heart and soul! I tried to encourage him the best I could. But I’m not sure he really understood. As I watched him go his separate way… I said; “there’s something I wanted to say.” “There’s a God who reigns in haven above!” “He wants to fill you with his hope and love!” “He knows and cares about everything you’ll do!” “He’s loving and kind!” “And wants to help YOU!” As I spoke, I could see he thought for a minute. A commitment to God… He decided to give it! He decided to give it all to a God who won’t fail him! He wanted to serve a God, who wants to bless him! He’s happy now that this choice was taken! With Jesus… He’s never alone nor forsaken! By Jim Pemberton


Details | Free verse | |

Move On

So you sinned?
Well, that's done and over with!
Keep it in the past
'Cause that's where it belongs.
But ask Jesus for forgiveness;
Don't dwell on mistakes any longer
Because He makes you new again:
Renewed.
Love is the outcome;
Forget the wrongs,
Love and move on!


Details | Lyric | |

Welcome to the Planet

Welcome to the planet
Wake me when it’s over
The dreamer’s always tempted
To come around and show her

And I just keep wastin my time
On girls that won’t love, me, like their wine
And it’s just too easy to blame
The rock and the system for causing my pain
And I just want you to know that I’m through
With being alone, when I’m with you 
And when you mask the truth with your lies
It just won’t get any better for the rest of your guys

And when you fall asleep
The night covers your tears
And the darkness sees you weeping
Cause your conscious can’t be cleared
This year you’re feeling colder
Your heart’s a little older
You haven’t found your soul mate
And now you think you’re too late

But one look inside of my eyes
Gives you the hope that there’s a guy
Who can make you feel happy and sad
And it’ll be worth it to feel that again


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Dearth

He squats the entire day,
extending his empty cup.
Cold sweat oozing from the pores
of his slack bristly white face,
yet he crouched spiritless,
hoping for kindness to tumble.

Desire split his dry lips,
but he stoops without a murmur,
parting the busy shoppers,
roaming up and down the Plaza.
He makes rhythm with his cup,
a somber rhythm that plunges into the ground.

People pass by in a rush and ignore his plea.
Without warning a weight, falls upon his head, 
and he collapses to the ground.
His weary eyelids stop throbbing,
the sweat drys up ,
and mercy plunges desperately
into his cup, but poverty stares.

©2013 Christine Phillips


Details | Concrete | |

Observer

A serpent underneath blue sky,
in shade of man, in twinkle of an eye,
above brick wall, in the structure, at the floor,
venom of white dove; contaminated food, undrinkable water,
misguided youth, pregnant daughter, unfaithful father and hateful son,
mothers do pray while we walk through Babylon;
on teli and in the press, on top shells,
price none the less, in bedroom and at your door..
dawn of a new day seemed to be dark,
after all.


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To A Child Who Has A Disorder

Children with an illness,
Go through life,
They are looked down apon,
Because they are different,
When really they are not,
They are no different from  you and me,
They have the same blood,
Running through their bodies,
Just as their hearts as well,
So, don't just look apon,
Their outer appearance,
And judge them,
For who they really are,
For a lot of them,
Are smarter and brighter,
Than you and I,
Could possibly be,
On our brightest day,
For they have the gifts,
From God up above,
So, always take the time,
To get to know their inner beauty,
For who they really are,
Cause they too need love,
Just as everyone else does,
If not even more.


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Lifting Me Up

My heart is on Your shoulders,
And You are lifting me up.
With every spoken tender gesture,
I fall a little farther in love.


Details | I do not know? | |

The Traveller's Unclaimed Land

He says he loves me then he says he loves me not
He loves me today but by tomorrow I'm forgot 
He runs from my love but returns wanting more
I guess I'm to blame for letting the traveler explore, 
See travellers just wander and are never here to stay
They admire the scenery and enjoy the display 
They tour the land and ride the attractions
So memories become their only subtractions,
They search for an experience that is what they yearn
The condition once they leave is none of their concern!
So how can the land be devoted and true 
When travellers come and go out of the blue.
The present is now and where he's travelled to,
But the past he calls home so he must return soon
Most likely just a visit although time can only tell, 
But what he lusts is in this land and he knows it very well
He may call that place home but its this land that he seeks
Travellers on a mission never realize until they hit their peek
He continues to damage this land down to its core 
So what's left to offer when their is nothing left in store?
The resources were depleted and the land left bare
He comes and goes as he pleases it doesn't seem fair;
See this land has been abused time and time again
Seeds that were planted, were means to an end
But pleasure and satisfaction was always accomplished
Because this land provided where the homeland was disadvantaged!
But despite the history and despite the trust
Submit to his urges is something he must.
So this time around his departure is permanent 
Lack of faith and loyalty was the final determinant.
The damage he caused cannot be rendered,
So his visitation rights he has surrendered!
So leave this land I say and never look back
This is the path you chose I hope you can stay on track,
Cause travellers have memories of the lands they have stained
But the land only remembers the one that remained!


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Forgive

Forgive,
let the anger leave.
Be Free!
How amazing this world would seem.
Don't let the enemy's words taunt you,
or the past pain eat at your heart,
but open up,
see,
believe,
once you forgive,
you will be free.
Your wings will span,
worship will be truly complete,
the pain of anger and hatred,
healed,
your soul cleaned.
Just forgive and believe.


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I Feel Like I Need To Compare Myself To Others

At the ripe old age of nineteen
Feeling ashamed for not living on campus
Feeling embarrassed for still living with parents
I should be "up there" I say
Where students have fun miles away
Comparing myself to friends my own age
Who are independently gauged
I'll write on a blank page
And spend my hours in the library all day
To make up for time others are in the dorm
So we're neck-in-neck inside my mind's storm
Gratefully excited dreams beginning
At the school childhood dreams have long awaited
But I still don't feel like a student
Because I'm home right now, not in the Union
I don't tell others I'm in college
Because I am commuting
To me I feel like that's saying
You're a doctor while you're still training
I plaster faces in my mind
Of who I want to be like
And allow others to rule my decisions
Because I can't control mine
It's like I'd rather be a stereotypical society member
In pain and emotional misery
But overarching happiness to fit in
Than to be myself as God has created
Like I preach to those who feel downgraded
And so now I must make a decision
On how to view myself without the world's mention
This is the dream I've been waiting for
Yet I've already found a way which to ruin
If I'm going to make a positive difference
Where I believe God is calling me
Then I must view myself differently
As God views me
If we're going to make a positive difference
In our lives where God is leading us
Then we must view ourselves differently
As God views us
I am worth it
We are worth it
I am not alone
We are not alone
I love myself, who God created me to be
We love ourselves as God creates us to be
I love others as Jesus loves me
We love others as Jesus loves us
I don't have to be perfect
We don't have to be perfect
But I am the perfect me as God has envisioned
But we are the perfect us as God has envisioned
I will not compare myself to others
We will not compare ourselves to others
Because I am perfect as God has created me
Because we are perfect as God has created us
Thank You God
Thank You Jesus
Thank You Holy Spirit
I love You
We love You
Please use me in anyway You can
Please use us in anyway You can
Thank You
I am Yours
We are Yours
Thank You
In Jesus' Name
We pray
Amen!
God, please grant us strength
To accept ourselves
As You accept us
Thank You Jesus
Amen!


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CONQUERING DIVISIONS

I am not made a full blown beauty..
Nor I live a life of purity; charity & piety..
All I like to do is to live with identity..
Not of being a witty but a life of humility..

I tried to be a more social person..
Cracking out the shell I have put up..
Breaking from my own weakness..
Doing best in my found strengths..

I have craved to reach out to people..
Widening my horizon, increasing my knowledge and awareness..
Learning to acknowledge fellow human beings..
Regardless of who they are and where they from..

They said: "I must not do this as it is dangerous.."
but I stand to what I know: "Inside all human beings is the reflection of God.."
I give due and equal chance..
As my God have freely given me opportunities too..

We people are living in same earth..
Different are we because of status, faith or race..
Let not this be the reason for us to be divided..
Rather we must come in unison conquering divisions..

By: olive_eloi
22/10/2013
1:16am


Details | Quatrain | |

Fallen Victim

I have fallen victim so many times
To nobody's fault except only mine.
I will ask for forgiveness and have faith,
Even though I feel like I am not saved.


Details | Verse | |

Our Only Ticket


A token of love once handed down,
 as His life giving blood, dropped steadily to the ground.
Horrifically abused, unmercifully accused,
 nailed to the cross to suffer our dues.

Stripped of all pride, mocked and scorned,
 what did He do, and what have we learned?
No crime did He ever commit, nor none did He do,
 unless love has become a crime, then He was guilty that's true!

Through all His suffering that day, He still had compassion for me and for you,
 through the pain of it all He asked for forgiveness for us, something He did not have to do!
As the pain reached heights so hard even for Him to bear,
 He could have called down heaven to take Him out of there.

But true to bear this was the bitter cup that was placed in His hand,
 an on that cross He suffered a mortal death that to this day is so hard to understand.
He was our bridge, our link, our only means of salvation,
 Our Christ, our perfect love, our only true chance, our one affirmation!


Details | Free verse | |

Everybody Struggles

Everybody struggles
We all struggle
We all face difficulty
We all face criticism
We all face stress
We all face insecurity
We all face vulnerability
We all ask why
We all ask why me
We all ask if it's worth it
We all ask if we're worth it
We all mask ourselves
We all smile when we want to cry
We all compare ourselves
We all fall
We all fail
We all hurt
We all feel
We all feel pain
But we're all in this together
We all feel love
We all love
We all smile
We all laugh
We all overcome
We all survive
We all win
We all live
We all experience God
We all are alive
We all are human
We all are God's Children
We all are perfect
We all are passionate
We all are lovers
We all are love
We all struggle
But we're all in this together
The sun always shines
For The Son always shines
God loves you
May God bless you always!


Details | Rhyme | |

The Puzzle

I don't have all the pieces together;
This puzzle is just too much,
But God already has it figured out
As He is solving this from above.


Details | Rhyme royal | |

Doors Will Open

Doors will open, doors will close
Poetry could rhyme or end up like prose

Doors will open, doors will close
Life is hard, life is easy – everyone knows

Doors will open, doors will close
Poetry is dark…poetry is light – every word flows

Doors will open, doors will close
Death is kind…death is cruel – life has its highs and lows 

Doors will close, doors will open
Life is tiresome…life gives you adrenalin 

Doors will close, doors will open  
Poetry could be lovely…or gloomy; invite positivity in 

Doors will close, doors will open
Death is troubling…death is peaceful…a new life shall begin 

Doors will close, doors will open
Poetry is depressing…poetry is uplifting…
Writing’s a success from deep within
That everyone wants to win!! 

Doors will open
Everyone – come on in! 


Details | Free verse | |

Gay Aliens

Gay Aliens


We are gay aliens
We come in peace

We traveled inconspicuously
to your world through intergalactic
pods or wombs

Our host who nurtured us
had the wisdom to know
that we were not like
other humans 

Our hosts protected us
in our infancy
and from the men
who thought
they fathered us

These same men were
the first of many
to hate and hurt us

They called us names
like faggot and sissy
butt-bangers

We the gay aliens
Who come in peace

Were confused
and hurt by their
rejection
but we still love them

We were falsely
accused of beguiling
drinking the blood 
and mutilating animals and children
to propagate our race

But that is not our mission
We come in peace

Some of us did 
not complete our
mission because
we prematurely
killed ourselves

Some of us did
not complete our
mission because
we internalize
the hate of the
world for us

We were drunken
from firewater
ingested too many small white pellets
screwed with no avail 

Because
We forgot
Who we were
And why we are here

We are the gay aliens
We are legions
Hidden among you

We are a gift to humanity
And we come in peace


Details | Free verse | |

The Truth About Love

Love is not easy
Love is hard
Love is time apart
Trying not to drown
Praying to stay loyal
Holding on to lover's promises
Dreaming of reuniting
Crying tears of hurt and joy
Thinking of you constantly
Asking God for all the best
Love is difficult
Love is not easy
Love is hard
Love is faith
Love is hope
Love is trust
But love is beautiful
Oh, so beautiful
And love is worth it
Oh, so worth it
Love is in God's Hands
Love is protected
Love will come back again
Reunion again
For God is love
In Jesus' Name
We pray
Amen!


Details | Haiku | |

Efflorescence

Blossoming 
Effulgent sun proffers love 
Clambering… 

Ascending
Above the undergrowth…of
Thorns and weeds

Furtively
The moon unravels wonders
Glimmering  


Details | Ballade | |

Paying back what I owe

Paying back what I owe.

I guess that some are wondering
Why I’m writing all this stuff
About the man John Sherman
Maybe you’ve had enough
But I owe the man so much
He taught me how to be
A man who lives more in the moment
With a heart and soul that’s free.

I was angry, rude and antisocial
I had no friends at all
No one wanted me around
I’d drive them up the wall
With all  my foolish paranoid
And the hatred deep within
I tried with everything I had
To quell the nasty din.

But then I read Johns message
As I did surf the net
He told me ’do one little act!!’
And I have no regrets
That I did take the mans advice
For look at me today
My happiness is my success
And joy, it is my way.

Now I’m a very loyal man
I must pay back what I owe
John and Carla changed my life
So I want the world to know
I make me no false promises
I just say look and see
It doesn’t cost nothing at all
But it made a brand new me.

13 July 2013 @ 1208hrs.


Details | Rhyme | |

Jesus My Life Is One HUGE Embarrassment


For many years... My life has been an embarrassment! Filled with hopelessness and discouragement! Many things I thought I had enjoyed... Have left in me... A large and empty void! Many nights, I would cry myself to sleep. Knowing the hole my life was in, was very, very deep. Then one day, I called out to God! I wasn’t sure if he’d listen! My family, my old church, I was now missin'. My family prayed for me for so many years. I often brought them embarrassment and tears. God... I tried everything else... I want to come back to you! I need you now Jesus! I really do! Please come into my heart, and cleanse me within! Set me free from all addictions and sin! I know that you will never let go of my hand. My whole life, on your word, I shall now stand. Only you can satisfy the emptiness in my soul! I am now complete, satisfied, and made whole! By Jim Pemberton


Details | ABC | |

In your memory

Thank you for the beautiful memory
you left on my mind
you are not dead
 but you are not here,

to me you are gone,
cos i cant feel you the way i used to,
everything you used to do are left untouched
the space you ocupied is empty,

our yesterday is fading away like the rainbow
so beautiful but so short,
how can i forget the endless yesterday?
when you are here with me.


in loving memory of my sister (you are not an angel but you did what an angel can do,you fly to heaven.)


Details | Rhyme | |

My Brother Needed Prayer

My brother came to me, desperate for prayer! Filled with hopelessness and despair! I reached out to him to begin to pray… But I couldn’t find any words to say! The Holy Spirit began tugging at my heart within… Convicting me of holding on to a “secret sin.” THIS SIN, God told me I must first let go, For this was eating at my soul! My prayer life had been such a mess! I repented! And to God… I confessed! I called out to Jesus’ precious name! Inviting him into my heart to reign! On bended knees before my Lord I began to bow, My prayer was going to be answered… Somehow! The prayer request for my brother Was going to be met! For God has never failed me YET! By Jim Pemberton


Details | Ballad | |

Starcrossed Tragedy

A Silent Night's Hunt for a Tigress so blunt, Left the Fiend dancing with my Thisbe's Cloack But where was She? Her Drenching blood is all I can see The Night of Sanguine, The Night of Rapture, Tonight was meant to be All Behold This Tragedy ran by Dark Energy, My Lost Lover's Plea A seed of what is to come, In this starcrossed Tragedy, For I can not live without you, My Pyramus, All I need, My reason to Breathe One sight of me bleeding away from reality, started this tragedy and with me It shall Grow The Pain wasn't enough for me, To Live on with me Love without consequence, The Damned Saint, The Angelic Demon The Darkness of the Sea, Carries away with me, In this Starcrossed Tragedy A Star traveling across the moonless Night Sky, In the mid-summer of Verona, Fell from her glorious light, I have lost my guide, My need for Life Every balcony I'll climb for you, Just to Caress you once more But now it is too Late, My Juilet Let the Poison Fill me My Body dyed In silence, Dipped in Paralysis, Forging the Will of God, Feigning the Clutches of Death, My Romeo I prithee to you, See past The Illusion, Caught in the Webs of Love's delusion A Dagger reached my heart once To see you martyr for our love A Dagger reached my heart twice The Pain wasn't enough for me, To Live on with me Love without consequence, The Damned Saint, The Angelic Demon The Darkness of the Sea, Carries away with me, In this Starcrossed Tragedy Once the Morning Retired from her weeping The sun shined into her eyes, then his Lifeless, their dream will live on Every Petal will be Avenged The Pain wasn't enough for me, To Live on with me Love without consequence, The Damned Saint, The Angelic Demon The Darkness of the Sea, Carries away with me, In this Starcrossed Tragedy


Details | Haiku | |

Mountain Climbing

I’m climbing  
Above the canyon…the sun
Hits  		the 		rocks

I ascend
As 	I 	take 	risk 	after 	risk
UP I GO!

I’m climbing
I 	rely 	on 	my 	own 	strength
I’m doing FINE!

I descend
While	 I 	urgently 	hold 	on
For dear life…


Details | Free verse | |

The Light

They praise me like a saint,
But I am a sinner;
They don't know the man they see.
I am an addict.
Broken eyes to pornography,
Only Jesus can set me free.
Only by His death on the cross
And the grace of His Father's love
Am I able to be set free.
With God as The Light,
The One and Only Light,
The Only Hope in sight,
Will I be set free.
I am free.


Details | I do not know? | |

Many Questions, One Answer

The bills, the pain, the drama, the rain
The storm grows larger and floods your brain 
With thoughts that begin to drive you insane
 Like, if I trust God will it all go away?
What am I missing? Empathy? Faith?
What will happen if I stay on this pace?
Am I one of those people that God can replace?
If I don’t change now is it hell I face?
Could we all be afraid of meeting our fate?
All these years trying to find someone to relate..
Is it true you can fall victim of a time and a place?
If I pray hard enough can I erase [pause]
The anger, the envy, resentment and hate ?
or at 25 years old could I be too late?
To try and change my life to get a new slate
And chills cover my arms and my heart begins to race
All of a sudden I can’t hear any rain
Laughter replaces the fear that remained 
and God lets us know it will all be ok
Forgive those around you and thank God for each day
Think with your heart and in Gods you will stay.


Details | Quatrain | |

Not The Same Without You

It's not the same without you;
The days are rainy and the nights are blue.
My heart is crying and God is too,
But we are smiling, waiting here for you.


Details | Rhyme | |

Jesus, I Pray For My Brothers


Jesus, I Pray for My Brothers! Years ago, I suggested to my brothers that we pray. They simply laughed at what I had to say! I thought it would be good to get together... That God's love would bind our hearts forever! Division took place and took the "upper hand." I don't think they'd listen or even understand! Over the many years that just went on by... They never once took the time to say; "hi!" Even though they never once seemed to care. I decided to take some time in deep prayer! It was like they would make fun of what I said. At times, maybe they wished I were "dead." At this time, there's a strong and powerful force That's blowing their lives are way off course! I pray that God's spirit will get a hold of them! And let them now how much he loves them! I pray that God's love will be the glue that binds them! May God's mercy and joy be what finds them! I pray that evil will not find it's way in their home! And they would allow Jesus to rule on their "throne." Even though they tried to cast me off, as a "fool." It's God's words, in their lives, that must rule! Jesus can turn around even the worst situation! By the power of his glory and resurrection! Please, dear lord, bind them forever as won! Bless their home! Their daughters and sons! By Jim Pemberton


Details | Quatrain | |

Enjoy This Place

Follow your dreams and follow your heart;
God has shown you the path to start.
Never give up and always have faith;
Do what you love and enjoy this place!


Details | Free verse | |

Every Second We're Away

Every second we're away,
We grow stronger everyday
Until that day will finally come
When we know it's okay
And we will rest in each other's arms
In peace from God above,
No longer missing one another
Because we're together;
Built forever in each other's love.


Details | Free verse | |

These Walls I Built

Stuck in the prison of my own life,
I dodge behind these walls I built.
And inside is a demon covered in guilt
And shame so thick you can't see his eyes.
God, please help me to see
No matter what, You will always love and be with me.
Thank You Father for everything.
In Jesus' Name,
We pray.
Amen.


Details | Ballade | |

Tribute to two wonderful people

My tribute to two wonderful guys

I know I’ve said it all before
But I must tell you again
About a man called John Sherman
Maybe I write in vain
But I must tell the world about
The two guys in my life
Who I’ll put on a pedestal
John and his lovely wife

He don’t come from religion
Nor any beliefs at all
He’s more like a Psychologist
His approach is wonderful
To don’t claim to be a Guru
He’s just a humble man
Yet he will do most anything
To help you if he can.

Once I suffered oh, so much
With anxiety and fear
I hated me, the whole damned world
My head was never clear
My wife was set to leave me
My kids thought me so low
All because of a foolish war
So lonely I did grow.

Then John he showed me just one act
And said ‘That’s it, that’s all!’
And I just listened to the man
Though I am not a fool
And now It’s four years later
And my heart is filled with bliss
There’s nothing could destroy it
That’s just the way it is.

No more the fear of life is here
No more the fear of death
No more that awful greyness
No more I feel bereft
Every day to me right now
Is another brand new day
As life becomes more beautiful
In every kind of way.



I know I talk about john a lot, don't want to bore anyone, but what I gained from him was absolutely phenomenal, and my main reason for joining poetry groups was so people might know of him...Peter


Details | Narrative | |

Chance

Chance

By BJ Welsh

With life and living we take our chance
Nodding in agreement to a furtive glance
Waking up each day is a chance we take
That life will deliver us for Heaven’s sake
We awake each sunrise with a hope reborn
Chance seeing an other suffer and torn

It’s one other’s life you see at a glance
Hoping for approval, it’s but a chance
The life you witness as others pass
The pain inside may subside, alas
Hoping to see one as you
The chance you take to find two

Running out of time the clock is ticking
Chance there are others whose lives aren’t clicking
Great as that may be, the chance you’re all alone rises
Furtive glances from beneath disguises
Chance that hiding the pain and hurt won’t last
The agony you feel will not be fast

Chance you soon become discovered
In your waking hours its’ uncovered
You’ve lived a life of hurt and pain
 The chance you’ve taken may have been in vain 




Details | Tail-rhyme | |

FADING INTO THE DARK OF NIGHT

written 21st June 2013


As my life... 'slowly' slips away
 this 'time'... 'I WILL NOT PRAY'.. for 
he too, hath left me this way
Month's tick by... and not 'one' soul, 
stops by
 this moment in time... I start to 
wonder "why"
During, my darkness 'and' 
addiction..
 love poured in... from, 'Every' 
direction..
I lay here now...as 'each' day passes
 memories of ..."me"... here!, as I 
slowly perish...into, darkness
My heart and soul... had become, 
God's alone..
 even...'he'  has left me... 
again,unloved... 
abandon...worthless...
Friend's and family... trust had 
them...'all' torn away
 my "fellowship", lead me to 
believe... I had a 'say'
None of them notice, 'as' to my 
dismay
 I was...right!...at the...very start..
Trust..."in no one"....giving "peace" 
to my... heart..
 my heart, back ... "to only me", 
that's who "I" can...believe
Poetry...takes my heart, mind and 
soul
 to world's....you, could never even... 
dream
I "will" consume myself....with fairy's 
and elve's
  forget the..."belief" that 'anyone 
else' would've, 'ever' cared...for 
"me"
They 'all'... only...ever.. cared for 
themselves...


Details | Lyric | |

Make the difference

As others smile u have frowned 
As others have cried u just broke down
u have no sorrow u have no pain are the lies we all tell today
As they scream
As they fight 
As they kick and hit
As they all hate 
u hide 
When all is lost when you see no hope 
All you see is the death or your fate
You have not yet discovered what you are destined here for 
but you have no desire at all to find out you my dear are in dought of your ability to scream and shout 
You have the will You have the power shout your thoughts from the highest of towers. You were put here to make a change how can you do that when you dont believe in fate when you have no desire you are able to use your pain use your sorrow and use your anger to make a difference yet you are becoming no different then what you now hate.


Details | Rhyme | |

We Have A SIN Condition

We Have A Sin Condition! We have more technology, but we have a problem! We have many “issues.” And don’t know how to solve them! Governments answer seems to be “spend, spend, spend.” But we have this condition, that God calls; SIN! Just look at the problems that are all around you! It’s amazing that they don’t “overwhelm you!” There’s all sorts of evil all cross our land! But there’s something very few understand! We’ve sent men to the moon and outer space! Yet very few reach out and receive God’s grace! The Bible says, “the heart of the man is sinful.” Without God, man’s heart is never “peaceful!” Jesus love provides for the world that fails us! He offers his love! Simply because he loves us! There’s no “condition.” His love is freely given! Won’t you accept him? And be totally forgiven? Where there’s sin. God’s grace does much more abound! There’s a new life for you! Just waiting to be found! Our sins for his love! What more could one ask? And enjoy a love and peace that will ALWAYS LAST! By Jim Pemberton


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Why

I look into your eyes
And your eyes meet mine
For one moment
I could see the pain inside
And I know it’s enough
To die inside

And you ask why
I was never there for you
Why I never told you
What it means 
To know the truth
Now you’re being dragged to hell

Lookin in your soul
I know what it means
To truly know pain inside
I never knew how you felt
And just how far you fell

And you ask why
I was never there for you
Why I never told you
What it means 
To know the truth
Now you’re being dragged to hell

Why the hell was I too ashamed
To show you what life means
I was so blessed 
And you felt cursed
And now I’m the one 
Who left you to the side

And you ask why
I was never there for you
Why I never told you
What it means 
To know the truth
Now you’re being dragged to hell


Details | Free verse | |

The Corner of Madison and Huron

At the corner of Madison and Huron,
The faint pedestrian appears.
A couple holding hands walking swiftly
As police pass near.
Cane in his hands
Walks a younger looking man,
Rolling his suitcase along
A central corner in a downtown city
Where faith, hope, and love belong.
May God bless you Toledo,
Today and forevermore.


Details | Rhyme | |

waiting for tomorrow

whole day and night i am waiting for tomorrow
as some one is going to come
to take away all my sorrows
and pain which till date i borrow 
because of others.....

there is someone, who is just made for me
he doesn't care how other's see
just for me, he climb all mountains
and  will bring rain as a fountain...

for him i m waiting whole day and night
one day off sure i will saw him by my sight
till that day 
till that day
i just sit n say...

i will wait for tomorrow 
as someone is going to come
to take away all my sorrows
and pain which till date i borrow
because of others....
                                     
                                    Neha Sharma


Details | Imagism | |

LIKE A HIRED SOLDIER

who can tell a person is wrong or right?

day-to-day each one is a hired soldier..
fighting in their own battlefield..
not to kill a criminal or a terrorist..
rather a person striving for better life..

who can definitely say one's reason for living?

allow me to say that each one is struggling so..
one reason maybe is to earn a living..
one reason maybe is to gain power..
or this maybe one reason to share God's love...

who can tell hundred percent that such person can do harm?

isn't it, only by giving into chances that you can know one person..?
isn't it, through God's eyes we are all equal despite who we are here on earth..?
isn't it , through genuine acceptance that divisions and differences are broken?
isn't it reaching out is fine but alright?

sad to say that persons judge without knowing..
sad to say persons can conclude without even investigating..
sad to say, persons who are educated will look at others just by their race..
sad to say, persons outcast and demeans another person because of looks..

hired soldiers we maybe everyday..
true to say, we must on guard to others..
we must be vigilant to stay protected..
we must use all resources in us to keep living..

however, must we be hired soldiers to condemn and persecute innocence?

by: olive_eloi
19/10/2013 2:12pm


Details | Rhyme | |

Where do dreams go when they die

Where do dreams go if they die?
You can't put em in your pocket
You can't plant em in the sky.
And if you hide em in your heart
Then with you they'll surely die.
Where do dreams go, can they die?
When life just happens
You've fallen again and now running blind.
An unwilling combatant a greying specter 
An emotional conscientious objector.
A Phoenix rising
Icarus hoping to fly
Once you dreamed so big
You almost kissed the sky.
Now all that seems like a faded picture
Faith sabotaged by doubt 
A deadly elixir.
Where do dreams go when they die?
Were they actually there
Or merely a lie?
Did you dream in color or only black and white?
Were you alive when you believed?
Did you just hang on to the seed?
Or by faith let it go
Out of your control
Yet willing to still believe 
That faith will let it grow.
Where did your dream go?
Is it alive 
Or like a mirage in a desert
Playing a trick on your eyes?
Will you surrender to the camouflage of life?
Much like darkness tries to hide the night.
A peace treaty with deception
Void of light.
Where do dreams go when they die?


Details | Free verse | |

Skin Deep

Achilles' heel 
You’re another day older
The world’s much colder
She…

It’s not your fault
They were taken 
Don’t blame yourself 
for God’s mistake
Is…

Her beauty reflects your own
Her life reflects your future
Chasing rabbits will get you there faster
Loss of faith will bring you there faster
Watching…

The ball drops
It’s clever to see
What happens to us
And here we are
Waiting…

Yes, 
Take the evil out of this
You’re stronger
She’s stronger and always,
Loving…


Details | Free verse | |

There Is No Now

The pollution is psychedelic
Hell, you could even say poetic nature
Terms of enragement
Definitely not engagement
Can suffice in describing the depredation

Fire from the skies
Burning through the system
Dropping through to nothing
Learning not what’s in them
Always running from them

We may hide our voices
But you hide your souls
Torturing us with woes
Never able to feed our hole
Scars bleed out like coals

Paint it any color you like
Doesn’t change a thing
This war that you’ve brought forth 
Has killed us all
In the past and future

There is no now…


Details | Quatrain | |

Decisions

Lord, I do not know what to do;
Please, lead me by Your side.
Decisions I'm facing are lost and through;
Please, lead me to do what's right.


Details | Rhyme | |

Jesus Paid the Sacrifice

Jesus Paid The Sacrifice! Jesus sacrificed his life for you and me! So we can be with him for all eternity! His life for ours… a ransom was paid IN FULL, This is why I I love HIM so! Upon his head were placed the crown of thorns, Enduring so much shame and scorn. The blood from his body as it began to flow! The pain inside his body, Began to grow! The nails placed in his feet and hands, The pain he went through is hard to understand. His life for ours, is what he gave! His life for ours… Is what he did trade! By Jim Pemberton


Details | Lyric | |

Answer Me [Part 1]

Whats supposed to be the order
of things that just happen,
Is it supposed to have a flow
or is it supposed to be random,
The phantoms, I can hear 'em,
Man its too hard
I cant bear 'em,
Memories too vivid
man I wish I could tear 'em.

The pain I can resist
but its the fear I cant handle,
The mistakes that I made
is now flashin' on every channel,
No lights, I need a dazzle,
My freakin' mind
is irrational
As hard as I try
my life turns into a battle

I fight every moment of
my life, Im going crazy,
The whole world's in a riot
and they freakin' blame me,
The devil's tryin' to claim me,
The angels tryin'
to tame me
I try to be the light
But crap; My worries chain me

The pain in my shoulder grows
it compromises the burden,
I fall on my knees, I pray
I wish I could hear him,
But I hear nothing;
It's just a cold wave of silence
I wish I could pull the trigger
And end this freakin' violence.

I was bad God
Now Im scared
Please listen to me
Please God
Please answer my prayer

Do you feel the
Pain that I feel
Why the silence
Answer me
Do you hear me
Cryin' out loud
Are you listening
Answer me

____________________
My original work contains lots of profanity, tried to abide by the rules......
check out part 2 for the end of this song


Details | Free verse | |

Her Final Words

"No." She whispered before drowning into her sorrows.
Her life had been a simple happy one. 
There were no pains and no troubles.
Life was life and people were people.
Life was simple.
and life was all about tomorrows.
Life didn't know about sorrows.
Her sorrows.
Those same sorrows that she drowned in never existed. 
They were never there, but where?
First to be sad in the naive town of joy.
Sorrow became contagious and what was known as happiness no longer was there.
It was non-exististent. 
A meager thought 
and a blessed memory.
She tried and tried.
She failed and failed.
Life was no longer hers.
For Pain was her only possession.
Her curse.
She lived and she died.
Yet, her legacy was passed on.
Never was it gone.
"No." She whispered before drowning in her sorrows, 
"Save them."


Details | Free verse | |

Stones

I walked by the glasshouse
Everything bad was quite apparent
I felt the stones in my pocket
That I thought I should throw
But then I felt them spike my feet
I was reminded from whence I came
The rock reproved me-
Are you so pure?
You- who were born from the dust
You -whom worms shall eat

I held my hand over my heart and my mouth
And I cried - for I recognized the rocky road 
Upon which my Saviors feet did stride
I saw the pain and His bleeding feet
I saw the nail prints in His hands 
And His wounded side

Then I realized something quite profound
It was not the nails that kept Him there
Bleeding out His life blood For ALL
But the ache that was in His heart
The pain of love - kept Him there-
I repented so deeply
For I understood
That it was He that has washed away my guilt 
For I am forgiven - freely
And freely as I have received 
I must too - freely give and feel the stones too
Under my feet.

© Brenda V Northeast 25/02/2012


Details | I do not know? | |

REST IN PEACE MUM ANN BROWN 18 AUG 2011

MUM ...

WHERE DO I START? I DON'T THINK THERE IS WORDS , TO EXPLAIN HOW I AM 


FEELING ABOUT THE LOSS OF YOU... BUT I WILL USE ALL THE STRENGTH YOU HAVE 


GIVEN TO ME , SO I CAN GET THESE FINAL WORDS OUT THE GUILT , SADNESS AND 

REGRET  FROM NOT SEEING YOU LIKE I WANTED TO  SO ****ING MUCH ,

 THEN THE PAIN OF NOT HAVING  A CHANCE TO SAY "GOODBYE" TO THE MOST 

BEAUTIFUL MOTHER COULD WANT, AND YES MUM I'M TALKING ABOUT YOUTO HOLD 

YOUR HAND, TO SEE YOU SMILE , TO HEAR YOUR VOICE, WOULD MAKE MY LIFE MORE 

WORTHWHILE. YOU TAUGHT ME HOW TO LIVE, BUT YOU NEVER TAUGHT ME HOW TO 

LIVE WITHOUT YOU I MISS YOU SO SO MUCH MUM, BUT THE LOVE IN MY HEART FOR YOU , WILL MAKE SURE 

YOUR LIFE , LOVE , WARMTH AND TOUCH , WILL LIVE ON FOREVER , 

IN ME I KNOW THAT YOU CHANGED ME , JUST FROM YOUR 

PRESENCE...THATS'S HOW STRONG YOU WERE MUM I KNOW YOU HAVEN'T LEFT ME , 

FOR THE LOVE IN MY HEART REMAINS , YOU WILL NEVER HAVE TO SUFFER AND YOUR 

BODY WILL FEEL NO PAIN...... GOD TOOK YOUR HAND , AND MADE US PART , HE CLOSED 

YOUR EYES , AND BROKE MY HEART ....FOR ALL THE TIMES WE HAVE BEEN TOGETHER,

I WILL NEVER FORGET YOUR FACE.

THERE IS NO MOTHER ANYWHERE LIKE YOU,

NO ONE COULD TAKE YOUR PLACE.

IF ONLY I HAD KNOWN YOU WERE LEAVING,

I GUESS I EXPECTED YOU TO FOREVER LAST,

ALL OF THE DREAMS OF US IN THE FUTURE,

ARE NOW BUT MEMORIES OF THE PAST.

GOD TAPPED YOU ON THE SHOULDER,

HE WAS THE ONLY ONE WHO KNEW,

THAT YOU WERE GOING WITH HIM,

TO THE SKY SO BEAUTIFUL BLUE.

ALTHOUGH I MAY NEVER SEE YOU MUM,

ARJAY WILL BE BY YOUR SIDE,

HE'S GONNA HOLD YOUR HAND,

AND LEAD THE WAY,

FOR HE WILL BE YOUR GUIDE.....

I LOVE YOU MY MOTHER.....
DON'T TELL ME THAT YOU UNDERSTAND, 
DON'T TELL ME THAT YOU KNOW,
DON'T TELL ME THAT I WILL SURVIVE,
HOW I WILL SURELY GROW.
DON'T TELL ME THIS IS JUST A TEST,
THAT I AM TRULY BLESSED,
THAT I AM CHOSEN FOR THIS TASK,
APART FROM ALL THE REST.
DON'T COME AT ME WITH  ANSWERS THAT CAN ONLY COME FROM ME,
DON'T TELL ME HOW MY GRIEF WILL PASS,
THAT I WILL SOON BE FREE.
DON'T STAND IN PIOUS JUDGMENT OF THE BONDS I MUST UNTIE,
DON'T TELL ME HOW TO SUFFER,
DON'T TELL ME HOW TO CRY.
MY LIFE IS FILLED WITH SELFISHNESS,
MY PAIN IS ALL I SEE,
BUT I  NEED YOU,
I NEED YOU YOUR LOVE UNCONDITONALLY.
ACCEPCT ME IN MY UPS AND DOWNS,
I NEED SOMEONE TO SHARE,
JUST TO HOLD MY HAND AND LET ME CRY,
AND SAY, MY FRIEND I REALLY DO CARE
Mom you mean the world to me
It’s hard to live without you ,You were always by my side
Through thick and thin you helped me


Details | Free verse | |

The Road

Suspended in perpetual animation
There is a light at the end of the tunnel
From hours of travel though inches gained
Spewed forth from the bowels of existence I stand
Before me lies the road

Like a pond turned solid by Winters touch
The road is wide, flat, smooth
No encumbrances to impede the journey
Cautious at first, testing the consistency of life
The trek of life begins on the road

It is not so bright anymore
Feet shuffle along in a redundant pattern
Knees skinned and bruised
Rocks, underbrush, thorns and ruts
These are the things that now fill the road

Alas, a fork and a place to rest
Up to now the choices where clear
Through mired with pitfalls the ground was flat
No twists, no turns no looking back
Things are to change depending on the road

Left or right, the choice seems easy
The right is blessed by being clear
The left appears to be less traveled
Skulls, cross bones and signs beware
Love and pain are to gain on the road

I have been meant to suffer
Life and family has taught me that
The left road I must take
The pain of absence of love already aches
Perhaps life shall end on this fragment of the road

The hand of God has made passage impossible
Wind, rain, sleet and hail
Tear are my flesh and blur my eyes
Bloodied and raw fingers grasp into the unforgiving Earth
Clawing my way up the grade that is now the road


Shrouded in disappointment and failure
I succumb to life’s journey
It is simply too hard without family and love
Face down the struggle ends
I release my grasp and begin the last leg of the road

Where is the bottom? Why have I not hit?
I quit, I have no more to give
Yet suspended like where it all began
What forces dare to interfere with the plan
For what reason to I remain on the road

It is not I that continues the struggle
Through slits of clarity wiped clear from tears
The vision comes into focus
There is one who feels I am worth the effort
It is my brother who holds me on the road

You are not a brother, blood of blood
Nay, you are a brother by choice
A man through unconditional love and conviction
Has purged the darkness, sorrow and despair
Saving my life and my soul, I am still here on the road

I have no tangible means of payment
Gifts and idle trinkets could never tender the amount I owe
The love I have and the embraces of family
It is what was given to me because I went left
The wounds healed and voids filled because of the road

Today the day is bright
Warmth surpassed only by the glow of love
Shoulder to shoulder and heart to heart
Life is worth living and good again
Because of our travels down the roa


Details | Free verse | |

Survival Of The Fittest

Dropped out of school
At an early age
Lived on the streets 
Because, I disgusted my mother
She thought I was a poor example
Of true Christian beliefs
At an early age 
She religiously drummed into me
‘blood is thicker than water’
And yet, 
Here I am today confused, lonely and hungry
No one protecting me
No friends
No family
No home to go too
Just, peoples eye for an eye,
tooth for a tooth mentality
Praying for the sun to shine
To feel some warmth again!
Sun rays of hope, lighting me up
To live through this darkness without fear
With a heart full of faith
No matter what happens to me, now!
If only I could drink my salty tears
It would sustain me for a lifetime
Your tears are worth nothing, around here
You’re classed as weak and venerable
Only attracting death
Your life worth nothing!
Save me from myself
I am my best friend
I am my worst enemy
My prayers and dreams
Lost in the wind
Blowing around like autumn leaves
The rain washing them away
Down the drain into the sewage
Rolling with the seasons
Year after year
Survival for the fittest!
Surviving on the love
Hidden, inside me
Being my strength and guide
My personal lifeline
In surviving this crazy world 
We all live in


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Amber Dawns Appeal

                               AMBER DAWNS APPEAL
 
                    A wish, a dream, from birth til death,
                   "Mummy I'm going to Disneyland to see Mickey Mouse”.
                    Beautiful words from a soul so small,
                    Everyday from dawn til dust her words stood tall.

                    Riddled with pain day in and day out,
                    Dammed Cystic Fibrosis from gene's it did sprout. 
                    New Zealand your money you gave with love, 
                    A soul you took and held, lent from above.

                    The Lions club helped to start your appeal,
                    And finally your dream was for real.
                    And your dream and your wish it finally came true,
                    When at four and a half off to America we flew. 

                    Pain to pleasure was over your face,
                    To Mickey you ran winning your race.
                    Ending your wish and dream touching his hand,
                    A smile on your face as Mickey swung you from land.
                                                     
                    As he knelt down with one knee on the ground,                         
                    You could hear a pin drop as the crowd stood around. 
                    You swung your arms around him and squeezed his neck tight,
                    Then you looked at him with a smile and eyes big and bright.
 
                   “Oh my Mickey Mouse I can die now”, was all you said,
                    One month later you passed away on Mickey’s home made bed.
                    I always knew you didn’t belong,
                    I always knew you didn’t have long. 

                   You were special and God knew that,
                   With his hands he sat you in my lap.
                   At four and a half he took you home,
                  Every day I thank him for my earthy loan.


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I Was At the End of LIfe's Road


I felt worn out... discouraged and defeated.
Nothing in my life right  
seemed to be completed. 

I felt alone, knocked down and betrayed!
I never thought I'd feel this scared and afraid. 

In this very dark time, where would I run?
Where would any help actually come from? 

I felt utterly worthless and quite alone...
With each passing day, in this place I called "home." 

As I got up, each morning and opened the bedroom door.
And wondered if anyone cared about me anymore?

I felt a "tug" on my shoulder and looked around.
And noticed a bright light, shining toward the ground. 

"I love you my son." Where the words I heard.
Excitement and hope within my heart was stirred. 

I looked up and couldn't began to explain.
The love I felt when I called on Jesus' name! 

From my ceiling, I saw what looked like an angelic being.
He said, "I am God! “ I can do anything!" 

He reached down and gently picked me up out of bed.
Words of mercy and hope where what he had said. 

"I am here so that you may rise up and live."
"All of your failures and sins I will forgive." 

Everything inside of me... God did understand!
With him here... I knew victory was at hand! 
This particular day, this was certain. 
He took away my sins and heavy burdens! 

Look at me now and it's so plain to see!
He can do for YOU, what he's done for ME! 

By Jim Pemberton


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When Love Hurts

When love hurts, God heals
When love hurts, God feels
Your pain too as you do now
Pray and He'll show you how
When love so hurts, how to deal
The deep pain is oh so very real
God'll cry too for your tears and
It's true about footprints in sand
Reach out and He holds your hand
In kind your mind will feel His love
Hurting'll subside from God's glove 
I know of true hurting, how it feels
Accepting a hand of cards He deals
Painful nights crying, I've had many
But God's blessings, I've had plenty
That I will have better days ahead, I
Know and no longer have need to cry
When life itself hurt I questioned why
But I survived and my faith didn't die
For yesteryear's hurts, it will subside
The tears still come once in a while
But the love memories, I can smile
For God's so in His glorious Kingdom
For Kingdom come, thy will be done
And done will the pain be, away it'll
Go, like wood off a creative whittle
Beautiful to see, as days coming be
God cures all hurt, just wait and see
My mother, dad, brother, baby too
And for me, cried like baby boo hoo
But I wiped away the tears and have
Been blessed like a cow and her calf
Help do words of praying and writing
More than once, had vision - sighting
Not just in dreams, but for really real
I was in such pain, it was just surreal
Once it was Mother/Son, Mary/Jesus?
Through Him I pray for me, bejezzus


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An Agnostic Acrostic

 "this poem is not about what is written,but what is not written. . . " 
Greyer looms matter's of the.....? 					 
Beauty fades not there then.....?				          
Flowers live and die fact of ....?					    
A four letter word of endearment....?					    
A saddened stare like where the Red Fern.....? 				    
Do not withdraw from the sunlight given by the almighty...?                                       
The feeling active of letters four much like adores.....?                                              
Speaking in second person sounds like and is...?      			   
In the prelude I allude to this message to point to the truth 		                
You cannot see air but it is there so beware   			                
You do not have to walk into the total darkness  				   
to see how dark the blackness is                      				 
Like gravity that holds you there how much more our Creator cares 	             
Setting on shelf scoffing at the pain you do not see      		                
The love that is and can be He just wants to set you free                                      
ignorance of the law does not excuse
How deep the pain how dark is that blue                                                                   
without Hope without God waiting to play the odds                                              
Without knowledge must be total misery                                                                      
as earthly beauty fades as the tree                                                                              
a dieing thing without fruit                                                                                           
the growing sorrow does that suit                                                                              
without hope of new life tomorrow                                                                             
Here today and gone so to borrow                                                                               
Not opening a door can be as bad as slamming it in your face                                   
to see where true beauty is you run in place not seeing the grace                        
turn to the light dwelling in the dusk from the womb to dust                                    
on your pedestal under your own glass                                                                        
the fire that was given you smother to ash  - john edaward beam - for The 
Unwritten contest - 07/01/2011


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Sacrifice

Jesus gave His life for me,
So why shouldn't I do the same?
He took our hurt and misery;
Thank You Jesus for burdening my pain.


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Difficult Trials -Part 2-

Turn the wheel
*******he sea...
Push aside the misery...
The abominable agony...
Endure this hardship...with me
Fight off the tears and let us roam to sea
Don't make it hard for me
To determine the waters

We are the same kind
If you can be so KIND, let me show you your destiny -
To dwell with me in tranquility  

We will try to share our responsibilities...
Take turns and share our possibilities...

How have you been?
Sorry we have shut our ears
To your deafening cries
I'm turning the wheel for you
You're losing energy...be still - why are you so blue?

I'll shut out the feeling of anguish

You'll get what you wish

We will start anew
We will start on a fresh start
We will fulfill our dreams and make them come true
We'll brew away the sadness
I'm determined to eliminate
The distress... swallowing us like a tidal wave...
Behave, you wild childlike waters!! Behave!

Don't worry - we'll get rid of
The limited happiness
And make our heart pump with merriness
Don't be a magnet of depression stress

You'll experience a wonderful opportunity 
So you may feel  at one with
Our world full of possibilities
And eliminate those cruel, wretched words
That tore apart our responsibilities...
Our activities... our reveries... our possibilities...
That brought us back together

We'll be hiking
These somewhat difficult hardships together 


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Scars of an Inner Child

You are not the man, you want to be
You said you were my Father, till, I discovered different
Enduring, daily beatings
Bashing the living day lights, out of a woman and a child
Repetitive, bad ass attitude, nasty streak
Mean and aggressive!
Fists, knives and guns, your weapons of chose
Out of control, abusive, devious
Relentless, over – bearing!
Breaking me, piece by piece
Confusing a child, with unhealthy love
Hand fed your bullshit, brain washed
Using me as your human, punching bag
This innocent child’s blood, staining your callas hands
My child’s curiosity, asking you one day
“Why do you hurt me and Mum?”
Your retort: “I am not your blood!”
I didn't understand, back then
Now, as an adult, I clearly understand!
Believe me, when I say
There was never a day that went past
That you didn't remind me of that!
My freedom, restrained
My sanity, tested
Caged, like a wild bird in captivity
Behind bars, looking out
 Here, I am today, free from your grip
Nursing, this inner child’s, bleeding love


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The Robbery

Rob me of my purity,
But once again it's all my fault;
Fell into the trap of false promises
Because I pressed play instead of pause.


Details | Senryu | |

The Vital Holy Day

Getting ready for
Passover to shed us might
For joyous future

The significance 
Of God’s holiday is way
More vital than us 


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8:15 To Freedom

Do you hear the train a'whistlin'?
I wonder where she's a'goin'.
Can she be boundin' toward freedom?
Well, there's freedom in Jesus!
And that's all we need!


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God Saw My Distress and Healed Me part 4

This question drives me up and down the walls
I know for certain that God has answered my calls
I can’t hang up on Him…He’s so brilliant
And I’m so little compared to Him…
Maybe I’m little in size and very insignificant compared to the most High
He gives me quite a natural high
He brings me back home and kisses me good night
Without His love, I’d be lost like a sheep losing his shepherd
I feel like I’m separated to God
As if God and I are on both sides of the coin…
Our oceans don’t collide with each other,
But He does make huge tidal waves…
And I make baby waves that swerve up and down
Like a wave’s movement, my life seems to have its low points and high points
But, when I build enough energy, I glide higher than the clouds
Though, unfortunately, I’ve only been dreaming this
Then, I collapse into the sand...my face rubs against it and I have scrapes all over
Sand and water do mix well, but afterwards, the sea shore’s weight will pile up on the bottom of the ocean floor
I can’t imagine how many grains of sand there are on Earth
There are countless amounts of ants on Earth as well
Trillions and trillions of them are in existence
It’s amazing how plants take in Carbon Dioxide
And we breathe in oxygen…
God is a fantastic creator and He did carve His creations pretty well
God saw my distress and He healed me
When I think about Him, I’m speechless and can’t say much
He’s made out of love and He bubbles me up with excitement
I haven’t given Him the credit of working miracles in my life…
But, I don’t want to divorce God…I must propose to Him like a wife
Does to her husband…I want to submit to Him
He made the sunset, the moon and stars
Look! He even made the planets and He healed our scars
He made the flowers, the roses and the creeping bugs
Look! He even made leaves for our eyes to see…
He made the change of seasons
God saw my distress and healed me
God made the wild cats, bears, reptiles
He made us have a brain that is as neat as black and white tiles
God healed me…and I’m simply glad He did so
God wiped out my distress…and He simply dressed me with happiness and He’s in high spirits to see me grow

 ~ Inspired by the band of Evanescence’s song: Never Go Back 
~ God inspired me to write this poem…


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Turn On The Love

Turn on the love to motivate me;
There's no energy on hand.
When work to be done is shadowed by rest,
Remember you were saved by a crucified man.


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EYE Don't See -Part 3-

My eyes
Witness your departure
My eyes
Are dripping with hopelessness…
My eyes start to blur…
Melancholy put me under pressure…
Is there a cure to my disease? 

You don’t see
The shards of hope that once brought us back together
Just let me search for safety
I’m strong enough to realize that I’m no longer
The weakest prey out there…

And I’m left in my solitude…
Do you hear me whimpering like a distraught puppy left on the train tracks?

I’m close to my demise…save me and take me home

Nourish me…and be my beloved friend

Will this friendship last forever?

Hopefully it has no end

Will this cheerful moment help us get along with each other?

Because of you…I feel the need to run 
I keep an eye on you – I worry that you’ll hurt yourself again
Because of you…My freedom is nearly gone
I don’t wanna be caught off guard again
Because of you…EYE can’t picture a solution for our vexing dilemma 
Because of you…eye can’t focus on my long-term goal 

And I’m left in my solitude…
Do you sense that I’m giving in to failure? 
And I’m close to my demise…
Only to find myself disappear…I can’t endure 
The hardships that you place upon me…
Could you boost up my confidence to overcome 
My atrocious anxiety? 

I’m just waiting for some sun
To keep me in good hands…
To strengthen me with perseverance …
I’m just waiting until His son
Leads the world outtah Egypt and reveals to us…
His radiance…His dazzling Kingdom – 
Vibrant with glee

Your undying sympathy dawns upon us
I’m overflowing with indescribable joy  
You’re a candle in the night…
We meet eye to eye…
What a sight…what a precious sight


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The Bird that is Loved and Loathed

It burns and it stings.
It hurts.
More than drowning beneath 
the ice.
More than remaining in a 
kindled flame
She hits and I no longer cry.
Why mother, why? 

It burned and it stung.
The markings remained, 
returned, and were relived
Looking, loving, and little 
known loathing were the known 
ways of living.
Never was their pity for the 
child that cried
Never was their relief for the 
child that tried

You were that lovely bird that 
understood the complications of 
felicity 
Nothing looked the same in 
those dewy browns of yours.
My everbeating would cry tears 
of joy.
The others-they were yet to 
appear.
Caring Mother, o' so fair
 You were that beautiful bird 
filled with care.

The others came and were not 
alone. Their two suitors sat on 
the throne.
Rampage and rage why did you 
come?
I began to wither and wither 
slumping along. So very soon I-
the child of fines- became a 
human raceme. 
The droops of the Lily of the 
Valley became the slumping of 
my heart.
My lovely bird the enemy had 
taken you and the person you 
were is far from near.
For that divine nature left its 
intricate self and you became 
irretrievable my big bird.
All of your fairness died.
With that went my pride.
 
Mother, Mother what moved 
you so? 
Your intense spirt vanished only 
to supplement a monster. 
Mother, Monster and your tar 
filled lungs. 
How did I kill that liver that was 
so, so strong?
The lesson of pain was one you 
came to learn.
My darling bird why did you 
turn?
 
My lovely bird and your big 
brown eyes
I'll tell you once, but never 
twice.
Pain is only a flower for it 
blooms and dies
And a mistake can be killed as 
quickly as lice.
 You dear bird hurt me well. 
Though, haven't you heard?
Weakness is a souls greatest 
strength.
You brought me up, then you 
brought me down.
You haved helped, hurt, and 
hindered my blazing spirit.
A hero in my heart-I left you 
down in your deep black 
slumber. 
Escaping those terrible nights
To go for the town of delights. 


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Braid Hairs

Why are you so devilishly addicting?
I come back from you,
It looks like I'm on drugs:
High and drunk,
Out of my mind.
The demons inside us braid hairs
Until we're peaceful meadows apart,
Nuclear wars together.


Details | I do not know? | |

You and I



You and I.


You.

Your heart blazed,
with a warmth of spirit,

soothing,

alluring,

soaked in truth.



Your smile burned,
branding me permanently,

gentle,

tender,

enveloping my being.



Your love was complete,
from the depths of your soul,

unsaid,

yet fierce,

bathed in silent knowing.



Your dreams were poetic,
fluttering in the afternoon breeze,
infused with the distilled essence of rhyme.


I.

I squandered your generosity of spirit.

I vainly discarded your priceless poems.


Now I stand,

alone,

empty,

desolate,

wasting away,

rotting inside, day by day.




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Difficult Trials -Part 1-

Turn the wheel
Out of curiosity
I'll be generous...you'll receive
Something special...something to make you whole
Though the trials you must run through
Are a great struggle that can easily
Pull you down
And I want to erase your frown

You will feel way better about yourself
Just trust me...take my hand...
I'll encourage you to have a satisfying time
Just for your own liking
We'll be hiking
Those somewhat difficult hardships 
Together for eternity 
We'll spend time in the future 
Together in unity

*******he sea...Let's flee and be free!
LOOK how nice you look!

Trample those insufferable nuisances
That dare put you down
To the sea floor
I'll push them to the core!

Feel free to walk the 
Road of Recovery 






 


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Jesus Knows All About Your Pain


Jesus Knows All About Your Pain!
 
"It's hard to see someone I love,
go through so much pain."
These were the words I spoke, 
When I called on Jesus' name.

"This person whom I love has 
gone through so much."
"How I wish to bring my peace
 and a healing touch."

I cried and wept as I heard 
the master's voice.
His gift of love is for us all...
it's our choice!

His body was broken. 
A sacrifice was made.
His love...  For our sorrow and pain... 
is what he gave!

His grace is more than sufficient,
 for the pain we often endure.
His love and commitment to you,
 is steadfast and secure!

He loves you so much!.  
And waits at your heart's door.
He gives peace and comfort!
And so much more!

The pain and suffering you're 
going through today.
Please listen to the words 
Christ has to say;

"I am God!“  “I’ll be with YOU... 
until the end!"
My love and devotion to you
 will never end."

By Jim Pemberton   


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Am I Still Forgiven

I did it again; I need forgiven.
Will He still forgive me even though I've fallen before?
I've fallen into these same sins countless times before;
I still haven't learned my lesson.
I am an ignorant hypocrite.
Am I still forgiven?


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Emotional Hole

I did not find myself to be so important
So I ask my friends do I seem distant?
When I ask the question I had received an answer, Yes
So I think that made it clear that I had been not the best
I am a friend of a friend that talks so many things
That friend talks to much it is insane and insanity it brings
I do care, about my friends they are all good people
They tend to stand on their high steeple 
Today I find myself not so aware
Disbanding my fear of regret and care
Walking many different paths I see that I have found holes
It is the path that people choose to use to fuel their rage with coals
Coals are partially burnt wood or fossils a piece of fuel
It is the source of burden and fire a rage of emotions that stands cruel
It can be warm and caring, but it also can be baring
I just start to feel so low, below the ground I keep on staring
I reach for my friends so many times I feel so ignorant at times
Just once I feel I should not rely on them when feeling I can not find 
I dig my hole deeper and I can not climb out
For some reason I am just full of doubt
I care about so many things and what I have is confusion
One person should be all I should think about to get out of that illusion
My battle in my heart and mind is not at all so pleasant
I feel so alone in an island that is shaped like a crescent
My emotions is like coinciding with a diameter of the semicircle
Not a full emotion that is complete like a circle
My feelings is circular full of incomplete thoughts, so much deeper
I feel it will wake up my evil half a evil soul that is a sleeper
What question should I ask myself? to believe that I am not so alone
As I feel like a person who is deteriorating to the bone
I ask my friends the same question once again
I figure I should do it, to know what kind of feelings I should end
So many thoughts that come out of my feeling
I feel like my friends take, an emotional trauma of stealing
They ask me questions and I answer theirs
But when I need mine answered I feel burning inside like a flare
Are they even friends when they do not take me serious in anyway
Just put me in my hole cause I feel nothing in their will be getting in my way
It's just so simple to answer someones problem
I answer friends with beauty of a rose, but when they answer mine I get the stem
I know the stem is very important in life, with out it how can a rose be a rose
With a hole to put the root and stem in how can it grow
The words we speak I guess is like all natural things we reap and sow


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An Angel in Danger

Life's gifts is of all the good and 
the bad 
Never knowing what may arise 
An angel is everlasting hope we 
long to have and to hold 
We have watched you through 
just like a hawk 
We will never give up on you 
we know you are strong 
Who the angels will pull you 
through somehow 
Where there is a will there's a 
way 
And with god looking over us 
well know we will be safe
Even tho this deadly danger of 
a disease took you over
We know in our hearts that 
steady burns yull be ok 
As a fighter like Athena (a 
warriors guide)you will grow 
stronger 
Even now we see your alot 
better 
Must be these guardians of 
heaven looking over you 
Feeling good with this is all you 
may need 
This danger none should live 
But as long as there is Angels 
up above its all you will ever 
need to pull through 
A tragic time. 
- by Brian O'Toole 
Caregiver of a cancer patient 
and friend 
Share!


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Ignorance meets Insanity

Seriousness settles in, like an old friend
Seriousness spreads like a disease
Infecting us, accelerating, our aging process 
Our youthfulness, our playfulness, slowly slipping away
Our wonder in life, diminishing
Seriousness leading to rigidness, pathway to small mindedness!

Days and years, rolling into one
Colourless, lifeless, mundane, dull and boring
“What day is it?”
“Don’t smile or your face might crack!”
Judgemental, cantankerous!
Pompous attitudes, of modern day man

Stubbornness and ignorance, clinging to what’s familiar
Seriousness, up tightness, humourless, imagination vanished, pathway to madness!
The mind focused on its self created drama’s
Fears constantly being stimulated, from our outside world
Personal insecurities, constantly being triggered, inside
The past lives on, the present forgotten 
What was once important, now, left on the back burner
Hard headed, victim orientated
Righteous, self absorbed
Emptiness, hollowness, helplessness

Seriousness and ignorance, walk hand in hand
Becoming, our best friends
The vampire suckers of vitality
Sucking the life, out of our personal goals and childhood dreams
Lose of faith, gradually, losing our way
Lost, amongst the thick of it
Not knowing any different
Everything becoming an illusion
Seeing things as it should be
In our own little universe, no one else’s!

Entrapment of the mind
Our, personal intelligence, laying dormant
Body and mind, riddled with dis - ease
Heart beating hard, starving for a substance, we call love
Numb, to the outside
Numb, on the inside
Desensitized!
Going crazy!
Consumed with our own self created loneliness and separation
Ignorance meets insanity!


Details | Quatrain | |

Sandy Hook

Today, it just doesn't seem fair
That we are still able to breathe.
They have given us their air-
Our duty to lead the life they leave.


Details | I do not know? | |

REST IN PEACE MUM ANN BROWN 18 AUG 2011

MUM ...

WHERE DO I START? I DON'T THINK THERE IS WORDS , TO EXPLAIN HOW I AM 


FEELING ABOUT THE LOSS OF YOU... BUT I WILL USE ALL THE STRENGTH YOU HAVE 


GIVEN TO ME , SO I CAN GET THESE FINAL WORDS OUT THE GUILT , SADNESS AND 

REGRET  FROM NOT SEEING YOU LIKE I WANTED TO  SO ****ING MUCH ,

 THEN THE PAIN OF NOT HAVING  A CHANCE TO SAY "GOODBYE" TO THE MOST 

BEAUTIFUL MOTHER COULD WANT, AND YES MUM I'M TALKING ABOUT YOUTO HOLD 

YOUR HAND, TO SEE YOU SMILE , TO HEAR YOUR VOICE, WOULD MAKE MY LIFE MORE 

WORTHWHILE. YOU TAUGHT ME HOW TO LIVE, BUT YOU NEVER TAUGHT ME HOW TO 

LIVE WITHOUT YOU I MISS YOU SO SO MUCH MUM, BUT THE LOVE IN MY HEART FOR YOU , WILL MAKE SURE 

YOUR LIFE , LOVE , WARMTH AND TOUCH , WILL LIVE ON FOREVER , 

IN ME I KNOW THAT YOU CHANGED ME , JUST FROM YOUR 

PRESENCE...THATS'S HOW STRONG YOU WERE MUM I KNOW YOU HAVEN'T LEFT ME , 

FOR THE LOVE IN MY HEART REMAINS , YOU WILL NEVER HAVE TO SUFFER AND YOUR 

BODY WILL FEEL NO PAIN...... GOD TOOK YOUR HAND , AND MADE US PART , HE CLOSED 

YOUR EYES , AND BROKE MY HEART ....FOR ALL THE TIMES WE HAVE BEEN TOGETHER,

I WILL NEVER FORGET YOUR FACE.

THERE IS NO MOTHER ANYWHERE LIKE YOU,

NO ONE COULD TAKE YOUR PLACE.

IF ONLY I HAD KNOWN YOU WERE LEAVING,

I GUESS I EXPECTED YOU TO FOREVER LAST,

ALL OF THE DREAMS OF US IN THE FUTURE,

ARE NOW BUT MEMORIES OF THE PAST.

GOD TAPPED YOU ON THE SHOULDER,

HE WAS THE ONLY ONE WHO KNEW,

THAT YOU WERE GOING WITH HIM,

TO THE SKY SO BEAUTIFUL BLUE.

ALTHOUGH I MAY NEVER SEE YOU MUM,

ARJAY WILL BE BY YOUR SIDE,

HE'S GONNA HOLD YOUR HAND,

AND LEAD THE WAY,

FOR HE WILL BE YOUR GUIDE.....

I LOVE YOU MY MOTHER.....
DON'T TELL ME THAT YOU UNDERSTAND, 
DON'T TELL ME THAT YOU KNOW,
DON'T TELL ME THAT I WILL SURVIVE,
HOW I WILL SURELY GROW.
DON'T TELL ME THIS IS JUST A TEST,
THAT I AM TRULY BLESSED,
THAT I AM CHOSEN FOR THIS TASK,
APART FROM ALL THE REST.
DON'T COME AT ME WITH  ANSWERS THAT CAN ONLY COME FROM ME,
DON'T TELL ME HOW MY GRIEF WILL PASS,
THAT I WILL SOON BE FREE.
DON'T STAND IN PIOUS JUDGMENT OF THE BONDS I MUST UNTIE,
DON'T TELL ME HOW TO SUFFER,
DON'T TELL ME HOW TO CRY.
MY LIFE IS FILLED WITH SELFISHNESS,
MY PAIN IS ALL I SEE,
BUT I  NEED YOU,
I NEED YOU YOUR LOVE UNCONDITONALLY.
ACCEPCT ME IN MY UPS AND DOWNS,
I NEED SOMEONE TO SHARE,
JUST TO HOLD MY HAND AND LET ME CRY,
AND SAY, MY FRIEND I REALLY DO CARE
Mom you mean the world to me
It’s hard to live without you ,You were always by my side
Through thick and thin you helped me


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Sometimes I Like To Pretend Things Never Came To A End

Sometimes I like to pretend, things never came to a end. But over time, our love became a crime. I didn't know what we had, would ever end so bad. But then I knew things weren't right, when we started to fight. Now I walk down memory lane all the time, the pain is worst then committing a crime. We only caused eachother pain, but we were eachothers maine. I thought things would be alright, but I cried alot that night. I don't want things to change, without you my life is strange. You said you wanted me so much it started to hurt that you couldn't wait, now im just another person you hate. When you said you didn't care, I knew the person I loved was no longer there. You aren't the same, the new you is lame. We both fell, now it's hell. You use to always be here for me, like family. But now your nowhere in sight, things aren't right. Empty is all that I can feel, I still can't believe this is real. I didn't mean to let you get away, I didn't know what to say. Am i with the right guy, or am i telling myself a lie. I was afraid to loose what we had, but to you that choice was bad.


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Hold On To You

Why am I so selfish?
Why do I live for the wrong things?
I am dying inside
Because I refuse to see the light.
I need to say yes,
But I still haven't learned that yet.
I am a fool,
And I am hurting you.
If I would let go of myself,
I would hold on to you.


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My sinister fits

Out of many days of my disturbed life
This year twenty thirteen is a blessing
I have ever seen -a satisfied wish.
I am now free from often fits for life.

In the previous years, I have prayed from
The ruding consciousness and wield disease.
Morning to night fever; morning and night fit:
A half of my age in the midst of storm.  

If it is headache, I would say 'normal',
But it is abrupt migraine. When it strikes,
It can make the patient seems like a liar
Before those that know when he is normal.

This migraine is not the usual fair ache,
It's one outlandish momentary freeze-
Freezing brain, closing sight and freezing quill.
'Unorthodox! Isn't it?' was my ache. 

31/03/2013


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Refusing To Listen

Everyone telling me where to go:
Turn left,
Turn right.
I don't even know who to listen to anymore;
I don't even know who I am anymore.
God, please speak to me
And tell me where to go
And show me what to do
Because Your voice is drowning out in the madness
Or maybe I am just refusing to listen.


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Death Meets Love

I got trapped in the dark 
the cancer creeps closer towards my heart 
I cant stand the pain that starts

they put a needle in me 
my heart stops beating 
I cant hear my thoughts or what im feeling

everything seems cluttered 
I stand here in a daze 
but your face starts to fade

I start to loose my feeling 
my hands are numb and my toes wont budge
my brain stops working 
little flakes peel off my heart

my heart turns gray 
I cant wait to fly away
in the light I shall go 

somewhere else but my home
where pain meets pleasure and death meets love


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The Pain in My Heart

The pain in my heart is the same as the pain
Of a father whose son will look not at his face. 
The fact that my sufferings all were in vain
Is a thousand times more than the pain I then faced.

What, for the love of His son will a father do 
More than to lay himself at your feet, dead?
Is there a love of more kindness today than 
The love that forgave all His murderous fiends?

Why, my dear son, will your eyes open not?
When did thy heart ever alter to stone?
When did my soul filled with love for thy sake
In a thousand years ever leave you in lone?

Answer me, son, let my ears hear your lies,
Face me, my dear, with your pile of deceit,
Puncture my heart yet again, if you wish,
With the sword of a hatred I long to delete.

The piercing of nails and the beating of whips, 
Shall never come close to the pain I now feel
The pain in my heart is much more than the pain
Of a father whose son has forgotten of him.


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A Pact With A Demon

A Pact With A Demon


The day your released

Will be the day you die

The day I was born

Will be the day you die

This is the pact we made

This pact is what binds us forever

You can't live with this guilt

I only wanted 6 years

Your next birthday will be your last

Thank you

You thank the one who will kill you

Yes for you are the only one who knows the truth

I am the one who feel in love with you

And you are the one who will kill me

What of your family? what of your life?

I only needed 6 more years 

I have reminded you three week after your birthday that I would  be the one to kill you and yet you never fluttered

Why flutter when I accepted my punishment? I know the pain I have caused.It should have been me in that casket six feet under and yet it was another

You know this new death will cause pain and the you will be the one know to have harbored the murder of thousands.

Time tell all of it truth if I am to plan this role then may all those hurt come for me.

You are really mature for someone so young would you had taken yourself so young 

I would have no heart nor soul


We have now accepted our roles in life when the time grows near will you


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I Messed Up

Lord, please forgive me.
I need You.
I messed up.
Please, save me.
Thank You.
I trust You.
I love You.
I am a hypocrite.
Please, change me.
Thank You.
Amen.


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The World Needs You, Lord

The world needs You, Lord;
We all need You too.
Alone, we battle and fall apart,
But we live joyful freedom with You:
Created anew in Your perfect image;
Saved,
Loved,
Changed,
In Your Holy Name!
We pray,
Amen!


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Humble

I give my word a breath of life
and those who give me strife
I willingly do what needs to be done
and do not wish to be won
I smile a smile that lights up any face
and hope to never disgrace
I do what I am taught to do
and that my help would be true
I clam my words together
and hope times will never weather
I do have some faith in all matters
and things to reach with ladders
I hope for many things in heart
and I cherish everyone that is part 
I do know one thing is set
and with my life I would bet
I will hold true to my words
and make my world good towards


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Losing Myself

I cry myself awake
In the middle of the day
Because of a decision I made
Not to spend time with you.
And now everything I am
Is falling apart into pieces;
I feel like I am losing you
Because I am losing myself.


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The love I lost

It is with sad heart that I say my goodbye. 
It is there I will miss the smile you put apon my face everyday.
That just having you kept my heart pumping to where now it is dead of feeling. 
It is of a heartless soul to which exist within me. 
It is with anger and tears my eyes bleed. 
With that of a rose to which is of dead leaves,so does my being 
know of its feel to dry and die away. 
My sight is no longer there for like the fresh of breath he give me,it has vanish. 
I am just a person now and not a being. 
The love may still be there but it hurts me to take in deep air as my pain 
I feel on my chest is a kill. 
There I have lost the woman I love for life that once told,never look back. 
But to look back is the experience that life has taken,rather good or bad. 
But that of a trust to which was ripped and torn to shred. 
It was of a love one could know and feel. 
That to which made them stand proud to say I am who I am and this is my other half. 
One that only one could dream of with their eye's close but not to be pinch for awakening 
because their eye's where already open. 
It's there the pain hurts because loving you exist no more. 
That there is a void harder to fill and that's having you made everything seem so real. 
All blocks is gone because so am I. 
That you find nothing but an empty wall with no writting there with love but you 
find a man lost in the moment. 
Because their his love was strong for only one woman. 
He never really understand why she loved if she really did but them words touch 
deeply into a soul now torn to shred. 
But his love still is that one day it finds it's way back where it belongs and he may live to 
love another day instead of hating everything to which is now just life to him. 
But to love that specail woman that makes his world go round and time stand still because 
there she was everything. 
That now it's all just a dream. 
I Love~ them words doesn't even matter because thats all they was.
Were something to hurt the being because there it really doesn't exist but in the mind 
because my heart bleeds river of blood.


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Sorhleod

It was the myriad relapse The shadows perched, time slipped, the temptation resided to my mind I'm sure I have most the soul I never once had Lost; once you go into the dark eternal black there's no hope of dreaming of atoning back Small child I cling to you trying to savor the innocence When I could believe in everything again I tried All along to search for the truth But " the truth" is something that the truth eradicated I want to be ignorant again Can't face reality again Cease the pain that the pills can't heal Evaporate the blood that negates the strife Let me believe in everything again Break the fear Remove the pins of reality And I still wonder why And I still wonder why "forgive" makes me cry I can't make it stopThe razor beckons my name The scars and all their Shame... Find a way to pierce my serpent heart Through the iron membrane it's bleeding, I know When I have no cigarettes to burn When I have no more knowledge to Learn When I have no more xanax To cause concern I've dried out My heart is loosing it's touch There's no way out The abuse and abyss has sealed me Cease the pain that the pills can't heal Evaporate the blood that negates the strife Let me believe in everything again Break the fearRemove the pins of reality And I still wonder why And I still wonder why "forgive"makes me cry I've dried out My heart is loosing it's touch There's no way out The abuse and abyss has sealed me I've dried out tMy heart is loosing it's touch There's no way out The abuse and abyss has sealed me


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EYE Don't See -Part 4-

My heart is beating with upbeat delight 
You astound me…in every shape and form 
My spirit is dancing with unbreakable might
You surprise me…when you take my hand
And pull me outtah my jail-like dorm

And He dismisses me from my solitude…
My eyes are glistening with bliss… 
And I’m far from my demise… 
Only to find that there’s no need to feel helpless

Why do you spoil me rotten with your fatherly affection?

Just protect me from any harm 
Let me make my own decisions…
To see the results in the long run 

You prize me as if I’m cherished like your carefree child
You don’t understand – I’m TOO foolish and wild
I haven’t even reached to full maturity 
But how eye hope to see myself grow and be set free
From the world’s mayhem
Is there a solution to this problem?

And I’m left with no answer…
My eyes are eager to see…another bright day 
And the night is coming to haunt me… 
I find myself slowly disappearing from sight…
When will God give me a purpose to fight? 
When will He feed me His awesome might? 

Just support me…especially during my downfalls
Please answer my calls!

And I’m left to venture off into His path…

Eye can’t escape my terrible nightmares 
Consider my calls of acceptance…my grief weighs a ton
Let me pour forth my tears – 
Do me a favor and cast away my fears
Steer me away from disorder and confusion

Eye can see you’re making great progress
You’re heading towards a brighter, superb future…

My eyes 
No longer witness oblivion 
My eyes
Looks beyond the earthly pain…
bEyOnD the affliction 

I spot a rope in the distance. . . . . 

Push aside the waves…and let me
Grab it this instant!
God feeds me His love…and treats me
Like a newborn infant!

Eye see my Father with brand-new eyes  
I feel rare content
And I feel hardly any resentment

Eye 
cherish 
that 
REMARKABLE 
moment 


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Midnight Skies

Midnight Cries In midnight skies the cries of love drift off to sleep in endless love. For he who heard them. Sent them hope, that God created a world for them. For us to see and bare good times. For no more hurt and devishlish crimes. For the earth which once was good. Is soured and torn. There are no morals or dreams no more. Or hope of good things when suffering soars. For they are crushed by his vast sword. For he who has the greater sin. He has carried and been burdened with. He has been forgotten. In times like these. Because people hearts bleed with disease. For they have burdened him with more sin. They have forgotten the pain he is in. For he so carried his cross with pride. A younge man who was destined to die. No matter what the world does think. This man did live before we did. We have lost our way in darkened times. Like lost sheep we have roamed, away from him. If youd only listen and help to carry his cross. Take the blame for things done past. Change our ways for hope to last. We wont do that out of pride. When he is denied. I feel for him. I pick his cross up and help him off the ground. For he is my brother. Who I have found. He has carried that cross. No man deserved his life in such a lose. Tormented and torturded to no extent. He didnt look like a mere man in the end. He coutinued to stand even after he fell. Showing me the strength of Heaven and hell. For a man so strong, so bold and kind. Showed me what we can do as man kind. He gave his life for everyone who reads this. For those who can not see. Do not be blind Find this man, for he needs you. He gave his life to save you. With your help, you raise his cross. You heal that burden of love. That has been lost. Ease his pain and find your way. For Heaven is a start and hell is a step away.


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There's A Healing Jesus


There’s a healing Jesus!  
He’s alive today!
He’s here now!  And can take
 all sickness away!

There’s a loving Jesus!  
He can cleanse your soul!
He is more faithful, than 
you will every know!

There’s a merciful Jesus!  
He can change you within!
By his blood, you can know 
you’re born again!

There’s a powerful Jesus!
 He alone reigns supreme!
He’s the alpha and omega!  
And can do anything!

There’s a gracious Jesus! 
 He’s so loving and kind!
His dedication to us all, 
has stood the test of time!

Won’t you come to Jesus! 
 And receive him too?
He’s knocking at your heart’s door…  
Waiting for YOU!

Won’t you experience Jesus!  
And all he has to give!
He can make you a new person!  
Each day that you live!

By Jim Pemberton


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My renewed bucket list

holding the steering-wheel after a great day with friends touched by enriched with marvelous memories on the backseat a gift-filled hearted creel approaching a round a bout cheerful music pumped up not too loud the feeling of a sudden collision the sound of clashing cars the vision of crashed cars hardly an impact at first sight surfaces of steel undamaged internal fear and fright for a different side driving back in an unknown body holding on to a steering wheel and a navigation-voice hardly able to stay on track with lost rejoice experts talk and tell car's steel-bars need severe bending doors need wrenching a car almost a total loss experts talk and tell driver's spine and neck need severe bending and wrenching shoulders are dismayed a body damaged but not a total loss chained since the momentum and its echo of the clash a minimized world resonates every single day in an overriding way holding on to a new bucket list minimized by fate's unexpected cruel fist a wheel-clamped driver with a quartered back that ruffles and shuffles a shaken neck with loosened ends no longer a fence nor a defense for this new kind of pain drives me so often insane a short walk more than one little step too much and too far asking instead of doing stay put instead of going my own way forced to take each and every step one at the time fight and wait hardworker's sweat and another date with devil's lawyer until the day all will be fine again when I will defenitively walk with my dog my usual so familiar rounds on those earlier so nearby grounds I still miss so deeply ©Ellie Daphne


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EYE Don't See -Part 1-

My eyes
Pour forth feelings
That I’ve felt in the past
They make my heart ache…
Take it all away…
Oh my God…
They’re making me sink in dismay

When will they break away?
When will they give me a break?

And I’m left in my solitude…
Do you hear me weeping?
And I’m close to my demise…
Only to find myself disappear…
When will peace draw near?

Eye don’t see
A happy ending in this scene 

My eyes
Journeys into the unknown
Who knows what will happen…
They’re like hidden treasure…
They’re buried far below…

And I’m left in my solitude…
My eye’s weeping…
And I’m close to my demise…
Only to find myself disappear…
When will peace draw near? 

Oh my God…
They’re driving me insane
When will they see my reflection?
When will they heal the infection?

Eye don’t feel
Raindrops of hope and relief 
All I feel…is grief…
Eye sense no peace…

And I’m left in my solitude…
My eye’s sagging…from endless mourning  
And I’m close to my demise… 
Only to find myself disappear…
When will peace draw near?

Does He hear
My supplications?
Does He sense 
My fear?

My eyes
Conceals the tears that dare to spew out
I feel trapped and lost without a doubt…
They erase my delight…
They seek my hurt…
Oh my God…
They’re casting me away into the perilous sea

And I’m left in my solitude…
My eye’s weeping…
And I’m close to my demise…
Only to find myself disappear…
When will peace throw out my fear?

Eye don’t see
A ship in sight…to save me from my demise
My lifeless body...
Drifts away in the wild ocean...
Without a sound...
Without emotion...

Eye don’t see
A rope to hold on to…
My hope for peace
Has drowned…


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EYE Don't See -Part 2-

My eyes
Refuse to see tragedy
My eyes
Marinate in dread…unable to embrace ecstasy 

And I’m left in my solitude…
My eye’s sagging…from endless mourning  
And I’m close to my demise… 
Only to find myself disappear…
When will peace draw near?

You don’t see 
What damage you’ve done
Just let me be
Leave me alone…hand me a gun

I yearn for unspoiled glory
To make me feel perfect once more
I yearn for flawless serenity
To make me feel no regret…don’t ignore
My calls…don’t hang up on me

You don’t see 
What damage you’ve done
Just hear my plea
Listen to my excruciating cries…
Listen to the truth, not the malicious lies  
Our journey has just begun   

And I’m left in my solitude…
Do you hear me weeping?
And I’m close to my demise…
Only to find myself disappear…
When will peace draw near?

Eye can’t handle the stress
Let me release my horrendous distress
Eye can see you making that same mistake
At least MY life isn’t at stake

And I’m left in my solitude…
My eye’s weeping…do You feel my lament
And I’m close to my demise…
Only to find myself disappear…Stepped on like cement
I’m aching with discontent… I abhor this torment    
When will peace scrub off my fear?

I can’t believe my eyes
Your guiltiness flows into me…
I can’t believe I fell for your lies
Your heartless action rape my mind…you don’t see
What my EYES see…

You’ll never see 
How much pressure you put me under
Unchain me from this chamber
And watch me flee…

When will you be set free?


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Sliding Down

I’m hoping for my dreams to become a reality
I’m hoping for a phase of gratitude
I’m rejecting my hopeless fate
I’m accepting your side of the story…but don’t intrude 

Unexpectedly, I believe in love in first sight
I grab the rope for extra support
It burns like a vertical line of fire
I’m unable to climb, but I seem too far from my desire 

I’m sliding down the rope, hanging from heaven 
They’re distraught by my absence
They’re cheering for me from down below
I’m sliding down… 

I cherish you like my own belongings
I designed you on my bedroom wall
I have you displayed deep in my heart
Believe me – you’ll never split it apart 

Every day I long for your touch – you changed my life around
My heart is blazing like the zealous sun…I prize my freedom and progress
The world is spinning endlessly as I kneel upon my knees 
And I imagine the memories we share with each other 

I’m sliding down the rope, hanging from heaven 
They’re distraught by my absence
They’re cheering for me from down below
I’m sliding down…

When I reflect upon the joyous times,
My heart never fails
To pound vigorously for you
I’m sliding down 
I’m looking forward to spending the rest of my life with you 

I see the light in your eyes
I don’t see an insidious nature in you…
I wish I hadn't believed in the lies
I never felt like a hopeless victim until I gave in to the darkness 

I’m sliding down the rope, hanging from heaven 
They’re distraught by my absence
They’re cheering for me from down below
I’m sliding down…

I’m glad I've met you in the first place
We’re a perfect match – 
Don’t deny it…you made me feel handsome
We’re on the road of victory
We’re making great progress
We’re hanging on the edge,
But we were rescued 
From sliding down…

At least we’re kept ourselves alive……


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Restore the Walls of Jericho

Blasphemy…cloud over their hearts of gold
Their value gradually diminishes…their weapons turn to mold
Serenity…deserted them and neglected them like orphans 
Their joy rapidly wears out…they mislaid their abundant portions

They yearn,
“RESTORE the walls of Jericho!”

Anguish…shadows over their dwelling, sacred place 
Their weaknesses manipulate them – they’re the definition of disgrace
Danger…defeats them and tarnished them as if they were worthless
Their prosperity shattered straightaway! REBUILD our merriness!

They plead and pray,
“Dona nobis pacem…”  

Hear our hesitation and supplication…we’re beneath the bricks and remains
We’re buried alive literally! We’re becoming one with the ground
Fear and despair erases our soothing dreams…we’re getting washed away in the drains
We’re searching for shelter…we’re getting hunted down – we’re barely surviving 

They churn…
They coil…
They drift away…
They spoil…
In their miseries…
Does He hear their pleas?

“SAVE ME!”
“Bestow blessings upon us!”
Are you ignoring us deliberately?
 “Give us a helping hand
And lead us to the promise land!”

Misfortune unravels in this city of bafflement
Their strengths repaired our souls…we’re the definition of bravery! 
Desolation and disbelief demolishes the walls of Jericho…
Does anyone sense their resentment?
Their charity transformed to greed suddenly – 
Their lack of optimism and gratitude  
Buried them down in captivity
 

How can you bear their poverty? 
How can He save them from destruction and pity?

They whisper on His Holy Hill,
“Dona…Nobis…Pacem…” 

Don’t let the battle overthrow ’em!


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The Last Hour of the Christ

I wear the crown of hatred
misunderstanding and despair upon my hair
upon my back a wooden cross I bare
I know not why I’m hated so
all the people seemed to love me just a week ago

my skin is cut from head to toe
from whips of leather by men who wish to see me die
I spoke the truth for all the people to understand
my words of truth where words to set man free
from degradation hate and hell to live in harmony
for the rest of history

I cured the sick and healed the blind
with the touch of my own hand
I’ve walked on water and walked on sand
to preach and bring my truth through out the land 

people came from all around 
and would sit for hours upon the ground
I once had twelve good men who followed me around
now there’s only eleven one man let me down

my words have been mistaken
my God he has forsaken 
for that my life they’re taken
I believe that I have failed 
as my hands and feet are nailed upon this wooden cross
as they raise me in the air
all their sins I know I must bare

I want to scream not fair not fair
I’m just a young man I only wanted to teach
there are so many more people that I wanted to reach
my age is only thirty three
I pray my God
that they the people will remember me

written by Dennis H. Davis 
This poem was written from the human aspect of Jesus Christ. I wrote this poem with no effort what so ever it was as though it was being told to me. I watched my hand move across the page with a purpose a message I believe Jesus wanted this poem written.


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Protect Me As I Sleep

Nobody 
Knows my real name
‘Angel’ 
Is what I go by
I am freezing cold
I don’t have money
Just, the clothes on my back
I am a walking wardrobe
I am lonely
I smell like crap
I am starving hungry
I can’t find any shelter
My clothes are drenched
I look like a drowned rat!
Violence
Upon women
Is classed normal
Around here!
I wonder...
If
I will survive
Another day?
Only
To wake up
And
Do this
All over, again!
“Protect me tonight
As,I lay my head to rest”
“I love you, dear God”

“Goodnight”


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Hypocrite

I am a hypocrite and look what I just did:
I fell into my darkest pit; now, again, and again.
I thought that I was strong enough to live the truths I said;
Now I realized I'm much too weak; a fool too ashamed to raise his head.
God, please save me, please forgive me, and please give me strength. 
I love You.
I thank You.
I am forever changed.


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Our Divine Haven

This town was the place we used to call our haven 
You don’t remember which road we’ve driven on 
The stars were shining against your cherished soul 
You’re a part of my belongings 
You’re ascending above the ground 
The peace is still like hidden treasure – it’s bound to be found

I believe in you…I put my faith in you
After the miracles you’ve performed 
You don’t agree with what you truly are 
The sky is grieving 
You jump from puddle to puddle
You’re struggling to meet your destiny  
Even if your body is saturated in sweat
You must keep your head above the sea

Follow me and I’ll lead you to divine haven 
Forgive the past that embraces you with remorse and think upon our jubilant future
It’s tempting to just give up and turn around 
I could tell you've been stressing out 
But rest your head on my shoulders and let loose your strain on me  

Each melody is an exquisite sound that bounces into our ears
Commotion and strife will cease and your heart will be free
We’ll flee  together…despite the unwholesome weather 
The voyage has just begun…hold my hand and we’ll rise like the sun
Trust me…we will be strengthened and well-equipped before we take that road of victory  

Follow me and I’ll lead you to divine haven 
Forgive the past that embraces you with remorse and think upon our jubilant future
It’s tempting to just give up and turn around 
You’d rather be drifting away and never be seen again 
I wanna change your mind and erase your frown
Take your mind off of the distressful past
Let loose your strain on me  

Hey! I know you’re stronger than you realize
You’re not a failure – don’t be disheartened  
Don’t worry…you and I will earn our future prize 
This mess will clear up in a moment
Just stay by my side and never depart 
From the light… I promise that we’ll endure till the end
Just stay nearby and our hope won’t tear apart
We are willing to do anything to attain our wishes and delight  
Let’s take action and snatch our glory before our time is up 

Follow me and I’ll lead you to divine haven 
Forgive the past that embraces you with remorse and think upon our jubilant future
It’s tempting to just give up and turn around 
You've been trying to keep a steady pace 
But rest your head on my shoulders and let loose your strain on me

Let loose your stress on me…
Don’t be under pressure
Let me handle your anxiety…
Reach towards our divine haven
Do you need a helping hand? 

I wish you a carefree 
Future


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We Search For Direction

In the beginning of plight,
We venture off and take action
Beyond the mysteries of the day and night
We search diligently for safety and direction 

The aftermath of our flight
Brought us good luck and success
If we look forward...we'll eventually find light
We must get out of this cave...
Or we'll be stomped on by distress

You're our journey's end
Where is the escape route?
Beyond the present anguish, our spirits will ascend
With God's help, we'll find a way out...
No doubt


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I Can't Believe It's Really Over This Time

I really hate this feeling, sometimes I wish I could stop breathing. I don't wanna try, just leave me here to die. You were the thing that made my life living for, but your no longer mine anymore. I feel so much pain, sometimes I believe I'm going insane. I'm missing what we had, although it was bad. I'm always walking down memory lane, why can't you see my pain? I know people change, &&' things get strange. I guess I gotta face it, she's my new replacment. I can't believe it's really over this time, I feel as if i have commited a crime. I live in a world of sorrow, so I don't ever worry about tomorrow. I didn't even have time to cry, because i had already said bye. I feel like I'm digging a deeper whole, so I'm hoping Jesus will take control. I'm sorry for my dumb mistake, but baby now I'm wide awake.


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A Prayer For Healing

Father,
Do not let me be the demon I have created me to be.
I am the product of myself and my negativity.
I trust You.
I love You.
I thank You.
In Your name,
We pray,
Amen.


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Memories Made

The coldest white had fell
Surrounding all the feet of those behind
The day turned into hours
Just in the mind
Did the gift appear in night?
Or were dreams reality?
Did it come from karma’s hands?
It drifts from sanity

The trek towards that happy place
You’ve been there many times
Something was different now
It held a horrible surprise
The box wasn’t full of life and sound
The ashes of memories made were here
Taking longer to twist the knife
Left remains of a child now in tears

Standing still you couldn’t breath
Excuses flying in your mind
Trying to figure out the scene
Hoping there’s time
You look up to see
Expectant eyes for the last time
You wish you could keep
But it’s the saddest of a smile 


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Pawn

And so do I fall, and so do I fail,
Falling so deeply into this destructive void,
Nothing but ash and specs of dust that were once my brittle bones and scarred flesh.

To not know what is ahead,
How maddening! How so distraught have I seemingly become,
Forgotten myself as time has smoothed over me.

Tricky, sly fiend indeed; master and slave a like to us all.

Do I dare move forward into the uncertainty that is humanity and of such society?
So gut wrenching, thoughts filled of bile at what is.

As we all are from and are the same, yet tear limb by limb the essence of ourselves by one another in an endless state of bigotry and violence; so brightly are we bathed in evil.

So easy is it to see.

Miracles; perhaps shall they see fit to carry me away from the void that is, and from such temptation, as to live the rest of days in blissful, stagnant dreams.


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Turn All Your Worries

"I don't know where to go,
And I don't know what to do."
Turn all your worries out to God;
Trust Him,
And He will lead you through.


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he gives us strength

                             (8/12/12)

I feel your presence all around
You pick me up when I am down
When I need you I know you’ll be there
And my problems with you I’ll share.

Billions of prayers go out to you
And you know just what to do
You hear the hearts crying 
And calling your name
And no two are ever the same.

Prayers may not be answered the 
Way we want and feel
But we all begin to heal.
No pain will you give
With which we can not live.

Every pain that we go through
Is something that we have to do.
The pains make us stronger
To challenge all the tomorrows
That will come, and we will 
Continue the fight till the war is won.


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Gold fish

Gold fish


On my vision and swum one
Sprawls the heart of those humans
Ah! They say funnily
Not knowing my stay 
Why? In such a way.

What matters only viewing outside colour?
Innerly they knew me I’m fish ever
They want to keep me in aquarium
Construing a four wall of transparent

Limiting me within four feet boundary.
Treasured only to provide them pleasure
I’m with my fate not happy always
Waiting time to get old in the slap of time.


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On Thin Ice

I'm walking on thin ice
Echoes of affliction disturbs my slumber
Reverberating through my ears...why should I pay the price? 
I'm praying for their lives to be rescued...from the predator

Let me be the living sacrifice...

I'm losing my balance...I'm shattering on thin ice
Echoes of horrid news demolishes the peace
Do I have to be a living sacrifice?
When will this madness and chaos cease?

Let me pay half the price...

I'm RUNNING on thin ice
I collide in between the cracks...I pray for safety and knowledge
I still hear the victims – screaming in agony... helpless like captured mice
When will I ever find an escape route...that'd lead us to a pleasant village?

Let me discover His advice...

I do need His guidance
To survive the hardships... I must take risks and outrun the opposing team
I do yearn for His benevolence
To reap the reward in the deep future...He's obliged with my lifelong dream

Let me walk that narrow path...

I'm sKiPpInG to and fro on thin ice
I fight off all of the enemies with His strength... those devils tried to lower my self-esteem
I still recall the calls of happiness – who considered His advice?
How could I discover my true dwelling place? Who will consider my dream? 

Let me take risks and build up my courage...

I'm unable to find His guidance...I'm scattering on thin ice
Do I have to be the one to roll the dice?
Echoes of bewilderment breaks my cheery heart
How do I keep myself from slipping? Am I on a good start 
Or do I need more practice? 

Once again, we're walking on thin ice...
He's testing my endurance...but they're no longer putting our trust in Him
This truth makes me sick in the stomach... is it I who has to pay the price?
I'm seeking out your elevating spirit to pull us out of this horrendous nightmare...
our confidence in You is about to dim...

Let us wander off on thin ice...
Let me take my time and make progress...
Let us take baby steps on thin ice...
Let me take risks and recover from distress...
Hopefully this journey renews our joyfulness!!

We're STILL patiently waiting on thin ice
For Your hospitality to mend our spirits and shed us Your advice
I don't mind if You tell us, “You guys should've payed the price!”


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So Much Pain Within

So Much Pain Within
(Daveda’s Cascade)

Again you’ve caused my heart to weep
The pain within is oh so deep
Don’t know how more I can bear
Right now all I can do is stare

Things continue to disappear
Lies after lies enters my ear
I look at you and want to leap
The pain within is oh so deep

Their addictions are draining me
No relief I’m able to see
I need a word from you to spare
Don’t know how much more I can bear

Father above please hear my plea
Oh please set my family free
I know deep within you do care
Right now all I can do is stare


* From the end of the earth will I cry unto thee, when my heart is overwhelmed:  lead me to 
the rock that is higher than I. 
 Psalm 61:2


Details | I do not know? | |

Illegitimi non Carborundum

Illegitimi non carborundum ;-)


...Staggering, my vision cloudy,


I fall to the hard ground.


when life’s sharp left-jab leaves my face bloody,


and all that surrounds me, is the desolation of loss I feel all around.



I see myself slipping,

down the abyss to where nothingness exists,


still, I cling on, groping for a foothold,

for my will to stay persists.



I clamber up, I stand my ground, though battered and bruised I may be,


my curtain is not falling yet, I have some fight still left in me.



It is then, in the pit of despair, when all seems bleak and painful and dull,


I summon the strength from deep within,


I rise, slowly, to face the day,


I refuse to sink,

to wallow, to surrender, to throw in the towel,


to drown,


for I am stronger now,


indeed I am, after all the years, and all the battles,


I stand, bruised and bloody,


still,


I stand,


I refuse, to sink, to drown,


for they can try, to punish me some more,


but I shall not allow them to grind me down…


;-)


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Down and Out

How I hate the way I feel today,
   I just want everything to go away.
Don't know if I am angry or sad ,
  All I know is that it feels real bad.
Everything is so mixed up inside ,
  Confused by it all I just want to cry.
Closing my eyes trying to get some rest,
   Doesn' help much getting only moments at best.
Hoping for nightfall is what I want now,
   Praying tomorrow will be better some how.
How I hate these days when I am down ,
   Wishing nobody would ever come around.
Asking myself why I am in this mood,
   What will it take to change my attitude.
Surely there is something to make me smile,
   I wonder if there is because it's been awhile.
Reading the book to maybe see my way through,
   It doesn't help either I am still feeling blue.
Listening to others and what they have to say,
   Changes nothing at all I still feel this way.
Why are there days I feel so down and out ,
   Makes me want to just scream and shout.
Wait for the morning sunrise is what I'll do,
   Possibly then I will be able to talk to you.
Oh how I do not like the way I feel today,
   It's just the worst ever feeling this way.
TAC


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Aunt Dorothy Funeral

Aunt Dorothy Funeral
Written by Mel Brake

"And then, I will rise
nor more sorrow no more pain
and then I will rise when he calls my name.."

I thought about my nephew
at Aunt Dorothy's funeral
I wondered who would mourn for me
when I was loss

I watched as young people
ran out of the church
after viewing Aunt Dorothy's
white gold trimmed coffin

Who would be visibly
upset and be a fool for me

Besides the young do not
know how to handle the loss
of a loved one

My nephew called me
during her service
when I spoke to him
I thought he wanted something from me

But he said that he was calling me
because he remembered I was at the funeral

I  then broke down into a crying walk
I cried not for Aunt Dorothy

I cried for myself and my lost youth

I cried for my sister  because she lost her health
contracted Lupus in that same nursing home near the church 
Aunt Dorothy was eulogized in

I cried for my other sister who lost her mind
gave up her Baptist faith and  married a Jehovah Witness man
he was from that same neighborhood

I cried for my mother because she lost the love of her life
he would visit us in our home on 3850 Parrish street near the church
Aunt Dorothy was eulogized in

I cried for my big brother and  the lost  of our closeness
he worked in a machine shop in that same neighborhood  

He would take me downtown on the 40 bus
that still runs in that dilapidated neighborhood

I cried for the lost of $1000 that my other brother stole
Money that my mother and brother raised to send me
the first one in the family to go to college in that hell whole
of a neighborhood

I cried for the lost of my neighbor who was gay
and he had an operation to become a white woman
and married a white man who drove a Mercedes
But he moved out of that hell whole of a neighborhood

I cried for the young children who I befriended
who were lost themselves in that neighborhood
to drugs violence and prison and early childhood pregnancy

I cried for the older neighbors and friends who have also passed
I sat on the front porch and I would listen to the stories  they told about
how safe Philadelphia used to be when
 the neighborhoods looked after every child's safety

I cried and cried and cried
until I could not cry anymore
walking the streets of the neighborhood
that I grew up in what we called the Bottom

When I walked back to the church
the hearse had moved on with Aunt Dorothy
the family was gone
and the church doors were locked

I thought about Aunt Dorothy
and the passing of the torch
She was the matriarchy of the family and the Mother of the Church
what was her parting words and legacy
we suffered a great loss

Then she as an ancestor spoke

“If you loved me
keep my commandments”

“Love thy neighborhood and thy enemy
as you would love thyself”.






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Many Families Are In Difficult Situations

I’ve seen many families in difficult situations!
Often ending up in lies and false accusations!

I’ve seen many families stray way off course…
And tragically, often, end up in a divorce!

I’ve seen the hardships that many families endure.
Their faith has often been shaken. 
 That’s for sure!

I’ve seen many families trying to give 100 percent.
And then wondering where all of their time went!

I’ve seen all these things happening
 and much more!
I have wondered; “what is all of this happening for?”

I’ve just one thing to say in this “chaotic confusion.”
Only the blood of Jesus gives
 any hope or solution!

It’s only in his word, we’ll find a godly direction!
His Holy Spirit can give true and loving correction!

May we seek his spirit to bind us all together!
And pray for his blood for our protection forever!

Please come Lord Jesus, and refresh our soul!
We need you right now, to make us whole!

Please touch our heart, and make us all one!
And heal every father, mother, daughter and son!

Please help us to watch what we’ll do and say!
You can turn our darkest night
 into the brightest day!

By Jim Pemberton


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Let the fate decide

Let the fate decide 
I write not knowing of what comes
Not realizing the facts
Am not ready for the pain that is on his way
On his way to let down many hopes
To injure many souls 
To stop the proud of one another
I am asking if God could give me a chance 
To prove that I am worth the victory 
To study more harder
To close the lights rarer 
To give the ones I love a hug 
To give them my pride, my tiredness 
My hope for another day to come
And I be the one 
My ears are hearing voices fighting 
For what is right or wrong 
I really wish 
If an angel could fall from the sky 
And remove my eternal pain 
And give me a life I could smile in 
Give me a name, to live with
Give me a tissue to wipe all my tears away 
To miss the love of my parents 
And they’re respect for one another
Would give me a reason to live each day with
To give me a reason to fight for 
If there was angel 
Who would do all this? 
Who would send God my Prayers? 
And send God my begs and hopes for forgiveness
I wish, wish simple word, hard to make 
 Hard to achieve,….
Will the angel send my prayers 
Send my begs 
Send my hopes of forgiveness
Give me the love, honor ,name ,and… the reason to fight , to live
This life that has no justice….


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A Decisive Hour pt. 2

This is going to hurt. As the catheter was inserted into
my groin, I screamed, I cried and I was forgiven.
I watched the whole procedure in awe, There before me
was my heart, vulnerable, beautiful. I saw what Dr. Dib 
called the snake, come to a stop within my heart. Dr. Dib
said, " do you see the snakes tail? Yes I said. Just ahead of it
is a 100% blocked artery,Now watch! All this time which was 
actually a couple short minutes, which felt an eternity with
the heart attack still in motion, he pushed the catheter
through the blockage, " I'm going to pull the catheter out
now and attach a balloon and what is called a stent. ( he showed
me what it looked like later) And re-inserted the catheter.
As the balloon arrived back at the partially open blockage,
Dr. Dib said " Are you alright?" Yes.. " Then here we go" 
" Keep watching" The balloon was inserted into the blockage
inflated a bit, deflated and pulled back into the stent. The
balloon and stent were re-inserted and the balloon re-inflated
until the stent locked into place in the artery. As soon as the 
balloon was removed from the in place stent, the pain was gone.
From massive pain to no pain in an instant. I felt that
voice again, " You still have work yet to do" I prayed, I 
thanked God, I thanked Dr. Dib for saving my life, he smiled
and said " You're going to be fine, rest now" As I was 
now whisked to the Cardiac ICU all wired for sound,
The hand remained, ever present. Finally less than an hour
after it started, it was over, basically. I was in my room to 
be greeted by the smiling, yet concerned face of my Mary.
I knew the full impact of God's Grace and Love for me.
She said do you want me to get Josh from school? "Yes".
She kissed me, told me she loved me and for me to rest.
I closed my eyes, feeling more at peace than I had in years.
I awoke to see my wonderful Son concerned, yet strong.
He kissed my forehead. The hand that was holding mine slipped
away and was replaced by Josh's. I felt his love ever present,
my hand in his.


Thank you Dr. Dib, Thank you Mary and Josh and all who love me.

                   Thank you Father! from your Loving Son!


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Lost and Found -unedited version-

Writing a masterpiece
Takes so much effort and thought
My mind’s settling in my comfort zone – feed me with flawless peace
Words seem to escape me…my feelings mean naught
 
Anger molds me in inside and out…I feel insecure again
Peace barely meets my body
Joy seems to abandon me like an orphan
Faith passed away – it’s buried too far below the debris
 
Have I lost the race?
 
Writing a successful book…writing in general
Takes so much confidence and self-control
My mind is stacked up with debt…
Words splinter my tongue – I can’t repair my tarnished soul
 
Danger is placed in many corners
Happiness is a few blocks away from me
Fearlessness dives into me
Acceptance of who I am – God’s chosen one
 
Have I won the race?
Have I found His grace?


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The Journey

From time immemorial your story began
A hundred, a thousand, a million years and more
Your story past written a character just one
The tale of you bleeds into all

Each story unique while pieces the same
Today, tomorrow, millennia expended and gone
Your story continues passed first to no last
The tale of you bleeds into all

Through love and hate, laughter and death
Minutes and seconds grew to decades and days
The story being written you wrote each day
The tale of you bleeds into all

Memories endure through dream and remembrance
Yesterday is gone but tomorrow you live on
Your story yet written a character more than one
The tale of you bleeds into all

Your stories the fires shall never consume
A past, a future, a present goes on
The story you wrote lives forever in your love
The tale of you bleeds into all


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positioned in the path of Jesus

the position your life takes or how you position yourself in life
depends on how you live and if it lines up with Christ
have you positioned yourself where you connect with God?
have you positioned yourself where you can experience a change of heart?
have you position yourself where you can be accused of committing a crime?
where you might even wind up doing some hard time
location, location, location that's what it's all about 
have you positioned yourself so that God can work it out?
in the right place where you need to be 
in that place where of you God can see

there are many positions in life which one can attain
and one of those positions is the position of pain
the position of pain is one of which none can escape
the position of just living no matter which road one takes
the position of pain in inevitable and can also be blind
where something in life you didn't see coming kicks you in the behind
a man was born blind and the Pharisees asked, "who is to blame?"
Jesus said, "neither him nor his parents committed any sin or shame"
many things in life occur  just to give God all the glory
be it circumstances, situations, tragedies or triumphant stories
many things in life occur for a godly reason
it's not for us to question as it'll be revealed in due season
 
God has a plan for each and every person on this earth
some of us are formed in the way He desires from the moment of birth
for God can take a blind man and give him the gift of sight
God can take an injustice and somehow make it right
God can take the deaf and give them the power to hear
God can take the faint of heart and give them spirit of no fear
God can take the lame and give them the ability to walk
God can take a mute and give him the power to talk
positioned in the path of Jesus the Christ
no matter the situation He can make it right

He'll bless you with a job when your down to your last dime
He'll anoint you with a scholarship when your tuition is on the line
He'll put that cancer into remission
now in His path properly positioned
He'll touch your life in whatever way you need
His Holy Spirit will fill you with it's righteous seed
He'll heal you if you need to be healed
He'll open eyes so that truths will be revealed
He'll feed you if you're hungry and give you something to eat 
He'll clothe you if you're naked and even put shoes on your feet
Positioned in the path of Jesus as you travel this journey called life
in the right place just waiting for the presence of Jesus the Christ


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TEARS ON MY PILLOW !

They'll be tears on my pillow tonight,for me it seems like fate.

That every time I trust I lose, and usually all to late.

The pain of false affections can wound a peaceful soul.

Send it spinning the wrong direction, toward a dark and lifeless hole.

Of pain I know much, but keep it deep inside.

My pleasures though their few, I do not choose to hide.

Life will continue on, and I must make my way.

Tomorrow is on the horizon, and past will be this day.

Maybe I'll find that someone, or maybe he'll find me.

Someday, somewhere we'll meet, if it's truly meant to be.


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From the heart of society

Theres a girl 
she pours out her heart 
gives him everything
changes her hair goes to get 
fat sucked out of her cause no 
one tells her that she really is 
beautiful she goes home to see him in bed
kissing another girl, then get up and smack her around
people ask where she got her brusies and why she hides her face
but behinde that mask hideing her scars is a girl fearing for her life 
scared to go home to that man that just might give her more scars.
Theres a guy 
who takes care of his brother
comes home and covers his brothers ears 
while his mommy and daddy make him fear
fear for his life his mom brings home different guys 
every night, daddy is never home but when he is 
they fear for  there life that just maybe that might be the last day 
the last breath they live to take
Next day he comes home and sees mommy on the floor bleedin 
his little brother tied to the bed stabed in he chest 
he tries to run but trips and falls
three week later the found him floating down the river..
These are the  people we ignore every day 
the ones that cry out for help
 the ones that need us the most..
The ones that are pimped out and dont see there beauty
 the ones that hide the scars that the one they love put on there face
This is our world and society today


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Chrsit Love For Your Pain


Christ can give true love, for your pain!
He has so much to give, in exchange!

He can give a life that’s eternal and secure!
His love for you is everlasting!  That’s for sure!

He offers much more than this world can give!
And will bless you, each day that you live!

He can bring true happiness and much more!
He truly is someone worth living for!

Won’t you accept his love and acceptance?
And come before him in true repentance?

He can take a life that’s been “worn out.”
And do a total cleansing all throughout!

He’s the alpha and omega! 
 The beginning and the end!
And will be here to help!  
When you need a friend!

Won’t you give him a chance today?
And allow him to take all pain and sin away?


By Jim Pemberton


Details | I do not know? | |

Young Heart

From my youth,
I knew no goodness 
Teach me His truth
So that I will meet success

I hope I'm making little progress

From my youth,
I knew very little at first
Teach me Your truth 
Or I'll remain in thirst

I thirst for His spirit - to renew my faithfulness

I have a nourished heart
But, evilness broke it apart
I had an energetic soul  
But agony took its toll 

And now I pray
To Him who mends us all
To save my young heart
From the fear of losing control...

Do I still have an innocent, 
Young heart? 


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Edifices of time

Edifices of time.


Edifices of sculptured beauty – 
Filled with Angels song 

Harmonious sounds that fill 
Earth’s crumbling corridors-

Like the sands of time-
That falls through life's hourglass, 

Mere shadows - of life’s eternal beauty-
Etched in pain - is a world’s agony- 

A broken heart - pain like nails  
That pierces Holy hands 

On Death’s wooden blood stained door
The rose of Sharon declares His everlasting love 

Beyond this crimson wooden cross of human suffering 
Lies the corridor of hope 

And eternal glory - Above 
Just beyond the grave.

 


© Brenda V Northeast   8 Feb. 2009 


Details | ABC | |

More Than I Am

I pull my blinds down shut to end another day
An eerie silence fills the halls with lonesomeness and decay
I draw my sheets back and clear the thoughts inside my head
Because the quietness breaks my heart when im alone in bed
I turn the T.V. on to turn the emptiness down
I hear the voices speaking, but I can't make out the sounds
I look at my bible filled with guilt and shame inside
I havent picked it up to read for quite some time
And with hell I look up to my ceiling and cry
Have You abandoned me too for ever leaving Your side
Lord just light the way and I will come back home
Lead me back to that place I was once before
I know I havent prayed, because I have been afraid
I know I let You down and I was scared of what You might say
Forgive me for ever thinking I could do this on my own
Please give me strength so that I can carry on
And help me turn these pages once again
So that I may be all I'm meant to be in the end
A better friend, a better son, and a better brother
A better uncle, nephew, cousin, and a better lover
Teach me to be a father who leads his child with strong hands
Because I know that You made me to be more than I am

*JJF*
4/18/2013


Details | I do not know? | |

WHO AM I AND WHY AM I ME

WHO AM I AND WHY AM I ME

When I wake in the mornings to look at my day
I have to start out pushing my pain away

I know I have problems that I have to fight
But a person like me sometimes can’t sleep all night

I was in a wreck when I was 15 and I saw the light
I heard God say to me, it’s not my time, I wonder why he was right

So why did I live I don’t understand but I guess God knows why
Because he is the main man

I feel all people see is the beauty on the outside 
But they have no idea of all the pain I hide on the inside

I would walk for miles to help someone live 
Just to know they had smiles to give

I have always believed everything is meant for a reason
My pain is real and hard to describe, but God can change a season

Maybe the abuse that I went through is the reason 
I do what I do.  But that’s not a excuse to people that love you

It’s amazing to me how the world works in a mysterious way 
Because for me I have to wonder why I am here day to day

When I leave this world I hope I have done what was meant for me.  That is the 
reason we are all here is to be all we can be

Sometimes I have to cry, sometimes just be alone, and sometimes I have to scream 
at the unknown
It’s a pain within ourselves that no one can see, but it can hurt like hell sometimes 
to have to be me

I don’t understand my thoughts and why I feel this way 
But God had his reason for me in that wreck that day

I have a wonderful family, and I love them all so much and they love me.  So who 
am I and what am I suppose to be.

I am so sorry for the pain I have cause all of my loved ones but I feel deep inside 
you understand what is going on

The pain inside of me is from my soul, day to day I never know
You can’t understand it until you feel the pain I don’t show

I will fight to the end for the reason I am here, to be all I can be and I will be strong 
enough to see why I am me

When I go to bed I will defiantly pray that while I am a sleep God will give me a 
better next day.

I want others to know it’s not all just me, I just want to know who we are and we 
are suppose to be

I am going to sleep now because I am tired, but the women I was today, tomorrow 
will be retired.

All I want to know in life is who I am and why I am me, God didn’t say when he 
shined that light for only me to see


Cindy Malony


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IN THIS ACT OF PAIN, I TAKE MY VENGENCE

Beyond the illusion of skin and polite talk a shadow dwells within me, whispering unto me my deepest ugly thoughts, my secret sins, my foul intentions and slowly devouring the goodness in me.

it draws its filth from my chosen path smearing it with deceit.

The stains of the fear of having to lose an anticipated love

loathing those you remember with hate and those whose care for you is bare,

an anger driven by a hunger to care, to feel, to live.

This pain that I alone understand and cherish is master

luring me with an apparition of a budding flower, a beautiful maiden women

who comes to me in full consciousness drawing me to a secluded place

where I am vulnerable with need for company and she feeds from this - my loneliness.

With her electrifying touch, her infectious smile and the maze of her luminous eyes

I beg her to enslave me. Her voice seducing my mysterious soul into a colourful trance of mellowing.

she lived for us, died for us and in death refused to part

in eternity seeking our unison,

in her existing even though beyond this realm

she erupts the fires of a longing an enfolding passion that quickly rises and towers down and over everything I have ever believed was.

From a dull world so familiar to me of grey, black and white she leads me on to a vast land of dreams that fills me with new emotions.

Colours freshly bloom before my eyes and all this for my heart to take warmth.

Now let me alone with this pain I am forever an addict to.

The stab of it stinging my dull being filling me with a high that thrills and fills my vacant space with a loud haunting scream.

Oh! I bleed this poem from my very soul, as she whispers unto me.

My hope in her goodness that shuns out the darkness that seeks to possess my soul.


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WHAT LIFE IS

what life is, is all in drama.

A play whereas pain and joy

are the themes in constant contrast .

pain is for us in stage and joy for the only one who watches .

what is it to be normal ,if life is all just stage act

of the seven step rhythmn with a slight tag

followed by the deep mournful cry encrypted pain is living and role of puppets

and us all in poetic harmony

we stomp to the dance of life.


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The Sculptor

I feel Him chip away at my flesh.
The vibrations shake to my bones.
Pieces that were once part of me now fall helplessly to the floor.

Every scrape of the chisel,
Every pound of the hammer,
Every piece that is broken from me stings with immense pain.

Why doesn't He stop?
Why is The Sculptor so cruel?
Doesn't He realize that each swing He takes is a nightmare to me?

I would be better off as stone that was never touched,
I would be more content without the suffering that comes apon me,
But I wouldn't be a work of art.

Each chip of the chisel is intended to remove a piece that shouldn't be there.
Each pound of the hammer is meant to force the hideous fragments far from me.
Each move The Sculptor makes, takes me closer to His plan for me.

I must trust, knowing that He never takes off too much.
I must be ready, knowing that He never leaves His work incomplete.
I must be thankful, knowing that I am being made beautiful in His eyes.

The acute pain is only a short part of His plan.
The lasting anguish fades in its own time.
Though heart, and soul, and body all grieve, the permanent state will be that of finished work.

I may not know the reason for each strike,
I may not know the fault with each sundered chunk,
And I may never know.

I know the sting of the chisel now,
I know The Sculptor has a plan,
My part is to trust that He will not work forever ... but that He will be done.


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So Close, Yet So Far

It's like I'm there,
Standing behind a glass wall.
I've had a taste,
Just not the full platter.
I'm ready for the cake,
But all I have is batter.


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It's Not Your Fault

The thing about life
is that
it can end in an instant

When the rope of the
harsh words
wraps tightly around your 

Neck squeezing tighter
and tighter
you just want to jump

To end it all to end all
the pain
and the hatred and words

It is not only the words
that push
you over the edge

It is too the fists and
the feet 
that slam into you

Over and over
without
a break with out letting up 

Making you break down and slide down
the wall
and cry and cry and cry

One phone call can 
save a
live, stopping that jump

Stopping the self hate
and
spreading the love

The love i have for 
you will 
never fade or die and i hope

will make you better
to sleep
and to be able to be 

Happy again to 
be happy
forever and always with me

just remember and know
that it's
NOT YOUR FAULT


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THIS PAIN

THIS PAIN IS THE FERTILIZER FOR GROWTH...
HEADACHES FROM THE HEARTACHES,A MINDSET TO STAY 
ON THE STRAIGHT NARROW,CONSISTENTLY HARASSED BECAUSE OF
THE LIFE CHANGE,NO LONGER RUNNING THE STREETS,FORMER FRIENDS 
REFUSE TO COME AROUND BECAUSE I WON'T GET DOWN WITH SMOKING
TREES AND CONSUMING FORTY'S....
  THIS PAIN HAS CAUSED ME TO BE LONELY,I LOVE TO FELLOWSHIP WITH
THE SAINTS THEY GIVE ME A NATURAL HIGH WITH NO SIDE AFFECTS,IT FEELS
GOOD TO BE CAREFREE AND NOT HAVE TO IMPLANT EYES IN THE BACK OF MY 
HEAD,LIVING THE LIFE ON SUSPICIOUS IS VICIOUS......
  THIS PAIN IS A DETOXIFICATION,I HAVE THE SHAKES AND THE SWEATS, I
NEED IMMEDIATE TREATMENT WITH AN AFTER CARE PLAN....FLESH IS WARING
WITH MY SPIRIT I CAN'T STAND IT....
   THIS PAIN HAS CAUSED ME TO SHUTDOWN SOCIALLY,I'M EXPERIENCING
FEELINGS FROM A-Z...
   THIS PAIN HAS CAUSED ANXIETY LORD GIVE ME THE POWER TO HANDLE THIS 
STORM.THE THUNDERBOLTS WERE SHOCK TREATMENTS FOR CLEANSING THE
WICKEDNESS AND THE GRIM FROM THE EYES...
    I CAN NOW APPRECIATE THE THORNS THAT TORE THE FLESH..
NOW I CAN ATTEST THAT THIS PAIN WAS FERTILIZER FOR SPIRITUAL GROWTH...
                                            THIS PAIN....



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Bittersweet Wisdom

Death, in its unhurried wisdom,
ends all doubt and sorrow.
It is a lasting remedy for all
Illness, insecurity, and loneliness;
The finality of it ends all pain with
a sweetness not otherwise known.
Its sweetness is known only by those,
who in their passing have smelled its fragrance.
The pain of those left behind has a
fragrance all its own, a bittersweet
emanation that assails the senses with
its pungency. The strength of the void,
left by the passing of one loved,
seems endless. Time and faith,
working in unison, will lessen the
strength and fill the void.


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How Much Longer Will I Last

Will my life last, much longer?
What am I doing?  I began to wonder…

Many things keeps dragging
 me further down…
What’ll I do?  There’s no one around???

Many “things” have 
  a hold on me…
I cry every night…  I want to be FREE!

I’ve tried and tried…  But to no avail…
Just when I think I have victory…  I fail!

I’ve read in scripture of a power
 I haven’t seen.
I read of a lord who
 can do ANYTHING!

I’m going to give him a try! 
 I’ve nothing to lose!
I’ve been so hurt, worn out and abused!.…

To you, dear Jesus… 
 I confess my every sin.
I can feel your love
 from deep within!

Thank you Jesus! For giving
 me a joy I never knew…
I don’t know where I’d be if not for YOU!

You’ve brought to my life
 a peace I never had.
For all you’ve done for me.  I’m so glad!

Won’t YOU give your burdens
 to the one, I call friend?
And experience the joy of being born again?

Please come to him now!  
Why not this hour?
And experience his life-changing power!

By Jim Pemberton  


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It's Hard To See The One You Love Go Through Pain


It's Hard To See Someone Go Through' Pain... "It's hard to see someone I love go through so much pain." Were the words I heard that night I called on Jesus' name. "This person whom I love, has gone through so much." "How I wish to bring my peace and healing touch." I cried and wept, as I heard the master's voice. His gift of love is for all of us... It's our choice! His body was broken... A sacrifice was made. His life for our sorrow and pain, is what he gave. His grace is more than sufficient for the pain we endure. His love and commitment to you, is true and secure. He loves you so much. He waits at your heart's door. He gives peace and comfort. And so much more! The pain and suffering you're going through today. Please listen to the words Christ has to say. "I am El-Shadaii." "Jehovah-Jireh." "Your very best friend." "My love and devotion to you will never, never end." By Jim Pemberton


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The First Time

For the first time,
I feel that life’s treating me right

Everyone’s talkin’ amongst themselves…

I’m sick ‘n tired of wastin’ time
I need to…train myself to become successful – 
Starting tonight.
My life has its ups ‘n downs…
How can I balance myself again?
How can I be more productive this week?
How much time does it take to make my life valuable?

Every now and then, 
I feel that there’s no way out of the cage

Everyone’s bringin’ up past recollections 

I’m willin’ to fight the good fight… but I feel like garbage…
My faith towards Him slowly decays away… 
How can I rebuild my strength again?
How can I reassure myself that I’m stronger than I realize? 
How much time does it take to accomplish all of my dreams? 

Every so often,
I feel that my family doesn’t love me

Do they still cherish me like hidden treasure?
Do they still love me beyond measure?

Everyone’s tellin’ me that I did a great job on my solo 

I don’t believe them entirely…but at least I got the audience’s attention  
My future is bright like the sun…
How can I make my dreams a reality?
Does God know the answer?
How much time does it take to taste a sprinkle of glory?

For the last time, 
I feel the need to reach the finish line

Everyone’s proud of me for trying my best 
And running with all of my effort
I’m willin’ to encourage myself to pass the test…
Despite my struggles, I’m doing fine  

My courage increases by the minute…
I outrun the competitive runners and I’m barely passing the test 

My cup is half full – I’m extremely grateful
For the first time, 
I feel that God has answered my prayers – 
LIFE IS SO. . . . WONDERFUL!


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Nobody Can

There is nobody in this world knows how I am feeling right now,
Trying to  get it to all  make some kind of sense from it  some how.
   Filled with deceptions and lies leaving me nothing for me to find,
One memory there is that is truly real cause there's none in my mine.
   This sickening feeling overwhelms me making me cold to my soul,
I am surrounded by gloom and sadness the worst I've ever known.
   How is it I am to suffer like this for loving with all my heart ,
Always protecting you and always been the light in your dark.
   Why me with the love so true and a honest soul  feel such pain,
I should feel the Sunshine in my life not tears that fall like rain.
   Was it the  blindness caused by her natural beautey and tender words,
Or is it that I have lied to myself for so long it was almost absured.
   Difficult for me to face this grief that I had always anticipated,
The moment you came back into my life these days been pre dated.
    It was Love itself I have wanted to bask in to know the Joy,
This despair , lonliness ,and all the nightmares  I needed to avoid.
    A wreck just waitng to happen and the wounds opened up again,
Never  thinking of when all began only wanting it all to just end.
   Days that will be lost and the memories you will never have,
It's the worst kind of emptiness and confusion I've ever had.
   These times we share when we are alone and nobody around,
The thoughts we have of fantasies are somewhat profound.
   Is there a lesson here to be learned and remembered ,
Or is it I am that lost soul  that lonely Pretender.
   This can't possibly be the very last and the end for me,
If so then it has always  been what was meant to be.
   When and how it all went wrong and strayed off course,
Something I will never know  or do I want to anymore.
   There is nobody  that knows what I am feeling today,
I tried making sense of it and found that there is no way.
   A fence that will never be mended or memories replaced,
Just a lonely life  and a broken heart is what I must face .
   Get on with my life  pray  for better days  I must do,
How  can I do that if it has to be without having you.
Tac


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Port of Call

Port of Call


Barefoot on a talcum beach,

alone, not lonely,

with the breath of the ocean a caressing balm,
soothing pained memories away,
to the swaying of a solitary palm.


Barefoot on a talcum beach,

alone, not lonely,

feeling the brushing away of all past turmoil,
on a quest for solace, ever so hard to find,
yet comforted by the crashing of the waves,
as the tide cleanses all pain,
and leaves despair far, far behind.


Barefoot on a talcum beach,

alone, not lonely,

drenched in a sea-breeze of mist,
that hushes the ache of bygone moons,
tasting the salty tang on my lips,
as the burnished sun,
over the distant horizon,
swoons,

and dips.


Barefoot on a talcum beach,

alone, not lonely,

searching, ever searching,
for a slice of solitude,
as memory bids a final adieu,
reaching under the sea so vast,
and seeking comfort in the depths,
while embracing,
the tomorrows to come,
wishing that they be true.


Barefoot on a talcum beach,

alone, not lonely,

seeing my truths drown,
as they slip beneath the turquoise waters,

feeling my heart ablaze,
with a passion that rarely falters.


Barefoot on a talcum beach,

alone, not lonely,

yet knowing that I am home at long last,
wishing the waves would wash away,
the defences that once stood,
like an impregnable wall.


Barefoot on a talcum beach,

alone, not lonely,

I have found, at long last,

my final port of call.


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Abide in the Light

You abide in the light
I’ll miss you…when you venture off at night 
Don’t forget me…
Don’t discard me…
Don’t leave me…   

Forgive me for drifting away from you… 

Please forgive me…
Please don’t ignore me…
Hear my pleas…don’t turn the other direction…
Run with me…into heaven’s light

I’ve given you my soul…
I’ve shared with you my melody
I’ve fed you until you were full…
I’ve healed you when you were under the weather…
I’ve tried to bring us back together

You hang on the rope of hope
I’ll rely on you…I’ll cling to you… 
You saved me from subsiding into the obscure abyss

Don’t reject me…
Don’t depart from me…
Don’t release me…

Respect me for who I’ve become
Please respect me…
Honor my presence 
Protect me from any sort of harm  
Is it in your nature to relieve my anguish? 

I’ve been driven away by my affliction 
I’ve set you free from Egypt…and lead you to the Promise Land 
Have you forgotten my affection? 
I’ve tried to empathize what you’re going through – I’ve gave you a helping hand
Don’t you understand? Will you ever understand? 

You abide in the light 
I’ll miss you…when you depart from my heart
Don’t forget me…
Don’t discard me…
Don’t mourn for me… 

Forgive me for wishing for your absence…
Please forgive me…
Please don’t give up on me…
Hear my side of the story… don’t turn the other direction…

I’m still training for perfection    

Run with me…until we arrive at home 
Hold my hand and we’ll take divine flight 
I’ve cherished you for so long
I’ve lead you to my home town – 
Do you remember where you and I belong?

I’ve given you my trust…
I’ve shared with you my dreams
You’re an apple to my eye

You were my angel of grace, promising concord –
Bestowing blessings upon me 
Your vitality never wears off…

You were my lamp – 
Glowing with serenity and elation
Tranquilizing my mind from despair and unease

I’ll never regret…meeting you that magnificent night 
I knew that that was love at first sight
The moment you stepped foot into the light 


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Your Embrace

Dear Lord I await your embrace as the weight on my shoulders is getting harder to take
I see the pain and daily lies that we spread its our mask . . our disguise

The pain and suffering is like mystical chains pulling me down to a darkened place,
I know you are with me so I should feel no fear, but it gets harder each day and year by year. 

I write this now with tears looming in my eyes, my strong front hides the pain deep inside;

Your love keeps me going . .  your secret signs show the way, yet I still pray please make the pain go away.


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A HARSH REALITY

Too many children have had to grow without ever having a parent to know.
Ran through the foster parent system,with no one ever asking them.
And what occurs when they get some bad ones,beatings,isolation,sexual assaults done.
Then growing up and living with what occured,their conscience telling them this is absurd.
So they go through life being afraid and believing that those who hurt them must be obeyed.
It truly is a sick circle they must live in,and how this affects others is truly a sin.
So we must try to get them through this and most times it will be hit and miss.
But someone must be there for them,to ask those crucial questions where and when.
For if they never release that pain inside,they will always surely run and hide.
So "PLEASE" dear LORD! Set there evil free,and when they've released their pain could we 
then work on me.


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My Shadow



Blackness, a dark version of me, badness, negativity.

No matter how fast i run or were i run too your right behind me.

Even the brightest sun doesn’t destroy you, you only exist because of me.

All i know is when i face the darkness you disappear, but to only return when the sun rises.



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SIMPLICITY

It started out simple, I never thought it through. The start of an addiction so exciting and new.  I could have never for seen how far it would go. If I would have thought it trough I would have been strong and said “NO”.   It started out simple, It was my favorite thing.  I never for seen the heartbreak it would bring. It started out simple, yet so intense, so strong.  I could have never for seen the addiction would hold me for so long. It’s not so simple when the best parts of you break away, day by day. It’s not so simple when your favorite thing is something you hate.  How could I for see what would become my fate?  It’s not so simple when you’re trying to keep from getting sick but with every prick you get more sick; sick of yourself and this nasty habit you keep. I never knew it would go this deep.  It started out simple, it ended so complex. How could I have for seen my life would become this unmanageable mess. Down low in the gutter, ashamed, and depressed. How could I have for seen id be under arrest, for this habit I love, it’s this habit I hate.  It started out simple, it started out great. How could I have for seen id become a felon and in prison id wait?  It’s not so simple, I guess it never really was…..next time I’ll makes it simple, next time I’ll say no to these drugs!


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A Prayer of Healing

A prayer of hope, for healing and restoration 
Many are praying for you
When our God answers. a grand celebration
There will be for you

So hold on tight, keep up the fight
 because soon you will see the light, soon you will be alright
He will wipe away every tear from your eyes 
So don’t listen to the enemy’s lies
 Let nothing but the peace of God, dwell in your mind

There will be no more death or mourning or crying or pain
Only the soft sound and embrace of healing rain

Because He is making everything new, 
and His words are trustworthy and true
And as you remain in Him, His word remains in you
And His word will bring  you through

Until then we keep on praying for you, child of God
We lift you before Him, in our hearts and thoughts
So keep fighting, keep strong
Better days are coming, It won’t be long


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Faith Healer

The odor is intolerable
Like a foul beast clinging to the end 
I can barely subdue its subterfuge 
But here I am, 
I’m standing here of sound and mind
Waiting for the time that answers my own questions

Can it race with the fires of Orc?
Doubtful, but it can jog steadily can’t it?
The weather is awful, filled with sounds
Penetrating a document not written
It pains me to fight through the night
Not because it’s dark, but because I am just a shadow.

Lester drives but
Motional lasts forever
Still driving
Still crying
And slowly dying as time waves on
Like oceans that can’t be seen.

Nobody cares and everyone listens
Ironic, like a bible that holds lies and deception
Can its will be pierced?
Can freedom stay free?
Is it worth it to stay hooked when everyone around
Seeks liberty?


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TIME TO MOVE

Written 20 may 2013



My faith is in you Lord
 trapped to this bed, I'm bored

How much longer shall I be still
 for I know this is by your will
 
I'm alone and at your mercy
 given up friends and family
 
My faith is struggling oh Lord
 I pray that you hear my call

I've been still, by not a choice of mine
 learning lessons through your will and time 

Patience is growing to an all time low
 lets get this operation done, lets go

I've learn't who I am and I do pray 
 so lets get moving, before I fade away....

Give me strength to handle the operation that awaits
 so that I may again see the sunlight on my face



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Story Rings True Now

Will I go with the beast Or will I strangle it Just to go and drop the hint Openness escapes me The devil is in my arms May I beat him down With my souls essence A dynasty is within me A gross of pelicans lift me Taking me highly above To where Satan cannot find me I shall conquer the essence Of horrid and painful evil That envelops my very being Should destroy it all And bring my soul higher Or shall I stay in horror With each day deflating me I will succeed in success And my soul with fly Love will defeat all death The harmonious realm bends Moves to my joyful will Luck isn’t the life force Hope and faith and Love Bring me to victory Slamming the end of time Into nothingness The story rings true now And peace is in my heart And love is the focal point And is the center of my existence For all time, forever
Russell Sivey


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Dad

I got down on my knees and began to pray

To find the words I want to say

The Lord took you to his home up above

He will have to tell you of our love

Our home became sad that day

The day you were called away

The Lord only knows the tears we shed

Each night before we went to bed

It was hard to see the pain upon your face

We wished we could vanish it without a trace

Your pain was our pain too

We just did'nt know what to do

The years have slipped by very fast

Everyone wishes you could bring back the past

We want you to know of our love

Until we meet you again up above


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My Pupils

Fatigued eyes droop, lacking sweet slumber
But my eyes are an exception…everything’s a blur
They stare off into space…they ache with displeasure 
But I still wonder… my pupils still wander

My pupils still wander… never planted in one spot 
Their cup is half full…rather than half empty
My pupils see what others cannot  
Because… their too busy to smell the roses of plenty 

My pupils project feelings…
They comprehend – they spiral up and down
They express horrendous sorrows…they observe their surroundings 
My belongings are misplaced – my smile lowers into a frown

Optimism isn’t in the picture…bestowing infection
Upon my crestfallen heart 
I’m a broken compass – I’m losing my direction  
My animated heart tears apart 

Their voices are high in volume…rather than using half their volume
My pupils glance in many directions – beaming with glee 
Because they’re focusing too much on their social lives…let us resume
On with our soothing music 

Intrigued eyes lift…willing to wonder in curiosity 
But my eyes swelter, wearily drowning in discouragement  
They spot what others are too oblivious to see… 
Nonetheless, I still ponder…
Are my pupils singing merrily OR are they wandering in bafflement? 

Do I witness the fears and woes?

My pupils reject the precious scenery 
They are carefree – they are heedless of my despondency 
My pupils forever look forward to freedom…observe the hardships and disparity
My surroundings are chaotic and wild – my heart pounds profoundly…

My pupils…
Oh dear pupils…
Will you ever pay the bills?
Will you ever use your skills?

My heart bleeds in the river mills
My pupils ascend…above the dazzling hills 
My pupils spew out remorse 
My pupils are like open doors…


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My Countless Wishes -Part 2-

I wish
To demolish my sorrow…
I wish
To forget the despair and gleefully grow…
To forgive and seek the challenges of tomorrow…
My downfalls and my failures…
I wish
To disappear
I wish
I had no fear…
For God’s near…
I wish
I could be a cheetah in the grassland
I wish
To store all of my energy for an evening run…I’d never give up in the process
I wish
My whole spirit could simply sponge in God’s nature and make great progress
And I truly wish
I could stick to my daily plans of building a sturdier relationship with God 
I wish
I had the merriness in my life especially during hardships…

My countless wishes
Brings me down to my weakest point…
My countless wishes
Overthrows me…but it helps me in the long run…

I wish I could forgive 
My daily regrets and breakdowns
I wish I could forget
My despondency – embracing my frowns 

I wish
To live a life without error
Without a care
I wish
To be flawless when I make my everyday decisions
And scare away 
The darkness that tries to make me give up
I wish
I had more time to overcome…
These waves of emotions

My countless wishes
Brings me down to my disheartened state…
My countless wishes
Are like walls from every direction closing in on me…
But it’s a convenient tool in the future…

I wish
I could be live in someone else’s shoes…
But what good would it do?
Would it lead me to the narrow pathway?
Would it inspire me to push all of my doubts away? 
Would it push away the blues?
Could He give me any clues?


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Whatever Comes My Way

Can we lift our hands and praise Him?
Can we lift our voice and say
Jesus, I will trust You
Through whatever comes my way

We have moments on the mountain top
When life is going good
To praise and thank our Saviour,
There's no question that we would
It's when we hit the valleys 
Between the highest peeks
Sometimes we lose our focus 
And the pain begins to speak

But can we lift our hands and praise Him?
Can we lift our hands and say
Jesus, I will trust You
Through whatever comes my way

What happens when the heartache
Is more than we can bare?
When sickness takes a loved one
Or it seems that no one cares
Do we lose sight of the promise
That He is by our side?
Or do we feel His gentle hands
That hold our hearts inside

He said He'll never leave us
His promises are sure
So hand in hand we'll walk this road
And with Him we'll endure!


So I'll lift my hands and praise Him
I'll lift my voice and say
Jesus, I will trust You
Through whatever comes my way



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Salamander Oasis

Our ripe minds protrude
Waiting to be ripped-
A signal to leave behind
The excess of all other moments

We allow our fallen tails
Re absorption through the ground
Back into the neverending fervor


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The Sea Blue Eyes I

Once in a while I meet a person whose eyes tell their story
The story is like the sky reflection on the seas of glory
The eyes are all the wonder of the world
It sees the future, past, and present
The eyes give us knowledge of the world and reflection
The reflection of sadness and weakness of each creature
The wonder of each individual being has a present
To the world who has lots of false images
To arise the moment of that one glance
To follow the heart in romance
Just the reflection that gather in your eyes of blue
What a man and a woman should view
Life is such a pain without stopping to see each eyes
Its like roses you have to enjoy each passion in side
When that moment collides with mind and heart
Nothing in your soul can keep your love apart
Join in the fun look in every eyes of a person beside
With passion and romance I bet you, you would cry
The luster of all the things to come
A bounty of life long needs to be given by just the wonders of the eyes
The blue seas reflects the different depths of our feelings
And it should become revealing
Come to your senses with ravaging hormones of lust
The sea can take you and even the reflection in the eyes of the person
The beauty is not held by one it is held by everyone
Such looks with fear for no relief
Is almost a dreadful part in our human nature
Beware of what can happen when emotions are held
Held to the core of an individual
No such thing is kindness when you find yourself in the Sea Blue Eyes
Calling in your soul by just looking
With ignorance you play around with such futile emotion
Gush away the fear and do not go insane with life so dear
The grasp of the titans comes to reveal
The evil within your heart is so obscenely noticed
You want the sea and you want those eyes to look at you with wishes
The rage in the heart are waves that cannot stop 
It pushes and pushes with no regret
The heart falters and there is only one thing in your mind
The idea of one soul to be with is the ocean 
The rifts that is trying to break to end the wants of desire
Cannot be trusted in a human lier
The beauty of man is destruction 
The beauty of women are commands
The eyes of each does not matter in the sea
Because all emotion and desire is given to those who are true
Command of a person is just one thing 
The desire to destroy is another
The Sea Blue Eyes will see no bother cause it bares it all
Even the utmost desire
To be continue.


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The Fortress

This fortress is coming down;
It's been a long time in the making.
This bastion can't hold its own;
All these walls are shaking.


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gods love saved me

There are moments in our lives when we find ourselves at a cross roads. The choice we make in those moments can define the rest of our days.
Struggle all my life with the demons I held inside. Taking pills to numb the pain in hopes it would all fade away. Walk around with a fake smile on my face. Just to hide the pain no one else could see. My emotions running wild and free through my mind. Like a roller coaster out of control at times. I could not take another semester of bad grades. Or walking around the world in a daze. So I took the plunge and quit the meds. Scared to death of the anxiety attacks that awaited me. Not sure how I was going to handle the bipolar disease. The ADHD was a whole other story. Having to sit still and focus was a joke. I was out of options and at the end of my rope. When I listened to a friend who said give this a try. He took my hand and guided my way Telling me stories of the love god has to give. Little by little my faith began to grow. The emptiness in my soul was no longer a hole. Day by day my mind is renewed. I no longer fight my demons at night. God has sent an angle to protect me from the fight. Holding my hand I am never alone. God has my back until I come home.
Cory Long
Gail Doyle's contest Standing at a cross road
October 3, 2012


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Living The Day To Day Pay Check

Count pay rent spend frame, 
minute cent send stay every day pain, 
feel lost of low wage,


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The Night of Unleavened Bread

Matzos slip into their mouths
Voices project merrily...tonight is
The night of Unleavened Bread

Lamb and other delicious
Meats and veggies... satisfies our taste buds 
What a splendid night it is!

Wine's brewin' in our wine cups
The dinner table - creates pleasant talk 
During this meaningful night

There's moments of quietude 
When it comes to de-leavening our lives
But, there's moments of gladness

On this night of peacefulness
Cheesecake - a delightful treat to savor 
During this night of pure bliss


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True Love Given Reflections of Love

Moments to Reflect
True Love

As I look up into the night sky, oh what a beautiful sight the stars shining are so bright. I think about my Lord and my heart swells and fills with so much joy that the Father of all has created such wonders in the heavens above. So much beauty, so much love.
This cause me to reflect upon my existence on this earth, why was I given birth, what is my purpose on this earth? These questions laid profoundly on my mind and brought tear to my eyes.

I got down on my knees and ask my Lord please explain it to me. From my heart came pouring out all of my thoughts along with all of my doubts.
To my lord I did say, what is it that you want from me, for I do the things that I do not want to do, and the things that I want to do, I cannot seem to do, why am I such a fool I feel like am doom?

What is wrong seems so right and doing what is right is so hard for me to do, am hurting so deep within all I want is this pain to end.
My life is filled with so many ups and down I cannot keep my feet on solid ground. I feel like am on a roller coaster and it headed hell bounded. I pray that this is not my fate it‘s Heaven’s gate that I seek and I pray that it not too late.

Then as the tears began to fall and my heart started to break; all of a sudden I felt this warm embraces. I have never in life expected such love, such comfort, or joy, and then suddenly all my pain was gone and I heard the angels singing a wonderful song. In my mind eye I could see my Lord and savior sitting on His throne looking at me.

He smile and said to me; life is worth living and this is why it was given, trials and tribulation are just part of the deal and I know that this is a bitter pill.
It in your nature to sin my child but this you can end if you walk in the light and let me come in. My yoke is easy and I make your burdens light so just ask me to forgive you of your sins for with me in your comer this fight you will win. 

Then you will be heaven bound and sin will never be able to hold you down. The guide if you decide to be at my side is written in my living words. Read them and heed them and satan will frown and you will no longer be hell bound.
Then the Lord said to me, I tell you this my little lamb,  I Am who I Am and I came into this world a long time ago, my Father sent me to earth to show His child the way. 
I became a living sacrifice and paid a debt that was not mine; so that you might find a way back home and be by my side. Rejoice; rejoice all is not lost, for I have paid the cost.

If you think that the star in the heavens are a wonderful sight; you now see what I see when I created thee. My love has no boundaries, it all for the asking if you put your faith in me. 

Trust in me with all of your heart and in this you will find the ultimate peace of mind. 
Bless you my little lamb your time was well spent praying to upon your knees. The seed has been planted and I will harvest the crops and separate the wheat from the weeds and cast them they into the lake of fire where them will suffer for all eternity. 
Having faith in me is well founded, Heaven or hell which will it be? Loving Me will set you free and guarantee you life for all eternity. This is true love that comes only from ME
the Reflections of LovePoetry


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Life On The Street

Dried up like a reservoir
In the mid summer heat
The cracks in the ground
Are like
The life lines, upon my face
I have weathered many a storm
As if
I have lived a 100 lifetimes,
Instead of one! 

Bare, rough, dirty feet
Shoes are hard to come by,
These days
Unless, I steal them!
But, then I will become a target
Having something new
It will get stolen from me
By some other gang
Or by some cruel and nasty person!

“Bare feet it is!”
“Less problems, this way!”
Feet are made for walking
I will use them
For what
They are made for!
“Now let’s get something to eat, I am starving!”

Loitering around Hungry Jacks and Macca's
Asking people 
As they walk out
With their hot, delicious, fresh food
For a gold coin or two
Dumpsters and bins
Look nice, today!
Only half eaten, stuff
A lot of wastage!
“Not the freshest stuff, but hey!”
Make do, with what we have!

The sun is shining today
Not sure where to wash though...
Water is scarce, thank god for public toilets
They sure come in handy!
They say it is fun
And you are lucky to have freedom!
But, 
It is a lie we tell ourselves
To remain ignorant
To pretend, we don’t give a damn
But, inside, 
We really do!

For you see ,
There are sacrifices
To the choices you make
When you have to live them, out
“Don’t be a fool!”
Life is no fairytale, on the dirty streets of hell!

During the day, 
The city lights up
It glitters 
As if
It were made out of gold!
It comes alive with people
Rushing here, rushing there, rushing everywhere
Not really knowing, what 
They are presently, doing 
People reminding me of robots, sheep and zombies
Acting as if they are in control of everything
When in fact, they are not!

"Who knows what is around the corner?"
"What is coming, your way!"
Life is unpredictable,
"Beware!"

“Don’t be mislead by the fakes, around here”
“There is plenty of them!”
Eyes are on you,
Down every alley way
Standing on every corner
Watching you
"You, are in ‘our territory’ now!"

“Hold onto your bags tight!”
For, 
I may be lurking behind you
One minute there,
Next minute gone!
It is the nature of the game
As
I snatch and grab your bag
When I see you off guard
Taking your money
Claiming it, as my own
You see,
I need it to survive on!
I'm banking on you, being rich!
I told you
This place is a hell hole
And, 
I meant it!

This dark place
Full of shadows and conscious deceit
Will swallow you up 
Eating, you alive!
You will lose your way
In its pit of endless darkness
There is no Prince Charming’s, out here!
There is no one to save you
There are only damsels in distress
Like me!

No one
Comes to your aid
When you need it the most
You could diminish and disappear one day
Within a blink of an eye!
Without a hint 
Nor trace of you, left behind
No one will see it happen
Because
No one
Opens their mouth up, around here!
So,
Love and appreciate, one another!
Care for yourself and care for others!
Tell your loved ones 
'you love them' often
And,
‘Enjoy' 
The home, you live in!


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WHO IS THIS

.		WHO IS THIS?


"Fill with so much anger and pain,
 wondering why things have to be this way."
"I thought i lived my life right,
 
 then why does everything keep happening to me?"
"I feel so alone and broken, what can get me out of this state?"
Then i heard a word say that everything will be okay.
" Who is this vioce that echos to me,
 from i don't know where and further more
 how can you promise me that?"
 "How could you dear!" 
"Who are you to tell me that this pain will stop!"
 "Who are you that you can heal my broken heart!" 
 "Further more, who are you to say cast my cares away?"
 "Who is this voice that i can't see yet hear?" 
" I AM THAT I AM! Your creator you see. "
"There's nothing in this life that can get pass me."
"I am the author of your story so i know things will be fine" 
"Sit back and relax i got the wheel this time."
 "Call me Jehovah-Jireh for my provision shall be seen "
 "Jehovah-Rophe cause i will heal indeed "
 "Jehovah-Shalom because i am peace "
 "Jehovah-Shammah no matter how it looks i am always there."
 "My child you can call me many things just know that i care, 
about your hurts and your pain about the tears you shed in shame
 when your down and out and feel you can't go on
 Yeild your heart to me my love will keep you strong."
 "I am Jehovah-Rohi your shepherd i'd never lead you astray
 just trust in me and i'll continue by your side each and everyday."


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Release

Everyone has been through something
Some of us more than others
Many of us have been hell and high water
Loved ones have hurt us; parents abused and neglected some of us in some way
Some of us had had painful marriages or relationships
Some of us suffered at school or work
Some of us have been though something traumatic
The good news is it’s over now
It’s time to forgive ourselves and our offenders
And release all our past pain to God

Some of us are going through currently
Catching hell in our finances
Going through physical illness
Kids acting like wild animals
Adult children in your life wanting you to carry them and working your last nerve
More fights than love in marriages and relationships you’re in
And some us seek to get in a relationship because we’re lonely and looking to fill a void
It’s time to release all you’re going through and all frustrations to the Lord
It’s time to press in, keep your eyes on the prize, push to fulfill your destiny, and remember, everything we’ve gone through or are going through will work out to the good of those that love God (Romans 8:28) 

It’s time to release
Healing takes time
Letting go takes time
But forgiveness is a choice
Letting go is a choice
And letting God heal all the hurt and pain takes time
But it’s up to us to begin to process, forgive ourselves and our offenders, and far as our past and present day situations, just go to God and be determined to release


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Memory Lane

Moments to Reflect
Memory lane
Our memories are a part of us that helps us to grow. Reminiscing about the past keeps thoughts alive so that they will last. Memories are a record of all the things that we have experienced. We hold on to those that are dear and keep them without any fears. The good ones bring us joy while the bad ones bring many tears.
Yesterday has gone; our childhood to the now, we try our best to keep our wondrous memoires that are so profound around. So that when times are bad and when thing seems rough, they put a smile on face and keep us tough.
We dream of past glories of wars that we have fought and it does not matter if we won or lost or what was the cost. It helps us to cope with the problems that we have to face each day and give us hope. Memories they help to get us out of our self contained, egoistical ways of thinking; oh how finite our minds. Keeping the past alive and in our the way, falsifying the truth without any doubts so that you can find an out, from the tribulation that this day may bring; is not dealing with the now what our lives all about?
Yesterday; this was how it was, yesterday; if I only did this or that, yesterday; now that was a good day; but what about today and problem it brings dealing with good and the bad the past is the past it just do not last. It not about what it was that you were facing, it about you using the experiences of what you have already done without any fears so that you do not find a foot in your derriere. 
Our memories are a part of us that helps us to grow. Reminiscing about the past keeps thoughts alive so that they will last. Memories are a record of all the things that we have experienced. Some are hard to forget and some are hard to let go. They are hidden in the deepest, darkest closets in our mind. We try so hard to get around those that hurt that we chose not face them for the pain is sometime to great, we just have not got what it takes. We try to forget but no matter what they will always be a part of us. We try to fool ourselves into believing that they are not. We pretend that they have no meaning, but in reality they help to define you; like it or not. Embrace them we must or else they become nightmare, monster and creating pain and mistrust. Our memories are a part of us that helps us to grow. Reminiscing about the past keeps thoughts alive so that they will last.
Memories are a record of all the things that we have experienced. There is a problem that some do have about their experiences of the past. Shaded truths that brings lies into the future about the past, alternate reality, thinking you are what you aren’t. In our arrogance we think that we are hold six aces and will have the chance for that last dance. The lie that you tell yourself will tie you into knots and cause to have to take that bitter pill (facing the truth) so that you can get back to being real. 
Memories are a record of all the things that we have experienced. Good or bad they thoughts from your past, private archive within your mind, that will always be with you they do not define who you are if you do not let them play with your mind. 
Now here a memory for you to keep for all time so do not waste your time wondering what if, because of this memory was a precious gift. He came from Heaven to this earth and paid a price to give us new birth. Now if you keep this memory close to your heart you will find new life, have faith is all it takes.
From the cross to the earth, from the earth to the sky he did rise. Salvation and a peace of mind you will find. The light of truth and never a dark day will lead the way. He the truth and the light for He is the way, that’s what the Gospel said. Jesus is the only way remember the price that He paid. This faith, this memory just might save you on judgment day, faith in Him is the only way.
“In memory of father and the Son a debt that was not owed He paid. So that we could find our way back home, a memory worth keeping alive. He was wounded for our transgression, crushed for our iniquities: by His wounds we are healed”
Isaiah 53


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A Young Man With A Heavy Load


A Young Man With A Heavy Load… I was watching a young man walking down my road. I could tell that he was sad, and carrying a “heavy load.” You see his dad had recently “up and left the home.” Now he and his mom were left all alone! I could tell it was hard for him to hold back the tears. Especially after being with his dad for so many years! I don’t think that parents think about what they say and do. They can hurt and betray the one who said; “I love YOU!” When this happens… I know that the heart of God is hurting.. Too many couples are together, but their eyes “keep flirting.” They feel happy to have a family, but soon it’s not enough… And quickly run out when things get “tough.” The dishonesty, lying and cheating are too commonplace… I’ve seen the heartache and pain upon a loved one’s face. Jesus knows all about the hurt and pain that this can cause. He also knows about the “friction” caused by the “in-laws.” For the one that may be thinking of leaving his or her family… You may think it’s fun now… But you’re not going to be happy! Whatever is tugging at your heart now may seem “appealing.” But it’s the love from your spouse and kids that you’re stealing! I challenge you to be the man or woman of God he wants you to be! You need to be with the family God gave you! Can’t you see??? Come on back and spend the quality time you need to spend. Your family and children need you both as a parent and a friend! Allow the love of Jesus Christ to bind your hearts together! May his peace and joy comfort you now and forever! Allow your home to be filled with the love of God’s precious son! May be bring your family together in unity… As ONE! By Jim Pemberton


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Hope

Holy books says it all
You taught me how to crawl
This will never change
Never ends never fades
Dear God where you are?
Shattered piece of childish dreams
This will never change
Never ends never fades.

I can fight for all my life,
Not broken, not broken inside
Never be so frustrated,
Not going to commit suicide.

Fuc*ing faith will fall,
Mortals will stand tall
Hell and heaven are all the same
Live your life, don't die in vain

Only you and I can make 
A better world for tomorrow
Have faith in yourself
And wipe off the tears of sorrow

Make me scream, Make me cry
I'll never fail to try.
This night's has an end
No pain will remain


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It's About Them

It's not about me;
It never was,
It never should have been,
And it never will.
It's not about me;
It's about them.
It's about Him.
It's about giving them all they need
To get them back on their feet.
It's about showing them hope
So they may be filled with the Spirit
And know that things will be alright again.
It's about serving Him
So we may show His love
And spread His messages for all the world to hear.
It's about inspiring.
It's about teaching faith.
It's about giving hope.
It's about showing love.
It's not about me;
It's about them.
It's about Him.


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What if GOD was one of us

That old age question, what does GOD look like?

What if you have already met? . . You might have seen him today?

Did you look closely at that stranger that needed help when you just walked on by?
Remember that charity worker that asked for a minute of your time?

Maybe we dont get to see GOD in his true form yet, but that dosnt mean we doont see him in this life. 

Don't be so quick to walk by . .
Dont be so quick dismiss that situation were you could have helped . . 

GOD sees everything and sometimes he's right there testing you . . Dont give up on the world just yet


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Another angel falls

on the way of a world
along another broken life,
will be a time to come
to free our nature...
will be a time of suffering
and the moment of the right justice,
when our hurt soul will cry
in the silence of a lost life.

will be shadows of pain too
in the way of the ones without cure,
forever their pain will shout
in their soul forget by time...

on the sky forgotten by the stars
the infinite horizon strikes away,
a white lighting falls free
shouting that another life ended...

...what did fall down now from the sky,
within the shining lighting?
another door has been opened,
another angel falls.


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Quiet Waters

Streams of blue fluid 
Flows downward 
As fragile carcasses decay 
Without a peep of a sound

We’re in the brink of disaster… 

Who invited such fear and anguish?
Who could lead us to quiet waters?

We bleed…
Polluting the waters below us… 
Trickling down the mountain
To our filthy feet…

Cleansing the sin off of our skin
But, it’s tangled from deep within…

The eeriness breaks 
The hearts of a thousand strangers
They all fall away powerlessly… 
Into the chambers of death 

Danger is lurking in every corner…
Pursuing its evil plans
To cut down our hopes…
Growing like crops… 
Rising rapidly –  
It never stops

Dreams of misfortune still 
Rapes our minds,
Plaguing our happiness… 
Consuming the darkness…

We’re sprawling on the ground…
We’re crawling like infants…
Veering briskly like serpents…

Who will set our souls free 
From suppression?  

Who will preserve our hearts?
Don’t prey upon our 
Guiltless lives… 
We’re in complete agony… 
Does He consider 
Our prayers  
Of support and nourishment? 

We scream…
Breaking the repulsive solitude…

Encourage us to keep on 
Trekking toward Your light

Where’s Your path?

You rinse off all of the sorrow 
Giving us a ecstatic tomorrow 

The weeping ceases…
While the corpses 
Tear into 
Blood-spattered 
Pieces…  

The faith of a couple of people
Strengthens us…keeps us motivated…
Not captivated…
In misery…
We’re reaping our 
Ecstasy…   
Leading us to peace and fortune 
Keeping us accustomed
To Your purifying spirit…
Keeping us away from 
Calamity… 

We’re hungry… 
Our demise is close at hand…
Closing in on us abruptly 
Like an obscure cave…

Rescue us from affliction –  
Embracing downhearted clouds…

Those wretched clouds…

Brought us rain when we asked for bread…

Those merciless clouds…

Spewed out scorching fire when we asked for relief…

Remember our supplications… 
Appalling lightning’s daring to strike us  
Out of cruel vengeance 
Out of sheer amusement 

Don’t even attempt to weaken us
We’re blossoming in joy…
We’re under cover… 
You can’t manipulate us 
Like a subtle toy 

We’re praying for
Quiet waters

Offer the deceased 
A second chance

Don’t disown 
Our broken lives

We’re not alone…

We’re just waiting until
The quiet, glistening waters
Gratefully arrives…


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PRAYER TO THE GARDENER

I know the garden is left untended
to flower and die as You intended
an occasional trip down a row, maybe,
pulling a weed or planting a seed,
but I need a visit badly indeed,
for my roots are dying, you’ll surely see.

Earth so dry, and I’m really trampled,
foulest disappointment I have sampled,
but my pain is naught compared to others.
My core has shriveled, I’m barely a weed,
and perhaps I could even lose my seed,
I don’t deserve help, but I’ve got brothers,

And my sisters too, they all pitched in
forgave all my wrongs, each and every sin
but only You can renew this field, invigorate.
Just a tear from Your eye could water the ground,
and soothe the root-pain, though I’ll still be bound,
I hope you come soon, or it may be too late.


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Torn

A bridge in maze through shift it gaze

Torn

From pillars being built in monuments to the sun;
A mouth to live yet viable led scorn,
In truth will learn as chivalry turn to worst;
Born under a bad sign in rudimentary fragmented parts...

Sheer brilliance led to essential eloquence,
Supernatural...
Torn,
I see a gate negate to climb

In distant fervor swept from behind
One in twain yet marked on its blotted page fully intact;
The deception lies in you amidst a shade of thorns,
Branded by ivy delusional thought provoking pitch,

A mind blinded lying headlong in a ditch...

In sunlight we gasp for air through pillars in illustrative thought
Torn between the world I know
Then to escape into the one I wish to go
A soul harvest to its plain;

The ghastly pitch lest I refrain again,

The light on the charitable offering still shines;
A tongue in cheek sublime rhyme,
Fought back its silence to numb its pain escape
A slide to cope in a favorable episode explode;
With no shelter to cry the outset of the fall
In silence its refusal of the slight of hand
To once again greet the average no it all
Fought back its silence to numb its pain once again
To shine in episodes of discipline within
Higher elements of discomfort & scorn
Torn

A bridge of light once again  to push away its pain within
A slope to cope a guard to wear;
Briars and silence amidst harlots with pain
The toll of lost lovers let lose in my brain
Torn
In episodes of anger
In the creative reply to things;
In destination of negate vile authority
Blinded by things that don't even please
Torn

~
Socialized wandering wizards in a heavy garb of compromise

Devastation in mass anhiliation the saga of paradise lost
Torn
With heads of state in vile treatment of hate
No sense to delegate or leave it up to fate!
~
Torn


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True Love

Moments to Reflect
True Love

As I look up into the night sky, oh what a beautiful sight the stars shining are so bright. I think about my Lord and my heart swells and fills with so much joy that the Father of all has created such wonders in the heavens above. So much beauty, so much love.
This cause me to reflect upon my existence on this earth, why was I given birth, what is my purpose on this earth? These questions laid profoundly on my mind and brought tear to my eyes.

I got down on my knees and ask my Lord please explain it to me. From my heart came pouring out all of my thoughts along with all of my doubts.
To my lord I did say, what is it that you want from me, for I do the things that I do not want to do, and the things that I want to do, I cannot seem to do, why am I such a fool I feel like am doom?

What is wrong seems so right and doing what is right is so hard for me to do, am hurting so deep within all I want is this pain to end.
My life is filled with so many ups and down I cannot keep my feet on solid ground. I feel like am on a roller coaster and it headed hell bounded. I pray that this is not my fate it‘s Heaven’s gate that I seek and I pray that it not too late.

Then as the tears began to fall and my heart started to break; all of a sudden I felt this warm embraces. I have never in life expected such love, such comfort, or joy, and then suddenly all my pain was gone and I heard the angels singing a wonderful song. In my mind eye I could see my Lord and savior sitting on His throne looking at me.

He smile and said to me; life is worth living and this is why it was given, trials and tribulation are just part of the deal and I know that this is a bitter pill.
It in your nature to sin my child but this you can end if you walk in the light and let me come in. My yoke is easy and I make your burdens light so just ask me to forgive you of your sins for with me in your comer this fight you will win. 

Then you will be heaven bound and sin will never be able to hold you down. The guide if you decide to be at my side is written in my living words. Read them and heed them and satan will frown and you will no longer be hell bound.
Then the Lord said to me, I tell you this my little lamb,  I Am who I Am and I came into this world a long time ago, my Father sent me to earth to show His child the way. 
I became a living sacrifice and paid a debt that was not mine; so that you might find a way back home and be by my side. Rejoice; rejoice all is not lost, for I have paid the cost.

If you think that the star in the heavens are a wonderful sight; you now see what I see when I created thee. My love has no boundaries, it all for the asking if you put your faith in me. 

Trust in me with all of your heart and in this you will find the ultimate peace of mind. 
Bless you my little lamb your time was well spent praying to upon your knees. The seed has been planted and I will harvest the crops and separate the wheat from the weeds and cast them they into the lake of fire where them will suffer for all eternity. 
Having faith in me is well founded, Heaven or hell which will it be? Loving Me will set you free and guarantee you life for all eternity. This is true love that comes only from ME


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Pain Sustains Eternally

Once, I entered insanity with nothing and walked away with something can only be explained as knowing everything is perception nothing is real just the really fake and the only power is in that which you create something from nothing a simple knowing no one ever knew me except for what they accepted from everything but the source for I am eternal a nothing existence in an invisible sun everything dead that it touches Your all just figments of my imagination and this whole wide world a small part of my creation just for entertainment I gave you pleasure never could measure any ounce of belief because the image only ever existed as a small internal knowing I knew it was there I know I existed while your living only through my cancerous cells Words hurt, and pain kills too many problems two little pills no more sorrow it serves no use no one cares when they feel abuse words build into a sentence as many lines lead me to finish a guilty closure, a salty sweet that can't maintain as words to be I close my eyes, to nod away the pain sustains, eternally.


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I wait

It is there we are without ourselves. 
As we find love and wait. 
It is there the pain is as we wait the eternity it seems. 
It is a never ending search as we wish to complete our souls. 
That the love we have is strong. 
That there,we forever love. 
But to know one is to love one but to be without is to die. 
That everyday is pain because our forever is not there. 
But somewhere in this world she exist. 
As I go on living this lonely life not complete. 
I wait for her through my tearful heart. 
In hopes that one day we meet. 
That if she shall come,she is faithful and true. 
That the words I Love You are just merely words because she will know how my heart feels. 
Because everyday,my actions will speak louder then them words. 
That I wait for the love of my heart. As I dream of that beautiful day. 
I wait in hopes of loving her that forever is the pain I feel. 
As my emptiness is there until then. 
I wait..


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She and I

From the ablaze of thunder
They all flew;
In front the doors of hell
There stood the crew 
Asking for a little bit of mercy 
Wanting it to be so true…
Ceasing the demons from stabbing another soul
Is what I want to do
But hatred and anger 
What only grew 
Ceaseless nights and the darkest lights
Have got into my heart
I smile and I laugh though
I just want my day to be oh so bright…
I'm losing my friend
God I don’t want this to end 
Nonsense words were spoken above 
Because of this idea that I hate so much 
I'm still losing my friend 
And my faith in god is what will end…
He's taking her away 
I need her badly to stay 
I look into her eyes and cry
And wish it's me who is gona die… 
The moment I knew 
The breeze of fear 
The touch of pain 
Have dropped on my soul again
I wanted to scream 
I wished it was a dream 
God this is so mean…
I'm tearing really hard 
On my life I want a guard 
A guard to help me live again 
And cease each and every pain 
I want to erase my every sin 
Please god help me win 
My weary soul can hold no more 
Just help her live 
And give her faith 
And get her smile back to her face
Every night I pray alone 
And remain awake until its dawn 
I sit on the piano and play 
And let my tears free each night 
And each day 
My heart is very weak 
And I will soon
 Become so bleak 
If this is how life is meant to be 
Then what am I and she to thee..?
If this is the way you want to rule 
don’t you think it's quiet cruel..?
If in pain and agony you want me to dive 
Then why do you want me still alive..?
I'm your worshipper and you're my knight 
Please keep her close I want to hold her tight 
My constant tears will dry so soon 
And you'll see me walking blindly to my doom 
Why does happiness never last; 
Why does it have to fade so fast?
Keep her god; 
I want her near
Keep her god; 
I want her here… 
I'm so tired my dear… 
 


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OH, SOMETIMES



Oh! sometimes, how it feels so heavy inside
When words can scarcely express
When laying back on a recliner would barely do
When looking out the window Won't do
When singing a loved song won't do
When taking a walk won't do
when listening to music won't do



Oh! Sometimes, when it seems so grey out there
How reading a book can't help
When people can't come to rescue
When everything seems all screwed up
When life's story seems all jumbled up
Then will I run to you
To take refuge and anchor in your peaceful arms
Though I know those arms are always open
Still sometimes, it feels they are interlocked from me



Oh! sometimes, how it gets so hot around here
When the heat and pressure of life comes too strong
When it feels like I'm all scotched and hung
Steaming hot with sweat and tear drop dripping long
As though everything put together has gone wrong
on my ground I'll remain and proclaim "to you I belong"
Then will I run to your shadow for shade


Oh! those times, I feel so hungry and thirsty for you
But never get sufficient filling as desired
Rather left with deeper want and yearning for you
I could only hold-still and keep on trusting you
Inspite all these, I know you are very near
Though I can't see you with my eyes
I hear your fine voice saying to me... I'm with you
I hide only for you to get more desperate...
In all I've learnt not to trail you using my senses
But through faith follow you closely by heart...


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This pain within me

This pain with in me, I've hidden it deep,
No one can know the secrets I keep.
The secrets about all the things I've seen in this world,
and the things that I've done that kept me from being just a little girl.
The pain within me, I know can it can heal,
if only I'de try to fly back to a place that is real.
Wait! I see someone and they extand their hand,
He says " Come on back and strong you will stand, all you have to do is let go of the past ,
and that pain within you will disappear fast".
So I take his hand and he was right I feel better,
No more tears to wipe late at night on the sleeve of my sweater.
This pain within me, it's turned into joy,
because I was given a second chance at life to live and enjoy.


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Face of Pain

Have love in the face of pain
See emotions walk pride and flame
Deeper than mistakes in chains
Have love in the face of moods
Wear moody boots
Pregnant by popular demand
Roots are watered by creativity

Be woods on isolated deserts
Light the fire
Be cool and sharpen your lips on door steps
Have love in the face of age
Make unstoppable keyboards turn into walking words

A4's have played their role with no bones
Feed your pages with fatness unless you are less fortunate
Obesity should worry your rhymes and spitting timetable on stages
Not bones on pages 
My body grows brunches of spoken words i used to be skinny
Hang on to my face of other faces and windy decisions
Screw the teary background its in the past

I tailor made my coffin long before my resurrection
Have love in the face of pain
I love my fat words
I deep kiss them in all deep freezers
Cold words iced for future party moods
Say the same thing in different trousers and dresses
Walk in matrix 
Let them get more puzzled
Have love in the face of pain

Love left them hanging in the air
They rained tears but pain was blur and cloudy
Pain buried himself under pleasurable bedroom eyes
Pain sneaked in the dark and paused on her promising eyes
I am you in this Poetry
Never wash your face before my words

Remember my seeds
The fruits planted on concrete brains
Left to grow strength and passion
Love seeks more woods and light to walk its blindness sometimes
The protective jelly 
Smoothly rubbed to take away skin value

© Raymond Ngomane 


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Send Down The Rain

slavery of the mind to succed to the emotion (lies) Are we strong enough to storm the despair Or do we falter behind the façade over and over again Strive to reach the truth The kind is held back by all of the lies And the delusions of the unchained clouds Help us to believe again What we're all missing Is it all too late To send down a sign To send down the rain As the siren sings she's ready to be on the prowl On the prowl to hunt down our souls It's not real Pretend to send down the motion Our hidden notions Of our lieing emotions Help us believe again We're all lost inside Send down the rain Curropt against the pain Help us believe again We're all lost inside Send down the rain Curropt against the pain


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How Do I Let You Go

What will be
Will be!
I know of this, first hand
Your life was taken away
So abruptly!
I will 
Never forget
That day!
Till the day 
My body dies
And
I am with you, again!

“How was I to prepare myself?”
With 
That kind of 
Life changing, event!
You 
Didn't warn me 
You
Were permanently leaving!
I hope 
You know 
How much “I love you”
Know
You will never be forgotten!

I don’t know 
What 
Has got into me!
Consciously
I feel you
Inside me
I see images
Of your face 
So clearly!
Am I crazy 
To believe in this, my love?

“Are you still with me?”
“Is my imagination 
Playing cruel tricks
Running rampant
As
I talk with you
As if 
You were by my side, right now

In my heart and mind
Your face etched
Imprinted
Like a blue print
That never fades
Your foot prints 
Still remain, beside me
My heart beats
Eternally
Trying to make sense of everything!

Forgive me, my love
For being so strong in my feeling
For it has been a long time
Since I lost you, my friend
Something 
I haven’t
Quite
Got over!

My heart 
Having 
A mind of its own
Aching 
To be with you, still!
To see you
To smell you
To touch you
To taste you
One
Last time!

I want to say “Goodbye” 
Once and for all!
As 
We have
Brought out
The best and worst 
In each other
Rivers run deep
When it comes to you and me!

We have had our fair share of fights and arguments
Stubborn disagreements
All of them
Meaningless
Now
You cease to exist!

I miss your lingering touches
Your hand, stroking my face
Your big, blue eyes
Looking into mine
Your warm lips
Your rough, unshaven face 
The way you
Passionately
Kiss me
While
We make love, till dawn

I miss
All those nights
You kept me 
Safe and warm!
I miss
Your
Loving embrace
I miss
Your
Reassurance!
“Am I ever going to feel the same, with another?”
Just
As 
I felt
In your arms, my love?

How
Do I let you go?
How
Do I set myself, free?
I am ready
To love, again!
With 
‘Our eternal love’
Supporting
And 
Guiding me
Especially
In times, like these!


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Jesus Died for Everyone

Jesus Died For Everyone! Jesus died on the cross for you me! So we can be with him throughout eternity. His life for ours… A ransom was paid IN FULL! Through his shed blood, we’re made whole! Upon his head were placed the crown of thorns. Enduring so much ridicule and scorn. The blood from his body as it began to flow. His love for mankind clearly showed! Nails were placed through his feet and hands! The pain he went through, is hard to understand. His life for ours, is what he gave! A way to eternal life, in heaven, has been made! By Jim Pemberton


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My Countless Wishes -Part 1-

I wish 
To be a pigeon soaring in the morning sky
I wish
I have all my issues fly out the windows
I wish
My whole body could simply wither away 
I wish
To start anew and be on a fresh start 
I wish
I had the ability to fly 
I wish
To have a talent of writing cheerful, exquisite poems 
I wish
I could be a wonderful guy 
I wish
I could have a future family and be the best father in the world
I wish
I could have a positive mindset 
I wish
I had the desire to talk things out and live a peaceful life


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Everyone's Gone

Everyone's gone...
There's no one to look up to...not one...
Not one will be kind enough
To look down and attempt to help me...

Everyone's gone...
I'm beneath the debris
There's no one there to save me...
I'm left to my own misery 

Everyone's gone...
I guess I'll find my way out of this maze
Without any clues
I'm waiting for relief to dawn upon me

Everyone's gone
I'm dealing with so much trauma 
I'm watching for any signs of support...
Hear my echoes of pain...
It drives me insane...
Catch me before I fall off the cliff...

Everyone's gone
I'm all skin and bones
I'm trapped like a hunted animal
The predator took a bite into me...
Don't just watch me suffer...
Deserted in this lonesome state

Everyone's gone
I'm kicked around like a soccer ball 
Hear me as I call...
Help me to stand tall

Help me... 
Reach up to the sky
To feel the coolness seep through me
Help me...
To be inspired to write more uplifting songs
Help me think more positively - help me wave g'bye
Help me...
Forgive me for all of my wrongs...

Everyone's gone
I'm a screwed-up building
I need you to be my backbone 
Straighten me up...help me to be stiff like a soldier
About to enter another horrifying war
Support me today...
And stick with me tomorrow!

I want to let go of the past memories...
Scaring away my happy moments and delights 
I want to smear away the blasphemies…
Obliterating my blissful days and nights

Everyone's gone...
There's no one to depend on...not one...
Not one will be brave enough
To look down and attempt to help me...

Everyone's gone...
I'm beneath the city
There's no one to show me the jolly sun...
I'm left to my own misery 

Everyone's gone...
Fine… I'll find a way to get out of this nightmare 
Without any clues
I'm waiting for relief to give me strength instead of fear 


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HIS LOVE for YOUR Pain


His Love For Your Pain... "It's hard to see someone I love go through so much pain." Were the words I heard that night I called on Jesus' name. "This person whom I love, has gone through so much." "How I wish to bring my peace and healing touch." I cried and wept, as I heard the master's voice. His gift of love is for all of us... It's our choice! His body was broken... A sacrifice was made. His life for our sorrow and pain, is what he gave. His grace is more than sufficient for the pain we endure. His love and commitment to you, is true and secure. He loves you so much. He waits at your heart's door. He gives peace and comfort. And so much more! The pain and suffering you're going through today. Please listen to the words Christ has to say. "I am El-Shadaii." "Jehovah-Jireh." "Your very best friend." "My love and devotion to you will never, never end." By Jim Pemberton


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Small Little Victories

If we break life down into small little victories,
It won't be long until the battle is over,
And before we know it,
The war will be won.


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The Face of Death in the Eyes of the Human Mind

When we see the face of death
We run without thinking why he is here
Normally we don’t know what happens 
After the heart finally stops beating its 
Rhythmic race after years upon years

Our hearts begin to race as he gets close
We start to pray to our own higher power
‘Lord please if you take me do not let me
Feel the pain that I am imagining now amen’

As he holds his scythe he glides closer and 
Closer picking and choosing whom is next 
On the list to die tonight no one knows at 
That moment if they will die or survive to see 
The sun rise in the sky the next morning

What are we to do in the meantime while 
He torments the living who have a sickness
Of the body mind or soul we pray again
Please do not take me from my family that 
Needs my help to survive 

And again another life is spared by his 
choosing but not all of our prayers and
pleas will be answered by the one above 

there are a few who choose to let the 
scythe come down and rip out our soul 
and then the heart stops we pass into 
the next world or we watch the pain 

Tear the hearts of our loved ones apart 
Then we slowly start to realize something... 

‘To celebrate death is actually to celebrate life itself’


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Pain sings

Too many words of love,
yet few for a scarred soul.
A shallow heart sings in pain,
a rhythm of soul,
strings struck to reverberate 
in this solitary world.

In your dreamy looks 
and wavy locks lost, are you?
why the apathy towards my misery?
a grain in the sands of time, 
find some for this fool.
unshackle me from these bonds.

A kid are you? underaged. 
to toss me and bounce me. 
enough now!
Find someone else to bother,
leave me be to wander,
the fate conspired for me.


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There Shall Come A Great Tribulation

There Shall Come A Great Tribulation!

You’ll find In the Bible... 
In the book of Revelation.
One day... There shall come
 a great tribulation.

There shall be famine and war 
this world has never seen.
"Satan's fury" being poured 
out upon everything.

The Antichrist will appear 
as "the world leader."
"The man with all of the answers."  
"A great world healer."

People won't be able to buy or sell
 without a mark on their hand.
While corruption and wickedness 
prevails throughout the land.

Our only hope and answer during 
much chaos and anxiety.
Is Jesus.  In HIM we can 
have life abundantly!

This world shall one day 
perish and pass away.
 God's truth and his word are here to stay!

Come to Jesus now... 
He invites you to come.
Accept the gift of eternal life 
from God's precious son!

He's our only hope in this
 world which we live.
He is so patient and kind... 
willing to forgive.

Will your name be in God's 
book of life someday?
Are you ready to meet him on judgment day.

This world... or Jesus... the choice
 by you must be made.
The price for your soul... 
on Calvary... has been paid!

By Jim Pemberton


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Be More

Part 1.

I wonder if the time and day would last forever
I think of all things will quit never
Among the time that we wish to do a lot
And a notion that is close to not
We have the talent that grows 
We seek it and it shows
Growing up to know each wonder of the mind
Going to best things and be kind
I walk a dream but not a dream
I want to do things with out running out of steam
So when I smile my days are long
Seeing that I do things just to belong
It hits me right in the center of my core
It grabs me in the heart to just be more

Part 2.

An interest that came by
It also was such moments that lie
I fallow everyone else with the feeling of hope
It seems that they rather hang me by a rope
Just what is the matter with people now a days
Caring for others I was taught in my ways
Do the people I hang out with always betray
I sit down and thing about it many way
My father and mother is not going to be ashame
They are not to even think it or to blame
I can do things much more to my very core
I can grab everyones heart and I can be more


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Seven steps to and fro

tears on her pillow
draw her huge billow
drowned in awkwardness
invisible in darkness
 
deafening loud scold 
denial of  mold
memories unbound
plunging her drowned speechless sound

feelings paralyze 
fears demoralize
life's always the same 
words unable to explain

ignorance dictates
returning misstates 
silencing too much
lost the connecting touch

saddening feeling
despite crushed kneeling
bricks building a wall
dry tears tell about the fall
 
time stepping backwards
frightening factors
unwanted distance
lost intense inner guidance

her new world ice glassed 
storms of the lost past
arriving ashore
irreversible once more

she fights frozen air
gazes with a stare 
searching for fires 
her own past never retires 

tears on her pillow
drawn by the willow 
dry frozen in time
fate echoed again her chime

she searches for words
struggles with what hurts
moments of relieve
her wish, dream, truth and belief


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a worthy weapon

For reasons unspeakable and meanings misunderstood, Her body was desecrated, mistaken for his good. Battered, broken, betrayed, and bruised, Her spirit was robbed from her, her trust misused. Confused and weary, retreat her only choice, The pain of betrayal silenced her inner voice. Emotions were unrecognizable, strangers if you will, Her feelings turned predatory, in search of a kill. Terrified of the unfamiliar heart that beat inside her chest, Her thoughts were vengeful and cruel at best. She had never known a pain so deep and so great, Instantly, she became intimate with the feeling of hate. The dangers of the world, were all at once revealed, Reminding her, betrayal had taken with it, her shield. Who would protect her, be there to keep her safe, Now that danger had taken on a new face? For now she had no crutch, there would be no beacon in the night, She herself would have to be a warrior, to survive this fight. And it was a fight indeed, she battled head on, Constantly being conquered from trying to face the battle alone. Armed with selfishness, anger, resentment and pride, She was desperately seeking a weapon, worthy enough her side. So, ravaged and weak, she called out into the darkness, And with her humility at hand, she was reminded of a promise. Stilly and quietly she started to recall, There was One, who had promised her it all. Promised there was a place with no sorrow or tears, And promised with Him, she’d have no evil to fear. She questioned her debt, for she had acquired many He assured with repentance she would not pay for any. She asked about His sacrifice and He humbly replied, For you my child, a thousand times over, I would have been crucified. With those precious words, she fell upon her face, Worshiping him, knowing she was unworthy of such grace. He wiped a tear from her face, and gave her a light in her heart Told her to go and be an example, that Jesus can be the start. The start of the beginning to a whole new life, Where your never left alone to face the struggle and strife. He made it clear to her; your Master will never leave you, She found comfort in the physical evidence of that that truth. She found He was living, inside her heart He is alive, No longer in fear, she can see the world in a whole new light. Now dressed in His armor, she is ready for battle, He helps her to mount, for today, she rides a new saddle.


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Marie III--Is the Coffin Too Deep

So frigid was her immaculate body Her last second in screams is all I can see Love's revenge was my guilt With you I'd rather let you die with Bound hands Without you, Marie, like the psychopath's dream Death is all that I can see; All that could redeem Did anyone ask Did anyone recall The sweet taste of the poison The swift slash of the knife he penetration of the lead The pain of her decaying heart I can hear it's bellowing cries But why can't you, Marie, Hear my paranoid eulogies Is the coffin too deep? Was it so hard to solve Was it so hard to see That I strangled her so easily My nails piercing her comely skin Blood dripping like the pomegranate I crushed with the shovel I shattered her shins The knife to slight her wrists Didn't you see I did it all The only witness Couldn't say Is the coffin too deep? The pain of her decaying hear tI can hear it's bellowing cries But why can't you, Marie, Hear my paranoid eulogies Is the coffin too deep? Marie I cant stay Earth is to cruel when your coffin is to deep Forever in death and in death alone The pain of her decaying heart I can hear it's bellowing cries But why can't you, Marie, Hear my paranoid eulogies Is the coffin too deep?


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He Touched Me

  I Sat Alone in My Despair,
 All Reason for Living Gone,
 When a Stranger Sat Beside Me,
 with a Beard and Hair Too Long.
 
 I Was Soon Absorbed in Misery Again,
 Not Knowing That I Cried.
 The Tears Dripped off My Chin
 and I Wished  I Could Have Died.
 
 His Voice Was Kind and Gentle,
 So I Felt No Need to Flee.
 He Asked Me What Was Wrong,
 to Share May Set Me Free.
 
 I Said, "Walk a Mile in My Shoes
 and Feel this Unbearable Pain.
 Face All the Problems I  Have,
 and Feel the Weight of My Shame."
 
 He Said My Troubles Would Go Away
 as the Wind Blows Away the Sands,
 Then a Wondrous Joy Swept Through Me,
 as He Touched Me with Nail Scarred Hands.
 
 Connie Moore
 09/29/96


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My Second Soul

Negativity runs through my blood stream Stuck and demented within this mindless dream Have you heard the ghosts' voices when you sleep? Or feel the icy fingertips dance across your neck when you weep? Do you see the demons who fog our righteous path? Do you always find yourself stuck in this reality-wrath? Do you see the temptations before your grasp? Have you ever felt so frightened, you let out an eerie gasp? Are you as lost as me in these demonic twist? Do you often want to feel pain and see your bloody wrists? Watch the blood drip hot from the tip of the blade Watch your normal life slip into darkness and fade But do you have that one hope that always breaks your every fall? And who releases you from being sacrificed against the wall? Do you have that special "other half" who can bear this type of pain? And who can make it where no more you have any shame? Do you have that second soul that matches your heart? Do you feel this same type of pain when you two are apart? Do you have another body at night that holds you close? Is that one and only second soul the one you love the most? What would you sacrifice to be with them? Can your second soul be your jacket against the wind? Do you have a similar second soul like I have today? Does it feel like every prayer came true that you did pray? I have a second soul who stays by my side I have another soul and heart besides my own I can confide I have a best friend who has literally saved my life And he has a second soul that became his wife I have a second strong Marine-beating heart Who is everything I want and more --- and who is incredibly smart I have another set of arms that holds me close at night I have another voice to diffuse all of the confusion and fright I have another personality to match my own Who I have started a family with and started a happy home The second soul of mine reminds me of today I live truly for him for he is my golden ray I would not be the soul I am today without him For him entering my life --- my world is no longer dim He showed me the reality of relationship "world-life" And cancelled out all of my past hurt, pain, and strife He picked me up from the deader than dead-end path And reminded me of what it felt like to finally laugh Times are hard but with him we will pull through Sunny days are on their way with skies a baby-blue Better times I believe are coming near I'm still here, baby, remember that and have no fear


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Satan Told Me That No One Loves Me

Satan Told Me That No One Loves Me!

 I heard the devil whisper into my ear…
“No one loves you!”  “Come over here!”

In front of me, where temptations of various kinds...
It was almost overwhelming for my mind!

He promised “love.”  And much more!
I had no idea of what was in his “store!”

I asked Jesus to help the way I was livin.’
I needed his love, and HIS power of forgivin.’!

Would I trade all of this, for a life of deceit and lies?
Being “trapped” by what was,
 Shown to my eyes?

Was I going to trade what God gave,
 for a ”pleasure of the moment?”
Was I about to make a mockery of Christ’ atonement?

I ran, and bowed my head and cried…
For a brief moment, I felt rejected and despised!

 I felt the Holy Spirit’s presence all around me!
Iit was like the love of Jesus had filled me!

This time, I knew that what I had, was all I needed!
With Christ in my life, I no longer have to be defeated!

Satan is a liar!  He has one purpose and goal!
He wants nothing more, than to destroy my soul!

Take notice Satan!  This is what I proclaim!
Everything I’ll ever need!  I have in Jesus’ name!

The blessings from Jesus, has supplied my every need!
It’s an everlasting and abundant love, that I received!

Thank you Jesus! For giving what I need and more!
You are truly wonderful!  
And are worth living for!


By Jim Pemberton


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Are You Filled With Hopelessness


Are You Filled With Hopelessness?

Are you filled with
hopelessness and despair?
In your circumstances…
God is always there!

Spending time God, will bring to
you needed refreshment.
You can talk to God now!
With no appointment!

He will listen to whatever
you have to say!.
You'll find he is very close...
just a heartbeat away!

Whatever problems you have.
Whatever your needs may be.
God's love for you...  
You'll begin to see!

Jesus is waiting for you
to all on his name.
It was for YOU that to earth he came.

Won’t you spend time with him?
You don’t need an appointment!
He wants to meet your needs!
This very moment!

Allow HIM to remove all
of your worry and fear.
He is with you!
Ever so near!!!

By Jim Pemberton


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Life's Sorrow

The journey of life is without sorrow
God's gift of life, are only moments we borrow

So cherish those memories of life’s past
Getting you through to the ever last 

Pray for the strength they say it’s within
For the Savior to ease the pain you’re in

That day will come when pain turns to smiles
Patience and hope will happen in a while

Stay strong knowing, pain and suffering doesn’t stay
Thanking him for just another day


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Those Thoughts (extended version)

Nightmares, shame, and despair---
You don't go anywhere.
All alone in your mind
even with someone by your side.

You think, "Why can't everyone just leave me alone?"
You thought the hint would be cutting off the phone.
But everyone wants you to release your cares.
The next thing you do is frown and ask, "Where?"

Stinkin' thinkin' is what your mom calls it.
Bad thoughts falling down a bottomless pit.
You wake up hoping those feelings disappear;
but, as usual they end up going nowhere.

You can't seem to get rid of the pain
and in your heart an eternal rain.
No one really knows how you feel
and you have friends that always ask, "What the deal?"

But tomorrow always comes.
Bad days for you, but good for some.
Disparaging words flow in and out of your head.
You're alive but you're living like you're dead!

They're like cobwebs in your mind
that you can't seen to bind.
The hurt is always there
which has always been your fear.

You don't see the destruction your thoughts have created.
Yet relationships were destroyed with the people you've dated.
You allowed your pain to take away time.
Your anger towards others has become the real crime.

It all boils down to that one thing in your past.
A terrible time that from your mind you've yet to cast.
The pain from the physical and spiritual rape
that rolled around in your head like an old videotape.

The abuser was like a father to you
and when it first happened there was nothing you could do.
You felt trapped like you could go nowhere.
His power over you was to instill that fear.

The "fear" is what's wrong
and you must discover another heart song.
Up to this point life hasn't been the best.
Maybe letting go of this is the next test.

There has always been someone that has loved you.
Someone who is capable of taking you through.
He's a Friend that sticks closer than a brother,
Jesus--- a Savior like no other!

If you don't give it to Him so you can thrive
you will plummet to the depths and never survive.


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Are You Addicted With Nowhere to Go

Are You Addicted, With Nowhere to Go? I know that it's easy to get discouraged and upset. Being addicted... But you can't escape "just yet." You've tried "everything." And don't know what else to do? Is there "anyone" who can "help you through?." The things you've done. You’ve wanted to be forgiven! Yet struggle with this Each day your liven! You greet people and wear a "smile." Do you wonder if living is really "worth the while." You may have prayed over and over again. And yet constantly struggle with a stubborn sin. Many times when you've tried to call on Jesus' name. Yet find yourself in "guilt and shame." Jesus is here now! He wants you to know… He can bring satisfaction and Make you WHOLE! Rather than thinking of things done in the past. Come to Jesus now! His love will always LAST! Allow God to bring to your life the needed victory now! He'll make you a brand new person! And HOW! By Jim Pemberton


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Back and Forth

The back and forth, the to and fro
The evil seeds the enemy sows
How can I walk the straight and narrow?
While I suffer blow after blow
How can I continue to follow in your plan?
While I still be a double minded man
 
It’s hard to call on your name
In the midst of my shame
I am in so much pain
 But from where has it come?
And to where can it go?
In my guilt, I am brought low
 
The truth is I am guilty
But I don’t have to bear this shame
The price has been paid
 You have taken it away
Yet there is a cunning snake
A liar and a fake
Who wants me to think otherwise
To believe his devious lies
That I should run from you
That I should only hide
But it isn’t true
 
The real truth is this, this is what's up
Though I fall down, I am lifted up
 Though I fail, I remain forgiven
By your great love I am driven
So that even when I stumble
My faith will not crumble
Though I still do wrong
You make me strong

I now have an answer
To this deadly cancer
A cure for my imperfection 
 To move in a new direction
 Not to mourn and wallow
But simply to turn and follow
After the one who called me
And set me free
Who opened my eyes
So that I could see


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Open Your Heart


Stone cold are the feelings you appear to choose to hold
Ever seeming, ever screaming, your feelings don’t go too untold

Open up your heart today
Let Christ warm your soul
Let go of frozen pain of old 
Let Him change your gaze


Stone cold is not who you are, or how you’re meant to be
You’ve drifted far from who you are, and all that He does see

Open up your heart today
Let Christ warm your soul
Let go of frozen pain of old
Let Him change your ways 

Hold Him closely to your heart; He’ll warm you to the bone
He’ll rescue you and set you free, He’ll prepare and bring you home





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I am the Son of a Bastard Son

I AM THE SON OF A BASTARD SON

I am the son of a bastard son,
He did not’t know his father, never met him or talked to him.
He had no example, he had no man of his own flesh and blood to turn to.

I am the son of a bastard son,
He did not know his father, but he knew the Father.
He went to schools that abused him, he was in a world that abused him.
But he never ran and fought for what was right.

I am the son of a bastard son.
He did not know his father, but he knew many people who taught him.
And he hearkened his ear to wisdom.
He kept hearkening his ear to wisdom and he fought and never ran.

I am the son of a bastard son,
And he used to take me to church where I learned of the Father and the Son.
And I sang.

I am the son of a bastard son.
And I used to run.
I ran and ran and ran, but my heart was as big as the sun.

I am the son of a bastard son.
And he taught me logic and reason and truth.
And with that logic and reason and truth I learned compassion.

I am the son of a bastard son.
And with my compassion I tried to save the world.
And the pain of the world began to beat down on me.
And the pain of my brethren began to beat down on me, so that I felt I had to run.
And the pain of my sisters began to beat down on me, so that I could not bear it.
And I ran.

And my father, the son of a bastard son.
He said, my son, you cannot run.
You must stand my son.
You must accept that about the world which you must accept and change that, 
which you can change, and do the best you can.
For you are an imperfect creature and how can an imperfect creature expect to 
live in a perfect world?
You must not run my son, you must stand and do the best that you can.

And I was on the edge of death about to take my own life.
And the Mother above said, you can run my son.
You can run and I will receive you.
But if you stand, if you stand, if you stand my son, then you will be a man.
And so I stood.

I am the son of a bastard son.
He did not know his father.
And because long ago he decided that his son would not be a bastard son.
Because he decided to stand and never ran, I am a man.


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Comfort Of The Holy Spirit

I remember
It was the passing on of my father
The world stopped 
I wept till tears blurred my vision
It was so intense I fell asleep with a headache
Nothing and no one could console me
People prayed with and for me
My heart pounded so hard with grief
I thought I will die myself
In the cool of the night 
In serenity with in coherent musings
My friend and comforter
Overwhelmed me with love
He even led me to the truth
I began to understand the mystery of death
From this wretched earth to eternal peace and glory
A blissful mystery only the spiritually
Wealthy can understand
Spirit of God full of love we humans can’t understand
My first heart break was just like my fathers passing on
My heart physically ached
My tears where like ice block
I wondered if there is anything like true love
I meditated on death
Hoping I will transit to the world beyond
The pain was unbearable
I lost trust for mankind
Nights, midnights, I cried to sleep
I wished I could make the pain vanish
Just like removing my jacket
I was messed up emotionally
Love became sour 
At that point I could have been recruited by Satan for destruction of souls
But Gods spirit restrained me
And wrapped me in His everlasting love and comfort
The balm of Gilead healed me and took me
Through the process of regeneration
Oh Holy Spirit
Your comfort and love who 
Can know the depth
For you are a generous friend and lover and comforter
Thank you Holy Spirit.


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A little prayer

God you don’t feel pain in your body
Please don’t give me pain in my body
God please give me this pride and glory!

(Amen)


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Soar

Scream upon your frustrations,
Whip them at the door.
Once you're done, let them go,
Move on; your future soars.


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Broken

WILL TODAY BRING ME LOVE, WILL TOMORROW BRING ME PAIN 
WILL THIS LIFE THAT I LIVE ALWAYS REMAIN THE SAME. 
  

WILL MY PRAYERS BE ANSWERED WITH THE RIGHT AMOUNT OF FAITH 
WILL TODAY'S PROBLEMS BE THE SAME AS YESTERDAYS. 


WILL YOU FORGET I HAVE A LIFE A LIFE THAT INVOLVES YOU 
IF YOU SEE THE COLOR IN MY EYES THEY ALWAYS STAY BLUE. 


IF TOMORROW NEVER COMES THEN I DIED IN MY SLEEP 
AND YOU WILL NEVER KNOW THAT MY HEART WAS TO WEAK 


TO WEAK TO FEEL PAIN, CAUSE PAIN DOES EXIST 
ALL MY LIFE I HAD ONE WISH. 

I WISH WE WERE HAPPY INSIDE A HAPPY HOME 
I WISH AROUND YOU I DIDN'T FEEL ALONE. 

THIS IS A LOVE POEM, ALSO A SUICIDE NOTE 
CAUSE I FELT OUR LIFE NEVER HAD HOPE. 


I TRIED TO KILL MYSELF BUT DIDN'T SUCCEED 
CAUSE I COULDN'T GO WITHOUT SOMETHING I NEED 

THAT SOMETHING WAS FAITH AND I THOUGHT IT WAS HATE 
IT WAS ME THAT LEAD YOU, DOWN THE WRONG WAY 


I NEVER KNEW CAUSE I DIDN'T LISTEN 
YOU NEVER KNEW CAUSE I DIDN'T MENTION 


NOW WE LIVE WITH A LIFE, A LIFE THAT REMAINS OPEN 
IF YOUR HEART ISN'T GLASS THEN IT SHOULDN'T BE BROKEN


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His Child

I’m a child in heart 
I’m sensitive,
So don’t misuse it

I’m God’s special child
I need to respect 
My zealous Father

I need to honor Him
With my young heart,
I pray for freedom

How awesome are Your deeds? 

Relieve my heart’s ache
Help me escape 
From the darkened pit

I can be active
And beat that race 
I’m on God’s good side 
God’s mercy 
Aids me in times of trouble 

I appreciate His consideration 
He fulfills me with elation


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Woe In Our Lives

Whatever you do, don't let go...
He's going to arrive soon – don't be overwhelmed
Whatever you do, don't look back
Woe is embracing our lives
Don't let yourself turn to black
Keep on track... 

Woe is dwelling in our lives...
Lurking in every corner
They sprout from the ground like jagged knives
Wait until the dark tides
Pass through us...God's still protecting our lives
Whatever you do, don't doubt Him!!

Don't be a forlorner - 
Be a conquerer!


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living candle

                                                             Living candle 
What is a living candle . People thoughts that that the great man of the world is the living candle how gave lights and happiness to the world with his blood like mathma gandi  , neru and 
Bagant singh etc. but can we miss  some body the most important and valuable person in our life’s . who make our  life better and happy  with his blood and his life . think about it who is this person . 
            In my point of view we miss the main person in our life’s.  our mothers who always play a very big role in our life’s  . mothers always treat the children with his blood . we can say that the mother is the other name of living candle who burn herself and give the light of happiness .
          Is our mother refuse any thing or any work that we demand in our homes  or in our life’s . 
I always see my mother while she is  working and rest of his life she always think about success and a good life of his children’s  . I told you a very most important and a very bad moment in my life  . After my father death our fine national conduction of our family is not so good . In dinner and also breakfast  my mother took food in last .  but why. I tell you the reason of this 
She thinks that’s  firstly  her children’s fulfill his demand of food and after that my mother eats a very low amount of food and she told us that her stomach fain  during the large amount of  food  but that is not true I tell you truth it is not the pain of large amount it is pain of hunger . I see many times that my mother eat nothing . it is morality and love of mother for his children’s
So plz thanks your mother giving you  a very happy and good life .. 
                                                                                                                       WRITTEN BY :- TARUN DABAS
                                                                                                               EMAIL:-dabastarun2@gmail.com


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His Eyes

His eyes are a cup of warm coffee
With swirls like soft chocolate notes
Deep like the ocean without a trace of blue
Hiding secrets and emotions too;

His eyes are chopped mint leaves
Adding a color like no other
The clover color touches the hearts 
Of all who dare to seek it out;

His eyes are golden flecks
That sparkle with every breath they take
A topaz color like clean jewelry
Scattered among the darkness.


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ONLY YOU

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Only You oh LORD only YOU I Pray ,
Sincerely My LORD -- I come to your way,
Faithfully when I step, God you lead me ahead
Putting down my self and surrender all my ways
Flowed by the blessings,truly with your mercies
What a Man can give--Unless it's my LORD's will
Without His Divine will nothing can make me chill
Shallow I feel ,down I go ,deep in pain ,nothing to gain
When people change there own say
They can only leave you in midway.
Can't trust ,Just love them to the best 
Keep Going and Manifest
When am low , No one knows 
Only You LORD-I confide for Only you can fight 
Fight my battle LORD,for Your daughter need a cure
Somewhere I am in Pain --Whom to call & what to frame
Lately I realize,Jesus Only You I keep my eyes
For no one I'll wait for --No mails & No calls for
No SMS or messages can help me
Only YOU LORD --I need and I See
Waiting For you like a bride--Only to you I cry
Will adorn myself with Ringing bells
Wisdom Love and Faith are my jewels
Only You LORD won't betray
Do not delay LORD do not delay
I know I can't frame what I want to say
Though you know it all and so I Pray
Lead me to the levels Ground
I LOVE YOU LORD --and at last I found = "ONLY YOU"
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Note : LORD Wipe my tears Till Am here .... I need you "ONLY YOU"


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Lord Why So Many Temptations


I have so many temptations all around me.
I must be careful, lest they ensnare me!

I asked the Lord, “why does the enemy tempt me?”
He answered; “then I’ll know how much you love me!”

I thought for a moment, and was quite perplexed.
I wasn’t sure exactly what to say next!

I know the Lord has promised a way of escape.
Narrow is his way and straight is the gate!

I pray that his spirit will guide what I do and see!
If not, all of this sin will eventually control me!

I need to run into his loving and opened arms!
Only he can keep me safe from all harm!

I know that I could never do this alone!
I need God’s protection over my life and home!

There’s no hiding secrets, with his presence around!
Whatever I may try to hide, it shall be found!

I need YOU now!.  I need you so very much!
How I long for your strengthening touch!

Thank you my Lord, for helping me along!
Though I am weak...  You remain strong!

Whatever roadblock or temptation I may face…
You’ll help me to overcome by your loving grace!

You’re all I’ll ever need!  And bless me each day!
I appreciate you so much! 
 More than words can say!

By Jim Pemberton


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REDEMPTION BLUES

REDEMPTION BLUES
I
SLUMBER
I slithered through, I waded through
Its bitter pills I tasted,
I had its bitter feel at the tip of my tongue,
A taste I was never to forget for long.
Moments of tears
Moments of bitterness 
Moments of sorrow
Moments of laughter 
Moments of pain
Moments of sanity and insanity;
I saw them all.
II
Several times,
When I sit on the meadow
Gazing at the moon and the stars
And how they illuminated the earth,
I remembered the moments when I cried myself to frenzy,
Several moments I laughed senselessly, aimlessly and crazily
Like the demented man on the streets.
In my moments of insanity 
I was torn between two worlds: Sanity and Insanity.
The world I belonged, I couldn’t define,
I was nowhere, just somewhere lost forever 
In an uncanny web of uncertainty.
THE REAWAKENING 
III
Sometimes, in my docile state,
I saw my friends ride the best of cars 
Wear the best of clothes.
Eyes closed, 
In my quiet moment,
In my state of bitter meditation
I remember a quote I once heard:
“Hope is what keeps you going when all hope is lost,
So never you lose hope on hope, hope will one day
Take you to the place of your dreams.”
Hope!
I never knew what it meant or how it felt,
But intuition told me that it must be something;
Something that affirms and cements ones faith in something.
IV
I could feel an overwhelming sweet feeling enveloping my entire body,
Then did I know I was on the right track.
Flipping through the pages of the Bible,
I saw the story of Jabez,
Born a child of sorrow, he cried, prayed to God
And got his redemption
V
Sullen, kneeling,
Arms outstretched to the Heavens
I called out the name of the Lord,
I never knew if He existed or not,
But I could feel His aura in my heart and around me.
Tears flooding my eyes,
Joyful feeling engulfs me,
And I could hear a voice from the Heavens and within me,
Telling me “don’t give up” 
Only cowards give up the struggle in life.
You are a warrior, go out to the world and tell them it is not over,
You can do it again”.
Smiles all over my face,
I rise up, step out of the alcove.
Gazing into the skies, I could feel a warm cool breeze sweeping me all over.
I step out onto the streets,
My life brand new,
Life will never be the same again.
Tis a new day, a day full of hope and grace,
I had once lost faith in myself and in everything.


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Who holds the Key to my Heart--Awaiting

As time slips by away
I said Lord Lord
I went to my Lord in prayed
I said Lord Lord
I can’t handle this pain any more
For my heart is in torment
I feel agony within… desires of him

Who is it that holds the key?
Who Lord…
Who will Love me for me
As I cried unto my Lord

Then my Lord replied
My Child you don’t understand
There is a Man… whom is human
“He is a Good Man”

But… I… Sayeth The Lord
I… Forever hold Your key
Now and Throughout Eternity
Your Heart is Sealed with me

Lord I know of this man… whom you’ve revealed
Please… I know whom you speak of 
Please remove this pain from within him
As well as within me
Help me Lord… to walk Patiently
Never to be… in a hurry
Not to let within desires rule
I know he is Amazingly Beautiful no doubt
Within his inner side and out

But I am afraid
For I have never had such a love that tis be true
Ever in this way…
Yes I was married two times before
But never did either-one of them
Love me for me… and only me
For me to hold ever so deeply within my heart… 
except this One Man
This man has intertwined within my heart
Even within through-out my mind
He is always there all the time
I tried to get him out
I even tried to put up walls
But they all… just seem to fall

What should I do???

My Lord replied
Wait Patiently
When he realizes.. 
that he loves only you
He then will return unto thee…
For his Love for you...Is True…

Awaiting upon the Lord
All in God's Timing...


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Has Your Heart Been Broken In Two



Has your heart been broken in two?
Perhaps you don’t know what to do?

Has your life been greatly affected?
Perhaps it feel likes it’s been “infected?”

The pain and grief you can no longer bare.
You wonder if anyone truly cares?

There is someone!  May I introduce you?
He’s here!  Won’t you let him touch you?

His love is marvelous and wonderful!
His grace is loving and so merciful!

This one I speak of, can wash you clean!
He can take away what your pain may bring!

His name is Jesus!  He can take away
 the brokenness!
From his heart of joy, mercy and kindness!

Won’t you let him put your heart back together?
And experience his power…  Now and forever!

Jesus is, and will forever always be…
The one who can totally set YOU FREE!

By Jim Pemberton    



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Soulful Cries

I scream, at the top of my lungs
No sound, comes out
Silent, curdling screams
Is, all I have left, now
I wrestle; I fight, with all, my physical might
While, being forced down 
By the mighty strength, of many men
The pungent smells of dirt, sweat and grime
Embed, in my senses
Their ghastly hot breathes; making me, want to puke!
Their hands, all over me
Constantly grabbing and groping me
Hollering and cheering each other on
Then, someone punches me
Someone, I cannot see
A large man’s hand, covers my nose and mouth
Muffling my soulful cries, terrifying, my insides!

I can’t breathe, now!

Many heavy handed blows, follow
In a blurry haze
I watch, my scarlet red blood splatter
Upon the snow white sheets, that surround
My sacred blood spilled
My salty tears mixed in with sticky men’s semen
My body, a raging torrent of scorching hot lava
Lulling into a translucent, entranced state
Surrendering, to the primal, animalistic frenzy
The men, taking what they want, anyway they want it
Devouring every morsel left ,of my weak and weary body
My body fighting, for its God given right
To live, now!
My life flashes before my eyes
The sounds around me begin to fade
My eyes glaze over, my body goes limp
My body betraying me, when I need her the most!
Silently, I pray for this is not my will, but their own
“Have mercy upon these souls” 
“Please forgive these men, as I do, now
“My love remains with you, heavenly Father”
Blackened tears of jet black mascara
Weave their way down
Through the bloody crevasses, of my black & blued skin
My body used up, a lifeless vessel, totally numb!
My innocence and dignity stripped!
No one, can save me, the worst is done!
Bashed, beaten, worn
I am nothing, no more...


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A Part of Me

There's been pain in my heart,
but the pain cant stop me.
I will reach you, I will make you understand.
You was always a part of me.
You was my love.

How can I forget the little time we had?
How can I forget the kind words you said?
You always put a smile on my face,
and I thought we were here by fate.

Things didn't go out as we wanted to.
We lost this spark that we shared,
I thought it would last forever,
but I guess it wasn't suppose to.

I truly believe you will find what you wanted,
but I think it was me the whole time.
I loved you with my entire heart
and you will always be mine.


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Casting My Cares

Peering down the many years,
Scorning at the countless tears.
This itch in my soul
Is screaming to come out.
This bitterness digs me in a hole
Drowning in a sea of doubt.
My demons rage within me
Pulling me back to the child I used to be.
I thirst to win the race,
My heart yeans to see Your face.
But my strength fails and I can’t move farther.
I fear I’m only treading water.
I can’t shake the restlessness in my soul
And the many sleepless nights begin to take its toll.
I stand defeated as my own enemy,
As if all I was taught is but a faint memory.
And the salt in my wounds burns more and more
The only way out is to give up all I’m fighting for.
Empty myself of all selfish ambition
And open myself to quiet submission.
The burden is heavy, but it’s not mine to bare,
Laying down pain for a grace so unfair.
As I cast my cares to the only One who can heal
Peace fills in what I feel.


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Tower of Shame

Shame 
Remains the same
But, I'm sure I'm its victim
IT SURE NEEDS A TRIM...

I feel ugly and slim

Devour 
The tower 
Of darkness
Leading me to distress...

I'm in a miserable mess

Kill 
The pill
Of sadness
Swallowing me whole - I'm hopeless

My gratitude transforms to frustration...
Do you sense my agitation...? 

Feel
The steel
In MY heart
Pounding me to death...

COULD ANYONE TAKE HEART?
ARE YOU GOING TO LET THE MONSTERS 
TEAR ME APART??

COWER
Away from the 
Dark and morbid tower
OF SHADINESS
Throwing bricks at me... 
I'm choking on the dry paint of filthiness

Do you hear my screams?
Do you feel my stress?
Will you keep me in your dreams?
Do you want me to be full of happiness?
Do you want to rest for the day
OR put it aside and increase my dismay?

SHAME
Has no beautiful name
But, it sure gets me 
Worked up and distressed...
When I look back at the tower, 
I don't feel the best...
Let me flee!! Let me rest... 

...or I'll feel tired and depressed


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Yes, Yes, A Million Times, Yes I Hate You

new beginnings
are far to difficult
when the
past endings
have only ended to you
[and not the rest of the world]

i believe in THIS

you show me your life
but i ask
what is THIS

you truly love me
to avoid the world
but when you love me
THIS is causing the world to avoid you...

begone






fortold lies are prophecies to the men who give their children up to poison themselves
with their lusts

fornication...
your mind has become

question THIS

who ever gave you the right to live?




mock me
so i can see what i look like when i face you in those halls
the ones full of memories
i want to see the pain in your eyes [that pain that is your beauty]


yes... i believe that i give up in believin

THIS IS IT!


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HIS Love For YOUR Pain

"It's hard to see someone I love
 go through so much pain."
Were the words I heard that night
 I called on Jesus' name.

"This person whom I love, 
has gone through so much."
"How I wish to bring my peace
 and healing touch."

I cried and wept, as I heard
 the master's voice.
His gift of love is for all of us...  
It's our choice!

His body was broken...  
A sacrifice was made.
His life for our sorrow and pain, 
is what he gave.

His grace is more than sufficient
 for the pain we endure.
His love and commitment to you,
 is true and secure.

He loves you so much. 
He waits at your heart's door.  
He gives peace and comfort. 
 And so much more!

The pain and suffering you're
 going through today.
Please listen to the words 
Christ has to say.

"I am El-Shadaii." "Jehovah-Jireh."
"Your very best friend."
"My love and devotion to you
 will never, never end."

By Jim Pemberton
2008


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In The Mist of My Storm

In the mist of my storm
when life is throwing it's 
hardest blows.
Nobody know the pain in
my heart, and at times
times I feel like I'm falling
apart.
My life is filled with rainy days, 
and on my knees has become
my permanent place, because
without God each day I could not 
face.
In the mist of my storms God has 
kept me in his arms holding
me close keeping my safe from 
harm.
In the mist of the storm though
trouble surrounds me; in him
I remain in safety.


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Cage the Beast by Kenny Davis

Cage the Beast by Kenny Davis

Lord, in Jesus’ name
Please cage the beast
Causing all of my heartache
And pain to cease

Please bind these feelings
Locked in a cage
In hopes on concealing
This fiery rage

What are these many factors
Which torture me so
Endlessly causing the feeling
Of despair to grow

The fear of what should happen
If it is to ever to be unleashed
Feeling the wrath and scorn
Of soul of this tormented beast

I feel it lying
Hidden beneath the skin
Lord, keep this monster
Buried deep within

Itching to get out
And let loose its pain
Heart full of vengeance
Soul of distain

Hatred and scorn rules
Where this beast currently dwells
Hoping to get out so that it may
One day on world unleash its hell

What might have been done
Or so horribly said
For this untamed beast to claim
To hear voices in its head

Lord, all these people
Are driving me insane
Can’t avoid these ruthless images
From piercing my brain
What’s to hold me back
From my potential insanity
What’s to hold me back
My plague upon humanity

What’s to hold me back
From my destructive path
Who’s to stop me
Shall the world feel my wrath

It’s often hard to measure the depth
Of the pain of one’s heart
Exactly how much it’s been battered
Bruised, broken, or terribly scarred

It’s complicated to determine
The darkness of one’s soul
The depth of its anguish
Of its internal black hole

What shall hold the beast back
If the world pushes me too far
What’s to hold it back
If it’s free of those cage bars

Lord, what am I to do
With this agony inside
While these animalistic intentions
Darken the depths of my mind

I can only take, but only so much
I can only hold it in for so long
But to provoke this beast
Is terribly wrong

So Lord I ask you, I beg you
To continue to cage this rabid beast
In hopes that the world might continue
To live on in peace

© August 2010 k.davis


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Waiting There

Waiting There
© Ben Burton 1-09-2014

We spent forever seizing days
At night we'd rest in sweet embrace
Too soon, the years had slipped away
Last Autumn brought our last goodbye
I looked at her through tear-filled eyes
She held my hand and somehow smiled
And thanked me for the memories
I nodded, but I couldn't speak
She drifted toward infinity
Without her here, I'm so much less
There's pain within each hollow breath
I hear my voice call out to death
Prepared to fling myself below
That fatal leap's my only hope
Though not if it destroys my soul
Yet, some say souls are merely myth
That after death no trace exists
But I could feel hers in her kiss
In every word, expression, deed
And when she died, I felt it leave
That it be myth, I can't conceive
I'll find a way to get through life
Trust the Divine with my demise
And think of her most of the time
Remembering her face so fair
Her tender touch and loving stare
I trust we'll meet again out there
Dear God, she must be waiting there


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Still Driving My Jalopy

It seems like falling apart or yielding would be so easy,
But I’ve been driving down this road so long,
That letting go or slowing down feels completely wrong.

So when it seems like I’m being admirably strong,
Know that I envy you who admits your humbling fears,
Even when you float by in a trail of self-made tears. 

Show me proof that God somehow steers,
If I take my hands off the wheel of this lemon,
And relinquish muzzled pain and poisonous venom.


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Battered Moments

In these battered moments,
I thank You, God, for my imperfect life
In these battered moments, 
In your perfection, I see beyond my strife
I these battered moments,
I reach to find You with me
In these battered moments,
I know your loving arms carry me
In these battered moments,
The pain will pass, I am assured
In these battered moments,
I remember the pain for me You endured
In these battered moments,
My faith, I hold onto without fear
In these battered moments,
I know the rainbow will soon be here
And with the clouds parting, I see this moment will soon be gone
As I get a glimpse Heaven, You give me the strength to carry on 


I can do all things, through Christ, who gives me strength. –Philippians 4:13


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Understanding

Now I know what my life was worth
like debris to be cast upon the earth
but you oh Father do lift me up
and gave to me your chalice and cup
 
The Word of the Kingdom we must spread
so that those you call may be led
in that they find your loving true
to serve in your temple a creation new
 
The path of this system will leave behind
where walk they among habitation blind
only with you can true love find
changed within both heart and mind
 
Those who with pain do us sting
we pray for them to kindness bring
to love not just those Christs others
but all mankind who are our brothers
 
Cast me not away when I make mistake
to the pain and affliction of heartbreak
with understanding and wisdom do lead
because for your love I am in need
 
I thank you for the King of Peace
from the heartbreak of world do you release
Many will never see the gifts you send
or those whose love will help hearts mend
 
To yourself you collect those spirits broken
who recognize the words you have spoken
you lead them as sheep though out the land
to those who want to understand
 
sources Psalms Proverbs and the Gospels
 
COPYRIGHT © 2009 C Michael Miller
via Duboff Law Group LLC


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The Lord Still Weeps For Us

The Lord gave me a vision I was walking on the beach
So lost in his presence I felt heaven I could reach
Then he came down and joined me and we just took a walk
Being in his presence I tried but couldn't talk
I couldn't help but wonder why he would come to me
But after he began to talk I could clearly see
He started pouring out his heart and I listened as he spoke
Of the pain he always feels when he's made to be a joke
It broke my heart to hear him say the things he said
Many people think they'll live with him when they end up dead
We walked a while in silence then I began to cry
He allowed me to feel his pain and suddenly I knew why
He chose me to talk to he knew I'd understand
The way he was feeling then he took me by the hand
I stopped and turned to look at him and when he looked at me
The Holy Ghost decended and his glory I could see
He said I want to thank you for your sensitivity
To the Father and the spirit to take time to talk to me
You know there will be countless souls who'll want to talk to me
When the day of judgement comes but they will surely be
Heartbroken when I look at them with tears in my eyes
And tell them I don't know them they will begin to cry
They thought because they went to church twice a year at best
That would be enough for them to come into my rest
But they failed to ask me to forgive them of their sins
Therefore they're not invited here for they never asked me in


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Judgment and Grace

Who are we to judge the man who sits along the street?
Some of us do and some of us don’t, keep our thoughts discreet.
Are we not all the total sum of our painful yesterdays?
Do all that do not fit our mold become useless castaways?
Some of us are fortunate and some of us are not.
Perhaps our pain has faded away in memories we forgot.
But, what about those who relive their pain each and every day?
That poison in their hopeless minds leads to their decay.
Should not our loving spirits temper our critical mind.
Then, perhaps God’s loving grace will fall upon mankind.


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The Lord Still Weeps For Us

The Lord gave me a vision I was walking on the beach
So lost in his presence I felt heaven I could reach
Then he came down and joined me and we just took a walk
Being in his presence I tried but couldn't talk
I couldn't help but wonder why he would come to me
But after he began to speak I could clearly see
He started pouring out his heart and I listened as he spoke
Of the pain he always feels when he's made into a joke
It broke my heart to hear him say the things he said
Many people think they'll live with him when they end up dead
We walked a while in silence then I began to cry
He allowed me to feel his pain and suddenly I knew why
He chose me to talk to he knew I'd understand
The way he was feeling then he took me by the hand
I stopped and turned to look at him but when he looked at me
The Holy Ghost descended and his glory I could see
He said I want to thank you for your sensitivity
To the Father and the Spirit to take time to talk to me
You know there will be countless souls who'll want to talk to me
When the day of judgement comes but they will surely be
Heartbroken when I look at them with tears in my eyes
And tell them I don't know them then they'll begin to cry
They thought because they went to church twice a year at best
That would be enough for them to come into my rest
But they failed to ask me to forgive them of their sins
Therefore they're not invited here for they never let me in


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Cloud of Darkness

Dug in a hole with no way out

Searching for the light but still trapped with darkness

Troubled and confused with no one to reach out to

All I have is my little faith that is left

To cry and pray for forgiveness

A heart broken and yet alone

Where to go from here when all you have is yourself

The book closed where they are on the outside looking in

You are challenged and become weak and give up your will

Soon to realize its to late to trace back those tracks

To be endeared with the advice to wake up to reality

There may be no backbone to the solution but I have my heart and my will to do my best

To grasp as hard as possible to reach my faith and to never let go

To tighten my insecurities and make them hard to grab and conquer


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Can Their

Can their be a heaven while your in my Hell?

Can their be a chorus in waiting through smell?
Can their be a flicker of hesitation amidst the pain?
Can their be any silence lest of course I refrain;
A window with children outside playing a game,

A shoulder to cry out in the pouring rain...
The silence;
Amidst a shadow torn in shutters peak,
Something to taunt though even the weak?

Can their be a host of angels in disguise?
To hide behind the inner pain of falsehood & compromise;
Chased dreams from your hair my pretty child prove the day/
Out of  sadness nestled in the mere fabric of desolation

Provoked to tears will feed all fears divorced for many years.,
In pillage turned to dust,
Can their be gold in them hills
Now whom do you trust?

Can their be an alternative out of heaven & Hell.,
Today, I have a great story to tell,
Out of sadness a slight bitterness;
Shades of pain leading to its demise in torment
Shades of trees polished amidst its brightened decorum
Eternity

Can their be ?


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In Heavens Eyes

You descended down from the Heavens in a hurry,
You heard my cries, Oh Lord.
As a child weeps in the arms of her father,
You wrapped your arms around me and wiped away my tears. 
You held onto me tight with your peace comforting my soul.
You held my hand, and as I looked up to You,
I saw heaven in Your eyes,
And You showered me with your unconditional love.
You began to speak to me,
And your voice was like a thousand harpist playing-
Such a warm peaceful voice I heard. 
I listened with open ears and a open heart.
As you said to me,
"Why do you cry, my child?
Do I not fill you with peace in times of despair?
Do I not shower you with blessings in time of need?
And do I not protect you when enemies try to harm you?"
I listened some more as he continued to say, 
"Do I not command the sun to rise golden at the dawn 
And bless you with a new day?
Do I not send  birds your way to sing a love song 
That I had just for you ?
And do I not send the rain pouring out to wash away the land 
As I had poured out my blood upon you to wash away your sins?"
I did not know what to say! 
At that moment, I knew my fathers promise.
Than he put out his hand as I reached to grab it,
I felt the Glory of my creator descend upon me 
Just the same way he descended from the heavens into my soul.
I felt my burdens being melted away-
I felt the stabbing pain from a broken heart being healed
With Gods warm love like sweet honey. 
I felt joy and peace like none other. 
I knew my father was going to take care of everything. 
Then, the skies in blue and silver opened up once more
As I saw my Saviour rise into the heavens 
With his heavenly creatures-The angels!
I was left with utter peace; my Saviours mercy fell upon me!
I praised my and Glorified his magnificent name!
For with The Lord as my protector,
No fear will dare fall, no pain dare enter my heart. 
There is not a thing that can harm me. 
Not a devil who can scare me ! 
Because my saviour left me a promise.
All I need to do is look into 
Heavens Eyes. 
          
                                 ALICIA CABRERA-GRIEGO
                                 1/25/05



























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These Falling Tears

Unexplainable pain swells in my eyes, tears go unnoticed running down my face,
pooling together into a tide of emotions. Unleashed anger threatens to break out 
in a mad rush to explode, but my steady stream of tears distinguishes it's only 
flame. Standing in this ocean of misery it's like I will drown, but O' the Truth 
triumphs strong and True; leaving no room for doubt. Often, I am quite blind and I 
can hardly see. Then, in my sight, I see only You as You shine within me.



Tears that go undiscovered may be hid from mans view, but are noticed every 
one by You. I can't give up, no matter the trials I face. I can't, turn away, no matter 
the pain I know. Enduring unto, the near end, I am  Fading more and more each 
day knowing that You are all of me. My heart cannot break in two when Your the 
whole of it. Though haunted by pain and anger, I'm embraced in You, ' Precious 
One' , where I'll forever rest.



Just what love can I compare? Take over me, be more in me and make me more 
of You. Turn from me my desires, cleanse me and purify me, so I will be no 
more. Just to cease to be, is all the desire I desire in me. I see so dimly through 
these falling tears, but the brightest star still shines and no tear can ever dim it's  
light. This terrain is rough and mountains are sure to come, but I'm climbing with 
Your grace... These falling tears shall cease, and I shall cease!

(c) October 30, 2007
Rosemarie Schrock


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Saddest Sin

He said he remembered when, 
when all the pain within, over took him, 
He said please don't cry my friend, when,
when i kneel'd next to him,

Goodbye my sin I said, 
as i raised my hands to him, 
all the pain from deep within,
oh all the pain came back again.


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Missing You

Sitting here thinking of you the times we have shared are always on my mind.
I wish i could just say hi we both know that this cannot be so.
The day the good lord decided to take you away was the hardest and sadest time of my life.
Not just having you here has been real tough.
Never did get over losing my other loved ones.
Was just beginning to live with the fact that they were in a better place in time and now you have gone to join them also.
The pain is always there deep within my heart.
There will always be a empty space in my heart since you are not here to fill it.
You know no matter how hard you may try the longing and wanting is still there.
As the days and years go by we manage to go on and live our lives but deep down inside you cry and cry for the love who has gone without even a goodbye.
It really is hard to let go  not hearing your voice or seeing your smiley face not being able to just say hello i love you is the hardest part you see.
Family get togethers are not what they used to be.
Holidays are lost for words.
We all seem to be dealing with our pain in so many different ways.
I enjoy the times when i am alone listening to your favorite music thinking about the times we have had together are all special to me.
I love and miss you so.


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The Great I Am

There is a beauty that lies with-in
Often hidden in a world of sin

We each hold beauty in our own way
Let us all please bow our heads to pray

I once kept my beauty hid from view
Something that I shall never again do

True beauty is born with-in the soul
And nourishing that is now my goal

I love my Lord and I love your life
Yet, all of my heart belongs to my wife

As broken down as my body may be
I’m in a great deal of pain and misery

But do you know what; that’s all ok
For it is the Lord that guides my way

And he has brought me to this place
I have an awful lot pain but no disgrace

If I am the river then my Lord is the dam
My course was altered by “The Great I am”


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Soft Rain Drops

Soft raindrops fall like dew drops upon the grass
As I walk wearily down my street with this heavy load alone
No, it’s not a nature walk, but a walk to clear my head
Because he’s not free to take a walk, I walk for him and me
In hope, the rain will wash away the pain for him, I feel
Suffering shared, so easily conveyed, by the tears I shed
But soft rain walks with me out here 
And gently kisses my face
Camouflaging my flowing tears

Yet, as I come 'round the bend to my front door,
My leaden spirit slowly rising  
I see my rose bush thriving with  
Remarkable abundance of buds!
Soft raindrops fall, like dew upon the grass
Gently kissing each bud in view
I smile and I realize that like the beautiful rose
Out of this pain we will grow
For God sends soft raindrops to ease growing pain


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Stress and Pain

One big happy said fairytale
Take the pain and no gain
Take the slights and not retribution
Take it all in without an out.

Exploding from the inside out
In silence, crying, hurting, writhing in pain and misery
Never knowing what it’s like to be just okay
Never knowing what it’s like to have love unconditional

Hated and revered 
Don’t show them the pain 
They don’t understand,
You are the one that is in wrong. 

Take it all 
Deal with it
Live with it
It’s your fault he’s like this

You carried him
You made him the way he is. 
Deal with the pain and suffering
Deal with the stress and the dirty looks

It’s always your fault 
No one else’s 
You should know that by now. 
Take you punishment and like it

God’s listening but this is his plan
Pain and suffering for those that screw up
No love for those that dare to be of a different mold. 
No salvation for the wicked souls of men

Shut it up 
Swallow it down
No one cares
No one’s around

No tears will make a difference
No whining will help the cause
No yelling will change people’s minds
No matter what you do you won’t be accepted


So….why try? 
Be yourself no one else
If they don’t like to hell with them
To hell with you and your self loathing


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Pull the Tear back inside

use the power of your Pride:
pull the Tear back inside
more than 20,000 leagues under your sea
in a safe Virginity.
However, you will have to pull also the reflected landscape
(source of vitamins)
and to transform the Green Clouds
into a Sunday Afternoon
with old comfortable armchairs
for the jury:
dont let them see the Fury
act naturally
drink coffee from the same Black Universe
create a family,
a Real one
where nobody is guilty 
and nobody is innocent
and every time two fools collide
pull the Tear back inside!


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I Waited

I waited for so long for these tears to dry up,
pouring out of my heart, its too heavy,
this pain is enough.

I waited for so long for my wounds to heal,
created, destroyed and born again,
Yes my God is real.

I waited for every moment to regain what I lost
the battle, the fight, it was all for a cost
the cold in my heart that made me cold-hearted
I choose to live freely but from others i departed.

I waited for so long for my dream to come true
and it came the day that I laid my brown eyes on you
I feel renewed and at peace because youre now in my life
and that I will cherish my moment when it announced that 
Im your wife.

I waited all these years just to take a fresh breathe,
those secrects and pain I buried and kept
but it only made me wait for that day to set them free
and yes I did my friend, 
I got rid of the misery.

I waited and I waited but didnt have to wait too long,
now Im rejoicing and singing my beautiful song
that Im free and Im free and Lord Knows he set me free
I waited and I got it and now Im appreciating life within me.

"I Waited'


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In Battles Of Our Own

In battles of our own

A man will live to advance home
Through a variation in a dream
In faulty idol flowing stream
An ellapsed tongue had tainted my inner vision

In battles of our own,

Shattered silence through scattered temperaments choose
Within it's vested silence in scourge of desire
It comes down to the pivotal wire
We then choose to socially internalize

Yet when will we ever live to realize

In battles of our own when we are a long way off from home
In dreams filled with violence ever needing
In sorrowful intention remorse without having any meaning
Through an opened window of hope we vaguely see a reason to believe

A given chance at victory for one to safely stay

Through inner torn pain in shattered misery
In battles of our own
A house without an actual home
A pulse by which to skip a single beat

A couple in which to meet & greet

Shattered dreams in vested plans
Hoping someday we will all live to understand


Depart from me!

In much pain one's inner character can ensue
Through heart ache and inner turmoil
Some have waited too long for making water to boil
They take the baked potatoe out yet without first checking the aluminum foil

Depart from me you workers of iniquity

You often will lie in wait in order to deceive

Within violent vanquished thorns proned to demonic destruction!
We often will walk through long lines leading to eternal misery
Depart from me in cloven turned ivy briars that are stained green
We then launch out with self attached to a rocky foundation

Those who are self seekers will soon come to nothing yet vanished

The anguish in your inner soul will fold amidst its rubble
In place of calmness their will be that of double trouble
A wretched scream of swollen discord for now silently filtered
Your heart is a door mat bent toward Hell's destruction!

The weary traveler will depend upon
We spend our days in idol proned temperament all alone
Shadows from a battered soul in complete darkness then comes the fullest light
No oe ever said the heavenly way would be easy

Many simply base their whole existence on faulty extremeties!


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The Visit

11:21 PM 9/27/01                         The Visit

I sit in splendor amongst the sun
Of an afternoon sky

Surrounded
I look below to see the stones
Skyward proud they stand

Some I know, most imagined
All the quieter now

Deer travel the fringes here
Off to the East a bit
Never to offend these resting souls
Passersby in life

In a moment of silence I sit......
Remembering 
How precious life can be

How voices no longer heard
Can resound within the soul
Lighten the sky in brilliance
Form clouds in shapes of love

Me in the afternoon sun
And you in my beating heart

A reflection of the day










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The Pain Of A Young Widow

The pain of a young widow....
Her husband has just died and she can still smell his cologne
She can still remember the last words his beautiful lips spoke
"I love you.."
She cries and cries
Shes upset with herself...
Shes upset with God..
And shes upset with everyone who has happiness...
Shes upset with her friends geting over his death so quickly
She thinks"why'd he have to leave me"...
She stays home and looks at the window hoping that it was all a dream
That her new husband would come home with flowers and joy.....
As she sits she neglects everything.....
Her health......
She neglects her baby...
Her baby gets taken away..
She justs waves through the windows at the trees imagining and hoping....
She sits and waits...until shes tired of waiting...
She goes back to life thinking that she still has everything,....
The widow lost everything she wasn't young anymore.....
The pain of what used to be a young widow...


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I'll be there

You wake up crying..
Your heart is choking you and you feel like dying.
The pain that you try to contain..
The pain that you try to explain..
But no one hears your quiet screams.
It seems, your buried your heart so the beats can be calm.
But all I ask is that you bury your heart in my palms.
Like the air you might not see me, but you can breathe me
And believe me, I'll always be there whenever you need me.
You died in my eyes
So your soul flows with my tears when I cry.
You buried your past into the ground and the pain grew into a rose.
I water it with the tears of my memories so it can grow.
Give me your heart so I can hold it
I love you like God loves the Devil, but he doesn't like to show it.
I'll hug you like a tree hugs the ground.
I'll hug you like the sky hugs the clouds.
Your heart oozes
It's covered in scotch tape and bruises.
I hold it carefully to cover the cracks
And everyday you go through a gentle heart attack.
I'll always be there like an organ in your body.
I'll always be there whenever you need somebody.
I dry your tears from the feathers of your wings
Your heart is warmer than the devil in the spring.
You're an angel in disguise
You've been tangled through the lies
You shine like a rainbow in my eyes every time when you cry.
There's a garden in your face
And every time you cry, you water them in place... the roses in your cheeks. 
There's a puddle of pain in your dimples that I drown in.
Let my words erase the pain that you've been through.
Your heart is the only thing I commit to
Just know that I'll always be there..


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living candle

                                                             Living candle 
What is a living candle . People thoughts that that the great man of the world is the living candle how gave lights and happiness to the world with his blood like mathma gandi  , neru and 
Bagant singh etc. but can we miss  some body the most important and valuable person in our life’s . who make our  life better and happy  with his blood and his life . think about it who is this person . 
            In my point of view we miss the main person in our life’s.  our mothers who always play a very big role in our life’s  . mothers always treat the children with his blood . we can say that the mother is the other name of living candle who burn herself and give the light of happiness .
          Is our mother refuse any thing or any work that we demand in our homes  or in our life’s . 
I always see my mother while she is  working and rest of his life she always think about success and a good life of his children’s  . I told you a very most important and a very bad moment in my life  . After my father death our fine national conduction of our family is not so good . In dinner and also breakfast  my mother took food in last .  but why. I tell you the reason of this 
She thinks that’s  firstly  her children’s fulfill his demand of food and after that my mother eats a very low amount of food and she told us that her stomach fain  during the large amount of  food  but that is not true I tell you truth it is not the pain of large amount it is pain of hunger . I see many times that my mother eat nothing . it is morality and love of mother for his children’s
So plz thanks your mother giving you  a very happy and good life .. 
                                                                                                                       WRITTEN BY :- TARUN DABAS
                                                                                                               EMAIL:-dabastarun2@gmail.com


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Heal

There is pain that
I cannot heal.
There is suffering 
That I cannot help.

There are cuts that 
I cannot kiss better.
There are tears that
I cannot hug away.

The world has so much
That I cannot help with.
But there is some
That I can.

There is pain that I can
Help heal by listening to them.
There is suffering that I can
Help by being there for them.

There are cuts that I can
Kiss better because they let me.
There are tears that I can 
Hug away by holding them close.

I may not be able 
To help the world.
But by being who I am,
I can do something in my part.

There is pain, suffering, cuts
And tears that I can’t help heal.
But there is also pain, suffering
Cuts, and tears that I can.

And I do,
By helping heal my
Small corner of the world.
I help heal myself.


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Only If You Knew

Only If you knew how much I cared
You would be here
Only If you knew I cryed 
Maybe you would dry my eyes
Olny if you knew that I always think of you
You would know my love is true
Only if you knew how I flet when you lefted
Maybe you would have came back
Only if you knew
You where the cause of my sleepless nights
The cause of me wanting to die
The pain I had to hide
The reason I kept asking GOD why?
Maybe you would have changed
Maybe you would have stayed
You would be here with me
But also if you knew
That when you left the pain lefted
That I moved on
He loves me more than you'll ever know
And each and every day it shows
Only if you knew that 
You helped me out
That because of that 
Your the reason why I smile


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When All You Can Do Is Get By

Thrown in the midst of a raging storm
Waiting in line for hope to be reborn
Life was once a world of endless possibilities
Then was crushed with the weight of hopeless realities
It’s the moment I think everything’s going alright
And then I wake up and find I’m losing this fight
It’s the wrench in my plans that changes my life
It’s the question about whether I can pull through this strife
My dreams are crashing all around me
Lost with my potential of what I could be
Emptied of the strength to do my best
Vanished in the trend of survival of the fittest
I can hear the call to rise to the challenge
Echoing in my soul that’s shaken and damaged
I must conquer this battle and meet the test
Search and find where my identity lies among the rest
I need to take a blind leap and hope to fly
When all I can do is just get by


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Road to Redemption

Straining down a path of traps and deceit
I was heading towards the end of me
My reckless abandon led me to defeat
Flooded with lies I failed to see
Choked on the agonies of these misconceived beliefs
Running to escape provided no relief
Haunted by memories of my childhood
I learned to cope through rebellion
Living by the rules of the self
Sensing my depravity there was nothing else
Stringing together the chains that locked me in
These self destructive patterns decomposed me from within
Sincerity lay in a pile of waste
Searching for pleasures that were sweet to taste
Sacrificing integrity to gratify flesh
Blinded and bound to this self pursued mess
Looking down the shattered road I had walked
Was a pale reflection of the life I had stopped
Somber and in horror of the deepest kind
Reaching for a rescue and a sound mind
My pain flowing down in humble tears 
I’m broken down on bended knee
Giving up this bondage I’m facing my fears
Covered in grace I am set free


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Eternity

Hearts unfold to shelter the pain lest I shall refrain,

The shadow pulls an ellusive sweat through viable regret;
In the face of devastation we still see his smile
Cause we know all the great while his blood
Was chosen for the benefit of others;

Blinded eyes to unfold this vested circle of love expressed

With no shoulder to cry in torment to watch us bleed evil deed
Exposed to the elements once more...
In viable degrade of dust to withstand the sweat on his hand
Hoping someday all will understand?

A hand to hold until the very rights to you are sold....

A heart to beat with sweat to bleed;
Eternity!
 Blood soaked sheets in reprise to heat,
Shadows torn fragments stirring within imagination 

Fought back the pain released in its salutation;

Eternity
Blood shed in our streets
Send the troops home...
With no good reason for them to roam,

Still a hand to hold the brave unfold through sad episodes

Eternity
Fought back the pain from within by a little help from a friend
Shelter lies dormant onto its beckoning call drawn near
The fullness puzzled by night sweat from a fallen union!


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I Found God in My Yesterdays

I Found God in My Yesterdays
Seeking to talk to God through my childhood dreams.
No longer wanting to stifle the screams.
The painful memories are gone away.
I found God in my yesterdays.
Through the tumultuous times and the happiness.
I no longer am filled with emptiness.
I found God in my yesterdays.
See I thought God ignored me and no longer cared.
I cried out all those many nights that I was too scared
To walk alone
When the pain of failing became too much for my heart to bear.
I turned towards God and I felt God there.
I found God in my yesterdays
I saw my own past as bittersweet.
Thinking I was in control because I was sitting in the driver’s seat.
Yet, God is who was guiding me
Even though I could not see.
I tried to hide my pain behind my silent tears
I tried to mask all of my fears.
I felt you had abandoned me
I found God in all my yesterdays.
I see God working now, in so many ways.
God wakes me up to greet a new day.
God never walked away.
God was always guiding me.
Written by Greg Sykes – July 2, 2011


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Puppets

i see a maddened master living for some vicious fun,
cutting out his dead-wood with a fire-storm he's begun -
to burn out fields and farmers and their daughters and their sons:
"who will tend our crops and cattle, once the reaper comes?"

most of what we live and dream is rent before our eyes
as the strings that bind and taunt us rip us up and down to size.
how can it be that puppet masters count us, every one?
by a number, mark or ID card - sold as "freedom just begun"...

answer! give me an answer! why this happened without a fight -
that we let these twisted people take our freedom, overnight!
why should we care, why should we know, it's all to save our lives:
so god gave us intelligence - and a will that never tries.
so the puppet masters whip us into thinking we're attacked
by this terror-frenzied feeding - without god to answer back.

the way we dance and prance they think we're thieves liars fools and whores
the laughing wheezing dancing and the twinkle in their eye
is because they love the pain they cause
in the name of you and i

but behind the pain harsh callous acts words here's the saddest thing -
the puppet-masters' laughter wears some evil puppet string...


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This Classic Story

You hear my laughter, as you walk away.
Why should I chase after, someone who wouldn't stay.
You heard my reasons, yet you can't understand?
Is my opposition treason, to your unwordly hand?
I feel the blood, of the wrongly dead.
The tears that flood, through the lies you've said.
Your absent omnipotence, leaves us in calamity.
Your unknowing malevolence, oh how it hurts me.
Now we bleed, all for your sweet power.
On the helpless you feed, for you're the one who'll tower.
I laugh in the face, of those who say God is just.
Who put you in the place, to tell me who to trust?
This classic story, allow's death's forming.
I see all clarity, for you see pain as warming.
I still see violence, in this life of mine.
I can't help but wince, when the sorrow does shine.
Can't you hear, the misery as they cry?
My unending tear, will never die.
What can I do, to prove them wrong?
How the sorrow is true, in this sad song.
Here I remain, in shadow's growing wings.
Now they'll feel pain, that solution brings.
These tears, I've saved for you.
All these years, I've heard the sad news.
I trusted your ways, I followed your voice.
The sorrow stays, for you're the wrong choice.
I thought you'd help me, but I know you've lied.
But now I see, how those have cried.
I offered grace, I offered love.
I've seen your face, the pain I knew of.
All the lies, are now crystal clear.
My trust dies, for you use the fears.
My minds been sleeping, as I awake my heart's now weeping.


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savior

I'm caught between my heart and my feelings the insanes logic slowly revealing the battlefield drenched with mistakes made not nearly enough the price to be paid a calming word, transformed a harming world endured a storm is drifting and quick on my tail a confrontation of hot and cold gales a twister shows my irresolution love my blindfold a cloudy illusion a future forbode locked with lies consumed by those who claim to see through shut eyes a war is lifting and my allies run thin the ignorants blood we can't ever win the devil lays hot coals to refine us the flames catch the weak who will confine us so you protect your pain and love your hate they dig our hole and we'll never escape we slowly grow darker and flames hotter the link missing between father, son, daughter hush the gales for your pain is what i crave mind and body only focused to save rest now for the stars smile, shine, and cry gravity seen reality defined trust me to catch your suilloete aginst untamed skies only in deep pools of blood will i die i'm caught between my heart and my feelings realities plight slowly revealing hear the solom sunkin words of the stars who dare to be up and a away so far they lay sane and untouched by the hard time and i pray for you to follow in line a storm is drifting and quick on my tail a war is, lifting soldiers raised from hell give me your pain relenquish dependance so i can weild it and close the distance savior


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abanded

When im needing love n affection all im feeling is neglection  I cant believe hes treating me so bad never felt so confused n so sad i feel like a lost depressed soul that lost everything i had i feel so stupid for believing him n trusting what he said now im broken hearted n misled over here halfdead im shaking with pain inside n out this is the worst i ever felt it feels like i have nothing at all n im not even inportant enough for him to call n he wont catch me if i fall betrayed unloved confused going crazy mentaly abused heartbroken n used So much pain n tears how could he do this to me after so many years


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NEVER FOFGOTTEN

Its been years since i last saw your face
I still think about you each and every day
Will the pain of losing you ever go away

I used to believe in God and the heavens in the sky
I never use to ask the question why
Whenever innocent people would die

But now i refuse to have faith and believe
When someone so close has been taken from me 
My mother whom i loved

I can see you now looking so ill
If only there could have been more time for us to fill
You were being taken from us to the other side
The fact that i was so scared was making me temporarily blind

How i wish i could see you today and tomorrow
Wondering how long it will be leaves me in sorrow
I have no choice but to wait
How long that will be is decided by fate

Now when i look back at the good times we shared
I remember those days with a tear of joy
They seem so long ago now i was just a boy
I hope now when we next meet  we will have forever
I pray we will have eternity together

At least now you suffer no pain 
And your soul has been set free
I look forward to the next day we meet
I hope you will be proud of the man i have turned out to be


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living candle

                                                             Living candle 
What is a living candle . People thoughts that that the great man of the world is the living candle how gave lights and happiness to the world with his blood like mathma gandi  , neru and 
Bagant singh etc. but can we miss  some body the most important and valuable person in our life’s . who make our  life better and happy  with his blood and his life . think about it who is this person . 
            In my point of view we miss the main person in our life’s.  our mothers who always play a very big role in our life’s  . mothers always treat the children with his blood . we can say that the mother is the other name of living candle who burn herself and give the light of happiness .
          Is our mother refuse any thing or any work that we demand in our homes  or in our life’s . 
I always see my mother while she is  working and rest of his life she always think about success and a good life of his children’s  . I told you a very most important and a very bad moment in my life  . After my father death our fine national conduction of our family is not so good . In dinner and also breakfast  my mother took food in last .  but why. I tell you the reason of this 
She thinks that’s  firstly  her children’s fulfill his demand of food and after that my mother eats a very low amount of food and she told us that her stomach fain  during the large amount of  food  but that is not true I tell you truth it is not the pain of large amount it is pain of hunger . I see many times that my mother eat nothing . it is morality and love of mother for his children’s
So plz thanks your mother giving you  a very happy and good life .. 
                                                                                                                       WRITTEN BY :- TARUN DABAS
                                                                                                               EMAIL:-dabastarun2@gmail.com


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Breathe For You

I was sitting here with a writers block
Because you were in my every thought
My mind is overwhelmed with fear 
Of the thought of not having you near
You were there from the moment I was born
Always keeping me away from harm
Whenever I didn’t have anywhere to go 
You lent me your place
Whenever I needed a shoulder 
You let me cry
Whenever I felt my hunger 
You gave me a plate
And whenever I was hurt
You helped me through
And now I am tossing and turning every night
Wishing I was at your side
It is so hard watching you
Knowing there is nothing I can do
If I could breathe for you I would
And I would take your pain if I could
We expressed our love to each other today
At least you listened to what I had to say
I told you that you meant the world to me
And you are like my second mommy
I told you that this is hard for me
And I don’t want to see you suffering
Even though you know its time
I cannot accept that in my mind
You already told me it will be okay
But I want to see you everyday
We need to leave and let you sleep
It took all my might just to leave
So I blew you a kiss and said goodnight
Knowing that I wouldn’t be sleeping tight
And when you blew me a kiss back
It felt like I was having a heart attack
I wanted to take all your pain with me 
To let you rest peacefully
You are an asset to this world
Better than diamonds and better than pearls
And to keep you here longer I would
Breathe for you if I could


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Not Forsaken

For all who are heavy laden 
With burdens too great to bear 
Remember the cross on calvary 
And how Jesus suffered there 

Father please forgive them 
For they know not what they do 
Thru His pain the Saviour prayed 
This prayer for me and you 

And in His darkest hour 
The pain He felt was great 
Forsaken by the ones He loved 
Was more than He could take 

So when you think you're all alone 
And no one sees your tears 
Let His love surround you 
And calm your deepest fears


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F.L.A.P.P. : The Five Levels of Attitudes that People Possess

turn fear into faith
fear freezes you in place
faith frees you to move forward
live on your faith and not on your fears

turn loneliness into liberation
loneliness is a state of mind
liberation is a state of being

turn anger into ambition
anger is the loss of control
ambition is taking control

turn pain into progress
pain is destructive
progress is productive
let your pain be the emotion that propels you 

turn pleasure into performance
pleasure is about feeling good
performance is about doing good


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Moments

Moments in time will fade away, however precious they may seem, they will not last...

Look to Jesus Christ and know He's by your side, 
know that though your pain is great, 
GOD is greater!

He holds your sorrowing hearts in the palms of His hands
ever nearer to His heart and surrounds you in His love.

The day will come when He will free you from your pain and wipe all tears away,
until then; He will comfort you here and now.

Watch and pray, be patient and strong, our LORD will come!
We shall be reunited with all loved ones who have gone home to be with our great GOD and King.

Moments in eternity are precious and will never fade away, they shall forever last...


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Only god can judge me

Only god can judge me
I guess he didn’t
like what he was seeing
because my back
is against a wall
and I’m seconds from
sliding down to the floor

He must have gotten
tired of watching me
do evil things
and despite the pain I feel
now I know it’s
because god is trying
to save me.

He’s trying to change me.
He has laid his hands on me
I’m gonna let him remove
all the toxic rain drowning me

So I let the tears fall
as if I'm grieving a lost one
I’m fighting inside to come out
of this sorrow alive

I know he’s watching over me
No in a judgmental light
god understand sometimes
everyone slips under
He knows sometimes
they need his help to fight

So I'll wait and pray
I’ll know he’s forgiven me
when I’m able to smile again
when the pain subsides
and I can finally heal
I will thank Jesus
for not abandoning me
when I felt hopeless.
It’s because of him
that I rise again.


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Epidural

Serious enough of a procedure
That I have to go through
Injecting me with steroids
Is what they’re going to do
They will shoot a needle 
Into a disc in my spine
I will be awake for this
To let them know I’m fine
To make things go better
They use a live x-ray
Which helps overcome some of the obstacles
That is in the way
Who even knows if this will help me?
It possibly could make me worse
I’m praying that it lifts from me
My pain which is my curse
So, I hope to see better days
After this is done
To get back to the me I know
Free of pain and having fun


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MY HELL

Surrounded by madness, engulfed in it's grip;
Through the door of insanity, sometimes we all slip.

A world filled with darkness, a bottomless pit.
Chaos and destruction, no one gives a spit.

Hatred and anger, well up deep within;
And nothing else matters, everything seems a sin.

No hope in my eyes, my faith has long went.
My reason for living, like my energy, well spent.

Somewhere at the bottom, i reach out a hand;
Hoping against all, on a kind heart it lands.

My world has all crumbled, there seems no way out.
Every move i make falters, i can't help but shout.

My night's filled with worry, my day's filled with dread.
My faith has long left me, i just want to be dead.

Somewhere in the darkness, reality strikes hard.
The pain is unbearable, i want to blow my brains 'cross the yard!

I reach out for faith, and reach out for love;
But darkness besets me, where's my God up above?

No one seems to love me, no one seems to care.
The whole world is my burden, alone, not to share.

The light shines no longer, I'm at the end of my rope;
Send me help, my God, quickly, or i won't be able to cope.

All i know now is pain, a great darkness inside.
So much anger and chaos, and nowhere to hide.

What's left of my life? Why should i keep trying?
The pain inside hurts so, all i think about is dying!


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Live Life

Live Life
Author Dana Redricks
November 16, 2014

Live life to the fullest
It is only a vapor
A chance to make a
Difference.
Living with pain is
Easier than living with
Regret; everyday my body
Hurts, but I’m glad for
The frowns I’ve replaced,
And God has a place in
Heaven just for me.
We are to live our life to
The fullest making a difference
Where ever we can.
I know life is hard to 
 Understand sometimes, but loving
One another, and letting go of
Pain, and learning in order to
Grow we must endure some rain, 
And let go of the problems weighing
Heavy on the brain.


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Star Constellations

I write a star up on a chart, there in the corner, by that cold shelf
Stars that remind me of pain and regrets
Unspoken emotions I'm forced to suppress.
My teardrops echo, my shame to feel.
No one must see, these wounds that won't heal.
Alone in the darkness, night after night
My arms are empty, my heart to hide.
He used to tell me, "Kindness is free."
He forgot to mention, "Just not for me."
Alone in this sorrow, alone here to sigh
The stars, they speak for me, this person inside.
Inside this shadow, inside this fear
My children must not hear, the pain that is real.
In tears I live. In tears I hide.
No one must know, this person inside.
Hollow with longings, desperate with fear
Turn to a pillow, so they won't hear.
There is another man, I'll touch His face.
He will not lie to me or cause me disgrace.
He once knew loneliness. He once knew pain.
Hanging upon a cross in deepest grace.
To Him, I matter. So, in Him I hide.
This man is Jesus, my Savior who died.
Alone in a garden, His sobs were real.
Although no one listened, or seemed to care.
He promises to hold me, and calm my fears.
He does not laugh at me or mock my tears.
He holds my sorrows, He knows my pain.
He says I'm not worthless. He calls my name.
He knows my failures, abandoned, disgraced.
He says I'm not alone and seeks my face.
For Him I listen. For Him I wait.
This man they call Jesus.
This Savior, my gate.
I teach my children, "Kindness is free"
although in this house, it doesn't apply to me.
I hope they remember, I loved them so.
And that they won't choose this life that I've known.
I write a star, upon a chart, there in the corner, by that cold shelf.
Constellations of sorrows, doubt and despair.
Stars that remind me, of what is real.


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COFFERS OF FAITH

COFFERS OF FAITH.

worship to the unseen.
Spiritual fray to the unclean.
Reflected by praise and hymns.
A disaster emerges within.


In a colosseum of divinity.
Hope and pray to the majesty.
ill luck picked her day.
To rain fire and brimstones all the way.


Would there have been a secure venue.
The shrewd craft of a believer.
Weaved to everlasting existence.
Crumbles built upon architectural elegance.


Deaths upon deaths at the scene of a battlefield.
Only but few can relate to this eulogy.
We never died for once.
The coffers of faith remains untouched.


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Unmask

As I lay here wondering of the future and what it holds for me, I embrace myself. My soul begins to get disturb and my heart becomes very heavy. What is it that I’m over looking? What is it that I’m supposed to see? I pray that the Lord will give me a sign, but in the mean time I focus on how to better me and humble myself. My pain is endless like an ocean, my tears are unseen yet I’m not going to question why me, instead I ask what is my purpose, was I born destine to fail my love ones? Causing them shame and pain throughout this dirty game that's called life! My smile is bright but my soul is so dim and thirsty for something yet I don't feel. A sinner, I am but I learn to repent wondering do a sinner‘s prayer even make it to his kingdom but I pray only when I hurt. My soul is crying for understanding, my mind is reaching for a clue, my heart beat’s heavy ,knowledge I’m demanding but my Lord why am I still standing? I’ve forgiven those that have hurt me deeply and I have forgiven myself as well yet I feel as if I failed. I kneel before you unmasked, you know my heart and my every intention, and Lord please don't forget me. I been through Hell right here on earth and I’ve been burnt too many times to count, too ashamed to keep up with. Lord it's me...Nikki...unmask.


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Can't Stand the rain.

Cant stand the rain It feeds the pain of me looking forward to sleeping with out 
you once again. O how the pain shine when it rain I thought we were more than 
lovers and the best of friends yet I'm alone and crying again. All I want is to 
express my hurt and hope that you regret all your double dealing dirt. But every 
time I try to forgive I remember your anger and all your ill will.


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Heaven is your home

Nights and day they come and go 
Steadily traveling on this road 
Our eyes only see what they know 
So faith leads us to where we need to go 
Struggling to reach the place we call home 
Knowing we all can't make it alone 
So we ask god to help us along the way 
Protection over us so we may be safe 
Continuously praying while keeping the faith 

He watches over us each and every day 
But my god where are you today 
Children are dying and people got nowhere to stay 
Cancer taking over as they're calling on your name 
Promising to god that one day they're gonna change 
He opens his mouth, can't you hear him speak 
He says he is here for you he got everything you need 
He sees he sees the pain your going through 
The person right beside you is going though it too 
He believes in the same things just as you do 
All this time you were never alone 
God picked you up and carried you home 
The pain was was only temporarily now it's time to go 
Don't worry about those worldly things 
Because heaven is your home


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Dealing with pain

Dealing with pain
It's like getting hit with hot boiling water of rain
Pain and sorrow together
Is one of the most difficult things that could happen ever
Just thinking to yourself that you wish that someone could stab you deep inside your
heart, to get rid of pain
Before you drive yourself insane
There is going to be pain and sorrow everyday and every minute
But you can get through this pain and tell the Lord that you did it
You got to pray and pray and pray
Until you see a light at the end of the tunnel
Giving you hints to follow your way into having a  loving bright day
You will still have days where you think that you can just die when you have pain
When these days come
Just  don't  take the Lord in vain
Try to over come this 
Let the Lord do his work
He will save you from the this pain
He will make everything better
Then when he make everything better
You can send the whole world a better letter
About the Lord's love for all people who he cares about 
He cares for you and me and everyone else!
So don't let pain get you down
Just imagine that your pain can be drowned!


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He Speaks, The Still Small Voice

How could you abandon me, G-d.
I’ve waited for you to help,
And still my prayers go unanswered.
When my pain needed healing,
I counted on You -
To heal me,
But my pain was released by a caring mother.
When I needed a cry,
I counted on You -
To lean on,
But You weren’t there, just a caring brother.
When I needed help up when I fell,
I counted on You -
To tell me it’s alright,
But I was raised up by a loving father.
When I needed someone to talk to,
I counted on You -
To guide me the right way to go;
My best friend listened, but you didn’t bother.

Then suddenly a voice from within me spoke
A still, small voice, so quiet and beautiful:

“My Child,
I heard every word you spoke,
I never missed a prayer you wrote.
And think back to those times of need,
It’s not hard if you truly see -
I was with your caring mother;
Holding you, the caring brother;
Lifting you, the loving father;
Your best friend, I’m the one that bothered.
For I am in the one’s you love,
That see your light from up above.
My Child, you’re never on your own
I’m all around you - you’re not alone.”


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Life

Take the Pain and kill it,
Lay it down to sleep forever.

Give it a kiss and say God be.

Down the path of Evil’s glory,
Surpass everlasting nothing.

Die with the pain within you.

Be reborn and smile outside,
You are no longer alone.

See that you are surrounded by love.

The love that brought you sorrow,
It’s the same one that incinerated

LIFE


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The Mask

The mask that i wear is about not expressing

myslf, i can't do it alone i need some



I can't do this alone I need some help.My grandmother has cancer and goes

through a lot of pain and agony, no longer

can she take care of the family. She moans 

and groans, never does she laugh. I could

see why: who would laugh with pain like 

that. I could see the african americans now 

running to freedom, they weren't slaves 

nobody could keep 'em. Like moses who freed 

over 300 slaves, she stayed in the water 

where she would wade. I can't wear this mask 

any longer, to take it of i must stay 

stronger.


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Cocaine Melody

She uses words like "addiction"
A cocaine melody.
Paints her self portrait.
Cries at the infamy.
She's a angel, oh yea, she's a angel.

Tries to cope with her feelings.
Pain, anger and misery.
A picture of her boyfriend.
Sitting in perfect harmony.

She's my angel, love her completely.
She's my angel.

She says she love her cocaine.
They toke her out of her brain.
Oh baby, she's a cocaine angel.

She keeps the pipe in her purse.
she keeps her clothes in the hearse.
The pipe is her's, who she never has met.
The clothes are singing her favorite verse.

She lights up the pipe and stares into the night.
She pulls her hair back and see's that this isn't right.
The pain comes and the pain goes.
She sits and laughs at the burning stones.

She doesn't use words like "addiction".
She doesn't know of the cocaine melody.
Rips down the self portrait.
Cries at the image on the tattered canvas screen.

She's still my angel, oh yea, she's my angel.


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Falling to my Knees

God I try
Hear me cry as I testify:
Why, you may ask did I let him place his hand on my thigh?
Because he makes me so High
And he makes my earth touch the sky
Oh how can I lie?

but how can I lay?
In this midnight hour’s day
He needs me and I’m wishing I could stay
but I need You
This matter is on my mind, but my mind doesn’t matter
I battle my thoughts, my body’s distraught
I  want my say
But I need YOUR way
Deliver me Lord
   In Jesus’ name!
I lift my hands to pray
Ohh this pain lasts another day
Taking pain killers
But the devil is a liar
And as I reach higher 
He continues to be my killer
And Still I
     Still I…..
        
Still I stand, in this stand still
Desire yearning
Fire burning
Cognition turning

Am I really learning?

Entrapped, I’m
Slapped by
My Time trap
Running around in a maze
Simplicity perplexed by enigma
Scorched by this stigma
Seeing unclear as I walk through this haze

My thoughts rape my soul
This Love hates self-control

Although there is no love that’s greater
I remain a stubborn debater

Wanting the gratitude of right Now and not Later
But Lord you ARE my savior
And I know that you can heal me through prayer

Help me bleed
Wounds are what I need to succeed
Although I suffocate
It’s not too late for breath
Lord Give me life,
I’m not ready yet, It’s too late for death

So why do I want to die?
I know that sin kills me,
But why don’t I want to try?

Father you are my guide
And I’ve already been tried, 
Going through trials and tribulation
Walking long miles in humiliation
But when you judge me I pray that there
Is no long deliberation
Although I walk wilfully 
I am not worthy
and I admit I feel filthy	
But in my hour of judgment
I beg you, please find me “not guilty”
And as I sink in the depths of sin,
I ask you to deliver me again
Freeing me from this evil within

Amen
and Amen.


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Hell

This evil place with torture, pain and cries,
a place void of your makers eyes.
Yet this is not the place that i do most fear
to tell the truth the time is now, the place is here.
You see the pain this world does bring,
 the pain and suffering the victums sing.
A song of hate, crime, and malice
while being riped out of their dreamy palace.
We just sit and wacth them while we wait,
wait for our our own maker to welcome us to the white pearl gate.
This hell on earth has us to blame
for we just sit here and watch as evil play it game.
We should do what we can to bring Heaven on Earth
for then we humans will have our rebirth.
They'll realize what we good men can do
and realize what i said was true. 
That hell or not remember yourself
for your kids will one day inherit your life and your wealth.
 
Heaven hell or nothing at all, know that now is real. the one that goes on does 
not have to exist like it does now. so lets do what we can and make heaven come 
true and not this hell that goes on in our eyes. for as i said, what is not corrected 
now will happen again to the young ones we love.


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His Pain

They mocked Him as they plucked His Beard
Even spit in our Saviour's Face
They did almost anything 
That would cause our Lord disgrace

Thirty-nine lashes they gave our Lord
That tore His precious Skin away
How much pain must He endure
And what price would He have to pay

They beat Him beyond recognition
And placed the thorns upon His head
Still the Pain He felt was not in this
But something so much greater instead

They drove the nails thru His precious Hands
As they nailed Him to the tree
The whole world turned their backs on Him
As He died for you and me

His Pain came from the loneliness
As His Father looked away
For our sins He bore were a mulitude
And a price we could never pay


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Inside of me

A great sorrow is consuming me, tearing me 

from inside causing insanity. But you're the 

one who pulled me from my misery, and I'll 

walk through hell to make sure they don't take 

you away from me. They say that my 

expression of feeling is shown inappropriately, 

they say it's a sign of a teenage impurity. But

it's what's deep inside that they can't see, all 

these feelings down inside of me. 

 

 

As my world falls away, and I've yet to see a 

reason, all my emotions begin to decay and my

feelings go on the run. And I'm scared to be the

only one, whose hourglass is half full before all 

is said and done. These thoughts trickle down,

as all of your pain fills the air around. I guess

time is catching up behind me, but that doesn't

mean these problems are gonna control me. 

 

 

Again I found myself wandering around in the 

dark, filled with my anger, agony and the pain

that comes with being apart. My thought I'm 

thinking, I hope aren't misleading, I only want 

what's best for you, not what's best for me to

do. I'm tired of all the false accusations, all the

misinterpreted contemplations. It has darkened 

the light in my eye and created a hole in my soul,

but I'm still fighting hard not to lose control.

 

 

I told you I'd always be there for you, to always

help you to fight the pain you're suffering through.

But now I'm confused as to what to do, consumed

by guilt of the pain I'm causing you. My heart feels

as though it wants to shatter into ash, as if my 

body, mind, and soul were made of glass. I'm here

today only knowing that because of this I may be 

gone tomorrow, this thought fills me with anger, pain, 

and the greatest of sorrow.

 

 

I've been knocked from grace, and cast into hell, the 

agony eating away at my shell. It has come to the

point that at times I feel dead inside, running isn't an

option since theirs nowhere to hide. Crying out, because

I made you cry, the pain this has caused you is killing 

me inside. When you cry I cry, 'cause deep down apart

of me is trying to die, and there is no explanation, and 

no reason why.


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Life

Broken woman with eyes so blue. What happened in life to do this to you? 
Were you cursed to live in a broken home with parents who knew nothing but 
wrong? Or were you a small town girl that once knew love before fate stepped in 
and it all came to a bitter end.

Broken man so sad and alone, what made you turn this bar into your home?
Does the alcohol help ease your pain when life’s sorrows seem to fall like rain? 

Broken addict with the pipe in your hand, what will it take to make you 
understand? The high can make the pain go away, but is the loss of your soul 
really a price your willing to pay? 

Somewhere through the darkness there has to be a light, even if they do nothing 
but struggle and fight in their crazy thing called life.


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He HAs Taken You Home

You are now settled in your eternal home with the lord at your side. 
You was taken away in such an evil way. 
There is no words to explain the pain you endoured. 
You held your head oh so high even in your darkest time. 
We were unable to say our goodbyes. 
But deep down inside i know you knew just what you meant to me. 
Months have gone by but the pain of losing you still remain fresh within my heart. 
Tears forever still remain upon my face. 
No matter what time it may be or what i may be doing you are freshly on my mind. 
Embedded there you'll stay. 
Just wanting to see you or touch you. 
I feel apart of me is gone forever there's someting missing. 
The missing part of me is you. 
I'll meet you in heaven one day. 
So until then watch over me and guide me in the direction to eternal life with you. 
Loving and Missing You So!


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My last breath (one last time)

One more time I gaze into those eyes, one more time I try to see deep inside. 
One more time I Smell your sweet hair, one more time I feel your presence in the 
air. One more time i hold you in my arms, one more time I kiss you under the 
stars. One more time I tell you I love you, One more time I dream of you. 

 

With every breath I cherish you, with every breath I fall deeper in love with you. 
With every breath I find it harder to fight how I feel, with every breath more and 
more I realize whats real. You picked me from the beginning and I'll stay with 
you 'till the end, always remembering how you're my best friend. 

 

Your kiss leaves me hypnotized, your love leaves me paralyzed. Bringing light to 
my life, a few years down the road hopefully becoming my wife. You take the 
breath right out of me, filling what used to be a hole with a heart so clean. What 
did I do to deserve someone as great as you? 

 

My gift from God, my angel on earth, I promise to never leave you hurt. My lighted 
way, my brightest day, hearing your voice erases my pain and helps me let go of 
my shame. Your touch so gentle, your kiss so sweet, you bring me peace 
whenever we meet.

 

Everything they done to you, and all the pain you suffered through, all the things 
you could've been, I thank God you didn't listen to them. I will not leave you 
comfortless, I will come to you. I know theres pain that you hide, you stuff it down 
deep inside, whether or not it becomes too much to bear, I will never leave you 
suffering, standing there. 

 

I miss you more than you could ever know, I love you and am not afraid to let it 
show, we're still young so we take it slow, but no matter what I'll never let you go. 
Searching for nothing, wondering how I changed, thanking you for everything. 
Can't find the answers, I'm crawling on my knees, waiting for you to finally come 
help me.

 

And when the day comes and one of us should die, one last time I'll gaze into 
your eyes, one last time I'll let you deep inside. One last time I'll hold you in my 
arms, one last time I'll kiss you, hoping the rest of your life I'll be the one who 
miss's you. one last time with my last breath I'll smell you sweet hair, but unlike 
this life my love won't end there.


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Armenian Triumph

Ages have past, but the past never forgotten ever.
Remembering the pain and agony will remain forever.
Men, women, and children destroyed for no cause.
Energy from their souls lives on without pause.
Never forgetting, possibly forgiving in a future time.
Individuals once but now belonging to a horrid crime,
Angels now caress their souls and sing their praise.
Now we must in our hearts a monument raise.

Tears of woe will pass growing triumph from now on.
Realistic dreams of a future without pain will come upon.
Individuals, couples, and all that suffered in the past.
Unanimously we pray that our future will truly cast.
Many everlasting triumphs of love and peace in our land,
Preparing every soul for the glory upon us will stand.
Here and forever with faith and love our souls ever so grand.


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THOUGHTS OF DEATH

I think i'm dieing,
I can't stop crying,
if I said I was ok then i'de be lieing.
I'm giving into the voices in my head
and they all say that i'm better of dead.
My eyes shed tears full of regrets and sorrow,
scared i'll end my pain before tomorrow.
Who will I be in three years,
will I finally get over my fears,
will I even make it there,
or should I end it here?
I feel the fear for the devil is pulling me near,
but god is in my heart telling me not to part.
I fight with my emotions because their constantly in motion.
Should I give up or keep on trying,
if  I give up i'll finally stop crying
and I won't hear anymore lieing
or continue to witness my mother dieing.
I'm trying to get through this
but i'm not sure I can get through this.
Should I walk into the fire,
or wait untill god decides it's time for me to fly up higher.
I need faith,and I need to feel safe.
I need to feel like I belong on this earth,
I need to know that i'm a blessing and not a curse.
Peace is what I need to find,
silence is what I need in my mind.
I need to be strong and continue to ask god to help me carry on.
I mummble ways of suicidal deaths under each of my weak breaths.
Is this the devils temptation or is it gods test?
If I end my life will it be for the best?
I feel an excrutiating pain in my chest.
Maybe I should put my pain to rest.
I have nothing to loose
so maybe death is what I will choose.


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Long Walk Home

All these years, so many years
all the pain i have endored
all to do with the pursuit
of you.
All the miles i walked alone
broken hearted, heart like stone
just to feel like i was somewhat close
to home.

There were days that i wondered
if i'd ever make it back.
There were days that i wondered
if i'd ever get on track.
There were days that i wondered
if i'd ever make it back.
There were days that i wondered
if i'd ever get on track.

To every pain inside my soul
felt like losing all control
but it was you who finally made
me whole.
Held my hand, you understand
never the one to let me go
and now i finally feel at home.

There were days that i wondered
if i'd ever make it back.
There were days that i wondered
if i'd ever get on track.
There were days that i wondered
if i'd ever make it back.
There were days that i wondered
if i'd ever get on track.

Baby when you show me how
out of hurt now i stand proud and all
i wanna do is be with you right now.
The track is long, the train is loud
but it's you im all about as all these
emotions start pouring out.


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The Day That Almost Was

 
It was a cold and rainy day,
The pain just would not go away.

Felt like maybe this was the end,
It hurt so bad I could not bend.

Then the thought came to my head,
Maybe a short time from now I’ll be dead.

Trying to clear that thought from my mind,
But maybe in death this pain I would not find.

What would this thing call death hold for me,
I was curious but not the least bit anxious to see.

I took some pills to ease the pain,
As I sat down by my window to watch the rain.

I fell asleep and had a dream,
I saw a light a real bright beam.

It pulled me toward it in a race,
And at the end I saw what I believed to be Jesus’ face.

And then the light it faded away,
I guess he wasn’t ready for me this day.

When I awoke the pain was gone,
But I still see Jesus on His throne.

These are just thoughts that came to me, I am in no pain. You guys are the best,Ron


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No More

I wish that all the pain would end,
that all the screaming would go away,
Maybe if it all would leave I'd be happier,
And I would have a better life,
All the fights my family gets into just hurt me a lot,
Sometimes I think the only way out is up,
When I keep all the pain in too long,
It explodes out without any warning,
I cry and yell all through the night,
Wishing I could end my life,
All this pain that I go through,
Cuts deeply into my heart,
The pain from the past is left like scars,
They stay to remind me to be careful,
I try so hard to keep me alive,
But the battle is at its end,
One day I'll find true love and peace,
That day will be when my life has deceased,
The pain will leave without a trace,
and the crying will stop,
The last thing to come out of me will be a laugh,
A laugh of happiness and joy,
Something I've always wished for,
The gates will open up for me,
I'll walk towards my new life with no hesitation,
One look back at my what I use to have,
As I walk right in with a smile


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For You and Me

It’s my own actions,
that put me in here.
Because I forsook,
the one I hold dear.
I’m sorry it took me, 
so very long.
To realize that I was,
so very wrong.
Now I’m back in the word,
and study every day.
And listening to the Spirit,
in every way.
Now I’m joyous,
happy and free.
Just knowing that Jesus,
Loves you and me.
He came down here to earth,
to save me and you.
He paid the price for our sins,
this is so true.
Upon the cross,
he took my place.
Oh, how I long,
to see his face.
I’ve recently been diagnosed,
with a deadly disease.
But my mind and my heart,
are both at ease.
No-one can know,
the pain I feel.
But I take it to him,
each time I kneel.
The pain that I feel,
he takes away.
He replaces it with joy,
each and every day.
Sometimes it is hard,
to get out of bed.
Sometimes I even wish,
that I was dead.
But my savoir has something,
that I must do.
So he give me the strength,
to see me through.
I pray that you will open your eyes,
so that you will see.
That Jesus can handle everything,
“for you and me”!         


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That was then but this is now

Its too late for your apologies

Its too bad you screwed up

Its too much that you left without saying goodbye

Its too cruel when you werent there when I needed you the most

Its too late for rewinding time to fix what you frayed

Its too much to ask for my forgiveness

Its too much pain to reminisce about the past

Its too clear to ignore the cover ups

Its too rich in blood and pain to be cleansed

Its too wrong to be right

Its too bad u didnt choose the right path

Its too late to save me

 

But

 

Its not too late for your love

Its not too bad that you recognize your screw ups

Its not too much to say hello every once in awhile 

Its not too late for you to be here when I need you

Its not too late the correct the present

Its not too hard for me to give my forgiveness because I feign 

Its not too much pain to reminisce about the few good times

Its not too clear to miss your good deeds

Its not too rich in blood and pain that now you can add happiness and love

Its not too wrong to be righted right now 

Its not too bad that you can now choose the right path

Its not too late to give me support and hope for the best that I can SAVE MYSELF


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Just A Touch of Heaven

A little girl late for school one day, running to catch her bus, 
Falls down and scrapes her knee and the tears start to run. 
Then out of no were a man come to aid, he says don't cry my darlin and angels 
lookin your way. 
And he take's her hand an he bends his knee to help the hurt she suffered and to 
take away her fears. 
She looks at him so innocent through eyes so clear and calm, 
Cause she see's a hero in his eyes and he smiles caused he's helped her get 
along. 

Take my hand and I'll guide you there, God's always watching he's always there. 
So when you feel that breeze on that one and only day, he's letting you know he's 
not that far away. 
Just A Touch of Heaven and it will be alright. God help's those in trouble even if it 
takes time. 
Don't loose faith or direction, let the love come from your heart and it will guide 
you to heaven and make you feel alright. 

A mother who's lost her child or a man who's lost his wife, there hurt is the but 
the heartache is miles apart. 
They both want answer's they don't understand, how he could cause this pain 
and how he can't see. 
And the only answer he can give them is always the same. 
I know I've hurt you but I've helped them ease there pain, it was cruel to let them 
suffer so the angels brought them to me. 
I will cure there pain and help you heal your hurt if only you would listen and take 
me at my word. 

So, just take my hand and I'll guide you there. 
I'm always's watching, I'm always's there. 
When you feel that breeze it's just my reassurance, it's to give you strength and 
added courage. 
Just A Touch of Heaven is all it will ever take, I'll always help those in trouble no 
matter what it take's. 
Never loose faith in who I am, never loose sight or direction. 

I'll always have room in my kingdom, heaven's a very big place, and my angel's 
are always looking to also come to your aid. 


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Poor Man's Prayer

Feel the pain of  shame
They walk by without a word
Weaken by the pain of dispair
People look down there noses
Starvation is his fate as they smell the roses

Look to the heavens
See the ravens
Ravens have a home 
Poor  men are all alone

Wake up old world and see
You sit in your high places
Yet yea shall be brought low
For out of the north shall come the bow

My God shall let me see
Thy destruction shall be great
Hades will fill to the brim
God shall not let my eye be dim


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My thoughts Entwined

Like the wind life is just a whisper of touch and go
 Like the wind life whispers in the ear that reality is just a world of pain and hurt 
entwined with joy
 When the breeze softly touches the branches it smiles for the secret it holds..
 The secret to the unknown road of life 
whether it is smooth or bumpy or just a plain cliff 
 The secret to the unknown joy that is given after a struggle with the arms of 
depression
 The secret to holding what it dear to you and letting go of Like the wind life is just 
a whisper of touch and go... 
 Like the wind life whispers in the ear that reality is just a world of pain and hurt 
entwined with joy 
 When the breeze softly touches the branches it smiles for the secret it holds
 The secret to the unknown road of life .. 
 Whether it is smooth or bumpy or just a plain cliff . 
 The secret to the unknown joy that is given after a struggle with the arms of 
depression
 The secret to holding what it dear to you and letting go of the un-necessary ... 
 The secret of who to trust and who to disregard no matter what doubt is hidden 
in the depth of the mind  
 Like the wind life is just a whisper of longing and dreams...
 and when the breeze touches the branches it smiles for the secret it holds... 
 The secret to joy that arises when the music of the heart is played 
 The secret to the depth of despair that are bound when it is diffused by love... 
 The secret that life is hard but worth living
 The secret that life may have its tests but grudges and anger only pit your self 
against what destiny holds ... 
 The secret that though a person is shattered , the pieces put together are 
stronger than the last
 Like the wind life is just a whisper and when the breeze touches you its 
message is loud and clear 


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Trying To Heal

I don't know why you're angry
About the things I've said
When all that I have spoken
Are merely words instead

I don't know why you blame me
For speaking what's on my mind
When all that I am doing
Is breaking the ties that bind

You think it's me that hates you
Because of what I write
But if you listen carefully
You might gain some insight

Not everything's about you
Why can't you understand
The pain that life has dealt me
I carry in my two hands

I'm simply breaking away
From all that I have known
So someday you might actually see
How your little girl has grown

My pain is mine to heal
These chains are mine to break
I'm sorry if this hurts you
A leap of faith I'll take


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Afflictions

My fury and outrage remain unabated , it seethes like magma
and spreads itself throughout my being , it is barely contained
I shield it to keep the damage within , so it does not consume me
or those I love and want not to hurt.
My dark raving hisses and steams awaiting release , with screams,
hysteria that I may not be able to save the one that becomes my
vent , the outpouring eruption of pain , that I would whip and lash
with lurid pitch that it might cloak with agony the one whom I love
upon its receipt .
Why cannot I cover it and shift my focus to that which builds and
does not tear down and ravage as I have been ravaged?
Why does not that majesty of things that stand before me
not move me to ease or peace?
Oblivion , that vast chasm that plunges deep within my 
soul ice cold heart , I wish it destroyed , but its the only thing
within that seems still alive and beating.
I wish it replaced with tenderness and warmth that it may
mark you with pleasure and not agony, clothe you with 
beauty and not the ugliness that has taken up residence
and keeps its rent.
In sackcloth and ashes I mourn the loss of innocence , not 
for myself only but for all those who suffer , and raise
not their hands against the perpetrators of their suffering.
God do not let me join in acts of perpetuation , that I strike
others in kind , in repayment for their deeds.
My life has been sacked and looted , thieves have stolen every
precious piece of personality that might make me redeemable.
Raw and naked estate exposed, my inheritance from Adam ,
I was molded in pain and forged by fire imprinted by a storm
of ire......
Oh God , why did you preserve me so that I had not died and
left me alive to cry , scream at the trials of fire that blister 
the souls of men....
Awaken oh my heart , do not sleep in the death of love , and
the reign of savage pain , and the cries of those who live in
affliction , whose cries have been silenced before you.....
My tears have become stone , my walls a castles fortress
I cannot cast aspersions it holds you as well as I,
unlike the earth my stone cannot drink in the sun
 
Job moments

COPYRIGHT © 2009 C. Michael Miller
via Duboff Law Group LLC


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Grater than my self

Beautifully thee tears past down my eyes
In warmth wonder an ache in my heart 
Came over me like thunder I had to take a moment 
To catch my breath I felt as If for only a passing moment It came and left
But In this moment the one right now
It’s raining on my heart and beginning to scare 
I feel as if my whole life has gone away far
But I now see some thing ahead of me and it is in my reach 
But yet I let it be to me it’s only a passing hope 
A let down for my heart a passion I once new that left a mark
Whats all this pain I feel in my heart It shoots at me like a flaring dart 
My life is passing before my vary eyes and in this feeling
My eyes have all ready cried
Who am I and why am I here and why do I live in so much fear
I hide from love and yet I don’t know why 
I look for answers I look towards the sky
So much pain I have felt in my past 
But why dues it stay why dues it last
Shades of gray cloud my heart and mind
I thought a great love I was destining to find
I feel a higher purpose in my life I should do
But pain a heart ache is all that I new
I found a love grater than my self I put love in all That  I see
In my Grater Power Grater than me.


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Stay

Will you stay here with me, girl?
Will you leave it all behind?
We can beat it all, I'm sure, girl.
I don't know what you think you'd find.

The world is cold, the world is harsh, girl.
Forget your past, it wasn't kind.
And if you stay here with me, girl.
I think you'd like what you might find.

The light I seek is just too bright now.
Who will help me when your gone?
The light has left me behind now.
Theres no light to greet this dawn.

Who will help me fight this pain now?
I still need you at my side.
Will you stay? I feel the pain now.
You might be the turning of the tide.

The moon is full, the moon is ours, girl.
Will the light be returning soon?
I fear the lights gone for good, girl.
I don't think he'll grant me my boon.

The pain is fierce, the pain is deep, girl.
It's torn this soul I got in two.
You should go, you should leave, girl.
Move from the old to the new.

Please don't stay here with me, girl.
Do not leave it all behind.
We won't win, we will lose, girl.
Head into the world, see what you'll find.

It pains me to see you go now.
But I'll do what I think is right.
Leave me please, you gotta go now.
Leave me now, don't lose sight.


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Sundance

Fathers, I dance for you.
Mother - you gave me breath,
Now I return my blood to your care.
Children - I dream a hope for you.

I ask the sun for Vision,
For sight into realms no eye may view,
To find an answer, to find escape
The pain it costs is nothing
To the pain already in my heart
Now that I see what these strangers will do if they can
To my people,
To the land that shares their souls.

One hundred pieces of my flesh
Is not too much to give
For wisdom, for sight of better worlds than this.
I give them for the hope that they may buy.

The knife is cold.
I set the tethers in my skin -
The dance begins.

Bring me Vision, O Sun!
Bring us Life, before they come,
Death riding on their Iron Horse.

Shine warm, shine strong
One last time for us,
Before the coming eclipse.


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Is It To Late For Us

I take this pain from you leaving
I take this hurt where you tore my heart apart
This part of me thats empty now
This love we shared thats disappeared
Not seen! Not heard!
Till this day I still pray for you to fill this empty hole
This love could mend the darkest sole
This love could free the damned from hell
please help relief this pain and hatred now!


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Life's Lonely Road

Walking along life’s lonely road,
wish there was someone to help carry my load.

Nobody seems to know the pain I feel,
or believe that these tears are real.

Surrounded by people who are thoughtless and cold,
just “get over it” I am often told.

Disappointment and pain must truly be my fate,
since there's never anyone around who can relate.

I almost at the end of my rope,
and don’t know how much longer I can cope.

I am told of a man who cares for all,
who can help if to him you call.

Not knowing at all what to say,
on bended knee I began to pray.

All my burdens and pain to him I did impart,
lovingly he mended my broken heart.

Jesus saved me and lifted me out,
so now I walk an all new route.


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Standing In The Dark

Standing in the dark I see my shadow looking at me. 
Standing in the dark I see my shadow reminding me why I am on  this earth. 
Standing in the dark I watch my life go by. 
Standing in the dark asking myself what am I doing to myself. 
Showing me the past is the past and to let go of all the pain and anger I carry 
inside. 
What happened to me in the past has changed me. 
Things that happened to me have changed the way I view life. 
When my grandpa died things got worse in house hold I lived in. 
One night a big fight happened I felt like there was nothing to live for. 
These people had brain washed my mom the only person I had in life. Standing 
in the dark I took a handful of pills before I realized the shadow of my grandpa 
was there. 
That is what stopped me from killing myself someone who cared for me. 
Standing in the dark somone comes to me and tells me things will get better with 
time. 
Standing in a dark room realizing the voice was my grandpa Earl. 
As time went on things got worse now accused of stealing they would search my 
room and take things that were not thiers. 
Upset I would stand in a dark room and I would slit my wrists. 
I felt like that was the only way to feel pain and it always made me feel better. 
Today things are getting better in a new home where I am able to have friends 
over. 
I also have my mom back. 
Standing in the dark starring at my shadow I realize life is the most important 
thing to have. 
Standing in the dark I have a new lease on life and people love me for who I am. 
Standing in the dark i see what my furture mybe like if I keep on living. Standing in 
the dark someone comes in saving me from the things I might do to myself. 
Standing in the light I ask for help.


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Lost Souls

I can hear the cry,
From those unable to escape or run,
Wondering when it will be their turn to die,
The crimes of our past cannot be undone.

Voices screaming in my mind,
From a time that was lost,
People unseen who were left behind,
All those lives were not worth the cost.

The blood has been shed,
The mistakes have been made
For our hate they were bled,
A people long betrayed.

Taken away in the dead of night,
Unaware of where it is they go,
Only to wait for their Bright Knight,
Unsure if he’ll even show.

Their faith helps them to survive,
Even through all the torturous hours,
For another day they’ll remain alive,
If only to succumb to another’s powers.

The blood has been shed,
The mistakes have been made
For our hate they were bled,
A people long betrayed.

Tears long cried,
Over the many lost souls,
While bodies are shoved aside,
Only to be buried in unmarked holes.

The hatred felt is unending still,
The nameless are neglected,
Destroyed is their will,
All who are different shall be rejected.

The blood has been shed,
The mistakes have been made
For our hate they were bled,
A people long betrayed.

Unable to drown out the cries,
Of a pain filled age,
Which led to a culture’s demise,
Through an unspeakable rage.

Bodies were burned,
The pain filled cries they will ignore,
Souls lost never again to be returned,
Lives lost in a war.

The blood has been shed,
The mistakes have been made,
For our hate they were bled,
A people long betrayed.


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5 Minutes Of Clarity And A Single Moment Of Serenity

The sun is shining
Its a beautiful day
Sometimes I have to pray
For the sun to shine on me
Instead of the shade
For darkness loves to cover the heart
Seems like i can't get a headstand
Pride greed and fear
Is were i started to steer
Family friends and goals
Are thrown in the holes
Lost in the distance of who i can't be
Memories i can't allow myself to see
It seems every time i try to stand
There is never a helping hand
For the true ones i had to hold
Turned their backs when i sold my soul
For the destructive path that i now lead
I'm the one who sowed that volatile seed
For this life of pain and misery
I'm a blind man who can't see
The sun shining down on me
For the shade has to stay
Until the day i have the strength to pray
A single string of hope
That i can never see
A fearful past
That i had to lead
5 minutes of clarity
And a moment of serenity
For every second at least one heart seeks
In this world of fear and greed
To be the person they want to be
For no one wants to experience this pain of treachery
The bleeding hearts and the lost souls
All had an obtainable goal
Threw away or taken people don't know
But human judgment is always bestowed
On the liars beggars cheats and thieves
Understand, you can not with out experiencing the deed
The power of choice is what we've been given
Hope, Enlightenment, Love And Peace stay hidden
For the key i hold unlocks this mystery
This mystery of H.E.L.P.
And then the shade of darkness shall go away
The sun shall now forever stay
Enclosed in this box threw the distance of time and space
I shall forever be hidden from the pain of my insecurities
5 minutes of clarity
And a single moment of serenity
Is what i shall have, Finally


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Loose The One You Love

With deepest sympathy from the bottom of my heart
I don't understand how your feeling
But I know your torn apart
The love in my heart grows stronger everyday
 I know your hurting and your here to stay
I feel your pain when I look in your eyes 
Let me hold you till your pain dies
I'm here for you when your down, When your sad
When you frown
When your happy , When your glad
Even when your being bad
I love you with all my heart
From this day we will never part


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The Greatest of Them All

 
Brother, stop and think if you will,
And I’ll tell you a story how Jesus bested the devil in his final deal.

The devil thought he had the upper hand the day Jesus was crucified,
He thought this would be the end of Jesus and his followers would all fall by the wayside.

But before Jesus’ spirit left His body, He asked the Father for forgiveness and took on
the sins of mankind,
He interceded on our behalf and gave to us a chance for salvation if we seek Him with our
hearts and our minds.

He didn’t have to die that day on the hill of Calvary,
He could have called down Legions of Angels to stop it you see!

This was His way of showing His love for us and a way for mankind to be set free,
And receive all the glories of Heaven is why Jesus allowed them to nail Him to that tree.

His poor body racked with pain as His life blood ran to the ground,
All of this just for us do you see where this story is bound?

All the pain and suffering He endured means nothing at all,
If you choose to follow the beast then you have to accept your fate, get ready to fall.

Don’t you know the devil danced a jig when he saw the sight of Jesus on the Cross.
Then Jesus asked for forgiveness for our sins, it was then the devil knew he had lost.

You can’t do that the devil cried,
After all they’ve done to you, why it’s not justified.

But He did, He did it for us, to free our souls,
He beat the devil, as He played out this role.


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Poem Poem

 Poem Poem 
Poem Poem 
 
Worry and fear rule most everyone's day 
how could it not come to me 
Eye was just worried that ideas would dry up 
and the poetry. 
Fishing is always impossible in a monsoon 
and drunkards sometimes miss a drink due to rain 
in the impossible day when it floods. 
Leaning on people and giving is tough 
leaning on money to have everyday 
to make purchases of wine and more beer 
can be hard in the rain. 
Yearning for someone feeling no pain 
yearning for love in the rain 
dying but living inside where she dwells 
the love is so real eye can feel her so well 
she is love deep inside me where no pain can reach 
the insulation of ewe the insurance of she. 
Turning away from the world in my sleep 
reaching for her she is love she is me. 


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Endurance

No matter what you go through
Don't ever stop what you do

Forget the pain that was in you
Fight the pain and continue

Wherever your life takes you to 
Live your life and make your dreams come true

Don't ever fall apart and never frown
Never let anything break you down...


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Blind

Someone i care about allot
Her problems was self taught
She means the world to me
We are so close and it hurts to see
The pain she is suffering why must this be 
We always talked she grew me up
Why cant her problems just stop
I dont know if she will make it through another day
Why cant her problems just go away
She looks to me for guidance and answers
It scares me to think that she might be to far gone
And the only person that can save her doesn't want to go on
She always talks about giving up and dying
And the only reason for holding on is the thought of her daughter crying
We are still close even though she is far away mentally
I try to talk to her but she doesn't here me
She always wants me around
But i cant deal with the pain
I beat my self up every night knowing
That she is not the same 
Tears stream down my face like pouring rain
The love in my heart for her will always remain
We have been through allot thick and thin
I'm scared to think this is one battle i can not win
I search for words to say to make her pain go away
It kills me to see her this way, all i can do is hope and pray
I want her to get better but i don't know how
Its hard for me to help when she is in denial
She is losing her memory and her hair is falling out
She is shutting down this scares me without a doubt
I love her so much i don't know what to do
Let it be a dream i dont want this to be true
This problem she has turned my life upside down
Her once beautiful smile is now a frown
The next step, nervous break down
I need to help her and it needs to be quick
I need to take her pain away so she is not sick
How can you tell someone , they need to help themselves
Before you can get better and start feeling well
How can a person let them self go for so long
Without thinking nothing was wrong
God how could i be so blind that i could not see
That her life was changing in front of me



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Anguished

Anguished 

Lord, I feel a plethora full of pain.
My faith and my hope slowly begin to wain.

Where are you? Are you there?
I cry out to you, but; a whisper of a prayer.

Tired of giving up, I want to breathe my last breath.
To rest my weary life, pass on my soul on to the reaper of death.

My physical pain is almost too much to bear.
Leaving me emotionally drained to the point that I really don't care.

Why do I have to endure such anguishing agony?
So much pain physically and emotional tormenting?

Hear me...hold me..confort me..before it's too late..
Lord, I beseech you! Before; my worldly being decides its own fate.



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"Dead Tears" 2/23/09 mon.

could someone, give you back your life 
after they have murder you 
resuscitate a whole new world 
better than the one,  you ever new (knew)
wash the stains of blood, from the form of you
base your acute symptom of death and fear
on lies placed on you...

could they gradually, reawaken 
the parts of you that are soullessly  deficient 
in your weaken condition could you ever be hole again...  
would you ever be new...
would ghost stop haunting you...  
would the living stop paining you...

would you, could you, answer 
when your body has not the ability to move  
your pain clearly, from others makes it hard to move...

and i want to hold your soul deep and close 
and whisper, Yes I know 
YES, the pain is great 
cry on me, fill me with your dead tears...
and i will lay here deep in the ground 
with you...

aka:lyricvixen (would not want someone too take there own lives!! )


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Taking Everything

I walked down a lane with a life of pain with a wish that I knew where I would be  
With no cash in hand and I'm feeling the pain I knew that drug was taking 
everything. I opened my eyes and God made me clean but what I had once had 
is no where to be seen. With the friends that I have and the new things to be God 
has made me, me again now all I have done is now just a pain and It's my time 
to make a new dream.


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a future blessing

something feels unfinished,
there's a yearning in my soul,
i try to push this far back into my mind, but my heart doesn't want to let go,
i know i have to sit in constant prayer in order to see the truth,
the answers don't stand right in front of me, so i wait on god's spiritual proof,
in time i will understand, the confusion will subside,
this overwhelming disconnection i feel in my heart that i daily try to hide,
i feel like my heart is twisted, i feel so incomplete,
i pray god removes this unbearable pain, and lifts me back up on my feet,
this part of me that's missing, god can only bring into being,
for my mind and heart are at constant war, but i keep believing without even 
seeing,
the spiritual world goes deep, it's something we can't physically touch,
it's amazing how god's affections run down to the core, and makes us able to 
love so much,
my tears just won't stop falling, and in prayer i ask god why,
"for now, he said, look only for my peace, your still learning to say good-bye"
how much pain do you want me to go through?  this all seems so unfair,
he said "while living for me some experiences are joyous, and then some will 
have burdens you'll bear"
"through me your heart will stay strong,
the pain you endure will slowly diminish,
you'll understand the blessings i have in store for the future, but you won't know 
until i am finished".


Details | I do not know? | |

What you cant face

Life is a wonder, it is misunderstood,
when you look at it u already in the mist.
So what to do just think, bout your pain inside
and try to be understood, so there is no way out an you are , 
caving in just think about the one u love cause your miss him but, 
you don't know  it yet ;cause he beaten you like a slaves and treated you,
like a dog made you  feel like their is no way out .
               So you try to move on but you cant ,that pain is still in side,
you feel there is no tomorrow just today and life is an un fear game
so you try to escape the prison that you a in but it hard to fly.
All you can do is cry cause that hurt is killing you inside.
so you ask yourself what to do cause there no way to run ,no way to hide so what 
do u do just look at your disappointment in life
                                         Just know your are not along cause i to have that  cave 
inside ,i ask myself why? but i see that cave is my place i hide from this hurt i 
share inside and i know now its not him me but im do that to myself cause i cant 
face the hurt he create in my empty heart ,so if u feel this way just know that you 
are not along cause there are other people trapped inside


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Breaking Apart

I don't know why this happened,
left me bathing shell-shocked in the aftermath;
a ragged stitched doll,
limbs strewn across the gulf of once friendship,
with the sawdust kicked out.

What are your thoughts now?
Your silence hones a mute razor,
snickering through the silk of atmospheric disquiet.
What, a friend in need is a pain in the ass?
Well, that's the platonic myth exploded.

I don't know what you meant
by the warm temptations of your words;
I don't deserve cold storage, isolation,
torture by the iron maiden of my feelings,
closed off with nothing but my own pain for company.

At least talk to me,
heat up the cold shoulder, look at me;
I am still here, I am still that person;
don't shut me in the dark cloister of indifference;
please, humour me...with a version of the truth.


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I AM

I am an independent believer looking at another side of blinded endeavor feeling the pain what we inflict on others and ourselves.

I wonder why people can be so filled with hate and mask themselves from the overwhelming emotions plaguing our world in suffrage yet claim themselves in good,
But profess themselves in Christianity.

I see the pain of the notions forgotten children reaching for heaven as god’s fair hand grasps their hearts and with his teary eyes cleanse them free of our own weaknesses we have not yet seen.

T want the peace, love, and forgiveness of what was promised to me in my mighty book that I have as my shield of armor against the evil I feel when I go against the adversaries of the world.

I am ostounded that we leave innocence to rout in caois and corruption with out a kind word or good deed for we are more into self than world harmony.

I pretend that I fly in my father’s kingdom where all the children are cuddled safe in his nurturing arms accepted faults and all. He holds his hand out to me and says some beliefs don’t always go unheard, but just untouched for my people cast the unwanted verbal truth from their ears for I hear you and accept you for I love my children.

I touch the tears of our future living amongst the sacrificial of what we see as governmental need but at what value is it when it mocks the oldest book we saver in a voice with mincing pleasures we still fail to see.

I worry for our soles degrade ourselves in worship as the pledge to a blood stained spangled banner instead of the one who gave his son in sacrificial salvation instead of making verbal pornography of his act indulging an abomination of religion at will as man poisons minds with new advances intriguing among us naming rule.

I cry as I stand with my beliefs bashing preyed on as if lying in a bed of knives Knowing I’m only one in await of amageden in the pestilents that the worlds deranged lovers desecrate.

I am what I am but we think a life for a life with judgments of our own prejudices superior to authority. What have we become but what we hate in thirst far worse.


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Keep Me Safe

Finding my space in my lonely world
Secretly depressed as an emotional girl
So here I am under the dead tree
With fog drifting about and my mind wandering free
It's too cold for me to move, so I stay
I wait and freeze until my life has gone away
But nothing around me seems to change
It's just so awkward and very strange
I can't feel any pain or the suffering I endured
I my secret world, every thing's secured
Death lurks below me like a river of blood
Stalking my life
I sink in my problems like sinking in endless mud
I have to put up a fight
Tears roll down my miserable face
Nothing is right
I just need someone to keep me safe
And holding me tight
Finding my space in my lonely world
Secretly depressed as an emotional girl
So here I am in the wild woods
With cold rain pouring and darkness floods
I am too wet to move, so i stay
I wait until I'm drenched and the rain has passed away
But the rain never stops and sunlight never shines
And all I hear are the wolves' and ghosts' whines
Still I can't find any pain or suffering I endured
In my secret world, everything's secured
So here I am 
Lying in my bed
With the light shining brilliantly 
And I wiped the sweat I shed
I'm back in the real world 
Full and animated
Back to the lonely girl
And my life which I hated
I got down on my knees
And put my palms together and
I gone into a weep 
Praying to the heaven
For me to be stronger
And living my life better
I wiped the tears off my face
And He answered by saying
"I will keep you safe."


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SECRET PLACE

A place you can go 
when hurt breaks you so 

Retreat within,find the key 
for there are many keys 
to the secret place 

Key for hurt and pain 
Key for imagination 
Key for magical lands 

The secret place, 
the key ,the door, 
only you know what its for 

Go within your self and explore, 
you are the keeper, 
you know where to go, 
to the door where gentleness will flow 

The secret place 

Your door, many keys 

Key to unlock your heart 
Key to love again 
Key to experience loss and pain 
Key to live and breathe again 

Many keys you can hold, 
but only one door, 
you decide,not told, 
The key you want and what its for 

Dont carry too many keys, 
for the keys are heavy in hand 
and heavy in heart 

The key of pain and loss, 
the heaviest of all 

The key of happiness, 
delicate and fine, 
made with pure golden sunshine 

Carry this key to your secret place 
the best key of all 

The key of love does'nt have a key 
merely warmth 
for this door doesn't need a key 
for there is no door to love 

Love is all around, 
not in one secret place, 
but in all of us, 
wells from within, 
flowing from the heart 

the secret place 


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The rain....

Sitting outside on my front porch listening to the rain pour down from above, like 
the angels sobbing from all the pain they suffer. Watching the world turn as if 
God himself is making the days slow down. As I watch the rain trickle down ooff 
the roof of my house, I wonder what you are doing at this very moment. Are you 
thinking of me, like I'm thinking of you now? Are you watching the rain, as I am; at 
this very moment? I wonder what you think of me. And I know your thoughts of me 
must be horrid. It must hurt to look at pictures of me, thinking of the sweet gitl you 
thought you had raised. But truthfully, I know that I am a hateful girl. I wonder how 
it feels to be dead. Buried underneath the soft dirt, bugs eating away the insides 
of the still carcass. I wonder what people would think of me once I am gone. A 
hateful girl, a liar, a whore. I wish I could change the way people view me now. 
But I know that I cannot. I can just sit underneath this porch and watch the rain 
pour down from the angels above. Wondering why their crying so much. 
KNowing that I have hurt everyone around me. And the tears the angels shed is 
nothing compared to the sobs my fmaily has cried. So, here I am alone 
wondering about death, while the rain comes down ever so hard. The wind is 
screaming through the air as if a million people are crying for help just like I am. 
Praying that all the pain that everyone has been through will quickyl subside, and 
everything will be normal again. As the rain quietly begins to slow down, my 
thoughts of death move to the back of my mind again. Only to come again when 
the rain returns.


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The Dream

I once was sleeping peacefully
On my mattress soft and warm,
Undisturbed, surprisingly,
When passed a thundring storm.
And then I had a vision
As I very sleepily sighed,
I dreamed I was in Heaven;
I had finally died.
I was knocking on Heaven's door,
But oddly it would not open.
Suddenly, darkness surrounds me, 
And I was left on my knees gropin'.
I search for light but never found it.
Instead, a deadly fire came.
The fire quick enveloped me round,
A ring of eternal burning flame.
And as I screamed in agony 
The Devil came to me.
"It's no use to scream." he said.
"For you are mine eternally!"
"This cannot be!" I said.
"I'm a Child of God, you see,
Jesus Christ is my Saviour,
He died to set me free."
"NOOOOOO!" screeched the Devil.
"Another soul for Him?!"
Then he disappeared from sight,
And I felt myself growing dim.
Suddenly, I awoke with fright,
For I had felt the pain of searing loss.
I was grateful that I'd asked God
To nail my sins upon His cross.
For the pain I had felt, you see,
Was from the ones who'd died.
Who never asked the Saviour
To give to them new life.


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Yesterday

I become who I am through my experiences
What happened yesterday develops into I am today
How I perceive events will be how I think
Who we are today was shaped by yesterday mishaps

This is what life is all about good an bad
It is how mankind has grown through the eons
It is also we grow in our lifetime
Who we are today was shaped by yesterday mishaps

Our surroundings and event shape who we become
Without them we don't develop,we become stagnated
Our emotions and personalities are self centered
Who are we are today was shaped by yesterday mishaps

The tragedies, screw ups, and even the happy moments
All shape our thoughts and response to other
We learn patience,compassion,love and even understanding
Who are  we today was shaped  yesterday mishaps

It is something through our hurting others that we need to grow
By seeing the pain we cause we expand our world to let them in
When we experience our pain we can relate to others
Who are we today was shaped yesterday mishaps


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Rebirth

God puts to rest
My unwanted stress 
The sin within my skin
That rots my flesh
My enemies test my faith 
Through hate  
Not knowing the weight 
Of my wisdom crashes
My enemies’ visions of failure in my life
Demons out of sight
Granted the right to cleansing of my soul
My pain is real
My worlds you can feel
Yet you still don’t understand me
Seeing is not sight
Believing is right
Receiving the light through night
Is not an easy fight
So much pain rained in vain of past decisions
Blurred my vision
Placed me in the wrong division
Faiths crash course collision 
for the survival
Of the new arrival
A true poet disciple 


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Tonight

Tonight will be the night
I let all the pain go
Tonight will be the night
The pain will no longer grow

Tonight will be the night
That I say good-bye
Tonight will be the night 
That I no longer cry

Tonight will be the night
That my soul is lifted
Tonight will be the night
My life is no longer twisted

Tonight will be the night
I will hurt no more
Tonight will be the night
My feelings go out the door

Tonight will be the night
My emotions are put aside
Tonight will be the night
Ill have nothing left to hide!


Details | Rhyme | |

Addicts life

Dark, the damp air sends a slight chill to his skin,
The distant feel of happiness, being able to feel again.

Racing thoughts envelope his mind as he tries to focus
On what was once, “once upon a time.”

Now he stares into the lonely night, a tear slides down his face
In which his body is to numb to fight.

He knows in his heart that it will not be long, the needle pierced into his skin
The dry blood covers his arm.

Knowing he is doomed to a life of dying slow,
The pain his family felt when they knew it was time to let go.

All the lies, stealing,  the many nights his family lie awake,
Crying, praying, for there was only so much even your family could take.

He lies motionless, the pain reflected in his face,
He tries to free his mind to escape this terrible place.

His breath gets heavier, the air much harder to breath,
He finally accepts that it is his time to leave.

He thinks of all the pain he caused then closes his eyes,
He says, “God please forgive me.”  This lonely kid dies