Wife's Dilemma

When I joined the Army - it was not by my desire. Blinded by his love and charm - I jumped into the fire. I had recently lost my Grandma - my will was easy enough to bend. So I agreed to join the Army and hoped that there my pain would end. The Recruiter had made the Army sound to good to be true. And when I arrived at Basic - I saw a different view. Being screamed and yelled at - morning, noon, and night. Realized a little late - that this decision wasn't right! Since I said I'd serve four years - I'm surely stuck in hell. Only when this is all over - will I again be well. Write to my husband often - to keep my sanity. Never really knowing - that he no longer wanted me. Arriving at Indiana now my job for to learn. I was still expecting his love for me to burn. All this time away from him - I've surely missed his touch. If I had seen this coming - would it have hurt this much? When he arrived in Germany - I was happy beyond measure! To hold in my arms again - what was my greatest treasure! In June of '92 the Army I did leave. Still not knowing yet that my husband could deceive. Moving in with his Mother was what we did decide. And it seemed that his true self from her he could also hide. After all we'd been through still didn't want to leave the Marriage course. But realized after much soul searching - the only answer was Divorce. I have often been told that for everything there is a reason. All things must be allowed to come and go in there own season. Do not feel sorry for me - a new life I have since found. One more gratifying - to which I am forever bound!