One Song, One Challenge

I wish I would've known, could've found the one song that would...tell me...everything I already know the one song that would explain perfect rhythm why...why I... What do I care, this happy ever after ending I fantasized this happy ever after I ate from the dinner table of Disney this happy ever after I tried to make real it's over, been over for months it's been over, I can acknowledge it's been over, I thought I could handle thought I accepted it when I took on the challenge known as... Was it worth it, worth it all in the end I'd say ask these tears threatening to rush down my face but no, not here, not today she's there, right there across from me now staring into my eyes, I can feel her gaze and I can't dare turn away We're months apart yet our synchronized till taunts, haunts me I hate thinking, feeling this well over this so I thought I would be but with her so close, her voice a few feet away I'm trying to run away in language but this is math and I just can't work I'm over her, it's what I'm making myself believe still it doesn't excuse her from raining hail on my good days with her very presence it doesn't excuse these roses blooming in my hands when I just want to toss them and watch a million feet trample them instead of trampling me