Her, You Used To Be

Hey there, uh hey hey there Sorceress hey there Sarah How have you been How have you been holding up I've been alright I've been okay Why I choose now since last November Why I choose now since last Thanksgiving to say a word to you to say something to you Well I don't have a valid reason well not yet, just listen I just want you to comprehend something understand something for the last time Yes, about the same thing I've been trying for years for you to see Yes I know we both know the whole story I've told it so many times in so much detail I remember all the memories like a 3D feature film Her You were Her to me You were everything I could possibly want Somehow you got into my head and I believed I've done nothing wrong and I believed that my world was only held up by the love I gave you I cast out family and friends to be with you I lost myself trying to keep you sane yet I'm the one who became insane I tried to save you while killing myself drowning in your sorrow and the thought of it all still fills me with tears Now I retain that growing fear that you will reincarnate and I will feel that way again I may have grown up but I'm still an 8th grader inside 8th grade is when I was on my way to learn what life was Do you remember the jacket I gave to you to wear when you got cold... You dont...guess I'm the only one It still smells like you... I can admit I used to be so obsessed with you You were everything I had left when I lost everything... You were all I had when my whole world fell to rubble but I couldn't hold onto you long enough but I already know how this ended Cause now 'the situation' is all you see now 'the situation' is all you think about and I've never said it before but it all made me sick because you were mine first but I've learned to let it go For now the situation is I don't care about you anymore I don't just care about you anymore I'm glad you don't say a word to me I'm glad you don't talk about seeing me I'm glad you'd rather be somewhere else than with me I'd rather be anywhere than have you walk back into my life I don't need, I don't need it to happen again I don't care...but for some reason but for some reason you're still on my mind more than you need to be Give me back what is not yours to have Give me back my thoughts give me back my brain give me back my heart I've erased your name torched all the pictures in my memory frame You were my only one I will admit You were my only one but you make me sick and I...I I'm done