Invisible
Invisible
I had to speak louder
Repeat myself five times
And wait ten minutes
Just for one sentence to be heard
No one noticed when I slipped
into a deep pool of depression
Until I was hit in the arm
I cried out in pain
Said nothing was wrong
Trying to hide it in vain
They sat me down
Removed my sleeves
And I got attention
For the little red cuts
I promised I'd stop
And again
Invisible
Invisible
I had to speak loud
Repeat myself over and over
In hopes that I would be heard
No one noticed when I reached out
Reached out to the world
Trusted a boy
And got so very hurt
One night
In the dark
He sat me down
Passed it around
Provoking me with his charms
And dangerous smile
And then alone
......I didn't know
Until it was too late
And then
Invisible
Invisible
I stopped speaking up
My words I didn't repeat
In hopes that they wouldn't realize
Each day I hid
Behind a smile
Each lie survived
Behind cold eyes
Each memory burned
Embers hot into my mind
At night I cried silently
Afraid to go to sleep
Terrified of my secret dreams
Saw him every where
Never been so scared
Cried always
And still
Invisible
Invisible
I drew inside
There I cried
Haunted by burning memories
Parents to never know
Their child deceived
Siblings and peers believing lies
And glare with hate-filled eyes
Never trust a boy
Not to hurt you
Cast out
So hurt
I only wanted love
Just a hug
Not this abuse
Which left my mind bruised
And again
Invisible
Invisible
Mommy wont know
Daddy wont be told
Go ahead, don't believe
Say I'm lying
But you, my so called friend
Weren't trapped beneath that man
Unable to scream
Unable to make him stop
Unable to call the cops
The drugs, weren't in your system
And you weren't there that night
Invisible
Always Invisible
(C) Jessica Trotter
This, I am bravely putting up, for everyone who has been through something like this.
Unfortunately, I am one of those people. My parents will never ever know, and I'll never
report it, nor share this guys name, that I still see sometimes. This is a true story. One
that haunts me all the time. I was 13 years old, when this 17 year old guy did this to me.
It took some time, but I'm better than I was, and I know that not all boys, guys, men or
who ever are like this. I know that there are good people, I just have to watch out for
those, who really aren't. Thank you for allowing me to share this. Love, Jese
Copyright © Jay Loveless | Year Posted 2009
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