Oh, You Don'T Know....Part 2

Where did I leave off? Oh, yeah...conditions...Next up is Arthritis- this only in last year or so- endless, 24/7 chronic pain...Even in bed...it brings tears to my eyes...and nothing less than a strong Vicodin does anything...and I rarely get that because it's addictive, and controlled...once, not long ago, at my old house in Queens, during a jam, a guitarist asked if he could have one, his back was troubling him, I said okay....later, after they left, I went down for a dose due, and low and behold, he took the entire jar...near 30 pills....next time he came you should'a heard my greeting...never saw him again...back to conditions...when this cancer thing started, I became severely depressed, and sleepless- chronic insomnia these many years- typically, I am awake 5-6 days, and once for 8...let me tell you, your mind turns to oatmeal....you haven't a clue...it is not pleasant, especially if you are in constant chronic pain....Woweee!!! I was prescribed sleeping pills (Ambien)- and it worked, but again a controlled substance, addictive, I admit to it doing that to me...and I have been long cut off from it, I would wind up using a months supply in a week, as my body got used to it....so here we are....watchin' TV in bed thru the night...ugh,,..this delight came with it's twin, depression....a new customer for it...together, it's a good thing I don't have a gun (seen too many murders up close..another story...) cause I have been in psych wards for this feeling...the balance I'll just name, they should be familiar to everybody...continued