Use Me Indefinitely,Lord

This heavy heart of wanderer rode on the unremitting winds of sin... riding on waves that only lulled my many unsurmountable fears and with no wings to hold me up, I couldn't notice I was drifting past hope; the distant sun brilliantly shone, unable to reach those dark places within... Use me indefinitely,Lord... and make that bond stronger, which was lost when I was younger; use me indefinitely,Lord... to amend the unkept promises and the false will to live... but looking to others for advice, it all added up to wordly lies! Why haven't I yet been blessed... to share my blessings with others, and be shielded from my enemies with that invincible sword called,"Faith."; why haven't I given up all the earthly joys... to look up and cleanse me of all ugliness? Use me indefinitely,Lord... to never go back to those alluring ways: to appease human behavior and bypass a peaceful and long life ; use me indefinetely,Lord... at least,there is one left to be redemeed by remorse and guilt, and proclaim you shamelessly!