My Mind, Confused

My mind says no but my heart says yes Is an old timely excuse, I must confess But I now finally understand why one uses this To explain their perfidy while they remain in bliss I try by all means, to remain faithful to one But another comes along and just makes the matter that more fun She came in, her intentions at first I did not know My life already unstable, my mind began to flow The way she entered, graceful with one thought in her mind this I knew I could tell she was a virgin and at this my mind flew But she was willing to willing….to be caught within my embrace And I could not resist the temptation as I saw - longing written on her face Although she was only but a child of sixteen and I was much older Her maturity drew me near and things, were far less colder I resisted for as long as I possibly could But she persisted and there I stood Helpless in her man eater ways And I suddenly “forgot” what my wife would say If she ever saw me in the hands of another If she ever saw me caught beneath the covers I knew she would be distraught, saddened by my act For thus far she has remained flawless, faithful within our pact But still I allowed my unforgiveable desires to grow stronger I ignored all moral sense and could resist, no longer We stayed together that night And she was indeed quite a sight For a virgin I was impressed and questioned that innocence I assumed she once had But I brushed the thought, for the feeling I shared for her and with her was not bad I promised myself that I would not let myself go astray yet again But her scent now lingers, in my sheets, forever stained I held her close, as she slumbered and was thankful that my wife was not within my domain And was admittedly fearful for her pain If she ever knew that I was this way The same way I was with her to another on this day Her heart would break as this truth continuously swam within my thoughts She must never know but I did not know how to avoid being caught However despite my worry, I woke up the next morning…… as if she had not been with me That is when my conscious finally fell with a thud as I wondered how I would be free I then heard someone enter through my door Her voice called as my stomach fell with my conscious to the floor I braced myself knowing what I must now say My mind grew darker as she made her way As I saw her face, smiling and the ignorance blissful in her eyes I could not bring myself to let her know of the burden hidden beneath my disguise I will relieve myself of this guilt, this act of duplicity later on in life But for now I will enjoy my time with her and be thankful that she is still my wife