About Me Pt. 2

I’m a man of my word, I always do my best to keep every promise, and I never make a promise I know I can’t keep I’ll give you the shirt off my back if you really do need it, but I’m no humanitarian I always offer others my help, but I rarely accept the assistance of others, because it makes me feel like I’m weak I am weak, yet, I’m stronger than I seem I am a rock star on the inside, but, physically and mentally, I’m a rock star who has no musical abilities At times I have self-esteem, but, I really never do I’ll say I believe in myself and that I’m happy with what I can do, but, truth be told, there’s always that nagging doubt, the lingering thought, the dreaded fear of proving myself right, and confirming the utter worthlessness that I usually find in myself I overanalyze everything I’m always thinking about something I love to watch people but I hate it when people stare I am a Christian, but at times I wonder if God even cares? then call myself a fool for ever thinking that way, as I finally see all of the things I take for granted that He’s blessed me with everyday I always wait too late to say what I’m feeling, or can never seem to find the courage to say it when I want to With time, I’ve grown too scared to reach for the stars, to walk out on limbs, put myself on the line but, I don’t want to be left behind, I don’t want to watch those around me grow and become happier, while I am stuck in misery I don’t know who I am