Darling, Look At the Stars

Darling is it bad that I don't feel the sun anymore? I'm afraid I've broken myself again. Afraid that someday I'll lay down and feel the need not to push myself to wake up again. Darling is it bad that I don't see the stars in the sky anymore? The ones I use to lay in the grass and look up to. The ones I use to make the same wish on every night they somehow disappeared and I can't seem to remember that wish. Darling is it bad that sometimes I think the walls are screaming at me when I'm alone? I don't do all that well in the quiet green room I have when no one is home. Maybe that's why I found peace in a razor to block out the quiet Darling is it okay to stop and not think for awhile? Just lay in one spot and forget about it all? Darling can I stop and think about you for a while? I think your the only thing I like thinking about. Being okay for a little feels good. Feels like those walls can move and breathe around me. Darling I'm afraid I'm not good enough anymore. I can't fix myself like I have been trying too. It's hard putting the pieces back together when I can't find them. I would search my soul and my heart for these pieces that I lost but I get so tired, I gave up. Darling is it wrong that I want to be prefect? Prefect for you and myself so being alive doesn't have to be a chore anymore? Darling. Don't leave. I've already gaven up on myself that I can't have one more person write me off. Darling would you be mad at me if I leave? I would never leave you but if one day I disappear you can look up in the stars, that's were I'd be. I've always found peace in stars. Maybe I'll be one one day. Maybe one day you will be looking up at one and it will be me. Darling maybe you will remember the wish I always wished while looking up at me.