Sugar Coat

This pain in my heart goes far beyond my pout I'm in need of a drainage that's how deep the bleeding in my soul is raining I used to be a nice girl Now I'm the statistic I never knew how far the transmorphication had gone until I saw the disappointment in my mother's eyes It showed me I was less loved They flickered cold and sad When they rested upon me As if she remembers the daughter she once had I'm disappearing and it's quite sad I remember what I used to be This new girl shall be the death of me Sin leaked in through open wounds pretending to soothe I trusted it's deceit I liked what evil was doing to me Such power oh what a rush never seeing that inside I was changing God no longer laid any fingers on this future delinquent that I was becoming the shimmer in my eyes went out like two dead light bulbs and I barely survived the struggle Before I realized how deep the devil had pulled me under I know now that I need my mother I'm not gonna sugar coat the pain cause life isn't candy it's demanding and it can turn a good girl out Like pimps do to their prostitutes and I wonder everyday if I will continue to sway I grow numb thinking about what will happen if I don't make a change