My Terrible, But Beautiful Love

I am all alone, I can not take this. No one at all can know what I go through. So long since I have felt a time of bliss, Never in my life, have I felt this blue. I beg my heart to just let me die here. I wish I could go to my friends and cry. Will not shed tears, for I will not be near. I must leave this cold world and say good bye. Fade fast, as I kill this pain caused from him. I love it how each pill slows my mind down, Feel it, I am so dead, it's all for Jim. My pain is gone, do you think he will frown? I wake to meet his eyes, I am not dead. Did not mean to hurt me, we are in love.