Whether I Never Have You

I see you so clearly it's as if you were on the other side of my window pane. We share the same pain and fears we are both like children afraid of needles in the doctor office. But wipe the tears off your face. I am here now. I can't tell you how much I care. To me your outside features don't really even matter. I saw rainbows after a heavy storm when we exchanged words. Around you I get so mixed up like cake batter. Your presence challenged everything I once believed. Like a mother giving birth new ideas you concieved in me. You showed me how the stars could align in a different way. I never once looked for you and like they said you found me. But I have to be patient with you because you haven't yet realized how good together our dynasties could be. I have cultivated a plan to be friends first we can paint each other slowly and when we dry hopefully we end up together. I'm just glad I met you. Whether I never have you or whatever.