Never-Ending Struggles

I try to laugh, and live a little Only to find myself punished Once again, my life seems to end With all the overwhelming blemishes When refined, to this dreadful place Is when my heart unfolds Trashing and crying, serenity is dying Life is a never-ending black hole To strangers, I'm strong To friends, I'm misunderstood To siblings and soul-mates, I'm falling to pieces I don't know why, It became so easy to lie, To say it's all fine, When I'm losing my mind To try to move on, When it's all that you want To attempt to fix the past, Because mistakes happened too fast But the regrets don't repent And the sadness won't cease So why even try- To be happy in the least?