Suicidal Sillouette

i'd drifted suddenly off the banks of reality sinking deeply into calmness resting on the coastal shores withered so catering to a bright beacon allure coming from high steeples and chanting light houses the infamous waves calling my name as i lingered solely on the rough tides why i'd gestured nothingness while darkness traumatic events plagued my wretched soul i'd soon forget life's sweet nectar of meaningful gifts how i soon began to blend with the earths own needs separating bodies of oceans gathering sources of energies creeping back over the sandy beaches leaving craters throughout hidden cavities on stone surfaces mental malice had finally become a shattered memory leaving my flesh dangling out to sea drowning within my own tears