Where would I dine inside your heart
If I have felt love then I have feared pain
And If I have feared pain then I have tasted lust..
Where would I be had I not tasted your lips,
Had I not felt you sacredly inside?
You took over my being and held me captive till I could not see
And you stripped away all that I once knew.
I gave myself to only you
and you took that knowledge and ran away with my still beating heart
You coveted me with words of, "you knew"
"love", and, " I didn't mean to hurt you".
I shed so many tears longing just to have you
And you laughed in my face silently
Oh, what I wouldn't have given to be stronger in those earlier day's
and to see the sign of regret on your face.
I touched your malice
and I glimpsed into your black soul
I yielded the pain that kept your heart inside those walls
and I made you want to love again.
This was my pentence
Making all that have left me behind see they could truly love again
And from my past live's the pain I had dealt
Had now become my own.
I begged them not for forgiveness
Cause all that had been done to them
They had the gratification of doing it back to me.
Eternally I am sorry,
Have I not been punished enough?