You were old and new all at once
A deadly temptation
A glitch in my solid nature
And so I dove head first
And as I did I watched the pieces
Of me break away
To reveal an alien
A rawness, a vulnerability
I had never thought I possessed
Yet there I was
And there you were unchanged
And unaware that I was scrambling
For my better peices
when i write you
and you write me
it always makes me happy
happy to hear your doing alright
and happy to hear,
you get a good sleep at night.
im so sorry to hear that your birthday was so bad
hearing what they did to you
really made me mad!
hearing u got hurt,
really made me sad.
i just wrote this to you
to let u know i miss u
and i hope u miss me to!
Its bad enough that everyday I walk down memory lane, &&' It really puts me in alot of pain. I've been doing the best that I can, but I am who I am. I'm getting tired of everyones exspectations, people always pulling me in different directions. Even when I'm falling down, people still push me on the ground. I'm gonna keep trying, no more lying. No more games, done mentioning names. Being two-faced isn't cool, it just makes you look like a fool. I'm never looking back, that life was wack. I'm done trying to make everyone happy, when they treat me so crappy. I may not have alot of friends, in the end, but atleast I don't have to pretend. I'm gonna be true, with or without you. You'll see, I'm done letting people get to me.
You're too much for me
Your smile, attitude
It's too beautiful
My sweet child
I am so glad
you are better than me
I miss you when you are away
being better than me
or your father
I know you are a visionary
you are a professor
you will somehow
make it sing
We began so little and young,
Life beat us bad and twisted our tongue.
You and I walked a pretty rough road I can say
When you stumbled I was always there to make you stay.
Stay and not give up, I didn't give up on you than, so I wont give up on you now,
We danced our life so brutally and softly, but this time you didn't look my way and bounced.
I thought we would go on like this forever, but I guess like people say,
Nothing lasts forever.
I feel like I'm living someone elses life, a life in strife. I've been strong, but when will I belong. I feel so alone, but I'm doing ok on my own. I can't describe the pain, but I keep in mind every storm runs outa rain. I use to think our love was unbeatable, but really its unforgettable. Everyday I walk down memory lane, trying to ignore the pain. He crosses my mind everyday, when will all this go away. There's gotta be something more, my heart is becoming sore. My momma doesn't have to worry, because I'm not sorry. I know he made the mistake, and he's the reason I have this heartache. What we had, was bad. I shouldn't have let it go that far, your just another scar.
What does a normal teen do? What does a normal teen think?
I really do not no. yes I am a teen but when I was 15 ½ I thought about how to take care of my mom if she needed to be changed and when to feed her and when to give her medication. I worried about what would happen to my mom. I had to go shopping for toddler cloths for my little sister and brother. I am 17 now and I still go shopping for little children cloths. I worry about getting my homework done and getting my little brother and sister’s homework done. This year I have to take the kids to kinder garden and I will be in 12th grade. I always worry about what’s going to happen to my mom she is still sick but there’s nothing I can do just keep her in my heart and prayers. I worry about what I will do when its time for me to go to college I will still be taking care of my brother and sister. There’s a lot to do I worry all the time about money things being washed and cleaning and homework. My dad does a lot for me and my sisters and brothers I just wish my big sisters would have stepped up and helped my dad take care me and my little sister and brother but they didn’t now i am trying to do all the things my mom did. It is a lot of work mothers have to do. I thought it was easy but now that I have to do it all I can say mothers are what keeps a family in order. Thanks to all the moms out there. If you have moms don’t take her for granted because you never know what will happen to them.
Sometimes I like to pretend, things never came to a end. But over time, our love became a crime. I didn't know what we had, would ever end so bad. But then I knew things weren't right, when we started to fight. Now I walk down memory lane all the time, the pain is worst then committing a crime. We only caused eachother pain, but we were eachothers maine. I thought things would be alright, but I cried alot that night. I don't want things to change, without you my life is strange. You said you wanted me so much it started to hurt that you couldn't wait, now im just another person you hate. When you said you didn't care, I knew the person I loved was no longer there. You aren't the same, the new you is lame. We both fell, now it's hell. You use to always be here for me, like family. But now your nowhere in sight, things aren't right. Empty is all that I can feel, I still can't believe this is real. I didn't mean to let you get away, I didn't know what to say. Am i with the right guy, or am i telling myself a lie. I was afraid to loose what we had, but to you that choice was bad.
Although we were best friends, you
Betrayed me. You
Cracked my heart. You
Destroyed me. Your an
Example of an un-true
Go, go be
Heartless like you always are.
I wish, I wish i never talked to you.
Just leave me alone.
Keep your comments to yourself.
Leave my life.
My life is now a disaster, i hope your happy..
Once. Upon. A time.... The perfect beginning
And lost in my thought, my mind keeps spinning
Treads of fantasies, I hand you these
Garments of love I've made with ease
Because my feeling come naturally
But feelings within me-
Manifest themselves into words deeper than i love you
Yet the feelings within me are the reasons why i love you.
So i take why i love you
and love you
and tell you whats true
that my heart starts speeding when its only us two
But we find pleasures beyond sexual contact
because when her words make contact
they hit me so right, i must contract
to the deepest regions of my imagination
where birds chirp, turtles hum, and flowers bling
and the sun shines it lovley light so the moon can bring
the stary nights, back to life, as i sing
Just how blessed she is in everything
Now I pinch myself, but im not dreaming
Hold my breath, til im not breathing
Profess my love and now I'm screaming
Creating ripples in the wind
To form the echoes that later
Will remind me of how much I love you
I really hate this feeling, sometimes I wish I could stop breathing. I don't wanna try, just leave me here to die. You were the thing that made my life living for, but your no longer mine anymore. I feel so much pain, sometimes I believe I'm going insane. I'm missing what we had, although it was bad. I'm always walking down memory lane, why can't you see my pain? I know people change, &&' things get strange. I guess I gotta face it, she's my new replacment. I can't believe it's really over this time, I feel as if i have commited a crime. I live in a world of sorrow, so I don't ever worry about tomorrow. I didn't even have time to cry, because i had already said bye. I feel like I'm digging a deeper whole, so I'm hoping Jesus will take control. I'm sorry for my dumb mistake, but baby now I'm wide awake.
Thou shall not pull thy sisters hair. Thou you shall chew thy food.
Thou shall not stay out until Midnight. Thou shall be in a better mood.
Though shall not answer me back. Thou you shall brush thy hair.
Though shall not wear that in public. Thou you shall behave in here.
Thou shall not give me cheek and run as fast as thou art.
Though shall not rush thy homework. Though you shall begin from the start..
Thou shall not scream at every opportunity no mater if thy lungs be strong.
Thou shall not dance in tantrum. Thou you shall stay home where you belong.
Thou shall not eat me out of house and home. Though you shall get a job.
Thou shall not sit round like a bum. Thou you shall turn into a slob.
Thou shall not fight with your sister. Thou you shall give her a cuddle.
Though you shall not bunk away from school. Or Thou shall be in a muddle.
Thou shall not make noise while soaps are on, if you know what's good for thy ears.
Thou shall not blame your brother, Thou you shall see his tears.
Thou shall not ever worry, Thou I am here for you.
Thou shall not ever be sad. Thou you shall be happy It's true.
Thou shall not ever fret, even though we shall have our fears.
Thou shall never be alone. Thou you shall know we care.
Thou shall always have a life, Though u shall be happy and care.
Thou shall not have a problem alone. Thou you will know we are near.
Thou shall not take for granted, That shall be full of pride.
Though shall never wish for more, with thou family by thou side
By Shirley Moody
I am so sorry I tend to whisper to my self while the wings on my back enfold me in my idiocy and bust in a furl of feathers and fire.
My authentic halo falling broken reinforcing my thoughts on transformations...
My lush lies crept up into me whispering to you my secrecy and my merry go round patterns...
I was adapted to serous sabotage and unconsidered volcanic eruptions... Having nothing to react to I made my own quake...
i deserve everything.
But for you to say I can't feel is something that just shocked me at my core...
But then again what should I expect?
are you kidding me...?
But then again what should i expect...
I gave you a reason to be suspicious a reason to say those things...
With my viscosity on the subject I realize I have to be punished... and it has nothing to do with you...
The color of my anger
It consumes me
Into a pit of black
I cant express the emotion
Nothing comes out!
The black, theres too much
I can't see anything
Its just black
And I am angry
No one can help me
And I cant help myself
Take your hand and put it out forward,
Than swing out out to the side, c'mon don't be a coward.
This is fun, now swing your hips from side to side,
Remember all the times you couldnt express yourself and you cried.
But now your can swing your legs and feet any way you want,
Look for that new move that you looked for your whole life like a hunt.
Grab someone by the hand and let them join you in that awesome moment,
I promise you, you will love this feeling you are about to feel.
Turn up the music and dance your heart out,
Move to the beat and go wild and feel like your out of sight.
This is your moment, don't let anyone take that away for you,
This is not happening too slow and i tell you that that's the truth.
Put some head phones on and go to your own world of greatness,
Bust a move like you never did before, I promise it's harmless.
Make your heart feel what I am feling right now and take my hand,
I promise that I will make you smile and scream with joy and stand.
Lost in a hidden cave
inside this little shell
banging on the walls of glass
creating these deep splintering cuts
can't judge the person hiding
when you haven't seen
the tears that hide behind these eyes
hiding inside the broken shell
of a broken heart
Feels like I'm drowning in my own tears,
Is there no one in this world that can take away all my fears?
I'm asking for your help, I'm asking for your hand,
I know i cant do this with you with a band.
Take me as I am and lift me high,
I grown up way to fast, I think you can see why.
You tell me you know everything before it even comes out of my mouth,
but you cant see the fact that im from the south.
That's where all the blood, sweat, and tears came from, to only survive,
so please don't tell me that you know everything, especially how to dive.
Cause if you would of known, you would of done something about it,
instead of each time we get into this, you wouldn't throw a fit.
A Boy can do everything for golf, his initial joy, kooky lies, many new options, putting quirks,
rain, snow, tough upsets, very wearying extreams, youth zeal.
© Feb 27 2010
you say im weird i say im me
im weird crazy people call me skittles cuz my hair is a diffrent color every month
just cuz i like to be me dont mean you need to judge me or make fun of me
people need to get a life
im me and proud of it im happy im me and i dnt care wat any one says about me
why should i change myself for any one cuz wen i change u still might not like me
who cares what any one says be your self dont copy any one or listen to any one cuz god loves you no matter what
im me so haters get a life :)
Think about it you can count on your mom and dad to take care of you,but is both
The bus driver is supposed to pick you up for school but what if he didn't come
Waking up tomorrow but tomorrow isn't promised today
Cars to stop at a red light but some intoxicated, high, insane person might not
want to stop
What I'm saying is don't count on anyone but yourself
does the strain come from...
lack of touching??
I know you're still doing dope
Just by the way you mope
You went to get clean
You got really mean
I've talked to Rick
And now you make me sick
You assume i can't tell
I feel like you're trying to put me under your spell
I'm done pretending
It's time to come clean
Deleted the memories of what we had
I am not going to lie i had a blast
but now its time to end this at last
forget about everything put it behind us leave it in our past
where did the time go? It sure went fast
Im sorry about everything it all even left me with a gasp.
Deleting the memories of what we had...
By: Raymond T Padilla
I am standing on the same spot
Looking out of the window
A star smiled at me and said
“I have a message for you”
A person is thinking, he said,
Thinking of you….
With sparkling eyes he told me
He loves only you…..
In his eyes I could see
The true power of love…
So I wished to be a cupid
And a messenger for you..
Don’t ignore him, the cupid said,
He is only here for you..
Your love will last…
Till the day sun turns blue…
There are some people, who think they have room to complain.
Because they are their own reapers, who want to take their lives away.
Well give it a rest! Atleast you have a life to live.
Live with nothing to look at, see how long you last then.
Try being so sick, of watching yourself breathe.
Only because this, is the only thing you ever ****ing see.
Try having day after day, clear skies turn into the night.
Needless to say, expressing the nothingness of your life.
Try being so alone, and its the only thing you'll ever know.
Oh, but she thinks she's hurt, because her boyfriend broke up with her.
He thinks he's alone, cause he was grounded for not coming home.
She thinks she should end it, cause she's 15 and got pregnant.
He thinks he's a victim, cause he didnt get the world for Christmas.
She thinks she should end it all, cause her boyfriend didnt call.
He says "Theres no point for me", cause he doesn't money for his weed.
She cuts away her wrists, because she didnt get her birthday wish.
He thinks his lifes over, cause he cant remain sober.
She thinks theres no point anymore, cause her "friends" call her a whore.
He's decomposing in his bed...........DEAD
because he had no one to keep him fed.
As some just want food, or to once embrace their family.
no matter what they do, their FORCED to live in agony.
And all some want,is to open thier eyes and see that they have a life to live.
Maybe even without purpose, but something to fill their minds with.
Lord forbid they get their help, or someone hear their pleeds.
Catered angels think they live in hell, "trapped" in a "dark reality"
You were supposed to be good
You walked right out from the hood
You hopped into my life
You held the knife
I was strong enough to fight
I didn't want this life
You shot me through the heart
You were smart
I live with this everyday
I'll never be okay
A is for angry atheist angst
B- you're bleeding bruised broken taking your allowance to the bank
C is for cutting, crimson and crying
D is for daemons, death, darkness, and dying
E is for everything gone wrong in your life
F is the freedom you find in the knife
G is for gothic, straight from the womb
H is for the latest hawthorne heights tune
I is for immortal- you've commited suicide ten times already
J is for the jaded and emotionally unsteady
K is the knife you "accidentally" misplaced
L is for losers, lost life and lace
M is for makeup that cakes up your face
N is the nightlight to keep away the dark you "embrace"
O is because you're obviously obscure
P is for poetry or prose- you're not sure
Q is for quiet, you sit all alone
R is for razors when no one picks up the phone
S is for screamo you can't get enough
T is for tears damn, being fourteen is tough!
U is for ubiquitous mental disease
V is for vacant vacuous vampire wanna-be's
W is for whiny,well-fed suburbanite teens
X is for Xanax- you know what it means
Y is for youth spent all about you and your anhedonia
No diamond in the rough, you're just another cubic zirconia
all of the people in this world have the problem of not knowing what they have until it's gone.
The few people that understand this and have not made the mistake have lived happy
lives.Is's hard for someone to understand their emotions and what they feel and it is the
downfall of many. when you have someone you love and that makes you happy don't screw
it up by cheating or changing the way you act because the way you act is the reason the
person likes you in the first place. You need to cherish what you have because it can kill you
in the end. If your going out with someone you really like say it to them some of the time.
Tell them that you care about them. Show them that they are the only one for you.Don't be
a moron and get jealous if she hangs out with her other friends some of the time just be
there for them. If you have something good cherish it as if it were a gift not a right because
it can be taken away in a heart beat. Love is one thing in this world that has the power to
wound deeply and it cant be taken back. You need to be careful and enjoy what you have
and make damn sure you don't hurt the person there is no excuse to cheat, lie, or break up
with someone just because you want to go out with someone else have a very damn good
reason for it. Don't break up with them in a note or a text tell them to their face and explain
to them why. when you break up with them you need to be nice and don't be a total b&tch to
them. Like I said love can wound in places that cant heal so when you do find someone
cherish them like a golden treasure sent from heaven.
On a human road that everyone sees but no one knows, that my soul lives upon
that road, the road that loves the camera strike a pose.
I follow its first mind and there it lets me shine, life goes on within a nick of time, I'll
give it my all my last dime, no one can explore it because its mines.
Someone once said why is there a dead end sign, but the road goes on.
No one drives on the road but though treats it with respect, throughout the days
the human road walks strongly from all wrecks.
They're repeatedly saying its something about this road I do not get.
A road that love its loved ones, this road adore the brightness from the sun.
This road barley complains, no license but the road is easily driven insane.
This road doesn't play games, when this human road overcomes being ashamed,
when this human road is a 16 year old, that carries my name.
I am this Human Road that finds a relief, to release all pain.
walking through the dark, lighting up a spark.
my nightmares come alive, and now i try to hide.
it takes little time to make me lose my mind.
now i need to find the truth, no more lies.
i keep an open eye
as rain falls from the sky.
my nightmares come alive, i try not to lose my mind.
my time is running out, I'm filled with doubt.
My nightmares flood my mind now i see them right before my eyes,
frozen in time.
i realize now, that my nightmares won't drown.
i cant help but frown. tears fill my eyes as my hope starts to die.
all i want to do is learn how to fly.
living nightmares, rest in peace.
living with you is harder than it seems.
i wish for happier dreams, but sadly i cant see.
my living nightmares are my reality.