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The Fiend Within Me

Dark thoughts and desires are just that for a reason...human beings are prone to irrational thoughts, and we all carry secrets that drip into the blackness of our bleeding souls, extending downward below our fetal positioned graves. Caught up inside my morbidity, concealed the mystery of my subconscious, sinister stemming from evil, inside my dismal grim, I choked on regret and fed off your disconsolate lies and I believed them, as much as you believed... I wanted to live... depths bleed into hell shared defeat only for us morbid and alone Living is nothing but a curse, stitches on my wrists, and spirals down into the oblivion of hell. My contradictions are breeding with my veins as I prepare for the longing of your misery.... ...your misery is me. I am your distal demon, sucking the life from your brave intentions, my weak intentions reach a depth, so far I can not see without hearing your screams. Your shadow's are killing me, but I'm needy for the weightlessness you throw at me daily...nightly...daily...non stop recurrence putting me to sleep, way too young...I tied myself up and kicked away your chair, left with out breath, and still, no one to turn to... the fiend within me sleeping in our graves too young your curse inside me There are two of me... One.... broken and damaged...alone and afraid...yearning, longing to free myself from all the hatred bottled up inside my core. Fighting for life beneath the hell of destruction, worshiping black to find my grey..for there will never be white... Needing you to show me every twisted path I believe should be mine. May your breath crack my bones and your eyes tear my flesh to pieces. Then...I am one who will stand up for your wicked endeavors and concrete sacred thoughts of me not being able to live anymore... no more life to live broken you and broken me no more pain to give Date Written: December 27, 2015

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Sara Kendrick

Date: 6/18/2016 2:46:00 PM

Congrats on your win..Sara

Eve Roper

Date: 6/8/2016 8:03:00 PM

Congratulations on your win ! hugs Eve

Robert Lindley

Date: 1/2/2016 6:30:00 AM

You know how to let loose when writing dark! I once was crazy and walked in a deep darkness back when I fought with God over my father's death. Only His light ever saved me.... Took me over 14 dark, dark years to ever accept it.. A7

Nette Onclaud

Date: 12/27/2015 3:38:00 PM

wow, i got into the plot with goosepimples, laura... greeat stuff!..huggs

Lu Loo
Date: 12/27/2015 4:43:00 PM

Many thanks Nette! *smiles* *thanks* *hugs*

Lin Lane

Date: 12/27/2015 2:26:00 PM

You made that scary enough, but I'd help you tie that guy up and put HIM on the chair...then you may be Little Miss Sunshine! I'm sure Jan would help us.

Lu Loo
Date: 12/27/2015 4:42:00 PM

lol! I'm sure she would Lin! Completely fiction..by the way..I promise I'm not suicidal! ha

Jan Allison

Date: 12/27/2015 1:51:00 PM

Wow LuLoo I don't think I will sleep tonight after reading this deep dark sad write - the imagery and content is so chilling - good luck in the contest:-) hugs Jan xx7

Lu Loo
Date: 12/28/2015 12:48:00 PM

aha, at least I'll finally get to meet you!! lol

Jan Allison
Date: 12/27/2015 2:20:00 PM

We can have beds next to each other in the same ward lol:-) hugs Jan xx

Lu Loo
Date: 12/27/2015 2:07:00 PM

DON'T forget, this is completely FICTION!!! I DO NOT feel this way at all! I wanted to make that clear, otherwise I may have people sending me to the psych hospital!!! Thanks Mrs. Jan!