Reflection

Walking around the house listening to my breathing in the quiet wondering when it all changed was it there all along or did it just change over time feeling alone and confused knowing it is all wrong and it can't be right again heart hurts when does the pain go away or does it just linger like an old ache pictures surround me kids laughing memories abound a decade and more depicted in pictures yet the true story remains unspoken clinging to the happier memories hearing the laughter in my head knowing I can't fix it anymore wondering when I stopped trying Feeling like an outsider watching my life continue day by day hour by hour clock ticking at 3 am and wide awake listening to your snore and talk dreams chase you in sleep hopefully we can meet in the middle and find some peace.....