Enough - Part Ii
The room goes cold and dark
My wife stands over me
The bloodstain leaves the telling mark
Oh why, oh why, could I never see
I truly loved her so
But something deep inside was broken
If only she could know
How the demon in me was woken
I was just a boy
My father towering tall
For every scattered toy
His heavy hand would fall
And when I failed at school
His harsh words would fly
Telling me I was a fool
It never mattered how hard I'd try
The only peace I'd get
Was when he took the bottle
I'd wait until he slept
Then finally I could settle
All I ever knew was violence
How was I supposed to know
If the voices would never silence
This torment would only grow
And so when I became a man
I took for me a wife
And taught her with a firm hand
A woman's place in life
With every strike I knew
The boy inside would cry
But what was I to do
I never questioned why
This deadly disease I had
My father passed it down
Was I truly all that bad
To earn his constant frown
As the blood pooled round me
And I heard her sobbing cries
Was my love so hard to see
I slowly closed my eyes
This thing my father gave
That took my life away
I'll take it to the grave
This I vowed where I lay
Never would I beat my child
The way that he beat me
His mighty fists swung wild
On a little boy of three
I beat my pregnant wife
Now here my life does fade
Oh please Lord give good life
To her unborn babe
This abusive life it carries on
Till someone finally dies
Surely he was wrong
Those mean words were all just lies
And so with me this vicious circle
Will finally see it's end
Released from this deadly girdle
Perhaps her broken heart can mend
As I slip away
I take her hand in mine
These words of love I cannot say
I hope she'll know in time
With every bottle that I drank
The boy in me would drown
Deeper and deeper the pain sank
Till the memory could not be found
I had turned into my father
A weak and hate filled man
A man tormented by anger
A sad and weary man
The drink would not remove the pain
But now as life flowed out of me
Forming a deep red stain
I knew she had set me free
Copyright © Sean Taylor | Year Posted 2015
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