Transracial Family Wonderings

I wonder what makes you tick. That quick shadow of a lopsided smile. When you slap the wall as you step by. Are these tics that make you tick somehow? I know what ticks you off. Disrespecting your sacred right to become you. Yet I doubt a Mercedes convertible would actually respect your healthiest you. I know what ticks me off about you. Your relentless denial of anger and fear and sadness. Your unwillingness to forgive yourself for incarnating merely mortal human nature. But, what about your unwillingness to forgive our human race for racism? With you born into enslaved heritage, a long supply of victim roles, every time anyone sees you, frames you, labels you, historical entrapment of bodies, by other human mindbodies contextualizing cultural enslavement of victim-enslaved minds, tics of anger and fear deep politicized and economized into creases of dark v. light exterior display. Does this also tick me off about you? Do I reasonably expect you, or anyone, to forgive an entire species of life for an oppressive monoculturally supremacist history of human racial enculturation? I know what ticks you off about me, maybe. My willingness to forgive myself for my anthro-dominant tics, habits of language and culture, disformation of EarthTribal love and healthy multicultural commitment, economic solidarity of politically cooperative mutuality. Because, to forgive myself of anthro-dominant blindness seems nondually inseparable from forgiving us for the absurdity and hypocrisy of racism and its anti-ecological conclusion of enslaving politically struggling life by claiming economic ownership of Earth’s Natural/Spiritual Commons. Ticking on, rather than ticking off, reconnects human nature within all EarthTribe RNA/DNA nature. Distinctions of exterior mindbody polymorphic landscapes retain polycultural healthfulness, while our more universally monocultural interior DNA landscapes of interdependent WinWin ReGeneration Stories seem to unfold more importantly more sanely more rationally more beautifully and truthfully, about Golden Rule Solidarity with political and economic power to regenerate climatic racing health with all EarthTribe’s uniting revolution. What tics me off about me is failure of multicultural curiosity, absence of sufficient love to optimize each relationship and each transaction’s cooperative opportunity to resonate more deeply, more ecologically, more co-arising tribally, together, co-habitors of Sun-fueled Earth’s richly diverse, and much-beloved, community of health, profoundly mutual regenerative enculturation, deep listening mutuality of trust-growing education, Earth-functional in formation, like evolution of heated organic composting networks feeding time’s further love revolution. All that said, what I know too less about is what ticks you on. Probably the about face of hypocrisy and ignorance and greed and terror and anthro-centrist racism that tick you off. Shadows of lopsided sad smiles. Slapping walls as we push through.