Dark and Painful

Beaconing, it isn't at the end of thy tunnel Lifeless, my shame has been said and done Wither, my guilt is cracking into a funnel Parts fall into the abyss without the sun I've never been able to die and succumb Seductive indulgence is a shameful escape Breathing, the emissioned air is cold and numb So anti-social my faithful penalty molds a shape Claw at a wall and still find a boredom devour Thinking of what's to come but feed from hunger Yesterday cut me short, as I stood in the shower Brain damage from the constant downpour and thunder Screaming to a face of disease, the fetus has power Dark and painful this child was born Under anxiety the soul was torn.