Now's the time to say good-bye...
And, no, I won't miss you,
And, No, I won't cry.
I've gotta move on, get outta this place,
I'm sick of your "stuff", tired of your face.
Once upon a time, our hearts were both pure,
But now, you're my nightmare,
And I'm just your whore.
Laughter and love no longer remain,
I know if I stay here you'll drive me insane,
With your goddamn attitude, your late night alibi's
All of your promises that turned into lies...
So I hesitate before I reach the door,
And take a look around once more.
You're staring at me with sadness in your eyes,
I know you too well, baby, it's just a disguise.
Now's the time to say good-bye...
And, YES, I will miss you,
And, YES, I will cry.
forgive everything --
but keep boundaries
im livin in a world, where all eyes on me.
trying to curve my own route.
but route 66 keeps finding its way to me.
ive been plenty sick, in all the events layed before me.
even when i reflect to my lowest points
i dont regret any of the choices
That I’ve deployed in my era
A lot of it by error, but hey
We live in hell conditions and there ain’t no air condition
Or any guidelines when life throws you in the sidelines
But when hindsight twenty twenty hits
You’ll begin to understand life’s a bunch of equations and you in the mix of it
An you’ll have to think twice, before running into a situation and becoming the best of it
it’s what got me here, it’s what got us here
Ran with my thoughts blazing up to her place and
Guess what happened next
She opened up heaven’s gate
And just before late I slipped out
I’m a Grown ass man
Doin his thing, waitin to blow up like an old land mine
In doin what he drools over
But time after time
Something decides to creep up and cover the light
Lost my way
Then I revoked to ever know, I ever thought that way
But in the in between time, that in the mean time
Spent a lot of time
Gettin pissed off just to medicate and lift off
Don’t need Don Perion to sip off
Already had my way with the bottle
Even thought to get back with the trouble and rejoin the hustle
That’s just what happens to a man who really knows his old ways
Whos tired of making ends meet and ponders getting back to the streets.
Memory sets in and he remembers an O.G. saying
No matter how tall your pockets stand when you ball
Eventually times gonna make you fall
And I as I pull myself together
I don’t wanna end up like the twin towers rubble
I mean no offence to nine eleven but at that time I probably could have used a reverend
But all that’s irrelevant now
because i live with a different perspective now
there you go you made it to the end :-) comment if you like, constructive criticism wanted as well.
sometime i work so hard
but a kind of ppl make it bad
thats make me feel so deep sad
you know i just laugh on dm laud
some of dm think they'r British
shit weak up ur just like a bitch
u can't handle it so u just scratch
ur self cuz u losz ur dream nd u can't catch
the rainbow is out now,
I saw it this morning on my way to school
the rainbow our heroes of old died fighting for
died believing for
died praying for
died hoping for
it is out now, I see it in that school bus painted Black and White and Indian by its passengers
I see it, you can see it too mother just open your eyes and sight beyond the obvious
see it in that black child eating a samosa over there
oh the beauty of its splendored colors.
I see it, you can see it too brother just open your eyes and see beyond the nose:
see it over that white soul walking the streets of Soweto freely
I see it, its splendor like a flower garden in the sky
I see it on that public toilet with no inscription: “whites only”
I see it: you can see it too father in the faces of the so called “born frees”
I see it in the tongue of that Indian man speaking Zulu
see it too buddy? On that black dude sharing a rugby field
i see the rainbow wonderfully engineered by the selfless life of
more like painted stars in the sky but only in the skins of a people-a rainbow natio
i could sit here. day in and day out
thinking of the most proper way
to let the ink in the pen spill out
but as of late im feeling prehistoric
so much weight on my shoulders
and i dont know where to go
resuscitate my soul
look back up and head to the goal
so much evil around. i feel like the devils workin double shifts just to bring me down.
on the road to redemption
you can take a seat up in the front section
just so you can feel the emotions
in this electric notion
i've done a lot of things that hide the halo
let it all collaborate when i medicate
now look at me, mind workin like plato
formulate a new path to take so i can
maneuver through all the mistakes
we all know we cant change what we've already made
but we can change the next thing we create
startin to sound like a serenity prayer
5 steps till im thirty
and the twenty four before i was never a player
found out when the lights came back on im strictly a lover
its the strongest drink for your soul, when its thirsty
so careful how much you intake or be left hungover
even worse be the one she ran over
i dont mean to come off like im too deep
but the obstacles made there way through just to scrape through
and leave me suffocating
just for me to re-invent a new way to breathe, re-decorating
is your life so complicated
you rather wet up your pillows and revoke from the life you live
just think of your kids mourning
theyll never see that pretty face in the morning any more
cheer your self up
you got a lot to live for
your a gem and im that friend
trynna appraise the value
that you dont see inside of you
just another day for him
searchin wonderin what his purpose is
running in circles
till he found a way through all the turbulence
The HEART WANTS what the HEART WANTS,
People say "Listen to your HEART."
But what if you can't HEAR it?
Your MIND wants all these other things,
and then you CAN'T HEAR your HEART.
I sit and CLEAR my MIND
I sit LISTENING to my HEART
BUT it SAYS NOTHING
it BEATS to NOTHING
What am i suppose to do now?
Plzz comment if u like my poem or have any thoughts and plzz rate
You send bolts through my skin
something I was never to
accomplish with you, when I
saw you it's like my heart sank
to my stomach and I was in
shock my body still my body
heavy felt like when I moved I
was about to fall to my knees
you make me want to get
inside my brain pick you up and
take you out pick you one by
one like a flower because I do
love you and love you not.
Flow slow through thy bitter life
Cross gently, and fancy fiery strife;
Float in dark silence without a wing,
There is time to melt till ardent spring.
Thy love, vision, grief and desire
Are sweet seeds for earth’s fire,
In a world of doubt and despair,
Where pity and mercy are so rare.
In thy heart, thy soul dost weep,
And look where thou vainly creep,
With faint innocence and sad tears
Thy feet are weighed by dreamy years.
Triumph thy pains in aware quietness,
A flower exchange life for a dew caress,
Though it hides her bless in tiny seeds,
Then perish humbly with eternal creeds.
Blind thy eyes to aches and wittily live,
And forget, ignore, and cordially forgive;
And forsake the wealth of daily pleasure,
Content’s Treasure has heavenly measure.
On that cloudy weekend in June
I hear a soft and graceful tune
from the grey bird on the tree
Singing sweet lullabies felt
blessed in the moment
My body tingles of joy at sight
Gazing out through
my open door,
Letting thoughts fly free
Releasing love out into the horizon
Heart filled with emotion came
Grey bird stood playing its tune
for awhile and on the wings of
Then as the rain fell from the
sky the grey bird flew away
I blew a kiss to the clouds and
utterd these simple words of I
Love You father ( who's now in
heaven ) and yet I hope to hear
that grey bird sing again once
more for me
Farewell, love your son
Poem contest for Debbie -referential
You stood by me when I was alone;
But now it’s me who has left you alone..!!
You think this is fair, coz I don’t..;
You my friend deserve better..
Better than I can ever be..!!
All I have done is left your dreams shattered..;
Now you’re in trouble, and who caused it was me..!!
You my friend deserve better..
Better than I can ever be..!!
Every single tear, that falls from your eye..;
I blame it on me..!!
You stood by me when I was alone;
But now it’s me who has left you alone..!!
You think this is fair, coz I don’t..;
You my friend deserve better..
Better than I can ever be..!!
When you were being hurt..;
All I could do was stand and watch..!!
Like a spectator, as if my hands were tied..!!
Who needs this recognition?
When I can’t even take care of my friend..
When she needed me the most..!!
Remembering all that you have done for me..;
I feel so heavy and sick of myself..!!
As, when you were being hurt..;
All I could do was stand and watch..!!
Like a spectator, as if my hands were tied..!!
Even though, you stood by me when I was alone;
But now it’s me who has left you alone..!!
You think this is fair, coz I don’t..;
You my friend deserve better..
Better than I can ever be..!!
What lies beneath
The flooding drains
A spiders web
Spawned of rustic chains
If you ask me how I am
I'll reply that I'm ok
Hiding behind this mask
As I resume to face this day
Then theres the sights
A synonym of what I cannot find in you
But I have found
Sometimes hunger is the only kind of food
Have I lost my Faith?
Its something that I could never see
Then theres your eyes
Still falling away from me
But if I was a better man
Would your rivers run deep into outer space
While all along your insisting
That we are both two worlds away
Behold this longer list of denials
And uncertain hope
Reflecting fears of affection
And you still keep your eyes closed
Then by my own admissions
My heart has grown from cold to colder
And by my own submissions
Losing your love has bled me sober
Life's gifts is of all the good and
Never knowing what may arise
An angel is everlasting hope we
long to have and to hold
We have watched you through
just like a hawk
We will never give up on you
we know you are strong
Who the angels will pull you
Where there is a will there's a
And with god looking over us
well know we will be safe
Even tho this deadly danger of
a disease took you over
We know in our hearts that
steady burns yull be ok
As a fighter like Athena (a
warriors guide)you will grow
Even now we see your alot
Must be these guardians of
heaven looking over you
Feeling good with this is all you
This danger none should live
But as long as there is Angels
up above its all you will ever
need to pull through
A tragic time.
- by Brian O'Toole
Caregiver of a cancer patient
You know what?
i am here so unclearlry
i love you so fiercely
that's all that I know
i'll get in trouble
loven you, you loven me
I am unashambled naked
You'll take me, won't you?
I killed my feelings...
I killed my dreams...
I killed my hope...
You killed your time...
You killed your beauty...
You killed your future...
We killed our love.
We killed our marriage.
We killed our family.
We are Killers.
But we are still alive and out from the prison!
Copyright Constantinos Grigoriadis © All rights reserved
In midnight skies the cries of love drift off to sleep in endless love.
For he who heard them.
Sent them hope, that God created a world for them.
For us to see and bare good times.
For no more hurt and devishlish crimes.
For the earth which once was good.
Is soured and torn.
There are no morals or dreams no more.
Or hope of good things when suffering soars.
For they are crushed by his vast sword.
For he who has the greater sin.
He has carried and been burdened with.
He has been forgotten.
In times like these.
Because people hearts bleed with disease.
For they have burdened him with more sin.
They have forgotten the pain he is in.
For he so carried his cross with pride.
A younge man who was destined to die.
No matter what the world does think.
This man did live before we did.
We have lost our way in darkened times.
Like lost sheep we have roamed, away from him.
If youd only listen and help to carry his cross.
Take the blame for things done past.
Change our ways for hope to last.
We wont do that out of pride.
When he is denied.
I feel for him.
I pick his cross up and help him off the ground.
For he is my brother.
Who I have found.
He has carried that cross.
No man deserved his life in such a lose.
Tormented and torturded to no extent.
He didnt look like a mere man in the end.
He coutinued to stand even after he fell.
Showing me the strength of Heaven and hell.
For a man so strong, so bold and kind.
Showed me what we can do as man kind.
He gave his life for everyone who reads this.
For those who can not see.
Do not be blind
Find this man, for he needs you.
He gave his life to save you.
With your help, you raise his cross.
You heal that burden of love.
That has been lost.
Ease his pain and find your way.
For Heaven is a start and hell is a step away.
when rob stepped out of the courthouse,with charges for posession
he thought "it could be worse,it could have been for weapons"
and then he thought..."nothing really matters anyway"
when liz stepped of of the rehab,with a new outlook on life
she felt all those same feelings of hurt, pain, and strife
and then she thought "nothing really matters anyway"
when luke picked up his young son from daycare,and knew he had an hour
he thought back to the time he WOULD have stopped to grab his now EX-wife some flowers
and then he thought "nothing really matters anyway"
when lisa lifted up her body with nothing but her arms,and looked down at her legs
she wondered why the heck they were even THERE anyway..what for?
and then she thought "nothing really matters anyway"
all four people that same night,all in their own homes
picked up a remote,turned on the news and watched it come to blows
one man had done 25 years in jail,for something he had not really done
one woman lost the battle to addiction,one she thought she'd already won
one boy got hit by a car on his bike,he just only 5 his parents,divorced
one man lost his arms and legs while over fighting the war
four different people,four different lives,four different struggles,all about to cry
four different souls,four different heart,four different minds,all to have a fresh start
why does it take a reality check to pull us into gear?
why is it that reality sometimes must be our greatest fear?
the next time you think you're the only one who hurts and has plight
the next time you feel you're all alone,the only one who cries at night
try and remember,try not to forget,that you are never alone
whether you're telling your mom and dad your gay to the face or over the phone
whether your wife divorced you,your husband's a dog,or your kids have NO respect
you are human,deserve more,and you're not alone,cause' there is someone right next....
to you!!! nothing really matters. until you realize...nothing really matters.
I am so sorry I tend to whisper to my self while the wings on my back enfold me in my idiocy and bust in a furl of feathers and fire.
My authentic halo falling broken reinforcing my thoughts on transformations...
My lush lies crept up into me whispering to you my secrecy and my merry go round patterns...
I was adapted to serous sabotage and unconsidered volcanic eruptions... Having nothing to react to I made my own quake...
i deserve everything.
But for you to say I can't feel is something that just shocked me at my core...
But then again what should I expect?
are you kidding me...?
But then again what should i expect...
I gave you a reason to be suspicious a reason to say those things...
With my viscosity on the subject I realize I have to be punished... and it has nothing to do with you...
Help me im trapped in a sea of depression.
This sea looks like it shall never end.
I kept swimming for a long time.
Then I saw you, You in the boat.
You picked me up and nutured me back to health.
You allowed me to live on your ship for as
long as i wanted.
That all changed.
You threw me back into the pit.
Even though i'm still swimming to get to you.
You are already gone.
But i will keep swimming until i find you.
Hopefully you will accept me into your life again.
For now though, I am swimming for you.
And I will keep swimming until my life comes
To a stop.
I am only one who hopes that I didn't have a fear
But I do, I do have one
Most fears are being trapped by bear
But mine, mine is not a pun
I have a father that left
He left when I was young
He did no theft
But it still stung
My mother says it was his choice
I don't know what to believe
I could always just speak my voice
Showing her my grieve
My mother says Oh, He's just a jerk!
But how am I to know if she won't let me see
My biggest fear,
It isn't all about me!
My biggest fear is not just to be free
My biggest fear isn't having glory
My biggest fear, is hearing the other side of the story
why do we have clouds?
why do we have sky?
why do we have music?
why do we have computers?
just think why why why!!!
i jump to meet my mark,
it is met with arms out wide,
nothing, yet i expect a spark
so in little black book i confide.
what i ask of the masses, alot
admittedly ashamed i am not
to think, rejoice, connect the dots
to remember what we once forgot.
all i ask i that we don't assume,
they rely on ignorance to consume,
open your eyes and take full bloom,
never take an uninformed flume,
i see too much trouble ahead to ignore,
when i opened my eyes we had ten years,
i am still coming round and now we have four,
i see too much blood that will mix with my tears.
everything will mingle and change
it will all make sense once done
its just right now, its beyond our perceptive range
and to elaborate on the story no fun.
for certain synchronocities will take form
the knowledge unwraping in the implicate
it may not always be blatent, but hidden in the norm
some could term it karma, i make my own fate.
Never in a million years would i have thought
this to be,
my bestfriend, companion, and so special
if i wouldnt have opened my eyes,
she could have just passed by and walked right
outta my life.
but in Gods weird since of loving humor way,
today he brought Brittany Back to stay,
a life from my past that i had lost,
never knowing what would be Gods cost.
Now i sit hear always waiting to see,
her simple smile brighten up for me.
The friendship, hugs, smiles and the tug at my heart,
now i know it was just the start.
I may not always be the best,
but yet she still chooses me above all the rest.
all i ask is please let this be I love you Brittany,
and God please bring her home to Me...
For The Love Of Will
The pain is deeply rooted within.
They see but don't know the thoughts that constantly stir.
Fear, regret and remorse as I drift off to sleep.
Into a land of peace and tranquility.
Acceptance, reassurance and unconditional love awaits me.
Oh how he loves me for whom and what I am.
Can it be true?
Can it be real?
His loving eyes shine down upon me in admiration.
I never want to wake to a life of uncertainty.
Words softly spoken from his lips to my heart.
The promise reveals his sanctuary within the embrace of his arms.
Harmony doesn't end in verbal slaps.
By Robielynn Collins
I'll never forget,
the look in your eyes,
the way you smiled,
the way you cried,
the way it felt,
when you touched my skin,
knowing that you ,may never win,
the way that you held me,
the way you cared,
the way you got nervous,
when you were scared,
not of anything,
that could give you strife,
but scared of losing,who you called your life,
I know it's to late,
but now I know,
you loved me more,
then just words could show...
Always be compassionate!
For giving has its joy.
Kept lies may never offer partnerships!
Quickly, romance slips through useless void!
Who exits your zone?
I lay here hearing the wind blowing against my window
Thinking How much of a fool I was
When I let you go
I feel like such a horses butt
You wont even talk to me
And All I want to say is
Could you ever forgive me
And my foolish ways
I need and want you
I can't do without you
we are stitch together
Could you ever forgive me
For being such a fool
Cause I love you.
Once lyed a scarlet thread, buried within the grass.
A wiseman once said, it bares stories of he past.
It was about 3 inches long, but scripted infinite dreams.
They say it once belonged, to a loner outside this reality.
He was brave and strong, nothing was out of his reach.
Except the angel that he saw...that angel was me.
I speak on his behalf, for he is in to much pain.
I was all he ever had, but I couldnt love him that way.
I feel no remorse, to have left him in the dark.
I meant not to take course, through his lonesome heart.
Till this day, as he loses the will to live
I still cannot say, I felt the way he did.
He loved me dearly, he put me before his well being
but to speak sincerely, fate did not have us to be.
I left him a thread, so he may visualize his past,
but after all was said, it lyes alone in the grass.
I once fell for a man with looks to kill and long hair as golden blonde
Body as a warrior god should be with his eyes so blue as ice
There I stood frozen into his spell
As he held me and looked deep into my eyes
And utterd these simple words of love I was sprung deep into him
This god of thunder kissed my lips ever so softly
Thought I've found my one true love only to find his true way of lies and useing my heart
Just to crumble and crush me down to my sorrow with his enchanted hammer to crush my heart
And all I hoped for to a million shatterd peices
I suppose this will be as I once fell for Thor
By Brian Otoole
Away across the sea I found a Shamrock,
She was as pretty as the golden sun in Kent.
I knew I should not touch this lovely Shamrock,
But I knew her charm would hunt me if I went.
I reached out and held the little Shamrock,
The wind kept tugging just as if to say
Please don't take this flower out of England.
Leave if you wish but let the Shamrock stay.
The charm of Ireland seemed to glow and prosper,
and everything was pure as pure could be.
Happiness was ours and soon another,
Just as long as we stayed near the Irish Sea.
The Shamrock flourished fine in dear old Ireland,
where sunrise drives the mist in Dingle Bay
and Shamrocks get along beside the channel,
on even by the Mersey so they say.
To take a Shamrock far from home brings trouble,
and lucky as this charm could ever be.
It soon began to wilt and louse its luster,
Soon after we had moved across the sea.
The Shamrock flourished one more time then wilted,
and nothing I could do even seemed right.
I tried air, water, and even sparkling sunshine,
and even kept the door open on it at night.
I swear I'll never move another Shamrock,
As this one's back again now with the breeze,
Maybe some day she'll float on back to England
and settle down around the lovely trees.
contentment contradicted by emotions supressed
more like medicated happiness
an unmanagable mess
lost in deception
denial, i lied to my self
with a destorted perception
I sabatosh my health
abandon my values
turn my back on my kin
in a control battle with addiction
I delusianaly think I could win
a downward spiral of adventure
in which im killing my self
its time to surrender
its time to seek help
Can't tell him how I truely feel
He will not think I am being real
It's not perfect timing for us I bet
We can't get married yet
He has my heart
But my brains wondering
I'm all he wants in life
He wants me to be his wife
We still need time to grow
Oh how I miss him so
Yes he's my first love
God sent him from up above
Life is about connecting the dots
And i know he completes my puzzle
Him and I met for a reason
During that holiday season
Six long years ago
Feels like eternity though
Maybe I should just let this breakup be
Oh how badly he wants to grow old with me
Six years we been together
I thought it would last forever
He holds a special place in my heart
Is arguing enough to keep us apart
What do I do
Stay away or make the call
Oh how I made the fall
I fell in love with a guy
Is it time to say goodbye
The decision I make is key
It will change my eternity
Keep my distance
Or hold onto him tight
When will I see the light
Is he Mr. Right?
I can write about him and I all day
Oh how my days have been gray
Why is life so tough
Is our relationship that rough
No one understands us
They just see all the fuss
I know he is the one for me
The only man I want to see
He makes me feel just right
When I sleep next to him at night
I think about him all day long
And when he use to sing me a song
Three weeks is just too long
Was this breakup over due
Or is it just for a few
Days weeks months years
It brings me so many tears
I have this sadness in my heart
How long will we be apart
Will we speak tomorrow
Or will my day be filled with sorrow
I'll just have to wait and see
What God has in store for me
Nobody understands anyone fully.
Just because you feel excluded,
Doesn't mean no one loves you.
Dont worry about things.
Just make the best of things and
never let things weigh you down.
Just like you i was depressed.
Just make things better,
and always never let words
affect your ego or your
For you are beautiful on the inside
and no matter what you have done
in the past.
Many of us do terrible things.
But you shall be forgiven.
Dishearten was I in foreign land
Unjust Kings enslaved me
Until His Unfailing Nail Pierced Hands
From enslavement saved me
Now strongly praised beyond compare
Rock of my Salvation
Build in me a house to dwell
With unyielding dedication
Hear my new song
The Joyful shall sing
This Ransomed Nation Thankful for His
Sacrifice, Amazing Reconciliation
I was growing up as a crazy girl,
thinking every thing would be all right,
with no scence to take control of what came up next, then you died.
I was left with a shallow heart, not knowing you meant right.
Till the day I got caught and old enough to be convicted.
I realized life was hard and you meant right.
Why do I now dream of you to set me straight and to forgive me dad ?
But where are you dad?
I feel so bad!
I need to know you forgive me dad?
I love you dad!
I need you dad to tell me in my dreams every thing will be all right.
why is he/she mad.
i cant say why
so i ask and they say i'm not gonna tell you
When we were kids,
The things we did were hidden under the grid.
Young and naïve
We never believe love could be so well hid
But with regret, I’m willing to bet,
And say the older we get,
It gets harder to forgive,
And then harder to forget.
We build our hearts of plastic.
Get cynical and sarcastic,
Becoming lonely and spastic
Then we’d love to feel love, but can’t stand the rejection,
Hiding behind our fears as a form of protection,
Longing for a chase to taste the kiss of affection,
I thought I was close, but under further inspection,
It shows I’m in the wrong direction,
Struggling and running with no detection,
I’d change if it’s not for the seduction.
But then it’ll take a lot of medication,
Just to suppress the intention of the painful detention.
We all need love really, because it’s our way of reception.
when someone says you need to forgive someone for something
that does not mean you are saying what they did was okay
when they tell you to just let it go,unhook the anchor...
they mean for you,not for them,see a better day
you are giving someone power,when you let them affect your life to that extent
so forgive someone for YOUR own sake,actually DOES make sense
you hear alot of cliche' things,especially growing up like i did
but at the end of the day,i refuse to let them be that big
the creepy man that scarred you for life,or maybe an abusive husband
the girl that plays mindgames with the good man that's in love with her
that mother who let the stepfather abuse you cause' she "loved him"
or the father that drank and said nothing but "okay" and "sure"
no matter what your situation,you must forgive them promptly
you must forgive them for you,not for them,this doesn't mean it wont be rocky
it's hard to forgive, but its even harder to forget
but if you hold onto these grudges you will regret
you will become a bitter human being,with tons of exhausting baggage
thinking about these things and re-feeling them will run you ragged
trust me,i've lived it
im trying to fix it
im not perfect,im only human
but im trying at least,to remove it
let it go.
unhook the anchor.
let it go.
unhook it from your ankle.
Walking these streets of manhattan so aimlessly
All alone in the dark only lights by the city shops
I'm scared alone feeling out of love now lost the knife was rough
You stabbed me in the back all I can do is Cry on my knees veins hot as fire
With mixed emotions running through
It's Like this dagger killing me more inside all this love and all this hate burns me away
Deep inside passion urning for another lusting after another
As if I were a lion in a jungle taking that prey and burning up with tense desire
It's like a knife with loves wounds after the lust
This is very hard for me in a world you left me bleeding alone
Never picked me up left my heart to die out
With my tears hitting the city pavement times like this just burns me away
Love can go off like a loaded gun a love vanishes just like a knife with lust
-- by Brian OToole jr.
Sometimes I Wonder
Poem By: Sherman Badgett
Sometimes I wonder if I was dead would I be burnt to ashes or would I be buried with the possibility of having a tone stone
Sometimes I wonder will I go to hell because of my many sins or will it be heaven because God forgives
I wonder who would visit my grave site and how often would they visit
Would I be left alone on my birthday and the day I past away
If not ,who would stay with me for seconds minutes, hours or even days, how long?
Would you leave me flower on the green grass so other visitors would realize I was just shown some love by the fresh flowers left to rot
When you stare at my pictures would your eyes become Niagara Falls or would you reminisce about the past and just laugh it off
It’s hard to show tears when the person is meaningless
Knowing I’m gone y’all probably be in pain, pain causes stress, stress led to sleep or even sudden death
I wonder how someone could neglect someone they truly love
Why cant women stay close to there man during hard times
If I’m forgotten does that mean I’m meaningless
A lot of people hate when they don’t know something
So what’s the point of living if death is secretive?
Im sorry for lying and not telling you the truth,
Im sorry for not loving you and for not giving my heart to you,
Im sorry for crying in the middle of the night and for letting my tears effect you.
Im sorry for not being your dream girl and for not being as perfect as you
imagined me to be and this is why I say;
Im sorry for being me
We only spent an hour together
And then go days or weeks
Without seeing one other
But when I did get to see you
I was like a little school girl
When we went to the park for walks and Ice cream
That meant a lot to me
Even though I might have not showed it
Look at us now
We said all those hate full things
When they was never meant to be said
When I asked you to marry me
I really wanted you too
But now I sit here with regret
Listen to sad songs
That made me think of you
And I just wanna cry more
I feel so shame of what I said
Now all I got is pictures of you
I was such a dang fool
When I Said it would never work
Cause that wasn't true
All I wanna do now is take it back
But now it's to late....
every once in awhile, i wonder how you're doing
every once in awhile, the thought goes right through me
every now and then, i have a fond memory
every now and then, i remember you were in fact the enemy
every once in awhile i think about the birth of our child
every once in awhile it stings,but it's oh-so mild
every once in awhile i remember the first time we made love
every once in awhile i recall praying to the stars above
when you put me down,insulted me,always brought me to tears
when you shook me,choked me,slapped me,poked me for 3 whole years
every once in awhile i remember how it was to be so timid
every now and then i think my god he really did it
every once in awhile, i miss you,yes this is true
but only every now and then you see,you cannot make me blue
every once in awhile i have good memories and want to cry
but then i remember how the majority of our time was and me just wanting to die
every once in awhile i wonder what would have happened if we'd stayed
i make myself keep on working ive to i got to get paid
every now and then i see a handsome,sweet,moral guy
that i left in my past,and flew right by,and then i wonder why
but if im honest with myself,which is sometimes hard to do
you and i were oil and water,and we both knew it true
you were agressive,i was submissive,that is a lethal combonation
i was a girl,you were a man,who knew what to say,i was taken
so yes.every once in while i miss you.
id be lying if i said it wasnt so.
but the truth of the matter,i had to do..
i had to make you go
sometimes i think of you with positive memories,but thats mostly for our child
now and then i forget all the misery
but thats only every once in awhile
most people like holidays and some dont or they are always grumpy on
holidays.mostly the children like holidays.lots of family's spend time
together and have lots of fun on holidays.
Afraid to sleep at night
Too much on my mind
And I pray that god
Will guide my heart
Will save me right in time
And my joy melts into stressing
I have no one to lift me high
And now the madness in me
Having no where left to hide
Every day in my life,
There's a problem I have to find inside
But somewhere inside my heart,
A diamond lies deep inside
And I hope I'm gonna be saved in time
So you see I got a lot in me
But there's more than this for me
When god lands his hands to heal my heart
I'll be just fine
And the madness that surrounds my heart
It shatters as they land
See I grew up on a painful road.
But I learned to block the pain
No, I wont give up tomorrow
Because I'll come to life
feel with your heart
think with your head
block out with the walls
turn off when it becomes to much
smile with your eyes
scream out with your lungs
cry out with your scars
punch with your words
hug with your arms
walk with the souls of your feet
run into walls and turn around
stand your ground
your here for a reason
just need to find it
good luck ?
they are very different .you like to spend time with them.enjoy life with
them.your family will always be there for you.
Tragedies, catastrophes, and adversities
Agony, pains and calamities
Harshness, adultery and debauchery
Ruthless, rage and forgery
World has all in it,
Pierced my LORD with nails n big hits
HE shed HIS blood and saved us from all pits
Strips and cruelty HE suffered so calmly
He died for our sins and saved us Eternally
Today same world, gives us the same agony
Same people and the same journey
I cried unto LORD and said I hate them
They are so stubborn then why should I forgive them
How could I do this, for they should be punished?
They hurt, they torture, they envy n they jealous
For you told me to bless them and do not be callous
LORD said, my child they do the same with me too
Then why do you expect them to cater you?
I have sent a savior for you he got crucified for you
Just rejoice and be glad when in my name you are slashed
Heaven will be at your hand and glory will be flashed
Wait patiently and be righteous
Holy Spirit will be your guidance
Judgment day is near, just wait and don’t fear
For I’ll take you along in the kingdom that belong
Heaven it is called and cruel world is gone.
Come in my arms and live a life long.
LOVE YOU JESUS.....AMEN
Where are you now,
Did you choose for home?
Did you choose for your tropical adventure?
Which one is your garden?
Which universe has your favorite stars and moons
Which universe is welcoming you?
Which one is fearful
From your eyes,
Your hair, and your lips.
Will be your next destiny.
Which universe your love could possibly
And I still have time
they have orange.
they have green.
they have red.
they have yellow.
they have purple.
those colours should make everyone happy!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!
because the are nice bright ,happy colours
Small town village boy yet I speak
For I have seen the horrors of the world
A curse I must carry
Born from my crime against love
Thou in repentance I spoke
Yet I see the eyes of hate and revenge surrounds me
In my not so innocent town
I was shun by poor and rich
And vowed to get back my penance
And in a forest so dark and deep
I found my heart’s delight
All the riches wished and their death as a plus
So with a vengeful heart
I sold their souls for silver and gold
Then I laughed out an evil laugh
Then I saw the child forgotten
And heard the joy of laughter
and knew my very mistake
So I rushed and saved my people
And peace I felt that instance
But for the consequence I was unprepared
And my atonement did not save me
Condemned to be banished
Or my head in the gallows
Now I can’t keep wondering
Was my love worth it
I've felt guilt
and I've broken down.
Ive been to cloud nine,
and I've broken down.
I've exprienced love,
and I've broken down.
I've walked the path and turned half way,
and I've broken down.
I've broken down,
Than I built myself back up
We are who we are
we were 97's, 98's and 2000's
but we are the future twenty twenty
by what we create may become plenty
We are teens
Lord forgive us for our sins
as we still learning our ways
as for us teens we are trying
to be better people for our coming days
We are life
for we bring peace,
happiness and joy
for people around us
We are love
is not dead
We are South Africans
for Nelson Mandela
we still united
We are human
we make mistakes
give us a chance
for we can still bring
change into our world
Do I have a Fear of love or am I scared of commitment
The answer I can’t even bare to listen
I’ve always got a pretty girl, cutest smile, sexiest body, nicest bum
Yet I can’t ever see myself wifeing one
I don’t feel a thing for them my heart’s cold. My insides are numb
So people think the way I live my life is dumb
Even if I like this one
I’ll tell her she’s the wrong one
The moment I like her and she begins to get close
I know it’s time to let go
I’m more interested in writing and getting songs done
You would understand why I act this way
If you knew me before
There ain’t an ex I would take back today
It’s ok for them they’re in my past, safe
So I move on, one after the other
Is it because I was never close to my sister or mother
Is it because I’ve lost the only girl I ever loved, the girl I would of wifed up?
But I messed up. Cause I’m not good at this relationship type stuff
The pain from my childhood am I still healing
People think I don’t care about these girls feelings
Yet I always think should I of treated her better?
But I’ll always leave when she says she needs me forever
It’s too much pressure on me
I give my best. Yet you still expect better from me
Maybe one day I’ll find the girl who will help me overcome my fears
Or maybe till the day I die my fears will last
So we can Enjoy tonight together while you are here
But I apologise if tomorrow I don’t call back
I used to be blind,
but I conquered and unwind,
seeing the truth in my eyes,
staring at the skies,
I recognize the world's purity,
even beneath its anger an cruelty.
Instead of punching walls,
I push my rage aside, and let it all fall,
even through the midnight,
with the full moon,
it's a sign of light.
The ways of reality,
the ways in humanity,
relate in the fantasies,
an the lessons in the memories.
Before I sleep an I be resting,
I would say
angels "you have my blessings"
even with all of my sins,
I would say sorry,
to you Lord, I hope you can forgive me.
Through times of pain,
and times that were fun,
I hope you can still help me,
even for all the things I've done.
I was be little
I felt so small
I was afraid
I could not say
I would go home and cry and tuck my burses away
And wonder what makes me a target
Of others laughs and talks behind my back
I would ask my self what would make a person act this way
Is it the fear they see in me is it the power they felt to gain
Not fighting back made me so sad
It is not in me to fight its just not right
The red face teary eyes I could not hide
Every day was the same ride
Then a black cloud appeared
Bring bad thoughts to my ears
But I refused to hear instead I turned to my faith
And I prayed and he answered me and lifted me high
and Gave me back my pride
So I did what Jesus would do
I in braced my fears came face to face
With my aggressor and the glow of the lord
Appear on my face taken away all the aggression
All of the pain I was able to stand a hundred feet tall
And I felt brave no longer the victim
In Jesus I found the way
He is the way and the truth he set me free
My bully is now my friend
when she cried
i looked away
i didn't want to see
I wasn't really old enough to see
but then i did
i had to know
oh, what they did to her
i hope she doesn't remember
it hurts my heart
it hurts to remember
remember that I didn't
I just didn't
sweet girl, too much
too much for you to drink
I can't get over you
in that bedroom
in that bed
over and over
one after the other
and you just slept
and I am still sorry
An uneasy blood cascades
in the slender arteries
that I wanted to touch
disappear into twilight of memory.
Always a sense of bereavement.
why do I care for you ?
Time drops like an old coin
in the hands of a drifter.
Take away my sleep
I want to wake for the whole night
and recite the unwritten poems.
Again life had been very kind to me
I am free to face
muse and sorrow.
A little child with eyes that shine
Where there was only peace of mind.
To run and play
and to explore
All Gods gifts they did endure.
No thoughts of hurting
No thoughts of war
No thoughts of pain for them to endure.
Thank God for children and they're innocence too.
How did they know when they left for school.
Goodbye to "mommy & daddy too
They're last day," Just going to School"
A safe place to learn and play
What gave him that right to take it away?
We'll never know what caused his pain
but, to take their life,he had nothing to gain.
God Bless the children who were in that school that day
Who lost their lives and no longer can play
They're looking down from Heaven above
The hearts filled with nothing but love
Is there an answer
A lesson learned?
Only one knows
God, Father & Son......
I'm sorry for giving you sleepless night's,
I'm sorry for each and every fight,
I'm sorry for your pain and agony,
I'm sorry for the missing harmony,
I'm sorry for my selfish love,
I'm sorry for not caring enough,
I'm sorry for my restlessness,
And most of all,
I'm so very, very, very sorry for puting you threw all of this!!!
My lover takes
My loneliness away
It's time to look
To look forward to a new beginning
And hope for happiness
In the new world of Where?
So we shall look longingly at her picture
It does not shade me
My loss of success
Will hopefully only be
BUT WHAT IS THERE TO KNOW? (is it frown or foe)
Look deep inside your soul
WHERE THE FECK IS THE RECIEPT
Show me the paper and show me the
For the loveless angst has left me
The shores are cold yet the sea is deep
STICKS or GUNS
STICKS or GUNS
STICKS or GUNS
Pull the trigger and you get a smoking nigger
It takes away the pain -- it took HER AWAY
She is at the end of the stick
Poking a gun at your nose!
OF MY SNOT
I miss you - I want you back but under
But let's be friends
And NEVER speak
its only been two days , since those words spilled out . it still hurts to think about . but i will not let your memorie be covered by evil memories . i will keep the good times alive in and close to my heart. sometimes my heart beat speeds up and my body achs.lay my head apon that pillow ,close my heavy eyes .count the seconds till water rolls down my checks.time use to fly by , but now what feels like hours is only seconds .
Why is it that?
Going to church make me cringe.
Is it because of the days way back when?
My Grandma would tell me the worlds going to end.
Is it because of years, the last days we live in?
Or is the fear that's triggered by sin.
Is it because of the drums, when the Pastor speaks?
That I might throw up my hands, and dance on my feet.
Is it because of the water, that sets up in the pew?
Your dipped a sinner, and pulled out clensed and brand new?
Is it because I know, I'll have to live straight?
So when it's my time, I'll enter God's gates.
Is it because of Mother. who just wants to see?
When God comes for them , he'll also take me.
Is it because there's no time, nor a date?
When the sky opens to wonder your fate.
Is it because, of the words sent from Heaven up high?
You must love the God that lives in the sky.
Daddy, mommy, sorry
For all I've cause you bad,
Forgive me for the things I've done
The times I got you mad.
I have not meant to hurt you on
Dispoint your dreams,
But sometimes when it all looks bad
its better than it seems..I know
I've let you both down
So many times before,
But now it's time to dry your eyes
I'll see your pain no more.
I don't expect you'd let me
Or even say good-bye,
So remember this is all for you
For your happiness I die.
All churches & religions are the same, they claim
But, let's remember what the Holy Father
Do not bow down to graven images, or
Even, have another god;
For, I am alone is the only true
God, beside me there's no other gods;
He's loved us since before we knew him, but
Iniquities failed us to comply to His will, thus
Judgment is sure to come to all, no exception!
Knowing, that we don't know when it will happen;
Let's not depend then on earthly things, such as
Money, 'cos it's not the answer to man's problem;
Nor, silver or gold the earth provide could save
Our souls, from fiery indignation! Yet
Punishment is avoidable, if we
Quest for the solemn light for the
Redemption of our sins;
Seeing Jesus Christ as your Savior;
Then, you must be found inside His Body, but how?
Unless you hear the gospel, believe in it, be baptized;
Voices of Angels will welcome you into His Fold; And
With steadfastness, share the truth that you inherited to any
Xenos or strangers here on earth, for they are also
Yearning a better home, in the new Jerusalem!
Zealously, men worship God, but does HE accept it?
i am one person a simple person indeed, i try to help i try indeed he is the one
the one i love the man who i wil not hate becuase he is the one i love, amy
please forgive me i did not mean to hurt you i splie ment just to remmber u
he is the one who really loves you this is why he will not forget you, he loves us
both but he loves u more, u simply had no time for u and him to adore. Please
forgive me i did not mean to ruin the friendship that u had with he, i didnt no how
much it hurt thiey.Just remember this and this only he loves u amy and i love
I was thinking last night, i was covered in tears. I had this
fear of losing my parents. My parents mean the world to
me. My parents know who I am. I would be lost with out my
parents, I love my parents.
Do they wounder, do they worry?
maybe care even?
Thinking back does it really matter,
wat they think?what they say?
As long as u make it,
Nothing matters at that point,
make since now does it?
throuh out a life time
you will be judged, u will be hated.
but dont let it break u thAts wat i was told
from a person i hold very dear,
dnt look back, forget the hated acts,
the past is the past,
a future is wat we have to make last.
dont waste it, dont mistreat it.
live it not for the moment
but for the memories that it may carry.
sometimes a fairytail has a happy ending,
if u believe it.
Do you understand why?
Why you are here?
A purpose to serve,
or a waste?
Chioces you make
hearts that break,
a life that's left
with emptyness in your eyes.
A choice that can effect many
lives,a touch that is kind.And
understands horrid minds.
Decisions that create
or destroys many lives.
Who's running you?
Are you running from yourself.
Or chasing that confused person,
that you call me?
Worries,doubts,pain,anger and happiness.
Glad or remotely mad.
Change that sinks deep,
that can alter a life you touch.
It may help a man build
a better shelter.
Turns scare you.What you have to face,
For human face of death
umbilical cord need not
extend. The darkness takes care of
unblemished ghost of sun.
Intergalactic scan remains unseared,
trench warfare continues unabashedly.
Between brothers, the greed calls
for incendiary attacks, for total annihilation.
To achieve the illusion, the blurred statement
feeds the imagination. Deaddiction starts
a race. Deafness of the tunnel. The black
knees crawling on coals.
No night was safe from the condemned suicide.
The creator had the absurd designs.
Why not now the confessional stick,
to beat the darkness? Memory of light
becoming stronger. Give me your hand
to reach the ceremonial peak.
Innocent inside the circle,
you reached nowhere.
Dirty hands on the knob
kept the century locked.
Carbon footprints were deepening
under the sun, blue bird
circling in vain. The jealous
moon exiled to black hole.
The dust of the brutal time
settles on the umbrella. I am shivering.
The lies, the religion, the horrible
facts smell of the million deaths.
Who mode the tapestry of violence
into boneless truth and hairless
legs of prayers? Freedom escapes
through the scrolls of flames.
He said"hello,"she said"why?"He said"what?"and she began to cry...and
said"one day you will say you[love]me but you'll brake my heart."he said"until then
I love you."she said"Never,
here i am laid out, flat out, in this new skin
left with nothing because of me and because of him.
so broken down and the pieces seem lost
and i'm left here almost hopeless, while paying the cost.
What is love anyway? broken hearts, lies and crushed dreams
has been for me while my life rips at the seems.
I am so strong, so courageous ... but so well hidden
so held back from the path that I've ridden.
And i don't trust anyone who says that they care
for me its a chance, a risk, a dare...
like, "i dare you to believe all of my bulls---"
"so later you're crying because you fell for it."
But i am me... and i have dreams
and he won't bring me down, its not what it seems.
i will be made better in this beautiful struggle
and in the mean time, i will not buckle.
who needs him anyway... i mean, right?
he couldn't see my love when it was so BLINDLY in sight.
time has taken a toll on my heart
and my bad actions have played a big part.
So i'm starting with nothing on this path to my life
and i could end up happy, a mother, a wife...
sometimes things are just unexpected
but it still hurts when you've been rejected.
i loved him... for what its worth now
i'll be okay, though i don't know how.
Clouds had refused to part.
A fractured moon was walking in dismay
stroking the gazing stars.
Cornwhite belonging of ashes was
to fire, beloved sky was enchanted
with water ceremony
as a sign of gratitude to earth.
The wind decided to reverse the clock
and navigate in trees of waxing summer
blowing yellow crystals of sulphur.
A red admiral lands on a lone marigold
with detachment, surveys pollen, pie-eyed,
dangles, tilting a nod, emerges for another sortie.
If there was an action, I think in between:
live with it in fire of mind. The voyage
begins when the song of eternity starts.
I have no words to express what my mind did to you.
I had no right though, temptation drove me ahead.
Your thoughts you said to me still haunt me now.
The truth of the words at first you had no love.
I betrayed you,
However, you shared that you had fallen deep.
Passion we shared and that I took advantage.
Advantage of understanding for my secret desires,
Advantage of your love I thought you always had.
I betrayed trust,
From the first, though you shared there was none.
You followed through with my interest at heart.
However, I was completely selfish in my perception.
Deeply I knew my actions would have recourse.
Lost in deep desire,
However, I feel your reception was of jealousy.
I also knew in my heart we would not be forever.
My actions broke our bond, sooner and deeply.
Only you and I know of my discretions lost.
I am guilty,
Only I feel the complete and total loss of all.
This thing I shelter within my heart and mind.
Will haunt and strip my being and soul forever.
This is my cross to bear and share with no one else.
My mind bewildered,
So hear my plea of remorsefulness within your soul.
I am truly sorry for the pain and agony of mental stress.
However, maybe you have forgiven me without forgetting.
I will never forget or ever forgive myself until forever ends.
I await my destruction.
I think I am good
I'm like you
love is very...
sometimes something very difficult to discribe
I know you know what I mean
this is not really a peom
this is a 40 year old CHILD
Today I pray with peace in mind. I pray today that I will find a way to leave my life
behind so I can find a way to heaven. When I climb those steps up high into the
stary sky I'll pray with peace in mind about the life I left behind.
Beyond the thoughts,
nothing I mourned,
nameless death was writing its diktat.
The dirty epithets were accepted for collage.
Simply a prayer was needed
for a childless truth.
Rudimentary terms owned
a beautiful diction.
The ultimate pain makes you dumb.
Words lose the vision, you walk in a hollow city.
Now is the time to remember the movement of truth
in a jungle of drums.
Eyes must find out the old path.
Huge crowds collect at the door.
Human connections are at strain.
The questions are never answered flawlessly.
Life should not burn like coal,
but be a tree,
in praise of sky,
wind and earth.
I see stars and stripes I tilt my head up high I see the flag that saved my life and I
and thankful for my mind because i love the world and all the people who live
here and love everyone else have a happy life with your American flag.Lets stop
Till the end story
hope was not visible
Lie neutral truth
and road side innocence
died under the sun.
End in view was shifting
from error to error.
Statements squeezed between departures.
Steaming cup of patience
dazzled the penniless.
I was sick of hypocrisy.
At the end of my forest
dawn of my child
was peeling a rainbow.
Pedlars of worn out boats
were standing at the shores.
Two little feet were crossing the sea.
Life is a hassel,
that is full of pain,
but sometimes there
is too much to sustain,
so let your eyes
shed tears of light,
and let your sorrow
come out tonight.
The next day,
your thriving for a new life,
and that is when,
you pull out the knife,
the cool blade slides
across your wrists,
releasing the life within you,
and creating the mists,
for a moment your body
becomes completely numb,
then you think to yourself,
how could i be so dumb?
Then I'm walking down,
a long dark hallway,
nothing to be found,
can't even tell if it is
night or day,
now i know that i had
made the wrong decision,
but it is too late to correct it,
this is my fate, and now,
i must deal with it.
But this is not life,
this is just my bad choice,
and since i pulled the knife,
now i have no voice,
demons made decisions
for me now,
and satan sits there,
upon his chair,
and don't ask why or how,
why you are here now,
all of this is not unfair,
nothing can help me,
not even a prayer.
Toe to Toe as we stand facing each other man to man/
Truth is what I want to hear, look am I moving I'm all ears/
Eye to Eye still standing teary eyed,
come on pops no more lies/Truth is what it's worth,
So it's time to quit all this hurt/
Because all you don't bring to the table/
You are what you are labeled/
So let's take the time to talk/
And burn some hours off the clock/
If you don't want to then it's cool/
Then the next word out of your mouth
is of a fool/So Toe to Toe as we stand/
Contemplating the time at hand/
I forgive you while you're standing there/
Go ahead and shed a tear/
Thank you from putting me in this world/
And letting me know everything isn't diamonds and pearls/
Even though you will turn and run/I'm still proud to
be your son/So as we stand Toe to Toe holding your U.S. flag/
I'll make sure I'll tell my kids all about you dad.
JAMAL Z. WILLIAMS
Loneliness of non-being and,
reality, fill up the vessel.
I search for the eloquence while,
emptiness will be my forte.
Countless words are crossing
like a promise in milk-white days
I gather sunlight through grass leaves.
Life had been full of shadows,
the tapestry of love.
The descent was steep.
Coming home I found
no humming words.
Sitting in dark
I wait for shooting stars.
Measuring the blood, drawn from our hurts
was a royal reward
for your fingers.
You are allowed to compare blood
with brown coffee.
Sand in our eyes,
we walked bare-foot
on burning coals.
When I touched your pshyche,
my completeness wavered.
In the empty words
and hollow thoughts.
The road to my dream house burned.
I longed to meet my flame.
You were listening to declaration of truth.
It was a refuge,
there was no evidence
of any movement of humanity.
My soft mind took the imprint
of golden spaces between
the dark alleys of earth.
The skeletons of history remained unclaimed.
Remembering your trust
My attachment floats. Anxiety
of seeking. The dust smears
the face of epileptic truth.
The clogged arteries of mundane heart twitch.
There wasn’t room for sentiments.
Moment to moment I travelled
to break the silence in vain.
Being was my forte,
where the words speak no more
a lifetime of black stillness,
the sunflowers sleeping.
The controller and the enquiry
freeze the ozone.
I repent again for all the sins of eloquence,
the rustling of leaves.
Take care of mood,
hoarseness and slippery speech
there is no room for pain.
A whole tribe of thoughts
scatters the lines to avoid
becoming, featureless and nameless.
Boulders are falling on feathers.
I am leaning towards eerie winds.
The other side of the door
was misty. The kiss of fire.
Mind wanders aimlessly.
The destiny breaks the steps
of sleepwalkers. They are falling in dark,
towards dark. A moon rides the clouds,
its smile becoming larger & larger.
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Just throw these old bones in the backyard
I got tired of life
I've loved it hard
Don't go makin a fuss
Outta losin this old cuss
Just bury me
Like you married me
In my jeans
Take my pieces and maybe make some kind sense
Course, we'll argue about how you got it wrong
Originally submitted under my Mom's site
The search was absolute,
truth was not.
The shades of impermanence
and flowing emotions merged.
I stood between the reality
and tilting shadows of time zones.
The distance had created
metaphors and I was weary of pretentions.
The deep sorrow nurtured
a grain of truth
an essence of time.
Earth shuddered in the
process of integumentation.
I trampled on the grass
as if to find the ozone.
Impatience scattered the wings.
I smelled the stone.
Take me not to gloom of death,
the immeasurable pain
I will find the ultimate path.
It was not easy to uncondition the lips.
Mute genes had become my potency.
Unworded a voice rose in the east,
Let it be as such,
my long cut tear,
Do not dramatize the wound
and put it as an exhibit.
No attempt should be made to mask the fated pain.
Wait for me at the end of the road.
Not for me,
I grieve for the fallen trees, tall glory of past.
It was a question of survival.
Survival of the best, which could not continue.
There is reversal of equatization.
Man has become superior to god.
They are using Him, I am afraid.
Urging him to commit a natural suicide,
a logical ending of a patriarch.
The stage is set for a mass mourning.
A big conspiracy had been brewing
in prisoner’s cell,
which had been in full possession of
Something was always missing around
one had to die daily.
To find out, what?
Just a slip of time,
life was death and death was life.
Death of a man or death of a city
death had no other name.
Hearing the footfalls of death
dogs were howling around a temple
where god was dying.
The nation now mourns
for the banished priest.
At the burning pyre
there is still no peace.
Anger lives inside the books,
flame hides in the candles.
And a rage surges forward
in the bones of archaic humour.
Here's some water
Let me hold your head
help things be smooth
baby, just stay in our bed
Here's the remote
push it wherever you need
Here's some more water
help you pick up speed
I'm maybe sorry
helpin you be this way
makin myself feel better
gettin you thru the day
I keep not lettin go
your'e still breathin
I blast the stereo
I'll keep needin
I keep lovin you
and not cause
I have to
I just do
A solitary moon rises
behind the seven veils
unattended by stars and clouds
between yes and no
turns back through the centuries.
The religion to kill
refuses to stare at the tainted fatality
lying sprawled on the burdened earth
Criminal divinity of the blood
bares the undone creation.
Seed money comes again
into dead bubble.
Cup of sorrow is filled again.
Tryst with nano was like burning in hell.
Headless body of truth,
turning into invisible particles
flaunts an absent God.
The mist envelops a rag picker –
sleeping on the payment.
Hunger fresh grown will be served,
when sun rises.
Indelible ink an yellow pages
bearing the burden of unborn grief
inherits this globe, the ashes
of burnt out words.
Anaconda heart entranced
By tight embraces, quickened glance
Called to midnight by the sound of
Drifters in the moonlight pond
Enter into my domain where
Frozen sheets of lightning rain
Grow up from the ground of prickled pain
Hardly cause for concern
I'm the invisible link to you
Just enough of nothing to prove
Kiss of constriction, heart on the move
Love like a losing battle
Mist of mountains blind our eyes
Nameless birds grow wings and fly
Olive branches, claws delights
Presented in the heat of passion
Quick to loosen the years which bind
Rest in limbo with a blood vessel mind
Snap the branch and I'll quickly descend
To the ground where starvation reigns
Under the cover of the slate washed moon
Valiant apologies slip through the room
Water for drowning or learning to swim
X-rays of novelty's thin, fractured limbs
Yellow in belly and tight in the chest
Zealous in love and in war...
Unfolding the dark night,
quarter moon shrinks
The bitterness of the day,
cave weird taste,
burning the tongue.
You didn’t want to live,
anymore. Roots lopsided,
starved. Age, language slashed,
mist rising. Names in the dust.
The ending was not there
sorrow burnt like candle
burning the meaningless words,
dreams, I hear the silent whispers
of wounds of faltering steps,
doubting the pain. Beyond
the age tales were endless.
Watching became a problem.
Nothing could be redeemed
by choice. I wanted
endless journey to find
the windows. long steps
towards immovable cliffs,
my own version of anonymity
and grace. Because glorification
has started the fear,
the escape and suffering.
Deyab my love your eyes tell me your love is true.
your touch is so passionate yet so gentle.
your heart is so caring.
it calls me in my sleep.
i dream of only you.
my heart skips a beat when i see you.
my body tells me you are the one for me.
my mind thinks of only you.
my eyes see you for who you are.
you are my one true love.
i have dreamed of someone like you my whole life and now i finally found you.
Ends did not meet, like beginnings,
fact was insulted by fiction:
the newborn stuns the God.
Drop by drop
life drips from ankles.
Desolation takes advantage,
forgets the path, becomes self-centered.
Dialect changes, to taste the foul
cadaver breaks the glass jar.
Foeticide of a flute, overnight
the soft face becomes dark. Orange moon
floats like an empty boat.
for the sake of swollen lids of time.
The essence of lies weaves a theme
a skull rolls down on a slide
laughing like sin of omissions.
A hot sun glows from the window.
The identity moves ahead
of the shadow of truth
I search for the absolute
in vain. Can I remove the emptiness
and talk to myself ?
The core feeling is same.
We flow in our own separateness.
I want to outlive my brethren
and eat my death alone.
Mindful I watch the kernel,
swaying tree is silent
I am here due to a fault in the genes.
Grief is not my skull house.
Each night I sleep with dry lips
dreaming a lake.
My pillow floats like a chopped moon.
Silence of anonymity
in the heart of a storm.
It is a curious apparition.
The vibrations of distant whispers
fill up the lungs,
ripping apart the veins.
My inside blood utters
a shrill sob.Where to go?
We cannot return back. Ending of time?
Again I was giving chase
to a mirage.
Wiping off the transient thoughts
oozing from every orifice,
I will sell my dreams today.
Limb by limb,
the naked and brute will buy
For a lost scent
I wandered from moon to moon
flitting past the sky of doves,
and the lonely winds
of crowded griefs.
The trampled earth
will not soak the joy of burning sun.
The tree and the flowers,
and the seeds falling in a heap
Now I will go in the forgotten hills
through mist and rains.
Give me some more pain,
it makes me move faster.
I allowed you to tread on me unflinchingly.
My mind on pause,
ungrieved you turn back the clock.
Enough to stun the century,
I take cognisance of divine’s club foot.
I did not believe in self-pity
but I was racing against time
to avoid a jealous path running with me.
Yet I was sleeping on bushes of estranged thorns
without locking my golden age.
Tulips are no more my favourites.
You have to dig deep to plant the bulbs
and wait. When death opens the door for me,
I wanted to be free from any commitment
and ready to walk in, like a foot soldier.
This cosmos is mine, body is for you.
It no more obeys my command.
No more commas are needed,
a final full stop will do.
I am returning back to my home.
The decline was steep.
Somewhere the clouds burst in tears.
Sitting on the flat prejudice
we weaved a gift of poison for everyone.
It did not stain our shirts.
The big fat people moved about
with great confidence to change the world.
I suffered inwardly.
Perhaps the greed drank
from our passions.
A spectre of hounding.
Which never stopped.
My parents knew better,
always talked of comportment.
Like our love for neighbours.
The turmoil drifted now in our hearts.
A self-potrait became
the vehicle of death
I visited myself,
to wind up the matters of concern.
The graffiti on the abandoned
walls of memories erased
time, altered the wounds,
and trembling shadows.
Sunrise will provide me a lesson.
Learning something about
a cause with remote effect
you will have a soul
connective to the body.
Near the end of the home
lies the river of fire.
Time to bid goodbye
to blind walls
and enter the arena of lashings.
It was difficult to unremember.
The mind rambled and you were chewing
the kiss of death.
Time traveled in circle,
dealing with fear.
I waited for the space, to widen between us
to breathe forgiveness.
Nothing stirs the waves.
The water reflects the elegy,
a poem for the trapped one.
Nostalgia for the brood,
the age gives way. Half aloud
the evening settles under the covers.
Brute claws kill the span.
Walking alone in
the dishevelled inner space
I find peace in my failure,
an innocent patch of a silent hurt.
The futility of hollow beliefs
crawls like a spent thunder.
Truth remains unborn.
I cross a bridge where eterniry begins.
The freaks chase the shadow for a while,
the idea so excruciating
they melt in conspiracy of silence.
In oneness and suchness
the harmony drips
from infinite pores.
The seed has a history.
Lost in resonance of outer space,
now wakes the blood,
distorting the ripples.
Let me change the contours of life,
Spider webs have
elective sites of emotions.
I want to open a new range,
to locate the corrupt moments.
Turn over your face,
let me find the scars.
The soaring pinnacle,
fatherless fame, were declining.
The rot was setting on
the fresco of the wall.
Aspiring for god-head
they have choked the fluiting.
Hands and eyes are cadaverous,
unmoving. Sun is burning very hot.
today we have to bid farewell
to neutral day.
Life will not spare the casting.
Too much mist
has settled on the eyes,
raining madness on the road.
Month and years
are giving incontinence.
A view from the cause,
alters the landscape in you
I surrender to the earth,
the roots. Purifying the leaves.
I tell myself, this was not me,
my music. Still my skin
has the tattoos of pandemic deafness.
I am breathing through the lips.
My attachment to death
is a private affair
my voice lies in a lake.
The butterfly in a womb.
the psalms under the rocks.
Is it ending of death
or death of ending?
I go beyond the brink,
drop the stone in water.
When the moon touches
my eyes, like a kiss
I start sharing the menu of night.
The rimless thoughts are hovering
like small birds. I listen
to their flappings.
Can we live without bargaining?
Do you know the price?
You went blank on the line
between sand and water,
between seizure and assault.
The tribes have unwrapped their torches,
they are coming in numbers.
Who was going on trial?
Fierce fidelity is demanding vendetta.
The drummer announces the fight.
Justice parts the lips for
peace against tragedy!
The golden voice caves in.
Time moves as a profane octopus -
suckers clasping on the vital stomata.
Green blood oozes from eyes.
The truce was transient.
Childless earth throws up the flames.
A young girl
Blossom From the Concrete
Her Pretty Curls
Fallen from the streets
Taken by a loved stranger
Her most prized possession
Her family doesn't since danger
She hides his confession
Should she forgive him even though he deceived her
Or should she tell the the secret and have nobody believe her
She decides to silence herself but til this day it haunts her
She thought moving would help but in her dreams he taunts her
Maybe it was a good thing that she kept his darkest secret
But she has a goal and she's not afraid to reach it
How do you say sorry for doing a wrong
you use that word so many time but what else can you say to
express the way you feel inside
how cn you show he,s on your mind and what
do you say to him to show that love inside
cause he would not call he would not write and your call is not answer so
you can,t tell him how you feel inside
so how to you say sorry and tell him how you feel inside
just say it and dont hold back cause he means a lot to you and you love him
so don,t be afriad just say you are sorry and how he forgive you
cause their is no other way to say sorryto the man you love
so just say it and make sure it come from inside
It's hard to forget the person you have loved for a long time.They say its over they
say you were out cheating when they were gone.You get mad they say forget it
your gone.Good bye you say thiers no more chances.You say what ever fine but
did you really mean what you said.I made a mistake but its a little to late well thier
gone for so good bye........I had a good life then I shouldn't have made that
joke.He said its okay well I donno what to say.he has lied to me befor.Well im
over that but am I really.I was ready to forget him ready to move on.I still loved him
but i had no idea what to say........he thought i was cheating.should I go back i
shouldn't I well i guess I will if i still love him.
Looking back, I wish I could change things that I have done wrong, Then if I
did, I'd open my eyes in the morning to the sound of a different song,
Sometimes I wish I could have tooken a different turn, Then If I did, I'd wish it
was the other way around, Though if I took no turn at all, I'd be headed back to
town, Sometimes I wish I could take back the things that I have said, Through my
mistakes I have learned to repent, For I have done my share of crimes, Though if
I did not learn from my mistakes, two nickels would not equal a dime,
When all is said, When all is done we can not change the past, Though we can
set our minds to remember good memories that come to pass, Without
memories we are not able to tie notts in a rope, That help us pull in the ryes of
love that feel us full of
I walked up on a hill and looked up high
What I thought I saw was heavens eyes.
Mysterious blue and misty green,
Full of life and children's dreams.
Starring deeply into the eyes,
I suddenly broke down and wanted to cry.
Soaring deeply into the eyes, I knew
I had only one minute to live my life.
Looking down on earth,
I saw my friends, I saw my family,
And I saw my enemies.
If only I would've said I love you
Or please forgive me, one
More time, it might have changed
My very own life.
As the children were dancing and
The Angels were singing,
I knew everything would be all right,
As I floated on up to Heavens Eyes!