Painted Gray, a Castle

If the world needed saving with just one line would I be the one to tell it To spare someone's feelings, would I rearrange the question it would've been a smart decision for now I, I now own a castle painted gray, a castle built for the scum of the earth Just the perfect setting for me I claim myself part of the innocence well it's the image I want to portray but I could never it's in the chronicles of my never I wrote last Halloween I've done way much more than my fair share of damage and this adds to the list... I wish I could say I'm sorry but all my heroism is resting inside my cowardice I know I was brutally cold...I never meant to be so cold... The truth was better kept secret and fury is the gale of the storm swinging my way I'm going to take it like a man I won't say anything, nothing at all I don't wish to be at fault again... Nothing ever goes the way it should it's a gigantic boomerang that keeps impaling me in my stony face a notion I've tried to resist too bad, I know it all too well I've been living like this for 3 years now Hear me now, here and now I'm sorry, I realize I sound similar to a broken record in the attic I always mean what I say, my thoughts whisk me away I'm not cold-hearted, just cold blooded still confused because reality keeps kicking me down surrounded by silence, maybe that's what I need but my mind is the quietest place I've visited and I can always hear the echos of my thoughts The echos of a song I heard in the morning all is irrelevant now my world keeps collapsing and repairing the flower garden I planted withered yesterday for the melancholy, sadness mixing in the air Lying is not my strongest point nor do I want it to be Being sweet and kind has always been my motto but it's more of a weakness since society treats it as one This is a broken serenade a broken serenade too far-fetched and from the answer This is a shifting slideshow of a half version of an apology and a symphony of pain it is to be losing all I promised to keep together There's no reason for me to be forgiven I'm a deserted wolf in a human body A body that has a beating heart a beating heart that says I'm in love with you