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I Sat and Pondered

I sat and pondered the things I’d like to forget.
There have been some bad times -
Lost love, both romantic and familial,
betrayals by a few I considered close friends,
and the inevitable hardships of simply living life
including its numerous moments of sheer embarrassment.
I contemplated which of those many examples of life’s trials
I would choose to completely forget. . . 

Then I thought of my step dad, who passed away -
and not so quietly - those several years ago,
his mind stripped bare of any reasonable thought,
and all his recollections, whether good or bad,
reduced to the fleeting images of childhood’s ghosts.
At the very end, was there even a glimmer for him
of the recognition of anything at all?

I was not there at his bedside, but my mother related to me
the wild fear in his eyes 
as he choked for breath while clinging to life
despite his apparent inability to even grasp
one memory that would give him a reason to survive!
Everything reduced to the blind biological instinct
simply to breathe. . .
All who were there at the end with him
were praying for him just to pass
quietly into the night.

With all memory ripped cruelly away
and still  he fought to live. . . 
So how could I ever declare wanting to forget even an iota
of anything at all in my entire life?

Written 1/18/13 for Frank's Contest

Copyright © Andrea Dietrich

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  1. Date: 3/10/2013 11:43:00 PM
    Andrea, I believe this is one of my favorites of yours. Why? Because it's genuine, teaches a great lesson, and deeply moves me. "Everything reduced to the blind biological instinct simply to breathe. . ." this part almost gave me goosebumps... how it's wired deep within us (whether we like it or not) to continue living. And then comes that moment of clarity at the end. Life is beautiful, and we only get one... so why would we waste our time trying to take away part of ourselves?

  1. Date: 2/27/2013 8:41:00 PM
    I love this Andrea,,, reads a bit like my experience's I'm glad you liked fall from grace ;} xo

  1. Date: 2/6/2013 4:12:00 AM
    Indeed a good prose to read, Andrea. Sometimes we are morbidly fascinated by past memories which we can not easily let go. Congrats. (^_^)

  1. Date: 2/4/2013 7:01:00 PM
    Nicely said on this poem. I am making my comments short but want you to know I read them. Hope all is well with you. love phyl

  1. Date: 1/31/2013 9:39:00 PM
    Andrea, congratulations with your poem in frank's "Something to forget " contest. enjoyed the ending... pd

  1. Date: 1/26/2013 7:49:00 PM
    Hello Andrea - So sad to see someone we love going "down hill." Beautiful and respectful poem. - Gail

  1. Date: 1/25/2013 11:17:00 PM
    Stunning prose Andrea...such great wisdom and insight you show here, a true life lesson...the 'wild fear' line gave me the shivers and absolutely nails it...I have seen that look before...Congrats of course - Tim

  1. Date: 1/22/2013 7:19:00 PM
    Congrats on your win, Andrea. Great job! xxxRalph

  1. Date: 1/22/2013 6:19:00 PM
    Your poem reminds me of the Dylan Thomas poem - "Do not go Gentle into that good night". I ask you which Dylan do you like better - Bob Dylan or Dylan Thomas? My father passed away quickly a few years ago. Peace & Love Matthew Anish

  1. Date: 1/22/2013 10:06:00 AM
    I loved this Andie full of emotion!Congrad's on this fine write winning. Light & Love

  1. Date: 1/22/2013 6:51:00 AM
    congrats on your win Andrea

  1. Date: 1/22/2013 2:52:00 AM
    The instinct to live is very strong. Holding my Dad's hand when he passed away, I too prayed for his release. Your conclusion is a well posed question, Anthea. Congratulations on your win. Love, Su

  1. Date: 1/22/2013 12:10:00 AM
    powerful piece Andrea, congrats on your win

  1. Date: 1/21/2013 9:11:00 PM
    Your words are powerful, congrats on win!

  1. Date: 1/21/2013 8:54:00 PM
    WE often wouldn't trade our experiences for nothing in the world, good and bad, they are all part of us, and made us who we are, Congrats my dear friend, this was a very touching write, love xxx

  1. Date: 1/21/2013 8:16:00 PM
    This is so powerfully caring and honestly beautiful and loving...

  1. Date: 1/21/2013 7:54:00 PM
    Congrats..Andrea ... Seren

  1. Date: 1/20/2013 11:38:00 PM
    My At this moment I just want to cry... I was not prepared for this poem. Terribly emotional...and another fav!

  1. Date: 1/20/2013 8:15:00 PM
    Sorry for the lost Andrea, but this is really a touching poem, wishing you a good luck in your contest

  1. Date: 1/20/2013 2:06:00 PM
    This is profound and heart touching, Andrea. Alzheimer's is so devastating. It's so sad. This will surely do very well in Frank's contest. Best wishes. Love, Annalise