At the Edge of Life 2

Sounds of horror in the raging night Gasps of fright Lots of fights I can hear your loud silent screaming prayers as I stand in this moment Your angry, hateful, painful thoughts in my head make me shake in the dark and it captures my soul in a careless way Voices of others is leaking into my mind Is it a gift from the lord?! Should I be grateful?! Should I help who I can hear?! The despairing voices made me age quickly The wrinkles around my eyes are growing as I grow. And so, it begins As I prepare to pass the valley of the nights and leave the earth behind, I give the wind a moment to touch my wrinkled face and say goodbye, with my sight frozen at the edge of my life, just a step to front will take me to an eternal sleep where no voices exist! A drop of the rain clears my head Parties, funerals, heart attacks, cancers, beer, drugs, running away from death, running to death...silliness!! Standing among all human in this world as death stand aside, waiting for me to climb above its balmy wings, with the relentless screaming voices in my head I try to cover my ears for the last time with my hands reaching the hands of god With my lips calling for help With my eyes looking at the eye of the sky, to the lord to whatever is above me with the higher power I pray for forgiveness which I need the most, as I stretch in the sun-as if the sun is mine- saying goodbye Step forward...flying an amazing feeling! Acidic tears from the depth of some growing despair are dropping from my eyes with the falling rain every tear feels like knives stabbing my soul though I don't know any more is it tears or is it just the rain; no feeling...it’s all gone. My life slips away from the day of my birth till the day I say goodbye to this world I can see every day I lived Every memory I have crashing at the beginning of my eternal sleep...one by one Lots of sorrows and pain Lots of joy and pleasure Love and hatred Hopes and dreams every story should have an end and mine will finish now... Goodbye to all gods’, human creation, to all madness, to all thoughts. Forgive me for I couldn’t help Wet, red ground under me, pain I can feel but not for too long Cars, children, screams, war, and fights!! Suddenly nothing!! Just emptiness!! Freedom at last!