A Love - Hate Relationship

We were so young, when together we came Since losing your love, I've not been the same. Even now, thinking of it makes my guts churn I know I made too many wrong turns. I loved you so deeply, but never understood That you were my life and all that was good. Then when things started to come unglued You took the step, and a divorce from me sued. I tried to talk you out of it then Not knowing how I would live, or where, or when But I crossed that line somewhere with you As the lawyers lined up to get their due. You made me learn to hate you at times Forgetting the walks and talks we had in the pines. You asked me not to fight you in court "Just sign the papers." was your exhort. You didn't want me to hear how I made you loathe me So much now, you just wanted to be free. I still loved you enough not to want to hurt you more So, I gave in, signed the papers, you got what you asked for. But in doing so you turned my love into hate As ever since then, I would think of our fate. When we first met at that dance in May When all seemed so new, so airy, and gay. You taught me how to really love you You taught me how to hate you, too. Now, so many years later I still see Your smile at times, looking back at me. But your dark side is there which you can't hide Your fear of being left alone still lurks inside. Because the love, the hate, the loathing too All form a fine line, I guess that is true. You may not know how I feel about you now I know if we met, there would be no row. But there is one who's respect is still hard to place I see him each day, when shaving my face.