Lay Back, Relax

i closed you out. (close one door open another)- you banged & the wall almost fell. i asked, "what's this all about?" waited for an answer as the building crashed in. i heard you, yelping incoherently, trying so hard to be heard without even the breath to sustain your words. then suddenly, you stopped. it all stopped. the rubble settled. i wandered back out, onto the street. sidewalks changed their minds. as i walked, from destination left to destination right, i solved each problem as it came, based on instinct. (gut, heart, feeling, intuition) based on my not giving a shti anymore. but then it prompted me, the presence of another door, to instead of open, walk around. a single door standing precariously alone, i wanted to peek & see what was on the other side to see if turning a knob was worth the effort. i passed it slowly, eyes closed. but when i opened them, the door was gone. the sidewalk was empty. the world seemed unchanged. i sat to think. when i sat, i [it is here the patient awakens]