Irresistible Faded Memory

My heart is crushed yet is hushed, I feel rushed, Six years was long, I felt there is something wrong, When I am with you, I don't feel strong, Strongly feel things are prolonging. Promises that you made, Nothing came along, yet it fade. Time is wasting into nothing, Nothing worth while to keep. We are still in step one, My veins are popping out of anger, My head is blowing out of pressure. The storm has come, My face is blank with no expressions, Should I run?Panic?Relax? Sorrow comes with a flow, The mistakes that I made it shows. Scared to face my fear, Yet is near my dear, Running without a parachute, Walking on the clouds, Not sure where life is taking me? Curiosity kicks in, Was all this a a long dream? I want that dream to be true, Your multi-personality is suffocating me, Feeling your unpleasant status, Makes me not want to be with you, Question,questioning, questions? You are unbalancing my weight, I have always know that you are the one, Until you ruined everything of my existence, With a long distance, Now you made me unsure, You are changing in a bad way, I am scared to love you, Because I don't recognize you as you.