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Laying Here

Laying here ...
On the grass 
Its such a peaceful night 
Laying here ...
Slowly I inhale, exhale, 
Look at all the beautiful diamonds 
in the sky
I soon begin to visualize
Your perfect face, 
your perfect smile
My mind quickly begins to 
To the days when we were so 
much more than Once upon a 

I have but one regret in life 
I let insecurities dictate how I 
walked the line
Hand in hand 
with ignorance and pride
So many feelings I held inside
The love of my life, I self 

If only I had told you a long time 
Your name is written on my 
Your silhouette imprinted within 
my soul
Maybe you would have never closed your door 
                  on me ....
              I cant get in..... 

He has changed the lock
And now she holds the key. 

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My face is distorted
Is my real face even showing?
I don't know if I'm experiencing my true feelings
My love is true is yours?
I demand you and you shut the door in my face repeatedly 
We have many years together and yet we have nothing

Our children see the real you 
The real person I  have seen since day one
I can't believe you let your love for society get in the way of my innocents
How dare you? 
I have to be everything to them and it's not fair to them 
They will grow up knowing I was the only consistency in their wee lives

Where is the outline for me?
Do you hear my screams? What about the silent ones?
I go without so much because my wee little ones need more than I 
What do you go without?

I look in the mirror at myself
Who is looking back at me?
Is this really me? Is this really my life? 

I stood by you through so much
The things you did the things you said to me
You have hurt me like no other has and yet I'm still here are you?
Emotionally I'm not here, My heart stays here, But I can't figure out where my mind is
Or where it all belongs? 
I'm so torn, so broken, so numb 
I guess I'm just going to be distorted for the rest of my time with you
I promised I would love you through everything and I have but where is the outline?

I don't see the real me and haven't in a long time thanks to you
I don't even do my hobbies anymore I just sit and watch the world as I call life pass by
Why do you want our wee little innocents to see this? what would posses you to?
If I broke my promise would I be submitted to the pits for enternity? 
I gained so much and yet I lost more much 
You hurt me with life itself and nothing but fear 
Can you honestly tell me what have you lost you entire life?

It feels like a band-aid  that I just can't take off no matter how I rip it off
Do I wear a mask over me? Does anyone see the real me anymore?
I hurt so much with you but yet I loved you for so long 
I can't accept your I'm sorry pity excuses anymore 
Is my face nothing to you? Does it mean nothing to you?

My heart feels so much anger, depression, emotions of not being wanted
Do you or have you ever felt this way?
I don't know what to believe in anymore
I feel like paper and I'm being torn into a million pieces 
Or what if you are putting me through a paper shredder?
Is the real me even showing?
I'm distorted

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A Shady Tree

I know its the summer time because of how naturally 
Your beauty compliments the caress of a summer breeze
As I watch the world from beneath a shady tree
I take in the delightful comfort of everything I see
But in the same breath I am holding up my hands
Lord will you please give me back the things I no longer have
They are even more a part of me now that they are gone 
As the sun falls below where the horizon is still holding on
Somewhere between the falling light and a star lit night
Is a dream that last forever and will never say goodbye
As the wind gently blows through the brush and shakes the leaves
It begins to hum a melody that I want to sing
At that very moment I smile for all the joy I have
Its so uplifting for me to see melancholy dance
Soon the morning sun will rise and capture my eyes
As I watch the hand of God paint a brand new sky
With every stroke of color I swallow all my pride
And I find a new place to dream of endless times
If I should ever get to the place I left my broken heart
Only then will I believe this brand new day will start
Again Im reminded of why my heart beats so restlessly
Only the speed of thought and my soul beneath this tree

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I Lost My Green Card

The immigration is coming for me 
I live in a two bedroom house with eight other families 
We will be deported, this process includes a meal, so our stomachs will be full 
I dream at night for beans, rice and burritos 
I cook my burritos in fat, heavy lard 
I check my pockets, now I'm worried, I think I lost my green card 
I have gas and burps because of the food 
I want to make bambinos, but the senora is not in the mood 
She's not ready, she says I'm pushing too hard 
Now she's mad, flushes my wallet down the toilet, there goes my green card 
Now rice and beans will be my meals three times a day 
The immigration is the predator and I'm the prey 
I sneak through a hole in the fence 
This shows the border patrol is incompetent 
I am again caught and sent back across the border 
I will miss the reruns of Law and Order 
Sam Waterson can't win a case, what a retard 
This all goes back to when I lost my green card

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Push Up

i could sit here. day in and day out
thinking of the most proper way
to let the ink in the pen spill out
but as of late im feeling prehistoric 
so much weight on my shoulders 
and i dont know where to go
resuscitate my soul
look back up and head to the goal

so much evil around. i feel like the devils workin double shifts just to bring me down.
on the road to redemption
you can take a seat up in the front section
just so you can feel the emotions
in this electric notion

i've done a lot of things that hide the halo
let it all collaborate when i medicate 
now look at me, mind workin like plato
formulate a new path to take so i can
maneuver through all the mistakes 
we all know we cant change what we've already made
but we can change the next thing we create
startin to sound like a serenity prayer
5 steps till im thirty
and the twenty four before i was never a player
found out when the lights came back on im strictly a lover
its the strongest drink for your soul, when its thirsty
so careful how much you intake or be left hungover
even worse be the one she ran over

i dont mean to come off like im too deep
but the obstacles made there way through just to scrape through
and leave me suffocating
just for me to re-invent a new way to breathe, re-decorating

is your life so complicated 
you rather wet up your pillows and revoke from the life you live
just think of your kids mourning 
theyll never see that pretty face in the morning any more
cheer your self up
you got a lot to live for
your a gem and im that friend
trynna appraise the value 
that you dont see inside of you

just another day for him
goin about
searchin wonderin what his purpose is
running in circles 
till he found a way through all the turbulence

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Here in the middle of the nothing I'm lost, I've wanted every single thing for me, i
wanted something better, but i just noticed that i already had every singel thing i
wanted, every single thing i needed, now i'm sailing alone looking for that thing i've
lost and now i need, i've lost something the biggest chest wouldn't hold, the money
wouldn't buy, i've lost you my heart.

to: ashton, the girl i miss so much

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Women- The Road Familiar

Refreshing feel of identifying with music in my life,

The mother’s voice still echoes sweet in all life’s strife’s.

She taught me to walk, run, dance and sing,

My mother still stands strong in love and vigor in my life.


Kindergarten, the start of knowledge in life,

Where Mini, Lakshmy, Susan, Shoba and Meera,

Still shines as star's in my day- to-day life,

Keeping those  memories and blooming together.


School days, are times that stays vivid in mind,

Friends that evoked passions  of love still impress,

Susan Bindu, Jaya, Brinda, and Manju remained firm,

Even when life made new meanings,connections endured.


College saw, mixed platter, though women who stayed in unit

More in day- to-day life in Bindu, Geeta, Asha, Raji and Vinith,

Patterns of Lost love, admiration's, hero worship,list stands long,

However, for me it was a distressing lullaby of hearts .


Life showed me, women stand strong above all

As I carry endless power of strength, mind and heart,

when I  finds myself and knows where I remain in life!

So I  stand tall and represent myself as women.


Love never lost its footprints along the line,

I am a woman in Love,being loved  and cherished

I knows deep in my heart  that i  am contend,

Hearts grew deep in love, known love  and in Love.


I knew it right from the start, a moms heart

Holding my finger tight, I cradle you in my arms

Your smile and showed all your charms.

Heavens showered me the "Mom', role in prologue.

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In your memory

Thank you for the beautiful memory
you left on my mind
you are not dead
 but you are not here,

to me you are gone,
cos i cant feel you the way i used to,
everything you used to do are left untouched
the space you ocupied is empty,

our yesterday is fading away like the rainbow
so beautiful but so short,
how can i forget the endless yesterday?
when you are here with me.

in loving memory of my sister (you are not an angel but you did what an angel can do,you fly to heaven.)

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Worthless Wealth

You lived the next door,
 For years I can't name,
But every morning we met,
I loved you incredibly more,
Until my love wealth grew
Enormously great,
Which I kept in secret,
Then you left,
The same,
 As you came,
I never knew,
Ah,  my worthless wealth;
In good health,
I never spent 
A penny of it.

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We recite a pool of unspoken words,
swirling around as our paths meet,
wishing they would reach your ears,
of what that's buried heavy in me.

Never will I ever get the courage,
to look through in thy windows,
as my world comes to a halt,
the moment your presence nears.

Mysterious as it may appear,
till this day no clue or whatsoever,
its hard to take my step aback now,
as I didn't leave any trace ever.

Vision that plays the role well,
could only engulf you from far,
in this endless game of passion,
I have nothing but all those seconds.

The burden that hangs in me,
leaves an unbearable pain all day,
no matter how i advice myself,
my heart always ends up in dismay.

The spell that have upon me,
may be gone one merry day,
but the memories that lived in me,
fail it may never to haunt me.

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purple clouds

purple clouds, lost in shrouds, my life is about, the quiets and louds. i wonder what, the clouds are like, they turn purple, im riding a bike. why are they purple? god only knows, they grow deeper, my curiosity grows. purple clouds, lost in sight, life goes on, and i still have to fight. if its not, illusionated, the milk is sour, and the cheese is grated. to live on a farm, with purple clouds, my soul is gone, and im lost in shrouds.

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                                                          I try to find the easiest
                                                             way not to cry,
                                                               but tears falls
                                                        even when i am laughing
                                                             and you cant tell
                                                                that i am hurt
                                                                because i am

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Pinkie Swear II

A boy can drop everything for girls, his initial joy,
kissing lips, most now only playing, quickly run, 
some take upsets very weakly except you, Zebulon.
T he little boy always brought his toy truck
H e had many kinds of toy trucks to share
E very day she would come to the park

B ringing her dollies with their golden hair
I n the age of pureness of five and four
R easoning of nannies who watch this pair
D oes not include what children talk about
S o they sit and read, daydream and stare

A chance to catch forty and not get caught
N odding and squinting and feigning the glare
D ozing off longer and longer each time

T wo bright young angels playing “double dare” 
H e with nothing on but his birthday suit
E ven she with just a bow in her hair

B eing “mommy and daddy” from their eyes
E very secret act done with pinkie swear
S uch pureness when lost can never return
Languishing lurid lives from lost innocence
is not a good thing for grown guys and gals.
Peer pressure pushes the inner conscience,
it curbs, questions, considers and corrals.
Some likely live licentious independence,
others stop, sort out, apply tenets of morals.

© Jul 2011 for Deb Guzzi’s contest.  

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Nothing Really Matters

when rob stepped out of the courthouse,with charges for posession
he thought "it could be worse,it could have been for weapons"
and then he thought..."nothing really matters anyway"
when liz stepped of of the rehab,with a new outlook on life
she felt all those same feelings of hurt, pain, and strife
and then she thought "nothing really matters anyway"
when luke picked up his young son from daycare,and knew he had an hour
he thought back to the time he WOULD have stopped to grab his now EX-wife some flowers
and then he thought "nothing really matters anyway"
when lisa lifted up her body with nothing but her arms,and looked down at her legs
she wondered why the heck they were even THERE anyway..what for?
and then she thought "nothing really matters anyway"
all four people that same night,all in their own homes
picked up a remote,turned on the news and watched it come to blows
one man had done 25 years in jail,for something he had not really done
one woman lost the battle to addiction,one she thought she'd already won
one boy got hit by a car on his bike,he just only 5 his parents,divorced
one man lost his arms and legs while over fighting the war
four different people,four different lives,four different struggles,all about to cry
four different souls,four different heart,four different minds,all to have a fresh start
why does it take a reality check to pull us into gear?
why is it that reality sometimes must be our greatest fear?
the next time you think you're the only one who hurts and has plight
the next time you feel you're all alone,the only one who cries at night
try and remember,try not to forget,that you are never alone
whether you're telling your mom and dad your gay to the face or over the phone
whether your wife divorced you,your husband's a dog,or your kids have NO respect
you are human,deserve more,and you're not alone,cause' there is someone right next....
to you!!! nothing really matters. until you realize...nothing really matters.

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Love Beneath Autumn Sky

We lay beneath autumn trees
And autumn leave gently falls.
Laying beside you I'm lost in your eyes,
I'm lost in the presence of you
And autumn leaves gently falls.

We lay there and autumn breeze blow.
Would I trade this moment, no, no.
The rose in your hair is white like winter snow,
beauty lies before my eyes and sparkles glow,
And autumn breeze gently blow.

We lay beneath autumn trees,
We lay in love of autumn breeze.
We lay together in each other eyes,
We lay beneath the season of autumn sky.

Autumn breeze blow and leaves of autumn trees fell,
Staring in your eyes I see the unspoken love for me it tells. 
Autumn leave, red, brown, yellow,
in autumn wind they rattle a love symphony of being hallow.

Small rays of sunlight,
between autumn trees had you glow.
And as we lay together beneath autumn trees,
softly in our love we watch a autumn day goes.

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Unrequited Love

Unrequited Love 
I want to be with you
Your smile makes my soul rejoice
Every time were apart I forget how to breathe
You are a part of my existence
But I’m me
I never have the right words to say
so when every your away
I think to my self
What if ?
What if I was better with words
What if I stood out?
What if I was gifted with a special talent
Would she notice me?
I am hopelessly lost in this feeling
And I don’t know what to do
My first unrequited love

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Hidden Treasure - Now Revealed

I lost my treasure, when I was betrayed
Was left with empty hand when I used to gaze
Life was dusty , misty and crusty,
Breaks were many , cracks went rusty

Treasure was lost by a man who was a fraud
I gave my life , my cares and my mind'
Like a serpent he lived and captured every byte
Lost my money , life and soul
Completely crushed and left with empty bowl

Lord received me then,when all left me in Hell
I looked to the cross , repented with pains & fast
How graciously LORD picked me
Embraced me and filled me
Though my treasure was lost 
Still LORD helped with no cost
He consoled me when I was elapsed

All my life's freckles were vanished
And I was left with no Blemish
Jesus died for me -- Cleansed me so I could see
Righteousness I learned , for JESUS love I earned
Transformed my life -- Be righteous what HE guides
I got my lost things back 
With money , fame and treasure full bag
With HIS love and blessings --He replaced my dead cracks

Revealed the meaning of Treasure ---
Meticulously HE blessed me with double measures
HIS wisdom, understanding and care
HIS blood , Eternal life and A name in Heaven
New creation , New Soul and New life HE gives
This is the treasure I see and I live

This is my treasure for rare can get
HIS blessings are awesome , For in heaven I'll rest
Seeing my treasure nothing can be measured

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The Letter S

I can use the letter s with so many s words, 
I am the seventh sign supreme soldier from the reservation suburbs, 
I fly like seagull in the open ocean sky supreme like an serpant eagle eating birds,
 I am so solid Im siked and sipped up from the sizzy sizzurp, 
I stagger until I swerve swiftly as snake in the souless society lost curbs, 
life so crooked it stained with soaked blood life around death curves, 
I cant believe so many lost soveriegn souls *****on they own siblings as the culture turns,
 I know I am sure of being sure of what I sought to learn, 
The brain with suicide can sometimes burn. 

Souless savage in society I be among little certain satans, lost in circles saying "7th Sign Empire Engraving"like my own still souls of savage culture on certain colors discriminating,
 But whats even worse is soul on souls hating, 
Society severed in broken circles still forsaken, 
Serpants searching society split in seven different groups of seven hundred seventy-two,
 Forsake my Se7en and I forsake thee seven times seven fold because truth be said Im souless to you,
 Se7enth Sign Supreme Solid Serene Soldier of of the sacred seven, 
I say I have always said society on my word S

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I Will Never See Them Again

“Abide with me . . . , as the darkness deepens,
When earth’s joy grows dim . . . , its glory passes away,
Through darkness and sunshine . . . , oh, abide with me!” 
Repeatedly invoking the grace of God to wash away pains and sorrows,
And also harmonizing in the background with the force that illuminated
The nighty skies echoed this hymn, sounds of instruments and drums!
I will never see those slain guardians of law again,
To share those precious moments,
Like we used to do in the living years!

In that sweltering evening atmosphere,
Police officers in uniform had to hold back tears while saluting,
When widowed spouses, children, colleagues
And parents of police officers laid wreaths to honour
Their loved ones who laid down their lives protecting ours,
In honour of their call to serve and protect us.
I will never see them again,
To share those precious moments,
Like we always used to do in the living years!

Four South African Police Service helicopters carrying the National Flags,
Hovered above the Union Building, as the Police Code of Conduct,
Was acknowledged by the Minister of Police, a sign of
Selflessness of the police officers, who died on line of duty,
And a pledge by all who live on (a norm in the South African Police Services!)
But how much longer do we have to see these guardians of law murdered this way?
I will never see them again,
To share those precious moments
Like we used to do in the living years!

As the flag was flown at half-mast at the Union Building 
All stood up motionless, their eyes directed at the flag,
Amid the deafening silence of the evening atmosphere,
Some sighed, sounds of grief audible, tears oozed
From some of the friends, family members and colleagues,
Thinking of hardships of living without their loved ones.
I will never see them again,
To share those precious moments
Like we used to do in the living years!

Mixed emotions were invoked as friends and family members
Of the deceased were finally walked the red carpet,
In honour and respect, as others` bright shining pride
Lit up the Union Building, others sobbed with great grief,
Despair and deep sorrow during this moving ceremony,
The South African Police Service Commemoration day!
I will never see them again,
To share those precious moments
Like we always used to do in the living years!

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Midnight Skies

Midnight Cries In midnight skies the cries of love drift off to sleep in endless love. For he who heard them. Sent them hope, that God created a world for them. For us to see and bare good times. For no more hurt and devishlish crimes. For the earth which once was good. Is soured and torn. There are no morals or dreams no more. Or hope of good things when suffering soars. For they are crushed by his vast sword. For he who has the greater sin. He has carried and been burdened with. He has been forgotten. In times like these. Because people hearts bleed with disease. For they have burdened him with more sin. They have forgotten the pain he is in. For he so carried his cross with pride. A younge man who was destined to die. No matter what the world does think. This man did live before we did. We have lost our way in darkened times. Like lost sheep we have roamed, away from him. If youd only listen and help to carry his cross. Take the blame for things done past. Change our ways for hope to last. We wont do that out of pride. When he is denied. I feel for him. I pick his cross up and help him off the ground. For he is my brother. Who I have found. He has carried that cross. No man deserved his life in such a lose. Tormented and torturded to no extent. He didnt look like a mere man in the end. He coutinued to stand even after he fell. Showing me the strength of Heaven and hell. For a man so strong, so bold and kind. Showed me what we can do as man kind. He gave his life for everyone who reads this. For those who can not see. Do not be blind Find this man, for he needs you. He gave his life to save you. With your help, you raise his cross. You heal that burden of love. That has been lost. Ease his pain and find your way. For Heaven is a start and hell is a step away.

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                                                 LIFE is a game.
                                                 We are the players there.
                                                 Whether if we WIN or LOSE,
                                                 We are the part of the game.
                                                 Be proud of it.

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I Can't Believe It's Really Over This Time

I really hate this feeling, sometimes I wish I could stop breathing. I don't wanna try, just leave me here to die. You were the thing that made my life living for, but your no longer mine anymore. I feel so much pain, sometimes I believe I'm going insane. I'm missing what we had, although it was bad. I'm always walking down memory lane, why can't you see my pain? I know people change, &&' things get strange. I guess I gotta face it, she's my new replacment. I can't believe it's really over this time, I feel as if i have commited a crime. I live in a world of sorrow, so I don't ever worry about tomorrow. I didn't even have time to cry, because i had already said bye. I feel like I'm digging a deeper whole, so I'm hoping Jesus will take control. I'm sorry for my dumb mistake, but baby now I'm wide awake.

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People want to commit suicide,
people choose to die over livin life.
Why has it come to be this way?
Why has this life become so meaningless,
that we just want to throw it away?
We become selfish and think our life is so bad,
dont think of others who's lives are worse, But still greatful for what they have.
People take for granted the things they've got,
clothes, food, smokes and shoes, even a roof or a bed,
They dont think of the homeless,
the hungry, not even the cold or the hot.
They just think they want to be dead,
Things happen in our lives that, to us, seem bad.
We dont look for help or trust any "friends"
All because of the past we've had.
Dont be a coward and run away,
Stick it out, Live life,
I know that there's alot of strife,
But stick it through day to day.
People want to commit suicide,
people choose to die over livin life.
Why has it come to be this way?....

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Never forgot

A memory never she forgot
The hold you had
as we rolled
A green glade
sun shine a shadow it made
Our lips touched
A love was made,
Two hearts lost
They shared for a brief time
Lost their way in a mad mixed up world,
Like fate a friend
Brought them back again
Kindled love fear afraid,
Lost in a heartbeat
A lost love found new,
A heart still beats
But lost in the past.

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In this world

In this world full of lies,
where everyone seems to die.
With no truth to be said.
On your way down to hell,
afraid that you might have fell.
being lost for all eternity.

In this world full of death,
with one way left.
So lost in your mind,
you don't know where to turn.
Searching to go somewhere,
even if you are already there.
Ending your life with one more goodbye.

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Emotional Sleep

The darkened room places shadows on the walls
I lay on my side and cuddle into a ball, closing my eyes
Feeling unsafe and wondering how long I'll live
I've been sickly now for a pretty long time 
And I wonder how much longer before I die?

My mind gets so cluttered with all the things in my life
Without relief or support, I wonder what can I do? 
A knock, then bang, shhhh, don't  cry out or speak, 
Maybe they will think no one is here and just go away 

Now I can see a shadow on the blind, it's only my cat, Valentine
Seems she is lonely wants to be close to me, but why?
As i lay in my bed, I'm no good to myself but pet her head
And my head starts spinning with so much I dread

This world is for some people, and some people not
As Whitney and Robin Williams who left us behind
But I lay here a coward, wondering how it would be
My eyes are now heavy, I can't stay awake
So please Lord take me, so I can finally get sleep.

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My mind and heart are at war

MY heart and mind are at war
My heart and my mind are at war,
Body and soul lost between the hate,
Confused and hurt not knowing what for,
They pull, twist and fight to escape,
The battle of pain sweat and tears,
Caught in the midst of heartache,
My soul breaks free and leaves behind its fears,
The pain is too much for my body to take,
I built a wall and smashed it to dust,
For another, but for what,
I lost my faith and lost her touch,
I am soulless standing here stuck,
My mind has won this war,
My heart damaged and broke,
Still not knowing what for,
I pray and i still hope,
That this war will end,
And mind and heart will coincide,
Hoping my soul and body will mend,
For the rest of me has already died
I am done with the pain of passion,
And done with the love of pain,
All i here is my hearts door's crashing,
For this is what makes a man go insane,
I felt her love i loved her touch,
I kissed her lips and she kissed my heart,
Now this feeling, i feel too much,
Now it’s time for my mind and heart to part,
I will see her eyes in the moon lit sky,
Her beauty in a sky of wonder,
I will shed one tear and let the pain die,
As i lay awake in a world of loveless slumber
The illusions of love corrupted my mind,
The confusion of passion clouded my eyes,
The death of my heart came soon this time,
So now i will love in a world of my demise,
You can’t feel this pain that i feel,
I am done trying and this time i am,
When i write i write what’s real,
So now can you see why my soul ran?
Can you stop and wonder,
How i made it so far, with so much pain,
Can you here my heart crack with thunder,
And can you see i live in a world of rain,
 I have sought love found it and lost i
I am tired of pain.  so tired my heart is exhausted
i am done now if she comes back then i am here,
if not like i said i have shed my one and only tear

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Casey, your a friend that is never forgettable. Your like the sun that always shines down on 
me and brightens up my day. Guys have dreams and my dream came true by meeting you. 
your hugs send warmth to my heart and without u my life isn’t complete. Your smile, hugs, 
just everything about you makes my life want to go on and never give up. Just thinking of 
you makes a guys heart flow with love and character, without you the world isn’t completer
	What I see is a girl that was lost till I found her and I wont ever let her get lost 
again because she was the one that my heart wouldn’t let go.
Your more then everything to me and no girl could ever replace u because you’re the one 
who keeps my blood flowing and keeps me warm when it could be freezing outside. Your love 
for me is so strong that even my dreams dream about you

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final goodbye

My outside smile doesn’t match on the inside
Growing up all I wanted was a dad by my side
But I never had you in my life
Sit with my pad and I write
That’s what hurts the most
I went on a search for you father
It would have been easier to search for ghosts
What made it harder
Is you had a chance to be a dad
But you rejected it
I’m trying to advance through the sad
While accepting it
I needed you the most
Now I’m not affectionate 
To anyone who tries to get close
People always leave. I’m expecting it
Talk about my dad I act like I don’t miss him
But it’s eating me up inside
Can my feelings be justified?
How could I say goodbye
When you ****ing died
When we rarely said a simple hi
We got to see each other a few times a year
You turned up drunk. Blind from beer
At times I wish I could rewind to there
But I let my smile out shine my tears
The death of you was the birth of me
I try and figure what’s best to do
But people see the worst in me
Sober and clean
They want the dirt on me
A coward is something I’ll never be
But a boy in need of a dad I’ll probably forever be
Everything I’m yet to achieve. And everything I already have
Will it make up for never having a dad?

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Walking with my demons

Before dawn my thoughts roam,
As day breaks my heart sleeps,
Thoughts of you, thoughts of home,
Coincide with my heart beats,
The malady of my soul,
The woe of my heart,
Now half once whole,
Consumed by the dark,
	As I walk with my demons,
Day after day my eyes grow cold,
My heart continues to freeze,
As I travel a darkened road,
I walk through a haunting breeze,
Overshadowed by the moonbeams,
Lost among the stars that I follow,
Faced with my hopeless dreams,
I feel myself become hollow,
	As I walk with my demons,
Surrounded by my nightmares,
The echoes of the past haunting me,
Confronted by cold dark stares,
Sorrows chuckle keeps taunting me,
Giving into the death of light,
Falling into the abyss of despair,
My heart is conflicted by this plight,
For I feel my soul start to tare,
	As I walk with my demons,
I become numb to my surroundings,
Oblivious of my shame,
This life is beyond confounding,
For it’s hard to live with the pain,
	Of walking with my demons

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Looking into my eyes you see a dying being
The monster that's inside of me dying from a variety
Of spices that is mixed in the bowl with society
Most have lied to me and they expect me to get up
Wake up just to live another day with the same cuts
I seen enough to say I am sick of it
Running from this, shadow
Feeding mass souls to the creature with a firm hold
On this world that periodically turns slow
I feel pain just grow when half of my body turns cold
I have a hole in my throat from writting the same hurt
Over worked from the way life makes you feel like dirt
Will I ever understand?
How a person can demand the devils hand to erupt
Make a man throw up until his heart drops to his gut and gets ate up
This life is great huh?
The sun is never promised but nine out of ten times
I can say tomorrow the sun will shine
Eight out of ten the moon will return again
Ten out of ten the stars will shine bright and never dim
If I can guess something we barley understand why can't I get my life sorted out
Its either I am holding out, or my soul is lost with another solar pal
When I was young I thought I was different, but I am older now
And all I can see is nothing has changed only my memories
I lose my brain over melody's that help me speak
Infinitely I feel incomplete
Destiny was never there just the lost finish line I never crossed
Now I see my life being brought to the burial ground I have no applause
No cause, just thoughts of why life doesn't have a pause
I could philosophize on how I am going to die
No one would believe me and find me the odd guy
But its odd times I am dealing with
So everynight when I lay down I am feeling it
I never mind it and go to sleep
Watching my eyes turn dry because I haven't blinked
My rib cage no longer fills pain
Since I stopped breathing oxygen today

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Hate From The Sky

Paper rain falling dark gray sky
Many tears falling disaster on the rise
Many eyes searching for the love lost 
From the hate that fell from the sky 
So much life gone so hard for those 
Who had to survive 
Searching for answers for what could 
Have gone wrong 
Trying to stay strong as they try to explain 
To the young at heart how one day 
Hate came to devastate and take 
The peace bring a storm of pain 
And lost love to never be found 
On sacred grounds we mourn and pray
For those we lost on a September day 
Who is to say we build from old to new 
So few knew those lost but on that day
The world held hands to pray 
For the fate of those we lost from hate 
Now we wont ever forget the date 
The world stud  still and came together 
Hand in hand together we stand 
To remember that warm September  
Flowers will lay words will be said 
Tears will fall  memories relived 
The world will hold hands once again
To pray for peace and love for those who remain    

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love child

tempted mistress bore a son
acid spit from serpents tongue
sinners sin with no remorse
natures crule and twisted course
passions lust fades away
embedded in the soul to stay
pain conceived of rage
trapped with in a lovers cage
hatreds blade sheds scarlet tears
glaring eyes, ringing ears
adultery's sorrowed tail
an innocents life impaled

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One Last Time

 It's hard for me to explain,
how I feel,
these emotions I'm having,
or how to deal,
I can't get over,
what's going on,
and I don't want to believe,
that your really gone,
I keep wishing to see you,
for one last time,
you were so wonderful, caring,
and in your prime,
I would tell you,
"I LOVE YOU", and I need you so,
and that I never, ever,
want you to go.

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Death With No Voice

The faces have no name or color, they only hope of a future which will never be seen. They stagger to God in prayer begging for help as the tears flow freely down their worn and wrinkled cheeks. 

Mothers awake to the sound of crying with not an answer to their children's pleas. The world goes on as always, turning their backs on these people, who continue to die in silence, without a voice or harmony.

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Only god can judge me

two gunshots to the chest 
   thinking what can happen next... 

will i live to see tommorrow 
   or will i live to see the rest... 

of my life,it hurts inside, 
   when this morning i had the pride... 

to see my little girl, wave to her dad, goodbye 
   as the morning sun would rise,from the happiness in her eyes... 

knowing down inside, it would be her last good bye 
  cause im starting to see a glow,and a river to paradise... 

a shadow in the mist, 
   while my life flashes over... 

one drink of the holy water 
   cause my life was left sober... 

i can feel nomore pain, 
   as the angels start to rain... 

 i know for a fact im dead 
   cause nomore pain, is strange... 

i ask for forgivness as i softly speak 
   cause i remember shooting someone,but my mind was to weak... 

all i can make out was falling to my knees 
   knowing i was dead,was to hard to believe... 

i woke up in a room 
   with a pain when i would breath... 

with a clear image of what really happen to me 
   i lost my job, telling god why this had to be... 

i put my gun to my chest, 
   and you all know the rest... 

the last thing i said was 
   only god can judge me... 

but as i lost my job, 
   and was quickly depressed... 

it all came to complete... 

as knowing would i no, without the affect 
   he was already judging me..... 

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Ye kaisa ehsaas hai

Kya tum ho mere saamne?
Ya mai hu tumhare khayal mei?
Dil ke andhere kone mei...
Aas ke chamakte nishaan hai!
Bhale he tu gair hai..
Armaano ke iss desh mei..
Mujhe tera intezaar hai!!


Shayad tujh mei bhi sehmi kashish hai..
Umeed ki nayi umang hai..
Kaash tujhe toh lage mera pyaar anmol hai..
Mera jeena kuch khaas hai..
Bass.. Yahi mere Dil ka khayal hai!
Kya tu bhi khoya mere khayalo mei?
Kya tujhe bhi mera intezaar hai?


Iss EHSAAS ko hum kya naam de?
ya phir ise hum Benaam he rehne de?

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It Happen

Can believe it happen never thought it would
All the stuff we been through
Thought we would be together forever
But you was not there even through our loss you were nowhere to be found 
I went through it by myself
I went through depression because of our lost love and child
I am so tired of going up and down around and around
Our relationship was a full speed roller coaster
Always thought we would beat the odds 
Never thought our relationship would lead me to so much pain and tears
You left me thinking if you ever had any real feelings for me
I hope you would come back but you never did
I felt lost without you
Never thought you had it in your heart to be so cruel to us
I finally had to get it in my foolish head that you were gone forever

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Lost love lost life

Do I hold any value
to you?
Cause you are a
million dollar bill
Guess it all depends
on the world view
Truth is im ill
Paper can be so
Life has set us
I'm in its left hand
while you're its
Know you're still in
my heart

You still make my
broken clock tick
Get in my head
Your that chick
Otherwise im brain
Truth is you deserve
the best
Go and do what I
I'm failing gods
Just use my strength
I forgot

10 bucks to anyone
who understands it

Edit - 8/9/14
I'm gonna just say
the meaning behind
it line by line
since no one gets
it, haha.
Am I worth anything
to this girl, she is
everything to me.
But then again that
depends on how
society views us two
individually since
most peoples
standards of the
opposite sex is also
determined alot
by social status.
I have issues.
Paper ( money ) can
be light and
but people would
really take care of
a million dollar
bill if it existed.
aka the girl
Weve been apart.
Im in a totally
different state of
mind and life then
she is now.
But she is still in
my heart.

Shes still the one i
think about.
Am I still what she
I need her help to
escape my issues.
However I understand
why were apart and
you deserve the
Do life at its best
cause the girl
really is an
achiever and a great
Im failing but you
should continue to

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You tell me to stand as you hold me down

The day I have to watch what I say 
Is the day I wake up to see that I lost myself 
Ask me why I want to run away As your screaming at me everyday 
Ask me why I can't stand my life 
When every time I stand up you push me from behind  
Tell me the world is at my feet and you will always be there 
When I look around and see my family crying to my face and scheming when I walk away 
Tell me to fix my life when my life is locked so far away from me I can't even see myself in the mirror
Now ask yourself why isn't she happy 
We promise the world when she leaves 
Only to dangle her dreams out of reach 
Why do my words mean so much to you 
When the world can see that you aren't true
But behind close doors you don't have a clue 
You told me if I was lost you would find me 
But when tears stream from my face and I tell you 
Daddy, I don't know what I am doing 
Daddy, help me through Daddy please I really need you 
A stone face looks at me and says You've been lost for years 
I'm sure you will pull through 
My hate has been mistake for strength
And your hate and my hate 
Broke a soul I can never remake 
You tell me emotion are for the weak 
We beat them down till they are on full retreat 
I lived a life of feelings and friends 
And that was when I was at my weakest 
So you pulled me back in 
But daddy can I tell you have you ever cried yourself asleep 
Because your words cut to deep.
Have you ever been so happy that you promised yourself nothing could take that away 
Just to see a knife to your throat by the person that swore to protect you 
Imagines of the past rip through my future 
As every step becomes cold and calculated 
Disappointment is easier to handle then success 
And pain is more acceptable then love 
Now keep wondering why I can't fix my life 
When the only things I can count on happening 
Is everything in this world that would bring down the strongest person 
Tell me to move forward and remember you kept  me down so long I forgot how to walk
And then explain to my friends why I Flinch away from everyone’s hands 
So how can I be better dad, when you taught me to run and hide?
I wish I could fix myself I've even prayed that one day everything would be ok
But if you and your life for me taught me anything 
It's don't hope and don't dream It's better to just pretend 
And wait until this life ends

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Unrequited Love

Unrequited Love 
I want to be with you
Your smile makes my soul rejoice
Every time were apart I forget how to breathe
You are a part of my existence
But I’m me
I never have the right words to say
so when every your away
I think to my self
What if ?
What if I was better with words
What if I stood out?
What if I was gifted with a special talent
Would she notice me?
I am hopelessly lost in this feeling
And I don’t know what to do
My first unrequited love

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A prisoners struggle

Until you’ve ran a million miles in your cell,
Or stared at your reflection in the mirror,
Until you’ve shadowed boxed with the sound of the silent bell,
Or saw the light fade, and the darkness draw nearer,
Until you’ve dreamed of hell and felt flames,
Until you’ve remembered love, and felt her heart beat,
Or when you’ve cried so much you smelt rain,
Only then can you know of what I speak,
Until you’ve felt the failure on your heart,
Or the crippling effects of disgrace,
Until you’ve ran from the light, and embraced the dark,
Until you’ve given up and lost all faith,
Until you’ve painted pictures on your ceiling,
Until you’ve talked to yourself to calm your mind,
Only then can you know this feeling I am feeling,
For what I am feeling is the loss of time

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Some people will never learn,
Those who dont, cause concern.
They act like kids and it's all a game,
This is reality, Not something to play.
They dont care to see how it effects others,
Sex, drugs, and parties is all it is,
and all we can think is "Oh Brother!"
I dont understand how stupid people can be,
Just when you think it couldn't get any worse, There they go, Never cease to amaze me.
Because of this I may lose the one person I would hate to lose, Try again Please,
Even though we're only friends, I want to be selfish,
But even more, I want you to be happy.
I'm anti-social from time to time,
Time to think about the good things in life.
I hope that you could please remind me,
What is this piece of sh!t world coming to be?
I'm afraid if he goes, we'll lose touch,
and maybe the fact... I'll miss him too much.
Some people will never learn,
Those who dont, cause concern.
They act like kids and it's all a game,
This is reality, Not something to play.

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stand by me

stand by me please , i ask you from a bad place . stand by me. one more blow to the heart could knock me down .one more big blow of the wind could blow me over. lost of balance , swaying back and fourth like a tree .waiting for the branch to break , fall to the ground.hold my hand , feel that heat , the sweat of my palms , nervous of losing everything , holding it down .stay with me , dont leave me . i dont know if i could take anymore pain . being a fellow alone , is worst then being blind and death during a lighting storm . lost on my own.hold me , feel that , the race of my plause , the feeling of blood racing through my vain and back to my control center . my heart , that broken body part . yet it keeps on pumping .

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Live like theres plusure to be found

The sun dies and the moon comes to life,....

I lay awake dreaming, what life could be like,....

If I could turn back the hands of time,....

And live life from the beginning with Rhyme....

As tears lay dormant and my cries remain silent,....

My past attacks me with a depression so violent,....

I try and count the stars, but I get lost in my confusion,....

I try to recall good times and end up with an illusion,....

I can’t see what is real and I can’t feel what fake,....

So how do I live when life is too easy to break?....

I laugh, I cry, I stand, I sit, I live, I laugh, I try to forget,....

All the pain but my memories, always insist,....

Push and shove until I give in,....

This demon is to evil, how I can win,....

I lost my heart; I found a block of ice,....

I replaced it so now I shall remain cold for life,....

I try and change but this pain keeps reminding me,....

That no matter how hard I try, I’ll never be free,....

From my past. From this unyielding pain,....

And that I will always live within a storm of constant rain,....

.. ..

So as the sun dies and the night sky comes to life....

I try and count the stars, with hope that everything will be alright....

I pray that my pain will cease and that my mind will slow down,....

So until it does, I shall live like there is still pleasure to be found....

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with one chapter done and another to be written.,

i begain to write. the word  " Unforgiven"

and relize my pen bleeds out the old.

and outlines a life worth living,

my story is mine and mine alone to be told,

with rhyme and free verse,

i tell my story with a voice like liqued gold,

my tale is long my exsprances real,

i tell of all i have done wrong,

and of all the feeling i feel,


yet that is in the past. i have a new track to roam,

a new life to start. and a new place soon to be home,

new friends to meet, new hearts to fill,

new dreams to dream, MORE power and Will,

new memories to be made, old one's to replace,

new shadows in the shade, new mask to deface,

new tears to shed, new smiles to smile,

old pain to let lie dead, new ladies to drive me wild,

old friends to help me hold on. new ones to grasp,

new paths to stroll on, a new jokes and laughs,

this chapter in the mind of me, is now written,

for i still write the words. " Sill Unforgiven"

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                                                YOU SAY ID MISS YOU
                                        YET ID GIVE THE WORLD TO DISMISS US TO
                                            THE THINGS I ONCE BELIEVED WERENT AT ALL TRUE
                                                     CERTAIN THINGS WERE 
                                                        ONCE SO VERY NEW

                                 SO NOW ITS TIME TO GET  REAL
                          FIRST YOU TAKE AND THEN YOU STEAL
                          YOULL MAKE THOSE TOYS YOUR NEXT MEAL
                          YOUR LIES ARE OUT
                                  MAINLY BECAUSE NOTING GOOD EVER 
                                        COMES FROM YOUR MOUTH
                             SO QUICK TO BELEVE YOUR LOVE FELL FROM ABOVE
                I HAVE NO THOUGHTS OF US
                                          SO I LET IT ALL OUT AND FORGOT TO TRUST

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Lost in time

Lost In Time
We were friends for years in school.
Who held hands and walked in the hall.
Those days just pass away.
We lost some time over the years.
As we grow old.We didn't
Know we were so near.
We finally we met once again 
A friendship we do have
For it was just lost in time.

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A serpent of the night
A serpent in friendship
Striking with no courtship
Never minding the relationship
The painful thing about betrayal, 
It never comes from the enemy
It feeds on the loved,
Making ‘em worse
Just like a curse
Directly from the cross
It feeds on trust
Created by lust,
We then wonder why it’s lost.
The real definition of humans
The ones you love more,
Cause you pains more.
Please don’t tell me you love me,
Cause all you do is stab me,
Never thinking of all you do to me.
A lot of pain, all from one source?

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so pathetic

Ever walk through the woods with just a candle?
Confident that you know right where you are going.
Feel the wind blow and your light disappear. 
Anger will help you get there, 
Angry that the wind took your light
Angry that the darkness is always what you seem to have to fight
Rage builds, as you realize hope was so easily takin away
That all your goals and all your plans, relied on this one fragile thing
Never in all the planning did you for see, A step without it's guidance 
The trees whisper plotting their revenge 
Running now, lost in the darkness 
A clearing where the moon can shine through 
As you step into the blue light you see
This is where you should never be
Where is your undying confidence now?
Where is you anger that will push you through 
It's all as lost as you.
No more will to fight, discussed at your own sight.
You lay your head down, begging for the end of this life.
But even though the cold rips through your cloths and the snow covers you
Your broken heart still beats, Your mind still traces his lips
And pretends you can hear his voice tell you it'll be ok
But it's the same sound that took your light away 
Now the only reason you know your still alive is the pain
And you realize you would take the beating each and everyday 
Just to have him say 
He loved you again, Now remember how pathetic you are my friend? 

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The Fog

Into the steam filled abyss I found myself sitting upon a rock, lost, confused, hopeless. 
The light of a lark opened my eyes; the shadow of the devil closed them. 
My vision became faded and my mind was jaded, 
I was lost in the thoughts of an assassin and pushed into the actions of a suicidal animal. The rope clinched to my neck lets go ever so softly but when I slip it tightens 
Before I know it I am lost in the abyss of my own insanity and cannot find my way back to reality. 
Sometimes I forget who I am; sometimes I forget what good I’ve done. 
The fog takes over my very movements, thoughts, and actions. 
The laziness that unfolds upon me is like a quilt of guilt.
 Sweat, tears, and blood are stitched into the embroidery of this quilt. 
I try to open my eyes but they remain closed.
I am blind to the truth but to the fallacies I can see.  
I just wish to give my soul like a Faustian bargain feel completely whole again. Sadly...I know that I will never find.
I try to open my eyes again and I am alive, but falling into the depths of hell. 
The Egyptians encrypted my soul with this spell. 
The evil curse that will scar my skin with pain and have me walk as if I have survived the bloody gallows. 
My head hangs low and creates a correlation with my eye lids. 
The tears are hard to see in the rain, but the pain leaves a permanent stain.
 I am alive, but isnt living as bad as dying. 
The thought of the unknown lingers upon me like a mosquito
My love for you dwells forever as if it were a scar.

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love misery

love misery Just as much as love is a mystery its a misery, it can't be tamed, has no certain face or name, it can be a game, but when hearts get broke who's to blame. Love makes some go insane, its the best feeling but when lost the worse pain, when allowed nothing is lost but much is gained, love can be your best friend or worst enemy, it can bring out the best or the sin in me, love lost is love wasted, its the best yet worse thing mans ever tasted, tough yet scared to face it, once its gone its hard to replace it, Gods greatest gift of all land, sits on the surface but sinks like quicksand, but sturdy when hand In hand, its great when a woman loves a man, its part of Gods great plan, love never fails, but seems to set sail, broken dreams and broken nails, a mixture of heaven with a splash of hell, from the bottom of the ocean to the highest mountain top, can't be bought out of a shop, true love will never stop, keep it going like hiphop, love is courage and strength with a whole lot of will, no due dates like a bill, words can't explain how one could feel, simple things as a hug or kiss, affection and dedication is one way to describe this, once gone it will truly be missed. So hold on tight, I promise everything will be alright, accept love.. Don't fight, cherish each other day and night, never leave each others sight, when things go wrong, stay strong, remember where you belong. Love is an emotional rollercoaster, so hold on like a slinging holster, stick around like your favorite poster, expect the worse but hope for the best, united so **** the rest, its not about who cares more or less, just be glad your blessed, love can be one big adventure or a hell of a mess, when it all bills down, love will always be around, so keep a smile and not a frown, because in all reality love runs this town.

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I’m lost without you in my life,
My heart aches for the love of my mother,
You should be here for me,
I know the words that I spoke, 
Were not right before you passed,
I never got a chance to make things right,
Although you were my aunt,
You were the closest thing,
I had to a mother, and I couldn’t have asked for more,
Two years since I last talked to you,
And word comes that you have passed,
So young, so very young,
You had a good life before you,
That you will never know,
I pray that you found God before you passed,
So that I can see you when I get to heaven,
At twenty-eight and so much to live for,
I want to say that you are still alive,
But I know the truth,
I wish things were different,
I will be lost without you Tia. 
RIP Meghan Marie Galaviz

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Unrequited Love

Unrequited Love 
I want to be with you
Your smile makes my soul rejoice
Every time were apart I forget how to breathe
You are a part of my existence
But I’m me
I never have the right words to say
so when every your away
I think to my self
What if ?
What if I was better with words
What if I stood out?
What if I was gifted with a special talent
Would she notice me?
I am hopelessly lost in this feeling
And I don’t know what to do
My first unrequited love

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Unrequited Love

Unrequited Love 
I want to be with you
Your smile makes my soul rejoice
Every time were apart I forget how to breathe
You are a part of my existence
But I’m me
I never have the right words to say
so when every your away
I think to my self
What if ?
What if I was better with words
What if I stood out?
What if I was gifted with a special talent
Would she notice me?
I am hopelessly lost in this feeling
And I don’t know what to do
My first unrequited love

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HE is the ONE...Look to the SON!

Ever been misused
Ever been abused
Ever been falsely accused,
Ever been raped
Ever been taped,
Ever been talked about
Ever been kicked out
Ever been full of doubt?

B u t  G o d...

Remember when you heard no
Remember when they said you
	can't go
Remember when they said you're 		
too slow,
Remember when the doctors said 		
you wouldn't make it
Remember when the lawyers said 		
you couldn't shake it
Remember when the enemy said 		
you wouldn't break it
Remember when you thought you 		
couldn't take it?

B u t  G o d...

How about neglected
How about disrespected
How about arrested
How about tested,
How about lost everything u had
How about cut, sliced, or stabbed 
How about pushed, shoved, or			

B u t  G o d... 

Have you been attacked
Have you been threatened 				
because you were black,
Have you ever lost your breath
Have you ever stared in the eyes of 
Have you ever been addicted to 		
any drug
Have you ever missed a guns slug
Have you ever been exposed to a 		
Have you been in a car crash
Have you ever felt like trash?

B u t  G o d...

Are you still in your right mind
Are you still capable of telling 			
Are you still standing
Are you understanding
Are you still comprehending,
Are you still breathing???

B U T  G O D!!!

HE is the ONE...Look to the SON!

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So lost-not able to find
Helpless--a drive by shooting--
Regaining regrouping needed--
Lost to myself--where did you go?
Something tearing inside--fragmented--
No tools for repairing the breakage--
Lost in turmoil, confusion lives strong--
No retrieving what is lost--forever comes to mind--
A maze of thoughts--
Hazy at best--
No understanding--meaning cannot be found--
No trusting, lost in bewilderment--
No hope, no surviving--
Effort missing, sensibility lacking
Lost to no one, no one lost
Me is in the heart of it
Lost lost lost
Agony lives strong
Disintegrating in anguish--
Nothing to lose; nothing to gain--
Darkness/light no difference--

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I Lost U Even B4 I Found You!

How could I be so naive and silly?
To love You so much, so deeply
without thinking about the reality
I trusted You completely
& dedicated my whole self to You entirely
A little care shown by you
took me out of my blues
I thought You loved me too
the same way as I loved You!
But now today I know
no flower survives the heavy snow
How empty,unspoken words
could make you feel this love?
I am lost and lonely again
with an excruciating pain
looks like all my prayers have gone in vain
And now I've come to realize that
each day was a step towards losing you
I lost You before I even found You...

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There's a grave in my way.
Lord I am out here, Pave a way
things i cannot see attack me, save me today "OOH LORD"
Daily knees to the dirt as I pray,
surrounded by lost souls,
Iam puzzled seeming like I lost my virtue at the crossroads 
My feet have sunk deep in Africas potholes
Nobody care, because nobody is here.
the grieving stare as I languish in my demise
Lord, open the skies, and make a way for my rise
open my eyes, So I see them that curse my name
blame and frame my name... Lord make all things the same please!!
my life and my dreams.

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I'm hurt screaming and pulling my hair out
Sicken by the drought
Tears of fire
boiling as my blood turns to lava
Preying to Jesus cause only he knows what I'll do
Ran with the wrong crew
If only knew
It'll take a piece of me  with it
A block of my saneness with it
My livelihood has been invaded
My glory long faded
Gang violence underrated
I lost my friend do to mistaken identity
Because of his color he lost his dignity
No one knows what he meant to me, to us
A band aid ripped from a wound that will be forever busted
Arrested development
Suspended judgement
Caused an innocent life to perish
His life i will forever cherish

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love me and hold my hand

my heart is shapely and red
my heart is sad and depressed 
as i lay here in a molt im lost in a sea of hope
i dream of a day when my mind is at ease
where i can celebrate and laugh as i please
im lost for words i can not speak
i am so down that i cant find the words to say
my head mourns all the day 
i feel like a prisoner in my head 
held captive by the ungratefull dead
when will i be free 
when will others i will meet 
to help me get on my feet 
it seems no one cares or understand
i am a tormented man
love me and hold my hand

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The Heart

The Lost Heart

If it beats_ _ it still respires
if it aches _ It still senses
if it breaks _ it still feels
if it qualms _ it still rectifies

if it hurts _ it still dears
if it crawls _ it still mooches
if it desires _ it still floats
if it’s alone _ it still misses

if it sleeps _ it still glares
if it stops _ it still fears
if it bleeds _ it still cares
if it dies _ it still fades

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Fall Memories

leaves fall as swiftly as the wind blows threw my hair the cold breeze brings out the goose bumps the wet leaves stick to my memory as fondly as they stick to me losing track of time as dad pulls me out of the leaf pile we exchange smiles for the last time before i had back to reality once loved, lost ,found again , lost again .. ...

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scars left behind

What a tradgedy when they flew the planes into the twin towers
such thought out violence in the heart of those men
what about the wife who lost her husband that day
what about the son who lost his dad
brother sister mother all died because of hatred
that was a sad day even though i did not  know any of those people
the whole act of terrorism is evil
why take anothers life who has done you no wrong 
purposely destroying him and others lives
what right do they have 
it is totally wrong 
when i saw that my heart sunk 
i felt so sad and angry at the same time
it was so horrific 
to the ones that lost love ones my heart goes out

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sixteen on the street corners

Sixteen she became more of a sexist.
With her skin smooth to reek the care
of her mothers touch.
Sixteen in a black backless dress,
a mistress look,yet a woman to every 
men passing on the street corners.
Men with no back bone, i call  then spineless.
Those that made her every breath heavy,
when life was at ease.
Breath  under nudity the scenary behind her.

Sixteen  missing periods and window period.
Cometh was a life of prescribtions  and mother hood.
A used up beauty at sixteen, nolonger useful to them.
They saw only a usedfool with beauty nolonger in use.
Beautiful to bloodyfool with a child to call every man on the street corner father.
            Sixteen on the street corners

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The Truth

Whats this love for? Is it worth it this time?
Are you gonna break my heart? 
Are you truly gonna be mine? 
Guys will say anything behind those jail walls , but 
the sad thing is I wouldn't believe you even if you 
weren't in jail at all.
You've done some horrible things Bobby. 
You truly broke my heart.
When I lost you my whole damn world feel apart.
I'm not saying that to make you feel bad.
I'm saying that cause when I lost my whole world got sad.
I'm not perfect never have been but , I truly loved you 
and still remained your friend.
Now 7 years later the same words you once said.
I love you Megan , I need you so bad.
The sound of your voice is still the same and hidden in your words are lies.
Things are different this time. I'm not the same girl.
If you try to play games with me I promise I will get the highest score.
I won't fall for it this time I'm mean it I do.
I won't let another guy put me threw what you put me threw , not even you.
If you love me we can hold each other threw all this bad weather.
We can get threw it together , but if you hurt me its gonna be bad. 
Not trying to sound mean but my pride is all that I have. 
I promise to love you & be there till the end , and if *****gets to 
deep I promise to remain your friend. 
I hope you do the same , but I hope even more you mean what your saying.
Just be honest Bobby thats all I ask. If you do that I willing to let go of the past.
I wont bring it up no more , if you can show me there's a reason I fell in love with you.
I want to know there is love behind all this pain we've been threw.
If you can do that then the sun will truly shine , and the gas is greener on the other side.
Most of I will be your everything and you'll be mine.
I'll love and cherish you and when you do time I'll do time.
Like Bonnie & Clyde if you show me you love me , I'll ride or die. 
To the end of time , you could be the only man that's on my mind.
That's precious. Getting me to say some *****like that is a blessing.
I hope you learned your lesson. Your 34 I hope your ready to man up , and be all 
that you can be and more. You owe to it yourself but even more to your kids.
You need to show them their dad's not as bad as everyone says he is. 
I know together we can make it. If I didn't it would be heartbreak that I'm risking
So please hear my words their is more to life than trying to put yourself in the dirt.
Stand up and realize what your worth I want you to love yourself and remember I 
loved you first. 

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What Life

We walk the streets with bumbling feet, 
looking for something that ends in defeat. 
The meaning of life and why we're here, 
we just keep looking, but nothing seems clear. 
What about death we have heard so much, 
what to believe about god, death, life and such. 
Its a guessing game that we cant win, 
its the wheel of fortune, give it a spin. 
Life is something we cant explain, 
life is life my thoughts are in vein. 
We will know one day what to believe 
but it will be too late, so don't be naive. 

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I am lost in the wilderness

I am lost in the wilderness 
trapped in a state of bewilderment
derived from my child hood

the pain shaped as a knife deep within my chest
i call out for you but you are so far away
i can see you from a distance you lovely form

i am lost in the wilderness
trapped in a storm
the closer i get to you the farther you move

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Broken Shells

Frigid wind whispers your name
as I walk along the sand beach.
Waves rush to meet me
as I wish you would.
Sea spray touches my lips 
as I taste the salt of my tears.
Distant gulls call 
thundering roar of the water calling to me
As I walk to the edge
I turn to search for you.
Empty and forlorn is my life.
Loneliness my shadow
as night is my enemy.
Robbing me of sleep
bringing sad moments to mind.
Broken shells on the sand
as your promise of love.
They chip away with time.
Tides bearing me along.
I walk...
icy water numbs my flesh
enveloping my soul  as I am  free...
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scared of love

Do I have a Fear of love or am I scared of commitment
The answer I can’t even bare to listen
I’ve always got a pretty girl, cutest smile, sexiest body, nicest bum
Yet I can’t ever see myself wifeing one
I don’t feel a thing for them my heart’s cold. My insides are numb
So people think the way I live my life is dumb
Even if I like this one
I’ll tell her she’s the wrong one
The moment I like her and she begins to get close
I know it’s time to let go
I’m more interested in writing and getting songs done
You would understand why I act this way
If you knew me before
There ain’t an ex I would take back today
It’s ok for them they’re in my past, safe
So I move on, one after the other
Is it because I was never close to my sister or mother
Is it because I’ve lost the only girl I ever loved, the girl I would of wifed up?
But I messed up. Cause I’m not good at this relationship type stuff 
The pain from my childhood am I still healing
People think I don’t care about these girls feelings
Yet I always think should I of treated her better?
But I’ll always leave when she says she needs me forever
It’s too much pressure on me
I give my best. Yet you still expect better from me
Maybe one day I’ll find the girl who will help me overcome my fears
Or maybe till the day I die my fears will last
So we can Enjoy tonight  together while you are here
But I apologise if tomorrow I don’t call back

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             A friend of mine the other day
             stepped inside my brain
             No one has heard from my friend since
              A mystery that will remain.

             I opened up the cellar door
             to feel the surging heat
             I looked below and there behold
            was my missing friend at my feet.

            He beckoned me to follow him
             down a dark and dismal path
            I took the lead because of my greed
              and no sooner felt the wrath.

            The wrath I felt was my own wrath
             for I had fallen into my brain
             No one has heard from me since
              A mystery that will remain!

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Daydreaming on wendsday morning

im sitting in class,
the rain keeps falling
my mother keeps calling
my mind is empty
but it keeps on thinking
the teacher stares at me
i feel like I’m shrinking
he’s trying so hard to gain my attention
But sadly I’m lost in a different dimension 
I don’t care anymore, **** what you say
your  useless, annoying, and put my thoughts in disarray
But the rain keeps falling
Mother keeps calling
my mind is filled with countless sadness
i answer the phone, and i feel so alone
the sounds i hear are loud and clear
im lost, im lost, im lost
in my own thoughts
the clock keeps ticking i wish it would pause
just sign the clause, sign the clause
sweet mary jane, mixed in the rain
my window pane sounds foreign and strange
your in my range your mine, but its too ealry for a valentine 
i take the ultimate risk, I give her a kiss
who would think i could daydream so twisted like this
I’m lost again in my mind as it spins
I gain focus, class has ended
This is fair better than the life I pretended
Now I can go off and take on the world
I was daydreaming in English of that one special girl

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When im needing love n affection all im feeling is neglection  I cant believe hes treating me so bad never felt so confused n so sad i feel like a lost depressed soul that lost everything i had i feel so stupid for believing him n trusting what he said now im broken hearted n misled over here halfdead im shaking with pain inside n out this is the worst i ever felt it feels like i have nothing at all n im not even inportant enough for him to call n he wont catch me if i fall betrayed unloved confused going crazy mentaly abused heartbroken n used So much pain n tears how could he do this to me after so many years

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I'm feeling so lost right know I can't tell what's right or left north or south east or west right or wrong I sit here lost I'm my emptiness of my life and soul where did I turn wrong where did I lose my way my compass is struggling to help me find the right directing lost in the struggles of my mind never to be found people can't begin to imagine my struggle I've lived threw so many wrong turns so many times I've had to retrace my steps so many times I go to give up so many time I sit in one spot in my mind and think for days and days I wonder why this compass can't help me I wonder why the north star has misguided me I'm tired of having to start over again month after month day after day night after night it's a wonder why I haven't just given in yet and just sink into the lost abyss of the darkness called my life 

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The Truth-I Know

Could it have never been real,
All love I did once feel.
When will the truth be out?
So I can no longer doubt.
I could never see his eyes,
So I'd never know his lies.
Fake my love is not,
My stomach yet is a knot.
I've never been so scared,
I want my heart to be spared.
The truth I want to know,
But all I hear is no, no, no.
I'm in a strained relationship,
Bound to sink like a great ship.
Always to be apart,
To never hear the other's heart.
If I stumble and trip,
Will I be saved by his grip?
Or will I sink like a ship,
So my heart he can rip?
Wanting to escape it all,
So I can no longer fall.
When will I have no fears,
When can I stop all tears.
This is not meant to be,
He never did love me.
All the love I did once feel,
I now know was never real.
I no longer have doubt,
The truth at last comes out.

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imagine my shame

I wanted to write poetry for you, but 
Knowing you weren’t deserving I refrained. 
And yet as I write I’ve done 
Everything but scribble your name. 
Imagine my shame. 
I strive to fame 
The love we gained 
Through pain 
And strain yet 
You remain 
Imagine my shame. 
Main topic. 
Same conclusion. 
An illusion is our love. 
Confusing how what was 
Once blessed has 
Progressed into nothingness. 
Remembering when your mere 
Hug, mere kiss would incite 
Shivers, how you’d deliver 
an electricity so sick to me 
It’d take my energy. So poetic 
The force, so magnetic 
Of course. Yet Pathetic. 
Like art should have been 
Our love, a mosaic of 
Fireworks, lightening 
Stars, how prosaic, how 
Day to day we’ve become. 
We are one and 2 
We should be 2 as one. 
The lines of my stanza 
Were drawn when my 
Poetry became too beautiful 
To describe you.

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I Do Apologize

 Privacy please as I take a needle to 
my vein
 I do apologize but I can feel no 
more pain
 Deny me not the comfort I seek
 With no remorse do I speak
 For the ship of honor hath already 
 As I lost my desire to care the 
moment hell was unveiled
 I turn only to numbing cold
 This charade they call life has 
grown forever old
 Just ten more CCs and you've heard 
the last from me
 That eternal light shall set my 
sorrows free
 Of two addicts I was born
 Upon a rose I am merely the thorn
 Upon tragedy I am the cause and 
 Forgive me for just one more high
 I do apologize
 I must now say goodbye
I hang my head without hesitation 
as I approach the pearly gates
 Upon my judgement even the 
almighty procrastinates
 To my family I leave hurt and 
 Yet another soldier lost to the game
 Privacy please as I take a needle to  
my vein
 I do apologize but I can feel no 
more pain

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Unspoken Burden

There’s a deep burning encumbrance
Lagging within my torso
It’s lacerating my soul
No explanation, ask Picasso.
Occasionally wish I never knew you
Unacquainting my best friend
I bind fast and then I bruise
When I feel like I’m losing you again.
I can’t express it verbally
And it’s something you wouldn’t comprehend too
You have human embroideries
And what I have is you
Cognizant of your concord
Your taking my unique one too
It was like a smack in my face
Asking me for something, I didn’t want to do
How could you not know the backwash
That cracked my benevolence
I thought we were so adjacent 
Tout de suite moved my smile into spins.
No explanation, just Picasso the sense of my verse
I’m not devoted with love for you, I just feel demolished
Like a once colourful stained glass
Now gray and cannot be polished

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Sometime walking in a slow rain
I find myself like a shattered pane	
This tear jerking fact nags me to cry
But then my heart asks me why? 

My heart pounding fast at that deserted place
Taking me away that breeze hit my face
Totally lost and engulfed in that rain
Those erratic expressions ostense my pain

With my lost soul thumping like hell
Was probing for a destination safe as shell 
I was gabbling to myself but was dead inside
All scared was still searching for guide

Each drop seemed so puissant to kill me slowly 
That I found myself getting quartered into pieces awfully
My heart was slowly melting with that rain 
Was smiling furtively and getting free from the pain

I felt hollow and searched for the lost part
Then on my palm thumping fast I found my heart 
A bright light then came and I turned around 
A door was there that's all I found 

That eerie and glimmering door pulled me inside
I saw a fairy with the place quite wide
And then saw those doors counting seven
They were none but doors to heaven

Finally was feeling quite cheerful and snugged 
And then recalled the pain I ultimately ducked
I asked the God why in heaven I got my berth
He replied as I was too innocent for that earth

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Ode to the mother who is so kind
who’s beauty and gospel light always shine.
The mother that I love so dear always does the wash
The mother that I love so dears loves the kitchen store called Bosch.
Mother, I don’t know if you remember the time you once told me, 
that I would always be your baby as long as you were taller;
Believe me Mom that is not quiet fair you always knew I would be smaller.
I never told you how brave and strong you are to me.
Mother I first noticed your strength when grandma left this earth
I know how much it hurt you,
I know how much you cried.
The sorrow that burdened your heart always burdened mine
But the thing that I remember most was how I felt inside
I’d thought that I had lost her forever,
Mom, I thought life would never be the same. 
But then I looked into your eyes and that’s were I lost my pain.
I knew she wasn’t lost because her and you are the same, as long
as you’re my Mommy and forever with me you remain.
I hope one day Mother that I shine the way you do,
with the glory of God inside you and a little bit of grandma too.
Your beauty is more than outward appearance, it’s what’s on the inside I love.
You always put up with me, 
you always seem to care,
So Mother I know I’m not perfect 
and I can be a grouch,
But I know that you love me, and that’s what really counts.
I don’t know why you chose me, but I know why I chose you
Because God believed that you would lead me back to him and would keep me 
close to you.
I could not be more proud of the mother you are to me.
So thank you Mom for being the mother I want to be, I hope one day you will know
how much you will always mean to me.

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The sweet sense of Ignorence,
Every one lost in hope,
Somebody walking down a sloop,
So many lost words unspoken,
One day God will give us a token,
Confussed and bored,
slashed hearts by a sword,
Some people ignored, 
You love someone but they don't care about Love or Disspear,
All you want is your feelings to share,
always being used and somehow abused by the one we need,
we can't do anything about it but let our hearts bleed untill we get that one person 
to have our emothions to feed,

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This world is crazy at times the uncertainty of the unexpected is mind blowing what is right and left what is north and south east and west what is day light and darkness what is sunshine and rain these are all things we are taught but how do we know these as being truthful or are they illusions of our own mind its our belief in faith that allows us to know what is north and south we have faith in the person who has told us this and has not made us to be a fool and actually told us the truth thats whats wrong with our world today we have lost faith in each other in our brothers and sisters when you lose faith you lose manners when you lose manners you become hateful when you become hateful you die alil in side life is to short to lose faith to short to be rude to short to take every little breath we take in this universe for granted so slow down world cherish your moments have faith that there is good still left in the crazy world of ours know that not everyone is out to get you know that one day our days will end and i refuse to sit back and say that i lost faith in this beautiful world that i have lost manners that i have lost my way i am not perfect by any means but i do my best to live every day as its a blessing i put my all into everything i do even if i comes back to kick me in the ass sometimes but i can honestly say i will never lose my faith

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Convince Me

Convince me Im not in this alone 
no matter what it looks like, outta
sight outta mind the light overcomes
the darkness, convince me that your
everything I want in a woman
forget street cred and who's the hardest, convince me 
that them other
women I experienced was famine
and you're my harvest, convince me that you're in love 
with my God and he's the only way we'll make it together
convince me that the spirit moves you
convince me it'll be a lost blessing
if I ever lost you, convince me...
that Im not wastig my time convince me that you're 
worth all of mine
convince me that all of my love should be yourz, show me 
that your love is worth fighting for, convince me that 
you're everything I been so patiently waiting for, so if 
you're ready convince me that I'll be a fool if I let you 
walk out that door...

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The time that I wasted is my biggest regret.
Especially in this place how could I forget?
Just sitting, thinking, about the things that I’ve done
The crying, the laughter, the hurt, the fun
But the chase is over and there’s no place to hide.
Everything is gone except for my pride.
With reality suddenly right in my face,
I’m scared alone and stuck in this place.
Now the memories of the past rush through my head.
The pain is obvious by the tears that I shed.
I ask myself why and where I went wrong
I guess I was weak where I should have been strong.
What an ego vie grown 
My feelings were lost afraid to be shown.
I pretended to be rugged so fast and so cool,
When actually lost like a blinded young fool.
I hope I can make it at least I have to try,
I’m headed towards death but I’m not ready to die.
What my future holds I really don’t know
Now that the years are starting to show
As I look at the past it so easy to see
The fear that I had inside afraid of being me
Now I live for today when I’ll get a new start
The thought of it I hold deep in my heart.
I’ve gotten too old for this lonesome game
Of feeling real hard with no sense of shame.

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Hopeless of Hopefull We'll never know

H e walks down the road 
O n the dark twisting never ending road
P ushing past the invisible chains that had once held him back
E arth breaking in bits and pieces, like crumbs from a cake, under his feet
L ooking at the road, but there was nothing there to see
E verything crying out for help but they were hopeless indeed 
S oon he saw a glint of light in the dead grass, a sliver of hope, 
S topping to see what it was, he saw a key

O nly he saw the key, the key invisible to others passing by, he picked it up and pocketed it
R ising in happiness he walked on, happy for being shown a sliver of hope in the darkness of life

H opping and skipping for joy... he spotted something else, a coin, old and rusted
O n he walked for it held no meaning to him without those whom he held dear to him
P ausing in disgust at the sight of a murky sea full of people 
E very crevasse of the sea was filled with dead fish, which the birds picked at
F or all animals were dead due to the pollutants, only that was not what disgusted him
U seless as the murky sea seemed, others were in the murky sea, staying till life’s end
“L ovely isn’t it?” a stranger asked him. All he could do was stare at the man in disgust 
“L ovely?!? It a sad excuse of a puddle, that’s what it is, Ugly!” He says and storms away

W alking along the road he came across a gate and became curious 
E ven though something inside him told him not to he tried opening the gate anyways 
‘L osing patience he tried breaking the lock
L ost in pure curiosity he tried and tried only to fail once again

N ot happy, he tried his one and only option left, jumping the gate
E cstatic that he would finally get over the gate he jumped into the black oblivion 
E xpecting to land but falling forever into the black oblivion
R egretting his carless decision 

K nowing that it would never end, but wishing it would
N ow as he fell he thought of the ones he left behind on his journey
O n and on he fell down through the black oblivion
‘W hen will it end?’ He asked himself but the answer, I’m afraid, would never come

(Key= Happiness, Coin= Wealth, Pond= Love, and Gate= Life after death)

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Baby Daddy

I fell in love with the man who fathered my first child. The one who is my baby 
daddy. He promised me that he would never hurt me but in the end that was one 
big lie. My baby daddy hurt me in many ways. The man told me that he loved me 
and cared about me. Well all of that was a lie. My baby daddy was a 21  yr old 
who was married and had 2 other kids. Worse of all he forced me to sell my body 
at the age of 15. I was a run away at the time but quickly turned myself in for I 
could not allow myself that pain. I spent 2 weeks in Juvie in the Bronx, but as I sat 
there I could not get him outta my mind. It was as if he was sewn in there and I 
could not remove him. I called him a month after I found out I was pregnant and 
of course he didnt believe me. I didnt understand what I had did wrong, I mean 
here was the man who told me he loved me yet didnt believe what I told him. I 
knew I was not supposed to have contact with him because I was 15 and he was 
21 but I did any ways. I thought that having his child would change his mind and 
make him want me. I lost contact with him for 3 months and during that time I 
was still very obsessed over him. When he called again we stayed in contact, his 
daughter was born and although he could not be there he said that he wished he 
could have. My baby daddy promised me that if for any reason I ever lost our 
daughter to the state he would claim her. The state took our daughter and of 
course he didnt step up. I fell in love with my baby daddy and fell back outta love 
with him.

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There is so much

There is so much
To be done
More than a little
But less than a lot
Just a few things
I need to stop
I need to stop
Comparing myself to others
I have to stop
Wishing I was someone else
I must stop
Putting others before myself
I wish I could stop
Beating myself up
But if I don’t
They will

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 Floating away . She lost herself along the way, forgot her steps . Disappeared. Remembering the tears we Shared. Walking in a new direction so lost hoping for attention, wanting to see a familiar face, someone that can call her name. Forgotten. it happens all the time. Wrapped up in our own selfish lives. Stopped paying attention to the only one  who was there. Swept away, I'm like dust in the air. Floating away.

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   I totally lost it,
         Im totally found.
                    my lifes so messed up.
                                my life has been turned around.
                                                 Good bye to ya
                                                               looking right threw ya.

Looking for a new place to be me.
        looking for a new life to start with you,
                wondering if it would workout,
                            No fuse,no fight,
                                        Only happines and delight.
I want to be lost now,
       not trying to be found.
                  all on my own here.
                             Am I alone here?

Honey,where did you go?
               My lifes a reck i miss you so.
                                     looking right at you.
                                                        its your choice now.

Dont you love me?
        are you above me?
                     I said i was sorry.

i have been weary,
           why dont you come near me?
                                 what did i do know.
                                                    was is my know how?
I thought you loved me.
           i dont understand.

                   I got you threw.
                        honey i loved you,
                                    yet i dont know if i still do.

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For him

I feel him escaping my grasp.
I watch helplessly as he grows distant.
I yearn for him to come back,
But he is resistant.

I want to help him,
But i do not know quite how.
His hopes and dreams
Mean nothing to him now.

I do not know how to help him.
I can't give him a better life.
Though i may try,
I can't fix his problems.
I can only be there for him in his strife.

I can't pave the way for him,
I will do everything to help him stand.
I will try to hold him up,
And offer him my hand.

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self pity

I'm breaking
 I can't be fixed
 I'm missing
 But I won't be missed

 Still shaking
 From what I fear
 I can't let you in 
 So don't come near

 I guess you're right
 I'm way too thin
 And I'm fighting a battle
 That I'll never win

 I have so many flaws
 I don't know where to start
 From my fucked up head
 To my fucked up heart
The rest is just a blurry part.

 So what's the point
 To continue to fight?
 When my restless days
 Turn into restless nights

 This life hasn't been fair
 I can finally tell
 That nobody cares 
 And it hurts like hell

All eyes that stare
Do nothing but glare.
Point there fingers,
An think of me as a germ.

 I still don't understand
 What was God's cause?
 Why did He put me on earth
 With all of my flaws?

 Was I born just to die?
 Am I part of a plan?
 Made to finally see
 That I won't die in old years

 I don't know how to live
 I have nothing to gain
 And all I want from you
 Is to end all my pain

 I'm losing sight 
 Of what I've already seen
This dangerous creature
That im made out too be.

Questions throughout my life
Is there anything
That will make me 
Like everyone else. 

Happy an loved, family, pretty 
Life fulfilled with everything nice.
But guess I'll never get that lucky
How it sucks to be me... 
I guess

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breaking up.

his/her eyes fade in the sun light,
   his/her heart beat doesn't seem right,
         they look as if they have lost this fight,
               seems he/she was another in their sight.
heart beaten,love struck,now just a sad ending,
    I watched as his/her world changed from the loving,
         to them it was love,and that is what he/she was wanting,
              now the pain in his/her heart beats as if it was never ending.
when a love story comes to an end,
     all that is left is a bitter broken friend,
         seems as if there heart never unbends,
               hunted by the love lost and its descend,
picking up the pieces of love gone wrong,
      not willing to move on just wanting to belong,
           playing it over and over like a sad love song,
                when your heart breaks it's hard to be strong.
as a friend you can't find the right words to say,
       you need to get over her/him start a new day,
            we all have been here the pain will go away,
                 love...we all want it, we're just not willing to pay.

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Down the Memory Lane

Rambling down the memory lane
I remember the day 
When you made your first espy
and made me believe 
you are the one for me
your care and tutelage 
sheathed me from umpteen stings
and got me over the hot springs.

I even cherish the moment 
Whilst walking on the street
when lips moved on, in their motion
leaving others shocked
and looking for someone beside me
when everyone deduced me alone
the truth was shared between you and me.

I still mesmerise the time 
when all my dreams crushed
and hopes swayed away
still I smiled to mark the nerve
and the darkening night 
augmented the pace of tears 
and that of your wiping feat too.

I could enchant the aura
and memorize the shadowy icon 
whom you were overly green eyed
cause still being clandenstine.

And today again 
while walking on the same lanes
I'm lost in the cloud 
when I turned around
to look for the one
chatting, giggling, sharing, glowering,
walking together all these years 
appears had vanished.

Why today I'm down with the feeling
It was just a false coloring 
all the way I was single handed 
or I had lost someone very dear
and turned out to be a lonely soul again.

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I Cry When It Rains

I  cry when i see an animal in pain
I even cry when it rains
For it is God's tears that I fear
makes rain

I cry when i hear of the elderly suffering
from being negected,and feeling forgotten

Sometime i cry for no reason,because i
feel the whole world is not right
I see laughter from others,at the blind
because they  lost sight

It pains me to think some people just dont
care about the salvation of their brothers,and

I cry when i see an animial in pain
I even cry when it rains
It's God's tears I fear makes rain

I cry for the mothers of this world
for those who lost their child to the
sins of this world

I cry for the junkies,the poor,the homeless,
the brokenhearted,and I cry for you. I feel
your pain

I cry because you make me feel unloved,unwanted,and ashamed
I cry when it rains,fear from God's tears of pain

 God so loved the world,God sent jesus, to say whom I'am pleased
I cry when I see an animial in pain
 I even cry when it rains
because I know its  tears from above
tears from so much pain

I cry when i see an animial in pain
i even cry when it rains
for it is God's tears that I feel makes rain,God's tears from so much pain
May God have mercy, on the souls that remain


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thoughts gathering

Going over my thoughts

Listening to my heart

Thinking about what to do to make it to the finish

Knowing what has to be done but scared for it to start

Looking at people laughing when thinking this isn’t fun

Darkness invading my last bits of hope

But I’m not here to sit around and mope

The sound in my voice is lost in the wind

Carrying everything needed to win

Hoping I don’t get lost up in my sin

Carried by my thoughts I move on to the end

Smiling and grinning when I hear them say congratulations.