New Year, New Start.. Untill One Thought (Unfinished)

A new year means a new start A chance to mend a once broken heart Being brave and taking part Trying this year to not fall apart Things seemed to be going well On things from last year i did not dwell I learnt to stop and not to yell But then i remembered our last farewell Untill this point things were fine People were happy I'd drawn a line Life again had started to shine But just one thought and i'm in firing line Out of nowhere this thought came Suddenly my mind was full of shame Upon myself i felt blame And without guilt this thought grew aflame The thought that came made me smile Friends unaware were fine all the while My mind itself starts to beguile And doubts the memories that were hostile