J.O.E. (Jumble of Emotions)

I need control, I need will power, I do too much homework, Not enough social hour, Life is funny, How it changes on you, Things are not like they used to be, When I get back, Who knows what they'll expect, I live in a nest called "my room", I only go out for food, drink, and release, I don't ponder about the present, I just do it to get through it, Sometimes I feel like not trying, I don't see the point of crying, How I see my end parallels to my beginning, I breathe in air, Breathe out stress, Junior year hard, no rest, no zest, I'm a living zombie, no boyfriend, no life, The people I like are oblivious to me, What is wrong with me? Do I have to walk around naked? Why I am here? If only I didn't feel lonely, Sighing, My mind hurts, I don't know how to change, But I don't want things to stay the same, Life is a lame game