Father, Mother, Destiny

I forgive you mother and father For your mistakes Will I be forgiven for mine? They say the sins of the parents Shall be visited upon the children So they have visited And I embraced them In times of uncertainty And ran from them in In moments of clarity Surely as the stone goes rolling Down a steep slope I too have fallen And landed on bottom Only to brush myself off To attempt yet another perilous climb A venture to the top Where I truly believed Love and safety could be found In a parents embrace Destiny however had another plan Because I continued to ignore What the universe had in store So I climbed And so I fell Perhaps it was my own pain That kept me trying in vain For I could not foresee That you suffered as well How could offer something That you were never given? The flowers will not bloom Without the water But what if you never received the water To give in the first place? Now I understand mother and father (pause) Fixate over what cannot be changed Bang your fists on stone It is your hands that will bruise Scream to the moon Yell to the stars Until your voice weakens Drink yourself into oblivion To suffer a sobering reality Inflict your soul With the blade of self-hatred Ultimately your heart alone will ache So you will climb And so you shall fall Although I will no longer Try to take Clearly what cannot be given Your love and safety Always will be hungered for But I have become a spiritual warrior Amid a world full of harsh realities And self serving persons I have learned to give myself The water for the flowers Love can still be ascertained The outside is cold But the inside is warm And in here I found what lay dormant Waiting to spring forth Now the inevitable time has arrived To put the burning question to rest What would life have been like with you? The universe apparently has another design (pause) Perhaps in the next life On another world In some other time There will be a new plan In the meantime Let go and stop ascending An unattainable hill From which you will fall Yes, the pain will still survive But it is love for myself That gives me the strength to be alive So I forgive you mother and father For your mistakes All that I ask in return Is forgive me for mine For I too am only human