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A Mom, Three Girls, Two Cigarettes, and a Sparrow

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(In loving Memory of Jetta Larsen who lost her life to smoking!)

March 21,2014

Poet’s Note #1

Think of Luke 12 where Christ tells his disciples…

     ‘If sparrows are important in God’s sight
     We should not be afraid, 
     For we are more important to God
     In fact, than many sparrows
     God loves us so much
     Even our head’s hairs are counted…’

Poet's Note #2
I remember a phone conversation I had with Kim Ward, my ex-wife, about her cousin Jetta Larsen's eminent demise from cancer of the lungs. Kim asked, 'How could God let something like this happen to Jetta? ' And behind that question of course is another, 'Could God let something like that ever happen to me? '

If we are honest with ourselves, I think we all have to answer yes, He might, as terrifying and unloving as that seems at first glance. Look at what God asked of Jesus, His own Son, God Himself in human form (if the Bible is to be believed) , to die a terrible death on the cross as He did, as a living example of His own teaching, 'Greater love hath no man but that he lay down his own life for a friend.' Or look at Job, God loved him and still allowed Satan to plague Job's life. Or Abraham whom God seemingly asks to sacrifice his own son Isaac as an offering to Himself. (Though we understand now that God's intent was perhaps not to test Abraham at all, but to horrify us all by forcing us to connect emotionally with what God Himself must have experienced in actually sacrificing His own Son for our sins) .

If we accept that our souls are our true being and survive even death itself, then perhaps death itself is not such a big deal in the grand scheme of things. This seems to be God's perspective and He asks us to share it (to have faith) . Life needs to be about living and not about avoiding death. We are not to bury His gifts to us in the ground for safekeeping until He returns, we are to use them, invest them, and make them multiply. (I like to think sometimes of going to sleep at night as a kind of death. We die to the old day and are born into the new, where everything is potential) .

I believe that God called me to share Jetta's story with Mrs. Johnston, the wife of a Minnesota Combine Crew operator (who I didn't meet) . She was a stranger to me until that day, someone I normally would have just passed by. My prayers are still with her. Hopefully she just lost my address? Indeed I have seen many people since, smoking cigarettes in that same restaurant who have children with them and have not spoken up again, but without Jetta's story there would not have even been a first time. I still believe that God used me  (and Jetta) even with my fears and doubt, to make a difference in this woman's life, in that of her little girls, and now with this poem perhaps, who knows how many others? That determined little bird, who stayed as long as it took, will forever in my mind be God's way of saying thanks for listening to His call, for showing His love to a woman who is so much more valuable to Him than a sparrow.

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And one life’s passing, perhaps serves to save another? 
‘Thank you God for all your sparrows in my life, 
For all the ways that you tell me I am loved.’
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Part I. Harvest time was winding down, I was taking lunch in town, After spending six long hours plowing stubble. Washing up I met a man, Guessed he was a harvest hand, His combine crew, he said, was fixin’ to move out. He was wearing dungarees, We exchanged some pleasantries, His grease stained clothes revealed he’d no fear of trouble As I left to join the crowd, Well, the cafe was quite loud, Chose a corner seat where I would not need to shout. From my new seat had a view Of the whole room’s retinue, Men and women who make a livin’ from the dirt. A table seating seven, Which could have held eleven, Was where my new acquaintance waited for his lunch. A young woman with three girls, Blonde hair all done up in curls, Joked with and teased an older boy with a clean shirt. The youngest seemed the cutest, Still with girls there’s no sure test, It was clear that these seven were a charming bunch. Well quite soon our meals arrived, As I ate I still contrived, To simply take in all the action I could get, Even though I felt quite blest, How I longed to be their guest, What a gift to be their dad, uncle, or brother. Then, ‘Oh God, ’ there came a shock, And it hit me like a rock, As this loving mother smoked her first cigarette. It was like my best friend died And deep in my heart I cried As quietly she lit up and smoked another. Excuse me if I’m unkind, But all this brought back to mind, A smoking relative whose life was soon to end. Her choice couldn’t be undone, For her daughter and a son, Her addiction's death came too late with no one spared. God has a lien on my heart, He promised we’d never part, Required just that I serve Him by being a friend To others in my pathway, (Whether they’re pure bred or stray) My most personal assets always to be shared. I felt God’s call to action, But doubting words had traction I had a C-note that I concealed in my hand, Walked to the group of seven, Prayed all the time to heaven, And as a joke said, ‘Are you all on safari? ’ Told them I was a farmer, And attempting to charm her, Praised her family in some ways I’d fore planned, She beamed at the attention , Was surprised when I mentioned, That I also had designed games for Atari. I said, ‘You might think this strange, But do you have plans to change Your smoking habits? You smoked two after eating! ' She smiled, ‘Of course I’d like to. But somehow I never do.’ I opened my hand, ‘It’s yours if you’ll quit today! ’ I knew she could feel the Love, With one source, from God above, It guided her heart to miraculous meeting. She looked at my outstretched hand, Crying, ‘I don’t understand, This can’t be happening to me, there’s just no way! ’ She still couldn’t quite believe, And with heart out on her sleeve, She looked up at me and said, ‘You’re kidding, aren’t you? ’ I answered, ‘Give me your word, That these changes have occurred, That you will never smoke again, and all is good! ' She turned to her three daughters, As if to check the waters, Asked them, ‘Should Mommy bid her cigarettes adieu? ’ Well the girls all screamed out, ‘Yes! ’ And I really must confess, The mother’s smile convinced me she too understood. She didn’t try to hedge her bets, Handed me her cigarettes, She took some paper and a pen out of her purse. I guess I looked kind of blank… ‘Write down who I have to thank, ’ She said, ‘I want to write and tell you how I’m doing.' As I handed back my name, She said, ‘Oh look! They’re the same! ' And I found myself rejoicing, ‘I have done worse.’ Fifteen years though now have past, Oh, My God, they went so fast, There’s been no word, but no doubts am I pursuing. Part II. On returning to the field, My work’s promise was to yield A speedy death to any green weed still growing. I have farmed now many years Know just how to shift the gears Of a tractor which out-pulls five hundred horses. Things were going pretty good, When, by landing on the hood A sparrow made a mockery of all knowing. To start off the hood is hot, A place to rest, it is not, Yet he seemed quite content as I ran my courses. Engine’s roar did not phase him, Its harsh sound sure was no hymn, I was plowing fast over ground that was quite rough. He’d bounce forward and then aft, Even slide in the cross draft, But it seemed like the little sparrow did not care. I thought maybe he is sick, Perhaps his brain isn’t quick, Then I thought, ‘He likes me, ’ and I stopped feeling gruff. Some days I serve sea gull schools Circling my tractor’s dust pools, A moving smorgasbord of insects that rise there. My friend wasn’t there for food Which helped establish a mood Of brotherhood like I’d felt in the restaurant. It felt closer to caring, Something more than just sharing, Though glass stood inbetween, his eyes stayed locked on mine. If our dance was like a dream, No enticement did I scheme, The sweet gift of his presence wasn’t meant to taunt. When at last he shook his head, And into the sky he fled, I understood, by God, his visit was divine.

Copyright © | Year Posted 2014




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Date: 9/17/2014 8:16:00 PM
What a terrific story and poem. I really enjoyed reading it congrats K River
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Date: 8/16/2014 8:03:00 PM
Incredibly moving story Brian thank you so much for pointing this write out to me - it touches a nerve - my father is dying of lung/bowel cancer he was a heavy smoker for many years - gave up about 30 yrs ago but the damage was long since done:-) Hugs Jan xxxx
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Date: 8/6/2014 10:10:00 PM
Brian, :) The best policy is kindness and respect. Congratulations, on your "Random Acts of Kindness" win... Have a sweet day or night... Love LINDA
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Date: 8/2/2014 1:12:00 AM
Congratulations ! I want to read the notes and the poem more times. An act of kindness that came from the heart. Best choice for first place.
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Date: 8/1/2014 11:15:00 PM
A great story, Brian. I hope she kept her promise but your poem about her has probably inspired many. it was a great poem and wonderful win. Congratulations. Love, Joyce
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Date: 8/1/2014 11:41:00 AM
I was first captured by the title..a great story...Congrats. BG
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Date: 8/1/2014 9:05:00 AM
Very moving from start to finish, a true blessing. Congratulations. I also enjoyed reading about the poem.
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Date: 8/1/2014 5:18:00 AM
Very fine write Brian and an obvious first place winner ! big congrats !
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Date: 8/1/2014 4:46:00 AM
Heartfelt story with a fine message, Brian. congrats
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Date: 7/31/2014 9:20:00 PM
A beautiful choice for first place, and I can see why Deb chose to honor this act, and this poem. Wow !
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Date: 7/31/2014 4:40:00 PM
Brian, I love your story and the way you told it. Congratulations on a beautiful win.
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Date: 7/31/2014 3:25:00 PM
Congratulations Brian on your number one win. Done well. Verlena
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Date: 7/31/2014 3:14:00 PM
Congrats on a beautiful top win, Brian, my poetic friend!.. Hugs... Arlene
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Date: 7/31/2014 2:58:00 PM
An inspiring and personal act of kindness, congrad's on your win. Light & Love
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Date: 7/7/2014 8:59:00 AM
love this :) really enjoyed the read. so inspiring.
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