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My Being

Clumsy days and hazy nights

Haunting and bring me tears

I should stop perturbing

Whilst my heart still whipping

Wrath of nature is just reflection

Of my fragments that created imprints

Within my being that stands steadfast 

Even in the darkest days of my existence.


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The Warning from the Toll man on the Bridge over the Tranquil River

Be careful taking your first step on the wooden bridge at night,
The dark abyss may entice the careless away from the light,
The serpentine wind will tease and tempt you to give up the fight,
“I warn you, now; the risk is far more than it seems at first sight.”

Some lost souls are made of stronger thread and will not heed the call,
They laugh and run straight out ignoring the risk and the fall,
Rash soldiers who trade a pound of caution for an ounce of gall,
“I warn them of the danger but they do not hear me at all.”

The old dry wood here is rotten and can easily splinter,
I saw a whole family, fall, as if they didn’t matter,
Death waits here and all it needs is another beam to shatter.
“I warn everyone but some take my words as useless chatter.”

I remember well the lovers; oh they were full of mischief,
Adam wanted to meet Eve on the bridge and sneak off like a thief,
Adam was in such a hurry their encounter was very brief.
“It was joyful to hear them promise a love beyond belief.”

Joan was a beautiful young girl, who had lovely words to weave,
“Come my handsome Prince; escort me to heaven, and by your leave,
I will beg your pardon and find the grace to attend your sleeve.”
“What sad alchemy does love perform when faithful hearts believe?”

I recall Mathew, a lively man who crossed the bridge with cheer,
“There isn’t much of a vision when the darkened clouds appear,
I prefer to stoke the fire than watch the Sun disappear.”
“ But when the fire was out he huddled near the bridge in fear.”

I saw, sad old Mark chase a butterfly and fall to his fate,
He had bright colours in his eyes and a gazelle in his gait,
He was too good for this bridge , and fell, and drowned in waves of hate.
“Beware this bridge will silence both the humble and the great.”

I remember my old friend Luke who had his head in the skies,
He told me that the voices spoke to him of secret truths and lies,
I saw him climb over the edge, here, and hang on to the ties,
He held on bravely but soon the visions faded from his eyes.

So I must warn the blind men, to be careful who they follow,
To walk in grace and spare a thought for the ones who lay below,
To be able to cross is easy, there is little to know.
“Walk freely over this ancient bridge but pay me as you go.” 


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GoodBye

                               GOODBYE

I miss the way you hugged me when I cried and how you told me how you loved me 
every night but now you won't even look at me and you don't even talk to me 
anymore and when I'm upset you just laugh and walk away........... All I want to 
know is what did I do that was so bad that you treat me like a punching bag........ I 
miss the way you kissed me but I guess you've moved on and I try boy do I try but 
your all I dream about all I think about is you, you were my world and now your 
gone I'm so lost without you I cry every night because someone will say your 
name....... What I miss most of all is that I could tell you anything but now you won't 
even listen.............. What kills me is you saying goodbye for good goodbye god 
those words kill me every time good bye good bye good bye....


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The Last Kiss


She walked through the woods
 remembering his face
ashen and grey against the pillow.
He had been taken by 
the sweeping sickness
that had engulfed her land
taken so swiftly
that she had not 
had time to reach him.

The pain of her loss 
had been unbearable
and she had roamed the house 
striking out
in rage and grief 
at anyone who came close.
The madness had left her eventually,
left her alone 
bereft of her love.

That was many years ago now,
but still his face haunted her,
his eyes accusing 
filled with
the horror of her absence
the terror
that he must face alone 
the time of his death.

It never left her, this guilt she carried.
Many had consoled her, told her that she 
was not blame,that it was not her fault.
She knew better,she remembered telling him one dreadful
storm filled night, that she would always be there.

She shook her head free of the memories,
she was old now and it was so long ago,
she would be welcomed when she left this earth.
Absolved of this guilt that had consumed her life.

She saw the tree as she entered the clearing.
His treee, his favorite place.
Whenever he was troubled or scared
she would find him there,curled up beneath the boughs.
It was his haven, his place of safe keeping.

Glancing around she felt again,as she always did
his presence near to her, tantalisingly close.
She walked  to the tree and sat down,
resting her back against the trunk,
letting the sunlight warm her face.

Slowly as she sat there, eyes closed and silent.
He came to her as if in a dream,
or perhaps she was  dreaming, she did not know
or care,she only knew he was before her,
that her love was with her once more .

Tears streamed from her eyes and her throat burned
as he touched her face,stroked her hair.
A smile touching his lips as he gazed into her eyes.
Slowly he knelt before her and lay back,
resting his head on her lap.

Happiness swept through her like fire,
he was forgiving her, letting her know
that it was not her fault that he had died alone.
Her hand traced the features she loved more than life
and her lips met his in an endless kiss.

The night was dark when the villagers found her.
She was sitting in a clearing, lying next to a tree.
The moonlight illuminated her in its silvery rays
and in its bathing light they saw what they had 
not seen in decades. She was smiling, in death 
she was smiling. 

Athena Beauchamp
12 , December 1999

Copyright 2013 ACB










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A Yearn for a Smile 9-21-11

	A yearn… simply something that you want or long for. As a yearn to finish, a yearn to achieve, a yearn for a like, a yearn for a smile is something that you drastically want, a desire. Something that you spend long hours, nights even day dreaming hours thinking about how you can earn that smile. What can you do…. or what can you say … things such as a conversation sparks, likes even dislikes, mostly anything that will crack a smile. These are things that truly show signs of something far greater than fame, sex, money, power. What is it? Something more than I have yet to find. So as I search for the answer I over shoot the entrance with rapid thinking of what she wants, her likes, her dislikes. But truly it will only be earned by who you are, what you want to be, yourself, your feelings your desires, your yearn. So when you yearn for that smile or that special something it can only be earned by being you, no one else. Take a look at yourself in the mirror and try to see past the makeup or tan or piercing and just look at yourself… then take that image and imprint it to yourself forever because to find happiness and your yearn  can only be earned one way. Trying to watch her and she how she reacts to certain things just to make myself seem better when I finally open my mouth to her will only make you distant from that special someone.  With me I personally see myself as buff pierced orange person, while trying to continue to follow the people who I look up to the most. So as you struggle and go through life’s trials and tribulations always look at your yearn or what it once it what was. Think about how you felt when you failed or succeeded and try to make yourself a better person from it. Not by adding more glamour or appeal to yourself but by being closer to yourself. What you really are. Because only then can you truly say you earned your yearn of a smile or that special someone, even if there not with you, apart of them will be and that’s the part they left. The part that made you better. More complete. 			So never forget your yearn of her..


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you dont know

People think they know you but truth is no one really knows the true you. People always say they know me but do they really? Know one knows the true real me only I know all my secrets and the things I hide and know when I am hiding my emotions. You look at some one and judge them just by the way they look or talk and dress, but do you really know what is going on? People judge me all the time for how I look, how I dress, how I talk, how I act towards people. You can’t just judge some one when you first meet or see them. Why is it that people judge each other? If you just judge people and not get to see the real them you might just miss out on a nice person. Yes I judge people but I at least give them a chance to prove my judgment wrong.


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Falling Rain

As the rain falls down on me,
Before the end of the day.
Curtains will rise once more,
During the final play.
Even as the sun goes down,
Falling from the sky.
Greeting us the stars will shine.
Heaven knows why.
I often wonder if we deserve this
Justice 
Kindness
Life.
Meaning that if we don't give it,
Never will we spare strife.
Oppressing the weak,
Persuing the poor.
Questioning some things
Realizing more.
Still as life goes on 
Trying as we might.
Ultimately loosing
Violently in this fight
We cant go on in life like this.
X-ing out everything
You were the first bell in my life but
Z is the last to ring.


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Good-Bye...

Now's the time to say good-bye...
And, no, I won't miss you,
And, No, I won't cry.
I've gotta move on, get outta this place,
I'm sick of your "stuff", tired of your face.
Once upon a time, our hearts were both pure,
But now, you're my nightmare,
And I'm just your whore.
Laughter and love no longer remain,
I know if I stay here you'll drive me insane,
With your goddamn attitude, your late night alibi's
All of your promises that turned into lies...
So I hesitate before I reach the door,
And take a look around once more.
You're staring at me with sadness in your eyes,
I know you too well, baby, it's just a disguise.
Now's the time to say good-bye...
And, YES, I will miss you,
And, YES, I will cry.

-jma


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Daddy the Alcoholic

Daddy the alcoholic,
 every single day,
full and countless glasses,
 guzzled down,
help him please, and bring my daddy back to me.


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Silently Into the Night

I hope you are with me when stars
fill the sky. Come talk to me 
darling wipe the tear from your eye.
Time's growing short now, my body is
weary. This will be much easier as long
as you're near me. Hold onto my hand,
tell me one of your stories. What's that
you say, here comes our boys? Peace fills
my body and love fills my soul,for right
at this moment my family is whole. Night
draws so close and I long for some rest
Tell everyone I'm ready, my body knows
best. Silently into the night I leave
from this place, with memories of you
and the love on your face. I'll 
be by your side even after I've gone.
Remember I'm waiting like the sun does
for dawn.



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i smoke

I smoke this cigarette
One puff at a time
I smoke this cigarette 
And wonder why I’m dying
My teeth are yellow 
My lungs are black
All I do is hack and hack
My hair smells bad
My clothes stink too
Is that why you don’t want me next to you
I can’t walk up the steps 
With out running out of breath
My chest feel tight 
Its hard to sleep at night
I spend all my money
I could buy other thing
Hell with all I spend 
I could buy diamond rings
For you or my kids that I’m going to leave behind
I can’t believe I don’t care that I’m dying


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A Thin Line

I love you; I hate you
Jealousy is not the cause
Killing you wouldn’t justify
Lustfully breaking the laws

The third line is not an option


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Mom

Mom I promised you I would do my best to help my brothers and sisters pass 
life's test to remember how you were before you were laid to rest.

Mom I`m finding it really hard to do, my brothers don`t talk to each other they`re 
playing a fool, my sisters can`t stop crying for you.
 
Mom I fill no matter what I do it`s not right, try finding peace in this family fight only 
to find I did nothing by the end of night.
  
Mom I remember our last talk, you said no matter what you would be by while I 
take this walk, mom I need your strength for my life they mock.

Mom I told you I`d be fine, that I was not blind, that at the end of this road peace I 
would find,

Mom I fill I`m not the one, all this stress I`m not having fun`m stepping up while 
the others run.

Mom I told you I promise, but it`s my family that suffers and it`s them I miss, so I 
ask you please help me through this.

Mom I am doing what I said I would, while the others fail to do what they should, 
Mom I did the best I could.

Mom,.... how come,.... you chose me to be the one?  


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A Shady Tree

I know its the summer time because of how naturally 
Your beauty compliments the caress of a summer breeze
As I watch the world from beneath a shady tree
I take in the delightful comfort of everything I see
But in the same breath I am holding up my hands
Lord will you please give me back the things I no longer have
They are even more a part of me now that they are gone 
As the sun falls below where the horizon is still holding on
Somewhere between the falling light and a star lit night
Is a dream that last forever and will never say goodbye
As the wind gently blows through the brush and shakes the leaves
It begins to hum a melody that I want to sing
At that very moment I smile for all the joy I have
Its so uplifting for me to see melancholy dance
Soon the morning sun will rise and capture my eyes
As I watch the hand of God paint a brand new sky
With every stroke of color I swallow all my pride
And I find a new place to dream of endless times
If I should ever get to the place I left my broken heart
Only then will I believe this brand new day will start
Again Im reminded of why my heart beats so restlessly
Only the speed of thought and my soul beneath this tree


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Lost

That dark night, I cried in the heavy rain,
And cold drops blended with my grave pain,
O, sorrow, thou shed down my live meadows,
What relief didst bear thy wary falling widows.


Lost deceived spirit from not love betrayed,
Cold in the dark, tyrannized silence swayed,
The splash of paradise glory cannot be seen,
And all agonized humour shade eyes’ screen.


Night haunted thoughts, and my dejected soul
hovered in the chilly dreams of undying fall,
Frozen in mortality, knowing yet, there’s more,
Of my future history to be told of my past lore.


Dark in the cold, deluded by paths of lies,
Paved by fatuous wisdom and falling rise;
Lost in legacy, impeded by hysterical ties
I obediently surrender to stream of eyes.
                                                                

My father shed a tear before he calmly died,
A single shallow burn on skin swiftly dried.
And the morning lionized congruous rain,
How rigorous thou art, nature, when in pain.


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A Poem About My Uncle Freddie

Please don't leave us,
We need you more than you ever know,
We love you Freddie,
And we do not want you to go.

Who would hug us?
And wipe our fears when we are in pain,
Hold us when we needed it the most,
For the past few years.

Forget about the others,
And think about your family for once,
You will be leaving us behind?
We will miss your sweet smiling face,
We will miss your happiness,
We will miss your hugs,
Please don't leave us,
But it won't make us love you any less.

If you chose to go,
Then we will wish you well,
Remeber all the stories you told me.

Memories stay locked in out minds forever,
And when you leave you still be in our hearts,
always and forever.


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please (by kimmy holmes, my daughter)

mom
love you
need you
please
love me
need me 
too


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Sadness

Meu estômago faminto
murmurando contra mim,
murmúrios de tristeza
murmúrios de dor,
gritando murmúrios 
de sofrimento,
bocejando 
a tristeza 
de viver.
Meu corpo
descartável
morto de frio
tremendo 
de medo
da morgue
da 
vida.


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Pirate

Here in the middle of the nothing I'm lost, I've wanted every single thing for me, i
wanted something better, but i just noticed that i already had every singel thing i
wanted, every single thing i needed, now i'm sailing alone looking for that thing i've
lost and now i need, i've lost something the biggest chest wouldn't hold, the money
wouldn't buy, i've lost you my heart.

to: ashton, the girl i miss so much


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Habibaty

Love, this is the home of craggy sorrow
Each bleak house hugs a solitary widow
Waiting more at a pale silent window
Which portends the dead empty path
This carry the northern cold winds
Of early mornings into the gloomy strath,
Folding time, impatience and wrath,
And all day long, become friends
Footsteps' echoes and pattering of little ones,
Nabbing illusions of joyful shades of tones,
And miserable hearts those endowed anxiety, 
And eyes, lips and noses always ready to cry,
Yet how they are innocent, ignorant and pretty.
O love, how the untold words are never dry,
And never desert me like the green in a cedar
Everlasting homage to warmth of leaves
I doubt that my absence should less differ;
I believe when time rashly counts and leaves,  
I should feel your waiting when I disappear 
Holding close to my soul your rich serenity, 
 I should roam your world like a dead star;
Long ago vanished, yet glistens bright and clear
 Like your sad eyes when full of precious tears
Those guard your peace and banish your fears.

P.S  Habibaty ( my darling in Arabic)


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you had me fool

Sometimes I sit all alone,and remember all the promises we made together,than I see them fade away in the wind,kind like the petals of a flower, were feelings over come my fear,than I remember you had me on a spell,you deserve a round of applause,you had me fool, you always was embarrass of me,according to you I was the clown,were all the tears you gave me,were behind the jokes i made,and the smile I kept from fallen down,you deserve a round of applause,what's your next trick?,try to break my heart,or better yet,lie to me, make me fall back to your arms, what's the matter cat got your tongue,that's not suppost to happen to you, your like the best when it comes to magic, you once told me I was your light,trust me not the light of  the dance floor,more like that old abandon light bulb in your closet door, you deserve a round of applause,you had me fool,I could swarn,that trick was real,you gave me so much to think about,and tears to deal, what's your next trick? Run away with someone else and forget about me? Do me a favor and erase my mind,and blind my eyes with more lies, you can't miss ,it works every time, for your last final trick, steal the show with your screams and hits,this time I'll know,I'm not to blame,you can hand cuff me,and rip my heart once again,don't you worry is just a stage,sometimes I sit here all alone as I turn the page,the rip pages of our love story,I finally came to the end,did you know she didn't love him cuz he wasn't cool,oh wow! you deserve a round of applause you had me fool.


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Grey Bird

On that cloudy weekend in June 
I hear a soft and graceful tune 
from the grey bird on the tree 
branch 
Singing sweet lullabies felt 
blessed in the moment 
My body tingles of joy at sight 
Gazing out through 
my open door,
Letting thoughts fly free
Releasing love out into the horizon 
Heart filled with emotion came 
over me 
Grey bird stood playing its tune 
for awhile and on the wings of 
letting go
Then as the rain fell from the 
sky the grey bird flew away 
gracefully 
I blew a kiss to the clouds and 
utterd these simple words of I 
Love You father ( who's now in 
heaven ) and yet I hope to hear 
that grey bird sing again once 
more for me 
Farewell, love your son

Poem contest for Debbie -referential


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Reaction

That night, knowing she loves butterflies;
He promised her a visit in fairy disguise,
In doubt that he might, she bought,
Knowing he adores, a sample boat;
Yet she never believed in his fairytale
In the morning, she caught a rare butterfly, 
And pinned it onto the white plastic sail,
Then she began to cry, annoyed by his lie.


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Love dont pass me by

Love don't paas me by because i'm sweet as honey freash as a
lily and i bloom just like a rose.
When you look into my eyes you can see the truth be told deep
within my soul.
Sweet love don't pass me by on this lonely night i cry.
I am as gentel as a feather i am as an angel who is always ther for 
you to protect and comfort you,
i am as the sun that shines after a stormy day,
i am a rainbow of luck that'll make your days so swell.
Sweet love dont pass me by when i am here for you: rather you are rich
or poor, rather you are right or wrong ,rather you doubt me
or beleive me, just don't use me or abuse cause what I say is real and 
true... true unto my heart and soul.
Sweet love don't pass me by on this lonely night i gaze into the moon and the 
glisten stars that shines so bright in the mid-night sky
hoping and praying that this love we share just 
don't pass me by.


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Fruitless Cycles

retched, a stomach twisting curdle
sour, the bile that rises from malcontent
tearful, yet, tears are futile, a waste of water
understanding seems never to come or come too late
all one can do is suck it up and try to love again



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The Man Died

He lies a mangled heap of naked shame
dead to nagging worries, thoughts and sorrow
a worn dusty dress clings to his lean marrows
silent he lies in a noisy street with no name

All his lofty dreams and achievements
lie quietly with him in his exposed grave
all his prayers and high hopes none can save
mute the too heap a colossal embarrassment

The joy of an only male child is still
the cheer of giddy success is silent
tears from sobbing hearts are absent
only a crowd of sober vultures at his heels

Curious feet walk briskly away from him
who once lived, loved and sinned like many
who now heedlessly lies without a penny
facing a shy sky who turns away dim

He remains a terrible sight of cold shame
putrid morning, a cynosure of attention
crowds salute hand over nostrils in petition
to our commanding John Doe with no name

A corpse of our national soul lies
dead in the center of our patriotic eyes


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Swept By Sight

Over and across the moon
In this lonely night,
I stare at the castellation
Which glitters your face.
But because I miss you
The wind whirls out your name
Then eventually it feels like rain in my heart.
As the clouds draw near
Deep down within, my river turns to a sea.
With tears in my eyes,
I look away.
Because I refuse to let the storm determine my destiny
Because it's your hurricane that I fear the most.


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Even to this day

even to this day,i can still hear your voice,
your beautiful sweet voice,racing threw this place,
even to this days i remember who you are,
it kills me inside,knowing your gone so far,
i repeat our conversations and that only makes me cry,
some times it makes me laugh,you were always so silly,
even to this day i keep the heart you gave me,it still new full of feeling,
it still contains the date we created this love,
you left so much in my life,foot steps with a memorie behind it,
And here i am,still beating my self up,i close my eyes and 
.make sure i dont breath,
i really need a friend,oh thats right you never have time,not
even for me,
even to this day, i carry more than what i ever gave,
that is acully wrong,i gave more than what this words 
will ever make you strong,
i remember i promise you the moon the sky the stars,
well here i am holding the moon like a ring,
pulling the sky like ballons,
and having the stars together like flowers,
even to this day i remember who you are,
and like the promis i made,
ill creat a world with just you and me,just us,
even to this day i cry myself to sleep,
than i tell myself im all alone,
loenlyness became my best friend,
even to this day,i wish i could go back,
and say something to does silent phone calls we had,
even to this day,this end makes me sad.
it makes me fear,not just pain but also tears.


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Rainy Disappointment.

The rain is starting to pour.
The clouds are turning gray.
All my hopes I had in you .
are slowly fading away but fast.
Always thought this would last.
you said believe in you.
I gave you every chance. 
and this is all you could do.
Was take my heart and throw it away.
Say things that don't mean nothing.
touch my hands I feel nothing.
Kiss my lips and your numb to me.
numb to me.....


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you are!

you are all I think about 
you are all I see
you are the only one 
that means anything to me,
you are the wind 
that blows through my hair
you are the person
that is always there,
you are the one reason 
my heart keeps beating
the one reason
I can't wait for our next meeting,
you are the sun 
that shines on my face,
and when I'm with you
I'm always in a better place,

                                             By:Holly Davis


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MidNight Wishes

Even though i did not hear your voice tonight i'm still ahit,
I will go on like this for ever, i wont go out without a fight. 
I'll fight till the end of this life to win your heart,
All you have to do is tell me when to start.

The music blarrin in my head phones at 1:52 AM and i'm lovin it, 
cause it helps me remember your gorgeous smile like it was meant to fit. 
Wanting to feel your touch and kisses all over me ignites the fire in me,
Wanting to take you by your hand and run wild in a big sea. 

There aint much i can say to express myself but this will have to do for tonight,
I think its just that i haven't reached height.
You no I love you and that's all that matters or will ever matter to me,
I will love you till i die, like I told you before, cant you see? 
 


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You text Me

You text me today
Saying you wanted me back
I text you back
Saying your to late
That I done decide to move back home
It's like you expect me to forgive you
after you rip my heart out
I'm sorry
You do not get a second chance
To hurt me again
Sorry
I can't forget things you've done to me
You lied
You cheated
You toyed with my heart
After I gave my self to you
The best you can do
Is leave me alone
So I can pick up the pieces of my broken heart.


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The Pilgrims' Cross

Away with our sorrow left to abide...
The pain tomorrow never glide.
Our fate lies hollow forever stricken; 
Our faith but a shallow bears a shaken.
We hoped on the rain that broke our haven; 
anticipation in strain dead to awaken.
Our worries still linger never to fade; 
our minds to ponder, memories to bade.
Our plea for hope bore tears we bled;
but off they slope like a tree in its shed...


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roses on my chest

                                          The rose’s on my chest keep on growing. 
                             When that knife touched my heart where she once belonged. 
                                                           We were finally one.                                                                                                                                                                               my last breaths are still meant for her this is the most hellish, painfulest and  
                                                         heavenliest,                                                                                                      .                                                    feeling ever owned. 
                                                 As i leave this earth i leave her. 
                                       This is not the way i want to leave but by her hand, 
                                         i once held is the only way i wish to leave


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given up

I am giving up 
I am giving up slowly 
This may be the death of me 
Just have to get out of here
I need to escape 
I been housing all these scars and insecurities 
The walls are closing in on me 
All the pictures and the windows and walls are closing in on me
I don’t know what to do
All alone don’t know how long I can hold on
Just sitting on the ledge waiting for the next move to make
one little step and life can be lost 
stand up take a step and now im gone.


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should i live or die

As a tear rolls down i dont make a sound 
i stay still i think what do i do
do i live do i die do i cry 
do i go on living this lie 
the lie i say all the time,that im okay , im fine, im happy 
but really in side im dieing 
every day i hear people say your ugly, your  weird, the rate on how pretty you are is 0 or 2, why dont you just die
life should be precous, should be fun but all it does is bring pain and sorrow 
im sitting here with a knife in my hand thinking what to do
do i keep feeling pain and cry every day 
do i stay and get called ugly and stupid and get treated like *****
or should i just end it now 
im allways getting teased and made fun of all the time 
maybe its time to end it all 
is life really worth living?


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Is this pain real

Is this pain real or are we the ones who created it?? 
Did we create all the bad feelings or were they already created? 
Are we the ones who opened the cage for it?
When did we surrender to pain, hate, cruelty and darkness?
Happy life has vanished from this world... We weep every time we feel sad.... 
Why can't we weep when we are happy?
Even though there are no happy moments 
There's a story in our tears 
There's a story in our fears 
There's a story in our pictures 
There's a story in our lives 
Those story's will always be in our hearts
None of them will show on our faces...


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Life

 We are all chess pieces,
in this game we call life,
only trying to move forward,
through all the strife,
jumping on those,
who get in our way,
only pushing forward,
as we play,
be number #1,
we've always been told,
even as our hearts,
grow weary and cold.


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Hidden Treasure - Now Revealed

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I lost my treasure, when I was betrayed
Was left with empty hand when I used to gaze
Life was dusty , misty and crusty,
Breaks were many , cracks went rusty

Treasure was lost by a man who was a fraud
I gave my life , my cares and my mind'
Like a serpent he lived and captured every byte
Lost my money , life and soul
Completely crushed and left with empty bowl

Lord received me then,when all left me in Hell
I looked to the cross , repented with pains & fast
How graciously LORD picked me
Embraced me and filled me
Though my treasure was lost 
Still LORD helped with no cost
He consoled me when I was elapsed

All my life's freckles were vanished
And I was left with no Blemish
Jesus died for me -- Cleansed me so I could see
Righteousness I learned , for JESUS love I earned
Transformed my life -- Be righteous what HE guides
I got my lost things back 
With money , fame and treasure full bag
With HIS love and blessings --He replaced my dead cracks

Revealed the meaning of Treasure ---
Meticulously HE blessed me with double measures
HIS wisdom, understanding and care
HIS blood , Eternal life and A name in Heaven
New creation , New Soul and New life HE gives
This is the treasure I see and I live

This is my treasure for rare can get
HIS blessings are awesome , For in heaven I'll rest
Seeing my treasure nothing can be measured
THANKYOU LORD FOR GIVING ME NEW BREATHS AND NEW FEATHERS !!
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LOVE YOU LORD!!!


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Amanha


Se eu tenho de morrer
Meu deus! 
Que não seja já
Eu quero ouvir nas ruas o meu povo gritando
“ Havemos de voltar”
Quero ver a minha terra tão linda e tão rica!
Quero dormir a sombra da mulembeira ouvindo cantos da minha gente
Se eu tenho de morrer
meu deus que não seje já 
porque
eu sinto e tu bem sabes 
que eu morrerei 
humilhado, maltratado e traído…
Mas que não seje já!

Se cometi algum crime
nas paginas negras
do universo 
SANTISTA
serei julgado e condenado
Se opinar e crime
serei julgado e condenado
mas nunca espancado e torturado,
porque sou 
e
sempre serei 
um nacionalista aterrorizado 
pensando nos campos de concentração
na violação
humilhação 
dos crimes políticos NETISTA 
se cometi algum crime 
serei julgado pela boca do povo!
Mas desta vez, pelo pai todo poderoso
serei julgado e condenado
mas nunca 
espancado
e 
humilhado.


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im soo sad

im so sad 
i dont know what to do why is life so sad n dark
i hide in the dark 
i like being in the dark 
the pain of losing people 
the pain of losing my family to my step mom she just took every thing away
i like darkness i feel pain 
i hide my feeling 
i feel like im on the edge of being gone 4 ever 
i dont talk to any one i rather stay in my room in the dark 
i want to cry every day i want to disaper 
the darkness is taking over me 
its taking me to a deep dark place i dont want to be


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THE WILDWEED

I was many in the field But had to know what's beyond the hill. Didn't know the cost was my roots.


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Sometimes I Like To Pretend Things Never Came To A End

Sometimes I like to pretend, things never came to a end. But over time, our love became a crime. I didn't know what we had, would ever end so bad. But then I knew things weren't right, when we started to fight. Now I walk down memory lane all the time, the pain is worst then committing a crime. We only caused eachother pain, but we were eachothers maine. I thought things would be alright, but I cried alot that night. I don't want things to change, without you my life is strange. You said you wanted me so much it started to hurt that you couldn't wait, now im just another person you hate. When you said you didn't care, I knew the person I loved was no longer there. You aren't the same, the new you is lame. We both fell, now it's hell. You use to always be here for me, like family. But now your nowhere in sight, things aren't right. Empty is all that I can feel, I still can't believe this is real. I didn't mean to let you get away, I didn't know what to say. Am i with the right guy, or am i telling myself a lie. I was afraid to loose what we had, but to you that choice was bad.


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If I Go

If I Go, Do Not Ever
Cry After Me
I Will Make You Live
In My Heart, I Will
Not Muck You
From The City I Go,
From My Inside
I Will Send
Greetings, I Will
Not Keep You Wait


Before Your Longing
Fills Into My Palms
I Will Write
Letters, I Will Not
Forget You
To Your Tears
Pouring From Your
Eye
I Will Send
Greetings, I Will
Not Forget You

No Matter How Much
My Heart Is Away
From You
I Will Inquire Your
Health , I Will Not
Make You Miss
Even If My Longing
Fills Into Your Eyes
I Will Send
Greetings, I Will
Not Keep You Wait

There Happens I Shed
Tear Every Night
This Is The Witness
Of My Never Ending
Love
This Is Sorrow
Letter Of My Heart
To You
If You Read You Will
Understand In Which
Situation I Am

How Does My Letter
Tell My Love
Pencils, Papers
Confuse Me
Your Image Comes To
My Eyes, Makes (me)
Cry
If You Hear You Will
Understand In Which
Situation I Am

You Image
Disappears, Your
Longing Stays
My Heart Thinks
Again That You Will
Come
The Letters Know Me
Very Well
By Asking You Will
Understand In Which
Situation I Am


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Im Not A Bad Man, Im Just Not Lucky

I have lost the count of years
when allegations were laid against me.
I had my excuses
but they were not welcome.
I gave my excuses
but they were never welcome.

Thus and so
I became a jail bird.
Thirty-six months due
I was released.

My only possession was my guitar.
I sat at the city park and played it.
Not for a gold and silver
but for someone who might like it.
Many liked it and me a gold and silver.

Thats how i ended up with this pet shop, lonely.
I did break the oinks nose.
From then on, I have suckled the sweetness of loneliness solely.
For these animals, i dare not pose.
After all Im not a bad man Im just not lucky.


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dancing at odd intervals

I find myself
dancing alone
at odd intervals

I'm that girl 
the one 
with crazy dreams and a heart full of nails

I'm the girl no one knows
and if you listen real close
you might figure out this is all a dream

something make believe
I created
and if I erase myself out
will you put yourself in?

I'm sure you have all these lies to tell about my soul
and if you pay attention you could learn something
about
dancing with yourself at odd intervals you could be the person nobody knows.


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Your one mistake

I feel really hurt, I hope you don't notice the mascara stains on your shirt. I dont want you to know I still cry, I dont want you to know your the reason why. I know I have made many mistakes and caused you many heartaches. But I dont know how you handle this pain, I'm going insane. I feel like that one lie, has done more than make me cry. Its caused me to look at you a different way, its caused me to overthink everything you have said or say. I dont want us to change but now things feel so strange. I guess I'll just have to adjust but I dont have anyone to trust.  I dont know what all you have said is true, I dont know what to do. Should I be mad, is it okay for me to be sad. I hate the fact but I don't know how to react. I didn't exspect for that to happen, I wasn't prepared for my heart to be broken. I thought we we didnt keep secrets from eachother, I thought we could trust one a nother. But you have proven me wrong, showed me I'm not strong. I just hope you gain my trust back, before things get all wack.


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Your Silence

Your Silenceis keeling me!
i don't understand why,
i would like to know what's on your mind,
when something happend, and all you do is ignore me.
i would prefer you talk to me,
even though words that come out of your mouth is like fire.
I know if you talk to me, you'll hurt me,
but there is a question that i would like to ask you.
Why do you shoose to stay silent?


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Dismantled Spirit

Dedicated to human realm.....

when it began...
 
menace of life made me die in each breath i took,
betrayed by the command of nature, in each phase my head shook...

shattered achievements..

confounded the mundane for whimsical supremacy,
likely to be fascinated towards the obscure prophecy..

tyrannical truths unfolds,

shadows of ego enlightened in my undesired destiny,
life being invaded by all omnipotent agony...
 
 soul in conflict....

 rather would i adrift to a breathless birth,
for the glimpse of perfection would pertain my worth.....


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Had I not said so

(Even if) Everyone
will get away with
their deed
Your deed will not
remain impunished
You had better
remember that 

If every day were a
feast
And you blossomed
four times a year 
You will wither, too
You had better
remember that!

Everyone's loss is
one by one
The ones I lost have
all left at the same
time
I stayed strong, did
not cry
The one staying
becomes a king
The gone one becomes
disgraced
Had I not told you
to note that
somewhere?

Think not, that,
because my eye does
not see, I know not
about your state
Dark news travels
fast, good news
about you never
comes around
Have I not said, you
will suffer?

Everything existing
in this universe
will die
Only love is
permanent
Thus, I will not die
The one lacking love
is dead
Had I not said so?

Before falling down
on the ground
As you are still on
your feet, like a
lion
Before yearning for
water
Do not turn your
back on the
universe's secret:
love
If you fall down,
you will have no one
to pick you up
You will befriend
with satans
Had I not said so?

God witnesses
They forget the one
who forgets
Who does not have
mercy will not get
mercy from heaven
The universe becomes
(this) man's enemy
Had I not said so?

We drank from the
same water
What is it that
gives you poison,
and life to the
loving one
And when you asked
that, have I not,
smilingly, said to
you
I got love inside of
me, love!
Had I not said so?

Do not be far from
love and beloved
You will not scent
human's odor, you
will not even be
able to scent
Had I not said so?

If there is no love,
there is no faith
And you will not
even get your (good)
lot from man-kind.
Your departure is no
such thing
The place you leave
to makes the man an
appetizer
You would knowingly
burn
You will burn, you
will ignite
Had I not said so?


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Love Me

Let me fall
let me break.
We all know 
Its your mistake.
Let me cry
let me ache.
Please don't let
My heart break.


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If I could turn back the hands of time

IF I COULD TURN BACK THE HANDS OF TIME....

If I could turn back the hands of time,
To sight of green grass and colourful flowers nod together,
In warm, quiet and friendly whisper in the midday breeze,
The language I could clearly treasure and understand,
Under the verdant branches in the veldt where I used to play.

If I could turn back the hands of time,
To melancholy songs of the cuckoo birds,
To the bees murmuring, small birds chanting merrily,
To the sounds of water in raging rivers and streams,
And the heavy pattering rain on the zinc roof.

If I could turn back the hands of time,
To smells of steaks and chips in the passageways,
Delightful odours of plants so sweet and strong,
To home brewed beers in the over-brimming glasses,
And the golden apple green as the fridge swings open. 

If I could turn back the hands of time,
And feel warm heater air caressing me in winter,
The soft touch of aircon in the sweltering atmosphere,
Sweet taste of coffee and cold drinks to relieve fatigue as the sun breaks,
That made me dream of the events before tomorrow!

I used to stretch my hands, dressed myself and went where I wanted,
But now , with my joints all aching, senses fading and eyes gradually growing dim,
I stretch out my hands and somebody dresses me up,
And leads me to where I do not want to go,
Yes, I cannot turn back the hands of time now!


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How I Feel

The way i feel is weird 
I feel death coming very near 
I feel this dark feeling 
I think i stop breathing 
When I cry it rains blood 
But my pain feels like mud 
I feel sad 
But at the same time I feel mad 
I don't know what to do 
I feel like a foo 
i feel black
I think i stared bleeding from my back 
I feel dead 
I just want to get blast in the head 
The way i really feel is emo 
And my emotions won't help it


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Coward

People want to commit suicide,
people choose to die over livin life.
Why has it come to be this way?
Why has this life become so meaningless,
that we just want to throw it away?
We become selfish and think our life is so bad,
dont think of others who's lives are worse, But still greatful for what they have.
People take for granted the things they've got,
clothes, food, smokes and shoes, even a roof or a bed,
They dont think of the homeless,
the hungry, not even the cold or the hot.
They just think they want to be dead,
Things happen in our lives that, to us, seem bad.
We dont look for help or trust any "friends"
All because of the past we've had.
Dont be a coward and run away,
Stick it out, Live life,
I know that there's alot of strife,
But stick it through day to day.
People want to commit suicide,
people choose to die over livin life.
Why has it come to be this way?....


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you, me and her

I know

you will think of
her in your
altogether empty
room tonight again
your hands will long
for her
your eyes will dream
of her
your longing will
fall down to the
palm of your hands
knowingly that she
won't come

I know
you will wait for
her in your
altogether empty
room tonight again
-the name that you
can't forget, on
your lips
the picture that you
can't tear, on your
side
and the hopes that
are like the rusty
knives, in your
heart
knowingly that she
won't come back

I know

you will long for
her in your
altogether empty
room tonight again
your longing will
melt you like a
candle
your heart will
beat, a huge
loneliness
and your glances in
horizon like the
captain of a ship
which was foundered
knowingly that you
won't see her

I know

you will remember
her in your
altogether empty
room tonight again
the last line of a
sad song on your
tongue
after you go through
all the years like a
day
you'll cry longing
for her
knowingly you're
helpless

but I
in my single room
tonight again
will think of you
your eyes will burn
my eyes
I will be spilled
like broken
wineglasses from the
windows
being obstinate with
those poison songs
I'll wait for you
again


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A poem dedicated to a recent victim of rape

Our dear sister, yes sweety this is for you.
Thinking about you and the situation you've been through,
I felt an strong urge of putting my emotions into words for you!

Don't give up hope, do believe.
The memories wont leave,
but let those memories be your guide,
little angel, please keep up with your pride.

I know,
you are much more stronger than you know.
It has become your past,
but you can overcome all this very fast.

Don't stop trusting people,
all men aren't bad.
Just realize that these devils were of terrible minds!

You're the strongest of us all,
because you've been through so much, 
and yet didn't fall.

Yes, what they did was totally wrong,
they'll not be forgiven even by God!
They have lost their RIGHT to be called as "man",
and they'll be cursed every now and then.

People are asking the official,
"where have your rules been?"
After all, this dirt should obviously be dumped in a bin!.

My dear, today the whole world is with you,
all very eager to see a new personality in you.
Surely, those men are going to get what they deserve,
here, all of us waiting to see you stand up dear.

I, finally want you to know,
you are strongest and the bravest lady I've ever known,
ans so, we would all like to wish you a hearty,
"Get well soon" and come back stronger than before.

                                                              -NISHITA KARULKAR.





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All You Did Was Toy With My Emotions

You said you wanted a relationship
well days turn into weeks 
We fell in love 
Your Son is great
We look like an american family
but your just to busy
Maybe your to busy for me
Or to busy for a relationship as well
I do not like the feelings 
I'm having but I can no longer hide them
They got to cum out 
Weather they are good or bad
Please forgive me for what I gotta say
But I gotta say it
It's Over 
I know we said forever
But I got to end this
I will always love you 
Because I promised
We only be friends
You ant got time for any thing more then that
I'm sorry
But it gotta be this way 
I love you.


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Transformer

Transformer...



 I am so sorry I tend to whisper to my self while the wings on my back enfold me in my idiocy and bust in a furl of feathers and fire.
 
My authentic halo falling broken reinforcing my thoughts on transformations... 

My lush lies crept up into me whispering to you my secrecy and my merry go round patterns...
 I was adapted to serous sabotage and unconsidered volcanic eruptions... Having nothing to react to I made my own quake...
 
i deserve everything. 

But for you to say I can't feel is something that just shocked me at my core... 
But then again what should I expect? 
Secret boyfriends? 
are you kidding me...? 
But then again what should i expect... 
I gave you a reason to be suspicious a reason to say those things... 

With my viscosity on the subject I realize I have to be punished... and it has nothing to do with you...
 





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Why don't we just avoid all this and live a happy life

Does this darkness have a name? 
  
Does this hatred and cruelty have no mercy? 
Why do we make fun of those who look ugly..... What is happening to us judging others by their clothes and looks.... Who are we to judge????? 
You think you have everything but you’ve got nothing if you kept judging others by their looks…... Have a heart for once... What are we doing..??? Have you ever asked yourself this question....??!! What am I doing..??!! We lost our humanity We are not humans anymore If we kept doing the same stupid (bullying) every day...??!! Don't call yourself human if you kept talking badly about others... Weak people are living in their own shadows We consumed all our breath creating the darkness for the weak people... Does this darkness have a name?! Is it your name ???? Is it my name ???? Is it humanity’s name ???? Someone answer me ..!!?? Why are we harassing others ????? 
Why don't we just avoid all this and live a happy life ?????


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I Can't Believe It's Really Over This Time

I really hate this feeling, sometimes I wish I could stop breathing. I don't wanna try, just leave me here to die. You were the thing that made my life living for, but your no longer mine anymore. I feel so much pain, sometimes I believe I'm going insane. I'm missing what we had, although it was bad. I'm always walking down memory lane, why can't you see my pain? I know people change, &&' things get strange. I guess I gotta face it, she's my new replacment. I can't believe it's really over this time, I feel as if i have commited a crime. I live in a world of sorrow, so I don't ever worry about tomorrow. I didn't even have time to cry, because i had already said bye. I feel like I'm digging a deeper whole, so I'm hoping Jesus will take control. I'm sorry for my dumb mistake, but baby now I'm wide awake.


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My heart

Heaven hear my heart as it cries out to you
Lift the clouds, the rain, the burdens that fall upon me
Take away the endless days, the sleepless nights, the continuous ache
Heaven hear my heart as it cries out to you


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Rancorous Benevolence

Archangel that sways upon my peripheral pedestal,
 Your eyes flutter gaunt pernickety,
An anachronistic presumption that does not grant fastidious rebuttal,
 A perennial anathema that balances on a threshold so rickety,
Your scruples warrant the acceptance of abeyance,
 Disguised muse, Incitor of Loath, your canker manifests itself,
Your sophistry is deflected in one single moment of sense,
 Then emerge fettered wings and claws of malign wealth.

Bleeding thorn rose,
 Personification of deception,
The resonance of your  nefarious heartbeat  breeds in my woes,
 Beauty is just an artful perception,
Prevarications that even fool chicanery,
 A ruse that compelled the fatal touch,
Oh white rose, now a blood red filled prism of rivalry,
A slight prick, poisoned my heart as such.

A circus of freaks dancing upon my intoxication,
 Sober Liquid that mock my hallucinations,
Life,like the glass of the night, breaks at the light of dawn.


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truth and lie

don't beginnings sound confusing at the sight were people speak their words and can't be understood in this time. And some just don't realize how important it is to them, but people just can't notice the difference between things, and they disagree or ignore it with anger.
some people are eager knowing what the future holds. even some don't like what the future tells beyond the things they did. They would only think about the past, about what they've done for themselves and others. I say the future is to disappointing to think about, you should think about the past, all the things you did for people, and their beloved ones.
sometimes the truth does not lay up in front of you, sometimes it takes it ways to happiness. That's what they say:lying leads you to happiness, and saying the truth leads you up to sadness, but sometimes if you don't say the truth and take the wrong league out    , then the people who believed you will keep thinking of it, and non will stop.


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life alone

life alone is bitter and cold
with no one to love no one to hold 
the long dark nights waking up on your own 
got money to spend but no one to phone 
to live like this 
to die with my shame 
to have love for so many with nothing to gain 
but where all born with a purpous reason for life 
but mine has been shattered like the shine off a knife
say the meaning of life and it looses its shine 
no one can own it to me it is all mine 
can life be this cruel or is it just me 
ive lost the way to my heart and i cant find the key 
to write all my feelings to write all my pain 
my heart is now empty cold like the nigh rain 
but we all must be love to be loved and forgotten 
to be buried six feet under and left to go rotten 
although i am 20 and my life is ahead 
but my pain will go on until i am dead


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Old friends, Old lifes Same future

Old friends remind me of my old lifes 
Different times in the years past 
With different stories and different laughs
But with each chapter 
I leave them fighting in the past 
Thinking moving on is leaving everything behind
Realizing I can't bring them all with me 
So I bring none of them 
Reliving old dreams when our paths cross 
And wondering why I don't know you anymore 
You pretend like we are the same 
But I can't contact to a life I swore to never live again
And I'm not the same person that held you when you cried 
I'm not the girl that left you behind
I've changed to many times to count 
And one day you will know you can't count on me 
So I come to the place that holds most of my lives 
Walking around surrounded by ghost in this desolate town 
I smile and wave to my past and pretend I remember it 
But this isn't going to work 
This isn't what the world taught me 
So I run away Haunted by memories and broken dreams 
Friendships come and go. One thing stays the same 
Me running from the comfort of the past 
Yelling I can't live like this 
Six months is my limit 
Six months to pretend to be fixed 
But in the end it's me running away with a suit case 
For everything I wanted in those months was ruined so I start new 
Instead of trying to fix a broken heart with industrial super glue
I start over with something new
The only problem is the scares are still there 
The brakes haven’t heeled 
And because I have never learned the right lesson from my past 
I'm forced to relive it 
Until I find the answer I always am searching for 
Or it destroys me like countless times before


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Feeling Down

I'm feeling down, &&' I'm already on the ground. I cant get any lower, my patience is getting slower. I've already hit the floor, &&' I'm becoming sore. I'm not sure where I went wrong, but now I dont belong. I'm like the unknown, all alone. This feeling is unbarable, the pain is unbelievable. I'm ready to walk out the door, I can't take no more. This is why I don't trust, I always get pushed in the dust. Now I got to cover my eyes, &&' ignore all your lies. I've been left in the rain, I've felt the pain. I knew things were wrong, but I stayed along. Now I'm here all alone, waiting for the sound of my phone. I wouldn't wish for my worst enemy to feel this way, that's what I have to say. I didn't really have a choice, now I'm missing the sound of your voice. I made mistakes that wont fade, not even with a blade. My heart isn't bullet proof, &&' that's the truth.


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Sin's of an Absent Father

What Happens to Fathers Who Just Don’t Care
When They Leave Are They’re Heads Held High in the Air
Do They Laugh and Scoff at Whats Wrong or Right
Does the Guilt Strangle Them Like a Venomous Bite
Do They Hurt or Cry for What They Have Done
Do They Think of the Child That They Have Shunned
Maybe They’re Minds are Led to a Darker Realm
Where Guns and Suicide Take the Helm 
If This is the Case Then I Must Digress
Police are Left Cleaning up a Gruesome Mess
What About the Fathers that Return Years Past
Is the Bond Forever Broken like Fragile Glass
Some May Stay Hurt Some May Forgive
Without the Bond of Fathers Some Truly Never Live
For These Poor Souls I Have One Thing To Say
Keep Your Head Held High and Your Anger Astray
Live By Morals In Your Life Take a Chance
Don’t Miss What You Don’t Have By Selfish Circumstance
PEACE

Peaceful Schuy


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Mind's Eye

You are what I delineate as integrity,
 The honesty that beckons,
You, my cohort, carry the knife's handle,
 Rather than stabbing me in the back, 
It stabs you and you become the trusted bearer of all my sins and painful secrets,
 You are that spiritual life form that guides me through the human phase,
You, my friend, possess my life's worth,
 If it were not for you, my loneliness and own companionship would have 
swallowed me in the embrace of insanity,
O fidus Achates, drogher my provoking thoughts,
 T'is an amazement that you do not break,
With the weight of such wrath,
 Reflections that clemency forsakes,
These cold psyche have hardened this heart,
 Pulsating veins of mine, thou art indeed in vain!
Considerations that expand with every attempted beat,
 The death of my body has spawned the soul of my mind,
Oh power of ponder, you reveal to me where my heart was blind,
 My wits are now was sharp as that knife you bear,
A cloak of strength which humanity deplores, now I wear.


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Sadness

Here I am, alone again
Darkness and silence, my only friends.
Indecision and confusion, yea they’re here too. 
With great advice on what to do.
Pain is present, and accounted for.
Along with misery. Who could want more?
I have all these friends that never make a sound.
Yet they scream inside my head, on the stage they have found.
I have asked them to leave, but the rent is paid in full.
And so now I’m the puppet, with strings that get pulled.
Oh how I wish I could cut the strings tied to my heart.
To be carefree once again, and to have a new start.
They say time heals, and I know that it’s true.
But the scars shall remain this steady constant proof.
But hey I’m tuff and I can swallow what I feel.
I can push it away, or pretend it isn’t real.
I’m a survivor, and I can weather the storm,
And I can deal with travesty, regardless of its form.
So once again I set out 
I trust in myself, for I have no doubt.
That the sun shall rise and greet my face
It’ll dry my tears, and it’ll set my pace.
Though my days I shall run 
Until my living days are done.
But still I hope, and still I pray 
That I could at least brighten someone else’s day.
And though with words I try to express
What it is I feel. It’s just sadness.  
 
By:  Carl Preston Rankin III


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Why Dad

The look on your 
Tells me everything I need to know
I'm a disgrace to you
Doing nothing 
What can I do
To make you proud of me?
I'll do it for you
Just tell me how.
I look for your love
In the depths of your eyes
I see nothing
Please tell me why.
Dad, it's me 
Your little girl
You brought me here 
Into this  world
Yes, I'm though 
But my heart on the floor
I've had enough
I can't take it anymore.


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MY FACE IS DEATH

Every where i pass,
they call me an Angel,
though it's dark..
My beautiful face,
can put me to death.


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Mommy Cries

I watch as mommy cries sitting  there all alone
When she falls asleep she cuddle up to the phone
I ask why all the tears
Why all the sorrow
I then hug her 
tell her daddy will be back soon
I must say something wrong
She cries even more
Everything I say I make the tears pour more
Maybe I don't hug her enough
Maybe love I lack
Maybe she's right daddy is never coming back.


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I was a fool

Your nothing more then a lier and a dog
In you made me believe you wasn't going to do me wrong
Now I sit here as a fool
Reading these letter that you sent to her
As my heart breaks
I can't believe you would do this to me
you even looked me in my eyes and said baby I wont cheat
I was a dang fool to believe you
Cause Now I lay here with a bottle of wine with a broken heart
Thanks.


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Doubtfull Goodbye

As you read my mind you sing our song for the last time 
I realize why I fight through all the lies 
And jumped through your impossible hoops
For your voice brings me peace in a world full of war 
And your touch slowly creeps 
On a heart with ice to its core 
You stare into my eyes with love you can no longer hide
And for a moment I forgot this was good bye 
As my heart longs for your kiss
You remind me that my thoughts are not just my own 
And you kiss me like your heart has finally found its home.
The thought of this being the last slips away 
As hope burns through my brain 
You hold me like I'm your dying wish
Reality falls on me like a ton of bricks 
As we pull away, and your words that brought me peace
Sends me to a dark obis 
I love you baby I promise I do 
But I love her too goodbye 


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My Failures

My Failures
Always end in disaster
If i was better i wouldn't be this horrible person
My Failures
My life will never be great or best it can be
I wish I someone else
My Failures
lifes better without me
life will never be in the light for me


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Verbally Twisted

My vocabulary might be a little bent and dented but its mostly twisted, 
a self-made dictionary with a little dark thought and white light in life and craziness itself mixed in it,
 I get up in the morn ready to take the day on after just one egg on a pancake biscuit,
 I got the recipe for verbal insanity just give me the egg beater and with this vocabulary I'll mix in it,
 break the word batter down like a plumber leaking water until I re fix it, 
I got one of kind writing style its too unique for any typical fool to ****en miss it,
 I got the entertainment on writing just ask me for one and I wont sell it I'll just give you a free Se7en King ticket,
 I get your mind thought high so high in the sky lifted, 
I can give a two flying ****s if my haters say I aint got talent because these words they self so freaking gifted,
 I make poems shake like earthquakes fools cant you see how my words already got your mind shifted,
 This poem is my girl I kiss it, 
This poem is just like my weed i roll up and ****ing hit it, 
This word written *****is so addictive, 
Drugs and alcohol so self-conflictive, 
now how can this king ever, ever quit it, 
These words are dying I better get some gas for this verbal car like weed everyday I better get it,
 I live the life of a young Shakespeare I write like I cant ever regret it, 
I put this poetry *****on the line with my own life dont think I wont bet it? 
So **** you, they, them, her and even me, yeah there I done said it, 
letting go of poetic gun shells firing poetic unleaded, 
shooting cowardice poets like paper shredded, 
where many young lost crooked souls go unfed den, 
watch where your two feet may be treading, 
you got to watch your surrounding so much they circle around the same setting, 
**** Life until death say's otherwise, 
I'm just kind of crazy like that I'm just a little TWISTZTED.... TWISTIFIED...


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mean girls

you dont always know what a person is hiding inside
if only you knew the things i hide
like that fact that i was rapped at the age of five
or that i have no self-respect or no pride
people like you are so quick to judge
people like me who has had it rough
but i dont blame you i blame me
because i believe the stupid thing you say about me
the way you make them seem so true how could i not agree with you
i hate to say it but i used to want to be just like you
cracking all the jokes and passing them around like notes
i always wanted the posy that you have behind you
adding ther commets trying to be just like you
but you know what they cant and neither can i 
because your just a selfish witch and i wish you would die
or better yet how about me, then it will all start making since you see
you and your friends bullied me and i couldnt take it anymore 
so i minused my self from the scene 
just for you will know this is what happens when you be mean


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Love Pain

Announcing my return

Before I see you leave

Cuddled up in my thoughts

Delirious with your name

Enigmatic beauty

Feeding on my dreams

Going out of my way to give you anything

Hearing your soft voice brings...

Inklings of you in my head

Juxtapose our differences again

Killing my very heart

Loving me can be so hard?

Merging hearts, you won't do

Now all I have is an image of you

Opulence has blinded you

Prevented You from seeing ME

Quixote's madness seems to be my friend

Reminded of you in everything

Seeing my heart ripped like this

Torn like an expensive fabric

Ubiquitous pain; Love is

Venting out my frustration anyway I can

Waiting for the day you notice me

X-rays of my heart show the truth

Yearning for your love;would be too late when I reach the

Zenith of my career


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You became Shallow moster

Why
I let you back again
thinking you have changed
but instead 
you've changed into this shallow monster
your not the man I once loved
you became angry
you express your words
threw abuse
all I ever done 
was love you
I never thought 
I would never regret 
saying I love you
But I do 
I can longer love you 
Nor love you back
you are total 
different person
I've tired to make it 
work more the once
all it have's caused is pain heartache and stress
Please do not try stop me
As I walk out that door
This is how it should be
This is good bye.



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R I P

Time stood still,
Darkness seemed to overcome me,
When I received that call,
I made frantic calls to my relatives,
Trying to breathe out the sadness,

You had been hospitalized,
As the family gathered around,
we were busy like bees trying to seek the best treatment,
My world seemed to turn upside down,
Every day I had to visit you ,
Trying to make small talk,
Conversations in whispers,

Time stood still,
As days became nights,
In my eyes seasons seemed to come and go,
As we arranged for the surgery,
You woke up from that coma,
Only for a few seconds and minutes,

Sprayed tears, seemed forever in my eyes,
a thousand voices in my head,
I was in my own world,
As the day turned into night,
As the  blue moon emerged,
You passed away,
Gone forever from us,

My tears soaked my pillow at night,
I could see your pain, but could not let you go,
Now its been years,
My mum is not yet over your lose,
Sometimes vivid dreams come to me,
Remembering those old stories about our tribe,
Outside the fire place,

When the night was young and silence filled the air,
If wishes were horses,
I could wish to see you again ,
So you could brighten my smile granny,
These memories will remain painted in my mind,
What a sweet soul you were,
It’s sad the lord called you home,
To live grandpa behind,

Today I visit you once again,
To remember the good old times,
I can still feel your presence as the wind blows my sad tears away.


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Dance

Take your hand and put it out forward,
Than swing out out to the side, c'mon don't be a coward. 
This is fun, now swing your hips from side to side,
Remember all the times you couldnt express yourself and you cried.

But now your can swing your legs and feet any way you want,
Look for that new move that you looked for your whole life like a hunt. 
Grab someone by the hand and let them join you in that awesome moment,
I promise you, you will love this feeling you are about to feel.

Turn up the music and dance your heart out,
Move to the beat and go wild and feel like your out of sight. 
This is your moment, don't let anyone take that away for you,
This is not happening too slow and i tell you that that's the truth.

Put some head phones on and go to your own world of greatness,
Bust a move like you never did before, I promise it's harmless.
Make your heart feel what I am feling right now and take my hand,
I promise that I will make you smile and scream with joy and stand.


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Oh word

while words play hide and seek in my mind
while they sink and float resisting their definition and my determination to recite

when there is a resignation of words in my mind that lead me to a world of confusion
I will take out my pen and paper where my solution is found

there is a story I want to tell, but oh! sorry something holds me back
with all the information I have, its hard to share for I am held back by my situation

Ingcinga nengcingane zam zingcikiv'ubuciko bam ndancama ndatsho ngezwi ndathi " gama hlala nam
ziziphithiphithi zalaph'eziphithanise ingcinga zam , lafika lon'iphango 
njenge ngxangxasi yamanzi, zehl'iinyembezi zam

I sat and I said...Oh! word,,, you got nothing left for me??,,,I wanna recite,, I want to talk 


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UNRIPE HARVEST

OH HELL WORLD!
Someone, anyone! 
Help me understand
How!! 
How could you
Look at her innocence 
And see a jar of honey
Afford a drool!?
Do you happen to speak Booboo?
Did she understand you?

Let me get this right
You looked at her hips swing,
Yeah!?
Looked at her boobies
MH!!
Looked at her hair swing
HUH!!
Someone!! HELLO!! SOMEONE!!

Remember when we visited
Carried NANA shakers?
Seeing her laugh
How it made us laugh
The twist!!
hell the twist
You thought of bringing a banquet 
Rather a chocolate box?
MH!!
Maybe a nice red dress, some designer heels
Is it her BOOBOO laugh gave you a hard on?
DEVIL?!!

How could you?
Mama left the baby with her “papa”
Papa turned into “DADDY?!”
your palm sized daughter….
Look at her now 
Doesn't know anything
Yet her eyes speak of shame, 
embarrassment Regrets filled in her 
Why she was brought to this world
A question she asks herself
looks at us as the devil
looks at the world like hell itself
is it maybe it is

when she asks
where will you be
forgive you we might 
will she ?
how id like to see you answer her
why she is not sealed like her friends
who gave away her innocence
who took away her pride
who deserved her that much 
who will wash away the tears
who daddy tell me who?






























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The Tin Man

The tin man,
is who I want to be
Your words wouldn't hurt me
No pain would I feel
No tears would I cry

When the sun didnt shine
The birds didnt sing
And raindrops fell all about me
I wouldnt really care
I'd have no heart you see

When you didnt call
Or I caught you in a lie
No teardrops would fall
My heart wouldnt break
I wouldnt really care at all

I'd sleep the whole night through
No sad lonely dreams of you
No endless days of pain
Everyday would be the same

Yes the Tin Mans who I want to be
Please, Mr. Wizard No Heart for me!


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Life without love to give

How bad is a life.
Without love to give?
Well I say to myself,
That's a horrible life to live,
When I wake up every night crying to hear,
That one little voice,
That brings me to tear up,
You were not all mine,
But I hurt 
When you felt one once of pain.
One Night of sickness,
That horrible strain,
You were my morning and night star,
I cry when they say your name,
I die inside when I stand beside
that babies grave,
I think of him always.
Mommy Never forgot you,
Nor will I ever stop loving you
My Son.


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The Girl Without A Face

The girl without a face 
Felt she had no place 
No place to call her own 
Lots of people all around 
Should she even make a sound? 
Would they notice? 
Would they care? 
Life just isn't fair! 
She's always alone 
Yet she wants to be known 
She feels her sadness to the bone 
Oh, its terrible to be so alone 
There must be an end to this madness 
All this grief, all this sadness 
No one knows the pain she feels 
She thinks the pain will never heal 
Surely there is a simple cure 
It must be a love so clean and pure 
A smile appears upon her face 
No more sadness upon this face


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Time Out To Cry

All alone at the end of the day
The time, just a little past ten
Evening has come for a short stay
It’s time for her sorrow again
The smile on her face she’s been holding
Suddenly, she lets fall
And the feelings begin unfolding
She comes out of her personal wall
As the world settles down for the night
She awakens herself from a dream
The girl they thought had life going right
No longer the image she seemed
She takes off the disguise she’s wearing
Opens her heart to the truth
Now behind closed doors she’s not caring
About life, or love in her youth
She sits by the mirror spilling tears
And she cries by herself in the dark
Hours of acting like there’s no fears
Takes a lot from an empty heart
Inside she’s lonely and sad
But acts like she's fine by day
In her misery, wishing she had
A friend, or a promise to stay
Ashamed of the truth she’s been keeping
Living hours in daylight a lie
This is the reason in darkness she’s weeping
Taking time out from each day to cry


Written by Shannen Wrass

Copyright © 1995 Shannen Wrass. All Rights Reserved


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when a woman leaves a girl

after all,a woman's mistakes are different from a girl's
they are etched by fire on stone
they are in fact considered traits, not just errors
and now you're so alone
when you were 14 they all said how much potential you had
now you hit 19 or 20, and you're just considered bad
if you were a troubled kid, things were different than most for you
and i don't mean GETTING in trouble,although for some,it's that too
but depression is so very real,they just have no idea
and looking in the mirror to feel,you must skip your next meal
you are never good enough,and always fall just short of pretty
although you are considered smart and extremley funny and witty
they way that you percieve yourself,is different than what others see
at least that's what i have been told,do you agree with me?
but why is it that when your younger,people just want to help
but once you reach 19 or 20,your just dealt the cards your dealt
i don't feel any different inside,i can tell you that for certian
the older i get,the less they care,i hide behind a curtain
i'm still a kid at 21,at 22 as well..
im still a child in alot of ways,living in an emotional hell
where did all the helping hands go,the ones that were there before
i blame myself for not taking that help and will forever more
because now apparently,it's too late,nobody cares about me
i am not a cute little girl,just a woman who needs to be free
i ask of you,human to human,the next time you want to judge
pray for patience if you need to,ask for help from above
but something tells me im not alone,there are others who experienced this
there are others out there that need help so badly,please don't miss
don't miss their smiles,that are still so young,even though they look so grown
at 21 we are not adults,and pretending we are makes us feel alone
maybe i AM alone in this feeling,i have no idea
but what i do know,for sure i feel...this is very real.


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What have I ever done

What have I ever done 
For anyone or everyone 
To treat me so horrble 
Only tihng I really
Wanted is to be loved
Sometimes I guess that's just to much to ask from anyone
I even became someone I don't even know
I became this horrble moster that did everything 
Everyone else wnated me to be 
When all I really wanted is just to be me 
So now I'm left here alone 
With just myself and I
What have I've done so wrong 
To get treated so bad
Come on 
Tell me why.


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i like the dark

the dark is were i belong
i feel i guess wanted 
i love the dark it relaxes me 
im so use to the cold darkness 
its soo dark i can barly see
its so cold n depressing
i cry in the dark 
the dark is just were i want be
i stay in the dark to be hiden 
i stay in the dark so no 1 can know my emotions 
my feelings are lost hiden deep inside and thats how it shall stay....


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LIES

your allways on my mind 
but you make me cry 
i wanna die  why do you make me cry and feel like shit
you say you love me then you make me cry over and over
why o why what did i do so wrong
the moments i need yo the most you make it worse 
the moments wheb you need me the most im here and help you
i should go but im dumb and stay 
i stay and cry because your not just mine 
i know theres others 
but im dumb and belive what you say 
you lie and i cry 
i say i love you 
you say it back
but in your mind its not real  
why do i stay i need to leave but i cant i love you but to you love is a four letter word so i have 2 words for you GOOD BYE!!


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Broken Cave

Lost in a hidden cave inside this little shell banging on the walls of glass creating these deep splintering cuts can't judge the person hiding when you haven't seen the tears that hide behind these eyes hiding inside the broken shell of a broken heart


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Pay back

When you love someone it tears you a part,
All you do is cry and cry,
And notice you have a broken heart,
You love him and he loves you,
But he doesn't seem to care?
You hurt deep inside,
It's hard to bare.
All the pain you keep inside,
You feel it everyday,
You cry and scream,
Wishing that he would feel the same,
Now a few weeks past he wants you,
But look at all the things bad he did do wrong.
It's hard to say no but you have to because
He broke your heart,
Now you have to brake his and tear it apart like he did with yours


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I was such a fool

I lay here hearing the wind blowing against my window
Thinking How much of a fool I was 
When I let you go
I feel like such a horses butt 
Right Now
You wont even talk to me
And All I want to say is
I'm sorry 
Could you ever forgive me
And my foolish ways
Because Baby
I need and want you
I can't do without you
we are stitch together
Baby
Could you ever forgive me
For being such a fool
Cause I love you.


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Meant to be-

My head is throbbing
and my tears are falling
my thoughts keep going back to you.

I feel my heart is breaking
all because of my mistaking
I guess I wasnt good enough.

I feel my heart is going faster
because they knew we'd never last
All I want is to have you back.

You wanted her instead of me
I guess I should just let it be
the words you said are killing me.


Perhaps it wasn't meant to be.


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if you only knew

when you lose sight of what really counts
its easy to focus on only whats shallow
am i too fat is my nose too big
do i walk or talk weird whats wrong with me
when we forget the depth that is here in this world
and focus on things that are just absurd
so maybe im not a supermodel and my bums a tad on the thick side
and maybe im no a genius thats getting a scholorship on my side
but does that mean im nothing that i dont count
this world is getting sickening count me OUT
im ashamed of myself for even thinking like this
and obsessing to tears over shallow petty shit
i am praying that god hears my pleas for help
because i cant conquer this all by myself
i used to not care didnt care at all
but like any other i rise and fall
i am of the opinion that your body is a shell
and youll leave it behind when you go to heaven or hell
it will rot in the ground and count for nothing
and when i meet my maker he wont care how big my bum is
some women ONLY care about their looks and they dont get it
they dont see the big picture 
and i fear theyll regret it 
and other women dont care even at all 
about their looks because their depth is so massive and raw
but then theres me in the middle with so much depth and spirituality
why do i waste time wondering what are all the things wrong with me
im sick of crying over it ive done it for too long
im sick of getting angry when i cant crawl out of my bod
its a thought that i had reguarding a cacoon
like how catapielers go into them and out comes a butterfly zoom
if i could just crawl out my mouth my soul free for just a moment
and be allowed to have a different shell to live and own it
i wonder what its like to feel just for a second
not arrogance but a sweet compliment from someone who MEANT IT
my desperate pleas go out to you and anyone else who will listen
i hate my body im sick of my face and my voice is just ridiculous
so lets just drop it in the ocean let it sail away
cuz me im going to better places where i dont have to cry all day
where i know that my body is just a little shell a vehicle if you will
its our car or truck or limo or bus to use while we use our free will
and ive always said when you go you don't take your money your lambergini
or your watch expensive jewlery its all staying beind
and you should think about what YOUR world is while im trying desperatley to fix mine


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God Damn

I know this won't
last long like this
One morning, I will
drop my heart into
the hands of a
beggar
I don't care who
says what!
I can't stand any
more
I am tired of living
you without you
You won't come back
anyway
I feel like I will
go mad
God damn! ..

I find myself
roaming around where
you used to be
It feels like you
will appear right
behind the corner
It feels like you
are waiting for me
at the bus stops
A few days ago, I
met someone on the
same street
The hair, the eyes,
the looks, just like
you
I ran with
excitement
And for the first
time in my life, I
was slapped
God damn! ...


The world is in
fires
Wars are all around
us
People are dying of
hunger in Africa
And it looks like I
will die of being
without you
Do you care?
Who knows where the
hell you are!
God damn! ..

No matter which
table I sit at
They serve me the
drink you like
My vase is filled
with the flowers you
like
And in my lips, the
songs you like
I celebrate your
birthdays without
you
And every morning, I
pray for your
happiness
Whatever I do,
wherever I go
You are after me
like my death
God damn! ..


Mine is a love like
this
At this time, in
this age
You are right, I
will never grow up
The best is to end
this life
Or to let my body go
off the scariest
cliffs
Into the endless
seas
But I have you
inside
What if something
happens to you?
God damn! ..


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Little Did I Know

Little Did I Know...

All was rosy, all was bright..;
Nothing but hope and happiness in sight..!!
Always carried a smile..;
As, everything that I wanted was going to be mine...!!Little did I know,
All this has always been a lie..;
Very soon all my happy dreams are gonna die..!!
Little did I know,
That I was surrounded, not by people but wolves and I were the prey...;
Sucking ma blood night and day..!!
Little did I know,
All the sweet talk was nothing but poison..;
Killing me every second, with me dreaming of things above the horizon..!!
Little did I know,
That was being betrayed..;
Actually I was just another soul, waiting to be slayed..!!By the time I knew, it was already too late..,
Ma life's game was over, it was a check mate..!!
All was rosy, all was bright..;
Nothing but hope and happiness in sight..!!
Always carried a smile..;
As, everything that I wanted was going to be mine...!!But, Little did I know......


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We Are Not One

You made me think that we were truly
Two hearts that beat as one
But what you were showing me
Was nothing but a lie

I have grown too strong
To ever fall for those lies again
But here you are
Asking for forgiveness and for me

I will not give you what you want
Once more my heart was broken
I’m done with guys like you
I’m done, so leave me

I let my friends lead me away
Cause it's all they can  do
Or leave me lying here
All alone, under the star lit sky

We are not one with each other
For I do not love you
We are not one with the world
For I have given up on you


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HEATHER

Look at it,
it's a rough plant,
red and blue,
with very small flowers.

It's found on waste land,
and mountain sides 
at large.


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I will always love you

As I lay here with covers over my head
Hiding from the world 
Listening to the rain hit my window 
My eyes starting to feel heavy
I haven't slept in days
From missing you
You said we would grow old together 
But Now I'm left here growing old by myself
What happen to forever
After you said you promise
You would never leave me
Now I lay here broken
With Memories of us 
Lay heavy on my heart
You crushed ever dream and hope 
I had for us 
When you spoke those three words
It's Over
I wonder How that made you feel 
Was you happy that you hurt me 
Or did it hurt you too
I guess I will never know
Sense you ant telling
Guess this is goodbye forever
But always rember I Will Always Love You.


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I Will Remember

I remember the smell of the desert
The sand between my little toes
Warm, Sunny, Beautiful
The sun setting on the orange sand
The howling of the coyotes 
Soothing
Very soothing
The curious creatures crawling
I remember the beautiful desert
I will always vaguely.......Remember


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You hurt me

You tell me you was not sure what you was thinking
Well same here
I wanted to give it a other try
But all you can say is your sorry
It will never be back the way it was before
Because you've hurt me
You told me you never ment to hurt me
Well you did
And I can not forgive you for it
Cause I know now your love was just a lie
I'm sorry
Boy I don't know these games...


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SAHARA'S PEARL

Look at the Sahara's pearl,
It never spoke it's emptiness,
Let silence kill it's cruel,
And be kept for itself loneliness.

The dryness that flows thru,
Bearing thorns of bitterness,
Carry every sorrows and blue,
Still remain it's golden quietness.

Drops of ashes in pearl's vein,
Crucified it's heart with grief and pain,
Windows of new breath are so in vain,
Waiting solace of peace and not insane.

Sahara's pearl full of misery,
Just let it go forever eternity,
Push away those doubts and curiosity,
And welcomes fairies and be happy.

That dew of morning wakes Sahara's pearl,
Rise and rose up again it's genuine smile,
Lift up spirits like pools of whirl,
Run and chase it's dream with a million mile.

Sahara's pearl now full of mystery,
Pack of quantum now full of energy,
Thorns of bitterness now is history,
Sahara's pearl will shines till victory.


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I was blind to see the truth

I was to blind to see the truth 
I was to blind to notice you was running around on me
I was so warp around love 
To see you are the men I thought you would never turn into
You lied
You play with my heart
You toyed with my emotions
Why all the lies 
What happen to the way things used to be.
No we can not work it out 
I gave up everything for you
For what a broken heart and nothing to show of 
I loved you
But you didn't love me
Why did you cause so much pain
Was it your thrill or your kicks you get out of it.
You've made your own bed you got to lay in it
Goodbye.


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You Lied

I thought I knew who you where
But I guess I was wrong
You never loved did you
you played me 
I found out you 
Got and still was in trouble
For having sex with a minor 
When I found out 
You sicken me
I can't stand to be around you
How could you lie to me like this
I thought what we had was real
But instead you used me
What you did you think
That you wouldn't get caught
Well you did
I wont you gone
Far far far away from me
You make me sick.


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blame

you left me laying in the cold
was it my fault why you had to go
please tell me soon you will be coming back stay
because i can not take another day
without your touch or the smell of your cologne
call me insane but i just cant move on
was it because i was talking to a man
baby i promise he was just a friend 
if thats what it is baby i take the balme 
anything just to get you home again


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dear deepest lover

                                     Take my hand for it all i have to offer.
                                We will go on this adventure one day together
                                             Dear my sleeping beauty 
                           This is not the end for all this is a temporary good  bye.
                                      Close your eyes for i wish for life.
                                          For this is all you wanted. 
                                            Dear your truest lover 
    I know you can make her happy for she has not been sense you left that dark day.
                   Dear weeping heart dear soul that is stained by which you once held.
                              I will morn and grieve my weeping heart  will never heal.
                                         I loved you tell my dying day.
                  Because you touched my heart in such a special so i always pray.
                            Dear deepest lover dear my sweetish mother.
                                                         RIP  NAN


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I never meant to hurt the one I love

I am so shame of who 
I become
I lay here with a bottle of pills 
Debating if my life and everyone else 
Would be better without 
Me in it
All I ever do lately 
Is hurt everyone 
I love 
I never meant to hurt 
Anyone that have's loved me
I am sorry to everyone I have hurt
I'll go ahead and take me life
So everyone 
Will and do better without me
In it their life
Cause my life ant going anywhere
All I am depress
I find it 
Best when I write poetry 
It's all I got anymore
So goodbye to all I have hurt.


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For You

By Robielynn Collins 
 

 You are my best friend, 
through think and through thin, 
and I guess you didn't realize, 
that it was a sin, 
but I prayed to God, 
to make you whole, 
and to take you to HEAVEN, 
and to save your SOUL, 
I know he will, 
becaus HE'S a loving GOD, 
and HE can do anything, with just a nod.


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Rescue Me

Feels like I'm drowning in my own tears,
Is there no one in this world that can take away all my fears?
I'm asking for your help, I'm asking for your hand,
I know i cant do this with you with a band.

Take me as I am and lift me high,
I grown up way to fast, I think you can see why.
You tell me you know everything before it even comes out of my mouth,
but you cant see the fact that im from the south.

That's where all the blood, sweat, and tears came from, to only survive,
so please don't tell me that you know everything, especially how to dive.
Cause if you would of known, you would of done something about it,
instead of each time we get into this, you wouldn't throw a fit.


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The Night Gang

When the night gang came
They pinned me to my knees.
With my heart blown wide open
They took my love from me.
With tears in my eyes,
I called out to you
But my voice was too feint to reach you
And I couldn't chase these vultures away.

As my tears fell,
The hardened ground started to loosen
Simply because I was dying inside.
I couldn't bare the sight
To watch them destroy me.
So I remained suspended
As the horizon started to fade.


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True loves heart pound

Forbidden feelings I know too well
A glance to me
Communication only I can see
Jealousy
Or a love thats only too real
Time is ending and my thoughts circle you 
For I know my dream will never be true
As I walk away on that dreaded day 
The reality of never seeing those green eyes staring back at me 
Haunts my every step
Is this something I can truely live with
Leaving the person I call home
Unspoken words only go so far 
But they can't stop me 
You look at me 
As I stare back at you 
Will you be the last to see though
The last I no longer have to hide from 
Am I the last one to understand you 
Why can't you say its true 
Why can't it be just me and you 
I fear when I fly away 
That it will be our last day 
I run towards you 
Wanting to tell you all that is true 
Yelling that I love you 
But I stand still 
And the thought of you just being a memory 
Rips though every part of me 
A fond time I call upon when my skies are gray 
Casting you, with all the others 
Knowing you are  so much better 
You asked me once if I would die for you
In a instance without thinking anything though 
I knew...The breathes you breathed were more important to me then to you
And I'm not just going to be losing a friend
I'm going to be losing a purpose
And the beginning to my end.
I remember the day you laid on my couch 
and asked me why we were this way 
I said cuz your my little brother and I love you 
I tucked you into bed 
And you sent me off with a kiss on the head
I remember the day your promised me the world
But all I wanted to say... Was your the only thing this world can give me or take away 
And the price I pay. I will bear and grit my teeth
As long as you are happy. 
Tears falling from your now gray eyes
When I told you that day. 
You said you dont know what to do. And how can I live without you
I don't no if I can leave you
No matter how much you dont want me too 
GOD just leave with me
Pack your things and start new 
just me and you
But dreams are for sleeping. Which I never do. 
So heart ach will be felt 
And I want you too feel the same too
But don't hurt I cant wish that on you
Just miss me and promise you'll never forget me 
Because I promise I will always truly and forever Love you.
And no pain will over come the day I walk away from you
God I pray he follows me 
But unanswered prays happen everyday 
So I'll accept the day I fly away 
Will be the last day 
Our eyes meet, The last day we say everything without a sound and the last day I hear true loves heart pound


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siting in the dark

im siting in this dark corner on my bed just crying 
i feel so sad and alone 
i rather stay in my dark room instead of  places full of light 
im scarried of the future and the past 
i dont know why i cry so much  
i just like the darkness 
siting in this darkness thinking is there some 1 out there that cares that is thinking of me who wants or am i just alone with no one 
im scaried today if i die would any 1  care i would hope so im just so sad and rather sit here in the dark.........


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My Little Angel

I Losed A Huge Part Of Me Thee Other Day, Heard The Heartbeat, He Said Everthing Was Okay, As We Waited There, Time Began To Pass, I Was Getting Scared, He Walked In The Room, And The Words So Insercer Entered My Mind, Just One Word, And The Whole Room Went black, People Stared Like What Were You expespting, My Baby With His Arms Around Me, I Felt A Tear Roll Down My Cheek, And I Didnt Care Who Saw, All I Knew Was A Huge Part Of Me Wasnt there, Emptyness, Felt So Lonely, But Everyone Was There, Mommys and Daddys Little Angel Was No Longer There:"( So Heartbreaking: But True... R.I.P Jamie Mom And Dad Will Keep You In Our Prayers


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The Lord

Lord
He left me 
Oh my lord why
When my heart was full of love 
That what my heart felt
Til now my lord
The pain just won't disappear
My heart won't be able to love again
My heart is bleeding 
My heart is crying 
Oh my lord why
My heart is dying
There no more love
Inside the beat has stop
My heart has turn into stone
The light of my heart 
Can't you see my lord
The light of my heart faded  away.


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Beyond the blue

BEYOND THE BLUE

I am furious with you, my friend,
For many people around the globe went beyond the blue,
They indulged in drugs, to get a dreamy feeling,
In order to escape from the problems of their lives.

Even with overdose of legal drugs many lives did end,
Smoking is truly a slow motion suicide; and the abuse of
Cocaine, ecstasy and marijuana result in a slurred speech,
Distortion of vision, liver, kidney damage and ultimately death.

Even though alcohol beverage relieves fatigue,
It is its over indulgence that causes giddiness,
Blurred vision, distortion in perception of distance,
Suicidal tendencies and contribution to road accidents!

I am still furious with you, my friend,
Because many people went beyond the blue,
As a result of drugs and liquor abuse,
Now here you are, slowly passing through the blue!


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A WANDERING SOUL

A WANDERING SOUL

You dumped me into the lowest pit,
In its abyss and darkest depth,
You kept me permanently disjoined
From my closest friends and family,
My eyes are dim with grief!
From where I am laid now,
My parents will see me no more!

Look here, on my neck your daggers ran through,
What a grievous rent your envious friends made on stomach,
How my blood oozed and sprout like a sprinkler,
Rushed and followed the path out,
Mercilessly and heartlessly, you butchered me lifeless,
Bisected me for your evil ends,—oh, what a gruesome act!
Grievously I escaped my own body untimely,
Even though I prayed, cried loud and begged for my life.

Heavens did not know I was coming,
And on earth I knew no peace,
And shut down the door on my face.
Where I am laid now, I feel the blazing heat,
For I am a soul with no landing, lost, confused,
And wandering in wonder in search for my lost body,
My life, my destination, my resting place, my real dignified grave!

I long to rest with my ancestors in heaven,
For I am somebody else’s son too!
I longed for longevity on earth like you,
Tell my parents how you violently took the life out of me,
Show them the darkest pit you forced me in,
I long for proper and dignified funeral,
So that I can be re united with my father in heavenly peace!


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You wouldn't start new, Even though it was the best thing for you

Betrayal at the end of a long list of emotions
Felt because of your longing kiss 
The best saved for last 
The one that trumped all other in the past
The hardest one that will surely last 
And it has finally come to this 
We had a great run, on that we do agree
But everything must end 
As the anger will replace over whelming love
Until the day i wake up and fly away never to be the same
But this is the path you chose
This is the answer that you gave me
When you said love is all you can see 
So is this what makes you happy?
Not running away with me 
For your presents only coldens my heart 
And your once mind stopping green eyes
Just make me remember how we fell apart
You said you wanted to start somewhere new
Somewhere are love could be true 
Yet I stand alone with three thousand miles between me and you 
So how do I make you go away 
Without hating myself in the end 
How do I let you go without letting you know
It's all your fault
The answer is simple, I don't 
For the rest of our lonely lives 
We will both remember each other
We will remember the pain
And forget the joy of having the person that truly understands
Yet not I understand,
Why you always said we were pure evil 
For what else but that,
Could watch as we killed ourselves
And as we killed the hearts of each other we called home 
For no reason, other then 
We were already dead


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MY FRIEND, YOU ARE SICK

MY FRIEND, YOU ARE SICK

My friend, you are sick!
That invisible, dreadful and mighty virus
Often talked about in televisions and radio’s
And public and print media at large,
Has found in you a hospitable host
And destroys your life in delight!

My friend I know, you are sick!
The battle against the virus is not lost yet,
Regrets and turning back the hands of time in mind
Will not help but aggravate the disease.
A visit to the hospital for Anti Retroviral
And healthy living and eating will help you cope!


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pain and sorrow

All the pain the sorrow 
All the tears all the scars
All the heart ach all the pain
We hide it all deep in side us so know one will see it 
We hide in our own emotions 
Sometimes we might look happy but really we are sad 
Sometimes we look happy and we really are
How can you tell the deferent’s?
Why do we hurt so much? 
There are so many reasons 
Sometimes there’s know way to fix it 


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Undesirable whispers

I was not afraid that my life one time will finish.
I am afraid that it will never start.
Death always was ahead and whispers to me
"Live because I am coming".

The biggest injustice in this life is if you have arrived and depart without travel...
The joy of the journey that you never live

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WAR IS THE GREATEST PLAGUE OF MAN

WAR IS THE GREATEST PLAGUE OF MAN


As war is fought it takes charge 
And events spin out of control.
The madness of men can alter the soil 
Which nourishes the roots of their soul.

Many things will forever change 
Far more then wished to be.
As the wrath of war starts to destroy 
Those things we fight to keep free.

War is the greatest plague of man, 
Religion, state and sanity.
Any scourge is more preferred 
Than the one which disables humanity.

When war breaks out, boundaries change 
And all who die are a token
Of the rage that must run it's course 
Before words of peace are spoken.

War I hate, though not men, flags nor race 
But war itself with its ugly face.
When we lose faith in the brave, which die 
Then we're not fit to greet those who cry.

What distinguishes war isn't death 
But that man is slain by fellow man. 
Crushed by cruelty and injustice 
With his enemy's murderous hand.

War tends to punish the punishers
So the losers won't suffer alone.
The essence of war is but violence
Till the survivors come marching home.

Sometimes it's hard to defend what's right, 
Sometimes we're forced to rise up and fight. 
Sometimes we survive, while others must die 
Sometimes never knowing the reason why.

The rush of combat is a natural buzz 
Caused by fear, leaving nothing as it was.
Hunting one another like wild game 
Without a shortage of those to blame.

Sometimes victory comes too slow or quick 
Sometimes the cost on both sides is sick.
Sometimes God is asked to intervene 
To help stop the savage from being so mean.

War is a hell we visit before death 
Fueled by the whisper of the devil's breath. 
There must be a reason man destroys man
But why it is so, I can't understand.


By Tom Zart






 


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Baby I miss you

Baby I miss you
I miss the way we snuggle and get wrap up together
I miss the way your lips touch mine
I miss the way you touch me
I miss when we held hands
Baby I miss you
I know when we went our different ways
that it was my fault not yours
I never wanted to let you go
I was just so sacred that if you really seen me for the real person I am
that you would leave me 
I never meant to say goodbye forever 
Now you moved on 
And I'm left here  with a broken heart
I'm trying to be strong 
but your always on mind 
I can't seem to erase you from my mind
I'm sorry for ever hurting you.


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You shot and i didnt die

In your absence,
what fires I burnt
with your yearning,
though
I couldn’t burn you,
as you burnt me
Like water in
desert, days in
prison, bread in
fasting, I waited
for you
But you only put
fears between us
You put bans
Don’t ever ask me
where I am now...
You called me and
didn’t I come?

Don’t used to offend
to springs with no
flowers, while you
were here
To the rainy
skies...these
melancholic evenings
While you were here
Don’t used to look
and sigh to train
stations
To bus stops…
While you were here
I don’t used to cry
to ones get
seperated
Don’t used to get
down after finished
loves
Don’t used to offend
to the going ones
Don’t used to feel
pitty for the
staying ones
Don’t used to feel
cold like that and
shiver, while you
were here
Was innocent, like
children
Don’t used to get
mad like that - dont
used to swear
At last I dont used
to think of dying
Now I am asking you
If it is hell the
name of this love
You burnt me and
didn’t I burn?

You know
To all your pains, I
turned on 'green
light', we couldn’t
make it
For all your fears,
I was 'back', we
couldn’t make it
To the mountains, I
put stairs, we
couldn’t make it
I was a snow in
June, snowed in your
palms, we couldn’t
make it
I loved, we couldn’t
- I burnt, we
couldn’t - I adored,
we couldn’t
Well then, I give up
Cut the ticket of
this love however
you want
Somehow you are
going
I know, go...
Though after you
A couple of crying
eyes
A heard ripped to
shreds
A ruined mountain,
if you don’t want to
see
Hold your weapon -
push to my back
I am a coward if I
shiver...
You shot me and I
didn’t die?


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An Old Man Thoughts

 "I would like the people to always remember me
beautiful and young.
With a strong body and nice skin.
I would like the people to remember me
fresh and active.
Like a sporty teenager with rich shiny hair.
I would like to stop the time
at the best moment of my life.
But now it is too late.
I am an old man.
The price for all that
I wished to have had was hard.
I had to die young..."

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I'm Just Me

I know I have curves 
I'm not skinny like the other girls
I have some what of a belly
My eyes are Brown instead of Blue
I'm big bone
Not skin and bones
I'm Just Me
Nothing Special
So Why is it so hard 
For someone to love me
I know my laugh ant perfect
I'm the girl sitting on a bar stool
Wondering Why Not Me
I got a lot to offer
All I ever ask for is to be loved
I got my mistake 
But No one is Perfect 
I'm Just Me
I never get ask to dance
Yes I Birth three cute  kids
I have a little wight
It shouldn't matter if you really wanted to be with me
Their are days I like to be lazy
And Wear my fave it pair of sweat pants
Just snuggle on the sofa
I'm Just Me
So why does all the men pick the girls who looks like they need to eat
Instead of me..


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Sorry for letting you go

When you love something so much
And you believe that he or she 
Will do better without you
Then you should let them go
But if him or her comes back to you 
Then you know it was meant to be
But if he or she doesn't 
Well you should begin the process
Of letting your heart heal
From the pain
I know how it feels
I been their once
But now he doesn't even talk to me 
Cause I Left 
While pargent with his son
Which I didn't even know
Man I regent ever saying goodbye
But it's just a life lesson 
I have learned from 
But all I can say is I am sorry.


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WHEN

WHEN ARE YOU GOING TO LEAVE ME?
I KNOW IT WONT BE LONG
I KNOW THAT YOU KEEPING TALKING ABOUT IT
WHEN I ASK YOU SAY IM WRONG

I LISTEN TO YOUR PHONE CALLS
TO YOUR FAMILY BACK HOME
I HEAR THE WORDS I DREAD TO HEAR
IT WONT BE LONG YOU.LL LEAVE ME 
ALL ALONE

THE LAST FEW YEARS WHEN YOU,VE COME BACK HOME 
AFTER TWO WEKS YOU LEFT ME ALONE
EACH TIME THAT YOU COME BACK 
A PIECE OF YOU IS GONE

I DONT KNOW WHAT YOU DO THERE 
AS I SET HERE WITHOUT A WORD
I KNOW THAT I GET LONESOME
AND WITHOUT YOU ALL IFEEL IS HURT
IT SEEMS THAT WHEN YOU THERE YOU NEVER GIVE ME ONE THOUGHT
AND YOU,LL DO ME BAD BECAUSE YOU CAN BECAUSE YOU.LL NEVER BE CAUGHT


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The meat

A few toys were her trade standing on the side of the passage. Bearing the daring of a beginner she had being long hours frustrated. Seaming week enough a close forties male approach. Never looking at the toys he whisper at her ear. The toys were cheap but the girl choose to have no price. The man turned to go away. But what a price is to buy if you care for the one you wanted for party.! The girl looked down at the toys in tears wiping the edge of her sharp eye.


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Once I fell for Thor

I once fell for a man with looks to kill and long hair as golden blonde 
Body as a warrior god should be with his eyes so blue as ice 
There I stood frozen into his spell 
As he held me and looked deep into my eyes 
And utterd these simple words of love I was sprung deep into him 
This god of thunder kissed my lips ever so softly 
Thought I've found my one true love only to find his true way of lies and useing my heart 
Just to crumble and crush me down to my sorrow with his enchanted hammer to crush my heart 
And all I hoped for to a million shatterd peices 
I suppose this will be as I once fell for Thor 
By Brian Otoole


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Admission

Admission

If time heals all, then when will my alarm clock ring,
If tomorrow is a new day, why do the morning birds not sing,
I want to be awoken, from this dream fueled by disaster,
The hands keep ticking, i just will them, tick faster,
My reasoning is affluent, yet it bleeds through stigmata,
If to sacrifice, is solution, then my soul freely martyr, 
My burdens weighed down, adds fuel to their meaning,
My clear image tarnished, by the scour of being,
My foundations pressed, as i confess, to all without believing,
My heart bleeds less, as i digress, to all without deceiving ,
My eyes feel weak, as i lose track, of the path i once walked,
As resistance feels futile, your mind becomes, warped,
The path becomes darker, as my demise is brought fourth,
But the path is now brighter, than at ones first thought,
If its my time, then how will i, know that i must listen,
To the bells that chime, at once as i, am freed by my admission.


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Guess This Is It

The heart was made to love
But how do you know your in love
When the one you love 
Doesn't love you
Nor want to be with you
Just only hurt you
You made me feel things 
I never have felt before
I'm confused lost and hurt
All at the same time
Not even sure 
If I really know who you are
Cause when we do go out  
It feels like you don't even wanna be with me
Then you start talking about all the partying you do and other
You Never do anything like
That with me 
We just go to parks,get ice cream, or movies
We really do not do anything fun What have's happen to us
Our relationship have changed so much 
Over the last couple of months
I guess you don't love me anymore
So I guess this is goodbye
After all we been threw.


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It Happen

Can believe it happen never thought it would
All the stuff we been through
Thought we would be together forever
But you was not there even through our loss you were nowhere to be found 
I went through it by myself
I went through depression because of our lost love and child
I am so tired of going up and down around and around
Our relationship was a full speed roller coaster
Always thought we would beat the odds 
Never thought our relationship would lead me to so much pain and tears
You left me thinking if you ever had any real feelings for me
I hope you would come back but you never did
I felt lost without you
Never thought you had it in your heart to be so cruel to us
I finally had to get it in my foolish head that you were gone forever


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Aftershock

When tears just can't stop and your heart feels like a rock, becomes impossible to unlock that's the aftershock. Words that will never be spoken because my heart has been broken, painfully stolen, mistreated left swollen two hearts that can't be because of my hearts agony. Eye's that will never meet that could of got lost in love deep, we are two souls that just can't be because of my murdered self esteem. I'm in deep sorrow these tears that I endlessly cry desperately wanting him to make me feel alive but he could cross the world through death valley's, carrying the moon passing dark shadows through fiery alley's all to prove his love and it still wouldn't be enough my heart is to corrupt and I'm all messed up. Only I can fix it I sadly dream of his assistance the man that I thought was never existing turns out he was just missing but he is to late it's like I can't stop resisting, aftershock from the pain I have taken all I can sustain.


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empty

in another empty space
i am lonely as can be,
but know one can help me,
for i am lost with in myself, 
tryin to find in an empty space,
that i can not get ouy of,
there is still no way out.......


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You said no

When I got down on one knee
And gave you my ring 
I meant forever 
 Now all I got 
Is my ring 
And a broken heart
Because you said No
I loved you
I thought you was the one
But come to find out your the one who 
Was going to hurt me
You made my heart hurt when you say those words
Take them back cause you know you don't mean them
I never thought this day would come
Where you would say No.


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GAZING IN THE EYES OF MY SIRE

Not so long before he died
When he decided to have me
I saw a solemn promise
When he opened his eyes

His eyes were small but became wide
Whenever he looked at me
With an eye of loving care which now miss
And for it now I apprise

He wiped my tears when I cried
And chased the hunger out of me
He made sure I had all my peace
Through his bright eyes I could analyze

Not so long before he applied 
All his plans for me
Before his dreams and life could kiss
When the wind blew him to the skies

Now he's gone leaving promises out they dried
More he had for me
But none I have
And it still pokes in my heart like a wire
When I remember the precious eyes of my sire

I was his pride 
And he was mine too
I hardly saw his promises
When his eyes were closed
Unfortunately none were held in my hands

I try to cease the pain
But my tears still drop like the rain
When I remember myself gazing in his eyes
The eyes of my sire. 


Walani Ndhlovu


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say goodbye

I lay in my bedroom asking why?
Then I relize it not me its the cold hearted guy!
I'm sick and tired of hearing all his lies,
Now I've decided its time to say goodbye!

Ive been hurt many times through the years,
I no longer show emotion,
Because I've ran out of tears.
I'm so tired of you bringin me down,
Makin me walk around with a frown,
I'ts time to erase you from my memory,
and no longer be in misery.

So much wasted time, 
And you aint even worth a dime!
Never understood you,
and why you act the way you do!

You broke my heart,
Then tore me apart,
Dont ever again try to speak to me,
Just do me a favor and let me be!!

 


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CHILD ABUSE(not about me)

my mother screams and shouts,
while i hide under my bed
she comes in my room and finds me, 
and angrily beats me in the head.
she says im always bad
and i never do my chores
and she says when im dead shell be glad
cause she wont have to worry about me anymore
i see the anger in her eyes
as she beats me, and tells me she wished i would die
when i think about all these bad memories
it only makes me cry
im always scared to talk to her
cause i know i will get hurt
but, i wasnt sure how...stab, hit, or burnt?
but, thankfully my teachers care,
and turned my mother in
so now my new life can begin.
sometimes i think my mother cared,
but then i wake up and realize that the love was never there.
now im all grown up
and i lived through it all.
but i still dont understand
why she put me through it all.


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rewind and breakout

this shy shell, must be broken. I need to be set free. What my heart desires, lies in the past. That one moment that one chance taken away by a broken shell and time that moved way too quickly. Take a step into the past change it. Speak up and let it out but it's too late my chance, just a blink in the past.


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Second Thoughts

Can't tell him how I truely feel
He will not think I am being real
It's not perfect timing for us I bet
We can't get married yet
He has my heart
But my brains wondering
I'm all he wants in life
He wants me to be his wife
We still need time to grow
Oh how I miss him so
Yes he's my first love
God sent him from up above
Life is about connecting the dots
And i know he completes my puzzle
Him and I met for a reason
During that holiday season
Six long years ago
Feels like eternity though
Maybe I should just let this breakup be
Oh how badly he wants to grow old with me
Six years we been together
I thought it would last forever
He holds a special place in my heart
Is arguing enough to keep us apart
What do I do
Stay away or make the call
Oh how I made the fall
I fell in love with a guy
Is it time to say goodbye
The decision I make is key
It will change my eternity
Keep my distance
Or hold onto him tight
When will I see the light 
Is he Mr. Right?
I can write about him and I all day
Oh how my days have been gray
Why is life so tough
Is our relationship that rough
No one understands us
They just see all the fuss
I know he is the one for me
The only man I want to see
He makes me feel just right
When I sleep next to him at night
I think about him all day long
And when he use to sing me a song
Three weeks is just too long
Was this breakup over due
Or is it just for a few
Days weeks months years
It brings me so many tears
I have this sadness in my heart
How long will we be apart
Will we speak tomorrow
Or will my day be filled with sorrow
I'll just have to wait and see
What God has in store for me


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You Can't Be Like This

I know you're still doing dope
Just by the way you mope
You went to get clean
You got really mean
I've talked to Rick
And now you make me sick
You lied
I cried
You assume i can't tell
I feel like you're trying to put me under your spell
I'm done pretending
It's time to come clean


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Fear is how he made you

You hold your side 
Because if you don't you know you will just fall apart 
Honesty, does nothing. Might as well lied 
You breathe deep to fill the empty space 
A place where hope should be 
But there's not a single trace 
You run to the space in your mind 
That's meant purely to hide 
You will never have a home 
Words just to make you cry 
The cold can't touch you 
Because the fear has already consumed you 
Fear you thought you could hide 
The pain you thought the world was bind too 
The hardest thing to know 
Is that your suffering is shown 
That those around you see you dying 
They reach out there arms 
But your not trying to get help 
You can do it alone
What's one more punch 
What's one more burse  
Or one more tear 
It makes you stronger 
Your just standing to close for it to be clear 
Enough is enough and you can't go one more day 
With a family of broken trust 
But your legs won't work and you clasp 
There's no more fight in you
There's nothing left to do 
You cry out to the heavens 
Screaming your sorry for everything you did 
And everything you didn't mean to do 
You know it's not your fault 
But it doesn't matter, His wrath is unwavering 
He didn't do it so it must be you. 
He tells you when the world blows up, it was simple to kill you 
Fear is something you learned at a young age 
Something that's stronger then love and stronger then rage 
Fear of losing everything he let you have 
You can wish and you can pray 
But one simply fact still remains 
He own you every day until breath leaves your body 
For fear and pain 
Is all that's left 
Because that's all he made


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Crying like a River

From your eyes came down 
like a river as flood down
to the bottom to hit 
the ground

You can be crying 
like being mad, anger
sadden and pain either
from injury to heart broken

You can't even describe
to able to crying for good
reasons to do that

Crying like a River
that God's palm will 
take care away 
from tearing eyes

To able to make 
you feel much better
from healing wounds

God want to make sure
there is no more crying river
anymore


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why cnt you say ur proud of me

i give up on trying to please you 
i do whatevr you tell me to do
all i want is for you to say is 4 words 
ill never be good enuff 2 you 
i try my hardest to please you and all i want is you to tell me 4 words 
i guess im not good enuff for you 
dad all i want is for you to say your proud of me  is that to much to ask
you tell your girlfriends daughter that your roud of her for her girl scouts 
but my whole 17 years of liveing you have never told me your proud of me
i do all i can to please you i try to be the best daughter i can be but i guess ill never be good enuff for you 
ALL I WANT IS FOR YOU TO SAY YOUR PROUD OF ME!!!


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I Thought You Changed But You Only Lied

When I let you back in my life and in my heart
I thought you change
When you say I love you again 
I thought you ment it
But when I see differnt and your face posted on other ads
What am I susposse to think
No I ant Jealous or Protective
Just don't wanna be lead on
And be left with a other heart ache from
you just do not get or understand
I sit here re open...


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06 Generation X

Another year upon us
raw and longing
Swallow the feeling
and nonsense they're feeding
Corruption of souls
out of control
Missing in action
disasters are maximum
Defenses, expenses
apparent regreting
Incisive decisions
still failing their missions
Brainwashed from the womb
lead astray through bitter days
Broken wing in fields a blaze
programed to the pain
Follow the leader
that bleeds you dry
Follow the leader
that helps you die
Never ending
mothers cry
Same old story
diffrent times.


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Time Bomb

They think they understand,
they think they know the pain.
They try to guilt me into
doing what they say.

I am not scared to leave,
I am scared to stay.
The pain in my chest,
will never go away.

I am alone
in this cold, dark world.
No one to live for-
no one to die with.

My life is a time-bomb,
I am destined to explode.
The clock’s ticking on,
I have nothing to live for.


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What If Then

What if you were here,
Then I'd feel no fear
What if we were one,
Then we'd never be done
What if we weren't apart,
Then you'd still have my heart
What if we never met,
Then I'd not be looking yet

What if you had not lied,
Then our love would not have died,
What if you stayed true,
Then we might have said I do
What if you weren't fake,
Then my love you couldn't forsake
What if you were reaL,
Then your love I'd always feel


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Memories

Deleted the memories of what we had
I am not going to lie i had a blast
but now its time to end this at last 
forget about everything put it behind us leave it in our past
where did the time go? It sure went fast
Im sorry about everything it all even left me with a gasp.
Deleting the memories of what we had...
                                                                
                                                            By: Raymond T Padilla


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Nows the Time

Im sick of life, Im sick of pain, Im sick of strife, gotta do it again. Im not sure how I've gone on this long, But I am makin the best of what I got. Things in life sure as hell ain't easy, It's so hard, it ain't that cheap, though I want it to be, but a sweet little breeze. The toughest times are when you're in a bined, Nowhere to go but you're tryin to hide. I'll stick it out the best that I can, and here I thought YOU were the man who wears the pants. I cant take your petty games because you do it again and again. Though Im strong on the outside, sometimes I just, want to breakdown and cry. But I dont cuz of one little fact, at this point in time, there's only one way for me to act. Not as a child now here's a jolt, 'Tis the time to be an Adult! Better hurry or you'll have no wife, cuz she waited so long she finally died.


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Dear soul

My dear soul.
Your whimper is so human 
You are so close to me 
that I can't see you. 
I can only feel you when 
you ask for air to breathe.

Copyright Constantinos Grigoriadis © All rights reserved


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mom

the things i do 
the things i think 
i just wish you could come home
i miss you so much 
i wish you were here 
why did this happen to you 
mom i just wish you could come home 
i hope you wont die 
i just want to go back in time and be a little girl again to just be in your arms again 
MOM i miss you 
i hope one day you will be home again 
but that wont happen
i 


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Some call this Life

Don't search for apples anymore.
The apple tree has died.
It gave all the apples that it had.
Now it is nothing more than a piece of wood.
Nobody has interest for an apple tree without apples.
Nobody gives it some water to survive.
Not even the dry mother earth.
Nobody.
This is the fate for every apple tree that has nothing to give.
This is the fate of everything alive being on the earth.
This is the law of nature.
Some call this life.

Copyright Constantinos Grigoriadis © All rights reserved


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This Is It

Our relationship is like a 
Rollar coster 
We are up
Next thing you know 
We are right back down
We don't make love anymore
All we ever do is fight
I just wish things would go back the way like they was before
When we first met
Things where great then
But now thier not 
What have happen to us 
We both changed so much
I guess it's best for us 
To split and go our own way
I will miss you 
But this is  what best for the both of us
Cause it's not healthy 
For either one of us 
To fight like this
GoodBye.


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Don't forget me

Tonight I sit here staring at pictures of my kids
Wishing how I could redo the past where 
I would have my kids back in my arms again
I remember when my oldest daughter was standing at the door screaming mommy 
Please don't leave me here 
All I could do was cry
My two youngest ones was a little to young to understand
Ever night I go to bed its like a re enactment
I'm doing everything to get you three home
But all my dad can do is brag on how good you got it 
Where your at with your foster mom
Well when he talks about it makes me feel like crap
I was a good mommy
All miss you three so much 
Never Forget Mommy Loves you


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The pain you caused me

As I lay here bed
listening to rain 
hitting window 
All I can think about
Is the pain
you've left me holding 
you say wanted us to be together forever
was that lie 
when you kiss my lips 
you say it was kissing a piece heaven 
was that a lie as well
when we made love for the first time 
you cried 
I held you to make all you tears go away
but now as I lay here in bed
with tears flowing from my eyes
that you caused 
can you make them go away
because right now
I feel like the pieces of my broken heart
can never be together again
because of the pain 
you caused me ...


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you played me

You say you love me 
But then again 
you hurt me
How can I trust you 
when you act this way
I gave you my all
You gave me nothing
But pain
Heartache 
And my emotions played with
it's like some sick twisted game you like to play


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Knife and Lust

Walking these streets of manhattan so aimlessly 
All alone in the dark only lights by the city shops 
I'm scared alone feeling out of love now lost the knife was rough 
You stabbed me in the back all I can do is Cry on my knees veins hot as fire 
With mixed emotions running through 
It's Like this dagger killing me more inside all this love and all this hate burns me away 
Deep inside passion urning for another lusting after another 
As if I were a lion in a jungle taking that prey and burning up with tense desire 
It's like a knife with loves wounds after the lust 
This is very hard for me in a world you left me bleeding alone 
Never picked me up left my heart to die out 
With my tears hitting the city pavement times like this just burns me away 
Love can go off like a loaded gun a love  vanishes just like a knife with lust 
-- by Brian OToole jr. 
Share!



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SCRAMBLED HEARTS 2

WHAT WILL I SAY?
THAT WOULD BE HEARD.....
WHY DO THEY THINK I LIED?
WHEN MY HEART HURTS
ALL YET IN SCRAMBLED NATURE
I BUT STILL SPEAK
OH TEARS ALARMING FILL MY EYES
MY WHOLE BODY BRUISED WITH FEARS!
OF CEASELESS BITES AHEAD
OH HAVE MERCY
ON MY FAST BEATING HEART
PANTING FROM THNE FRIGHTS
THAT INFLICTED ON IT
ALL LAID TO REST IN PIECES
MY LONELY AND SCRAMBLED HEART.


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alone i stand

Left behind and torn within
tears of pain
and alone at the end
without my family or a friend
Now I have to start all over again
      Each day is a struggle to go on
and no matter what I always have to be strong
       I dont think life is fare
but thats how it is when they dont care
       I gotta do everything I can 
because noone offers me a helping hand
but on my own I have to stand


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Fire

A fire in my heart
Blazes brightly- for the entire world to see
Caressing the wind
Dancing on the wood
Effortlessly glowing
Feverishly hot


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Lost

In a dark place I seem to be, with little light, dim, I can barely see the footsteps I should take before me
In the middle of the ocean paddle free, drowning, gasping for air, feverishly searching for land, with no one's hand there to reach for me


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A lonely dream

Once upon a time there was a dream
And the dream found a lonely man
And the man started to dream
And he was happy
But the dream was too big to fit into man's life.

Once upon a time there was a dream that never finished.

Once upon a time there was a lonely dream
Without a dreamer.

Copyright Constantinos Grigoriadis © All rights reserved


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People

Some people will never learn,
Those who dont, cause concern.
They act like kids and it's all a game,
This is reality, Not something to play.
They dont care to see how it effects others,
Sex, drugs, and parties is all it is,
and all we can think is "Oh Brother!"
I dont understand how stupid people can be,
Just when you think it couldn't get any worse, There they go, Never cease to amaze me.
Because of this I may lose the one person I would hate to lose, Try again Please,
Even though we're only friends, I want to be selfish,
But even more, I want you to be happy.
I'm anti-social from time to time,
Time to think about the good things in life.
I hope that you could please remind me,
What is this piece of sh!t world coming to be?
I'm afraid if he goes, we'll lose touch,
and maybe the fact... I'll miss him too much.
Some people will never learn,
Those who dont, cause concern.
They act like kids and it's all a game,
This is reality, Not something to play.


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throw me in the dark blue sea

loving with my heart only to be told i am not the one
loving with my soul 
loving with my all

why even love at all
seeing you do not love me 
the good times you remember no more
thrown away into the dark blue sea

the times we shared and you said you treasured
through thick and thin and bad weather 
we weathered the storm together

now it is as you do not know me
also throw me into the dark blue sea


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DEFENDING SOLDIERS OF THE TENDEREST AGE

Throughout the world's history,
we read compelling stories
of the defending soldiers of the tenderest age;
and we can be moved to tears
by the purity of their courage:
they died on the battlefield,
never breaking their promise
or fall short of integrity... 


Defending soldiers of the tenderest age as handsome
as the daffodils of the undulating fields,
nothing scares you when it comes
to protecting your motherland with that freedom: 
as intrepid as the eagles in the open skies...
Defending soldiers as true as warriors,
you push forward with the victorious thought
of becoming nothing more 
than the boldest soldiers:
seeing the smokey sky blast;
rescuing the wounded and closing the eyes
of the fallen ones bleeding on the burned grass...


If I were younger, and I had the same resistance,
I would fight with the indomitable spirit you own;
but my contribution is merely sympathetic words on paper,
which one of you will read on your return
to the homeland when all wait on you united in fond prayer:
with ribbons on trees and flags in their hands....   


Defending soldiers of the tenderest age,
all past heroes had one special trait:
the persistance and will to prevail,
and the final victory on their breath;
when everything else seemed to fail,
an indisputable faith prevented another threat...


Copyright 2008 by Andrew Crisci


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Surely

Surely!







I felt like exploding. 
The back of my eyes were burning.

What had happened here? 
There must have been times when I felt more than this. 
There had to be. 
Surely.

It was Tuesday afternoon, around 12.20pm, that I realised what had to be done. 
Someone had to pay!

I have lived, up until now, a privileged life. 
One really of no hard labour, unlike many of those around me. 
I suppose I felt superior to some people in many ways. 
Should I have thoughts like this as a member of the human race? 
There you go you see, human race, race, the word that we have put into who we are, its a race, we are racing, racing each other. 

Where will it be the race, who is in the, race, yes indeed!
Mumblings of a mad man corrode the in workings to such a degree that there seems no way out!
Surely we had felt more than this?

Surely!   




Scott. T . Williams.


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Prince Obi Wan

Prince Obi Wan is not a morning dog, you see —
He grumbles and he fusses, when awakened,
Just like me!

Wherever I am, You will find him there,
He is my flame through time,
That shall never fail,
With him, I have not one fear,

He howls his complaints,
When things do not quite go his way –
Yet even still, he is the best part,
Of any given day!

He sings with heart, for all to hear,
He gives each song, all he has,
That is –
My Prince Obi Wan, my little fur-man,
Now his body has gone,
Yet even still, his spirit remains,
I feel him each place I go,
He will always be with me,
This I absolutely know.


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Could it be a Endless memory?

Could it be a Endless memory?

I miss your smile that use to cover my heart with love,
And the morning kisses that blow my mind away,
And the endless dreams that could never be
That’s why I still love you,
Memory of the Past

The waves are still white
The skies are still blue
The flowers are still blooming
That’s why I still love you
Memory of the Past


We use to run the fearless joy of love
And the embracement of our youth
The lingering for excitement
That’s why I still love you
Memory of the Past

And if our path may cross again
Like 2 ships in the opposite directions
Please accept my short coming in live
That is why I still love you
Memory of the Past

The days are still endless
My mind is slipping away
Your face had faded,
But why do I still feel the longing of a memory
That is still carving in my mind so vividly?


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Love me for me

Love me for me
Please do not judge me for the way I look
Don't judge me when I get sraced
Don't judge me when I make mistakes
Maybe if I was thinner he would have stayed
Maybe if I was prettyer he would have stayed
but instead  you rip out my heart
leaving it all out and exposd 
how could
I could never forgive.


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Who am I

  
I look at my friends,
they look,
Away.

I talk to my friends,
they turn,
Away.

I walk up to my friends,
they take a step,
Away.

This is all because of me...

Because I do exactly the same...



To myself

I look at myself,
I look...
Away.

I talk to myself,
I turn...
Away.

I take a walk,
A step...
Away,

From life.

You get treated the way you treat yourself


 


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Stop Being So Mean

When we have kids
We are ment to show them love and care 
Not to sit here and beat them
Kids never asked to be born
It's our faults that they are
Cause we ant carefully
Kids are gods little angels
We are ment to take care of them
And make sure they don't get hurt
Not for us to hurt them
What have this world come to that peolpe 
Go out here 
Kill abuse and do Abortion to kids
It ant right
Help stop 
This crazyness
Kids do not dersvsre this
They Never did ask for it
All they ever wanted was to be loved
Why is that to hard so hard for us to do that.


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Love You Daddy

Daddy you are my Hero
You always show me right from wrong
You show me that you can never judge a book by it's cover
I know I grown into a woman
But I will always be your little girl
Who  will always need her daddy
But right now 
You can let go
 I believe I am ready
I know you will always be a phone call away 
I love you daddy 
But your little girls is ready to do this on her own
Don't worry I be okay
I never will forget you
You taught me everything I need to know 
And I know we maybe in different states
But I am only a phone call away 
I Love You Daddy.


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amends

Salty tears and razor blades
 The pain drips slowly from my skin
 Physical pain sets in, emotional pain subsides
 Then begins again
 When the pain builds inside 
I want to escape 
I want to run
 I want to hide
 I can’t hide from myself 
I do this to cope
 When I’m down low laying broken on the floor
 Left with no hope
 In the moment I want to fade the hurt
 I slash my pride 
Demean my worth
 See myself through your eyes
 It’s your distorted perception of me
 False esteem, iniquitous lies
 It’s not easy living in an unhealthy mind
 Wrapped in a warped sick self 
I start to unwind
 A bawled up knot 
Frayed at the ends
 Then I realize when I hurt my self
 Its to my loved ones I must make amends


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The Night and Her Ways/Lost Under The Sun

there is a moon,
shining all alone
under all seas looming side to cloud
fall in our night and wait for the one who makes
slip in the prowl
the beasts hold night at growl
howling their sorrows
move midnight forever is tomorrow
come to our dark we run deep in the dusk
trust your lost soul while wait here for the sun

trust your yearning haven safely break
grey sky a-standing
standing far astray

lost under the sun
lost under the sun
lost under the sun 
lost under the sun

there is a place
marble floor and blue
there is a space 
that was meant for what was you
summer now white a different sort of lone
cold in our skin deeps
looking towards our glow

lost under the sun
lost under the sun
lost under the sun
lost under the sun


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I'm Sorry

Im sorry for lying and not telling you the truth,
Im sorry for not loving you and for not giving my heart to you,
Im sorry for crying in the middle of the night and for letting my tears effect you.

Im sorry for not being your dream girl and for not being as perfect as you 
imagined me to be and this is why I say;

Im sorry for being me 


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damn to your name

l drew a rose in my
heart with bloody
wet
you burnt me,l
became ashes,became
smoke
how l can do,where
can l go with this
painful mind?
l couldnt know,i
became violin whose
broken wire

you got my heart,you
shooted my own heart
l am offended
you,there is no
capable even if you
came back
you are
unfaithful,too,you
are useless,too
you are
unfaithful,damn to
your name!

when the time turned
back,you will suffer
l hope you lost your
hope and be waste
l hope you felt in
love,got bored from
love
l hope you didnt
smile all of your
life

you disgraced me to
all over the world
l had been
lie,pillage because
of you
you are
unfaithful,too,you
are useless,too
you are
unfaithful,damn to
your name!

when you missed
me,yoi will find
your river
ember will fall upon
your heart,your
antelopes came to my
river
you dont think that
l am crying to
deceived my voice
when l missed you,it
is like this alittle

let leaf seperate
from branch
let person seperate
from his darling
from my blood
vessel,from life
bazaar
let man seperate
from his spring

there is non-melting
snow in mountains
my absence wont melt
like this
you are
unfaithful,too,you
are useless,too
you are
unfaithful,damn to
your name!


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It's to Late

I know 
We only spent an hour together
And then go days or weeks
Without seeing one other
But when I did get to see you
I was like a little school girl
When we went to the park for walks and Ice cream
That meant a lot to me
Even though I might have not showed it
Look at us now
We said all those hate full things 
When they was never meant to be said
When I asked you to marry me
I really wanted you too
But now I sit here with regret
Listen to sad songs
That made me think of you
And I just wanna cry more 
I feel so shame of what I said
Now all I got is pictures of you
I was such a dang fool
When I Said it would never work 
Cause that wasn't true
All I wanna do now is take it back
But now it's to late....


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Sex And Lies

 A Broken Kiss
Leave To Only Deep Lies
He Spread My legs L(Legs) O(Open) V(Very) E(Easy)
 
As I Lay In The Bed
He Stole My Passion
My Love My Insanity 
Deep Thoughts To The Humanity
Tears Cross My Face
Of Humiliation, Embarrassing
Killing My Feelings
Which Feels Unreal
Thinking He Love Me,
He Cherish Me
Not REALLY Knowing It
Was Only Sex And Lies
 
What he Said To Me I Thought It Was The Truth, Not Knowing It Was Hidden Lies For My Legs To Get Open.. 
 
But My Feelings
Got Into You
You Dang Sex A File..!!!!


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I miss you daddy

Daddy left over sea
I haven't seen him in long time
I wonder If he ever going to make it back.
I miss his laughs 
I miss his bad jokes
I miss his bed time story's
Please lord bring daddy back home.
Mommy tells me your better where you are now
I hide my tears from mommy 
I try to be strong for you daddy
But it's so hard 
Because I miss you daddy 
Daddy where you are
Can you see me 
Can you hear me 
As I grow older I look like you more each day.
School is hard daddy 
But I try my best
I have tired so much not to be sad daddy but it's hard because it hurts so much
You are my hero daddy
I miss you daddy 
I can't wait until the day I can be with you daddy.


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Someone behind the door

There is someone that knocks on my door every night,
when the darkness and the cold freeze my soul.
He does not say anything, just gives me his hug.
I try to see into his eyes but the weariness closes my eyes and my dreams 
chase him away. 

I will try many years to make him friend,
but he is my greatest Fear...


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I didn't want to see you cry

I know I promise 
To never hurt you
But tonight I did
I never wanted to see you cry
I am shame of myself
For making you cry 
I such a butt
I know I made your heart hurt
But I never meant to say those words
I was just angry 
Cause we never get time for us
The words I  said was out of angry and hurt
Baby I am sorry for making your heart 
And for saying those words
When I said forever I really did mean it
I will do anything to have you back
I am so sorry
I'm so a shame of myself
Now you sit there with a broken Heart 
And it's all my fault 
Baby I am sorry
Could you find a spot in your broken heart
To forgive me


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Bruises

As I look in his eyes I see the anger building up. When I see him angry I know to 
stay clear of him or I will end up hurt. He beats me when he is angry. I cry and cry, 
for I can't stop thinking of what will happen next. I'm too scared to leave him for he 
may find me again. Several times he has told me to get out and every time I try, 
he attacks me. I don't understand what I am doing wrong. Leaving bruises upon 
my body, expecting me to figure out how to hide them from his family. Scars, from 
him cover my arms. Sometimes I wonder if he even cares that I am pregnant with 
his child. The way he treats me as if I am nothing and then other times he wants 
to know my every move. Controlling what I wear, say, eat, and do as if I am a dog. 
I pray that I can find a way out. Thankfully that prayer has been answered.


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alone

 feel like I wanna die 
I hurt so bad inside I cannot cry
       Therefor I'll never be okay
because this pain I feel will never go away
           I've cried so much I can't nomore
I'm now forever broken and my heart is always sore
           I wish so hard this would of never happened to me
Now it's so hecktick in the future I don't know where I will be
          I can't live on my own
Peoplw are always around me but yet I feel all alone


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MY DAYS

My days are numbered
and every thing i do
announce my death.

The hens and the ducks
barks like dogs
to announce my death
my days are numbered.

I look at the sky
i see only moon,
the sun and the stars
announce my death
my days are numbered.

I  hated every thing
even my wife
i hated her a lot
my days are numbered.

My days are numbered
i can't eat food
my days are numbered
i  regret  for  what i did
my days are numbered
I don't know what to do.


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When the world falls apart

Where do you turn 
When the world has fallen apart 
When you are so lost 
You don't believe your worth being found 
The thought of God makes your heart pound 
And you begin to run 
Run back to the comfortable place
Where each day you wake up with another face 
Hating your life and this place
But when the light comes to close 
You run... Just to watch your world fall apart 
Something you have always known 
When the pieces are broken 
They can be easily handled 
Like a night with only a candle
Never being able to see the demons
That surround you
When the pieces slowly come together 
You realize what your past made me sether 
How much this world has taken 
And the decisions you never should have maken 
So when my world falls apart 
And I am alone 
I remember this is all I've ever known 
This time the light came too close 
I swore I wouldn't run 
 But A few steps back came all too naturally 
And as the darkness comforted me 
The light burnt my soul branding me with the memories of peace
Reminding me life doesn't need to be shattered to be fixed 
And improvement is the hardest risk 
Like waking up from an endless dream 
My eyes snap open.
And I begin to walk over shatter glass
From broken memories of the past
As the pieces dig into my skin and blood begins to flow
I realize the past is only skin deep and its time to let it go 
For shattered pieces of a broken life
Will eventually pass as I walk closer to the light 
And the pain of yesterday 
Will be remember as if it was someone else's life 
For once I know I was always strong enough to win this fight 
And the past was hard only because I had no future 
So when the world falls apart look ahead
Because the light will come again
And remember the darkness not as you see
With the candle of the demons and forgotten memories
But as it truly is... A place of eternal darkness 
Where no one can go and no one ever wants to be


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Sometimes I Wonder

Sometimes I Wonder
Poem By: Sherman Badgett
Sometimes I wonder if I was dead would I be burnt to ashes or would I be buried with the possibility of having a tone stone
Sometimes I wonder will I go to hell because of my many sins or will it be heaven because God forgives
I wonder who would visit my grave site and how often would they visit
Would I be left alone on my birthday and the day I past away
If not ,who would stay with me for seconds minutes, hours or even days, how long?
Would you leave me flower on the green grass so other visitors would realize I was just shown some love by the fresh flowers left to rot
When you stare at my pictures would your eyes become Niagara Falls or would you reminisce about the past and just laugh it off
It’s hard to show tears when the person is meaningless
Knowing I’m gone y’all probably be in pain, pain causes stress, stress led to sleep or even sudden death
I wonder how someone could neglect someone they truly love
Why cant women stay close to there man during hard times
If I’m forgotten does that mean I’m meaningless
A lot of people hate when they don’t know something
So what’s the point of living if death is secretive?

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Bitter Sweet

You never even saw him
as you lay soaking up the sun
tiptoeing with that bucket.
Six years old and out for fun.

The look of shock in your eyes
as the water broke your sleep
I laughed so much; sides ached
as from my eyes tears did weep.

You chased him round the garden
mock anger in your strides.
Always allowing him to escape,
giving him time to hide,

or at his birthday party
you dressed up like a clown.
All the other kids declared
"You're the bestest in the town"

Fake foam custard pies,
you faced them all the day,
never once did you cry "no more!"
"Bring it on", is all you'd say.

Rewinding all those memories
a playback to yesterdays
I live the future in the past
My present in disarray.

I remember it was a Winters day,
the snow had come early this year.
You had promised to go sledging,
our sons eyes shone with such revere.

I felt a little anxious
protectiveness, a lump in my throat
you held my hand with confidence,
your voice held that inspiring note.

"His time has come to learn to fly,
to take on the world outside.
You have taught him just and well,
now his instincts must be his guide."

I watched you both disappear,
into the white blanket, feathering down,
A nervous smile painted my lips
trying to wipe away this worried frown.

All day I kept myself busy
watching the time; so slow.
As night approached with shadows
I paced the floor, to and fro.

The knock came from nowhere,
startling my captured thoughts.
My mind racing, fractured ideas,
calm, hysteria, battled and fought.

two uniforms greeted my open door
eyes looking everywhere but at me
they had bad news. Two people had died.
The car left the road, wrapped round a tree.

My husband, my son, taken away
leaving me alone in my grief.
The spectre of death had paid us a call
stolen my family, a heartless thief.

Videotape memories don't replace whats real.
The tears, the laughter, all gone.
This house, no longer a welcome home.
My continuing life somehow just wrong.

As I slip into sleeping pill death
I hope the stories are true
that as I reach the doorway to heaven
there waiting will be my son and you.


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The Real Me

They look at me 
And see the girl
Who lives inside
A ghetto world
But don't believe
That's all there is in me
You'll never know the real me....
I'm sad among a thousand words
And frowns along a thousand smiles
I'm incomplete
Words just cannot explain
They'll never know the real me..
They'll never know the real KhaiB.


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Do you know my abc's?

And it was there. Looking me in the eye, “I shall born you.” I was overcome with 
sadness.

Before I was born I died. I was one with everything. I was more alive then, then I 
am now.

Children seem so simple. Children seem so free. Why is life so hard. Maybe the 
simple one is me.

Deep cuts in my heart. A boy that I love with all of me. I might’ve been invisible 
because he always walked by.

Enough of this! I hate it all. I gathered myself and left my heart behind.

Falling down the tubes. Drifting though life. No friends, no family. I. Can’t. Breath.

Gaining momentum. Losing myself.

Hot under my skin. It’s getting tighter. Wanting to rip through it.

I, am, not, real.

Just between us. Just between us two. I used to be everything.

Killing gives life. I want to give my life to you.

Love exists only as water. My heart is dry.

Maybe I’m your dream. Maybe you are mine. Maybe neither of us carry weight. 
Maybe both of us have died.

No, you never gave me a drop.

O I cry. I cry for you. I cry I cry I cry I cry for you.

Plenty of times I wonder how long my sentence is.

Quiere un vaso de dulce sangre. Dibuja un corazon dentro de mi cuerpo. Con 
esto corazon agujero, bebe mi vida. 

Run away from what you’ve heard. Leave and write your own truths. They say He. 
He does not exist. It tells me so.

Say what’s on my mind? Ultimate indulgences; eating meat and having sex. A 
man is meat. Chocolate is sex. A Chocolate man is the only heaven that will ever 
exist. Next to Him.

Telling you about my life is wasting the time I have to live it. If you’re meant for me 
you’ll just know.

Un knowledged people need to stop giving the gift of life and start giving the gift 
of life.

Very little patience do I have for those with no words. I’ll look for the person who 
stole them from you.

Will you be the one that I can hold  for now? Do you have a sweet heart, do you 
have soft soul?. Will you be the the love  that my ego drinks?

Xoxo hugs and kisses. Hugs and kisses. Let me touch your skin, help me miss 
your soul.

You’re looking inside me. Like it used to.

Zero words writing in my head. Where do my thoughts go? They go on this page. 
This page of my life.


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My Village

All the beauty of the village of mine, 
Now it has been destroyed. 

This when I came to know, 
I was sad to know. 

People became rich I find, 
They have been migrated to town. 

This when I came to know, 
I was sad to know. 

I heard no cry of a child, 
Over the whole streets of village of mine 

This when I came to know, 
I was sad to know. 

I found that green fields destroy now, 
Where spring was passed with great charm. 

This when I came to know, 
I was sad to know. 

I always weep in my sleep, 
whenever I see your beauty in my dream. 

This when I came to know, 
I was sad to know 


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Pain

My love for him is true, and yet he treats me cruel. 
I’ve cried too many tears, I’ve worried for many years. 
He said he really cared; my hopes and dreams I shared. 
My heart now did he crush, his heart I never touched. 


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Ashanthi

dearest Ashanthi
the one put me in misery...
for the love that i gave so dearly...
my heart broke into Pisces..
when i was taken to prison...
was my love mistaken..
you used me..
it was always given but not taken..
you are a receiver but not a giver...
the pictures of our lovely  past...
runs trough my head so often...
its so heard for me..
to hate you even today...
i am trying to gather 
all your bad reasons...
to hate you all over again...
but there is something within me...
i wish i can start loving you all over again...
i wish i can kiss you so tenderly once again...
i know you will not see me.. you will not come near me..
yet dearest Ashanthi..
with all your bad reasons...
of ruing my life to send me to prison...
i forgive you for all your stupid mistakes... and just want to say...
i love you always!!


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Tears of Blood

Thine soul is blind
Thee heart is empty
I imagine through intervals 
Your attraction would seek me

Waves of emotion 
Often not of insert
You could never imagine
Aches that swim beneath hurt

The graced heart has left 
A solid pool of subtance near
Red in shine, dark in colour
Codes of trickled fear 

I suspend outward
As the hurt tears at my soul
Ripping out the discoveries of life
Unearthing as a mole

The darkness has begun to consume
The burnt Ripples within my heart
Creeping ever fast, ever nearer
To the core, to unstart.

My life-giving form stutters
As i trip over your essence
Forgive me and forget me
Kill the reminessence

The pain, the strike, the blow
Hard to cringe for air
Bled myself to sleep
Into the devils lair

The angels calls me name, me love
Yet i try so hard to reach
The wet sand on common grounds
My hearts a silent speech

You have caused my lips silent
Cause I'm left short of breath
Love choices to mistake me
Tears of Blood or Sudden Death


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filing for divorce

Agony, bitter contempt.
Destruction, eternally forgotten. 
Gasping, hindered instincts.
Just killing lilies. 
Metallic needles overture perfected. 
Quiet raindrops splash underneath. 
Vulnerable wasteland. 
X-chromosome, Y-chromosome, zero-defect!


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Loneliness

There are times I feel alone,
Like drifting in space with out a home.
The light of others shines so bright,
I can not reach them try as I might.
I've drifted for so many years,
And have shed so many tears,
The loneliness is tearing me apart,
I feel it deep within my heart.
So much pain you see,
It causes me much misery.
All I want is some one to hold,
And help me feel not so cold.
To mend my heart from all these feelings,
And make it stop all its wreathing.
To make things all be right,
I hope one day with all my might.


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Escape

Drifting away to the greatest place 
The devotions I fear will no longer be faced, 
Could sad ever see the side of free 
And happy see the side that sad sees, 
Things in life are meant some ways 
And if they happen that way some things will never change, 
Are words possible to bring sensation 
Are the dreams you behold worth chasing, 
Reality is a must while cravings are imagined 
You said it would never, but still happened, 
Have you ever made the biggest mistake and couldn't get away 
You caught up with faith and there is no such thing as, Escape.  



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Go

I'm here,
I've been here,
I've been breathing the local air,
I'm here not by will,
but for the best they say,
I'm in no where,
not near to where I came from,
The sun is bright,
The site is clear,
But this is far away from the familiar,
The walls that contains me,
Has it's curse in drowning me,
in the ocean of sympathy,
I drag myself with the power left,
Out of the ocean,
Out of sympathy,
I cry at night to breathe,
I cry of forgiveness,
hoping this broken heart,
would reset,
would go back in pieces,
But even that,
I'm not so sure about,
I'm still wandering,
Who got it broken in the first place,
Maybe I gave it away too easy,
But All I needed back,
was some love,
the one you got me for,
the one that keeps you breathing,
Now, I'm still here,
Closing and opening My eye lids,
hoping for a different day,
for a different scene,
I'm still hung over on the past,
The past is still hurting me,
Making me question,
The love I have for myself,
If I did love myself,
Why did I got into all of this,
Why did I brought myself to pain,
I'm here,
I will be breathing,
I will be okay.


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Endless Chase

After crashing through the boundaries, new limitations appear.
My thirst for compassion, is quenched with my tears.
This is an endless chase.
I skin the snake, only to swallow its venom.
I kill the murderer, only to become his victom.
This is an endless chase.
After expressing my love, I find she fears the bond.
Shes blaming me, when everyone knows she's in the wrong.
This is an endless chase.
Im at the finish line, but lonliness see's no end.
I dont have a life, but im being forced to live.
God...what a endless chase.


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Hurt

A melancholy melody plays in my head,
And my heart’s sinking in despair,
My eyes are sad and red,
Down my face,
Trickles down a single tear.


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Why birds do not sing on this Earth

When hot and It is rain, 
Birds do not sing in vain.
This joy they never feel 
When heat walks upon hill. 
When nothing else has worsened stroke,
This rain is taken for the rock -
Birds fear this intensive sound,
It echoes back the shape of ground:
They harder fear their end 
When endless drops hit waiting land. 
Who's after spot of Paradise on earth? -
It always rains, It always hot,
And question is the same:
Why birds do not sing on this earth 
When heat turns into rain?


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Do you hear your voice

I've spoken with the
rain, it explained
it to you
It got upset with my
sadness and made me
cry
I've covered me with
sadness, wailing /
mourning a dirge
Do you hear the
sound of the rain?

The rain began to
speak, it rained
with love
Everywhere it fell,
wrote your name

I covered me with
the night and I
climbed the mountain
When I arrived on
the top, I saw your
dream
I felt I'm Mecnun
and you're Leyla*
Do you hear the
sound of the
mountains?

The mountains began
to speak and they
called you
They reached the
ground and shouted
your name

When I look at the
moon, you were there
You turned your face
and searched for me
Your wish was to see
me?
Do you hear the
sound of the moon?
 
The moon began to
speak and it started
to glow
Everywhere it went,
it carried your love

If you'd take a look
at the sun, you are
my sun
In this world
there's no other
like you
Your sudden
departure, made me
so sad
Do you hear the
sound of the sun?

The sun began to
speak,it confused
the way
The fire fan raced
with me

I turned my face to
the ground
and I see you and
your hazel eyes
I miss you so much
my love, I miss the
beauty of your face
Do you hear the
sound of the land?

Land began to speak
and it looked at my
face
This love inside me
is mourning a
turkish dirge


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scars left behind

What a tradgedy when they flew the planes into the twin towers
such thought out violence in the heart of those men
what about the wife who lost her husband that day
what about the son who lost his dad
brother sister mother all died because of hatred
that was a sad day even though i did not  know any of those people
the whole act of terrorism is evil
why take anothers life who has done you no wrong 
purposely destroying him and others lives
what right do they have 
it is totally wrong 
when i saw that my heart sunk 
i felt so sad and angry at the same time
it was so horrific 
to the ones that lost love ones my heart goes out


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Where was his helmet

Into the midnight cold he rides; 
a chance travel, on the wild side; 
this is the vision, that always repeats, 
whenever I think about that curvy Rockford Street. 
Alone he travels on his way home, 
until a mystery sends him flying into the air, 
and has him crashing into the ground far from the road. 
Where was his helmet? O’ where was his helmet? 
In pain he lays all alone, 
until two-friends rush to his aid, 
and frantically made emergency calls from his phone; 
paramedics arrive and relieve his friends, 
as his journey into the unknown slowly begins. 
Where was his helmet? O’ where was his helmet? 
Now in a hospital lying on a bed, 
with nothing but sheer pain streaking through his head, 
mom rushes into the hospital with one of her sons by her side, 
the other son was in Iraq unaware awaiting R&R and waiting on his airplane ride; 
a devastated mother and a saddened brother both watched as the youngest sighed, 
eyes watery with tears as they watched him slip into the cold night. 
Where was his helmet? O’ where was his helmet? 
I received the terrible news while I was in Ballad waiting for a good plane, 
instead I was rushed to an awful flight and my heart felt immense pain; 
I begged and I pleaded with God, 
Please O’ please let this plane crash and let everyone but me live, 
I love my youngest brother take me O’ Lord, take me instead; 
he is too young God; he hasn't truly experienced life, 
my goodness he was only twenty-eight and never had his own family, nope not even a wife; 
by the time I made it to Rockford it was too late, 
my youngest brother was forever gone as a chance travel sealed his fate; 
tears in my eyes the pain still burns deep I must admit, 
with only one question in my mind; 
Where was his helmet? O’ where was his helmet?


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who am i

How can one who lost himself find himself
Every night i have a repeating dream  of an empty field
With a sword in one hand and a mask in the other
As i raise the mask to wear the field is no longer empty
Hundreds stand front of me with same two item a sword and a mask
As i pan the area one thing is different the mask 
With the sword in my other hand i clutch it and raised it as did they
With no nonresistant i  charge towards the mass as they did to me 
I slash, stab, slain, and killed all them
Not once did I wonder who they were as i resume killing
Until one remain the field but  this was different the clothes and mask were red
As i lunge into an endless bout  i grew more exhausted and tired
But the one in red never slowed
Until i stop and look down and notice the sword through my heart
As i fell to my knees i remove my mask looking on the field the men i been fighting 
Were Me
I look up to the one in red and who are he lower his mask it ME
The true me and he said
"The one you slain today are you these were you emotion rage, hate, fear happiness, sadness"
and i ask "which one are you"
He respond "I am love for can never know or fell love until you accept who you are for that reason you will never know love"
As my eyes darken 
I began to wake and notice a blank mask on my bed and wonder
Which one am I


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Let her now run

Outside your window 
a withard horse 
has no strength or ambition 
to finish its coarse 

but what shes accomplished is more then enough 
when it comes her time , shes had it to rough 
until her last breath she will do her best 
to impress 

or is it not enough that she's given her life to please you 
never once stepped on your toes always listen to your commands 
jumped the highest fences , applied herself to every demand 

stood in the pouring rain to prove she was strong enough 
worked in scortching heat just because you asked her to 

but maybe its time you set her free 
to stride in the sunset to her own fantasy 
relieve her of the reins you held down on her neck 
and insted of dirt let her run in the medows 

Give her a life she hasn't yet experienced  
let her no her work is done 
and that she has done well 
let her now run <3 


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The mirror

I looked in the mirror 
Life was drawing on my face 
Happiness and sorrows
Lines engraved 
My own moments
Lost in time 
Deep experiences
Dug in my skin.

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Neglected

Intelligance is my wealth
build a fence around myself
maximising the cards I was dealt
where was you?, when I cried for help?
I am that boy you tore through
I that boy who grew, and knew!!
I knew what evil you did to me, 
All the love you hid from me...
Now I build a fence Around my shredded heart..
because you surely did tare it apart, left me in the dark.




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Do You Remember

We had lived the
most immortal of
times
Draught the biggest
circle of the
happiness
Carried the love to
the largest angles
together
Do you remember?

Had rains rained in
the driest seasons
Assorted hopes we
had grown up inside
of us
How yearnings those
were we kept secret
Do you remember?

We had a song that
was the most
sorrowful of the
songs
I had poems, i used
to read to you verse
by verse
And then, we used to
look eye into eye
long and long time
Do you remember?

Didnt we cry much
you without me, me
without you
Didnt we run much
from the shadow of
seperation?
How many times we
hold our hands to
God
Do you remember?

And then why the
leaves of the
happiness turned
into yellow
And then why we
dried the hopes and
yearnings one by
one?
Yet, a tree we were,
grows flowers arm by
arm, gives fruit
Do you remember?

That's the way it
is, a dark train was
enough to seperate
us
I couldnt even wave
you a handkerchief
And thus lonely, and
thus without you i
remained
Do you remember?

Now in the empty
vagoons i am looking
for you
Memories, i am
living all over
again
It is not up to me,
i remember you
I dont know if you
ever
Remember me?


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Save a Child!

Another Beloved Child Dying;
Enduring Fright.
Grieving Hearts Ignite!
Justice Kindles,
Listen!
Maintain Needed Observation.
Passionately & Quickly Reunite!
Save Time,
Uncover Viels!
Watch.
X-hibit Yearning Zeal!


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A Sweet Love Poem

My fear I feel deep inside 
follows me around, never far from my side 
Can you promise it always be 
us forever....for eternity?

No amount of  love can erase
the fear that another, could  take my place
Painfully argument's are hard to swallow
will colored rainbows always follow?

As we age and grow older
could our love die, turning cold?


I know you would give me the stars above 
yet can you promise me eternal love?

My  greatest fear will always be
that someday...will you ever stop loving me.


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Child

Anger
     Breaking
             Chills
                   Deepening
What they did to the child slowly eats me alive.


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Just so I'm with you

As I close my eyes and try to remember your face
A darkness comes I can't seem to erase 
I sit in silence just to hear your voice 
But the noise of how my life has changed is the only thing I can hear
My heart has let go, for feeling are too far gone 
But my mind holds on remembering a smile 
For I have no hope to hold on to now
And I'm stuck in limbo praying for hell 
Heaven never last 
With hell wrapped around like a cast 
You did what I told you to do 
Left no doubt of what you wanted to do 
The only question I have left 
Is what happen to the man I saw that day 
The beautiful words you called to say 
You loved me
For that I have no doubt and in all my years I thought pain had nothing left to teach me 
But pain taught me love wasn't enough 
So I come home to stare into brown eyes
That saved me countless times
To find death has taken hold
To the last thing that had my soul 
And with all the dying 
I've been trying to see the reason of love
But all that is left is pictures of days in the past 
When happiness seemed to last
Now like countless times before
I see my self wishing for the past even more 
Reaching with empty arms 
For something I can't have back 
And with you both my skin still can feel your touch 
My lips fear to have lust 
For they fit perfect with you 
But death had to claim you 
In that moment I saw my love was true 
So let me not fear this knife
With it's cold blade of truth 
Let me feel the blood 
From the heart that bleeds for you 
For if death can take you 
Then it can come for me too 
Rejoin us in heaven or hell 
Just so I'm with you 


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Young Teenage Girls

Young teenage girls
Falling for these kinds of boys
Giving up themselves
All just for the taste of love
Next thing you know
They don’t come back tomorrow
Yesterday was today
Today was another day
When will they stop?
And realize
That these young boys
Are just here to destroy
What’s really yours
All they want is more and more
If not they’ll walk out of the door
They just want to know you from head to toe
Thiers nothing for you to hide
Except the shame inside
Sex isn’t the answer
All these young boys want is pleasure
But love is much louder
Than the pressure
Of just wanting to be perfect
Just for him
When will they open their eyes?
And realize 
That there’s more to life
Then falling in love
At this young age right now
And somehow
They seem so blind
It really makes me want to cry
They use us as sex object
Sex is their subject
And we don’t listen to our friends
But just want to please him
Young teenage girls
Falling for these kinds of boys
Giving up themselves
All just for the taste of love
Next thing you know
They don’t come back tomorrow
Yesterday was today
Today was another day
When will they stop?




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I Live Alone

I live alone,
cause my lover is gone.
Yes, that one,
who took my whole
and left me empty.

I live alone,
for my children are deceased.
Yes, surely,
I would've saved their lives
if I had money in my pockets.

I live alone,
in these cold streets.
Yes, indeed,
there is nothing left
but to die alone.

Don't save my life.
No, NOT NOW!
Let me gasp for air, like an athlete.
Cause what difference would it make,
if I continued living alone?


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EDGAR ALLAN POE




One of America’s most famous writers
Was born in Boston, January of 1809.
Both his parents were failing actors
And his father was drunk most the time.

In 1810 Edgar’s dad disappeared 
His mother died soon after.
A childless couple took him in
Raising him with love and laughter.

Edgar had a Negro nurse
Who brought him to her quarters.
There he listened to ghost stories
Far beyond earthly borders. 

The strange tales he later wrote
May have come from her inspiration.
The words she used to describe death
Gave Poe his taste for sensation.

The Allans moved to England
Where Poe attended boarding schools.
There’s no doubt his time spent there
Sharpened his skills as tools.

 Returning to Richman and back in school
He began to compose new verse.
Heavy debts forced him to leave college 
As his life took a turn for the worse.

Poe caught a ride on a coal barge to Boston
Where he was unable to find employment.
A young printer agreed to publish his poems
Giving him hope and enjoyment.

Penniless, Poe enlisted in the army
And was accepted to West Point in 29.
Poe couldn’t stand not being a writer
Self-imposing his dismissal from The Line.

Afterward he became an editor and critic
And married his cousin who was thirteen.
Six years latter he discovered she was dying
Suffering once more the unforeseen.

He went through periods of insanity
Caused by grieving and functional fall.
He smoked opium and drank too much
Till at his doorsteep death would call.

Edgar Allan Poe the master of verse
Still lives in our hearts today
Famous for The Raven and other great works
May his soul rest in peace we pray.


By Tom Zart


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Nightmares

Killing essence of dreams
Lost in darkness alone
Mentally seeking safety
Nightmares like you’ve never known

Why can’t every dream be peaceful?


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Alot In Me

Afraid to sleep at night
Too much on my mind
And I pray that god
Will guide my heart
Will save me right in time
And my joy melts into stressing
I have no one to lift me high
And now the madness in me
Is gathering
Having no where left to hide
Every day in my life,
There's a problem I have to find inside
But somewhere inside my heart,
A diamond lies deep inside
And I hope I'm gonna be saved in time
So you see I got a lot in me
But there's more than this for me
When god lands his hands to heal my heart
I'll be just fine
And the madness that surrounds my heart
It shatters as they land
See I grew up on a painful road.
But I learned to block the pain
No, I wont give up tomorrow
Because I'll come to life
Again


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According To The Stats

All bombs cause destruction exemplifying 
fanatic ghastly heartless infamous
jar, kindling loathe, machination nefarious 
operations pitilessly quashing
rabid sanguineous tyranny, uncivilized violence, 
warlike xenophobia, yielding zilch!


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Freedom is here

I look and see nothing
I`m hurt and don’t feel it
I grow up and do not understand 
But freedom is here.

My fellow man is smiling
My enemy is crying
My life goes on just the same
But freedom is here.

I`ll try to keep it
I`ll try to destroy it 
I`ll try to embrace it
But freedom is here.

A child without food
A heart without love
A soul without morale
But Freedam is here.

Freedom Come 
Freedom Stay
Freedom is here
But are we free?





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eternal sleep

I hurt so badly
The pain is deep
I cry at night
I cant sleep
my stomachs knotted
I cant eat
my chest feels heavy
I cant breath
I feel desperation
I feel despair
I feel im slipping
No one cares
I take this blade
the cut is deep
I rest my eyes
eternal sleep


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Faithless

My prayers seem to echo
To the stars
Unheard by You, 
That's how I feel
I feel wrapped by darkness
Frustrated obscurity
Nothings seems clear
Nothing is real
Faithless—
Alone
Crying in a corner
My prayers resonate
To the hollow end of the night
Again and again
My divine moments turn into dead silence
No ears to listen, no mouth to speak
The kaleidoscope has settled into crystal vision
My astral journeys are now touchable skies
Cold stony nights
The stars were beautiful
They were pearls of sky
They were sequins to the soul
Suspended up high
Now they taste like fire
Their skin is untouchable
They're frigid, frozen, stoned
Lacking soul and mind
I feel so disconnected
From the other world
I feel alone
My soul's screams unheard
Tell me why I feel this way…
Thrown into the city
When all what kept me alive
Was Your ethereal comfort?
Tell me why… 
Tell me why I feel like You left me out
When I know more than anyone else that you are always there
Tell me why I feel like a barrier is built
And I can see You no more…
I know You are there
I know that You can hear me
But tell me why, I feel like I'm alone…
I'm bleeding to death
Please make the pain vanish
Take it away
Just like you used to
My world has just been halved
I'm on the other side—
Trapped undersea 
I'm losing my breath
I feel more real
Than ever before
I'm in a parallel universe
Lacking a spirit
Lacking a soul, a mind—the essence
I cannot live
Please have me back
There still is hope—
I'm still intact
Guide me into
My original track
Give me breath
Don't turn Your back…


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How Do We Say Goodbye

How do we say goodbye to someone
We knew for so long
We feel the urge to visit places 
where they used to belong
We on things they used to do and say
No one not even me thought about this day
How do we say goodbye to someone
We grew up with though out the years
Someone who we shared many happy tears
How do we put it all together
How do we patch the holes in our hearts
How do we say goodbye
To our beloved one
To our ray of sun
Even though tears may run
We say In loving memory
Jacquelyn Gates goodbye for now


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I wish Id never met you

I wish id never met you
cause all you've brought is pain
I loved you with all I had
But I realize now
I only loved the person
I thought you were
you changed and then
you broke my heart
I wish id never heard you say
those sweet, but horrid words
I know you never loved me
You only lied to please me 
Now you say I'm just a girl
From pasts now forgotten
I'm only a girl that you once loved
But you still the one
I see each time I close my eyes!!!!
You haunt me and it's all my fault
But I wouldn't  change what I've done!!!
Casue I never really  love you
Just the person I though you were......


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Fresh Wounds

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Crushed Spirit dipped in sorrow
Lashed and Slashed pains to borrow
When I shower my love they bash me down
Value me not and insults to crown

Followed LORD's decrees to love your enemies
blend it with cares , peace and the remedies
Carried your word with all my heart
Saving one soul and a relation to start

Showered love with my tender cares
Did all I can with all I could share
Gave innermost love like a sister so dear
Shared LORD's word for change to come over

Never imagined she too will slash
With her dirty language and words so rash
For devil took her entire charge
Control was gone and was open to bark

In the end she tortured me so brutally
Though my love was served so faithfully
For every word she has to pay 
Time will show her the perfect way

She even hurt the servants of GOD
Teach her LORD with your staff and your rod
Ruthless words were thrown on them
It was similar to insulting YOU n ur men

Lord's servants in the end will be saved in HIS arms
For LORD will cover US in all our forms
For wicked people will be put to shame
LORD will save us and crown us with fame

My crushed spirit cries out Loud
LORD will hear me and save me out
Calling her sister was just soooo wrong
Mistake was mine , for she was a fraud
What will happen when she'll come too see
Time will show her when same she'll reap

Am waiting patiently for my LORD to answer
Vengeance is HIs and He'll be the announcer
LORD's Glory will be then bestowed on me
For I'll follow HIS decrees wherever I'll be.
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LORD POUR OUT UR PRESENCE ON ME N HEAL MY WOUNDS-- VENGEANCE 
IS ALL YOUR. AMEN


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Death

Look around you
See the faces surrounding you
All with different uses and tasks to do
What if it’ll be your last view?
A bitter truth no one reviews
No matter how long we stay, the end will definitely come knocking
A time to really have all the rest you’ll ever need
Being alone with your deeds and virtue
Whether the good or evil
Alone and awaiting judgement
People singing melodious songs
They tell you what doesn't kill you makes you stronger,
Blatant lie, cause what doesn't kill you wasn't meant to kill you.
We wonder and ponder
But at the end, all they do is lauder.
Not knowing death is like thunder
Striking and leaving a donga
Leaving us in confusion
Live life as a traveller, but take only what you’ll need along the way.
Funny how when you die they start listening
A journey worth taking for those who know.
Tell me, are you not willing to go?
For more?
For all the bounties and all the grace
All the sights, smells and the tastes
Will be forgotten without a trace
As if frozen in time and space
When you see his face.
You asked for mercy, that he gave.
Death, the undisputed slave.
We come making everyone happy, then leave making them sad.
Why are we here in the first place, if this is how we gotta go?



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LONELY

The tears in my eyes that makes them red ,
with a loneliness in them which makes my heart so upset.
The pretty flowers which surround me,fade away after looking at me.
My condition is so bad that I'm unable to do what i can.
therefore i wish for a good day ahead ,let's see I'll be waiting for what happens next.


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Food to eternity

And you small human being who really will know that you were here? 
After three generations you will be deleted from human memories. 
Who will know that you have passed from the earth?  
Time is the killer of  all the memories.
And the natur is your killer. 

Don't try to understand. 
Try to give, 
love, 
and share.
Life is always bitter sweet 
get only what gives to you. 
If you want more you will never be happy. 

Your life is the beginning from your end. 
Nature does not recognize you as personality, 
You are a piece of the puzzle of life. 
You are not all the puzzle. 
Your mission is just  to give life and food to eternity. 
And the eternity is the reason that you exist.

Copyright Constantinos Grigoriadis © All rights reserved


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that night

I walked in the house.
you were on the couch.
the whole family was there.
you said to me i was not good enough for you.
i said what are you talking about?
he said i dont love you anymore your just not good enough.
so i left the room crying.
then it was all a blanck.


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mistaken

                       Mistaken

I looked into your eyes and knew I would love you but I couldn't have you
I was just all to mistaken so I sit in my pain in my frustration
You become a part of me you will be my everything until I die and even then
You are the air I breathe 
Yet I feel abandoned by you 
I will always have a fear to love you to touch you to be close 
As my tears roll down my cheeks I realize I'm became a part of you
I can't separate myself from what I've done to you
I have these dreams these fantasies of what it would be like to have you close
Was I mistaken to love you for these years? Why couldn't I say something?
I always froze when I was next to you. I need to break away from this tonight 
I ask myself is this time apart going to work out for us? I'm the one confused 
I say things and don't realize how they hurt and somewhat don't care 
You hurt me and somewhat I want to hurt you 
Was I mistaken? Is this a dream? Is this real? Is this just some cruel fantasy?
Do I trust you? Or will you collect dust behind me in my shadow? 
Do I throw this away? I don't think I will trust myself with you
Im trying not to let myself break but its so hard everything is taking so much from me 
its suffocating 
I wont waste myself on you ever you took so much from me when you just left 
I think I was mistaken when I found myself longing for you


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Free

I want to be free 
I want to feel like I have the power
I want to get away from all this hell
I need to be happy again
I need with the ones I love
I want my old life back 
All I want is to reunight with my family.
I want to be free  


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alone

All those day's i am feeling alone; no one is near whom i can call my own. I tried my best to tern myself on; tried to call some friend's with my cellphone. But they are all busy in their life so i said sorry to interrupt their busy life. I can't remember the last good time i had now the world around me is happy but i am sad. The summer is past the winter is come it's been so long i don't even see my pretty mom. It's so hard to really explain the trouble of my heart and severe pain. Oh! God please help me out i can't cry even i can't shout. I already lost myself in the happy crowd.


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LOVE

If I could love you like I want,
You would find these distances too small...

If I could send you lovely roses,
You would have no place to keep them all.

Every night when I dream, I see we are miles apart.
Every time when I scream, I find you far from heart.

If I could fly and reach you when I like,
There would be no second time to fly.

If I could have you once in my life,
I would have no regrets when I die.

Every night when I dream, I see we are miles apart.
Every time when I scream, I find you far from heart.

If I could tell you what I feel,
You would have nothing else to know.

If I could live without a soul,
I would have enjoyed rain and snow.

Every night when I dream, I see we are miles apart.
Every time when I scream, I find you far from heart.

If I could paint a new world for us,
We never would have to be alone.

If forgetting you was any easy,
I would have changed my nerve and bone.

Every night when I dream, I see we are miles apart.
Every time when I scream, I find you far from heart.

But this won’t make me love you any less,
I will be your guy, you will be my lass.
I will love you forever and forever...forever and forever.


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A Ture Poem about my mother

She looks up and down her arm,
All cut up and blooded,
Each time she looks at the cut's,
She see what's  (Used  to be) 
and wishes she was dead,
As she touches and looks at each scar,
She memebers how sad she was,
And that near each meant something of her horrblie past...


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6:00 am

The alarm rings at 6:00 am
I'm still wrapped up in my sheets
I'm floating aimlessly in my world
A subtle world no-one can see
Let me stay
In my bed
Amid my sheets 
In my head
I'm eaten up by harmless thoughts
By virgin juvenile blameless dreams
I wish to propel my thoughts outside
Where merciless frigid cold presides
Where the heartless lions tear my thoughts apart
Into a world that knows no heart
I wish to float into the ice
But I prefer to stay inside
Here—
Here—
Here—I find breath
I find life
Picturesque shields
Masking strife
My haven—the sheets
I'm not willing to leave
The warmth—dust of thought
They make me believe
I'm unspoiled and free
Freezing cold amid flames
I'm safe and real
My reality's to blame
  I'm pure
I'm holy
And I'm pristine
Omniscient and powerful
Fragile—cracked—and freed 
What awaits outside for me
Still remains a mystery
The first step's the most painful
It's a step I will not make
I'd rather rot here, disdainful 
Instead to step outside and break
I'm not ready to wake up
Be rid of my own bed
I wish to drown into my dreams
The confusion in my head
I want to stay wrapped up in my cocoon
Where I can soar with all my might
In here it's fake; the sun can croon
And what's more fake is my own flight
...
Am I dreaming
Or is this true
Am I in bed
Or floating blue?
I'm not aware
I'm not too sure
The colors are dull
The crystal hues
I want to sink into the darkness
Stay invisible till God knows when
But what will I do if the clock—
Has really stricken 6:00 am? 


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The Shots

Bullet shots rang
Like a church bell in my ear
And the screams sang
With the undertone of fear

The bell tolled
And the sunshine went away
And the thunder rolled
On that summers day

And the people fell to the ground
With a sudden thud
Such a sound
And out poured the blood


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Madness

I must be going mad
For all that others think isn't so bad
Continues to make me progressively more slow and sad


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CLEANSING

There are some feelings in my heart,
Feelings wanting to make themselves felt,
Feelings that I wish to sort out for a start,
Feelings that I later want to get rid of as well.
 
There is a feeling of anger in my heart,
For all those beings with screwed up mentality,
Harming innocents by their gruesome brutal acts,
And getting away despite all their profanity.
 
There is a feeling of disgust in my heart,
For all those inhumane beasts out there,
And for all those who defend or protect them on their part,
Blaming the blameless with a superior air.
 
There is a feeling of sadness in my heart,
For all those suffering needlessly,
Affected by inhuman acts from near and far,
And by cheaters who betray their trust shamelessly.
 
There is a feeling of indignance in my heart,
For all the injustice happening around,
Where the guilty are defended and are free to dart,
And in the wounded innocents the fault is found.
 
There is a feeling of fear in my heart,
For myself and those around and close to me,
For having faced it once at close quarts,
Death is something that I least wish to see.
 
These all feelings fighting in my heart,
Boiling over and making me restless,
A solution to this strife I am trying to chart,
So that ultimately I can get my heart cleansed!


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is it worth it

here in the dark dont know what to think..
i want to die..
i sit and cry and cry...
what can i do to get this feeling away?????
i need to clear my mind!!
i think do i really want to die???
why live if im worthless?? 
do  i really want to die is it worth it???


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Angry Words

Anger is an explosive expression
Belligerence is not an excuse
Careless thoughts of idiom 
Does not reason words of abuse

Why use it as a crutch?

© Stacy Lynn Stiles


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Lost Love

Sitting by the window..Watching the sunrise..!!
I remembered times we spent awake whole night..
Talking to each other ..as if we were together..!!
Waiting to see the beautiful dawn..!!

The warmth came from your word..
And the comfort from your voice..!!
We went away all alone away from this world..
And would have never returned if there had been a choice..!!

Feeling the dew outside..
While walking through the grass..
Singing the songs that you liked..
Hearing the words that I loved..!!

Everything we did was "All Out Of Love"..!!
Happiness was where you were...
Emptiness was there when you left..!!
Life was bright while you were there ...
And turned hollow when you left...!!

All was good like a perfect dream..
Till the day when you left..!!
Wont ever be the same, as I was then..
You completed me, 
And now only an incomplete me is left..!!
And all I have now is pain..!!

I am so lost without you..
The world is no longer the same..!!
No matter what went wrong..
You were always Right ..
Believing in our love..!! 
 
Sitting by the window..Watching the sunrise..!!
I remembered times we spent awake whole night..
Talking to each other ..as if we were together..!!
Waiting to see the beautiful dawn..!!


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Demons Rage

There is a demon that lives within me
Sometimes I wonder how all cannot see
Filling my mind with thoughts of rage
He consumes my very existence.
Tuning love into pain he lives within me
Destroying relationships he lives within me
Confusing thoughts of love with hate he lives within me
Searching for answers to be
Reaching into the darkness of life for answers I cannot see,
I find you…always there watching…I see you
By my side always… I feel you
For now I know love is true
For I also love you…


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our memories

our past errors are the thugs of our present terrors
we are tortured by nature while we are being deceived by destiny.
the rareness of our thoughts was curdled with valuable ideas that made us ideal.
we are rare values not because of our thoughts but because of the ordainment of our memories through our valuable ideas. and now my greatest surprise is now my greatest fear because my quest received a guest and from then i had no rest because am yet to win the test. death you have licensed my thoughts to sweet but soured memories. we can't erase the memories  of our life true second chance because we gave it the first chance to be there. 
      memory, what a summary.


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Life's Jolts

After baring concern
Developing each focus
Grasping, holding it,
Jumping, karma lives,
Moving nowhere over
Preparing quaint replies,
Sweet tastes, unkind,
Visioning with X-rays
Yearlong; zap


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Endless loop

Tears fall down like crashing waves
Pain that follows me through everyday 
Broken and abandoned 
I turn to myself 
No one else is left to help 
A darken space where family should be 
A rotten taste as they make me bleed
Torched everyday, for words i dare not say 
A year and you ran from that place 
Beaten and forgotten, in the world you had no place 
Yet I'm going countless years strong 
With no way to tell this is all wrong 
Love was never taught yet numbness made the learning curve 
I dream as if one day it will all go away 
But I know tomorrow is just the same day 
I hate hope more then life 
Yet without it there is no reason to fight 
Hope is better then nothing 
So I hold on tight 
Dreaming of a day without fright
So I dream of things Ill never have
Pretending one day it wont be this bad
What else is there to do 
When your stuck in an endless loop 


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As Far As I Can Tell

Where do i begin
everything just spins 
on the axis 
of what we call life
but none of it's real 
it's been turned
into a lie
yet i pound the pavements
for who would i be
if i didn't try
doing what i can
just to get by
so i go on day to day
living this way 
watching the world
strut it's freak parade 
no i'm not scared 
far from afraid
i need to be me 
and not anyone else
for long ago 
you put life on a shelf
chasing what you believe 
your conception of wealth
and now there's nothing more 
as far as i can tell


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the thought of not having you

the thought of not having you is not how i wanted it to be,
the thought of not having you is a great loss for me.
the thought of not having you for our lives hasn't begun,
the thought of not having you for we will not be as one.
the thought of not having you will be sadness and loneliness,
the thought of not having you for there will be no happiness.


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our memories

our past errors are the thugs of our present terrors
we are tortured by nature while we are being deceived by destiny.
the rareness of our thoughts was curdled with valuable ideas that made us ideal.
we are rare values not because of our thoughts but because of the ordainment of our memories through our valuable ideas. and now my greatest surprise is now my greatest fear because my quest received a guest and from then i had no rest because am yet to win the test. death you have licensed my thoughts to sweet but soured memories. we can't erase the memories  of our life true second chance because we gave it the first chance to be there. 
      memory, what a summary.


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FLY-BOYS



World War I gave us the fly-boys
Who flew by the seat of their pants.
Many would never return from war
While others survived by chance.

Their planes were mostly canvas and wood
Gasoline, bullets, bombs and poison gas.
Every pilot carried his own pistol
Wearing leathers, scarf and goggles of glass.

Aviators had no Parachutes
To escape their burning plane.
Many were forced to jump to their death
Or self inflect a bullet to the brain.

Blimps where known as battleships of the sky
The roar of their engines gave reason for fear.
They flew so high they were hard to shoot down
Hiding above clouds till their targets drew near.

Tracer bullets for the first time were used
In the guns of airplanes to set blimps a fire.
The skies became man’s highway of death
With duty and honor their driving desire.

How many Fly-boys have we lost since then
Those days of the Great War and more?
Where do we get such brave souls of chance
Who rise from the rest in the battles of war?

By Tom Zart







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About My Brother in Law

I cannot stand to be around you
I cannot stand to hear your vocie
You have hurt me alot
Now you made me feel numb all over
When I think of you I always feel sick
Over all the stuff you have done to me......


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DONT COME VISIT ME AFTER I DIE

Dont come visiting me after i die...
I needed you when i was alive!
I feel alone like no one cares maybe its just me i want to give up i dont know whats keeping me here..
I rather sit here in this corner with these pills and cry waiting to die..
No one listens no one cares maybe its time to die then they will care or maybe they will just be happy that im gone. Maybe thats what they want just for me to be gone because im nothing but a **** up in life and its time to give into the darkness and leave for good..
I need you and your not here were are you? You left me here in this darknes i thought family was suppose to care but i guess not no one cares that ill be gone so maybe i should just stay in the dark and give up and just be gone!!!


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Don't Know What To Do

I don't know how  to tell you
I don't if you even care
I want to say I love you
But I don't even dare.

It's true you may not like me 
But I can't help the way I feel
I don't know why I feel this way 
But I know this feeling  us real.

You don't know how hard it is 
To see you but cannot to care
There's nothing else that I can do
But just to secretly stare.

Sometimes I just want to cry
And wash this feeling away
If only it were that easy
I wouldn't be feeling this today...


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just once

just once id like to be the mother who,s kids want to be
just once i,d like to be treated like all the other mom,s i see
my kid,s they would get together
and instead of feeling left out
i,d feel like i fit in

just once i,d like to be the one all mom,s wish they were
the one that they would envy
why cant this just occur

i see all the other mom,s 
i have to hear it year after year
i guess im just not good enough
well theres always next year


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WE

By Robielynn Collins
 
 It wasn't my fault, 
that 45' to your head, 
what was going through your mind, 
could not be said, 
the pain you we feeling, 
the hurt that you felt, 
the emotions gone crazy, 
because what life had dealt, 
so in one little moment, 
you took your own life, 
and ended the turmoil, 
the pain, 
and the strife, 
but for those left behind, 
especially me, 
I had to come to terms, 
It would no longer be 'we'!


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Don't know

I don’t know what’s going on or what I did wrong.
I tell myself I don’t miss you, but I can’t deny the truth. 
I think of you every time- every time our song comes on.
And every time I hear your name, I remember nothing’s the same.
It’s starting to become clear, I don’t really need you here.
Things were better with you around, like how I felt safe and sound.
But the truth is, you’re gone now. so why don’t you take a bow;
It doesn’t matter what we’ve been through, my heart still belongs to you. 
And I don’t know what’s going on, ‘cause without you everything’s wrong. 


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A Poem About myself

Tears running down my checks,
The tears are pure pain themselves...
They feel like a million words lift unsaid.

I'm hurting....
I know what's causing the pain
Because words I have left unsaid ans unmad.

I don't know what to do anymore,
I try to kill the pain,
But...it never works...Never even had a chance.

My hole life is flashing in my head,
All I see is you...
All my screw up girl that deserve
to be one who no one wants me.....


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The Ash

Here I lie between
The locked door and opaque wall
Your photo between my finger and thumb
And your memories deep inside my heart.

Today would be the last day
For all my pain and grief
And a day to celebrate
For my freedom, now that I’d be free.

I picked up the matchbox in my hand
While the tears rolled down my cheeks
And the memories of past flashed themselves
Of those hours, and days, and weeks.

All the mixed feelings of pain and anger
Through my face, they dash
As I stroked the matchstick
And burned myself to ash…!!


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AS THE MADNESS OF WAR TELLS ITS STORY




Goodness must overrule absolute evil
Though there’s nothing worse than war.
Sometimes we have no alternative option
Except to kill or be killed as before.

The best of plans can go amiss
With uncertainties till the first shots are fired.
As generals plot their path toward victory
It’s up to the wounded, the fallen and tired.

It’s not how strong or athletic you are
That decides who is blessed to return.
Those who survive are a product of luck,
And our prayers and support they’ve earned.

War seems to peel the veneer off society
Exposing our villain within.
A crazy obsession to rule over others
By death, destruction and sin.

The mayhem of conflict is a ongoing scourge
Robbing man from intended glory.
The hinge of history swings in all directions
As the madness of war tells its story.


By Tom Zart


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13 ADRIANA

Adorable the way you look

Desired by everyone

Real captivating

Incredible the way you are

Attractive the way you move

Nervous when you get close to me

Amazing the way you look


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love mom

I had the oddest experience 
Tonight
my son, was not my kind
And I kinda didn't know what to do
my son was being you
you
but he doesn't know you
and you don't deserve a mention
So forget that I did
I'm at odds
so nothing matters?
Everything I taught him
is nothing?
My sweet Son
Sun
I can't accept this DNA crap
I won't
allow you to be asshole to the mother of your child
I am so sorry, my sweet, I don't take your side

love mom


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22 Someone

Someone thinks of you.
Someone wonders about you.
Someone cares about you.
Someone wants to protect you.
Someone wants to be with you.
Someone wants you.
Someone wants to hug you.
Someone wants to kiss you.
Someone dreams of you.
Someone prays for you.
Someone would give up his life for you.
Someone wants to have fun with you.
Someone can’t live without you.
Someone would do anything for you.
Someone likes you.
Someone wants to span the rest of his life with you.
Someone loves you.
Someone is in love with you.
That someone is me.


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24Graduation

I once thought this day would never come, but now that is here I’m sad and glad 
that this day is here. 
I’m glad because I accomplished high school and I’m moving on to bigger and 
better thing. 
I’m glad because I grow up here, I made lots of friends and met lots of 
interesting people too. 

I’m glad because I leave so many members here.
I’m glad because I had fun here and laugh and cried and just joked around here.
I’m glad because I never thought I would graduate from here and now that this 
day is here I’m glad but sad because I’m scared of getting out of here.
I’m scared of not making it on my own scared because this time I'm on my own 
all alone.

I’m sad because there are so many members I leave here.
I’m sad because I know that I’m not going to see my friends like before.
I’ sad because I’m not a kid no more now I’m a growing person that’s on his 
own. 
I’m sad because it’s going to be hard not seeing my friends everyday like before.
I’m sad because time is passing so fast and not slow but I’m glad because I 
have lots of members inside and as I move on these members well live on.

I just hope as time passes by my friends remenber me like I well remenber 
them, I hope all there dreams come true because I know when you want 
something and you work hard for it, it well come true.

High school has been a great experience for me. I know as time passes by I well 
remenber the good times and bad times I had in high school.

The knowledge I learned to go to college, the experiences I experienced but this 
is just one experience of many to come.
Today my life starts from this day on and today on this day I thank everyone that 
helped me through out my school years. 

Thank you for not giving up on me, thank you in believing in me but specially I 
thank my parents for being there for me for guiding me to the right path for telling 
me that learning is the right path to a better future and a better why of life thank 
you for making me into a better person thank you with all my heart. Thank you


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Debonair

Charming masked persona
Desiring all he can take
Elegant words of passion
Forgetting that he’s fake

Why can’t you just be yourself?


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A Poem A Cheateing Girlfirend

I thought things were good now 
I thought we'd over come the bad
Now I see through the illusion
of the love I thought we had.

You told me that you met him
Now you dont know what to do
I smiled and said "Just pick him
I'll be fine not having you".

But I couldn't hold my tears back
So I whispered "Got to go..."
Then I quickly hung up the phone up
So my hurting wouldn't show.

Now I'm shaking and crying 
And I dont know what to do
Cause the truth is, I was lying 
I  wont make it without you.


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candlelight

no, no, its alright, please enjoy, my candlelight, i wish to serve, i wish to fight, toss my love, into the night.


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Dickson Street

And I was there


My Dickson Street ,now
is so urban, sad, bare
I miss my Nasty Dickson Street
where I roamed without a care

We hoped, knew not to hurt another
we were all hurt, in a way
Spencer, he drank coffee, drew my feet
He gave me love and a different way

I miss those times
almost jealous 
when I see 
My own child
with the same thoughts
of being me


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SO DEAR TO MY HEART

SO DEAR TO MY HEART


So dear to my heart are my loved ones at home
As I toss and I turn in my bunk all alone.
Everyday I see death, hate, and corruption
Combat is God’s proof of man’s malfunction

For family, comrades, and myself I pray
To my love with this poem I wish to convey.
I knew I loved you though never how much
Till by war, I’m forced beyond your touch.

Where violence thrives, there’s the stench of death
With the taste of fear on every breath.
Who shall prevail, who shall die
As the sadistic kill beneath God’s sky.

Baghdad has become man’s highway to hell
Where the hearts of darkness are alive and well,
I count each day till it’s time to come home 
And be with my love and never alone.

Love You
Your Marine 


By Tom Zart


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dear family

Here I am sat alone wondering why you aren’t by my side?
How come I was with my parents and felt like I had to hide?
I was no older than 3, was I really to blame for your fights?
As parents, you were meant to love & protect me; did you know I could survive?

Did you know I was stronger than you?
That I was better than your ways?
After everything you put me through
Why am I trying to justify your mistakes?

Will I always chase your affection?
Will I get sick of all the rejection?
I’m trying to remember the times before depression
Do you regret not seeing my progression?

Did you ever regret letting me go?
Would i of got in the way of your drinking?
Am i wrong for letting you know?
Everything I’m feeling and thinking

If you weren’t ready to be a mum or dad yet
Why didn’t you use a condom when you had sex?
How come my half brother & sister get your love?
When I couldn’t even get a hug?

Mum why couldn’t you pick up a phone?
When dad died
Why did I have to deal with it alone?
Why was I raised by care staff in children’s homes?

Why did you give up on me?
Why were you never there?
Why do I still love you?
When you never cared

Now I’m scared of having kids
Incase I leave and do the same
But I could never do what you did
And put an innocent kid through the pain


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our memories

our past errors are the thugs of our present terrors
we are tortured by nature while we are being deceived by destiny.
the rareness of our thoughts was curdled with valuable ideas that made us ideal.
we are rare values not because of our thoughts but because of the ordainment of our memories through our valuable ideas. and now my greatest surprise is now my greatest fear because my quest received a guest and from then i had no rest because am yet to win the test. death you have licensed my thoughts to sweet but soured memories. we can't erase the memories  of our life true second chance because we gave it the first chance to be there. 
      memory, what a summary.


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Love is always there

Whenever there's a helping hand 
or a word encouragement
Whenever there are there are cheerful thoughts 
or hope that's heaven - sent 
Whenever  a garden's tended to, or lovely music sounds
Whenever these is laughter and happiness abounds.

Whenever there's am open door
a hug, a kiss,a simile......
Whenever there's someone happy
to walk with you a mile....
Whenever there are faith and trust,
and hearts that really care.....
Whever there are faith and trust,
and hearts that really care...
Whever the world is beautiful,
you'll know that love is there.....
it's always been wonderful,
to be there with you,
Because whenever you are......
My love is there too!


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You

		At first sight of you on a warm day in the sunshine.
		By the river where you were gazing upon its beauty.
		Caught my eye when you walked a walk that was only yours .
		Deep, rich green eyes … you were a slow motion dream.
		Echoing through my head.
		For I had never seen.
		Gorgeous in such a way as you.
		How can I make you notice me.
		I love your face. I must make you notice me.
		Just when you turned to see me.
		Kindness in your eyes.
		Love struck my heart.
		My heartbeat like thundering hooves of a dozen wild horses.
		No one else was in this cloudy vision of mine.
		Only he and I in this place in my mind.
		Please, God let him see me with curious intrigue.
		Restless and excited I stood there.
		Silence was eerie as he began to move.  Away from me walked.
		Trying to draw him back my way with my thoughtshts.
		Unable to speak I stood there paralyzed.
		Very soon he was out of sight.
		Who was he I wanted to know him, to possess him, to melt into him.
		Young I was when that chance at love passed me by, 
		That warm day in the sunshine by the river.


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Why?

Why can't i move when you walk in the door,
Why can't i speak with out trembling,
Why can't i show you that i truly care,
Why can't words speak when we stair deeply?
Why can't i let you go?
Why does my heart for you grow?
Why can't i say i want you now?
Why can't i say i love you somehow?
Why can't i go up to you and give you a huge,
Why do i shake and get butterfly's looking at you,
Why can't you tell me how you feel?
Why can't you let me know this is real,
Why can't i talk to you without messing up my words?
Why do i get shy when this year is the third,
Why can't we take these memories and make them ours now,
I know someday i will be with you somehow,
and last of all why can't i get the courage to do this today?


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Finding my True Love

no one will love me for who i am,
I try so hard for them to accepted me just as i stand,
i know i am shy in so many ways,
I want a guy to make me have better days,
I know im not that great in any way but i want a man that will always stay,
Is this to hard to ask for? For the Love of my Life?
It feels like im never going to be good enough and my heart is geting stabed by a 
knife,
I am ugly on the outside and i know im to afraid for my face to even show,
I try so hard to look good but no one is here to even care,
I just want to be loved for who i am.. And find that one guy to accepted me just as 
myself.


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15 I'm falling even more in love with you

I’m falling even more in love with you every time I see you.

I’m falling even more in love with you every time I’m close to you.

I’m falling even more in love with you every time I talk to you.

I’m falling even more in love with you every time I dream of you.

I’m falling even more in love with you every time I think of you.

I’m falling even more in love with you every time I write a poem about you.

I’m falling even more in love with you every time I wonder about you.

I’m falling even more in love with you even when I try to forget you.

I’m falling even more in love with you every time I’m with you.

I’m falling even more in love with you with the simple things you do.

I’m falling even more in love with you because my heart can’t forget you.


I’m falling even more in love with you because I know I well make you happy and 
make your dreams come true.

I’m falling even more in love with you because I know I never loved a girl like I 
love you.

I’m falling even more in love with you because I know I want to span the rest of 
my life with you.

I’m falling even more in love with you even knowing you don’t love me like I love 
you.


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he watching over me

He's watching over me.                                                                                                       The day he said "good bye"                                                                                               The long wait for him to come home.                                                                                   Remember when my mom set me down in his chair to tell me he's gone.                              Never regret the day i spent camping, and fishing with him.                                                Going and living me all alone.                                                                                               Wishing he could be here to see me grow up.                                                                       Crying day after day know he's gone.                                                                                    Just knowing that it going to be a long time until I can go to the same place....HEAVEN       Just wto see his lovely smile to here his laughter just one last time.


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the boy and the reaper

as the ground tears open he will arise, his dark black cloak and fire in his eyes. he
raises his sithe into the air as he hears the cries of the boy with the uneasy stare he
says please Mr. sandman before you reap and it is my blood you seep, i ask you why with
all your mightyness touching the sky lose your chance to help the world instead of lifting
your lance? so the reaper slyly replied "it is my job to take your soul from your hide"
and so as the reaper raised his sithe that shined so bright as the screams of the boy were
heard all through the night


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Will Work For Moods

Can you provide mental stability?
Does this guarantee come in my contract?
Eager to begin this new position
For as long as this oath stays intact

I’m only asking for help


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velvet sky

 

The day folds away for the awakening of the night.
Alone stands I, as shadows
Creep over me with fright.
The crisp air sends me on a breeze,
Whispering untold secrets to me.
The stars began to twinkle,
The epitome of all beauty
It is the heart of all that sings
The melancholous harmony.
The thickness of the crystal and velvet sky
pounces my world
As mysteries, deep embedded in my soul
Become untold



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HEART BROKEN

The relationship I was standing 
on
was
beautiful like daffidols that filled meadows,
and I was kissed with a dozen roses 
painted with love.
But being wrong was what 
you pushed in my vocabulary.
The second she walked in
you threw it in my face and I felt like 
plants withering in winter.
You blew it up, and filled it with 
sweet and sour emotions.
Gave me cliched lines,
then kicked me off pedal stool you kept close.
Brushed me off like ugly chicks being dissed.
You made me so
You made me so 
corrupted.
Mary J played
while i let constipated diary pages fill too
many emotions you can't comprehend.
I was forbidden to use L words 
because your eyes regretted my intentions.
You sealed up everything you had and
shipped it express to her.
I cried more then I smiled 
I felt powerless,
helpless,
hopeless.
You licked me boy
I mean damn you licked me....
because 
I 
was your
SUCKER!


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aries

Man's best friend or "just a dog"
I've had this debate forever 
But my dog is something,different,unique
Something otherworldly..however...
Aries is his name...he's tan and white 
With deep and soulful brown eyes 
This "I'm just a dog" and I know nothing's
Very obviously a disguise 
Did you ever wonder for just a split second
If there was more to your pet than you 
knew?
If maybe,just maybe..this lovely creature 
knew more about your destiny than YOU!!!
You see I don't wonder this,I take it as fact 
And MANY have called me insane 
But sit and stay are just a teeny glimpse of 
what's being held in his brain 
She's sad she's mad she's hurting right 
now and he's licked the tears off my face 
If you can't tell THAT is a guardian angel 
then that is a sad sad disgrace 
These pets that we love are here for a 
reason,placed in our lives just so 
For reasons like the people are placed in 
our lives,reasons we may never know
The only thing I seem to know for sure is 
that dog is my only true friend
He has been since birth and always will be 
now until the very end
Corny I know,a poem about a pet that says 
oh I love you and you ate so cute 
But the next time you take a good look at 
scrappy...just think...do they know more 
than we do??? 


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Sad love Poem

I don't know how to tell you 
I don't know if you care
I want to say I love you 
But I don't even dare.

It's true you may not like me 
But I can't help the way I feel
I don't know why I feel  this way
But I know this feeling is real.

You don't know how hard it is 
To see you but cannot to care
There's nothing else that I can do
But just to secretly stare.

Sometimes I just want to cry
And wash this feeling away 
If only it were that easy
I wouldn't be feeling this today...
If only it were that easy


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THINGS NOT EQUAL

THINGS NOT EQUAL

There are those who reach an age past  100,
while some never chanced to live.
There are those who share their blessings,
while some choose not to give.

There are those who have never gone hungry,
while some never survive.
There are those who find fame and fortune, 
while some dreams shatter and die.

There are those who are rich and famous,
while some are poor and alone,
There are those with power and possessions,
while some are without a home.

There are those who are happy and healthy,
While some are sick and depressed.
There are those who believe life is the end,
while some say:  “it was just a test!”

By Milton Lopez Delgado
December 4, 2011


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A poem about my true friend Robert

The grace he once showed,
Have's gone away,
The smile he had can light up the room,
It's gone forever and a day his light-hearted spirt,
Is now  heavy with despair?
He's dying, for someone to notice him,
But he just pretends it's fine
He looks up once agin now,
come on eagle; take me home,
I'm ready to go...


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18 I'm trying to forget you

I’m trying to forget you but this love I feel for you won’t let me forget about you.

I’m trying to forget you but every time I think of something I think of you.

I’m trying to forget you but when I go to sleep you’re in my dreams and it’s harder 
to forget you.

I’m trying to forget you but every time I see you makes me think more about you.

I’m trying to forget you but every time you talk to me make's me not want to forget 
you.

I’m trying to forget you but your beauty won’t let me forget you.

I’m trying to forget you but every time you’re close to me I forget that I’m trying to 
forget you.

I’m trying to forget you because I’m falling more in love with you.

I’m trying to forget you because you don’t love me like I love you.


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our memories

our past errors are the thugs of our present terrors
we are tortured by nature while we are being deceived by destiny.
the rareness of our thoughts was curdled with valuable ideas that made us ideal.
we are rare values not because of our thoughts but because of the ordainment of our memories through our valuable ideas. and now my greatest surprise is now my greatest fear because my quest received a guest and from then i had no rest because am yet to win the test. death you have licensed my thoughts to sweet but soured memories. we can't erase the memories  of our life true second chance because we gave it the first chance to be there. 
      memory, what a summary.


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our memories

our past errors are the thugs of our present terrors
we are tortured by nature while we are being deceived by destiny.
the rareness of our thoughts was curdled with valuable ideas that made us ideal.
we are rare values not because of our thoughts but because of the ordainment of our memories through our valuable ideas. and now my greatest surprise is now my greatest fear because my quest received a guest and from then i had no rest because am yet to win the test. death you have licensed my thoughts to sweet but soured memories. we can't erase the memories  of our life true second chance because we gave it the first chance to be there. 
      memory, what a summary.


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our memories

our past errors are the thugs of our present terrors
we are tortured by nature while we are being deceived by destiny.
the rareness of our thoughts was curdled with valuable ideas that made us ideal.
we are rare values not because of our thoughts but because of the ordainment of our memories through our valuable ideas. and now my greatest surprise is now my greatest fear because my quest received a guest and from then i had no rest because am yet to win the test. death you have licensed my thoughts to sweet but soured memories. we can't erase the memories  of our life true second chance because we gave it the first chance to be there. 
      memory, what a summary.


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our memories

our past errors are the thugs of our present terrors
we are tortured by nature while we are being deceived by destiny.
the rareness of our thoughts was curdled with valuable ideas that made us ideal.
we are rare values not because of our thoughts but because of the ordainment of our memories through our valuable ideas. and now my greatest surprise is now my greatest fear because my quest received a guest and from then i had no rest because am yet to win the test. death you have licensed my thoughts to sweet but soured memories. we can't erase the memories  of our life true second chance because we gave it the first chance to be there. 
      memory, what a summary.


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empty soul

The worse pain you can feel is the pain from your soul, it can either ignite your body into an inferno coal, or it can drop below freezing and turn you into an icicle. It's hard to explain something that's invisible, but you can feel every knife like strike to your heart like it was physical, and every little stab makes you feel more and more  miserable , and you try to make it better but the sad part is not everything is fixable..but we take it tho even tho nobody can see this internal bleeding, it becomes emotional and that internal pain will leave you weeping, sleeping pleading for deaths reaping. And when death comes it never kills you just gives you a taste forever teasing, and everyone you loved is now leaving.losing everything you ever held close, now your abusing drugs not caring if you overdose. Not carrying if you go over the edge, so you reach rock bottom and you lay in the bed,  barrel to your temple one shot bang led to the head, feeling living was to much so now you rather be dead


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if i were the rain

i sit here 
all alone in the rain
thinking....
i think about my friends
about the rain 
about you
i wish my feelings were like the rain
that when i want to cry
it would all just fall
lightly if only a little sad
hard and painful
when feeling sorrow
if i were the weather
i would be the sun when i see you
and the rain when your mad at me
a hurrican when i see you with a another
and every other day
i am a sun behind clouds 
because you never knew about me


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My Rome maudlin No More

my eyes have seen the Glory, the glory evermore
la de fa et for ever more, Bellet ever more cry no
more our amorous our love, we are not Rome but
ya yet you will stand for ever more, Stand ever more
Rustic their way for evermore one mans waste creators
treasure, Muluct never, My bellet afa eta love for ever
more, my the seas for ever more track 15 musical soup
Rond de jambe en delors 4 times asseble (devnt )
or track 1 to 4 to   begining 3 times Fouette movements
may be don by spring perf instead of a releve'
doublework developpe a la seconde devant attituant 
fouette to attitude derriete promenade finishing in arabesque pen
ebee


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cookies that hurt

Life went south with Jimmy Buffett
I'm gonna write him
cuz I'm still hurt, stupid, drunk
But see, I still gotta get up
Need to go to work
Help folks
It helps, to help 
you know?

So I'm makin cookies for my growed up babies
cuz tomorrow, it's Valentines day
I got these heart shaped cutters
Kneading the dough I say

Babies, I love you
I will love you no matter what
I press the dough into heart shapes
with all my heart

then someone says
someone tells me
and I guess that they would know
"you're the worst mother"
and it flattened out my dough










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door

I can't go in our room
It's empty
and full of things you discarded
cigarette butts, phone numbers without names
lonely things not shared but bombarded
so I shut the door
like I shut out your leavin me
that door, it just keeps talkin
might as well paint that door red
I'm thinkin bout puttin my shoes on
remember? with the big, clunky heels?
I'm thinkin bout kickin that damn door in
JUST TO SEE HOW IT FEELS


Hah! Kimmy


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why i was only 4

All the hurt in my heart,all the hate i have for you 
i never thought i could forgive you for what you have done to me i dont remember you or who you are or who you were all i know is that you really hurt me when i was 4 tell 12 and i block it out tryd not to remember but now its alll comeing back to me in flash backs and it really hurts .. why would you do that to a 4 year old it hurts to know some one could do that it disgusts me just thinking about it.. 
i wish i would have known what was going on so i could tell my parents what you did to me but i didnt know what was going on i allways would block it out so i wouldnt remember but now its all comeing back i really hurt inside i cant trust any one because of you  its hard to forgive some one who hurt you so much you didnt think that id figure out what you were doing to me but now i do and i hope god will punish you for what you have done im really hurt and can never trust because of you...


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THE RIVER OF NO RETURN



Beware of the streams of evil
Feeding the river of no return.
Where whatever gives us pleasure
Is our only worry and concern.

True happiness results from blessings
Handed down from heaven to earth.
God seems to smile on people in love
Who have chosen to share their worth.

Three types of humans occupy earth
The bad, the not so bad and the horrible.
Somewhere in-between, most us are
And our babies are most adorable.

Far too many become disappointing
Mimicking adults as they stretch and grow.
Lost somewhere in self indulgence
In a world they have yet to know.

Thanks to faith and spiritual teachings
Multitudes follow the path of grace.
The righteous are the hope of man
As we journey the dangers of space.

Reject what is selfish, cruel and unkind
Steer clear of evil deeds without fear.
Listen to the voice of  God in man
And  you’ll remain more civilized and clear.


By Tom Zart


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rhyme

im alive but i feel so dead
every word that i've said
has been the truth
i want to meet my last breath 
i want to close my eyes for the last time
so i write my last rhyme


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About Mom and Dad

Sometimes I began to forget how life use to be,
and have to go through the box that holds  our memories,
Memories of when you and mom didn't fight,
and all of us lived under one roof,
when there wasn't two of every holiday,
and step moms or step dads,
Even though I was young I still remember the day you left,
and mom didn't cry cause she knew it was coming,
I can't help but to think of how things could have been different,
and how it would feel to still love you dad...



My life with my mom and dad was never good nor was my life cause
I am now a single mother of two girls and my oldest is Austin but it's lies bumps I 
over come and the only way  i can deal with life and everything is to wrote 
poems....So thank you all for enjoy reading my poems


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long ass poem about cool

K
i BE SO TIRED
 
But I still afford cigarettes
STILL GOT A MAN
still got the roof
I keep my IT Clean

MaYBE they won't know
i need 4 shots to deal
sEE MY damn fOOl hands
i cain'T keeP EM STILL

Mama, She WORRIED
mAN, HE ON ME
sister, baby, brother
aunt like was my MOTHER

tHEY GONE

i've not talked to my dad
I'm bad
TIRED
Wish I could taKE IT BACK
IS TOmorrow ANOTHER day?
I am so sick of myself. 
Poor me. WhATEVER

NOT POOR ME, EVER
Here, standin
Lovin me

Still gotta get rid of this snake, it's bAD, IT'S GOT ME, got me....


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DEPRESSED

everyday i cry
everyday i sigh
why oh why do i cry?
why oh why do i sigh?
depressed, that is why
depressed is why i cry
depressed is why i sigh
i am depressed when people die
it makes me cry
depressed, depressed, ae u depressed?
if so please tell me why


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i see america hurting

i see a doctor hurting as one of his patients pass.
i see a mother hurting as her children grow up to fast.
i see the firefighters hurting as they put out the fire from 9/11.
i see family's hurting as their loved ones go to heaven.
i see people hurting and wondering what their here for.
i see america hurting while we still remain in war.
i see america hurting as their jobs are taken away, and they are left without pay.
i've seen america hurting everyday.
i've seen america hurting in some very hurtful ways.


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Unworthy Moments

   Defined Love or a refined Crush--
   Magic in his Word,entered in a Rush
   followed the road, thought it's My Love.

   Called him a friend coz nothing more to lend
   Shared all I can , Given all I had
   How sweet was the start , thought it surely will last.

   Journey Divine, moved and fly
   shoulder to Cry and a friend to Rely 
   Oh, what happened, filled with deep emotions
    failed then in all solutions.........

    Realized soon, it was just general
    Nevertheless My Cares were Eternal
    Soon, diminished within love Triangle
 
    Than thought He is not worth,
    Who drags me to rust.......

     His eyes expressed it all,
     Gave me a new downfall
     All was my illusion,
     This was again a dead solution
            Henceforth was my last resolution,
             I have to QUIT and soon will LIFT !!!!
  


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COPE

 
		 
Your sitting all alone waiting for your heart to  
break.
Through trials and tribulations one seeks the power of
the most high cause one doesn't know how much more
one can take.
Alone in a dark hole, 
disclosing all of your unforgetable woes.
Asking the question, Is this the life i chose? who knows.
For as the the outline of water, falls down off your
face, 
You feel the core of empty space that hit's you hard and
raw in that loving place.
Pain, 
Strain, 
and no emotional gain play's at it's own 
symbolic beat
Pressures of hidden treasures measures the timeline
in victory of it's own defeat
Turning pages of different rages only compounds into
disfunctional stages.
Seeing the shadows off reflection in the mirror looking
for hope, 
Not wanting to see the true face, 
When your trying to cope. 

Tiffany Saxon 

	 

 
 
 

 
 
 

 
 
 


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Fragile

Built of fine glass and porcelain 
Could anything keep them apart?
Detained by every single notion
Except for her broken heart

How could you hurt her so?


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alone

sitting at home
home all alone
because i have nobody
to call my own
sitting at home
home all alone
in my dress so white
i thought going to prom with him
would be such a delight
i call and call
he says he will be there in a few
his tux is too tight
and he doesnt know what to do.
an hour later, he still doesnt show
i'm so torn up..
he doesnt even know.
as i call him this last time
he says its too late to go,
hes just gonna go home.
as i break down in tears
i think about the years
how it seems im all alone
always sitting at home.
I pray every night
and wonder why nothing ever seems to be right...
will i be alone for the rest of my life?
will i ever get the chance to be a wife?
i think i will just sit at home
home alone
on this lonely night
and wait for the right person to save me from this lonely life.


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Me

will they ever accept me for me 
do they not see
im trying my hardest to be 
what they want me to be

i work my hardest at everything
im just not smart and cant sing
i cant do anything

i need to know what more they want from me 
can they not see im the best i can be
why can they not see 
that what they see is the real me


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ache

my hear achs
and breaks
waiting to feel you touch again


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HE DESERVED IT

i kno this gurl
who got hurt very bad
i kno this guy
who has done somethings 
that hes gonna wish he never had
i am so angry now
so i have to go see, 
why he would do something so nasty
as i walk to his door
with my gun at my side
i sit there and think
as the tears roll down my face
how can he be so stupid?
now im gonna put him in his place 
my fingers are tembling
as i reach the door
the door bell is ringing
and the door cracks open more and more
i see his face
and i force myself in his place.
as i reach for my gun 
he reaches for his
i let out a shot
and i barely miss.
so i drop my gun
and i run straight for the man
as i punch him n kick
he starts to bleed when i take a last hit
then he looks me in the eyes
and grabs me by my throat
i scream with fear
as i start to choke
and he throws me on the floor
i reach for a knife
as i cut his leg
he grabs his gun so he can take my life
i beg n beg
as he turns around 
cause he heard a loud sound
i get up and stab him
and watch him fall to the ground
as i am watching him die
i begin to cry
and think about how he hurt her
and took her childhood
something she didnt think he would
now he cant hurt anyone else
cause i got rid of him
but for some reason i dont feel bad
that i put his life to an end. 


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He Doesn't Even know

~He doesn't even know~

It's impossible,
To not feel this hurt,
Can't you notice these sad eyes,
But you dont,
You'd rather pass them by,

Every minture without you,
It's hard,
But I hold on to thoughts,
Every hour,
I stuggle knowing,
It's not me,
And I wait sitting here lonely,

 I'm sickend by,
The fact I can't say a word,
I'm so scared,
To tell you,
I don't want the reaction I always get,
Where they never talk back to me agian,

It's impossible to focus,
when my body tingles,
And i get that dry feeling in my throat,
Trying to say something right,
But for some reason I just stare,
Why Can't you notice these sad eye's,
I want to grab your hand,
when you pass me by.


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A Poem about myself

Is it wrong to want you, The way that I do?
Is it wrong to keep wishing something that'll never come true?


Why do I push you away when you've done nothing wrong?
Why does everyone in my life leave after not long ago?


Am I not worth it, Do I only cause pain?
People are worthless, They're only in for self again.

Can't you see that I'm hurting, I'm going to down again,
I'm asking someone to save me, Just one decent guy.


Someone who likes me for the way I'a,,
To look past the make up, And know's where I stand.

But no one available, so looks like I'm done,
I guess I'll deal with my problems 
all on my own.


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we may

we may....

we may not be as one, but we'll always have each other in our hearts,
we may not be lovers, but you'll always be close to my heart.
we may not see each other, but i'll always think of you,
we may distant from each other, but i'll always be here for you.


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rest in peace

Hey grandpa, we miss you,
how you doing up there?
Now that your gone,
there's a different feeling in the air.
Grandpa I wish people didn't have to go,
I wish life didn't have to be this way.
We all know that you left in peace
so we'll try our best to make this a happy day.
Today we will celebrate the life of a beautiful man
A father, brother, cousin, uncle, grandpa,
and every place else you stand.
We will honor this day and remember all
the special moments we shared
There was lots of laughter, and lots of arguments,
but at least we can say we cared
In the little time I've known you
it felt good to have a grandpa around
I simply adored you, and especially for you,
a place in my heart was found
Were all glad that you lived in happiness,
and left in peace
So to finish, we all need to rise together
as a unit, so you can be released


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everyday

everyday i die
slowly but i die
and everyday i smile

you showed up
and hurt me bad
you put scars on my heart
and left me to die

i got scared of you
i tried to tell you that we were through
but you came and didn't let me talk 
you never let me talk

you came up to me one day
and looked at me 
you pulled me down
and tore off my shirt
i got scared

everyday i die 
slowly but i die
and everyday i smile
because im closer to be gone from you


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why do you do the things you do

Why do you hit me what did I ever do to deserve this 
Why do you do all these things to me 
I just wish I knew why you do the things you do 
I don’t deserve to be treated this way I just want to know why 
Why do you lie and cheat what did i do to deserve this from you 
Why do this to me I thought you loved me


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The Words That Go Unheard

These are the words that go unheard. The voice of a little girl crying for help 
because her mother is a drug user and her boyfriends all beat her. The screams 
of a teenager whose dad is molesting her. These are the words that go unheard. 
Listen to the young girl who ran away at just 15, she shares a tale that all should 
hear. Hear the words of the teenage mom who lost her daughter and don't know 
what to do with herself any more. The sound of screams from a young lady who 
gets raped and choked at the same time. These are the words that go unheard. 
Listen for the tears of the pregnant teenager whose baby daddy is abuseive. She 
cries and cries for help yet no one comes. For all of these are the words that go 
unheard.


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if you were there

if you were there i wouldn't of gotten beat up all the time 
if you were there i would probably still be home 
if you were there i wouldn't be cutting like i do 
if you were there i would of been able to talk to you i do 
i wish i knew the truth on if you do care or if you don't 
if you were there i wouldn't be into trouble 
i thought you had cared but i was wrong 
if only you were there when i needed to talk to someone 
if only you were there to help me with my problems 
were have you been these thirteen years


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14 Start with someone new

Start with someone new someone that is not like you.

Start with someone new someone that won’t lie like you.

Start with someone new someone that protects me like I protected you.

Start with someone new someone that cares for me like I cared for you.

Start with someone new someone that thinks of me like I thought of you.

Start with someone new someone that wonders about me like I wondered about 
you.

Start with someone new someone that would give up the world for me like I give 
the world for you.

Start with someone new someone that makes me dream wild dream like when I 
dreamed of you.

Start with someone new someone that would cry for me like I cried for you.

Start with someone new someone that likes me like I liked you.

Start with someone new someone that loves me like I loved you.

Start with someone new someone that I well love more than you.

Start with someone new someone that won’t break my heart like you someone 
that well be by my side for good and bad someone that cherishes every time 
she’s with me someone that wants to be with me.


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I miss you

I miss you lots grandpa
You dont even know
I miss the way you smiled it even glowed
I miss the way we would always play
And how you would say
Kelli will you scratch my back today
I miss all the times you sang to me
It would always drive me crazy
But the one thing i really miss
Is the last time you gave me a kiss
You were in the hospital
I felt so bad, not only that i felt sad
Then you passed
After that my heart felt like shattered glass
I couldn't stand the pain
It ended up going to my brain
Well thats all i have to say
Eccept for "i wish you were here today" 
I miss you grandpa


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My Son

What happened to my little one,
Who's small hand fit in mine?
What happened to the quiet time,
That we would always find?

He's growing up so fast now,
And soon he'll be a man.
I hope I've given him guidance, 
I think I've done the best I can.

He gives me reason to smile,
With each and every passing day.
And I believe he has grown to be,
A good man in every way.

Of course he is not perfect,
I expect that he'll make mistakes.
As long as he takes responsibility,
And always does what it takes.

I have always tried to teach him one thing,
I really hope that he has taken heed.
To always be kind to other people,
And try to help those who are in need.


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No, I'm not  making that promise again nothing can change my mind nothing at 
all, cause LOVE has a way of coming undone unntil I'm all alone with my  Heart, 
the pain's all here to stay.

"I ALWAYS THOUGHT I'D SEE YOU AGAIN", how it hurts everytime you've crossed 
my Heart since then, gotta give it all it takes to hold what might have been, and "I 
ALWAYS THOUGHT I'D SEE YOU AGAIN".

Now there's no need to run to the phone, no need to hold your breath hoping it's 
you, each time I see someone we used to know, or go some place we used to 
go, it's not the same.

"I ALWAYS THOUGHT I'D SEE YOU AGAIN", how it hurts everytime you've crossed 
my Heart since then, gotta give it all it takes to hold what might have been, and "I 
ALWAYS THOUGHT I'D SEE YOU AGAIN".

LOVE doesn't come when you need LOVE it's not always there when you fall, try 
as you may you've got nothing to say, nothing at all.

"I ALWAYS THOUGHT I'D SEE YOU AGAIN", how it hurts everytime you've crossed 
my Heart since then, gotta give it all it takes to hold what might have been, and "I 
ALWAYS THOUGHT I'D SEE  YOU", but I realized then "I'M NOT ALWAYS GONNA 
SEE YOU, AGAIN".                             THE END


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Who am I

lost, so lost in depression,  
use to rejections,
stomped on like nothing,
forgotten like a thrown away napkin.
un noticed, miss treated, unloved.
Apart of me is missing, the other taken,
with nothing left to show
Darkness has becomes my obsection.
Punished on a daily bases.
Can't seem to find my self, 
Affaid to be me honestly.
Only if they could see,
Only if they know
what i go through
what its like to be me 
the lost,cold lonely one
in the street.....


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Pain

Pain is how i feel right now Lost the girl and I don't know how She was an angel in my eyes Until she said goodbye She went with another man And left me a lonely man I wish i could win her back But she still went and packed She had us split apart And left a hole in my heart I don't know what to do Without her here to I'm so lonely I could die Keel over and say goodbye When I'm lonely I feel pain Theres always downs but no gains


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a new skin

here i am laid out, flat out, in this new skin
left with nothing because of me and because of him.
so broken down and the pieces seem lost
and i'm left here almost hopeless, while paying the cost.
What is love anyway? broken hearts, lies and crushed dreams
has been for me while my life rips at the seems.
I am so strong, so courageous ... but so well hidden
so held back from the path that I've ridden.
And i don't trust anyone who says that they care
for me its a chance, a risk, a dare...
like, "i dare you to believe all of my bulls---"
"so later you're crying because you fell for it."
But i am me... and i have dreams
and he won't bring me down, its not what it seems.
i will be made better in this beautiful struggle
and in the mean time, i will not buckle.
who needs him anyway... i mean, right?
he couldn't see my love when it was so BLINDLY in sight.
time has taken a toll on my heart
and my bad actions have played a big part.
So i'm starting with nothing on this path to my life
and i could end up happy, a mother, a wife...
sometimes things are just unexpected
but it still hurts when you've been rejected.
i loved him... for what its worth now
i'll be okay, though i don't know how.


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peaceful ending

her last tear falls
the blood drips 
the silent crying 
has reached it ending 
she no longer hurts 
she no longer weaps 
her last breath is so peaceful


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RUNAWAY

 
On the move all the time 
Running scared, Wanting to hide, 
I lay down crying.
Wondering when the time will be mine.
Daydreaming of how things could be, 
but the need to be free seems to be a
long lost fantasy.
Looking over one's shoulder just to sit in
peace and relax.
Praying, 
Hoping, 
and Wishing that a peace of mind will once
again come back.
Filling spaces of terrible places is the key to
one's being.
Love is the key to alot of things
For one, 
This key has no meaning.
So you're a runaway with time to spare...
Who cares for all the wrong reason's to
bare.
Stepping out on that stepping stone
to be told, 
How one can be so cold yet bold.
Here's a toast to the night and day.
God Bless the ' Runaway' 

Tiffany Saxon 
	 


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getting hurt

everything went wrong
now our love is gone
you act like you dont know me
or even want to be around me
it's as if i dont exist
i feel as though i am getting hurt
everytime i think about this
the pain i feel is much worse
than a stab in the back
or a shot in the head
or the pain of a droven steak
the pain i am feeling is heartbreak.
we had several fights
where i would sit up crying all night
i thought i was in love 
i thought you were too
i would never cheat on u
but u did on me
not with one, but two
do you have any idea what you have put me through?
i seem to be getting hurt in more ways than one.
sometimes im almost glad our relationship is done.


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17 Because of you

Because of you I sit lonely and cry for you.

Because of you my heart scrims for you.

Because of you my heart cry’s for you.

Because of you my heart broke in two.

Because of you my dream are not happy like they use to.

Because of you it’s hard to forget you.

Because of you I’m depress day and night.

Because of you everyday is a sad day.

Because of you my life is been hell with out you.

Because of you my heart won’t love no one only you.

Because of you I thought I did not need nobody just you.

Because of you my dream did not come true.

Because of you every night I cry for you.

Because of you my heart is full with pain and sadness to.

Because of you I won’t fall in love no more because my heart can’t trust no one 
no more.


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I am

i wish you would understand who i am 
i am a teenager waiting for you to come to em 
i am a girl who is asking you to care 
i am your girlfriend waiting for you 
i am the one who is always sitting here crying 
i am a girl who cries her self to sleep every night 
why won't you care for me i am your daughter 
why won't you care for me i am your girlfriend


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The Pain

Another day passes me
Bringing sorrow and glee
Chains are bound upon my heart
Drenched in pain which will not part
Everyone thinks that i am something I'm not
Forgetting that they too are just a spot
Grains of salt and dust  formed  as a bell
Hallow to my eyes and ears as well 
I  hear your thoughts
There to tie me in knots


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Trying Not to Fall

All night long I stay awake
Because I think of you
Can't seem to change the way I feel
Dreams of me and you

Every time I close my eyes It's your
Face that appears
Gotta try to shake this
How else to keep from tears

I can't believe I'm falling again
Just don't know how to stop
Keep on trying, to no avail
Letting myself just drop

My heart is telling me one thing
Nothing else matters anymore
Only when I see you
Please, your the one whom I adore

Questions I have asked myself
Responding to them all, to
Stop my feelings for you, is like
Trying not to fall


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Empty room

Hello loneliness, my friend,
I want to speak with you again.

Please let me see her shadow
Let me hear her voice
Let me feel her touch

Feed me to my dream when I close my eyes
The darkness wants me back.

Let me carry her odor to my existence,
Let me burn within her warm.

Fly me to the skies after I will sleep
The morning star wants me back.

Let me close my midnight eyes forevermore,
Let me carry her shape to eternity.

Feed me to my dream
Take me back where I belong.

An empty room without you
Leaves me empty in my soul.

Copyright Constantinos Grigoriadis © All rights reserved


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21 When you're in love

When you’re in love you well think of her day and night.
When you’re in love you well dream of her every night.
When you’re in love you well pray for her every night.
When you’re in love you well care for her like nobody does.
When you’re in love she well drive you insane.
When you’re in love you well protect her with your own life.
When you’re in love you well do whatever for her even giving up your life.
When you’re in love you well be with her in good or bad times.
When you’re in love you well wonder about her everyday and night.
When you’re in love you well cry when she cry’s.
When you’re in love you well be happy when she is happy.
When you’re in love you well talk about her every time you talk.
When you’re in love you well get nerves every time she is close.
When you’re in love you’re heart well scram for her.
When you’re in love you’re heart well love her.
When you’re in love you well not be able to live without her.
When you’re in love you well do crazy things with her.
When you’re in love you well write poems about her.
When you’re in love you well write songs about her.
When you’re in love you well call her just to hear her voice.
When you’re in love you well miss her when she is going.
When you’re in love you well tell her that you love her with all your heart.
When you’re in love you well love her even if she does not love you.


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Lost in a hateful World

Lost in a hateful world
hurt, disrespect, and murder
searching for something but can not find
learning about this hateful world 

Lost in a hateful world
screaming at the top of my lungs but nobody hears
running away from this hateful world but no way out 

Lost in a hateful world


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Confused Words

I wanna tell you how I feel
I wanna speak what's on my mind
But I can't say it 

I wanna tell you that I'm scared 
Of succeeding in this relationship
But I can't say it 

I wanna tell you that I'm scared
Of failing in this relationship
But I can't say it

I wanna tell you about my past 
And all that's happened to me
But I can't say it

I wanna tell you about my future
And how I want you there
But I can't say it

I wanna tell you that I love you
And I want you in my life
But I can't say it

And now you're turning
And walking away
Because I haven't said a word.


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1 week

Tonite, I told my Moma
what I won't tell anyone else
what I would never admit
but to only myself
I'm tired of makin these words fit
so
I'm just gonna lay it out to the world
but not, I just can't, not where I sit
OK
see, I'ma gonna take a little time off
smoke cigerettes, sweat, cry
maybe go tanning
watch movies
Don't nobody else need to know why
OK
I will be ok 
I got some splainin to do
got get it right again
sew my thoughts together
the way I used to do
OK honey
Gotta be me again
Gonna go thru my bootcamp
gonna get it my own face



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Separation among childhood

As my heart weeps for love,
I began to feel blank, 
As my eyes began to glow,
My body wants to vacate.
Childhood went by too fast,
For the young years are through,
As I lay in a dreary dungeon,
I now have to start new.
Childhood was sweet,
There was a bound between two,
For now we have departed,
I have to decide what to do.


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door

i love you now  and forever more yet why did i shut the  door on life.
i acted like you hated me to explain what you do yet you love me but why  do
i not say i know you.i make you sad by writing these poems  yet why cant i stop
forgive me im sorry i should just stop,you loved me and still do yet why dont i say 
i know its true i act like its a lie but its not. door is now closed and locked for now
you stay with me waiting to see what i have to say you say hardly anything so you 
will never make me sad yet i dont get it but yet i do i have always understood you
shuting the door on life is bad thats the only reason i had ever made you sad.
i said you hate me just to get you to tell me you love me  yet why do i keep 
making you cry and you die die inside.


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Help

In my room, nice and quiet.
Until footsteps from out the door.
Dad comes in all liquored up,
NOt like usual a little more.
The yelling starts,
the violence begins,
He tells me to get ready to pay for my sins.
Jolts me from the bed,
A stinging sensation across my face.
IN my mouth the blood i taste.
I fall the the floor with intense pain.
My dad screaming my name.
Pulls me by the hair,
I get out a scream as my shirt tears.
He slaps me again and tells me to shut up.
He leaves the room as I lay lifeless.
Then a thought crossed my mind
To get to the phone.
I crawled over
picked it up
And to my relief there was a tone.
He picks me up and throws me across the room
HItting the wall
The last thing i saw before i blacked out was my dad standing tall.
I awoke with doctors around me
saying i was badly injured
They told me my dad said i fell down the stairs, but i beg to reconcurre
I couldn't move that well
i hurt to badly
Couldnt talk
could barely walk
Dad comes in 
A different side of him from last night
Said lets go
but i didn't want to
Tried to talk
Useless
No doctors in sight
Walking out
couldn't stay
here it starts
here we go...


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the black dream

my head is speeding and full of bad thoughts
i cant concentrate i can only tell myself to not succeed in suicide
its to late its already started
all i hear is the moaning and groaning of people dyeing
im in over my head with all the stress
i only see black with a mirror of flames ahead
i cant put the pieces of my life together
im scared of my own mind and dont want to enter the danger zone
i cant escape the darkness no matter how hard i try
im still alive but fill like im dyeing a slow and painful death


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her name is Hannnah

I see you sweetheart
in pictures
in DREAMS
the best girl
in my world
I miss you 
you sassy little thang
I want you
and
your smell, smile, hair
Hannah Banana
it don't feel fair
your'e not knowing me
anymore
I love you sweet
your feet
your everything
I'm scared
the next time
I get to be with you
you'll hide
your beautiful face
and I'll be forgotten






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Lost In Sorrow

Lost In Sorrow
Drowing in black blood
searching for something 
but can not find

Lost In Sorrow
Drowing in black blood 
touching burning acid
burning thru skin and born

Lost In Sorrow


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Never Ending

theres a chair,
by the lonely window pane,
that rocks back and forth,
back and forth,
it squeaks with every move,
like a mouse with no home,
whimpering in agony,
of sadness,
in trouble,
wherever the mouse is,
always with a never ending sound;


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Tricked Emotions

My soul has been deteriorating
beneath the tattoo of life.
The stains have left behind
an antagonizing belief of love in my veins.
Pain is ripping at my skin,
tears are drying out my blood.
Fear is cloning a shadow
to trick my emotions,
to see an imprint of the smile I once had.
My cry is turning into
a seasonal habit of depression;
in the mind of the heart.


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a devotion

My head hangs heavy..

weary of whats gettin' ready

and will i grow or will i break

tell me this b4 its too late.

'cause i'd forget everything

if i knew it wouldn't come back to me

and i'd do anything 

to know you wouldn't go back to her.

these words just aren't my drama

they're my life

this love isn't a game

its a sacrifice.

and chasing a good thing

isn't worth even 1/2 of the hurt it brings

'cause i'm tired and out of breathe

and right now i don't have much left.

so I'll lay in the grass waiting

if you come participating

help me up and let me know

that you won't ever let me go.


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Dear Anne

I'm sleepy now, sloppy
wishing I was little more helpful
I feel bad for you 
and worse cause I can't  tell you what do
what to say
I'm really not the best person to be asking
givin my history of events
but let's not get into that
let's just 


go to bed


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The Flag

I see stars and stripes I tilt my head up high I see the flag that saved my life and I 
and thankful for my mind because i love the world and all the people who live 
here and love everyone else have a happy life with your American flag.Lets stop 
the wars.


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SALT LAKE

In my domain I am the child again
lost in labyrinth of stairways
unable to find my home.

A swarm of bees descends
gives anaphylactic shock
I am dead in my arms.

You carry a dead gorilla
on the makeshift scaffold,
somewhere a female was beating her chest.

Blood on the face of moon
my sobs will not stop
flowing in muddy streaks in pits of tattoos.

Eggs of blue bird were waiting
for the mother to come,
kids were on doormats.

It was always the salt lake.
No body was going to drown
wolves, sharks and men!



SATISH VERMA


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Minds Within

When I touch our minds within,
The insight to compassion reaches from pain.
We suffer with tender bodies,
with stricken knowledge that appeared gentle.
This love stands calm,
in all presence of the human readiness.
Our fretful nature,
rests toward the desire for laughter.
Yet mere infirmities invade that voice,
Such mankind mourns for loving hearts
Beyond those intellectual conclusions.
Much will comfort the bodily emotions.
The returned love,
leads to the power of our sensitive souls.
And the command of hate,
Depart our bodies.


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No Worries

I fell asleep in your arms with no worries,
I fell asleep listening to your heartbeat,
I fell asleep you your voice saying I Love You.
I woke up in your arms,
I woke up hearing your heartbeat,
I woke up to your voice.
Why can't it be that easy to
fall asleep to my eyes closing,
to my heartbeat,
to the music.
I fall asleep listening to the rain on the roof,
I fall asleep hearing the thunder clash,
I fall asleep to the sound of my cry.
My silent scream wakes me up in dead sweat,
my silent scream wakes me up in tears surrounding my pillow,
my silent scream wakes me up in worries.
I wish yesterday would come back,
so I can fall asleep in your arms;
with no worries.


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Ode to a Nut

Stacy Lynn I am
Temperamental at best
Useless bouts of anger
Venomous bites of duress 

I’m really not “that crazy”


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Abused...

How was I to know it would end this way?
No one told me that I'd lie  here, broken and bleeding.
All I did for you,
All I said was to please you,
All I wanted to be was what you wanted...
But you just cursed me, lied to me, used me, and beat me.
Now I lie here,
Woundering why...
MY blood is being drank by the greedy ground.
As you rip out me heart and spill the blood.
Once so full of love and hope,
It's now nothing.
Sitting, like a balloon thats lost it's breath,
My heart shrivels and dies,
My skin turns cold,
My limbs go numb,
Yet with my last breath, I forgive you.
For the things that you were hypnotized into doing to me,
No body cry over me, 
For I am now in my Father's arm's in Heaven.


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Justin

So many loud noises all around, 
Screaming, yelling, to put the gun down, 
as the tip of the gun reached your head, I cry out, take me instead, 
Thrown to the ground praying on the way down 
I lied there hopelessly knowing I can’t do anything to make it stop, 
when I watched your own brother slowly squeeze the trigger, 
I closed my eyes hoping that it was just a dream, 
The last thing I heard that night was the echo of the bullet that perced through the 
untouchable Justin 

So much blood so much pain, 
I crawled over to you wishing to hear you say everything was going to be ok, 
I put my head on your stomach feeling the last breathe leave your body, 
No more will you be there to talk to, 
No more will you be there to comfort me when times get rough, 
No more will you be there to make me laugh, 
I just wish I could take this all back. 

You were my best friend, my other half, 
People say we were inseparable, 
I guess they were wrong because now you are gone, 
Leaving me all alone, 
Lost and confused not knowing what to do, 
Things will never be the same without you, 
This empty space within me will never be filled, 
My spirits of hope, happiness, are killed. 


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Afraid no more

All my life,
Full of strife,
Stressed,
and Depressed.

My smile hidden from my fears
and covered by tears

You always treated me bad
And made me sad
But not today,
No longer trapped in my dismay

Today I'm gonna say how I feel
And now I can finally begin to heal

No more hiding my emotions
No more taking you rude notions
Deal with how I feel, like I did for you
And then you will know what it feels like too
What it feels like to not matter anymore
And then, you will find, that soon, you will be afraid no more


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A Fatefull Night

As I walked down the long dirt road
the thought of you set me aglow.
The sun smiled down, as 
I said your name then the tears
fell like rain.

I remembered on that fateful 
night things weren't good we had
a fight.  Insults screamed, hateful things
said, Then you stormed out and 
almost drove away, thou the stinging 
rain, I begged you to stay, 
and I heard your tires scream 
as you drove away.

I went to bed, and cried 
myself to sleep, praying, the lord
your soul to keep.  I was awakened 
by a shrieking bell, the telephone
ringing or maybe the doorbell.

I put on my robe and ran to the 
door, thanking God that he'd
kept you safe once more.

But when I opened the door, 
it was not you.  There before me 
stood a man in blue.  "I'm sorry", 
he said, to tell you this way,  your
true love is dead, nothing
else to say.

Now as the months 
pass into years, I still cry
a river of tears, mourning the 
loss of the love we had knowing
now it never could of been.


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Is It To Late For Us

I take this pain from you leaving
I take this hurt where you tore my heart apart
This part of me thats empty now
This love we shared thats disappeared
Not seen! Not heard!
Till this day I still pray for you to fill this empty hole
This love could mend the darkest sole
This love could free the damned from hell
please help relief this pain and hatred now!


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Accidents Happen

driving down the street jamming out to the beat 
not knowing what we were about to meet 
the next thing i knew i had fallen asleep 
waking up to the screeching of tires 
i pinched myself hoping it was just a bad dream 

as i feel something grab me pulling me to safety 
i look back and i see the complete opposite 
pain blood agony 
my friends my family nearing death 

the sound of sirens draw nearer and nearer 
carting one by one off to the hospital 
for hope that their lives can be saved 

sitting int he waiting room 
pondering why it wasnt me looking death in the eye 
why must i always be the one standing by 
why is it my hearts the one to cry 
too many times its me saing goodbye 

as the sun starts to rise 
i jet back home so my parents arent surprised 
jump in the shower getting ready as if nothing happened 
during the day my mask is put on the night is when it comes off 
forced to face reality of the horrifying accident that had just happened 

every breathe i take feels as though it is not worthy of being breathed 
what has happened to me 
why all the lies why all the pain 
where did the old me go 

day by day i wait anxiously for the latest news about my friends 
till finally the out come has arrived 
marcus will not survive 
after hearing the news my heart shattered into a million pieces 
how many more are going to be taken away 
where am i supose to go from here 

tear after tear 
my heart grows with more fear 
fear of loosing others fear to take off my mask and show the world i am hurting 
how can this be how can so many people die when it should be me 

the answer is it was an accident 
nothing can be changed about what has happened 
the cure is time 
and that is what i seem to have a whole lot of 


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THOSE LIFE'S TRUE HEROES

Love has been narrated in novels ,
set to music in songs and expressed in poems with various rhymes:
remembering its glories and lamenting its tragedies;
but this is the ode I've written for those true life's true heroes, 
not about someone I've loved and lost,
to cherish the miracle of every breath!
And many have laid down their lives,
so that I can live free and remember the battles they fiercely fought;
and who wouldn't shout, in gratefulness, to the blazing skies?


Brave ones resting in your decorated graves,
God won't forget you when another rainbow reflects
all the beautiful colors of your flags waving, at sun-down,
over the damp grass where the little daises are blooming;
and I have brought the same flowers 
that you liked to give to your darlings:
to thank you for your bravery on the incendiary fields...
thinking less of you and more of your countrymen! 


Dauntless ones, you gave up your precious lives
and gone to foreign lands to be vigilant and tough,  
to allow your children to live their dream
in the freest land that Humankind has ever known;
and how many envy what they hold in their palms?
They are as precious as glaring diamonds, 
and as beautiful as the brilliantly rising dawn;
and be sure that they will defend their freedom at any cost...
and fight for it by marching with grace and esteem! 


And how can an inspirited poet narrate all the great and sad events...
if not through the sincere voice of his heart-felt verses?
I will not invoke a muse, but a living God to inspire me;
and I won't add or take anything away for the sake of honesty!
Take heart, sorrowful writer and make the words flow with spontaneity;
honor those true life's heroes with your infallible intellect:
to eternally preserve their tenacious and noble memory...
when others repress it and lay it to an unguarded rest! 

     
Copyright 2008 by Andrew Crisci


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Untitled.....

Prerequisit

Springtime...

All the flowers~

Unsteady

so many sunflowers

I'm blooming

taking home......


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Memories of My Brother

My youngest one summer came and stayed with me
I was in the Navy stationed in Millington, TN
One day he was involved in a rock fight
A busted open head led him to the hospital that particular night
He asked me when they have to do stitches what do they use
I laughed and said a sewing machine, he wasn't amused
After a couple of weeks, his head healed up fine
To remove them would be sixty dollars to pay for the doctor's time
I told my brother I would be the doctor and do a house call
To my amazement I removed them all
I regret the day I sent him back home
He was pretty much all alone
He would give me a call always collect
Though the phone got high I would always accept
One evening, as I walked in the door, the phone rang and I said here goes the 
phone bill
But it wasn't  him, it was my brother Larry saying Wayne had just been killed
Wayne had decided to take Dad's pickup out for a joy ride
On an icy road, he lost control, hit a bridge support and smashing in the driver's 
side
His lifeless body was lying face down
In a ditch where he was found
The doctor said he suffered no pain
My brother Kenny found Wayne's ball cap, bloodying his hands, his nightmares 
still remain
To this day I carry the guilt about the bill when the phone rang
How much I miss my brother Wayne
My brother David is an emotionless guy
But at the wake he had to cry
Life has a way of taking its toll
Always try to look at the glass half full


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PRISON

Life in jail,
it's some thing hot,
and full of cry.

To escape it at all,
you have to praise the lord,
to over come death.

None likes it,
policemen and the  chiefs,
because it's harsh.

Life in jail,
it's really for cry,
learn and change.
Prison is death


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It's not the Worste

If things were so hard, I wouldn't be here.

If things weren't so hard they'd come at an
ease. 

You'd stand up with pride without yelling please. 

You'd sit at the table with food on your plate. 

and not on the streets with nothing but fate. 

So next time you think your life's is to burste, 
stand up and say someone else has it worse.


 


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imortality

living forever
seemed like a world to me
thinking that everyday
would be a adventure
never dying
always living
but its's not
im stuck on to one place
while everyone around me is dying
my loved ones grew old and passed aay
imortality
not as great as it seems 
the wrorls grows old as you stay the same
never able to experiance the wonders
that other people have
imortality


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OTHER GOD WAS SLEEPING

Time within the earth hour
was lengthening.
The other god was sleeping.

Becoming was inviting the death
while climbing.
Frostbite amputates the memory.

Ending without beginning,
I was asking the seeker to stop
searching the answers.

The houses were burning on the road,
silence, had a vertical sound,
no words, no tongue.

Death had tears of blood
riding on the horseback
it was charging on the wandering incense.

SATISH VERMA


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failing love

i'm single again 
he don't know why
everything was perfect 
until he made me cry

i thought he was a gift 
a gift from above
he cheated on me
and now we are failing love


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War

Anguish
Battlefields
Careless
Dying
Endless
Fighting
Guns
Heartbreak
Instant
Jokeless
Killing
Lifeless
Mankind
Nowhere
Orphans
Poison
Quarrel
Revenge
Sickness
Terrorism
Undergoing
Values
Why
X-treme
Young
Zone


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sadness

now im wishing i was dead i have no point in living  i only
make you sad why do i have to be this way  you say thier is
nothing rong  but i  know  thier is i made you hate me for every
thing i did  so good bye  ill leave because i cant live knowing you hate me
how can i live knowing that your sad you tried to hard to make me happy
but all i could do is get mad at you for no reason well now  
you hate me  thats my fault i guess i should leave befor
i hurt anyone else..this was all my falut all you were trying to 
do was be a good boyfriend while i was out being stupid and 
imture i guess its my time to say im sorry for every thing i did
and now im  wishing i never met you because you were more 
happy that way you cant tell me you weren't because your what you
say can prove it if i were you i would hate me too because  knowing what
i do every day how do you wake up happy when you know its gonna end...


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breaking up.

his/her eyes fade in the sun light,
   his/her heart beat doesn't seem right,
         they look as if they have lost this fight,
               seems he/she was another in their sight.
heart beaten,love struck,now just a sad ending,
    I watched as his/her world changed from the loving,
         to them it was love,and that is what he/she was wanting,
              now the pain in his/her heart beats as if it was never ending.
when a love story comes to an end,
     all that is left is a bitter broken friend,
         seems as if there heart never unbends,
               hunted by the love lost and its descend,
picking up the pieces of love gone wrong,
      not willing to move on just wanting to belong,
           playing it over and over like a sad love song,
                when your heart breaks it's hard to be strong.
as a friend you can't find the right words to say,
       you need to get over her/him start a new day,
            we all have been here the pain will go away,
                 love...we all want it, we're just not willing to pay.


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money

The separation of the world,
it's not at its own!
what makes it  wrong,
it's vividly  well known
from the bottom of our hearts.


Look  at  me,
i am a money  grubber
who killed my  son
to get rich  quick!

He  was my father whom 
i copied to  act  like   mad!
but   now  i'm  alone
looking  for  a child.

I  regret  my self  for  what  i did,
but  really  was bad in  the eyes of God,
and  the  world  at  large.

Nothing bad  in the world,
like  killing  your  friend
for  something  small,
you  can  get  any  time.

Oh!  nothing bad  like  money,
the  source  of evil and death,
and  nothing  good  like  it,
the  source  of  joy.

Money   like  love,
are  more  difficult  in  the  world
that  needs  us  all
to  be  patience  like  dogs
because they quitted laugh.









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BLIND WALLS

Icons of evolution and 
loud men made a circle 
of nihility, leaping high,
splashing the black perfume. 
Nicotine reclaimed ne plus ultra. 
Lurching thrusts reached nowhere. 
Dirty fingers held the prosperity.

The dialogue of root 
and earth started a nameless fire.
Hunger stunned the leaves, 
brutalized by unmanaged truths. 
The sting operated in dark. 
Let going the lights, 
phantoms were starving. 
I saw my face for the first time.

I accept my responsibility 
for closed drapes.
Doors were banging in terror 
and there were sparks on the roof. 
The blind walls squirmed. 
It was time for your roadmap 
to show the lines, 
sign the winds.


SATISH VERMA


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PATIO ROSES


The roses on my patio are in bloom but I fear they have a dease.
They were hers but shes gone now.
      Still they are so beautiful

It's the middle of May but it's still a gloomy day
Cupcake our dog lies in the grass I think she's lonely too.
     We don't eat.

The phone always rings in this hotel 
but they're only business calls
    I remember when

Tommorow is Sunday there'll be vistors
people talking and laughing
    We only watch.

I lost something awhile ago here in this place
I want it back
     Nothing is right.

I know a girl, we talk on the phone
when I see her it's threw a glass
    It's safer that way.

This house was made with stone but it was built in sand
grain by grain it slipped away
    I need to heal my roses.


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Destination Unknown

Roaming down the highway
Solely finding his way
Treading painful memories
Using them for another day

Is he really alone?


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fellings for you

love,hope,and fear all the felling i feel tords you i love you for ever
i hope we can be together  forever and i fear what will happen next.i  love for who 
you are.
hope thats you love me for who i am now.fear of you dumping me.love,hope,and 
fear.happy,sad,or mad...
you always make me happy when im with you .im sad when your gone i fell so 
alone.
i get so mad at what you say so easily.i like im the happiest person you will ever 
know
because im dating you.people get sad thier not dating you as i am.lots of people 
get mad at you for some stupid things  you do   but they dont know the ways i feel 
about you.


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Don't know

You fall, not knowing where it ends, and which way should you follow, your path has 
no end, and it doesn't know where it begins, you've tasted the sweat of all the 
tears you cried, and you felt the pain of a man's lie, but still your feelings are 
completely empty inside. But there you go leaving his love behind, letting your past 
frequence go, and if he asks you where are you going, thats the thing... you don't 
know


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Lonely

I used to be filled with life. Happiness and strife. All of this has passed me by. 
I cannot even let out a sigh. Only to be lonely and cold. I've lost my faith Im not 
as bold. I need some one to guide my back. Get me away from these brutal attacks. I 
only wish I was not alone. To be brought back to life from this concrete stone. My 
life was stolen from me. I will run away to the wild sea. I sneak out without a 
Sound. I wake up on the cold hard ground. My body aches from the torture. I can 
only see is a portrait of her. My mother my saint. This women fought to protect me 
from you. I speak "why did you kill her?" You reply "She was just like you! A 
useless women!" I cry to God to help me now "Please take me away from this world!
I don't want to be lonely anymore. I wont take the beatings once more! I will break 
free from these chains! I want my life back! Give me it now..." As i slowly fade 
from the world. I can a voice call to me. It sounds like an angel. NOw all is 
quite. I am not alone anymore. You have brought me back to her. Thank you God. I am 
finally at peace. While the devil sits in a lonely cell. I am with my angel my 
mother. While he sits in ...


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Dear mom

Dear mom,

 I'm sorry about the letter I'm writing you, but I've done all I can and there is no more
I can do,
 You see it's your daughter she lost her kids, or should I say she chose another over them
thats what she did,
 Mom I'm sad for the way this all turned out, these kids are so messed up because of her 
you know what  I'm talking about,
 There's no family members to take them all in, and I think it's so sad that they pay for
there mom's sins,
  Mom I believed she would get better, do the right thing, but you know her she wants to
do it her way that sad old song she sings,
 I'm glad your not here to see them go, mom as bad as they are where ever they wined up
I'm sure a better life they will know.
 It just hurts to say goodbye, all eight of them didn't deserve the life she gave them are
deserve the tears they cry,
 I just hope and pray you watch over them, they will need all the love you can send,
You know I did all I could right , and you know and see how  my own kids are doing in this
fight,
  Mom like you did her whole life, watch over your daughter and try to help her the rest
of her life,
 for a mother without her kids is what she'll be, and just like them the bright side she
will not see,
 they will all be better off, a home, hope, and a chance just to be, some thing she never
gave them that something you gave me,
 So in closing I'm sad to say, mom I'm sorry it ended this way,

                                                               Love your son,

  
 p.s. I hope up there you get this letter, and your having fun.


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Why Must You

Why must you put me on this tight rope/
Why must you stay at my throat/
Why must you bring me all this bad news/
Why must you think I’m coming forward  as a fluke/


Why must you take my son away/
Why must you run away/
Why must you bring me all this hurt/
Why must you treat me like dirt/

Why must you make it like I slit your throat/
One thing you got to realize I was there to help you maintain and cope/
So why, why, why must you stay at my throat.


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Forgotten Son

Forgotten Son

Waiting for you in the darkness
Concealed within your womb, I waited
Not knowing which way is up and which is down
I reach out into the darkness hoping to be found....

But as always you were not there,
Not there or anywhere I needed you.
Not ever, no never were you there
Never did you care.

Now my eyes are open, I see you
Not much to look at, I see you
Hiding behind your lies, I see you
Now that I don’t need you, I see you
With open eyes and a closed fist, I see you!










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Miles Away

I can hear the wind speak to me
oh you why did you come here
you knew it was all to goood to be true
you knew tha this love was not true or
so you thought it was
Now you know its not 
And your broke with no place to go 
miles away from home


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ABOUT YOU

Walking to the park alone in my head
all of my thoughts are ABOUT YOU
In a cold dark room a warm smile awakens 
I love the dreams I have ABOUT YOU 
My heart is racing, its one hell of a rush
to feel the way I do ABOUT YOU 
I can see in your eyes your a force not to be tamed
that drives me wild ABOUT YOU
If not for these shackles I would scream aloud 
so everyone would know how I feel ABOUT YOU
You mean the world to me so know this now,
I would never change one thing ABOUT YOU


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INJECTED AND REJECTED

She taught me well my woman of all those years. trust loyality and respect
are now being injected threw the eye of a needle filled with deceipt,
all of which are designed to manipulate and controll.

Seemingly I now stand alone in a cloud of misdirection. Old familur paths lead 
only back to where I stand now. There are some who have reached out to me
and I have taken their hand but I soon let go
for I am unsure and I stand alone.

What was once a dream come true turned into a nightmare of a lifetime.
Answers once obtainable now escape me and awaken in silent screams
I am detached.

Love honer and respect seem nothing more than contrived distortions of truth.
As i mark the time within my mind
I am now a stranger in this land.


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Bryan Knight

I love you so much
from the day that we first met.
That's a memory
ill never forget.
we talked and talked 
a lot on the phone.
my thoughts of you
i was never alone.
we lived so close 
just down the street.
my love for you 
can never be beat.

you moved away 
so far from me.
i miss you so much 
as you can see.
i searched and searched 
for many years.
and when i found you
i had these fears.
i didn't know 
if you still loved me.
i didn't know
if you still cared.
i didn't know 
if you still felt the same.

in my world i'm lost.
i don't know who's to blame.
i want you back in my arms
but you say no.
i shed my many tears.
i always knew i had these fears.
we\\\'re still friends 
so things are ok,
but ill love you forever,
more and more each day.

we talk a lot now
even more than before.
my heart still aches
and its still sore.
but i still love you 
more than you'll ever know.
my feelings for you will never go.
till the day i die 
ill be hear for you.
my love for you was ever so true.

You'll be in my heart
even though were far apart.
my thoughts of our past
always makes me cry.
but to you ill never 
say good-bye.

your in my life 
but just as friends.
i think of you often
even when the day ends.
I'm so happy your hear again.
over the phone 
it'll never end.
we keep in touch
we talk ever night.
ill be here for you
even when you think i'm gone.

ill never for get you 
Bryan knight.
you were my one and only love! 

i love you now forever and always!


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Freedom of God

Since you passed away,
a hole in my heart will forever stay.
There's nothing more to ask or say,
but, Why did God take you away?
Sometimes I have to cry,
because I never got the chance to say goodbye.
Many, many days go by,
I can't help but wonder why
God let me have you for such
a short length of tiime.
Though your sister and I cried,
because we wished you were by our side.
Though we have great pride,
because of the memories of good times inside.


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The Human condition


Love those in need of care
Fill the hungry with food
Coddle the orphan with loads to bare
Believe in the misunderstood

Help the weak to fend for themselves
Help those without cause to believe
Excite the poor with prospects of wealth
Learn from the wise, teach what you conceive

Direct the blind who cannot see
Provide the cold with hope & heat
Release the caged, set them free
Salute those who admit defeat

Accept what’s written in the stars
Believe in fate and destiny
Bring peace to those at constant war
Shelter the scared, show sympathy

Live morals, grace and capability
Have faith in the human entity

Profit from the song I was born to sing
Promise the poet his dreams
Wolves in sheep’s clothing lingering
Not everything is what it seems.


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Crying Over Spilt Milk

Amongst the finest silk.
Beginning to spill is the milk.
Caressing the very fabric.
Disgracing the very cosmic.
Enjoying the destruction.
Fraying the very eruption.
Grave driven is the rage.
Harboring the scent of sage.
Indignant excuse.
Jester the abuse.
Killing the very soul.
Losing all of your control.
Milk runs and brands.
Open container saves the other strands.
Purpose unknown.
Questing the very moan.
Rendering the very cloth.
Sending the sloth.
Tending to the mess.
Usually they like to make it less.
Venders selling gothic souvenirs.
Wading to the very fears.
Xerox everything in sight
Yours to destroy and fight
Zeroing in on the very game of playing the average.


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Remember Me

Remember Me! 

I Have seen the light, and been granted the key to Heaven.
God will not push or pull me , yet he will embrace me with open arms.

My world of bright by day, and Dark by night has kept behind my loving ways.

Quote me on this for this is what I have to say 

Please don't mourn me, instead celebrate my life, and remember me as I was.

"Forget me not I say"

But remember this forever, and always.
Now I'm with God in the kingdom of heaven, to help watch over you, and guide 
you and your family threw your future days.
Remember Me!


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Caramel Water

A young girl
Blossom From the Concrete
A rose
Her Pretty Curls
Fallen from the streets
I suppose
Taken by a loved stranger
Her most prized possession
Her family doesn't since danger
She hides his confession
Should she forgive him even though he deceived her
Or should she tell the the secret and have nobody believe her
She decides to silence herself but til this day it haunts her
She thought moving would help but in her dreams  he taunts her
Maybe it was a good thing that she kept his darkest secret
But she has a goal and she's not afraid to reach it


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A Different Turn

     Looking back, I wish I could change things that I have done wrong, Then if I 
did, I'd open my eyes in the morning to the sound of a different song,                        
Sometimes  I wish I could have tooken a different turn, Then If I did, I'd wish it 
was the other way around, Though if I took no turn at all, I'd be headed back to 
town, Sometimes I wish I could take back the things that I have said, Through my 
mistakes I have learned to repent, For I have done my share of crimes, Though if 
I did not learn from my mistakes, two nickels would not equal a dime,                      
When all is said, When all is done we can not change the past, Though we can 
set our minds to remember good memories that come to pass, Without 
memories we are not able to tie notts in a rope, That help us pull in the ryes of 
love that feel us full of 
hope                                                                                                              Lana


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this house

this house i live in why am i here?

these people i live with the people i fear.

these people dont care for me they bring me tears.

these people say they care though but his im not aware.

these people make me cry but they dont stop to think why.

they dont even try to feel the way i feel inside.

sometimes i think i should go bye bye.

away from here away from the fear away from the pain that cause me strain but

only in vain.

i dont deserve this the way i been treated.

they hurt me so much they dont even see it.

sometime i want to die. they dont stop to ask why.

then all the sudden i begain to cry.


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"Story of Old"

I arose to the sun beating on my face
Stretching out all the aches and pains
Rubbing out the old stale tears from all the yesterdays
Whipping the sweat of all the left over strength from my pale brow
Sitting up, ignoring the pits that bellow beneath my stomach blue
Lazily peeling the strand of hair that seemed to hug the side of my lip
My lips chapped with defeat and thirsty for just a splash of elegant water
Standing up, fighting off the sleepy tingles that creep up the center of my spine
Wishing for those few and far between extra minutes that bend my dreams in half
A brand new day, awake and still dreaming
Walking desperately to the room that hides my flaws
Until I glance effortlessly and unwillingly in the mirror that stares back at me
Almost stalking me with its lustful glare
It is I whom eyeballs that once folded smile
I am beautiful in fact-beautiful in part-beautiful instead of dead wonder and 
amazement.
To the cracking sound of the rays pushing through the clouds
Like thunder that breaks my heart in two
That secret warm wind finds its way to dance in and out of my hair, and my life.
A long deep breath, oh that somber crispness that invades all privacy
Again peering back at…me. Yellow my teeth have aged and stained
For one brief second remembering that piercing pain of my very first and young 
tooth
Adolescence lost
I am old with love, old with hate, and old with excellence.
Aged to a fine wine, and bitter with the taste of passion
My skin, like leather; Tough to break, but has the snap of a whip
Thoughts fade in and out, like a wave meeting the shore, it slithers back lost in 
sand
Lost in time, an hour has past and still not dressed
Those lingering hints of cheap perfume mixed with 20 years of sex that sleeps 
within my sheets, with me, under me, and over.
I smile at the creases and pruned wrinkles that have invaded my once virgin 
mouth
Only if I could peel this shell, this facade that I've hidden behind,or have grown 
into.
That silver, shinny and brilliant with the essence of once a deep chocolate brown
Heavy are those lids that seem to hang beneath my once glamorous lashes, and 
accented with a miserable gray tint
It’s ok…I've grown, with that tree outside my door; my leaves too are wilting.
Falling with only the beauty of a million laughs and tears
Throughout those years I've left behind, but reminisce and savor.


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Why Can't This Stop?

The fighing,the yelling

The cheating of the hurting

Of the poeple that cares?

Why can't this stop?

When We say we're sorry yet it's

only going to fly right back in

Our faces as you don't care.

Why can't this stop?

Why is there drama when

We don't need it,yet it's there why?

Why can't this stop?

Why is there war in our

Life,as we don't need it in our lifes

Why can't this stop?

The pain that we get from

sadness from the scars of

our pain from drama in our lifes

Why can't this stop?

why is there to much in our life

as we don't need it.

Why can't we only have peace in our

life?

Why can't this stop?

With the turning of the world

as we change.

copy right

by

Amber strong-gilreath


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my hurt

never say i love you
if you really don't care
never talk about feelings
if they aren't really there
never hold my hand
if your going to break my heart
never say you were going to 
if you don't plan to start
never look into my eyes
if all you do is lie
never say hi
if you really mean goodbye
if you really mean forever
then say you will try
never say forever
cause forever Makes me cry


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forever

Don't tell me not to cry
please don't say there was a reason why
you don't know what i am feeling
or how much i hurt
the wet spots are tears on the collar of this shirt
you think i should go on with life
forget  about it and be strong
but deep down i am sad and i don't want to go along
i don't expect you to understand why
for no apparent reason i break down and start to cry
my life has changed forever, you see 
i will never be the same again
not today, not tomorrow, but never
the best thing you can do is be there 
just like always, my friend
my broken heart is hurting bad
and it will never mend


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"I ALWAYS THOUGHT I'D SEE YOU AGAIN".

No, I'm not making that promise again nothing can change my mind nothing at 
all, cause LOVE has a way of coming undone until I'm all alone with my Heart, 
the pain's all here to stay.

"I ALWAYS THOUGHT I'D SEE YOU AGAIN", how it hurts everytime you've crossed 
my Heart since then, gotta give it all it takes to hold what might have been, and "I 
ALWAYS THOUGHT I'D SEE YOU AGAIN".

Now there's no need to run to the phone, no need to hold your breath hoping it's 
you, each time I see someone we used to know, or go some place we used to 
go, it's not the same.

"I ALWAYS THOUGHT I'D SEE YOU AGAIN", how it hurts everytime you've crossed 
my Heart since then, gotta give it all it takes to hold what might have been, and "I 
ALWAYS THOUGHT I'D SEE YOU AGAIN".

LOVE doesn't come when you need LOVE it's no always there when you fall, try 
as you may you've got nothing to say, nothing at all.

"I ALWAYS THOUGHT I'D SEE YOU AGAIN", how it hurts everytime you've crossed 
my Heart since then, gotta give it all it takes to hold what might have been, and "I 
ALWAYS THOGUGHT I'D SEE YOU AGAIN", I realized now that "I'M NOT ALWAYS 
GONNA SEE YOU AGAIN'.                              THE END